"I can carry it well"  There are a few who carry it in a slightly less visually disgusting way than others. Generally, this means they're carrying it around their organs, which is much more unhealthy and dangerous than just having it deposit on their ass. So it's even more disgusting, just not quite as eye gougingly disgusting.  However, at 20st, there is no such thing. That's some next-level delusional shit right there.