Because it can probably get me into grad school where once in I can deviate from this path. I feel awful about it. I feel like I'm contributing to the delusion. But the delusion is already there I am just capitalizing on it    Edit: Think of it like the guy who owns the heart attack grill. He was a doctor before if I remember correctly and got irritated that his fat patients wouldn't listen so he thought of a way to manipulate them into giving him millions.