Im proud of you for stopping the drinking problem and being brave enough to face and talk about the bad things you do. 

They're not necessarily all bad, but they still hinder you from reaching your full potential.

With time, patience and consistency, you could do many things that will make you happy and PROUD of yourself.

Good luck on that journey


(Honestly, I just woke up. This is not a thorough response, but I wanted to leave something genuine)