[rant] BMI is bullshit, and if I hear another person IRL or on Reddit tell me I "don't need to lose weight" I am going to lose it. First off, I understand the rules of this subreddit. If I get banned or whatever, so be it. I am so fucking sick of trying to ask people for advice or real feedback about weight loss and getting nothing in return. I posted to r/loseit looking for help (first mistake) and after I stated my current stats, I was told I didn't need any advice or to lose any more weight because I am at a healthy BMI. Here's the thing-- yes, I am at a healthy BMI. But that does not mean I can't afford to lose more weight. I certainly have a flabby stomach. I absolutely have areas of my body that I need to tone up. I am 5'9" and a 23 year old female that weighs 155 lbs at the moment. I have an hourglass body shape, and my weight is distributed pretty evenly, but when I look at myself in the mirror, I see the same thing you guys would probably see--someone who may have a "healthy" BMI, but definitely is closer to fat than skinny. Losing fifteen pounds is something absolutely do-able, it would allow me to be an even healthier me, and it would make me a happier person. For context, about three years ago I had a pretty severe eating disorder that, at the height of it, lasted around a year. During that time, I was down to 117 lbs at my lowest. Rather than fully recovering, I traded one extreme for another. I started dating a severe alcoholic and my diet quickly turned to shit. I gained back all of the weight I initially lost and was up to 175 at my highest. I was fucking MISERABLE. I looked like shit, I felt like shit. But I let it happen, and everyone around me just continually lied to me and would tell me I looked good. I was legitimately overweight and I had people saying I could wear whatever I wanted. That was about a year ago. Since then, I've really struggled with depression and anxiety, and my body image obviously hasn't been great. It was really, really fucking hard to start going to the gym again. It was hard to stop drinking so much, and to start thinking about what I was eating. It was really hard to start counting calories again and hold myself accountable. And you know what helped the most? This fucking group. Thank you for stating the obvious over and over again and reminding me that being a fat piece of shit is something that isn't that hard to change. It took me about a week of counting calories to be reminded that losing weight isn't impossible, and is actually not that hard.  It's insane to me that "good enough" is okay to everyone I've spoken to about this. I don't want to be "good enough". I have a boyfriend who is active and in impeccable shape-- I want to be able to go on long hikes and surf and run and keep up with him (and look good doing it). I want us to have a long life together and make healthy choices. I want to feel sexy because I legitimately look sexy, and not just because "every woman is beautiful" or whatever. When I ask for advice or try to talk about weight loss with people, I shouldn't be dismissed because I'm "good enough". I want to better myself, and I know I can do it, and I shouldn't have to push to have a real conversation about it. Anyways, while I'm ranting, I also wanted to thank this group. The stuff posted on here has been a constant motivator for me and a reminder to push myself harder. I've had defined abs before, I can certainly have them again.