I've been battling with an eating disorder for the past year. I've made strides in getting better and want to start a 1200 cal diet. To me 1200 calories still seems like a lot. I'm scared I will gain weight from eating that much and am not leading a very active lifestyle at the moment. I hate eating bread or anything considered "bad" for you (although my weakness is peanut butter). How should I go about starting this diet?  HOW THE FUCK?! HOW? How does this happen? How does someone bake cheese cakes with cookies on top and claim to be AFRAID OF CALORIES!?