You new to lifting? It's literally a drug for me. I get actual withdrawls if I don't go to the gym in a while. My endorphins are kicking after the gym, and I always feel like a million bucks when I walk out of the gym with a solid pump. Maybe stop with the extreme cardio lifting, and go to barbell power lifting. Then it's all about calories in, calories out. Eat alittle bit more than necessary to be on the safe side while trying to get gains, then just do a cut phase here and there.