content: thats kind of mind blowing, you're right ofc. Our training demands that we either submit entirely to a preordained persona type (the meditator) or not at all. We arent allowed to trade skills like that. You're probably also right about the reason why, it makes us happy and productive, and as such, it triggers overwhelming guilt. All meaningless programming. Its easy to find oneself saying 'no, not that activity, I'm not that person'...