You and OP, good luck with your journey to recovery! I don't know your background or where your anorexia stems from, however I want to let you know that you can definitely do it. You will not be trapped in a body that you constantly hate forever.  Sometimes we have to exchange one addiction for another while we are recovering. I've seen lots of people with eating disorders become fit, strong and badass people because they change their relationship with food. Food is purely to fuel their body to lift heavy. (Oooor sometimes they just do too much cardio, then it becomes detrimental to their health. We learn to find that balance.) This is just from my experience and I sincerely hope you can recover soon! It took me about 7 years for this to finally  'click' in my dumbass head, but it happened. Life is way too short to let my past ruin who I want to be in the present and future.  How-the-fuck-ever,  Having fat therapists is counter intuitive and fucking extremely dangerous to eating disorder patients.