I ask myself the same thing every day. I keep using the excuse that my father guilt tripped me into caring for her but in the end, it all comes down to me being weak. The biggest thing was my father co-signing my college loan and holding it against me but that's ridiculous to use that as an excuse. I hate this city, the college I was forced to attend, and wish for nothing more than to start over. I have the power to do that but I keep falling back to help them like an idiot.