I know I’ll get hatred for posting something off topic but wanted you to know that I can relate and sympathize with you. My daughter is 28 and was diagnosed at age 17 with “symptoms similar to borderline personality disorder”. During that time, I always wondered why friends reacted to me harshly at times for no apparent reason to me and then realized putting the puzzle pieces together over the years how people with this disorder fabricate their reality which may be true or not to others. When I read the book “Walking on Eggshells” it was my “Great Awakening” like looking in a mirror. I knew something wasn’t right at age 4, but the physiologists/physicians wrote it off as “acting out trying to gain attention”. I always wondered and couldn’t accept how a psychologist/psychiatrist could say she didn’t feel “loved” at ages 4, 9, and 12, and intermittently medicated with retalin and adderall (misdiagnosed all those years by the professionals). People with this disorder have no “sense of self”, and therefore behave the way they do to survive in a nasty world.  I sympathize with what you went through as a child and God be with you!!! Unfortunately, I have 3 grandchildren; the oldest (11) lives with me; the second oldest (10) lives with her dad; and the youngest (5) lives with his mom half the time. I see the same behavioral traits in the middle grandchild and unfortunately she may be a unguided soul like her mom.  Since I’m now retired, I hope to write a book someday about my lifelong experiences with this disorder to provide insight and support to others. Thanks for sharing...  So, I guess from my experience with this disorder I can see how these satanic ritual abuse families think what goes on behind closed doors is “normal”. And then those that are under mind-control, cloned or robotoids, it’s to the next level in the matrix. It’s a very dark place.