Ok, thanks for sharing that. I really do appreciate it. And yes, I started out in meditation and mantras and chackra activation and went up or down into Franz Bardon stuff, hermetics... and then it was that I , too found that giving it any attention was actually giving it life and I backed out too.  Actually I was helped with a cleansing by Jesus Christ and Holy spirit baptism too. Full cleansing. Man things change when you 'know' from deep within you that you're loved. Way deeper than parent or spouse love. So different. Also, simple as it is; if you are giving your energy to focusing on one thing, then you can't giver your focus and energy to another thing. Impossible, we can only focus on one thing. So yes, giving it to darkness even innocently studying it is taking therefore your focus and energy from good, positive, light things. Simple logic and truth, I agree. I imagine you're saying the deepest corruption of souless people who stare at  you blankly because there's nothing there is probably the 'can't sleep' part, right?  Or is it deeper facial skin removal and sick tactics like that? If it's unique and horrid tortue methods then I really don't want to know. If it's alien bug eyed beings eating us or controlling our brains and actions because we are powerless to resist then I want to know. Shrugs.  Yes, we're the most tired at the end part of the race, agreed. But simply put I'm really tired of being toyed with with things are going on that we adults can't tell you because you're childish brains can't fathom it. Ya know? That's my point.