content: Life seems really hard at 18.  Something most young adults of that age have in common- you always feel like "This situation/bad feeling is going to last forever". This is just because when you're this young, the concept of time is a bit different for you. As you grow more and more mature, you'll come to understand and accept that all things pass in time.  That isn't to say "Just wait around and everything will fall into place". You still have to be the master (or in your case, mistress) of your reality, and enforce your will upon it.  You've already taken action simply by reaching out to us. Change has begun in you- you will molt off this form that you despise right now and emerge as something new, something better, stronger, and wiser. And these traits will be what define you- and how you felt at 18 years will be a distant memory that you'll feel silly about one day.