A reverse high school story. I was bullied by hams for most of middles school and my first two years of highschool. Female hams, which is worse in my opinion because girls in general hold so much social clout in middle school and highschool. Also i didn't have the text book way of hitting back. It started in middle school when this trio of fat hams basically decided to destroy any shred of confidence i had whenever they could. If I did well on a paper, they would call me teacher's pet, if i looked like i made a friend they would talk to them to get them to stay away. If i tried to fight back their older boyfriends would swoop in and help with the bullying. If i tried to tell a teacher, they would cry and make me look like a bad guy. I was stuck between a rock and a hard place, and i suffered. It didnt help that they went to my highschool too. I tried out for the baseball team, and i made it, i also made friends with a few upper class men, and there were already passing stories about me in middle school, how they would steal my books or my yugioh cards to try to make me cry (it worked), or that i was a complete loner and everyone thought i was a school shooter.  Put my self confidence in the gutter and worse made me angry at everyone and defensive. I couldn't talk to anyone cause if these fat girls are making fun of me and being assholes, imagine what hell i would be put in if these skinny bitches get a hold of me. For some reason i had it in my had that fat girls were nicer. i got into a relationship with a ham and she turned out to be a needy possessive cunt and i stayed wayy longer than i should of ( 3 months) because i honestly thought that i didn't deserve better. That is until i had to this project for english class in the middle of sophmore year. I was partnered up with the prettiest and most popular girl in my grade ( a damn cliche' but thats how you would describe her) and readied myself up for a bunch of things, the disapproving stare when i put my seat next to hers, passing off the work to me, the overly nice attitude. None of that, we made a schedule, she gave me her number. We got our work done. We got an A in the class. We became fast friends, she saw what those fatties were doing and vouched for me, and through her word people were able to see the trio as the angry bitches that ive known for 5 years. I became friends with the popular girls and contrary to the vapid image that was given by the trio when they talked about them, they were nice, supportive, and genuine. I had more self confidence and i felt that i was worth something. That and i started to piece together whenever the fat girls were angry at their home life, or got rejected ( one of them offered to blow a guy on the staircase and he refused while laughing) they would take it out on me. To the point where i laughed off what they would say about me, "YOU HAVE NO POWER HERE" While they bullied me they always talked shit about everyone else, so i thought there was no one to turn to because i thought everyone would treat me as bad as they did. But miss popular over there invited me over to have dinner with her family, and miss "real bitch" tried to spread rumors that i masterbate to girls facebook photos. It took me years of work and counseling to get into my head that im worth something, and i took even more to convince myself that im attractive to some people. Thats where my disgust of fat people come from. I can see it in the jealousy in their voice, the way the present themselves as somehow better emotionally or mentally because they are fatter than the subject of their hatred. The entitlement over other peoples feelings, the fact that they feel like shit and need to bring everyone down to their level. Or maybe the crab mentality. The fact that they see someone maturing and becoming their own person and they needed to SHUT THAT SHIT DOWN.