Theists seem to think I'm "angry" at god. I'm not Had a recent conversation with family of mixed religion including Catholic, JW, and Christian-Lite (people use the word "god" all of the time and say how wonderful he is but don't go to church or read scripture). They described an 'atheist' member of their family who was "angry at god" for some physical problems he had early on in life. This led me to reveal that I also considered myself atheist and that this family member couldn't be really be an atheist if he was still angry at god. I then came to understand their misconception. They asked me why I was an atheist and I told them about THE PROCESS I went through to get there; where I was still supposing there was a god and wondering why such awful things like cancer and dementia existed. Why god allowed my father and his brothers to be beaten in Catholic school and had to endure sexual advances from the Franciscan brothers. The process of starting to have homosexual feelings at the age of 11 and how terrifying it was to grow up in the 80s feeling alone and "bad" and not being able to talk to anyone about it and why god "made me that way". Reading many of the awful moral atrocities in the bible... Recounting these things while thinking there might be a god WAS very angering DURING THAT PROCESS. But not anymore. As an atheist, I am free of it now. For that family member they were talking about who was angry at god, I don't think he is an atheist (yet) and I could totally understand that anger if he still believes... he's still going through HIS process, to what I hope, ends up being his freedom from religion