We all are brother, I feel your pain and will keep you in my prayers if you indeed have children.  I can't even bring myself to have a kid knowing what upside down world we live in where good is perceived as bad and bad is perceived as good.  All of this shit in the deep state/cabal/illuminati can be traced right back to Jack Parsons and Aleister Crowley and Satanism such as it stems later to Anton Levey which eventually leads to that pedophile jew Epstein currently today.  You are a better man than I could ever be for serving our country and defending our freedoms even though I personally feel you did it against your will for the bidding of these satanic/pedophile elites without knowing it.  God Bless you and your family sir!