Why was I even friends with her? I don't know why I was even friends with her in the first place. This was before I truly became a shitlady, who hates fats to no end.  So, I had just moved to the state I'm in now and was new to my middle school. I was in 8th grade. H came up to me one day when I was sitting alone and started talking to me. We became fast friends and even went on a cruise together. We did so much together, she used to be a good friend. She was chubby all along but it wasn't until after I left the terrible cult (it's not an actual cult but I will call it that because there's something about it that these people are almost glued together and reject outsiders, including me because I left and graduated elsewhere.) private high school I was in when I noticed she got fat.  She invited me to her graduation party. She's a year younger than me. There weren't very many people there and I was shy because I knew these people from the cult school, but I felt awkward approaching them because I hadn't seen them in a long time. H referred to a friend (who is fat too) she knew as her "sister". Ok, but she did it right in front of me and I had known both of them just as long from middle school. She got all her friends, who I also knew, to talk about something secret when I was standing right there, and never bothered to explain to me. If it was such a secret, why be rude like that, and talk about it in front of someone else and purposely leave someone out? She has a pool at her house and we all went swimming. My god, she had gotten FAT. Cellulite everywhere. Yet she still wore a bikini, and complained about her body. For a while she had been ignoring me and never inviting me places unless E, our mutual friend set up a hangout for the three of us. I tried, and tried to invite her and get her to hang out for a long time but she never told me when she was free. She seemed to avoid me. Why I wasted so much time, I don't know. I should have dropped her sooner. I think I was lonely or something. I confronted her after times she had wronged me but she always made bullshit excuses as to why she did what she did.  I think she's jealous of me because I am skinny and she keeps gaining weight. I haven't been in contact with her in a long time and I'm glad. Fat people are terrible.