content: Slow down man. You need time to grieve, lots of time. And support, you need support not drugs. So sorry to read about your wife, my condolence. What the fuck is wrong with your mother? Dude, you gotta distance yourself from her, it sounds like she has mental issues. Again, take it slow, take everything real slow. Don’t be afraid to cry, it might help, might not. The pain you feel will not go away with pills, it remains just under the surface of your consciousness. Like a crutch when your leg is broken, pills can help you get through the tough parts. You sound like you know what you’re doing. Stay well.