Recovering from an eating disorder but not wanting to end up a ham https://imgoat.com/v/196660/F92DD47F-591D-4EAB-B047-58D72FA0B67A https://imgoat.com/v/196662/C6FD6938-CADF-48EB-A016-CFD507BE523C https://imgoat.com/v/196661/03EE8ED9-C120-4BFA-A938-BD59B5EDD305 I think the commenter may have come from here. Right now I have a BMI of 20.7. My doctors are concerned because I have lost nearly 70 pounds, most of it in the past year. I’ve been told I have an eating disorder, but my BMI is not low enough for AN. I was offered a spot in an inpatient program - that was what a psychiatrist recommended, but I feel so fat and bloated all the time. I am on a 1000 or so calorie diet. In the inpatient program I’d have to eat three meals and two snacks, almost 3000 calories a day. I would definitely gain weight.  I would have to eat everything. They have a strike system. I would get kicked out for not finishing everything. I wouldn’t be allowed to exercise either. I don’t want to end up “a ham”. What I saw heartbreaking is how damn PRETTY this girl was when she was anorexic. The weight loss dramatically changed my face. My whole body is kind of petite, but I have a cute, heart-shaped face and a pointed chin and cheekbones! For the first time in my life I have cheekbones. I’d lose my cute lil face if I gained weight. /sorry for the mess of the post. Seeing my lupus doc at the end of the month. Anyhow I just wanted to share her story because I saw similar comments here and this is a big concern.