Dear diary, (week 2) I have realised that my goal of weighing only 350 pounds is unrealistic. The only way I could reach that weight is by making a lifelong commitment to eating healthily and that is just not sustainable. Plus at the moment I am afraid to go to the gym as people will laugh at me and call me names like Hamzilla, Lardbot and Sir Pork of Fork. Both you and I know that weight loss is only achievable by exercise and foods don't really matter.