That's not my reason.  I just found out Monday that my shoulders are more damaged than I thought and the physical therapist can't fix it. He can help me retain a certain level of motion, but I'm pretty much screwed and I'll have another disease/disorder that will cause me pain for the rest of my life. I have done everything the various doctors have asked me to do. EVERYTHING. I never miss an appointment. I do the all the exercises I'm supposed to. I maintain my weight. I quit smoking. I quit caffeine. But still my body keeps breaking. And these people have perfectly normal/working bodies. What do they do? They destroy them. I resent everything these people are because they can have everything I can't and they are just pissing it away.  And they have the fucking balls to call me privileged. That's why.