ALSO (sorry this is upsetting/#triggering) someone with a restrictive eating disorder (which fatties love to pretend to care about) , sometimes I wanted to pretend to go along with coworkers and not stand out being the only person without a plate but hmmmm my mental disorder made me scared to death about having so many calories on my plate. It had nothing the fuck to do about performing moral food behavior by consuming less. I was trying to do the literal opposite while being sick. So fuck you.