I'm surprised you could even see the screen well enough to type that, you know, with the tears streaming down your face over people finding you attractive, and being able to go up a flight of stairs without huffing like you're Simply Sarah in front of a cheesecake. Having the self-respect to take care of your body is apparently a sign of sadness to them, giving up and accepting that self-inflicted diabetes is inevitable is what the seem to consider happiness.