Sorry to hear about you losing family and friends. Seems to be par for the course for the awoke. I don't talk to my family often. Not so much because they shunned me for my "crazy conspiracies" but because I really just can't  relate to them.  I kinda hope for the day when I get a call from some old acquaintance asking me to fill them in about what's really going on. Not that I even have 1% of the answers. It would just be nice to discuss this stuff with someone who previously wouldn't touch these ideas.