I eventually will make peace with this, but for right now I have to watch this unfold. At the very least my nephews will have an example of what not to do. Though I'm more worried about the kiddos watching granpap decay then i am for me. I certainly won't be having children within his lifetime for their sake. I'm sorry you too have to watch your relative go through this. If you've made your peace, that is wonderful, and I'm happy that you don't let it effect you anymore.