content: Many officials say that when Hillary is off-cam  2672  era and not properly dosed up on her meds, she is actually very depressed about her sanctity of marriage being vilified.  People in-the-know hear her say how hard it is to smile and laugh without being pumped full of pills.  Big names have been told that if she doesn't get the nomination, she just wouldn't have any direction in her life and that she just wishes everything would stop.