Life During 'Rona: TL;DR but for some This Will Inform...Perhaps since i am going through this, and hopefully you dont have to... thought i would record some vignettes of this wonky walk: grammar kitty gonna have a litter of cats. TIRED or as is said around here: TARRED! You think your up and at 'em again and got this thing beat. WRONG. Down again, cuz ill be danged if i am gonna KI11 myself trying to prove: imfine imfine imfine Dont try. Save your energy for essential tasks like...breathing. Dark humor, my breathing is FINE at this time. I monitor any respiratory symptoms like a hawk. SAO2, etc. Any threat raise its head i take it out with a blowtorch. Well..herbally of course. oopsie did i advise NSFW? hehe writing this on the wing, so NO FILTERS Thank God for simple life functions. As i care for people, i already take NOTHING  for granted. I come to realize this is attacking me digestively. Weird. Concerning. It attacks either resp or GI. Have you THANKED GOD that you can breathe, eat, pee, yeah, pee. Imagine those who cannot. Fortunately, i am still firing on all cylinders, albeit a bit slow on the uptake, Again, i credit Dr. Jesus and His Holy Spirit BIG GUNS more than the umpteen other calibers of medicine that i take. (Some i made myself as i make my own apothecary, others are quality supplements given by some frens. NOTHING Big Pharma) God does makes medicine for every ailment. Coffee! Next one to drop something off via robotic assistance/air drop (just kidding) at the door, i am gonna say JUST BRING ME A DAMN GOOD CUP OF COFFEE. Because apparently some fine motor skills, (probably including thinking, walking...) are impaired by the 'rona. Right now i cannot make coffee worth a CRAP. It becomes some hazardous material. i drink it anyway. No appetite. None really. And when i THOUGHT i wuz hungry and a friend dropped off some KFC it was EPIC FAIL. Does nothing taste the same with the 'rona?? No, it's not THAT bad. The central issue is i am not hungry at ALL. And, no, i am not trying to entice or comfort or reward myself with delicacies and sweet treats NOR dairy. No bougie treats for me. Oh hell, i allowed some haagen daz: the THREE POINT SIX not FOUR oz. (sneaky bastages) 3.6 so i do not allow certain tastebuds to atrophy. kek I have not even attacked it yet. It sits in the freezer pretty darned safe for now.(still disappointed about the chicken...) while my hunger goes on strike, i am taking vast advantage of healthier food choices. No no cardboard crap or mass murdered PLANT LIFE but really, staying away from most unhealthy stuff. I almost said a real crazy thing. so i will say it cuz im crazy: i generally stay away from whites: white sugar, white flour, white bread. fake coffee creamer kek (oh forgot i drink coffee black) If this humor is offensive i dont CARE at this juncture. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED (earlier)... I am going to MAXIMIZE the various aspects of solitary confinement. while i recline here in super max, cuz im tired AGAIN i am taking it one day at a time. now for some feelz. ya know. i have come to regard EVEN SO MUCH MORE (who cut the damn onions??) the IMPOSED confinement of the folks in the nursing facilities. yeah, a lot of this is IMPOSED, and as a medical person i cannot deny risks with illnesses that can prove fatal. sorry if i touch a nerve or someones sad heart. sincerely not my intent. if this already plucks your heartstrings pass over the next bit... this is for others: RANT FOLLOWS IF SOME OF YOU ALL COMFORTABLE PEOPLE NEGLECT YOUR OLDER ONES, I PRAY THE POWERS KICK YOU IN THE ASS. I HAVE SEEN AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN ONLY THE ONE FAMILY MEMBER WHO VISITS WHEN THERE ARE NO BARRIERS. the one family member DOES IT ALL while everyone else sits back. When my Gma had alltimers they all SHARED the load. six months rotation for each, and she got to stay at home. EVERYONE pitched in. Even at residences i have seen the one family member step up and others step back. ok i will back off caps lock. but i shouldnt. when they are GONE they are GONE. you can enjoy the piles of stuff they left you after they are gone and you then stupidly fight over it. i have seen this again and again and again. Our fam had nothing to fight over and would not ANYWAY. but then our home life was NOT NORMAL AND NOT TIME FOR DRAMA. get this while you can make amends. if you are comfortable cozy yer parents worked and you are too damn busy i pray that you feel CONVICTION and SHAME and all that mess maybe even a twinge of GUILT for shoving that all on the ONE FAMILY MEMBER while you all smoke up a MILLION REASONS to not BOTHER. when they are gone they are GONE. get up off your privileged ass (yeah, two houses three cars..or more) GET YOUR ASS UP and get STRAIGHT. (some sacrificial lambs who have been doing it ALL without murmur or complaint are silently applauding,) it has been WEIRD dear friends driving up when i need a grocery or two . i am not "privileged" nor particularly "comfortable" and with my future assured in a future forever home i, dear sirs, am pretty low maintenance. so my requests are rare as hens teeth. so a fren drives up, drops said request off, shouts "HIBYE!" and needs to scurry. I DO NOT BLAME THEM. but it could be a mindf__k. mindfunk? (others around me would head swivel, whisper did you hear that. the eff bomb, oh Pastor gonna hear this. NO. Pastor KNOWS ME and that i shoot straight with some lapses.) been through enough being isolated dont trip me. but considering CLOSELY again, the above rant. IF YOU GET A CHANCE TO SEE your elders again DO IT RIGHT THIS TIME. as i do not intend to upset or stir up those who are grieving, for who did not hold a protest and get to have a damn funeral, you know. aint that the crap. the ones whose hearts are tore out with the absence (we know that broken heart syndrome is REAL) i see this and this is heart rending and i am a medical professional... I do not mean to offend you. You are the ONLY ones i would not desire to offend even accidentally. the rest can put their big boy pants on... MAKE IT RIGHT...i have my own regrets and stuff to deal with. but i never intentionally dropped the ball because of "muh wants/needs" i did what i could for my parents and only regret i did not do more. i freaking promise you. whew. about tired here but i reckon go on Holy Spirit power. gotta say i am SO PROUD of my fellowship. we are on the freaking LST's the leaders have been in prayer, what little i have shared with my Pastor and what he has been preaching is: COURAGE. so we could fold, we could RETREAT back to "safety' cuz folks might have had exposure. heard no reports yet (actually no reports of any transmission for a week. i am the ONLY ONE in my service that has this. Now i KNOW why the Holy Spirit had me wear my devil stompin' boots for the FIRST TIME the Sunday before i fell ill the next day...hindsight.) these days most would turn tail and change it back to either no gathering (dang its hard to type) masks/no masks whatever... we are fast coming to the juncture, no we have ALREADY GOT THERE. he preached that sunday before the monday i showed signs/symptoms he preached: "A LINE IN THE SAND" and PROCLAIMED IT. and ---WHOOP---already our first test. we gonna stick to it. we gonna stand strong. I have warned again and again of what we WILL face. this is a flea fart compared to the future of what the enemy gonna throw at us, so....ARE YOU READY WILLING AND BECOMING ABLE??? I "see" s__t, i "hear" s__t, i "KNOW" s__t". you would not want the job i have, ive been hammerin' out warning for many months. Not Fear, but what's comin' down the pike. Another Pastor called me the other day and said, you know you foretold the virus right? well i honestly dont think so, not that i ever recall what i say in the Spirit...i just say on. An our fellowship: we aint changing a THING. i told him when i wuz lookin' thru my Dad's Korean Conflict Dept of the Army manuals i could see why the Bear wuz still as tuff as he wuz all his life. Will WE be this tough?? we had our most powerful sunday yet, so some of you all know how mondays are after. payback. we assaulted the enemy, we got his attention. hah. but he aint seen NOTHIN' yet. sorta like the Band of Anons that WE ALL ARE here and across the Qniverse. might not be memetic warfare specialists, or autists, but we are ALL Patriots shoulder to shoulder. and WE TOO will draw a line in the sand. our church fam did. we are not retreating one BLOOD BOUGHT inch. i said, we might see decimation. (we discussed this.) spiritually, physically, emotionally, all that but that is ONLY BECAUSE we are on the FORWARD EDGE. we can all play it safe but in the end, as you all know: THEN NO ONE WOULD BE SAFE. This is why you all are here, too, on this platform!! (steps off soap box) i know this is a long missive. Up to you to have read it or not. i dont care, in the sense of how you receive it. just feeding out some info/IMHO. SOMEWHERE in here your patience in reading this will have PAID OFF. im done. that crappy coffee gave me a pulse for a little while.... GODSPEED. Troops heads down, scouts heads up. (dont now why i said that, just what i "heard") yeah, im crazy, but still kickin'. 16:15 07/17/2020 review and correct 0929 07/18/2020 time to sneak out and check the mail and go for a walk i have to get things moving......