Edrecoverygirl bmi 25.1 I did calculate her BMI...from the range she gave, I took the lowest possible weight and I got 25.1. So she is definitely overweight. oi68.tinypic.com/9ifpj6.jpg  http://oi67.tinypic.com/35alsop.jpg http://oi63.tinypic.com/25kuccm.jpg http://oi67.tinypic.com/vub8m.jpg I am really confused. She is a lot broader and curvier and thicker and she seems pretty happy. I told her she was overweight and she didn’t care. I’ve been wondering why when women gain weight they get bigger bums and breasts. My butt is mostly gone now. I don’t think you can actually call it a butt? It recedes into my thighs. It doesn’t pop out, it kind of slopes in. Makes sitting very painful. Still no thigh gap. Anyhow this girl, Kati, talks about letting her body “relax” and she posts her belly a lot. But letting her body “relax” has caused her to become overweight.  She is blonde and has light blue eyes. She also has a very small waist in proportion to her curves.  If she wasn’t white, if she didn’t have blonde hair and blue eyes, if she didn’t have an hourglass figure, it would be different. I think. People have been comparing her to Marilyn Monroe. Marilyn was petite. This girl could break Marilyn’s bones if she sat in her. I’m still really messed up. We worked out a treatment that wouldn’t cause me to gain weight. I have another weigh-in on Monday.  I am so confused. Every doctor says I’m underweight, but my BMI is around 20. People who really care and love me are really, genuinely concerned.  I’ve just gotten used to being thin. I’ve just gotten used to inhabiting a smaller body. If I let my body relax, if I let myself enjoy food, I could gain weight. I could sit without being poked by my own tailbone. I could play piano again. In my head, 120 lbs is synonymous with obesity. My thinking is very disordered. But you see how that is? It’s like “if I gain 15 pounds I’ll become obese.” And I’d get a butt again and fuller boobs, and I’d think of myself as a slut again. When I gain weight, I can feel myself becoming sluttier. I’m a mess.  Happy Easter friends.