I was a self hating homophobic homosexual for a long time. Absolutely miserable. I thought being gay was the worst thing ever, and it really messed me up for a long time. Whenever I see a white person saying "fuck white people" it's a mixed bag. Self loathing absolutely sucks, but if you are willing to be that loud and that vocal about it then you reap what you sow. That's why even though I was in the same boat I don't feel bad about anti-gay republicans that get caught sucking dick in a public bathroom. Don't take out your self hate on others.