content: have to get this off my chest MAJOR BLACK PILLED POST DO NOT READ im so dang sick of it all. the censorship. the crazy fucking retarded politics. modernity. technology. culture. the marxist garbage that has infiltrated every single facet of existence. social media. government. people. im tired, beaten down and hopeless. im back on drugs and have been surviving on cold canned soup, doing nothing but reading books in a dark room and frantically scribbling my thoughts onto paper with a heavily chewed on pen i stole from the building i rent a po box at. occasionally ill check some news sites, 4chan, or voat just to make sure just to see one more time if its really all that bad out there. it is. it always is. i check less frequently now. im sick, tired, but most of all i am a coward. i know that i should help to fight the good fight, to be a better man in the face of those who want me weak. but i am ready for it all to be over. so i sit on my bare mattress, surrounded by empty cans, hastily opened usps priority boxes, and dog eared books i will never finish. and i wait. i hope someday a real rain will come and wash all the scum off the streets, and i hope it takes me with them.