You are not broken, your creator saw in you a special ability and because of it you experienced hell so that you could help or save even just one other person from experiencing what you did. I have been cause of 2 Pedos losing   717d  their jobs, and a school being updated and wired with complete camera coverage so that no child there could ever be molested again, and i did it without cameras and public pats on the back. I did it because it's the right thing to do.  Just think, if you can see clearly, what can you personally prevent from happening? You are now a miracle for someone else in need..and it might not be now, or it could be tomorrow, but one day you will have the opportunity to step up and be that miracle.