I'm sorry for your loss. From one internet stranger to another, I just want you to know that genuinely sucks. It's fucking bullshit. It's unfair and it's not right, and more importantly, it is not your fault. I pray that one day you will have the child you desire and deserve. Don't let this make you isolate yourself, and make it feel like you can't express yourself. At the bare minimum, post here and vent, we have a different but good community here, however it's better long term if you could find a new therapist. Stay strong!