Oh, it's frustrating, depressing, infuriating, and downright heartbreaking at times. I remember how adorable my brother used to be before he ballooned. And now he's 23 with mobility issues, joint problems, and kidney problems. He's 23 and his organs are fucking rebelling. I mentioned to a friend that I know I'm going to outlive them all and he was a little taken aback by how "morbid" I was being. But what am I supposed to say? My mom's about to hit 60 and she has a laundry list of health problems. My sister is just a little older than I am and has joint issues and a ton of other health problems. And then there's my brother, old way before his time.  It had been a while since I had seen my family, and I was honestly taken aback. My mom was wearing capri pants and her calves were just swollen logs. Otherwise, she looked like a rotund, haggard mess. My sister? I swear she's gained since the last time I saw her. She just looked SO much fatter than I remember her being. To the point that I think I might actually be underestimating her weight. My brother had lost weight, though. I have three ham stepsisters and a diabetic stepdad, too. His blood sugar level was over 500 the other day. He does not care. I pointed out yesterday that type II is 100% reversible. Cue crickets. I never see the stepsisters, though (thank the good lord baby Jesus). I can only take so much obeast socialization time before I just want to go on a rage jog.