I think my ED recovering buddy is fat (longish) Recently, I've been having a hard time with school and stress and my family situation, and when I get stressed, I tend to relapse into disordered eating. I'll nitpick at every little thing, that my thighs are too close (even though I have a thigh gap), that I'm literally just a single pound away from being a sedentary blob. I weigh 102 pounds and I'm about five foot. Realistically I know I'm not fat, but according to the way I think, because I don't have a bmi of 15, I'm about to be on an episode of my 600 pound life.  So I was looking for someone who could help with anxiety about eating, even though I have a therapist, I can't rely on her for the day to day stuff. So I made a tumblr post, and I exchanged snapchats with this girl. She only ever showed face pictures, but I didn't think anything of it because I'm insecure about my body too. I rarely take selfies to begin with, much less have people take pictures of me. I was discussing with her something my therapist was having me try, which was incorporating "safe foods" into meals, to make eating easier. For a person not experienced with safe foods/fear foods- safe food is a term most people with eating disorders use to describe food they can eat without feeling guilty. Mine was fruits, a single spoonful of peanut butter, plain oatmeal, celery, etc. SO for example, for breakfast I have oatmeal with apples and peanut butter, which is calorie dense and would give me less anxiety than eating pancakes or french toast.  I asked my buddy, let's call her E, about her safe foods. She mentioned her safe foods were chips and chocolate, because they made her feel better. In what world does junk food make an anorexic person feel better? This has been the first of a couple things that make me feel like she's fat. The other thing is she'll never tell me her lowest weight, or anything about her eating disorder. I don't want to trigger her per se, but I feel like because I share my experiences with her she should tell me something. She won't even tell me how much she currently weighs! The other night, she told me she was jealous of me because people listened to me about how I have problems with eating disorders. Do you guys think she's a ham or just shy? I cant tell at this point. Leaning towards fat.