Fiancée (40M) and I (32F) had a huge fight Hi, So my fiancée (40 M) and I (32 F) had a huge fight back in July. The argument had started when after our gym visit, I am new driver and was backing out of the parking lot when my fiance was telling me about being able to deadlift 200+ lbs. I told him nicely that I am backing out of the parking and to wait for a sec because I am getting distracted. He then aggressively turned off the radio and "Fine" which made me feel highly annoyed and said "Babe!! Why are you doing this? I asked you nicely and I was focusing on backing up." He said "You don't want to be distracted right?!". So I was driving him and fuming and when we got home he asked If I was mad, and I said "yes I am mad because you made me feel like shit like I wasn't giving you attention." He then asked what he did. And I said (which I regret and I had apologized for) "You know exactly what you did." He then raised his voice and said "The fuck I know what I did". And walked out. We were supposed to go out the next day for dinner with the the kids and was planning 6o drop off the kids at my parents' house. But when we woke up we were still upset with each other..he then asked me.if I still wanted to go, I said sure and then he asked if I was still mad and I said yes, because I feel like when I set boundaries and when I get mad, he gets mad and then I ended up feeling awful and apologizing. He then said "I am not going to dinner if this the situation." I said "okay that's fine, I'll just go with the kids and sleep.over at my parents l." He then said "Oh fucking great, have a great fucking time." So I left with the boys, and that night I texted him with "we need to talk,.obviously something with our communication isn't working out." I came back the next day and we sat down at kitchen table. He asked me what I wanted to talk about, and I said that I am sorry for what happened, and that I will.work on with communicating effectively. He then said "when you left i relaizeed that i dont want this life and dont want to be a doormat, so for me to go through the wedding you would have to do two things: 1.You have to go to therapy 2. You need to sign a prenup, because when you went to your parents place it shows how vindictive of a person you are and that I want to protect myself." He also said that I was airing our dirty laundry in the public (when I never mentioned anything to my parents) he said I don't have to mention anything and that it's obvious. He also.said to not talk shit about him to his friends which surprised me and he said he talked to his BFF (F since HS) apparently she said that I talked shit about him and offered to send him text messages to which I told him that he should've asked to read it because I only.texted her twice when I was venting to her 4 years ago about him possibly cheating and a few months prior to our fight during vacation because she was the one (we visited their family) close to me to talk to. I then told him that we should postpone the wedding to work through issues , he said "why postpone?.might as well cancel, we've been together for 4 years and people will know." I was in shock during our conversation and when I had time to think about I ended up calling off the wedding. He got so upset and I then walked out. When I came back I told him I feel hurt and disrespected when I just wanted to have a conversation about what happened, he said I overreacted during the driving thing, and I told him I feel betrayed by him and his friend and he said that he will.go through the mats for her, and will do everything to protect his relationship with her. The next day he said he will leave for a few days for some space so he left to.go.visit his BFF and stayed with them for a few days. He was gone for more than a week while I deal with the house and the kids. He then called and said he found out that he has new project and that he needs to.go home to pack, so he was home for 2 days and left and was gone for almost a month. It has been months and what triggered me to write here is that last night he said that he is running out of time because the wedding is so soon (rescheduled for Apr 28) and that I haven't done anything to start the prenup and that it's worrying him because he said he will only marry me once that's settled. I told him I will work on it, but I've been up.since 6 am crying about it. I have a therapy session.coming up and I just wanted to vent. We wen to 1 couples therapy session, he said he only goes because that's what I wanted. Apologies for the grammatical errors, English isn't my first language and I'm crying while typing. I don't think I should go through the wedding, I feel stuck and helpless. What do you think? I just need someone to help me see what I am not seeing here.