20F I am scared of being in a relationship despite being ugly I have had some guys approach me, I always act extremely cold so they can leave me alone. problem is, there are more attractive girls than me, therefore why would they be interested ? especially when the guy is far more attractive than me I also want to avoid relationships for now because at the end of my studies I want to go abroad and get loads of surgery to entirely change my face and become a new person. I am scared that if I am ugly, my future parter will inevitably cheat on me. I think about my appearance 24/7, I look deformed and extremely repulsive, I really hate looking at myself. I have never been in a relationship my whole life (except in kindergarten and elementary school but really it doesn't count), I don't even know how it works and I have never had a crush on someone, because I can't connect with anyone on a deeper level, I feel like I am maybe Aromantic, but really I feel like all of this is consequence of being insecure