I got out of that life less than 2 years ago. Shocking how common it is. Of course I was no prize pig either by the end of it, with a BMI approaching 30 when I finally got the wicked witch of the beetus out of my house. Monk mode for damn near a year put me back in shape and a bit more right in the head (probably only a bit, though). Monk mode is over now and life-enjoyment mode is on. It gets way better.