Dear Dragon- There are probably many of us who share your experience if not totally then to a great extent. For me, I abandoned the religion thing a long,long time ago - it just seemed so  wrong in a lot of ways, I, too, have gone down the spiritual route.  It has helped immensely. I do my best to point people in a direction to find their answers but mostly they don't want to know. That's ok, too. We will be there to help when the time comes.