I think I woke up because of the depravity that surrounds me. I only talk to people about this Q thing that I think are ready to listen. Interestingly, I had a pretty left of center friend say that she was trying to watch some movie recommended to her by her adult kids, and said it was just gratuitous violence and sex for no reason at all. She said, "I am kind of getting both bored and sickened by this constant barrage. It's like they are trying to outdo each other with how gross they can get."  I think even regular people feel physically drained by the depravity of it all.