I have never suffered from an eating disorder, so I don't know what it's like, but I agree with this comment that food is not the enemy.  Eating is all about moderation.  I can easily eat over 1,400 calories in one meal (my all-you-can-eat BBQ consists of 3-4 pounds of meat, 2-3 bowls of rice, and side dishes galore), but I don't do that every day.  I typically do that once or twice a month.  And I feel physically like shit because I eat so much.  But I don't see why someone should ever feel "remorse" over something they've eaten and maybe that's the eating disorder piece I won't understand.  Even when I was counting calories and dropping weight, I'd sneak in a piece of chocolate before bed or a cookie that someone brought in to work.  I just take that as a cue to work out a little harder or eat a little healthier the next day.  No reason to feel remorse if you're making the conscious effort to put something in your mouth, proceed to chew it, and swallow it.