Seriously angry and upset because of bitch ham EX bff *Kinda long* People of FPH, I am hurt, angry, upset and feel betrayed.  For a long time now there have been issues with my ham (now EX) best friend, we are both women and she is 8 years older than me. I have been holding the pig at distance for a while now but the final straw has been tonight.  For context, it is important for you to know that I have never had a good self esteem until the past 3 months or so, I have had serious mental health problems (Including Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder and Psychosis) for over 10 years and I am currently in therapy, on a lot of medication and in the care of a few different professionals. While I still suffer I am a great deal better than I was and I have genuinley been very happy since August after a trip I think saved my life) I am 23 and I am trying to get my life together, I am hoping to re-join university next January (I had to go on sick leave in Feb 2014 as I had a mental breakdown :/ ) and start Ballet. I have been with my SO for 6 years and travel is my biggest passion in life, I am obsessed with it. I also study Tourism and I hope to have my own business within the industry one day. I met the bitch in the first year of college (UK) and she was fat then too, but I was not yet a full on shitlady.  About her, at 32 she still lives with her parents willingly, still goes on family holidays with them, her sister and her sisters husband, never goes out, if anyone shouts at her or argues with her she cries, she is dull, never had a boyfriend (until now) and more. Her mum still calls her "her baby". Independence scares her and even though she got into all universities she applied to, she didn't go to any of them because she didn't want to leave home and her parents - at 32 years old. (Her parents are in perfect health) Originally she was a UK size 18, through college she did all sorts of stupid diets, those bloody plastic stomach wrap things, detoxes (not the good ones) and other things to lose weight. I supported her all the way through even though I thought that some of the things she was doing were a waste of time and money but, being a good friend, I did not say anything. Eventually she got down to a UK 10 but, to be really honest, she never looked it - you know when a fatty has been so all through their younger years and their body never looks right? - she still had a belly and chubby arms but I would always say how good she looked, again, I try to be a good friend.  In the last two years however, she has developed Fibromyagia and stopped excercising, started eating crap again and going out for meals all the time (she posts them) and not doing anything. She was fired from her job because, despite re-locating her through the supermarket a few times to help her, she kept taking time off and complaining. Now, while I fully recognise that Fibro can be horrible and painful, surely maintaining a low weight and excercise can help the symptoms? Please tell me if I am wrong. I honestly think she is using it as an excuse. Now, because of this, she is fat again, I think she is bigger than she was before, I estimate a UK 20/22. In July she met another fatty on a dating website and within a week she was staying at his house over 2 hours from home (she can drive and has a road-worthy car but does not drive it more than 20min from home because motorways scare her and she is scared of going on new roads) had introduced him to her parents, her to his parents and then he buggered off back to his base in Germany (He is an army engineer).  I was so happy for her because she had been alone for so long and when we went out no one flirted with her or would try to kiss her ect while guys gave me a lot of attention. I invited them to come to stay with me and my Fiance (we live the other side of the UK, she has been numerous times) so we could meet him and all hang out together. Ever since then she has ignored me until she wanted to message me about when she was next seeing him or that he took her out for a meal (I think you can get the drift - It is important to note, before she had a boyfriend, me and my Fiance would purposefully tone down our PDAs so that she did not feel like a third wheel or uncomfortable) ,like I said, I have finally got some confidence in the way I look. I have started buying clothes that actually fit and look good on me ( I am UK 6/8  US 2/4) - has she commented on how good I look? The clothes I am buying? The fashion blog I have started? Not at all, while lots of other people have, which I find weird, I mean, your best friend is meant to be happy for you and at least say something when you make positive changes right? She knows my bad history too.   Her piggy boyfriend said it was up to her if they came to stay with me and they didn't, my mother thinks its because she does not want him to meet me, I am thinner and prettier than her in my mams opinion.  When she has messaged me, she does not even ask how I am, just talks about her Ham boyfriend and then does not reply unless I am talking or asking questions about her relationship. She literally only messages me when she wants to show off about something she and her bf are doing - the one exeption was last week when she asked me what me and my guy were doing for our 6th anniversary on Oct 31st. I did not want to tell her much because of how she has been with me so, I said that we had different things than a meal planned (which she assumed we would be doing) she seemed pissed off and stopped talking to me (the only thing me and my Fiance did was stay in the bedroom ;) ). but that annoyed me, it was like she was trying to be better than me for some reason? The thing that has really upset me and made me totally write her off (I can ignore pathetic, I can understand new BF obsession) is that even though she and him started dating in July, I found tonight on Facebook she and him have made their relationship FB official and their anniversary is set as October 31st. Now, while I totally appreciate I do not own that day, I am hurt that with them beginning in July, she supposedly being my BFF and her knowing that is me and my guys anniversary date, she would do that. I honestly do not understand WTF she is playing at but I consider it the black mark.  I was the only real friend that fat, fucking pig bitch had her entire life (seriously, she never had any friends and she was bullied most of her life) and she has treated me like shit. I am not wasting my time and effort with that fucking *unt anymore. I hope they both get fucking deathfat and die of the beetus or from an infected rag on a stick that got stuck up somewhere. Fat girls are the most obnoxious, bitter, mean and cruel fucking animals out there. If I can ever be friends with a woman again ( the irony is I love spending girly time, doing makeup, hair, shopping, talking and all sorts - I really miss having female friends) there is no way I will even consider it with a fatty. Apart from my Fiance who is my best friend, I now have no friends. The last one who dumped me ignored me for months and then sent me lots of abuse after she got a new girlfriend (lesbian relationship), I really don't know what I am doing wrong, what kind of loser 23 year old woman has no friends apart from her future husband? :( Wonderful FPH ladies and gentlemen, do you think you could shed any light on this? Why do you think she has been like this with me? Do you any thoughts? It would be a huge help and support for me right now and I love you guys, you are all awesome, I love reading your posts everyday.