maybe, but someone is posting.  Your puke of feelings lets us know, you are unstable, have no training in putting words to your feelings and have no idea about take a breath before you puke all over the screen. Fake isn't an answer...either are your feelings.  They are valid, but not useful, or helpful in using your brain. You seem to have something deep inside you that needs fixing.  I would recommend mediation or try kissing a girl, but in order to do that, you'll have to be nice. About 10 months of training and maybe you'll kiss your first girl.  I remember when i had my first beer, thank God, there wasn't an internet near by.  haha Also, GO FUCK YOURSELF...now you go...good luck :)