"All the diseases caught by people who are too fat" I am still an emotional wreck. I did have an appointment with my psychiatrist yesterday and he thinks I really need to do the inpatient program. I am seeing my rheumatologist (lupus doctor) on Monday. He also wants me to take an antipsychotic that will cause me to gain weight (Seroquel) and he thinks that would work best with my antidepressant. I am not planning on doing either. Shots of my body http://oi67.tinypic.com/2zejj8z.jpg  Top 110 lbs  Bottom 104 lbs My body is still a work in progress. I’d be a lot happier if I had a full thigh gap. But I have worked so so hard to get here. It is very distressing to me that I could be involuntarily committed to a psych ward and made to eat 2500 calories a day of crap. But I think as long as my BMI remains healthy (it’s usually around 20-21) they cannot force me into treatment. I hope. I did show my psychiatrist this picture http://oi64.tinypic.com/nlctar.jpg and he said that that won’t happen to me. That reminded me of this http://oi66.tinypic.com/2ykdnbd.jpg A bunch of doctors really want to label me as anorexic. Anorexia nervosa is the one mental illness with a numerical threshold. I don’t qualify, I don’t have this illness.  I think I am fixated on not becoming fat. I think that is the extent of my eating disorder. There is a fph user who trolls fatties on Instagram and writes funny things. I just want to say thank you. You make me laugh when I want to cry.  And just a general thank you to this sub. My psychiatrist said that I am “underweight but not anorexic”. I don’t know what that means. Isn’t it misogynistic to tell a woman she needs to be 120 lbs? I don’t think I am underweight. I think I am just somewhat lean and because I am so short (5ft), I can afford to carry less mass on me. Thanks for reading my posts. I feel safe in this space, with people with BMIs close to mine, which is a weird thing to say. It’s just so weird that doctors are trying to tell me I am anorexic when I KNOW that is not true, and you guys are logical. I haven’t been commenting because I have been feeling fat. It just feels weird laughing at fats when I feel like a fat, haha. I really hope I can keep my body and become a little leaner. A bulimic I know was put on a Form 1 (involuntary psychiatric treatment). I was on a Form once before for another issue, and basically there is no way you can get out of it once it happens. It’s a 72 hr psychiatric hold.  Hopefully the appointment on Monday will go well. Take care. ♥️ Gonna leave you with this HBIC http://oi66.tinypic.com/25hhmig.jpg