content: Also, should you start findiing success or even better heed this warning before hand. No women you know to be in relationships. Certainly none married. You might say in your loneliness well, she;ll just cheat with someone else. Why not me? The reason. So it's not you. You had no hand in it because you're better than that. Even in the darkest of times. It sounds melodramtic. But damnit...trust me. Ever since I swore off married women or those in relationships my life took a turn for the better. Once I swore of cheating of any kind...it got better. It's fine if it takes time to learn that. it took me longer than most. Since like you I was "stunted". But regardless do the same when you finally are ready. And when i say it took time. I mean YEARS. You WILL pay for your sins. But also, don't end it early dont worry. You'll pay and it will always hurt but...you'll be glad your still alive to move on grow and do better.