Go out and see the world like another user said. My fiance has a deskjob she is too smart for and has to deal with obeasts and hams all day. She's miserable. You're still very young, so out and do it. And about your friend; so sorry for your loss. Before quitting or moving back into retail or any other major decision, wait a week, even three weeks to make a big chance. Change is good, but not so soon after a death. When my mom died almost four years ago, I chopped off my hair and threw out half my wardrobe from grief. I regretted a lot of what I did then. When the heat and the pain dies down a little, then you can make some big life choices. I know you can be successful in whatever road you take. Sounds like you need some damn good holiday time.