Losing a pet is the worst. I lost 2 pet rabbits, 1 last year and 1 the year before. It's really hard, but knowing that they lived comfortable long lives really helps. I have both of their ashes too, worth paying for that service if you can afford it. I need to keep them around for a little bit longer, but eventually I'll disperse their ashes somewhere nice. The follow up to the Assanti brothers part 2 from My 600 lb life is on tonight if you're looking for something to take your mind off your cat. That show is my guilty pleasure.