content: Confessions of a Degenerate Pariah "We are the dead" is all that comes to my mind as the pieces fall into place. We enter the apartment. I have been preparing for this moment for months, no, years. I am accompanied by a young, inexperienced woman. Though inexperienced, she has been prepared for this from a very young age. She comes from a line of women that have been catering to these kinds of perversions for generations. Discretion is of the utmost importance. Both of us know that we cannot speak about what we are about to do to anybody and we are prepared to take it to our graves. A crucial part of this arrangement is that this all takes place in another country. We absolutely cannot risk being recognized by anybody. If my friends, family, or co-workers knew about my plans, they would be absolutely disgusted, shun me, and never speak to me again, no matter how much I pleaded or how much I tried to rationalize my twisted ways of thinking to them. Needless to say, I have already taken a massive financial burden setting up this arrangement and have even committed to continue my investment. I am that possessed by these sick urges. As we enter the room, I have some last doubts. What would happen if I were to be caught? Who can tell what they would do to me if word got out? Even if I could keep it a secret in this moment, there are too many people that could put two and two together and tell what is really going on. The implications of that would be worse than a death sentence. But it has already been decided. I am too far gone. For years I have had those fantasies, and now I can finally make them reality. I finally stop caring about the consequences and just let it happen. Over the next half-hour, I do unspeakable things to that woman. I do not believe any of the things we did during that time frame were even legal. Yet, there are no boundaries, no protection, not a care in the world for any eventualities. After it is all done, I rest in supine position and pull the blanket over my body. We briefly chat about what we are going to do on the second day of our honeymoon as we fall asleep.