The blog of Ethan Edwards: a case study on anti-contact non-offending paedophilia. How an individual identifies as a "celibate paedophile" and lives with his sexual attraction?

Non-forensic and non-clinical samples of people with paedophilia living in the community have been the focus of academic studies only recently, as most of the current and previous research on paedophilia has been conducted on convicted individuals. Qualitative studies of self-identified paedophilic individuals living in the community are rare and do not make a clear distinction between offending and non-offending individuals. The aim of this study is to contribute to the understanding of paedophilia by exploring how an individual that strictly identifies as anti-contact and nonoffending experiences and lives with his paedophilic sexual attraction. Data was collected using an online blog, on which the participant reports his experience as an anti-contact non-offending paedophilic individual. Thematic analysis identified five themes: “Repulsion of child-adult sex”, “Paedophilic attraction”, “Sexual fantasies as harmless and necessary”, “Being in control of sexual urges” and “The burden of being a person with paedophilia”. The analysis suggests some elements that might be able to contribute further to the understanding of non-offending paedophilia.