Fat shaming motivates me As horrible as this sounds, I've been barely eating and biking myself sick from heat because of all the hate. Nowadays I don't binge unless I'm really stoned but not stoned enough to be grounded. I've gotten to where I barely sleep with my bf because I hate myself so much. I have good hygiene, but I'm still everything that you guys say. Fat, lazy, etc. And tbh, I like hate and thinso. It's my background. It works. I mean, one suicide attempt later it worked.