I unfortunately cannot avoid the poor health part. They got me good, but that doesn't mean I have to stop fighting! That doesn't mean I sit here and have a pity party every day for the rest of my life! That would make whatever time I have left here even more miserable than just having poor health. I CHOOSE every single day to be optimistic! I can't do it alone, I choose every day to have God helping me! When I was at my one year post op appointment with my neurologist in September, he told me that I was stable, this is as good as it gets and said I didn't need to continue my rehabbing if I didn't want to, because I can expect no further improvements. I'm still doing my rehabbing and I am still seeing small improvements. I don't care how small, any improvement is a win for me. Just imagine if I'd quit. I wouldn't hope for further healing.  I say this to back up your words. I say this to make people stop and think. If I'd just stopped my rehabbing 2 1/2 months ago, I would have also given up hope. I wouldn't have decided to leave my walker in the car and try walking into church without it this past Sunday. I walked like I was drunk, but I did it! I swear the whole church was smiling and congratulating me. It's what can be accomplished when you make sure to keep your positive mind intact.