content: being retarded I have lots of thoughts about things I just need the outlet to express the things I hate the most. as of recently I started a new hobby. I've been pretending to be retarded. I've created a persona to make stangers uncomfortable and embarrass my friends. some have chastised me for pretending to be retarded but like any good hobby I don't give up on it so easy. maybe as of right now I am merely a novice at being retarded but with practice I will easily be able to visit a retard camp or the special Olympics and be indistinguishable from the other retards. so far I've been getting my practice from leaving voicemails on this guy's phone and mailing him my finger paintings. he doesn't like it and doesn't understand it. maybe his wife will think he cheated on him and the woman he hypothetically cheated with got pregnant and tried to have an abortion but just got a retard kid out of it and he's been hiding it for decades. that's not my plan at any rate that's just what it might look like to his wife. I just need the practice. but obviously he doesn't like me but I think I'm decently good at being retarded because he hasn't retaliated yet too severely, probably because he thinks I'm actually retarded. but eventually I will progress to the point that maybe I could live that lie and see if I can destroy that marriage simply by being retarded. that's real power there. where being a retard has a real world impact. most normal people don't even have any impact on the world around them. and here I am being retarded, and changing the world.