Thanks for the MOTIVATION I was good about keeping myself in shape up until now recently (last two years or so) weight just slowly crept up...now I'm a size 8, I used to be a size 3. I CAN'T BELIEVE I FIT IN THE OVERWEIGHT CATEGORY NOW!     I am 5'9", female, 180lbs. I used be 130-140lb range with muscle. I lost all my muscle because of sedentary lifestyle working from home and becoming a lazy tub of lard. I feel so bad and so guilty. My poor husband, he's nice to me and wants to have sex with me but I just never feel sexy anymore. He can eat what he wants and not really gain weight because he's very tall, meanwhile I've ballooned. He still thinks I'm beautiful but I absolutely do not. I feel I have lost my looks completely. I've become a bad wife.   When did I become so lazy and miserable? I don't wish this on anyone, and if I feel this bad now I can't even imagine what if feels like to be in even worse condition. I let depression get the best of me and this sub reminded me what I don't want to turn into.   So thanks FPH, I am currently getting ready to go for a run. Please please fat shame me so I feel shitty about this extra flab. I feel like blubber. I can feel the extra 40lbs of fat on my body and I want to puke whenever I see myself in the mirror. I hate it. I hate how I can't run long distances anymore or hike like I used to. This is both an thank you and a request for shitlording. My goal is to become a shitlord myself on here, with a verified account.