Oh my gosh, I feel you; I'm only 18, so I'm terrified how bad my baby-craziness will become. I'm borderline creepy with it... I'll go to department stores and browse kids' clothing as if I currently have a child myself, and my boyfriend and I have come up with baby names for the first six kids (not that we'd have six, but still. Planning for every scenario haha) I hope you get to have a kid, it's people like you who want it so badly who deserve it the most!!