Can I ask you a question as another former heroin addict? I started treatment a year ago and the last time I got high was last August,  but I just miss being high. Obviously I like the feeling, or I would have never started in the first place, but I'm not super gung ho about "omg my life is 1000% better and amaze amazeballs nao and I'll never go back!" I always feel like I'm doing something wrong when I answer people honestly about how I feel now. I'm not depressed or bored, and meetings just got irritating after a whole so I stopped going (I have 2 therapists it's not like I don't have an emotional outlet.) Anyway, since you've got more time than me , I just thought I'd ask.