It's nice to hear from someone in a similar position, I feel so lonely in it sometimes. Thank you for reaching out, I can't believe people think under $25 for babysitting is ok!? I was trying to get a voluntary job (1 hour a week) once and when I tried to be honest about my issues I saw the woman's eyes literally bulge when I mentioned th word psychosis.  How they can use it as a badge of honour is beyond me. Thank you for reaching out.