content: I made a decision Let me explain. Today since i woke up i did absolutely nothing useful for my life, all i did was mindlessy wander between twatter, youtube, playing videogames, reddit, checking the news online and repeat.  More or less three hours ago i started to feel really uneasy, sad, angry, nervous. I took my k-way and walked out in the rain, i walked like that with no aim whatsoever, just listening to music and looking at buildings, people, parks (i live in a big european city). I felt various emotions and thougt about a lot of things, at one point i was almost crying, but i didn't.  Now maybe you might be thinking that i'm going insane, if i was on reddit the top comment would be someone suggesting that i go to (((therapy))), but the answer is no to both things, instead, when i came back home and took a shower, i took a decision.  I have deleted twatter and reddit, i won't visit jewtube anymore, i will look at the news only once a day and at least for now i will completely stop gaming. I will use all the time that i previously wasted on this shit, and i will study for my degree, go the gym and cultivate my friendships and relationships (things that i already do fairly well) but also i will begin again to read: i want to read Heidegger, Hitler, Gentile, Rosenberg, Nietsche, Hegel, Fichte; i want to read about geopolitcs and history and a lot more. I was a great reader when i was in middle school but after it's been more and more difficult. If i could stop smoking, stop watching porn and put on 15kg i can do that easily.  Sorry for the rant, and maybe you don't give a shit about what i do with my life, i will keep visiting here a bit because i've never found a community that i feel so connected with, and that is valuable. God speed fellow zoomers, we are all gonna make it.