Oh, sweetheart, we all feel that way at 22 (okay, all of us except those rare incredibly put-together people who have their careers planned from the age of 13 or whatever). It will pass. Just keep living one day at a time, and one day you'll realize that it's all sort of fallen into place while you weren't paying attention. Pay all your bills on time. Starting with good credit now will have an enormous positive impact on your entire life--it really will. And yeah, forget that guy. I know how hard it is. I've been there--I actually was there, pretty much, at 22. I thought I would never get over him. Even when I dated other guys, he was always sort of there in the back of my mind. Then a couple of months before I turned 23, I found out that a guy I was friends with--a guy I worked with, who was super hot and who I connected with really well and always had fun with etc.--was getting divorced. We started hanging out more, he moved out of the home he shared with his soon-to-be-ex, etc... Long story short, we've been married for 18 years, and almost all of those have been incredibly happy. It really does happen when you least expect it. And the funny thing is, my husband is not like The Guy at all...but he's perfect for me, funny and smart and handsome and fun, just a wonderful man and awesome husband and father, and I am grateful for him every day. I'm still FB friends with The Guy, and he's almost 50 now, still not married, no kids, still living life like he's in his twenties. It's not a good look on a man that age (he's still hot, though, I admit). There's a man out there for you; he may not be the one you're looking at right now, but one day you'll see him and he will see you, and there you'll be. {{hug}}