Webcam Ham Wants Me To Join Him Okay so this just happened all but twenty minutes ago and I'm still disgusted.  So be me, on snapchat doing whatever. Lots of random people message me, it's cool. Some are pervs some are genuinely nice...whatever. That's not the point.  Anyways, this I guess was set in motion yesterday. My cousin (her life is an absolute MESS) signed up to be a webcam girl and is deciding on it. A quick back story to her is that she ran away at 18 to live with her abusive boyfriend (yet he's such a pussy bitch it's crazy) got fat immediately, got pregnant,  and now drinks to "numb"  all her feefees. She's insanely jealous of my life in social, sex, body, and brains aspect because I was always the "good" one and she was a problem child. Also, the guy she's with also gained a lot of weight, they have horrible sex, he doesn't get hard for her anymore and always berates her on her weight, and in turn she's attempted to cheat on him numerous times and bag a sugar daddy.  Tho wasn't so quick but I omitted a lot of detail, anyway she's all like "I'll be so hot and everyone with give me money blah blah blah"  and says I should do it too. I make a joke snap about it saying "my cousin wants me to be a webcam girl and I'm just thinking about getting the iPhone 7...but then I realize I'm too ugly and fat for that" Now using the word fat is a habit I need to grow out of (ED related) especially since I have to get used to the fact that 130 is a normal weight. Anyways, I get the "you're not fatttttt, stooooop" comments. But then, this guy...oh man this guy. I've seen some of his snaps, thought I blocked him but I guess not. They consist of the typical burlesque shows with "plus sized" dancers "performing" for equally round men. Also, the selfies he takes are ridiculous. Half naked and lumpy. It looks like raw chaicken in a ziplock.  Anyway, he messages me saying he does webcam shows and gets a lot of money. He also says how he's fat and still gets a decent amount so with a body like mine I'll do great. I tell him I don't need black fetishists to be around me like the fat fetishists swarm around him.  "No no babe, you don't get it. I'm an exhibitionist. They are not fat fetishists but exhibitionists. Also, I don't  get naked all the time, only when I make five hundred." At this point I'm disgusted and tell him to delete me.  "But baby, where do you live? We can meet up or masturbate to each other and make some cash. Plus you just turned legal right? We would make some great cash." At this point I tell him to fuck off because he, his followers, and his body are disgusting and that I'm blocking him.  "No no, trust me, there's nothing wrong with bigger guys. And you know what else is bigger;)" then I get a DICK PIC. WHEN I SAY THIS IS THE SMALLEST DICK I HAVE EVER SEEN I AM NOT LYING. IM BARFING AT THIS POINT.  "You like? You could own that. My followers would love an interracial thing" Suffice to say he was deleted and I might just relapse back into my eating disorder because I don't think I can eat food knowing it does that to people.