Gonna yelp a bit, not whine. Yelp. Then i'll be good. If im tired GOD KNOWS that you are. Sorry about no paragraphs or indentations. Not the energy to figure that out tonite. Bear with me if you so choose.... Not particularly a "tough" person, but can usually withstand some stuff. Used to caring for others. being the strong one. All that...  Im good i really am, but likely i am not alone in my sentiment. And i know "rescue" is on the way, cuz thats MY GOD. Dont care  if this helps ID me. after 25 plus years and counting (still) in EMS i am already known. Former vet, too. it all adds up. That aint  glory points, it is that ive seen a few things. maybe just a few. (if you are tired of this i understand, i respect that time is vital.)  So, dang, working again, gotta pay my (and others bills-you know-those "unwilling to work") and tonite i like hit a wall. But im good!  What gets me is all the haters of our land, they would bury US. tired of them getting off, it seems, scot free. They are covered in   money and stuff and houses and cars and cadillac health policies and and... I dont want their stuff nor their status nor their soulless  sold out lives. In EMS you about just keep your head above water. Yet God provides.  On the way home i just am saying God something, anything. I know they are not gonna win, but oh so tired of it. This with just   somehow being very physically exhausted (this grey head can carry some weight let me tell ya. Have to, likely work till i go to glory.)  seems to amplify the stuff in my head. Im used to that.  np.   If i am tired i KNOW that some of you are tired. No hero, but geez louise, it normally takes much more to wear me out to this degree.  I wanted to go home and lay my head down, but somethin' says: "Speak from this. Also know it is not hopeless."  I KNOW THAT. i was just startled how this sorta snuck up on me. I cant imagine what some of you all are going through. Brains on the  ground is easy (sorry). It is the MIND STUFF that can get to us.   No more. Now that i fessed my weakness (which is FINE cuz My God is strong) i know i will jump right side up and wade back into this  mess. We will Together. What is it, six times down seven times up??  When i looked at the Q posts for today, i saw the "armor of God". woo hoo! Got that memorized, by His grace. Now if i can just get the  whole of the 91st Psalm. i will get there.  AND i saw some timeline. Ok ok, i know it might be some sort of disinformation. It makes them quake (ha ha Q-uake) in their boots.  Somehow when i read that, it was just another prompt to be patient. Not to go off half cocked, but to know JUSTICE WILL ROLL LIKE A RIVER. Keep on fighting. Dont give up. ONE DAY IT WILL  ALL BE WORTH IT!!  Ya know this is spiritual warfare and a battle for the mind. I am focused on getting a "briefing " together for a group of very interested  folks. Gotta get it together not just some scattergun cobbled together pitch, but stuff they need to go out and do their own research, all that. (Did this decades ago, now it comes full circle it seems. All the memories from waaayyyy back when, i bet some of you all are getting that too. The Spirit said to me," if you were 'successful' then it woulda be for the wrong side. You get to use you abilities that I (God) gave you for the Right Side!' The Lord will help. Am i surprised i might be just a little extra tired? No matter. This will not stop US.I am done yelping now. The MAIN REASON i share this is that some point or another likely we will get "tired". THAT'S OK.  Just DONT STOP!! i know some typos, etc. gonna send this out, done. oh, mah b, but gotta be right: Psalm 24:16 "..falls seven times.."