I'd rather kill myself than be that fat. Yes, really. I honestly can't see how people are okay with being so obese.  I mean, I've also struggled with an eating disorder for about 7 years now, but I genuinely CANNOT see how people can let themselves be so big???? I'm not at all encouraging suicide but I would honestly and genuinely kill myself if I got to that weight.   There was a fat person on my bus today taking up THREE human sized seats. She could hardly fit down the aisle to get to a seat and her heavy panting from the exertion it took to get on the bus was worse than what I ever imagined reading this website?? She would have been 30 at the oldest and I just couldn't stop staring at her. She didn't even resemble a human being.  I know this post isn't really the standard thing that gets added on here but I can't shake the horror from my mind. I would rather be dead than be like her one day.