content: I feel like shit. I'm incredibly depressed right now and want someone to talk to. I'm likely going to fail one or more of my college classes. I wanted to persue higher education such as a doctorate but I don't think I'm smart enough. I always wanted to be a history professor and teach people about my passion, but the more I look into it the more bleak the job market seems to be. I did really well in community college honor role 3.7 GPA and transferred to a great university. However I might get expelled out of this university or academic probation at least. I have clinical depression and allowed it to control me this semester feeling lethargic and apathetic with crushing loneliness. all I do almost all day is browse the Internet in my dorm and I feel no real drive to live most days. I don't want to kill myself because it would hurt my family but I just don't see a future for myself anymore. I feel incredibly lazy and stupid and dissapointed in my self. If anyone has any ideas on what careers I could persue or something please post them. Does anyone know how difficult it would be for a mid twenties man to get into the IT sphere from scratch? Is it possible to train yourself and get a job in network security or computer programming with a computer science degree?