OA - Overeaters Anonymous So this is a throw away account.  I have to admit that I am suffering from bulimia.  For years now I'm throwing up or don't eat. When I see a fat person I immediately picture my self as fat and get sick and nervous.  I'm not underweight, with a awesome job, family, friends and a loving partner. But all I can think about every day is "don't get fat". Every second. Every meal. Every calorie.  Fortunate in the country I live, is the fat percentage very low. But every ham I see let me skip meals or forcing myself to vomit.  I now got health problems. Those kind I have to address immediately.  I had to realize that I have a problem. I searched for help. Getting a therapist is going to be not as easy as it should (for reasons) but I am going to find a way! So I search for an anonymous group. Guess what!! There is only one for OA!  FUCKING OVEREATERS ANONYMOUS.  I'm so angry and sad right now.  Those fat people are ruining their life just like I am going to ruin mine if I don't do something now. And I have to. But I'm so scared of food and the idea of being overweight. I don't wanna be like them or look like them.  Sorry for the long post. If you made it till here thank you for reading.