This is exactly how I feel. I refuse to associate with hams at meetings unless I absolutely can't avoid it. When I was newly sober I had a fatass "sponsor" who completely blew me off and I've come to realize that since I'm supposed to "stick with the winners" and people who "have what i want" then there is no reason to pay attention to mayokin whatsoever. I'm certainly not going to take life advice from someone who is still clearly dealing with addiction and destructive behaviors.