Life is funny and shit will happen at the most random times. Be open to the universe, keep working on yourself and putting out solid energy. Shit has a weird way of falling into place when it's supposed to. It can be hard in the meantime but use this time to keep cultivating the best you that you can so you have something to bring to a relationship besides a fit body (if that makes sense)! It's a transition period you're broadly in now, so it's to be expected your feeling some additional emotions. I often find it's helpful to try to sort out my rational emotions from my irrational emotions, and then work through the rational shit. The irrational shit I filter out as much as possible - I listen to those irrational emotions briefly, let them in briefly, but then send them on their way relatively quickly. This way, I can focus more on fighting or what I'm rationally feeling and how to address that.  I met my partner at 36, and spent the yeas before figuring myself out, dealing with some unresolved shit from my early life, balancing myself and cultivating a healthy mind-body-energy balance. I also went back for post-doctoral degree and found out I really enjoyed that aspect of life. Point is, the universe has a funny way of putting shit into place; it may not always be the timeline we want, of course, but that is all part of the journey we are all on during our small time in this beautiful world. Good luck for sure in all avenues!