That's probably what my granny was thinking. She was worried I'd start blubbering and screaming about how she "doesn't understaaaaand!" That being said, I was extremely happy to leave my "pigfucker" because he was an abusive piece of shit. Thanks so much for the encouragement, though. I've been doing great at meal planning, exercising daily and have lost 50 lbs! Imagine how encouraging it was to discover this post about myself! Love, GrandPig