content: I can understand your reasoning for your martyrdom or rather sacrificing yourself and your morality for the furthering of your ideology/the greater good. However there should be better ways and also i dont think that your actions, no matter how noble your original intentions, will be taken favorably by most of the right wing, since their ideal for a woman is largely characterised by purity. Stay safe and away from drugs and degeneracy. Edit: I understand that this advices might not be the most practical in your situation