If it makes you feel better, I'm 23 in a relationship I'm unsure of but worried to leave because maybe I deserve less, graduated with a degree I'm scared I'll fail in, and have mad depression but can't get on meds until after my onboarding drug screen for fear I'll be labeled crazy and get fired. (Fucking love Texas laws). So relate and your boat isn't empty. Just gotta take it a day at a time. Sending love op! <3