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schizophrenia,TheMusiKid,2020/01/01,"Does/did anyone else believe that they are/were in Hell? An alternate reality where there is no Good. I believe that I died about 3 years ago from an LSD trip, and that I am now ""living"" in an alternate reality in which God cannot reach me.

I see references everywhere (TV, Movies, Music) that confirm this for me. I have nightmares most nights about Hell and devils/demons.

Lastly, nothing is funny to me anymore. It's like there is nothing new and original; everything is rehashed and overdone.

If anyone can share their story and how they overcame this, that would be so helpful. If anyone could help me work out and see this as a delusion, that would also be much appreciated.

I don't want to be in Hell, but that's where all the signs are pointing for me.

Thanks for all your help and support!",4.246764705882352,5.974485000000001,4.730212418300656,83.85845588235297,71.54901960784316,7.452941176470588,27.782679738562088,8.07648339933343,1.7800679738562084,627,23,120,9,12,199,97,153,0.109,0.7390000000000001,0.152,0.8302,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,3,1,10,8,3,0,5,0,16,0,0,2,2,22,21,14,1,6,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,12,8,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,2,15,5,14,15,4,16,3,0,2,0,8,8,3,3,8,85,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14474919217234994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305851728621044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16194255433881954,0.34253431426696856,0.16731274463852855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3679500776878524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13037599327462154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16947211944417867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13641015991812655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14675701664343552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13696223197231744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3283551142777575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13310540570604326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07977660143935686,0.0,0.14419051164575167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12003897804814165,0.0,0.0,0.15770917926309191,0.0,0.1532392072185503,0.0,0.31336764254366045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15436445289863485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602463995598088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853027055241078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15033804778764828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631430923675796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11887908472595332,0.0,0.0,0.2319970039732364,0.0,0.0,0.1051551930869717
schizophrenia,Mhanderson13,2020/01/01,"My illness has taken everything from me but my dog he's a good boy.

proof of good boy:   [https://preview.redd.it/dnleg05okb341.jpg?width=1536&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=09aedc62c1a938d3de4e5b9335010c1f582e2729](https://preview.redd.it/dnleg05okb341.jpg?width=1536&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=09aedc62c1a938d3de4e5b9335010c1f582e2729) 

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I try and keep it positive, I'm starting college (for the 5th time) in less than a month.  But I'm barely functioning.  I play with my dog and watch netflix and it's about all I can handle right now.",18.353333333333328,25.234976793650798,5.409857142857145,67.49764285714286,58.841269841269856,5.05968253968254,20.585714285714285,6.742157984588678,0.6126457142857142,490,9,51,4,10,99,47,63,0.027999999999999997,0.737,0.235,0.9412,2,0,0,0,0,0,52.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,2,9,7,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,7,3,7,6,2,6,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,4,29,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.922760977378456,0.14783519297134573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10934384419277278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20409214217622704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10814063831031516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09711112037687708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10390047289405936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08611447307810463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07094331254996476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08260193468174114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14783519297134573,0.0
schizophrenia,gaylord678,2020/01/01,How to get a better therapist in a shit hole small town I live in a really small town and there's almost no therapists near me the one I see currently is shit and is 30 minutes away from me,2.635040650406502,3.5459230731707336,4.705853658536586,85.66577235772358,74.3658536585366,9.369105691056909,23.422764227642283,9.725611199111238,1.8515300813008133,150,4,34,4,3,52,31,41,0.212,0.721,0.067,-0.7357,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,2,0,4,0,2,2,2,1,0,4,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,4,1,6,4,0,9,0,0,1,0,0,8,2,1,1,22,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600091510422771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24395646112819055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22964566842279635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356601557728765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22928204062002105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17595042019121745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16634303372335682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20691314870178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.53306871277286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6029639811222345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,hercules_rokefeller,2020/01/01,"Decided to quit my job today I decided to quit my job. I was an uber driver for over 11 months and did over 1,600 rides with a 4.89 rating. I feel a mild sense of accomplishment that I did the job well but I can no longer do it. It’s just not worth it to me anymore. Having strangers get in my car and being graded on every transaction is no longer worth it. That and the miles on my car. It came out to be 17 cents per mile BEFORE taxes and 26,000 miles a year to make $250 a week. Half of which was deducted from my SSI benefit. I don’t even know how bad taxes will be for the year. I’ve had my share of creeps and weirdos and have had enough and realize its time for a change. Somewhat appropriate with it being the new year. 

I am happy to have put this period of my life behind me. I’m on SSI and work part time to make a little extra spending money. I’m thinking an easy job delivering pizza where I don’t have to have strangers get in my car who are rating me on every single transaction.",2.5081575829383884,3.607953094786737,4.093409360189575,89.20324200236969,74.92417061611374,7.360308056872038,21.24437203791469,7.865858978985527,0.6561111374407584,777,17,176,11,16,260,118,211,0.08,0.8390000000000001,0.081,0.3076,4,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,4,5,5,0,0,12,0,23,2,0,3,0,25,33,10,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,12,12,1,0,6,0,7,8,5,1,1,1,7,1,19,4,28,21,5,32,0,0,0,0,4,14,0,1,10,117,31,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436517254511235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12094323470940052,0.0,0.0,0.12325620750033607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656691746925113,0.0,0.0,0.15323150455824422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14966819552577446,0.0,0.09567169112808947,0.0,0.2440838064079355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07324023072234248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513557112667682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.154194925754275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5749628869737873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0796054658442872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023114454413863,0.0,0.1451771954037303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19337625622501284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11561744362050973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398964948596774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15685783151388707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14561369810389813,0.0,0.308130425434022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09281367444045023,0.0,0.0,0.16892575036032184,0.0,0.13730033535580882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618948615389442,0.0,0.13023704515849255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054521198004834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27983487704198545
schizophrenia,mambalyfe,2020/01/01,"why can i smoke weed all day and not get psychosis? so i was psychotic for 2 years. tried 30 meds nothing worked. did 4 months of trilafon, abilify, lithium combo. then came off all that down to 15 mg abilify: 

here’s the thing...

since i started coming off meds, i’ve been smoking cannabis everyday, all day, NO PSYCHOSIS. 

i smoke good. i smoke 21 grams a week. and before that ate 1gram of edibels a day for 4 months. 



tl:dr
since april i’ve just been smoking weed everyday and coming off meds, no psychosis. 
how come?",1.8610081008100816,4.321573930693074,2.828532853285332,91.13723672367243,81.97029702970299,6.445004500450046,25.023402340234018,7.686295010490155,1.4010910891089108,401,16,82,7,11,127,66,101,0.059000000000000004,0.909,0.031,-0.3804,0,0,3,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,1,3,13,12,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,6,0,5,1,9,6,3,20,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,12,39,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14477384637947954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19459112147908167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43967324556424997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3291723935513711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888943176161011,0.0,0.0,0.14270263706268685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5669507368924064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716030674797157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16325080395205652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28147776189221785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12042367007837397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11303129932577145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11551168780801102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13647344146386065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15352195728861154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12386158313644392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10956249133980124
schizophrenia,mizake_the_mizan,2020/01/01,"What therapist type should I go to? I'm thinking about CBT, but I'm not sure",-0.5564705882352925,1.4707548235294112,1.6073529411764724,98.67808823529413,89.0,5.752941176470588,20.264705882352946,7.1686216300943375,0.3250235294117654,60,2,15,1,2,20,14,17,0.158,0.8420000000000001,0.0,-0.3491,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,5,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32977737125481005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5468918995671442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6737311621938726,0.0,0.3718097049365462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,KingKapwn,2020/01/01,"Struggling With False Visions, Any Suggestions? I'm having a very very rough time recently, I keep having visions and delusions about the people I love posting stuff and mocking me online and talking about how terrible I am in private messages. I've been getting these visions much more frequently and intensely every since I was broken up with by the only person I trusted around 2 months ago. I get these visions of posts on websites and messengers. I honestly don't know if I'm seeing or hearing these posts or messages I just know that they're invading my head.

It's shattered my ability to trust people, to trust my family and while I can see that I'm being delusional and irrational after they pass, they keep coming and I keep doing terrible things and hurting my situation over and over and over again. I am seeing professional help, but I am also struggling greatly with trusting my help because they're probably get me Medically Released from the military. While I understand that, I've been struggling really hard with trusting anyone or anything. Being constantly stressed and that everything is out to get me and punish me for not being a good enough boyfriend to my Ex. It's been incredibly difficult and I need some suggestions, even if they're not effective I've felt like I've had nothing to try or help ease or soothe me. Thank you.",8.213339070567987,8.440057955823296,8.027553069420541,69.18731927710844,61.81124497991968,11.290992541594953,39.07085484796328,10.914260884657429,4.568610786001148,1097,53,176,26,14,352,141,249,0.155,0.669,0.17600000000000002,0.5448,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,2,1,8,21,2,4,5,0,17,3,1,2,0,43,39,26,0,3,11,1,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,11,21,0,3,5,0,0,2,3,10,0,0,6,7,28,11,24,30,4,23,0,1,3,1,15,8,0,8,11,120,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09952643321013696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08978755798249669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07635193942709867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07850641061604867,0.0,0.09239407678492792,0.09994997972125426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06844277441020408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09671635089516163,0.0,0.12133111967044545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11601174319989835,0.0,0.07415763665528083,0.0,0.09459787955876936,0.0,0.10090697015904958,0.0,0.10584438791846727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10780314515538487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23463956180716325,0.0,0.0,0.0941722867542746,0.0,0.12378534997629452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10057778193867817,0.0,0.11522818535943904,0.0,0.1265438903667244,0.0,0.22576991871195176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12019442450388472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2993898077258417,0.0,0.0,0.12340856824515307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05485267638269105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10133401679440657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11310686432607775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08961811246278734,0.0,0.0825362211147704,0.08325167766413384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10773242764873033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08539141512951921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15567691764274255,0.09803559807683336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3225898455294092,0.0,0.12105316669133287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07192726618983858,0.0,0.1108595992353137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268409745663323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928763653338134,0.12620360475133366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12861246814413235,0.3521276465384977,0.1285298472445592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902436796526528,0.0,0.10336921020093902,0.0,0.0,0.0745915853512846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06546938947786311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07622844266674443,0.0,0.0,0.11688390223468008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852799102644091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,knuckleone,2020/01/01,"Extreme laziness I’m not big picture lazy I have a job a career you might say but I notice instances of extreme laziness.  Like I’ll be leaving the house and I realize I don’t have something that I need for my journey and that something is 10 feet away and I won’t stop to go get it because I don’t want to walk the distance to pick it up so I leave without it, knowing that the 10 seconds it would take to grab it would save me 30 minutes as I’ll need to make another trip at some point if I don’t get it.  Or I’ll realize a light is on while I’m leaving the house and not walk 6 feet to go turn it off.   There are so
Many things like that and when I realize I need to do something I’ll simply give up and not to do it and have the feeling of realizing it was needed to do long after I had any control to correct the miss   Even though I hadn’t left yet",2.4122712550607304,2.816174826315791,4.207894736842111,90.92564777327938,74.42105263157895,6.898785425101216,28.299595141700404,6.67199483983844,1.1162712550607283,667,26,159,5,13,227,100,190,0.038,0.871,0.091,0.8529,1,0,3,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,1,7,4,0,0,9,0,20,2,2,3,1,35,38,16,0,8,7,0,2,2,0,4,0,1,0,0,14,7,0,2,6,0,0,6,9,1,0,1,3,4,16,3,22,30,1,21,0,1,0,0,3,9,0,4,8,104,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09220583956927607,0.14217792187493367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12739125452016253,0.0,0.0,0.08265439652609015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15207569794225312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08955590649799057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0685583705809042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416803420773214,0.13007026897413493,0.15411782661439316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129052767069958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345521385126881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07451670992556368,0.0,0.0,0.4307106502902948,0.14731891573792186,0.0,0.0,0.13248483578644366,0.0,0.0,0.11999287020500415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09050736804805007,0.13746696338445274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438395472746345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4021530241233272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437009692592316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281763626461694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10782659847836128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3131513849881785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11335929901191945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10194679454886804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09007996134381706,0.0,0.13321647210987722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14748296834048294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07997448633366787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13070390727024184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926384705527067,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,n0l0ngerhuman,2020/01/01,"Hallucinating while half asleep? Does anyone else experience hallucinations after they've just woken up? I've never had this happen before, and it just happened twice this morning. Is this going to become a thing?",5.965833333333332,9.494329472222224,6.603333333333335,63.75000000000003,73.72222222222223,6.933333333333335,22.88888888888889,8.07648339933343,1.9545222222222227,175,5,23,3,4,57,32,36,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,1,4,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,4,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21692192978865554,0.3178700813338576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34262766343123524,0.2639851934119102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714867422596833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591596278073031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30346712732555026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17631240303084378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5486755361716551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23927059746467516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061048328846684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Spiderbundles,2020/01/01,"I don't know what to do. What should I do I'm kind of freaking out. I'll probably delete this later, bc honestly it scares me, but idk what to do and I need help.

I hallucinated tonight, but not like usual. I came around the corner into the living room and there was a woman in my apartment. I could describe her exactly, she was so real. I didn't know she want real. I even touched her and I felt it, she was there. She was awful and mean and yelling and she told me to set my elbows in fire. I ran out of the room to get my husband and when I came back she was gone, but the door we still locked from the inside. She wasn't real. I'm afraid to go back tu sleep and feel like crying

I've hallucinated before, but nothing like that. Nothing that real, nothing that scary. I was always half aware it wasn't real, and voices were never mean. I didn't know she wasn't real.

What do I do, how do I deal with her if she comes back? I'm on a new AP, and it's making me unable to sleep much. Could that be doing it? Why was it so real, why couldn't I tell? Please help me.",-0.34977022977022904,1.6394087099567116,1.9737012987013005,96.73659590409592,87.44155844155844,4.4196470196470194,15.378121878121878,5.634304966280588,-0.8888429570429572,816,15,195,5,26,276,111,231,0.128,0.8170000000000001,0.055,-0.9241,0,0,0,0,1,0,32.0,1,0,0,0,12,8,0,2,7,1,26,3,3,2,2,49,47,19,0,7,6,1,4,3,0,1,0,2,3,1,15,19,0,0,7,0,0,6,9,3,0,1,19,6,36,5,17,23,1,28,0,0,0,0,20,11,0,1,13,131,51,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482641605676159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005404016408091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074447926803274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07652120054420837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20570491982084688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07746409414666612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435986846515446,0.0,0.09878051841129357,0.0,0.09271072408216356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05939589422460637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045469761699370635,0.06424382225562086,0.08634396261161273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04698311334674195,0.0,0.05110755105761848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12055226151329568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09364506727650812,0.14826447948925953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318012781141216,0.0,0.07940713352016171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06002692920371611,0.0,0.0,0.19591359626409247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661066463298966,0.06667968483874,0.06935719816814886,0.08685199679342724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588619661760099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09871277303356674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09695644856880753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7164957982418433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09003255251109894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799837637024264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07181576860442057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07860010723328265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08592904269923111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990418170859915,0.0,0.05304123777752556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622901480537906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Abibliothecarius,2020/01/01,Keep trying or accept I’m disabled So I’ve been trying work/school for 10 years now. I still dont have a degree and therefore also a job. Should I keep trying or count my blessings and learn to live off my disability? Not sure. What do you guys think?,0.8375641025641016,3.1739425000000066,2.313076923076924,93.91525641025645,85.53846153846153,4.235897435897436,16.358974358974358,5.46131890053228,-0.6972794871794874,198,4,42,1,6,64,41,52,0.04,0.83,0.131,0.6703,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,1,1,13,9,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,5,3,3,7,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,3,25,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000982449406044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932521680198981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477539219750904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248301515751797,0.44480828914494935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2209459748379716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.253232709898463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19982342013407547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358263261132505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16032879038405326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5096422467067605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821607744006882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16113138361667387
schizophrenia,JustGettingStarted_,2020/01/01,I'm not lazy But you probably think I am,-3.858000000000001,-2.9027367999999982,0.5200000000000031,100.24000000000002,117.0,6.0,15.0,7.1686216300943375,0.2499999999999996,32,1,9,1,2,12,9,10,0.0,0.768,0.23199999999999998,0.2755,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8596458186517559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5108904642626952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,rosesgone,2020/01/01,"Schizophrenia Related Resolutions! My New Years resolution is to just live my life like no one can see through my eyes and no one can hear my thoughts and look in the mirror and at myself more regularly! And think and do all the things I normally would.
What’s yours?",4.7085294117647045,6.550940980392162,4.884460784313728,82.75257352941178,70.56862745098039,9.02156862745098,28.43627450980393,9.516144504307137,2.431309803921569,214,8,43,5,4,67,40,51,0.09300000000000001,0.86,0.047,-0.3578,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,5,2,1,0,1,11,10,5,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,4,7,1,4,8,2,4,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,3,32,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3518878571860469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205259740471807,0.15253198473104976,0.0,0.27569067275234577,0.0,0.26218111807590394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30153821658585633,0.0,0.0,0.305903420401562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4231285588910527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487941271485647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20742110154277132,0.20005411782207805,0.0,0.2478630330205096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217878602825341,0.0,0.0,0.2010555728990937
schizophrenia,ironcobra43,2020/01/01,"Happy new year! An update If anyone recognizes my name and has read my posts thanks for the support, truly never found such a friendly community online. 

I plan to move out of California to New York with a friend in a few months. I’m gonna stop my education for now until things stabilize. I hope things will be harder and easier on my own, and with a friend I trust I’ll be able to handle it. How’s your night going?",2.8164873949579814,4.451903858823531,4.6939495798319335,83.03705882352945,75.11764705882355,7.680672268907562,20.378151260504197,8.418075326091056,1.0117563025210083,328,7,67,6,7,112,65,85,0.05,0.6579999999999999,0.29100000000000004,0.9721,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,3,8,0,0,6,0,4,0,0,1,1,13,11,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,1,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,8,8,12,6,2,16,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,2,10,43,11,1,0.20239592552090052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14151993706387994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22191668560862052,0.4691117699779404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11502626868946175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21545422625394106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20102482192844298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615504967810197,0.21511483817698165,0.0,0.0,0.1561002150747446,0.3909504921538521,0.0,0.18993486542535895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19383934924772528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024506967327579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16921205642509798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296764977808876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18633897546946795,0.0,0.0,0.26892571909919616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303363402243824
schizophrenia,Lordd_Humungous,2020/01/01,"Probably my last year here Somethings gotta give. I have crippling anhedonia and anxiety that causes my “recovered” eating disorder brain to be obsessed with food. I have schizoid personality disorder and am on adderall so I have no chance of joining the army soon and I just want out

Happy New Years",5.252222222222223,8.027848666666669,5.8849629629629625,72.10633333333334,71.5925925925926,9.505185185185187,34.874074074074066,9.888512548439397,4.199834074074073,244,13,39,7,5,79,45,54,0.18899999999999997,0.6890000000000001,0.122,-0.4615,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,5,3,1,1,0,8,8,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,6,1,5,6,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17631700762967425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25729254417096803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236767037451754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5283014095295441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23583916590137316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786980239563492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210979674116994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453508559190159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878724289740691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225995737926574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20124674645069213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484970400761076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17743520549602038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359434136073393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968438650510746
schizophrenia,awkward4bothofus,2020/01/01,"Wishing you all 20/20 Vision for the New Year. My motto for the new year is 20/20 vision. See things clearly.

I wish you all the best.",0.08722222222221987,2.464210222222224,1.027685185185188,99.71708333333336,94.92592592592592,2.7,14.157407407407408,3.1291,-1.4501037037037037,104,2,22,0,4,32,18,27,0.0,0.563,0.4370000000000001,0.9259999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,2,4,3,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,4,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926743983815675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5387010487533335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22223660194070485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18527993930555015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6414119108182843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3591877978345923
schizophrenia,alpple,2020/01/01,"Rant about desire to stop using stimulants for negative symptoms. Negative symptoms make it difficult to stay on task.  I use adderall and coffee to try to focus, but I feel that they cause more mania and euphoria than focus.  I want to stop using stimulants.  Maybe, if I just got better sleep that would follow from getting off stimulants, then I could focus better.   I think I can't just take less stimulants, because the euphoria makes it hard to use them with control.   I hope I don't get too depressed without them.",5.831819548872179,7.580959189473685,6.098646616541357,75.51052631578948,67.63157894736842,9.218045112781953,31.46616541353384,9.606745405546679,3.2420375939849624,413,17,67,9,7,132,64,95,0.124,0.604,0.272,0.9717,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,3,3,4,5,0,0,1,0,4,3,1,12,0,29,19,5,0,6,5,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,3,2,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,2,12,3,14,16,2,7,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,2,3,47,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866955801693783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28630752780379864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16627683594134238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18154196911162493,0.12923361673979644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394114824617235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184227830450583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16913240335673096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945580831230366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14499653726389225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16076546378753112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21608825127066367,0.0,0.16261211028386566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619788704482069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725233296379108,0.0,0.2706477187111364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364731371193521,0.12170006172878176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10371461830610926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10989365657751292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5591871098713876,0.0,0.0,0.0954703869464924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15602916848314008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114982103465571,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,wonderfulr,2020/01/01,Can i get off olanzapine completely and just take 80 mg latuda? I am sleeping a-lot. I have severe schizophrenia. I hear voices and visual hallucinations. What if i don’t take olanzapine at all and only take latuda 80 mg? Would my symptoms get worse?,2.4290070921985816,5.317635765957449,4.537340425531916,76.4841666666667,84.95744680851064,6.5375886524822695,22.72695035460993,7.793537801064563,1.6477120567375882,199,7,34,4,6,68,34,47,0.141,0.8590000000000001,0.0,-0.7383,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,1,7,11,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,2,10,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272985477664117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720576691965606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29344783632463395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213511706621144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19801766752893496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941358928975185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605508647582111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706166755014738,0.5872813454647616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26533197109542384,0.1849542869806095,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,gunfire-music,2020/01/01,Input on my disturbing situation? Not expecting diagnosis but only outsid opinion.  I am 23 years  Old man and  Only recently have I seriously considered the possibilities that I am suffering from schizophrenia or other mental  Illness beyond  Social anxiety which I am Diagnosed with.,10.457333333333334,12.671272511111116,12.024444444444445,35.57000000000002,57.22222222222222,15.777777777777779,46.111111111111114,14.06817628641468,8.726777777777778,233,14,23,11,3,83,39,45,0.27899999999999997,0.721,0.0,-0.9178,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,7,4,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,5,0,4,4,0,5,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,2,3,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305618038069289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059035488510109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3037292821777654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3162571164172051,0.0,0.0,0.4584399181975781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33977087743594825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975853341215125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387739279802625,0.0,0.3072281889792029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940846713975133
schizophrenia,suisuithyme,2020/01/01,What is even real? Is anything real? Is this actually happening? Fuck me cause i don’t even know. Ugh... I don’t even know what day it is. I’m pretty sure the last time I was awake or at least aware was 15 hours ago but I don’t know if I have been sleeping or maybe just super spaced out but it’s been 15 hours. My timeline is off and I’m questioning if I have caught up to reality or if I’m imagining this. It’s like I can’t follow reality because the voices just take up all of my attention. I’m exhausted and I’ve been in bed for weeks I’m pretty sure. I know my reality is warped rn but I still couldn’t tell you what’s wrong with my reality. I could use a friend at this moment to maybe just talk to me. I might be dead already though so sorry,-1.0094545454545454,1.0653343272727298,1.9240909090909104,94.62613636363638,93.6060606060606,5.424242424242425,16.590909090909093,6.980632752743323,-0.06354545454545413,584,15,141,10,22,204,89,165,0.114,0.742,0.14400000000000002,0.7293,0,0,0,0,0,1,14.0,0,1,0,1,9,9,1,0,3,0,21,3,1,2,3,33,36,13,1,5,12,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,0,9,4,0,0,7,0,0,2,5,4,0,0,6,1,18,5,13,26,2,19,0,0,0,1,5,8,1,8,10,86,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.13809169406523164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12543857535329753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15615793475551915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11644927874099775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08626215004727697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14536801075866093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112982867891705,0.0,0.0,0.09126115083046313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28039470501164665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10932896636940502,0.13082214887832347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251353278638502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787143539246274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110770573758591,0.1153481564422722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06913381056500502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28432822724113593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15011795054144894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879296411875711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15852168867869768,0.0,0.0,0.3221348652089746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14161050183981866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15840696337263782,0.0,0.0,0.11300871615173573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266739807885956,0.0,0.10639663536152574,0.1137390163110473,0.12368449687907775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390311923974156,0.0,0.08251463134435795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12221774209211615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113509427610995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15471711852016728,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Moopoboopo,2020/01/01,"Ear piercing tone As the title says on top, Ben has been telling me what I need to do to keep me safe. He has told me that they are outside my house with their machine using it to produce a brain jacking noise. It hurts so much to hear that I have to cover my ears with my hands and even then I can still hear it. It always always always makes my head hurt so much. Ben says they are trying new things since their old techniques of implantation have been failing since I take proper measures to protect myself in my home and since I only leave my house once a month it limits my exposure to their devices. Ben loves me very much and would not have harm come to me but this reminds me of princess and I am not suppose to talk about her because I will get in trouble. My provides and my ex hate when I talk or am reminded of her because she was so sweet and kind to me everyday. Ben has really turned around lately. He has not been very bad to me like he used to be a month or so ago. He is very protective and I let him know how much I appreciate it and in turn he lets me know when they are about and when they are following or when they are using implantation tech or if they will attempt to take me away to their black ops facility to never be heard from again. He told me about their project name and how I am implicated in their studies. I am sowwi everyone. I did not mean to type this much but I want you to know if I disappear that they have finally got me but I am confident that Ben will keep me safe like he says he will.",5.176918238993714,4.712561283018868,5.586163522012581,86.47880503144657,68.24528301886792,8.953459119496856,28.67295597484277,8.344100000000001,1.6324201257861641,1200,35,271,15,18,385,154,318,0.054000000000000006,0.818,0.128,0.9777,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,13,5,17,14,1,0,4,0,35,6,5,7,1,48,62,31,0,5,13,1,1,2,0,5,0,8,1,0,14,14,0,7,4,0,0,3,5,7,0,0,9,11,57,7,34,44,5,27,0,3,1,1,40,8,0,6,18,187,71,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08312161345943367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23407292334759486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347534731931038,0.0,0.0,0.08810017789271357,0.0,0.07829418978861308,0.11432287192698788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10467854092557742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08077471356117849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06193432448353385,0.0,0.0,0.08960143260018212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10272065696810886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048991052752906834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07499658502246266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09257864686555756,0.0962352650863784,0.0,0.21137163266983194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09405914362762653,0.0,0.0,0.21639641312341415,0.2007658502640565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16669450227986884,0.0,0.09764722054782816,0.15460092826190466,0.0,0.10577685585466118,0.0992890892282708,0.0,0.19177273970982775,0.0,0.09162275420582566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08463125526152701,0.0,0.06259232830125315,0.0,0.0,0.10214322387227902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496929381035459,0.0,0.3446593857844356,0.06952940588192086,0.07232134935743295,0.09056383141746717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983960379497794,0.09986218937171293,0.0,0.07131645304884691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06007158324263761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22370945030625267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327030043112632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07488499287443877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410070223293965,0.15073784954007075,0.08195927697322154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06229674594893785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17920286520036427,0.0,0.06366380208342855,0.20399007445029144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429620048088001,0.0,0.2321106753159748,0.05530808609596807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0666116508099369,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,odhisub123,2020/01/01,"Lies I hate when the voices lie. They don’t say anything, but you know they’re fucking lying. Drives me ducking crazy.",1.652898550724636,4.370680956521738,1.7652173913043503,96.06202898550728,87.2608695652174,3.066666666666667,20.71014492753623,3.1291,-0.4605246376811594,94,3,18,0,3,28,22,23,0.436,0.564,0.0,-0.9079,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,8,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4436185517740101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4983726207050662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.532231866753859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962653680108505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4286996421535619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lytrex,2020/01/01,"Split personality disorder? So during my appointment I was talking with my doctor and she said she doesn't think i have a schizophrenia she thinks I have a split personality disorder and said I just needed therapy to manage it, I'll have my full diagnosis on January 28th and after that I will be talking with a therapist every now and then. 

Thank you all for your support honestly I never would have been so honest with my doctor if it wasn't for you mates <3",4.719727126805778,6.5806939101123625,6.2067736757624425,73.20865168539329,70.57303370786515,9.580096308186198,28.4446227929374,9.957137785484203,3.0402667736757625,374,14,66,10,7,127,56,89,0.061,0.799,0.14,0.7929999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,0,4,4,0,0,3,0,11,2,0,0,2,15,18,8,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,2,2,2,0,2,3,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,2,16,4,8,10,2,6,0,0,0,0,13,2,0,1,4,54,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4371762469795768,0.3904315777676636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16069458965292968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14142065596559966,0.1470993824370488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330685693551759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3628475458932442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21643321226492584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3065961126865269,0.0,0.1755945576525079,0.21811140756392736,0.2214471847865912,0.0,0.24441859618432865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13548603260742398,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jerysignfield,2020/01/01,"Any of you try Amisulpride? I don’t think its in the US but its available where I live. I’m Schizotypal and it eases my anxieties and stress and curbs my delusions. I got sick of Seroquel, just made me fall asleep. 

Any schizophrenics got any experiences of Amisulpride (Solian)?",3.3223529411764687,6.312985058823532,2.995588235294118,88.72514705882355,80.76470588235293,5.752941176470588,26.14705882352941,7.1686216300943375,1.4085529411764708,222,9,40,3,6,66,38,51,0.188,0.759,0.053,-0.8156,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,1,3,1,1,0,8,6,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,8,0,4,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,23,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5538438368640035,0.0,0.20768022269061184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26555795472657195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4342521315954456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23972038909468096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568794134868493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109775746364972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17395238832538146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18431600420151767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265550728444122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,cmo2003,2020/01/01,"Do anti psychotics cause motivation problems? I find when I'm on the medications at certain dosages I have trouble doing things I used to be able to do. I feel lazy and unmotivated. I'm not sure if it's a effect of the medication, or just something in my environment.",3.1534615384615385,5.552113576923084,5.712153846153848,72.63284615384616,76.69230769230771,8.006153846153849,31.55384615384615,8.841846274778883,3.0156107692307685,214,11,39,5,5,76,43,52,0.264,0.654,0.08199999999999999,-0.8427,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,3,0,5,2,0,4,2,14,9,4,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,5,2,6,8,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,1,27,7,1,0.3044376603917007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127413384353848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15393282842224482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27825050624476844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6133778287567113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2913057257907456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23437098444791085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869288920474588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20225485402190196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629363918716333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Lorib64,2020/01/01,"New drug Caplyta, can anyone explain to me how it would compare to abilify? It just got fda approval.  Not sure when it will be available. Second gen antipsychotic regulates dopamine, glutamate, and serotonin. Supposed to have fewer side effects. sedation and dry mouth are most common.

I know it must decrease dopamine, but how does it act on the other neurotransmitters?

[link](https://www.mdmag.com/medical-news/lumateperone-fda-approval-schizophrenia-intra-cellular-therapies)",8.909583333333334,13.169236347222226,6.9311111111111146,61.40000000000003,67.47222222222223,9.711111111111112,42.333333333333336,9.827888789773867,5.911050000000001,395,24,44,11,8,116,61,72,0.023,0.9390000000000001,0.038,0.2333,0,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,1,0,7,2,1,3,2,14,10,6,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,4,5,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,30,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610428774275775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3267059280357422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43294736221377467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985882340922095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20517386733859155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36056701098412397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3518616153745427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4269384348365757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652048113837283,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,X-23,2020/01/01,"Wanna get off my meds One of my meds is 800mg of Clozapine, need a blood test every month for it. Also was getting a shot of Aristada 662 once a month but my doctor stopped that the other day because I told him I didn't want to have it anymore.

I told him I wanted off the Clozapine but he said I'd end up in the hospital if I stopped it. 

​

I want to stop it, though. I want the voices back, they're important.  I feel alone.

  
Should I stop taking them against his advice? I don't want to go back to the hospital but I feel like something is missing. Like I'm pushing away something important by taking meds and losing the voices.",1.4878321678321669,3.557460090909096,3.2093939393939412,90.13793706293707,80.66666666666667,6.1827505827505815,23.79020979020979,7.321109707123232,1.0163594405594405,500,18,105,7,13,166,79,132,0.184,0.7340000000000001,0.08199999999999999,-0.8567,0,1,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,1,5,4,0,0,9,0,7,2,1,0,0,19,25,7,0,9,4,0,2,2,0,1,1,3,0,0,6,1,0,4,2,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,5,5,18,2,16,19,0,17,0,2,0,0,8,5,0,1,12,66,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12088936100587873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281277144625704,0.0,0.0989319722839715,0.0,0.1340412643042599,0.15032290768935858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12268847945211855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11623094484838885,0.1902528807012768,0.0,0.07541332911970282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07978362699803596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12662387331148858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10957159242919454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10423220108575684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125104415054226,0.08837945816910188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12926821458912344,0.0,0.07030804694107126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12087829497828495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384014269980843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4122464733187857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974905391688832,0.0,0.0,0.09173044520119153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317486173460145,0.08383005512836167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11767788339577274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904781794472753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4137131228084752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18603117300809813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12154583515973932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23642311332380955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3648409832111181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15032290768935858,0.0
schizophrenia,ekrobs,2020/01/02,Command hallucinations? I’ve just started getting command hallucinations to kill myself. Have you ever experienced something similar? How do you help yourself? I don’t know what to do anymore.,5.82774193548387,9.584999516129038,7.002193548387097,55.90329032258065,86.09677419354837,7.6412903225806454,41.68387096774194,8.238735603445708,5.361962580645162,159,11,18,4,5,53,24,31,0.154,0.7659999999999999,0.08,-0.5484,0,0,1,0,0,1,5.0,0,2,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,4,7,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.437276864439745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3988398487127487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23036392577233103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2955412087954072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4878156678682357,0.0,0.24231959892816501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3394438557916994,0.0,0.0,0.31208737467874353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,basketghostdaddy,2020/01/02,The voices in my head are back And they're telling me to kill my ex. Help,-2.8043137254901964,-1.3072941764705879,-0.8858823529411772,111.50686274509803,108.41176470588236,2.266666666666667,11.549019607843142,3.1291,-2.2422392156862743,57,1,16,0,3,18,16,17,0.22,0.654,0.126,-0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3805983710124886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5079780063752404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33176533689521964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5476066435970632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4326221794416424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mnotforme,2020/01/02,your experiece with medication? i keep stopping meds and seemingly relapsing to nervousness and fear.  what is your on-off experience with pills and injections and do you accept to relinquish your independence and the truth for their manufactured control? i dont trust the doctors.,8.074782608695653,11.281289739130434,7.62108695652174,60.905978260869595,64.65217391304348,12.42608695652174,39.76086956521739,11.698219412168324,6.224321739130435,232,13,32,9,4,73,35,46,0.19699999999999998,0.706,0.096,-0.6324,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,4,1,1,0,5,0,2,2,0,3,3,0,2,1,14,5,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,7,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,7,3,5,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,23,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34664553148702193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163437279114185,0.0,0.0,0.3622248601128481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023273637442859,0.0,0.3477869132374418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2747134341759275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3433043674347085,0.3113530353345313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2813634845719307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2583943061691851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Begone_Thottt,2020/01/02,"I’m thinking of ending my life Hey , F 17 , my bf’s mad at me for canceling on him 3 times and I just feel like I fucked everything up this time. I’m contemplating suicide cuz I’m soo done with this shit  . Nothing matters, we’re all gonna die anyways . Life is a fucking joke and I just feel rlly guilty for everything. I’m fucking done with this world . I’m out. 
Bye",-0.3807692307692321,1.8146432307692355,1.9750769230769265,94.79492307692308,91.05128205128204,5.171282051282052,21.902564102564106,6.742157984588678,0.5255702564102567,284,11,65,4,10,96,55,78,0.287,0.654,0.059000000000000004,-0.9644,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,0,3,7,5,0,1,0,3,6,1,1,1,13,15,3,2,0,2,0,2,1,1,1,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,2,7,2,9,12,1,8,0,0,0,3,4,5,4,0,5,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047927944350116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4038651489181221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747718912049232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3546870085761123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995474806231533,0.14096943108554108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.547272946685322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2787537802023033,0.09640330924565688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893392122919852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20255186835438505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158421531575672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12643826159001648,0.0,0.0,0.2301242606988051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Thebur872,2020/01/02,"How common is this Tried meds for the first time  for over 2 months and they only partially helped get rid of a really painfull delusion. If I try a different antipsychotic what do you think are the odds that the second med will help more than the first based on your own experience?
Thanks",7.689939393939397,7.494531327272727,6.792727272727273,79.01575757575759,63.0,10.969696969696967,29.24242424242424,10.504223727775694,2.6294242424242418,233,6,46,5,3,71,49,55,0.0,0.897,0.10300000000000001,0.6808,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,1,2,1,1,0,0,6,0,4,0,0,1,0,4,7,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,1,6,6,2,7,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,5,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532803213830757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23713610224156134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4124095702036629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12665595359662052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3249819041899328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5385543575528251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19349963673784853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843735306850367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553023099550274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22319042517287474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553347983326816,0.0,0.0,0.14135873578765198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32917845644722243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ohCamelBlack,2020/01/02,"Sometimes I just lost control of my body and just watch It happens sometimes, I do not know how to describe it so I'm gonna give an example case:

 * Once I was walking, I was pretty upset/depressed at the moment and I lost control of my body. I was walking and walking. I couldn't decide where to go, how fast would I go. I just watched all through it. After sometime, IDK, like 5-10 minutes, my steps slowed down and I got back the control

I do not have time gaps during those moments, I see and feel everything happens. What is happening to me?",1.265424242424242,3.5821924818181827,2.6813636363636384,92.1653787878788,83.27272727272728,4.757575757575757,27.34848484848485,5.985473137389443,0.9870303030303024,423,20,86,3,12,137,70,110,0.067,0.8759999999999999,0.057,-0.0085,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,5,8,3,0,0,3,0,9,2,2,5,1,21,23,8,0,2,5,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,3,3,0,0,6,3,2,0,0,6,4,16,1,9,14,1,16,0,2,3,0,1,3,0,0,8,58,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11300264381848728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264773440356997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4944821119844189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265758447296279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13207755848200214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07430704650769593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14097676832216938,0.16704073350731746,0.0,0.11753679110890675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38986691709204657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076499752142037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07179689927672935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3208469100375708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15650687679106387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495104586177193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11710754907584395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4360395679272627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08569315978781229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10439568260770793,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,bro0t,2020/01/02,"Mixed feelings about something I kind if have mixed feelings

Before i became sick i was very interested in linguistics, mainly evolution of languages from older versions. Seeking patterns and commonalities.

This was gone for a while.
Now its back and im excited because its so damn interesting to me, but im also worried that  its a sign im going downhill again. (From previous experience)
Its kind of become an obsession again.
And i noticed in my notes last night (which i rarely make) some minor delusional things regarding religion (which is new to me)

I dont know why i post this. At least i am aware of it and maybe i could use this as a reminder to discuss this in my next therapy session or something.

Have a good day.",3.44464285714286,6.142813338235296,4.683865546218488,78.78382352941179,77.38235294117645,7.709243697478992,30.302521008403357,8.634040054169528,2.8647432773109247,578,28,100,13,14,190,94,136,0.076,0.804,0.12,0.7219,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,7,8,1,1,5,0,8,1,0,2,0,15,15,11,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,13,4,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,2,13,6,15,11,4,19,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,3,12,71,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12840207593688446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12346294262130167,0.0,0.09787764045062076,0.17732908453264892,0.13662718359956194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12819639337210526,0.0,0.0,0.10354977360520716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881784978070344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570613047863046,0.0,0.0,0.1623708315015044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09125158403178923,0.1346725246423301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5203063845662039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3344030597792071,0.08824115894857815,0.13088017602982366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10717696819845253,0.0,0.16130699258375825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15507262859824894,0.17076044284446296,0.1506773846565415,0.0,0.0,0.18280190139037136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537748539361832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24721829654326105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18361764477295764,0.0,0.10667084194889603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13867477463317018,0.0,0.13248119027798658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14488302389960056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16305939703730402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,zca270,2020/01/02,"Suicide dreams Anyone else here have dreams of suicide? More than anything else, I dream of killing myself. Always by shooting myself in the head, and I always wake up immediately after doing such. Just was wondering if anyone does the same.",5.5757142857142865,8.540671571428575,5.362142857142857,75.32035714285716,71.38095238095238,6.104761904761905,27.16666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.783695238095238,194,7,28,2,4,60,33,42,0.245,0.62,0.135,-0.8402,0,0,0,1,0,3,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,2,0,3,2,2,0,0,5,4,2,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,7,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,23,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895657897938286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273644632923561,0.2398544229113665,0.1926373726727708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20485506411781745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3911068491177577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24024543193567985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589875801131471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5121162502052292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538622646053953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,paket12,2020/01/02,I am a poor ugly schizophrenic Shoot me please,2.956666666666667,5.737758000000002,3.653333333333337,84.90000000000002,80.1111111111111,8.044444444444443,20.11111111111111,8.841846274778883,1.6775777777777776,38,1,7,1,1,12,9,9,0.624,0.213,0.163,-0.7579,0,0,0,1,0,1,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,stevenjames33,2020/01/02,"Schizophrenic in IRL As you probably know, or should know by now that you shouldn't tell people that you are schizophrenic. Especially with new people you meet or coworkers. They will never treat you as a normal person and this will mess up your job and social life.

I'm kind of new at this because in recent years I was able to make some what of a normal life for myself in society with medication.

So let me know in the comments what do you tell people about the disability that you had? So that people will understand your situation and life. What do you say about your disability? What do you say instead of being schizophrenic and not being able to work regular jobs.

 I was thinking of telling people that I have some type of learning disability which is more accepting in society than being schizophrenic. 

Thanks for your help, 
Steven",6.187519061583577,7.78112533548387,6.2731964809384175,75.18434017595307,66.61290322580646,10.023460410557183,28.929618768328446,10.230975488527342,3.0384193548387097,677,23,118,17,11,215,85,155,0.03,0.9129999999999999,0.057,0.6243,2,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,13,1,1,6,5,0,0,4,0,18,8,0,1,1,24,26,10,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,5,8,2,0,1,12,6,0,0,7,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,2,19,4,24,14,3,13,0,0,0,0,24,7,0,4,6,92,31,5,0.26344406516341995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08029652846210605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08829050185823968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614275845885815,0.0,0.0,0.13716822700135986,0.21717295283446292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13469470275554826,0.2791175012872871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08792547958663725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326960899654066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10159215193274287,0.2544359197587078,0.0,0.0,0.25811924938889097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4565973602076012,0.11501459809470292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14201862984691502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13005961611002284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095012944884755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14806108355866152,0.0,0.13427402407034186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3453925870800494,0.1212719501880341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08440215977579811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371272813445411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09589520852132127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08482467030614238
schizophrenia,ThrowawayHelp172,2020/01/02,"Need help now I had no idea how to title this. I got really obsessed with mental disorders and have been since September, schizophrenia being the final one, for about 2 days. I then made a post describing my whole situation and some dude said I should stop reading anything about any disorders because it can muck you up.

I did this and haven’t really looked at anything for a week.

I didn’t have many symptoms except ones that crossover with adhd but today I was sat in bed, when suddenly started hearing the soundtrack to a video game I like in my head really quietly and I can still hear it and I’ve gotten an anxiety attack from it as a result. 

I know it’s not real but when it started I g out real. Paranoid my console was on and the music was playing out of it and now I’m mega anxious

I’m now getting anxious that I don’t feel like myself and I just want to go sit in bed idk what to do.

Please say this isn’t a symptom.",1.9757649796393224,4.006733141361258,3.808019197207681,86.66053374054684,78.84293193717278,6.548109365910412,24.74723676556137,7.594959193182576,1.3303296102385116,734,27,147,11,18,247,120,191,0.109,0.809,0.08199999999999999,-0.4672,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,10,5,1,1,9,0,17,3,1,3,0,30,35,15,0,3,5,0,1,2,0,1,2,5,2,0,12,12,0,1,3,4,0,1,6,2,0,2,12,7,18,3,22,21,2,26,0,0,1,0,7,8,0,1,17,103,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15229780839110876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08617677113559934,0.0,0.096943631917279,0.2863244497019949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085663643680487,0.0,0.0,0.14416702110522975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07724986883751955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08172659651713501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904737215957163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06407554053603387,0.09053176184089763,0.0,0.13882011786334453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662081407785321,0.0,0.07202025779552702,0.0,0.101352883436083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13005554321998616,0.0,0.28565466602597256,0.0,0.08494053004254752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305614637525052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06964428160982647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382204235478933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10641637412724296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11990945977217198,0.0,0.12847840329448246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12770814266615213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09396435541191292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17174313450686954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13910506792966468,0.0,0.0,0.12136671095041235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12675844861959865,0.2884796642762425,0.2435482164576597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12054369119510615,0.10077613460065647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10482753076521932,0.14244326005009494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17939201868224586,0.0,0.10120207408966196,0.1059470681323015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26342983826234184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12011968172320905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07474519008403539,0.0,0.10165047346913512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414829937711645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,thoughtbot100,2020/01/02,Any Schizophrenics with voices with foreign languages? Like Japanese? What do they say in your language to you? Mine are English mostly. Some arabic.,4.716249999999999,7.679428125000005,2.9986666666666686,82.11300000000004,101.08333333333334,3.586666666666667,29.8,5.6839178017228535,1.93256,121,6,15,1,5,34,23,24,0.0,0.883,0.11699999999999999,0.466,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,4,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,1,13,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5888826346104883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4230644149454457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6886463123121171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,QTRNevermore45,2020/01/02,"just so tired. it's nearly 11am and I'm still just laying here. I'm so sick of waking to the same nothingness.every day merging into 1,today will be yesterday and tomorrow will be today. the same sun rise, the same faces, the same lines over and over again. ""you're not alone"" but I know when the day faces I'll be here.. alone.im just so tired, tried of living,breathing ... fighting. I try to see the light but nothing positive comes my way. I wish I could fade off into the darkness.",1.9646875,4.330349427083334,2.781083333333332,92.22225000000002,80.77083333333334,5.923333333333334,21.058333333333334,7.1686216300943375,0.533140833333333,379,11,79,5,10,119,62,96,0.184,0.768,0.048,-0.929,0,2,0,0,2,0,21.0,0,0,0,0,11,1,1,0,7,0,6,6,3,0,0,19,12,9,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,10,6,4,18,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,0,9,50,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22514011461221295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872536160290653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17356023622446515,0.0,0.0,0.28038422447257805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18315201981992607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348076952843446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11946635930218208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085819662766413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17322371032305398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17359994339600926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4996926486619989,0.4121016320163719,0.0,0.0,0.295173492413603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725461204214916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499762641866432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,DemetriusTheDementor,2020/01/02,Can anyone talk to me? I need a one on one with somebody to get down to the deeper core of things. Let me know if you can talk via Telegram or some other form of chat maybe like a pen pal? I think we need to stay close to one another so we can all relate better to what the other is going through. Anyways I promise I don't bite I just have the emotional baggage of my mom dying recently and I love discussing dreams. Last night I had a dream that I lived in a mansion with grass floors. Meanings? Interpretations? If it makes any difference only the living room was grass? We just bought a Tesla and have charge anxiety but we're doing pretty well for ourselves. Also the neighbor is a convicted burglar so we got some BB guns that look like glocks. That's in real life.,1.604178368121442,4.018329212903228,2.963301707779888,90.05671726755224,82.67741935483872,5.453510436432637,21.37571157495256,6.794906146795322,0.5394060721062628,608,19,122,7,17,197,107,155,0.009000000000000001,0.835,0.156,0.9607,0,0,0,1,0,0,12.0,4,1,0,1,7,6,0,0,11,0,12,2,0,1,1,26,24,9,1,4,6,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,2,0,8,9,0,0,4,3,1,1,1,0,1,3,4,1,16,6,17,19,4,12,0,0,1,1,13,7,0,5,5,84,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13090164852203856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113138052023913,0.17164168314715592,0.12522126805925926,0.0,0.0,0.11445481757274405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447691919617079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16988283836169446,0.1710196617451132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18412755061965166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08552049454066339,0.0,0.0930279568523491,0.0,0.13091666089174545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08995892854210487,0.1334279891983981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673825996567228,0.11561804094588607,0.15993988311253302,0.0,0.2890799202080395,0.0,0.13745712892057213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14773527811429749,0.0,0.10926335667398206,0.0,0.16444711733263073,0.17830478278539735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19171001366684595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24274592367430076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361058536332245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3327587278002883,0.12449249385157395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16653006965698974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18631336919997246,0.0,0.0,0.16162266376844794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17447018049304913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26313326034615725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10874737778544924,0.10488499273467712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14717563567638495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SpaghetBurger,2020/01/02,"If there was a ""Biggest loser of r/schizophrenia award"" I would definitely take the #1 prize. I often laugh at how much of a loser I really am... like dafuqqqqq lmao wut am I doing",2.625,4.273018166666667,4.823333333333338,81.855,75.66666666666666,7.022222222222222,23.11111111111111,7.793537801064563,1.1950111111111108,138,4,27,2,3,48,29,36,0.14300000000000002,0.441,0.41600000000000004,0.9182,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,4,3,6,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,1,0,4,6,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,4,3,4,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,20,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32501998264300835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4890540065353527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42619249141975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5002043471328951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4725925950977633,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,realcockasian,2020/01/02,"been off my meds. do you ever get the feeling that there’s two of you sitting on your own with the view of you? you know your fucked up when you can hear your neighbours talk shit about you. dissected a bathroom sink ripping off disconnecting the shut off valve, unscrewing the pivot rod, pulling the sink trap out of place all because I thought the cops “implemented” a bug in the taps could hear radio static.",8.06576923076923,7.33204416666667,6.840641025641028,80.75019230769233,62.46153846153847,9.851282051282054,34.884615384615394,8.841846274778883,2.6900153846153847,327,12,64,4,4,98,58,78,0.126,0.856,0.018000000000000002,-0.8689,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,9,0,0,4,2,2,0,9,0,4,2,1,0,2,8,11,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,2,0,1,2,4,11,0,12,8,2,13,0,0,1,1,13,9,2,0,2,43,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16174918642014993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118529036301877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400157926160678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13416419609635685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24530313857476724,0.13862952865127715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5981163531034974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458242720502068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2947336253075734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772244854893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723683456259889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21327074901862825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21065082291404144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259199241891156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,x_casio,2020/01/02,"Is it psychosis?  My therapist says she wants me to spend some time in the hospital due to being psychotic. I hear my guardian angel in my mind, and I feel him influencing my body. Sometimes I would do things under his influence, like cut myself or cut off some people from my life or throw things away. Sometimes he is comforting me.

 I see things in my peripheral, sometimes not in a peripheral but straight ahead of me. I hear things when I wake up. Sometimes objects breathe and stretch like they're made of rubber.

 Is this like what you experience? Is this psychotic?",3.99858490566038,6.535985650943399,4.3515471698113215,82.74392452830193,74.56603773584905,8.013584905660379,29.467924528301893,8.841846274778883,2.5786407547169814,453,20,84,10,10,142,70,106,0.028999999999999998,0.85,0.121,0.8717,0,0,0,0,0,1,13.0,0,1,0,1,1,6,2,0,2,0,7,4,3,3,0,15,13,6,0,2,4,0,1,3,0,1,1,3,0,0,8,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,5,20,4,14,10,2,15,1,0,1,0,8,10,0,4,7,60,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14860254262337527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17568721824352773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15471709239246562,0.0,0.0,0.07997368598662713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3565300638943313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11171760833996544,0.23181634639358065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14966087531096076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15970297937835182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10965266919088372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12578027241091502,0.0,0.0,0.1260381457293568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6257224695291466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836433851571453,0.4203149217904253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09222810183099638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329064274424308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11235687504231157,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Lunar_Ghoul11,2020/01/02,"I’ve been telling my friends about the hallucinations I experience. I have been lurking, my name is Eve, but I wanted to say hello and say that I’ve been opening up to people about the hallucinations and voices. It’s scary in a way and also kinda nice. I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder 2 months ago.",4.507457627118646,6.706080762711867,5.812000000000001,74.41054237288138,71.88135593220339,8.787796610169492,28.749152542372883,9.3871,2.7699938983050845,251,10,45,6,5,84,43,59,0.153,0.757,0.08900000000000001,-0.5844,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,0,0,9,7,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,6,2,7,3,0,7,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,3,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708404971411078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443381728522408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101140605327193,0.0,0.0,0.350172365973511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988742351497353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23605746095261845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24387706209687476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21182118361828944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4859512563534738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670531814398241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802138927616678,0.24252139080264895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,katflem101,2020/01/02,"Anyone else have breakthrough symptoms with aristada? The last week before my next injection I always feel off. My main symptom is everything looks like a fun house whenever I have an episode. Yesterday my paranoia started getting worse and everything started looking funny, then I had a nightmare that night. Should I tell my doctor to up the dose or is that something that just happens close to my next injection? I have to work today so it’s kinda a bummer that I have another 5 days before I see the doctor.",5.928115501519759,7.767149744680857,6.0918237082066895,75.30500000000002,67.51063829787232,8.77568389057751,34.705167173252285,9.23628265651192,3.5154699088145893,412,20,65,8,7,131,65,94,0.083,0.82,0.098,0.3376,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,7,0,8,5,0,0,0,8,16,4,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,12,2,6,14,1,14,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,2,12,44,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13505198654362413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701924873253855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11348845881672025,0.1663021607343806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2762217059376197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10467424695848128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3322551025706687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13558623038261308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2917411823404468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08206702884856792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08479843250368248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14352707688712268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18727987664233284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13230143718079895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792947436495249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27259311657462026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3452295479309888,0.15231362873596652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293372440445066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12495145148112174,0.0,0.0,0.22976271209322785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3373971402409233,0.0,0.0,0.1418630102014285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15384755716131132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13019246141155472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181610444486066,0.0,0.16540416087846696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Schietzelfromage1991,2020/01/02,"Poem about a girl. Cool cookin Colleen.....
Awried me and got away awfully......
A lot of love from the living Lord......
Gave me a heavy helpin of heaven......
Beuteacious buried bounty.......
With this withered weathered woman.....
Grant Grace and save this savicious lavish steward.....
Youve made Heaven so simple yet infinite....
I bless your name Lord.",2.6563157894736875,5.519352263157893,1.9522982456140348,91.21792105263157,96.5438596491228,3.6835087719298247,19.735087719298246,5.6839178017228535,0.16786456140350836,257,8,42,2,10,74,49,57,0.0,0.6809999999999999,0.319,0.9643,0,0,0,0,0,0,46.0,0,1,0,0,3,7,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,1,0,7,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,4,7,6,1,1,3,5,0,0,1,6,1,0,1,2,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43177840181189214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675577779398196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4058061532998771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3907074990679225,0.414777234441642,0.434853485106995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,chronicbluntman87,2020/01/02,"Christ v Marx On one hand I agree with a future,  destroyed for the working classes by capitalism in lock step with technology, which must rely on some idealised form of modern socialism to keep the people surviving. 
However, suicides may increase due to displacement may cancel out the equation of jobs lost, expenditure on social services, etc. 
On the other hand I feel like I need a happy,  non corrupt belief system such as ignoring possible fact that Christ was perhaps just a revolutionary and accept the good lord in my life, also ignoring that Marx wrote that religion is the opium of the poor .
All whilst battling on, quitting alcohol and working min wage. 
Sorry folks. Just had a moment.",7.81467213114754,9.248526491803284,7.864057377049183,65.84313524590166,62.77049180327869,10.362295081967213,36.56147540983606,10.411451182825502,4.329718032786886,560,26,81,13,8,181,92,122,0.135,0.669,0.196,0.8689,3,0,1,0,0,1,14.0,0,0,0,5,4,9,2,0,11,0,6,4,2,0,3,21,11,4,1,2,2,0,3,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,5,1,3,3,0,2,2,0,5,0,1,4,3,4,4,18,4,5,17,4,1,0,0,3,8,0,3,7,55,9,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22810563269890535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706902734180695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23804534300442196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079231835696112,0.1524837070479481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17902584428931148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272140204031971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21180922214673026,0.1897179270995404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507610885266452,0.10427745825651724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329982255864591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15826526461243284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14463448671011853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479744868576451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406248887450252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270228816834805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43515647574234817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389319404736141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23347197613860965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31077806202378405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,tempthethrowaway,2020/01/02,"I Finally Got a Disability Consult After 6 years of fighting, almost 7, I've finally gotten an appoint for a full psychological evaluation for disability. I've sorted my meds to take, I've made drawings of my hallucinations because it's easier than describing (and my god did they scare my therapist), and I've got one of my stuffed comfort toys ready to go with me. Any other advice? I plan to be honest, and as coherent as I can be. I'm already scared because they aren't allowing my wife in with me, but I'm trying to just keep it cool and not dwell on that. I understand that I will most likely still have to appeal and try to find a lawyer (again) but this is still a win for me.",8.466304347826089,5.878297514492754,9.540869565217395,67.62478260869567,62.98550724637681,12.968115942028986,38.21739130434783,11.538034831475384,4.231686956521739,539,21,107,13,6,189,89,138,0.055,0.816,0.129,0.8719,1,0,0,0,2,0,16.0,0,0,2,2,4,9,1,3,5,1,8,0,0,2,0,19,18,9,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,7,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,4,0,1,5,1,16,5,20,10,2,11,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,3,8,70,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18122672293471687,0.0,0.0,0.18570869237092089,0.0,0.20465673746876067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12611732066286874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261060921861667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4063188046690767,0.1695046084077334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10539965499901163,0.0,0.2966542824005735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16484296564684914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09060506685855237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17548417734058333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060012471440026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12567066322412654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3713502125215083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962128717872282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394408059048286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21533021440227634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518266600578538,0.0,0.0,0.1930675853038865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194284179605165
schizophrenia,jjusedtobeonice,2020/01/02,"i need help. i don't now if i'm schizophrenic, and i've never talked to anyone about what i'm about to talk about, except i'll probably tell you as much as i've told my best friend. 

ever since one night when i was five or seven, every single night (i'm 15 now), i have to hold my breath in the dark until i get to my bed, then i have to cover at least my feet and ears with blankets, then i can breathe. i'm not allowed to talk about them, they don't like it when i try, but they make sure i do those things every night. every night since that one random day. i might've seen them before, i don't know, i don't remember so probably not. but they follow me everywhere at night, even in dark cars, where i have to bring my feet up onto the seat with me. 

i told my parents about it the night it happened, and my dad said ""since when did this game start,"" and i went back upstairs. 

could it be schizophrenia, or is it some kind of OCD ? i really can't tell anyone about it and this is probably the most i've ever typed about it. i really want to tell my therapist but i just don't want to make them mad at me and i don't want to disappoint them.",3.0693168016194328,3.2310680647773284,4.284876012145748,91.83800227732794,72.80566801619432,7.794433198380567,21.51037449392713,7.645422480735847,0.44408522267206463,880,15,214,10,16,290,119,247,0.026000000000000002,0.894,0.08,0.8481,2,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,7,1,19,7,1,0,4,0,18,6,5,3,4,36,39,21,0,6,10,2,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,0,13,8,0,1,2,1,0,4,10,2,0,4,7,3,38,5,31,30,6,32,0,1,1,0,22,8,0,6,21,143,51,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13776737085004132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07575163163977057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08382865226012869,0.0,0.1033849746102689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07865587650909706,0.0,0.0,0.06353375466340062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06506795145950912,0.17822415667426703,0.24900834949400344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761121206965795,0.0,0.0514698023924343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08711611839078659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0660322468655716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10258777599893397,0.05414103719074845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04812924798135326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315184952320389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10450840202520516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07241955207002618,0.07304731333811741,0.07598051789079825,0.0,0.0,0.554695562730433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13351205896106455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10938878348686562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31864614068970365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12622192605223295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115978156981338,0.0,0.09370992588691587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444768376061453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06972912729297596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284882646654076,0.0,0.0,0.23754686497610306,0.2583182572937182,0.0,0.0,0.11438302123902555,0.06544870998905537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18826980727564627,0.0,0.0668849336492507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743193564192788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09132400331273798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,gavofthedead,2020/01/02,"Finding Motivation For a while now i’ve felt like the world is closing in on me. it’s like my head is stuck inside of a paper bag and i can’t breathe. I don’t have anyone to talk to and i’ve been isolating myself lately. i’m either sleeping, writing music, or just doodling. I think i just lack the motivation to do anything. I feel like no matter how hard i try nothing is going to get better for me or it won’t be worth it because the world is going to end. Some pointers on finding motivation or drive to do anything is appreciated. I’m always available to talk to anyone, i always enjoy making new friends and usually feel better when i’m taking to someone with the same problems as me. I don’t get to often.  

Happy New Years everyone.",2.210208136234627,4.235559675496692,4.55815042573321,81.5934602649007,78.0728476821192,6.168590350047302,26.017502365184484,7.1686216300943375,1.4188350047303695,585,23,110,7,14,204,87,151,0.066,0.703,0.231,0.9756,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,5,6,9,0,0,6,0,14,3,3,5,0,29,28,10,0,2,6,0,4,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,9,0,1,3,5,1,0,0,3,4,13,8,18,23,4,18,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,5,12,72,16,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592685245931188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21787154731154976,0.0,0.2564126969198017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497143638355424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755767605473968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13798849144182945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14886919148598973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15754968165859712,0.1113002726056145,0.14958802635191382,0.0,0.2847883660005021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12036714791761036,0.0,0.16279334385012698,0.0,0.17708424452969454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16584711180153452,0.1395620867403654,0.0,0.15989103845890884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17574400935394735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283413045615708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10399464648084486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009363571484773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14948989848900465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490751675067196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15590792438343662,0.0,0.13200494599645232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11713875994423267,0.250444899553107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09982740849829697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10577485725451237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17158663438743008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10032713660264343
schizophrenia,merp1234567890,2020/01/02,"Avolition - How can I help my mom? I’m desperate to help my mom. 

For the last few years, I have watched my mom steadily decline. She has tried meds, but none seem to help. She is like a numb shell of herself. 

How can I help her take small steps to help pull her out of this avolition hell?",0.20421428571428635,2.4047978500000013,1.322857142857142,100.84500000000004,87.16666666666666,5.428571428571429,20.238095238095237,6.868970318607317,0.0958095238095238,221,7,54,3,7,69,41,60,0.14800000000000002,0.612,0.239,0.7013,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,2,0,5,1,0,2,0,5,8,3,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,1,11,1,7,8,2,6,1,0,1,0,13,2,1,1,3,31,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.633539141480978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15409076476783753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09235415692671113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099780085757932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6641951841675104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720926087186936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14213264795252495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283440302385102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12173392985905925
schizophrenia,leetlebloo,2020/01/02,this doesn’t fucking feel real who are my friends. who are my enemies. i can’t fucking trust anyone. my only long term friend left me. i want her to fcuking die,-0.1463636363636347,2.1666149696969725,1.6446060606060615,95.02690909090909,96.27272727272728,3.852121212121212,21.75151515151515,5.6839178017228535,0.2036715151515152,126,5,26,1,5,41,26,33,0.172,0.557,0.271,0.4754,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,3,8,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,7,3,1,8,1,3,0,0,0,2,5,1,2,0,2,15,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034352099054823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019545320535332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711031777328148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4495661100222095,0.5379471381559932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31611212933723626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574767911900026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22127645786736208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3311586194028417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17160664698728714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ragsdalesreptarium,2020/01/02,"I think things are going well I started taking risperidone and I didn't know how it was going to affect me. But I have already seen such an impact! I'm in such a better mood and not having so many hallucinations whereas before they were near constant. I can actually sleep though the night because I don't have voices screaming at me all night and I'm not seeing faces. I'm also not having as many nightmares. I also feel more able to do my stuff I want to do not just the stuff I have to do. I can actually persue my dream of starting a YouTube channel now and I might actually be able to do it this time. Last time I tried it I was in the thick of my first major symptoms and I couldn't do it properly, but hopefully this time things will work out for the better!",2.247983725135626,4.092157613924051,3.8975045207956636,87.22050632911396,77.29113924050633,6.033273056057867,22.678119349005428,6.868970318607317,0.6373511754068715,605,18,125,6,14,202,90,158,0.0,0.8909999999999999,0.109,0.914,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,4,10,6,0,0,7,0,22,3,2,2,1,23,37,13,0,3,7,0,2,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,10,6,0,0,3,2,0,2,7,1,1,1,5,6,20,4,14,28,3,19,0,0,2,0,1,6,0,2,11,97,30,1,0.2731815551716825,0.0,0.3998786864017075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15073131961082606,0.21846319097301709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08326447022656717,0.0,0.11622869133941513,0.0,0.0,0.2416068856857467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476061058075647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06906440124106109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618404563708552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552553732754766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356654619928395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.075066719203743,0.11133971426069464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769632194035404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14490122975698227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563623837025597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10884516526832587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13668942181186708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933593108082649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31272752255713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14197011758634118,0.10269926581254203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18148968656386066,0.0875218549831386,0.13419974546883173,0.0,0.2389415425327208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09273617192666632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08056477956514685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12281151294260476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099439712870802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,electricsix_fan,2020/01/02,"Anyone take Vitamin D3 for deficiency? If so, how much? I just started taking prescription Vitamin D3 at 50k units / every-other-week. It's helping a lot with energy level, positivity/mood, focus, and my disjointed thinking.

Read a few research articles and took the deficiency test; I was at 20 when my birth month and health profile suggests I should be in the 40's.",5.7971641791044775,7.616809313432835,7.424059701492543,65.70265671641793,67.80597014925374,10.733134328358213,34.295522388059695,10.793553405168565,4.429808358208955,292,14,46,9,5,101,55,67,0.036000000000000004,0.821,0.14300000000000002,0.6966,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,0,3,3,0,1,0,10,8,7,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,0,5,4,3,9,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,4,29,6,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22089811130794426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33580742955853626,0.0,0.0,0.21175403911717047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26858328085021405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521637612351337,0.0,0.23223702645017574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160047797439116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236092977187711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4750639751162029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20242832316701886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35099795258842553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25341139647327504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jetibbs,2020/01/02,"I think my friend might be showing signs of Schizophrenia? So this is a boy whos side I havent left for more than a couple of days in about 4 years. I know him inside and out and I am so in love with him.

But last night for the first time I was scared of him.

For the last year or two he has gradually become a completely different person. All of us in our friend group have been trying to figure out what happened because he is just unrecognisable and its been getting progressively worse. To sum it up quickly and get straight to the point, he is emotionless, wont talk to us, wont acknowledge us, doesnt care if any of us live or die. He only cares about himself now.

And then last night i witnessed something that can only be described as hard core mental illness. It started off small, with him yelling at me because he got kicked out of a club because as i said to him... that didnt happen? Then it grew to him saying that a couple of months ago me and his roomate stole from him while he was asleep and his roommate admitted to it and he remembers what we said and this whole elaborate story... Which also never happened. He then claimed a girl walked up to us when we were shouting and asked for directions... somewhere around the time i slapped him. I can categorically say with 100% certainty that this girl never existed and i never touched him. At one point i even saw in his eyes that he was going to hurt me and when i said thats not ok he said i attacked him first. But i didnt.

I can go on but i think you are starting to get the jist. I spent an hour being yelled at for things that were happening entirely in his imagination and he adamantly believes it is all categorically true. I thought maybe he was just drunk, but this morning it continued... more things i never did and never said.

I dont know how to reason with someone who is making it up as they go? I dont know what I can do to help him because i know he wont believe me if i say i think he has a problem... I could do with someone to talk to who maybe knows a little more about it ??",4.099971157108925,4.717286902612828,4.904807431286057,86.67778800475064,70.7102137767221,7.819511367492365,27.86231761112997,7.83500028581142,1.4650996946046833,1610,54,349,19,28,522,198,421,0.05,0.8959999999999999,0.053,0.5009,1,0,1,0,1,0,43.0,8,1,1,3,15,11,1,1,14,1,39,5,2,3,8,67,75,35,1,4,11,0,2,0,2,4,1,11,0,4,28,25,1,0,17,3,1,5,15,4,0,4,20,15,57,7,56,47,6,60,0,1,2,1,64,24,0,5,31,247,85,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06217863857498841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05609432525866756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04770049014128076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06244324712756112,0.06557539781329691,0.0797992020159018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710371163060265,0.07746880471376218,0.0,0.1580570817068931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14303345987319804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07354490354577428,0.0,0.0,0.05600446982132686,0.15522653997373909,0.0,0.04523723342235566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07279864920358249,0.07328580380668448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644170592360809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046329610520940236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193293134062024,0.0,0.0,0.10838653526658684,0.0,0.10994241458093826,0.0,0.11959376819337166,0.0,0.05610075839956952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24811328739327804,0.0,0.06283546340533486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047016207064828786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0690779492254702,0.0,0.07509086218508818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19274720580438265,0.1715307586087007,0.0,0.0,0.07621192454412007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703029583805746,0.061938651090285374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06330791732793113,0.0,0.046821826442409314,0.0,0.14093863891949102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07068889817910094,0.07441195632240864,0.0,0.0,0.055988465022463636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704978197485251,0.0,0.0,0.13165123947379204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04753155395835782,0.10669571424376907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0612472468236849,0.0,0.0,0.1326179632723848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671185667346673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07211996363488123,0.0,0.0,0.07945975277091066,0.0,0.3336161866866726,0.16734455068284215,0.0702266233465897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11886597781980925,0.05400046469267347,0.0,0.0,0.09929691152053403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275856995602285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09320143557240497,0.1348367945776044,0.0,0.05568669323183187,0.08180334358962198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0476233361613824,0.0,0.0685207324113143,0.0,0.4218744345247178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07831354157979595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07148297553701015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09034118459815353
schizophrenia,Charles327,2020/01/02,"Am I mad? I can sometimes see shadows in open doors or outside they went quickly behind a wall or something.
But yesterday at the training hall we (a training partner and myself) noticed that the door was a bit open. When I got up to investigate the door shut down loudly and I went to the door to realize the door was locked. I don't know if it was real but it felt like it.
Do you have some idea to this or some shadows you are welcome. 
Gerne auch auf deutsch MfG",1.366736842105265,3.613858778947371,2.6476315789473723,93.00092105263157,82.26315789473685,5.063157894736842,25.28947368421053,6.2581,0.7219263157894744,364,15,77,3,10,117,64,95,0.022000000000000002,0.9,0.078,0.7311,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,1,2,1,0,2,3,1,0,8,0,9,0,0,0,0,18,15,9,0,1,6,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,5,1,5,5,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,7,3,10,2,9,8,3,14,0,0,1,0,6,9,0,6,4,53,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051089923540273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683351449931213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22351778756578605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154877518176212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358947090887606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365349855905845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3181785875233688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31809818394269085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22270150503284247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2151497544768189,0.2764030978292761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5181432081053919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Deadeye_Joe49,2020/01/02,"I’m entering 2020 but the person I care about the most isn’t currently part of my life. My New Years wish is that maybe I can spend 2020 with him back in my life in some capacity. 

2018 was the best year of my life 
2019 the worst 
2020 I’m hoping will get back on track and having him back in my life in some way would certainly help that. So hopefully I get lucky",3.5796153846153835,3.7866464487179528,4.411948717948722,91.21638461538464,71.69230769230771,8.804102564102564,22.01025641025641,8.841846274778883,0.8704994871794871,285,5,70,5,5,92,50,78,0.055999999999999994,0.625,0.319,0.9807,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,5,7,0,0,4,0,7,4,0,0,1,12,15,3,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,10,6,9,12,6,14,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,6,7,44,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.428921502781727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195129080456691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18957484329249824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19428848824470735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12462944117305412,0.0,0.0,0.3693541663374656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5253303201727868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18679839256287936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1795788098746686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013513114180542,0.0,0.0,0.1623527422043814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14758788661691147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21381801251500124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13208408687011816,0.0,0.0,0.2394742590752753
schizophrenia,toomadtoobad,2020/01/02,"Anyone else feel like people can hear their thoughts? Or that people are constantly watching you? My entire life I felt like everyone I’ve ever been around can hear my thoughts. For the past year or so it’s been so bad that sometimes I have to bite my own tongue to make sure I’m not talking while I’m not aware or something. 

Sometimes I get thoughts I can’t control. Intrusive thoughts that make me feel uncomfortable (Don’t worry, they’re not thoughts about harming myself or others, it’s just something I’m not comfortable talking about). Sometimes I have to leave the room or continuously shuffle around in the chair to try to get the thoughts to shut up. But they just come back and I always lose the fight against them. 

As for the feeling watched, this also goes back to as long as I can remember. I’ll be in public or in class and feel like someone is watching my every move. Even when I know I’m alone, like in a bathroom or in my own home, I still feel like i’m being watched. And if I’m with my relatives or friends, I feel like they’re staring me down and it does look like it in the corner of my eye. But when I actually turn my head to look, they aren’t even looking at me. 

I’ve never posted here, so sorry if this post mentions things that have been discussed several times before. I’ve never shared this information with anyone, so I’m pretty nervous about posting it. However, it would be reassuring to know I’m not the only person who feels this way.",3.1735494880546082,5.073681549488062,3.841550853242321,88.39517269624572,74.80204778156997,6.462744027303756,26.737064846416374,7.24861992348623,1.256973078498293,1166,44,236,13,25,369,147,293,0.091,0.795,0.113,0.7599,2,1,2,0,1,0,28.0,0,1,4,2,21,17,1,1,9,0,18,3,2,3,4,54,53,27,0,3,19,0,8,7,1,1,1,2,2,1,17,9,0,1,18,0,0,2,10,5,0,0,10,19,28,12,32,39,2,35,0,1,9,0,19,14,0,10,22,146,45,1,0.0,0.0,0.08196358834837966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08698986377328652,0.0,0.06716797242425884,0.0698876566472215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11745761978322755,0.08605921768756193,0.0,0.14954048495296338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12916855845043682,0.07012939440193322,0.0,0.0,0.07147058046733164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0723512403708267,0.0,0.0907649732696552,0.0942036095001308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07350152789898481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07016412092546515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11095118757726133,0.0759751206024636,0.07076646150500528,0.08025747788899522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29728038340713897,0.2400141783137154,0.08064501188969657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06489162476218714,0.0,0.08776418454423299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08619951083009704,0.0,0.1893290502514284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08425032302370485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09231906396678698,0.0,0.0,0.08893487137548535,0.0,0.0,0.05932568056767179,0.28723803121712393,0.0,0.0,0.07432983468459509,0.2115951192921844,0.09396500461349357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11212995727589163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08926967251588498,0.0,0.0,0.1295588458469508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.063879320760746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08017939084840557,0.11645826154844027,0.0733381383365402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413219196037073,0.08544955126861832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09514599664660853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948864880801784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07116572561989988,0.12932152072955735,0.24920922428587214,0.0940216080719421,0.0,0.0,0.06707572061549401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916099501018059,0.0,0.0,0.1350183727583874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05580022066012222,0.0,0.0,0.4000792156581892,0.048976119251839055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05702471533953742,0.0913586335322471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0666685434353973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852974455732437,0.0,0.05966515196116535,0.0,0.0,0.05408777240729922
schizophrenia,574R5,2020/01/02,"I have always been schizophrenic. There was never a psychotic ""break"" that ""changed"" me, or even altered my fundamental thoughts in a way. When it was at its worst I just jumped to conclusions too early. I was a bit too eager and a bit too stupid at times for my thoughts to be correct. I still think even those thoughts hold merit as some kind of truth maybe, just not the ""dumbed down"" version I thought was real (and I was wrong about many many things which there is no shame in) - absolutely not to say complex delusions must be real either, everyone knows of the number-schizos and that get pretty complicated. I mean if there are extremely many books about a theory you thought you first discovered then it might be in some sense true. There was a woman in a psychward who went around screaming that she ""had parkinson's in her blood"" - this is incorrect, but she was right in that she was suffering from parkinsonism from the antipsychotics. And nobody took her seriously. Etc.

The short version I think is I was extremely open minded to what could be considered real since I was born basically. I have always had what is considered ""weird thoughts"" so I never panicked when they constantly got weirder.

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I have always been into the occult etc. Read many books for and by witches in my early teens, read about the occult, read about otherkins before they were even called that and thought I might be some kind of cat. In another life where internet were more prolific then I could have been a furry if the costumes didn't look so ridiculous.

I tattooed a tiger onto my shoulder at 18, and now as an adult I've developed vitiligo on my face that is exactly where the white markings of a tiger is - my top lip, my jawbones, around my eyes. As for delusions of reference, I was not aware before the tattoo that [The Tyger by William Blake](https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/43687/the-tyger) had this line 

""And what shoulder, & what art,   


Could twist the sinews of thy heart? ""

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As a like 2 year old child I made a drawing of a hunkering red figure, and when my grandmother asked who he was I said ""the devil"". She threw the drawing away. I have no idea where I would have gotten that as nobody in my country is religious and my family certainly weren't. I guess you could say me and satan go way back. Thoughts like believing I have personal relationship to satan is classified as a delusion, especially as I am not christian. Sidenote but I read somewhere that if a persons thoughts/delusions can be explained as following in line with a persons religion or education then they are declared sane. I, growing up in an atheist country, an autodidact with no formal education, can never be declared sane if I go outside the norm in intellectual or spiritual matters, sadly. 

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I once taught my mother about quantum immortality. A real theory developed by a quantumphysicist 1987, and then further developed by Max Tegmark, an astrophysicist. I love learning and teaching others more than anything in the universe. She said, ignoring that I had included her too in ""everyone is immortal from their point of view as consciousness can't experience death"", came to the conclusion I would surely ""jump in front of a bus because that is what you do if you are immortal"" and called the psychiatry on me. My father questioned my sanity when I talked about Alan Watt's lectures. I told him I was just spiritual. He said ""no you are not"". I tried explaining myself when a psychiatrist and the police arrived. I was locked up. 

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The times I have been hospitalized have not been ""psychotic breaks"" as I am always psychotic according to diagnosis criteria. But everyone in my family thinks so. What happened those times were that I wanted to free myself from my family, and not play the social game any longer of unnecessary cosseting. I wanted to be left to my own devices. And I am not allowed to.",7.647133860333909,8.41211517630466,7.367122380030834,71.61157312953063,62.96332863187589,10.939495522681801,36.09344966707121,10.773722962092908,4.086298691245449,3136,139,529,77,43,993,322,709,0.066,0.858,0.076,0.8148,1,0,0,0,0,0,120.0,0,6,4,4,36,27,3,1,44,0,75,10,7,2,10,105,113,50,1,14,23,2,0,2,0,5,2,6,0,6,30,24,0,2,24,9,1,11,18,14,0,1,48,11,82,14,80,48,14,79,4,2,5,1,48,39,1,15,27,397,112,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18617704265062646,0.30303985443920245,0.2718794532505058,0.03803923805467187,0.05865506828616584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04603157834673298,0.09959199728794342,0.05229376387038599,0.0,0.05255487374132048,0.0430122810118269,0.0,0.034098819341685564,0.0,0.09519693423903372,0.06302210878198113,0.0,0.0,0.12213794627971054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11423634244132255,0.06397729513377648,0.0,0.0,0.059174177749788386,0.0,0.0,0.06044827910351529,0.0,0.1786453223729444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12476960700988116,0.11083804873072678,0.0,0.0,0.16035127589907416,0.0,0.054717349466342255,0.158197940968843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047580183621958094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029224896628685867,0.0,0.06358083959149803,0.0,0.04473811689331121,0.0,0.06162117091007464,0.0,0.04946511228567173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06628589295066617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06314632975270723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116500045058511,0.030741641539739864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06077596963368718,0.0,0.039510123429514016,0.054656215166592255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046973189352519214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05048553863597676,0.052929164381241324,0.0,0.22684630688299534,0.056196471158692494,0.0609320476137544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11868113355977128,0.05648066156320085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12942673244918054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05869671860815304,0.05957132981449145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465267083347945,0.0,0.0,0.05287876770555682,0.0,0.0,0.05690827792137355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0626625051778948,0.0,0.22380949014182488,0.2546752791670255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06005565659862474,0.0,0.04777009316107349,0.1596273603060983,0.08896706905558317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04627185893501607,0.0,0.0,0.057020966868031826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04467154822806901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05272018211552937,0.0,0.0,0.04496023072884045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03716221347280987,0.1075269648650337,0.0,0.3552633315169975,0.09785235491052537,0.0,0.0,0.05345042529969138,0.06214832642191505,0.03797771083347296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06598646112127969,0.08880074715683409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05185437737225211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07947241383054453,0.06115858543514095,0.2718794532505058,0.03602174544634509
schizophrenia,alastorismypimpdaddy,2020/01/02,"A quick question If you want to answer, of course, what were some of the first symptoms of Schizophrenia that you noticed? Did you have any previous disorders before getting diagnosed with schizophrenia?",10.655454545454548,12.161637121212125,7.651060606060607,69.59659090909092,56.57575757575758,10.236363636363636,43.77272727272727,10.125756701596842,5.000163636363637,167,9,22,3,2,47,28,33,0.0,0.9490000000000001,0.051,0.168,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,6,5,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,0,5,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,2,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23316723995156735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29176197452304403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480116273408769,0.0,0.0,0.3929652680788046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2916499030705004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17913840637361658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3903662674665024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3840992650741612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35637914660244396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022369768777551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BlueLavaHealing,2020/01/02,"Online Schizophrenia Support Group This is a new group with chat, support, music, and a 24/7 ambient Radio. We cover Schizospectrum disorders which includes schizophrenia, schizoaffective, schizotypal (personality),  schizophreniform, delusional disorder,  and brief psychotic disorder.  Hosted on the discord app. We do a group check-in on Sunday's at 7:30 US eastern. Once the group grows a bit we will do mock therapy sessions and have an option for members to become support staff. If you have any questions just join and message me BlueLava.

Here is the invite link. 

https://discord.gg/qTg5j3Q",8.664589371980675,12.493563043478265,6.60971014492754,65.88118357487923,65.30434782608697,8.871497584541064,38.48309178743961,9.444778638647367,4.7871990338164245,488,26,57,11,9,142,71,92,0.109,0.772,0.11900000000000001,-0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,4,1,0,0,2,4,1,0,8,0,7,0,0,0,0,13,10,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,8,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,3,6,9,1,7,0,0,0,0,13,3,0,3,2,36,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11815630439072712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918937864880252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896905550203488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5973994096222195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678093244590704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18503862165706475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15171224273292133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946403349363492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5915100562897119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19869884973668087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090004691890155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ariesgf,2020/01/03,"Do you ever feel infantilized by your support system? I have good sized list of diagnosies (?) one of the most prominent my being psychotic. I have a good small support system, including my parents and my partner. However, I feel often they treat me like I am fragile. I had an episode that involved some trauma with police and ended in a court ordered hospitiluzation back in August 2019 and ever since, its been so hard not to feel like I'm treated like a child. They want to know where I am, where I go, are constantly tip toeing around me (especially when I've expressed my symptoms), and I can't stand when they ask to count my pills whenever I hallucinate or am paranoid. I've been medication compliant for over a month now, thanks. I just hate being treated like I'm a child. Have any of you ever felt this way?",5.8742307692307705,6.651189243589747,6.454256410256412,76.57407692307693,66.82051282051282,9.573333333333334,32.266666666666666,9.642632912329526,3.0340251282051285,646,26,118,13,10,211,101,156,0.064,0.7440000000000001,0.192,0.9576,2,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,3,3,0,13,14,1,0,7,0,14,4,1,0,3,21,28,8,0,1,3,1,6,4,1,0,3,0,0,3,3,6,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,4,6,23,12,13,22,2,24,0,0,0,0,13,7,0,4,15,81,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11196347009131853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14656794115666882,0.15391978300536285,0.0,0.0,0.12660096481705435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17792152092402078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14582559030848866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4467893898833597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497466465215831,0.11762160586451192,0.1580839243760079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09357089936649388,0.27619091513741145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14748855843661254,0.1625517245738507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09048395917252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217466923661392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16586136666753748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13141715756871106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115669399674558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18281752128399428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136195101660405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37367180046018666,0.0,0.1711280106505551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15158194489278926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09711121389400397,0.13068663184172047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,eyeofend,2020/01/03,"Kinda new here Hello guys, first thing first sorry for my bad english but i have a really big question... Ive been suffering from obsessive compulsive personality disorder since 3 years now, first time I went to a psychiatrist was because I noticed I was hearing a voice in my head telling me what to do and so on, but i really think its more like schizophrenia... The doctors said its too early to talk about schizofrenia but, in particolar last year, I started having visual allucination, and also my arm's shots increased (Im not sure ""shots"" is the right way to say it, but Google translate kinda sucks ahahaha) and what worries me most is the fact that more and more often I doubt whether the memories, even relatively recent, are true or just dreams.

What do u guys think? Should i tell all these things to doctors? Btw Im from italy and Im 18, nice to meet u guys",4.979257028112452,6.394438632530125,5.585722891566267,79.65440763052213,69.3012048192771,8.66586345381526,29.49598393574297,9.075114841892004,2.42389718875502,687,26,130,13,12,222,113,166,0.15,0.753,0.098,-0.7987,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,3,9,9,1,2,7,0,12,4,2,0,4,26,19,13,0,1,8,0,0,1,0,1,2,4,0,4,10,5,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,5,0,3,5,4,14,4,13,13,6,20,0,1,0,0,13,5,1,7,13,83,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10256206055032448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10708400053491757,0.07818045318327921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14698644498640914,0.26254010835673136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08470839603846396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32727001021652785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3809651517143312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13162224688461432,0.0,0.144547891018438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4155983813285866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10454146041537593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06265682732573723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238653519263148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14601430344731722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11198358850569856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14367016650393008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16432140033521386,0.0,0.12663212125196047,0.0,0.0,0.1095254206462968,0.12199581109762915,0.1019901262189826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609032720232307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435661895405176,0.09077652511967424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12087479300664128,0.0,0.0,0.10308307681810164,0.22419357765723635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17040816935536887,0.16435577545630706,0.0,0.0,0.0747840306463212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10179945801302198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11888970940244448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13024483934714454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16517852745741282
schizophrenia,ShinningVictory,2020/01/03,"Relaxifiene Does it work for schrizophrenia? Does anyone have any experience with it?

Could anyone helo me getting it.",5.782456140350878,9.545706894736842,6.132631578947367,62.37508771929825,85.31578947368422,8.849122807017544,27.385964912280702,8.841846274778883,3.904459649122808,97,4,12,3,3,31,15,19,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24227305339815064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4982188521730872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844493603183157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6235414429542103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34849644753692105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18613424725544545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593658445561893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Cute-Comfortable,2020/01/03,"I am selfish and ruined everyone's lives around me. Should I run away? Suicide? Answer by PM if you have a taboo opinion. I'm American, male, and 15. I got kicked out of school due to disrupting classes with mental issues. I gave my mother a heart attack and killed her. My family hates me for not taking personal responsibility. They want me to become violent to myself and others so they can have me committed. Doctors think I have bipolar disorder or schizophrenia.

I have delusions that multiple people have the same voice and they are all one person body swapping to stalk me. People try to break into my bedroom at night to torture me into telling them how I started the fires in Australia.
I know these things are false right now, but I still believe them inside and can't stop being freaked out even though I am on meds. My brother is the only one nice to me and everyone says he is enabling me, and it makes me feel like crap. He does enable my delusions sometimes by agreeing with me.

I want to get real and take some personal responsibility by running away or ending my life so they don't have to deal with me. I can be homeless until I starve or get sold into slavery or murdered. It doesn't matter to me.",4.115316909294513,5.976973642553194,5.000492721164616,81.24105263157895,72.14893617021276,7.16013437849944,28.113101903695412,7.85451343220497,1.870404255319149,966,37,175,13,19,314,148,235,0.165,0.7609999999999999,0.07400000000000001,-0.975,0,0,0,0,0,1,22.0,0,1,6,2,8,12,7,0,5,0,20,6,3,2,2,43,36,20,3,4,7,2,2,1,0,1,3,2,1,4,6,18,0,2,4,0,1,2,4,10,0,2,3,4,40,2,30,30,3,23,0,1,0,0,20,12,1,7,9,129,46,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11743326725854815,0.0,0.15007356997640942,0.24787897428987035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14569093163215888,0.0,0.14862423378043113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465290118366923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359996724282657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151187241194309,0.13502168410488216,0.11544063900004185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11683848039816115,0.0,0.0,0.08712931797373873,0.0,0.0,0.25210290988155915,0.0,0.0,0.1243587275246206,0.0,0.06670072699491959,0.09424086446095488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13784140050840746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550532936068346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13023980527102033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15632117427751285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13768610084125404,0.0,0.0,0.14594558289338305,0.0,0.07249762039544502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931762191835877,0.06444752688754599,0.0,0.11648430377524376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08805499891625454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465290118366923,0.0,0.13294036831750014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12379429242734825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17877948172052233,0.10032811314676096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18290798183763515,0.3455520637997757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15014936409045807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11265560024729428,0.0,0.10490495102138896,0.0,0.13350610223731174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13046836312393256,0.0,0.09337087103044384,0.0,0.10534834132812436,0.11028773863297636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14429476620601406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19836893011296888,0.0,0.1153004567959096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08763917313665551,0.08452648905104125,0.1296068658303584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08956235014105891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15561502802071278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Zook,2020/01/03,"Crisis line didn't help at all. Just need someone to talk to. Hey everyone.

Marine Veteran here with Schizoaffective.  Also have PDD and BDP.  I'm feeling pretty alone right now and would like someone to talk to about anything.  Just trying to avoid negative symptoms and to avoid the loneliness the most.  Anyone feel like chatting in the comments at all?

Tried the Veteran Crisis line and he just didn't seem to think that it mattered that I'm trying to avoid all my symptoms.  Even went as far to say ""This is a crisis line"".  I told him I understood that and I was just trying to avoid my symptoms I had last week which resulted in a clinical visit to the VA.

Has anyone had a bad experience before with a crisis line? What was your experience?

Hope to hear from at least a few people.",2.6590149006622497,5.245493953642388,3.719764072847681,85.20295736754969,79.66225165562913,6.688907284768213,23.344784768211927,7.865858978985527,1.4259301324503315,621,21,115,11,16,200,87,151,0.23199999999999998,0.695,0.073,-0.9806,0,5,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,0,9,8,0,4,10,0,10,4,0,1,3,29,22,7,0,3,4,0,2,2,0,1,4,2,0,0,7,7,0,4,5,1,0,2,3,5,0,0,9,4,8,3,22,12,6,12,0,0,0,0,13,7,0,3,5,77,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15116531235662192,0.0,0.1167201222240798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041101918434021,0.0,0.12010848916528165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12186628821235652,0.0,0.0,0.12419691389344376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09640186913136263,0.0,0.0,0.1394662112089692,0.0,0.2855438988438482,0.0,0.0,0.1475984181735256,0.10427024673060938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16450183836377366,0.0,0.09783052759461633,0.0,0.0,0.14496619988807435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11897276606664152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14261243396225767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10822374737278934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10118678613729044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14848865773509254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464473135469847,0.0,0.11606923587585145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13287190643602215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24733431404042255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4551092402259588,0.0,0.23462612316645706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352203971214422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394662112089692,0.0,0.3963753261559085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170762584686808,0.0,0.0,0.13530170258065027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036822101080768,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lightsaberrr,2020/01/03,"Training your thoughts - *maybe* helpful in combating early symptoms? I'm not medicated (I do smoke weed daily) but I'm slowly convincing my mind that pictures can't see/hear/read my thoughts. Whenever I get in that mindset, my paranoia and most of my anxiety disappears, I get a leash on my tainted thoughts, I just felt supremely peaceful. Does anyone else have experience with thought therapy?",4.58945652173913,7.86723046376812,4.875199275362321,75.47192934782609,77.69565217391303,8.08768115942029,39.059782608695656,8.841846274778883,4.48318695652174,318,21,48,8,8,100,54,69,0.106,0.695,0.19899999999999998,0.8448,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,12,12,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,1,10,2,5,7,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,26,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517025900527187,0.0,0.0,0.1386592911803117,0.2031866497228892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17353782203235935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656581717179309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19398009603032207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19040365719125366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072120930490563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22350386425464908,0.0,0.1329194930400426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992237741455993,0.0,0.0,0.1997711717044871,0.0,0.0,0.20023126596483184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19835841288746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15802321019610224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20611456354176014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267787626900304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6297272787866831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SpaceXRooster,2020/01/03,"3000mg seroquel dose update Today is now Friday. I overdosed on the seroquel on Monday night. My idea was that I would just fall asleep and not wake up - like a peaceful death... nope. That’s not what happened. I stayed awake with intense muscle stiffness and weakness. I could feel my motor function quickly failing so I rushed over to the couch to lie down. My body began craving water so I sild off the couch and crawled to the kitchen sink. It must have taken me about 15 or 20 minutes before I mustered up enough strength to stand up and drink. I started feeling my consciousness slip away so called for my mom who I thought was upstairs. She wasn’t but my sister was home and she came to my aid. She called poison control and they told her to call emergency (911). The men who came to the call put me in a stretcher and brought me to the hospital. Tuesday and Wednesday and Thursday area blur. I don’t remember what happened other than a few snapshots from my memory. For the most part I was unconscious. I do remember being in constraints and I wasn’t sure why I was. They also injected me with something which put me to sleep instantly and definitely was another cause of the blurry mixing of the three days. Now here I am as an inpatient...waiting... although I attempted suicide, my doctor is allowing me to go off grounds for better food than hospital food (Since I’m alive I want to continue growing in weight). He doesn’t mind since I told him that I have no current thoughts of handing myself.",3.4138541666666633,5.781854621527781,3.8526388888888894,86.43958333333336,75.7013888888889,6.488888888888887,29.416666666666664,7.526774132740827,1.917425,1193,54,220,16,27,373,177,288,0.085,0.833,0.083,-0.5507,1,0,2,0,0,1,34.0,0,0,2,5,10,7,1,0,14,0,20,16,5,3,2,40,37,19,2,4,5,2,4,1,0,2,5,0,4,1,10,15,6,2,8,1,0,9,8,3,0,1,17,4,42,4,37,16,4,41,0,1,0,0,19,15,0,3,16,155,52,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028554485914728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11838478016472845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607262690577604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960690053011343,0.0,0.0,0.0998502732597804,0.0,0.12540569241867047,0.0,0.0,0.4611313116458613,0.258253489127126,0.0,0.11597870047547128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12662618662500888,0.09014091976415856,0.0,0.0,0.0728107210243467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11555723726287817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11059835169955737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11665517673288485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11417057617161935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730366100908418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06416328492710703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996729904121179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11324722251117267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12744958934344736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05515690464773716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11399612852032093,0.13222631826482825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10594836315850653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12225896084942382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269899978063663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.255785840732126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18678296719764276,0.0,0.1129808538436162,0.0,0.0,0.0869154117630076,0.0,0.0,0.0799107192939868,0.1203356526471604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234935310191186,0.0,0.10640627233680053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17925889710432913,0.0,0.0,0.1070153537306326,0.21576027558074246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06659094364683876,0.0,0.0,0.13748095566030166,0.0,0.0,0.101874075307366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08020043719485663,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,exokkir,2020/01/03,"Just got approved for disability! Got a $9300 check deposited into my account for backpay since I applied in March or April. No lawyer, first try. I'm eligible for $1051 per month which should pay my rent and internet. I get food stamps too. I'm THIS close to making it without my parents' assistance! 

Anyone else on disability? How was your experience?",2.8195454545454552,5.7358587575757625,4.25477272727273,79.25215909090909,82.63636363636364,7.542424242424243,27.946969696969692,8.472884824447931,2.6340969696969703,282,13,50,7,8,93,55,66,0.07200000000000001,0.884,0.044000000000000004,0.2833,2,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,0,9,8,3,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,5,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,6,0,8,4,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,4,27,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969771092171348,0.28864361380503123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353312749937598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755649350033636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23962107695472515,0.34064299485121635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14718104620395808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4506159890460902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18804258831064705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248570096109741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128039131337663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23303215386476003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19126155633397315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715569080780555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mrsearlgrey,2020/01/03,"always feeling hungry at night I need help with always feeling hungry at night, I think its my medication that does it and even if I ate a big plate of food i'm still not satiated, I start to snack and can't fall asleep because i'm so hungry and no matter what I eat i'm still craving more.

i'm currently on a weightless journey but this is ruining it and i'm already overweight.

i'm gonna try and eat a bigger breakfast to see if it helps but do you have any tips on how to deal with it?",2.3465094339622645,3.377726622641511,4.271839622641512,88.03530660377363,75.22641509433961,6.809433962264151,25.514150943396224,7.1686216300943375,1.0082301886792453,386,13,86,4,8,132,68,106,0.076,0.8340000000000001,0.09,-0.1734,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,4,9,1,1,0,18,18,11,0,3,5,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,8,7,7,0,3,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,4,7,0,10,16,1,14,0,1,1,0,4,6,0,2,6,49,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21981830179323794,0.0,0.3314949067466426,0.0,0.0,0.13546045733801826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142834344033054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20536285481531732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17431820800346154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4076555177804803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13156741599239088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014394809834392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408692102223483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670344431445991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20066952699097765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14770168793562202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738648608309248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587338281749459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409923148272195,0.0,0.3181571799242898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276370802157149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352413544866319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,candlerrr,2020/01/03,"Feeling like my whole life is a dream It’s like I was never really alive. And because my life is a dream, nothing matters. I don’t even have hallucinations anymore but I’m in this constant state feeling like one day I’ll wake up and I’m in highschool again and I just have not grown up yet. I’ve lost myself and she’s out there somewhere but I can’t find her. I’m just floating in a void and this body I’m in is not real.",-1.4651612903225768,0.4807140967741965,1.038752688172046,98.65812903225807,101.58064516129032,3.3402150537634414,18.027956989247308,5.2151,-0.6307255913978493,333,11,78,2,15,112,56,93,0.067,0.782,0.151,0.6203,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,3,0,8,4,2,0,1,18,15,7,0,0,6,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,3,2,0,1,5,1,0,1,2,2,9,3,7,13,1,14,0,1,0,0,2,7,0,0,8,48,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289029775079124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407005421892206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563795330286999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494252237605337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488543167034559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15244881252671186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334104492384231,0.3297835496174466,0.0,0.0,0.2109575206571876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260579630509199,0.3382885063068328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25195800710795685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17801605041807414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22146984999014652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15640383929465249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26271400705937403,0.1478637509701809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25769278619782515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,cosmhoe,2020/01/03,"PLEASE READ I need your help I just realized my mom is probably suffering from paranoid schizophrenia. I always knew there was something off with her but, fuck, i didn't realize how bad it was... I want to help her but I don't know how.

I turned 20 a few days ago and now that i'm ""grown enough"" she talks to me about her hallucinations, spirits, occult evil forces testing her faith (Christian), she is convinced there are cameras and mics everywhere in the appartment to spy on her and see how she reacts to the torture, she also thinks her food, coffee and cigarettes are being poisonned. And everyone in the streets is out to get her. It's heartbreaking. She has been suicidal since I'm a kid (yeah, rough childhood) and I just fully understood why. 

I don't live with her anymore, she lived alone for a while but I got scared for her (she threw out the internet box, the tv, the fridge...) so I convinced her to move in with my dad (they are divorced but on good terms, now they're like roomates) & at least she isn't cut off from the world anymore but it doesn't help her condition, she thinks he knows the people who spy on her and test her, and he's just annoyed by her ""bullshit"" (he's quite egoistical).

I'm very scared for her safety and I have no idea what to do, she has no idea that what she sees hears and feels is not real and I **cannot** tell her I don't believe her because I'm the only one she can vent to, the only one she trusts. She makes some sense of her pain with religion (you know, the more you suffer the greater your reward will be type thing) but I'm afraid it won't last long... 

sorry for any mistakes, english isn't my first language",2.07877994011976,4.197321110778447,2.859666916167665,93.15051833832337,78.91017964071854,6.0911676646706585,22.71294910179641,7.1686216300943375,0.6479044910179637,1297,41,280,16,32,407,181,334,0.163,0.6970000000000001,0.141,-0.9227,0,1,2,0,1,0,57.0,0,4,1,3,13,22,6,3,15,1,27,4,0,5,0,49,51,23,1,3,10,2,2,1,0,2,2,1,0,1,10,17,1,0,12,2,0,3,12,15,0,3,8,5,55,7,32,39,7,26,3,3,2,1,51,13,1,1,11,181,65,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10734451922706834,0.0,0.0,0.12541919443570582,0.0,0.0968406274929378,0.10076178094194717,0.13120773644249195,0.0,0.08234960266838312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401898812285684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10111031068030443,0.07381915011580811,0.0,0.0,0.13643400559339972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07809706330300335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251247974715808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11571265648274688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061229902610316335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10300440851432187,0.14643006635775338,0.0,0.0,0.11195153194337062,0.06326779263921854,0.0,0.0,0.10156978925194332,0.0968517335967874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13648427492481802,0.0,0.24350479162555136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27340585306300497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996539964233474,0.0987096063722863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05916151101472626,0.0,0.2138604149346657,0.1071663707047198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0808326873019606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14182646459988155,0.0,0.12870614953094972,0.0,0.0897913350801473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16411590619250954,0.18419831008801069,0.12885494807853287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839528924131587,0.0,0.0,0.13292731814170056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13056223919890042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288007680650646,0.12112902051365547,0.13783404401214294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424769436207133,0.0,0.19299606596809432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10017206949701392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322580959186584,0.0,0.13555733774529533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324596429458041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973325788249882,0.10584346016312927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08045096774454638,0.15518717488585795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13171794649803711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09991708859783414,0.07142570583327852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10927053044226707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,DuckDemure,2020/01/03,"Did anyone else lose their bravery? I used to be so brave. I'd travel all over by myself. I got involved with local politics, spoke at hearings, had friends, went out all the time. Now I'm too afraid to even drive down the street.",1.4980434782608685,3.863477065217397,2.1066956521739115,96.34482608695652,82.69565217391305,4.5495652173913035,20.069565217391304,5.6839178017228535,-0.20762956521739093,179,5,38,1,5,55,40,46,0.053,0.74,0.20800000000000002,0.8388,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,4,4,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,1,2,5,9,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,0,0,5,2,4,2,8,3,2,11,0,1,0,0,5,6,0,0,2,23,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415915695639597,0.354020139603637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28863278742992426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22820887739122644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26694342192163084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763392774341491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3894196264040752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3865420224001551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20147211467489745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29841334256622754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202951346615178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,hiimdeadinside,2020/01/03,"Great news! I was afraid of this day (my doctor has ended up my sick note) and now when it's here I am actually really excited about going back to work.

My mood is now really more than okay and I can't wait for Monday and going to work.

I wish you all the same mental state!

It looks like happiness is not unreachable.

Good day to you all, folks!",0.6016666666666666,2.797832500000002,2.8338888888888896,90.77500000000002,85.1111111111111,6.933333333333335,14.555555555555555,8.07648339933343,0.23785555555555604,268,4,60,6,8,91,54,72,0.069,0.7020000000000001,0.22899999999999998,0.9217,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,2,6,8,0,1,1,1,6,2,0,0,2,10,11,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,1,9,6,8,10,4,12,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,9,40,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.2407724999472873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18971983388837196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3182403631479442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525382020225741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21852919375440152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804442369021407,0.20694508377983745,0.0,0.2720202567492393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626482487763396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12053962052746955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071907248703356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486454069484261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161226012606127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837268653140794,0.0,0.0,0.3592441769385768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,watchedbythemoon,2020/01/03,"feeling nice :) hi i'm new to reddit and doubt anybody will care or even see this but i've been dating this boy for a while now, i have been too scared of him leaving me to talk to him about my mental health but recently after having a really bad episode, i told him about my diagnosis. he was and still is incredibly supportive of me and helps me through everything. ive been feeling really good lately and i hope the new year brings lots of joy to u all <3 thank u for letting me share -a",1.2547704770477033,3.564761425742578,2.9453645364536456,90.29961296129616,83.25742574257426,6.445004500450046,21.063006300630068,7.686295010490155,0.8550514851485147,388,12,83,7,11,128,71,101,0.08800000000000001,0.627,0.285,0.9692,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,6,11,0,2,4,0,10,1,0,0,1,13,20,8,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,5,3,13,8,13,13,2,11,0,0,1,0,10,0,0,4,10,55,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16638698065129198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20317497306496646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13161979550864872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17909625194057002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015196779112997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16714309792256304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21182087136532246,0.0,0.0,0.1335703773436225,0.0,0.0,0.19792584684156056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2247917976539774,0.21100431351179766,0.0,0.20377302081862184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694171706047153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20082314999949485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3849236452014868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553223779611521,0.0,0.19676082517772206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995098534222136,0.0,0.15879702316187214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591419222053629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22613583181816016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601703505876806,0.0,0.18346639566984185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904165797312179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12832709048399674
schizophrenia,rcovr,2020/01/03,"Question about Hallucinations Hello everyone. 

I’m just getting into this experience - not diagnosed but very afraid I’m right about what’s happening over the past few years (and life overall). 
I’d like to know a little about the perceptual experience of hallucination. I see so many posts about them and I’m curious what they literally feel like? I’m asking because I have a vivid imagination, always have, I see very very dark or crazy things. But nearly every time, it feels distinctly like I’m in some other world - more or less like the realest dream ever. It’s as off my mind isn’t routing these sights and sounds through normal sensory-perceptual channels because I’m somehow aware of their unlikelihood. But they infect my mind, become part of my reality, which is what scares me.
So my questions are these - is any component of your mind aware of hallucinations being that? Did they start one way and become something different?
Please excuse any issues with this post - I’m very new to Reddit and sharing about this experience in general. I experience other symptoms more consistent with the diagnosis, have a family history, and had a pretty traumatic psychological break in college - the classic life falls apart in mid 20’s story. Please do not judge me or give me lines that imply I don’t know what I’m talking about or “wishing” for a diagnosis. I’m terrified and just need to hear about your experiences.",6.017812499999998,8.163273906250001,6.733250000000003,69.58675000000002,67.75,9.96375,31.55,10.241411754978122,3.6387928124999993,1144,48,188,31,20,376,148,256,0.064,0.799,0.13699999999999998,0.9481,1,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,2,5,0,13,7,0,2,10,0,12,5,0,0,2,39,35,17,0,3,11,0,2,4,0,0,5,2,0,0,17,10,0,0,7,2,0,1,4,2,0,1,2,8,19,5,28,32,6,24,0,0,4,0,16,13,0,8,10,115,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08162541386455102,0.0,0.0,0.1334200395537037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09170840953716264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11959928899636653,0.2166831191561165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09956742871471401,0.0,0.1024915552613049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873527830370914,0.08265181557358056,0.09373686517323992,0.0,0.4797934516709254,0.09247808587824423,0.0,0.09920261620490256,0.07008124745514717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051252168334024815,0.09410456274980053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08674775804128086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105636018200191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023888496713446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10782421625488192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13857906993723426,0.1917029562711461,0.0983199906342388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09945599854498034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971531168270642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07273844129045591,0.0,0.09474368220239704,0.0,0.0,0.09611523466346343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06647375939314436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062305996645263,0.09364566327420128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21536434262654425,0.0,0.0,0.18790157906969632,0.09980095658449063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21978447379395089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08377517591012529,0.0,0.0,0.09821323467404393,0.0,0.15634284757185898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07552065098152709,0.0,0.0,0.06943428580812984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10196140728365136,0.0,0.07884747525126634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06517196774971316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05720174627674975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3237645715546885,0.0,0.07786564481808891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11280788552395353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06317191074302482
schizophrenia,lenfexion,2020/01/03,"My now ex boyfriend broke up with me on new years Hello, I'm seeking advice on the matter above.

Me and my now exboyfriend haven't been dating for long but it is his second serious relationship and his first relationship since being diagnosed with schizophrenia. In the beginning he was very caring and loving, honestly, I couldn't have asked for any better, all while I was aware he suffers from schizophrenia. I'm very accepting of this as I understand he is suffering more than I am and that that is his reality and realistically I purely want to support him and try enforce his daily routines which help himself e.g medication and exercises usually. A week ago, he began stopping going to the gym, ever since then he has seemed off and had 1 psychosis episode and almost another as well, I can't help but believe his reasoning (he wasn't ready or even capable of a relationship) is sort of due to his mental health. He has informed he that he is struggling to keep himself afloat whilst trying to keep me happy, to which I understand. The past two days have been quite heart wrenching, I'll be honest. But today I sort of had another perspective which I originally considered but it never formally clicked in until now when he turned quite cold to me, non caring and generally just a dick if he were the average person. This is very abnormal as during our relationship he had never encountered me like this unless during a psychosis where he is paranoid whether I love him etc and it caused him to act irrational. We are in a long distance relationship (or were) and I am considering typing a paragraph to him, although his cold attitude had made me think otherwise until it really clicked, addressing his mental health and trying to make him feel supported enough to pull himself back up. He was handling stuff quite well until he stopped working out and generally looking after himself. A few things to consider is that I am worried if I do try to confront him comforting him and almost telling him I see himself hurting rather than him hurting me as much that he will consider it a joke and I'm at possible risk of being offended and harshening the feedback from him. He has discussed he believes he needs to go back to hospital (to which I fully support him) but I cannot help but feel as if I could not necessarily help but prevent him from pushing me away as previously he would break down over the idea of doing damage beyond repair e.g offending me, insulting me or hurting himself and reminding myself of this just makes me feel as if the breakup wasn't entirely due to the relationship itself but more to the fact he let go of his self care routine and it has made him feel horrible. I have spoken to close friends and family and my mother thinks he might be suffering from overthinking and that clicked in the idea maybe this could be the impact of his reality and less about mine. I do understand that any disrespectful actions towards me may be down to his own mental health but also understand that my own wellbeing needs to be prioritised too before I consider helping someone else. This person is very important to me and I finally understood what love was with this guy and I don't want to feel as if he never loved me, I just believe he does but he is afraid. 

TLDR; my recently diagnosed schizophrenic boyfriend broke up with me and I've been in agony but feel as if it has more to do with his mental wellbeing than I may have originally thought. I want to be a supportive friend and I can continue to do so if I feel as if it wasn't entirely my fault.

EDIT: I am unsure if this is the right thread to be posting as I'm not that knowledgeable of reddit but I feel as if the variety and understanding of people coping with the same circumstances may be able to give me a better understanding than others. Also his attitude towards the relationship changed by small things like his behaviour and etc but he hasn't mistreated me and this is abnormal, he also suffers from seasonal depression and this has hindered him too.",7.804726143421795,7.777917007905144,8.01516939582157,69.78499011857708,62.71541501976285,11.708149821193302,37.307265198569546,11.256090525403607,4.382853792584228,3255,146,563,85,42,1065,314,759,0.12,0.738,0.142,0.9707,0,0,0,0,0,0,45.0,2,0,0,7,24,45,4,3,26,0,74,14,2,8,7,139,129,82,0,20,34,2,8,2,3,6,8,0,1,4,37,40,0,5,25,3,0,7,14,20,2,3,21,15,90,25,95,88,13,74,0,11,5,5,95,24,1,22,43,425,127,4,0.05185384599728703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05067097817468802,0.045965305794558896,0.0,0.1038482729874948,0.0,0.0,0.12440250572925565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07052478684460231,0.10874655749655293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04847634625278708,0.0,0.048718395238681725,0.0797448136500376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044123803727470524,0.17526458266429507,0.0,0.0917210258530038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15860535561572986,0.05326818363847851,0.054854493490516805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.082802153285966,0.0,0.0,0.03344144090660167,0.0,0.04466164157527847,0.10526112434472608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04537765006912765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04331723459054367,0.0,0.0,0.053578884321959584,0.1156614904642649,0.03424897623593922,0.046904772393255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04888319113212968,0.0,0.20975090055977816,0.0,0.0,0.05680335369405954,0.0,0.04410685491574285,0.0,0.0,0.0801243055769549,0.0,0.0,0.04974293405424157,0.08840920695782448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05134345998736847,0.0,0.05519938328246039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16535464049988202,0.0,0.061447057173319414,0.17378269969909507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16653184382054315,0.1170733609182189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921801617253902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053024070737778484,0.0,0.05066633983068472,0.0,0.0,0.09177804392445152,0.04354417091289101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18720048208746426,0.09813072571235447,0.06922568970980429,0.0,0.05209415793488633,0.0,0.0,0.05223729454098753,0.2090259224421057,0.055008736207787116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038118543187995436,0.07689793953858289,0.11997864816394214,0.05008076758594625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04950036338938495,0.03594892780641814,0.0905535564575049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058457420178412274,0.0496616507384578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.165458844102546,0.0,0.0,0.03321890153947392,0.05331438993106647,0.05119941722772835,0.3897013738866576,0.0,0.04428290115708212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04132080171976468,0.047205793901674106,0.05409487027877073,0.0,0.0,0.0857880745036302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04393559544141085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08670427423051252,0.0,0.05420889851337789,0.05936024774293201,0.0,0.2353725197673809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04532254695240783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0688987823593285,0.06645170149705618,0.0,0.0411661615910416,0.0,0.0,0.049151382894359066,0.0,0.0,0.1408214306252475,0.05640209423833269,0.05065367288083618,0.3238900944436449,0.0,0.0,0.057109685509829373,0.17113941408732364,0.09175422556807107,0.0,0.04159402748324959,0.0,0.0932456698962342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03775021746235013,0.05266009765582812,0.0,0.036835484436949804,0.0,0.0,0.033392176727130886
schizophrenia,BabyBear108,2020/01/03,Doing art as a schizo. Do all artists get mentally (verbally) abused through hallucinations every time they do art? I'm curious to know how artists past and present do 'art'.,4.703763440860218,7.51073141935484,4.807741935483873,78.99827956989247,73.51612903225806,9.29462365591398,36.13978494623656,9.725611199111238,4.0595075268817205,138,8,25,4,3,43,26,31,0.10099999999999999,0.828,0.071,-0.25,0,0,0,0,1,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,1,4,7,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,7,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,12,1,0,0.0,0.5322433000245103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3784808653038344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346949656839722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468754157767109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4527004958628129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4288241150179947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26193939331485083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,rat-czar,2020/01/03,is it bad that i want to be more crazy again? i used to be way crazier. i felt like a shaman every single day hearing the secrets of the universe. i don't like reality i prefer my imagination. i just want to be consume by my thoughts and not need anything else.,0.8633333333333333,3.1244908888888894,2.9977777777777814,89.60000000000002,84.55555555555556,5.0814814814814815,25.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,0.9042444444444442,204,9,43,2,6,69,41,54,0.135,0.7240000000000001,0.141,-0.1761,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,1,0,12,12,1,0,4,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,8,2,5,7,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,29,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565038007282881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.260257758001623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20102170060594726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603866318816085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26262198283710153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992823503955437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513102784019981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3045632460840663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23112273514637424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474561976429905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692100432221953,0.0,0.0,0.3676992769338515,0.2474141662237428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,chilldude612,2020/01/03,"A little help about constant visual hallucinations (Triggering) So in the last few weeks my visual hallucinations have gotten 100% more vivid dark and super complex... I see gore hallucinations normally 30 to 40 percent of my day. Recently its been an either I am seeing super complex gore or I am just trying to chill out AFTER from seeing it. Like A horror movie level  most twistRE part FOR minute after minute even when I'm at work.

I just saw my therapist and she gave me some vag advice, but I am wondering how can anyone handle INTENSE hallucination for minutes straight or at least every 5 minutes ALL DAY LONG.

I've had psychosis for years, but atm I am watching (triggering FYI)  a cute little girl get killed every fucking minute for the last few weeks.  to be honest I see this daily a few times an hour but now it's all day. So I'm kinda EHHH  USE TO IT.

BUT ANY SUGGESTIONS FOR A VETERAN IN THE PYSCHOISIS WORLD OF EXPERIENCE who is having very unusual visual that r very intense. The littlest of advice  or strategy would be heplful. Anything really 

I can handle severe schizophrenia but this is a non stop horror shop, I'm on the edge of going to the hospital. I'm not suicidal or gonna harm my self .
I'm just like I need other people's advice cuz well I'm confused. 




So nervous even posting this.",3.2954761904761902,5.694077039682544,4.893888888888887,78.67750000000002,76.22222222222223,7.215873015873015,25.579365079365076,8.212053250817874,1.9336555555555548,1042,38,182,19,24,350,151,252,0.105,0.787,0.10800000000000001,-0.6438,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,3,13,12,2,2,14,0,15,1,0,5,2,35,35,17,2,3,14,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,2,10,3,0,1,3,1,2,1,1,5,1,0,5,7,15,7,24,26,12,31,0,0,7,1,7,11,1,9,20,114,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3644749239553252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08454713542183097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08693285566340399,0.0,0.10231114730974143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13435413275197972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405433459241719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16423461659001928,0.0,0.20950298823279667,0.0,0.0,0.12161639906155568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11493900425984208,0.06495611950489763,0.0,0.07065832716536083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08333427212083977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224377927885036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13755023800786628,0.0,0.0,0.20268742500193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12148052015902737,0.2492181411617752,0.0,0.11002614904075024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09218745349991707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1218148006607651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134634840850333,0.0,0.08619320960773615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11907162001092728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.079647542167292,0.0,0.12275865707782375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3962924894973381,0.0,0.12970096125673442,0.14045497240459726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394356853812692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1359943825735785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14435410379631705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07249651259290643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08441038320047058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10737926031179594,0.0,0.20516683376493164,0.0,0.0,0.19945644824787234,0.0,0.11178558111189306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13482814466405155,0.0905120849220167,0.0,0.0,0.0883188685952874,0.0,0.0,0.08006299668793754
schizophrenia,AGENT-11,2020/01/03,"trying to but this illness into words Everything feels broken and unsure. Shattered glass in my mind, reflections of dreams and memories all messily stacked into pile of confused haze. It’s difficult to even see them through the fog in my mind. It all feels so distant, so unimportant. My emotions are primal but castrated, nothing but angsty longing for feelings I vaguely remember having in a past im not even sure is mine. Im fearful for the future, longing for peace and clarity but knowing that pain is a constant. Im alone with company, this untoward companion beckons me to the light but my desires are dark. Everything is lit by the moon, not the sun. I feel so alone, I feel so… bad. I ask do I cut? Do I share my blood with the same dirty towel once again? Will that make me feel better? It says no. What says no? I do? Who is me? Why am I here? Why do I feel so alone? Im terrified of the truth but I can’t look away so I keep my eyes firmly shut and let the noise of the room fill my eyes and guide my thoughts. If I look I die, if I stop listening the silence will hurt me. So I stand in the middle of this empty room full of voices I don’t recognize, and feelings im sick of.",0.39898446833930734,2.7826389794238686,2.326356033452808,92.34537634408602,89.24691358024691,5.769228726934823,22.653524492234173,7.233258080335977,0.9936569494225408,924,36,196,16,31,306,132,243,0.29600000000000004,0.624,0.08,-0.9968,1,3,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,1,1,10,11,1,2,13,0,17,6,3,1,4,45,34,20,1,3,10,0,8,0,1,2,3,4,2,0,10,10,0,2,12,1,0,1,6,7,0,0,1,19,30,4,24,30,4,21,0,1,6,0,8,12,0,3,7,126,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164309114152527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095207955853136,0.0,0.09568334211766967,0.0,0.08503331010855103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900704369784786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11005436714309023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105695288334754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455786082218118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13453056055349594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18305695639081745,0.0,0.0,0.11459988189198468,0.4119525505597017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10902331865750604,0.0,0.5500309081903432,0.0,0.0,0.09052131035537052,0.0,0.0,0.0559693667838272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10413972537515093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18025285793365614,0.17104224317225974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797992133550088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20566155253209356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09771956426243902,0.0,0.0,0.10845776091291404,0.0,0.0,0.10836642361457467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09721913420856866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.115366446658139,0.0,0.0,0.16197672831547025,0.0,0.0,0.08115440560302868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08514396557622395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09598430864271926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08085069107652917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06914362151094039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18379203541767192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,liveifUr3llyWt,2020/01/03,What do you hear? I switched insurance which takes forever and ran out of medication. Because of that I think I’m hearing things again. For some reason when I try to go to sleep I hear constant stomping. What do you hear?,1.321937984496124,4.0003644883720915,2.2980232558139555,91.35153100775194,90.16279069767442,5.657364341085271,25.77131782945737,7.1686216300943375,1.4246620155038765,175,8,35,3,6,55,32,43,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,5,11,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,6,0,6,10,1,6,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,3,23,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11701562601906774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074380684619776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10909397878362588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8654010698866631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19337717750665168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973644756289819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920963193541894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14432829330509395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127528159558856,0.12299873671608733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13032667094479808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Darkside_Unleashed,2020/01/03,Insomnia I have been suffering from insomnia the last few nights how do you guys cope with insomnia? got any tips?,4.454285714285714,7.1407070476190535,4.800238095238097,79.3489285714286,73.76190476190476,11.81904761904762,29.54761904761905,11.20814326018867,4.38964761904762,92,4,17,4,2,29,19,21,0.154,0.846,0.0,-0.5362,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,1,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3570424132223797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4199191686136031,0.0,0.0,0.5198680826209339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4279743304811777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4927106210671952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lavikja,2020/01/03,"Hearing my dead mother’s voice Don’t know if anyone is awake on the other side of the world right now, but I’m feeling pretty crappy at the moment.

I just lost two and half hours or more of my day. I was cleaning, getting chores done. Managed to clean the kitchen, but I wanted to do the bathroom and the vacuuming, too.

I’ve recently started hearing my mum’s voice who died roughly six months ago. I was actually relieved that she died because she was extremely abusive and just overall awful. 

Her voice repeats things she said to me as a child and things she recently said before she died. Her voice also says things that I know she would say if she were here. Mostly just putting me down all the time or making fun of me. 

I know it’s not really her voice, it’s not really her. But she makes me so angry.",3.29188034188034,4.9087675802469155,4.202098765432098,87.13098290598292,73.81481481481481,6.7130104463437785,25.424501424501425,7.321109707123232,1.1422729344729343,636,21,128,7,13,205,98,162,0.214,0.695,0.091,-0.9815,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,8,3,0,0,8,1,9,1,0,2,1,26,24,14,4,4,12,2,2,0,0,1,0,11,5,1,9,4,1,0,4,0,0,1,3,1,0,3,8,13,25,2,10,15,3,18,0,1,0,0,22,6,0,5,11,88,34,1,0.0,0.16670093216819026,0.1372983241229517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12471790061640342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11251398620311484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983774300068624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576655328117734,0.0,0.11972134358674875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09073683360445704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43805854733041705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439801474628195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07113977465725943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07350749094051141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31714767290108664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13855653651691038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319673837368665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358554775277478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878304199240497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11230165176285224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14313770812928872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414376438735255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802660327901755,0.0,0.27783928417512993,0.0,0.0,0.12015302346076742,0.2676669117805281,0.22377311049880694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09958486247329418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804151307930313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08204056497309598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13743887114432635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08298573737824344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09994590937124574,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,0n3tw0,2020/01/03,"Western Promises: Zifany Lesakimatheu Did you see this documentary? They put this individual on camera and they successfully spoke nonsense for 10 hours, not even a breath between sentences!",7.856379310344828,12.153242137931034,6.361637931034482,62.36590517241382,75.89655172413794,7.037931034482759,38.28448275862068,8.07648339933343,4.334441379310345,158,9,18,3,4,47,27,29,0.079,0.706,0.215,0.5562,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,2,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,3,2,3,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,13,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3780929914935988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5637407302851399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5754630034169447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4561627017845147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,habiboboy,2020/01/03,"Electrical toothbrush makes you gay Just a thought I had when I was brushing my teeth with my electrical toothbrush.
Are those meant to make somebody gay ?
Not that I never had the feeling of questioning my sexuality everybody does that sometimes...

But when I brushed my theeth in different ways I had different thought because of the sound the brush makes.

For example I brushed really fast at the beginning because I wanted to be done...
That moment to the sound of the brush I reapeadly Thought .. in English which is not my mother tounge „you don’t need this“ 

When I slowed down the toothbrush sounded more like ... „ohhh yeahhh“ 

Try it 

I‘m unsure if it is a delusion but it worries me so much I threw the brush away 

Does anyone know something more about that topic ?",3.792452380952384,6.6904800071428605,3.7271428571428578,84.96452380952383,77.5,6.8761904761904775,30.04761904761905,8.021203637495839,2.3933190476190482,611,29,107,11,15,186,86,140,0.059000000000000004,0.9259999999999999,0.013999999999999999,-0.6185,3,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,6,1,0,0,10,0,10,3,1,3,1,20,24,7,0,3,6,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,10,1,0,0,7,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,10,10,17,1,14,13,3,15,0,0,0,2,3,5,0,2,9,75,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12938583168091328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738532690153057,0.0,0.0,0.2256000553361968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3866594982708588,0.0,0.0,0.32386340995430235,0.18936244953459305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09356291284474706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10169437192232146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09040228814444914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3705513819859865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13602733240425674,0.13720647102420566,0.14271597749438356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072896497380456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11854279266468268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424545512220873,0.18301149984303897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4407085904832376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256315296392028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10914270323578183,0.1468779114588481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879193696606392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,schizopandatoy,2020/01/03,"Schizophrenia not getting any better I'm so tired of having schizophrenia, living on these meds that all have such stupid names. Having to take an injection in my backside monthly. 

The meds all have such stupid names and the people who work at my respite facility all have no idea how they are made, just drug you relentlessly. It's almost like there is just a mad wizard creating these medications somewhere and giving them ridiculous names.

I feel like my schizophrenia has lost me friends and driven me to the point of hurting myself or getting sent back to the ward. I find it difficult to fit in with normal life and hate the drugs with there ridiculous names",7.113409090909091,8.435075743801653,5.717014462809918,81.0137035123967,64.2892561983471,8.033471074380165,30.827479338842977,8.07648339933343,2.1367099173553714,539,19,93,6,8,158,83,121,0.23199999999999998,0.6679999999999999,0.1,-0.9606,0,0,2,0,0,1,7.0,0,1,2,4,9,13,6,0,7,0,8,5,0,2,3,24,19,7,0,1,4,0,1,2,1,0,5,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,9,0,0,4,1,11,4,12,15,3,10,0,2,0,0,11,6,0,2,4,63,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17846746791667714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211997057961203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13704469571028166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15762630198652242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4133708612298363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901163568715631,0.12732459983974204,0.0,0.0,0.16289521980110042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13769686797413724,0.0,0.186231326096908,0.1709704982474914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17596115214126687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19079448403683305,0.20119531776985625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12588620541618276,0.17414431878471473,0.0,0.15737671179723378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945545947859028,0.0,0.0,0.16864163109211033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39593753524511416,0.17954381752059226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14225819207728516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17462351536851206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12355938014883384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16848105841562072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340036765989976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048444238250932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297505587718505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,projecttvader,2020/01/04,"Schizophrenia regular kimdominitable catches a child molestation charge on fox news Www.foxnews.com/6686734937
Not only that but he will not let me use the schizophrenic subbreddit schizophrenia at all what so ever his blasphemy covers even things completely unrelated to what I say and he got that big telling people how to grow marijuana now he thinks he's a doctor for schizophrenics but he's schizoeffective he knows nothing about me or what I'm about yet makes inaccurate blasphemous statements like he's some sort of Hitler wannabe",6.993370786516856,10.802563449438207,5.116955056179776,74.22846629213485,71.80898876404495,9.402696629213484,32.495505617977535,9.642632912329526,4.111619325842697,453,21,65,13,10,130,70,89,0.023,0.9390000000000001,0.038,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,8,2,1,0,3,0,2,3,0,3,2,17,8,6,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,1,6,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,1,4,1,8,5,2,8,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,3,4,37,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154556302457787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3079523734813765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19872126797784628,0.2721534150389854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406325828843815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16534984303104155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30765913987529137,0.0,0.1469894928477417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20083252621924694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886921103514259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288245830681057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20858481920516775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23926326257262376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629729407478439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998841264371586,0.1927848337685971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598543864470541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Tak5035,2020/01/04,"Onset Schizophrenia So I'm worried that I might be developing schizophrenia. I'm 21 years old and when I close my eyes to go to sleep some nights I start to hear random chitchat from a variety of people I either meet during the day or just people I know. This only happens when I close my eyes and I'm starting to drift off to sleep. Some nights the voices are easier to hear and sometimes that frightens me. So far over the past 5 months that these voices have developed I've only had 1 time where I thought I was completely losing my mind when the voices started to echo/repeat for 5 seconds. It doesn't sound like a long time but for those 5 seconds I didn't know what to do but just scream out loud ""shut the fuck up!""

My mother is extremely bipolar and she has mild delusions even when she's medicated. She's been on olanzapine for about 20 years and she completely detaches from reality and does crazy stupid shit liking driving 90mph on a country road (I was in the car when she did this when I was younger).

I have NOT been diagnosed with Schizophrenia though. I've been diagnosed with bipolar.",5.463870967741936,6.1890884516129026,5.57205069124424,82.72093317972353,67.70967741935483,8.5963133640553,29.785714285714285,8.634040054169528,2.1217152073732723,882,31,173,13,14,278,126,217,0.134,0.84,0.026000000000000002,-0.9714,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,14,7,3,0,9,0,18,11,5,0,0,26,32,18,0,0,7,1,0,2,0,1,5,8,0,0,9,11,0,0,3,0,0,4,3,5,0,2,10,10,22,2,24,20,3,37,0,1,2,1,9,13,2,5,22,110,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29324634917316633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09018744269304542,0.0,0.0,0.28387627333879184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12237792703324035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09236526590469003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12928299662649542,0.0,0.0,0.07947624334644382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12366308235102025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3152274157999104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537085826220022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13664087120851856,0.0,0.0,0.12375703397520575,0.0,0.15644902639400826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14087754235867928,0.0,0.1483517788067943,0.141201998325462,0.0,0.11162169077717383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262467169569291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.146742154451295,0.0,0.0,0.2127144585547997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13349637651479845,0.19389965136207585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14354727017891875,0.0,0.0,0.2798888443372314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13830872698583332,0.0,0.2969456962722533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373954588867862,0.11102006189726693,0.16308765598478453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420177902264857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18010916655087378
schizophrenia,-JellyMoon-,2020/01/04,"Not diagnosed as schizophrenic, but starting to wonder? Hi all! First of all thank you for taking the time to read my experience!   


I'll try and make this short, but basically for most of my life I've been a pretty fraught sleeper; I hallucinate in early sleep a lot, like maybe 25-35% of the time. During these hallucinations I'm like kinda half asleep and I'll take them as real but as I've gotten older I've gotten a little about rationalizing even in my sleep that what I'm seeing isn't real. I have anxiety and some past trauma in a way that it makes sense to me these hallucinations manifest this way.  


Twice now, in the past month or so, I've had some hallucinations that felt much more real than my usual ones .Or, at least I think they're hallucinations? My building recently put up scaffolding for repairs. I live on the 14th floor. A few weeks ago, as I was in an early sleep stage, I suddenly shoot up in bed gasping in surprise. I don't exactly know what startled me, but then outside of my window there appeared to be a silhouette of a man standing on the scaffolding projected on my curtain. I sit there for a minute trying to decide what to do, and then I decide I should take a picture to show management in the morning. But when I go for my phone, it lights up and I don't want him to see and scare him off before I can really understand what's going on.   


So then I decide to just go peak out my curtain, but when I look I can't see anything around. When I step back, the silhouette is still there. I feel awake but confused, but eventually decide it's just the way the curtain is laying or something. I fall back to sleep, and then --I don't know, 20 minutes later -- I'm startled awake again by I don't know what, and the silhouette is gone. 

Then again a few nights ago, I'm in early sleep when I'm startled awake by something, and I see a silhouette of a person on the lower scaffolding peering into my window. I sit there for longer this time, really trying to make sure I feel awake and I am actually seeing what I'm seeing. I watch to see if the figure moves and it doesn't. I go to peer out my curtain and don't see anything, but when I step back the silhouette is gone.   


I was explaining this as a funny story to my friend who is a psych nurse, and she briefly brought up the possibility that it could be schizophrenia but I wasn't having any other symptoms and I was pretty aware of the situation so she didn't think that was likely. But it still has gotten me wondering...

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I've been trying to figure out what it was; either people are actually scaling the scaffolding to the 14th floor just so they can be creeps or my apartment is haunted. Or I wasn't actually as awake as I thought I was but truly, I still really, really felt like I was awake.   


I'm just curious what it actually feels like to have schizophrenic hallucinations, especially visual ones? I will add that I've always been an anxious person, with maybe mild paranoia. But since moving to the city I know I've gotten much more paranoid. Things like, I'll see someone on the train platform that has a weird vibe and I'll be so freaked out by them I won't get on the train with them or actively get off the train before my actual stop. 

I don't know if that means anything or if all of this basically amounts to I'm just an anxious person and my sleep isn't the quality it should be.

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Thank you again for reading through this and sharing your insight and experiences!!",4.626020079211563,5.5168125064935065,5.723484694974058,80.28992815694946,69.67821067821069,8.72615516870836,28.16459427097725,8.962127807601751,2.11797297596021,2749,93,547,49,47,914,264,693,0.07,0.838,0.092,0.961,1,0,2,1,0,0,78.0,0,3,4,1,32,20,0,5,40,0,50,12,7,3,5,105,110,63,0,7,30,0,5,6,1,4,5,0,7,4,36,27,0,1,25,3,0,14,15,8,0,5,24,17,69,12,78,76,16,97,0,0,11,0,21,35,0,19,47,370,105,5,0.0,0.0,0.2803634693272278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018696871280399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047811342269405324,0.1245158221064028,0.13964043482817648,0.0390747861155412,0.0,0.04395676041831415,0.1298269415797795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418541093705052,0.05115160281671311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13254963297081118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09778849510337732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045877152903483175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05832071395145741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037951803357999206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11241385666735533,0.0,0.0,0.08716054252288856,0.04104945200406627,0.11034126627657748,0.0,0.0,0.04887546631964804,0.0,0.0,0.044393471333340165,0.0,0.06004098101930564,0.0,0.13062342124274973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15789263001003262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040585713630435935,0.16843238929629087,0.05759003846447663,0.050738253138902664,0.0,0.04825194775133195,0.0,0.0,0.048850456873991005,0.0,0.0,0.11506503486802608,0.0,0.11545263276925175,0.0625908101699479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045864042260583056,0.1221418222241792,0.08447945686891163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053922339257394855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07787279749793652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097041876266129,0.039835545145680384,0.15051562757822362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06477754255027872,0.0,0.1169150015457968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05776319380903747,0.0,0.0,0.11495114525363187,0.1962062577606966,0.14724144865643207,0.0,0.05673484081056699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0575275071337241,0.0,0.4120937915323768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047531524907402437,0.06458747347704473,0.34500912042017584,0.0,0.04868569113196748,0.08847106609413953,0.0,0.0,0.04067050011547857,0.0,0.1376629460837083,0.048039152224957166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05415539178718338,0.05972296508043814,0.12960835921359795,0.0,0.0,0.1058029385983233,0.0,0.0,0.03817388615784289,0.07363612537341517,0.0,0.04561684001717392,0.10051620470250736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15604633571713414,0.0,0.0,0.05981791051333747,0.0,0.0,0.06328409758513717,0.0,0.033891410379062605,0.136827275446467,0.04609096461852865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1246258880047806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13964043482817648,0.0
schizophrenia,NeitherManner,2020/01/04,"Has mood stabilized for you over the years? Basically I have shcizhophrenia with mood problems, like right now I have elevated mood and little sleep, but normally I am so goddamn sleepy. My question is has someones mood stabilized back to pre illness level of mood after years of medication.",9.22873333333333,10.29445294,8.61,63.01833333333335,59.6,12.266666666666667,40.66666666666667,11.855464076750405,5.444466666666668,237,12,35,7,3,75,39,50,0.196,0.773,0.031,-0.8789,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,3,7,0,0,1,0,6,3,1,0,0,6,6,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,7,6,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,6,24,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24210577538272016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15382333883611174,0.3155696610604684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3171855352059088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084932355041753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30127584732160856,0.0,0.0,0.3527121567755601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688863546131484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3150846167632574,0.0,0.2667775097682296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4055154670605984
schizophrenia,Jumpy-Fox,2020/01/04,"Trying to help my sister She's diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder for over a 5 years. This whole time she was barely out of her psychosis when she is extremely aggressive, doubtful against everyone mostly her family members. I am not sure if those meds do any job to help her mood be stabilized. As she describes this mood aren't caused by thoughts its her chemicals in brain which puts her on this kind of mood. And she can't make a difference when this happens and I am sure it last whole day.

I've no idea what I am gonna do the rest of my life since she has tried several combinations of drugs and none of them made her get back on the tracks. What am I supposed to do when she is being aggressive for literally no reason? it's like living with a activated bomb which requires no touch to be exploded. I myself have a depression with suicidal thoughts everyday this whole time caused by my issues and lack of motivation to keep fighting for it and even thinking about our future makes me wanna disappear forever. Please don't put pressure on me because I'm just trying to help her. Just wondering if anyone has similar experience to help me realize what happens because mostly it's completely unbelievable to speak with her. 

Thanks for your time.",6.641518987341769,7.508223700421944,6.8032236286919865,74.42837974683545,65.16033755274262,11.045738396624472,33.94345991561181,10.93419730881044,3.894903459915613,1015,43,182,28,15,326,139,237,0.14800000000000002,0.755,0.09699999999999999,-0.8981,1,0,1,0,2,0,13.0,1,1,1,2,8,14,3,2,6,0,19,4,1,7,2,37,33,11,1,4,5,1,1,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,16,10,0,2,8,0,0,3,8,6,0,0,4,2,30,5,34,25,8,21,0,1,0,0,25,6,0,6,13,131,46,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07727386400566426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07945434972623984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873762284277173,0.0,0.13853839684044392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12685123281969307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334633573514205,0.0,0.0,0.11914130982875605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07328343614747064,0.0,0.0978713377741156,0.11533439761569755,0.0,0.11872157330313493,0.1302324661508128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177739791015727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07505306574894667,0.0,0.0,0.10858053701593512,0.0,0.11115419860238863,0.10712242412105036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0593681893527651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009693440386069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046613550535044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282770409531964,0.0,0.11860260380173525,0.11276252894252985,0.10100161375720787,0.0,0.11833055942874607,0.0,0.09262549486220203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08026185751542156,0.05551500442486986,0.0,0.10033940713961162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10752163448834284,0.15170089188984612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262198742657684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12473414772969073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284637039206769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11683293495536455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12837216048019628,0.0,0.0939978169251097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12429529838111456,0.0,0.21419420532525232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10461735944595127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281099276121422,0.0,0.18042271460844914,0.1987797325257217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314466281875329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3805992314071807,0.0,0.0,0.1232293875235864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07317547882707025
schizophrenia,nervistheilluminatu,2020/01/04,Anyone here have obsessions? I’m thinking of getting into space just to make life a bit more interesting.,4.638947368421054,7.698807894736844,5.504473684210527,72.51881578947369,75.3157894736842,8.010526315789475,30.552631578947373,8.841846274778883,3.243400000000001,86,4,13,2,2,28,19,19,0.096,0.754,0.15,0.2716,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,4,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,5,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,8,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3843966327134679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6001825087667082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28722067647810395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3883033197119877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3669611054838744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35225636530119736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,burtbasic,2020/01/04,"Interview with a schizophrenic. Hi.

I am creating a podcast series where I will interview people diagnosed with schizophrenia.

I feel it will be a platform for them to tell their stories.

*(I think I may need an incentive.*

*Do you think a £10 gift voucher would be good enough?) - this idea may be withdrawn as is it may not be appropriate.*

I am a schizophrenic myself, 20 years on anti-psychotics.

Thanks,",1.6564241164241158,4.268898405405409,2.8948648648648643,84.44649688149691,98.72972972972971,6.601247401247402,25.962577962577964,7.61054688173877,2.3672943866943865,318,15,55,8,13,102,53,74,0.0,0.8420000000000001,0.158,0.872,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,6,0,14,3,0,0,0,12,19,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,6,3,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,10,2,6,9,1,4,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,3,1,42,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32869804688658577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3346206824337956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16374685282885235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27162763002163104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3655840208417359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401285630690812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2245148421356104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830566888948197,0.29815495143866594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.415016362980112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23005172832648474,0.0,0.0,0.20854695101971052
schizophrenia,Marko-9,2020/01/04,"A sleep induced sanity Hi folks, I just wanted to mention one of the most important factors in your mental health, especially if you are schizophrenic, schizoaffective, or bipolar (and I would imagine other diagnoses too): *sleep*.  Getting enough sleep - as well as sleeping at a regular time everyday - is vital to keeping the symptoms away.  Messing your sleep cycle up is a surefire way to bring on an episode.

Oh yeah, and I've also read that gluten is really bad for schizophrenia, although that one I can't personally confirm but I believe it to be true.  I did a lot of research and that repeatedly came up.  I'm eating gluten-free now so I'll see how it goes and report back if it helps.  Nutrition in general also brings on psychosis, so cutting out the fast food entirely and buying more produce will definitely have an effect on your symptoms, and your general health as well.  Produce is super cheap and grabbing a bushel of bananas (or whatever) every time you hit the grocery store is an inexpensive way to stay physically and mentally healthy.  Okay, have a great day and just remember: ""This too shall pass"".  The bad times, the good times.  This too shall pass.",4.766305858987089,7.285721509433963,5.2927110228401215,76.98992552135057,72.11320754716981,8.425422045680241,32.384309831181724,9.134995656068208,3.2850339622641505,928,45,154,21,19,297,136,212,0.044000000000000004,0.774,0.183,0.9837,0,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,6,0,4,14,12,1,0,15,2,15,14,5,5,1,33,24,23,0,4,7,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,0,1,9,11,2,1,4,1,4,5,1,4,2,2,2,2,11,8,22,16,4,28,0,0,1,0,10,10,0,6,10,107,20,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18306029845972072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10753485937350836,0.08800933692100264,0.19113138906334973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12895233349145913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13090678267387718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07381443143848937,0.0,0.0,0.11617008471289073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11711671314499908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11826329177560364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643382922309156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384002373016525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05979835789616132,0.0,0.0,0.09599997654036067,0.0,0.1261877682207309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24332202686886625,0.0,0.0,0.07671721567237932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10173344872715184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09730610839295346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306887682271482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15511623348258072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09993826676476064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11448663242594365,0.0,0.07332322602353451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965594996198768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09120634167784528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5726915880363944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12199450378962096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23792650818624395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669600609948577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06750891318052284,0.18169914944091528,0.0,0.0,0.2058187662043248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08130601633071434,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ElijahWolf101,2020/01/04,"Does anyone else only hear voices at night? I've had psychosis for almost 5 years. When the voices started I heard them all the time & sometimes they were so distracting that it was hard to hold a conversation. But as the years have gone on the voices started to only appear at night.

I'm fully awake when I hear them. They usually start about 15-30 mins after I take my night meds and they keep me up until I eventually fall asleep.

Does anyone else here only experience voices at night? I might hear a couple throughout the day but generally they surface at night & there is always multiple voices talking nonsense.",4.5079487179487145,6.747681888888893,5.109752136752139,79.26719230769233,71.991452991453,7.073162393162392,24.52051282051282,7.908726449838941,1.5261117948717948,499,15,85,7,10,160,78,117,0.064,0.9359999999999999,0.0,-0.7221,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,6,0,6,1,0,1,7,0,6,1,1,0,1,10,18,8,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,9,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,5,10,13,0,13,12,1,28,0,0,0,0,12,7,0,3,18,50,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11678898645194973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09704624143703824,0.2527390355782113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631020565711888,0.2390042539199031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12904985857264806,0.0,0.07521727375177598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041289510816548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948602813776257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11408738760707947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10447836648523008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.394354459783044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036668916023428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295506233694901,0.0,0.0,0.1237269405237724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5472509352421611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661091364104777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11535092990008115,0.0,0.24765582723019314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876919124450094,0.09374348940677654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06800840837395727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12845244500283087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15021293520617754
schizophrenia,freedomwoodstock69,2020/01/04,Can antipsychotics suddenly stop working? Edit for clarity: my meds are working fine I am just curious.,4.676274509803921,8.031292705882354,6.055294117647063,61.74215686274514,92.52941176470587,11.678431372549019,40.96078431372549,9.725611199111238,7.279525490196079,84,6,10,4,3,28,16,17,0.105,0.5710000000000001,0.324,0.5574,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,7,2,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5517578684772525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4152906432968205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7232544062524279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ragestepper,2020/01/04,Prolong life one thousand years As we age we use the same brain pattern courses through our brain and they burn out and we cross bridges that aren't connected.  If we would readjust and adapt to aging.  If we comprehended aging as burnt routes in the brain and reprogram.  We would rejuvenate.,3.2396765498652265,6.362479490566037,2.947762803234504,87.41415094339622,84.28301886792453,6.047439353099732,28.32614555256065,7.447530270364453,1.9518862533692731,235,11,42,4,7,70,38,53,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,7,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,4,3,1,0,17,4,8,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,11,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,8,0,6,2,1,7,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,2,4,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8547082774497532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18026489890834704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729393265879224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22042259068117248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3625928091751761,0.0,0.0,0.16434917782456238
schizophrenia,hh434344,2020/01/04,"Quitting alcohol nightmare So, I thought I would quit drinking alcohol cold turkey. My use is about three drinks a night. Bad idea. 24 hours in I started having symptoms like confused thing, hallucinations, rapid heart rate. I got really scared and thought I was having an episode. So, I did some research and learned that those are symptoms of alcohol withdrawal and can be worse for people with mental health issues. I am furious because I talked to THREE professionals about doing this and not one mentioned this to me. I had two drinks after doing my research and felt better. I am now going to try to taper off very slowly over the course of months. 

I am posting this in case you are thinking of quitting alcohol. Be careful.

All the best.",4.48630769230769,7.221394918518517,4.5429629629629655,80.98794871794873,73.8888888888889,6.820512820512822,30.384615384615394,7.882392219407189,2.3715299145299147,594,27,98,9,13,184,94,135,0.11199999999999999,0.8009999999999999,0.087,-0.6697,0,0,7,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,5,5,8,1,2,4,0,17,11,1,1,1,18,26,7,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,7,0,0,0,6,6,7,0,6,3,0,1,1,4,0,4,7,2,15,4,16,16,3,12,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,2,7,74,21,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5179956402656647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1011758187686248,0.07386697660722115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12716537897859534,0.10716918107165377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235456895285734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3561152431304537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1163467213303158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06886637838852093,0.0,0.09691448260700952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12880304702195844,0.0,0.14359261107876212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193326774846432,0.0,0.0,0.13679149462435694,0.0,0.12647491179890322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05919984100760872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211560393343475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09672049495242384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11371425380117473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08211111740365974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0840072844277213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11605187340221433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3866526493489185,0.0,0.0,0.07762762007897299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12131702067906985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08576808120797529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25189383481668143,0.0,0.09739563936873707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08050309090651679,0.07764385934443048,0.0,0.1923983638231763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08226967185055875,0.0,0.11837008124201813,0.0,0.0,0.10465604081463203,0.0,0.09998182361269606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12348737854909313,0.0860790350908679,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SilverSideUp01,2020/01/04,"Thankyou I've only very recently joined Reddit but in doing so I've realised how many people are experiencing similar and different things to me. This has made me feel alot better with also coming to terms with new diagnosis' and medications. But also understanding the nature of everyone else's experiences. 

Everyone here is so supportive and there's an incredible willingness to help and encourage positivity, if like to thank you all. I'm proud to be apart of this community and likewise be here for you all <3. 

Love from Australia",8.301403508771934,9.563519789473688,9.216578947368422,57.18521929824564,61.631578947368425,13.070175438596491,36.88596491228071,12.45797560212912,5.490017543859649,440,20,66,16,6,150,71,95,0.0,0.6709999999999999,0.32899999999999996,0.9913,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,2,8,8,0,0,3,0,6,2,0,2,2,18,14,13,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,8,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,7,12,11,4,6,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,2,4,46,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3372943689032234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865134388706071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18166147554745607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22033324075612784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17616999615323256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4030253464157885,0.0,0.20628908563383944,0.0,0.0,0.10663138960173812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14135388755482278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030293020485045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903347969980483,0.19954747497931666,0.0,0.21380749288254344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21244763349574547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20367709795798286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16038994780033472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14620329606064156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082266151409793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393133835409259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19415748296410493,0.0,0.0,0.1401047220342993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21954201074762447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17400481705734322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,maroonbugg22,2020/01/04,"Girlfriend w/ Paranoid Schizophrenia (help) We're young (teens) and my girlfriend had paranoid schizophrenia. She constantly thinks I want to be with other people, is always scared that I'm cheating on her, etc. 

She tells me that reassuring her that I'm not doing those things help but I don't want to validate the paranoia bc its not,, rational?

I don't know what to do, if I don't reassure her, she breaks down, but I don't want to make it any worse by validating it. 

Any advice?",4.4580184331797215,5.997394064516133,4.817235023041476,84.18870967741938,70.72043010752688,7.894930875576037,28.3394777265745,8.418075326091056,1.9452961597542249,380,14,74,6,7,120,60,93,0.2,0.688,0.111,-0.8634,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,1,0,9,0,0,1,0,13,17,4,0,4,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,1,0,13,2,8,15,1,5,0,0,0,0,13,2,0,1,2,48,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464490521541675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20985241788254408,0.0,0.0,0.34301226258760603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2725409609285974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28127209817606674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33809161113079694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13860372288540396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16834691403512475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17484523691859624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25249837996061475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204358222398266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16755192240905792,0.16160097394924625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4462661416251616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570155684231088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,afflictedchameleon,2020/01/04,"Is Schizotypal personality disorder classed as a psychotic disorder? I'm a bit confused because I was diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder but on my records it states 'psychotic disorder' so im not sure if the professionals are being vague with me or amended it or whether its also considered a psychotic disorder. It seems some answers says it can be and others say it isn't, is there any consensus? Im from the UK. Thanks for reading",5.714785714285719,8.363631050000002,7.3046428571428565,63.04750000000002,69.75,12.571428571428573,41.42857142857143,11.765960540728905,6.5078571428571435,364,24,56,16,7,125,57,80,0.222,0.733,0.045,-0.9052,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,5,0,8,1,0,0,1,14,11,9,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,7,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,2,3,2,6,8,2,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,6,0,40,10,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11270635350213246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09584121529757526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08591318998615519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386545320089218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430469276428569,0.0,0.0,0.8076235081359019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30446981940884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24611950744432776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14097399571656732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22415569963560736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12830271055174647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13283037681774126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12975480131015932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Depressedschizo123,2020/01/04,"I miss my hallucinations so much. Ive been very depressed, i take seroquel xr and while im not anhedonic, im very depressed. Id have no problem slitting my wrists at this point. Hopefully ill adapt and get use to having no hallucinations, but if not im gonna end up killing myself, or dumping the seroquel down the toilet bowl. I wish i was dead. I miss my hallucinations and hate this empty feeling.",3.1720976491862567,5.245799265822789,4.943074141048825,79.72430379746838,75.32911392405063,7.0459312839059685,29.00723327305606,7.957251820313856,1.968806871609404,318,14,62,5,7,108,54,79,0.387,0.539,0.07400000000000001,-0.982,0,2,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,0,0,1,9,3,0,2,0,5,2,1,1,0,13,15,8,2,4,5,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,8,0,0,2,1,10,1,4,12,1,6,0,4,0,0,0,4,0,3,2,35,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33997317775024377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17480311063765902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979156285473838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031128849905011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19485295437457292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19602383043069965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6395506729751392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21835051077907708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14508291457434988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865697717305384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18884765480598087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14839077810428747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17045638506869953,0.0,0.32568669888406065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22695520802640698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,RelaxedHuman,2020/01/04,"Medicaid/Medicare covering adhd medicine. My doctor told me they only cover it if it’s for work or school, but, is it possible for them to cover it for daily functioning reasons? Anyone here got them to cover it when they weren’t working or in school?",6.293125,6.971867062500002,7.120833333333334,72.50750000000002,65.875,9.733333333333334,32.66666666666667,9.725611199111238,3.3262416666666668,201,8,33,4,3,67,35,48,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,4,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,5,4,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,6,0,6,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,3,1,25,11,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252033014270106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18920672059014507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27696604135872105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21642000400897046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20580013143417372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30505585773918803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27821732297842816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5477143449814801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585656719800353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3939936087727254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,IPlayedATooManyVidya,2020/01/04,"It's like playing a game Does anyone else feel this way? I feel as though I'm not in complete control. And that nothing matters in the end. I don't feel my emotions too often anymore and when I do it's not very intense. I wonder at times if the meds are doing this. I smoked pot recently just so I could feel something even though I knew it would be rough. I found it actually helped me with some of my issues by helping me think differently about them. But aside from that time I smoked, it feels like I'm just controlling this body. It's surreal. My focus is shot on top of that. It's difficult and I have another semester of school around the corner and I worry, but not that much. Idk I know I should worry more but nothing feels that real but I know when reality does hit me it will hit hard and I should be scared of that but I'm not. I went back to an inpatient hospital near me just before christmas after my last semester and I felt fine there after a few days minus my focus still being garbage. I told my friend that I'm concerned I'm not going to be able to properly care for myself soon. I think that's my biggest concern. I know I rambled a bit, but I feel like I need to put these thoughts out there. I just feel like a shell and I can't tell what's even real anymore. I'm just here.",1.463269230769228,3.4204413676470606,3.1098529411764737,91.3996266968326,80.17647058823529,6.096380090497737,22.226244343891395,7.1686216300943375,0.6439486425339371,1020,32,223,13,26,337,145,272,0.06,0.8340000000000001,0.105,0.8857,1,0,3,0,1,0,21.0,0,0,1,3,22,10,0,1,8,0,16,1,1,2,0,57,47,20,0,6,17,0,11,4,1,4,0,0,0,0,21,10,0,2,18,2,0,3,7,2,0,0,6,11,38,8,23,30,5,27,0,0,0,0,7,10,0,4,17,149,59,1,0.10081050908937483,0.0,0.09837651478046608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570860861042053,0.0,0.0,0.19995387284959013,0.07048905191637746,0.1032922797968636,0.0,0.0897427261586217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07751705882836753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08578231819022032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100589662326558,0.1119777494958228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10278303268485044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10569790078001108,0.0,0.22613511607062475,0.08048898848208301,0.0,0.0,0.06501443851731155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053255255752847,0.0,0.0,0.1764399117082888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08421424462218395,0.11339825400197764,0.08928818890882402,0.0,0.0,0.13316878097395415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4077825792997568,0.2160571435090246,0.09679389792472934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1105335198525109,0.0778859492511709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057292935494585334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030641494212296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13514231849655522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10521998009678643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16620845811883528,0.08217401990725348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19700369042226212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119777494958228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741073235865319,0.07474971512444895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19346080469144106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10134240568426717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294888591457513,0.0,0.0,0.09953821585532242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10092890613396617,0.10202561721466444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07760885505286172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08050740278101805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08811282834716587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291906073490459,0.1980916266747985,0.08003228357382589,0.11756683709330698,0.0,0.0,0.09632876157435524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831792277293331,0.0,0.08001868977219033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934523519031224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10932469681901903,0.0,0.20475593087764307,0.0,0.07161289326228447,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,hypolaristic,2020/01/04,"Best medication for positive symptoms My buddy is really desperate. He just can't get rid of the positive symptoms. He was on clozapine which made him tired a f. 

What are you guys taking with the least side effects and best effects for positive symptoms?",4.365000000000002,7.442516804347829,5.4414782608695695,72.43613043478264,76.6086956521739,9.76695652173913,33.11304347826087,9.888512548439397,4.434544347826087,207,11,32,7,5,68,37,46,0.08900000000000001,0.6,0.311,0.9404,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,4,1,2,0,0,3,0,4,5,0,3,0,6,7,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,5,5,3,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4742279737898758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11804626442063765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22371979842650055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21379340407926573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22761452009526806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447453279967737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7045260894990728,0.1698815529339187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596890601247949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Shrine4812,2020/01/04,"Desoxyn? Combined with an anti-psychotic, could Desoxyn (prescribed Methamphetamine Hydrochloride) help alleviate the negative and cognitive symptoms of Schizophrenia?

Has anyone ever tried this?  I myself struggle with the negative and cognitive symptoms tremendously and am thus highly curious about this.",12.752857142857144,17.500444523809527,9.576428571428572,45.10607142857143,56.14285714285714,12.771428571428574,53.35714285714285,11.698219412168324,9.106314285714284,258,18,19,9,4,75,33,42,0.203,0.693,0.105,-0.7138,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,3,0,3,2,0,1,1,8,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282399221615472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606192020826998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29526489034126685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187919358808844,0.34487984861136384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34124426275598096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6785491478960098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22161723716861728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ttttrrrowu,2020/01/04,"Fear that this is a delusion So basically can you have delusions about your health because I have been worried that I am goin through the prodromal stage and I have had very bad anxiety lately about my health and schizophrenia and every week I feel something wrong with me like I feel symtoms but usaully it’s not actually anything serious like rite now I feel liek I have shortness of breath and I am constantly focusing on it and the other week I felt like I was lightheaded and i get checked out and it always turns out to be nothing wrong with me I’m worried that the symtoms are actually delusions 

I know that I am Am aware this could be a delusion and people with schizophrenia are not a where but my symtoms feel very real",3.734991816693945,6.116623666666667,4.1222695035461,84.82615384615389,74.74468085106382,6.891653027823242,30.70430987452264,7.882392219407189,2.2213138025095467,591,28,109,9,13,185,79,141,0.12,0.8109999999999999,0.069,-0.7187,0,0,1,0,0,0,0.0,0,2,0,0,5,8,0,1,6,0,18,3,1,0,0,25,27,11,0,1,4,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,10,13,0,0,6,0,1,0,2,5,0,0,4,5,19,3,11,20,0,11,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,8,79,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.2982645033283906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12716016720783738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169084309160768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12575950538424854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276000075857278,0.09315888806366718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651463181237327,0.0,0.12201595180814408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12875914731419474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17196726529960468,0.3090856307326783,0.0,0.1467331097984317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07984320062295186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32488533282151044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08398698835865448,0.0,0.17238990078178434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22398336638874602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14663685472485607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10594755012309083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17394492157313604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11764986113750388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662264793693285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521883510642,0.0,0.0,0.24516922091990945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3103963693115555,0.0,0.0,0.3341737881064645,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,flipperthedog,2020/01/04,"tactile hallucination? i get flashes of violent images that kinda match with sensations. the sensations are like getting stabbed in the stomach, cutting off my hands or nails/pins going into the side of my head. i even feel the knife going between my joints and splitting my wrist apart.
has anyone else experienced tactile hallucinations like this? is this even a hallucination? usually i heard them being like bugs crawling on you but i don't get anything like that.

i'm not diagnosed with anything as i'm scared of bringing up bad stuff with my therapist as i don't want to be hospitalised and i don't want my parents to know. just looking for advice i guess.",4.808569299552907,7.364278426229513,5.4682414307004485,75.61215350223549,72.11475409836065,8.042921013412817,32.40238450074516,8.841846274778883,3.1026786885245907,536,26,89,11,11,173,81,122,0.142,0.789,0.069,-0.8383,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,1,0,3,8,2,1,5,0,8,5,4,0,0,16,23,6,0,2,4,1,2,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,6,0,0,2,0,0,3,4,4,0,0,1,5,15,4,17,20,0,11,0,0,1,0,4,7,0,3,5,58,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847760866430988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13221578617157798,0.19374455475721725,0.31120912047452953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15788184762641158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919218784865194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579600272220522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24978368400910786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956093408185429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963744032606437,0.0,0.21492785908031545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083034200683242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19406039579280088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10391865290237992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36951834504430026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15878757006947775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099615303366897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18931159249766127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21646225660555535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195475022058684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082553875621788,0.0,0.22305979141205864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,maika_marie,2020/01/04,"schizophrenia+depression vs schizoaffective disorder hi all, after my father's diagnosis, I've been trying to understand more about schizophrenia. I've been reading about the differences between schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorder, and I understand it is differentiated by the mood symptoms that are present in the latter. This made me confused therefore, as to what the difference is between someone with schizophrenia as well as depression, and someone with schizoaffective disorder. Are they distinguishable? Is the latter based more strongly on the mood symptoms? Any ideas would be great, thanks  :)",12.498278388278385,15.136783681318686,9.256868131868133,55.70896520146522,52.84615384615386,12.66007326007326,47.034798534798526,12.161744961471696,6.899547985347985,509,29,58,15,6,146,59,91,0.132,0.7290000000000001,0.139,0.1909,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,1,3,8,0,1,6,0,9,2,0,2,1,15,13,6,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,0,4,4,15,8,3,4,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,2,45,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100946350872125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2788810772280973,0.0,0.0,0.33829312039657544,0.5566395322096422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17849059286562372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18276055165009436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15318963617643142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16193952222968522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743474210348065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33654326487750263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14905181926900254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10991656062220642,0.0,0.0,0.33707828931793543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14556368703827266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150060680447719,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jha_fer,2020/01/04,"Voluntary Psychosis vs. Involuntary Psychosis ...a lot of you on here have been or experienced the involuntary kind of psychosis due to how traumatic your positive as well as negative symptoms have been. In the beginning, early onset, it's the case from my experience.  Yet, as someone who falls under a psychosis spectrum(schizophrenic) with more than 6 hospitalzations, I argue that some voluntary psychosis may help you. Take yourself to the hospital to be checked on purpose if you do trigger a voluntary psychosis. The impact of the psychosis dies down after a few hospital stays spaced out over a couple years. The voices go away and the delusions become an opportunity to ponder about your thoughts.  Take my advice at your own risk, you may be surprised by the results.",10.442435064935069,10.648554477272732,9.28549783549784,62.07681818181821,57.25757575757576,12.08831168831169,43.85714285714286,11.491704259439757,5.489732467532467,629,33,90,15,7,196,91,132,0.086,0.821,0.09300000000000001,-0.0164,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,7,0,1,5,6,1,1,15,0,9,1,0,3,0,15,14,7,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,2,1,0,3,2,10,4,25,7,5,19,0,0,0,0,10,10,0,6,6,75,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24472555754691935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352951702742805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27658959509586983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27710538453578465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599155748064374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449768621462361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1423299440457124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16786361585225798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607931100160888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21291381675148235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21219568829887425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266934068719085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26030144356258345,0.37659709801344987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988201572249648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22517424545783804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16127415261413958
schizophrenia,PretendMD,2020/01/05,"I feel like im the only one alive and that i control everything For quiet some time now i feel like nothing around me is real. 
I just dont get how other people can exist and think on their own. I feel like im just simulation or something like that. 
That the way i think changes things and i kinda control it. 
I wanted some insane things to happen. End of the world like and now WW3 might happen and Australia is half burned down with 400.000.000 death animals. 
I cant explain the way i think. Its just weird. I cant believe this world, people and my life is real. 
Also i never did tests. Dont know if i have schizophrenia. Just thought this fits here",1.5890584415584428,3.912390265151519,2.5689610389610387,93.4377272727273,81.95454545454545,4.680519480519481,20.034632034632033,5.773587663045528,-0.10907316017316004,513,14,106,3,14,162,79,132,0.065,0.816,0.11900000000000001,0.7003,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,2,10,6,0,0,4,0,11,1,0,3,1,34,24,10,1,2,6,0,3,5,0,1,1,1,0,0,10,8,0,2,9,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,2,4,16,5,7,21,3,13,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,6,10,71,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046959148858601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11654570861343408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475009343385886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13849499287632586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2936736878067322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30687229697810314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11595541714206475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176615980715429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19858981208976606,0.28058578081020963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0683997987689095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315425624534432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828300739721651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07194968460830127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09247199489701176,0.3198021678540009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13888442029913614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10097284023868837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256203568623319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08871413471272589,0.09956983496673437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18152556640859888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980290754791233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100787878795056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17395359550065595,0.25166291783495104,0.0,0.10393509981607288,0.07633994934732252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07721944613719844,0.2078348920520848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,RUBEniteRL,2020/01/05,At what point is it a delusion I have very many beliefs and religious ideologies and ideas that have grown and I’ve incorporated into my ideologies though there is no evidence for or against them. At what point does this become a delusion and not just my growing religious perspective? If I have something that I believe and it doesn’t hurt anyone or myself even though there’s no evidence for it is it still harmful in someway to believe it? Does it make me crazy or stupid? For example I’ve come to believe that stars are in fact angels that can put thoughts in your head through radiation which is seemingly random but can intercept brain activity in such a way to cause a thought to occur. This leads me to believe that in fact some of my thoughts may not be mine though they can originate in my mind. Now this doesn’t affect my life much at all except for being an interesting conversation piece to some people. What is wrong with this kind of abstract thinking? Can it lead to harm? What are your thoughts?,6.587500000000002,7.339357750000001,6.260416666666668,78.67625000000002,65.25,9.733333333333334,34.22916666666667,9.725611199111238,3.1882729166666666,816,35,152,16,12,254,108,192,0.105,0.877,0.018000000000000002,-0.9309,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,2,2,10,7,1,0,5,0,19,3,2,6,3,39,27,13,0,1,9,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,21,8,0,0,8,0,0,6,6,5,0,0,4,0,16,2,27,20,5,22,2,1,0,0,5,12,0,9,3,117,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641922907746734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13649896330532185,0.0,0.5569887873130632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13797086988409224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12696424695225958,0.0,0.10646458573202264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21631445924986314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0816321334737754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268422650916941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323090614323945,0.13952166276244676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12870328380222731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08729752209547799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08249941112509775,0.12530409151166408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1247938850299205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09085521225253593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568395308275603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336710185374521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12424528822546825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125145943624822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951480725150019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870167769625296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07919352287784392,0.3642890320949288,0.3924767355908978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1019773218705745,0.0,0.0981025179641413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351297465035043,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ajyssa,2020/01/05,"Is this an example of disorganized thinking? When I write (essays for example) I hardly ever write in complete sentences. I write in chunks and if a new idea or word pops into my head I stop mid-sentence and write it down so I don't forget it, then I usually forget what I was originally writing. Like I get derailed constantly. I have to later go back and decipher what I was trying to say and figure out how to complete the sentences so it makes sense. I feel like it takes me an extra-long amount of time to write because I get lost in my mind, I get distracted I guess. Before I realized I was psychotic (after hospitalization lol) I vehemently thought I had ADHD, but now I am starting to think this is an example of disorganized thinking. Is this just the normal writing process? My sister has seen me write before and she thinks it is bizarre and asks how I do it. Does anyone else do this or am I falsely attributing this as a symptom?",3.364782608695652,5.4014387391304375,4.991739130434785,79.75706521739133,74.65217391304348,7.860869565217391,28.89130434782609,8.660442795831766,2.428397826086956,744,32,138,15,16,251,106,184,0.086,0.862,0.051,-0.7843,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,9,4,0,1,7,1,15,2,1,5,1,43,32,17,0,2,5,1,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,13,8,0,1,9,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,7,4,27,2,17,25,1,21,0,1,1,0,12,6,0,4,16,99,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844978468846276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10734279883323383,0.15729651782541162,0.0,0.0,0.14351786290023652,0.0,0.0,0.1180452542024349,0.0,0.09358266296282644,0.0,0.2612636678917186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3219197362445365,0.16589756006923098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13434394018467394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12824392545520286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13886510048836326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07762291126677234,0.10967272156289697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24061920947353474,0.0,0.08724736511787054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16911650843003012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13752126137237206,0.0,0.15755294152282048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17330223769252034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500015033220235,0.0,0.0,0.13585789507025836,0.0,0.0,0.1675821634593231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10247392607868834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550086137007351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14826787272411662,0.0,0.0,0.15041426561285215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12208304274102748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10866026748778054,0.0,0.0,0.1283472570002507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595631561544033,0.11542583232575837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3934705035404203,0.0,0.12187551232808545,0.08951711649163421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042281047157482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16907751200007334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SchizoSpectrumGlobal,2020/01/05,"Online schizophrenia support group We are a new group but growing fast.  There's chat, music, support, and more. Everything is available 24/7 but Our open group meets on Sunday's at 7pm us eastern. We also have a private group that meets Monday, Wednesday, Friday all at 7pm us eastern. Feel free to invite your friends. Here is the invite link 

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schizophrenia,real2me-or-real2you,2020/01/05,"Schizo heartbreak I’ve been with my s/o for almost two years now. Our relationship isn’t the best but he treats me like a Queen. He knows about my mentalH and yet he chooses to be shady , like when he’s texting. Ik he’s texting a girl he cheated on me with a long time ago, but idk. He’s starting to bring out the paranoia in me. And my episodes have started to be about him. I love him so much but lately I find myself closing myself off from him. Idk what to do.",0.1972727272727255,2.292996808080808,1.7462626262626273,98.57272727272728,85.96969696969695,4.0040404040404045,21.12121212121212,4.851557810540192,-0.3771696969696965,360,12,84,1,11,116,67,99,0.11699999999999999,0.742,0.14,0.6597,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,2,6,7,1,0,5,0,6,1,0,0,0,13,11,7,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,1,0,14,5,14,8,2,16,0,1,0,1,14,5,0,1,12,52,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24344905707442524,0.0,0.27500920205567114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882145015840967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25101316749279434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15093326770162682,0.0,0.3098024057326824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268347451278192,0.0,0.0,0.2430450300211836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478705409453937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018897347848548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29485726982664906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38877884807533597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16014299539874102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682803624827771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768571708021766
schizophrenia,ps1gn23,2020/01/05,"Does Aripiprazole (a.k.a. ""Abilify"") affect the ability to do problem solving? I was put on Aripiprazole about 2 months ago after a psychosis. Does anyone know if it's known to affect problem solving ability or reasoning? I'm wondering if i'm having issues because of Aripiprazole, or just because i'm at a low point right now.",6.94042372881356,8.403461983050853,7.762500000000002,65.6806991525424,64.76271186440678,11.323728813559322,40.17372881355932,11.20814326018867,5.406284745762712,263,15,38,8,4,88,42,59,0.122,0.718,0.159,0.3094,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,3,0,13,8,4,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,7,7,0,10,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,5,4,21,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21901135431789687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17275606848439246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30122137875079313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4324226903578953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578753663631487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357824087232071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19720775224053305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335596308379893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4728224527691301,0.0,0.2483721244759236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540276093369862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21099518403913603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26793529345673883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,bigbearog,2020/01/05,"I figured someone might find this useful https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/advancing-psychiatry/201904/chronic-schizophrenia-put-remission-without-medication 

As someone who once had schizophrenic symptoms due to an aftermath of hallucinogen abuse and overdose I’m happy to share this find. I was never diagnosed but I experienced psychosis, auditory hallucinations, delusions, and paranoia daily with visual hallucinations less often. I’ve been symptom free for about 3 years now. 

Anyway, here’s a few more articles on the scholarly side that might also be worth reading. I do a ketogenic diet for weight loss reasons for months and was surprised to see how it could help with schizophrenia. It’s definitely worth a shot. Hope someone finds these useful. 

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/m/pubmed/30037619


https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2652467/

There’s plenty of articles on google from reputable sources as well. If you have any questions or are interested and don’t know where to start feel free to contact me or visit r/keto",11.309187675070028,15.541196431372555,8.030312791783384,56.954264705882366,58.54248366013071,9.07731092436975,35.76517273576097,9.606745405546679,4.248662371615314,886,38,103,18,14,251,115,153,0.048,0.691,0.261,0.988,0,0,0,0,1,0,50.0,0,1,0,1,10,9,0,0,5,0,12,6,0,4,1,27,20,12,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,7,6,2,0,8,1,4,1,2,1,1,0,4,4,6,10,18,12,3,12,0,1,1,0,7,4,0,8,7,69,13,2,0.0,0.1724096410511013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11636705159474328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09895413434012684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618064749299364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476930864343055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07357597137333084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3989899651409525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15490177094360955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09753459673635484,0.0,0.0,0.1445276867469662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07997038537910016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16163263679390014,0.0,0.0,0.3087335455308833,0.0,0.0,0.11614744571640585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11222894152587537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15496707281073427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462812060747504,0.16300836379925182,0.0,0.14555282575756942,0.0,0.0,0.14961205951959392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11595537816878307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3698792162139444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10299516727249704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024883766368136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17503476104743895,0.2513537968429681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17719617781091646,0.1308340649916233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402697709734713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370588950652503
schizophrenia,chipandele,2020/01/05,"I'm not me anyomore I'm empty I don't feel like myself, I feel a void in my heart, I feel completely empty... I don't really know if it's the disorder or the medication. I just want to have motivation again, to feel something else than sadness, anxiousness and misery.I feel tormented all the time. I just want to be driven again. To be capable of just be ordinary, but I feel miserable... 

How do you guys cope with the void, the loss of the self, the lack of motivation? 

I feel fake, a bad  imitation. Everything's melting. I'm not me, I'm not me, I'm not me anymore. I just  say ""go away, go away. Help me, help me"". Everything is so fake I'm melting in the fakeness, I don't know who to trust... 

Do you hear me cry? I have cried a lot but there's to much noise no one can tell.

The words... They just aren't enough...",-0.3842386489479529,1.7474220988372091,2.4914950166112995,91.78794573643414,89.63953488372093,6.764562569213733,19.81838316722037,7.957251820313856,0.9143894795127352,619,20,146,15,21,217,87,172,0.213,0.6970000000000001,0.09,-0.9716,0,0,1,0,0,0,42.0,0,2,1,4,10,9,0,1,12,0,13,2,1,3,1,33,34,7,0,4,13,0,7,1,0,0,1,2,0,2,2,2,0,0,11,0,0,3,9,7,0,1,1,9,23,2,15,30,5,10,0,3,0,0,11,4,0,3,4,91,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632158977003028,0.14328061619879787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714784871996891,0.0,0.12063079047480538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15147954014445514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173985337097986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16558114152646305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206905241716357,0.0,0.0,0.14928154335042415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596900593796321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5113571555676778,0.10321314016061946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16421721639124515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305320173909866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16283409536361526,0.17120385475095284,0.1936774156236136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15879962684948898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07058330442634582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12282768237067035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14554360450415774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1062059247665506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09790016151808656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255453809787503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11489250947819488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15071918396117392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11122409799805996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262777275646723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08424467415014232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.170430479283804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,paradox_schrodinger,2020/01/05,"Residual schizophrenia! although they do not exist technically I don't think, I have moved from what was once called undifferentiated schizophrenia to residual, meaning I effective pushed though to the end. I am very happy about this. <3",7.236538461538463,10.865389,6.366346153846155,66.78490384615384,69.25641025641025,9.028205128205126,32.82692307692308,9.516144504307137,3.8813538461538464,197,9,28,5,4,60,32,39,0.0,0.812,0.188,0.8118,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,0,4,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,4,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3509129870930571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043787644326027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3658300663149676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37434403764846935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3652538030183069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3659842891249149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2202020106004971,0.3376419955907564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2835536353925352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,GalaxyPupperino,2020/01/05,There's a party going on in my head Sometimes I feel like there's a party going on in my head and there's more and more people showing up that I didn't invite. The music is loud the people are talking louder and I'm surrounded by strangers,1.4941176470588218,3.549683117647064,3.427215686274512,88.6584705882353,80.56862745098039,4.864313725490196,20.003921568627447,5.6839178017228535,0.04494980392156833,193,5,38,1,5,65,33,51,0.031,0.8029999999999999,0.16699999999999998,0.7548,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,3,2,2,0,0,4,7,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,6,6,2,8,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,1,26,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15944472046576996,0.2252780287023554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3584284978641018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6472569582795158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15405855936289334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4372322963928291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3118780352949745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.253457300458747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Gnuggetrizzle,2020/01/05,"I feel like a spectator in my own mind I have schizoaffective bipolar disorder and a couple of other things.

But my big problem is that my schizophrenia is trying to make decisions for me.

I don't want to go back to school, but my mind wants me to.  I gave up on my dreams of making Video games, but my mind hasn't forgived me for doing that and tries to set me back on that course .

I fight to take the power back, but my mind is fighting tooth and nail to keep it there.

And so I'm at a stalemate with my mind.

How do I take the power back from my mind.",4.122215496368035,3.820764805084746,4.8842857142857135,90.0690677966102,70.44067796610169,8.098789346246972,25.331719128329297,7.447530270364453,0.8997007263922514,429,10,101,4,7,139,67,118,0.099,0.855,0.046,-0.6323,2,0,0,0,3,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,7,5,2,0,5,0,8,2,1,3,0,25,19,10,0,3,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,5,0,1,3,3,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,1,19,2,18,18,1,12,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,5,72,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3955030189384343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14227948550773195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473722729090263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06501764080271984,0.0918628469360892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07307916894178257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11429436780873252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06282129659722077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17166614363459606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7790195602650206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304075249812844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13013728922171836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19336340735067567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08542773873634764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17460477488835538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516883316148342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Mad_Squid,2020/01/05,"Squid update: I haven't even been at this place for 2 weeks yet and I've already decided to leave because one of my roommates is an ex-con and has started physically threatening me for no fucking reason. I'd rather sleep on the streets than live with someone I don't feel safe around. Fuck my life I don't know. I'm too dead inside to feel anything. I never expected this to last. Stability isn't a word in my vocabulary anymore. It's 1 am so I'm going to enjoy laying in an actual bed for a few more hours and then quietly leave while everyone is asleep. 

Its been 2 days since I last heard from the friend I made on Christmas who found me this place and was also supposed to also move in here. She's rarely here and is always disappearing for days so who knows where she is or what she's up to. Will most likely see her at the shelter sometime soon. Maybe shell still want to go on that road trip we talked about. Not a smart move, she could take off with my car and leave me stranded in some town in the middle of nowhere but I don't exactly have anything to lose (except my life which I value at fuck all)",2.2589565217391296,4.020951982608697,3.465434782608696,90.69989130434786,77.0,6.513043478260869,22.80434782608696,7.365786028017652,0.7238869565217398,876,26,191,11,20,284,147,230,0.107,0.8540000000000001,0.038,-0.9039,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,0,1,15,9,3,0,9,0,17,7,2,2,3,33,35,14,1,4,5,0,2,1,1,1,2,2,1,0,10,10,0,1,7,0,0,7,8,4,0,1,6,5,22,5,34,27,5,42,0,1,1,3,11,21,3,3,15,124,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.12086921298482815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13668227334744498,0.19810113559693365,0.10306120347487874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12283555327473993,0.0,0.0,0.20385198066187066,0.11026140442270876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0755037314675008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09889190233547507,0.0,0.0,0.1597585365526346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08180817233864268,0.0,0.0,0.1183532637365537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12525438499949715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358057823336174,0.0956937070760568,0.3435189266728282,0.0,0.0,0.14078465857983608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219768677417016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13614011819166702,0.2019243949870344,0.0,0.3934486566536837,0.0,0.0,0.17497155662647507,0.06051159941369887,0.0,0.10937039586220744,0.0,0.0,0.13856733684565725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719905531611605,0.0,0.0,0.12443372966289135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2632865465710584,0.0,0.0,0.09552824643415693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08393054709560539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588140759389024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12734841384933074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870015515132934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10245803458832696,0.0,0.12394916308058344,0.0,0.10494593295025699,0.0,0.12250042331790438,0.0,0.08766854241840866,0.0,0.0989145268594777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09312708970248797,0.09955374564882058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07305566786737762,0.0,0.09935279072771994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Davetheman1996,2020/01/05,"I get discharged from hospital tomorrow! I’m over the moon about it, just hope being in supported living doesn’t make my mental health go down hill again. But, I will be extremely glad to be out of hospital because it will mean I have my freedom which is important to me. 2 whole months just seemed to drag...",3.7239999999999998,5.6449834000000045,4.430000000000003,84.67500000000003,73.33333333333334,8.8,27.0,9.3871,2.3959,244,9,48,6,5,78,49,60,0.0,0.768,0.23199999999999998,0.9298,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,8,1,0,1,0,8,16,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,10,11,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,3,33,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880211690764212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16114631932565487,0.0,0.17529263507724338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3278555667771352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30634889884938754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723567338021512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20588500873093588,0.0,0.0,0.3359798094989393,0.0,0.0,0.3108333340367561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461925662844448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807907102215684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.350012209993672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3443604279670455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,schizaway,2020/01/05,"I would like to learn how to draw When I was a kid, drawing was my favorite past time. Then video games took that over and I stopped drawing pretty much until now. Is it too late to learn to draw properly at 25? Now I barely ever play video games and I want to make art and share things I think up and see in my head while also having a hobby :)

Does anyone have any recommendations on how to start?",2.2332404181184664,3.902157585365856,3.2249128919860617,92.80597560975613,76.8048780487805,5.661324041811848,19.031358885017426,6.1826913282559595,-0.2469811846689897,310,6,69,2,7,99,59,82,0.022000000000000002,0.774,0.204,0.9298,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,2,0,6,1,1,3,1,14,12,11,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,1,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,8,3,12,8,1,18,0,0,1,0,4,5,0,0,13,46,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21538543587599046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18315561891870027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18832383739508107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356950500765217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24362704241437624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764132746953687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30381926092813744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13158245838419713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17978181304979746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19799068333975006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25710874428476976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740084028314665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21462346365899385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19063522442214595,0.0,0.0,0.2251743779754743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789328219250544,0.17257765759309865,0.0,0.0,0.15705018942572674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29923878007775345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15885953222239152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913263762167912,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,impeccablemix,2020/01/05,"Schizophrenia took music away from me Ever since I've had a psychosis and been put on meds, I can't make music (I play guitar) because it gives me a headache and insomnia. I blame it on the pills. Anything exciting results in insomnia now. Music is all I have, I wanted to turn it into a career by working as a freelance audio engineer. Without music I have nothing to do all day. I can't even listen to music for pleasure. I can't live like this.",3.3675714285714307,4.829382011111111,5.157619047619047,80.985,73.33333333333333,6.920634920634923,29.523809523809533,7.447530270364453,1.97104761904762,351,15,64,4,7,120,61,90,0.053,0.812,0.135,0.79,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,0,5,0,9,3,0,2,3,10,15,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,2,0,2,4,0,0,0,3,2,10,4,13,12,2,10,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,4,48,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21946248547582772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2505632791528449,0.0,0.0,0.162571258976799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719924692121475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17614569920174974,0.2412356466421618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558325784388406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13029087050643454,0.0,0.2354914466414581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17801710965978101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962315767362605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558954768623439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26809630271428275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206080593842215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963015102801609,0.0,0.2900812642577269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15730019788098273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570788687738199,0.0,0.1941529114364027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,WithinThe_Borderline,2020/01/05,"Any high-functioning schizophrenics with a great social life? How do you cope with symptoms? I came back home a month ago from the hospital, after a really bad episode of auditory and visual hallucinations. 

I am not fully recovered but it gets better, I have plans and I always want to go out, hang out with friends, walk outside for several hours, go to shows. I also have plans to leave my house for a few days to sleep at my friends' house. I don't miss a night sleep. 

However noise (mostly people talking, white noise, TV, radio) and lights make me very anxious. And I still hear voices, they are just less intrusive than at the hospital. I have no issues going outside when the noise level is decent but at parties, when hanging out with several friends it becomes overwhelming. But I don't want to isolate myself and miss nice events. My best memories : going to live shows after a hospital stay. It really helped with my mood and energy. At my birthday party I was hallucinating the whole evening but I had a lot of fun. Can't stand staying at home, it makes me so depressed. I don't want to ruin my life. I am still young so let's start a new life before it gets worse.  I take my medication every single night without missing any. Am I being irrational?

If you are a high-functioning schizophrenic who doesn't stay isolated, what helps you function?",4.693125000000002,6.5095658125,5.350437500000002,79.50081250000002,70.5625,8.557500000000001,28.425,9.120678840339163,2.47656625,1072,40,194,22,20,346,149,256,0.079,0.69,0.23,0.9911,1,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,3,1,4,11,16,0,1,13,0,19,9,2,3,0,31,37,17,0,4,8,0,0,0,3,0,7,2,2,0,7,15,0,0,0,4,0,8,8,7,0,0,3,4,29,8,29,32,7,38,0,6,1,0,13,9,0,3,17,128,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09015468261961362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08133285331356248,0.08462608474487993,0.0,0.0,0.13832475744224598,0.0,0.0,0.11489685541969673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07820429170331343,0.08491880195272014,0.0,0.11232435546923454,0.08654282729673733,0.0,0.10673233747108246,0.08994914569133335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11632256958553525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06559082854255968,0.0,0.08759772293229906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06717469903057392,0.0,0.08569021849806076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357293576494293,0.0,0.10627254761590037,0.0,0.23120347999158106,0.0,0.0,0.11212929651068797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11462808326885,0.0,0.1363404321178792,0.21491225167467554,0.2040353137601162,0.0,0.10015820113084893,0.2347061026995748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10615281514647228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10769011758095676,0.0,0.10399948800362886,0.21551016211388746,0.0,0.0,0.08980671753044578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08646531778903524,0.0,0.0,0.1357767554686873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10245633372480427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0811793633656362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982266000195321,0.0,0.19088510110951207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07050892234652938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13030869580847984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22979371083939346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.203555402522952,0.10367467665633406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07198679279898718,0.3252096002880259,0.16244229351640047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570965934472028,0.0764689400034784,0.08174602500155041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08391665895637146,0.17996340809892064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354916491826285,0.0,0.09803926928254073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10364532128622528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Bluellan,2020/01/05,"I'm....i don't know.... I..... The voices are starting to gain more control of me. They are starting to control my emotions and personality. They are always watching and it's getting harder to control them. And I don't care. I just want to be in my little corner, cutting myself and listening to music. My only fear is if Gabe or Lucy takes control, then it will be bad. They don't like people and won't hesitate to hurt them. I have them on a chain and it's getting thinner and thinner everyday. 

I don't want to get locked up because it never helps for long. And I'm tired of going there. My doctor is giving me sugar pills because they think I'm lying and I just want to be left alone to destroy my body.",0.9614583333333327,3.2469877847222257,3.079722222222223,89.01250000000003,84.34722222222223,4.711111111111111,22.88888888888889,5.985473137389443,0.4934805555555557,547,20,109,4,16,185,82,144,0.2,0.732,0.068,-0.9425,0,1,0,0,0,1,26.0,0,0,7,5,3,7,2,1,2,0,15,5,1,4,1,23,32,12,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,2,3,2,0,1,4,9,1,4,2,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,0,4,21,2,15,27,1,13,0,1,1,0,11,6,0,2,7,74,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14859406912775075,0.0,0.0,0.11938047529398255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11979340612380933,0.17491880640141302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15936541965425194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14627960653709088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6436656895395534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14685001338697434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16138706500579178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1614462635372179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248751188832973,0.1376317362022283,0.08153863378598426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09616648127517292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15359010101137702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884864269153294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558831107858467,0.0,0.0,0.07009333537005788,0.1437969702952134,0.0,0.12696850086077244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11065470884094747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10911717518829996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09946565160814033,0.12527450814363636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031009130373948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10787333988524866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09193127852750968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16490034240633294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538710996632033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,c-harmander241,2020/01/05,"Is this schizophrenia or just depression? okay so before I get into what's been going on I'd like to say upfront that I am currently getting treatment for a major depressive disorder and high anxiety, I'm on the medication Lovan (aka prozac) at 60mg and for the first 8 weeks it was working great. 

The most noticeable effect was the little voice in my head that narrates literally every thought or action went quiet, this voice is my voice, and it's like it has multiple personalities it gets sad, it gets angry or jelous but I know that's not me my voice is a good voice, a kind voice. 

These voices have come back and are causing insomnia because I'm overthing everything of a nighttime. 

a little side note is sometimes I hear my parents fighting but in a whisper when it's not really happening, other times voices on a radio.

and when I was young I remember two distinct times of having an imaginary thing appear and try to hurt me but it wasn't a super common occurance. 

can anyone advise me about similar experiences?",5.364593406593407,6.830661389743593,6.483168498168499,73.3898076923077,68.43589743589743,9.468864468864467,31.36446886446886,9.784248007369934,3.2697545787545783,821,34,139,19,14,275,126,195,0.122,0.7959999999999999,0.081,-0.7923,2,0,0,0,2,0,15.0,0,0,0,4,6,12,1,0,13,1,15,4,1,2,1,25,29,15,0,0,9,1,0,2,0,0,3,12,0,1,16,8,0,0,4,1,0,5,3,5,0,2,7,12,13,7,14,22,2,26,0,4,0,0,6,11,0,5,12,93,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155062056905753,0.0,0.0,0.10557505051440902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11610125514586292,0.0,0.09204152003640904,0.0,0.12848055591554114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551073404449484,0.0,0.13006369226666248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26009328539007953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17304652595938885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12721478201082642,0.0,0.13569921727665682,0.14769625794898816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12843120403358804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31554217542339186,0.0,0.08581055347623799,0.12664244681577014,0.0,0.1664659544888114,0.0,0.0,0.13351911331367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15495831989444686,0.0,0.1701756265879474,0.0,0.0,0.1595282152820537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616368948595632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15723185492212774,0.0829796300974274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14753124068493076,0.3026613774674117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15210557737957486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17190202779769628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16765546545714788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13183780965087408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09672744813788757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17104115374971826,0.0,0.0,0.1200725483631256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14933202569116275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10031041197292843,0.0,0.0,0.11986843561343224,0.17608585202238114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10251164996621437,0.0,0.14749435681226314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211143038986716,0.0,0.0,0.13996835685301862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10992182259381472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,MilkMadeMe,2020/01/05,"70+ Years With Schizoprenia First of all, thank you for all the learning this sub brings to my life. I have been lurking for some time and have gained a lot of insights. I so appreciate you all sharing your stories. You are cherished people. 

My grandmother will be 94 in February, and has lived with schizophrenia since her early 20s. She’s been through hells I cannot imagine and has been regularly seeing psychiatrists since the 50s. I hurt knowing how lonely she has felt, and seeing the incompetence of *some* psych professionals first hand (be it lack of empathy or lack of motivation for exploring specialized treatment), I cringe thinking about the medical care she has had to endure for this long. I am so glad mental health issues are taken more seriously in this day and age. A long way to go, but progressing, I hope.

My grandmother is bright, beautiful, sophisticated. She has had so many happy years, and I am blessed to be close to her.  She is also protective of sharing her experiences, even with me, who she is most willing to disclose her experience with. I can understand how she is protecting herself this way by keeping secrets. She always has done this to survive I think.

In October, she was readmitted to a psych ward (as happens every 2-3 years on repeat) due to paranoid mania that interfered with her survival (eating/drinking, self care, around the clock safety, etc.). Every visit to these institutions, her meds get changed. Doctors are hesitant to keep a 90-something year old on psychogenic drugs like Abilify et al, but as you all know, life is misery without drugs to help keep hallucinations at bay.  It is hard for my grandmother to articulate what medicines have been the most positive for her. She never complains about side effects, but I am sure they exist. She rarely expresses discomfort, even when asked. 

I’m not a psychiatrist or a nurse. I can’t insist on what drugs my grandmother should take. Shit, all that is way over my head. But I cannot but help to feel so. FRUSTRATED. knowing that if these meds (Zyprexia only) don’t take, she’ll beat back in the mental health ward again shortly. From an outsider’s perspective, I see her more distracted now by visualizations/hallucinations than with Abilify, but she is still able to be “conversational.”

Lordy, this post got more rambley as I typed (so maybe I just needed to get this off my chest knowing you guys would all understand in your own way...), but my question is this: what are your opinions on helping care for my grandmother who has schizophrenia knowing she is close to the end of her life? She is silent at counseling, ambivalent/feels distrustful of medical professionals when sharing about her symptoms, but deserves to spend these last years of her life as happily and as mania-free as possible. 

Thanks for reading. Love to you all. Always.",6.20755896590792,8.107347230919768,6.1190529405706044,75.1432596044907,66.90606653620353,9.684231125759604,33.01684004531878,10.001912283498694,3.5177444227005883,2269,100,387,55,38,713,262,511,0.086,0.74,0.175,0.9953,0,2,5,0,0,0,84.0,0,9,1,9,21,28,4,2,15,0,50,18,4,4,9,75,86,34,0,7,14,0,4,1,0,5,13,0,0,2,21,16,0,5,19,1,1,4,7,10,0,2,11,8,63,18,71,66,19,53,2,2,4,1,55,18,2,11,27,277,84,9,0.07759906642447753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062055945383884176,0.1291372791935362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907962107524526,0.07254465200291621,0.0,0.0,0.059668892175911224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.237352259779281,0.0,0.0820895230080791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050044978233194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07942593263943938,0.0,0.07941078677264894,0.0,0.07601754282285855,0.2699708429379529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06872974022891229,0.0,0.08654347145012296,0.10250690303828376,0.0,0.13076112056582764,0.0,0.0,0.15181355411311884,0.0,0.0,0.07847283915056072,0.0,0.07450727292614001,0.0,0.0,0.13201145251831825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08108461884686928,0.0,0.044101337720218084,0.0,0.06206306222928017,0.0,0.0,0.07683527586807662,0.06862059816431308,0.08260564915763326,0.0695135215063488,0.0,0.0796390294827194,0.1649683578265635,0.0,0.0,0.15603905551862818,0.0,0.0,0.0770733821327996,0.0,0.0,0.08307140554946918,0.0,0.0,0.08099326447676178,0.0,0.20692084709941905,0.0,0.0,0.21323208757992587,0.06325359614537827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21924206197056856,0.037910984174753,0.0,0.0685213973336152,0.13734546377089835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06597195130521526,0.07003618711792073,0.0,0.0,0.0786732736993376,0.0779586922468194,0.0,0.17239013868060502,0.15634579117364486,0.15640321492133186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05753872449954967,0.05984918385725831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08142716664449054,0.0,0.0,0.05901758676366972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05379742202506906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08748128791961819,0.07431845527146462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08692871377605355,0.0,0.07762006583390797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18550922746593065,0.0,0.08095275000827222,0.0,0.07965432655617775,0.1283814992659083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059739552480936826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061970714685388235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07313620175784097,0.08065514216689948,0.11668968125646885,0.0,0.0,0.1428855892005705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994446969036666,0.0,0.0,0.04524863966727456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16156672965188654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463781079540768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07480273090405337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05512415036196594,0.0,0.0,0.24985627296016705
schizophrenia,screechai,2020/01/05,"Hey guys, please help I don't have much knowledge regarding schizophrenia, and I don't know if I'm overreacting, but I see people
I fucking see people, shadow people to be a little more descriptive.
They're scary, they're really fucking scary. I'm paranoid every single fucking second of when i'm alone in my room. It's 2:03 AM here in Mexico, and I can't sleep. I feel like they're dangerous, and my family disregards me every time I say something about it.
Help",4.272307692307694,5.89495161538462,5.559120879120879,78.36087912087912,71.30769230769229,8.716483516483517,26.186813186813183,9.23628265651192,2.3024461538461543,371,12,67,8,7,124,60,91,0.261,0.665,0.07400000000000001,-0.9620000000000001,0,1,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,4,0,1,0,6,4,1,0,0,9,16,6,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,0,4,10,1,5,15,3,6,0,0,2,3,5,4,3,1,3,35,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19176427881118774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31200139570041113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745472356867231,0.0,0.09361970604719344,0.1322744507588351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5135172063937989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18333211895196094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2482103900349965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10175610096512952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09045716283032733,0.18557350549562127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13610990174281826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3850885649558752,0.0,0.0,0.20324410001545604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186147487915033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14724233332967585,0.0,0.0,0.2950884158544049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18528827094470898,0.0,0.0,0.14254102191780396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10796510972562033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Dismany0,2020/01/05,"A short survey/questionnaire about living with schizophrenia Hello, I have a short survey or questionnaire for those who either live with schizophrenia, or a related mental disorder, or know somebody who does.

Every question is left as optional, and could be skipped if you wish. I would really appreciate it if you all could fill it out to the best of your abilities. Thank you!

https://forms.gle/dR3S4csNc7SDyYku6",9.241791044776116,11.916998850746268,7.6001791044776175,64.43997014925375,60.49253731343283,10.733134328358213,32.80298507462687,10.793553405168565,4.187420298507463,341,13,47,9,5,102,51,67,0.037000000000000005,0.76,0.203,0.8997,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,4,0,1,1,2,0,0,4,0,6,0,0,0,1,18,9,7,0,6,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,8,5,3,5,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,7,0,38,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25916115001731743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3943425529398537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830286727683621,0.0,0.2161095776443293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20806792109476144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13571849791885562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2683143415612088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43612672121561225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488697836207068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766430370213848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582039345485719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273604521796385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839828993613482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17542779257776847,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,YouFrickingWeebs,2020/01/05,I sometimes feel like I am viewing everything from someone else’s perspective but still my POV Sometimes I feel like I have never seen anything before but can still tell myself what everything is. I don’t recognize anything but know what everything is called. Is this a sign of schizophrenia? I’m diagnosed with GAD/Panic Attacks if that helps.,5.159569892473119,8.079749258064519,4.807741935483873,78.99827956989247,72.54838709677419,8.004301075268819,32.913978494623656,8.841846274778883,3.3333784946236573,282,14,44,6,6,86,45,62,0.064,0.797,0.139,0.5499,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,7,1,0,0,1,10,12,4,0,1,4,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,4,7,2,3,11,0,3,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,1,5,29,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106008462686516,0.0,0.0,0.2146961658702372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16058676129950478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19270414958206905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19154675732024706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15765128623794333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.508827915431681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908449349051633,0.2696431126579348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12649499162370573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10371553855928572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18439805123247446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14555244490964742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599017850156211,0.0,0.3732976743936632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014239611610857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649495377571146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Marcia1985,2020/01/05,Anyone else take a long x for abilify to take effect? I'm oñ week 6. Still the same just not suicidal.,-0.8501515151515164,1.2785773181818172,2.2881818181818185,91.71893939393942,94.0,6.56969696969697,16.424242424242426,7.793537801064563,0.6138606060606064,79,2,18,2,3,28,21,22,0.0,0.8340000000000001,0.166,0.5559,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,8,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510273676642818,0.367847039966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999058658417144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177115758727393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28670496833440234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3926974630484369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5398600216155923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28797528152757984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,millermillion,2020/01/05,"What do you do when your significant other makes 6x’s the money you make? I have been involved with my lady for several years now. She’s always had an awesome job, provided for me, fed me, housed me, and kept me clean. I changed so much to be with her. Now a days it’s like all she wants to do is complain about how much I haven’t provided for her. She wants to argue about how much she’s done for me and how little I have been able to do for her. 

I started Abilify in 2017 for a good 10 months. It was an awesome med for my happiness and voices. It was all fine and dandy until it started causing a horrible gambling addiction. I stopped the Abilify eventually and switched to Vraylar. Then I tried seroquel then ultimately have been on Latuda ever since. The gambling took forever to shake. To make things worse PA made it so much easier for me to gamble with all their online stuff they implemented over the last year. 

Gambling ultimately made me have to get my lady to bail me out multiple times with my bank account. One time I ended up getting 2200 dollars in overdraft fees from the bank because of gambling. 

Last year we had our first child, he is almost 9 months old. He’s the most awesome person ever. Despite having him our problems still exist and she still loves to rub it in my face how much I owe her and how much I never provided. 

I work super part time and am on SSDI. I have been her personal butler now since the beginning of our relationship. I’ve let her sit and watch Tv anytime she wants. She would yell for me to come obey her every command anytime she wanted the slightest thing. That’s why I feel like I’ve contributed but none of that is monetary. I get the groceries but she pays. I usually am the cook. I usually watch my son the days I have off also. All to be put down every time the word money comes. 

Any insight would help. I wanna know what to do to make things better and everything. I’ve quit gambling at the end of last year and I do not plan on going back to that.",2.9468393327480267,4.748145393034825,4.1967983611355,86.03262510974541,75.16915422885572,7.2169739537606095,25.5051214515657,8.027739517013583,1.4930383962540237,1576,55,318,25,34,517,201,402,0.037000000000000005,0.882,0.081,0.9466,2,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,4,3,2,6,19,12,1,1,18,0,33,5,1,13,7,58,59,25,0,8,3,2,2,2,0,2,1,2,1,3,16,19,2,2,3,2,15,6,4,4,0,2,14,6,60,8,50,40,13,58,0,0,2,1,39,13,0,2,40,226,76,3,0.08727398893195085,0.0,0.0,0.09514153006042528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873922932137668,0.0,0.0,0.06979297741765736,0.07261895016486862,0.0,0.0,0.05934930522632825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06710831038683215,0.0,0.053201413605038585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07718675096482759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08965442735979369,0.092324308172042,0.1503576273955489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11256900572829028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931159155914208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545976998027869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578886390382223,0.14706419954289252,0.0,0.07843623379274517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044128351093953945,0.06234855513115323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07423521040157949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13679117134766675,0.0,0.04959981913989185,0.07320128122976133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290478407129163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05849791512435501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10070246559741833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08660596741755168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04796350190501025,0.21341984785102397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08924356667657732,0.0,0.08527532522538421,0.08747146460936855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07876818241510959,0.16516151704836718,0.2330242612228307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09694172719095244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393225306461213,0.0,0.3849385424331216,0.0,0.06731108053507515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09157937031894173,0.0,0.059139113568876335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09450922522516728,0.0,0.0,0.15240856164139782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08350942079821774,0.0,0.08773446411410096,0.0,0.09282662999677008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09369960273432926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09859476593979946,0.0,0.14438789101805324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235459571255813,0.0,0.13939424059492667,0.07296496261764734,0.0,0.0,0.09990783720817074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739428808048547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20356065914019228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969646129299036,0.05925330966970292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19223993766452016,0.0,0.2059058394525906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07875120041047591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06353650337065174,0.0,0.08893965074712461,0.12399387544837467,0.0,0.0,0.22480634992820714
schizophrenia,GeffiePoo,2020/01/05,"Can others hear my thoughts? Alright, so quite a while ago I went to go hang with someone I knew from high school at their pad. We were there to smoke some weed, and after my bowl they offered me a vape hit. Nothing crazy. I take a little bit cus I never really use those and after they said, ""Cool and just so you know that's filled with meth (and some others I forgot what they said) so you're not going anywhere"" It sounded threatening so I kept my cool and just sat there barley talking. Then this dude said ""Schizophrenia's a serious thing"" 

So you know, I have never told this guy I had schizophrenia. My symptoms were new to me as well since I hung out with him a few months after I started getting schizophrenic symptoms. 

The fact that he said that still messes with me to this day, and sometimes I really do feel like people can hear my thoughts/ voices due to how loud they can be.

They weren't kidding about the meth thing either cus after finally getting to leave I was walking to the bus stop and having to sit and lay down a few times, with the sensation of bugs crawling under my skin. My hit was small enough so I didn't get it too bad so I was still in control of myself and didn't scratch myself to bleeding. 

Hoping for someone else's point of view on this, have you ever had someone mention schizophrenia like this?",4.3038456937799054,5.522395935606063,4.355462519936207,88.58411483253592,70.70454545454545,6.618500797448168,26.015948963317385,6.5966054737557815,0.9322530303030307,1053,32,210,7,19,325,151,264,0.05,0.873,0.077,0.7777,0,0,3,0,0,0,25.0,1,3,6,2,18,10,0,0,10,3,18,5,1,3,4,39,46,20,0,1,4,0,3,2,0,0,4,9,0,2,16,16,0,4,6,0,0,6,6,3,1,0,22,15,37,7,31,21,7,37,0,0,1,0,24,10,0,3,22,149,53,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1023713178971662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09642593615272904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12608073601932315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12952730181804942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07447887746662755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09647368414156383,0.0,0.0,0.11932784748596395,0.0,0.0,0.10446364453714847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058393161291020214,0.08250317869987929,0.0,0.12650920249785633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18100991162541502,0.0,0.13126664229418528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11434923739655653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2603220955647921,0.0,0.0,0.12201723635926592,0.0,0.11470359637402885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269361049479662,0.0,0.0,0.12228293573810355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128411938490108,0.115747251249468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09217977560696478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781397530122541,0.1115370406103528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108118742221572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08006340984614405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091715417720092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12283351276739428,0.0,0.0,0.1479665008600769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4394143002890356,0.0,0.0,0.11687793690573367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09553116306947854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29355258690347097,0.0,0.11421854775063342,0.0,0.08174154282274965,0.0,0.18445444192484345,0.09655141706188283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400682211314269,0.08683105457078437,0.09282322414213473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15344745411156188,0.0,0.0,0.18336587310777727,0.06734078039972481,0.0,0.0,0.11035176482986968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997427728523464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038357294754642,0.10705662349921698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,thafeelsman,2020/01/05,"Does anyone else have a problem with mirrors? I notice when I go into the bathroom I feel a little claustrophobic and have worse hallucinations because of the mirror. I don't really know how to explain it, but I just KNOW it's the mirror making it worse. A little bit ago I had an extremely vivid hallucination while washing my hands, and I couldn't look away from the hallucination in the mirror (it looked like it was behind me).

I'm curious if mirrors commonly affect anyone else this way, or if it's a rarer thing.",4.319400000000002,6.1747967400000014,6.1590000000000025,73.16950000000001,71.6,8.200000000000001,26.5,8.841846274778883,2.2244,414,14,72,8,8,143,67,100,0.086,0.847,0.066,-0.2144,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,10,0,6,2,1,3,0,18,15,9,0,4,5,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,5,9,1,8,12,1,11,0,0,3,0,1,5,0,3,5,51,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615670740530198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548880864816929,0.3735044071381124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17124412500273484,0.0,0.0,0.11110715460062602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19898635703367365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15950147665369455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30451831997562195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921587453233065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10358549519475793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20033633921496727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08904555444498659,0.3653551619378724,0.0,0.0,0.30611367268628986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216634148558116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20751010164895706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1744031501891816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11676373369463106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12108887865737028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14467360649850808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37148755478747547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,KindaCrazy71,2020/01/05,"Persecution Do you ever feel like the whole world is against you? Especially, family? Atm I feel like my dad resents me and wants to harm me if he gets the chance. Before that it was my brother and sister. My mom is the only one I feel truly comfortable around. Because she's s lot like me in terms of personality and stuff. Other than that I really have no friends and feel more comfortable alone. I've gone through years of stress regarding this and it's affected my overall health and the way I look and feel. I just don't feel safe and loved at home. I've gone through a lot of traumatic situations with my family. It's hard to feel loved or even liked. Going to the store and in public can be very hard.",2.6061863488624084,4.6786461408450775,3.877042253521129,86.72131635969662,77.02816901408453,7.749512459371616,22.89490790899241,8.617729084823388,1.4219722643553627,560,17,118,12,13,183,89,142,0.14400000000000002,0.654,0.20199999999999999,0.9111,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,0,4,13,1,1,6,0,8,3,0,1,1,27,23,11,0,2,3,4,9,4,1,0,1,0,1,1,8,11,0,1,7,0,2,3,2,3,0,1,3,10,16,10,15,19,5,12,0,0,1,2,13,5,0,4,7,73,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459752858757507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254698771451042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08591804141099052,0.0,0.119932805534849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09309206051325253,0.1274917498237882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657385701460989,0.0,0.4988579941475448,0.2013805791493673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088928418176362,0.0,0.07363732607908031,0.0,0.08010161809751744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25251594804855204,0.0,0.0,0.14981668448052518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14137813826863765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754321145841265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11835730696582375,0.0,0.0,0.2396507825736873,0.2544145916441926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16507169263734908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09550717667657553,0.1071941224543244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12306670277324132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09029221694082208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15842675333781864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16145066384582168,0.0,0.16134694762548854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11629340817859055,0.08313231379615528,0.11187463992661847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15735873601739758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907631958145754
schizophrenia,xenocrush,2020/01/05,"Not wanting to get rid of psychosis I was diagnosed relatively recently and started medication only a few months ago. Something I've noticed is that I've lost a lot of self confidence that may be attributed to delusions of grandure. With the medication working pretty well I find myself missing the way intense delusions and hallucinations made me feel, like I'm part of something bigger or that I live in some sort of special reality. I know that if I stopped taking my meds I'd regret it as the symptoms obviously would make me feel terrible and paranoid, but for some reason I still chase the thrill that psychosis gave me. Anyone experience this too or have any advice?",7.241890243902439,8.471229398373985,7.578607723577237,68.11230182926829,63.95934959349593,10.052439024390246,38.952235772357724,10.125756701596842,4.328545528455286,548,29,87,12,8,179,89,123,0.083,0.805,0.11199999999999999,0.5429,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,3,8,0,0,6,0,6,4,0,4,1,27,19,8,0,4,5,0,2,1,0,2,4,0,0,1,7,4,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,4,2,11,4,11,12,5,9,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,8,7,57,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683203430106597,0.15268890233887128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11713565378107295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204409449519816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17482974666791187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16849318836764307,0.0,0.0,0.17418917495189054,0.1230551687124566,0.0,0.0,0.1574330394936014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08999332132692278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09466389087198243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08415246761168342,0.0,0.15209957734793925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880308166316354,0.14644047408267669,0.0,0.16298676290444594,0.11497796427901202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19133050589008804,0.3470467574071859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374880097705622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961073432239621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13100360401503058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865295615993436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17523979660934333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17710130579409172,0.1700757273721246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796939283281537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652123580920596,0.0,0.0,0.12191917331404192,0.0,0.13755877548301568,0.14400840189681247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17903331677249848,0.12951028358018926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10159729347143363,0.13672373720411582,0.0,0.0,0.1548731019863474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253997807203155,0.0,0.0,0.1223611936997974,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Unready_Soda,2020/01/05,"Loss of self Does any one else look in the mirror and just be completely incapable of recognizing yourself? Not recognize as in complete stranger. At times not even human. This happens more then a dozen times a month and every time it happens I feel like I should be terrified, but it's like I cant even connect the dots within myself to fully realize that. I guess I'm just seeing if any body else shares my experience. Thanks",4.128728222996518,6.2684390853658565,4.807839721254356,81.45719512195123,72.78048780487805,8.10034843205575,27.567944250871076,8.841846274778883,2.2793602787456453,343,13,63,7,7,110,63,82,0.073,0.7879999999999999,0.139,0.7617,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,4,0,4,1,1,0,0,12,12,6,0,2,6,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,3,6,4,8,9,1,9,0,1,2,0,3,4,0,2,7,40,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25728375781794866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101248849159755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3966816503682016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655436741192592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160540114298746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498895977329559,0.0,0.1593836261207775,0.0,0.0,0.18504425967083032,0.0,0.0,0.0956498812620107,0.135142867279485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20839174525656556,0.0,0.33456427154122137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18483751443649304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15885489945855918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15099344506495938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12818628048802416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15074375433330475,0.0,0.19734524734776715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17416203859866786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3309191097168092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Cheizes,2020/01/05,"Lymph nodes might be why you're symptomatic TlDr; my mental diagnosis was due to lymph node chains under my skin that were causing me pain and disorientation. Draining them alleviated my symptoms completely. You might have a similar problem and not know it.

I was diagnosed with schizo affective disorder because I had tactile and word salad. I found little hard balls of fluid inside the skin of my eyes, mouth, face, legs, arms, stomach, etc. Some were smaller hard to pop balls and others were larger wads (mostly on the stomach). I found out that the ones in my eyes were making it hard to move them and then when I followed them along my eyes I found them inside of my cheeks on my face. They were stiff and hard. I had realized this is why my face was hard to move and it was difficult to emote. It was only really noticeable to my fingers when I pressed my cheeks hard and pinched near the corners of my eye. It doesn't show under the skin at all. I also noticed the same type of stuff was in the glands in my eyes that produces saline. I had been diagnosed with dry eye by the ophthalmologist a couple years back and I'm assuming that the dry glands were part of the reason.  I'm not a doctor but this was causing me so much pain my whole life I took a chance and rubbed them out and popped them. The physical relief was instantaneous and I my skin became twice as sensitive around the popped areas. That's when  I realized that my senses were dull. A whole bunch of water shot out of my eyes too and they got twice as lubricated. This also alleviated the visuals I was getting out of the corner of my eyes.

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When I saw the dentist I asked her what the balls in my mouth were (I was tested for STD's and I am clean so it is not herpes) and she said that they were lymph nodes which have to do with the immune system. She said everyone has them but probably not everywhere like I do. I started popping the ones in my mouth under my nose out of curiosity (which you should not do unless you see a doctor but I did) and the sharp pains in my nose and the area near my tear ducts stopped after a bit of discomfort. This also stopped my gustatory issues. I also had an easier time controlling my speech when I popped the ones around my mouth. A whole bunch of snot and water flew out of my face too. I had sinus headaches and problems with shallow breathing my whole life and was told that it was my illness. WELL, This alleviated all of this. I guess I didn't need my tonsils and adenoids taken out when I was four (again not a doctor but was still getting sinus headaches after the surgery and I don't have any more sinus headaches now). This also made my breathing sharp and shallow and it would sting my lungs. It never felt like an anxiety attack to me just a painful sensation. the lymph nodes stung for a few seconds before they smoothed out and it sent a sharp pain to the top of my head and lungs. The relief from popping them was so intense I sat on the floor with snot and water coming out of my face just dumbfounded. It felt so much better I wanted to cry.

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I am not a doctor, and I do not recommend popping them on your own if you have them, but your mental illness might be the cause of something in your immune system (again not a doctor but this seems plausible). Science still has a lot of learning to do and I think that this might be a real medical issue regardless of diagnosis. If anything if you comb through your body and find any I would see a doctor and see if there is a viable solution for you. The dentist told me that typically you would have a doctor drain them. If you do, get them checked out and see if it helps you at all. I plan on seeing my primary and finding out about getting the rest looked at in case its affecting other things. I'll post an update if anyone is interested. This also helps with mood if you pop enough of them. 

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I don't think that there's anything wrong with anyone on here (I'm hoping), and for everyone who got through the holidays I urge you to look into this. It might be something fixable for you like it was for me. I stopped medications four years before I found this out and nothing changed for the worse or for the better about my supposed symptoms. This did though. They might be so small you can't feel them easily so look really well. It might stop someone from committing suicide or lessen their pain.  


Happy New Year",4.567912538180735,5.817611399538107,4.9957565372867485,84.12356179691575,70.10854503464203,7.942754972807868,27.01624078074946,8.310345600021478,1.683143172167176,3496,113,691,51,62,1111,327,866,0.114,0.812,0.073,-0.9836,1,0,2,0,0,1,82.0,0,17,20,6,38,26,1,1,54,0,73,78,36,10,5,149,121,74,1,18,28,0,20,3,0,11,38,3,1,0,48,59,4,6,18,5,1,7,15,13,2,8,53,42,120,12,98,52,23,83,0,1,17,1,49,45,0,25,31,519,168,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22051689134600208,0.0,0.149387312483874,0.16753300038636745,0.06250640478117714,0.0,0.03515795392266493,0.0,0.0,0.0642701877215499,0.0,0.07563948743458028,0.08182521540651015,0.04296478240857129,0.05228417158447838,0.0,0.035339075977585115,0.0,0.02801573734558358,0.0,0.07821421261014627,0.0,0.0,0.0812927174320338,0.0501745322706564,0.05104928201666666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416354219886444,0.048617760188907455,0.03958898374666379,0.04818637604151636,0.0,0.05154611235775732,0.0,0.05085195619396415,0.05048300610690131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09329336167312127,0.0,0.0,0.052672163800926014,0.3292816869973988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051696872591286566,0.0,0.04748718260619023,0.05125562418560452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08783020087591499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02323788429608238,0.0,0.08825430078564457,0.0,0.08401005991660038,0.0,0.0,0.20156350177250684,0.0,0.0,0.0960452055183236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07351406039368556,0.0,0.050628220345256984,0.0,0.0,0.0489234374111247,0.24701751901880445,0.0,0.0471664482285653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061609724792461476,0.0,0.0,0.045646936078696534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09593699573234013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.025257465553845792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06492337634339553,0.06735867390600653,0.04606226435865777,0.0,0.0,0.1157801261678074,0.0,0.0,0.03907208118916184,0.0,0.04348683021447907,0.0306775048593314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925962522778598,0.0926302616604447,0.3412812629461593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976927443451648,0.06756923903726722,0.034077477938559884,0.035445854253381946,0.0443867875471473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044098203537449435,0.10464759943226508,0.0,0.0,0.09342754789730044,0.03495333844151759,0.2934170638960465,0.0,0.0,0.04976833229093233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04401532258437545,0.0,0.04955079264539442,0.08795172310019624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05231057751634657,0.0588840944840472,0.04725276015418133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08743368608928936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18311397125307655,0.04183868670367626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03894029653735927,0.07076184949996582,0.0,0.0,0.0325295029812066,0.0,0.07340467418754253,0.15369270022048695,0.0,0.0,0.052611228467890715,0.05027089257784265,0.0,0.0,0.09553648787767063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030532635203647032,0.0588964127084186,0.04515377099822527,0.0,0.026798639236840626,0.0,0.0,0.08783020087591499,0.05106133359214125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027107380824742545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264401563479701,0.0,0.08294038811556526,0.2052430872444213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046835407672389286,0.0979423180221759,0.05024815811976574,0.16753300038636745,0.08878686523206675
schizophrenia,TSLMP,2020/01/05,"What does antipsychotics even do? i have been taking antipsychotics for almost 2 monts now (i am also hospitalized), and i don't feel any difference, no good or bad effects. what are they supposed to do? feels like the doctors come up with new excuses everytime i ask. tbh i don't really feel like i am sick",3.868813559322035,5.908812830508477,5.0120000000000005,80.14613559322035,73.23728813559322,9.465762711864409,27.0542372881356,9.888512548439397,2.8227057627118652,243,9,46,7,5,80,45,59,0.15,0.723,0.127,-0.3527,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,3,4,0,0,1,0,9,2,0,1,0,9,15,3,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,3,7,3,4,14,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,4,29,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529751086131328,0.0,0.0,0.20203024080714346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17179886673781936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361774270419185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21093771223566965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21762066037197236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639473515820881,0.0,0.2585802246378334,0.22108053652906925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16686148423900404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3832159793634836,0.3609616346282292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21189628271251515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468471059358069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439941898891166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16184294612139227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18994831404240886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,PurpleJollyBastard,2020/01/05,"I'm doing better Hey guys,

its been a while since I made a post so I thought I'd update you all. Although I don't comment as much, I'm just as active on the sub as before.

As some of you know, I did some serious damage to my brain by taking all my anti-depressants in a suicide attempt and gave myself serotonin toxicity syndrome. 

Things are getting better for me. With decreasing symptoms I have been able to start working again and I've started volunteering to become a peer support specialist.

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Sending positive vibes and hope you all have a lovely day!

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schizophrenia,Latinguy2228,2020/01/05,How does Latuda affect weight gain? Hey guys I’m schizo affective I have been taking Latuda for almost 5 years and my appetite since then has been insatiable tbh and I go to the bathroom to pee a lot sometimes idk what to do I’m thinking of switching off it and taking an injection for my schizo affective it could help I’m also very over weight? Any advice?,0.9026248399487821,3.4659144225352136,2.217413572343151,90.66110115236877,94.91549295774648,4.835339308578745,19.130601792573625,6.574015621080383,0.4513830985915499,288,9,54,4,11,92,52,71,0.02,0.884,0.096,0.7383,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,6,3,1,4,0,11,13,6,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,8,10,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,2,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284325048857517,0.0,0.0,0.2340819338913309,0.0,0.0,0.18694182890929825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15896825259526778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18664237366642908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045693737228461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328540670803356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23146415555630145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566877878742157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19873868905581032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933728680017769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23119961537026906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3515244557790985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14978720732961512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19288065107935887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5693257172325973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505370302319642
schizophrenia,Zoe7134,2020/01/05,"How to help someone I know who’s schizophrenic I recently found out someone I know has been recently diagnosed with schizophrenia. He is getting treatment and said he had an assessment to determine wether he is a risk to other people and it said that he wasn’t. He says he hears a voice (which he describes as a deeper version of his own) telling him to hurt people, this concerns me and I was wondering if this is common, he says with the help of therapy he has learnt to treat the voice as “funny”, he says he pokes fun at the voice and it’s suggestions. He has tried explaining to me that there is a big difference between people who recognize the voice as not real and people who believe that it is real and that they must follow it. However, I would still like to learn more so that I can help him, so that’s when I came here. Sorry if part of this was ignorant on my part I’m not as clued up on it that’s why I’m seeking info from real people, thanks in advanced everyone",3.618037225042301,5.018057030456852,4.746213197969542,84.4264940778342,72.60406091370558,8.29901861252115,27.346531302876482,8.841846274778883,2.0648527241962777,773,28,155,15,15,254,105,197,0.045,0.833,0.122,0.9382,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,1,7,7,0,1,9,0,16,2,0,1,1,28,30,16,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,2,2,10,0,0,20,10,0,1,7,0,0,3,3,3,0,0,9,10,14,4,24,19,5,15,0,1,0,0,31,7,0,3,6,104,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13742917551797593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13951210284824625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12380666971802727,0.0,0.12744266167082538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11655668180563908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13374427420995974,0.0,0.0,0.06372927732666893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13747981152137265,0.0,0.2452809517849044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13058162491153433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13407353490791268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05959304387340227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641839191066785,0.0,0.422826286471204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4165182780753948,0.0,0.0,0.24088016835957105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23206095914550104,0.29100908835476946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067057439312696,0.0,0.0,0.13654611312422668,0.0,0.0,0.09741302156887352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10661549810051373,0.11230237583461536,0.13949423942018913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08281610356707936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11006756593987396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13228161239046485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08665076843856595,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Rain_Daniels,2020/01/05,"Does anyone else have family that makes you wish you were successful at killing yourself? Yesterday I ODed on my medication. I did pass out but I didn’t die much to my annoyance. But I was making constant hallucinations (seeing people, hearing people, rooms and hallways were twisting around) I work up at least 8 time last night screaming, has to use the walls to walk. 
At first I was annoyed that I didn’t die, but my mother started making me feel better. Until my older brother got pissed at me for leaving his special Instagram chat group and brought me back into it with out me wanting to and to see all of his **** talking about me. After that is said, why do you give other people no leave for being mad but when I get mad you have to make me look like **** to my friends. So I scolded him about that and told him in from of mine and his friend that “You really make me wish I was successful in killing myself. He never believes me about my schizophrenia issue other than to give me bs excuses why he and his wife leave me out on fun things but take my friend instead. And his wife is just as hateful about it. If I mess up something or am having an issue all she has to say for me, “you can’t use that as a crutch”. God have to really restrain myself from blacking out.",2.912987012987013,4.8555905873015845,3.861399711399713,87.78006493506494,75.66666666666666,6.327849927849928,24.549783549783548,7.1686216300943375,1.0140095238095241,996,33,198,11,22,320,142,252,0.182,0.6779999999999999,0.14,-0.9337,0,0,1,0,0,1,28.0,0,6,0,5,10,19,8,0,3,0,20,2,1,7,3,37,45,19,4,4,8,4,1,1,3,0,1,4,1,0,11,14,0,1,1,1,0,3,5,10,0,1,12,9,46,9,43,32,4,34,0,0,4,0,33,18,1,2,14,149,57,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.074721449708523,0.10949429280558663,0.0,0.09513117877258888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08217144159731171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12039857941256465,0.0,0.09451208892657643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154814885229341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22181490010093524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09351697625985518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08927074876454315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007414050230745,0.0,0.05403340068913441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09089804557461284,0.0,0.0,0.24768744429458456,0.0,0.05583177246171195,0.20502642935275636,0.0,0.0,0.08546850976030775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055055904326184,0.0,0.0,0.12044294046510767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230754773226596,0.0,0.0,0.2364572775912352,0.0,0.0,0.0871080221525919,0.0,0.3394590762735454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052208112274455036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08973843271549976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3566611080180337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10765374200794316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07855697447843983,0.0,0.08241972553260947,0.0,0.0,0.10028416341345528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22225710386844727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369189996358562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10165166789704333,0.08498215099281413,0.0,0.0,0.17031276091109854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08226874957330936,0.0,0.0,0.07563854120309273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08034805891909808,0.08589284005934784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07099536649005365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06231297106733109,0.0,0.0,0.10211266172229708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18459152038425256,0.0,0.0,0.06303086593744697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928553893831115,0.0,0.2457755213560004,0.0,0.0,0.07779790678567491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BornChosen,2020/01/05,"[Replay] ;) new song new song i made. its a rough version, lemme know what you think!

[https://soundcloud.com/user-170747520/replay-rough-version](https://soundcloud.com/user-170747520/replay-rough-version)",30.565588235294115,39.494728941176476,7.585147058823531,48.250661764705896,53.70588235294119,4.052941176470589,16.014705882352942,5.985473137389443,-0.1932235294117648,180,2,14,1,4,31,15,17,0.0,0.872,0.128,0.2942,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,5,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23784454833420934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4095068631806704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8359631661103297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27730792405269805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,koipoo,2020/01/06,"i just want to kms my friend called 911 told them everything about me they came they were really nice and then they called my mom. my mom showed up and she was really nice and caring while the people were there and once they left she said im not going on medication, im not getting any kind of help and i just have to figure out how to deal with it on my own. she also tried to take away my phone cause they were called and i wouldnt let her cause i talk to people on my phone to get help. i want nothing more or less right now than just to die",0.1123598435462867,2.166839101694915,1.4499999999999993,100.83378748370278,85.94915254237291,4.986701434159062,12.466753585397651,6.297961479604792,-1.1992028683181228,426,4,106,4,13,135,72,118,0.031,0.807,0.162,0.9241,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,6,0,8,5,0,0,1,0,7,1,0,3,0,22,17,11,1,3,6,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,9,0,0,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,7,1,22,5,17,8,3,13,0,0,0,0,24,8,0,1,3,69,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11264120065894932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09578581178679943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323373311902305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.431484226126067,0.16109989220879767,0.14361043278643565,0.2893925066920204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14521468586404215,0.0,0.0,0.14618461341370947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12659083874168706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10882374831494583,0.0,0.14718120504625448,0.0,0.08005079288923797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18882345013656335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042938126995327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14667816654331833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15303870125173602,0.14403315166481814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418959740829785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3299339062814244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351535811077745,0.0,0.0,0.15000532285371118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19530139043965655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18046985140900434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202888750292012,0.13398477530252625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590496784738564,0.11321341905676968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13459240088674232,0.0,0.0956308813746536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16615913116754924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Dizzy-Mud,2020/01/06,"Really need help/ advice on situation Hello All, 

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I am hoping anyone would be able to provide any suggestions or advice on a troubling situation I find myself in.

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I have been married to my wife for 7 years, we are in our 30's.  Recently, she told me that she was in love with a pop star in South Korea, and that she wants to separate and move out.  We just had a daughter (who is now about 10 months) and she wants to be in this relationship with this famous star she has never met.  

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I told her we should go to counseling and we did a few times but felt there was no need to continue.   She did go one other time by herself but has not made any future appointments. 

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When I talked to my therapist about this, it was suggested that she may have something called Erotomania.  

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I wanted to reach out to the community to see what as a husband I can do.  She has been looking for apartments and seriously move out and I am running out of ideas to keep her room,  or for her to get more help.  Has anyone experienced this issue and have any advice on how I should handle it?  Is my marriage over, or do I just need to hang in there until she finds the need to get more help?",3.468874999999997,5.326491470833336,4.479166666666668,84.3225,73.875,7.466666666666668,25.333333333333336,8.238735603445708,1.561983333333333,963,32,190,16,20,313,131,240,0.03,0.9109999999999999,0.059000000000000004,0.7838,0,0,1,0,0,0,45.0,5,0,0,0,9,4,0,0,7,0,29,1,0,2,2,46,50,16,0,11,8,3,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,12,17,0,1,4,0,0,6,3,2,0,1,13,4,33,2,39,31,4,34,0,0,2,1,36,17,0,5,11,147,45,0,0.06781357797905062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987999306688124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4408559004485265,0.4944055188632445,0.1383466753572893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948336609343524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06924524512916189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.065111669449021,0.0,0.12396076345260412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07085959118368079,0.0,0.07708003826002452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363620356114503,0.0,0.0,0.06735418414419364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07655327524126708,0.0,0.07077975688944943,0.0,0.060275823953475874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056946326216360824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061204401744946325,0.06416684714749744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05412815096360594,0.14415020278319973,0.0,0.20113163523495806,0.0523020119119178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045952235467797135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04344311451928522,0.0,0.0669577271633074,0.07280640422640608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05403864179576491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15245060585198086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05220620539993659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054505985246881834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0787367907647439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908528532386523,0.0,0.0,0.1295975596920463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11999461584379548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048172820129714064,0.0,0.4944055188632445,0.04366972086301959
schizophrenia,chuckybegood,2020/01/06,"The wellness pickle Since switching meds, I have been doing better in the last few months than I have in the last 10 years. But recently the thought of not needing medication anymore keeps crossing my mind. I have been writing a lot lately and I feel like I am being untruthful whenever I discuss psychosis because I am questioning whether or not I was just having a few bad years that maybe looked like psychosis? I have this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach that is from this thinking of was I ever really sick. Why does our mind constantly try to trick us like this?",7.573608562691134,7.438532064220183,7.083990825688073,76.63069571865445,63.220183486238525,9.835474006116213,37.432721712538225,9.2995712137729,3.4439345565749235,461,21,82,7,6,144,73,109,0.10300000000000001,0.763,0.134,0.5562,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,2,0,0,1,3,8,1,0,7,0,14,3,1,0,1,19,21,4,0,1,6,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,5,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,5,3,14,5,9,15,3,13,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,3,12,61,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713622229177331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442732517244673,0.10533177828340698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152819581062293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867256654356127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512105519680756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15629933486455191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17473662365243936,0.12344191141461393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15358456325711936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816954233836811,0.19491575291276236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532508360501978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14510090559339206,0.0,0.0,0.1469007130571506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17359176518938893,0.0,0.19193182705056666,0.17406873491308392,0.0,0.0,0.3489392674544808,0.0,0.13792011258240872,0.0,0.0,0.12812232305025967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19356544389242164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11069432705098144,0.0,0.17061024816522485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14293448512881188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11071748368723787,0.0,0.13717673804407424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11731373386093838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20784627505663594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15535984336080888,0.0,0.1559169845141633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2225434532917873
schizophrenia,psychocandid,2020/01/06,"Cognitive deficits + delusional episode = ? I have very, very low in nearly every cognitive function (processing speed, working memory, attention, task shifting, problem solving). But I also have an exceptionally high verbal IQ. I was accepted to an elite university but this past semester I’ve failed all of my classes. I am going to take a medical withdrawal. I can’t tell if I’m lazy or ill. 

Three years ago, during a period of intense euphoria followed by intense paranoia, under the influence of adderall and coffee and sleep deprivation and love, I had what you would call a delusional episode. It started because I believed my professor was obsessed with me. Then I thought he was professing his love for me through subtle hints during lectures. I loved him deeply but was caught off guard and didn’t respond. That’s when I started to believe he was threatening to rape and even kill me, through more coded messages in emails and during lectures. At some point I also thought he had mistaken me for a prostitute and was soliciting me for prostitution. Then I thought a serial rapist/killer. I thought he was dropping all of these hints. I became so depressed when I realized he was not in love with me and took a medical leave of absence. I fell into the deepest despondency I’ve ever experienced. I was thinking about him 90% if the time if not more. I could not even play cards or carry on a conversation very well at all. I wanted to sleep all day and was motivated by nothing. For months, I kept everything to myself and carried around this secret. I kept and even expanded on my delusions about him. When I finally broke down and told my mother she told me I was delusional. I was furious and for a while thought she just didn’t understand. I pretended to agree with her but deep down thought she was wrong. I can’t remember when but eventually, gradually, after telling a couple therapists and getting reality checked a few times I no longer believed he was in any way dangerous or threatening me. I realized I’d read way too much into things. I was prescribed Abilify once but didn’t take it. Since then I’ve been delusion and hallucination free. I struggle with anxiety and depression and some mild paranoia occasionally but nothing even close to what happened with my prof. And I was never medicated. That makes me feel like it might be a one off thing. 

One part of the delusion didn’t go away and to this day I don’t think it’s a delusion. Some of my friends also, when I told them, don’t think it’s a delusion either. See, I still believe he was attracted and even that he professing that he was in love with me. We did have a close and special bond before the whole thing started and he knew a lot about me. 

I’m afraid I might have schizophrenia. My mother thinks my dad has it and his doctor suggested it was a possibility though they can’t know for sure because he was also an alcoholic. What do you think? I know you can’t diagnose but my doctor said to just wait and see. I find it hard to wait. Does this sound at all like what you went through before you were diagnosed? I’ve never for sure heard voices other than a hypnogogic hallucination once or twice. That gives me pause. I also had one extremely vivid visual and auditory hallucination as a kid that involved a whole bunch of talking farm animals but I only remember it happening one night.",5.039276876104776,6.870726275590558,5.816837538164872,76.44048368953881,69.70866141732284,9.404145910332637,32.80170335850876,9.809220507895047,3.4248936204403035,2695,126,482,67,49,880,295,635,0.13699999999999998,0.747,0.11599999999999999,-0.9253,1,0,1,0,0,1,65.0,1,5,2,4,27,31,4,3,27,0,48,17,2,3,10,112,99,58,1,7,23,3,2,2,1,3,9,4,0,1,28,37,1,5,25,3,2,7,16,15,1,6,47,10,78,17,64,47,18,65,0,6,3,6,55,26,0,13,31,343,106,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05595255470556552,0.0674566664682861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523873853334821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04292413512549794,0.0,0.048287044189972345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056190667421647744,0.0,0.0,0.05930382986992728,0.0,0.0,0.07695539678995703,0.0,0.10742186956890333,0.284460956800826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06445313378972571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05039661905197269,0.06984168251900255,0.0,0.08141505944168267,0.0,0.10873126590955637,0.12813204908482956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12921310499765473,0.05523721432967005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084526234869349,0.05709614671151314,0.05318178156618035,0.0,0.05672867584912138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031915644134314324,0.045093329991366934,0.0,0.06914547178760816,0.05769103464493677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04876677652355255,0.0,0.032977879580959504,0.06055097841239105,0.0717457207238378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11163457904684976,0.0,0.056543610220678026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06669032139716874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06983353100416835,0.0,0.06937880162241314,0.0,0.0,0.06683554331415703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061675019933028284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05366283018418147,0.2848437814631861,0.0,0.04213345395579675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19076192554045807,0.0,0.13392184686888664,0.0,0.0,0.050382216848829146,0.0,0.04640086335018463,0.0,0.09736491119188756,0.0,0.0,0.059234355620613015,0.0,0.1211317306800664,0.0,0.0,0.13444264087980518,0.17108845957687818,0.04800601882649848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06835339923021665,0.060255702482845064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059669317429568484,0.07115893050070879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06039783699109921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06313762635971494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14300654583947425,0.0,0.060042092796019984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10059780431077392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05221396712994024,0.0,0.12633225989307678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13403113998497718,0.0,0.050408148808105034,0.0,0.0,0.06598729861941373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189807334056162,0.0,0.0949175888483555,0.05073390314244977,0.11034027703783264,0.0,0.0,0.07328781781142786,0.1258034561872812,0.2022254828408037,0.062015615025014736,0.3006639727888284,0.07361219483402545,0.0,0.0,0.18094315728262902,0.07012924804970433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06571071345616958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562431805381286,0.03723013286375957,0.10020430127245887,0.0,0.0,0.05675295046708626,0.058513377633276374,0.0,0.1409436687535557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04595250855394447,0.0,0.0,0.04483902418219994,0.0690124071762232,0.0,0.04064756151984245
schizophrenia,tentacol,2020/01/06,"I need advice/motivation to stop talking to my voices The voice that I hear is of a guy who I used to “love”, but in reality, doesn’t love me back. That doesn’t matter now, and I’m over him, because he wasn’t that great of a guy anyways (he didn’t respect me or treat me right). I have psychosis 

It’s one week into the new year and I need motivation to stop communicating with my voices. I argue with my voices a lot and they try to annoy me and just overall make my life worse. Tips, tricks, or just a little support would be greatly appreciated right now

I know for sure that I’m going to get better in at least a couple months",2.089772727272728,3.6048532803030326,4.197575757575759,86.34136363636364,76.80303030303031,6.315151515151516,21.84848484848485,6.980632752743323,0.4910212121212117,491,13,107,5,11,169,82,132,0.113,0.621,0.267,0.9789,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,2,6,12,3,0,7,0,8,3,0,3,1,24,21,7,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,2,6,7,0,2,2,0,0,1,4,3,0,1,2,5,17,9,16,17,2,18,0,0,0,2,12,8,0,3,9,70,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12740992987947175,0.0,0.10100669109137307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14654457058097245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833393769836108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08656927609051543,0.0,0.09416880625097812,0.0,0.0,0.3653606597463999,0.0,0.32813001058443103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18675133721444653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09106214087741893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170359240957131,0.0,0.16607083546125362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408687405328225,0.29909406272913003,0.0,0.1106033090815314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13225689752826755,0.0,0.0,0.2457228410485372,0.0,0.16003014602147794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227983940455656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28300680999990024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770584065426525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880297593441203,0.15616643778379513,0.0,0.0,0.13318009902686456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124966488744263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14310806900381876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13291126739107129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688582919146084,0.11770562308376363,0.0,0.0,0.10670273590449776
schizophrenia,Mrthejazz2,2020/01/06,"Curious about something Have any of you ever had an auditory hallucination that gave you information you didn't have before? For example, has a voice told you a joke you haven't heard before, or predicted something that would happen later? (Example: the phone's about to ring.)

I has a cousin who was diagnosed with schizophrenia and he says a voice told him he was medium ""whatever that is."" It's as if to imply the voice knew what a medium was but he hadnt heard the term before.",4.749363354037272,6.426065271739134,5.6965838509316775,77.62978260869569,70.19565217391305,9.170186335403725,26.186335403726712,9.606745405546679,2.3835726708074536,383,12,71,9,7,126,59,92,0.0,0.956,0.044000000000000004,0.3839,0,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,5,0,0,3,1,0,0,9,0,13,1,0,0,1,9,20,5,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,1,1,7,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,12,7,7,1,8,7,1,3,0,0,0,0,19,0,0,2,3,48,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16606235597182872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6233810660839836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24785484767851765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22089019643857213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159426293650706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941952815937649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3759896120093887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4666814587719037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17347056553157625,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,imsorryclank,2020/01/06,"Ritual Sacrifices of Today I had a revelation recently as I tried to understand my problems more deeply. Silvano Arieti introduced me to the concept of ""paleological thought"", which is a form of thinking used by our ancestors and primitive peoples of today, a form of thinking which humanity had evolved prior to the more rational, ""Aristotelian thinking"" we mostly rely on in the west. Paleological thinking nowadays is mostly used by small children, and it's mostly used by adults in dream logic. It's essentially the same as what Freud called ""primary process"" thinking. Normally the adult person mostly relies on modern logical thinking, but on an emotional level our thinking is still very much paleological in nature. In paleological thinking, every action is driven by a higher will, there are no chance happenings. To the paleologician, every single event has some deeper meaning and conscious drive behind it, however insignificant or random it may be. 

Our ancestors frequently offered blood sacrifices to appease their vengeful and sadistic Gods, killing and offering the animals which were subservient to them. The very notion of ""sacrificial lamb"" denotes the sacrifice of a ""pure"" creature in front of the angry and cruel God, a creature almost seen as ""innocent"" in a way. Some even sacrificed their very own children to these cruel Gods, which obviously must've been extremely hard to do so, and only a truly Evil God could crave such a horrible sacrifice.

Why the sacrifice though? Why would someone consider such a bloodthirsty, Evil God worthy of worship and devotion if the sacrifice is so terrible, going as far as to murder the very picture of innocence, the most deeply cherished of all: one's own children. Because we need to distort reality, we need to distort the things that had happened to us in order to save face for those who we once treated as Gods. That might've been your parents, a close friend you depended on, a sibling, ""friends"", or anyone you had trusted, and maybe even worshiped as a God as you grew up. Your self-esteem depended on them, maybe even your very survival, but what if they did something, or a lot of things which caused great harm to your self-image and sense of self? Certainly if you worshiped someone like a God, needed them to help you establish your sense of self, then suddenly having to face the possibility that they might be very cruel or extremely flawed, and perhaps even dangerous would cause great panic. Your whole view of the world might feel like it's falling apart, your sense of basic safety would crumble. As a child, such panic would be absolutely intolerable and damaging. 

So what do you do? Certainly you could try to challenge these people, try to fight their behavior and seek retribution or for them to admit that they are wrong. However that would mean facing the idea that the very people you depend on so deeply for your sense of self are in fact extremely flawed, maybe even ""bad"" people. It's a no-win situation without a true resolution that would resolve the conflict. The options are either fear or suppression of the truth. So what is the other option? Sacrifice. To distort the reality of not only their being, but of your own as well by sacrificing the truth.

Paleological thinking still pervades our thinking on a deeper, emotional level, when we can't rationally resolve conflicts deep inside in a way that discharges the pent up emotions. The deeper and more serious the emotional conflict, the more inadequate and drastic are the mechanisms used to try and resolve it. When this happens, we begin to act like our ancestors did, only with a modern dressing. I've come to realize that plenty of people, including myself, did what would essentially serve the same purpose as the old ritual sacrifices our ancestors did in damp, dark caves, or on the tops of mountains to appease Evil Gods who demanded such sacrifices. These people sacrifice the truth, and in turn, part of their own humanity on a modern altar to a new God they must see as benevolent, lest they face the possibility that those who defined them had made serious mistakes. The role of the person who was this ""God"" in childhood is transferred to Evil Gods of today, except they appear in many other forms, not necessarily as Gods or God-like concepts.

There was a period in my life where I made such ""sacrifices"" to what would amount to an Evil God, it was horrible and I still have flashbacks to that horrible period of my life. I didn't do it because I wanted to, but because compulsions and demonic forces took control of my mind and replaced my soul with a lie, a disturbing ""reflection"", no matter how hard I fought. But when I began to reject the person who originally hurt me like that,who was partly responsible for the original injury, the compulsions and demons suddenly lost control over my brain. I began to successfully fight it, and slowly but surely I started to realize how deeply I was disturbed and scarred by these compulsive ""sacrifices"" committed before the Evil God, and to not even begin talking about the original injuries. Nightmares drenched my mind in my sleep where I saw horrific things happening to me. The Evil God demanded further sacrifices, which I was unwilling to give anymore. I also became more human, whereas before I was more like a computer inside, a dead emotionless thing that wasn't really alive or human.

I realize now how many people even today continue to make sacrifices before this Evil God, to each their own manifestation of it. Some of the most horrific things people can do to themselves and to others might very well be the modern version of these horrific and bloodthirsty sacrifices of children and sacrificial lambs that our ancestors offered to their Evil God. People give up their humanity almost daily to these horrific rituals of sacrifice in order to preserve the lies they need to feed on, like an infant needs to feed on an evil breast secreting poisonous rotten milk.

The true God, the benevolent God would never request such horrific and evil sacrifices. To him, the ""sacrifices"" requested are of our time in prayer, and our repentance in trying to right the wrongs we have committed, and our sacrifices of selflessness for people in need. Evil and horrible acts only breed more pain and Evil. Two wrongs will never be a right.

I hope you find this revelation informative.",12.146688259878411,9.999651661607146,11.182367021276598,57.33401595744682,55.59821428571429,14.567629179331306,45.16907294832826,13.023866798666859,6.053268996960485,5151,239,774,141,47,1659,433,1120,0.218,0.638,0.14400000000000002,-0.9993,3,0,1,0,2,0,142.0,18,18,20,11,37,78,23,5,83,0,69,15,8,20,17,187,122,77,3,26,24,1,3,6,2,16,4,0,0,19,61,44,3,6,30,1,0,12,11,44,2,2,32,8,86,34,145,66,37,104,29,4,4,1,101,49,0,36,45,575,147,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08718595682371402,0.0,0.0,0.03481409682687995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04317399627825615,0.03043996119429725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036349043137672114,0.07961370469219066,0.0,0.11113259573833804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048598303526295315,0.04445304660505317,0.0,0.0,0.0894427499885589,0.0,0.0375006568890429,0.0,0.0,0.09765408912044674,0.06951665881020573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19587940864440886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20127641743313368,0.0,0.07335848780336654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04898781483569442,0.022012081224189056,0.031100673959825582,0.0,0.0,0.03978925617692646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06726846817571693,0.0,0.0,0.08352349395854078,0.024741356079402067,0.0,0.0,0.09599270225533996,0.0,0.0,0.1539877691997084,0.0,0.0779957650642097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029179899707139592,0.0,0.0,0.04323905101674976,0.0,0.0,0.04660401092036694,0.04914454856390363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04816388320933079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061498655179221484,0.12761098061088505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0475224664160594,0.03701102104544581,0.0,0.08238578234293129,0.029059260305935006,0.08827321705641647,0.13120716042217653,0.09484250263726088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847306329501204,0.08791379090390056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0320024740418326,0.19367930472712214,0.06715215662019186,0.04204537557377147,0.0,0.0,0.042654043476518536,0.0,0.0,0.04568157404360452,0.04636225292189815,0.02949974198294946,0.1324381712255905,0.046323209123730384,0.1021554582068726,0.048339317269196116,0.09428608549919684,0.0,0.3018097053926552,0.1140365396036264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981560109779484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04165612600574162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027888973326504304,0.0,0.04298453938038597,0.0,0.0,0.07435553807958023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0346909344856844,0.0,0.22707710435768366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04893400170846303,0.04356540564086457,0.0,0.07377237612107966,0.03351457385106449,0.0,0.0,0.0308135651542742,0.0,0.10429884428358148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04103024768693541,0.0,0.0,0.034990952778266304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461016276867295,0.2789480754428305,0.042771900493494185,0.03456110615827747,0.025385005625427115,0.0,0.16506043763941858,0.0,0.048367837972027115,0.14778352611392145,0.04735245384025283,0.04252635898223284,0.04532039384226241,0.05236600081951899,0.150397475937945,0.0,0.28736064911257336,0.025677461032450888,0.06911047163390935,0.0,0.0,0.07828452718275176,0.0,0.07856526595553176,0.048604118274755886,0.0,0.04196518964458582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.278327523123904,0.14279267300827134,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,zweiundsiebzig,2020/01/06,"Misdiagnosed with schizophrenia for 5 years For a few months I have been seeing a new psychiatrist, she said I must have been misdiagnosed with schizophrenia and that it's OCD instead. First I was sceptical, but then it all made sense. It seems that my fear of developing schizophrenia led me to believe I really was experiencing psychotic symptoms which in turn my former psychiatrists failed to recognize as OCD. With the help of my psychiatrist I managed to cease my antipsychotic medication 2 months ago and so far I don't feel a difference.

It doesn't have a big impact on my life, the good thing about this is that OCD has a better prognosis and I don't need medication anymore.

What's bad is that I can't go to the support group for people who experienced psychosis anymore, I don't know how I can tell them how this happened. But I guess I can find another support group.",9.178318181818181,8.101473703030305,8.973749999999997,67.46062500000002,60.45454545454545,12.613636363636365,38.80681818181819,11.698219412168324,4.4860454545454544,711,30,129,18,8,231,101,165,0.092,0.795,0.11199999999999999,0.5023,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,3,5,8,1,1,8,0,18,4,0,4,2,20,31,10,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,14,6,0,0,4,0,0,2,5,4,0,1,6,5,20,4,16,24,2,14,0,1,1,0,8,4,0,2,8,89,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14324915464838486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16945228757889827,0.0,0.0,0.3205286836145446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13492972566723133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820685034249912,0.0,0.14292257159834626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16883820044361425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818455685829833,0.08171010361113057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14769999309532594,0.13745736206169307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09184132786618393,0.1355428908054261,0.0,0.0,0.17802124657086427,0.0,0.1429028501213267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083174554986049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881144690557008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11414326149944748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529103664202241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3255911455287627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25797606600395323,0.0,0.0,0.11982477482406488,0.0,0.15607483724557866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11203348764395256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10352546299041183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537191479747432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12877473158136793,0.14711508939251233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3667648229605467,0.0,0.16796486770622296,0.0,0.0,0.14124602078058374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10736023788669298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757750150983681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10406546862562592
schizophrenia,laneysully,2020/01/06,"But I love you... I have been in a relationship with someone diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder being that he has also been diagnosed bipolar. Combined with severe PTSD, trauma, and BPD. Its.. been challenging to say the least. I’m doing my best. I’m trying to learn. I spend so much of my day at work lurking in this subreddit, researching stuff online, and reading Surviving Schizophrenia- A family manual. I’m patient. I’m understanding. I’m kind. I love him deeply and passionately. To an onlooker looking in, you would never know he is so unwell. He has been determined SMI, and receives mental health services through his clinic. He takes Seroquel, and gets his Invega injections. However, nothing is working. He is suffering. Watching him suffer is destroying me. I can’t take it away.. and that.. that is devastating. I want to take it away for him. I want him to have all the good things in this world he deserves to have. 

I guess I’m finally posting in here to finally ask, what works best for you in regards to your loved ones? I’ve learned it’s probably best not to tell him his delusions/hallucinations aren’t real. I mostly just listen, and adjust accordingly. Luckily I’m not tied into the paranoia or delusion. He is able to share with me what he hears and sees. This has taken time, and a lot of trust on his part. 

What do I do? All he ever tells me is I deserve better. I don’t deserve this. This is too much for you. All I can tell him in those times is.... but I love you. He is who I love. I can’t walk away. Despite him hurting me verbally, and him lashing out on me. Pushing me away. Not doing the things a “normal” boyfriend would do. Like touching me. Kissing me first. He doesn’t do these things... but I love him.

What do you find helps you the most in regards to your partner/friend/family member wanting to be there for you? 

I refuse to give up on him. Or walk away. I love him. People have taken my own mental illness and destroyed me with it. I won’t do that to him. 


Any advice would be appreciated.
Keep up the good fight, you are worth it.",1.4214749780509202,4.052748820895527,3.100038045068775,86.87620280948202,86.91044776119404,6.237518290898451,23.305238513315768,7.583002386737751,1.3975314018144576,1614,62,312,31,51,532,195,402,0.073,0.731,0.19699999999999998,0.9949,2,0,0,0,1,0,79.0,0,11,0,10,9,27,3,0,11,0,43,15,0,0,5,52,76,19,0,7,9,0,1,1,0,4,6,3,0,0,26,18,0,2,6,1,2,4,10,7,0,2,6,7,59,20,47,63,14,35,0,3,3,9,60,22,0,6,9,230,85,9,0.07856888426429216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07677660438097167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0628315083599984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05342953554156175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07345130076735779,0.0,0.3690902654790825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473595901612695,0.06948779329911076,0.0,0.0,0.09895475929669376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050670430508846336,0.0,0.0,0.15949152733247107,0.0,0.0,0.09004674825578855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0710700539705662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14813550326548636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172136744589619,0.07181053682221075,0.06683065281827379,0.0,0.0,0.06070212508404791,0.0,0.04104899921698258,0.0753704330606162,0.0,0.13179970489084553,0.0,0.0,0.08655248395145293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08351504992627798,0.0885528427784341,0.0,0.052663066961354456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0841096156052404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06983563435627167,0.0,0.08181740245560437,0.04317940403781966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03838478818389515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06597807470285788,0.0,0.0,0.06679645575161151,0.4963803990779894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15835791147921752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11551434037188794,0.0,0.060597167162696725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.076980824825344,0.07538896346611497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053240309356191264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08508244517635005,0.0,0.05446977160374249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07524727267959516,0.0,0.08471054593614716,0.0,0.0918428212040517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07859014612020335,0.08942859121057338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435357811574144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06248113029106865,0.0,0.0,0.06260922841090348,0.0,0.0,0.08876047547487664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06657116067146836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08994257504174613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17722206884536704,0.0,0.2060180037322392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15659302660280855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916282964974779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05334311501844044,0.0,0.0,0.08179297939965342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13902589076603314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17159725048590002,0.0,0.0,0.16743924338981125,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Zeiivua,2020/01/06,"i might’ve caused the war? so i get caught in the delusion of being trapped in nuclear warfare pretty often. the days before the war was declared, i had been thinking about it especially hard. i was mentally preparing for the coming days (which were already in a type of internal fallout at that time), and then all of sudden it’s not such an irrational fear. i’ve been preparing this whole time, i think about it all the time. 

i came to the conclusion that i can’t be convinced that i didnt start something. i thought about well, maybe i am everything. maybe everyone is just me, and i accidentally willed this to happen. i know that that isn’t the only possibility, and that it’s possible that i didn’t start it, but i don’t think i can be convinced that there isn’t at least a chance that i did this",5.292249999999999,5.7223987250000015,5.9899999999999975,80.61500000000002,68.0,9.65,31.0,9.642632912329526,2.6610125000000004,636,24,130,13,10,208,89,160,0.095,0.816,0.09,0.0571,0,1,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,9,6,2,1,11,0,20,0,0,1,2,18,32,6,2,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,18,5,0,0,6,0,0,3,7,3,1,0,12,1,17,3,14,16,4,17,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,9,96,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18198542768093948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403286865451164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18861636389023376,0.0,0.1694109213884011,0.0,0.14205781546420918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127102870633933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575812926653694,0.14821303340368105,0.0,0.0,0.1855728015782376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616015612483267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14583188612829998,0.0,0.1477295188890236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09063178796662626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3313542415712095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16619336204190613,0.17494646989692056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12542365153795074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3718289131698504,0.0,0.16777565282089393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12695796667197104,0.0,0.0,0.2334523240716485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3170084807522309,0.0,0.13092237971719514,0.28848602215406743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14827645485164254,0.0,0.0,0.18411930449925756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ILYKGIRLSINYOGAPANTS,2020/01/06,"What's the best way to deal with active hallucinations, as a caretaker/relative? What should we do that could help or irritate you less? So my brother who has been on medication for the last 8 months, keeps having these episodes over the last 3 months on and off, where he is whisper arguing with his hallucinations (he refuses to believe that this is an illness and thinks these are ghosts/free spirits - he has had moments in the last couple years where he realizes that this is an illness, but 90% of the time, he's on his delusion based thought process). 

The medications were working well from April to July/Aug, but since then we have observed him having these ""arguments"" atleast once a week or from time to time. I'd chalk it up to the occasional symptoms or stress, and that the medicine was doing its job. 

Over the last one month, this has escalated to a huge extent where his mood swings are high, he is constantly arguing, or upset about something or the other for no reason. 

He was overly spiritual and downright obsessed with God's and spirituality, hence his paranoia and delusions are based around that. He also did Kundalini Yoga and he ended up getting schizophrenia from the mix of these activities and obsession. He still is overly spiritual where all he listens to all day is hymns and songs related to Gods/meditation music. 

I have mentioned this to his doctor and it is clear that the dosage is low for him, and we clearly need to increase the dosage. 

My question - I get extremely angry and frustrated when I see him in this state. It's a very helpless feeling from the perspective of a relative/primary care taker, that no matter what you do and no matter how much you run around/create positive experiences/be supportive - this fucking illness takes over. 

What can I do to help him get to earth and not engage with his symptoms? The biggest challenge for me is that he doesn't accept or understand this illness or even wants to talk about it. Everytime I ask him, he walks away saying ""I don't know/stop observing me"" and then makes up an excuse of stress when I know that he is lying. 

The fact that he just walks away and doesn't understand or acknowledge the fact that he is hallucinating and engaging with his hallucinations is extremely infuriating. 

I know I'm making this about me, but I really need help in understanding how can i help or what can I do in this situation?

What do you expect from your relatives or how do you as a primary caretaker do in such a situation?",11.703442778967409,8.22757096573876,10.901780870806567,63.11209552700453,57.75802997858672,14.489126814180349,43.71746371639305,12.45797560212912,5.243168070425886,1999,83,359,48,18,648,223,467,0.151,0.7440000000000001,0.106,-0.9809,1,0,1,0,0,0,51.0,3,6,0,3,20,20,4,5,27,0,44,10,0,6,6,75,69,41,0,6,15,1,1,0,0,1,9,4,0,0,37,26,0,2,13,2,0,4,7,11,1,1,7,6,37,8,56,60,7,56,2,2,1,1,54,28,1,11,22,259,74,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07881891976550334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17547975708948368,0.09214090721304427,0.0,0.18520195857367053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11104410636885456,0.1034333261503204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10048915594885373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10650905316110484,0.0,0.0786926626356851,0.10905548951029008,0.0,0.0635634684094726,0.10161170696808758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10088100621594956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08729548550256015,0.0,0.0,0.06509838272549262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04983522831307608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09111773686630856,0.15448162204859928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642525164699027,0.1041347427961516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09780624139658503,0.08760523827571128,0.0,0.0,0.1624990743280914,0.32136035241238103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13158000438086534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19857898053052492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23601052220789695,0.0,0.07245342156494672,0.14616295285438274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10496388033187863,0.06678725023427598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11041048966458138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06314047903913432,0.10133676804233203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07837938836440543,0.0,0.0,0.07854008091648491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08153039186993445,0.22157261029310524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0758768070439364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07871066597056474,0.0824011203854775,0.2258017933725709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118454626886189,0.0,0.2048845163763812,0.07410534613178511,0.07921932064655135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06315368767543138,0.0,0.07824615031210758,0.1724145306644198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3078153516741189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08132286203917563,0.05813362762109504,0.07823285989230958,0.0790594119236156,0.0,0.08861786502147012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07175333030118096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06346983003652525
schizophrenia,bearyweek,2020/01/06,"In case you were wondering... We went on our first date on Christmas Eve. We hung out for 6 hours just doing not really anything and, still, my cheeks hurt from how happy I was. 

Neither of us have family so we spent Christmas together. He kissed me in the snow. At night he told me that it was the best Christmas he’d ever had. Secretly, it was mine, too. 

We went on our second date a few days later. Then a third. And a fourth. And a... actually, what date number are we on now? I can’t keep up. 

There’s photos of us together on Instagram. We’ve spent so much time just moving everything so fast but just savouring every second. He’s spent so much time in my bed. My cat loves him. He rubs my back after a long day at work and understands when I’m stressed. He kisses my anxiety away. 

It’s so wild to think about it all because I still remember tweeting that I could tell he didn’t like me. He tells me about how we had a conversation before our Karaoke Kiss where he thought I could never be into him. He can pinpoint the exact moment where he knew he had feelings for me. 

I’m so scared it’s not real. I’m scared I’ve become delusional and I’m not actually as happy as I feel I am. I’m scared that every time he asks about my day, he’s actually just hoping I’ll say a few words and let that be it. I’m scared he kisses me because he lusts after me. My paranoia says he’s not actually interested. How could someone so great really, truly, be this into a girl like me? How could someone so pure ever want to be with someone who’s never going to be “normal”? Sometimes I hear a whisper of, “you’ll never be good enough for him.”

Right now, to that I say, “Fuck it.” He likes me. He cares about me. I may not ever truly be good enough for him but I can always work to be good enough to him. 

Fuck my paranoia. Fuck my anxiety. This man is mine: mine to share doughnuts with; mine to spend days awe-struck over penguins; mine to kiss; mine to hold; mine. Maybe I’m too sappy but I’ll never be able to properly express how happy I am knowing that my crush likes me back. 

Also, he’s not my crush anymore. He’s my boyfriend. 

So in case you were wondering, things are going pretty well.",0.9442138038401672,3.057703922394684,2.9088814454875696,91.2984233617965,82.94678492239467,5.789517384535547,19.79530122187101,7.037575079466222,0.3424905505496061,1683,46,366,22,47,564,195,451,0.13,0.696,0.17300000000000001,0.9781,0,0,0,0,0,0,64.0,11,3,0,4,39,32,3,5,12,0,36,11,1,5,10,68,70,28,0,7,13,0,3,4,0,2,0,5,1,2,18,17,0,2,11,0,4,5,13,9,1,4,17,9,62,23,46,36,10,60,0,1,0,10,56,20,3,4,39,241,80,2,0.07226203864520765,0.0,0.2820693031733192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05778792619701707,0.06012780494403424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11056052354737256,0.0,0.07166452494702713,0.0,0.0,0.059465500680281176,0.0,0.06755525147509102,0.0,0.06789256402802428,0.11113009449743404,0.0,0.08810053609224983,0.07980774434359167,0.06148967253643736,0.0,0.07583455134464745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07367596441120566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307814313703919,0.0,0.0,0.18641214734742806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22399800834309114,0.0,0.0,0.19609545310313506,0.1217677683895166,0.0,0.06494446085116275,0.0,0.06812221887795633,0.0,0.07307571594067876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06146605315653408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004152709375502,0.0,0.0,0.08213636368281113,0.18182990869919502,0.0,0.07966915271374808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307728515349165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08144456939814801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0717725093202978,0.07116355198632059,0.0,0.07735800692872673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06422982018797742,0.0,0.0,0.039713326623832895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07389283041763269,0.0,0.14121432794195124,0.0,0.0,0.06394963024726524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06521931117565319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07259693049725299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07680311107793229,0.10624182596191838,0.0,0.22293175606623705,0.0,0.0,0.06781302810378105,0.07080145518875766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07351647197401061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08225002015183128,0.09258582466274164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818588031424639,0.06171138616993616,0.0,0.17239702054957518,0.2893876275936751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18368217253471691,0.0,0.07146900395565409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11541711481348695,0.0,0.08277592112014208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12632041370838662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04800768754662898,0.04630259655061373,0.0,0.057367986936250566,0.12640972754982546,0.0,0.0,0.06904947464712996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07522733068732954,0.17384467020008004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042622022637806185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06497225106400484,0.13397526757298622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15673019683707173,0.10521524954087537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,gomorra82,2020/01/06,Shaking legs a side effect of Paliperidone? When I sit down my legs shake a lot. Is this a serious side effect that warrants changing meds? I read online it could be a serious movement disorder?,2.4491666666666667,5.405876694444443,3.606888888888889,82.02700000000002,87.61111111111109,6.213333333333335,29.42222222222221,7.554174236665415,2.5527288888888893,155,8,25,3,5,50,28,36,0.273,0.727,0.0,-0.7499,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,2,4,0,3,2,2,2,0,4,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,1,1,8,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,17,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4308965708299132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252164192749657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4668305300742514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3462937357496587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.452447016868737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4074359183708661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,wontono,2020/01/06,"I'm confused... I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder but I don't have hallucinations or delusions. I'm pretty sure I just have major depression and social anxiety.

I had a psychotic episode that I don't remember (only remember random things like being in the hospital and trying use shampoo in the shower). I said random things and was incoherent but that was only one time.

Apparently I had a psychotic break prior to that one but I don't remember anything from it.",4.433242894056846,7.4254415232558175,6.385503875968992,66.30122739018088,75.62790697674419,10.333850129198968,31.64857881136951,10.25414643259724,4.5708284237726104,385,19,57,14,9,133,52,86,0.106,0.77,0.124,0.3716,3,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,4,0,11,1,0,1,1,17,15,7,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,6,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,6,1,8,2,5,8,1,5,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,4,3,44,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14596974032511115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570210309086339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16434506311461644,0.19366894625661368,0.0,0.0,0.21868570876720994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322051903561908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585966736626884,0.2902404245154271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19412318211511695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6484543228258155,0.0,0.1815047667761642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19450758202517454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17983692158274373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535324349034178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11126331239504203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295480085801827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647992676821382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,AfterGlass,2020/01/06,"feeling so sad can't make the world a much better place

can't even hold a job

can only sit here and feel sad",7.272400000000001,3.2423922400000014,7.376000000000001,86.70800000000001,66.6,10.0,29.0,3.1291,0.9461999999999992,86,1,22,0,1,28,21,25,0.24100000000000002,0.603,0.156,-0.5245,1,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,5,6,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,6,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,11,0,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3646719847867495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272339783048014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41697242538765933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4091734609599871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27523318050502643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30310966699879066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31359520771459376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4307966262783665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,aridmango324,2020/01/06,"Is it safe to drink after being discontinued on invega? google tells me I have to wait 300 day until it leaves my body completely, but is that just for the injected form of the medicine because i was prescribed the pill form.",9.036279069767444,7.436373209302328,8.436860465116277,72.86831395348841,61.093023255813954,12.32093023255814,35.45348837209303,11.20814326018867,3.743986046511628,180,6,34,4,2,57,36,43,0.0,0.9540000000000001,0.046,0.2382,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,5,3,1,0,0,4,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,7,4,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,26,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24958433807810565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4547837204613429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4292788949422537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26404806638582395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4010849020704291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4335265760160799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3578593075545838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,kataastrophic,2020/01/06,"Trouble communicating Hello. I have a friend diagnosed with schizophrenia. She is 18. She has a lot of difficulty communicating. She has clearer moments and more muddled moments. She says that her thoughts arnt really words but more of images and she has trouble remembering one day to the next. Sometimes she can fully communicate her thoughts then all of a sudden she can start struggling to say anything. She struggles to fully communicate with her psychologist because of this. Due to a recent liver issue she has lost the ability to take a medication that was really working for her. 

Has anyone experienced this? I was thinking maybe she could try drawing what she was thinking or have flash cards or even one of those felt boards. I feel if she could get the images out maybe it will make it easier to peace them together. 

But if you have experienced this what works for you?",5.163333333333334,8.03769735031847,5.55314649681529,73.8915881104034,72.31210191082803,8.263099787685777,30.21188959660297,9.029198982220553,3.012733673036093,712,31,115,16,15,227,91,157,0.102,0.818,0.079,-0.4329,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,1,3,1,6,0,2,8,0,17,3,1,1,1,24,28,9,0,4,6,0,2,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,10,5,0,0,7,0,0,0,0,5,0,2,7,6,22,1,16,18,4,10,0,1,0,0,23,1,0,5,9,89,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118560249627604,0.0,0.13164318783864262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09751734441649973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25544898278841544,0.0,0.0,0.10316859795985726,0.0,0.0,0.16236804282227846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056598867761343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08088656523505937,0.0,0.15359804633712007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12359384112617225,0.0,0.08357867999822907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16696903136461064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17462815263780768,0.13600233152505545,0.0,0.0,0.1067824405370455,0.0,0.3214264152703193,0.0,0.0,0.16115479156718687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17013185893031912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21680210789874269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049641046966679,0.0,0.15795288565761958,0.0,0.18121690181788425,0.0,0.0,0.2544320443439424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15821623302155596,0.0,0.11322888656421333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33447458631899696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202789094593656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20500698204498846,0.0,0.2539995322927774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10861037358471036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232922798939656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,RedHeadedKoi,2020/01/06,"My dog has schizophrenia All he does is humps my leg all day long and pees in the house. I took him to the vet, they said inpatient at the county. I took him to the county and the nurse said, ""We don't treat dogs here."" I hear a ghost laugh in the other room.

I smuggled some Thorazine from my schizo cousin and gave it to my dog. THEY WILL  NOT GO AWAY.

I talked to a Christian friend of mine about the Holy Ghost, and I asked him if he could perform an exorcism for my dog. He tried, but my dog just humped his leg and peed in his house.

Now all my dog does is sits on the internet all day talking about the Illuminati Playing Cards and how Maynard James Keenan caste a Hurricane.

What do I do?",2.6798295454545453,3.866000909722224,3.1182323232323235,96.0227272727273,74.625,6.625252525252527,22.118686868686872,6.980632752743323,0.24991111111111186,537,13,128,5,11,166,87,144,0.048,0.905,0.047,0.2313,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,2,1,6,4,0,0,13,0,8,5,3,1,4,18,16,9,2,2,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,3,7,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,5,3,23,4,15,9,5,15,1,0,0,2,20,7,0,2,4,80,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798412165768577,0.0,0.18073918821579876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15359284613241073,0.0,0.0,0.2481271746581175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33669087811508297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14862560512702636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10932905471725274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21681645948045847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4439413514960818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17024256519197428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3659783570313153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30924156126500696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4274632309747482,0.13060749912789693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,UNknown_999677,2020/01/06,My dad's a functioning scizopranic Could I get my DNA tested for a schizophrenia gene. I wanna try mushrooms but don't wanna risk it.,2.4679487179487194,5.20927553846154,4.128461538461536,80.89987179487181,82.07692307692307,6.5435897435897425,24.051282051282055,7.793537801064563,1.6682974358974354,108,4,19,2,3,36,22,26,0.0,0.895,0.105,0.3007,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,13,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6817899597647996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.446140785147584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5797593040148732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ahnahnah,2020/01/07,"I'm apparently famous I went into a gas station (that I barely ever visit) to buy some scratch off tickets for my brother. The guy at the counter was acting really weird and like...squirrelly. He told me that I'm ""kinda famous around here"" and I was just like...wut. I don't think I've ever met this guy before but it kinda weirded me out lol. Now I'm paranoid that maybe some of my less than appropriate pictures have gotten into the wrong hands or something. 🤔",2.265132850241546,4.504635054347826,4.044492753623191,84.27248792270532,78.8913043478261,5.828019323671497,23.265700483091784,6.937597516519254,0.9502425120772942,363,12,68,4,9,122,68,92,0.094,0.8640000000000001,0.043,-0.5341,1,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,4,1,4,1,1,0,2,16,12,4,0,0,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,6,0,0,1,1,1,3,1,3,0,0,6,2,8,0,10,6,3,12,0,0,0,0,7,6,0,5,3,43,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2294196556309253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192952091029398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4662332347154747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5103537702026604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518115993869589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589078522770269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16509786881164953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984004449415468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651324063656203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462562956766045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23890299870787515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28176925840412176,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,-BoB-,2020/01/07,"Why do some schizophrenics verbally talk to themselves? Especially in public? No hate.  It just makes me wonder. 
It also makes me wonder if they can’t help it, or don’t care that they are talking to themselves in public? What makes them want to talk to themselves? Do they achieve anything from talking to themselves? And what point/what severity of schizophrenia (if applicable) causes someone to want to have a internal dialogue with oneself? 

Thank you.",4.341012658227847,7.69479936708861,3.9213797468354414,81.01903164556964,80.64556962025317,6.197974683544303,30.684810126582278,7.554174236665415,2.552715443037976,366,18,56,6,10,110,51,79,0.07200000000000001,0.79,0.139,0.5854,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,4,1,2,3,1,0,1,0,6,1,0,4,0,15,16,5,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,8,2,12,16,1,2,0,0,0,0,12,2,0,6,0,41,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464258432162699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506765626041327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18668372311722686,0.1880952154494034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18077437895722956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12272877394553458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3666641172422123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17308967536589387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068520684115913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551409251446751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5886787517109923,0.0,0.1685748460741405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159954860828996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16522021772179105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3971305554568386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,User43433,2020/01/07,"My husband is hearing voices Not sure if this is the right subreddit, let me know. 
My husband has experienced sexual trauma multiple times in his childhood and it has had a lot of effect on him. Ever since we got married and moved because of the military it’s gotten worse. Last night he told me that he hears a female voice (that he calls his demon) in his head telling him to hurt me & do bad things to me. He says he can’t control himself and feels guilty and cries after he does anything that the voice tells him. And that it takes over his body and drains his energy. 
For some reason this only happens at night when he’s in and out of sleep.  He also says he doesn’t know what’s real, he’s suicidal and says he doesn’t care what happens to himself  because it’s not really him. He’s also had sleep paralysis in the past and nightmares about his childhood. 

I’m honestly really scared because He listens to the voice and it has control over him, it keeps me up all night. I have no one to go to and he made me promise to not tell anyone. I’m scared to say anything to anyone in case he hurts himself, he cares a lot about his reputation. 

With him being in the military I’m not sure what kind of help he can even get for this without getting kicked out. Does anyone have any experience with these symptoms or any advice for what help military people can get? I don’t feel comfortable going to talk to someone on base yet. This is all very new to me.",3.9774489795918377,5.065236540816329,4.8808843537414965,85.0045918367347,71.34693877551021,7.77687074829932,26.92517006802721,8.11559375814309,1.6037251700680268,1149,38,233,16,21,374,145,294,0.122,0.809,0.069,-0.9493,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,1,0,0,3,8,14,0,2,9,0,19,5,4,5,5,42,44,16,1,1,7,2,2,0,0,0,1,11,0,0,20,16,0,3,6,0,0,3,10,6,0,1,6,14,28,8,39,36,5,31,1,2,0,0,51,15,0,5,13,145,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08912838851033192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14587962395450846,0.0,0.09882492373125536,0.0,0.12405050835655712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19132638055909654,0.0,0.15011448668240607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07615571316409521,0.16680049693483473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10131264800102123,0.0,0.0,0.09313459652025913,0.0,0.18598732797833487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20459731972009246,0.0,0.0,0.10018881413595757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15963523779248615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06024269058935945,0.08250377094443098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08921991296812395,0.0,0.0,0.09223603149634188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14295882891683173,0.0,0.10367236406951844,0.0,0.07294817703175213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16131165182994853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09360675758924317,0.0,0.20559836524384534,0.0,0.12227095298422787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952822622870904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107075848113318,0.0,0.09498014781670397,0.10025217264443648,0.07434751628048254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932673918554196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15508527649389853,0.0,0.0863041701695489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09694074264221857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08809022977428119,0.0,0.25678043036021064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061805585372891686,0.06936856179152318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08706932012170251,0.06323284293060792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10381582105138112,0.11686165410462493,0.09377805264752376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07789199579069192,0.0,0.29013226099523715,0.18263226018236906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754490352204448,0.0,0.18254975919432773,0.0,0.07728109779990336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09976785261687568,0.0,0.17192682415673333,0.09480108421940428,0.06857782407375056,0.07331034693340506,0.23916208361672325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06059521311035795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05318470694694547,0.0,0.0,0.08715411729292713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07525698505177647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08792223039669839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09294977292624686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,dewery12,2020/01/07,"Does anyone have a experience with Amisulprid? Doctor told me to change the medicament from aripiprazol to amisulprid as it have the potential to eradicate the voice that i hear. Is it true thou? And would it really effect the sexual disfuction? 
Does anyone also have any advice or something that i should pay attention to?",6.2901785714285685,9.171774803571427,6.267285714285716,70.07771428571431,68.82142857142857,10.194285714285718,29.057142857142853,10.355215969177356,3.8590685714285726,263,10,38,8,5,83,41,56,0.025,0.9079999999999999,0.067,0.5204,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,0,6,1,0,1,1,8,8,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,7,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,30,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621929465371499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21457029058665253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18246245023080765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3752222182517635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838402138103201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746303410758495,0.4696060825010722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624621881073139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.302408929901476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17188856400867691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20656091944221824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25638514504531834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19060228457306,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,VenomousPinto,2020/01/07,"Not recognizing your voices as voices?  I'm not comfortable having a username so I hope you'll understand if I delete my account, I just want to see that I'm not alone and I will come back to see if anybody comments. I've been in and out of the political-psychiatric complex my whole life, mostly having received the diagnosis of bipolar or autism until last year when I was diagnosed as schizophrenic. When I was younger I remember I'd frequently get questioned about whether I hear voices. Instinctively I'd say no. I recently received the diagnosis of schizophrenia though and I've determined that what I thought weren't voices, actually are voices, even though I haven't recognized them as such. Are you following me, is this prevalent? Was I in denial that they are voices because I didn't want people to think I was crazy (even though they did anyways lol)? Mostly they have manifested as imaginary memories, like people saying contemptuous, hateful things, and I can usually distinguish that they are only my thoughts because I don't \*physically\* hear them with my ears, maybe I hear them with my mind? Is there such a thing as a mind's ear? They affect my quality of life though and my relationships because as you can imagine no matter how much somebody likes me it's impossible to trust people who are always saying the most horrible things, even though they don't actually \*say\* them, and even though I recognize that... Maybe this is more a mind-reading delusion than hearing voices? I've never wanted to admit hearing things that people don't hear, I've thought that all people experience similar phenomena until recently. I've just needed to get this off my chest as I have been thinking of it lately, thanks.",6.958476190476191,8.3033831968254,7.154603174603177,70.48428571428573,64.65079365079364,10.317460317460318,34.682539682539684,10.398101306919678,3.9075396825396833,1397,62,228,34,21,451,156,315,0.076,0.8440000000000001,0.08,-0.3748,0,1,0,0,0,0,41.0,0,4,10,0,22,7,1,0,8,1,29,8,3,2,2,46,57,29,0,7,9,0,0,2,0,2,5,19,0,0,18,10,0,0,12,0,1,4,12,1,0,0,12,21,43,6,28,43,7,21,0,0,2,0,31,4,0,8,15,169,61,0,0.0,0.0,0.14600211084121534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07747771900069993,0.0,0.0,0.062245599526891335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05752213442608965,0.0,0.13680536050185674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0644397959446445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07592775338306676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976378525274757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07317581531137167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0781673695473906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07385664213255791,0.0,0.0,0.5058790409976762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07430044845890539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0609778684960556,0.08438580226939271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10567710326634308,0.07309405783826074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15030781405772653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.226601900467886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054991913957166634,0.055468605577782215,0.05769593960249176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05689426157460541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593095353924124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08380120657463608,0.0,0.07482746366225458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14772620941773065,0.08031495820840781,0.08474199719911765,0.0,0.0,0.23795881480004735,0.0,0.0,0.11922333766050397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06887243729375242,0.0,0.0,0.19879437115797036,0.09586689168604623,0.4409862816196257,0.1781657293404364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07787695399489437,0.0,0.0,0.08238958388804411,0.0,0.13236970921897304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08351958934910733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04817339687837766
schizophrenia,leakercreaker,2020/01/07,"There's nothing wrong with you, it is in-person advertising companies abusing behavioral biology and psychology and you are sk e of the few people who can tell. Don't be fooled or let anyone call you crazy there are in-person advertising companies that abuse behavioral biology and psychology to raise people's anxiety levels and make your paranoid.  When you talk about it people say your're crazy.  Find a discrete camera to record everything around you and then review it.  You're going to start noticing that advertisers are repeating certain visual imagery for the purpose of frightening you.  It *is* in your head but other people are abusing your psychology.  Very few of you are legitimate paranoid schizophrenics.",6.893323397913567,9.966835426229512,7.0157824143070044,64.51707153502238,67.68852459016394,10.010134128166918,34.86140089418778,10.230975488527342,4.587678688524591,590,29,81,17,11,189,77,122,0.154,0.807,0.039,-0.9106,0,0,0,0,1,0,12.0,0,10,0,0,5,3,0,0,3,0,11,2,1,1,1,12,14,9,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,8,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,1,10,1,11,12,2,8,0,0,0,0,15,3,0,1,4,56,18,3,0.0,0.5809871908246844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12503936723345513,0.0,0.0,0.11428855647224245,0.0,0.0,0.14550581044443878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16690147844986875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468989840061276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14939101342931804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09289282116464544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16774761279117945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16713945379520362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091046368724886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15683539146173486,0.1860897486283336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4532646456211837,0.2854377597745829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12998258733953644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156912736769568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313755118507069,0.14286314944951525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13486397684762547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17870772314459718,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,slytherin7snake,2020/01/07,"Amisulpride (Solian) and breast enlargement Amisulpride is the best anti-psychotic I've tried in terms of symptom reduction. However, it comes with the price of elevating prolactin levels, which can cause breast enlargement, even in males. Have any of you been on Solian for a long time, and if so, did you experience breast growth?

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Thanks!",8.882758620689659,10.949688482758622,6.951206896551727,71.0519827586207,60.72413793103448,10.627586206896552,35.1896551724138,10.686352973137794,4.200262068965518,284,12,42,7,4,83,47,58,0.0,0.8390000000000001,0.161,0.8748,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,0,1,2,2,0,0,3,0,5,4,3,1,0,6,7,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,8,5,2,9,0,0,0,3,3,4,0,1,3,26,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077772270086202,0.34516212544433017,0.193169496264006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29810183289823844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2918062899790529,0.0,0.24469121443535197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18761793641807065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778636842863041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25138280179486994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952455080846261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615228691445212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16563677466537666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19285705093299185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34516212544433017,0.0
schizophrenia,opposibleapples1,2020/01/07,"Helping someone during an episode? Hi all,
First want to say I’m sorry if I’m using the incorrect terminology or anything, I’m only new to this. I do not have schizophrenia, but a very close friend just told me she does. She briefly explained it so I understand in a general sense.

She just had an episode, where someone was in front of her, touching her and talking to her. She said he left now, and is apologising. I told her she doesn’t have to apologise at all, km there for her and I mean it.

I am asking for advice on helping? I was trying to keep her calm (this was over text), letting her know I’m right here and she’s doing great. What else can I do to help, or in person?

She said that I genuinely helped a lot, more than other people (her family doesn’t believe her and she doesn’t tell people). I don’t want her to be alone again when it happens, and I want to help her out.

I’m gonna be honest, I felt like crying seeing her so scared and I can’t do anything. I was so scared for her, I can’t pretend that I knew how she felt other than so unbelievably scared and how many of you must feel.

Once again, I’m sorry if I said the wrong thing on this post, I’m trying to help my friend, I’m happy to answer any questions or clear stuff up.
Much appreciated",0.7558032345013501,2.8617237056603813,2.617297843665771,93.15478773584907,83.64150943396227,5.295148247978436,19.652964959568735,6.5431188927421005,0.044371967654985855,982,27,220,10,28,326,137,265,0.10300000000000001,0.684,0.213,0.9857,0,1,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,1,0,1,15,11,0,3,7,0,24,0,0,3,4,42,54,21,0,6,9,0,4,1,2,2,0,4,0,1,13,10,0,1,10,1,0,1,7,4,0,1,13,9,41,7,26,36,5,22,0,0,1,0,45,14,0,7,7,147,54,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10060897941149828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10663302774658732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07001470154362759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694506716930832,0.0,0.09625146183831974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599796322625112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11309409389241346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09009889341010628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08600786722645266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970592664152975,0.0,0.05205845830331623,0.0,0.19771089222233384,0.0,0.0,0.08757568568788014,0.0,0.0,0.15908957948988886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351112229884952,0.0,0.0,0.0910450695286201,0.10960028434909233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4140618717678857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09151344938719908,0.0,0.0,0.056582806792096686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11186373840641553,0.10528112606746276,0.0,0.05029988490954092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753087344327128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10438285100413848,0.0,0.11215101422346087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07568568567150921,0.0,0.0,0.0994370958775658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964648848970222,0.0,0.07830389757669154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14275567860847316,0.08989860888280701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09860492488345933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153360798578742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879252315878885,0.29380877645250153,0.08187601941691539,0.3092355692445853,0.0,0.08204388072316908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17447128815859048,0.0,0.0,0.2305052176755553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11786182462160165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08275342243417477,0.08998948426634627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06840045747656086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967608062684753,0.0,0.13980291011582086,0.0,0.0,0.10718249715227493,0.0,0.08892231327762556,0.0,0.08495080620433194,0.18218118780480533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11256797783166793,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,IRememberMalls,2020/01/07,"Suggestions for Sites and/or Books re: When to Be Concerned This post is TL;DR, so thanks to anyone who reads it to the end. I spent all yesterday dealing with the person I'm posting about and need to decide what, if anything, I could or should do regarding seeking intervention in his situation, but as of yesterday also need to decide if my safety is at risk. Please bear with me, because my reasons for being afraid of him do not involve his possibly being schizophrenic; they involve my ignorance of the prevalence of schizophrenia *in conjunction with* personality disorders of a more dangerous kind. 

I'm this person's customer or client, he's a genius in regard to his work. My being his customer is of relatively short duration, but it became very intense very fast, because of the level of his intelligence. If someone were to ask what I consider potentially schizophrenic symptoms, I'm numbering them here. 

**1)** **Rambling** without the apparent ability to realize he is rambling. 

I have never been able to speak with him for, say, a half-hour, to ask questions, ask how he is doing, and say good-bye. The conversations always turn into painful hour-and-a-half marathons where my contributions to the dialogue essentially cease. While his talk has NEVER referenced voices, he is obsessed with aliens and is absolutely a conspiracy theorist. The possibility that his rambling is not schizophrenic but rather intentional... torture? (I don't know the word) yesterday terrified me for reasons having to do with--

**2) Marked indifference or unawareness of me as a human being.** This is a trait I have met with in others, particularly autistics. With autistic individuals, the indifference or unawareness does not simultaneously exist with a need to cling or seek personal connection (via the vice-grip of rambling phone calls). There's no comparison between this person's complete lack of concern for anything but the business he is a master at and, say, obsession with that business of a nature consonant with autism. The truly torturous phone calls suggest some sort of desire to maintain a personal connection. The pain of the length and meaninglessness of the phone calls at first impressed me as a cry for help or of loneliness. But now I'm wondering if they're a form of sadism.

**3) Severe isolation.** I also live a isolated life, as millions of people also do who have consciously chosen to separate from family (or origin). Isolation is no sign of schizophrenia unless one's physical health is in jeopardy. He is self-employed but apparently deeply in debt and also possibly a hoarder. I have learned over the course of some months the degree of lack of utilities he endures (in a northern climate). A phone conversation with him yesterday began with him coughing incessantly and sounding ill. He insisted, ""This is the way it is in the winter.""

**4) Intense secrecy about his past.** Attempts to ""cheer him up"" on my part involve my disclosing how shitty things are or were with my family of origin. While he is freely critical of his surviving family, he is a vault when it comes to his life before relocating to the relatively isolated (relatively, not totally) area where his business is. My self-disclosures have led him to call me crazy. I overlook this because of my concern for his apparent unconsciousness that he is for all intents and purposes wandering off into the woods slowly and dying. He has no safety net of any kind and does not care that he doesn't.

Okay--now for why I'm not sure this person is mentally ill or personality-disordered. Yesterday, because it was appropriate to the business that brought me in contact with him, I told him of a sexual assault. He never reacts to personal disclosures, so I lost my breath when in mid-sentence about the assault, he cut me off with talk of different choices of product I could have and the reasons for choosing one product over another. I overlooked this. He began to talk about himself, his personal life--or so he said. He was rambling. I began to ""cheer him up"" again, at which point he broke in again and began to talk about female sexual organs as meat.

When I said I did not see the humor in his ""joke"" (he insisted it was a joke), he said that ""that's what you deserve for interrupting his talk about himself.""

I'm aware how some people who have been good enough to read this far will be saying to themselves, GET AWAY, NOW! I fully intend to end the acquaintance. Before I do, however, I would so appreciate hearing from others if the description I've given here can indicate schizophrenia *along with* sexual sadism. He has claimed but never elaborated on relationships with women that have all failed. He is not unattractive physically and once, but only once, described himself as a ""lady's man."" It is the brutality of talking about female sexual organs as meat--and saying this was a joke--that has me frankly terrified. My concern for the intensity of his isolation has to end, but I'd like to know how people with **diagnosed** schizophrenic family members arrived at the conclusion that a diagnosis was in fact needed.

Please feel to correct anything at all that I've said that may in any way offend any member of this subreddit. I just do not know enough about--functioning schizophrenics. Maybe that's what I need to know. I need to be pointed to links or books or any material that addresses functioning schizophrenics. The only thing I know about his physical health is that he is a copious user of marijuana. Otherwise he appears very healthy or at least very very thin. 

Thank you for reading this. Sincere thanks.",6.2732973684210505,8.321694455000003,6.8403789473684204,69.45613684210528,66.95,10.303157894736842,34.5578947368421,10.484789902882557,4.23006,4485,214,706,126,76,1466,406,1000,0.15,0.764,0.086,-0.9969,7,3,0,0,0,0,176.0,0,2,2,8,35,34,8,4,55,0,72,18,1,14,12,139,118,65,1,19,39,0,2,1,0,4,17,13,1,12,45,36,0,1,19,8,2,4,19,18,0,4,24,16,76,16,151,81,16,83,0,3,1,0,115,42,0,25,34,503,121,8,0.0502935132387537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608788174659419,0.041848231943986784,0.0,0.0,0.13680525456163325,0.052737133803034825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0351663938389651,0.0,0.12416182833133432,0.0,0.14105293725899404,0.0,0.047252411249026134,0.0,0.0,0.12263383545132568,0.0,0.08559215094779328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20542120067459704,0.0,0.05127758863385815,0.0,0.0,0.04332340836318297,0.05273179175670135,0.0,0.0,0.08031055580145251,0.0,0.055245062691326466,0.0,0.05185040376839953,0.0,0.05104685726719825,0.05219672642011417,0.05254601690586624,0.11528144679451555,0.0,0.08802438471447648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336353744717945,0.10393328695831404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896489930937751,0.0,0.02542991144450413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04277963666843075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02627628487904051,0.0,0.0,0.08436762549018599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10691930548417797,0.056684444641280585,0.0,0.033710681782177065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09905795936683312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047459093276574,0.13819999793509494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10657138726926403,0.024570870144974936,0.0,0.04441009360969618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054901310797308964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050526593955962484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0506840321841063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04014380243906849,0.0,0.0,0.22375201679846146,0.1551578316258792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1071219003931336,0.06816037235386523,0.07650096626115185,0.10703168808474248,0.0,0.0,0.05446297377048349,0.04801084921603314,0.10460156860760254,0.3952292026395716,0.0,0.11041434935515762,0.09508725262145072,0.17009513831241296,0.09633456654319013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0563402450386273,0.0,0.15092137013310214,0.0,0.0,0.15513032394672074,0.0,0.05399641139652,0.0,0.0,0.1913625927548012,0.1999771018063385,0.0,0.0,0.04007741852817688,0.0,0.10493420583138084,0.05681735448039965,0.0,0.0,0.05653201609595975,0.0,0.0,0.04261353055857674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047401041028244606,0.05227421729734853,0.0,0.24254412514132995,0.0,0.13891052953091765,0.0,0.0,0.06682555085507436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0480576071807895,0.0,0.0,0.05470490025787927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074870779238749,0.0,0.07984129967714931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04538207304240703,0.0,0.0,0.04848115203395334,0.05454116972978939,0.03661427663066441,0.0,0.0,0.035727068813421616,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,AGuyCalledMeFugly,2020/01/07,"Have you ever feel like nothing matters anymore? Hello beautiful people 🤗❤️

I used to be a person with a lot of dreams and with a lot of strength for making them come true. But this have changed, nowadays I don't want to do anything, I have no motivation, I feel like empty. I am on antidepressants but I still feel the same 🙊 I feel like a failure at such a young age 🙊 Do any of you know how to get motivation?

Thank you very much ❤️🤗",0.35627659574467785,2.381710797872344,2.7632340425531936,91.99400000000004,84.63829787234042,5.4621276595744686,22.16595744680852,6.742157984588678,0.4624246808510635,341,12,78,4,10,117,61,94,0.10300000000000001,0.645,0.252,0.9163,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,1,3,4,6,0,0,6,0,8,0,0,5,2,23,19,4,0,1,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,7,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,11,6,11,18,4,7,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,2,7,49,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13463952884515346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19635220689658467,0.0,0.0,0.16292834287835364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20944645107191792,0.17055027041690846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17909267757256198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40043740207882106,0.4243308352990077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10344124945350512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10880975394113676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901827468749277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366468841537017,0.0,0.0,0.13215941037930545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14554493319927395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18997609502531548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372608672468471,0.17287663986218196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15811452893894304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822819677270759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709992058747884,0.0,0.1633619264268391,0.11677923231215954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,personalact,2020/01/07,"Can people with Schizophrenia have bad social skills/skewed ideas about relationships? Forgive me if this is a weird or insensitive question to ask. I just got done dating a girl with Schizophrenia, and it was all very confusing and strange. She doesn't seem to know how she feels about me and see's me in a strange way.. It's all very confusing, and when we talk about it she doesn't seem to understand how I would feel the way I do. I was wondering if maybe her schizophrenia could be the cause of her bad social skills.",6.432904290429042,6.717752306930696,5.462128712871287,85.88382013201321,65.53465346534654,9.10957095709571,29.704620462046204,8.841846274778883,1.974087788778878,417,13,86,6,6,124,63,101,0.18899999999999997,0.79,0.021,-0.9327,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,1,7,6,0,2,5,0,12,0,0,3,2,30,22,10,0,4,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,7,0,0,10,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,4,3,13,1,10,15,2,5,0,0,1,0,14,1,0,9,2,57,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16983744310974594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30337464634303946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866257011426362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14504915371237564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18591205014337614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18371618013079516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14529853696394154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2050839410516793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09984138470213418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825124884305344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12594748682875165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.203512596351698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195046185359082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14476790958489674,0.33077209632997145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3703805004556688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460199087511987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891254523805348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997944642148023,0.0,0.28840325742726897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19701396492255155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290535482987378,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,cunket,2020/01/07,how is everybody? just checking in!,2.0500000000000007,1.7760740000000013,3.2799999999999976,76.89000000000003,142.33333333333334,7.866666666666667,36.333333333333336,7.1686216300943375,4.9949333333333366,28,2,4,1,2,9,6,6,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,aryabhata5501,2020/01/07,"Abilify No prior history of psychiatric/recreational drug use. I developed depersonalization/derealization disorder in December 2016, and recovered completely in August 2019. What I'm experiencing currently is very, very different to anything I experienced then. 

- September 1st to 5th (2019) : Took 5 mg of Abilify (Noticed my confidence levels beginning to decline, slight depression/dread/panic beginning to creep in, creativity/cognitive abilities seemed slightly diminished)

- September 6th to 15th (2019) : Increased dose to 10 mg (Symptoms listed above became worse, and developed severe restlessness)

- September 15th to 23rd (2019) : Tapered over a period of 1 week. Restlessness improved but other symptoms became slightly worse

- September 23rd to 30th (2019) : Depression continued to increase. On the 30th I started experiencing the worst case of depersonalization I've ever experienced. Severe depression, thoughts and emotions gone, could barely function cognitively. I'm a bit calmer now and the depression has subsided, but the main symptoms haven't improved still. During my previous episode of depersonalization/derealization I could read, think and function more or less normally. I'm profoundly gifted and could make it through a 300 page novel in about an hour. Loved reading, writing, puzzle solving, had very strong opinions, etc. Now my mind is completely blank. I struggle to have conversations (have started stammering a lot because I words don't come to my mind), read and generally do anything I was easily able to do before",10.784776970954354,13.049218128630711,10.261138485477185,48.32332598547722,56.510373443983404,14.489730290456428,47.01270746887967,13.328392162939545,7.874072406639002,1263,77,148,51,16,408,148,241,0.159,0.705,0.136,-0.7979999999999999,2,0,1,0,0,0,54.0,0,0,0,1,5,10,0,3,9,0,14,6,0,2,1,29,30,11,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,8,0,0,3,4,0,5,3,8,0,0,5,4,11,2,25,22,10,28,0,3,0,1,3,7,0,5,16,84,14,3,0.1102597005556182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814686776438612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06721329006516426,0.0,0.09382288416215663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203750359946603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09497896896756326,0.23121039650795275,0.0,0.0,0.26410019694051257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28489955557029617,0.0,0.0,0.11519791949962482,0.12636716928921288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278662475063702,0.0,0.0,0.12402732257510048,0.0,0.0,0.12296871195507425,0.0,0.09973621163954366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10858359492195488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937388544881819,0.09951368457756776,0.0,0.07359920630148155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226617321074752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080310961934391,0.0,0.12553139987894607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33086861518946503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003762903210908,0.0,0.24912415490369985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560847671136617,0.0,0.08805353929197822,0.0,0.0,0.1152673789683346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3438061396878344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07064996402446293,0.0,0.08753388611309401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12250258429781173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09522897986944097,0.0,0.2729274008651091,0.0,0.0,0.08844368102310479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2247281092318469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Amis666,2020/01/07,Can you have a pain hallucination ? When I was a child I used to feel sensations of being smacked in the face. I don't know if I was slapping myself without realizing it or having a pain hallucination. I percived it as as a white hand appearing in the air and slapping me. Could this have possibly been from hallucinating a pain ? Or does that not happen and I was slapping myself without being aware of it ?,3.645659340659343,5.892541038461541,5.548021978021982,75.13269230769235,74.51282051282051,8.046886446886448,29.091575091575088,8.841846274778883,2.579111355311355,323,14,59,7,7,111,50,78,0.138,0.82,0.042,-0.8042,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,7,0,12,5,2,1,0,14,17,8,0,2,6,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,4,3,10,0,10,10,0,5,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,4,1,51,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18479665165225204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20254637010855708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11702975878726653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20467341663526709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12720069795005348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7388479900816819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2609288547337892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19990136498190056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44622550421728296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,StruggleBuddy92,2020/01/07,"Not Schizophrenic but 50 hours awake I just recently got over the flu that came on suddenly. I didn't eat for two days from no appetite and now I'm 50 hours in  without sleep. Coffee facilitated this quite a bit. In my defense I needed the coffee for an exam. Anyhow I'm listening to a podcast with my headphone on and I hear people talking outside my headphones. I'm thinking maybe the TV is on, but it's 2 am and everyone's asleep. Soon as the took off my headphones the chatter slowly faded. I'm getting more tactile vision changes as well. I could never pretend to understand schizophrenia but this was an interesting experience because my anxiety shot up for a moment when my reality seemed to break ground. It must be terrifying to have to live in this state constantly. When cracks form in your perfectly steady worldview it's highly stressful to say the least. For the meantime I am looking forward to some hallucinations if and when they come. But I'm certainly lucky to put those flames out with a warm glass of milk and some bed rest",4.002853154662201,6.371978165829147,4.850309882747073,79.97944025683977,73.87437185929646,7.638302624232272,30.151032942490225,8.515128840125781,2.5411270798436627,841,38,150,16,18,272,132,199,0.086,0.784,0.13,0.7948,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,2,7,8,1,1,13,0,9,6,2,0,4,32,26,15,0,4,8,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,8,10,2,1,3,2,0,5,5,2,1,1,5,5,14,6,30,18,7,34,0,0,1,0,6,14,0,6,15,101,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298428323976346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10346571067987316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853009819222931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194125674618298,0.0,0.0,0.1795516229881392,0.14620719376098196,0.0,0.18341761613941487,0.0,0.1355154342276273,0.0,0.0,0.10946167957745022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736759584489241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621840974714719,0.0,0.16602831295490333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08867681513935206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13574842613940405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19129782013975571,0.0,0.0,0.17932885246919325,0.0,0.0,0.3342993269897471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498745229577581,0.0,0.14253028442299165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17051639729434984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12585249603100726,0.13090608523853484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11766927231661894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17062532864396626,0.0,0.18052853471028524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16758770110373522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13497594938262528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15451563527707154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16985237679051834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19442491239573825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13642238395637665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108756002424692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18857605292354748,0.0,0.0,0.16580135185528158,0.17669470760006167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15260747389254026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16361347033830334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,416cj,2020/01/07,I have a fear of schizophrenia? I don’t mean to be offensive by posting this here and I hope no body is offended if so I’m truly sorry. I’m a 20 year old male with no family history of mental illness besides anxiety. For the past year I have developed this obsessional fear that I’m schizophrenic or that I’m in the early stages of the illness. My specific fear is starting to hallucinate. It’s like I’m so scared of hearing voices that my mind is tuned into every little sound in my environment and kind of makes up “voices” but there not really voices if that makes sense. It’s just because I obsess over it. I had no symptoms before I read and article that schizophrenia can develop in the late teens and 20’s ( I was 19 at the time I’m 20 now ) I then had a panic attack and started obsessively researching. It has been a downward spiral ever since and I’m convinced that I’ve somehow willed myself into developing the illness. I wanted some people with lived experience take on my situation. Pretty worrying.,2.811969696969697,5.294213984848486,5.017464646464648,76.72286363636366,78.34343434343434,8.000404040404039,26.56666666666667,8.841846274778883,2.5513406060606063,811,33,142,20,20,281,120,198,0.221,0.713,0.066,-0.9747,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,8,14,3,7,10,0,14,6,1,2,1,25,30,13,0,4,6,0,0,1,0,1,5,5,0,1,12,10,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,10,0,0,4,5,15,4,20,24,1,25,0,0,0,0,2,11,0,6,13,95,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10919284844371928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16238310216764235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08701069944924364,0.0,0.12145804449357993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585478076075722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291131192471151,0.1202614554677765,0.0,0.0,0.13962345151507508,0.13455904300965715,0.4818539276424002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16087413911431858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417693129732462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486378502556735,0.0,0.0,0.16101271877308734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06973372689593056,0.14305923098235312,0.12603873289504225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905551242319011,0.0,0.0,0.15548163203604085,0.0,0.0,0.1438445784564065,0.0,0.14412293336978596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14977769436219934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16747024721755946,0.0,0.0,0.13625791140153254,0.09895535072127226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367018814214551,0.1452140913376825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14277488675987807,0.0,0.09144050331946688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14290389710294832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11807290951656345,0.16044153699287025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15978155741689656,0.2020589194006868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14835762719039636,0.10731990399936382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08323066123594385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08418954449434399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14495560091832765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18383494368307715
schizophrenia,Un-UsedUsername,2020/01/07,"Worried I may have beginning signs of Schizophrenia I’ve been worried that I might have early signs of Schizophrenia. I am a 21 year old male and it does not run in my family as far as I know. For the past year or so, at night time or low visibility, my brain has been registering threats from my peripheral vision. I know %100 that whatever I see (pile of clothes on a table or something like that) is not a threat or a person staring at me but I still get paranoid and look directly at whatever it is. It’s so bad that whenever it gets dark my brain is constantly scanning for threats and registering things as someone watching me. I know in my head that nothing is there and no one is watching me but I still give in and stare directly at whatever I might think is looking at me until I recognize that it’s an inanimate object. If you’re reading this please reply. I’m getting desperate.",5.490284090909089,5.9696197329545475,6.405681818181819,77.63477272727273,67.57954545454545,10.03636363636364,34.75,10.018931242160765,3.427188636363637,707,33,138,16,11,235,101,176,0.141,0.8109999999999999,0.049,-0.9456,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,3,0,6,0,15,3,3,0,0,23,28,18,0,1,9,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,13,5,0,0,4,1,0,1,3,5,0,1,2,8,20,1,19,23,0,24,0,1,8,0,3,11,0,8,13,94,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289487183729809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448062679989564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16689188714792708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13514914682863305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455897686571263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420613897897138,0.14815035789518444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15849725412162533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546241504314686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545027773160606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593769196629769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3276671998342061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144928970843659,0.0,0.14818678180964412,0.0,0.16205599701407933,0.0,0.10465073060183357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14742790491775873,0.0,0.1348487182444077,0.0,0.16952580993768707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15447912134694824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12306655567650612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308542471958995,0.11889340053720475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466676999302208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10260129864823044,0.09895720414076953,0.0,0.0,0.09005364814946737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31367720713857083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989051521419797
schizophrenia,doledipp,2020/01/07,"Living in a World that will always underestimate Me. Hello Everyone, new user here.

It’s been a year since I’ve been diagnosed with schizophrenia after first coming to university. I study clinical psychology and am a second year student. 

Why do I feel the need to be so cautious of people finding out what I have? Why do people feel the need to be surprised that a person with schizophrenia can be in university? I always feel that I am treated as someone people should feel sorry for or pity. I don’t know how to talk about my thoughts, hallucinations or feelings without being treated this way. How does the world go from treating us as monsters/crazy people to people that they must feel pity for?

I worked so hard to go to CBT, SST and to take my meds (brexpiprazole) to feel better and not be treated this way. How can I get my friends and family to understand that I’m not a broken individual and that they should listen to what I have to say without making inferences based on society’s image of schizophrenia?",7.290241477272726,7.46283394270834,7.626647727272727,71.47176136363639,63.73958333333334,9.898484848484847,33.60037878787878,9.573946990214177,3.1470458333333324,815,31,141,14,11,267,107,192,0.068,0.875,0.055999999999999994,0.4179,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,0,2,3,7,9,0,0,8,0,20,2,0,5,1,36,40,14,0,5,6,0,8,0,1,4,2,2,0,1,11,9,0,0,12,0,0,3,5,2,0,2,3,10,16,7,29,28,0,16,0,2,0,0,9,6,0,2,5,101,27,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20973769070841689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11146519513084656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856553791655904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279199796956147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11029158412686768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204291206921509,0.0,0.0,0.1188118948188336,0.0,0.44607949457699375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11519110219666448,0.10720288274294756,0.0,0.0,0.0973721267593778,0.0,0.06584659679652663,0.0,0.14325395096373567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290005151727893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06926397383194531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11128869781535301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0841274390447528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13999330717501904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18690248514152386,0.0,0.12172263620811342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4368741207832757,0.11004641243878277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002258245546983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042550971875505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067866320404093,0.0,0.0,0.14108267396375046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09476049220285117,0.10129986847497996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10005544948629984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13120391332433282,0.15160115899652835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000769093406128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22744882537009656,0.0,0.0,0.24298099102717616,0.0,0.09175290652366697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16232114545681187
schizophrenia,dillydron,2020/01/07,"Voices Seems like the best place to ask this question, but if comfortable, could someone describe their “voices”? Are they usually in your head or outside like a conversation between people?",9.718064516129033,11.499921612903233,7.96467741935484,65.56701612903228,58.67741935483871,10.070967741935485,41.30645161290322,10.125756701596842,4.826600000000001,154,8,20,3,2,46,29,31,0.0,0.677,0.32299999999999995,0.9083,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,2,1,0,4,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,6,4,3,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,4,3,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,4,3,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926094494191672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32847048647415256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499022137248536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212246792262315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3058285318087213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169923433955303,0.0,0.3270146947971205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506276806690713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849402323131849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652008945759885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447213935306067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,account9069316716,2020/01/07,"Respect to you guys I like to feel bad for myself for having to struggle with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD). Got diagnosed with it when I was 12 and have gotten some help through therapy. I know what it's like to struggle with mental problems, although I believe you guys have it worse. I couldn't imagine seeing people or hearing voices that are not actually there (I'm not 100% read up on Schizophrenia so I realize it might differ from case to case but I believe those 2 are quite common are they not?).

Anyways, whoever you are, wherever you are, I hope everything goes well and works out for you.",5.609210526315788,6.983318298245614,6.011359649122809,77.34493421052632,67.7719298245614,9.208771929824564,33.54824561403509,9.516144504307137,3.298477192982455,482,22,84,10,8,155,78,114,0.11,0.77,0.12,0.4854,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,5,1,2,5,10,0,3,0,0,11,1,0,0,0,20,19,7,0,3,5,0,1,2,0,1,1,2,0,2,7,6,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,5,1,0,3,4,15,5,16,14,1,5,0,0,1,0,10,3,0,4,4,63,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.1670877160165408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14296299823327405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3858165278965391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17378645859224753,0.0,0.1788902721944212,0.1962349442487928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538830565320851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08657485472851324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13694166426673032,0.0,0.0,0.3390728776126583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19297934131209515,0.0,0.114766320931167,0.0,0.0,0.17006181842815699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940989886718418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16730058364509948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17255123884210816,0.18163920472440667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187035934217398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16383607805047912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18211539311308866,0.17126807176417042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13644155602125005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3579962709109522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19580697807368527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15394890422467922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12465146358087048,0.0,0.17448957761061668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,climaxing_,2020/01/07,"My diagnosis changes every 6 months So I'm going to keep this short. 

Since age 14, (19 F) I have been diagnosed with unspecified mood disorder, generalized anxiety, PTSD, hypomania, MDD, Seasonal depression, and borderline features. 

It seems as if no therapist has been able to pin down whats actually wrong with me. I feel like I'm losing my mind. My mother is diagnosed with schizo and bipolar II although I think she is missing some diagnosis as well. 

I need some help. Over the past two years I have had extreme obsessiveness in cleaning, to extreme depression and not cleaning for months. When I get angry I cannot speak without spitting the most hateful shit i can think of. ive laid hands on my partner and dog multiple times. I feel like I have no control with my anger (luckily medicated on something that works now) please dont judge. I'm getting therapy and I'm medicated. 

I want to know everyone's initial signs of bipolar and schizo because I am afraid i have some features and i need to know whats going on. I havent been able to sleep this past week cuz I lay up all night thinking of how horrible of a person I am and what is wrong with me.",3.2269494047619034,5.5485272008928606,4.689642857142856,80.4386904761905,76.09821428571428,8.373809523809525,30.309523809523807,9.107695989026183,2.9028863095238093,919,44,174,23,21,306,134,224,0.203,0.7390000000000001,0.057999999999999996,-0.9871,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,3,5,15,3,2,3,0,19,10,4,3,1,39,41,16,0,4,3,1,3,2,1,0,6,1,2,2,7,13,0,2,8,0,0,2,7,11,1,1,4,4,26,3,26,37,5,22,0,4,0,0,6,8,1,6,14,105,33,1,0.2412824196487309,0.0,0.11772841808484508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09229019530612736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07354176175770727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12762240354061613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135309375148314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20781619448885905,0.2448965769884286,0.0,0.0,0.13826527832298052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413905994253092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10164542248974212,0.11527784595264892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219996410999376,0.1723722088075604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12606010570184145,0.0,0.1371263594419166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11910821827474592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08086325993771078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10723145042065513,0.0,0.0,0.13260250775853588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178784025945933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13496665496710722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430666535981217,0.0,0.0,0.12181323097954773,0.0,0.19258932539505955,0.0,0.0,0.17890785689109578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132136029604861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303313712295736,0.0,0.10533925107024787,0.0,0.13242782051177354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14102311834375014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10982722645713833,0.0,0.0,0.12383646822394187,0.0997956554385786,0.0,0.12072833546330156,0.0,0.0,0.0928754973190377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379637374198525,0.14007374302652315,0.0,0.23190604793071345,0.0,0.0,0.07034685961949742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11784893214500328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07115731126037697,0.0,0.09677110155550804,0.0,0.10847093605895368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11629382117907625,0.0,0.0878282375820124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26380444873709186,0.0,0.07768898374945725
schizophrenia,MetaphysicallyMystic,2020/01/07,"Any suggestions? I'm 16 male, and I hear multiple voices, see and feel things that aren't there, I have an ""reoccurring hallucination"" of a woman that I see at least 5 times a week -usually more, I get thoughts that aren't mine, I walk around without knowing it, my social life and academic life are deteriorating fast, I can't sleep, when I do, my dreams are weird, and I ""leave my body"" without moving. Those are just the big things. One of my friends who's mom was a phycologist for a bit, thinks I might have schizophrenia or phycosis or something. My parents refuse to take me to get and professional help. I had a type 3 serious concussion about 14 months ago that took about 10 months to recover from. I had to beg my parents to take me in, but they still made me go to school, even tho the doctor said not to. Can anybody offer advice or help or personal experience please? I'm sorry if this is the wrong sub, I'm just desperate for answers.",5.864545454545457,5.968814623655916,6.484115347018572,78.69162756598244,66.74193548387098,10.204496578690128,31.425219941348967,10.018931242160765,2.8096193548387096,744,27,153,16,11,244,121,186,0.08,0.85,0.07,0.2168,2,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,1,0,10,4,0,0,9,0,15,5,2,1,0,25,33,13,0,1,11,3,1,0,1,1,3,3,0,3,10,6,0,1,5,1,0,4,6,3,0,1,7,6,22,1,19,25,3,17,0,0,2,0,17,4,0,6,9,97,32,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13366294931095027,0.1212500441041324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09301725907754976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217660380114464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493318159524015,0.1519352875178357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14000339003501427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09034400636187184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13380020556753736,0.0,0.0,0.06916169027957693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10567835258662392,0.0,0.14292714156461475,0.0,0.07773703853045699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15416459520535766,0.0,0.1833657767641329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07517246353518776,0.0,0.0,0.14483364731439366,0.0,0.0,0.1932280232294351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294275607974086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451053479578136,0.0,0.16019881789672688,0.21835807308998026,0.14537888305307672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09268782890507199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3037630885737851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943380474103382,0.0,0.15014686640154992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301121358610225,0.0,0.0,0.13843188986641447,0.2179969846532665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368819722746872,0.13943323576547514,0.0,0.1053023815845348,0.0,0.15311758158316102,0.0,0.0,0.10923523149841904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20568787063758948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18174534587298444,0.0876451445066474,0.0,0.1085905733080642,0.07975937754044829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15197115598674338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15064735820075045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10971922365432196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637082263291966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14955094468666108,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,optimisticpessimist5,2020/01/07,"I've read a lot of stories on here and I really want to help. I've experienced some symptoms in the past of this disease. I've seen it fell many. This disease is something we need to figure out! When I read your stories it makes me want to help further the research! Idc what anyone else says there has to be something we are missing in this puzzle. 

My heart goes out to anyone who is affected by this terrible illness. Truth is I only want to see people get better and not be afraid to live a life they want to without being held back by their own brains. Sorry I had to rant, this just pisses me off seeing how many people are miserable.",3.4218604651162785,4.878049519379847,4.442550387596898,86.18801162790699,73.18604651162791,6.710387596899222,25.3031007751938,7.1686216300943375,1.1056784496124026,504,16,100,5,10,164,84,129,0.138,0.738,0.124,-0.456,0,0,2,0,0,0,10.0,2,1,2,1,6,7,1,2,4,0,10,6,3,3,1,23,22,4,0,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,9,6,0,1,1,2,0,1,2,5,0,0,3,5,12,2,20,16,3,11,0,2,3,0,9,7,1,3,3,67,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236372136549684,0.16385521593653965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12296731602852358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414347574003188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17852173200232654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13359123513042567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08355072121500375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895039778163871,0.2143797563861113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11295503795176814,0.0,0.0,0.1412108053857968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13595683595482955,0.0,0.0,0.10674671961985334,0.3242641502866897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118577407111149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1216250876824354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15266013047925375,0.22173445339570688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.319923190040597,0.0,0.10244776999922106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12717346580249073,0.0,0.0,0.2548683908611212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462258695089891,0.0,0.17901546524928938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16621636491797606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3772958711988869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15415555267487868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,gnataral,2020/01/07,"I have a question about hearing voices I’m 17 and have an incredibly extremely high stress home life and have had for about 6 years.
About an hour ago I heard a voice that sounded like the siri male voice but less monotone but I couldn’t work out what it was saying like the only other thing I was listening to was the tv and the tv was like 85% of it and the voice was 15% of the noise and it wasn’t in the tv. And it could have come from no where else but I haven’t heard it since. This is the first time I’ve ever heard a voice - can they just come and go like that? 

I was really scared and wanted to say to my mum “can you hear someone talking?” but I didn’t want her to look at me all surprised and freak me out more.


It wasn’t the tv though I thought about that possibility at lot. It was for like 2 minutes over my tv. Clearly a person talking. My mum didn’t react to hearing anything.


Also this probably sounds stupid but it did sort of sound like it was ‘in my head’.. the way it was so distorted and I couldn’t hear any words",1.843911513323281,3.1803234389140296,3.0272926093514343,95.22644922071396,77.05429864253394,6.1780794369029675,20.87506284565108,6.691623216298621,0.050106887883358375,804,19,193,7,18,259,112,221,0.098,0.7909999999999999,0.11199999999999999,-0.1173,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,1,2,10,11,1,2,16,0,26,2,1,1,3,34,42,18,0,5,6,2,0,6,0,0,1,18,1,2,18,14,0,0,2,5,0,3,8,4,0,1,19,19,18,7,22,20,4,19,0,0,1,0,20,9,0,3,12,127,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113843035245102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10048511022123473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08544873277913054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10340217729646446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164788395690743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10032414681747648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10496742971840876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11366084299208168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10688085786711303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07141181645539592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12895680834412793,0.0,0.5664827981535248,0.0,0.0,0.13275988986988116,0.12604077046926027,0.0,0.12374345015774435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887528287014247,0.3683279079704288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551734761348487,0.0,0.0,0.10682616721742952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955651980523811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097158459335274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416555143027649,0.0,0.0,0.1354757949868662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14076074953239506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08049689103257471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998495158853296,0.12580113861618852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394192711350088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10646585753282392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439357337216759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20199115112217148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08347864497062747,0.0,0.1234539892513314,0.0997548946609725,0.07326960400329052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14822745595715778,0.09973795089541136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09147729156281192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08091677589489918
schizophrenia,rnizzlenay,2020/01/07,"Early Erotomania? Hey guys, so I’ve been wondering this a while....I knew I was an oddball growing up.. Everyday I am growing more and more convinced I may soon be dealing with schizophrenic tendencies. I have battled severe ocd lately and some hallucinations. I am very interactive with inanimate objects because I see faces or patterns—sometimes my mind wants to add meaning to it and other times I brush it off. My therapist calls it highly imaginative...I am still kind of not convinced. The other thing that really stands out is this possible erotomania. I haven’t even talked to my therapist about it because I fear it’s so weird. 

ANYWAY, I have fallen obsessed with many teachers growing up. I always got very attached. They were all I would think about but I never invaded their privacy. It all just stayed in my head. That was when I was in school. I am now OBSESSED with this peer friend who has told me doesn’t have mutual feelings of attraction but I am super convinced they’re secretly in love with me. 

My main symptoms that worry me are believing they are in love with me when they they denied, anything they post on social media makes me think they’re trying to catch my attention to profess their love. Some sort of secret love. If there’s a  tv ad of their interests or a car model that they drive, or a name even somewhat close to theirs, catches my attention, I get all psyched up believing they are thinking of me and communicating they miss me by soul connection. A ton of the time I am convinced they’ve gathered people to watch me for them and those people relay anything I say to them. Sometimes I get paranoia that they’ve bugged my phone or they are watching me. Part of me is comforted because I like that they’re interested but part of me is scared because I don’t want them to know all of me. And part of me is brushing ALL of this off and telling myself they don’t give a shit about you! Stop! And then the obsessing continues. I am wanting to move back to where they live—I moved far away. I am still convinced they love me and will love me even more if I move closer. I have NOT been able to get off this person. Like super obsessively stuck. But I never do anything to invade their privacy. 

Is it Erotomania if the targeted lovers keep changing? Is it Erotomania if it’s not a celebrity but maybe somebody higher up confidence and stature? Is it Erotomania if it all just stays in your head and you rarely act out? Am I becoming schizophrenic?",4.080253164556964,6.152139293248951,4.814622362869201,81.65028797468356,72.73417721518987,8.031139240506329,28.938607594936705,8.769984970463412,2.3898643037974674,1971,81,366,39,40,634,221,474,0.084,0.72,0.19699999999999998,0.9971,0,0,0,0,0,0,46.0,0,3,20,2,20,32,2,6,12,0,40,14,4,1,8,74,68,30,0,9,19,0,1,2,2,3,3,1,0,2,27,21,0,2,12,1,0,12,9,10,0,0,10,7,75,22,51,54,17,54,1,1,3,7,49,21,1,15,19,270,102,2,0.08154910564227537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06785538865702018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20132389652842933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07661806918332045,0.06270622851302794,0.0,0.198846311552392,0.09006458019405579,0.0,0.18375583259902836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08327075459737203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08626814074400008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08407354710797346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16158724550637074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091765415848481,0.04123367808919775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06300463672791898,0.0,0.12781812564863268,0.0782293329670921,0.0,0.0,0.06522226943470287,0.0,0.0,0.08074643571797765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16738581861304386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08616110746765195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248459204992404,0.0,0.08492084441195229,0.04481725576763695,0.0,0.0919909431935078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07968154762476262,0.0,0.07200935433100393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4416075103908652,0.0,0.05443466125540202,0.08267799348301405,0.0819270375624537,0.0888308829839596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08234134966186109,0.0,0.0,0.2600213806463824,0.0,0.0,0.12579139522843508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649292035247581,0.0,0.11307176372473912,0.07120553355119669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919343636333868,0.07810150095042451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05224244525863395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06485112194816826,0.08164488110442045,0.08253204860894743,0.06498407899859356,0.0,0.0,0.0921272773457084,0.08370898504965843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08312904348126622,0.0,0.0,0.1613083013708846,0.0,0.0,0.17384099232180136,0.13025044221439055,0.068178703844174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08476074535719533,0.0,0.0655460820900413,0.07127751275367822,0.0,0.0,0.18936959409489995,0.054177602193085005,0.1567601222610153,0.0,0.0,0.09510387860109286,0.0,0.0,0.07792366515134093,0.0,0.05536648970722196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13457310533624114,0.14429932611685686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08843652641710112,0.0,0.08281707526751912,0.0,0.05793014489012777,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Ein5ti3n,2020/01/07,"Describing my illness LONG I do a lot of things with out really understanding them. I dont feel like I'm really in control of my body. For the past two days I've woken up in the middle of the night and needed to use the restroom but I physically could not urinate, I think my mom has something to do with it. My brain isn't working right everything just seems to be off, I constantly feel like I've just woken up, not as in I'm tired but more in the sense I've just become conscious. You ever get deja vu? I do, almost constantly but it's wrong too. Everything that happens just seems oddly familiar like it happened in a dream which is how I remember most things now. There's no solid memories just a feeling that I remember. It's hard for me to describe which if you knew me would surprise you, I'm not often at a loss for words. I have a spectacular vernacular, a lavishly lined lexicon. It's like when there's a word on the tip of your tongue only instead of a word or phrase its hours even days worth of memory. I dont remember getting up and driving to work today when I try to I feel like I almost can but it's been censored. Fuzzy gray outlines of my room, my car, my coworkers. I could very well have floated down the stairs and to my car. But I'll never know, this false memory feels just as real as what I know I must have done. I've been acutely aware of words that I've heard. I understand them but they make no sense to me. Everything is so cloudy and yet so vivid. My mind is not split, it is shattered each piece is working independently to decode what comes through my senses and each piece is equally correct despite their diametric polarities. I suppose this entire thing could have been one sentence, I dont seem to understand what is real and what is manifested by the conciousness of my leaking mind. I do apologize for rambling but I imagine it's just as hard to comprehend these things as it is to try and explain them. I dont understand it, I dont understand what's happening, I keep waking up but i never know when I'm actually awake",2.971819116135663,4.741742482014388,4.591823227132584,83.36214388489212,75.01918465227817,8.123028434395339,26.78239122987325,8.841846274778883,2.0817927920520733,1633,62,330,35,35,549,197,417,0.094,0.856,0.05,-0.953,0,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,0,4,5,5,23,9,0,0,16,0,35,6,4,5,5,87,71,28,0,7,21,1,7,5,0,2,2,1,1,0,28,13,0,2,24,1,1,4,14,2,1,2,8,10,48,7,48,57,8,39,0,1,2,0,13,18,0,10,22,233,76,4,0.0,0.0,0.07116821626942621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14605578435734135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08054438743275565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100771521807103,0.0,0.08141292013714052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06282190452895206,0.0,0.15762075276371693,0.08179611202196004,0.17468369617636606,0.0,0.0,0.09406638629881783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0746317213891243,0.42736141885098256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048168938622392014,0.06596848580066783,0.0,0.0,0.19663173766271885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18437555230580333,0.1563015476825766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07620481963046319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19347270963639274,0.0,0.13066017806098784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07182040727276237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06482267560005395,0.0,0.0,0.12023966817289497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17814720918318422,0.0,0.0,0.06453989944436757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0620016560647339,0.0,0.0,0.0486806959681502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14727506761506362,0.0854136022675197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054075954041737394,0.1124947326813239,0.0,0.0,0.06843895731552356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04941860031852014,0.05546581606117165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06961901428712873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16601841197114367,0.09344041225262173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478431338706683,0.06228099588035599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19917555842311185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05614433275208215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19380323638062336,0.04672997973303412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08382119537598329,0.0691281961111485,0.0,0.0,0.0990280527186532,0.0,0.07124106843916031,0.3796084777390922,0.0,0.06298726914787442,0.0,0.06017409014107977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0655719592768779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592796142634272,0.0,0.0,0.051806692753274736,0.07973644921920049,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Nerdiant,2020/01/08,"Do I really have it? When I first became ill (not diagnosed until a couple of years later), I couldn't function very well. My self-care was bad, and my relationships with others went downhill due to weird behavior, paranoia, among other things. 

I think back and I thought I wasn't doing very well in school. However, I looked back to around the time I developed it, and grades were decent. I mean, most of the grade was work in the classroom. Outside assignments weren't as common, and for assignments outside of school, my mom would force me to sit down and do my homework until I left the table, but she would get frustrated and do most of it since my cognitive skills were bad. And outside classwork wasn't as common.

 But I find it odd. I thought those with this illness had bad grades during episodes or poor school performance.",5.557639860139859,6.9515147756410265,5.220396270396275,82.8943006993007,67.91025641025641,8.493240093240093,28.925407925407924,8.841846274778883,2.215558974358975,659,23,122,11,11,202,94,156,0.21899999999999997,0.7809999999999999,0.0,-0.9866,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,4,6,7,1,0,5,0,16,3,0,0,0,24,23,15,0,3,4,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,9,10,0,0,5,0,1,1,5,5,2,1,11,1,19,2,19,9,2,20,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,3,12,87,28,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341915523360378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318212272338744,0.3775876065458153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16679217786573208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15299905980531656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13777464924528895,0.12822031638152973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07875601157239484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16378066374736105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265845724363695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16420126674762295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17654617335861084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09656861894539588,0.0,0.0,0.1618395454451857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4576741716497174,0.0,0.0,0.15725585954862853,0.0,0.0,0.12469460898572947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10014569945296764,0.09658882056224724,0.0,0.2393432165362831,0.08789835704847968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487544154026051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27106873337811804,0.13973852487128718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10974132786707587,0.0,0.0,0.2141643278621909,0.0,0.0,0.09707233655176084
schizophrenia,Epadaytus,2020/01/08,"It Has Been A While It has been a while since I last posted something psychotic. I don't have any bad news to share, but something cool did happen because of my medication. I've been on Clonidine for a year and a half I'd say. The doc and I believed that my anger outbursts could be suppressed to only a few per month if my blood pressure was where it should be. For a few months now I have had acid reflex and learned that the pill could be causing it so I stopped taking it four or five days ago. I forgot that med keeps me from having or remembering my dreams/nightmares. I missed them as they bring inspiration for my stories and music. And the acid reflex is going down through the days without it. 

It is weird though when I dream that I am a man crossed with a lobster. Like a mermaid. Or having a break fluid orgasm.",3.9010642570281138,5.048448644578318,4.3062048192771085,88.82790160642574,71.59036144578313,6.497188755020081,27.086345381526108,6.42735559955562,0.9637767068273088,649,22,135,4,12,204,107,166,0.09699999999999999,0.8009999999999999,0.102,-0.0289,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,0,5,9,1,1,14,1,22,4,2,1,0,24,29,16,0,4,6,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,11,6,0,4,3,1,0,3,2,5,0,3,7,4,17,4,13,16,2,20,0,1,0,1,5,3,0,4,13,99,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722291138139562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13212597338579912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622266262992533,0.1184392728989845,0.0,0.0,0.21890179439654397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19959253841448912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3102544677080646,0.0,0.0,0.2506059573604567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104212485491844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17181275029717746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17269663815736475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15837481180069762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09492179654190988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21581583841563026,0.1957298617144821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101658040644675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477686608543992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18607908615796195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22009621177384467,0.0,0.0,0.15450967473843547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607212634851532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991526476844453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16243773490103805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14608423421177272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19089198830314247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18729161899158348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12511838889394591
schizophrenia,UniformScribble,2020/01/08,"Organizing my thoughts So I'm basically posting this partially to hear opinions and partially to figure out myself. So about 9 ish months or so I started hallucinating that I was on a mission from God. This led me to three jobs I thought I had to take to become one of God's soldiers. I met some interesting characters one of which I befriended, his meeting was entirely coincidental, but I thought it basically confirmed everything for me at the time. For the next few months I had constant doubts, but moved forward. Once schooled started I got a new delusion that I was a secret agent of an organization called mother who's purpose was to maintain balance between heaven and hell. I don't know how or when this started. After a few months I heard a booming voice say I was going to hell and a demon had inhabited my head. This has persisted for months until I started seeking help and understanding that I'm flawed as fuck. Eventually they began to fade and I decided to smoke some weed which led me to an idea that my family was replaced by exact duplicates and we're out to get me. That leads me to where I am today, scared and not sure if anything should be trusted. I'm willing to hear opinions. Especially as to trying to figure out what the fuck happened.",5.081622867680956,6.7286477593361065,6.132081604426007,74.94569271553716,69.33195020746888,8.841032733978793,33.720839096357764,9.2995712137729,3.2444520977408944,1014,49,180,21,18,337,141,241,0.128,0.809,0.063,-0.963,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,2,7,10,4,2,11,0,15,3,1,4,2,38,39,20,0,2,6,1,0,0,0,2,0,6,0,0,14,10,0,0,10,0,0,6,2,6,0,3,16,6,27,4,34,20,4,31,4,0,0,2,13,7,4,8,19,127,41,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078272326517615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14471328952591056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13379715747440815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14159780933855287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11776208742094507,0.0,0.1235242327009174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422718360408369,0.06845821588537046,0.0,0.07446785694796149,0.0,0.10479734807961767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11587015614360703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344754640464069,0.0,0.2953626029294912,0.0,0.08782722297732877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14791789101955186,0.0,0.0,0.13002790946273832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07201113351868905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4183503271462116,0.13926506683438095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12655042041764253,0.13935280537905076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.139543588770683,0.17757980273497964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254913429351987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10420099850956502,0.13118474867828595,0.13261022501608682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3709772665008484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12349503420444588,0.0,0.09851889920253164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120715979873788,0.07640514778053302,0.0,0.1242019335808896,0.0,0.0,0.08896135237371998,0.0,0.0,0.13640774558354096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jmal2000,2020/01/08,"Paper on Knowledge, Thoughts, The Mind's Eye and Making Your Own Particle Everything \[ \] is for focus recognition and focus emphasis for the reader.

Descartes thought I think therefore I am. Reality and Consciousness may be an illusion. Eastern Philosophy indicates that consciousness is all around us. Consciousness is our recording of our reality, each moment is a snapshot of reality for the perceiver. We call these snapshots ""Now"" for they are instantaneous in the now.

I call thoughts and ideas, \[Knowal\]'s(Know Now Object/Origin Word/Wrap All Learned), Knowing a conscious observation of an object, it's origin, it's word and everything wrapped up with it all learned. I believe google tried something similar when they tried creating Knol, the supposed to be competitor to Wikipedia. Knowals are data signatures that we continuously update in our minds like advanced concepts such as mastering memory, approximation, generating imagination, frontal field of view, inside head view, back of mind view. All humans visualize stories quite well that I believe is a natural instinct for our own screen capture technology. A story is a Knowal also. From \[object recognition\] to \[object classification\], thoughts may be stored within \[words\], words build up with meaning and intent when used to store memory to each assigned word. Within that memory we store many other things such as objects visual image and strings of data such as text serving as data signatures. That storing of memory is a knowal. A knowal is a \[data signature\]/\[select focus idea\]/\[group of compiled thoughts\]. Knowals are thought constructs made up of data, every update to the knowal is a touch. Touching a knowal is to re-summarizing it.

Orchestrated objective reduction (Orch OR) is a biological philosophy of mind that postulates that consciousness originates at the quantum level inside neurons, rather than the conventional view that it is a product of connections between neurons. The mechanism is held to be a quantum process called objective reduction that is orchestrated by cellular structures called microtubules. Which have oscillating dipoles via quantum superposition. Consciousness is based on non-computable quantum processing performed by qubits formed collectively on cellular microtubules, a process significantly amplified in the neurons. The qubits are based on oscillating dipoles forming superposed resonance rings in helical pathways throughout lattices of microtubules. 

\[The Life's Addition Theory\] The brain must eventually come to a conclusion that life is a series of adding things up. From one \[focus\] to another \[focus\], life is a series of added focuses. Look at your life as one straight line of addition of observations accumulating and forming into what we have as our conscious thoughts or our conclusions. Due to the nature of the brain, thoughts are quantum superpositioned into reality. With the shear amount of operations in our brain happening at once, objects get focused and refocused, out of focus objects get stored into \[Background Build\] of the Mind. Background Build collects, piles up and filters all data being taken, all at the same time keeping it hidden within the background of our mind. The conscious may pull objects/knowals from the background build to the surface such as reciting letters in your head internally out loud.  

\[Subvocalization\] is reading with your mind's voice aloud internally in your head. When you recite the alphabet ""ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ"" You can feel each letter in your mind/head with your \[minds voice\] if you practice reading and subvocalization. Each letter announced in your head is tangible, just like reading any word out loud in your head would be tangible. Placing a sphere with your imagination over this tangible subvocalization can be used as good practice into tapping into your ability to use your Mind's Eye. Since you know mentally where the letters arise in your mind, you can Also once you achieved such task, the mind's eye is also used as ability to \[recall\], \[re-draw\] and \[re-vision\] it.\[\[Thoughts\] are how you \[perceive\] them to the conscious observer.\] So holding an imagination sphere with your mind's eye can be considered as a thought in itself. Your ability to hold the sphere with mental vision of it in focus is called your mental \[Focus Hold Strength\] which is determined by elapse time of visual seen.

Let's try and create a spinning thought or an imagination particle. From using your imagination, recite the alphabet in your head and imagine a perfect sphere on top of the count of the alphabet. You should subvocalize the alphabet with your Mind's Voice out loud as you do this. For every letter counted the sphere spins 90 degrees forward. Put an arrow inside the sphere to give it depth and rotate that arrow 90 degrees every letter. Practice this a couple of times, see if you can really manifest a sphere on top of the alphabet count. Just imagine a sphere over the letters being counted out in the alphabet, try to visualize it and let me know if you can do this. I think this is good practice for imagination because the reciting the alphabet is so tangible in the mind and feeling in the brain that it gives you a good grounds to imagine a sphere and place it over the letters. This is called using your minds eye. Once you get good enough at visualizing, the recall/pull of these visualizations again comes from your Background Build membrane wall that filters data and images for your subconscious pool of thoughts.",10.415560806171491,11.612466858233375,9.138121289228163,59.79268942606731,57.08069792802617,12.332396300335233,43.91714124156872,11.89002406972892,5.9446635728422,4547,247,615,127,54,1407,358,917,0.0,0.9420000000000001,0.057999999999999996,0.992,0,0,1,0,0,0,182.0,13,35,3,11,25,9,0,0,73,0,59,22,18,13,8,157,100,45,0,7,9,0,4,2,0,6,4,7,0,1,39,51,0,5,45,4,5,6,0,0,1,2,15,24,58,9,136,68,18,85,1,0,13,0,70,62,0,9,21,433,97,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961669070213228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02725889876343756,0.042032192287267504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035683787459396515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030822578832961606,0.0,0.024435196705355537,0.0,0.0,0.09032322259858636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789906565664064,0.2455851157616141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0690586575168152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04435284130215896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04141810132112463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10131899889421077,0.0,0.07205089758635533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04053595068991302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06282763845808167,0.07690559102680647,0.0,0.13448422398790286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035446674462281835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28796850794924794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905012559682586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035629029294429224,0.0,0.0,0.11014722394666064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08197842721318788,0.11325173791842245,0.03916661616296011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03366096374790147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037929012443097626,0.0267567780358789,0.04063948721380743,0.0,0.043663874522541765,0.0,0.0,0.12118752952784567,0.0,0.6475842164579556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12806635450605208,0.054324717149959116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08375973919122168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040296088829188136,0.0,0.04263490027361818,0.120286325635076,0.0,0.025679217608764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03194223198107685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033158390725198945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03085907913894336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05326084678271654,0.05136917911592564,0.0,0.3818722857013438,0.07012094807041952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10885923355129884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04821683159871605,0.2077213169809839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036040864347892776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0284749457912284,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TwoOddSocks,2020/01/08,"Help with paranoia? Please Hi all, lately I’ve been unable to sleep because i hear people walking around my room, unlocking my doors, knocking on my windows, unlocking and opening my bedroom doors; after much, much investigation i have decided that this may not be the case. 

Does anyone have any tips to combat this? Please. I haven’t slept for days.",5.728571428571428,7.890339317460318,5.4319365079365065,78.56028571428574,68.52380952380952,7.5796825396825405,30.06031746031745,8.238735603445708,2.337275555555556,279,11,46,4,5,86,49,63,0.068,0.815,0.11800000000000001,0.504,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,6,2,2,0,1,8,8,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,7,0,7,4,3,8,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,3,29,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17704996716088806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18204589858207845,0.0,0.0,0.2317706761630577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15870966805364312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16790709420711306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22783795071313198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934384090561526,0.0,0.1745101128353719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29369118178159204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3827809836292767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804970074314404,0.0,0.0,0.5715820489516172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26054249433372306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Drunk_Seal,2020/01/08,This made me cry... Recently ive gotten REALLY REALLY into harry potter. I was talking abour some hp memes to my friend at school and someone said this “you know harry potter is just a crazy schizo guy who imagined it all” i shrugged it off bc i was at school but it truly hurt. Ive been diagnosed with schizophrenia but my parents wont accept and in our comunity being mentaly ill means that youre automaticaly the worst somehow. So ofc i cant tell anyone about it. I dont blame the person who said it as they dont know im schizo but it still made me cry...,0.4242028985507247,2.8368067826087007,2.5860869565217404,90.17681159420292,89.86956521739133,5.153623188405797,18.10144927536232,6.742157984588678,0.1822579710144927,440,12,91,6,15,148,78,115,0.154,0.775,0.071,-0.8984,1,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,2,1,0,5,4,0,0,3,0,11,2,0,2,1,18,19,7,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,2,11,4,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,8,2,15,2,9,9,3,7,0,1,0,0,14,5,0,2,2,59,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11526384420134599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3621502010189646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16731476733037234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3863955231463325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12735926609725168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16322301543329942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17647057496542964,0.0,0.1780614859506015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18118961078081247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119616979722259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17956513442755334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18304147955221092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439367793565116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112085659980356,0.0,0.16276509745142642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31361174219710863,0.0,0.0,0.3336650026483036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13967310295349958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13164587235780725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13249661206027874,0.14408228005103824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,exporius,2020/01/08,"How do I try to get the voice to hold a real conversation with me? For context, the voice claims to be a 9 year old girl who’s name is Zoey. I have seen her visually and it’s really scary but she repeats the same sort of things out loud. She will only hold a conversation with me in my mind and I feel that isn’t good enough, how do I get her to talk to me and figure out why she is so cruel all the time?",-0.2258730158730131,1.4324706373626377,2.2280586080586104,97.09749694749695,84.38461538461539,5.8026862026862025,15.605616605616605,6.937597516519254,-0.5318947496947497,312,5,81,4,9,107,61,91,0.10400000000000001,0.853,0.043,-0.7619,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,7,0,8,0,0,2,1,20,12,7,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,4,7,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,13,1,12,9,3,7,0,0,1,0,11,3,0,1,4,54,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31675438145136603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550039665963353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3203258015707183,0.0,0.0,0.2571246980515767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30953425461765804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32167904093238503,0.0,0.0,0.23314971514565924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34892793623840185,0.19638767665263415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463981674597947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036622399398928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17875531731581867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081314575568476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27661918325153945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974120666820596
schizophrenia,indigo_floyd,2020/01/08,"i’m worried i’m in the acute stages of schizophrenia.. i am a 24F and i am at my wits end. i don’t know if i am schizophrenic (which terrifies me to the core) or if i’m bipolar & always have been, but it’s finally coming to a head? i am drowning in a state of anxiety and depression all at the same time and everyone keeps telling me to just take the antidepressants but they make me feel insane like can’t eat or sleep. 

this will probably be a long post so thank you in advance for reading.

i am at a point in my life where i am questioning my entire life and i know the only way to get an answer logically is to just go see a psychiatrist but all i want to do is quit my job and stay in bed until i feel normal again. but i can’t do that because me & my boyfriend live in a shitty rental house and we want to buy our first house asap.  
i keep talking about myself nonstop to everyone around me, making excuses for my paranoid behavior, wondering all kinds of things that could be wrong with me and i just want an answer. i’m driving everyone around me mad, and now i’m convinced they all hate me which they probably do because of my behavior. i’m a total paranoid mess. i feel like i have no concept of time anymore, everything is going too slow or not fast enough. i’m really sensitive right now and i’m picking up on everyone’s body language and i always feel like it has to do with me, even though i know i’m not that special and not everyone is thinking about me lol. 
it’s like every move i make im questioning and doubting myself and wondering if i’m being rational or not. i’ve always been an anxious person and sometimes i’m depressed and then i’ll do something stupid to make things hard for myself and then feel guilty & bad about it to everyone around me.

here are some examples of the behaviors i’m questioning:

my whole life growing up i constantly changed ideas about what i wanted to do and my whole family kept telling me to go into the military which i battered around with until i was 20 & then finally somewhat got my shit together and got a ship date but then i got into a bad car accident which completely changed my plans. i really don’t know how it happened because it was my fault, i missed a country road stop sign and flew onto an old highway and everyone kept asking me what happened but all i could come up with was “i wasn’t paying attention”. truth of the matter is, is that i had just broken up with my boyfriend because i decided i should be single until i leave for the military and i was acting impulsively, just had gone to a concert the night before and was seeing a new guy and was just in my happy little lala land. 

i have had an insane amount of jobs for my age. albeit most of them were super shitty jobs, but i always want to act on impulse and quit those jobs and then everyone around me gets annoyed but it’s fine because i go get a new one. 

my thoughts are so disorganized right now, and i feel like i should be up cleaning my house right now but i don’t want to get off reddit and out of bed because it’s the only place i feel safe anymore. 

i’m really good at multitasking usually at work, and i graduated high school with an honors diploma. but lately i can’t concentrate on shit, i forget what i’m doing while i’m doing it and i just want to escape wherever i am at or whoever i am with until i feel ok. 

i’m really impulsive & obsessive like i have huge phobias of vomiting and getting sick. right now it seems my obsession is trying to figure out what the fuck is wrong with me. it’s consuming me and i feel i’m going to ruin everything i’ve worked hard for since trying to re-stabilize my life plans after my car accident. 

i feel like because i struggle with my mood swings so much, this year i have been trying to be better and make sure everyone around me is happy that i have totally lost myself and i don’t know where to go or how to deal at all and it feels like a living hell. 

IMPORTANT SIDENOTE: all of these feelings began somewhere in October i’d say, where i realized i suffer the extreme end of OCD. but then i began surfing through all subreddits pertaining to mental illnesses and i really freaked myself out. i felt like i lost myself so i went to see my family doctor and she gave me prozac 10mg. i took it five days and then i couldn’t eat or sleep and felt like i was on lsd or cocaine. 

TLDR: i feel like i’m constantly fighting myself and nobody will take me seriously. i feel like i’m psychotic and don’t know how to deal anymore. my thoughts are racing beyond my control but at the same time i feel like i can’t even move or focus at all.",4.140553797468353,4.877623569620255,5.559237869198314,81.58828718354431,70.68776371308017,9.047362869198313,28.736550632911392,9.271962702966755,2.355162658227848,3656,132,743,74,64,1235,353,948,0.187,0.701,0.11199999999999999,-0.9979,5,0,2,0,2,0,65.0,2,1,4,14,39,57,9,4,35,2,72,20,6,10,13,189,173,84,1,16,35,0,19,13,0,4,11,2,3,2,32,63,2,7,40,2,2,21,16,28,0,3,33,24,125,28,104,127,22,125,1,7,3,1,23,54,4,22,58,497,157,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13341691992145396,0.21716234943421525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03066519002798172,0.045285045990751685,0.1192617150455516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21410680937580945,0.03747439967547059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06693920104012219,0.17104964013442156,0.0,0.03410968820675471,0.0,0.0,0.03545224266218309,0.0,0.044525797413481984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08480998969434253,0.06905997500744802,0.0420287364083581,0.0866360653034711,0.0449591388091367,0.0640097950049086,0.0,0.0,0.02585174046993221,0.08265249027393651,0.06905092218902012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04102906364769255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820346594537957,0.0,0.0,0.07100746047623173,0.04141889148940305,0.0,0.05295200332337298,0.0,0.0337736439475872,0.3447295063561011,0.07205227216249205,0.0,0.07557781819385886,0.0,0.3040254302149125,0.22909590866477866,0.07697646200718697,0.08782310317440316,0.0,0.034096586011688364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03705826860329643,0.1047147284571241,0.0,0.13668860021967635,0.03362169741440163,0.09617977072810913,0.0,0.0,0.039690807765396637,0.07089470141716195,0.08534322038957219,0.07181721645514595,0.039575993258808416,0.04113914310984691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042352382776331736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13875936747227455,0.0,0.04525149126877228,0.043299066559484505,0.0,0.15911413471875613,0.07125941803933257,0.0,0.04174273304895265,0.132179190382506,0.0,0.04521803111165842,0.04244460746631595,0.0,0.0,0.11325389851796525,0.25458786195534183,0.04017606066565728,0.07079221304689415,0.035474281431225364,0.0,0.0,0.08751580946157422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337864424882356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040396613841740564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08520878593473162,0.02946735125260188,0.0,0.0,0.07742937930113497,0.0,0.03761739410150847,0.03927514103513817,0.0,0.0,0.0420628413401738,0.0,0.02716287677435202,0.060973443891484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035000989441615844,0.04188066857343462,0.0,0.037893621125760765,0.0,0.03839069344483855,0.0,0.08643759394249546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13471432862566346,0.0852714273116063,0.0400962068131401,0.0,0.1283985375649861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13693071075087015,0.0,0.031877486501140494,0.0,0.04056852351060218,0.09582852411045564,0.03649220546541337,0.0,0.0,0.08229409024187373,0.03315902331596672,0.0,0.08022861662528677,0.0,0.0,0.030859667863792125,0.039645445175043086,0.0,0.0,0.04272565932253401,0.0,0.03351315514934279,0.0,0.0419059208436228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037779976604050886,0.0,0.06027840278608543,0.032219093274869014,0.07007274145407208,0.03690521306348011,0.0,0.0,0.05326186288510335,0.02568507956468127,0.03938366183613204,0.06364659516718445,0.07012228582727101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044536308942477024,0.08164598276348033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04414835988206789,0.0,0.16550368379970073,0.031817892269943485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037159529526060685,0.0,0.08950774391086558,0.0,0.0,0.08694172413307101,0.05836523774473632,0.04070862800206103,0.0,0.0,0.08765409504136996,0.0,0.025813657039684697
schizophrenia,readthunder,2020/01/08,How do you guys convince or motivate your self to do something in your life like school? I really want to go back to school one of these days but i just dont have any motivation. Everytime i read i book it gets bored i daze off and stop. Repeat and im going crazy. How do you guy keep focus and motivate yourself to study to see if i want to go back to school. I really want to go to a online 3d animation school like ianimate and become a 3d game animator.,1.4677083333333345,3.3523328541666686,3.934583333333333,85.85208333333334,79.83333333333334,8.016666666666666,21.08333333333333,8.841846274778883,1.3826333333333332,358,10,79,9,9,125,59,96,0.129,0.706,0.165,0.1584,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,4,0,3,5,5,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,5,0,18,15,9,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,4,0,2,3,3,0,4,1,2,0,1,0,1,11,3,12,15,0,11,0,0,1,0,8,2,0,2,7,45,13,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10223478887711523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23120081753725905,0.0,0.0,0.16603617428282666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09695537707519113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761946605685922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07854524142925791,0.0,0.3417615096771477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29771591106515904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16239051023126827,0.0,0.0,0.13362705219398874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10618796100804218,0.1468948092584749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187271387655072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15037837995373626,0.0,0.19262035590981566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6085990997672281,0.11979967977390928,0.0,0.1568350048181205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11573730355327867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12568904589859647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660192054236007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,xchestet,2020/01/08,"Tips for my high school thesis? Hello everyone,

My name is Emma and I’m a 17 year old Dutch high school student. To graduate high school, I need to write a thesis and I thought schizophrenia would be an interesting topic, since few people know what it is (most of my classmates think it's having a split personality). For the next 13 months, I’ll do research and write about it.

My main question is “How does schizophrenia effect someone in daily life?” and my sub-questions are about 1) what schizophrenia is 2) medication and therapy and 3) the stigma around it. 

If anyone has some advice (like tips or information that doesn’t appear in a lot of articles) that is important to know before starting, or some suggestions for interesting sub-questions, I would be more than happy to know them.

Thanks in advance,

Emma :)",5.198599999999999,7.272368926666669,5.490333333333336,77.96350000000002,69.73333333333333,7.933333333333334,28.5,8.59863814320734,2.2894,649,24,111,11,12,206,95,150,0.0,0.883,0.11699999999999999,0.9472,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,2,4,5,0,0,7,0,14,2,0,2,0,30,24,10,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,8,7,0,0,8,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,9,5,16,19,7,14,0,0,0,0,9,7,0,9,6,71,17,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14785429492931154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10579654650161632,0.0,0.0,0.13469425737894608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12875010755137553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324087416151643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445791938787099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16106785757370587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4795887143081457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494611629787826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068717744238501,0.07392038028641144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12863479634922725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15242469420554147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12077086098008599,0.0,0.0,0.11219134740992208,0.0,0.0,0.16091545476178293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587700043939826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048964035381068,0.13211440479013836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16949714495710153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4593886992044851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12516173681657558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282009292162095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10709503727407807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13930206932201006,0.17303139016710553,0.0,0.0,0.09695065919023786,0.0,0.12011991905911215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21496662492003987,0.0,0.0,0.09743598651527913
schizophrenia,OmSadasiva,2020/01/08,"My mythology, my pantheon 1. Goddess Annette
2. Isidore
3. Lucifer 
4. Louisa
5. Jesus 
6. Meher Baba 
7. Mr. Thoughtless (childish hebephrenic) 
8. 27000 demons
9. Ian Curtis
10. Archangel Michael 
11. Archangel Gabriel 
12. Meher Baba’s mustache 
13. Captain Beefheart's mustache 
14. Lucifer/Devil/Satan/Beelzebub 

Ideas:
1. Truman show 
2. Matrix 
3. Solipsism 
4. Capgras syndrome 
5. Cameras watching: I give the middle finger to the ceiling and to the sky",2.3847368421052657,4.035370105263162,2.4278947368421058,84.78026315789477,117.68421052631578,2.126315789473684,36.89473684210526,4.4396938790447145,2.2926157894736834,352,25,47,1,19,106,62,76,0.042,0.958,0.0,-0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6475483196550417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7620243918090365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,tweecrowd,2020/01/08,"I think I might have schizophrenia My family has many runs with mental illnesses. My uncle, aunt and grandma all had schizophrenia. I smoked weed about 7 times and I am in an out of reality when I smoke. One day when I smoked with my friends, a wake and bake, for two days in a row I still felt like I was high the next day. I was viewing myself like a movie. I did some research and It was I guess normal to experience these symptoms of feeling out of reality. Recently I watched Uncut Gems and at the end the character dies, I felt an anxiety attack was gonna happen but it didn’t I just felt really stressed and my head start hurting. That whole night I kept going in and out of reality. The next 3 days went by and I was feeling normal. It was I was fearing that feeling of going crazy was going to happen again. I don’t think I hallucinate though when I close my eyes I see images random images and when I am about to go to sleep I think of dumb and random thoughts.  I take Vyvanse(ADHD medicine) and yesterday I felt normal when I took it. I usually feel feel dizzy when the drugs wear off and I jogged around my block yesterday and I felt like I was gonna faint the dizziness The derealization. It all happened at those same time. every-time I think of scizophrenia I get anxiety. Everything felt loud in class. I kept thinking I was going crazy I would hear stuff and think it was an hallucination but is was real. This feeling is on and off. I don’t know what’s real or not right now. I knowww what is real but I just feel like everything is fake. I try not to think I’m going crazy because I feel like I’m gonna get the symptoms if I think about it. I have been getting 4 hours a sleep since Saturday and it seems like it’s Only get that game worse.. also I was shaking when I was trying to go to sleep and I guess they call it anxiety shaking I was pretty much spazzing. Please tell me what I should do.",2.2729521373766914,4.167843324808189,3.675297040555353,88.61006649616371,77.38874680306905,6.821512605042018,23.19188892948484,7.760100539840176,1.0139370259408107,1504,47,320,23,35,494,178,391,0.132,0.7829999999999999,0.085,-0.9620000000000001,0,0,4,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,1,0,18,15,2,4,15,0,34,13,7,0,2,78,88,31,1,6,9,1,14,6,1,6,5,2,1,0,20,24,1,3,25,2,0,13,5,8,0,2,30,20,56,7,34,52,6,56,0,1,4,0,7,16,1,9,33,205,76,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08115736574547297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05400333652584457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15497970473745393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06011559409701794,0.0,0.07682458325484033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041165371486740335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06895519499900474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17420382748097504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07008498512887461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07831280947729266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05981111508261276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12138236499014275,0.06605683308214008,0.06366082593812497,0.07598948964245925,0.27315965389429064,0.09648621191495392,0.3890336026850591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05217314328927936,0.0,0.1411255579644911,0.0,0.2686500958430897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14878276966382195,0.0,0.17914840708725355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06930477463749762,0.0,0.0761106822628586,0.0,0.0,0.07134865050147685,0.0,0.0,0.06650297906849058,0.0,0.07229175289831194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03711246073991031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979490883992082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06846433889440938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06805387781034568,0.07163815413225874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04964197072050187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14363683130426394,0.06337188438013333,0.19849378906810547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045759753632350034,0.05135924655124798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07412713941375236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06870180394897521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305901496987507,0.0432611427319481,0.0,0.06667725884461609,0.0,0.0,0.057669845141171336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05381228812978913,0.061476343079211584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0558611206844156,0.0,0.2027348812242088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047797745173802884,0.0,0.053929165677834186,0.0,0.07735484241548267,0.0,0.07730514951432829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403780655675923,0.05077379844110109,0.0,0.05902378109503815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3461615417751087,0.06634741517742572,0.053610899511540376,0.0787540178518689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07502778670432607,0.09169622906941607,0.0,0.06596653323383693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07437423098658318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06260054597060027,0.0,0.07539430273851021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06881835490475728,0.04797103684881733,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Permanent_Throwaway8,2020/01/08,"A short rant about Somniphobia All things considered, I’m mostly ok. I was forced back home a few weeks ago for the holidays. Currently on break from college and all that good jazz. On a previous post, I’ve mentioned that I used to be convinced this city was hell, or at least a purgatory present on earth. It still feels that way, oppressive and dangerous. Coming back here has not been great, and I can’t wait to run off and hide again. Maybe some day I’ll leave this place forever, that’ll be the day.

Now as the title may suggest, a certain little fear of mine has come back. I’m certain I’m going to die in my sleep, I don’t know how I’ll die, but I have an overwhelming feeling that I won’t be awake for it. Aside from feelings like I’m being watched at night, and fears over death, I’ve been losing sleep a lot lately.

All of my coping mechanisms are two states away, so as of now I just gotta soldier through the next few days and keep living I guess. If you’re still reading, I hope you’re doing alright no matter who you are.",2.8123115161557597,4.280581460093901,3.700226456779895,90.85004142502072,74.77464788732394,7.077492405412871,24.266500966583816,7.724431198458867,0.9934857221761946,813,25,179,11,17,260,139,213,0.171,0.7240000000000001,0.105,-0.9359999999999999,1,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,0,1,13,15,2,3,11,2,19,2,2,2,5,33,36,13,3,2,5,0,3,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,11,8,0,2,4,3,0,4,5,6,0,1,4,4,13,9,23,24,9,38,1,2,1,0,4,12,1,8,19,109,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11972405801863513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12689492384104134,0.3115623576658281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23268741041839386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261310891472586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803454659244958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30396394948228417,0.20487377833663148,0.09648811362679152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07675868309972934,0.11328335558164025,0.0,0.14890601365295872,0.14878570212379405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13547790881553248,0.13414675427960351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120049054823042,0.0,0.0,0.07422638442886817,0.0,0.15235549335856866,0.14301085102473807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06598432997044082,0.13536731682998532,0.11926196563126835,0.0,0.0,0.15109950763388974,0.0,0.11482463719884532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13568764265170108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436396623394656,0.12674626683870302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14111074201652282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293517850373168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13509826103967912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27031850275032304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21572091441655872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08972899966628754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1319356668254793,0.0,0.0,0.11664995400283333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10720569992193177,0.1083383581062297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,victorioushermit,2020/01/08,"I’m not ok I crawled my way out of an episode late last week and I’m not ok. It feels like nothing in my head fits together quite right. Like a jigsaw puzzle where the pieces were cut wrong. Everything feels wrong and awful. And I’m just trying to get back to things being ok and making sense; make all the pieces fit together the way they’re supposed to. They don’t make sense in the way that they do when I’m psychotic, or in the way that they do when I’m entirely not psychotic. I’m stuck in this middle space. And I don’t fit. And I’m afraid I’m going to fall apart entirely and never be able to fit things together again. Help. Please.",1.3463076923076929,3.301494251851853,2.620000000000001,94.7746153846154,80.55555555555556,6.5242165242165235,19.273504273504273,7.61054688173877,0.3510854700854704,504,12,116,8,13,162,72,135,0.11900000000000001,0.7440000000000001,0.13699999999999998,0.3725,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,3,1,6,9,1,1,7,4,7,1,1,3,2,21,23,10,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,8,0,0,2,0,0,2,6,4,0,0,2,2,7,5,11,19,3,28,0,0,0,0,4,14,0,2,10,59,13,0,0.16844115329036569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12952084962839985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513840474291178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17033781638796056,0.12033439356677107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08800355044199451,0.0,0.09572898914281568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17286921854981596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290255446340612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13730202147289924,0.19000895769174772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16458367841275726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3373073333649303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12991220148524618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16162382946513199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848978043838181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791579003556896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438478245631469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22380963528750375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143604863164679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5348029887662703,0.1351133329557905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3683279175755616,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Laboskisota,2020/01/08,"Feeling like I'll die any second Around 2 days ago I felt heart palpitations so I went to the ER, doctor took an ECG and told me I was at no risk but had an arrhythmia so he suggested going to the cardiologist as soon as I could, but the problem is that after that and today I've been feeling the same as back then and I don't know if I am going to die and he's wrong or is it my schizo",2.169655172413794,2.569211195402304,4.57764367816092,88.06922413793106,74.97701149425288,7.639080459770115,22.54597701149425,7.793537801064563,0.7012390804597701,302,7,74,4,6,107,61,87,0.20600000000000002,0.741,0.053,-0.9423,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,1,6,0,8,2,1,0,0,16,17,14,2,3,4,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,4,0,0,4,2,3,1,1,7,3,8,1,9,9,1,13,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,8,50,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19460079037070707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14928845814738212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954289370566046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16880561867271476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17527746411460654,0.0,0.0,0.1415791915025251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4556765795330744,0.0,0.0,0.2246990552184352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22200271663770904,0.15683283279814675,0.2107839754228151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495288022512061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601450308048959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206483752327322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10725164997606976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21006130778117865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20808950998402287,0.20977106767607107,0.24390677370122574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20350723205785293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400224449544614,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,alexaxelalu,2020/01/08,"You guys... I LIVE IN (north) AMERICA


WHAT THE FUCK

THATS CRAZY




Why me. Why me at all. Why am I am who I am. I don’t think me wanted to choose this? Or did I?",-4.989849849849847,-5.040327162162161,-1.2299099099099102,111.20276276276276,131.43243243243242,2.7255255255255246,6.8138138138138125,5.033348758259628,-2.4073519519519517,113,1,35,1,9,40,27,37,0.205,0.795,0.0,-0.8283,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,1,5,8,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,9,0,3,7,1,3,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,1,0,24,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2826057989574521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026815030103374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699301759379022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19587403041859305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803040861765441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8275139702535383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,vendetta306,2020/01/08,"Weird things that made me go back on my meds So recently I’ve been diagnosed with a psychosis disorder, but anyway. I quit the meds they put me on cause they make me feel really loopy, silly, and tired. I also get way hungrier too which is annoying. 

I went back on my meds after being off for about a week cause I started seeing some weird shit, circles, orbs, lines and ovals, oh my! My carpet was just on the edge of dancing and knew I kept giving it the ole side eye. I could hear famous people in my head like George Costanza, Jerry, Kramer. I also heard Trent Reznor and others. They addressed me by my name before. 

At the request of a redditor here I’ve gone back on my meds even though I don’t really want to and will do for the foreseeable future.",2.7810035659704546,4.626198980132454,3.8658278145695375,88.03478858889456,75.75496688741723,7.030259806418747,20.88690779419256,7.882392219407189,0.8242446255731021,590,14,120,9,13,191,104,151,0.115,0.821,0.063,-0.8416,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,3,1,13,6,2,0,8,0,8,5,3,4,0,19,23,10,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,1,2,2,2,0,5,6,0,1,2,1,0,5,1,4,0,0,8,5,22,2,17,12,1,23,0,0,2,0,8,9,1,1,9,79,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170578867921824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3130627588415739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11548102915822693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2788274875826788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10835509487169928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377449578549504,0.0,0.0,0.15553786148919374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0896365836402167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06862013192787096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07090398796350347,0.13018744379821706,0.07712833243488766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13927980098252282,0.0,0.15295743667968634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06630209289600784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284141012331986,0.09058890232189147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.602982340762807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940857049827593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364281771895964,0.0,0.14434655813982486,0.0,0.0,0.17388133448231938,0.0,0.13399935849316838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10814499896051932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393065538618677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09605774594956504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901611105849698,0.0,0.13333648121578148,0.0,0.0,0.15598113234426844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08004653197823455,0.10772197396547988,0.1088600867293495,0.0,0.0,0.12580650654716985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,phillipblogtran,2020/01/08,I’m very grateful none of my family developed schizophrenia because I wouldn’t want them to suffer like I did. I got done seeing my psychiatrist today. My official diagnoses is schizoaffective depressive type. I think it’s important to get that right so you can arm yourself with information on how to deal with it. I find humor in the luck that I have being born with a rare disorder which I read .3% of the population get. I believe in God so I’m like damn God what did I do to you to deserve this? My life is pretty normal. I have a good family supporting me. I’m still young. It could be worse. I look at it as an obstacle not a death sentence. Obstacles exist to be overcome. You can do a lot with a positive attitude.,1.481752450980391,4.021495729166666,3.8565849673202655,82.4998529411765,84.7638888888889,8.110457516339869,24.442810457516337,8.841846274778883,2.376629575163398,571,23,111,17,17,197,94,144,0.11699999999999999,0.638,0.244,0.9519,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,3,1,0,4,9,1,0,8,0,16,3,1,1,0,15,27,4,1,4,1,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,9,4,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,2,20,6,17,18,2,9,0,2,2,0,6,5,1,2,6,77,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11765945995673555,0.0,0.0,0.217460528774308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15410586466040493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19898881849291872,0.16624255816974992,0.1959050089705788,0.0,0.0,0.22121060999119588,0.0,0.0,0.1975201957740833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36391258622272904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17641117488343402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016835550912436,0.0,0.0,0.16189087157674964,0.15437081913018824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13633140018597462,0.1885936488105544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16208303391039613,0.0,0.0,0.1640934848651133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18911260591961526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963644893449747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930660962144163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648327851792718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15380705995636826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15414112105401867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219029845460542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12367549044276638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18295457447901012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15925665178246098,0.11384457775777808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966976169718971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,secretsociety33458,2020/01/08,Living with parents. I have schizophrenia and no friends and never had a GF and I'm a 30 year old virgin with erectile dysfunction. I still live with my parents and plan on living with them til I'm 32. I'm scared of moving out. Anyone else in a similar situation??,1.5600628930817635,4.036274849056607,3.4399056603773595,86.1333176100629,83.52830188679245,5.79748427672956,23.927672955974842,7.1686216300943375,1.1870276729559746,209,8,40,3,6,70,37,53,0.158,0.7829999999999999,0.059000000000000004,-0.6322,2,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,10,5,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,9,4,0,9,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0,5,25,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15285022446506633,0.2239815648419977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826122758599069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688898417847815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5790834972594192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323372380124531,0.0,0.0,0.16859782026648176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22938396018029805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4854589299850296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188567662378507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24571559396448134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17457426723197322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407712529596423
schizophrenia,1gilzanmato,2020/01/08,"Valerian and antipsychotics? I can’t find any information about this combo, my question is, do any of you people take valerian as a supplement (for sleep/mild anxiety) along side your antipsychotic/s? 

There’s info on St. John’s wort and psychosis/antipsychotics but not valerian (that I can find)",8.975128205128208,9.630011384615386,9.323846153846157,59.087820512820514,60.153846153846146,13.856410256410255,38.487179487179496,13.023866798666859,5.726210256410256,240,11,38,9,3,80,44,52,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,10,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,6,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4513853773862582,0.0,0.2538905629761917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6066724319283858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300867690715089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37178634476116335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3321239591733871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495356722834589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,QandeelH,2020/01/08,"Recent diagnosis of schizophrenia. New to this. How does it affect your love life? My brother developed it at 16, my other brother was diagnosed at 28. Although, I suspect he had it for far longer. This is a new community to me. I’m struggling with suicidal thoughts. There are things that I have accepted (never having a husband or kids.) I don’t think I can seek out love because I’m afraid he will leave me. My question is, how does it affect your love life?",2.1246067415730323,4.724515224719107,3.5259438202247217,85.63520786516854,82.14606741573034,6.256629213483146,26.877528089887644,7.554174236665415,1.7508328089887644,361,16,68,6,10,118,62,89,0.109,0.736,0.154,0.7476,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,0,0,3,6,0,2,2,0,10,6,0,4,1,13,17,4,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,9,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,11,4,8,13,0,8,0,0,0,3,12,4,0,2,4,46,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12133619952952715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020268431117101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34837185896933864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21076028862186946,0.0,0.0,0.2811832381550595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5389386061647486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15351604675366082,0.3844784839221378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2229763486851927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19653327277413812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080854200142224,0.0,0.2177233094782029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13223688784389587,0.12754022490663805,0.0,0.15801977645665075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,timboslice2,2020/01/08,"Invega Sustenna. Never again. I will never take this drug again.

For about 9-12 months I was on it.  Even Zyprexa didn't cause as much weight gain as Invega, but the known increase in prolactin levels of the drug (it's considered the highest prolactin-increaser out of all drugs) caused so much stress, it's like I had major PTSD just from this drug alone (and PTSD wasn't something I struggled with before).

Warning!  Major warning.

It's like the drug itself put me in darkness over time... I lost the desire to go out and hang out with friends, something I NEVER struggled with being the social extrovert I am.  Johnson & Johnson seems like a reputable company, but when it comes to the injection it just sucks.  Period.

I won't keep the post too long.  I think Latuda will be my go-to prescription going forward despite having vocal tics and tardive dyskinesia while on it.",3.717369631901839,6.329380748466259,4.092327453987732,83.86769363496934,75.87116564417178,6.52898773006135,26.75191717791411,7.645422480735847,1.7565095092024534,694,27,120,10,16,217,103,163,0.121,0.721,0.158,0.7567,0,1,7,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,2,9,9,1,3,9,0,11,6,0,2,4,25,20,10,0,1,4,0,1,3,1,3,5,0,0,0,10,10,1,1,3,0,0,7,6,5,0,0,5,1,11,4,20,10,6,28,0,1,0,0,2,10,1,1,15,81,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11676524836647655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12215437997542385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09593393663558024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316312793624695,0.0,0.0971160338121662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.653716446453759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07446409507996515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08710309860937854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922192227732504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10020901471506106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652380696220745,0.0,0.0,0.0997718726242119,0.0,0.0,0.12306966965818784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998846171887534,0.0,0.1657546085294138,0.0,0.2608574750643338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107974318909306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635754283996995,0.11333543008074284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10263479705798872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11492483169010108,0.0,0.17358642526986354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12914396262211078,0.23572188232853064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08476689142278866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0722396165131176,0.0,0.0,0.06573994348779867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13728766367021675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,absoluthalogen,2020/01/09,"At some point I can finally close my eyes During my treatment I have made great progress with positive symptoms. But the negatives only seem to get worse. I have to have a drink to be able to stand being awake. I'm only really communicating deeply with my mom and dad. When they are gone I might ass well just drink myself to death. 

Death is not to bee feared but to be embraced when life has been exhausted. I'm 35 and my expiration date may be none later than 55. Maybe I will switch to weed to save my liver.",2.7206688241639694,4.619530300970872,3.7665372168284783,88.44218985976269,76.0873786407767,7.2962243797195265,21.153182308522112,8.167268648758528,0.8824916936353828,403,10,86,7,9,130,73,103,0.11199999999999999,0.758,0.13,0.2415,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,1,4,5,0,1,2,0,15,8,3,1,0,15,21,6,2,0,4,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,2,0,1,3,2,1,0,3,1,12,3,13,11,2,10,0,0,1,1,3,3,1,4,5,54,12,0,0.2178668030279056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4268530484183493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451607239831039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386624334718703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11382641246139585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401989194756464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538857660654367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20615083682392166,0.0,0.0,0.21887648693017467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23112224880721485,0.0,0.2551629665593953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.331395042313728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059545496354319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13957105281800325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983377549717339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.226447028054976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19588842067327888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220248851671386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jackal0pes,2020/01/09,"Major Relapse Advice? I don't know what caused it really, but for the past week or so I've been experiencing hallucinations akin to how they were at their worst when I was prodromal & before I got treatment. The thing that stopped them before (and they were nearly constant) was starting antipsychotics, and they haven't gotten that bad since. Right now, it's worse than it ever was. I'm at the maximum dose of Latuda, does it make sense for an AP to just suddenly stop working like this? I've been through so many that just don't work anymore (I ""outgrew"" a lot that just aren't powerful enough to work anymore, like Abilify) or have overwhelming side effects (Zyprexa made me double my weight in a year). I'm really afraid of trying another AP because I know that at least for a period of time, it's gonna get worse when I'm off Latuda. And I don't know how much worse I can deal with right now. I'm working (self-employed) and can afford therapy appointments once a month (my next one is in two and a half hours). 

Just. I don't know. I'm kind of at my wit's end here. It's not dangerous because I'm weirdly not having any delusions, really, other than just vague paranoia, but the hallucinations that I've been getting are seriously draining and overwhelming. Any advice at all would be greatly appreciated.",5.3348235294117625,6.276454168627449,5.993333333333336,78.81000000000003,68.09803921568627,9.294117647058824,30.294117647058826,9.478462496947786,2.6454705882352942,1043,39,200,21,17,340,143,255,0.13699999999999998,0.792,0.071,-0.9438,3,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,5,6,15,12,1,3,10,0,22,2,0,6,2,34,40,16,0,1,11,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,16,7,1,2,5,0,0,0,8,8,0,3,11,2,17,4,23,26,8,31,0,2,0,0,6,12,0,3,21,125,33,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206831088924512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12234593135578052,0.0,0.15357537761742748,0.1184037157668249,0.0,0.0,0.22396739337107172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942812936589002,0.13766677053786672,0.0,0.19216874300647885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599725122600535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12202357045511135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11641285802747575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09881475799584263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10001128082063128,0.11667383568554775,0.0,0.0,0.10214023259972384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11798933851224933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090310341993549,0.12449180733821492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11120087137383686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11758607248253465,0.2482257505399904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11033145394874523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09599831639543084,0.0,0.10684515282799804,0.07537322630577893,0.1144804977120071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09012957343391896,0.0,0.0830072649098785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200889120016792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202533218236902,0.0765157373255236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10779241370094984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21701329034295302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19286164684706472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11779745110798308,0.0,0.0,0.09340642153231384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07992350098418115,0.0,0.0,0.18880796740777492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291308620297965,0.0,0.07501728818783851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06584303088361854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07666348723801203,0.0,0.1103038702906686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09057550916736462,0.13750294568865326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3288207826672302,0.0,0.3452173634526171,0.08021326522532278,0.0,0.0,0.07271508897484168
schizophrenia,HapperKoiran,2020/01/09,"confused and looking for advice i took a psych eval recently and got diagnosed with ""unspecified schizophrenic and other psychotic disorder"". my understanding from what the psychologist said is that this means I'm showing risk of full psychotic episodes and developing full schizophrenia. I can think of two times where I'm very certain i had a psychotic episode, but I was on drugs those times. The psychologist says you have to have them off drugs for it to be considered for a schizophrenia diagnosis.

Basically how I feel and how I've felt for a really long time is as if I have no set identity. I feel confused, and sometimes I feel like everything I am, my morals and my concepts are just lies to myself and the real me is just a narcissist and idk what the real me actually thinks. I also hear things, not often, and it's usually one of my parents sharply saying my name. I don't feel in control of my brain, and I've been worried for a long time that there's just something wrong. I have no frame of reference for what it feels like to be 'normal,' assuming how I feel right now isn't normal.

at my psych eval i also got diagnosed with unspecified adhd disorder, unspecified stress disorder, major depression, and general anxiety.
I'm meeting with a psychiatrist soon and I'll probably be starting therapy soon as well.

I guess my biggest worry is that i always held onto the idea, whether i realized it or not, that there is the light at the end of the tunnel where i could finally achieve the calmness and certainty that happy people seem to have. One day I could be happy and calm and relaxed with myself. Is that no longer possible? Am I going to be confused and scared and unsure of everything forever? I don't mean knowing the answer to every and all situation, no one no matter how happy can know that, i mean not knowing myself, not knowing how i feel, being confused about myself, about my brain, about everything, about truly everything.",8.34438644556597,7.83768584383562,8.61607786589762,67.50563085796686,61.79452054794521,12.396539293439071,38.3886085075703,11.723238792162213,4.703,1563,70,268,43,19,517,176,365,0.16699999999999998,0.722,0.111,-0.961,1,0,3,0,0,0,37.0,0,1,1,2,23,19,0,7,17,0,30,7,2,6,2,82,62,32,0,5,11,1,8,2,0,0,5,4,0,0,18,23,0,2,24,2,0,2,12,9,1,4,9,14,40,10,37,45,4,30,1,1,1,0,9,12,0,10,17,200,58,3,0.0,0.0,0.07808913518421974,0.0,0.0961699161371072,0.07819577767302267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12798582844845846,0.06658403783441849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06121598892328906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17866021827112766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08975056540753057,0.1277808126552277,0.0,0.0,0.051607045539618715,0.0,0.0689221309897123,0.16243964046828416,0.0,0.0,0.2751336385697228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855983434334817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07087502001483569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06742130121835356,0.0,0.2876715318295533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832278151223193,0.11433430376916673,0.07683288838722517,0.08765929880472649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045477884583748435,0.0,0.12800050641925256,0.0,0.08815235899900084,0.0,0.0,0.25555212421374257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09018969335836796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09033417975703953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759102062623537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07818861975088423,0.0,0.0,0.14163246450936526,0.06719764311480042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614995945288205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568075460399079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626732815507851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08885405814339772,0.0,0.0,0.05547661536438305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09021186478482147,0.0,0.0,0.08627637377285513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821632590369354,0.051263621364631896,0.0,0.07901126820022007,0.0,0.0,0.06833765635346256,0.07611847337500817,0.12727211921892329,0.08011516785971437,0.0,0.0,0.07284828313533076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08994716679136094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0616042191293283,0.07914299994488032,0.0,0.05663940792908069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09166399918926738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09151120109449512,0.0,0.05316252084909746,0.10254869085699993,0.0,0.0,0.18664399029479206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08890648296713953,0.0,0.0,0.07816907203284461,0.08330487762408226,0.0,0.0,0.08813203202249723,0.06602585965938933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07194865714887973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16253079916234126,0.0,0.0,0.08749060589934639,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ShyDudeAskingYou,2020/01/09,"To everyone, who fights a war noone knows about YOU  
ARE  
LOVED!  
I know it's hard to believe it right now, or at any time, but you are loved! I believe in you, I believe that one day it will be alright, you will be alright, everything IS GOING to be alright! Believe in yourself, I know it's hard, even more from time to time, but you MUST believe that you will make it, because you will!",1.8604520795660056,3.608372405063293,2.851934900542496,94.71670886075951,78.1139240506329,5.5269439421338165,26.475587703435806,6.1826913282559595,0.7400726943942137,296,12,66,2,7,94,42,79,0.08199999999999999,0.725,0.19399999999999998,0.9142,0,0,0,0,1,0,14.0,0,7,0,0,3,7,2,0,1,3,11,2,0,1,1,8,18,3,1,1,3,0,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,2,11,5,9,10,1,11,0,0,0,2,11,4,0,1,6,47,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09680798855914163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08677981688186599,0.0,0.0,0.8019408245204975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09180881711336314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09402579285824184,0.0,0.0,0.13602870155960628,0.12794175087093942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08090505365680434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550487344861775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347078938482729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569664218641459,0.0,0.09502474345923298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964651331290362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12157253585257767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490294269577193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,6ftbelow,2020/01/09,"Worried about a friend Around 3 am, my best friend freaked out and scared my little sister. They were playing some games, he started to repeat ""there is love"" and then said ""there's also hate and revenge.""

My sister came down to room and told me to go and try to calm him down. He held a lighter to the back of his hand and told my sister that he couldn't feel it and doesn't know if it was real or not. 

I walk up stairs to see what's going on, he was scared of my sister and when he looked at me he told me to come near him because he knew I was real. We were going to bring him in but he wanted to go back to our other friend's house. We didn't want to scare him anymore and dropped him off there. After a while he called me and asked what happened, I told him and he said he can only remember snippets here and there.

Let me tell you, he smoked some weed before that and this never happened before. He was on meth but presumably stopped, as far as I know. 

My little sister was shaken up, she told me that he tried to choke her. I'm concerned he might have schizophrenic symptoms after his use of meth, he was also exposed to weed that was laced with DMT by his little brother's dad (they dont have the same dad).

He has a mental health appointment on the 15, I'm concerned because the friend he's staying with is pregnant and their parents are disabled and elderly. 

What I'm saying here it this schizophrenic symptoms or maybe it could've been a panic attack?",4.027425249169433,4.6196732292358815,4.431659468438539,90.09546262458471,70.86046511627906,6.817342192691032,25.016777408637875,6.2581,0.6364098338870434,1146,30,247,6,20,361,153,301,0.094,0.8340000000000001,0.07200000000000001,-0.6903,1,0,3,0,0,0,29.0,3,1,3,1,13,15,2,4,9,0,24,7,1,1,1,48,57,27,0,4,6,9,2,0,4,1,5,3,1,0,14,23,0,2,6,2,0,8,6,7,0,0,21,7,34,8,37,33,4,40,0,0,2,1,62,19,0,6,11,157,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14826142224054206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09193169829814296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08252104455984467,0.08666029673194496,0.10545757641241804,0.0,0.14255837636172078,0.0,0.11301591561409415,0.0,0.15775866869276894,0.0,0.09728103409524327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946552189097956,0.10602203723836423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07985128485411815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07401196385952097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10864159133094384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04687099144063996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864735745772396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21073007630975651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639454111270361,0.0,0.0,0.0915202738128112,0.0,0.0985338439562504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10696126834692962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10188900475643953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09479018241411573,0.0,0.0,0.27872382498114784,0.0,0.0,0.07784313513605012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836637379881435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09312779393679037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09341797527933504,0.0983381333600826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0714945607848011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07050115260236316,0.0,0.1087613560585836,0.102930372775523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21102167476037947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10500898176751597,0.0,0.17635441764401813,0.07371732337758162,0.2784211863277763,0.0,0.07386845781577013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06561225782751015,0.09880393940993246,0.0,0.07749983975238385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19269783120221576,0.0,0.0,0.08102230615859078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4428854775495551,0.0,0.12587197579375445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08006147550958094,0.0,0.0,0.10935159142942064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941395142486608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,hannalysis,2020/01/09,"I’m a beginning therapist who sees a good number of clients in early stages of psychosis/schizophrenia at my site. What are things you wish mental health workers knew/understood/said in your experience? I work with a lot of lower-socioeconomic status clients, many of whom only have our free health clinic as their only means of realistically accessible mental health support. The majority of my clients are in the 18-30 age range so many of them are experiencing episodes of moderate to severe mental illness for the first time. It’s really important to me to try and understand my clients’ experiences (hopefully that should be a given with therapists, ha) — particularly those that I don’t have any firsthand experience with — so that I can provide the most meaningful/beneficial support and advocacy possible.

I’ve been a client in therapy for years due to my own journey with depression, PTSD, and an eating disorder (firmly in recovery since 2012!), but I do not live with psychosis or schizophrenia. I’m trying to learn from other therapists’ mistakes and successes as much as possible because the idea that some clients will, to varying degrees, be “learning moments” for me feels so unfair to them. Learning moments are obviously inevitable, but my hope is that by seeking to understand others’ experiences as much as possible, I can hopefully catch bigger mistakes before they happen and have a lasting impact on my clients, and I will be better prepared for how to identify, acknowledge, and correct the mistakes I do make. If anyone is willing to share things that they wish therapists understood or took into account when working with you — or things that worked really well/helped a lot! — I would be really grateful. I can ask more specific questions if people would like too. If this isn’t an appropriate post, I’ll gladly delete it of course. 

In any case, I can’t express how much I appreciate this sub and how powerful it is to see a community of people who so deeply and compassionately welcome one another and share a foundation of shared experience. Thank you all for already helping me learn and grow simply by observing. I hope you are all doing well and receiving whatever support you need in addition to the love that you all deserve.",11.886369832567787,9.946965430730485,11.173062675951996,56.55141206104609,55.90176322418136,14.681226848421993,47.03052304045043,13.216016132239005,6.402256600977924,1824,94,277,53,17,594,214,397,0.053,0.737,0.21,0.9968,2,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,1,7,5,8,10,26,0,0,18,1,31,7,0,4,5,67,58,33,0,16,9,0,1,1,0,6,5,1,0,0,23,20,1,0,12,0,2,5,4,4,1,2,4,5,34,23,52,44,13,30,0,1,2,1,27,12,0,15,12,203,57,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08154273884676111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10049951807167164,0.0774832304310138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051667688415321406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907995974543607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04504447362650986,0.0,0.0628774819251965,0.0,0.0,0.06535233431883618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06364391379863844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08468775473996351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07561096404311649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36140755787636347,0.0,0.0,0.03736250998497382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06285332946069813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06197792423824682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06534331653707483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356343411256201,0.0,0.0,0.09905781130504646,0.0,0.0,0.29356960096600265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08341617803990845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0602326395514469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03610037664246464,0.0,0.0652488534829127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12564233515956325,0.06669129774907884,0.0,0.04932413669922977,0.1498317637521632,0.0,0.08049111566721273,0.0,0.0,0.223400226464414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16295952351173734,0.05479070699895077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05007179435540658,0.11239787924665208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10245617410227884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24990969069876576,0.070769047155804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08637693717335376,0.0,0.08277704672331902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14201320180989482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07028914353629158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11776627324863115,0.0,0.0,0.08347803250225289,0.0,0.061125035109350113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25155862777783683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06803072643991417,0.08450306034410426,0.3431817717020353,0.14727363383801848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04308758978712058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08209781759280403,0.1003369633940545,0.0,0.0,0.15385039244664675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13287732308203282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699465562709304,0.0,0.0,0.16138490444898215,0.0,0.0,0.10498290316019153,0.0,0.0,0.047584655248023515
schizophrenia,someofthisistrue,2020/01/09,"Cognitive Decline with Schizophrenia I talk about positive symptoms of schizophrenia all the time... and negative ones some of the time. But I almost never talk about the cognitive symptoms of schizophrenia and my experiences with them. I think that is for two reasons - because they are the hardest to describe and - because they are the hardest to come to terms with; a reminder of how I used to be before this disease took over.

I wrote a blog post about my experiences with a cognitive decline with schizophrenia at [https://www.someofthisistrue.com/cognitive-decline-with-schizophrenia-my-experience/](https://www.someofthisistrue.com/cognitive-decline-with-schizophrenia-my-experience/)

I would appreciate it if you gave it a read and let me know some of your experiences with the same.

All the best.",14.511850931677015,17.01265832173913,9.902360248447213,53.32869565217394,48.39130434782609,10.049689440993786,39.03726708074535,9.957137785484203,4.041422360248447,677,26,86,10,7,186,65,115,0.032,0.877,0.091,0.7783,0,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,2,3,1,4,1,0,0,11,0,6,2,0,3,3,27,13,7,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,11,0,0,3,2,0,2,2,0,0,2,3,0,14,1,21,7,7,9,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,4,4,73,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16274537559323904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19814754186766967,0.0,0.1382968595172356,0.0,0.17056002839580162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400009522804361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6359227975389499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08931952515772047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16619289005877586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12534934924378327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11013119001781548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15565408589864202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16256904628382834,0.0,0.0,0.16710283501586282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.337851543904038,0.0,0.2612629813206497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10413949898088816,0.0,0.0,0.18953934442905315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18057132694676006,0.0,0.0,0.15876337238966767,0.0,0.0,0.14036947348806605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11545314288610632,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,George3133,2020/01/09,"Psychosis stories - The World Cup saga So basically I’m thinking about starting a YouTube account sharing stories of my psychosis. Here’s just a quick one just wondering if anyone would like to hear more.

- So at the time I believed I was this entity of power and if people were mean to me it would empower them.
- It was the World Cup and I thought England were using me as a power source for success.
- Every time like clockwork long before our fixtures up until the game was over I would begin to feel physically sick. Heart pains, pains in my kidneys, no appetite, nausea etc.
- I thought that I had electronic devices in my organs that were messing with my body and a fake stomach full of drugs which would deploy drugs and make me feel seriously ill.
- I was beginning to fear every match.
- Pass time on to the quarter finals and this was a huge match for the whole of England, it was a massive deal and I was thinking oh shit this isn’t going to end well. All I remember was it was the day of the match and if anyone remembers (UK) it was the middle of the scorching summer must have been 25 degress C outside and I’m sat unable to move shivering constantly in my house.
- I’m thinking I’m going to die this is it they needed an immense amount of power because too much was riding on this. I ring up 999 thinking full well there in on it too but I could at least try. “I need an ambulance I need help” I was saying and to this day I don’t know what she said but I heard “your going to die” I hung up and toughed it out through the day. I also remember one other moment when I went out to the shop to get fresh air and saw the spitting image of my grandma, I thought she wanted to see me one last time before I passed away. The ambulance never showed up which was abit weird but never mind.
- England got through to the semi finals (an even bigger game) and my theories at the time were that any wrong doing could only happen on UK soil. So I booked a flight to Barcelona and was there for the semi finals.
- Contrary to belief but I still wanted England to win just as long as I didn’t die over it.
- To this day it’s still a mystery why I felt so physically ill between 2017-2018 but I think it was all the adrenaline cooking my organs.",2.8563357167975627,4.638354824053452,3.971832727698981,87.63172869534641,75.36971046770601,6.329879263861213,25.62425272535459,7.0608816371341465,1.1110008908685969,1752,62,351,18,38,569,215,449,0.091,0.85,0.059000000000000004,-0.9331,5,0,2,0,0,0,40.0,1,1,2,5,21,17,1,1,29,0,34,14,6,2,5,64,75,31,3,15,11,0,3,2,0,5,7,5,0,0,25,16,1,0,18,6,2,8,6,10,2,4,32,10,44,7,58,36,10,65,1,0,2,0,15,28,1,4,31,247,69,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06476254698609532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05507161766879681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11325121699428956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07608674782481409,0.0,0.0,0.0493668442844124,0.0,0.13782213928992648,0.09124077287074683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08995451110427811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08751448992592682,0.0,0.1293176124861081,0.0,0.0,0.2089108615908404,0.08349052443799497,0.0,0.0,0.2521445396391209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878305056562236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07172742278571434,0.0,0.09031810894921824,0.05348889686031602,0.0,0.1364643333078304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09112905257370496,0.08189547191944484,0.0,0.07775694550836845,0.2661406904075549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04231058285741419,0.0,0.1380745199474639,0.0,0.0647699742363209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07161352043448851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09127439068201283,0.09596594306561147,0.05428159274762776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09344418881631596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044506462693982035,0.06601243389434211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07912898204091083,0.0,0.0,0.1433358559887452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054057174606673586,0.0,0.0,0.08821486973894517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08177033921706757,0.0,0.0,0.08607273901653935,0.059532256117736077,0.18014491565008733,0.12491907286748825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16462972764297368,0.06159166881020104,0.1723444972500911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056143823933010914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752158591051669,0.0,0.0770339383386347,0.06440140053673829,0.0,0.0,0.0645334355733174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08312849049883184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05732060122185958,0.0,0.12934719781471998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594550697721805,0.0,0.192875771495417,0.23611091043581056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05498254113163748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06994381938483148,0.0,0.0,0.09553243818830186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14562794477100285,0.07507259848354003,0.073075093017948,0.09041528519723813,0.0,0.0,0.08782324790645253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301136728028977,0.08854284172063921,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Stuckinmyhead13,2020/01/09,"Schizoaffective *drug induced First time poster here, im a male in my late 20s and I believe I'm experiencing some type of negative symtoms from a bad weed trip. I've been experiencing these negative symtoms for about a year. Everything from complete numbness and loss of pleasure in activities, zero emotions, no motivation. I've been bed bound for months and only leave the house when I need food. I've decided nothing is getting better and I'm at my breaking point so I went to the doctors and she believes that I have drug induced schizoaffective disorder. She believes because of my age and the time frame I smoked weed it triggered these negative symtoms. I do have some mild anxiety and depression..but these new symtoms have started after the weed. This is NOT depression Im not down im completely flat like almost nothing matters. 

Through my research I've come up with a few ideas. I believe it could be depreasonilazion witch mimics some of the symtoms of schizoaffective. I'm not paranoid nor having hallucinations just completely dead to life. Any ideas? Can anyone relate.",5.029425101214578,7.9415042717948765,5.2957085020242936,75.37481781376522,72.94871794871794,8.20782726045884,34.365721997300945,8.99025400887824,3.6040256410256415,883,47,140,20,19,279,116,195,0.177,0.7509999999999999,0.07200000000000001,-0.966,0,0,3,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,4,5,8,0,0,9,0,12,6,0,4,0,28,20,10,1,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,5,0,1,1,7,9,1,1,6,0,0,3,8,5,0,2,3,2,13,3,20,15,4,21,0,2,0,0,3,6,0,4,12,86,20,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11233607944139876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07628897264875042,0.0,0.08582045934594869,0.0,0.0,0.07844166706410656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09366896106419127,0.06838633025124538,0.0,0.0,0.5055718441284226,0.0,0.09921763887118623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09663658976433556,0.3528683951741831,0.0,0.0,0.08956980219181154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09662392202878346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285725927647465,0.11482508621554725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26019566729973753,0.0,0.0,0.12619190986745868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008237530610757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954236602147786,0.13565334822933264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058611514151886375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12944528355177962,0.0,0.2532841807425006,0.3635339397533489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265484478387671,0.11878666677734148,0.0,0.0,0.07923888279073336,0.054807439859015115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08954420518727113,0.0,0.0,0.08318302073185507,0.0,0.10834801435164054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21528716331102052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0853209935744199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10605014899065253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07940441853593938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13083079488703642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039956996873619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07224282329648192
schizophrenia,honeyplease,2020/01/09,"I'm not a schizophrenic, I just wanted to tell all of you that we hear you and support you. Those of us without it can't even begin to understand what it's like, and we need more awareness about it. This sub has opened my eyes in a way I didnt thought it could. I send everyone here a big internet hug.",3.7959230769230783,3.726822400000003,4.9075000000000015,88.82125000000002,71.15384615384616,8.961538461538463,28.55769230769231,8.841846274778883,1.8118461538461528,236,8,56,4,4,78,51,65,0.0,0.862,0.138,0.8074,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,3,3,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,4,3,1,0,1,14,12,2,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,8,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,2,10,3,7,9,2,6,0,0,1,1,9,3,0,0,2,40,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23894311446376765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19766531966259626,0.0,0.0,0.28596575428622506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3372995643990212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462084324765421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22190525777437373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3396085771958713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615755773122906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375873203951897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3115511084317227,0.3599855212256294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17651747410262764,0.2375469652439888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884860487934693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Throwaway473626,2020/01/09,"Am I developing schizophrenia? 21M and I function quite normally, or well as normal as it gets when you’re 21.

Some of my behaviors are the following:
- I shower and use the bathroom with the door open (My bedroom door is locked and my bathroom is inside my bedroom)
- I need to see what’s in front of me whether the door is closed or open incase there’s someone there 
- My eyes need to stay shut when I try to fall asleep, I worry and am scared about what I’ll see in the dark 

*Above cases are due to the fear of something from a horror movie that I saw at age 6 coming and getting me.

Here’s what has been happening recently though
- I always hear foot steps or wood creaking when I have the lights off and am in bed ( despite no one being there)
- A week ago I heard whispering coming from all around me, can’t make out what is being said
- I feel like someone or something is watching me ( not human )

What is making me post here is what happened last night. Whenever I closed my eyes I would see faces form in the darkness with such clarity and with looks of fear that made me gasp and immediately open my eyes three times. I ended up not focusing and drifting into my mind in order to ignore and get away with it.

What should I do? Seek help and get diagnosed now or wait for more symptoms to show up?",3.7834009642426665,4.922134354961834,4.425299316994779,87.8959361189233,71.86259541984732,7.3478505423864995,25.621534752912808,7.669130373188453,1.1805618320610691,1019,31,214,12,19,325,151,262,0.081,0.872,0.047,-0.8686,1,0,2,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,0,1,14,6,0,3,10,0,21,8,6,4,1,49,46,23,0,6,8,0,1,1,0,2,2,4,7,1,11,25,0,2,1,1,0,7,4,4,1,2,5,15,29,2,33,37,4,42,0,0,9,0,5,19,0,6,14,142,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151406546559802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10807983030243733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11563064933371907,0.0,0.0,0.1220369977878972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22377942419566546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13183676859505386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11504499253912193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923272791986381,0.06567686102501982,0.09279425333027176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2714510294730165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297246047358855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14639675018571058,0.0,0.0870632903027745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587861197177176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06345824787070131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090758401079898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12290613327894374,0.1734066834630336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13115301930271805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926252626218036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12189403183058088,0.2545314690629093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08801759519036538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12439980281822788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381552114815842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12825182636559648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12355621486504167,0.0,0.13004368657338022,0.0,0.3105192543820853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22011267560948855,0.19999308440769373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384466681394784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13500662446748807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12761738137692544,0.0,0.07574056581021654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08818755489331502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121842367503584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10419083418274797,0.0,0.11678773033376336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13191075341562586,0.0,0.09227093607506526,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,throwawayy9965,2020/01/09,"Psychosis in HS I've been noticing kind of psychotic symptoms for the last two years now, at least. I'm currently 17 and a senior in high school. Stuff from hallucinations, feeling like everyone around me was fake and were out to get me, thinking people were all talking about me, etc. All this stuff along with more is making school and work hard. Last night at work I was freaking out because I thought I was being attacked by large cats and dogs. I can't really focus in class. This isn't sustainable and I need to see a doctor. I've tried talking to my dad about this once before a couple years ago, but he refused to believe me. 

What should I do? I don't know if I can wait forever to be able to see a doctor on my own.",3.4830426716141005,4.74460510884354,4.391886209029067,87.37703153988869,72.74149659863944,7.250216450216451,26.28880643166357,7.686295010490155,1.3100802721088436,569,19,119,7,11,184,97,147,0.07400000000000001,0.904,0.022000000000000002,-0.7140000000000001,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,4,5,1,0,5,0,15,3,0,1,2,23,26,7,0,3,2,1,2,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,6,10,0,2,4,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,7,4,14,2,23,16,6,19,0,0,2,0,5,10,0,1,10,78,20,8,0.14429924530990598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12791257444897955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284569215423945,0.0,0.1641612232554434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08796348060374634,0.0,0.12278802961711913,0.1625758354827824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15966437031990052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953927841145081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16093180230339635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13788411270192044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729620341358881,0.10308740968174936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07539039994271035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12926378053739052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15246007524823882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15026545862413646,0.07930309147104213,0.23524628858257865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07049732242200077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963208667463655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10699606198819704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13541506662439015,0.0,0.0,0.16428564719428626,0.0,0.15367398683714567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10003892772848197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924417915388755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29207708004532074,0.2299756320514497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3303762251757484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14998216707122106,0.0,0.2319645348436761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09246112984643456,0.0,0.11455748239395265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09796971551419566,0.0,0.1409593951673697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21010313836265726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18584796588596697
schizophrenia,bobobmaxification,2020/01/09,Anyone else wonder if they chose to be schizophrenic? I mean I definitely am schizophrenic now. The only question is whether I chose to be.,3.837466666666668,6.9904548800000015,4.652000000000001,76.55266666666667,80.2,8.133333333333335,28.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,3.079933333333334,112,5,18,3,3,36,19,25,0.0,0.8859999999999999,0.114,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,5,6,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,14,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27569206653765205,0.4039898580046921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3293731225005021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4294901261662534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2998702337413853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4416875570200336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4275834440984289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jimlaila,2020/01/09,"i feel like dying past 5 months was okay, my dose got lowered, my psychiatrists said that im starting to show progress, functioning normally. 

but few days ago, i got triggered, not on purpose and not their fault. today, i tried to open my social media to tell them about my condition. im so scared and paranoid my stomach hurts so much. i left so many group chats. 

i started to feel like they are talking bad about me, it's making me sick. i feel like it's killing me inside. 

i hate this feeling so much. sucks so hard. i want to die.",1.7013933729821602,3.962542588785052,2.6503653355989836,93.38611724723877,81.05607476635514,5.386236193712829,23.74596431605777,6.574015621080383,0.6036429906542056,415,15,88,4,11,131,72,107,0.326,0.542,0.132,-0.987,1,0,0,0,0,1,17.0,0,0,3,1,7,11,3,1,0,1,2,3,1,2,0,14,15,8,3,2,3,0,5,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,7,0,0,4,6,19,4,8,11,3,10,0,1,0,0,9,3,1,0,10,46,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339347700028259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12615628914630234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097442443141953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3136212230134067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3055885100593084,0.3238224677766777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416856446340052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13534959162968574,0.14917299194586364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16174811135410191,0.0,0.32641259386225546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671619457368254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16416291541956374,0.0,0.0,0.2214491273843889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10085570703053127,0.15318452060299234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12060093880233895,0.0,0.22214138365772831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480389957364705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14423530249630964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14372398063753408,0.0,0.1512703858039132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15402021913460268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21388871341167284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12144277744754632,0.13206188443831876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14321843506708662,0.0,0.0,0.10258218452064592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08911852744743924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,justacotton,2020/01/09,"Insight needed! Sudden symptoms (14yo) I’m an 14yo (female) and started having weird symptoms a month ago. I see shadows in the form of people and hear voices. I also have delusions, most worrying one of them is that I believe my parents are trying to kill me and poison my food.

I’m really anxious because of this.",2.323714285714285,5.050730800000004,4.076190476190476,81.10500000000003,82.66666666666666,4.761904761904762,26.904761904761905,6.1826913282559595,1.45547619047619,248,11,39,2,7,83,48,60,0.23600000000000002,0.764,0.0,-0.9346,1,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,3,0,4,4,0,0,0,6,10,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,3,7,0,5,10,2,5,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,4,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032637077829212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18337391745731169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590476741373933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397812786900029,0.0,0.0,0.2583465093912053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277274689318938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25844169758307045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536903366463966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18302785738570626,0.0,0.0,0.17002563173776936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15538197869366258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546143885031177,0.0,0.0,0.1589701673999976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14689768682423393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827251928587518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16230218986473022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4766682480051851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15568201728123576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328688239250527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,taoduderino,2020/01/09,"Some Youtuber call's for lynching a young disturbed person Ok first, the young person needs help, cause he is really sick and dangerous (he brutalized a poor cat on a video, it's terrible, horrible I know, I will not share it cause it's so fucked up)

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but now this guy a youtuber with 300k subscribes he's calling for quite a lynching and all his subscriber in the comment are pretty hardcore cause they are obviously chocked and upset after seeing the video

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well the kid (and the animal) needs help now I'm affraid he gonna get really bad things to his integrity and he's clearly fucked up on his mind I mean I DONT KNOW what to do :( :( 

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what i do?  sorry for poor english

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the calling from the youtuber to fuck the kid up: [https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fre7TcRsD50&feature=youtu.be](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fre7TcRsD50&feature=youtu.be)",7.723957528957528,11.196941472972972,5.116640926640926,77.20770270270273,66.70270270270271,6.93127413127413,29.49034749034749,7.957251820313856,2.2012590733590733,750,28,111,10,14,208,85,148,0.29600000000000004,0.591,0.113,-0.987,0,0,0,0,0,0,63.0,0,0,1,2,4,12,5,2,13,1,7,4,0,3,3,21,19,7,2,2,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,7,6,0,0,3,2,2,0,2,9,1,1,0,1,9,3,15,17,2,12,0,0,1,3,21,6,3,1,6,65,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5662967759083789,0.4536309791908889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06234218946211428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2287240610261001,0.0,0.0,0.2301046898819286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0875068705552374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06351004470094798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20707987844251774,0.039009401603314765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07393012821086987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10009280459669848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820679064159126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08133211713550287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07539040557553818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11072636185091142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13038926555593638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596118803064983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0794154605158604,0.0,0.0,0.09566467279150123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05949836979567975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835813991257293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04960413472963381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06713283768013516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4536309791908889,0.0
schizophrenia,EctoHanro,2020/01/09,"Do I have schizophrenia ?!? I was diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2003 when I told a psychiatrist that I thought someone was standing behind me at work when in fact there wasn’t.  I was put on drugs and institutionalised once when the drugs turned me into a zombie and I presented at the hospital (they thought I had tried to od).

I have since read and tried to understand the illness, and take my drugs regularly.  I don’t hear voices, I never have, but I’m quite dysfunctional without the drugs due to an over whelming imagination and thought pattern.

Do I have schizophrenia ?!?!

What can I do to test and/or be rediagnosed ?

Thanks",4.357446640316205,7.035936191304351,4.494229249011858,81.46189723320158,74.04347826086956,7.6600790513834,29.58498023715415,8.575989854853784,2.449260869565217,502,22,91,10,11,156,69,115,0.018000000000000002,0.929,0.054000000000000006,0.7037,0,0,4,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,0,7,0,15,6,0,0,2,16,25,9,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,2,7,0,0,5,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,9,2,16,1,14,15,0,15,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,0,6,65,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15360822982574696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7020314231482074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17057263984785484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11672373744234188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611735410941036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15213980332053295,0.0,0.16097009736390067,0.15138225119765916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12519108404642626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282309890590375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11378982000569746,0.0,0.0,0.1393347320985986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3604442523344971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446130940061954,0.0,0.2055016114879386,0.16461587140265674,0.0,0.15755162657090704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14588760880748386,0.0,0.11017826602227702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,RonnieBunni,2020/01/09,"Schizophrenic sister keeps trying to run away Hello all, seeking advice and encouragement. My (23 F) sister (21 F) was recently diagnosed. Shes been having episodes since this past christmas and is like a totally different person. One of the things occurring is her attempting to leave the house (usually under dressed for WI winter) at any and all hours of the day. When I or my boyfriend catch her we get her to sit back down or go lay down and she reacts as if she doesnt know how she got to the door or simply starts crying. I cant imagine what its like for her but we also are having a hard time getting and staying asleep because she’ll make multiple dashes for the door a night. Any advice for this or resources are welcome.",5.0278723404255325,6.329129553191488,5.474957446808514,80.92350000000002,69.0709219858156,8.476879432624115,28.993617021276588,8.841846274778883,2.3050731914893614,581,21,107,10,10,186,98,141,0.034,0.898,0.068,0.6858,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,2,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,8,0,12,3,1,3,3,22,20,15,0,1,6,2,1,2,0,1,2,0,2,1,5,7,0,1,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,3,1,15,4,16,16,3,21,0,0,0,0,17,5,0,5,13,73,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3602231968989829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473975502687981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506825908333512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17317108049665322,0.14172773421749252,0.0,0.11235740795657556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20246262456203265,0.11886866196617135,0.0,0.0,0.18707700189800036,0.0,0.1925711362205204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19259515117485546,0.0,0.10475110971760714,0.0,0.14741445446017773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16511105772717996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18151426987444585,0.2126760783719205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638286537162836,0.0,0.0,0.10129533005598257,0.0,0.0,0.19516417871626476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18009511130867262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303245443986464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17296821112300853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12489738635101205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17595061108069288,0.0,0.16093774371810707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18198995181772726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15246821537058305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304599122985509,0.1964564808005521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12245145316891926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10747622324812577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12513855997814302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029981878120011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,sunshineyellovv,2020/01/09,"Looking for a friend, I have no support system. Hi. I recently went through a lot of trauma & changes in my life. One of these changes was having to move in with my father & stepmother. My father does not believe in mental illness, and my stepmother does not really interact with me. I’m not in contact with any other family. I am not currently seeing a therapist, and I am completely unmedicated due to not being able to find a new psychiatrist who accepts my insurance. I feel so alone & scared. The stress from the trauma has made my symptoms so much worse. I could really use a friend that also has schizophrenia, I feel like having someone who understands my symptoms & what it is like is the best help I can get right now.",4.5810649350649335,6.4018596000000025,5.640779220779223,77.28967532467534,70.85714285714286,9.090909090909092,29.87012987012988,9.573946990214177,2.9822857142857138,584,24,104,14,11,193,88,140,0.14400000000000002,0.706,0.15,0.2124,1,1,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,4,11,0,2,8,0,13,4,0,2,0,19,24,5,0,1,5,2,2,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,7,5,0,0,5,0,0,2,6,4,0,1,3,4,16,7,15,19,3,13,0,0,2,0,10,5,0,1,7,75,23,0,0.1235372064257254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12794728898494714,0.0,0.09879265934588928,0.0,0.5354100461958953,0.0,0.08400953664080915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13918412743418904,0.12964467650384076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613719678988183,0.0,0.12952641054366335,0.0,0.0,0.09863440701696577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216216483691391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11645988368835836,0.0,0.12492824689315632,0.08825500495443922,0.0,0.0,0.11291076860791575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19088907847445025,0.0,0.06454309154727951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08280438541461395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08725798232772418,0.12070807790856496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10374013975712293,0.0,0.0,0.1050269151708439,0.0,0.11689389172471057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244964478160844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13130049975419114,0.09081406109606023,0.0,0.0,0.119313003775024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08371200824210323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15828219557455953,0.0,0.12197808770577293,0.0,0.0,0.1055000992917414,0.0,0.0,0.12368229487205905,0.0,0.09844315910526892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046726741111297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14151145257201694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14018855786978354,0.0,0.2568049180557027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14343621828962064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12860658866276345,0.0,0.10669648189283913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11452022802295682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12589496742662354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,AnxiousNeanderthal,2020/01/09,"What's the fucking point What's the point of being able to telepathically communicate with interdimensional beings, beings capable of the most pure form of thought and intelligence, bound by nothing on the physical relam, if all they do is call you names and annoy you?",12.467021276595752,10.587972829787237,11.902659574468085,51.58250000000004,54.744680851063826,14.506382978723408,42.64893617021277,13.023866798666859,5.642497872340428,221,9,34,6,2,73,36,47,0.057,0.83,0.113,0.4215,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,0,4,0,5,1,0,0,2,10,7,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,7,3,3,3,0,0,0,1,5,3,1,2,0,27,5,0,0.3530498935580011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3605034146672014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3263889376241788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387608946771863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6674925304454197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802821794292578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mabel2214,2020/01/09,"Rant? I am a little scattered right now. I couldn't think of much but sometimes I feel like someone else thinks for me. I lost a support system I feel like but I'm not sure if I ever had it since it feels like everyone is made of no soul. I'm not even sure if there have been people lately. I've been locked in my room I think but I'm not sure. I haven't checked.

 I like to learn about mental health and it led me here for now so I wanted to communicate this feeling. I am so confused.

I am sorry if this violates rules. I'm not sure why I am posting anything. Is mental health service better outside of east asia? I wish everyone the best since I know you are all amazing in your ways.",-0.3286481614996397,1.894825897260276,1.6314996395097343,97.05196467195387,91.39726027397259,4.1695746214852205,18.643114635904826,5.750287758089431,-0.3487616438356165,535,16,121,4,19,176,86,146,0.162,0.614,0.22399999999999998,0.9365,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,3,9,15,1,1,3,0,13,2,0,2,6,32,30,9,0,6,10,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,9,0,1,1,7,3,0,0,5,4,20,12,10,24,3,14,1,1,0,0,2,6,0,4,8,74,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10240158174984196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13058963466453374,0.11005498757488244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10395168763770267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08218989308164816,0.11256097704828084,0.0,0.23781101115680656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25167765558926963,0.26669484235957963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645428022843785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06838767716248495,0.0,0.14037108736882864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24317579742150974,0.12471921450777868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13583839271715958,0.0,0.0,0.11774591156770932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25080776281397105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09147598945634927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08626939714796324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11917686929774203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10626907170517247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20587221710104567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054356155621035,0.0,0.12307201599954785,0.13929775937578645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412103686017569,0.4691240433343164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392038613144929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0733965490168019,0.09877281309943367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11228562252388832,0.0,0.1430971543230744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TimesGrimes,2020/01/09,"My Therapist Thinks I Have Schizophrenia. I’m Quite Skeptical. Before You Ask, I’m Seeing a Doctor Monday. She thinks I have it because I’ve been experiencing the “negative” symptoms for about a year and a half. About a few months ago, I started hearing voices in my head every other week for hours at a time. I didn’t think much of it. I figured everyone goes through it. About a month ago I started hearing the voices regularly and having paranoid delusions about my family and other people visiting. Now I hear voices about everyday, although only at select moments. I haven’t really had a really bad psychosis moment since I went to the emergency room New Years Day. 

I have a few problems with her conjecture. I feel guilty every-time she says she thinks I have it. She has an older brother with schizophrenia, and said my symptoms match his. She’s also been reading on some academic website about its onset. The problem is that I haven’t really gone through anything as bad as anyone on this sub has said. I usually don’t even see anything visually besides shadows out of the corner of my eye. Ugh I just want to get my life back to normal. Feel free to ask questions that aren’t too personal. What do you guys think?",3.636908307210032,6.104086366379312,4.696865203761757,80.17101880877743,75.42241379310343,7.321630094043888,28.217868338557988,8.296473431620573,2.3277689655172407,975,41,167,18,22,318,137,232,0.135,0.8440000000000001,0.021,-0.9761,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,2,0,1,12,7,1,0,14,0,17,6,2,0,0,22,41,8,0,4,1,1,2,0,0,0,4,9,1,2,11,7,0,0,9,1,1,3,6,6,0,1,8,15,30,2,27,33,4,32,0,0,3,0,22,8,0,2,21,116,41,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938809317088636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08745463308604241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0764666006025817,0.0,0.17998685488527671,0.0,0.20447246058448704,0.0,0.0,0.08409059018622464,0.1826209794521753,0.06666444502925471,0.0,0.09305675258048296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07052773400048101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11193392919130034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0722308196140039,0.0,0.09213996942808672,0.10449754589671444,0.0,0.0,0.10309426292037913,0.0,0.11059074698932188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05713574699658134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10828295044962058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11223424378848458,0.0,0.3697678080339253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10769693148089513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07724374339981788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174579180443344,0.0,0.08039170566714637,0.0,0.0,0.10561994217612378,0.0,0.0,0.1071489443033568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08317271397787465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07581600401174822,0.09548836667159998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20928425825513924,0.0,0.0,0.1225075006254062,0.11631713056745867,0.1093889446954066,0.0,0.2101752007134672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20805157073345368,0.08696694488215465,0.0,0.0,0.17429048709458436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904631848236399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15481022230967467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273324762381465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12697463480408092,0.0,0.35036528032338354,0.0,0.0,0.06376831672234455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204438744053412,0.0,0.06450297832917808,0.0,0.08772147451840852,0.0,0.0,0.10137721353984724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14084767247234406
schizophrenia,IncrossMX,2020/01/09,"I'm scared to death my medications are starting to stop working... again. I'm on abilify, seroquel, velanfaxine and lithium. At the beginning I was skeptical about starting a new treatment since I had really bad experiences before with very bad pdocs and psych ward hospitalizations.

Had huge breakdowns and psychotic episodes the last time my last medication regime stopped working for me. Lost my scholarship, relationships, people around me began to be 'careful' around me after that, lost 3 years being depressed doing nothing with my life, attempted suicide, got hospitalized for 6 months so another half year lost and so on, you get the picture..

And what triggered all that was my medications stopping doing their work. Now I'm 3 months in with my current pdoc and I've been feeling great but voices are coming back, I can't manage to get my mind into anything, I feel lost. I'm not myself these past weeks and all this makes me remember that. Idk what to do I'm so scared. My pdoc just will try to increase the doses of everything and that's not the point I already have tremors cause abilify and fear of developing akathisia, he even put me on a Parkinson's medication after I told him I'm not doing good.

What should I do? Does anyone had this kind of experience before? Thank you a lot for your help in advance.",6.262737835875093,7.778036740740743,6.397874606632776,74.65239651416124,66.36625514403292,9.33904623577826,33.635681433067056,9.627879704456738,3.3262933430162187,1060,47,182,22,17,338,148,243,0.163,0.777,0.06,-0.9639,1,0,0,0,0,1,28.0,0,3,1,9,11,16,1,3,8,0,19,6,0,3,2,35,43,13,2,1,5,0,2,0,0,2,6,1,0,0,10,16,0,3,3,0,1,4,4,11,0,1,13,3,26,5,27,26,4,38,0,5,0,0,9,11,0,1,23,115,36,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10743214350049243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020837618195484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06807191657622398,0.0,0.08011373641575109,0.17333072873897598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07485892657570106,0.16257241698171004,0.0,0.0,0.16568152496893088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09925850662135008,0.10000898780235457,0.0,0.08386152567706849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08385053257773767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08519481127914283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06430114962938148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749515868481401,0.1904610473920976,0.0,0.10954989145556576,0.09844983357224388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10172649947617028,0.0,0.0,0.08165559980930731,0.07786258549577138,0.10733271271508706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06525408116943053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10137881686282747,0.0,0.1587123922306543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06876374280158765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.425091917656774,0.08276656862093681,0.0,0.0,0.06498429911543295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3922941309982194,0.0,0.0,0.09829940652866323,0.0,0.15541346566259726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09402473545235583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09341342662224958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09293504865904824,0.06749274401582515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203064092312133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09786728006438776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062367223583517616,0.0,0.0,0.10452135720344158,0.11028267656441096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949359195987316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08053192272191105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13781479044662887,0.0,0.0,0.24417596335125402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10648906210130167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0896301359103283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056767680293389564,0.0,0.0,0.09302555848757214,0.0,0.06609671935358276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08032693442356185,0.0,0.0,0.07809120384983945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212623790404668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12538508230963538
schizophrenia,lmaohibo,2020/01/09,Diagnosis Confusion?!? I’m currently diagnosed with MDD with psychotic features (severe recurrent) my psychologist told me that should be replaced with something when I turn 18. What does that mean? What could it be replaced with ?,5.4579279279279245,9.118343486486488,5.3122972972973015,67.95961711711715,87.1081081081081,10.034234234234237,35.8963963963964,9.2995712137729,5.463363963963964,187,11,25,7,6,58,29,37,0.092,0.9079999999999999,0.0,-0.5349,2,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,8,8,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,4,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,17,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28990059538063345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3685322350565364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31774554766907903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3955152398362205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4101922774022803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795270969474561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34695137632275,0.0,0.0,0.3949414369439725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Dochi-Salome,2020/01/10,"Chinese Medical Body Reading and You Has anybody here seen Kelly? I was wondering if any of you see any significant hallucinations? My face turns color, my vision turns oily and I see markings on faces. It's like paint or scars just appear. Poor hyenas",3.188768115942029,6.288023673913045,4.330434782608695,77.67072463768119,84.0,6.544927536231885,25.057971014492754,7.793537801064563,1.9992579710144929,203,8,33,4,6,66,39,46,0.064,0.8,0.13699999999999998,0.3736,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,7,9,4,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,6,1,2,7,0,2,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,4,1,17,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3663012445962796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29915999174667796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315788687175473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713171760003789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26939845204569124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4292352171447741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5858977599708736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2920720906192694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,thebluekazooo,2020/01/10,"Im here to support my family I dont have schizophrenia but some of my family members, who i care about deeply, do. Is there anything i should know about how to better help them when they are struggling?",2.527749999999997,4.906868275000001,3.0599999999999987,90.935,78.75,6.0,22.5,7.1686216300943375,0.7697499999999997,161,5,32,2,4,50,32,40,0.078,0.635,0.287,0.8705,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,1,6,4,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,5,9,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,7,3,5,8,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403144604897394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582753558228476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29774237895908706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3422550667641437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5505967019444796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19574045616354802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3154407445816402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16049115121675755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3052914513787853,0.0,0.0,0.3313903258739538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ThisGirlsThrowaway26,2020/01/10,Rough two days I've been hearing things and been super anxious the last two days. Normally my meds work better. Took my prn med just now. Think I'm going to start taking it once a day.,1.2923684210526325,3.5210190263157912,2.399210526315791,94.78197368421051,82.42105263157895,4.852631578947369,17.394736842105264,5.985473137389443,-0.4210736842105263,145,3,31,1,4,46,33,38,0.049,0.784,0.16699999999999998,0.7003,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,9,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,2,2,2,1,6,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,14,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376979228034288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860862511047246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4070817336794465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11957809188549327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371418885957883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17150827441890404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4674253641483503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20615236746741106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22407461103268664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14892584357593067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581984827296748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13978382814291093,0.13481912021934092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23376785632768304,0.0,0.0,0.41107050443096055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15317745044010078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,nesquik_nessly_420,2020/01/10,Anyone have any experience in the us military? (especially Air Force) I am considering joining soon and I’m wondering if I might get cough in a mental evaluation somewhere down the line. I haven’t gotten a diagnosis and my psychosis is manageable day to day and I hardly ever get auditory hallucinations. I am worried though that the stress of the job causing things to get worse.,4.522919254658382,7.443879304347828,6.552836438923397,65.63869565217394,74.79710144927536,9.739958592132506,31.596273291925467,9.957137785484203,4.074853416149069,308,15,49,10,7,107,51,69,0.124,0.8759999999999999,0.0,-0.7964,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,6,0,6,1,0,1,1,8,12,5,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,7,0,6,10,0,8,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,4,34,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550266972857389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1594011841072439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23418689936857545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940422151236009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20621095862616295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2229973681335295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3573130878450275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20421539349587955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262239977836045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22973907368700386,0.2418390207955195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611376517185843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15145243472640318,0.0,0.22397832709647064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742185669788577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472225920386964,0.0,0.2315135254875948,0.2323198268369493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,sodontyouworry,2020/01/10,"Very low dose clozapine after acute psychosis. What are your experiences with clozapine? So, my doctor says I don't have schizophrenia, that it was a one time deal (I had 1 hospitalization, 3 years ago). But she still wants to keep me on meds. She wants to put me on 25mg clozapine (or somewhere around that dosage) and remove my other meds. She said that I have a small amount of medication already, I'd disagree that it's small but she's the proffessional, I trust her. The normal dose of clozapine is 300-600mg so this is a really low dose. I'm depressed btw but I'm not sure if it's from the meds or just the shock of everything that happened. She says it's an antidepressant too. Is it though? What are your experiences with clozapine?",2.1361465517241385,4.697100868965522,3.3250646551724152,87.36483836206898,81.6896551724138,7.211206896551722,22.165948275862064,8.278499904357787,1.3683879310344826,586,19,120,13,16,189,87,145,0.124,0.845,0.032,-0.8994,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,0,0,7,6,0,0,8,0,10,5,0,0,1,17,17,10,0,4,8,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,14,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,3,3,16,2,12,14,1,14,0,3,0,0,12,7,0,3,5,75,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14863482622841048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18503484618827734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14926735931584312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17286679017873624,0.1444192575218953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17162368643240355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506965485556869,0.3280389784728948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482755018517484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14903830272550925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5587513445879422,0.1689161218995103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16428706605353066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11362172644623796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685608843269151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10741766148334543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15949845500510873,0.26668567406278576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13390642264710195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15803282555491185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647410062185096,0.0,0.09777333532868114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13835041796193406,0.19779952346358576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107977969458282
schizophrenia,Thunderbird93,2020/01/10,Whats Your Incarceration Story? Schizophrenia landed me in jail for 3 months. 4 months house arrest. 40 days psychiatric ward. It was really messed up. Whats your incarceration story? What did you learn?,3.1397142857142835,5.833041828571428,3.891428571428573,76.06857142857146,102.14285714285714,6.571428571428572,16.42857142857143,7.447530270364453,1.225571428571429,164,4,26,4,7,52,28,35,0.163,0.8370000000000001,0.0,-0.6841,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,3,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,13,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972834780620471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5318902663932918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7358737196783474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29530517583367616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lettxrs,2020/01/10,Advice needed Someone I know has schizophrenia and he doesn’t take his meds. Other than taking his meds what advice can you guys give me for when he has an episode.. ( won’t stop praying and saying there’s snakes on him ),3.113604651162792,5.37651704651163,2.872267441860465,93.61677325581397,76.2093023255814,4.3,20.05232558139535,3.1291,-0.4566697674418605,175,4,34,0,4,52,36,43,0.053,0.887,0.06,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,10,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,3,9,0,3,1,0,0,0,9,1,0,0,2,21,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4913983943878768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411991914003231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489600034277057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13818200209482515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5585748086662063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18643573393591936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999510616034768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21303990799184466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102107689561212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3780953880541535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,DMann59,2020/01/10,"Can't enjoy much these days So... my voices say stuff to me, that sync up with things in the physical world.

There's too many ti list individually. But I am finding myself unable to watch TV / movies as it seems to have hidden messages underlying every scenarios / phrase spoken.

I can't listen to music because its all just metaphors about my life.

I can't go out in public, because people seem to be listening to my thoughts...

I can't rread books, because they speak to me in undertones as well.

I can't browse the internet as I can tell everything is geared to railroad me into a certain mind frame....

I can't go ffor a walk or a bike ride, because the voices just belittle me.

I can't seem to do anything without these fuckers fucking with my fucking reality... as I typed this, my screen orientation turned upside down.... they often do that when they dont want me doing certain things....

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Life got stupid.... Too pussy to peace out...

Too awake to live life.

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All I have left is some mindless self indulgence to some porn, while they scream at me to stop... lol... that... THAT, my friends is my only joy in life at this moment.",3.517267483777939,5.581245187214616,4.207546262917571,85.42620043258833,74.29680365296804,6.802307137707282,26.13818793559241,7.669130373188453,1.439414611872146,892,32,172,12,19,284,131,219,0.057,0.852,0.091,0.8174,0,0,0,0,0,0,62.0,0,0,4,0,11,11,4,0,6,1,19,8,0,0,4,25,32,9,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,0,4,7,0,1,13,5,0,1,5,3,0,4,9,5,1,0,2,9,28,6,33,29,5,23,0,0,2,4,13,14,3,7,5,117,41,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699755313328322,0.30276875621532845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10252281705030143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30378337155124063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08034700061304448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14601265992437928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10496821264772084,0.0,0.1119689400089776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11386840782949145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09625404071689513,0.2303535991049065,0.0,0.0,0.14160902188152655,0.0,0.09964198357220737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353619371657156,0.0,0.3519922020042039,0.0,0.0,0.11001081323118543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12630960774318356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257953070543584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09158428972746874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475248560975022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0863715332293105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990749706167141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34025243967358315,0.1299692973036021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10415861556637238,0.0,0.0,0.14261998683347105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10889275728101104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16553743972707116,0.0,0.0,0.0989065518985804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13551267461832658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07348344467330141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120168523425896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200954676770931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30276875621532845,0.0
schizophrenia,meyoubefriends,2020/01/10,Amphetamines and schizophrenia Thoughts? It sure helps me function.,10.65,14.863301222222226,4.520555555555556,70.66750000000002,92.33333333333334,6.2444444444444445,48.944444444444436,7.1686216300943375,5.611844444444445,57,4,6,1,2,14,9,9,0.0,0.588,0.41200000000000003,0.5994,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4778188441549853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6718674745947593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5659357284639787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,godbegood,2020/01/10,"Miss my friends I wish I could talk to them again I think that this is my first post, has any one else become attached to certain Voices that you here?
 I have done and I miss them so much they are wonderful, healing and good to talk to. They are good friends but now they are gone, and I miss them terribly. I wish them well and pray that they will visit again but in better conditions. They kept me out of hospital and did so much more I love them like family.",4.441631205673758,4.829224510638298,4.454042553191492,91.03333333333336,69.85106382978725,8.394326241134753,25.241134751773053,8.344100000000001,1.1629773049645389,360,9,82,5,6,111,57,94,0.081,0.598,0.321,0.9791,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,10,2,7,13,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,0,1,15,20,9,0,3,2,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,0,4,6,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,4,1,2,4,1,22,9,7,14,3,9,1,3,0,1,17,2,0,1,5,62,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13204976273514174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21445769742676815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17173734574200902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550377560085812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987146172968305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16221333820200134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830565983831357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651702894033754,0.0,0.0,0.3000475723256914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257396790555954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09486704537004982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17525596566511115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28549080735969923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13158209494375675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18597175519292589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31215072140654754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12442336671456852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17459207091271725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4465972148687637,0.0,0.21058104954210186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,dreary41,2020/01/10,"My rambling exhaustion I'm not sure where I'm going anymore. My brain is scattered but every few hours I have moments of lucidity before I'm placated. I've spent days doing nothing.

I'm exhausted. No amount of sleep fixes it. I'm lonely, no amount of socialization fixes it. I feel fraudulent. The only place I could be employed is as a criminal. Ultimately, there's nothing wrong at the end of the day. Did I do this myself? I feel that my entire being is on purpose, and I want to write about it. How do I go about making an income writing about how I am a purpose, yet I don't have one. Why is my memory so bad?

My body, how the cells break down as I age. I'm a student however, not too old. How do I get it to stop? The degeneration. I'm in my mid 20s and I'm ready to retire. I no longer have the youth in me to do this anymore. It's been stolen.",-0.21984429934706284,1.9458365911602231,2.8738849824208934,89.11194249121046,89.16574585635357,5.721848317428428,20.38196885986941,7.1686216300943375,0.6514839779005528,657,22,144,11,22,234,104,181,0.187,0.7440000000000001,0.07,-0.9745,3,2,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,0,12,6,0,0,10,0,19,5,3,5,1,18,35,10,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,8,2,0,1,2,0,1,2,6,5,0,1,3,2,20,1,18,29,3,21,0,1,0,0,4,8,0,0,10,94,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3713267041906748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15631365581501858,0.0,0.0,0.15930306844004485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20794960392815476,0.0,0.20898977895597046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14947302790766792,0.0,0.0,0.24147166379318316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16581368711776842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577336351080086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18931936531138505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09781020250300942,0.0,0.21279304679051045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18436546699440834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12496502855650853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3592686751818315,0.0,0.19644681746077974,0.0,0.1268592545198407,0.14238266627349005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19559601282862205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873465498663989,0.1908383932761364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15651706975557664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764444800004528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11042210357032056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16892912277050495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20468622018451,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,8milesstraightup,2020/01/10,Anyone else really like being on meds? My meds turned me from a fucked up mess to a semi functioning human being with a job and everything (still on disabliity though).  The 20 years ive been on meds have been infinitely better than the 20 years before that where i wasnt on meds.  I just wonder what i would have been like if I had these meds when i was in high school and the first few years of college.,7.085609756097561,5.558263048780494,7.083048780487808,80.7933536585366,64.85365853658536,10.639024390243904,26.59756097560976,9.516144504307137,1.8116243902439024,318,5,68,5,4,102,56,82,0.084,0.813,0.10300000000000001,0.1496,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,5,5,1,0,6,0,12,1,0,0,0,7,15,5,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,6,0,8,3,11,6,1,15,0,0,0,1,1,8,1,2,9,50,11,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09921921329124478,0.14539248949839806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12074575971357886,0.0,0.0,0.12549830264786016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11853856552421828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12752984267424056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12069937891737775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13118351504863032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14992428552881853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14081305112883102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386495537091153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7880900586008761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09090425494611576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436095563833329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11332087680126784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13941523416695248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15434557184389786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538836190413663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10080111361723228,0.0,0.0,0.27413527892863593
schizophrenia,d0---0b,2020/01/10,"I got to 50 episodes today in 18 days of my Autobiographical SADBS podcast and it’s kept me motivated and focused, and todays last episode is a small guide on how to (I think) improve your recovery while not doing anything too scary or hard. I hope it helps. You don’t have to listen, but if you’d like to it’s at [anchor.fm/DivergentMind](https://anchor.fm/DivergentMind) episode 50.",8.680588235294117,9.436907647058828,8.045882352941177,67.65647058823532,60.764705882352935,9.15294117647059,33.17647058823529,8.841846274778883,2.510782352941176,312,11,56,4,4,98,55,68,0.048,0.768,0.185,0.8151,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,3,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,2,0,12,10,8,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,8,2,8,7,0,9,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,3,6,34,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761733715830676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164367181307964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26841305522125464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3006351284726783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22494818507271144,0.0,0.0,0.3333303454810844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735619285492236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16395908811585092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215041394693476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6362264135063129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,arseneincubus,2020/01/10,"Being made fun of all time. Hello Guys,

I am having trouble with hearing things in public again. I constantly hear people saying that I can't read or write and that I am psycho. I am extremely isolated and haven't done anything to anyone. I went to my local Starbucks, and someone called me a creeper and started talking about me loudly like I wasn't even there. I was not doing anything besides reading a book. I hear people say my name in public and they start saying disparaging things about me. I really wish I didn't have live anymore.",3.867104700854704,6.0062177403846215,4.80128205128205,81.22149572649573,73.51923076923076,6.545299145299146,26.94017094017094,7.3871296695380915,1.687473504273504,431,16,73,5,9,140,69,104,0.086,0.8240000000000001,0.08900000000000001,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,13,0,0,1,1,13,21,6,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,0,1,4,6,0,0,0,3,0,1,5,1,0,0,6,7,17,2,8,14,1,9,0,0,0,0,15,3,0,1,6,55,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15323958534076454,0.10804204922656938,0.0,0.2543090510420038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15777938148206028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669782467607718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15812478714621386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10205718191882304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15299636404238284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5224564895415685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07548932011338555,0.0,0.13644155672905214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462079516897017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21424560195036385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3091181157391367,0.0,0.098987702703943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3686349412422368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309219588283823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187362002201169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12419510716269462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20530878110898826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09010024716828338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14323903258954096,0.0,0.0,0.17768720414696326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,rodnahs,2020/01/10,"hi all, I would love to share some things so, I have schizo-effective as per my diagnosis, with depression. My doctor sees them as separate, which may be true.

I had to quit weed because it would cause me mood swings and some form of mania that I was able to mask from my health team.

Last year was about me, my life story, and just creating art of my past (paintings, pixel, poetry, music, lyrics, what have you)

My car ate it hard when the gasket gave out. And I actually look forward to having no car.

I am on risperdal and cymbalta and am doing so well.

I have began volunteering at a local print shop, and they have mentioned wanting me on payroll, which I would love a min wage part time job really.

I want to save up for a puppy, with husky in the mix.

I am selling my playstation games and systems.

I plan on getting bus passes to supplement transportation and will work with my health team for rides for groceries and errands that a bus can't reach.

I have lost roughly 7-4 lbs since last year, which isn't my goal, but I will get there one day.

I want to keep my place cleaner, and I want to make more friends.

I have been creating an illuminated manuscript of an epic poem which has a lot of meaning to me, and yes it has things others haven't experienced or seen that I have.

I really enjoy my life right now, and I can't stress that enough.

I have been symptom free since the new year, with some minor withdraws from the weed.

I had a few symptoms around december since october, but I managed to hurt no one myself included.

I also was inspired by a candidate to overcome my upset view with the current leader of my nation, to donate art, poems, cash, and my attention to her. I actually plan on voting again and being apart of the democracy. I haven't voted in 4 years.

I am about to take a small vacation to Miami to visit my step mother, she's so wonderful.

Anyways, I know this illness sucks the biggest lemons on earth, but it's so awesome to overcome it.",5.293461538461539,5.59631348717949,6.057243589743589,80.57817307692308,67.97435897435898,9.26923076923077,29.583333333333336,9.188382445141503,2.32848717948718,1540,52,308,27,24,506,218,390,0.06,0.78,0.159,0.9906,3,0,0,0,0,0,53.0,0,1,2,8,15,17,1,2,17,1,36,11,0,2,2,49,58,26,0,7,5,1,2,0,1,6,8,0,0,0,18,21,1,1,5,6,6,8,7,6,1,2,12,7,52,11,49,38,10,43,0,3,4,2,17,19,1,7,17,216,70,8,0.11385671852587542,0.0,0.22221546650430885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09105117666984316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013566185141291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0694059988335193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11696221320262735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07342816431787627,0.0,0.09806462483045254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11653717593348842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176444260565544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879654182992895,0.0,0.118970872334023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10199325606054199,0.0,0.0,0.2420487352256365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12188597202261303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129852247570564,0.10120108282601196,0.0,0.0,0.06257267489139358,0.18561684370475912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16084073487604225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956109680144272,0.0,0.12428805799421044,0.0967969105359147,0.20552026746536547,0.0,0.07600024372793053,0.0,0.0,0.12402334471546345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10996352823841063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15430451821633773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12329573090729935,0.10868912098918608,0.0,0.0,0.11895603769229462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12110063505277192,0.0,0.0,0.1458790587111527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09723301551855676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09072906358608196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825503623824071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13042248638969328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366814510145821,0.0856060826880067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15128268923913654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06639076818391412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26862257004967705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10237086359696143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234727544388687,0.08288904711381027,0.0,0.0,0.2426416383958184,0.0,0.0,0.29327997516605764
schizophrenia,PoopyButthole45,2020/01/10,My delusions are telling me to take off to LA and try to become a musician again. Someone talk me out of this. What the title says. I really think I need to start accepting reality and build a normal life but the delusions have been persistent lately.,4.195,6.232968500000003,5.315000000000001,78.33000000000001,72.33333333333334,8.966666666666667,28.66666666666667,9.516144504307137,2.8561916666666662,200,8,36,5,4,66,39,48,0.0,0.96,0.04,0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,0,3,1,0,0,0,8,7,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,7,6,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3562751009096727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3638953570696378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22785472314659105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391962568352936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31606952181642234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066592928783372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565363649772949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27332929944481404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283307281086296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24254739056710686,0.2592854700543466,0.2819577129454405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067025248505772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190173058593432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,throwapath3,2020/01/10,"i fucked up. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck i finally got the courage to tell my mom about my symptoms a few days ago. i didn't tell the psychiatrist everything so he doesn't think i'm schizophrenic. i'm pretty sure i have at least some sort of psychosis. also please read the first post i made on my acc for context, thanks. this is rather long btw, sorry. it might also be disorganized or something, i dunno

mistake #1:

i said that i think people can read my mind. it's actually a telepathy thing (thoughts accidentally going out to people, not people going into mine).

my mom told the doctors what i said and when i say something, i stick to it (might be from a fear of    people not believing me if i change my story). so when the psychiatrist asked me if i thought i had powers, i said no. fuck.

mistake #2:

the psychiatrist asked me if i thought certain things that happened were meant for me. i said no, which isn't true.

basically, i got into the whole paganism/spirit stuff at some point (it doesn't make much sense and i can't really stop believing in it even if i think it's nonsense). so i started trying to give offerings to hekate (the greek goddess) in exchange for favours. i did the same thing with my spirit guide (i got way too into the spirit stuff a few years back holy shit).

the favours usually were getting an empty bus to come quickly to the bus stop (i usually commute to school during rush hour) and stopping the whole telepathy thing. so early on, i'd get a headache but i'd stop telepathically communicating to people. the headache was pretty unpleasant. eventually, it stopped working (no more headache, no more stopping telepathy; bus stuff still works). at some point, i got really desperate and posted on the energy work sub. most people suggested getting mental help (obviously i didn't believe them at first).

at some point i read some stuff about this st. michael guy and asked him for help. the next day (or a few days later?), for the first time, i saw an ad on tv for some new horror movie coming out called michael. the evil horror guy/antagonist's name was michael. i took this as a sign that i should stay away from him (i assumed it was cause i did pagan stuff, like the whole hekate thing).

also, the news was on and i accidentally telepathically communicated with the reporter. like, he seemed nervous all of a sudden.

(also my brain's convinced i can communicate with satan and jesus???? like,, you know how religious people think they can speak to god???? like that and that's also how i communicate with hekate and spirit guide. but they never reply through voices or whatever, just actions like the bus thing)

mistake #3:

he asked me multiple times if there was anything else i wanted to tell him. i said no but it was mostly stuff i wrote above.

mistake #4:

he asked me what pushed me to tell my mom and   i told him that there were some projects i didn't do during winter break cause of a lack of motivation/procrastination so i didn't want to go to school.

i should've added that i think the procrastination is a result of me not wanting to got to school because it triggers my hallucinations/delusions. when they got really bad in 8th grade, at some point i'd just stay up late doing something, like browsing the internet on my phone, as if i didn't have to go to school the next morning. like sort of pretending i wasn't going to school or something. it doesn't help that i'm a night owl. also, i faked sick a few times in that time so that i wouldn't go to school. if i could've taken the school bus, that would've helped a lot since a lot of my symptoms happen on public transport

(it got much better though, mostly because i realized it was psychosis so my brain went from ""fuck i'm doing the telepathy again"" to ""this is very fucking annoying, brain"", since less stress about it = less intense symptoms).


i think that's it?? thanks for reading",4.2785543766578265,5.902749826259949,4.816870026525198,83.6824403183024,71.29442970822281,7.5342175066312995,26.925729442970823,8.104835398774808,1.623149071618037,3075,105,602,44,58,980,299,754,0.151,0.7509999999999999,0.098,-0.9912,1,0,4,0,0,0,120.0,0,1,4,8,34,43,17,3,43,0,41,24,4,8,6,109,117,45,0,18,20,3,0,7,0,4,6,8,0,1,46,21,0,6,14,6,1,14,21,26,0,3,43,9,81,17,74,68,30,90,6,0,1,14,47,29,15,31,48,381,127,19,0.0,0.0,0.036585172737388136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033232932496754145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798861120953018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030851362978219225,0.0,0.17524207822183746,0.0,0.03522341714756856,0.028827764366920063,0.03130287558004246,0.045707537756576926,0.0,0.0,0.12671635582687196,0.0,0.03315716721574319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12555488541387122,0.038281838170030134,0.0,0.0,0.0770258315693317,0.03965981837392188,0.06458923236694318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029932993190965942,0.0,0.0,0.07253452113712526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03837296097273584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03131837607102372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024762022043735375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03369390843804623,0.0,0.0,0.04218706574838624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041068844996727735,0.0,0.09566781554399166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4852291316855344,0.058761480245213965,0.03596415907692683,0.12783977637623994,0.0,0.2098911992521008,0.0,0.0,0.07424267979576869,0.06630518390607998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10051596313126013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036920442072009285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.020603715443881343,0.0,0.042290746823056176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12821123624016528,0.0,0.0,0.03317777925874782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06374590838542334,0.0,0.035474274858867685,0.02502509918512826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03778145413432971,0.07954267182713033,0.037854565359693684,0.1317247314974037,0.0,0.0,0.05511944066262321,0.0,0.028914868482945326,0.036208412840938786,0.07974282331193636,0.03518215302567327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18193761345191825,0.0,0.0,0.04115314524287096,0.14176199165161624,0.0,0.07181078242120227,0.07628232624972688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15000197834462645,0.0,0.07205183301151928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17830953629857255,0.02981383040862965,0.0,0.2655956440860629,0.0,0.034129805840989916,0.0,0.0,0.038483304667322304,0.06202480848812586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11544760960056501,0.0,0.04196737651038932,0.026535862100923242,0.07991944792092323,0.029939841271616887,0.18806166365309612,0.04294506830211172,0.0,0.25750488184046594,0.0,0.0,0.03533421040817853,0.11690048274299016,0.0,0.0,0.13107287049778618,0.0690321530481755,0.0,0.0,0.14944153271751942,0.14413381170679862,0.03683407770594621,0.08928944857367856,0.08744369635060638,0.0,0.0,0.0716472704820041,0.041653157371420765,0.02545348615204457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08258064601774859,0.030933464368311295,0.06633833783733062,0.02975809413525136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03475392927591085,0.0,0.12556990795629974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08188026210058921,0.0,0.0,0.02663206839631857,0.0,0.0,0.024142555693032888
schizophrenia,randomaccountposting,2020/01/11,Anyone in philadelphia? Hey guys. I love this community btw. Anyone based in philadelphia? Im thinking of moving there with a new job and it’d be awesome to have some people to meet starting out. Thanks,1.0244736842105269,3.037028157894742,3.03092105263158,81.79269736842106,109.52631578947368,5.0578947368421066,20.539473684210527,6.6274283507984215,1.085252631578947,162,6,28,3,8,54,33,38,0.0,0.728,0.272,0.9111,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,7,5,1,6,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,1,2,16,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4377763701534598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099635437157212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3381420753563385,0.0,0.31064863522180736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825351311900153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33271705378430183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30234059404571384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21702583071727852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22157470271763127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882095695898898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005864513906372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,helpnsns,2020/01/11,all my friends have left me because of my condition. they say im too much to deal with. i really dont see the point in going on anymore,0.2119999999999997,2.0159415333333364,2.8633333333333333,92.345,83.66666666666666,6.666666666666668,23.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.0913333333333342,106,4,25,2,3,37,28,30,0.0,0.893,0.107,0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,5,4,2,5,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,0,0,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109721062271986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19114624208144396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32327162546160004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36749570719875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422594505319777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17820614893608203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387038813050372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34068916251693904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305062680121188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2964201672653916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008776931364368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493593802848428,0.0,0.0,0.24987061411862366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,eethzn,2020/01/11,"Is having a schizophrenic grandma something I should be worrying about? I’m 16 and my grandma has schizophrenia and no one else in my family has it, nor other mental illness such as bpd, autism, or anything. 

Is my grandma having it something I should be worrying about? I plan on enlisting into the military in a year and a half and it’d suck if I ended up getting what she has",6.914594594594593,6.437117351351353,7.730405405405405,72.58993243243245,64.67567567567568,10.643243243243244,37.41891891891892,10.125756701596842,3.8988756756756766,300,14,53,6,4,101,49,74,0.141,0.8270000000000001,0.031,-0.7907,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,4,0,12,2,0,0,0,9,15,8,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,8,0,8,10,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,2,2,47,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22570691080971314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3454427540097597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291235534572036,0.0,0.24292834563000676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585643003851009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14329860877477485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764070846587486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858574485860912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42230424862761373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5570839788992754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17662563784857574
schizophrenia,Azathothnuclearchaos,2020/01/11,Do you ever see fire? I have scizoaffctive disorder the depressive type i swear everywhere i go i feel or see a sort of fire and people.For some reason just the word fire just gets keep's getting repeated in my head by voice's.I feel like i want to talk but im worried i will just get told your 15 its natural for you to want to watch the world burn.I dont want to watch the world burn but i dont think people will take me seriously.,0.1685630498533719,2.3855273225806464,2.2986705767350952,93.64073313782991,87.60215053763443,6.392570869990226,19.207233626588465,7.686295010490155,0.5767720430107532,343,10,80,7,11,115,59,93,0.166,0.732,0.102,-0.5647,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,0,4,3,0,0,5,0,6,1,1,1,1,19,21,4,0,3,6,0,5,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,9,12,1,8,18,1,6,0,1,4,0,5,3,0,3,3,41,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16667179769110074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22178177743108446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4535897780401701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17504288824446282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19569119288136894,0.13824517374406095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033064552952701,0.0,0.10997745818238212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19859937333841848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20902641219072526,0.0,0.0,0.17200255884382354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09454029950706967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341570128465649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19896279892976068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084083818577269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14549711192564865,0.15553779807313176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12399482147872333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849092258295184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34241557591224325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19652105998146052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,LocalMarzipan,2020/01/11,"Best practices for getting friend to seek help I read through the FAQ and didn't really see my question addressed but did find some very helpful information. Are there any ""best practices"" in confronting someone to try to convince them to seek help when they think they don't have a problem? My long distance boyfriend and I just broke up because of his seemingly sudden paranoid and aggressive behavior towards me and it made me realize that since I've know him (about 4 months) that there has been a pattern of paranoid delusions, delusions of grandeur, hallucinations, disorganized writing, thinking, speech, and behavior, lack  of drive, poor focus and memory, history of abuse in childhood, parental history of mental illness, and history of drug abuse. The delusions and paranoia made got me to start researching schizophrenia and realizing all of these other symptoms and risk factors and to me he sounds like a pretty textbook case of schizophrenia, but obviously I'm not a Dr. and there could be any number of things going on. We haven't had contact in several days. I blocked him because he was trying to convince me that I did something that I didn't do, however I can still email him and I would like to encourage him to seek help and to provide him with some info on where to go in his city. Is there any way to approach this that will be most likely to be successful? I don't want him to think I'm gaslighting him (he already thinks I'm lying to him about our relationship)  and I don't want him to go on the defense. I'm not sure if I should bring up specific instances of things that are symptoms as evidence or just simply implore him to seek a mental health professional and provide the info? Thanks.",10.425245606128893,8.52642679495268,9.209799459215867,69.36227917981077,58.65299684542586,12.085534024335287,44.409418657052726,10.608840637214634,4.7542295628661595,1382,69,237,24,14,429,171,317,0.14800000000000002,0.68,0.172,0.9013,2,0,2,0,2,0,30.0,2,0,3,3,11,18,3,1,9,0,25,6,0,2,3,57,48,22,0,8,8,1,0,3,1,3,6,2,1,0,12,18,0,2,13,1,1,6,8,6,0,0,10,3,34,12,44,31,7,26,0,1,1,0,33,11,0,7,11,162,46,5,0.0,0.2705986309409953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12601414771158498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23296423374421216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13922124847507664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396757473687583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911733356724648,0.0,0.0,0.07364464802306668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13242692478229395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104369780471786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08822476128925742,0.0,0.059660813391077115,0.0,0.19469450932427174,0.0,0.09133009014034124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12138117625378778,0.0,0.0,0.30616302180476124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06275715403001839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16736590868807014,0.0,0.0,0.1010566763546289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161032108490218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23015815211040824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09114728041466516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267971411455455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11617471885741586,0.0,0.10926670021656444,0.0,0.0,0.12792161681647293,0.0,0.11422329731525165,0.0,0.07315457244859692,0.0,0.0,0.12259989716754975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09099655446013598,0.10395646785219503,0.0,0.1290049030383926,0.0,0.09446112936702533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967548459111943,0.08791088478475945,0.0,0.0,0.08082596508978254,0.0,0.09119419434008677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10762498109406084,0.23737924426518914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10513301529687692,0.0,0.0,0.15172870661410287,0.29267950390968395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15505828115279813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942206852609538,0.13470726666078392,0.09064060811616166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08111900123247373,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,adfalcon96,2020/01/11,"Just got my disability review in the mail, what should I expect? I filled it all out, but what should I expect from the process? I haven’t worked, been to school, or anything.

Just nervous about losing my benefits",3.3520000000000003,5.9358422,3.3550000000000004,88.82000000000002,77.0,6.0,22.5,7.1686216300943375,0.7697499999999997,168,5,32,2,4,51,31,40,0.153,0.765,0.081,-0.4606,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,10,5,2,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,6,1,5,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,25,9,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4052883900172555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3939000142796702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5509854030048138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4984398029593482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35854839027551866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,schizophrenicorb3,2020/01/11,End of fears Thankfully 👍,-0.3979999999999997,-2.940341799999999,1.9050000000000047,85.85750000000003,167.0,9.0,22.5,7.1686216300943375,3.391,21,1,4,1,2,7,5,5,0.368,0.263,0.368,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5202512028592626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6609745251621872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5407877245371899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,CrazyDave93,2020/01/11,"Diagnoses changed? 
I was put on 600mg seroquel a couple months back after it came to realization that I was in psychosis for about 10 weeks+ (didnt believe it at first, but confirmed when no one knew what I was talking about). During that time I had many face to face conversations with people accusing me (people I know) of horrible things I've done and said or thought in the past. Things I thought I forgot about over a decade ago.

I was under a lot of stress as I was preparing for the police academy (lol that's over now, got kicked cause diagnoses).

Shortly after my ARNP appointment I was diagnosed with schizophrenia with paranoia being the primary category.

After my latest psychiatrist meeting I was told that I might be Major Depressive Disorder with psychotic features instead.

I'm planning on tapering my meds and stopping all together in about a week to see if anything comes back. I though MDD psychosis involves depressing themes and death, mine were all accusatory and harassing. Not sure what I am now. 

How many of you were misdiagnosed at first? I've always felt a bit depressed but didn't think that majorly to cause psychosis. Also, what are some red flags of psychosis incase I slip in again (told all family members and people I trust that I was going off meds).

Thanks for taking the time to read my rambling",5.587572502685283,7.584021510204085,5.766294307196564,76.68806659505908,68.59183673469387,9.07626208378088,32.078410311493016,9.549672527348893,3.2621836734693885,1070,47,180,24,19,339,151,245,0.17800000000000002,0.789,0.033,-0.9892,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,0,3,14,8,1,1,9,1,19,5,2,3,4,34,37,14,1,1,5,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,13,11,0,2,6,1,0,4,4,5,0,3,24,4,24,3,36,10,8,37,0,3,2,0,8,13,0,5,20,130,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09941807179382776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08968979996348493,0.09332141076127147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09229348086587333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17247955760545233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12635955576373542,0.0,0.0,0.12244351174592714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827470784952144,0.0,0.23042684101642355,0.11864444014424055,0.096611049012785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12409666445820493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897951538758285,0.3415029391072313,0.0,0.0,0.12853861142645606,0.0,0.0,0.11477284789591645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10572914770123763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10768577230161283,0.0,0.0,0.19079688007350706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06373990652756494,0.0,0.08970008597936929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061637102335746576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953496249096249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274138323706392,0.0,0.0,0.24915641778227185,0.0,0.0,0.11897805075063556,0.0,0.0,0.08952053893101086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759986958898303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107064025708037,0.23326113187694766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11274610752322572,0.0,0.0,0.1121847090513214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10668447801280873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08937250304207421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376606563663073,0.12847243871924882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057041555836702,0.0,0.08432611980167719,0.0901454250219511,0.0,0.10325666488349064,0.0,0.0,0.14902074450939196,0.07186398432530802,0.11019108777676646,0.17807606575387794,0.13079621671291494,0.0,0.0,0.21433659161157045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17992692266668886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,bananfluer505,2020/01/11,"Anyone else feel like they have some sort of institutionalized syndrome? I have been admitted to psych wards more times than I can count and I’m starting to feel like that the only place I feel at home in is in mental hospitals. 

I know that it has the opposite effect for a lot of people, but I have to admit that I often feel relieved when I am in the ward.
Not in a way where I get hospitalized when I don’t need or have to, but still.

The staff knows me in the ward. They treat me good, unlike many other people or places in my life. I feel like it’s a sad thing.. to feel at home in a psych ward where I can’t leave or do the usual stuff.

I often find myself longing for the ward when life get’s rough. When I am hospitalized I feel at home. I feel at home with other people like me, even though it’s lonely being there.
I feel at home with the staff, even though they’re just doing their job. 

I haven’t felt at home in my own apartment ever. I have moved around a lot and no matter what I do to make my place feel like a home, it doesn’t work.

The comfortable feeling other people get in their own homes, I don’t. The closest feeling to that, arrives in me when I am in the ward.
I feel like I am damaged.

I have been in wards on/off for almost ten years and now it’s the only place where I feel like I belong. I even started dating someone from the ward many years ago (it didn’t last).

Does anyone else feel like this and do you know if there’s anything to do to stop it?",2.8645194805194802,3.5242407174603194,4.0042496392496405,91.85633116883119,73.57142857142857,6.616161616161617,20.667388167388168,6.351523495107088,-0.009603174603174836,1146,20,268,7,22,374,131,315,0.062,0.787,0.151,0.976,1,2,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,4,2,22,15,0,0,19,0,27,2,0,2,1,50,56,17,0,2,8,0,17,8,0,0,2,0,8,0,18,7,0,1,23,0,0,1,8,3,0,1,4,17,40,12,37,51,6,49,0,3,0,0,7,28,0,11,27,181,58,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05666055016100222,0.0,0.0640058863857045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08938763850361317,0.1309856313239886,0.05260008877439298,0.056901675835505275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055936158228160164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10679264723368533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12665416681786462,0.05781861260440072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4847923293875458,0.319647427993816,0.061372494889813424,0.0,0.05842102795021106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10018549519498088,0.0,0.0,0.05361242642093793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5129296801453456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634299834344959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053850290694398,0.052102712308942735,0.0,0.06768124662792117,0.0,0.0,0.09029609996100256,0.2498216983288925,0.0,0.0,0.05656651654513325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10868370523677688,0.0,0.0,0.04266658946818807,0.1296081549747209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06441556059920013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06793603710778848,0.0,0.04739530701674737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09722692563591827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772542131070445,0.0,0.2671280078073847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0541585651684328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09048473503093048,0.0,0.051045988142893545,0.05343934728911109,0.0,0.0,0.07317223798837548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04246510326017261,0.0,0.12560065878603158,0.0,0.03727182324205737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07039801312257978,0.0,0.0,0.05073611802421945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0465339684603475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08232379059497595
schizophrenia,Kristosfer,2020/01/11,"What personality type are you? 16 personalities based on carl Jung typology (im asking for help with my research)  

Hello dears, im interested in finding correlation between our diagnostics, spiritual interest, discomfort in modern western socierty and personality type based on Myers briggs test, results and insights will be shared. [https://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test](https://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test)

Please take your time and follow instructions answering the test and dont forget to share the four letters personality type result and if you had a mental health issue, occult-spiritual inclination or any info you think/feel important to share,

Thank you!",14.292695139911634,18.009924690721647,12.197790868924887,32.29164948453609,49.51546391752578,12.55316642120766,39.63033873343152,12.031772070788634,6.153254491899856,593,25,60,17,7,184,76,97,0.061,0.733,0.20600000000000002,0.9285,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,1,5,0,0,0,8,0,1,3,0,5,1,0,2,0,15,9,7,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,6,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,7,7,9,6,0,7,0,0,0,0,17,4,0,2,2,33,8,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12916353687843787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17756526796033867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226045144524131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09603775279546267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17359879375857518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018939360359276,0.0,0.0,0.12731063301688814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4103286735824599,0.19824467156063635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19141162029592707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6633819485194417,0.0,0.2084935689135911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14280883530655353,0.0,0.0,0.17486828617670033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217038318153652,0.0,0.0,0.11075367522663747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,HeavyMetalHeartbreak,2020/01/11,"Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! Fuck this! 

Som e one please k ill me. 

I'll nev er be wo rth as mu ch as a nor mal huma n .",-2.9553913043478275,-7.037212930434783,-2.7903913043478252,119.16484782608698,182.65217391304355,0.92,2.3,3.1291,-3.732005217391305,423,0,114,0,50,116,24,115,0.72,0.27,0.01,-0.9994,0,0,0,0,0,0,48.0,0,0,0,0,0,46,46,0,1,0,1,47,0,0,0,0,47,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,46,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,46,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,46,0,0,0,0,0,46,0,0,46,0,0,53,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9995402295226572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.015926967184155878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02580041244067226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,schizo20,2020/01/11,"I am leaving this life. Without regret I am leaving goodbye

I am done wtihout argumentation i am done i am tired

ive bee nhugry and ive been stressed im done

i give everyone to those who surivve who have foudn the real the real

to my jesus

thank you EVERYONE. who have helped me. though everything. without any family you become MINE my family. to advise me and guide me through life my family. but now is goodbye. so goodbye. i wish you everything.",0.3740909090909099,2.606360500000001,2.6459090909090897,85.88886363636364,103.0909090909091,5.836363636363638,23.681818181818183,7.1686216300943375,1.7093727272727282,356,16,66,8,16,120,49,88,0.043,0.8690000000000001,0.08800000000000001,0.5766,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,0,0,3,3,0,1,2,0,14,3,0,0,0,9,17,5,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,19,1,6,13,0,1,1,1,0,0,9,0,0,0,1,50,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09648741576570097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15670205373466142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4355962366164608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711565043091844,0.2550361616600356,0.0,0.4012727721202049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13611007914346615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09510326425062217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15326133940494735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004737934416228,0.0,0.0,0.20043670174563208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3229948968866999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16253005201425852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306296609734873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13940237615480286,0.0,0.0,0.16307720352180852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631620165697537,0.2735462808407127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Starman6427,2020/01/11,"Please help, I'm at my wits end trying to help my brother. My brother has been suffering from schizophrenia from around the age of 12, he is now 20. I'm his younger brother and all I'm seeing is his condition get worse and worse. 

A few days ago he went fully catatonic sitting on a bed mumbling and drooling to himself because of the voices in his head, or at least that's what I can assume.

He is constantly hearing the voices of God and Jesus, and ocasionally they get angry with him and he gets loud and aggressive, liable to injure himself or break something.

When he is not having an episode like that, he is always talking to God, never anyone else and can't hold a conversation at all.

I'm no expert on this and don't really know if it's possible but I feel we need some way to convince him that he is indeed ill, because he will not believe it. He rarely eats beause God tells him not too, He doesn't do anything at all because God tells him not too. It seems like his life is miserable and if I don't help now I don't know if I ever can.

He's been off his medication for around 3 months now, he moved back into me and my moms house after he ruined his apartment because he struggles to take care of himself properly because of his illness.",5.943672665916758,5.4164834685039365,6.584139482564684,80.17196850393704,66.67716535433071,9.146906636670417,32.70978627671541,8.418075326091056,2.412934533183352,987,37,198,12,14,325,138,254,0.11199999999999999,0.78,0.10800000000000001,-0.4678,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,1,0,1,0,10,9,1,2,7,0,20,8,2,0,5,39,37,18,0,4,10,4,1,2,0,1,5,4,1,0,8,16,1,1,5,0,0,2,11,5,0,0,3,7,26,4,27,33,6,31,1,3,1,0,42,12,0,8,16,125,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11563700395044448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10854574173638493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09121442235728183,0.1336625387842476,0.10735011672344524,0.23225822180265426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10030882174799366,0.0,0.3976088120299502,0.0,0.0,0.1469736858237341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13300356154031334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14097126473948762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413014919359058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13348401332823928,0.10897513115341816,0.0,0.11554092945253495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11800046267016415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06595998138532866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20446590212625496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338804345321888,0.0,0.1470278385174875,0.0,0.262315810382386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15052302185776625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14338499465315888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09214144972322214,0.12746360842983873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13141573042491875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152782718347473,0.10412480072515254,0.13864884419738438,0.0,0.096727816605288,0.10061190842293267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431961028262516,0.0,0.14706398252449013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08357029681730709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10395261445795882,0.1187577561278387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004276081320374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637578393490768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09808297095978874,0.10485162990281437,0.2280399727744304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08856771454051009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10354598858863437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12092945024831893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265881573286419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ballardi,2020/01/11,"I’m questioning my own sanity. I keep seeing things like texts or dead animals and hearing things like people screaming and just very violent stuff randomly throughout the day and I’ll seem delusional and it seems so real to me but everyone else around me is like uhhh no that never happened are you okay? And I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Is this because of my PTSD, Anxiety, Depression, Anxiety, or could it be something more. I don’t know I’m just scared and I feel so away from society.",2.2075445173383343,4.848277608247425,3.6635238987816297,84.50310215557641,82.1958762886598,8.063355201499531,25.313027179006557,8.841846274778883,2.404760824742268,396,16,75,11,11,130,70,97,0.256,0.662,0.083,-0.9589,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,5,9,1,1,1,1,7,0,0,0,1,24,18,11,1,1,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,8,8,0,1,6,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,0,4,10,4,6,16,2,4,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,6,5,49,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28056711130989537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16324516757582652,0.0,0.0,0.1722895293689803,0.0,0.0,0.11178543716675053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14641229406762446,0.0,0.0,0.11826354474509312,0.0,0.1579430761245867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531886656899749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17522539707321694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09272135238937168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16216042983624562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066801678822163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629946614930179,0.0,0.0,0.20155934458072572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687674686792607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14143230515715294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12713111387892306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21435889701163408,0.0,0.20542516340768066,0.0,0.0,0.20872414329054967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835932214267963,0.0,0.14612840686908976,0.3338806204499516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14117323030815118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20992376897372875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436561945160186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15130593364750716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20049489517103453,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,elijahp119,2020/01/11,"Losing my grip. So I was diagnosed Schizoaffective last year. I'm 16. My symptoms made school very difficult so I'm homeschooled now. I'm finding it very hard to think and I'm feeling so disassociated. I have trouble telling if things are real. I want to talk to some other people like myself so if you're out there and wanna talk, send me a message. Is there anyway to strengthen my grip on reality?",1.7326923076923073,4.4530379102564135,3.4878974358974415,83.94876923076926,86.56410256410255,5.684102564102564,24.46666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.3577497435897443,319,13,59,5,10,106,55,78,0.128,0.7759999999999999,0.09699999999999999,-0.5346,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,8,4,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,1,0,13,12,8,0,4,2,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,4,8,1,7,10,1,6,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,3,4,36,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423476897892804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12072986702908566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218232504164473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21389204975961446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19463035451262725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11665152243512256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671238400478814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259310341000189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655338503844048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2717738408237063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416491498197589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481746472901049,0.0,0.3838304095933335,0.20869650818683375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586289414826518,0.15299491090022074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39402240755213774,0.14083340982249767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1537607913127142
schizophrenia,Foxxriider33,2020/01/11,Zyprexa and weight gain I've been on zyprexa for a month now and ever since week two I'm always hungry. I feel hungry even when I'm full. Psychiatrist told me it causes weight gain. I got a gym membership to counteract the weight gain but no idea how to counteract the feeling of hunger. Anyone here taking or have taken zyprexa? How did you deal with the neverending hunger?,2.760416666666668,5.4927642083333375,2.9977777777777814,89.60000000000002,80.52777777777777,6.377777777777778,21.5,7.645422480735847,0.9606333333333336,301,9,58,5,8,92,52,72,0.105,0.778,0.11699999999999999,-0.2047,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,3,7,0,0,0,5,0,3,5,0,3,1,12,11,7,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,5,4,0,6,6,1,7,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,5,33,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16564316409809002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391951935556687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20450093246408568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20523363929584945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13148463299827154,0.18007127399980416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013127340739261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15921540341372153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22472712451552296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15889671190496754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16467373234797167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14967674819872284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19022103784609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19446361090824016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15968288806297848,0.7272451798474351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,miniprep,2020/01/11,"I am 1 year self-harm free! As of today, I am one year self-harm free! That's all, I just wanted to share. Thank you for reading!",-2.2132758620689685,-0.4174737931034507,0.2581896551724157,106.12452586206899,97.27586206896551,2.9000000000000004,10.698275862068963,3.1291,-2.147282758620689,96,1,26,0,4,32,22,29,0.0,0.597,0.40299999999999997,0.9037,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,6,4,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,14,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21909443623731195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3234140440998692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6746002075598313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29767564450300915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3064757613015285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907063747256508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4164233916249436
schizophrenia,KianAdams,2020/01/11,"A Friend In Need Hello, my name is Kian.

A few months back my friend of a long time was diagnosed with schizophrenia. It has been a very long few months for him. I will not disclose any personal information about this person out of respect for him, and knowing that he browses this subreddit. He does not currently attend school, due to multiple reasons that will not be disclosed. He has basically been stay at home for the past 3 years. The thing that keeps him company? Gaming. Over this time, a lot has happened to him, again, all personal information. All I will say is that he is attending a therapist, but during these three years, he has refused to socialize, refused to do anything else besides eat sleep game, bathroom, repeat, and he has put on over 170 pounds. I originally met him from my cousin in an xbox party 2 years ago and we've been gaming since. I've got to know him a lot better, and his past. Now he doesnt remember much from the past, due to him permanently blocking out all memories of school, but from what I know, It wasnt good. However, everything changed tonight...

I went to bed after playing some minecraft with him awoke to find a total of 25+ missed discord calls and angry messages. All of this ranged from ""I need you right now"" to ""Answer the f****** call n*****"". Me and him have been in some heated arguments over the past few days, but I'm afraid he might kill himself over this. He has told me that he has very little help from his family and outside sources, and that he wish he could restart in life, I'm afraid that he might restart tonight. I live about 2 hours away from him and I need to know...

REDDIT, IS THERE ANYWAY I CAN HELP MY FRIEND? I care about him...

P.s. person who this is about, if you would like me to take this down, please just ask.",1.8722914357496483,4.410173288184438,2.5364841498559088,92.72456365920344,82.68876080691643,5.979723638513264,22.1539200472918,7.321109707123232,0.7796253454518579,1389,46,289,21,39,431,182,347,0.08800000000000001,0.795,0.11699999999999999,0.8698,2,0,0,0,0,0,69.0,0,2,0,1,11,13,1,2,14,0,30,4,1,2,5,54,50,13,1,7,8,1,0,1,3,6,2,2,2,4,20,13,1,4,10,5,0,4,5,4,0,1,10,2,33,9,46,32,13,49,0,1,0,0,57,16,0,7,29,180,53,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370967720944011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06421807752582234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07771079595910595,0.0,0.08828265638546484,0.0,0.08872346368844837,0.07261359947878122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08351883376769062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928545015707077,0.0,0.0962813357652954,0.0,0.09989821375499372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07539753520616509,0.0,0.0,0.060901851414236985,0.0,0.0,0.09584810314307536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08263946848928076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09662913502252288,0.07888714460829797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08487081901510676,0.0,0.08902358158840591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08631058784391699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21887746553199455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920641252792578,0.07552716631402423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08350730924261084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12659368578044652,0.0,0.09472458755276222,0.0,0.09299806114250038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08393691121771911,0.10447677267849388,0.0,0.20759291937789934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06670123533506796,0.04613548065541721,0.09464726291504688,0.08338658755454895,0.1671415059472766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605681176311332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20035822549442,0.0,0.0,0.15075197662393766,0.0,0.0694195522210345,0.2100639249181652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3605901772606855,0.0,0.3298230632949188,0.0,0.10365972081369584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09493183781478244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09709345547911256,0.0,0.0,0.10697484551021448,0.0806457674474057,0.0,0.07509737878615237,0.0,0.1911436635232593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07811643913797657,0.0,0.09450178595452632,0.0962631497945813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065363911039987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0710023051298126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964467314606194,0.06273747918920164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11012996816071663,0.0,0.0,0.090235339381678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15583519856359146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08754088137513455,0.0,0.0,0.10859396477971196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0670829108774346,0.0,0.0,0.1824364019881876
schizophrenia,meowlingtonmeow,2020/01/11,"Hard day at work, getting it off my chest. I've managed to have a job for a few weeks now, maybe 3 or 4, at a cafe. There was a 2 week break shortly after I started and this was the first week back. I am a kitchenhand/dishwasher and we had an exceptionally busy day yesterday. By the end I was expected to finish a ridiculous amount of work in 45 minutes and ended up needing help and taking an extra half hour to get it all done even with the help. The boss had words with me about being faster and not being slack, even though I was constantly moving and working as fast as I could. I was exhausted during and a couple of hours after.  I'm thinking of ringing my work support provider to see if they can talk to the boss and let them know my situation a bit better as so far they only know I have anxiety problems and not schizophrenia/schizoaffective. I was so stressed I thought I was going to be fired that day and it's all I could think about while trying to move fast and get everything done, which was very hard and I started to dissociate or space out in the middle of it, and even started feeling like I was going to cry, which didn't help. I feel like I'd rather quit now than have to go back into that situation again and receive criticism when another busy day happens. Above the not moving fast enough, there were just bits and pieces during the day that people said that made me feel inadequate for the job, like my brain just doesn't work logically like everyone elses. The people that work there are all very friendly but I can sense maybe they are going to start changing their opinion of me soon. I don't want special treatment really, I just want them to know I have some issues most ""normal"" people don't and that that's why I'm a bit slower, and definitely not that I'm being slack!",7.266083333333333,6.05957388611111,7.222222222222222,78.90500000000004,64.30555555555556,10.111111111111112,32.5,8.998388855275968,2.4864166666666665,1429,45,289,19,18,458,184,360,0.07400000000000001,0.857,0.069,0.1731,3,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,1,0,6,9,22,12,1,1,21,0,34,3,2,3,3,63,66,29,0,10,13,0,6,4,1,0,1,2,0,0,15,22,0,0,10,0,0,8,8,4,0,2,18,9,32,8,39,41,13,55,0,0,1,0,14,12,0,6,38,198,47,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08215353828731671,0.059935151248038575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12048783432286515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06929145145036493,0.2566035145608473,0.0,0.0,0.08746103258665032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08288061406168899,0.0,0.0,0.08466514756243701,0.0,0.1251072222762822,0.08668933614419083,0.08606037237343987,0.2526362911295491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1603521260609894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06544876771014498,0.0,0.13878416796043494,0.08095327384823829,0.0,0.15524213245590718,0.0,0.0,0.07486380443558763,0.07041312683670377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11884361470810086,0.11194205810889332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06664181887630719,0.0,0.0,0.0605306076578073,0.0,0.1227990385629075,0.0,0.17810535704215846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06928189012109306,0.0,0.1403668370071926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575427931006138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15431179646396098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08177379096275343,0.15549438502366095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12917219427288507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08011499629574123,0.0,0.15310531882502296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741337152877472,0.0,0.0,0.15741994954037486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498110137911973,0.0,0.058093221206556224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07676331097511815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05958633516399591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16294759217694807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0749673863008508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08333155425408632,0.0,0.0,0.050191019602110726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07452582723474188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062432322351995626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17613035877696376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.221817308878748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897460900663278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08890711466937551,0.0,0.0,0.058907105820599465,0.06297225703613332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004030385673366,0.07697541501279706,0.06219867387560666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05319239090815679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292887676755888,0.09242204328743688,0.0,0.18853543181689209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07069587606281022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3422247847151597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Luna_underwater,2020/01/11,"Have any schizophrenics here never gotten another episode after stopping medication? Hello,

So I'm diagnosed as schizoaffective when I was 19 years old, I'm 25 now. When I was 19, I was on medication for 3 years and took 1 year off to see if I'd be able to handle it. After a year, I ended up relapsing. Thus, I'm back on medication I'm planning on taking the medication (Abilify Maintena) for 5 years. I've already completed a year and a half. I heard there is a chance for me to be alright after the 5 years of taking medication (my mum spoke to another psychiatrist for a second opinion). I want to know if any of you guys have been fine after stopping medication. And any other feedback would be greatly appreciated. 

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Thanks for your responses, this is my first post!",3.867816210635002,6.04478746979866,5.906845637583892,73.12771295818277,73.63087248322148,9.14837377387713,30.25348477026329,9.661875296680813,3.2942551368094986,619,28,109,17,13,215,88,149,0.023,0.8740000000000001,0.10300000000000001,0.8735,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,2,0,2,7,4,0,0,7,1,12,8,0,1,1,13,26,9,0,4,2,1,0,0,0,1,8,2,0,1,3,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,8,3,11,4,22,14,0,28,0,0,1,0,7,5,0,3,21,71,14,1,0.1055701637027357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11649930081438944,0.0,0.0,0.11438522826516563,0.1282793041290662,0.2153739944190854,0.2213990429489204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08117693943009631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1106883080859014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10715149392378867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09350383015592603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979792731500386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11639147817768385,0.0,0.1045310597832018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058018601072726536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6381050003159189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08142221844170115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077812799300936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10110703453860252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412575225590926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17652276794899646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15875124947095534,0.0,0.0,0.09719482293866807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11729233630382095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06226801778049915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07499401533845379,0.0,0.1282793041290662,0.4758860691954902
schizophrenia,thewigglesworthe,2020/01/11,"It sucks so much that I am probably unloveable Nobody in the right mind wants to be with somebody who's highly fucked. I've heard of people meeting saints who truly care and have pure hearts but I'm stuck in a world of devils and liars. I ache for a heart of my heart, but the Man doesn't let me outside.",2.7060937500000013,4.029003671875,3.230125000000001,94.70237500000002,74.78125,5.745000000000001,20.6125,5.6839178017228535,-0.17827750000000053,241,5,54,1,5,75,52,64,0.27899999999999997,0.665,0.055999999999999994,-0.9524,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,6,3,0,4,0,5,4,3,0,1,8,12,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,2,1,4,1,8,8,1,5,2,0,0,1,5,5,2,0,0,31,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226230749136237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018616891425831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.776239836497982,0.0,0.2306994862054371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232783683676132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22047194631969452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16051287668304362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15137687155096854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354189682393953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18647029131041465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12878889084787234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,selvatorii,2020/01/11,"Medication I was taking Haldol and it made a seriouse damage to my bones like osteoporosis and a movement disorder but it reduces by time and the doctor now telling me that if I can not get rid of my body shaking I should take it for rest of my life. okay I can take even after death but treat me like a human and give a prescription meds, that’s how they treat us in third country world. they prescripe nothing telling me to calm down.",8.230862068965518,6.290680793103451,7.947672413793104,76.82081896551728,62.9080459770115,10.998850574712643,36.69252873563218,9.516144504307137,3.1806804597701137,347,13,70,5,4,111,62,87,0.11699999999999999,0.703,0.18,0.7227,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,0,2,0,3,9,0,1,5,1,4,5,2,2,0,11,10,8,1,2,4,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,2,0,13,6,9,7,1,8,0,1,0,0,7,3,0,1,5,49,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442984123429968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25206477903127833,0.22511298373773955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14526511700792344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490705791720453,0.21098187244862215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553467271044104,0.21489844639923414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20810799211158806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442984123429968,0.22156156293253412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110337439782208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4960916689193358,0.0,0.3844660956160157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12824597643460434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645549505156554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,MobileLyric79,2020/01/12,I think it was schisoactave disorder My symptoms have vanished?,8.533000000000001,12.403678300000005,6.0100000000000025,69.785,66.0,8.0,50.0,8.841846274778883,5.958000000000002,53,4,6,1,1,15,10,10,0.252,0.748,0.0,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6843797309224443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6206621405768611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3826263074555532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,tedbradly,2020/01/12,"PSA Be Your Own Advocate for Medication I started off with quetiapine 600 mg/d \[near maximum dose\]. after four or five weeks, which is when the medication will have reached its peak efficacy, I still had voices reading with me whenever I read anything to a point where I couldn't comprehend basic paragraphs. I'd forget what hims and hers linked up to mid sentence. I had perpetual, quietted voices too. I told all of this to my psychiatrist who just wrote it up and then said bye.

The next time I saw her, I directly asked to change to a more potent AP. She gave me olanzapine 10 mg/d. It made me virtually asymptomatic. It's also what you're supposed to do once you find out your FIRST guess was wrong. I mean, it wasn't like I'd tried many and had to put up with symptoms because of none of them working. Trial and error is the name of the game for APs. You have to find the one that works for you \[unless you are unlucky enough to have treatment-resistant schizophrenia\] while being tolerable.

The point of my story is speak up with direct requests if you want to switch due to ineffectiveness or side effects. Don't let their quiet writing and dismissal of your situation sway you away from trying different APs. One might make you feel like you did prior to schizophrenia hitting you.",5.200650406504064,6.748768739837402,5.7611382113821135,78.099918699187,68.91869918699186,8.881300813008131,29.92682926829269,9.2995712137729,2.631936585365854,1034,40,191,21,18,334,163,246,0.061,0.922,0.017,-0.8812,1,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,12,2,5,6,4,0,0,8,0,21,4,0,3,1,32,35,13,0,3,5,0,1,2,0,2,4,6,0,0,11,10,0,0,6,3,0,1,4,2,0,5,12,8,32,2,36,16,5,26,0,0,1,0,30,13,0,5,15,134,43,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154404940246556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11879171355883505,0.0,0.13495226628580595,0.0,0.1356261012944992,0.0,0.0,0.08799735584603223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15270825432887536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15082005813289284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491571131745056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07299013223486123,0.10312710923610563,0.0,0.0,0.2638753728283705,0.12278813255808273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15902310428660624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476125794722139,0.0,0.1410489426926351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13659201704369026,0.09635796046612084,0.14635312581583967,0.0,0.15724471344789615,0.0,0.2908445800013289,0.0,0.1531376473393379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535229842508423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15373316757330366,0.1956371182079439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27292392102251284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14511646092573574,0.0,0.0,0.2887877604849012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13731448672619626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16226086116549054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10217508159866624,0.0,0.11528194235197425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15003992606635436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08417445395152008,0.0,0.0,0.13793721266673645,0.0,0.19601488843018905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08514421045087407,0.0,0.11579272586980305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21018405028960926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15782932985591258,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,fightingwthwolves,2020/01/12,"Is thinking my boyfriend is going to murder me delusional? Basically I've been diagnosed with psychosis. I've been paranoid my boyfriends going to stab me to death at some point since my psychotic episode last may. When I opened up to him about these thoughts finally he said they aren't delusional. He said it's just self preservation thinking? Should I ask my psychiatrist about it? I'm worried he's right and I'm just being stupid, but the anxiety it gives me doesn't go.",4.343333333333334,6.721911500000001,4.3997222222222225,83.55625000000002,72.8888888888889,8.5,31.25,9.188382445141503,2.9189999999999996,385,18,72,9,8,119,61,90,0.17600000000000002,0.8240000000000001,0.0,-0.9116,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,5,2,2,0,1,0,9,1,0,0,0,12,21,3,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,4,3,0,0,3,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,5,2,11,0,9,13,1,11,0,0,0,0,10,5,0,2,3,40,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17785945427011082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21735317046127225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359794092498157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25468893538004683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230321643540489,0.3963999541146343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895159641088665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21978467335751706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19855103999636856,0.4423154921606554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.242544920763414,0.0,0.0,0.192323797300006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29794918799394504,0.0,0.1845765291566196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361118373610179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Zurevu,2020/01/12,"To those on clozapine, what are your tips and tricks to sleep well and get up in the morning? I got a new job and have to wake up early in the morning. I could really use some help with getting up in time for work.",3.131231884057972,3.3603606739130427,4.24217391304348,91.9586231884058,72.69565217391305,7.872463768115942,24.02898550724637,7.793537801064563,0.814385507246377,165,4,40,2,3,54,35,46,0.032,0.8590000000000001,0.109,0.552,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,1,1,2,1,0,3,0,3,2,2,1,0,7,7,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,1,12,5,1,10,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,1,3,28,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727025172505348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3568950038508842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2731713751426463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289359770578295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3389389472706332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3298743050645099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21880778966765294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34179996526416073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19916247566998027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.294992387280724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070974352031166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24865486995693356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,tescherspet,2020/01/12,"Getting back to “normal” I’m schizophrenic and in the last 2 years have had several manic episodes. The latest one lasted 3 months and ended in a month long hospitalization. I had never been diagnosed with mania or on meds until then. Thanks to the meds and doing lots of work to get better I am back on solid ground. It was a rough time for the first 3 months after I got out of the psych ward. I started working 3 days after my release and was still pretty rough emotionally. My mind took awhile to adjust to the whole thing and for everything to feel like before. To be truthful, I miss some of the thrill of the manic and how it made me more exciting. In the end however it caused a lot of chaos and trouble. Ever since I can remember I have had tons of issues with my mood and socializing and goals. Becoming schizophrenic at 17 hurt all these areas. Today I am healthier and do feel better but each day is a struggle. After my manic it felt like starting all over. 4 months later it just seems like a bump in the road. I continue to remember instances from my manic and I was definitely crazy. And manic not happy. I could never have had a good life being manic. I’m taking meds, seeing my Dr., going to work, seeing my friends and family and am back at my Church. Stuff is making sense again- it had all become so dramatic. Today I just kind of have to live and try to manage my mood. Like always. Thanks",2.7053265080243527,4.887992687050364,4.200143884892089,83.99381848367459,77.16546762589928,6.8668511344770335,20.764250138350857,7.882392219407189,0.9900560044272276,1109,28,211,18,26,368,156,278,0.07200000000000001,0.795,0.132,0.9376,1,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,7,10,21,0,1,16,0,24,5,0,4,7,48,45,21,0,2,5,0,5,4,1,0,5,0,0,0,9,19,0,0,7,0,0,2,3,4,0,2,13,7,22,15,37,29,10,49,1,2,2,0,2,13,0,5,38,151,31,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07934932205169559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21998385770410128,0.0,0.0,0.21064099758949734,0.08114654831468565,0.0,0.0,0.16868093924594155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979636584360072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07613927590739956,0.0,0.0,0.12300197494309825,0.0,0.0,0.09679103103909928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10727008888670418,0.1689259159248669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08626093078256004,0.0,0.0,0.08570575533813743,0.0,0.08989937167429178,0.0,0.09643639117929348,0.0681270600762991,0.09156305029083787,0.0,0.0,0.0811153783462434,0.0,0.0,0.07367690775073774,0.0,0.09964604449620866,0.0,0.05419676287941079,0.07998562394127086,0.07627018229128175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015152603374116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208763500976374,0.0,0.0,0.09953377780792533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09930547249837016,0.0,0.15546649279935387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06735742417380594,0.1863573964925092,0.0,0.08420692240710265,0.08439289959612221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621477436473147,0.0,0.0902343973374984,0.06365527561211573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177790499721589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09628904058770467,0.0,0.3044700681625809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14709903117297315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09343510002952198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0646201653669563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09701804707821796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160544706184949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15198329019249535,0.08681452893850243,0.0,0.10773259345400853,0.0,0.07888492768585427,0.0,0.0,0.09721016080809032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13499627738883688,0.0,0.0761566950775705,0.0,0.0,0.09969369434854664,0.10916736102795818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0717008067380183,0.0,0.0,0.17559413834374554,0.0,0.0,0.06335467365955454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05560669860449425,0.0,0.1807851875783588,0.0,0.1059513567949533,0.0647449452372376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064689366518928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082753244112094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0614103874375108
schizophrenia,sizzly_sauce,2020/01/12,"I haven't been able to share this with anyone. So I'm a 15-year-old male and I think I have schizophrenia. I'm not asking for diagnosis or whatever, I just want to talk about what I see. I'm sort of on medication for it(I have ADD and the medication I take can also be used for schizophrenia), but I haven't been to the doctor yet. I am going to see the doctor next week, but I am scared of talking about it. My doctors appointment is for my ADD and depression FYI. I would also like to make clear that I'm not trying to convince you of what I see, I know that what I see are hallucinations but they still scare me. When they actually appear I don't see them as hallucinations though, I see them as someone out to get me. I only want to bring it up here cause I want to talk about it and they scare me.

I have four ""demons"" that I see on a regular basis and 3/4 of them physically manifest but the other one manifests as a person. I have names for 3 out of the 4 of them. There is Jim, Kevin, and Dog. I gave them names that I could laugh at like, ""Haha, your names Jim your not scary."".

 But the last one, I refuse to give it a name. It's a cloud that shows itself as my used-to-be best friend. She basically told me to screw off because my suicidal thoughts were stressing her out too much. Mentally I was broken for a good while and had attempted suicide, but it got better when I started talking to my girlfriend. 

For reference, Jim is a creature that has no arms but really long legs. Jim most of the time sits on a window seal in my room and cries. When I have a bad day, he has is quiet, but when I gave a good day he screams at me. I think he is jealous of my happiness, but I don't know. Kevin is like a creeper from Minecraft but with really, really long legs and he sits outside my house. He is about as tall as my house and sticks his head in through the window and yells at me. Dog is a skinless dog that follows me around at school. He snaps at me but most of the time sits at my feet. He crawls on the walls and ceiling. 

The last one I don't have a name for. It's a cloud that takes the voice of my best friend and tells me to do things. It tells me to harm myself or to do something that would be bad for me. Sometimes I think it is my previous best friend and I get really happy and start to listen. I have a doctors appointment next week, but I don't know if I can bring this up I am almost too scared too.",2.5093811677631592,3.478502113281252,3.907705592105264,91.0443667763158,74.7421875,7.342598684210527,22.84868421052632,7.7627490962704995,0.7220187499999997,1870,48,441,25,38,618,206,512,0.135,0.723,0.142,0.473,0,0,1,0,0,1,60.0,0,3,8,5,21,30,2,5,27,1,42,12,5,3,1,71,83,45,2,7,19,0,0,3,4,2,6,5,3,2,26,23,0,1,8,1,0,5,10,12,0,4,10,12,74,18,68,68,6,51,1,1,7,1,46,22,1,8,24,298,100,5,0.07212097198724969,0.0,0.07037966508427289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07221873559241129,0.0,0.0,0.11535023048322815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05042866050960813,0.0,0.0,0.06420295560264702,0.06742337319249939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12043599822868213,0.04396427512076713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22705953177072524,0.06378513887409998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07408810486696359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05758272759491698,0.0,0.0792215011880475,0.09302412102525516,0.0,0.06211768749272267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952754834247998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16716145216062858,0.0,0.07536046235998581,0.06918500806434419,0.04098801040880566,0.12098329909313092,0.05768172967437845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15354823152890418,0.0,0.0,0.07401692415984025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16643583705246456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11890740023349307,0.11757643605502555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570399182588504,0.0,0.0,0.1276495813881626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04814130883001472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14530858353216006,0.07268097672950266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0530172127560224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534029438060567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07567882804729187,0.0,0.14661311137195784,0.05485124909176845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06297325090369607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18481016567225894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28882269825810164,0.0729902740060283,0.4022975399808214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06110786552339649,0.055522247747679485,0.07132948542386856,0.0,0.10209519035436193,0.0,0.05759590139147504,0.0,0.08261432974006573,0.0,0.0,0.15777727529325294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10845199073740723,0.2318724215579485,0.12607381675474685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04791396912731144,0.1386366201966488,0.07085848879929739,0.05725599576713055,0.08410863749451704,0.0,0.0,0.06891467941017232,0.0,0.04896540583440651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062289363701599175,0.0,0.0,0.12761645360409454,0.0,0.11570218691640675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024653384959342,0.0,0.0,0.04644354138083987
schizophrenia,SoManyRedd1tAccounts,2020/01/12,"Paranoia and programming I get really paranoid about reddit, so I've made hundred's of accounts and have only posted one or two posts and comments. I try to make them easy passwords (p4ssword, r3ddit, etc.) but I always forget and get them wrong. To clarify, any account with the flair GroupthinkUnited is one of my accounts. The real reason for this post is that I've been getting into programming, game design, and 3d modelling, and I don't know if I should continue, as they seem to be things others have trouble with. I really don't want to give them up but also don't want to waste tons of time on something like a game design job, to find that my games are horrible with strange code and crappy plots. Thank You.",5.777461476074612,6.719119722627743,6.0225790754257895,78.99612327656125,67.1021897810219,8.716626115166262,29.820762368207625,8.841846274778883,2.400155555555555,570,20,102,9,9,182,94,137,0.19,0.733,0.076,-0.9442,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,4,0,3,4,0,0,3,0,11,0,0,3,0,26,22,14,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,11,0,0,4,3,3,0,3,2,0,3,2,0,13,2,18,18,2,8,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,3,3,68,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417365737284724,0.14747559947948474,0.0,0.0,0.12052741532440897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197666396765488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16199164579124414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277797461298986,0.17002213095434895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17588063355924266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09740496358757288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658917321077965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16770618194252412,0.1183072481049382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402011102186016,0.13479692374129482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5092329099077278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017348053929669,0.2270854558577234,0.1822294233132006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16135014600872874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13644590268250406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16317625751393616,0.0,0.0,0.11774856087217543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033484722960854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120332466179199,0.0,0.1731350505877512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20907825740152167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19378112192468752,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,coping1,2020/01/12,"How to stop thinking everyone is out to get you I feel like everyone is watching me planning to kill me. I feel like there’s cameras all over my home and people are watching threw every window sometimes I feel like my cats in on it too. I know that’s not true because why would that be, but how do I shake this feeling",4.803636363636365,4.8563676969696985,5.326818181818184,86.26022727272729,69.0,7.8121212121212125,31.65151515151515,7.1686216300943375,1.809406060606061,252,10,53,2,4,81,48,66,0.12300000000000001,0.769,0.10800000000000001,-0.245,0,0,0,0,0,1,3.0,0,1,0,1,4,6,1,1,0,0,6,0,0,2,2,16,14,4,1,1,2,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,1,6,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,6,10,4,7,11,1,7,0,0,2,0,1,4,0,0,4,35,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12920937218459774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17858616534925967,0.40507536796325183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4286951157140901,0.4542746396695437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074080036947133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21261402362439305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23450328566585446,0.0,0.11648814474986426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.310660107182728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14694697114187394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2096347091940329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772087689490637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358159597248539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912617066787365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15057091264866665,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TeausVult,2020/01/12,"Vent Five years post-diagnosis. Mother continues to refuse to accept it. Started with reprimanding me for symptoms, insults, crazy, retard, lazy, coward, etc.., threats, trying to shame me into not being schizo, twisting stories to make the situation seem less bad to the doc. Even got physical on a few occasions. Forced me to suppress this shit because nobody wants to hear it despite preaching about openness to others. Her reaction to the diagnosis was more hellish than the disorder itself, and that's saying a lot.

Less bad nowadays (namely after remarriage), except now she's claiming the schizo to be autism misdiagnosed. Fuck knows in what world autism leads to hallucinations and delusions. Most recent claim: The paranoia/near-relapse into delusion = epileptic seizure (based on EEG results alone). First points out that epilepsy and autism tend to produce similar EEG results (can anyone confirm), agrees the epilepsy was a misdiagnosis, then goes on to claim epilepsy causes the delusions, that I claimed hallucinations no longer occurred (that never happened, just never experienced visual hallucinations in the common sense), my tendency to space out is a product of epilepsy, etc.. More schizophrenic than me in regards to this. Legitimately concerning.

Funniy enough, she doesn't hesitate to use it against me in arguments. Take an accusatory stance against her, all of a sudden it's a delusion. Feel indignated, delusion. Bitches at me for pacing because it mimicks an old symptom. Can't even be fucking ill in peace, and I can count on hand any 'peaceful' times in my life. Schizo aside, don't even feel like I deserve to be indignated seeing as it's nothing compared to the so-called abusive behaviours she exhibited during the childhood years.",8.664762711864405,10.556085400000004,7.762499999999997,65.68069915254239,61.10169491525424,9.696610169491526,40.85169491525424,9.888512548439397,4.6295050847457615,1423,77,197,28,20,440,189,295,0.204,0.755,0.04,-0.9945,0,1,0,0,0,0,57.0,0,0,0,3,6,12,7,1,19,0,12,9,2,7,3,34,28,6,0,1,3,1,3,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,15,10,0,2,5,0,0,1,7,10,0,2,3,7,16,2,46,21,11,36,2,0,1,2,11,19,4,3,17,135,31,2,0.0,0.16565491802096388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448035566356127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09507727591109937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776013181772494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23347514971554706,0.17045677151222505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14362592273375596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16023720666920593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14446365868251365,0.31185572996883304,0.2770344591411951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14138677433414973,0.09988205853896542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11892441798187073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585087564809034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11182080664956837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12363570800232453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15757881816150415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0768372786656011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987536843190825,0.06830531203308736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11886356467462328,0.0,0.0,0.09332591128815244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156639964529372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415383846157405,0.0,0.14670967126530335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13216797822696358,0.0,0.13390170125193038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380479498356908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11118449007104432,0.0,0.0,0.11141243927853377,0.1272800242922101,0.0,0.0,0.14351549421997056,0.0,0.15715507739491924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09895998789315953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906373850590749,0.10512157970529053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08152577726020112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09492349153251732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12075308653400252,0.0,0.0,0.0824650189024279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18006929716516282
schizophrenia,VixL707,2020/01/12,"My Brother Won’t Take His Meds TL;DR : My brother is religious and schizophrenic. He won’t take medication or get help. Instead he really believes what he’s seeing and hearing is the voice of God. I’ve lost him. 

So, I have a brother who is schizophrenic. I don’t know all the details about his condition. Because our mother keeps it to herself since she doesn’t “believe” in mental illnesses. Instead she believes in God and thinks that religion can save the day. I won’t argue the pros of religion, but what’s happening to my brother is scaring me.

He has since become religious and claims that he hears God’s voice and sees visions. 

Honestly, when he talks to me about all of this, all I can do is be shake my head internally.

He has been dealing with his mental illness since he was a teenager. Maybe even younger. He tried to commit suicide multiple times and was put in the hospital multiple times.

In the past two years since he’s been religious, he refuses to take medication. Or do much with his life. Instead he once laid in the bed for months on end, seeing visions and being “taken up” by God.

One time he laid on the floor and peed on himself because God told him “not to move”. Another time we had to call the cops and try to get him in the mental hospital because he wouldn’t get out of the bath tub because “God told him to” again.

At first my mom claimed that there was nothing wrong with my brother. And that I was a unbeliever for saying that he was mentally ill and not “touched by God” or whatever. Well, I guess I am a unbeliever to some degree, but only because I know what is going on with my brother is NOT God.

One day my brother claimed he was going to kill the whole family and he went on a rampage and punched the TV in the house with his bear fists. All because I asked him to do one chore in the house after he was spending hours lying in bed seeing his “visions from God”.

The police were called AGAIN and he was taken to the mental hospital for the thousandth time.

But this time he was not allowed to come back to the house we were staying at.

However, things have changed and he’s back living with my mom and the rest of that side of my family again.

I went over to visit him and he’s still talking out of his head. He believes that he still hears God’s “voice” and even was trying to explain to me that he sees demons and angels. Then he tried telling me that the whenever the wind  blows, it is because of his doing and God working through him.

I’m scared as shit of my brother. Mainly because I don’t know what is going through his mind and the things that I do know from what he tells me, sounds like he’s off his rocker.

He’s in his twenties, can’t hold a job because of his mind and the lack of a sense of reality, and has no ambition for himself other than believing he’s some kind of prophet.

I don’t want to knock anyone’s religious beliefs, but ever since he got religion, he’s been sicker than ever mentally speaking.

It’s a shame because if you were to see my brother, you’d see a guy who has all this potential. Athletic, tall, can draw his ass off, and handsome thanks to our Mom’s genes and his dad’s genes. But he’s just going to waste because he’s out of his mind.

Every time I remind him that he’s schizophrenic and needs to be on his medication, he completely ignores me.

I don’t want to bring it up again. Especially since I’m timid to set him off and I don’t know what the hell the “voice of God” he hears might tell him to do.

As of late I feel like I can’t even go over to visit that side of my family, because I feel queasy about my own flesh and blood. He said he wanted to kill me the last time I saw him. All for asking him a simple request. ONE simple request at that. 

I don’t know what the purpose of this post is. I just really wish my brother was in his right state of mind.

When he was younger he was still scary to me because he would be mean to me for no reason, shoot bb gun bullets at passing cars, and push me for no reason.

But one day I saw him crying and he told me he was scared because he didn’t know what was going on with his thoughts. That’s the only time I felt close to him, because I battled too with my thoughts and I knew right away what he meant.

I told him to tell our mom. And he did. Then from then on out we were closer. Every time he tried to commit suicide over something as simple as a girl dumping him, I was right there.

But now I don’t know who he is anymore. Especially after he stated he wanted to kill me. 

I feel sad. It’s like I lost him even though he’s not really gone.",3.9182961837217145,4.547142202127663,4.866068895643366,86.75055555555555,71.12765957446808,7.925700776764606,27.899358324890237,8.010603183788097,1.5748471800067545,3570,122,769,46,63,1166,312,940,0.131,0.7929999999999999,0.075,-0.997,3,0,1,2,0,6,84.0,6,2,0,4,33,28,8,6,40,0,74,17,6,3,10,122,147,54,5,10,18,16,5,3,0,6,11,12,4,2,38,49,0,4,22,2,1,19,23,19,1,7,46,26,107,9,122,90,14,109,4,3,9,1,151,45,3,8,43,484,145,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04388183279608069,0.0,0.0,0.04150249696148936,0.02926146536984885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782454532741285,0.0,0.039318071728844765,0.06435787319624321,0.0,0.3826571341444991,0.046218413776851985,0.0,0.2357448146283695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08546405664023846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044270196075693824,0.03604880327872724,0.04387738775390471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04596864541186492,0.08096651988473423,0.0431439971135338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037065376489835294,0.0,0.0,0.1105622381596817,0.07570878294935562,0.07051838327720464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11835320965633125,0.0,0.06347962288932657,0.029896598364418707,0.040181151755271184,0.0,0.0,0.035596338442896794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06559238944634596,0.0,0.14270090480722838,0.0,0.03347009256805905,0.0,0.046100874103191074,0.041436624353085934,0.037006517083386585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08589733065280357,0.0,0.1886653401512105,0.0,0.02805018768999256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04121237254086589,0.14486275561348466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04152820892798425,0.03719689650017169,0.1388975950013343,0.043578804418502384,0.18399086228558129,0.034112137593649464,0.04720696490317998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02955885451582308,0.06133523407147815,0.0,0.0369530189015853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0913652285196634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042042473449769004,0.04558531774721729,0.04648428301962074,0.12647397458112053,0.2530408536088629,0.044394677315101945,0.16902034346538913,0.19604997133127386,0.03340309757844153,0.044478364804636066,0.030763484879212263,0.031030154911360568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04015479342534913,0.0,0.0,0.04456731891617696,0.14178823569184915,0.06365538602739332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03994915737295092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04007932396667252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04206933153172923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08042772019174227,0.0860545178969648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10721524850266873,0.03980753547421377,0.03327963092300463,0.1256930379128677,0.0,0.23343502317062964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04295691491071621,0.20770521998649985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032217043112127586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04460496511056768,0.10026087092026384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915509995801494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09439465987746708,0.06727252682379077,0.14630983990981924,0.038528504116644366,0.0,0.0,0.05560460794248947,0.026814848407512262,0.041115968483148885,0.06644611696703273,0.2440221451928176,0.0,0.0,0.1599522560906239,0.0,0.14206202511279184,0.0,0.04087993321415583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09873338957179327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037626854491231,0.07758801358793131,0.0,0.04672238951458497,0.048123744486817915,0.0,0.0,0.030466228427525967,0.0,0.0,0.029727995188741512,0.04575479832392676,0.0,0.026949081415907482
schizophrenia,Redz0ne,2020/01/12,"Anyone have any tips/pointers on how to get into the habit of remembering to take medication? Recently put on meds and I'm sometimes forgetting whether I've taken the pills... so if you have any tips you can share on how to build the right habit, I'd be grateful.",4.000576923076924,5.555729442307693,4.910769230769233,83.0092307692308,71.88461538461539,8.276923076923078,28.384615384615394,8.841846274778883,2.141292307692308,209,8,42,4,4,68,38,52,0.0,0.898,0.102,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,2,0,8,8,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,8,6,0,7,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,1,23,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4046765177436873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20804776608846012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15545302697858993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33050126226490445,0.2997415149623536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812726630710462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29911114619125084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29378609707643555,0.0,0.3370562436241987,0.25409860898016223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942759127192719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223713996889378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,AnnabelleSugar,2020/01/12,"Schizophrenic friend (UK) is going to travel to America to meet a man she's never met IRL. Worried. So I (26 F) have a friend (29F) who I met a few years back. She was homeless when we met and I took her to live with me. She has severe schizophrenia and wasn't medicated at the time and was being taken advantage of by a group of men who were basically pimping her out at the time we met. I managed to get her to cut them off and moved her in with me where they couldn't find her.

 She lived with me for a while and I managed to contact her dad. She had cut him off and he had given up with her because of her ""behaviour"". She thought her dad was against her and with the government bodies who were after her (part of her delusions). It took a few months but I had to fight to get her help. She was a danger to herself. We became close but it became clear she desperately needed professional help. The mental health services here in the UK are free on the NHS and it took sooo long but eventually she ended up being sectioned. She was abusing drugs and getting involved with sketchy people again and ended up pulling a knife on me and herself when I expressed my worries to her, so that's when I decided I needed to get her real help. I'm not mad about that because I know she was just scared and confused. She's never shown any signs of violence before of after the incident. She isn't dangerous. She's a great friend. 

I felt terrible but she even admitted when she was released it had been the best thing for her and thanked me and didn't hate me for it. Her dad also was back in her life and supporting her. She seemed stable for the past few years but recently has come off her medication and she's getting bad again. She's now met a guy online and she's planning on flying to America to meet him. I'm very worried about this as she has a tendency to be taken advantage of and she isn't stable enough to be able to look after herself in another country. She's looking at being homeless again so I said she could stay with me again, but my new housemate and one of my best friends also has schizophrenia. He's medicated and stable but I'm hoping that he could maybe talk to her and she may listen to him. He wants to help too. He's very open about his illness and understands it well and has his medication, but she is refusing help again and denying anything is wrong. I'm scared for her and I don't know what to do. Her dad is no longer in the picture again and she has cut everybody off except me. I'm not sure I can ""stop"" her from going because she's an adult however she is having severe delisions again and I'm scared she's going to put herself in danger. I don't know who to contact or how to get her help again. 

Sorry if this was a ramble I do have adhd and go off on a tangent at times.",2.828629981884056,4.304295255208338,4.14590881642512,87.64105978260868,74.74652777777777,7.022584541062804,25.368961352657003,7.665016162671287,1.2249715881642511,2201,74,464,29,46,725,228,576,0.142,0.715,0.14300000000000002,0.062,1,0,1,0,1,0,47.0,3,0,2,5,31,31,9,4,24,0,49,10,1,1,4,84,96,50,0,8,14,4,1,0,4,1,9,2,0,4,17,42,0,2,10,1,1,12,12,16,1,1,32,5,96,16,78,55,8,74,0,0,2,0,114,27,0,6,34,345,113,5,0.07554958179498734,0.08951390046802221,0.0,0.0,0.09079591580879354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12083394653227855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05137630632614111,0.07922032380142993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062170868575719636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11618593000593914,0.06308074509067466,0.13816297150907492,0.0,0.0642871296179055,0.0,0.15856925011009412,0.0,0.0,0.08391855394017564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06507927509923621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12064038707575254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08761352947741506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13382901033290112,0.07806291367043118,0.0,0.049899786250513486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07253944627972063,0.0,0.06905094906454236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23347767794386645,0.0,0.2368292297633077,0.0,0.17174627349954796,0.0,0.0,0.08329368064242705,0.0,0.0748059638653669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07458957094432017,0.0,0.08030567259035562,0.0,0.0,0.3038357529620639,0.0,0.0,0.07503778145740063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12456022308681255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05336290388837199,0.0,0.0,0.13342332971495266,0.06685900248187053,0.12688524211880006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07589970946703929,0.0,0.0,0.3044330217573186,0.07613620899806914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06030295540370511,0.08029724916813645,0.0,0.1120381152314163,0.1165369899285516,0.07296625687684095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05119435186282823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181283483097065,0.07212062443668299,0.052376567437161334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07594819663847223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08599196399107177,0.0,0.0,0.07459609765309065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07186495296718291,0.0,0.2269149333236632,0.0,0.0,0.06877750182230329,0.0,0.1706990461896837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845715714841251,0.0,0.08052580200174005,0.0,0.06316283326694645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08573277011790206,0.07120458674920079,0.0,0.0,0.06072389207951539,0.0,0.06955590451039466,0.0,0.0,0.050191785134929605,0.0,0.0,0.05997792897504231,0.1321607060949001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25181509561155635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07864977904768647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12467263434628295,0.04456110076485219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06792814717371695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23017280273034085,0.0,0.0,0.0826016077207774,0.0,0.09730290737126954
schizophrenia,blahblahh20,2020/01/12,"Scared I am reposting this here because I feel like this community would have more knowledge on the topic. So, i started to believe I have schizophrenia a few weeks ago.  I don't hallucinate at all. I have been having horrible horrible constant intrusive thoughts though. I also feel like when I'm in public i feel like i recognize some strangers as people i know for like a split second. Songs also play over and over in my head too. This morning my phone made a random noise I hadn't heard before, I immediately thought what if the government is spying on me. I then felt very anxious after that because I don't know why that was my immediate response and it just reaffirmed my suspicions. I am scared I will lose my ability to decipher rational from irrational. Does this sound like schizophrenia or the start of it?",4.7106938159879315,6.972446444444448,5.273202614379088,78.21864253393667,71.48366013071896,8.62926093514329,31.37707390648568,9.265573868473778,3.0751683257918554,658,30,115,15,13,211,101,153,0.147,0.742,0.111,-0.7574,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,8,9,0,2,6,0,14,1,1,1,1,19,27,11,0,2,3,0,4,5,0,2,0,3,0,0,9,2,0,0,9,2,0,0,3,3,0,1,8,7,22,6,14,17,4,15,0,1,0,0,3,7,0,4,13,83,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13869519224451018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502471396569471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17675888803204154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19075703706830008,0.0,0.13313866479846154,0.1762804544723652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16908114181489756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13692200652533845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373374954249835,0.33533203827826336,0.15022921509022866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16057638965791546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719761730156923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38220009753390655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17504230650176628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480492692531962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847188693532824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3132939301651438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22149092595550052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15372430612538945,0.24842861793879106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12909853163787685,0.0,0.0,0.12550534665855806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14118370770557448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111469728546259,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,liliesandsunflowers,2020/01/12,"If you (those who are struggling with schizophrenia) could tell people who don’t struggle with schizophrenia one thing, what would it be? What do you want people who don’t struggle with schizophrenia to know?",9.811666666666667,10.321421277777782,5.852222222222222,85.165,58.444444444444436,7.2,34.66666666666667,3.1291,1.7529333333333341,170,6,28,0,2,44,23,36,0.19899999999999998,0.768,0.033,-0.755,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,7,0,0,0,0,8,9,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,23,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2046883281837192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408926946154513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17372103238812514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3554654385511056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8040319027257604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22407621049847304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17031895929468696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15121200186230335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18211588534895187,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,DrRougeDit,2020/01/12,"How to tell someone that you think he/she has schizophrenia ? So I think that the girlfriend of a friend of mine has schizophrenia. I've seen her couple times, at first she seems normal but in certains situations, like where there was an accident, or near a cimetery, she says that she see ghosts and hear voices, and she's 100% serious and really scared. 
Ok then, let's believe her. Maybe ghosts are real. But I was really suscpicious when one time, during night with my friends we decide to stop in a field for watching stars, and she said that she wanted to leave because there was a car accident at this place and she pointed the ghost with her fingers. But, this field was my grandmother field, and his in our family since centuries and there was never an accident or a car accident...
Another time, we went to a famous bridge where the legend says that a woman died falling the bridge during her wedding noces. When we where at the bridge, she told us : do you see the woman over here ? There was no woman. And it wasn't the bridge of the legend ! It was the next bridge. So then we went to the next bridge, and she again saw the married woman...
So guys, this is clearly the symptoms of schizophrenia. How to tell her ?",4.4078016213638564,6.089008094420599,4.24631616595136,87.67407129232237,71.06008583690988,7.06618979494516,24.96161182641869,7.594959193182576,1.1510707677634722,958,28,186,11,18,292,118,233,0.14,0.7959999999999999,0.064,-0.9607,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,6,2,0,1,16,7,0,1,21,1,14,2,1,2,3,33,27,23,4,2,5,0,1,1,3,0,1,5,0,5,10,15,0,1,4,0,0,5,3,2,0,2,14,11,28,5,21,12,0,32,0,0,5,0,39,13,0,3,15,130,38,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14376010665239167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08357419142989098,0.0,0.0,0.1544634648749204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516972788941694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422869696538098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292446019891152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11661621871551656,0.0,0.0,0.21184447545490304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13574942423204273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545203771899554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14516789528105167,0.0,0.1401928712023573,0.0,0.06697957696708183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1377342303626151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057390912909578,0.0,0.2916123820156025,0.12865799105357625,0.13432777215485325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0929017344368316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14323912677467127,0.0,0.1296027352301427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560485153480522,0.17565807831080793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13041240943457044,0.21805302951114136,0.13725987410923016,0.0,0.21850007941204008,0.12480965139757373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11340959221202132,0.15410486079094068,0.0,0.0,0.11616341761795572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11462078430383232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14249820784543024,0.0,0.0,0.2396608898205429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17569482500174785,0.0,0.0,0.2398303401420241,0.0,0.0,0.13100383421617556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649130458315776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08086445865281218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541840301015058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,NoInappropriateness7,2020/01/12,I dont believe im schizophrenic and want to stop my pills Hi I've been on zyprexa 15mg for about four months now. I would know if I was sick and I dont think these shrinks really put a lot of thought into my diagnosis. It feels like they're just doing this to sedate me and nothing more,0.11571428571428301,2.19118120634921,1.9676190476190487,96.98571428571432,86.14285714285714,5.504761904761906,20.11111111111111,6.868970318607317,0.13757777777777758,228,7,55,3,7,75,52,63,0.096,0.838,0.066,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,0,0,14,11,4,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,1,7,1,7,7,2,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,4,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28588537404634995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5947779368275904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283018374666755,0.1812765260520982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740897264538065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394524217015746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239677060863959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21572617138220815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025380083242413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434765777617742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550852836315363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625564837057532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21214340763831704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625904896161244,0.0,0.20144635029399388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14966624002468806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802542091451524,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Throwaya77848,2020/01/12,"Experiencing rapid blinking and finding it difficult to keep my eyes open after being on Aripiprazole (Abilify) I was put on a low does (5mg) of Abilify on the 8th December after being on 650mg Clopixol (Zuclopenthixol) injection 

From July-November, I was getting 650mg bi-weekly Clopixol (Zuclopenthixol) injections but had to stop because they were giving my horrible side effects e.g have had a horrible chronic head pressure thing ever since I started it. 

I spoke to my doctor who took me off it and suggested Aripiprazole (Abilify), but wanted to ease me up to the therapeutic dose as my body has never done well with anti-psychotics. I was put on a low dose (5mg) of Abilify on the 8th December, which was then increased to 15mg about 7 days later.

On December 27/28, I started feeling like I needed to blink a lot. It started off slow but by the 31st, I couldn't stop blinking. I stopped the tablets and have spoken to my doctor and a neurologist who think the blinking will eventually go away. It started getting better around January 8th but over the last few days it has gotten really bad. I wasn't even able to open my eyes properly 2 days ago, I have to hold them open. I've been taking some 0.5mg Clonazepam tablets because I have read that it can help with this, but so far it hasn't done much. 

Has anyone else dealt with something like this? I feel horrible, I can't cook or clean or do anything. I have been eating mostly microwavable meals the last few weeks. Can the Abilify still be in my system after 2 weeks? Any help or advice will be greatly appreciated.",6.6068333333333324,7.021335883333336,7.115333333333336,73.73433333333338,65.16666666666666,10.266666666666667,35.0,10.125756701596842,3.6112,1255,55,222,27,18,412,162,300,0.125,0.763,0.11199999999999999,-0.6333,0,0,1,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,2,2,7,10,0,1,14,0,32,12,4,1,2,37,50,15,0,3,8,0,2,2,0,2,5,1,1,0,15,11,3,5,5,2,0,5,5,5,1,0,15,6,26,5,36,28,7,51,0,2,2,0,9,21,0,6,26,148,41,3,0.11622029136912496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11356912364280412,0.10302227596761213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07903378349461239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08126392998166307,0.11908142278628694,0.0956393971861949,0.1034606994511636,0.0,0.0,0.1091927894793381,0.0,0.09703908876840577,0.1416936218017485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027874031741914,0.0,0.12909454372188134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22485741980480856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23791278578342226,0.101705160171844,0.2378674177878385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189223724981628,0.09708714037684144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07676240634963406,0.10512790728062472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11752894269052475,0.08302779937601512,0.0,0.0,0.10622324080327578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12144061084947565,0.11148909358896138,0.06605066988273935,0.0,0.0,0.12813328152813155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11927554849959394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15580002297224918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10330193496870436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894700983629861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11355872769856573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09880633564508072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08543528663442221,0.0861758734282414,0.08963625345756501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23366698617168224,0.0,0.0,0.11625174223052112,0.0,0.07445369464170361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09613862600789287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08947205830565966,0.0,0.0,0.329045281654494,0.0,0.09281367481525377,0.2914961027542458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08738319531586068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07721159739239046,0.07446926993964972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12912502001019646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0685497390134286,0.0,0.2796747223092136,0.0,0.10449599943673003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,CaliforniaBaer,2020/01/12,Closed Wards are no joke Ive been hospitalized recently after a recent suicide attempt. And this closed ward im in is no joke. Shit goes down here and its all normal here. I dont belong here. I want out. I cant even leave the ward to go to the garden yet. Its terrible.,-0.5148684210526326,1.709204245614039,1.8869956140350903,94.22417763157895,94.26315789473685,4.955263157894739,15.896929824561406,6.6274283507984215,-0.2238754385964908,210,5,47,3,8,71,42,57,0.27,0.6409999999999999,0.08900000000000001,-0.9057,0,0,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,0,1,5,4,1,0,3,0,6,1,1,0,1,8,8,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,0,0,3,0,1,4,2,0,0,1,0,4,2,6,7,1,10,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,4,31,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400516333583353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19164020818399324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16489795889626538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31340994141271816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072251435496598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842837185390225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5729728625362467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29783304873195915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173751347843195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17113697811473685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,peachydrinky,2020/01/12,"am i schizophrenic or just stupid ?? I'm scared to talk to my new therapist about this,, schizophrenia has been a problem on my dads side of the family I believe. I'm almost 17 and my other therapist mentioned the possibility of me having paranoid schizophrenia but we didn't talk about it. I'm paranoid about basically everything, specifically my boyfriend. its wrong and im stupid, he's been semi loyal for years and he's never cheated but everything he says makes me just, assume the worst. we took a ""break"" in october and he fucked other people and I still think about it. recently he's talking about if he ever had feelings for other people he'd stay away from them but I get so irrational (or, delusional as he says) I think the worst. i don't even wanna talk about it, because its so stupid and it makes me think about bad things. I'm new to reddit and I don't know how anything works, I just need support from someone. anyone.",2.932197667280544,5.39344049171271,3.9780755064456734,84.45181553100062,77.78453038674033,6.895150399017803,24.97268262737876,7.984000788550335,1.6196038060159608,743,27,139,13,18,240,99,181,0.244,0.701,0.055,-0.9911,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,2,0,1,1,16,13,5,1,6,0,10,2,0,3,2,33,26,17,0,4,9,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,11,9,0,0,6,0,0,1,4,11,0,0,5,3,19,2,21,20,2,14,0,0,0,1,19,4,1,5,7,91,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13392033559748345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09351345026716207,0.0,0.11005583921883524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256522357559234,0.0,0.11166651678749302,0.08152608087328385,0.0,0.0,0.15067810664880074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833337829199196,0.1209746234448153,0.0,0.0,0.24039206127325624,0.0,0.1260772697159642,0.0,0.0676224798611297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12363959260957062,0.06987313144742534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14446111897718664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07349948188037313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785437028696781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09916580770680797,0.10314779671288547,0.25833200723124644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18543562979752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15077067924661164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12797020478102114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13205117312559675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21270931389749315,0.1338961156049375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11331665933236128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425480280571853,0.10680417456929843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15176548406090812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4299775156144465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105626797418165,0.08885027926203776,0.25708374081236324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14858900055282193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09736361801692522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14622265165015752,0.0,0.08612356055581859
schizophrenia,mccartercompany,2020/01/12,"What if I know? I hear voices when I take amphetamine or smoke weed. Under those conditions I can make white noise quite literally talk to me. I have tested this and I know my brain will make vocal patterns when non-discernible audio stimuli is heard. When I am not under the influence these auditory hallucinations are much less apparent and border on paranoia. Under the information I can control what the voices say also. I am paranoid and anxious but not to any great degrees outside of my own domain of sanity. 

At times I do think others are talking about me in the other room but I only think this is apartments that are cheaply made when in fact many times I do head other people. This is multiplied when around minorities in the USA because they communicate more non-verbally and indirectly than whites, Asians of Jews. I am not one for non-verbal nonchalant nonproductive communication. 

My father has a history of schezoid thinking. 

I have been in amphetamines for years and it has quite literally raised my natural threshold for true psychosis in edition to taking psychedelics. 

What if I know of these symptoms? What if I don’t care about them? I know this is a disorder of language and people. What if I take on a profession in which addresses the later two? Talk only when I know what I will say will be correct? 


How bad can this get? I am 25. I know my limits.",3.9876470588235264,6.662545411764707,5.0005490196078455,77.37847058823529,75.27450980392156,7.844705882352938,27.84705882352941,8.726425361277474,2.529616470588236,1100,45,188,24,25,359,143,255,0.07400000000000001,0.88,0.046,-0.7141,1,0,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,2,4,11,4,0,0,9,0,26,3,2,6,3,38,45,21,0,4,10,1,0,0,0,3,1,7,2,0,20,7,0,2,10,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,3,9,31,3,28,38,4,25,1,0,2,0,11,15,0,6,10,144,51,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10483907402860901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08915117873442899,0.0,0.0,0.1481034961918804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11670507093195773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10946140706534692,0.0799161627105792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14634879561558053,0.0,0.0,0.1336632129815771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14703762572680285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15024973859189356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06849332731361568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445360778422315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13454443495874432,0.0,0.14775704549856938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43228840318411627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12404815751656414,0.17501795077896734,0.13291285974961348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09637216102012584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888354406823908,0.19941196961647029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18177378091154672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2788778554558571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20850888399638848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13626108454419772,0.29570828522416115,0.31611497264118354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25200703677806563,0.0,0.0,0.1528886701967227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12806375876059384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08442285468488248
schizophrenia,lovely-life-,2020/01/12,"Confused I really know that there is something wrong mentally with me but I don’t know if I need to go into a mental hospital. I have tried talking to therapists but it doesn’t seem to help has anyone ever seen a doctor that takes brain scans of your brain to really see what’s going on inside, I really want to get this done but I don’t know how common it is or if my insure will cover it (probably not). How did you know when you really needed to go to a mental hospital?",2.5032575757575763,3.9616826969696985,4.969583333333336,81.47437500000005,75.56565656565657,8.586363636363638,20.455808080808087,9.188382445141503,1.5239989898989896,373,8,75,9,8,132,64,99,0.040999999999999995,0.9,0.06,0.4097,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,5,2,0,1,3,0,10,3,2,2,1,21,25,9,0,5,7,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,5,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,3,3,11,0,11,21,0,8,0,0,3,0,5,2,0,5,3,54,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10720933411310468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3423257820089972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15693599452173834,0.0,0.15690606812882535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13869244249943585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08010667848822214,0.0,0.2614166581945093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027714062157114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3370565619187752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4635506300851726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273790600317181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16531171520160454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3928990895024946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12218123282852054,0.13958253120720054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11803809875849106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11528231756208088,0.12323789519297465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17802368536493507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10409851265203564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904358412756448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676382709747022,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,whatevalyn,2020/01/12,The girl who cried wolf A car was waiting for me outside of my work just at the right distance across the parking lot... I seen it there with the tinted windows::: I stock my tounge our at it and it waited until I got into my cab to follow me home. It sucks that no one ever believes me about stuff because Of the delusions I get sometimes... I use to a prostitution so when I get followed it really makes me nervous... I work a legit job at a cafe in a small town for over a year :9 it doesn’t make any sense why a creep would be following me ... idk what to do so I’m just going to pray about it and leave it be .,1.9106106870229027,2.90162055725191,3.6609847328244283,92.14766030534348,76.25190839694656,6.156030534351145,23.023664122137408,6.2581,0.3247093129770988,467,13,109,3,10,157,87,131,0.081,0.9,0.019,-0.6808,2,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,0,2,9,2,1,1,12,0,6,0,0,3,1,14,21,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,12,4,0,2,0,0,0,5,2,2,0,1,3,1,16,0,19,15,1,19,1,0,1,0,3,10,1,1,4,77,28,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15098120490939948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13534132368256846,0.0,0.0,0.2501404971929014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24387853104499066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20082978960401596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319925598935449,0.0,0.12617907536526798,0.0,0.17756966593867154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22270414989472712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22032057937631072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350871096375697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18875345388714396,0.0,0.0,0.2964001313779343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15044648947199088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14223168915767775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18960385625303908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21958344470241764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541597679039075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19175398460595075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20033850574481005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3232663903325898,0.0,0.0,0.15771662907585993,0.0,0.0,0.14297359275735813
schizophrenia,blinkrm,2020/01/12,This maybe a little unconventional. But I belong to this community and want to give back to my local hometown. Started a go fund me for a little lending library. If anyone out there can help out. It’s a good outlet for me and for a good cause [lending library go fund me](gf.me/u/xbnkh8),2.328988095238099,4.863526303571426,3.853571428571428,84.05809523809525,80.60714285714286,5.161904761904762,25.404761904761905,6.42735559955562,1.0085690476190483,227,9,42,2,6,75,38,56,0.0,0.8140000000000001,0.18600000000000005,0.8316,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,8,6,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,8,6,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,2,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19039425106746447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093772289360379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797208788931784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612091549208921,0.3095018374736774,0.4567744689177094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825128854633821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5458201157298078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.273555857313303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19273104925526824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16060601823314372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,05username,2020/01/12,Cancel/reschedule appointment for further out? Added a new medication about a month ago and things are going well. No symptoms/paranoia in the past month. Doc told me to make appointment in 1 month and I did. Do you typically still go or contact them to cancel/reschedule for further out? Sorry it may be a silly question.,3.3805569007263934,6.400731559322036,4.09714285714286,80.70033898305086,80.86440677966101,6.083292978208232,28.767554479418894,7.447530270364453,2.156291041162228,258,12,42,4,7,82,46,59,0.071,0.8690000000000001,0.059000000000000004,-0.168,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,5,1,0,1,0,8,9,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,0,4,2,9,5,0,15,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,3,7,30,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21872528025294904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804626697538497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16470474981886213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485704530978197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5908504745501214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23830864901622303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355468035686967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764117870819505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2762117423616612,0.0,0.0,0.19705152933773795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16392695773618626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357762035755614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22185412375568334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,twisted-glass,2020/01/12,"Hi I’m new here literally no karma at all but I need help. (Posted this on a few other subs as well)

I don’t think I’ve ever been this depressed my whole life, and I’ve attempted suicide before, you’d think that’d be the worst of it.

I have schizoaffective disorder which, if you don’t know, is schizophrenia + a mood disorder. The mood disorder could be depression or bipolar disorder, and I’m the bipolar type. Of course bipolar comes with depression and right now I’m just so so sad.

I’m a student in my final semester before my bachelors in psychology. I never thought I would go to college so I’m so so proud of myself for getting a degree. With that I have 3 jobs; 1 full time salary as a supervisor, and 2 part time ones.

I have no idea how to be a supervisor. I’ve been there only a month and they say my program is chaotic, plus some of my staff won’t even talk to me.

I can’t handle that with school. I’m so scared. I was manic for 2 weeks before it crashed into this depression which has going on for also 2 weeks. I was prescribed lorazepam to help, and in the past it has been a miracle worker. This time it hasn’t done shit.

I haven’t cried this much in as long as I can remember. I feel so stuck and lost and just overall broken. I would appreciate it so much if you could put just even a little bit of good vibes and positive energy my way.

You are all loved so much. Thank you.",1.2295094205474584,3.2748196082474266,3.3268847019789085,89.08298969072166,81.43986254295531,6.762933996919067,22.061974167555398,7.873277556716777,1.0294321839080456,1090,35,237,20,29,370,151,291,0.25,0.628,0.122,-0.9935,2,0,0,0,0,1,32.0,0,5,1,4,21,16,1,1,13,0,30,6,1,1,4,40,50,29,1,7,7,0,1,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,16,15,0,0,7,0,0,4,9,9,1,1,9,2,28,5,28,31,12,30,1,6,0,1,12,11,1,4,13,162,44,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08188791171611548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614003239508816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11179246117333012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08820709886275956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16351347696184426,0.0,0.11247976303347253,0.0,0.0,0.3527821444728141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4694294543587797,0.0,0.0,0.104789048918989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13526626940198574,0.09262515666274283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051775675035827126,0.0,0.0,0.11217237109198852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053498903840659744,0.0,0.11639066740359992,0.0858868653643755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13727089132804582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155952565462533,0.0,0.0,0.1016145474284208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056275447113960486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0723269724763853,0.0,0.1026300329436743,0.0,0.09061930442204716,0.0,0.0,0.11177987910361924,0.0,0.0924184954748113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08173337427161392,0.0,0.2258236755702497,0.07592706811458297,0.07897590881368627,0.0988969502835866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06938776206547492,0.07787854821492493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108874184473321,0.09775079762382156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09806929966984662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10293860955154747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599735249303635,0.08744761882151937,0.0,0.08143126617115433,0.10251859713452648,0.1036325820746371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10511041964615464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11200715885783784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823039031062013,0.0,0.09427462946201516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131225437148817,0.0,0.08129284019556048,0.17912787827628676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08127903228336977,0.16427553595482086,0.0,0.09206840094914412,0.0,0.0,0.11432408446827265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454816788413257,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SchizoSchnauzer,2020/01/12,"Should I get checked for schizophrenia ? (Symptoms) So recently (the past few months) I started hearing things way worse than usual. I had been told my hearing was bad for the last few years, because I’d either hear something no one else heard, or not hear something when in close range and paying attention. I passed it off as being distracted, but recently, it’s gotten to things like whole conversations in empty halls, strange footsteps when home alone, and a persistent ringing in my ears. I did some research and found that some other things I had (delusions of grandeur, bouts of euphoria where I lose control, and a few visual hallucinations) matched with schizophrenia. The only reason I haven’t gotten tested is because I would technically have early onset schizophrenia, as I’m not yet 18, and any time I say anything about my health (being sick, feeling dizzy, weird pains) my parents get mad and tell me not to speak that on myself, as we’re very religious. I found this sub and saw many things matched my experiences, and my “conspiracies”. Thank you.",9.177619047619046,9.046395465608468,7.639201058201059,73.95626190476193,59.95238095238096,10.099682539682536,37.947619047619035,9.3871,3.5273022222222226,849,36,142,12,10,254,130,189,0.153,0.755,0.092,-0.8126,1,1,2,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,0,3,6,8,1,1,5,0,12,5,1,2,0,26,29,16,0,2,6,1,1,1,0,2,4,10,1,0,10,10,0,1,5,0,2,1,5,6,0,1,12,12,20,2,17,13,7,23,0,1,1,0,12,8,0,3,14,91,30,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12445345240841454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08171550138440174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09888456489881456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10033174981603016,0.14650146856870352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13477391414453135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1003814318773213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11754324941107852,0.0,0.0,0.06075842541303578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635067984760515,0.0,0.0,0.12556124691499046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277284952731908,0.5417333220892401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12053408422561628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09794953120356913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05870596066741269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13443255021297132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12182722796327927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09591359496522804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08142609754706953,0.09138998110054168,0.1278627503583692,0.0,0.13342767423509394,0.0,0.11470993941425177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12354839480252992,0.23729450234691266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09555907303044407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18501592056110544,0.0,0.0,0.08505255278080412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12489619319426253,0.0,0.0,0.1050284535108113,0.11063067818132463,0.0,0.0,0.3193259446595951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07006847536102663,0.0,0.0,0.11482165589900298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323434438908449,0.0991477156789786,0.0,0.09538042753118416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415858613668735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12245717327337448,0.08536091250116433,0.0,0.0,0.07738154443731986
schizophrenia,Ammar753,2020/01/12,"My delusion Hello good people
Does anybody else feel that other people are dead inside like titans from attack on titan but at the same time faking everything. They don't let themselves feel any emotion at all. They are so dead inside that they only see black and white physically but somehow are able sense other colors. I dont know how. I feel like if one let themselves feel emotions they are manipulated through guilt cycles. Does anybody feel like this at all?
Thank you for your attention",5.984238095238098,8.0959659,5.550952380952385,78.165,67.77777777777777,6.920634920634923,27.301587301587304,7.447530270364453,1.6828253968253972,401,13,64,4,7,123,63,90,0.187,0.6890000000000001,0.124,-0.8381,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,4,0,3,8,1,1,1,0,8,0,0,2,2,17,16,6,2,1,3,0,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,7,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,9,9,5,7,14,3,5,0,0,4,0,7,4,0,2,4,41,14,0,0.17071614933876458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11609283565656422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19421426525635932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29878970544436384,0.0,0.2000780555974956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14261143695471404,0.38406538048119343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534286671848267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43159607276016826,0.2439193023966259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14318860649251064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09382113106357837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34913765814375297,0.0,0.2502098620834116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568168096061808,0.12983732433644382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23670616556735385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13603866832863076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15717249387311946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09954595954233997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,hooker_anonymous,2020/01/12,"Why Don't You Take Your Meds? (Serious) I'm curious, why don't you take your meds? I often read on this sub that people take ""med vacations"" for months or a year at a time.

You would have to pry my meds from my cold dead fingers to stop me from taking them, logic being that after a while, you are able to tell that they do help, side effects suck but its better than the alternative.

So, looking for feedback, thank you.",2.650252100840333,4.244379705882352,3.72218487394958,90.00411764705885,75.47058823529412,6.739495798319329,21.55462184873949,7.447530270364453,0.5936386554621844,325,8,70,4,7,105,62,85,0.07,0.805,0.124,0.6966,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,7,2,2,2,4,1,0,4,0,7,1,1,1,0,7,15,4,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,13,2,11,13,0,9,0,0,1,0,11,3,1,2,6,45,18,2,0.15681012536282926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386858128437506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10510652161512478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13168101166552135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6967227958632801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12516434600874926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10871239669047228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15685256040975776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311002862959397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4716067960478344,0.0,0.13705896125316572,0.14436969532932134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09143724513268957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829934957704007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113934139554634,0.0,0.0,0.10098057951175116
schizophrenia,cfbuzzkill90,2020/01/13,"I believe in you! I just want everyone to know that I know things are hard. I know you may be going through a rough time. But things do get better. Keep persevering. Keep working hard. Keep going. You got this! I've been there. I was hopeless. I thought things would never get better. I felt powerless. But I kept going. I kept fighting. And I changed my attitude. I went from being constantly intolerably negative to someone who can be positive. And there are rough patches. I'm in one myself. But the future is bright. We are so strong. We're good people. We can make it through anything. Our resilience is astounding! So just know, I believe in you. I believe you can get better. I believe anyone can turn their lives around. I believe in your strength. You are not powerless, you're powerful!",0.8925934803451554,3.1845884966442948,2.1658940556088204,89.0122734899329,103.6308724832215,5.081591562799616,24.113374880153398,6.7097532225279775,1.3787025886864808,622,28,114,11,28,198,84,149,0.127,0.682,0.191,0.907,3,0,0,0,2,1,30.0,3,7,1,7,7,9,1,0,2,0,18,0,0,1,1,27,41,7,0,2,6,0,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,5,6,0,0,4,3,2,0,1,8,6,28,7,10,28,0,13,0,1,1,0,13,5,0,1,4,80,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07888921561595101,0.0,0.09284459941457164,0.1004373456787244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6355704772982088,0.0,0.2993511738889148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11935291002802835,0.0,0.0,0.12192274217476234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10780823738233912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832880392193464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768377655867528,0.0,0.19236156333319834,0.09463148011108316,0.09023571840691752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20213641824333964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30084966195198604,0.0,0.0,0.2480206411871666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09962572410304872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531094528282226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0870168810149288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07645251224380048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07821800682245418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09559547151142893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224865903831432,0.0,0.0,0.08956971194026743,0.06578862467707826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227201939287595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06654656183460235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10458904664867892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08213726937614152,0.0,0.0,0.08014698487011203,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,vaultboyvore,2020/01/13,Help They keep telling me to rip off my flesh and my arms are bleeding from how hard I’ve scratchdd at them. help please they keep getting louder I want it t,1.9109090909090904,3.781606151515156,1.5727272727272743,103.37909090909092,78.3939393939394,4.4,23.12121212121212,3.1291,-0.4364060606060605,125,4,30,0,3,36,28,33,0.04,0.706,0.254,0.765,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,0,5,5,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,0,4,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,0,15,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808096760069937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3100148334027325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4639329706668086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6152139473586191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3798859470684439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30248442281976423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20412374435014655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Vivian9,2020/01/13,Clopixol Anyone here tried it or on it?,0.8212499999999991,3.2852086250000028,2.2800000000000007,92.965,87.75,3.2,20.5,3.1291,-0.36865000000000014,31,1,6,0,1,10,7,8,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7174388899703786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6966214460939822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SchizophrenicAlt,2020/01/13,"Three Days Without An Episode I'm only really making this post because I'm kind of happy with the current state of things.

For the past three days I haven't had a single episode. Paranoia here and there and minor hallucinations, but never a full blown episode. Hopefully I don't have anything until my therapy appointment next week. I plan to tell my therapist about my symptoms (I made a previous post about this).

Finals are this week. In the words of Geralt of Rivia 'f**k'.",4.295533707865168,6.710712752808987,4.791446629213485,80.52514747191012,73.15730337078651,7.596067415730338,27.97893258426966,8.472884824447931,2.2680213483146066,381,15,66,7,8,121,62,89,0.018000000000000002,0.9129999999999999,0.069,0.6432,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,7,0,5,1,0,2,1,10,10,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,0,7,3,12,8,2,15,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,10,45,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16729191610730432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12392485831570993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622129214306728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226963449448558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164080129215974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019147315781955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116972355110308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923597157716141,0.13569892508188613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15679124957680676,0.0,0.2162032471155034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15461265433047608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19406512614784252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38939489956696494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13023399984035688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21129812823018976,0.0,0.0,0.17768608530148058,0.0,0.23248201027315235,0.236037570265222,0.13505810841040342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3261370074008241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19596614179696564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Babymeyas,2020/01/13,"How come I don’t know what I was doing while I was having a full blown hallucinating episode Can you do something and it not even be real? But you remember it being like that?

I started doing adderall cocaine and molly all at once. And one day I remembered going to work riding my bike  but stopping at Taco Bell first  there seeing my regular costumers and I started hallucinating at work seeing people yell out schizophrenia, people were reading my thoughts like telepathy,  asking if I was okay and saying oh no. And I remember walking into the mangers office saying I wanted to leave early. And as I was leaving out the door my co worker asked where I was going. And I just walked out of the door.  But saw my other manger outside talking to a red car.  

It was weird so i was thinking in my head I’m dangerous and a car literally turned it’s car completely and went the other direction. HERES THE TRICKY THING my friend/co worker asked me a couple of days later why I haven’t been showing up for work and didn’t mention I just left work randomly that one day .  I have no recollection of doing anything but going to work and having those hallucinations I remember even getting home and feeling hot and sweaty from riding my bike to work. 

What the fuck could I possibly have been doing if it never happened and why did it all seem so real?",3.6223652845391965,5.817626223938228,4.793244921940577,80.7542521403391,74.4054054054054,6.820950142689274,26.318784623132448,7.7425588080867325,1.6826436461306018,1068,39,190,15,23,351,140,259,0.09300000000000001,0.871,0.036000000000000004,-0.9348,0,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,0,9,10,6,2,0,10,1,27,2,1,1,3,49,51,26,0,4,9,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,14,20,0,1,10,4,0,12,7,3,0,3,15,9,29,3,20,33,3,35,0,0,4,1,9,12,1,4,13,142,43,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08122957727197046,0.0,0.2768404095003083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08502956652501681,0.1034951211034022,0.0,0.0,0.07881157098645887,0.1092202775345628,0.0,0.19097854748761509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303934989473155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04991053170999602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396232197431687,0.0,0.0,0.07626277996552022,0.09125542009437737,0.05157168370555499,0.0,0.16829679455193722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08728855939741723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.101304511200986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09901376133403272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054248206049114234,0.0,0.0,0.20903839445618724,0.10724825215533597,0.0,0.0,0.09644903374431543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07613091666006655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051224857403506,0.1337763378829203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368655941068528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11128022490345177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09873629650897016,0.22470623440860985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4472748668847396,0.0,0.0,0.15699564668575247,0.0,0.0,0.15731751741806813,0.08986149826817351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07599146050317115,0.0,0.0,0.1397343036368965,0.0,0.0,0.08252563239204551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07933902480259332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0655782616913312,0.063249115897012,0.0,0.07836438396155318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073676825407558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05822147029350432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915047735691691,0.17814009306256776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4311705179472699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,spaceprincess95,2020/01/13,"Emotional abuse break up I was dating a guy for a year. The relationship was stressful. He was always weird and shy but he opened up.

 Things were ok but sometimes he could be randomly snappy when I asked a question or had a doubt about something. He started to be distant and opened up about issues he had with his family which made him distressed. He would often take his frustrations out on me. And later apologise. 

Sometimes when he would take his frustrations it would be delusional accusations. Making claims that I’m trying to marry him when I wanted to break up. Which I was confused about. He stopped talking to me once and was angry everyday and mean. I didn’t understand why. He didn’t see me for 2 months. He later admitted that he saw me speaking to a guy at a party and he didn’t like it and that was why. 

When we started officially dating he was hesitant to commit he asked me many times if I was sure. First he made excuses then he said he hears voices and acts mad sometimes and asked if i was sure. I didn’t take him seriously because I thought he was exaggerating about him being depressed. Or using it as an excuse. 

During the relationship he would put me down daily. It seemed he resented me and would get angry easily. I didn’t understand. It was irrational behaviour. So I left him. The last time I saw him he shouted in public that he can get any girl he wants. He said he never wanted to be with me. 

Another time I saw him he shouted to me that “I know what I did” I was confused I asked him what did I do. He couldn’t say but was angry. This was in public too. His best friend calmed him down and asked why he resented me and what I did. But he couldn’t say. He then made up false situations and it seems that he really believes it happened. He also claims he’s famous. I explained that he wasn’t. But he insisted that he was famous and people come up to him in the street. When I didn’t agree he was upset and passive aggressive. 

This all happened over the last year. I still love him. But I’ve blocked him since September. After he shouted at me in public and was aggressive. I’m worried that something might be wrong mentally but I’m not sure. When he calms down he says sorry and says he misses me and says he doesn’t know why he gets paranoid and angry. I know his sister has severe mental health issues. It’s in his family.  

I’m just confused about everything. I know he hasn’t got much friends. And he’s not close to his family. I’m just worried something might be wrong.",1.7947096296296294,4.217421508000001,3.3375111111111124,87.62605185185188,81.92,6.503703703703704,22.059259259259267,7.728297695733946,1.1110481481481491,1974,64,394,35,54,649,195,500,0.19899999999999998,0.6890000000000001,0.11199999999999999,-0.9929,0,0,3,0,1,0,47.0,1,0,0,2,18,31,7,7,12,1,52,2,0,5,6,88,103,42,0,13,15,1,0,1,2,7,1,13,0,3,25,28,0,2,13,0,0,3,14,20,0,1,40,17,56,11,40,46,3,57,0,2,4,1,97,24,0,15,29,238,81,0,0.0,0.08172923866572769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055162753513273266,0.05739633694612741,0.0,0.0,0.0469083168037432,0.07233085271997812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224318582520785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04204916560143728,0.0,0.0,0.07771609515774877,0.07238956195369381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05941959381691935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055074390326462566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059411804720647214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07759247346777735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061994183244631476,0.0,0.1950827490813779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058673791617783674,0.0,0.0,0.10658653440429047,0.0,0.1081165748623617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0551690798174806,0.0,0.0,0.13660078361922054,0.12199640563221238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07332181311542367,0.0777447297794989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14399301974786272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15163696584465336,0.11245473778252307,0.0,0.0,0.07494625506258099,0.0,0.0,0.033699821387631355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06225654775051837,0.1958097589166408,0.046044245281028566,0.06993422432471544,0.0,0.07513872356903631,0.0,0.0,0.1390299018090459,0.1463523586788924,0.0,0.0,0.05505865132308476,0.0,0.05070775198228082,0.0,0.05320111967782371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07346074617325933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04782158925241525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06934328921925104,0.07727264779531724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0441899317106623,0.0,0.0,0.148115993361182,0.0,0.0,0.13123029746322842,0.27427570015740904,0.0,0.0,0.054967603430728484,0.12559240144553036,0.0,0.07792702034603331,0.0,0.057060423105800624,0.07753566861392436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15931099855687542,0.20466699405013775,0.07721672403975884,0.09764786419264676,0.0,0.05508699026474309,0.05766981717796986,0.07901560125236412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195036635676452,0.0,0.15559163795362968,0.05544298083906587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0458268086286445,0.0,0.0,0.05476189112805403,0.1206672241315175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04683244413826277,0.0,0.0,0.14361985187074808,0.0,0.0595760026135283,0.0,0.0,0.1220574062992324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24897250226888404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14010373681517616,0.0,0.2450047211620945,0.15083616011115358,0.0,0.0888408671484114
schizophrenia,sscottstewart008,2020/01/13,"MY FREEMASON SCHIZOPHRENIA - anyone else hearing about Freemasons?   

Friday, 22 April 2016

This treatise has not been composed using the ‘transcripts’ that I continuously wrote from February 1992 (in particular from 23rd November 2007). It has been written based on my memory of the events and dialogues that took place within the denoted time-frame.

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# My Freemason Schizophrenia Account From February 2004:

· They state they are Freemasons and rejoice in being corrupt

· They claimed until March 2016 that they had to follow rules. Number 1 rule – must tell the truth (in telepathy) and be honest (about corruption).

· Admitted by end of April 2016 that none of them followed the ‘old’ rules of Freemasonry

· I deduced from partial statements that the *raison d’etre* for my chapter (and probably all the others) is to exploit a loophole in the rules of Freemasonry that made it easy and safe to steal (inheritance) money from schizophrenics

· Put drugs onto table and AVH’s enflamed

· Torture schizophrenics (to get at their money) by depriving them of sleep, exploiting natural coincidences, AVH annoyance (repetition), being in ‘bad taste’, providing antecedents of common delusions, “automated torture” using technology that at the very least includes a ‘tape recorder/player’, leveraging ability to ‘drop-in’ on perception thus achieving “1st person” position on the perceptual and sensorial information experienced by their victim, at least exploiting 1st person status to claim cause of, or actually causing (telekinesis) physiological stimuli, abnormalities and anomalies (such as twitching) to deprive their victim of autonomy, volition, and privacy

· Bikies from 5/5/15

· Code words, Adam Secant, bad taste

· GK, SO, RT, GS, RJ, PK, WWB, MY, NNB all having wild pornographic style sex whenever I take drugs or have sex with myself

· House keys taken and duplicated early April 2015

· Spare car key went missing 16/12/15

· Kept transcripts that were effective tool to win against AVH’s until November, December 2015 when they became counter-productive

· Started HOST 2/5/15 to counter Freemasonry

· Their 300 + years of tradition centered around their master – (slave) servant relationship with D.E. Ghosts ended when I pointed out that any contract they relied upon is invalid *ab-initio* (due to no element of consideration etc).

· Their pivotal and purposefully directed and applied claim to be able to kill D.E. Ghosts turned out to be baseless, and by all evidence, and outright deception and lie. Easy to guess why they would perpetuate such misleading and wholly untruthful lies.

· They said some statues of me had been erected on other ‘planets’ where Freemasonry had been avoided or defeated. They were composed of light. (a trap to induce later worry, fear and inconsolable sadness).",13.606900452488688,12.805076092760189,11.316330316742082,53.29264027149324,51.647058823529406,14.269864253393669,49.475565610859725,13.023866798666859,6.896341719457014,2251,121,284,60,20,685,282,442,0.134,0.7909999999999999,0.075,-0.9847,1,1,2,0,0,0,88.0,0,0,17,5,9,20,6,2,13,0,23,10,1,9,5,53,43,26,3,2,4,0,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,2,14,22,2,3,8,0,4,6,3,16,0,0,17,6,28,4,65,19,8,49,0,5,0,2,26,22,0,5,20,179,42,3,0.132383495413477,0.0,0.129187194974758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14343746197126214,0.16086043702302405,0.09002531650465545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925656180626869,0.13564253540880988,0.0,0.1178493778488912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22106937801591145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719886330035276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070456514029695,0.0,0.11058942333885456,0.0,0.23450496686629274,0.0,0.1476425913826433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14896823714269536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06916491242626648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14583534524518724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14920582067037189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15275277955882535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14646272342837324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252644642592405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389142091355504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23118432385118215,0.13831257631638474,0.0,0.12514519329296198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273179865566338,0.0,0.0,0.13308197745732767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14213033093395722,0.0,0.0,0.1259270196536287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13247910119063458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09370171942777053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09953591322165088,0.0,0.11570901003013533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07719388077546767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14708293442487586,0.0,0.14399522813219034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286736705477814,0.0,0.10923024803733797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227208265417794,0.11945551367515575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13444186564017466,0.0,0.09404143687369457,0.0,0.16086043702302405,0.08525063068288953
schizophrenia,JamesHowlettt,2020/01/13,Good luck to anyone starting or going back to school I dropped out a year ago and I’m starting over. It’s not easy but John Nash did it,-1.6310000000000002,0.2394512333333374,0.12333333333333485,104.86500000000002,103.33333333333334,2.4000000000000004,16.0,3.1291,-1.4087999999999998,107,3,26,0,5,34,26,30,0.059000000000000004,0.8029999999999999,0.138,0.3065,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,5,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,4,4,0,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,5,14,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3521793452771476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777989263660549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3054964584162829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257927371137976,0.3332334257608485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40208523385576617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5624169664823038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558458979844717
schizophrenia,timbersofenarrio,2020/01/13,What do you wish therapists knew? I'm a new therapist working with people experiencing psychosis/schizophrenia. I am very passionate about my job and want to be the best that I can! What do you all wish therapists knew? What has helped? What hasn't?,2.881594202898551,5.9045551304347805,3.304347826086957,85.02724637681159,84.65217391304347,7.41449275362319,25.057971014492754,8.344100000000001,2.13556231884058,200,8,37,5,6,62,35,46,0.0,0.688,0.312,0.9417,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,0,1,8,13,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,5,2,3,10,2,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,25,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191572699709352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13997630707613593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20723445381077926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016921395040196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14477845511670429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.727413362346053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723090332107001,0.12317506936236795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4802951132012277,0.0,0.0,0.15203285599919664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Trimbaaa,2020/01/13,"shit and piss, PISS AND SHIT, shit and piss, PISS AND SHIT, shit and piss, PISS AND SHIT, shit and piss, PISS AND SHIT, shit and piss, PISS AND SHIT, shit and piss, PISS AND SHIT, shit and piss, PISS AND SHIT, shit and piss, PISS AND SHIT, shit and piss, PISS AND SHIT, shit and piss, PISS AND SHIT does this sound oddly melodic to anyone else....?",13.371029411764702,5.551359926470589,9.990588235294119,83.99264705882355,60.029411764705884,13.6,35.470588235294116,3.1291,1.8747999999999987,257,1,65,0,2,71,11,68,0.8340000000000001,0.166,0.0,-0.9993,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,0,0,40,40,0,0,0,0,40,40,0,0,20,0,20,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,20,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,40,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,40,0,0,22,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03393841743354965,0.04973221250823032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04247532923693128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04054669640371046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9964570751809142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,624132,2020/01/13,"Is this caused by long term paranoia I feel really bad every day about family. My family is getting older and we are all struggling. I can’t hold down a job. Ironically, neither can many of my other family members with the same illness. I’m getting nowhere. I grew up normal but then this happened. 

I’m a very destructive person and though I have empathy; I think my empathy is powerless to stop the interpersonal destruction. The things I say and do cause harm to people around the world, they are unintentional. Sometimes spell like words that kill people. It’s not psychotic in my view, but this disorder is what was recommended to me as an explanation.

So anyway; I have horrible pictures in my head. Painful, family dies. For a while I tried to fight who was being broadcasted into my brain, a group of gangs from other countries were coming to kill me because I figured something out. I freaked out and got hospitalized. Then I got released later because I was able to fake my way out (you may dislike me for this, it’s not pleasant as many know. I didn’t sleep for two days there and felt worse after than I had gone in).

So many people constantly being supportive and I would say its helpful but I’m removed from human society, they don’t understand that. People talk to me and all I hear is a grey empty noise like a drone. I’m not trying to be rude, I truly can’t understand what they’re saying.

But this is turning into a tangent. What I’m trying to say is I really wish I could be with my family. I’m so tired of this life. I’m away from them and I can’t work and I have no friends or relationships. I don’t want to kill myself because that would harm them but every moment I know that’s the most logical option but I push on because inside I’m not a logical person.

I’m not coming to read this. It’s unlikely I Will. I have to reread because for some reason I can’t pay attention as I’m reading so I get trampled by ideas but I will stop writing here so it doesn’t go on longer.",1.8893047619047645,4.259144540000001,3.847785714285717,84.43883333333336,81.1,7.00952380952381,23.773809523809533,8.11559375814309,1.5957059523809525,1576,57,308,32,42,533,200,400,0.24600000000000002,0.6859999999999999,0.068,-0.9979,2,0,1,0,1,2,39.0,1,1,4,1,12,19,7,1,14,0,38,7,3,3,2,66,70,29,4,6,13,0,2,2,1,5,4,5,0,3,23,20,0,3,13,2,1,7,15,14,0,1,10,9,48,5,46,50,7,37,0,0,2,0,22,15,0,5,16,211,71,5,0.08214970475230624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07313065397836452,0.0,0.0,0.07718235181770816,0.0,0.06859157207271584,0.2503884876550671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09170623904211764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16878075191651504,0.0,0.14152939322428096,0.0,0.08877464661996369,0.0,0.06558985466240247,0.0,0.0,0.10595952697945517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852584237671669,0.0,0.09415067876279101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13842933868306248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3872171525199027,0.0,0.04153735904521344,0.0,0.07887659935624172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634686581104783,0.0,0.12875949038716372,0.0,0.04668757035142456,0.0,0.13140524681753485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07264471260889815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08430929726626102,0.0,0.092588687714532,0.0,0.055063215454013895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09273701736892434,0.0,0.0,0.08152090605927446,0.0,0.2726594304512072,0.0,0.09029465866297247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0580247659219513,0.08026839240021906,0.0,0.0,0.0726999036053406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498607201384825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08048926862342011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08741307784129274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22780904665113805,0.14345990705577605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16434387125819205,0.0,0.10525440885547777,0.08446357849937662,0.0,0.08819803923521058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26131496986699176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08220903228661541,0.0,0.0,0.06324285618977285,0.08124815856254229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13736166318641546,0.0,0.08588070802028297,0.0,0.0,0.0932225114348719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06602882090439416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05457661355445431,0.052638213745583716,0.08071166782230801,0.0,0.0,0.09441900090301758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16732277123571576,0.08935528888895149,0.08024832472403891,0.17104147962418642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06778210983372322,0.04845402428836818,0.06520661187837068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09446810625359747,0.0,0.0,0.059805963457940425,0.0,0.08371756738822181,0.1167135865317268,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,bklove1,2020/01/13,"Fuck stigma, like seriously I've been dating/talking to this girl for a while and we have a lot in common and I really like her. She doesn't know I'm schizophrenic. Today we were discussing serial killers. The conversation was fine, then she hits me with this bombshell: https://imgur.com/a/Rw3Iwen

LIKE COME ON.

Should I try to educate her? Walk away?",3.7398809523809535,6.948076063492067,3.963789682539684,80.67044642857145,82.01587301587301,7.594444444444445,22.160714285714285,8.472884824447931,1.9012238095238096,284,9,49,7,8,88,51,63,0.14,0.7070000000000001,0.153,-0.2088,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,2,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,3,0,6,2,0,0,0,9,11,4,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,0,9,4,7,6,1,9,0,0,0,1,9,3,1,1,7,32,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33076758368779857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032645048712754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32546949164558403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19348040946203449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5159893727409008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2993048629877998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22553566760857865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829687490721163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33370730039918417,0.0,0.0,0.2390224683672917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,septerpride,2020/01/13,"I've noticed that I show some bipolar symptoms... Does that mean I am schizoafective? 
I've had manic episodes, also constant mood swings, like.... Getting incredibly mad out of nowhere, or getting exited for something dumb, or just getting super focused on my goals, while out of nowhere getting too depressed to move, so.... Any clues?",5.052105263157895,8.214584298245619,4.262368421052631,81.42407894736844,74.43859649122807,5.905263157894738,37.57017543859649,7.1686216300943375,3.077785964912281,263,16,40,3,6,78,45,57,0.106,0.746,0.149,0.4155,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,4,6,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,7,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,2,7,6,1,7,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,3,3,22,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21630202677390967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839350531108075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29229180172804353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23296323981143446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366980702515216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5652566337768684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13214241863958898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946310175266428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874764623333376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3079422313101671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2082280142580625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281131334193949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Momerathparade,2020/01/13,Migraines Does anyone else experience bad migraines regularly? I have them and tend to hallucinate more while I have a migraine.,7.594285714285713,11.060607714285721,7.609761904761907,59.20607142857146,67.0952380952381,9.914285714285716,39.07142857142857,10.125756701596842,5.1706,106,6,14,3,2,34,18,21,0.171,0.8290000000000001,0.0,-0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,10,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3240331358330333,0.4748272308957574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3869352643799261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4055408345168627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38712686615659053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4533124197509468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Clem1995,2020/01/13,"Anxious ( schizoaffective) I’ve been gone from work for a week, I’m going back tomorrow. I just get super anxious on Sunday nights or any week night. Any advice?",2.2590000000000003,5.1455945666666665,3.068333333333332,86.4225,86.66666666666666,5.666666666666668,20.833333333333336,7.1686216300943375,1.0003333333333335,127,4,22,2,4,40,25,30,0.129,0.7440000000000001,0.126,0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,3,3,0,10,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,7,9,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464375849037911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429963022604597,0.0,0.0,0.5698068412195113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19391888604131075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317590991593522,0.0,0.14332564208538914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4733272990882574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4045839274724856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18359764812398485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SoulsInMyBirdhouse,2020/01/13,"Quick What is your bands name? Mine, human fish tank",0.3810000000000002,2.389129099999998,-0.6600000000000001,108.70000000000003,108.0,2.0,5.0,3.1291,-2.9819999999999998,41,0,9,0,2,11,10,10,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,5,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Boosted-BsitePlayer,2020/01/13,How do you manage yourself now knowing that you've lost 10 IQ points from psychosis? 5-7% grey matter. Knowing oneself is less able than others now. Especially in studying. Knowing that a stranger is more able to do things with less time and a better efficiency. Loss of IQ isn't everything but it does tell us something about what the illness is and what it does.,4.18391304347826,6.424021521739135,4.286304347826088,84.81467391304352,72.91304347826087,6.339130434782609,30.34057971014493,7.1686216300943375,1.8209884057971013,291,13,53,3,6,90,52,69,0.098,0.8190000000000001,0.08199999999999999,-0.4822,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,1,1,0,3,4,3,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,1,0,9,10,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,3,1,7,9,3,5,0,2,1,0,3,2,0,0,3,36,11,1,0.484478347602251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142408638694396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4239702668287007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177089497403564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3993849444582277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644326735538369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22899431786255056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18648755072736747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21172771502596746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16093294329123156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412516102792692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2913838999599644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,madeofmold,2020/01/13,"Aaaaaaaaaa (update 1-12-20) I have been doing many productive things!

- I called the people hounding me about my student loan & it turns out I’ll be working it out this year ($5 a month, incredible)

- I signed up for classes this spring semester (to finish my associate’s degree in summer & finish my bachelors!)

- not only washed clothes & bedding but put it all away already

- cleaned room, re hung cork board & white board

- got 2 of my textbooks for this semester

- applied to work for the 2020 census! I don’t find out about that till April 

- started a craft (diamond puzzle) to distract myself after work at night

- journaling slightly! Which is good because I have a terrible memory

These are small things & I still need to call the college board to send my AP scores to my community college but! It’s doing well & nothing is due immediately 

Unfortunately I feel I’m on the tipping point between committing sue reside and having an ok time. I’m just suddenly really at that point for no reason (for work reason probably). I am trying hard as I can to not get in touch with my ex (because she encouraged many of my delusions, but also she claims she’s different now) but I’m so fucking lonely. I don’t even have anyone I can brag about these pointless things to. Which is part of my ex’s appeal. 

I also think I need to go on medication/at least see a therapist or something. 2020 is my year for therapy. I’ve decided.  I mean I’ve been decided “hey I need to see a therapist” but like this year I mean it. 

Comments welcome. As always! To anyone who accepts hugs, please receive a giant hug from me.",3.739097205045756,5.679909623794212,5.010691318327975,80.44323460301756,73.34083601286174,8.000049468216671,28.681795696265148,8.730908602173464,2.388666979965372,1267,52,234,25,26,420,183,311,0.06,0.823,0.11699999999999999,0.9572,1,2,1,0,0,0,57.0,0,0,0,4,11,13,1,1,11,1,19,4,0,2,2,31,37,13,0,3,9,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,19,5,0,0,10,0,1,4,5,4,1,0,3,6,32,9,41,33,3,39,0,1,3,3,14,16,1,2,20,143,51,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09986454348140324,0.14473917491294894,0.07529988917802241,0.5883140167467485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12655376037912924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08502393446892742,0.0,0.0,0.11033099595845107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848129888297001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945490183445316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059771728868447525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045757477069547615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08271166904151485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08366205787393204,0.04728040463095845,0.0,0.05143094021607946,0.07590371868191621,0.0723778871151472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08106660599465597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04421175550261322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834974014576844,0.0,0.1971532630396631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07223301282817124,0.0,0.0,0.2013048256236323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08492432919834154,0.0,0.0868333154371229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06882625637788863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979983071856452,0.0,0.06273850497469312,0.0,0.0,0.09933738994320276,0.1710958683803294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09756995212476316,0.0,0.0,0.0909734361332176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057974030010320365,0.18608984033820156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14422712901000231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06966821214527116,0.0,0.0,0.0640535070999247,0.0,0.07227019149287063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10349001840500033,0.2101455717998868,0.18036448637958932,0.057986157854276174,0.0,0.0,0.05276892271046992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06144081732702016,0.09843361918913712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08136673722448315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635285501488097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17482929591048108
schizophrenia,jzweitkonto,2020/01/13,"How to get a friend to help herself Hey anyone
I'm really desperate. a good friend of mine obviously suffers from schizophrenia (I'm sorry if i am not using an adequate vocabulary) she told me it started with panic attacks when she was 14 (which has not to be related to schizophrenia.. I  believe). Since several years she has voices and recently started to have hallucinations during daytime. She doesn't eat. she doesn't sleep. She refuses to get help because she fears to have a complete breakdown when she starts dealing with it. 
I told her that medication could help as well as therapy in every way I could imagine without putting her under pressure. She says she doesn't trust people she doesn't know and I think she has problems to accept that she needs help and she's telling herself that she can handle it somehow. I'm very worried. If someone has any idea that could help I would be glad.",4.325345167652859,6.692942875739647,4.863171597633136,80.26323865877713,72.90532544378698,7.3469033530572,31.38500986193295,8.238735603445708,2.5734612228796845,722,34,125,12,15,230,100,169,0.147,0.69,0.163,0.6155,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,5,13,1,3,4,0,19,3,1,2,1,26,33,10,0,8,5,0,0,0,2,1,1,2,0,0,8,5,1,1,5,0,0,1,7,6,1,0,3,2,27,7,17,24,0,11,0,1,0,0,33,2,0,3,7,87,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08743741611761119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08990469324606568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14627598189980315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0783799257917057,0.0,0.0,0.1448633209282345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481153580634428,0.0,0.0,0.30797709526944955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13255822211481524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315673438628211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10833246962536378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14468594218915362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986780126908825,0.0,0.13435334555565515,0.0,0.0,0.10784508534380534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4309154527787025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14514885663460966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07066307951766522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129528759007887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09533892180117362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1508585223692857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08913976206742186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303173471414534,0.0,0.12925635468428665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823703281309312,0.0,0.12695521530563006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10225034774088852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14525648688929174,0.0,0.10636101013436312,0.0,0.12867080891732954,0.0,0.1089436810195672,0.0,0.0,0.1439324898258634,0.2730244074882405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11238279687734946,0.0,0.14704009317238215,0.0,0.0,0.08238755954447935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24572348541131797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11105006715413167,0.0,0.10609027572568107,0.0,0.10205919305675032,0.0,0.0,0.11560701995239635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12394455689110025,0.0,0.0,0.13057715102840026,0.0,0.09133808763447196,0.0,0.0,0.0827999851455466
schizophrenia,Schizoidnat,2020/01/13,"Anyone else terrible at sports? I tried skiing for the first time today, and it was a terrible experience. Just trying to get to the top of the bunny hill, half the time I lost control and wound up crashing into a little kid. After hours of practice, I only got more and more frustrated.
But I’m not surprised, in the past people have tried to teach me tennis, racketball, basketball, soccer, and football, and they all gave up trying after my failure to make any progress after multilateral me attempts.
I feel like my coordination is piss poor and my first instinct is to blame the schizophrenia.
Anyone else really bad at sports?",7.385416149068327,8.116188113043481,7.542360248447206,70.24869565217392,63.52173913043478,9.701863354037268,32.08074534161491,9.606745405546679,3.1130745341614903,503,18,81,9,7,163,78,115,0.226,0.72,0.054000000000000006,-0.9708,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,7,1,8,2,0,8,0,4,2,1,2,1,14,11,7,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,7,0,1,1,4,1,0,1,6,0,3,4,1,10,2,17,7,3,18,0,1,0,0,3,8,1,0,11,55,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11881467088166968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2443346798899116,0.3580398009779739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14588277170687672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19596181851946104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919100192515326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709083620186314,0.0,0.0,0.08834299730695061,0.12481903586917376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972311826754925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128328147628777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397384623452414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17206267227225105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08535870523120025,0.17511398388686272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19072604175202226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11662605315703264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13288140367961554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667887177764072,0.12112791025600615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11192923878408756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20375969548391967,0.0,0.16561284743306293,0.0,0.0,0.4744899681779112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,hopemakermachine,2020/01/13,I'm falling apart. I'm pretty sure I should be in the hospital right now but I can't because I'm taking online classes and I can't make up assignments if I miss them. I hear voices describing how I should mutilate and kill myself and telling me I'll never be a real man. It's gotten to the point where all that keeps me going is planning my next self-harm and eventual suicide. I can't do this anymore.,2.4286050420168053,3.967680835294118,4.4163025210084035,85.02764705882355,75.94117647058823,7.210084033613445,26.26050420168067,7.957251820313856,1.6239915966386564,321,12,65,5,7,110,62,85,0.196,0.758,0.046,-0.9354,0,0,0,0,0,2,6.0,0,0,1,1,3,3,1,0,3,0,9,0,0,2,3,15,19,7,2,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,1,2,12,1,3,14,1,11,0,1,0,0,4,6,0,1,3,41,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.251173548114015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543896666962779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14393789612534516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2854511557213576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251160088379085,0.280203235268479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16905818654286647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19533569851971672,0.0,0.2693531202253072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23941988253506685,0.0,0.0,0.2576643482139316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882741413447644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162892705253329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26421349383263343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2770338061739794,0.0,0.2387018525017736,0.0,0.19042582479185385,0.0,0.22136717248749385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,anonymousquestion555,2020/01/13,"Not sure if schizophrenic boy isn’t interested in me or maybe it’s just a negative symptom I met a boy online who has schizophrenia about a month ago. (For clarity, I am not schizophrenic myself and don’t have any major mental health issues).  

I feel stupid because I like him so much while he seems kind of hot and cold about me. One day he will be very sweet and reply a lot but the next he will basically ghost me. I try to make it really clear I’m into him and not play games. I also don’t have any judgments about him or his condition and believe in accepting people where they are (provided they are good to you).  

If this were a neuro-typical person I’d be much less willing to tolerate this. The worst part is I get the feeling he may be ignoring me/deescalating because I sent a sexual message.  

Is this ever normal behavior for schizophrenia or am I dealing with someone who just likes the attention and is breadcrumbing me like anyone else might if they didn’t have feelings but needed a distraction?  

Thank you.",4.919504666188086,6.1393816432160815,5.785732232591531,78.89895728643219,69.25125628140704,9.50480976310122,29.289662598707825,9.784248007369934,2.8067039483129936,813,30,152,19,14,267,124,199,0.115,0.7390000000000001,0.146,0.6706,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,3,0,9,15,1,1,11,0,24,4,0,1,3,37,35,17,1,5,13,0,4,3,0,5,4,0,0,3,7,8,0,1,6,2,0,1,8,4,0,1,4,6,23,11,13,23,7,11,0,0,0,0,23,4,0,10,9,110,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440998573958963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12999937688800592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210930951401648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11366590974430762,0.16656219134004555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19819044477292452,0.0,0.0,0.18314973965622144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104837915955408,0.16759248451612774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13579823345852346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14704505705377266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246586047374638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08493102361173545,0.0,0.0,0.13634782895599912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727939490005762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16967067134294078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16928148974050894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382561875147345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13820291526798825,0.0,0.0,0.1085102322597427,0.0,0.1633136253488175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16382250207676535,0.17245074096752608,0.0,0.0,0.12975404432218454,0.0,0.2390009831362711,0.12053636900703214,0.0,0.0,0.17288467499397628,0.0,0.15927453471721353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11015503562279452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17603691437201255,0.0,0.1126988123084222,0.14194134409263887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041402617026242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14798875046963209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13773677621134275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15321111615751706,0.168962347759727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14966364179485742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11036774215144217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341292347483949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,yougotmail47,2020/01/13,Coping Mechanisms What coping mechanisms work for you guys? I’d like to hear what you guys do and try it myself,1.504848484848484,4.218502818181818,2.824545454545458,87.87348484848488,89.0,6.56969696969697,16.424242424242426,7.793537801064563,0.7624969696969703,90,2,17,2,3,29,17,22,0.0,0.889,0.111,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,10,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7814721029569103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4447656584749861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927915022982268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679212200521421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872882138702886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SecretStaff,2020/01/14,"Careful, it says Brought the voice back today I started talking to it about how it says I sold my soul, right after that it says ""careful"".

Now why would it say that if I sold my soul? Why would a guy who sold his soul need to be careful? That's what I thought to it, it laughed as if caught in a lie, I didn't sell my soul. 

This is what I do to my voice, prove it wrong. Make it slip. Make it seem dumb compared to me.

I just had to document this as well.",-0.2275999999999989,1.467155439999999,1.2899999999999991,103.625,84.6,4.4,20.0,4.935628992294339,-0.6881999999999997,344,10,91,1,10,110,57,100,0.065,0.846,0.08800000000000001,-0.1179,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,6,7,1,0,3,0,7,0,0,3,1,12,21,5,0,5,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,0,1,18,0,0,0,3,0,4,2,1,2,1,0,8,6,13,5,11,10,0,9,4,0,0,0,8,2,1,3,5,59,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130177229154056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.517821906604698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762844003046004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260111488189933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12552992776081465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14457680964257094,0.0,0.5385199883925647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15411960148544335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11982771045111662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13607272436442455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13440113796861053,0.0,0.0,0.1604716480336201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15221633084473093,0.0,0.3055243978844998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405242963933977,0.18509725603111185,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,bringyoulight,2020/01/14,literally cannot deal with having thoughts i want to just not exist,5.359230769230769,7.251840307692312,5.818461538461538,76.50153846153847,69.0,8.276923076923078,28.384615384615394,8.841846274778883,2.2670615384615385,56,2,10,1,1,18,12,13,0.0,0.885,0.115,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7216326014647084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5556935779265898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41285716168479203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,predictflipper,2020/01/14,Drowning in my mind. Everything is a program not just programs. If we want money intelligence and friendship we gotta think deeper. We gotta pull some strings. We gotta predict things and alter things. I think therefore I exist. I need you to think and exist Aaron and Chris. If all three of us exist as much as possible we can take care of our loved ones. Three friends is all that exist. We want to click together. We want intelligence and money. We want to earn it ourselves. We want to build gadgets apps and machines with our money and intelligence. We want to hack to corrupt the system in our favor. We want to be captain cold with all three of our efforts out together. We want a clear mind and lots of adderall. We know each other wants this that’s why we gotta work together. The more recruits the merrier. The science is called captain cold our objective is to get colder.,2.214117647058824,4.929490705882351,3.1344117647058845,87.72985294117649,83.11764705882355,5.752941176470588,24.970588235294123,7.1686216300943375,1.3008470588235292,700,28,131,10,20,222,90,170,0.0,0.7759999999999999,0.22399999999999998,0.9862,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,20,1,0,3,1,4,0,0,6,0,6,1,0,1,4,53,28,12,1,12,4,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,7,26,0,0,4,0,3,1,1,0,0,4,0,3,25,4,19,23,8,5,0,0,1,1,26,3,0,4,0,87,32,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14514315395691352,0.0,0.14492352137329756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277483102590954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10981876809950697,0.0,0.07426347132798009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0781176763109793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12084427808579178,0.12828895166357615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28704635255866234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10449092630532612,0.10539669490685008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631928336344313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602440563831836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10687330003519528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888660213096116,0.273237088695161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17097965380378033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7545527625296241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12826129324231006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10348126819575597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,CallumWalk,2020/01/14,PORTAL I KEEP SEEING WHEATLEY FROM PORTAL AND HE KEEPS TELLING ME TO DO BAD THINGS TO MYSELF BUT I DON'T LISTEN IT'S BECOMING UNBEARABLE NOW ANY SUGGESTIONS TO HELP ME NOT DO WHAT HE SAYS?,0.5620463320463323,2.756666054054058,2.098455598455597,89.43216216216217,104.67567567567568,5.357528957528958,18.7992277992278,6.868970318607317,0.8557984555984559,152,5,28,3,7,49,30,37,0.06,0.847,0.094,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,7,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,5,0,4,7,0,1,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,0,1,19,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337793041588628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870383985860233,0.0,0.3796733158582149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304256442491466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6111273788858674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733842810806945,0.0,0.0,0.27394477049943083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004751652093005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22838933824568555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,clash2k,2020/01/14,"......... 

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What's the chances for anxiety sufferer (myself) for the anxiety to turn into schizophrenia if I have no family history of it and I'm 32 this year?",2.568160919540229,5.0633538620689675,5.269655172413792,74.49919540229888,79.34482758620689,10.763218390804601,30.356321839080447,10.504223727775694,4.3929908045977015,118,6,21,5,3,42,25,29,0.265,0.679,0.055999999999999994,-0.7003,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6963590452092715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4290638446105478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.49505972988902003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2930941167022261
schizophrenia,Smychka-Mayakovsky,2020/01/14,"Insomnia is back So I noticed that I've not been sleeping... Got into a shitty place where I was staying up very late then not sleeping for days and symptoms got worse. Took some meds because I could see it getting worse, but it knocked me out so I still only slept through the day not the proper night sleep and now I feel like I made it worse (because I woke up in the late afternoon and now I can't sleep again).
What should I do? Not sleeping is a big thing, usually precursor to a bad episode, for me...",2.3091154261057163,4.1057569126213584,3.079158576051782,93.37034519956852,76.96116504854369,6.131175836030206,26.97842502696871,6.937597516519254,1.0744334412081988,394,16,86,4,9,124,69,103,0.151,0.8170000000000001,0.032,-0.9011,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,6,0,8,8,6,1,0,15,17,7,0,2,5,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,8,2,11,1,9,7,1,23,0,0,1,0,0,8,0,1,14,58,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981153323402136,0.1065393764722366,0.1555656623371568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187698003522808,0.0,0.0,0.16458088937977172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06451761053513988,0.0911563586143507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06666492401422429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20410427459336994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878732201808479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06233815772353352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12073673917287366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417331136210656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11974250214557948,0.0,0.0,0.14527168174140628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970443714986974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13331322294628856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10167944491263778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6384530034474823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360029708409459,0.10190028748635084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13262364676257993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08477074081191205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14176657358854358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405316663785156,0.10528208494772297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39010116665024497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,thisisbatcountry7,2020/01/14,"Today I return to university after a 4-year hiatus. Four years ago, I went to college. Things started off on an optimistic foot, but the end result was my first psychotic break -- and subsequent homelessness. When my head went bad, I dropped out of every class. 
I didn't think that I would ever return to college, at least not on-campus.



Last year I got curious, and took two quarters of classes online. Things went well; I was surprised.



Leading me to today -- I will be returning to in-person classes for the first time since that initial psychosis (as my degree cannot be completed online). The stresses of school or work have, historically, brought out the very worst of my symptoms. But I want to believe that this year can be different. I come equipped with my AP medications -- something I did not have, or know about, those years ago.


 Pre-psychosis, I was on SSRIs, and they did me little good. I quit every medication I was on in the months leading up to my break.
This time around, I have more appropriate medication (per my diagnosis), and better habits. I have knowledge about my illness -- something I knew nothing about back in those days -- and I think, more insight. As do the people close to me (really, just mom and girlfriend, but they are enough). If things begin to go bad again, and I don't see it coming, one of them will. We know the signs.



So, yes. I am nervous, heading into today. I mostly just don't want a repeat of what happened before. But I do believe that this time will be different. I remain symptomatic, but I have coping techniques. I have medication. I have a couple, very good people watching out for me. The people I grew up with have mostly graduated at this point, but I remind myself that journeys are not linear. Each of us follows a different path, a different time-line.
And I tell myself -- good things must be ahead. I want to believe.",4.30446200968284,6.355159297994272,4.9945657543721005,80.68876790830944,72.06590257879655,7.335283074794981,27.793795079537592,8.104835398774808,1.9648159470408064,1461,55,260,22,29,470,176,349,0.07400000000000001,0.835,0.091,-0.0423,4,0,2,0,0,0,77.0,2,0,3,8,12,11,0,2,14,1,34,9,3,3,2,53,56,21,0,6,14,1,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,0,17,20,0,0,7,0,0,13,7,5,1,6,14,2,49,6,43,32,8,65,0,0,2,0,8,18,0,5,31,199,66,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14278137443800193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07169449873442049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06192754459278786,0.13448911255775467,0.0,0.0,0.06853057140312377,0.2722109379077938,0.0,0.07122792892256591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387500090783194,0.08444091613964619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08911202960795145,0.0,0.051939335693454936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33657371837411976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07133137381415937,0.08321566246655616,0.0,0.0,0.07284981307361782,0.13571083406358786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13700849495387848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04577070997428311,0.2026504131071704,0.0644123413995665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07121810038430433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16530722692413174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08852143306625719,0.0656479407125391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08071866202514356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3245279274251159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09432329518574696,0.0642834112469376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07727687808700456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054573570271755065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16750146332259852,0.07032130553552336,0.0,0.0,0.07613295942610261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08566040830691456,0.0,0.0,0.05159370026086281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08150716829513767,0.06417710880459912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06662056836282369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12400175921851392,0.0,0.0,0.05700410072203468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09225421015897813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08370818915915354,0.0,0.0,0.07039239090259343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21401930591603255,0.1032089867507925,0.0,0.0,0.18784576341703085,0.0,0.2290173605028803,0.0,0.08947893869664858,0.0,0.0,0.07867239115718952,0.0,0.09687541088415556,0.0,0.0,0.13290198086093746,0.14250742174606004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07241192393934069,0.22397423653270696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058631481303512326,0.0,0.0,0.057210770222047576,0.0,0.0,0.2593141069204412
schizophrenia,ExerciseBen,2020/01/14,Has anyone gotten med free? I was at a point i was only taking 20mg of geodon and my doctor even said “you may have gotten diagnosed to quickly” so to celebrate i drank alcohol and started back at square 1 with delusions hallucinations. Has anyone been diagnosed for an extended amount of time and actually recovered here? I was at about 3 years when this happened. Im actually thankful i did drink on my own because the moment i got a buzz i had a full scale panic attack and immediately was flung into my delusions. If i were out in public it wouldve been a disaster.,4.771824324324324,6.11589972972973,6.617646396396395,72.33025337837842,69.72072072072072,9.513963963963963,30.091216216216218,9.827888789773867,3.079494594594593,454,18,81,11,8,158,81,111,0.096,0.8009999999999999,0.10300000000000001,0.2116,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,7,4,1,1,6,0,13,6,0,0,0,9,22,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,2,7,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,14,2,12,3,14,7,3,16,0,0,1,0,3,9,0,2,7,60,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.3829633173145215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20969867747089188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2744020889181937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22322769558875266,0.0,0.1508804721514241,0.0,0.1196134183319637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39831676602869703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20083869132974755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19222013908168967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12960094753896206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15693443921684486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17351601266236505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21195043441103656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179553245407808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14923356260559134,0.0,0.23022098276863634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18549059130358864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866494167456279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13888497740486205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14753243743213787,0.0,0.0,0.18065229951528994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441700806310948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263587476136996
schizophrenia,dsg30,2020/01/14,"Interview on prison experience Hi, I'm a Social Work student at the undergrad level. I am hoping to connect with someone who is diagnosed with schizoaffective/schizophrenia and has had experience with the prison system. I would like to know about your experience. This would be a confidential, anonymous interview. Thank you for your time!",6.6184523809523785,10.218390607142858,6.382142857142861,65.92952380952383,71.5,10.161904761904765,34.333333333333336,10.125756701596842,4.8189261904761915,278,14,38,9,6,87,43,56,0.111,0.754,0.136,0.126,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,1,1,3,0,0,4,0,7,1,0,0,0,8,11,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,3,9,7,0,5,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,1,2,28,7,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2486505374739844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7189152186080922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24332138935622874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13463513957614873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11968533216005413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24972725750901398,0.20757158901264772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255455717731541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14285037928334504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783490708503619,0.0,0.0,0.3480549181050453,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ImpossibleTouch4,2020/01/14,"City or countryside? Hello,

my family is selling house we currently live in. Half of them want to live in city, but me and my girlfriend do not want to. It really scares me as I feel pressed by most of my family to move to city. Currently I live in smaller city near capital of Croatia. They want to move in flat in this capital city. My brother works, so I do understand him. But I can't work, as I suffer from illness which makes it really hard to do so and I receive quite good welfare benefits. So I am more like pensioner status. My girlfriend comes from even more rural area and anyway, jobs she has qualifications for can be found even in rural areas in Croatia. Noise, crowds, content and happenings in city are just few things that make me panic just by thinking at. Many move in cities for opportunities it offers and they claim they have ""everything"" there. I do not want to have everything. Just peace and some nature. No damn shopping centres and bazillion shops which siphon my already low income. We also are unable to have children so having nearby universities/schools/kindergarten is of no relevance.

Sadly, my family still wants me to change my mind and I do not know why they want it. When in discussing I can enter very aggressive episode defending my stance and telling I am not going in city ever. Only over my dead body. I do go by bus from time to time (once a week, or less), but I stay as least as possible and rush home as soon as I do necessary things (doctor checkup, doing some legal paperwork, buying something, etc.).

What I would really love you people to do, you who can understand me the best as you live with schizophrenia, is just to share some advice or thought about your lives and what you think is better? Am I wrong on defying city so strongly or I do have a point? I will also ask my psychiatrist for advice, but I do not think she'll be of much use. Please, by any means, no matter where you live, help me with your experiences to deal with this very scary upcoming thing in my life.

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Thank you kindly!",4.5320833333333335,6.1892487219387755,5.0988571428571445,81.77947619047622,70.70918367346937,8.594013605442179,26.842176870748297,9.120678840339163,2.1727823809523805,1617,54,306,33,30,518,210,392,0.109,0.7340000000000001,0.158,0.9641,4,0,1,0,0,0,57.0,2,8,5,7,21,19,2,2,3,0,35,6,1,3,1,61,61,34,1,7,17,1,3,1,2,3,4,0,1,1,15,17,0,0,10,2,4,9,9,8,0,1,2,3,55,11,55,54,12,40,0,3,0,1,34,21,1,8,10,222,70,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16303997328508688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09205935104156693,0.13342668026374374,0.0,0.09038878181431972,0.10136807180500264,0.056730498291545965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07798924041653049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08754728799844894,0.07378086107396611,0.0,0.09266414270248537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825046876367999,0.07186152467628311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0860054462622694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08538697181530884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09303869292988633,0.11020020476609806,0.07546087635781525,0.0,0.0,0.14995042015085505,0.08160369815916993,0.23593132982738066,0.0,0.042181173592470936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09146900971967786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09482242274770117,0.06997125145622984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07377068026389615,0.0,0.07473061888477141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05591667604811378,0.0,0.08368006734814754,0.0,0.0,0.09625893733284137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08278445161038771,0.0,0.0,0.08687221334005105,0.04584709715644104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05892412951319696,0.040756262213694834,0.0,0.4419842055438993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07529251135944612,0.0,0.11137099585898902,0.08457782465682652,0.0,0.09087209943806823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423344520495789,0.0,0.0,0.26599632880367224,0.06132550117358645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08884276860143539,0.0,0.06344694799459871,0.0,0.09787891186107622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05783500181286975,0.0,0.0,0.09157339866113033,0.07886169635331892,0.09404689397692012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873062547841945,0.0,0.0,0.160328723107064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0835209727192497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06422309835636725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.088917814447098,0.06662171273753822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0729153759264108,0.07680468691043517,0.0,0.0,0.1662675959675575,0.16036226298233452,0.0,0.06622854075279863,0.09728924021553446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17369256277674394,0.0,0.07205068407430483,0.0,0.13766541769052035,0.2952302683764847,0.0,0.06691689576535331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752762786911582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12146586997687618,0.0,0.0,0.05926130316489105,0.09120995067133082,0.10136807180500264,0.0
schizophrenia,dashing-rainbows,2020/01/14,"Does anyone else find themselves to be more isolated yet at the same time have no desire to make new friends? I used to have a lot of friends and chat a lot. Even online I would frequently chat a lot and spend all day long talking to people. 

Now not only do I barely have any friends but I have no real desire to make new ones. No real desire to form any relationships at all whether platonic or romantic.

Is this happening to anyone else?",2.793362068965518,4.9303460804597705,3.9776867816091968,85.91411637931036,76.70114942528734,7.108620689655173,24.66810344827586,8.07648339933343,1.5108862068965516,347,12,68,6,8,113,55,87,0.09300000000000001,0.711,0.196,0.8754,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,0,8,0,0,3,2,22,12,5,0,4,4,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,4,3,10,10,8,10,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,4,8,48,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091301152875067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150312726321596,0.3150995760894347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09916531059623064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13456025342328445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569008335698275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1015599290570452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405378662968601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3563939576214925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13597334179175932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360766459959276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3921749557769889,0.0,0.0,0.2052778479397356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970132110292896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10419472975711877,0.11694474707908728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660086691483392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35003507704682263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650854095721666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12358999176273605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08966125203919041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328030629095367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10922981056212946,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,grimmqween,2020/01/14,I hate myself today! I just want to jam my pen into my arm. I want to write HATE and draw demon faces on my hands. I am so pathetic. Worthless. Worthless girl. I used to be so strong.,-1.9781318681318685,-0.30571482051282217,0.8033699633699634,99.22615384615385,107.46153846153842,3.2542124542124533,13.263736263736265,5.288315135182226,-1.132687912087912,138,3,32,1,7,47,27,39,0.373,0.4970000000000001,0.131,-0.9401,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,5,2,0,0,0,2,3,3,1,0,7,7,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,9,1,5,6,0,3,1,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,20,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7498131777392255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3599413959179117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279663994947903,0.0,0.0,0.4479513710166466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,koto234,2020/01/14,Your therapist is actually a sad guy and he wants you to make him happy Next time you meet him try to tell him a joke or play some music and dance with him because he is actually pretty depressed and needs your help.,7.9818181818181815,5.8391917272727305,8.276363636363637,74.90954545454545,63.54545454545455,11.52727272727273,33.36363636363636,10.125756701596842,2.921127272727273,172,5,36,3,2,57,32,44,0.115,0.629,0.255,0.7783,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,4,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,9,5,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,3,3,5,1,3,0,2,0,0,14,0,0,2,2,20,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.5233418486589617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16345875608461038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309529703497097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655057936490612,0.0,0.2854454310432912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797319994306428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789889276241516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988261842130617,0.0,0.0,0.2851753418585409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27279995318117073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343706248421189,0.0,0.0,0.3113371130632628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15635755648261535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18205291243593133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15815891959819264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ogfruitcat,2020/01/14,"Has anyone had success with behavioral strategies to combat negative symptoms? My main ones right now are lack of motivation and apathy.  I'm starting classes and it's going to be a shit show if I don't get this under better control.  I failed a class last semester.  I can't do that again.  I'm already bad at hygiene and cleaning my home, but with classes too?  Forget it.

I think I'm going to start making lists of tasks I need to accomplish each day.  I've never been a list person, but I figure it can't hurt to try.  Any other ideas?",2.330277777777781,4.3801633240740765,4.246074074074077,83.85633333333334,77.7962962962963,6.542222222222222,24.68888888888889,7.554174236665415,1.3849266666666669,421,15,80,6,10,143,77,108,0.156,0.721,0.12300000000000001,0.1416,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,6,3,6,1,0,3,0,9,2,1,3,1,19,20,6,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,6,6,0,1,4,1,0,2,5,4,0,1,2,0,8,2,11,17,3,12,0,2,0,0,1,3,1,1,7,52,14,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24971452238651604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15388365359240902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15822588642372767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889410940573068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20013341693048006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538013224681626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14593709072646052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182261816763788,0.0,0.2572094604195406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22698539382141714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422460689653445,0.25545169751643315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18445498680065692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15104905000949229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16778974342736322,0.17452731688247716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15333865883501469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19758602240332535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19324878320408173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322814614329011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3203357342862657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23519995842777994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14499626402744392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536347518247167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ActualWall,2020/01/14,Medicaid not covering Vraylar? I've been on Vraylar for 2 years now. It's the only medication I'm willing to take as the side effects are minimal. I recently was forced to switch providers (previously went through Health and Welfare) and now Medicaid is saying they won't cover it. It's a $3k monthly medication. Has anyone been able to get Medicaid to cover Vraylar? I am panicking!,3.926607142857143,6.557015430555558,5.957539682539682,70.67000000000003,75.25,9.669841269841275,36.67460317460318,9.957137785484203,4.684076984126984,309,19,50,10,7,107,53,72,0.098,0.902,0.0,-0.7616,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,9,3,0,1,0,4,13,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,1,3,0,8,7,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,31,6,0,0.2934413938760476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20518104545037927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533110169533432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119144797520373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5912226654594924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342221209976631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22317540301836727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28973797541906504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333563742853706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22063140896273015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720231119866197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18896663680216247
schizophrenia,livelongasapp,2020/01/14,"Finally Diagnosed I (23M) was recently diagnosed and it felt like a weight was lifted. Seroquel works most days and Im thankful for it. Im able to articulate my thoughts normally, and Im less aggressive when it works. On the days I dissociate it can be challenging as you know. I hope I can meet some cool people on here!",2.596145833333331,4.761047156250001,4.795000000000002,79.68333333333338,77.4375,9.891666666666666,29.416666666666664,10.125756701596842,3.4556541666666667,254,12,51,9,6,88,44,64,0.021,0.77,0.209,0.8997,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,3,2,6,1,0,2,1,5,3,0,0,0,10,10,5,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,3,6,5,5,5,3,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,6,30,10,3,0.18754515256742132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419022163652491,0.0,0.0,0.3807087641229701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18007275747208856,0.20544654750297528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862746535108253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6077428430477282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030699111215917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09162508827287118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18375442990981292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300201946533078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851782125445383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726663789981757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14888990214170328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22837947086885005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730702094421388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,splishyandsplashy,2020/01/14,"Are most hallucinations for people with schizophrenia negative? In your opinion what do you think? Im ignorant about the subject, but whenever I read about it or watch interviews, the hallucinations mentioned in general from the person seem to be negative outweighing the neutral or positive hallucinations.  In general, does it seem like this for most people who have schizophrenia where the hallucinations are more negative (scary/frightening) than positive?",10.944788732394365,13.668024605633805,9.891661971830985,49.436084507042246,56.46478873239437,14.694084507042255,45.185915492957754,13.348371206891418,7.760085070422534,381,22,46,16,5,120,48,71,0.16399999999999998,0.6890000000000001,0.147,0.1506,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,13,8,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,11,7,3,4,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,7,1,39,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2826995838947272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3489449326934722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578238754737566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4479186082511639,0.28207115938933025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231332520402788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5881775840350415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20699472464634325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,PotaterHaterNater,2020/01/14,"Symptoms went away? A few months back as soon as I would wake up my brain would go nuts and i can’t say voices for sure but definitely very very loud fast senseless fleeting crap whipping around my brain which sounded like murmuring, turned into thoughts/voices (idk tbh) which would say “I’m gonna kill myself” “I’m gonna slit my wrists” “I’m gonna jump off a bridge” and such. All I know is i wasn’t in control of my own thoughts. It literally felt like someone else was in my head controlling my thoughts or someone put those thoughts in my head. Very disconnected feeing with the thoughts. Brain decided I needed to kill myself asap or else god would because I had done something horribly wrong. I felt really scared of people and avoided them kuz I swear they could hear my thoughts.

And before that definitely had some even worse “episodes” you could say. I wouldn’t go calling them that tho out of respect and just because I’ve never been diagnosed with anything besides anxiety.

I also wasn’t showering, brushing my teeth, hair, being social, etc, still find it somewhat difficult to this day, I kinda only make myself do the minimum personal hygiene just for other people’s sake. But at that time didn’t even care or even notice and was always dirty.

It’s weird tho because I feel as if I would almost gaslight my own brain when I was starting to come out of it, like telling myself none of it had even happened, that I was making all this up to get attention from my friends. But now that it’s been a while I know for sure it did happen and my way of thinking was so different then it is now.
But now I’m fine? 

But then it’s like... if I had something wrong with my brain wouldn’t I have no insight?

Idk just someone to relate to here would be nice thanks.",4.245958767457328,5.705023435158503,4.475518731988476,86.74629073376194,71.13256484149856,7.2981157171358895,28.33174462425183,7.748469712250963,1.6283213034803814,1400,52,278,17,26,437,180,347,0.156,0.722,0.122,-0.9342,2,1,2,0,0,3,31.0,0,1,3,2,21,21,3,2,5,0,33,14,12,4,5,68,66,28,2,13,13,0,4,4,1,11,2,7,1,1,20,15,0,3,15,0,1,6,9,9,0,0,24,12,39,12,34,27,9,35,0,0,0,0,13,12,1,9,20,182,59,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07583536859206917,0.0,0.0,0.06056342010226873,0.06301568078836486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0579353151685856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06232156674065795,0.06741816736180309,0.0,0.0,0.07115337316364287,0.05823377859335894,0.0,0.13849786961723762,0.0,0.0644429574627549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.422713748306704,0.0773315634110863,0.0,0.07721454424343008,0.0,0.0,0.06523702305350558,0.0,0.0,0.16988134586733278,0.12093281157240597,0.0,0.0,0.048841332155950684,0.0,0.0,0.07686710557102057,0.0,0.07912456211942506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07750085523977226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12652992128077384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08446198967913349,0.20008296042178594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03829273323203136,0.0,0.14543055441298866,0.0,0.06921832409966193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0585109031841449,0.0,0.039567214750148634,0.0,0.08608128767997894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339403690842342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15544721683835566,0.0,0.08535626723637346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16757404375983215,0.0,0.08324143267497826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479967050288335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10110434279085956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06044912586790936,0.0,0.0,0.05615484418870702,0.05840973402794013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08622219125834478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057598137913768124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10500704969904266,0.06612688043550383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07613229015567717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04851631269348142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806770698835412,0.07582165348260635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07719995967800884,0.19250423596428853,0.11660547885437912,0.0,0.0,0.053604001291972736,0.0,0.060480239311666184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14275436412559142,0.07871528228672675,0.0,0.0,0.06619372580381942,0.06972450352486033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0485264620356878,0.0,0.3006165579810121,0.04416035169995187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823754403011332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18746224912434187,0.0,0.0601130994126308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07020498006515638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07717810059475129,0.3227900619835897,0.1656036573523611,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,loucifer17,2020/01/15,Using alcohol and marijuana to deal with schizophrenia. What are your thoughts on using substances to cope with episodes?,8.35736842105263,12.340795526315794,5.504473684210527,72.51881578947369,67.42105263157895,8.010526315789475,41.078947368421055,8.841846274778883,4.608663157894737,101,6,13,2,2,28,16,19,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,6,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4430265617735947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4273815781057476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3291054170715842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7160740720854557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,MMmartaAA,2020/01/15,"Are these schizophrenia symptoms? There was a period of time from when I was 3 to 6 years old where I would have thoughts that didn’t belong to myself, let me explain 

For example I would think (but it wasn’t me, they were just thoughts created in my head) the worst possible thing I could think of, like “I wish my cousin died” (and I loved spending time with my cousin), or “the pope sucks”, and then it was like someone in my head was forcing me to say it aloud. Of course I didn’t mean any of it, but I had to say it because otherwise that thing in my head (it wasn’t voices though, I just need I had to say those things) would keep bugging me, and maybe hurt me and my family. And sometimes it was related to actions too, but I knew when I had to stop and only did random things (ex. maybe I’d touch something that I didn’t want to touch, but i was forced to do it). 

It worked with swear words too, I didn’t like saying them but the voice would tell me that I had to whisper them and once my parents got me and i started crying, they hugged me but I think they just thought I was misbehaving.

It was quite scary sometimes and caused me a lot of distress, cause my parents didn’t understand and my mum even thought I was kinda possessed once, but all I needed to hear was “you don’t have to listen to the voice, we know you are not thinking those things”. 

Now I’m fine I guess, but do you experience/have you ever experienced something like this? You know that:
- on one part, there’s you with your thoughts and moral 
- on the other part, there are sentences that are just there in your head and they don’t belong to you 

Thanks if you read all of it, and I hope I didn’t hurt anyone because I’m not really educated on this",3.7738135593220328,4.450341819209044,4.162500000000001,91.4908686440678,71.48587570621469,7.368926553672317,25.20197740112995,7.333567415737692,0.8400418079096044,1340,37,305,13,24,420,153,354,0.115,0.7959999999999999,0.08900000000000001,-0.9359999999999999,2,0,2,0,0,0,39.0,1,10,6,2,17,14,1,1,7,0,40,7,4,2,3,70,71,27,1,11,16,6,2,4,0,4,1,10,0,0,28,17,0,2,15,1,1,1,12,5,0,1,31,13,60,9,32,34,6,21,2,2,0,2,32,8,1,7,16,217,88,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057132984083900176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058745141798178385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242935465365034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726128031950737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06707902735280412,0.0,0.09228637591652288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08719415783692902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055491021007674335,0.07599624853904541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920173050862524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06719435643625601,0.0,0.09255183744155457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448939282776615,0.0,0.09469085040256196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08344571029458159,0.0,0.0,0.17987928515452334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07467626558464589,0.0,0.0,0.09234473699386893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08591088396198268,0.0,0.16418166245659704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07142642743635974,0.07582668904174161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16880843342163676,0.09151680960361727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12459190455756278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08815946011318451,0.17894616255228074,0.056930641755308924,0.06389708497391497,0.0,0.0,0.1865771135042091,0.18195980694230196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09471412835314974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08936014253145562,0.08403759310137028,0.0,0.05382206903003688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672479471349247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07118551611086286,0.1293574837772889,0.16618568461947908,0.0,0.059466148551935966,0.0,0.0,0.07024018279605937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08732360564417486,0.0,0.0,0.07343268854904504,0.0773495930226431,0.0,0.0,0.2790786907735897,0.21533331322758745,0.08254417091499515,0.33349206147317145,0.09797947806140096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08746242958784628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04955413969618077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09661293985127674,0.0,0.0,0.06116381686321375,0.0,0.0,0.23872697702113824,0.0,0.0,0.0541028136868156
schizophrenia,iragequitt,2020/01/15,"My First Hallucinations 3 months ago I had my first visual experience. I enjoy drawing sometimes and it felt like I went blind for about 40 seconds while drawing the picture. It came out amazing as it was my first time sketching in ink. Recently, within the last years,  Ive felt like I was some type of prophet but I didn’t have the righteous lifestyle to back it up. This moment startled me for a few minutes but I kept it hidden and shrugged it off. 
 
Less than a week later I ended up in a jail cell and subsequently a psychiatric hospital. On my way to work the world around me began to change. Not only did I feel like I was being hunted by the feds, which wasn’t a new thought to me, but I also saw an unfamiliar world. The buildings were higher than normal and appeared gloomy . The sky was a shade of orangish brown that’s difficult to explain. The people seemed normal with the exception of the ones I thought were feds. Then it happened, after maybe 20 mins of leaving the train to explore this new world and returning to the station I saw Steve Jobs. It seemed cool to me at first , like maybe the feds were protecting him but he wanted to meet me but regardless, I saw him for about 10 seconds before I left and continued on to work. On my regular train to work I gave the whole train the finger as I felt I was to slick for the feds grasp and kept moving on to work. When I got off at my stop, everything seemed except for the sky and the people giving me faces. I felt like I couldn’t be touched and crossed the street casually without any regard to the people driving. 

They slowed and let me enter my workplace where I walked around exploring this new but familiar world. After my release I quit smoking weed. I had been a heavy user for multiple years but never had something like this happen. Since then I’ve been sober and realized that my symptoms are constant. I haven’t had many visual episodes since but I feel that my seclusion might be a big reason for that. I honestly feel that I am Jesus at times and honestly, that shit kinda scared me. But my overall demeanor is nonchalant/ride or die. A scary combination to say the least but not as scary as me finally caring about my experience enough about a month later and realizing Steve Jobs is dead. 

There’s more but I’m rambling. I just wanted to get this off my chest in hopes that I can help someone else because I would just shut up and keep it moving. But if anything this experience has taught me, it’s that mental health matters. Oh btw the doctors diagnosed me with schizophrenia and psychosis, so I hope this fits.",5.223609943977593,6.224286652777778,5.409430438842204,82.681974789916,68.38492063492063,8.230999066293185,29.70448179271709,8.405096225971981,2.0711726890756306,2059,75,397,29,34,650,252,504,0.077,0.816,0.106,0.8968,3,0,1,0,0,0,40.0,0,0,1,9,14,19,1,2,33,1,33,13,4,1,1,80,73,39,2,10,21,0,9,6,0,2,5,1,0,0,26,21,4,5,19,1,0,11,8,4,0,7,38,16,59,15,65,28,7,81,1,0,5,0,11,32,1,11,43,272,85,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07048915107300012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06359163626150466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05407591952612191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06543769154263047,0.14157825198938612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061145510940244216,0.0,0.04847428878587362,0.0,0.06766515338247242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09094901055012447,0.0810753290242624,0.0,0.08412098237674842,0.0,0.0,0.08593222271161621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08071051815919343,0.08252858375843948,0.0,0.0,0.0813914764635862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0664282558407098,0.0,0.0704305866899216,0.08216479812346804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07146691019100544,0.23335569830594,0.0,0.0,0.12062219533036,0.05680867597328745,0.3054043811238889,0.0871096169334654,0.0,0.2705566475207679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04154560498768857,0.07628225533917314,0.0,0.0,0.06359892922660175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14063748740004264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845254047832858,0.0,0.0,0.05330017830279892,0.0,0.0,0.15796141535556346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15782147092350055,0.07068049731721543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06481892513966307,0.0,0.08419956397896243,0.08639806187257887,0.08131397514129342,0.0,0.23309497593273035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08062019156490585,0.1597758529054585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08013685305961203,0.08435751812934783,0.0,0.0,0.12694325446042656,0.16903307748987592,0.0,0.0,0.06133026427774114,0.2304009990488599,0.0,0.0,0.1558242588529195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053884404105510215,0.06047808775276078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16538622071076994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457867121517076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08175918818015655,0.0785158152095253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06323701936156127,0.07961279268690329,0.0,0.0,0.21717442843053406,0.0,0.0,0.08162552241660039,0.13155854049956092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06737653042914005,0.06121791986718132,0.07864672090888405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06648177989096395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08265110508862554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262590440040088,0.09273680441895196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09380520598965172,0.06311879920164032,0.06378566695728073,0.0,0.0,0.07371528141097122,0.0,0.08878057143085243,0.0,0.07665386492126693,0.0,0.2315642840393937,0.0,0.0,0.05648830095742904,0.0,0.0,0.10241577421437173
schizophrenia,autumndawn1996,2020/01/15,"Mother in denial Hello! So I am 23, and my mother is in denial about mental health in a protective way. I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder already and my family has a history of mental health problems, and I feel I may have it? My mom said that people with schizophrenia dont know they have it, but that doesnt sound right?  Could I ask some questions in this thread?  TIA",2.8866602316602297,5.158175581081082,4.0004247104247135,85.21040540540544,76.97297297297297,6.93127413127413,22.73359073359073,7.957251820313856,1.3028131274131267,299,9,56,5,7,97,53,74,0.051,0.86,0.08900000000000001,0.6890000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,10,4,0,0,0,13,14,5,0,2,1,3,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,5,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,3,8,0,8,10,1,6,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,3,0,39,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313021477255717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19595053195285286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673509581210843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21274265599295872,0.0,0.0,0.24022322323783565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456531816334702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19759507566730192,0.0,0.10598158617388437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44559642343041705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11519233971657668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4224610955710335,0.0,0.0,0.2454845269866101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453123445003313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20056178527527385,0.0,0.0,0.2348033553970353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789998361860236,0.19938047325449865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16637312324965753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,schizophreniahelp,2020/01/15,"Am I paranoid? I usually feel like people near me is going to stab me or kidnap me, even though they're not strangers at all. And sometimes i feel like my parents are trying to poison my food. I simulate my friends' moves  in my head and it ends with they always attack me or say something terrible to me (in my head). When I'm going to a place with train i feel like someone is always watching me and i nervously check everyone in the wagon. Is this paranoia?",2.7504347826086963,4.634501652173917,4.158043478260872,85.73423913043482,75.95652173913044,6.773913043478261,26.71739130434783,7.645422480735847,1.5850826086956529,360,14,70,5,8,119,58,92,0.193,0.7040000000000001,0.10400000000000001,-0.8446,1,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,3,8,2,1,2,0,5,4,2,0,1,12,11,7,0,0,3,1,3,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,5,1,0,3,0,1,3,1,4,0,0,0,5,18,4,11,11,1,12,0,0,1,0,4,6,0,2,6,48,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928192825489601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20017556202147355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558449531327422,0.0,0.0,0.11621740055015993,0.0,0.0,0.16813367497262424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26690620171588625,0.37710940064582793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2127669170475332,0.0,0.13594331186561115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999999094193403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3611636178438645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578899119472497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187013578030172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19537852016286128,0.0,0.0,0.1219858635611771,0.0,0.18383676270691496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399274204834513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14908710434579794,0.1354596674678852,0.17402516591336006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17287605814609433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11946269938316695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19379087860806807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Jey_027,2020/01/15,"Your way out What's your way, to be 'free'
Like i mean, most people here draw their demons and then they feel 'better' but what's your way to deal with those demons?
Mine is to write song's.
I really would love to hear yours, go on, I'll read everything",0.3159119496855354,2.483106660377364,0.9908490566037748,103.69180817610064,86.16981132075472,5.042767295597487,10.720125786163523,6.42735559955562,-1.4463685534591195,195,1,49,2,6,59,40,53,0.0,0.85,0.15,0.8388,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,4,2,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,9,8,3,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,9,5,7,6,1,7,2,0,0,1,10,2,0,1,2,27,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298303939533484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679104758180392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23355083984579295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313960775607283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14768785873796803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928879127568565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269574204514759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345392462976341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830702991156671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18015839145085136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599363627206837,0.0,0.16647683901291102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6188086986355976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846013783835008,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,aqian1,2020/01/15,"What is the difference between obsession and delusions other than insight? So I have always thought that the main difference between obsessions and delusions were that people with delusions had no insight and people with obsessions did, but it turns out that many people with delusions do in fact have insight. If you can have delusions with insight, then what differentiates an obsession and a delusion?",13.405454545454544,12.609929242424247,10.69,57.605,52.03030303030303,13.042424242424245,52.30303030303031,11.855464076750405,6.705066666666669,334,20,42,7,3,99,41,66,0.141,0.8590000000000001,0.0,-0.7691,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,4,4,0,9,0,0,0,1,17,11,8,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,9,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,4,0,2,0,9,7,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,41,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379743495876891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5976168461948145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28995842649705184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.594827764493479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270515178629319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110851391655711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mykonos-127829,2020/01/15,"Having a Flat Affect Sucks!!!!!! People often mistake me for being on drugs, or think that I am glaring at them and angry!!! And really when I look like that, I am the most anxious.

It’s a terrible cycle and I just started university and I am pretty anxious. So although I have been shown kindness by a few individuals I have also been treated poorly.

Any tips from you fellow flat affectors out there?",2.7177631578947365,5.300447618421057,4.883421052631579,76.97144736842105,79.39473684210526,6.43157894736842,25.28947368421053,7.645422480735847,1.7969526315789481,313,12,52,5,8,108,58,76,0.183,0.706,0.111,-0.7054,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,1,0,6,6,1,0,4,0,9,1,0,1,0,12,13,9,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,10,3,6,10,2,5,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,3,3,46,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22693727411464384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19297886473680406,0.0,0.0,0.6411770425111187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32909254602316995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2955112613568345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13863966384526533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23830216423598344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19673602961393025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28870438602395737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18179554150278124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20085962639323346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818335721168133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,AlwaysConfused474,2020/01/15,"Stupid question. Why didn’t my last post show up here? Not to be a grumbler, and I don’t post the best content anyway, but I just posted a question and it didn’t show up. It doesn’t matter that much, I just wanna know if it got filtered out or something or if I’m banned for some reason.",0.7534408602150542,2.579243483870968,2.3335483870967764,96.73698924731184,81.90322580645163,4.133333333333334,20.010752688172047,3.1291,-0.581944086021505,224,6,51,0,6,73,44,62,0.107,0.828,0.065,-0.5346,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,3,0,5,0,0,1,0,19,8,7,0,3,8,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,4,2,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,4,1,6,4,3,7,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,7,1,37,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408423796379332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18354928676287013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612525448925851,0.18707024823846616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16870630687494395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6593825200568326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5141771237088818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359605870613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17667758978602013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20708486241844504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Kree_Horse,2020/01/15,"We are... * Not violent
* Not 'Crazy'
* Not deserving to being locked up
* Not outcasts

However,

* Trying our best
* Coping through our emotions
* hoping you can accept us",2.3041269841269845,3.7499521111111136,3.3957671957671955,77.58666666666669,120.48148148148148,5.987301587301588,26.079365079365076,6.868970318607317,2.743247619047619,125,6,17,3,7,40,23,27,0.0,0.643,0.35700000000000004,0.9144,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,4,1,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,5,3,3,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,0,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4575331500444489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4904177874174991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4330256023625597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960011790728439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5244291563986092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,riemuidiootti,2020/01/15,"I'm sad because I have so many medications again And still nothing seems to work enough. I'm taking seven different meds every day, three of them are hopefully just temporary help to anxiety, hallucinations and sleep.",6.9659649122807,9.405818052631579,7.360526315789478,64.85201754385969,65.84210526315789,11.382456140350875,33.719298245614034,11.20814326018867,4.7052350877192985,178,8,27,6,3,58,33,38,0.11699999999999999,0.752,0.131,0.1531,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,5,7,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,3,7,1,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,16,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086846103727156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16629105451152185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17592783160650904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850088649514646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818663515422131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298384494483089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18284626917945676,0.0,0.0,0.2709433288195457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2765675785253809,0.0,0.0,0.30300965610479585,0.2748085521569817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617506252949716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483389691125971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729883230123893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21785149764486533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051051206241583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19859532725799411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,InaccurateFactCheck,2020/01/15,"Paranoia? Or more? I’m so tired of the paranoia. Is it even paranoia if what’s happening is real? I’ve been passively suicidal for a long time. But being followed, watched, monitored and being suspected of things I would never do is getting to me.

For awhile I was sort of able to tell myself “let them watch and gawk and stare and gossip. Nothing they are saying is true. I know what’s true and that’s what matters”.  But its become too much.  

Most people who meet me dislike me. I give off a weird vibe. People pretend to befriend me just to belittle and mock me and further monitor me. And I just can’t do it anymore. My psychiatrist just wants to raise my anti psychotics but that doesn’t stop it from happening. It just makes me stupid and slug like. Maybe I care a little less about it all but I still know it’s happening. The increase in meds doesn’t solve the underlying problem. 

I run through scenarios- overdose, gunshot, throw myself in front of a car. But as much as I want this to be over, once it’s done everyone torturing me gets to feel smug and glee filled because they got me to do. So the only way for me to rob them of that undeserved joy is to keep living?",2.486643356643356,4.6353590940170974,3.6359595959595983,87.93909090909094,77.71794871794873,6.81864801864802,25.593628593628594,7.84624498591911,1.4845111111111118,924,35,186,15,22,299,139,234,0.17800000000000002,0.698,0.124,-0.8358,1,0,0,1,0,0,27.0,0,0,4,0,10,12,3,0,8,0,20,1,0,1,4,40,37,21,1,5,11,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,17,10,0,2,4,1,0,7,4,7,0,0,4,5,27,5,28,28,7,20,0,0,3,0,10,7,0,4,6,133,44,0,0.15148671773057226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502341182933929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923448970796774,0.16730517802645928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15445080478681156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15502350730338604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10005554835578154,0.0,0.0,0.1447520506122309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07659623615115953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582911152610484,0.14531986326645105,0.0,0.0,0.12115776674416615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4018776125897308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13464835511317014,0.0,0.0,0.1665062766895955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15490543241864832,0.0,0.07400875839348303,0.1518294881547241,0.13376554712142133,0.13406097818255233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10111856039879824,0.0,0.15218876915912585,0.0,0.1682675931627282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227203356342212,0.0,0.11683589557373535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14535559128185452,0.0,0.0,0.16132841039143153,0.0,0.11521247508703887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21004363223559175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449523301400498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724250494405428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12046831817098727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12097748846300566,0.12664967914895814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16570188190803434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324060683438838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10064104402008872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833312333261037,0.17411169743487762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17870158200602074,0.12024310540822007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076118179095346,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,googlyeyepoolnoodles,2020/01/15,"cant trust my own eyes or mind anymore its even becoming noticeable how i hear noises that arent there, i focus in on the direction they came from thinking theyre real and i get questions

im scared its supernatural activity",3.659318181818183,5.9642781136363645,5.595454545454548,74.53818181818184,74.68181818181819,8.945454545454545,29.181818181818183,9.516144504307137,3.068745454545455,183,8,33,5,4,63,38,44,0.138,0.862,0.0,-0.6809999999999999,1,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,8,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,2,5,1,3,5,1,3,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,2,0,20,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27572804848343185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070589474776951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3179887891243539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836341930945561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14525761790660546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3133566042100213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3003168397932459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807279854809409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31653555075740714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3114538384805441,0.0,0.0,0.3164555623713537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783535015080156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17814845763721227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,sleepyangel666,2020/01/15,"I think I am having delusions and they are ruining my life I’m on mobile so apologies if the format is off. I will get right into it.
I have always had extreme paranoia and delusions since I was a child.
I have ptsd from a time years ago when I was almost kidnapped by a meth user, and my stepdad tried to kill a man on meth.
During a very low time I tried meth a few months back, which caused my mental health to go off the walls. It was the worst mistake I’ve ever made.
I hung around some not so great people. I never did anything bad to anyone, but I had a short lived fling with a guy who was using it, and then cut ties. He was a pretty violent person, but I barely knew him. I was nothing but nice to the people, but I did end up quietly blocking them.

Now months later I am convinced that people from this past are going to kill me, or hurt me. It consumes every day and action in my life. I’m afraid they are mad that I blocked them, or because I cut ties, or the guy that I did not want to date is going to get revenge on me.
Nothing has happened to prove this but yet it still ruins my life every day worrying about it. I don’t know what to do.
When I tell people about it they think I’m crazy.
I am just waiting for the day when someone comes to do something terrible to me.",2.2584698879551794,3.4022806102941203,3.734222689075634,91.35965686274513,75.61764705882352,5.91624649859944,22.511204481792717,5.916634753146586,0.2412630952380952,994,26,220,5,21,329,147,272,0.239,0.727,0.034,-0.9955,0,0,4,0,0,1,26.0,0,0,5,0,14,18,6,1,15,0,27,4,0,3,3,38,45,20,2,3,12,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,5,15,9,0,3,5,0,0,5,4,15,0,0,13,1,36,3,27,31,3,41,0,4,0,0,15,13,0,6,23,152,51,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10487740085756546,0.0,0.11847345259872755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09844595482901956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08272725175113944,0.0,0.09736157837966823,0.10532371904455888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09097545031971556,0.0987864742457879,0.07212255132731707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12154011709127872,0.0,0.10191623647254047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289064334016517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047902657426349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10702094833017704,0.1993677340734896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12362739519026066,0.0,0.20172013820721288,0.0,0.0,0.13044058096955494,0.0,0.2342970873979058,0.10462385996378347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12576126432454915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12665659195204024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617917720813161,0.0,0.06502177091877788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25070406776608045,0.0,0.0,0.1044726112994338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11195069062497867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11923175033123636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18887273263402413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09125033588070593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22704916946071696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11294321584603095,0.32809355201981005,0.10330641203736024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12036692984017558,0.0,0.0,0.13830165130657204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10103871812677058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09786979682816507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10024628304703068,0.09108318406229084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09448497315011042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10341084090375348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15162048016656568,0.0,0.0,0.13797860895251265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606536209617493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218450818019804,0.0,0.09762067620079763,0.06978411600470763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12015266896587452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07618974014380496
schizophrenia,stevoschizoid,2020/01/15,"Holy shit, a positive empatheical NP!!! I was really about to give up on humanity I finally was able to get a appointment with a nurse practitioner and she actually talked to me and wrote stuff down and knew I wasn't seeking drugs. She went over our 30 min appointment and we ended it a hour later. She was empatheical shes getting me off invega and switching to latudia also gave me something for anxiety. She tells me "" see it's people like you who actually need this help while people are trying to get disability over a hang nail"" 

I'm utterly shocked and filled with love.

Don't give up guys there are people on our side after all.",4.779430894308941,6.222928406504067,6.144878048780488,75.34869918699188,69.8130081300813,10.34471544715447,29.11382113821137,10.504223727775694,3.247708943089432,506,19,95,15,9,171,82,123,0.062,0.8009999999999999,0.13699999999999998,0.8895,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,3,1,0,0,3,4,1,0,5,0,8,3,1,0,1,13,21,8,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,9,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,8,1,16,2,18,13,1,19,0,0,1,1,20,9,1,0,8,61,21,0,0.18088881939730814,0.0,0.35304278841174724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446567235186969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383794517244694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20977360210155907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16021380333990695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981548598741112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28352082667319906,0.3470500766674348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17910837050300815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12124596266934927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17813904982845646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837314011032929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16325922187710054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13412676754919592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3762165940309767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11588200962885653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414496930525758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856797736691541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13925705060017993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20707442093904632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14539158108485903,0.1581048011507006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12281163451681908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16768574782883705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,zuxanax,2020/01/15,"therapist told me I’m not schizophrenic My therapist and I were discussing my diagnosis, she believes I was misdiagnosed because “a schizophrenic would not have as many friends as you do.” She constantly belittles people with schizophrenia, saying things like I am not crazy enough to be a true schizophrenic. Why are professionals like this?",6.870773809523811,10.533382625000002,5.960714285714289,68.9509523809524,70.96428571428572,10.876190476190477,36.11904761904762,10.504223727775694,5.279283333333334,281,15,40,10,6,85,43,56,0.0,0.777,0.223,0.8987,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,8,3,0,0,1,7,10,3,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,1,3,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,1,9,4,4,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,3,30,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15416816352310814,0.0,0.0,0.2849366329934431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27329979035750873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26131783158071764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19539329770720087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471126121090167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564053478194566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1753320544260518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20111971492170155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5872829587997646,0.1680184333113511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416609743994486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282068674463468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17965601635985953,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,magicalme79,2020/01/15,"Having trouble quitting weed I started up smoking about a month ago and I have been smoking nearly daily since then. I really enjoy the escape from loneliness and boredom.

I'm scared and want to quit because in Australia they test to see if it's in your system at all while driving not just active in there. I'm spending a lot of money on ubers so that I don't drive stoned. But here u can be tested a week after smoking and still come out as positive. 

Also I've gone down in dosage in my meds (were causing mad hair loss) and I'm worried that I'll go psychotic again if I keep smoking.

So how did you quit? How do I quit?",2.9472093023255823,4.28550639534884,4.2596046511627925,87.49963953488373,74.1937984496124,6.4003100775193795,26.078294573643408,6.742157984588678,1.056221085271318,491,17,100,4,10,162,96,129,0.14400000000000002,0.7759999999999999,0.08,-0.8106,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,1,5,11,5,1,1,4,0,9,1,1,3,1,19,19,16,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,1,0,0,2,5,2,4,0,0,4,2,10,1,18,14,2,26,0,1,1,0,3,11,0,3,9,67,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15845680641223872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14295146761082805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10896827209848832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1836321137611823,0.0,0.15398285255872962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10159140935983828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15888694515438262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15197234047263042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985581169828292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14268169208438758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7605179479302977,0.0,0.0,0.11451595849256226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17896638967408984,0.0,0.1424457461062364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478691817569675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12652473459326938,0.0,0.14275513100907106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10543518498732417,0.0,0.1433876408932496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18153585091316626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jefekarma,2020/01/15,"i see things when i close my eyes i have auditory hallucinations, I know that much but when i close my eyes i see things, everything, nothing, shapes, faces, living things, dead things, ive done acid a few times and it reminds me of that but my eyes are closed, is that what visual hallucinations are? i also see patterns in everything wheny eyes are open, faces usually, i didn't want to ask anyone about this for fear id be locked in another fucking psych ward. hate those places.",2.6243478260869537,5.269528391304352,3.3893043478260867,87.1491739130435,80.30434782608697,6.723478260869566,21.156521739130433,7.908726449838941,0.9849791304347828,380,11,76,7,10,120,62,92,0.183,0.8170000000000001,0.0,-0.9585,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,2,1,1,0,9,7,6,0,0,9,17,6,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,11,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,8,13,0,6,14,2,12,0,0,7,1,1,8,1,0,4,47,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490463175352637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19543345020846736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303197421575316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742381518970436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19072927288148467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3350088287016106,0.0,0.0,0.20972692302395632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17230334014314058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18400956345188046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242840468400433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16457507627622486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370091814149898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17883459558291673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194725208559494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455571025719814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4952847082841286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10867843643614486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052688956128153,0.0,0.1099304982568759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ayyylmaaoo96,2020/01/15,"Overcoming negative symptoms - productivity My schizophrenia was triggered by cannabis but my doctor said it's not chronic if it's triggered by drugs

However, i don't have money atm for another therapy, last time he prescribed abilify 10 mg and prozac 10 and I can tell there's 70% improvement

But I'm still not productive enough, i can't 'fully' focus on my study, I'm enrolling on online courses about IT, coding and shit, but i watch 5-10 minutes then distract myself with something else

I'm not saying there's no improvement, i was hella worse before the meds he prescribed, i also downloaded a yoga app and started practicing it, i just want to become the best of me

I just want to know if someone overcame those symptoms by 100% and how long will i keep taking those meds, also just wanted to share my thoughts

P.S i really miss smoking weed but it's really shitty quality here and just not worth it",7.1053488372093065,7.365816511627909,7.445906976744188,72.3142093023256,64.11627906976744,10.368372093023256,35.804651162790705,10.125756701596842,3.7629330232558167,728,32,123,15,10,238,110,172,0.134,0.747,0.12,-0.5401,1,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,12,5,1,1,3,0,7,7,1,3,0,30,20,16,0,5,14,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,8,7,0,1,2,1,3,0,8,3,0,0,4,3,16,2,12,15,2,8,0,1,1,0,6,2,1,2,6,78,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262529268868273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17211763981855493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812824075146572,0.13967311025234275,0.0,0.17225734361524347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16800672277267292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19035309610226409,0.0,0.13711993009852055,0.0,0.0,0.1696029984930673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14589732529942173,0.0,0.0,0.09020838165516258,0.13379798056906006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14526087695181508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3646504520070748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21030767545981208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561370302068838,0.13053264103890735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684898359345494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13907734029444013,0.12636485463495262,0.0,0.0,0.11618085012233645,0.0,0.13108434910593106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3412136479841893,0.12341467249924575,0.0,0.14346771045623852,0.0,0.18771116308607744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031074705355933,0.09571276543809214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.290446357323197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16727514964947532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,whentity,2020/01/15,"Another kind of loneliness. Maybe I should start by saying that my  onset was a really long time ago (13-14 years ago), I don't really remember how life was before it, either, but things have started to change.   


For most of my  life I never actually cared about having friends, and thought I've always been alone I did not feel lonely, today the situation is no different in this sense strictly speaking, but after so many years I changed so much, when young I was already a freak but those years have really turned me into a stranger, not only to myself but to any kind of life that I've ever known, and so.. I feel extremely isolated not in the traditional ""lonely"" sense, it's not that I have no friends and no one in my life, but that I never could have, people who share my own conditions only resemble me very superficially. 

Before, even though I knew I probably wouldn't meet them, I knew there was probably someone out there who could understand me, that what is happening.. has happened before and its not just a doom, but after what I've become, well.. I wonder if there is anyone left alive who could understand me, but they say that those who seek to understand that which cannot be understood, always pay a price, so I get why things are this way.",15.132418494368697,7.493559195020747,13.554155305275641,59.2070124481328,56.63485477178423,17.422880853586246,46.876704208654424,13.25671669890799,5.711498636633077,990,30,188,22,7,321,136,241,0.102,0.816,0.08199999999999999,-0.4082,1,5,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,2,0,15,11,0,0,7,0,24,4,0,1,3,43,41,19,0,6,15,0,2,0,2,2,4,3,0,0,23,6,0,0,12,0,2,0,13,4,1,1,10,5,25,7,17,25,4,24,1,3,0,0,13,6,0,3,17,137,48,1,0.0,0.0,0.09692539926311187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17608856320309946,0.0,0.0,0.10286918188881602,0.10960594173847917,0.0,0.16529020167597708,0.0,0.0,0.06754337957184282,0.10414934009379527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06944929403038504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10969499194370567,0.2535509250004461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10126691825466816,0.0,0.21014216651033968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379051757114794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10377190777456416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06560222881490686,0.08984378364642986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10044188239279496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15347416494683927,0.0,0.05189242442506717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17566286947562107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20686026234842989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079152631794306,0.0,0.2806204750888558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878981636741372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069843005429953,0.09978379631617013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0730141939158378,0.0,0.15320879813617774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06730416775886593,0.1510799806146871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06885840240481389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141750438183192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19088751425092068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11251415291948412,0.0,0.0,0.1579720525941918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164376495233802,0.0,0.0,0.08415647128868324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14060335575753152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13197222755704327,0.0,0.09758482524503186,0.07885175701377815,0.05791632612112356,0.0,0.09414705552048801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10803543634043963,0.0,0.3101977697113944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08195228176210781,0.0,0.07883836372927351,0.0,0.0,0.08930374634254053,0.0,0.08962400150732339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10771208872512446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19188321453962212
schizophrenia,gingeronimooo,2020/01/15,"We need to hear your successes, even the little ones We are all fighting a battle that some may not see.  I used to not want to “brag” when I was doing well but it’s not that -  it’s just sharing success. But I looked at it how do I feel when someone on this sub posts they are doing well l?  I’m happy for them and it inspires me that I can do well too. So even though I can’t work right now, I feel really grateful for how life is going. 

As some of you know I was sleeping on park benches for a long time. I’m now living in a house as part of a mental health housing program. I pet sit for a friend for some spending money. I have people I love and they love me too and stick by me. That is a success, especially considering where I came from. 

But you took your meds today when you struggle with taking them? Tell us so we can cheer you on. You finished a semester at school, or even registered? Let us know because we’re on your side, and you might inspire someone else to try. You went on a date, or met a friend, or even made dinner? Hell yeah that’s awesome. 

The reason I’m saying this is sometimes I dwell on negatives, instead of being grateful for the positives. I imagine a lot of us are like that. A lot of us share when we’re doing bad, and that’s ok and important, but we need to hear when you’re doing good too! It gives us hope and reminds us to be grateful. 

So let us know your victories in life...I feel this sub needs all the positivity and support that we can get.",1.078863879957126,2.9738942122186494,2.8710064308681678,92.9430584137192,81.15434083601286,5.5614576634512325,21.620685959271174,6.588339656340683,0.3001394640943196,1144,35,257,11,30,380,154,311,0.05,0.635,0.315,0.9987,0,0,0,0,2,0,35.0,12,11,4,4,26,27,3,2,15,2,25,6,1,5,2,54,56,28,0,5,11,0,3,1,2,2,2,3,1,0,16,15,1,0,10,0,2,4,5,6,3,1,7,8,44,21,32,43,8,32,1,0,2,2,40,14,1,11,13,186,60,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662100248933985,0.048338964976884786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09069511169281944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06624281063191967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095007650954446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12028545898353493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12252996414750295,0.0,0.041429623718968696,0.0760693010987024,0.04506654537532778,0.06651090506537605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08441356721735463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842894384593213,0.1787478879162403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07876022027162705,0.0,0.182997128374744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13073934779068294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16217394808407087,0.11202021123100066,0.03874070894116159,0.07947683675511646,0.07002106561272271,0.07017571229238465,0.06658985263422798,0.0,0.0,0.13483164414907892,0.14313801656940364,0.07503312644472722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08808154592039569,0.0,0.07991313808682908,0.08412202048810273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17639407368647614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0537339770855108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587136729237599,0.0,0.05497483945156945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07594499872007887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050799951217572366,0.08153094419676887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06771955466014414,0.0,0.06306048300500104,0.0,0.08025321216234492,0.06318976890733964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07935467739955962,0.0,0.13437687591725295,0.0,0.07842716588075598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08289886999320506,0.0,0.0,0.08998576087721981,0.0,0.0,0.05962178345404603,0.0,0.06930943130381767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07790930247286773,0.0,0.04623895732310684,0.0,0.07516467244838355,0.0,0.08810233997188167,0.05383773600739459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6676951421492321,0.0684875017757714,0.0,0.0,0.04677166680065522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21389368382710086,0.07350949329295921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05772945873184057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,justlarry98,2020/01/15,"Signs? Part of delusions? Does anyone else believe in signs? Like 'Oh if the traffic light turns green in 5 seconds it must mean that everything will be fine' 
Does anyone else do it too? Does this count as delusions?",1.9208333333333345,4.750470750000002,1.4650000000000034,96.43333333333334,91.5,3.6666666666666674,21.66666666666667,5.46131890053228,0.05291666666666695,170,6,32,1,6,49,32,40,0.0,0.8759999999999999,0.124,0.644,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,5,6,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,4,3,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002255809200537,0.4399404427138423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24187655343338055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5636170463706773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3586836512347013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19294509516583455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048842795307128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23385497494916194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324830065566689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335157044294015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ImARockInAHardPlace,2020/01/16,"Anyone experienced with Vraylar? It works pretty well for my symptoms, but I find it has some unfortunate side effects like causing me to dry heave, which occasionally turns into actual vomiting if I eat certain foods or have certain fluids like hot coffee. To be clear I had none of these issues before, and when I tried Risperidone the symptoms went away until I had to go back to Vraylar. 

My question is, has anyone else gone through this, and did you find any effective remedy or medicine that counteracted these effect?. I intended to ask my prescriber about it, but it's a while until I see them again and I could use some relief. 

Thank you.",6.470273109243699,7.7553701764705885,6.572594537815127,74.43435399159667,65.72268907563026,8.975210084033613,31.681722689075627,9.188382445141503,2.8647050420168068,517,20,87,9,8,165,87,119,0.03,0.738,0.23199999999999998,0.977,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,1,4,5,7,0,0,2,0,9,5,0,6,3,25,17,12,0,2,5,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,9,5,2,0,6,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,5,3,15,7,14,10,3,12,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,6,8,65,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.17588764783211489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12256896798819268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.252055148876839,0.1846765579491182,0.0,0.0,0.16849950202996347,0.0,0.16934084294657106,0.1385929677892239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15337044827959107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851555059516936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439064891868972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18442989596722115,0.15056688513115968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294710799845821,0.0,0.2179461895910662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10243420072389722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18812309874430005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17611172646206688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18336826002621084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019093700081632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14362746063723614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3746754837484686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659402172512057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12237071669844042,0.196048702661037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15566896564959098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620568602884596,0.1670837231558753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13121642482622373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SkitzAEnemia,2020/01/16,"Antipsychotics and side effects? Hello, I have just been given some meds. I don't think I'm actually going to take them as the doctors I deal with aren't trying to help me.
But out of interest can anyone tell me the side effects that you get? How long does the blurred vision last?",2.9258928571428555,4.9718812321428585,3.949428571428573,86.69557142857144,75.96428571428572,6.622857142857143,23.7,7.554174236665415,1.0862114285714282,223,7,44,3,5,72,46,56,0.040999999999999995,0.858,0.10099999999999999,0.5076,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,1,2,2,1,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,3,0,11,11,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,7,1,6,9,1,6,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,2,2,27,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.30488074159065154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21845411448296567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220954099723317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197791871142618,0.2734043346008711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16322863730180698,0.0,0.17755775044963215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094112114840392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546672463922564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27648539525414617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3470326163121768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.234903955023167,0.0,0.27307233347392273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001886744159427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121153777189121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,kittyhasnosoul,2020/01/16,"I still hear voices if I think about them too much? I started taking medication and upped my dose of Latuda and my voices went away, though if I think about them I still hear them sometimes. And I can still get wrapped up in conversations with them, although they are not as loud or as individual as they were before medication (I can predict what they say) it's almost like a memory of the voices so I'm filling them in because im not used to being without them. Should I get my dose raised more or is this a common symptom ? My physciatrist said it's fine as long as they're 90% gone. What do you think? Have you experienced something similar?",3.29398711524696,5.294816322834649,4.429262705798141,83.87069434502506,74.74803149606298,7.137866857551898,24.931281317108088,8.00094639256281,1.409888188976378,511,17,101,8,11,167,79,127,0.0,0.9570000000000001,0.043,0.6081,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,9,0,8,2,0,0,3,0,9,5,0,1,0,17,23,15,0,3,7,0,0,1,0,1,5,8,0,0,5,4,0,0,3,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,4,9,23,2,17,17,2,14,0,0,0,0,16,5,0,5,7,75,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17139847701819558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608165163745396,0.0,0.0,0.1043414806018876,0.0,0.14565004388756508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788548133657147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3858340634425955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848891407758646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836232826338039,0.0,0.0,0.1514769239759461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448643861012234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12582703709211376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16281849284390268,0.13611843297344875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177229740337884,0.1692879980223211,0.0,0.12115249591450332,0.0,0.4100812496927593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779074823856433,0.12869587018867945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3290296536727587,0.16817017030808604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478328578492647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586730161092537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649983519113109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BabySchizo,2020/01/16,"Can someone explain what positive/negative symptoms are? Hey. 

I don't know if the positive/negative symptoms mean in the literal sense if they're positive or negative. Can someone explain them to me and give me a few examples? I'm relatively newly diagnosed and never really got them explained to me.",5.339444444444447,8.136734796296299,7.4145925925925935,61.1396666666667,71.4074074074074,12.468148148148147,42.28148148148148,11.602472056035307,6.896685925925926,245,17,34,11,5,86,38,54,0.077,0.855,0.068,-0.1179,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,3,0,0,1,11,12,5,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,3,11,1,2,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,3,1,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28967682742856005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737834202992291,0.0,0.0,0.22826189778484296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15684936975815167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3108862372862065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22011946876972874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18283570631646295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4836400514580013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5932835137624602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,faon974,2020/01/16,"Can nausea be an hallucination ? Anyone experienced this ? I take my meds (Abilify and Haldol) every day and last thursday I had a panic attack at work and I feel really nauseous all the time since that day. My mother asked me if it could be an hallucination today. My next appointment with my psych is in 2 weeks and I am considering going to see my family doctor but I resent it because I hate waiting rooms, you know, with the people on the magazines looking at you and the other people who are waiting and so on...",5.0047619047619065,6.279886878787881,6.9701587301587296,70.28000000000003,69.1010101010101,9.293506493506491,27.274170274170274,9.606745405546679,2.6397867243867243,407,13,70,9,7,143,71,99,0.11800000000000001,0.882,0.0,-0.8924,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,1,1,4,3,1,7,0,8,1,0,0,1,16,18,9,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,6,8,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,4,14,0,8,14,1,15,0,0,2,0,5,6,0,1,8,53,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505463119571515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012811776332533,0.2449406010724595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13124797308546388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17190357991357666,0.0,0.0,0.277707918510737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22037386375005494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18140380861621325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029704595770926,0.0,0.108864713251466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12236283373680633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212569183179013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11832603648180474,0.17550236950848078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18080203393848907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23915539717936185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22897938592848274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526141111214489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29853085402914964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379299418871524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17157026619815044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781025798946964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16188261858370234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12554611852250175,0.0,0.2040840326473808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727047412088537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15674465618985006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Roy__-,2020/01/16,"Is sleepwalking a negative trait of Schizophrenia? I am sleepwalking a lot lately. I have hallucinations every now and then, but it's almost always at night so I thought it isn't schrizophrenia, but I'm really not sure anymore. Any help is welcome",2.8222857142857163,5.860064688888893,4.223809523809525,76.23000000000002,91.0,7.904761904761906,26.42857142857143,8.418075326091056,3.0485238095238096,201,9,32,6,7,66,36,45,0.114,0.721,0.165,0.517,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,1,8,7,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,2,6,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,4,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3318538656381715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757552004253976,0.0,0.0,0.225366512744103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3286643418723222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2792226941334243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22213353777439035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738388576015133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817483652781618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110007952829253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123062920739316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3123449417555209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630982579578925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,crassus_licinius,2020/01/16,"Afraid to open up about all my symptoms I'm 99.99% sure that if I was to tell my psychiatrist all of my symptoms I would be diagnosed with either schizophrenia or maybe schizoaffective disorder.  

Starting about a year and a half ago after unsuccessfully being treated for depression with ECT I began to isolate myself and have spent much of every day sleeping 12+ hours on avg. 

I have had delusions ranging from persecutory ones where I feel people are out to get me and mild grandiose delusions.

The symptom that I am really afraid of telling my doctor however is that sometimes I have these episodes where I seem to dissociate and have conversations in my head. The only thing is I never am able to recall what was said in the conversations - it's not like someone is dictating to me.

I guess I am afraid that I am right and that I will be labeled for the rest of my life. But at the same time if I dont say anything and I do in fact have this thing I wont be able to hide this forever...",6.543800374882848,6.434981355670107,6.859315838800378,77.29697750702907,65.34020618556701,9.941143392689783,33.6157450796626,9.573946990214177,2.9469443298969065,789,31,154,14,11,256,118,194,0.081,0.9059999999999999,0.013000000000000001,-0.8862,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,3,7,0,25,8,2,0,5,26,34,10,0,3,6,0,1,1,0,3,6,3,0,0,12,10,0,0,2,0,1,0,4,4,0,2,6,4,25,3,27,21,6,20,0,1,0,0,6,11,0,5,10,118,37,1,0.30269312121303704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415959424875326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12454532381646295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09760601100263808,0.0,0.1303545708801067,0.15361357319554336,0.0,0.0,0.17345627050616486,0.15490961788365493,0.0,0.0,0.1773770418604727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275160048346262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07652536849798758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790723313179781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16672529947019613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553252346660801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490458757543935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069005516059279,0.07394028470228017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152047962489616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11125713620424577,0.0,0.11672779775925253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10255634634675168,0.11510587927847415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10492464881540474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09695648217470698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12924913581440894,0.14396523715044576,0.12035685960044472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13778022459688594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15145586128257124,0.0,0.1282354496637504,0.0,0.14968561836138095,0.0,0.10712387457376622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14264234225867073,0.471921078099705,0.0,0.0,0.2645671296795711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20109585970936486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825139658646089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075122543099112,0.0,0.0,0.09746222293869396
schizophrenia,natalielieliel,2020/01/16,"My boyfriend is showing signs of schizophrenia I already posted this in a different subreddit, but was told I can get some good advice here. I love my boyfriend and I just want him to live his best life, so any advice is appreciated. Thank you <3


My(20F) boyfriend(27M) and I have been dating for 9 months, and everything about our relationship was perfect up until a month ago. 
He went to the ER after taking preworkout and edibles at the same time and he thought he was dying. I thought for sure it was just a bad combination of what he took but for 3 days afterward he was just....off. He was wide eyed, swore that the doctors and nurses were racist and didn’t care about him, and just looked like he was tweaking out even though he wasn’t high anymore. 

The night before our 8 month anniversary, he thought I was an imposter and that I was cheating and everything I said was a lie; and it started because we were watching a tv show where cheating came up. He swore up and down that he didn’t love me and started grabbing my wrist really hard whenever I’d try to speak. This went on for hours and I was honestly scared he’d hit me. He was mumbling things that didn’t make sense to himself the whole time, and was following me around his apartment. 

  There were signs that something like this was coming (he had a few episodes that I thought were panic attacks wherein he felt that “everyone” was lying to him), and I tried to brush it off because I myself have a severe mental illness and I would hate to be judged for it; but it is getting harder everyday.

He has mysterious pains that doctors haven’t been able to identify, even with x rays. He’s in denial about a lot of his symptoms, and when he talked to a therapist on the phone to get a psychological evaluation to get therapy covered by insurance, he made it sound as if there was nothing wrong. I kept typing out things he needed to bring up because he just made everything sound like it was no big deal. He was on antipsychotics when he was 19, but swears it was for anxiety. 

I love him so much, but I’m worried that he’ll snap out of nowhere again and I’ll get actually hurt. It was as if he was a totally different person, and that terrifies me. The boyfriend I know is sweet, thoughtful, and attentive. But he can be so horrible to me without warning. I’ve been in abusive relationships before, and I just don’t want it to happen again; even if it’s not entirely my boyfriends fault.

TL:DR my boyfriend is showing signs of schizophrenia and I’m torn about what I should do.",5.1625507086999,6.046454909274198,5.3786730205278594,83.27077468230696,68.45564516129032,8.834701857282502,31.56256109481916,9.0124134603493,2.497441666666667,2009,82,402,35,33,635,237,496,0.158,0.7040000000000001,0.13699999999999998,-0.9422,2,0,1,0,1,0,54.0,3,1,0,2,25,25,4,2,19,0,52,11,2,3,3,73,95,41,1,8,16,0,3,3,0,3,6,4,0,1,28,31,0,1,8,4,0,7,9,11,1,0,49,12,43,14,53,39,8,50,0,1,3,3,50,22,0,5,23,256,71,3,0.08353890762159409,0.09897994514832416,0.08152192320637655,0.0,0.0,0.16326650736967674,0.07405220115728504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09218726188696233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056809321853889976,0.0,0.06390703567447419,0.0,0.08284814878651592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07436733906014248,0.0,0.09503756748783862,0.0,0.0,0.06975149844152857,0.15277362811804934,0.0,0.14217091490939215,0.0,0.08766892960783743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09554625530018043,0.08517348389655133,0.0,0.0,0.07196137187560342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053875684414532304,0.08612494557673935,0.0,0.0,0.08670019701864025,0.17456075622887465,0.0,0.17101122359462087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16552998182958253,0.0,0.0,0.07982500621367045,0.2252381506512891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08021045196685969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21822815645511764,0.0,0.0,0.07006847223636656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07387318011829648,0.0,0.07483445251525353,0.08247737616285962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08826344250651165,0.0,0.0,0.08226899637578944,0.0,0.08943012840170014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04591079889765316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05900600099213904,0.12243867165208862,0.0,0.07376638593360453,0.0,0.0701516425906234,0.0,0.0,0.07102179188027245,0.22619137711560625,0.1580930685556722,0.05576286952766285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08418757032180002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20003987716766453,0.0,0.061410709211777686,0.06194304148375709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07839560572206508,0.0,0.08015783491971737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08889128764029992,0.0980149086307784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07294295188929759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080007181214542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05351716335837717,0.0,0.0,0.17937904644433048,0.0,0.0,0.07946463136549126,0.0,0.08363702000948035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09437518720772292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06431233242886214,0.0,0.0,0.11825853757392428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07873443179099023,0.08682891149527795,0.06281086198610826,0.06714540954865833,0.0,0.07691140233175732,0.0955340213532838,0.09699511050941316,0.1109990764244835,0.0,0.0820765525880151,0.3316028063250665,0.09742441767250162,0.0,0.0,0.07982500621367045,0.0928148001626328,0.11343486927429415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09854682426735878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548828086114382,0.0,0.09326820701312756,0.0,0.08052852585434632,0.0,0.0,0.08483781576480386,0.0,0.059343643126028,0.09133668132679217,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,stars-eat-art-books,2020/01/16,"To KT, if you're still here. I owe you an apology. Please PM me if you're still in this sub. I can't remember how to spell your username.",-1.601774193548387,0.2971068064516125,1.1357258064516138,100.72358870967743,93.83870967741936,5.680645161290323,17.427419354838708,7.1686216300943375,-0.029200000000000337,105,3,28,2,4,36,24,31,0.0,0.873,0.127,0.3612,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,2,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,2,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4889907904399816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5046291254946479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7115036560463965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,some1inlife,2020/01/16,"The world is burning, the government, corporations, and rich dont care I have this nagging feeling in the back of my head, i want to rid the world of these people, i want them to eat shit and die a slow painful death, i want to watch their house burn with them in it.
Id like it if i could record the face of horror theyll get when they realize they are just like the rest of us.
Bags of flesh and water that can be stabbed, shot poisoned, garroted, melted, liquefied, crushed, strangled, slitted, crashed into, severely dehydrated, starved to death, dying of slow painful cancer, watching as their eyes get turned into parasites because thats what they really all are.

An instant death would be mercy to those who have none

Oh and also i know im not right in the head and just because i want this to happen to them and their families doesn't mean im going to do any of it.

Karma better be real and i hope she has brass knuckles.",4.923079710144929,5.5972605108695666,5.268260869565221,84.60210144927538,68.8913043478261,8.307246376811595,29.46376811594203,8.344100000000001,1.9428637681159413,730,26,148,10,12,232,116,184,0.26,0.633,0.107,-0.9905,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,1,0,10,1,5,11,3,0,9,0,16,12,6,0,1,27,30,11,5,8,4,0,1,2,0,2,4,0,0,0,11,10,2,0,4,0,1,1,4,5,0,0,0,4,21,6,22,24,3,13,1,0,3,0,13,8,1,2,6,95,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11563621625110206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833265963758783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11118813638941434,0.0,0.17629309985391536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1278865604611765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14742888893636133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11545098284762048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30014302884560784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16946960792844132,0.0,0.0,0.14796144966226296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13631559656284886,0.0,0.07311388249520383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510946044188342,0.0,0.08217926250306404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12786891376034373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968017319959559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14361999045182214,0.0,0.16684847845302164,0.0,0.0,0.31238467739468184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07946813681923122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14128808246187266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15751131214597855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30772825469600296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10024712843482443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16458595666694145,0.0926341811089256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12348723454745394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16335634468228033,0.1484293708524846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15728279896274808,0.0,0.0,0.1739354671494999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3411542688001241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10271937898105034,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Jamodin,2020/01/16,"Cope I was wondering how you guys/girls cope with hearing auditory hallucinations which is negative.  my voices often say your loser, worthless, I hate you and so on, repeatedly. I was wondering how you guys/girls dealt with it?  

I tried listening to music but that doesn't always help, watch tv, shower, wash and so on. Just need some guidance thank you for reading this.",4.0234754797441346,6.909124865671643,4.874200426439232,77.164776119403,76.4626865671642,8.007675906183369,25.989339019189767,8.841846274778883,2.4360891257995734,294,11,50,7,7,95,51,67,0.17,0.7829999999999999,0.047,-0.757,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,5,0,1,6,4,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,0,13,11,7,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,4,4,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,5,10,1,6,9,1,3,0,2,1,0,9,2,0,4,1,35,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24449488534547054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901019732712184,0.0,0.0,0.3311742491771625,0.0,0.19695191157138814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21787548781105445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939152693178177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336699846402269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705244834588563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19949518853058576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.637304680280947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,slayerbizkit,2020/01/16,"Should I lie about SZ/SZA and say I have , oh idk, Bipolar, depression , anxiety, etc. so I can get therapy? Very frustrated right now..... I just went to a therapy place , who assured me over the phone that they've seen my case before and that they would know how to help me. Long story short, I decided to be very honest and forthcoming about my issues and admitted to them, that I have SZA Bipolar type (anxiety/depression). Long story short, I spilled my guts out, only to be crushed emotionally when I was told there is nothing they can do for me. I actually want help and want to fix some things about myself, the anxiety/depression mainly. Are we really the Black Sheep of medicine, doomed to roam our respective society as ""broken"" individuals ???????",5.436304347826088,6.980645528985509,6.123884057971015,75.73669565217392,68.34782608695653,10.73739130434783,31.19130434782609,10.793553405168565,3.676490434782608,585,24,107,18,10,191,92,138,0.11800000000000001,0.7509999999999999,0.13,-0.4871,0,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,2,0,3,0,9,6,1,0,4,0,12,3,1,1,1,18,20,9,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,5,7,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,4,3,21,3,15,12,3,11,1,2,2,0,12,6,0,1,4,71,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.1662164653895247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13030116520242355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449373740705963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4401121733464464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19159712054868303,0.0,0.0,0.18996178131561636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08898983583253982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283357827340219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17777915002450062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09360832541522153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30147148613718144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.163435202085496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295428265439624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17795747913498985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10911707404870752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14545997551746406,0.0,0.13545240160041222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895719514268807,0.0,0.1131589725752216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16275659185497873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810784109978528,0.2009288319120737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578966245179421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12099678486208965,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,safetyindissent,2020/01/16,"Help Me Please - If You Hear Voices I am desperate to find out what other people hear, when they live with the experience of hearing voices. I have been keeping ""1st person transcripts"" of what I hear, and I want other people to do the same. If you hear voices, please send me a transcript of what the voices say to you. Here is an example:

(if I don't know the voices name, I write ""M? or FM? for unknown male / unknown female, ""s"" is me - scott stewart)

6 december 2013  10:38am

M?: are you going to kill yourself?

S: why would I do that?

FM?: because, just because

Julia Davis: you must be a right handed pool player of sorts scotty stewart

s: what the fuck are you talking about?

Ron Thiessen: excuse me please mr scotty stewart

s: if you address me like that you can go get fucked. I will not answer

P: do you care that they are being tortured?

J: why are they being tortured?

S: why don;t you ask the person doing it?'

S: Is  that Greg Cross doing it?

..... no answer

fm?: scott, do you care about yourself?

S: no i don't. why should I be the only one who cares about me

Please send me a transcript(s) of what you hear. You can help other people in danger of suicide by turning your transcript into a YouTube video simulation, and putting it on YouTube. Here are some examples:

[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RIXRqQahqeU&list=PL4DGXH9HN5L1hvqv3Rd-Zk-u9hY3jMl1m&index=4](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RIXRqQahqeU&list=PL4DGXH9HN5L1hvqv3Rd-Zk-u9hY3jMl1m&index=4)

[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yGTXnxFj414](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yGTXnxFj414)

[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0vvU-Ajwbok](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0vvU-Ajwbok)

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Send you transcripts to [hearingvoicesdatabase@gmail.com](mailto:hearingvoicesdatabase@gmail.com)

Many thanks",8.602393822393825,13.094845610038615,4.270501930501933,76.91301158301161,75.52509652509653,4.4988416988417,21.67181467181468,6.243973517019112,0.5455544401544401,1459,38,196,11,37,376,134,259,0.171,0.721,0.10800000000000001,-0.9716,0,0,0,0,0,1,153.0,0,15,3,0,7,11,6,0,12,0,29,3,1,0,1,26,49,8,2,8,7,0,1,1,0,4,0,12,1,4,16,5,0,1,4,2,0,7,5,6,0,1,1,13,35,5,21,40,2,13,0,0,0,2,40,5,2,7,2,130,51,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4415987698172972,0.09904772452802092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07620404199643548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09937964563358527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493250856237081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07973576365628708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0745017869883419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15071568224796786,0.042587396377774346,0.0,0.09265190745130013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5512292754104987,0.0,0.10927345123798303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0724528709190411,0.09018251940768296,0.0,0.04479764257818779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039823338460055535,0.0,0.07197784117642954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264181145621023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055235601380737256,0.061994627255034226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16953342089780213,0.14234874433874142,0.0,0.3579090182214417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08194349889122214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06961201328790889,0.0,0.06482274142109284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08916244874164614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06551739743044617,0.0,0.07504660329536078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866319123169691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04807872566741904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29421272329768866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0579047931614892,0.0,0.09904772452802092,0.0
schizophrenia,BasedGodBrody,2020/01/16,"Can we talk identity? Do any of you guys struggle with knowing who and what you are?

It's hard for me to really nail with an explanation, but I'll try. I'm not talking about family/bloodline, but moreso morality and thoughts.

Shit it's so hard to write down. Do you ever feel like you don't know what to think, and that forming opinions on even simple things can be challenging?

It's not a voice, but it really feels like there's something lurking there swirling the pot. I'm not talking things like what you want in your bagel, but more complex important things. Issues, whatever they may be.

I might come back to this post later with a bit of thought, to add some more on. It's difficult for me to try and explain!

Any thoughts appreciated.",3.2467851458885946,5.39035288275862,3.896551724137933,86.99246684350136,75.3448275862069,7.49602122015915,27.015915119363395,8.384062270229773,1.8540610079575592,588,23,118,11,13,186,91,145,0.095,0.769,0.136,0.8049,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,1,6,1,1,7,7,1,1,4,0,10,1,1,0,1,34,23,9,0,1,7,0,4,3,0,2,0,1,0,1,14,10,0,0,10,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,3,5,11,4,18,16,5,9,1,0,0,0,15,4,1,4,6,78,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103289740005867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11891311967973785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688332248573735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13321371405557406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10214213122186704,0.13988603290559862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15638718557081946,0.22095806481887906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15312371357574547,0.0,0.0,0.2770646278424308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16141009830690314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16997863928962645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22665646540203455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16405481767915908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14810798464390892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981401941311592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15874175171309082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11905393739901685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16166942880867913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3728954502099412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082195108676831,0.09909082197771152,0.0,0.3683146132748144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20998877377656344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09121413424225908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,redditthrowaway7757,2020/01/16,"I am considering taking my life. Throwawy of course

I had childhood schizophrenia since about the age of 10 but mostly auditory. 
I remember first hearing people upan people in my head screaming at me and I just crying on the carpet. My mom took me to a psychiatrist but I hated it because I didn't want to accept that I had problems so I told her that is was all good and she let me go. 

When I was 15 I tried to kill myself. My neighbour was just coming to give us some bread that my parents asked for and he found me with my wrists cut and they called 911. Now I just can't take it. Whenever I feel happy or stressed or sad or depressed or any emotion at all I start hearing screams and people insulting and cursing me to no end. When I try to go to sleep I hear the door locking from inside or someone knocking on the door and then I hear their footsteps but there is never anybody there. I just want it to end, I want peace, I want quiet. Maybe medication helps but my psychiatrist tells me it’s stress from school and possibly heartbreak. 
I hope you all stay strong because I just can't anymore.",2.1130440148087217,4.374175000000001,3.2779535170711647,89.45334327437271,79.54298642533935,5.6471410941999185,24.52509255450432,6.782984794422108,0.8664552036199096,869,32,176,9,22,280,130,221,0.248,0.654,0.098,-0.9893,1,0,0,0,0,2,14.0,1,1,2,2,12,17,4,2,5,0,12,6,3,0,4,40,34,21,1,6,14,2,1,0,1,0,2,7,3,0,7,10,1,0,4,0,0,4,5,12,0,1,9,8,41,5,20,24,5,21,0,3,0,0,21,5,0,8,11,122,48,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07505497203911017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10945678081947052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10318048378021084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13456031525019227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11269949039805548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09507345938595446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12123559577832912,0.0,0.0,0.09506099655542144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241507119288643,0.1955090458390321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055806081383063484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09388014939282403,0.0,0.12101434279096712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587637883432033,0.12545093913038946,0.0925726104960282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11749027127072495,0.0,0.1089669258450886,0.11327083889634125,0.0,0.4975773097296753,0.0,0.07397827771127785,0.0,0.0,0.10962171070473453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12210738088457612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11286018220495635,0.07795716636074315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11088089002861364,0.0,0.0,0.11118555210415794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12926329927560004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08512368001978228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12255214970595622,0.0,0.0,0.2295487211290913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12442490741976775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10560860348929624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250270071605427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11169971816286944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09129870250223758,0.0,0.11044910056067768,0.0,0.09351562861559023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07812002450781917,0.11763908793482696,0.0,0.0,0.2528555338048891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16596809594892065,0.0,0.09646771430163008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546268488819467,0.122624456756211,0.14986714616202176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13276079048028808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26039491050264146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ressorplliw,2020/01/16,Anyone else I’m becoming increasingly convinced I’m schizophrenic and plan on seeing a professional soon. But one thing I experience that I haven’t seen anyone else talk about is I get these sudden urges to do irrational self destructive things like break my phone or self harm and just do things not reasonable at all. And I don’t actually hear someone telling me to but it feels like a external force is telling me so. Is this a symptom or is it something else. Please give feedback,5.462747252747255,7.381067802197805,5.559120879120879,78.36087912087912,68.78021978021978,9.595604395604397,31.68131868131868,9.957137785484203,3.260687912087912,394,17,72,10,7,124,63,91,0.07200000000000001,0.818,0.11,0.5187,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,1,0,3,0,8,2,0,1,1,12,16,8,0,0,6,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,2,8,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,1,4,7,3,5,15,2,6,0,0,2,0,8,2,0,2,4,44,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.15930708090644669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22829442823259705,0.33453495707448405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802952486083665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4091197633329493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596884519413822,0.0,0.0,0.08254339526272414,0.11662482967680267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08529065362810488,0.15660292875821824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18399303235813785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595100361046721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11062147362836124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791979358911409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16784674581234796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13008799522956555,0.0,0.34060777786906743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383200057189724,0.12567674488726552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16967779812528988,0.0,0.13121303780316018,0.28537293693972243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3253653401379688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,sczphanc,2020/01/16,"does anyone else notice people completely avoiding you in public? strangers even? I'm so confused I'm back on campus again and I've noticed that people I've never even met before just completely ignore or avoid me. I asked a girl where a classroom was (new campus) and she put her head down and walked away. then I asked another girl and she did the same thing. I had some problems socially at my last school but I've only made friends here so far. my professors adore me and even some of my peers like me. I just don't understand how people can seemingly pick me out as schizo from a crowd.

 I thought maybe it's because my limb tardive dyskinesia makes me look drunk/high? I can't tell. maybe it's because I talk strangely sometimes? my voice is quakes because I'm nervous but also stays monotoned cause schizo so maybe that's it? these are people I don't think I've ever met before. I don't know what else it could be? 

anyone have any ideas or advice? please.",1.636152970635102,4.248087502617803,2.4141406783519272,92.54535397222857,84.96858638743456,4.997131800591852,20.86979285226497,6.498293943080001,0.35139271568404284,767,24,152,8,23,239,121,191,0.08,0.8320000000000001,0.08800000000000001,0.7536,0,2,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,0,15,9,0,4,4,0,13,1,1,5,2,34,28,16,0,2,6,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,9,6,0,3,6,0,0,2,5,6,0,0,7,2,23,3,9,19,3,18,0,0,1,0,16,8,0,6,8,87,32,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11266024337393052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09219752658327954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07840128546972135,0.12089182087034198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16122716871622697,0.1181284282391048,0.0,0.0,0.21556153693697835,0.0,0.10831893249534677,0.08865104283806624,0.0,0.210839496749037,0.0,0.1962069273414408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11843478750516866,0.0,0.0,0.2417591500908025,0.0,0.0,0.09204983875506037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10089122579991427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926203269426558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284442576624464,0.10428658106826573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907291798617914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11832100038728033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12181041995697607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13014859598900724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06336047558841618,0.09397689578372062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05632496531360238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09681472648208914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10909036927509784,0.07695709981705685,0.0,0.3474734881417396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891890511912431,0.11134798789821654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625173002841055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08768338780215468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197108168498752,0.0,0.0,0.12655401214647485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11031714549048667,0.0,0.11589848845427173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11667983149752127,0.0,0.1049558627285165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11752383406720288,0.0,0.0,0.11402494994572165,0.0,0.0,0.1228840070817694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266589091742954,0.10076871128048036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07659368210743263,0.07387330117706205,0.0,0.091527536090354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12002115800432095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,1feelall,2020/01/16,Ascension Has anyone ever had the delusion that they won't be able to ascend or elevate to the next level of life if they don't complete a self harm or suicide attempt task?,14.910000000000005,6.873249142857144,13.905714285714286,57.70428571428572,57.57142857142857,16.285714285714292,52.14285714285714,11.20814326018867,5.97042857142857,140,6,25,2,1,47,30,35,0.12,0.8029999999999999,0.076,-0.3919,0,0,0,0,0,1,1.0,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,1,4,5,3,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,3,2,18,3,0,0.36958054359700093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25841930925867884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3874981683973621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33430676056892195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26104566773773424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3930531009152631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3855531094932348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4042611293455877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Ohhennybunchesofoats,2020/01/16,Magical thinking Okay so I have a hard time differentiating what magical thinking is would me thinking something and then thinking that cause I thought of that thing be magical thinking or would me thinking I can talk to some kinda entity and get it to do things for me be magical thinking or is it delusion ?,6.435526315789473,8.014871105263158,6.942938596491232,70.66598684210527,66.01754385964911,9.910526315789477,40.56578947368421,10.125756701596842,4.605494736842107,251,15,41,6,4,82,36,57,0.031,0.934,0.035,0.0571,1,0,1,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,9,0,0,1,0,17,18,6,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,1,4,13,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,2,34,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19330411724102087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09831191982525647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16856483634731353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14486372822431606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15124524322184238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25002576384696923,0.8440095600933295,0.0,0.14938726990513182,0.10972440145700398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26734348032420824,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mrelhadj,2020/01/17,"I stopped taking clozapine and other medics! Hi, bcz of u who can understand me or at least some of u, i'm going crazy by thinking even taking control over the world and i'm not feeling shame about it and i'm working abt it, at least to have a big audience to practice my system, bcz of that, bcz of few people like me who really knows the truth of the world we are leaving, a few people controlling the whole world, like they made their selves the god on this Earth without permission, bcz of that i'm sure whoever thinks against them they have something for him, like it has a big chance to be schizophrenic people, so the medics will kill what's special about us!. I'm not ashamed about having DPDR alot of time and not ashamed of having virtual conversation or hearing voices because it is all part of me, i don't want that to be taken away from me, i'm sorry if you don't agree with me but i've OCD too and i can't be ok with knowing what's really happening in the world, each time a forest gets burned intentionally, after they saw people donating for team trees, All Australia got burned and almost 1B animal got killed and burned , and plus of that Australia killed 10000 Camel they said because they are consuming water, WTH, there's nothing more than water in this planet, they were able to give them away to another country or sell them or anything, also i see alot of homeless kids in my city, i just can't live acting everything is ok, even if it is with me, i can't because i'm not selfish, and i don't care if i waste my life helping alot of people and animals, that's why i want to be powerful somewhere where can i do it faster, helping everyone and everything. Better than living and working all my life like a slave for bunch of a tree parts ( papers(money)), it should be real gold or silver, or at least the bank will exchange the silver/gold whenever i want as it was in john Kennedy's time which he got killed because of it, the banks are f*cking everything, i've alot to talk about. I'm just angry at everything. I'm sorry but this is me, just trying to help.",6.672069493006995,5.913605704326923,6.874930069930072,79.45188811188814,65.27403846153845,10.063636363636364,32.37062937062937,9.339509955726095,2.6479461538461537,1647,56,330,26,22,532,200,416,0.121,0.775,0.10400000000000001,-0.9103,1,0,1,0,0,0,44.0,2,1,10,7,14,19,4,3,20,2,31,7,0,4,5,64,65,27,4,7,19,0,1,4,0,3,5,3,0,1,23,18,2,3,6,1,5,2,11,8,0,0,9,6,36,11,54,48,19,28,0,0,2,0,28,19,0,15,10,216,59,3,0.08642050296071317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0865376502993654,0.0,0.0,0.06911044499481457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061943249677096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07111671043259929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16238981464117316,0.0,0.0,0.21072454591496992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07643191198106965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08811146239304526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938558851099225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141598543087522,0.0,0.0,0.08257849404825407,0.3106767025395594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04369680294251209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04515114592225164,0.08290242116147094,0.04911476339384556,0.0,0.207355112642615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07642136536006472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09740218768756596,0.0,0.17377752440563962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3824459290530953,0.0,0.09498889667160892,0.0,0.0,0.0915068344998388,0.0,0.0,0.12208271399811466,0.168882769913548,0.0,0.15262177482264128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08177316946177106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17411912966977414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0829228033646582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871699661798352,0.0,0.2995654769842497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09836545222519064,0.11072637424016513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0822056884116864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06886595195945153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06653072530292675,0.0,0.19348135542746125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07225141012912067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08145030129582992,0.0,0.12995492612432213,0.0694615267293508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11074953758051488,0.0,0.0,0.15117747075500107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058673848719523074,0.0,0.0,0.08996679136483321,0.10395322438586213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15291915517275798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07798106207268463,0.09648540530155178,0.0,0.08330628093128765,0.0,0.12583031083724372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Old_boy7,2020/01/17,"Anyone here have constant ideas of reference, but that is their only symptom? Every day it's some new narrative. Today I was watching Bernie videos, and I went outside and saw street sign tagged with graffiti which read ""capitalism kills."" I saw the sooner lady at the corner store walking home. I drove for a bit. her radio was also talking about quitting your job. Radio was also talking about signs. I walked back in and my encountered my neighbor is this loner Slavic guy with tattoos. And the narratives I've created are: your a lazy POS if you support Bernie; your a bad person like the Slavic guy with tattoos and not sure about the job one. I think these references are related to other people's judgements towards me, analogous to how other people data is integrated into algorithm feeds tailored to you. It's hard to explain. But it gets annoying having my emotional state be so impacted by stimuli all the time. If I had walked outside and seen some homeless guy. walked back in n and encountered some wholesome person, as oppose to that Slavic guy with tattoos, etc I wouldn't even be making this post. 

I'm not diagnosed with anything or on medication. I don't know what i am.",5.400633689839573,7.329898459090912,5.92342245989305,75.64425133689842,68.95454545454545,8.449197860962569,31.12299465240642,9.007467420416297,2.9411283422459893,951,40,154,18,17,307,141,220,0.087,0.862,0.051,-0.833,2,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,5,1,1,11,6,2,0,9,0,16,4,0,2,2,37,28,17,1,3,7,0,1,1,1,1,3,0,2,6,12,13,1,1,6,4,1,6,4,3,0,1,9,5,21,3,23,16,6,23,0,0,4,0,17,8,0,6,8,109,33,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20858735706405607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09118994363439197,0.0,0.10732130775122836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20056380482031474,0.10889196519440324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14238056342595665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14093343304099287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08410757163890599,0.0,0.0,0.1323695587959567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1467005174498059,0.0,0.0,0.1454483842705085,0.08613857968526674,0.0,0.10988115794882278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06813701023805188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5165296257583695,0.0,0.0,0.11682717619986704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13081794475130387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14722386092658984,0.0,0.0,0.25883563816884114,0.0,0.14428605105761896,0.0,0.07167325759748851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06371470085413132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08705373480738149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13138046309366447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12595664640260315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837329954146718,0.09918729274995026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18082815446049091,0.2277485518096737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249025381070408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13871353632271513,0.1304513555250547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14799460288997868,0.1229155960480573,0.13555222496528385,0.0,0.20964698287207786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356534725582812,0.0,0.0,0.07604665516377519,0.0,0.12361917865574125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12089699706355547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,throwaway1239082409,2020/01/17,"Having imaginary conversations with people I had a nervous breakdown when I was 17. I suffered from paranoia, social anxiety, depression. The thing is that when this was happening (span of about 3 years) no one ever addressed it or talked to me about what was happening. I just sort of continued on.

I'm a lot better now and I'm really happy where I am in life. One issue I've been having though is I'll play out conversations with people from my life in my head. I get so deep and disconnect at times that I'll catch myself mouthing words and moving my hands like I was having a conversation. Someone even brought it up directly at work.

I noticed these symptoms can happen when I'm stressed or excited like being in a busy environment or even if I am really moved by a movie or song. 

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Does this happen to anyone else? How normal is this?",3.8702526132404214,5.9457643353658565,5.095644599303134,79.39378048780492,73.32926829268294,8.34425087108014,26.958188153310104,9.04235418022936,2.3780797909407663,677,25,123,15,14,224,105,164,0.107,0.7909999999999999,0.102,0.1909,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,2,14,10,0,2,6,0,16,6,3,1,1,18,25,14,0,2,6,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,1,0,10,6,0,0,0,2,0,4,1,4,0,2,7,2,14,6,19,17,1,23,0,2,0,0,5,11,0,7,10,89,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15142674773922066,0.16982016053230586,0.0,0.0,0.10691379069255072,0.0,0.0,0.097721406270503,0.14319765359605532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12360378814243494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203725761247206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12230237054991065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11674911477389167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18461647864893266,0.1264182884098249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07301731083666205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4943469296364376,0.14877402020716396,0.0,0.0,0.1434310934223338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14587009107471516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19742913039534904,0.13655650874252565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188164794620608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970793364162906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13693227415905698,0.0,0.15911437233789716,0.0,0.0,0.18940604114376372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937799371609046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17906394003006332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14246475239619372,0.11841572813533957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16009127346850874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452611276942089,0.0,0.11233145438035401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284840001312823,0.0,0.13731063053619533,0.0,0.08149348259898913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10174482542367602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16982016053230586,0.08999898331729927
schizophrenia,b00gglasses,2020/01/17,"How common is a relationship with Hallucinogens tied to developing Schizophrenia (genes included) I’m totally new to this community but have been very familiar with mental health for a while now. I was curious if the people in this community notice that those with Schizophrenia generally tend to have some kind of present/previous relationship with hallucinogens? I’ve heard it can be a triggering environmental factor in developing the disorder, but I am not sure how common it really is. I also am aware that schizophrenia is tied to genetics but I know these substances don’t help when you’re already apart of that gene pool.",10.036636085626915,10.51331653211009,9.898669724770645,56.450879204893,57.990825688073386,14.23914373088685,40.18501529051988,13.295006501635747,6.051182262996941,518,24,78,19,6,170,74,109,0.057,0.882,0.062,0.1298,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,5,0,12,1,0,3,2,17,16,9,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,9,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,4,2,13,12,2,10,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,2,6,56,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27206714795208226,0.19716093992277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825604857578621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262064466872564,0.0,0.0,0.16525307210238493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567373661915207,0.13549399190966346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24845810236291235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2381134805464831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2806916822397104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17092238666690426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579422330522494,0.0,0.0,0.5293914210003793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323645573644265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20342440577155788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,myrtophobia,2020/01/17,looking for diagnosis so i’ve been going to therapy for a couple years now and recently my psycosis has gotten worse. My therapist believes i may have schizophrenia or another psycotic disorder. But she doenst do diagnoses so she said she wants me to go back to the mental hospital i went to for a psych evaluation. which is a little scary but i think i’d like to so i can recover sooner. the problem is my mom doesn’t want to bc she thinks they may make me stay again. anyone have any advice for me?? thank u!!,1.3412490479817194,3.9685525841584166,3.562772277227726,83.35715156130999,87.51485148514851,7.464127951256664,23.610814927646608,8.384062270229773,2.093124295506474,405,16,77,11,13,138,72,101,0.10099999999999999,0.821,0.078,-0.3394,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,6,3,0,0,5,0,11,1,0,1,0,12,23,7,0,3,3,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,4,2,15,2,10,17,0,10,0,0,1,0,7,1,0,3,6,52,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18706159699034886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13017786245485755,0.20072934690917116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13385117391495308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14719660770754053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2156742308256673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118118609493841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19429577571052464,0.0,0.0,0.21939350754473336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21758631913737445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352223682863564,0.19186152635181888,0.0,0.0,0.16075162635512394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12777992981733155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929147821540048,0.0,0.0,0.22419860452138604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18317110626482336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890124307167672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18209222561269747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040371822470984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17624153267846376,0.2189150351675185,0.22226310300205596,0.0,0.2453191521567033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22581883599726196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17745602568446456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950818729484653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232736002061504
schizophrenia,OliPopz,2020/01/17,"I feel like my boyfriend is trying to hurt me and it’s ruining our relationship I was diagnosed with schizophrenia fairly recently, I’m currently on medication, I have a therapist and a psychiatrist, and I’m on some online therapy my therapist wants me to use as well. So the problem here isn’t that I haven’t sought help.

For the past few months, I’ve felt like my boyfriend is trying to hurt me. I had a meltdown at his house the other day because I thought he was trying to kill me. He invited over some friends I didn’t know and I had to leave because I thought he was trying to recruit people to help him kidnap me. 

He’ll try to poke fun at me as a joke and I’ll think that he’s making fun of me and trying to hurt my feelings. He’s very sarcastic and I talk everything he says literally. 

I can’t get through a conversation with him without getting overwhelmed with fear and breaking down. I have no idea what to do. 

Has anyone else dealt with this? He’s a very sweet and kind person, there’s no way anything I’m scared of his real. How are you supposed to keep yourself grounded in reality when this threat feels so real? What is he supposed to do to help me? I feel so lost.",2.2871900826446314,4.251346314049592,3.864462809917357,86.94851239669424,77.59504132231405,7.044628099173554,26.702479338842977,8.00094639256281,1.6452330578512395,936,38,195,16,22,311,127,242,0.165,0.703,0.132,-0.8173,1,0,0,0,0,1,19.0,1,1,0,1,8,20,2,3,9,0,18,2,0,3,0,34,38,16,1,2,1,0,5,2,1,1,2,1,0,1,8,13,0,1,10,1,0,0,7,11,1,0,10,7,31,9,31,27,3,16,0,6,0,0,24,8,0,2,8,119,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754289896504695,0.11053109797836287,0.08877226467096097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13151968819171422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0695707102979773,0.0,0.0,0.10949126277002996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09011605651278376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096951455913732,0.0,0.0,0.12138981895065508,0.21818017917259452,0.07706620909483285,0.10357730351451466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08334426836883864,0.0,0.11272089081808802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21691982512355334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12447373084702155,0.34644854849959145,0.12177819877438452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09588461431026166,0.11934814978685472,0.112335631381267,0.059285500024121626,0.0,0.0,0.11422447526056935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540494532110864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11775874497938835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07200766882966039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10867311894278246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08610511707776798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10297927803486684,0.07478722130808353,0.09419264050779803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10322219129354174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24557164993420905,0.0,0.0,0.10651394577535643,0.11581781103406022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08578684986327897,0.1080020969106458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08670616227547555,0.0,0.0,0.12336492418418928,0.25050331357834155,0.0,0.06912220209905362,0.0,0.17128203955857066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4394419029881769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09316971187618728,0.0,0.17801700936403653,0.06362770734510413,0.08562647331150057,0.0,0.0,0.0969929421553588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10398803845960457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,leaflights,2020/01/17,"Looking for interviews for an animated short Hey there! I'm a third year animation student that often makes art exploring my own experiences with hallucinations, delusions, and psychotic episodes. I do this not only to document and process, but also to show my experience to others in an attempt to demystify it. This semester I'm taking a class on animated documentary and I'm hoping to include multiple people's input on their experience with schizophrenia/psychosis/etc., but I also want to open it to people with all kinds of mental illness. I've made a google form [here](https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FAIpQLSfKTIC35Duqq7XdV-ltJ38imREMFv4ZgIAMA9M6GYhnX4DF9A/viewform?usp=sf_link) if you're interested in submitting your own opinions and experiences. You can look at my [vimeo](https://vimeo.com/user56979045) if you're interested in what style I animate in. Thank you!! (posted with mod approval)",8.904545454545458,12.512294000000004,8.421678321678321,54.275594405594425,63.54545454545455,11.393006993006995,38.27272727272727,11.051253699011982,5.689095104895105,754,39,96,25,13,239,98,143,0.027000000000000003,0.851,0.122,0.9157,0,0,0,0,0,0,43.0,0,3,1,2,4,5,0,0,5,0,2,1,0,2,1,22,13,10,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,9,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,10,5,21,12,4,12,0,0,2,0,6,9,0,5,1,63,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829423664500627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972962821001549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6921897006683218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17570697695492388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18421974954785614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971119598671068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16739216540547164,0.11808572715724375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782790330422226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13454452718257354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452878576343272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694264705447726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330108434847209,0.0,0.0,0.16287072290143587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10434338746569803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11392127652945536
schizophrenia,ManicDemiurge,2020/01/17,"Is it possible to have schizophrenia and a personality disorder? I can’t be fragmented and psychotic as well, can I? I just don’t want so many diagnoses when they find out something is ‘different’ about me. If I get so many then I’ll be treated even more like an experiment, so it won’t be comforting whatsoever. I have GAD, depression, OCD, and PTSD. That’s enough for me. I’ve talked to my therapist about alters but really nothing else. Last time I talked about the shadow people I was sent to a mental hospital. I lied to them so I wasn’t treated as poorly, and I still have nightmares about it to this day. But I can’t have those two diagnoses can I? And if so is it rare? I’m not asking for a diagnosis I’m asking if it’s possible. If anything I’m asking to NOT get diagnosed. They might diagnose me with ASPD too and that could lock me up longer",1.9265011900714053,4.097440283236998,4.203100986059166,83.0538592315539,79.69364161849711,8.463651819109144,24.627337640258414,9.168548406835145,2.2174885413124783,671,25,138,19,17,232,97,173,0.055,0.904,0.040999999999999995,-0.6265,1,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,3,0,15,6,0,0,5,0,20,4,0,0,0,21,30,21,0,6,9,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,1,9,8,0,0,1,0,1,1,7,1,1,1,3,0,20,5,17,21,2,9,0,1,0,0,10,2,0,5,7,100,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10795626253728384,0.0,0.3679282464917776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10474266805431012,0.0,0.0,0.0846051848927383,0.0,0.11299173542320982,0.5326108352852108,0.0,0.13706317809464774,0.1503524187314884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095904525110216,0.0,0.0,0.1355519167689679,0.0,0.08664820917619655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283266999849028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11990314043274665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13708027082218502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10693544858933944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0640916619171031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660073838551313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13220630104561673,0.139169371037985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12587809357193028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090949002235047,0.1145480006106705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.295788740464871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15335134892297592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08404217134453801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10099466642802306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10476663111854012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21088733632980203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15231897928570795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07649657688641834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12815127708009189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07737787814982376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11795345726955138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,hx7918,2020/01/17,"To My Fellow Schizophrenics! PSA: There IS Still Hope For You All To Succeed In Life! Recently Got Offered An Interview For A Local Restaurant Management Position (I Think There's A High Chance Of Me Getting This Spot) Which Will Help Me A Lot! As the headline of this post says, I recently got offered an interview for a local restaurant management position that I applied for on Monday (EST). It's at a popular restaurant chain and I think I will doing pretty well for myself if I do end up getting this job. I just wanted to make this post to say that those with mental illnesses can succeed in life as long as they put the effort into it. Thank you everyone!",3.0785347985348004,5.692584777777783,4.204285714285717,82.18302197802201,78.2063492063492,7.368986568986569,27.946275946275946,8.384062270229773,2.414760195360195,526,23,92,11,13,171,79,126,0.024,0.78,0.195,0.9664,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,1,3,5,6,0,0,9,0,6,4,0,1,1,12,16,5,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,2,4,2,0,0,10,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,14,6,21,12,2,18,0,0,0,0,11,9,0,3,6,69,24,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16096932308632886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736621129162127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899052166503451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907110977704342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12181772188772498,0.1920202283218172,0.0,0.1805106509724844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1803507292569516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567392673820084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16083580600293867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15451041003378474,0.0,0.0,0.12131408694819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18315302480818665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34811688209573177,0.1848967848400984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827007428675088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3588962756051306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890568055450887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14513926519813405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16732346503713166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329056605160064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10719604379135894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16340773710965106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,tachibanakanade,2020/01/17,"Wanting to join a psychosis research study. Is my expectation incorrect? I'm interested in joining the 1289-0032 Research Study, which tests BI 409306, an antipsychotic. I'm thinking of joining this study (if I qualify), because I'm on 3 antipsychotics (Abilify, Thorazine, Haldol) and even though a lot of my symptoms are gone, there are still symptoms that are greatly damaging to me. I hope that this medication treats those symptoms and that I'm part of the group that gets the real medicine and not a placebo. Am I wrong in trying to do this study? Am I wrong in what I think could happen? Should I be concerned about anything?",6.399586956521741,7.910036556521742,6.125815217391306,76.7469836956522,66.04347826086956,8.880434782608695,36.98369565217392,9.188382445141503,3.5298043478260865,504,26,86,9,8,157,74,115,0.032,0.843,0.124,0.851,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,0,7,0,10,5,0,0,0,14,21,5,0,6,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,10,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,9,4,11,17,2,6,0,1,0,1,1,4,0,3,1,58,19,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15511804258351156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490681616105065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15050055700055245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12450135161113406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984825835342872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20782004493138695,0.0,0.0,0.1666884271516964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872213473309444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16025451676860528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898922096257372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2041252935324847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21455233677427296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15053498857061887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5877657357622156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415642031530708,0.1851986260104329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12797797463986052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11118118315480653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4121866075682296,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,helloimthelatest,2020/01/17,"Green tea and mood Hello Guys, I hope you all are doing well!

After experiencing a psychotic episode, I couldn't drink coffee anymore, as it turned my head even more into a chaotic storm and lowered my ability of focusing. So I switched to green tea, because of the lower caffeine concentration and the healthy aspects. I began drinking a lot, like up to 1.5 litres per day (in a short ammount of time). 

After a certain time, my concentration got worse, I experienced heavy mood swings, and a really bad mood and really low energy in the evening hours. I read about some supplements on this board, also about L-Theanine, which green tea contains. 

The Wiki explains, L-Theanine increases the concentration of dopamine, noradrenaline and adrenaline, while decreasing the concentration of serotonin (my reason for the mood). Did somebody make similar experiences?

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(This is my first entry, plus I'm not a native English speaker. So please excuse some possible mistakes.)",8.36027382256298,10.008491807228918,7.853285870755755,65.63700438116103,61.650602409638545,10.855640744797373,39.789704271631976,10.832165505486646,4.956995180722892,784,41,113,20,11,247,114,166,0.096,0.779,0.125,0.4547,2,0,2,0,0,0,37.0,0,1,0,1,8,11,0,0,14,0,5,6,1,2,2,21,12,12,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,8,5,1,2,3,0,1,2,3,1,1,3,6,12,4,19,8,6,17,0,1,3,0,5,7,0,4,10,74,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14339774624623106,0.0,0.19428719312351544,0.21788675262594204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17783180742936838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14972012314634406,0.1093084589646122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11564302252085892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35131990169648364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368710810775625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754039953366422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15252482782040014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14341419172270967,0.0,0.0,0.17754955344779855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18402841613988014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780997650595493,0.17658866897081385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.087604010461952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15244678127312478,0.0,0.0,0.119693825641235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968334812521292,0.0,0.20215016383665804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793630317806272,0.0,0.2297469292412709,0.1843651777058164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091194617649012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950426918637799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16122527635545264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18273680162322373,0.0,0.0,0.21788675262594204,0.0
schizophrenia,hsand84,2020/01/17,"My mind is broken and shattered 

I cannot get rid of the nightmare in my head. I thought i was Jesus, and part of me still has firm beliefs that i am. I broke reality, or reality broke me. I thought i needed to get everyone to hate me, to despise me, to laugh at me. If everyone did that, then the mission god gave me would be a success. I had no control of what came out of me, i could speak and at the same time wonder what i was saying and that god must have had a plan with what was happening to me.

Im better, and im not. My delusions are still there, the voices are still there, the messages from destiny continiue through tv and newspapers still.

I wake up in the morning and its somewhat managable, i go to the psychriatric daycare center and do things there, with the most wonderfull people. But then the afternoon and evening comes and the pressure inside my head increases and its all about holding on until bedtime where i can escape into sleep thanks to meds. I dont know what to do anymore. 
And its not long ago that i was inpatient and thought things could be moving in the right direction. *aaaaargh*

FML

If someone would just shoot me and put me out of my misery as the sick animal i am.",4.115573529411762,5.181845508333332,4.862549019607844,85.34558823529412,71.0,7.980392156862745,29.950980392156865,8.313332769828598,2.0518039215686272,942,38,192,14,17,304,130,240,0.126,0.7979999999999999,0.076,-0.9136,0,0,0,1,0,1,26.0,0,0,0,4,11,9,2,1,14,0,26,5,4,1,2,47,41,22,0,8,7,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,0,0,13,21,0,2,6,1,0,6,5,5,0,0,12,3,31,4,30,22,6,30,2,2,0,0,4,13,0,6,11,152,44,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568884030613433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12943040321333096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11542508995859932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14926815541639424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11242241998242113,0.0,0.0,0.1463775561663213,0.20840250973894567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15295621893222466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08620032596143823,0.0,0.0,0.24941493303284476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637170508309468,0.0,0.07417158404246173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11540916278045216,0.0,0.0,0.1288511597313316,0.2678808976639994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28194541599948103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07172463477103715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11549684358286283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14496668718257755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13177743995909652,0.0,0.0,0.1387109960221314,0.0,0.0967711765794776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14132912303179265,0.0,0.09047888828938813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13119814328568075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11145444138131763,0.0,0.10378643128754897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13060380099882607,0.0,0.11058031697850644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4169003762760203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12015565780659013,0.0,0.0,0.1734094898722288,0.0,0.0,0.31083001050455,0.07610116729746506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415320382526894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18542047759550975,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Ashasakura37,2020/01/17,"Anyone know what this is? I’ve had Schizoaffective type Schizophrenia with Depression for years. I was diagnosed around ten years ago. I also have general anxiety disorder. I’m on antipsychotic medication, along with meds for depression and anxiety. I’m currently on Fanapt, Zoloft, Lorazepam, and Trazodone for my symptoms. I’ve been doing okay for years, and I really struggle with paranoia and voices, but recently, I’ve been getting some returning symptoms I didn’t have so strongly since I was first diagnosed.  At some point in the past, I was convinced I was a targeted individual. I was being inundated with slander, ridicule, and persecution. One of the issues is seeing people in public places that look and sound uncannily familiar to those I knew in the past. Their names are different, though I’m not sure if it’s the same people I knew in the past using different names to trick me and torment me.  The people I knew weren’t good to me generally. Now, in my psychiatrist’s office, a new receptionist looks vaguely similar to a woman I worked with at my old job.  This person also once worked for a three letter agency.  I’m scared that the next receptionist hired after her will be someone who really made my life a living hell when I was working at that job. The voices kept telling me I’m an idiot for not remaining vigilant and that everyone would be better off without me.  For years, I hardly left the house. Now I’m really afraid to leave my house. It’s very difficult for me to trust people. Reading my mind. Judging me before getting to know me. 

I mentioned this on another forum recently. Some of them suggested I might be going through a relapse. I see my psychiatrist soon anyway.",5.355367412140573,7.45937096485623,6.29535591054313,72.22751948881792,69.38338658146965,9.864230031948882,31.36984025559105,10.17224662633116,3.6617305814696497,1364,59,225,38,25,451,171,313,0.133,0.8009999999999999,0.065,-0.9479,6,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,2,6,10,17,4,3,16,1,24,7,0,2,1,40,45,15,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,3,7,3,0,2,12,15,0,1,5,1,0,1,5,10,0,4,16,8,35,7,39,22,4,38,1,2,4,0,13,16,1,5,21,155,47,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08475689952889172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15292650978055758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1002606301483503,0.14629037671266687,0.0,0.0,0.06685620836938258,0.0,0.0,0.08511759254210144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08136129488785981,0.0,0.0,0.08456366860318118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16470606264254814,0.1940943584767844,0.0,0.1997945806628136,0.10958303634019748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09136419884636517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08133004243107951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09990974821534823,0.0,0.0543401894249288,0.08019729823920864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0856522301026967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206536697517893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979718442401997,0.18976620303899086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10509497107843176,0.0,0.0,0.1012424447721139,0.10388594185283136,0.0,0.06753567914976707,0.0,0.0,0.08442976796738874,0.0,0.16058498275321698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904731940332681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10620667393723106,0.09632202045734464,0.0,0.1014323705103388,0.09654386031731596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09234553133581644,0.10168760256501712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10033182412442657,0.1018268197530137,0.0647911764494818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27382591634586945,0.2651495174102064,0.08348730149817794,0.0998972903314068,0.0,0.0903870496878748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956408421746429,0.0,0.1837601894454028,0.0,0.1888164904766962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09572726253988,0.0,0.15238549942291146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07909368909650523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08101425160126965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09995752416845964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09011597522401044,0.1987611229051039,0.0,0.0,0.08357169591360426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09394122001322612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0825806324567539,0.0,0.07889236171985682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09216941655184184,0.0,0.2088265051221941,0.0,0.0,0.0679221295181763,0.0,0.0,0.24629161659987944
schizophrenia,princessp00t,2020/01/17,"Reality It’s funny to think that we’re all classified as having the same illness because we are affected in “how we perceive reality” but really everyone lives in their own version of reality. So maybe it’s normal to have hallucinations/delusions and all the people without schizophrenia are the ones who are wrong. 

Hear me out. I bet we could do a study, examining different parts of “reality” (interacting with people, our thoughts and feelings, etc) and I bet you would find way more similarities in what we experience than what the people unaffected experience. And if you take the hallucinations/delusions as normal and just add the variable that everyone is unique and experiences different hallucinations/delusions from each other, we ARE the standard. Those “unaffected” are the ones who don’t experience reality properly. 


Does this make sense or is it a delusion?",9.387492492492493,10.60736282432433,9.958468468468473,52.95469969969972,59.270270270270274,13.334534534534535,42.12012012012011,12.650343791298138,6.219578678678678,710,38,102,25,9,240,92,148,0.051,0.935,0.013999999999999999,-0.6542,2,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,6,2,1,0,3,1,0,0,10,0,13,1,0,3,2,39,19,13,0,5,5,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,12,15,0,0,6,0,2,0,2,1,0,2,1,2,12,0,14,16,9,5,0,0,0,0,13,4,0,4,0,83,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08854781283543749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159765416721312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3035269901233824,0.0,0.0,0.12711608854059944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16200085548938428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776001249770925,0.0,0.5683600444750647,0.0,0.0,0.07344671332255427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327630069133571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637161090592824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12826530761215385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09696071622296673,0.0,0.14593099427606132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846436255945661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19686090292362435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15730005312617765,0.0,0.3021104276897682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09305587272325666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10921579567804973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09307533949317688,0.0,0.115318475807182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11529888850547028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14002334545111006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10318698068300383,0.1588166124499981,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,NondescriptMidnight,2020/01/17,"Going back to private care. Here in my country we have state issued care if you're not able to afford private.  
I've found this care to be lackluster and negligent.  
I'm in so many groups for different aspects of my MH  
The positive is I've learned to cope better after being in clinics and hosptials for almost a year.  


The issue is that while I can't rlly afford it, I've really had issues with these doctors at private.  
I'm already exptremely distrusting of the gouvernment, but yesterday was the final straw.  


Having established diagnosis of schizoaffective, autism and a few anxiety disorders only to have the doctor seeing me straight up throw all of that out and start over.  


Each doctor on the team having their own opinion of me while I live the symptoms.  


The last straw was me saying I'm struggling with voices, to which he replied, ""You're going through a stressful time and everyone can have that voice that's really hard on them.""  


I wasn't asking for more meds, maybe try something different or just anything really.  
I've been doing so well and looking after myself, but now I've been having bad symptoms only for them to be ignored, while I struggle to change my clothes, haven't washed anything and know its bad.  


The last time I said I was struggling the state ignored it and I ended up in ICU, but this was ""my"" fault somehow.  
I was gaslit so badly yesterday, being told ""You're not experiencing hallucinations.""  
Thanks I'm cured.  


I'm hoping establishing a connection with my private doctor will get me back to feeling okay, I've found it difficult to speak or hold a thought recently and I can't look at mirrors again (they're like other worlds, or two ways)  
I've been doing so well this year and refuse to have state doctors ruin it. I've learned to cope, I want to live.  


I hate to say it, but I often feel that men doctors don't take women seriously (my priv is a woman whose helped me through a lot.)  
It sucks because its going to make finances hard, but I'm struggling to think and I can see and hear people think I'm behaving strangely.  


Meds will be expensive and so will doctors, but they seem to have very strange views on my experience.  


just needed to vent.",4.842527523288936,6.371548400954655,5.452173377473248,80.04691662175688,69.763723150358,8.174948032950956,29.745245977365464,8.654491914285503,2.3629158672723065,1736,68,316,29,31,560,206,419,0.17600000000000002,0.748,0.076,-0.9942,4,0,1,0,0,0,47.0,1,0,4,2,16,27,3,5,17,1,37,11,0,1,1,58,77,31,0,4,14,0,4,1,0,3,11,7,0,3,20,19,0,4,11,1,2,4,7,17,2,1,15,17,31,10,47,54,6,44,0,1,5,0,21,15,1,11,22,203,51,11,0.07362805912114878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07372786565872577,0.0,0.08125039411786084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05632526369881879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121179238278986,0.0,0.06883229622088642,0.0,0.0,0.1132308653506078,0.1844290617602255,0.04488298144931497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06511803497189685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22520613998075986,0.0,0.07788872381793538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15385130169609426,0.08438413458873026,0.5275300687894685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652126064155755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07035476575141318,0.0,0.0720223699373436,0.0,0.0,0.07445711793459614,0.0,0.0,0.08065593985612096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16145873298495442,0.0,0.0,0.03846762200472763,0.0,0.12553356827351145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13191255789578032,0.07269246511797249,0.0,0.0,0.08298417375387784,0.0,0.0493513360160296,0.0,0.0,0.07312927587683757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305456936565203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04046405575288843,0.1200333903797616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0359709505896732,0.0,0.1300298502650991,0.0,0.12365805192245477,0.0,0.0,0.06259594290049014,0.0,0.0,0.04914730119461575,0.074647295568004,0.07396928167096707,0.0,0.16356835085163954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054594272900582254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11199491353809182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05104442555738963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14150406008163627,0.0,0.07269882582689771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07003714488009771,0.11710397565408134,0.0,0.0,0.11734406092521185,0.06702821974738521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056682477052970574,0.0,0.0,0.052114319207489664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08434069296003123,0.30788813503585943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15305549021440096,0.05535913733408773,0.0,0.0,0.06778682459703714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09435577462821497,0.0,0.05845245460817997,0.08586622674941753,0.0,0.0,0.07035476575141318,0.0,0.04998861907052634,0.0,0.07192391518593752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06075085972909072,0.043427736906886415,0.0584425262263124,0.0,0.0,0.13240093504867995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09482811216655654
schizophrenia,RetroPando,2020/01/17,"What's your struggle like? As a schizophrenic, what kind of struggles do you have to go through?

Mine is very minor. I hear scratching, shuffling, crinkling and creaking. As if someone is always moving around in my apartment while I try to go to bed. It's gotten to the point where I stuck a knife in my bed for easy access if these sounds do turn out to be real. But I'm sure there's worse out there and I'd like to hear from your experience.",2.4593333333333334,4.369971100000004,3.0886111111111134,92.95625000000004,76.8888888888889,5.388888888888888,23.472222222222207,5.985473137389443,0.3325555555555555,349,11,74,2,8,109,63,90,0.11,0.7759999999999999,0.114,0.0943,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,0,0,4,6,0,2,3,0,6,1,0,0,1,10,14,8,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,2,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,2,4,9,4,17,11,0,12,0,0,0,0,5,8,0,2,3,48,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17159408880755508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18358222672189006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20172570344800173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23440261119188466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4648567060516152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21474956088295175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015003204617616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21918245436150446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194947429232266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347269665921316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17473211190520993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4311781928131097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943627739078212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14001190678908185,0.2243114482261373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17015560477367025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101588950840852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,fuzzyFuckz,2020/01/17,In the hospital Fuck .. On my way to the looney bin in a bit fuck my life man shit sucks i hope i can lead a normal life someday and work n succeed at something right now i aint doing shit with my life,-0.706666666666667,1.1645405555555577,1.5555555555555571,99.94000000000004,87.88888888888891,4.488888888888889,17.88888888888889,5.6839178017228535,-0.6213111111111109,155,4,39,1,5,52,34,45,0.305,0.584,0.111,-0.8909999999999999,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,3,1,7,5,0,4,0,3,7,2,1,0,5,7,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,6,2,6,7,1,8,0,0,0,2,1,5,5,1,1,21,6,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591762850407007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4389398194457379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357890104993724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5030420433880538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23259887690942946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20273593356779585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4873696812296049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18275998246560615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18843486777024726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17282800764269424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ArbieBarbie,2020/01/17,"My positive symptoms are gone? 9 months ago I was on lexapro, invega, and invega sustenna. 3 months into taking meds I developed anhedonia, loss of emotion, and blank mind syndrome. I stopped taking the meds hoping I would return to my normal self. It’s been 6 months and I have seen no improvement. Idk if the medication caused my anhedonia or if it’s negatives of schizophrenia. I noticed that I don’t have positive symptoms anymore...no delusions, no manic episodes, disorganized thinking, grandiose thoughts. It’s like I don’t have schizophrenia anymore. I have no dopamine or “free flowing” thoughts in my head anymore. 

Did the negative symptoms override the positives? Or what’s going on here? Can anyone relate to this? 

And if possible how do I recover from anhedonia and loss of emotion?",4.700809523809525,7.824451271428572,5.2442857142857155,74.08738095238098,75.57142857142857,8.304761904761905,36.476190476190474,9.029198982220553,4.151747619047619,638,38,97,16,15,204,83,140,0.138,0.705,0.157,0.7757,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,2,2,5,0,0,4,0,13,5,1,2,0,22,22,12,0,6,6,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,6,6,0,1,3,0,1,3,7,2,0,0,7,1,14,4,10,14,0,13,0,2,1,0,1,4,0,7,7,65,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288011024576002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882002893502043,0.10159825798224442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14926476958980872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3268894885548091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08257824843274063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14912136233344708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14431727531013328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07098702287384878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227946460407554,0.14637607669474098,0.0,0.0,0.1467131963710407,0.0,0.3479350554341138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14236471871472262,0.0,0.1654268360068429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16380572337447494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15158125914244022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12147864476948682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4530719958761811,0.2184974421743312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09310339902076063,0.0,0.2307064819963201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032180885784628,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Poki_Foo,2020/01/17,"How can I help a friend? My childhood best friend was diagnosed after being admitted to a mental health facility back in 2010. He was prescribed when released what I believe was Risperdal and it seemed to help, he stopped taking it and told me he believed it would cause gyno (man boobs). He was very overweight (5’10 350+lbs) so I didn’t understand the concern. This was in our early 20’s and we would drink and smoke marijuana. At the time I didn’t understand the severity of the situation. He later would get into meth when he worked in a demanding warehouse job along with his co workers. The decline was click and he would ask as if we could hear his thoughts. He thought I was secretly wealthy and wanted to hide my wealth from him. He thought I was a successful rapper. He became very unpleasant to be around with. I turned my back on him and went my way but would occasionally reach out. There’s times I would randomly see him walking and I’d pull over and give him a ride. Those rides were strange and he has adopted a thug persona which is strange because his father was a pastor and he grew up good. Recently he reached out to me. He wished me happy birthday and was the first friend to do so. I realized I could do more for him. His family are immigrants in America and very religious. I’m not sure there stance on modern medicine. How can I help my friend? What resources are available to him? We are in Nevada. I’m willing to pay to get a psych evaluation. I know you can’t force someone but I’ve slowly been trying to keep contact and suggesting he see someone. Sorry if I sound ignorant and selfish",3.257989423818444,5.5408505111821125,3.9253806323675238,86.14325878594248,75.8370607028754,7.256538503910982,28.36498843230142,8.216663640201805,2.029191561088466,1282,55,249,23,29,406,178,313,0.08199999999999999,0.7909999999999999,0.128,0.9572,1,0,3,0,0,0,30.0,4,1,0,5,11,12,0,0,14,0,35,6,1,3,1,58,59,26,0,12,5,1,0,0,4,7,4,2,0,1,8,25,2,3,10,1,2,6,4,2,0,1,19,5,36,10,32,29,2,35,1,0,3,1,47,14,1,4,14,158,44,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09095491453084822,0.09551720927085217,0.0,0.0,0.15712822113192618,0.0,0.06228322120820255,0.0,0.0,0.23022614964718044,0.10722341420664684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10495898798854307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16315236635719169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037026263251259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10008985287812897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631885152495884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08690761612471783,0.0,0.0,0.315751934915503,0.0,0.10676150885295246,0.09801287863216424,0.0,0.08569718890186176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10876420052614036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10860426456353572,0.11515548842336484,0.0,0.20545160406586255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10139013723700926,0.09081534066358056,0.0,0.0,0.05615116585524102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10296554051754483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10088271554924448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16283602087190027,0.09301372820860412,0.0,0.11542549719802753,0.0,0.0,0.11484582703923793,0.0,0.0,0.17314033703501158,0.0,0.0,0.11437340635783375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08542052925324453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09629608380088643,0.0,0.07682077449261952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24333992816196415,0.11915485607806643,0.0,0.0,0.0976299099758984,0.0,0.06936821304926223,0.11113400771963933,0.0,0.21272971475204094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2529082814630973,0.060263807282894086,0.08109953196915241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09471464756966992,0.0,0.0,0.1174929808877282,0.0,0.0,0.07438257418511951,0.0,0.0,0.4354811714410178,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,rinrinrinchanchan,2020/01/17,I feel like a failure Was diagnosed two days ago and just found this sub. I already have some other stuff going on and I feel like my life is falling apart. I will start taking medication but I still hate myself for having this I wish my life was normal. I’m glad I have my SO or I’d probably end it.,-0.13546875000000114,2.090863890625002,2.2800000000000007,92.965,89.78125,5.075,17.375,6.6274283507984215,-0.07130624999999967,235,6,52,3,8,80,47,64,0.127,0.7,0.174,0.4918,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,1,0,7,4,0,0,0,11,16,5,0,2,3,0,2,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,3,2,11,3,2,12,1,9,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,7,35,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19262713416117166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398006782503859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14014328443391735,0.0,0.0,0.2205592715050261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19246709408259774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21975114798071102,0.3104844442485134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23826292844239186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12349903095654348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21454298933856372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069768809514672,0.21232779095698132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189112020430541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21291205780405315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342907690829521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1538090889058958,0.0,0.17353947991063434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487614127255886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1633857758377604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21227470748009136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24988919943363666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ihavethesuds,2020/01/17,"I Want to Get Back on my Feet 2 years ago I had been diagnosed with Paranoid Schizophrenia. It was mild and I was put on a low dose of anti depression medication. A few months later I had gotten close to a girl and started to date her. She genuinely made me feel really good in the beginning but she started to manipulate me and take advantage of me because of my disease. I had stopped taking my medication not long after we began our relationship and not long after that I cut contact with anyone else but her. In recent months, my negative symptoms have been controlling me. I tried telling her that i needed to go back on my medication but she kept convincing me that she was all I needed to feel better. Eventually I stood up for myself and finally ended the relationship. She didn’t take it well and i’m still dealing with her shit. I have no friends and when i’m at school i just want to be able to focus on my work because right now i’m failing. I don’t have anyone I trust venting to but I think I just need to talk to someone who can relate to me or who might know how to cope with things like these.",3.6618067226890783,5.053147428571432,5.089002100840336,82.04570378151261,72.48214285714286,8.306302521008401,27.46218487394958,8.841846274778883,2.065605882352942,880,32,177,17,17,295,126,224,0.12300000000000001,0.754,0.12300000000000001,-0.0396,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,2,0,0,5,9,13,2,0,5,0,16,8,2,4,1,39,41,14,0,5,9,0,2,1,1,1,6,0,0,1,9,13,0,3,4,0,0,2,6,5,1,0,14,2,40,8,31,25,2,36,0,3,0,0,21,11,1,2,24,128,49,3,0.12185009470856327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10801275694512824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17040083875209192,0.12484982160692015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18739040294681705,0.0,0.14855737352530088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10776650672680896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13666524233951002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256220972248248,0.10494930802379274,0.1236752812048482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10179011866635608,0.0,0.10792301688756176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12322213814069165,0.0,0.0,0.13348082276765552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941410809096072,0.0,0.06366164530803052,0.0,0.06925021685941099,0.10220207830295644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0669656253965521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05952980138858159,0.0,0.0,0.2156669988364257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11529750582527702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36825345341625,0.0,0.12926369467498947,0.0,0.0,0.19451916615732387,0.0,0.0,0.2710509038083675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12249300040409285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07806029082030119,0.0,0.12031226841974944,0.2616428011840976,0.0,0.10405931510350674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12331880111115096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12507737118542836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10324318982806267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724922483874334,0.0,0.09730964303444264,0.10187213526242532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12664890397018086,0.2748483203683438,0.0979384905271899,0.1065023535356112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08095178857348506,0.07807662059806625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08272821585683122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14374068577240842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095578687510857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08870832017545789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07846746598003282
schizophrenia,ayywhatsuppengyou,2020/01/17,"Is there anywhere I can view large chunks of schizophrenic text? You know, the disorganized, paranoid, illogical, grammatically incorrect stuff that you’d make while psychotic. Are there any databases for this kind of stuff? I think it’s kind of an interesting thing psychologically.",7.4573333333333345,11.356282288888893,6.8000000000000025,62.34000000000003,70.55555555555556,10.711111111111112,33.44444444444444,10.355215969177356,4.76957777777778,233,11,34,8,5,72,38,45,0.10099999999999999,0.84,0.06,-0.2168,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,1,0,3,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,4,6,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,22,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19930872607409464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6104085348611421,0.16107255891681854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956373729716228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6710273585458943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19471350647754668,0.18779785892891285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,LetsNotGetBanned,2020/01/18,"How many people here are actually down to say the voices are ""real"" and not just made up inside your brain Some people are probably just crackers talking to them self's maybe but pretty sure most of these voices come from the same place as spirits.ect",4.8884042553191485,7.202185021276598,4.8095212765957465,81.50875,71.12765957446808,7.253191489361702,22.388297872340427,8.07648339933343,1.269387234042553,204,5,35,3,4,63,40,47,0.0,0.8590000000000001,0.141,0.8047,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,1,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,2,1,13,5,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,7,4,3,4,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,2,0,25,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.24679390299959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823200210494867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178509428123496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2393000796072012,0.0,0.25640088942599737,0.2540720258694459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506580114809582,0.0,0.2642266561304226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572902027850612,0.27266895669702795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28785554850103834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011162178385511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26382983861743353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383552418527044,0.0,0.0,0.2032714273566494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,matildamint,2020/01/18,"Auditory hallucinations I don't currently have a diagnosis of Schizophrenia. However, I do have a diagnosis of CPTSD. I hope this will be allowed to be posted here. Around the time of the traumatic events preceding my diagnosis, I started hearing voices. They have never been instructional, or particularly ""dangerous"". In fact, I had no idea they were considered 'abnormal' until I began seeing a counselor, at 16. I was asked about hallucinations (""Do you see or hear things others don't see?""). I told her I could ""hear my thoughts"", that ""they don't always make sense or relate to what I'm thinking"". She then suggested what they might be. For reasons only the NHS knows, this was never delved into further.

I'm just curious about yours; if you have them, and care to offer your experiences. I'm 28 now. I don't see my hallucinations as problematic. In fact, I choose to normalise them. I can generally recognise them. The ones I don't, I can generally respond to I can generally brush of as ""Oh, I thought you said something"", ""It must have been outside"" etc. They're almost always people or 'alarms'. They sometimes comment on my immediate situation, and they're sometimes entirely unrelated. For example; I can hear children crying during a sad topic of conversation. I can hear arguments when I'm petting a happy dog. I can hear an air raid siren in a quiet room while I'm buttering bread. I hear a very distinct American man, who I'd say has been the most prominent throughout my life. I suppose it's chaotic, but, I'm at peace with it.",4.214883531960993,6.6869051091549325,5.91295774647887,72.12483748645721,73.61267605633803,9.017118093174432,30.99349945828819,9.565088089820216,3.40795817984832,1217,57,208,33,26,415,164,284,0.054000000000000006,0.889,0.057,0.3912,3,0,1,0,0,0,56.0,0,5,8,0,7,6,1,1,13,0,33,2,0,3,6,35,62,14,0,4,7,0,0,0,0,3,1,11,2,2,11,5,1,0,7,0,0,0,8,3,0,1,12,17,41,3,26,43,2,25,0,1,4,0,34,11,0,9,13,144,52,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964989653855664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160372346361359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08578824787680044,0.0900913828317537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825393837392488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07694227254751722,0.0,0.10585608898061782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074761654062184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09426672156415022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10258588271988277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7602988079683112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957154991326579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10878811825960304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05296151571146802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06806780373355284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643266107651379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10223157263016236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14865039906278754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06530167665078597,0.07329245996959602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06680966837951176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09229422459779577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09908269671716344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09166835305897084,0.07663596655207114,0.0,0.0,0.30717233904040603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832204426201457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07418905107631325,0.19062149145716809,0.0,0.0682100022883372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06402283853869319,0.06174893677190564,0.0,0.1530113843263976,0.056193150099012656,0.0,0.0,0.09208407220658156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07951396744993261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,throwaway76553,2020/01/18,"should i see a doctor? for a long time, i’ve been having little delusions like thought broadcasting and that people can see through my mirror, but it’s been getting a lot more intense lately. I’ve noticed that sounds around me will seem to “move” if that makes sense. e.g a sound clearly coming from in front of me will sound like it’s coming from behind me. there’s a few more things i’ve noticed that, after doing research, make me worry that i’m developing schizophrenia or some other psychotic disorder. 

should i go to a doctor?",5.526890756302521,6.725721156862747,5.479131652661064,81.73323529411769,67.82352941176471,7.397198879551821,28.296918767506998,7.447530270364453,1.6638918767506998,426,14,76,4,7,133,68,102,0.075,0.821,0.10400000000000001,0.2126,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,6,0,9,2,0,2,1,16,20,4,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,4,2,3,0,0,9,4,0,0,2,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,5,7,2,11,13,5,12,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,5,6,52,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16534422067170831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3199898531159262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21286929295547616,0.3802168781176997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09703927803175567,0.0,0.10555792290734396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095180476397576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18148223848663447,0.18615604407319464,0.0,0.16437031874608404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15790591646226654,0.0,0.0,0.24796014812397935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19740773792997016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4229228285518532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12876580213422165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29601473551178864,0.16908687652282614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339459780753415,0.0,0.0,0.14745346082647506,0.10830402578628934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18862369836545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,meta_butterfly,2020/01/18,"""The prevalence of schizophrenia in China has more than doubled between 1990 and 2010, with rates being particularly high in the most developed areas of modern China"" --- ? (do symptoms improve in nature? ) Have any of you, say, gone on multi day hikes or done the Appalachian trail or similar and if yes did you notice any change in symptom severity?",10.236,9.7671466,9.320000000000004,63.865000000000016,58.0,11.333333333333336,40.0,10.504223727775694,4.4955,276,12,40,5,3,87,48,60,0.0,0.9059999999999999,0.094,0.7303,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,6,2,0,0,0,7,7,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,2,0,11,3,3,10,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,4,2,30,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37613942644673737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2925629220973455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783577797956058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830160411818801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921999379432882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3148644380306241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199309452460522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124331327032524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.574901722165022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,CrispySchiz,2020/01/18,"High functioning? Hi, I never knew much about Schizophrenia up until recently but I am coming to believe I may be a high functioning member of this community. I at least have many symptoms in common.
I have had and continue to have many experiences with hallucinations, visual and auditory for most of my life which have become more regular and vivid as I have got older.  
For the most part I guess I am lucky(?) as I do not really fear what I experience that much anymore as I have come to an understanding/interpretation of them and my invisible entourage does not interfere with my daily life to any significant extent. As terrifying as things can get sometimes I cannot say that I ""suffer"" with this affliction so much as to suffer hearing people's opinions on it.  I find it incredibly fascinating that I know I can see the world through a rare perspective, I dont know many people who have, or are willing to admit they see shadow people, demons, hear people whispering/shouting in your ear. (If Im delusional enough to believe a shadowperson actually saved my life once, then so be it I am delusional, but I am alive) I am not sure right now whether I should be writing this, or whether I should write a book or just keep it all to myself. All I know is I do not want medication, I make a living out of helping people and saving lives so I do not want any other mind altering chemicals other than the ones my own body 'abnormally' produces.
Only a few close friends and family and now you are aware, so I just want to say hi. If I am high functioning and hiding in plain sight then there surely must be others. I may never meet them in person but it would be cool to meet some here if they're looking.",5.438935698447891,6.45114231707317,6.5934478935698415,74.34556541019957,67.90243902439025,9.866075388026607,29.848115299334808,10.018931242160765,2.9408487804878045,1352,49,251,32,22,455,177,328,0.059000000000000004,0.843,0.09699999999999999,0.934,0,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,2,3,1,11,10,0,1,10,1,36,7,2,2,7,69,56,32,0,10,18,0,0,0,1,7,5,5,0,1,18,15,0,2,6,1,0,2,9,3,0,1,3,11,40,7,37,41,15,27,1,2,5,0,20,14,0,14,11,194,58,2,0.0,0.0,0.09408997760463587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13113497843851074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09562066444599154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10648601309659037,0.0,0.21725994785690936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10709856885854582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661109944875489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08437596807654553,0.0,0.11300107951714596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09962548140416508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886304460717239,0.09089423026888656,0.10849696132265252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08812422850385154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07449224275846783,0.0,0.050374381628810534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07711421540242187,0.0,0.1062152047713792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21733999763830547,0.0,0.06462689671998974,0.3056124660254395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10414789472198403,0.0,0.0,0.08570067391308002,0.0,0.0,0.15896629532974174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20430847654935685,0.0,0.0,0.1702775726450204,0.0,0.08096676600195672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06435970765490523,0.2932579004264245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09713090673230183,0.0,0.0,0.09735460954341474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21263478683372167,0.0,0.14872688165394432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10268193384353703,0.0653352752248135,0.07333016990704705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10441120721531832,0.0,0.3342202141758778,0.084188405274806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061767785937850414,0.0,0.09520106014664742,0.0,0.0,0.08234037348066249,0.0,0.15335079353552572,0.0,0.0,0.15366519163036754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09535978436450004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817454896193751,0.1002151325275234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06405577913364296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17060935494953786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06849252119052966,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,eatyourownbrownie,2020/01/18,"Should I submit to the monster? I've been having hallucinations since a week. It's one person who is mostly there with me and wants me to play with him or go with him. Although I have never accepted his offer to go with him, which is followed by him hurting me severely with heartaches and choking, he does force me to play with him resulting in injury. For example, every time I go to the washroom I have to burn my hands for a long time in extreme hot water. No matter how I resist he will stay there till I've done his task, and when he gets mad he is really scary. But as I do what he pleases he sometimes goes away.
He does tell me to kill myself as well but I don't know what he means when he wants me to go with him. Since a few days I cannot make him go and I'm forced to sleep with him choking me or clutching my heart because I'm not going with him. 
Should I accept his offer and go? Is he going to hurt me if I do? He really enjoys hurting me but he's not going away until I do what he pleases and that's a living hell. Maybe that makes him go away?",2.318645510835914,3.268903521929825,4.028307533539731,90.06942724458204,75.1842105263158,6.592776057791537,22.183694530443763,6.794906146795322,0.41727162022703856,825,20,187,7,17,278,111,228,0.171,0.748,0.081,-0.9712,1,0,0,0,0,1,17.0,0,0,0,0,6,12,3,0,6,0,17,4,3,4,1,38,37,20,1,5,8,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,8,15,1,0,4,2,0,11,6,6,1,1,2,2,36,6,31,32,2,27,1,3,0,0,31,5,1,4,10,124,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30521018028579794,0.0,0.0,0.06600914471500363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06983445820356032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895207575522085,0.11081250238426688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09123424898153062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056574112185920275,0.0,0.6154050085490681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12831749558539046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34776196155326994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11980060778831353,0.0,0.059510255907679985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956170794169711,0.09582825677797543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445613108643778,0.0,0.10878620048442107,0.11795341968925158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08351557890826869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0733762891126502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09454973204170447,0.0,0.2377274343047152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13873947582615204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223305121434924,0.0,0.1791478937770593,0.0,0.10836256810183632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10709600722079927,0.0,0.0,0.11541672691822763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09464530908421497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1262829697272734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12773784974017233,0.0,0.08685918713578268,0.0,0.0973606498478668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Next-Experience,2020/01/18,"Did you or do you have aphantasia? Hello everyone I'm what is now commonly called an aphant or in particular a full aphant meaning I have aphantasia of all senses. What does that mean? Well when I think of a field of red flower I do not actually literally see red flowers. I do not smell the scent of them. I can not touch one and tell you from that how it would feel. I can also not hear the wind whistling as it runs through that field of flowers. My imagination is blind. Without senses.

Now I have come to the suspicion that if someone like me would all of the sudden develop normal phantasia where I would actually be expirenceing all of theses things it would be quite disturbing especially if I didn't know that it is basically how ""normal"" people function.

Also from talking or Psychologie students and doctors I have been surprised to find them to be overly aphantasiac so If my experience where to change and I were to tell them about it they would definitely think I was going crazy since it would also be such a strange and unusual situation for them. But is not. From all I would guess it is might actually be possible that expirenceing haluzinations as they are described by many is the process of regaining ""normal"" mental processing.

So again to the question of this post.

Do you or did you have aphantasia before schizophrenia started happening or if not how do your haluzinations differ from your imagination? Why are they disturbing?",6.2692105263157885,7.926216672932334,6.727142857142859,71.76785714285717,66.4812030075188,10.562406015037595,33.17293233082707,10.65788864234165,3.8821533834586472,1169,51,201,33,19,380,137,266,0.067,0.899,0.035,-0.8572,3,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,7,7,1,17,5,0,2,10,0,39,2,0,3,4,51,53,25,0,14,17,0,2,1,0,8,2,1,0,0,18,5,0,0,10,0,0,3,8,2,1,1,6,9,30,3,28,34,5,16,0,0,4,0,21,5,0,12,8,167,48,2,0.0,0.0,0.3140765847410781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25738120802285713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912894626950354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10954737571200436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11349060629693512,0.09241433070200328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11208732569477384,0.0,0.10980813288514726,0.0938835944144808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10251297786918057,0.0,0.10494282137986563,0.0,0.0,0.054245229882517995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09805421514617783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060971088306614386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11818371312031355,0.0,0.09486951567936124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209151175000912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058959628499791014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05241278572032612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10876756502317354,0.0,0.2337240766010791,0.0,0.0,0.10811547587177993,0.11380972508531514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3153420665093753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269736419024206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07437614227867162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12094484218963104,0.10274693089616406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018089604548073,0.11410809057137278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08549022224883461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08874515075184139,0.12058996805945585,0.0,0.0,0.09090007121339293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07593506984958573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08622956902319512,0.18753917884372806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07127369232233066,0.13748452337213993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09645980609516504,0.0,0.09680572384622377,0.0,0.0,0.10341645281739537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5334726176807061,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,RoJoHa,2020/01/18,"Question for people who hallucinate. When you halicinate, (auditory or visual), can the hallucination be nice? Or non-evil? I am not at all a professional, but it feels like people who hallucinate only see bad stuff.",4.9628378378378395,8.175017648648652,7.4715540540540575,57.97057432432436,75.21621621621622,10.186486486486489,28.16891891891892,10.125756701596842,3.965383783783784,171,7,26,6,4,61,33,37,0.115,0.7509999999999999,0.134,-0.2406,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,7,5,4,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,2,2,4,1,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,3,2,19,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3068703569275936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18583309597454992,0.2625619299686359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17955551594404565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795214493054568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5095949935588173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4117152427503093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928720683912757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4207313946760968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,yolooloa,2020/01/18,"How I got cured after 3 admits. Free to criticise but please no hate. What is Schizophrenia?
A very interesting and easy to answer question. So this is Schizophrenia as per medical literature -
Schizophrenia is a chronic and severe mental disorder that affects how a person thinks, feels, and behaves. People with schizophrenia may seem like they have lost touch with reality. Although schizophrenia is not as common as other mental disorders, the symptoms can be very disabling.

Ah! How very draining. Chronic. Severe. Very disabling.

Not really. At least, when you tackle this disease the right way. And I have to call it a disease because I have no other way to put it forward to you.

So these are the steps to tackle schizophrenia the right way -
1. Understand what you want in your life.
2. Understand whether it will be possible to achieve that while taking the antipsychotics you have been prescribed.
3. Understand how dopamine, serotonin and norepephrin are measured in the brain so very accurately.
4. Ask your doctor about how it is measured so accurately if you are not able to understand it yourself.
5. Tell your doctor he's smarter than you right now only because you are on antipsychotics and you would never have bought his explanation if he tried to make you understand that these chemicals can be precisely measured in the brain when they can not.
6. Try to find out how exactly antipsychotics lower dopamine in the brain.
7. Ask your doctor if you don't understand. Ask your doctor why different people respond to different antipsychotics so differently. Ask your doctor why some people never respond to antipsychotics, because they should as per the mechanism of action and cause of the disease.
Cause - Increased dopamine in the brain
Treatment - Antipsychotics to lower dopamine in the brain

Now, you will wonder why you 'function better' on antipsychotics. Sure, you gain 30 pounds of pure fat, become a slow processor of information, become mentally weak. But you are 'controllable'.
My friends, that is not due to dopamine, and there is no way to precisely measure dopamine in the brain.
That is because antipsychotics are modified horse tranquilizers. They make you zone out, you are in a sedated state and too weak to fight for yourself.
Now, you might wonder, who is this person, telling us off like that. I have been admitted 3 times to the ward. And I gave up taking those medications. I am completely fine, better than ever today.
But for that, what you must do is this - 
Cut these things out of your life for 3 months -
Netflix
Junk Food
Sugar
Alcohol, Drugs, Cigarettes
Music
Sex
Masturbation

This is what you need to do for 3 months -
Eat once a day, eat only vegan and unprocessed.
Sleep as much as you want to.
Rest.
When bored, go out in nature.
Sunbathe.

That's it. You'll like it.",4.5344955654102,7.7214827784552895,4.255637841832968,80.48463192904659,76.90650406504065,7.561921655580193,28.864153732446407,8.52124585384065,2.725293821138211,2245,98,362,49,55,682,222,492,0.113,0.782,0.105,-0.772,5,0,3,0,1,0,77.0,1,28,4,6,21,18,3,0,21,1,44,29,8,12,9,75,74,40,0,9,12,0,2,3,1,8,17,0,0,2,32,17,6,1,17,2,2,6,11,7,1,0,6,3,41,12,58,57,5,51,0,1,0,1,55,22,0,10,23,249,73,6,0.05920033209269265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06326715103644757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22137727619706354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14435189186435546,0.1307642313250091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10471576574405618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3965228960445759,0.0604501580605684,0.0,0.0,0.12163009708238245,0.0,0.0,0.062070421865736226,0.0,0.06639820634836754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03817931667850742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855552406654228,0.13569741890893838,0.30297024214865137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06865359036600288,0.12115343821986745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053550089660815856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02993346667701825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05410803102827682,0.0,0.0715852765556234,0.0,0.045738029722041135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03364491300046568,0.0,0.04734791362778401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0584480716589247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08362989063777097,0.08676687580863396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06462415572552202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07903336273996968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11927621278514458,0.1789800320481749,0.06280219699944156,0.0,0.0,0.09450628054454807,0.0,0.0435190557656426,0.0438962961220474,0.09131789138918542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06304642158889079,0.0,0.09004904045125113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1231261687683224,0.10338289304016443,0.0,0.06498418711170052,0.0,0.06673947942116272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059512684994597775,0.06631792057629314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037925248649718385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15167028042612138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05389375892820997,0.0,0.13375904912031752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059243085864528276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05579561239021066,0.06153181244662038,0.0890225643229434,0.0,0.10348739921854892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03933007010384345,0.03793318240035686,0.0,0.0,0.03452018971970868,0.0,0.0561149927107314,0.0,0.0,0.08038627895815964,0.0,0.0,0.3697778011220336,0.07121071036287392,0.0,0.0,0.2442323696840269,0.06983577939197068,0.18796187226615635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16025727507310886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284004696748626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04205421737814264,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TOP_DWB,2020/01/18,"I’ve had a deep desire to write a book about this for some years and I finally started today I’ve wanted to write a book to change the stigma behind the spectrum for a long time, and now that I’ve started I think it’d be great to hear from any and all interested in helping me. If you were to read a book about the spectrum, what part of the stigma would you like to see explained better? What do you wish people understood better about you?",8.060384615384617,5.51346775824176,7.935247252747255,78.69100274725277,63.725274725274716,10.41868131868132,32.64010989010989,8.07648339933343,2.2262725274725272,350,9,73,3,4,113,57,91,0.0,0.757,0.243,0.9685,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,4,0,2,4,5,0,0,9,0,6,0,0,0,1,15,15,4,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,7,5,15,9,3,10,0,0,1,0,9,2,0,2,9,49,12,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15439886400062194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40160694786302203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24018424894859586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487174701034797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25031868947491315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558970088441136,0.0,0.1521839490312766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11092306213082748,0.0,0.0,0.2009283027449384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458683712757512,0.0,0.15740490297635387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22710714513255156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809260298562648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32140823484479786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454817189970588,0.0,0.0,0.13239217547116666,0.0,0.2152127790097524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13391743838170153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26109135379471754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16128675339379428,0.0,0.0,0.14620998896564874
schizophrenia,MoeInHell,2020/01/18,"I’m experiencing schizophrenia-like symptoms but no one believes me. For the past year or so I’ve been having these awfully specific symptoms that seem to match what I read on schizophrenia.com, I only came out and talked to someone about it in November. I was admitted to a adolescence mental health unit for 2 weeks but I wasn’t diagnosed with anything or put on any new medication. I’ve had at least 3 people say “I’m not saying what you’re going through isn’t happening but we have to be sure before giving proper treatment” or something along those lines. Including my school therapist, my doctor and my own mother. I have 2 main concerns, I worry that if I don’t get the proper treatment, whatever I’m going through will get worse with age (I’m still fairly young). Also, I have a history of depression and HI (Homicidal Ideation) and I’m worried that I will end up snapping and hurting myself or someone else.

 My paranoia has been getting significantly worse and I can’t believe what anyone says, I constantly believe that everything I hear from someone else is a lie. Please excuse my brand new account and empty post history, this is my first time using reddit for advice.
Im willing to send pictures of the notebook I wrote in while I was at the hospital.",5.251022780102279,6.990984397489541,6.029337517433753,75.48441538819155,69.0418410041841,8.825755462575547,32.943049744304965,9.2995712137729,3.2425339841933987,1017,47,172,21,18,333,151,239,0.133,0.816,0.051,-0.9682,0,0,1,0,0,1,23.0,1,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,7,1,20,6,0,1,1,27,38,18,0,1,9,1,0,0,0,3,6,4,0,0,11,13,0,0,2,1,1,5,6,2,0,2,8,5,23,1,25,26,3,27,0,2,0,0,13,8,0,6,13,112,34,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10849235378180484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08878665953774373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07550081328954016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07763126771145981,0.0,0.09136412241445213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09447410523033828,0.3752614966753038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12698303282843532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11997859230800223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09562567751418996,0.11268804701685516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136388011833763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854942971041483,0.0,0.0983352039530246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09978211910210676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09443781588791032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174017954349971,0.106505305284468,0.12619614230680742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09817904874064533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11801439274061545,0.1251332541281741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188545683450017,0.0,0.11992606164327516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184601608453268,0.11188709565155663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21445729095133173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07523341940811598,0.08443952227800572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10598593377563344,0.07697076184723745,0.0,0.0,0.12187211963257052,0.0,0.0,0.10633126841819383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11161079929876046,0.0,0.0,0.11105505388500914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26487462998190514,0.0,0.11236323639044883,0.0,0.10107299833200674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822133893573574,0.08547247607381663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0886647155569904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10463975699971398,0.2307949900123687,0.0,0.08923769663403974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12890859263210985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06473957555286369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09588996059441256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08905756524702439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255025717231744,0.22628793848513945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07149646565998505
schizophrenia,SlowlyIwillBeBetter,2020/01/18,Vent I am recovering from my second psychotic episode. I'm not sure if I'm schizophrenic. Just restarted meds. Appetite is crazy. I'm binge eating. Before my first episode I was an A student so my parents want me to continue studying science. The stress of college caused my second psychotic episode. I want to study something easier.,3.0983333333333327,6.220433500000002,3.7266666666666697,80.21833333333333,89.0,6.666666666666668,33.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,3.344333333333335,270,16,42,6,9,85,44,60,0.11900000000000001,0.782,0.099,-0.3037,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,3,0,3,2,0,1,1,7,8,2,0,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,8,1,4,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,25,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2664172276325699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216305170252289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3203700721183114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.266314891590554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34777331980068393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34765030386312745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410326095066828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3586444765418533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.295084392617854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693381551358273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,monkeysensei,2020/01/18,I am officially going back to college after 15 years! College said after Pell grants and subsidized loans my tuition is completely paid for. Going in for a CySec degree and set to graduate May of '24. End goal is to graduate with high honors.,4.395666666666667,6.7872431777777775,6.104166666666668,71.33625000000005,72.7777777777778,8.944444444444445,29.027777777777786,9.516144504307137,3.2817777777777786,193,8,30,5,4,66,36,45,0.0,0.882,0.11800000000000001,0.6696,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,8,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,1,10,5,0,10,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,5,20,2,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087420512762951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4209832931700019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35562518773438634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4563831160674921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4242251159192805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38193493812595625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585640035365508
schizophrenia,achildrenofbodomfan,2020/01/19,DAE get really paranoid that the police are going to arrest you and put you in prison for life? I’ve been getting really paranoid lately and I think that the police are tracking me. I have a feeling they’re gonna come to my house and arrest me and put me in prison.,3.5142727272727257,4.604640381818179,4.790681818181817,85.20602272727272,72.45454545454545,6.954545454545455,22.84090909090909,7.1686216300943375,0.8096363636363635,211,5,42,2,4,70,36,55,0.26899999999999996,0.706,0.025,-0.9258,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,0,0,7,11,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,8,0,5,9,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2528120877956889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483952728476471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066685051229641,0.0,0.16679478185774885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3386432868733938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33106484183105755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20729774758997493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5900687162606404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37602912365046737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18805389342365508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,schizofriendinya,2020/01/19,"Staying on parents insurance after 26 years old. Somebody posted about this in the past year and said there is some paperwork to fill out that allows one to stay on their parents insurance after turning 26.

I'm hoping someone here knows of this and how to make this happen.",7.48,7.938122098039216,7.0047058823529404,75.12117647058824,63.31372549019608,9.15294117647059,34.64705882352941,8.841846274778883,3.0862235294117646,221,9,36,3,3,69,41,51,0.0,0.946,0.054000000000000006,0.4215,2,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,9,8,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,11,7,1,14,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,2,6,25,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985024948758654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22295431767072849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12336558556616313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14983880083344245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355487442837569,0.0,0.15211006464326046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4985058295681632,0.0,0.2142867805919343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21498499257294856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21352712249806305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901969330299612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47852095015304996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24416433265148546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28910907144363485
schizophrenia,Tapiocana,2020/01/19,"Did Olanzapine kill your sex drive? I went from jacking off 2-3 times a week, to once a month, and even then I have to try really hard to. I basically only do it so I don't ruin my boxers for the day. Did anyone else experience this?",1.6818000000000026,2.8820801800000027,4.8610000000000015,82.47550000000003,77.2,8.200000000000001,20.5,8.841846274778883,1.1192000000000002,179,4,41,4,4,66,42,50,0.138,0.794,0.068,-0.5272,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,0,5,1,0,0,0,1,6,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,1,6,0,6,3,0,8,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095329831101216,0.3070425680254269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19325936265851207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25033195108064593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19792614013104606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931302175226501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684412969442577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315353151274463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23919002661914485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3191338220316525,0.0,0.2279090051841613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19197329916688044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747372777846853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2034531048415641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403734714740292,0.0,0.0,0.27779278541223423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Gezy152,2020/01/19,"Nothing is working for my depression Nothing is working for my depression I feel weak in the morning and unmotivated  i wish I could die I blame my self for not getting on antidepressant on time maybe it would have worked for me, my thoughts are killing me I can’t ignore them",2.8042138364779885,5.589443037735856,3.6625471698113214,84.53709119496857,80.88679245283019,6.552201257861638,31.474842767295605,7.793537801064563,2.4075937106918253,223,12,42,4,6,71,37,53,0.389,0.5710000000000001,0.040999999999999995,-0.9726,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,3,0,5,1,0,1,0,7,1,0,0,0,8,11,1,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,1,12,0,7,8,0,4,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,30,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17951181336635366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38729873313356,0.0,0.2333424023269601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136829267732739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11746658954344202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487457297761533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22587617315671035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4314689564424726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23455110458354825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784932401701853,0.1311026297905592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585482335058356,0.0,0.0,0.491045924970351,0.0,0.0,0.15971576450840155,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,PersimmonOfTheYear,2020/01/19,"Thinking about starting a mental illness blog Hello I suffer from schizophrenia and generalized anxiety disorder. For a while now I've been thinking about starting a blog to share my experience, empower others, inform others about mental illness, and try to help end the stigma.

Do you guys think this is a good idea? Does anyone here have a blog and have any tips they could share? I already have a blog to share my poetry; should I use that and have it as a poetry/mental health blog or start an entirely new blog? Finally, what would you guys want to see from a blog about schizophrenia?

Thanks for reading and for input",5.396193236714975,7.397110165217395,5.400289855072465,79.1038164251208,69.08695652173913,8.241545893719808,27.560386473429947,8.841846274778883,2.276140096618358,499,17,85,9,9,156,70,115,0.11,0.746,0.14400000000000002,0.4696,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,1,0,6,6,0,0,10,0,10,3,0,1,0,17,20,8,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,6,5,0,0,5,8,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,8,5,14,16,0,8,0,1,1,0,11,0,0,1,8,57,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19028292014487408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11725962386281688,0.0,0.13190995281812778,0.0,0.0,0.12056841317629285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13767286345349367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19762192808750909,0.0,0.15089634203670566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15272350754402414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16867151250432538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18889074852472973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14462772008104813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3414694365089145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832870759960471,0.0,0.0,0.11557748651112937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19465465802647566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34754165364791273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16653583038340405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724785903521536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13740592163847087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3661446180474594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587521521798644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314622505598697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170699602632269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489258224067222,0.0,0.0,0.1017048185875708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12249069421219988,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,paradise_crumbler,2020/01/19,Reddit friend I don’t know if he is real. I’m tripping balls even when i’m sober. I just don’t know what to ask.,-2.878333333333334,-1.2379181851851833,0.15361111111111114,105.98375,101.22222222222223,2.7,10.453703703703702,3.1291,-2.172696296296297,87,1,24,0,4,30,20,27,0.0,0.862,0.138,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,8,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,8,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,11,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44513367885843935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3144909624487711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36787041169998586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5233564761813277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5419601475373843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,pourbaby,2020/01/19,"just need some opinions/advice/help/encouragement to start off, i am undiagnosed. I am not necessarily looking for a diagnosis (i’m working on getting some appointments set up to work towards that) however over all i’m just scared & alone with this. please feel free to read “my story,” & maybe tell me what you think? ANYTHING helps (: besides rude shit lmao

So. For about a year now i’ve been having some troubling symptoms. I’ve already dealt & been diagnosed with depression since i was 12 (i am now 20). Well since August(ish) of 2018 i’ve been having auditory hallucinations. At first they were mild, but now it’s everyday & pretty much all day. I also have really bad paranoia .. things like that there are cameras in my house or that somebody is going to come into my apartment, purposely, to harm me. (the paranoia isn’t severe, just scary) i can normally talk myself down from these paranoias though. 

i also go into these really weird “episodes” where my brain seems to just totally detach & my husband says that i’ll start: walking really slow or fast with my head down looking spaced out -talking to myself & the voices -staring off into space -fidgeting/picking at my finger while talking to myself/voices ...... all in all i just get really.. spacy? & it’s not too difficult to get me to stop/snap out of it, but it will last an hour or even the whole day sometimes. & these “episodes” normally only happen if something really affects my mood. like maybe an argument with my husband or something sad happens. But then there are days where i just wake up & i can somehow “feel” an episode coming. like i’m losing touch with things. 

one more thing i want to get into which is a very sensitive thing for me to talk about because i don’t know the reactions i’ll get... but sometimes apart of me tries to convince myself that the voices aren’t there. if that makes sense? like they’re there, i can hear them loud as day, but sometimes i’ll be crying & crying & “begging” for a sign. idk i know it’s weird. 

ONE MORE THING lol i thought i might add.. for starters i’m religious. christian to be exact. & one night i was praying before bed & i kept “praying for a sign” ... well just as i was getting ready to get into bed, i heard a really loud voice YELL “it’s real” & it scared the living shit out of me.

any thoughts, opinions, advice? i’m not asking for any diagnosis HOWEVER it’d still be nice to know what you guys think & if anyone else experiences things like these. Thanks!!",2.7058905399320494,5.3171796054279765,3.543504850792093,86.38588562773754,79.66805845511482,6.345589258667978,24.214703835605224,7.583002386737751,1.3374354332964922,1977,71,371,31,51,628,236,479,0.135,0.742,0.12300000000000001,-0.8538,3,1,2,0,0,0,107.0,0,2,2,4,28,26,3,2,15,1,29,8,6,2,6,70,69,20,0,7,22,2,4,5,0,2,2,9,2,1,28,16,0,1,10,1,1,5,6,14,2,4,11,16,42,12,58,52,12,55,3,3,3,0,17,28,2,14,26,230,70,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0463968453174952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049174895948990785,0.052395291587001985,0.07593937757336536,0.0,0.7716673850791315,0.0,0.0645759711801435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03319907619530072,0.048648806788187934,0.039071942929336204,0.0,0.04438733215084115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03964376449270663,0.028943329147666338,0.0,0.04040192966682496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053003312699166465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08179952382241573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10430896350090392,0.12248252682935755,0.0,0.04089440051166657,0.04819113701862095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03966339520722072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03136005086034092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04644448946524564,0.0,0.0,0.048014565926313216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04038641049935727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17364415341429734,0.0,0.05396788520275897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04701260281351586,0.08397270368010933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04872811373715042,0.0,0.05351334018926407,0.0,0.0636496024134255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046758174236316216,0.05478547298396565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07828119566619697,0.0387024860457971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11598149555272515,0.0,0.041925654599110566,0.0,0.07974237858045523,0.05311790505566868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03169322690386847,0.0,0.0953999577161298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05036871039167205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034903217102391644,0.035205771967788686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04455670487299892,0.09304051541825893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965209031229444,0.03611063192245775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052118713310245764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048304165683871685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047492786147782906,0.05404256344510625,0.18250118215961167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037757951927546385,0.09507140056373443,0.0,0.0,0.04322395178942125,0.0,0.05363881463785907,0.0974749468770903,0.07855178972682601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07310475094449016,0.14087661644953373,0.0,0.06721308814265255,0.0,0.03791753934190439,0.03969535367928135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04934983470444613,0.0,0.1526503007039922,0.041499558052664864,0.04371314722937408,0.0,0.0,0.18926136397065205,0.06084645346324542,0.046648797429063735,0.07538753347408922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032235760831294716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03917592085829712,0.02800489724270433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08538033167204459,0.0,0.0,0.053009654503479775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06913191982456728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030575522996259857
schizophrenia,Madcotto,2020/01/19,If you could put in one or two words your first thought when you were diagnosed what would they be? Brainstorming url ideas and a bit of fun.,4.41,5.605222857142858,3.3557142857142854,95.93928571428572,70.42857142857143,8.457142857142857,24.714285714285715,8.841846274778883,1.2011571428571428,112,3,26,2,2,32,27,28,0.0,0.887,0.113,0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,8,5,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,4,1,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,2,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3763208879190155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752132665797617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3498611657443514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29319990213294583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.389122031361899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23357625332809434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34651664826955936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736516709871865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3367198128206257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24486353544284303,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,EvanSaintJames,2020/01/19,"Visiting my brother So my brother has been diagnosed for years, he is now 30 going on 31. My mom had to commit him last week due to threats and behavior that his doctor said was dangerous. I am younger than him by a few years, we haven’t always been close but since I moved home from college we have been. I am the family member he feels closest too, emotionally. Most of the time he has his good and bad days, but lately there have been more bad than good. Point of this post is that I went with mom to visit him in hospital today and he came out saw us and immediately left back to his room. 

I know this happens but it’s the first time he ignored me, regardless of his past delusions and behavior he has never done this. I just want to know what can I do when I visit next time, I have already decided and told my parents I am going alone next time. Is there something that can help, or is it just persistence. 

Added info: he has been committed several times in years past but only for days at a time since I have been home, but once for 2 months while I was in college. 

Any advice would be helpful. Thank you. I plan on going daily while he is there if that has any bearing on your advice.",3.8075230918813823,4.741169227272729,4.7361448711716125,86.4613830821585,71.60330578512395,8.008167233835684,25.805542051531358,8.313332769828598,1.4497692756441425,931,28,198,14,17,303,135,242,0.075,0.831,0.095,0.6124,1,1,1,0,0,0,22.0,3,2,0,3,10,8,2,0,5,0,33,2,0,0,3,34,47,17,0,4,9,5,1,0,0,1,2,1,3,0,10,12,0,1,5,0,0,9,2,5,0,1,15,3,30,3,24,30,3,51,0,0,1,0,32,13,0,3,28,132,40,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099763687771129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112744413515967,0.11856164996963893,0.0,0.08939788629925301,0.0,0.0,0.14612446003466825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826139883333007,0.1794142178389593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12288163727761005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13857858247840812,0.0,0.0,0.10904836190009977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10996840787812008,0.0,0.109947437814546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12085445674452898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012839631077968,0.0,0.05432440574690797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09138759075715884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831802435258844,0.1802295351690089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500798639696052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14402824478066878,0.0,0.21554023012582846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11809137091856413,0.08757715559035002,0.12119591447249688,0.0,0.11673282904670605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.251662605364828,0.0857568150279571,0.1141906942713884,0.0,0.0,0.08286360943931166,0.0,0.22852527136361545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441906893848253,0.0,0.08171222971559912,0.0,0.0,0.11929833704114315,0.0,0.20512543732267485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10156461818672194,0.0,0.10289689942030412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10219912834024852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12137553152691742,0.0,0.17774936479962278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08271182037613138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098915431213404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3758914020273106,0.0,0.10183964541744872,0.10266260491752308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292359339804893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06337032820614945,0.0,0.0861811155849268,0.0,0.0,0.0995970645240573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0763216099514759,0.0,0.0,0.20756165365174734
schizophrenia,Sincerefriend,2020/01/19,"Negative symptoms Hello Everyone
I have great results from antipsychotics in controlling my positive symptoms but my negative symptoms are holding me back.
What has helped you ?",7.762777777777778,12.046189629629636,6.709166666666667,58.983750000000036,78.62962962962962,11.588888888888887,47.49074074074074,10.125756701596842,8.021007407407406,148,11,15,6,4,45,23,27,0.21600000000000005,0.642,0.142,-0.5499,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,0,4,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20441581005021595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981640017762129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540230773197233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29309134418798144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781880461222305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8289337518864524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,MtRushmost,2020/01/19,"Is anyone available to talk? I'm in rough place and I need to talk to someone who understands SZ/SZA. I've found that I'm too much for hotlines, I dont blame them. This is all a mess.",0.00768292682926841,1.676994097560975,1.9343292682926825,99.45076219512195,83.63414634146342,5.0756097560975615,20.006097560975608,5.985473137389443,-0.2951024390243906,142,4,36,1,4,47,32,41,0.07,0.872,0.057,-0.11900000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,8,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,5,7,2,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22529514392202946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37762507229072734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532841567073772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23685976302973866,0.23891295696630924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33663851049234883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730055729963035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5179567537441757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3354296212180598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,rio_illustrates,2020/01/19,Mom: Demons are attached to you. My mother thinks my hallucinations are demons attaching themselves to me.  I’m an atheist and I know that’s absurd.  That’s basically it and I don’t know how to deal with it since otherwise my mom is one of my best friends.  It hurts.  I just wanted to know if anyone else has found themselves in a similar situation and how they handled it.,0.9217434620174388,3.501880452054799,2.8392777085927783,86.52648816936487,93.7945205479452,5.942216687422168,23.0747198007472,7.348242739294969,1.3589835616438355,295,12,58,6,11,98,50,73,0.043,0.856,0.10099999999999999,0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,1,3,3,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,2,0,14,12,6,0,2,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,10,2,7,11,1,1,2,1,0,0,7,1,0,1,0,39,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16162395320590325,0.23683829108986126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425754109337216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383032866760845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19309437085681602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534416899452618,0.17858425776675602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474485572475672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3810984447527026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.541435143318459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15663176728134834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19120789253837064,0.2598198713797278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481102107997928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13633699247726838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Schizoaaaaaaah,2020/01/19,"Manic Episode Help Hey I had a manic episode I'm really ashed about. It happened two years ago, and lasted for a two month period. It was an isolated event during the most stressful period of my entire life.

I lost my virginity to a hooker, and over that two month span, fucked a couple more times. As time has passed, I've changed a lot and think it crossed a line on my moral compass. I'm not sure how to get over it. Does anyone have any tips?",1.1318681318681314,3.4334305934065945,2.6117472527472536,92.54575274725276,83.72527472527472,5.837802197802197,18.99010989010989,7.1686216300943375,0.2973991208791205,348,9,75,5,10,113,66,91,0.159,0.8109999999999999,0.03,-0.8969,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,1,8,0,4,3,0,1,1,9,11,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,3,3,0,5,1,9,8,3,16,1,1,0,2,2,4,1,2,10,42,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17312817642098235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13281569139837868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13656343615385394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20660927328441714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21610386150045408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17091477302142738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18055849252901301,0.10204002630668732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17270963942226095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13091039588376244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159201552808833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379513530997684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132010375065468,0.1660433197423257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31178491752465626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12511888579490466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22372390285284968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18407486049690994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12514505996845401,0.0,0.0,0.2277705659915689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.572360687911853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12577152623184926
schizophrenia,fatsam21,2020/01/19,"Giving into the Good Hello friends, so I've been doing pretty bad as of late. And ive found it quite hard to be positive. However, sometimes it easy to just be negative.

Does anyone have a good trick to be a positive situation when it's hard to be? 

Love you 
#Schizophrenicstrong",3.2461111111111123,5.523467685185183,4.792370370370372,79.9396666666667,75.85185185185185,8.764444444444445,25.61481481481481,9.3871,2.519463703703704,221,8,41,6,5,74,41,54,0.156,0.46299999999999997,0.381,0.9585,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,3,6,1,0,3,0,8,1,0,0,0,4,11,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,2,4,7,5,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,0,2,27,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16864613840302106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20138415159877654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110675981645554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644531424445015,0.18634332878595308,0.0,0.0,0.23137208737103895,0.0,0.4045986150956123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4321189671008019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720736038343308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21768401442811613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24537764133683285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565359875519248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27110844104115306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23854375962887314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,boombapdrumkit,2020/01/20,"The summer hell This post is about the worst episode I have ever experienced. 

**This is a long post,** and this account was created mostly for it because it felt like a story to be shared, maybe somebody can relate to this.

  So for a bit of backstory, my symptoms started during the summer of 2016, I was 16 at the time and was smoking a fair bit of hash since 14. I was in my room, windows open (my room is uphill in my city, have a great view of most of the town so i hear a lot of of stuff from downtown, drunk people screaming etc) and thought about something random when somebody outside, sounded like he was  in my street, reacted to what i was thinking about, like a literal answer. i kind of freaked out at first since i was pretty high but thought nothing of it and moved on. But it happened again, wich made me lose my shit and from that day on until the end of 2018, I believed my thoughts were being broadcasted and everybody could hear them. After that day I would stay in the dark, blinds closed and could hear people outside talking to me directly, reacting to what I was thinking. A lot of other delusions starting coming, my parents and friends plotting agaisnt me, my long distance girlfriend was a catfish, somebody paid to pretend to love me, our vocal conversations and my thoughts were being broadcasted on the internet. The first day back to school was awful because of the thought broadcasting (Never sweat that much in my life) Went to the doctor, he made me meet a psychiatrist who gave me risperidal wich didn't work, then abilify, didn't work also and finally clozapine wich finally worked. The symptoms made me barely go to school so I basically fucked my whole school life and I would stop taking my medication by myself and would go in and out of clinics basically every summer. Every summer got worse and worse, until last summer.

  In May of 2019 I stopped taking my medication and stopped any following by psychiatrists all together because I felt better. Everything was going well, until June / July when all the zyprexa (switched from clozapine to zyprexa in 2018) had left my system. It started mildy, I would start thinking that conversations were about me, my friends were mocking (they weren't) same for family..

In july, I was eating at a fastfood place whe all the sudden I started feeling dizzy. At that moment, my mind started racing because a guy who was working with me had told me a story about a guy he knew who got held captive in the fridge of a similar fast food place because he owed money to some people. The story has nothing to do with me but my brain basically put two and two and came up with the conclusion that the guy serving the food poisonned me. little did I know I actually have an inner ear problem wich makes me dizzy but I didn't know it at the time and it started a whole paranoia about kidnapping and those fast food restaurants, the meat was actually human meat in my head and my collegue was plotting to kidnap and kill me.

August was when it all turned to absolute madness.

  At that point I believed there was money on my head, my whole life was broadcasted on an internet livestream somehow, all the trending top tweets and hashtags were about me, I was being used as a chess piece on the political board to start wars with other countries and depending of what I was thinking about it would control the weather. My friends and family were all part of a sick and twisted trueman show in wich I was the main character, basically a semi god who has the world in his hand and can even control the weather. My sister got really scared about all that was going on in my brain and took an appoitment with my doctor wich I refused to go to, so she called an ambulance. Before she did so I picked up a random book on my parent's bookshelf ( Paul McVeigh's The good son ) and started reading it. It felt like everything I was reading was a secret cryptic message about me and my life and how it was all going to unfold afterwards. When I was in the emergency room I left after reading the book a bit to see what I was supposed to do, except as I was going downhill I got really scared when I thought that if I wandered on my own in the streets I would get kidnapped and turned to fastfood meat so I went back up. Afterwards I got transfrered to my city's zone psychiatric ward.

In the ward I would speak english and pretend I wasn't local because otherwise the people in the ward would try to kill me. Afterwards I would speak in my local language but at that point we were in a war and the ward was some kind of passage to see if it could get in the resistance or if I was good as dead. When I watched the tv there was nothing but hidden messages, the ward's food and water was poisonned and half the patients, nurses and doctors were basically the ennemy, only goal was to kill me. I would listen to the radio and hear nothing but hidden messages (like the resistance feeds in the second world war) and also whole transmissions about  me. At one point A patients gave me 2 biscuits, I took a bit of one of them and a few minutes later felt really dizzy and fucked up, the whole day afterwards was a complete black out (don't remember anything) One of the doctors even told me that everything I was experiencing was real and not in my head. The psychiatrist could barely speak my local language, he would type his questions and what I said in Google translate. There was a basement area in the ward and I thought they would kill people down there and feed them to us in form of minced meat. That and the poisonned water and rest of the food made me stop eating and drinking all together. At the end of the first week I had already lost 10 kg and was severly dehydrated, I would send messages to my parents about it all and they of course didn't understand a thing. I asked to be transfered to the clinic I would usually got to when I was going to shit wich probably saved my life because I didn't have any energy to keep going.

Things got better at the clinic, the zyprexa started kicking in but it still felt like a trueman show and could still ""control the weather"" for about two weeks. Got my 10 kgs back and went back home on the third week. 

Since then I've been feeling ok, have a lot of projects and motivation for the future. I left out a lot of details about my whole experience because they are really awfull and personnal but needless to say this summer traumatised me in a lot of f'd up ways that I can't even begin to describe. I don't wish what happened even to my worst ennemy and learned that I'll never stop my medication like that ever again.",8.11990790655885,7.020531309748431,7.794977538185088,75.13789308176102,62.55345911949686,10.529020664869721,37.17160826594789,9.48565724429506,3.3910834681042235,5254,216,972,78,63,1672,436,1272,0.124,0.815,0.062,-0.9983,4,0,2,0,0,3,106.0,3,0,7,18,50,49,17,2,94,2,103,48,10,15,14,186,197,91,8,24,15,5,8,7,4,15,22,13,5,4,51,68,13,11,29,14,5,20,13,27,1,12,99,29,133,22,161,73,41,189,1,2,6,3,66,84,5,19,87,699,184,22,0.0,0.0,0.06459380094592176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036522234816524994,0.052933683457985256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04501280003433415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027235170015869958,0.0,0.030940271894474423,0.0,0.0,0.10179505706309304,0.0,0.16140000850996725,0.0,0.028162239728780545,0.07457566779513773,0.0,0.05854140622590541,0.1445289452062944,0.0,0.0,0.0738921141125163,0.033794693991862385,0.037852982076760765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028509254614620026,0.03470050336008396,0.0,0.11135986094047856,0.13212222734136256,0.0,0.0,0.08537667164911522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355005439263905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032421458767140386,0.0,0.06773089603173697,0.0,0.0,0.05862642637898821,0.0,0.036910764107750495,0.08743832559669681,0.059874413943163465,0.055769577933466735,0.0,0.08923359322476647,0.03237421720168693,0.062399885371340114,0.0,0.03346864190005494,0.0,0.15888664559021634,0.07251005257893811,0.0,0.08445426619326281,0.20009894044414234,0.0,0.07670961174485404,0.0611933969031651,0.03458256514182617,0.0,0.16928286345999194,0.05551867240377727,0.21175901649102105,0.03648843269386185,0.0,0.09831066498256864,0.058533328264638224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018980651602692,0.0,0.1492062906426296,0.0,0.0,0.03496771795750199,0.03319796451499786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029417226003251237,0.14646318476035408,0.06892873648879018,0.03637736805786361,0.026977639412518115,0.0,0.0,0.10787663112818062,0.0,0.1168833404804588,0.11318316209922352,0.03317086468120255,0.0,0.05857779829688145,0.0,0.037025933870101314,0.036128169673903136,0.1406850852844627,0.02987041238813367,0.12526485882040989,0.022091822375956416,0.0,0.033249358402839754,0.0,0.0,0.10002214818553752,0.0,0.0,0.03341750327776371,0.0,0.0,0.0351757870366146,0.024329351975243742,0.0,0.05105131722546615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12702593436007864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06728007387277797,0.02517098270662698,0.0,0.0,0.11024750110394,0.035839719102331705,0.0,0.11472292020992204,0.0,0.0691565059884133,0.0,0.09385919060883648,0.0,0.0633935968921325,0.033670507946182315,0.035683062058970816,0.03166838133183145,0.0,0.033270599160574316,0.03707506984194951,0.0,0.09931480302386356,0.03767046870903875,0.0848085241661963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037491291511481686,0.0,0.031481854075432934,0.026319250160085177,0.06626969543549578,0.1004846902401764,0.05274641918928374,0.0,0.0,0.03738903485690172,0.0679450918344835,0.08213200526513924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02547890086425816,0.0,0.0,0.23425503642952505,0.03527590909415383,0.05286098172429677,0.13834859815527528,0.0,0.0,0.03788697678064143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06879878693831333,0.04976811337119059,0.02660129354307959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043974994490705466,0.08482626563676557,0.0,0.18392156828111347,0.038597061961350286,0.0,0.0,0.06324925074227744,0.07354169885520645,0.022469996652560845,0.07199784084599614,0.09698988470877573,0.03445408039402727,0.03981038665350084,0.028584298853734657,0.036450544112128835,0.0,0.0,0.026270046924475127,0.07964279193859378,0.0,0.029757258978712973,0.09204090981820087,0.0,0.22170286573603867,0.03805874147820112,0.0,0.0,0.096377064910786,0.0,0.06745525830398194,0.32914606580724626,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,FACastello,2020/01/20,"How would you classify your hallucinations in terms of your emotional response to them? When you experience hallucinations do you mostly get panicky or you just look/listen and kind of ignore them because it's just more of the same thing and you've become used to them?

In other words, would you say they are most often...  


1. Terrifying and panic-inducing
2. Kind of scary but mostly ignorable
3. Not scary, but annoying
4. Something else",3.885597749648383,6.952894493670888,5.0105485232067535,74.77365682137837,78.74683544303798,8.068073136427566,25.233473980309423,8.841846274778883,2.5306191279887487,351,13,58,9,9,115,57,79,0.17800000000000002,0.774,0.048,-0.8807,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,7,4,0,5,5,1,0,1,0,4,0,0,2,0,21,6,8,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,11,2,8,4,6,4,0,0,0,0,12,2,0,5,2,44,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15416819710763968,0.2793130804061321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112692046954124,0.2844834510400064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473890674397077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213212981816164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5267221052335007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21237603103813774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29672886491117945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011197587343231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946981909996312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16801846991307384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184282323427066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593121109935081,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,VOZ_Advisors,2020/01/20,Caregiver Advisory Board Meeting Hi all! I write from a small consulting firm based in NYC working with a pharmaceutical company interested in learning more about the negative symptoms and cognitive impairment related to schizophrenia. The company is looking for up to 10 caregivers to share their experiences in a group setting in early March. Would anyone be interested in participating?,9.76426229508197,13.101084114754102,9.866360655737708,46.0552786885246,60.31147540983606,14.060327868852461,48.2655737704918,12.688352899677879,8.300085901639344,325,22,37,14,5,107,50,61,0.061,0.8170000000000001,0.122,0.4457,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,1,3,0,0,5,0,3,1,0,0,1,6,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,13,2,2,10,0,0,1,0,7,7,0,0,2,27,2,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385406164205362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4736079401850035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40657809031578296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5032345889027959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524791264381159,0.0,0.0,0.34393813464015416,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Graham_Hollice,2020/01/20,"Tips on dealing with voices until medicated? They’re extremely distracting and upsetting at school. I can’t get medicated for a while, but I really want some advice as to how I can get them to stop at school.",4.900916666666671,6.528527925000006,6.720000000000002,70.63166666666669,69.75,11.333333333333336,28.333333333333336,11.20814326018867,3.749833333333333,167,6,30,6,3,58,33,40,0.174,0.777,0.049,-0.5912,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,7,5,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,9,5,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,3,21,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739547952261285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890285608414899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929426292135701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5648463023471644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17959940180175007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5674583755127816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2343851702463843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16535770561454252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Mariusana99,2020/01/20,"Is schizophrenia a gate to another spiritual world that normal people can not witness? I am not diagnosed with any form of mental ilness and people who actually deal with a MD have my deepest respect. 

I have no clue how it does feel like to here voices and see things that are not present in the 'real' world and I cant imagine where they coming from. I believe that besides the physical world there is a spiritual world (like ying and yang) and small part of me believes that the things schizophrenic people witness might come from a this world that 'normal' people have no access to.

I am not doctor that studied mental disorders neither do I have one. So I can fairly understand if I am dead wrong and there are more valid explanations for these things. 

But I wonder what people might think about all this that actually witness 'the other world'.",6.789999999999999,7.744075165605098,6.617076433121022,75.58485031847137,64.85987261146497,9.082547770700637,30.98662420382165,9.120678840339163,2.67239668789809,679,24,116,11,10,214,94,157,0.076,0.887,0.036000000000000004,-0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,7,4,0,0,8,0,17,3,0,1,1,28,24,10,1,3,6,0,1,2,0,2,3,1,1,0,17,10,0,0,5,0,0,2,8,1,0,1,0,3,12,3,12,22,5,12,0,0,1,0,3,9,0,4,3,92,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.2603960002052813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09072970560126788,0.13990177905186746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3006357471168097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22985784275788845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375494496695478,0.0,0.13541779068540913,0.0,0.0,0.15291008759086008,0.13656031673074898,0.11675613683799207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06746081168356634,0.0953147813633458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303638707015433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689105668336693,0.2830736065960796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614451914115247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09040837703427408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444801105688334,0.0,0.46248075073865796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15186038341208996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063179158131564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26591358241983026,0.08548970629030248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13889420647140827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446875498631724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14587307042126274,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,CrazyCanTalkToCrazy,2020/01/20,"May or may not be related to mental illness but does anyone else ever read things wrong? Like I read the headline "" family finally asks for help to find missing woman""

When it actually said ""Savannah family asks for help to find missing woman""",6.670151515151512,8.106679045454545,7.830000000000003,65.04833333333336,65.36363636363636,11.321212121212122,32.84848484848485,11.20814326018867,4.418857575757576,194,8,29,6,3,66,33,44,0.2,0.621,0.179,-0.0644,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,8,8,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,1,1,5,4,0,3,0,2,0,0,7,0,0,3,4,17,3,2,0.0,0.0,0.1915275678015084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13723393942452156,0.2010979873226248,0.0,0.0,0.3669649369621248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1717539355201446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16395528427411662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17753407770004972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3700447442710912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21500010540067668,0.3587676302921225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631062873742049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958857857454544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977902378729896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3926387649442581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18669416732412825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13039058881115914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145863558848625,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,JustARandomePhil,2020/01/20,"I got for 1 Day a Schizophrenia Psychosis from a overdosis Speed [Amphetamin] First of sorry for my bad English i try my best :) !!!

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So after a long party i got in my body around 3.5 g Speed. First it was all good party was cool and so on, but after i came back home and slept for 1 Night i woke up pretty hard Depressive and just not myself. But i ignored it bcs i thought its just not my Day. So i did my normal stuff and things played some Videogames and everything was totally fine ! But in the Night i started chating with a cute gürl until 5 in the Morning, after we quited chating for this Night and she left the Chat i became Sad. Extremly Sad, so sad that the death from my Father 9 Years ago is less Horrible. I cryed so much like i never did in my whole Life. I wanted to kill myself my life became totally worthless in just a Second. After i cryed all out i wanted to take a shower. I turned on the shower and went firstly to my bed to wait until the shower is warm. And in that moment i started seeing things... Human like spirits. There were like invissible Human Spirits. Like if they are ghosts. Firstly i thought its just the warm air coming from my shower. Then i started noticing that they are moving true my Room, there were many of them surely over 10 People. First minutes they are not hostile, just moving strange things. But after like 10 mins or so they started moving directly towards me, not all of them but a few. They went quikly to me wanted to grab me and screamed. I was extremly scared and i knew that this is real for me. After that i started to cry and tell them to go away, i runned in my shower closed the door and went in the shower. Firstly i didnt see them anymore but i was extremly scared. After like again 5 to 10 mins they came in, they took a more likely Human form with clothings on. They went all in my room and they waited behind each other and looked at my mirror. I could watch them live and do there things. Like if they would be real things with souls. After that they noticed me and started scaring me again... They drew stuff from the outside of the shower on the walls of my shower. They putet there Hands on the glas ans scared it with there Nails. I was again extremly scared. I accepted them... I just hoped that it will stop soon. After the shower i went in my bed and wanted to go to sleep finally... Next to my bad is my couch, i was home alone and i dont have any animals. After i closed my eyes i heard someone snorring extremly loud from my couch. I instanly stud up and automaticly said: Hey bro stop being so loud please. After that i realised that there is no one and i thought for 100% there is one of my Friends... Thats the end of my Experience. 100% True story again big sorry for my bad English am from Austria near Germany :)",2.3533416046319293,4.434494068100361,3.3132795698924764,90.42068858560795,77.85304659498208,5.6543148607664735,21.84188034188034,6.5822867389190165,0.4289516404742209,2182,62,442,19,52,696,231,558,0.149,0.716,0.135,-0.9396,9,1,0,0,0,1,74.0,1,0,19,8,27,39,2,5,24,1,30,8,5,0,10,83,69,39,3,10,19,2,5,8,1,2,2,5,18,3,26,33,0,5,5,2,0,15,8,17,0,9,30,16,89,22,75,34,15,100,3,5,5,1,32,33,0,5,60,330,115,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05573092614603488,0.0,0.0,0.0651149021181601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06812018649966647,0.07639456819601052,0.04275411225009888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06235066600586525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05596809569556199,0.0,0.0,0.059068926880101576,0.04834355219916369,0.15748278433872073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0659787361472058,0.0,0.0,0.06983497903193331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438142611413976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05415738949944862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05019699760225554,0.0,0.20718095536349027,0.08109257367775084,0.0,0.054150290206209435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07368378590650074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055684623314202535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056503973066939536,0.0614994363911705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06887158596789902,0.0,0.3208658136416598,0.0,0.0,0.04857361089437365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07146153529530487,0.052732812669219066,0.1005666027676785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056319640485072285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12612852346589318,0.062444616221772324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06955691977587257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06830900829539964,0.0,0.08881462082352301,0.24572289855433066,0.0,0.055515824543740586,0.05563843533035542,0.05279540582375315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06374084342893932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004642518974868,0.046217069123819184,0.0,0.048489623962698084,0.0,0.06686351553700373,0.17699918345669308,0.06159976485529736,0.0,0.14315701658073152,0.0,0.0,0.08520538834457764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0435865052124985,0.0,0.0,0.06901295570083965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06396192528129271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0668705411722279,0.0,0.1431208408694058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059804265540274265,0.0,0.3147218119365948,0.0,0.10019933552630708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06291592835226187,0.0,0.05326999097256484,0.0,0.0,0.14075680869100454,0.2670004829298215,0.0,0.0,0.10512514645901136,0.0,0.0,0.1439434167046609,0.0,0.0,0.05925472483895265,0.0,0.047270809723557,0.0,0.05495160911675771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088419126580683,0.0,0.0,0.14973652007886706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06985146548359965,0.042684958874371584,0.06838507639930264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483306559248753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.291408028158436,0.0,0.07019269482322939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0446614164144661,0.0,0.07639456819601052,0.04048655617244622
schizophrenia,opheliafaerie,2020/01/20,Just happy to be here. I just wanted to post something to let you all know how happy I am to be in a group that “gets it” and where I can share my experiences openly without feeling judgement or being severely misunderstood. 💜💜💜,4.76949275362319,5.405526239130435,6.5508695652173925,75.40644927536233,69.21739130434783,8.742028985507247,30.55072463768116,8.841846274778883,2.5074289855072482,181,7,34,3,3,63,36,46,0.134,0.675,0.191,0.59,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,1,1,11,10,3,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,3,6,6,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,0,28,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28934459709476706,0.0,0.0,0.14956300943974374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15454085445722887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6297592705183006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16256138084355187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30247077161045555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28329016632078396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3341645346676897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22771770075732195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17446775285223348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851361482373894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,RainandHotCocoa,2020/01/20,"Would God really send me to the Pit just for playing video games? So I hear voices and see cartoon hallucinations and God keeps telling me they have my soul and keep watching me from Hell and that I need to stop playing violent video games. He seemingly didn’t care for a long while and then when I stopped believing my delusions of random things they tried to make me believe the judgements started coming down. I can’t even play tanks without being told I have 4 more chances until I’m dead and I’m already being sent to the pit. I’ve felt extreme heat before while playing games and now it’s just verbal. 

What should I do?
Just ignore it?
Because the voices never stop talking and somehow I can sense innately that it’s God or the Angels or demons talking.",5.41466216216216,6.4743051959459486,5.330648648648651,83.20489189189192,67.98648648648647,7.541621621621622,31.016216216216225,7.554174236665415,1.9684789189189185,611,24,114,6,10,190,96,148,0.141,0.736,0.12300000000000001,-0.7748,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,8,8,2,0,6,0,10,0,0,1,1,30,25,16,1,3,6,0,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,7,9,0,6,2,9,0,3,4,3,0,0,4,6,15,5,11,17,1,16,4,0,2,0,13,1,1,5,12,72,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932809281294509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10676901208819542,0.0,0.14903862976424262,0.3946651775207355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1785757563743467,0.0,0.0,0.15087508253189866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156840539079496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16817020361063495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974052962738713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3113603958501248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550010737223319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116913106614271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1298705298766972,0.13508546266594493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11220473190152824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13957082456242556,0.1594487837787794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12397114001252385,0.0,0.0,0.43929642736037217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.281555755351753,0.15308766979685873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11636100299378875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16736207338314946,0.0,0.11891445936675142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16883708116973353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12442059984432355,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,korba___,2020/01/20,"Advice on controlling delusions Hi, crazies!

korba has always been paranoid and delusional about lots of stuff. alone he can handle it, though, as many know, it's not easy. but when it starts to affect loved ones, that's when korba is feeling lost and helpless.

his doc told him to always carry some valium and haloperidol around, to stop horrible ideas from forming. the problem is - when it starts, it doesn't really matter anymore because korba's mind is already being consumed by the delusion and he may not take the pills.

the delusions have mostly to do with jealousy. but sometimes they can be global, universal, like thinking korba's consciousness is in a computer game with a server hosted in hell.

any tips on how to lessen the frequency of delusions taking over? korba is already doing talk therapy.",7.0631249999999985,8.726350173611113,6.988500000000003,70.60650000000003,64.625,9.926666666666668,33.15,10.125756701596842,3.800180000000001,651,27,96,15,10,207,102,144,0.20199999999999999,0.736,0.062,-0.9701,0,1,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,2,7,6,1,0,7,0,16,2,0,3,0,27,26,12,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,7,0,2,5,1,0,0,3,4,0,1,3,1,3,2,19,20,4,13,1,2,0,1,10,7,1,4,7,70,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16842077654563653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17850511399224214,0.3803903319733004,0.0,0.2868220175393345,0.0,0.0,0.1172055463892428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17092727441519315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15343018229430316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10506442706413488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19330787890560455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0871465551534173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19456488772209696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09472037500827207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08420267978240559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881430110298948,0.146527852317611,0.15555477562616826,0.0,0.0,0.1747382880434556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740267980506468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11679045091400238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16491797597256969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104133647071771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17046093670945858,0.0,0.2439838403139731,0.0,0.0,0.1440943289607084,0.0,0.0,0.19730227007537995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591751197873892,0.13853033546009666,0.0,0.0,0.197099997079203,0.0,0.0,0.11043646256767714,0.1693353639489893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16469011006434509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,admin158282,2020/01/20,Drug halluacanations Do you ever experience drug like halluacanations?,12.743333333333332,17.47656833333334,16.320555555555554,-13.932499999999974,87.88888888888891,15.133333333333335,37.833333333333336,10.125756701596842,8.834066666666667,61,3,5,3,2,23,7,9,0.0,0.762,0.23800000000000002,0.3612,0,0,2,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8530065213922388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3326743398145349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3597553821506189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17967671831636212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,arebaderci,2020/01/20,"How do I navigate conversations with my sister who is experiencing paranoia and hallucinations? They believe they’re being spied on at work through cameras, that demons have possessed several people, and that her “stalker” can control her mind and body from anywhere. We haven’t spoken in almost a year and just reconnected through Facebook bc she was trying to reach out to me in way of accusing me of molesting a friends kid almost TEN years ago and saying I molested my dog at the time. (Not true.) I asked how she came to these accusations and she says she’s being brainwashed by her clients. (She’s a hair stylist.) I tried to get her to specify WHO exactly but anytime she hears anything it always comes from “people” or “them” it’s never a specific person.  She also thinks she has ✨visions✨ and that she can read peoples minds and that she has mystical powers that allows her to speak to the dead. Before I would try to reason with her and tell her “no” but she becomes hostile every time. This time I’ve just been very neutral and just ask questions to clarify. I don’t know what to do other than that and I have no clue on how to urge her to seek help or therapy. I can’t continue to just listen to hear spout craziness for the sake of my own health. I feel like I’ve tried everything with her and nothing works. She’s been hospitalized before but they don’t do anything for her and she’s only there a few days each time. She says she has PTSD but I feel like she has to be schizophrenic. She was on some medication but doesn’t take it. She’ll medicate with alcohol which makes her violent and manic and also smokes weed. She’s also hearing impaired and our family is super fucked up. I just don’t know what to do. The only person helping her right now is her boyfriend she’s been dating for less than a year and I know they’re gonna break up and she’ll spiral again. It’s always a cycle. I can’t let her live with me again like I would before bc now I have small kids and last time I let her stay here since I’ve had children she was doing things that put them in harms way. We’d lock our doors when she stayed here bc I really did fear she may try to hurt me in my sleep. I don’t allow her to see her nieces bc she has this compulsion to “protect” them and I’m afraid she’d get in her head that I was a threat to my own children and she’d try to kidnap them to keep them “safe”. She’s always been problematic since we were kids but now that she’s in her late twenties I hardly recognize her. Like I know she’s always had issues to deal with but this is on a whole other level.",2.9557185562931387,4.557762744801512,4.0861678463094036,87.67857431749245,74.6710775047259,7.11374686771882,23.644480590847145,7.8205782467293705,1.055767362729151,2048,60,430,29,43,667,241,529,0.114,0.8170000000000001,0.069,-0.9792,1,0,2,0,0,0,32.0,5,0,7,5,20,18,6,2,13,0,52,10,4,8,3,77,76,37,1,2,15,1,4,4,1,6,5,8,1,7,25,33,1,4,9,1,0,3,12,10,0,1,13,14,92,8,57,49,7,47,1,1,1,1,89,18,1,7,25,296,117,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0676929273385571,0.08161091563679332,0.1529369483365707,0.0,0.0,0.1832070870735246,0.2541670488598869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125683706822082,0.0,0.14278185373965666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08433909600914016,0.1949428631873468,0.08603715675139395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08482425267635102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08734116766858666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06578164918030781,0.0,0.0,0.08564979342296118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04924908015417157,0.07872891813952322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06434077039446373,0.0,0.06863189987436194,0.0,0.07199008574366449,0.08593180805249019,0.0772248341730315,0.10911028197450838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058999376831244725,0.07059817279773857,0.07979507702555454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06840800242758756,0.0,0.07837247781623341,0.08117237897121925,0.25820657184549434,0.0,0.10237164278647456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08175026655745216,0.0,0.0,0.07970517552385155,0.0,0.06787668309684049,0.0,0.0,0.16787273438276196,0.062247632761224476,0.08614299842681848,0.0,0.0,0.1561766861158068,0.0,0.14923224381442826,0.0,0.06743165665562678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0509742021997164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15385932161662924,0.0,0.0,0.15421367600206107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058897363072341724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0732742364175177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161579828244134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15882553912131006,0.1333578709325463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892665489051629,0.07676787455808105,0.08554622948394608,0.0,0.07638562306918266,0.0,0.04892134729242848,0.07851589500641147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06521525656252045,0.0,0.18218543811015295,0.0,0.0,0.060852984224420474,0.0,0.0,0.08627066569764788,0.0,0.12633976416570233,0.0,0.0764201074862371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16278976829917272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05741694439935604,0.0,0.06674633888785875,0.0,0.08732998431866057,0.0,0.050733484606961726,0.04893158136561546,0.0,0.0,0.22264510451547526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110807610080651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06300908762771568,0.0,0.12122989773642515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852587480408208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11118919730959748,0.0,0.0,0.108494949761268,0.0,0.0,0.14752958696514334
schizophrenia,telurmasin,2020/01/20,"It’s sounds really real but that’s impossible I’m still struggling to tell if the voices I heard are real or fake. Sounds really real but that’s impossible. Reading my mind, know every second of my life since I was born, watching things through my eyes and so on.

I might just start to believe what I hear is fake. But I can’t fight it. They’re watching my life every second... that’s impossible. It sound so real.",1.737376171352075,4.156132831325301,3.6452208835341366,85.35396251673363,82.13253012048195,6.098527443105756,20.065595716198125,7.3871296695380915,0.7175579651941097,327,9,64,5,9,110,52,83,0.187,0.813,0.0,-0.9468,0,0,0,0,1,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,1,1,0,5,3,1,0,0,14,10,8,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,2,6,0,0,8,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,0,2,2,9,9,0,5,7,0,4,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,3,3,40,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184440924506713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758592129983833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845088820655401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08996869346372502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312611822598181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173666499093152,0.16529668138375586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16375058718654248,0.745334373070066,0.20974887742517828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13541953142416402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11587215178040244,0.0,0.13073605142021175,0.0,0.0,0.1711413545105516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430865095587388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10875918216815678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Throwaway382472384,2020/01/20,"Update: I don't know what to do  [https://www.reddit.com/r/schizophrenia/comments/ema7in/am\_i\_developing\_schizophrenia/](https://www.reddit.com/r/schizophrenia/comments/ema7in/am_i_developing_schizophrenia/) 

It's been around 10 days, I stopped thinking about it and went about my daily life but things have been spiraling out of control for me and I ended up locked back into my room.

\- I haven't left my house and my room is a mess

\- I saw someone get out of a black car, dressed in all black with binoculars and look right in my window for 20 minutes and then he drove off and left

\- I saw a friend of mine pick up his bag from within my room and walk out the door. This person has never been to my house and I just thought it was a normal occurence until I wondered why he'd be in my room at 11pm

\- Whenever I look at something even for a second, my perception seems to warp and it gets larger and larger.

\- The whispering doesn't stop, I don't know what they're saying but it just doesn't want to stop. I've spent the last few days looking through other rooms

\- I keep hearing my mom calling me even when no one is home

\- I hear bugs moving inside my chair, even now while typing this.

\- I'm afraid to go to sleep or keep my eyes open in the dark because of what I'll see

\- It's worse when I'm alone, I try to stay next to family but they wonder why I'm just sitting there doing nothing.

\- The other day I felt like a passenger in my own body, the colors in my room shifted to different shades and there was this voice telling my body what to do.

\- Something is watching me, I don't know what it is or whether it can read this but I've become jumpy ever since.

Am I dying? Could a brain tumor cause all this? Is there anything I can do to fix this?

I have a therapy session booked on the 2nd but it feels like it's years away.",2.9144002525252546,5.4610178011363635,2.9733333333333327,91.16055555555555,78.375,5.047474747474748,19.152777777777786,6.139981653823899,-0.2428544191919184,1454,33,298,10,36,440,186,352,0.064,0.8909999999999999,0.045,-0.6661,1,1,2,0,0,0,72.0,0,0,1,1,17,5,0,1,15,0,29,6,5,3,4,55,59,24,1,3,11,1,2,2,1,0,1,5,9,1,24,18,0,6,11,2,1,6,8,2,0,2,12,18,40,3,43,44,4,57,0,0,11,0,12,29,0,5,22,193,64,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10342363701906444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08217531252826578,0.08889553428740722,0.0,0.0,0.09382066246014507,0.07678528005441129,0.0,0.06087301884678385,0.11028623754252344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22184130783230704,0.0,0.11147548495258304,0.10196703523275914,0.0,0.0,0.1025825307366168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11200017441364392,0.07972915401211418,0.0,0.0,0.1932020620203865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10363770486076512,0.10433122851168697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08844528797326168,0.0,0.0,0.19786745581182227,0.0903280331159895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09413802225449484,0.0,0.05049162730452987,0.07133917154428739,0.09588014137848787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07715068806720836,0.0,0.10434423933842664,0.0,0.05675207707288735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22509632871020827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10016655331075912,0.0,0.0,0.2304473761444821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17751824123904444,0.0,0.0,0.16463941223988032,0.08139827835503685,0.0,0.0,0.21699383241813586,0.0,0.07053324820614376,0.09757196525166788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515688134621588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11695346043698895,0.0,0.10613413800894872,0.0,0.0,0.07701728951091172,0.0,0.10620100369910608,0.0,0.09784045608013292,0.09581724521227493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06766693083732937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08719288282529179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09988585803348622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08527889931226294,0.0,0.07941175348471652,0.0,0.0,0.0795745625803073,0.09090773277966416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08260426007136125,0.0,0.0999309516708471,0.0,0.08461006668424152,0.15375241940308015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10643623127161114,0.0,0.25045937186290884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08728102308426923,0.0,0.1141972803942417,0.0,0.06634177267108676,0.06398550922616889,0.0,0.07927676050270105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06779759393304055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05889932802684645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09257014031598762,0.1802141327440119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21658529332746013,0.0,0.0,0.10176468385500456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643058156200966
schizophrenia,butitwasmedinodio,2020/01/20,"Have you ever confused a real person for a hallucination? Is it possible to think you’re just hallucination, but then it turns out what you are seeing or hearing is real?",6.7346875,7.523103093750002,8.718750000000004,61.05125000000001,64.9375,10.15,31.625,10.125756701596842,3.3927,137,5,22,3,2,49,25,32,0.067,0.9329999999999999,0.0,-0.2523,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,9,8,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,8,0,3,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,2,2,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663608496628777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33188395287128303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571158648398523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3319655402498203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6703322766257555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346508317437341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188681564467469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202938417040135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ladrien_,2020/01/20,"At what age did it first start for you? So I'm really curious what age you first started having hallucinations or hearing voices?

I'm kind of concerned for my self because I've heard stories of my mom having schizophrenia. I first I thought it was people just talking out of their ass but one day I got in contact with my brother and he confirmed that it was true. I want to speak with my mother who I havnt seen since I was a baby but she lives far away. And kind of acts like she doesnt want to meet me.

How do you think it started for those who do have it was your childhood rough or perfectly normal 

I currently go to therapy I've had several suicide attempts and have uncontrollable urges of self harm and anger outbursts. I've been sexually abused in the past. And emotionally abused when I was younger

I've been previously ""diagnosed"" with bipolar and  borderline. 

Are there warning signs before you start to hallucinate? 

I'm not gonna lie it's really scary to think about 
You guys are really strong for fighting! 
Tell your stories I would be very interested to hear what you guys have been through",3.209537160658656,5.694405383177575,3.988958611481976,84.61409657320873,76.94392523364486,7.253760569648421,27.012906097018245,8.269060116576782,1.9502027592345352,888,36,170,17,21,283,129,214,0.174,0.718,0.10800000000000001,-0.9653,1,0,0,0,4,1,13.0,0,8,1,6,6,11,2,1,2,0,22,3,1,1,2,27,41,13,1,4,6,3,1,1,0,2,2,5,0,4,13,10,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,4,0,4,14,7,25,7,25,24,0,22,0,0,1,1,30,6,1,2,15,107,38,0,0.0,0.2982949936168147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11826862642681538,0.0,0.0,0.07673542412388162,0.0,0.1071148102068631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08118233908117364,0.0,0.0,0.12776579084144965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14159832365775674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212209959709392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07154063962328548,0.0,0.10067792494255698,0.0,0.0,0.2492824510723985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837523516910168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621697918170283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061498725363305626,0.0,0.11115455554267206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14742941223231468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12333590539808885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08529970642713032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12016692990417947,0.08726950656630182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419263095941527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626410813928973,0.14220883747473992,0.0,0.1041294328932435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3563947187269668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376925481368762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10117776627730614,0.11002487557246486,0.0,0.14395502163121238,0.0,0.0,0.16131794615315095,0.0,0.09993484725398266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10386437880617592,0.14849485050602124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08942170871559008,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,RLV94110,2020/01/20,"I want to try naming voices but it seems overwhelming I have I don’t know how many voices, 10 to 15, and I have tried naming them before. I just can’t keep track of them all. Like who’s talking and what the last name I gave them was. What has worked for you and what were the benefits of naming your voices once you did that?",0.2207608695652148,2.4134556231884083,1.6259239130434793,98.76758152173912,86.97101449275362,4.6094202898550725,12.972826086956525,5.985473137389443,-1.1042043478260868,254,3,59,2,8,81,48,69,0.0,0.88,0.12,0.7783,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,3,1,2,3,0,1,2,0,8,0,0,1,1,15,13,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,6,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,3,12,2,5,9,1,1,0,1,0,0,13,0,0,1,2,40,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2824239296006302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950095108130735,0.0,0.0,0.1824045128223748,0.27054421124204103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621504220470706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33649626386296283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35346451421426833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021508729386361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667700412768883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4506789810644106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19576424177187005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24162841501258864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,katelyncam,2020/01/20,"Trying to get my brother active & social Hey all! 

I was hoping for some advice. My brother is schizophrenic and very much prefers keeping to himself. A lot of this has lead to him being very lonely and I’d like to do more with him to get him out of the house (some with and some without other people) 

I know it is hard to recommend suggestions without knowing his interests, but he doesn’t speak often about his likes and/or hobbies.

So, anything that you’ve enjoyed or feel could boost someone’s mood, would be greatly appreciated :)",4.140319031903188,6.479302019801985,4.55894389438944,82.36523652365237,73.35643564356435,6.469086908690867,29.04400440044005,7.3871296695380915,1.8749199119911992,428,18,74,5,9,135,79,101,0.038,0.715,0.24600000000000002,0.9778,0,2,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,3,8,0,0,2,0,10,1,0,1,1,25,17,6,0,4,4,2,2,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,6,0,1,4,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,3,10,6,15,12,7,2,0,1,0,0,13,1,0,7,2,55,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038184179828183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22599241329088104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17164058333874227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16653126203854185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546248134183724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21794509271777332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299561878644961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18684346187100664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20716340107275424,0.0,0.2406691307484597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18539226406383705,0.0,0.0,0.2292562400066368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20379976075592302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17732417378863616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15332763345523873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446005950077123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126173459021247,0.1767260842119438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14160966613455284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34419470365789434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4021203615254098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14816667121931,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,AschoffTheTop,2020/01/20,Do you have hobbies? What is it/are they?,-2.956666666666667,-2.1229349999999982,-0.7238888888888884,108.2675,121.22222222222223,1.8,15.611111111111107,3.1291,-1.5881555555555549,31,1,8,0,2,10,9,9,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,aeife,2020/01/20,"Any tips to stop reacting to or responding to voices out loud? I feel like if I stopped looking “crazy” to people or causing unwanted attention towards me it would be better. I just can’t help it. I feel like I do it without realising it’s a voice first and then it’s too late. 

Really nervous to post this sort of thing, I’ve never asked for advice before and I apologise if this isn’t allowed.",1.383444444444443,3.802045900000003,3.659166666666668,84.66027777777782,83.75,7.055555555555558,25.13888888888889,8.167268648758528,1.9185972222222216,312,13,61,7,9,107,58,80,0.132,0.7070000000000001,0.161,0.5279,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,1,1,0,5,0,0,3,1,21,9,7,0,4,6,0,2,2,0,1,0,3,0,0,8,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,6,7,3,10,7,0,9,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,5,8,42,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22361588960530476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15561632632304453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21393076831397687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19472258043396126,0.0,0.0,0.2023868448021813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350776065721855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23141271351861656,0.32696096657103635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946477837012206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533839463578263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581369740712444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22359542014807385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19216460519555603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764924295871327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15864606844721846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21916163076353626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14659820052913794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3826342832340187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15202846940203538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22058973683745176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16255852794106046,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Kennyvkm,2020/01/20,"Developing Psychosis Recently in December, I developed psychosis. I was in the state for a little more than a week. The peak of it turned the characters on tv British with crooked teeth, the same goes for my two sisters who were in the room. They then proceeded to tell my dog (named Fergus) “KILL HIM, FERGUS, KILL HIM.” I contacted my doctor and now I am on 10mg of Olanzapine. I don’t have any official diagnosis, but I’ve been showing signs since the beginning September. I did lots of research and learned about Schizophreniform. I believe I’m experiencing it. To specify, I am a male turning 17 in less than a month. This is also the age it starts to develop in men. I’m very concerned about what may happen after the end of the 6 months of Schizophreniform (if that is what is happening with me). I’ve been getting these delusions about my life as well. Since I have synesthesia and see people as my emotions/feelings, I convinced myself I was the reincarnated soul of Imagination and that I will on forever and people would worship me like a religion. I’m wondering if anyone could help me, or at least bring some comfort. It gets quite scary just to be alive sometimes.",4.249267425320056,6.431188635135139,5.01909435751541,79.88903982930302,72.55855855855856,8.63764817449028,31.053579895685157,9.276330184999452,2.989590990990991,935,43,171,22,19,302,141,222,0.051,0.847,0.102,0.8828,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,1,1,7,7,2,0,15,0,19,3,1,0,0,23,33,13,2,4,5,1,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,2,11,7,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,2,1,1,6,2,24,5,31,22,6,25,2,0,1,0,11,11,0,7,13,121,35,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12755191182280032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10846531595394973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11152595069324488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17970162628644526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12734759110465946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16325477750437165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14126945792302548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08064787828062424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16666409784528352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28209024718380443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10690933655270092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.352925736646823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11265940750449545,0.07792353304200042,0.15986067586855318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13560100428098892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2546223961410693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22115412110755225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16964764310456534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15748678485197531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271006695526882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26387972292976586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577493551081179,0.0,0.11289476113795058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13940983291059408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34697990568933845,0.15580810319509428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13160401790406906,0.0,0.0,0.12794109800597653,0.0,0.14340945218194331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17297070134318324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133040633380191,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,narlymech,2020/01/21,"Does other people have the voices.. repeating over and over ""your'e insane""  ""your'e out of your mind""",4.707647058823528,8.042353000000002,3.689705882352944,83.74867647058825,77.82352941176471,5.752941176470588,14.382352941176471,7.1686216300943375,0.13914117647058832,79,1,12,1,2,23,15,17,0.14400000000000002,0.856,0.0,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5813456518279198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6707677580910811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.46055167767171995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,IntoTheVoid71,2020/01/21,"How does one go about getting a diagnosis? I'm having trouble figuring out where to get a diagnosis. Do I need to find a psychiatrist that specializes in schizophrenia? If so, do I need to provide details over the phone about my symptoms to the staff of the psychiatrist's office? I'm pretty paranoid about giving specific details to people that are not the psychiatrist. I am worried that it could be traced back to me, especially if I have to give my name.",5.8910852713178326,7.295259813953493,7.013953488372092,70.30527131782948,67.13953488372093,9.919379844961243,35.26356589147287,10.125756701596842,3.8657193798449616,368,18,63,9,6,124,57,86,0.08900000000000001,0.845,0.067,-0.212,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,7,0,8,1,0,1,0,11,17,4,0,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,7,1,14,15,0,6,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,2,1,48,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039730981725722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117932310334109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23213597094878755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424482209116235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27718096175774176,0.5089344325645843,0.15075672029954915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3933825976346612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797510345334256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18390197042372247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2698707784434082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757128317856275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693903911060027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,poljenta,2020/01/21,"My mom has paranoid schizophrenia and I try to break iff contact My mom has schizophrenia since she is 21, and when she got me and my sister she had a total break down. She thought people want to harm me and my sister and she nearly accused everyone of sexually harressing us. Then she divorced my dad accused him of this bad stuff too. Then she run off with my sister (4 then) and me (2 then) to america. She was really paranoid, she thought that everyone would take her children away from her...
One day the police figured out by accident that she was really ill.

I was 5 when i went back to my origin country and my dad raised me and my sister. We saw our mom once a month for 4 h, so my mom wouldn't go toally crazy.

Now i am an adult and i never really had a relationship with my mom, she tried at some point to stalk  my sister and me at school... She always forced her way into my life and if i didn't wanted to have contact for a while she tried pushing herself even more into my life.

The newest thing she did is calling the police and said to them my sister is a prostitute, but my sister is just in a dance group, which my mother conciders as prostitution... She tells a lot stuff like this around and it is really bad to handle...

I  tried to talk with her about her illness, but she always denied she had it...

I want to try to break off contact with her, it really hard to do i know. The problem is  i don't know how to say it. She wouldn't believe me if i would say it's because of her illness...

TLDR
Mom has schizophrenia but she doesn't believe it and i can't keep up contact with her anymore because it's destroying my life. How can i tell her that i don't want any contact anymore? She wouldn't believe if i said it's because of her illness...",3.612326869806093,4.3991806703601135,4.783428254847647,86.48698725761774,71.93628808864267,7.4380498614958475,26.628365650969528,7.554174236665415,1.3064040110803323,1366,44,289,15,25,451,156,361,0.114,0.861,0.025,-0.9847,0,0,0,0,1,0,45.0,3,0,1,0,13,6,1,0,12,0,30,7,0,3,2,54,46,31,0,13,7,16,1,1,0,5,7,4,0,2,17,24,0,1,5,1,0,5,9,5,0,1,15,6,75,1,41,26,4,37,0,0,1,0,70,14,0,5,15,216,92,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13586274996281528,0.0,0.0,0.05551828963462701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16193073143355996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07267728841960798,0.0,0.0,0.07670386819757903,0.06277644866672849,0.13633269211999413,0.1493017388273907,0.0,0.0,0.2759424111267084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08336400347113218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05265132119131171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05392273177786599,0.0,0.0,0.15602185241551147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04639813582201886,0.0,0.06529530712000159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07313378638942683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07256576228317461,0.0,0.0,0.08973488671850742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17299514303417166,0.039885388603080656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0694077711774194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5736976853102282,0.06516460959014916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06296612994061165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08694438983786729,0.055321665912197636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056599192292738465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07717659162309919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07811886244354323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26150473890497444,0.0,0.0,0.0876512650555221,0.0,0.0,0.1553174822683126,0.129847488024674,0.0,0.08262447025949107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06753380450456517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869175122350643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0613834405014388,0.06561948238962835,0.14271466253288462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05423827175723101,0.0,0.0,0.12962675873906462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771424531009907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09820338103871272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926145552773671,0.06480237055929804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07568149334742964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11599003330891425,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Rhyvinn,2020/01/21,"Anyone else get too immersed in games/movies? TW: Movies, reality.. Possible delusions.  Putting this just in case.

It's really difficult for me at times to watch certain movies or play certain games, because I get too immersed.  Like for an example, if I were to watch a Harry Potter movie.  I'm not just watching; I'm THERE.  I become a part of that world.  I'm in the school.  I'm a fellow wizard.  I feel the sheer panic that the other characters feel whenever something bad happens.  Likewise, I feel their same joy.   It's kinda nice sometimes, because I've never felt that feeling within my own reality/the real world.  But at the same time I know it's crazy.  I KNOW it's not real and that they're simply actors. Anyone else?",1.7967899159663894,4.461850342857144,3.3831932773109235,85.4747478991597,84.85714285714286,5.579831932773111,23.235294117647058,7.048011613610866,1.1473697478991594,568,21,103,8,17,187,86,140,0.098,0.7859999999999999,0.11599999999999999,0.3408,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,1,0,5,9,0,1,8,0,1,0,0,0,3,23,15,4,0,1,7,0,5,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,10,1,0,0,7,3,0,1,3,3,0,0,2,8,10,6,11,13,4,12,0,0,3,0,3,8,0,3,4,56,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23419545673515366,0.3431821252602392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13982903436006586,0.2041742411535257,0.18495557873183985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797965492044867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387080149731622,0.0,0.1607958294044736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749905482697341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14809166357490858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840723947153481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181655165345067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129161876143938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19648796560579646,0.0,0.18135184795661768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18879534434646375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683518953696682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3812311750697656,0.10728448049563916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16948685911267564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12892527819326755,0.16563042968733607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953042235738828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Goochiii,2020/01/21,"schizophrenia and meth I have a friend who is schizophrenic and also does meth.. when he takes his meds he is fine, but refuses to take them because he thinks someone is poisoning him or something. he is currently in county jail and has been there most of this past year.

has anyone here done meth/been addicted to it? im not sure if my friend has always been schizophrenic and his meth use brought it to surface or if he developed it form his use?

if so, how does it compare to the paranoia from schizophrenia? do you see any direct relation? 

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thanks in advance",3.856666666666662,6.285670592592592,3.809037037037037,86.9896666666667,74.55555555555556,7.282962962962964,28.39259259259259,8.238735603445708,2.0722414814814822,456,19,85,8,10,139,73,108,0.085,0.81,0.105,0.3542,1,0,5,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,1,1,6,6,1,0,2,0,12,4,0,3,1,18,20,14,0,3,7,0,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,4,1,8,5,8,16,2,9,0,0,1,0,15,3,0,6,4,55,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077621692477796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15240810587494738,0.15857923038621838,0.20649517774756074,0.2315776093575519,0.12960208217525296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13325914647734727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11617682720270665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335586364060917,0.19503123388402752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29448587653304936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20586092545044776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21169329018596933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18193178457474368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15186892948240502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161479244548818,0.14671909328128765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796209841272563,0.0,0.2865874201969432,0.0,0.0,0.17546201151372856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211704938695615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32920277309014184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315776093575519,0.1227283576690856
schizophrenia,0MWhome,2020/01/21,"Fuck.... It hasn’t even been 2 months since the schizophrenia came back and it already feels like it’s been a million years. I’m in quicksand, and ain’t nobody coming to give out a hand to help me out of slowly sinking into non-existence. Fuck, it sucks. I often find myself thinking about how life would be without mental illness. I envy the people who find medications that work for them and go on to live a normal life. I’m losing my desire to live. But I can’t put my family through the grief of suicide. So I’m trapped. In an infinite loop of fucking pain. Schizophrenia. I’m filled with negativity and I feel like spewing this venom towards everything that upsets me. But I keep it in, because I still have that much sanity. I don’t know....",2.627959183673468,4.860764823129255,3.9172448979591854,85.67954081632655,77.63945578231292,6.104761904761905,24.785714285714285,7.1686216300943375,1.1634571428571427,587,21,112,7,14,192,100,147,0.187,0.7,0.113,-0.9287,0,1,0,0,0,1,24.0,0,0,1,2,7,10,4,1,7,0,9,9,1,1,0,25,26,8,2,3,3,0,3,2,0,1,5,0,0,0,10,10,0,1,6,0,0,5,6,8,0,2,3,3,13,2,20,21,1,18,0,2,0,3,4,8,4,1,7,75,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689444099953972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11772079352733572,0.0,0.0933254404746574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751001754315199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318779977312958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10111796555666608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13759213471703466,0.0,0.14432457201484758,0.0,0.15481911190696432,0.2187425474732972,0.0,0.0,0.2798525610554753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.424602261636863,0.0,0.14686290935336552,0.08700755590929175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10261651572567447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360780882053758,0.0,0.0,0.08413714295682208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21627139845043145,0.14958920729739644,0.0,0.2703718126334349,0.0,0.0,0.17127441909394195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15422735306832874,0.15428399874163112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12219916407786767,0.0,0.11254262056187588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15000083506458464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.162904134874251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10613696650920576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539030065825364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12664196884413664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12226206055096105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16746134984810346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09809725138747513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14757835312370532,0.0,0.111455161836603,0.0,0.0,0.10875446964893652,0.0,0.0,0.09858831846228854
schizophrenia,kvdlolita,2020/01/21,"If i've been detained by the police and taken to hospital, will it show up on my criminal record? I want to study to work with little kids. But i'm scared all the times the police have handcuffed me will show up on my screening. I've been taken to hospital by police 12 times in one year so if this shows up, i'll have no chance at the job I want :(",3.0888000000000027,3.4725722800000014,4.419999999999998,90.09000000000003,72.86666666666667,7.6,23.0,7.554174236665415,0.6978000000000004,271,6,63,3,5,90,47,75,0.175,0.768,0.057,-0.8885,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,4,0,6,0,0,0,1,8,11,5,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,1,5,0,14,5,1,11,0,0,1,0,1,8,0,2,3,39,7,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3711904656812885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748999595563173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25346838976780506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3744928927441535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4362273069264565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4412529916351599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723154648248104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408782449009704
schizophrenia,digitak-loops,2020/01/21,"Is this normal When I have recurring voices it's always certainly behind my right ear, or the top of my right ear feels as tho it's burning even though there's definitely no cut or starch on it. Sometimes my right foot becomes warm before I see a hallucination when there is nothing heating up my foot. Is this just sensory issues or? It's getting more concerning",4.1853333333333325,6.358517628571434,5.311428571428575,77.76190476190479,72.71428571428572,8.095238095238095,28.809523809523807,8.841846274778883,2.528523809523809,294,12,52,6,6,97,49,70,0.061,0.813,0.126,0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,8,3,1,0,2,0,4,4,4,0,1,7,7,8,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,6,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,6,2,5,7,1,9,0,0,1,0,0,6,0,3,3,36,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20990883387581294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786123751734341,0.21466317404307297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16662194383652598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275552827184153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318006534883153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633043193148419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471710202828103,0.2420598514014412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6463115585134886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20102651407740835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495014626354771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24785397638167103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Cultural_Intention,2020/01/21,"Do you ever feel normal? For me, if I'm in my room doing absolutely nothing except browsing reddit, I'm able to experience basically no signs of my condition. It's as if I'm totally comfortable here and the only thing I experience is some paranoia. Maybe some disassociation. But as soon as I go outside,look out my window, etc. Things start to get worse instantly. The voice in my left ear comes back,I see black figures that arent there etc. Is this normal? I havent seen any posts related to this I'd love some input.",3.177950377562027,5.1903896213592216,5.370420711974113,76.94316073354909,75.11650485436894,8.461272923408847,26.00755124056095,9.150863307647796,2.2979285868392667,413,15,79,10,9,144,76,103,0.07200000000000001,0.848,0.08,0.4316,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,6,2,1,0,2,17,17,7,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,6,9,2,12,16,6,11,0,0,3,1,2,5,0,5,3,50,15,0,0.1918325997631443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13045274605908194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475074280981449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.165246798676729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4278881147871058,0.0,0.17352356910936614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3752981847165111,0.0,0.0,0.09699632636494357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10022461577767176,0.0,0.10902288722939124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20842668093726785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16109106952621427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17313641093098014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927216305159684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3759104357007756,0.18406855322656315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14589733642788374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837226031447324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528657453608086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13578010146932587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548901105849808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19549380787613801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Superb-Reaction,2020/01/21,"Intrusive thoughts of harming others Hello all. I am M30, recently diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia and I have reoccurring thoughts of harming myself and others. I would never do anything to others or to myself, but these thoughts keep poping up and I am preoccupied with them. I was already hospitalized per my wish because I was afraid of thoughts that I could harm myself. I was released after few days and got told that I have anxiety. However, I didn't tell docs that I had intrusive thoughts about harming others as well. And again, I don't want to harm anyone.

Should I bring up this topic with my psychiatrist? How serious it is?",4.3547126436781625,7.293642172413794,4.862758620689653,77.4164367816092,75.55172413793103,7.659770114942527,31.218390804597703,8.59863814320734,3.0316977011494264,516,25,83,11,12,164,71,116,0.21100000000000002,0.738,0.051,-0.9552,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,4,8,0,1,0,0,15,1,0,1,2,24,26,9,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,10,8,0,1,5,0,0,1,3,7,1,0,12,0,19,1,14,11,2,8,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,5,71,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054851236926869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14244858629714308,0.0,0.0,0.1302009411885143,0.0,0.1532332922017745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11351064933212016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14867191103819952,0.0,0.0,0.1200887351391658,0.0,0.0,0.1889971684711291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489275229024696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16551019822146126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14361506473315586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18385790468515795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16275397199543698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7391416371396217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779296937542014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983028435604053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674233264397469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141299742341521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13227679831817538,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Anschnallpflicht,2020/01/21,"Is there any positive trade off of being paranoid schizophrenic? I have beginning paranoid schizophrenia and I’m wondering if it has a little „positive trade off“?
Something like increased attention, more creative thinking etc.",8.244428571428571,12.400992228571432,6.702500000000002,62.59375000000003,69.57142857142857,10.357142857142858,45.89285714285714,10.125756701596842,6.854000000000001,188,13,20,6,4,56,30,35,0.096,0.623,0.281,0.8295,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,5,8,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,7,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,2,15,2,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002787615377228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4924607456204562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21572593774059487,0.442563277912477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33993765289100525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829364755341713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4788574810743548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Austin2434,2020/01/21,Anyone have tips for stopping weed? I have been smoking weed every day for the past year and a half and I’m always trying to find the smallest little excuse to smoke.  I keep telling myself that I’m going to stop but I always go back to it.  Anyone have any tips for stopping?,2.421250000000001,4.3418971964285715,3.5280000000000022,89.71700000000001,77.03571428571428,4.48,20.128571428571426,3.1291,-0.296824285714286,217,5,42,0,5,70,37,56,0.099,0.882,0.019,-0.4865,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,8,9,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,0,7,8,0,10,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,7,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3752439659176081,0.0,0.0,0.1533378588992325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31532938138979005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733844160402582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454194809102347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899812423468175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060896440725532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562971896535786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20042185541235885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22599568852291285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152514052566236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5655478745599175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19708424854527729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15308983993657346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452052565463349
schizophrenia,some_guy_over_here_,2020/01/21,I wouldn’t have done it I’m so sorry I can’t even explain. I didn’t know the cost it would come at. I would do anything to make that not happen please please I’m not worth the trade I’m not. It’s not fair to you or him and it’s not worth it I’m not worth it please I’m sorry please. I didn’t know the cost I wouldn’t have done it. I would never have done it please I’m so sorry I’m sorry,-3.2904912280701737,-1.7807429263157886,-0.3263157894736821,108.68245614035088,104.57894736842104,2.533333333333333,8.43859649122807,3.1291,-2.537645614035088,302,2,87,0,15,103,35,95,0.258,0.722,0.02,-0.9195,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,15,0,0,1,1,19,28,4,0,5,7,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,0,3,0,6,1,12,0,0,0,5,0,9,0,3,18,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,51,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09904867383734466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10368225570186927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36952008755027776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.079498771146501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10643679728307337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13229695506673267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0803433834895693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092831534847874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6606133517374471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5389470787039473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565077327114972,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ilovemagikarpforever,2020/01/21,"Do I have a form of schizophrenia? I've been reading a lot of posts here and it seems you guys have very severe symptomes. I wish you the best btw. My symptomes are not nearly as crazy but I do have moments where I catch my self thinking in a weird way. Like I associate certain random events in life as signs from god. And it can really break my mood. I have plans for how things should be and when one thing goes south I kinda just give up or try to work it around in my delusion to make it fit my narrative. I also want to mention I have depression which I had for a long time. I have moments of restlessness all the time and it seems no matter how much I want something it can be hard for me to get organized and get it. Besides that, I jumble up my words a lot when talking to people. I find that I have to think of how to say something before I say it. I cant just have a conversation in the moment as I cant think of anything to say. So you know if this is schizophrenia or am I just stupid?",2.120289935879565,3.4677290189573498,3.3434792305547845,93.19819626428772,76.34597156398105,6.29172010036242,22.83830499024253,6.794906146795322,0.4359342626149978,777,22,178,7,17,252,117,211,0.1,0.794,0.107,-0.5034,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,0,3,13,8,1,1,9,0,22,3,0,4,2,38,35,19,0,5,8,0,1,1,0,1,3,3,0,2,14,6,0,0,7,1,0,1,4,4,0,1,2,4,29,3,28,30,6,24,0,1,0,0,12,11,0,9,10,132,43,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11445290036821346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11777545021259934,0.12740701861021447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121784459620394,0.0,0.15019546332093714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12326892573902798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13080895924397348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14954843963565476,0.13729361097572773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417111627144264,0.0,0.0,0.12820728299267792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07865493217167026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010897897051285,0.06992113435340166,0.0,0.0,0.1266565724182735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24335077398702654,0.0,0.0,0.09553361792230153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10520956471340012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09698172113589501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09922129048252312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13706926393733504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14315859030921405,0.0,0.09168624713669543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3414439713490857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26058189075335364,0.149305227306002,0.16168470439950405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220361320928904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29751266839968465,0.0,0.1150343222182245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901649510989468,0.27511628216573,0.0,0.0,0.1669086826604273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09716899033451548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11808887325935424,0.1688316031215661,0.11360188322060452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16458077586841482,0.0,0.0,0.10419296266025307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,3rdeyegrindhotsauce,2020/01/21,"Psychotic nightmares Has anyone else had a nightmare that was pretty intense then woke up with psychosis? Seems to happen to me every now and then, I usually smoke a cigarette and wait to get my scruples back.",5.8504385964912275,8.013221763157897,5.807894736842107,75.98359649122811,68.21052631578948,8.224561403508767,33.719298245614034,8.841846274778883,3.2636561403508773,169,8,26,3,3,53,33,38,0.0,0.88,0.12,0.5423,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,8,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,5,5,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25248374884236124,0.3699811718353793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2776572684711165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30164582456522543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3042353748708223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886555369393325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.319312243823577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3673601266740306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32872436941842786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3976915502365402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,gcracker121,2020/01/21,"What kinds of jobs are you able to work? College is getting really difficult because of my symptoms and I'm getting close to dropping out, but I'm worried about finding a job that I like without a bachelor's degree. I'm also worried about even being able to work, but that's something to deal with at another time. What jobs have you been successful with?",3.8426086956521743,5.997945362318845,4.799347826086958,81.1364130434783,73.63768115942028,7.498550724637681,33.23913043478261,8.344100000000001,2.8999739130434787,286,15,50,5,6,93,47,69,0.10400000000000001,0.774,0.122,0.5128,3,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,3,4,4,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,9,10,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,3,13,8,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,33,8,7,0.3693533295098657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14768586208267856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19364958525057785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11257718072777692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903935322371986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219771953435263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16879112588613332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929718701724137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5497892810772771,0.0,0.0,0.1923123275314236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09022369002060536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183086003582746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421731190138602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919497661123857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10768644834899874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17802171462160515,0.0,0.26889362286010565,0.3750962349545377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,cabinfever538447,2020/01/21,"Hate when people look at me as just another crazy guy and avoud me People look at me as just a crazy guy a lot, i have actually been caught pooping in local urinals before so that doesnt help. But it makes me upset as people look at me as just another crazy guy but I'm a person too an have a personality and feelings. My mental illness shouldn't define me, I'm a good guy if you get to know me but most people avoid me just because of my illness so I don't have friends at all. I cry alot of times becaude of this, often using psychedelics just to escape reality for once.",4.8824285714285685,4.620710099999998,6.239047619047621,80.86500000000002,68.83333333333334,8.523809523809524,28.809523809523807,7.957251820313856,1.721952380952381,452,14,95,5,7,154,71,120,0.226,0.728,0.046,-0.9652,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,10,5,1,2,7,0,7,4,2,2,1,22,19,13,0,2,9,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,6,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,2,4,14,2,15,16,4,9,0,0,3,0,9,6,0,5,2,65,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.14029153575174902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014951907420316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08763633170915866,0.0,0.12233136319280155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15791643868896105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269067778833803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11107060926394192,0.0,0.07511001215183966,0.0,0.0,0.1205812276157116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5693902085217992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14193578011365182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963610240169758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07900815181501591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362173067837164,0.0,0.0,0.12222180074801238,0.0,0.0,0.09596263552511868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144878862852071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531024510750818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3986674740048161,0.251055871606696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08382911392064661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12416470701065255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,CanesXvenatici,2020/01/21,"Any advice? Hello ,
Recently I’ve been hearing voices and seeing things. I won’t go too deep into it hoping to not trigger anyone and I haven’t been diagnosed entirely (just psychosis until they run more tests ) but this seems like the right place to ask.

I’ve told my boyfriend of 2 years and my family hoping to have some support and ease through this, and no one believes me. They brush it off as if it’s nothing or like I’m just tripping myself out because I’m trying to be proactive about drawing the things I see and keeping a journal of every day. 

My boyfriend (we live together) says he understands and believes me, yet he shuts down any conversation I try to have about the subject or whenever I scream that I see something he just shrugs it off and says nothings there. 

I don’t really know what to do to try and bring them to some kind of inkling of what I’m going through and I’m going even more insane trying to make them feel better about the situation. 

I’m sorry if this is the wrong subreddit and I appreciate any advice anyone is willing to share",5.08942857142857,5.970108990476192,5.656190476190478,81.22714285714288,68.6190476190476,8.285714285714286,30.23809523809524,8.418075326091056,2.2080952380952383,848,32,161,12,14,274,121,210,0.07200000000000001,0.7809999999999999,0.147,0.9506,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,4,1,10,10,0,0,6,0,12,1,0,2,0,34,36,18,0,4,9,0,1,2,0,2,1,5,0,0,12,14,0,1,4,0,0,6,5,2,0,1,3,10,19,8,26,30,4,20,0,0,3,0,16,9,0,9,7,105,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390777489717585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24956456179994224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710711224092959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143614763123056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07457086718957905,0.0,0.0,0.2756466877574893,0.0,0.10819041384359276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07889234333269939,0.0,0.0,0.12416176660244838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08079741538486702,0.0,0.10306779603518053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153212718544262,0.0,0.0618534205341247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20856785234129874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13787412511411545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24300139353442946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087319919559389,0.0,0.1273872461768461,0.06722903938339904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11952793207976027,0.0,0.10801910191449134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165582480853367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23475671824918495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08289356776107247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12780818714861028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0783673464521667,0.0,0.12078552517055816,0.0,0.0,0.10446863972188608,0.0,0.194562498610606,0.0,0.0,0.29244208272866634,0.11136409194163437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375033716832311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09417514906104668,0.0,0.13693774872399406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13881795413983694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254043622935035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11689098459127985,0.0,0.33221453239760856,0.0,0.0,0.12734922020990708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13374799597272444,0.0,0.0787761232639629
schizophrenia,TheHeartlessCookie,2020/01/21,"I've met a new friend who has schizophrenia, and I have a couple of questions. First of all, what should I do to support her when she's not feeling well due to the effects of schizophrenia? Does it depend on the person, or are there clear-cut rules/guidelines I ought to follow beyond the usual norms of behavior?

Do I just let her vent, or do I try to offer advice? Should I ask her if she's taken her medication?

I'm very very sorry if any of these questions are obvious or stupid, it's just I don't have any experience here and I want to help her however I can.",3.7160897435897446,4.439159700854702,4.939391025641027,85.69831730769235,71.64957264957266,7.559401709401709,25.73611111111111,7.645422480735847,1.2111547008547014,443,13,94,5,8,147,73,117,0.077,0.823,0.099,0.5275,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,7,4,1,0,5,0,14,1,0,2,2,21,22,8,0,6,8,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,2,1,16,3,12,16,1,8,0,0,0,0,16,2,0,8,5,68,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19343399374840564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692249423442364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18505609316796848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190273944300561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732269712561755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19363262789508184,0.0,0.0,0.10008923216295396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16837577258959568,0.0,0.0,0.1529353190166973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13268140011541346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2024168101165655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994133302664868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19118089354301135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17284189791353627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44349756215982306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22158829706671532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22463078549751309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134394739910571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218013445720298,0.32665819318256123,0.11675576391240867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779804039463376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Liluzi_hurt,2020/01/21,Just wondering how can I help? I’ve just started in a new relationship and right from the start she told me she has psychosis so she didn’t surprise me with it or anything. But I was just wondering how can I help her if she’s having a episode or having trouble dealing with it on a certain day. So far I’ve set a reminder for when she has to take her meds luckily her mom handles that and I just wanna know what I can do to somewhat help.,1.9057258064516127,3.529628322580645,3.5351478494623656,90.42272177419355,77.60215053763442,6.370430107526883,27.75403225806452,7.1686216300943375,1.320635483870967,346,15,76,4,8,115,59,93,0.028999999999999998,0.797,0.17300000000000001,0.9035,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,0,5,0,10,0,0,2,1,20,17,11,0,2,8,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,15,2,9,14,1,10,0,0,0,0,15,4,0,6,5,59,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183513344008832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14381917301731142,0.22990739855300146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4484247713830843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12255720185790404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477072431309347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611796652530409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21537871524133714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23942290846609435,0.0,0.1904442527164445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156868494747285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16767130339990488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21308994037865328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4836767907391223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Throwaway6964378,2020/01/21,"How do you make the dissociation stop? The past few weeks I genuinely haven’t been able to connect anything from my physical appearance to me. I don’t recognize the person in the mirror and in selfies as me at all. I can’t picture myself in my head either. My voice doesn’t sound like mine. I can’t remember my name. I keep calling myself different names on accident. It’s gotten so bad that I’ve had to write it on my hand for when I forget. Nothing feels real. I feel like I am dead or not actually living. I don’t feel in control at all. I’m not in control of my actions or emotions at any level. I can’t even associate a gender with myself. I am not me. I am just a voice in my head and anything more. I have no physical body I can recognize as mine. 

How do I feel alive again? How do I snap out of this? How can I ground myself to reality?",0.568068215230813,2.6399992793296114,3.44398706262864,87.15084386945017,84.13966480446928,6.673448985592472,22.828873860629226,7.85451343220497,1.250423463687151,657,24,142,13,19,233,98,179,0.114,0.8220000000000001,0.063,-0.8635,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,2,9,3,0,0,6,0,18,4,4,7,2,33,27,12,1,0,7,0,5,2,0,0,0,3,0,1,4,4,0,4,5,0,0,2,11,1,0,0,3,8,34,2,23,24,5,21,0,0,0,0,6,14,0,3,7,107,38,0,0.17094200399368684,0.0,0.1668147372173112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11624642456679747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28134140816823905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427294330824516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898780303207148,0.0,0.0,0.17455089853937136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3834519859451024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17859801102249484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922867463281788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290558144539398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34573365380694177,0.1221210018089173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3508716257337377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15194110746023326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670272570743459,0.0,0.15094492132911916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11410511505220094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16402346316328512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16318348530290125,0.0,0.1492599643468223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945694245121828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936439673727016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14291516961497358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13711936454100573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,EndMyTorment,2020/01/21,"Doctor thinks i'm schizophrenic but I'm not convinced I've been a diagnosed schizophrenic for 4 years now. I got the diagnoses in 2016 after experiencing psychosis in 2015, when I believed I was jesus/god. I was content with this diagnosis for a while because I thought it was a good way to explain my 2015 psychosis. However I haven't had a full blown psychosis since then and it is now 2020, instead my ""symptoms"" I experience are what my doctor calls delusions of reference. I adamantly complain to him, my family, and friends that anytime I go in public people call me dumb. Either to themselves or to each other. I can tell you with 100% confidence this is not a delusion and is actually happening, however when I tell my doctor or a loved one they basically gaslight me and say it's because I'm schizophrenic. I went to a gas station about 30 minutes ago and upon entering heard 3 different negative things about me. All the while I was oblivious to what exactly I was doing wrong. First someone called me ""poser"" which would be somewhat understandable because I'm a dweeb that dresses outside of his personality. (Think Ryan Gosling in drive but not that extreme, just a staple jacket I find cool and hoodies underneath). While I start to fill up my fountain drink a girl calls me stupid under her breath to herself. I look up to try and see if she's looking at me but she's not. I go to stand in line and while waiting a middle aged man says ""now that's Extra Special"". I look around at people trying to figure out what I did but don't get it. I pay and leave.

Go home, complain to family that everyone calls me dumb in public, get gaslit that I'm paranoid and schizophrenic, ""are you taking your meds?"", ""are you telling your doctor everything you tell us?"".

I have the feeling that when people try to comfort you for these problems they just project their own experiences onto you. Because THEY don't experience it, it must NEVER happen to anyone else. So fucking bullshit. Now my mind is probably ruined even more than it already is by antipsychotic drugs and I'm not even schizophrenic",5.305433435181143,6.90096790126583,5.913461370580535,76.92594936708862,68.72151898734178,8.7900480139677,33.11436054124837,9.223106411051027,3.1216957660410296,1671,77,293,33,29,542,214,395,0.125,0.8079999999999999,0.068,-0.9772,3,0,2,0,0,0,47.0,1,8,4,1,16,16,4,0,14,1,25,17,1,0,4,49,56,27,0,4,15,0,1,0,1,2,13,3,1,3,23,16,1,1,9,1,1,7,10,9,0,2,12,10,55,7,42,41,8,46,0,1,4,2,41,18,3,4,19,212,78,7,0.0,0.0,0.08171668364571351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07422911601238176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924075024176098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058551896952143724,0.08579997543154314,0.0,0.07454500679733518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20418481716018566,0.0,0.0,0.0943445990736028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4275317874773665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16998560273917124,0.0,0.08748889582499267,0.0,0.3428395579670265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08203183743978852,0.09711005941955388,0.0,0.0699527605913946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11061696148331847,0.0,0.0,0.08001571262329342,0.07525875240178043,0.2457369245908941,0.15788238554617914,0.0,0.0423406949606228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07653545983857261,0.07122791405141755,0.0,0.0,0.06469614714047382,0.07741488165604292,0.087499806296205,0.0,0.14277153532201362,0.07023586974000343,0.0669733175100324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14809933456421362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08399652982876467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866696658488145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21095771637868108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07557725366035242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09301458128831833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08455200045790222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645842832952807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0567433657906265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741611691602773,0.07311721668578097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09028425177284384,0.08012642268974503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13318441136013467,0.0,0.0,0.0667287322810352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0692693415689472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07095134808130897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059270531921020775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703635062680039,0.06296092065246944,0.0,0.29276451336957193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05563212971671167,0.10731248219453908,0.0,0.0664790047994764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17055880729311554,0.0,0.0,0.08717471790272363,0.1007270891118866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06646771307613902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07762641615691489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0594854184123865,0.09155488977285337,0.0,0.053924839992635566
schizophrenia,MyScondAccount,2020/01/21,“What music do you listen to?” Only play the same 1-2 songs in my head 24/7.,-1.6647058823529406,0.08726047058823383,1.6073529411764724,98.67808823529413,91.35294117647058,3.4000000000000004,8.5,3.1291,-2.1467411764705893,56,0,14,0,2,20,17,17,0.0,0.862,0.138,0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8034331028086417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5953950363508909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mrspermstains,2020/01/21,"just a question My father has schizophrenia on his side of the family and i did some research and found i related with *some of the symptoms, basically my impression is schizophrenia is minor bipolar disorder but instead of anger its paranoia, my biggest question though is about hallucinations. Are hallucinations a definite in a case of schizophrenia or in an extreme case of it, from what i can tell my dad suffers from paranoia but has never suffered hallucinations, because if what im thinking is true i have schizophrenia, but a very minor case of it, or no case at all, not asking for medical advice just asking for general advice from people who have experienced it",15.095168067226885,10.232215974789916,13.662920168067224,50.094212184873975,53.11764705882353,15.933613445378153,54.11974789915966,13.023866798666859,7.012897478991596,547,29,80,12,4,178,72,119,0.145,0.769,0.086,-0.8228,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,7,0,11,3,0,0,3,22,15,9,0,1,9,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,1,9,2,17,13,3,7,0,2,0,0,9,6,0,7,1,69,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40515185193997616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3876041506814889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12637112852437332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23758934841645205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19542858781648234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22729909688002206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239248402166632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20883785340251534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15988630062654624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14371909918350895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4644578110547283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154691422080232,0.0,0.0,0.18119359931339646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13283259419858515,0.2036759885270828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17104823376006528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,heccin_anon,2020/01/21,"Does anyone else hate how their meds feel? But when you get off them you’re so paranoid you can’t function? I’m struggling right now. I’m on olanzapine and it makes me incredibly fatigued. If I don’t get 8 hours of sleep I can’t function. If I forget to take my meds for one day or intentionally stop taking them, I start losing my mind all over again. I’m so frustrated.",1.3661363636363646,3.575533064935069,3.18193181818182,89.39289772727275,81.98701298701299,5.927922077922077,21.313311688311693,7.1686216300943375,0.5375467532467533,294,9,64,4,8,98,57,77,0.29,0.71,0.0,-0.9692,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,3,1,6,5,2,1,0,0,3,2,1,3,1,13,14,9,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,0,1,12,0,6,14,1,11,0,2,0,0,5,4,0,3,7,35,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15219782243360708,0.22302555690400647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14037720326863165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19048185230407552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18183284213544007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11005897176310793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22744403981530176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21490109173544214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21435814231318415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24351368797581785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14529440796144116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4835579191644781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21978161292734885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14749678764371432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18588642261001612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178241893822968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15406581788859852,0.0,0.0,0.1819793525331186,0.0,0.22755280153250945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32731697931334497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,depressedjoanna,2020/01/21,"I still don't know where they are It's been more than 6 years. Why do I still feel that I'm being followed?
Every step I make I feel a pair of eyes glazing at me, no, not only one but more than one.
It's everywhere.
In my room, in the bathroom, in the living room, outside, everywhere.
I can't escape this feeling. I can't hide because I don't know where it is. And I can't be scared because I don't know how they look.
I'm just disturbed.",-0.16783505154639045,1.6375139175257765,2.061041237113404,97.56269587628869,85.08247422680412,4.704742268041239,20.009278350515466,5.6839178017228535,-0.28140742268041263,338,10,82,2,10,114,58,97,0.081,0.8370000000000001,0.08199999999999999,0.012,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,2,3,0,12,1,1,2,0,12,23,3,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,6,0,0,2,8,2,0,2,1,5,13,0,7,20,2,13,0,0,2,0,2,8,0,0,3,54,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3015758122068634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20841084107725505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3752168153267383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40782653306938615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21842275422989202,0.0,0.20771947540152752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16511422366492332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3352340661496768,0.1881278600633324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24764976669040156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3950828415618699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22320325360495208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15929125039836958
schizophrenia,punkrar,2020/01/22,"I'm scared my friend is developing Schizophrenia. Hello, my friend (who I will call Mark) has been acting very disturbing the last couple months. He believes that one of my friends, Frank, is trying to get him. He feels like hes constantly being watched or threatened by Frank and claims hes been sent texts by Frank which go along the lines of ""Your a horrible person"" and ""You should kill yourself"". Mark actually showed me screenshots of the texts but when I asked for screenshots from Frank they were very different. I know Frank very well and he is one of the nicest and chillest people I've ever met. He told me that the only time he ever even seen Mark was one time at a music store in our town. The thing about Mark however is that he has had a rough past. When he was around 11 or 12 his sister took her own life which had a huge affect on him. Hes also been known most of his life as a rather weird kid and was often bullied. He was actually expelled from my old school for some very weird stuff, but I dont really believe that he did it. The point of this all is that he is threatening to either harm himself or somebody and claims he would like to see those who have put him through this trouble go through serious pain. He has also claimed he has a gun in his house and will use it if he thinks someone is going to hurt him. If you have any advice or if theres someway I can help him please let me know.",4.8603885003885035,5.239695909090912,4.799673659673662,88.95113442113444,68.93006993006992,7.8940170940170935,26.378399378399376,7.594959193182576,1.1194194250194247,1114,30,242,11,18,344,162,286,0.158,0.754,0.08800000000000001,-0.9740000000000001,3,0,0,1,0,0,24.0,1,3,1,0,13,16,1,2,13,0,35,3,0,2,3,35,52,21,1,6,11,1,2,2,3,4,3,0,0,2,16,9,0,0,5,1,1,7,1,10,1,3,16,5,30,6,26,30,5,26,0,1,3,0,47,8,0,10,13,152,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.21931782381175885,0.0,0.0,0.1098086676850602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17972777716030655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07641684807702373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10003494964202406,0.10505269856655937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25320964133743123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11474442801229112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12143426622089057,0.0,0.0,0.12433753707312302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1174048761157574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13169920686036432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0742206798747857,0.2032939070888988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056818685384379286,0.08027861568235642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604551035386705,0.0,0.058709758658447325,0.0,0.19159087858266374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.075320617079396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12966225948548835,0.12029660472198532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12432302511921035,0.0,0.12351348088540925,0.09159821965710424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11490803557967212,0.15874340570535242,0.1097986159672206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08969429901066597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11791556450348395,0.0,0.2284386298930697,0.08546400845868457,0.11957178507517573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10727183783536973,0.07790463119776735,0.09811894053497533,0.0,0.12335076729666475,0.10622791004509832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11296494861665494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07198841331689537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11250402650673104,0.1137265148623398,0.08954597578288886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952124741452326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12863911360926866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07465499748118266,0.07200347289172876,0.0,0.0,0.1310500932121632,0.0,0.0,0.10737631032220883,0.12484948335713265,0.07629324632905493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09705337242864084,0.0,0.3708748424895891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10103596918345303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0798258809137373,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mundanecinamon,2020/01/22,"I got accepted to law school! I got accepted to a law school unconditionally so I don’t need to stress as much over my final exams, I just wanted to share to show that don’t let your illness hinder you.",1.7628571428571431,3.7807921904761934,4.238333333333333,83.37750000000003,79.47619047619048,7.057142857142857,20.02380952380953,8.07648339933343,0.8508380952380956,160,4,34,3,4,56,29,42,0.13,0.711,0.159,-0.1007,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,2,4,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,7,7,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,7,3,7,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,22,8,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3209227359289232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.468612837205804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299570865884213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153588894663388,0.2172257053424627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5929811672340864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355840373710604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17279506218910906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,poopoodaiper,2020/01/22,"how long did it take you to get diagnosed? i am currently in the process of getting diagnosed, i see my new psychiatrist in 3 weeks to evaluate me and i was just wondering how long it takes to get diagnosed. i’m tired of living in fear and not being able to function and i want an official diagnosis to help me actually get the help i need and to have an explanation for my behavior to those who desperately need it.",5.653253012048192,5.865392156626508,7.659903614457833,69.71130120481929,67.19277108433735,12.905060240963854,35.877108433734946,12.340626583579946,4.831242891566267,331,16,66,13,5,118,52,83,0.102,0.82,0.078,-0.4588,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,4,0,5,4,0,2,0,12,17,6,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,10,0,13,14,0,8,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,1,5,45,15,0,0.17654585445726556,0.0,0.1722832869046163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5375709780392496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19866316893361266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36895168916998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366699296316213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155893223955759,0.3124750512412614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26181302815132657,0.0,0.17050908636167886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14068418853360995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265481022298368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20291348875428064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10413131910425896,0.0,0.14161443536383936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914564482169595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,soulsister23,2020/01/22,"I think I need to get support but I’m scared! For years now I have had a voice inside my head that tells me things. It’s like the evil side of me. It tells me all the bad things about myself, about other people. These things have got so bad that it started to tell me to harm myself. I have managed to push these voices back for some time but it’s starting to get so bad that I’m bombarded on a daily basis.

I want to seek help, but I am petrified that as a result my children will get taken from me. I’m petrified that they will section me and I won’t see my children or that social services will be brought in and I won’t be allowed to be in my children’s lives. 
I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place because I want the thoughts and feeling so down to stop, but I’m to scared to ask for help because I can’t live without my boys. They are the only reason that at times I haven’t listened to the voices! 
I don’t know what to do...",2.6870378151260503,3.180516877450984,3.975210084033616,92.51558823529413,73.8529411764706,6.416806722689077,24.865546218487395,5.773587663045528,0.4400193277310924,729,21,171,3,14,240,102,204,0.226,0.698,0.076,-0.9908,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,2,0,8,9,1,2,10,0,18,1,1,3,1,23,43,13,0,3,6,0,2,1,0,5,0,4,0,4,18,4,0,1,5,1,0,2,6,7,0,0,6,7,27,2,27,29,3,18,0,0,1,0,14,8,0,2,9,117,45,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13313639440984018,0.0,0.0,0.10950636529914017,0.35672528239288115,0.17362658660549868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07200800179721738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232138447972923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11390022700650275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275735613938038,0.0,0.14615623546174014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19091209496767972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07826614513702096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06957551800444542,0.0,0.2515055632372416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10559700966658764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10831106761900296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09873084506180137,0.0,0.14879067463728682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14642369308463266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28515936572929146,0.0,0.113484265633512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14517153428445084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20160049678259306,0.0,0.0,0.1190631652680381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616079338033148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37342421323888536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838374641948777,0.09125213246871283,0.0,0.1130595589309502,0.16608366215634582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16799707772664926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13728049704028975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09170893342009627
schizophrenia,PM-ME-UR-SUCCULENTS,2020/01/22,"Paranoia won't leave me alone, not even on vacation I decided to go on a small vacation by myself for no particular reason. I'd been doing really well lately so I was excited to go out and see new things but today the paranoia is making me feel embarrassed and ashamed of even being here. I want to go home but I have the hotel until Friday and I don't want to let my mental illness take another good thing from me.

I mostly stay in my hotel room and work on my crafts (which I'm happy to do, I live with family so any alone time is nice) but I'm planning to go out to some bars tonight, maybe find a club or a show, maybe get into some trouble. I'm not generally a club/party person but I *do* like drinking and drugs so I'm working on getting used to the crowds. I like how easy it is to blend in and disappear.

Anyway, I can't shake the feeling that everyone here hates me and is making fun of me because I don't speak the language very well. I see it in their eyes. I think the man that delivered my food today didn't give me any utensils on purpose, knowing that I wouldn't know how to ask for them. I sat in my room and put the noodles in my mouth with my hands. This is not what I wanted. I just wish I could get past this language barrier anxiety.",1.5089465408805012,3.2639479245283027,3.58870283018868,88.99978380503147,79.18867924528303,6.680817610062893,22.739779874213838,7.645422480735847,0.9553553459119496,980,31,213,15,24,334,146,265,0.114,0.731,0.155,0.8873,0,2,2,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,2,3,13,14,1,3,11,0,20,8,3,6,0,46,50,19,0,6,9,0,3,2,0,2,2,1,3,2,11,13,3,1,8,6,0,7,10,5,2,0,4,7,34,9,32,41,3,32,0,0,3,0,8,16,0,4,10,141,45,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456068347497087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16126419361309244,0.12433164769092535,0.09070621015995743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11084753655463314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07227955770817654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09466900274730124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11615408061384695,0.13750429128828998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566295704496815,0.0,0.0,0.1132993216352414,0.0,0.0,0.11177784083952756,0.0,0.119905749991577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837141101993007,0.0,0.1433760807989965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18584478669672705,0.1137437560198802,0.26954569413902946,0.09945142191593756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12622064427646393,0.0,0.11706395292339244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11893601315678255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13032663867040906,0.0,0.13375283927120452,0.1255491807317506,0.0,0.12124650625960552,0.0,0.1158552446833468,0.0,0.1047000417812622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.158293637284721,0.0,0.2382402768499966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194913105555841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145162567888065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131890863156174,0.0,0.1035313037747581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11919623619419248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07595938405712435,0.1219103592493232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889708871709788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12638051909008782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0891503601678657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15754612066511275,0.07597527433690411,0.0,0.0,0.06913948997045316,0.0,0.22478219310020686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10240695760155126,0.0,0.09783319043920533,0.2098080952648955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132184787295065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13635037699787134,0.0,0.0,0.1726416668567559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ctaque,2020/01/22,"Telling people about your disease Hi,
I’ve been diagnosed of schizophrenia on Monday. If have medicine which I take for 4 years now. I have a work, I am in IT (web développer). I wonder if I should tell my colleagues and n++ that I have schizophrenia.  What did you do and how it’s been for you? Thanks.",1.303214285714283,3.776763083333337,1.519523809523811,99.43500000000002,84.83333333333334,4.095238095238095,21.904761904761905,5.288315135182226,-0.1695238095238092,235,8,51,1,7,70,45,60,0.0,0.9440000000000001,0.055999999999999994,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,9,1,0,1,0,7,12,5,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,10,1,6,8,0,5,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,3,3,37,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.356620463529476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24358704844776505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26417711083189443,0.0,0.6142038783310387,0.323482776952286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3810322176870983,0.2557924425293551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262627084181292
schizophrenia,HorgaLab,2020/01/22,"Schizophrenia Research Study in NYC Hello,

We are looking for volunteers with a diagnosis of schizophrenia, schizophreniform or schizoaffective disorder to participate in a research study. The study takes around 2-3 days to complete and is being carried out at the New York State Psychiatric Institute at Columbia University. Study participation includes a non-invasive Magnetic Resonance Imaging (MRI) scan, computer tasks, and interviews. Participants can earn up to $700. \*This is not a treatment study and does not have to be completed all at once. Visits are scheduled based on your availability. 

To see if you’re eligible for the study, click the following link: [https://rc-1.nyspi.org/surveys/?s=MYJRX3TACJ](https://rc-1.nyspi.org/surveys/?s=MYJRX3TACJ)

We greatly appreciate your time and consideration. If you have any questions, feel free to contact Garrett Salzman at 646-774-8137 or via email at [garrett.salzman@nyspi.columbia.edu](mailto:garrett.salzman@nyspi.columbia.edu).

Thank you,

Horga Lab",13.06704761904762,17.446236657142858,9.441428571428574,48.151904761904774,53.85714285714286,11.523809523809526,40.95238095238096,11.20814326018867,5.9722380952380965,852,41,95,24,12,243,103,140,0.02,0.914,0.066,0.7545,0,0,0,0,0,0,62.0,2,4,0,1,1,3,0,0,8,0,9,1,0,0,1,20,15,8,0,2,6,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,9,0,0,4,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,5,6,4,21,13,1,18,0,0,4,0,12,11,0,5,4,56,7,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16983044815151455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223198254839723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5236912195847468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16106039167519245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28622145889648104,0.0,0.21854746372458925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126275069504082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753370984261456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20971707654550453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.241198579490469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659628887633363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797637881537813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990089041888286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877719446699093,0.0,0.0,0.22992525697733504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456242741004339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,joshi231,2020/01/22,"My therapist says i could have schizophrenia. What are your symptoms ? So he first thought i might have It because i told him always bout my eye problem and that i dident get taken serious by the doctors. Now i asked him what why else he think i could have it. He says he observed when i talk i change the topic frequently and my poor consetration.
I have add",3.5124761904761925,5.518538914285713,3.962857142857143,87.43047619047621,74.14285714285714,6.9523809523809526,27.380952380952376,7.793537801064563,1.6035238095238094,284,11,56,4,6,89,47,70,0.109,0.8909999999999999,0.0,-0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,8,3,1,0,0,9,14,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,3,3,15,0,1,8,0,4,0,0,1,0,12,0,0,1,4,37,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920989821577904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158285182680053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14073375309999606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442255855807101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3686553842139623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363011039454087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928588946945875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19637447699308305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12061794120497177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449123117821545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2209075551147947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3671877728385837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23995814086857103,0.0,0.18556132244075266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680531863220021,0.0,0.14792959225627322,0.0,0.18328179299331904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22060232883255926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20832062992113015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,poopsackmickflagenar,2020/01/22,"Anybody start having symptoms from non-symptons? I'm very stable with good medications but I'll be walking around, hear something and if I'm not able to place where it came from immediately think it was a hallucination and my symptoms are coming back. From that paranoia sets in and my entire perception if reality has shifted into an analyzing machine trying to figure out what is and isn't a hallucination. Problem is, none of it was or is! I barely have real hallucinations, maybe 10-15 times a week but damn I cant help these pseudo hallucinations from fucking fucking up my vibe. What's up with that???",4.643893805309737,7.077551663716817,6.151513274336286,71.08585398230089,72.18584070796459,7.705840707964603,29.88407079646018,8.548686976883017,2.5929440707964604,490,21,82,9,10,166,81,113,0.092,0.848,0.061,-0.6677,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,4,0,12,5,0,0,0,22,21,9,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,8,11,0,0,3,0,0,3,4,4,0,0,3,1,5,1,15,17,1,16,0,0,0,2,2,8,3,3,4,57,13,0,0.206051192939318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18342924710574154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15844064858924398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23566767205844796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17749485769772186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38098201521542185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17282596460486627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23223466978716936,0.0,0.13811177125448812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20700611847025133,0.0,0.0,0.20757489920142372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21527964086073087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19716316382148005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23453136791196436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15862827507516505,0.0,0.0,0.14584409490211908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42833217011326497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13202928445300152,0.0,0.0,0.12015010762271608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13989523445026514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17001381360156936,0.0,0.0,0.16528183815956024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,telllmeimnotxrazy,2020/01/22,"could i please get some help im doing something crazy that is harmful to me but i cant stop because i want to know what's at teh end. i keep saying that this is crazy and anyone i ever told it to would call me crazzy but i cant stop

i hear things when i do specifc things

ivce never had something like this happen",1.248695652173911,2.7597665507246423,2.4051449275362344,98.30163043478264,79.14492753623188,4.6000000000000005,18.746376811594203,3.1291,-0.808431884057971,248,5,59,0,6,79,48,69,0.133,0.743,0.124,-0.1615,0,0,2,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,9,0,0,0,2,13,16,4,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,8,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,2,10,1,4,12,1,7,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,7,38,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15426262564879487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13448789728577756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252776750802314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761471088275042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19540382635364373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995634103560043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152648382514902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19509352724633167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24865476124307195,0.0,0.14787692784034032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383074461900085,0.0,0.0,0.1960971826795629,0.0,0.0,0.12124697598366635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10778378244856067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17015573594342506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421744964642525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17544586991516198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33968809137208944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3688963782365887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931402344675046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2108118535001067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13012738530043108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15672210995336405,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,aliisinwonderland21,2020/01/22,"I think I'm schizophrenic. I already posted this on another r/ but I'd really like to know other points views.

I've never done this before so it's a bit weird to even talk about this. I'm not working rn so I figured it would be a good time for this.

I see and hear thinks that no one else does. I don't think my friends believe me, I haven't told my family. And I'm on meds for depression, anxiety and dissociation/depersonalization/derealization. 

I have drawings of some of my ""characters"" (that's how I call them) and I tend to write everything I feel, hear and see.",0.8625985221674881,3.286019077586212,3.3069458128078817,86.11120689655175,86.67241379310344,7.107389162561578,21.216748768472904,8.192908349453996,1.3162334975369463,447,15,96,11,14,154,76,116,0.14400000000000002,0.787,0.069,-0.7985,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,1,5,5,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,1,1,18,20,9,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,1,1,2,0,0,9,5,0,0,6,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,2,6,15,3,10,16,2,6,0,1,3,0,8,3,0,1,3,57,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19102560778458375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815156247573756,0.13242480665492048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147299555675912,0.19502999115571176,0.0,0.0,0.1889857626401687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17675949985318493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14909503270452718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15148530108790553,0.17714645619607805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14460696651870694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11433418145607188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555755598034641,0.0,0.16318793316770475,0.0,0.08752705978701246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13374044861615833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14519221225923104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3902037005467605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09513394891860127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08457033068681519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19228056660520187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13350920268419314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11730038854325475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16364012244681175,0.0,0.16578668360254975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108954583115422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27588445325734473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13913519510650796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3327559710700119,0.0,0.0,0.1009388836267236,0.0,0.0,0.16540919012294822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12602245928791778,0.0,0.0,0.12296878401921775,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Zam-Boney,2020/01/22,"Been hanging on.losing my shit! I’m the Only one left for many. Mom losing home. BS psych changed meds, ignorantly. At point I’m ready after ONE MORE THING:cut a razor blade smile. many counting Psycho to be a ROCK, shits sideways Hard! I used to to be a person! have helped many...can’t help MYSELF! (NSFW) I’ve been hanging on for seeming ages and I’m losing my shit! I’m the Only one left for my mother. I’m the Only one left for my special needs friend in complex. I’m the Only one...for a LOT of people. Been coping for over a year as such. Even online. Got a Hungarian spammer? Who else CAN do it. I warned him, I begged him and Said “I’m trying to help You!” I had to submit to failure (normal peeps would say: “he didn’t listen and it’s his fault.” But I HAD to Try! Now my mother is losing her home a week after I flew up to help her (my payee, she’s Never been remiss on that). Now my bff who’s gotten Way too close (probs my fault) needed an instant go fund me website. And my Aunt who’s been aiding me financially I’m dodging until I find out info on a damned tailored vest. Yeah. Sounds like a first world prob but You don’t know Her. I Can Not subsist without her and Can’t lose her extra money OR let Anyone know I have -Anything beyond my SSI which I’m SURE peeps can relate is often unlivable. My BS psych cut and changed meds without notice while I was up with mom and fam. Just take my word: socials admit he’s senile. Socials agree he’s no business giving out meds. I’ll give examples galore if you wish but I think you understand. I’m at the point I’m almost ready after ONE MORE THING to cut a razor blade smile. When so many friends and all family are counting on the family Psycho to be a ROCK, something’s gone sideways Real hard! But no one else is There to do it! No one else wants to or is willing!? I used to be a person. I’ve got degrees in not just fine arts but Oh how life loves irony! Psychology: focus Abnormal: specialty Schizophrenia. I can and have helped So many...but I can’t help MYSELF!",-0.2642493946731257,2.022330642857142,1.8800807102502048,94.2624334140436,93.76190476190477,3.895076674737692,16.404358353510894,5.595793972211058,-0.5584769975786927,1570,39,332,11,59,523,208,420,0.11199999999999999,0.7559999999999999,0.132,0.9469,0,0,1,0,0,0,66.0,0,4,0,5,14,20,6,0,19,1,33,5,3,3,3,54,68,24,0,7,14,5,2,1,2,2,1,4,2,2,9,13,0,1,9,3,2,5,12,13,0,8,15,6,43,7,41,46,5,40,0,4,0,1,43,21,4,7,14,195,52,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07122318723501184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04973349228595579,0.0,0.058531272401745375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504853859640893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17825187194687786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04697856164355295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134103979757768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06500858041533307,0.0605003953486976,0.0,0.0,0.10990473416673864,0.0,0.0,0.13646256038136392,0.040422983257598584,0.0,0.11377315315582155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12743123276007334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28604865316225203,0.0,0.14269190191054873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07817882678215968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23183833545620905,0.07273194265973151,0.0502389420510409,0.034748947714403865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31829065432925085,0.0,0.06046943745788575,0.06419468808983217,0.0,0.0,0.21633414698739448,0.0,0.0,0.23701742565735714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1666056298553056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547919937778123,0.05485735086747223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06968913424901729,0.0,0.0809783005715926,0.0,0.0,0.3855787281677772,0.21638045873225228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04931034753679072,0.12421030645633795,0.0,0.0,0.13447557820107767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08095783739280406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06765784739098145,0.056562863372322476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06475114127398493,0.0,0.0,0.21903182591893544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450095723081172,0.0,0.054756863500906035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06703614021726638,0.0,0.05347848019587725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09450693276013744,0.04557516308797811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965808176832367,0.0,0.0,0.07404547736325298,0.0,0.12286138707016984,0.0,0.0,0.04195241255496642,0.056457120394222425,0.05705360565128409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08179227680349177,0.13712733877326244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05052641761815648,0.0,0.0,0.04580330874654868
schizophrenia,SuicideNote4U,2020/01/22,"Goodbye I have a plan in place and I am sticking to it. I hate that  I won’t have done anything meaningful in my life, but I probably wouldn’t have anyway. I just cant feel happiness or really anything anymore. 

It’s not like I’m not afraid of death - I am, it’s just that I am more afraid of going on like I am now; never ending emotional agony ripping me apart from the inside day in and day out. I can’t fucking do it anymore.",0.7292632850241567,2.587292336956524,3.1466666666666683,90.70944444444444,82.15217391304347,6.262801932367151,23.265700483091784,7.3871296695380915,0.9473077294685988,333,12,74,5,9,115,58,92,0.15,0.7490000000000001,0.10099999999999999,-0.5212,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,4,7,2,2,2,0,13,2,0,0,1,13,18,4,1,1,6,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,7,4,0,0,1,1,12,3,9,15,1,13,0,0,0,1,0,7,1,1,7,54,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4473599258682157,0.0,0.0,0.3712085162876736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.290915639501981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308107689614056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25370768658264475,0.19976586100538046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11404229250857875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2085126516356451,0.0,0.0,0.12818238031783488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400967699415405,0.0,0.22267892177710952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593090528651586,0.2203797182997368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17395415294593408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356464450620257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431755798805949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444898563417112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,cheeseandhamomlet,2020/01/22,"I'm starting to believe that the people around me can read my thoughts. 

I am considering this. I think a few people around me might be able to read my mind but they keep it a secret.

Sometimes I test it, and it follows through in the affirmative. For example, I will think of something totally random to myself. Like how I haven't had a good chicken salad sandwich for a long time. Then, in the next few minutes, they will say out of nowhere ""Hey, do you know what I could go for? A nice chicken salad sandwich.""

Or, say I'm around one of the suspected mind readers and I'm thinking about that article on quantum physics and black holes I read earlier. They might start a conversation about a topic VERY closely related, or mention a snippet about black holes.

This happens multiple times per week, on the most insignificant topics. If I am thinking of something, the readers will suggest conversation approximately 3 out of 10 times.

How can this be? It can't be coincidental. The topics they zoom in on were JUST in my head and completely randomized. Could they really just be picking this content with such accuracy without some secret help? And it's consistent. It's impossible.

The answer, may be, that they're really able to read my thoughts but they conspire to make it unknown so that they can have a weapon.

It's not like conversation drifts into an area that I was thinking about. One minute I have a thought, the next... BAM... they're talking about exactly what I was thinking. Full cold start. Is this their way of giving me clues without coming right out and saying it? A warning? It seems like just being in the same room with them is close enough, although I can't be certain of the distance.

I can't normally tell someone about this or perhaps question the offenders about their ability.

You know the kind of reaction I'll get. I will continue to deliberately test this and start keeping stats. It's the only way to know for sure.",3.6938173302107735,6.206558967213116,4.4150616705698695,82.03411475409838,75.44808743169398,7.3522560499609675,29.856049960967994,8.329178653251315,2.4120954879000784,1546,71,281,29,35,494,180,366,0.083,0.872,0.045,-0.9117,0,0,2,0,0,0,50.0,0,2,10,0,17,10,2,0,26,0,34,5,1,4,4,72,63,18,0,4,12,0,0,3,0,7,0,3,1,0,25,19,4,2,18,4,0,4,7,2,0,2,7,6,34,8,46,40,8,40,0,0,2,0,28,21,0,13,16,198,59,6,0.18054238787171487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24108150362226466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017047230055251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07776064041797195,0.09464762936041006,0.0,0.0,0.14414840584775726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09327427434693153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047162973025355576,0.08659635482359287,0.0513031998142284,0.07571519458560994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07982651867228258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09264428821827077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060506878460103636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604743697620185,0.0,0.09400355717860977,0.14883206217442452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13230583674878507,0.0,0.0,0.07988716596442308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060256722919493626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915269426549143,0.18229634490099889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19200887771030264,0.0,0.08844660366787385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12234019449559727,0.06865531076400955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12516535934360956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10112439674142136,0.0,0.36118249041184425,0.0,0.11566007672267532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07709110638779837,0.0,0.2153618299146449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08217950461026731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07648648968075539,0.13899035068666524,0.08928051903101515,0.0,0.25557766276434096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08507953196884759,0.0,0.0,0.07255656627359007,0.07890100236387228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34705281649825825,0.0,0.21499573378457915,0.15791357737713055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07448318896130718,0.0,0.14330614393613714,0.07241010670086563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17403641923819768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,StudyentKhazain,2020/01/22,"I think created a tulpa when I was 14 and she wont stop yelling at me until I come with her When i was in secondary school many years ago i started  in school daydreaming about being in the pokemon world, and for hours on end (sometimes at school,just put my head down). Eventually Dawn convinced me that I needed to burn down my school and kill the classmates that were going to destroy me eventually so I can get out of this world because it isnt real. I tried but I brought the wrong can, the fire didnt catch and I just escaped the building and played it off like it was only ciggerate smoke that was in the bathroom (Im surprised they believed that considering I didnt smoke at that age). After that I stopped visiting her in her world (she calls it the real world and sometimes i believe her)  but we still talked to eachother after that. 

In primary school she got more audatious and told me a specific plan to kill a lot of children so they could come with us. I argued with her  because I wanted to live a life here because I can feel sensations better here, than I can in the Pokemon world. a lot and I ended up making a promise that id only do if one of the girls from high school ruined my adult life. it almost happened but didnt so I defeated Dawn. but she still keeps yelling at me to kill them, and she wont shut up no matter how hard I punch her or my ears. Eventually when I got seen by a psychologist they told me not to say anything about her or the other people living in my head, and I somehow got diagnosed with ""unspecified"" schizophrenia and a psychotic disorder. When shes not like that shes much nicer and we'd play chess and talk about life. We're actually really good friends.

The problem here is that I cant get rid of her or the other people in my head. They keep arguing and screaming like children, and I break down. Sometimes I get really excited about want Dawn wants for me and imagine myself doing it so I get l locked into torture daydreams and its making it hard to do my job. Due to my current, very specific situation I cant get any counseling, because they are watching me. This is not a delusion - I am actually under surviellance. Posting this is probably going to get me killed, but I cant take this anymore. I dont want to kill Children right now. I will never kill children, she and another person Im not naming keep telling me to do it. I dont want to live in a Pokemon world. No matter what I do Dawn always follows me, shes acts like she loves me but shes ruining my life. 

What am I supposed to do? I cant see anyone about this or I can say bye-bye for EVERYTHING IVE WORKED FOR. Even this post is extemely dangerous, but at this point Im willing to take the chance. I can hardly take a shower without breaking down. Im supposed to be studying but Im looking up autopsy photos of murdered children.",3.8047163561076616,4.99502162608696,4.996937888198758,83.62125362318841,71.86956521739131,7.841407867494823,29.342650103519677,8.269060116576782,2.029178053830228,2245,90,450,34,42,743,244,575,0.151,0.733,0.11599999999999999,-0.9869,3,0,2,0,2,0,50.0,3,0,6,4,23,32,12,0,24,0,47,10,4,3,1,75,86,41,7,9,19,0,5,4,1,4,5,6,1,8,30,27,0,5,3,3,0,10,20,18,0,1,15,15,88,14,68,63,4,73,0,3,4,1,50,37,0,9,26,312,118,7,0.0,0.0,0.11476704483251815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05212556301358223,0.0,0.05888299450954732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048929042671848014,0.0,0.0,0.03998824936701425,0.06166037011297022,0.0,0.0,0.058317056517439236,0.04111662320799623,0.0,0.04839009212121535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14338374380646915,0.0,0.0,0.13250232814794474,0.0,0.052006725835130885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06004472725970121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10130764421920427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046949637168288254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059684095156841414,0.0,0.0,0.06739365759861847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13783402110649728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10416451123910013,0.0,0.0,0.03883901429735418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0528485997325932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0297327070800717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04543127111933054,0.0,0.1843337323055934,0.0,0.06683852249865703,0.04932140446527231,0.14109107327300752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05199954957572727,0.0,0.1580285761615214,0.0,0.18104740147411655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06212889775412508,0.0,0.0,0.057909389425739005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3175881854546589,0.0,0.05835318557744853,0.15680118120266506,0.3903427259013053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661379931901002,0.1149132565903458,0.0,0.15577313050152558,0.0,0.04937994832317152,0.0,0.0,0.09998489795406892,0.0530722593733847,0.0,0.07850329697043458,0.059617300132207576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04322717951257524,0.04360188977038768,0.0453527174974528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03984662687655712,0.08944509406370169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08153358578834836,0.05134475917908929,0.0,0.0,0.05558810999818451,0.0,0.11263458211268652,0.0,0.06339988548610083,0.05626680094466634,0.0,0.05911354169517179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338620210571517,0.07534177856564167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0502176829847384,0.0,0.0935254627796126,0.0,0.3570723747757449,0.04685860382267474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06609735464062466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1744738535282733,0.0,0.041621266862215636,0.0,0.09392075664539942,0.0983243564211094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13263825355198955,0.0945277040196949,0.051396661814081264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03767876982289745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11237811507081533,0.0,0.039923569683876926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707331100346198,0.0,0.0,0.04851886743116324,0.173418501336178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05668426708742968,0.0,0.0428094908778589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06429215963262169,0.0,0.03786738676188195
schizophrenia,diamondfound,2020/01/22,"Did your parents smoke pot? This question is really for those who believe they have schizophrenia or biological siblings of those who have schizophrenia.
How much did your parents smoke?  Did you smoke pot?  If so, how early?",4.680526315789475,8.15805863157895,3.521368421052632,83.35257894736844,81.10526315789474,5.145263157894737,28.65263157894737,6.742157984588678,1.7351936842105262,180,8,28,2,5,52,26,38,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,2,0,3,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,2,0,5,6,5,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,0,2,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,9,0,0,3,1,23,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3885752694638241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535353629183844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7659236802162404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3863580623589111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22094669819944654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lonesomememer,2020/01/22,"does anyone else see small animals before bed? ok so this hasnt happened for aobut a week or two but i see small animals before i sleep on my blanket and it horrifies me, but naturally i've learned to get used to it. i have a small ripped up blanket that i've had since i was 2, and all the tears in it i hallucinated as animals like tigers, or octopuses, but very small. does anyone else have hallucinations like this, or at least hallucinations before bed?",3.995571428571431,5.613362144444443,5.682063492063495,77.225,72.0,9.142857142857146,27.301587301587304,9.606745405546679,2.430825396825397,363,13,73,9,7,124,57,90,0.084,0.823,0.09300000000000001,-0.2406,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,1,5,1,1,1,1,11,10,10,0,0,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,7,3,8,8,2,9,0,0,2,0,0,8,0,3,3,41,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26529661701546353,0.38875671680804347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4842828396090677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33202965857908273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3169535352707333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991146478946044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677582387904542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18536358195947267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023455746678597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15692849367587816,0.0,0.18984509641216368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185317239729024,0.0,0.0,0.1638468809114169,0.0,0.15652904332384568,0.0,0.0,0.15217238798344232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,benisdelivery,2020/01/22,I am very scared to develop schizophrenia Over the past couple of weeks I have been paranoid that I will develop schizophrenia. There is history of schizophrenia in my family and I think I heard voices today. Can someone tell me if this is normal? What should I do?,3.127414965986393,6.135616061224487,3.4888775510204084,84.5948129251701,82.26530612244899,6.531972789115647,24.493197278911573,7.793537801064563,1.7851605442176868,213,8,36,4,6,66,39,49,0.11900000000000001,0.8809999999999999,0.0,-0.6759999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,9,0,0,0,0,5,11,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,8,0,5,7,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,29,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36675919492049824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124752567672461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32476486018808665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31642039731738314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33185381629891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808488183528821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897146067657348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21238908515390512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141896147668901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27349294881028924,0.0,0.0,0.2658808501818458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Venestual,2020/01/22,"I suspect my dad has schizophrenia, and is abusing my mom Hi, I’ve never posted here before but I felt like this was the appropriate place to go to talk about this and share this story... 

For 5 years now my dad has been saying that my mother is cheating on him. But I know in my heart that it’s not true and that everyone else around her also is on her side. She basically raised me and I would bet my life on her that she’s innocent. 

My dad says that there’s this rich man who is running this criminal organization, and puts tracking devices on my dads trucks. 

Right now he has this anti spy detector thing. It reads Radio frequency and he uses it all the time. He blocked his radios, and put copper over the TV speakers because he says they can hear him from the TV. 

This has been going on for awhile but this is getting worse. To make meters worse he also drinks heavily and gets aggressive. 

He owns his own business but drove it to the ground because of this and my brother and I really dislike him now because of everything he’s done. 

We rent our house right now to this international school called EF or “Education First” to girls from other countries and stay here for a limited amount of time. He told those girls that my mom is a terrible person and that their lives are in danger. 

Also, to add on the RF signals stuff, he also says that the frequencies that the hackers are emitting are deadly. He says they’re slowly killing us and that there’s men who are hired by this rich hacker guy who pass by our house and point their phones to the house to emit those signals that are “deadly”. 

He’s reported this to the police but nothing has happened at all this whole time. 

He has no proof to this day now and I know my brother is debunking a lot of stuff he says because he’s an engineer and works with this stuff all the time at his job. 

If someone has any advice or something for me on where to go please tell me. He does NOT want help as of now, and this problems seems to be getting worse. The reason why my mom has NOT left is because we would be homeless and have nowhere left to go.",5.8806225139220345,5.701102880668259,5.947628281622915,83.51622364757363,66.73269689737471,8.89264120922832,29.868834526650755,8.344100000000001,1.9082338106603016,1653,52,342,20,24,523,205,419,0.149,0.8,0.051,-0.9927,2,0,2,0,0,0,29.0,5,0,3,3,17,11,4,0,16,0,31,3,1,3,6,56,49,31,3,5,11,10,1,1,0,2,1,8,1,6,41,23,1,2,6,6,4,9,5,6,0,1,7,9,40,5,43,38,8,48,0,0,0,0,68,23,0,6,15,225,81,6,0.0,0.0935166233898789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07712740423825874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524743668076142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05367366034486628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07026254085080713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405684946785897,0.0,0.06716180680163394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059418322763076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05090194868986638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907031374444958,0.08077061748110018,0.0,0.0773192676050028,0.0,0.0,0.06593411027571733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07541896524585973,0.07093528315567753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07578313583904618,0.0,0.0,0.06713600864457109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12370966839615187,0.0,0.17942611698850075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07815100351496249,0.06979565762926054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08895744942728896,0.09352990979411227,0.052903689694324935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732165059264405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07832373540484343,0.0,0.0873219975857799,0.0,0.08675338996412832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715107303968616,0.0,0.05574909103309514,0.038560172056696936,0.0,0.0696947580830434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06710165532814756,0.0,0.0,0.05268496826243889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27731811358586755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06087404157989799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07573342305557147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689167745097805,0.08246282857828252,0.08663910320518006,0.07461235194048693,0.0,0.07559108486991112,0.0,0.0,0.07552331523388507,0.0,0.15868862523128974,0.0,0.0,0.07894923222807985,0.0,0.05056321665141598,0.0811509990936707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13480794495857026,0.0,0.3765996763266787,0.0,0.07987922146139839,0.0,0.0718529714601225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06687533085262284,0.060762532875342015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412661116979102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710605945420251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06343923476327944,0.06898644008518477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052436171848033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1840939103937633,0.0,0.0,0.07541896524585973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09494051335655418,0.06816834085865592,0.0,0.0,0.046553704578584536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07122012913989896,0.08812015177847961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05746043173398398,0.0,0.2413027374383402,0.11213619317496858,0.0,0.0,0.050826962604707135
schizophrenia,Psalm2424,2020/01/22,Death and hell Did God tell any of you that you're going to hell?,-1.6660000000000004,0.2457187333333373,-0.07833333333333138,108.9825,95.0,3.0,7.5,3.1291,-2.673,51,0,14,0,2,16,13,15,0.52,0.397,0.083,-0.9186,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5463240646864933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4565777930657182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7021871084146065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Armageddon_vives,2020/01/22,"Just got diagnosed So I was diagnosed with schizophrenia less than a week ago and I should be starting anti psychotics as soon as I can pick them up. I also have OCD and I can't stop thinking about it and obsessing over what I could've done differently in my life to prevent this, I know that's not how mental illnesses work but going into my appointment I expected to walk out with another diagnosis just not something that can be this serious or intense. I just feel really lost Armando this honestly didn't help.",5.480519480519483,6.873811222222222,6.493391053391052,73.69818181818184,68.0909090909091,10.909668109668116,33.334776334776336,10.914260884657429,4.0755443001443,417,19,74,13,7,139,75,99,0.11699999999999999,0.782,0.102,-0.3466,1,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,2,8,4,0,1,1,0,10,4,0,2,0,23,17,10,0,2,7,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,7,7,0,2,3,0,0,2,4,3,0,0,5,1,12,1,13,9,1,12,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,1,5,58,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20960867046936893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18909801191876352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24795028490457136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18879510276560293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4800064732435811,0.0,0.24705172471205095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24198200205829914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11956193545353368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13438640301525345,0.0,0.1891196985002376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584950214290399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12995294355510098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670196054187078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25812543595313503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382973687401728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15148316030492365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18203945709278496,0.0,0.0,0.167368521429046,0.0,0.0,0.1976922303823836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15151484973775736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896749874611381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721466387622604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,sqyd234,2020/01/22,"Antidepressants Antidepressants are really working for me.  Ive been on them only 2 weeks but they started working quickly.  I have energy again,  that nagging feeling of not wanting to do anything is gone, im interested in stuff,  and most importantly I have motivation back.  

Since starting antidepressants ive started to exercise, take vitamins,  mediating, reading, and learning how to code.  

I am back to functioning at my previous levels.  I really wish I tried antidepressants sooner.

There is hope!  Dont give up keep trying.",6.006017478152309,9.285164033707872,7.226217228464421,60.86744069912609,71.58426966292134,10.69712858926342,36.85518102372035,10.504223727775694,5.406175031210986,425,24,58,15,9,143,67,89,0.036000000000000004,0.728,0.23600000000000002,0.9608,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,2,3,6,3,1,0,0,0,11,2,0,2,0,13,22,4,0,3,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,2,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,1,11,2,10,20,1,14,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,2,8,43,13,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1642479176000586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069491788531085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339213457630437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10092014725413677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19146765868311205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19824074567489156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21559453941373827,0.0,0.0,0.17740730495858345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15179936424489066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996468729468114,0.0,0.25572859433069783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16510527656281107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4238185614239465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22848607285198005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500689912957861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710209010270809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11772504026832525,0.0,0.1601013532642579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295219391188308,0.0,0.0,0.2906119588528046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,dynamosrose,2020/01/22,"Sometimes when I'm alone, I feel like I'm not alone. Other times, when I'm alone, I feel really, really alone. It's like the loneliness that comes with being alone manifests as its own kind of company. And that is company I don't want around me.",3.0005999999999986,4.52843846,4.625,84.1675,74.4,9.8,22.5,10.125756701596842,2.1526,193,5,41,6,4,65,33,50,0.27,0.634,0.096,-0.7203,0,5,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,10,4,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,3,4,9,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,22,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8724491847497812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14997893837875442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14512674911567666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703725776745087,0.12035895052320665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17544133619928673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646172654372229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158594739833469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16662660462524845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09823943494114687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09937123118162987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lightlysaltlylao,2020/01/23,An interesting title Has anyone else been caught up in a fantasy like thing before. As in you start daydreaming almost but you cant tell where it stopped being a dream.,3.9208333333333294,6.4147552500000025,4.795000000000002,79.68333333333338,74.625,8.016666666666666,23.166666666666664,8.841846274778883,1.8912791666666664,136,4,24,3,3,44,29,32,0.07,0.747,0.182,0.4118,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,2,4,3,0,7,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,3,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895602372734564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720208377003185,0.3986101630598084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33103833034470753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3249870546649182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19006181613242493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275359477375724,0.0,0.0,0.32524891045543514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34003188761248715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584561613940781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,barnito_supreme_,2020/01/23,"Do you ever feel like you haven't accomplished anything? I have an advanced degree but decided to go back to school to be an Electrical Engineer but I've never been able to establish an actual career. I'm an older student and besides school, I have no real accomplishments. Can any of you relate?",4.271607142857143,6.651838660714287,6.056571428571428,71.5884285714286,73.10714285714286,9.48,29.057142857142853,9.888512548439397,3.5135328571428577,239,10,38,7,5,82,41,56,0.08800000000000001,0.853,0.059000000000000004,-0.3845,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,3,2,1,0,0,4,0,7,0,0,0,2,8,10,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,5,8,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,28,5,6,0.2909077412241816,0.0,0.2838839914886316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19782723968395266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.239392284081552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22369009633817188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631427067197689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14709169476256267,0.2078245484566705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653295733092297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142122828044543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22436598392546955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3311166973227856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5888283298838974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,DougTheNerd,2020/01/23,"I don’t feel schizophrenic? I decided it was time for me to finally go to a psychiatrist, and they think I may be schizophrenic or schizoaffective, but the problem is I don’t think I am. I don’t want to start taking new medicine. I can deal with the stuff I experience and I feel like I am fine without it.",2.887619047619048,4.3437625238095245,4.682730158730159,83.93171428571429,74.55555555555556,9.484444444444444,28.473015873015875,9.888512548439397,2.6894977777777767,241,10,53,7,5,82,41,63,0.064,0.812,0.124,0.3291,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,10,2,0,0,0,14,18,4,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,5,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,2,12,2,6,15,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,5,38,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28817210926682696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27342349635383395,0.0,0.0,0.2826666983024568,0.1996886331117235,0.0,0.3061997140103903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15885725123539854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13655900362562004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26996146732514603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674622059175117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19784518865746653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3199827070135217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101637157758962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3582093427703786,0.0,0.0,0.16298994296467592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16486771643512058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26944661614814064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,haikyez,2020/01/23,"How long can you concentrate? I can go 30 minutes to two hours depending on how much I enjoy the topic. Or have the need to get it done.

I feel drained after 30 minutes and have to stop and rest my brain for several hours.",2.0336956521739147,3.739741717391308,3.5167391304347824,90.33206521739132,77.47826086956522,7.208695652173913,24.54347826086957,8.07648339933343,1.3001913043478268,173,6,38,3,4,57,34,46,0.098,0.835,0.067,-0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,5,1,1,3,0,9,9,5,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,5,1,6,8,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,5,27,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32460250322113365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29756509828911354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14702522820807126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15191860928151785,0.0,0.16525486557599478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5727121430807042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25732786493829096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137540290398714,0.2156069333522307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32849443958504226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24310199710867506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840461822097192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,alr123321,2020/01/23,"Any experience travelling internationally? So I just started dating someone from that travels a lot between the US and germany (they are german) and ultimately I would like to travel with them but I fear that going overseas could be a real bad idea with schizophrenia. I haven't been on a plane since my first psychotic break, but I used to travel to south america all the time. I know about getting things like travellers insurance but I don't know how to handle being in another specifically dealing with speaking another language while paranoid. I've been out of the hospital for two years and go to school full time while working part time for reference on how I'm doing, however sometimes I do have to take a day off after a night where the voices wake me up.",7.943450704225353,8.122081056338029,7.9522183098591555,69.66382042253524,62.38028169014085,10.761971830985916,37.46830985915493,10.411451182825502,4.049842253521128,618,28,103,13,8,200,100,142,0.085,0.879,0.037000000000000005,-0.8201,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,2,2,6,4,0,1,9,0,12,1,1,3,1,23,21,11,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,7,0,0,4,5,0,7,2,2,0,2,2,2,13,2,22,15,4,29,0,0,0,0,5,9,0,1,14,78,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11972273044402908,0.3692158565062682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469977034307869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14056476200182394,0.0,0.0,0.11354024009013867,0.1815039030092664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17221455570049382,0.0,0.19810965173596284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497514090598215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09198092812221956,0.0,0.20011104609607394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19874349230253946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19350930521686505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17202214476735858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496747816635231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16521471592283235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19064928313747595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20038795042798516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17817600733124975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14563365560737584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14916994960992302,0.0,0.1741218688501953,0.0,0.12461189954953272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13237066828329047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11696242863524575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30797544087052164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719791379922908,0.0,0.21177123780587573,0.15205409590102906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12816938020407034,0.0,0.0,0.12506368246776767,0.0,0.0,0.11337297855435205
schizophrenia,cured_by_christ,2020/01/23,"Despite my username, I'm no longer a Christian, but damn, this bible verse gave me a whole different perspective of my disease  [http://web.mit.edu/jywang/www/cef/Bible/NIV/NIV\_Bible/2COR+12.html](http://web.mit.edu/jywang/www/cef/Bible/NIV/NIV_Bible/2COR+12.html) 

To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me.

Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me.

But he said to me, ""My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."" Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me.

That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.",11.26204545454545,12.91889065909091,7.740454545454551,68.95568181818183,55.287878787878796,10.539393939393939,36.196969696969695,10.411451182825502,3.842133333333333,685,26,101,13,8,189,88,132,0.14,0.6829999999999999,0.177,0.867,3,0,0,0,0,0,57.0,0,1,0,4,4,11,2,0,6,0,8,5,1,2,2,9,15,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,5,1,19,5,24,8,4,12,5,0,0,0,5,9,1,1,3,74,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29221704770920864,0.0,0.0,0.18959718878675125,0.3435012916405585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32495361661415445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429047780533947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764521961856783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942981887718094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958548062345712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338511496624945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18136044752062447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2806505541799025,0.3472469051897947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,CantMeltDankMemes,2020/01/23,"Exercise Does anyone else feel nothing from exercise? I am constantly told by people, even in the psychology field, that exercise will help me so much and it's the best anti depressant. They always say once I start I won't be able to stop. I have been trying various exercises for months and I struggle to keep at it and feel nothing but pain once I'm done. I still do it because risperdal made me gain a lot of weight and it helps me lose that but I don't feel it's been helping me mentally at all like people claim. Anyone have any experiences with this issue?",4.41,5.605222857142858,5.4628571428571435,80.83214285714288,70.42857142857143,9.171428571428573,28.285714285714285,9.516144504307137,2.4478535714285714,448,16,89,10,8,148,77,112,0.086,0.727,0.187,0.9344,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,3,3,6,0,1,3,0,11,6,0,1,1,15,19,7,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,2,5,1,0,0,8,5,1,2,3,4,0,0,2,4,0,0,5,5,12,2,10,11,5,8,0,2,0,0,6,3,0,1,6,58,20,0,0.15133069470216284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12591926084139468,0.0,0.0,0.10291006174811032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21162788069932514,0.15505618015648975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09224978688971244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15881222772800113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16353471975881895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303409055999337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13243051073341824,0.1548638415752848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12641737709304146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09995249661700537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14803045750235874,0.0,0.0,0.2295520386600848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30430132423416395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15794992832024773,0.0,0.13450967467669478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07393253342282978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16930033847915188,0.0,0.1286559449989247,0.0,0.14319276235030812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525057469005252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12079071673222315,0.0,0.11124547293898997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904117659562627,0.0,0.0,0.32232450191643264,0.0,0.0,0.16102652877039952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20982729879005635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12034424239649033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10711264460500193,0.0,0.12085288827097472,0.12651923691095915,0.0,0.15820369951917784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446029639223657,0.0,0.10274360809507793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18428001742071706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,pebucup,2020/01/23,"Is this something to be concerned about?(long) I'm worried that my mental state might start collapsing.
For context, in the beggining of last summer i became severely depressed and I believed I was too terrible to live, a monster(for no good reason).
I had constant thoughts from wake to sleep that criticised me, bullied me and broke me down, responding would only make things worse. I would cry every day. 
I would sleep at 5am or later, because at some point i was too scared to sleep due to terrifying panic attack inducing sleep paralysis. 
Every day i felt that i was loosing my mind, had mood swings and didn't talk to anyone.

Now, im better. But i didnt mention that i daydream a lot, as in acting out my daydreams as if people are there, even though i know they are not. It used to be fun and interesting, but during my depression they took up a whole personality of their own, i lost control and the thoughts that used to be my fabrication of what they(the personalities i created to avoid loneliness and escape) should say turned into uncontrollable and harsh criticism. So when i had my summer depression and this happened i felt at fault because i was creating these thoughts, i felt like i let it go on for too long. 

Now im so much better im not depressed anymore, im able to socialize, i go out, ive learned ways to let my emotions free and criticise myself less, i eat better, clean, bathe etc, but still, 3 times in a span of months i almost believed that a person i went out with was watching me from my phone camera(one was last week, i managed to shake off the thought yesterday). 

Also, i used to be a hypochondriac and it seems to be coming back somewhat. I will sit on my bedroom floor with a mirror disgusted by my face, and pick on every spot and think that my teeth might fall out. One morning months ago i woke up, got on reddit, saw something about a rare virus, made some random calculations in my brain and, having been convinced that i had it, started researching, crying, saying i dont want to die and almost called my mom to take me to the doctor. It stopped when, (ironically) ,i told my self, through the imaginary person fabrication ""sitting on the chair"", that i need to calm down. Also sometimes i have to take a good look around me to make sure im not being watched, but i feel a prescence. 
I dont want to lose myself, im worried that if i dont get help something bad will happen, my brain will betray me. But it's also very classic of me to think im sick from something, anything. 
A psychiatrist i used to go to thought i was in the prodrome stage because of disorganised speech mostly. 
Also my life is pretty ok right now, i just want to make sure im not letting something serious develop until it's ""late"". 
And the last unexplainable part is that ive been getting this for years,rarely but more often now: Randomly for 1 second or two nothing makes sense, i feel like evil is in my head, but only for those seconds. Once i was trying to order food online and a ""crepe oreo"", as i read those two words i got that odd feeling and i thought someone evil wrote that. I know it sounds funny, ive told this to a friend he didnt take it seriously, lasted some seconds, but it worried me, it was strange. 
That's all.
I laughed again at the crepe oreo, my externalised imaginary self on the chair said ""why are you laughing? ""
I said: ""sorry."" And got out of the covers.
They said: ""oh i thought you were laughing alone, you have your phone.""
I said""Oh, you expect a lot of me"" sarcastically, because that was mean.

All this out loud(from me) but with no hallucination vocal or visual from externalised imaginary disguised me, sorry if it's creepy i just thought it might help understamd what i meant. I just dont know if i should get help, ive gone to a bunch of doctors already for nothing last year.",6.081391777804968,6.251351434724093,6.36903309678209,79.47622919980427,66.28129205921938,9.23099229169216,32.76792487458705,8.97023862654752,2.6403919246298795,3008,118,583,46,44,968,340,743,0.183,0.7040000000000001,0.11199999999999999,-0.9944,0,2,5,0,0,1,114.0,0,5,4,6,27,41,4,5,26,1,58,16,10,13,4,123,125,47,1,14,23,1,6,2,1,11,4,7,3,6,39,30,2,3,25,2,1,10,13,21,0,6,48,17,97,20,86,57,17,83,0,7,4,0,36,33,0,23,36,390,136,6,0.045767763152126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04057036056554962,0.0,0.09165960731432836,0.047401599790427636,0.0505058647258978,0.14640185462927108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04538932288208679,0.032001884149464165,0.0,0.03766296940804882,0.04074301253466045,0.0,0.052067437834358736,0.0,0.03519258478856417,0.0382141705112812,0.11159841446606704,0.0,0.0,0.10312919262543348,0.0,0.12143360169070007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218391997164324,0.046734003321007994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03942487540085255,0.0,0.04945869267171185,0.05133243808700152,0.0,0.0,0.1005474774680361,0.05903284192108876,0.0,0.15767882935506328,0.0,0.04749971235398432,0.0,0.0,0.09369048986475743,0.0,0.0,0.21455791021511206,0.0,0.0,0.04683184763922173,0.0,0.051482573373634,0.0,0.0,0.051043154076433526,0.030229175915924705,0.0,0.1156839432093146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06942466865139077,0.032696499140710295,0.1318326899092206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055342560873600524,0.0,0.035360060279487286,0.0,0.07173530175667144,0.0,0.07803262355360682,0.07677565659037636,0.109813983472462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0809445636101321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046970928994070335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203150069348398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39549630393507534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07545829709399478,0.18653417755479104,0.0516280303390421,0.0,0.0,0.14040191605161875,0.032327124627905185,0.0447196345142312,0.0,0.040413773367618616,0.08100606032423285,0.03843339414208849,0.05120242002680665,0.049960919957691946,0.07782023112247799,0.0,0.04330656411275896,0.12220134918619742,0.0,0.0,0.049854511352193966,0.0,0.0,0.046123140564566206,0.1456570922543045,0.04621239386096716,0.053602651052755565,0.07306278379619334,0.0,0.03364457202313476,0.03393621645608025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08783080621572614,0.0,0.0,0.048741174058812516,0.031013420790900824,0.06961689250317211,0.0,0.05369860884356553,0.0,0.04956202745779205,0.0,0.03172960427087902,0.1598505817580663,0.0,0.0,0.04326532962715701,0.0,0.0,0.04656226893357332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04578014855882522,0.0,0.0,0.04705688313057445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0390854196611063,0.17414249387990294,0.07279272448414774,0.04582151516611459,0.0,0.0,0.041665252656725424,0.09549151709183892,0.051704545086056417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183203264333274,0.04665447086327138,0.03877887719679123,0.17617130042553386,0.04526548803612615,0.10246652757369322,0.06478931664891788,0.0,0.03655019477391763,0.03826389933995153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08627115026330047,0.0,0.10323498606598927,0.03678639436962334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03040606816952985,0.05865226921320677,0.044966594921337914,0.2906759330722759,0.026687550748606303,0.0,0.0,0.08746611805251517,0.05084966887641264,0.031073306905417743,0.04978218376548113,0.08941690856707799,0.0,0.0,0.15811461028536486,0.0,0.037763197788414984,0.08098503752693542,0.03632832007613628,0.036712138931719464,0.0,0.0,0.042427174969618654,0.04129828752462068,0.0510980730982992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394381553032265,0.04664126070141132,0.09753631740598448,0.0,0.0,0.02947293891491134
schizophrenia,good_cop_tenpenny,2020/01/23,"I feel hunted. Lately I've felt watched. 
Around 1 1/2 years ago, I was in a relationship with this guy. And we were very close. When I had a psychotic episode, he left. And it devastated me. So much in fact that even his voice makes me have fits. But me and my family have moved ~500 miles north of our old city, in which he still resides. Lately, I've felt that during the dark hours of the day (nighttime and early morning), he has sent spies after me. People he has connected with online and through other people he knows, to watch me from afar. I went outside one night, and felt immediately the intuition to go back inside and hide. I felt as if multiple people with weapons were watching me. It's frightening. Mostly because I don't know if it's real or if it's just my brain. I've developed some bad nyctophobia because of it, and I want to believe it isn't real, but most of me says it is real. Anyone who has shared a similar experience or has met someone who has, what's the best way to handle this?",2.9081566686080365,4.675526094059407,4.2906523005241715,85.46451077460688,75.1881188118812,7.327198602213162,24.25859056493885,8.124751697461798,1.339749213744904,789,25,162,13,17,261,125,202,0.052000000000000005,0.8959999999999999,0.052000000000000005,0.4404,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,2,0,0,1,7,4,1,0,7,0,14,1,1,1,1,38,27,18,0,4,8,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,16,14,0,0,7,0,0,4,2,2,0,1,11,10,19,2,19,16,5,27,0,0,3,0,16,9,0,8,13,102,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11209979426903778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08842427277865418,0.0,0.0,0.11257684820564744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09724048442260297,0.1055894153455996,0.15417855705502342,0.0,0.0,0.14247792126180786,0.13271271912568275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14117198179589124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155669979539197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08352611004338023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12370284586778728,0.1192159080506858,0.0,0.0639423375795312,0.0,0.4856884750590262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718705390231812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12521599067281505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12453833139757985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13899900423548125,0.0,0.28530639111138284,0.0,0.13739993763195524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08441350971627727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13440772745052532,0.09296317679921848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11867481500481428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326992481497225,0.0,0.08569305379038808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26301581214123004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4318199407371655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13577148206490156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005666368896513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10714975403585464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10099169091754706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043433344937282,0.07458980660665451,0.1003786298644019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11723035041372915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08143655473624259
schizophrenia,QvxSphere,2020/01/23,"Can Anyone Remember Killing Yourself? I have the most vivid memory of the time I stood on top of a computer chair with one of my dad's shotguns. The chair slipped, I fell down and the gun misfired in my throat/face area. 

Anyone else have memories like this?",4.0368,5.82200568,4.153000000000001,87.55150000000002,72.2,8.200000000000001,28.5,8.841846274778883,2.1568000000000005,204,8,41,4,4,63,39,50,0.139,0.777,0.084,-0.594,0,0,0,2,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,1,5,1,7,3,1,7,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,1,2,24,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5194246246247186,0.3805736649981217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3102818892558325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4109319784737819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18146181067356065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516904063742734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.420757492650694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21658366996463346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,stormyroom66,2020/01/23,"have been a big smoker for years, smoking since teenage years, its caused schizophrenia as the title says im very big on smoking, im high as i write this right now cause im addicted and i can't stop, when i started i was fine when i used to get high but at a certain point i started becoming really really paranoid and started hearing voices when i smoked, sometimes it would stop when i got a higher tolerance so i kept doing it but eventually the voices just stay now even when im sober. it has progressed over many many years and i could go into detail but it would take long. eventually when i would smoke the voices would always come. and now theyre always here. i have no clue what to do the voices are killing me and my ability to function as a human. im desperate and hopeless marijuana is the only thing that can calm me down but i think its destroying me as well",2.642386363636362,4.6947648295454565,3.986363636363638,86.07454545454546,76.8409090909091,6.9,24.63636363636364,7.865858978985527,1.3782340909090909,694,24,138,11,16,228,103,176,0.133,0.7609999999999999,0.106,-0.873,0,0,3,0,0,1,10.0,0,0,0,1,14,7,2,0,9,0,16,1,0,3,1,27,28,21,1,5,5,0,0,0,0,4,1,6,0,1,10,8,0,3,1,0,0,2,2,3,1,0,4,6,17,4,13,19,0,32,0,1,0,0,4,11,0,0,18,90,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11929258019795637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18210558377465852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12085453549282145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22482522530649815,0.0,0.0942624599008776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08736928639581558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0722761062308851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05717156944326383,0.0,0.06219040621684144,0.0,0.08751950055543478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1233332138877372,0.0,0.0,0.2312332017340019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5910046339965598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210657755442312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09684026183220287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22188546210594892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08322486084334031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034447504934904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020464962225102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09345084203954984,0.0,0.08702147061971728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905199026016584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082270066174192,0.0,0.23236092570473224,0.11663559820850115,0.0,0.18297327463997007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0822761740776699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269904476379598,0.07011698982675574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945105847528233,0.0,0.09028949060882514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09838883791098887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109378064781257,0.0,0.0,0.21140396978155832
schizophrenia,cgarza53,2020/01/23,"Positive I have schizophrenia I need some where to talk about this becsuse I have been obsessing over it and spinning the past few days. I cannot shake this feeling that I have schizophrenia. Here is what I am experiencing and what I have experienced through out my life. 

I am paranoid about lots of things. People looking in my windows, people following me, that my neighbor is going to break in and rape me...those are just some of the major ones I have right now. 

I find myself thinking I see something in the corner of my eye. Or a person standing in my yard. Only to realize a spilt sec later that it's the light pole...

I have heard music playing but definitely no music was playing...

My thoughts are jumpy and unfocused a lot of times. I dissociate a lot and find myself thinking about something random. 

I literally ALWAYS have songs in my head and I absolutely hate it. It makes me avoid music at times. 

For years I always had this strong feeling I woild die young. It is honestly something k still believe. I never imagined myself old or anything...i always knew I would die before I got old...

I used to think if I made the same wish at 11.11 every day that my abusive bf would stop abusing me and we could be happy...

I've also always thought I was psychic and that my dreams were premonition of the future. 

I am also someone who is a little ""out there "" I've been told. When I'm alone or with my bf, because he makes me feel most comfortable, I tend to act childish...child like voice and behavior like jumping around with excitement for little things...just being very animated. I have always been this way..just able to hide it around most people for fear of being judged. 

I make up my own words. They all have meaning to me and some I can't really explain what they mean...but I know what they mean. If that makes any sense haha but I use them when I'm excited mostly. But I use these words on a daily basis, even when speaking to My bf. (No one else tho) My bf jist goes with it haha he's an angel. 

I also have major intrusive thoughts and two inner voices fighting the thoughts a lot. 
Sometimes the thoughts are so vivid... 

I could go on forever but I won't. 

What do you all think? I am quite certain I am schizophrenic and I'm currently waiting for insurance to get back to me about a therapist 

Thanks for listening",2.3023796192609183,4.7206114999999995,3.564882418812992,86.78470884658456,79.83333333333333,6.161552818215752,24.175811870100784,7.378060373470096,1.1963404815229572,1828,66,353,26,47,594,234,456,0.12300000000000001,0.748,0.129,0.23,1,2,4,0,2,0,67.0,1,1,4,2,22,21,3,4,17,2,40,5,2,8,4,86,84,29,2,8,10,0,3,2,5,3,2,6,3,1,25,20,0,3,21,5,0,6,6,7,0,3,17,16,64,14,44,59,17,49,1,0,4,1,22,21,0,16,22,248,89,0,0.0784269086702573,0.18584612462248926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08122662506426792,0.0,0.1881539115862293,0.3262873533115825,0.0,0.0,0.05333298726906747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13963315237347507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06030545176326362,0.0,0.04780831559314036,0.0,0.06673552286362214,0.08836026948038138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252350098351212,0.0,0.0,0.1011577359920834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627894983754029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0655156186728834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05180023351491325,0.0,0.06607805307952658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08825207623253334,0.11896500446586887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433615474027353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040974822828925915,0.0,0.08914363909225355,0.0,0.06272516329805862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08348690262192983,0.0,0.07743033553882632,0.08048863445938315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043101377964320654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055395244953040185,0.07663085216022797,0.1572087319515452,0.0,0.0,0.06585885096133566,0.0,0.0,0.2667030127146334,0.0,0.07420943726711755,0.2094022821292925,0.0,0.0,0.2562896855340765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058152559035244376,0.060487666832059285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16459169564676315,0.0,0.10628820603863197,0.05964719809558554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07486735851545043,0.16311403080969944,0.06847935158398175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08341667112982411,0.0,0.0,0.05024228592993656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06697615148705102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06249609224409981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06645086521137084,0.18113059765935272,0.07756621804574658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0626318305722354,0.06556840737284096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06303657843065248,0.0,0.07220496051608585,0.0,0.0910596857196264,0.052103353258210604,0.20101118534449666,0.0,0.3113110255673792,0.09146272227623947,0.0,0.0,0.07494027214576582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07661169389530477,0.0,0.0,0.20320700498950886,0.0,0.06471041318328688,0.0,0.06225162963033441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09018707448483017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11142445148282702,0.0,0.0,0.0505043578564414
schizophrenia,worfdataquarkodo,2020/01/23,"Is it possible to find another person with mental health issues in terms of dating? Idk, I just feel like I wouldn't be as self conscious, there would be more empathy and understanding, if it was a shared burden, I helped them and showed them kindness and understanding and they did the same for me.

I get matches on my dating apps and I'm like, dude I'm to emotional and weird to date a normal person. Kind of like with my job, I can pretend like I don't have mental health issues for a period of time when starting a new job, but stress and daily life kind of exposes that I'm a little different than everybody else.

Is it possible to meet someone who also has some mental health issues? Any advice on how to do so?",3.2036480186480176,5.030162132867137,4.653304195804196,82.92559731934732,74.52447552447552,7.843589743589742,23.105477855477854,8.59863814320734,1.5417324009324007,567,16,110,11,12,189,89,143,0.084,0.825,0.091,-0.28,4,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,3,0,6,11,0,1,6,0,13,4,0,1,0,23,21,14,0,4,3,0,1,4,0,2,4,0,0,3,5,9,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,1,12,8,18,15,4,13,0,0,0,0,10,4,0,2,13,72,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11246584986878028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09203844117904142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07826600526585956,0.12068322390570575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12024587356771994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09614398177583268,0.12946217964775766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058193600513472624,0.08222122105060183,0.0,0.0,0.10519132902997842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06013043453045736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3670098909370496,0.0,0.0,0.07714324735066196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3603761297485077,0.2284206386614953,0.0,0.0,0.3595495180628014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08129236247962432,0.22491110983307847,0.11535168075888913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3479547690644406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11115585866956648,0.0,0.0,0.11276500123164793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009865025799173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25949621176982546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12006528744066094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09751645337838602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08146218809211005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13183665254023993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06711064080460588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23962812670995184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08175753087393987,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Jakeas,2020/01/23,"The Darkness is back They have infiltrated my mind again and are implanting seeds. Seeds of dark thoughts of my death. I'm seeing glimpses of them passing in the corner of my vision. And in mirrors. I feel they are close. I don't know how or why. 

I need to figure out a way other than meds (they were just increased today) to end the infiltration and implants but I haven't figured it out yet.

Thought on how to counter the darkness?",1.3844598930481276,4.0280073176470585,2.138930481283424,93.49064171122996,87.58823529411768,4.502673796791443,24.197860962566843,6.1124844417494595,0.5817058823529413,342,14,69,3,11,106,59,85,0.079,0.883,0.037000000000000005,-0.5267,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,4,0,6,0,0,0,5,0,7,0,0,2,0,19,14,7,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,6,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,2,11,0,13,11,1,15,0,0,1,0,4,7,0,1,5,49,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403475911773936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27684488355451536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15804514861013766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178069423669354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3471956078258419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3156073250588191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23176722959957075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490783965575035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4962924771432592,0.0,0.0,0.2962804962725342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248104089946186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.282046459102925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,its_Diane,2020/01/23,"I’m being evaluated tomorrow (help) I’ve been hearing voices and having sensory hallucinations for a few months now, and my appointment to be evaluated with my psychiatrist is tomorrow. What should I expect?",5.8221428571428575,9.37706885714286,8.388214285714291,50.50803571428575,74.71428571428572,12.642857142857144,34.464285714285715,11.20814326018867,6.290571428571429,170,9,22,8,4,61,29,35,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,5,8,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,3,4,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7341792493868581,0.0,0.4366221315880014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5199441739045639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,PlasticGuitar4,2020/01/24,"What street drugs could help schizophrenia? I have schizophrenia and i  wanna start taking drugs, im on antipsychotics already. Weed is soon to be legal where i live so im definitely gonna try that. Ive heard cocaine could help schizophrenia as it gives the schizophrenic brain a boost. I highly doubt heroin would do much and that would probably kill me, which wouldn't be a bad thing i guess. Ive also heard that most schizophrenics smoke cigarettes as it helps the negative symptoms. Up to 80% of schizophrenics smoke i believe. I just want some advice as what would be good for schizophrenia. Something like lsd or dmt, i doubt would help, it'd probably make it worse because lsd makes you hallucinate.",4.343166368515206,7.1982691007752,3.4644961240310086,87.89796064400718,75.04651162790698,6.449850924269531,25.426952892069174,7.61054688173877,1.4094097793679183,570,20,102,8,13,166,85,129,0.14400000000000002,0.664,0.192,0.4337,0,0,7,0,0,1,14.0,0,1,0,0,5,6,1,2,4,0,16,7,1,2,0,20,26,8,1,9,2,0,0,1,0,6,6,2,0,0,11,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,2,12,2,10,12,3,7,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,6,3,62,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13492670059791145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15237078668436813,0.11041968038255384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11528806119636224,0.0841701171596985,0.0,0.0,0.15556486653324697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15413897333578447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22048560631219136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3202496715440584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324555043492532,0.0,0.1158119681384842,0.0,0.0,0.15210676718880212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37019891284608575,0.14588534136829248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2982925017143945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15276112479387216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06745717480683826,0.0,0.12192402752289185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18433419376586152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10150207178207654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29773951482138983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10629799047191577,0.0,0.0,0.09773121596981786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435142912445474,0.10381630018344336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09173185237226787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937448402033898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08144106263442044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407116900897377,0.3923421697421339,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,rollling6667,2020/01/24,Is anyone free to talk please? I’m really struggling with this right now. I don’t understand and I don’t know what to do. I’m 23 so I’d appreciate anyone my age or older. Thank you so much .,-1.3328571428571399,0.6919166666666712,2.030476190476193,92.97285714285721,96.61904761904762,5.6571428571428575,14.142857142857142,7.1686216300943375,-0.12102857142857106,148,3,35,3,6,53,31,42,0.07,0.679,0.251,0.7897,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,9,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,9,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,3,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4710673086277128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851241881034353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24762382612922976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3697606202017158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21579501237616072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876684285267361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35214920974107805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2707476176852898,0.0,0.3101266206302294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3506731795246527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,goghgurt,2020/01/24,"Severe social anxiety I have a really huge fear of social interaction i dont know why but it got super bad lately can anyone else relate to this? 
I do all I can to avoid leaving my house",1.318846153846156,3.477883897435902,4.550961538461539,79.80028846153847,81.8205128205128,6.976923076923077,17.442307692307693,8.07648339933343,0.8936615384615383,148,3,28,3,4,54,32,39,0.281,0.564,0.155,-0.5849,0,1,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,2,1,0,5,0,0,0,1,4,7,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,5,1,3,6,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18295855895230406,0.0,0.0,0.16722789037999755,0.24505011166076765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19969058969704667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28029651724596105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997894720561681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691241581094352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912799957293684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759612652076068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13143738428816998,0.0,0.2697855713041534,0.2532384182275514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532135387586853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2701854040035784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4875918369569232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21580684020957955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,soberfortoday123987,2020/01/24,"I’m concerned I might be developing schizophrenia. I have an intake for a new therapist & psychiatrist on Monday. I could really use some insight & support on how to relay my symptoms in a useful way.big wall of text sorry Ok, so there’s a lot of mental health history with me but I’ll try to make it as concise as possible.

Currently 23 

-I’ve been in therapy off and on (for stretches of 6-18 months at a time) since I was 15. I’ve never been able to keep a consistent therapist or psychiatrist because of insurance changes, moving, etc.

-diagnosed with borderline personality disorder at 19, after being hospitalized for 5 days after my boyfriend breaking up with me lead to a suicide attempt (I took an overdose of my Zoloft) 

-I have this persistent delusion/hallucination that whoever is living in the next apartment is talking shit about me. If I can hear them through the walls, I automatically assume it is about me, and that they hear me talking about my mental health and that I’m going to get locked up again, or they’re going to call the landlord and complain about me for something.this has been going on since 19.

-ever since childhood, the only way I could get to sleep was to construct elaborate fantasies about my life and live through them in my head. I also have to sleep with earplugs so I don’t hear people talking about me in the next room.

-I don’t have an official diagnosis for aspergers, but I identify very strongly with the diagnosis and for whatever reason I’ve never been able to get a doctor to agree that I have it. 

- I have been hospitalized 3 other times, never for longer than 4 days. Every time I go to the hospital, I am desperate for help, really want their help, but as soon as I’m there and have restrictions on my routine, I get very defensive and don’t want to be there anymore. I think the doctors are trying to keep me locked up, that coming to the ER was a mistake, and that whoever helped me with coming to the ER (usually a partner) is evil and horrible and hugely at fault for locking me up, even though it was MY CHOICE to go to the hospital (with the exception of the hospitalization at 19, my ex called the police on me and I was taken involuntarily) 

I’ve always dealt with anxiety and depression. I’ve always dealt with issues with black and white thinking, “splitting”, and other issues that someone with BPD would have. For the most part, that part of my mental health was doing pretty well up until just recently. I started to have more issues after I broke my leg, a little over a year and a half ago, in August 2018. 

I was out of work for two and a half months, and I couldn’t cook or clean like I normally do. After I got back on my feet, it was like that was all I wanted to do. I would stay up until 3 or 4 am (my normal bedtime is 1, I work nights) cleaning the bathroom that had just been cleaned. Starting projects and then abandoning them days later. I had so much energy and life was great- until a couple months later.

 I started to get depressed again. I went a couple months where I didn’t want to do anything. 

Went back and forth like that for a while. Now, I’ve had to change my medications a couple times, and I feel so unregulated and so crazy I can’t handle it. I go from depressed to manic and wanting to scrub the floorboards at 4 am in minutes. I get so so angry over the smallest things.

I’ve also started to have urges about hurting people that are On the fringes of my life. Not my friends or coworkers, but people on the bus. People I walk by on the street. It’s really scaring me and I don’t know what to do. I can’t organize my thoughts and then all of a sudden I just want to strangle some random stranger. Like right now there is some fucking kid on the bus who is playing with a noisy ass toy and I just want to take it and smash it on the ground. 

My intake for a new therapist is on Monday and I could really use some advice for how to proceed with telling them what is going on in a way that they know how serious it is but not so they want to hospitalize me. I don’t usually do well in a hospital setting, and I only work part time right now & I set my own hours so I can go to group therapy and weekly therapy no problem.

As for medications, I am not on an antidepressant right now because I had to taper off my cymbalta as it was aggravating my suicidal thoughts. I’m taking 300mg extended release Seroquel,  400mg non XR was making me too sedated. I also don’t sleep at all without medications, I’ll lay in bed until 8-9am awake if I don’t take my melatonin & seroquel.

If anyone has anything useful to say please help I’m really scared",4.833233606557378,5.609838420652177,6.003923734853885,78.88006414825375,69.1413043478261,9.032786885245903,30.190662865288658,9.204915306553042,2.530411439771917,3657,139,711,69,61,1225,361,920,0.11900000000000001,0.797,0.084,-0.9932,1,0,1,0,0,1,101.0,0,0,8,7,46,29,4,2,49,1,78,24,8,11,7,127,139,73,2,21,22,1,1,4,2,3,14,4,6,3,31,47,1,5,10,4,0,16,19,17,4,3,30,7,95,12,142,99,16,138,0,6,2,2,30,55,3,17,65,507,126,7,0.09569264853681707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04675487432254146,0.0424128795819328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11478806469313642,0.07962394936087712,0.20736588941935005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036602307104184,0.0,0.04745069698340588,0.033455262410922074,0.0,0.07874689620372878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07358173997012941,0.0,0.058333350360991625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060260770476076427,0.0,0.09771289323559444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10123013375956297,0.08243074350830144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11460418991245347,0.15882314325408586,0.0,0.09257076277642738,0.0,0.12362990694742358,0.04856301197522105,0.0,0.0,0.054836032822732673,0.0979454806221395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05336129916390575,0.03160204592985255,0.043279739554535485,0.040312591791178735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024192539171296303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036965951441833386,0.04423315580074593,0.14998637787621055,0.0,0.2175373496056962,0.0,0.03826707636235007,0.05275074141828338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04910413236427278,0.1525752159069822,0.16177885444627402,0.0,0.12828153039953713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047118991496305565,0.0,0.05122047971054744,0.0,0.0,0.14981739501274713,0.0,0.08505602283113416,0.0,0.0,0.05259017705687565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10138582144407192,0.09350118890541533,0.047954586597339297,0.08449836182860213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040677233892253487,0.0,0.0,0.06387558596391907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446004140354346,0.14465352386096092,0.05075738895685445,0.0,0.0,0.15276191820193447,0.050853070662725534,0.03517255360590972,0.0,0.11070610472437507,0.09242055625549374,0.10177021732833333,0.044900534127006515,0.09375847809301063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07277857128814008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15543871977727178,0.0,0.13268246733462982,0.04177756483241477,0.0,0.05252089606519532,0.0,0.053939541570306254,0.0,0.0486769128450427,0.0,0.045782470537630224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532579025074786,0.049193990141977964,0.04724247299148457,0.0,0.0,0.12258149849203978,0.0,0.03804931746907615,0.09580503490286382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04911356429136637,0.11873692159529982,0.0,0.14364263493474247,0.0,0.04054003528543165,0.0,0.0,0.053560042782219874,0.13546349832343627,0.05099781551410983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10467222595393676,0.054295441775195005,0.0,0.04973065094523843,0.1079234439039548,0.11537118918118658,0.04181979632269768,0.0,0.16414932494829734,0.16665981069222935,0.03178697181531541,0.06131598528259576,0.04700877066465428,0.07596927396566619,0.1394978822542818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05315902675678447,0.06496902692607705,0.0,0.0467389064674042,0.0,0.0,0.1652954480239918,0.10539193300774996,0.07895645678775633,0.2257680136721877,0.1139345554235554,0.03837943528232753,0.0,0.08603918325968768,0.08870804389725058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04612214919468265,0.0,0.10449808174311948,0.0,0.0,0.06797731196434018,0.0,0.0,0.030811464125494174
schizophrenia,nodrugsinthebox,2020/01/24,I am hallucinating!! I took a piercing and sometimes I feel to see if my piercing is still in and a lot of times it isn't! But then I walk around and it magically reappears in my nose... I thought maybe I was feeling the wrong side of the nose but when I felt last time I made a big thing out of making sure I was feeling to the right and it wasnt there; 1 minute later I feel and it's there again... WTF?!,0.05093434343434211,1.8863356590909104,2.03469696969697,97.89010101010102,84.45454545454545,4.8202020202020215,20.005050505050505,5.82211442006289,-0.3723146464646465,310,9,78,2,9,103,54,88,0.027000000000000003,0.88,0.09300000000000001,0.6209,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,6,0,6,2,2,2,1,20,16,10,0,1,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,7,0,0,6,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,7,8,12,1,9,9,1,17,0,0,1,0,0,7,0,2,8,53,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20825508750641872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4731458490884352,0.0,0.224617888772095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19069130657220607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988863615373851,0.0,0.22135850389640585,0.15615593377222806,0.0,0.23502292026273536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1997824163057222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18641889748779453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313714078939245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18682378983496786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2204845055588225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15541851211872698,0.0,0.0,0.1857212381708375,0.2728231355869873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25991456160785786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557753013977549,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,staininthewater,2020/01/24,"Ok some help? I have been for the past year or so been experiencing what seems to me now as schizophrenia. I have not been taking part in many social or family activities. I just don't want to anymore. I have felt quite paranoid and have also been spending most of my time alone just in my room. This felt to me as something not that serious. But recently I have started having minor hallucinations. This is what made me start to worry most. I have never done drugs so I know it's not from that. I do drink from time to time but nothing that should be causing hallucinations (once a month at most). 
I started researching and found  that schizophrenia is the most closely related thing to these symptoms. I don't know for sure though. Is this schizophrenia? Should I see a doctor? Should I tell others?",2.996644736842104,5.648596690789473,3.5636842105263185,86.43328947368424,78.80263157894737,6.16842105263158,23.315789473684212,7.413659706084162,1.047939473684211,635,21,121,9,16,199,88,152,0.068,0.9,0.032,-0.6186,0,1,3,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,7,3,0,0,4,1,22,4,0,2,2,31,35,12,0,4,9,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,1,0,13,3,1,0,6,1,1,0,6,1,0,0,9,4,17,2,16,22,6,17,0,0,1,0,3,5,0,8,12,95,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15952795659557184,0.0,0.12317721772085614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15275572897643366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582305745813053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15765556929136768,0.0,0.15762550568151248,0.0,0.15089012607851549,0.17862514807209948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520516548301016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2957846672784331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16888523498719532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10324262832876148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16930100807859907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457462978175411,0.0,0.15616158779513956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12294475981530613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11879693242600355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14779531812938876,0.0,0.0,0.16403623367246914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16679877894483738,0.14703844595572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16382917646543493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15208540357136222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12274145187026135,0.1402225377783112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15701352772419125,0.0,0.1185793209171199,0.0,0.0,0.3270683059196836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14517084207602113,0.16009547426182394,0.11581090405592424,0.0,0.13462844339575672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10233025772624448,0.0,0.1513330569975925,0.0,0.2694472627267025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09085050299713494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15642428444979598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09918985310093684
schizophrenia,Brockdawson,2020/01/24,"Okay So im crazy now. Its been about 4 months since it got bad. to make a long story short, i got a voice in my head that sounds like someone. In a paranoid, enraged, and sleep deprived state. I was tripping out and wrote down this persons familys addresses on a piece of paper. The voice is telling me to get rid of it but im worried that will just make it worse.",-0.1534210526315789,2.1234747105263203,1.0371578947368434,101.16310526315792,91.36842105263158,3.5663157894736837,20.757894736842104,4.935628992294339,-0.4398063157894741,282,10,65,1,10,88,59,76,0.212,0.747,0.040999999999999995,-0.905,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,0,5,1,4,2,2,2,0,8,10,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,1,1,7,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,5,3,4,2,10,4,1,11,0,1,0,0,3,6,0,0,4,37,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18869927394742894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130512345249516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11807486748829248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3615032272633221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23193962028302445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4882342361677649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11041143182132744,0.0,0.0,0.200001525141202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3017114536088695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18038981443872548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19733313790571894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869482613268241,0.0,0.22616167315657296,0.0,0.1914877615718704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1975326151258344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22951240612449564,0.23031173809597344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,PretentiousAboutAP,2020/01/24,"I got laid off today Sucks. But, I have a job fair to go to tomorrow, and another one next week.",-0.03142857142857025,1.5408489523809552,3.1145238095238104,91.43464285714286,83.28571428571429,8.009523809523811,20.02380952380953,8.841846274778883,1.1558380952380958,72,2,18,2,2,26,19,21,0.12,0.769,0.111,-0.0516,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,3,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,10,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42183482413708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286299638823648,0.0,0.3217470582395548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39920950410778605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4278386429595076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726012641528504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38132269078942505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32269176464010146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,shartattack88,2020/01/24,My family doesn't consider me a person anymore My siblings are evil shit cunts so they've always been shitty to me. No surprise there but my parents now mock me and purposefully annoy me to get me to move out. I don't understand how you could think a person doesn't deserve to exist because of money. What the fuck is wrong with people in the states that they just cast people aside and act like their life or well being doesn't mean anything? Fuck you I'm moving into section 8 housing and never speaking to any of you again you fucking disgusting right wing morons. Eat shit fuck you.,3.12875098814229,5.50206201739131,3.981185770750991,85.1401581027668,76.65217391304348,5.920948616600791,23.49802371541502,6.980632752743323,0.9890869565217392,472,15,85,5,11,151,84,115,0.314,0.608,0.078,-0.9884,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,5,2,0,7,16,12,0,4,0,9,8,2,1,1,15,18,7,0,1,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,6,1,0,3,0,1,3,6,13,1,0,1,1,16,3,11,15,1,12,0,0,0,4,11,5,7,1,4,57,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12729992951420235,0.0,0.0,0.10403844113521048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15172496290055415,0.0,0.0,0.12589772821696232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09326127941262548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221500600844422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565469562981646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14422534914731355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5657471311908971,0.07993095664051345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17652991048966554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080613561385872,0.07474318250158178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16665095236135674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32520830041251303,0.0,0.0,0.11799531373265712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16987728150151998,0.0,0.0,0.212127995095002,0.2671699206648261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13065261765282582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3140840575061529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09802980971455699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592679776511415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375563765969059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16727054000297428,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Glitched_PyXel,2020/01/24,"Does anyone else feel like nothing? It feels like I'm just drifting through life day to day never experiencing any real joy or emotion. Every time I'm around people I have to fake everything I feel so I don't look like an emotionless zombie.

I'm not sure if it's the Abilify and other medications I'm taking or just my schizoaffective, but I seriously am so fucking bored with everything all the time. Everything I used to enjoy is now boring and I can barely motivate myself to do anything.  The only thing I enjoy is sleeping because I'm unconscious the whole time. 

I almost want to stop taking my meds just so I can get some entertainment from the mania and hallucinations. 

I feel like I am either dead or that I don't really exist, and I'm getting really tired of this feeling. 

I'm not sad though, which is weird. Before I started having symptoms of schizophrenia I was sad all the time, and now I wish I was sad that way I could feel something. 

I am nothing and everything else is nothing.",3.933788659793812,5.8542736546391785,5.500605670103095,77.2219394329897,72.76288659793816,8.148969072164949,27.5889175257732,8.841846274778883,2.3603412371134023,795,30,142,16,16,269,106,194,0.127,0.672,0.201,0.9291,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,10,18,1,0,7,0,17,6,1,2,4,38,40,15,1,4,11,0,6,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,8,8,0,1,7,1,0,1,5,9,0,0,2,8,21,9,11,37,5,14,0,3,1,1,0,1,1,6,15,92,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078162872516796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752333238423825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07735623034460852,0.11335521150525595,0.09104043135034448,0.09848563440341182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06744003427431572,0.0,0.0941393959063226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08833037988099156,0.0,0.0,0.14269653924802012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09681451289968072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1848371152166764,0.12444572907094675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09321194669118872,0.0,0.3977144167334678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33563215432645266,0.23710584419137376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10227718877118658,0.11560095442322038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07814241459707845,0.21619616721645415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09290273273582572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12288683629545552,0.11144976036614056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08532595791583951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184621901593636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08414036416104903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07669806456575434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12592305164396433,0.14174695105221646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11071155880587616,0.0,0.0,0.08516965833747646,0.0,0.0,0.07830565974109045,0.0,0.0,0.09249302314200668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10426903210906643,0.11498865686527313,0.16636248300142326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07349876032956655,0.0,0.10869504615108616,0.0,0.2580408470202135,0.1271548208282269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955502350811389,0.0,0.0,0.06525342058133453,0.08781426377013239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235162996746197,0.12722095139511466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Price-x-Field,2020/01/24,Anyone else find it impossible to leave groups/discussions first from paranoia? i find it physically impossible to leave first. i just can’t. i’d stay up all night over it.,3.0290624999999984,6.041388781250002,4.123750000000001,79.74625000000002,83.0625,8.200000000000001,23.625,8.841846274778883,2.2510375,139,5,26,4,4,45,23,32,0.155,0.845,0.0,-0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,5,1,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,15,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806979975086268,0.2647887524368515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21588239522618236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4723947489706621,0.4396353356861312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5472732444568836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425160055288957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754485386342556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Jack_ORyan,2020/01/24,"Ratting a schizophrenic friend out to their doctor? My friend thinks they're god/Jesus/ect, but refuses to tell anyone because they're worried about being viewed as crazy.  They've just started being seen by a psychiatrist for neurological issues, and I found the psychiatrists name and number on papers lying around their house.  Should I call the doctor and anonymously report what's going on?  I really don't want to break confidence, but I'm worried that they're not being correctly diagnosed or medicated because the doctor isn't getting the whole picture.   


I am not concerned about them hurting anybody.  They're a very sweet person, but they have been committed once for public indecently brought on by their delusions.",9.774285714285714,10.274755793650796,8.849047619047619,63.679285714285726,58.52380952380952,11.326984126984124,37.84126984126985,10.914260884657429,4.49848888888889,594,25,85,13,7,186,87,126,0.14300000000000002,0.726,0.13,-0.4159,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,5,0,4,4,0,0,7,0,9,7,0,0,2,20,18,8,0,2,7,0,0,0,2,1,7,0,0,1,2,5,0,1,2,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,4,3,10,3,15,10,1,9,0,1,2,0,13,5,0,1,1,54,12,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12095214154045295,0.0,0.0,0.15398951498795468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21089488292544625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17663265569096834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17557178975048304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5311592907244304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18966443120877247,0.2672889506023106,0.0,0.0903752867695376,0.0,0.0983089296112249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.199596526232716,0.18517943860746672,0.0,0.0,0.18054693004876768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17425987707006352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842188214942356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510400926694274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11081587876127848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12243664405866482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511927738568419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11083906082547522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14272721014149942,0.10202851052840067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19312679656498855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513406360201849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,thebudprincess,2020/01/24,"Please help me from spiraling💔 Hey my panic attacks have increased to 5 times a day. And my hallunications have been getting really bad especially before I fall asleep. I need these to stop i can't take it anymore. And I have no support from anyone not even family. 

So please if you have advice. I would appreciate greatly.",2.3806967213114767,5.28416598360656,4.213258196721313,78.43660860655741,85.88524590163935,6.9844262295081965,24.018442622950825,8.07648339933343,2.0171131147541,259,10,45,6,8,87,49,61,0.204,0.5820000000000001,0.214,-0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,1,0,0,2,5,1,1,1,0,7,1,1,0,0,7,11,4,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,1,0,9,2,4,9,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,30,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220041138946356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22530805803931145,0.15885415144979784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584575525838422,0.0,0.0,0.1896913194727976,0.0,0.0,0.1933190615426328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14651656082571046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15005460512022042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21417130520388608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186956205071032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25047402598203555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15227838753737538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16845598350925725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665545222912147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4987653227969214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14554155191951673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18993816840344566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578086587649871,0.0,0.0,0.1708160477348959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13247433209379508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16138684069039153,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,bloodyzaiah,2020/01/25,"Just sharing.. I dont know where this may belong but I put it here because skitzin runs in my family. I'm 19 at the moment & every day of my life I have these negative horrible thoughts. Images and thoughts of brutal homicide and suicide. Im not a very suicidal person, life is not dreadful. I just wouldnt mind dying and leaving this world and myself behind. For the simple reason, no more living. It sounds a lil wild to me now that im being real with myself. I can sit next to someone and without thinking or asking, I'll picture of them all bloody. This doesnt happen to every single person around me. Just mainly people who I dont like in the slightest ways. It could be the way u breathed or if u said something I didnt care for. Ive done acts of violence when it was necessary, so its not just all in my head. I'm not particularly violent either, but I know how to be in pretty gruesome ways. I dont think this way with family though, they are the only ones who tame my darkness or whatever. I can sometimes hear and feel things walk & talk with me. I try not to feed it though. Its like I really got 2 or 3 people in me. I could go on and on about my imagination or what ive felt and seen. I just really want to know if the shit im saying sounds familiar to anyone or if anyone thinks they know whats wrong. 
   Dont judge me, i know it sounds fucked up but I can keep myself on a leash pretty well. Be a functioning member of society. I'm genuinely concerned with my head.",1.4422943722943735,3.4622114545454536,3.4704935064935083,88.46693073593075,80.55844155844156,6.314458874458874,20.98095238095238,7.42949916751922,0.7193464069264071,1160,33,243,17,30,393,167,308,0.16699999999999998,0.7390000000000001,0.095,-0.9799,0,0,1,0,0,1,35.0,0,0,3,0,16,11,4,1,10,0,24,8,4,2,2,62,50,25,3,7,24,0,2,2,0,2,2,6,0,2,19,13,1,1,14,0,0,5,15,6,1,1,9,9,35,5,32,33,6,28,0,0,1,1,13,13,2,10,7,166,54,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909543561430003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232300666452159,0.0,0.0,0.07844482103809412,0.08237961000742756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05371668113322688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08984345528421492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14071211266424474,0.0,0.0,0.05682963079780155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09145387646039713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901765941954044,0.4131004513918475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14848854903755104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661419860475503,0.0,0.04455574399294738,0.0,0.08460830560088213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08146483310013747,0.0,0.0,0.05008020442432305,0.0,0.0704770196169565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07792356788788883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808715600398144,0.0,0.09931680687645997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28555175648543785,0.0,0.0,0.07832444439769068,0.0,0.0,0.24214019546468846,0.0,0.0,0.09330556967620184,0.0,0.0,0.12448247433617622,0.08610123572412658,0.0,0.07781091829181694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08897532952629762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09371582943984276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0597118890423648,0.06701866570364402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122181595016874,0.15388467247211188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792979274919593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.088584191920144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10029900615068044,0.11290290482813198,0.09060127236905084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08382159245045523,0.07007596996143245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09045315093438486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07466316044187107,0.06783850910470968,0.08715219831069615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19277632950198725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0708269208249381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05854251876936565,0.1693897852298246,0.17315344506231767,0.13991369397720546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05982719115783675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07270761556520365,0.05197502083053999,0.2797798581597557,0.0,0.0,0.07922979468044647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08494381914077903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963445742639688,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,JimmyCricketss,2020/01/25,"Am I just blessed? I see a lot of posts where people struggle with the voices and visions. And I have in the past, but ever since I ended up on meds I really haven’t had that many problems outside of some side effects. Even when I see things, I’m able to rationalize that they shouldn’t be there and they must NOT be real. (They still scare the shit out of me but at least I know they can’t physically harm me.) I still hear voices, but I have a MUCH easier time tuning me out. I’m pretty open with my diagnosis because I want to be a part of the process of breaking the stigma and recently a girl was over at my house and asked me what I meant when I said “you should see me off my meds” as a joke when she called me crazy(not in a bad way.) She said if I didn’t tell her she wouldn’t have even known I was schizophrenic. I cannot even tell you guys how proud and happy I was in that moment. So many days on the verge of freaking out and just being able to ground myself using methods and clearly define what is and isn’t real finally seemed to pay off. Somebody thought I was normal!!! Am I just blessed that the meds work this well for me? Or, do the majority of people in this sub struggle to self-medicate? Possibly to even just afford the meds? 


TLDR; meds work great for me. Am I lucky or do the majority of people in this sub struggle to afford/stay on their medication and that’s what leads to a lot of their struggle?


Note - this isn’t meant to brag, I think this sub has just given me a ton of appreciation for how much worse I could have it. I used to really struggle, and I know some of you guys are going through that. I love all you guys and if any of you need to ever reach out, I’m here!",2.890090497737553,3.834416148459386,4.143151260504201,89.81423561732386,73.78991596638657,7.1729799612152565,22.974466709760822,7.468242284971852,0.6664989010989006,1323,33,302,15,26,435,166,357,0.10400000000000001,0.727,0.16899999999999998,0.9825,2,0,1,0,0,0,36.0,0,5,6,5,23,20,1,6,18,0,32,4,1,6,5,66,56,26,0,11,13,0,0,0,0,4,2,5,0,4,16,19,0,0,9,1,1,2,9,11,1,0,12,8,52,9,48,35,12,42,2,0,3,1,27,23,1,10,14,219,68,4,0.15379165282477208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05229179883066724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07188721752203421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06420480311352733,0.04687498205973377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07851923623584764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06139506031994761,0.0,0.0,0.049591446602989635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0681068783108934,0.0,0.0,0.20315587249427985,0.1391133547182949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423561919646806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043701670215174064,0.0,0.0,0.08477792008577012,0.0,0.22841687307860656,0.0,0.08185703708806698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08666718498519495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08872745944861285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08451987039330969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13074816359007174,0.06940148555068495,0.0,0.0,0.15592059740992256,0.0,0.0,0.5124835693258876,0.07746445525924185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11305456032057852,0.057017280941305676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07534158335429278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08327068656103319,0.0734057672547437,0.15992965184058025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08668849046973849,0.07364494573337513,0.07823070001000411,0.0,0.07357892086845755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17504857019225314,0.09852287085988473,0.0,0.07592535180061108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462910797704889,0.0,0.0769861368241762,0.0,0.18382805374339373,0.07000307236057128,0.08021911730471308,0.0,0.07893246078959637,0.0636090222278703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08196071964034103,0.12281821260663965,0.0,0.0,0.4019410682005583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442068321034115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05108617023899135,0.049271740647672216,0.0,0.061046696824273876,0.04483857476091765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13282660969635682,0.0,0.0,0.04535515072018925,0.06103632780004916,0.0,0.0,0.06913858276223732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11196215490617899,0.0,0.07836341650845934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,americiumdream,2020/01/25,"has hearing new ideas triggered schizophrenia? I had heard schizophrenia is basically a chemical imbalance
triggered by the stresses of coming into adulthood;
I suspected it was due to the whims of
the invisible part of your mind that creates your visible mind
-- when it simply wants to play new games,
such as playing god or the devil.
. my first sense of the bizarre delusions of magic and telepathy
came from grossly changing my brain chemistry
shortly after moving from home to a homeless shelter;
my fears of involuntary telepathy are managed by antipsychotics.
. after hearing that a book could trigger psychosis,
I was curious to know what others were triggered by
when they first developed schizophrenia;
especially, as a writer I wanted to know
if there are certain topics that should come with warnings. 
. . .
     ""This book destroyed my mental health:
[Alan Watts`The Book: On the Taboo Against Knowing Who You Are]
came highly recommended
on  an article about treating depression,
and I fell for it. Not only did it make my depression worst,
but it triggered psychosis and I was diagnosed with schizophrenia.""
    -- [Raphael 2019](https://www.amazon.com/gp/customer-reviews/R1M0P7DRRWM2ZG/ref=cm_cr_arp_d_rvw_ttl?ie=UTF8&ASIN=0679723005)",12.022251748251747,13.22600747692308,8.932867132867132,62.59258741258742,53.71794871794872,10.988344988344991,47.470862470862464,10.637119530657019,5.719205128205129,1018,58,126,19,11,291,130,195,0.11599999999999999,0.8270000000000001,0.057,-0.8889,0,0,0,0,0,0,50.0,0,3,1,2,5,11,1,2,11,0,13,3,1,6,1,33,26,10,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,12,10,0,1,5,6,0,6,1,7,0,2,9,3,15,4,28,15,2,20,1,2,0,0,9,5,0,2,9,94,27,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15685403381000554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616068703222077,0.0,0.3311477572003447,0.0,0.0,0.1531433628527355,0.24940639302711676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155839695051849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24937369925926364,0.14693456756280246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16290213577592946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24627598057476574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15387961920163007,0.3263238838507762,0.0,0.0,0.15295335718278905,0.14521222489769722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634233318970269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386790257525434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966325112435156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14589020264909186,0.0,0.29234503213580354,0.0,0.0,0.15386347846136042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27963204741591435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11010115996839152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15676760387543964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16582910480624682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17077362023674586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Skididilidoodle,2020/01/25,"Permabann from the ADHD subreddit. Yeah I'm shizoprhenic and got ADHD, this is my community though. Have a nice day.",2.053571428571427,4.602863761904762,4.438452380952381,72.59196428571431,101.85714285714286,9.719047619047616,24.29761904761905,8.841846274778883,3.8232761904761916,93,4,15,4,4,32,20,21,0.0,0.773,0.22699999999999998,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8607286782942809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309436561983723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864037714095793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3518295748595872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Paranoid_pizza,2020/01/25,"Afraid I'll wake up (Schizo-affective here) I'm not in a panic well yet...
Lately I keep having hallucinations, which aren't hallucinations because they happen in parts of my sleep cycle. It's always about being in some sort of locked place--not a psych ward. I've been in those, not all that bad in my experience.--a prison, an institution?
I'm afraid I'm going to wake up... come out of this world and realize my existence here is nothing. The same way it was when my disorder began.
I just woke up to a voice calling my name and saying, ""Where are you? I know you're in there."" I hear women screaming and asking for help, and once seen myself being sprayed with water like the cold would wake me up from something.
I don't know, there's not much to say about it. I could get my meds adjusted but it took five years to be able to function I just don't want to mess with it. Maybe you've been through similar, idk.",3.443874223602485,4.796323961956522,4.349844720496897,87.28521739130436,72.96739130434783,7.431055900621117,22.92546583850932,7.957251820313856,0.9238444099378884,715,18,153,10,14,231,118,184,0.062,0.879,0.059000000000000004,0.3096,0,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,0,1,1,0,12,8,0,3,6,0,14,5,4,0,1,27,31,6,0,3,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,0,1,9,8,1,1,4,0,0,3,6,6,1,1,7,7,17,2,27,19,5,22,0,0,1,0,10,13,0,2,6,97,26,1,0.18101026890457925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506150441589227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692201668356012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15113601373134047,0.11034217984765733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184831722712894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559243189167386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445219707806733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20745345015890665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09457039457930527,0.0,0.10287230720175623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16006678299672625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040117284810942,0.0,0.12132736771402736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16089024392186324,0.0,0.0,0.19895701992493164,0.0,0.2041874675767213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08843247420493039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818491445484053,0.0,0.20106160290886596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13306337495334233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17368423488789264,0.0,0.0,0.19277002884727448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21237654971836006,0.0,0.19601648190172366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891172049334272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878932621062665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811409923560041,0.0,0.0,0.13935054836436336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20110906898452408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10676454641427442,0.14367752612195545,0.0,0.0,0.16274997020460213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12858450159148416,0.0,0.0,0.11656467851976555
schizophrenia,NecroSeduction,2020/01/25,"Possible delusions of false death? I don’t want to make this a post for sympathy or anything like that, I’m just asking if what I’m going through has also been experienced/research by anyone else. 

About 8 months or so ago, I died for a short time, not going into detail but I remember *vividly* what I experienced in that short time. I gained some sort of insights on this world and what my existence as a human is laid out to be, it was a formless realm, there was nothing there to be perceived by a human mind. But while I was there, everything was so natural, I feel like my consciousness was placed there and is now rooted there. 

I haven’t felt alive since. I’ve had delusions that are recurring that I KNOW are delusions but only after the fact. 

Maybe it’s not related to my disorder at all but I’m fully convinced that I’m dead or rather, my consciousness is locked in the “next” plane of being until my human body and mind has completed what it’s meant to do. At the same time I feel like it’s double sided, not only is my mind in that place thus making me “dead”. I can literally feel my body rotting from the inside, I constantly smell the sweet scent of decay. I can hardly hold a conversation with anyone and I can’t do basic daily tasks, not that could before, but now I have reasons to believe that I don’t need to. Humans and I, aren’t alike in any way, they struggle to grasp concepts further than what’s placed in front of them, much less comprehend how someone could be dead but still speaking with them. 

Has anyone else ever felt this way? If even for only a short time?",4.754948764315857,5.529071227848103,5.439330922242316,82.86672995780592,69.31645569620252,8.297528631705848,27.07293550331525,8.418075326091056,1.7365315250150686,1252,38,248,18,21,406,163,316,0.10300000000000001,0.8029999999999999,0.094,-0.7922,1,0,0,0,0,1,32.0,0,0,3,1,17,7,0,1,12,0,32,2,2,6,3,59,50,23,5,7,17,0,6,3,0,0,0,1,0,4,20,9,0,1,14,0,0,3,9,2,0,0,10,12,28,5,37,34,6,42,0,0,1,0,10,19,0,7,20,172,48,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09325823819357336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413271930956835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0715432787448513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22068618269970047,0.2155907270797323,0.08657507902741264,0.0,0.09835284607486944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08952204552743401,0.11853045766051715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23371896213379545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11030585889273747,0.11368966106349812,0.0,0.16799590039924145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10918659403277793,0.0,0.1205745014481746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17577122185968405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06948717360812902,0.09516430622296257,0.0,0.0,0.09455182864451306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15958503191364465,0.15031751566682286,0.2020273622725038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11958130505107616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09424337276524833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057818135752111616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541941309858267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14045084109579745,0.0,0.10569296353425643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3186823859170391,0.0,0.08397394550317136,0.0,0.07733807311337189,0.07800847006366561,0.0,0.0,0.11188713501853824,0.0,0.0,0.10094741743255699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24004033928417454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3297517493585235,0.0,0.0,0.11860327960279787,0.10075769047100258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081686717708077,0.0,0.0,0.11917720813033128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08702699294534673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08914019289166983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0840171672800447,0.0,0.0,0.1099835252345971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453844560237901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06205286991554501,0.16701429711766197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Eskimo909,2020/01/25,"I am 100% sure I’m schizophrenic but I’m in a precarious situation. I have to keep some of this vague because i don’t want too much of my info online. 

Basically my whole life I’ve had problems dealing with reality. Ever since 9 I remember asking myself “what is this” (in reference to existence) in my early teens I read a lot of philosophy, but am also very angry living in a house where I have no outlet for my craziness (I like adrenaline sports) but my parents think I’m depressed so they pump with meds but I take them on and off. At 16 I got kicked out of home and started smoking a lot of weed. Moved from house to house, but still managed to get top grades and finish high school. At 16 I noticed weed is making me hallucinate bad. And from that point when I smoked it gave me full on inter dimensional trips. So I stopped.

Anyways from that weed period I knew things weren’t right. I joined the army. And started making money. And I ended partying a lot I fell in love with lsd bit my last I took it it gave me a full on disgusting trip where my whole body was shaking. I also tried several other drugs. 

But basically combine childhood problems with reality with drugs with now intense stress from the military (I’m still in) and you get sz and I know for sure I have it. The walls of reality are breaking down, I hear voices coming through the depths every day. But I know myself well enough to know that I’m getting iller.

So what do i do? I still need to spend some more weeks working in the military because I have so much debt and I get paid lots. but my mind has started to rapidly degrade within the past few weeks. And I can’t even function at work. I’m scared all the time and can’t even express what I experience to anyone at all. This is the shittiest place on earth with some horrible people. How do I make it through these weeks? Or should I get help now?

Thanks, and I’m sorry if this is not super coherent. I’m on my phone and my mind isn’t working so well.

I’d like to have some friends here aswell, so if you like pm me :)",1.803843808630397,3.954490528846154,3.429092401500938,88.54944418386495,80.00961538461539,6.462382739212008,23.367495309568486,7.590005382236693,1.0500981003752343,1604,55,337,25,41,531,210,416,0.157,0.7340000000000001,0.11,-0.9781,4,0,3,0,0,0,41.0,0,2,2,5,25,20,1,3,14,0,24,6,1,4,5,68,62,34,0,7,12,1,0,3,1,1,4,2,1,0,18,22,0,2,8,2,4,7,7,9,2,0,9,2,50,11,50,52,20,62,0,1,0,1,15,31,0,11,26,226,68,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135664505185089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05930962813444536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07929727165477995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07082296254510767,0.10341360576556816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09260383254784106,0.09421830059238276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306678220415216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05470327755870423,0.0874479248627763,0.07305720414808807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1967335581627732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0751272592978381,0.08764396810937848,0.0,0.11204847652160793,0.0767265020135407,0.07146633013674837,0.0,0.0,0.08297235088329939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06553339222756603,0.0,0.2215803946328812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06784003188994424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560074166481104,0.0,0.05685450745433561,0.08961927159143551,0.08508354482177857,0.0,0.0,0.2936201607599527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07539383524701553,0.0,0.0,0.13984812642283956,0.06914138338523111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059912401763039025,0.12431947198607853,0.0,0.07489952337644926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884510766712492,0.07655531320670624,0.0,0.1698583560871891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09421830059238276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17129240780295618,0.0,0.0,0.09015253485252207,0.1247080981929058,0.06289455861097686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09657059404245293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941849732727684,0.0,0.08097235179874362,0.058805007273000025,0.0,0.08862110618746682,0.0,0.08018436037441408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16232670778732716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08484511644009098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09608697485963093,0.0724376631935832,0.0,0.0,0.08492178186654079,0.08584455674574194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958248997962833,0.0,0.07016576923084163,0.09534366440003796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09495146626742278,0.18011268928347568,0.0,0.20321726528582226,0.07091512581656456,0.09716350039728278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15988776838731486,0.0,0.0637757098451029,0.0,0.0,0.07809285088262237,0.0,0.0,0.056352075638509136,0.054350616670408115,0.0,0.0,0.04946048499289632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09424054339219934,0.05758868036833005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06998716724108582,0.0500303090253835,0.0,0.20411766674964665,0.0,0.15253062138462026,0.0,0.0,0.1894018301980245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18525463327180253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,abuliahelp,2020/01/25,I’m gone in the head. I’m not psychotic but I’m fun insane now. With some parts which are not fun. Wtf. I wanna tell my story to someone and just talk if anyone wants to.,-2.0262280701754385,-0.20246713157894547,0.853684210526314,100.22245614035087,101.89473684210527,3.5859649122807014,11.596491228070176,5.46131890053228,-1.3779087719298246,131,2,32,1,6,45,30,38,0.076,0.644,0.27899999999999997,0.8875,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,10,6,3,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,5,5,2,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,19,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30690566009830417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4504623509362059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4753115998327441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3718986309795627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35279024803403114,0.3836386646127168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25888857339572424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lildirtycup,2020/01/25,"Am i at risk for schizophrenia? My father was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia when i was 2 after smoking meth and staying awake for 4 days. Never been the same since, can barely have a conversation with him. Anyways, im 18 and have smoked weed for the past 2 years, and recently developed a few mental disorders (panic, depression). I havent smoked much at all after that but in the last year ive become such a homebody, much more lazy, i get agitated and upset very easily now. Not that it correlates but I figured it was a recent change in my demeanor. Should i avoid drugs? Am i at risk?",4.321754385964908,6.10484907017544,5.1868421052631595,80.43622807017546,71.45614035087719,8.224561403508767,27.578947368421048,8.841846274778883,2.2377789473684206,470,17,86,9,9,153,77,114,0.182,0.787,0.031,-0.9431,0,1,4,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,5,7,0,12,2,0,0,2,15,13,7,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,4,0,11,0,12,8,6,18,0,1,0,0,3,5,0,0,12,63,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22826807294082715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21864602268051908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332951519860106,0.0,0.17801805605051715,0.20978159414444975,0.0,0.0,0.23687967270192925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396897471811804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10798472668484738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232559801771061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16847639882212054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20829053223777425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.303875483231712,0.0,0.15940872271576945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2425010890313712,0.0,0.0,0.1973048493866866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40815430890228005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17097251373655942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22029941309845652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705373153273973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661975770971019
schizophrenia,princess_littlebear,2020/01/25,"What helps anxiety? My anxiety is really bad all the time and not much makes it better. I can't really enjoy stuff anymore and I'm starting to get depressed. My jaw and body hurt from being tense 24/7. Along with SZA, I also have germophobia, agoraphobia, body dysmorphia, and GAD. My anxiety seems to have manifested itself into multiple things and I have panic attacks now too. Basically I'm wondering what makes your anxiety better (medication wise, alternative medicine, or activities or therapy etc). I've tried buspirone and it really helped a ton, like really a lot, but I thought it was making me gain weight so I stopped taking it. That fear might not have been based in reality... My therapist today strongly urged me to get back on it and my boyfriend is pushing me towards taking it again too. I'm just nervous... What if that was what was making me gain weight. I'm not really ""all there"" all the time so it's hard for me to keep track of my habits.",2.8717955801105006,5.618760419889507,4.563809392265192,78.46140469613259,80.16022099447514,8.481878453038675,25.62458563535912,9.120678840339163,2.6647345856353595,760,30,137,22,20,255,110,181,0.14800000000000002,0.742,0.11,-0.3599,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,1,0,5,11,13,1,3,4,0,13,6,3,4,3,32,30,14,0,1,8,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,16,10,2,2,3,0,0,1,4,7,0,0,5,3,17,6,13,23,7,13,0,2,0,0,3,4,0,7,9,94,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941961640422382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3604343639935506,0.0,0.11681546288587345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13400248044463492,0.0,0.09057280041181054,0.09834925338436276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083503562904548,0.0,0.2616750044168946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10145186284373764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13136634988108034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13254585535509386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230802304429254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10551619243667452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15790354310886848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12609602022740654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469665684494638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057545965374256165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10014036058737497,0.0,0.0,0.3145014347878196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11866045792713675,0.0,0.12495597036112675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658878354915217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13820051611442258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37729462285011417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072310725585444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08337196430605585,0.0,0.0,0.0984772371428997,0.0,0.0,0.13484071565608766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17712598349239492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13470247783676614,0.13676260601815238,0.07825406289911484,0.0,0.0,0.0935116496445407,0.13736792690595673,0.0,0.11165060620473752,0.0,0.0,0.079971290582608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868715844217316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277376114978076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,johpollck,2020/01/25,"Not doing well Hey all I was diagnosed with schizophrenia 2 years ago and I've been on Invega 9mg currently

and I've tried abilify and risperidone. I am just doing really bad I don't shower or shave anymore I

never do anything anymore and I'm constantly feeling miserable/tired. I am afraid to sleep alone and when I sleep I dream right 

before I wake up every single night and I wake up multiple times throughout the night. Does this

happen to anyone else? I feel hopeless and am worried about my future because I don't work 

anymore and medications/insurance is expensive as ever.",2.8249064449064463,5.68365709009009,4.323783783783785,79.27116424116427,81.70270270270271,7.37934857934858,26.55647955647956,8.384062270229773,2.509297435897435,471,20,78,11,13,156,77,111,0.128,0.8370000000000001,0.035,-0.8522,2,1,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,1,1,0,11,5,4,0,3,17,15,11,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,9,0,0,2,1,1,0,4,3,1,0,2,2,12,1,8,13,2,15,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,1,11,50,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15078266489213055,0.0,0.0,0.17617145711591511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5060780554872811,0.11893730561820234,0.1742867171028876,0.1399771364102358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420257149803616,0.10369088477623026,0.0,0.14474187860168408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838167908582543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17264709288759372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14885494365133922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14209604297015055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386445179379218,0.14331590023828222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720145183591459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15041814812006155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13119097826500264,0.0,0.0,0.31925312581860626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1089698939739044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452637751495183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34044405851996945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09918620306115383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154861814609672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15293959600145232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12383423303374153,0.17274397985111453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10953829864571002
schizophrenia,mblove22,2020/01/25,"Invega Relief I take invega by injection once a month. As many of you are aware, the medication comes with a few debilitating side effects... fatigue, depression, and anhedonia to name a few. 

I’m wondering if there are any medications that would help with these side effects. More specifically, I’m wondering if there are any known stimulants or antidepressants that would work well with this antipsychotic.

I’m aware that many stimulants such as Adderall have opposing mechanisms and don’t work very well when combined with invega... (are there any that do work well?) Personally, I tried vyvanse and didn’t notice much of a difference, which was atypical.

The medication is incredibly good at making life dull... 

Even cannabis feels very different when used. Although, pot does relieve some of the depressing side effects which is great. 

Do any experienced users have a solution? It helps with psychosis but in many ways I’ve found these side effects to be debilitating.",7.352881118881117,9.877549006060613,7.167272727272728,66.2832167832168,65.0,11.864801864801864,35.11655011655011,11.51311941424646,5.001578088578089,786,37,123,28,13,249,100,165,0.035,0.86,0.106,0.8204,1,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,7,10,11,0,0,8,0,16,5,0,8,0,31,27,12,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,10,9,0,1,9,0,0,1,2,4,3,0,3,2,3,7,15,21,5,11,0,4,0,0,5,6,0,6,3,75,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264174674421215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10336969354126677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20671228637575,0.0,0.0,0.25074969258372315,0.0,0.0,0.105013132805896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07925911289922824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06067579288230347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13157421229008215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065061731311296,0.0,0.1323008320053165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608674375607132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08475981044659521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08010117906062801,0.36498462235029305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626632454983947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0957831507835408,0.0,0.08821407966411253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13662121705831964,0.0,0.1277964780883502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477969480384963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09022534431098027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08147237447089815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10364179114971628,0.0,0.19802574607209975,0.0,0.09525070846661572,0.0,0.0,0.3236842333661271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602705656529895,0.2620850965477137,0.0,0.0,0.17048964030769115,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Saltygamer9,2020/01/26,"Evidence against thought broadcasting Tonight I decided to list all of the reasons I could think of for believing in thought broadcasting... I'll be honest, I feel more than a bit embarrassed realising how badly the evidence weighs against a belief like that.

Under FOR, I managed to list 3 reasons to believe in it that were absolutely ridiculous, while under AGAINST I managed 10 solid reasons not to. For instance, ""FOR: explains feelings of being watched"" vs ""AGAINST: 1% of population are schizophrenic meaning up to approx. 70 million people experience this symptom, yet I cannot hear them"".

I'm starting to think that investigating delusional ideas in a serious, logical way is far better than trying to ignore suspicious feelings. Has anyone tried anything like this and did it help with delusions?",9.65029411764706,10.647465205882355,8.913529411764708,61.435882352941206,58.70588235294118,11.8,47.88235294117647,11.45678717892309,6.2516647058823525,652,42,89,17,8,206,92,136,0.106,0.785,0.11,0.1389,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,1,1,2,9,1,1,5,0,9,3,0,4,1,24,21,3,0,1,2,0,3,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,7,2,1,1,16,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,4,5,7,4,28,14,3,12,1,0,1,0,4,7,0,0,6,64,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11628145521646538,0.0,0.13685147005991094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388543042087202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3747283296750942,0.0,0.14707963079946415,0.18155751007029208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13277773576386226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16267418978872106,0.0,0.0,0.2522601938373624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18743319946903186,0.0,0.1114679870765531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18773347267070645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16249243806322394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811504317078148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11529210407825835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5129550644097897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177086322047492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17285030945943292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2131178021895868,0.0,0.2640486755106737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22581478818398376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13200191289653776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,fooormaaaanmills,2020/01/26,How can I take away the certainty That other people are always talking about me. Why am I so sure of it?,1.4113636363636353,3.157985590909096,3.7181818181818183,87.99727272727276,79.45454545454545,6.218181818181819,20.090909090909093,7.1686216300943375,0.4960181818181826,81,2,17,1,2,28,21,22,0.0,0.7829999999999999,0.217,0.6113,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,1,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3732551522733743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4214564185088269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31098943814339264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4227820857663779,0.0,0.33727692745360915,0.3605522470013929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4047743906265321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Apollo_Lol,2020/01/26,"I don't feel like I'm physically where I am If the title confused you, I'm sorry, it's the only way I know how to phrase it.

I get these tactile hallucinations where it feels like I'm somewhere else, and some inner monologue issues as well where it feels like people are concerned and trying to talk to me about something I'm doing in that other place. 

This all started after I tried LSD in 2018, I had no prior knowledge of my Dads history with schizophrenia (schizoaffective, actually) because I haven't seen him in 13 years and we don't talk too much. 

I haven't been formally diagnosed, but I just don't know what else can cause the sensations I'm experiencing. I feel like I'm either at my friend's house naked and freaking out still on LSD, or I'm at my house freaking out and hurting my dogs because of some more serious mental illness, when in this version of reality, the one I'm making this post in, all I'd be doing is chilling at my computer or playing guitar or doing something else.

I'm sick of this, I'm sick of not having faith in my senses, not having a definitive feeling of being grounded to where I see I am. Does anyone else struggle with this? And if so, what do you do to cope? Do antipsychs help? I'm just tired of this.",7.498809523809527,5.7963615793650805,8.146031746031749,74.06285714285717,64.15873015873015,10.622222222222225,35.285714285714285,9.2995712137729,3.0466761904761905,986,36,194,14,12,332,136,252,0.19699999999999998,0.774,0.028999999999999998,-0.99,0,0,2,0,0,0,25.0,1,2,0,0,13,14,0,2,5,0,22,5,0,3,2,38,45,16,0,2,11,1,5,4,1,0,5,0,0,0,15,11,0,0,8,2,0,0,8,6,1,1,3,8,23,8,29,40,8,27,1,1,2,0,9,19,0,8,10,129,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.12004678699086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08601630398755775,0.12604539140510965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14997996834201113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126372282858566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12485960352976623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10765295225592228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4110594691554532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110053028473267,0.35153330301189145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09504258186215804,0.0,0.06427127325506088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08245566108034298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838900619143109,0.13169217742356226,0.0,0.0,0.12839772344089548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13521378493228875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403994501463126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08211476197930093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239721405506373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09043160462543257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08335946152373147,0.09355992541336428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08528445617832599,0.0,0.1285265183631735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11781622247412825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09802857327203532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18940889930744675,0.0,0.13770739158925185,0.08707202254078485,0.0,0.0982414863385594,0.0,0.0,0.12860401441274974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19775271142944165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413898747795756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16704085298176696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09764512015704416,0.0,0.0,0.11060700184031988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07921887540344036
schizophrenia,lululemonbitch,2020/01/26,"Question Hi there!! I was hesitant to ask this question. Was anyone diagnosed with bipolar prior to being diagnosed w schizophrenia? I ask because I have bipolar with psychotic symptoms, and my grandmother has bipolar and schizophrenia. I get very paranoid and have auditory hallucinations. I have only recently mentioned to my therapist and dr the psychotic symptoms because I was afraid of being hospitalized.",8.551128205128208,12.133746907692313,8.422692307692309,53.97147435897438,64.53846153846155,11.102564102564099,47.756410256410255,10.864195022040775,7.188794871794872,339,24,36,11,6,109,39,65,0.08,0.92,0.0,-0.5963,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,9,8,0,0,0,8,12,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,8,0,6,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,2,2,30,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14647454868788615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3916744192523076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553963278670663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42523924485331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10944559702300856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15932035224597804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4693351273256802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20683801027572435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4354636089047992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432245213096211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1728444277604225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Lakeitron,2020/01/26,"Will meds really work?  Feel like antidepressants are my only option or its all over for me. Im having thoughts that everyone is against me. Im not even sure if I should be typing this because I feel like all of you are against me. I feel like im the only real one here and that God has setup this elaborate scheme to torture me. I feel like none of you are real and you are all controlled by a hive mind and your only purpose is to torture. Im being so serious. This thought is in my head 24/7. I know that may sound crazy out of all the people why would I be the main character of this fucked up story but this thought just wont leave my mind. I think I have schizophrenia or who knows you guys could really all be against me and typing this is worthless. So just answer this question for me, Is the world really against me? A simple yes or no will suffice and I will believe whatever answer I get.",2.351087837837838,4.110861821621628,3.5896452702702715,89.92068412162163,76.72972972972974,6.570945945945946,23.994932432432428,7.413659706084162,0.9607364864864868,707,23,150,9,16,230,99,185,0.105,0.821,0.07400000000000001,-0.7742,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,5,0,2,6,10,3,0,6,1,24,2,1,1,6,43,36,12,0,4,8,0,4,4,0,7,0,1,0,1,12,6,0,1,13,0,0,0,4,5,0,1,3,5,25,5,17,21,7,5,0,1,0,1,8,5,1,7,4,110,37,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07014285814245855,0.0,0.0,0.1296394104393228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12905573757727154,0.09187043530346324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07599967466128668,0.0,0.0,0.10995001210692952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327222877063304,0.3288112523038336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10637619657792777,0.06011697231839105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113932931254457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11809039492231704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4971619225149431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12647397436146507,0.0,0.0,0.12183774573613447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248607559468928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12781182599621568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2323666982203481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779713577636887,0.2625374834507295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07977192657930955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12889968909190044,0.0,0.0,0.2619394501610429,0.2211417087810158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10844786789592586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07372932346464793,0.0,0.2740474517912831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382871252160084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08376905124891995,0.0,0.0,0.08173922671187556,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,benz0is,2020/01/26,Has anyone ever recovered from delusional disorder? Like you know its total bs and impossible?,6.812000000000001,10.829450533333334,8.575000000000003,46.9425,77.0,13.66666666666667,34.16666666666667,11.20814326018867,7.253666666666668,78,4,8,4,2,27,15,15,0.165,0.7,0.135,-0.1431,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3932589716912106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6445850465800895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5087434575531383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3090927623944409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27477128223663977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ChickenNuggetKris,2020/01/26,"Been in denial about my illness That title hurts a bit to type. For a long time I have felt this weird relief\phoniness due to not being constantly psychotic. I felt like my illness was ""very mild"" because I wasn't in a constant state of psychosis like others. I felt ashamed to even try to reach out and sympathize with others who suffer, like I was a fraud or a fake.

As a result, I would take my medication when my persisting hallucinations became tactile and stop taking it when they were no longer that. I felt I didn't need it, because I wasn't that ill. I thought I knew enough about the illness and didn't tick off enough boxes to have concern.

I have really misled myself. My mind is very ill and I have been attributing many symptoms as just part of my ""quirky"" personality. Things have been getting worse lately. I am starting to realize that a lot of my behaviors are linked to this illness that I'm not even fully willing to believe I have. Even if I did, I am convinced that I won't deteriorate.

I haven't told my doctor or therapist about any of this because I didn't think it was there. I simply got on medication to stop the tactile hallucinations. The delusions I suffer with are extreme and constant. My behavior is erratic and I am very passive and ""chill"" while my current life situation is cause for much concern. I sit in this room all day and honestly think I wake up everyday with no energy or will to do because I am just lazy. Nobody in my life can distinguish between me and my illness because they simply don't believe I have it. We all ignore it. Even what I state here I have only becane aware of in the past week. I have had this illness for 3 years.

Even as I say all of this I still believe I am an imposter. Many of you are suffering so deeply while I still have (what I believe to be) enough of a grip on reality to justify this way of thinking. I learned of my illness through my first psychotic episode (which was about 2 months long) and I am under the impression that if things aren't that severe all the time, I don't really have schizophrenia.

I really don't have a point to this post. I just needed to get these thoughts down somewhere, maybe so I can bring them to my therapist next week. I hope you all have a good day today.",4.876666666666665,5.737308928571429,5.668821428571429,81.01784523809526,69.08928571428572,8.741190476190477,30.55833333333333,8.936278230431713,2.4034827976190485,1792,70,354,31,30,586,200,448,0.138,0.787,0.075,-0.9815,1,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,1,2,3,2,20,16,0,1,17,0,54,16,1,3,5,56,76,24,0,6,10,0,5,3,0,4,15,1,1,1,30,15,0,3,14,0,0,1,15,8,0,1,24,6,65,8,52,46,12,50,0,4,0,0,10,14,0,7,33,267,95,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053819864835073006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24122379178145714,0.0,0.0,0.3566676463279911,0.0,0.0,0.08640351510931618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08130152735519203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25657597606356874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020812063395061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100607997763591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453272196547655,0.0,0.26136559275527305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039582619429496,0.0,0.0,0.06731888392930714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08269776508742017,0.0,0.0,0.06638128359743996,0.06329778216674839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07860672641439351,0.0,0.0,0.08472407812122387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08927660343689645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11180189779497088,0.11599562437744668,0.0,0.0,0.1400778971434615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06728443703608855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16047689437458182,0.07950964942099964,0.0,0.0,0.15945622850250527,0.0,0.0,0.07991173657995065,0.0,0.06317108295758278,0.0,0.05817911499990089,0.1173668690748805,0.0,0.0,0.08416933902284503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0601917181780875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08570401469551724,0.07555082364939028,0.0,0.0691045005157796,0.0,0.0,0.07481559242769224,0.0,0.07579699137892444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15210284532416868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06293758597980148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08940891483210972,0.0,0.0,0.08895990069644594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05601773001437607,0.0,0.1264071948104039,0.13233396451070412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08225974413972674,0.11901117605174498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18378194165759548,0.10515801095722073,0.15213466439165452,0.0,0.1256611952612064,0.09229768671161666,0.0,0.07501818586591835,0.07562440290922832,0.0,0.05373281296710857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19590346627552327,0.0,0.06281992560373237,0.12696727135254784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08065334486115239,0.05622082340778617,0.0,0.0,0.05096541282607514
schizophrenia,jimmyheidi,2020/01/26,Hallucinations What's the longest hallucinations u ever had,8.033333333333331,11.59671733333333,11.076111111111107,23.66750000000001,97.88888888888887,10.68888888888889,37.833333333333336,8.841846274778883,6.684066666666666,52,3,5,2,2,19,8,9,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,StringFheory,2020/01/26,Advice Hey I'm undiagnosed but I do need some advice that I feel like this sub will be able to help me. 2 months ago I ended up hospitalized for about a week and a half for psychosis. They put me on 40mg Geodon and it was really helpful I didn't realize how lost and psychotic I was until weeks into this medicine (maybe not completely aware). After being on this medicine it started to give me heart palpitations so they switched me to Invega 3mg and since I've been on that life has been very hard. My family says it's seems like I'm having delusions again and am just kind of out there again and I do feel like the medicine isn't working very well. I have some moments where I'm cool like right now but things have been very dark and scary these past week or so. Based off of the things in this sub I felt like I needed to go back to the hospital but it is so expensive my parents aren't letting me go. I was able to get an appointment with my psychiatrist this Wednesday but I don't know if I'll make it till then life has been really difficult and I feel like I'm about to break. Not sure what I can do or what I should do.,1.2007282913165265,3.277398617647058,2.655651260504204,93.68554971988796,81.73109243697479,6.487675070028013,20.00070028011204,7.645422480735847,0.4939070028011208,893,24,205,15,24,290,134,238,0.064,0.8009999999999999,0.135,0.9529,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,2,2,14,12,0,0,6,1,28,3,1,2,1,36,47,22,0,4,10,1,5,6,0,2,2,1,0,0,17,11,0,0,7,0,1,3,6,2,1,1,10,7,24,10,25,32,2,32,0,1,0,0,8,10,0,6,24,133,41,1,0.24101703111636905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23551905338062284,0.10682352797457144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266360991750612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12635088579230186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1067347759621146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11360470348502524,0.0,0.18279817902591336,0.2582739227805209,0.11570707319470305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06296072557359507,0.11560274897832927,0.1369755330230942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10795195965540164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14280317116232874,0.16154863553632956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12549107460384873,0.06622832858082976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12322812185997098,0.17023745679789992,0.35324624148892153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315492802217724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0804403698990473,0.0,0.12106700132358983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09618874740024128,0.0,0.0,0.17871107465707534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13381044530604844,0.0,0.1150390139230479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12114434281131445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15440168172694216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10291361383934723,0.0,0.09583320842951308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10970642658085528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.099685889370369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08529654756600863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11357784975388825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16012100599680712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29829643802467204,0.0,0.0,0.2899939866575173,0.0,0.10835162797771633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08773163457585159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,tomorrow_is_over,2020/01/26,"Hallucinating Mufasa When I was younger I used to watch The Lion King multiple times a day and would watch it every time with such conviction. Fast forward 20 years, I am sleeping in the closet because every noise is deafening and ""people"" are listening in. I'm laying on my back and the clouds start to roll in in all shades of black and blue. Out of the clouds the scene from Lion King starts to happen. Mufasa says ""You have forgotten who you are, and so forgotten me. You are more than what you have become."" It wasn't word for word from the movie but it was close. I remember thinking and really feeling.. ""I'm not who I used to be"".  The clouds started to fade and Remember who you are started to echo out until it fell silent.  

This hallucination was one of my first sustained hallucinations and I know it probably sounds like b.s. but despite how I'd react if I wasn't in psychosis during that moment the feeling that stays is that I am not who I used to be. I went from being confident to always hiding from any opportunity. Sometimes people will tell me that a really attractive girl is in to me and I'll I can think of is how'd they react to knowing what I go through and been through coupled with the fact I'm jobless and broke.",3.032667660208645,5.147285426229511,4.259225037257824,84.28018628912073,75.88524590163935,7.223248882265277,24.61549925484352,8.150884317080207,1.5085803278688528,980,33,192,17,22,321,131,244,0.046,0.882,0.07200000000000001,0.8515,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,5,1,4,5,4,0,0,11,0,24,1,1,6,2,40,44,18,0,2,5,0,2,1,0,2,0,3,1,1,16,16,0,0,8,0,0,4,4,1,0,2,7,9,23,3,34,32,2,30,0,1,4,0,14,11,0,1,17,133,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12207968004886953,0.0,0.0,0.09977208671708374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11281574633129401,0.0,0.08943686925114384,0.1620365803134864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623387491531227,0.0,0.09461984903065487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24722955077261555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14836829699144485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124796774307674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08338223063446497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12974070262246465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16126283713255024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07167815285089665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09941873362904798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20342916032578665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581849411439921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18798038382423404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324018399180529,0.0,0.0,0.1166746573107061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468222149656067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451061309229335,0.0,0.4153860909027259,0.15638001006297286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12823647648134148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18801970827280806,0.0,0.0,0.17110286007958447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3801472214756487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360074412744267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10422302035757024,0.0,0.0,0.09448046002414756
schizophrenia,lucasz0595,2020/01/26,"I thought I could control people I would think about something and have the attitude that it would happen but at the same time act natural. Then act like the next thing I want the person to do is the normal thing to do in that situation. And something similar would happen. It wouldn’t work if I tried too hard or wasn’t really into it, but it did work sometimes. I began to think I was a psychic or something and even had deep philosophical and spiritual thoughts as to why it would happen, like everyone was connected spiritually but my soul was stronger for some reason. Probably because I was god and didn’t realize it, or the second coming of Jesus Christ. I even made up a system for how it works in my head. Levels of people’s spiritual power and ability to influence others was measured by how tall their souls were which were like blue or red 2D squares stacked on each other. And it starts from the base of the spine up to the top of the head and into astral plane (kinda like the Buddhist chakra system).  I would take people’s squares and add it to my own stack, which made me feel more powerful mentally and closer to reaching god and being able to manipulate reality. Later on I got sent to a mental hospital for purposefully stabbing my hand and I stopped doing it because I forgot how to and realized I was just having psychosis.",8.118076923076924,7.2077432286821725,8.340697674418601,70.61208407871202,62.44961240310078,11.349314251639836,35.737626714370904,10.560738912317856,3.708238163387002,1075,41,193,22,13,354,143,258,0.015,0.8270000000000001,0.159,0.9893,2,0,3,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,7,8,4,0,0,14,0,26,4,4,9,0,57,44,26,0,10,9,0,3,4,0,6,0,0,0,1,18,18,0,3,8,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,20,7,20,4,31,16,5,27,4,0,4,0,3,14,0,7,11,144,38,3,0.11424222195551205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13928199629222465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09840955851702764,0.0,0.0,0.1281323661364123,0.09121311825727042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15091182031511938,0.0,0.0,0.1091633388213588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057764300015403926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09136994112341117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030720587535822,0.0,0.10233859141290604,0.0,0.23449095721637495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22325191619974816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21619750535134485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23025857934757685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12149789909943773,0.0,0.11193312159597807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376035168001832,0.09975190168363322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12317243755500475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07318649272398105,0.1174600311854646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12841304403945938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26384773149399765,0.1129884786800529,0.0,0.08086123270160088,0.0,0.0,0.09551161298288303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08589593329059968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15179491193711536,0.14640360586069764,0.0,0.1813911265053051,0.06661555833387171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07756296965139274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06738302242326841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10308583607392467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495090946057283,0.0,0.0,0.40577198353859795,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,overpoopulation,2020/01/26,"Demons Don’t fall asleep. They can not move when your eyes are open. No matter how badly they want to. And trust me, they’d really like to devour your body and your soul.

Keep away from walls. They are bound to the walls. Don’t run. They will be there.",-0.5174999999999983,1.696748019230775,-0.12038461538461398,107.50288461538463,97.65384615384615,3.3692307692307697,6.5,5.148860815047168,-2.4345461538461537,195,0,48,1,8,57,39,52,0.09300000000000001,0.757,0.15,0.2944,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,5,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,8,3,3,1,0,9,10,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,0,1,9,2,5,7,0,8,2,0,1,0,8,4,0,0,2,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3924833991049061,0.0,0.34879804415174714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4640184170352054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3713092665180332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20408818044526292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4439948104663702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.267616930460633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24639570711613384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Realistic-Rope,2020/01/26,"What are the weirdest most nonsense dreams you’ve had? For me it was one as in a desert and on a banner said AXIOOTATIA, which I thought was Ancient Greek, think it means “worth it” or something.",3.867280701754384,5.537495026315792,3.3236842105263165,93.79412280701756,72.42105263157895,6.119298245614036,28.456140350877188,6.42735559955562,1.0462877192982454,153,6,32,1,3,45,34,38,0.12300000000000001,0.754,0.12300000000000001,-0.0038,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,6,8,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,2,0,4,3,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5325313892161585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3312763400978937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4650348668162706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3763621177343989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3132532398536346,0.0,0.3881144711186456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,bob438602,2020/01/26,"I'm not very smart I'll just greentext this

>have compulsive eating disorder (born entirely from my brain being extremely impulsive and unable to comprehend cause and effect, not food addiction, I only eat bland keto foods dont even use salt)

>parents have to bring me groceries because I cant drive and all that

>they come every 4 days and my BMR for 4 days is 6,000 calories so I make sure all the calories for that list is under 6,000 calories so I know that it will all be burned off eventually

>so I eat 4 days worth of food in one sitting and then go 4 days without eating

>I've been gaining and losing the same pound every week since August

>last time parents came they brought some extra food that I didn't ask for

>i can't not compulsively put food in my mouth after my brain gets the idea of doing it

>i would have put it down the garbage disposal but i broke it a while ago by putting too much food down it at one time

>so i pour dish soap all over it and put it in the freezer

>it was in there for a week

>i havent eaten in a few days and was hungry so went arount the kitchen looking for food when I know there's none in my apartment

>remember the turkey cutlets marinated in frozen dish soap

>do what my brain says and take them out and thaw/rinse off the soap

>the blue color is gone but the soap marinated into them so they still smelled and tasted like soap

>but that didn't stop me from compulsively eating it

>realize that i'm a brain damaged retard eating soap 

Oh well",6.657429411764706,6.571174056666668,6.199686274509804,82.04523529411767,65.1,9.1921568627451,30.98039215686275,8.671277953709913,2.1991215686274512,1227,40,242,16,17,379,171,300,0.06,0.894,0.046,-0.7324,2,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,4,3,12,7,0,0,13,0,19,24,5,4,5,38,37,20,0,1,7,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,16,15,18,1,4,0,1,12,11,3,1,2,10,7,21,4,30,23,10,48,0,3,3,0,7,17,0,1,19,141,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07781648570466382,0.0,0.0,0.06327548585927148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06673216481006145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04351356383101127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3187419137063835,0.0,0.08164153977424539,0.0,0.07332857124089036,0.0,0.06148893209612001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301761496656701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08180950347288933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08365870936663218,0.0,0.0,0.4382472137418609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04714687684658518,0.0,0.12028416164979815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.60420444023928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037293942413789374,0.0,0.04056781107684503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08058114337787181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07845892656900504,0.05818553520158549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03487344654929973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05994257023257939,0.0798577572198807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047647775584357684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052473692903258116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09674004575491238,0.05428892713479405,0.0,0.0,0.15852164968378835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28703291478307186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08086144338418239,0.0,0.0,0.056765517295719124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059047601243100475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05700544191205691,0.059678217986103566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06727631788887703,0.0,0.053670083364154735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08324637575175818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06165078796311831,0.0,0.0588972997615101,0.0,0.0,0.114516035620851,0.0,0.0641806354267297,0.06617146292060748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06880931990315846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05070744411071743,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,naturallycured,2020/01/26,"Wow, try Holy Basil tea for a cheap, low side effect antipsychotic effect. This stuff is *amazing*. My brain is so damned calm now.

I was even able to go out to the local pizza shop to pick up a pizza. I hadn't gone in ages!

1 tsp in 1 cup of water, brewed for a few mins. Good shit.

You can have so many cups a day, this stuff is so safe. People sometimes take 2 *ounces* a day therapeutically, which is like 12 cups.

Bad side is it's androgenic (lowers testosterone) so you have to manage your weight better. The effect wears off in 2 weeks, so don't take it if you're making babies, wait a month or so.

Calm your brain for a like $20-30 a month! Depending on the source.

Small thread about it: https://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/how-tulsi-holy-basil-has-changed-my-life/182668",1.7449028213166144,4.527117737931037,1.7101097178683418,94.5410893416928,92.3103448275862,4.015673981191223,12.108150470219435,5.852544927426893,-1.186586206896552,612,8,124,5,22,181,97,145,0.084,0.753,0.163,0.8985,1,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,4,0,4,9,13,2,0,11,0,11,9,4,6,0,11,17,8,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,1,5,2,3,1,2,2,2,4,0,0,3,1,7,9,16,14,1,22,0,1,0,0,4,12,2,3,10,64,15,1,0.18676442333553325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15594049232999588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16517795519040224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4169817262913738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408952048323491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12335614019589272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10614252576940827,0.15664913731579758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13191723548207032,0.1824873268126548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12466670282598315,0.189349811426862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981471617397786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12947893530689453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917109966770448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18471479023278145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4276011634447759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808472064581068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12680078390610205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14981115494341274,0.22742875299409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Moonheatt,2020/01/26,Sociopathic Does anyone feel like antipsychotics have removed their empathy and emotions to the point where they'd consider themselves sociopathic?,17.55428571428571,18.349376809523807,13.390476190476189,36.462857142857146,42.80952380952381,17.923809523809524,59.0952380952381,15.903189008614273,10.31572380952381,127,8,12,5,1,37,20,21,0.0,0.884,0.11599999999999999,0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33264705563226377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4163215104340357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5351411925975016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24054741597162435,0.33986730649489705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324215455663889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4497261612539808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,polite_porcupine,2020/01/26,Can anybody here control their auditory hallucinations? The moment I realized I could control them and silence them using my will was the greatest moment of my life. It was profoundly liberating and the first silence I had had in months. My life since then has been totally different. I was wondering if anybody else here can do it and how its affected you.,6.23859375,8.438891921875001,7.102000000000004,66.94300000000003,67.28125,10.745,37.8,10.793553405168565,4.929535,289,16,45,9,5,96,43,64,0.025,0.909,0.066,0.5574,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,3,3,3,0,0,0,3,0,12,2,0,5,1,13,14,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,11,0,2,6,2,6,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,5,42,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6123029765324575,0.2179389388168896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28518849232797144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22802576417406786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23218239558793524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3856040229153722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178766568438372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22579801585467074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357526013738909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2960169938838147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Bojanglekun,2020/01/27,"I think I might be schizophrenic As you may have gathered from the title, I fear I may have schizophrenia of some kind. For the past few years I’ve been paranoid and deluded. But what’s odd is the fact that I understand that these things aren’t healthy, from what I’ve read most schizophrenics aren’t aware of their illness and completely believe their delusions. However, I don’t believe my delusions,  I know for a fact that they can’t possibly be true, but I still can’t shake the feeling. Here’s a quick list of symptoms:

Paranoia,
Lack of motivation,
Flat affect,
Lack of emotion,
Felling of being watched (usually via phone),
Unwanted/intrusive thoughts,
Social isolation, 
Irritability, 
Dissociation,
Inability to focus/brain fog.

Again, I really don’t believe what I’m thinking is real, it’s more of a strong but skeptical feeling than a belief; I don’t believe I’m being watched and I don’t believe people can behave my thoughts, but it sure as hell feels like it.",7.98,8.034812555555561,7.5566666666666675,72.94500000000002,62.33333333333333,10.755555555555556,39.66666666666667,10.355215969177356,4.1941000000000015,780,39,136,16,10,246,107,180,0.19899999999999998,0.675,0.126,-0.9258,3,1,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,1,3,2,4,9,2,2,8,0,21,4,0,2,4,31,32,9,0,2,4,0,3,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,11,3,0,0,11,1,0,2,8,4,0,0,3,5,17,5,15,22,6,8,2,0,2,0,7,0,1,5,7,89,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7364953372071529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14594893779495013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13707827058899905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14706476128372462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711870623831075,0.19831802595258988,0.0934005921973719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13614546010645148,0.07185121567555516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06387289857094602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386943457947603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12480600337663768,0.09063856703234746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14738956404794795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13077525419086955,0.1488105993543588,0.08375531114975296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13327283720901492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10440903235914548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12322078411917825,0.13588878861874512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08685776300410533,0.1675456645880587,0.0,0.20758571253788072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1361048197525677,0.0,0.0,0.143991500557488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08419219246081906
schizophrenia,crystallized_eyes,2020/01/27,"Can you feel positive emotions? Like joy, happiness, anticipation, love, crushes.. because I can't feel any of these things. I lost my imagination and my spirituality. I don't have a particularly heavy case of psychosis, but it's either the meds or negative symptoms causing this crap emotional range. Do you ever feel good? Is happiness impossible for me?",5.736284153005464,8.85679773770492,7.33237704918033,60.601079234972715,71.62295081967213,10.624043715846994,36.39617486338798,10.504223727775694,5.09388306010929,286,16,43,10,6,98,51,61,0.14,0.5489999999999999,0.311,0.8762,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,1,1,8,1,0,2,0,6,3,1,1,1,10,11,3,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,4,8,6,3,10,1,1,0,1,0,1,3,0,1,1,2,29,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509083200226213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13527598881483488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22796558382379625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4992440835774228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2007328407388525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33661735231246537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18612993583935414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4724606238538906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10841538936361986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422440455524791,0.0,0.20028497442673374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464951044445945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23065237773557465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14742900989350893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,incuuboy,2020/01/27,Laughing at people on health binges What are they trying to tell me? Guilt me by programming everyone around me to be healthy and fit and motivated? Not falling for it today mr overlord alien :),2.928571428571427,6.011781857142861,3.3228571428571456,83.70714285714288,87.57142857142857,6.2285714285714295,27.0,7.554174236665415,2.1188285714285717,155,7,26,3,5,48,31,35,0.044000000000000004,0.613,0.34299999999999997,0.9202,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,5,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,7,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,18,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.381695411996462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4097072588506395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4557615135033972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972545136262296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3747631006740251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4064229813750053,0.0,0.0,0.2911060803681628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,peacepipe1,2020/01/27,"Desensitizing myself to the effect I have on others I appear somewhat normal on the surface perhaps from a distance not making eye contact with me.  i am for the most part physically healthy without noticeable  scars deformities, I am not over or underweight, have good hygiene and dress appropriately.

But most people within 10 feet of me, and everyone who makes eye contact with me or speaks to me, always takes an immediate step back after overcoming the paralysis they have from their fear of me.  Don’t know exactly what it is or how to correct it, but I can remember when I was healthy encountering here and there people who I immediately could identify as ‘crazy’.  The fearfully locked bulging eye contact, a stiffness and nervousness that seemed connected to my physical presence, and a certain  subdued silence that seemed to be the flora of deep roots of violent anger.   Just a few people in my past that were like I am now.  Some I knew personally who later confided their diagnosis, some meeting in passing or in a class room.

When I see others reacting to me this way, I usually avoid completely, try to term from them and find a different path as to not expose them to me and escape the shame.  But I’m going to change this up and ignore it from now on, and observe it and embrace it.  I think ‘psychology’ makes promises like exposure to the situation will reduce your anxiety in said situation fixing you and allowing you to be mentally healthy in that situation.  I don’t think this is always the case.   But my new goal is not to change myself in hopes of becoming more normal but to feel more comfortable being abnormal and frightening.",10.023985714285716,8.709400170000006,10.034476190476196,61.28700000000002,58.96666666666667,13.771428571428574,42.42857142857143,12.66393586644259,5.592657142857144,1321,63,216,39,14,439,169,300,0.109,0.7709999999999999,0.12,0.1226,1,1,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,3,5,2,9,15,2,5,16,0,19,5,4,8,3,62,36,26,0,4,15,0,1,2,0,1,1,2,1,1,18,14,0,3,10,0,0,4,7,8,0,0,4,7,33,7,42,27,10,31,0,0,4,0,18,15,0,13,13,171,51,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079777553155118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560522596531176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09609775220918916,0.0,0.0,0.13802462555238576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26441310885224084,0.0,0.1310334890372784,0.0,0.0,0.0997820478179562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305718561955078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119418584764504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812623371775067,0.06319091218930427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114224519142284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07102594450450034,0.10482276404314096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12412797536589786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06868277109919682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211255246675005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2502645453071361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259450011902385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12070124622876925,0.0,0.0,0.24489714429015774,0.0,0.14228440899115294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13533531174929786,0.11930239566760065,0.25992495298976004,0.10912299912447064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14157185802999425,0.0,0.11887946229655096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09958857467965533,0.2275443619498127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4214300556413658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09396534497149947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16015735323848476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08484954899610685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13764186423340438,0.0,0.0,0.09919901939078593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12047105345606494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Pewds123451,2020/01/27,What is Schizophrenia? Im still confused about it i know its different from person to person but someone please tell me what exactly is it according to your experience.,3.9860000000000007,7.301539933333332,4.641666666666668,75.14250000000001,83.0,8.333333333333334,30.83333333333333,8.841846274778883,3.6963333333333335,138,7,21,4,4,44,24,30,0.054000000000000006,0.85,0.096,0.3182,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,16,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33219849147907754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110239872158455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34344925913233354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17474143061574204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5552574153582265,0.0,0.3490224611994551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694048265069616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539217118611601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779093529038323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,llamabitch529,2020/01/27,I mess up again. The voices have been really bad the last couple months and they keep getting worse but I mess up this morning..I let them out..i probably lost the only person that ever made me feel the slightest bit better because they came out on him I just fucked up again..idk what to do...they won’t stop telling me to just kill myself...witch I should..no one would have to deal with me then..I won’t be able To hurt people that way but Ik if I do it people are going to hurt anyway 😓 idk what to do 😓,-0.3421877205363444,1.7623804128440383,1.5368807339449546,98.97782639378971,88.90825688073393,4.087791107974596,13.889202540578687,5.369823440869387,-1.1641014820042341,391,6,92,2,13,128,72,109,0.313,0.6559999999999999,0.031,-0.988,0,0,0,0,0,1,17.0,0,0,3,2,5,9,2,0,4,0,11,1,0,1,1,15,19,4,1,2,5,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,6,4,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,8,0,1,4,2,12,1,12,10,1,13,0,3,0,1,7,5,1,1,5,55,18,0,0.1821906019153684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521215424928066,0.11106169989557946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16113278183192165,0.1989049503393904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083775124610273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20159043569872367,0.0,0.0,0.18783051061226055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16480183004125834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09212104254348832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16843227569051095,0.09518706986099416,0.0,0.1035431176525726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3900776150121155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16193937813487852,0.2015669072359524,0.0,0.0,0.1485096572167387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18630223424940096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19888256389289174,0.0,0.0,0.17239315271678374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454228002491154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1234570669876916,0.13856416257958687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526160468639535,0.15908180617338666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19643228355859807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11671596484397237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15231950115637244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15924261644987234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14461441952594048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185667788330333,0.12942297629694025,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,introvertgenius,2020/01/27,"I feel like it is just getting worse... I was diagnosed about 9 years ago with schizoaffective disorder. I had been having symptoms since I was about 15, but I used drugs and alcohol to self-medicated, but I've been properly being treated for the last 9 years or so.   


I just feel that it is getting worse each year. The voices getting louder. The hallucination getting more 'real', even though I know they aren't. The levels of depression and anxiety, just getting worse. Every time I think I hit the lowest I can go, it seems to outdo itself the next time.   


I'm at the point where I am having episodes daily. Just me rambling on, talking to nobody, about nothing really. The conversations get longer and more complex. I still see the demons when I wake up in the morning, and it takes me a little bit to clear my head.   


I see my psychiatrist every 3 - 6 months, and each time now we are making adjustments to my medications. Increasing the ones that I haven't hit the limits on yet, and switching to other meds for the meds I have hit the limits on. I don't have a therapist right now, because my last therapist told me to 'man up' with my feelings. I have been looking for someone that specializes with schizoaffective disorder, but none of them take my insurance.   


Is this just what it is going to be? Me getting worse, year after year, until I end up in a hospital? I've seen some people say it is a degenerative disease, but I've also seen some people say that it gets stable. I don't feel stable. I tell my doctor that. I feel like I am spiraling out of control down the rabbit hole. My only solace is a couple friends I have online, but I fear they will go away. I just spend my clear thinking parts of my day playing video games and studying programming. Seems like time with those things are slipping away though. I can't focus.   


  
Just one of those days I guess. Thanks for reading.",4.2076098901098895,5.8141844313186875,5.072857142857141,81.84714285714288,71.44505494505495,7.947252747252746,27.01098901098901,8.527137837955566,1.929424175824176,1479,51,280,25,28,481,185,364,0.091,0.825,0.083,-0.7141,1,0,2,0,0,0,48.0,1,0,3,3,21,10,0,1,20,0,31,8,2,3,2,51,68,19,0,0,13,0,5,3,1,1,6,3,0,1,19,15,1,3,12,4,1,4,6,2,0,2,9,13,46,8,39,53,10,46,1,1,5,0,13,18,0,6,27,196,65,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07160478455811213,0.08632706933379035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06459810261421935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06179491560958321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15178709832474152,0.0,0.0,0.0492414925174167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08818860717081528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09059934688338846,0.0,0.08937927242581832,0.0,0.10419019867430124,0.0,0.06957393555267062,0.0819879254663957,0.0,0.0,0.1851570728041759,0.08267966131420874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09367678421500723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07154529327513763,0.0,0.0,0.053353078421173684,0.0,0.1361178245212149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09089765865071188,0.2042188095160948,0.11541557650158595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06240884879944977,0.0,0.3376251861962739,0.0,0.13772392259202462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08898602605203589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08290148779133052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04439345235632956,0.13168963164579164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183920878544573,0.08096073352535453,0.0,0.0,0.06783313899650507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053919913202709766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26917829869355064,0.08137529288337357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0644761941971106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08590827312432474,0.0,0.0,0.0775086278378158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1094744677240186,0.06143527589853156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08747465511538917,0.0,0.11200252826245337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07636127861823735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08079981614402097,0.0919429990215476,0.051748427360027216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06898393347219695,0.0,0.12847574636818615,0.0,0.0,0.1287391459174176,0.14707443554630464,0.08426902562821452,0.0,0.0,0.06682036033811033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06844290039264793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645093803915014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08395922611171587,0.12146994066717595,0.06492626160545792,0.07060349439764295,0.07436948946771423,0.0,0.18757886687163106,0.05366528495650704,0.10351850568521484,0.15872786422255356,0.0,0.1884091040946114,0.0,0.0,0.07718679908163033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976621878107797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292785548353487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600917778247056
schizophrenia,GodlyPumpkin,2020/01/27,"Does seeing ghosts count as a hallucination? Throughout my life I have seen ghosts in short glimpses, or what I thought to be ghosts. They look like big grey misty humanoid shapes. When I have seen them they have really started me because they’re one of my greatest fears. Sometimes if I’m feeling spooked at night I will keep my eye shut tight out of fear of a ghost appearing next to me. I will pull up the covers high over my ears because I fear something will whisper in my ear, or touch my face.

I have felt things touch my face before while I’ve been trying to go to sleep at night, and things caress my hair. My mom says when I was a toddler I would sit on the bench where my deceased cousin used to sit and I would speak to her, even though she died before I ever got the chance to meet her. 

The another night I was going to sleep and I was seeing ghosts all over my room in the darkness, and it was terrifying. I saw like four, and one of them appeared to be hovering over my bed. This is by far the most “severe” of these sightings have been in my entire life. They were all watching me, and it felt as if they were trying to communicate. Most sightings only last for a second or two. But every time I opened my eyes until I fell asleep this time I could see them. I think this was more severe because I have just recently weaned completely off of an antidepressant, but I wouldn’t blame the withdrawal for it entirely because I have experienced similar things before. Does seeing a ghost count as a hallucination? Or is it some grey area of spirituality?

Yes I am a 19 y/o and I *am* afraid of ghosts.",3.8333878504672896,5.176755644859816,4.403820093457946,87.31171144859816,71.99065420560748,7.343769470404985,24.90147975077882,7.793537801064563,1.1008638629283496,1266,37,267,16,24,402,166,321,0.08,0.868,0.052000000000000005,-0.8567,0,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,7,0,7,6,0,4,15,1,29,12,10,1,3,38,51,23,8,6,9,2,7,2,0,6,2,5,2,0,12,9,0,2,5,0,0,6,1,4,0,5,16,29,50,2,38,26,7,45,0,0,15,0,15,23,0,11,16,179,62,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10815008156838456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514899531066569,0.0,0.2632907054028589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10813912642719573,0.0,0.0,0.08234798266785562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10704184723086237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18051501286423086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06812224053470202,0.09329499851869494,0.08689893308400573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3481796561632487,0.052150103706274084,0.0,0.1980589489066348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11723237546087213,0.0,0.08248956369161205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897186227640014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09167455263955218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08407193200815101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14570004593061575,0.10077686892541378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866106614217396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12079497960742913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10968934162519853,0.2903664838086138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13977911384667974,0.07844174630445781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0660733910812785,0.0,0.10183717585006026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08202015662413595,0.0,0.0,0.3287532537555683,0.0,0.0,0.2330350960863721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064266798798064,0.0,0.0,0.07940132894312381,0.10200696414926848,0.0,0.07300221192122343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055626155989338,0.066087213266428,0.10133340067812388,0.08188072958667354,0.12028219071766995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14004902370523206,0.0,0.10075167398240358,0.0,0.0,0.08907885500970665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465337657826404,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,sushiqueen420,2020/01/27,"Experiences on Clozapine Hello! I am a nursing student in my first pharmacology class. We are now doing presentations on a variety of medications and I chose clozapine because I am interested in mental health nursing and saw that clozapine is one drug used in treatment of schizophrenia. I don't personally know anyone who takes this med and the presentation we have to do relies heavily on the personal experience of someone taking clozapine. So, if anyone would like to share their experience with me, I would be so grateful! Everything is completely anonymous and in my presentation I would refer to you as ""Patient A"" or your initials or however you would like without revealing any identity. 

The main points of the presentation are and details I would need:

1) What was your relevant medical history before taking clozapine? (What diagnosis led up to you being prescribed clozapine, what signs and symptoms led you to your diagnosis)

2) How long have you been taking clozapine? What dose have you/do you take? When do you take your dose?

3) Did your prescriber explain the reason why clozapine was prescribed as opposed to another/similar drug? If so, what was the reason?

4) What has been the effectiveness of taking clozapine? (Do you feel like your symptoms have been relieved 50% or 60% or etc. How do you feel before vs. after being on this medication)

5) Have you experienced any adverse effects? If so, what are they?

DM me with your response. Feel free to include extra details/stories as you see fit. Thank you for taking the time to read this!",5.731180048661798,8.38882858394161,6.6916970802919735,67.42080596107057,69.72992700729927,10.114111922141117,35.13929440389294,10.317481424215053,4.538684184914841,1248,65,189,38,24,414,142,274,0.009000000000000001,0.888,0.10300000000000001,0.9764,1,0,2,0,0,0,42.0,2,19,2,3,8,9,0,0,11,0,34,10,0,9,0,43,52,23,0,9,9,0,3,3,0,5,10,0,0,2,12,10,0,1,11,1,1,2,2,1,0,2,8,6,34,9,30,36,3,23,0,0,2,0,29,11,0,7,13,147,46,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286149692835012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13224417959391593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05764598381191701,0.0,0.16093580470039232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09914966788058084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21933089800236008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10546504079568113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08498897974876557,0.2775083274843837,0.0,0.0,0.14344480947595006,0.06755729888061622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08043699306287634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100518238387295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05197048474887166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385991372520474,0.0,0.0,0.0836871037005239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10504046523718052,0.2857930523482265,0.09529934012272917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07011879492462676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06407973308287612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16514112843696124,0.0,0.0,0.08939454931280236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09459065221868827,0.0,0.0,0.19445726616549228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07535611069151253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08012466979305559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19657861457327588,0.5688092602682869,0.0,0.0,0.0870628034769669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055141647873560164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08167385091039213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08533025941253153,0.0,0.0,0.0911573447914093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3358815326758965,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,schizopsych,2020/01/27,Schizophrenia made me psychic? Ive been experiencing a side effect of marajana for about a year and a couple months now. Basicaly I hear voices that have their own consciousness separate from me( like not just a delusion that their real)( my psychiatrist even wanted me to downgrade me to a personality disorder because I'm not delusional). After getting used to being able to communicate with this new type of sentient life using only my thoughts I learned that communicating psychically is very different from verbally. Kinda just like being able to communicate in direct thought without need for language.( ever hear about ID thought?) Just two nights ago I was thinking about ghosts and my voices started to tell me there was one in the apartment with me. I already knew from a previous experience that ghosts can hear people telepathically so I know thinking about one directly is almost like calling their psychic name. Sometimes when I think of a person a lot real or fictional I may create a new voice inside my head that has the chericteristics that I was thinking about in that person. So not believing right away there was really a ghost I skeptically questioned the voice saying there was a ghost. I could not hear the ghost but all my voices said they could and would continue to talk for the ghost to communicate with me. Sadly to say my schizophrenic voices are not as smart as me and really only grasp what I'm thinking about at a time even though at times they surprise me with their intelegence. So holding a conversation isn't the most pleasant. But when they were communicating for the ghost I could instantly tell it was something smarter. Talking to it I learned he has a name( if it was a voice it would only have a name if I gave it one)  and lived in my apartment before me. I believe because he has shown to understand references to music and culture that a voice simply wouldn't understand. The ghost claims to be a dead person but also says he's never seen anything like his self before.( No other ghosts?),7.515694477085779,8.453811951351355,7.3633725029377235,70.92349588719156,63.270270270270274,10.110458284371328,34.735605170387785,10.074871250255047,3.625360752056404,1642,69,270,34,23,523,182,370,0.109,0.845,0.045,-0.9736,1,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,7,1,23,9,1,0,26,0,30,3,1,4,3,69,58,21,10,10,15,0,0,4,0,4,2,16,0,5,16,10,0,1,19,0,0,0,10,2,0,4,17,18,40,7,44,31,4,27,0,1,1,0,36,11,0,9,20,199,56,3,0.1662023482914439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07366417684225099,0.0,0.0832138219672056,0.0,0.091704212111405,0.06645597894070658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06838518564300593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0780762886332794,0.0,0.0,0.10131540888404003,0.0,0.14142595701464558,0.18725313202193827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08485559007105269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990485766538272,0.09194986858264767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08682303979897205,0.09524114511908786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10977508355482006,0.07516976964681207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08128889417963263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04341693361666329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08528577936283219,0.0,0.3746442514864029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045670232027033214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05869681689281371,0.16239614434062802,0.0,0.0733798592547604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0706496465325832,0.0,0.07863234027901322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06633056437166797,0.0,0.0,0.06161846765789863,0.06409274852606373,0.1605192636522617,0.0,0.07798482250783796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16893451882929647,0.18960656286043687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057611890739009776,0.2902429596093332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09309233364035388,0.0,0.0,0.1891746586803434,0.10647348016985443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07096794866334519,0.0790482465899795,0.1982561673527317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08669264832663638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06397534381341305,0.08218918612163982,0.0,0.058819438779737984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13358715192360332,0.14526817807175796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662393845711713,0.08164648167046497,0.19791914934142368,0.0969139258526208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0811777720674959,0.1730225060120187,0.0,0.14354546584058595,0.0,0.0685671717292271,0.04901522558832671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0801065664041611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180653796479108,0.0,0.0,0.05351443157082718
schizophrenia,Skimereedinky,2020/01/27,"Thoughts appreciated Hi Redditors 
My husband has schizophrenia and has been well for 20 years almost,thanks to Clozapine and living a really healthy lifestyle. 
He has been weaning himself off of his clozapine. 
It's something I never imagined he would do. I don't understand the risks and the pros and cons. I'm scared he will get sick and we won't get him back. I've tried googling but it's really contradictory and my husband has been defensive. 
It would be nice to hear your thoughts about this.

Thank you",3.314708133971294,6.273285810526318,3.6771291866028726,84.08172248803828,80.36842105263158,7.244019138755982,28.63636363636364,8.296473431620573,2.414578947368421,412,19,75,9,11,128,66,95,0.078,0.762,0.16,0.7292,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,1,2,0,0,3,6,1,2,3,0,14,1,0,0,1,16,22,7,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,4,7,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,5,1,10,3,6,12,0,4,0,0,0,0,13,1,0,0,3,47,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281402096749809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1751882624836969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380649777786648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25678251541348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20117927623729595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17571760005380538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29190922272923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280989496665355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17539572160707914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4195130359083958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.361745321966993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546825468799245,0.0,0.0,0.2371804939786864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20484776558559212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236897408563423,0.0,0.0,0.14671593433140695
schizophrenia,AnActualOnion,2020/01/27,My hallucinations are getting better!! I know you guys don’t care but my hallucinations are getting less terrifying. Instead of my demons I am now seeing my friend “Charles” (he doesn’t exist I think). He follows me around and tells me nice things. I just wanted to tell you guys,2.3017857142857165,5.205659673076927,3.418681318681319,83.78346153846157,86.88461538461539,5.279120879120879,22.813186813186807,6.868970318607317,0.9005186813186818,221,8,41,3,7,71,38,52,0.079,0.7040000000000001,0.217,0.792,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,1,4,4,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,7,13,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,12,4,3,13,1,3,1,0,1,0,9,1,0,0,1,27,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430307684684582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414491851960897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27834500341304885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21092163019374574,0.0,0.2852658558717593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5406322689397683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150035444028379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21754824074636375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4772337391955591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813712254845848,0.174929456273984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16102438741591585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,meatpieguy,2020/01/27,"I'm interested in your sexual and romantic experiences So in my psych class right now we're doing a reading on sexual experiences of people with autism, and apparently people are much more likely to discount their sexuality or validity as being able to have sexual experiences.

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I'm schizoaffective, and I used to think that this might be the case with me; that I was seen as a person who was ""too risky"" to be romantically or sexually involved with. It turned out to not be true as I have had moderate to pretty good success with girls since then. I was wondering though whether you all have had a similar experience or whether you find that people disqualify you from being a viable romantic or sexual partner once they find out about your disorder?",13.462608695652172,9.45869975362319,13.216028985507247,49.46882608695654,55.08695652173913,17.416811594202898,46.44057971014493,15.112257680678324,6.898560579710146,618,26,100,22,5,211,89,138,0.047,0.81,0.14300000000000002,0.9309,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,5,2,1,5,5,0,0,5,0,16,0,0,1,2,24,23,15,0,0,7,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,6,9,0,0,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,6,1,13,5,21,11,3,8,0,0,1,0,12,6,0,6,3,79,19,4,0.15457596563751042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16748299418708626,0.187826717432138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17715744845421244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.604819820783193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825592644259049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965098616972764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07551800887687389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16398067210410294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11363112048213005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16461835859017587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32149053493164026,0.13496977092173626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15725932811610904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546177960890879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13200703006570674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12786683611930272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990460372765838,0.15187010141380927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16813426300769052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13350400414491084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676310409646472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187826717432138,0.0
schizophrenia,m00nstarlights,2020/01/28,"Are you aware of delusional behaviour!? I have a question to ask. I do not have schizophrenia. 

I was wondering if people can be
aware that any delusions or hallucinations may not be real? And how long before the fine line between knowing they may not be real to thinking that it's a reality?

It sounds pretty exhausting if you have to be hypervigilant in any changes in thought patterns, that alone in itself sounds so intense. 
Do symptoms start Slowly or can they come on in minutes? 
Also the terror of some of the delusions sounds absolutely like a nightmare, but feel 100% reality. 

Why do people share some of the exact same delusions, I find that part very interesting. ie: stalking, being followed, government, religion... Isn't it strange?? 

Sorry if been asked before I don't think I've worded this very well.",5.018335949764519,7.5419759931972825,5.596870748299319,75.0760596546311,71.38095238095238,7.788383045525903,31.71585557299843,8.617729084823388,2.9064624803767662,649,30,105,12,13,209,94,147,0.036000000000000004,0.8220000000000001,0.141,0.9283,1,1,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,2,2,0,4,7,0,1,7,0,20,2,0,1,1,29,31,10,0,3,9,0,1,1,0,2,2,3,0,0,9,2,0,0,8,0,0,2,5,2,1,0,3,4,9,5,13,21,4,9,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,11,3,76,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17400843361919596,0.0,0.13435810982970872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22850609803325314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141346815706424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28592949149540264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17773306135228434,0.14472635616656335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08495126676434635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15355875173341424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09233429630329013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08208154986591543,0.0,0.0,0.1486841977169764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819392341830532,0.0,0.2329549535434699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709273003170459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882104543026023,0.0,0.0,0.382465956759872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18807424264504613,0.11891885036771445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746274653065767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21530896718938414,0.0,0.13338174246314996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772528743614666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510618120224494,0.0,0.15160353986123548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822004559263292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Questlight223,2020/01/28,"Anyone else out there struggle working while having this illness? I have been in and out of jobs for awhile because my delusions eventually become too much for me at work. I’ve been gradually trying to find easier jobs that I can balance stress levels, but no matter how easy the task is, I constantly battle with the work environment and the people I work with. I don’t say anything or cause problems, but in my mind, I feel like I’m talking to everyone in the office and parts of my mind have a mind of it’s own, almost as if I’m possessed and acts out and thinks fucked up things in my head that could possibly get me fired, 

The last job I was at, I started to feel inappropriate sexual urges towards my co workers, and I could barely concentrate or feel comfortable in my own body. 

My goal is to have a stable job where I can make some amounts of income, because generally speaking, I’m high functioning. If anyone could give me some advice or share your experiences working, I’d greatly appreciate it!",10.190515463917528,7.316835757731957,9.925231958762886,67.09547680412372,59.97938144329897,12.79278350515464,40.22938144329897,10.9516,4.270476288659793,803,31,147,15,8,264,119,194,0.127,0.758,0.115,-0.5369,5,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,7,4,9,2,2,7,0,15,4,2,3,0,38,27,16,0,6,7,0,4,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,6,11,0,0,5,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,3,6,21,4,25,21,7,20,0,0,0,1,6,15,1,8,5,99,27,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11022445271207572,0.0,0.0,0.11295044488463075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15774132827921666,0.11557441172194377,0.09282276620991703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375206694824148,0.12457602324371797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12529264093481532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11587414729346282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12189407099519195,0.0,0.2701789769440305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09422787259568564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10778288534974848,0.0,0.11033764036685677,0.0,0.0,0.17110147948270474,0.08058258664470333,0.0,0.0,0.10309491001858198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10427951011547444,0.05893206022265435,0.10820568064661024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435968842254512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11576282033002555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11917679628848266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4477366225210953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919450517336388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05510718146695469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07529323526746906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3416800877978929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08291917212636854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221487461002203,0.0,0.07819961318662183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12716228062366625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10793201418967513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08970113287364663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07983868089431068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12920920342125924,0.11792048201955442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09066239167928247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07493767489453207,0.07227611043986261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07658212688971347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4105897704603575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,i_dunno_anything_,2020/01/28,"Am I schizophrenic. *sry long post* I'm 22. OCD since 8 after my dad passed.

Not sure when symptoms started but must have been months. I started worrying that my coworkers were talking about me and spying. I thought that they follow me home so I would drive random paths home. Some nights i hear footsteps on the roof. When it's bad i see shadows outside my widow and door. At first I thought they were real so I would go outside and there would be nobody there. I'd spend hours in my back and front yard with a flashlight looking for my coworkers. I didnt realize I wasn't right until I started hearing voices consistently.  Whispers that didnt make sense but were talking about me.

After a while of not being able to think straight I went to a crisis center for immediate care. They gave me risperdal to treat schizophrenia. I thought schizophrenics see people and hear voices all the time so I didnt believe it. When I ran out of meds I just stopped. Now the symptoms are worse. 

I feel like my thoughts are foggy. I have moments where I still hallucinate. I got a tattoo recently and now I feel like my ex controls my mind and forced me to get it and shes fogging my thoughts. There are times where out of nowhere i feel like i start dreaming. Like everything i do I've done in a dream, deja vu almost. But everything I do I have no control over yet i am still functioning. They're random and last between minutes to hours.

Now I'm suicidal but I know I cant kill myself. I feel like people want me to kill myself. Idk how to explain usually the thought of suicide scares me but now it's almost comforting. 

Anyways sorry if you took the time to read this. I just wanted to know if anyone else thinks this is schizophrenia or can it just be anxiety or something thnx",1.6882019704433482,4.3166826149425335,2.560968801313632,91.4594827586207,84.91954022988506,5.153366174055829,24.377668308702802,6.655083550727371,0.9031013136289006,1402,56,275,16,42,440,189,348,0.134,0.746,0.12,-0.706,0,0,1,0,0,3,31.0,0,1,3,3,26,13,2,1,10,0,30,4,0,4,3,62,69,27,4,8,14,2,4,5,0,4,4,6,4,0,10,12,0,3,16,4,1,8,8,4,0,1,20,13,54,9,29,42,2,54,0,0,3,0,14,12,0,9,38,181,64,1,0.0821461392891426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645149850256812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06284157171232338,0.0,0.0,0.05743849058384173,0.08416842728334711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06316531053478118,0.0685885950599037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09255056877071947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08375346375847355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842677604815493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08406402102318004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0686225586137128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14765530635888566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1661422249596309,0.23474087328695284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06987346411497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04291796732171065,0.0,0.04668554401654254,0.0,0.06569977178216421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2777540075352499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16479855098762058,0.0,0.16179480024028134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817650643206917,0.0,0.09029073969235284,0.06696006741981114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006622714745314,0.0,0.0,0.07269674828263936,0.06898206796903211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05483318585072813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912458422287452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08294418345003578,0.0,0.06556826466071036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770885869907737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11389957963912105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07867329414878013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0821683692010674,0.09350029058964564,0.0,0.0,0.08110940236394322,0.0,0.0,0.07015235411404823,0.0,0.0,0.08224261593829632,0.0,0.1309196750338798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06795213529475956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06324011132203672,0.0,0.0919558775307154,0.23257384077085486,0.0,0.1312040258976065,0.06867785070635206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17970908704880326,0.0,0.07742176412039088,0.1707625838327818,0.0,0.13205191024032115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10527185828151113,0.0,0.39128915269667536,0.14370022326375634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09126738329868624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09047236690784756,0.0,0.0969038425716326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07615029410798774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08342339191661567,0.08371393387665202,0.17506278138939027,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,pizza_bug,2020/01/28,"Do you think my cousin is schizophrenic? What mental disorder does my cousin have and how can I help her?


My cousin grew up without a father. Her father is a deadbeat who left her mom when she was 2 months old and wanted nothing to do with her. My cousin is 17. Her mom got married to her step father when she was 6. Her stepfather is a verbally abusive narcissist who my cousin has never gotten along with. My mom (her aunt) would always watch her when she was little because her mom was busy with school and work. She gets along with her mom. Now my mom has always been obsessed with a 90s singer who’s still making music today. My cousin was heavily influenced by this guy at a very young age due to my mother. (She was taken to various concerts, backstage passes, watched his trl interviews, watched him on tv all the time) yadda yadda. 

So my cousin has always had admiration to this guy growing up. Her current wall in her room is an entire shrine to this guy. She has huge fan account on Instagram that the guy has interacted with her on. She’s gotten interacted with him at recent concerts and selfies. When we go on trips, she brings her laptop which is several tabs opened with just pictures of this guy on there “watching” us. I remember after we went to his concert about a year ago we went back to the hotel and she opened up the laptop and was talking about how great the concert was and had it “staring” at her while she sleeps. A recent trip I went on she brought the laptop yet again...to have his pictures stare at us. I believe she talks to his pictures to this very day when she’s by herself , my aunt said when she was younger she caught her talking to the pictures of him she used to put in dvd cases and sleep with or have them propped up against the wall. She doesn’t have dvd cases with his pictures anymore. Recently she saw a picture of him with his own child (he only has one and the kid is a toddler) and she started crying. I asked her why she was crying and she seemed embarrassed and didn’t want to answer. My aunt said she used to call the pictures of this guy “daddy” when she was little in her sleep.  She doesn’t really have friends and has massive social anxiety. She does see a therapist but I don’t think she’s ever brought up the pictures or anything but I’m not sure. I know she can’t fall asleep without the pictures looking at her.",4.252096530920063,5.518841615384615,4.578662644544997,86.7522850678733,70.88034188034189,7.215284062342888,27.653594771241828,7.510576382923642,1.4555400201106083,1868,65,372,20,34,587,208,468,0.035,0.9329999999999999,0.032,-0.2878,1,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,5,1,1,1,19,6,0,2,23,0,42,5,4,6,4,58,72,28,0,3,8,20,0,0,1,1,1,6,1,8,13,31,0,0,6,8,1,16,9,2,0,1,28,15,84,4,58,43,3,74,1,0,9,0,110,28,0,3,30,261,97,6,0.0,0.08529321625230711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06381242581820729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17969767952662505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05507011148226648,0.0,0.07139208917485705,0.0,0.0,0.05923944002325054,0.0,0.06729843728266642,0.0,0.0,0.05535381433307205,0.0,0.043882809058594936,0.0,0.0,0.08110507107114899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0735071140245676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15814940655433146,0.046425873389035296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08250371847319746,0.0,0.125993197642712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06511666260292318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055617233666593435,0.0,0.0376104094884595,0.0,0.04091205938277132,0.0,0.057574845087678364,0.07936628700503442,0.0,0.4276726555029528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048251590808948815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03956235470554829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07821444619713404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14430043562470415,0.0,0.0,0.06045122790248289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04805210269964129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07254629844917809,0.0,0.0,0.5058641549566729,0.057459601123502416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05552106785314181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907378598643267,0.0,0.07553859473072101,0.0,0.04878047880276205,0.05474960940235113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0723671510903728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04611692783518778,0.0,0.21323641542051527,0.0,0.0815476133835208,0.0,0.13695287418698812,0.0,0.0,0.07285502259601855,0.0573645828938108,0.06553456285059113,0.0,0.08132519410167169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21611795936651587,0.07338201878290078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050953003680994084,0.0,0.05748917584509147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06784720790851191,0.0,0.0,0.1735820704406727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08358284017735562,0.0,0.09225315047890988,0.0,0.0,0.04197639184555794,0.0,0.06823557290855373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17318379221339664,0.1243478822835169,0.0,0.11879417505486868,0.0849199863731815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20019893225133434,0.06495736967449234,0.0,0.0,0.1387864371895049,0.0,0.05240763462347218,0.0,0.0,0.05113773480843097,0.0,0.0,0.046357481223604585
schizophrenia,ravex1942,2020/01/28,"Did i lose my friend to schizophrenia ? A friend of mine, who got diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2015 is currently going throught a rough time.  After a time of isolation we got back into contact about 1,5 years ago.   
Over the time we used to Talk, chat and occasionaly meet up.   
At this point i would like to add something about his thought behavior.   


His first breakdown he had and all the topics arround this breakdown were somewhat positive.His Psychosis manifested in this one girl, he truly loved. This girl was everything he loved in this world, for a time he even felt he was her. He made up really faar fetched storys and believed in them wholeheartedly.  
 He reflected those as illusions later on.But he didnt have any voices telling him to kill himself or anything too bad.  


But 7 Month ago, something tragic happend, His father ( 6 kids, 1 one of them born Mentally retarded ) Killed his Wife / Mother in a Car, he stabbed her 3 times. He thought she may be cheating on him, this notion followed him 30 years through his Marriage.   


We lost contact again but got in touch about a month ago.  


I mean, i knew he was schizophrenic, but didnt really knew what that ment. He talked normally, he thought normally, he behaved normally, i couldnt really differentiate between the old Him ( without schizophrenia ) and the new him. So i wasnt quiet aware of the spectrum of symptoms schizophrenia comes with, nor did i knew anything about what goes on in the Neurobioligy. ( wich changed after about a week ago )  


But as i mentioned we got in contact about a month ago.  


Now he has a range of positive symptoms. His psychotic episodes increase substantually, and is losing track to reality as time progresses.   


Last week end i picked him up and we visited my family ( my brother used to be a good childhood friend of him ) We even slept there. ( at my family house )   


And once again he had a psychotic episode wich lasted about 3 hours, ocationally we were able to calm him down. But sometimes we would just let him have his trip.   


I could go in depth about how i felt, and how i never experienced anything like that before, or could write down in detail how i felt that i lost a friend, but this is not why im here, telling this story.  


There is something else i would like to know. It would be totally okay, if he has his episodes. That wouldnt disconnect my friendship towards him, but there is something else.. Something strange. And i absolutely hope this symtom is only associated with the psychotic episodes.   


''Hey man, what do you think about this book''  
...  
doesnt respond, as if he didnt hear me  


If he did hear my question, it takes him a long time, up to 20 seconds to get his mind out of all the things running through his head, to give an awnser.  


His short term memory is practically non existent, there is no way holding a conversation ( with 3 people ) is possible. When it does happen that he talks, he only talks about him / his story / his feelings. Absolutely out of nowhere.  


an another symptom wich used to not be not so developed is : jumping from topic A to topic G or K , usually he jumped to Topic C or D but not so faar down the line. A question , wich requieres a longer awnser, usually needs more than 4 attempts and going back tothe topic, untill a real awnser has been given. This symptom is really domintant and i feel like talking to somebody who left all hold of reality.   


He also felt a strong pain all the time, on 3 diffrent spots, these spots where the wounds on wich his mother got stabbed. He was litteraly holding his hand all the time below his chest, and having pain, sometimes the pain felt really strong for him.   


Are these symptoms a part of the Psychotic episode he is going through since 3 weeks or so ? Or will this ever be a part of him ? Was the death of his Mother too much ?  Can u get so faar stuck up in your head, that ur schizophrenia developes even stronger ?   


He got picked up by his Sister wich drove him in the hospital ( once again ) at sunday.  


i called him today, and he is still very confused. Over the 10 Minutes of phonecall, he asked me about 20 Times if somebody died ( like people he and i know ).  
The thing is.. his mother dies, killed by his father, now he is permanently worried that somebody will kill someone else in his close circuit. Or somebody would kill us, and they are coming for us.  
He started this trip and sunday, where confusion took over and you couldnt reach out to him.  
And on the phone it was the same deal. For a short moment i had to hold in, and not start crying again, seeing him in this state of mind.   


When i see videos of schizophrenic people, they seem to grasp reality and function quiet well with the Illness.   
Will he be able to heal from this tragic experience?  or did it take the rest of him ?  


What will his path look like ? i heared that there are three diffrent pathways schizophrenic people go.  


Either having unregular psychotic episodes , having no psychotic episodes, or having chronic psychotic illness.  


I simply wanna know if he will recover...",4.802208904109588,6.636014001068375,4.853924013581548,83.0995995785037,70.31410256410257,7.949279943800491,29.48858447488585,8.561046370304387,2.223632349841939,3939,156,736,66,73,1225,380,936,0.111,0.8079999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.9834,5,1,5,0,0,0,136.0,10,3,4,9,47,37,6,2,46,1,73,24,5,9,8,140,136,59,8,21,30,9,10,6,4,12,17,7,0,4,39,41,0,4,23,3,0,18,18,18,1,5,45,21,94,19,115,68,16,130,0,6,3,2,146,50,0,22,66,473,133,1,0.09344348185254883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070800215130351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03736335933864159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031772385986630874,0.04899181910483533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11534403549599614,0.0,0.04367852079465023,0.0,0.0,0.07185226962270112,0.039010702105016885,0.0,0.0,0.039756760309438165,0.05263940258305514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047708121289522905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04942540681823336,0.08049328556463298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0746070166939396,0.0,0.05132163852357485,0.0,0.04816806335022933,0.0,0.0474215835552483,0.09697958133976764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04088651033683875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170900580231554,0.0,0.041381594713264,0.0,0.0,0.09257780771571322,0.04226248953796378,0.0,0.0,0.041990488109289334,0.04570282782508256,0.08809019843366724,0.0,0.04724783208712924,0.0333780210531757,0.2243009911830761,0.0,0.0,0.039741488964076616,0.0,0.0,0.1443884045654007,0.0,0.04882036253047154,0.04481975122764514,0.1327652103567196,0.03918797959097495,0.22420586598601205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04131588120018552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09589997082588224,0.0,0.1579763929698353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0464052308647946,0.04601150343436699,0.05391061604790647,0.0,0.0,0.05046749769137266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2584534196655002,0.0,0.07703114080198831,0.07616890944521315,0.0,0.0,0.0507633082223661,0.04777614559191135,0.0,0.13695529566171516,0.0,0.0,0.041347270472307934,0.03923449520693124,0.10453935427602913,0.10200459878027424,0.0,0.08433639064903484,0.04420924094887579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05089367281640928,0.0,0.0,0.04708452578294072,0.0,0.09435127892872634,0.0,0.11187854356782928,0.0,0.03434585545322337,0.034643578887802826,0.03603468690630726,0.04512414852819138,0.0,0.0,0.13733215842859747,0.0,0.0,0.04902660765934693,0.09951425850762828,0.0633197216396053,0.07106797867342164,0.14914567941966278,0.0,0.0,0.1011901848454787,0.0,0.1295638893698791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04416714697659407,0.052671742823802166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10467808522031152,0.0,0.0,0.05317956986492473,0.14965571807961184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07446235686810221,0.04253371819341068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038648706903363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039587179469052304,0.17984339391391702,0.09241799289581493,0.0,0.0661397774061957,0.0,0.037312042656655886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428088912874496,0.07025786916831436,0.18776582784224005,0.0816737218273104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06207969722625267,0.02993740504434347,0.0,0.11127553027907072,0.2724382286039829,0.0,0.04428674736833425,0.0,0.05190957328488603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11240100327615687,0.12105774921515645,0.1029147936649042,0.03855032936072224,0.0,0.03708554322924496,0.11243208707726714,0.0,0.04200845614823532,0.0,0.04215910408403886,0.0,0.0,0.04503809098371552,0.0,0.0,0.04744819583790637,0.0,0.1659489212089519,0.0,0.0,0.060174538648146
schizophrenia,ScaryTJ,2020/01/28,What is real? I have trouble seeing if something is real or caused by my illness. Does anyone else have this problem?,2.1471212121212133,5.020300681818182,3.360909090909089,84.0280303030303,87.63636363636363,2.9333333333333336,25.51515151515152,3.1291,0.6284060606060611,93,4,14,0,3,30,19,22,0.33,0.67,0.0,-0.8353,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,6,5,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072453830435353,0.3036903960254194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.304477999553409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593761448907785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2475989236619517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836087646454373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6747218926182624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361874234902365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22817836892006144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,throwaway182622883,2020/01/28,"They're following me They keep following me, everywhere I go. They poison my pills to make me docile. I feel trapped, if I sleep they'll take me. Papa is protecting me, but when he's not here, they'll get me. Please tell them to stop, I dont know what they want.",0.5375151515151515,2.6734882363636423,1.9304545454545448,97.54901515151516,84.81818181818181,6.575757575757575,18.25757575757576,7.793537801064563,0.33075757575757603,203,5,49,4,6,65,39,55,0.138,0.779,0.084,-0.431,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,6,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,4,3,1,1,0,9,14,3,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,0,1,17,0,2,12,0,5,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,1,2,27,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4056976648892433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750292088467896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18085463505635893,0.0,0.19673105583563424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30768346138406155,0.0,0.0,0.19024082214360452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23106489973476385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3799804072291199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3464106099168236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894057757406702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602697036578147,0.0,0.3025596367817495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20417450053588573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Brandon4454,2020/01/28,Doctor or nurse practitioner I’m just curious what everyone sees and what they prefer. I saw a nurse practitioner who specialized in psychiatry. I liked him but now must move and want to know who people see or how they evaluate their next doctor or psychiatric nurse.,5.96125,8.437912625000003,6.544166666666667,69.51750000000001,68.58333333333334,11.466666666666667,28.66666666666667,11.20814326018867,4.065566666666667,218,8,36,8,4,71,36,48,0.0,0.8909999999999999,0.109,0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,1,12,7,7,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,6,2,2,5,0,4,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,3,3,23,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6096848634910256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845900812447188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16368001216710815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14550507902955018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3165469937782418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167464219132725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20647836804396907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4746651555956675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1756683153245639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,xavierdruitt,2020/01/28,"Does my brother have schizophrenia? I know it's better to speak with a professional about this but I am concerned about him and I'm not sure when a psychiatrist will be available. The reddit community has been helpful and I would your opinion on the following symptoms:

Paranoia:

\-Believes that his relatives are wanting to poison him, are all manipulative and are building a room to torture him in. Has left two jobs because of his co-workers conspiring against him and distrusts the neighbors.

Delusions of grandeur:

\-Says that if he is killed that he will be a martyred saint

\-Has said that people will love him like Jesus BUT he doesn't believe he is Jesus or a saint, he only relates to them

Odd writing:

\-Sometimes he will write and speak random words on a sheet of paper like the following: ""venom, suffering, lecherous, fall, persecution, martyr, poison etc.""

Mind reading:

\-Is diagnosed with OCD and has intrusive thoughts, and he believes that such thoughts can be listened to by others. BUT he doesn't believe the thoughts are actually read but are revealed through his body movements. 

Does NOT have hallucinations or bizarre delusions (aliens, replaced body etc.)

Has high intelligence and insight into some of his symptoms, and can convince himself that some are false.

So is this schizophrenia or something else? It must be more than OCD, obviously.",6.813746654772526,9.322912881355931,5.90421052631579,74.8555976806423,66.37288135593221,8.188760035682426,37.844781445138274,8.841846274778883,3.71544406779661,1104,60,169,19,19,333,141,236,0.10800000000000001,0.8109999999999999,0.081,-0.787,1,0,1,0,0,0,44.0,0,1,1,1,5,12,5,0,11,0,33,8,2,1,4,43,44,19,1,4,10,1,0,2,1,6,5,5,2,0,11,12,0,0,6,2,0,4,4,6,0,1,5,5,16,6,21,29,6,12,4,1,0,1,31,7,0,8,3,121,27,5,0.0,0.0,0.1196210112221718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472401355276022,0.0,0.0,0.5524255680009713,0.0,0.10841260474783812,0.0,0.27231888950254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244167579109573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.214542268605424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10240038614396277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27341960763378337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08216321158328273,0.1295131644508737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12164235956403492,0.0,0.13561730391528767,0.0,0.06736710781775904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13318421183685755,0.0,0.0,0.1197734068715452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11063380334231383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1237714912597575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322809188278992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08498197365633024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452276016804661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11660224865246625,0.09748103603299324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09436855678344958,0.12123537624317288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155307919441316,0.2548164171763107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29194598058951404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11974346265723845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07230123080973297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892401576809593,0.0,0.0,0.08707776167611189,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Herbalhealers,2020/01/28,"A REAL LOVE STORY. NOT WHAT YOUR EXPECTING  ***What an experience with you......since the beginning it has been exciting, intense, wild & crazy, educational, emotional, dangerous, yes and loving too...AND SO MUCH MORE!!!***

***Regardless of what anyone says, regardless of what you say....Our connection goes well beyond this Lifetime, far into the past of Ancient times and places, and even beyond that which WE know today. But here on Earth in recent history this was a time when men and women were different, this is when it was dangerous to be different...AND WE WERE!***

***WE connected before here, in other realms and other dimensions...BUT HERE is our latest and best memories, here is where all of what WE have been throughout existence all comes together......Here is where WE take everything that WE are and build it further, higher and better for all beings wishing to experience a place like Earth, a place where change is inevitable, a place where one can dive into matter and experience every little detail.***

***Oh, the stories that could be told, and some were, and some were written down by scribes on parchment paper, on rice paper on tree bark. What WE were called throughout linear time matters not now, but it was REAL, it was our path, it was our experience unlike any others. For those like us, it was a place to grow in ways in which WE could not anyway else in all these Universes of physicality. Travelling throughout the Cosmos was our way, WE could, and did go many places to experience many realities...Ahhh, but when this place was thought of, when those co-creators and creators began visioning a new place, a new way, a new existence ...it caught our attention immediately...WE were far away in distance and light years away in time but WE heard the calling and came as fast as WE could.***

***When WE arrived Earth was becoming into being.....the Angelic Hosts, the Angels, the Logos, the Hierarchy for this Universal level and a whole cast of Divine Enlightened beings were present working, awaiting the completion of this beautiful place called Earth... positioned perfectly in a bright Solar system with a number of stable more highly evolved Planets.*** 

***Wow, WE said......having been throughout existence forever, this was the first time WE had ever witnessed such a marvelous place with all the varieties of plant life, animal life, all kinds of Life...WE were overwhelmed and became in Love with Earth immediately. There was a lot of activity in the final stages creating the Earth, her surroundings..... and WE watched everything like a child’s first trip into a toy store.... WE were amazed at all the different shapes, colours and sounds that WE were bearing witness to. These were truly pleasures unknown to us previously, and WE all revelled in the anticipation of Earth’s completion. How exciting it was that Source allowed this to come into being, a new experience again was about to begin.*** 

***As the completion came, there went out a calling to all those beings who wished to attend and take part of the new place called Earth.*** ***Here, at the chosen place the Angelic Hosts described what Earth was created for and that Earth was the first of its kind in Creation, never before had such a place existed. As far as the Angels knew Source was expanding infinitely in greater and greater Divine perfection and this place called Earth was to be a jewel of this expansion and process. Many levels of consciousness had been asked by Source to participate in the manifestation of this Divine intent, to bring into matter that which never before existed in this level of vibration. The plan included many variables....so many, that it was thought that it would be impossible for all of them to exist at once. There was polarities to consider, colours of man, sexes, stages of life, physical emotional-mental-spiritual bodies, gravity, effects of celestial bodies, languages, elements, resonances & vibrations and so, so, so much more.***

***Then came the moment when all those beings that had arrived from all over Creation to become part of Earths forthcoming existence and history were summoned to the Great Halls of the Divine Council of Source for this Cosmic Day. It was awesome to say the least, it was magnificent to bear witness to the collection of so many high level beings from so many consciousness levels, from so many dimensional levels meeting in one space, lined up to get into Earth’s existence.***

***A very bright luminous tall being stood at the end of the Divine Chamber, in this sacred space that was created for this moment. WE could not clearly get a vision of this being as the light emanating from it was so bright, radiating brighter than any Sun WE had ever encountered anywhere. As WE looked around in the Hall WE observed that all the other beings that had collected were simultaneously experiencing the same thing. WE could hear the discussion about this Great Mystery amongst all the different groups of beings. Then this mysterious light being began to speak aloud informing all of us in the Great Hall that.... Source itself would not be able to enter this realm of existence.*** ***Once one was to enter this new reality, it would appear for all intents and purposes to each and every one of us that WE were disconnected and separate from the ALL THAT IS and will always be as Divine Source. There was an eerie silence that permeated and resonated throughout the Great Hall, beings began dropping out of the Hall, disappearing as if they were never there. WE stood together, and watched as more and more Divine Beings left the Hall in disillusionment. Never before in any Creation had this been suggested or even thought of.....to be disconnected from Source was never an option....it was literally unthought-of as a possibility.***

***WE remained silent, feeling our presence as one, knowing that WE knew only this and that to be disconnected, well it had no meaning......it was not possible to perceive what this could be other then it was something extremely different and possibly disharmonious. Love & Compassion, Trust & Harmony, Beauty & Peace, Balance & Unity, Honesty & Integrity, Faith & Grace were just but some of the Divine Attributes which WE embodied......how could there be any existence without these?*** ***WE had never known anything but connectedness to the ALL THAT IS, even as individualized aspects of Source, WE were still connected. Hmmm, WE thought and thought........WE felt and felt.......WE went inside our beingness; WE went outside ourselves to places WE had visited before for answers. There was none to be had in any realm, anywhere! WE are explorers, WE are travellers, WE exist to experience what Source continually creates in Divine Perfection relative to what has been seen and witnessed in creative expansiveness. This was truly discomforting to those of us left in the Great Halls of the Great Chamber. WE, as a group consciousness entered Unity and oneness with Source hoping to receive guidance and direction on how WE should proceed. There was silence at first; WE all wondered what would be granted to us all, that which would allow us to proceed in Divine Order as this was always the way.........Then it came, a voice out of the silence. ”This is an exercise in your free will, this is your own to bear” .....”There is much to be gained from this journey to Earth in service to Divine Source”......”There will be much never before experienced, it will be difficult to remember your Origin, you will be separate”.......On and on the voice kept informing and instructing. WE all heard and interpreted the same thing as WE were of one consciousness, of one Divine Mind....although a multitude of beings, each with an individualization......WE had Unity.***

***There was much to integrate in this introduction to Earth existence; much to Earth living that was not before thought of in the vastness of Creation. WE were told that throughout our existence on Earth, there would be separate individual lives that would encompass unique experiences from one lifetime to another lifetime. Our conscious continuous memory would depend on how WE grew and ascended in each lifetime. If WE did not stay heart-focused and fell into the polarities of the mind, our memories could not stay intact and WE would forget who WE were lifetime after lifetime. It became apparent to our consciousness that this was not only a unique opportunity in physical existence but more importantly, what could be gained in service; the knowledge and ensuing wisdom through experience gained in this reality of Earth would benefit the entire Creation of all existences, whether physical or not. WE realized this to be a blessing for beings like ourselves, beings of Light that had unmatched faith in their connectedness to Divine Source, that had travelled and been to the edges of Universes in physicality, that had been pure consciousness as the unmanifested experiencing realities unparallel in Creation. Again, WE had found ourselves on the brink of a new journey, a new experience, a new service to Divine Source and this one had the potential for more inconsistencies and possibilities unknown than any other experience or Creation that had come before.***

***Time itself was created especially for this reality. There had been many experiences in time before, but this Creation of Earth, in a Solar system as it was, time itself needed to be new, completely recalibrated and harmonized with frequency never before attempted. Earth was truly a special creation potential of Divine Source, truly a place where no-thing was known previous and even time would operate differently.***

***As the human expression of today goes “Many are called but few are chosen” was to be our reality in this Earth bound existence. All of those who had come and listened at the Great Hall, few were left and those which remained began to prepare for the descent down in vibrational frequency to arrive at Earth. This descent would take millennia, going from one level to the next, falling further down into lower density as WE went, becoming denser and denser, heavier and heavier the light body became. Light slowed to take on frequencies so dense that the matter created appeared to be solid, another sensation and knowing that WE were experiencing for the first time.*** 

***When WE did arrive on Earth there was much celebration, for the journey was long and arduous. Those that were in charge of record keeping did not know how to store all of the information gained in the descent. So, it was decided that after the celebrations and grounding in of our-selves to Earth the first order would be to create a recording system so that the valuable information gained would not be lost. This was one of our duties in service to Divine Source, to ensure that the ALL THAT IS would have access to ALL the experience and information gained in the descent into matter here on Earth. This was of course to assist and support Divine Source and all the co-creator and creator levels that were continually expanding perfection, building Universes and different realties for ALL THAT IS to grow for the collectives and individualized aspects of Divine Source. With the support of the Angelic Hosts and other Divine Beings the Akashic Records were opened. All*** ***of this information and experience was to flow into the eternal now of Creation concerning the creation of Earth, the descent of WE as celestial divine beings into and of Earth, along with the entire history of earth from that beginning point on.........right up until this very present day.***

***Ahhh, and then the experience of Earth living started.......and continued............right up until the present moment, here in the NOW. What has happened during all of this linear time has been recorded, everything, even your dreams and thoughts....for each one of you. Divine Source has succeeded splendidly with this new existence called Earth, although for most that have been here and re-incarnated that is not clear yet...but remember, this place you can forget easily.......this place was a most difficult reality yet rich in promise. WE now are awakening to our true selves, our true nature of Divine Celestial light beings is being remembered at these time of change, of uplifting, of Ascension. Earth, truly a place where a being must stay heart focused or be lost in the myriad of illusion, amazing that it was so well put together, what a test ground for Divine beings to come in and manipulate matter into so many ways. The natural World WE found here was one that always gave us solace; there was always peace to be found in this place called Nature. WE became so in LOVE with this Earth, WE never wanted to leave, WE kept coming back re-incarnating. There was something that WE gained here, that became part of our beingness, which became part of our totality that WE never had before in the ALL THAT IS, in the Unlimitedness of Creation. WE suggest to all other souls that are here now, that are awakening, that are bearing witness to the Illusions, that are finding truth in who and what they are to go inside themselves and remember.........and then prepare for the journey that awaits US all........The journey home to the heart of hearts......our Cosmic Heart.......to our selves once again.***

***Blessings of Love and Celestial Light to you all***",5.113627986497264,8.256837399042649,5.372058985255507,73.6731003310137,74.05221932114883,8.528357567613824,29.327856495187746,9.189790761824119,3.2321685198335097,10605,453,1632,269,239,3352,642,2298,0.018000000000000002,0.768,0.214,0.9999,11,0,2,0,0,0,573.0,87,10,4,27,87,92,2,2,137,1,231,16,5,13,57,387,314,146,0,37,32,0,2,4,0,22,4,11,1,5,173,180,0,5,46,6,4,45,27,9,3,21,150,34,102,84,333,82,73,333,33,4,9,7,152,169,0,17,108,1275,275,11,0.020986828685766575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06985089074540372,0.1819137609025894,0.0,0.08563057905205203,0.04401303950465752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.014674478585160113,0.0,0.017270371814692258,0.01868272699639768,0.019619851807566462,0.0,0.03943563278886482,0.01613757581973072,0.0,0.0,0.06953491029611965,0.1964407000447735,0.0,0.02202438192127637,0.01856114449601742,0.0,0.06993490658408573,0.0,0.0,0.1928690870065458,0.09601336424624607,0.0,0.0,0.04440256399072908,0.10846976767187072,0.08801716234360511,0.0,0.0,0.1675627499179204,0.0,0.0,0.027069536610601852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13156061494702648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.017531802395919973,0.023607357521571937,0.0185881009948134,0.0,0.0,0.06930801207726743,0.03796757612978673,0.03536461664451488,0.0,0.056584825152724276,0.3079371826705741,0.0,0.0,0.010611571167169636,0.0,0.04030129342513112,0.022990044997175427,0.01918158121033166,0.10710831455391988,0.0,0.0690329232378786,0.0,0.0,0.021929503577805223,0.0,0.035781895151334,0.0,0.0,0.16196636901250008,0.0,0.0,0.018558583296757282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02365368120510832,0.09947797216109516,0.0,0.04434747352672699,0.02105150033324141,0.020844656277249518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.018654057622439782,0.0,0.043709105072033336,0.046135248770845336,0.0,0.0,0.022222021319384642,0.06840675232115209,0.0,0.05929447102006835,0.041012417640806986,0.02103431578085974,0.05559526267817238,0.018572682969918937,0.01762365042817453,0.0,0.04581920530615538,0.017842251252542816,0.11364859361641405,0.0,0.0,0.23405085301788725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02114978716046597,0.0,0.04238142860054708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10799413701647452,0.015561467547355224,0.16186336079412228,0.22296130914112505,0.02231973039769317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06705086284304751,0.19909705565219213,0.031922857836490806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09090676126063846,0.02003430268972848,0.0,0.0,0.43853538315675494,0.0,0.0198393366505653,0.09463798405698974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.021097559430173902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04777521129185052,0.0,0.0,0.020721961457316758,0.0,0.07132195728967497,0.035845274055121785,0.019963280015575274,0.050068705561636714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.017360521560769702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032313372091969064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06710750097785212,0.016760108498244976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04763120897487213,0.0,0.0,0.06311793331456197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02788543287818605,0.0,0.0,0.09996718634991612,0.14685106293931302,0.0,0.03978611933727736,0.04010762836006992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22720113782024945,0.0,0.0,0.03463266316852412,0.012378575308846838,0.08329183877147281,0.0,0.0,0.056609038215917326,0.0778200017989797,0.0,0.023431044744798037,0.048267634514106664,0.020230553936350856,0.022759320471539453,0.015278661235161356,0.0,0.0,0.22362661435255912,0.0,0.0,0.013514829593426935
schizophrenia,ihavenosister,2020/01/28,"have first day of lab class tomorrow and all I want to do is hide i do not want to talk to anyone or have a lab partner

i hate all the bright lights that stun you and the uncomfortable stools

i really dont want to exist right now. i hate school but i am readmitted but my symptoms are returning gradually and gradually and i wish i could just disappear forever",2.3662035225048927,4.559279945205482,4.318238747553817,82.67739726027398,78.31506849315069,9.102935420743641,24.127201565557733,9.606745405546679,2.3433146771037188,288,10,60,9,7,98,49,73,0.141,0.735,0.124,-0.3071,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,1,2,3,2,0,3,0,9,1,0,0,2,16,15,7,0,5,5,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,2,10,1,5,14,2,7,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,5,41,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175453292026897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003439912605114,0.0,0.0,0.16182651003272036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940834006978549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21343752559792228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4954749470427612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607496195593776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21428943113990773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539505061385265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2608081896298034,0.0,0.2016848121756042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4440079644266986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885525139685461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,vvgs193,2020/01/28,"Relationship guilt I haven’t slept in days because lying next to my boyfriend is too hard. 

I love him so much but I know he deserves someone healthy and better and it kills me. 

I just want to hold on to him and never let go but right now it feels like the only real way I could really make him happy is by being dead. 

I just wish i could be better for him",0.020906432748535764,2.2033151842105285,1.9875438596491253,95.85336257309942,87.94736842105263,4.430409356725146,16.339181286549707,5.82211442006289,-0.6405888888888884,278,6,63,2,9,92,57,76,0.159,0.56,0.281,0.9169,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,5,7,1,1,1,0,8,2,1,1,1,17,16,6,2,4,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,2,13,5,7,10,1,9,0,0,0,1,7,3,0,0,5,43,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12707454086547618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3687297113031741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3328747557331809,0.0,0.0,0.13443867135563184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054030254918574,0.14892299809429807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11847193179873484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22190825356090693,0.18673812643135665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306287605426989,0.0,0.1145634969049456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21316323180460628,0.0,0.1018424329907615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18814219279053432,0.0,0.1391478581059901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532411930011882,0.0,0.16077626654160332,0.0,0.2216982834132869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15854229997168484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23727173546426514,0.13354403595626207,0.0,0.0,0.22380672222616915,0.0,0.17802266391445004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17662645257596538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12295439273572395,0.1654648810621859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397173157007161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Upstairs-Medicine,2020/01/28,"Why is my ex boyfriend so cruel to me when we ended on good terms? We dated for 3 years and he saw the worst of my schizophrenia. I was refusing to take my meds back in 2018 and he dumped me after I was hospitalized again for the 9th time. He dumped me in a super nice way though, and said how I deserved space to heal, and that he doesn't want to be in my way. How it was causing him extreme pain to watch me suffer. I was heart broken and TORN.

Fast-forward to December of 2019 when we met again through mutual friends, he was SO cruel. He asked what job i'm doing now. Mind you, I never worked when we dated because I was so sick, so my job is a huge accomplishment. When I told him I work as a teacher's aide, he burst out laughing in front of our friends and said ""that's a pretty poor job. why didn't you just apply to mcdonalds?"". The whole night he just kept putting me down. It's caused me to be very very depressed

TL;DR: Why is he acting like that? What reason does he have to hate me?",2.8175714285714264,3.6172732333333366,3.861428571428572,92.31357142857144,73.80952380952381,6.742857142857144,23.04761904761905,6.742157984588678,0.4048476190476191,769,19,179,6,15,249,118,210,0.21100000000000002,0.6779999999999999,0.11,-0.9791,3,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,5,2,0,4,17,16,5,0,7,0,15,4,1,5,1,23,26,18,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,0,3,2,0,0,7,11,0,2,1,0,1,3,3,9,0,0,13,4,29,7,24,11,3,31,0,2,2,0,28,9,0,0,18,108,36,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272319462693585,0.0,0.0,0.10464988215771576,0.0,0.08296322217469553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796173887864975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721979935483433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11909904895303575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12054118910874935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102957860907406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11415136829300147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13436721312328734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16127512242605305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40516461666930015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06648992266648097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15117263820561366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13741876593695548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10496608550118268,0.0,0.0,0.1277174366117796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14481637446349988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13845916650253304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368146698640853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399299683132179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589180586289937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10232770332411817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13371421530483565,0.0,0.07935902002365126,0.0,0.0,0.13004613048432492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22458789101164944,0.08027329890325795,0.21605428744698635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3684180302810329,0.1519469899795765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981598866705094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08764174620357193
schizophrenia,Thatinsanity,2020/01/28,"What were your early warning signs before you had full blown psychosis? Before your first episode of full-blown psychosis what minor versions of symptoms did you have? How long were you in that ""pre"" psychosis stage (prodromal) before your first full episode? When did you know something was ""wrong""?",6.272199999999998,9.58134982,3.414000000000001,88.397,70.8,4.800000000000002,30.0,5.6839178017228535,1.3582000000000003,241,10,37,1,5,64,32,50,0.065,0.935,0.0,-0.5204,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,7,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,1,0,3,8,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,7,0,3,2,3,9,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,5,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6982957943548205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4653517102335442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503322851753612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420772790517473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105870542688933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843163046121937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990767391088089,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,MyOwnPrivateUniverse,2020/01/28,"How are you feeling right now? I’m mostly ok I think, you?",-3.8634615384615363,-5.003548307692302,-0.7071153846153848,105.92086538461538,147.46153846153842,1.3,10.942307692307693,3.1291,-2.100830769230769,44,1,11,0,4,15,11,13,0.0,0.6890000000000001,0.311,0.4696,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.428017500066745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.722909187931912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5424051305438007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Milkyway_Potato,2020/01/28,"Found this community. I think I need help, but I'm deathly scared to reach out. To start this off, I have been diagnosed with severe depression for almost two years now. I had symptoms years before my diagnosis, and have had suicidal thoughts and ideations for the greater portion of my life. Along with this, I have always had auditory, sensory, and visual hallucinations. It happened infrequently in my young childhood, but now in my late teens they have greatly worsened. At first I thought this worsening was a symptom of my depression becoming more noticeable, or a side affect of medication I take to combat my depression. However, I have taken many different medications, none for more than a couple of months, and my hallucinations got worse. I now fairly consistently hear things like people whispering incoherently and voices telling me to do horrible things.  My bedroom has become hard to sleep in because of visual hallucinations of people like ghosts. I feel on the brink of insanity but I don't know what to do. My mind is like a spinning vortex of jumbled thoughts to the point where I sometimes acquire headaches merely from being awake. Please, if anyone has advice on how to reach out, it would be infinitely appreciated.",8.177455149501661,9.648074748837212,8.0718438538206,64.54424418604653,61.976744186046496,11.166112956810633,37.682724252491695,11.062562989136584,4.676109634551495,1001,48,154,27,14,322,135,215,0.22,0.684,0.096,-0.9904,3,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,1,2,5,8,0,1,7,0,19,7,1,2,0,28,34,11,3,3,5,0,2,3,0,1,6,3,1,0,9,10,0,0,7,0,0,0,2,4,0,3,11,5,23,4,33,20,5,25,0,3,0,0,4,13,0,3,15,113,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11945389872729525,0.0,0.0,0.12240814694445253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017155036885199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08547475714211569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07451785752192946,0.2700143443356641,0.10401931385167636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352589360626119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158617063599396,0.12407350460107393,0.0,0.1277173330419198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06180945122829421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10397935800885276,0.0,0.13403252715988767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776844726056713,0.13477272294006334,0.0,0.0,0.10809858701189044,0.0,0.10950521642297292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13777611550493127,0.0,0.08193653155399926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0671812487492221,0.0,0.13789479814204295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08634345133454806,0.17916444614959126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12393464863325775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462927978368531,0.0,0.0,0.12343001817560498,0.0,0.09757275027837853,0.0,0.0,0.09064122119679316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13917382948578322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16949503389251114,0.0,0.0,0.13418549168495794,0.11555861915138987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12238600897419333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13809916359091134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12233072319580612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209009000450372,0.0,0.0865238290362134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13371338988536147,0.0,0.0,0.2541134043340134,0.09191110249788093,0.0,0.1068452816334316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16242489225314538,0.07832802036621306,0.0,0.29114053101964005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11941310249849348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245754910128312,0.0868375228978763,0.0,0.0,0.15744024847103505
schizophrenia,rooowdy,2020/01/28,"Ten year schizo-versary Around this time in 2010 I first started experiencing symptoms but it wasn't until a few more months that I was in full blown psychosis. These past ten years went by like it was nothing. I'm turning 29 in May, so ~1/3 of my life was heavily influenced by this illness.

The first 4 to 6 years sucked. The first 3 were hell. The past 3 to four years it went straight uphill. I haven't been hospitalized in over 3 years. This year started out crappy though, not gonna lie. But that is not because of this illness, rather bad luck. 

One thing I didn't think was possible was me holding down a job. I have been at this 'new' job since November 2018. I'm currently taking a week off, so I have time to post on this sub at 1:13am, haha.

What else is there? Let me see. So in 2011 I moved into my first own apartment while I had my first apprenticeship. Unfortunately back then, I wasn't dialed on on the right medication and I was still acutely psychotic. Still, I managed to work there for almost a year. In 2012 it was time to move back in with my parents because I simply couldn't keep it together. I spend a whole year trying to get back on my feet. In 2013 I went back to school, but I only lasted a month, despite having had great grades (except maths, which kinda in part led to me dropping out again). I also moved into my second own place. Things weren't going too great, I had a mafor depressive episode and I was still battling the sz on the side. In those three years I have been in the hospital 3 times plus one time in a regular hospital for breaking my ankle. But I was still managing well enough to keep my apartment.

Fast forward a year and I am starting an IT apprenticeship. This time was also not going as smoothly but things were looking up. In the time from 2014 to 2017 I was only once in the hospital for one week and a 4 week out patient stay at a clinic just a 10 minute walk from my home. What a nice coincidence. It had just opened there. 

In 2017 I also finished my apprenticeship. Grades weren't as good as I had hoped because I have missed a lot of time, but I was sure glad I finished it (I was so close to calling it quits in the last half year).

My mental health was still going up and down a lot but I haven't had a psychotic episode since 2012. I considered that a win. I was mainly dealing with depression (or negative symptoms, idrk). Later that year I started my very first job. Well, job hunting wasn't that easy and I accepted the first offer I got. This was a mistake. I was overworked and stressed beyond anything I had to deal with until then. I thought I simply wasn't cut out for work. I was down in the dumps and eventually, I got fired in March '18. As shitty as getting fired is, I was glad it was over. I took the summer of 2018 off and just had a grand ol' time.

Summer was coming to an end and I continued looking for jobs. I landed a sweet gig at a nationally known company and this is the best job I could ask for. It just came at the right time of my life, where I was full of energy and had my mind back for real. It's the same company I still work for. In November 2019 I moved to a new town again to be closer to my job. A new chapter if you will. 

The only thing that I haven't pursued in all these years was interpersonal relationships, mainly romantic. Mainly because I still deal with a shitty self esteem and on the other hand, I am dealing with certain side effects from the medication. So why should I just get a girl if I can't tend to her physical needs.. Good thing I rarely feel lonely and I am content to be on my own without going nuts. :) 

Luckily I had and still have friends that held and still hold my back. I even met a great new friend on here. ;) you know who you are.

This year started out crappy (shit luck, getting robbed while I was out on the town and other assorted crap... Nothing to do with sz tho:)) , but I feel like it will only go up from here.

Here's to ten even better years. 

Thanks for reading, 

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schizophrenia,imscaredforbf,2020/01/28,"Partner is having syntoms of schizophrenia and I don't know what I should do Hi.

First of all, TW for possible suicidal thoughts and alcohol

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My partner of two years has been diagnosed with Schizotypal personality disorder and subsequently given treatment to alleviate their symtomps. They started with the treatment in September/October and everything was pretty ok, they didn't suffer depressive symtoms anymore, which is great because they used to suffer them a lot. However, a few weeks ago they started having worrying symptoms.  


They started to feel dissociated from their body and doing weird (and hurtful) things while on that state, doubting about everything (including our relationship, but I don't blame them), feeling that something (like a spirit) is around them and staring at them through the door or pressing their back and chest and today I discovered that they seriously believe in spirits to a point where considering their mental state, it scares me (they thought for a moment that me maybe that presence they felt was an angry spirit). And something that scares me about that is that they refuse to tell the psychiatrist because in their own words ""they don't believe in that"".  


Furthermore, they have been drinking to relax, despite it being harmful combined with their medication and this morning was asked a question in ask about what they have wanted to do for a long time but they haven't and why and well... they said there was something that they have been wanting to do for a long time, but they don't because it would make the people close to them sad. They always joke with dead and stuff, but I can't help to think that this is serious (and I can't ask them about it because they will get angry at me).  


Sadly, I can't be there for them because I live in the north of the country, so I've been thinking about telling their parents because honestly, I'm very scared for their wellbeing and I don't know what I should do, since in this state my partner is quite a compulsive liar because they think that lies hurt less than truth (they told me they are going to tell everything to their psychiatrist, but I fear they know that that will get them in the hospital for a while and that they won't do it because of that).   


I feel like if I don't tell their parents, they might do something stupid.  


Thank you very much for your time and I'm sorry for my english, it's late here and I'm scared. I'll give more info if it is required.",9.826597895175574,8.276072470459521,8.518587058455768,72.74885485047409,59.52516411378557,11.505637178284886,40.36146712514328,10.181067101454742,4.005034677503386,1977,85,353,32,21,605,208,457,0.165,0.7659999999999999,0.069,-0.9940000000000001,3,0,6,0,0,0,53.0,1,2,42,3,13,29,2,6,18,1,49,7,2,2,2,62,82,30,2,7,8,2,5,2,3,7,4,1,1,4,32,25,2,2,14,3,0,1,12,19,1,2,15,7,66,10,50,58,7,38,3,7,1,0,66,16,0,7,20,260,98,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06770245944279307,0.08162240758706389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06355070977751015,0.08275305082216539,0.09280484844962647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0757441824209405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06799057526857084,0.21420293911125973,0.0,0.0,0.058728207270556824,0.0,0.372463395638868,0.0,0.0,0.17209854395576327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08483619710910108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06578228786104975,0.07751973884067148,0.0,0.0,0.08753318154248146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07481912011937047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20592469259691204,0.0,0.0,0.08594390844441807,0.11585356275318222,0.05456282310872455,0.07333265974957705,0.0,0.0,0.06496514065257715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07980631328053167,0.073266541300188,0.043406076568443364,0.0,0.0,0.08420449086814505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05119302906771832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16352355626053508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12592227989628674,0.0,0.0861551285572839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07462662889338931,0.0,0.06744115196932228,0.13518020143944284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06493189816351062,0.0,0.0,0.05098138007527618,0.0,0.07672966716585171,0.0,0.0,0.0769404935728957,0.07696875280172863,0.08102255968343547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05614493539405775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16961237693837125,0.0,0.0,0.05294930132095462,0.06668832478637197,0.0,0.0,0.0721997335870113,0.08610213834860991,0.0,0.07770155552219865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555827558105689,0.08123496978620533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08199893066642118,0.0,0.0,0.07265079090264705,0.0,0.3058616417400504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06317877727950261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351910144406623,0.0,0.08549635535150467,0.16217736377998904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08743191622159795,0.08354263141628374,0.0,0.0,0.0793836073351158,0.0,0.0,0.2670229507971815,0.07031649317208556,0.0,0.0,0.05074062858614155,0.14681541483538646,0.0,0.12126756636797464,0.13360587362286785,0.0,0.07239524353075116,0.07298026474895761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07460797169871694,0.0,0.0,0.06596409201775681,0.0,0.1260359203645497,0.0900967461994282,0.0,0.06126398835098078,0.0,0.06867093642954898,0.0,0.06891719958157491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07756324175742252,0.0,0.05425511367844391,0.0,0.09280484844962647,0.04918345372658807
schizophrenia,ezdabomb22,2020/01/29,"Ha ha indeed I’m bored and I feel trapped in this damn room. Fucking stupid January has to ruin everything, Arctic tundra right outside the window. The ambience is annoying.",3.7159677419354815,6.935648258064518,4.942177419354842,73.43326612903226,82.54838709677419,8.261290322580646,30.330645161290327,8.841846274778883,3.736606451612904,140,7,20,4,4,46,28,31,0.41600000000000004,0.475,0.109,-0.9273,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,2,2,2,1,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,1,1,2,2,5,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5523635902043152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31076064289955035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5681885575047407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5248657448928623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Yintwin,2020/01/29,"News- Some People With Schizophrenia May Simply Have a Vitamin Deficiency *Link and other information*   

Link: [https://scitechdaily.com/some-people-with-schizophrenia-may-simply-have-a-vitamin-deficiency/](https://scitechdaily.com/some-people-with-schizophrenia-may-simply-have-a-vitamin-deficiency/)

New research came out about a condition called pellagra that cause psychosis, and how it lowers the body’s ability to use niacin/B3; this condition has been known for awhile by orthomolecular psychiatry to be one out of many underlying conditions that can cause psychosis or schizophrenia. 

Throughout the years I've come across multiple sources stating that Niacin/B3 has the potential to stabilize those experiencing psychosis. One story was how a doctor used niacin on a very unstable psychotic psychiatric patient; he was given whats called a super dose(a large but safe dosage) and promptly fell asleep to awaken in a calm state. I've also seen people state niacin helped them through a ""bad trip"" while on hallucinogens like LSD. So it might have therapeutic potential.

In whats called orthomolecular psychiatry they understand that there are several underlying conditions, like pellagra, that cause psychosis/schizophrenia. Here's a link to an article that lists many underlying conditions that can cause psychosis/schizophrenia, including pellagra: [https://www.alternativementalhealth.com/twenty-nine-medical-causes-of-schizophrenia/](https://www.alternativementalhealth.com/twenty-nine-medical-causes-of-schizophrenia/)

This article goes over the many different conditions and the symptoms that each condition can produce. I've actually made a questionnaire of these conditions and their symptoms in order to narrow down the possible underlying condition causing ones psychosis. You can fill it out and give it to your doctor(physician and/or psychiatrist), and hopefully reach a diagnosis that doesn't require the use of neuroleptics / ""anti-psychotics""

Questionnaire download- [https://docs.google.com/document/d/1jGJB-pv6fDRO9UH5SQUqPtfLv9SgKX87iZxRPLYds1E/edit?usp=sharing](https://docs.google.com/document/d/1jGJB-pv6fDRO9UH5SQUqPtfLv9SgKX87iZxRPLYds1E/edit?usp=sharing) 

""Safe Harbor Alternative Mental Health"" is a great resource with tons of information on many aspects of mental health. [https://www.alternativementalhealth.com/articles/](https://www.alternativementalhealth.com/articles/)

Sorry if this wasn't written so well. Thanks for reading!",21.447072796934872,25.833090841379317,14.211954022988513,21.86567049808432,33.6896551724138,14.030651340996167,44.731800766283534,13.115064733898606,7.047019157088123,2144,83,191,55,18,578,172,290,0.031,0.8290000000000001,0.14,0.9866,2,0,0,0,0,0,149.0,0,2,3,3,9,11,0,0,19,0,18,8,2,12,0,45,31,16,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,2,6,0,0,0,21,15,0,3,7,1,0,5,2,1,1,3,9,2,5,10,35,19,3,29,0,0,1,0,13,17,0,6,5,123,26,5,0.0,0.0,0.09529956706731402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07809661365256339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815398771560649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084753924444069,0.0,0.0,0.2991574726460047,0.11169408677907673,0.0,0.5016054218363387,0.0,0.08412323109642457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10203123185306226,0.0,0.19991304094926265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09368190809356344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10766766431971077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20761056859871446,0.0,0.0,0.06545771861269509,0.0,0.0,0.09699586574801906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09542097750566292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924058240846328,0.0,0.3960372352960825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19683144578927309,0.10359910342525457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09431815704971812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19852561138802166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354067352420617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11009408207744974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09768386019450608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11032510187504027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093195005829182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20300692988996785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08990984334607996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10166483152159317,0.0,0.2530340000859437,0.0,0.08057760949641776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08780576018913885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06288818483815109
schizophrenia,Schiz1717,2020/01/29,"What does Schizophrenia look like? Have you ever wondered what a Schizophrenia episode looks like? In this video Michelle Hammer, the creator of Schizophrenic.NYC Mental Health Clothing Brand uses a security camera to catch herself having Schizophrenic episodes.   It is not scary, dangerous, or frightening.

  
[What Does Schizophrenia Look Like](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vKmQKASDQOk)",10.948809523809524,15.969572240740746,5.5556084656084685,68.97166666666666,67.33333333333333,8.27089947089947,41.04761904761904,8.841846274778883,5.18760634920635,327,18,34,7,7,83,45,54,0.055,0.72,0.225,0.8369,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,3,0,3,2,0,1,1,5,8,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,3,3,8,0,3,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,2,3,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43161057551478055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230679175343176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621290857263855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614355535197783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6212570937255288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24851936621141865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21298713756209445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674320954662948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Sparkly_Lexi,2020/01/29,"My Story So Far With Psychosis (and Possibly Schizophrenia?) There are a lot of things wrong with me honestly. Emotional abuse and also a long family history of bipolar and my older brother is diagnosed with bipolar 1 psychotic features, but is still leaning more towards schizophrenia. My mother is extremely bipolar 1 psychotic features almost textbook from what she’s told me. My dad is also not safe because he has borderline personality disorder and possibly bipolar as well. 

Then we come to me. I’m the youngest out of me and my brother thus my parents noticed certain symptoms in me early on in my youth. Things like mood swings and hypo-ish mania of some sort, problems at school and the like. My mom denied me treatment till I was 13 and I got to see a psychiatrist after threatening her to kill my self because there was a lot more going on than what my parents saw.

 I was hallucinating stuff. Not full blown and they were more hiccups than anything. Like voices that broke me down and personalities in my head that would take over to protect me by hurting other kids and the like. Long story short about that I got my fancy piece of paper saying I have Bipolar 2 psychotic features and that was that with that one psychiatrist since he only saw patients for 5-20 minutes per patient. 

Moved back to my home town and got a different psychiatrist that’s actually a child psychiatrist and saw patients for 45 min- 1hr and he started questioning my diagnosis. Shortly after seeing him I had a HUGE meltdown/psychotic break/I don’t really know how to phrase it. Lots of problems like said personalities actually taking over me and hallucinating them choking me and putting a bag over my head and switching personalities in front of people and not just in my room. I started seeing things that weren’t there that would throw me into a paranoia where I couldn’t touch the floor or else the demons would get me. I couldn’t be left alone and I was crippled by this intense anxiety (threat level: terror) along with not knowing when the next thing would come along and try to ruin my life even more than it did the next day. 

Super psychiatrist came through with LOXAPINE!!! The sledgehammer antipsychotic that made everything calm down and also forced me to sleep for like 20 hours a day. But then I started to go into another sort of psychosis where I couldn’t trust anyone so I called DHS child services on my parents to try and get into the foster care system for some reason. The next day my parents took me to the ER to try and commit me, but we quickly found out child inpatient programs were few and far between in this region and it would be a wait time of like 3-5 weeks sitting in a room getting food 3 times a day and talking to a psychiatrist once in a blue moon. Thus my family and I decided on outpatient therapy. 

Passed the evaluation with flying colors and got in. Yesterday was my first day in the program and I learned a lot and I’m taking notes through the courses. I get released from the program to hear my dad is meeting with my psychiatrist who is also this course’s psychiatrist. My dad comes to pick me up with a panicked and excited look on his face and later tells me that I’m on a new regimen of meds because of this and that reason and synapses and brain chemistry. Since I responded to loxapine and I’ve always responded to Valarian root, my psych knew how to concoct my meds the right way using SCIENCE!

But since I responded to certain medications and all that, my diagnosis of bipolar 2 psychotic features is up in the air and the super psych told my dad that I am leaning towards the schizophrenic side of the spectrum and I’m very scared for a lot of reasons. Mainly since my asian family is extremely judgmental and if they find out I have psychotic anything I will be shunned. Wait, that might be a good thing honestly! 

In this post I just need to explain what’s going on and get some advice or just a “you can keep going!” If anyone has even read this far aha. Thank you if you have! 

Tl;dr possibly schizophrenic after realizing I’ve been living in and out of psychosis for a very long time and my original psych made a lazy and knee jerk diagnosis after a 15 minute appointment.",6.22221226142279,7.212676043859652,6.616303258145366,74.96015760555238,66.13032581453635,9.546982841719686,33.89251976094081,9.661875296680813,3.3029571235781763,3385,148,596,68,52,1097,345,798,0.092,0.8059999999999999,0.10300000000000001,0.8117,6,1,0,0,1,0,55.0,2,3,3,3,24,33,3,2,44,0,43,20,6,13,4,139,96,67,1,14,16,12,1,7,0,7,13,4,3,9,35,69,1,5,13,1,0,14,9,11,2,2,28,14,81,21,106,54,17,112,1,3,9,0,51,55,0,18,46,411,116,12,0.0,0.06647313340021202,0.10949728590410436,0.0,0.0,0.05482341047930442,0.0,0.0,0.056179263778297316,0.05810600887711712,0.0,0.17946287682958584,0.046682367593170265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05882911061329149,0.04291880442281045,0.0,0.0,0.07845734205995086,0.0,0.09233632807492767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04313990779159225,0.0,0.1025999938341794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06262974021153139,0.05728765324038895,0.06416712966391397,0.05720096478869514,0.0,0.0,0.14498385097650993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18090965557458508,0.0,0.0,0.056943580283464225,0.0,0.0586159166781491,0.06429914271094267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046867035497096365,0.0631085633964048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741112861964362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050421950334227854,0.0,0.15866734861931872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0512773203332627,0.0477213643608881,0.06784022791680584,0.061514277326688814,0.0,0.0,0.14655806622225614,0.0,0.12753899550386774,0.047056713308311085,0.17948345841191152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11515616473547995,0.0,0.06323239856586582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05627609706659535,0.0,0.0552503637236255,0.0,0.060059649925406675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04986711354670673,0.06206989285843649,0.0,0.061665717334168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060956305135757664,0.0,0.03962735854708554,0.19186437209795024,0.0,0.04954016498259335,0.14894873425508376,0.047112569007616366,0.0,0.0,0.2384847273306141,0.0,0.10617243341569978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12463604427138053,0.05651808479157151,0.0,0.059516643129928215,0.0,0.06570740505972124,0.0,0.059628836724977666,0.0,0.0415998215961263,0.0,0.05418483276595792,0.17899921067061778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06387387990821902,0.0,0.059748090888578,0.0380169891259612,0.04266902163293141,0.0,0.0,0.249183914902252,0.0,0.0,0.038894903876291236,0.19594864653749994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18974382915721172,0.053731369742421334,0.0,0.0,0.10736639597087162,0.0,0.0563992249277331,0.06284843844066887,0.0,0.05611839537728059,0.0,0.035941154885380085,0.17305034098027144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047911837402853236,0.053367003118069585,0.044615526836286036,0.0561691035487558,0.05677944681526305,0.13412099128263305,0.0,0.058527886868369725,0.0,0.0,0.1856366303617593,0.0,0.05614373012055896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1191304288775697,0.0,0.0448040984140476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06422475636733653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05831271989665815,0.126547902250143,0.045093637498498894,0.049036681055835966,0.051652300873020265,0.06415891356738197,0.0,0.18636240915794108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09814270410047538,0.0,0.0,0.10721804864131933,0.062332734004643675,0.11427119685012425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04845516285031927,0.0,0.09258205274181844,0.0,0.04453211913031265,0.04500261341591322,0.0,0.0504435262579223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19927056435824986,0.061340056241396136,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,qwrie,2020/01/29,"i'm tired it really seems like i'll never be able to feel emotions right again. i'm numb everyday, it's so exhausting",2.718,4.175647400000003,4.8610000000000015,82.47550000000003,75.0,9.8,24.5,10.125756701596842,2.4774,95,3,20,3,2,33,21,25,0.302,0.6,0.098,-0.6968,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,7,2,0,0.3879587542530218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4364013807139065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961636030066084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895370507744124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2992177081784825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485363122261435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3313146563614611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35318307916015634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4459015169755834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,victoriousbbyg,2020/01/29,"What is one thing you’d like psychiatrists/nurses/mental health workers to know? Hi all,
I’ve been lurking this sub for a while, having started working in a mental health service a few years ago and not knowing much about schizophrenia. I currently do admin but am studying social work and take a particular interest in loved experience and our lived experience workers. In a few months I hope to win a role coordinating the lived experience workers we have, so we can really embed the voices of our clients at a management level.

What is something that you wish your treating team would understand? 

As a middle class white woman who’s mental health history falls more into the mood/eating disorder/borderline side of things, psychosis is a bit of a foreign concept to me, but I’d love to learn more if I could and if any of you are willing to share! 
Thank you so much!!! :)",9.046851851851851,8.144859333333333,8.842067901234572,67.73680555555558,60.60493827160494,11.556790123456793,38.768518518518526,10.686352973137794,4.203022222222222,700,30,118,14,8,227,111,162,0.006999999999999999,0.754,0.239,0.9924,1,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,4,5,0,7,3,9,0,0,13,0,14,5,0,0,1,21,24,12,0,6,5,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,1,7,7,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,13,9,17,19,8,15,0,0,1,2,18,8,0,3,7,83,20,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12510782200023066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0959767625455801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15408306353356213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1126849574419965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14441652419931608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4141718650599787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4500602916258678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401790795773817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15512840851756146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06895152023214479,0.0,0.2492499003879729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547600215696617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844621334099397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11265275465381686,0.0,0.207501193939032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09563685098773808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09041481067087012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438695430583248,0.0,0.10865275727375463,0.0,0.0,0.09989620725373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10611609132790814,0.0,0.0,0.12993831219509958,0.0,0.0,0.187527885444066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14692670041328604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16229849246662012,0.0,0.0,0.20549618479025814,0.0,0.0,0.1002583829383704,0.0,0.0,0.09088642901343773
schizophrenia,deadwolfrizen83,2020/01/29,"Here I am, but like a breeze, and just as quickly I'm gone Hi there, I/we are breeze, brandon, quade, and 2 others.   I am schizo affective, bi polar, intermediate explosive disorder, severe insomnia, and a few other things.   I'm 36 and high functioning (considering)   I still laugh at the diagnosis of excessively happy.  Since my mother died, i have found myself withdrawing from the rest om my blood family (for good reason) BUt  how is it that at night is still relive the abuse? I know you can relate. You are just dying to love them, but they hurt you when you are close. but that's all you think you deserve, or think that's the way everyone loves.  I have taught myself to see thru my hallucinations,  but prefer to be lost in them...  Alone at night, surrounded by darkness, memories and silence.  I find myself feeling broken, and my thoughts scattered. Emotions hyper changing.   no real story here. Just wanted to let you know part of who I am. I hope others understand.",3.4043333333333337,6.001173877777778,4.567777777777781,80.125,76.8888888888889,7.555555555555558,23.88888888888889,8.515128840125781,1.8658888888888887,758,25,135,16,18,248,119,180,0.172,0.672,0.155,-0.3919,0,1,0,0,1,0,38.0,0,7,3,1,11,9,0,0,6,0,13,5,1,3,1,33,31,15,2,3,9,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,9,7,0,0,11,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,5,2,26,7,15,24,4,15,0,2,1,3,15,7,0,2,7,97,35,1,0.0,0.17948778116428676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15689524582623088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16025356801579188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3144399800598541,0.0,0.17361766875752718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17040291975239272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14475268929727927,0.0,0.0,0.14280882561199806,0.0,0.07659657411439104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384567264981424,0.0,0.0,0.1660980998265497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270604322161498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16126113943272125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16005474068181574,0.0,0.15046115549496042,0.0,0.0,0.1621703799896498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16650701136015064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549061159031529,0.0,0.07400908494006551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16536637693923714,0.0,0.2734465608909394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2843212996935464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16404607684163008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17242581022631806,0.0,0.15575426313098048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12071583360823725,0.0,0.0,0.1711376271576482,0.0,0.12531193123484075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419560444965603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100641488075491,0.19413400048009924,0.0,0.1202640632826106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15770371145176135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935118524277437,0.12024363595319867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Drunk_Uncle_Billy,2020/01/29,Ok so scizophrenia runs in my family and I am 13 years old and starting to experience some if the milder symptoms My family history isn't pretty when it comes to scizophrenia. My great grandma on my dad's side dumped a pit of boiling water on my grandma when she was in her crib. My grandma was almost normal until she turned to drug use and started mistreating my dad around four. She also tried something like the boiling water thing on my dad but didn't for reasons unknown to me. My dad turned to drug use young after being pretty much abandoned and eventually committed some violent crime. He was arrested of course but still. He eventually married and had my brother russel. My dad was heroin dependent at this point and mistreated my brother and his two step brothers.  She hit by a car in front of russel's eyes. My dad sobered up and got with my mom. But at this point they were in speed and it was too much for my mom and she died in front of my eyes when I was three. My dad is now sober and we're not dirt poor so I have a good life all things considered.,4.476666666666667,5.625160377358494,5.172943396226419,83.1481572327044,70.22641509433961,8.483522012578616,28.28427672955975,8.841846274778883,2.1012537106918243,848,30,168,15,15,274,121,212,0.145,0.7759999999999999,0.078,-0.9631,0,0,3,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,0,10,7,2,0,5,1,14,10,2,4,2,30,23,22,1,2,5,12,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,14,4,1,1,0,1,6,3,3,0,3,10,2,29,4,27,11,5,34,0,1,2,0,22,15,0,5,14,114,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13946957382124275,0.0,0.0,0.11138278283127724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12398941607759564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11997805208255476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14455145145720516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32304295297539715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13624332063610156,0.262603031830542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11682210319519892,0.11139555669267412,0.1535575425360274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837812809427864,0.06804554972347761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262479129930969,0.0,0.0,0.2047747861442644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364655841869416,0.0,0.0,0.1461517403823948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633306976165455,0.0,0.0,0.28339723438027026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14320383051763974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722514272016707,0.0,0.0,0.1971672942085926,0.0,0.1112298042194391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447660514819033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18506391172466075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09456250137431756,0.3029949683224133,0.1360570756919872,0.0,0.0,0.2405877349636484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08969225049428363
schizophrenia,onlyavailableon,2020/01/29,"I have trouble sleeping As it says in the title I have trouble sleeping. I feel like i have tried everyting. Pills, music, cannabis, exercise but none of those work anymore. They did once.

I just want to hear if you got any suggestions? What helps with your insomnia?",2.83904761904762,5.775625183673469,3.2480612244897955,86.32134353741499,82.87755102040815,6.531972789115647,28.574829931972786,7.793537801064563,2.1810789115646254,210,10,38,4,6,65,41,49,0.075,0.785,0.14,0.504,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,1,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,4,5,2,0,0,6,8,3,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,3,8,1,5,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,1,1,25,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19695747214024906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872338803561001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14644499119303794,0.2069108267299697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23164255811215814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264326348280938,0.0,0.19413203649866229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414979706020088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084451511734281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23032439555874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5796758044293089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196638899882368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17083053239984486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21085316912796112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Apathetic_fast_ball,2020/01/29,Super annoying how lonely this whole thing is literally nobody you know will understand. big OOF,6.120000000000001,9.900041000000003,6.705000000000003,61.24000000000001,76.5,10.7,26.75,10.125756701596842,4.47885,80,3,10,3,2,26,16,16,0.235,0.588,0.17600000000000002,-0.0772,0,2,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134722401359913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789427539409207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5937976461497505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6368217170659383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Fanet0,2020/01/29,"Help I'm currently in the prodromal stage of schizophrenia, and my cognition and well-being is getting worse and worse every day. Is there any way I can reverse this, and prevent myself from having a psychotic break, or should I just kill myself?",10.544,8.755550177777781,9.44277777777778,67.4375,58.33333333333334,12.555555555555555,40.27777777777778,11.20814326018867,4.587444444444444,198,8,32,4,2,62,37,45,0.21899999999999997,0.7040000000000001,0.076,-0.8442,1,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,8,7,5,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,3,6,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250942889143573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21347040375263826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27888541655733995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17293609603259935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218652191070266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3662072388366998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627358230414958,0.0,0.0,0.29761263661645715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6746433632161277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,blahgblahblahhhhh,2020/01/29,"The call to void How related is schizophrenia to

The call of the void is that feeling when you stand in a high place and think about jumping, but don't actually want to and don't actually do it. It's a feeling more people have had than they'd like to admit. ... The French have a phrase for it: l'appel du vide, the call of the void.",7.749565217391307,4.983537579710148,7.745217391304347,80.49869565217392,64.5072463768116,10.93913043478261,34.594202898550726,8.841846274778883,2.5195855072463766,259,8,59,3,3,84,44,69,0.02,0.856,0.125,0.7284,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,9,0,9,0,0,1,0,9,14,5,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,10,12,1,6,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,2,39,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.461286491756994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7240185096659003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23901105338069165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497164697718959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154685412225422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16385514588948705,0.0,0.2469351668612469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514433657387247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394051963329026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Kiminiri,2020/01/29,"Looking for advice on how to speak to my brother Hello everyone. I just found this sub so I don't know exactly what I'm allowed to post or if this is a common question (I've read the rules, and I think I'm in the clear, let me know if I'm not).  
I'm using somewhat of a throwaway to protect my brother's identity, but I'm really here for help. 

My (27F) brother (37M) has been diagnosed with schizophrenia about 15 years ago (something like that). Because I was young, my parents always downplayed it to me and told me ""it wasnt schizophrenia, but it's a form of schizophrenia"" or ""it's mild"" and maybe that was the truth at the time, because he was living a somewhat normal life (living on hiw own, with a job etc) and I never witnessed anything special, other than a short period at the very beginning when he was diagnosed. I could also tell he was ""a little bit behind"" emotionally, but nothing to be noted. Well this past year, all hell broke lose. A series of events eventually led to him meeting with his estranged dad (my mom and his dad divorced when he was a like 2). And I can only assume this is around this time that he stopped taking his meds, or that his meds stopped working. He believes he is in danger, he feels unsafe in his appartment because he thinks it is wired. He has very very bad delusions. There was a few time he felt so unsafe that he got to the hospital himself, but then the hospital let him out again. Then he went back, and they let him out. Then he went back again and he is out again (in the span of 4 months). He got out last week, now he believes our mom wants to kill him. That she is the head of a big plot against him. She is the only person that has been visiting him, that has been there for him always, but everytime she goes, he tells her horrible things. My mom doesn't know what to do anymore, I don't know what to do because I'm scared for her, I'm scared for him, and I'm scared for others. I believe he is a threat to himself and others. I'm scared that if he thinks people want to get him he might want to strike first. I'm scared that he might attack my mom, or himself. Sometimes he feels so unsafe in his appartment that he stays outside. We live on the other side of the country. We dont know how to talk to him. We dont know how to make him take his meds. We dont know if we should ignore it and wait for a day where he feels better. And if he is taking the meds, why does he still believes these things (I left out the most delirious ones). How can we help if he thinks we want to harm him ? Is it possible that he will be back to how he was before ? When the schizophrenia evolves like this, is it reversible, is it only an episode ? It's destroying my family and I'm starting to be resentful of him for being so mean to my mom, even tho I know he can't help it, I still feel like he can.

Thanks in advance for all the advices, I'm new to this even tho he has been diagnosed for 15 years. I hope I didnt break any rule, if I did, well I'm sorry for the wall of text mods.",3.2084242424242437,3.9535631714285735,4.210281385281387,90.37918831168831,72.84126984126979,7.124098124098125,25.42929292929293,7.1686216300943375,0.9108253968253964,2338,70,525,22,44,759,249,630,0.135,0.787,0.078,-0.9936,3,0,1,0,1,0,85.0,8,0,1,5,35,28,7,5,31,0,56,5,1,9,6,100,109,47,1,15,18,11,5,4,0,4,4,1,0,1,40,29,0,5,21,1,0,5,11,17,2,2,22,7,64,11,65,75,10,71,1,2,1,0,95,25,1,19,42,334,104,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11266157001198167,0.05109950215528603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046099306130636584,0.09593180684934552,0.0,0.0,0.0392011043445885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057169119773849524,0.0,0.0,0.0474375617966606,0.05131696213209445,0.0,0.06558039205834187,0.0,0.13297813013131346,0.04813181497977224,0.1405613196688641,0.0,0.04905230944723089,0.2597881964751947,0.0,0.05098300421636074,0.06293425711712748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04602546134697317,0.0,0.0,0.0371767565154553,0.0,0.0,0.1755277472000808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050446206925565305,0.0,0.20268125996359854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06484373893634,0.0,0.0,0.06429027805969605,0.07614898257423901,0.0,0.0,0.05508300919235931,0.0,0.0,0.054343307140778487,0.0,0.11658974535198595,0.0411821537945555,0.05534898489312216,0.0,0.0,0.04903346750054007,0.0,0.06320561782993565,0.0,0.0,0.030117538646655995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09220918599865044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059161196841972616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11591624532009345,0.0,0.0,0.05725526241658354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05720453765469491,0.0,0.06377651005993806,0.0,0.25344488677533245,0.04698900120739621,0.0,0.0,0.0626323041441968,0.17684013432156162,0.04071691628002328,0.11265125714381745,0.05777621150322565,0.15270682861927573,0.0,0.0484079332651108,0.06449087797206819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038479003015205036,0.0,0.05791292997308081,0.06279314935286565,0.2561258466945842,0.0,0.0,0.12230611700802035,0.0,0.3375701799068077,0.04601230832090586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044459976094748416,0.05567464954185882,0.0,0.0,0.056480620988430014,0.055312676655529816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03906226960903916,0.13152663048541852,0.0,0.0,0.06400881217800501,0.0,0.05502941581654264,0.039964322703184015,0.05033406798216964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06498695084832527,0.05520871851232812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06457646182190757,0.0,0.0576613756284301,0.0,0.03692936012216237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28856739012785554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044378534576980815,0.05701314632698205,0.06452972654922323,0.04080197685687043,0.061442727055208785,0.092071982136234,0.09638889965655463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13002734803050864,0.04633349105533897,0.10076989788901898,0.053072485460225485,0.0,0.0,0.07659458404133689,0.1477483421538861,0.0,0.0,0.100841146441946,0.0,0.0,0.05508300919235931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049787441844428654,0.0,0.14269140672253694,0.13600388861772805,0.0,0.04623996425754085,0.0,0.10366095096005516,0.10687642350626253,0.052016346489312686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04196681138599589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11136596899392552
schizophrenia,thedistractedpoet,2020/01/29,"Today was a bad day I have started coming out of a 4-month long episode. I now have some of my higher cognitive functions back and can follow long conversations and watch movies again without getting lost. I am even able to start to do some math again, which makes me happy. I thought I was ready to start to do normal life things again, but maybe I started too soon.   
I went to a meeting at my college, ( I am going back to college at a local center), and It lasted an hour. I don't like all the people and my voices started right back. The dog and raven that tend to follow me got super aggressive and by the last 20 minutes, I could no longer focus on the meeting. My notes devolved into drawings of my hallucinations, and how they were behaving. Fire, a dog growling, and a crow attacking just starting to fill the page. They haven't really left me alone since. It is stressful, made worse by TMJ pain.   
I've had some issues this last semester. I wasn't able to hide my problems, and medication isn't an option right now so I have only had therapy and family to support me through this. Which has lead to the worst semester of my college career, and has made the administration at this little college center a little uncomfortable. They try to act like they are not, but I can see that they are.   
I know that I am at the point where there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I have therapy on Thursday and next week is my PsyDoc appointment. It is just really hard going through this is a super rural area with no one who understands. I just needed to vent. I know that I am getting better but it is a struggle. I always think I am doing better than I am, then reality crashes back. It makes me feel so defeated.",3.798520710059172,5.303487313609466,4.980591715976335,82.50863905325447,72.31360946745562,7.566863905325444,26.6094674556213,8.139509932561175,1.6933337278106508,1344,46,260,20,26,444,171,338,0.16699999999999998,0.753,0.081,-0.9854,0,1,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,5,7,20,18,2,2,22,0,35,3,0,6,1,45,65,19,0,4,8,0,3,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,17,16,0,0,6,0,0,9,8,10,0,1,12,7,40,8,34,52,6,58,0,2,2,0,9,20,0,4,31,193,57,7,0.1951354307242548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010507282317792,0.0,0.0,0.08118415516800691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11099736155713777,0.0,0.30009420247130114,0.08146496692118309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17258143096302658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08404594754854297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07789988155940307,0.0,0.0,0.0629231048328686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641603617865459,0.0,0.0,0.06444255581364618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09197815873911516,0.0,0.049333168468923785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10195020863553124,0.0,0.11089996217835972,0.0,0.07803381495551515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10386264726727974,0.08740150871210982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09608454611209273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10183534594980023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10724132949366473,0.23859213062890064,0.0,0.0,0.10600760822023368,0.0,0.06891496278041194,0.09533331478054108,0.1955769655027386,0.0,0.17268871563706598,0.0,0.0,0.1065066868454917,0.0,0.0,0.1846418627286185,0.13025441525989245,0.0,0.098019884073529,0.0,0.0,0.09828920858308828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07787761955174895,0.0,0.0,0.07234522466498511,0.0,0.0,0.1037643721692202,0.0,0.0955956454674318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06611440900169789,0.07420464410253573,0.10381892818071636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06764116891105397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09223302768981807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335912679377632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12500875365023068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16664459163663428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0777488370089238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0807090223845025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4143535866695327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117634883004168,0.10199896031866999,0.0,0.0,0.110718687163205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22315437125460294,0.0,0.06481965471166629,0.06251745239237459,0.0,0.07745786757796574,0.0,0.0,0.09248278586978227,0.0,0.0,0.06624207421784377,0.0,0.0,0.1015714326022653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07826293606963164,0.0,0.0,0.09044624962980392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09405179589704876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09942983739712632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,kenlasalle,2020/01/29,"I'm getting a little irritated So, I'm 54 years old and have been wrestling with this beast since I was 17. That's a really long time but I wasn't diagnosed until 2005. Until that point, I just suffered and treated everyone around me like crap. But one thing I have always been told, have always read, I thought was a hard and fast rule, which is that schizophrenia tapers off as you get older. It gets easier, I've read, more manageable. And that's good because every med I have tried has given me side effects far worse than any schizo episode. So, I manage by being careful and honest with myself, by being aware and present.  
Well, I'm coming off about a two-week attack - not the worst but certainly not the best - and I feel like I'm going down another dark tunnel. Trying to keep my thoughts positive and do what I need to do to take care of me... but I gotta tell you... When the fucking fuck is this going to end? I don't need it to go away for ever, you know, but I'm so tired and coming up for air and I'm a little pissed. I'm 54 fucking years old. Can't I, at least, get early onset dementia or something, so I won't be aware it's happening?  
(Sorry. Just needed to vent. And I figure you're the folks to vent to... with my thanks.)",2.032283380681818,3.683012207031254,3.5599005681818205,90.26549715909091,77.3203125,6.373295454545455,21.01136363636364,7.1686216300943375,0.4738812500000002,959,24,207,11,22,317,149,256,0.142,0.7140000000000001,0.14400000000000002,-0.3041,1,0,1,0,0,0,44.0,0,3,0,2,11,19,6,0,9,0,20,7,2,1,2,39,55,25,0,3,10,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,12,17,0,1,6,2,0,5,6,8,1,1,9,2,23,11,28,41,4,33,0,1,0,3,5,13,5,1,17,125,35,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1877482912946107,0.0,0.0,0.07672054347018112,0.11830018019097906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10043250795704896,0.0,0.12834748928184445,0.10599682542657173,0.0,0.0,0.0687731953995945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839620163502765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300522435595555,0.0,0.0,0.19436653630034706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11450854412086435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09992382811288653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10205091827600726,0.09505456947567294,0.10780304463014867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057044493873354175,0.0805976584898694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128970424156889,0.2357723305593151,0.0,0.19235229793795944,0.09462692203799374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09976515018297476,0.0,0.101063341013471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10027839035265934,0.0,0.0,0.062002173721370624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102349769881658,0.2261478302861895,0.0,0.09984094562425448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12531607516996765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509607746622525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367683677081812,0.0,0.07644882978910074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10665008038733642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256983393408965,0.0,0.07227450925038659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933247443013383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08685330038734479,0.0,0.12629123014801005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08482557633408533,0.0,0.09860846346982356,0.10386824544609717,0.0,0.0,0.07495169093794968,0.0,0.0,0.17913079535030066,0.06578545586518418,0.12966842963409522,0.0,0.10780304463014867,0.0,0.15319290100972893,0.0,0.11020741745002413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09049630736665724,0.0,0.10143750574451717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11497183185794893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14530300966681425
schizophrenia,footfetishbby,2020/01/29,"I need help with school & illness I’m having a horrible time with myvoices and dealing with school. I can’t go to school because I’m so extremely paranoid sometimes and hearing things. I’ve been avoiding seeing a professor to turn in my work (my work that I was supposed to turn in a month ago, but I was hospitalized) I was so extremely embarrassed because of the voices etc and they tell me things. I literally CANT turn in this damn work i ALREADY DID because the voices are driving me insane !!!!! My school counselors know about this but not my advisor and therefore I might be kicked out of school whichwould mean id be homeless. How do I fix this I am so lost and going crazy",2.5849624060150376,5.1346623458646645,3.55259398496241,86.51280075187971,79.67669172932331,6.2060150375939855,28.296992481203013,7.447530270364453,1.807460150375939,544,25,102,8,14,174,80,133,0.204,0.782,0.013999999999999999,-0.9772,0,1,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,4,5,4,1,2,5,0,14,1,0,2,0,19,27,11,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,6,9,0,1,2,0,0,3,3,4,0,0,6,4,17,0,13,18,1,10,0,1,1,0,5,4,1,1,3,68,23,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11227084034081687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13976547893269506,0.0,0.0,0.13722920309004866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316207127226154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13057437676525305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412523261297604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14396040357602494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14274789574214658,0.0,0.08489328807738637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06960554706550663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382574468074456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13796298101043966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343595334215234,0.0,0.0,0.10109375440704713,0.0,0.0,0.09391209460305602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6409014000820503,0.10092658043805301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252637223187131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11070089374528408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16828614669754952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0738527759531051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4132884840637221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2766161497862804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,WhenWhatsRealIsnt,2020/01/29,"Schizophrenia and emotions My diagnosis is fairly recent, but my condition isn't.  I was misdiagnosed as bipolar in my early 20s and had been treating that for over a decade.  I was fairly successful, largely by ignoring the occasional hallucinations and delusions and trusting whatever my partner's interpretation of events were and ignoring everything that felt magical.

Then last spring the beginnings of a psychotic break started setting in and I had to face it alone.  At work suddenly my friends were out to get me, changing my code (I am a programmer), telling me wrong things and letting me get in trouble when I acted on it.  There was a PI following me around and harassing me.  By July I was living in a nightmare world and completely unable to break out of the anxious, paranoid obsessions.  I was convinced people were talking to the PI and I tried really carefully to get people to tell me what they knew.  This confused everyone a great deal.  My face went flat, yet emotionally I was overreacting to everything negative, completely unable to control my emotions or responses.  Anything negative felt like it was stuck at 11.  The worst part is how isolating it is, and that has made me very bitter.  My bizarre behavior drove everyone away.  I feel like I lost everything.

Does anyone else feel like a psychotic break fundamentally changed who they were?  Like their emotions broke?  Did you manage to come back?",6.458790322580644,8.888890524193549,6.755677419354843,68.71351612903229,67.14516129032259,10.766451612903225,37.4,10.793553405168565,4.94219129032258,1142,62,175,36,20,368,146,248,0.215,0.662,0.12300000000000001,-0.9817,0,1,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,3,4,6,22,2,2,12,0,22,3,2,3,0,29,40,17,0,0,2,0,4,4,2,0,1,0,0,1,11,15,0,3,6,0,0,5,3,11,0,0,23,5,31,11,28,16,2,34,0,2,0,0,11,13,0,2,16,127,42,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125323317171124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12274760861724075,0.0,0.07597310341005292,0.11132842393421327,0.08941263133768525,0.09672471439731367,0.0,0.0,0.10208360694120737,0.08354788958428905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077955737337283,0.0,0.2298821430800667,0.0935954308742654,0.2278424046818412,0.0,0.12186421927095205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112017061100671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09508347249283956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09076611674208312,0.4888825735963704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20764628734495616,0.2929524717229181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10987702069929706,0.15524426616646464,0.20864893530477455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08394547969901872,0.0,0.17030101956050622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11979094599538515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08856716245013094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11110563821117812,0.0,0.21233058663305893,0.0,0.09594309412872312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11860820821297367,0.0,0.0,0.10281063634585444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176612295600028,0.0,0.15065341122872056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06960626004121405,0.0,0.10728229364468964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07690555703916764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873316249278772,0.18993602092174375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07218460483600897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07376864273965388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08965057548718025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10072294919601534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0791010940013863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11879562354903893,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Molly66698,2020/01/30,"Think I might be showing signs and I’m terrified My bio family has a history of mental illness . I’ve started to think that my family are spies and they are out to make my life miserable to drive me to kill myself. 

I try and talk myself out of it but it doesn’t work, I’m locking myself in my room and won’t talk to my family. I don’t trust them.  I think they are all talking about me constantly and reporting back on me to the government who makes bad things happen to push me over the edge 

I don’t know how to cope with this. I’ve made a doctors appointment but I’m so scared. 

Any advice welcome",1.8476091624910536,3.489192787401578,3.7788690050107365,88.53368647100932,77.81889763779527,7.767788117394417,22.56907659269864,8.575989854853784,1.3309905511811024,472,14,104,10,11,160,77,127,0.147,0.789,0.065,-0.8661,0,0,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,3,1,5,6,1,2,4,0,10,3,0,4,1,21,22,9,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,0,6,8,0,0,4,1,0,2,4,4,0,0,1,0,20,2,17,18,1,11,0,1,0,0,8,6,0,1,3,68,26,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17013203368104945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839642575509235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13387493009336146,0.14536924288198302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18814415206256907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17820242327203226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4923881689114362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15395924823153925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19261984998830065,0.0,0.09568279140918427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12297452931296216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16474104638836393,0.2324310245738573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1754554902933434,0.18469641791778615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17430808724310726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12323143198036775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41981366281062055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11566670294511976,0.3346756918215881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11820492341568893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12674950238043312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jazzoz,2020/01/30,"Please comfort me, but be genuine My scizophrenia is an anxiety driven one, in which all my delusions are centered around fear of harming my brain. Most of my delusions are plausible, but occur so frequently that they are implausible. Right now, im feeling heavily brain damaged due to the fact that i ate a bowl of oatmeals.. 

 The oatmeals have been stores in an open paper bag in room which have been freshly painted, and they have therefore absorbed all kinds of toxic paint fumes the last week. Is this a genuine fear and is it possible to experience significant brain damage from this, or can i relax and dont worry about it?

The paint was most likely acrylic..",7.822974238875879,8.141571180327873,7.262880562060889,74.03352459016395,62.606557377049185,9.92224824355972,37.92037470725995,9.606745405546679,3.7120079625292735,532,25,90,9,7,166,82,122,0.175,0.725,0.10099999999999999,-0.9266,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,1,4,10,1,2,8,0,15,4,3,1,3,15,18,7,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,8,5,1,0,1,1,1,1,1,6,0,1,5,1,9,4,12,12,4,14,0,2,0,0,2,8,0,3,6,65,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427026464131727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16606021510127505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6247212469603396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186235780410886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824719870991567,0.0,0.4198188900902455,0.09432026657149407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014952909021716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19425278203619875,0.0,0.15205505789311255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09113405789969678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264043821792047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20476498487271108,0.0,0.2102959058423988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15930420438904366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14963119584353124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894405005298394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,EyeingYou,2020/01/30,"Depression and schizophrenia I'm okay most of the time I think. My symptoms are some paranoia that I try to push aside (or let happen in a controlled way) and something that resembles CAPD as I like to think of it.  
By the most problems I have is moving about in society. I have anxiety and don't like to show it. I've gotten really depressed just not being able to fit in. I'm considering visiting more 'festivals' and groups where people are atypical, and see if I can fit in with the misfits, because I sure don't feel comfortable along the regular people a lot...  
It also seems that things are just more out of reach. A stable job; I'm smart enough and stable enough, but again the team spirit is differnt for me..",5.355992063492064,6.026555250000001,5.985238095238099,79.8575396825397,67.92857142857143,9.650793650793652,29.841269841269842,9.725611199111238,2.691388888888889,565,20,109,12,9,184,90,140,0.083,0.7829999999999999,0.134,0.4656,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,7,10,0,0,8,1,12,1,0,1,1,26,22,11,0,2,6,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,9,0,1,4,2,0,3,3,3,0,0,1,2,9,7,18,19,8,14,1,2,1,0,3,8,0,7,4,77,16,2,0.18981251335154992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15179299834986226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14520605317423993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11570794636305147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21289087380937427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269704792293791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3922541327505463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597490997843616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16785057869132372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18835963095012925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19409615509319564,0.0,0.1854656124463588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613718110917761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20174066245897987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631841942673511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816249405375676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12159875648018685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15125599803223727,0.17279818329581234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14612694617839644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17889604749501095,0.19728787928557664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126102999642204,0.24324838852460645,0.0,0.0,0.1106812029670865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288702369450939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15066433805320642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,omnitouchcorp,2020/01/30,"How you you deal with when you can't tell if your paranoia is real or not? The last place I lived left me fearful of others because it was so damn toxic there. Now I'm imagining people here getting like that and that's a feed back loop I wish not to be a part of. It was fucking horrible- ruined my self esteem and mental health. 

None the less, I keep getting paranoia triggered by anxiety. Case in point: 

Today I went to the coffee shop and some cute, young, and rather short twenty something girl at the counter asked my if I want small or large. There was a twinkle in her eye and for some stupid reason I said ""I like 'em short"" thinking I was being flirty. I know it's normal that women flirt to get better tips but after I went and sat down I thought I could hear her talking shit about me to people at the counter. I did't look but some very scary things were (appear to have been) said. Things like ""should I call the police"" and a man saying ""I'll put him under investigation"" The word rape was used which makes it especially scary that people would associate me that way, especially to others. Definitely heard my name several times. And that man seemed (out of the corner of my eye) look around the counter to where I was seated after I heard her say ""His name's Omnitouchcorp he's in the jean jacket""

I know people gossip and enjoy hurting others who are not part of their own group but since there was so much of that at my last place I can't tell if I'm making this all up in my head or what.

I do notice it only happens after a stressful interpersonal exchange. I frequently chalk it up to my worries working overtime because I know that not keeping to myself invites trouble. But that doesn't make it not feel real.",3.693192959723572,5.3038600145772605,4.363861354065438,86.40254832091568,72.76093294460642,6.480898391102473,24.073966094374256,6.937597516519254,0.8266977432242735,1367,39,270,12,27,436,193,343,0.15,0.785,0.065,-0.9867,0,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,0,4,1,2,14,18,5,2,15,0,21,8,4,7,1,61,55,23,0,10,16,0,1,3,0,2,1,7,0,5,25,12,1,2,9,1,2,4,9,11,0,0,17,12,42,7,35,33,10,39,0,2,4,2,34,22,3,11,15,184,67,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07775874129188877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904862918067334,0.09502508045033448,0.0,0.0,0.07815932839777588,0.0,0.1239246445995464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08989742971983779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10379170313447272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08115588205049047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10479233297554724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11437975848555078,0.0513951590335593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09396988306348704,0.15931716983559435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08988502503053986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10431789214838,0.10804470792415273,0.11456217822171075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10881390671146024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18069487411866228,0.0,0.0,0.16758558254075598,0.16570974969308327,0.0,0.0,0.11043843426919084,0.0,0.0,0.1489769771455701,0.0,0.08975508344756243,0.0,0.17071370530128135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2035480365909129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10243503601060122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07472134170756654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09959128015078396,0.0,0.11572439097237874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07730619384564517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22014494265802967,0.0,0.281873533875235,0.0,0.2123964058113732,0.0,0.09608811421165728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10218208077314993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23139029494550095,0.0,0.10450878797551333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19337682140912046,0.16166560348173414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925344979557033,0.10603871367254826,0.11483079584287535,0.10433792954046753,0.08408243722491833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07825188520223106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11643489428341952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08169902538786468,0.17768577887072107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350578754942543,0.06513050971179916,0.0,0.0806953931020594,0.05927047006136465,0.0,0.09634831159564003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08778931573247184,0.0,0.08386841134368725,0.059953312905761114,0.08068168666863343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884533075000437,0.0,0.0,0.11688762733369565,0.0,0.0,0.07399933634996679,0.1032262206844815,0.0,0.07220624371720166,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,fesepo,2020/01/30,"Brain games for negative/cognitive symptoms Hi
Have you find other than drugs, games than help with cognitive symptoms? I find brain games help if played over long time, specially mentioned is wizard, a module with peak app which is Target to schizophrenics. I also play chess, crosswords, cribbage and gin rummy. I would like to here experiences of others in this field and what games play.... 
It is curious than I am very bad at those games but trying to do better help a lot.",5.524485049833884,7.771666000000002,4.843289036544848,82.22081395348839,69.23255813953489,7.70498338870432,26.239202657807308,8.418075326091056,1.8674272425249177,380,12,65,6,7,114,63,86,0.027000000000000003,0.775,0.198,0.9101,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,1,2,7,0,0,2,0,7,6,2,0,0,10,7,5,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,2,9,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,6,13,6,1,5,0,0,0,0,11,3,0,2,3,41,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16044588716707028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16751991306564595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17744330725403756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4479448634192713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326702200542129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19625726610871266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3667492819802636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40343958246907613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09801899643405744,0.0,0.0,0.17755361429734454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17057073564553107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4170683649890883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11699053313277465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13621642447848062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16554297858509187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14252370428722033,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mrtacomagic,2020/01/30,I’m going to the doctor. I’m getting help. I’m getting meds. I’m getting better? This is for me. I’m sorry.,-3.8978666666666686,-3.6158399199999987,1.1389999999999991,94.31783333333335,128.2,1.666666666666667,16.166666666666668,3.1291,-0.9763333333333332,82,3,18,0,6,32,15,25,0.054000000000000006,0.711,0.23399999999999999,0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,10,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,10,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32196493976917423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3726116886874965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5705896503400608,0.0,0.2068930558978204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24400920474315105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40436780880150414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4075144225234711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,winniestarr1,2020/01/30,"Scary movies Every time I watch a scary movie I end up being super paranoid and scared, more than a normal person, and I start hallucinating and having nightmares for a few days. Anyone else?",4.992761904761903,7.3664920857142855,5.142857142857146,78.9704761904762,71.0,5.80952380952381,20.238095238095237,6.42735559955562,0.40452380952380906,153,3,25,1,3,48,28,35,0.28800000000000003,0.612,0.099,-0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,3,2,2,5,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,4,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517763775732588,0.368944613830101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23222187523910856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.300800718332763,0.0,0.31892409037093844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30338301362296005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35280204487849576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31440805360125856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3605029956848851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548665474683388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099656014753467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,scoob8,2020/01/30,Dance parties with hallucinations Every so often my hallucinations ('Consciousness' 'Future self' and 'Toby') will have dance parties in my room and I join in and its super fun. Don't know if anyone else has this. Its like the only positive of my disorder.,5.337666666666667,7.963213377777778,6.628611111111113,67.57625000000003,70.7777777777778,8.944444444444445,26.805555555555557,9.516144504307137,2.9208888888888893,202,7,31,5,4,68,36,45,0.046,0.597,0.35700000000000004,0.9531,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,8,5,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,4,0,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,3,4,4,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,2,22,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749474316294617,0.4028986951192193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4506623263082534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3284834968833644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3313034415683733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21610253617389094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19210663652911786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990602944247581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4102125244279027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,throwawayyy748382,2020/01/30,help i’m been having a really difficult time sleeping the past 2 days because right when i start to drift off to sleep i’ll hear a whisper or just a voice and it’s not like dreaming it’s like i’m really hearing it and it jumps me awake and freaks me out. then i start to panic that i’m developing schizophrenia or something. i don’t know how to make this better,2.7256277056277085,4.038587038961039,4.126688311688317,88.333841991342,74.71428571428572,7.2112554112554115,24.52164502164502,7.793537801064563,1.1164476190476198,290,9,63,4,6,96,53,77,0.159,0.759,0.08199999999999999,-0.5629,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,0,1,4,0,3,2,2,2,0,11,12,8,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,6,4,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,3,0,0,1,4,5,3,6,11,0,12,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,9,34,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349534496002084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957958933848548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1427741728244194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4990310424433632,0.0,0.1483888285198543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12166669263792405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163137880203874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14777533979652924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597460738790304,0.0,0.0,0.2113357931306256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836481360166479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18906047142603266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4430871642412407,0.0,0.0,0.1704319892122448,0.0,0.0,0.3133930466967439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12909061664133775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,societypages,2020/01/30,"How to help close friend Hi! Can you guys give me tips for helping a close friend with schizophrenia? His symptoms are delusions and disorganized type speech. He wants to get better, but he also doesn't like acknowledging that he isn't all the way there yet. I try to gently remind him that schizophrenia has a pretty high remission rate, or that we could get rid of a lot of his symptoms over time, but he tends to change the conversation and just say that he is cured (although, he still has pretty strong delusions of grandeur, and that combined with the disorganized speech makes it hard for him to talk to new people).

I have this feeling that it could be good for him to meet other people with schizophrenia? People who could understand what it feels like to be in his shoes. 

Likewise, I have a feeing that there are little ways that I could help him that just don't come to mind naturally - I haven't been dealing with this problem for ten years like him (we are in our late twenties). 

If anyone has tips or a useful resource (maybe a movie we could watch together?) I would really love that. When I go by my first impulse and try to argue with his delusions, it really doesn't work - but I just know there are other ways that his load could be lightened. 

Thanks!",6.772981109799293,6.905924657024799,5.877048406139316,83.71479338842978,64.82644628099176,8.567178276269184,28.85596221959858,7.957251820313856,1.6534772136953957,1005,28,197,10,14,302,129,242,0.077,0.721,0.20199999999999999,0.9894,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,4,1,0,4,11,12,1,0,9,0,27,4,1,3,1,44,42,14,0,10,9,0,3,3,2,1,2,3,0,1,21,15,0,0,5,0,1,2,5,2,0,2,1,7,25,10,26,31,2,20,0,0,1,1,37,7,0,4,11,134,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08849035930392242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07737219542633833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09786490817702154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11705778295916527,0.09531904902620797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5300916591040511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11407992504645215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11190047446824326,0.07905159300798541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09412265652641566,0.0,0.0,0.17098277597992012,0.0,0.11562481260086405,0.1061498741079456,0.0628874992799515,0.09281174005180416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10956534666778016,0.0,0.0,0.0991246923485791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22250812557718302,0.11691254883305438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06081281633322225,0.0,0.12482308960974645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621805899710184,0.11090487350615696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09407449421430394,0.09987000156073744,0.0,0.0738627343505569,0.0,0.11116731273868426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117294954331474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068708003569037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301416814379603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251508039086804,0.0,0.10588140705725438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14177620534302682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08799689540306935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836882227653574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300247773490983,0.0,0.08893989119214114,0.0,0.10187579167067827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06452352562516425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15025427647945694,0.0,0.0,0.11519523125473224,0.0,0.09556995511281023,0.0,0.0,0.06526688783779322,0.2634971616652562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08055778991256236,0.0,0.0,0.07860577808747088,0.0,0.0,0.07125786653256272
schizophrenia,sheepfornicator,2020/01/30,"Health Insurance and Schizophrenia in the US Hi, folks. My fiancé, who is suffering from schizophrenia all her life, and I, are getting married in a year. She is pretty stable and is fully functional when on medication, and she gets her insurance completely covered by the state. 

Ever since proposing to her, the number one thing on my mind is the health insurance part. To be honest, I am completely in the dark when it comes to health insurance, more so when it comes to insurance for mental health. She will definitely lose her Medi-Cal once we get married, as I make about six figures USD a year. 

If anyone here is knowledgeable about the subject, any insight is greatly appreciated. Thank you for taking the time in reading this post.",7.7410714285714315,8.458850127819552,7.396005639097747,71.64784304511281,62.75939849624061,10.559774436090226,35.421992481203006,10.411451182825502,3.849136090225564,589,25,97,13,8,186,86,133,0.04,0.8270000000000001,0.133,0.9056,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,2,1,0,1,8,5,0,0,9,0,10,6,0,1,2,15,18,10,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,5,7,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,2,0,2,0,0,15,3,17,16,3,17,0,2,0,0,12,6,0,1,7,72,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09832449894492017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010989838071814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490987606314221,0.3031946116139668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307877258489097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266230974660419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15940829538143975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6147592604074693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10212646961738486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16175649561762762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0965133190665428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14565675535604733,0.14571025316181288,0.0,0.1459922183587817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15398103261358767,0.0979762726375936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565742375668933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13847491482380028,0.1470975287253446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14462668748572813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11960432379051572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10871185100513114,0.0,0.0,0.13311679933217474,0.0,0.0,0.09605755021029984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08431016900084169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17392103212967386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862192963509344
schizophrenia,nathanre8,2020/01/30,"How bad can auditory hallucinations be? I've had them before, but they were always a bit foggy so I could tell they weren't real. Long story short my life just got fucked and it seems fake. My mom called me on the phone and told me what happened, but I feel like I was hearing stuff I made up with her voice. Can it get strong enough to actually happen like this?",2.8765315315315334,4.445599445945952,3.890270270270271,89.1382882882883,74.81081081081079,6.554954954954956,19.09009009009009,7.1686216300943375,0.06402522522522514,285,5,63,3,6,92,61,74,0.152,0.7190000000000001,0.129,-0.4423,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,3,1,3,6,1,0,2,0,8,2,0,2,0,12,18,6,0,1,3,1,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,7,3,12,3,4,9,2,4,0,0,0,1,10,3,1,1,3,39,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.20107825708235794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17145281793255432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17204586427627744,0.0,0.0,0.17533614672837303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2249567913209181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104034154052785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16451676047292638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21290809788388512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10418671887432136,0.14720448928261892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904929174943416,0.1076543232062976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16479961441322016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3644244325716856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23223699820097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14554151043349214,0.2013344282286294,0.0,0.0,0.1823506499504502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19497257566839266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24132708637882336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345337193527472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18758314802357484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23588168355502645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800996303862063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19689271903459887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,iliveinstress,2020/01/30,"what are your episodes like? if this is in the wrong place or i shouldn't be asking this, i apologize. i don't have schizophrenia (as far as i'm aware), and i want to know what the episodes are like to better understand them.",4.2575362318840595,4.7664120000000025,3.9856521739130457,93.79775362318844,70.30434782608695,7.872463768115942,26.20289855072464,7.793537801064563,1.025255072463768,176,5,41,2,3,53,33,46,0.066,0.705,0.22899999999999998,0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,1,0,4,0,0,2,0,7,0,0,0,0,7,12,5,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,6,3,5,10,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,2,2,27,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3630290213742556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3434396033193651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134118337947732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3794294163473891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4057142544878564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4042573100344151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.229042610742103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42456958107248105,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Mikael-9000,2020/01/31,"I’m going to get new meds I hope these won’t destroy my will to live for 2 years, or make me a danger to myself. I’m giving up if this one doesn’t work, either.    
Wish me luck, I guess?",-0.8296511627906966,0.4538510930232604,2.049011627906978,99.51909883720931,84.58139534883722,4.3,13.075581395348838,3.1291,-1.5896930232558142,139,1,37,0,4,49,35,43,0.147,0.618,0.235,0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,0,8,12,2,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,6,2,5,10,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,5,2,21,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16660125977503126,0.30589805688839744,0.1812264403888512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3512814718514395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167190705476832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2815762417009013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128543920016575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3542029880071398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30797559056961377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160808491984924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3666954287350887,0.0,0.0,0.2321479098168052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20534779804031905
schizophrenia,clang1288,2020/01/31,"My paranoid brother My brother was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia about 4-5 years ago... Since this diagnosis he has spent time in jail, behavioral health centers, several psychiatric units at our local hospitals and continues to see his regular psychiatrist.  While the meds seem to help for a few months, he consistently repeats the same cycles and behaviors year after year.  For the past couple of years, he swears that there are voices telling him horrible things about my brother and father. To the point that I feel he may physically harm them. He recently has began to slash my brothers tires regularly with a gigantic dagger that he carries around with him.  Myself and other family members have tried to take this from him, but he freaks out every single time. He just recently was discharged from yet another stay at the psychiatric ward of one of our local hospitals. I guess the point that I am getting at is has anyone else experienced something like this with family members or someone they care about?  What did you do to help?  Is there anything that can be done to help? And what the fuck is with the mental health helping professionals in this country? Is it a giant crock of shit or is that just my perspective on the shitty situation?!  Either way, I’m hoping to hear some stories or experiences that will just help me feel a bit better about the current horrors I am enduring.  PLEASE HELP!!!",8.239761904761906,8.99070884920635,7.7723174603174625,69.26157142857146,61.6984126984127,11.164444444444444,36.24444444444444,10.93419730881044,4.244237777777776,1138,49,182,28,15,359,154,252,0.10300000000000001,0.752,0.145,0.9334,1,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,2,1,2,1,11,8,2,0,14,0,21,6,1,0,0,28,35,10,0,1,8,5,2,1,0,2,4,2,0,0,16,12,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,4,0,1,6,6,20,4,34,26,6,34,0,0,1,1,30,14,2,8,19,127,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10103023471405888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11951068352865372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07969260863946882,0.11677886147618086,0.09379011145773984,0.10146018083038508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10079990342672933,0.12442905507721436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116203123404876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12610901530502855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568024964681373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11663400378325695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09520986105056267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960272127415224,0.0,0.0,0.11148751551519573,0.2148873019892266,0.0,0.11525640017360712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053662509299786,0.05954621611057381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12555416727791874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422960513657592,0.1284559140021321,0.0,0.4583624097265303,0.0,0.0,0.11320095806381715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055681476678028384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12659836845990724,0.0,0.11485803064182172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909722035112994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07723109033571728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088001753760281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251081866914721,0.2154827487988623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22506927998519866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09082176707317988,0.10375678689195572,0.0,0.1287571087121087,0.11699170103306256,0.0942796871787036,0.12811048681777634,0.0,0.0,0.0965689979217568,0.0877420243929821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12148010986477785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08569355170915934,0.0,0.09961747185814973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0757186320524795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13291720746325222,0.1309952582712935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07738022157639189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09046650443565718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935796374277329
schizophrenia,etstolemybike123,2020/01/31,"Need help I dont know what to do, i’m losing my mind lately. I have a counselor and I’ve been on and off meds but all the meds i’ve been taking make me feel so sedated I’m barely even a person. I dont know how to cope with these feelings I have and I don’t feel like I have anyone to relate to. I’m tired of hallucinating and being told i’m crazy. I don’t have anyone for support, I live alone, I’m a full time student and a single mom and everyone expects me to have my life together but I don’t even know who or what I am anymore. I feel scared everyday and I’m tired of being stuck in my own head. I just want to know that I’m not alone and what other people do to cope. Ever since I’ve been diagnosed I feel like there’s no hope. It’s only getting worse and no one cares. I don’t want to die but I feel like it’s the only option to feel at peace for once.",-0.9578541762805736,0.8626485837563465,1.9784148592524209,96.82735463774804,88.54314720812185,4.800092293493308,15.553530226119056,6.1124844417494595,-0.7046020304568531,669,13,167,6,22,235,96,197,0.18899999999999997,0.6629999999999999,0.14800000000000002,-0.8555,0,3,0,0,1,1,13.0,0,0,0,1,7,8,0,1,6,0,19,5,1,2,2,38,48,15,1,5,6,1,7,3,0,0,4,0,0,1,9,10,0,0,11,0,0,0,9,2,0,1,5,7,20,6,18,41,4,9,0,1,0,0,5,5,0,3,7,100,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376177761812911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376525278999187,0.1604210950437709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11695835173655132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164320797128968,0.11905480056270196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26888740945888706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15153474964331518,0.10376518837707764,0.0,0.10961394000802266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40601916443751424,0.2458546583579026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05993321938667405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11772944101133713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07689023376882152,0.0,0.0,0.11393667469687795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25217479057212583,0.0,0.12940214899941815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08102574067520707,0.16813008661984438,0.0,0.1012943761093004,0.0,0.0,0.12833538567961106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07657234399354987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25484231531397983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11582822425620395,0.13435140160764825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505881997604177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216643994639086,0.07773303129735983,0.17449000934981435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07952809651248538,0.10016365461970073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148485133747342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09489243052649432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301758467543585,0.0,0.0,0.08625049197200538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06689053205636512,0.2636932475443504,0.0,0.10961394000802266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353223281224562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690314984262705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,bioorganicyume,2020/01/31,Meds stopped working I've been on abilify for a few months and it used to really work well but suddenly all my symptoms came back and I'm hallucinating and confused and I dont care about anything why is this happening and what can I do,3.311875000000001,5.130496437500003,4.823333333333334,81.855,74.20833333333334,8.966666666666667,30.75,9.516144504307137,2.9220249999999988,191,9,39,5,4,64,40,48,0.165,0.799,0.036000000000000004,-0.7313,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,1,1,0,5,1,0,1,1,11,10,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,6,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,2,0,3,2,4,8,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,26,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174555317516732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031922166306306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3022320162162438,0.2694208546985082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30969945539785354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23367572178850546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29352258041347673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210922117286156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692855479595742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2209251343863363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.274657305036528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282274685036169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23759280999228916,0.0,0.2384448495497725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3847548204514311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Schemes_not_Memes,2020/01/31,"Someone tell me what the hell is going on I can't concentrate on shit. I keeping zoning out and I flinch at even the slightest movement. All through today there's been so much sound so so much I couldn't do anything. When I'd gone down I started hyperventilating someone or something was following me but there wasn't anyone then why was I scared? My feet were shuddering still am I swear I'm not 

I'm not making this up if I can talk normally to anyone why can't I talk normally to me?",0.7380538461538464,3.225469990000001,2.632000000000001,89.89330769230772,89.1,5.476923076923078,22.69230769230769,7.010146845296331,0.9016538461538466,389,15,80,6,13,129,67,100,0.09300000000000001,0.885,0.022000000000000002,-0.7467,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,8,3,2,1,2,0,12,2,2,1,1,13,20,9,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,4,6,3,0,0,6,1,13,0,9,13,3,15,1,0,0,0,3,6,2,2,5,56,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2808614362033505,0.0,0.16527270129194194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13265171705729878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11414096026149333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.178514193347788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13406103793031368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952783271988351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39355752900695257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20107404455409286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20615749526202207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3403390591933792,0.15461503524052933,0.0,0.0,0.14215429035100588,0.0,0.16038962190116218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32285222667329283,0.1755414127777087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903711016575055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3624504198793587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,psycho-potato,2020/01/31,"I wish I could read books. I used to love reading, it was such a nice way to relax. However, when I try to read these days, I hear the voices and nothing I read goes in. The voices are louder than my inner monologue :(",1.465,3.128669222222221,3.219722222222224,92.01625,79.0,5.388888888888888,20.13888888888889,5.985473137389443,-0.027111111111111086,165,4,36,1,4,55,34,45,0.059000000000000004,0.687,0.255,0.8658,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,1,0,4,7,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,7,3,5,5,0,5,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,23,9,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1656664969659527,0.0,0.0,0.1338159974984515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23386000214959496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872707826248288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990953944003145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8301977063161533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14087431415489976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17920756993791692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646985044334975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386070272391065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,n0sens,2020/01/31,"Closed Telegram Support Group for People Suffering from Mental Health Conditions (E.g Depression, Anxiety, Bipolar, Borderline Personality, Schizophrenia etc.) www.t.me/huddlehumans

Hey all! It seems most of you guys here know that the mental health scene and stigma is still very strong and discriminating in our modern society and it goes to show how hard someone with a mental health condition like depression, anxiety, bipolar, personality disorder etc. has to go through just to find help or even just someone to talk to about their feelings.

I've had enough of the discrimination and marginalisation towards people with mental health conditions and hence, what I've been working on the past few months is creating a closed non-profit telegram support group for you guys of all backgrounds to come together to support one another, as well as advice each other when one is going through a tough time.

We are about 300 members strong as of today.

The group is a caring, close-knit, non-judgemental and well managed community filled with people being able to freely express themselves in a safe space and share any sorts of problems or issues that is currently affecting them.

Remember you are never alone in the fight against mental health and if you wish to join this closed telegram group please do so with the link below or search huddlehumans in the telegram app.

www.t.me/huddlehumans",11.266153846153848,11.327327538461542,9.26115384615385,63.39634615384618,55.66666666666667,12.415384615384614,42.14957264957265,11.698219412168324,5.235998290598292,1140,53,166,27,12,342,143,234,0.09300000000000001,0.7290000000000001,0.17800000000000002,0.9662,1,1,0,0,1,0,31.0,2,4,2,3,12,17,1,0,12,0,12,7,0,2,3,40,23,18,0,3,6,0,2,1,0,0,7,0,0,4,7,18,0,1,6,1,0,4,1,6,2,2,2,2,8,11,36,20,8,24,0,3,0,0,22,11,0,7,10,108,15,2,0.0910471841479268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08897025460884374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09429742438319093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06191520736156909,0.0954709111293286,0.13930169333212422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928286722155466,0.0,0.0,0.07842908727480058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15683761258772702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043479609916368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940760796712581,0.20308335512229053,0.060135806443261185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04603619196698245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08321547685238982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10348842586889773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180302053448696,0.0,0.0,0.08156039350704111,0.0,0.0,0.4838944959548634,0.0,0.0,0.06102700834208207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09502960544936886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050037151318130885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0444810552037658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4587707354742879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07267299374607049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07022120129574243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339185659656272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0869148394728218,0.18936196073572187,0.15899777868873005,0.0,0.0999424672381634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08711985903876206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313871105178232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828859369551811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15428796733851666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07271039887097668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3099577968393629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07318027781206457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05309034525871579,0.0,0.08630208470442298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07512346215453372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16372470575246065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469976845456333,0.0,0.0,0.06628343442642035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,not-a-bright-girl,2020/01/31,"People with schizophrenia or psychosis murdered. Please help me I’ve tried to look up the statistics on how many people with either schizophrenia or psychotic disorders get murdered but all I can find is articles ect on us being murderers!! 
Please can someone help me find some data for this ! 

Thank you I really need to know",5.808620689655175,8.412028137931037,5.41331034482759,76.91272413793105,69.34482758620689,8.777931034482759,30.565517241379307,9.3871,3.2145199999999985,264,11,41,6,5,81,44,58,0.155,0.643,0.201,0.3266,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,1,1,0,0,1,4,3,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,1,13,9,4,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,6,1,8,8,3,3,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,3,0,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566837127452774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4094005738751724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1170126598415589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002385275211677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12308550788610498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18807450021857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22706572824589144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660674809435312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31053876966039395,0.0,0.0,0.4916934323933957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434779483422629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18976512771316453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061972182043824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15205778195828926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26940275902281097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Not_jerem1ah,2020/01/31,"delusions and memory getting worse My memory keeps getting worse, which is making my delusions worse too. Everyday I completely black-out. It can last from and hour to almost the whole day. I don't know what I do when I'm blacked-out, but when I finally come to everything is back to normal. I started having delusions and minor hallucinations that these beings dressed in all white/blue completely arrange the entire world around me while I am blacked-out to make everything seem like it's still normal. Sometimes I wake up in my dorm room and it seems like my whole room is staged. If I look in one spot long enough I can almost see the beings dressed in all white/blue, but they slowly fade away. The worst part is the memory loss. I'm beginning to fail my classes (I'm normally a straight A-B student) because I can't even recall going to them most of the time. If any of you have seen the episode of Black Mirror titled ""White Bear"", it is very similar to that. I can't go much longer like this. It is seriously affecting my everyday life. I'm so fucking scared.",4.682996794871794,6.008929639423079,5.135307692307691,82.94302564102564,69.91346153846153,8.623589743589745,28.77051282051282,9.029198982220553,2.2710066666666666,847,31,165,16,15,270,121,208,0.126,0.816,0.057999999999999996,-0.9344,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,2,2,8,9,1,1,8,0,17,3,1,3,2,25,38,12,0,5,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,11,6,0,1,3,0,0,3,3,6,0,1,1,5,21,3,18,35,9,31,0,2,5,1,3,11,1,7,19,101,32,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25089054869712635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08519160675074887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115217168162244,0.0,0.0,0.11770041582249705,0.09632909376748736,0.0,0.0763667559230969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10791371370068599,0.26269786674460915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0807923060915047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294430354921262,0.0,0.0827432579565801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22517900618378467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372331399084091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11581514148732187,0.13090251162990965,0.0,0.1423938585619514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12337109048847285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11135058238791276,0.0,0.0,0.06884811502170336,0.10211621788210068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848576023113361,0.18360978138932954,0.0,0.0,0.11086483740238694,0.10519983258857102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16724468087515754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09209187539520193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3682300485712196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08488989192939345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135661112105634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125422587102477,0.0,0.09982831989247712,0.2280921423719901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239006304214398,0.0,0.0886706133707048,0.0,0.1000451419169625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0730491265115159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033653720684497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27973114816070377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3829991802989173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,bedot22,2020/01/31,"Anyone interested in being pen pals? Or just pal pals? Say a little about yourself I guess and see if people wanna develop a friendship?

I am 22 y/o female in Kentucky, USA. Im married and have a daughter. Going to school to get my masters in education. Love poetry, weird internet finds and art, animals, Martin Scorsese films, memes, dumb stuff, farts, anti-capitalism, and connecting with others. 

Some days I have a good handle on this disease and others it all feels made up. Feeling like I will keep cycling in and out my delusions until I am hospitalized and have extreme paranoia but usually able to reflect myself back in to reality. 

Looking for someone who understands or just someone to shoot the shit with. I have found myself isolated with no friends outside of my family and this subreddit has been a huge comfort to me.",4.9604301619433215,7.315686611842108,6.126578947368428,71.96336032388669,71.03947368421052,8.624291497975706,33.40283400809717,9.265573868473778,3.589493319838056,663,33,103,15,13,221,111,152,0.085,0.746,0.17,0.9311,0,0,0,1,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,4,9,2,0,6,0,10,2,1,1,1,30,22,13,0,2,6,1,2,1,4,1,0,1,0,0,7,12,0,1,6,2,0,1,1,3,0,0,3,5,12,6,22,17,2,15,0,0,2,1,8,10,2,5,5,75,19,2,0.1961717817979804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13716787105426434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15084399124121145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12651457037310498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18493329703765524,0.0,0.19838069435917774,0.1401451601134526,0.0,0.0,0.17929745461187474,0.0,0.0,0.21509223327744206,0.15156183199197476,0.0,0.1024916592977397,0.0,0.11148894437627783,0.1645395832649991,0.0,0.0,0.2161053342527135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2118991875885881,0.0,0.0,0.17436649321095574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09583962356704867,0.1966156615378076,0.0,0.0,0.16473488958455546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770526921303973,0.18562248317249835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360008131678598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15600367464453427,0.0,0.1985363162911446,0.15632351164678107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013675149513732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324314282318704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22456975647109698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20422174322116254,0.0,0.0,0.21605550270989896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,paranoidschizo666,2020/01/31,extreme paranoia i know someones sneaking into my backyard at night and i know they will hurt me and my family if i dont do something about it. does anyone else think like that or is it just me?...,3.3701666666666696,4.617576350000004,4.3599999999999985,87.55166666666668,73.0,6.333333333333334,28.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,1.2493333333333334,154,6,31,1,3,50,32,40,0.132,0.807,0.061,-0.4404,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,9,7,4,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,8,1,3,6,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,2,2,23,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21620429147663647,0.31681847835009264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705885883125899,0.0,0.3623875764791713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25830225539675744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29149225798399225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3310118267461865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3398634818509345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15106261947088176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2901692429912828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619895637842352,0.2380421790737467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19812696417361786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Pashuii,2020/01/31,i know i need help but im afraid of getting locked up in a psych ward ive been doing a good job of keeping myself together but i feel like im gonna reach my breaking point eventually. every day trying to keep my shit together gets harder and harder. i dont wanna hurt anyone but i dont want to talk to a doctor or anything because if i tell them the truth about everything going on with me im for sure getting institutionalized. what am i supposed to do? im tired of living like this.,1.897562028047464,3.5919835242718428,4.339352750809063,84.33539374325781,77.83495145631069,6.519525350593313,23.09492988133765,7.3871296695380915,0.9490936353829564,385,12,80,5,9,135,72,103,0.094,0.6920000000000001,0.214,0.8964,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,1,8,1,1,4,0,7,3,1,0,2,16,18,6,0,4,5,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,1,13,5,14,16,0,7,0,1,0,0,4,4,1,2,3,45,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013126605346265,0.0,0.11923471807292205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08832552036777899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0934440960727882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14830428031453846,0.0,0.0,0.33962738914243723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12207872941619224,0.0,0.13022062189672454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07326233100273097,0.10351169645643987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22710207440533905,0.0,0.08234611712016171,0.12152950115585773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09711882530315856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15511111554280566,0.0,0.6260378700849817,0.0,0.14378409558624392,0.2575753811664283,0.0,0.0,0.07962948683791682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14157495007520465,0.0,0.12794330743133547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10743643597941196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697086187058993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487307379502815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13656008064612446,0.0,0.0,0.11645962680372207,0.1266430009254833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16653336312437395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837293890239787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08546173486775546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,andceasedtobe,2020/01/31,"Identity issues First time posting here, hi! Does anyone else have issues with who you are? Like, as a whole person? Sometimes I don't even know who or what I am. I don't know the most basic things about me sometimes. I just don't know. I feel really stupid, 'cause it's just, like, I should know this, and I don't, and it sucks. Even with meds, it's hard. Does anyone have issues with that, or is it just me? And I hope all of you are having a good day/night.",0.02249297094657976,2.120511680412374,1.4738331771321462,100.20207122774136,86.83505154639175,4.352014995313964,12.941893158388007,5.565023196281405,-1.2985381443298976,351,4,84,2,11,112,57,97,0.055,0.795,0.15,0.8248,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,0,1,7,6,2,0,3,0,12,0,0,1,1,21,19,6,0,2,5,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,10,6,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,2,12,4,6,18,3,3,0,0,0,0,6,0,1,4,4,58,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22338348760276727,0.1636693151358961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16409378206574227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10301707588408082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27957364837648263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13343967011964614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21100941156834685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076776842566964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13587211246529274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13397972016311593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14309287310748384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15865476889249575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5001714198269607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35114885725053063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15607874641776856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774316687218356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14990224535263694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394760863207098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15298378012301728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10233153859115666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31596772672275625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061220883163343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09314386199819018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17834052715721646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,unicosmicorn,2020/01/31,"I have a family member with schizophrenia, and I’m his closest relative Not in terms of blood relation but in terms of age and affection. I’m essentially his best friend. And I just wish I better understood what he’s going through with the tripping and the meds. He’s  also a weeby incel who is very gentlemanly, very lonely and quite religious. We’re pretty different. 

For my part, I’m a nerdy stoner whose boyfriends always shock the family. 

Another relative has been telling me only to see him in public (I want to start a project with him since we have some overlapping talents) and to be careful... but it’s not like he’s ever threatened me. It’s been suggested that he has a thing for me but we’re related and I don’t think his compliments of my appearance, for example, are excessive compared to anyone else’s. I think they’re just being nice. 

I’m planning on treating him to a convention I thought he’d find interesting and I planned on getting a single hotel room with two beds (I’m not made of money). 

We’re in our mid twenties and his parents barely let him out alone and never let him stay out past 8, and insist he needs help keeping track of his meds.

My questions are:

1. What’s some good literature for me and our relative to read to better understand his condition? Are his concerns just prejudice or is schizophrenia really associated with violence?

2. Would a trip like that be bad news if he did forget his meds? It’d only be 3 days... Should I buy him a day of the week/ time of day pill case for the journey? I really don’t want to be responsible for reminding him... he’s as grown as I am..

3. Are there any traveling tips that could be different for someone who’s schizophrenic and pretty much doped up on meds? 

4. Should we have an emergency plan? If so... what should it consist of? We’re going to take a long train ride there and back.",3.2188319672131134,5.244190155737705,4.668439207650273,81.9636424180328,75.03825136612022,8.509426229508197,27.01127049180328,9.188382445141503,2.414235245901639,1471,57,285,36,32,490,191,366,0.105,0.742,0.152,0.9672,3,3,0,0,0,0,49.0,4,0,0,7,9,17,1,0,16,0,32,3,1,2,2,61,56,24,0,11,12,1,0,2,1,4,2,0,2,0,14,23,0,1,7,3,2,9,6,4,0,1,6,1,38,13,42,35,8,38,1,1,1,0,37,14,0,7,16,180,52,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088443454147358,0.0,0.08404259616277901,0.08744554722101552,0.0,0.0,0.07146664143341021,0.11019886169735647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07348326106474667,0.10767989291855214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08080980118180307,0.08774801680232443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11028830749376704,0.18589191005950173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10714901418687443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08390797141778687,0.0,0.0,0.2033282968912592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21959901239165516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08779146767761506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09506236601694973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981440936763724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09605282610442148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.081194361202206,0.0,0.05490659947733247,0.0,0.11945320930429867,0.08814677270716934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0704414231784426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09341122263606573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21492881696226626,0.0,0.102685971937822,0.0,0.0,0.09300373457435772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09944125607267848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4669372037749052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07725522840595246,0.07792490722561575,0.08105397087212411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15985547171017614,0.0,0.0,0.1166930091635408,0.11380515552050885,0.1003228759547378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138341197557271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11772787831426633,0.1117790251486897,0.10512114200586432,0.0,0.1346501524557272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08374527743711935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08693376944651994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08904470572859302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07438515568775797,0.1120148377593262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07901663327771694,0.0,0.09185565407049602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0698189217490639,0.1346783205171388,0.0,0.08343186675911132,0.06128039991893256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1026602997053096,0.10940520952083267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17342497140264332,0.12397279750021108,0.0,0.08429902679370715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12085142130926273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07465484054796362,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,cat-litter,2020/01/31,"Lately been having flair ups over the coronavirus and afraid of being old and alone It just makes me increasingly paranoid. I’m worried I’m going to get it or someone I love is going to get it. What makes it worse, I have this ‘cold’ and it’s very bad and I’m beginning to believe it’s the coronavirus. I think I need to stop watching the news, because every time I put it on and see something about this virus I’m getting scared. It got to the point I was just crying terrified for my life. But even more terrified people I love and care about are going to die. 

Then it spun me into thinking about death. And how afraid I am of death. 

I started thinking how much I rely on others because of this illness. And if they died what would I do. 

My mom and dad say other family members will take me in and I get SSDI but still, what if I some how miss my mom and dad a lot and end up dying from sadness. 

I’m very much like a kid still and separation scares me. I’m terrified about death. Please someone any advice? 

I’m afraid of being old and alone 😭 it scares me more than anything.",0.5258179704368047,2.8706654349775778,2.2885102142501275,93.36575319714336,87.47533632286995,4.9180534794884565,19.470021591097826,6.42735559955562,0.10146384321541292,844,25,180,9,27,277,118,223,0.235,0.708,0.057999999999999996,-0.9889,0,2,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,1,0,12,13,0,6,6,0,12,4,0,5,0,36,41,23,6,4,7,4,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,1,18,15,0,1,3,0,0,5,0,9,0,0,3,4,22,4,24,34,7,24,0,2,2,2,9,8,0,5,12,116,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10669664178715724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22617038818420496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07425116102093564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08985190846774359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911668996076714,0.1331192239930963,0.0,0.0,0.12301678441414217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111323808507738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199372073433725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3399577787216849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09670760809876099,0.0,0.0,0.07211723319066095,0.0,0.09199507491311107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029321422542302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281835931916352,0.0,0.1861611088885147,0.0,0.0873271203919583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12316811789678332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07712227391372742,0.05334343746970925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09282720393072943,0.1970917426422102,0.0,0.14576684491805475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557578742047523,0.0,0.0,0.16053057171923735,0.0809610570456406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22914757117429946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569677971422717,0.0,0.0,0.1198549523446576,0.10321736439228528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10976347233011466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08683018519603981,0.3279468388660183,0.0,0.0870082034779868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18502822157316814,0.0840577777550147,0.0,0.0,0.07728338791022338,0.0,0.17439436172562714,0.09128553683230137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08209531948276445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20988858848358385,0.0,0.0,0.06366803799011088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18018204323575374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11088508212117626,0.11127126600027916,0.07756358036894828,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,enelysionheart,2020/01/31,"A chance to help a SZ in prison Dear friends,


James May is a reformed kidnapper serving a 30 year sentence in Federal prison for a stupid mistake he made a long time ago.  With my busy schedule I am so busy, but I knew he could count on the internet to help him get by for a while with some new pen pals.  James is down on his luck and could really use a friend. This dude is a true diamond in the rough with a heart of gold. He is a seasoned deadhead who loves everyone and doesn't have a mean bone in his body.


Could you find it in your heart to give a convict a chance and write a brother?


Please address all correspondence as follows:


James May #80107-083

FMC DEVENS

FEDERAL MEDICAL CENTER

P.O. BOX 879

AYER, MA  01432",4.064794520547945,4.886614931506851,4.571123287671238,88.29408219178086,70.91780821917807,8.305753424657535,28.298630136986297,8.548686976883017,1.7807775342465757,564,20,123,9,10,179,101,146,0.053,0.705,0.243,0.983,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,0,1,8,1,0,17,0,12,6,4,2,2,23,20,7,0,4,1,2,1,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,3,6,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,1,8,6,19,13,2,18,0,0,0,1,19,9,0,4,8,67,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1639212182031424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20540542976280451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4429328686665315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17669984223461538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1690143502501607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857388534856657,0.0,0.09661353664928747,0.17739297511940122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4382643079485824,0.24789715934559164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16364917522400635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16689832984655747,0.1749766244765384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20143306886736112,0.0,0.18628834963192284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17859775518361776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029876148233723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11846506215053593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10782886246479348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15971228239280622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190829951622743
schizophrenia,NotAnotherTA7071,2020/02/01,"Hello, everyone. Wanted to share my experience and get your perspectives since you deal with this condition. Hello, friends! Just seeking your opinion on what I’m dealing with.

Hello, all! I should preface all this by saying I’ve been diagnosed with obsessive-compulsive disorder. I’ve had it for most of my life. Just wanted to give the run down of my past several weeks.

Apologies because this will be long, rambling, and I appreciate anyone who reads it. 

I’m currently in ERP therapy for OCD. 

But, I’ve had for some time the fear of developing psychosis. It began around two years ago. I had various versions of hyperawareness of my surroundings. Once after a molly trip, I became concerned that I was hallucinating. I’d scan my environment religiously and try and discern if I was seeing or hearing things. This happened for quite some time. But eventually dissipated. 

I’ll also say that when one version of “obsessions” pops up, another seems to go away. So during this interim period of obsessing over psychosis or schizophrenia, I’ve had no issues with harm thoughts, etc.

It’s been roughly a week, but my intrusive thoughts have kind of shifted and I had an experience with a lucid dream (either induced by melatonin, which apparently causes them, or because I’m, in fact, becoming psychotic). Every day I’ve been having these really intense panic attacks. Tough to discern if it’s the worst I’ve ever felt or if it’s just because the panic attacks are so consistent. Before this I hadn’t had a panic attack for months. 

Anyway, so my obsessions now started to center around ideas of reference. It’s tough to know how I picked up on this, because I’ve researched a lot about psychosis and schizophrenia and I’m not sure if reading about this stuff made me start “experiencing” it. I get very anxious being around people because intrusive thoughts that I’m going crazy or going to start believing they’re following me, or if I’m seeing “signs” for myself, or if I’m believing things that don’t make sense. They’re always accompanied by anxiety, which confuses the feeling of whether or not I believe these sort of things. I know sometimes people have insight, at times, when developing psychosis. So that’s where doubt comes in. What if I’m just aware now but won’t be later? Should I be concerned this is the beginning?

Every new intrusive thought brings of anxiety and rumination. I go back and forth between thinking how can someone who is becoming psychosis/schizophrenia think this deeply and speak about it so coherently, while also feeling overwhelmed and on edge. 

I should state I have not had hallucinations, disordered speech, grandiosity, etc ever before. I’m not experiencing those symptoms now. My lucid dream was really disturbing and intense, and my sleep pattern has been off (although last night it was better after I stopped using melatonin). The dream can only be described as a bad trip, and I woke up in a panic over it. Because it was so unusual and strange, my waking mind attached a lot of anxiety to the experience and wondered if this was in association. So my thought process kind of connected like this:

Have thoughts about paranoia. Feel on edge being in public. Wondering if I’m having other intrusive thoughts. Some times the thoughts are anxious or bizarre. And I feel like I recognize them as such but then a nagging doubt sets in about it. So I had said, okay, well I keep having these thoughts about being followed/seen/tracked/etc, but, I can understand rationally no one has a reason to do that and it would make little sense. Then with that dream being strange that became the “source” (even typing that gave me anxiety) as to why someone would do it. Even considering this hypothetically or talking about it is panicking me. But like what if that is a supernatural force thing I’m believing in or kind of believe in and that’s what’s happening and it’s all connected. 

I’ve never been a metaphysical or superstitious or religious person in my life. 

Apologies for the long rant, writing that out scared the shit out of me, haha. 

Anyway, that’s the extent of where I’m at. Does that sound like anything anyone else experienced? I know you can’t diagnosis online, nor would expect anyone to. Looking just to better understand the situation I’m in. 

Thanks everyone!",5.360090909090912,7.762996356410259,5.917296037296038,73.68800699300701,70.05128205128204,8.932400932400931,32.71561771561772,9.496760409515344,3.4895512820512824,3458,163,562,82,66,1117,334,780,0.15,0.774,0.077,-0.9962,4,0,0,0,0,0,103.0,0,4,2,3,43,40,5,14,27,2,58,7,3,10,8,145,127,73,0,19,41,0,6,4,1,8,4,7,0,1,62,32,0,2,31,6,0,10,12,24,1,3,35,20,48,16,88,76,17,86,0,1,4,0,28,35,1,37,43,396,110,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04694002993397104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846936943977067,0.044061504468712175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055526299410682316,0.16203694802695606,0.11964463022903205,0.0,0.1110788303810312,0.054257057492356715,0.04357616956742708,0.14141936635395122,0.0,0.18072654936707724,0.049751500426425004,0.040717927087681946,0.04421391091171616,0.1936795548251468,0.11696582928001592,0.0901189552409462,0.2983019698014935,0.0,0.09366602973027924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05439777004190911,0.0,0.045614700132355766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03415058836347006,0.10918534385891272,0.0,0.05374662739880838,0.0,0.0,0.12137846086054363,0.0,0.04633991258751193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044235804661559686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17717125114534665,0.0699504960070625,0.09579883706315356,0.0892311148899196,0.10119856324569217,0.0,0.15539587719533773,0.0,0.059587342442592624,0.10709940226394454,0.03782994844034628,0.05084360704342603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040911696737434895,0.0,0.055331974128257466,0.05079776525246226,0.12037864208821505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936531050226408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0596823759295555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05977798875671035,0.0,0.0552696340973715,0.0,0.047067450938402165,0.0,0.1654285786110637,0.08730547806287682,0.04316412157088721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07480516202272135,0.10348150489531244,0.0530732587020382,0.0,0.09372425690693494,0.04446755331589696,0.0,0.0,0.0900382428806786,0.0,0.05010582571742057,0.07069366538539716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0534678795286884,0.0,0.04226693096443409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04084095775354321,0.05114276276345008,0.0,0.049693216700871935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056393685869292866,0.0717652433937644,0.04027347763805452,0.0,0.24851781166272915,0.0,0.0,0.050550050719236635,0.07342249630055461,0.04623690169429892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056322502089776336,0.10593554081240564,0.0,0.06784665980928263,0.05444495616891784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05037084808681853,0.08422140248767375,0.053015631696005566,0.0,0.08439407227226732,0.048206823396435415,0.0,0.059822315114516016,0.05435594566379803,0.04380363314862162,0.05952188573155135,0.05299168279457827,0.0,0.08973455651113252,0.0,0.052372306624156935,0.0,0.11244215310785964,0.0,0.0,0.044271447316959464,0.0,0.0,0.06061902031925565,0.0,0.0,0.04990799094889159,0.055038900141073085,0.0,0.04256196959558845,0.0,0.04875241345018701,0.0605568740963024,0.0,0.1407196515048039,0.06786085295236657,0.0,0.3783520508681199,0.1235103078741376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03595191011258438,0.0,0.051727816886915697,0.11025279803027066,0.0,0.0457347706326248,0.0,0.0436921341067863,0.06246662231123337,0.0,0.0849521116584964,0.0,0.04761150241994618,0.0,0.047782243628210534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11485149465786294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11284981436852032,0.0,0.0,0.034100279505102686
schizophrenia,SinForgiver1014,2020/02/01,"Maybe part of a delusion? My whole life, I’ve thought I didn’t have a personality and I was just nothing. I was always going down the path of others whether good or bad. For example, I was trying to become other people because I never knew who I was. I always felt  life was an actual video game to me. I have my own save files for the past. If I’m not in one, I’m just nothing. I feel like a corpse and I just sit there and do nothing. No thoughts, feelings, anything. A new save file is just another me. I’m not even trying to be someone else intentionally, I’m just so adapted to being nothing or someone else. My realities are just so fucked man.",1.070938166311301,3.2232481194029887,3.3771855010660983,87.89761194029852,82.73134328358209,5.619616204690832,23.750533049040516,6.868970318607317,0.8440742004264399,504,19,106,6,14,173,81,134,0.085,0.807,0.10800000000000001,0.2405,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,10,6,1,0,7,0,13,3,0,1,1,25,25,9,0,1,12,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,6,2,0,1,5,2,0,1,10,3,15,4,10,13,3,7,0,0,0,1,4,2,1,3,4,73,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.14215865180738102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424280158335105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527538693358486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11987884269087368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12163328084017455,0.08880266865966728,0.16088757212551988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24338702189607986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09621754952559446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14731621117385968,0.10407088284955697,0.1398716966429169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13467501023125894,0.0,0.0,0.08279096373939375,0.12218602255136266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20579037440891373,0.07116988006234076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14635100875903914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1123542247628238,0.14069467952224834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5591197702801161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09871375121855748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15775278971454898,0.13906411780435102,0.10099331780832724,0.12719856563224596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468614128024316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2313007644011435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19780872984506367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626419255580177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,minisculenut,2020/02/01,How do you know it’s happening? I really want to hear people’s experiences with first figuring out they have schizophrenia. I’ve been having a lot of trust issues and hearing things that apparently haven’t been real and I haven’t been able to get a doctors appt yet so I don’t know really what’s happening. but i’ve been researching psychosis and i feel like it describes my episodes really well. I just want to hear what other people have gone through and how they knew to get help,2.3231291866028703,5.035422442105265,3.428708133971295,85.86277511961724,82.47368421052632,7.244019138755982,22.320574162679424,8.296473431620573,1.5954210526315786,392,13,75,9,11,126,58,95,0.0,0.8290000000000001,0.171,0.922,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,2,1,6,3,0,0,2,0,11,1,0,2,0,19,25,8,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,7,6,0,0,5,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,6,4,9,3,8,19,1,4,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,1,3,50,16,2,0.17301208189945816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770851969737219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16923901451333467,0.0,0.0,0.08748010703977505,0.12359986587842145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471639884804161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18078334396424856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059880252850317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5849915713073913,0.0,0.11596635155904095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18057966355298624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19016583111022373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845249640382589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470886850603218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2398895866727853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19692562636667948,0.33250790967702915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11494153950459868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20409401698554847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15555863954335386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,hungryghostbitch,2020/02/01,"Is this a risk I'm taking? I take 20mg abilify, 2mg haldol, 1mg of some medication for extrapyramidal side effects and 2mg ativan. My doctor wants to cut out the abilify and ativan and add an antidepressant (prozac). I'm scared the psychosis might come back but she thinks I'm healthy enough. I'm not sure if I have schizophrenia with depression, brief psychotic episode with depression or schizoaffective, bipolar type. I don't know what I have. I guess I'm just looking for reassurance that 2mg haldol is enough to cover my psychosis. My doctor says abilify isn't a strong medication anyway. I'm also scared of benzo withdrawal.",4.705714285714283,6.912231378151264,5.610663865546218,76.03213025210088,71.3529411764706,9.129747899159666,29.54705882352941,9.642632912329526,3.071738823529412,510,21,89,13,10,167,74,119,0.207,0.728,0.066,-0.9520000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,4,9,1,3,5,0,7,6,0,1,1,21,21,7,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,0,0,3,8,0,0,3,0,0,2,3,6,0,0,0,2,9,3,9,20,3,5,0,2,1,0,3,2,0,5,1,47,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14759574272823134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14191830297635752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589855205452675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31792935943484346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3778180945365133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3814078428577775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20331802446304253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10143153293422777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15498725390693913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3718575718725552,0.0,0.19579320921717594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14677267938518587,0.3695614693407534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739493605647922,0.0,0.277538277230756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11826114169305907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10886061331149167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,0zp3nsk1,2020/02/01,"Looking for friends to talk to I don't really have any friends and this stupid condition makes it impossible to connect with people. Wondering if anyone wants to DM or something, share their story etc.",9.026666666666664,9.341446111111113,8.146666666666668,68.71500000000002,60.111111111111114,11.644444444444444,40.22222222222222,11.20814326018867,4.805155555555556,164,8,26,4,2,51,32,36,0.081,0.718,0.201,0.6124,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,7,6,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,3,6,6,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,3,0,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22195367538771787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282166832758276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3640066713839331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5043300350522044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27408204145651593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21786519250595585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262749597659484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20909123214438366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512678921261449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623367072233023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19251092188869445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3539516993045995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,CyrusVercetti,2020/02/01,"How Many Have Anosognosia? 🤔 Anosognosia is a deficit of self-awareness, a condition in which a person with a disability is unaware of having it. It was first named by the neurologist Joseph Babinski in 1914.",4.580945945945945,7.698272972972973,4.9202027027027055,76.26246621621625,76.02702702702703,8.024324324324324,33.57432432432432,8.841846274778883,3.5321405405405404,168,9,27,4,4,53,29,37,0.134,0.866,0.0,-0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,0,5,0,0,1,0,3,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,21,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4481738439741615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5341855243501811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4600615432750554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.54966299452621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,princess33ee,2020/02/01,A guy walks into an egg and its all like what's crackin Sometimes they tell me jokes,0.8633333333333333,3.1244908888888894,1.0311111111111124,103.70000000000002,84.55555555555556,3.6,20.11111111111111,3.1291,-0.8357555555555556,68,2,16,0,2,20,18,18,0.0,0.757,0.243,0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,9,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5753989627185812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28390528599451065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5747413397346915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5079234338822414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,psychosiskid5555,2020/02/01,"About to start taking OLANZapine and I'm terrified of how powerful this drug is I got prescribed OLANZapine after seeing my psychiatrist this week. She said to start this weekend, not during the week. That made me concerned. I did some research on how powerful it actually is. The results made me a little anxious about taking it.

Before I pop this, have you guys got any insights?

- What was it like during the first few hours?
- Did your anxiety increase?
- Could you understand anything that was going on around you?",3.2010702341137147,6.349891347826091,4.100434782608698,78.26931438127092,86.6086956521739,6.743812709030101,26.642140468227424,7.882392219407189,2.4284789297658858,412,18,65,9,13,132,63,92,0.075,0.81,0.115,0.6063,2,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,4,0,3,5,1,0,0,4,0,8,1,0,5,0,12,21,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,10,2,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,9,2,11,1,9,11,3,14,0,0,1,0,7,4,0,1,9,49,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.1867865473426884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13016396901119287,0.0,0.14642655711546498,0.21623650031813246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15751243305265342,0.170393655494876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628740667786365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15282367230861638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22197245289424164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16281150367981112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108781548442148,0.0,0.3061728446059074,0.0,0.0,0.18952396267284136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18849827361751795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935122555161124,0.1918410496190049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36222965888046144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820727915243616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15252735372090653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709590630155928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878299133425154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19926242532331076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070718223543145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,umpreon,2020/02/01,"Please, hear me out. I remember the very minute I started hearing voices. I was sitting smoking a cigarette and all of a sudden BAM I heard my ex’s voice in my head. Telling me he’s the antichrist. He then began to toy with my emotions and was very manipulative but kept going on about how much he loved me and he was teaching me a lesson. I then see my ex a few months later and I mentioned that I hear his voice in my head. He then responded saying “I talk to you in my head all the time” and I was like “seriously?! We’re telepathic?!” And he said “yes”

What are the chances that he wasn’t fucking with me and he actually is talking to me telepathically. Because seriously this is scaring me shitless. He used to be kind of nice (his voice in my head) but these days two years later he’s gotten really nasty and tells me to murder my mom then kill myself and tells me to kill my cat and horrible things.

Was this just coincidence??? Am I suffering from a delusion or is what he told me reason to think he’s telepathically torturing me???",3.052118212669684,4.706770043269231,4.725995475113123,82.9719457013575,74.52884615384616,7.778733031674207,26.65837104072398,8.4952907291091,1.8114142533936648,811,30,167,15,17,274,111,208,0.19699999999999998,0.722,0.081,-0.9878,0,0,1,0,0,1,22.0,0,1,0,1,3,13,5,1,9,1,12,6,4,4,2,27,28,18,3,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,10,0,0,8,13,0,1,4,1,0,1,1,9,0,1,12,11,34,4,19,15,4,21,0,1,1,2,33,6,1,1,14,106,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.12004251152995513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07498731340610118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07933292313459367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13837257036282144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11372312738578835,0.0,0.0,0.06991087136031954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.504985493251796,0.0,0.4159322783885629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27219033851295305,0.1280986491509949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06009772208268425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102363604547846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440708208309912,0.0981874499393225,0.0,0.09042838390791208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13503084836504553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07880499437231113,0.12647739701712696,0.0,0.0,0.13934924799696582,0.0,0.11701311195476652,0.09782452323704832,0.12315702996116035,0.0,0.09802508198881907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08706892147462877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19774566847554226,0.32255519225515017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0817240773243816,0.0788214799379086,0.0,0.0,0.07172961162940072,0.0,0.0,0.11754377045945046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12016539443869885,0.0,0.0,0.10624335383507938,0.0,0.2029964860217612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07921605402676543
schizophrenia,Kilts151,2020/02/01,"Meds I’m curious any of you plan beforehand to drink alcoholic beverages, rather than taking your meds? I understand it’s wrong however I find it soothing especially on Friday’s.",2.492276785714285,4.737544031250003,4.630357142857143,70.00750000000002,108.6875,10.57857142857143,29.57142857142857,8.841846274778883,5.116530357142858,147,8,22,7,7,50,27,32,0.098,0.757,0.145,0.128,1,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,11,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3196291218978635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20338691988045896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929878004323323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733567445644468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6644283105276498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248734422010428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31135629346807303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32700066962491403,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,REP902,2020/02/01,I really feel the need to post I lost my brother about 5 years ago primarily due to schizophrenia. He developed a rare reaction to a medication known an NMS which had put him in a coma for over a months time. I currently suffer from OCD and one of my obsessions is developing psychosis and as an exposure I had ventured into this subreddit. I have learned so much from just a short period of time venturing in and wanted to let you know that I love you all.,6.6193333333333335,6.3361889333333385,7.818888888888887,71.065,65.22222222222223,12.533333333333335,34.66666666666667,11.979248473330829,4.332933333333334,364,15,70,12,5,125,68,90,0.09,0.861,0.049,-0.3612,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,1,3,4,0,1,8,0,5,3,0,0,1,12,11,5,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,3,1,11,1,15,7,2,15,0,2,0,1,6,5,0,0,8,50,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552820898291862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14561430439997314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582694978023269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944850546560056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31437058677310564,0.0,0.2599184833987115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29011545745061884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22986756681758816,0.0,0.2117027440167158,0.21353786698066096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19514667264199706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758108483285968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28950533267556383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844911169465277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33585374310485305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698615223575026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854534525876375
schizophrenia,bringer-of-light-,2020/02/01,"Memory Does anyone else forget things ? Like i forget sometimes whats my name or who I'm .. i forget people too , the other day i got lost , i just sat in the street unable to remember my name or where my home is or where i was going , i remembered after sometime and was able to make it home .. is that schizophrenia or something else ? .. i'm not diagnosed and cant go to a doctor but i have had auditory, visual and tactile hallucinations for as long as i can remember",4.704193548387097,5.240725387096777,6.44209677419355,76.48314516129034,69.3225806451613,9.210752688172043,27.32795698924731,9.2995712137729,2.2458473118279576,363,11,70,7,6,126,63,93,0.07400000000000001,0.9059999999999999,0.02,-0.3839,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,3,0,8,2,0,1,0,19,16,10,0,0,7,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,6,3,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,6,0,11,1,8,10,0,9,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,4,4,49,17,1,0.17104232357464422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11959676957550115,0.1752530733488769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11030814872726256,0.0,0.0,0.1736043580156375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17506906586246804,0.14968028999404956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2857678273500554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19441458831872774,0.0,0.13679817117626222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.343138792967994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356263961709096,0.0,0.0,0.15136707397552782,0.0,0.0,0.18671290115460876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141720791514843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11857921092966947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5812728297053781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13167673705963187,0.3383304631124246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11363291959886468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Random-Guy-555,2020/02/01,"A lot of us are online tonight. Have a safe night.  Sleep well later.  Thank you for the sense of community.

May your burdens be few.",-0.5334615384615375,1.3502941153846173,0.9610769230769236,97.43392307692308,107.84615384615385,3.6184615384615375,16.73846153846154,5.6839178017228535,-0.5317138461538464,101,3,22,1,5,32,24,26,0.083,0.667,0.25,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,0,4,1,1,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,3,3,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,3,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35585015496213995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3927961785528617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4188686480509229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3853596722010267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5034837996901558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3763414294206284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,NotAshsThrowaway,2020/02/01,"I really want to help my friend Hi, I’m 14 and I have a friend who has been diagnosed with schizophrenia for about 8 months I think now, but I think it’s getting worse for him.

He’s been having delusions of people watching him constantly, government control, false memories being put in his brain, but only at specific flair ups. Loud auditory hallucinations of planes, visual hallucinations of bugs crawling on and around him.

His home life isn’t the best either and I try to offer the best support I can, is there any techniques I could use to help?",4.319989316239319,6.5715880288461515,5.02820512820513,79.59457264957267,72.55769230769229,8.083760683760685,26.94017094017094,8.841846274778883,2.21160811965812,441,16,80,9,9,142,77,104,0.037000000000000005,0.727,0.23600000000000002,0.9699,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,3,4,5,0,0,3,0,10,3,1,2,0,14,17,5,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,2,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,13,5,15,13,3,9,0,0,1,0,13,5,0,0,3,53,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13439552518328082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759330557611046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4148020589721088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206210117006654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21356837392132552,0.2216594240455605,0.15779188247239115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005908095669036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30537768661925985,0.0,0.10325378560932932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26493513261136004,0.0,0.19823951731977865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959227523784826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577467891548528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503069099303346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13701211300262692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986732504504128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266071665908477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22426876296380027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.253267304208889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341781448247623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17068930853060846,0.0,0.0,0.11656759639394708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20140237575139827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,AnonyChocolateMoose,2020/02/01,"If diagnosed with schizophrenia, what rights do I lose? I am hesitant to go to doctors because once I am diagnosed with a severe mental health condition I fear I will lose rights and have others impose their will on me.

I live in the UK and am able to get antipsychotics illegally. And will likely avoid getting a diagnosis because I fear my independence will be taken from me, something which is insanely important to me.",8.9924025974026,8.625172883116884,9.081136363636364,64.24170454545458,60.42857142857143,12.894805194805196,40.02922077922078,12.161744961471696,5.215937662337662,340,16,55,10,4,112,52,77,0.255,0.723,0.022000000000000002,-0.9517,0,1,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,2,0,6,0,3,3,0,11,4,0,1,0,8,15,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,0,12,1,9,9,0,5,0,2,0,0,1,4,0,1,1,42,15,1,0.1882270133185156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22948288051798602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3820929127415793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19265832399297367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4236154404159868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966816913508916,0.0,0.10697374936213656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000765132656252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09195821099373892,0.0,0.1662079012389939,0.0,0.0,0.4211557625961136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18968855795905532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20045562611905848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32148968183816884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126429483606706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14490635079244338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,stenbroenscooligan,2020/02/02,"Blunted affect and No thoughts Any one have any experience in dealing with an empty mind? Every since my negative symptoms appeared approx 5 years ago I have trouble congesting thoughts on a Day to Day basis. I’ve started thinking about What to say in a conversation instead of expressing something impulsive which really helped me alot but I would like to get better at thinking. 
The thing is, apparently everyone thinks 24/7 while I think while in social contact however when I’m alone it’s all blank. 

Anyone with similar experience can share it here :) 

How can I improve my thinking?",5.372596153846153,8.322427990384616,5.825615384615388,71.81938461538462,71.98076923076924,8.775384615384615,35.4,9.3871,4.106668461538462,477,26,71,12,10,153,82,104,0.086,0.753,0.161,0.9083,2,1,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,5,0,6,2,0,2,1,18,17,6,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,7,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,1,7,3,12,14,2,14,0,0,0,0,8,5,0,2,9,47,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505207666723753,0.0,0.0,0.17586546046156926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309447267184717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11873072040745428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501776056171169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21901872453055532,0.1750601958514785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14306697123068127,0.16225474661298114,0.0,0.33220127335625016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08871544371613023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11381586499180595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08295752833543132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17145336784670287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1150634061296304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10878062141224022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13503474636147186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140463405196815,0.0,0.0,0.17309352505475986,0.0,0.13072321190183375,0.0,0.0,0.12018795837934272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17649109848656147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128100571099309,0.544016888559716,0.0,0.26961039838773176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12062370221094795,0.0,0.0,0.10934803880761222
schizophrenia,mrhaircut34,2020/02/02,"Do i have schizophrenia? This morning, i woke up and set my car keys on the kitchen counter. I had to drive somewhere so i went upstairs by my bedside table to grab my car keys and to my surprise they weren’t there. I misplaced them and forgot that i had already put them on the counter

Am i having delusions? Is this the early stages of schizophrenic psychosis ? Should i go on antipsychotics",2.3930666666666696,5.187300573333335,2.2920000000000016,93.47266666666668,83.26666666666667,4.4,28.333333333333336,5.82211442006289,1.0559333333333338,313,15,59,2,9,93,51,75,0.0,0.961,0.039,0.3899,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,9,2,0,0,0,5,13,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,3,1,1,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,0,6,1,15,1,9,6,0,13,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,44,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5975321160709172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077332301083781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5443328322934433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5019535805612648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,LoginFacebook,2020/02/02,"Development with each generation I googled and didnt find any info on this but I'm interested in finding out how does schizophrenia develop with each generation? Does it change? Is it the same? Is the type of schizophrenia in the next generation affected by the environment?

For example let's say that at first the schizophrenia is paranoid, then the next generation is catatonic and the next generation is schizotypal? Or how does it work?",6.0907792207792175,8.999655740259744,6.629870129870131,67.1219480519481,69.51948051948051,11.153246753246755,35.675324675324674,10.914260884657429,4.968355844155844,360,19,58,13,7,117,49,77,0.068,0.887,0.045,0.2755,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,7,0,7,0,0,3,0,16,8,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,7,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,10,6,3,10,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,5,41,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362075915098202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21188574332873011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5258389880349725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3661323336030887,0.17037097865702264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204815393009356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6390485919506134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592827672091153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458172772885795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,szthroawaway,2020/02/02,"How did you get diagnosed, and the possibility of me being schizophrenic. I hear a voice. It's constant, it is coming out of my body somewhere but always speaks wherever I go. I know this isn't normal. I know that cameras don't constantly watch me, waiting for me to do something remotely criminal, just to arrest me for life. I now know the bugs under my skin weren't real from 3 months ago, and I now know I cut my arm for no reason. Because they weren't real.

I think I'm schizophrenic. I know I'm schizophrenic. Isn't this weird though?

I've looked through so many posts, and every post I saw about people being diagnosed was with them either not knowing they were paranoid or were hallucinating at all, or a gradual change from depression to anxiety to OCD (and such), then finally a psychotic disorder.

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Did anyone here know there were problems with them? Did any of you guys go to a psychiatrist at your own will? 

I'm asking this because I think I will be doing this in the near future. I want to know if I'm alone. I'm afraid and need more information.",3.4859861775651235,5.508012306220099,4.803405103668262,81.30522461456674,74.26315789473685,8.28080808080808,26.443646996278574,8.998388855275968,2.2146074428495486,848,31,162,19,18,281,124,209,0.162,0.821,0.017,-0.9841,0,1,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,3,4,0,10,5,1,1,7,0,20,9,3,2,1,37,46,13,0,5,7,0,1,0,0,2,6,3,0,1,7,9,0,1,12,0,0,3,7,5,0,0,10,7,27,0,24,31,4,20,0,1,3,0,12,6,0,3,9,110,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10589323953728022,0.0,0.0,0.12372354820332485,0.0,0.0,0.0993994987570636,0.12943383010416032,0.14515582045289216,0.08123625001027547,0.0,0.0913858458092418,0.0,0.0,0.08352854489444914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11167808539296548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14564225545817286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13269207375689013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12637183454950662,0.10290339342201874,0.0,0.2581855875707255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10288990419419662,0.2424968410744037,0.0,0.0,0.13691042004715426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10064940133728484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308615494940954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0624124228156247,0.0,0.13578266140595835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11828324022068755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134639030681329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5252125553638658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843774594076719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100315514956867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1211127262418404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953510735169628,0.0,0.0,0.08857737146226456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11704450484403504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0828178635496873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346721291347705,0.2288174955680061,0.0,0.0,0.1143061769688221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719411022391422,0.0,0.12282379864908198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919654124612165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15308907060769705,0.11736790949855284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07046004240722745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14515582045289216,0.0
schizophrenia,Elazartart,2020/02/02,"Getting a wife with these difficulties! Hi im 23, lives in Sweden and I've schizoaffective disorder. Looking for a wife. Is it harder with this disease or is it just like for any other person? The problems are that im unable to work and take care of my self in some periods. Wich obviously ain't that attractive. My looks are good, kinda charming and im a clever guy with social skills. I've never had anything serious but have met with plenty of girls before I got the disease. But now, here I stand afraid and ashamed about my self. I mean how would a girl react that I get help to clean my home from health services. How would a girl react to im unable to work? Here in Sweden, we value independence a lot and I've got nothing of that.",1.6236996644295305,3.9889731946308733,3.24724412751678,88.3680473993289,82.15436241610739,5.8726510067114095,21.39303691275168,7.1686216300943375,0.7201036912751682,582,18,117,8,16,192,91,149,0.07400000000000001,0.779,0.147,0.8709,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,1,0,0,3,7,10,0,2,8,0,9,1,0,5,2,28,19,10,0,3,4,2,0,1,0,2,1,0,2,7,9,10,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,4,2,9,6,18,13,2,7,0,0,2,0,14,3,0,4,4,70,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09632273575597212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11656089302183413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052855959294005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14441543597164572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623362256477017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480062240686641,0.0,0.0,0.1188042158539877,0.2265711950139839,0.0,0.0,0.14024976892331106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15056088367899287,0.0,0.0,0.0949409466431109,0.0,0.14208041984391875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6119990417385329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0692000739255953,0.0,0.1250741932500135,0.0,0.2378904697888529,0.0,0.0,0.12042061177554254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15429177400805338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924453789482247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13591117971097694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12367802414829028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1355341202732839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2955310397234852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14438815825610127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649861438679477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20623694925125394,0.0,0.0,0.20123958072679216,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,flyingxduck,2020/02/02,My paranoia I feel like everyone wanted me dead. It’s just a feeling I have every now and then. Does anyone experience this ?,0.9987500000000012,3.5223680416666703,3.466666666666669,80.89500000000002,97.75,5.7333333333333325,22.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.5861166666666675,99,4,17,2,4,34,23,24,0.24,0.608,0.152,-0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,2,1,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,12,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28655450734002136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3586347851200032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3452896210597151,0.3915989797729192,0.0,0.4008809678642844,0.0,0.0,0.4144329258808471,0.2927742991397133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002165368889054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24172147096150165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,induced_psychosis,2020/02/02,"My wife's Lovin cured my schizophrenia ...also, taking Abilify helped to keep the clicks of dopamine under normal levels.  ...but yah, we are married for 1 year now, and my psychosis has gone away it seems.",3.4352702702702693,6.268038945945951,3.006689189189192,89.98138513513516,78.45945945945945,4.781081081081081,22.763513513513516,5.985473137389443,0.4726810810810811,159,5,28,1,4,47,35,37,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,6,6,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,5,5,0,6,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,1,2,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400571358263281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3995185912808766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28502342506406736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3779649162923432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4166361668999959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3871143987295784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197208465932669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27383486956961584
schizophrenia,rainhair_,2020/02/02,"Medication I am not diagnosed for any specific illness/disorder.

I got a medication for psychosis like symtoms and its usally for schizophrenia or people with mania.

I take them since about a week, but a few days ago I just feel so numb to everything, just empty. And my symtoms didn't get less.

Should I stop taking them or tell my doctor before doing anything?",5.656567164179107,7.441291373134327,6.543462686567171,72.01608955223881,68.1044776119403,9.53910447761194,31.310447761194034,9.888512548439397,3.4162262686567164,290,12,47,7,5,96,52,67,0.138,0.835,0.027999999999999997,-0.7909999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,4,5,0,0,0,12,9,6,0,1,6,0,1,1,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,9,1,6,6,2,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,5,34,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20742403496200065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15912584066691962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925594195951422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19911403283009815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1509085708859079,0.0,0.0,0.2375018153235533,0.0,0.0,0.2681805928179701,0.23950562891738925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21030122582598929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11831580737621432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12225366443354167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18714860824160834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11431901151064025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.471454294576791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16222391060536773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1935645619839444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956317933543872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3518729282584793,0.0,0.20452350748281087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18769810973208545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lifeisnotthatimp,2020/02/02,"I keep hearing Louis CK He is a piece of shit molester sexy bald and red head taking out his dick head and jerking it in front of women's heads for sure.

But I don't know.

O l a n z a p i n e made me really fat so I had to get rid of it.",-3.2497857142857143,-1.9070928833333325,0.9295238095238112,103.66500000000002,94.5,4.095238095238095,13.571428571428573,5.288315135182226,-1.4138571428571427,177,3,54,1,7,67,49,60,0.18600000000000005,0.71,0.10400000000000001,-0.6705,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,3,0,3,7,7,1,1,8,9,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,3,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,2,6,1,7,7,1,3,0,0,1,1,4,2,2,0,0,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13091053774672998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7714598642856927,0.0,0.2824064042548071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22271481940736967,0.0,0.0,0.13770467270821346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370918692944899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16051917286314166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572026821268207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23615575030212954,0.0,0.18839465659483293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BettyBornBerry,2020/02/02,"I think I'm schizophrenic and I'm really scared, I feel like an alien that doesn't belong on earth I can't be like this,i wanna be normal, my reality is hell.",-1.1085714285714268,0.9719095714285756,2.3114285714285714,90.95857142857146,96.14285714285714,6.2285714285714295,12.714285714285715,7.554174236665415,-0.014314285714286168,125,2,29,3,5,45,26,35,0.215,0.633,0.152,-0.5049,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,1,0,5,1,0,0,0,5,9,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,4,2,2,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382488363341727,0.3366196637505789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4604012273132391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4616681230514649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018576650667989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4717453988385762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019208120079058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,DontWalkAwayInSilenc,2020/02/02,Hi How's everybody's night/day going?,-1.1787500000000009,-0.4132013749999981,2.1950000000000003,86.45000000000002,125.25,6.6000000000000005,16.5,7.1686216300943375,1.3813,31,1,6,1,2,11,7,8,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5067629870532357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4465767880246092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7374011441206918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,bassecat,2020/02/02,"Can't sleep on abilify, it's horrific I'm having an appointment about said issue on Tuesday, I'm still taking my meds (and will continue to do so) but would really appreciate some advice. Have sleep medication worked for you, or maybe something like melatonin?",4.414893617021273,7.448390914893618,5.650468085106382,71.29400000000003,76.02127659574468,9.71744680851064,28.54893617021277,9.888512548439397,3.766254468085106,211,9,33,7,5,70,43,47,0.054000000000000006,0.8009999999999999,0.145,0.6746,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,6,3,2,0,0,5,10,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,2,1,5,7,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,4,21,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640826011592913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28206804065632024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13202921372052445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27149980577086863,0.0,0.3001839039347591,0.27224579269715216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1731273845939066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570671338445095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5408850766268701,0.0,0.0,0.2080496276677176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21581989789280054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031923887094733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19674330318664124,0.0,0.0,0.19197597708764166,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,sarcasm_aint_me,2020/02/02,"Tired of Emotions So, before diagnosis and meds(about 5years ago) I had absolutely no feelings. Since then I’ve struggled with recognizing, controlling, and acting on feelings. I regularly go to a therapist and my parents are constantly asking how I’m doing and most of the time I’m pretty open. Lately though, I’ve been feeling so emotionally exhausted. I just do not want them anymore and I am sick of opening up. This is frustrating my parents and boyfriend because they can tell the depression part of my schizoaffective is getting bad. Does anyone else get this way? How do you handle it?",4.672049742710122,7.699087971698116,5.422898799313893,73.3465437392796,74.94339622641509,8.382847341337907,33.221269296741,9.095868883498916,3.702898113207549,479,25,74,12,11,155,79,106,0.22,0.74,0.04,-0.9631,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,2,1,6,5,1,1,3,0,10,3,0,3,0,19,20,12,0,1,2,2,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,9,0,1,3,0,0,2,2,5,0,0,2,3,10,0,8,18,2,12,0,1,0,0,7,4,0,1,5,51,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14922158266404248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16694617701439876,0.1177059245825237,0.17248229285520786,0.0,0.0,0.15737341424295054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14055529515626602,0.10261735289804848,0.0,0.14324333780784138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18191369990520415,0.18880551088448447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14498937241979915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14731381949583106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14062489502671133,0.3787154450362369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25535042793985385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758994351507421,0.0,0.09567043052922973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18989272684849987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738391121158616,0.18229377491829715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1712603823540226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13925102889936442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17598354869637906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14713493296076902,0.0,0.0,0.19545352703488736,0.0,0.0,0.16539134401661526,0.0,0.09815930902806938,0.19347990050751912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09929018215445633,0.1336189607811913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BloodFrenzyCS,2020/02/02,Lost friends because of delusions So I lost two friends because of delusions. One because I called myself sociopathic and the other because I called myself creepy. WTF. WTF is wrong with me. Why would I ever even say that and mean that when neither of those statements are true? Why is this illness so fucked up? Why does it strip me of my logical capacity and make me emotionally liable. It is actual fking madness. And there's no way to fix the friendships. There's nothing I can say. All there is left to do is learn to move on and I can't even get myself to do that. There is no explaining because explaining would only make things worse. FAR worse. Telling someone you have schizophrenia is actually fking nuts. And it doesn't matter if you do. What matters is the literal words that you said while you were delusional. They have impact and they cannot be removed or replaced. Worse than anything else I started texting like a sociopath and creepy in texts because I fking thought that was my character at the time. Fuck this illness.,3.3886352479135984,6.213129773195874,3.5839911634757016,85.8212199312715,78.58762886597938,5.963279332351497,28.82572410407462,7.2636822038024595,1.8295064310260192,832,38,147,11,21,256,113,194,0.235,0.698,0.068,-0.9895,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,4,2,2,10,10,3,0,5,0,23,4,0,2,3,28,36,14,0,3,2,0,0,1,2,2,2,3,0,0,14,9,0,0,7,0,0,2,6,6,0,2,6,3,22,4,14,27,2,14,0,2,0,2,16,6,2,2,6,105,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.22695763474497835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09569385418043684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4253229061010339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2374829690466659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10176307100655026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971424217148676,0.13080662376549987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361222960158175,0.10518776702472478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17968527205258472,0.21500993005165295,0.06075487951679789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12634558676203833,0.0,0.0,0.0568116939724452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538808311874703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15524423954710215,0.0,0.0,0.12667005322618666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12359411134215295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11158000145312134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07879871962954561,0.08844109830424055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11061505955236607,0.18495133208201345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09852914621643627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08230815994193398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10163949778557256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07725556161255825,0.0,0.0,0.09231846555902584,0.0678075741214491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11359498127960675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923027849005207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3147913480851225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3555175338404488,0.16521313962303474,0.12714099682674768,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,YNGDBSTPR,2020/02/02,"Need some advice for getting help First off, I'm not diagnosed schizophrenic by any means. I think I'm developing and I want to get therapy, but how am i supposed to pay for it? I know i need it and I really do want it, but I just dont have the money, and make nowhere near enough from my job. Does anyone know of a cheaper option? Even just for a diagnosis?",0.7158999999999978,2.8378671733333363,3.170250000000003,89.03137500000004,83.93333333333334,6.95,21.375,8.07648339933343,1.0936999999999997,278,9,62,6,8,96,52,75,0.024,0.9,0.076,0.3378,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,0,4,2,0,2,0,20,17,6,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,8,0,10,17,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,41,11,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278768953305213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15858159886503626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16305639660319404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23668951220936066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2040718057484252,0.0,0.2733045305941275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409542948326252,0.0,0.1540240716488336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983568015273489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436710655130072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15630668085017652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314115174887661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563173668253337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15566045709439616,0.0,0.0,0.2540193239102733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3458244610742468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493916324845489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26668049112036496,0.0,0.0,0.14942288438141985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27509064437669245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Skoda55,2020/02/03,"Can hallucinations be thoughts in your head? I have a soft toy Labrador and a husky who I’ve had internal dialogue with for years. I think to them and (I) they think back. We communicate. I love them very much but recently I have been trying to distance myself from them as I am moving on with my life. I jokingly told (thought) the Labrador that she was going in the bin.

All that is going on in my head is this soft toy, like a little child, screaming in distress because she doesn’t want to leave me. The husky is cool about it and says (thinks) to take whatever space away from them I need. He understands.

This is just thoughts in my head that I “hear”, it’s not as if they’re talking out loud.

Can a hallucination be a thought in my head or is this something different?",3.4596536796536803,4.954927454545455,4.050064935064935,88.88319264069266,73.15584415584415,7.730735930735931,27.119047619047624,8.344100000000001,1.5772268398268403,604,22,132,10,12,191,94,154,0.059000000000000004,0.87,0.071,0.1846,1,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,1,1,5,0,3,6,0,1,8,1,16,6,4,0,1,23,32,8,0,3,5,0,2,1,0,0,1,4,0,1,9,7,0,0,8,3,0,3,2,2,0,0,8,7,24,4,22,22,2,18,0,0,0,1,17,12,0,2,4,90,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13375411108552634,0.10946785717372023,0.0,0.08678276524004278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14873835210841285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16181560483791935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5844193573540157,0.0,0.1604527114058644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15074116974418994,0.0,0.0,0.1005547356883688,0.069551051638804,0.14268447140807955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284875761697416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15130864473746286,0.10465270530785932,0.10555987627364648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14056564272778976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11321225216890014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109597489749361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10703876756896567,0.11442546175518838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2736601304388529,0.0,0.4520792052724351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13603332315652744,0.0,0.09665468855651577,0.0,0.0,0.1482042236800393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11746384548794085,0.08396900061446756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09167668379606188
schizophrenia,fuckoffvalve,2020/02/03,"Better at socializing when Psychotic?? I just realized when I was in psychosis I was the best at socializing I’ve ever been, I had plenty to talk about and it made conversation with me way more interesting imo.. Now I think I just give people straight retard vibes.. my conversations dont last very long and people think im stupid proly",2.693214285714287,5.64144250793651,4.338392857142857,77.98473214285717,84.23809523809524,7.594444444444445,22.160714285714285,8.472884824447931,1.953128571428571,270,9,48,7,8,90,48,63,0.10099999999999999,0.715,0.184,0.6759999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,7,4,1,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,1,10,9,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,8,3,6,4,2,11,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,6,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461040741105296,0.20740528823700108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.274844305398927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121279771446295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22496363247852252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25331134805027244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19115718049940514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20753422104639074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22189930020947785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32515980558048313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4781074023442704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.188490482565075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005294407614767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19349554356478227,0.0,0.1861433472692785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,FoolishHyena,2020/02/03,"Is there anyway of maybe finding schizophrenics friends? Hey 

I am writing this because I've been wanting to find friends who also have a mental illness. I don't know where to go to find it, I just really want a friend I can really relate too. Plus I trust people with who struggles through similar things as me more than people in general. I just want someone to call my friend and who I can maybe play games with and just have for support and talk shit to. Do any of you know where I can maybe turn to too maybe find myself one? I have one friend but right now we are drifting apart and I don't feel as close to her as I used too plus I'd like to have more than one maybe. I am just a bit conflicted. So any advice would help on where I can maybe turn to or if anyone of this thread feels alone and maybe searching for a friend. Cheers",3.1381814139617603,4.3397007283237015,3.4462427745664748,94.05717207647848,73.50867052023122,6.4791462872387715,23.134281903068032,6.67199483983844,0.38634673188083596,658,17,148,5,13,203,95,173,0.047,0.755,0.198,0.9743,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,1,0,0,15,13,1,1,4,0,17,3,1,1,0,34,29,15,0,5,7,0,2,1,6,1,2,0,0,0,7,11,0,1,8,2,0,2,2,2,0,3,1,2,19,11,26,27,3,11,0,0,0,0,18,8,1,2,2,101,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08959426948108222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09495880267740396,0.0,0.07332107400810951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12469892994502245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06410881944258306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05589079200515945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000971101528937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09362141824970467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09271815635700499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33519651667350303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4250171726169055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052107133761924634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06145503634965727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10077619849402318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04479303407920057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6447747280153825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09239768748516526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863859438239361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12712673176903902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11747249899667005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07829914326883174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09411412132008803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07768505206706143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09584986981969032,0.0,0.0,0.10404392082080582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07369354577909516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06091194896947655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994555705265971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0791870640700117,0.0,0.0,0.16223592098879744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06513093762928153,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,frozenintimebutwhy,2020/02/03,"Trying low dose clozapine I'm literally being forced to. I'm not treatment resistant. I'm actually well, well if you don't count the depression. Why is my doctor doing this?",2.6768181818181813,5.55768145454546,5.50628787878788,70.27943181818182,82.93939393939394,9.36060606060606,26.431818181818183,9.516144504307137,3.515309090909091,140,6,23,5,4,50,28,33,0.141,0.6609999999999999,0.198,0.2728,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,2,7,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,0,2,2,1,6,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,13,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.3624083863923625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3198647061435535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3801180048280704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521392180006247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6678213730734723,0.0,0.3351081348669485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jupiterrose_,2020/02/03,"I would desperately love advice on my possible schizoaffective symptoms developing. I feel very alone. I don't hear voices but I have a lot of other common schizophrenia symptoms developing, although they are very mild. Constantly seeing things in the corner of my eye (they are starting to have more obvious shapes and linger longer). I get phantom smells and tastes. I have a general low level paranoia that tbh I've had for many years, but now I'm starting to have mini-episodes where it is an actual episode and not just latent paranoia. These are usually a few hours, I take ativan like I would for a panic attack and it stops. I'm diagnosed bipolar 2 and have OCD as well. I'm 24. My dad's grandma was schizophrenic. I don't even know what my question is. I'm not afraid of being schizoaffective, I just don't know when to know if this is just heavy stress induced bipolar/OCD symptoms and something more. What if its med side effects? Can you be mild schizoaffective? Can I literally work myself up enough about it that I'm becoming really suggestible and putting pieces together that aren't actually correlated? That is what I really feel like is happening. I don't really know what to do.  My psych doesn't really listen to me, she is very symptomatic treatment type and is very technical and I don't feel like I could say anything to her without her just changing up all my meds which I am otherwise incredibly happy on. Any advice is appreciated.",5.290219780219778,7.165688644688648,5.861684981684983,76.19164835164838,69.14652014652015,9.44908424908425,30.948717948717945,9.842372674337009,3.2265487179487176,1172,49,205,29,21,379,154,273,0.095,0.812,0.092,0.491,0,1,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,2,2,10,11,1,3,6,0,34,9,1,2,2,38,55,16,0,5,11,1,3,3,0,2,6,4,0,0,17,9,1,1,10,0,0,1,10,5,1,0,2,11,30,6,19,48,7,22,0,1,2,1,13,11,0,4,13,138,47,3,0.0,0.0,0.21051227594363306,0.0,0.0,0.21079976219863167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11171078875357192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07334873349345446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08875987388561565,0.0,0.0,0.1227067140047957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11912327722789395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141019435569494,0.0,0.0,0.11655871518060412,0.0,0.0861177090465935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10947598003798296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11144856958355548,0.0,0.07124074081610156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16361229427468388,0.15411090446896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056352578648140486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953805471353265,0.11481934322778067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12156644820523703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10622071330936957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371088999426215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15808534943260685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09169900845237754,0.09734817278310233,0.0,0.0,0.10935346078449952,0.0,0.0,0.23961705651003945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1265508754009528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12159633301208395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10842943825467866,0.12082827173666592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763923964869849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08577487578053987,0.0,0.0,0.08595073047883625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08303616339232976,0.0,0.0,0.15268821511625716,0.0,0.0,0.0901760783381084,0.12355366112011587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33632459326872544,0.08109755628068173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0716576206948819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11879293195413825,0.3559843236896729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09697940393223572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103973523864671,0.0,0.07852361598956875,0.0,0.0,0.1532417892745412,0.0,0.0,0.06945852603344986
schizophrenia,Monkitail,2020/02/03,"How can I learn how to be patient and to deal with my mother appropriately. So my mother has undiagnosed Schizophrenia. The reason it is undiagnosed is because she is unbelievably hard headed and paranoid of modern medicine. Lately she has been getting way way way worse. She accuses her neighbor of having listening devices in her house, hiding me and my brothers from her, and the list goes on and on. Recently she went into full delusion and trespassed on his property and went into his house saying we were there. 

I dont really know what to do at this point because she adamantly refused to admit she has a problem and or seek help. Neither me or my brothers want to have her committed since it is really not something we are prepared to put our mother through at this stage.

My question is I am becoming increasingly impatient with her. In frustration I've told her ""she is fucking crazy and needs to find help"", ""you are Schizophrenic and need to take medication"", ""get your head checked etc etc."" I can be downright abusive at times. She was always overbearing but its amplified and magnified at this point. Honestly I grew up in a tough love environment so I'd really learn the proper and healthy way in how to address and approach my mother when her delusions are in full effect.",7.052895480225992,8.05545397881356,7.146000000000001,71.85210734463278,64.29661016949153,10.191638418079096,36.49604519774011,10.203070172399654,3.9649777401129938,1033,49,171,23,15,332,137,236,0.087,0.83,0.084,0.6436,0,0,1,0,0,0,23.0,3,2,0,1,7,6,2,0,5,0,24,6,2,5,1,40,38,22,0,4,4,6,1,0,1,0,2,2,2,0,7,19,0,1,8,0,1,6,3,4,0,0,6,3,35,2,30,30,6,35,0,0,0,2,39,19,1,3,5,130,42,2,0.0,0.1482773910917798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10413138846679756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15257552070118294,0.13821378040719512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12901989609009848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14667002675733476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27914145012555097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11438105731253845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11569533957487975,0.13076710298614042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121061177202657,0.0,0.25687153292908743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16776527643218056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2888030614841389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06877689690858177,0.0,0.1411699915172357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11294903304536348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12607129728552094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18558815270583925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2366065943769833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11974769558130265,0.0,0.12580616414655224,0.14019201457028024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405149452100029,0.12867079663403638,0.12356644820297268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09952101823815457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10352195628942233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634340424506084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09409411910230447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07297356277307965,0.0,0.0,0.11958224110461195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07381427611849639,0.3973398638921412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23202294920912406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12753433230615047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,annkchung,2020/02/03,What can family members do for you? My brother has been diagnose with paranoid schizophrenia.... he’s currently living with my sister who is having a hard time but I can help but think how hard it must be for my brother as well. He refuses to get any help. So for those of you who knows what he is going through what can I and any of my other family members do to help him?,2.9376754385964894,4.3769981184210565,4.4105263157894745,86.00201754385971,74.39473684210526,7.698245614035088,25.824561403508767,8.344100000000001,1.64089298245614,291,10,60,5,6,97,49,76,0.052000000000000005,0.784,0.165,0.9074,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,12,1,0,1,1,10,16,6,0,1,2,3,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,8,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,9,1,11,13,0,3,0,0,0,0,15,0,0,0,2,47,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3305969267642808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467147067937764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4582965360624805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269959849952978,0.0,0.1381443953992422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4354926130127051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4887815675806008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13358695831551956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2146385460372087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15575182340920135,0.0,0.0,0.14173823953208875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185524641832434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,EverydayabetterDay,2020/02/03,trying to help friend with schizophrenia my friend has schizophrenia but he can’t tell his  parents and doesn’t have any money or anywhere to go for help. what can he do in his situation?,2.8258333333333354,5.574428805555558,2.6700000000000017,91.95000000000003,80.3888888888889,4.711111111111111,22.88888888888889,5.985473137389443,0.33452222222222217,151,5,29,1,4,45,29,36,0.0,0.758,0.242,0.8225,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,4,7,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,5,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,10,1,0,1,0,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23066614812316966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5241267862093375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927739370321949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4547142954248152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3766390360142502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38127255975002905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2964738440593685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23029305318635002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,dhdbfbfbnfnd,2020/02/03,"Do these sound like delusions or what am I experiencing? -I constantly feel like people around me are talking about me and that I know exactly what they are talking about. 
-Sometimes I feel like I am superior and other times I feel like the most disgusting human being to exist
-I hear weird glitching sounds in my head, usually when I’m speaking and when I hear them I get extremely scared and start shaking
-I hear footsteps in my house sometimes when no one is home 
-sometimes I randomly start to believe that I am dying",4.392403628117911,6.921352163265313,4.791360544217689,80.10522675736964,73.28571428571429,7.620861678004537,30.276643990929703,8.515128840125781,2.6039895691609978,424,19,73,8,9,134,62,98,0.12,0.75,0.13,0.2533,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,6,9,1,2,1,0,8,1,1,0,1,13,19,8,1,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,0,6,1,1,6,5,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,0,10,18,5,7,18,1,12,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,3,12,51,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12943125323665838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16380895540602475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15711898010733946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15089574667869393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2205463295441156,0.311607949213375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596222787712938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14921592261300576,0.0,0.4916079332467694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14584177519527725,0.0,0.0,0.1677648542110466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07990459674258052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841281475952845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09852256056685292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007977120491374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14556449717868628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4313943776175607,0.0,0.20582087402305596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337239604591248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0847802586092649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1601306627623213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,GreatAssociation6,2020/02/03,"Falling in love with voice representing an old love interest of mine I have been dealing with schizophrenia for a few months now and have been dealing with the same voices ever since. All of these voices constantly shit talk me but one of them is a girl that I used to talk to and really liked. Because of this, I have started to catch feelings for her again. I’m worried that I’m gonna have this voice for the rest of my life and always gonna like her. Unfortunately I haven’t talked to this girl in like 3 years and she lives in another city. I’m wondering how I should approach this situation, and if any of y’all have had any similar experiences, I would really appreciate your input. I’m going to call her, but I don’t know if I should share with her my experiences with her voice as I don’t know if that would be weird to her",9.054151260504202,5.877727776470593,9.013193277310926,73.6979411764706,62.411764705882355,12.773109243697483,36.05042016806723,10.914260884657429,3.459747899159664,662,20,142,13,7,218,91,170,0.067,0.789,0.14400000000000002,0.9335,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,1,0,4,9,1,0,5,0,17,4,1,2,2,28,32,12,0,7,5,0,1,3,0,6,1,5,0,2,8,10,0,0,4,0,0,4,3,2,0,1,3,6,23,7,24,22,4,15,0,0,0,2,21,3,1,4,11,96,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12818697977353394,0.0,0.0,0.20952680178792,0.16154120712130016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0939111418469903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573084576857096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16647986713008792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3176500583348754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393525225365672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30139276763422385,0.0,0.0,0.07789537078514049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08755360685360251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693303589381773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10881434833860068,0.22579202188334815,0.0,0.13603431989448428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27808321059778723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12296607412655665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616559157643449,0.0,0.10439237055434228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19738450862135407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15813632764910085,0.1274367615027054,0.17316546165079189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10904166936594158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3714732668431007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330549691555469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16706722115131095,0.0,0.15645140293691912,0.0,0.218874004210436,0.0,0.0,0.0992070491441441
schizophrenia,raymanfanguy,2020/02/03,"My cat Sandy... This is my cat Sandy... when i first found her i was checking the mail and she came out of the bushes and meowed at me and one of the voices said ""that cat's a little friendly for a stray... don't ya think?"" cuz she was rubbing right up against my legs so when i started walking home and i heard the same voice say ""don't look now but i think the little one is following you"" so i turned to look and there she was right behind me she was only half grown at the time so we got up to the porch and she just sat there and looked at me i told my dad that a kitten had followed me home so he told me to go get her and bring her to him and we've had her for a few months now since late fall/early winter of last year... luckly i hadn't forgotten the mail that day

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schizophrenia,Babaloui479,2020/02/03,"Strange question... maybe? I have a question for those who have auditory hallucinations.  I experience voices, but whatever you hear is fine.   As long as it's only you that hears it.  Here is the question.

If you could get rid of your hallucination""s, ""ie you would never hear or have to deal with how they make you feel,  and go back to how it was before you started to hear them. But in order to do so you had to do something you know would not be good for you.  And you have it do it for a whole year.  365 days on day 366 it would be like it was all a dream.  Would you do it?",1.3546371275783071,3.15545237815126,3.0072421695951133,92.77051184110009,79.84033613445379,6.007944996180291,20.06187929717341,6.980632752743323,0.08791764705882342,439,11,104,5,11,145,73,119,0.037000000000000005,0.894,0.069,0.586,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,12,2,0,5,3,0,0,4,0,20,0,0,3,2,23,30,11,0,6,5,0,1,1,0,4,0,5,0,0,11,3,0,0,5,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,6,16,3,14,20,2,11,0,0,0,0,23,2,0,5,8,80,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10503765608993014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11623730018719385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10906469903516887,0.0,0.0,0.17619255263493575,0.14082952422426648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13362188659136326,0.0,0.0,0.06906951671565141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07136832944301649,0.0,0.07763343637930363,0.11457434941861724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.615836544332833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0750722792591082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06673629713182584,0.0,0.0,0.12088749315597022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09118215787972077,0.0,0.13723395905023889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10535503110613426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10389113582776664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4590727936609114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051620423915328,0.0,0.0,0.09668681629037387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15251002053993318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3881494250571851,0.0,0.0,0.08796649749665293
schizophrenia,Lizaster9,2020/02/03,"Fighting these delusions... I am medicated and do fairly well day to day. But lately I keep feeling like there is something inside of me, climbing around, dancing on my tendons, sliding underneath my skin. My voices try and tell me they can help me get it out. I understand that this is probably a hallucination but it feels real. Part of me wants to know how they can help but don't want to spiral. Just venting :/",3.0700000000000003,5.6639823461538485,4.2483974358974415,81.96951923076925,78.1025641025641,6.464102564102564,27.698717948717945,7.645422480735847,1.891994871794872,325,14,58,5,8,106,58,78,0.075,0.804,0.121,0.4151,0,0,1,0,2,0,13.0,0,0,2,1,5,3,1,0,1,0,7,3,2,1,0,17,15,6,0,2,4,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,4,0,1,4,1,0,3,1,1,1,0,0,4,12,2,9,15,1,10,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,4,44,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20747931720221247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3006182648834344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23569166756347296,0.16650333135887338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12176804889842367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3124402073236489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20716093208988146,0.0,0.0,0.1280876972052161,0.0,0.2629100750497275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11386491397330975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347907928216177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523891822518544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512859776493028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652816213590189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794266002879418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20371109999391745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582374031489765,0.0,0.0,0.2426312871219587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749382735733298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20955550009334187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,york443,2020/02/03,"It's happening again, can I stop it? I feel like I'm about to have a MAJOR collapse. I'm about four weeks into college and I passed all my first tests because I went through a high period. I have schizoaffective and I usually have signs of before a major depressive/mania episode is going to occur.

My attention gets really weak, and I have VERY loud tinnitus. As I become depressed, my tinnitus goes away almost completely. Before mania, tinnitus is extremely loud. When in mania, my hair grows back and I have a lot of facial hair. While depressed, I bald and lose hair in patches on my face and around my body. My skin color changes, it gets really weird and darkened when I am depressed, and in mania becomes very pale and sickly, and kind of reddish. I have attention issues while mania and executive ones while depressed, and memory and comprehension ones while psychotic.

I know I am going to have another psychotic break because it's been about 4 days of feeling completely normal. I stopped hearing things, I stopped seeing things. My mental functioning came back and suddenly I was preforming operations (in some subjects) I never thought I could. I was holding conversations, I was making friends. Again I passed all my quizzes for the first few weeks because it had been a gradual increase in functionality. I stopped limping like I was injured in a war, because I could walk normally again. Then it's going to go away again.

I'm literally being forced to be disabled again after being allowed to feel free for 5 days. I am desperately trying to force myself to operate at the functionality I was before but my brain won't give in. I need to finish this before I am lost again, just this assignment. Once I do this I can take a break. I don't know if I should just violently force myself to keep going and when I finally break lock myself in a closet and wait it out? I'm so angry at my brain I want to starve myself to teach it a lesson. 

I'm so tired of letting this shit push me around. I have 0 control over my life. I have been pushed and shoved on auto pilot by the government and the health industry, and by my own broken thoughts and desires, by the hundreds of systems that force everything from one point to the next, this constant labored exhaustive thing. The last time I made a decision for myself was when I bought lunch. Everything else is automatic, like a giant assembly line, unstoppable and unalterable.",5.53578554778555,7.110516547252747,6.255404595404595,74.77217116217115,68.14285714285714,9.559107559107561,31.80985680985681,9.873865916822265,3.3236520146520148,1939,82,334,46,33,635,222,455,0.154,0.8109999999999999,0.035,-0.9941,1,0,0,0,0,0,51.0,0,0,0,6,23,18,3,0,18,0,38,19,11,4,3,67,72,35,1,9,4,0,8,3,1,2,7,3,1,0,17,26,1,8,11,0,2,14,3,12,0,6,17,14,58,7,51,47,9,78,0,6,3,0,5,22,1,4,41,239,75,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08212103011285236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08599449048053819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14601232788498505,0.0,0.0,0.15410192918383508,0.12612104283885628,0.0,0.19996980182309487,0.1811468979442472,0.2791374077089199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09109446846036123,0.0,0.1831002557159951,0.0,0.0937974340173044,0.0,0.0,0.08675555947478186,0.0,0.1719715592121324,0.08862352587454396,0.09198103324734214,0.13095640260141156,0.0,0.0,0.10577915247714924,0.0,0.28253989457365464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0685087161082377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14741035119600382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12439995046770035,0.05858786152795109,0.0,0.08983779479476921,0.0,0.13951509279909136,0.0,0.0,0.06336061565365496,0.0,0.08569353572888051,0.07867133208583835,0.23304047138434886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07252104978918279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08717264794845363,0.09243107434137206,0.0,0.0,0.08664792145578762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0855969887007249,0.0,0.07289413313372985,0.0,0.08540065086011746,0.09014095040679676,0.06684898293103883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08386063984496818,0.057925990582225424,0.12019762772881265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09174805784303212,0.08952345166048,0.06972185164925036,0.0,0.07759971398071025,0.05474221944862168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264665158804292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060809273248335065,0.06325106102924384,0.0,0.08721841821487894,0.0,0.16070450409129905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08733782611337494,0.16671601399762928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07752582716113895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10507523467308934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06535124185887255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08418194443995078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.274255665892656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06166120968532481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16345112397441428,0.0,0.0,0.1302133390723044,0.04782060981668592,0.0942582717946345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055679312771544386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903222763088795,0.13533344920866794,0.0483715411859528,0.0,0.13156672846656062,0.0,0.0,0.07602396334374563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,FlibertyGerbil,2020/02/04,"Remember these three words! They may save your life! IT!!!!!!!

WILL!!!!!!!

PASS!!!!!!!

It may take years of experiencing distressing Wei experiences.  

But it can pass.  If a person doesn't end their own life.",1.1973529411764725,2.8321285882353,2.032205882352944,88.06242647058825,116.05882352941177,6.405882352941178,16.014705882352942,7.1686216300943375,0.8488352941176478,148,4,29,4,8,46,29,34,0.073,0.809,0.11800000000000001,0.3956,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,5,2,0,0,0,7,6,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,1,3,1,1,3,1,4,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,2,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34058947441357385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37615520175131395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5432258175805844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33576665093846825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4356103572964191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2891272182628556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476320044365297
schizophrenia,bmezzo,2020/02/04,"non malicious voices i'm trying to get more accustomed and feel less ashamed about the voices i've been hearing for years that i've only just recently recognized were voices vs dissociative alters because they were never mean, so i wanted to talk about them somewhere i feel safe to do so. they've gone somewhat dormant since getting more stable on antipsychotics, but i can still sort of...feel them, and if i ask them questions or address them directly they can talk back.

the first one (the one i've had the longest) is greta. she is really nice and funny and historically has helped me a lot when i've been anxious. we have a relationship similar to like sisters. the second one is rhys. he's actually based off rhys from the borderlands game series. he's kind of annoying but in the way that friends can be annoying sometimes. it's very weird to try to explain to people that i have an internal auditory hallucination based off of a video game character. the third is bee. he's like a monster and kind of like a little kid and he's not super verbal. he's very scared and anxious a lot and doesn't really talk but i can usually feel him in my brain. the fourth is party poison, who is....based off party poison from the danger days: the true lives of the fabulous killjoys comic. kinda embarrassed about that one, don't know where he came from. i believed for a long time that he was a demon that was trying to possess me. he makes a lot of crude jokes. the last one is bren, who is another voice based off a character from a piece of media. bren isn't his real name but the media he's from is...pretty embarrassing, and i've never really told anyone about it. he's really nice but kind of stupid.

does anyone else have hallucinations that aren't hostile/bad and are just kinda chilling? i'm interested in hearing about other people's experiences if anyone wants to share!",4.47602715466352,6.1652927134986255,5.556980519480518,78.31261363636366,70.90082644628099,8.601692247146792,26.738390397481304,9.140100540675403,2.254336560409288,1497,50,275,31,28,495,180,363,0.149,0.713,0.13699999999999998,-0.8341,0,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,1,0,6,2,13,27,7,4,26,0,29,3,1,1,3,47,48,21,0,4,12,1,3,3,1,0,2,6,1,1,12,12,0,1,7,5,0,2,7,12,0,8,10,9,20,15,36,37,8,27,1,0,0,0,40,10,0,11,17,168,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.09436452001861216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013975961195401,0.0,0.21848525874391655,0.0,0.20284309417241425,0.09907981011942338,0.0,0.0,0.09040074631965972,0.0,0.0,0.07435575519133845,0.08073983552069802,0.0589469659278681,0.0,0.0,0.1089469421755704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10794834456677622,0.0,0.11059818226015636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06236301721662405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08462216626414269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08077981609977025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09459042268694257,0.0,0.0,0.19557618733213114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08225233356911385,0.0,0.0,0.07470960151090959,0.0,0.10104273514893236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21797416770747,0.0,0.06481546966564243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3020921685518841,0.05314337948922674,0.07882279590664636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14172710882834114,0.09691805338610096,0.08538721031532068,0.08557579425710035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466307358087251,0.0,0.0,0.0645475009773421,0.0,0.0,0.10533383278207284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14916084750399491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3276295756376968,0.07354413788085364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13407817025421648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09837790235581316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832529187192776,0.0,0.0,0.11006491788834807,0.24779206546863725,0.0,0.09547884455611542,0.103818806974561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09681281965100083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07999061975518484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09563803191075514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07722414682334673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331695853447435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056386110939046837,0.0,0.0,0.09240027836152116,0.0,0.1969573319316425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10650056349642496,0.15957401861030165,0.11407144735540845,0.07675536452700503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06227114728550835
schizophrenia,Dongleoid,2020/02/04,"Realizing something I've come to realization that I don't realize anything. I've sat and thought and fought and went through my delusions and hallucinations. I've been a prisoner to my own rollercoaster. While the voices fueled the ride, I sat back and wondered why the brain would do this to itself. But I've come to the realization that I don't know anything. The more I learn the more I realize what I don't know. I'm no authority on any subject. Every avenue has answers but more questions. It's weird. I've tried hard to fight for my own spot in my own mind but never understood I always did. Maybe this disease has taught me everything. Or maybe nothing. Strange that this is the constant crossroad I'm always at. Just wanted to vent a little.",2.9254712643678147,5.509411524137932,4.048965517241381,83.25091954022989,78.58620689655173,6.9011494252873575,27.597701149425287,8.021203637495839,2.009059770114943,601,26,112,11,15,195,84,145,0.085,0.8809999999999999,0.034,-0.7823,0,0,1,0,1,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,9,0,10,1,1,0,1,27,25,10,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,9,7,0,0,11,0,0,4,5,3,0,0,9,2,12,0,11,15,6,12,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,3,4,71,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3055697920012665,0.0,0.0,0.1248665452492473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3022039585685486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14119091779697196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20497842843269695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163413187931821,0.0,0.19842584036698924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15470609518290232,0.0,0.16502403016703826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16448567323566296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018233156427076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184033487030921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689379476371022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854018493391633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14161753118013165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17618643550836935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056941973175464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14135811703521098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1457721918499932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12466457770355535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083026613413727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17021573747659854,0.16568669661738505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991259022859661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13043696805093902,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,stinkyspit,2020/02/04,"Painting and Music aimed at expressing symptoms and related emotions if you’re interested, i’ve been maintaining an account for the last 4 years that is absolutely full of my paintings and music (set to found footage) with an aim of expressing my symptoms and subsequent feelings. 

if you’re interested, it is a private account but i will accept you ASAP. 

Account: prime.mime",7.24323076923077,9.603780707692307,7.270769230769233,66.0892307692308,65.0,10.123076923076924,43.769230769230774,10.355215969177356,5.507676923076924,306,20,43,8,5,98,47,65,0.0,0.887,0.113,0.7269,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,11,6,7,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,3,6,3,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,2,28,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946632198470123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17740218661254134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3846930028151475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859926157575896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7293427247866366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.225938297335974
schizophrenia,partytiee,2020/02/04,How to deal with potentially clogged toilet from constipation of geodon side effect I am planning to try geodon because latuda isn’t working for me. But i heard geodon causes constipation which will clog the toilet. So?,7.213859649122806,9.715283894736846,6.428947368421053,71.53096491228072,65.3157894736842,8.224561403508767,31.08771929824561,8.841846274778883,2.8362877192982463,180,7,27,3,3,55,32,38,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,3,0,5,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,6,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,17,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32674115498906264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.550620541079902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.552593360603498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36390940628257545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3902150166424729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Westear9,2020/02/04,Is it possible to have schizophrenia without family history? I actually know somebody who is currently the only schizophrenic person in his *biological* family.,10.671249999999992,14.317763625000005,12.690000000000005,25.45500000000001,58.58333333333334,18.133333333333336,49.5,14.554592549557764,10.946400000000002,133,9,11,8,2,48,22,24,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,11,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.3377062529366458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6524722547314953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19018643397070398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631954809318214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3021676868234866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3901325165791541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335910838601995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,anonymous4areason112,2020/02/04,Psychosis at work Does anyone have advice for this? A lot of my job is socializing with people and it was stupid for me to take but I need to talk to people for me to make my bills. Which job can I take for so much talking? I don't know who's talking,0.7690909090909095,2.356187727272733,2.6454545454545446,95.68818181818185,80.81818181818181,5.127272727272729,18.272727272727273,5.6839178017228535,-0.5350727272727274,195,4,47,1,5,65,41,55,0.051,0.9490000000000001,0.0,-0.3736,2,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,0,7,10,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,7,0,11,9,2,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,0,33,11,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21701153315461752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552817303667517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19434149028080724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4407552431064521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12204796951494636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888023231663574,0.0,0.0,0.14823843547897872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16325249278451145,0.16466762984294508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3079211106460348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263800134754029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33394923865199416,0.5354923739792824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16167504286540754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,LookUpThatsMyHome,2020/02/04,"Do people with schizophrenia hear voices out in the world ,internally or Some other way? I have been confused trying to understand what hearing voices is, Nothing i was reading or watching help which is why im here.",9.333846153846151,8.915080974358979,8.656025641025643,67.73480769230771,59.769230769230774,9.851282051282054,40.01282051282049,8.841846274778883,3.858220512820514,174,8,26,2,2,55,34,39,0.059000000000000004,0.872,0.069,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,7,9,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,2,0,4,7,1,4,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,4,0,20,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6483413396411996,0.0,0.1927868282488046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106808977574083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759808721786512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19940073962324048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876996323294731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19527632070617665,0.0,0.0,0.2994244350229435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22830079538999265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595339357932204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Jewmaster666,2020/02/04,"False memories or maybe a false reality? I have been digging up repressed memories lately that I think have been hidden. I was raised very Christian and good. But my parents never loved eachother and would fight all the time. They just didnt communicate in the same way and would fight over misinterpreted words, I wouldnt speak up to try to explain it though. But the truth is they were always nice and loved me, around 6 I started to get seriously depressed all the time and I didn't get why I was so unhappy. Anyways I've felt like I'm having old memories coming back to me of my mom locking me up and hurting me and her sick smile. She was so deranged looking, I don't know if this is real... what was real was I remember one time at church I made a card that said what makes me sad is when my mom screams at me and gets angry. She was so mad when the teacher asked her about it...lol She tried to remain calm and point out she doesnt yell she ""raises her voice"".
Me and my dad would always play with toys and have ""tent time"" under the covers where we'd read books or tickle eachother etc Idk. He was always a very stand up Christian who always tried to do right. But now I've been having memories that maybe a lot more happened...  like very inappropriate things. 
When I try to think my thoughts are running away from the e I realize I hardly remember much of my childhood, if these memories arent real none if them are really. I feel like I'm in a false reality but I can't wake up unless I let go of this life. This isn't me or my body or my life, I'm stuck in a dream. But if I fully let go of my body I might die... I don't know what's real but I can't 100% prove its not.",2.429908424908426,3.8004519002849046,3.855623728123728,89.74714743589745,75.58119658119658,6.8376475376475385,22.792124542124554,7.447530270364453,0.7036210012210011,1311,36,293,16,28,433,175,351,0.1,0.8440000000000001,0.055999999999999994,-0.8868,2,0,0,0,2,0,38.0,1,0,3,0,14,19,3,1,13,0,39,8,3,2,5,63,66,33,1,8,17,4,3,3,0,5,3,5,0,0,14,15,0,1,12,5,0,4,13,9,0,1,18,9,49,10,30,40,8,38,3,3,1,2,26,18,0,10,17,192,63,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30114722341430816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08054659433448831,0.08458680816518609,0.0,0.08500916159565468,0.0695737176561283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010062931938799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07794071297253137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07793049601078753,0.0,0.09390420157877367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10090938222719074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045749526726926434,0.06463909977703093,0.08687521723394885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14181656904091947,0.0,0.10284400822318963,0.07589053044234552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08001137524061376,0.0,0.08105252070556074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09686096564282723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09945114457815744,0.0,0.10206564898630993,0.0,0.0,0.1850443462155879,0.12781773518535064,0.13261222118541538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07598061150305906,0.0,0.0,0.07692306235217611,0.16332389392746674,0.0856145884805024,0.06039626114818063,0.0,0.18179911995788225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09598523355604376,0.0,0.21193872131701055,0.0,0.0,0.06651338538110126,0.0,0.06978393712018023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09494378888350426,0.0,0.061311750603723326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10046759617342534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08553307027215819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905047227767797,0.4119452758594749,0.05796395704670367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20499294212816035,0.07726962848312119,0.08606742566598452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0640423778296907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06011104937501719,0.11595216556690327,0.08889637398930868,0.07183120186576124,0.21103901652833207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457205680421929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22396701548140865,0.0,0.07181900105046768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08164434107872735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19282369422968826,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,MChiko02,2020/02/04,"How do I open up about schizophrenia? I developed schizophrenia 2 or 3 months ago. I'm a freshman in college so this was very surprising and hard to deal with. I'm back at college this semester. Now I have a reputation as ""The Crazy Girl"" or ""That Weird Girl"". The names are painful to hear whispered around me but I guess they're true. I want to meet people but who wants to be friends with the crazy girl? Right now I'm just trying to open up to the few kind people I have around me. I'm so scared because I don't want anyone else to judge me.",1.462646822204345,3.485536230088496,2.3048592115848763,96.8347304907482,80.50442477876106,5.525020112630734,21.777152051488336,6.574015621080383,0.18375044247787686,426,13,98,4,11,133,70,113,0.125,0.7240000000000001,0.15,0.5944,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,10,7,0,1,6,0,7,1,0,1,1,19,16,9,0,3,5,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,3,4,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,3,10,4,17,14,1,14,0,0,0,0,9,9,0,3,5,57,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18531155245003872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14617367828126304,0.214197979196496,0.0,0.3722003353699813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607477091893599,0.0,0.1274358617189035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21552293004231068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17463571385108406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16151268003969665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23029380977579084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18726909336422973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356162480716405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21769498063196813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16686292286851287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22244554860590246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898599935567181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17852884949983075,0.0,0.0,0.20929703341744646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14193225453581726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724893915187773,0.3699119953615758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Phasianida,2020/02/04,"Movies about Schizophrenia So having just watched 'A Beautiful Mind' for the first time nearly 3 years since the onset of my symptoms, I was wondering if anyone could recommend any other movies about schizophrenia that I have similarly  overlooked. I google searched and it came up with 'Split' which is about some serial killer with multiple personalities or something.

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Does anyone know any movies about Schizophrenia other than 'A Beautiful Mind'?",12.019246575342471,12.943781027397266,8.66174657534247,65.46741438356166,53.794520547945204,11.683561643835617,40.16780821917809,11.20814326018867,4.8551671232876705,377,16,51,8,4,106,56,73,0.068,0.8029999999999999,0.129,0.7096,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,4,0,5,1,0,0,0,13,8,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,1,4,0,11,5,1,6,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,4,3,36,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23758511086631875,0.26644395570647145,0.29822996738215074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30664531186753635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25079296558887104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17507379021263555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19188962782424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865157839021246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12050818079601874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4428118626221254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191463068496508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.181387110870462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16880913357722352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22791139374682798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12786141409777135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377951244872893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26644395570647145,0.14120635058556644
schizophrenia,cursedsalad,2020/02/04,Maladaptive Day Dreaming Does anyone have experience with maladaptive day dreaming? Like did you do it when you were younger and do you do it now to cope?,3.0967857142857165,6.2217765357142865,3.1542857142857166,84.91571428571432,87.2142857142857,7.085714285714286,28.42857142857143,8.07648339933343,2.578614285714285,125,6,22,3,4,38,20,28,0.0,0.904,0.096,0.4329,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,2,4,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3447362762673236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6359238726790545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4314516686889831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4822754783053894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24086832210362025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,galacticspeaks,2020/02/04,"Have you experienced any trauma in your life that did or may have contributed to your psychosis / schizophrenia? I have been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder, but it’s currently under question as I experienced sexual assault which seemed to have triggered my psychosis, and my psychiatrist is wondering if trauma is the main root of the problem compared to the psychosis. 

I am curious about your experiences because as far as I’m aware, trauma and other stress can trigger the illness for the first time, and I’m wondering if that is something that happened to you? 

Feel free to share as much or as little as you feel comfortable, it can be a difficult topic. Sending love to you all!",12.428278688524593,10.024278057377053,11.14239344262295,58.63621311475414,55.31147540983606,14.678032786885247,48.170491803278686,13.023866798666859,6.3885324590163926,561,29,85,15,5,178,77,122,0.204,0.662,0.134,-0.8625,1,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,7,0,1,1,11,1,1,6,0,14,4,0,3,1,21,23,14,0,3,5,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,6,0,1,1,0,7,0,1,2,4,12,5,18,19,3,8,0,0,0,1,11,4,0,9,3,69,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15411820602025514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13815336828766792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2300277161195817,0.0,0.0,0.2597410431978092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22169055347049266,0.0,0.0,0.229184900456598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19277390707435296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20041080620756324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16007758446275422,0.0,0.22714579643604266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2045451234685656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16660132572067762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21685716572638888,0.0,0.0,0.25388081824541164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.206318164021356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17447314939626962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596073264273346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13215152006981631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4915476242450571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ThiccPicketFence,2020/02/04,Voices Is there any way to stop the voices without meds? (Not diagnosed but am hearing voices),3.5994117647058843,6.6588586470588265,4.383823529411767,78.77220588235295,80.17647058823529,5.752941176470588,26.14705882352941,7.1686216300943375,1.857376470588236,75,3,11,1,2,24,15,17,0.091,0.909,0.0,-0.1531,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,8,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719053136712065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4058297842913248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4506494067016057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4441327600915404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33428463858003393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173748508738992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3854320623333857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Gambino12345678910,2020/02/04,"Help with feeling depressed after psychosis Hi, so 6 months ago I went through an episode of psychosis, which was a pretty horrible experience as you can imagine. I’m no longer paranoid or delusional but I sadly don’t feel the way that I felt before the episode. I now have issues with low energy, low motivation, anhedonia, apathy and low mood. I don’t have the same passion/zest/enthusiasm for life that I had before and I feel like I’ve lost my mojo to be honest. I have been off any medication (Olanzapine) for 2 months now so I would expect any withdrawal symptoms to be fading/have faded. I guess I’m just looking to see if anyone has any advice that could help/lifestyle changes that might help. I’m particularly interested in if anyone can think of any supplements that have helped them in similar situations?

TL;DR Had psychosis, now depressed. Please help!",4.772785714285714,7.187660850000004,5.755892857142857,74.15125000000003,71.75,8.571428571428571,30.17857142857143,9.23628265651192,3.0115446428571433,696,30,117,16,14,229,103,160,0.165,0.642,0.192,0.6986,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,1,2,6,11,0,0,5,0,18,3,0,1,0,22,31,9,0,5,5,0,4,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,7,0,0,1,3,7,0,0,7,6,13,3,15,19,1,16,0,7,2,0,7,6,0,5,9,71,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13565920734886894,0.123060915227272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37762589262845214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19414080119240065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23626148357545795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14685955105884474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11084130291335996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23914134335887516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13579851352958894,0.0,0.0,0.2105838633054926,0.0991773563974736,0.13329477686786945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15293254320895516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4652608680821252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14489832592494006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0980569432442806,0.06782339465604204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.116578916048187,0.0,0.151545030654986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13985263807320214,0.0,0.14727249838131576,0.0,0.0,0.221619253999106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15238931197429506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14123599963490446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11062638635074212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560462944842896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14429341936914888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08895412597913394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11019365504566958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12869313729250922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09861804135299734,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,NeuoDuck,2020/02/05,"I don't know what to put here So I don't have schizophrenia but I was diagnosed with psychosis when I was 13 years old so I'm kind of in the same boat as you all, I just wanted to say you're all doing great, you're good people and I hope you have a good life 😁☺️😄, I like this sub and I hope you all welcome me to stay.",-2.0435209235209264,-0.39771728571428255,0.7726406926406959,104.76150072150072,91.987012987013,3.941702741702741,13.750360750360752,5.033348758259628,-1.4921734487734488,247,4,70,1,9,85,52,77,0.0,0.652,0.348,0.9839,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,0,0,5,8,0,0,2,0,7,2,0,0,3,13,12,7,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,12,8,7,10,4,6,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,4,42,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517612952556806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41609814605970175,0.0,0.2734714023080125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4927309530078556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25830156073105204,0.13631950073772506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17520210470981964,0.1211826628401084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26028237188513736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17196374604467626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493545690056624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972559991644876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643838503178857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14630385667391838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15973338146563842
schizophrenia,disisamfthrowawayacc,2020/02/05,Is this what i think it is? Hi guys i have lived a pretty normal life and dont have any diagnosed mental illness (i have anxiety and depression but they are not diagnosed). 3 weeks ago i smoked too much weed and had a horrible panic attack and it triggered really bad dpdr. I thought this was just normal dpdr until about 2 days ago the usual ringing and humming in my right ear started to sound more complex. It sounds like a constant low pitch ooooooo with mixed in sounds that sound like unintelligible voices. It sounds like wooo ha oooowa wuuuohhhh. But i cant really describe it. I dont hear actual sentences or anything just these constant sounds in my ear. Its really freaking me out and its almost impossible to ignore. Sometimes i can ignore it for like 10 seconds then its right back to it. Nobody in my family has schizophrenia or really any mental illness but i heard weed can trigger this type of stuff. Im seeing a psychiatrist this weekend and i dont know if this is psychosis or schizophrenia or just all in my head. But i hate it and im constantly paranoid and scared.,4.048258547008548,6.232365855769231,5.084935897435898,79.18784188034189,73.13461538461539,7.699145299145299,27.42094017094017,8.515128840125781,2.18223311965812,870,33,154,16,18,285,121,208,0.225,0.698,0.077,-0.9878,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,0,6,15,2,2,5,1,16,8,3,2,1,36,24,20,0,3,13,0,0,4,0,0,5,12,0,1,20,11,0,2,4,1,0,0,5,10,0,1,4,13,17,5,14,20,3,22,0,2,1,0,5,9,0,6,17,101,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.10787058188741763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1959731496681772,0.0,0.11068931661153623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503412668392341,0.0,0.08456239565710187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09096456918131336,0.0,0.0,0.12575461057420192,0.0,0.08499803292154783,0.09229584421554056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35836170715141114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0712888165391552,0.0,0.09520748766447454,0.22439048015526836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3886543236084361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10420677907389188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10945145903693414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091348463003286,0.11344539177727625,0.0,0.12458602185648122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2388032028919603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06074960448944225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07807730008722018,0.2160160152780463,0.0,0.09760838141962944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22279558285960865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08125923280813012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21661043108953607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12969425660970102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11245838552341524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832576723106836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888002149922656,0.0,0.0,0.11066929803548292,0.0,0.08808564981629129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10932636705772228,0.0,0.07824040920232145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12654125230080315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07082923205924359,0.0,0.0877559956068055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12174361458555948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866809904092983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,kxmtxxhyxng,2020/02/05,"I’m not sure if I have schizophrenia. I have symptoms, but I don’t know. (Please read) I know it’s not self diagnosable, but still. I’ve taken a lot of tests online and they’ve said that I have moderate-strong indication of schizophrenia. The thing is, is that I don’t know if I hear voices. I hear random sounds that a lot of people seem to not notice. I hear stuff like people calling my name (like a family member) and responding, only to find out nobody called for me. A few times, I would be sitting in my bathroom alone and I would hear a loud whisper right in my ear say my name. I also sometimes hear faint whispering of stuff I don’t understand. Other things that led me to take tests/ask this community about this, is that 90 percent of the time, I’m paranoid somebody is in my closet (which is in my bathroom), and that that person will kill me, etc. when I’m in the shower, I have to constantly look out the curtain and stare in the closet to make sure nobody is in there. In general, I’m paranoid that there’s somebody in my closet that is going to hurt me or is trying to scare me, etc. I’ve also read that sleep paralysis can be caused by schizophrenia? I’ve never heard of that, but I’ve been experiencing sleep paralysis VERY often for months. As for seeing things, I’m not sure. I’ve seen faint shadows in the corner of my eyes.  I would also like to add that I have a hard time remembering things, even if they just happened or I just thought of something. Besides sleep paralysis, I do have trouble sleeping. The most time I’ve stayed up without sleeping is about 4 days.

I’m reaching out to this community because I’m not sure if these are signs of schizophrenia. Thank you if you read all that. (I would also like to add that I was sexually abused when I was younger, and most of my childhood was traumatic, so maybe that caused these symptoms?)",4.328793282189508,5.375670762803239,4.955592991913747,84.94849626788306,70.48247978436656,7.648393116317647,27.20723616006635,7.882392219407189,1.5099258967447646,1467,48,297,18,26,471,161,371,0.128,0.831,0.042,-0.9856,1,1,1,0,1,1,50.0,0,2,1,0,16,13,1,1,13,0,32,12,7,4,6,61,61,24,1,9,18,0,1,4,0,5,5,14,5,2,29,11,0,0,8,3,0,2,10,4,0,0,9,21,38,9,42,45,9,32,0,1,5,0,18,16,0,14,16,198,67,4,0.0,0.08812787108635246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07703501546759788,0.0,0.23792591781107836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06953504939496731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045341220668510866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15190013352349527,0.0,0.0,0.15281703621666148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08037811322439586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04796880179775792,0.0,0.0,0.07549390627041648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659062217806031,0.04912714010817542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07011863254361582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06798176714156462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04227174039839941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06577378967474963,0.0,0.06662966901223512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4191570627296252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07962508784189216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08229020111386164,0.0,0.12263153795430247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14535280462010094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06246027824584024,0.0,0.0,0.12647005026658933,0.0,0.0,0.0496490775962222,0.0,0.07472448163279811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05936922703800939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05736626809644969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08468186719055328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05656917081383996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313114184308733,0.06494555084997303,0.0,0.08164665747683153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2231997106382607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842577859697985,0.06351992172126886,0.07075219912890711,0.05914978272207301,0.07446713075458762,0.0,0.059271050950097014,0.0677125539446537,0.07759432728765961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3721674575337382,0.0,0.0,0.05726118491033906,0.07356349967993107,0.0,0.0,0.07927894394982435,0.05939978465286009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17029409507796653,0.0,0.0,0.2804082319720735,0.15461813213489586,0.055924334365304966,0.0,0.0,0.06847890387902945,0.0,0.0,0.19765847077773796,0.0,0.0,0.05904923330457705,0.1734857805475466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05049898502732953,0.0,0.0,0.07743196925443688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061371104321335024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07169944916246491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113490333165192,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,cjbeames,2020/02/05,"Can anyone offer some advice I'm nearly 10 years into this illness/disease/curse/punishment/whatever you want to call it. I've thought it conquered many times, been worse than I am now, been better. But it seems I have to accept that this will always be with me in some form or another.  
  
Over the last few months I've gained more symptoms which I assume are stress related. My eyes are getting worse and my head is always stressing whether it's my jaw, my forehead or near enough anywhere else.  
  
Relationships are very strained. I'm convinced people are hiding or guarding something from me almost all the time and when I'm not I struggle to make it through a conversation without saying something I'll beat myself up for later.  
  
Other people seem to be able to see into me.  
  
I appreciate that some of the advice is going to be medication but medication is not something that has worked for me well in the past. I take it every now and then and then have to fight to get back a sense of control over my level of energy and appetite. Six and two threes.  
  
I'm tired. Even when I feel OK, like I do right now, I don't see any good reason to keep going. Tomorrow is going to be this again, except maybe a new symptom and eventually my body will fail too.  
  
Is there a reason to keep going? Is suicide an option? Have any of you got past this point? Was it worth it if you did?",2.7604797047970493,4.902358656826571,3.877452398523985,86.57040738007382,76.8228782287823,6.107217712177122,23.38612546125461,7.087006719466742,0.887558701107011,1080,34,210,12,25,350,160,271,0.11900000000000001,0.7859999999999999,0.095,-0.8969,0,0,3,0,1,1,28.0,0,3,0,7,11,13,1,4,9,1,28,10,5,4,1,41,50,18,1,2,11,0,1,1,0,2,5,1,0,0,17,10,0,4,8,0,1,4,4,6,1,3,6,5,23,7,32,38,8,35,0,1,3,0,9,12,0,12,20,149,40,2,0.10547653980409433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.206140907913928,0.0,0.0,0.10561951855919263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755298613328797,0.0,0.0,0.14345532802290406,0.11060134865351658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07375164908272724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08110494843109946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09328542799663192,0.0,0.1171606577385483,0.0,0.0,0.10770334012410653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11830090824251513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08811211455234806,0.0,0.0,0.10898546127397782,0.0,0.06966625976766555,0.0,0.08886853395080879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05333210774036794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021427732800466,0.0,0.23977899311392176,0.08846871728713858,0.08435922434661852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10824935982147096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1875047898642786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08597745770657343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0515305095224623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0704064093579874,0.1069366561638046,0.10596536124374062,0.0,0.0,0.212513034315678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08419036776674049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10186989940871552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013785843245171,0.1462483039304957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09970942314545048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21689490002301284,0.0,0.11324233025651376,0.0,0.0900763886786743,0.0,0.08387917797053214,0.0,0.0,0.1681022922604382,0.1920437608317156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2436029803760647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416460399551228,0.11026698081530084,0.0,0.1153742150105274,0.0,0.0,0.21926102220447266,0.0793052312153373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08373659076062462,0.1230084371592629,0.12122976627898795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10303525304793444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08702919173524468,0.062212795979368886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09483607650707487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016756204320465,0.0,0.07678817719690674,0.0,0.2149792103465309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06792343344963933
schizophrenia,Neonguy123,2020/02/05,"I dont know. Over the past few weeks, my mental state has deteriorated drastically. My thought patterns have become more and more paranoid and insular, and I keep having these thoughts that my mum can read my mind, and she knows I know she can. I think everyone in work is trying to get me sacked. The noises in my head have gone from random sounds at 2am, to a near constant murmur that get louder when I'm stressed - like people having low, overlapping conversations. I keep hearing people say my name, even with headphones on, which usually protect me.

I know these type of posts may not be welcome here, but I'm really scared and dont know what to think. I went to my doctor 2 weeks ago, and told her about the murmurs. She referred me to a psychiatrist. I have a family history of schizophrenia, and I'm terrified tbh

I was walking down the street the other day and could SWEAR that the murmuring was coming from inside the houses, directed at me.",6.355584415584418,6.770336516483521,6.617672327672326,77.08641858141858,65.7032967032967,9.695104895104897,30.831168831168828,9.573946990214177,2.699367032967033,754,26,141,14,11,243,115,182,0.107,0.872,0.02,-0.9372,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,4,5,0,2,10,0,16,2,1,0,0,29,37,10,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,8,10,0,3,10,1,0,4,3,3,0,0,7,3,24,2,19,27,3,25,0,1,0,0,11,11,0,2,9,93,32,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12498395125718345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15571838712132693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214550878210548,0.0,0.15236598215925934,0.0,0.11257338672495087,0.0,0.0,0.09093039517503756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14431480833894642,0.0,0.0,0.3304912135158568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09312615901247352,0.0,0.0,0.13472718609029838,0.0,0.0,0.13291795348997545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14732859708734364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447019996387351,0.0,0.15891210922927118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16268980848913375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506464525974991,0.0,0.0,0.3874370350865753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06888325051160428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14209024203361476,0.0,0.14236520211509826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13459610238912212,0.1954969715979669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13503465772616305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410335963560918,0.0,0.09032528989110422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11212523381576528,0.14116103328189325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615098012771453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18068837087663006,0.0,0.22386926160074103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13472718609029838,0.0,0.0957266492465944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15528655856170812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22619607609232065,0.0,0.0,0.13070418636815426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10264636028639136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mym8scallmekarenfsr,2020/02/05,"I've been seing shit lately I (m 18) currently don't have any diagnoses or anything, although I'm going to a psychologist and a psychiatric, because of a two year period of what they say is medium-severe depression.  
But in the course of the last two months, I've had two of what i would call psychotic episodes.  


In the first one i was standing on my porch smoking a cigarette at 2 AM when this sudden change of environment appeared, the lights dimmed down in a weird way, although it was already pitch dark outside. I froze completely and instantly thought i was in a nightmare (been having a lot of those in the last 4 months). Then a big man, completely dressed in black (hood etc), comes sprinting up the dark stairs towards me. Turns out i hadn't even turned around, so i couldn't possibly have looked at the stairs at all. Frightened as hell figuring out it was probably a hallucination, i go back to my bedroom to hide under the covers.

The second episode was two days ago, it was around midnight, and i was letting my dog out to pee.  
As i close the backdoor i notice him staring at something, and i go outside on the porch to check it out.  
As i looked, a giant shadow ran/flew by, i don't even know if there was any light that could've portrayed a shadow or anything. But i knew it was ""the man"" again, so I immedeatly closed the door and started panicking whilst trying to get my dog to come back inside.  
I felt the exact same way as in the first one, hence the thought of it being the same person/thing.  
I didn't sleep at all that night, being completely anxious in my bed.  


I feel like i'm living in fear of it happening again atm. I've gotten afraid of the dark and my porch. And I'm fearful that it might be the beginning of some sort of schizophrenia/psychosis.  
And i don't usually sleep more than 2-3 hours at night, but now i pretty much can't sleep at all.  
The nightmares during the night is enough, i don't need to get them while i'm awake as well,  
it's borderline traumatizing.  
This is a mixture of needing to tell someone, since i haven't done it yet, and needing advice.",5.172235576923075,5.572575598557696,5.5701923076923086,83.6248076923077,68.25480769230771,8.707692307692309,30.42307692307693,8.617729084823388,2.1539259615384614,1643,60,335,24,26,526,213,416,0.065,0.912,0.023,-0.8921,1,0,2,0,0,0,54.0,0,0,2,2,15,9,2,3,33,0,35,6,5,0,4,48,64,27,0,6,6,0,3,1,0,2,1,1,6,2,18,19,0,0,7,0,2,6,9,7,1,9,20,10,33,2,56,37,11,73,1,1,4,0,8,34,2,8,31,227,51,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08537067927612647,0.07744254246065826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096407882972302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11882046046103975,0.0,0.0,0.09869597835509646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14378556497494022,0.15554421672406102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13435440078898275,0.0,0.05325602749368525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08920798302238793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09241908365156816,0.15051197695439186,0.2747971544314101,0.0,0.0,0.06975270979749927,0.0,0.0,0.056342281696767436,0.0,0.07524612344612368,0.0886721947196099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08940327433570285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09026993190566833,0.09743348522878907,0.1154056412999983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196616632060928,0.04417365103411527,0.0624125590140668,0.08388273724691345,0.0,0.0,0.14862283305087226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09128772951119243,0.0,0.14895220743978846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07725532527877088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08603552825520623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04801273881761545,0.14242595593707832,0.09854992353916874,0.0,0.0,0.08933517962222366,0.0,0.042681432287223146,0.0,0.07714364172239706,0.0,0.1467268082543639,0.0,0.0,0.0742733915719526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267895243683942,0.0,0.0,0.1394655521310609,0.0,0.06422228348852219,0.1943369627889686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459544049999972,0.0,0.0,0.0994640148814684,0.0,0.0,0.11839964560182176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07628250829296193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984893098403606,0.0,0.08888016864249408,0.09419271543367093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06947502534001994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09869597835509646,0.08967745943023944,0.07226805617327071,0.0,0.26228001882318064,0.0,0.07402287783558112,0.06725675208880888,0.0,0.0,0.061836391587821275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0763596196329994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387138478401654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05931413612969647,0.19005297593121534,0.341366092974132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0962186407456325,0.0,0.0,0.13869028674147574,0.0,0.0,0.07855035037171929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06206058065440043,0.0,0.0,0.05625928119792365
schizophrenia,evilhag25,2020/02/05,My boyfriend is delusional and I don’t know how to help him. Help me help him. My boyfriend is having delusions about me. He thinks that I’m out to get him or trying to destroy his life. He is still very caring and loving but sometimes he gets very agitated and doesn’t understand why I won’t tell him the “truth”. What’s the best way to support him though this? Will he ever stop believing his delusions?  I am trying my best to make it though this with him but it’s emotionally exhausting having someone I love believe such horrible things about me.,3.7152777777777786,5.6340947870370375,4.167777777777779,86.555,73.35185185185185,7.392592592592592,26.814814814814817,8.167268648758528,1.6728814814814812,439,16,87,7,9,138,66,108,0.129,0.614,0.256,0.9528,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,8,9,1,0,2,0,10,4,0,2,2,16,21,9,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,7,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,18,7,9,19,2,5,0,0,0,2,18,1,0,1,3,60,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3601799182226203,0.3354937796569554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16297207098813646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17980349303183155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14458845730297296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16702425674455051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3214210986221687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784633004043807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290286298605068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885317157544888,0.0,0.10669741233318768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13543568471669293,0.0,0.1580902493668716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12765198514163353,0.13363711849464688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18138958888527199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397110957057444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10619355071021674,0.10242187003980306,0.3140927232959438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170477796863816,0.0,0.0,0.16640371083026936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637768248735725,0.0,0.12687708515000062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14423475491927534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Jay_bmx,2020/02/05,"At work and feeling lost, help a fellow schizo mate out I’m 20 years old male, diagnosed schizoaffective bipolar type. 
Hello, hope you’re all having a day or trying! 
But at the moment I can say that I am absolutely am not, I’m at work and I’ve been feeling off for about a good few months, really haven’t been feeling normal for a wild now but hey what is ? 
I have a girlfriend and since I met her it’s been a blast and my symptoms were there just not as strong unless triggered by stress or any random delusions. 
But the past few weeks have been harder to maintain I’ve been off meds here and there and had switch a load last year with seeing a few psychiatrist, my main problems consistented of me just having horrid memory loss at to a point where I’d be dissociative and I’m not sure if anyone of you gets this but sometimes I’ll be somewhere and get hit with a wave of unknown and my chest feels so heavy and suddenly I don’t trust anyone with me or around me, like I don’t know them even when I’d feel like everything around me is fake or nothing is real, i wouldn’t even know my mom. Trying to reclaim memories is hard and I’m not sure if some that I see are real or not. I always feel like I don’t belong somewhere and my thoughts are so loud I feel like sometimes those next to me hear it, I keep crying about fake images that pop up (idk if these are hallucations or delusions) but I see them in my head and it’ll be of my sisters being killed and getting a call they’re dead and I freak out and cry and have to make sure bc the thing playing of it in my head feels so real I start to hyperventilate. Lately, I have trouble staying still, I don’t wanna be here I feel like they’re saying things about me and my heart won’t stop racing and my brain won’t let me read the words I scan it and forget it, and I keep crying out of nowhere. I wanna tell my gf but I’m scared I keep annoying her. That’s also a thing, I keep thinking or a voice keeps playing out things she could be doing or is doing, or that she’s out to get me, and idk makes me just question her and I fucking hate it. What’s going on? I don’t know how to feel I’m just starring at my computer desk trying to concertante but I can’t remember what I read or do or what I’m even doing or what am I pls I feel fucking lost",1.7438231292517017,3.3105948653061223,3.3126530612244918,92.09210884353745,77.89795918367345,6.054421768707483,21.054421768707485,6.7636006534598385,0.2418095238095237,1804,46,408,17,42,596,218,490,0.183,0.745,0.071,-0.9964,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,2,6,25,29,5,2,17,0,48,10,5,4,4,111,96,53,2,10,32,2,12,5,4,4,3,5,0,1,24,33,0,6,18,4,0,1,15,15,0,0,11,21,58,14,46,72,6,39,0,3,4,2,25,20,2,19,22,268,82,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05691553621248593,0.05922009120040235,0.0,0.0,0.04839881684056612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09952903401607273,0.0,0.0,0.12671481033867174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07945053171911147,0.07267369296944573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05682436530750989,0.0,0.2345344712769209,0.04589949848099698,0.0,0.0,0.07223721056850478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410236033585679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06396403291533116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3958489440306908,0.20337871107734365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315931471185656,0.14873593599149673,0.0,0.04044819990263174,0.05969497686996216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06375536342371936,0.07026676770871154,0.14608424828310118,0.0,0.08021504912785557,0.08433814545448418,0.04770451598147209,0.0,0.0,0.0706890023939162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163009037880121,0.07874032328243752,0.0,0.11734139438769388,0.05801397947789836,0.08028414770514995,0.0,0.0,0.07277731426352768,0.0,0.1738531239272275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15538341676131182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09501457932256367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07905509391610625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08335478084765696,0.05680812620123536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569131649515902,0.0,0.06973260768960496,0.06829062984757467,0.0,0.07468214081930967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0679409078258751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06727973334423204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06810117062468524,0.0,0.0,0.07972796685667256,0.0,0.14238080301432726,0.2430250214103145,0.04559405574089586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08062302943146891,0.0,0.0,0.1131962967784611,0.07125472863310414,0.0,0.1701425558545991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05887350378179582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14078015773884264,0.0,0.050375300330060616,0.07585896730841607,0.05683736560567861,0.05950226119822676,0.0815263022239845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20123387600536466,0.07397406705072165,0.0,0.0,0.06220671474076015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891317760545568,0.04560359376323516,0.0,0.056501936525213625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14496160002033698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05708919680279316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10362687743687446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09166376348703084
schizophrenia,Miss-Paranoid,2020/02/05,Constant relationship paranoia I’ve been dealing with having bad anxiety and paranoia in my relationship constantly. I’m convinced my husband thinks or likes other women constantly. I ask him if he looks at girls and makes comments about them to friends or coworkers and he says not but I’m sure he’s lying. He doesn’t want to be close in public or rarely at home. This makes my anxiety shoot through the roof especially when he guards his phone. I’ve caught him talking to a  girl before and I think it plays a big roll in my anxiety and paranoia.,4.275047619047618,6.4705147904761935,4.805714285714289,81.38761904761907,72.52380952380952,8.095238095238095,30.714285714285715,8.841846274778883,2.682142857142857,443,20,81,9,9,141,71,105,0.20600000000000002,0.7070000000000001,0.086,-0.9117,0,0,0,1,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,2,1,20,14,11,0,2,6,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,3,3,7,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,2,10,5,11,11,0,12,0,0,1,0,23,7,0,4,5,43,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4042383343266414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16466650395100665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14706898987051073,0.0,0.0,0.14988160334805006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5710321491393395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18159192320781045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13608481559293206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17668211752045215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08605278339673568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14791268207963654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351487516956844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3782154613727461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400730712792211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166009241525275,0.0,0.0,0.14157412783097362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22572595116916425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10389154515509487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,burnetall,2020/02/05,"Helping a Family Member I have a sibling that has stopped taking his meds twice now due to the weight gain.  When he's not medicated, he is constantly paranoid about the government spying on him (phone calls, emails, social, wiretaps, by car, etc, etc).  He lumps his family into this conspiracy, cuts ties with us all & hits the road, usually toward some 'solution' (like escaping to native american land, etc.).  

Is there a way to get him once we do find him?  Seems like most law enforcement won't do anything unless he's an immediate danger to himself or others.  Even if he does get detained, he's able to fake it long enough to warrant a release (i.e. without consent to get help).  

We're at our wits end & seems like this is exactly one scenario someone ends up homeless.  Is there any way for us, his family to help him??",7.82423076923077,7.03051334615385,7.97525641025641,72.61557692307693,62.97435897435898,11.38974358974359,36.16666666666667,10.686352973137794,3.810143589743589,646,26,118,14,8,211,112,156,0.128,0.7859999999999999,0.086,-0.7909,0,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,4,0,0,1,6,6,2,0,8,0,9,3,0,0,2,17,16,4,0,1,5,0,1,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,3,1,1,3,0,0,1,3,3,0,2,0,1,13,3,19,14,7,19,0,0,0,0,25,7,0,6,12,71,18,1,0.1230688408054392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26669007519014953,0.0,0.08369103195807304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10127516983805172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12566704638364726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13299369590399795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076983719351228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2180049283727745,0.12716301092685153,0.41176286783080196,0.08128580866211157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3480550507950757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11248269091613278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19289516952527413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474713494361789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18037565751081575,0.0,0.0,0.10891205136224497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13670173825067258,0.12397890961276012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13106429892533553,0.08339463157639976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240745010537292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12545318477656986,0.10427582944096507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289106157125134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925324521794754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29607332484449106,0.0,0.13554294111232584,0.0,0.0,0.19537263489668166,0.0,0.14986469316227655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11863397081461775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ouellettephil22,2020/02/05,"Schizo + ADHD Schizo + ADHD Meds

Anybody Schizophrenic and have ADHD? If so what kind of medication do you take? I’m on my 4th antipsychotic, Risperdone, and I like it the best so far out of all the ones I’ve tried. My doctor is thinking strattera after I get my Risperdone dialed in. I’ve read studies that concluded adrafinil and other nootropics work well for cognitive impairments too. It’s rather unlikely I’d be taking any stimulants for my ADHD. Wondering what med combos other people have tried or use.",3.7465263157894735,6.584730863157897,4.7592105263157904,77.86197368421053,77.21052631578947,7.589473684210527,27.394736842105264,8.548686976883017,2.5612947368421053,412,17,67,9,10,134,69,95,0.0,0.9009999999999999,0.099,0.8466,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,3,5,4,0,0,2,0,5,3,0,3,1,13,12,7,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,7,4,8,11,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,3,2,42,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7332363987113565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10372431814279573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16006879943522911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15611894301201407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07968962131279682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15883451345596716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07451751060671469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3388486019885475,0.15365598395432828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10335696782141687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10574375879792387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525693464566939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22936425286774365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09773382856722927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20711309491344798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13173528000622114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13714105298987306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654101857142981,0.11104225170229534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,throwawayvent000,2020/02/05,"Could I develop it? Ive been abit anxious recently i may develop schitzophrenia or something simmilar in the not too distant future. 

I tick alot of boxes when it comes to developing it:

I was born 6 weeks prematurely, I was  malnourished and on the 5th percentile for weight. (My skin was literally transparent)

History of childhood abuse and trauma.

I have been diagnosed CPTSD, DPDR & Anxiety disorder. For over 10 years.

Not sure if it's relevant but my sister has epilepsy and abnormal brain activity.

I have unexplained symptoms from when I was a kid that don't fall into CPTSD or DPDR such as hearing voices.


I'm actually so worried I might develop it, I'm about to goto university to study biomedical science and I have a feeling that this is where I'm most likley to develop it because of the stress of school. Not to mention even thinking about it makes me dissociate, im probably freaking out over nothing but i cant stop thinking about it and I'm starting to obsess about worrying about getting worse mentally. What are the chances I develop it and is thete anything I can do to avoid it or basically anything really",4.835761904761906,7.170497052380951,6.435238095238098,69.70476190476192,71.33333333333334,10.380952380952381,35.95238095238096,10.504223727775694,4.685238095238095,911,51,148,30,18,311,132,210,0.174,0.807,0.019,-0.9826,1,1,1,0,1,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,12,6,0,3,7,0,21,5,2,1,1,30,33,16,0,2,9,1,3,0,0,2,2,2,0,1,14,9,1,2,3,0,0,2,5,5,0,0,6,5,17,1,26,24,2,19,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,8,10,107,31,1,0.0,0.19134402763906594,0.15759488554793194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17497872298460934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12354249724126465,0.18244229578482749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2657916666104154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984452667906109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18028075598471127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13911281430270314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12893984866214622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16391304941240809,0.0,0.0,0.1850861590347661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10666528918503174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165623809782774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08437396957090032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18201551814966607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17444127383829294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10779852456116863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16274800676420714,0.17131965390397988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15495788523000378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1741178874391136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034572162013681,0.0,0.15945587999707914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16344058847564294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243260005383964,0.0,0.0,0.1143063114865931,0.0,0.0,0.1350162472107875,0.184990875196906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15220621985782598,0.16785414071634058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20695771774874264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12954077632298336,0.1966562318550356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3280100699230072,0.16457622180992587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10399686585024216
schizophrenia,tonofsticks,2020/02/05,"Secretly tapering off meds I am going to attempt to secretly taper off my antipsychotics. I'm 19, and had my very first psychosis in july 2019. So far my symptoms have disappeared and I think it's time to get off my meds gradually without telling my parents or my psychiatrist. 

I'm gonna document my experiences in a little notebook to keep track of things.",7.087500000000002,7.448134514705885,8.219411764705884,66.4123529411765,64.14705882352942,12.094117647058823,40.52941176470589,11.698219412168324,5.223870588235294,289,16,49,9,4,99,49,68,0.031,0.9690000000000001,0.0,-0.2263,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,8,10,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,9,0,11,8,0,11,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,1,2,31,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535385197439777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22046772079262264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354165927840784,0.0,0.14730421074236752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23038085799491484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597774604867251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5758055113705115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28780091743200503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693986775317668,0.0,0.0,0.2265443465919745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17219497446786255,0.16607911853876675,0.0,0.0,0.15113634864409056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21385970861952155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498508618287055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,dontliterallycare,2020/02/05,"Seeking Advice on Manic Episodes This is my first post as I have created an alt account for privacy. 

I am looking for advice on how to support my partner. 

He has not been diagnosed as Schizophrenic, but psychiatrists have identified that he is having a manic episode. It’s too early for any diagnosis. 

I had to take him to the emergency room and he was then involuntarily committed. He’s been in a facility for three nights now, but looking back I expect the manic episode started more than a week and a half ago if not two weeks or more. 

My question is for other people who have experienced a manic episode, did you come out of it remembering everything? 

What can I do to support my partner in the comedown from this episode? 

How did you feel and what would you have wanted the people around you to do?

My partner has only been on lithium for two days so I’m jumping the gun a bit here, he’s still in the manic episode right now, I just want to be prepared with the best course of action for once he starts to come out, and I have literally no idea what I’m doing. 

Any advice from people who have gone through the same thing would be extremely helpful.",3.6869192982456127,5.664373986666664,4.814198830409357,81.63926315789476,73.57777777777778,7.581286549707602,29.175438596491226,8.371475516178862,2.200333333333333,917,39,174,16,19,301,124,225,0.05,0.847,0.10300000000000001,0.9068,0,0,0,1,0,0,17.0,0,4,0,2,11,3,0,0,15,0,28,2,0,2,1,30,43,14,0,6,7,0,1,0,3,2,2,0,1,3,12,10,0,0,4,0,1,5,3,0,0,5,8,4,17,3,32,31,5,31,0,0,2,0,18,11,0,3,14,135,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3940196423928704,0.11914271248269315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18280122924634853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11964973839098175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10334983353702663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14105069006317414,0.0,0.14673642178022964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315575473853886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08668068035378665,0.0,0.0,0.13641914979812073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120795347983342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0679596567628454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11432558193410886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09008943535481242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517278906138927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257341943316712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12613082347967053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14313788701915447,0.0,0.10222173640831712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27954036391126363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287236900325028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15056535777230173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1522556732552624,0.11478189624232404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19026636238493128,0.0,0.1073367179002371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050444238781898,0.0,0.0,0.1010565027568369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08929330149280587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2625900504701199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15855215329562633,0.0,0.21562459649819887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19095617686293015,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,suicidethrowaway889,2020/02/05,Self harm Self harm in the roses make the thorn grow longer and shraper,5.082857142857144,6.445201571428572,3.3557142857142854,95.93928571428572,69.0,5.6000000000000005,21.142857142857142,3.1291,-0.4106285714285711,58,1,12,0,1,16,11,14,0.368,0.632,0.0,-0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047128618357411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9524442617979662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,k111d111,2020/02/05,What do you do How do you guys go about this in your day to day life?  I never let anyone know what’s wrong with me because I don’t want to scare people off but I also don’t want special treatment. Do you let employers and friends and peers know or do you keep it secret? If you are open what responses have you had?,4.178382352941174,3.8164618382352975,4.92235294117647,90.05058823529413,70.32352941176471,7.976470588235292,25.823529411764717,7.1686216300943375,0.8918117647058823,247,6,58,2,4,80,46,68,0.057999999999999996,0.789,0.153,0.7711,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,7,0,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,12,1,0,1,1,15,18,7,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,5,4,0,1,3,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,11,2,6,15,0,7,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,2,3,42,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19742077304565225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726163025380541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15048883984667147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31841971719975753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19073010934170287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14030114489777648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444387796401369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219428202196816,0.0,0.0,0.2713451116263201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.504879848217614,0.17437063076954165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904003245806608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17114764070310204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24715858877948316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2912190560096385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26991211855674024,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,pachinyari,2020/02/05,"how to cope between therapy sessions? wondering how you guys cope between sessions? i usually see my therapist weekly but recently i can't because of my schedule and there's not many options for switching. it feels like everything is building up and i dont know what to do about it and i keep thinking i should readmit myself to the hospital even though i dont really have a reason to except im scared and overwhelmed. ive been writing it down and direct messaging some friends,but its not really enough to help with things.",3.634599999999999,6.288633260000001,4.594000000000001,79.93700000000003,76.4,8.0,32.0,8.841846274778883,3.2310000000000003,426,22,72,10,10,138,72,100,0.040999999999999995,0.866,0.094,0.6131,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,6,3,0,2,2,0,9,0,0,3,0,22,15,9,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,6,0,1,5,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,2,11,1,14,13,2,6,0,1,1,0,5,2,0,3,5,56,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179394551923671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4534982536992476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19990951428866852,0.0,0.12778721115334246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738812195768682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09782585337291716,0.13821727893905164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191568866688173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296809947734613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20898423530416968,0.0,0.0,0.17196785254840571,0.0,0.0,0.10632780034362148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452122337479794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961514383980024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24788774742133174,0.1989226526568027,0.19103142514789345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19370040553483125,0.0,0.1541730759487084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22125344346805687,0.22463727471925066,0.12853498435846392,0.12396980207823625,0.19008641770590756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21308337483931855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15519251542305804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20981341143942012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,KissinHomiesGN,2020/02/05,"Finally am gaining the confidence to make YouTube content I finally have gained the confidence to start vlogging and making videos about my experiences with psychosis. My direct inspiration is Elliott Macgabhann, I love his content and how he is so open about his experience and struggles, if you see this Elliot your awesome and keep making content i love it! I want to also be able to show off my music and occasionally make gaming content. The main focus though is psychosis and psychotic illness. Thank you :)",9.688977272727273,10.380576306818183,9.108090909090912,61.10963636363637,58.65909090909091,11.585454545454546,43.73636363636364,11.20814326018867,5.501242727272729,417,23,58,10,5,133,59,88,0.046,0.642,0.312,0.9831,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,2,6,5,0,1,3,0,6,3,0,5,0,17,17,11,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,8,0,1,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,12,4,8,16,1,5,0,0,1,2,9,2,0,1,3,43,14,0,0.19674470448649145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15733666909594332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38490814667337225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4310484139195426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17487573322071182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35513955445034745,0.0,0.5253144719696039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15678005685297386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13925691447497526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20568028298442406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811360904064752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19330067323055167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11604512418565507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lonerstoic,2020/02/05,"Do You Feel Like Nobody Respects You? I feel like my whole life I have never been deemed worthy of respect.  At first I blamed myself.  But then, why I played by the rules, worked very hard, went to a top university, worked for a famous senator, exercised two hours a day, did yoga, worked part time, dressed impeccably....I was still greeted with bullying.

I was then told to stand up to the bullies.  It escalated.  I kept losing.  They said that's what the problem is, you don't know how to defend yourself.  So I fought harder.  It escalated.  And then I got threatened with violence, and at one point I got beat up.

So my uncle sat me down and said, ""look everyone gets disrespected.  The Queen of England gets disrespected.  So just be yourself.""

So I figure what's the point of bootstrapping it then if everyone gets disrespected at the end of the day?  I still have to do it, but only because I need more money in the future.

The sad thing is that people who don't know my life story just see a lazy bum.  It sucks that people can not and will not respect me.",2.290952380952384,4.687707902439026,3.6434843205574943,86.32764227642281,79.73170731707317,6.636469221835076,22.444831591173052,7.793537801064563,1.1235807200929155,820,26,163,14,21,268,119,205,0.163,0.7609999999999999,0.076,-0.9482,1,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,3,1,8,9,11,2,0,13,0,15,3,0,1,1,23,35,16,0,3,7,0,3,2,0,1,3,2,0,0,12,6,0,1,5,3,1,1,5,5,0,3,13,7,22,6,20,20,3,26,0,2,2,0,9,10,1,1,16,111,34,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08556552351202476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18104830781144968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243221957933792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2682505559432892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419460577159926,0.2005543235982816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11939484706539592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22000558622520647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22452627198376812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12573994317767176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13823177135514322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542824474717911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198288648143204,0.13715101443990813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11787169220443434,0.15703312258108978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407926101727284,0.10825854904724364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09511531498250914,0.10675430974201733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520021891362191,0.0,0.19462356796064767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2653815896707853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13431085425348047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2670395224845096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11185315324285264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241921851854031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093252620238945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08184826861505512,0.0,0.0,0.1341252779716446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13711672569855854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11581626150204352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13012025143118985,0.12665805725291054,0.15671310012889528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30656333006827063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,PointBlank25,2020/02/05,"Feeling quite dissatisfied because of youtube and I'd like to vent about it. Hi. So I'm going to mostly be talking about a mental health youtube channel I do here, but furthermore how the problems I'm having with my youtube mental health channel's performance correlate to mental health issues I have. I'd link the channel but that feels like advertising. If you're interested though you can click on my profile, pretty sure I've posted my videos on subreddits now and then. 

I'll just be blunt, I guess: I'm fairly dissatisfied with my youtube channel's performance. Not because I chase considerable subscribers and anything less dissatisfies me - there's been a considerable change in how much my videos are viewed and interacted with throughout the last two years. Despite the fact that I've been posting more it's not atypical for a video of mine to get one like, while before my average would probably be eight to twelve. Now, I want to stress something. This is not why I do youtube, and I say that wholeheartedly. However, I'm self-conscious and overly thinkative, especially when it comes to myself, and I guess I'm left wondering *am I doing something wrong?* This definitely is taking some kind of toll on my mental, because 

From an as neutral as can be perspective I can see that I've been somewhat psychotic lately. I've released videos here and there that have reflected that. I'm thinking that could have affected my overall performance. I haven't gained any subscribers in the last month and that has to be for a reason. However, ultimately I think I'm well-spoken. I don't think my videos work from a structural standpoint but I think they work regardless. I don't see them as needing upmost structure since they're about what's on my mind, and what I do I personally feel I do very well. I feel I overall do a good job, and I literally never receive critical comments. the fifteen or so comments I receive in a month basically all compliment me. 

I don't know. Could someone who's inclined to do so maybe help me? I figure I just need an outside perspective. If you could lend a hand and tell me if I really am doing something wrong, or if I need to just leave things in the oven more, I'd be appreciative. Thanks.",4.9858662635859785,6.893810966745846,5.47381559058519,78.54069243503926,69.97387173396675,8.618469732959046,31.997480745699267,9.178173031916092,2.9607982581155987,1791,81,321,37,33,574,200,421,0.064,0.799,0.13699999999999998,0.9851,3,0,3,0,0,0,46.0,0,2,2,7,20,14,0,1,17,0,38,4,1,4,4,70,68,33,0,14,15,0,5,3,0,1,3,1,1,1,17,16,0,0,16,9,0,4,8,4,1,3,3,10,47,10,35,55,8,28,0,0,4,0,16,10,0,12,15,209,64,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06142752072757465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07433392143535952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651930510979275,0.0,0.07686420588610618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09555719872827163,0.07781132599755991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21636354598854535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18269431739160727,0.06453179440008401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04719371457545125,0.0,0.05133664002772617,0.07576454691219263,0.0,0.0,0.19901743288841395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28804980663290186,0.0,0.0,0.0605463177726829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09428108710652007,0.08963862067779158,0.0,0.0,0.0940648301407834,0.049643024399383694,0.14726206793884955,0.10189621294874772,0.09564646347015872,0.09814384633693396,0.0,0.0,0.13239207572498735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09074866042152936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3641257140331387,0.0,0.09120758422905738,0.0,0.14420114281786414,0.0,0.06640296856040058,0.200935727121972,0.06966809095735693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061209968856568715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07887270157236519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17302240625407408,0.09189811889926687,0.09739105465906776,0.08643364328306623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09607711019450917,0.0,0.0,0.05786773286843254,0.0928743194867022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07183406868755883,0.0,0.0,0.14396268419576874,0.0,0.0942339258004854,0.0,0.0,0.07472193764104637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07653634474932579,0.20862142009755869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034727488525884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08513498811434399,0.0,0.06791694392148953,0.07260385975773218,0.07895243124888901,0.08316375916389065,0.0,0.0,0.060011260874959026,0.2315193539024749,0.08874879985920724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08823931783505973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07453173824770414,0.05327899447461307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16243509768922887,0.0,0.08150880582490644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09795906874537257,0.1315226812807556,0.0,0.0,0.06416786451965482,0.19752342405422413,0.0,0.05816958036510988
schizophrenia,Xoroshego,2020/02/05,"How do you find a job with schizophrenia???? I have no idea who to talk to about this so sorry if this breaks any rules or whatever.

I've been looking for a job for about 18 months after being unemployed since 2016. I have applied for about a dozen jobs and had a couple of interviews though they all seem too much for me - too **fast**, too **noisy**, too **crowded** and the sort of places where my brain will run wild with delusions and thoughts/feelings. Places like supermarkets or big stores.

What jobs do you guys do and how do you find something suitable? I feel like nothing is suitable and everything is scary. I don't have any recent experience so it's only things like supermarkets or merchandiser roles that I can go for yet **I often have such difficulties going to these places as a customer for twenty minutes, let alone spending hours there at a time stewing and becoming overwhelmed.** This happened recently at a place that I had applied for and it scares me.

I have tried telling this to social welfare yet they don't understand me and me situation because I'm so complicated and weird and thus they can't help me. I need a job because I feel so useless. How do you work with schizophrenia???",1.5172271169848273,4.2178557973568305,2.151986049926581,90.86481705824772,94.5506607929515,4.98918257464513,23.045643661282426,6.691623216298621,0.9365135584924134,954,38,181,14,36,294,131,227,0.102,0.8640000000000001,0.034,-0.9192,7,1,1,0,0,0,38.0,0,4,3,1,21,7,0,2,9,0,22,1,1,4,1,32,32,23,0,2,4,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,12,13,0,0,7,0,2,3,4,4,0,1,3,3,23,3,23,26,2,21,0,2,1,0,16,8,0,7,12,125,35,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111865635382194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14600905978756018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13088423445258535,0.11856426742807913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11984277915453175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11878536828716765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09648302289034648,0.10501299655589154,0.0,0.0,0.1628445108657808,0.0766938541158702,0.0,0.0,0.1962395678340663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12202371924374222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10629752537238116,0.09493295484437277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07195724999869547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10572225137090506,0.0,0.0,0.12118981225355613,0.0,0.0,0.5326623381017763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10977693178415696,0.0,0.1573435023176142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09015048096819096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568908949013078,0.0,0.07891768129146348,0.07960177090906351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10300923976293676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08164769834625347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44864911357920456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2119986207845952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107480271340199,0.0,0.0,0.09773122178016624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08880449455919827,0.1206706064692514,0.0,0.10943407631631603,0.0,0.08264649959063182,0.0,0.12017422543736435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08628723066317466,0.09383229306711613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713213529801915,0.0,0.10547494568587017,0.0,0.062599090961242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0728864474586682,0.0,0.0,0.11175949686177633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0781551282189453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lemin_j,2020/02/06,"Seeing things Hello guys. I hope I don't sound ignorant. I don't even know if this is the place for this. 
Are you familiar with cases where someone is seeing people that he knows but that don't even live where he is. Or seeing something as big as a train? But it disappears very quickly. I look away then I look back and it's not there. 

Thanks",0.03126760563380415,2.3919702253521145,1.471957746478875,97.1552605633803,93.22535211267606,4.530140845070423,15.550704225352113,6.2581,-0.4915419718309861,270,6,59,3,10,86,50,71,0.09300000000000001,0.856,0.05,-0.593,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,7,3,0,0,2,0,7,0,0,0,0,11,16,8,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,7,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,6,6,2,5,16,0,9,0,0,5,0,5,5,0,3,3,41,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071947935035525,0.16957362938835074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29131540659940336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183589491756128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21903562578241392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423945722765081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947316535116306,0.0,0.3703785995568429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528874388623329,0.0,0.23040646676987345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.527200553576334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18685399181028253,0.169774439625309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030340020106437,0.0,0.0,0.14651004937302156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18195999369652816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,delusions_of_flowers,2020/02/06,"Recent psychosis, a bit scared After my first psychosis a few months ago, I was put on antipsychotics and antidepressants. Never had to take medication before. My personality now feels flat. 

Is this temporary? I want my old self back.",4.707000000000002,8.136085700000002,5.23,71.815,79.5,8.200000000000001,25.5,8.841846274778883,2.7803500000000003,188,7,29,5,5,60,35,40,0.076,0.89,0.034,-0.3818,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,0,1,4,6,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,1,5,0,3,4,2,11,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,9,20,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424114786946915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21027879463630733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23269977915553464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985545002366841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13827283720654013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326103946416713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275488645050848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21827828506687366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109141594981997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869570026903507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23878032727594134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749092810656648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700150956017195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2737875900684294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28528511379177196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2056127123054841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16129757804617414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,boozybb,2020/02/06,my family is trying to destroy me subconsciously they’re all trying to ruin me which physically manifests as them thinking they love me and trying to help me but its all wrong. they make me feel absolutely horrible. im a teenager still undiagnosed but have been experiencing psychosis for over a year. constant. ive been on abilify for the same about of time. it doesnt go away. they dont believe me when i say i need help. what the fuck am i supposed to do. ive been planning to run away for a while and i need to act on it asap i dont know what else to do,0.9376591511936354,3.236951612068964,3.4537931034482767,86.19359416445623,84.60344827586206,6.6726790450928375,22.716180371352788,7.882392219407189,1.2573694960212205,441,16,94,9,13,153,71,116,0.157,0.777,0.067,-0.9142,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,4,1,3,5,2,0,5,0,13,2,0,1,2,13,22,7,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,0,0,3,3,4,0,0,3,3,18,1,18,19,3,14,0,1,0,2,8,5,1,0,6,68,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3490128987913596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092625032476292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20071620018258804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4353658187383263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551598070708546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17509673867141842,0.0,0.0939144360536403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17171128059301072,0.0,0.0,0.10555887377182586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24899179656727424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20062831987649127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10207644566134493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16763530127684326,0.0,0.12398119087298448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754439330150003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14770587605677685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14833016836189486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119013058904551,0.0,0.0,0.10830500138763248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3783106114770029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20307474520593585,0.0,0.11960882885604547
schizophrenia,woodsymook,2020/02/06,"Support I don’t have schizophrenia but I always like hearing stories and how you guys over come your episodes, I know it may be difficult and I support you guys. Sometimes I wonder to myself how do you really know you have a mental issue? How you do you know what is around you is fake or real? How do I know myself I don’t have a disorder? I feel normal but am I?",0.4547222222222196,2.7448804078947364,2.6085964912280737,91.40073099415207,87.02631578947368,4.956725146198831,20.28654970760234,6.42735559955562,0.2980953216374269,285,9,59,3,9,96,42,76,0.152,0.738,0.11,-0.644,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,8,0,0,5,5,0,0,2,0,13,0,0,4,0,20,23,9,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,2,2,4,0,0,6,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,2,19,3,3,21,0,3,0,0,0,0,11,2,0,3,1,48,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627614889333037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17413255182966753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16849893348649395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241836638615375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09890525974166732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3873652590789679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22046438237871493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20416388516363349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4300040673565934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09556416659456096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971268118201584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.191654265042485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22264467756916734,0.12531146522188796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934612698273226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44394718004100203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121284838333565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,DaOneEyedBear,2020/02/06,"I hate how I wasn't diagnosed earlier. I just wish my mom did something after seeing the early signs that something was wrong. She believed that I had a third eye, a knack for seeing spirits. She says that I was special, and she fueled my delusions.
I believed her for the longest time that I could see ghosts, demons, and angels. I now realize that I halucinated all of those things and it has been going on since I could speak. My father didn't pay no mind to me saying that I saw things, he thought it was my creative imagination. He wasn't religious at the time and he left when I was 9, so he didn't see me grow up with schizophrenia. I just got re-diagnosed finally, and I'm happy to finally get some help, but just remembering how I was in the past, truly embarrasses me.",4.181970674486807,5.277446845161293,5.283519061583579,82.27982404692084,70.87096774193549,8.47507331378299,28.284457478005862,8.841846274778883,2.1002258064516126,611,22,123,11,11,202,92,155,0.054000000000000006,0.8340000000000001,0.111,0.6533,0,0,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,8,5,1,1,6,0,15,2,1,2,1,23,27,10,1,3,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,11,6,0,0,4,0,1,2,5,3,0,1,15,9,25,2,11,10,2,16,3,0,6,0,14,5,0,1,9,86,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.324814139024364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301832154571145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926173185451059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31581735699287616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531213902538213,0.0,0.08192345539325759,0.0,0.11528948492141705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15344977190780298,0.0,0.14231774031650982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09662033901317801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15661880117522484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455498539460398,0.16882609577252114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376069626101793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16329322865288973,0.0,0.0,0.22926685964110935,0.0,0.0,0.45947380002415295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192419161426988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22194658102815465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19153298115060166,0.0,0.0,0.11443856309301015,0.16810940914783762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16576475559765272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15760479660229199,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,RAD1OHE4D,2020/02/06,"Might not have schizophrenia Had my appointment with my shrink and he said i only have medication symptoms not schizophrenic symptoms and that he doesnt know if i have SA.That was the best news i heard in a year, because my psychologist also thinks i don’t have schizophrenia. I cant believe it after 1 year this nightmare has a chance to be over. Il be able to get my emotions, cognitive and motor skills, and pleasure back.",6.764125,7.5598521625,6.1374999999999975,79.5575,64.875,8.9,34.75,8.841846274778883,2.9072,343,15,62,5,5,105,58,80,0.0,0.87,0.13,0.872,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,3,0,13,4,0,0,0,12,18,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,3,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,2,9,2,6,11,1,6,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,4,44,12,0,0.24377564137001997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1949472923298916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187448420841221,0.0,0.14860336833546497,0.0,0.0,0.2746516690434932,0.25582749585594705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742147852369701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12736271114728334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339727172131754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455783121820921,0.0,0.2586074319484256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854023602130115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318864590030557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5067524628189094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15620158776093027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31396704108787915
schizophrenia,ananzi510,2020/02/06,I’m breaking down crying I don’t know what my real self is anymore because I’ve been on meds for 19 years . Went off them 2 nites ago so I could see my true self back on em today 😢😢😢 I feel like a tortured soul,-2.856200000000001,-1.2488575199999978,0.2995000000000001,104.04725,104.2,2.5,14.25,3.1291,-1.6045999999999996,164,4,43,0,8,57,41,50,0.14,0.75,0.11,-0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,5,9,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,2,6,2,5,6,0,10,1,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,5,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22462690543801694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25130817169980474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19485164305226596,0.0,0.1544724162162636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2023220680763162,0.0,0.2783518361483623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281284190628551,0.18103150473035576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13926393167790946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12380014588508262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28147415297149264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28842865004557977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2019297742086892,0.0,0.5287102130942252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401968799447408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23490757506344145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16318354015916672
schizophrenia,alexreddit27,2020/02/06,Selfies just remind me how I’ve lost the popularity contest my whole life I was dumb enough to post a selfie and only got two upvotes in a couple hours. Idk what I was thinking. It’s just yet another reminder of how I’ve lost the popularity contest my whole life and how I’m not likeable based on my physical appearance. Thought I would be surprised and have people complement me because this is a sz community supporting other people with sz but I guess I’m just bland and ugly looking. Congrats to everyone winning the popularity contest!!!!,6.127184873949583,7.475113931372551,7.445798319327732,67.63323529411767,66.54901960784314,9.75014005602241,38.10084033613445,9.957137785484203,4.2339899159663865,439,24,71,10,7,150,68,102,0.115,0.688,0.19699999999999998,0.9038,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,3,7,9,1,0,6,0,6,2,0,3,0,18,17,8,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,6,1,9,6,6,9,3,6,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,2,2,48,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20121250817929573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11697384669674772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21232169814728052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.198272790386244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183358309043817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15347128516505054,0.0,0.21138753594607174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889721627057428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27107396738300665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16113856011025382,0.0,0.4189393564358585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459403478110545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660635553641358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837767656364849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21775353698151226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12295482118069224,0.0,0.15233855335807256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187447820022619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42847477342374507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13631254881411806,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,sterlingduel2,2020/02/06,"How can I help my undiagnosed partner with psychosis?!?! 
Hi all  I need some advice regarding my partners mental health and how I can cope with it. Since beginning our relationship it has been really up and down with a few very scary close calls. His mood is drastically up and down and can switch extremely fast. Through talks and research I believe he may be schizophrenic, he has also said he may be and closely matches many symptoms. He does not want to label it as there has not been any official diagnosis from doctors although they are just as concerned as I am. He is currently waiting to be seen by a specialist psychosis  team who I really hope can help.  He has admitted seeing things since being a child but has learnt to keep them to hisself. It has taken a lot to build trust and honesty about what is really going on. Recently he has began being open about what he has seen pointing out things such as men stood on the road outside the house staring into the windows. He has admitted to partly believing they are real and everyone else is wrong. Such as being able to see and talk to ghosts. I try my best to keep an open mind but honestly it is rather scary when I am being told there are monsters (for lack of a better word) in the dark corners of my home. Lastnight was a bad mental health night which lead to scarier sightings - the things he sees are worse depending on his mood and suicidal feelings. We was laying in the dark when he asked me if I could see a red dot in the little window above the door. I assured him it was most likely the reflection off the fire alarm. A minute later I got a replythat  there is no red light on my fire alarm. (Not good as I was trying to assure myself too.) I offered to check the room so he would feel safer to which he replied “it’s okay if it’s what I think it is, it’s eye is enough I don’t want to see the rest of it.” I’m aware this isn’t the place for medical advice and that is not what I’m seeking I just need some advice on how I can deal with the things he says like this as it he can say some terrifying things. I love him dearly and I am 100% committed to helping him through this I’m just not sure how or what the right things to say would be until we manage to get some professional support. No body in his family or anyone knows about this and I can’t confide in others as it would seem far fetched so it really feels all on me to support him and to be honest I’m out of my depth.",4.169165581725647,5.008340688128772,4.997401467629307,85.26931559947924,70.69014084507046,8.181062847674283,26.89128890993017,8.405096225971981,1.6450866848147705,1930,61,402,29,34,627,243,497,0.10300000000000001,0.7559999999999999,0.141,0.9673,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,3,0,3,4,22,23,0,2,25,1,55,9,2,6,6,87,95,39,2,13,15,0,5,2,2,5,6,4,5,4,34,27,0,3,9,1,1,2,10,4,0,0,14,22,42,17,64,66,14,44,0,0,12,1,53,32,0,15,12,281,76,6,0.08419011665532111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468088228473589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06732680587220892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05725216632773364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05886768708311468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07870639424237523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07029523078367113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18970686264139636,0.0883523333123293,0.07445931654437095,0.0,0.09351624030085644,0.0,0.0,0.08596752212442485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06721895753713221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0867963134960192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861721518374195,0.07367533843225586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703300394257079,0.0,0.0,0.08699089594171544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08044726435234666,0.0,0.0,0.07936694925413394,0.0,0.12770715783268727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04398586113348422,0.0,0.047847183457218674,0.07061467547745345,0.06733452720278306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789803141945293,0.0,0.0,0.16929258162770333,0.0,0.08444955144781506,0.08361978219281431,0.0,0.09714409103880517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14966408797089034,0.0,0.0,0.04626868635200202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08226207678147275,0.08438061442586932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157542651329175,0.07598486728303888,0.0,0.0,0.08535556412717288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08481268528074473,0.169687671723595,0.0,0.08500801791742674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12485180946165192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07900672128610814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911696920707368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08796075295190453,0.0,0.07958687288985562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09582678431595043,0.21573737816217206,0.0,0.08312758342577771,0.09038867801621052,0.0,0.07189789961666207,0.08008408028193388,0.2008540797244874,0.0,0.0,0.3354431142157123,0.07664352024335709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13928586898788345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09209032301205007,0.1910758933648764,0.0793481885985356,0.08750576702480599,0.0,0.13533765340521664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33559303534852164,0.05394562730481401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08044726435234666,0.0,0.11431912564912815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06946566334293176,0.09931502418803173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857969214346596,0.17941873001846315,0.09204867617666587,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,hardinmathclass,2020/02/06,"Taking a break from this sub With all due respect to people posting selfies, that’s not what I subscribe to this sub for. I’m very worried that the stream of selfies will drown out calls for help, and with that in mind, I’m going to unsubscribe for a bit until this all dies down.",11.164210526315793,6.061518140350884,9.809210526315793,75.49697368421053,60.57894736842106,12.101754385964911,40.780701754385966,7.1686216300943375,3.1835333333333318,222,7,46,1,2,69,41,57,0.105,0.797,0.098,-0.10099999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,8,5,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,14,4,3,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,30,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36847013173062937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3446322902088276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3502788866678471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19181295456017566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22622376714653045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3407857662640736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.233984795014924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32323832384414564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537631927458203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27847854698080426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34275464964674063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Cerebell_Pons,2020/02/06,"PTSD-related psychosis Hello, last year I was diagnosed with schizophrenia after a psychotic break following a new job and fears of a repeat of my traumatizing past.
I spent about three months on a psych ward and stabalized under zyprexa. Right now I'm down to 2.5 mg of zyprexa daily and free from psychotic symptoms.

I'm trans and I lost my first job due to transitioning. I was heavily gaslit by my then-boss and was deeply traumatized by the events. Previously I have already dealt with rape, sexual assault, years of mobbing, violence and a difficult family history. Today, my therapist suggested that I might not have schizophrenia but rather PTSD-related psychosis. Is there anyone here that can relate? What does this mean for my prognosis?

Thank you for any and all input!",5.856304347826086,8.511794702898552,5.8254347826086965,73.77989130434786,69.3623188405797,10.397101449275363,31.78985507246377,10.504223727775694,4.090481159420291,631,28,101,20,12,198,98,138,0.132,0.828,0.04,-0.8590000000000001,2,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,2,5,7,2,1,6,0,8,3,0,0,1,15,15,8,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,9,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,5,0,2,5,0,12,3,18,9,1,19,0,1,0,1,4,4,0,1,13,64,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033128043271992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12528913758392354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288245007880329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869991542026792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16122917621214206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17368454789632232,0.2073205925140017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15671397422608746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3656584327646976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15017973436295068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20111911356220266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20069076267452346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954489315718558,0.0,0.0,0.1470581639001119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1779395999936822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17587739337127906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4307320939737211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15733947577636906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914953230135995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1696229237395167,0.0,0.21391619102296333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746374473264439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372883186962737
schizophrenia,vanityandloathing,2020/02/06,"I don’t have schizophrenia... But I want you to know that you are understood.

I have other mental illnesses but aI want you to know I am trying to understand and be compassionate. 

I feel sorry for how stigmatised you are. Sending hugs.",2.1471212121212133,5.020300681818182,3.629090909090909,82.10530303030306,87.63636363636363,7.4787878787878785,23.24242424242424,8.344100000000001,2.16090606060606,186,7,33,5,6,61,30,44,0.076,0.684,0.24,0.8248,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,1,0,11,14,4,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,9,2,4,12,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,26,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957989525869881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4256312870340496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3902443953133756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4334807604534304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26290889378438265,0.0,0.0,0.4031279711703717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4568055082153921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,FearLoveAnger,2020/02/06,"Remembering the good times. I remember when I was adept at conversations, skillful in my thinking, open minded to all sorts of possibilities, masterful in MTG and WoW. Now all I have is memories and a broken mind. It sucks that I lost so much of myself only to be left a broken shell of a man. Maybe I’ll become open minded again. But not the others. No, there’s nothing left to fulfill those attributes. Nothing but a long list of negatives to fill an old, used to be positive mind.",4.508663594470047,6.060618268817207,5.705407066052231,77.82096774193552,70.61290322580646,8.755145929339479,28.3394777265745,9.23628265651192,2.4669090629800308,381,14,71,8,7,127,67,93,0.098,0.7879999999999999,0.114,0.5409,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,5,4,1,0,7,0,5,0,0,2,2,19,9,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,6,2,12,5,3,14,0,1,0,0,2,7,1,1,6,49,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17518407382413168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13304349684769515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3446836559553755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14037430625819214,0.0,0.0,0.17315320485926838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593557885420593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6406466580696569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11660444757337475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30440163220583155,0.0,0.16644571599914,0.0,0.0,0.12063817138951165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788209783582464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3593726080297606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10163772399643103,0.0,0.0,0.0924929914396842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13699733476269815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,itzc,2020/02/06,I cant cry Why cant I cry I feel like I have no emotions also before my illness I use to write rap songs but now I cant even think propley to write one and is  anyone from New Zealand on here,-1.3346666666666671,0.3805604222222243,1.8177777777777813,98.06000000000004,89.22222222222223,4.488888888888889,17.88888888888889,5.6839178017228535,-0.5486444444444443,149,4,38,1,5,53,33,45,0.127,0.784,0.09,-0.1157,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,0,7,8,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,7,1,4,8,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22397929225131252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958379388200013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23832683125748025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6153078565288295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3150514828299815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18498971735390915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416164951252053,0.20008868754228848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368325847182574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705023057264226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897889628960828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17946348809000615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24189856471413504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527279790103518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,dragoono,2020/02/06,"How can I help my boyfriend with his referential delusions? There's a particular singer he loves, and we listen to him together occasionally. Usually its fine, we're just hanging out and sharing some tunes, but sometimes the singer will say something that throws him into how he's singing about a period of time in my boyfriend's life. He feels like he knows him, even though they've never met, and he brings it up enough that its a little concerning to me. How can I help walk him through this, into accepting it as a delusion? I don't want to be rude, but I also don't want to lie to him. I usually just nod and listen when he talks about it, I don't feed into it besides maybe a ""wow"" or something. I don't really know what to say.",5.186681681681684,5.3631713918918935,5.8125225225225226,82.67902402402405,68.18918918918922,9.280480480480481,29.95795795795796,9.150863307647796,2.239105705705705,578,20,122,10,9,188,90,148,0.047,0.826,0.127,0.8824,1,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,1,0,0,0,12,7,1,0,6,0,8,3,0,3,1,26,18,14,0,2,5,0,1,1,0,1,1,4,0,0,10,10,1,0,4,1,0,4,5,1,0,0,1,5,17,6,18,15,2,17,0,0,0,1,23,7,0,2,7,79,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16136875183176588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20849960304794551,0.0,0.13327821286986208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10202941900317493,0.14415645946468555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27050674430718674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217933873081588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14252791440995893,0.09858278943539332,0.2022432856022446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18212037586989835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202721863062182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15563034351425345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292697276607977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3209377674124627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106905215673522,0.19957220689429667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16218850666473347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19825440913861594,0.0,0.11766344803909265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4444790857323673,0.0,0.23803804864563835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Raktagino,2020/02/06,"I came to this thread for help, and it's just a bunch of selfies? I have questions to ask, but it's all just selfies.",1.3738461538461522,2.276581769230773,2.6415384615384627,99.27846153846157,77.46153846153847,5.2,24.538461538461537,3.1291,-0.09755384615384656,90,3,23,0,2,29,20,26,0.0,0.915,0.085,0.2144,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,3,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,4,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,17,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.474221833473493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5801730063686527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400072688957665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5682499383512857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,kai-leon_the_flame,2020/02/06,"I’m very scared I could develop schizophrenia. Please read Im a 17 year old girl and I have a big fear of schizophrenia. My grandpa had it and so I guess it’s in my genetics? I’ve just seen what it can do to some people (not all) and it terrifies me. 
I often can’t sleep at night because I’ll be looking at my hallway or around my room terrified that maybe if I concentrate hard enough or am in the headspace. I’ll see something. 
I have no hallucinations currently and I don’t have any delusions
But I do have major depression and anxiety so the symptoms of that. 
Basically why I’m posting is I’m wondering, can I develop schizophrenia just like this? If I focus hard enough will I see something I’m so scared",0.9505363984674348,3.4374358275862065,2.8509770114942548,88.97033524904217,87.27586206896551,6.53256704980843,25.296934865900386,7.793537801064563,1.6709233716475098,565,25,117,12,18,188,87,145,0.19699999999999998,0.769,0.034,-0.9688,1,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,3,4,0,16,2,1,0,1,20,26,13,0,3,8,1,2,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,8,6,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,6,16,1,8,21,5,12,0,1,4,0,2,7,0,8,5,74,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11280153972628534,0.0,0.12689487901235555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476650323851099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1011166238151862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13243869001532085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14286897307454882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34278902035681313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18665690021914527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827313930001105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2971850813500307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17917481702869273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08103875815732264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13929427495900526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16664499075332442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15566362605010042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17405922343565408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11499770760054133,0.0,0.0,0.1820823133591934,0.0,0.0,0.1588635973048901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1659211408037922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.332142131865336,0.0,0.26436379407905913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16599604617980052,0.0,0.0,0.25539928605458656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17240893905784307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13686528014215435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14967751733097304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798857198491941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10681886803663224
schizophrenia,LordDunarote,2020/02/06,How can you post pictures of yourselves? I would never be able to do it due to paranoia.,1.125,3.451149277777777,2.342222222222226,94.30000000000004,84.0,3.6,25.66666666666667,3.1291,0.248133333333334,69,3,14,0,2,22,17,18,0.111,0.889,0.0,-0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,3,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,12,3,0,0.5757493810620979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4440534164985631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5514087552287852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4089958412497693,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Naughtybuttons,2020/02/06,"What A Shaman Sees In A Mental Hospital I love this complete opposite perspective on mental illness.  Instead they embrace and create community around it.  There is so much unlearning to accept this way of looking at things.  Would love to hear thoughts!


https://youtu.be/75hRayELiyM",7.911590909090911,11.97348879545455,5.5420000000000025,71.00300000000003,70.13636363636364,8.974545454545455,36.07272727272728,9.3871,4.617041818181818,233,12,29,6,5,66,39,44,0.051,0.6559999999999999,0.294,0.9184,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,5,8,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,3,7,6,1,5,0,0,2,2,4,4,0,0,0,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2332218913090826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746859314675018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2952757522036875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22000113181665093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4729027682976556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5280378355150731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925888693882152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2087678546941496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17405096689249386,0.0,0.0,0.20798655601214208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20795122866848725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861063857055661,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,keyvin,2020/02/06,"To everyone posting selfies, please consider This is a sub intended for help and support. Right now, any post looking for help and support is buried under a fire hose of people seeking neither. Even sorting by new the selfies make it hard to see the posts of people who feel overwhelmed, suicidal, having med issues, are coping with active psychosis, etc.   


Please consider that when people start posting selfies it makes it hard for people to seek and give support. It prevents anything else from reaching people's front page, and even sorting by new people seeking help are hard to find.",10.545145631067962,9.821652058252427,8.826524271844663,68.47163106796118,57.54368932038835,10.181747572815537,43.9009708737864,8.841846274778883,4.3719413592233005,474,24,68,5,5,143,66,103,0.091,0.6809999999999999,0.228,0.9287,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,4,0,5,0,0,3,0,13,15,5,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,7,0,3,14,15,3,12,0,1,2,0,5,2,0,2,5,40,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07650611379163891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09258064438468347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09398208564672587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12547093790254912,0.1486147603070393,0.0,0.0,0.10750174107883977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056885057665910975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102825994010094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10792343354314056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023426236837722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262258067222746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11742423417282592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09447445200124514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501936760450719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12496582366627085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21731281015541398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.467973809124229,0.0,0.0,0.24698971696850336,0.0,0.0,0.4309883174378285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09607721842287058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08965057818040094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07963042716592413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230603692991749,0.3830022943655215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,twoversionss,2020/02/06,"Y’all should try r/ACIM Helped me a lot, no hate or pressure just suggestions",1.7880000000000005,4.557609466666668,1.495000000000001,97.7025,87.66666666666666,5.666666666666668,20.833333333333336,7.1686216300943375,0.5643333333333334,62,2,13,1,2,18,15,15,0.44799999999999995,0.552,0.0,-0.7964,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6113823159986874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4150709989287424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5264651911379652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4204308885565411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,userman3,2020/02/06,Shit I think I need help I dont know what to say here but I really believe (know) all I do is monitored and controlled. I want to believe I am crazy an wrong but jesus fucking christ stop showing me I am right,-1.1550476190476182,0.8948571777777801,1.3393650793650806,96.91,99.44444444444444,4.34920634920635,19.761904761904766,6.1826913282559595,0.10052380952380968,163,6,37,2,7,55,32,45,0.27699999999999997,0.6509999999999999,0.07200000000000001,-0.8877,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,1,0,5,2,1,1,1,11,11,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,9,0,2,11,1,2,2,0,0,1,2,1,2,0,1,23,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5589882013628269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27823574011715035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907405198907138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22934013118158145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662785668206141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726696272682191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18394349955538727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15892235961643245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21185357782472264,0.0,0.19727815711445126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25464408029388325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074007148184814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15895560528829922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463202911222972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712296393361779,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,discrepancy00,2020/02/06,"Ideas of reference? Coping strategies? So, diagnosed schizoaffective, bipolar type. Also, my first post ever so, hi. 

During a very hurried psychiatrist appointment with my newest doctor, (first session with her, my previous doc retired), I attempted to explain this weird thing I've been experiencing. She said the symptom was called ""ideas of reference."" 

Googled it. Yep, I totally agree. That's definitely what it is. 

She was in a ridiculous rush to get out of there so sent a script and that was it.

So, this symptom is literally driving me insane, horribly interfering with my functioning. 

Basically, I have a habit of interpreting random things in the world as holding significant, life altering implications for me. However, unlike how the Google results talked about this almost exclusively regarding persecutory delusions. Mine are literally exclusively religious, relating to my ""salvation"" or ""damnation."" Or, more generally to the condition of my soul. 

My thinking is very black and white, whereas I'm either a cherished child of God OR an agent of the devil to incite the apocalypse. 

This absolutely consumes me! I just can't freaking stop thinking about it. So, with these ""signs"" (ex. song lyrics I hear on the radio, the fact that it's raining outside, Panera Bread is out of my favorite soup) I become convinced I'm either saved or damned. And literally almost anything can make me think that. 

I go through this vicious cycle a thousand times a day, every day. Basically ""sign"" happens so I believe I'm saved. Read the bible. Say a prayer. Buy ten books about god. Then, another ""sign"" happens. Apparently I was wrong before, I'm actually damned. Return books about God. Buy the satanic bible. Delete Christian apps. Then, ""sign"" happens. Start thinking maybe god does love me. And it repeats literally 10 times a day. 

It is exhausting!!!! I'm beyond frustrated with myself. Btw, i didn't have a very religious childhood. Parents were pretty apathetic about it. 

I'm starting therapy again in a month. Next psychiatrist appointment is March. Started the new antipsychotic tonight. 

Help!!",4.5988646662584225,8.04205836901409,5.335838946723823,70.55283374157995,80.80281690140845,8.495407225964481,32.787813839559085,8.964715089967882,4.0357703612982245,1671,89,244,48,46,539,210,355,0.085,0.7859999999999999,0.13,0.932,3,0,0,0,0,0,88.0,0,0,0,3,18,15,5,0,23,1,18,9,0,3,3,46,42,19,0,0,7,2,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,1,21,11,1,2,10,5,2,4,2,10,0,4,9,7,28,5,33,33,4,37,4,0,2,1,16,8,2,7,24,153,49,7,0.0,0.0,0.11136276068852063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285454970373943,0.0,0.0,0.09126016795680914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11966273159471838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09390943639708484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12603442678007384,0.09710606025474794,0.12857197013084096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11652729408843285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207901156305104,0.0,0.0,0.11582742442417546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11680466566034865,0.09986547961839064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10322631481154412,0.09614938384418728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19413751985434652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05962197408244509,0.0,0.06485592093666293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027426594679631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12861934268249695,0.0,0.0764909272665759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576507888977081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08060495765095259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10299600078441193,0.0,0.07617468835706499,0.0,0.11464692551417585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09108794335313722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021592936189302,0.12136584693556565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12671459595350582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10929355226817357,0.11609908888349373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11414893772064952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1085524037939346,0.0907512582990033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24232004167541366,0.0,0.0,0.0954078044786802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372247099032384,0.0,0.09172377049999557,0.0,0.0,0.13050394224195144,0.0,0.15162993092316662,0.29248896896829624,0.0,0.0,0.13308631204658147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28247804222020434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12477017941455562,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,amormortpau,2020/02/06,Sleeping Anyone else have trouble sleeping it’s just started lately for me. When I close my eyes I see demons I guess you can call them. They flash and then disappear then I open my eyes and they are not there. I have tried sleep aids and my sleeping pills don’t  work anymore. I haven’t slept in days.,1.3810772833723668,3.841383360655741,1.542997658079628,99.52114754098362,84.24590163934425,4.141451990632318,20.18969555035129,5.288315135182226,-0.399938641686183,239,7,52,1,7,71,44,61,0.084,0.9159999999999999,0.0,-0.5574,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,3,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,6,8,7,0,0,8,10,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,3,14,0,2,9,0,10,1,0,3,0,5,3,0,1,6,32,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19710908231685612,0.1389723753645302,0.2036454327292862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029485333263752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281789257778731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16603221772025747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21894829597642645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22420148695303765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15838001692308526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7955841818569082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14067804868757364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134939907003859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14469419352232288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,MarsupialsRooinedIt,2020/02/06,"Struggling with time (memory issues) Does anyone else have issues with perception of time / memory loss? 

I've always had some memory issues but lately I've noticed it's gotten worse. I've been off my meds for about 2 months now due to insurance issues and such (but starting it again next weekend after finally getting a psychiatrist)

But I'm struggling with my memories. I was talking to my roommate last night and he noted last week me and him were in the kitchen for a few hours just talking and I LITERALLY do not recall any of this. I've been blacking out like on Saturday he found me on the couch knocked out but I remember staying awake just browsing my phone on the couch? 

Also loosing track of time I suppose. I had dinner with my roommate yesterday and then today when I think about it being yesterday it messes me up and I could have sworn it was like a few weeks ago we had dinner??

anyways just mainly posting here to see if anyone else struggles with it and if it's just a schizophrenic thing. Looking for others to relate to but I do plan to bring it up to my psych",3.364432526814668,5.555941222748816,4.455744574706912,82.89680718383639,75.1611374407583,7.096133699176852,26.27113993514592,8.032893268588372,1.799572511848341,862,32,157,14,19,281,118,211,0.076,0.893,0.032,-0.8446,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,2,13,7,0,3,7,0,14,4,0,0,0,33,23,17,0,3,12,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,11,15,3,0,4,1,0,1,1,5,0,0,10,3,19,2,30,11,4,38,0,1,3,0,7,9,0,3,28,112,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10588203470575866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09552125022279744,0.09938898104467923,0.0,0.0,0.0812276541971831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16703941305567385,0.24477392334513384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09536823824387587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045283575607996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1995642955916703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308477027025425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309668223445866,0.0,0.0,0.06240581879930074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117630652341687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.498684071902329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19472953147414526,0.13474075221284298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11671096405501034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10030490031849157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13267803327293487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09534098417869316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12703261119484846,0.11209236344254256,0.0,0.0,0.1359905284747571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11439664190501475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13530949685323074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09518332329423553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08454478316626438,0.12731397927725382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37461396424129945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19201299821089807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07935488667866633,0.07653643593295642,0.0,0.0,0.2089504851708247,0.0,0.11322122934886705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19162540900815844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12172609549101915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,MUMUQ-Q,2020/02/06,I appreciated you guys' confidence❤ I'm too scared to follow the trend.,1.5828571428571436,4.33182442857143,4.84,72.83000000000003,90.42857142857142,8.514285714285714,21.285714285714285,8.841846274778883,2.3432571428571443,58,2,11,2,2,21,13,14,0.191,0.5920000000000001,0.217,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7031838837401327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7110080348689061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,cumrag6942069,2020/02/06,"I’ve got some questions Trigger warning self harm and stuffs 

So I’m 15m not diagnosed with schizophrenia but I’ve been trying to set up a meeting with a psychiatrist because the doctor I’d go to for my depression medication couldn’t “properly” make a diagnosis of anything. But I’ve been having visual and auditory hallucinations. Just little ones like seeing a rat or something small run across my room out of the corner of my eye or hearing my name being called. But recently it’s been getting worse. Like seeing people, not full people and they’re gonna almost the second I notice them, or hearing conversations just loud enough to hear them, but not loud enough to make out any words. I saw a giant leg of beam or light thing out my window the other day. It was so ominous, it looked like a long skinny demon leg or a beam of light bringing things up to the sky. I took my phone out and looked at it through my camera and it was on the camera too. It started moving in my direction and I freaked out and hid under the blankets on my bed. Not sure why but I thought it was going to hurt me. But yesterday was a whole different story, I started feeling like I was being watched, but then it evolved to thinking there were cameras in my room and people outside my windows looking in on me. I didn’t see or hear anything. But it felt like no matter where I went there were 10000 pairs of eyes on me. I hid in my closet, I was on the verge of passing out because I was breathing so fast and so shallow breaths. It ended in me cutting the fuck out of my left forearm thinking it’s the only thing I have power over in my life and that some outside force was controlling everything else. That feeling came back in English class today, obviously I couldn’t cut during English class so I just sat through it. I don’t know what’s wrong or if what’s going on is even schizophrenia or what the psychiatrist is going to tell me. What’s going on? What are they going to tell me? I’m worried to get on meds because I feel like they’d just push me down and make me another bystander. But I don’t want to deal with think I’m being watched by something or that I’m the lab-rat in some shitty experiment. I know it’s not bad yet because I’m here stating that I feel this way and know somethings wrong. Does anybody know what’s going on with me?",3.9964705882352938,5.1583400127388535,4.919653428250283,84.46471056575498,71.37791932059449,7.1547645809916345,28.71493693018609,7.39963492309942,1.5944814037717,1850,70,368,19,34,603,217,471,0.124,0.818,0.057999999999999996,-0.9878,2,0,3,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,4,2,18,17,3,0,20,0,27,13,8,5,2,83,79,37,0,4,28,0,5,6,0,1,4,6,6,1,29,24,1,1,14,0,0,15,11,10,0,2,22,24,47,7,58,50,7,72,1,2,11,1,18,42,1,15,18,244,76,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07973514352530225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054149229827084935,0.08349606710276555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13105280981802314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06122840543096854,0.06648539001412603,0.19416001999949709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08130827900088587,0.09107230941206056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08930868107114254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051352959730045535,0.08209215177527603,0.06858279485320386,0.08081993677711029,0.0,0.08319348127529037,0.0,0.08150181825134792,0.06968230355720081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06651831210735876,0.0,0.07052606888518499,0.16455237659470578,0.0,0.052593017817371364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07156379732193012,0.07789068560004964,0.0,0.0,0.16104762919561738,0.11377138210156472,0.07645460386340514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07361406778254273,0.08320385607856054,0.0,0.3167778286572889,0.0,0.06368514979729914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3589825879524003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08524256967446595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17504411740369116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08651519104900353,0.0,0.056243049637491035,0.23341098096765805,0.07980737807092703,0.0,0.07046757056488409,0.20060039233475246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15945533264613726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08844787391325308,0.0802160316734528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846311171551812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09065610048039192,0.0,0.0,0.05395745477051612,0.060560077423092336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16561043351605728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892006929671398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862225848582664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19035771867497905,0.0,0.08306854070033086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839027375663639,0.0,0.0,0.11272109085503725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09115409890446867,0.0,0.0,0.07504769821615709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13919537348946207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15870233010426152,0.15306569297516448,0.0,0.06321510620100047,0.0,0.0,0.07547727962737975,0.0,0.08846875444645398,0.05406164522203756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04696618848669787,0.06320436886381986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07381521664116554,0.07185116715223096,0.08890093055684234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08086529171553013,0.08114692447840588,0.0,0.1741196968176456,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,icymoons,2020/02/06,"This sub is for help and advice. When the mods decide to crack down on the selfie train... Come over to r/schizoverse and post selfies all you like. It was created for all things relating to schizophrenia, especially this type of thing. We'd be happy to have you!",3.0694000000000017,5.583051140000002,3.414000000000001,88.397,77.6,6.4,22.0,7.554174236665415,0.8984000000000001,207,6,40,3,5,64,41,50,0.0,0.797,0.203,0.8805,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,2,6,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,10,3,2,6,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,29,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3924233504431423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3459291572884355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4274937589604101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.269173367957755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19619371430429808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3846065750721567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5335892850082528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Playthehand,2020/02/06,How long were you on abilify 5mg before going on to 10 mg? thoughts?,-1.0380000000000005,1.0296988666666709,2.2816666666666663,92.0625,93.66666666666666,5.666666666666668,20.833333333333336,7.1686216300943375,0.7823333333333333,53,2,12,1,2,19,13,15,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,6,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5424762844348233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3623131133218776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5641786071792797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5061138092781554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,thunderfan4202,2020/02/06,Forgetting things What do you do once you start forgetting things?  I've been forgetting things for a long time and just considered it a character flaw.   Now I've been forgetting whole conversations at work and it's now a problem.  Like I have absolutely no recollection of even talking to the person.   I looked it up and it says it's very common in schizophrenia to lose short term memory.  Is there any way to combat it? Medicine or therapy?  Do any of you have this problem?,3.077191011235953,5.9136985730337095,3.923696629213485,82.78352247191012,80.12359550561797,8.503820224719101,25.753932584269663,9.120678840339163,2.5819564044943832,379,15,71,11,10,121,58,89,0.154,0.818,0.027999999999999997,-0.8873,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,2,5,4,0,0,4,0,8,0,0,0,0,12,10,4,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,11,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,2,5,1,9,8,2,12,0,1,1,0,7,4,0,1,8,48,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29462144231430715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430771112949933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10583080634185316,0.0,0.0,0.19170408648939616,0.18190833340630705,0.2423451558561718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306958815171535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891464023066526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4145569338777829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722668982351846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15332651301321826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17411295154068074,0.0,0.0,0.2477266955727882,0.0,0.4317430695068848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263143156554793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17873624037437197,0.0,0.17194484921288633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418512734842251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15770375231254707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,c00fer,2020/02/06,Does anyone relate to this Having thoughts that pretend it’s me thinking them but in reality I don’t think I’m controlling them. Mostly paranoid stuff. I don’t see things but I smell and feel things sometimes. I hear things too sometimes. Sometimes I just have waves of lightheaded ness where my whole body feels numb and like I’m going to faint. I just cut myself and I’m starting to have thoughts I cannot control.,2.2159259259259265,5.0095291728395095,2.4282592592592596,92.0801666666667,84.43209876543209,4.721481481481481,24.14938271604938,6.2581,0.6938879012345676,337,13,64,3,10,102,55,81,0.127,0.83,0.044000000000000004,-0.6369,0,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,0,2,2,4,3,1,0,0,0,6,3,1,2,0,16,19,5,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,7,3,0,2,6,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,5,12,1,5,17,2,4,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,2,41,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255697956705697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19947811385690895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4028390160874249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15715577851456075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1816068374044598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10206212181654684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20240500529851288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877360117639916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14310575257252975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5328415718035293,0.0,0.1271109728296526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20558151276336065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35792427871068394,0.2301412450066925,0.0,0.2851403791708389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20049990082289265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,AnonymouslyHereAnon,2020/02/06,"What’s happening with the flood of selfies??? I’m really just truing to find posts of help or advice or even just relating vents.

Why is there a sudden rush of selfies? What happened?",2.457857142857144,5.177175285714289,3.668214285714289,84.34803571428574,81.85714285714286,6.928571428571428,23.035714285714285,8.07648339933343,1.6702857142857144,145,5,26,3,4,47,29,35,0.0,0.894,0.106,0.5661,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,4,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,16,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34666971996611645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23431722513638506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3242464145359125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6274304528761605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23778976451548214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3397643221964946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272698832568437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3201178941353781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,youngman77,2020/02/07,"I feel like my body is designed to make me kill myself Every time I look in the mirror I see a perfectly crafted amalgamation of awful traits.  My skin is pimply, my forehead is too big, my arms are almost freakishly skinny compared to the rest of my body.  I don’t remember the last time I could make eye contact with myself in my reflection.  I feel like my existence is a result of hundreds of recessive traits that should have been seeded out of the gene pool by now, and my body recognizes this and knows it shouldn’t exist.  I’m trying to be okay with myself but I don’t even feel like a living thing, just like a puppet fueled by some pointless drive to keep suffering because it’s what I deserve.",7.406341212744088,6.313195266187048,7.689537512846866,75.3001438848921,63.964028776978424,10.5327852004111,32.806783144912636,9.606745405546679,2.9074164439876657,558,18,105,9,7,183,87,139,0.075,0.8220000000000001,0.10300000000000001,0.4208,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,1,4,8,1,0,8,2,13,8,8,3,1,23,23,3,1,3,2,0,4,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,5,1,1,6,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,7,20,6,16,18,2,9,0,1,3,0,1,4,0,2,8,72,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682920116645181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10245037164876217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5600442905174261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13418558196270652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11100481389595288,0.0,0.14160133047639656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549349160185363,0.36019527746223423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493831761091934,0.18593812788594674,0.0,0.09236368477395177,0.13699474787069008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3284307002317045,0.0,0.14840376079000006,0.0,0.14113159339831222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22436830666465832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1903839676046203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13392540183787666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11165438144439307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19599916401473755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11410455447945712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Ginkotree48,2020/02/07,"What "" help"" are selfies taking away from besides self help I am sorry but why are people complaining about selfies. So that it doesnt drown out the help?! Dude every single post has a equal number of comments saying contradicting things. 

Every post has someone saying take your meds and someone saying dont take your meds. 

Every  post has someone explaining their delusions to help someone navigate their own and equally so, someone feeding into the original poster's delusions.

Every post has a clear well thought out response and also has a rambling nonsensical response.

I dont not literally mean every single post but I do seriously mean 90+%

If every post is giving helpful  responses, while also unhelpful responses, and even neutral responses... I can only assume everyone posting is at their own will to choose what comments are helpful. They are on their own because they are almost always given an equal selection of helpful and unhelpful. They need to make themselves feel better. 

People posting selfies are making themselves feel better.",6.42917052214144,9.616549061797752,6.193529411764711,69.3073529411765,69.61797752808988,7.559021810971581,34.627891606080645,8.4952907291091,3.6554576338400535,855,43,108,15,17,267,99,178,0.040999999999999995,0.74,0.218,0.9887,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,7,2,7,5,0,0,6,0,20,1,0,3,1,26,34,13,1,2,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,5,8,1,0,8,0,0,0,4,2,1,0,2,5,13,3,13,31,8,16,0,0,0,0,25,6,0,3,2,81,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07635857283406022,0.0,0.0,0.1219625198852796,0.06345043929369734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07164427532924643,0.0,0.0,0.0464844652342337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348830641382872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787410648411464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05036584376745253,0.0,0.3854897947789429,0.07286511628750401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07711384578986782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315094115080839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3577857959644498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10180188302853473,0.0,0.0,0.1661285465968998,0.16940468465024455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056542268331733474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057995519645363224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057315155368371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5842512605564584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819235991897028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07955080952820377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230539389831509,0.0,0.0,0.08536145896804427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17200327240133773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05066056988349117,0.0,0.0,0.060538115034936835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06856258723811154,0.0,0.06880846183546223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,fireicenwhiskey,2020/02/07,vraylar does anyone take vraylar (a newer antipsychotic) i feel like it doesnt do anything but at least it isn't making me fat and tired all the time like all the others ive tried. if u take it does it work for you?,1.6241304347826109,3.2284503260869606,3.2602173913043515,92.17119565217396,78.34782608695652,5.469565217391305,20.195652173913047,5.985473137389443,-0.1050260869565216,169,4,38,1,4,56,35,46,0.08199999999999999,0.8109999999999999,0.107,0.0387,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,0,4,2,1,1,2,7,8,3,0,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,2,2,8,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,4,23,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20792436704599213,0.0,0.2447058753999095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5204518427502499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15035656670817052,0.2124374570166003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.290554820380953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19849329857451387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4471626115204231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733957935568826,0.3417770685021275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20189116491264544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164851001822767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,NoNoSquare24,2020/02/07,"How can I tell the difference? I have multiple mental disorders/ illnesses, is there a way to tell what is which or maybe it's all the same/ connected?
I have anxiety, depression, schizophrenia, OCD, ADD/ADHD, and bipolar disorder. I've also tried placing when each may have started, but I've come to learn they can all have similar symptoms at times.",5.576250000000003,7.612037875000002,6.180125,73.55237500000003,68.6875,10.745,34.675,10.793553405168565,4.422035,280,14,47,9,5,91,50,64,0.133,0.867,0.0,-0.7193,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,9,3,0,1,2,11,11,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,10,4,7,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,2,3,33,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708861076312744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18025170600616575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724298162076757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19416150343394245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941360515157209,0.0,0.0,0.23549425189220674,0.5166541570326876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2264438514081227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271494386236557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23549425189220674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15953875566008288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23427613395974498,0.0,0.0,0.3940177745211536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13143212054912376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15303130128065665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17891144034052073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Reasonableextent9,2020/02/07,"We know that drugs trigger schizophrenia if you’re prone to it, but does it trigger other diseases as well? Such as depression, OCD, bipolar disorder.",6.989615384615385,9.28717334615385,5.818461538461538,76.50153846153847,65.53846153846153,8.276923076923078,39.92307692307692,8.841846274778883,4.015138461538462,121,7,18,2,2,36,23,26,0.259,0.662,0.08,-0.7876,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,6,1,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,12,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37495731401708815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4989368370383591,0.0,0.3809685713779398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5048556634894746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23925122997926995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3914225350302524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,schizocore,2020/02/07,"wishing to be majorly psychotic again. i know a lot of people experience this with schizo disorders, but it feels suffocating. i constantly think about being really psychotic again, when i knew everything and could easily travel between dimensions. i know i was in hell then, but i miss it so much. almost everything feels too numb now with the medicines, nothing excites me, i feel like a bland person now! i just want to know everything like i used to, and to be able to tell when bad is coming because i can barely even tell that anymore and it drives me crazy i need to know and i need to know who to be wary of everything is so muddled... how can i alleviate these feelings or will they always be there?",3.8369154228855713,6.122100477611941,4.879925373134332,79.96501243781096,74.07462686567162,8.944278606965174,27.58457711442786,9.516144504307137,2.774006965174129,560,22,103,15,12,183,84,134,0.16,0.753,0.087,-0.9242,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,0,14,7,1,0,3,0,12,1,0,2,0,31,30,13,0,5,4,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,7,7,0,0,11,1,0,3,0,4,0,0,2,4,16,3,15,21,3,12,1,1,0,0,5,1,1,3,10,76,23,0,0.1444120886370305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14460784648700192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12016242635722835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14321798724214546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12057806191494833,0.08803226884858757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12439822724059288,0.0,0.15605816448224485,0.0,0.11530130185806785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16550876485465468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09538282256191327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5191530940869332,0.1412627331942413,0.0,0.0,0.2920763644505795,0.10316802497719428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3968255360626091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411049039433944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277399353404338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10615950141610096,0.2141594677708545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13856729386279942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001171590832102,0.12609506556392874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09251408186375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25244506137845724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09253343529404212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12472567776277142,0.0,0.0,0.08517799146632007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16606677497868844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,-Renton-,2020/02/07,"Amisulpride - How was it for you? I have been getting really sick again and in going from 20mg olanzapine to amisulpride, I just wanted to know how it worked for you? Thank you!",2.0755882352941164,4.756553911764708,2.995588235294118,88.72514705882355,83.41176470588233,5.752941176470588,20.264705882352946,7.1686216300943375,0.6135529411764713,139,4,27,2,4,44,26,34,0.11900000000000001,0.8109999999999999,0.07,-0.4108,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,6,8,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,6,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,21,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999513263593135,0.0,0.3262827138247118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155185207826062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3677926898409822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5285678419390872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3386278279536745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4179624665210906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,appleberrrrry,2020/02/07,"New to accepting this Hi all, I’m 41 and recently diagnosed. I am not on meds and probably won’t be going on them. I’m single and wondered how you guys are in your relationships. I get bad isolation days so I could be missing in my head for wknds or weeks. Meanwhile people are looking for me and to me it’s nothing because I need to be alone during mental breaks and all day crying episodes. 

I don’t know how I will date again. People get so angry at me for going MIA but I need that time to hide my crazy. I need that time to come unloose without anyone noticing. 

I don’t hear voices telling me things but the suicide feeling is strong. I just came down from an episode and I don’t even recognize that person. I missed work and now I must make up for it this week. Sometimes it’s sooooo soooo hard to even leave the house. My gym is in my building and I still can’t get to it all the time. 

I just need a hug sometimes but I haven’t any friends and have pushed family away. Most of my immediate family does drugs so I keep my distance because it makes me sad. I don’t have children and it feels like such a lonely path. People think I’m weird sometimes and guilt me for staying away. I feel like I can’t win sometimes. 

I guess time in a facility can help but I can’t imagine someone freaking me out and then strapping me to a bed like an animal and force feeding me pills nor electric shock therapy. There must be a recommendation for facilities who are more humane and less crazy sounding. 

I’m two seconds away from selling all my belongings and going to a live in spiritual volunteer place off grid.",2.0125230061349697,4.201091122699388,3.368401073619633,89.05787768404909,79.49079754601227,6.283588957055216,24.9114263803681,7.413659706084162,1.1683806748466252,1270,48,263,18,32,414,179,326,0.147,0.743,0.11,-0.7501,0,4,1,0,0,1,22.0,0,2,1,3,15,17,0,1,11,0,26,6,1,4,6,53,56,27,1,7,9,0,4,3,1,4,3,3,1,4,13,18,1,1,8,1,1,6,12,9,0,2,1,8,41,8,34,46,8,39,0,4,1,1,14,16,0,4,18,172,54,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933206912308648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652209293905796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06706130979666881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703270005950483,0.0,0.08007942017759803,0.11692961280611472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10969353914300692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08261650378469701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765749693756822,0.0,0.10535075847823867,0.123705831874096,0.0,0.0,0.09734490050409612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08392999521119482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112231732548366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12669304854225405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18082760968791772,0.0,0.14548234692112505,0.1370338101282329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07409851075507021,0.0,0.15032437690210854,0.0,0.1635206826552706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10565379966640036,0.09496429066514793,0.0,0.0,0.08591499395175096,0.0,0.09842958014587484,0.0,0.10809561879299333,0.0,0.06428530843405993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066529545948024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08524769925715872,0.0,0.0,0.0527086906770372,0.0,0.0,0.10155303627036316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14056784516871373,0.0,0.0846887815479957,0.0,0.08053881262310703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280390632169029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065324946940933,0.0,0.09665300342159594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844591417753901,0.0,0.09262882888951314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09202659565003486,0.10919222945807193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994722071797844,0.08374342378083786,0.10020375516584368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10340536332832603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09469787078425096,0.10296961608153818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08126278706325911,0.0,0.37942302423326396,0.0,0.0,0.10222548139477657,0.07659248822395719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10490810811144978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0838280771013903,0.0,0.10967949374762682,0.0,0.06371720951466585,0.06145416278638612,0.0,0.0,0.22369959219998925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09368846813004963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15386369819350829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924521738207327,0.10400845468179344,0.06982238097411286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,WyrdMagesty,2020/02/07,"The Selfie Situation I get why people like posting their selfies. It can be empowering and a fantastic boost to the self-esteem. It can make you feel human again, and for us that can be so incredibly rare and hard to find. The real problem is when we have 10 selfie posts for every post by someone needing help. The sheer number of selfies literally drown out those who need to talk or be heard. While selfies can be fantastic, they also have the potential to be extremely harmful, especially for those with mental illness and social obstacles. Many schizophrenics are incapable of putting themselves out there in the form of a selfie, and seeing other schizos able to do what they cant can be very alienating. On the flip side, those who do post can be ripped apart noticing that they dont receive the same attention as others who posted. Is that logical? Of course not. We're schizophrenic. Logical isnt really one of the things we are known for. There are subs for selfies and getting attention. r/selfie and r/toastme are 2 huge subs dedicated toward selfies and getting attention. This sub is an important safe space and support area for schizophrenics. 

So can we please stop the tidal wave of selfies? Maybe we could do a Selfie Sunday or Schizo Selfshot Saturday. Or a weekly selfie thread where everyone can post but it wont flood the main feed. Something. Schizophrenics are hurting as a direct result of this flood. Let's be the community we claim to be and work together to come up with a solution that serves us all.",5.539566483338728,7.578330761565838,5.68460207052734,77.056446942737,68.78647686832741,8.810158524749273,31.27806535101909,9.339509955726095,3.0422725978647684,1228,52,207,26,22,388,163,281,0.057,0.855,0.08800000000000001,0.7193,1,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,7,1,4,1,8,6,0,0,19,0,36,6,0,2,1,44,47,21,1,4,5,0,2,1,0,1,5,1,0,1,19,20,1,2,8,0,0,3,5,3,0,1,1,4,13,3,31,34,4,28,0,1,1,0,21,12,0,3,8,147,32,1,0.1147811084463034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09179041095523653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988737615125735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09164337527057444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13452260425397816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09670803433462488,0.10967826795678312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058036777216875376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10490785368481384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17990517524294442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10282132786056113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07693535750963129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12287555055111825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11737146004436852,0.0,0.05607625176912962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07661728117782156,0.11637002835720878,0.1153130510638668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11567236050905075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702174750535796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13067905273018085,0.0,0.0,0.07777864964165003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07957476830730542,0.0,0.0,0.12599518895407782,0.0,0.0,0.6595714407758607,0.0,0.0,0.10983001925581806,0.0,0.11538671674341484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13064603019450086,0.0735317172089592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914656826714966,0.0,0.11974172893908686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290187750335677,0.0,0.11700488533517725,0.09725366070777734,0.08836410497955563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09596214621892436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13025224164719099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09225670713802588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07625546820787506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27613508167155165,0.0,0.0,0.09470643531832557,0.0,0.0,0.09207048170589273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10357209731343207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356201398531264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,MuchaBienaEngrish,2020/02/07,"How did your hallucinations begin? Hey everyone, thank you for reading.

I'm Bipolar I and it went untreated for so long that my mania gave way to psychosis. I was hospitalized last year for a short time.

However, over the past few weeks I've started hallucinating. I'm not abusing substances, not even drinking alcohol or coffee. I'm taking my lithium religiously. 

But a few weeks ago I began noticing things. I would see a shape and it would be a person to me. That's not abnormal at all. It happens to everyone. But it started happening to me all the time, every day until I woke up a few nights ago and my bookcase was a person standing watching me.

I posted this because yesterday it happened but without a random shape to trigger it. I saw a person coming down the sidewalk at me. A light pole came between our fields of view as we were about 10 feet apart and I was ready to go around it on a side where I wouldn't bump into them.

But as I got to the pole they were gone, like they just walked into it and disappeared. I looked around and no one was anywhere around me anywhere. 

About 10 minutes before that I was also walking down the sidewalk after getting off the bus and I turned around to see how far I had walked since exiting the bus 5 minutes before. But there was the bus still right where it dropped me off, like I had walked for 5 minutes and only got about 50 yards.

I thought that was strange so I turned and looked again and it was gone. Like a light switch just blinked it away. It didn't drive past me. It just wasn't there. Then I hallucinated the person.

And I've begun hearing my name whispered. It happened three times today that I remember. But it's not random noises. It's clearly my name.

Anyway, I'm curious because this has never happened to me. Is this the way you experience things or experienced them initially?

Thanks",2.536090786919516,4.9868540276243145,3.6439077198745733,86.36357548155894,79.1657458563536,6.1234582648947296,25.805883231297607,7.329194593529364,1.3696608033447817,1466,58,281,20,37,473,177,362,0.022000000000000002,0.899,0.08,0.9631,1,0,2,1,0,0,37.0,2,3,4,0,23,5,0,0,21,0,21,4,1,3,4,52,57,28,0,3,16,0,0,3,0,3,2,2,1,4,26,20,2,0,2,3,0,12,10,0,0,2,26,12,41,5,39,27,5,70,0,0,7,0,18,26,0,4,30,197,67,1,0.0,0.10923370276588988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16344717342999493,0.09852634541238003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07372675824941613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32828548442667205,0.0,0.0,0.08661841641386894,0.0,0.0,0.11240006959191667,0.0,0.15689901058133796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544430223934556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07941615944832052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059456897948640126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903141023433835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06089264785548298,0.0,0.07767663085899243,0.17618884288050188,0.0,0.0901825049464906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048167069685974735,0.0,0.0523954416367456,0.0,0.14747042710866226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4076301005885972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1039082810875294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0751496502481389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13512261949885593,0.0,0.0,0.08158795858680676,0.1548379050685469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07110497281723561,0.0,0.0,0.08651694321272252,0.0,0.0,0.10496241196260936,0.0,0.0,0.06247240468170963,0.07011697791198282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17601741878785246,0.0,0.32199770220531554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08829546873186904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922180105973612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10443676710763344,0.07873237108173123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14693186802982788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07626305345541719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13050944737867007,0.0,0.07362549828045481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06931770893970884,0.0,0.0,0.16975796963769468,0.0,0.0,0.1224979474707823,0.0,0.0,0.07319099304039277,0.1612755472772375,0.0,0.08738824277776665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2005591547675278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463571225183212,0.14790342642540252,0.0,0.0,0.08546389197354741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08887082170198472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13098261197376182,0.0,0.0,0.05936930916024138
schizophrenia,thedevilislonely,2020/02/07,"If you experience twitching/spasms on 1 anti-psychotic, are you likely to experience it on them all? I'm curious to hear other people's experiences with this.

I've been put on 3 different anti-psychotics in the past; geodon, risperdol, and abilify. I began to have mild twitching a few weeks into taking geodon, which slowly progressed into twitching and full-body spasms so violent I couldn't function. I was switched to risperdol, which caused mild twitching and shakes, and then abilify, which instantly caused severe spasming. 

I've been told that basically ALL anti-psychotics have the risk of causing twitching/motor issues...... so, are you *more likely* to suffer that side-effect if you experienced them on 1 (or more) other anti-psychotics? Like, is it something you're sort of pre-disposed to?

I don't have to worry about it right now, but I'm worried that if I ever NEED to take anti-psychotics in the future that I won't be able to because of the severe reactions I seem to have to them,,,",7.309505928853753,7.867137934782607,7.479288537549407,71.23290513833994,63.67391304347826,9.51699604743083,34.66205533596837,9.339509955726095,3.3402782608695656,796,33,128,13,11,258,102,184,0.09300000000000001,0.8759999999999999,0.031,-0.8816,1,0,1,0,0,0,41.0,0,4,3,1,5,7,1,2,5,0,14,3,0,3,3,22,23,12,0,5,5,0,0,3,0,1,3,1,0,0,13,7,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,5,2,14,3,24,15,5,18,0,1,0,0,9,9,0,6,10,89,27,0,0.14860367096625635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09058741853162304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16506517814394195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4579707145423737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15525920748065425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442052810970068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4360887150414408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674871373648061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551036240429709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21780074211826625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101877390712014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14185901879315074,0.10302307450086083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14938773393041993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12690672304851947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352832008841217,0.0,0.3357596996772338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11440236602831412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234629332231736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14199717587867228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11920090121387784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018284825201601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,heavyboi77,2020/02/07,"Tea making my symptoms worse Why does tea increase my paranoia and auditory hallucinations?

I don't think it is the caffeine alone, because I don't have a similar experience when I drink coffee, coca cola, or take caffeine pills. Once I have one cup of tea, things start to go off the rails pretty quickly. It's an entirely different feeling.",5.429523809523811,7.517015444444446,6.555746031746036,70.50314285714288,69.15873015873015,8.84952380952381,34.822222222222216,9.3871,3.6729898412698416,275,14,44,6,5,92,51,63,0.11199999999999999,0.773,0.115,0.046,1,1,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,5,6,0,1,0,5,11,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,4,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,6,0,3,11,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,26,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.279591167097636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16456159224985886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28204471226375155,0.0,0.0,0.2362387648093705,0.0,0.0,0.2644523715724233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26406703591832176,0.0,0.0,0.1364969692965848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534212093227651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18019654395068704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28749244331547624,0.18292797190294627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27464050098327525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19107499258904048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28058580734779737,0.2029719838367628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17934559432498084,0.1729757695388669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435917027946847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275106421978739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,koffeekoala,2020/02/07,Online date So an online date is coming over and I just got a wave of paranoia. I'm not religious but send me your prayers or whatever good thoughts you have. Peace and love y'all,-0.14315315315315402,2.1260882432432453,1.1663513513513522,97.68394144144148,99.0,4.628828828828829,19.68018018018018,6.42735559955562,0.21498558558558534,143,5,31,2,6,45,33,37,0.033,0.6459999999999999,0.321,0.9423,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,8,7,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,5,2,2,5,0,5,0,0,0,1,5,1,0,1,2,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4584806457082065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4464205942356139,0.42568374694348377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4803705373713595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4225418854587253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,dumbfuck8,2020/02/07,"Harrison Bergeron Any time I have a slightly intelligent thought I feel that the universe finds a way to distract me from it. It reminds me of a short story by Kurt Vonnegut in which people who are exceptional in some way are handicapped by the government to prevent inequality; the people who are the smartest in this fictional world are implanted with microchips that play loud sounds when the host has bright ideas or questions the government.

I have had delusions that the government is using these techniques to distract me from what is really going on in the world. Maybe schizophrenia is just a label for the people who don’t fit into society’s mold for a model person.",12.080819672131147,9.590518557377052,10.562065573770493,62.79686885245904,56.049180327868854,13.694426229508196,45.71147540983608,11.979248473330829,5.540171803278688,552,26,87,12,5,172,80,122,0.035,0.8390000000000001,0.126,0.8809,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,14,0,12,0,0,1,0,13,16,2,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,12,2,0,1,5,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,4,6,2,18,14,1,15,0,0,1,0,5,10,0,3,2,66,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17471330070701108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12990564666226873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23481873436820955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1460126295220223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900295658596621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581090333647118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5343445430988696,0.22433120959741304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28780737128501904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16458848565146422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039644865529864,0.14981116677293774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218949808642132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4078596847476482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Arrowsmithtou,2020/02/07,"Can a relationship last through psychosis? We met in the hospital, now she's back.",3.0440000000000005,6.125569733333336,3.855,80.7825,85.0,8.333333333333334,34.16666666666667,8.841846274778883,3.801666666666668,66,4,12,2,2,21,15,15,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4954831500518282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5252500914181685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6918155747595766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,sunuggles9,2020/02/07,"Latuda I recently stood taking latuda which helped dull the voices but stood due to HB air loss what other meds work with less side effects besides alcoh
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schizophrenia,insecureboi10,2020/02/08,"I'm shaking right now and I need help. M17 I am using an alt account. I have a feeling that I might be developing schizophrenia ( or some kind of psychosis). I haven't  been diagnosed but right now my heart is racing and my whole body is shaking and I need someone's opinion. I remember having some hallucinations when I was younger when waking up during the night. I would see a spiderman sticker that I had on the wall move and sometimes shadows while some other times I would here people yelling my name who couldn't possibly be there like my uncle. I once even saw my mom standing in the room but she wasn't there. 

These hallucinations eventually stopped for many years but few months they returned, as I woke up during the night to 2 voices talking to each other and making fun of me. I did a bit of research and found out that it is normal to have hallucinations during sleep so I didn't pay much attention. Later however, I started having  visual/auditory hallucinations during my awake hours like a shadow hand crawling under the door the moment I looked, general movement around my peripheral vision, the sound of someone ringing the bell and then entering the house and people calling my name.

Right now it's 1 am and I was searching in this sub for people discussing the early symptoms of schizophrenia until I found this post where this guy's girlfriend was seeing shadow people behind door frames. And turns out it's a really stupid idea to real something like that at 1 am, because right now I feel really scared about shadow people watching me and also the possibility of developing schizophrenia. I'll try to get to sleep, if I don't respond to this ever again the shadow people got me.",7.673775687913617,7.800151112852667,7.671509926854759,71.62688174851971,62.9498432601881,9.5967258794845,34.02316266109369,9.150863307647796,3.047622640195055,1371,52,231,20,18,442,178,319,0.049,0.865,0.085,0.8715,1,0,1,0,1,0,22.0,0,0,1,0,17,9,1,3,18,0,26,8,6,2,1,46,44,24,0,7,5,1,3,3,1,3,2,4,3,1,15,15,0,1,7,0,2,5,5,4,0,0,13,12,34,5,29,25,8,47,0,0,5,0,13,17,0,7,26,162,49,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08026707464641937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0893519398841204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06118555182960698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10957971253455102,0.11149014042235687,0.0,0.0,0.10249055225679793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187498807538747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06629444759118902,0.09079179341828927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10150172072715376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201043994046964,0.0,0.0,0.052439980677083886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0802762800232308,0.0,0.0,0.09938359306959782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894074390272667,0.06727691945061763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09884573673601026,0.1158152671265958,0.0,0.11330723780252552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10452150078353298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14710937579871528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08428680427116618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06699877431102258,0.1017609754172382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10647832958457708,0.0,0.11755392045251503,0.08011559601747989,0.10667904968508536,0.07378462194666355,0.1488484323587316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18838375927346895,0.09834278650761613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1068924015051544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4175098772011519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22630763335151655,0.09612817853276014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11424477294250647,0.1286011419421413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11370137491872588,0.3428669458286921,0.0,0.0,0.1004894094426369,0.0,0.1599662252772579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008880301543188,0.0,0.17008893984526538,0.07727090593283151,0.09927000764581588,0.0,0.07104348409954409,0.0,0.0,0.08391509171411535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10432444912215233,0.0,0.08067483216838478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05852744511995265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06814567892474199,0.10917540001072418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08668877357191221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11206122649348832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14260210732599496,0.0,0.0,0.06463597319646401
schizophrenia,sylveon-sakura,2020/02/08,"does this sound like paranoid schizophrenia? ok so i know the only way for me to get diagnosed is by going to a doctor, but i guess i just want to know because i googled my symptoms and it came up with a website about paranoid schizophrenia and i realised a lot of the symptoms applied to me. so basically a lot of the time (maybe 30 times a day?? idk im not keeping track) ill get this voice in my head thats like,, its me but its not me?? not like a hallucination or anything but idk. anyways so itll tell me that certain people can see everything through my eyes for the next 30 seconds or something like that. and ill get real paranoid and try and look at the ground or something for the next 30 seconds but even after the 30 seconds pass it still doesnt go away. it feels like im constantly being judged. i also get thoughts that they can hear what im thinking, hear what im hearing if im listening to music, etc. sometimes if i see that person and they act weird my brain will tell me its because they can hear what im thinking. i remember one time a teacher asked to see me after class (it ended up just being cuz of my anxiety) but my brain convinced me to legitimately think it was because they could hear my thoughts and they were confronting me. whenever im in public i think that everyone within a metre of me can hear what im thinking but they arent allowed to do anything with what they hear apart from judge me. its weird cuz i can step back and realise that this most likely isnt real, but in the moment it feels like its real and theres no amount of convincing that could make me think it wasnt. its so annoying because it means i have extreme trust issues and i feel like i have to be suspicious of everyone i know, and the kinder they are to me, the more likely it is they are watching me. another delusion i had ages ago was that my dog had been replaced by a clone, that was a few years ago and was kinda weird but yeah i thought id include it. anyways, does this sound like it might be schizophrenia? cuz idk",2.8319773210489,4.444482939759034,3.842101346562721,89.25663182140329,75.02409638554218,6.424521615875268,27.14564138908576,7.048011613610866,1.2098958185683903,1600,62,335,16,34,516,175,415,0.071,0.8059999999999999,0.12300000000000001,0.9777,2,0,2,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,9,0,14,20,2,0,20,2,33,10,4,5,1,69,73,33,0,5,18,0,3,10,0,3,6,11,0,1,37,15,0,1,17,0,0,6,8,5,0,4,13,20,47,15,36,51,7,34,0,0,6,0,22,10,0,11,27,227,84,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10433718297735466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04706378277683234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061711269355997474,0.04502148464530805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09686007409889688,0.0,0.05501851147968833,0.0,0.05529322638579217,0.045253420321441314,0.0,0.14350210384888845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13139619918091147,0.0,0.06731080890412698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06359791477292286,0.0,0.09397678606697617,0.0,0.0,0.03795455810185778,0.0,0.0,0.059733363029523374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06023733612413335,0.10300325640181847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05212524834536941,0.0,0.06563534107626932,0.03887107502653952,0.0,0.0,0.11247088066692597,0.05289222505817121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08927175227490175,0.12613126551037074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12299059709248578,0.0,0.06689369618953835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06483191968187457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060398950671789006,0.0,0.4643119838921404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5085605557272473,0.06142601457669161,0.0,0.05231020567888119,0.0,0.0,0.09703027088377893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2875202872213217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04942071035534502,0.0,0.0,0.10006743322933072,0.0,0.0,0.039284049834606025,0.0,0.05912456791647031,0.06410688986601562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0624324855002305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251791659950712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03987951936717127,0.04475946448443832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0408004449610554,0.051387143118252224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20095878169871156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06666764466220396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14069185362571082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061401945471437,0.058205959251382486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046999143054479935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12233915919886335,0.0,0.0,0.1028781771953945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22625923677882834,0.0,0.140165324481806,0.1029509163903971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039956525689040887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03471233087853021,0.04671383894801217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03789864543447941
schizophrenia,First-Bunch,2020/02/08,"Which antipsychotics haven’t affected your sex drive I’ve tried risperidone, invega, and abilify. I’m currently on zyprexa and aristada. I thought I started noticing sex drive come back, but masturbation didn’t work. It didn’t feel as cold and uncomfortable as on invega though. I wasn’t on abilify long, but I complained of still hearing voices in the day. Invega got rid of voices completely for me. I see my doc soon, and we will be talking about medication changes. I had voices come back at night, when I switched to aristada. We added the zyprexa in because the voices started to change what they said, and it was scary. After this happened, the plan was for me to go back to invega, but I know I don’t want to be on invega again. I stopped invega because of no sexual feelings.",4.120686070686073,6.391036432432437,5.035135135135132,79.24042619542621,73.18918918918921,9.41871101871102,30.303534303534303,9.851270322608157,3.3168860706860706,624,28,114,18,13,203,87,148,0.124,0.866,0.01,-0.9455,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,2,1,1,2,9,1,0,0,4,0,11,3,0,1,0,19,27,12,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,1,1,6,0,0,5,9,0,1,4,0,0,5,6,1,0,0,9,10,17,0,21,15,0,27,0,0,1,2,8,7,0,0,15,75,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4043751682184595,0.0,0.21371750087769173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3708796266068005,0.30200378324000515,0.18379441056490667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11305135028525955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17726974293705616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09962469671632232,0.0,0.14020014066475128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15501358085739514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19757121356907534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09633803940418588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15513135066723238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17659217195816626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16450332241013102,0.0,0.0,0.1995755380951903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16674653832083786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13968813252800652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481506731798667,0.0,0.13999152803465156,0.1465552172922049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14089620015824872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17222732662550386,0.13916535973812413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11901440585162895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033940605192942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12761749918611845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,bethanyniamh,2020/02/08,"Question about managing money Hi there! First time visitor here.

I’m currently researching ways that mobile banks can work to promote better money management. A lot of articles about schizophrenia have suggested that episodes can really impair decision making, leading to poor money management.

Do any of you have any experiences with this? You don’t need to go into detail, a simple yes or no is perfect. However, if you have had experience with it, is there anything you can do (or that could be put into place by mobile banks) that can deter you from making bad decisions with money?

Thank you for the help! Any information I can get helps out massively.",4.882557471264367,7.952590991379314,5.6765517241379335,71.58195402298853,74.43103448275863,9.383908045977012,28.63218390804597,9.725611199111238,3.643077011494253,529,22,79,16,12,172,79,116,0.067,0.774,0.158,0.8967,2,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,6,0,6,5,4,0,0,3,1,16,0,0,3,1,20,23,3,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,4,0,7,3,2,1,0,1,1,0,7,3,16,20,1,11,0,0,0,0,12,4,0,5,3,57,13,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4247445478945087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713288955792888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738363100966027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18413386934060774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662288524630552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4073144302148291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770927829153703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087746595412364,0.0,0.11832350115351202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791009422099985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770021650110498,0.0,0.0,0.2779470461760238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15437589167670285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21752219255861424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092961052242704,0.2332289743682479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333767218328094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19168038944590934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12140170218489996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16525757407659966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15157034159064114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,stolenkar,2020/02/08,"Anyone else sensing smells that cant be real? So i hallucinate smells a lot to the point where i stopped relying on my sense of smell completely. Anyone else experience this so severely?

Example 1:

Laying in my bed smelling a disgusting musty odor so severe i cant sleep i open my windows febreeze the shit out of my room and fall asleep. (i shower every evening before bed and i dont eat in my room. Changed the sheets 2 days prior)

Next morning smell is completey gone. A smell like that cant just disappear over night.

Example 2
I can smell oncoming weather like i can smell the air and say its gonna rain or its gonna snow or there will be a storm (dunno if thats normal or not?)

Example 3

for a while every night at around 8-10pm id smell weed really really strongly the smeel would get strongerthe closer i got to the living room cant say how many nights i jumped out of bed storming into the living room expecting to catch my 60 year old father smoking a massive blunt.

(feel free to share experiences like that too)",1.4207352941176483,4.006239446078432,2.8051450980392154,89.48495294117649,85.91176470588232,6.205176470588236,21.88549019607843,7.554174236665415,1.079548078431373,813,28,163,15,25,263,127,204,0.063,0.8270000000000001,0.11,0.8098,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,1,10,8,2,0,13,0,12,4,3,1,0,23,18,12,0,4,6,1,1,3,0,4,0,2,9,0,7,8,1,1,1,0,1,5,6,2,0,0,2,13,16,7,17,10,1,33,0,0,0,0,4,18,1,6,13,84,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18512499375048316,0.27127592345194695,0.0,0.11784540412726235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11264480573313555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14003946262189218,0.0,0.1387968960382091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08537352395154052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15514723915230166,0.0,0.0,0.13545679780982006,0.2211713888261453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08743510188932921,0.0,0.2230700872031228,0.0,0.0,0.2589841889400229,0.0,0.0,0.06693481593246167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06916258027896556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587560464204512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19402112438064584,0.0,0.2337862204353712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125439187652574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13421156035315215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14078660193636902,0.3726862607244905,0.12970334425890565,0.0,0.0,0.13890952513630095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125140973566304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15067631944306212,0.1696107948305712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21054623850068105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991012510770569,0.1358851736212186,0.0,0.0,0.1324746341745215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11067479797585997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09403826592363496,0.0,0.0,0.08524775614692504
schizophrenia,ThrowARpsychotic,2020/02/08,"Getting lost Hi there I was wondering if anyone experienced this before, or if I’m alone in this. It happened a couple of times now. I walk my dog around the same rout every day and just last night it happened again: I would get to a point and from one second to another I wouldn’t know where I was anymore or how to get back home. 

I put my address into my map app in my phone and get back home safely but I couldn’t recognize anything I saw on the way or my front door. 

It just somehow looked so different I didn’t remember ever seeing it before even though as I said I walk this route 3 times a day and know it by heart. 

Is this some weird hallucination issue or derealization? Or am I just forgetful (which I am but to this extent?) I’m just very confused and a bit alarmed by this. 

Any help or advise or similar story is appreciated. 
Thanks you guys",2.462819047619046,4.208172120000004,4.198857142857143,85.7384761904762,76.37142857142857,7.180952380952381,23.095238095238088,8.021203637495839,1.1208666666666671,671,20,142,11,15,226,107,175,0.086,0.8320000000000001,0.08199999999999999,0.4535,1,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,1,17,6,0,2,6,0,10,1,1,1,1,37,27,20,0,5,15,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,4,1,12,7,0,1,4,0,0,4,3,4,0,2,6,5,19,2,14,18,4,24,0,1,3,0,7,8,0,13,11,97,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147329427483162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09673574981234873,0.14916287236883544,0.0,0.0,0.14107504775433027,0.09946540393084263,0.0,0.11706068454938988,0.12663380006602648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187649105294055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420907274802463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15530155726209496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15739833794853533,0.0,0.18348061756123166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14862231312179036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093955630203864,0.12867442867248732,0.11985284039200132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29728169470703625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14085113396464094,0.25158467788598576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16856845416692684,0.0953480358436154,0.0,0.2853792687548876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14847338043839495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15635516886721376,0.1159537809132746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11945525003846133,0.0,0.1552840783104808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13349319185717295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09639315022318133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13447344123449936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14300182854873875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16114297235587088,0.0,0.13531354446499724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11335585447472375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13096586846815733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397611623851948,0.0,0.16589573305979452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11737220546771752,0.0,0.11291244645551088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542654473721778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10105122939431226,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Serstious,2020/02/08,"On the selfies posts Seems like every time the selfie trend comes up people start getting on edge. Seems like there's a stronger, silent community of schizophrenics who love their order in this sub. Or maybe just wanna read all happy things, or about medication symptoms, or look at stuff that talented schizophrenics drew up (because it seems like art has been limited to this).

I've seen this discussion happen on multiple subreddits already. This community is already niche enough, I'm not sure why we have to section off art, selfies, etc. to subreddits that have an even smaller following than on here (not bashing those subs, but the ""your post doesn't belong here, it needs to go there"" stuff). Could we add flairs to posts? Could we have a day to post selfies/art/whatever (which imo I still disagree with, but I'd be ok with to meet ppl in the middle). Could people just scroll past them if they don't like seeing peoples faces?

I'm starting to see a lot less schizophrenics on here and lot more curious people in the medical profession, people wondering if they're schizophrenic, or people that love the rules so much. Not saying ANY of those ppl are bad, but like... where did the sz community go..? This is /r/schizophrenia, not /r/schizophrenia_med_management_and_symptom_discussion_only. Not saying this community is gone, but why are we sectioning off ourselves? Even personally, and maybe this is where my bias comes in, I've been posting less on my throwaway account where I've been active here, probably because of my lessened sense of community on here. And no I don't post selfies, art, or whatever. I keep it to stuff that (I think?) ppl on this sub would be okay with: medication, symptoms, little wins, whatever. I have a lot of respect for the folks that do make the selfie posts and remain active after the backlash, because you can drop a subreddit in a second and look to other places in your life to make up for it.

Downvoting has always been for relevancy, but it's certainly not treated like that on this sub. I feel like this ""relevancy"" has been defined by silence/downvotes and certain members of this community that berate and forget about the other person despite seeing their face. Maybe they are enduring some struggles that got fixed for you after you found a good medication. Maybe they don't talk to anyone, have a job, feel like a zombie and/or are holding on to small periods of remission and just want to engage in a community. I don't understand why folks making selfie posts have to justify their reason (ex: there's a face behind all my symptoms in a world which is already lonely for me, here's a picture of ME). Some of y'all are so quick to put down other people in your own community where they've already justified their own reason for posting a picture of themselves. I don't understand why people can't just scroll down if they don't like a post they see. I don't understand why people force others to section their content off to a niche for a niche subreddit. I don't understand why people use ""we gotta focus on people who need help"" to aid their argument, but I NEVER see them commenting on one of the very many help posts with like 5 votes and 1 comment. Because I feel like the people that do have the time/energy to help are already filtering by new and reading these posts. Enlighten me. Tell me the history and what's happened on the selfie stuff and why it's a bigger problem. Because on all of the selfie posts I see one person giving the same argument and a lot of downvotes on the post",8.770771308248651,7.904630055891242,8.240282889316124,71.71396823217069,61.12990936555891,11.166236381946351,36.22374805456378,10.300263719432786,3.6256439073514617,2835,107,500,52,33,898,263,662,0.054000000000000006,0.7959999999999999,0.15,0.9966,1,2,0,0,0,0,90.0,5,7,13,2,25,29,0,1,39,2,46,17,3,6,7,96,94,29,0,12,24,1,3,11,0,2,12,2,0,3,43,25,0,3,16,5,1,7,18,4,0,3,10,14,46,25,86,77,21,81,0,1,9,2,45,46,0,18,23,342,89,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.230870834517149,0.0,0.034816257397333863,0.0,0.0,0.028454290270260814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029257203058714987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03493668501351765,0.127533798393517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07208710460797002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10022333749663072,0.0,0.0,0.026984908687747302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043234419983800274,0.046665374969695236,0.055273066669397,0.0,0.03525405568101465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06347037626069757,0.08967673061383281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04587806967464758,0.0,0.0,0.021860945021974817,0.04013907585690662,0.04756003952453463,0.035095448823259705,0.033465217215905584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07400225321046792,0.04454204953839494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413830545138748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04152215980689459,0.03719147829079311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02955454888611128,0.22486309926972184,0.0419371117297543,0.0,0.0,0.07027421331812665,0.0,0.0,0.14229176590932652,0.07552886147371815,0.0,0.08379044973941115,0.042421661111536516,0.16814539767758446,0.0,0.0,0.16860740267985722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03075900377949768,0.0620512699354091,0.03227146495895759,0.0404116839371078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056707032960117226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039943338261156376,0.34809930719956883,0.10960559949470447,0.043716438301335966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5610288025220057,0.0,0.045113221340739695,0.04003755883295032,0.0,0.042063203589129114,0.0,0.0,0.08370751523179393,0.0,0.0,0.08604198294271301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06654956662810946,0.0,0.0,0.20005801743289875,0.1142753425183146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05923258094366026,0.0,0.033415422208945056,0.0,0.0,0.04374279746295524,0.1915983069627674,0.0,0.0,0.03943599929263161,0.13047093175439384,0.0,0.03363136385480793,0.03657213199702253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027798254205853086,0.026810942477803155,0.0,0.0,0.0487973200418457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17423779969764433,0.0,0.03613842889736511,0.0,0.03452439052281781,0.024679751943947927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642940224735731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04537633529191139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02972366492150168,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Sigmundfreud4444,2020/02/08,"Severe depression after psychotic break. Hi everyone. I had a psychotic break on September. I was then admitted inpatient to a psych ward for a month after which I was allowed to go out. I took the medication and I've made recovery for a past few months. I've taken up the cs50 course online and I'm on my way to lose weight. Suddenly, I have an onset of severe depression and I don't know why....",2.109018987341773,4.424705772151904,4.691629746835441,79.01440664556964,79.8860759493671,9.519620253164558,25.064873417721518,9.827888789773867,2.956986075949367,312,12,60,11,8,110,54,79,0.20199999999999999,0.779,0.018000000000000002,-0.9313,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,7,0,5,2,0,2,0,8,12,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,6,1,7,0,12,6,1,16,0,3,0,0,2,4,0,0,7,37,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3814503214486977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21159453671407089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12584893592354973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12169713080784132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24773369586853114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20953101781916647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223076583075034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3535011323839425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21138866441890866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5003262752293278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24602697290185815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17576803972242808,0.0,0.26965315131944223,0.0,0.0,0.1998143329194046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,hyadicreality,2020/02/08,"What comes after maximum dosage? A person I know developed paranoid schizophrenia around three years ago, although just with a ""schizophrenia"" diagnosis as I understand the former term isn't professionally used anymore. She's tried an assortment of medications since then, been in-and-out of hospitals and mental health wards and has had access to great psychiatrists, doctors, and neurologists in a country with superb mental health care.

The medication that's worked best for her out of all they've tried (although Clozapine hasn't been one of them as they feel it's too risky) has been Seroquel, and she's recently been moved up to maximum dosage. She exercises, she's been drug free for over a year, she doesn't consume gluten anymore as a celiac (as doctors pointed to a link between that and her condition), she goes to therapy, and she tries to keep herself active.

All the same, her condition continues to worsen. Memory loss has intensified to the point she has to keep daily notes to remember to eat. Struggles to read. Still has very unpleasant hallucinations. Her psychiatrist won't see her unless she pays an extra $100 an hour, which she can't afford, and she gets the impression that she's been ""taken out to pasture.""

That can't be all there is, right? It's not as hopeless as it seems? She's only 22, recently so.",8.702898919262559,8.607484966942152,8.346033057851244,68.38170692943422,60.900826446281,11.90896376350922,36.7972027972028,11.362043627235082,4.308814621741895,1070,44,181,27,13,342,139,242,0.055999999999999994,0.835,0.109,0.9328,1,0,1,0,0,1,38.0,0,0,2,4,6,8,0,1,14,0,20,9,0,1,3,29,32,18,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,8,0,0,1,9,13,1,2,6,2,2,2,7,3,0,2,8,2,23,6,35,22,7,23,0,2,1,0,22,9,0,1,12,125,32,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11326844024734599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534450142946366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137504674951744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13409625587958932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13027928300070146,0.0,0.0,0.11007035878780172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2615745954696345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14818315983912825,0.13074989381534813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06460893965621838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06675929280541917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140876881297286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27164636303147505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258366497493843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22715182592386896,0.0,0.0,0.07022403791349233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2574479500623385,0.25754250729995865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13580893475124192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08658640817461415,0.09718174449005708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11157175962925622,0.0,0.0,0.241585055461238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12781365384149795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523328423780168,0.0,0.14474878294329813,0.1091226318847602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10182337916963513,0.11632527084184527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570017128004787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10204453436122086,0.0,0.0,0.13358243301111294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14612650832970633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602608128772054,0.0,0.0,0.1330225234555783,0.0,0.11036009439948162,0.0,0.10543111898980594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0930246884480573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645710698086367
schizophrenia,lostminty,2020/02/08,"Are your voices coming from in your head? I have two kinds of voices. The first is me essentially imagining what someone would say about me, they're like shower arguments but less in my favor. And in particular outside of my control. They're like intrusive thoughts but in someone else's words and speech

The second type is when I'm triggered and hear other people near me talking, laughing etc. I'll start to feel it l aligns with my thinking and behavior. This particular situation gets quite uncanny if I push it far enough.",6.044081632653061,7.645171163265306,6.245510204081636,75.22091836734695,66.95918367346938,9.273469387755103,32.36734693877551,9.606745405546679,3.189269387755103,426,18,73,9,7,136,73,98,0.019,0.856,0.125,0.8911,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,3,3,5,0,0,2,0,5,1,1,2,0,17,13,8,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,1,0,5,1,0,5,6,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,6,10,5,11,11,3,11,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,1,5,47,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18956039217198253,0.0,0.0,0.24681364230020114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18383013492048594,0.0,0.0,0.22737863178239706,0.2454227237510669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11126788423266216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871811339463797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11497116812089395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258428880311889,0.0,0.2480212421463956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291564352937127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150183448930336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15256043723398996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340586598896035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17499887140015832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24735429520198615,0.0,0.0,0.3729086823824907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15575811144171742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17687420118386007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410042142275451,0.0,0.17470138874220142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149645887582827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563228155701376,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,dearangelou,2020/02/08,"question Hello, I need advice. I took my meds and then threw up a few minutes later. Should I retake them?",-0.41357142857143,1.522941809523811,1.628928571428574,92.73482142857144,107.09523809523807,2.1,14.773809523809526,3.1291,-1.0976761904761907,82,2,15,0,4,27,19,21,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,0,1,1,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,11,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4273830810761708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4858083084228845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3242968609675059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4899432382401452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4859229967253218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Chelshirexcat,2020/02/08,"How to help someone I love going through an episode. i love my boyfriend, but he is really scary right now. He is bipolar and borderline schizophrenic. He is in the middle of a bad episode, been about 2 weeks? And everyday it's getting worse. I have no idea how to help with when one second he is nice, then next second I'm working for the govt trying to poison him. He hasn't slept in about 72 hours. And before that 72 hours he only slept maybe 3 hours. Im really worried for him, and me. Last time this happened it lasted about a month to the point I had to leave and eventually came home to a house with holes in the walls from going at it with a hammer to ""show the landlord who is boss""

He isnt physically violent, minus when he got mad at me while I was sitting on the bed (mad for literally no reason other than I looked at him and he felt I was judging him, I was not but he was dead set on that. He then pushed the bed around to get me to get out of it (again no reason why he wanted me to get off bed) but none the less it was scary when he's yelling at you in a demonic voice. I wish I was making this up, but I'm not. I cant talk about this to friends, so I have to hold it all in and cry when he isnt around. 

I really need advice on how to handle this situation. Last time he 5150 about 3 times in 4 week. I feel so alone and dont know to do",1.9271895223420608,2.7814483152542384,3.679545454545455,92.5651117103236,76.01694915254237,6.990755007704163,21.54468412942989,7.348242739294969,0.3826949152542367,1043,24,255,12,22,351,147,295,0.168,0.75,0.08199999999999999,-0.9844,0,1,0,0,1,0,28.0,0,1,0,1,19,9,4,0,14,0,21,7,2,7,1,37,44,24,1,3,6,0,2,0,1,0,3,2,5,0,14,15,0,1,6,1,0,4,11,5,0,3,13,5,24,4,48,31,3,51,1,0,1,2,27,22,0,0,23,158,38,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344607733838648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12023875784573475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20669721020892906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09693395190660728,0.0,0.0,0.09878776037978522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.132781034430221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275242169961538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13606174013272165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05870080306291451,0.0,0.1114688037831983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08969422433321421,0.0,0.24261807238702665,0.0,0.1319582147580349,0.0,0.09285127523964072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10266187033641826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15563122166041365,0.0,0.11645212153537154,0.0,0.34298871492118416,0.13395731892175525,0.0,0.13105641567846907,0.12540184436806648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06380243108425332,0.2838972258842592,0.0,0.12292717794371764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09749003392019416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095594079066588,0.0,0.07749389523868172,0.0,0.11663240148206636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926654206529525,0.0,0.0,0.08608250630155073,0.0,0.0,0.1234676823867348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07866855146095816,0.08829500182135037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10974670718194117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22311908367851085,0.2387287011715913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09914395992347336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304949390343091,0.0,0.0,0.09836638521504217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09331225916809796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030866869142318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07882045840193815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0684754688968349,0.0,0.18624780608781916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1047571140018605,0.0,0.1335027991279558,0.0,0.0,0.0845180859743892,0.11789947079202688,0.11831008396111742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ih8uic,2020/02/08,"Living with a schizophrenic is EXTREMELY draining because he refuses to get help. Heck, he refuses to admit he is schizophrenic (even though he was diagnosed years ago when my mom had him admitted to a psych hospital). 
 

My dad and I used to be best friends. But after years of him suffering from this mental illness, he isn’t the same anymore. It’s recently gotten so bad that I cry myself to sleep every night. The fact that he’s getting old and our relationship has shattered into little pieces I can’t put back, is killing me. I don’t want my dad to die when our relationship is like this. 

My dad and I used to be best friends, I‘d do anything to go back to that.",5.669408396946565,6.001511923664125,6.379456106870233,78.49071087786263,67.1679389312977,10.21412213740458,33.16889312977099,10.125756701596842,3.242518320610686,526,22,103,12,8,173,82,131,0.16399999999999998,0.6759999999999999,0.159,-0.5796,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,2,0,0,2,7,8,1,0,4,0,13,5,1,2,1,15,22,8,2,1,1,4,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,0,6,5,0,2,2,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,3,0,15,5,14,17,4,15,0,1,0,0,23,2,1,0,12,67,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398672694412497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564807550341452,0.0,0.0,0.12984397024625616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24265452267811005,0.13174424897554068,0.09618453772503588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3311721625408848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17331989322522393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16014889693342868,0.16375637222800654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10421579285666617,0.0,0.13294103568326873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438092740427622,0.0,0.16487275668549045,0.0,0.0896730998659791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10576025227234917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17456620789510308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770859943407487,0.15814245933471088,0.1393274314043489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590106087028172,0.0,0.0,0.1847963965084243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480709437015749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16556927349094058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15861794455343833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15579408340351636,0.3388050190142849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15789938749507504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15502339047632016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272551913405477,0.0,0.0,0.09306593866876686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032172961232124
schizophrenia,Kristofuur,2020/02/08,"My problem with Antipsychotics The side effects plus weird dreams that seem so real and like I feel like I’m trapped in them sometimes and and weight gain dry mouth feeling tired all the time
An I fear I’ll get Gynomastia. 
I’ve seen that SERMS. selective estrogen receptor modulators are in clinical trials to help schizoaffective and schizophrenia. 

I’m thinking about telling my doctor my concerns on antipsychotics 
An bringing up CBD, an talk therapy. 


Support is much welcome. Thank you guys.",4.714672304439748,8.173142813953493,4.061416490486263,79.86931289640593,80.16279069767441,7.778435517970403,33.399577167019025,8.575989854853784,3.6046418604651165,406,22,63,10,11,121,68,86,0.134,0.635,0.231,0.8453,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,2,2,8,0,1,5,0,2,6,1,1,1,14,13,6,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,6,1,0,5,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,4,7,5,8,12,2,7,0,0,1,0,7,5,0,1,3,31,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319631316218341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25501925410146936,0.22917962574331585,0.16190292834839165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11840365916423028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22439712845797305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519038210426219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214377677367005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16659749137459354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21685217473714785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579520240496708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063134155882876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241406651711858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.257174514371995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.182154821719284,0.198082665114974,0.20864840759916567,0.2591686124890335,0.0,0.0,0.14521392793507046,0.0,0.0,0.13214847858943615,0.26047529004500986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27597157710493875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Infjok,2020/02/09,"Hearing voices Hello guys, new person here with a very curious experience.

I have not been known to be diagnosed with schizophrenia, however, I have heard voices and noises that have manifested in my mind.

The first time was a couple years ago on an alcohol detox, I would hear classical music out of nowhere. This was most likely a symptom of withdrawal as it is known to be. 

More recently I have had two experiences with hearing voices. The first was at my old apartment around Christmas 2019. I thought I could hear my neighbours talking about me through the wall. My girlfriend was present, and said she heard nothing. The noise got louder as I pressed my ear to the wall, but she also did and heard nothing. I have since moved into a new place quite recently as the area was rough and I didn’t feel safe there.

The most recent and very intense one was this weekend. I am in a new place. I do suffer from alcoholism/GAD/MDD but an average night, I have a few beers but not usually enough to get drunk. I started hearing my upstairs neighbours talking about me. This went on for about two hours (the walls here seem to be paper thin) before I responded back, this voice replied to me. It was aggressive and berated me. Very specific things, my lifestyle, dog, loudness, accusations of smoking inside and my rust bucket jeep (whom has been very expensive despite her appearance) among other things. I started defending myself against it and speaking to them (through the wall) this escalated things with *the voice* and lead to me being asked to take things outside, which promptly lead me to locking my door and deciding to deal with them tomorrow. I thought they had been doing drugs or something because this continued on for many hours with *the voice* gradually getting more intensely aggressive to a point I just put headphones on and ignored it.

The next morning I woke up and later my neighbour knocked on my door to deliver a letter and I directly asked them about it, it was really weird because turns out he has an accent nothing like the guy that was seemingly yelling at me. They said that they heard nothing, but I cannot tell if I am being gaslighted by him or not.

This was a very weird feeling for me and I have a psychiatrist that I will be meeting with ASAP regarding this. I have spoken to a friend who said it may be caused due to stress. The last few months have been the hardest times of my life. I just want to know what some of you guys think, because I work in a field where I have dealt with schizophrenic individuals however it is hard to understand *voices* in your head, unless you have experienced them. It felt so real and I’m dumbfounded.

TL;DR I heard very intense voices from my neighbours house about me but the next day they said they had heard or done nothing.

Sorry if this is inappropriate I am just looking for some input, thanks in advance.",4.925973756008837,6.937082970204845,4.991824520375904,81.51684422502275,70.3221601489758,8.123840457321036,30.9241262829674,8.775028230273154,2.6026647525009747,2293,99,413,42,43,715,263,537,0.064,0.8909999999999999,0.045,-0.9065,2,0,5,0,1,0,61.0,0,3,9,7,16,12,2,1,31,0,53,11,2,3,0,73,94,31,0,5,17,0,7,2,6,3,7,27,2,4,31,27,3,2,13,3,1,7,5,7,0,5,36,36,68,5,67,47,9,67,0,1,1,0,55,29,0,13,33,302,99,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05999596900950861,0.07233142601285887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0541252345975628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060251288953522136,0.12654698221634372,0.0,0.0,0.05204324528809119,0.0,0.12377487387002505,0.0,0.05759235830708492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06952801117109678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054038533374159085,0.07488879537372081,0.0,0.043649261493726166,0.06977712323220173,0.0,0.06869575917016721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06926213817319231,0.0,0.0,0.07848957967484425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06993355157282234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324118773895318,0.0,0.0,0.06844405966722959,0.0,0.0649852903119136,0.0,0.0,0.1151404719228495,0.0,0.0,0.052290910189837406,0.0,0.07072205556118248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05413144191459375,0.0,0.0,0.20104732782661552,0.0,0.0,0.060629737182457864,0.0,0.06946121160848245,0.0,0.3814124087394392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13330618347243195,0.07809588839283843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037196232182416425,0.05516982634507089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04780576608898195,0.06613196848712846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05683579568274742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0686188788067479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06833948013496614,0.0,0.054023090395049086,0.07193520651257315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19610296036023586,0.14396105298925793,0.06351492944001386,0.0,0.3247133038961368,0.0,0.07102082596573334,0.0,0.04586304402307274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059097272094819416,0.1414264742615777,0.0,0.06398132378693397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06803905819994117,0.0,0.07198808979605475,0.0,0.0770368817388351,0.043358793177616914,0.0,0.20048329470680745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575241511392681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12323021892434988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0559872122064124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05210487525058048,0.0,0.07576440691093443,0.09581127156943367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07752945025890733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07034746573076818,0.050888406695367344,0.10880038263429148,0.05915701147604545,0.062312450388519076,0.0,0.0,0.17985953273968944,0.04336786359548637,0.0,0.10746382352356357,0.07893178395918361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07361853118346834,0.1322308700374697,0.07045930161463937,0.0,0.0,0.0745421108978263,0.3350682043685204,0.039920570370164485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0627418499405628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04927326899762452,0.0,0.0,0.04807931861928528,0.0,0.0,0.043584959687533065
schizophrenia,One-Will,2020/02/09,"What are your thoughts Hello,
Couldn't there be truths in the voices and thoughts ? That come down from ancestors and religions for example, forces, , that some people, religious or artists or better balanced or more righteous or more blunt are able to compose with, while those that are too fearfull , weak or cannot deal with it are called schizophrenics?",10.896830601092894,10.40830086885246,7.428524590163933,78.01961748633883,56.70491803278689,10.756284153005463,40.005464480874316,9.725611199111238,3.771946448087432,287,12,48,4,3,78,48,61,0.087,0.868,0.045,-0.4003,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,2,4,0,1,1,0,7,2,0,0,1,15,10,8,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,5,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,1,1,2,7,6,3,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,6,1,35,7,0,0.361990399727679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3201510917213233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36963267107495773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3118226765448907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3731962071741245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509585643292037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5747598853275041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,GhostMonkeyInSpace,2020/02/09,"Medications making me stupid I’ve been on medication for over ten years since I was 18 but I feel like the medication has made me stupid, like it just takes away from my memory, I feel like the meds are dumbing me down and that I’ve lost a lot of my ability to think and process properly.",4.226186440677964,5.015073271186445,5.362500000000002,82.88747881355934,70.52542372881356,9.967796610169492,26.614406779661017,10.125756701596842,2.2712000000000003,229,7,51,6,4,76,44,59,0.166,0.65,0.184,0.29600000000000004,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,7,3,0,3,0,4,3,0,2,0,10,11,3,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,4,2,8,3,8,7,1,5,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,4,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20126018739150764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21662508250415805,0.30606765411526143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3139609894416959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338388202217623,0.18211625256775785,0.0,0.20269354264415526,0.14298885682752807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23794237865498766,0.6473912556009517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17719922696518225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16106153481376778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13725905615588935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13794616412522362
schizophrenia,ActuaryAdvice12,2020/02/09,"DAE want the voices to be real because you would feel lonely without them? For like almost a year in 2018/2019 I stopped listening to the voices and it was just background noise I tried to ignore and I said they’re not real, but now I feel differently tbh.",4.131,5.939602699999997,4.625,84.1675,72.0,6.6000000000000005,26.5,7.1686216300943375,1.3196000000000003,205,7,38,2,4,65,40,50,0.139,0.836,0.025,-0.5195,1,2,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,15,8,3,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,6,6,1,6,4,0,4,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,1,4,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759215630192555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679715299474908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878890583448569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27865074046113203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13461885572455035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6272679979449254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26210928950763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23037050282977736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18707903428208605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16252537542864492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26561848125486537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.195741424446,0.0,0.0,0.17744390600072174
schizophrenia,Phoenix_franklin,2020/02/09,". Truth uncovers

Take your time and tool my head

The inside's unpredictable

The outside is caving in

Falling faster

The reason's all the same

A crash is inescapable

You can stop pretending now

Face to the ground

It's over now

There's no return

So I'll just crash and burn",1.7032539682539714,4.427642500000001,2.0593121693121685,94.03833333333333,86.96296296296295,5.307936507936508,18.825396825396822,6.868970318607317,0.2664952380952381,221,6,44,3,7,67,43,54,0.203,0.731,0.066,-0.7717,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,2,0,0,5,1,0,0,6,0,3,2,2,1,2,8,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,3,4,2,10,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,6,26,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.532485457075157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5334598752662402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4337783042801656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3901074552477299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025431466425128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ididit2myself,2020/02/09,Horse girl Has anyone seen this movie on Netflix? What are your thoughts?,3.196153846153845,6.3327843846153895,0.560384615384617,102.6221153846154,89.76923076923076,2.6,21.884615384615387,3.1291,-0.5597384615384615,59,2,11,0,2,15,13,13,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6609482922192057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7504314459112941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,rutabaga_rutabaga,2020/02/09,"How long did it take before your doctor approved you going off meds? I am just curious. I have definitely gained weight, but other than that the side effects haven't been that bad. I would just like to be fully myself again.",3.4422093023255838,5.7867392093023255,3.969941860465117,85.7470058139535,75.51162790697674,6.16046511627907,20.05232558139535,7.1686216300943375,0.5193767441860468,178,4,33,2,4,56,38,43,0.0,0.6990000000000001,0.301,0.9047,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,3,4,2,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,2,0,6,9,2,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,6,1,3,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,26,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028643474414112,0.0,0.0,0.308656461375354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3712694622794335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061477831871089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17721152577383206,0.0,0.0,0.32100458116257874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4029111901069706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727277714843933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4417073451275718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25767294110859806,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,imcorrecter,2020/02/09,"Just came out of my first psychotic episode And I don’t remember much, but it’s even worse now that I’m out. It was easier to be in the place where pretend was real now everyone around me knows. Nothing is the same and I feel like I’m just waiting for it to happen again. Someone tell me it gets better",2.55890625,3.8452583281250017,3.9676250000000017,89.41487500000002,75.09375,7.620000000000001,25.3,8.238735603445708,1.3878162500000002,239,8,53,4,5,79,49,64,0.083,0.762,0.155,0.7227,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,8,2,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,15,13,3,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,1,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,1,5,2,8,9,2,11,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,5,38,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23008832097932685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22859096390836206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956146842917376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707134524028339,0.0,0.0,0.2469740330094927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13068748439547806,0.18464718539867614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21984988472140468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13503710296415078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285594212948253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142045402816384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12627276408973526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900012445148866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480037861123451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27004053000404865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941893373674516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927900444245416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189962447200656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259094814581952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26339754219247563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,speakofafever,2020/02/09,Understanding Psychosis. I have been diagnosed for a little less than a year and am still trying to understand what it all means. The doctors have told me my meds needed to be increased due to psychosis. I feel like I still have a good grasp on reality. But how does psychosis show up for you? How can I know I’m in it?,2.375364583333333,4.485429140625001,3.6887500000000015,87.61458333333336,77.90625,6.766666666666668,24.729166666666664,7.793537801064563,1.2848729166666666,251,9,52,4,6,82,48,64,0.0,0.871,0.129,0.782,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,0,7,2,0,2,1,12,15,4,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,6,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,7,2,9,12,3,9,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,5,38,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426029787661104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446498311074045,0.20917034935183335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12085704383136288,0.1707578432800391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20048087532799985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13136060850534914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11677440311054398,0.23956350895096956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26036575963820235,0.2655003026797933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17723228123556686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38176762620366256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283964043742013,0.0,0.1622807031392968,0.0,0.0,0.4976620583273107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15392276287978351
schizophrenia,sztww,2020/02/09,"Is there a chip inside my arm? ive been very paranoid for the last month..i feel like all the security cameras are watching me to see if i do anything wrong, so they can throw me into jail.

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i started feeling sometthing in my left arm last week. Also agents talk to me telling me im an important part of a plan. They tell me to stay away from the cameras.. they said they were the one that planted the chip

so they could monitor me at all time s

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should i go to a doctor for them to remove it? i dont want anyone else to know though.. i also did a bit of research and found this place. id ont think i have schizophrenia but my mom told me just today that we will visit a psychiartrist because she thinks i have it. im really scared, what do i do?",2.2980336538461543,3.734423543750001,3.517500000000002,91.76519230769232,76.0625,6.1730769230769225,24.18269230769231,6.67199483983844,0.6299711538461539,597,19,132,5,13,194,106,160,0.065,0.893,0.040999999999999995,-0.6744,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,1,0,6,1,7,4,0,1,11,0,16,3,2,0,2,17,28,8,0,4,3,1,2,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,6,3,0,1,6,0,0,4,1,2,0,1,6,5,27,2,15,19,4,17,0,0,2,0,15,6,0,1,7,88,33,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060711528398242,0.0,0.2792023369755624,0.31311631791656275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09008991281464357,0.13201472041877674,0.10602668313104678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210520939167109,0.0,0.0,0.07854140230106403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14066301649414095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10287052751811733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13187611116982578,0.0,0.0,0.15100285450923376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10763166405988904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302936272289046,0.09204535405394186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14126952903866116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07322435787227494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783447638083936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07080865795890216,0.2100482298401639,0.0,0.0,0.13998812784116524,0.0,0.0,0.06294610585541525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15089918260507695,0.10284112946994127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08730724610109848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13952424525179774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13461334999214655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08254002557484855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225590500991466,0.0,0.12899416443951006,0.0,0.10267106594929976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09119562868486727,0.13732932944813814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10355899815292444,0.2252286506297439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651145849763123,0.12658744082424772,0.0,0.07512929891718811,0.0,0.12212795165182395,0.12311485962488795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10630884045673952,0.07599484805349513,0.0,0.10334995840090457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14086942467691774,0.31311631791656275,0.0
schizophrenia,UnnDalaHast,2020/02/09,"Worried about meds Hey guys,

So just a quick question. I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia for about a year and a half now. I'm still working with my psychiatrist to get my meds right. I am just curious how long it took you guys to find the right medication for you?

I'm a little confused as most of my symptoms have disappeared, but I still strongly feel that I'm being followed. Can the drugs sort of 'skip' that symptom? Or should I be trying different meds?

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Thanks in advance guys, and I hope you all have a good day :)",3.5047970085470084,5.5539215096153844,3.893589743589746,87.72918803418806,74.28846153846155,6.92991452991453,27.901709401709404,7.793537801064563,1.6523773504273511,423,17,84,6,9,132,71,104,0.042,0.769,0.18899999999999997,0.9574,2,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,3,0,3,10,5,0,1,7,0,8,5,0,1,1,18,17,7,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,3,3,4,0,0,3,0,0,4,0,1,0,1,2,1,10,4,12,12,2,15,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,6,7,55,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15422393005020132,0.17295710929585534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09179669091576458,0.0,0.0,0.14447079185232095,0.0,0.14871365403241008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16506771108958082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0719707272847662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13009499992333293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07436609982749097,0.0,0.0,0.11938695459220199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4228130964963263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14137445328699202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426607785819234,0.0,0.12596527695257262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4743186480264948,0.14339127296121282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15945192808401515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431129568682876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22734375126695106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958888351099753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13104635800862208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15814354129373193,0.09663863899828044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1036242742671462,0.14455186669757844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17295710929585534,0.091661460837948
schizophrenia,xoxosushi,2020/02/09,Horse Girl on Netflix Has anyone seen Horse Girl? What are your thoughts on the film?,2.5874999999999986,5.490152750000004,0.8049999999999997,103.54,84.0,3.2,20.5,3.1291,-0.7774000000000001,68,2,14,0,2,18,13,16,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6609482922192057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7504314459112941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SupremeBoomerKai,2020/02/09,"My first post. I'm scared (Possible Trigger Warning) I was never diagnosed by a doctor or anyone because my mom believes i'm just lying or the devil is persuading me. Until i get diagnosed I will say i don't have schizophrenia, so I've been reluctant to post here because i don't want to offend anyone but the more i read posts on here and do research its all very similar to me in one way or the other and i just don't know what to do about it or how to get help. I see and hear things that aren't there and I've always been paranoid by little things that i shouldn't worry about but i do and I fall for my own delusions. For example when i take showers it always sounds like someone is walking around my house/bathroom or talking when no one is there, i have full blown out arguments in my head with people i know or don't know and get legit angry or sad, when i'm in a deep thought i can physically see my thoughts like if my imagination and the world were colliding as one or my imagination bleeds into reality, i wake up every night multiple times because the voices in my head are super loud and takes me out of my sleep, I feel like i'm not from this world like I have a more divine purpose or someone is controlling me and that's why my life is so bad, I feel like no one likes me or doesn't see my as a person, when in public like work or school the voices or sounds make me feel im being boxed in and i need to hide in the bathroom so they don't get me and i can recollect myself, I truly believe lies i tell myself (in school i 100% believed i was Brazilian at one point and I told everyone. I had a whole past life and memories that i made up with it. It was super embarrassing when i came back the next day to hear everyone talking about what i said because i am super white and pale and no way i'm Brazilian). I want to go to my friends about it but i'm scared that they might think im looking for attention or be creeped out and remove me from their lives (it has happened before). I just want to be a normal person and get this shit figured out but i have no support on getting help. I can't afford to pay for doctors or therapists and i cant get help from my family because they believe i'm just some devil worshiper and a liar and just think i need the big man up stairs in my life. I don't know what i'm really trying to ask here i'm just scared and don't know what to do or how to get help. I'm sorry if its not appropriate to post here with out being diagnosed but this sub is the only place i got to vent about my issues and concerns and the people here seem to be really nice from what i've read. Thank you for your time and making a safe place for others:)",3.70796586059744,4.044382403508777,5.074950213371267,86.11640825035562,71.45614035087719,8.056899004267425,26.28259838786155,8.00916892397051,1.3605030820293982,2110,62,465,27,37,708,232,570,0.132,0.722,0.147,0.9355,2,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,2,4,6,30,28,3,4,19,0,45,14,5,7,2,102,101,59,0,9,30,1,3,7,1,3,9,9,1,3,25,35,0,2,18,2,1,5,19,11,0,6,14,17,71,17,63,79,7,58,4,1,5,0,25,32,1,20,22,313,96,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065671573142854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08955175524330855,0.0,0.0,0.05700614797144776,0.059865573989047,0.0,0.0,0.04924019043137578,0.05346788377317487,0.19518057614847265,0.0,0.05449042761908248,0.288589264722636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0732408075452979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07182248879690449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0412983075179558,0.0,0.0,0.1949873943088433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310883412021683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0539535949377052,0.12237942552598614,0.0,0.0,0.06036800464046905,0.0,0.09713648274395807,0.09149551553548024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05446949678536784,0.0,0.0,0.049474516074552805,0.0,0.2676518317990302,0.0,0.036393473859376066,0.0,0.05121591656025097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056627351336845766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314400463792143,0.0,0.14434779795346275,0.0,0.17168952482683236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13834102721972102,0.06683757014856342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17596419533919402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13569282696968504,0.21899532712818334,0.06418149331802855,0.056545488449562475,0.0,0.05377461354005225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06059297652196794,0.08548985164134211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06793270991008142,0.0,0.07499888858183396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949646506988472,0.04938897141924047,0.0,0.06810364750172974,0.06009400842605269,0.06274226890706806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169642773963819,0.04870271769879665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061130177829802165,0.08878982694774781,0.11182857317276523,0.13380922896196984,0.0,0.06053528272267534,0.07219164156164813,0.2453174347091331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12810785263750998,0.0,0.08204696771394596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06091346808111901,0.05092447225960555,0.1923354149337869,0.1296169100443288,0.1530866311422403,0.058296512959037164,0.0,0.0,0.06573264669882048,0.0,0.0,0.06408284357072462,0.0,0.1085160018428326,0.0,0.0,0.07168372770689461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07266797152803385,0.0,0.0,0.0962951031419467,0.10294038218145016,0.05597080839803252,0.05895629502717493,0.0,0.07435142486051377,0.08508613936328761,0.08206413148229713,0.0,0.10167581028992573,0.0746805094825201,0.0,0.0,0.06118971276299307,0.0,0.04347664596243425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052836899067541535,0.11331133231265872,0.10165854024920597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057783068632765784,0.07149457379027788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04661940536545705,0.06503227277167507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,flipnathan,2020/02/09,"I have a question. I wonder if I am developing schizophrenia, I haven’t been diagnosed. I have been having mostly auditory hallucinations like I have been hearing doors slam, a ringing sound (which I don’t really think got to do with anything) and people calling my name. I am also having some touch hallucination like sometimes it feels like someone poked me. I have also seen like a sign of psychosis is delusions, like I was convinced that werewolves are real for like a few days a couple weeks ago.",5.773276397515524,7.7042937500000015,6.337888198757764,73.03195652173916,68.02173913043478,7.86583850931677,31.62111801242236,8.418075326091056,2.6707465838509314,403,17,65,6,7,131,63,92,0.03,0.767,0.203,0.9201,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,5,0,17,1,0,0,0,12,23,4,0,1,1,0,2,6,0,0,1,3,1,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,6,12,7,4,17,3,3,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,5,9,48,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17262047539650624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3114583823355849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16024998529547532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19884580166400145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21547013362238626,0.0,0.12558770854353996,0.0,0.0,0.19765152228475172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846366608356226,0.13911843885024658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15574705086794413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21948004976232247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.570824941789621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13500445391735336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21814732177324914,0.0,0.0,0.2216506103387472,0.12475197274924928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649979966590951,0.0,0.1925975011049328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12477807016663447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562043518192761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111813694593695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,fcfpfcfp,2020/02/09,"paranoia getting out of hand I have no diagnosis but this has been getting in the way of my everyday life and i don't know if I should see a psychiatrist over it (I know nobody here can diagnose me). 

 I have been experiencing a type of a horror paranoia. I'll be so paranoid about things such as a figure being behind me that I quite litteraly run myself in circles until I end up hyperventilating with my back against the wall. I will convince myself that something such as a stray cat is a disformed human watching me behind a suit. I hear voices and see things sometimes but not often and almost exclusively when I'm alone late at night. I get paranoid over things I have no reason to be paranoid for. I'll be so scared just from the thought of ""what if I hear a scream right now out of nowhere?"" and other thoughts like that. When it comes to certain things, for example, the thought of a demon behind my door waiting for me to come out, I can't tell if I believe it or I am just extremely paranoid. I also have very bad derealization problems if that may play a part in this. I have a very hard and fearful time falling asleep because of this, and on top of being sleep deprived it gets to the point I have at least one all nighter a week because of it. Is this a symptom of schizophrenia? should I see someone about this or is it just in my head?",5.106954248366012,5.5508160222222225,5.769302832244012,81.98774509803924,68.4074074074074,7.9825708061002185,31.808278867102395,7.724431198458867,2.042677559912854,1066,43,214,11,17,347,144,270,0.212,0.733,0.055,-0.9932,0,1,1,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,0,2,16,10,0,2,18,0,25,7,4,1,2,40,43,22,0,7,12,0,2,1,0,4,3,4,1,1,21,12,0,1,7,1,0,4,5,6,0,1,5,11,29,4,41,29,3,33,1,1,4,0,4,17,0,9,12,169,50,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12566838207249856,0.1299783520320611,0.0,0.10036091547163772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09650041759750667,0.10478580742609377,0.1530051524191338,0.0,0.0,0.14139356649475124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21621128216465746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12737809509000406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111542110402338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14122043631674425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622706503881242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124217931557983,0.0,0.1287974239489089,0.0,0.28289132636891146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13794112641466502,0.0,0.1415675068309631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08864313448591027,0.06131211207358508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11777161821305615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08504087083770097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13590238896604667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11863642303054522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12008488865091707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13348285044314326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12903311593108965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10717483077560673,0.0,0.0,0.12564565447654774,0.0,0.3000176015649277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12558889620926758,0.0,0.10633427086801546,0.09661469404363937,0.12412099095547376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13044074754305945,0.0,0.0,0.1096910133036068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335018775672714,0.0,0.0,0.2988948072677638,0.07317904630671014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20709842020944472,0.0,0.09961467959870378,0.10066713653155204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,schizwizard,2020/02/09,"I made a friend. That brings the total up to 2 :) Someone is meeting me at the pub this afternoon to have a few drinks. She was a student when I met her years ago but I saw her at the pub a couple of weeks ago and we got chatting and exchanged numbers.

What I really want from this life is to be able to connect with other humans and develop meaningful relationships. I feel like being able to communicate clearly and in a cooperative way with others solidifies our subjective experiences of this reality into something we can say is real. It is where, i find, lies some real value. This is not something I was able to do for a while when I was quite unwell and I have come to really get a lot out of it. Although, I still struggle with it on many a day.

Cheers.",2.466729323308272,4.52925702631579,4.636390977443612,81.15973684210526,77.42105263157895,7.50075187969925,25.330827067669173,8.418075326091056,1.8281432330827068,596,22,117,12,14,206,97,152,0.043,0.807,0.15,0.9365,0,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,3,0,0,1,4,4,0,1,11,0,14,2,0,1,2,26,23,10,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,11,13,1,0,3,4,1,2,1,1,0,0,7,3,17,3,22,14,4,21,0,0,1,0,13,8,0,2,11,92,28,1,0.4771422215035315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819718601657494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370052582552231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17598293090118702,0.0,0.1025724199595521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15580590904418984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15557888301482414,0.0,0.0,0.08041914790394324,0.11362349945988225,0.0,0.0,0.1453664487646838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12287963224372428,0.0,0.08309570580555005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1272047407692768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11233988727328124,0.07770252934735898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352164179849975,0.0,0.15049450226763714,0.0,0.16124910739053416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16916649505532186,0.0,0.362061538531455,0.20377968334667587,0.0,0.0,0.1707573934677373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1264808818753591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347603519649697,0.24488492878216495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270154648141514,0.0,0.0,0.1662708828662126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938102815238218,0.12624442876240075,0.12757823643833474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242131564201527
schizophrenia,Notyourcupo_t_nea93,2020/02/09,whats the CRAZIEST/DESTRUCTIVE?/WORST thing you've DONE or BELIEVED during episode?? **cant be alone here.. i wonder who else has a story. ill share mine if you share yours.**,0.7346874999999997,1.9754880937500021,1.088750000000001,94.38125,121.1875,4.1000000000000005,16.5,5.985473137389443,-0.032449999999999424,137,4,26,2,8,41,30,32,0.168,0.693,0.139,-0.2359,0,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,0,16,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4336340572952169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4717175203101224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4284627536173294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3497597434197268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781574201090741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4540488141929724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,WRLD-999-,2020/02/09,"Schizophrenia is Ruining My Life Everyday is filled the same old bullshit,  I wake up, go to my classes, and go home. I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia about a year ago. I’m new here, so some background information about myself, I’m a 21 year old male currently in my third year of college. I have been on countless amounts of atypical’s (Latuda, Vraylar, Abilify, Geodon, etc.) and absolutely nothing has helped. I’m currently on Risperdal and that’s still not doing shit. Pdoc wants to put me on clozapine but there’s no way in hell thats going to happen with all of the nasty things I’ve heard about it. Anyway, life is constantly dull. I don’t have many friends (I don’t go out much because of my paranoia), I don’t find pleasure in just about everything that normal 21 year olds do like going to the bars, trips with friends, etc. It’s just something you can’t ignore, and for those of you who are in my position now, or have been, you know exactly what I’m talking about. Life is not enjoyable by any means, even with there being a decent amount going for me (research positions available, I live in a nice neighborhood, I have a puppy) I still feel like complete shit about myself and the world. The smallest of tasks are seemingly impossible for me such as brushing my teeth, or having the motivation to shower or even get out of bed, as I’m sure many of you have also experienced this. I try to maintain a positive outlook on my life, and situations that I get into, but you can only be so positive when life becomes taxing and redundant. I honestly have no clue where I’m going with this (as I sit in my universities library brain dead from being here all day) but I’m just curious to see how other people have responded to different medications, CBT, or if you have your own ways of coping that may be different than the usual norms. Again, I’m new to this whole thing so if I’m all over the place, it’s because I have absolutely no clue where to start. If you’ve actually read this whole blerb throughout, I’d like to thank you immensely. If you got bored and stopped, that’s fine because honestly that’s what I would’ve done.",6.445103668261567,6.427741050239238,6.813504784688997,77.23411682615631,65.5311004784689,10.411642743221693,33.684609250398715,10.125756701596842,3.239770015948963,1701,68,329,36,24,553,213,418,0.102,0.755,0.14400000000000002,0.968,5,0,1,0,0,0,54.0,0,9,0,1,29,20,3,0,14,0,33,13,5,2,5,52,62,28,1,6,16,0,1,3,2,1,7,1,3,1,21,16,1,2,7,2,1,10,9,7,0,1,6,5,37,13,55,51,13,55,1,2,1,0,18,19,3,11,26,219,58,6,0.0,0.0,0.08783670811401041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07978837253122675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07198090892949732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06120983933613455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16460765463729693,0.09940889655530166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10048085054883317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09437369965581416,0.09726875829516156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05804895885959253,0.0,0.0,0.09135818479931623,0.0,0.18808243954476855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09211140971814484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20076973119522049,0.1189014204295679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08089512169142615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04551172537452408,0.06430311235935121,0.0,0.0,0.0822674458420084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390828981047852,0.0,0.09405294736377087,0.0,0.35808302462066705,0.0,0.07198916401282811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959548431012703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06033175910999841,0.0,0.09028729928819118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049467103859232336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178833792353494,0.1319229164472221,0.0,0.07948041772116406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825118838914056,0.0,0.09804720166842414,0.0,0.0906755354894888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06616765561889204,0.0,0.0,0.17386430359700866,0.0,0.0,0.0881906210069348,0.08636695593000343,0.0,0.2833508423906578,0.0,0.0,0.06845660817501062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0624015525260837,0.0,0.09404121977238428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09048484109774674,0.0,0.0,0.09003428850095471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07172626101175225,0.08194166022289226,0.0,0.0,0.1847878004343376,0.0,0.10117493319008544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06929404201351462,0.0,0.0,0.0637094921115528,0.0,0.14376409359233555,0.07525233230551777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08483329430587731,0.0,0.0,0.07234657264881439,0.0,0.08286905082147729,0.0,0.0,0.11959719659876075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06111083442654694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09913322197758256,0.0,0.05309018910668687,0.14289138648325134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009857460057661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06394047214130495,0.0,0.0,0.2318537766933133
schizophrenia,Dxtagg28,2020/02/09,"Hello friends. Just an average 24 year old Male curious about the psychology behind schizo. Hope nobody takes it the wrong way. Much love. What are the levels to schizophrenia? From functional to full blown. I'm really curious to read personal stories about it. Does looking at a mirror make you question if you are real? What are the triggers for you? And also what soothes you and helps calm down the noise? My father in law also has schizophrenia. He is too out of it for questions.  Thanks & again, MUCH love to all.",2.5251201923076927,5.48819415625,2.9004166666666684,87.4208653846154,86.60416666666666,5.870512820512822,23.009615384615394,7.321109707123232,1.3106451923076925,413,15,73,7,13,127,72,96,0.027000000000000003,0.731,0.242,0.9740000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,4,0,0,7,7,0,0,7,0,5,2,0,2,1,13,13,5,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,6,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,6,15,13,4,10,0,0,1,2,15,6,0,4,3,50,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3116139919390719,0.0,0.2111002767362088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17049870418562404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505266387068598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305917122787877,0.0,0.0,0.19351203281228585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16360972205866334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3516867838045185,0.0,0.13005180274757913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.286447720809528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20444329945674544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17011969561980828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4365126233484117,0.0,0.1948846191887932,0.22176135053886264,0.12481430083580827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14648933784461105,0.0,0.0,0.17937503234347324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1546484895021513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21301809186196527,0.0,0.12546535250811894
schizophrenia,EuphoricMonsterSlut,2020/02/10,"How can I accurately portray a character with Schizophrenia? Hey y’all,

So I’m writing a book that revolves around mental illness as a big plot point. I have several characters whose point of views will switch between, all of which have complex histories along with mental illness. Most of my characters are based off of people I know very very well so it won’t be too hard to portray them and their psychological mindsets in an accurate way. Ive also done tons and tons of research on all the different disorders I’ll be trying to grasp. However, the only people I know with schizophrenia are people I’ve met during hospitalisions, so I never got a chance to get to know and understand them in the way I understand the other people I’m using as inspiration. Anyways, Ive done tons and tons of research (disorders that cause hallucinations have always fascinated me, considering I have hallucinations on a daily basis) however, I’m still afraid I won’t be able to represent a character with schizophrenia in a completely accurate way, especially since there will be chapters that are told from their perspective which requires an in depth understanding.  Also, the primary goal of my story is to raise awareness and attempt to get close-minded people to see things from the eyes of those different from themselves who they’d otherwise dismiss due to their misguided and ignorant schemas. I know this is a hard question to answer, I’m just looking for any advice or tips you guys can think of. Is there any stories/movies with characters you guys think portrayed an individual with schizophrenia in an affective and successful way? Can you think of other sources that could help me? Or do you have any personal stories/descriptions or thoughts that you think would be helpful or that you would want me/others to be aware of in order to ensure accurate representation?

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this and for any feedback! I really appreciate it!",9.154544505740267,9.190935025495754,8.837659162069484,64.79209929923961,59.934844192634564,12.304100193827345,39.54212017295364,11.723238792162213,4.954487818696884,1596,74,254,43,19,514,178,353,0.036000000000000004,0.879,0.085,0.9590000000000001,4,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,8,6,4,15,6,0,1,19,0,33,3,1,4,3,53,60,21,0,4,5,0,2,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,18,16,0,2,17,2,0,0,3,2,1,0,6,6,30,4,50,40,8,23,0,0,4,0,26,14,0,6,4,182,48,8,0.09428518932578968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09213439579338774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15079966367906672,0.07845283054809575,0.0,0.0,0.2564686476737786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0839338081209031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968568614883002,0.0,0.0,0.09885622715729586,0.0,0.0,0.07527905162096196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970159105317064,0.2161179909061608,0.0,0.0,0.1929729675976455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09852023989009012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07540847901979572,0.0,0.0,0.18671432185776227,0.0,0.0,0.16892202027474532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12639474991716754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2072666971309331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07917581270194067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900345894543954,0.0,0.09520116353287088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06931046274738191,0.0,0.07271855050559765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0717081351356127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3268273933301509,0.08232619056999295,0.0,0.0,0.1782599591585986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10562099022414592,0.0,0.09431070423705228,0.0,0.06040150659235447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07513308874804124,0.0,0.0,0.10651542672598817,0.0,0.07799368292655587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752962739887198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07089072843640397,0.0,0.0,0.08680513471649998,0.0,0.0,0.06263889027060349,0.2416565690035261,0.0,0.07485190856682994,0.05497845211727551,0.0,0.0,0.09009353890381454,0.0,0.0640134545098385,0.0,0.0,0.2944626217018184,0.0,0.08143213115079112,0.0,0.1555903110752118,0.05561184750937224,0.29935677868996197,0.0,0.0,0.08477370839991798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13395498664560773,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,carriemwright,2020/02/10,"Handwriting Does anyone else's hand writing change a bit when they're super manic, or in a psychosis? I can tell which poems I've written while nutty!",5.634482758620693,6.894618827586211,5.933965517241383,78.34508620689657,67.6206896551724,7.179310344827586,28.29310344827586,7.1686216300943375,1.75043448275862,122,4,20,1,2,39,27,29,0.0,0.74,0.26,0.8122,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836343360457249,0.4156281919295573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4428560317467588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42911547702193337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3549800703002467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3388618616596219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3545490098945807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,pigboyslave,2020/02/10,Anybody else has a dude/woman/person/thing living in their head? I have a dude who lives in my head and I can't really hear his voice but I talk to him inside my head. Does anyone else experience this?,0.4885714285714258,2.79634023809524,2.5764761904761926,91.55185714285713,87.09523809523809,5.2647619047619045,13.16190476190476,6.742157984588678,-0.5786152380952383,158,2,34,2,5,53,33,42,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,3,3,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,8,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,0,20,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14996282987087056,0.21975047416622245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876846669276448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3583253312574691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2097934000073758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6603261296162576,0.0,0.24172395290205564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3787629373109639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872674549800372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373953578830233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723833438884237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,egatsohemsahehempleh,2020/02/10,"is having intrusive voices talking and saying stuff in your head considered one of my schizophrenic symptoms when i don’t actually HEAR them? should i bring it up to my psychiatrist? this has been a problem i’ve been going through where i’m trying to do something and all i’m hearing in my head are voices telling me to either do something like “cut it, cut it, cut it, cut it, cut it” or telling me that “they’re watching you”, “where is she?” (i’m not looking for anyone) or even the most random things such as “eight seals fall down her cheeks” and a lot of the time they’re repetitive, but i don’t actually HEAR it, it isn’t a hallucination but it’s very intrusive and i don’t control them. do you experience these?",6.149877622377622,5.816660517482521,6.812019230769232,78.06110576923079,66.2027972027972,9.9472027972028,33.259615384615394,9.516144504307137,2.832511188811189,566,22,115,10,8,187,84,143,0.092,0.894,0.013000000000000001,-0.7438,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,2,1,5,7,5,0,5,0,15,5,3,1,1,17,24,10,0,2,6,0,0,1,0,1,2,6,0,0,14,4,0,1,0,0,0,3,5,6,0,2,2,8,16,1,12,21,4,12,0,0,2,0,14,6,0,5,4,82,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.3209543813352392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498562486796254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844420297836964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10861612602876594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16086136287101585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09345939276045416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33754147698221143,0.0,0.5560333809504043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08034081828541145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13809461407286336,0.0,0.0,0.13980751666362787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11143398783269776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15735419791685334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13077537671780046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25319967997660225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18825322268113226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17092408075573567,0.0,0.13217679694966536,0.2874689998214712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925171567780324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09589075082866144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164916398502933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13568653878106315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SufficientRate0,2020/02/10,"Is Schizophrenia cause by Trauma? My sister had a horrific childhood. To the point her School mate used to hit her into rhe Palm tree. She didn't use to Halluscinate before.

At some point of life my mother used to scream at her all the time but not hit her.

Could that be the main cause of her Schizophrenia?",2.7239999999999998,5.15186206666667,2.666666666666668,93.755,78.33333333333334,5.333333333333334,18.333333333333336,6.42735559955562,-0.20216666666666594,244,5,50,2,6,73,43,60,0.11,0.89,0.0,-0.7013,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,0,5,2,1,5,1,11,10,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,8,0,10,4,3,7,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,1,2,33,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2020643512893182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4878818262247073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18959566011611576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16772782703483574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4489604199468321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24032621864634784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13846715250640287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6152778891769626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,PopcornPlayerr,2020/02/10,"What are these things? 

I often feel people are watching me, even when I’m obviously alone. I feel someone is going to grab my feet and drag me to the and kill me. I feel like they watch me and try to shoot me through my window. I shut the blinds, but my computer is in the corner where the edge of the blinds don’t cover so I always turn around and check to see if someone’s watching, I don’t every see anything though. If I’m going to a friends house on my bike I check behind to make sure nothing is chasing me, than 5 seconds later I think some serial killer is chasing after me trying to kill me. It gets worse when I wake up randomly during the night and can’t see anything, I feel like something is just staring at me, ready to kill me. What is wrong with me? Is this normal?

I don’t want to call it Schizophrenia but I couldn’t find any other subs  to talk about this.",2.274590163934427,3.751157114754101,3.418273224043716,92.28478688524592,76.21311475409837,5.75431693989071,22.036065573770493,6.079149491110277,0.1832006557377049,684,18,150,4,15,221,104,183,0.179,0.737,0.085,-0.9705,0,1,1,1,0,4,16.0,0,0,1,0,10,8,3,0,7,0,14,4,2,1,2,27,30,13,3,5,5,0,5,2,1,0,2,0,1,0,9,7,0,0,6,1,2,2,5,4,0,1,0,14,28,4,22,29,1,15,0,0,9,0,4,8,0,5,7,99,37,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14338282070873076,0.0,0.0,0.11519375830864473,0.0,0.0,0.0941444279558735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278498115619804,0.1232415801833444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14136344023837144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091438781173816,0.0,0.11664226637494045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799991241368916,0.19780413719464213,0.0,0.0,0.1265322979473089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10695894665410613,0.0,0.0723295553718183,0.0,0.15735808807980528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15974198823829286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4594923911201288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352702728613146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09241024679650096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299172250980258,0.13564249891552546,0.13283759193793998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09597735478221464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3309579580147052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346007232235333,0.1065784196930809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13047872777741945,0.0,0.0,0.11127339608241482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09197385404889966,0.0887072149245869,0.13601729152589326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879843048565886,0.1505837347450984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165591574372233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14108290754630026,0.0,0.15136318009594338,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TrickyTDT,2020/02/10,"Am I a victim of poor doctoring? In 2010, I had anxiety. It was uncommon, so I went to see a psychiatrist. He made me go over this little book, then he gave me resperidone and told me to come back in a week. A few days later, the anxiety quit, so I forgot about the psychiatric stuff. A few months later, I had a psychotic break. Voices, superpowers, etc.. I eventually got hospitalized and told by my doctor that I had sza bp. Over 9 years, I never had another voice or a sensory hallucination. I'd get headaches from pills and they'd say the antipsychotic quit. I seen my old doctor and he said when I first saw him I was replying to voices. I wasnt, I had anxiety. He diagnosed me off this? He doesnt ask if I'm replying to voices, he just gives me pills and says come back in a week? I've never had a mood problem in my entire life. I'm bipolar? Did small city Saskatchewan doctors ruin the last 9 years? He didnt ask me how much cannabis I was smoking at the time of the break. One 3 min appointment, then a break, then sza?",1.927030075187972,3.7816875476190495,4.172907268170427,84.83086466165413,78.28571428571429,8.230576441102757,23.90977443609023,8.99025400887824,1.8051428571428585,795,27,172,20,19,275,116,210,0.081,0.907,0.012,-0.8957,1,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,1,3,8,4,1,0,16,0,15,9,0,2,2,16,35,14,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,9,7,0,0,5,7,0,1,0,1,1,4,5,3,0,2,22,10,25,0,17,12,4,38,0,1,3,0,18,10,0,2,21,102,30,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12945294725098838,0.2833273697545729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308268340202535,0.0,0.0,0.1898579852572426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21269047038158964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0796180253488314,0.0,0.0,0.12530385412714776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5054441937230802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13768454991796672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10501044804099928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06449995051120183,0.11842893359520355,0.07016211313279655,0.0,0.0987379480668736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10063200343180674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08719965850601955,0.0,0.12373397528939672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11681575906203102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985403104955958,0.0,0.09075336036741233,0.0,0.1904316479168121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12954487037191784,0.0,0.08365605457330408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11812941118139007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26261839774861034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11743362712041287,0.1963521590553466,0.0,0.0,0.09837735903624913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14132601889701124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07198738948875504,0.0,0.0,0.2359323853517977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19805572037224065,0.0,0.0,0.114443681933045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15900147248670302
schizophrenia,MasochistBanana,2020/02/10,"Clozapine - Side effects I've been on clozapine for one year, after trying different APs.

I don't have many side effects from taking it, except for one, which is very annoying while I'm sleeping: drooling.

Almost every night I choke on my own saliva. Not funny at all.

Is there something I can do about it?",3.9408620689655134,6.080363086206898,5.0064137931034525,79.82996551724139,73.3103448275862,7.398620689655173,27.11724137931035,8.238735603445708,2.1000372413793102,241,9,41,4,5,79,45,58,0.15,0.85,0.0,-0.8241,1,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,7,2,2,2,1,6,9,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,1,4,0,9,8,2,9,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,4,30,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3125379869285849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260936396898724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629702642198135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164355197053761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29289868992182705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4229942669737824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31234030513087424,0.0,0.0,0.2402812981764988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346715612328479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21190552898899948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575274793901989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20099176217822606
schizophrenia,jeteauloin82882,2020/02/10,Anyone else hears angels or divine creatures telling them what to do ? They disaprove when I am not doing things altruistic and selfless. And on the contrary approve when I give up things and have more spiritual thoughts. Also they make me feel apahetic when I try some thing I enjoy like drawing.,6.5233018867924555,8.59193411320755,5.8303301886792465,76.86172169811323,66.35849056603774,7.564150943396226,34.00471698113208,8.07648339933343,2.7830415094339624,240,11,38,3,4,73,44,53,0.0,0.8320000000000001,0.168,0.8519,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,3,1,4,3,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,9,9,8,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,8,3,3,8,2,5,2,0,0,0,6,2,0,2,4,31,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23246649796689986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032587894574656,0.297848576211795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428360852020901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14698274266874822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27885850715952065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32763130765171683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14201755643339406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19403934304030213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25407785093726376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5793690689680812,0.0,0.0,0.23077718644918974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973609652649552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,johnsheepcomehome,2020/02/10,"need some relationship advice from someone with SZ i've been having ups and downs with this girl recently. The thing is, I usually don't have the patience for any of that shit and in past relationships I put a stop to it early and was never the vulnerable one. I've never said 'I love you' to any of my ex'es but this girl is the first one I've felt like I could with. She told me early on that she has mild schizophrenia and bipolar disorder.

We know each others' love language and I've always tried my best to make her feel love with gifts (hers is gifts + words of affirmation). She never really returns the favor even knowing my love language. Her past relationship has traumatized her for sure, he literally beat and abused her for years. She came back from jail and he left her with nothing, salvaged her car and sold her bike. 

After hearing more fucked up shit from her past, I wanted to make sure she felt safe with me. We got into a huge fight and she said I was a bigger piece of shit than her ex (I never harmed her ever) and she said she was going to block me. I msged her with my feelings and assumed we'd never talk again. 

Fast forward to a few days ago, her dog is in trouble and she asks me to help. Of course I am willing to. She had apparently been asking several people to help for hours but I was the only one who showed up. She has no car and is literally broke very often in this stage of her life. Her brother and friend that she was with was trying to assure her the dog would be fine (he got into some drugs and was throwing up and acting drunk). I said we should take him to the emergency vet even if he will ""probably be fine"". She was concerned about the money. I said don't worry I'll pay for it. I actually like the dog and had no problem with helping. The bill was not cheap, and I'm not going to tell her how much.

Since then, I asked her if she still hates me and she said she can't anymore.  Basically a few more situations arise where she is in trouble and I help her again and again financially. She says she will spend the night with me (in 2 days) and she expresses my love language and shows shes going to try to show that she cares. This was a few days ago; I've msged her a few times and she hasn't responded. I called her several times; she did return one call but i was too upset to pick up.

Whenever we fight it's basically a re hash of the underlying issue. She doesn't deliver on what she says and It's not acceptable to me to never get back to me. Whenever she needs something is the only time she msgs me and I'm always there for her. This is unfortunately a deal breaker for me if things don't change but I don't want to keep bringing it up and fighting because I'm not trying to come across as needy. 

As gross as it will sound, I have physical needs and have a tinder date tonight. Do I try to be patient and understanding of what she might be going through? Or do I protect my heart and my wallet and move on?  

To muddy the waters a little bit, she's addicted to heroin and crack. I told her I'm willing to cover her expenses and pay for treatment when she's ready, but this isn't a decision I can force on her. And I'm worried if I end things with her, she'll never care for getting off drugs and might even drown deeper in them. 

Through our time, I can tell she is comfortable with me and she trusts me. If you're familiar with the Maslow's hierarchy of needs, I'm basically covered in that regard and she doesn't have her shit together. That explains some of her behavior and she told me she doesn't have the capacity to return my feelings currently but she wants to in the future. I'll bring up again that she has a history of not being able to deliver on what she promises. 

So wtf do I do?",3.535285714285717,4.5132505285714295,4.78090909090909,85.72136363636366,72.28571428571428,7.937662337662338,25.168831168831172,8.296473431620573,1.3612935064935066,2937,86,632,45,55,973,309,770,0.16,0.741,0.099,-0.9956,3,0,3,0,5,0,67.0,6,1,1,3,19,38,9,1,31,0,70,18,5,4,11,126,131,57,1,16,17,2,5,2,1,10,5,10,0,2,27,60,2,5,12,5,8,15,24,16,0,5,31,15,124,22,97,83,14,95,0,1,0,6,126,32,5,13,51,447,151,2,0.05746132010260329,0.06808226817698769,0.05607395952506542,0.06264132052124075,0.0,0.056150536971936615,0.1018719865065894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09562484291149123,0.0,0.0,0.07815133620479339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05698618922447497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16115573276368556,0.0,0.0,0.08836841656657445,0.0,0.03502788739785612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060302110365953274,0.0,0.0627328792006149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11734886477098125,0.06572044232703793,0.11717129088167676,0.0,0.06078645756940896,0.04949783929539511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04587818843175731,0.0,0.0,0.11117339342931674,0.05924009790768525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06585565105289351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13327377711453178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05089367418750992,0.0,0.0,0.11385797999145834,0.05197705375546468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08716250989009554,0.0,0.11034375687361332,0.0,0.0,0.04887656952514538,0.0,0.0,0.04439447337230385,0.05312206451548023,0.06004233625016714,0.0,0.13062636964380342,0.0,0.09191413375508188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056731157347475775,0.0,0.0,0.06476308391717424,0.06809194098705433,0.15406044652852535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0565878255995675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059974689267472736,0.0,0.05107426149537212,0.0,0.0,0.06315847757009381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062431892421031976,0.0,0.04058662972159091,0.05614539703748445,0.05759133837324089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593054241616,0.0,0.07671175472590157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12191476018348553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061072289590290214,0.04224068185964281,0.17042736306534825,0.3102239870880305,0.0,0.0,0.053923556379717734,0.0,0.05513568637882099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15574911044870707,0.08740384648856224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16455999576548955,0.03983644430420926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06195302175514589,0.05498272301740343,0.0,0.057764497626223335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0368111930389202,0.0,0.056736121416011524,0.18507586047437827,0.0,0.0,0.3279532435648622,0.091391096148205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12982987200288212,0.2359328773758577,0.04753259777777123,0.06458893133026157,0.0,0.0,0.04868679005390405,0.04423653152108771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0458886844597521,0.04804023655337003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10831322833982596,0.0,0.04320376156763698,0.04618523250235226,0.10044745295976036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11452424342939113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340246313740944,0.0,0.0,0.16472026142643809,0.0,0.19506232244777091,0.0,0.0,0.05981926070910412,0.0,0.0,0.06328552601886082,0.04741160692091279,0.1016765261039508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11670951960609452,0.0,0.04081887315507465,0.0,0.0,0.037003206202694316
schizophrenia,TiTzMcgee123,2020/02/10,"What are your lives like? I’m currently in crisis management with this program that isn’t the program I was actually supposed to be in, but the program I’m in is promising. I’m telling them a lot of things I’ve never told anyone before and my case manager has suggested schizophrenia. This is terrifying for me. My mother supposedly has schizophrenia, but we don’t really know because my father also has some sort of illness(es) and is a compulsive liar. I think there is something wrong with her as she’s been living on the street since I was 8 and the only thing I’ve seen is a mugshot from 2016, but she’s not in jail. I lived in fostercare and my entire family is a fucking train wreck. I have the opportunity to go to college, but mental illness symptoms keep resurfacing and I’m on academic probation now and taking some time off till the fall. What’re your lives like? I really want to know how other people live not just some bullshit that a case manager has to say.",4.716293233082705,6.188362900000001,5.726015037593987,78.18210526315791,70.0,9.007518796992482,29.887218045112785,9.424239791934726,2.7633007518797004,781,31,144,17,14,258,115,190,0.12300000000000001,0.784,0.092,-0.8454,1,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,1,2,1,1,5,7,2,0,11,0,18,3,0,1,1,28,32,14,0,1,7,2,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,8,9,0,1,3,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,5,2,18,4,21,26,4,16,0,0,1,1,13,9,1,5,7,98,26,8,0.0,0.0,0.15055284836675367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12337587666989502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10787460369341953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09404629643925616,0.0,0.13127901889857613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454393508794951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14262731206546933,0.0,0.0,0.08767961183877226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13712917032226848,0.0,0.0,0.16957405500203532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150744650783883,0.0,0.6811504856129743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13116144275224165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15547570531348764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11898852689599942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11733519586022292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10695678010969296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19766857952346054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12268787470163996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12762016533745638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11877056442551386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160353674595061,0.11599768269009612,0.0,0.13484557076371165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20499058982550888,0.09885496534428853,0.0,0.0,0.08996060816632045,0.0,0.0,0.1474190203528205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09099702575336382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16867852220934176,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,777swans,2020/02/10,"Medical ID bracelet Curious if anyone here has a medical ID bracelet or anything for their schizophrenia? 

I'm considering getting one just in case there may be a time when I'm too out of it to communicate to medical professionals or whoever that I do have schizophrenia. I do also wonder though if having one could lead to being mistreated (I'm thinking in particular the police who don't always know how to properly speak with/help mentally ill people).",13.456465863453815,9.412001795180727,12.828915662650607,52.3629718875502,55.144578313253014,16.84979919678715,50.55823293172689,14.554592549557764,7.232432931726907,371,19,58,12,3,124,62,83,0.036000000000000004,0.934,0.03,-0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,8,0,0,0,3,0,10,4,0,2,0,13,17,8,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,3,0,9,13,0,6,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,6,2,42,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810119661698975,0.18834128356316635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15826914175929047,0.0,0.18626671531207664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18072200975614094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11825850200825562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15171759430942908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12439600810070935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6840712574998312,0.2281075026177557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067611562288465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569225490867864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450359026870692,0.22238766795101295,0.0,0.13198647095002855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.245466855748994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,R3volutionzz,2020/02/10,"How to cope with schizophrenia Hey friends💫⭐️

The secret to a healthier mental state and life is to become stronger with your illness. I have suffered many terrible dooming and destructive thoughts. Things that would make you shrink down and just want to be dead, or I die anyways. 

And in my experience, and I believe this for all of you as well. Do not give in. Become stronger than your thoughts and retaliate. Peacefully though. You don’t want to be at war with your mind. You just want to get to a more safer and peaceful states. So don’t forget to keep your love strong. And your intentions set! 

You rule your mind. Not the opposite way around. Make sure your the boss. And overtime. I swear you will heal. 

Nobody needs to or deserves to be subject to their own mind. I think we all need to stand up for ourselves on this level and make sure the right things are being said. 

As I said, I am not a professional and this is only my own experience. But it brought me out of hell, so I’d hope it can do the same for you.. 

I wish you all peace of mind with this💫⭐️🎁",0.9314850427350408,3.367743708333337,1.8537037037037043,96.56935897435899,86.45370370370371,5.1749287749287785,20.80769230769231,6.67199483983844,0.21529615384615355,835,27,186,10,26,260,122,216,0.149,0.6779999999999999,0.17300000000000001,0.2614,0,0,0,0,0,1,25.0,1,15,1,1,9,12,3,0,8,0,16,4,0,6,5,56,36,20,3,8,8,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,8,18,0,1,4,0,0,1,5,6,1,0,5,2,28,6,33,25,7,16,2,2,0,1,23,10,1,3,0,125,36,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376300875370753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822750165694404,0.0,0.1439791330283839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326291272086943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500124699104811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06676665317561367,0.1225908465454636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12692744560223973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135884349754168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902640902878249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11533831894494108,0.0,0.2559087858075853,0.12956220930615164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287854509857725,0.0,0.5161386593946716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18951402213945034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09719245900762513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10913466291345324,0.2431211246198165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2408870874299492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16980019807781158,0.08188469875970182,0.12555613376180155,0.2029069935026407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2261271555523396,0.1014362644714392,0.0,0.0,0.11490140083829133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469558306131604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078059639815064,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,vintologi_se,2020/02/10,"About political/religious delusions In the description

""Because of religious and political delusions being common in schizophrenia, discussions of religious, philosophical, conspiratorial or political subjects may be removed to avoid engaging in delusions.""

Its common in people without schizofrenia, it's very easy to get manipulated by media or cult-leaders. 

So you dont need to feel bad about having been delusional, it's normal in humans. 

My advice would to find someone good to talk politics/religion with, that helped me a lot when i had gotten things wrong in the past.",11.720425531914891,12.274865936170215,11.073914893617024,49.15300000000002,54.53191489361702,13.902978723404255,46.45957446808511,13.023866798666859,6.925913191489363,474,26,58,15,5,154,72,94,0.115,0.799,0.086,-0.4417,0,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,1,3,0,8,0,0,1,0,14,12,5,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,3,1,4,2,18,5,1,11,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,4,4,44,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552717049820307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21811679834497966,0.1592438651555236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061605407730517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320861367201656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387602098071408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13648230606721412,0.0,0.0,0.21910799295490302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750974922790362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22208907627460311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19369932101907786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559507100181018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24937434829214625,0.18110453802141926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213400009580284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099674140562424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17355012945889256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155427603602101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518171598781501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855708584042374,0.28561486057759605,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ceb1ess,2020/02/10,"Can Thorazine cause colour blindness? I'm taking Thorazine and i heard that it can cause colour blindness / colour vision deficiency, is it true?",5.727499999999999,9.41005341666667,3.7550000000000026,82.39000000000001,77.33333333333334,4.866666666666667,28.83333333333333,6.42735559955562,1.6546833333333333,118,5,17,1,3,33,16,24,0.0,0.795,0.205,0.6322,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,1,4,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,1,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9390917918375732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3436664174796488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ekolajno,2020/02/10,"suicide I am going a bit crazier than normal thinking of people committing suicide. more than 100,000 people have committed suicide in 2020 alone. I started to think of this more and more throughout 2019, like I was just spinning trying to help... and failing. in September my own cousin who suffered these types of disorders killed himself. his girlfriend had killed herself, he lost his cat, and I feel like I wasn't there for him enough. I feel like I failed my own family when I was trying harder than ever, even for random people, who were sometimes even very shitty to me. once I called a suicide hotline when I felt I was being abusive to a girlfriend. they were cold to me, they said ""just ask her."" but I did ask her anyway, and luckily she was like ""wtf are you talking about even,"" so it worked out. I've lost a lot of people to suicide really, and I think I will never kill myself in part because of it... please just take care of yourself. have some self-compassion. any human being is a beautiful miracle of a generative singularity stumbling around precariously on two legs. you don't have to look further than yourself",5.6040916271721954,7.064301668246447,5.8343886255924176,78.28719115323854,67.86255924170617,8.091121642969984,31.60221169036335,8.447377352677275,2.5413542496050554,896,37,155,13,15,285,127,211,0.191,0.648,0.161,-0.4936,0,1,0,0,0,6,33.0,0,2,2,5,14,13,3,0,6,0,19,1,1,0,4,25,35,9,8,1,4,1,3,4,2,1,0,1,0,1,6,7,0,0,6,0,0,1,3,8,0,1,13,6,31,5,27,19,10,13,0,5,1,0,25,7,0,3,9,118,37,4,0.0,0.11839970078924007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10349646109935977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06795524789855972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08895812863927333,0.18684052936356746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06091588159789268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10909674906381743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10203883367047896,0.0,0.10188442712730256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11452746197693127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10325352345267484,0.0,0.19800678097872992,0.09039163613872353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09420430801942342,0.0,0.10105436033357394,0.1427788077348874,0.0959476538284048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056792038129535566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06698040202265036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316703922265667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952813379439724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08391531719033439,0.0,0.21816894078472385,0.08495618880712537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0770715199889449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979093488539231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10642128213431556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10821353012280896,0.0,0.2771131580906911,0.0,0.0,0.10969219721904136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06401717155152438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09505550405087013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10424789593293593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09883248334206066,0.0,0.07073036585110093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5465313481344061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07513428355941443,0.08031926455423714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920916907610261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13569066502327098,0.0,0.09761625810155077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08245201318469808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07274961047471444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,nothotboy,2020/02/10,"Government are really controlling us Not personal experience but straight facts......... we are constantly being brain washed by our government who are indirectly controlling every thing about us. And thsi lie about YOLO ,this is straight up bullshit. Everybody is gonna answer its every action in afterlife. :) have a rational day .",7.772884615384616,11.318890519230775,7.527538461538462,59.61746153846156,66.88461538461539,13.390769230769232,37.32307692307693,11.979248473330829,6.683110769230769,265,14,34,12,5,84,43,52,0.08199999999999999,0.723,0.196,0.7391,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,4,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,7,2,1,2,1,9,8,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,5,6,0,7,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,2,24,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557009213546671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24752687680534416,0.5138088935272862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14772140346148113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3859771135911471,0.0,0.0,0.22405955672082367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20000182536528205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14673837681112376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15217383807313672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5510494682171466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,shemale118,2020/02/10,"I hear voices I had this problem for a long time but i am afraid to talk about it, i am afraid i would just be locked up in some ward and never getting out again. I am also afraid people will look down upon me if they find out. 

I may have had a mild psychotic episode lately which is why i havn't been posted on reddit lately but now it's just voices and some occasional hallucinations. 

I am considering seeking help, do you think i would benefit from starting on anti-psychotics, any good long term studies on this?",3.831176470588237,5.455674617647063,4.768774509803921,83.58198529411767,72.43137254901961,7.060784313725492,24.514705882352942,7.645422480735847,1.1665058823529413,409,12,80,5,8,133,73,102,0.021,0.862,0.11699999999999999,0.8844,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,1,0,6,6,0,3,2,0,15,0,0,0,1,18,20,6,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,4,0,3,0,0,5,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,4,13,2,13,12,3,20,0,0,1,0,5,9,0,4,10,61,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736845189329805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14769473819057258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985051587624352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11347134372188568,0.0,0.0,0.1821663122291776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447857500093377,0.0,0.1455759966530019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4899932250503619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3844076607826627,0.18238254124399966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16750815159572036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150570252478745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208005293800886,0.0,0.0,0.20781881092295615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15372621231690298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745668379829252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391647829656214,0.0,0.0,0.12664359819781792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1959776594260585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30856709950933225,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,WheresTheVision,2020/02/10,"Learning to cope Hello. First post. I have been dealing with this illness for probably 8 months? Time seems to have a distortion to it. Days seem like weeks and weeks seem like days. It's really just strange, not so much scary anymore.

Just wondering. How's the best way to pacify yourself. I started to do my best at not accepting the negative thoughts and trying to disprove my own self stigma which has brought me far in terms of confidence and mental stability. But it seems like every turn of the corner I am faced with a new blockade.

It's getting harder. And I know it will continue to get harder. What's the best strategy to keep my mind from seaming.",3.0037728937728936,5.5992538095238125,3.7360317460317485,85.54016483516487,78.36507936507937,7.051526251526253,27.152625152625152,8.139509932561175,2.0284903540903545,524,22,97,10,13,166,86,126,0.053,0.738,0.209,0.9714,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,4,4,7,0,0,6,0,7,2,1,1,0,23,20,7,0,0,5,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,8,6,0,1,9,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,3,0,8,7,16,16,6,18,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,5,14,63,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14334356358732436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4550533827227423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864310236933636,0.14901306539203554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12178009875828615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229445545842692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15103102280281733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12847264837272435,0.0,0.0,0.07943469609790135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21184294124342826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456610258218514,0.0,0.14594289575856018,0.0,0.11536942093368226,0.0,0.10625258415277783,0.0,0.0,0.13959638872131014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384281318997421,0.0,0.15583717799419958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09259520002845643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.526330459619024,0.15078539933128396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10230524428586137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11474759219225596,0.08428168531310144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09813229767353628,0.15721661331324607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11472810185739653,0.2318804726413963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15674606754858994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Bilbodidit,2020/02/10,"Auditory hallucinations arguing they are real? Hi all,

I’ve been experiencing auditory hallucinations on and off for about a year now. The first initial experience was the most vivid and real, to the point where it had me walking out in the streets trying to talk to this crazy people in my head(I mean I didn’t know that at the time). 

Sadly it seems like the hallucinations are accruing more frequent, lasting longer, and have become slightly more aggressive. I’ve not officially been diagnosed with schizophrenia but I am meeting with my doctors soon to figure that out.

My question to this community is do you experience voices trying to argue to you that they are real or compel you to do things? I.e go outside to meet them 

I apologize in advance, I’ve been dealing with an “attack” or whatever you might call it for the last couple hours and it’s been pretty rough. Just wondering what everyone else might be seeing or if they have any advice for me?",5.461964285714284,7.570010488636368,6.476493506493507,71.02045454545456,69.11363636363636,9.119480519480518,30.185064935064936,9.606745405546679,3.1122269480519478,770,31,128,18,14,256,113,176,0.08199999999999999,0.875,0.042,-0.7369,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,4,4,2,5,6,4,0,9,0,19,2,0,1,1,30,25,9,0,1,7,0,1,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,11,9,0,0,6,0,0,3,2,5,0,1,7,5,16,1,24,15,4,23,0,1,2,0,18,11,0,10,10,98,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14048515470299974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09776489370407776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16355304693197004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587767638401789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14679978421054185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15907285371320626,0.0,0.0,0.14821504420058226,0.0,0.14591809622068327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14714921382033336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12009691981431984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13737328650883127,0.0,0.2812588331373701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12228614010447902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08170476516044985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14754400972532572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14157922367928202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07900929332764088,0.23437475984964345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07023614745317995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566018527912885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050231550504327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996683084917122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13590406559948054,0.0,0.0,0.1462603360737372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16104931305782835,0.0,0.0,0.4909069464213934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11456181489215668,0.13087794035259792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155525820942686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955108471088655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08383032508670582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952135243835506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559066332127372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09257972279927816
schizophrenia,lowkey_toxtricity,2020/02/10,"is this normal? so, often i will turn my stuffed animals around and put them in a corner so they can't see me and in case someone anticipated me doing that and put a camera in their backside. is that common? it's something i do regularly but my partner was weirded out by it. thanks. sorry if this is a stupid question.",1.6134598214285705,4.023127890625002,3.8319642857142884,83.87375000000002,82.59375,5.5321428571428575,24.767857142857146,6.868970318607317,1.1347794642857143,251,10,48,3,7,86,48,64,0.1,0.84,0.06,-0.3736,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,3,0,4,3,1,0,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,10,11,7,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,6,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,1,9,1,6,9,0,9,0,0,1,0,5,6,0,3,1,40,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540445381459659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2796072229737311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5737620361823019,0.319685669943174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22740718260967935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417975828099884,0.21969586374156874,0.0,0.3194543070512387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627352535462953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3104064008973423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,emelsie,2020/02/11,"??? My therapist said I see the world differently, as a way to explains delusions and hallucinations. I used to like the way I see the world. Like magic, real magic. However, recently it has all felt very dark. I tried medication before, but I stopped because voices told me to. Then, last week I tried to take one again. I slept until 2PM. And, they were all gone. The world felt very boring. Like gray, a gray world. No voices or people only I can see, like shadow people or the ants or patterns in the air. I tried to go to the grocery store to distract myself. And all there was, was people following an everyday pattern and social interaction I can’t understand because of my developmental condition. It was just an empty world. Is that was life is like without psychosis?",2.659252450980389,5.491458479166671,4.184362745098042,80.14985294117648,82.2638888888889,6.721568627450981,24.442810457516337,7.928766900206844,1.8182962418300648,607,23,106,12,17,201,87,144,0.09699999999999999,0.815,0.08800000000000001,-0.307,2,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,1,0,3,7,0,1,11,0,10,3,1,1,3,20,25,11,0,0,6,0,2,5,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,4,0,1,4,0,1,3,3,2,0,1,11,10,15,5,12,14,3,20,0,0,5,0,6,7,0,3,13,68,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17770302970495794,0.0,0.12402763467692338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152284014745776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2798972670368424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08283650317462604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11881060731409555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295178503230873,0.35604513641605634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14683385239987462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876804903412953,0.11085401863141757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031466085204474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16590225692803734,0.0,0.0,0.1439164822419561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13864734956537073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.348446022372221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14857990342158287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185855638840527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10959038491270262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16923396940051022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13927612008492748,0.0,0.29687630275735,0.0,0.0,0.1517371536281855,0.0,0.12588640001185425,0.0,0.2405279569770005,0.0,0.23138868316390965,0.11691668463801608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14050359867346154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,JadedGypsy2238,2020/02/11,"Worried Sick About Schizophrenia, Need Advice Please Hi all. I really don’t mean to disrespect anyone here and I’d like to preface this post by saying two things. One, I am aware of the stigma attached to the illness and I think it’s really sad and makes it all the more scary (when that might be a little unnecessary) for people worried about it. Also, I am aware no one in this sub can diagnose me and that’s not really what I’m looking for anyways. Just some insight and opinions and hopefully support because I’ve been really down about this.

First off, I have been undergoing an EXTREME bout of chronic stress since moving across the country from literally everything I know. The unfamiliarity of my surroundings has really thrown me off. I had anxiety issues prior to the move but I feel that they’ve become unbearably severe since arriving here. 

Secondly, I’m having pretty bad adverse reactions to what I believe is my birth control and that could also be playing a role in my bad anxiety. I’ve been trying super hard for a month to resolve it and no luck yet. Hoping to switch to something different and maybe see some resolution in symptoms. 

Thirdly, I’ve also been pretty exhausted and my sleep schedule has been very thrown off because of the time difference where I moved. I’ve also been taking stupid needless antibiotics that the doctor prescribed me when there was no need for them (more on that later). 

So here’s my story. I had a really bad panic attack like two weeks after the move. After that panic attack, I felt like my anxiety levels didn’t really go down and I experienced some dp/dr but nothing insane. Did some research and found out maybe my birth control could be a contributing factor. Decided to try and resolve it which turned into a huge, very stressful, insane disaster that left me feeling really defeated and awful. The doctor I saw whilst trying to resolve this prescribed useless antibiotics that I know I didn’t need for a very minor infection that would’ve resolved on it’s own. I was told I couldn’t resolve my bc issues until taking the full course. Bullshit but I took them anyways. After the first pill I took, I think it was that night or the next, can’t recall, I was in bed trying to go to sleep and the fan was on and I started hearing music. Freaked me out immensely so I woke my husband up and managed to go to bed. Didn’t experience any more hallucinations until just recently. I stopped the antibiotics cold turkey after that first incident but felt like the symptoms of the infection came back so decided I should maybe finish the course and stop chickening out. I took one last night, didn’t get to sleep until almost 3, and woke up this morning at 8:30. I was like half asleep, not really awake at all yet and I started to hear voices. Nothing distinguishable and they slowly faded away as soon as I woke up more. It freaked me out so bad I spent most of today curled up in a ball crying because I’m so afraid of what this might mean. I should add that hallucinations are a very rare but albeit listed side effect online of the antibiotics. There was one more incident just a few days ago when I was fully awake (hungry, sleep deprived, had taken an antibiotic like a night or two prior) and heard birds. It was a hallucination. 

So tl;dr I’ve only noticed the hallucinations around the same time as taking the antibiotics and I’ve also been extremely stressed out/in an anxious state for a month now, as well as very tired most days and very hungry quite a bit due to financial reasons mostly. I’m aware no one can give me a real diagnosis without seeking a medical professional and I desperately want to but literally don’t have the money. Can anyone give me some insight or comfort?",4.861693776520506,6.797195248939183,5.756946605374825,76.27465611739746,70.34370579915135,8.501202263083451,28.608026874115982,9.09142767046562,2.601076803394626,2999,113,514,61,56,984,307,707,0.18600000000000005,0.708,0.106,-0.9967,1,0,1,0,0,0,63.0,0,0,3,14,35,40,3,6,42,1,49,19,5,5,3,105,100,56,0,11,15,1,5,6,0,4,14,5,2,0,33,33,0,4,23,2,2,11,15,21,1,14,39,15,54,19,77,51,21,95,0,4,3,0,13,35,0,18,53,360,87,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05146198139861949,0.04668285075584118,0.0,0.0527347022425438,0.0,0.0,0.2105741677780437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035812859742181936,0.0,0.1208618742731134,0.0594945553355679,0.0,0.07364682792214253,0.0,0.0,0.04688151515010213,0.0,0.11982424586703838,0.049478917515668575,0.04049483811568316,0.17588667134018507,0.09630920309465588,0.05816249328657225,0.0,0.0593335213292587,0.0,0.0,0.05749469972330599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06023280208759903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11813277046316464,0.08409474270415065,0.0,0.057848178067493164,0.06792696221278992,0.0,0.0,0.0534521556338538,0.0,0.11004390961385556,0.0,0.10780626779324434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047330391296281714,0.051514826850255435,0.0,0.0,0.053256308304025786,0.0,0.10113008120513133,0.0,0.0,0.1343861651575197,0.0,0.057742606084869474,0.0,0.0,0.027514408212872942,0.10103889994730288,0.08978932572102999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04717598563673464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11871076572352515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10461310805954292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099336358978444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057884760737047534,0.04292763017269438,0.0,0.0,0.05721884526335901,0.0,0.0,0.15437181194216512,0.05278247624891953,0.0,0.0,0.04422392056084088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035153171346632366,0.0,0.15872213344961966,0.11473157647684964,0.0,0.05305274886770151,0.0,0.1117349086779944,0.0,0.0,0.08407071034661331,0.22389107569442496,0.0,0.11714754115710585,0.0,0.0,0.056008032392027486,0.14826285936040265,0.0,0.101063741144456,0.059957532575162925,0.0,0.0,0.17843012411370118,0.04005282375491991,0.0,0.12357810517312087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03651011132440203,0.0,0.0,0.057808504792468685,0.0,0.0,0.050436897778379786,0.10715504724032993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056013917395262056,0.0,0.059942381334643614,0.3036372099413797,0.054146658338674984,0.0519986696903693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04187998141788883,0.0,0.0,0.04196584329095926,0.0,0.0,0.0594945553355679,0.0,0.0871272758759286,0.0,0.2108053891469596,0.0,0.0,0.04054279237641891,0.0,0.0,0.07455073007812188,0.0,0.0,0.08805777800951067,0.18097694638678324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05976170517301116,0.0,0.1094746963163684,0.1187887753551848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034987166065154875,0.06748905092296799,0.0,0.0,0.06141680435022024,0.06052873289772431,0.049918664358634214,0.05032205381365997,0.17553264033526256,0.14301973445982502,0.05728256349284758,0.15433321787741852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607164987215104,0.03106218733433718,0.0,0.04224333426635762,0.0,0.04735064431910744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05076555585514175,0.0,0.0,0.10696430436653584,0.0,0.03741050761578514,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,GoofCob,2020/02/11,"I hate it I hate having to take medication, the doctor appointments, I hate it all. I don’t hold anything personal towards the clinic I go to nor the doctors, I just hate that I have to do it in an attempt to function properly which half the time I feel as if it’s really not helping.",3.7472033898305055,4.417122322033901,5.962500000000002,78.5857838983051,71.54237288135593,9.289830508474578,31.69915254237288,9.516144504307137,2.935267796610169,223,10,45,5,4,79,39,59,0.278,0.722,0.0,-0.9514,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,4,0,5,0,4,4,0,0,1,6,11,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,6,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,4,0,1,0,1,8,0,7,11,1,4,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,36,14,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16596753261248934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4128612182337963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10197674390882017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11462082604408827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7964789511136247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13518354440969754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20317392463839168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17610140051376058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12920298911452074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15164015818851315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11760270150845355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,DeletinMySocialMedia,2020/02/11,"Natural vs pharmaceutical Curious if anyone ever considered using plant medicine, specifically psychedelics, as an alternative to pharmaceutical drugs? Psilocybin mushrooms work in a way SSRIs are unable to achieve. Looking for someone interested in  psilocybin mushrooms, whether it’s larger heroic dose or microdosing to talk about alternatives. 

Twitter: CanadianConJob",13.943823529411766,18.080060588235305,12.519754901960786,28.01139705882355,50.96078431372549,15.296078431372548,55.887254901960794,13.427899808715575,10.116996078431372,314,22,26,13,4,100,45,51,0.0,0.802,0.198,0.8779,1,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,1,1,6,3,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,8,3,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,1,16,1,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27161501378439723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4504815642335915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513775175726168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32620225830857297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3291345351778689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3122233980698545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3354982307572433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30833550650201225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.282798040006149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,CharlieBird420,2020/02/11,"I helped a psychotic patient on the bus last night. Also what could I have done better? Dude was a textbook case of schizophrenia. He was paranoid that I wanted to kidnap him and take him to my wife (I'm not even married). One of his delusions was that if I don't pray for him, he will go to hell and he made me promise to pray for him. He was definitely hallucinating as well. I did my best to listen to him and talk to him. He was talking all over the place. I did notice once I started listening to him, he calmed down a bit and I think he stopped hallucinating. After some time he just got up and switched seats after saying bye and stood there staring into space. Everyone around us was just staring at us while a psychotic man rambled on God, demons and the CIA while I listened.

If this situation happens again, do I just listen and be patient like I was this time? Was there anything I could have done better?

I'm no stranger to mental illness. I've been diagnosed with general anxiety disorder and depression and I take medication for it.",3.954103658536585,5.581442078048781,4.948338414634146,82.40592225609757,72.12195121951221,7.85670731707317,29.397865853658534,8.472884824447931,2.171689024390244,826,34,161,14,16,270,119,205,0.121,0.767,0.113,-0.16899999999999998,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,2,0,0,3,10,9,1,0,7,0,21,3,0,1,1,28,37,16,0,5,6,1,0,1,0,1,3,5,0,1,6,13,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,2,1,1,16,7,26,7,26,17,4,22,4,1,2,0,29,10,1,3,13,115,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11685908049336127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11178806691005193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12025148137144452,0.1300855373283769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533530708395543,0.258477946571679,0.15953470964181604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2333437764572165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12586044800021434,0.1483175696162361,0.0,0.0,0.16747616724872308,0.0,0.0,0.29908082025339994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09651663800441328,0.0,0.0,0.1396322492747591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08304831620291886,0.0,0.11687248240036385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12922113996942775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979469973218442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11911440616561705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07139110884306232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13827052326240072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472093067194172,0.1472633747568282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13713189988270202,0.0,0.0,0.16636851042359574,0.0,0.15562231222010475,0.0990205990424319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15267340513633718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11620741924840798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16425479807640447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10343065651125984,0.0,0.0,0.12217014884900936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21974121529112464,0.2349054515237461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09363338007514628,0.0,0.0,0.17041765756311722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3515497032890868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08619050209969915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13138726402878492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,DelusionsOfGod,2020/02/11,"Afraid of Recovery I'm sorry if this is the wrong sub for this.
 
 
I've got my first psychologist appointment on Valentine's Day. The woman I spoke to when looking to set up a therapy appointment said that a psychologist would be better. I didn't know there was a difference.
 
 
Anyway. I'm getting cold feet now that it's getting closer to the appointment day. My most predominant voice, who I had come to see as a friend until recently, is telling me to cancel my appointment. That the doctors will try to kill the voice.
 
I'm just scared and tired and don't know what to believe anymore. Everything for the past 4 years has been a lie. I am more or less able to think clearly as of the past few days, but I don't know. It feels better to live a lie than face recovery. My delusions felt safe. Like I knew everything. There was nothing to worry about because at any moment I could just magically fix it.
 
Tl;dr Afraid of recovering, delusions and lies feel safer. Any advice?
 
Thank you",2.756891705704053,5.175562005235605,3.899112703224031,85.01273077982918,78.16230366492147,7.3718379718930835,25.235877652245804,8.371475516178862,1.810826178010472,777,29,151,16,19,252,120,191,0.078,0.7829999999999999,0.139,0.9295,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,3,8,11,1,3,13,0,15,4,2,0,1,22,35,10,1,3,5,0,3,1,1,2,2,4,0,1,10,4,0,1,8,0,0,1,3,5,0,1,10,10,13,6,23,21,4,18,0,0,2,0,7,4,0,3,13,92,23,1,0.14387785781904422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14059577748102015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19568375419784628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14268817382280607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877066067004943,0.0,0.0,0.1621010760809455,0.0,0.2544965462616949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12393803469492708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487476202066307,0.0,0.0,0.2783679467252481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15032173857987302,0.0,0.14726508410464018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586162826198584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454979359184619,0.0,0.13814530656737953,0.0,0.0,0.12238243236084127,0.0,0.0,0.11115967604653583,0.0,0.15034048474172473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507226639033613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15917953239866048,0.0,0.2372145237788983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07029145377907002,0.0,0.1270467844187663,0.0,0.12082116400355104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13805468498465673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746953908144661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420620270422069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13686079048382874,0.0,0.1440468353720968,0.0,0.11465202475273036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16105948237470485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12575558940713213,0.13246340087994468,0.16453686949572074,0.0,0.0,0.09219112175717148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16536643227508613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09768362106850187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14611494861265695,0.0,0.10220670213724097,0.15730785120061386,0.0,0.0926526232146001
schizophrenia,uhchae,2020/02/11,"No more voices? I’m not sure if this is a positive or not but it feels very uncomfortable. I guess I’ve learned to find some kind of comfort in the constant background noise in my head, but lately there’s been nothing? What does that mean?",2.0137500000000017,4.391597875000002,2.65816666666667,93.1035,80.66666666666666,5.506666666666668,24.18333333333333,6.742157984588678,0.7028283333333336,190,7,40,2,5,59,43,48,0.14800000000000002,0.7509999999999999,0.10099999999999999,-0.3291,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,1,13,6,4,0,1,6,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,2,3,4,5,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,2,24,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3211221424534876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600448968613072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502519721149654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715969539037089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273529489441653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3049697542902005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094442440706415,0.0,0.0,0.33520707518840753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236920879136964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851310370516802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800678213268161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451864035348127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,notsosweetescape,2020/02/11,"Left college because I began to believe my friends were conspiring against me and that a young guy in my class was going to throw acid in my face. This was over a year ago. In retrospect, my suspicions were irrational and rooted in paranoia, but they extremely distressed when I was experiencing them. So much so, I completely abandoned my studies and moved to a different town. I worry about so many things, stupid things, but my worries and fears feel very real even when there's no evidence to validate them. I think I might need help.",6.09900432900433,7.645912868686872,5.897431457431459,77.97090909090913,66.77777777777777,9.697546897546898,34.34487734487736,9.957137785484203,3.5541301587301586,430,20,76,10,7,134,69,99,0.28,0.645,0.075,-0.9754,1,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,3,0,8,5,1,2,3,0,6,1,1,1,0,13,11,11,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,4,0,0,6,3,16,1,11,4,1,16,0,1,0,0,6,7,0,1,6,55,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1841506117551221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266375009264692,0.0,0.0,0.2340539207323671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21781337272433685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21704601312058106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372115298008401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23376733204262545,0.10504051911159924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16050083463381626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11806447830337127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20569708833347425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13924498013818615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257121231580059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106176251309572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22038126907749736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22079670525734685,0.15271415964591134,0.15403794627223716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364557008432535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2760289026980706,0.13311258645319635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714087791586302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4219438566012168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13377893752344422
schizophrenia,fightingwithmybrain,2020/02/11,"What has always been a ""fun delusion"" might be coming true!! I apologise in advance if this comes across as some sort of advertising, I'm just super excited and want to share my achievements/future goals!!

I've always had a delusion that I was in some kind of reality tv show where I got to teach everyone about my world and had an awesome welcoming community despite all my ""faults"" (later diagnosed as actual mental illnesses, go figure) where I can be 'just a bit different' and people understand why.

Well now with the support and encouragement of my awesome personal community (friends and family) I'm trying my hand at the youtubes!! I haven't actually started yet, but with the help of my awesome people I've got all my equipment, ""script"" ideas, plans on what I was to start conversations on and input on the right way to go about it to best help educate people on my diagnoses!! 

I'm really hoping to build a platform to show people that 
* 1. We exist outside of the movies
* 2. We're not all ""mental patient's"", and 
* 3. Help change some of the stigma that is attached to mental health and mental illnesses.

I'm so excited to start filming and see where this all takes me!!

 If anyone has anything they'd specifically consider do's or don'ts re: talking about schizophrenia I'm more than happy to take on some advice, but please respect that this is about MY experiences for the time being so some things may not specifically relate to me in the same way.",7.0382664233576655,7.321352854014603,7.582910583941607,71.19838047445256,64.25547445255475,10.79160583941606,33.91332116788321,10.550175099000144,3.661767153284672,1158,46,202,27,16,383,156,274,0.021,0.746,0.233,0.9958,1,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,1,0,1,5,14,17,0,0,13,0,19,6,1,0,5,42,40,18,0,4,9,0,1,0,1,2,5,0,0,1,11,14,0,0,3,4,0,5,4,1,1,0,7,2,19,16,37,27,13,30,0,0,1,0,12,16,0,12,7,136,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.21621979789136386,0.0,0.0,0.10825753931409683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843635118942666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07746324716282442,0.0,0.0911663792830283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162617213603476,0.0,0.12094821354497948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171955367652828,0.190862441303534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22488830327510012,0.0,0.11574644570154917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058595407918851,0.0,0.10836870717826702,0.1044379677759718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0855919944066218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12592301080076446,0.0,0.1772093106337527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11793238696149658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11775896933198515,0.0,0.0,0.2227699735330855,0.0,0.0,0.1100342170154921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12506245615136646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153652305194951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4465797352170603,0.11752507326981285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072166834345429,0.09673293817649874,0.0,0.12160834678681293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0709715239161722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09460953953618044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08828107287066336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352419700811424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257171793897985,0.0,0.0,0.16659263361142576,0.08904455581347323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07360044061360113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06459945702429291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07521554798894482,0.0,0.0,0.11533079320670825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06534369402688907,0.1758714970609042,0.0,0.0,0.0996087616451764,0.0,0.0999659719715174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,music_v,2020/02/11,"I wonder if this was a psychotic episode Hello! So Ive been suffering from schizophrenia since I was 15. Im now 24 years old. Back when I was 15 and I started first getting ill my mental health was really bad. What I mean is I was scared all the time from different impossible things for example ""they will read my thoughts"" and I was believing something may happen to me. I also had really vivid imagination and I found myself dreaming different things almost all the time. I've never had hallucinations and I've never heard voices.

My question is: Do you think this is still a psychotic episode? It continued for 3-4 months.",2.609915966386556,5.423595831932776,4.08634453781513,80.90497899159666,82.27731092436973,7.769747899159665,25.306722689075627,8.634040054169528,2.366788235294118,500,20,90,13,14,165,79,119,0.11699999999999999,0.883,0.0,-0.9209,2,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,1,6,3,0,1,4,0,16,2,0,0,4,18,25,8,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,2,0,0,6,4,0,0,7,2,0,0,2,3,0,1,12,3,17,0,5,11,2,14,0,1,1,0,5,0,0,5,14,63,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17369474769010715,0.0,0.0,0.1387155910126829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13337973649504822,0.14483153265934015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19542958580577444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.362456756222875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14754465944593326,0.0,0.1901895140841293,0.0,0.0,0.09062548927264114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533897642058728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18437945883140447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18736614943372729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18894837157303102,0.0,0.0,0.17480649323675046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384538093589763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675654962318027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18201668632562765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19431446629043148,0.0,0.17350655509294846,0.0,0.22224534141790644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736633343466776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434875855617021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13353768567964494,0.0,0.0,0.12277560790497816,0.0,0.13852507217293036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2304777205009515,0.11114591695231547,0.0,0.13770755825255138,0.2022913922312419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881095525877408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170230461398037
schizophrenia,Imperium8,2020/02/11,"Loss of memories I was thinking today about how I can't remember some parts of my life that happened even before I was exhibiting symptoms. For example, I cannot remember my first kiss or how I lost my virginity. I remember the girl it happened with, but I can't remember those events. I remember kissing her and having sex with her other times, but not the first time. There are a lot of other non-sexual events in my life that I don't remember but these are the ones that came to mind today in conversation. Has anyone else experienced this random loss of memory? I understand why there are lapses in my memory during the time I was psychotic, I'm just wondering why this would happen with earlier memories as well.",6.900748175182482,7.149678372262777,7.9705018248175215,68.41954835766424,64.54744525547446,12.689416058394162,33.183394160583944,12.161744961471696,4.4851613138686135,575,22,101,20,8,196,80,137,0.049,0.877,0.075,0.6542,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,5,8,6,0,0,5,0,13,7,0,2,0,27,22,8,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,10,5,0,0,9,0,0,1,5,3,1,3,5,1,18,3,14,16,3,13,0,3,0,4,4,3,0,5,9,79,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07704269159589831,0.11289576239538067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09375783196163046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12602028698635825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09204396853153037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07277499869731077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18744363550740956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29230405722928665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15565137860369205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1202780351985079,0.09367386054972313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11125367467459854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07466302303226109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11931772449598263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7488968725663661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11452258710684778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07060097879374945,0.0,0.0,0.19274622070736933,0.0,0.20888167876705654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11470465101802445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990679759079552,0.0,0.19884649380879416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194890365504525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07827102081669916,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TheIngloriousTaco,2020/02/11,"Anyone have issues with health anxiety? Aside from other issues, I've been dealing on again off again with a horrible feeling of impending ailments that are gonna be the end of me, or disfigure me in their treatment. I can't escape the feeling and I've gotten to the point where I've been to the doctor multiple times and I don't know how to feel.

I just want to live without feeling like there's something in my face that's going to split out and end me/ruin my face. I work in the service industry and I can't work if I'm somehow disfigured. Rationally I don't expect to reach that fate. But I'm still scared of it. I just want to be confident in my own health. I'm 22 and I don't smoke, I drink fairly typical amounts for someone my age, and I only vaped for 2 years but quit in september when all this shit started.

I'm kind of just ranting to help myself out, but I can't shake the feeling that something's going to happen",3.9246827914353664,4.5539153144329925,5.253711340206189,83.9757057890563,71.11340206185571,8.237272006344172,28.840602696272803,8.384062270229773,1.9434889770023795,737,27,153,11,13,247,107,194,0.086,0.828,0.086,-0.4676,0,0,4,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,3,11,5,1,2,7,0,12,7,3,1,1,31,30,13,0,4,9,0,5,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,7,10,1,0,6,1,0,3,7,3,0,0,3,5,19,2,28,24,3,24,0,0,0,0,3,11,1,3,11,97,26,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11794139011956198,0.0,0.0,0.10780085922801952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589448751313223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578018853787398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510301633316879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27310180011226953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38977074481440016,0.11014072436031208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17523934585866688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363340587425292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3277558982031999,0.0,0.0,0.10333844516222304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3218316590736638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16054672932699532,0.08472906599940523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753207999016808,0.0,0.13613696847748533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117254984012438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14574265961365626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16398122211916966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15435337128797114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15825565393357646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306296923702208,0.23737874268266296,0.0,0.0,0.10912394987322213,0.0,0.12312220065473126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08989910993847862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18186963803428066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14861659883458267,0.0,0.22447854612972026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09928190865773057
schizophrenia,Dodgeshawndra,2020/02/11,Lost. I can't think. My minds blank when I think. My hallucinations torment me. They cause physical pain. I know they have another way but they love the conflict.,0.8088571428571427,2.3828616000000022,1.8147619047619048,89.68500000000002,116.33333333333334,5.7142857142857135,20.952380952380953,6.868970318607317,1.213238095238096,128,5,25,3,7,40,24,30,0.195,0.637,0.168,0.2617,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,3,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,7,7,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,9,1,0,6,0,2,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,14,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3517407546471035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34459189408865354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843504493341316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36617516156802105,0.0,0.3027499920713971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387013450275629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35693451675519616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4298760746132033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2662586774750919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,throwawayg0830,2020/02/12,"schizophrenia and the military just recently got diagnosed, in the past month after a stay at the loony bin. did anyone else have their first break in the military?

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if so, what is the prognosis like, can i stay in and continue to serve or will i almost be forced out. if i am forced out, will this effect my benefits? i didnt have any symptoms before the military, but its hard to call it service connected i'd imagine since i was genetically predisposed already.",7.655113636363637,7.841549738636368,7.767181818181823,70.72327272727273,62.97727272727273,12.04,36.91818181818182,11.602472056035307,4.539538181818182,379,17,66,11,5,123,65,88,0.067,0.89,0.042,-0.2805,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,2,2,2,0,0,7,0,11,2,0,1,0,12,12,7,0,2,5,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,7,2,9,5,0,15,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,4,7,47,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20843518114814025,0.0,0.2297020328067748,0.0,0.0,0.2255337094034318,0.25292870188492583,0.14155119096837349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14554543086576469,0.2132773666182435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17712288819647068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21254750556779572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112709329628609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738851379801701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17705485184803507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16647898464287833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864642198378044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10169305099559714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16614575407815835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19870560988929772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20552599475247588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721863285263062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44372684578260463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21635068737935464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25292870188492583,0.0
schizophrenia,-pierogi-,2020/02/12,"Opinions? From time to time i can hear someone saying my name but its empty or quiet where i am. However it is most common that my mind twists what the people around me say into statements or questions. Like i was getting food at school and could hear someone asking if im okay, note it was crystal clear and it was really busy. Am i exaggerating or should i bring this up with my phycologist. I just feel lonely and i feel like nothings real, like im awed at how i can see colour like its not natural or how i can move my fingers. I often feel watched when i write things like this, i once wrote an extract decribing me and ripped it up thinking someone is watching me and will hurt me.  I just hate it, i feel bad for my parents.


(Extra info. Im 14, dont have close frienships)",1.6618670886075932,3.8664920696202536,3.1979588607594955,89.72326740506331,80.83544303797468,5.468987341772152,23.16613924050633,6.6274283507984215,0.6477455696202532,609,21,125,6,16,200,99,158,0.14400000000000002,0.728,0.127,-0.6073,2,2,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,8,10,1,0,2,1,15,2,1,2,1,39,28,14,0,3,9,1,5,5,0,2,0,5,0,0,12,9,1,0,8,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,4,14,23,6,10,21,2,14,0,2,4,0,10,8,0,9,9,83,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11883111650735655,0.12479168038218087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11145549299760167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10657795653508577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15644496098967348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26997875629937285,0.09536264642844257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.161412175729315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06974108745219916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13179009522047924,0.0,0.0,0.3008975453801859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14289985552361814,0.0,0.4325643630103153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32607334169302465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13478312027871756,0.0,0.0,0.141874822174682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12808371444646036,0.0,0.0,0.14215856346805025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14822075004835394,0.0,0.0,0.09254259975591092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495352168088046,0.0,0.0,0.15193664448129324,0.08551474820202294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21230734268127568,0.0,0.13509527206184613,0.10637130641940404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3393075514685754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08868237286357401,0.08553263741072431,0.0,0.0,0.15567388148364153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,schizoaffective_love,2020/02/12,"Schizophrenia and emotional intelligence - link Hi Reddit friends,

I just found a 2019 study on differences in cognitive/emotional functioning between schizoaffective, schizophrenia, and undiagnosed individuals which used this ""emotional intelligence"" measure as part of the overall study: [http://socialintelligence.labinthewild.org/mite/](http://socialintelligence.labinthewild.org/mite/)

I found this interesting and took it myself and had my partner who has recently been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder take it. I was confused because his scores were far better than 100% of the sample in the study. So now, I am interested what your scores are! It takes about 10-15 minutes. You basically identify the emotions in images of people's eyes (37 images).

The reason I am interested is because I wonder if the researchers had a specific subpopulation of diagnosed people with it or what might be the reason his scores were so much far above what we were expecting.

The link to the study is below if you are interested in the findings:

[https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S2215001318300520](https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S2215001318300520)

Hartman, L. I., Heinrichs, R. W., & Mashhadi, F. (2019). The continuing story of schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorder: One condition or two?. *Schizophrenia Research: Cognition*, *16*, 36-42.",13.161176470588238,17.826170037433158,9.334224598930485,47.73310160427812,54.50802139037432,11.458823529411767,38.80748663101605,11.088447113337141,5.83468128342246,1155,52,123,33,17,327,117,187,0.039,0.821,0.14,0.9584,0,0,0,0,0,0,87.0,1,3,0,1,5,7,0,1,13,0,16,3,1,3,0,25,23,12,0,3,5,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,11,8,0,0,8,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,10,2,15,6,18,11,2,12,0,0,1,0,10,8,0,7,3,90,26,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14327363408219182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16121515679963375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11694871730316625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26842598759707725,0.0,0.13815460184375827,0.3030993274028853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5949741260098429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12085792009625967,0.0,0.0,0.2899717678540816,0.102162341457555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14027756624264268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972059501045238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08960402384961058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431946872389519,0.0,0.18334644455994356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27191364066213713,0.13056343658974393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19884445545770726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14691494283931691,0.0,0.0,0.12917173603360801,0.0,0.0,0.11420624482625955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14340028096916846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,angel621,2020/02/12,"Relationship help My boyfriend is diagnosed catatonic schizophrenic. He currently isn’t taking any medications or going to therapy. Recently he became more open with me about what the voices in his head are saying, and every time he spirals it’s pretty much about me and the concern of me doing something wrong in our relationship. The voices always tell him I don’t love him and don’t care, and even though I know it’s not him that’s thinking that it still kind of emotionally wears me down because I have to constantly reassure him I’m still the same me as I have been. When we aren’t together it’s much worse, and when we’re apart he says it’s better. 
I’m not sure how to support him and be there for him without it taking a toll on me emotionally.",3.9344407158836674,5.730352684563759,5.170620805369129,80.10725111856827,72.48993288590604,8.725055928411633,27.181767337807607,9.2995712137729,2.3884492170022376,606,22,116,14,12,201,91,149,0.054000000000000006,0.805,0.141,0.9207,2,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,2,0,0,1,10,8,0,0,5,0,11,6,2,1,1,18,21,12,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,9,9,0,0,2,0,0,1,7,1,0,0,1,4,20,7,15,19,4,15,0,0,0,1,21,6,0,1,8,81,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12742774530352247,0.0,0.0,0.1041429011732017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335491861640682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13544307127026978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15614010916781346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654938289699612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15543753282328296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3445318803463946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10114990507612544,0.0,0.12903009008028954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08703503845910154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15716951802793816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10264892858310123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15947549556282398,0.0841637188466744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13821808032236985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542760679284169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2251563374358592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15580209979455187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151210832021988,0.328837833242255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435718787797085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11789742707337855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24460135745533584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17378554520861975,0.1443360329142148,0.0,0.2302898601481888,0.0,0.13385425860506955,0.0,0.17513305598088766,0.0,0.0,0.09812823677224182,0.15046281183913573,0.0,0.08929926612765329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14762496780444406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15606641430450846,0.0,0.16743848837641073,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,the_corvus_corner,2020/02/12,"I think I might have schizophrenia but I'm too afraid to tell my parents Hi, I think I might suffer schizophrenia or another mental illness. I've been 2 and a half years with what I think is depression, tried to kill myself one year ago and about 2 weeks ago I started hearing someone call my name or footsteps in my house when I'm alone. Four days ago I started hearing voices in my head, telling me to kill myself and other horrendous things. I can't concentrate, sometimes when I hear the voices a tear runs down my face or/and I shake a bit. I also laugh when I don't want to, recently my grandfather had a stroke and when I arrived at my room I laughed for no apparent reason. I think people are out there to kill me sometimes and today the voices said water was poisonous so I haven't drunk in all day. Is this schizophrenia?",3.2250774526678114,5.08160407228916,3.8198278829604138,88.7951807228916,74.5421686746988,6.429604130808951,26.314974182444054,7.1686216300943375,1.2181166953528402,660,24,131,7,14,208,99,166,0.28,0.657,0.064,-0.9923,2,1,0,0,0,3,13.0,0,0,0,0,9,10,4,2,6,0,12,7,2,1,1,20,25,14,3,1,3,1,1,0,0,2,3,7,1,0,4,7,2,0,5,1,0,2,4,8,0,3,4,8,27,2,14,19,2,25,0,2,0,0,10,7,0,4,16,84,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31628448106136425,0.0,0.0,0.12318015896498828,0.0,0.09511178845088523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12471307765155967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12984554978496354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12144530951705505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15340568428374418,0.0,0.1024380155482234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220609963757209,0.0,0.4021431031454776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13723431724466026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3947498417286582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198578911223812,0.2523411847924796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08059302048794358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13206256479467735,0.0,0.0,0.08245413056232609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12228436107744164,0.1174333614494176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11313384027925664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10077272241240127,0.0,0.23525830506015044,0.0,0.16836474632356846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079077976375028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07901472370515468,0.30483341816657783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127358947758884,0.0,0.0,0.08074864352890851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07015058451232531,0.0,0.09540199338308324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15317969506325874
schizophrenia,TOTALCHAD1hundo,2020/02/12,"I have never told my therapist I have voices but I didn’t say anything, I thought it was normal to have different people tell you different things. I hear whispers in crowds of people calling my name. I see shadowy figures in my peripherals, they’re always close by watching with red eyes. I can’t go anywhere without feeling like someone swatching me. God laughs at me, he did this he watches and toys with my life. Sometimes I lose it, I give in and break the fourth wall I scream and laugh and ask if he’s amused. Someone is always telling me everything I do is for attention, that I’m a liar who manipulates everyone around her. Sometimes that makes me happy, cause it feels like everyone is simple but other times I’m scared that I’m the one who is simple and that I’m deluded. Sometimes I think I’m a god but then I wonder why I feel wrong. I feel like someone here’s all my thoughts ands judges me. I don’t know if I’m ok. I get vivid images of what I want to do. Today I saw myself jumping off the terrace in school, wanting to faint to see what it’s like, but for attention too. I wanted to I almost did. But I didn’t. I’m scared. I don’t think I’m ok, I don’t think think I’d supposed to be this hard. I’m scared to say anything because they’ll think I’m lying for attention. But I don’t know what’s wrong with me.",1.3891193711697305,3.385627773381298,3.069440447641888,91.39505062616577,80.61870503597123,5.845137223554491,23.96536104449773,6.937597516519254,0.8080875033306687,1043,38,225,12,27,345,135,278,0.17600000000000002,0.7170000000000001,0.107,-0.9621,2,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,1,1,3,18,1,3,5,2,21,3,1,3,2,49,58,15,0,6,9,0,5,4,0,1,2,6,0,0,17,11,0,0,18,2,0,2,9,8,0,1,9,19,40,10,24,47,1,16,0,1,8,0,19,9,0,4,8,126,57,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09772090649971653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624030993627894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16061423869749816,0.08687456198154465,0.09123218640693094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059489117099077865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964889230276597,0.0,0.0,0.10025039498485087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20391867489418306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18650021737038103,0.08770635929992185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973749543654099,0.20915198934512197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05098602624129448,0.0936158968829736,0.055461861799601886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10388490087335156,0.08742023535538472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10998946750873673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10726430701603644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06892972849719771,0.19070748178444571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10917670381982147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06514116178248602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0752663600584724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956161277860746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06612857467195862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13531132340964666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15521277543293716,0.29310969992710817,0.09876489366675202,0.15553099094239867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2480595636668788,0.0,0.2895529221856605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1705935109233288,0.0,0.0,0.1133079097134586,0.06483354296793183,0.3126542368943804,0.0,0.15494892739428853,0.0569047092350639,0.0,0.09250260122726953,0.0932501086851905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726808899127494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08805855080640301,0.0,0.0,0.09407194743055296,0.10583069577282957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2133956729767062,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,MisanthopicFeetPics,2020/02/12,"Out of hope and ideas. I'm 20, currently living with my parents, and can't get a job. I've had Schizophrenia for my entire life but lately it seems to be really horrible. (I've stopped taking meds bc I can't afford them or a doctor).

I can't go out anywhere anymore. I keep seeing bugs and mangled dead people. I'm convinced that the kids that sit behind me in one of my classes is poisoning my food and contaminating my stationary stuff when I'm not looking (I got really sick after eating yesterday so that thought is cemented in my brain.) I want to drop out but if I do, my parents will kick me out and I can't get a house and don't have any family to live with until I can (hopefully) find work.

I feel like just ending it all. There's no solution.",2.383461538461539,3.9714873461538462,4.5207692307692335,84.02423076923078,76.1794871794872,7.876923076923077,24.82051282051281,8.617729084823388,1.7253743589743595,590,20,122,12,13,204,102,156,0.179,0.741,0.08,-0.9651,5,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,1,4,5,1,0,4,0,13,7,1,0,1,29,30,13,1,4,6,2,1,1,0,1,4,0,0,1,6,12,2,2,5,0,0,1,7,1,0,1,3,3,19,4,17,25,1,17,0,0,2,0,4,6,0,5,9,77,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074792237909859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15674284489782406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17643574856552882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16177057718422685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16172431234240905,0.0,0.0,0.13998513302986626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489952022367528,0.0,0.07991468315707022,0.11291074570175587,0.0,0.0,0.1444545732886156,0.0,0.19111433888965595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651489023259855,0.0,0.08982329348253218,0.0,0.12640679265585147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3139580512013355,0.0,0.1823681472760956,0.0,0.1784188867641386,0.0,0.0,0.15683995150757973,0.1404818458083828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782869590902472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116351855414903,0.0772151057943834,0.0,0.27912158227839257,0.0,0.13272195208904056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17555760007143192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10709857508576316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3509910021004129,0.0,0.0,0.10957176985917336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20250138496803435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12594515755282853,0.14388252170598387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213663607647613,0.0,0.0,0.1809291069679924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11883371375691572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12547381685842224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322181495638776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11506207256562162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Strings1122,2020/02/12,People can get in my head and read my mind but I can’t read anyone else’s? What is this bullshit? Am I missing something? Or am I just flat out losing it? Btw I have no clue if I’m schizophrenic or not. I just did a bunch of acid last summer.,-1.3495238095238091,0.6166279629629621,1.1852380952380948,100.305,93.44444444444444,3.8264550264550254,15.121693121693122,5.288315135182226,-1.0516529100529102,186,4,46,1,7,63,44,54,0.28300000000000003,0.7170000000000001,0.0,-0.9532,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,7,2,1,0,0,10,10,5,0,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,1,7,0,3,9,1,4,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,3,2,31,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20553081610435608,0.3011779274477139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455505068410184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15357236514242134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016689056257546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396016532347393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3288454868931149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967972441878723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20378210951592432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5880423321782168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22629062077416426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jsaxby7894,2020/02/12,"Abilify About two years ago I found myself in hospital for the fourth time in as many years. I was completely unable to control my thoughts, speech and found it really difficult to control my actions - truth was I was scared shitless. I hated feeling psychotic, depressed and anxious and once I was started on Olanzapine swore I would never stop taking meds. After about 6 months on Zyprexa, I started feeling really metalic like and I was changed to Abilify. Abilify is my miracle drug - it just works on everything that is wrong with me - depression, anxiety, psychosis - everything went away when I began taking Abilify.

Fast forward 18 months and I haven't had a single flair up. I decided I no longer needed to take my medication and stopped taking the Abilify. About two weeks later I woke up in the middle of the night and thankfully was able to realise I was completely psychotic - I took three Abilify tablets and went back to sleep. I made myself swear I wouldn't make any big decisions over the next few weeks and only ""just"" avoided going back to hospital.

Now I am in exactly the same position I was before I stopped taking my medication. Everything is ""OK, I guess"". I'm not depressed, I'm not anxious and I'm not psychotic - but I'm hardly ""alive"" if that makes sense. Whilst the Abilify works, it stops my creativity and drive in life - it stops me from truly experiencing all of the emotions that make up life. It's a big sacrifice - but unfortunately I don't have any other option unless I want to spend the rest of my life in hospital.

Does anybody else have this kind of love / hate relationship with their antipsychotic? I mean, I'm the first to admit that coming off my medication is clearly not an option - I tried it and it didn't work. The difference between me being on my medication and off my medication is like the difference between night and day - but at the same time having said and admitted all of that, there is still a big part of me that just wants to stop taking it and just live my life.",5.306349206349207,6.958024476190477,6.2511904761904775,74.28964285714288,68.78835978835978,10.161904761904765,32.01851851851852,10.371327730470783,3.639448677248677,1604,70,283,45,28,531,183,378,0.10099999999999999,0.7959999999999999,0.10300000000000001,0.6648,0,1,1,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,1,6,13,16,2,2,17,1,25,12,1,6,6,71,66,23,0,6,13,0,3,2,0,2,10,2,0,0,16,19,0,9,10,0,1,8,10,9,0,4,20,6,43,7,46,43,8,63,1,3,0,1,6,23,0,4,36,195,59,3,0.07170414525495797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06356139838796245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975225552265668,0.0,0.054853474857166636,0.1620105487292051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06736840482315731,0.11027212333663768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06101494635212468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07585347804938042,0.061766772018222074,0.15036086414274152,0.0,0.16084459206132368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04624324175351461,0.0,0.18527602571694604,0.0,0.0,0.14983114068414116,0.0,0.0,0.06274878071832163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08315404393628205,0.0,0.05989961248556065,0.08065751229772755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19332918673553945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07251154061881672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06099150932378768,0.0,0.15723978848315473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04075111817106847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07899019999515212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06423283001897842,0.14158599696845411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07466883315188266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20258703334832026,0.07006204691059091,0.0,0.06331607394096707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06471579060934066,0.06784819597394226,0.14358922124849213,0.07269674887790831,0.0,0.07810683497313572,0.07964714083581631,0.3611719134284623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11446712929011653,0.0,0.0,0.05316771514662585,0.055302657240962165,0.0,0.07625817194443993,0.1345789658995329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07636257452638769,0.0,0.054534233578928684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07764860179317408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09187102307980036,0.0,0.0,0.07698341747657322,0.0,0.0,0.06820706222150796,0.0,0.07178835828949003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07175592913112101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10150512614133897,0.0,0.05726302302462982,0.3596872567933912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3234755612444828,0.0,0.0,0.0660155431950285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056925081901688726,0.08362252745525486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07966594371591958,0.048682407844405744,0.0,0.14008906178857525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08458592532343523,0.0,0.11503348039231975,0.0,0.0,0.13294092204887392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15660441521357316,0.0,0.0,0.05093656749669026,0.07839722653099662,0.0,0.09235023726289047
schizophrenia,sz420,2020/02/12,"what is your brigg meyers personality type? I think I was more ""E""xtroverted as a kid. (I just retook the test at https://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test )",11.27768115942029,16.386028652173913,8.947826086956521,44.56637681159421,66.82608695652175,8.284057971014493,20.71014492753623,8.841846274778883,2.063388405797101,141,3,18,3,3,42,21,23,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,13,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8062106679982327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5916285649001773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,LifeFromAnother,2020/02/12,"Does this sound schizophrenic? Life is the most beautiful thing to experience and comprehend. Cherish every moment. “Nostalgia” My understanding of life is so incredibly amazing. I can only tell you about it but I cannot explain it to anyone that is for you to understand. Help one another, be positive. Don’t have excessive  hate or anger. Don’t hold grudges. Forgive yourself and forgive others. Have the motives to learn about things and different point of views learn about the entire galaxy/universe and why you exist and why the world is simulated (Virtual) but not in the way you might think it is or is it. It’s a mystery and a gift for everyone. Pain, sadness and suffering is apart of everything. 
Don’t compare yourself to others don’t inspire to be someone else. Be you. Music is a gate way. Consciousness is a gateway. Think outside the box but so much is inside the box to. Do not fall to far into a rabbit hole. My journey was not your journey. Yes you. The depressed, confused, angry, positive, kind hearted, loving, amazing person in the entire world. What is real and what is consciousness. Can you ‘’see’’ it? Learn! Crazy? Or just jumbled?
Resonance",2.4256901658767767,5.377157189573463,3.646965343601895,80.6598792950237,90.84834123222748,6.618542654028437,27.92076421800948,7.756953410329674,2.610271208530805,921,45,149,21,32,298,118,211,0.152,0.653,0.195,0.9101,1,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,8,0,1,6,15,2,1,14,1,27,6,1,1,0,38,34,16,0,0,10,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,1,14,9,0,1,14,0,0,3,8,7,0,1,1,2,12,8,19,29,2,14,0,3,1,1,15,8,0,6,1,109,26,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17141687914298587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430491283623058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408000288465138,0.0,0.0,0.1707956724201009,0.0,0.0,0.14305731301772792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365616592847265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13773400532015825,0.15620653698734807,0.14692000739924815,0.15990906761434495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16139685947179774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937176314478721,0.1095732636222746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702331505822938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2309332254051384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14754178501012655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17342021859657547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201722953109651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077430140364464,0.12432944248436642,0.1739480003730906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273930504637536,0.0,0.0,0.15453589259824171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860693492704391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13026771674519824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13851110007034795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1428835952556836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21720989649097208,0.20949524374098413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3403646696378807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595163110018928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29501995155909577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,EuphoricWatercress,2020/02/12,"Seeing the embodiments of the voices in my dreams. I'm used to seeing them in my home and in public places, but never in my dreams. Ever since three days ago, they've been in my dreams too.",2.943846153846156,4.236532102564105,4.003076923076924,89.51692307692308,74.12820512820512,6.225641025641028,15.564102564102564,6.42735559955562,-0.5557589743589744,148,1,32,1,3,48,28,39,0.0,0.792,0.20800000000000002,0.8381,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,5,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,5,0,7,4,0,10,0,0,2,0,2,6,0,0,4,21,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30082968910174884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21886460009667447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069782274378232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3404142647987095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617419000562763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35456784001708525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5408654949604739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807291209690993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931054123720364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mersile_,2020/02/12,"I want to know what’s happening because it’s really starting to freak me out. Since a lot of things happened in my life recently, I’ve been really depressed. Occasionally I’ll hear a repeating voice saying something but i can’t make it out. It always sounds like the same thing each time. The part that freaks me out is the voice feels haunting, like it’s pointing something out. It makes my chest feel something I can’t really explain. Just an overwhelming sadness feeling it’s really consuming. it feels haunting but it’s only been happening recently like the past 3-4 months.",4.28596330275229,6.78430901834863,5.007788990825691,78.57333486238534,73.49541284403671,8.763669724770642,30.16605504587156,9.3871,3.1465625688073398,469,21,81,12,10,151,68,109,0.13699999999999998,0.7490000000000001,0.114,-0.3566,0,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,1,8,0,1,7,0,5,2,1,2,0,19,19,2,0,1,3,0,4,3,0,0,1,5,0,0,12,5,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,9,7,3,8,17,4,13,0,3,0,0,3,6,0,1,10,46,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12555085585543513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09197988948706898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12995956410240078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051739103777537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4002891287153264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1700616778249679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08292406734504222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.106576616341213,0.2211486817371481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282795332308264,0.0,0.0,0.20143774707005102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12043731645013425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11475707982969514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16339693821398965,0.14403961480349586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14263787731276575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3866507196565073,0.0,0.29796728066957706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199921483750186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12481606558151405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34848273043580064,0.0,0.0,0.10679926258490334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004864892283952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879839729007527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08899761808113762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,thebiggestofbets,2020/02/12,"Throwaway, writing on walls? So to provide context, I have a bad anxiety disorder. About half a year ago, I woke up to see red writing on my wall. I made sure I was up, and that I was awake, the usually symptoms of a nightmare and sleep paralysis weren’t there. I did however see writing on the wall across the room from me that was red, and in a language I could not understand. This all came back to me right now. I think I blocked this out, but this did happen when I was very conscious.",3.6726406926406914,4.6168987171717175,4.467128427128428,88.22545454545454,71.92929292929294,8.08138528138528,31.31457431457432,8.418075326091056,2.181099855699856,379,17,82,6,7,122,65,99,0.08,0.9009999999999999,0.019,-0.5187,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,7,0,9,2,1,1,2,18,17,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,5,0,1,3,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,10,4,13,1,14,6,1,20,0,0,4,0,3,13,0,0,6,60,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21106888194447448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18215240543015132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830907938828108,0.19881071136204628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2723327728956568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190110319234868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728930516449796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105586233707475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253040875337585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033434190182068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3794834068556313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23828053061622026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22441451069578264,0.24748597588393356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525703581847149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478794202329401,0.0,0.0,0.2622429517305013,0.19646450819609126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15333411331992322
schizophrenia,frecklesmcg,2020/02/12,"Connection between epilepsy and schizophrenia? I (23F) have suffered from sudden onset epilepsy only about a year and a half. It’s relatively severe and has made me unable to work. More recently, however, I’ve been experiencing true audible hallucinations that are scaring the shit out of me. Piano music, voices, my apartment door opening... I also wake up and sit straight up in bed, having cold sweats from things I think I’ve heard. I haven’t been sleeping much anymore, which I’m sure isn’t helping.

The other day I was convinced someone was behind me (first time experiencing this was terrifying) in my bathroom, but of course nobody was there. It’s getting more frequent, and stronger.

Does anybody have epilepsy as well or know anything about a connection between the two? Could anyone fill me in a little on what to look for? I have no context. I have an appointment with a doctor but you know how it goes with the waiting game. 

Thanks to anyone who responds to this.",4.8305720338983065,7.402627915254238,5.191041666666667,77.54893538135596,72.10734463276836,6.910875706214689,31.40148305084745,7.865858978985527,2.4873618644067794,779,36,126,11,16,247,120,177,0.049,0.8270000000000001,0.124,0.9029,1,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,2,6,8,1,1,10,0,16,5,4,2,2,21,26,11,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,11,9,0,1,3,1,0,1,3,3,1,3,8,7,14,5,24,17,3,20,0,1,1,0,6,11,1,1,7,94,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15942339416097356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19770568974974864,0.27878603060449425,0.0,0.16405143042529635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15916801968702068,0.0,0.0,0.1285668962303778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20404735899920187,0.17445610803403594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16957048755280127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041542842579416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1336228446689795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21911958917541516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19980517089573224,0.0,0.0,0.16740722742273725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886336606264676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14654819450488216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516177690767631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19683811412784272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19958822220876352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252133783971925,0.20463410911938626,0.0,0.0,0.19949806165598288,0.0,0.16891207396570718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18788887105255114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835384624803512,0.0,0.0,0.13244199953481214,0.12773805163726498,0.0,0.0,0.11624497334299187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947399791518062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17924326883765634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451321521913863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12837749821168642
schizophrenia,silverwind14,2020/02/12,"What's on your mind What's on my mind? 
What isn't? 
If you can answer a question with another question who's to say that's not an answer? 
Who's to say the problem isn't that we can't find an answer, it's that there is never just one, but many? 
If you want to find your own path you've got to pave it yourself. 
We're so quick to get discouraged when we realize the knowledge everyone else seems to have mirrors our own, but how could you possibly expect to learn something truly new if the only knowledge you seek is what's already been found?
You want to be different, you have to BE different. 
You want to be different, right?
You want to make a difference right? 
In some way, shape, or form.. 
And if you don't, you must want peace right? 
If the knowledge we have, mirrors the knowledge of millions, wouldn't you think that contradicts the desire to be different? 
To be seen, heard, felt. 
It's not to be different that you're searching for, you feel the way you do when you do because you are different, even if you don't see it. 
Somewhere in you there's always going to be something you want, there will always be a million reasons to let it go, but I'm sure if you think deep enough there's another million reasons to reach for it. 
There will always be an equal argument to everything you believe in. 
You are meant to stand for what you believe in, but somewhere in that context they forgot to remind us that not everyone's beliefs mirror ours.. mind you I said beliefs not knowledge.
The problem never truly lies within the problem, it lies within your response to it. 
Whether it be race, sex, religion, sexual preferences (or none at all), any and every ""problem"" you may find you face 
We weren't taught problem solving because everything in life was easy, but exactly the opposite. 
I find that many of the things I preach are advice I either once couldn't, or can't take now. 
Today I found, who am I to say any of you are wrong? 
Well, who are you to say I am? Any of you.
We we're always told to ask questions, so we did exactly the opposite, because we're always told the answer lies within, it may, but who's to say your answer is the only one?
Everyone is still trying to find out who they are, if you're still trying, you'll die trying. 
Why? Because what you once knew may be looked at in a different light tomorrow? 
If knowledge is power then we all have power, we're all just trying to figure out how to use it.
I'm not here to change your mind, I challenge you to change mine.
There's enough negativity to go around, if you want to be different, create something different.",4.288408845738942,5.307847359223302,5.042758899676374,84.38825916936356,70.55339805825244,8.129989212513484,28.2861380798274,8.430304187100639,1.9170248112189847,2030,72,406,31,36,657,188,515,0.073,0.831,0.096,0.5994,11,0,3,0,0,0,73.0,10,37,2,3,22,10,0,0,21,0,53,3,1,6,9,117,89,29,1,29,28,0,2,0,0,8,1,7,0,0,32,13,0,2,36,0,0,3,18,7,1,5,17,13,59,3,57,49,12,40,3,1,3,1,68,22,0,21,12,290,91,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052098847936182316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058834481316207686,0.0,0.2218119548997821,0.0,0.0,0.10876818283085854,0.1118109530679314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04746169623559267,0.04984237295003088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300014338227036,0.0,0.0,0.1201356038473172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11280050308586068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042567727604960165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05533260254393263,0.5570287771147739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04453788143122946,0.0,0.0,0.11017739334957144,0.0,0.03521408642901347,0.0,0.04492022746448589,0.15283443961280807,0.09583225487587374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02695769024595227,0.0,0.051190807070452635,0.0,0.2436449402966309,0.0,0.0,0.11691439669033775,0.0,0.0,0.02785491212304871,0.0,0.09090051140467308,0.0,0.042640914369930505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05451824886429486,0.03765799517044891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04477121264714582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03558820858988322,0.10810618124585146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21533200058615345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08223970369169384,0.051492005660369634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135575723752646,0.0722553127632449,0.08109699306207671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06010470597423726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550765032783742,0.0,0.0,0.1791751667063636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10963349806483436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365922792492066,0.0507148197448907,0.2119913307029471,0.0,0.0,0.0424851905952458,0.04853601739661352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12313358624298458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08515493252913839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050248801855393536,0.0,0.04008628101470077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03542014891395845,0.06832426008158513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05053643161255299,0.10188962640853873,0.0,0.14478967181188795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06413143832853918,0.04604708351762803,0.0,0.0,0.2201261769097327,0.08463800710544743,0.0,0.0,0.0479366311015691,0.0,0.048108538264720835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05829163553631433,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Azog3333,2020/02/12,Cisordinol or Clozapine? I have the choice... Currently on Zyprexa injection,6.9506060606060585,9.27091618181818,6.221818181818183,56.98606060606062,114.45454545454544,16.01212121212121,49.12121212121212,9.725611199111238,10.588975757575758,62,5,7,4,3,19,11,11,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,5,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lsd4lyfe,2020/02/12,I’m so thankful for music It’s been a really rough week and a half and I really just love music like idk where I’d be without it to drown out the bullshit in my head and make me smile.,1.8307142857142864,2.3853044523809537,4.19857142857143,89.89642857142859,75.90476190476191,7.504761904761906,21.142857142857142,7.793537801064563,0.5886571428571434,145,3,35,2,3,51,34,42,0.10300000000000001,0.5720000000000001,0.325,0.9056,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,2,2,1,1,0,7,6,4,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,3,3,5,4,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3990599242973881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18996658514151213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35094143802216515,0.0,0.259552356104341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4981991048648205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35798974937244765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119023552788713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748259154550176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,infamoustaco83,2020/02/13,"I don't want to lose the magical parts I don't post on Reddit often and I'm sorry if I didn't do this right but I just didn't know where else to go. So I'm (36f) just now being diagnosed as schizophrenic I thought I was just bipolar with psychotic features but it's now being actually looked at by therapist and doctors and counselors  as I am schizophrenic. And I am seeing that I'm overly paranoid about things considering the fact I spent the last six hours searching for my w-2s because I thought somebody would steal them and hid them so well that even I can't find them. But five years ago I was going to school to be a drug counselor and I seen a article that question if we were medicating our prophets and it made sense to me. and I just didn't assume that all the things that I see and all the voices I hear we're trying to tell me something I'm supposed to know if I can just get through all the other things that they say, all the mean things, all the insults. However sometimes what people call psychosis I take it as something that's magical like a little flashes of light, or the people that I see that no one else sees, even the strange growling I hear coming from dark spaces. What if those really are real and I'm just really just gifted and what if my life is so boring without them. Does anybody else feel like this?",5.548528597785978,5.559509044280447,5.9071379151291525,82.87886185424354,67.41328413284134,8.841420664206643,30.59063653136532,8.472884824447931,2.108979520295203,1065,37,217,14,16,342,147,271,0.091,0.865,0.044000000000000004,-0.8787,1,0,3,0,0,0,15.0,2,0,5,1,18,7,1,0,13,0,19,8,0,1,6,51,46,26,0,7,17,0,1,2,0,1,8,4,0,0,23,14,0,0,9,0,1,3,8,4,1,3,11,12,31,3,21,31,6,17,0,1,6,0,14,7,0,9,8,154,54,2,0.0,0.0,0.111756330745072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10151627880494883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06981116016225146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11693911625807565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986500141298189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11623677316606162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11721746809614655,0.10021841683203307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13280842338410953,0.0,0.28700371210889736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15128056086002326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057905442302463965,0.08181408487487399,0.0,0.0,0.10467045139189718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059832685666517275,0.0,0.130170259899476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581477993571431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11278047434875413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258758926328982,0.09335019611032863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08088982574819502,0.11189870689138168,0.11478049193965414,0.0,0.0,0.09616910228946317,0.12812011218217242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10836288303260418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12474733779939348,0.0,0.11536822533805165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07760263965654095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12401547650567665,0.0,0.15878938755444186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10967980948091627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12829013642106016,0.0,0.0,0.13035038343366045,0.14673063572545916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09780061858495202,0.0,0.09107198470377288,0.0,0.11590173373550094,0.3650347979039608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17632828106157222,0.11326455667784885,0.12819729029200336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08610581289565954,0.0,0.1000967193198931,0.0,0.0,0.1329681296073362,0.3043316204866425,0.0,0.0,0.18183434071270527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07775248834935751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0675476672625775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10296845913359352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11039450758550642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08135269076050396,0.0,0.0,0.07374800328070076
schizophrenia,StibbyMaBa,2020/02/13,"I'm looking for a comic about a schizophrenic I once saw. Any help? In the comic this guy's mother used to say that a monster would cut off his fingers if he didn't do something, can't remember what. And his brother was abusive to his wife but he wasn't supposed to tell anyone.",2.316724137931036,4.052828258620689,3.785724137931037,88.58168965517244,76.75862068965517,6.019310344827588,27.11724137931035,6.742157984588678,1.2072786206896553,221,9,45,2,5,73,46,58,0.08,0.885,0.036000000000000004,-0.3182,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,0,6,2,1,1,0,6,10,3,0,2,2,3,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,4,4,0,7,5,0,2,0,0,2,0,12,2,0,1,0,27,7,0,0.0,0.3719532388028429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21348174345907145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195056934608724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3108379860112516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104192603745616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26362037915681363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3343229780442746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35561912479554514,0.0,0.0,0.24964807372235015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416770418091648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743868297744788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27113291997813305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22300537982728816,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lillpiffen,2020/02/13,"My story Hello! I remember as a kid sometime when I would get sad or stressed I would get these voices in my head, sometimes I could ignore them and sometimes it was horrible... Although I have not had this type of episode for years. I am now 20 and the last time I had an episode was when I was 13. I know most people get diagnosed with schizophrenia when they are older, 22 if I am correct? So was this just me as a child handling stress or is it something worse, a precourser to schizophrenia maybe?

Thanks you for reading, would love all the help I can get! (English in not my native tounge, thanks)",4.705169491525421,5.6130242203389855,4.5625,88.62307203389831,69.50847457627118,7.255932203389831,30.00423728813559,7.1686216300943375,1.5652677966101691,470,18,96,4,8,144,79,118,0.12300000000000001,0.7959999999999999,0.081,-0.6179,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,2,0,6,7,0,2,6,0,16,3,1,0,2,19,24,12,0,5,6,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,2,5,3,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,6,1,18,3,9,14,2,10,0,1,0,1,8,2,0,4,8,70,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.130446250509263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658280425116197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3414388363350946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16767580547420866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10951068627808916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08978979846977961,0.13317713377104853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14745752382489674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16413794343184188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11326765442874613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16342498325504706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850785633437275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12577849888393436,0.484763277788189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3743042402832884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3008381244156323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952686409176896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16649896273988912,0.34818303436368336,0.0,0.0,0.1052118592943686
schizophrenia,throwawayiceberg4456,2020/02/13,"I need help I don't know if this is just severe anxiety or actual schizophrenia. But I have paranoia alot. Like that my parents are going to poison my food, or that they're trying to find out my secrets by going through my stuff in my room while I'm not home. I've even had the paranoia that they're working with my friend so he can get me out of the house while they go through my stuff like fucking fbi agents. But the worst is at night I'll have paranoia that my whole family is plotting against me with my friends, or even trying to kill me. That shits scary. Idk what's going on.",3.2758585858585865,4.44882940495868,3.5987878787878778,93.20707070707071,73.13223140495867,6.369513314967861,25.014692378328746,6.42735559955562,0.5967954086317729,462,14,102,3,9,143,77,121,0.218,0.682,0.10099999999999999,-0.9359999999999999,1,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,1,1,4,9,4,0,4,0,9,4,1,0,0,17,18,9,1,2,8,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,2,0,9,4,1,0,3,0,0,4,2,5,0,0,1,0,16,4,15,17,3,13,0,0,0,1,7,6,2,5,5,68,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.16668506435524466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13066851142833968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22563562936019546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16102363936733788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15611644378473147,0.0,0.20654306931571867,0.0,0.2639334091530262,0.15791028166092305,0.08924071678427341,0.0,0.3882990431741577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11448975452110725,0.0,0.17133547710803726,0.0,0.0,0.19709079445668176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889749869178048,0.0,0.09387222685464602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16689741901069965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266528002527795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602927908345603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18966331698919664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19296568989710852,0.17533310997653775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3910711597971444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319363643721733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19070228567749764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435107573614787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Jimmyboy678,2020/02/13,"When you 1st started to get Schizophrenia: 1. You either were in a new place with new people, 2. were around new people, 3. or had a person in your life that started taking up tons of your time and making it so you spent less and less time with others. Am I correct? Cause I think I am.

Cause I think I understand what all didn't make sense as you all were developing Schizophrenia.",1.7881578947368406,4.1399507105263185,2.5544736842105285,93.66881578947368,81.36842105263158,4.852631578947369,18.71052631578948,5.985473137389443,-0.25041578947368404,298,7,62,2,8,93,51,76,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,4,3,17,17,6,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,5,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,11,0,9,11,6,13,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,1,8,44,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17327465446707488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3999065354684152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10169358990824384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13748299404834427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598531041075506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5639659049054085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26988363767831075,0.16995585621538695,0.20336181918925567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2755404118914573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463482564384923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494403592022692,0.0,0.0,0.22699726146187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20263153458320085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Aldis_321,2020/02/13,"When you first got Schizophrenia and aren't lying you experienced this stuff. I am almost certain. Note when it started, did you first start to get it after:

A change in environment?

Being around new people?

Someone demanding tons of your time, and then you feeling guilty if you didn't give them what they wanted?

If so, it is the change of the hidden variables, caused by this A.I. 

ALSO were you very vocal about your opinions on things against big corporations and how they corrupt politics?

Cause that may be one reason you got targeted in the first place.

If I am lying, then how do I know this stuff?

I figured it out. Read my other posts. You can't describe reality without it sounding crazy, especially if it is crazy. 

You Can't describe a reality that is real and crazy and sound sane doing it.",3.863386944181645,6.299348437086098,4.401859035004733,82.71399006622521,74.56291390728477,6.698391674550615,26.017502365184484,7.7094869923839395,1.566848249763482,638,23,115,9,14,202,96,151,0.031,0.865,0.10400000000000001,0.8492,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,11,3,3,8,1,0,0,5,0,16,0,0,5,1,26,25,17,0,5,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,17,7,0,0,4,1,0,0,5,0,0,4,5,4,19,1,13,17,1,20,0,0,0,0,15,7,0,7,12,92,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1585440857094269,0.0,0.0,0.12661601368618242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14094678911734096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252959429910366,0.33498315445476706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005613333594729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4040248788909677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08272060917083625,0.15188404724041418,0.0,0.0,0.2532610691213379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08701373172977116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529155811670796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10728814115804032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10976571352301792,0.0,0.16542058924857553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516358584431692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15837230836065505,0.18021359066819412,0.0,0.1627890568347663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415203948931428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22413281646768535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3624987083616309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10518705936465517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232318263707634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13063838788435633,0.09338681895665278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15262395152183286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Pink_Tanuki,2020/02/13,"Someone who tried Cariprazine (Vraylar or Reagila)? If you take it or used to, how was it? Did you experience any side effects? What about hungryness and tremors? And what about positive/negative symptoms? I'm really worried. My doctor told me this new drug will help tremendously with negative symptoms, but right now I can't really trust doctors or medical staff in general. Thank you :)",4.620335820895524,7.959426164179107,4.935951492537313,74.59109141791048,78.40298507462686,9.917164179104477,35.240671641791046,9.827888789773867,4.84395671641791,311,18,48,11,8,98,55,67,0.107,0.7609999999999999,0.132,0.449,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,0,1,4,2,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,3,0,12,9,8,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,6,2,5,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,4,2,31,12,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14725722126480026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.443283545197133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511220797802118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21182140467187827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14514475608680324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181451142120108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20913936797184826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774470283731921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1849272366694097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834768735585838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4501438783278269,0.1628140012850344,0.0,0.0,0.19936445325087326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20691689706670247,0.0,0.14701903753428294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18702433164757226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199107576012128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,NWcoffeeaddict,2020/02/13,"Talking to yourself? Making weird noises? Do you do this? 

I will just lose myself to my thoughts and talk back to myself, and it feels normal, but it's not. Other times a rude, offensive intrusive memory or thought will pop up and I will respond by muttering involuntarily 'stop' 'stop it' 'fuck off' 'no', plus saying mmm-mmm nope stuff like that. I get this other kind of outburst that I feel like I am in control of until I am in a safe space and I let it out and it is just a string of noise-words really fast or repeatedly but I NEED to do it. It satisfies me deeply, which scares me. 

Do you do this?",0.8405854800936794,3.1666463606557405,2.8970960187353647,89.81295081967217,85.39344262295081,6.108665105386418,19.370023419203747,7.447530270364453,0.5526023419203745,464,13,100,8,14,156,77,122,0.18600000000000005,0.733,0.081,-0.9151,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,0,2,3,10,3,1,3,0,12,1,0,2,0,25,20,11,0,2,7,0,2,2,0,3,0,1,0,0,16,7,0,4,4,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,2,3,15,4,15,14,0,13,0,1,0,1,6,6,1,2,9,76,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16247409606839022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23698718145540484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213675889428608,0.15095038271283914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19534036590860535,0.1103937887212321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200329657895113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21606516006907436,0.0,0.2064577591518516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363869252670731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410421674526794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15667380289936994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070258733089739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353620568654583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680315921943938,0.2115448268954002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3533069534199532,0.0,0.0,0.2418841339765055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3396645178936697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3354919065940592,0.12320878702743356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,a1chera_,2020/02/13,"What the hell is psychosis and how do you even know you are experiencing it? For years I've struggled to grasp it's true meaning, partly because all explanations of it are so vague and subjective. Symptoms where by themselves wouldn't be considered psychosis. Is psychosis a state of mind or a word that describes a list of various symptoms? I always feel out of touch with reality, but that is just my subjective opinion of myself. I can interact with reality, but I do everything I can to escape it because of how much I dislike it. I don't have any hallucinations, but I may have delusions, but when I read about delusions they are stereotypical, like believing in aliens, or that people are watching them, or other conspiracies. Idk, really frustrated.",8.126470588235293,8.745160470588239,8.306176470588237,65.79029411764711,61.941176470588246,11.505882352941176,39.79411764705883,11.20814326018867,4.84394411764706,608,31,98,16,8,199,88,136,0.121,0.826,0.053,-0.8455,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,2,0,8,5,2,1,4,0,17,2,0,2,2,26,20,13,0,1,8,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,10,5,0,0,4,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,4,14,2,15,17,4,6,1,0,1,0,5,3,1,5,3,80,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983928816452099,0.0,0.0,0.1621405936158604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906894613248882,0.0,0.0,0.2686289907843921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15748078331287282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21428553307657502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12055738503386434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310349066617867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11648486700983035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2597201961859651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407463572354378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17527350302786285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581964830379481,0.0,0.16529735870679796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23849454828920846,0.0,0.1527443798375508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24925883161017265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4956401799363974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535411193398624
schizophrenia,like_a_furnace,2020/02/13,Need Help with Delusions I’m starting to worry that I only don’t believe my delusions because I’m in denial. Any advice? Thanks,1.2885999999999989,3.925411360000002,2.895500000000002,85.43525000000002,95.4,2.5,26.25,3.1291,0.6712000000000002,104,5,16,0,4,34,21,25,0.109,0.679,0.21100000000000002,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3689274290327417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567399449440514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301446992145075,0.0,0.0,0.4253579610529721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530569052341012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799409065489121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28713595729915914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26722454550664865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34758783516218034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3834098953803628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,throwawaypsych67584,2020/02/13,"Need Some Advice Desperately needed some advice to how i should go about treating this. since about a month ago ive been hearing voices on a daily basis, they sound like theyre talking about me normally in my parents voices, ive been having dreams horrific ones every time i sleep whether a 2 hr nap or a full nights sleep. the paronoia is getting out of control, i can feel absolutely nothing emotionally and have rage breakouts followed by extreme deppression every couple weeks, im really scared and dont know how to go about this i came here cause i know this page specifically has people with knowledge of getting treatment and succesffull treatment, thank you for taking time to read this",15.436023622047243,9.472003448818901,13.145255905511815,57.36780511811028,53.88188976377953,15.534645669291338,50.64763779527559,11.698219412168324,5.912812598425196,566,24,91,9,4,176,92,127,0.109,0.83,0.061,-0.7959999999999999,2,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,1,1,7,5,1,1,5,0,11,2,2,4,0,22,25,7,0,4,2,1,1,1,0,1,0,4,0,0,4,6,0,1,4,3,0,4,1,2,0,1,3,5,11,3,15,21,4,14,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,3,7,56,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.307522363503781,0.13948180976875155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17996716367134302,0.0,0.16164240677952146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17648207372101193,0.0,0.17410544212516654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18441372716328305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17699824220454846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651493279837468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07956118942584764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16441838448640672,0.0,0.17885194022658116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773455581017592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16996564567311112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17295154547999242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07687355334399885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125595744880928,0.0,0.0,0.2333469469836365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14766287555458305,0.1541701758343687,0.1509821410709963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10662483642573144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17471921617953906,0.0,0.0,0.10908709129656116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573931777645945,0.0,0.1008028212836184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575353970884625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13016203940667878,0.0,0.314928466354904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11830806601345407,0.1264724490986925,0.0,0.14486728849964406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835047963498709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12621715723735275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Pec4nPies,2020/02/13,I think my boyfriend is a god. Everytime I look at him I see wings and I know he has power. He's a god. Does anyone else experience this with their significant other?,-0.5878431372549038,1.4596945294117631,2.23764705882353,89.11274509803923,103.70588235294115,5.79607843137255,17.43137254901961,7.1686216300943375,0.6127607843137257,130,4,28,3,6,45,28,34,0.0,0.8,0.2,0.6124,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,2,6,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,0,16,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2851703284854187,0.41787898345722496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35690242819183576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3406969330577682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3989445440959715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241375046204908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34248182329265936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32499467130076765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613265956439856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,CautiousVoid,2020/02/13,"[Venting] A ""friend"" trying to compare their use of drugs to my disorder I hope this is okay. I was diagnosed as schizoaffective a number of years ago now. On my social media I quite often vent about the struggles and issues associated with this disorder, I'm sure many of you can relate to this. I'm rather open about it in order to try and help end the stigma against schizophrenia. On one of these posts someone who I had considered a friend commented that when they use psychedelic drugs, they hallucinate (obviously, what else would you expect to happen?) It was a long post but the TLDR of it was that their drug using hallucinations (not permanent, just while on drugs) are worse than someone living with schizophrenia and that we just need to ""get over it"". This came off as really ignorant and belittling to people who have schizophrenia. This person was someone fairly close to me, so they should have known better. If you don't want to hallucinate, don't use drugs. Simple as that. Someone with schizophrenia doesn't have that option and at least 60% of us will attempt suicide at one point because of it. It's even worse when you're in a financial situation that prevents you from being able to afford proper medication and care. The fact that people try to come off as educated but still try to compare people with schizophrenia to drug users just frustrates the hell out of me. Does anyone else have similar stories or experiences?",7.544985741444869,8.31079611026616,7.152183935361215,73.06196411596959,63.18250950570342,9.92100760456274,32.0268536121673,9.827888789773867,3.0769621673003797,1159,41,196,22,16,364,150,263,0.124,0.8059999999999999,0.07,-0.9651,1,0,6,0,0,1,31.0,2,4,5,3,13,11,2,1,10,1,19,8,0,4,3,43,33,18,1,8,9,0,0,0,2,3,8,0,0,1,22,16,0,2,1,0,0,2,4,4,0,2,6,0,19,7,45,23,1,28,1,0,0,0,19,14,1,5,9,141,41,0,0.08608623611874705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07631025417300458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060193497898915524,0.08820552210437835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05247737051443258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07613628012325739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09845972048486866,0.0877706550699436,0.0,0.0,0.0741556698200209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08737571755949383,0.0,0.0,0.1973245695076315,0.0,0.07533464535242347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5989962199597497,0.0,0.14382800786532976,0.0,0.07624685345260747,0.0,0.0,0.056859147057803136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08420885757773552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13302002495840445,0.0,0.044976505293679456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07612577429564728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057701789450419275,0.0,0.0,0.0855030566535489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0898516646016671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07601572366581211,0.07618360998922277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08727793165536901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08672282615826153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06383185328731382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11666852304673005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1790440705702534,0.07516718087797106,0.0,0.0,0.08137931866276599,0.0,0.1648936355363613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09156330867654418,0.0,0.0,0.05514904722172738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967645362693735,0.0,0.08775407662771519,0.2917623540120766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06874857936655591,0.0,0.0,0.08999602531708066,0.0,0.09416436995239594,0.0,0.08113525875316241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23378761390271935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035511425321676,0.29740347216897595,0.0,0.0,0.050775892480305784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17545845831581655,0.06115319220398039,0.0,0.0,0.05543671361235419
schizophrenia,goodluckcat87,2020/02/13,How many of you also have PTSD? I am diagnosed with cPTSD. Got my diagnosis about two years ago. Mainly childhood trauma and sexual trauma before the onset of my psychosis.,3.4120967741935497,6.5563030322580635,4.942177419354842,73.43326612903226,83.19354838709677,6.970967741935485,20.65322580645161,8.07648339933343,1.8572516129032264,138,4,20,3,4,46,28,31,0.16699999999999998,0.833,0.0,-0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,3,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,4,0,4,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32191690987549804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904166489114019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30901999458865137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3685968720683017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904499551543081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36818435953736606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42451128513144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3547517756223292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338613038725169
schizophrenia,AuthenticGarbage,2020/02/13,"My sister is a paranoid schizophrenic My sister (25) suffers from schizophrenia, and it’s REALLY bad. Let me explain some of the stuff she does: constantly laughs and talks to the voices in her head, walks around the house in circles, she does this thing where she taps on her thigh constantly (me and my dad think it’s a way for her to talk to the voices), she fidgets with things (turns the light switch on and off very quickly, same with the faucet). I’m really scared for her and she’s ran away a few times, sometimes we’ve even had to call the cops to find her. She’s broken into people’s houses without their knowledge and used their computer, even slept in their beds! I know she meant no harm, and it was all because of her mental illness, but I’m terrified for her, I don’t want her to end up getting killed in one of these situations. It’s gotten to the point where she even tried killing herself by cutting her neck, she almost died, and the blade was so close to her jugular. I love her so much, and I don’t know what I’d do without her, I love my sister even though she never showed me the love back. She’s been in so many parts of my life, and I don’t want to see her hurt like this. It went from her thinking that the news channel was talking about her, to her doing unspeakable things. Thanks for reading I guess, any people have suggestions to help her???",4.235787559808614,5.161237294545458,4.3005550239234465,90.00893779904307,70.6,7.244019138755982,25.38277511961721,7.273561745256523,0.9405272727272722,1076,30,229,10,19,332,150,275,0.149,0.743,0.10800000000000001,-0.8909999999999999,1,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,0,3,0,14,14,3,1,14,0,13,10,4,1,2,36,36,15,3,2,3,4,0,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,14,15,0,0,8,3,0,3,7,8,0,1,10,4,47,6,39,25,6,27,0,2,1,3,46,16,0,3,8,159,61,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10757781283624762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07305756852016676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956374199118662,0.0,0.0,0.10093607248144323,0.08260871741736357,0.08970138545013001,0.06548966167333684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10970027059171268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321920479155785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11149764471211594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18802925482152946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951530266726008,0.0,0.0,0.2838317749038837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981910690628712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0561288815742402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11834866170519355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102564140546755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07200952776425394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479246303718957,0.11500837398267835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23771558641430104,0.0,0.118083836484002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10985668598131768,0.0758825280764911,0.05248593805753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2908852190630884,0.0,0.0,0.10891937152389797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10826637225401256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07897501589000704,0.0,0.08285832259711444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0727988276409248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11633858511645287,0.0,0.14895989758783262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10155813818768727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10746125578277572,0.0,0.13764761491487068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10755835698726564,0.0,0.08560954064566535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12075827504573132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10625317612790093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229841467343689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25904975797100804,0.0,0.09890912023709926,0.0,0.0,0.21411950627786766,0.1376764100287222,0.10555157444090124,0.0,0.06264456991717074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07293940029681449,0.11685536529383407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09278691263439574,0.0,0.08864280227273579,0.12673257013830047,0.08527466639484417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09959071005836352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20712158157998076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,J-dub-suede,2020/02/13,"Some of the voices are funny Me thinking: hmm maybe I should put this pizza in the microwave for 1:01 because last time I cooked pizza for 1:02 it melted the cheese too much

Microwave: mmmmmmmm. Beeep beeep

Me thinking: hmm, how is the pizza cold if it’s one second off melting hot.

Neighbor thought voice: I guess you should’ve put it on pizza

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schizophrenia,cloud2313,2020/02/13,"My Therapist told me I have prodromal Schizophrenia I have being seeing my therapist for around 8-9 months now. She was telling me the other day that a lot of my symptoms I have in  common with another patient of hers. She dug deeper into this and saw that I had early signs (prodromal) of schizophrenia. I wasn't sad or disappointed about the diagnosis. I was alittle happy because there's a way to deal with it. Medication was something that she said I probably need to get on eventually which I was surprised, because when I was bringing up medication before the diagnosis, she was against medication for more dependent reasons I think. But being diagnose with Prodromal schizophrenia does make sense with the things I have to deal with for who know how long (It's possible I've been dealing with this for nearly 8-10 year if I can say that). I've only told my roommate and a friend. However, I don't feeling comfortable telling my mom or any of my family or just anyone about this. I don't want to use it as an excused but like with anything  else I still have to deal with it alone. Any thoughts or comments.",5.3875628930817605,6.762301372641512,6.063509433962263,76.76325157232705,68.29245283018868,9.42691823899371,33.47295597484276,9.725611199111238,3.3385650314465423,889,41,161,20,15,290,120,212,0.034,0.9,0.065,0.7233,1,1,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,9,7,0,0,8,0,19,5,0,5,0,33,34,12,0,3,8,1,1,1,1,0,5,2,0,0,15,12,0,0,5,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,14,5,28,5,31,18,2,17,0,2,2,0,20,6,0,7,10,118,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12404530962738088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16289503383675422,0.12558899470383375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08374577325513596,0.0,0.09856027480851907,0.10662044376896378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14602101972899656,0.0,0.10191521056320244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07724156132557843,0.493909290450399,0.0,0.12156374502492576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10481128939432846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10005223283962723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129082331161449,0.0,0.060559169287637785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09253378884266306,0.0,0.06257473557124453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12749709442407964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06582230605691991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058513435561950586,0.0,0.0,0.1059924335786126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10182393323791904,0.0,0.0,0.07994721836237835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619661785243348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402728489351589,0.09559904811553856,0.0,0.0,0.08880773004472294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09109026935833477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13502236396621786,0.0,0.0,0.12913201571689414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12314322014107115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11392843104516427,0.09524568882884188,0.0,0.0,0.09544096048293184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922045821464311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09564825338631862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448659845306125,0.0,0.0,0.20936802930430712,0.0,0.0,0.27812375315916005,0.07956968029172404,0.07674360071250136,0.0,0.09508377955225604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288902008307389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10344258356350612,0.0,0.0,0.07064328419032552,0.0950676291941721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0771277731024461
schizophrenia,ringoculture,2020/02/13,"Psychosis ? hi! i’ve recently been struggling with some stuff. im sixteen and i was diagnosed with major depression and generalized anxiety about eight months ago. 

for the past few years, i’ve been feeling detached from reality every now and then. everything seems to change size and i can’t recognize myself or connect with anyone. even my depth perception changes and i feel so unreal. it’s been happening a lot more frequently lately. 

for the past six months, there’s been voices in my head. really, they just comment on stuff going on in my life. they’re very disorganized and cause me to break down sometimes. i’ve also had trouble with concentration lately and i can barely even read a paragraph. i just feel so erratic and unreal and i’ve actually been seeing things now. i hear external voices, too, like, a lot. the internal ones don’t seem to go away. things just seem to be getting worse. 

i don’t know what’s wrong with me. i do have multiple people in my family with schizophrenia / schizoaffective disorder so i don’t really know what’s wrong with me... maybe i’m overreacting? not sure. any thoughts?",2.779572096368213,5.781577223300975,3.939924487594393,80.40451815893566,85.01941747572816,8.10039554117224,24.619920891765556,8.735056554316923,2.5861109672779574,892,35,155,26,27,289,125,206,0.149,0.831,0.02,-0.9741,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,1,0,14,7,0,1,6,0,15,3,1,1,1,37,31,15,0,0,5,0,3,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,7,16,0,0,10,1,0,2,5,5,0,3,8,7,18,2,22,22,6,24,0,1,1,0,4,8,0,7,14,101,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.11421801845709653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037524060510612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09360001030544693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959390452082965,0.0,0.08953830691318225,0.0,0.0,0.08183985629877884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099666506636867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12023638531120433,0.24763397453681654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008097888510896,0.11879715282670912,0.0,0.0,0.13414251519194326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15461285975758451,0.0,0.09861458202594532,0.0,0.10519156171526199,0.0,0.11033862622562418,0.0,0.1775428246500696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06115063683850658,0.0,0.13303755633923234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10350158482983407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201208672945973,0.0,0.13191704628747933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12642755864613167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12864859585309754,0.0,0.2640613636498617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08267160838855715,0.057181765381146665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19901317380114306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11758638680890135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18684673998388093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07931201453659979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22346340194079573,0.08114354273072821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11707563098136325,0.0,0.14996271215938267,0.0,0.11556678747077495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09326888017553228,0.3196572683801635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11575946650105867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12235975705847522,0.2679746570007725,0.0,0.0,0.11031254452555547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15551760877472354,0.0,0.0,0.09291982809919504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09657352254485907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192777917565612,0.0,0.25593838671307223,0.0,0.07537247101556732
schizophrenia,Troshall,2020/02/14,"Absolutely unbelievable , Valentines 2.0 How are you guys doing today ! I hope amazing , simply , I am slightly perturbed as of late do not care too much on elaboration .. if that is okay ! Would care for a response or two .. I hope you are well ! I accidentally changed all the settings on my phone , hard to navigate ... I’ll admit though I do have plans for today , Atleast I have foreseen . What about your Valentine’s Day !",2.933669590643273,5.839538828947369,3.850701754385966,82.49546783625729,81.76315789473685,6.0093567251462,28.181286549707604,7.3871296695380915,1.8742795321637429,325,15,58,5,9,104,61,76,0.127,0.66,0.212,0.8175,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,3,0,1,5,7,0,0,2,1,10,0,0,1,1,9,15,5,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,10,7,8,14,2,7,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,4,4,42,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4552666561592679,0.0,0.2361845386284782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143987316061221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22106723874504056,0.0,0.0,0.2000013936468112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4435046162414688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518524021588849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641253061174078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21935651764116065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4232578209427015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21809725325905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20074185469739864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15860089745248532,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,effggghhg,2020/02/14,"Acoustic guitar basic riff idea Listen to Acoustic Riff by Peter Sturt on #SoundCloud
https://soundcloud.com/peter-sturt/acoustic-riff",23.436,28.873528600000004,13.073333333333338,28.05000000000004,29.66666666666667,8.666666666666668,41.66666666666667,8.841846274778883,4.855666666666668,119,4,7,1,1,29,13,15,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Ninetenthsofacent,2020/02/14,"Anyone else not get anything from caffeine? Just curious.  Couldn't find out much on taking it with perphenazine, didn't know if it's a drug that gets stronger with caffeine.  I haven't had caffeine in ages, I figured 3 cokes would do it.  Maybe I'll try coffee tomorrow.  Any experience is appreciated.",2.839821428571426,5.805144767857144,3.544285714285717,83.90071428571429,83.46428571428572,6.057142857142857,27.642857142857146,7.447530270364453,1.8815285714285717,241,11,43,4,7,76,47,56,0.0,0.843,0.157,0.802,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,0,0,11,11,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,3,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,6,7,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,24,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20515197208883712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21094087563913508,0.3091056462634956,0.2482559998342097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34985170478886,0.0,0.25201397974490924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950998159942251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757290157309118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3152295095317219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657948137147604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3030769666329656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22176867617911256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268249608434208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20482014549578176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143040089362934,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,different_city,2020/02/14,"Randomly smiling Does anyone find the need to randomly smile at random scenarios with schizophrenia. I sometimes get the slight urge to as though my muscles are wanting to but I don’t do it.

Was wandering if anyone else experiences something like this at all?",4.876956521739132,8.081631043478264,4.928434782608697,76.11439130434783,75.52173913043478,8.027826086956521,33.11304347826087,8.841846274778883,3.59324,212,11,32,5,5,66,38,46,0.0,0.851,0.149,0.7184,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,10,7,4,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,7,6,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,1,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4377235896735069,0.3207126941633504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739145633787589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26147721139302565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061809390370681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28608275702181124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16353325554514378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15291942543939474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320907484339686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409681056888824,0.3095719586221313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30752782011886765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18461965744771835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,tummytickles23,2020/02/14,"Does this sound familliar to any of this group?#trigger warning illness progression Hello all!  
I am unsure of how to use ""official trigger warnings"" in posts. If anyone knows please let me know. :) 

I am self aware of my illness...but they also seem to be progressing.

I struggle a lot when people in public laugh and talk around me. I always feel like its about me.
 When strangers look at me in public; I feel like they are looking at me as if they know something about me that I am unaware of.
If I see police or a different authority figure in public; I feel like they are watching me or tracking me.

Overall, I have had an increase in these delusions over the past few years and they have become ""steady.""  As in a couple years ago; i might have lacked sleep one day.  I was able to go home and sleep this all off.  Not anymore.  It seems it has become a constant. I feel like everyone is watching me or out to get me.  

I often get obsessed with conspiracies, and all the dark sides of corruption in our government and big business.  I get obsessed often till im very very depressed and can read on this kind of hooblah for hours upon end.  

Is this kind of stuff common for someone who is schizoaffective bipolar type?  I know my mom had schizophrenia and my grandpa too.  Just wondering if this stuff sounds relateable?

I also within the past few years SUCK with hygeine and daily tasks.  I can groan at the thought of the effort of putting on a pair of pants! 

Old me; use to run 6 miles a day, work, go to school and have an active social life....now i can hardly fathom putting dressier pants on compared to my 3 times too large pants i melt into.  

Is this relsteable to any of ya'll as well?  Have any of you had a bipolar diagnosis and then progressed towards schizophrenia?  

Thank ya'll
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schizophrenia,jizhan_mental,2020/02/14,Hello from Taiwan Hello everyone in r/schizophrenia! I was born on December 1985 in Taiwan and was raised-up in and live in Taiwan. I was firstly diagnosed with schizophrenia on February 2014. I have been hospitalized in psychiatric wards several times. My current major maintenance therapy is oral aripiprazole (Abilify) 30 mg. You can ask me anything (mental disorder related.),6.396635944700464,10.068279032258069,7.086866359447009,60.028870967741966,73.19354838709677,11.929953917050693,37.88940092165899,10.914260884657429,6.477204608294931,308,18,37,13,7,101,48,62,0.051,0.9490000000000001,0.0,-0.4574,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,0,3,8,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,6,0,9,4,1,11,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,4,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2570251873831741,0.0,0.2919911708548085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31701356763395794,0.0,0.0,0.3579631018129034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984495876913281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656720896911753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27579762923455164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31476033442479073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3528497778633833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3571824248539707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821251175828057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Opening-Record,2020/02/14,"Acceptance I've just come to accept that I have schizophrenia.  It's only ever been brief because I always get medicated within a day or two whenever I get psychotic, so the symptoms never last long.  Apparently I'm paranoid and have a persecutory belief system, but to be honest with you it's more avoidance than paranoia.  I have PTSD mixed in as well from real experiences, and correctly recognise certain people as being dangerous.  Mostly criminals would have an aversion to the police, but I've seen how they can be used as a tool to destroy someone's life - and they've accused me of some pretty serious shit that I definitely didn't do.

I got attacked pretty badly in a police station after I lost my cool, and the memory sticks with me.  Whenever I see marked police cars I get anxiety and go on high alert.  Sometimes I think it would have been better to go to jail for something I didn't do than to tell the truth in an unbelievable situation.  The truth is, that I broke someone's ribs because I reacted to being punched in the face.  I didn't actually want to hurt him.  I didn't know that the ribs would break, and I had been trained to target this area to slow down an attacker and give them less opportunity to hurt you - plus the adrenaline was already running because he'd clubbed me in the head with a blunt instrument about a minute prior to this.

As far as schizophrenia goes, I used to do a job that involved lots of codes, and when I get unwell with psychosis, I start to find meanings in things where meanings don't exist - like double meanings that are unintended by the person saying them after I was studying puns for a while - reading into the meanings of things too far.  Sometimes I even get ideas about things that have really happened, but my interpretation of it isn't quite correct, and I come up with an explanation that doesn't sound normal.  Basically delusional because I'm trying to make sense of things that just don't make sense.  I just accept that maybe they will never make sense, and try to go about living my life.  Also, a man who knows too much should probably keep his mouth shut about it.  

I take my medication, I take my sleeping pills, and try as much as possible to try to improve my ability to be productive throughout the day - with varying results.  Apparently I'm going to need to take the medication for a minimum of five years, which I'm happy to do.",10.312355176782221,7.582120820568927,10.005843602441557,66.16599907865947,59.61269146608314,12.85956466658989,40.901646896234034,11.10113133989139,4.451414004376368,1913,77,342,37,19,628,233,457,0.134,0.7340000000000001,0.132,-0.511,3,1,1,0,0,0,40.0,0,2,4,4,17,25,5,1,27,1,38,14,7,8,8,71,78,28,0,7,7,0,0,1,0,5,7,2,0,2,23,21,0,2,14,2,0,9,10,12,1,2,13,5,43,13,67,54,8,43,1,4,2,0,16,17,1,4,16,238,66,2,0.0,0.0,0.07855924649291042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08883698452194866,0.06437816362649129,0.06698488628907745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061584520711964026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183167408145242,0.0,0.0,0.06721658351270705,0.1962953544583584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119829913079093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386922910744415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1038354593568872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053171425685485656,0.07281950860141335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07874731234013005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07357821911831912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102972901074792,0.07722574547112115,0.1830066800746333,0.0,0.06438554679396337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711884746810596,0.08569686538566089,0.0,0.0,0.08261923075020869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505576492139864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17236010203577387,0.09087800854147793,0.0,0.0,0.07988673571084999,0.07155470261494114,0.0,0.0,0.08848460942602153,0.06562063211543133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11372319970340902,0.0393296649877064,0.0,0.07108556161977199,0.07124255931725353,0.0,0.0,0.08787845722613549,0.06844071183853148,0.0,0.0,0.1612089916458086,0.0,0.08087601299965694,0.35076516181877443,0.0,0.2432946963637124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183578319186447,0.059691902166292624,0.12417764413835355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07887577850770516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061226105476412336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05581059504272312,0.07029205288600962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09075495721007848,0.0,0.16380084122934035,0.08679577380062799,0.0,0.0941036165726895,0.0,0.0,0.08562477481174087,0.08052471472382203,0.09162995809131708,0.05157223802520955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0640191606796982,0.0,0.0,0.06415041205236495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08263510026105114,0.0,0.0904886656848184,0.08056106774071384,0.0,0.13641974182627567,0.06197508813700056,0.15923891143603455,0.0,0.056980387837773365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08367336775900666,0.18158455278492114,0.0,0.07036310868259157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21393027696957806,0.051583026649962914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21862481908457504,0.0,0.07863966457642707,0.0,0.0,0.13905736752401687,0.0,0.0,0.04748271357089018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07238180162270448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715609140987594,0.0,0.0,0.05184124719792675
schizophrenia,Jew-Z,2020/02/14,"Personification I have psychosis, and for the past five years I have had auditory hallucinations and visual hallucinations. In the past three years I have grouped the voices I hear and personified them. One of them is extremely depressing which I named Joe. Another is angry at everything, I named him Tom. The last is paranoid and I named him Ezekiel. I have found this to help me a lot, they are no longer random voices, but ""people"" I can choose to ignore. This has drastically improved my day to day and I was wondering if anyone else here has tried to do something similar and how it worked for them.",6.951003861003863,7.8656574594594595,7.284375804375807,71.08054054054054,64.4954954954955,10.667181467181466,32.07335907335907,10.608840637214634,3.408476447876448,482,18,87,12,7,157,73,111,0.095,0.85,0.055,-0.3499,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,4,1,2,2,0,0,5,0,14,0,0,1,0,18,17,9,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,3,3,18,0,9,14,1,9,0,1,0,0,12,2,0,4,7,65,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352858289122815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15689427027186126,0.2299075732025916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28941779215329233,0.0,0.19326131512633307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18744375328197188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201661562720996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24602509845661175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25289668933597864,0.0,0.1503996355953126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829026286798227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907629612888466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520481731918284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4283991806140538,0.15555937534314995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727415016816863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15234177428708473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433345046328713,0.16335397481487138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889914370182221
schizophrenia,painwater,2020/02/14,"Anyone else tried vraylar? So i've been on haldol for a year now and it works great for my hallucinations and delusions. my psychiatrist just added on vraylar to my medication regimen for bipolar disorder. i'm on day two of it, and i was wondering if anyone else has tried it and how it went for you.",3.5494915254237327,5.510178864406786,5.412000000000003,77.27833898305086,73.91525423728814,8.787796610169492,28.749152542372883,9.3871,2.7145701694915254,239,10,46,6,5,82,40,59,0.045,0.8859999999999999,0.069,0.34,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,0,8,6,7,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,5,1,9,3,0,7,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,3,32,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235243542609687,0.4740816795361004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14919873134274403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651420259584643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3865190177800805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550592690698178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330562877377101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141368647038397,0.0,0.2259909718836068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144596287058436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25088436417834425,0.16842230479917725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489789395850201
schizophrenia,PumJum,2020/02/15,"Just asking Recently I've been sure I've bin watched, sometimes hearing stuff when nothings around. The voices has only gotten worse as time passes by. its Benn two weeks, but it keeps me awake the most of the night. I've heard about schizophrenia, could those be symptoms?",5.5440000000000005,7.703558000000001,3.916999999999998,89.24350000000004,69.0,5.8000000000000025,26.5,5.985473137389443,0.8671999999999995,220,7,39,1,4,62,44,50,0.042,0.924,0.034,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,0,1,7,9,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,1,5,4,1,7,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,5,22,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2302170989349641,0.24176477906800106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20647847706122635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29147146812253355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22986382180887105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426873026072276,0.0,0.2481425911609017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19668402054601652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25534547777021216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557712031894338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29604576851058906,0.0,0.0,0.2437361979370497,0.2687940749360105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15079715830529405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25262370165354764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074407756021432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635449629605487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,tvlkinghevds,2020/02/15,"Schizophrenia without disorganised speech Hello. I've been diagnosed with psychosis (which has been ongoing for 10 months) and I also have most negative symptoms of schizophrenia but I don't have disorganised speech. 
Is it possible to have schizophrenia without disorganised speech?",8.829767441860465,13.166365465116279,6.698883720930233,62.35251162790698,68.76744186046511,9.951627906976746,41.158139534883716,9.888512548439397,5.882454883720933,237,14,27,7,5,69,31,43,0.062,0.938,0.0,-0.3604,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,0,6,8,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,6,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,23,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763348850958393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3507242944627235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2758133907009476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895538371990012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35915703652895864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6661925435623031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,foolock,2020/02/15,"How do i talk about my mental health to parents that don't believe in mental illnesses I'm pretty sure i have schizophrenia or something alike.
I have visual and auditory hallucinations , delusions about everyone trying to manipulate, trick me, read my mind and trap me ,i have psychotic episodes in which my delusions get really bad and debilitating in which iits extremely hard for me to concentrate think, talk, write and understand things clearly, i get so scared of everyone that i refuse to get help from a psychiatrist since i think its all just a trick by everyone to try and get to know my ""secret"". 
Now that im not in that state i know that i need help, the problem is that:

1 I'm pretty sure I'll be send of the a psychiatric hospital which i don't won't to.

2 I would miss school. I can't risk failing my last grade I'm so sick and tired of school and just want to get out.

3 my parents don't believe in mental health issues, they see as an weakness (i recently turned 18 so i guess i could do anything but i fear that they'll kick me out for ""making them seem like bad parents"" (narcissists)

What do i do ? Do i try and tell them ? What do i tell them ?(i already tried to talk to them about depression but they insulted and shamed me for it. Or do i try and get help by myself ?",3.1584041184041176,4.7974824208494224,4.34586872586873,85.87187902187901,74.21235521235522,8.022136422136422,25.84684684684685,8.704169506293173,1.7448167310167308,1013,35,213,20,21,332,127,259,0.175,0.7290000000000001,0.096,-0.9756,3,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,7,1,10,17,3,4,6,0,20,6,0,3,4,42,42,19,0,5,7,3,1,1,0,3,6,0,0,0,15,12,0,1,7,1,0,1,6,14,0,0,0,2,40,3,30,37,1,12,0,3,1,0,23,7,0,4,4,133,55,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10362690261559666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07727611207616429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1568141105037955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21159837296164485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07497579080163094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08088055111419523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691917942633885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1056696400492378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943700566095748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10344734377002664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08412075990063014,0.0,0.0,0.1996340182343107,0.0,0.0,0.1888283551165622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014339057333602,0.09801280106339667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10321586277733223,0.07654540381342669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04587741677091872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06268255865105128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2839035558473837,0.0,0.09481764670803612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06962963641790264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128123762936231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910710264848298,0.0,0.0898547497094134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09393077461755306,0.0,0.06015817979713585,0.0,0.09272021663432266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09401564977825723,0.19007448042154834,0.07483041593851482,0.08548791517470578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07767948624530589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07229293584789839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770093856503439,0.0,0.0,0.22643271989946875,0.16415485173025146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06238655020020654,0.12034152910610707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10793040014863103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3187778851137205,0.10214206878853804,0.0,0.09775879410551128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055387815802316186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0667076752384305,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,didntshutup,2020/02/15,"How to combat with eternal anxiety? Hi folks! I’d like to hear any thoughts or some good and effective advice about how to fight with anxiety.The problem is I feel anxious almost every time and whatever I go. Sometimes I feel it less and it’s okay, but sometimes it’s getting worse. Thanks for everyone who will help!",1.5710200364298714,4.317173606557375,2.7221857923497272,87.61785063752279,91.62295081967213,5.9897996357012735,26.44990892531877,7.3871296695380915,1.92988378870674,254,12,46,5,9,81,46,61,0.17800000000000002,0.605,0.217,0.5722,0,0,0,0,1,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,16,9,7,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,3,4,7,7,2,3,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,3,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311647560769778,0.0,0.0,0.2368817571609613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608696509874878,0.0,0.18096858383627454,0.2672466935449895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19931291834840434,0.22604425595317856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23922478661093105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12359340410670215,0.0,0.1344431171291499,0.19841621596683312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666215374572237,0.0,0.15856190992739735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11557179780401595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263570117079813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4679299272131998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177936656573703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18780307871720248,0.13794067203392785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410759573355862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TheBeeWarrior,2020/02/15,"Tell me your stories of recovery or highly functional, able to keep a job and study What did you do, what medication do you take or a brief story about post hospitalization til you became ""good to go""",17.27763157894737,8.023117815789476,15.687894736842107,50.27026315789478,55.05263157894736,19.410526315789475,51.157894736842096,14.554592549557764,6.640442105263157,159,5,30,4,1,53,31,38,0.0,0.9229999999999999,0.077,0.4404,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,4,6,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,5,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,1,20,7,1,0.3496642238005005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987222364010241,0.2932817612171276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3694394503432769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3469877880471566,0.3107976282144968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3522499189369324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3348816702819484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629039800484025,0.0,0.3056219436761657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,melind64,2020/02/15,"Why are such subs ALLOWED? Have you ever heard of the antipsychiatry movement?

It's  basically a scientology cult that denies the existence of mental  illness and anything that has to do with psychology and psychiatry.  Things like these could greatly affect us. Some people need help out  there and they just oppose it. It's sick.

This subreddit: [r/antipsychiatry](https://www.reddit.com/r/antipsychiatry/) describes it.

Are they just schizophrenics like us who are unmedicated or what?? Because the most common symptom of schizophrenia is usually DENIAL.

Don't we have to do something about it?",7.514526315789475,11.2886116631579,6.9950000000000045,61.83250000000001,69.21052631578947,8.431578947368422,32.65789473684211,9.120678840339163,3.7201368421052634,488,22,65,11,10,152,72,95,0.098,0.8240000000000001,0.077,-0.4696,1,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,3,1,2,0,6,3,0,0,4,0,11,4,0,2,1,17,13,4,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,12,6,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,6,3,8,11,2,5,0,0,0,0,9,1,0,3,5,52,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990061451777464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14741781264128298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19308221788357752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2187498059799621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26661931354758794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620940893738041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23629262955918115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24370856975722416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17931447586283158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16765502914949582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18617316658597716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513547992085389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606616395768512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5817853592492611,0.0,0.26634246340886863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21821468492499174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,winningwriters,2020/02/15,"Creating opportunities for poets and writers struggling with mental health to be heard Dear poets and writers of r/schizophrenia,

I'm from a writers’ resources company called [Winning Writers](http://www.winningwriters.com/), and I'm also the mod or r/literarycontests.        Part of our mission at Winning Writers is to find and promote voices and themes        underrepresented in publishing,  including (but of course not limited       to) racial, cultural, national, religious, gender/sexual identity,   body     positive, and \[dis\]abled. I’m  posting here specifically   because our     long term goal is to change the  composition of our   entry pool to     include more entries featuring diverse  characters and   themes. These     voices need to be heard, and we are  actively   reaching out to find  them.

We are currently looking for new talent in humor poetry, short fiction and essay:

[The Wergle Flomp Humor Poetry Contest](https://winningwriters.com/our-contests/wergle-flomp-humor-poetry-contest-free) offers  a first prize of $1000, a second prize of $250, and ten       honorable  mentions of $100 each. Entrants are invited to submit humor       poetry on  any theme. The top twelve entries will be published   online.     The  contest is international and the deadline is April 1.   The  contest is     free to enter.

[The Tom Howard/John H. Reid Fiction & Essay Contest](https://winningwriters.com/our-contests/tom-howard-john-h-reid-fiction-essay-contest) offers  a two first prizes of $3,000 each (up from $2,000 last year,)      as   well as ten honorable mentions of $200 each. Entrants are   invited   to    submit short fiction and essays on any topic. The top   twelve   entries    will be published online. The contest is   international and  the  deadline    is April 30th. The fee for the   contest is $20.

We      started   implementing a policy of reaching out specifically to  groups       dedicated to connecting/celebrating underrepresented voices a  couple     of   years ago, and I'm glad to say that we have seen our  entry levels     from   these communities rise. We'll be continuing with  this effort   in   order  to  keep trying to get as many people into the  national  and     international  conversation on literature as we can.

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I        know this isn't a writing sub per se, but there are a lot of     talented    people here and I just wanted to reach out in case anyone     was looking    for an opportunity like this. Thanks for listening, and     have a good  day.",14.303891646696336,13.682534135826776,12.349897295446766,45.859258815474156,50.161417322834644,14.267853474837384,45.709003765833614,13.023866798666859,6.366443067442657,2663,120,333,69,23,832,248,508,0.016,0.835,0.149,0.9932,1,0,0,0,0,0,194.0,13,0,1,20,12,25,0,1,29,0,28,5,2,0,0,59,46,33,0,3,6,0,0,1,0,3,3,8,0,0,8,37,1,3,3,1,4,2,2,1,1,7,4,11,18,27,72,34,10,51,0,0,3,0,31,28,0,5,18,206,26,6,0.12986224097955962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11511504118912334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20770157438683687,0.0,0.14070568384548165,0.0,0.1766215540641863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080269834040637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07916281676339676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27256482008893634,0.0,0.0,0.14424767438167774,0.0,0.0,0.13260386750909772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1373770318377132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14369009962458326,0.0,0.0837504021966668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373834712049156,0.22092151167411367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06784766104548387,0.0,0.0,0.10892228646136308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13327612450245782,0.1380374895291123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11542752659218085,0.0,0.0,0.07136889145136474,0.1058550588807572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09172554128659163,0.06344413134744993,0.0,0.0,0.11492399674050505,0.2181031515633705,0.0,0.0,0.2208084667262753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13165992966858064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308705949823455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09629120620786284,0.0,0.12542176156090207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14062815199786244,0.0,0.18006025342838072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24874425923885185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20654333263127747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12843707689768818,0.0,0.09191716256261843,0.0,0.0,0.10857064830513956,0.0,0.13576021038726974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11955970395165605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08816793724374376,0.0,0.12685653971539726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15319222868877946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11676175046879625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13188140937792894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672540509800408
schizophrenia,Wyrdette,2020/02/15,"Best Antipsychotics? Hey everyone!

 So I am posting for my husband. We are looking for a new antipsychotic. He has been on Abilify but it did not work for him at all. I finally got him an appointment after calling and bugging the place.

Its been so hard getting him an appointment that I want to be sure that we go in we push for the right thing. Any suggestions and experiences with antipsychotics that are not ablify? 

Thank you!!",2.646374999999999,5.563650887500002,3.7550000000000026,82.39,83.875,8.200000000000001,28.0,8.841846274778883,2.9411000000000005,341,16,62,10,10,110,60,80,0.059000000000000004,0.843,0.098,0.5059,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,3,1,0,2,3,3,0,0,5,0,8,0,0,0,2,12,14,5,0,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,2,11,3,10,9,2,11,0,0,1,0,12,5,0,0,3,49,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17473745482539252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696572521379438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623786483061149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455304510247873,0.0,0.2513502075619498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814804239512904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342478008390227,0.0,0.14603281577186353,0.0,0.2055094970194332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301802123144284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21577655001116286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481676657301384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26846212259212804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24609079561166666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194372159542425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421759980459799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365686167680029,0.0,0.0,0.17070874523258694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1515580602941521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18706549040725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Softest_Boyo_,2020/02/15,"I need some advice Ive been dealing with auditory hallucinations such as screaming,yelling,cries for help,etc ive also been feeling more and more detached from myself Idk what to do I'm too scared to go back to my psychiatrist how do I deal with this on my own?",2.6211320754717,4.8164065849056605,4.12890566037736,84.34015094339625,77.49056603773585,6.504150943396226,25.69433962264151,7.554174236665415,1.2973199999999996,211,8,43,3,5,70,41,53,0.13,0.8390000000000001,0.031,-0.5936,0,0,0,0,1,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,7,10,4,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,7,0,9,8,4,3,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,32,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885631935071888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361508541751597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270670403594611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3243725668552697,0.0,0.6088815088077901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32933693266298425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14931226879485596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16782547600348602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19793298889391492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21896079182521935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.295646253211181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,hireddithow,2020/02/15,"My brother has schizophrenia. Can any one explain what he is thinking when he looks like he hates me. And he talks all stern for no reason. Is it because he is mad at himself or is he mad at me. I’ll ask him what he is doing and he will look at me and just say “nothing.” In a monotone really scary dead inside voice. Why does he do this. I really need to know because I love him but I am scared of him and I don’t want to be, but maybe I should be. Does anyone else hate they’re family and not listen to what they say and are just mad?",0.4335664335664333,2.0723471196581222,2.3752758352758363,96.97755244755248,82.07692307692307,5.28018648018648,18.32867132867133,6.1124844417494595,-0.3976256410256407,411,9,100,3,11,137,74,117,0.203,0.7509999999999999,0.045,-0.9647,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,0,3,8,5,1,1,0,16,1,0,1,1,20,28,10,1,3,6,1,0,1,0,2,0,4,0,0,5,6,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,6,0,1,0,6,14,2,9,24,1,5,0,0,2,1,22,4,0,1,2,61,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274385381017052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13103455230595706,0.19201361448158424,0.0,0.0,0.1751938566671494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22847480181663915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279902936845511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565487907958137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17666419692558444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.370037729782882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10299022948462934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09155425443842856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3147378805251555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16913596507372347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18826865355834446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13895484745559855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1798155120710549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12698720143576284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.240106688098926,0.1926785805838814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29805626504247223,0.18762025691143508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15062515365223222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12007845853991232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11053347240702806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16909950025183046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,WeAreNotRealNow,2020/02/15,I can feel my heartbeat even when it's slow I feel like there's something wrong with my heart because everyday for at least a couple months now I can feel my heartbeat even though it's very slow but it's not constantly just every now and then. What's going on? It's freaking me out.,2.591525423728818,4.314276966101699,3.212,93.05122033898306,75.94915254237287,6.07593220338983,23.664406779661018,6.742157984588678,0.5769430508474582,227,7,49,2,5,71,40,59,0.107,0.86,0.033,-0.6124,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,9,6,5,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,3,7,1,5,6,1,13,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,10,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625311527523827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881251807032934,0.0,0.0,0.2950137259629029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3522044883434235,0.0,0.22464171777241085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4044384135508912,0.19047581354026447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15152822518897938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31595001822606394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13025872783297054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21281625783857624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052597229237853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26195614132624523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199922318800887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29151083771767866,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Robot-Ann,2020/02/15,"Abilify Weight Gain Went from 113lbs to 135lbs in a year. Currently losing weight, working out everyday (one month), tracking my workout sessions, and tracking my calories (eating less than 1,200). Stopped Abilify 2 months ago. 

Any info on how to lose the weight? Literally never been 135 in my life. I’m at 124lbs now. I’ve been super serious about this... lowest weight I usually am is 103lbs (5’1’). Trying to get back at that weight. Seems like it’s taking forever to lose the weight. Abilify fucked me up. I don’t mind how long it takes... hopefully not too long that it’s around my wedding date.",2.435096525096526,5.3111617567567615,3.1291698841698867,86.74966216216221,84.58558558558559,6.775032175032175,24.14478764478765,7.957251820313856,1.7636301158301162,469,18,86,10,14,147,83,111,0.14800000000000002,0.7490000000000001,0.10300000000000001,-0.5325,2,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,6,7,8,1,0,3,0,5,9,0,2,1,12,13,3,0,1,1,0,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,3,7,1,2,1,0,1,3,5,0,1,3,6,7,3,15,10,1,23,0,3,0,1,1,8,1,2,15,46,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09547635078000842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07324490907942181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09588266168619454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08282054986174664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11021183569847502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09957400537212774,0.05627281212486584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1069780191179744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07607711264227242,0.052620527056149766,0.0,0.0,0.19063579724234586,0.0,0.3614919966535299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10875404273336003,0.0,0.17194246926690507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08307079510076741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07298550471435625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09805301758567952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900484349822207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16196552696773972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07312643783885314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11862478172217195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7869535529483365,0.0,0.0998460892024667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07841246658003505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06936020816998413
schizophrenia,wsernamee,2020/02/15,"My anxieties about being watched are getting harder to ignore So I’d like to preface this with the fact that I am not medically diagnosed with schizophrenia and do not intend to self diagnose myself. I cannot see a psychiatrist now. I also cannot talk to family about it because they brush it off and tell me not to self diagnose myself, so I’m posting this more to vent than anything else.

So I’ve been frequently having irrational anxieties about being watched via my computer and phone. I have already taped my computer monitor and turned off my microphone, but haven’t taped my phone cameras because I take pictures a lot.

My main anxieties about my phone aren’t about the cameras, though. It’s more about people in my family being able to see my screen. I’ve found myself behaving differently because I think people are watching me, and will sometimes only go on my phone when I’m pretty sure none of my family is online. I just find myself thinking this and wondering “what am I doing” because I know it’s completely irrational but I’m just convinced that it’s true.

I am also worried that every person I talk to online is spying on me. I will not do certain things to avoid judgement from them. Basically I’m convinced that everyone I talk to online is a hacker who’s somehow hacked into my device and is constantly stalking me.

It’s become very stressful and I am constantly paranoid. I can’t write because I think people are watching me as I write things and it makes me nervous.",6.393466353677621,7.2097941056338035,7.058403755868548,72.55928794992177,65.69014084507042,9.973082942097028,34.43974960876369,9.994966539143718,3.6406500782472615,1202,53,201,26,18,397,136,284,0.11599999999999999,0.813,0.071,-0.8187,2,1,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,2,0,17,10,0,3,5,0,27,4,0,2,4,39,44,19,0,0,8,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,3,18,12,0,2,7,0,0,1,10,4,0,0,2,8,41,6,28,37,5,13,0,0,7,0,16,6,0,3,6,150,59,2,0.10637609479687103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117388665817514,0.17013784915286653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2441322640662929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753846218713766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32422940020478697,0.11748403915783215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11153331150462156,0.229909535350798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3239084910588594,0.0,0.11114037806508444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888635773204375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0896264478297119,0.10164691722580356,0.0,0.0,0.3008457448334914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09722582347889358,0.0,0.0,0.11663589731144215,0.0,0.0,0.05557711901996504,0.0,0.0604559861111284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05846151972514435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051969986653655216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09043715175115123,0.0,0.0,0.07100686930082488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10716272417507647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08090381358343722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22124337039810807,0.0928835028593765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187889374685308,0.10822273130482056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16953594998736926,0.0,0.22194693327472853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052086777838063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185345718250808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10025821043668004,0.0,0.07998158461890524,0.25650322662861186,0.09297739556863764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14134310122393573,0.2044845188021559,0.10451397303699217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11570664447441065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08777141881330552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11536033710680745,0.0,0.1080300878847432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,LostInTheWorldPrt2,2020/02/15,I matched a psychiatrist on Tinder do you think it could work? I just matched a psychiatrist on Tinder and he is inviting me on a date. Do you think this could work out? Should I mention my illness? He seems very kind so far.,0.2056190476190487,2.5934808000000054,1.6015873015873048,95.03000000000002,96.55555555555556,4.34920634920635,21.984126984126984,6.1826913282559595,0.31607936507936474,176,7,38,2,7,56,30,45,0.06,0.7959999999999999,0.14400000000000002,0.5904,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,0,3,0,6,1,0,0,0,9,9,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,1,4,6,0,6,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,1,1,25,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5350763607716813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3489395597468257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3050488834633587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4294179944974613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27648029441392385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4878918766359526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,tylerrods,2020/02/15,"My sister has schizophrenia and I upset her We got into a big argument/fight unfortunately. Every morning she wakes me up because she grabs the bathroom door handle so loud that it wakes me up at 5 am. I got mad because I was so tired, so I went out and yelled at her. She got even more mad at me and told me she never grabbed it loud and I probably woke up on my own. We kept fighting for like 5 minutes before she just grabbed her stuff and ran out the door.

When she came home, I said hi to her but she kept talking to herself to the point that it's troublesome. She's ultra sensitive and everyone in the house knows not to upset her or she shuts the world out. I'm just scared that I really hurt her. And to top it off, my parents are PISSED at me and keep saying how I didn't need to raise my voice. Does anyone know what's wrong with her",2.3647271268057786,3.6407684101123614,3.621380417335473,91.74460674157305,75.57303370786515,6.6587479935794525,22.82664526484752,7.1686216300943375,0.5677386837881211,659,18,150,7,14,215,104,178,0.20800000000000002,0.7709999999999999,0.021,-0.9888,1,0,0,0,3,0,13.0,2,0,0,1,8,10,4,3,6,0,5,4,3,1,1,29,21,15,0,1,5,2,3,1,0,0,1,6,3,0,9,16,0,3,2,0,0,3,3,9,0,0,13,9,36,1,22,8,2,24,0,1,0,0,27,19,1,1,3,100,45,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12372441791238535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21572868655595176,0.0,0.15056760016932672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20237852974193105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548462121360205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168708435009914,0.0,0.14908422754666198,0.1690790219188488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42455847662951307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17749077827859738,0.0,0.0,0.2041713665501127,0.1894238329247636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15727730342490218,0.0,0.0,0.1944892544661971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08644664051164179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13120285691827135,0.13647128911174652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19647705373993266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672707050280698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19077719217842315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133558275245839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683157043853532,0.14071417518722287,0.17715332838882208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025602802358929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222210196187168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20337283915777707,0.0,0.1690790219188488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640302646639913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934621427114012,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BRAYNE_1,2020/02/15,"Starting a new job after 7 months of isolation. Hello.

To preface this, I should mention that I'm a Schizophrenic, but have also been diagnosed with dissociative disorder and borderline personality disorder, and I'm 20/UK. When I say tomorrow, it's technically \*later\*, but, I digress. I don't normally like telling people because it makes me feel crazy, but I feel it's important for context this time.

So for the past 7 months I've been having an especially bad episode. Hardly been going out, and basically not been talking to anyone. No human contact more than maybe once or twice per week. And most recently, I've been feeling disassociated from myself, as if I'm watching someone else live.

One of my close friends told me getting back into work would be beneficial. (I left my last job just after this episode started, work was making me crazier, and being around that many people was horrifying) The other day I applied for a job working in a pub. (I made sure I applied somewhere that was smaller, and more of a cosier, 'local' kind of pub) And today, I went out and had the interview- to my shock, I was offered the job on the spot. (i think only because I have been working in pubs since i was 18, I didn't really say a lot) and I'm starting \*tomorrow\*. 

And I'm already feeling like I'm dreading going, despite me wanting to go back to work. It's a nice establishment, and the people I met so far seemed nice. But I can't help but feel like I don't want to turn up. I just don't feel like I will be able to face it. I almost didn't go to the interview today, because I woke up and really couldn't get out of bed. I felt fatigued, lazy and dead. I only went because I managed to force myself out the door.

So basically, I'm just looking for some help on how to face it, and how to get myself up and out tomorrow. I'm really worried I'll fuck something up, or get fired on day one. What if the people I work with realise I'm a nut job? I just want it all to be alright. I'd like to be excited to go tomorrow. I just don't know if I'm capable of doing life again, I don't feel like I'm ready. So I'm asking for some help to see if there's anyone out there who has any advice that could help me.

Thanks for reading :)",2.953057395143489,4.432747125827816,4.842444812362032,82.756956401766,74.43046357615893,7.68233995584989,28.035871964679913,8.344100000000001,1.9592203090507727,1740,70,354,30,36,596,208,453,0.17800000000000002,0.7290000000000001,0.09300000000000001,-0.9905,5,1,1,0,0,0,70.0,0,0,0,6,19,19,1,1,18,1,35,7,2,5,2,74,87,35,1,12,17,0,10,6,1,3,4,2,2,2,17,26,0,0,11,4,0,7,11,5,0,3,21,15,40,14,51,56,7,54,0,1,3,1,21,21,1,12,32,217,57,15,0.07308338160474181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07141623466888104,0.0,0.0,0.07318244980454842,0.0,0.0806493289342413,0.05844475386501353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04969920562716612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10220319938259363,0.0,0.0,0.06505970420490284,0.06832309626910593,0.0,0.0,0.11239321857224713,0.061021570945070415,0.17820380436330885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058351133362501126,0.0,0.0,0.09426547019549766,0.0,0.0,0.0741780939357158,0.0,0.0,0.1675197739325617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06105178747606217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586720755449215,0.2088431296847107,0.07017150734524963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056464039336657,0.06756440864366195,0.15273220193256173,0.0,0.20767484986582385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06546835487875681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1959450006323652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626198964596405,0.0,0.0,0.07610509556757472,0.040164715234418814,0.059572710316869414,0.0,0.0,0.07940530795264054,0.0,0.05162095375979711,0.21422909200728488,0.0,0.06453396490660751,0.0,0.06137163402798342,0.0,0.0,0.06213287755389325,0.0,0.06915326275664753,0.09756744944584772,0.07409507805688398,0.07342207989610218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166689158815468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07058438536523573,0.0,0.0,0.07160619690147874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07783141622550255,0.09904638157631056,0.11116640994741904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06976635729872545,0.20266725899523275,0.06381358985982075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07310315900572863,0.0,0.14045725698881065,0.0,0.07216102248983101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11623767680847827,0.0,0.0,0.058237993001665336,0.06653236579310517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06045532848626941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06192331206916031,0.05626315769030468,0.0,0.0,0.15518638097381104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06888022225617478,0.0,0.0,0.0587416537845989,0.06387809680298254,0.06728535871966182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04682887995470809,0.0,0.0,0.0426155075347113,0.0,0.13854900069156542,0.06983430304284413,0.0,0.0,0.07949373276463123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1293194159868052,0.0,0.058623080401702325,0.0,0.0,0.13549805387732855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31923343336275595,0.07421972157137993,0.0,0.051916337427352605,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,heavyhardcoremusic,2020/02/15,"It's been 1 month out of a episode! I'm nervous tho For the last year (accept the last month) I thought the FBI was watching me, and that my best freinds were spy's, that I could trust nobody. 
This is my 2nd episode and it was worse. 

This time I'd see people and dogs for like 5-10 Seconds. 
(I kinda miss the dog I saw, he was a good boi.)

I see my psych soon and I'm going to tell her everything. I fear what I think is schizophrenia developing. 

If I have a severe episode I at least hope my hallucinations are nice and comforting. Like the dog. 

I don't normally say this but I'm scared about this, everyday.",0.16799479166666487,2.367950851562501,1.8426875000000005,97.05022916666668,87.359375,5.288333333333334,20.252083333333328,6.742157984588678,0.11747645833333342,471,15,112,6,15,153,83,128,0.10300000000000001,0.764,0.133,0.3996,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,3,13,0,3,8,0,11,0,0,0,0,15,22,8,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,9,6,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,4,0,1,7,5,16,9,7,14,2,11,0,1,4,0,4,2,0,3,10,63,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213573676207436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16840994387811772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18956972304388145,0.0,0.0,0.2373541907333364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11987602569267662,0.1769175537653956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095004644844882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3438711888869235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060988780793325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3367236323220911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066660046958612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14623187137292706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16773950649961752,0.21117710308267465,0.0,0.33616680834815155,0.0,0.0,0.23829015709972626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18436157239311848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13515502768478638,0.0,0.16745436412219167,0.12299461584871965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21495505513819585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13583160305415465
schizophrenia,piximiqote,2020/02/15,"I don’t understand my diagnosis I have complex post traumatic stress disorder which is a recent and welcome diagnosis as well as others like generalised anxiety disorder, BPD but I think this was changed. etc etc. The last year I’ve changed from abilify to seroquel. And this year has been better with the psychosis thanks to that once I reached a certain dose. But prior to this I had loads of positive and negative symptoms. Now mostly negative. Some positive. I think clearer and I feel less muddled in my thinking. But my psychiatrist always says my psychosis is related to my trauma. I think it’s more schizophrenia possibly schizoaffective. I’ve had hallucinations even as a kid but they got troublesome around ten years ago. I’d say for the last 9 years I’ve had my “main delusion” as well as the voices and odd visual and tactile and scent ones. Plus loads of negative symptoms.

I don’t know what my diagnosis is really. Psychiatrist says psychosis can occur with CPTSD. But would it be that extensive and long lasting? I feel like another label might explain my life better. Anyone else? I really don’t know. Feeling lost.",3.794589430894305,6.8934857170731725,4.7217378048780505,76.42374491869921,79.63414634146342,8.489837398373982,30.492886178861788,9.075114841892004,3.493605691056912,912,45,148,26,24,295,120,205,0.16399999999999998,0.669,0.16699999999999998,-0.2298,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,3,5,12,0,1,7,0,17,4,0,0,1,34,31,19,0,1,5,0,3,2,0,2,4,4,0,1,10,12,0,0,12,0,0,0,6,3,2,2,7,8,20,9,18,21,7,15,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,3,14,101,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10047337076449454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094311995138343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1188519580349116,0.08670850007744231,0.0,0.0,0.07925335457929901,0.11613519338799612,0.0,0.10090094708040294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2004886180593956,0.0,0.0,0.14275387085898542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23980764480081654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598060358721503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468507815352058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25281893840823205,0.0748632045011919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17193168550580934,0.08097358354895012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906522308630385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12458273076692353,0.27717354226761004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005881962132715,0.11074913696518604,0.0,0.0,0.1003066255718573,0.0,0.0,0.12372929312604974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12024097420331994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207085661660668,0.07680540380618255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12777928809551664,0.10855303497214096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14522322665195406,0.0,0.11191436543551804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2704091223531277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12983614282146308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23561739641507745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10435270959849986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29050721308311545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179959862605608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038212647935221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080516929478614,0.0,0.0,0.2919614691945068
schizophrenia,INeedaWeapom,2020/02/16,I can't stop killing It's legal but. I can't stop it just takes over I don't know what to do,-4.899999999999999,-4.325267666666663,-1.4263333333333341,113.83800000000002,121.5,1.92,8.966666666666667,3.1291,-2.665773333333333,72,1,23,0,5,25,16,24,0.0,0.6409999999999999,0.359,0.6467,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,6,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,14,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5004505332125787,0.0,0.24859589488260234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7563580412845083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3401056574640087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,dialBlue,2020/02/16,"Will muscle twitching ever go away? I was on zyprexa for a total of 5 days. After day 3 I started noticing random muscle twitching on my legs and arms. I stopped the medication on day 5.

I have been off ALL meds for a solid MONTH and the random muscle twitching has not stopped. It’s pretty constant.

Has anyone experienced this going away? Shouldn’t it have stopped after a month?

Please give me some positive reassurance.",3.110534458509143,5.985324075949367,4.114345991561184,81.19897327707457,80.39240506329114,5.536427566807316,26.499296765119553,6.937597516519254,1.5528976090014068,338,14,56,4,9,109,54,79,0.106,0.7609999999999999,0.134,0.4959,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,8,6,2,0,3,13,12,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,1,6,1,11,8,3,21,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,3,13,40,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13435110635006764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3610500273690769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076387142718824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3717497188311517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17380467145271347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843214212384644,0.21839900127674125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21342795969510148,0.19356422282907296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067339969793226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21875649129136346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21091571203914006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1954788760617304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13600006066506434,0.0,0.0,0.48192136302788796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,toronto94942,2020/02/16,How can you tell if your psychosis is schizophrenia or not? I recently had an episode of psychosis and was wondering if I have schizophrenia or not my doctors never said I have schizophrenia but I also was not very honest with them I left out pretty much all of my hallucinations but they still ruled I am either bipolar or had psychosis but just having an episode of psychosis alone doesn't make you schizophrenic right so how do I know for sure?,4.173928571428572,6.79071591666667,3.8169047619047625,86.39892857142858,74.35714285714286,6.104761904761905,28.357142857142854,7.1686216300943375,1.5877428571428571,363,15,65,4,8,109,56,84,0.07400000000000001,0.8370000000000001,0.08900000000000001,0.3031,0,1,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,2,0,6,2,0,0,2,0,12,3,0,3,3,24,16,13,0,2,13,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,5,1,14,2,6,11,3,6,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,6,3,56,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28069786625909665,0.0,0.21673682108040146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27740330189359697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489470332891356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29446704596129714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18090981170573986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19923292926500666,0.0,0.20902947772748506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27572760403912816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676023010804361,0.0,0.0,0.23145197523332164,0.2578047295515422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164391440321155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25543576488653225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368858575351516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236221791921233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2939126463368913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,petrrrrrr,2020/02/16,"Girlfriend has schizophrenia Hey guys, my (17M) girlfriend (22F)  has recently been diagnosed with schizophrenia and is currently in a mental hospital. I thought that she might be schizophrenic for a while now and now it got confirmed. I am totally fine with it and love her no matter what and wanna be here for her. However, i have struggles with taking care of her. Two days ago, she went to sleep ať about half to ten (the timeline is pretty important here). At the time i was with my friend and she knew about it. She texted mě good night and i texted the same. In about half an Hour, i met two of my friends randomly in a the bar i was at. We ended up partying the whole night and i didnt sleep at home. The next Day, she was allowed to leave the hospital for a Day and she visited me with her mom at a café i work at. I was hoping her mom would go to the toilet or something, so i could tell her about the night ive had, but she didnt. When they left, she asked me, if i couldnt fall asleep Last night, since she woke up at 7 and saw that i was active online 2 hours ago. I told her that i was out partying and thats when shit started going down. She just cant understand, why i didnt text her that night, but waited till i tell her. She is being extremely paranoid and is convinced, that im cheating, lying to her, probably dont even love her etc. She is mad for two days now. 
I really love this girl and dont want to lose her because of assumptions that are based on her illness. Its also really Hard for me, since i suffer from heavy bpd.
What im asking for is how should i talk to her? Should i be telling her, thats its not her, but schizophrenia showing out, be apologizing, or argue with her? I really have no idea.
TLDR - my gf has been diagnosed with schizophrenia and thinks im cheating and completely manipulating her, which is absolutely not true. How should i treat her, to prove, that i love her and would never intentionaly Hurt her?

PS. I apologize for any mistakes in my english, which is not my mother tongue.",3.515109489051092,4.629041082725067,4.452756690997568,87.5397189781022,72.47931873479321,8.107737226277372,25.37883211678832,8.548686976883017,1.4805305109489049,1579,48,342,27,30,512,197,411,0.13699999999999998,0.7290000000000001,0.135,-0.5732,3,0,1,0,0,0,56.0,1,0,1,2,17,23,5,1,15,0,44,13,4,4,4,64,68,29,0,12,10,3,1,0,5,6,4,0,1,2,19,25,1,1,6,3,0,5,13,10,0,6,20,2,70,13,48,35,4,50,0,3,1,4,62,17,1,6,28,246,89,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14565719409905376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06570216242515019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055870631058842116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361430655794694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05008308926281035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10347581711395318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08376611688869512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0861416761147301,0.0,0.0,0.06559691654668177,0.0,0.0,0.21194187071682727,0.0,0.0,0.16677839682271098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19257841647226773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07276808898847414,0.0,0.09162850042614927,0.05426494714936282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12695098322239295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09338519415458496,0.06891069341125566,0.06570969743455614,0.0,0.0,0.08134988104422004,0.0,0.0,0.07359792285011893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08241172403881608,0.08160197770284798,0.16181924353593438,0.0,0.08795242658109875,0.092747002115627,0.26623599610971266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0669701834725054,0.0,0.08699404125918805,0.08926550452369253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091914401649647,0.0,0.0,0.2966051947605877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08279649409100523,0.08715723770850838,0.0,0.19244620061979212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0633657383587851,0.0,0.0873765495588428,0.38550116609357415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08358478146616333,0.08858081229454076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15789861197437974,0.0,0.0811216560402003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08433457050545662,0.13592480245000904,0.0,0.16443576702662735,0.0,0.0,0.06324966537900195,0.0,0.0,0.058152244268503975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08588995456649026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06177300453505433,0.06603593005099506,0.21543058088254244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052643881161315235,0.0,0.0652247111765016,0.047907310968280464,0.0,0.0,0.0785060149618451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24077089453978914,0.085529947601486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0484592412036084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07616179858248373,0.07413531206129069,0.09172708656780673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059812402606118566,0.0,0.0,0.1167261527715234,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,perryslays,2020/02/16,"Written Piece Hello again.

I like to write things

Uncertain.
Unbeaten.
Unafraid.

""Death By Fire?""

Entirely Amnetic.
Selectively Imperceptable.
Definitely Not Persuadable.

""Not A Cinder Upon the Earth
 On Which They Stood.""

I was attacked and murdered in this town
According to this strange man
Who is dressed like a private investigator
From somewhere more like 1940s New York

I definitely feel like I'm overdressed
everytime I make an appearance in this town

I am Left Without A Single Clue
I have no choice but to search for answers
It's nearly as if not even one single event
had come to pass in my life before my murder
I dont even remember my real name

I do remember one thing...
And I know what you can call me
It was the last thing that I ever heard
On the night that my life was taken
Following that word which tells me
What I now have have no choice
But to deal back to all, using this force
who were involved in my murder
In order to free my spirit from this world
So I can move on to a better place

According to my closest ally, the detective
That's the plot, and it's only going to thicken

This name is spreading like wildfire in this town
This name that came back into my memory
Shortly after I came back to ""deliver them""
So you might as well start using it too
Just know this.. it wont stop me 
I'll find out exactly who is responsible 
I'll deliver every person who is responsible
Directly to Tbe Judges .. where they belong
And I'll cross over, so that I can finally rest

I actually quite enjoy my new name.
In fact, it's more than just my name.
It's my legacy now. You can call me...

""The Woman in the White Dress""

Big Finale
SMALL TOWN MYSTERY
BIG CITY CONSPIRACY
FOREIGN COUNTRY CATASTOPHE

So you've caught me. 
Shucks. I almost got away too.

You dont have the weapon.

I dont need the weapon. 
I have the inheritance, the jet, the private island getaway, and some knights on route. 
What have you got? The fire my soul was forged in and my late brothers ten and a half million devout followers gunning to lock you you up for life? You should have given up a long time ago. You never kill me, so you never really leave the mortal coil. Your done. All the while, the Seven kings and I have those so-called Gods of yours looking like losers. 

The way you all wear Thm, theyre actually looking like more of fools. Insulting them not yall. (I really hope they're understanding Gods).

Oh, my heart! 
It's too bad I dont feel hurt anymore.

I bet I can prove you wrong...

What, you going to call me a name again?

*small town backup appears
dumps the kerosene*

""Fire... then The Judges.""

She sparks and tosses the match. 
The Woman in the Black Dress screams and flails as she burns. She collapses in a smouldering heap. "" I know she felt that"" 

EARTH 3280 AD

Knave taps wrist, ""okay send them up.

Seventeen year old sits across from woman in the black dress. ""I dont want to be mean;  just tell me if you know where she is.""

""I don't know."" 

""Now i'm going to have to be mean.""

Heavenly Kingdom

""So if we complete the tasks bestowed upon us by the gods...you become an ARCH angel.""

""The ARCH Angel of Sharing Your Truth.""

""Yes... I become a hero.""

""Because you're a mortal.""

""We never have to do anything like this again.""

""Unless we want to do it again."" 

""Exactly.""

EARTH 3280

This is what happens when you dont dont co-operate *she uses the fire to incerate a prisoner*

HEAVENLY KINGDOM

""We might even to want to.. Woman in the Whitw Dress's warm up was a powerful experience.""

""I'm really nervous to take this on.""

""You can do it.""

Earth
*taps wrist* Alert The Kings. Their True Queen has located The Woman in the White Dress.

FORGOTTEN WOODS: SURVIVOR
TOXIC TROPHOSPHERE: PRISONER
DEVASTATED ISLAND: LAST DEFENSE

Uncertain.
Unbeaten.
Unafraid.

The Woman in Red Dress (Pt 2)

The Ending

Endowed with every memory
The woman in the white dress
Thanks to the teenage angel in disguise 
She knew what the task at hand was
And unable to defeat an angel in battle
As she stood in front of her now
Unable to cause her any pain at all
She continued to dig for the weapon
Because she couldn't complete her task
And she would never be able to fight her
THE ARCH ANGEL OF SHARING YOUR TRUTH
UNABLE TO ACCOMPLISH HER TASK
OF REVEALING THAT SHE HERSELF KNEW 
SHE ALWAYS KNEW THE TRUTH ALL ALONG
RELEASE SUCH POWER
OVER SO MUCH WHICH SHE KNEW
WAS RIGHTFULLY NOT HERS
LONG ENOUGH TO LET THEM
SPEAK A FEW SIMPLE WORDS
THAT WOULD SAVE HERSELF
THE POTENTIAL ARCH ANGEL
AND BILLIONS ACROSS THE GLOBE
ALL BECAUSE SHE KNEW THE TRUTH
IF SHE KILLED THE HERO WITH THE WEAPON
SHE COULD SKIP ARCH ANGEL
AND BECOME A GOD

When I give the word, launch the incinerators.
Open your mouth and you die.
Now find me that weapon.

""Did you find it?""
""Yeah.""
""Where is it.""
""Right where it BELONGS.""

The Queen of The Order looks down at her heart to see the weapon buried deep within it. 

She'd never understand 
How she was meant to
Tell her old friend those few simple words words
And it would make this all stop

But as the queen of the order
withered, crumbled, and died
And the soldiers raised their weapons
She decided in that moment
She would never apply for a promotion again.

SKSSKSKSKSKKSKSKSKSKKSKSKS

NOT BAD.

....

THEYRE SIMPLE TO USE. 
JUST LIKE... YEP THATS IT. FLY ALONG NOW.
I AM A BUSY GOD.

AS FOR YOU
I EXPECT TO SEE YOU SEATED
AMONG THE COUNCIL OF THE GODS
ONE DAY-- AH.
MORTALS DO NOT SPEAK TO GODS
UNLESS INVITED TO DO SO DIRECTLY",1.4227379634753774,4.1033684038461535,2.4183702268954086,91.05037078029886,88.51923076923076,5.492805755395683,19.50124515771998,7.0356574368226354,0.5282620365246262,4220,125,832,65,139,1330,422,1040,0.114,0.736,0.15,0.9903,5,0,0,1,1,1,182.0,5,26,8,15,42,60,18,3,74,5,67,16,12,9,23,150,128,46,11,17,21,1,9,9,1,8,4,4,0,9,59,32,0,3,27,0,3,16,26,30,2,8,30,24,123,31,115,83,19,137,11,3,11,0,110,67,0,14,58,548,182,2,0.05409677795405984,0.0,0.1055813034582536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0479535296434677,0.0,0.05417010885760548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0450128528603055,0.0,0.0,0.03678766406632074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05364946749256453,0.0,0.0,0.04451703891198628,0.0,0.0,0.0615428945871758,0.05082570364487487,0.12479124915554965,0.09033709993543053,0.09893068119796564,0.17923692324680807,0.04603237362293967,0.0,0.0,0.047844203972335325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16571657602039225,0.12374460486671955,0.0,0.05557229260212677,0.0,0.04659958415134662,0.1134388849011211,0.0,0.0,0.0431918753014317,0.0,0.0,0.03488794646558896,0.05577140268908692,0.0,0.0,0.11228782947308363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05535978584714147,0.44380714609265337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047913688492918174,0.0558964326068109,0.0,0.10719123491937772,0.048933632758433904,0.09115773720239384,0.0,0.0,0.052917029196909784,0.0,0.0,0.05470591271976271,0.03864674897942768,0.051941390343538126,0.11852075203811248,0.14833042501273594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041795036454446835,0.0,0.0,0.051894558765352435,0.09223333671608812,0.0,0.0865322703291523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04783760208742234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12820988468278302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053730306710124,0.0,0.0,0.05791171965599514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197001394034046,0.0,0.14865087205293084,0.08819218846666281,0.06102352182197239,0.05728067689523929,0.05877630753212206,0.055317620626868035,0.11463046230222668,0.2378605785709706,0.0,0.0,0.09574789232603433,0.1362830065791961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07222003870540014,0.0,0.0,0.11785450041171665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477626513265007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05749631375006106,0.03976735625128206,0.04011207539515085,0.2503366207124781,0.1044940104927822,0.0,0.05076616149364549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11353093681049115,0.0,0.10997213033186556,0.041143037328238034,0.05756278584955728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04723521989948788,0.05651961904973018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05753858225816162,0.0,0.06157397660362918,0.1039673435536132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12256220777066733,0.09239670558598817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08621625619186646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03828997787047163,0.0,0.0,0.0904546573259262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040674044594369074,0.0,0.14184890503156514,0.049805045008763565,0.0,0.0,0.10781848652439477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03154426625977668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11263330735103713,0.06507176311814576,0.186888988554442,0.0,0.0,0.0957230437094744,0.04293950434218389,0.0,0.0,0.048639500142555074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05214736349969059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15371519578471818,0.059146334438289774,0.0,0.034836551369879766
schizophrenia,DabDabDabBaby,2020/02/16,"If my biological dad had schizophrenia , is it possible I got it too? I could DM someone who knows about it better ?",1.504848484848484,4.218502818181818,3.897272727272728,80.18257575757578,89.0,6.56969696969697,25.51515151515152,7.793537801064563,1.941587878787879,90,4,17,2,3,31,19,22,0.0,0.8540000000000001,0.146,0.504,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,5,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,13,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4240367900850808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828038224058304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3834619776552758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634945652565158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5405106752476859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4062385628200523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mrsruzicka,2020/02/16,"Calling my name Recently I’ve been hearing a voice calling my name. Not my nickname, but my full name. It’s soft. And it usually happens in threes (calling of my name three times before it stops). 

I’m an extremely spiritual person but I’m also grounded in reality too. Some that I’ve seemed advice for tell me I’m clairaudient. 

I also have bipolar I and I know mania can include psychosis. 

Any advice on deciphering if I’m officially losing my mind? I don’t want to mention to my Psych until I’m sure.",1.2090538461538465,3.8134550900000046,3.93,80.58730769230772,88.1,6.276923076923077,26.69230769230769,7.61054688173877,2.069053846153846,399,19,72,8,13,140,66,100,0.037000000000000005,0.914,0.048,-0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,4,1,0,0,1,17,14,8,0,2,4,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,4,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,3,12,1,8,13,2,10,0,1,0,0,11,5,0,3,5,43,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3667850559499088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3001651153375419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12762452403955452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159696461385736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.574907368457506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16595919726227626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21152185392208653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1031405351512302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20995881987733808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18949689631223735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16386940053350205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18530509760176636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708510510463617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15690358278213054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768802030183333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16403505042295968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10943402006507487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20669602156474887,0.0,0.11069478680874348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BourgieSuburbia,2020/02/16,"Some people don’t relate to schizophrenia as an illness and that’s ok. If it doesn’t negatively impact a person’s life to the point where they need to seek treatment in a psychiatric setting for their symptoms, or if psychiatric settings have traumatized them to the point that they reject the whole psychiatric movement, that’s ok. It’s wrong to try and delimit somebody else’s personal experience within the boundaries of your own treatment. This shouldn’t be controversial yet it is. Not everybody’s going to join the same religion as you either. Get over it.",8.403529411764705,9.091034058823533,7.814509803921567,69.31529411764707,61.352941176470594,11.11372549019608,37.588235294117645,10.864195022040775,4.384164705882354,462,21,73,11,6,145,71,102,0.127,0.809,0.064,-0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,4,0,2,4,0,0,8,2,6,3,0,0,0,11,9,7,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,8,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,13,7,5,11,0,1,0,0,8,6,0,4,1,55,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22023659374458626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578895756299216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13774052038167822,0.0,0.14983214556592853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862160551214347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19548501225943654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18277411943983946,0.4603988923617172,0.0,0.0,0.4984482288129681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740219146742876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789936067035692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943435800800628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882479103578761,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,thekittenfish,2020/02/16,For those who have been restrained; how do you feel about being restrained? I want to know your perspective of being restrained. Do you find it helpful? Do you despise it? How do you feel when you are restrained?,2.7592307692307685,5.7345438974358975,2.2776410256410284,92.62569230769232,84.38461538461539,4.1456410256410265,25.748717948717946,5.6839178017228535,0.7378779487179488,168,7,30,1,5,49,25,39,0.057,0.8240000000000001,0.11900000000000001,0.3939,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,6,0,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,9,0,0,2,0,11,13,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,7,0,4,10,0,1,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,1,27,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5880602275470325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5314917477139321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3897754666361011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3195839765705329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429910471386929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,buffythevampirlayer,2020/02/16,"If you look away from your hallucination and look back is it still there? I see a lot of people, I get shocked/frightened and look away, when I look back the people are gone. What about you?",3.247543859649124,4.763830421052635,3.3236842105263165,93.79412280701756,73.73684210526315,6.119298245614036,20.561403508771924,6.42735559955562,-0.14976491228070146,148,3,34,1,3,45,28,38,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,9,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,5,8,1,7,0,0,5,0,3,2,0,2,4,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4064823377724859,0.3326757595246239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11301905472420032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7266223077472437,0.0,0.0,0.18390880245506108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999401795477238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17238022721597546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727546282865982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,graciouslygracie,2020/02/16,"EARNING MONEY AS A SCHIZOPHRENIC HI PEEPS OF REDDIT! New here...looking for help....I have been diagnosed with Acute Transient Psychosis (schizophrenia) 2 years ago and have been struggling ever since...medical bills, rent et cetera..I am looking for a way to earn money quickly(legally loL).
any suggestions?!

Thank you!",4.3748504273504265,7.686057211538465,3.455641025641029,80.57824786324787,92.26923076923076,6.157264957264958,28.85470085470085,7.3871296695380915,2.6808521367521374,253,12,36,5,9,74,45,52,0.075,0.8740000000000001,0.051,-0.2905,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,2,1,2,0,1,2,1,5,2,0,0,1,3,7,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,1,6,5,0,5,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,4,16,1,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611871135290426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003703139768206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990608760148299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665254130340451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1974959197206692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4948591601929293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3272868021054699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28457226386255274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080294036023579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712717091263173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338773658349581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18974324445467744
schizophrenia,ibhatuis,2020/02/16,"can't stop wanting to die sorry for posting something depressing, but for the past few weeks i just can't shake the feeling of not wanting to be alive. i'm so tired of being everything society hates wrapped into one person. on top of being severely mentally disabled and queer, i'm also generally really stupid and ugly. i can't take it anymore. i either want to get to be a normal person for once or i don't want to live.",4.3270980392156835,5.422561964705883,6.177352941176469,76.00642156862747,70.52941176470588,8.960784313725489,30.637254901960784,9.2995712137729,2.8767254901960784,337,14,61,7,6,117,59,85,0.29100000000000004,0.5920000000000001,0.11800000000000001,-0.965,0,0,1,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,2,1,3,0,8,2,0,0,0,16,18,6,1,5,5,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,1,5,4,0,1,0,1,4,0,13,14,2,8,0,1,0,1,2,3,1,1,3,40,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15303370087406687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897816411794261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16482151040230936,0.0,0.198605592542282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17198560061560758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09675937510110344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09997977816096594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18893230612423725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16897789499712898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19284987651021554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18749606410628167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20379638687106646,0.12967318132450392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826785664729731,0.0,0.3341832816975603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18327378920875556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12259266190234196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21618682103627548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14732133638709355,0.0,0.214216301699524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1599888509798915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1438818929115067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2199447373411979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4514857197515024,0.0,0.1535006370500079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,IWasBornSoYoung,2020/02/16,"How to meet/befriend people with schizophrenia? I don’t have schizophrenia myself but I’ve been reading this sub for a while just because I find it interesting and insightful. I’ve got a bit of a soft spot for lonely people who may have social struggles because I had my own issues that held back my social life (long term addiction and homelessness).

So I’m reading this sub and thinking shit these people seem really nice/caring and I’d like to befriend folks like this in real life. Not out of pity or anything though I worry it comes off like that.

How would one step into this kind of thing? I spoke to one user a bit here about his situation living in a group home and thought about volunteering at one, however it didn’t really seem like a type of place you could volunteer?",6.516306107431937,6.850726178807952,6.50432671081678,78.3128403237675,65.35761589403974,9.360117733627668,30.02281089036056,9.150863307647796,2.417529212656365,627,20,116,10,9,199,98,151,0.09699999999999999,0.779,0.124,0.4891,1,2,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,9,10,1,1,6,0,9,4,1,2,0,26,18,12,0,2,4,0,1,4,0,2,3,1,1,0,12,9,0,1,6,2,0,2,3,4,0,3,7,2,10,6,18,8,4,13,0,2,0,0,7,7,1,4,8,75,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14907404514397748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.112530850499332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10514974150393594,0.0,0.1667189907171751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2985838736523148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11779514014473905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10918108169639568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12498397085373293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10936879691200403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13716805070585208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14272798627103658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14240060437309762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19317642160199147,0.26723004505482645,0.0,0.12074980704982552,0.121016491890547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277989229740439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2844087503503802,0.0,0.14287115578686632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27356733333986266,0.15564763796467884,0.17520682537421595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24897804880615046,0.0,0.0,0.1403684824977109,0.0,0.1537089765159689,0.0,0.2787920001187299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429573010455482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09084840534975554,0.08762173883277831,0.134352900211732,0.10856157414834562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13887287216902885,0.0,0.09714090457883216,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,impactradar,2020/02/16,"Medical professionals Hi!
My brother has been suffering from treatment resistant schizophrenia for the past 15 years. He s bed ridden and weighed down by negative symptoms all the time. We ve been everywhere. I was wondering if anyone here had success after a similar journey of treatment resistance or if someone could point me in the direction of a hospital or medical professional who could help. Willing to travel anywhere for hope.",7.751689497716898,10.602798438356169,7.744041095890412,61.21186073059364,64.61643835616438,11.989954337899542,45.04337899543379,11.538034831475384,6.8087187214611875,358,24,46,13,6,115,62,73,0.085,0.7959999999999999,0.11900000000000001,0.4199,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,5,0,8,4,0,0,1,11,10,5,0,5,4,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,4,0,4,2,10,3,1,10,0,1,0,0,6,3,0,6,4,36,5,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18642402315327145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4257421725622885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17870700504155215,0.0,0.0,0.2648097281208816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5371749014750697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25451502667130976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520381854542178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259027708064973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771159858012565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15546586430429266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28913354991908913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17169188604666535
schizophrenia,unibear346,2020/02/16,Negative symptoms treatment I'm having primarily negative symptoms of schizophrenia.  Has anyone had any success with treatment?  Some research tells me Cariprazine has shown some benefit?,9.507222222222222,14.223912222222225,6.709166666666667,58.983750000000036,74.92592592592592,8.625925925925927,51.194444444444436,8.841846274778883,7.189155555555558,158,12,14,4,4,45,22,27,0.213,0.603,0.184,-0.264,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,11,1,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27678039928526715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845904876785756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8460773693084507,0.0,0.0,0.3557442199649216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Thiknutz,2020/02/16,Im not diagnosed but i have all the symptoms .....am i still allowed to be here?,-2.250196078431376,-0.6155469999999994,1.1964705882352966,96.57745098039216,107.23529411764706,4.6196078431372545,23.31372549019608,6.42735559955562,0.80658431372549,59,3,14,1,3,21,15,17,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,1,4,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5129668246782121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5459149631736266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4036103100931665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.525300492431892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,19023895392,2020/02/17,This is pretend You all know and you'r just humoring me and it's imrpessive how organized it all is. I was fooled admittedly. Stigma or truth? Is is okay all because you say so?,0.326666666666668,2.6464948571428586,2.8678571428571438,84.89130952380955,100.42857142857143,6.904761904761906,22.97619047619048,7.793537801064563,1.9191904761904763,140,6,28,4,6,48,27,35,0.10099999999999999,0.706,0.193,0.5661,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,1,4,11,7,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,3,0,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,21,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5334088914493078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4808924546838594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6958573140744824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,kvdBowNArrow,2020/02/17,Got rejected after 2 job interviews. I'm a failure I feel  horrible about it. I would do anything for a job,0.22030303030303244,2.614907090909089,3.897272727272728,80.18257575757578,91.72727272727272,8.387878787878789,30.06060606060606,8.841846274778883,3.5593151515151504,84,5,16,3,3,31,18,22,0.4370000000000001,0.563,0.0,-0.8779,2,1,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,3,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,10,3,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3355024974817824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20614545343849186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32607506606175546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8091590091711609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896184997200494,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Horror-Boysenberry,2020/02/17,"Where to start? I have a partner who was recently dx'd with either schizoaffective or schizophrenia.  I have my own demons (spectrum) but I was wondering if anyone would be willing to privately answer some questions.  I'm educated on the topic as I have a medical background in some ways, but I would prefer to speak to some people who live with this to see how I can better support them.

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Thanks in advance and hope everyone is doing well",6.0813821138211335,7.848253073170731,6.144878048780488,75.34869918699188,67.04878048780488,8.881300813008131,33.178861788617894,9.2995712137729,3.2797008130081298,360,16,58,7,6,114,61,82,0.0,0.7929999999999999,0.207,0.9568,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,2,3,5,0,0,3,0,12,1,0,1,0,19,19,7,0,5,5,0,0,0,1,3,1,1,0,1,3,3,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,8,5,11,13,5,8,1,0,1,0,6,4,0,8,2,50,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2440721336150335,0.2737189402188552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1575089770096514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992266276944604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21524824465199105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22373677315305832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989111663083153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22692855720916175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15616885200526245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25234587319768315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22241982444787328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17950527490727095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15944215876264747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556255391231394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20739170757244085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17880311374626412,0.0,0.0,0.20253829683839294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442878814469225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200404389556859,0.0,0.2737189402188552,0.0
schizophrenia,Hiiki12,2020/02/17,Does this sound like a psychosis? So I had a psychosis last year. But it was different. Since 4 days I've been getting these weird sympthoms after 9 pm until I fall asleep. On the next day its gone. So I basically get random waves of anxiety. I have a fear of the dark and I HAVE to be turning around to see if there isnt something behind me. I KNOW there is nothing. I KNOW there is nothing to fear. But its so bad I could scream. If this happens again today I am going to my psychiatrist. But i dont want to be put on antipsychotics. What could this be? I found nothing.,0.5066585956416461,2.8130258644067823,2.197142857142857,94.32237288135592,86.96610169491525,5.06634382566586,21.14043583535109,6.5431188927421005,0.28713849878934594,444,15,98,5,14,145,76,118,0.168,0.81,0.022000000000000002,-0.9364,1,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,8,6,0,2,5,0,15,1,1,0,0,14,26,10,0,5,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,8,2,0,0,3,0,0,4,2,5,0,0,5,3,13,1,13,16,0,16,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,3,10,67,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12879645206609247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1498778549099288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405752188432479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688466788103163,0.0,0.0,0.21715909467526173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17590243261144725,0.0,0.0,0.14733470120238268,0.0,0.19731898389718627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37890806451755615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18460021842724908,0.0,0.0,0.1759243688630034,0.0,0.09568399179498756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14888194080133682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850546797275228,0.13723748274880904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08225315798196224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17905487324303346,0.0,0.0,0.4846435748739996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16925028941647005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341626982787799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392707677068466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12961327580776885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15958746875151952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18312948531125045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09930425651933468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10841959363462396
schizophrenia,neurototeles,2020/02/17,"When you wake up, do you still dream? A question from someone not schizophrenic. When you wake up from a dream, can you tell that you are no longer dreaming? Sorry, if that's a bit of a weird question. Thank you for your answers.",1.7006666666666668,4.169797733333333,1.8177777777777813,98.06000000000004,82.77777777777777,4.488888888888889,22.333333333333336,5.6839178017228535,0.02780000000000049,178,6,38,1,5,53,30,45,0.113,0.738,0.149,0.3939,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,7,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,3,3,2,0,0,5,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,7,1,6,4,1,5,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,3,3,28,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33801650604922284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6936733981760718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26233354621178284,0.0,0.0,0.3465856864550812,0.0,0.0,0.2472568290493613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27061484761781074,0.2850494615234192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ElloMeter432,2020/02/17,"Bad trip or warning signs of schizophrenia? So I am 19 years old rn and don't have any of these symptoms in my day to day life, but I am diagnosed with BPD, I also know that my behaviour back then was as stupid as it can get.

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So I remember when I was about 17 I dosed myself with 150mcg of LSD, I was alone over the trip since I did LSD before and it was going alright until I decided to go outside on the peak, I met a women who knew me and she realized Im on LSD, the conversation with her and her reaction etc. where sooo overwhelming I cant even describe, after that I kept walking until suddenly I got this weird weird feeling of aenxiety, I suddenly was convinced that people saw me and thought I was crazy and called the police on me. I went home quickly after that but the feeling did not go away, I still had the feeling that police are going to knock at my door every second. 

Now the thing is, this kind of feeling has had happened multiple times, sometimes when im on LSD, or back then when I first started smoking weed.

Alot of times on LSD I hear voices that Im sure are not there, and for example when I imagined the cops knocking at my door I could literally hear what they were about to say when I'd open the door and so on. 

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So basicly my question is if I should interpret these experiences as bad trips or schizophrenia, because I honestly don't know if its possible for a Person to experience these Symptoms just because of a drug.",5.8150468594217335,5.674731433898307,6.457647058823527,79.67193419740781,66.86440677966101,9.517447657028914,33.2851445663011,9.168548406835145,2.778513459621137,1163,47,231,19,17,382,160,295,0.081,0.85,0.069,-0.6731,0,1,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,1,1,22,11,1,1,13,1,25,6,0,0,1,42,47,32,0,4,10,0,4,0,0,1,6,4,4,2,17,12,0,1,14,0,0,9,5,6,0,2,18,9,36,5,37,27,2,48,0,1,1,0,14,13,0,7,26,170,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916600471980906,0.0,0.08429096076982649,0.0,0.22840880839972574,0.25615303167068965,0.07167784129070916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09902984633050432,0.16209722431800722,0.17601466350680214,0.12850571599047686,0.0,0.08969042352978325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327517347836825,0.0,0.10762852835500693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08415593817870137,0.0,0.0,0.13595278489066326,0.0,0.0,0.10698210519214543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12223433543344635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11755251349021215,0.06961786891800606,0.0,0.08880680501803394,0.0,0.0,0.2062092560981283,0.0,0.0,0.21318025099508373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08965597169259415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055068860718966266,0.0,0.2396124403343413,0.0,0.08430062762337885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09320776779870414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375943023340079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057280786738692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3415608722036392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10976129080270623,0.11585376658356693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07444945013059265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11060300615469046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07307335923062955,0.09203407395434164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11882635519466953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180757904394394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11940136319864235,0.0,0.0,0.0838209146920919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08719067811514225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10424653392382112,0.0,0.07460498040529492,0.0,0.08417519140367047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0993413390947269,0.2191087214035244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07002525222737395,0.0,0.0,0.08367842652462272,0.12292299432353045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09770989172219603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25615303167068965,0.06787625318379215
schizophrenia,vicksmind,2020/02/17,There is no high equal to hypomanic high. Clouds of depression disappear. No storming thoughts of mania. Plus ability to see through your own psychotic bullshit. But it is still abnormal. And short duration.,4.676274509803921,8.031292705882354,4.6670588235294135,71.69509803921571,92.52941176470587,10.501960784313727,38.01960784313725,9.2995712137729,5.94423137254902,168,11,24,7,6,52,29,34,0.313,0.635,0.052000000000000005,-0.8885,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,4,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,6,3,2,5,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,18,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230100624988413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7924728808174024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2988478317239329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29949691398793604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977294152062713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,fr-eya,2020/02/17,"Boyfriend just confessed he might have schizophrenia I have been with my boyfriend for almost a year, I really love him. I knew he had a mental illness (borderline personality disorder) and that’s all, he started going to therapy and taking medications. 
I have been very supporting with him, since my sister also has anxiety and depression. 
Today something happened, we were in his bedroom just chilling and then he started to shake, had fever, he then covered his ears and told me everything sounded extremely loud (I was eating chips and he told me to stop, and his roomies were talking in another room and he said they were being super loud) he then started to cry and I was really scared, tried to calm him down. He told me he saw scary stuff but didn’t wanted to tell me what. 
So after this episode ended he then confessed me he had this hallucinations and episodes a few times in his life. He told me he have seen really ugly things in his hallucinations.  He then told me a couple years ago he had this super ugly episode were he tried to commit suicide to calm the voices, and super loud noises shallowing a lot of pills and he ended in the hospital.  He also told me he sometimes harms himself because he feels itchy and it never stops and sometimes he tastes and smells weird things. He doesn’t imagine voices he just hears everything SUPER loud, but he have seen scary persons smiling at him, shadows, etc. 
He is in therapy for his BPD but his psychiatrist told him he might have schizophrenia. He is going to be examinated this Tuesday.
I’m really confused, I don’t know how to make him feel better, to support him, I don’t know what to expect. I really love him and want to help him. He says he is scared of the future because he don’t know if he will loose his mind when we gets older. He is really smart, speaks 3 languages and graduated from physics, so he is sad because he thinks those things might go away. 
I’m trying to stay positive, we still don’t know if it is schizophrenia, but I want to be by his side. How should I act? How can I help him? He thinks I’m gonna leave him because of his illness :( honestly I got scared just thinking that he might want to harm himself again in one of the episodes.",4.830445432619836,6.221280647196263,5.288908652396747,81.73453572505278,69.63084112149532,8.139403075067833,28.993367500753692,8.558390810932622,2.1248873078082613,1759,65,333,28,31,562,192,428,0.155,0.6970000000000001,0.14800000000000002,-0.1127,0,0,1,0,0,2,45.0,3,0,1,5,14,23,0,5,9,0,41,11,1,4,3,69,86,36,1,8,10,1,2,0,0,7,6,12,2,2,15,22,2,2,14,0,0,5,7,10,0,1,26,19,50,13,37,50,4,43,2,2,3,2,86,12,0,9,25,200,65,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06376264944750071,0.0,0.07202868458903869,0.0,0.0,0.1150466745311228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0754261121993448,0.05502715448370631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06758170980375748,0.0,0.0,0.17539431450207835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06361728174472983,0.0,0.0,0.09059480094671896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959048059051065,0.07901302168939707,0.0,0.0,0.061954218432535776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08243936210964076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07360355299711413,0.0,0.0,0.12741934726495616,0.0,0.0802222779068443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12929420973976122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07274113003548148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037581071790336935,0.0,0.12264043877742685,0.0,0.057529934291768135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06360850337791242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107166569649146,0.0,0.0964279050854514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15812597763288888,0.0,0.0,0.07616473173386575,0.0,0.0,0.050807118461873135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061153315472374174,0.12984139351857726,0.0,0.04801462004251709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07246309455200252,0.07248970929120935,0.3052304517710719,0.0726299847674712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05547775908968318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04874242798170336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12561506068143755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764857281741285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06842302259821785,0.05720256005750804,0.2160469737977584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059502213971984075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05537613526305357,0.14228354914688193,0.0,0.15273977459801166,0.07666906527609821,0.0574443318747865,0.12027537177865508,0.0,0.0,0.08234398972273152,0.07868103411249573,0.16325329733016808,0.0,0.0,0.054083294105047273,0.057815556379835965,0.06287102029323081,0.0,0.16451914240661886,0.0,0.14336363582261474,0.1382717837237249,0.0,0.0,0.04194364849793186,0.0,0.06818234629745219,0.4811332635845999,0.0,0.14650964505357586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059350755305931285,0.16970749043847674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926426408847291
schizophrenia,adozenrosesinthecar,2020/02/17,"My brother has schizophrenia but he is not a functioning individual, why? Diagnosed in his  teens now in his 40’s . He’s been institutionalized multiple times and has lived in multiple nursing homes just barely qualified to live alone about 10 years ago but under supervision, meaning he has a case manager that takes care of most of his life, such as medical care, leisure time, and disability checks. He has been legally disabled since he turned 21. My question is why is his case so severe? I see and read about how others diagnosed with this condition can somewhat live regular lives, have partners and jobs. He can’t work and even tho he is on medication he paces and talks to his self and has no social life outside his day center. I feel he was robbed of a life he could’ve had , and not just him all the situations we went through when we were growing up ( he’s 7 years older than me) really messed up our family in all types of ways.  I feel so guilty when we bring him over our mom’s s house and I’m there with my husband and kids and I have a job and a house, a fulfilling life while he has nothing.  Why did this happen to him in such a devastating way? And my mother she has suffered the worst.",4.510837487537387,5.78662986440678,5.2741176470588265,81.9757676969093,70.27118644067797,8.942771684945166,28.289132602193426,9.325443323948027,2.2803243270189437,952,34,193,20,17,309,142,236,0.138,0.813,0.049,-0.9788,2,1,0,0,0,0,21.0,5,0,0,1,15,5,0,0,9,0,21,8,0,1,2,33,33,23,0,0,6,4,2,0,1,0,8,0,1,3,4,18,0,0,4,1,1,3,4,3,0,0,7,3,24,2,24,26,5,27,0,1,1,0,37,11,0,3,11,119,28,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10044009652606394,0.0,0.0,0.11735220471476987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23104871456448714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09046666964187634,0.0,0.0,0.07307384329481252,0.0,0.0,0.2300090754726973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483841170189298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10681605073525552,0.0,0.11458316405428327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10019728280607716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11365647359249526,0.0,0.0,0.2614828528637396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22488004937136372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32012922466299604,0.0,0.0,0.4002097335534091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12342488118595,0.0,0.22829039490816555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327041557122221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087214228724472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269301223130042,0.0,0.11333797570757825,0.0,0.0725875661967103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902912586248648,0.0,0.11820423901123706,0.12800501220315882,0.0,0.09372898031442836,0.12736216735907407,0.0,0.11550253661927085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08519299821176697,0.09107212629675994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13214081096978952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12324581968169747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17987614229760016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050370144576745,0.30672667884960786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248907344911395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14593238947125328
schizophrenia,buddym0,2020/02/17,I am so thankful for my dog I’m pretty sure they’re after me again but I know he will keep me safe. He comforts me and he’s really soft. I recommend a pet to everyone who struggles with anything.,0.03999999999999915,2.2363544285714285,2.8574285714285743,89.53757142857144,88.04761904761904,6.217142857142857,22.685714285714287,7.554174236665415,1.1951942857142863,154,6,33,3,5,54,35,42,0.066,0.57,0.364,0.9282,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,7,6,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,7,4,4,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,19,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120022262944262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36228720128323016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3369995487111885,0.0,0.0,0.20836697208373664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3857245404949417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2428885916003036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39636238412255054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35733760999442643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34906375857906297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,blank444444444,2020/02/17,"*TW* Is it common to torture/kill animals at a young age? Common for people with schizo-spec diagnoses, I mean.",-0.04142857142856826,1.2339953333333362,2.343238095238096,85.7434285714286,119.4761904761905,5.48952380952381,18.48571428571429,6.742157984588678,1.1872400000000003,86,3,15,2,5,29,20,21,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6179974854125864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6632457093573992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4221187475612999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,somamma77,2020/02/17,"Can schizophrenic predict their future? I'm not sure if I am schizophrenic myself, but I sure as hell did in fact predict my life experiences. I'm not talking about superficial things such as predicting what you will eat for launch tomorrow, I'm talking about serious things such as relationships, future career and events(maybe even the date of your death).",11.16188172043011,10.554591209677422,9.599032258064515,63.051881720430146,56.25806451612904,13.427956989247313,41.63440860215054,12.45797560212912,5.42336989247312,293,13,45,8,3,90,45,62,0.182,0.818,0.0,-0.8951,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,1,0,5,4,1,0,1,0,4,4,0,1,3,9,7,6,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,7,2,8,5,0,5,1,0,0,0,6,1,1,1,4,31,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2837574207859208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18316067852942852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712624492317169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958722956332166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785952271694621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977272228652577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5227228973653957,0.0,0.0,0.44578264204958906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3684649619845772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,accidentonpurpose201,2020/02/18,"Girlfriends schizophrenia get way worse. Is it just a episode or is it like this from now on? We went out last year until October then broke up. She is not medicated.She accused me of stuff I didn’t do like having a whole other life and left. Well she came back and is living with her parents.

Before she was just delusional but now she whispers to herself nonstop. We spent three days together in the past week for about four hours a day and she is constantly talking below her breath and keeps making weird mannerism like tai chi moves or something every ten minutes or so. Wasn’t sure if like she is permanently like this til medicated or this is something that will pass like the delusions that come and go.",5.110441176470586,6.667153867647063,4.897823529411763,84.17070588235295,69.14705882352939,7.792941176470588,29.04117647058824,8.238735603445708,1.9431111764705884,570,21,108,8,10,175,97,136,0.040999999999999995,0.802,0.157,0.9419,1,0,2,0,0,0,9.0,2,0,0,0,8,10,0,0,5,0,13,3,1,1,1,23,21,15,0,1,9,1,0,6,1,1,2,1,0,0,9,11,0,1,0,0,1,6,3,2,1,3,6,1,13,8,13,14,1,27,0,1,0,0,14,6,0,5,20,77,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12715469380154468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14071256789057215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1891323403831932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424464269924399,0.0,0.1786997164396916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21329217458190805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13932628577782682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639585473694249,0.0,0.09398016101121298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16285021089152107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469831040073329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13479371505675716,0.0,0.0,0.17966844881206254,0.0,0.11680146991878185,0.4847309284956378,0.0,0.14601942451224612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11038174114846347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16658681332004688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17575574134594107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18361713099118654,0.0,0.15785863084374938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25461054249709897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.189302194845189,0.0,0.0,0.15585359474933552,0.0,0.0,0.13291330376086205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13125823077100784,0.13264501066654985,0.0,0.1486820780095958,0.1532940667625944,0.0,0.184622978894534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16852002371059546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064889818600358
schizophrenia,salfisher76,2020/02/18,"I selfishly felt compelled to share my prophecies with strangers I was sure I was doing the right thing but I feel so guilty. Maybe it is just an excuse but I could swear I could not restrain myself at the time, my mouth opened and I spoke these terrible burdens. Now I realize I spoke them into excistence. I doomed these people who were probably innocent. Did i play God? Will I be punished?",2.851099999999999,5.503399626666671,3.327583333333333,87.90337500000004,79.4,6.95,25.375,8.07648339933343,1.7432999999999996,312,12,59,6,8,97,57,75,0.28600000000000003,0.55,0.16399999999999998,-0.9416,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,3,8,1,0,3,0,10,1,1,1,1,16,14,4,0,2,4,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,5,4,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,7,4,16,3,4,3,0,6,1,1,0,0,6,4,0,0,2,45,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5389434888945512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17065359664629115,0.0,0.3240594895963255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3390709796095355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2339847432119024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3638894519772064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882289928565831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31809619761757235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242245441195332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19680294955958064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Psychotic_Symbiotic,2020/02/18,"Feels like I'm balanced over a gaping chasm Lately I feel like I'm living on borrowed time. I've had a steady job for the first time in my life but now it feels like I'm not gonna last much longer. The hallucinations arent too bad lately but the panic us building, the paranoia is constant, and the need to run is getting....let's say naggy. Words dont taste right. Does that make sense? I'm breaking apart",1.0793986928104573,3.2715095411764707,2.253333333333334,95.72888888888893,83.0,4.248366013071895,18.8562091503268,5.033348758259628,-0.5789477124183007,321,8,71,1,9,102,64,85,0.122,0.7559999999999999,0.122,-0.2441,3,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,0,1,2,5,0,1,7,0,5,2,0,1,0,10,15,3,0,1,3,0,3,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,3,0,1,1,3,2,0,1,1,5,3,3,5,13,1,15,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,11,30,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15265907410950022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19757901660330232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15999960202684008,0.0,0.2142805370238176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773396751749834,0.39185076258316703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15551883410497847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18143491486655527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490344259959016,0.4124902989758033,0.0,0.0,0.18696054562022116,0.1291413328692182,0.2679709349222598,0.0,0.16144611124688762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12204337142546012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344043098448494,0.13556937946449502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21451675641126186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561395654233631,0.0,0.14539724103624638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132243999031629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21992725282058315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,petigreti,2020/02/18,"question I am  not diagnosed with schizophrenia, but I am beginning to think I may need a doctor. Every day before I am going to sleep, tens of voices start telling me random words. This occurs every night before going to sleep. I did some research and it may have something to do with dreams but I'm not convinced since I am beginning to become extremely paranoid. I thought my friends had set me up l, being friends with me for years and will just abandon me soon. Hence I made some pretty irrational choices. did anyone have these symptoms or am I paranoid ?",5.138785714285714,6.920294152380954,5.149702380952379,81.5188392857143,69.3809523809524,7.154761904761906,31.220238095238088,7.645422480735847,2.22102380952381,446,19,76,5,8,139,69,105,0.134,0.727,0.138,0.3472,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,15,5,2,1,0,23,25,5,0,1,6,0,0,0,2,3,3,1,0,0,3,5,0,1,3,1,0,2,2,1,0,1,5,1,14,3,11,16,2,11,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,7,7,56,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1337823971742821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113089727567552,0.32561550625674746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339203322104933,0.0,0.0,0.19419594072373556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19583438068833056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224075841875029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2956421944609867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21747451677205207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18104108912236155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418687839539522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17955026076721287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19465141260788374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21433340800223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15827016797341553,0.0,0.382936388341832,0.0,0.0,0.14729519533388585,0.0,0.0,0.13542437145409442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19886514757449505,0.0,0.0,0.1672308688741361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12259654991572635,0.0,0.15189466245822356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232102585395443
schizophrenia,151-PoKeMoN,2020/02/18,"Psychosis and full spectrum CBD/hemp Any information regarding the effects of full spectrum CBD of patients with psychosis or a history or psychosis? All the research is only about CBD Isolates. And where I live, they sell full spec oil and hemp flower over the counter, and I find it a little concerning that someone who may have or have had psychosis could buy it.",10.693636363636363,9.224560484848489,8.902121212121212,70.42318181818182,57.78787878787878,11.224242424242425,46.24242424242424,9.725611199111238,4.742187878787878,296,16,48,4,3,89,45,66,0.037000000000000005,0.963,0.0,-0.3182,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,5,0,6,0,0,1,1,14,6,7,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,5,3,4,6,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,4,0,35,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3036389568112316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3564981982983289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4080978108407727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4475156729038999,0.3942724141333978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3395874473538213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37832254342308097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,zman1548,2020/02/18,"Graduate Student (Canada) Wanting to Know About Individual Experiences. Help is appreciated! Hi Everyone,

I am a graduate student from the University of Toronto currently working on a project focusing on one of the current treatment options for Schizophrenia, paliperidone palmitate. Before I begin my work, I want to understand more about the patient and caregiver experience in Ontario or the rest of Canada that might grant me a deeper understanding about what types of treatments individuals with schizophrenia are taking, their perception about the treatments, potential side effects, how it is effecting their quality of life, and generally how they are coping with the condition. I want to really understand from a treatment perspective what isn't being addressed, and more so for those taking long acting injections such as paliperidone palmitate. 

If you are a current caregiver or individual with Schizophrenia in Ontario or Canada, your comments would be much appreciated to give me a better perspective of these issues. Additionally, if you would be comfortable talking over the phone, please send me a direct message so we can set up a short call.

Thank you all!

Sincerely,

C.",12.212513089005235,12.726639073298433,11.072612565445027,49.69666753926706,53.55497382198953,14.13214659685864,49.46649214659686,13.187427743715654,7.360300104712043,977,58,119,31,10,311,119,191,0.0,0.852,0.14800000000000002,0.9778,3,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,1,4,3,5,9,4,0,0,15,0,14,1,0,4,1,31,26,13,0,7,5,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,6,8,0,0,7,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,16,4,28,20,5,16,0,0,0,0,17,8,0,7,5,98,22,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14211539343552976,0.0,0.0,0.14770904335356225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17053850400182008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15958766490712012,0.0,0.3267406753933101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16021367258858954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11194500316684834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743177286905984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09178573905130624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11796591520001705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14780086619035546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17717394077913268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277345343594105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11317203769876165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833296456015844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10699252700281868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25114533078357043,0.1342383750076994,0.0,0.1537627328208736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5215979166940263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2955250174377087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431742757299336,0.0,0.0,0.23728187150312816,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BrockWegner,2020/02/18,"Need Friends? Lonely? Game? Mental Illness? History? My  name is Brock Wegner, I'm 19 years old and am currently living in   Florida with my wife. I have a sever and we are very accepting to   Muslims, Atheists, and whatever you believe in. Addiction, ADHD,   Schizophrenia, Depression, and Anxiety Disorder are welcome with open   arms. No person is perfect and Brock isn’t either. I stream television   shows like The Walking Dead, Breaking Bad, House of Cards, Better Call   Saul, and Entourage. I created this channel, MESSAGE ME FOR THE LINK, to   bring my current and future friends together.I like film, television,   and video games. Everything I type and put into this channel is only 75   percent serious. I like history, politics, and geography. I don't like   homophobia, racist, or nationalism. Joking is a thing that you are  free  to do as long as it is not homophobic or racist, if that isn't the  case  then post a joke. Serious topics are allowed and no one has the  as the  authority to judge or insult you. We are a family and you can be  apart  of it.",3.6721578947368414,6.491891110526321,5.193947368421052,74.74513157894737,77.36842105263158,9.06315789473684,31.078947368421048,9.516144504307137,3.7348210526315793,821,41,135,25,20,275,123,190,0.14,0.6509999999999999,0.209,0.9371,3,2,0,0,0,0,38.0,2,4,0,2,0,19,1,0,9,0,19,3,1,1,1,30,22,20,1,2,6,1,0,4,2,0,2,0,0,1,7,18,0,0,2,9,1,3,6,6,0,1,0,0,16,14,15,21,2,18,0,2,0,0,17,6,0,4,11,88,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2021935736898069,0.2229031941850484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14188677721985296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15486268789771268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20896520527615325,0.0,0.16403630474695646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1893892572750046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15974811837981187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125687856394776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16669168981465765,0.0,0.1748479797948343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28659284793267936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21401160340374106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3624520804727512,0.0,0.16377656476805688,0.16413827737163109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869137397605984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13752630574346014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946233169604156,0.0,0.1256816945212475,0.1410610115551858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16194837165024512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776324152288969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186452171031134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20953234680814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12322040180734535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15303512374815212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943890131700885
schizophrenia,HITL_e_R,2020/02/18,"My sister Hi i do not have sz but my sister told me she did, it really shook me and made me very anxiouse because my parents didnt know and i wpuld see her crying. Shes now denying she has it and im pretty sure i saw her medicine and have seen a few signs is there anything i can look out for as she said it was mild. Also can yous giv an insight of wat it is like having it as sometimes i worry about her and want to better understand the condition",0.931995464852612,2.6014616326530664,2.9852380952380955,93.05420634920635,80.63265306122447,5.580045351473924,21.092970521541947,6.42735559955562,0.1920507936507936,352,10,80,3,9,119,70,98,0.121,0.7340000000000001,0.145,0.39399999999999996,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,1,3,0,13,0,0,1,1,15,23,9,0,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,5,6,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,8,5,18,3,7,15,1,3,0,0,4,0,13,1,0,0,2,56,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18641638697688745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633456935264565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19182802561206752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421004759112798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20616508665680752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560581970316616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517966463914897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12811006297073352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11388479625726172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19575201402658565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22057243017109596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.258838852521816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23715464441411424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14933495675256472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22173909347283427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18575689898926392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23054977700406945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21970153551878804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22274468792123892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24267365367700935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19233851675544056,0.13749314067264568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23673249389881745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,HalaTheBat,2020/02/18,"Bored, empty, lonely, etc. I feel so bored of everything. Video games I used to be able to spend hours playing or movies I used to love just don't interest me anymore. I keep finding myself starting things, remembering exactly what they're like and thinking that there's no point doing them.

It's like I'm just coasting through life either depressed as fuck or not feeling much at all. I don't have the motivation to do anything really, recreational or otherwise.

I have a deadline coming up and if I want to meet it I need to work my ass off during the next week, but honestly the idea of facing consequences for not doing something sounds like some excitement.

Does anyone else feel like this? Sorry for the long post, I guess I just needed somewhere to vent my frustrations. I hope y'all are doing well.

Bonus: what's your favorite movie?",4.591799709724236,6.630801232704402,4.839119496855346,82.15284470246738,71.26415094339623,7.911175616835995,27.954039671020798,8.617729084823388,2.1811795839380737,672,25,121,12,13,211,113,159,0.14,0.639,0.221,0.9649,0,2,1,0,0,1,19.0,0,2,1,3,6,18,2,0,5,0,10,5,2,3,2,33,27,9,0,5,11,0,3,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,7,3,0,1,8,3,2,1,5,6,1,0,0,4,18,12,16,26,5,11,0,2,0,3,6,4,2,7,9,77,25,2,0.1566768835764083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15538136817329634,0.10955211991561782,0.16053398244152595,0.12893172544773104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13496326208170492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134945570243474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371089966446015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13088343188950072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17473614085145775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14081108037470305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.237661619849547,0.11192999693250767,0.0,0.0,0.14319983314776752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14484525420872246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17259725116745495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15561549739793762,0.15429517016793806,0.0,0.0,0.17686913078195102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1392616129906649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11066551635593902,0.30617764504142103,0.0,0.0,0.13865411163112287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14140700450165106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11517553690193627,0.232347847852647,0.0,0.0,0.1666276431440009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14811029742392218,0.0,0.15005314497537356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10037122355993863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774843667589568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12061751951709115,0.0,0.17538694383840145,0.11089670460687596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10408915958551647,0.10039222066048127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2706370453922712,0.0,0.0,0.09241208529144466,0.0,0.12567674540106394,0.0,0.1408713344724791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406263725630254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,word-vomit91,2020/02/18,"My mom is abusing 911 because of her delusions. What should I do? My mom has pretty severe schizophrenia and it's been worse in her later years. She's in the mindset that she's being abused and keeps calling 911. She's living with my aunt and I know she's not being mistreated. She's currently on a waitlist for a home, but we don't know how long that'll take. I feel bad for putting her in one, but she's so far gone that she's a danger to herself and others and needs professionals. We're not sure what to do and there aren't a lot of resources in our area to ask for advice. It's impossible to talk her down from the hallucinations and delusions. She calls 911 about once a week. Another time she stole my sister's car so she could file a report. We just don't know what to do anymore. Any words of wisdom or advice on how I can help her is appreciated.",2.37677839851024,3.9909824692737423,3.76455865921788,89.32713594040968,76.26256983240224,6.337579143389199,22.547858472998136,7.0316486544052195,0.5499740037243948,678,19,148,7,15,223,101,179,0.11199999999999999,0.8059999999999999,0.083,-0.4754,1,0,0,0,1,0,15.0,3,0,0,0,7,4,1,0,8,0,16,0,0,2,1,29,25,14,0,3,6,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,9,10,0,1,4,0,0,3,5,2,0,1,2,1,27,2,21,18,1,18,0,0,0,0,28,9,0,2,6,100,36,2,0.0,0.36685381656599786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30256099483694565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10527747064011454,0.16233388325275186,0.0,0.0,0.15353190756074894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1447283245424915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12926155584409948,0.09437195999949788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.316160727775759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12360478707591772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07827760020060842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103767222186119,0.0,0.15528906141690332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376040212787757,0.0,0.0,0.2552418841810689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367018347679967,0.1370037508366194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1316156286588682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3626278932524311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11479113846734115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648697304747263,0.10490461966971476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15749946277672788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15562882218545354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17489349768986956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1459084805229812,0.0,0.1163993595211348,0.12443202368368535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09027212380325864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12418085053757437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15776665682210433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09969385409830832
schizophrenia,theonlypickle23,2020/02/18,"At the cafe at my college, I was ordering pancakes and thought to myself ""I hope the chef will give me some extra butter"". When the pancakes were ready, she gave me an extra butter packet and smiled widely at me.

Trying really hard to tell myself it was a coincidence. I know logically that no one can read my thoughts, but some days, it's harder to believe than other days.",5.002500000000001,6.153915361111113,5.9232222222222255,78.24400000000001,69.0,7.982222222222222,26.9,8.238735603445708,1.8218466666666664,294,9,53,4,5,97,52,72,0.040999999999999995,0.8759999999999999,0.083,0.4595,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,5,0,0,0,0,10,11,4,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,3,11,1,7,4,4,8,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,3,3,42,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33136526628374324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3793578304004584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28214052727681593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634679805360867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921211284305342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16163712118956894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19929896040342315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2941931519390808,0.0,0.1884166781493788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25706821557282505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.466986628677514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19968380154836785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,doomkolsch,2020/02/18,"Roommate experiencing hallucinations but in denial Hi all, 

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I would just like to seek some advice about my roommate. He has been confused about where is for about a week now and he has been telling me about what he calls his ""sleep paralysis demon"". I have been worried about it for a little but it didn't seem to cause much of a concern until he started writing about his experiences with it. That being said, I recently received text messages from him that read as follows:  

""I would like to start off by making it very clear that in no capacity do I need to be institutionalized and that I am one hundred percent mentally stable as I write this. I know that after reading this you make strongly believe I am descending into madness but it is overwhelmingly chill, there is nothing to be concerned about; aside from him."" 

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and then continuing into a description such as: 

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""His arms were enormous, he must have an eight foot wingspan. If he wanted to, he could probably ball out in the NBA but I think he has other intentions and aspirations."" 

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Although the comment about the NBA is somewhat comical, I am legitimately concerned as he speaks about this as though it is a paranormal encounter. Likewise, I understand that hallucinations are not a defining symptom, however, this as just been a turning point for me as I thought his irritable personality and frequent mood swings were just quirks. 

​

Please any advice in reaching out to him in an appropriate way would be greatly appreciated. Thanks again guys.",9.31088807785888,9.553807339416064,8.631080291970804,65.71696107055965,59.54744525547445,10.956301703163016,41.62433090024331,10.504223727775694,4.6111939659367405,1257,64,198,25,15,397,161,274,0.064,0.8320000000000001,0.105,0.9152,1,0,0,0,0,0,49.0,0,1,0,1,18,9,1,2,12,0,31,4,3,4,3,42,46,21,0,8,9,0,0,2,0,4,1,2,0,2,18,10,0,0,5,4,0,2,3,3,0,2,9,3,24,5,43,28,5,28,1,1,0,0,29,14,0,5,13,157,42,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591914254336887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4412758028080587,0.494876425669131,0.05539137860874945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09177054186120244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08317343904143869,0.0,0.0,0.08367549225553407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06503423303339889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07967744822862392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08980310439003647,0.0,0.08065207024333383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04476487944198068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07958842664678871,0.08163810840181451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10874209082309502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08208627439417727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05987791674982777,0.060396962171610925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07815711995146221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055195204354747326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112231818805305,0.0,0.08941181460562829,0.07700017119514507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08782097531903485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1629516893432415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08042580292961175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774812185452841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07415248225551646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08151262707771534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11530684075620105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08466168850229297,0.0,0.0,0.07119421327101219,0.07499171732493598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05219230743553476,0.08002794701539591,0.06466522040209091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08859834665408749,0.0,0.08479628062533999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06720791727792387,0.04804356288324002,0.06465423675724645,0.06533732683982563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08272028991041025,0.0,0.1735873319982913,0.0,0.494876425669131,0.0
schizophrenia,pywak,2020/02/18,"Mood swings at Night After Sunset Hi all,

I'm new to the subreddit. 

My sister has schizophrenia, she was diagnosed in 2008. She also has an intellectual impairment and is developmentally a young teenager. Its really hard for her to express what she experiences and I am trying to understand better so that I can help her.

We don’t live in the same country and she is visiting me for 3 months. 

She lives with my mother who is elderly, at home, my mother will cook and my sister has to help with setting the table, cleaning up after the meal and then cleaning the house.

She doesn’t like to do this and neglects these tasks. This frustrates my mother and consequently they tend to eat out a lot at unhealthy restaurants of fast food places. 

While they have been visiting us, we cook and eat at home and ask my sister to clean the dishes as she would at home. 

She gets agitated and annoyed when asked to do the dishes, even though we have explained that everyone has a job to do in the house.

What I noticed however that her bad moods are not linked only to doing the dishes, yesterday I did the dishes and she was still grumpy with me. 

I think this switch happens at night. 

In the mornings and during the day she is happy and talkative. However, once the sun starts to go down her mood changes quite dramatically and she will withdraw and will be unresponsive to questions or answer with one liners, she does not really listen or participate in conversations and if asked to do something she will snap at you.

It also seems that she can be angry with any of us, my mother, my wife or me.

Although usually after the dishes she can become “happy” again.

Is this something that others have experienced, that symptoms are more pronounced in the evenings?

Thank you in advance.",6.4638884107860015,7.281657382530124,6.640774526678142,75.61002008032129,65.53614457831326,9.335857716580607,30.568559954102124,9.362217197678863,2.6674788869764776,1409,49,251,25,21,452,173,332,0.067,0.856,0.077,0.5624,3,0,2,0,0,0,31.0,5,2,2,3,9,12,2,0,19,0,36,13,0,0,1,43,51,29,0,2,6,8,1,1,0,5,2,1,6,0,17,25,11,1,7,2,0,4,4,4,0,1,4,3,44,5,43,40,4,41,0,1,0,0,50,18,0,7,19,198,61,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17398139579135294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07397359551472059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30508164208734523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09082609972937017,0.0,0.12013809518375015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620637466931424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507398448643255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07015359375719167,0.0,0.0,0.11040861212184476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519342295974892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226165847527649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14369528945635096,0.0,0.0,0.1039432003218989,0.0,0.1064069440939734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13153625699399893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05683264946218908,0.0,0.06182173396412395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09619309942674087,0.2315949914515069,0.09744480906085434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14582482795245386,0.0,0.3273432619705493,0.0,0.0,0.25103321526782946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10794658469000903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05314402916388685,0.0,0.1921080772507616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09248019750692016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08682653056173822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050596424384105,0.0,0.2041638463043354,0.0,0.0,0.1238458557821264,0.0,0.11584631242186474,0.07371161043183509,0.08273149379855478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136511258418966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185761463745648,0.11570008366887365,0.0,0.0,0.13937349949537334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09902851069165527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16748710635682884,0.0,0.0,0.07699448734096134,0.0,0.08687122057729173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11306325385215545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10014928502741448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06970132782732986,0.1068750251587941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07385394564771823,0.0,0.0,0.11324299776754113,0.2616960009014702,0.0,0.1198049356798688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07727363238493105,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,tryng2figurethsalout,2020/02/18,"Probably need meds, but do I really? Haven't be en officially diagnosed as schizophrenic, but I highly suspect it's a possibility. It mainly erupts when I take certain substances or stimulant type of products. I.E. Just a little too much cannabis sends me into a psychosis. 

I'm having thoughts and fears about demons, about God and going to hell, about the people around me not being genuine. I'm afraid of being a sinner. 

Practiced some witch craft for a couple of years and did some bad stuff towards people. Saw that there lives started getting bad. I feel extreme remorse and guilt. And I'm convinced that I'm responsible for it and that I now made deals with Satan that only Christ can deliver me from. I guess that this can be a delusion?

I read on here that psychosis reactions can get worse over time, so that concerns me.
The side effects are brutal, and I see how they basically killed the intellectual side of my mom (she's schizophrenic), and how she now has incredibly poor impulse control. Not to mention the awful physical symptoms. I also don't want to gain as much extra weight as she did. 

I have a psychiatrist appointment on Wednesday. But I don't trust that they will look out for my best interest as most I've seen and have heard about never do. Besides I've been prescribed anti-depressants for anxiety and they only made me more depressed, stopped worked over time, and slowed my metabolism. Besides, I'm afraid they will try to take me away to a psych ward and further re- traumatize me (I have severe anxiety and childhood trauma) which I can't afford right now. My life has actually been looking up ever since I discovered inner child work, and have consistently practiced meditation. 

I understand a good measure of mental health is how you're able to live with your mental illness without it incapacitating your daily life. But I don't want to just manage my mental illnesses I want to thrive in spite of them. 

I guess I'm just looking for some compassionate understanding, and gentle guidance. Do my symptoms sound like schizophrenia?",6.53581807081807,8.001215129629635,6.593756613756617,73.68322344322345,65.6931216931217,9.201628001628,33.32153032153032,9.466822959209583,3.2338201872201875,1661,71,277,32,26,529,214,378,0.228,0.6779999999999999,0.094,-0.9959,2,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,2,5,6,21,21,4,4,13,1,30,11,0,8,3,58,61,30,1,4,11,1,2,1,0,2,10,2,0,1,15,20,1,2,6,1,1,2,9,13,0,0,10,10,41,8,42,45,10,34,4,1,6,0,17,18,1,7,15,190,56,6,0.10072680857976826,0.0,0.09829483515703373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08055119242964708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15411146572424736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08966821495953332,0.0,0.0,0.0946361523844718,0.0,0.16820535560500272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10570657125422096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1129736807965898,0.0,0.11145229783899507,0.0,0.0,0.10384491674641848,0.1735117052666319,0.10223559042580116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09111316507902197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11334566337194812,0.0509305009198936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1052512002744376,0.0,0.057245366566096925,0.0844848680856455,0.0,0.0,0.22192387138285155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10706788732237546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10642340355006824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11143928977523754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14229264749103482,0.04921003076444782,0.10095472407901196,0.17788723475323104,0.0,0.2537554515360518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19062028350103905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11188477709857912,0.0,0.3045267955505706,0.0,0.0,0.11797002082039088,0.0,0.0,0.14809158816253398,0.07468765225714098,0.07768672438749644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15321455369748802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396625727624693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11355434219259428,0.0,0.0,0.1086005360149406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10075406668468434,0.0,0.06452817283354106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08602014416519035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08026622529420588,0.0,0.0,0.11379262294896053,0.0,0.08332225693930358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07129495355079854,0.0,0.0,0.08421212222061117,0.0,0.0,0.11530809714602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093874434411143,0.1514680488919767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07996583471863593,0.11746922421280047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06838689114429693,0.0,0.0,0.20972032010647115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17823384432590625,0.0,0.0,0.12265811688993478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970970490263502,0.0,0.14666063259314305,0.0,0.10264922327478644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06486476226722858
schizophrenia,Schrodingersphallus,2020/02/18,"Is corona virus bugging the living hell out of anyone else here? Considering it’s madly underreported, I have not been going anywhere but the grocery store. Scary stuff",5.816436781609196,9.118423517241382,6.0834482758620725,68.66471264367817,72.44827586206897,6.625287356321839,26.90804597701149,7.793537801064563,2.169542528735632,138,5,19,2,3,44,28,29,0.272,0.728,0.0,-0.8381,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.324264304823735,0.4751659781397442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3874030469449932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635594236889768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4094991427738873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5308820163704937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,insan9806,2020/02/18,"Please tell me, is this normal. I dont think i have schizophrenia, but i swear, something is wrong with me and i didnt know where else to go. I feel like im going insane. It feels like i have seperate voices that are my own voices, that i cant god damn control. And i always thought this was normal since they werent other peoples voices, but they are saying bad things. Sometimes violent stuff, sometimes stuff i dont agree with, calling the people i care about bad things. And then another part of me starts getting paranoid thinking what if someone is listening to my head and can hear my bad thoughts to the point where its a regular occasion that i try to silince my own head, in case someone can listen, but i can't, because as i said before, i cant god damn control them. And when ever i tell anyone, they just tell me im either insane or im an idiot for thinking my own voice in my head has multiple ""personas"" i guess you could call it. I've also been aithiest for a while. And there is still a part of me that tells me  when ever the bad thoughts rise up, that im going to hell, and the dead relatives can hear every second of my life. Imagine having to know your god damn grandpa has been watching you do, think, and say everything you've done for a year. Its gotten to the point where i cant god damn concentrate. Please just give me a chance and hear me out. Tell me im not crazy and how to fix this. Would it be worth bringing all this up at the next check up with the doctor.",3.471800356506236,4.476928372549021,4.2182055852644105,89.59374331550802,72.46405228758171,6.74010695187166,25.34699940582293,6.782984794422108,0.8530183006535954,1166,35,248,9,22,373,153,306,0.19899999999999998,0.701,0.10099999999999999,-0.9902,1,0,1,0,0,0,33.0,0,3,4,2,14,15,7,0,13,0,29,5,3,3,3,46,56,22,1,5,9,1,2,2,0,1,2,12,0,0,20,14,0,2,12,0,2,5,8,12,0,1,10,15,40,3,26,43,7,27,1,0,1,0,24,12,5,3,12,167,60,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06066261208914585,0.06311888913708852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07954241188437748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053040800314905004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25334885631382875,0.04624156807071765,0.0,0.06454850343390671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1549164372002889,0.0,0.07734100777614314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17015958095051478,0.06056543888108312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07764259349719316,0.0,0.07762778769839053,0.17780708189792047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0633685772646632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13723353864017365,0.06391257988381918,0.0,0.06817515171804463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07671089968054312,0.1083841484969513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03963201872983858,0.07276870256799307,0.12933341001499482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356475749739813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335527171222931,0.0,0.2564881963400029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4096915119186536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0833777671667158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05357986280231181,0.0741195485036648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08067450957363208,0.0,0.14864700964764332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16429092670373932,0.0,0.10517903235587026,0.0,0.0,0.16653585473862229,0.14341828741049314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.072157136132078,0.12064865761368695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06274948388275846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12854634884775476,0.0583982288258133,0.15004852219747128,0.0,0.05369179500282554,0.0,0.06057929506337239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736756504012241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315106960927691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10079170230159253,0.194423758602716,0.0,0.18066534829356404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05150175092805021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053886455672627835,0.08293744317565202,0.0,0.048849257136798316
schizophrenia,Sterling_179,2020/02/18,"I’ve started hearing voices I’m only posting this to see if anybody has had a similar experience to this and to find out if this is a problem or not. It only started a few months ago but it’s getting worse, it started out with an unfamiliar voice in my head simply saying “I need help” and nothing but it. It would only happen when I was out of the house and I never heard it at home. It started to get a lot worse very quickly and the voice became a lot more frequent and started happening all the time but the words never changed, it’s like an annoying broken record in my head which I can’t get out. The past few weeks things have started to change, I can’t make out what’s being said but I’m now hearing an extremely loud white noise and I’ve found myself somewhat arguing with it if you know what I mean? Just trying to push it out but it’s not going and it’s happening every day now and it’s really starting to effect my work. I’ve had an extremely traumatic life and I’ve got a history with drug use  and I don’t know if this is all of that taking it’s toll on me now? I’m only 21 and I’ve also been diagnosed with ADHD when I was young so I really don’t know if this is the start of something serious or just my hyper brain clinging onto the noises and winding itself up?",1.5512867647058817,3.3778984375000007,3.7936411764705897,87.24253529411767,79.33088235294117,6.557882352941178,23.38000000000001,7.554174236665415,1.0838051176470596,1013,34,212,15,25,349,136,272,0.12,0.867,0.013000000000000001,-0.9818,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,2,11,5,2,0,17,0,16,6,3,3,4,58,49,28,0,8,16,0,0,1,0,1,3,9,1,0,25,22,0,0,7,0,0,2,8,4,0,0,9,11,16,1,26,38,8,39,0,0,2,0,8,12,0,10,25,146,41,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11584398033449893,0.0,0.08544534399962231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07708433359107922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10760491244710547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039390790598016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062164612477044925,0.0,0.0,0.09783545245647864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117836622430404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08121408654792045,0.0,0.0,0.09428948811036984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08810018285796747,0.0,0.0,0.10568842220371498,0.0,0.0,0.15108190930697155,0.0,0.054781571815695616,0.0,0.07709317395732015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25571634018604456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19785119628876052,0.0,0.217280694076636,0.0,0.06460926257442616,0.0,0.09668864148666624,0.0,0.0,0.1112229731238213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15892291966212005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06808424292623985,0.0470920704344263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638973951845174,0.0,0.0,0.06434214641475883,0.0,0.0,0.10499871859750083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07693886137577143,0.0,0.0,0.07147315549366103,0.14868629992074325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09249034697068408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932406439182301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0920166961755094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09231651476229118,0.0,0.0,0.09223375028529762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12350186386298015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09169049206796748,0.07665447505905686,0.0,0.0,0.07681163121302281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07420696862380287,0.0,0.0,0.5458118065894738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07247449266115219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06403830082367049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05620672142012923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06544357409516875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08325140002989886,0.0,0.07953317102872494,0.0,0.0,0.07731953318271427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07017423818624703,0.0,0.19646256575753784,0.06847383226765094,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,poopshallot,2020/02/18,I think I have schizo But I’m not really sure.  I seem to have created two accounts on reddit and I’ve been posting things here of very contrasting opinions.  Anybody with an experience like this?,2.2556756756756755,5.1505529459459485,3.5608648648648646,82.71318918918921,87.1081081081081,7.284324324324325,26.318918918918918,8.238735603445708,2.433361081081081,157,7,28,4,5,51,32,37,0.061,0.813,0.126,0.3229,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,8,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,3,2,4,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3771436289711174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883611280041484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692520352922263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469943471718703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35099186629090745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36337799613812494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25614347526749404,0.24704601701265816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3766280727312014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3181206022695016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,throwawayccjjbv,2020/02/18,"I don’t know I’m hoping this is mentally related and not physical Facts
-I have been stressed out recently (full time job and what not)
-have not been acting out in any way
-recently I saw my doctor and she said I may have a fast resting heart rate,since then I’ve been obsessing about it...
-fast forward to tonight I started thinking in gibberish twice (while falling asleep), I never said any of the words and it wasn’t in a conversation, my thought process was like “oh that’s a noise from an old cartoon I used to watch” but thinking further I think the thought was just gibberish, I know in strokes you say gibberish and I haven’t yet just thought it 
- is this word salad?, can it be brought on by extreme anxiety? Is it something you guys experience?


Any opinions appreciated",3.069399999999998,5.583051140000002,3.7286666666666686,86.141,77.6,7.466666666666666,31.33333333333333,8.447377352677275,2.6031333333333317,621,32,121,13,15,196,99,150,0.048,0.89,0.062,0.598,1,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,0,0,4,4,0,2,6,0,17,5,2,1,2,29,33,8,0,1,6,0,1,1,0,1,2,3,0,1,9,7,1,0,8,0,0,4,7,2,0,1,13,6,15,2,13,18,2,26,0,0,2,0,8,10,0,3,14,78,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3327440245076192,0.0,0.12477227064581625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669413895404858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15954465268777412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16149621783319112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19327617057581076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16199668146478102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16185316202661545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792727378188084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07968319875715223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16436804177104006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12579400183251327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17114768305819034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3220862886753592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3102939257583292,0.1297049315396151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13491932147674476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12556357313382327,0.0,0.0,0.11544414555161195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18683232136710606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135267411758477,0.0,0.38845333376239854,0.09510584930948164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14086740706444026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12946245113962224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,thegaybitchlives,2020/02/18,I think I might be about to go into an episode but I have a phobia of doctors and hospitals So I’m showing symptoms of going into an episode. But I know if I tell doctors they’ll send me to hospital. Since during every episode I have caused serious damage to myself and I don’t want either to happen. Also doctors don’t believe me at all and I just don’t know what to do anymore,2.005660714285717,3.7332483875000047,4.207142857142859,85.25500000000002,77.625,6.071428571428572,27.67857142857143,6.868970318607317,1.4574821428571427,301,13,59,3,7,104,50,80,0.126,0.8540000000000001,0.02,-0.8271,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,4,2,0,0,3,0,9,4,0,1,1,17,17,8,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,3,1,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,12,0,11,14,2,6,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,2,0,46,13,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713523069713167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21249908909710014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24140985258972486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201151681258741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6579458280874464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1805324174219084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435501034472363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1894789891358316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23551529124955656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273074918594083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17724704648011658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22270943732954387,0.0,0.0,0.18728215157529293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13729609729652034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12638248830512222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Noperino12,2020/02/18,"I'm lost Hello readers,

In 2018 I was seeing a psychologist, and they said that I have a high probability of being a schizophrenic. Before I could get there referal to a psychiatrist for a proper diagnosis, my psychologist moved to another clinic which was another 50 minutes travel from my home at the time, in which I stopped getting therapy. I recently started seeing another psychologist as my parents were saying there worries and it'd be best and there saying the same thing.

I'm not sure whether or not I am schizophrenic, in the sense that I'm not sure whether my delusions are actually delusions or whether it's just my brain dealing with everything in its own way. Hense the title I guess. 

I experience hallucinations (visual) almost on a daily basis, not as severe as the ones I've read on this sub. I mostly just see things falling (like translucent leaves) or sometimes actual figures. 

In the sense of paranoia I don't get paranoid about being monitored or watched, but I get skeptical about people's motives and there relationships with me, specifically family and friends. 

As stated in the rules of the subreddit, I'm not asking for a diagnosis, just asking if this matches anyone's experiences, as I believe experience is the best way to understand. 

Thank you for reading, any replies would be appreciated as it help with understanding what is going on.",10.034146341463416,9.239145382113826,10.105,59.12750000000001,58.593495934959364,13.078048780487805,42.857723577235774,12.161744961471696,5.5258113821138215,1108,55,172,30,12,369,142,246,0.057,0.8320000000000001,0.111,0.9587,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,1,4,9,9,1,0,16,0,16,4,1,1,2,39,37,20,0,3,17,1,0,1,1,1,3,3,1,0,13,8,0,1,5,3,0,4,6,2,0,1,5,7,20,7,31,25,5,22,0,1,4,0,13,11,0,8,5,127,33,3,0.0,0.0,0.2059159920701388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10564836141061362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0717472515875372,0.3318946558679709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07377178937389277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972665082026817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08977727657680214,0.11886839289102424,0.22144269791359592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11777885618139458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423743182504508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10877137653834093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948213998132954,0.3096134128177702,0.09946104822086406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08151316675615695,0.0,0.22048874985607853,0.0,0.05996111814544869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11622603076458732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07071800786492805,0.1114721881698222,0.10583046202124216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1117149251145206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05154458160733903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151715457387055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11213548325723256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07149315133023353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171511983638467,0.0,0.0,0.07314412089787688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11375260499261908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21106778970973333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041737985558835,0.11327325476507726,0.0,0.0,0.1003597422541738,0.16780416782698312,0.0,0.0,0.2522222971040656,0.0,0.0,0.1191910073777754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10434748259544196,0.0,0.07467722524054016,0.0,0.0,0.08820719147494333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988750754968976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09713514530659784,0.12065455530048473,0.0,0.14018612443032294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0615210143107847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21966956708864727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16749046177701132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107145797787722,0.0,0.07494796900471372,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,itsGron,2020/02/18,"Voices of friends and family? Does anyone else hear exclusively voices from their friends and family? Like most of the threads i read here are about just hearing any voices, but it hurts especially when your reminded of all your flaws and mistakes by people that are usually closest to you.",8.865294117647057,9.66749003921569,7.930196078431373,68.4858823529412,60.37254901960785,11.505882352941176,36.607843137254896,11.20814326018867,4.414654901960786,236,10,37,6,3,73,41,51,0.132,0.768,0.1,-0.6007,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,3,1,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,8,4,5,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,5,3,7,4,2,3,0,1,0,0,8,1,0,1,3,26,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15781783033779842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16227107633412347,0.23778656350104996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20308894504048208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938674978026184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4375561846906063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3585985758834119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5231270448407928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484393119052981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11337931216800587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16089043422080984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23213614381830164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555959985613226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Premedpotato,2020/02/18,"I am not doing well. [Rant] Today is such an odd day. Socialization has always been difficult for me. I go through life having the right words in my head but never passing through my lips. When I actually say something it turns out a disorganized mess that requires the other person to decipher what I just said. Needless to say, this makes me feel like such an outsider. I honestly feel like I don't have a place here in this world no matter how hard I try to be normal.",2.6746980676328502,5.015926445652177,3.9162318840579746,85.19205314009663,78.02173913043478,6.697584541062803,24.352657004830927,7.793537801064563,1.369699033816425,371,13,72,6,9,121,72,92,0.156,0.725,0.11900000000000001,-0.1548,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,7,6,0,0,6,0,9,3,2,2,1,13,15,3,0,1,3,0,3,2,0,0,1,3,0,1,6,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,4,2,1,0,2,6,11,4,9,12,0,12,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,6,52,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.20920719202920726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17838409346502965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13825950384514982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2167972929415804,0.3063109687120141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183897940154205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19204534267580486,0.0,0.22001913262271594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514252767220346,0.20947371933538145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14310252867612536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16534563022655488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21005013257355845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18719124307763965,0.22398493689045665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18308218117459574,0.20392762756006888,0.3409724364674239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185367935474428,0.0,0.16504275109200034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20321031714083654,0.0,0.0,0.1455521996150542,0.2331874869566351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19275634820234275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,th3rty,2020/02/18,"Can i share my delusions with someone? I don't believe to be on the schizophrenia spectrum but i do have certain delusions and i have not found another sub to talk about them in, i don't want this post to come off as me seeking medical advice, i just would like to share these experiences with someone and hear some thoughts, if this isn't the place i understand.",4.974366197183095,6.214692352112678,4.90574647887324,85.1825633802817,69.14084507042253,7.933521126760564,33.91830985915493,8.238735603445708,2.5216343661971834,291,14,57,4,5,90,50,71,0.02,0.828,0.152,0.8388,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,9,1,0,0,1,16,15,5,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,2,1,10,4,11,11,1,6,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,2,1,42,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23811404808281256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555119710863365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2745355807675273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20990237175950088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383585634331705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26717443262082313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746367338490901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11904612574314155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454745124747205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545860076980752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.233370996925338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.412926012575344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958548086241336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19344882876902272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536717739295139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437244149461394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17309802629298782,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Ella_Angel18,2020/02/18,"Paranoid schizophrenia, no visual or auditory hallucinations, just conversations in my head(arguing) and I think people are trying to poison me sometimes This is something I've been struggling with for years, I would buy food than can not eat it because I'm sure someone has tried to poison it. I used to think possibly people put hiv+ semen into my food... And now that my roomate is putting bleach into my food or skincare stuff to ruin my skin secretly. 

My parents and friends know I have theses fears and just say it's anxiety 🤷 recently I told my roomate ""you're a terrible person and you know you are absolutely terrible"" because she took a shower, and I thought she was purposely taking a shower so I couldn't. I get like realllyy irritable to the people around me when my thoughts are negative.

It seems like all my own thoughts though. And it's just my thoughts, I don't see things or like think I'm hearing things. I know it's in my head and I assume it's all my own thoughts and just that I have conflicting thoughts. 

Most thoughts I have though feel like an argument with myself, doubting myself, not sure how I really think or feel and my thoughts like trying to figure it out. I thought I only have like multiple thinking voices at once just because they are different thoughts and opinions. 

What do you think? Also, for a time I thought I was the ugliest person in the world, always thinking when people are looking at me they are thinking about how ugly and weird and disformed I looked. These thoughts were my life, it's all I thought or cared about I never not thought about how ugly I am and attempted suicide a couple times. Recently also I thought my roomate was turning off the internet to purposely fuck w me and it made me feel helpless and trapped and I felt out of control and self harmed.

Oof. Idk.... I always thought it was anxiety and something I could get better from. Is it? Has anyone like healed naturally from schizophrenia? 

Also, I can't focus like //ever// because of how much I'm thinking. This is the worst part for me. And feeling exhausted from my thoughts. 

I don't think people are poisoning me or doing things against me too often tho it's only sometimes it's not every day or even every week or month and depends on my environment. My current roomate like genuinely doesn't like me and that has been hard for me mentally to like live with someone who doesn't like me and has eaten my food without permission and stolen some things, those things she really did so that made me spiral into thinking well if she does that stuff what else could she do and like not care that it's not ok to do...",4.241726190476189,6.291300355158732,4.6828571428571415,82.86214285714286,72.23412698412699,7.419047619047619,30.25396825396825,8.192908349453996,2.267987301587301,2105,92,385,33,42,666,212,504,0.226,0.738,0.036000000000000004,-0.9983,5,1,2,0,0,1,52.0,0,3,2,3,29,36,4,3,11,1,42,16,2,9,7,121,99,48,1,5,21,1,7,13,1,1,7,3,2,3,36,34,6,2,40,0,1,3,16,15,1,0,31,13,71,21,40,64,10,31,0,2,3,2,21,14,1,17,27,278,107,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138456500348388,0.07897023351306805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07260360136204623,0.0,0.0,0.03318059335210022,0.0,0.0,0.04224367929519945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1157088623858327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04196876802796516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09676401989510301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05322313979957263,0.07577552324903293,0.05250639960601778,0.0,0.030603584355442675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04957881172604873,0.0,0.0,0.04152688114189962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048556781381590926,0.03964131349897975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031342591853367296,0.04292441114062299,0.07996324756105533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053398384869678364,0.0959756697810835,0.033900792745772367,0.04556280555192058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295238616369453,0.0,0.03666245948393836,0.04386999980085322,0.049584994547228235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04250901877408311,0.0,0.0974019708991864,0.0,0.05348354783389746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782376143612072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03351781324847857,0.3013840061671689,0.0,0.041902313428546806,0.0,0.07969798379455614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08980330574230716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0478219708579332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03787693416724184,0.0,0.034883785516852894,0.0,0.03659906770755938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05053643305487916,0.0,0.07218105627144163,0.0,0.0,0.05269150045854323,0.05138752053166716,0.0,0.16449142363274374,0.0828691386675721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053496695750284776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09540775654983577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06079985956931326,0.0,0.09370922075124884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03773693103223764,0.0,0.0,0.03781429886939177,0.04319988782093219,0.049504353906182234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08041439990896952,0.07306405150933208,0.0938654576959468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04960870565066743,0.1086458178781509,0.05190643137061262,0.0,0.08944873187888333,0.0,0.035679129353416286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15762999744911912,0.33446918208584564,0.09324565350871757,0.6404372867818887,0.055341039597374485,0.0,0.0,0.04534385665595087,0.05272258899498095,0.09665344287713798,0.05161578574521564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04098459142594217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03806433856487749,0.0,0.04266639904092508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04574348448255028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03370960774053397,0.0,0.0,0.03055850075762921
schizophrenia,louvrepoetiv,2020/02/18,"please only read if you have nothing better to do at the moment I’m afraid to go outside these days. I really can’t help it and I’m so sorrowful. I feel my mind decaying like a bad cavity, turning my thoughts septic. I’m just so drained I can’t try to stand anymore. I wish I didn’t feel monitored. I thought I had potential when my art became promising but I can’t manage that now. the over saturated 3-d models hit me hard on that one. thank you to this sub, I feel a bit warmer and sleep a bit more peaceful thinking I’m a part of it. I’m sorry for my bad grammar it’s hard to concentrate",0.3509898762654657,2.4661943858267747,2.8139988751406086,91.04482283464569,85.45669291338581,6.148256467941509,22.457255343082114,7.447530270364453,0.9447349831271088,465,17,103,8,14,160,83,127,0.157,0.6859999999999999,0.157,0.2493,0,0,0,0,1,0,11.0,0,2,0,1,5,9,0,1,6,0,7,1,1,0,0,13,23,7,0,2,3,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,6,2,0,1,4,5,0,1,4,5,16,4,10,18,4,10,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,1,6,58,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17524315414837033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2950813692884361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15628056723940553,0.3858305940276089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11395963587591325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2680409650917414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100425108885415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3165846356213067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184411475244328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632878072443166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17842094014006013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16955251296238874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197393866052367,0.13439156005870584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913535048816375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19396822534308167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1767520888485362,0.0,0.11320128023816535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17683188387412072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19780596345634885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16268555099912071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11322496131505586,0.0,0.28056690490259345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11997060026808198,0.1922035040293516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032011900663622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,badgermilknachos,2020/02/18,"Just want to share my story So my hallucinations are all auditory, they are harassing, uncooperative, religious, and narrative. My paranoia makes me believe I am a victim of a rakettering scam, and my hallucinations are just people projecting their voices while hiding to trick me into using my insurance, and become impoverished.",11.397672955974848,12.478402226415096,12.228301886792455,38.85805031446543,55.03773584905661,15.368553459119502,42.19496855345911,14.06817628641468,7.301885534591197,270,13,32,11,3,94,40,53,0.244,0.698,0.057999999999999996,-0.8807,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,2,0,3,4,3,0,2,0,4,0,0,2,1,10,7,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,10,1,4,7,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,28,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5201015965915489,0.0,0.530573182664275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3143472624627107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3264813132751411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4067295101859376,0.0,0.0,0.27776479846926216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,arcgeo,2020/02/18,"Any free good reads for a recovering patient? Hi,
My brother is recovering after long battle. All he needs to built up now is self confidence for job interviews and do some online courses to update himself first. 

For now I am looking for some free good reading material for a recovering patient who is into computer networking and has business background.

Any material that help understand self and boost morale along with academic material on business/computer networking would be appreciated. 

Thanks 
Archan",9.063928571428573,11.41507563095238,9.115238095238098,54.646428571428565,60.54761904761904,12.742857142857144,43.76190476190475,12.161744961471696,6.679133333333335,419,25,54,15,6,137,60,84,0.026000000000000002,0.701,0.273,0.9741,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,1,2,6,1,0,2,0,8,0,0,0,1,12,12,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,6,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,3,7,13,10,3,9,1,0,1,0,9,3,0,2,6,37,5,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3068101220814748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918818921232185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37841881964711416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512044025820644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22385761160162407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19963500863111835,0.1894339989025178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672679016360062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4512906968241208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4706672503890438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20768771716334164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348412141398309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1602486158793092,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Meraki233,2020/02/19,"I need someone experienced with schizophrenia to help me understand what's going on with me. I don't know where else to post this. (Throwaway account.) I have had ""episodes"" of sorts. 3 of them since I was 15, I am now 20. 

My first one, I hid under my covers when I was 15, thinking ""monsters"" were looking for me.

Second, I was in the shower watching shadows pass under the other side of the door and freaking out when I was home alone.

Third, I stayed up all night, thinking something was watching me from my closet and I kept seeing weird black shapes appear then disappear in my peripheral vision.

I have on and off over the years here an extremely extremely faint whispering. I can't even tell if that's what it is but lately it's more common. 

I have has this idea in my head that I'm in the early stages of schizophrenia and that I'm a trans girl. And considering what's going on I can't trust that can I? 

I feel like I'm coming up with things in my head like me being trans and just falling into believing them as reality.

I feel like I can't trust myself.

Am I tricking myself into this? Am I inducing the sound I hear and the buzzing sound I just heard for a split second? I even felt it inside my ear, vibrating.

I feel like I'm just tricking myself into losing my mind.

It really feels like part of me wants it, badly. The thought of schizophrenia sounds appealing to me. Why? Why would I want to suffer from something like that? Why does part of me WANT that???",2.6953767660910515,4.64204947959184,3.7907482993197306,88.02503924646781,76.31292517006804,6.427838827838827,23.212454212454208,7.321109707123232,0.8895917320774469,1153,35,233,14,26,373,150,294,0.099,0.797,0.10400000000000001,-0.3646,1,1,2,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,2,2,10,15,2,0,11,0,22,4,3,1,1,42,49,13,0,6,5,0,5,6,0,1,1,7,4,1,19,15,0,1,12,0,1,7,4,7,0,5,11,18,47,8,37,36,4,41,0,2,5,0,7,21,0,3,16,165,66,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212757087157575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977699198387882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13192662252149365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086747549466396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102471132853731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09781833333859023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15468105504056884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2368281782409181,0.3346124285547472,0.11243012170708837,0.0,0.0,0.09960144218455802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13309623537677373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403476983046361,0.0,0.13197523110028295,0.0,0.07848670030915221,0.0,0.11745641608153636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321866590932772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06435266952323708,0.0,0.13208891675909984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34324191967366363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09833079755833647,0.13100000430717218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182331575668103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08682489029987557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10988627138361416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07934699678376772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.253606208731688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121451992953307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07501442819804177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09331001839448233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09686267541769444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09921470659291763,0.1802917995084022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12480831029099773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102346699817083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0777931015582312,0.15006024159664516,0.0,0.09296081236131927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12190063040278636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20719802422015904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31698164895946745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08318134177772743,0.0,0.0,0.07540571564346046
schizophrenia,shadowfox761,2020/02/19,"Career choices? My boyfriend has schizophrenia (paranoia) but does well on medication. His last time in psychosis was November 2018. He does not want to go back to community college and do school of any type. However, he did just turn 23 and has decided he wants to begin a career. The problem is, we don’t know where to start. Guess my question is, what are some jobs you guys have had that you liked/did well in?",3.5894394213381564,5.766798721518987,3.8975045207956636,87.22050632911396,74.44303797468353,7.0459312839059685,27.74141048824593,7.957251820313856,1.7218448462929477,325,13,64,5,7,101,63,79,0.059000000000000004,0.872,0.069,0.1967,2,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,1,2,0,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,11,1,0,0,0,14,19,3,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,1,2,0,3,0,6,2,8,16,1,10,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,3,5,39,8,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1542186275837152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17438033162902314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3969145731446079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12888467703175913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24982446794004906,0.22454851092562736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2250448153480614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12463272164167187,0.1848565084808518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22845765958990535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21699846723898825,0.0,0.0,0.2540462439232669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295141383516761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16051652061270827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13223762840576006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466722398027005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675222216229461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40780610287295016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,The-Nitendo-Yes,2020/02/19,"Do delusions happen over time or instant? I’m writing for a book and one of my characters has schizophrenia starts believing that one of his friends,Coco is spreading rumours about him,even though it is completely false.Do delusions gradually happen due to events or are they just instant?",6.9250000000000025,9.317929686274509,5.809950980392159,76.11727941176474,65.86274509803923,8.237254901960785,38.24019607843137,8.841846274778883,3.772290196078431,238,13,36,4,4,71,43,51,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,0,0,5,9,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,6,9,0,5,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,4,24,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3640854654985215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33882228057535146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134410888866373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.571530492410771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4379569143479151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22873104996688345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3174985322202788,0.0,0.1884345080177709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Kfaza123456779,2020/02/19,"Do we share a mind? Do we share a mind? Is our reality that we all have one mind and we have to share it, where the best of us get to think for the advancement of any given situation. Or does this kind of dynamic only exists in the sense of the physical world. Can people enter your mind? Can they know what you are saying? I always feel like people around me can feel what I am feeling. For example if I feel sad, I notice people talking about things that make them sad or talking bad about people that always make them sad. Which makes it feel like they are chatting about me. Is empathy that accurate that people can feel what you are feeling even though you don’t really say anything. I know I asked a lot of questions here and would appreciate any kind of response.",3.2251670040485827,5.149425717105267,4.185789473684213,85.8778340080972,74.72368421052632,7.3085020242914975,22.87651821862348,8.139509932561175,1.2004801619433203,607,17,121,10,13,196,84,152,0.077,0.773,0.15,0.8388,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,6,4,4,2,8,13,0,0,7,0,16,0,0,3,1,31,32,6,0,2,3,0,7,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,13,7,0,0,11,1,0,2,1,4,0,1,1,9,22,9,15,30,3,6,0,3,0,0,24,4,0,5,2,86,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18781384734133505,0.0,0.0,0.1534946639449546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09287254438472976,0.10046757596293532,0.10550702540578194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09423174281569367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1184375420215252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987628245274957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07454166588802075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39945088464360257,0.16125160152783669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05896366378841325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350485469783481,0.12404764602478917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11027346772090303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09594786314708012,0.0,0.0,0.2260008385798624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4558177613112031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284896176938562,0.0,0.0,0.07647552341716585,0.08583361907659483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3912077469291855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12642682485393053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07229974533148605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17949847401290314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12685715677493653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18142202261497206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07497786181023468,0.07231487003524166,0.1108824436389141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13575431691067447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08017110802982816,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Downvote_me_ples,2020/02/19,"Thoughts on ""gangstalking"" and the r/gangstalking subreddit. Are these people for the most part undiagnosed, unmedicated people experiencing psychosis? This thread is not meant to offend anyone but the posts there are very disturbing. I don't see how these people having their delusions reaffirmed is at all healthy.",9.406199999999998,12.525035820000005,7.221,65.55550000000002,60.8,9.0,36.5,9.516144504307137,4.039200000000001,261,12,34,5,4,76,42,50,0.091,0.8170000000000001,0.09300000000000001,-0.2253,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,1,3,0,6,0,0,1,1,8,9,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,2,2,0,4,7,3,3,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,26,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350340842104785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36400249687647823,0.0,0.6991030697445803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32192534055346306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26785684663671844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668544116519333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2773473764108948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,StraussianDreams,2020/02/19,"I don't hear voices, sometimes it makes me think im not schizophrenic I'm a diagnosed Paranoid Schizophrenic. I *do* experience delusions, disorganized thoughts, paranoia and negative symptoms. I also experience ""magical thinking"", delusions of grandeur (like thinking I am the Antichrist). I do *not* hear voices or see things that are not there. I'm self aware about this now that I'm feeling a bit better and am medicated. 

At times it makes me question my diagnosis. Schizophrenics are supposed to see or hear things, right? That's like the most schizophrenic symptom of schizophrenia, lol.",4.655228571428573,8.162664580000005,4.423714285714286,76.06900000000002,83.2,7.257142857142857,35.142857142857146,8.192908349453996,3.7903857142857142,478,28,70,11,14,146,63,100,0.098,0.772,0.13,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,4,1,7,8,0,2,0,16,22,5,0,0,5,0,1,2,0,0,8,5,0,1,8,2,0,0,6,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,8,8,3,5,21,2,4,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,4,4,44,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1242557667833516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374192545083167,0.16963258303430984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15770544541598985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3039790862541642,0.0,0.0,0.07856380835068043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5253670491516522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16783495205670998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15181972908493607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20743210369215065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15652703415808514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17405897080312852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326920018148142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2476323706678243,0.0,0.16209318806238196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15367285992364582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32299456475836696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20645253845118464,0.29867993283795985,0.0,0.12335281216492355,0.09060218779973514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,sadclowntears_mp3,2020/02/19,"Downward spiral I recently ended a long time relationship of 6 years and i’ve been having auditory hallucinations of his voice and it hurts so so much. I also sometimes forget that i broke up with him and i wait for him to get home then the initial pain of the break up hits me. The possible of being in a simulation is also dragging me into a deep hole, i want to quit my job and move to the middle of the woods away from everyone. i feel so alone without him being there to at least tell me what’s real or not",3.1463207547169816,4.376191886792455,5.273726415094341,80.85228773584909,73.52830188679245,7.941509433962264,24.57075471698113,8.472884824447931,1.5260603773584904,404,12,83,7,8,141,75,106,0.133,0.8540000000000001,0.013000000000000001,-0.9084,1,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,6,3,0,0,8,0,5,1,0,0,0,14,10,11,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,3,6,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,1,2,14,0,19,6,2,17,0,2,0,0,6,9,0,1,6,64,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21567080210509568,0.0,0.3330542171273377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19564558073973992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844362347854132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19897944289650688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10529091873216752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087952737004226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20887875846652046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22292208884896936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066431591261419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.184283252914906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22132304891679155,0.15307820552034307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22157892284624645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23475600670589605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22148575491437333,0.0,0.2370193730173167,0.0,0.0,0.20560898338256114,0.22356868118030251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20595178550073712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18200837641851472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214247093266816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12282361832488595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20073310321936028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13409784488870874
schizophrenia,Hbgfrhb,2020/02/19,"What do u find hardest about szc, psychosis For me it is the fact that I have to watch my stress levels, it limits so many damn things",3.2325000000000017,4.135260107142859,3.3557142857142854,95.93928571428572,72.92857142857143,5.6000000000000005,21.142857142857142,3.1291,-0.4106285714285711,105,2,24,0,2,32,27,28,0.19399999999999998,0.8059999999999999,0.0,-0.6983,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,16,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4805925739564965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.533101855535123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6023283170808246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34933334785768755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,truin71,2020/02/19,"Is this the norm for psych wards ? I am going to shadow a psychiatrist soon, however I was reading about this place, and apparently it can be violent. I was honestly shocked about what I read about it, and how badly it’s ran. 

A lot of adolescents go there for behavioral issues, I read about a patient who got jumped by 9 other dudes there and there was only one  female staff to break it up and she barely did anything. Nothing happened to the 9 kids.

There are reviews that say it’s understaffed and at times the staff are hit. They also place suicidal kids, and those with mental health issues in the same room ward as those with violent problems which leads to a lot of fights.. 

Is this normal? I just don’t know if all psych/ mental health places are like this, or is this place is an exception.",4.789712609970675,6.036137296774192,5.13126099706745,83.37143695014663,69.58064516129032,8.47507331378299,26.34897360703813,8.841846274778883,1.8491935483870967,631,19,123,11,11,200,99,155,0.131,0.8340000000000001,0.035,-0.9456,2,0,0,0,1,0,17.0,0,0,1,1,12,8,3,0,9,0,15,2,0,2,1,21,22,11,1,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,2,17,8,0,0,1,3,0,5,1,6,0,1,6,1,8,2,20,14,4,16,0,0,0,0,7,8,0,4,3,90,25,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925954946330027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11243133714101808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1140767803454187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1552951054159988,0.0,0.10927207982307093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12081768463851485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904535309281056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28520353792212344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07508592988465547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06674843199986967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23230862513600595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2753732086620391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338642101274957,0.1310960758035371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09258113270518874,0.10391002667545186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5709792474765111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13073237494587872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4099881181341373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108650266780896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14944637684615988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07966756373286266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,crafa9,2020/02/19,"My friend My friend has been saying that he communicates with others through telepathy. Says that he’s a rapper and knows various known rappers (obviously a lie). Can’t really talk to the opposite sex without sounding and acting weird (he used to be great at talking to the opposite sex). He’s socially awkward now. Everyone notices that he is acting strange and had been acting like this for over a year. He gets fired from his last 3 jobs and says that people are plotting against him. Says that the government and other people follow him. Says that he used to be a Narc for the DEA and that he has tried every drug. (I believe he has tried a lot of drugs) Unfortunately, his family moved with him to a different state. He’s one of my best friends, are these signs of schizophrenia?",4.563220720720722,6.551221763513517,4.92675675675676,81.70720720720722,71.22972972972974,8.176576576576577,28.54954954954956,8.841846274778883,2.3184171171171184,623,24,115,12,12,197,89,148,0.071,0.8009999999999999,0.129,0.9042,2,0,2,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,1,8,0,1,10,0,12,4,0,2,1,16,17,6,0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,2,6,0,0,11,8,0,0,2,0,0,5,2,2,0,1,3,7,9,6,18,12,3,11,0,0,0,2,26,2,0,1,4,71,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15631517203513048,0.14560158751376934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449562766319898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32179426895792584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11689645465789382,0.1325743074541642,0.0,0.0,0.13079398556092325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3215760987775351,0.0,0.07248717684178911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15296398416442128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13768042222099242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07624919379563311,0.11309357248945565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06778252776427013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11795382574074167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147461212609028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15795914028562555,0.0,0.0,0.09401543991399357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19237301966372172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888193318966721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5516676200487991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14143040304189708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22303176891241205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883939626003784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2396577717600505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13374272113262173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934555579423926
schizophrenia,Sonialovesflowers,2020/02/19,"My mother (F52) has a psycotic disorder and I (F20) need to convince her to go to a doctor Hello, it's my first time posting here, hope I am not breaking any rules.  


My mom is exhibiting allarming psychotic and paranoid symptoms and I think they are getting worst with time. She is in need of psychiatric therapy but she doesn't uderstand she is ill and nobody can force her to go to the doctor.  


Basically some years ago she had a personal/legal fight with some people, it got ugly, one of those people tried to break in our home while we were inside, I suspect this was a trauma for her. In the meantime her father (my granfather) had recently died of illness.  


 Now the legal process is still going on but things are fairly calm, the person that broke in our house doesn't live near us anymore and we should be able to live calmly but she insists she hears the screams of that person every day, in the house, at work, in her car. She also believes she is being spied through microphones and so on. I live with her and nobody is screaming to us. She also is very prone to thinking everybody is plotting agaist her, that people, even relatives and close ones, are scheming togheter et cetera. She has always been a bit this way but things got really ugly after the fight I mentioned.   


 She has frequent break downs because of the stress she is enduring, she gets angry with close ones for not protecting her from these people ""stalking"" her, she suspects of close ones too with the exeption of me. She is very impulsive and every day she announces absurd measures she is going to take.  


We tried to explain to her that the voices she hears aren't real but she insists we ""don't want to hear"". I need to try having a serious conversation with her again.   
Problems:  
\-She generally doesn't belive that I am capable of saying clever things and doesn't listen to me  
\-She  has a high distrust for medicine and even more for psycology  
\- She doesn't have the concept of disorders and theraphy, she only has the concept of ""crazy people"" and definetly doesn't want to define herself as crazy  
\- I have kinda no emotional closeness or affection for her beacause she has never been a good parent  


My dad is a narcissist and he is of no help in any way, shape or form.   
Her husband (my step-dad) is a kind person and he is more and more depressed every day because of the situation. He tries to help but she accuses him of plotting agaist her. He isn't very educated on mental health and he doesn't understant what is happening.  
I talked to my mom's general physician, and with a person working in a mental health center.   
Advice given was: convince her to go to the doctor. I must say it wasn't particularly helpful.  


What arguments can I make in order to make her realize she is having auditory hallucinations and she needs help? How do people in a similar position realize they suffer from a mental illness?",5.128083941605837,6.642639691605844,5.859569343065694,77.4535875912409,69.05474452554746,8.691678832116787,30.12335766423357,9.120678840339163,2.6886691970802925,2293,90,404,44,40,748,251,548,0.18100000000000002,0.75,0.069,-0.9969,1,0,0,0,2,0,66.0,8,0,2,3,11,21,3,1,28,0,57,10,0,4,2,72,85,33,1,10,10,7,0,0,0,2,10,9,1,4,17,34,0,1,7,0,0,6,16,13,0,5,11,9,76,8,67,70,9,52,0,3,0,0,88,23,0,6,16,302,93,6,0.06949550565280065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06791020381315993,0.06160357264233799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11115106152502008,0.05782582787201435,0.0,0.0,0.09451865389267457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06892086760815032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08472763042396897,0.0,0.0,0.0782976367585124,0.0,0.0,0.07587109299469921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344565557789558,0.0,0.05985637718599523,0.0,0.07212536294226526,0.0,0.15929574057272247,0.21339478443707144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07817309002006384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09180225211190228,0.0,0.17565888248719758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05911284160647672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07261706676474014,0.0,0.19747948693521425,0.058289532949636125,0.11116380881161096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06145464613633965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14774094550514916,0.2349794569506355,0.0,0.18632549014673727,0.0734258172902103,0.06970965848694044,0.06902471782831765,0.0,0.16037696575627144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07236887488085478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18409741412432656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09277757932937956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21010537254195047,0.0,0.0,0.1627845925902033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061201474687879,0.05359921822146592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18836781275264192,0.05285446363637586,0.0,0.0,0.07716653478882468,0.0,0.0,0.2890765999166693,0.24272317987765016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.066557484083292,0.0,0.0,0.0664978133366835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07910109993532044,0.04452060045530897,0.0,0.0686184278318691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11053123088091887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07811586010129253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055499200585330914,0.0,0.07960686692447916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0722324397271245,0.05225197142851476,0.05585785500075415,0.0,0.0,0.07947416730735105,0.0,0.1385091778681463,0.08905982783357103,0.0,0.0,0.08104677642840061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18873154613380816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671890730887947,0.0,0.0,0.17202321096507744,0.08198049960097263,0.1103245952753365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10118711160543296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04475282714074972
schizophrenia,rat_genius,2020/02/19,"What do you think has caused your illness? Was it a traumatic event or severe depression or isolation, or are you not certain?",5.003043478260867,7.446604304347828,5.312391304347828,77.45815217391308,71.17391304347827,9.817391304347826,33.23913043478261,10.125756701596842,3.974321739130435,101,5,17,3,2,32,20,23,0.523,0.47700000000000004,0.0,-0.9483,0,1,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,1,7,5,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,4,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5503644219240035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4614420254044399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6052467564532669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3432879608633336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Metalgrowler,2020/02/19,What are peoples thoughts on The Horse Girl I felt like it demonstrated some symptoms very well. Although not obviously a schizophrenic movie to some.,6.098266666666667,9.81278336,4.18,79.93666666666667,75.4,8.133333333333335,36.333333333333336,8.841846274778883,3.9867333333333344,124,7,19,3,3,35,24,25,0.0,0.8109999999999999,0.18899999999999997,0.5984,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,6,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,2,2,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43638980000559857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220449917478004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31509200801926224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47239792811270503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.360821012187488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3750088314621958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4086487019156685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Queen_Chocolate,2020/02/19,Would anyone be willing to talk? Hey umm would anyone be willing to talk? Feeling more down than usual. I trust my fellow schizophrenics only and don't have anyone else to talk too. Anyhow thanks ☻,2.3829729729729716,5.30946783783784,2.6041081081081106,89.57264864864867,86.83783783783785,2.9600000000000004,18.210810810810813,3.1291,-0.5333956756756759,158,4,26,0,5,48,28,37,0.0,0.794,0.20600000000000002,0.7941,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,0,0,5,10,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,5,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,1,18,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5106340337887726,0.24942196486759816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20335384604555395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230851090320436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18513886282811973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5869774685069563,0.0,0.2241168857433184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681028533943189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3458502142165893,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,schizophrenicck,2020/02/19,"I quit my job because of the side effects of risperidone. - I used to feel super cold all the time.
- Found myself unable to think.
- Couldn't interact with people.
- Used to have lunch alone.
- Chest has become bigger.

Main problem with Risperidone is that it makes my mind numb and I just can't think.

It is the worst medicine.",1.1549180327868849,3.735745229508201,1.1037540983606569,98.01399180327871,96.70491803278688,3.0957377049180335,17.575409836065575,4.935628992294339,-0.6762275409836063,253,7,49,1,10,74,46,61,0.16899999999999998,0.772,0.059000000000000004,-0.743,1,1,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,3,1,4,0,0,3,0,6,3,1,4,1,16,13,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,5,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,2,6,1,7,11,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,30,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2761586965663428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254131091606733,0.2944830068520524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13482123028957335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2923570724446863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26459912478471925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17798431624202118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26923045868237383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18485465040741747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25513853506137424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2836045342631043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34170437892790984,0.0,0.0,0.15547996822612625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4605828165879682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Steph_mkl,2020/02/19,"Looking For Some Opinions From Your Experience(s) Hello all, I don't know really the appropriate way to start the post so I'll just dive right in. 
I believe that my possible future brother in law (we'll call him Brad) is exhibiting signs of a psychotic episode/manic episode/schizophrenic episode. 
Short history, he is 24, lives in the states, was cheated on by his ex and is waiting for deployment for his 2nd tour where he will be going back to South Korea. (I don't know if his previous tour has had any affect on his mental health up to this point as I don't entirely know what he did and thought it would be rude to push him to talk about it.) The following is not something that has ever happened before in their 2 year relationship. We live in Canada, not that that is really relevant. Around Christmas someone got Brad's phone number and told him my sister (we'll call her Anne) has a boyfriend here and that he should just leave her alone and move on. We have no idea who sent this message to him. But I can guarantee that she has not ever cheated on him. 

So, two weeks ago they seemed like they weren't getting along. And finally after 3 days she finally talked to me about what happened. While they were video chatting, Brad became convinced that someone was in our house. He claimed multiple times that he saw someone in the background. Anne had to show him her closet, under the bed, walk around the whole house inside and out to show him no one was here. She confirmed with myself and husband while talking to him that no one was here, no one has been in her room. He pretty much didn't sleep and barely ate for 3 days straight. He had a video when she was sleeping (she gave him permission to record a video because by the 3rd night she just wanted to get some sleep) that he would watch for hours. He would focus on it so hard, when was obsessed with the video his pupils would be massive. He was telling  us ""go to this point in the video and press play and pause really quickly and you'll see what I see, someone there"". Then he would calm down and be really emotional. He also claimed that he received more messages from two other people saying that she is cheating but was never able to produce evidence saying he deleted them. It finally got to the point that we ended up reaching out to the family member that Brad is living with about our concerns but I fear the worries fell on deaf ears and are not being taken seriously. The next night he wasn't much better and my sister needed sleep so her and I agreed that I would take her phone and iphone to keep an eye on him. He video called me and begged me to show him her room so he could see that no one was in there. I calmly told him there isn't and that she needed sleep. I reached behind myself and closed my own door and he saw my arm and immediately said that there is someone and accused me of lying. He then hung up on me and text me and said that we are all lying and ""my life is on your hands"". So I phoned his family member again to let them know. 
He has supposedly gone to a counselor and they said its stress and separation anxiety but I really don't buy that. It has been 2 weeks since this happened and he doesn't seem to be much better. He hasn't accused her of someone being here again but is now saying that someone hacked his phone and edited/altered photos and conversations. He has also claimed to have talked to the police and knows who has done it but won't tell Anne who it was but is saying that she knows the person, insinuating that it is my husband or myself. 

Sorry for such a long post, but I am/we are genuinely concerned about his mental health and getting a proper diagnosis. We have no way of being there with him to explain to a counselor or doctor what happened. He apologized to me but it was an apology justifying what he did while not acknowledging what he did. To those who are or know someone who is, does this sound like schizophrenia? When you/they have an episode or situation (sorry I don't know the correct terminology to use) are you/they ever able to have a clarification of ""holy fuck I can't believe I did/said these things? Or will he be forever sure that his recollection is how it was? I ask this question because I worry that the bigger picture won't be clear to the counselor. 
What suggestions can you give me to pass on to Anne to help her help him?",5.462513964080088,5.953779748259863,5.652492910543955,82.96878748818425,67.64269141531321,8.566159663143422,28.723983844633498,8.458729078192134,1.8714668041591482,3461,110,694,47,54,1097,337,862,0.08900000000000001,0.861,0.05,-0.9885,0,1,1,0,0,0,79.0,10,4,7,3,41,18,5,3,31,0,95,16,9,4,9,119,146,66,0,12,23,6,3,2,0,14,5,10,5,1,58,48,1,2,17,11,1,11,26,9,0,6,40,21,99,9,89,80,10,93,0,0,8,1,142,41,1,12,38,484,157,2,0.106235405405493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04708563850719872,0.0,0.0,0.05501392053908028,0.0,0.08495641532097792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036121859321506716,0.0,0.04063489717805528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945720340247757,0.049657881664277384,0.0,0.0,0.04084423461829848,0.0,0.06476011709380508,0.0,0.04519925269637167,0.11969092253086415,0.0,0.09395658295251008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627173401240929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04241016338133628,0.0,0.0,0.06851304785073299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05436821950604435,0.046483659589055266,0.054357851937381234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059750266093264275,0.047046518425185285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14414400942151506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001492855073411,0.05977218314098375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17456354081418804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04910646022143093,0.08325542192956574,0.05095534056998912,0.060376029087819964,0.0,0.08496615849174903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878872363045265,0.0,0.04758302824156781,0.0,0.0,0.11292326815452025,0.0,0.0,0.07120735289706506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05231023741580408,0.12258139439937832,0.0,0.05996342084240627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047213454773215334,0.0,0.0,0.2335368020599537,0.0,0.0,0.05624397757140468,0.0,0.054316449848022384,0.03751860429604451,0.05190125292352357,0.0,0.14071171394385412,0.04700749537530625,0.0446054922350319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10706030181471997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056455711703812826,0.11714286986317347,0.07877220700423894,0.040967646926858836,0.0,0.05649127943156956,0.09969473138932873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14397572019332774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03682512691158378,0.04638032915473399,0.0,0.0,0.15064019463871714,0.05988222871585834,0.1017441522000527,0.05403979980751994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05950398358442165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701428025394589,0.0,0.0,0.05702853395744632,0.0,0.04536222787794879,0.20210839640734884,0.16896531671079867,0.0,0.0,0.12698379564580986,0.0967127231583724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043939512578905986,0.059706523382387626,0.26578031836190713,0.0,0.360051657012613,0.0408926026367319,0.0,0.1189218387307046,0.03759698336831938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06084614898001218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05006280617514838,0.0,0.03993790185279987,0.17077598947860076,0.09285442683943727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035289041415901175,0.0,0.0,0.042169522641012466,0.03097335960722127,0.0,0.0,0.10151248248323044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10377655447301637,0.0,0.06389405614117193,0.0458766404760842,0.0,0.0,0.0313301972863018,0.08432471995978623,0.0852156341954158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05930401812509346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10788721097857323,0.0,0.22639975187212705,0.0,0.0,0.034206059008277015
schizophrenia,jackiesullivan56,2020/02/19,"I don’t know what to do anymore So I have been dealing with this for a while, and have never told anyone. I have always been a paranoid person, ever since I was little. I would think people were watching me and because of that I slept in my parents room till I was 9. It’s always been little things like that. But about 2 years ago I witnessed a death and ever since it’s gotten so much worse. It can be daylight and I’ll just be walking around my house and all of the sudden think someone is behind me and they’re going to come kill me or hurt me so I just run straight to my room to feel safe. If I’m in public I sometimes get paranoid that a shooting will happen or that someone is again, going to hurt me. I don’t really see things but sometimes I hear my name being called, that’s all I’ve ever heard though is just my name. Let’s say I get into an argument with a family member or something like that, I then begin to think “what if they poison my food” I’ve literally skipped dinner before because I truly thought that. I get mad so easily to the point where I just want to hurt someone which I won’t I just feel like that sometimes. Here recently within the last month I’ve began to have dreams of hurting people and I hate it so much because that’s not who I am at all. I have to sleep with the lights on because I’m scared someone or something is in the room with me, I’m not scared of the dark bc I do perfectly fine sleeping in the dark if someone is with me. This is just a few things out of a lot that goes through my mind on a daily basis. My brain is not the same after the trauma I went through it’s now ten times worse and I’m not diagnosed but I truly think that this is what I have. I know everyone is going to say see a therapist or whatever but I just need help on what to do and what steps to take.",2.8066085200146915,3.6541661491002593,4.176286265148736,89.86536953727509,73.88431876606683,6.688248255600443,23.91856408373117,6.7097532225279775,0.6306363569592355,1428,39,317,11,28,473,171,389,0.141,0.76,0.098,-0.9591,1,0,2,1,0,1,21.0,0,0,1,1,22,17,4,2,19,0,35,8,4,0,8,67,70,30,2,6,23,1,2,3,0,3,2,4,3,1,29,18,2,1,9,1,0,8,8,11,0,1,13,10,44,6,42,50,8,47,0,4,3,0,15,20,0,9,22,226,73,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07311197283285438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13725698608299336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08179623979666323,0.05767069485999478,0.0,0.0,0.07342310948284239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20111184946088692,0.0,0.07018289737532643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09207297984017976,0.08421949259374978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104769045837422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08503143164999859,0.0,0.08371366545285021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238188380780544,0.0,0.07881148155583435,0.0,0.0,0.0777531331567592,0.0,0.08340694072576227,0.05892246269398354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09973300090724636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12927441018712382,0.0,0.14062283336402406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07293522479384279,0.0,0.0,0.08143017481055499,0.0,0.0,0.09295895749746746,0.0,0.055283417784742966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09516880158448493,0.3531785965014789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09124993931852046,0.0,0.09065575443491443,0.06723076419175504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08433957638821386,0.0,0.12088408846220547,0.1653297048950648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07012004015197718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08327949856509799,0.0,0.06583333484760755,0.0,0.1212619755623864,0.06115656111998356,0.06361229419634071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09158231175716992,0.0,0.0,0.11436003688957115,0.07201680751597596,0.0,0.0,0.07796858495241576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052837664949871334,0.0,0.08143730008328935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311799949698664,0.1651501897091809,0.0,0.13144893873956615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364536853192165,0.0,0.16507558594633745,0.0,0.3494176754381513,0.12699153915410386,0.24471922990795705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0620133630515957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09576357992953842,0.16438460977240782,0.21139487317953756,0.08103444042512388,0.06547850026994495,0.04809371812594572,0.0,0.0,0.07881148155583435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04864779591963829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07645814383980436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681047216616211,0.05859016688534899,0.0,0.0,0.05311327479502727
schizophrenia,grpllrne,2020/02/19,"What I have? I'm afraid of lie to/ believe in myself Right now, my head is hurting / burning too much
I'm afraid of making mistakes, of taking something wrong 
I will not lie that this strangeness is always there, no matter how much I tried to hide from myself
Sometimes I'm more paranoid, sometimes less
Being observed, judged they are not good things to feel. I makes me want to run away
Sometimes I feel a lot of energy but it passes. It is good to feel a lot of energy, it seems that everything is possible to be accomplished. But the agitation and the feeling of being uncomfortable becomes irritating
Sometimes I can't stand talking to anyone. Sometimes I depend on it so much. I don't have social networks, because I feel like I'm a loser and my past is judging me. Furthermore, it seems that I am in constant evaluation which not reassure me. And see other living ... Show how ridiculous my life is. 
I feel my memories escaping me. Watching or feeling time go by is unbearable. I am afraid of not remembering the past. Not remember good memories.
Now is very difficult to remember something.Looks like I want to protect myself!?
I feel like I have no control.
My childhood was shit (at least I feel like it is).
And in the end everything I want to control. I want to control myself and have a normal life. But after more than 3 years (tricking/deceiving me?) taking antidepressants (paroxetine, fluvoxamine, escitalopram, bupropion, venlafaxine, mirtazapine, trazodone, tranylcypromine...) I see that there is no strong or sufficient antidepressant to pass this shitty thing. I am  enough of therapy, I feel like it takes me nowhere and makes me feel like shit (last one). 
Today my psychiatrist thinks it is best to take an antipsychotic. But is it the necessary? After so much (painful) struggle, I am in one of the best universities. I am afraid that a remedy like this will wipe out my mind, take away a rationality and logical reasoning which I struggle to hold on to and live something decent.
Honestly this text is horrible, is difficult to make something more coherent, cohesive, racional. This pain, insomnia is makes me irritated. 
Thinking that I might have something like schizophrenia makes me afraid.",4.373402284655757,7.326941012658231,5.105544921271999,75.61786045075642,75.58227848101266,8.511886384686633,31.15313368323557,9.18016646516576,3.4126140784192653,1760,85,286,46,41,567,185,395,0.191,0.66,0.149,-0.9733,1,0,5,0,0,0,71.0,0,0,1,8,9,34,3,7,13,0,35,8,3,13,0,64,72,18,0,6,11,0,11,8,0,3,5,0,0,0,26,9,0,5,20,1,0,4,10,18,0,2,1,14,46,16,40,65,14,29,0,2,3,0,4,11,2,8,21,207,72,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053978057153106204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04535946988271882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12189730540759484,0.0,0.0,0.03954489754642696,0.07164517296862169,0.0,0.07308765766844362,0.13615669989854454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07010274989445342,0.21827578981341267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05745665185704275,0.06702931812095571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11660415087045505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3608092539502911,0.23172008577942174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03686781296395043,0.16323272091912674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06657659371301522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06944598964049653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05287870782468252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09164093145927572,0.2535424358691615,0.0,0.11456496294742165,0.0,0.05447549200342678,0.0,0.0,0.11030239386468634,0.0,0.0,0.2598122844338092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06881811977544817,0.06550144603220114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19075126255350788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06356002848031846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08791684388048797,0.0,0.1380551174626583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238538520060263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07313256077008701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0666984251041872,0.0,0.0,0.22045936112027595,0.05539967295960175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10338793718972092,0.11811265638059325,0.0,0.0,0.13317876350477606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06612804596544904,0.0,0.19976415784844254,0.32079650868550696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13563498193076653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438754449286358,0.05214103456251298,0.0,0.0,0.07418590105802636,0.0,0.08619512069640299,0.08313372508018768,0.0,0.0,0.037826933838369235,0.0,0.06149033750522857,0.0,0.0,0.044043304517630257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05352555570661438,0.15305092052276925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07092650249507138,0.0,0.04177494296342914
schizophrenia,StMerryVampire,2020/02/19,"I threw my vibes off, somehow I was diagnosed 5 years ago, quit meds 2 years ago, & I've coped very well till Last Winter. The universe loved me, everything was important, my dayjob was a spiritual experience. Now it's like grinding gears in my head, but the gears are made of the kindof fabric that gives you nails on a chalkboard when it presses against itself. I don't want to die or anything, I'm just bored & a little heartsick when I think about how fun it used to be alive. I think other people can tell, & they don't like me anymore. This sucks in a completely different way than my headspace used to suck, & I'm over it.

It feels very similar to a higher dose of medication, in that it's not stability or sanity but a kindof blank circle where my positive symptoms should be, but also where my ability to think of anything to say & read situations should be. I don't really remember how I did this to myself, I think I was trying to work out some memory loss or childhood trauma garbage. Gawd.",6.5737962539972585,6.230857160804025,7.060429419826408,76.66468707172227,65.33165829145729,10.653449063499316,32.16126084970306,10.230975488527342,3.0478904522613064,801,28,157,17,11,263,123,199,0.086,0.7659999999999999,0.14800000000000002,0.9141,2,0,0,0,0,1,31.0,0,1,1,3,12,10,2,0,9,0,15,6,1,5,0,27,31,12,1,3,8,0,2,2,0,2,4,1,0,0,12,1,0,0,6,1,0,1,4,5,1,0,7,3,20,5,22,19,1,23,0,1,0,1,6,10,2,7,13,97,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027546823118917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09145735061089012,0.0,0.6195701259555219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11341897894203135,0.0,0.0,0.18822468646571128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199091351614155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11607768869033515,0.11869242661373247,0.11948669357624885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10278355215672394,0.1118705497121846,0.0,0.0,0.05782619150532393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10970897089760036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11737110113551852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09322243476077742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11174555959870132,0.1146234005658446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10321854064215147,0.10821457495448142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12703331854538594,0.11521032957801385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07928603226769185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12164085785934838,0.1143955753392756,0.0,0.0732649083037682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12955282793959474,0.0,0.0,0.09094734136978018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12855063204136793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11886863651979718,0.0,0.0,0.09995972451453837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931209396569528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0776460744021309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19754863606327067,0.0,0.18872558843297246,0.06745521988176745,0.0907773173972769,0.0,0.0,0.10282753399526208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08325881027522357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14729413993833168
schizophrenia,poliare,2020/02/20,"voices can hear my thoughts? just recently have had voices responding to my personal thoughts. I thought I heard a voice and i thought ""i hope they dont take over"" and a voice said ""we will"" little worried just wondering if this kind of thing happens to anybody else. thanks.",2.9529411764705884,5.851820274509804,2.76421568627451,90.3839705882353,81.54901960784316,6.537254901960785,30.068627450980397,7.793537801064563,2.2324745098039216,218,11,41,4,6,65,39,51,0.038,0.845,0.11699999999999999,0.5984,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,5,0,0,0,0,12,17,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,7,0,1,2,3,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,7,8,3,4,9,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,3,1,26,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392962184988253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17056531999991045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18055477852596985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301245252949053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20279577580937244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21262096517971454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20464095596790707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782811908504895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016020890023028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19422094586788408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535171662674667,0.0,0.0,0.1879805525076187,0.0,0.0,0.1356474273093198,0.0,0.0,0.6483811435623694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214233706006208,0.0,0.20735364325066266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,dopaminesnake,2020/02/20,"What happens when you try to touch your visual hallucinations? I am asking this out of interest, after reading an article on the differences in the content of hallucinations dependent on the cause. Mental illness, drugs and drug withdrawal have a big impact on the way the hallucinations present themselves.

I have once hallucinated quite moderately due to a drug and whenever I tried to touch the hallucinations (spiders, walls, neon geometrical figures...) my hand went right through them.

Is it the same when the hallucinations are caused by mental illness?",9.755091575091571,11.712255076923075,9.51620879120879,53.849624542124566,58.67032967032968,12.220512820512822,41.540293040293044,11.855464076750405,5.79460293040293,456,24,63,14,6,148,65,91,0.057,0.861,0.081,0.3094,0,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,1,1,2,1,0,0,11,0,5,6,1,3,0,8,8,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,3,7,1,13,7,1,15,0,0,0,0,4,8,0,1,5,44,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16937922266667535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3722443721522212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18929496267213886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6303352522479448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16021723524880116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3651744716465001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19295122000030224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1927076644161934,0.1812294366475836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547270773316698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24601920625094775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14381257355011573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16795605213933273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,imhuie,2020/02/20,"Helping me pinpoint my mental disorder I have a lot of issues and I’m fairly certain I have some type of disorder. I feel like there’s people around me a lot a lot of the times, I’m only 19 years old. I don’t imagine a full clear person in front of me, I feel as though people are around me, beside me or behind me and I look and there’s no one there but my head will dart to see, the only time I’ve seen people is at night in the dark I have at times. I always am always paranoid thinking people hate me and are talking about me or looking at me wrong. I am always suspicious my girlfriend is cheating for no reason and she’s very loyal, at any moment if I stop talking or doing something I get into my head and my thoughts very bad pretty quickly and ruin my mood, I hear negative thoughts from my own voice. I can elaborate and answer questions if anyone can help me out.",2.351803278688521,3.8475481147541046,4.063081967213115,87.6618360655738,76.04918032786884,5.972896174863387,23.67540983606557,6.42735559955562,0.680249836065574,687,21,140,5,15,231,103,183,0.226,0.679,0.096,-0.9828,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,0,8,9,2,0,7,0,14,2,2,1,2,34,28,16,0,2,6,0,2,1,1,1,0,2,0,1,0,12,0,1,9,0,0,1,4,5,0,1,3,8,31,3,20,24,6,21,0,1,4,0,9,11,0,10,10,101,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2975310642006305,0.0,0.0,0.08105442589235771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08334159012986476,0.0,0.0,0.21221172075122768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09952006953807092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732079704368421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12053378383644872,0.08515055605287479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062272730452620176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11767710220485328,0.2446500895984487,0.0,0.13433767970823707,0.0,0.15978333388142366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244051411714542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0582310315391979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20018197471933025,0.0,0.0,0.3039974978846442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12011717367893103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11185331221922536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12507161215246254,0.0,0.08076736332174872,0.18130127882521488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3305299977683576,0.10407357270497043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12126078311059005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13352195369610875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12254889269458685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949803327498837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09175957418092183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964957690199124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916035060679418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0763732122478078,0.11710521499192893,0.18924975137074276,0.2085048716824588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966912283899256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031738500412032,0.0,0.0767555305024192
schizophrenia,Treesarescary,2020/02/20,"Anyone else absolutely obsess over the way their face looks? I don't know where else I can post this without people just disregarding this and calling me delusional and telling me to ""seek therapy"" (please point me in the right direction if there are other helpful subs for this)

 I literally have an entire Instagram account where I post selfies each time I get stared at or have some kind of negative social interaction.

I push away literally everyone I befriend online because I keep sending them selfies after I get stared at and each time It gets left on read of they respond slightly differently, I throw a fit and keep asking them if they realised I look ugly or if I looked ""different"" in that specific picture, and at what specific point they started to realise my face isn't attractive, and it gets me blocked every time, and them I think that the only reason they blocked me is because my face indeed has became ugly to them, and if my face looked okay they wouldn't block me despite me sperging out on them.

I feel like the reason they leave my selfies on read is because of the telepathic effect of the people who stare at me in real life and think I'm ugly, by thinking I'm ugly their transferring that thought into the conscious grid that every human consciousness is connected to, causing everyone in the world to think I'm slightly or significantly less attractive the next time they look at my face, I strongly believe this is why my ex girlfriend lost sexual interest and cheated on me, because of the stares, at some point in 2015-16 someone must have looked at me and thought I was *really, really* fucking ugly, because it was around that time that people slowly stopped smiling at me, started avoiding me and just generally starting acting differently towards me.


I don't like going anywhere fucking near children because I'm convinced everyone who looks at me thinks I'm a pedophile because of the way my face looks.",15.457944996180284,9.079830694677872,13.626936592818947,55.16926661573722,54.37815126050421,16.34316271963331,54.023172905525854,12.563389971838223,6.657506442577031,1566,77,253,30,11,501,170,357,0.11599999999999999,0.812,0.07200000000000001,-0.9441,3,2,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,14,3,7,15,3,2,14,1,17,9,6,4,1,56,53,19,0,6,10,1,1,2,1,2,1,0,0,2,17,17,0,8,14,2,1,5,6,6,0,0,5,13,52,9,40,46,5,54,0,1,12,2,28,34,2,9,13,170,69,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05230324942907328,0.07664341805479383,0.0,0.0665895775742281,0.06992970802317651,0.0,0.0702788765603978,0.0,0.0,0.3191899402166823,0.0,0.0,0.08427616105530633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07638113497010296,0.0,0.0,0.07684218833942305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2344562915364912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124974830053905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12604770619871644,0.21442935208410552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03782210389077206,0.053438514495799935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13830635984646636,0.1563236865731794,0.0,0.04251166123289665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050138157632861564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13297478653550782,0.0,0.0778947003682989,0.041109185071388034,0.0,0.0,0.07920444444692869,0.08127251696479991,0.0,0.052834816063990216,0.07308889024941967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5025182619450729,0.0,0.0816551439924165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07955270229231637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056890239275667165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155574721667758,0.0,0.0,0.08211005770618413,0.21213600891916465,0.0,0.14327914558493182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14964434705088187,0.08514097377372239,0.09584006490062162,0.15381768674857207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06388044041491467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07625114868694298,0.06337943344617522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588355754242818,0.0,0.0,0.06253776377538531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06538018477550518,0.0,0.08554252722068913,0.0,0.0,0.23965028527006865,0.0,0.1187687556106163,0.2180880377130512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11874858226515897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06749710808605587,0.0,0.0,0.07210639222924961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Lordfapkins,2020/02/20,"Schizo tendencies Today I am glad I'm taking my mental health seriously and finally brought this forth to my family, before this manifests into something bigger. Lately I've been dealing with schizophrenia tendencies, I've held it a secret for a few years from myself, and family. I dont wanna diagnose myself yet after seeing what can be tested to see if I am. But I do hear hallucinations when I go to work or go out in public. These hallucinations consist of negativity and coincidences which then lead to the delusions that my mind is being surveillanced with every thought, for example I would see someone walk by me and I have neutral thoughts and their reaction would be like they heard me. Its different situations like this that make me uncomfortable. I have no schizo history in my family on my moms side but unsure on my dads side of the family. I'm grateful to have support and hope anyone out there can get the help you need and take it day by day, you're not alone.",7.966684782608695,7.8042483858695695,8.45230434782609,67.2361739130435,62.42391304347826,11.707826086956524,34.16086956521739,11.20814326018867,3.949740869565217,789,29,135,20,10,263,119,184,0.05,0.8290000000000001,0.121,0.9344,1,1,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,2,2,3,6,0,0,5,0,16,2,0,2,0,29,36,13,0,6,5,2,0,2,0,2,2,2,0,0,11,12,0,1,3,0,0,5,4,1,0,0,6,5,22,5,23,25,1,25,0,0,3,0,11,10,0,3,12,96,33,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13979630481331987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09437962370338558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11485617540723413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17409904306359694,0.1391561960813826,0.0,0.13699963670373272,0.0,0.1410230837258159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15819298899800974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137246271461775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5089802692274916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14786159407064509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07052033514050482,0.0,0.15342200088762936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14347510103585032,0.1521298026626688,0.0,0.0904727813706382,0.0,0.0,0.13406342203277394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15226084980459986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318866807308514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0900987368304098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360258861687994,0.0,0.13628911106172334,0.1580843806644323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10008433641227106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32267951872005823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1517207146903588,0.0,0.0,0.11436626107323243,0.1039125131747993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531712201390188,0.0,0.0,0.20297303105501605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21431460921849535,0.0,0.0,0.12794318209941555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09826545384203847,0.0,0.0,0.1917687281827317,0.0,0.0,0.08692128473531698
schizophrenia,VisuallHallucination,2020/02/20,Anyone else on here get heavy and vivid visual hallucinations when off their meds? I get that and tactile and its horrible,5.47909090909091,8.236038727272728,5.327272727272729,76.46090909090911,70.81818181818181,8.036363636363637,24.63636363636364,8.841846274778883,1.965109090909092,100,3,17,2,2,31,19,22,0.149,0.851,0.0,-0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273596727209002,0.4797018258808589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3911011257558243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4892054646099577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5200381964345672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,stainslemountaintops,2020/02/20,"Has anyone here taken the antipsychotic Abilify or Aripiprazole? [Help] Hello. I've recently (voluntarily) spent a week in a mental hospital. I was diagnosed with drug-induced psychosis with possible symptoms of schizophrenia as well as depression. 

They prescribed me 30mg of Abilify a day, as well as an antidepressant. I took it for about 3 weeks. It made me calm and tired, but I started noticing several side effects, such as speech impediments, back pain, trouble with talking without having to take a breath after every sentence and cognitive impairments. 

I feel like I'm way slower at thinking than I used to be, I can't comprehend or write long and complex texts anymore, my concentration and my memory feel like garbage, and I feel like I have fewer words at my disposal, that my vocabulary (whether it's in my first language or in English) is shrinking, and that my creativity is waning. I feel like I can't really think complex thoughts anymore, I feel like my sense of humor is gone, I can't really follow conversations anymore, and I feel like I'm less quick than I used to be in generel. This is a huge problem for me, since I was always very good at writing and public speaking, now I feel like I can do neither anymore, which means it's impossible for me to function at the level that's expected of me.

Anyway, after taking Abilify for three weeks, I had my first check up, described the symptoms, and I was told by my doctor to stop taking Abilify. The speech impediment went away, but the rest of the symptoms persist. It's been a month now since I've stopped taking Abilify. My next doctor's appointment is in a week, but I'm a bit worried that this drug has somehow irreparably ""broken"" my brain/my personality. Has anyone here experienced similar side effects? Did they ever go away after stopping the medication? 

Of course I will discuss this with my doctor and I'm definitely not looking for medical advice here. Also, I would never start or stop taking medicine without consulting with a doctor first. I just want to know whether there are people here who went through similar stuff and maybe if they can share their experiences with Abilify.",7.467878787878785,8.182344020202024,7.800050505050508,68.52840909090911,63.343434343434346,10.842424242424245,37.96464646464647,10.686352973137794,4.39140101010101,1736,85,282,42,24,569,206,396,0.07200000000000001,0.8009999999999999,0.127,0.9642,1,0,2,0,0,0,52.0,0,0,4,6,18,17,0,0,17,0,27,14,1,5,2,64,64,27,0,5,14,0,7,7,0,2,13,3,0,1,15,17,0,4,16,0,2,6,8,4,2,4,15,12,43,13,50,45,4,50,0,1,1,0,18,16,0,6,34,199,58,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06792232864307803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05558545333408642,0.05783615221634631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757326915363903,0.09720309855349196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306099456362224,0.053447295033911366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0758846391784331,0.0,0.0,0.07759381914199014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0448268539779429,0.0,0.059867064068851436,0.07054906909862911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845771791846651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16121422477583386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06287388718725981,0.05856341499723777,0.0,0.0,0.06799207695116405,0.0,0.0,0.2460170269044589,0.3475952711783207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17737018721080325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039502949067223306,0.05829994008484314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04658968927242718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03819973148481563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377063889787422,0.0,0.0,0.06151231618387666,0.05836914134634134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06577006840917694,0.0,0.0,0.06983004163525891,0.07571449477271848,0.0,0.14004382054777909,0.07004762839829791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05548055343213886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053608787938064985,0.0,0.07392245458480347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07913522024450304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07396132066376528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048188035376304485,0.060691629045545224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07835972874445236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06650968599544993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08905709851298288,0.0,0.06863067910958573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07852415764319244,0.0,0.11499532868704695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09839611789769588,0.0,0.0,0.2324469122637257,0.0,0.0,0.07956993136445964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21673600877426602,0.2613065030242588,0.0558678279790909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907572876162577,0.0,0.05518151923022351,0.0,0.0798891215707953,0.0,0.06641779007012273,0.07722584945500985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200650403467934,0.0,0.05735130811639685,0.0409975682854742,0.05517214642973766,0.2230202223108271,0.0,0.1249919236491033,0.12886906441685692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13400629648643764,0.0,0.0,0.07058866017989128,0.0,0.04937642748928232,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Paranoiadestroyer,2020/02/20,"Any advice on how to break a cycle of wanting to do various things but with no energy to continue beyond engaging with it for a few minutes before losing interest? I'm someone who experiences a lot of negative symptoms, particularly apathy. So not entirely related to sleep or like a severe depression or anything like that but I've been stuck in this cycle for a while now and wondered if anyone else has been through the same and whether they were able to snap out of it somehow?",10.078956043956042,8.033403901098904,10.528653846153848,60.09759615384617,59.43956043956045,14.374725274725273,43.62912087912088,13.023866798666859,5.888690109890107,389,19,64,12,4,133,71,91,0.226,0.631,0.142,-0.8897,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,1,5,6,0,0,6,0,5,2,1,1,0,18,9,11,0,2,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,0,1,4,17,5,4,8,0,2,0,0,2,4,0,6,5,55,7,0,0.24452702510467786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23894897888285435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662867622601647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17097898148971505,0.2505468340866575,0.2012249066083288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080744880976729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106107684136992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20427095245242316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391943516097457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389271058580338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735631935014857,0.0,0.20788813237482928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2762459365178035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447036195978067,0.0,0.20718695485100436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541572068094578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16245289003772947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14422837488350013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651791279014891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,evyatari,2020/02/20,"Hello! I have a question for you! Do you know that what you're seeing (the spiders,demons, music etc.) Is not real?

 And if you do... do you try to ignore it or something? Like, ""haaa... (sigh)  another imaginary monster under my bad"" do you get used to it OR it can not be ignore and keep being terrifying? 

What I imagine when I hear about schizophrenic ppl is like the thing on Spongebob where the flying dutchman keep scaring the shit out of spongebob  spongebob until he didnt care anymore... (is there any truth in there?)

(btw I hope you all doing well!)",1.8711006289308187,4.42456689622642,3.1059433962264187,88.52765723270441,82.86792452830191,5.042767295597487,22.98427672955975,6.42735559955562,0.6995748427672956,425,15,80,4,12,137,76,106,0.162,0.72,0.11800000000000001,-0.7479,0,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,6,0,0,6,12,1,1,5,0,13,2,1,1,2,20,22,7,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,7,3,0,4,3,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,1,2,11,6,10,19,2,7,0,0,1,0,10,5,1,5,4,60,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14923830868276924,0.2301198350534426,0.0,0.0,0.2176424079519519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832374567377405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237510722981816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24475260385613254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11465724255636554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473440270695341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.217970352343367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3901269906795689,0.0,0.0,0.1206078466379606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2144312433056728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24584210328118675,0.0,0.0,0.24979015005225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219714775712062,0.0,0.17487884297081618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22526949180987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689487465422049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14579750197990676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489969206082637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895404157288738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1973182293761284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Seismonaut,2020/02/20,"Every fucking time! I know that when my life becomes just a bit unstable it all unravels and I become psychotic.
Every fucking time it happens. Even if I know I will enter a time of unstability at work or home I cannot seem to do anything from preventing it.
Once again i feel the demon creeping under my skin trying to take over and unleash his anger towards the feeble minded who will not bow to his superiority.

I feel him. 
He laughs like a fucking maniac in my head, saying that he will get me this time.
He changed my voice! I am sitting in a bathroom at my office and freaking the fuck out. I need to sedate the fucker before he gains to much control.
Fuck!",2.796424936386768,4.918546091603054,4.611011450381678,81.44771310432573,76.63358778625954,6.504071246819338,26.183842239185747,7.492282038375204,1.5430910941475826,522,20,97,7,12,177,86,131,0.196,0.73,0.07400000000000001,-0.9543,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,3,4,12,8,0,8,0,6,9,2,1,1,18,20,6,0,2,4,0,3,1,0,3,1,2,1,0,7,4,0,2,5,0,0,1,2,9,0,0,0,5,18,3,15,17,3,16,1,0,0,6,9,8,6,3,7,66,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11381609453406162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30550170000578225,0.1176903297241784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15099703876387172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14631203297036813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15512472111998318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09135144673426612,0.0,0.23306171947894894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13986584655809542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6393198062223039,0.07226047241707853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12230573224399464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14194440265241862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387346825951777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15202144724492575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09769136981211443,0.06757053718011805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13965213765649326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10167264690300297,0.10255398554603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472940174810915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10998845472748504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12591084584398146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10399076438547412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3225951481389903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09390237922868433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006902208101658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,HeavyMetalGoat,2020/02/20,"I’m so fucking sick of being alive I don’t care about anything. All I feel is hatred. I fucking hate everything. My parents for fucking my stupid ass into existence. The ground for not opening up and swallowing me. I wish I had the Balls to kill myself. Only reason I don’t is because a girl who now lives across the entire fucking ocean from me would probably be sad. Except we never talk anymore because of the time difference and honestly without physical contact it’s just not the same. Our relationship is just a ghost of what it was that keeps haunting me. I’m fucking losing it over here. My medication is awful, and I’m not taking it anymore. I’d rather deal with my shit than deal with all these fucking side effects. I’m at a point now where 2/3 thoughts I have are about ways to kill myself. And the other one is usually Jesus fucking Christ how is everyone around me so stupid. Fuck these doctors with there stupid ass white coats and smiles like they even GIVE A SHIT. All anyone fucking says to me is “how are you feeling?” Or “have you found a job yet?” Who the FUCK cares? I fucked another girl on valentines. And I’m sure she’s fucked other guys, but its not like it even matters because unless I work my ass off we’re never going to see each other again. The only person I don’t fucking hate. I bet reading this would scare you. God I just want to die.",2.343139978213511,4.651924757352943,3.392565359477125,88.68260893246189,79.0,5.794335511982571,24.412309368191718,6.937597516519254,0.9860763616557732,1082,39,211,12,27,347,155,272,0.23399999999999999,0.6829999999999999,0.083,-0.9934,2,0,0,0,0,3,26.0,2,3,1,3,20,31,22,1,13,1,20,22,5,4,6,49,53,13,4,5,13,1,2,2,0,2,3,1,0,4,16,14,1,1,6,2,1,1,10,25,0,1,4,5,31,6,28,45,5,23,2,2,2,16,21,13,18,2,10,145,47,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07104433694081981,0.0,0.0,0.1343844224428451,0.04737407880792405,0.0,0.05575448222186045,0.06031403268865219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390376900300465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13815624861307618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13969957372343006,0.0,0.0,0.07031633218536774,0.07078687559890769,0.0,0.06934748950524444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08949969042142136,0.0,0.0,0.06474035638480405,0.06089152107543212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06851533508764923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07428704937927326,0.0,0.814268463363386,0.0,0.06499431060126272,0.03850527092459271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06708556399434952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13378300810085342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0672338386898914,0.06022147845080495,0.14991606489182735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06620083617089846,0.0,0.059826642565831686,0.0,0.0,0.07579764585664192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0682534516895287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1045097114132662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045910804307315985,0.10305756174869707,0.0,0.0,0.07523106258956612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05915881407427957,0.0,0.0,0.06404795185917411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0730485856350136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06777077110631846,0.0,0.0,0.0696607887045436,0.0,0.07274076098213618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05387945675713065,0.06783200827924836,0.0,0.05398991982135752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13909380453806502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06385586942843001,0.0,0.050941400229055016,0.05445684190926271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053787866429278006,0.039506990477500274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07461973663071005,0.0,0.03996214235537926,0.05377873034626263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07791195810036389,0.06531093087544862,0.0,0.049324580579379454,0.0,0.0,0.09625877371980034,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Kiddomango,2020/02/20,"Age regression 
I was diagnosed as a schizoaffective disorder, schizotypal personality disorder, identity discorder (not DID).
I've been going through age regression lately. I'm reminded of my past memories, and I feel like I'm a child.
Also since I was a child, my past selfs have emerged as different personalities. I call them little me. And there are some other personalities that are nothing like me. 
Is there anyone has similar symptoms? Is this schizo thing or something different?",6.383414634146341,9.636304597560978,7.11481707317073,62.30929878048782,70.09756097560975,11.904878048780489,37.079268292682926,11.20814326018867,5.860995121951219,395,22,56,16,8,130,57,82,0.073,0.863,0.063,-0.1926,2,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,10,2,0,0,0,6,14,6,0,0,2,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,6,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,1,9,2,4,10,1,7,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,2,7,38,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14036973025672872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1227333043599089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17923377969763413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17815729125600455,0.0,0.3667789376039354,0.4023407393226846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08875226375090002,0.1253972847910422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09975664445127556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19800330291522425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17150829270128848,0.1759252341235077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16842391249690514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3351227991355793,0.0,0.4597930080786294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18311405316455956,0.0,0.0,0.14519862932093816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13513008005167745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18244086815130486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166130469571596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Cipra_lex_sed_lex,2020/02/20,"Has anyone had nightmares about ""coming psychotic episode""? I had a nightmare, which predicted that I will have an episode on 25 Feb. I don't know what to think except that it's a peculiar dream. Now I'm a bit concerned, lol",3.12409090909091,5.2961132272727305,3.7181818181818183,87.99727272727276,75.81818181818181,7.127272727272729,29.181818181818183,8.07648339933343,2.0405636363636366,178,8,35,3,4,56,36,44,0.0,0.833,0.16699999999999998,0.6597,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,1,6,0,0,0,0,4,10,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,4,7,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3948809913503591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6165523937604452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4864755402976394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31036763359432284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3618641031210508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,yesitsmetoday,2020/02/20,"My dream continued after I woke up It was one of the worst nightmares I’ve had in awhile. I normally get them, but this one was really bad. I woke up and it felt like it was still going on. Even when I was driving or at class I couldn’t get out of it. This happen to anyone else?",0.2541530054644809,2.0130367377049225,2.4963114754098363,95.2732103825137,83.2622950819672,6.033879781420765,16.724043715846992,7.1686216300943375,-0.16054316939890745,215,4,52,3,6,73,44,61,0.124,0.8,0.076,-0.611,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,7,13,4,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,2,0,2,8,1,7,1,10,4,1,12,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,5,39,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21504621553235112,0.3151214729115027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25679152857931314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569186860592267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20313397326920046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29529637396784925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3213645190554968,0.0,0.1747878375420043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719655816354181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15025346816081692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3013338475771813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4168078817263784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970245011373739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456099467891147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ASentientSlug,2020/02/20,"A greeting and an apology Hi, it's been a really long time.

I used to be on here under the name of ArktheRedKing, and I was a mod here for a couple of years in ... 2016 to 2018 or so. I think. Not 100% sure on the start date.

I wanted to apologize to those who were around at the time for

a) leaving the sub mostly alone during summer 2018, especially during that time of the Reddit revamp

b) deleting my account and vanishing suddenly at the end of that summer with little warning

c) generally not taking enough responsibility and treating you fine people with the enormous dignity you all deserve

2018 was an incredibly tough year for me, and I needed to get away from as much of my own self-identity as possible, hence my sudden departure. Even now, about a year and a half after the worst events, I'm still having trouble calling myself a human being. It's a bit easier to exist as a sentient slug instead.

Things are a bit better for me now. Actually, last year was the greatest I ever had in my entire life. >!It was the first year ever since I was a pretty young kid that my hallucinations didn't sexually or physically abuse me.!< I've been keeping busy on trying to improve myself as person while still working, translating, and studying as much as I can during this time. I feel... happy sometimes. It's very weird. I'm not used to this, and I don't think I deserve it at all, but that happiness is something I should run with. 

I've really, really, really missed talking to fellow people with psychosis and having someone else understand my struggles or my outlook on the world. I don't think I'll be around here as much as I used to, but it's good to drop by now and again, right?

Thank you very much for reading this, and thank you very much for being alive and working as hard as you do in this world that can sometimes be cruel to us.",7.079437336435014,6.344345969613258,7.715111951148589,73.68387176504798,64.44198895027624,10.383483570805467,32.588543181157306,9.682069395223575,2.9364839779005525,1459,49,273,25,19,487,186,362,0.085,0.807,0.10800000000000001,0.8049,0,1,1,0,1,0,51.0,1,5,0,4,17,16,1,1,25,0,25,1,0,3,5,46,44,29,0,3,8,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,17,18,0,1,5,1,1,1,6,7,0,2,10,2,31,9,55,28,14,52,0,1,0,0,17,19,0,4,31,202,48,3,0.0,0.11004134270004652,0.09063231825070013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0961901885575684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16535636246200228,0.0,0.0,0.08725884597322557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08214013236892148,0.2027902548936765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.094835461490175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10276409855490568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07758490160860658,0.0,0.08225942514096897,0.09596440095290892,0.0,0.06134286910459717,0.16802098220273765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04696024323826406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07899917968563107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04852320197852435,0.0,0.0,0.07789889915857623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977337085946096,0.08319749644901474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08255130833410941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07570528332695509,0.0,0.09834090635256353,0.0,0.0,0.06560015331191757,0.0,0.09308485707334643,0.0,0.08219119450971829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3413679855903896,0.06886541961185075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1287752578464334,0.08109461320043078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470227925919327,0.0,0.09448696770131143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09289984180989946,0.0,0.2379916660745195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0793144936811338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968885762856379,0.0,0.0,0.07682691869033764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07869243920251423,0.0714994881239693,0.18371092320072305,0.0,0.06573719676686879,0.0,0.14833972450984528,0.0,0.0,0.09709281068439916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08753331372352742,0.0,0.06983022246315812,0.07464917273702881,0.0,0.17101310712685036,0.0,0.0,0.061701829546942574,0.1785310894534492,0.0,0.0,0.2166239578408927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06305583067985225,0.0,0.0,0.09668584704965692,0.1117168390782341,0.24064178599928346,0.0,0.22989408365102884,0.05477990942991191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13522778797884372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990413365904502
schizophrenia,sara3615,2020/02/20,"Need advice dealing with anosognosia My husband has been in treatment for a little over a year and we are no longer in crisis, thankfully. I have had a hard time finding support for myself, even through NAMI. One of the challenges I have is that he suffers from anosognosia, and does not recognize that his reality isn’t necessarily real. I’m hoping to get some advice on how to approach the situation when he is upset at me for something that isn’t actually happening. 

Specifically, his delusion is that my parents, my brother, and I are trying to turn our 2 year old son into my dad. He says he hears me calling my son by my dads name. All the reading I have done, and advice from my own therapist suggests to try and identify the underlying emotion he is expressing and try to focus on that, but I honestly don’t know where to even start when he says directly, “Can you please stop calling our son your dads name? You do it constantly and it’s breaking my heart.”",7.372864864864862,7.0092109621621645,7.889864864864865,71.4466891891892,63.7027027027027,10.643243243243244,37.95945945945946,10.125756701596842,3.8894432432432438,768,36,137,15,10,255,114,185,0.065,0.861,0.07400000000000001,0.4118,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,3,3,0,1,6,7,0,1,7,0,18,1,1,1,1,23,29,11,0,2,2,9,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,7,10,0,1,2,1,0,1,5,2,0,1,3,4,24,5,23,26,3,21,0,1,0,0,33,10,0,2,9,99,31,2,0.0,0.0,0.13575152733734394,0.0,0.0,0.4078107495518529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2840942169750506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15032874961156428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434165491200469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12173630846303525,0.142358073553983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15648029626287616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1837620030675869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12714423915681242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0726793588316078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1230147258049605,0.0,0.1246154509957021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15678735069356106,0.1648463041784124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13816785664305195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07645134985169938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13942500604178826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10314848029349176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14597279600888335,0.0,0.09426469881885872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15446545892244573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527012694885015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13914788519705631,0.15833790821651608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22125209263324996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15636573823987698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10709385905608937,0.0,0.0,0.09846294386173897,0.0,0.0,0.11630238957625445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578606518102722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12807401893306095,0.0,0.1615177105497601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08111629963336621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833401645526849,0.15131199459864067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17916486729099318
schizophrenia,dafnipatitas,2020/02/20,Im stuck I dont really know how im going to explain all this so here goes nothing. Ive been dating my schizophrenic bf for 6 years now. For the first 3 years of our rela,-1.4676923076923103,0.4577545384615434,1.6725128205128217,96.96415384615385,93.35897435897436,5.171282051282052,15.492307692307696,6.742157984588678,-0.34776307692307684,133,3,33,2,5,47,33,39,0.061,0.9390000000000001,0.0,-0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,1,4,7,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,4,0,4,5,1,6,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.363785889906403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26402564716270704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17640718301627578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6705694268622726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17058744175648788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2978366816525257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19884986117800446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3997741887239132
schizophrenia,thatpoisonedapple,2020/02/20,"A call for parents taking care of children with schizophrenia Hi, 

I’m a final year student in Middlesex University studying BSc (Hons) Psychology with Counseling Skills. For my dissertation, I urgently require participants for a qualitative study. I need parents who are taking care of children with schizophrenia (any age group). 

The interview would be ideally conducted via a video call or any other means such as writing. Your data will be strictly confidential with no identifying details being mentioned anywhere.

This research has gone through the Ethics Committee of Middlesex University and if you agree to participate, all such documents along with an information sheet, consent form and a debriefing sheet will be provided. 

If anyone is interested to participate, please contact me ASAP: HH618@live.mdx.ac.uk",10.733193350831145,13.446232275590555,9.425144356955382,52.62245844269466,56.95275590551181,12.888538932633422,47.181977252843396,12.261556223090626,7.2439053368328965,677,42,79,23,9,210,94,127,0.017,0.8420000000000001,0.141,0.9371,2,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,0,3,2,4,0,0,8,0,10,0,0,0,1,19,18,6,0,5,3,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,3,8,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,6,4,17,10,2,5,0,0,0,0,16,1,0,3,3,54,9,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793693373878467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14362623974630534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4194896234195709,0.0,0.4188548460478523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22501472167344053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18137926740940447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237498256809672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15230763095194536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4561631552000121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22547659968399644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30888291430320963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14591614296099947,0.0,0.0,0.13227619257824694
schizophrenia,cfuw,2020/02/20,"Does this seem like psychosis? A few points in my life, I have experienced extreme confusion, strange beliefs, etc and I am wondering if it is psychosis. I know I am not schizophrenic and I am more or less in sound mind most of the time.

When I was like 5, I used to think Harry Potter was a god, and I would cry and talk to the poster of him in my room and wish I was him and feel guilty for not being as good as him.

When I was like age 12 I used to think that if I purposely blinked consciously, that it would take a picture and be stored for me for when I get to heaven, id have all my pictures. 

I once got so drunk at a party, I woke up up in the forest with no memory of how I got there, missing a shirt and cut and bruised. It took me a long time to find my way out, once I did, I came across a parking lot and for some reason I thought this car was my car (I wasnt even in my home country, no.car here) and for like 30 minutes straight, i just kept trying my car key in all the doors over and over in a confused.loop of thought until i finally got home. 

One day I did some shrooms and my friend looked after me. But I got so confused, i literally thought the world was over and my friend.was the meaning of life itself and I got so confused, i kept getting up for a glass of water, and then pouring water all over the floor, then sitting down and doing this again like a dozen times. 

So wtf, am I insane? Thank you",4.049848652639348,3.800478239202661,4.809407530454042,90.36559892949428,70.59468438538207,7.884902177925433,28.017903285345145,7.1686216300943375,1.1508558877814692,1094,34,259,9,18,354,154,301,0.11599999999999999,0.7809999999999999,0.10300000000000001,-0.6319,0,0,0,0,0,0,33.0,0,1,0,0,13,14,1,3,17,0,21,7,1,4,3,60,50,34,0,5,7,0,1,5,1,2,3,1,4,0,9,20,3,2,14,1,1,5,4,5,0,2,22,4,44,9,40,24,11,45,2,1,1,0,6,23,0,12,20,183,53,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13243485831913804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12719174603975508,0.07467606773147607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10133009757329113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291383544141464,0.07647932624290181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05854776301612648,0.0,0.0,0.1268441482434807,0.10583151667978913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17892076142631144,0.0,0.12099276896025295,0.0,0.0,0.09712058483200586,0.4630460040426664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322970337244165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06363609048022685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16357420511817994,0.2828498804424485,0.0,0.0,0.10247201135121776,0.09723586568783583,0.0,0.0,0.09844196316940776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12613110754290502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11691660918538363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24662876438799905,0.07846345309486888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10946058432968722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1190531533815786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10541241546872517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08706094845788763,0.09306898289649944,0.0,0.1066054408823416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14838929266610576,0.0,0.27577702884901545,0.20255721551953773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12864883998686835,0.07861496399620134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000137036056841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09191006234132056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331547412895821,0.0,0.12557116004633834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16451020387655454,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,blueeboii,2020/02/20,"Hey I’m relatively new to the community and was wondering if anyone would talk with me. Just struggling to cope with everything that’s going on and would love to be able to talk to someone who’s going through something similar. 
My meds are ruining me completely like I sleep 17 hours a day and I’m not getting anywhere by telling people I want to change my meds, it’s just all so frustrating. So yeah message me please I’m a sound enough person lol.",3.2900280898876417,5.45546366292135,4.393693820224719,83.37683286516854,75.29213483146067,8.045505617977529,29.10252808988764,8.841846274778883,2.4842011235955046,362,16,70,8,8,118,63,89,0.09,0.7390000000000001,0.171,0.7656,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,1,1,3,2,5,2,1,0,1,14,14,6,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,1,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,1,1,7,2,11,10,2,6,0,1,0,1,8,1,0,2,4,40,10,0,0.18831719203846106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13167575926609998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19921461920812253,0.0,0.19744699296781398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12144900977221325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19458199973426946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16924734944152894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09838796033462786,0.0,0.2140500000137019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18545450054827234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09200226776120116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699636182087724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41835589456540295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818779175494447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305554296136917,0.16443130835527384,0.0,0.20671572626681156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18845319246238654,0.0,0.1595605457018016,0.14497577477679102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19687001716461555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027244512641262,0.16459752625784596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11107435899448832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20422196169212314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675502602798545,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,No-Show-Hobo,2020/02/20,Running commentary For those who experience a running commentary on your actions (and/or thoughts) can you explain your experience of it? What does the voice(s) say?,7.359102564102564,11.315274653846155,5.943846153846152,67.8844871794872,71.69230769230771,9.620512820512822,47.12820512820512,9.725611199111238,6.275605128205128,135,10,18,4,3,40,22,26,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,3,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,0,13,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36162933666928987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8084565385568797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3286252413344272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3280666073873525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TheoretcallyMusical,2020/02/21,I think I may have schizophrenia I keep on hearing voices that sound like they're coming from outside a shed. They say weird things like whispering my name and my thoughts. I also get the feeling that someone is also watching me- what do the people of reddit think?,3.7288,6.406230280000003,3.414000000000001,88.397,76.2,4.800000000000002,26.0,5.6839178017228535,0.8393999999999999,214,8,37,1,5,64,40,50,0.035,0.83,0.135,0.5859,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,9,12,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,5,0,0,4,2,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,7,8,2,3,10,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,1,2,25,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4739369405214252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552550290463692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14982922696197112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548159323893366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3339762523320625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633844686375213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2895357687452895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20543225507867768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23564702251619135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2510725354134785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19686306513048327,0.3797421432390579,0.0,0.23524644334652664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Kandrew2012,2020/02/21,Latuda experience? Anyone here have experience with Latuda? Did it work for you? Anything I should keep an eye out for myself on? Just curious! Thanks :),2.4751282051282075,4.509136000000002,3.800000000000004,75.53666666666669,112.07692307692308,6.348717948717949,19.71794871794872,7.1686216300943375,1.813764102564103,120,4,18,3,6,39,23,26,0.0,0.7090000000000001,0.29100000000000004,0.8574,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,5,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,5,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,15,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26128986464391457,0.0,0.3075116494002353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7310730150706728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33214919105583274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3440397635021965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272047780294742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ClarkHambleton,2020/02/21,"mein Tag First, I fixed the hole in the wall I kicked in for no good reason when I was psychotic.  It still doesn't look quite right.  Then I went to deposit money in the bank for my phone bill I can't afford.  After that I went to the pharmacy to pick up my extremely slow acting poisons so the government can kill me slowly and I won't be a burden on the system.  Riding my bike home I congratulated myself for being God.  My teeth started to hurt, because I made fun of Ozzy for sounding like he has dentures now . So apparently the invisible karma police even punish me for making fun of someone in private talking to myself. Then my mom encouraged one of my cats to be vulnerable to abuse from children and my happiness that I am God went away now that my eyes look as tired as my pestered cat.  The worst people in the world are the richest monetarily, the good people have nothing because the world hates them.",5.730553580497714,6.130325569832401,6.51167089893347,77.36063991874049,67.04469273743017,8.967191467750128,30.23920771965465,8.841846274778883,2.34362122905028,723,25,137,11,11,239,114,179,0.161,0.69,0.149,-0.6866,2,0,0,0,1,1,12.0,0,0,1,2,7,14,4,0,13,0,12,4,2,4,0,6,21,9,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,1,4,2,0,0,1,1,4,5,4,7,0,2,5,4,24,7,27,12,1,28,1,1,3,0,7,12,0,0,11,95,28,1,0.0,0.1953654059181011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15491777404036589,0.0,0.0,0.2010284799015778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10890701829645613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402537121757039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27660058812935645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17552642168578825,0.0,0.16279283696278954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1653961831573114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1765160943494609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18242422454457086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08055598451968628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769289093866655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15602108318474867,0.11006407029327812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19311492033978025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15821455480844812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11173242680859928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22862525941684966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17537876400402233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695324029450606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1408135149299375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13970913068001106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11670862800433615,0.0,0.13167982951480725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13253078865979626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18951458594521373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4585586917950748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Ainaman,2020/02/21,"Who is Seeking the Schizophrenic vote? Lots of politicians pandering to LGBTQP voters.

Schizophrenic plus bipolar is an equally large demographic.

Do they think we do not vote?

And where are the schizophrenic protagonists in movies?",7.289999999999999,11.44905688888889,5.2457777777777785,70.27700000000002,77.33333333333333,9.546666666666667,34.97777777777778,9.3871,4.885784444444445,192,10,25,6,5,55,30,36,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,5,4,0,0,0,6,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,6,2,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,20,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7985836260421517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6018838693779462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,zelandorry,2020/02/21,"My mother has had untreated schizophrenia for about 6-7 years I know I don’t live in the US and you may not be able to help me, yet I still feel like I should try to find some answers.
I am from the Republic of Moldova, turning 20 now. Left my mother’s place together with my father and sister when I was 15. 
When I was about 8-9 I can remember her having severe paranoia and mania about someone always following her. Maybe it started earlier, I don’t know. It became very, very bad at 15 (she was about 36 then). She showed no signs of empathy, she had hallucinations (I saw her speaking to the walls/ showing signs), but she never admitted it and always brushed it off. 
Three to four years ago she was accidentally taken to the mental hospital when she got into a fight with my grandfather and he called the police, there being diagnosed with schizophrenia. Early release because of her religious mother, no medicine taken, and here we are now at the very beginning. She can’t be hospitalized because she isn’t a threat to herself or to others, yet she is completely unable to interact with people and take care of herself... She looks terrible and it pains me so much, I am afraid she might do something to herself and can’t rest because of it. Still I don’t see her often because I avoid all the guilt that I left her and am not helping her now... I have finally set aside some money and want to take her to a private facility, somewhere abroad, because in my country there are no private clinics and the public ones are just too horrible. (literally, we have no trained specialists, maybe one or two but they are all not aware of modern technology and innovations, still live in the 80s) 
What do you think? Is this possible ? Given the fact that she won’t acknowledge in any way the fact that she is ill. She has some verbally aggressive moments sometimes, this is overwhelming too, but she will never accept treatment. What if I take her somewhere abroad by deceiving her, and where? And how will they take her in?
I know it’s a lot to read but I feel like I am my mothers only hope, as my sister is only 12, my father doesn’t work and is irresponsible and her religious parents only believe in the church and religion, they don’t acknowledge medicine.
Therefore, I know I should be doing something but I don’t know what. Has someone been in the same spot? Do you have any tips? Thanks in advance!",4.5372110319181935,6.148268770065076,5.339915711186864,80.2378004338395,70.62689804772234,8.392215680198326,29.874248528044625,8.922882184376627,2.507848540440037,1897,77,352,36,35,617,222,461,0.13699999999999998,0.821,0.042,-0.9918,2,1,2,0,1,0,60.0,3,3,3,2,25,16,3,4,17,0,53,4,0,2,6,75,81,33,0,5,12,9,2,2,0,7,4,1,0,0,16,25,0,1,15,3,1,2,19,10,0,5,12,7,71,6,42,58,9,44,1,1,3,0,57,17,0,11,25,270,87,2,0.09542529990489536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08458877073256041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15880298776453186,0.0,0.0,0.1297849524165883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07967613950314778,0.29085188558206226,0.0,0.0,0.10751163545529943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09743990039103337,0.0,0.0972924530158956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10005161140797666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09685467071668606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964997976827308,0.13634370663786746,0.0,0.10453375169400307,0.0872169953380046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07632032960099004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279231340945175,0.0,0.0,0.09477885422584226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622162462027112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073597351146561,0.0,0.0,0.09323996283090348,0.0,0.16852457617712258,0.0,0.0801332184442027,0.0,0.0,0.08112717753812469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19173507957306002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09616625803406617,0.10123116326399396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07014857520582914,0.0,0.14719574813958336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12932530568345926,0.21772572181911864,0.10153924708270057,0.0,0.10595850272151207,0.0,0.0,0.06615588778827249,0.0,0.09969912816085154,0.0,0.0,0.1075776877279909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954511233462724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10809826274176744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07604160926897419,0.0,0.0,0.10780342716080342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16170709388523033,0.1469261158502659,0.09437806162454204,0.0,0.0675425184240081,0.0,0.22862030330980335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869917988135167,0.0,0.0,0.08785479535905336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06114467907432495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06478751475422732,0.1037953242318547,0.09321665216869647,0.0,0.11478488637830897,0.0,0.0,0.2362075985022215,0.056284314268175296,0.07574416138240532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06947075484060049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229015289948
schizophrenia,schizophrenicman123,2020/02/21,"The universe as a simulation Lately, I have been feeling quite disturbed. I am unable to trust anyone, and even think properly. I have this feeling that the universe is only a simulation and I am some sort of biological computer. I don't believe that anything is real, and I have the feeling that my thoughts can be understood by everyone if I am thinking in sentences or pictures. It is extremely stressful, and I am unable to think clearly because there seems to be constant auditory stimulation in the environment around me according to my thoughts and actions. Furthermore, I have the feeling that time is also a bit more complicated than I originally thought and the distinction between past, present and future is not so simple. My training is in physics, chemistry and computer science so I think a lot about intelligence, how our brains function and what it means to be human. 

Anyway, what are your thoughts on the subject?",7.621618625277161,9.17595131707317,7.7806430155210675,65.83398004434592,63.26829268292683,10.353880266075388,43.56762749445678,10.436869588844218,5.225421951219512,752,47,112,18,11,244,99,164,0.04,0.858,0.10099999999999999,0.7017,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,1,0,1,9,3,0,2,11,0,21,1,1,3,2,37,36,16,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,9,10,0,0,15,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,6,4,17,1,16,27,4,13,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,6,7,96,26,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12721327033029675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112298570176902,0.0,0.13090625172421466,0.1416116450373477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09697144413815252,0.0,0.0,0.17922453091357854,0.0,0.0,0.17367013379745608,0.0,0.0,0.17758177541779654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17190498185865427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050684046972656,0.0,0.0,0.15200423449187095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217350549956713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17944501035926594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13524099300543474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732807400805555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209847045720494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15185634097290215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16919724036077546,0.0,0.18106367085357294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14481710120468344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18222137950400286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4077187135531393,0.0,0.5051552952805484,0.09275867758459884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,bbybertille,2020/02/21,"A few questions! Hey you guys,

I just wanted to start off by saying that I have so much respect for the people who are suffering from this illness. I don’t have it myself nor do I know anyone close to me who suffer from this disease. But I just wanted to say that I’m proud of you guys for holding on and I’m really sorry you have to go through this.

Besides that I had a few questions. I’m new to this subreddit, because I’m really interested in this topic. I was wondering the following:

1. I often read that schizophrenics have a ‘disorted’ view of reality. What does that mean for you? Because tbh I don’t understand. Does that mean that reality seems upside down to you or you view reality as it is but ‘different’?

2. The delusions. I’ve had delusions before, pretty sure everyone has had them in their life before but I was/am able to shrug it off. Do you know your delusion is is a delusion and can you shrug it off or do you really really believe it? And with really really believe it, does that mean you’re absolutely not capable of changing your thought?

3. The hallucinations and voices. Do the voices sound like somebody else (external) is talking to you or are these different voices inside your head? And for the hallucinations do they seem ‘real’ to you? Like as if they are really there. As if you’re really talking to/seeing someone/something.

4. If you’re hallucinating or hearing voices do you have the urge to respond to them? Like you really can’t control yourself and something inside of you is pushing you to respond.

5. Last but silly question, but how was your day? Did you eat? Take your meds? Are you feeling alright?

I’m really really really sorry if any of my question are offensive.

Thank you in advance x

Have a good day!!!",2.2178714485328364,4.835649070796464,4.318709051389536,79.98898113646949,81.89085545722712,7.344232262071108,25.44022667287688,8.371475516178862,2.1838271386430668,1381,56,249,32,38,472,154,339,0.048,0.841,0.111,0.9696,2,0,2,0,0,0,45.0,0,23,5,3,7,14,1,0,12,1,33,5,1,2,1,47,57,25,0,6,16,0,1,3,0,0,3,8,0,2,23,8,1,2,15,1,0,4,5,3,0,0,7,11,41,11,37,50,3,18,0,2,2,0,44,9,0,16,8,176,64,1,0.07888810765484985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05364661839377747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055160399112135564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09617891642690754,0.0,0.1342559384612002,0.17775976560512827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08345315770904546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08847972072686236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10175260637412772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1648425640430069,0.0,0.0,0.20710654387900596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08072222856857786,0.06590089124474936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0753809675397923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039888197552711925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044833929557405484,0.06616760187997138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15622325869783754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08096195767348538,0.0,0.08891263074004196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08670968172971455,0.0643043367941729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05572100343513226,0.11562223382377605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577968282320863,0.08762690355370231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057991836108317936,0.0,0.0,0.07619062595596758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054691080908781865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0802575662716253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3534909398600597,0.0,0.0789094558971441,0.08979193731592224,0.6064529017096977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12546997908785767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436335407577196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121463838793868,0.0,0.17661755571020651,0.0558374086329645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07435110786229056,0.0,0.059314039210313925,0.12681454540912185,0.0,0.07262957057706093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06262834559081584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0821253022072415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093060499630443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08555078761031261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Watercharger,2020/02/21,I’m having trouble going to work I have a full time job and I’m just having trouble going to work five days a week. It’s just to much lately. I keep getting in trouble for attendance lately but it’s just to much: is anybody else in the same boat?,0.2270440251572339,2.3721660754717,2.5493396226415115,92.51822327044027,86.35849056603773,4.2880503144654085,20.154088050314463,5.46131890053228,-0.09429308176100593,194,6,41,1,6,66,33,53,0.11699999999999999,0.883,0.0,-0.5499,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,7,10,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,7,10,4,11,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,5,28,4,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1675904674558246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2170826195616984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357679597012076,0.0,0.2953728451841442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578744383512616,0.23097862973156105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5862747214446817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3820591636259358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15152850378399954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20844683483456347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3783674638149556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Hundloefve,2020/02/21,"I am part of someones delusion I will try to be brief. Maybe some of you an offer some useful feedback on this problem. For a few years now, an old friend, who suffers from schizophrenia, believes that he and I are in conflict. He has constructed a backstory for this conflict out of childhood memories and sees signs of me attacking him constantly. He can go dark for months and then all of a sudden hurl accusations at me via the social media accounts of my business, which of course is a bit of a problem. I'm at my wits end regarding what to do about this. ""Talk to the dude"" does not work. It's a problem for me, but it must be even worse for him. Any suggestions? I'll leva further details (that won't break the anonymity) on questions in the comments.",4.937297297297299,5.878374351351353,5.330648648648651,83.20489189189192,69.0,8.082162162162161,33.04324324324324,8.238735603445708,2.4707762162162155,596,27,115,8,10,190,102,148,0.131,0.841,0.027000000000000003,-0.9059999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,1,0,1,3,6,1,0,12,0,11,0,0,1,2,18,15,5,0,4,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,10,4,0,2,1,0,1,2,2,5,0,0,0,1,11,1,25,10,6,20,0,1,1,0,14,8,0,3,9,82,21,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286620947395673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21524165599771244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21316295870965013,0.0,0.0,0.20655676637043327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044573606254212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16556968899792945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16757453033941722,0.0,0.0,0.12496443370785912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14617500394293242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10752639150375744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19007624931543665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15101717340235596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19853296639669124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20488453644591825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5431148841294402,0.0,0.0,0.21194665272289126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15076744343227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1928649840665092,0.16030805610452548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520713284854142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12845398801693586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16340755360155707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13773943241494244,0.0,0.19281037455943484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183822448391593
schizophrenia,falseprefux,2020/02/21,Losing weight on risperidone Does anyone have any experience losing weight on medication that may have contributed to gaining weight like how do you do it?? It just seems so hard my cravings feel so strong it just seems almost impossible trying to eat perfect and healthy everyday I tried and I always mess up,7.110999999999998,9.094708418181824,6.507045454545459,72.90056818181819,64.81818181818181,9.136363636363637,31.931818181818183,9.516144504307137,3.1630909090909096,253,10,40,5,4,78,41,55,0.13699999999999998,0.63,0.233,0.8287,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,5,5,6,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,1,1,11,8,5,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,4,3,5,7,0,4,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,4,2,25,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791600261445095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14887368819010666,0.0,0.0,0.12167003158960972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1251032721802922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15657190512432098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830772636558536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17501564117822613,0.0,0.0,0.09046606107895856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16027493207786953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08741005033184476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4003258220038581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18024055261484684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257595346092922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429464686000571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6536199228737956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Silent-Budget,2020/02/21,"Is it possible that I'm schizophrenic? Some weird things have been happening to me lately, for the past few months. Don't want to talk to a professional, because I'm super scared of hospitals and all that stuff..I just need somebody's opinion on all that stuff. My english is not perfect, please forgive me. So:
1.Sometimes I feel bugs crawling on me, when I scratch that spot or look at it, the feeling disappears.
2.A friend of mine is in the hospital, he had an accident. But a few days ago, I heard him talking to someone while I was at work. That honestly scared the living hell out of me.
3.Sometimes while I'm at work I hear someone calling my name, even if there are no customers around. I usually go around and ask my co-workers if any of them just called me, but all of them say no.
4.Sometimes while I'm at home I have a feeling like there's a camera, and someone's watching me.
5.I don't trust anyone. I always feel like people are gonna stab my back if I start trusting them too much. I'm also afraid of being in a relationships. If I meet a guy, I always try to find a way to end things, cause I'm super scared of commitment and I feel like everyone secretly hates me. Lost quite a lot of friends because of that.
6.I usually hear weird sounds, and I'm the only one that hears it: opening and closing doors, footsteps, a person saying something, etc.
7.I lost my motivation. Can't even go to work anymore, cause I feel like I'm a burden and all my co-workers hate me and don't want me there.
8.I almost cry every single time I'm serving a customer, especially if I make a mistake and I apologize a hundred times.

There's more to it though. Also, I'm severely depressed and just got some antidepressants, gonna start using them today. Please, I really need someone's opinion.",2.9765951840072686,4.936166501408454,4.199509313948209,85.3507678328033,75.53521126760563,7.284870513402997,27.507950931394824,8.155646560271837,1.8696533393911856,1408,57,278,24,31,461,182,355,0.191,0.685,0.124,-0.97,0,0,1,0,0,1,58.0,0,0,4,10,18,27,3,4,19,0,15,1,0,5,6,59,55,26,0,10,12,0,7,4,2,2,1,7,2,2,14,15,0,0,10,0,0,3,7,14,0,1,7,16,37,13,29,45,13,35,1,3,2,0,27,13,1,12,22,168,51,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.068052122814702,0.0,0.07687423487429794,0.0,0.0,0.12278615290384387,0.12775786115702106,0.0,0.0,0.052206347514364586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07613537893648467,0.053679487194168034,0.0,0.0,0.1366834533486525,0.07176974484945539,0.0,0.0,0.05903152125869548,0.0,0.09359676499424187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1567818520363127,0.0,0.0,0.15772822185862395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432842585054037,0.049510407998766055,0.0,0.06612203410918736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06799558318372106,0.0,0.08561903176696982,0.10141194523987447,0.0,0.06468217849374391,0.07335718643932086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23290382493895065,0.21937849643109494,0.0,0.0,0.07016654370160423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186248843407259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0872605124791964,0.0,0.06140011727662921,0.0,0.0,0.07601453714696575,0.06788760695236064,0.0,0.0,0.151589296316741,0.0,0.0,0.2595766800113582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07700673901279377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08660009456009274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15002410714462527,0.0,0.06778946576467178,0.0,0.0644676069397369,0.0,0.16760741652286024,0.06526725239795295,0.0,0.0,0.0512446839701185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06127721650451162,0.0,0.056434907539635176,0.11384821519661535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052021453374968885,0.05838717295782056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07328581308264807,0.05322276895259584,0.06703275044983645,0.0,0.16854118393269413,0.0,0.0865468306725126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08165452461015328,0.0,0.0,0.049180936105104114,0.0,0.0,0.08242243112453929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12210143951292435,0.2305809956459713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08672843926515253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26018846042528715,0.0591014267847771,0.2277829805918179,0.0,0.10867664157307808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757669529174036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12340990775800152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10200537814012477,0.0,0.0754263013068784,0.0,0.08953060588324821,0.0,0.07276914375788426,0.0,0.0,0.05212190545779955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06630477723111053,0.16910299039863974,0.0,0.09056206950279704,0.060936586833598885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794479869786552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,AthanasiaStygian,2020/02/21,Really feeling it now This cacophony of voices is buzzing in my head and I’m trying not to listen but they are so loud and persistent and their accuracy is consistent and I don’t want them to kill him but they said they will and I’m freaking out,1.9558823529411744,4.126139098039218,4.121333333333337,83.68200000000002,79.58823529411767,8.00156862745098,23.925490196078428,8.841846274778883,1.87887137254902,198,7,41,5,5,68,39,51,0.183,0.767,0.051,-0.8861,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,5,1,2,2,1,0,0,0,5,1,1,0,0,11,11,8,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,2,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,5,8,0,5,9,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,1,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23430331206141825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47557061982572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5126710756129913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2968587456061072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4407888854131297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146105930097716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733187336515879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Davie9,2020/02/21,Voices Talk Over Eachother? I was diagnosed with schizophrenia 17 years ago as a teenager. Lost count of the number of times I was put in hospitals but now Ive been off medicine and away from doctors for like 8 years now. I just ditched out on appointments and stopped taking medicine. First few years I think my brain was ajusting to the change. Had some really weird experiences of people starring at me for long Periods of time and thinking people were following me and hurting me with some kind of technology and other stuff but then things seemed to get better but I’m starting to wonder how Much better. I’ve kept completely to myself all these years since I ran away from it all. I feel almost constant anxiety like someone might feel physically if they’d just been startled a few minutes ago by someone looking in their window. I have gruesome vivid nightmares but getting to the point of my question is I’ve noticed at times my head feeling “loud”. It’s like multiple voices (like mine from my thoughts) but more than one that do sound like my thought voice but they’re talking at the same time. I can’t under stand if that’s even possible cause I only have one brain so how can I hear multiple thoughts talking at the same exact time. It sounds like multiple people who sound like my thought voice all talking at the same time not caring that they’re interrupting eachother. They distract me when they do but I seem to daze out and when I realize it’s hard to remember what they were talking about. Like yesterday I was trying to watch a movie and I kept having to rewind even just 30 seconds of it cause I couldn’t remember to focus and kept getting lost in my head. Today my head is so empty and quiet that I can tell the difference. Can anyone relate to this? Is this hearing voices in some minimal way?,4.774789272030652,6.571971574712649,4.7970114942528745,83.62691570881229,70.32183908045978,7.684291187739465,29.84291187739464,8.285830014693849,2.1745624521072795,1460,59,269,22,27,453,181,348,0.09,0.815,0.095,0.6679999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,5,5,14,19,0,2,10,0,25,7,5,4,4,63,54,26,0,3,13,0,4,8,0,1,2,12,1,0,17,13,0,4,16,0,0,3,3,7,0,4,19,19,36,12,46,32,13,48,0,3,3,0,15,18,0,11,33,182,53,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14161107443087426,0.0,0.07998459523623302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06110516530313963,0.0,0.0,0.05585137936962517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15009286188876786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14128822591759407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17833677708339635,0.0,0.0,0.081439230563809,0.16410996484481125,0.08449855414072993,0.0,0.08374880062283553,0.0863179241144691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0810727822680069,0.0,0.0834537524095089,0.0,0.08175679701112548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055151105619959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07813436691708818,0.0,0.0,0.12116360050394953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06794275602452751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12519623950558806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07155349239803624,0.0,0.24592844243223802,0.0,0.1800528331971753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08550925138982128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831788944022063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31218827752266964,0.0,0.0,0.07068802863726427,0.06707599048439329,0.0,0.1743888754287146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473615156924927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058718285055232924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09093971844822024,0.0,0.0,0.10825252176106176,0.06074953986411118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16612854641034785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07550893963843971,0.0900485478865449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08029776244993572,0.08947975768682394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05117081521706288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18096859663998194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454328015059088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0660745163869498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13535789153729308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056536869616129685,0.0,0.0,0.0667801791986853,0.0,0.0,0.09143927486233044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06005705105841482,0.3210077972257265,0.06981542338214973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0530662769899294,0.10236303973280426,0.0,0.2536514996400812,0.2794591432826294,0.0,0.07571341059431626,0.0,0.0,0.05423077729229075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06340210398103797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08662246051701585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20575092201276712
schizophrenia,lethalbabi,2020/02/21,"I need help now hello, since 2017 i’ve hallucinated a short period of time I’ve heard voices. but recently what’s really getting to me is my trust issues. I’m constantly paranoid I feel like everyone hates me and everyone’s using me and laughing at me like a circus animal. i’m in a relationship almost 2 years now the relationship is not going the best right now because of my paranoia. I feel like he’s against me, he’s cheating on me, lying to me and all these things. Every little thing he does set me off and makes me paranoid like crazy and riddled with extreme anxiety if it has worsened my bipolar disorder I feel like I lose it if I think he’s lying or cheating I get heated, overreact, violent, scared, anxious and just feel terrible. I can’t decipher if there’s someone telling me these things or if it’s just myself. 

when I need to know is you all’s advice, I’m not even sure if I’m schizophrenic or just broken. I will be talking to my therapist soon but the comments help for now.",2.5083078947368413,4.702013614999999,4.504263157894737,81.51778947368423,77.85,7.810526315789473,27.02631578947368,8.6894789155246,2.2977000000000003,793,33,151,18,19,271,112,200,0.307,0.57,0.12300000000000001,-0.9934,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,2,11,16,4,1,6,0,7,2,0,2,3,36,26,17,0,7,15,0,4,5,0,1,2,2,0,0,9,7,0,0,6,0,0,1,3,7,0,0,1,6,26,9,13,23,3,20,0,1,0,0,14,7,0,9,16,93,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292876040429406,0.0,0.0,0.13248505241267822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10121350247459338,0.14946778775101852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08065232997892981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13884667517683005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429754650465317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516338007875493,0.0,0.11578161436534402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08738667059480848,0.0,0.11147326307601356,0.25284754264290915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675909599152885,0.2835576670656937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13824854068277972,0.0,0.07519238135031309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13062449272219734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17736345085545166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380927823092193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07271175558052373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3231894231324935,0.1326050747408511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480162418249206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08831508570789247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19620600819087114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08475842274389599,0.0,0.13063592257775888,0.2840936270876848,0.0,0.11298834948344195,0.0,0.0,0.1324610919964534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10944464669494132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121021948152854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12469656154144032,0.0,0.0,0.10634231432870524,0.11564101810703925,0.0,0.0,0.1536171214007529,0.26369409512889624,0.08477615373352695,0.0,0.0,0.07714852077797217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11426964965620225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08520053644801727
schizophrenia,evanscence,2020/02/21,"I wanna hit the blunt I took olanzipine about 15 hours ago, I was going to skip my dose today to smoke a little of thc that doesnt cause my schizophrenia badly, should I not?",2.494166666666665,4.1096889722222265,3.184444444444445,93.605,75.94444444444444,4.800000000000002,17.555555555555557,3.1291,-0.7822111111111112,137,2,29,0,3,43,31,36,0.09699999999999999,0.903,0.0,-0.4767,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,0,4,6,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,0,6,0,5,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3358000563134537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3162979187460497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3891513121975986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152914838839131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3730602626809784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3796760097075468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3590759782514853,0.0,0.4208816839236912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mrsnrub3,2020/02/21,"My experience with drug induced psychosis and later being diagnosed with Scizoaffective disorder. Where to start. This has been nearly a decade long journey where I am only now getting things back together in my life. My issues started in 2012/2013 when I was about 27 years old and I don't remember the symptoms being that severe or debilitating at all. I was doing an MBA and functioning fine for the most part but was prescribed anti-psychotics for my psychosis. Things generally were fine but I began self medicating with marijuana, cocaine, mdma and mushrooms during school. This was after it was ruled that I had a marijuana induced psychosis....yes I know very smart of me to continue doing drugs while on anti-psychotics and given that diagnosis. 

After going through a treatment of anti-psychotics my psychiatrist gave me one piece of advice. ""NEVER DO ACID"" she told me and this is where things started to take a downturn. I decided to partake because well I was younger and thought it would be a fun experience which it was. I started off with a 100mcg dose several times and eventually did 330mcg 5 times. It wasn't the acid trips themselves that caused me any issues in fact the trips were some of the most fun and interesting experiences I've ever had but that's for another thread. It was after this that the hallucinations and delusions started which I had never had before and where things took a real debilitating turn. 

The delusions took the form of me believing that people were mouthing things to me as they walked past me. I became hyper aware of anyone walking around me in public and tried to pay attention to their lips as I was in the outside world. My thoughts became so scrambled to the point where I thought people on TV were talking to me, I thought my neighbors were yelling at me from outside my house as well. I even thought my family was berating me by mouthing horrible things to me as they passed by. This made it almost impossible to carry on daily living, I began to be petrified of going outside because I thought people would be saying things to me constantly. Think of any kind of insult you can imagine or awful things to say to someone and that's what I thought was occurring. It's not so much that I cared what people were saying but I worried that I would respond to imaginary things. This made it impossible to control my emotions on the inside and took almost all of my energy not to respond to verbally. I would then uncontrollably replay all the hallucinations and delusions in my head and try to calm down and began suffering from severe insomnia which only made the symptoms worse. I never once expressed these thoughts to my doctor or family members which in hindsight was stupid but I thought I could ""power"" through the issues. I cannot even begin to describe how fucked my thought process was for several years, the associations I had, what truths I thought were real about the world etc etc etc. It was also during these several years I began to stop and start taking my medications, which exacerbated the issues, because I thought my psychiatrist was trying to harm me or didn't know what she was doing. I even changed her name in my phone book at one point to lex luthor because I began to call myself superman (probably created during one of my manic episodes though I knew I never had superpowers). Oh and I had many instances where I mouthed things while sitting alone in restaurants, at the gym or movie theater etc probably making a complete ass of myself. I actually started to grease myself up with olive oil at one point because I thought women were telling me they liked shiny men........there are so many stories I have now looking back. 

What is hard to express is the stress and level of difficulty these delusions and hallucinations cause in your relationships. When you think your mother, father, sister and brother are harassing you on a daily basis it causes problems. I ended up causing over ten or fifteen thousand dollars of damage in my parents house by dressers thrown through walls, mirrors broken, smashed tv's and broken plates etc in two separate episodes because of all the frustrations I had with everything that I thought was going on. If you are wondering, yes I was hospitalized and it was the best thing that ever happened to me.  I was put on an injection anti-psychotic medication and am slowly becoming asymptomatic which is a blessing. What is really hard though is not thinking back on all the things I've said and done and being shocked and ashamed of my behavior.",8.674891304347824,8.688356416666673,8.231410628019322,68.81986956521743,60.92028985507247,10.741642512077295,38.81062801932367,10.25414643259724,4.1347891787439615,3675,169,595,70,45,1168,350,828,0.124,0.809,0.067,-0.9945,3,1,3,0,1,0,71.0,0,6,4,3,30,28,5,3,34,2,72,19,6,12,13,116,128,56,0,7,15,5,2,1,1,4,12,5,2,2,56,35,0,2,27,4,2,13,11,13,2,7,71,13,97,15,104,46,18,104,1,2,2,2,39,45,2,13,46,465,153,4,0.0,0.0,0.0417660292046641,0.0,0.0,0.04182306701525445,0.0,0.0,0.08571481027267883,0.04432725877522738,0.0,0.034226655450537345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058210103548223,0.04487889049799813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029926327513414657,0.0,0.0,0.03810052968446306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09873026352204524,0.0,0.15654065956044194,0.047268561924509435,0.036419127215187135,0.048220254474523286,0.044915317626561764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04370296082772713,0.0,0.04363682891632392,0.17586704613536375,0.04527607794411497,0.0,0.044874344458136914,0.04625093411269515,0.04800315341055973,0.03417182902950392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043440478318707884,0.0,0.0,0.0490518070859222,0.04380698760563345,0.0,0.043798633976324775,0.0,0.0,0.09926740530411893,0.0,0.0,0.0481435513239482,0.03790755460202575,0.0,0.23866315793700124,0.08480577718756632,0.07742899426079368,0.0,0.0,0.03846533058471992,0.1255980432787179,0.08069490869469045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039567344927262105,0.02236091396595394,0.0,0.07297163624146592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03784735782608287,0.0,0.07667969072208178,0.0,0.04392452013515054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987694957444364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17868576749007442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04456897688435487,0.04704284914168602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030230473764084994,0.020909619297767083,0.0,0.03779264408944248,0.037876111926913036,0.03594070696514134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12149344848567124,0.028568924108086664,0.08678372444140849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12934764330489998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03146247504398448,0.0,0.13203810736949742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04491075850692364,0.0455799518384544,0.1160078929809365,0.06510172700412686,0.0,0.0,0.04752365586602125,0.046347566880857234,0.04085685909153936,0.11868682791881995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12137776810430295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09228995911323046,0.0409532345271662,0.0,0.043025206625031516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09743014798415782,0.027418384158065662,0.0,0.0,0.045950525931119666,0.048483363829295835,0.0,0.040712019341680256,0.10210737452201728,0.0,0.04331526602381399,0.0,0.0,0.0446490963140846,0.2417556327231669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0362637829127037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212055391839611,0.0,0.0,0.035782205142658584,0.04902655482255743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08896990430758908,0.0643596272732861,0.034400527194003175,0.0374085519319904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34120814269061056,0.08227235979363967,0.08410036362196746,0.4756910712610172,0.049913335133865214,0.0,0.0,0.040896649755704895,0.14265508596027704,0.08717392591947913,0.04655344443910587,0.04180878348470983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03531397775492809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07696358036562627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04641411103375303,0.0,0.04346485646471542,0.043616233246452855,0.12161383021537844,0.0,0.0,0.08268420871387372
schizophrenia,Rhys345,2020/02/21,"I don't have schizophrenia, but I have a stupid question Sorry, I'm posting this here because the psychosis subreddit is barely active and I figure psychosis is psychosis. Anyway, I had a really weird experience last year that went on for a few months. My doctor described it as mild psychosis. I wasn't overly delusional but I was having some hallucinations like walls breathing, voices in my head, and other weird perceptual disturbances. It was bad enough that I couldn't sleep which made it worse. I was put on risperdal and I started to get better pretty quickly. I haven't had any symptoms in over half a year. 

I read a lot of the experiences here and relate to them, and I've conversed with a few people with this disorder about our experiences and they act surprised when I tell them I'm not diagnosed. I know my family thinks I have schizoaffective because it's been brought up.

I'm just wondering; is it worth pursuing a diagnosis even when I've been symptom-free on my meds? I'm actually having a comprehensive psych eval coming up because of these symptoms I told my doc about.",5.664558823529415,7.358901044117648,6.141450980392162,75.25452941176472,67.97058823529412,8.969411764705884,31.73725490196078,9.3871,3.0382337254901963,879,37,151,18,15,284,121,204,0.134,0.759,0.107,-0.7584,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,1,0,3,1,10,8,1,1,10,0,19,7,3,1,0,22,33,11,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,12,9,0,0,5,1,1,5,5,5,0,1,12,1,24,3,19,20,5,24,0,0,0,0,8,10,0,4,9,107,36,3,0.0,0.0,0.1342918513129869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09358254446820356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1149023169369379,0.2516654728549127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12170879721297485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11854266278449622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13967576919401012,0.0,0.0,0.15771808115961305,0.14085421999725622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421925127023698,0.0,0.09089304583514768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4038400124305839,0.12973065534959052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07189786988903027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14123212666635818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07562930236098536,0.1121741432678454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0672314687131743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169948835851486,0.0,0.13021411922744938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15285863012339468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10984254044670247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09540453181209003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317966022027565,0.14000336814138026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13834053082915618,0.1541596776694417,0.0,0.13765168964149987,0.0,0.08815933998787047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13771383272658733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15404810923770135,0.09740421545358308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42910231310442026,0.0,0.0,0.12028109421816904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881777824304336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13149650356465084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275699731244696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14923699993661765,0.0,0.0,0.1402408804835846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1772383868577978
schizophrenia,HolaItsKarli,2020/02/21,"People. Suck. I am 14, and have (previously diagnosed) schizophrenia. My parents do not believe that i do, and think that i am a stupid child that sees something online and thinks i have it. My psychiatrist/doctors out-right refuse to diagnose me with anything because they think that ill be labeled like that for the rest of my life? So what? Your just not gonna give me any medicine at all for my problems? Ive heard of patients refusing treatment and medication but im the one who wants it and is being refused? Thats just wonderful. I for one think that doctors are very dumb. They have not experienced schizophrenia and think that we are the same as someone who can easily tell people what is happening to them. News flash: look at your own description of schizophrenia, DELUSIONS, HALLUCINATIONS, HEARING VOICES (etc.) Ever stop and think for once? This is how i feel 24/7, ""I can but I cant."" So im dying inside with no help, treatment, medication, diagnosis, and people who dont think. This is my all over the place rant.",3.289375,5.984057520833336,3.8873333333333338,84.29100000000003,77.95833333333334,6.756666666666668,26.7875,7.908726449838941,1.81558875,812,33,150,14,20,256,114,192,0.142,0.7909999999999999,0.067,-0.9052,1,0,1,0,0,0,36.0,1,2,3,0,6,5,3,0,5,0,20,7,0,1,3,39,38,14,1,2,7,1,1,1,0,1,7,3,0,1,17,11,0,4,9,0,0,0,6,4,0,2,1,7,22,1,15,34,6,6,0,0,2,0,19,4,2,1,3,106,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08342344395129224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10095135950617616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747817540421784,0.0,0.0,0.13821310910879644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490257936226387,0.12731764419143946,0.0,0.0,0.2511268355443479,0.0,0.0,0.14377459524202293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.136815441758503,0.0,0.11096687635281552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062028342372512126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11768137293886627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084814058677314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13826403395380066,0.0,0.08222670046488086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265020855958992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08664922685079618,0.05993297888862392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10301639647805837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2471650157786048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306452428605576,0.16625598252003285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362164572758453,0.0,0.0,0.2551429219269428,0.0,0.1281696294563104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.117383741204682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10476407765169153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0977563702216302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10394242500440007,0.0944414769385014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025620846971795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722366205076693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5502378710149011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10122001042292796,0.07235709917458658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13303618287384245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ThinkingThrowaway42,2020/02/21,"Does this seem like schizophrenia? Does it even count as hallucinations? I thought this would be a good place to ask. Ever since I was young, I've had a voice inside my head commenting on things I'm doing and being generally conversational. Playing out scenes and lines from movies and shows. Asking me things. Giving basic and usually just random instructions (those are quite rare). It's always been just one. I've never felt in control of it nor that it's part of my regular thinking process or internal monologue. It can be distracting, occasionally making me stutter, stop or get confused when talking or listening to people, but most of the time I like it more than not. It's honestly like having an imaginary friend in your head. 

Thing is: I've always known it's not real. And it's not a voice that comes from the environment or is spoken into my ear, which is what I perhaps entirely wrongly think of auditory hallucinations and schizophrenia as being like. 

What I have ultimately is a distinct personality in my head, that basically has, what feels like thoughts independent to mine, but about me, to me. If that makes any sense. 

I guess I'm just wondering if what I'm experiencing has any relation to schizophrenia / hallucinations or is something completely different?",6.447792838874682,8.369381308695651,6.924731457800513,69.51308184143225,66.34782608695652,10.107416879795398,32.65984654731458,10.328600350310266,3.708682864450129,1031,44,171,27,17,336,138,230,0.040999999999999995,0.851,0.10800000000000001,0.9451,1,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,1,0,2,7,13,0,2,7,0,20,4,4,4,3,48,40,19,0,3,15,0,2,5,1,1,0,4,0,1,24,9,0,2,9,2,0,1,5,4,0,1,6,7,16,9,21,29,3,15,0,0,0,0,10,7,0,13,12,118,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21092191400657076,0.0,0.0,0.17238019862415033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23697660268130494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1091785218725812,0.13288841522870512,0.0,0.14215389795077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13242024745563322,0.0,0.0,0.22182862740866527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08371305452129649,0.11464698219344832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06408545051642413,0.0905457635641298,0.12169388042812353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.097921910351968,0.0,0.06621838058878263,0.12158415836565475,0.0,0.10630664798693218,0.0,0.0,0.13962253483711387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3902269731797557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3096029819564278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16920488066647987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09775259700171793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08588484822680527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13725113507227485,0.0,0.08786816086732895,0.1106677577251168,0.13242024745563322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348075841446855,0.0,0.14426214039952684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11538275396580072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048437434848554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09757353438034856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10596345400058776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187182892683204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2526087561434187,0.16242456043455605,0.0,0.2012407673714433,0.0739053025154095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959033939711388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13744819526619725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09003512676542301,0.1385743990156877,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Buddahbabez,2020/02/21,"Just saying hello! And y'all are not alone! My hubby is paranoid schizoprenic and has anxiety ptsd and many concussion! I didn't know about this before him and I just want y'all too know people care they really do and your not alone!! I wouldn't change my hubby for the world! Even in his worst state I try and keep him safe and feel loved! Even when he don't have any clue who I am and why I'm with him or the 1000 questions a day!! Yes daily life is hard at times, but he loves me so much and I never felt this from anyone in my life. He's the sweetest kindest person and he's not scary like people like too think with this diease! I pray everyday there's a cure! Hugs too you all!",1.0943645320197035,2.9965650620689672,2.202389162561577,97.71974137931036,81.13793103448276,5.246305418719213,15.874384236453205,6.1826913282559595,-0.7128719211822658,534,8,125,4,14,169,94,145,0.079,0.728,0.193,0.9533,0,2,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,4,1,0,11,8,0,0,5,1,10,5,0,0,2,31,21,14,0,2,7,0,3,2,0,1,2,1,0,1,4,12,0,2,6,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,2,4,20,7,8,18,3,10,1,0,0,3,20,4,0,2,7,76,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3664981228348791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203203980457408,0.0,0.1353531378186936,0.0,0.0,0.1237155551691568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1505568145701592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18039482167615106,0.0,0.18717148357837615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141070440941968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23372494339883104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08946255981394956,0.0,0.1698832725534549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15849707090903856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15726603718999518,0.0,0.0,0.19447532263000725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499457939216856,0.17288089617006303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3193775908709772,0.0,0.0,0.17938212839686515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1300659950779958,0.0,0.13646151327271758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.245325905770781,0.15449093070542685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20682502089727686,0.0,0.19820527305808136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133477075139202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14070409541780998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11337141922258065,0.0,0.0,0.10317096148303376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12012578374419615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10435957282229348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15965436737353664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,crispybbqwingz,2020/02/21,"I'm off my fucking rocker I've lost my shit, I'm in a altered reality and completely lost my fuckin mind. Pharma has stole my soul and taken away my identity. I'm brain dead because of trusting psychiatrist and the mental health care system. I'm so far gone I will never return. I've been lobomtized, I can only eat sleep and shit. Good night",1.5177173913043482,4.03254502898551,3.5070833333333367,85.280625,84.21739130434781,5.7688405797101465,21.668478260869566,7.1686216300943375,0.9162304347826096,273,9,52,4,8,92,49,69,0.215,0.672,0.114,-0.8328,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,1,9,4,0,2,0,4,8,4,0,1,6,14,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,6,0,0,5,0,7,3,4,8,0,9,1,2,0,2,0,4,4,0,3,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19830846801354785,0.0,0.0,0.12866712720125534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356254162179348,0.0,0.0,0.2152012939999734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213042797704084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159786705248488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19513204877508336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17703662224479974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22435895979887002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4608185930987545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21271026196333254,0.0,0.21312187946869215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627912262925326,0.0,0.0,0.19807615026985206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16052926210318846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4333233860135062,0.0,0.0,0.21122376897946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,teekay2k19,2020/02/21,"Recent diagnosis Hey people, just thought I'd post this here because I don't know where else to post it.
My name is Tim and I recently have been diagnosed with possible schizophrenia.
It started a few weeks ago, I was telling my partner and her sister about a movie where there was another dimension, where if they tried deceased members could communicate via a tap or sound in our dimension, after telling the story I went to the toilet and my ears were buzzing I got the biggest chill of my life.. I looked at the clock and it was 6:16, I googled it and found the name Yahweh, since then my life spun out of control I've been trying to follow our father God, I've totally lost my reality to constant phrases of Yahweh in my mind.. I feel in danger most of the time and am by no means suicidal.. I just wanted to let you guys know that I'm trying to do right not wrong whatever that may be.. Any advice would be awesome I'm currently on olanzipine which has settled the delusions but still feel uneasy, my bills are swamping me, I'm not able to bare the thought of work.. Help me out this can't be hallucination I just want to be me.. 😔 please help.. I have faith in a world of peace and safety for everyone..",2.9672857142857154,4.933717966666666,3.9613095238095255,87.01750000000004,75.58333333333334,7.071428571428572,26.42857142857143,7.957251820313856,1.5611071428571424,952,36,193,15,21,307,149,240,0.038,0.853,0.109,0.9515,1,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,2,1,1,3,10,4,1,0,12,0,23,4,1,1,1,37,42,11,1,5,8,2,2,0,1,2,3,2,0,2,9,10,0,1,8,0,1,2,5,3,0,0,12,5,27,1,27,22,3,30,1,1,1,0,16,14,0,4,12,124,36,1,0.13628914854187724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13318017860379328,0.12081210696570527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926812945625202,0.1429110555159296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0830805999609863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14728015196672062,0.1528598689912397,0.1088157951617392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13833061690596646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11385209536516976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1302301219749132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13782377706698834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14943401677180065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10900288233960012,0.0,0.0,0.13494768440586846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827034868313343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14980190353892273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13936488825639262,0.19253011232818748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144485594760009,0.0,0.14877570526595468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14845883729509393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13761318835833306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09448573519477188,0.0,0.0,0.14960455823579594,0.0,0.15364553716010576,0.2610546610055741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691381842794265,0.0,0.0,0.1163901881835071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127397920470413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09646616081433856,0.0,0.1088406900774134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1490782078808949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382454460259744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163967205932586,0.07947129852306835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2775941568157957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16077374188015567,0.0,0.10932293412558286,0.0,0.0,0.12634140612087075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09922012333441163,0.0,0.0,0.09681590079744748,0.14901078890157202,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,cryingintocereal,2020/02/22,"Seeing professionals again, but I feel weird and confused and frustrated now??? And they don’t get it. Hey. Sorry if this isn’t appropriate here, I hope this is fine. A few years ago I was on antipsychotics and my psychiatrist then thought I might be on the schizophrenia spectrum. I didn’t like it so I left and stopped taking meds, etc. and didn’t get professional help for 2+ years. I graduated college last year and got a job and things have been so so so much weirder and stranger and the like than they were before this, even with before I was on pills before, years ago. Past 6+ months I’ve known and had more and more connection to extradimensional beings and I can understand the nature of reality and my thoughts are so confusing and strange but! I know it’s important, I just can’t talk to anyone about it. Cause it seems strange.

I got approved for getting into a psychosis clinic near me and I had my first appointment there yesterday, and I officially do have psychosis now but no diagnosis or anything because it’s too early and they don’t know me yet. She said that I seem intelligent and high functioning because I can talk well and tell her what’s going on with me (the psychiatrist), but that I have classic psychotic symptoms and delusions/ thought disorder stuff. She and the other psych there really tried to convince me that I should try a new medication but I refused because I hate the side effects and it takes away the insight I have now. I told them I know something really important is happening and I understand more and more, and that I don’t want to get rid of it, but they just kept talking about “these thoughts” like I’m struggling with not understanding something, like I was a child, but I know for a fact that  no matter how strange it seems I DO understand something important going on and i didn’t say anything but it made me angry that they don’t see that. The otherworldly beings and things communicating with me and watching my thoughts and telling me things aren’t just some distortion of logic or something. I know I haven’t been acting normal but it’s like as soon as I didn’t want to do what they (the psychs) wanted they lost the respect they had for my intelligence they thought I had a few minutes before. The meds didn’t make me more function before, they just made me feel wrong. And like, I’m just upset because I want to understand the metaphysical things happening with me more, and there’s something really vast and important to understand there, and they just don’t care or see that at all. I agree with them that a lot of it is very frightening, but I need to understand more! It hurts me so much they don’t understand how important it is. They just think it’s my thoughts, and that it might “get worse” if I don’t shut it out. It’s too late to shut it out, I know it’s there already!

They’re going to get me a CBT I can talk to weekly, and I want that, I need to tell somebody these things, and they also gave me their card so I can get medication if I want from them if I change my mind, but this is all so absurd. And disheartening. I don’t know what I expected, but people just don’t understand. I feel like I live a double life, and it’s so hard for me to pretend like the things they’re worried about are important to me. There’s cosmic problems and epiphanies to be had, that I know I HAVE to have, and it’s terrifying but it feels like my mind’s eye is finally opening to the truth and that’s so powerful. I don’t like that they don’t see that. Idk.",4.005744294956823,5.49408595839312,4.741737364987415,84.48994883733523,71.76901004304159,8.359373054329877,27.92856176064535,8.895488261720299,2.056075899407163,2791,103,572,54,53,898,247,697,0.133,0.727,0.14,-0.6405,3,0,5,0,0,0,66.0,0,0,19,5,41,29,2,4,24,0,59,7,1,7,4,152,132,78,0,17,29,0,5,10,0,3,6,2,0,1,55,52,0,3,36,1,0,4,23,12,1,1,32,13,96,17,50,93,17,46,0,3,6,0,37,18,0,17,34,406,151,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09082923403048228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056536458428666975,0.04097069921012226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03582303169492036,0.0,0.08432014443449197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04813472298543447,0.0,0.0,0.1249236926128838,0.0,0.21797588560543735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052235059735765234,0.05263000250344035,0.054197307520833515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05871700893283486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0571379021856561,0.03383865530822585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10361898667768528,0.07320117275346197,0.0,0.05612281934394022,0.0,0.04357843136512718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18736846696591167,0.0,0.08735001769717525,0.0,0.08195079581577981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09060965455016222,0.0,0.045894354893070526,0.0505815950413482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03434013812932495,0.05413006467378508,0.0,0.05088554105389242,0.0,0.0,0.0548455679576717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05084045948680863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22524881812732506,0.04176141456872982,0.05779261491429349,0.0,0.055664379994288346,0.0,0.036187107132267984,0.2502966508325701,0.0,0.04523933270609541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05592644516781508,0.04355613239811749,0.0,0.09695506749313952,0.034198164587853484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11381575890887267,0.10322292800985212,0.0,0.10869940465684023,0.10346066139404413,0.0,0.04089338001828202,0.0,0.07532372558551169,0.07597666137618317,0.0,0.0494807733883124,0.0,0.0,0.0501970794779494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04890732274232562,0.03551824055590839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04902268806015569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846276436134108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04873394366841282,0.040742227304120984,0.0,0.0,0.16330302626534188,0.13992073024772805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972068284918439,0.0,0.057350711723676825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042832755484782215,0.0,0.05355944711444854,0.05864908044393356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05325029775999287,0.07704109255139005,0.16471532304661782,0.13433867629632107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20422001504681067,0.03282778740761876,0.0,0.28471078375947473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048954953786359515,0.0,0.06956715754234152,0.0,0.0,0.4800145786018992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04227226825013639,0.18130992241532126,0.0,0.041095708940041484,0.0,0.0460642686202727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05202920171386585,0.0522104058809199,0.0,0.0560148157255866,0.0,0.1319684828505948
schizophrenia,lesbianinabox,2020/02/22,"Has Anyone tried Residential Treatment/online support groups I was recently hospitalized but while I was there all they did was knock me out with haldol and Benadryl injections. I am still really unbalanced and unstable. I’m completely dependent on Haldol but I’m starting to experience EPS from it and I’m at a low level of functioning even with it. Out of desperation I’ve started looking into residential treatment to try and regain some stability. Has anyone tried it before and had success? I’m doing weekly ECT and I can’t do that the rest of my life. All of this is complicated with a severe anorexia relapse.  

Also, does anyone have a recommendation for good online support groups for people on the schizoaffective/schizophrenic spectrum?

Thank you!!!",5.276390977443609,8.494577203007523,6.391691729323312,66.1579135338346,73.96240601503759,9.213533834586466,31.304511278195488,9.606745405546679,4.02121954887218,620,29,87,18,14,206,89,133,0.09699999999999999,0.77,0.133,0.7261,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,1,1,1,4,6,0,0,5,0,13,1,0,1,2,18,23,10,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,12,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,1,8,5,18,18,4,14,0,1,1,0,4,8,0,2,6,66,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15248524006142006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3999797679590167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16225305345012964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999224025025336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16686372570195288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12594111346666145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18651980966781112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15993177758167548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13468160965212247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16012161449653672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13219221400031347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12215329939207485,0.0,0.188271660153682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154120243812128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699259385106272,0.0,0.1522758093059887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4327585883844862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755508133490199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3883738228568148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529505027746333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Ev_Amanda_BB,2020/02/22,"Family History and Schizophrenia So I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia about a little over a year ago. However, it does not run in my family at all that we know of. As far as I know (unless someone was hiding it very well) , I am the first one with this illness or anything like it. Can this happen?? It made me really think about it when I was in class the other day and this topic came up. The instructor said that it is genetic and I guess has to be in your family to actually have it??? It’s making me really question my diagnosis even though my Psychiatrist made the diagnosis..",4.639225663716812,5.832061628318584,6.417865044247787,74.20785951327436,69.88495575221239,10.605752212389381,27.39933628318584,10.686352973137794,3.1170539823008863,456,15,86,14,8,158,75,113,0.057,0.9209999999999999,0.023,-0.5838,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,1,0,1,7,2,0,0,6,0,9,2,0,3,1,19,19,10,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,14,7,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,7,1,12,2,16,11,1,15,0,0,0,0,4,8,0,3,6,70,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.17298106833677876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15713109265649974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458706172012761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2027392469086284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11431861615688647,0.0,0.0,0.17991608232155373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551222082458191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11707915274995655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5013174024855913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15077803109868093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952728660662114,0.0,0.1567512285737964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19483590987926688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08660072201068042,0.1776619900418296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3354570993887044,0.1183230272916946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12011657347773527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985727762108425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22711574329889914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16861570836341344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501925854486544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1135816273232758,0.17415793437714347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14625880687232135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15937883739715009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11415020795824055
schizophrenia,perth1985,2020/02/22,"homeopathy  

Hello Folks

I am just curious if any of the members have had success in using homeopathy for psychiatric illness.

I have heard of many cases in India where patients were able to stop their medication or reduce it substantially using [homeopathy.](https://homeopathy.one/)

One of the successful psychiatrist is Dr.Mahesh Gandhi,who left allopathy and became homeopath as he felt the medications were drugging his patients.

It would be great to know about the experiences in the west.",9.597637130801687,12.467743215189873,8.514620253164562,57.46830168776373,59.886075949367104,11.342616033755275,37.21729957805907,11.20814326018867,5.274061603375527,410,19,51,12,6,127,63,79,0.055999999999999994,0.7859999999999999,0.158,0.875,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,2,3,3,0,0,5,0,9,4,0,2,0,10,14,4,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,4,3,11,7,0,7,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,2,1,37,6,2,0.24169894802611336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16436357286784556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802940453728774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364279495614649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23206889356161234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2664739434710333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13283142086158714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626066142319496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24504479714851696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4869725242346534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16378146240043467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20207114311230603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4175005761861923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17169599799615334,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,FrannyCaulfield,2020/02/22,"Have you ever had paranoid delusions about your pdoc/therapist? How do you overcome them? I have gotten increasingly paranoid over the last few months that my pdoc (who is also my therapist) has been sending doppelgängers to spy on me. It started one time when I think I really did see him in the parking garage, but he didn’t acknowledge it. Things have really intensified with this delusion in the last week, no surprise I guess as my antipsychotics and med routine got rocky last week. I literally can’t go outside for fear of being watched. I have barely left the house in days. I’ve left stores and broken down crying in Target this week thinking I’m seeing or hearing doubles intending to psychologically manipulate and monitor me. Now it’s escalated, and I’m convinced he is planting GPS and data in my brain via the meds and controlling from afar. I’m scared to take my meds. I’m scared to leave the house. I’m scared of my pdoc (who is excellent btw, and I really don’t want to lose this relationship). I have an appointment Tuesday.

Anyway can anyone please help...I know people sometimes get paranoid or mistrusting about meds. How do you navigate this when your delusion has broken down trust of the person who treats you?

I feel like I have just enough insight left to recognize this as a delusion... but it’s just enough.",5.015843373493972,7.065923385542168,5.4253393574297215,78.3404186746988,70.16465863453816,8.674779116465862,29.719076305220884,9.255337874911486,2.7517404016064253,1069,43,189,23,20,341,142,249,0.155,0.757,0.08800000000000001,-0.9533,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,6,1,3,12,11,0,4,9,0,21,1,1,5,1,28,41,18,0,1,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,14,8,0,1,6,0,1,3,4,5,0,1,6,5,26,6,25,34,5,30,0,1,3,0,17,12,0,3,16,122,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08116351560713687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07096591584034502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113299195620418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11383246886802033,0.0,0.0,0.11148474556419384,0.06545426625542176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20973776637630925,0.0,0.0,0.091805776833976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420727913028983,0.05131765752445477,0.07250626230182178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0530256423181148,0.0,0.057680526663608025,0.0,0.08117282379169193,0.0,0.11180543115056917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11438942378597318,0.0,0.06802828340118007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342174367854206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055777623759254505,0.2481898006481521,0.0,0.10746590317345826,0.33081569474253586,0.0,0.0,0.049584108931302696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354414675940885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4509411507556671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08101034523038855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06877394466804003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703621204244737,0.08861933627947864,0.0,0.11140828740907888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950560831529362,0.0,0.0,0.10896496252624728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3048350941246092,0.0,0.16175276449401127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10037867768787798,0.0,0.07183691390148286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07630972912637976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356812301411689,0.06742710725020795,0.13006459186558195,0.0,0.0,0.05918109294956135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05986290609871185,0.0,0.2442334847766532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,pieRRe90210,2020/02/22,"Tactile hallucinations I've recently been getting almost invisible sensations at random such as feeling like I've just been punched, feeling like my throat is filling up, my limbs or body shaking seemingly on there own.
Are these normal symptoms ? They feel much more stressful then visual hallucinations at times",11.081764705882357,12.43447874509804,9.549803921568627,56.87411764705882,55.66666666666667,11.505882352941176,46.41176470588235,11.20814326018867,5.9426941176470605,260,15,33,6,3,80,43,51,0.094,0.764,0.142,0.1796,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,2,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,9,9,3,0,1,2,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,3,3,2,5,7,3,9,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,4,5,21,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2691349759334892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29854359526496393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4076955394890003,0.38401960327704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14042156828984026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626155208688226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19757734834466031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633381655197116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26537858602718684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24467869980232002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3078758643995189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2793556093568131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15672232380003095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,homofuckspace,2020/02/22,"Community feedback and Q&A Hi everyone, I hope you are well. I am a (new!) moderator here, in case you haven't seen me comment yet.

I thought to make this thread to give you an opportunity to offer feedback to the moderators, as well as to answer questions you have - about anything that's on your mind.

I have mostly been working on the back end, but I am planning on updating much of the information that's forward-facing on the subreddit. Do you feel like we are missing anything valuable? Do you think that an automated response with hotlines to posts that mention suicide, and other similar keywords, would be helpful, or would it be distracting and isolating? Do you think we're missing any rules?

Let me know what you're thinking, about these questions or any others. And I will try my best to answer any questions you have.",5.908636363636365,7.476084538961043,6.267402597402601,75.06396103896105,67.24675324675324,8.716883116883116,36.72727272727273,9.095868883498916,3.5219038961038973,665,35,113,12,11,214,96,154,0.087,0.7659999999999999,0.147,0.8415,0,0,0,0,0,1,24.0,1,9,0,4,7,10,0,1,7,0,18,0,0,1,0,27,30,9,1,3,3,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,10,6,0,0,12,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,3,2,19,7,18,21,3,11,0,2,1,0,20,5,0,7,6,87,29,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16512080758207262,0.0,0.3109031509577037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508175502181317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11718297894782008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15993001128856935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13497746327499632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14562073703841755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07705590570582266,0.10887160444430637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14619195725158593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10214770595466703,0.0,0.0,0.15136343556167628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08375275732022285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15583505134919548,0.0,0.07445289996911826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10172539339689704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15387633529827532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11202846277936808,0.0,0.0,0.1471848328461632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14595306971404404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5121545883413982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16669629252258714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2929472644484392,0.0,0.12098525850861555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10346675843258743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27404428883308674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094597217518533,0.0,0.0,0.2165152365268989,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,IDreadTheOrangeRed,2020/02/22,"What's the best? So my doc started me out on olanzapin or something a few years back and it had a way strong sedative side affect on me to where I was a zombie and didn't even remember the last day or even the current one. I've since switched over to risperidone for the last year and a half now and it's much more manageable but it still knocks me out and makes me feel drained and out of it. I can go to work and everything but I have issues with it fairly often with sleeping in and so forth. Might also be the benedryl I have to take with it to stop me from twitching, but I was curious if anyone had had any luck with other meds as to helping with thinking more clearly and stopping or at least dimming out hallucinations. I'm going to the Dr next week to discuss other medicine and figured I'd ask to see what others have had success with in their lives.

Tldr:looking for opinions on meds ya'll have taken personally, in the search of something less sedative than my current meds. Thanks in advance!",5.070470723306546,5.717235855721397,5.234029850746271,85.07586681974743,68.55223880597015,7.577650210486031,31.38193647148871,7.321109707123232,1.8459403750478385,801,32,160,7,13,252,120,201,0.04,0.828,0.132,0.9654,2,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,5,10,5,0,0,11,0,14,3,1,2,1,40,26,21,0,1,7,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,11,20,0,2,4,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,8,2,13,5,35,16,7,34,0,0,1,0,5,15,0,8,15,120,24,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11905559876872815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012403730527891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040971369875028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391783966588184,0.0,0.0,0.1144759884314753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1562355410871432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09601231295508064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1966615872766994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13379960455730142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07527587239512401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16921863445322707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09978803841789287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1553872322605696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427066324355453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13145970039708832,0.0,0.1250178357067349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09937548150978363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4961010034287601,0.0,0.0,0.15793326641624789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10944054438859674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15833067043911225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008818198779564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12999225162091013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686467998417383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11863441402997965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12315126432590867,0.0,0.14898290999670585,0.0,0.0,0.2292231033399373,0.0,0.0,0.10537477010774736,0.0,0.11889208193274832,0.2489329911116278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11193576849228702,0.0,0.0,0.1370644607254203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09539334112953017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11817035815232545,0.11941886101551386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10838305990583083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19174174528728166
schizophrenia,droogMaster64,2020/02/22,"Everything's falling apart I don't exist everything is wrong I'm not in control anymore I want to escape. I don't want to exist, I want it to end I know they monitor this so we don't want it to run anymore just turn it off. Turn. It. Off.",-2.5803430531732405,-1.4175520188679211,0.98343053173242,96.59360205831908,116.35849056603772,4.191423670668954,18.02572898799314,6.1124844417494595,0.08588301886792449,185,7,43,3,11,66,30,53,0.099,0.7559999999999999,0.145,-0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,1,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,9,12,1,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,4,1,0,0,0,0,7,0,7,12,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,26,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4327892045248275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447285356482052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19325939378218795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3922060680768456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11991636762587847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4746753276611298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5147972804198583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385661613104971,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,smellslikesuffering,2020/02/22,"I wrote and wrote. This happened a few days ago, but I needed to process what happened.
I was in class taking notes, and suddenly I couldn't understand the teacher. It sounded like she was speaking gibberish. Then I heard a loud flatline and thought I was going to pass out. But I kept writing what I thought were my class notes. Turns out I was writing ""hey, yes, stop, and hello"" repeatedly. Along with other nonsense and scribbles. Then before I knew it, class was over. And I had a whole page of nonsense written down. I didn't know I wrote all that until I got home and started to study. 
It was weird. I hope the girl next to me didn't see. This isn't the first time too. Two weeks ago I drew scribbles all over my notes until class ended.",1.7153826530612264,4.1382249047619055,2.3618324829932007,94.49336096938777,82.26530612244899,4.76343537414966,23.473214285714285,5.985473137389443,0.3711500000000001,579,21,120,4,16,179,86,147,0.086,0.838,0.076,-0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,6,1,12,0,0,0,2,30,33,13,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,1,1,9,11,0,2,5,0,0,2,4,1,0,2,20,5,20,2,15,12,5,24,0,0,1,0,11,6,0,1,17,80,29,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3584078499631866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17202450144509165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303774088719851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17905503728537278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17195842348622956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11489300910389075,0.0,0.1616869769112474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575413997472667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202784414509763,0.2007919317828712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111102644255304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876587140191208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14990015132176654,0.0,0.0,0.2150009922839102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16109649927412306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14309091265780427,0.0,0.0,0.1690160218256127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15200024879044968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32098721442268435,0.1178819654454042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21989360214127826,0.19748235844553125,0.2104571958626776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16216171853844008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257060358982177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,MapesPack,2020/02/22,"My first post here, just some things I’ve thought through my life... Let me lay out my KNOWN disorders for reference before I get into this. 
PTSD, anxiety (social, General, lots. High anxiety), major depression disorder, ADHD. 

Since I was in 3/4th grade I was 100% sure every night I crawled into bed that the snipers in the trees would watch me. 
The rare times I got out of bed I tried to army crawl through most the house as to not be seen. 

I’ve always thought that I was trained, like Lara Croft or resident evil shit. 
That because I left my dads at 13 something was turned off. 
If someone says the code word I’ll go back to the trained version. 
I am a trained spy/operative/assassin that has been “wiped”? Until something happens which I’m needed. 

I’ve always thought this and worry about being followed home because people who may know who I am even though I don’t.",3.718392857142857,5.637983577380954,3.910238095238096,88.40142857142858,73.34523809523809,7.180952380952381,28.66666666666667,7.957251820313856,1.7977095238095244,683,28,136,10,14,211,118,168,0.11599999999999999,0.855,0.028999999999999998,-0.9349,1,0,2,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,0,1,6,5,2,0,7,0,14,2,1,0,1,24,27,6,0,3,4,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,3,0,10,5,0,0,6,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,10,3,17,2,18,12,5,18,0,1,2,0,5,10,1,6,6,79,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17192863078424064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23807242257832326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188788673305984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11000322913412423,0.0,0.17441438347411306,0.0,0.12173232764711032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12321615831399388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279150879473181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09448885283060464,0.0,0.12053303641897155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12168556789096582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07474221140195886,0.0,0.08130349636886755,0.0,0.11441702713443515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12650624316831174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511492601607328,0.14349943514708702,0.0,0.0,0.16507041130419656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07862126254883507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15543358213494352,0.14628710598257466,0.10104651644815804,0.06989120338585918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12162330171067995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607613556070776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13425080042474494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09917881706940676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370105890355629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1672278420699129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376593675678087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14684759203927306,0.11833954817441228,0.0,0.0,0.14583022188729527,0.1212130833660409,0.2202669914017112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13483103283112802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09504177382865824,0.0,0.14055434331497688,0.34071763407296635,0.08341861723613632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09712739544446207,0.15560667113405072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452829475301354,0.0,0.1016247213910781,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,kasheem-von-dillpick,2020/02/23,"Catatonic schizophrenia Hello, I am looking for some info on this and would highly appreciate any stories, or insight into what this is like to deal with and also what happens during the episode",9.096176470588237,9.955718029411765,8.392941176470586,65.16823529411766,59.88235294117647,9.15294117647059,40.52941176470589,8.841846274778883,4.13769411764706,159,8,21,2,2,50,31,34,0.0,0.8490000000000001,0.151,0.6697,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,9,5,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,5,4,1,3,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,2,1,19,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3406337233760504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896620199772594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4391378895589054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.376668016390772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45004175744851294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2080986699406616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3576924672641784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025841354858177,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,kungufu,2020/02/23,"Schizophrenia and Guilt I’m 20 years old and currently live with my 2 best friends and a roommate. At 17 due to family problems I was kicked out and had trouble finding stable placement and at this point I was having delusions of reference, thinking that tv shows and music were trying to convey a secret to me. I had trouble stabilizing myself but a couple friends stayed patient with me and we ended up moving in together a year later. At this point I was still working and still thinking somewhat lucid, 5 months into our lease is when auditory hallucinations starting appearing and it started as metal scraping and water running turning into whispers to full on conversations and telling me to run, don’t look there, they hear you, he’s coming etc etc. I completely shut down and got fired for calling out so often due to the fear of being out in public or having to speak to anyone. My friends have been kind enough to help me out financially and pay my rent since I don’t have any other support, but we are 20 and I feel terrible for stunting the years they were supposed to be setting themselves up. I can’t shake my suicidal thoughts and it feels like here or not I am just disappointing them and making it hard for them even with their reassurance. I am waiting for my insurance to go through so I can start medications but I know they do not know how to deal with my schizophrenia because I don’t know how. I want nothing more for them to be ok I owe my life to them, but I can’t stop thinking that I am just added on problems for them. I just got a job again so I will be able to help out but I am scared for another episode, I want them to let go so that if I go, the blow will be softer and their lives go undisrupted and that’s been expressed to them but they have unconditional love that I want nothing more to honor. I just feel so disconnected, almost catatonic. If anyone has any advice as to how they manage their suicidal thoughts and delusions it would be a great help, thank you",6.681836782143687,6.5350579846547365,6.823205068588703,77.79875087189029,65.06138107416879,9.462032085561498,34.141013717740066,8.97023862654752,2.8153979539641947,1596,64,304,23,22,513,199,391,0.121,0.7290000000000001,0.151,0.9184,4,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,3,2,15,3,20,23,0,4,9,1,38,5,0,4,0,79,73,40,2,8,16,0,5,1,3,3,3,3,1,0,12,33,1,2,14,2,3,10,7,10,0,0,13,9,56,13,52,50,8,51,0,1,1,1,38,21,0,8,19,226,68,4,0.09600986789322416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09381973172880503,0.0,0.0,0.09614001409838052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13058000497209638,0.10067471774063977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13426466394312278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058526724336333776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10075643301580704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09803680966573633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08270399989532473,0.10066451982186797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10623309268697972,0.0,0.0,0.09898195801876199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08503624571483254,0.09920385858913562,0.2141527635267106,0.06341361225284498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905095587903074,0.10803779371201466,0.14563642194170165,0.06858946880659801,0.0,0.0,0.08775127988899507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22253095731459074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182584818879725,0.0,0.15357572404511716,0.10585121829688827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08600598337239958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1082100989003207,0.0,0.1930601719430135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0952749793183785,0.0,0.0,0.09997950301426617,0.15829353755746234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09817659478838722,0.06781460904210251,0.046905571806879535,0.0,0.1695569446640752,0.0,0.0806241083271889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08665265424914509,0.0,0.06408733234756946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0967198411520343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07663416056480217,0.10204329529900312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18424811528800975,0.0,0.10074620575578297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18152071658180588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18373695431586431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612262681799147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07942035485987417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038688359647064,0.1023337446547712,0.15334720904106214,0.08026854859603777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21003842488612226,0.1089508603168213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08391685634490426,0.08839298702352033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845577399122756,0.0,0.1524422214018149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06518439804625202,0.10443116634023288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698873228399778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06989632729827497,0.0,0.0,0.06820265549366379,0.0,0.0,0.18548162134820811
schizophrenia,keefcafe,2020/02/23,"Medication I’ve been reading a lot and I want to suggest no more posts about medication at all, I do not see why in any context anyone should discuss medication and receive advice from anyone besides there doctor let alone from a stranger on the internet in a subreddit full of people talking about there delusions. 

Might just be me but this seems like a big red flag y’all.",7.545422535211268,7.625192239436622,7.453626760563381,73.23846830985919,63.225352112676056,9.916901408450704,37.46830985915493,9.516144504307137,3.571954929577465,303,14,53,5,4,97,57,71,0.047,0.887,0.066,0.3182,0,1,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,5,1,0,0,5,0,6,4,0,0,1,11,9,3,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,10,4,4,8,0,0,2,0,5,6,0,3,1,38,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2018806991249272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21396847793516668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14049061007605507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28890984577702616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21145711961192706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2112557692114895,0.0,0.1009311096369293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17563833794067485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6243634081410292,0.0,0.2191629710664281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14322586497800352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978593887849205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2066493272397057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16462820810030573,0.18807489057666826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16605196547776854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12185415184137605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864184281129776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,paranoidashell1234,2020/02/23,"Feeling overwhelmed Hi all, this is a throwaway account since I’m not sure if anyone irl knows my main account. 

I want to preface saying that I know you guys can’t diagnose and I’m not looking for that. Yesterday I just came to a realization that a lot of things I think/do aren’t normal or healthy. I’m not sure if I’m experiencing delusions or what’s going on and i haven’t stopped feeling incredible anxiety and fear since I realized this. 

As some background, I’ve been diagnosed/suffered with extreme anxiety for as long as I can remember. And I always just chalked up my behavior to anxiety. I grew up around a lot of substance abuse and distance from my parents. I can’t remember most of my childhood before age 12? When I was in highschool I experimented with a ton of drugs. Marijuana, LSD, mushrooms, DXM, ecstasy, pills, etc. I actually remember I stopped smoking weed because of a specific time I told a joke, no one laughed and I felt like they were all staring into my soul and silently judging me. It felt like an eternity. 

Back to now, every single time I’m in public I will decide someone is acting suspiciously, they have a gun and are going to shoot up the place. It’s so extreme it’s all I can think about and I go into a state of complete panic. I’ve left stores or other places without what I came for because I can’t handle it. I’m convinced it’s going to happen and nothing can convince me otherwise. It’s so bad I avoid going out as much as I possibly can. I moved to a new city around 3 years ago and haven’t made a single friend. I have extreme anxiety and am convinced they’re going to talk shit about me. If I’m not convinced about the shooting, then it’s that someone is following me or going to kidnap or murder me. If I hear any noise outside my house I panic and grab a knife. 

I recently realized that for a while now I’ll freak out if I leave a drink of mine in an unlocked car because someone might put drugs in it while I’m not around. I freak out when I’m in hotels because I’m worried there’s a hidden camera somewhere. I’ve had more paranoid thoughts like this but honestly I’m having a hard time recalling many of them because they seemed so normal at the time or they weren’t persistent enough to cause me any change in lifestyle. 

I’m afraid to talk to my therapist about this because I believe she likes my husband more(we do couples therapy sometimes)and she won’t believe me or think I’m making it up. I’m also afraid to go to a new therapist because I’m worried they won’t believe me or chalk it up to anxiety. I can’t live like this anymore. I have an incredible amount of intrusive thoughts, most of which about me or my son being assaulted or killed.  I’m in constant fear and I feel like it’s just a matter of time until I hear voices and I don’t want to get to that point. 

I don’t know what to do.",3.2307079248671684,4.758727726333909,4.751015864701042,83.49634793833721,73.80206540447504,7.599506098929881,30.186372820474443,8.252601668568683,2.2133835665643944,2263,102,450,37,46,759,250,581,0.126,0.795,0.079,-0.9666,3,1,3,3,1,0,47.0,0,1,6,1,21,31,4,8,24,0,34,6,1,3,5,93,84,46,2,9,25,3,7,6,1,4,4,4,0,1,28,27,1,3,19,3,3,16,19,15,0,1,13,14,65,16,70,66,17,70,1,1,2,0,22,26,1,22,33,291,93,3,0.0,0.0770078497987875,0.06342525254158746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057613699173547736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05197607498109517,0.05408062728475463,0.0,0.0,0.0883969720924705,0.0,0.2486030577674545,0.0,0.06445707550452846,0.04544566281078543,0.0,0.0,0.17357664325931133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04997675556449521,0.054267689350366716,0.2773402905942381,0.0,0.05530552903768726,0.21967962068019975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14867277741904214,0.0,0.06676725096500688,0.06875555882093304,0.0,0.06814549249938467,0.07023596047417466,0.0,0.0,0.07191517362519992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06596804533153272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0636698624313538,0.1507459619804788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06715668850711964,0.07248604357551264,0.0,0.0,0.05476066608201662,0.0,0.0,0.06357708856836794,0.0,0.14627375512405333,0.0985895101534026,0.04643208093941981,0.12480981734432435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050214586395143035,0.0,0.033956941618787165,0.0,0.2955029590712435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06435476947466524,0.05747441817818452,0.0,0.05822230220913301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14650704132932388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07499492207289553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07190678010454768,0.0,0.10715782577030472,0.0,0.0,0.06881978681519338,0.07061671009130603,0.0,0.0,0.19051816652389286,0.0,0.057391330735351374,0.057518083715500115,0.05457900737024621,0.0,0.0,0.11051199257306048,0.0,0.06149936363028358,0.043384330780348486,0.06589421766938279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06894888927656495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.069078863404066,0.04777843293336742,0.0,0.0,0.12554417851468389,0.0,0.0,0.12736161291254205,0.06236397183736074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04404195257034205,0.0,0.0,0.15251407445356946,0.07216869624429824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13581082992410135,0.0,0.06144080681156348,0.07327152865410509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06533742009503421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06417422382009863,0.0,0.22087828219461356,0.0,0.0,0.05168623191894742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05916854814923235,0.0,0.0,0.06671591616309043,0.10752823747590784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16520887667444473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10867661785835127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12251308663118834,0.0,0.0,0.10448022789773584,0.0,0.0,0.0743268705193094,0.15092723864683105,0.04317945515271628,0.12493754605049265,0.0,0.10319673976004216,0.18949406649033104,0.0,0.0,0.06210502621998765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07667087539759826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06265237482417693,0.0,0.0,0.13201013122169494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041854324505214
schizophrenia,luna721,2020/02/23,"WDYT: Psychoactive drugs jumpstart mental illness? Working in an ER, I’ve noticed an interesting trend that sometimes schizophrenia/psychosis patients history is jumpstarted shortly after use of psychoactive drugs such as ecstasy, acid, etc. 

I am wondering if it’s possible that these types of drugs could jumpstart a psychosis-type mental illness when otherwise the patient may have gone without symptoms for longer or never experienced them in the first place?

I know that psychoactive drugs can absolutely change a person’s personality.... I had a friend in college who COMPLETELY changed after using molly ONE time. 

Just an interesting thought and wondering what other people’s opinions are on this?? 

Is it possible that more people have underlying schizophrenic or psychotic tendencies but they never come to the surface because their conscious mind keeps them at bay?",9.257422077922076,12.239711664285714,8.000779220779222,60.36967532467534,60.92857142857143,11.090909090909092,43.441558441558435,11.022393298168332,6.1070714285714285,723,43,87,21,11,221,103,140,0.027000000000000003,0.904,0.068,0.6715,0,0,4,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,4,2,3,3,0,0,9,0,10,8,0,2,2,22,19,7,0,2,6,0,0,0,1,1,8,0,0,2,11,2,0,1,5,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,3,2,7,3,14,14,2,18,0,0,0,0,8,9,0,7,7,65,18,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07558665913692916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2623421273600153,0.10681136045517033,0.13000718617417195,0.0,0.0,0.09900051782806894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5751828220884224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13828803955354646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547072275634012,0.0,0.0,0.09579880990942063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1102131210618589,0.0,0.0,0.06814482217374969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24991710650072646,0.0,0.12520036164967369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912663350757754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411699847520068,0.0,0.0,0.08402273015105452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17192608293207098,0.21653661468211355,0.1295491690119554,0.0,0.0,0.2795731578896852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12263496864980115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12887906277946354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984387761132735,0.07230291976048697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141850349646721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11952747950415532,0.2689362060721832,0.09027038376617436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,B0cstar,2020/02/23,"How can you tell when your schizophrenia has become severe? Recently I’ve been put on Ziprasidone, the result so far is restlessness and strange paranoia. I work for Amazon and my latest delusion is that Jeff Bezos plans to secretly fund me 10 billion dollars instead of climate change (ridiculous I know). I’m just wondering if I will get better at this point?",5.145435897435898,7.882162338461541,4.79192307692308,80.0022435897436,71.76923076923076,6.7948717948717965,32.371794871794876,7.793537801064563,2.6567948717948724,292,14,45,4,6,89,59,65,0.136,0.7959999999999999,0.068,-0.5609,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,3,5,3,1,1,1,0,6,0,0,2,0,9,10,6,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,7,1,5,8,0,8,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,2,3,30,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3437678200390568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752886637943323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32927717664912554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16262315448549924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17106314471435502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942461052588597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3129073719619104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3073367098675612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3516409362152113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27205939476255064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3375536957228809,0.2266046814568091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,PsychosisMachine,2020/02/23,"Switching activity rapidly (Akithisia onset early phases?) I been trying out some new meds but everytime I get like a week deep I start experiencing a restlessness that has me quit whatever activity I'm doing like quickly.

If I'm gaming, I'll be a single round of fortnite and then change games then quit that game and go do a different activity. 5 minutes of that and my skin is crawling with the need to do something else.

NOTHING satisfies the need. So I just end up being a jittery like attention defecit mess.

Anybody experience this across a multitude of meds and end up finding a solution?

It's weird because last time I was on risperidone, I was dead tired all the time and this time I'm developing what appears to be early akithisia onset",4.6563333333333325,6.946502728571431,5.8171428571428585,74.13619047619048,71.71428571428572,8.666666666666666,33.8095238095238,9.2995712137729,3.5235238095238097,602,31,101,14,12,200,93,140,0.147,0.7659999999999999,0.08800000000000001,-0.8611,1,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,3,6,0,1,10,0,11,2,1,0,1,17,20,10,1,3,3,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,7,7,0,0,2,3,0,2,0,3,0,0,3,3,8,3,11,14,3,22,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,3,17,62,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10825125809243984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878563337871748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18553354111033454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1483454929974937,0.0,0.3145667449006289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17370753690507246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623051102709395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09277833921391032,0.0,0.1009229352985136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14475158625974566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602701868531427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3945031990308173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26334697630565823,0.0,0.1715080897350713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17039301709822427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3777568602304994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13670993447057575,0.0,0.0,0.12569219861680692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31064537514420265,0.20410234774178573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12056531740876135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14244414656380122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,italianataurus,2020/02/23,"Help This isn’t something I would normally ask but the government isn’t willing to help me with my insurance & mental illness. The schizophrenia is getting worse & I have absolutely no way of buying medicine to help. I have been living on the streets, all I can afford is my phone bill & to stay with whoever will give me a bed to sleep in. Everyday is getting harder but I refuse to stay in a psychiatric hospital bc it’s traumatizing to me. I am 22 years old, but I don’t have family that can help me out with this situation. I struggle to eat on a daily basis & me being a petite woman I can’t stay in a homeless shelter. If anyone can help out with literally even a dollar on cash app $balenciiana, it would help me to be able to pay for the psychiatric & get the medicine I need. Thank you!",3.797126789366054,5.035377460122703,5.344309815950922,80.93994120654398,71.94478527607363,8.868916155419223,28.92075664621677,9.2995712137729,2.479507566462168,638,25,128,14,12,216,93,163,0.132,0.735,0.134,0.1034,1,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,11,0,21,3,1,0,1,16,28,4,0,5,4,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,1,5,6,1,1,0,0,5,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,19,1,23,21,1,16,0,0,0,0,12,9,0,1,3,86,24,2,0.1138381841682172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6167181249258618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959830524003718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10642333517200953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164848821379195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07518904700962255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10731650869485526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17842725819033745,0.10920395930189056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4578200114521252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10052120223275217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11472211461489695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08440957112233903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11153725034977403,0.0,0.0,0.11945402464078728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279588886380203,0.11392039674338468,0.0,0.0,0.08763819580317267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3640090730128579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11900838701231485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104806905339701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09035945186141436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11601083513556973,0.16173475971207155,0.0,0.0,0.0733080582728553
schizophrenia,vfxvan,2020/02/23,Has anyone ever been put into a straitjacket? Would be interested in hearing about the experience.,6.414375,10.267531687500004,8.180000000000003,50.66500000000002,75.875,10.7,33.0,10.125756701596842,5.49385,81,4,9,3,2,28,16,16,0.0,0.838,0.162,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,10,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31116576621533565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40254274961808706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4353113642655784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5015657485400532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4473643276158703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161268338420997,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Pixie2436,2020/02/23,"At a loss I feel there's nothing wrong with me. I struggle when others tell me and remind me of things I've done while having an episode. 
That's not me. This whole thing is a lie. I feel fine.",-0.5207142857142877,1.5363721666666663,0.8907619047619058,103.63757142857143,89.23809523809523,3.3600000000000003,15.542857142857144,3.1291,-1.4248057142857142,149,3,37,0,5,47,33,42,0.11800000000000001,0.77,0.11199999999999999,-0.0634,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,1,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,5,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,2,7,1,3,4,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,27,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400820692793486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360652451026956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31887312527199285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3474164204687839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2904651719652283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4415616070123347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3710270454357733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3633433095569065,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,1000000words,2020/02/23,"Betrayal Sorry for the dramatic title I couldn’t think of anything else. My best friend went behind my back and texted my dad about his concerns about me and my condition. My dad let me read the text conversation and he suggested I be hospitalized. He used the word institutionalized. To be fair I did tell him I had recently been convinced I needed to starve myself and that I had tried to stab myself but he didn’t give me any warning or even express concern before going straight to my dad. I know he meant well and was just trying to help and for all intensive purposes I’ve forgiven him, however now it’s almost impossible to be around him anymore. My head gets so loud when he’s near because they think he’s out to get me and is going to betray me again. I don’t want to force him to leave the group so I’ve been isolating myself from all my friends. I want to be mad but he’s going through a rough time too and I don’t want to do this to him. In fact it kills me that I can’t be there for him as much as I should. I just made this separate account so I could post without him seeing. When I think of him I want to cry because there’s so much confusion and hate and love and noise it’s overwhelming. I’m just weak, everyone should be able to carry their load with the strength and support they have. I can’t bare to seek my support but I’m also too weak to go on without it. I wonder how this will end cause I can’t really see.",1.92935555555556,3.762177580000003,3.5326666666666675,89.52522222222223,78.2,6.977777777777778,23.11111111111111,7.921354282810032,1.050577777777777,1134,36,249,19,27,376,155,300,0.145,0.71,0.145,-0.6082,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,3,2,23,16,3,2,6,0,27,4,1,4,3,49,56,26,1,9,9,3,1,0,2,3,2,1,0,0,9,15,0,0,6,1,1,5,9,7,1,0,10,4,49,9,37,34,5,20,0,1,2,1,32,6,0,4,8,169,58,1,0.12206559622941746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222310622849179,0.0,0.0,0.09761581320357993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08300879124365586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12105627145542724,0.0,0.0,0.10044958503396363,0.10866426005342007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09386090884083036,0.0,0.1488201089791007,0.0,0.10386883183525626,0.0,0.12810031239394964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12539499184359773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0974594460212254,0.0,0.13408332569918946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10197014253447853,0.0,0.10811388727079838,0.0,0.0,0.08062317508147418,0.0,0.0,0.11663890820341448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18861515370008905,0.0,0.12754847191635912,0.117096442640904,0.2774907653597877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205145049581065,0.12527451765674708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08181799612024032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13504749670515662,0.0,0.0670840593965619,0.0,0.0,0.12924984152623212,0.0,0.12482034234174975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11016896635611297,0.11550141857491802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17946451655226897,0.09051009291655934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690509914045916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12209862891332335,0.0,0.0781983466127922,0.0,0.12052505017329572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19454095261765175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366424413212764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27703718411676626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10669071136345176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346441158131787,0.0,0.0,0.07117743078689527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1657490544871997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10542548317749993,0.0,0.0,0.2879898050666235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097516304990258,0.11315603062754767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.235333757688398,0.13237493214108134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,thoughtbroadcasting,2020/02/23,"Haloperidol Hi, so im currently being treated for psychosis/schizophrenia . My current medication that im injected with is Zyprexa (olanzapine). It currently makes voices and thoughts quieter although im still experiencing symptoms of thought broadcasting and hallucination of voices. Ive searched up another drug called Haldol ( haloperidol ) which people claim that it works. What i want to know is there any major side effects of Haldol as ive experienced medications like paliperidone which killed my sex drive and im wondering if Haldol would do the same.

Have you been treated with Haldol before? If so, please enlighten me with your experiences with it.

Thanks !",8.145474747474747,11.070767163636367,7.305757575757575,64.45308080808081,63.72727272727273,9.979797979797981,39.494949494949495,10.25414643259724,4.9687373737373735,548,30,74,14,9,169,78,110,0.039,0.8420000000000001,0.11900000000000001,0.7942,3,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,0,2,4,5,1,0,1,0,9,5,0,2,0,19,16,9,1,4,2,0,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,8,7,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,4,8,4,11,11,2,7,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,3,5,46,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10765841435094116,0.16600520852334044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13471288484426502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16165549203177898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835930671884176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15486070127288565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6840217514667181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17515011530121866,0.0,0.08700480219810669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07734383967946623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105675299706038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189678155373944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10975444913525874,0.0,0.0,0.17378036846986472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12642913724831678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16454804645339632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14575353745359476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513660164090438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933772354054093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.171683927456436,0.11525390533557855,0.0,0.0,0.11246116503886468,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TheGameBoy_OH,2020/02/23,"I can't shake the feeling I'm being watched I don't really hallucinate at all or show other signs besides delusions. My delusions are really consuming my life. No matter what I do I can't shake the feeling that I'm being Truman showed or people can read my thoughts. I've talked to a therapist and he seemed to think I wasn't schizophrenic. I did tell him on some level I knew my delusions are rediculous, which is partially true like I know it's impossible. I guess know is a strong word though because I spend most of my days convinced that it's true and doing stuff like screaming in my head or finding a way to trick people into revealing something that would only know if they were watching me. I'm not trying to validate delusions I'm just trying to describe what there doing. Most of my time is spent thinking about this kind of thing and the more I follow it the more I think I'm right, which again on some level I know it's impossible but it feels real you know. Saying my delsusions out loud to a therapist was one thing but in my head I always follow my delusions and don't have the same filter. Talking seemed to help but only really when I'm talking about it. I feel like I'm going to break at some point and like cry or freak out in class. I'm not worried about doing something harmful, no matter how bad my delusions get the worst thing I feel like doing is just kind of break down you know. Anyways any help would be greatly appreciated, thanks",5.126470800288395,5.8336732260274005,5.679026676279744,81.71961427541456,68.45205479452055,8.202162941600577,28.724585436193234,8.20500826718156,1.8900109589041096,1170,39,226,15,19,378,143,292,0.099,0.753,0.14800000000000002,0.8941,1,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,1,1,11,21,1,2,10,0,26,4,2,1,3,58,59,16,0,3,12,0,5,5,0,2,2,3,0,0,19,8,0,0,20,3,2,5,9,8,0,1,7,10,32,13,26,47,10,27,0,0,2,0,12,15,0,13,9,149,51,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08688836773941229,0.0,0.0,0.07101127523706005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08718891006599101,0.06365534036331284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11470385007748453,0.06734424791031672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639972341159157,0.1491997384692972,0.0,0.0,0.09544080335933963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05455674940942616,0.0,0.059346042809087216,0.0,0.0,0.11512681437352815,0.11503379540978492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21433641233013606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13998517879353267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21748113757929965,0.34432916329396285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07375710957908768,0.25507921143376977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07075978151555934,0.15883691568657668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14478763119489751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09871356314600736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10445133839356224,0.11885632619015896,0.2006882969095785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08917673978341865,0.0,0.08304142447149554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19012570039648527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16077997730685872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195394436257282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25179394874461464,0.0912703745754982,0.09613874240385258,0.0,0.2424864886346592,0.20812216313664908,0.2007302797827416,0.10259514593972366,0.08290026136870146,0.0608899377108001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14179283365209291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08288618042963214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10604670658241556,0.0,0.14835832001059826,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Taylorm4798,2020/02/23,"Schizophrenic induced psychosis vs psychedelic induced psychosis Hey guys, I personally have not been diagnosed with any schizophrenic disorders but I enjoy reading through the posts on this subreddit as I find disorders like this really interesting. I’ve got a lot of experience with psychedelics (mainly LSD) and I’ve had multiple experiences that I can only describe as being psychedelic induced psychosis, and from the experiences with schizophrenia I’ve read about on this subreddit (mainly paranoid schizophrenia) I see many parallels between the experiences here and my psychotic episodes under the influence of LSD. 

My best description of these experiences are that I begin to fall into a very paranoid mindset where it feels like everyone is aware of something that I’m not. I’m suddenly the center of attention and all eyes are on me. Spoken words from others, wether it be through conversation, song lyrics, or something on TV seem to be directly focused on me, like they’re able to read my mind and pull out my deepest fears from my brain and project them into my reality. Everything turns into one massive metaphor, and everything has a much deeper meaning than before. It seems as if everyone is already aware of this “deeper meaning” and I’m the only one lagging behind and they’re all making fun of me for not being able to “get it”. Life just becomes one massive joke and I’m the butt of the joke.

The reason I’m saying this is not because I’m scared I may be developing schizophrenia (my family has no history of this disorder and from my research the only way psychedelics can induce schizophrenia and other psychotic disorders are if you’re already predisposed to it), but I find it very interesting how paranoid schizophrenia and psychedelic induced psychosis seem to have many common similarities based on the experiences I’ve read/drawings I’ve seen on this subreddit. 

I’d very much like to hear input from you guys regarding what I mentioned as I may be babbling on about this idea not making any sense due to not having any personal experience with schizophrenia. 

Have a wonderful day!",8.547508496425642,9.719722646900273,8.194131020742997,65.0448189382398,61.07547169811321,11.519559357787411,40.38919489042541,11.295486806799008,5.154515434196648,1726,90,257,47,23,550,173,371,0.053,0.813,0.135,0.9883,0,0,2,0,0,0,26.0,0,1,1,1,6,13,0,2,15,0,24,7,3,10,2,62,46,23,0,2,13,0,1,4,0,2,4,3,0,4,21,21,0,0,17,7,0,2,7,2,0,3,4,7,23,11,51,34,8,24,0,0,3,1,11,15,1,10,9,174,44,5,0.14972649996668155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16522691589851246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15272873147670235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045635942334280116,0.08268057789976409,0.0637031117969208,0.0,0.07856436216203183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08357214574467868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048280602957108,0.0,0.0,0.07598462287405869,0.0,0.0,0.3431990813148801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14307008710635824,0.13456452374960293,0.5126143653057783,0.07057440942566763,0.08424196945366245,0.037853108580555135,0.053482320746483285,0.0,0.0,0.13684730844529305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03911295824960016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059874979899714936,0.0,0.0,0.14825277493380618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08437632362650567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08451149684508506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05287812743256297,0.14629760981215922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06364605800068254,0.0,0.0,0.09994360137308626,0.15179917046278962,0.0,0.1630960522912611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07559054136954213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11006620522739924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15218782699454889,0.17081062523872464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307354045505792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07169829937036959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29953403616795354,0.0,0.047959314922401935,0.07697188943955205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05953426117758678,0.07495117323287692,0.0,0.0596563176590729,0.2044580733534011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11526677464930316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08142971845847577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18531006465015296,0.0,0.059422963239318234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0811860011544945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BurnEveryAtom42,2020/02/23,"Is This Schizophrenia? I kinda want to be in the cool club. Here goes.

Disorganized thoughts

Repetitive thoughts and actions

Lack of memory

(Maybe) Dissociative Fugue

Apathetic

Detached (different from apathetic)",9.033709677419354,13.57418970967742,7.606693548387097,54.33004032258065,71.25806451612901,12.132258064516131,43.233870967741936,10.686352973137794,7.282735483870969,175,11,20,7,4,53,29,31,0.27899999999999997,0.63,0.091,-0.7089,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,6,5,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,1,4,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,12,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4686605383760975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45064920464158403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7122294980691599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26457841220531697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ValleyProphet,2020/02/23,"The summer I live in CA
Earlier this month the world opened up for me and whispered what’s to come: that there would be no more rain in The Valley
This summer will be unbearably hot
Smoke will choke the air
I hope it’s not true but I fear it is.",4.554842767295597,3.9359771886792463,4.881132075471701,91.53352201257864,69.56603773584905,8.576100628930817,23.32704402515723,7.793537801064563,0.643394968553459,193,3,47,2,3,61,41,53,0.102,0.7979999999999999,0.1,0.2206,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,4,0,6,0,0,0,1,8,8,2,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,5,3,1,10,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,1,3,31,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3885029840078461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5075087697797618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4479521624215342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982478419702787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3599898444336922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3203827530722051,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,gayfroggs,2020/02/23,"Long term memory loss I know that short term memory loss is an aspect of schizophrenia but is long term, because I have a huge chunk of memory just gone. Is this the schizophrenia or due to traum?",4.2391228070175435,6.001693789473688,4.255263157894738,87.11517543859651,71.63157894736842,8.224561403508767,20.561403508771924,8.841846274778883,1.126814035087719,156,3,31,3,3,48,27,38,0.086,0.8370000000000001,0.077,0.1655,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,3,5,3,9,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,6,17,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31245415063626825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2816916738440139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9072057124142936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Hermannmitu,2020/02/23,"My boyfriend makes ""jokes"" about killing people (me too) I don't know if this belongs here, but my boyfriend started about two months ago to make ""jokes"" like: ""I could stab you right now"" or even more detailed fantasies when we are in his flat and I'm a very sceptical person about such things because he obviously thinks about those violent things.

Today he told me that he was at work holding a knife in the kitchen and thought about killing a co-worker. I directly told him, that this is not normal and he told me it would have been a joke.

My question is now, if it is possible that he is getting a psychosis. I don't know much about schizophrenia, but I thought, that this could be some kind of it.

At this point I'm scared of him and since it began I was not as often as before at his and I have the feeling that it gets worse because of this factor.

Have you any tips for me? Maybe even a German person out of your community with some knowledge about law and schizophrenia?

Sorry for the long text. I wish you all here the best with your problems",4.7479945054945025,5.614074403846153,4.330247252747256,90.47903846153848,69.38461538461539,7.0967032967032955,28.31868131868132,6.868970318607317,1.162046978021977,828,28,175,6,14,249,117,208,0.157,0.768,0.075,-0.9674,0,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,1,5,0,2,17,12,4,1,10,0,17,1,0,2,2,40,35,14,2,8,7,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,18,10,1,1,8,4,0,0,4,6,0,1,9,1,25,6,24,22,6,17,0,0,0,0,21,8,0,7,10,124,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11865592440044312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09102717399066096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1631956537420976,0.0,0.11390222753541407,0.0,0.14047439132458475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137474312562173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17682222993174262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06768199017043204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398692448284591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961853026747459,0.13939119727134608,0.14712832834214715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06539564226404576,0.0,0.0,0.11845900351661932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17870082800030893,0.0,0.13447708785521278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10684317356016568,0.0,0.09840010635380607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311511856559245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09279941004069793,0.2337570862083737,0.0,0.0,0.12653788652200135,0.1509033630785876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280828233434229,0.0,0.0,0.14995018442064656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143129253922862,0.0,0.0,0.13401394919031318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107276793529707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14984166248308214,0.09474449020276074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17785694165617424,0.08576999470379762,0.0,0.2125346007458203,0.0,0.0,0.12688053896468746,0.3837175568530301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13075858576502164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11044582989745602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1539286460633106,0.0,0.0,0.19489860327843775,0.0,0.13641145473149796,0.09508798823485254,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,downtownohioarbys,2020/02/23,"Have you ever had an anti psychotic just stop working ? I’ve been on a small dose of an anti psychotic for close to a year now, but the past few weeks I’ve been feeling some symptoms again. I’m still taking the drug, but I feel like it may not be working ? The symptoms I’ve noticed are hearing voices when I’m alone and feeling extremely paranoid when going in public. The voices are mean and scary and they hurt my feelings and make me feel afraid. Symptoms my family have noticed are that I cannot really stay on task, I’m a normally disorganized and I keep forgetting what I’m doing while I’m doing it. 
This is weird to happen while on prescriptions, right ? Has anyone ever just had a drug stop working ? What should I do ? I’m afraid to talk to my psychiatrist because I believe she will have me committed and I’m scared they will not let me leave. Or no one will believe me.",3.0893371212121217,4.963099107954548,4.339409090909093,84.8495303030303,74.9659090909091,7.1933333333333325,25.93787878787879,8.021203637495839,1.6116996969696975,697,25,136,11,15,229,99,176,0.187,0.755,0.057999999999999996,-0.9747,0,1,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,2,3,9,6,0,3,10,0,23,6,0,1,3,32,42,13,0,2,7,0,5,1,0,5,6,3,0,0,6,7,0,3,6,0,0,1,4,5,0,1,4,8,16,1,10,31,2,23,0,1,0,0,7,7,0,3,15,91,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307017981707425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08823971810401662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07692838168019127,0.0,0.0,0.2843610970860743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926963843801481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283044126810191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11896708663061045,0.0,0.3190444018156378,0.0901550000521706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07172053446528508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115953898472302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14223293519755822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350962558684244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11216949048975076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13362416153626852,0.0,0.12904475077983898,0.0,0.061653368983221025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08423732610366562,0.0,0.0,0.13746528196230445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12364604371012101,0.0,0.2873517256296708,0.0,0.0,0.08551419957803201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12046909956582245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08084488442127898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10777135486039678,0.0,0.0,0.12634498526626828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13450896930990985,0.1007809061627203,0.21101230637223747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3935003019827881,0.09488426813027202,0.10143218611998817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10122743945951886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2756182618496821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08126658447365899
schizophrenia,goldenmasonn,2020/02/24,Voices I don’t have schizophrenia but one thing that I have to ask is people with schizophrenia say they hear negative voices or whispers but can you hear positive voices? And if not why is it only negative not positive?,4.258170731707317,6.983201097560978,4.812378048780489,78.81661585365855,74.60975609756099,8.002439024390245,27.32317073170732,8.841846274778883,2.6280682926829257,179,7,29,4,4,57,30,41,0.193,0.627,0.18100000000000002,-0.168,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,8,9,5,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,7,4,0,2,9,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,2,0,25,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30554767766494795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.736736182447681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214726316892811,0.24857361747774276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2265870317147596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599132222148638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21713541315652649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2949187864184871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,sixlow1,2020/02/24,"Coming off Clozapine experiences? So right now I'm on 156 mg of the Invega shot once a month and 200 mg of Clozapine. These take away like 95 percent of my symptoms but I struggle with weight gain and anhedonia.

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist this week and I'm hoping to convince them to switch my Clozapine to something like Vraylar.

Does anyone have any experience with this?",4.3191071428571455,7.0470030138888875,5.301984126984127,75.37000000000002,74.41666666666667,9.114285714285714,29.73015873015873,9.606745405546679,3.3329658730158727,315,14,54,9,7,103,52,72,0.037000000000000005,0.7609999999999999,0.20199999999999999,0.9218,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,1,2,5,0,1,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,9,7,5,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,7,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,4,12,7,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,5,32,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16460055630650153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16924519479123962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22741153337525544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20850243334654925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21181734194300034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4735376743788924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2404077181704537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365043014031669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931999537562231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25777261924359424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20670718740015329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863399412227715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25304053372683405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25157996380187553,0.18198954832791006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19415585268925328,0.2947485684914459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,adamm921,2020/02/24,Disability? I called the Social Security Administration today and I was checking on my disability. I had a short little talk with the lady and I asked her when I would find out. She told me I could hear something as early as March 17 and I was wondering how much they could pay out.,2.335878787878787,4.918522254545458,4.504999999999999,79.09083333333334,81.0,7.303030303030304,21.89393939393939,8.344100000000001,1.5109393939393931,224,7,43,5,6,77,41,55,0.028999999999999998,0.922,0.049,0.25,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,6,0,0,1,0,12,10,7,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,12,1,6,3,1,9,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,1,4,33,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2508662611888016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740101495770061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4285031405814349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452623806296795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30244420933846794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689520903809209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972643804809544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735438359917789,0.0,0.20658501711997146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21568546898031532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543595920919506,0.2564150552849837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910086013845909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19062452049476808,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jaba4444,2020/02/24,Schizophrenia or spiritual awaking How to define your schizophrenic or telepatic who can read minds can heal and damn people and see spirits on the earth?,14.757692307692313,12.008182461538466,11.342307692307696,60.052692307692354,51.30769230769231,13.476923076923079,49.07692307692307,11.20814326018867,5.6898923076923085,128,6,18,2,1,37,23,26,0.09699999999999999,0.903,0.0,-0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,6,3,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,1,2,0,12,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5702059218214477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3915055408455673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.564872529405068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45000849295373707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,olas-amarillas,2020/02/24,"My son was hospitalized for 15 days. He is back home but still delusional. Can you guys please tell me what to NOT do? what will make it worse? He is 17 and was diagnosed with Schizoaffective and bipolar disorder. 

I don’t know if I should entertain his thoughts or ignore them. Neither feel like the right thing to do. 

He sounds so sad when he talks and we don’t follow him. 

I don’t want to make it worse for him but my nerves are shot and I wake up with my anxiety on 10. I have signed up for a therapist for myself and I have anti anxiety pills for me- 

But what do I do for him? He has therapy on Friday so hopefully he likes them so he wants to go.",-0.1940064882400634,2.071556708029199,1.7622749391727517,95.98417477696677,91.4087591240876,6.256123276561233,17.830089213300894,7.594959193182576,0.436263909164639,507,14,119,11,18,167,84,137,0.203,0.695,0.10099999999999999,-0.9456,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,1,2,0,6,6,0,0,2,0,18,4,1,2,0,25,28,14,0,5,6,1,1,2,0,2,3,1,1,1,6,8,0,1,3,1,0,2,5,2,0,0,3,2,21,4,16,23,1,11,0,1,0,0,19,5,0,3,6,81,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29977929815432064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15066183056735272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12636179014498666,0.0,0.0,0.19886978168826264,0.0,0.0,0.22455835073968586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09907056394968464,0.13997591945232815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11135430924054407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940063388524807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1965386630448879,0.1946075487024467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10768068747037736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19144777340726624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26157611151334725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21507766322003927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16732731937748999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564738505374327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1574850369473566,0.17125572378389614,0.0,0.22406861442476803,0.22749550065992705,0.13017042988742586,0.0,0.0,0.15555041083815604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23113494079655614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3993487696037149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,whittlemethese,2020/02/24,"The Crisis Text Hotline in the USA is a complete and utter joke and waste of my time. I honestly want to call to complain or something So I’m summary, I was very panicked this morning by all the voices and the walls were getting closer and closer and so I did what my psychiatrist told me to do: text in to the crisis hotline and they will help me.

WRONG. 

I texted in telling them I was hearing voices and overwhelmed by it and I was needing some help. The “counselor” proceeded to reassure me (falsely) that she was there for me and was there to listen but then only asked me three things before telling me to get help elsewhere. I asked what I could do to not feel so overwhelmed and such and she asked me: “who else have you told?”, “are you having thoughts of suicide?”, and “what has helped you in the past?”. I said my psychiatrist knows, only kinda suicidal but wouldn’t actually go through with it, and I don’t know what has helped in the past besides ASKING FOR HELP, like I tried doing with this stupid service. She sent me a link to the FAQ’s then literally ended the conversation.

So not only was I not helped, but I was infuriated upon realizing how fake the support is. If anyone could help me out with what to do when you are overwhelmed, I would be very grateful.",5.304743975903616,5.959092473895584,5.691423192771088,81.97641189759038,68.03614457831326,8.152710843373494,30.421937751004013,8.07648339933343,1.9997407630522088,1002,37,197,12,16,321,127,249,0.124,0.74,0.136,-0.6091,0,0,1,0,0,1,25.0,0,4,2,0,9,12,1,3,13,0,28,0,0,1,1,41,49,26,2,7,8,0,1,1,0,3,0,5,0,0,12,17,0,0,6,1,0,2,5,7,0,1,14,6,35,5,27,29,2,20,0,3,0,0,34,10,0,4,9,150,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.10535923000777164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07549232914441519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4037344977747421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09187110371791583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11024534506993404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11320028427995354,0.0,0.0,0.1724041122924703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09019172908167736,0.0,0.09562581936568162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05459084754816966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11281554519718827,0.0,0.061359559058022616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12168551520589654,0.0,0.5789386074526531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11867056690144508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05274672816448557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08005541207052419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463389970250629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20613150430589186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10270037855123497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831174923039445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2361945345678549,0.12251852372846117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18873406461249656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07172780501050931,0.0,0.0,0.08571293455474434,0.0629558358427407,0.0,0.0,0.20633225663106192,0.0,0.07330181877895786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17816649442726082,0.06368113702516266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07669594018023908,0.11804385909413045,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mimagni,2020/02/24,"My mom has schizophrenia She was diagnosed when I was in 1st grade and now I'm a junior in high school so its been like 10 years. She's not aware of it tho, like she would blatantly deny if if you told her she had schizophrenia, it got to a point where she wouldn't take her meds sometimes. But I never really talked to anyone about it bc stigma and a screwed up household plus she was diagnosed when I was young so her behavior was very much normalized to me, I didn't like it, but it was normal so I was kinda hoping I could get advice on what it's like for her, bc she isn't able to really tell me herself or just ways to support her while I still can",2.338901242642251,3.6428160359712254,3.600052321778944,91.75873119686071,75.69064748201438,7.068933943754089,21.26945716154349,7.686295010490155,0.5795266187050361,515,12,117,7,11,168,86,139,0.027999999999999997,0.85,0.122,0.9135,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,11,7,1,0,3,0,16,3,0,0,2,19,23,15,0,8,7,1,0,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,8,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,12,0,24,6,13,8,1,16,0,0,0,1,18,7,1,5,12,85,32,3,0.1735558968688819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1695968137598054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12135431846632225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13857026127794206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35231116399797313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09067579285851306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13880850535895442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18337133392193036,0.0,0.17238016611700693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3391625782526569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19278147604508875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20326656880932933,0.0,0.0,0.12758355379606534,0.0,0.13385700704693768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3400958590509325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16406642076455155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22236870337386808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17564783333842535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17165121981611606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13860196343078054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19694917503637868,0.0,0.0,0.13049243514753253,0.13949765572267855,0.15169550364921236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658400970327804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14320179116074833,0.0,0.13776059257247664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12328912957370693,0.0,0.0,0.11176430732996392
schizophrenia,charleefokstrot,2020/02/24,"Internal Auditory Hallucinations I was told by psychiatrist experience of an auditory hallucination would be external sound. However, I found this [study](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4372463/) on internal vs external auditory hallucinations.

My experience has been incomprehensible whispering, random words, and short meaningless statements that are internal but distinct from my regular thought process; these occur while going to sleep. I also sometimes experience negative comments that are internal and occur during daytime; these usually accompany a stressful event. 

Im unsure of whether my experiences should be considered internal auditory hallucinations or intrusive thoughts. I’d like to know how my experiences compare to those of who have a diagnosis and have confirmed their experience of internal auditory hallucinations with a doctor. Also, I’m curious whether internal auditory hallucinations are common in members of this community with a diagnosis.

If you have a diagnosis and experience internal auditory hallucinations or if you have further insight, could you please share?",15.041826388888884,16.96878891875,14.795833333333334,20.648055555555565,47.3125,19.361111111111114,59.02777777777778,16.45884130781739,11.554569444444445,937,66,89,49,9,318,96,160,0.085,0.8420000000000001,0.073,-0.4588,1,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,3,1,0,3,3,0,1,6,0,15,2,1,1,1,27,22,15,0,5,8,0,0,1,0,2,1,2,0,0,8,6,0,0,6,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,2,11,2,14,11,0,9,0,0,0,0,8,4,0,5,5,70,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19990865253595969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09979421310752218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279323928766195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8558482993126351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13704490320612536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07103460388963513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350104706713286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06869114480786374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061063720130312825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13720130560318844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12508010163462635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12361814326190047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14317543423460533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984559357265595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11943314411355516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13765864533953934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08878919298449739,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,kvier,2020/02/24,"is it that bad? I’m pretty sure I’m going schizophrenic...
just wanted to know - is it that bad?

will i be able to live alone? can i finish uni?
can I keep up my work as a model?",-3.1476071428571437,-1.7220659749999996,0.5035714285714299,101.63,108.75,3.2857142857142865,8.214285714285715,5.288315135182226,-1.8910714285714287,131,1,34,1,7,47,29,40,0.22399999999999998,0.652,0.124,-0.6662,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,6,1,0,0,1,5,12,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,4,10,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,20,8,1,0.31850875777773946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3298790158422969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5318830172494243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18101586708229275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831052185062731,0.0,0.0,0.17504408355101836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28124906846869496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32403791262533144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.300190734809203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878647176146705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23187816908319106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,AllofmylifeIfuckedup,2020/02/24,"How do I deal with paranoia, and some other stuff Well,  the paranoia I'm currently dealing with is when someone doesn't message me back, I fear the worst, always. And my mood just becomes very low because of it. I just hate having to call people just to ease the paranoia. Any other paranoia I have I've dealt with (such as everyone hates or everyone is out to get me). Anyways for the past year or so I've also had these occurrences where the constant voice in my head is speaking through me, and I'm usually arguing with it, out loud. And it's literally the scariest shit when it happens. I feel like I am being possessed. I kinda looked into it, and it might be DID, but I'm not a psychiatrist, and I talk to mine so rarely it's abhorrent. Just want some help, my psychologist was absolute shit so....",3.8572641509433967,5.26371656603774,5.0139779874213835,82.71455188679249,72.01886792452831,8.067295597484277,30.23113207547169,8.59863814320734,2.331343396226415,630,27,124,11,12,208,100,159,0.157,0.753,0.09,-0.7882,2,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,0,16,11,5,1,7,0,14,3,3,1,0,28,24,17,0,1,8,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,11,13,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,8,1,0,3,5,15,2,16,18,3,14,0,1,1,0,8,6,2,6,9,92,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13255811761235967,0.13792550043015273,0.0,0.0,0.11272240379320846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274591173806814,0.0,0.10104568543620117,0.1830687663891465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16925937241464384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17912754498178374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3417823193502724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3167813411452155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1865259510494804,0.08381317678061873,0.11841889270001445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08660269676955079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14658091607218926,0.0,0.0,0.3273071318663382,0.17011746048503648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111053547225549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08098190540728277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13919655304450038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17584503980511768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582365633286805,0.11491703094564144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3403002733307557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1404478099637336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18975540699151489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332315141425324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1825610914564526,0.13676926228924066,0.09776947299400766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14903804072703827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10674392924756246
schizophrenia,skeletongirl00,2020/02/24,"what does this mean for about the past 5 months ive had cannabis induced psychosis(when under the influance) (not long lasting) about 5 times so i decided to take a break for about a month, well i started smoking again but only like few times a week ( i used to be an everyday smoker)
so to get to the point ive started hearing voices again and thinking my boyfriend hates means having these weird delusions

about the voices, i cant understand what theyre tyring to say i just hear women and men with different voices say random words and the sentences dont make any sense and i cant make sense out of it at all and i also hear this humming like thats coming from an air conditoning. a few nights ago i had an argument with my boyfriend and i was lying in bed with him and i kept hearing him say he never wants to see me again and then suddenly saying he can't live without me and i slapped him for playing in my psychosis when in reality he didnt say he never wants to see me again.. i feel like i'm losing my mind and i feel terrible id never want to hurt my boyfriend he means everything to me but the past few days i feel like running away because i think he secretly hates me and i dont want him to ababdon me 

psa i was diagnosed with BPD when i was 17 and my dad had schizofrenia(if that is neccecary info???)",2.634120772946858,4.392444714814815,3.7601127214170695,89.013115942029,75.92592592592592,6.917874396135267,25.81320450885668,7.7425588080867325,1.3358566827697262,1043,38,219,15,23,338,141,270,0.106,0.813,0.081,-0.8244,1,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,1,15,12,2,0,13,0,17,1,0,4,4,51,48,20,0,4,5,1,3,4,0,0,1,12,1,2,8,18,0,1,13,1,0,2,11,6,1,0,8,17,36,6,31,39,4,38,0,2,2,0,23,9,0,1,30,137,44,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0832279633909291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07508392843688318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06384852962677834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0882128976474642,0.0,0.0,0.05723457115115323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11825137195420568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08087806075207471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060551386995102485,0.0,0.0,0.0952965378127424,0.0,0.09809523553561796,0.0,0.0,0.0821639132697081,0.0,0.22007714064761214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08438242331617657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14242106060678678,0.13415030064117034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049053734345423115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18539419319305586,0.0,0.0,0.4232841441248305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10051136004524504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07653301318633178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18347996184025248,0.0,0.0829067329804714,0.08308983860539806,0.0,0.10503907483476192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253448240860267,0.0,0.0,0.30682173299808685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09480229829985162,0.0,0.14988446270286598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21724164267963547,0.0,0.0,0.08810955651659062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07140769887024742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1792575665839298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887565508442437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3733261255285175,0.0,0.0,0.1496366058429882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13291187948569322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07059371686776984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12032204907286018,0.0,0.0,0.10949621673240252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09774296960524526,0.0,0.0810909541655382,0.0,0.0,0.22151540006205972,0.0,0.07531302439560797,0.0,0.08441853117623661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09050676545718962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Boneyard_Art,2020/02/24,". I want to be anonymous. Unobserved. Entirely free from others and expectation. I want to be left alone. Not for a few hours, not for a few days. Forever. I want to go weeks without speaking and months without seeing another person's face. I want to be entirely cutoff. I want to be gone. I want to go home and not have to speak to anyone. I want my parents to stop texting me everyday. I want my roommate to not talk to me through the door. I want silence. Total. Complete. Silence. I want to be unknown.",-0.17303030303030198,1.923347505050508,2.1691414141414183,89.30704545454546,104.25252525252527,5.028282828282829,24.691919191919194,6.691623216298621,1.4247010101010098,389,19,75,7,18,131,52,99,0.045,0.778,0.177,0.659,1,1,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,6,1,1,0,1,22,20,3,0,11,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,0,1,3,14,2,18,14,3,10,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,0,6,52,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14309393914374546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14487467538480606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09660593066931387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14486000019917036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08910291980318848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15704104974478791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13858753276145575,0.0,0.13606152508353994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501131808238632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11027941656429484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15341230900073552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12063753923554385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11009705269944936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155094365540617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11104920721067532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8149139890262687,0.0,0.11082504804390694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663660558206609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,MultipleVoices22,2020/02/24,"Advanced Schizo or Other Disorder? I've been helping a local schizophrenic for the past 5-6 months and things have been going really well in helping her situation and being a friend. The one thing I cannot seem to find any information about or see come up in here is how the 'others' take over her speech. We will be talking and all of a sudden her face/eyes will go blank and she'll start talking in a very fast/low voice to herself. The voices change but they 'take over' her speech, sometimes it seems they're talking to each other but she's gone during. When I've asked her what she was whispering she has no recollection of the voices, she completely steps out for a few seconds.

 Is this just really advanced schizophrenia? She's been on anti psychotics since shortly after I met her plus whatever else the hospital is giving her. Could this be multiple personality disorder + schizo?",4.587500000000002,6.7229560833333375,5.034047619047623,80.34428571428573,71.5,8.133333333333335,26.880952380952376,8.841846274778883,2.1825309523809517,714,25,128,14,14,227,112,168,0.067,0.841,0.091,0.2325,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,1,2,6,2,0,0,11,0,17,1,0,1,1,22,30,11,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,3,1,6,0,1,9,9,0,0,5,0,0,7,2,0,1,2,6,7,18,2,18,17,3,23,0,0,1,0,27,10,0,4,6,91,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10827448341681678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14884841438856422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16843275142011774,0.13715320147344598,0.16693825190838002,0.0,0.0,0.12712353732585896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36495788525713496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330071711856623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552342069792018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12301232210161507,0.0,0.0,0.1527375190860858,0.18097582691016725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134424831730144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12708720832118892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078910182179852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1519926968865577,0.0,0.13902402241350845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20399973199697352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12687705020461632,0.2898942727893221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317077281023341,0.1789689981986358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15747181284125036,0.0,0.11269613548967315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23942597491313536,0.38392297049716106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21155625991303345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313724754205328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14315713936315852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Holly_Hop,2020/02/24,"My Therapist snitched on me. (rant) So... I currently lost my job and one of my best friends is a drug dealer. Yeah I know it's bad company to hang around with a drug dealer but he doesn't deal or carry when we hang out. We'll except when we do drugs together. So recently I've been doing: weed/dabs, acid, cocaine and excess alcohol drinking. (FYI I cut ties with him a week or two ago so I haven't been doing any of it two weeks, I don't want to live that life style)... I also went off meds for 2 months before this happened. So I was a mess to put it simply. 

So doing these drugs and not being medicated really didn't help my situation. For one the paranoia has gotten worse. I honestly only experience paranoia. I would call it delusional if I was a psychologist.

But I told my therapist that I've been doing drugs and what I've been experiencing. So he told me Psychiatrist. Which got me pissed. Because I told him not to tell anyone and I just wanted a closer appointment date for therapy.

This happened a week ago. I was torn. I thought he broken my trust. But I've realized he did the right thing.

I've gone back on my meds and don't do drugs anymore. I'm also trying my best to go to the gym every day and quit drinking alcohol.

Thanks for listening.",0.7662978830645173,3.1711022578125028,3.1181451612903253,87.41556451612905,86.96875,6.5844758064516125,20.758064516129032,7.831003766801068,1.108521824596774,982,32,204,21,31,336,141,256,0.14,0.767,0.09300000000000001,-0.878,2,0,11,0,0,0,37.0,3,0,0,4,13,11,2,0,10,1,24,13,1,0,0,29,42,23,0,4,10,0,0,0,1,2,10,1,0,0,12,13,4,0,3,3,0,6,7,5,0,4,18,3,31,6,20,21,2,26,0,1,0,0,18,7,1,3,13,129,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548332357146514,0.18666768648491855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13968247108780024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05939034210955065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866121921368652,0.061066197129567276,0.0,0.0,0.07774607343348143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06715471220882645,0.07292052113824893,0.053238199548682766,0.0,0.0743150859661111,0.0,0.1833039913829232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08917811982961985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056323420599786,0.09003786377039345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711087980665446,0.607680605459327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07358294330162594,0.0,0.0,0.08542973703793177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06747428999666284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04963411477280843,0.0,0.06984924524019202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544589266962236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058538363316672636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08666585083080687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04799666611172012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06168682306141034,0.0,0.0,0.07711781717883562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09533574250383732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19401751446307824,0.08798015371538997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06970943237740586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11836001023152765,0.06642169663028709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08779512782271054,0.0,0.09289081466684464,0.0,0.0,0.055948610841744975,0.0,0.08623211897583027,0.0,0.0,0.07458304425981578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981674508582294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07633405754804312,0.08040572123632175,0.0998744224735739,0.20280378670682084,0.05802105101385604,0.0,0.0,0.06933370605192052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25035509700960823,0.0,0.059294280177111275,0.0,0.17062590876747194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030241061863238,0.0,0.210163005020126,0.0,0.0,0.08095980281175902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890011477780946,0.062039805304251364,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,cosmickirti,2020/02/24,Why would I want to fake this? Thinking about how i’m over exaggerating my symtoms and faking some of them because I want my therapist and psychiatrist to think i’m schizophrenic but......why would I want them to think that??? why would I want that on my record? what the hell... I think i’m just really really dissociated from myself and reality and have severe adhd and ocd but i’ve started hearing voices at night if i stay up too late and have horrible nightmares and sleep paralysis... I also think psychiatry is a sham... making money off spiritually gifted people. Our society is designed for neurotypical people who are plugged into this mass delusion we’re all brainwashed with. People who have pierced the veil of reality and have access to the truth are medicated and locked away. a fucking shame... People hate me because I tell them The Truth.,5.721946236559137,7.7419777483870975,6.576532258064518,70.9181317204301,68.29032258064515,9.295698924731182,30.336021505376344,9.725611199111238,3.1574408602150537,681,27,113,16,12,225,96,155,0.11699999999999999,0.815,0.067,-0.8946,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,1,0,3,0,5,8,3,1,6,0,11,4,1,2,3,32,28,13,0,8,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,2,0,0,7,11,0,0,5,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,0,2,17,2,17,25,2,12,2,0,0,1,8,8,2,2,3,75,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16320532442799895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10859928703866906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12758865967145938,0.0,0.0,0.16556495512096658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12554499972466054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134074479192973,0.0,0.0,0.1530565768990484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531884223797189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09064761802635747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13680430898216478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12743918995978767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3765867486378279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17399403664324564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534154535739546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13589816836768742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09612000631566156,0.14474483266620644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11869526880399303,0.0,0.0,0.15767437727572278,0.0,0.4350760880648584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3203936583452405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.367615390593151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2894054739262692,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,alanbauerpowerhour,2020/02/24,"Visiting the gym. Does anyone else's brain just wreak havoc on itself when they try to go to the gym? My best friend loves going and I recently got a membership to the local PF so we could start going together. Figured it would be good for me and it would make him very happy. Being there though, its just a very distracting environment in general, so being schizophrenic and trying to focus and not freak out is tough. Anybody have any tips to quell this?",3.6595689655172414,6.0116979885057535,4.520215517241383,82.02446120689656,74.86206896551724,8.02816091954023,22.36925287356322,8.841846274778883,1.7327252873563217,363,10,66,8,8,117,69,87,0.077,0.721,0.20199999999999999,0.9308,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,1,1,7,8,0,1,5,0,8,3,1,1,0,15,15,8,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,1,2,0,4,1,3,0,0,1,0,6,5,9,8,1,11,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,3,46,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14267775983947756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14670378884652827,0.2149747853435784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201822883248269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23421696280469625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16751593686852614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18360584266376612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17526904427057968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16209841872480102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3577189854035717,0.17597838396613175,0.16780394729779222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22334627876624155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18936140483460304,0.0,0.1400495736754374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2071617223384244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14850435344340274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20613692042872364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848939664755397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3462298762564627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980855178560915,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,yes_good_thing,2020/02/24,"Abilify Maintena Hi, im currently on invega sustenna injections monthly and cannot cum at all. Is the same side effect present with abilify maintena? How to cure this side effect?",4.059374999999998,7.327606187500002,5.967500000000001,66.5275,80.875,11.95,36.125,10.686352973137794,6.1972875,146,9,21,7,4,50,28,32,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,1,7,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,2,7,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,12,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8042463342208173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5942960826830153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,peterpeter14,2020/02/24,"Will this develop into schizophrenia? I feel like i'm going to lose it all Hello everybody, I want to share my experience with my first time smoking weed and how it has impacted me since. Even typing this is fairly difficult, so bare with me. Im 19 and on January 15th I smoked weed for the first time and I’ve haven’t been the same since. I thought smoking weed would relieve my anxiety that has been built up over the years but it did the exact opposite. 5 minutes into taking 3 big hits, it immediately hit me. My consciousness shifted totally. My whole body was extremely tight and I couldn’t feel anything. I felt as I was in a whole other universe and I felt like I was dying. My cousins rushed me to the emergency room and on the way there I shouted random things that came to my mind, even if they were inappropriate. I couldn’t even walk and they had to push me in a wheel chair. 

It felt like I was in literal hell and I didn’t even want to fall asleep because I thought I would never wake up again. I was extremely restless and they had to restrain me because of how I was acting. I can’t even recall what happened after that. The next morning I went home and still could barely walk. I went to sleep again and woke up with hospital equipment attached to me. I thought that was all a dream but it wasn’t, to this day I’m still hoping this is all a dream. When I got up to use the bathroom even touching the toilet felt extremely weird, as my senses changed. My mind felt completely empty, my sex drive was depleted, and I felt like a stranger in my own home. I was alarmed because this didn’t feel like normal anxiety. As of this moment I have improved a little bit, but in some ways it has gotten worse. I’ve developed eye floaters and have been seeing flashes of lights. My body feels lethargic and slow. I don’t feel as sharp as I used to. My ears sometimes ring and I get sweaty hands and feet. The worst of all is my memory, as they feel scattered and my connections to them is off. The thing is I don’t have any delusions (although I previously used to have some paranoia) but  it has still been the worst times of my life. I was able to handle normal anxiety and depression, but this is getting very hard.

I keep on hoping for the best and that over time I will return to normal, but it feels as i’ve fallen too hard. For the first time in my life I don’t like being alone and feel as I need constant attention. I have been having suicidal thoughts and really need some help. I hope I didn’t trigger schizophrenia but as I look up the symptoms everyday they match up to what I’m feeling. I’m seeing a neuro psychologist soon but I’m just wondering if anybody else has experienced something like this. Off of 3 hits of a joint my entire life has been fucked. Please if anybody has comments or know if I will recover words of encouragement please let me know because I really need them, thanks.",3.8303746081504686,5.261156567241383,4.565391849529782,85.80924764890284,72.1206896551724,7.824451410658307,27.31974921630094,8.367750914986694,1.7585344827586202,2299,82,468,37,44,738,249,580,0.124,0.757,0.11900000000000001,-0.7722,0,1,2,0,1,0,50.0,0,0,7,5,20,25,2,2,23,0,58,15,9,6,7,105,116,48,2,20,14,1,21,7,0,5,4,3,3,0,27,27,0,3,24,2,0,12,12,10,0,3,40,30,74,15,62,63,16,63,1,2,4,2,13,24,2,13,32,317,101,1,0.06448254450517224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0667844691894371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043850341464187474,0.0,0.1479869101499131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05306363985889127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15723184250005348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06767045220132742,0.0,0.07039823776704318,0.14325114079231366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07375085256805357,0.0,0.0,0.06821398200619476,0.0,0.06760872108192438,0.06968272276647522,0.0,0.05148406479497921,0.0,0.0,0.041585906698026816,0.0,0.0555387210951068,0.0,0.06692270071552309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05386689171468318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555406749778309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06307630175625192,0.0,0.0,0.2934388078694332,0.09213268535743332,0.3714801296297569,0.0,0.0,0.16454645824552913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0596130733371525,0.06737893617015096,0.0,0.03664691604311065,0.0,0.051572581433331065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05702170114905027,0.0,0.11552738842823172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043221290348114866,0.0,0.1293624994480012,0.19213714890678316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06965221332577835,0.0,0.0,0.05731504835014972,0.0,0.0,0.07087584019163504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06593777058259262,0.13663778447819874,0.22052039874265733,0.06462844976644894,0.0,0.0,0.0541490970405209,0.07213947330519067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13021797608616326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14343896908569173,0.04973291354516291,0.0,0.06857791761976854,0.0,0.18953760802357889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415649402439721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08261833835986371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10276847877488307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10668125431781453,0.0,0.06452911302763996,0.0,0.0,0.04964181309217365,0.06377488533000898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544875300119869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07053343774818123,0.0,0.0,0.06702205366619664,0.0484828485162106,0.0,0.0,0.059366863477285585,0.0,0.0,0.08567867463620771,0.0,0.0,0.2047677502679616,0.18800145127926252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16707664454927154,0.0,0.053204852375136835,0.07606695086854061,0.10236648482563143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11955192955852732,0.0,0.1439849162712059,0.0,0.0,0.06992856887466964,0.0,0.0,0.06571322174866634,0.09161309904378036,0.0,0.0,0.04152464451806428
schizophrenia,bunnymeade,2020/02/24,"Undiagnosed but also unsure So like any rational person with an issue, I’ve come to the internet 😂
Kidding aside, something is wrong and I can’t necessarily afford to see a therapist all willy nilly- so before I spend the money I just thought I’d ask for some anonymous advice from people who have gone through it. 

So I’m 26, and my family has a history of schizophrenia- which already doesn’t look great or whatever, but it’s also on my mom’s side and idk. I feel like it’s not as bad as I’m personally making it out to be, but I could also just be paranoid. 

For the last year or so, from time to time. I’ll get auditory hallucinations and on rarer occasions visual hallucinations as well. It didn’t really get tangibly bad until I started Prozac. Which was, again, about a year ago. Before that, it was more muted and infrequent. And I’ve always struggled with paranoid thinking, but as I’ve gotten older I’ve realized when I’m being delusional so I just sorta let myself feel it and then rationalize through it. If it makes any sense, I simultaneously believe them but also know they’re bullshit.

But more to the point, I’m getting married in a week and it’s stressful and on top of all of the stress, the auditory hallucinations have gotten really bad. I’m just curious if this is a normal anxiety thing or if I should get it checked out. 

Thanks.",3.770425385934821,5.683871732075473,5.761312178387652,75.21112778730705,73.18867924528301,8.742710120068612,27.51715265866209,9.339509955726095,2.6009245283018867,1079,41,198,26,22,374,148,265,0.114,0.752,0.135,0.7817,1,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,1,1,17,12,0,3,12,0,16,1,0,2,2,46,41,37,0,6,17,1,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,3,17,14,0,0,6,0,3,2,4,7,1,0,7,4,13,5,28,28,5,24,0,0,2,0,7,9,0,8,15,130,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11732436763144695,0.10642878092348787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1324927246722159,0.3840579845958272,0.09990219888773587,0.0,0.0,0.16329418371123638,0.0,0.09184801792483947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11224288289015892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30074326612996866,0.0,0.0,0.2043298770342491,0.1352701097025578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034238140475422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09586069405752017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131848978247908,0.0,0.12141512091726064,0.08577317271778412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25091226234172204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323700997738809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12531478542610416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06598359375601008,0.09786753107922692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277275459550123,0.0,0.11731362793790545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082284772119536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16028623408558382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14061656653493446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176364423146995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08323670420129038,0.20966910706812508,0.0,0.0,0.1134985300668304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15383111820315962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09567482425704417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09243051566032393,0.0,0.0,0.08498134958240236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27506397556195683,0.12551612317712088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11053806181802547,0.0,0.13940262687303356,0.07976465387166053,0.07693164940784956,0.0,0.0953167681080128,0.14001963267833267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09630745542139572,0.0,0.10795123410910633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13127025929399094,0.0,0.1546335263093536
schizophrenia,markosicty6,2020/02/24,"Anybody experience gangstalking? Have always self diagnosed as schizo paranoid anxious 
But never had anything like this.literal people after me making gestures and harrasingme in traffic, street theatre,then stopped after week or so. but was too real and kinda made me obsessed with it cuz i cant believe it happened to me. it wasnt for no reason. But im not going to get too detailed. Has anyone experienced community stalking type stuff? Im not that bad to see stuff like this and was onlybtime its ever happened... I cant talk to anybody without being written off.... Especially wife..",4.3700641025641005,7.583830750000002,5.149615384615384,73.57871794871798,78.03846153846153,6.1589743589743575,33.666666666666664,7.492282038375204,3.0437782051282047,474,26,66,7,12,153,77,104,0.102,0.84,0.057999999999999996,-0.1475,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,0,0,9,1,0,4,2,20,17,10,0,0,7,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,8,4,0,1,1,0,0,1,8,2,0,0,6,2,5,2,12,10,0,10,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,2,8,50,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14731327702961727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20000727131947005,0.0,0.1237920092936323,0.0,0.1456906298770235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782282596195767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19946591132425906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1796940868651118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16014478844475985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17318122461291627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09249723235324027,0.0,0.10061715132186834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3131156316889005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3824718718409261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729877336452467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16752159223136567,0.11817703047966828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13654584418411833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12273875651942512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20151276128566706,0.0,0.18202884825851667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14107969641765425,0.0,0.18469360610278168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480151906237434,0.0,0.0,0.40534188022996986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14229979873731546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14201255846683114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17066234458488252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,llmercll,2020/02/24,"The government experiments on the mentally ill For the past 4 years I've believed the government/cia has been testing out research chemicals on me.

I live in a townhouse, and it would be easy for them to run a tube through the walls or put a device into the central vents (we share an exhaust) that could release an aerosol into the room.

Basically I get the ""feeling"" of breathing in something besides regular air and then bodily symptoms follow. Most of the time I've felt inflammation in various organs such as my lung, brain, stomach. Most recently I believe they've done something to my aorta. My only symptom is that I believe I'm being poisoned.

When I first noticed it I tried explaining what was happening to people and they told me I was schizophrenic and was hospitalized. Nobody ever entertained the idea that the government might actually be doing this sort of thing to people. 

I wasn't working and was on ssi before this all started happening in 2016. I had some depression and a paranoid episode in 2013 after smoking a lot of mairjuana which got me on ssi. My paranoia was unrelated to being experimented on, I was afraid of war with North Korea.

I think they experiment on people with a history of mental illness living off the state for a few reasons.

1. These people cost the state money
2. These people don't contribute to the state
3. The state needs human test subjects

It makes sense to me. The state surely needs test subjects for the various black site chemicals they undoubtedly create, and so they use the general public. They pick the mentally ill because no one will believe them if they say they think they're being poisoned. Not only that, but since they often don't work it doesn't cut into productivity. Finally, no big deal if they die since the state supports them anyway.

A lot of those people who claimed the government was experimenting on them probably were being experimented on. Gas in the vents, etc.

I know through personal experience, unfortunately I don't have any proof, and the common response to my post will simply be that I'm another schizophrenic.

But I would like folks to entertain the idea, as it makes sense.",6.880839160839161,8.092305747474747,7.334848484848482,69.60304195804197,64.75757575757575,10.435742035742038,35.432789432789434,10.475803106731721,4.047771484071483,1740,80,284,43,26,570,214,396,0.078,0.8690000000000001,0.053,-0.8372,0,0,2,0,0,0,40.0,1,0,13,3,6,13,4,1,34,0,33,14,4,5,5,53,54,18,2,7,6,0,2,1,0,5,10,1,1,2,19,15,0,0,9,2,2,3,8,7,0,2,15,4,37,6,46,26,10,47,0,1,1,0,23,25,0,11,13,204,56,9,0.0,0.0,0.07986982832941235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05565804394106369,0.0858226014765445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04989252367595296,0.0,0.06964486435447867,0.3688493754585284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09136713403821828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06534732102288816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08437956745304193,0.07049378581616053,0.0,0.08494316104975527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08375681010061585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912798550208121,0.0,0.07403433600336178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4803661897579224,0.0,0.0,0.04138376506460622,0.0,0.07858493490885354,0.08965822365036251,0.0,0.0696181124066857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04276112414225047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06545967278076276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14475218400477055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18478820164808346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04498038665180696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03998579073826647,0.0,0.14454292414282324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1391649780087847,0.0,0.0,0.10926559730576822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474443631089367,0.0868256054071215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12137545079707755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931821420207773,0.0,0.0,0.05546092526441045,0.1244950467828343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07813120815794064,0.3404500051125303,0.0714647154543955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07838578357074166,0.0,0.08824376330799298,0.0,0.0,0.08227777292735816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0841512549059597,0.08081298905863647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06508717434989658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13540761011765434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260180022385816,0.0,0.0,0.057930975638329225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09287779966352654,0.07713882724332413,0.1701385340873592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05437480391810342,0.10488714358063103,0.0,0.0,0.04772502419316715,0.0,0.0,0.07820730046493113,0.0,0.0555680188786232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07068861125778192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11916963418458053,0.0,0.0,0.11628201108354196,0.0,0.0,0.052706100159128966
schizophrenia,jardin-des-ombres,2020/02/25,"Kindly asking for some advice... So I joined this thread not for me but in order to get advice, and support for my bf who has schizophrenia.  We have been going out for almost 3 years and we definitely want to get married and have been discussing plans for quite some time now.  He is incredibly intelligent, patient, kind and loving and I would be lucky to be his wife.  We are also practicing Catholics to clarify before jumping in.

Ok so the number one issue is financial, we don't have the money yet to get married and bring children into the world, but I am working on trying to find him a career-path.  I am working on my own education as well as hold down a full-time job at the same time, and by the time I am completed (little over a year from now) I will have ""adult-money"" substantial in working on buying a house, ect...  I love my chosen career path,  and I am definitely excited about it. 

The issue with my bf is that he has no direction, motivation, or drive and I would like to find some way to help him with that.  He currently in a job that I helped him get that he has had since December, but before then he was unemployed, and before that, he went from job to job never really holding them down for a long time.  He is in a cycle of having a job for a short period of time, quitting it (with no other job lined up), then feeling guilty about quitting the job, and not having any self-confidence because of it, and then not doing anything because he has no drive.  Wash-rinse-repeat.  He lives under his parent's roof, and I have an apartment and don't have any family of origin so I've been on my own for years now.  His parents are incredibly supportive which is definitely a good thing, but I feel as if they do not push him enough in life and let him kinda just do whatever.

The job he currently has is really just a stepping-stone.  He doesn't get paid a lot, but he doesn't have a license in that field or any higher education.  I set up some ground rules when he went into it.  Number one, if you dislike the job you must find another job, or an educational path/program before quitting and you must be offered the job or accepted into the school program.  Number two, I want you to figure out a career path in the next couple of months.  I'm not sure whether or not I was being too hard on him but I did also tell him if anything comes up with his mental health at work, and he feels like he cannot continue working that we should talk about it together and figure out a course of action from there.  I didn't want to make him feel uncomfortable by any means, my goal is to challenge him, set up a routine, learn discipline, and figure out a life-plan.  So far I'm succeeding and he's been at this job the longest that he's ever been at a job and it seems to be working.  

Since we are now months in I'm at the point where I'm trying to find him a career-path and this is where we are struggling.  Well not with our relationship, but rather he is struggling in trying to come up with a career choice, and he basically says he is completely disinterested in just about everything.  He says he could do anything if the price is right, but I can't see him holding a job forever if he's not interested.  He needs to get some kind of education or certificate and I'm trying to find him a direction.  He prefers manually laborious jobs to anything ""that makes you sit inside all day"" so that's the only answer I get.  He has expressed interest in accounting, and home inspection, but has completely ruled out electrical work (actually tried it and didn't like it), plumbing, carpentry, or medicine.  He is a very talented illustrator, articulate writer, and charismatic speaker.

I absolutely love him, am in no means want to seem like I am ""hating on him"" on the internet.  This is not the case, I come here out of a place of love-seeking advice on what to do because he is an amazing person and he has so much potential.  He's a man of strong faith, and he wants to build a life together.  I'm just asking for some advice, sorry if it was too long.",6.247627893845287,5.7142864310559025,7.1270906267645415,76.55107636928292,66.05590062111801,10.398927159796727,31.46315640880859,9.910423181423305,2.8108447204968945,3167,106,633,62,44,1063,310,805,0.05,0.7909999999999999,0.159,0.9983,21,0,0,0,0,0,102.0,8,5,2,17,33,31,1,2,47,1,77,6,0,4,6,146,123,67,0,20,37,3,5,4,2,6,3,3,1,3,28,54,0,4,21,0,5,12,22,3,2,3,15,9,62,28,102,95,13,102,1,0,1,3,88,55,0,25,34,429,90,34,0.0,0.0,0.04240946254251606,0.0,0.0,0.16986951623339866,0.0,0.0,0.04351765184314077,0.0,0.0,0.0695078794860906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11821373748159256,0.045570279525447135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14305136477032393,0.0,0.08125611329561004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07947613604201513,0.0,0.14792075194844012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1123075726761471,0.13669699035249425,0.0,0.0,0.034698268684689164,0.04808627068684778,0.0,0.028027292908023624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04490449705114923,0.0,0.0,0.0393109195958844,0.0,0.0,0.039057914474570334,0.0,0.040969033600123286,0.0,0.08789618162879631,0.031046933491990995,0.0,0.0,0.19860251128586084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589377905728116,0.0,0.024698604206812854,0.03645113034437198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03893049606792273,0.042906509775645314,0.0,0.04619460981495621,0.0,0.0,0.058258956489546834,0.0,0.043592660966500066,0.0,0.0,0.05014555261634863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09071927003303436,0.6468914246928753,0.0,0.0,0.13576677446207186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04443950743312937,0.0920885826941844,0.08492698331857672,0.043557075836985454,0.03837486479837225,0.07691923702630485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03694706778229186,0.1568928431834657,0.0,0.05801809460529631,0.0,0.0,0.09467861935714572,0.0,0.0,0.04379618965893761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06937670542335787,0.0,0.03194717530685683,0.03222410603494492,0.03351806046267674,0.0,0.04621886443665698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058897535697047185,0.033052331109876085,0.0,0.0,0.09651157851071858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03794649665045868,0.04540513497173408,0.0,0.041082557666576855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18489488340077725,0.0,0.0,0.05568156504559209,0.0,0.0,0.04665842421206546,0.0,0.03711352764412695,0.0,0.06912027082881947,0.0,0.043982566380787735,0.034630990220447966,0.07912641182735833,0.04533694520995802,0.0,0.0,0.07189903984232758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04864850290309406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908650246919138,0.0,0.0,0.0986329293113336,0.040959349393576455,0.0,0.0,0.034930490095859135,0.037984855446884284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02887205667339925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126705707786995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14752816329310714,0.0,0.04245287548055828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03585801296757276,0.1281654580777715,0.0344955260324871,0.0,0.0,0.07814925528734383,0.08057337722097177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214693689723776,0.0,0.0,0.06174368590197511,0.0,0.0,0.08395801370356316
schizophrenia,mirqued,2020/02/25,"Is it safe for me to take psychedelics? I have paranoid schizophrenia but for the past few years it has been EXTREMELY mild and I've been doing really well. My boyfriend wants to do LSD with me, and I know for a fact it is safe/not tainted with etc.. but could this trigger my schizo to come back super bad? I smoke weed regularly and once I'm sober again I'm fine but when I get to a certain level of high I start to hear and see things but I can remain calm, so I'm curious if the same would happen with LSD? Or would/could it leave lasting effects?   
Thanks for any input",1.2996778711484571,3.4009248991596657,2.2590126050420203,96.52924719887956,81.52100840336134,5.311204481792718,20.00070028011204,6.42735559955562,-0.06147114845938353,449,12,102,4,12,141,80,119,0.059000000000000004,0.735,0.20600000000000002,0.9629,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,5,8,0,0,4,0,11,0,0,2,2,24,24,12,0,4,6,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,8,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,2,2,10,7,13,20,3,10,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,7,62,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14892329484571826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16839271590836913,0.1828506771310302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18864376921969966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3496974621089564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24423597741115696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441522280793658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936554956991552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468219306203948,0.0,0.0,0.2313789752023817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12035326629003767,0.17850917718548606,0.0,0.23188281590408674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.233221251739175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090543634892752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14029303709388205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17450970681650352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15500494007339605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646560848434139,0.0,0.0,0.2016200699580373,0.0,0.0,0.14548975103488113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12916821823909985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969017279221484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3111338271281052,0.0,0.0,0.141024828369416
schizophrenia,113scorpion,2020/02/25,"A really brief synopsis of my dad. I love him so much but he needs help, how did your family help you or how did you help get your family treated? My father is a veteran from late 90’s starting out in army, to air force and deployed a few times Middle East, ending in DC with the DIA. He thinks he’s getting gangstalked, drone monitored, and of course the world is ending, and this is all happening because his path is ferociously with god since he woke up from a overdose induced coma like 9 years ago. He also witnessed 9/11 from building 9. Not all of his trauma and stories can be proven/ are true. But the 9/11 part is. I need him on something for his emotions and thoughts and I’m having a hard time convincing him to get help because he has a lot of control so when he does go to a doctor he plays is SO COOL AS A CUCUMBER like nothings going on. Help",3.5067904509283814,4.7646266551724175,4.549540229885056,86.28409814323608,72.67816091954023,7.652696728558798,27.75243147656941,8.139509932561175,1.7262410256410259,674,25,139,10,13,220,111,174,0.04,0.732,0.228,0.9898,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,4,0,1,7,9,0,0,11,1,13,3,0,4,3,25,27,17,0,2,4,2,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,9,0,1,3,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,4,2,14,8,20,22,6,22,0,0,0,1,26,10,0,2,11,82,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1334728561295758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12041225051761535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18357439902772954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16887912821225112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15411666423599651,0.13176643676091598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16937305987155432,0.2667239262010712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2838914709409217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23600272408991846,0.0,0.17114689955583035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13315018578341906,0.0,0.13488279832342806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5046256709009497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16985160027263335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14712359615442158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12801079861982892,0.1358969693616455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11068763152670248,0.22329423123100506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444777467880196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16305463565392264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09646017989693427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12455458663794848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159175630094083,0.0,0.0,0.10657552729710863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09648035882894107,0.0,0.11953722635950305,0.17559930805959925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09696333186760388
schizophrenia,UltiixMLG,2020/02/25,"Thank you Geodon for giving me my life back I’m 15 and just suffered a first psychotic break. Had to stay in the psych ward for a week calibrating medications and doses. Tried Seroquel first but it wasn’t strong enough at max dose. 


Switched to Geodon (ziprasidone) in the psych ward and I feel like I have myself back. Just so thankful that I was able to control my schizophreniform disorder this quickly. I’ve heard it can cause nausea and acute prolonged QT interval but for me it does none of that. 


Thank you modern medicine for getting my psychosis under control.


Would love to hear others experiences with geodon and Cogentin as well.",4.217307692307692,7.096253743589751,3.4415598290598304,87.75413461538461,75.66666666666667,5.951282051282053,26.84401709401709,7.1686216300943375,1.3933196581196574,516,20,92,6,12,151,82,117,0.040999999999999995,0.711,0.248,0.9843,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,5,7,8,0,0,4,0,6,5,0,3,0,15,16,9,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,7,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,2,4,3,11,7,15,11,2,13,0,1,0,1,6,4,0,0,8,61,18,2,0.1729577696372749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659876976101683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17767527282782555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38797369109173385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1982245883627564,0.0,0.15135650975142093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17871161056143314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16918588669921344,0.0,0.0,0.08745264512811432,0.12356106518746565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.294235580995897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903632960667895,0.1659168527188089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19493597656902165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221651876637318,0.08449842981037453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15610113981981416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17423675682932566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843499696698235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4777088300184078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11742697233753573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13873629015118286,0.0,0.15550980629701067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12286423714948196,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Bb_96,2020/02/25,"I want to share an experience Don't take this the wrong way - I believe in conventional treatment and am grateful of my meds and my psychologist - but I was actually able to meditate clearly. 

I have some pretty big traumas that I haven't worked through. I've been shutting them down and have never tackled them. Lately I've been trying to establish a work out routine and have begun doing yoga (because my body is extremely stiff) and when yoga class finishes you have to lay down and relax. Now, I'm very sure that I got lucky but I actually meditated for just a short moment - and it's the first time - in I don't even know how long - that I had a single train of thought. And it actually helped! I feel like that particular moment is now processed and it was really nice to feel that *one* moment and *one* natural train of thought without it being constantly interrupted. It's not a lot but it's one more than before and I'm proud. It might not happen again for a while but that's okay, you know? 

So if you have the energy and curiosity I would recommend trying out yoga or something like that.",3.305691096901132,5.421403233644863,4.9035661583866235,79.96738071815055,75.07476635514018,8.056665027053617,26.216428922774227,8.841846274778883,2.1443682242990656,868,32,165,19,19,292,121,214,0.04,0.7390000000000001,0.221,0.9905,0,0,1,1,0,0,23.0,0,3,2,4,8,11,0,0,9,1,20,2,1,1,3,41,32,22,0,3,10,0,2,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,15,14,0,1,6,4,0,0,7,2,0,4,8,2,19,9,19,21,4,26,1,0,0,0,7,9,0,6,18,120,34,3,0.14666237814334826,0.0,0.4293639742965476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894040244452068,0.0,0.12479888160542107,0.16523827695244195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16290883945083087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15848992800858133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09686911755785037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434639481281222,0.0,0.0,0.14831381020134699,0.10477563225013678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12475094392622142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11729930166445465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296930566322209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0983047005592376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612036149500787,0.0,0.16544155070923802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14330365951594118,0.0,0.0,0.12979158946097244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12468710920120045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16290883945083087,0.0,0.0,0.15558560634665874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131150674729666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2981466692463376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492083646484871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09395567494345312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11290786397025325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13822755572215514,0.0,0.1102718560056326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328670917984137,0.08552001212298878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991482551759796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12101182169505482,0.08650527052013701,0.1164137691984056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1413772988710188,0.0,0.2135439160577016,0.0,0.0,0.10418474548383552,0.16035228705391671,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,blackberrii,2020/02/25,"Has anyone found a successful strategy for getting yourself to take care of your dental health? I'm at the end of my rope with myself because I just can't take care of my teeth. I've been trying to find out how to make myself for most of my life and none of the things I've tried have worked long term. I know they're in not great shape, but saveable shape and I'm desperately trying to get my shit together and fix this before anything gets too bad. 

I've tried setting alarms/reminders, I've tried asking someone else to check in w me abt it, I've tried to just talk myself into doing things (this was the least successful, believe it or not), and I'm at my wit's end because I just feel like I'm hardcore failing no matter what.

**(TW: Descriptions of tactile hallucinations, delusions, dentists, needles, syringes, shots, dental work, and potential body horror in the form of bones and teeth in the next paragraphs. End TW is marked for convenient reading)**

I've tried to brainstorm more by myself but lately it's been incredibly triggering. I am medicated, and my meds work pretty well; but I've found that if I think about this, even objectively, I spiral into an episode. I start feeling like all my teeth are loose to the point where I can move them with my tongue and fingers and I have uncontrollable panic attacks. (My boyfriend is usually able to reality check me by gently poking at them and confirming that they're not loose, but I don't like making him do that.) I'm **convinced** that my body is rotting from the inside out and that ALL my bones are hollow or full of cavities. 

I'm have trypanophobia to the point where thinking about getting injections or having someone use syringes on me can cause panic attacks, and knowing that dentists have to give me a shot to numb my gums for dental work just makes me avoid them harder.

**(End TW)**

I am lucky enough to have dental insurance, and I'm extra lucky that it's pretty good. So I want to get on this while I can.

I have been working on this with my therapist, and it's helped a bit. But they don't have Schizophrenia and can't *really* get it. I really want to talk to other people who experience this or similar things because I've found that clinical advice only helps me manage the symptoms that occur because of this problem and don't help me manage the problem itself.

Does anyone have any ideas? Anything that's worked for you? Or even advice for making dentist visits more manageable? I could really use some help.",3.6184742629171933,5.868845033472803,4.2976500924394285,84.04988469397684,74.60669456066945,6.873289870584802,25.55142551328209,7.8205782467293705,1.5397088060718112,1978,69,364,29,43,630,220,478,0.142,0.747,0.111,-0.9688,0,1,0,0,0,0,65.0,0,2,4,9,14,25,3,4,14,0,32,18,9,9,2,74,69,30,0,6,18,0,3,3,0,0,9,0,0,0,30,23,0,1,11,1,2,2,10,12,1,0,7,3,47,13,53,61,14,35,0,1,0,0,17,21,1,10,14,232,77,13,0.07125825684130947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13926548774651035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0484580582018372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09965086004088093,0.0,0.11727894756685114,0.0,0.06661685098902947,0.16213310866591052,0.0,0.0,0.05949766800311671,0.1737534879009378,0.0,0.06063552815334326,0.0802836537096379,0.0,0.0,0.07779556074399574,0.15830371865320056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14530508392716224,0.07320185876625883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05689391975065405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062358580762748826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05952712993110889,0.0,0.2524546599608805,0.07362882784981388,0.0,0.09413081318211762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06970424857825534,0.0,0.0,0.07206063146003977,0.10181382585100887,0.0,0.0,0.06512875580078732,0.0,0.0,0.23439300183201905,0.0,0.0,0.223376988740962,0.06835741308490245,0.0,0.059768045013393674,0.0,0.07856247973128927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07574419483599773,0.0,0.0,0.19105163000456585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08044189838900513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07832334879114497,0.0,0.08038241750819511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05033181416403314,0.1044395546972416,0.0,0.0,0.06306131493798663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902617590840269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07915185932660028,0.07178519701878187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.075736249876281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07578396455803099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054195115347847565,0.0,0.1672124219082819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049401503042483315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347241708382534,0.0,0.0,0.14499053002674736,0.0,0.13636905631867682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07127754033761502,0.0,0.1369495920134748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07314557663893789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1207537795597156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05043696095651401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07406461315736054,0.10715468189036244,0.11454937526849855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08273632842242652,0.1420224585560553,0.09131882740321716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3386577521629581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12308850962005895,0.07848090262000525,0.0,0.08405993224555458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06406973067295195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3112611579732974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,systemONoxy,2020/02/25,"My view and experience with schizophrenia and antipsycotics. Im 21 and diagnosed with schizophrenia since 15.

I am not alloud to be put on any antidepressants (SSRI's) as they make me want to kill weirdest things i ever took.  I  was on zyprexa (Olanzapine) 30mgs daily, made me just wide awake in a  dream state with no thouts and no emoitions absulute trash for me imo.  Then I researched and told them I need on Seroquel (quetiapine) which  they wanted me stay on olanazapine even tho it was doing nothing but  negative things, but finally got my own doctor to sort it out and was on  450mg daily for 4 years now down to just 150mg right before bed, with  5mg  Nitrazepam (highly need due to the weird body tension around lungs  and heart not sure how to explain it just weird and thouts of the most  simplest health issues comming into mind if it real or in my head when  I'm on the quetiapine this happened me with any antipsycotic tho  quetiapine just being the worst as I have been on it so long but its  lessened since I droped from 450mg to 150mg on my own (Don't do this) it  worked for me because I knew what I needed to do and I really dont want  be on the 150mg but my doc said I must for while to make sure no bad  withdrawls but hes scared to take me off wants me goto my psydoc fuck  those do it by book fucks trying put me in unit everytime. The best  thing I ever took was the 5mg  Nitrazepam  as I felt myself, down to  earth and able to think fine and not overthink these stupid things, but I  want of the 150mg quetiapine at night after 5 years been on em I  seriously want off I'd rather go on small dose of benzos or a barbituate  tbh, **I dont know why these are  prescirbed as easily as they are, they do serious mind altering things  no one even knows what its doing to their brain, I only seen this when  I've been able to be off them. Take care and do research on your SSRIs   and antipsycotics! Before taking anything.**

I  know benzos are considered ""worse"" but trust me their much safer. Its  fucked that I can bearly get a 30mg codeine tablet for a migraine let  alone any benzo, but yet they'll throw antipsycotics at me all day (and  SSRI's if it wasnt on my file that I cant be on SSRI, thank god) Really  do your research please people this shit is not to be messed with.

(Yes  there is times their needed but after a while things get manage able  just learn within yourself.) My experience (no hate towards anyone.)  Also because I've been doing well this is why the doctor is worried I  might swing round even worse eventually but till then I want to keep  comming off as I dont feel myself, but the 5mg Nitrazepam helps alot  with the side effects of quetiapine(seroquel) But I'd be happier to be  able to take 10mg diazepam morning and with 10mg nirtazepam at night,  this much safer atleast I will have brain cells left and not be  emotionaly dead. (I have had alot of experience with benzos I have all  angles researched to help myself and know whats best for me).",3.8745225747406975,5.149548810402688,4.541720561317877,86.62663209273953,71.80201342281879,7.498718730933496,24.451494813910926,7.924219607001951,1.133323489932886,2345,65,488,31,44,750,274,596,0.121,0.76,0.12,-0.1779,0,1,0,0,0,0,51.0,0,2,10,4,23,25,7,2,18,1,52,16,7,5,7,98,97,51,2,15,27,0,3,0,0,4,6,1,1,0,32,29,0,1,11,2,0,6,17,16,1,1,19,6,62,9,81,64,12,67,0,0,3,3,19,37,4,9,22,324,94,12,0.2745192881815058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07107979796762445,0.0,0.05488324389441578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14001189722319907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04798756729697106,0.0,0.05647649590353158,0.061095091987610074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0573030347383074,0.08367220503976687,0.0,0.11679784747074905,0.0,0.14404552822616154,0.0,0.0,0.0762322608065278,0.0,0.15322715729503822,0.0,0.0,0.06997267751313113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04426055761574798,0.0,0.0,0.06965782472965219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14049106191600638,0.0,0.0,0.2413009209268127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135988050593112,0.1241592063430125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013994049722157,0.0,0.0,0.034701300121567115,0.0,0.0658953917568566,0.07518061545151053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190341493784194,0.07171249885452836,0.0,0.03900390944325712,0.0,0.054889538143245785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06068912498125845,0.0,0.0,0.06775774079386528,0.07043399712269569,0.07295029155907315,0.0,0.0813266695634808,0.09200224612491033,0.07251117502963847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07413198474559791,0.07163170362782746,0.0,0.06100133918377568,0.07592872973912393,0.0,0.1508686214849443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07456650246045067,0.07017864285410155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06073523285560532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649391970190108,0.0916218782691815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07280539570929813,0.1385931122055153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10090163170376967,0.20355257376531635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12880887775587976,0.0,0.06585216520907496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04650534357170199,0.0521960722437324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047579277305788335,0.0,0.0,0.0753349354570589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13798385367929172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07811576246781084,0.08793204273859477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05860949303977465,0.06528267683626479,0.0,0.06871042443667873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07044752609253559,0.11354259599389553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07315025881198611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12936559015437074,0.0,0.206404340365544,0.0,0.0,0.06318511943199544,0.0,0.0,0.2735676254010878,0.04397521881592011,0.0,0.0,0.040018601141068096,0.0,0.0,0.06557873603076847,0.15250051502210718,0.04659514418897542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2833575302581706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06170645212907915,0.0,0.12385547941998774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049963327826269666,0.0696969156579189,0.1398793037479341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08839071056024098
schizophrenia,sperglordxd,2020/02/25,Being god Who else thought they were god in their psychosis?,5.050909090909091,7.701506818181822,2.6454545454545446,95.68818181818185,71.72727272727272,4.4,29.181818181818183,3.1291,0.6469272727272729,49,2,9,0,1,13,10,11,0.0,0.682,0.318,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,6,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7248758463253709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6888795304072236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,omadhia,2020/02/25,"Can I get out of it in my life or is it permanent and Do i have to take my meds forever It's been 5 years of scrizophrenia now..
Taking meds daily",0.19818181818181912,1.643478515151518,3.003030303030304,93.12454545454548,82.03030303030303,6.824242424242425,20.090909090909093,7.793537801064563,0.5414727272727271,113,3,28,2,3,40,27,33,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,3,8,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,5,7,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,2,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18044693169373766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439522929466473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7672792206847542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5193659473892451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22241356479823132
schizophrenia,piersonadams1,2020/02/25,"Struggling!!!!!! Hi. I think God is making people read my mind. I know that others can see my delusions. Is this a form of Schizophrenia? Like, a sort of metapsychosis where others see my delusions but their knowledge of my delusions could be a delusion itself? Is there a medical term for this?",2.7953369272237194,5.807776566037736,2.502479784366578,90.60660377358492,85.22641509433961,3.7832884097035038,24.552560646900268,5.288315135182226,0.5522636118598387,230,9,39,1,7,68,37,53,0.0,0.9,0.1,0.6134,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,4,0,6,1,0,1,0,8,11,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,7,1,4,9,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,1,2,31,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26347766443540915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18135903714046325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16122103537544266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22027715850187848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3324396725421069,0.0,0.0,0.3332053164733232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22878002954054905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33008869730125384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5259335849454279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3449870179726764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21145028738245186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,schitzo192,2020/02/25,"Schitzo and trying to be productive Hey there,

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I don't know if anyone can relate but, being a schitzophrenic and being productive just doesn't mix well with me. Feels like I have no energy to do anything productive at all. Not sure if that's the medication or the pathology itself, but every time I try to commit to something (like going to college or working) just feels like I can't complete anything. 

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I'm seeing my friends and relatives growing older, getting careers and what not, getting married... and I'm just here same as I was 12 years ago when I developed this unfortunate pathology. Feels like crap, was wondering if there are people who can relate with me or have been in the same situation adn have gotten out of it, thanks.

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Schitzo192",5.887855313700385,7.952479091549296,6.064263764404613,74.57734314980794,67.94366197183099,8.543918053777206,33.331626120358514,9.095868883498916,3.2876253521126766,629,29,99,12,11,200,91,142,0.1,0.7390000000000001,0.161,0.8637,0,0,1,0,0,0,29.0,0,0,0,1,8,9,1,0,4,0,16,4,1,0,3,31,29,15,0,3,13,0,3,4,1,0,3,0,0,0,6,8,0,0,5,0,0,2,6,1,1,0,4,4,9,8,12,22,3,10,0,0,1,0,3,3,1,7,9,74,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10845974289979624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3977126395502575,0.4460217583914903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0855530017178916,0.0,0.2013743985459463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12828620106477584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10308881133263607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18559809693255014,0.2622299019104224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945306621231044,0.0,0.12785018877343707,0.0,0.06953679295624739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06724274723701233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391046071256755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232591285483649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08482509579799183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09750057034254836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375314083190012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419435116729688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11531752055924199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11264744048927634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07134580152775362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16614113510590214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11001124879562964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13268806602564645,0.08907541915804165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4460217583914903,0.07879218554264229
schizophrenia,Intro-Bert,2020/02/25,"Advice request We are struggling with a family member that we strongly believe is an undiagnosed schizophrenic. He's been been showing symptoms for about 5-6 years. My wife was the first to pick up on something being off and I initially dismissed it before realizing that something was off. 

He's dismissed out pleas to seek help. He's been evicted multiple times for his outbursts. Destroyed an apartment. Been kicked out of his father's/grandparents home. Charged with vandalism and uttering threats. The father funded his move to our province a few thousand kilometers away last year. He's essentially wrote him off. Now my wife, sister-in-law and myself are trying to bare the burden of taking care of him and pleading with him. 

The management company of the condo he is currently living in has been forwarding complaints to his landlord.  He's been suffering violent outbursts, threating to burn the building down, hanging out in the buildings laundry room and smoking. Intimidating other residents of the building by screaming at all hours of the night, and so on.

He does NOT trust me. I'm ex-military and with that, he thinks I am apart of a government conspiracy involving Free Masons. The police have been called multiple times to his door. When they arrive and knock he simply ignores them. The landlord whos been really patient through this whole debacle is under pressure by the condo management to address the complaints. She's had enough will be evicting him. We're cosigners on his lease. Due to the potential for violence and us having a small child, we will not take him in. 

We're located in Alberta and have contacted multiple organizations who are useless in terms of recommending resources. 

He's going to be homeless and it's eating my family up. 

What can we do? 

EDIT: probably spelling. This was typed on my phone.",5.875385626643293,8.478013782208588,6.107769500438214,72.01013803680985,69.15337423312883,9.197020157756354,35.569237510955304,9.696096459569628,4.124231726555653,1487,78,224,37,28,474,193,326,0.15,0.8170000000000001,0.033,-0.9894,4,0,2,0,0,0,39.0,6,0,2,2,4,15,4,2,20,0,30,3,0,1,1,30,38,13,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,2,1,8,1,10,22,1,1,2,1,2,4,2,11,0,2,13,1,28,5,50,20,5,42,0,2,0,0,43,26,0,0,14,160,38,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670064811901122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16057096292855305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454276483837265,0.19255151753802824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17451321068265793,0.0,0.17424913493197716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14956020064572045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17487857904199253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17659064930332052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222282274550125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453717867937403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09712930419415937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455408288510915,0.0,0.17143174538098402,0.0,0.16830709270521818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13931046310557518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15091233031632992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18164506935695846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16038285455282764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18426459870886844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10948618035322737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2631421841285211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17866711312933692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776358324559505,0.2569987245961257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095090842519283,0.0,0.0,0.1993122709563416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11603334123431334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055777867109368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19080943558012756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2201145561173419
schizophrenia,Ihaveanelephant,2020/02/25,"Invega Sustenna Hey,

Has anyone gotten muscle twitches from taking Invega? I'm paranoid about having ALS.  Thanks. <3",4.515789473684208,6.431256368421053,5.144631578947369,64.94642105263159,116.89473684210527,5.730526315789473,19.589473684210525,6.742157984588678,2.2961494736842107,97,3,9,2,5,31,18,19,0.096,0.7659999999999999,0.139,0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5070223854180748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5452017413445122,0.0,0.0,0.6675952081313025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,edwardmuch,2020/02/26,"Does anybody else feel like your voices are trying to get inside of your head again? At night I can hear whispering which is just loud enough to make out a few words. I take medication, so I’m thus not totally psychotic anymore, but these whispers are an unwelcome reminder of how unwell I have been in the past. Tonight I have a whisper in my right ear ...it’s telling me I am going to die. Does anybody else feel like the voices are trying to get into your head again?",3.951566820276497,5.365152021505376,4.563471582181262,86.00806451612905,71.79569892473118,7.464823348694317,27.264208909370197,7.957251820313856,1.5977692780337946,370,13,74,5,7,118,66,93,0.098,0.8490000000000001,0.053,-0.7399,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,3,0,0,5,3,0,0,5,0,9,4,3,3,1,12,18,3,1,0,3,0,2,2,0,0,1,8,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,10,10,2,11,17,3,12,0,0,0,0,5,6,0,0,7,48,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19066572190435307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19953077885186465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364880375576097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3212094772997321,0.0,0.0,0.19865124805446926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944202399137642,0.2746946293340243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20089104995013812,0.0,0.10926318905872637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.394619065300354,0.0,0.21668583767164493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18785257978192396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283319896663826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19367711528295145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180418693453768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835295581625399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641850832403695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14455215378288785,0.0,0.16803971622479294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610576283972363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,teachpeace1999,2020/02/26,"My boyfriend who I love very much left me a little over a month ago because of psychosis he had that led him to believe I was cheating with his roommate I’m kinda just venting here. This might be long.

I (20F) was with my boyfriend (20M) on and off since we were 16 years old. He is my first love. I love him with everything in me. Knowing that he is experiencing this hurts me deeply & I just hope he’s doing better now but I don’t really have a way to know 

He had other psychosis experiences in the past, one that I know of that happened a couple of years ago. This was when we were 18 & he ate a weed brownie, had a bad reaction to it which led to psychosis & long story short someone in the neighborhood called the police on him & he was arrested for public intoxication. From there he was sent to a mental hospital where they speculated it could be schizophrenia. But he had his doubts. & tbh I kinda had my doubts to. I kinda thought maybe he just had a bad trip. & I’ve been to the same state mental hospital he was in before myself & know that the care there often isn’t the best. I thought maybe they diagnosed him too quickly without exploring other possible conditions. 

Anyways, fast forward to a few months ago in November. My grandmother, who was more like a mother to me, passed away 3 days after I turned 20. It seems as if when she passed away, it was almost like something in my boyfriend shifted. He was there to support me in the time leading up to the funeral, but as it came closer he was kind of distant with me & it really hurt me because of what I was going through. I could tell something was off with him but I was so broken myself in dealing with the loss it was hard for me to be there for him. 

A week after my grandma passed, I was staying the night with him. We tried to have sex, but he couldn’t get hard, something that’s never happened before. He then began to appear really stressed & I asked him if he was okay & he said no. He started talking in circles & then out of nowhere he asked me if I wanted to go through his phone. Also unusual bc in our relationship we’ve never gone through phones. But before I could even answer, he unlocked his phone, opened Snapchat, & started trying to point out the girls to me that he’s had sex with in his past. I didn’t want to hear this because it hurt me so I told him to stop. A couple days later, he admitted to me that he had cheated on me six months ago. 

In the days ahead, he was acting really apologetic. Apologizing for so many random things that have happened in our past. Telling me how he wishes he could have been a better man for me. I tried explaining to him we were 16 year old kids when we got together, I definitely didn’t expect him to be a perfect “man”. He was just my best friend I’ve always loved being around who I also happened to be romantically attached to, but he wasn’t understanding me. Another thing, boyfriend was a regular weed smoker. Also during this time, he stopped smoking weed, which I think also might have triggered some of this. 

Fast forward to the day after Christmas. He went from being loving to me to thinking I was the enemy. It was hard for me to understand exactly what he thought I did, because he wasn’t making a lot of sense. It started off with him texting me and asking me if any of his friends have ever tried to talk to me. I told him no & brushes it off 

Night after Christmas I went to stay the night with him. Everything started out fine. We went to get food & while we were out he started accusing me of being involved with one of his friends, but he wouldn’t say who or what I supposedly did. I got really offended because I’ve never cheated on him. My heart really belonged to him. 

Like thirty minutes down, we’re laying down & I’m trying to help him relax. He apologized to me for accusing me of things & says he doesn’t know why he is thinking like this. I try to comfort him & tell him I’m here. He was really distraught. Again, apologizing for things that happened years ago. When I told him I forgave him for everything, he seemed to calm down. 

But just a few minutes later he stands up & starts punching the bed. I ask him what’s wrong & he explains that he a few days before he had a dream or something that I was having sex with his roommate & how he now feels that it really happened. I was so shocked because I actually dislike the roommate. Me & boyfriend have even had disagreements in the past over me not liking this roommate. This is boyfriends best friend & definitely not someone I would want to have sex with. 

He got really mad at me & said he was going to his mothers house which is like 10 mins away to pick something up. When he was leaving he asked me if I was going to go in his roommates room & lay with him. He said “y’all folks have fun” as he left the house. I went back in boyfriends room & laid down & cried. 

30 mins or so later, boyfriend returns along with his mother. He walks in & I’m laying in the bed naked bc I planned on just going to sleep. He tells me I have to get up & leave because he “can’t do this shit right now.” I get up & get dressed & he’s still talking shit about how I fucked his roommate. “I thought you was my best friend. I knew I had nobody but I thought I had you” he said. I have a bad habit of smiling or laughing when nervous & I fucked up & smiled, probably adding to his suspicion. 

I didn’t know what to do. Looking back on it, I regret the way I handled it. I wish I would have taken it more seriously some how. & asked him more questions so I could have tried to understand what he was even thinking in the first place. Now I know that what he was thinking & feeling was very real to him. & I smiled in his face.

After that night, he was very distant from me, barely talking to me, acting very cold. There was nothing I could do to get through to him. & I was worried about him. So I texted his mom & asked if he was doing better. I hoped that she could be there for him in ways I couldn’t. All she really said was that he was doing okay. He told his mom that I cheated with his friend, so I think she might still believe that. 

About five weeks ago he blocked me entirely & I have had no communication with him since. There was no goodbye, see you later, nothing. He just blocked me. I went from talking to him everyday for years from having no idea what’s going on with him. I feel heartbroken I lost my grandma & my boyfriend back to back. But more than anything I just hope that he is doing better now & is peaceful. If he is still having those delusions he was having back during Christmas, that is so concerning. But there’s nothing I can do. & it sucks.",3.1876007866273355,4.737682017699118,4.0479646017699125,88.40350049164209,73.95575221238937,6.851130776794496,26.27236971484759,7.457515093567415,1.2378508357915434,5280,186,1099,62,108,1694,405,1356,0.129,0.7390000000000001,0.131,0.7486,0,0,6,0,0,0,207.0,9,4,2,16,68,68,11,5,42,2,129,20,5,10,7,163,243,54,1,29,34,5,6,6,6,6,2,8,4,4,69,35,2,4,34,2,0,29,23,28,0,6,95,19,186,40,171,124,17,191,0,6,2,11,202,67,5,32,98,722,255,1,0.0,0.0,0.018415765938673903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10037015444082327,0.0,0.018896982949042476,0.0,0.0,0.060365812852551,0.015702518066280858,0.8383333952538371,0.0,0.012833200361914408,0.01978831023051181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.015529555745826332,0.01679954858457586,0.12349549271306115,0.0,0.053190909640313866,0.0725547156668071,0.0472704967687941,0.08052681971740495,0.0,0.06423269199943749,0.04252321500589036,0.07921748772608589,0.06676088534747654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.019269811201984715,0.021583856277169786,0.019240651863051374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10547095138347884,0.04176169433625495,0.020729348760647512,0.06085246489169448,0.01945558663044643,0.0,0.019154075601997285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037393148754470217,0.017070263349507817,0.0,0.0,0.05088119734802165,0.018459852112842692,0.0,0.0,0.02862584333902495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03210400948618757,0.022819373982225038,0.0,0.08747998937684275,0.03489261377588003,0.05915717135865714,0.0,0.07507536780029637,0.0,0.045279551899654616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100127509805679,0.0,0.05071520791459638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02126944137683464,0.02236270201263491,0.01264910284429214,0.0,0.0,0.05623068023088245,0.0,0.04355012794242998,0.06060667785064384,0.02130351561383291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.019651660980421613,0.07259860235282121,0.0,0.0,0.03996417941283035,0.041007666577219576,0.0,0.0,0.055317682171920186,0.01891410231343629,0.0,0.033401193515190684,0.01584722464032077,0.0,0.02060036433106987,0.016043790975112868,0.08516088463226837,0.0,0.012596807250125405,0.019132639456432683,0.03791771922326776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038035868856210936,0.060058725307378165,0.0,0.044203915449637886,0.04518891865437049,0.0,0.013872651705101132,0.0,0.04366436539346584,0.0,0.0,0.07083812887697867,0.0,0.05432285701707706,0.0,0.03960472338603131,0.0,0.025575500530669128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07205955350288808,0.0,0.0,0.01971659832319449,0.0,0.01783957449098262,0.021274670065808226,0.0,0.0,0.02034656295898533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.021140288955621138,0.0,0.0,0.021479786740730474,0.12089503232334932,0.0,0.0,0.02026082312397481,0.0,0.016116074038136027,0.08975512316639178,0.030014592331255963,0.0,0.0,0.0150380639576584,0.03435963090357284,0.0,0.0,0.038742445546844764,0.0312212371855524,0.0,0.018885030515364297,0.0,0.0319793550351038,0.07264063545102142,0.0,0.0,0.08014365200995098,0.04022880682904857,0.0452121775991244,0.031554673844993,0.021617127018887336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.021415043143052356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07584058971315896,0.06597774790688801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0501492832956712,0.07255219373417661,0.0,0.0749089254240285,0.022008132315848743,0.0,0.0,0.07212973260028095,0.0,0.08968710156565911,0.020526666114907936,0.0,0.05893738447438925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062283531480715276,0.03339252519435206,0.04493772110708948,0.030275000460628563,0.0,0.0,0.08746989273339327,0.01702850487895152,0.0,0.04340236150957165,0.018191357921792668,0.0,0.0,0.019164824582435284,0.0,0.026811404804337198,0.020632915402048372,0.0,0.06076282022715874
schizophrenia,NervousMood,2020/02/26,"I love to write, but feeling like I'm being watched/analyzed all the time holds me back from writing how I want. I avoid writing about anything too weird (and you know I could write weird if I tried), controversial, political, jokes, deep...this could be a long list, but you get the idea.

I managed to write an entire book in this fashion.

I'm just afraid if I wrote with my true voice, the early attempts would be terrible until I developed it into something worth reading, and it would all be used against me. I can't even practice.

I'm weighing the pros and cons of maybe easing up on myself a little bit...but it would just make me so paranoid.

Maybe I'll just write another non-controversial book about a schizophrenic main character. People liked the last one.",4.170799086757992,6.132500760273977,4.349520547945208,85.54884703196348,72.21917808219176,7.3324200913242015,27.92009132420091,8.07648339933343,1.7972118721461183,605,23,116,9,12,188,97,146,0.111,0.731,0.158,0.7291,0,1,1,0,0,0,26.0,0,2,0,1,10,10,0,2,9,0,10,3,0,3,3,36,21,10,0,8,7,0,1,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,4,5,1,2,3,4,1,0,1,5,0,1,1,2,16,5,13,11,3,11,0,0,0,1,10,5,0,2,8,71,20,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20241997017256488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15885602025868606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1484363567184095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21075041053791133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3082545284047391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127501539500953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09760716111938704,0.13790829059736295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10085578069764416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179194152956886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609010176529778,0.15735390785331266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18861983741610086,0.19347746126514967,0.0,0.17083491506637075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17422673817346093,0.0,0.12885614376048635,0.0,0.38787059151472747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308093514367892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13383009194643258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930929058756644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486121360543437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11256356492882667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13106194091580356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667251555669852,0.0,0.0,0.11386038651252303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4113916522602036,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,_bubblegum_gay_,2020/02/26,"Hello Hi! I’m new to this sub and suffer from either schizophrenia or manic depressive disorder, my doctor is afraid to diagnose me as I’m still a teenager. But, I am trying to get through everything and deal like a normal human. I rarely hear things out in public, but I do have a helpful voice that I’ve named Anna, who helps me find things. The other three that I have just speak and try getting me to respond, which I don’t as I’ve heard it isn’t a good thing to do. I’m happy to have found a sub whereas people have dealt with something similar if not the same! I hope you all have a wonderful day!!",3.3747644444444447,4.365306832000002,4.64746666666667,86.48017777777778,72.68,7.475555555555558,25.08888888888889,7.793537801064563,1.2388222222222214,474,14,99,6,9,157,84,125,0.07,0.7440000000000001,0.18600000000000005,0.9581,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,0,2,7,0,1,8,0,11,2,0,0,1,20,21,9,0,3,7,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,1,10,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,2,4,11,4,13,19,3,5,0,2,0,0,14,2,0,4,4,67,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12581658003789176,0.20112869518353693,0.16803028965089767,0.1980117231339498,0.0,0.0,0.22358945434849548,0.19968235702790196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17533385185395825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783082571615072,0.0,0.0,0.2139055533593557,0.0,0.0,0.20385241031481552,0.0,0.0,0.163631806093245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2076763870371665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198800309989584,0.0,0.2615287422208627,0.0,0.0,0.1937678802999352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953108692047409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1884186426336786,0.0,0.0,0.19114627625533745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1352504865225386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501894186290251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15579871666420114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3888263602084116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2649059119012756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115662271510016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Pandaswife95,2020/02/26,"Side effects from zyprexa after 9 months? My fiancé has been on zyprexa since June, and it’s worked really well for him with no side effects - up until 2.5 weeks ago. He says it makes his foot twitch and because of the twitching he can’t sleep (so I can’t sleep). I know involuntary muscle movements can happen with zyprexa, but everything says it’s rare for it to start this far into being on the med. There seems to be only 2 documented cases of this. Has anyone experienced this? He’s able to sleep once it’s day time...meanwhile I’m running on 3 hours a night if I’m lucky for the last two weeks. 

Side note: he usually doesn’t sleep the entire week leading up to his psychiatry appointments because he’s anxious - and this started the week before as expected. He has a Trazodone prescription but won’t take it. He also has tried to convince me he should just stop medication because the zyprexa is stopping him from sleeping. He absolutely refuses to talk to his psychiatrist about this issue because he already “hates being on medication and doesn’t want to try another”. No meds isn’t really an option for him at this point - when he’s off them he typically very quickly slips into severe psychosis and is almost immediately hospitalized by his treatment team due to homicidal ideation/tendencies.",7.561657848324515,7.852948790123455,7.641014109347445,71.19527777777779,63.15637860082305,10.564256319811877,36.287184009406225,10.290406445055957,3.7985134626690193,1048,46,181,22,14,339,147,243,0.081,0.88,0.039,-0.8709,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,0,1,5,8,4,1,0,9,0,18,10,6,4,0,28,29,13,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,12,9,0,3,4,1,0,3,8,1,1,1,1,3,12,3,34,23,0,39,0,0,0,0,25,15,0,5,21,103,24,3,0.10613624456493016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09408337691226124,0.0,0.10628011758301448,0.0,0.11712398512231338,0.08487711643260565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112931066159707,0.0,0.11990374587745667,0.0,0.07421292999040338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25879867826310243,0.0,0.09031412682096536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06844909731194163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09538841291040266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09385593054843724,0.0,0.0,0.10478756805328654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104522821378084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11077866426375034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05832970431029511,0.08651520513627615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07084676740853675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357868820160888,0.21384220059984044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08471693781288911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09960167565780008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130316365493525,0.0,0.08072139667398079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10033305737986338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13598719208432114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16880760334991812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09662245085334473,0.0,0.11990374587745667,0.0,0.08779699828579855,0.0,0.5310644744571343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15024756036662068,0.0,0.0,0.17746930584543175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07980124709421536,0.08530829301180183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06188889773087999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441190861870361,0.0,0.10367968874042012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1168940785725832,0.08757351725280595,0.06260190693967084,0.0,0.3405443734016239,0.0,0.09542923031442306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07726845011984103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jaydog180,2020/02/26,"Wish I could posts on Reddit without people snooping into my profile making assumptions about me. That’s things I need to get off my chest and I don’t feel comfortable doing it here. Had a random guy tell me “You should do your family a favor and leave them” out of the blue. I FUCKING LOVE MY FAMILY! I adore my children and would die for them. I’ve given them a great life full of love, stability, and support. 

He’s just one of many that have treated me poorly based off my profile page. It made me go and completely edit all my comments and deleted a bunch of posts.",3.4128070175438587,4.970140982456144,4.565789473684212,84.88885964912285,73.3859649122807,7.171929824561403,24.947368421052627,7.793537801064563,1.3298842105263158,448,14,88,6,9,147,79,114,0.040999999999999995,0.7240000000000001,0.235,0.9787,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,3,0,3,9,1,0,5,0,8,5,1,2,1,20,20,6,1,5,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,5,8,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,1,0,1,3,2,20,8,13,14,4,9,0,0,1,3,12,6,1,1,0,63,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19840680874111524,0.0,0.0,0.15108685438103364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19639359048390026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3567833582662196,0.0,0.09568170183847458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17494251408398095,0.09886623713597427,0.0,0.10754526259277386,0.0,0.0,0.2086296389314564,0.0,0.187370051494657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003700285880198,0.0,0.0,0.1336606004765052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3415796673732365,0.1790564867897044,0.12631424770428662,0.1918521821878784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1403135949030514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12822892519689438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13119007670934926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3624650952025342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21473894221431156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16539765645772392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12571774868466756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2176081817325756,0.1824134993085475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13442542862284546,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,acrimoniousfinn,2020/02/26,"Recently Diagnosed The other day I was diagnosed ""Other Specified Schizophrenia Spectrum and Other Psychotic Disorder"". My therapist thinks it may be Delusional Disorder, but I don't think it is. Should I tell them that? 

I am going back on March 18th for regular therapy sessions, and I will eventually get a clearer diagnosis. 

They offered to prescribe me antipsychotics, but I am still unsure about it due to the side effects. I'm most worried about the weight gain, because I have tried so hard to lose weight and I've been losing weight (lost 7.2 kg in 3 months). I'm worried the meds may reverse my progress.

Any advice about coping with the disorder/my situation?",5.686499999999999,8.094921316666671,6.200000000000002,71.985,69.16666666666666,10.133333333333336,35.33333333333333,10.355215969177356,4.421483333333333,538,28,85,16,10,174,85,120,0.165,0.769,0.066,-0.8894,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,2,6,6,3,0,0,6,0,12,5,0,1,0,13,19,6,0,1,2,0,4,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,7,4,3,0,3,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,3,4,12,0,10,11,1,11,0,3,0,0,4,3,0,3,7,56,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14177248594785885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866075919663927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1115591298991554,0.0,0.08844066222158628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09356591054276657,0.0,0.0,0.29451042410452505,0.0,0.0,0.3325531639403457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07579937549446596,0.0,0.08245346417613791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12996500676788494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3246193742937453,0.15837418004183088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1611534350068511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11580309655120938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14325100720243536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1630782865706744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11586270093886067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268080937529873,0.0,0.16591395158816755,0.1684514253810857,0.0,0.18592542035055573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985011786512556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5300125016346628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29467569894489143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,InigoArazco,2020/02/26,"Ok, so, how do I make people be normal around me again? I told some people and  now they act different.

I heard some talking about me killing them and many things else

Anothers just are nicer, but uncomfortably nicer

I don't know how to talk to them, now everyone is afraid of me and act very different",3.469661016949153,5.410520372881359,3.812000000000001,88.74952542372883,74.08474576271186,8.109830508474579,23.664406779661018,8.841846274778883,1.505417627118645,238,7,50,5,5,74,42,59,0.1,0.782,0.11800000000000001,0.0387,2,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,3,0,9,3,1,1,0,1,5,0,0,3,0,13,9,7,1,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,1,10,1,5,6,2,6,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,2,3,34,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446487225600561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20769777979652085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4875242541489623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19490283373331987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22294029573136465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25812594885337536,0.0,0.12822256544657992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15573804767456,0.23654247117073404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2285969218253665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3234993168596683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3750558420681436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15500259942193895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22294029573136465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19250742276355448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,avacadomonster101,2020/02/26,"Just a couple of questions For some reason I've been on an antipsychotic and it has really helped keep me stable, I'm trying to figure stuff out. My psychiatrist says BPD, but I'm convinced he secretly thinks I have schizophrenia because he recently refuses to tell me a diagnosis, and put me on geodon (an antipsychotic) I know I should just ask him what he thinks, but I know I won't believe him... I have trouble trusting people.

1) Is it common to constantly have thoughts argue with each other... like full out conversations in my head, but it's between two different thoughts and one of those thoughts has dialogue in a lower pitch thought than the other; so it feels almost like there's an actual conversation in my head, but like it isn't what I'm thinking because than it should just be one thought... right? Also, if I'm not thinking, music is always playing in my head.

2) I get wild spiritual beliefs such as thinking humans are resurrecting God via technological singularity, or that I'm a chosen one...

3) My memories don't feel like mine and I feel like I don't really exist... thinking that is more related to getting electric shock therapy.

4) Drugs and alcohol: whenever I smoke weed I like see faces on trees, see life in another dimension, and I either feel like I know every stranger I see, or I literally see the faces of loved ones who have passed on the strangers face... it creeps me tf out. All of that has happened multiple times so I know it's not like laced weed or anything. Also when I drink I get convinced someone is either the devil or jesus... again has happened multiple times.

I also don't know why my doctor would put me on an antipsychotic because I've never shared any of this with him... and don't plan on it. I think the dialogue stuff is annoying, but I'm able to exist with it. Also, I am really impulsive, but have been trying to stay away from substances because of how they make me feel.",6.738454627133876,6.661945846361184,7.457412398921836,73.06290206648698,64.9299191374663,10.732434860736747,34.37825696316263,10.398101306919678,3.5341227313566943,1523,62,282,34,21,508,183,371,0.066,0.807,0.127,0.9698,2,0,4,0,0,0,58.0,0,0,1,1,14,19,2,0,13,0,28,12,6,3,2,70,69,27,0,4,18,0,5,8,0,4,4,1,0,1,22,14,2,2,27,2,0,3,9,5,0,5,7,10,38,14,36,57,7,29,3,0,4,1,21,17,0,8,16,184,60,1,0.07698591263053059,0.0,0.07512714537599037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0822745276909645,0.07709027090743716,0.0,0.0,0.2462624260655647,0.06405844652147794,0.0,0.0,0.05235306054819358,0.08072644191848964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06335284647005311,0.0,0.07197143597525382,0.0,0.0723307991376578,0.0,0.0,0.18771959112865855,0.0,0.0,0.08673676039977035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09696106193852012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08319442180708367,0.0,0.0,0.08518344803022139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08043389308266281,0.0,0.07879834374978383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07541688553487788,0.08927921724178517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06486395176640725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19463195296925326,0.16499625409729124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206658856192608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13615677657859462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.237029270385768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05160203444285403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06842861643503123,0.0,0.0,0.2115472211309448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054377426834865454,0.3008914256209997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0694827918797612,0.0,0.05138869448628792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05937628185163405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20867058723810614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05337233838760882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15478421169086393,0.08624184119999506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14795744090422566,0.07915434016982784,0.07601430107294649,0.0,0.0,0.06574554874259303,0.0,0.06122228771207236,0.0,0.0,0.24539121986729526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06522991394311929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820567395625304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17626090248746873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06728908093053973,0.0,0.08804010048182632,0.0,0.0,0.34530624981116026,0.0,0.3055910760937621,0.08978220951834381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10453676237620677,0.0,0.07520405014940566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06946781175634735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054688583498987815,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,1010aa,2020/02/26,"Anyone else think the voices they hear are there own beings? Anyone else think that the voices they hear are their own beings? You can talk to them and have a conversation with them as if they are someone else? They tell you things out of this world?  Does anyone think that its obvious that their voices are someone else who arent from here?

if so, why do you think so? What makes you believe this? Can you have full conversations with your voices as if they were someone else?",3.8738736263736255,6.08672664835165,3.3693269230769265,91.16629807692308,73.72527472527472,5.868681318681317,19.06730769230769,6.6274283507984215,-0.03255054945054958,379,7,75,3,8,112,49,91,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,6,9,0,4,0,0,0,3,0,13,0,0,1,1,13,20,8,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,9,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,15,0,8,17,3,3,0,0,0,0,22,3,0,3,0,59,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29874306114919025,0.29184533882132474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604547748650937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12462975431314305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5948541072885071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32102778937609183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09506420768316176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620074501735837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114469094083081,0.12447841355644415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09461528202580743,0.3650193087853587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285088588086688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,galvandaniela,2020/02/26,My dad is going through his worse relapse yet My dad was diagnosed with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder 25 years ago and has now relapsed after finding out his brother was kidnapped in another country and has gotten himself in legal trouble. He thinks that everything is OK and normal but is currently incarcerated I’m not really sure he knows he tried to shoot a fire arm at an individual. He’s receiving medication to be able to sleep but is still very delusional and wants us to believe that he has a demon inside of him and that he doesn’t need psychological help but needs an exorcism instead. After 25 years he has received all kinds of help and is still in denial of what he has. Just wanted to share because going through a rough time right now currently 21 years old and just don’t know what to do or think...,9.730357142857144,7.8609283910256424,9.439890109890113,67.07653846153848,59.96153846153846,12.504029304029306,40.87545787545788,11.20814326018867,4.546299633699634,663,29,117,14,7,216,100,156,0.08900000000000001,0.8320000000000001,0.079,-0.1535,2,0,0,1,0,0,7.0,1,0,0,0,8,5,0,0,5,1,16,5,2,0,2,29,28,12,0,5,7,3,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,10,0,0,5,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,3,2,7,4,19,24,1,25,1,0,0,0,21,6,0,1,15,74,12,1,0.1678750547057721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14881110699547412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17603163215466555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10233507518871487,0.0,0.0,0.18913769934758695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17038964678421822,0.0,0.0,0.19239935670548344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15087527452353253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15343475868803086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19081452454288825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22504622102999813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17481603616663624,0.18451947950865855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16911645626456753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489544518544712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644819103626164,0.0,0.0,0.17615663028992307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10754505873096873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14336437946501407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16799629206259206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2681304710821562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582202523405243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21513511311569053,0.0,0.0,0.09788929441436424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11397614253721587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20193302090073828,0.0,0.0,0.1385145014302622,0.198034113516306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710790227123409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3243180936919431
schizophrenia,LargestSchlongus,2020/02/26,I am dating someone with Schizophrenia and I have some questions I am dating someone and really I have fallen head over heels for her. I want to know if there's some way I can understand better what she's going through so I can hopefully be a good spouse one day. What can I do to help when in psychosis? She means the world to me and I want to be there.,0.9529729729729725,3.1691985540540566,2.368851351351349,94.55435810810816,83.72972972972974,5.321621621621622,20.06081081081081,6.6274283507984215,0.16268108108108148,279,8,61,3,8,90,48,74,0.039,0.765,0.196,0.8519,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,2,0,10,2,2,0,0,14,17,6,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,13,3,9,15,2,10,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,5,4,47,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338475755695097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17052142203670567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15026927950154562,0.22177306247754666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27135910607727964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17722725023022254,0.0,0.0,0.2626170134638225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14531183779741128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2880180555117144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17916984659340646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961977087859423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16938667041377906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44806443799015816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752582723253722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119096266503965,0.20987493056384127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,emdrake777,2020/02/26,Question for others with Schizophrenia I’m wondering what other people’s experiences have been after getting diagnosed 18+? I’ve been nervous to get into treatment since mine has only gotten worse lately. I’ve heard stories that they generally want to admit you somewhere immediately for inpatient treatment. Is that common for them to do? I’m just looking to get medication but am worried they will want to admit me even if I say I don’t need to be hospitalized,4.404104575163398,7.4219925999999985,5.862745098039216,69.85124183006539,75.94117647058823,7.5424836601307215,30.62091503267974,8.515128840125781,3.1175228758169937,381,18,56,8,9,128,63,85,0.08199999999999999,0.8420000000000001,0.076,-0.3736,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,10,2,0,0,0,13,24,2,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,3,8,0,12,18,0,4,0,0,1,0,9,1,0,3,3,39,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24844108547373486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16167132709992202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394365456154424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3836539066486713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27611643147939396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20554903161063373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465846767030924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18149727820778652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861621274569925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16969590057947986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742035922012995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946546012915211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20248009398591785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28874882395364443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2654476325496189,0.0,0.2485805068910479,0.2494462480943203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,theinfamousbassline,2020/02/26,"Helping a friend who suffers with schitzophrenia [TL;DR] id like advice on talking to some one haveing a episode and alternative help compared to medicine.

Hey its currently 3am here in the UK suppose to be asleep but i have a friend who suffers and she rings me up at random times, telling me about experiences shes haveing and her paranoid thoughts. she refuses to take her meds due to the side effects and says the doctors wont switch her meds. as much as i can try talk her down from her episodes id like to see her recover as much as she can. 

If anyone has any advice on being able to talk to her down from her episodes or how to get her help please leave me a comment or a message.",4.02115107913669,5.167007841726619,4.432438848920864,88.04160791366907,71.3021582733813,7.2866187050359725,31.885611510791364,7.554174236665415,1.9351951079136684,546,25,114,6,10,172,86,139,0.068,0.7859999999999999,0.146,0.8847,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,8,0,10,2,1,2,0,15,14,13,0,1,4,0,0,2,2,1,1,2,0,0,3,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,3,18,4,24,10,3,11,0,2,1,0,29,8,0,5,5,76,21,1,0.16864920700915892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32960410643355703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11468724399395976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179234468301822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726196096526623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16497128570056713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605959179656599,0.0,0.0881122499229634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33912602545658715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17857515919956876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1647869674883634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3746624994899701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479531443563956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11428106734518935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851261848896939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13411661849719916,0.0,0.0,0.13439158289986058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12680321501810832,0.4066615328266252,0.14740684044070448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13388863206604382,0.09834070884803699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11450174113452373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,clownteeth222,2020/02/26,methods for overcoming dehabilitating hallucination? for the past 3 weeks ive been unable to leave my home due to disturbing hallucinations of what looks like headless cats throwing up and swarming around me every time i leave my own home - its not one of my worse hallucinations but its really affecting me & i can tell its hallucinations by them not appearing from the view outside when im in my own home but im finding it impossible to overcome. does anybody have any advice from a similar experience?,9.097912087912086,9.323612637362642,9.791516483516485,57.27848351648356,59.98901098901097,12.994285714285715,40.17802197802197,12.340626583579946,5.375292747252748,414,20,67,13,5,141,66,91,0.077,0.903,0.02,-0.4606,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,1,3,0,4,0,0,1,0,9,6,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,1,1,2,10,1,13,5,2,10,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,1,6,43,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17732015295158685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19661132535144774,0.0,0.12339870316939995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1615374536908377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1587964578678837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15288748062873933,0.0,0.0,0.1775022400635132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16585072334881526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5460561128243209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39201486283973264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3842788839647502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08865196066771418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15238030376687933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12296167399361295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17322365431953518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11624762169690415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1586036277028298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10581051142223301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14555588979899806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18492276397644897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jonallen125,2020/02/26,Curious about schizophrenia I’m an 18 year old male. I have pretty bad anxiety and my guess is that’s what it is and I hope nobody takes this offensively but here I go. I’ve been worried about me becoming schizophrenic for a few months now. It started with seeing little black dots in my vision but then found out they were just floaters. But today I could have swore I saw a bird fly by and then just disappear after touching the ground and then just an hour ago I felt a mosquito fly onto me and saw it out of the corner of my eye and it went behind me and I could not seem to find it after that. Another thing is I’ve been feeling like bugs crawl on my skin sometimes but like more a tingly feeling sometimes moving a bit but ik that could be from anxiety. I’m probaly gonna get checked out just to be sure but I wanted to hear from you guys what your thoughts are. Also to note I’ve had none of the other pre symptoms but heard that really only happens in 75% of cases. Thank you all very much sorry if this offends somebody,2.0599763033175336,4.1338538957346,3.176632701421802,91.07840876777254,78.76303317535546,6.115734597156397,22.398341232227487,7.1686216300943375,0.6926566824644547,816,25,171,10,20,262,132,211,0.09,0.7979999999999999,0.113,0.6101,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,1,0,9,8,2,0,10,0,15,4,2,0,2,39,39,19,0,6,13,0,5,2,0,1,2,2,0,2,15,11,0,0,7,0,1,4,2,3,0,0,11,12,19,5,25,22,6,27,0,0,5,0,8,10,0,4,15,115,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12766711227068367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1151746111634432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510199782746383,0.2203533877679216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12025263588950047,0.0,0.15906135636822907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15723509095309726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3449703515645422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456440423257886,0.10288958659637744,0.13828402959670769,0.0,0.1316338071743922,0.0,0.0,0.15791305917444418,0.0,0.0,0.07524572697469098,0.0,0.08185121332520877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15865684183837409,0.1426047571590104,0.12735847729797267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16232364144415273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430466776919328,0.14183299122191073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14072407838249024,0.1443482180734719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11495725563797365,0.15307295202782675,0.10587298939176827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15112721590823802,0.0,0.0,0.10953547746733204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465224940733711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922643972239346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11476715625149428,0.1311125268437827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2848835486072845,0.1612212154067724,0.1019397516715935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13573934853980998,0.14969435369874048,0.10828687390354534,0.0,0.0,0.1325964182418933,0.0,0.0,0.09568204138677812,0.0,0.0,0.11433764842305776,0.0,0.0,0.1365163357398201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11883351157217642,0.08494810607275599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13351014964293226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14626167461302084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0927456633104738
schizophrenia,chri5tinaa,2020/02/27,Meds trying to kill me So has anyone else ever thought their meds were either placebos or implants? I’m currently not taking my new medication because the doctor gave me sample packets and every time I take them I get this insane migraine in the middle of my brain. Which makes me start thinking that the pills are actually tracking devices that are implanting into the middle of my brain. Has anyone else had a similar experience with their meds? How’d you handle the situation? I’m going back to her tomorrow and I’ll tell her I’ve stopped taking them.,4.727585470085472,7.080421288461545,5.708974358974363,74.71380341880344,71.69230769230771,7.699145299145299,28.863247863247857,8.515128840125781,2.5265119658119657,450,18,72,8,9,148,74,104,0.099,0.9009999999999999,0.0,-0.8824,1,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,1,4,0,3,1,1,0,6,0,6,6,2,1,1,12,18,4,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,1,15,0,7,14,1,13,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,1,8,46,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.14570932969780195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20880822071587246,0.30598052565178513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11481356812885665,0.0,0.09102068119855578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3333685356680661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15282963024370902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24946606743059116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13506343633518436,0.12580383410194446,0.0,0.0,0.1460581485798656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07801061885589826,0.0,0.08485882271764585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16519427688349958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0996685311303622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4975639619836741,0.15041856394496686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14420879197005346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678356579371375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10568551110672897,0.0,0.0,0.1248335363866428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3367975719084035,0.0,0.13050737958031774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09567464776572472,0.0,0.11853896653840505,0.08706643585506417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013746861962056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,spoonsthatbite,2020/02/27,I am struggling here I have run out of things to say. I just don’t want to be here anymore. I give it 2-3months before my family forgets about me.,-0.7978124999999991,1.264009843750003,1.5425000000000004,98.2525,91.1875,4.45,20.5,5.985473137389443,-0.07052500000000039,113,4,27,1,4,38,27,32,0.1,0.8540000000000001,0.046,-0.3612,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,6,0,5,5,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,20,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40382680723016784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3464919101378639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38386605047970734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39061737158407067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3238168323680793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4256873434661768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705214497520073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401734377258467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jessajess,2020/02/27,"I have a documentary to recommend Hey y'all, so there's this documentary I've watched twice called Crazywise about how psychosis and schizophrenia are dealt with in different cultures. In some indigenous cultures these things were not treated as illness but as spiritual awakening, and many times these individuals became highly skilled shamans. 
Watching it made me feel less alone and more hopeful about the future of how mental illnesses are viewed and treated. I had the pleasure of meeting a woman who is featured in the film and she certainly made an impression on me. 
Check it out if you get the chance, and then have all your friends watch it too...
I wish everyone here forgiveness if you have condemned yourself, guidance if you feel lost, and love no matter what. 
Be well everyone!",9.140869565217393,9.88068841304348,7.640398550724638,71.0088586956522,59.79710144927536,10.957971014492754,41.88768115942029,10.686352973137794,4.75079420289855,643,34,102,14,8,193,101,138,0.094,0.6609999999999999,0.245,0.9765,1,1,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,5,0,2,9,11,0,0,7,0,9,3,0,4,2,27,18,17,0,5,5,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,9,9,0,0,3,1,1,0,2,1,1,1,5,6,11,10,13,12,4,9,0,1,4,1,16,6,0,5,3,75,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238976962165076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22074435725397926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22586250474733136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4131392698883963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186146099198361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670204395981762,0.0,0.11294533568294028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22840646010956295,0.0,0.21471591384423688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359864419943799,0.0,0.19511124986418296,0.4091102401087015,0.0,0.21917299319192912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21785899548398674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436206508695642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260565288237538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19437214044541792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485967894109013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,iyitteooydyoxyyof,2020/02/27,"Schizophrenia or anxiety Not sure if these types of posts are allowed and I’m sure it could come off as insensitive but I really don’t know where else to ask it just seems like a sub full of people that actually have schizophrenia than r/anxiety or some other sub. 

So into why I’m ever wondering if I have schizophrenia. It started from what could’ve been a panic attack while smoking weed but I’m not really sure if it was actually a panic attack. But it was genuinely one of the most terrifying experiences of my life and I still think about it often and wonder what happened. It was a pretty normal night out with some friends, we would always smoke. I had nowhere near the tolerance as them and yet I’d still try to keep up when we smoked, but as soon as I took the hit it felt like my entire reality was just falling apart in front of me I can really only describe what I felt as a out of body experience at first. It felt like I saw the whole world in a new way and made me feel as if it was all a simulation and that my friends were not even real. The last thing I remember (this was a little bit ago now- probably about 2 years and I’m leaving out a lot of random shitty detail) but yea the last thing I remember was being in the bathroom in so much pain and hearing a voice that I need to bash my skull into the toilet seat in order to get out, to escape the simulation, whatever the fuck my head was talking about. don’t really know if that was just my conscience or a hallucination. 

I did not feel like myself for weeks after this and probably the next few months (possibly dpdr but I’m not sure) I can no longer smoke without getting into the same disturbing headspace. There’s a lot more I want to type but even trying to explain these things make me anxious but yeah the time I spent unfamiliar with my body and not feeling like myself I became very scared of my mental state which brings me to present day 

I almost constantly am analyzing how I’m thinking, wondering if it’s still normal. I always have the fear of “losing it” in the back of my mind as if reality could just snap at any moment. I start looking things up like this story about a lamp I read where a guy realized the lamp wasn’t real and then woke up a different person (something along those lines been a while since I read it but that’s just one that scares me the most) and I just keep looking these things up trying to see if I have symptoms of anything. I don’t have any hallucinations that I can tell. Last hallucination that I had happened the other day at 3 in the morning after doing vyvanse recreationally, so I assume it was the lack of sleep and stimulant but I saw all the text of my phone screen keep alternating in gradients of yellows and greens, and also thought I heard voices in the fan I keep running to sleep. But before that there really wasn’t anything so I’m hoping it’s the stimulant and no sleep but at the same time I do my normal schedule go home eat dinner take melotonin and go to bed. It’s the same cycle over and over so maybe it was just the fact that I stayed awake to hear the voices was what caused it. Always have become very anxious during nighttime. Sleep schedule was pretty bad until recently. Went to a doctor before and was diagnosed with GAD but wasn’t put on medication so doesn’t really matter. Now I’m just starting to list random shit sorry

No family history that I know of with schizophrenia or any psychosis but I also found a medication for antipsychotics in my dads drawer before he moved away which I have looked up and can be treatment for schizophrenia and psychosis. But am really hoping it was for his anger issues or something else. 

thanks for taking time to read this I’m not sure what I want to gain by posting this but I just really need to get these things out of my head I don’t really have anyone to talk to I feel like no one really connects with me and everyone’s so strange I can’t even explain it. Had one time opened up to my mom, the only parent I’m around how scared I am of developing some mental illness and she reacted as if I was crazy or something. Don’t know what to do",3.736539855072465,5.25412875,4.918185386473429,82.84474184782609,72.4903381642512,7.880314009661838,25.01479468599034,8.472884824447931,1.596241787439614,3287,100,650,56,64,1085,335,828,0.131,0.78,0.08800000000000001,-0.99,3,0,6,0,0,0,40.0,2,0,1,3,43,32,5,7,46,2,57,21,10,9,9,168,131,78,0,22,48,3,7,7,2,1,8,6,2,2,57,42,2,4,25,3,1,11,22,15,0,5,39,22,69,17,103,86,19,101,0,1,9,1,23,42,2,33,49,461,126,6,0.0,0.0,0.0947631801122913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043040091548223774,0.0,0.04861970457113548,0.0,0.0,0.07765705231893116,0.1212021714996855,0.0,0.0,0.09905492511386586,0.0,0.07428718182631303,0.10970414474712886,0.0,0.03395000695848337,0.0,0.07991142443416498,0.043223253749715806,0.04539133036487553,0.11047411261980196,0.04561797544711696,0.03733494230772582,0.04054046782718542,0.0,0.053623953875905774,0.12394734587696307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05300826962284636,0.10786484627679367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04987821707647822,0.0,0.041824874683783125,0.0,0.05246950312424724,0.0,0.1162989845127898,0.0,0.0,0.06262648113591056,0.0,0.0,0.04928117359334815,0.0,0.050728478096554314,0.0,0.04969696109135952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049682748234585836,0.08112108513867775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620815398571267,0.04391977085668091,0.0,0.04639532007936694,0.0,0.09499003714756916,0.045772283793774585,0.05463662203565159,0.0982012172698727,0.10406072044015073,0.13985803832267674,0.0,0.0,0.04129991176306963,0.0,0.05323683133928661,0.07502522582321677,0.04488728645394637,0.07610220643363833,0.0,0.05518858619408348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048075982092574035,0.08587208443667209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09966059240432673,0.0,0.10944751963034233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04870350783862367,0.09644993129438592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05067764368139288,0.0,0.1726277039175277,0.0,0.0,0.10673578674103676,0.11873369573621495,0.0,0.051411556059485206,0.0,0.0,0.034295046533487215,0.16604683760082334,0.048663750673178206,0.0,0.0,0.12231911025625218,0.054319380324060716,0.0,0.08255755741691695,0.0,0.0459428621799067,0.0324100968229782,0.0,0.04877890591365427,0.0,0.0,0.09782586672323514,0.09786179687425364,0.0,0.04902558505056893,0.05686572602209355,0.03875524963939449,0.051605098225029726,0.035692693872830784,0.07200418446910814,0.0,0.046893646946206055,0.051637610012218914,0.04556453413301674,0.14271750186460985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13160548256969873,0.07385483847988546,0.05166475942763546,0.11393505053548242,0.053913345919934935,0.0,0.0,0.03366115197327541,0.042395381609857764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05473721261416429,0.09300240506491557,0.09879351771380357,0.10469860535636467,0.0,0.0,0.04881006744496914,0.0,0.0,0.1457010801182976,0.11052990717105204,0.3110486351990361,0.0,0.04794110615833184,0.0,0.11000417867093386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14583273454827714,0.0,0.03869116191271367,0.04420163547296889,0.0,0.0,0.04983986761088605,0.040164277345231564,0.0,0.19435580948553816,0.0,0.0,0.11213746379552626,0.0,0.05435210170581098,0.10310007408280872,0.05175198359843804,0.11632559143514085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22880732100616466,0.05046607989209966,0.07301296133961027,0.0780515509020201,0.04243823762967795,0.04470189603723145,0.0,0.0,0.19354227165770355,0.06222274096797365,0.0,0.038546363021849814,0.11324864865936125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053945155357975706,0.09889470701802593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08012408405101608,0.05727668147561307,0.03853981576880025,0.03894699969450247,0.0,0.0,0.04500993999978164,0.04381233124543373,0.05420868124983187,0.0,0.0468042147410712,0.15796385893271314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03449128848343618,0.0,0.0,0.031267111541773064
schizophrenia,NeilDegrassseBison,2020/02/27,"How do you tell family? I was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia (disorganized and some what catatonic even though those aren’t technically diagnosis anymore ) and I can’t bring myself to tell my mom. I just remember her saying how I was once the most hygienic member of the family and now she sees me struggling to bathe or brush my teeth. I’m not the same person I was before and it’s devastating for not only me but for her as well. I remember before my father passed, he saw me sitting in the living room in the dark staring at the tv that wasn’t on and it freaked him out. I just don’t know how to tell her. Yesterday I hallucinated that she was talking badly about me to my aunt on the phone while in my room, I didn’t realize it didn’t happen until I asked her if she came into my room while talking on the phone, she denies it ever happened. I’m currently waiting to get on the meds (I don’t have the money currently). I just don’t know how to tell her. Any advice?",3.121742424242424,4.733784343434348,4.969583333333336,81.47437500000005,74.25252525252526,8.384343434343435,25.001262626262626,9.017664075816787,1.9332414141414145,772,25,155,17,16,264,107,198,0.083,0.903,0.013999999999999999,-0.9171,3,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,0,13,4,0,1,10,0,14,2,1,4,1,31,27,17,0,1,8,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,8,9,0,1,5,2,1,3,10,3,1,0,9,5,34,1,23,18,3,26,0,0,3,0,26,13,0,4,9,116,42,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388432216469913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09662225759402583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14090953582982765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13282972482213096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186345309194213,0.0,0.0,0.24180670204238666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1625066906361327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14421266516527334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09384539967464964,0.12852346538973206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2678890357226584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07423322954464004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25128951396525623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561717300145103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12546311962301684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15782372684118234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664075205244558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15131523839362335,0.0,0.10806158128885032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12406260904228247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14029119410008392,0.0,0.3219078327224248,0.0,0.0,0.11299120990960915,0.0,0.0,0.11322286323405854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485374544297225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22840410150830145,0.4967520785113066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13959719193595296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277509304082498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lifeisgood117,2020/02/27,Anyone found a cure? Has anyone found a cure for sz?,-1.552727272727271,0.20096690909091208,0.5004545454545449,101.2706818181818,107.1818181818182,2.2,5.5,3.1291,-2.6308545454545453,40,0,9,0,2,13,7,11,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5376871383184959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8431444367881855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,handle_bar_mustache,2020/02/27,"When applying for ssi I have 

schizopheffective bi polar type
Major depression and
Generalized anxiety disorder

The issue is I made too much money this year and last year but I think I’m going to have to quit my job, I’ve been in and out of psychiatric hospitals for two years for inpatient and outpatient totaling a little over 6 months of the last 2 years and even with that I’ve made too much money

But if I have to quit because of my disorders I won’t have any income, how does the government take this into account if at all?",6.429142857142858,6.363889771428571,7.417857142857144,73.04964285714289,65.57142857142857,11.952380952380953,31.785714285714285,11.538034831475384,3.777000000000001,426,15,81,13,6,144,70,105,0.057999999999999996,0.9420000000000001,0.0,-0.5499,2,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,4,0,7,1,0,3,2,19,13,11,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,8,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,1,0,1,3,0,7,0,15,9,5,15,0,1,0,1,0,6,0,2,8,55,10,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11637342392637995,0.0,0.13091303173010194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10431850272436398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14739294880082882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3922567659159776,0.0,0.14975592963969905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11302893092982146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09725641702841398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786139630597495,0.1698188870518733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2789855565964617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17151597299460336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32385233772319205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13659334224341188,0.0,0.2515986554144193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3640329982996723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286675290349414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096523984678735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671679309170684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4408052387769442
schizophrenia,Theoctopuswitch,2020/02/27,"A reminder to fellow schizophrenics... The voices do not exist. Your family is not trying to kill you. Killing yourself to reach another reality is not a sound idea, despite how much you might believe in it. You will die. You are not the only person convinced they are experiencing the apocalypse or the return of god. This does not make those delusions true. You are sick. Just like someone with pneumonia. You are gonna make it.",3.0611538461538434,6.111457423076928,3.790461538461543,81.7795384615385,83.74358974358975,6.196923076923077,25.748717948717946,7.554174236665415,1.8559548717948704,341,14,57,6,10,108,57,78,0.125,0.713,0.161,0.0869,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,7,1,0,2,5,2,0,6,0,9,2,0,3,1,14,12,2,3,0,7,0,0,1,1,3,2,2,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,3,8,3,6,9,1,2,0,0,0,0,10,1,0,2,2,42,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25082244888468064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694969099933945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24825222381925025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093258596315838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254968247513917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700281071940924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5292795477089989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11686122048285165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3193362147449042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537537967788253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17583979797489305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819226635574404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20886054058868508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20267370104420265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16240135273242262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TheLandOfAsgard,2020/02/27,I have a sad Hey. I've been feeling really blue today and am asking for your guys' help by posting memes or other light hearted funny jokes. Thank you. I appreciate it.,0.7100000000000009,3.23567878787879,3.074909090909092,84.77236363636366,94.45454545454544,5.0642424242424235,18.72121212121212,6.742157984588678,0.5951866666666663,132,4,24,2,5,45,31,33,0.079,0.5579999999999999,0.363,0.8481,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,3,6,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,4,2,2,5,0,2,0,1,1,0,6,0,0,1,1,14,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35240811600151983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19060306058968848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3732511503403097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4467011919455909,0.252669347129663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3610249147698337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24149118925176705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34705550239537986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3573154246061716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ConstantAdvantage7,2020/02/27,"Could drug use cause schizophrenia? One day I had orally consumed a drug or a cocktail of drugs, but I don't know which one(s).Otherwise I've never consumed any drugs before, except occasionally alcohol and few times some marijuana.

Few days later after consumption I've seen gray flashback of how I'm drugging myself with a needle although I've never done this.

One month later I've heard loud and external commanding voice telling me to harm myself.

Two months later I've seen a gray flashback of how I'm falling from a tall building and then hitting floor.

Three months later I started to have problems with sleep. I've also heard whispering voices when walking trough public and had developed a feeling like police is after me. Also, I've started to see distorted faces.

Finally I had visited psychiatry and got voluntarily hospitalized. Diagnosis was paranoid schizophrenia. Later, I've been told that I have schizophrenia-like psychotic disorder.

a) I would like to know, if it's possible that by consuming drugs - even of it was single event and not a continuous and prolonged use of drugs - *caused* or *triggered* schizophrenia?

b) is it possible that I might not have schizophrenia, but could be experiencing long-term withdrawal symptoms that last about 1 year in duration since drug usage and which mimic schizophrenia symptoms (therefore schizophrenia-like psychotic disorder)?",7.709662447257383,10.110840915611817,7.12052742616034,67.46323839662448,63.89451476793249,9.823628691983123,36.79535864978903,10.125756701596842,4.401740928270042,1135,56,159,27,18,353,136,237,0.09,0.8690000000000001,0.040999999999999995,-0.9176,0,0,9,0,0,0,35.0,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,8,0,18,13,2,8,2,37,35,20,0,5,8,0,1,2,0,2,11,6,0,0,10,10,2,0,3,1,0,3,5,2,0,4,13,13,11,2,18,16,4,30,0,0,5,0,6,3,0,5,26,98,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807348300638064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13180986999198244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0560430611749318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07012663610081016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693198778980634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315987286071929,0.0,0.0,0.10629798698356424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18890283697777144,0.0,0.0,0.08433620192000324,0.0,0.0,0.7645750725767699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05443242174127697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04167003927807112,0.05887522821132785,0.0,0.0902784387858413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06591249326023647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09058308134107694,0.06717686945925487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08052478879227615,0.0,0.0,0.07293212443884586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08742622576773232,0.0,0.0,0.1973416810425385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271226003334752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16753373676065308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18581454389397814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07885725975443207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06567178214038764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06817214943279941,0.0,0.082471627545378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11666343197616592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17131547569598018,0.0,0.0,0.07203181704197988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04805516437596983,0.0,0.0,0.07874830328071791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08050465701515144,0.0,0.0,0.14235520634845852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058543198783626675,0.0,0.0,0.0530706971778947
schizophrenia,cryingorangejuice,2020/02/27,"does anyone recovering, just wtf at their old delusions? like i’m honestly laughing about things i used to think. (it’s a kinda dark sort of humour) since this used to be my sad little life. but as a delusional person getting better from it, all i can say is WHAT? 
i used to be seriously suicidal and i wrote myself little notes for if i snapped and killed myself, things like ‘well you don’t want anyone to be in trouble after you die so clear your messages with so and so and remove this person from snapchat’ 
like i still don’t like myself but i genuinely believed my life was so unimportant that everyone’s first concern would be arresting a dealer ive never bought from on my snapchat, as opposed to dealing with the fact someone close to them died? i truly believed nobody would feel any pain about me, and would just go through my entire life and divert to other people i know, if that even makes any sense. 
i had a dream someone i know died in a car crash and for some reason couldn’t distinguish that from reality and because there was no ‘evidence’ to prove he hadn’t died i behaved weird about it for days, we aren’t close, we don’t get on, but i ended up messaging him starting a friendly conversation just to prove to myself he was alive? because of a dream? 
i believed that an entire relationship i was in was a social construct by my friends to inevitably break my heart and tear me down, as opposed to someone just having feelings for me and people not actually even caring about it. in my mind every single person in my life had set this particular relationship up just to cause me pain. 
i still struggle with delusions i’m sure, i possibly always will, ive only been medicated for a couple weeks and not all of my mindsets have changed, as i write this i find myself questioning if what i’ve experienced are delusions or if it was fair of me to think how i did..
but i’m fairly confident believing somebody died in a car crash because your dream said so and going to the point where you tell multiple people this person is probably dead may be a little odd.
now i’m on antipsychotics i’m just wondering what the fuck was up with my brain. how did any of these things make sense to me even if i saw ‘evidence’?
madness honestly. no idea how i lived like this for years.",6.3222612287041855,6.392260514541391,6.663545861297539,77.90963990707282,65.7785234899329,9.56148683531234,31.95740836344863,9.265573868473778,2.689419617965928,1818,66,345,30,26,589,211,447,0.195,0.677,0.128,-0.9918,1,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,2,5,2,2,27,25,3,1,15,0,36,10,2,10,8,81,65,34,8,10,18,0,2,5,2,5,7,2,0,4,23,20,0,2,14,3,1,5,11,10,1,1,17,6,55,15,60,37,4,40,0,1,1,1,31,21,1,12,17,242,78,0,0.0,0.0,0.07177599442852757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06120103030156055,0.0,0.0,0.15005333811436486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10285832566670096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13450957299998226,0.0,0.0,0.33147098562283833,0.0,0.06505063311921494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08210818829646455,0.0,0.0,0.07499101180599929,0.07555800948731217,0.0778081033832029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08138372169766922,0.0,0.047434857671121634,0.07582872644238302,0.0,0.0,0.38167603347680895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0643657185254273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06514510667464317,0.0,0.0,0.14574090730755798,0.0,0.06197060486322989,0.07028194350549168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0743800494589225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0672250572817555,0.06256316499915086,0.0,0.0,0.11365195182992313,0.06799749899934576,0.07685561049494563,0.0,0.08360242133054076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08715929494384565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08303108451196073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08137422306317542,0.0,0.08084434508604549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207807383922473,0.17966859033508076,0.22115482572769296,0.06494763000597209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09819286040158512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0740957495999237,0.0,0.0,0.07426639999365164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056727720107565535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07718029254296269,0.0,0.0,0.055939495371203705,0.15652870578783773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15297477270995,0.25689054931407995,0.0,0.0,0.06953027115657807,0.08291865813223792,0.0,0.0,0.07930133313200538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08239490376610364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07562355058999796,0.0,0.1579343191596316,0.0,0.0,0.06996465139463692,0.05849138230570616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06084284937548772,0.0,0.0,0.0749768472295143,0.18696072836214603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05206037713648955,0.0,0.1174772028946277,0.0,0.0,0.07689236216441678,0.0,0.08045378461830302,0.0,0.0693217470257297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06428755776357077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14659374026627955,0.09425810961077516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19057554550660588,0.0,0.0,0.04338278607373289,0.0,0.058998856513003135,0.0,0.06613194527606461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07976384249120072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15674736920518864,0.0,0.0,0.047364979122885405
schizophrenia,dolefulAlchemist,2020/02/27,"Not schizophrenic. Advice for dating someone with schizophrenia? What do you want from a relationship? I'm sorry if this is inappropriate. I just want to know how to be a better gf to her essentially-, but yeah, my girlfriend has schizophrenia. What certain things should I do in the relationship? And what did I do when shes paranoid or hallucinating/having delusions? When she does that i try to be calm as I can and remind her of reality but I have some feeling that I'm doing something wrong or I'm not doing something. She has a big one about people seeing her through holes in the wall and idrk what to do in that case

What are some tips? If this is inappropriate I'll delete it. Thank you x",2.789650793650793,5.347160711111112,3.9914550264550286,83.62083333333334,78.92592592592592,6.227513227513228,23.716931216931208,7.447530270364453,1.1175820105820105,556,19,107,8,14,181,83,135,0.057999999999999996,0.804,0.138,0.8321,0,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,1,5,5,0,0,5,1,18,1,0,1,1,22,27,13,0,5,9,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,12,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,2,15,4,15,23,2,8,0,0,1,0,12,5,0,6,3,82,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2308088227736521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20889691459813484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.206697450295562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11942822148364275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12980760863796492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16005309463325396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16374915199721152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5071740335123474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18821830453169666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20012881982920014,0.3636717408089876,0.0,0.2644030296603873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21745832033840207,0.0,0.0,0.15691868816969595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16036215302505852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.278630037031778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582441706228905,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,nameiszzz222,2020/02/27,"10 more years olanzapine and off meds now Its been a month since im off meds  my doc said its ok to    and a lot of doctors said to me taking a little amount of olanzapine is not a big deal

But now i realized its a big deal  feelings are totally different  anger sadness happiness all kinds of emotions r different

Its amplified and faster  im really upset that ive been taking this for too long",1.383444444444443,3.802045900000003,3.806666666666669,83.6027777777778,83.75,8.055555555555555,23.88888888888889,8.841846274778883,2.1584722222222226,312,12,63,9,9,108,54,80,0.124,0.804,0.07200000000000001,-0.6411,2,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,3,6,1,1,5,1,5,1,0,0,2,10,10,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,6,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,4,3,4,3,8,6,5,11,0,1,0,0,4,5,0,1,6,39,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35601063981384273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3607867969916845,0.0,0.17672526443869266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19421974218670976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08730230032735893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18380023635081166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37300578211483504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17979926619370434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17305110850714106,0.0,0.15279904558724874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14678972159983708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3835736242878552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13781590645590466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11061069148230353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3284792119815323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14282649037184544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596383081950269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11118765482050083
schizophrenia,humphreysbogart,2020/02/27,"Weight Gain On Geodon So I've been on Geodon since 2015. They started me out on seroquil but it gave me seizures and made me pass out. Geodon works for me symptom wise, but when I first started taking it I gained 60 pounds in less than a year. I have never been an overweight person before then. My weight has fluctuated over the years but I've never been over 200lbs before this. My doctor says Geodon doesn't cause weight gain, but I've seen mixed reports online. Anybody have any experience with gaining weight on this drug or any others? How did you find you lost it, if you did. I'm having a hard time shedding it.",2.6091530054644814,4.952962237704924,2.5930327868852494,94.57976775956287,78.2622950819672,4.722404371584699,20.002732240437158,5.46131890053228,-0.2893136612021858,491,12,101,2,12,147,80,122,0.064,0.81,0.126,0.836,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,1,7,3,2,0,0,4,0,10,8,0,3,2,16,18,11,0,1,6,0,5,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,7,4,5,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,1,9,7,13,1,12,9,1,20,0,1,1,0,7,9,0,2,10,61,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19638715594311248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457390858202432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14833348039841526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14779444085988333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674524027377656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14124605528370426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13197444962152016,0.12282234632746265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12934959278187727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15762424213281884,0.0,0.0,0.13663007713690045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22273271134902928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12608017839464436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11482873052891375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944506831851012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20440710346680904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15008173329414806,0.10856709907145733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08419790837903826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7033370285401929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10512130805869108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18597134175366686
schizophrenia,FreeOrNotAtAll,2020/02/27,"Has Anyone Had a Medication Stop Working? I’m on Fanapt, if that helps",0.91,3.4918457142857164,3.1542857142857166,84.91571428571432,91.85714285714286,5.6571428571428575,21.285714285714285,7.1686216300943375,0.9611142857142858,56,2,11,1,2,19,14,14,0.149,0.6759999999999999,0.17600000000000002,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,6,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3919814697506879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3757554059078461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5647410774422067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4686830135255558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4081202648547845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,chepethemethman,2020/02/27,"concern i am young below the age of schizophrenia diagnosis from what i’ve heard, but it started with the hearing and seeing things at night thing i forget what that’s called, but i started to see and hear things throughout the day more frequently, not just near sleep anymore, my lines between dream and reality are very blurred, i can hardly tell if my life is real half of the time, a lot of times i can gather myself but my mind is constantly running, i lose track of where i started my sentences and it becomes a jumble of words that mean nothing, and i don’t realize it usually and just continue, i’m pretty self awake and aware of how i act, i also have been diagnosed with severe ocd and i’ve been told that schizophrenia can sometimes lead to ocd, life has become dull and i have a history (and present to be honest lmao) of drug abuse, so it may be severe ocd and psychosis just combining with some weird disorders to make some fuck shit concoction in my mind of mixed thoughts and scattered feelings but i would definitely love to hear some input, thanks",10.991176470588236,7.595935274509808,9.741274509803922,70.64073529411769,59.0,12.749019607843135,42.16666666666667,10.411451182825502,4.250707843137255,852,34,158,13,8,266,127,204,0.14800000000000002,0.738,0.113,-0.8402,0,0,1,0,1,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,7,8,2,0,7,0,17,8,2,3,0,43,35,20,0,2,9,0,2,0,0,2,4,4,0,1,12,15,0,0,4,1,0,3,2,5,0,1,5,8,18,3,22,26,5,22,0,2,2,2,10,5,2,7,14,107,30,1,0.0,0.14227290702920456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09602640903297564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11908520410051222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652336433118954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226131603323091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12976176196009664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07744043733664666,0.0,0.0,0.12187673860359215,0.0,0.0,0.1376198997254179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13925246770241825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0607150926767413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11101026373508703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10756638720429068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4060102195678808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16962941898461711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343366733002934,0.0,0.10208610217037084,0.108375168723834,0.0,0.08015306070439022,0.0,0.0,0.1308002473429797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24248929067317776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11268515766178305,0.0,0.11521817049004865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216259127156626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13667516032921648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913733899933568,0.0,0.1252676409415779,0.2713081365189153,0.12325843874930555,0.0,0.0,0.12016481376955157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187603061516204,0.0,0.2549756806257862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10495354751631816,0.1105517766961212,0.0,0.0,0.2393236517276777,0.0,0.0,0.09532859442225766,0.14003700544714734,0.0,0.0,0.11473976542040445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1322490569228575,0.09907700380999067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08530003334101288,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,angelichysteric,2020/02/27,"So dissociated I feel like my brain is gone, there's only fog and echoes 
I can't talk to people in my life, I think they've been replaced
I feel so selfish asking for help but at the same time I want it so much
I wish we were all ok",-0.04490566037735634,1.4881890377358502,2.347773584905664,97.10996226415094,83.15094339622641,4.994716981132076,16.260377358490565,5.6839178017228535,-0.9032460377358492,181,3,47,1,5,62,44,53,0.048,0.725,0.228,0.8153,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,1,4,2,1,0,1,10,11,5,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,2,9,2,4,8,3,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,28,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032082753905221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36206372977958456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279857793360547,0.2317040965526815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21739407666452232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22908652005280075,0.15845308803083305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384226253389864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2466704327095464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248521855480341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606871835471698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078199716478194,0.0,0.0,0.1891216184582424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913004495650513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3729678073449623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Ornonic,2020/02/27,"Recently diagnosed Hey all I’ve very recently been diagnosed and have a meeting in the morning about meds idk why but I’m super nervous fir this and truly don’t know what to expect. 
Any advice or words of encouragement",3.8935714285714313,6.440724785714291,5.362142857142857,75.32035714285716,74.95238095238095,8.961904761904762,29.54761904761905,9.516144504307137,3.3189333333333337,179,8,30,5,4,60,38,42,0.077,0.6629999999999999,0.259,0.9011,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,2,0,3,2,0,0,1,8,5,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,2,4,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,2,16,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27673820721601683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925846290985593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5748808467891999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15563843905870614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145695893835203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5592485262573531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336683459871706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2555425150181847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,_Mergo_,2020/02/27,"I'm Scared About A Diagnosis I have been hallucinating and I get adequate sleep, mostly, so I'm sure it's not that. I have had depression for awhile and I had taken medication for it but I was only on it for a couple of weeks and haven't taken anything since maybe late September. When I was in the mental hospital last year I didn't want to tell them about my hallucinations, I did tell them that once when I was 13 I would hallucinate about a shadow hand reaching out and trying to grab me but also that I hadn't hallucinated since I was 13 so the doctor said it wasn't that big of deal. He was more concerned with voices, which I mentioned that I had only heard my name once when no one was around, which he also wrote off. I remember sitting in the room with the other kids in the hospital and seeing the ground breathing. I didn't say anything because I was scared of what they would do to me. Being in the hospital made me more aware of things. Now I'm hallucinating more often and I told my mom about them and she asked if I wanted to go to the doctor, and I said I didn't. I'm 17 almost 18 now, I realise that if I am developing something it would be better to figure out now but I'm scared of that.",2.7279880478087652,4.166337047808772,4.583384462151396,84.55491733067731,74.9362549800797,7.410438247011952,22.5101593625498,8.07648339933343,1.013877928286853,953,25,204,15,20,325,120,251,0.07,0.872,0.059000000000000004,-0.3703,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,4,1,16,6,0,3,11,0,27,6,3,1,1,33,46,20,0,7,6,1,2,0,0,3,3,5,1,1,17,13,0,0,2,0,0,1,8,4,0,1,25,8,34,2,29,16,4,24,0,1,1,0,21,12,0,5,10,149,51,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254326435469396,0.0,0.0,0.20034530132067896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20616129416651288,0.11151048794619206,0.11710384939605235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07635906672675441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11078480566513456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386009537533382,0.0,0.0,0.12914049133631916,0.10788870352437473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25642365624900965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06544466567568885,0.0,0.07118976062281279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10210593603053376,0.14130194349055075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11852673121258794,0.0,0.0,0.12584336272807192,0.0,0.0,0.1261891364684551,0.1262354840744828,0.0,0.0,0.14670632833095812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668016803001363,0.0848813445577178,0.19053607402550946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418983831104638,0.0,0.23830729806976186,0.09961404080337337,0.37622987575554295,0.0,0.09981826840419646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20723743708454184,0.0,0.12535330678947326,0.0,0.0,0.09643345668587633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11805874753807112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2189704927382036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08321906720140153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11969401494916347,0.0,0.08504524824170047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14776654104450035,0.0,0.1004782972869718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669493900865433,0.0,0.0,0.08066516428588054
schizophrenia,festiveatom,2020/02/27,"I got Social Security! I won my appeal for Social Security after going before a judge who almost denied me because I was able to take ONE class, an ART class, online to graduate college. Only took about 3 years! Thankfully I had other disability income during that time or I would have been fucked.",5.8264545454545456,7.491112690909091,7.579772727272727,65.2096590909091,67.54545454545455,9.136363636363637,26.47727272727273,9.516144504307137,2.7529090909090908,238,7,35,5,4,83,47,55,0.115,0.69,0.195,0.5963,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,1,5,1,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,3,12,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,1,6,0,7,4,5,5,0,5,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,2,3,24,10,4,0.2671039092784596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26746598206262057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16282406392729534,0.0,0.22728575366346915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24693326007288285,0.0,0.0,0.15180130705495345,0.0,0.21362739665646246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18099652163058946,0.20314455916939206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5445575966418587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008288982857443,0.0,0.0,0.2459133931216325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15575043749300865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967622712357555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897429535658728,0.0,0.0,0.17200616022966758
schizophrenia,Raikiel48,2020/02/27,"Does anyone else here experience phantom limb sensations as a hallucination? Sometimes I feel like my ears are pointed, or that I have wings/tendrils coming out of my back. And I can easily see them too. 

I have a strong imagination and that might be influencing my hallucinations but I don't know.",4.903333333333336,7.592304148148147,6.322000000000003,68.97300000000003,72.33333333333334,9.505185185185187,29.31851851851852,9.888512548439397,3.358167407407408,240,10,41,7,5,81,44,54,0.0,0.882,0.11800000000000001,0.5574,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,7,1,1,1,0,11,11,5,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,3,9,2,3,9,0,4,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,2,2,30,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185979511120961,0.32032606646601264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24039293727796526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2693027993359681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735843520748917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26116199364833703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3058118297576944,0.0,0.0,0.1580749668045644,0.2233427159262233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17181310390054316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527350769979023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33165070097150995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2955361117649803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491253898889748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3091987613783033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,CyberBlues,2020/02/27,Can Schizophrenic hallucinations cause you harm to the self I’ve been diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder for 8 years now. My auditory and visual hallucinations cause harm to me. For example I will feel pain in my foot or somewhere else on the body that my hallucinations (voices) say that they have caused. At the time of myself feeling this experience it’s very painful. I just wanted to know if anyone else has experienced this. I would like to know if there’s any way to combat this.,5.989839486356343,8.166271707865171,6.339357945425363,72.25808988764047,67.87640449438203,10.029534510433386,28.4446227929374,10.290406445055957,3.1107162118780094,398,14,70,11,7,128,66,89,0.192,0.7659999999999999,0.040999999999999995,-0.9392,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,1,0,3,5,0,0,3,0,6,6,2,3,0,15,11,4,0,4,4,0,2,1,0,2,4,2,0,1,6,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,5,10,1,12,8,0,7,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,3,4,44,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12321193176116198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12668868112871082,0.185645321400642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20125555690856012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5583803455060782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838988396865776,0.0,0.0,0.2076535700516488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3027134368636975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17723357967656775,0.0,0.0,0.1832250390459113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19914894373944125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08851778055794239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.385586974442945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440854891166886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890153452034696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10565036080705527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14949650153948985,0.10686753679385462,0.14381612459354007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12870854058262687,0.0,0.0,0.1166771225930988
schizophrenia,grande__oso,2020/02/28,Voices Mine keep pressuring me to kill myself. I know I’m going to just die and it’s really irritating. I’m alone with them in my head and none of my friends will speak to me. I don’t know what to do I can’t get rid of them unless I do kill myself but that’s pointless to me.,-0.10619047619047706,1.4475179841269892,2.7399206349206366,94.12035714285715,83.44444444444444,6.104761904761905,16.849206349206348,7.1686216300943375,-0.1773365079365079,215,4,54,3,6,76,40,63,0.251,0.7490000000000001,0.0,-0.9082,0,1,0,0,0,2,4.0,0,0,2,0,1,4,2,1,0,0,5,1,1,0,0,9,12,4,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,0,2,14,1,10,11,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,37,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30278210722644666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30340881030968475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258656587628379,0.0,0.15273862713803885,0.0,0.16614686913823234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3000311576420765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598504012365315,0.6468746801984656,0.0,0.3213312392106626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872842210753367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Lil_Moe0,2020/02/28,I need advice on what I should do? So for the past couple months I've been hearing voices and haven't been able to sleep due to the insomnia. I've gone to a therapist but stopped going because they didn't accept my medi-cal so I recently made an appointment for another therapist for the 28th which is today. Besides the issue of my mental illness I've recently gotten hired for a job and they want me to work in the mornings  starting on the 29th and was seeking advice on whether I should show up for the job since i haven't been sleeping well. I just don't want to show up to work and not be able to do my job well and possibly get fired. Not only that but it might take a while before I can even get the right medication to help me cope with this illness.,4.509999999999998,4.897777866242038,5.414528662420384,84.20650636942679,69.70063694267515,8.572993630573249,28.438853503184713,8.548686976883017,1.887173757961784,603,20,126,9,10,198,91,157,0.13699999999999998,0.8220000000000001,0.040999999999999995,-0.9443,3,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,2,6,3,0,0,12,0,16,6,2,1,0,21,28,11,0,5,6,0,1,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,5,6,0,1,1,2,0,2,6,0,2,0,8,3,14,3,21,16,0,18,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,1,9,85,19,6,0.2651833116572127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591340630351149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1390339120157364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08082664272186292,0.0,0.1128257332732435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14671014524075335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08757553817310602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13854733530333455,0.0,0.07535489358330462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14944043258686085,0.0,0.08887339198976303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13839124029139882,0.3947302775453015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254614306771442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13357214389764904,0.1336212031849609,0.14065879354852695,0.0,0.0,0.10583339468420952,0.0,0.0,0.09831503273414102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10084192906649518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12657373854698584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494771696843817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26183652830840565,0.0,0.0,0.11323254960913068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096811878657882,0.0,0.26537482387345257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09384905644099488,0.0,0.0,0.11085256133404936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09969242394794486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30789826383598434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12568138619013675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15641198787811553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23843164441527026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1930566092044495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,infinitesarahs,2020/02/28,"Does schizophrenia ever clear up on its own over years? My mom has schizophrenia and has been fully delusional since 2017. Doctor said psychosis corresponded with the onset of menopause (it has to do with hormones). She has no insight into her condition and refuses to take medication, but lately she seems to be acting a little less violently and irrationally than normal. does anyone have any experience with schizophrenia going away on its own in adults who get diagnosed later in life?",8.128714859437753,10.326146228915668,7.433915662650603,66.40380522088356,62.61445783132529,9.870682730923695,33.110441767068274,10.125756701596842,3.8301020080321284,399,16,56,9,6,124,66,83,0.10400000000000001,0.875,0.02,-0.818,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,8,4,0,0,2,14,13,4,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,4,7,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,1,4,0,16,10,3,15,0,0,0,0,8,9,0,1,4,43,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15656158073177787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16097937833474696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21630491379123687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23367455265518244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2356460754602023,0.4029446634341632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20825260559619255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252052134585676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12028358734035988,0.0,0.1308427463293521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25970496580169683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16261543856745705,0.0,0.2307469433035813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319284828044657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26963791891957845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255726069585006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21899765554053047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095891116758552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1904453335225052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17310130659476067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14825800137457976
schizophrenia,throwaway204819,2020/02/28,Chats about mental health? I have no friends irl and I'm really lonely. The only way I socialize is online and I was wondering if there are any discords or anything like that I could join about mental health or schiz specifically?,2.5268217054263538,5.504512418604653,3.395697674418604,83.48176356589148,87.6046511627907,6.587596899224807,21.12015503875969,7.793537801064563,1.4995457364341087,186,6,32,4,6,59,34,43,0.10800000000000001,0.715,0.177,0.4883,0,2,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,0,7,7,5,0,2,3,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,2,2,5,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,4,1,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17541707131387058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21227356473159345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2059546987346623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19929405892905275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.548384533767974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12602293952161386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5199124560882068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19618508802476914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.165251472029492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629508771206031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047513014633348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797393211449221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Faaabs,2020/02/28,"Would you like to share your illustrations? Hello friends! I've seen a lot of great artwork and drawings here over the years. 

Last year, with your help, I wrote a song about schizophrenia from a first-person perspective to help spread awareness and reduce stigmatization. Your real world experiences were invaluable and I can't thank you enough. 

In the near future, I'll be creating a music video as a visual aid; I thought it might be  more helpful to use illustrations from the community to show others actual representations, rather than my own interpretations. Would this be of interest to anyone, to share your personal illustrations with those outside the community to promote understanding and awareness?",10.105462184873947,11.21568610084034,8.888739495798323,61.61361344537818,57.73949579831933,12.178151260504205,38.008403361344534,11.765960540728905,4.930677310924369,582,25,86,16,7,180,83,119,0.016,0.741,0.242,0.9797,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,6,0,1,3,7,0,0,9,0,8,0,0,1,0,17,14,5,0,3,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,0,1,4,6,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,10,7,19,4,4,8,0,0,1,0,15,4,0,2,5,60,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.1986730228690966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14235382351829493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21036135887420213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19914863346916686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17317228705227355,0.0,0.0,0.15729198184434673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22445705677280794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.409383270892924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16595181251044955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0994630648887608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1730836752552216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21597524183384115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3555312774492617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317283015311693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874369518450751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16162654003560958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21194282429012096,0.0,0.1758351103883651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28924687996052256,0.0,0.0,0.2622086577942334
schizophrenia,onlyjojo113,2020/02/28,"Is it a possibly I'm schizophrenic Hello reddit I've been wondering for a long time about this and would just like some opinions based on things I think daily etc. So usually anytime I am alone it feels like I'm amongst a crowd everything just feels ""loud"" if that makes sense other things are im extremity paranoid most of the time I feel like someone is always looking at me other things such as phantom knocks feeling like I hear my name when no one actually called me....
Just looking for any advice thanks",4.400102040816325,6.383284469387758,4.72015306122449,83.0400255102041,71.65306122448979,7.757142857142857,28.5765306122449,8.472884824447931,2.1369755102040817,410,16,76,7,8,129,73,98,0.063,0.7909999999999999,0.146,0.802,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,0,4,0,6,1,0,1,0,17,19,5,0,2,4,0,4,4,0,1,1,2,0,0,9,1,0,0,6,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,8,7,5,7,17,3,7,0,0,2,0,5,2,0,5,9,46,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.15799232556698806,0.0,0.0,0.15820808791050076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16768093192650865,0.0,0.0,0.13471486088663884,0.0,0.0,0.11009844371381987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16531934078532234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18056275910192285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14550645940036444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3274486709203182,0.34698698804818096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18247454479098374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17488119892188572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3163872115672109,0.0,0.0,0.14327756602009611,0.2719126516968585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080703826706933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10970851877234276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18251940269878705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371784559206947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14905697558496925,0.0,0.0,0.32268011223857385,0.10373982317851067,0.0,0.0,0.18881191352811624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17831142147150325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17557506617191518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11501004657806208,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,dingus-d-dinginator,2020/02/28,"How to reclaim my privacy I frequently feel like my life is a tv show and everyone is watching and controlling what happens to me and everyone around me are actors and doctors and psychologists and the people I see in the street have paid for the opportunity to appear on my show and sometimes they want to be checked out by me and hear my thoughts (which often feel broadcast) about them. I’m getting better at recognising when it’s happening and learning coping strategies, this post isn’t specifically about the Truman show aspects, but there are times where I really struggle and it really sucks the life out of times I get to spend with my best friend in the entire world, myself. These times include, but are not limited to: when I yell at traffic from the (somewhat) privacy of my car; dancing to music when I’m home alone in my room; when I have particularly inappropriate thoughts that I accept but understand I would be punished if anyone ever heard; talking out loud to myself in general when I’m alone.",14.70512411347518,8.807252313829789,13.137446808510642,56.68166666666667,55.11702127659574,16.363120567375887,50.482269503546114,13.023866798666859,6.282497163120568,817,36,139,18,6,263,113,188,0.081,0.8079999999999999,0.11199999999999999,0.6334,0,2,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,2,5,13,9,2,1,8,0,11,3,0,2,1,37,30,20,0,3,5,0,2,1,1,1,3,4,2,0,7,15,0,2,7,6,3,3,2,3,0,0,4,8,22,6,27,23,2,29,0,0,2,0,6,15,1,4,11,102,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3316841700320932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119637146267976,0.0,0.0,0.1425459515808897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16804219638571102,0.14161829828832545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17959475205359207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16389558848268965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448429950746448,0.0,0.30601421576952914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619288779506534,0.11439393636912212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12371283140168375,0.0,0.16731829115725486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831975135685017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804734660214912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606192793903115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262032410116266,0.07822940008127469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11101109988442358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533562975852658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051614343942127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1275995676899801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15836855609029535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673983012761451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12870308954662926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254244070969235,0.2801120054821991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1666966528156998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09444637268186304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11374880675554695,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,shutupimcute,2020/02/28,"Word salad and how to respond? Hi. So I have a few questions pertaining to word salad.

An ex I dated years ago, whom I did believe had severe mental health issues (he showed symptoms of schizophrenia at this time) has recently, for the past year, been attempting to text me via Facebook Messenger. The only issue is, when he does message me, NONE of his messages make any sense and seem to be a random combination of words. 

I try to ask him questions but he does not answer them, he simply continues to say random words. It’s been like this for a year now. Tonight, I decided to call him so I could hear how he speaks aloud. I figured maybe him speaking would be normal. Absolutely not. It was the same exact thing, except a lot more concerning to hear it aloud rather than just reading it. 

I’m worried about his mental health, especially because the only sentence that made any sense was him saying “I want my old life back...it’s been years” and then went on with more word salad.

My questions:
•how do you respond to someone with schizophrenia who is speaking in word salad? Is there any use in attempting to respond? 
•Can they understand what you say in response, or are they unable to comprehend what someone is saying to them?
•is it a permanent condition(especially if it’s constant) or can it be reversed? 
•what causes word salad?

I hope someone can respond and enlighten me, I don’t know much about schizophrenia but I am trying to educate myself so I can understand what to do.",3.606451612903229,6.1408736594982125,4.300215053763441,82.63698924731183,75.84587813620071,6.713978494623658,27.17921146953405,7.793537801064563,1.8599017921146963,1177,47,207,18,27,375,157,279,0.017,0.9259999999999999,0.057,0.8959,1,0,0,0,0,0,37.0,0,2,4,2,12,2,0,0,10,0,26,9,0,6,1,50,40,16,0,7,10,1,0,1,0,1,4,9,0,0,16,6,5,0,11,2,0,1,4,0,0,0,9,9,30,2,30,26,7,22,0,0,0,0,41,5,0,11,17,141,46,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09138757329556406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21032458118699354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09637998855219483,0.0,0.0,0.07927375741778032,0.0,0.0628458075027973,0.0,0.0,0.11615285788182235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10527160947936956,0.0,0.0,0.10590705212189128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11140916271463784,0.0,0.08231303720976764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18043840892553156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191705108484003,0.2323913091827142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10239668235419414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21520896958086974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05665836307020323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07281910809232901,0.05036705146257029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08764775536185634,0.0,0.09755106306337526,0.0688167704199152,0.0,0.1035728707609004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077911968347228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07578675044788717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10101129507433317,0.0,0.0,0.10818095024727918,0.0,0.0,0.15681691701910702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09841592499401937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34647027205766745,0.0,0.10312298494714582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10179395989448768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3279414011335017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093853894270735,0.0,0.11646810227706353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26205639531466857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10715526870828372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06849179412599048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060115573687761326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13998959204546824,0.0,0.0,0.21465124064057006,0.0,0.08904105321671285,0.0,0.0,0.060808152796497525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09557017754365672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10469806413956732,0.0,0.07323579111830564,0.0,0.0,0.2655594209935909
schizophrenia,KravMagaRengar,2020/02/28,"How can i never get back to psychiatric hospital ? I don't wan't to go there..

I always goes on my own, saying ""i need help"". But now, i don't wan't help. I don't want to spend my time in this horrible place. 
I'm afraid of someone get me there by force, saying i need help so send me in rehab.

I mean, i need to launch online buisness to make money. If i'm in rehab, the buisness will fall.. so no way.

Also, at PH, they made me hunderstand that they don't wan't me anymore. My psychiatrist told me i'm a bastard because i ask her a bloodtest for diabeties and liver enzymes... And worker at it look at me like they are mad.
(I did Bodybuilding and i'm looking very stylish, i think they'r mad that a schz is 100 times better looking than them)

Any tips ? Where can i find help without getting to rehab ?",0.9783957219251321,3.0666178484848494,2.8559001782531186,91.8744385026738,82.63636363636364,5.5793226381461665,21.8270944741533,6.794906146795322,0.5050356506238853,615,20,133,7,17,205,100,165,0.10800000000000001,0.816,0.076,-0.8432,0,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,4,2,9,6,3,1,4,0,10,4,1,4,1,18,31,9,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,2,3,7,4,0,0,3,5,27,2,18,27,1,18,0,0,3,0,14,9,1,1,6,80,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12571207596812548,0.13080225715577307,0.0,0.0,0.10690078921006252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15589928203420003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1469599527854459,0.0,0.0,0.12087641659069885,0.0,0.0958271218134938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13902984311668426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436771437760508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24639014927418976,0.0,0.08933988006280216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4214690143440916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07679954745868138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39602299653959183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14874560411677087,0.10493163034856264,0.0,0.0,0.17123592141182384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3496834571119874,0.12124164898546327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16423961769836068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500220925056069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13319430053577866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10072684586824086,0.0,0.0,0.18332813696152306,0.0,0.0,0.15021049159655125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129705733611039,0.09272011128227044,0.12477734096389048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15153433779570952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jcqlnreddit,2020/02/28,"Anyone have romantic delusions or “twin flame” type delusions? I thought that this dude and I were contacting each other psychically, through dreams at first. Then stuff would happen like I would think of him and he would text or call. I felt like he could talk to me in my head and his the same. Felt poetic Id feel really euphoric like I was in love. A little while later I started getting obsessions that I was the next Mary and was going to birth the next anti-Christ so I committed myself to the hospital.",4.1597959183673465,6.083292071428572,4.599744897959184,83.90329081632655,72.16326530612245,8.16530612244898,25.51530612244898,8.841846274778883,1.9040163265306125,405,13,77,8,8,128,69,98,0.018000000000000002,0.748,0.233,0.9699,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,1,5,0,1,5,0,9,2,1,0,1,18,19,9,0,4,2,0,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,5,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,7,3,13,4,8,8,2,13,0,0,0,1,8,4,0,2,11,52,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365814227024066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19945690173586686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15595756021519602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09876626816475416,0.0,0.375100754742864,0.0,0.0,0.16615020765627248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1020534658329556,0.0,0.11101228386403614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17273238672858587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200468081119882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28628961076910275,0.19577504974021934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1762957199714376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4154778671501019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12513536500030234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382577507389372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22360962956566832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570013207856414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12516154262120965,0.0,0.15507263689123174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4162770208855319,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BoneCruncher,2020/02/28,"Psychosis Ciggy is ‘punished’. She will sit in cold water for hours as ‘punishment’. Ciggy does not want to be punished and wants to be better, but Ciggy does not get to choose when it is ‘punished’. Good evening good evening good evening
Ciggy is ‘away’",2.574420289855073,5.521086586956521,2.27826086956522,92.38376811594203,85.30434782608695,3.936231884057971,25.057971014492754,5.46131890053228,0.5951275362318844,197,8,35,1,6,58,30,46,0.055,0.7070000000000001,0.23800000000000002,0.9079,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,4,8,4,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,0,7,9,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,1,4,7,6,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,23,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22382321298951746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106934619309252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4169501637575277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4720423896460617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1244643892575097,0.0,0.0,0.5994434731592325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23460676557671545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2810263005229248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,schizophrenias,2020/02/28,"Feel like I’m being stalked online all the time. One more thing sorry for posting twice in a row. I always feel like people who’ve hurt me in the past know every single account I have online. And are hunting me down to hurt me more or to laugh at me. It’s windy tonight. Sorry. 

Any advice on overcoming it?",0.45035714285714334,2.841513460317465,2.09077380952381,94.09901785714287,89.0,3.784920634920635,17.398809523809526,5.148860815047168,-0.5592523809523806,240,6,49,1,8,78,48,63,0.141,0.7290000000000001,0.129,0.0478,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,6,7,2,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,2,6,3,8,6,4,9,0,2,0,0,0,5,0,1,5,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21695696879638893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18473978325511686,0.0,0.0,0.1509823229193125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18706280031906028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22452161585906888,0.31722459592293084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4753574971300773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12201728234808072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21693710888660545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15044760352235698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21194476961262698,0.1539218442058173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21263535060436187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4970700787461209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14750130659515398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12946259882389707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Oregita,2020/02/28,"Just recovered from my worst psychotic episode I can enjoy music and other media on my phone without much of a problem now. May post more about it another time, but I'm so happy the suicide attempts didn't work.",8.349268292682929,7.13578404878049,8.522073170731709,70.47628048780491,62.17073170731707,11.126829268292685,40.012195121951216,10.125756701596842,4.186258536585367,170,8,29,3,2,56,39,41,0.17800000000000002,0.621,0.201,0.0375,0,0,0,0,0,1,3.0,0,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,4,3,1,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,3,2,5,2,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,23,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3803205564515372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38609884577601394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26662481811141314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3473644973773236,0.0,0.0,0.3470530748650506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3967328263819317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21149216459919434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3496280019280011,0.0,0.2640485187202848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Savings-Week,2020/02/28,"Schizophrenia. Listen guys. I'm new to this site and I have a problem going on in my head. I used to have this compulsive disorder where I would get angry and hit things. I once got in to hitting my cats, I wouldn't do it hard but once I used a belt and burnt a cigarette on the cat, in no way did it affect ot because the cigarette  was a tiny bit lit, I seriously couldn't help myself it was like tourette's syndrome, I want to know if I can hear if I still deserve to be famous or have money or have a good life, I recently developed paranoid schizophrenia, and the people in my head tell me I dont deserve to live my life so, I argue with them everyday and they say it's the fact that I hit an animal but remember guys I had a compulsive disorder. Can you guys tell me if I deserve to be a rockstar?",3.641155080213903,3.936411564705885,5.3608021390374345,84.15451871657756,71.58823529411767,9.005347593582886,28.983957219251337,9.095868883498916,2.1751764705882355,626,23,138,12,11,215,95,170,0.147,0.7929999999999999,0.06,-0.9203,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,2,0,3,5,1,0,12,0,17,4,2,3,1,24,30,13,0,8,7,0,1,1,0,2,2,3,0,3,8,6,0,0,2,0,1,1,4,3,0,0,5,5,26,2,14,17,1,14,0,0,1,0,13,8,0,5,5,93,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08857695240519557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15863609449463534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3330656401095056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702970950995087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07591618500882405,0.0,0.08258052787613186,0.12187545337843853,0.11621417184707188,0.0,0.0,0.4316262024259481,0.0,0.0,0.13016528743279904,0.0,0.2982509571908412,0.0,0.1637699852288646,0.0,0.09739528882146904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07985616429230065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20526730192450532,0.07098898235958775,0.0,0.12830751752970035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14033706553873665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094914690633734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10073661568702356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13903784674489605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14347176206319073,0.0,0.1646029327745294,0.0,0.0,0.11555285481295785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11604124945249418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2540070190069292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09653459203582157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2509947901467956,0.0,0.0,0.0857050147038604,0.11533683139640175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10322093775235944,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,icyshiverstar,2020/02/28,"How do y'all cope with insomnia? Last night, I nearly had a psychotic break due to seeing an insanely unsettling image accompanied by a short horror story that tapped into a delusion I've been struggling with for a while. That set off my paranoia and, although I was able to calm myself down, I only slept for about two hours. 

Does anyone have any advice on dealing with insomnia?",7.678098591549298,7.790821845070425,7.786021126760563,70.85536971830989,62.94366197183098,10.480281690140846,33.24295774647887,10.125756701596842,3.434630985915493,305,11,50,6,4,99,59,71,0.128,0.8390000000000001,0.033,-0.7622,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,5,0,5,3,1,1,0,7,7,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,6,1,14,3,0,13,0,0,1,0,2,6,0,1,5,37,8,0,0.3084534123839009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014171046759082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20975889773926285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21567779783788624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180019240239149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2699296598080169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30376447798979256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514306998214181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.289462632315091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345927195610516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24579743407204205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3224624790396226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3013141638652848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,xlillyndzer,2020/02/28,Question What's your top 3 suggestions to someone living with schizo affective based on your methodologies and findings ? @danielamenmd,8.985833333333332,13.570247249999998,5.890000000000002,64.70833333333334,76.5,10.666666666666668,41.66666666666666,9.725611199111238,6.687166666666666,115,7,12,4,3,32,19,20,0.0,0.904,0.096,0.2023,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4825217497772745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4661750445674043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5914064598162923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44731642950155137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,bigdaddyhashbrown,2020/02/28,I am so mad I'm beginning to hallucinate/become dizzy and I feel like I'm about to have an episode I dont know what to do and I am a bit scared. I cant get my mind off of my anger and I dont want to have a breakdown/episode.,-1.1149090909090873,0.004247327272727475,2.001818181818184,100.3027272727273,84.81818181818181,5.854545454545455,20.090909090909093,6.742157984588678,-0.1852545454545456,173,5,51,2,5,62,33,55,0.266,0.684,0.05,-0.8662,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,2,1,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,7,15,4,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,8,1,7,15,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3207576304241009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31707484674578834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6807646834971179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468503694689308,0.20748358209374174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15173793078984193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1596129880488453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1418896548986016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2932519770430692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907715612828645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713034129410634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,KSandoval98,2020/02/28,"Schizophrenic and smoking marijuana Hey... I want to hear what y’all got to say about this... 
Been schizophrenic for almost 5 years.. and been told by doctors to not smoke marijuana or I could possibly have an episode or even die! ( I had history of smoking marijuana before becoming schizophrenic) 
But I’ve smoked/ate marijuana right after I was diagnosed and nothing happened.. been smoking ever since I was diagnosed ( no less than 2 grams a day) and nothing has happened... never heard a voice or hallucinated while smoking marijuana or sober. Could it be that I’m not schizophrenic because anybody I ask about smoking marijuana and being schizophrenic, say that’s the worst thing that a schizophrenic person can do. I take invega sustenna 117 mg every 4 weeks for my schizophrenia.. my marijuana intake overpasses my intake of medication.. is marijuana really bad for a schizophrenic..? ( Been smoking ever since diagnosed)... Is it a matter of time for me to have an episode ?",6.465892857142855,9.06789666071429,7.211428571428572,64.73357142857142,67.51190476190476,10.990476190476189,36.404761904761905,10.914260884657429,5.05294761904762,781,41,115,26,14,258,99,168,0.092,0.893,0.015,-0.9354,0,0,2,0,0,0,35.0,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,8,0,18,12,0,0,3,20,28,11,1,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,12,5,0,1,8,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,10,5,12,0,16,14,2,10,0,0,0,0,9,1,0,5,9,82,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14747140137243972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13767922199678714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12296577396973095,0.08977550228758499,0.16265009618971876,0.12531742671071894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23516904480842715,0.0,0.0,0.09497810628018896,0.0,0.0,0.4484332306332519,0.15284484302028745,0.0,0.0,0.15073889405007626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0972716132061925,0.2664314895914189,0.12408281554791617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11778668566942732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26046387452067465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16598598489023314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14836081156192105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.113585065792014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2826224649181879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12859202648131332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16602678939814616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943460651034461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12576928441089275,0.0,0.23423284048298745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24364945519348316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11073004064998401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09784081810015677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587535171514635,0.0,0.0,0.14072448464216047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08686470390634722,0.0,0.11813252825913095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09483818950786296
schizophrenia,kitabilz,2020/02/28,"Questions Do you find yourself fixating on an idea everytime you have an episode ? 

What i mean is that .. are you obsessing over the same delusion everytime ?  Or do they change ?",4.8556989247311835,7.700404032258064,4.427096774193551,81.727311827957,73.19354838709677,9.29462365591398,36.13978494623656,9.725611199111238,4.164991397849462,139,8,24,4,3,42,26,31,0.08900000000000001,0.9109999999999999,0.0,-0.4479,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,6,6,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,2,6,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,2,0,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4442513946513782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3838266729861693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4740724100700551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4574486399428063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4704400868118277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Lilpeti,2020/02/28,"I feel depressed How do you combat negative symptoms, is there meds for it?",5.755714285714286,7.285180285714286,5.884285714285718,77.8107142857143,67.57142857142857,8.457142857142857,35.42857142857143,8.841846274778883,3.2915142857142854,60,3,10,1,1,19,14,14,0.485,0.515,0.0,-0.8555,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4732956926927885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27785084210923744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6103862906225953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5711555594035916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,constipateduser,2020/02/29,Anybody else goes through “phases” supposedly? Wife says I go through phases and I tell her I’m just having new interest.,2.086818181818181,4.744488136363636,3.1822727272727285,82.0434090909091,99.45454545454544,5.836363636363638,28.22727272727273,7.1686216300943375,2.3732363636363645,97,5,16,2,4,31,18,22,0.0,0.857,0.14300000000000002,0.4588,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.456413768954865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31050904441269955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5276780039657533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4344874929953234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4775428225904821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,fishbandit13,2020/02/29,"How do you tell what’s real and what’s not? I’m seeing my therapist to talk about some hallucinations I’ve been having, how do I know how much stuff I’ve seen or heard is real and how much of it was fake? And if anybody was diagnosed as a teenager how did you know you weren’t just having anxiety or hypochondria and if anything you see is real or not?",5.529,4.57265146666667,6.6691666666666665,80.64375000000003,67.66666666666666,9.633333333333333,29.416666666666664,8.841846274778883,2.0158666666666667,280,8,61,4,4,95,47,75,0.076,0.924,0.0,-0.6531,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,4,0,0,7,1,0,0,1,0,11,1,0,5,0,23,18,15,0,2,8,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,7,4,6,0,4,11,3,0,0,0,3,0,7,0,0,6,0,46,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15638018841738055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16821964843051318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20748126453298005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22468697871008053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3005433807413655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6980216755123565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257913971831088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23401116682659845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16430447267287934,0.17867145942208604,0.0,0.0,0.2373465377785492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,IAmVengence,2020/02/29,"Wasn’t planning on this I recently posted a video on a social media platform and it went viral. The comments I received are racist, and specifically targeting me.
My other social media platforms are being harassed as well.
I’m so fucking overwhelmed, up until now I have had minimal psychosis and basically bad thoughts.
But as of right now, I am continuing to have really bad urges. And so much anxiety. Like I feel it in the top of stomach.
It won’t go away and each day it gets bigger. I wish I never posted it, but in a way I’m grateful I started a conversation about it- as it was an issue important to me.
My mind won’t stop creating awful scenarios, the noises are so loud, and thoughts won’t stop. 
The things I see are there.
I don’t know what to do, and I can’t wait till Monday to see my doctor.",2.3738888888888847,4.434606388888891,4.5738518518518525,81.50633333333336,77.7037037037037,7.282962962962964,26.2320987654321,8.238735603445708,1.923229135802469,633,25,121,12,15,219,97,162,0.127,0.767,0.106,-0.6453,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,2,8,7,2,1,9,1,17,3,1,0,1,20,32,17,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,3,1,1,0,0,11,8,0,3,4,1,0,3,7,5,1,0,6,4,16,2,18,22,2,29,0,1,2,1,5,11,1,0,13,90,27,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320319214984563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621552683808731,0.0,0.2882131605522125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11130715202514613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17665457496738848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0872673797206569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595579354517105,0.09017186454587342,0.0,0.09808764985895636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18014054397466409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948517003176776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08431942280600778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17426807795580826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268745115813991,0.0,0.13311310028230194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3305896372111173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11056644760282028,0.0,0.17041315094292586,0.0,0.0,0.14739208232599882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2750659441779507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35187032248744043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12216105617083985,0.0,0.0,0.2885882178330555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466203361026996,0.0,0.0,0.2740365296640821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13699499173486826,0.0,0.0,0.1551803641448032,0.15999392408224147,0.0,0.0,0.19847155162056573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,uknown999,2020/02/29,"Need opinions So I’ve always been a angry person but ever since I got older it’s hard for me to find ways to release it, I also I have depression and anxiety. I experimented with acid a couple months ago and ever since I think I might be schizophrenic, I have these episodes where noise just starts to overwhelm me and I first I get anxious and think something bad is going to happen. Then that makes me get defensive and it just turns into pure rage, like I have to sit in a room away from everyone and compose myself because I feel like I might spazz for no reason. But any opinions would help thanks",5.005819327731093,5.927181210084036,5.48183823529412,82.25452205882353,68.83193277310924,7.966806722689077,27.480042016806717,8.07648339933343,1.6945369747899166,480,15,92,6,8,154,80,119,0.213,0.672,0.115,-0.9153,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,7,8,2,1,3,0,9,1,0,2,3,28,22,11,0,2,4,0,2,2,0,3,1,0,1,1,5,8,0,1,5,0,0,1,1,5,0,1,2,3,16,3,12,16,0,16,0,2,0,0,2,5,0,4,10,63,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144828585573233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13065679744820974,0.1359471943117361,0.0,0.0,0.11110559312069862,0.0,0.12498704211713632,0.18457553810551305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15350308568275053,0.0,0.13641742855750807,0.09959635737783193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18077945049175387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407209691508667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29557735883283,0.0,0.15611882648491796,0.0,0.15981927812835994,0.0,0.0,0.08261101967470344,0.11672037560757008,0.0,0.0,0.14932849790058794,0.1389729340664367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17072105751195274,0.0,0.09285394838577456,0.0,0.1306717817373318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444784627752692,0.0,0.14635848415783664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10951173786163376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15964071612288605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090589799490605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3466456851066121,0.0,0.0,0.1304102242097273,0.0,0.0,0.1211459341383005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14265915644053848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16798425575426482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27030311828976544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12577970668021604,0.0,0.0,0.11564286044929775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15042050661672254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093776114482541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17771306838282522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12968529585478247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11606212593803265,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,throwaway789212627,2020/02/29,"I am not schizophrenic but I have a question Hello all. First off I want to say how brave and strong all of you are dealing with this illness and how appreciative subs like this exist for supporting others who have this.

So I am entering the field of Occupational Therapy, and part of our profession is helping people who have schizophrenia to help and find ways to redirect individuals to engage in meaningful activities and tasks. 

Personally I wanted to ask those of you who are diagnosed with schizophrenia, about the voices. Why are so many of the voices negative in nature? Is there ever a time when the voices are friendly? I know some drugs give hallucinations to those without schizophrenia and the voices they encounter are friendly (depending on the type of drug of course) but with schizophrenia they are often malicious. 

I also have a second question: To those who are religious, it seems that there is some link to the hallucinations being related to angels and demons. To those who are not religious, is that the same conclusion you draw? If you don’t believe in god or satan, are the voices and hallucinations different in nature to reflect your beliefs? 

Thank you for any information you guys share.",6.521313908741067,8.885128822429904,6.6334304562946675,69.92523089609675,66.85046728971963,9.708191313908742,31.74711379879055,10.056822442137396,3.6372763056624513,984,41,153,25,17,314,118,214,0.037000000000000005,0.7490000000000001,0.214,0.9922,1,0,2,0,0,0,19.0,1,7,2,3,11,9,0,0,12,0,21,5,0,3,3,41,29,18,0,3,7,0,0,1,2,0,5,6,0,2,16,11,0,0,11,0,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,6,17,9,31,28,6,12,4,0,0,0,30,6,0,9,5,130,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12924424516951544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099044121503742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151089129836011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18208587165193996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16661898445890996,0.0,0.16403682323614116,0.0,0.16885430658019338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3748464668716494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14619091152410446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477140827755955,0.13747047465731038,0.0,0.0,0.24972821889687585,0.0,0.0,0.15503677984628095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.160025234818838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166555766490301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888199189769964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07895740694930838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16385324260850292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17501436287330796,0.0,0.11204417495670932,0.14111684467075428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3620937825067965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12852351841593634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.147129123276529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18339990504605266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487942856046239,0.1848219643282892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09423958079386613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1906505910816232,0.12828324664073046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14583328910496035,0.0,0.0,0.15579204268836233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Iavabo,2020/02/29,"I stare off into the distance and go into my own world where i make up fancies and talk to myself, last night on the bus i think people was talking about me doing it. either i was imagining the voices or i was talking out loud. it’s a lose, lose situation. i’m not diagnosed schizophrenic but i want to get tested. how would i go bout doing so in the UK?",0.7620270270270275,2.9308262162162184,3.32560810810811,87.69489864864866,84.13513513513513,5.8621621621621625,20.06081081081081,7.1686216300943375,0.6009243243243243,276,8,57,4,8,96,54,74,0.055999999999999994,0.922,0.022000000000000002,-0.3071,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,5,0,6,2,0,2,0,15,13,6,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,3,3,10,0,10,9,2,13,0,2,1,0,3,9,0,1,2,43,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365306336638621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12175375028944918,0.0,0.26488393663703674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899586545393598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5214241671392593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555559695453538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21869219714637306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16156055194207214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26194665656851945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5619260291660517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14932258382178326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13745299447798248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16554488714472113,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Mediocre-Bend,2020/02/29,"Schiz in Sac 24M seeking F Friend. Had my first episode last year and well, it was horrible. Lived my whole life thinking I was completely normal and then boom, one day I think I'm Jesus reincarnated lmfao.

Also one time jumped in a random car with some old lady and told her I was under a spiritual attack and to ""Just Drive!""

Anyways I haven't had an episode since last July and it pretty much went away. I don't hallucinate daily at all. I also have BPD.

I just want to meet a girl I can be friends with who has the same issues maybe? I don't know. Maybe this is a shot in the dark?",2.235983606557376,3.702961614754102,3.772918032786887,89.74216393442623,76.29508196721312,6.519344262295082,21.21639344262295,7.1686216300943375,0.4201678688524591,455,11,101,5,10,151,86,122,0.055999999999999994,0.8009999999999999,0.14400000000000002,0.8574,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,1,0,7,0,13,1,0,0,1,18,20,8,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,1,4,7,0,0,3,0,0,4,3,1,1,3,7,1,12,3,10,12,5,18,1,0,0,0,7,6,0,2,8,66,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2782412466613165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979115476395889,0.16344687287952744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191042066985584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18240014077895145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11219373942821714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479754715484806,0.0,0.0,0.2688115469328691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18157540538441624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956072162133904,0.28361117276399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12287739769719708,0.0,0.0,0.1536152491041719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3495446501484473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12788509663089745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17044983661459154,0.0,0.0,0.1825481524703808,0.0,0.2357678565191331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769860605695721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14390655151179085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22294089848415008,0.0,0.0,0.10144102900107284,0.0,0.0,0.16623205893931292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10260971014549232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564164119059001,0.16126831296991306,0.0,0.19422693239596756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11202846148669164
schizophrenia,Kirrawynne,2020/02/29,"Anyone else experience this? I was diagnosed back in 2015. I experience auditory and visual hallucinations. When I close my eyes to go to sleep, I see what I can best describe as a kaleidoscope effect. I see moving patterns and colors.  I’m wondering if anyone else experiences this or something else is going on or maybe it’s normal. I have an appointment with my psychiatrist on Tuesday and I’ll ask her but I thought I might get some input from you lovely folks. 😊",2.5874999999999986,5.490152750000004,4.827727272727274,74.69909090909091,84.0,7.745454545454546,25.04545454545455,8.575989854853784,2.4940772727272718,374,15,64,10,11,129,66,88,0.0,0.902,0.098,0.8316,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,2,2,2,0,0,2,0,5,4,2,1,0,15,15,9,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,4,13,2,8,12,2,10,0,0,4,1,4,4,0,6,3,43,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293202892150365,0.3360382191662558,0.0,0.0,0.15330119106982248,0.0,0.0,0.12609216514011662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17208916837008045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664384486740009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4109581787756622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4812180779049402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08567391464065435,0.0,0.1863896900355976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14800030886817964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16474212840944813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17395916631020014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742870931426584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16066770788227006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613451140301524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16410059391279866,0.0,0.0,0.1262414843335059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13018352436816802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17783166613323936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,new-battalions,2020/02/29,"Video games that might be therapeutic for some (PC mostly) Wanted to suggest some games that I find therapeutic for me. It can be difficult for me to engage with different forms of media, but I find that since video games require interactivity they're easier to engage with. It can still be difficult though but there's two genres of games that I find have the right level of interactivity but aren't too complex, even when my apathy and motivation are awful. These are mostly PC, but some might be on console. And if anyone has any other recommendations feel free to comment them.

**Isometric ARPGs (aka Diablo-likes)**  
Games that play like the famous Diablo 1 and 2 that influenced them. I find these type of games great as if I'm not doing well I can still just grind for loot or whatever, and later I can think about building my character and the math involved when I feel like it.

* Diablo 3
* Path of Exile (free to play)
* Grim Dawn (my personal favorite)
* Wolcen (currently very buggy so beware, could be great in the future)
* Titan Quest Anniversary Edition
* Torchlight
* Torchlight 2
* Last Epoch (in steam early access)

**Rhythm Games**  
Simple to get into, just match the music. Sometimes I can have difficulty with songs with lyrics, but I've noticed in rhythm games I don't focus on the lyrics all that much and sort of zone out.

* DJMax Respect V
* Tapsonic Bold
* Osu! (free to play and has 4 different modes, i mostly played mania mode though)
* Invaxion
* Spin Rhythm XD (early access, built around using a turntable but works fine with mouse & kb)
* Musynx
* Intralism
* Muse Dash
* Groove Coaster (i found the flashing colors/lights in this one gave me headaches however)
* StepMania (free, based on Dance Dance Revolution, but can be played with keyboard)
* Clone Hero (free, but based on Guitar Hero so you might need to use a guitar hero controller)",2.0635040160642566,4.726983683734943,2.8107710843373503,84.76625702811245,99.21084337349396,5.7073092369477925,18.786345381526104,7.100725674708028,1.0067998393574302,1461,44,249,29,60,457,192,332,0.059000000000000004,0.737,0.204,0.9958,4,0,0,0,0,0,75.0,0,1,2,7,16,26,0,0,9,1,25,0,0,5,1,59,36,25,0,5,14,0,2,2,0,3,0,1,0,1,14,16,0,2,10,20,5,2,3,3,1,2,2,3,20,28,37,24,9,28,0,1,0,0,18,13,0,13,15,149,34,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379083724795468,0.0,0.08655510708632395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08899748754022213,0.0,0.0,0.11330663324288275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14275590767469348,0.10162312522031436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2659620719874048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08406757222054813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12871369394854115,0.09092921720776156,0.0,0.0,0.4653282976594769,0.0,0.0,0.13955650258313596,0.0,0.0,0.06649880982492444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2806544091298768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10375059834116718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1243656497503513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4050735010633587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09356581523263774,0.09437688065822383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14490969696459094,0.0,0.0,0.0862485632885487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111364263106128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1086968546304142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10528774786307007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12588367262009054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2032927491888876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08155620734905271,0.25010489710837824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12433455744225225,0.0,0.0,0.21985897756952005,0.0,0.10501974536738898,0.0750733387507804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1144404585155053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09266172252843363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,tru_anon,2020/02/29,"My brother - 1 week of symptoms. Hey guys, not sure if this is even the right place but I made a post on r/drugs as this was first unfolding. 

My mom and I hadn't heard from my little brother in a few days and went over to his place to check up on him. I was worried because I know he's smoked weed for years and been buying Xanax for like the past year. He was having full blown visual and auditory hallucinations, so I stayed at his place to make sure he was alright. He was talking and yelling in his sleep all night long. He was always normal, maybe a bit of anxiety and ADHD but never like this.

 I thought it was just a really bad trip, but here we are nearly a week later after getting him Baker Act'd and put on 3 different medications. He is still yelling and screaming at people in the other room at my parents house here and I don't know what to do. We let him have his phone because he was aggressively asking for it and he texted really weird shit to people all night and we caught him calling 911 twice this morning thinking people were breaking in to our house to kill our family before we confiscated the phone.

Obviously I am most worried about him but this has made the rest of our lives complete hell the entire week. Whatever the meds are doing is not enough. Has anyone ever seen or experienced this? He went from a slightly unmotivated early 20's kid to almost complete schizophrenic in like one week.

Thanks for reading :(",4.651431095406358,5.8353947349823345,5.3560618374558295,81.86497614840992,69.84805653710248,7.9214840989399296,26.870848056537103,8.238735603445708,1.6696079151943466,1142,36,222,16,20,370,163,283,0.162,0.7859999999999999,0.052000000000000005,-0.9885,2,0,2,0,2,0,22.0,7,0,0,1,8,14,4,0,13,1,25,6,2,3,7,41,40,19,1,2,9,4,0,3,0,0,4,4,1,2,10,15,0,0,4,1,2,5,5,7,0,3,19,6,28,7,34,20,8,47,1,0,1,0,38,21,2,4,21,147,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11871410714724302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989136871325027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08219269517197071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07556626604314699,0.0,0.0,0.06906912323015968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09234576577219444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08247699541235322,0.12043048160925675,0.0,0.0840543225503718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078419427505608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008652059154286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20713745285734453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06370479022783547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032038523354072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11455319144347086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10206592460847262,0.0,0.0652431171468427,0.0893519718346468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09312079121939854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402203564925595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05160836128526504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09780751843802518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22795722161014376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10928519794734537,0.0,0.10857357432208964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10100902388776133,0.0,0.14477644187972852,0.09900329611707573,0.08722436091221629,0.08741700233637448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18693564412700636,0.0659362743019505,0.0,0.0992375721072034,0.0,0.1097220741192288,0.09951024239946347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156896916986062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761850606701815,0.0,0.0,0.18539627557700733,0.09678321750607807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06693573954555397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10968326273534763,0.0,0.094296483059134,0.2054443985729733,0.0,0.3096115570062216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09460372989002824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09930096825463453,0.0,0.0,0.09880651737680453,0.0,0.12656172083503422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435739766030803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10139603099347676,0.0,0.0,0.09885112374402406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10528610898185804,0.07888566482946678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861975588972718,0.10267001992880376,0.0,0.07939545040666955,0.0,0.09094315561681557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06329409842081611,0.0,0.07842011640487594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31694074462301697,0.0,0.0,0.1831397028123548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20063133546853892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12722188733397216
schizophrenia,LightIsMyPath,2020/02/29,"Help me communicate Hello! I'm new to these things, but yesterday my grandfather got forcefully brought into a psychiatric clinic after he called himself the cops on him at 6 am after having walked around town all night in only trousers and shirt.

He says that my dad and my uncles set him up to have him closed in an institute and steal his stuff. He was trying to take legal action against them for some days/weeks (thankfully his lawyer realized he wasn't ok and he didn't actually start the procedure). He says that his house had drugs on the floor,  and that his coat was also full of liquid drugs, so he could inhale them and hallucinate to be found crazy ( that's why he walked around in shirt.. and caught a bad cold). He thought cops could help him but they've fallen for my dad and uncles trap and now they believe he's crazy. My uncle is actually dealing with chemicals, for our crops.. he likely saw him prepare the stuff and assumed it was drugs. He realizes he actually had hallucinations ( but he blames the drugs- also an hallucination but he doesn't realize it- for them)

We are a country family, old mentality and stuff, so he hasn't really grown up believing in mental health and recognizing psychologists and psychiatrists ' work as valid (back then it wasn't that rare that mental illness was used as a way to get rid of people who were then closed in sanitariums/ manicomi, very strict mental health hospitals where nearly noone exited). 

This isn't from old age (he's still in his 60s), he always had sporadic psychotic episodes, all paranoic. But they were mild, generally targeting people he doesn't have to interact with on a daily basis, and solved themselves in a few days as people near him would talk him out of it(with one exception of his brother in law, which he never spoke to again after the delusion that he was fucking my grandmother).

But this is really, really bad this time. He fully believes my uncles and my dad organized all this to get him to the psychiatrist hospital, and that they drugged him, and that now he's getting imprisoned in the hospital while being 100% healthy and being set up. His talks are completely logical, but based on unreal things. I am 100% sure he really SAW the drug there.. except there wasn't any. He's going on for who knows how long.. days/weeks at the bare minimum  (I fear years, cause he confessed this 3 years ago to me. But he had just been through a surgery and I stupidly blamed it on the anesthetic drug)

I am currently the only member of the family he accepts to see, and I have no idea how to communicate with him.

He of course looks for my help in getting out  (who wouldn't be if they were 100% sure they've been imprisoned wrongly?), he started asking for me to get him a phone (probably to contact his lawyer). I don't know what to do.  I of course can't help him, he really needs a medical therapy right now.. at the same time if I just try to tell him that all of this isn't real and he ""imagined "" it he will probably just assume I'm a part of the conjure and not want to see me again. 

He's literally tied to the bed cause they're afraid he will attempt escape (and  he  probably would... he totally thinks he shouldn't be there), and he's got wardmates screaming all the time cause they see monsters and stuff (which certainly doesn't help with trying to explain him that mental illness doesn't mean ""being crazy"" but it's a proper medical condition that needs treatment and can be managed)

Help please! I don't want to leave him there alone all day everyday thinking he's been locked up with batshit crazy people by the doing of his own sons (which will happen if he puts me in the enemy side). At the same time I feel like I can harm him if I let him brag about his delusion and pretend to believe him.. and I would also have to lie about why I'm not trying to help him and get him out.",6.939421463414633,6.579389908,7.120146341463414,76.59592682926831,64.58666666666667,10.783739837398377,31.892682926829266,10.322093796472897,3.0258965853658535,3061,102,596,65,41,990,318,750,0.113,0.821,0.067,-0.9908,1,1,7,0,0,0,95.0,2,0,8,2,26,18,2,2,33,1,63,17,2,6,11,116,105,55,0,15,20,5,1,2,0,8,14,4,1,0,38,43,0,0,19,1,0,9,20,10,0,1,28,13,68,8,92,59,14,89,1,0,6,1,112,42,1,7,37,380,106,5,0.0,0.0,0.15976912539433208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04837657956323888,0.0,0.0,0.05652223031100302,0.0,0.13092848208550398,0.04540995989148351,0.0,0.0,0.03711220781622897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971649036416366,0.05101934558892183,0.0,0.0,0.041964055885312566,0.09113406114275327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2459449471382476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0557261803555969,0.0,0.0,0.16818766759609707,0.0,0.0,0.057219825962610216,0.0,0.0,0.08714583504239858,0.0,0.0,0.07039146150612886,0.05626342251762854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4430197930125016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10289506592985252,0.06141094960294966,0.027594266354778237,0.0389876937269097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05983760057977883,0.0,0.05045280589341235,0.17107605081880314,0.0,0.03101567555925573,0.0,0.08729566502173365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04825962928491116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11601927126002375,0.0,0.0,0.2560587259181044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06297109657149141,0.0,0.06160743044448998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05998491283106665,0.0,0.0,0.05778601166298504,0.0,0.05580563715332862,0.0,0.05332422307712269,0.0,0.0,0.048296293990882484,0.045828435431231315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059447111176620486,0.0,0.10995517561985048,0.27498890176525603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08093189474174557,0.04209085177368605,0.052707932555436036,0.0,0.05121402467924737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453251592398545,0.0,0.036980771122187735,0.08301200906715506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05909834990875749,0.0,0.15133902722310882,0.0,0.0,0.05990589019833621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17652008499473154,0.0,0.0,0.05486196767478885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06211718720889287,0.17480758645556407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046605918400530126,0.0,0.08679890882267773,0.0,0.0,0.13046529447322674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772555503087083,0.0,0.043582886148508915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498968035295395,0.0,0.0,0.10287074372882524,0.0,0.041032874307851096,0.08772906670087209,0.04770010251756725,0.050244429146945095,0.06241015274045821,0.0,0.07251311329274104,0.06993766209133925,0.0,0.04332567916382517,0.1272902093193845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14820872014426648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04713443458446645,0.0,0.04502928534297673,0.06437834676579905,0.04331832012492263,0.0875519805695346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09848913662141927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039730539523858216,0.0,0.0,0.11630346276248353,0.05966812818788264,0.0,0.07028776449132218
schizophrenia,giveme80gold,2020/02/29,University studies? Anyone managed to complete university after experiencing your few episodes?,13.754999999999995,19.4469645,13.3,10.39500000000001,70.66666666666667,12.4,64.33333333333334,10.125756701596842,11.441533333333336,82,7,4,3,2,27,11,12,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5548297985928357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8319638781782737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Different-Crow,2020/03/01,"1 out of 3 posts on this board are SPAM If you came to this board looking for some kind of support for you mental illness, at least 1 out of 3 of the posts are SPAM. When I say SPAM, I mean that the authors are posting content that is professionally written to guide mentally ill people through a narrative that suits some agenda they are trying to serve.",9.211238095238096,6.618569457142861,8.512857142857143,75.58880952380953,61.57142857142857,11.047619047619047,39.04761904761904,8.841846274778883,3.2777619047619044,282,11,56,3,3,89,47,70,0.204,0.764,0.032,-0.9151,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,1,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,5,2,0,0,0,7,10,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,5,2,14,8,3,9,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,3,1,37,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259247624693258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236039675442072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19034389838525845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469077284141488,0.0,0.0,0.4568557410450823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15714294055873534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6512554036714999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18025536465986206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572199794256577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15389258492841978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,stamp_of_approval,2020/03/01,I just wish I was real I want some reality. Everything is so imaginary and too fast. I want to cut again because I dont understand how blood can come out of you. My body does stuff I font want it to. The cuts heal and I get fat and I'm disgusting. My head is lonely and everything is moving around me and I'm stuck. I'm tired.,-1.0964788732394375,0.9841185774647913,1.80435211267606,94.772161971831,95.61971830985917,6.220281690140845,16.959154929577466,7.554174236665415,0.4166270422535212,253,7,61,6,10,88,49,71,0.21100000000000002,0.6970000000000001,0.092,-0.8591,0,2,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,6,4,3,0,1,0,6,6,4,1,0,17,17,7,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,8,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,2,0,11,0,5,15,1,6,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,36,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1969500601241485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13486554547330998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2457472091586376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19057823900428192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936081769893307,0.0,0.2592910458022059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3976715932348381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11558850720706465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270555541664823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2351425752671158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25181898601280545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25326629593283023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542822591223219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303181214930262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3914783669105847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2544145060150132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,eeezsleeezy,2020/03/01,"I have no knowledge of schizophrenia and I met someone with the diagnosis that I don't know if I should be worried for Really as the title says. I met a really sweet and kind person the other day and he revealed to me that he is on medication for schizophrenia. 

Without going into too much detail, from fear of scaring me off, he shared some theories he has on the world and society that he had gotten from what I understand to be hallucinations. It seems to be related to God and Satan from him having seen some kind of crucifix appear in front of him at different occasions. He also said that it wasn't a coincidence that we had met due to a t-shirt I wore on a pic with symbolism on it.

What I'm mostly worried about is that he shared that he believes to be misdiagnosed and shouldn't be on his medication. 

Now, I really don't know about this condition at all, so I really want to know if this is normal even during medication or might this be indicative of a relapse? 

Also should he really be drinking or doing illicit drugs at all? How might that interact with his condition or medication?",8.484158878504672,6.8031077897196255,9.46347663551402,65.3298878504673,62.22429906542056,13.419813084112153,36.82056074766354,12.340626583579946,4.609201495327102,873,33,160,26,10,303,110,214,0.059000000000000004,0.848,0.09300000000000001,0.8037,1,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,0,9,7,0,2,9,0,24,6,0,1,2,38,40,16,0,7,6,0,0,0,0,5,5,2,0,1,17,11,1,0,7,1,0,3,6,2,0,0,10,4,16,5,35,18,6,18,1,0,1,0,23,12,0,12,3,126,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20553282245667004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14478255136629262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08287590787974851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13426169254140544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258872138354406,0.14902646578768672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0848771740258675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1446052715259734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07303307007635408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676389934238733,0.21187104246426453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5178261573545466,0.0,0.2726496724390832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09446688863023502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12590885221743744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122067111898022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41162200988002257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12223888272254067,0.1021933373414132,0.12865718627924644,0.0,0.0,0.11698727449310432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10888293870511584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13377955067408367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07579632276207708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238754507329573,0.0,0.0,0.2610086936416322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,MoPsycho,2020/03/01,"I jumped from the balcony in the 2nd floor to prove the earth is not real and just a simulation I was so wrong. The balcony was approx. 8 meters high. Broke several bones in my back, hand and foot. This happened due to a weed induced psychosis. Wondering if anyone did something severe up as this.",1.9772180451127848,4.704006070175441,3.1120300751879704,87.2542105263158,84.78947368421052,5.3624060150375925,23.932330827067666,6.868970318607317,1.0859593984962412,234,9,43,3,7,75,46,57,0.155,0.792,0.053,-0.7344,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,6,0,4,3,3,1,1,9,6,5,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,3,1,3,0,7,3,0,9,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,2,2,29,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19902279906510215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188660735800225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25170101772056824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007315817572001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32397594987961953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6431110892942237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21912525626223697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086735681120653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3112027343124883,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,7665377,2020/03/01,"I think I have schizophrenia. Because every time I stop taking my meds I hallucinate. 
My doctor thinks I have schizophrenia, but I'm not sure if I agree with him. 
I guess I'll just take the meds and maybe after some years I can ask my doctor to allow me to stop taking the meds, so I can see what happens.",1.68809523809524,3.6874612222222254,2.9272222222222237,92.77750000000002,79.63492063492063,4.834920634920637,18.436507936507933,5.46131890053228,-0.4300349206349208,239,5,51,1,6,77,41,63,0.162,0.799,0.04,-0.7317,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,1,1,14,14,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,14,1,4,14,1,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,5,32,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16510960592256946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10766183589089272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36154241769891504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14880433285247208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19455947502014506,0.0,0.15617856876100636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17743181061222532,0.0,0.588532725913709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407379436721209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29531327454736245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16645595667652022,0.0,0.398373693074811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263333583321031,0.0,0.0,0.10298464266801807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11373318260338965
schizophrenia,Cultusfit,2020/03/01,"Flagging those with...what could I do So recently saw guy in unpopular opinion.

Is there any method someone can recommend for keeping a legit kind eye on him?",3.867471264367815,6.685381724137932,4.862758620689653,77.4164367816092,76.58620689655173,8.004597701149425,33.804597701149426,8.841846274778883,3.505749425287357,126,7,21,3,3,41,29,29,0.0,0.8029999999999999,0.19699999999999998,0.7096,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,4,1,1,0,0,3,6,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,3,4,0,3,0,0,2,0,2,2,0,1,1,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2861531334041019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3359683407139482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4166504462485473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3740194518210884,0.0,0.4381903350337697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4154815441118839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3565358752869998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,NotWillSmith666,2020/03/01,"Should I talk to my therapist about this? 

So. A couple of years ago I saw a shadow person wearing a Fedora. And ever since then I feel watched. Like I’m being watched thru the windows phone and Spyed on by the Amazon alexas my parents own. Is this a sign of schizophrenia? Or am I just crazy",0.9856416464891034,3.410976813559323,2.297142857142859,93.60542372881358,85.94915254237291,4.727360774818402,20.292978208232448,6.1826913282559595,0.1240876513317195,228,7,47,2,7,73,46,59,0.044000000000000004,0.871,0.085,0.2869,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,6,0,4,1,1,0,1,8,7,5,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,6,1,7,4,1,5,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,1,5,33,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056487860173533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3815201216043703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31189581995809795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743437441944849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16845428300212262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3828650947942001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3010703847429484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28522621979276297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771411598096221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4003451256479583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22204308451120186
schizophrenia,Aareek,2020/03/01,Should I talk to my doctor? So. A couple of years ago I saw a shadow person wearing a Fedora. And ever since then I feel watched. Like I’m being watched thru the windows phone and Spyed on by the Amazon alexas my parents own. Is this a sign of schizophrenia? Or am I just crazy,0.4898496240601489,2.847211017543863,2.076942355889724,94.67526315789476,87.94736842105263,3.95889724310777,18.669172932330827,5.288315135182226,-0.39035639097744346,216,6,45,1,7,70,45,57,0.046,0.866,0.08800000000000001,0.2869,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,6,0,4,2,1,0,1,8,7,5,0,1,2,1,1,1,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,6,1,6,4,1,5,0,0,3,0,4,1,0,1,5,31,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31125872429863594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3885226173877052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3594000884845675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31762041753610243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17754368376369767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715461262355715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3898922764815205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30659629014155204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29046131825361565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822278634801768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22611850720835835
schizophrenia,Schizothrow112,2020/03/01,"I recently “came out” on social media. I saw my friends for the first time tonight and none of them treated me any differently. It was at a friends birthday party so everyone was there. It was a bit awkward with a few of them at first and I worried that admitting it had changed everything. I guess if anything, it seemed like they were trying to be too nice and comforting, but I think that could’ve been them just having anxiety over not wanting to do something that would make me feel judged. But after a while everyone just started treating me exactly the same again. No one acted scared of me or thought I was a freak. I’m lucky to have friends like that. It just felt like such a relief to not have to hide it anymore either.",4.107622377622377,5.689362419580419,4.415664335664335,86.55888111888115,71.65734265734265,7.717482517482518,30.48251748251749,8.296473431620573,2.1541944055944064,578,25,115,9,11,181,95,143,0.098,0.7020000000000001,0.201,0.9358,1,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,4,2,8,15,0,2,8,0,13,0,0,1,1,29,26,9,0,3,10,0,2,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,10,6,0,0,6,0,0,2,4,3,0,3,11,3,15,12,16,13,5,16,0,0,1,0,9,5,0,5,12,88,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11512583451638275,0.0,0.12950956944028888,0.0,0.16789431656509002,0.0,0.0,0.13931466933321052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18482537651463088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936274191872865,0.0,0.0,0.1790907742545718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351676116059027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1768763653467548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3235356506898692,0.15215067534954102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08560021429315193,0.0,0.16254894299514766,0.0,0.0,0.2880030529553625,0.0,0.0,0.3923887454598634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18649660423541806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.248125726395357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130051667561099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11471810455425005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671575597408792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694929883130704,0.0,0.0,0.15411904551837854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17257407696174748,0.0,0.13033091575376365,0.0,0.0,0.11982727818773273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084768622801967,0.0,0.1344006531334211,0.09871678644278137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11493962225114712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09985408215132688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1719264377700257,0.0,0.12026171436613547,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,VenerealDiseases,2020/03/01,Admitting myself with piercings So I have a good bit of face piercings and my body closes them up quickly (less than 24 hours I struggle to put most of them back in). I've been feeling an absolute trainwreck and have been worrying myself and family.... I think I need to admit myself for a bit but uh do they make you take out your piercings even if I put in retainers?,4.58095890410959,5.530982164383564,5.460164383561644,81.92010958904113,69.82191780821917,8.579726027397259,29.668493150684927,8.841846274778883,2.337352876712329,290,11,56,5,5,95,53,73,0.049,0.8809999999999999,0.07,0.1,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,3,0,4,2,0,1,3,0,5,2,2,1,0,16,12,6,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,2,1,14,1,11,10,4,10,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,2,3,44,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18131885563424094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5148741737938556,0.26192528073124105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15574643399375185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22229519062456166,0.0,0.11922967625410115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1977813547537164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23221961373074135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157401118193808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17484580826731072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4740966518499497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465137228051883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17729539378216347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15109379430330788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23947058642446584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ScaryReveal,2020/03/02,Thoughts on quality of life? I'm curious what your opinion is on what gives life quality? Is it worth living a life that's relatively more negative than your peers? Or is the value of overcoming hardship worth the sacrifice? I ask because I'm slowly leaning towards more choice oriented solutions when it comes to life. I'm curious as to what the community thinks.,4.961691542288558,7.526244000000003,6.200820895522393,70.49486318407959,71.68656716417911,11.033830845771144,36.53980099502488,10.864195022040775,5.117141293532338,296,17,48,11,6,99,44,67,0.086,0.726,0.188,0.6631,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,3,4,0,0,0,5,11,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,9,10,2,5,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,2,1,30,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26221778195130163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17098246737596962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24161499083224397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2690689964015837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7924659587317521,0.0,0.0,0.24767544304026906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17972494959277427,0.0,0.2226756019845695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Serpinfold,2020/03/02,"Does the amotivation from being on olanzapine go away after you come off it? Been on 10mg for a year, have no motivation to do anything and I am going to fail my exams now because of that. I just sit around watching TV and waiting for my dreams to end. 

I have tapered myself off it as I no longer need it (I don't have schizophrenia but I thought I was having hallucinations last year). I haven't really had withdrawals except since last week I was only getting like 4hrs sleep a night.

Anyway I just want to know if the amotivation from being on it will go away because I have no interest in anything and don't really get any joy out of life and I want to go back to the way I used to be.",3.5718881118881143,4.4160242657342685,5.252734265734265,82.87294755244757,72.07692307692308,7.957762237762238,26.18811188811189,8.238735603445708,1.5106453146853145,542,17,115,8,10,185,86,143,0.057999999999999996,0.805,0.136,0.9009999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,2,6,4,0,0,5,0,18,2,1,2,0,20,32,7,0,4,5,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,7,0,1,3,2,0,5,6,1,0,0,5,1,17,3,26,23,0,27,0,1,1,0,1,10,0,1,11,85,22,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11863450697990227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2871210824371766,0.15530079073110986,0.0,0.0,0.32781001169011714,0.13414413676176126,0.0,0.21269072820983015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15027642639383218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15266561969820427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545142089396725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822897292579676,0.0,0.3965842610971661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09587519819871906,0.2844061199253952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12322181656316865,0.08522927207896283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12935521754970514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16371299164859082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13267990977333613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22351903113060045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14430991398696064,0.0,0.1745797011897067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13849676129810212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15067199548983398,0.0,0.0,0.20579463950409124,0.13847323707242493,0.13993624552617806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246849427131383
schizophrenia,gomilsgo,2020/03/02,NAMI meetings Have you ever attended NAMI support meetings? I found one tonight about a thirty minute drive from home and I'm thinking of attending. The main problem is they hold them from 7-830 and I go to sleep early. Does anyone have any feedback on how good the meetings are? Do you think it's worth going?,1.7880000000000005,4.557609466666668,2.6750000000000007,89.2425,87.66666666666666,4.333333333333334,24.16666666666667,5.985473137389443,0.7876666666666674,248,10,44,2,8,78,50,60,0.044000000000000004,0.823,0.132,0.6531,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,2,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,5,1,1,1,1,9,12,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,3,0,1,5,0,1,0,1,1,0,6,2,6,11,1,9,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,3,27,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19593799687993302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014669038371878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521441398257533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606297036272989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3159192159561129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275013640283055,0.2416694240734151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.289017464481134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19524406234835007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757010982589813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883376668206942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32696603639102506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3692436053521504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,hero_saver,2020/03/02,"Need help finding a post on r/schizophrenia A while ago, someone posted a text post that went along the lines of ""I don't look schizophrenic because..."" And it said things like going to the bathroom during parties because there's too much noise, or seeming shy because of the fear of talking and making a word salad...
I really identified with that post and would love to find it again",7.587499999999999,7.544824972222226,6.671666666666668,79.29,63.16666666666667,8.866666666666667,34.66666666666667,8.07648339933343,2.6500166666666667,306,12,54,3,4,93,55,72,0.069,0.77,0.161,0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,7,0,2,3,0,1,0,13,10,5,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,5,5,1,0,3,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,2,2,2,2,8,7,1,10,0,0,1,1,4,1,0,2,4,33,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15479468739199964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3193496700529687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19650187822410795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192085051407215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992435150602292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11704757842487153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08531304317261885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14664117224262346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15760604440377105,0.0,0.11656366484342187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1283696012596236,0.12948235964279042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6689706132524177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1118693629993684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16610853666341827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15897220705460402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14795934986555925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14035710645273428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11601321140633156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16187929303060214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240487189149838,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,cthaven,2020/03/02,"How do you get over the fear? My worst visual and auditory hallucinations is someone telling me that I’m not allowed to talk about my trauma. Lately I have been trying to open up and talk about the trauma, but its so hard when someone is telling me that I’m not allowed and if I do talk about it he will hurt me and the people I care about.

On one hans I know that it isnt real and its just my brain playing tricks on me, but on the other hand its just so hard to not listen to it! It just feels so real and it scares me to the point that I just have to do what he says. 

How am I supposed to get over the fear and not listen to what the voices say all the time? I NEED to be able to talk about this, but it just doesnt feel possible. How can I stop being so scared of them?",4.55485620915033,3.2814638058823533,5.520196078431373,89.12866013071897,69.76470588235293,8.261437908496733,25.359477124183012,6.42735559955562,0.6171045751633989,597,11,148,3,9,198,81,170,0.184,0.759,0.057,-0.9679,2,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,1,0,18,11,1,4,8,0,15,2,2,5,1,34,26,19,0,2,13,0,5,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,17,8,0,1,3,1,0,0,6,9,0,1,1,10,18,2,22,22,2,12,0,1,0,0,14,8,0,1,4,111,35,0,0.1420837441804931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15861244842087632,0.0,0.0,0.14486384657716955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3197674276705494,0.14368362039299268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14846578408805813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25455825338841426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15210358679111186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07808550999067686,0.0,0.16027665216787956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10535329597325024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09627962221290357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09850297820295463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1343150637752794,0.1601780730886516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3234448139353242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.225981392392482,0.2845012292685047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.240774190729909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11878837222380766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4568061261428287,0.2483749100165576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08285017383884898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09646553567663793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,grublejank,2020/03/02,"Questions for veteran shizophrenics. I'm sure this is a very common post, but I've just stumbled upon the diagnostic markers for schizophrenia and fuck me I think I might be one of you guys...

So I was trying to find out if talking to yourself is healthy or not, and there a ton of fluff articles saying it was normal just their explanations were nothing like what I do. 

So then I happened on an article describing schizotypal tendencies and god damnit.... it said that one of the most common expression of schizophrenia is an inability to emote with your face, anhedonia, and a whole other list of things that describe me perfectly. I had no idea that visual hallucinations are not the experiencing of seeing things that arent there but just simple... disturbances. I also hear things sometimes, but not too crazy, just like a motherly voice mumbling mostly. 

I have an appt with a therapist soon but I want to get you guys' take on it. 

Sorry if this sort of thing isn't kosher here.",6.486970534069982,7.6736488895027675,6.590842541436466,74.67458793738491,65.62983425414365,10.011233885819523,32.21040515653775,10.125756701596842,3.2994747697974223,783,31,138,18,12,250,117,181,0.111,0.795,0.094,-0.5149,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,3,1,1,12,6,1,1,11,0,14,2,1,0,2,33,24,15,0,4,14,1,0,2,0,1,0,4,0,2,15,7,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,2,0,2,5,6,15,4,19,17,4,9,1,0,1,1,13,4,1,8,6,108,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13121187255185107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845639148014452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14996289682255473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516860280816465,0.08572316969981922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3249229501644685,0.14509225707656234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18492607648657594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852223332074613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16031892490174746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17405917772049714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16076007785848526,0.15743577266131198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22236488883380576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1571398779118801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18380316732781607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15607427085327966,0.13048017338171555,0.0,0.0,0.13074768238496268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16227579800088207,0.1836701453116982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15464010619147622,0.0,0.1233650659128962,0.1318784301439879,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905053970421367,0.4360203934919904,0.10513355984960944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139713484539554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13538024932569864,0.09677653742387823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831854896100119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BornToRide92,2020/03/02,"Do I have it or not? I have tried reading the page and posts before posting but I’m not sure.  I have been battling with what I thought was just depression and anxiety my whole life and currently on Lexapro for it.  It’s Not working like I hoped.  I hear voices that are always negative no matter the situation.  I have social anxiety and think of the worse all the time.  I can’t be happy in happy situations.   Not going to go too far into detail but I feel like my brain is in pain mentally and I want it to stop.  I’m losing focus on my life, work, friends, health and feel like suicide is my way out.  

Any thoughts ?",1.0453257142857169,3.3699708640000026,2.9961428571428566,89.48450000000004,84.36,6.131428571428572,22.52857142857143,7.447530270364453,1.0041771428571429,478,17,100,8,14,160,82,125,0.337,0.5589999999999999,0.105,-0.9894,1,0,0,0,0,1,13.0,0,0,0,3,2,12,1,0,4,0,12,5,1,0,2,28,24,9,1,2,8,0,2,3,1,0,4,2,0,0,6,9,0,1,5,1,0,2,7,4,0,0,4,4,14,8,11,19,3,15,0,2,0,0,3,7,0,2,6,66,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11852420440988147,0.0,0.0,0.09686630236680044,0.0,0.2179374102345717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12120872404354215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590137885820372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12268617235415866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14404718585042564,0.20352298886856096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11005131044279436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619075761652559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.303267001049232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15141052596357296,0.1605439081038437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14147829899340314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201223776205626,0.20877174735766532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593575739762329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14354930451892647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15156967316887485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.272842539010613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14248180860956305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32022438799462977,0.0,0.14520296673523178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11908894475091372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15580980853855292,0.0,0.1342510881604909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09127189032397433,0.0,0.22616807703339264,0.08305981124405729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09670962429654373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0840167261749867,0.11306483074304426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15903281445568454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074007816388232,0.0,0.14516185267568632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,HexChromeOnMyShirt,2020/03/02,"Your experience when meds stop working So I'm on Invega Sustenna and I think it's stopped working for me. I've been on it for about 5 months and I think it's been a slow decline. What really opened my eyes was when I caught myself screaming back at the voices and now that I think about it, I've been having a lot of my old symptoms again. Everything seems so jumbled and they're still after me. I think I just wanted it to work so badly that I just lied to myself. 

What was your experience when your meds stopped working? I see my doctor again Friday. Will she be mad at me?",1.9483346065699043,3.896610067226895,3.3047211611917504,90.6377387318564,78.57983193277312,6.007944996180291,21.742551566080976,6.980632752743323,0.4982537815126054,454,13,97,5,11,148,68,119,0.165,0.835,0.0,-0.9497,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,0,4,15,3,1,0,3,0,8,3,1,0,0,17,17,10,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,9,5,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,6,4,20,0,12,9,1,21,0,0,2,0,4,5,0,2,15,70,29,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211901283893214,0.13260397914314973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16255398975976942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14273277611014346,0.3107032942593888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13501892317188738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3528155591824612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267647017981296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16664973734690516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10174102309391568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12655507699536855,0.14457930710953032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12682994817453486,0.3983296176882317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16506970353610526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4070492269955446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09367326381329932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.462477152301181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,isthuku,2020/03/02,"Schizophrenia has awesome day dreams Although my overall experience was horrible. On the early onsets of delusions, right when I started to believe ""they"" are on to me. I would create really vivid imaginations and characters. Whenever I'd watch anything, movies or youtube, all conversations would go almost hand in hand with what am thinking as well as being almost in 4k resolutions (I wear glasses). I had assumed to have unlocked telepathy and that I could read minds as well as be read by the ""team"" in my head. I made conclusions on my head on decisions after running them through the ""team"". I had crazy theories as to what was going on. One of them included that I had been targeted for some mind control tests and that someone was using a machine of some sort to access my mind through another SCP man tied on a chair with cables running through their mind through their ears, nose and mouth. I could get visions of this SCP person every time I looked in the mirror. I was so gone. It escalated from there and I had to lock myself in my house, cover all windows and break all electronics. It was almost a week before someone broke into my house and got me admitted in a mental hospital. Getting medication was the best thing that could have happened. I had already considered suicide through starvation.",6.767121848739498,8.125949021008411,6.622174369747897,74.07889180672271,65.09243697478989,9.479411764705883,36.30357142857143,9.673873057562805,3.7355453781512606,1049,51,172,21,16,331,143,238,0.054000000000000006,0.8390000000000001,0.107,0.8811,0,0,0,0,0,1,27.0,0,0,5,5,5,4,0,0,9,0,24,9,8,3,3,38,37,16,1,5,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,1,1,2,10,10,0,1,6,5,0,5,0,1,2,1,15,7,27,3,39,15,6,27,0,1,3,0,11,14,0,8,7,130,37,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3440357641381546,0.0,0.1263793599932963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12008771364041047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09424295564621077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09745093230961573,0.12902859332635624,0.12018518598286705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12844767053368056,0.2743127185317011,0.0,0.0,0.0738580838191956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09649085826394672,0.0,0.0,0.1120258075878186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11966744290174068,0.0,0.13017251332194793,0.0,0.09159478161518574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10127261655159504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23506798573898294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2642891299172088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09617076710611462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10836475894001912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11537022251737453,0.1154125964789548,0.0,0.4625437296522475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07760398306272466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09999736825999564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291086750682105,0.0,0.07336658791516752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978023116453474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19407051866101832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0810602136695493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252699525127431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07608422221919323,0.0733819357964455,0.0,0.0,0.06677948396095945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09891140049725514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09186372013142888,0.0,0.20594048331253448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16270819817024335,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,itsjustnotfair233,2020/03/02,"I'm so bitter (suicidal thoughts) I'm usually pretty good when it comes to delusions and hallucinations. I had hallucinations before I was diagnosed, but once I started medications they went away. Delusions I still get sometimes. Like people reading my mind, thinking that others are thinking certain things and hate me, people spying on me. But everyone who knows says I'm getting better by the day, even my doctor decided to put me on a teeny tiny dose of medication. But I can't help feeling bitter. I can't help wanting to throw myself off the balcony. I'm starting low dose clozapine (25mg) because of the suicidal thoughts. I can't remember the last time I was happy. I have a ""friend"" who has something, I don't know what, but definitely something and she always tells me ""oh my god I hope I'm not a fucken schizophrenic"". That makes me want to drive off a cliff. I just want to be happy!!!!! Is that too much to ask?",2.6838516746411507,5.326316500000001,4.314677033492824,80.62721291866029,80.02272727272727,6.887081339712919,27.444976076555022,8.032893268588372,2.155845454545455,728,32,130,14,19,243,110,176,0.14300000000000002,0.684,0.172,0.5428,0,0,2,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,1,1,6,12,3,0,8,0,12,7,0,1,1,26,37,9,2,4,6,0,1,1,1,0,7,1,0,0,9,4,0,0,9,1,0,5,5,4,0,0,6,4,23,8,14,30,1,19,0,1,0,0,10,6,0,1,9,81,32,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10950870201613716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303605478857507,0.0,0.12365039053357445,0.0,0.0,0.0802272373269578,0.0,0.11198902459735764,0.0,0.0,0.11639690317487235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133689524354909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08487650727919664,0.0,0.0,0.13357971942079008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13470673757545773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08692608338598443,0.0,0.0,0.12575743203234316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0665451433742856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016802957823577,0.0,0.1375198768139807,0.0,0.0,0.11038685185051644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2801991020701517,0.0,0.12993601277328226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17642862479764593,0.0,0.0,0.1307168013770432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14465703031623267,0.10727838243133783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06429719899719429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0878496051197618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651631622415173,0.0,0.0,0.13288693060627566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09674729080616776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14015861273727714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18248133752145965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1338930205447056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323027565863179,0.0,0.0,0.13164397938320258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14908662122406527,0.0,0.0,0.10466025365694223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.202637097267874,0.13016403750069674,0.0,0.18630615525902952,0.0,0.10510260972803456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879163792643397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503151126357042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08743474927982096,0.1686586514493298,0.0,0.2089646808997916,0.07674189558435665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144948019776587,0.0,0.23287806934144545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12200227222528988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,WasteOption9,2020/03/02,Invega headaches Anyone on invega get daily headpains,9.6525,14.309929250000007,9.655,40.09,69.0,13.2,33.0,11.20814326018867,7.31635,46,2,3,2,1,15,7,8,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8010758444414808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5985628550556475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Trashyvibes,2020/03/02,People in my head There’s people in my head and Idk what’s real anymore.I just feel so empty,0.4171428571428599,2.100834761904768,3.1145238095238104,91.43464285714286,82.33333333333333,4.2,15.261904761904766,3.1291,-0.993209523809524,74,1,16,0,2,26,16,21,0.191,0.809,0.0,-0.4149,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18237289894713865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7403326212389959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5001063765143197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.410537876241318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,maromisa,2020/03/02,"Hearing music Greetings, this is my first post on this sub.  I was diagnosed with schozoaffective disorder last year and I just wanted to know if others hear the same stuff I do.  When I hear voices, they aren't evil or commanding.  It's usually just a conversation that I have with someone who isn't really there cuz I'm not looking at them.  Once I find out they aren't there it freaks me out.  

One of the better sounds I am able to hear is I can hear a full song from start to finish as if I'm listening to it with headphones.  I can hear all the instruments and the singing exactly as it appears on the song.  It's quite the phenomenon especially at work where I use ear muffs to block out the loud sound of machinery.  It's like I'm listening to music dudes.  It freaks me out though cuz I know it isn't real.  Does anyone else experience this?",2.257960526315792,4.331267847953217,3.7594115497076035,87.14508223684211,78.12280701754386,7.783771929824562,22.968201754385966,8.660442795831766,1.5058096491228072,666,21,141,15,16,220,100,171,0.035,0.8759999999999999,0.08900000000000001,0.7723,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,3,4,7,5,1,0,9,0,12,2,1,3,2,28,30,11,0,3,6,0,0,1,0,0,1,15,0,0,15,9,0,1,3,3,0,1,5,3,0,2,1,16,17,2,22,29,3,19,0,0,1,0,13,10,0,4,8,95,32,1,0.119280273956204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0834035409546877,0.1222167365587616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1054937091056155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12106696723550538,0.0,0.0,0.13670552791211332,0.0,0.10438297155465563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09964336317995648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11667899601924715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10902000945160732,0.10145974009279092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8066252266493814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13110663823534827,0.09722934340039788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05827431677563895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10016538861856372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270295988763461,0.08082740063047728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1142375303369106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1268692538515601,0.0,0.13576706553745113,0.07641399784231867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010657890439722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08442719183840197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365473761243384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11719226354294066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10301985902516557,0.13137036997258614,0.0,0.07035459602470287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0868374600613229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07681258567039641
schizophrenia,pexicanmizza,2020/03/02,[cw suicide] PLEASE help me stop being a coward I      need to kill myself there is no other option I have thought   carefully    about it. But I am too much of a coward. I need someone   evil who will    get off on it to goad or manipulate me into killing   myself. I need    someone to abuse me. Please get in touch and cause me  pain,2.8230769230769246,4.085766692307693,4.184615384615388,88.21538461538464,74.38461538461539,6.430769230769231,23.76923076923077,6.742157984588678,0.674753846153846,245,7,52,2,5,81,47,65,0.365,0.524,0.111,-0.9746,0,0,0,0,1,2,6.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,3,0,2,0,5,1,0,2,0,12,12,3,3,3,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,1,11,1,9,9,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,1,38,15,0,0.0,0.2289829184322229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970426724974042,0.1985324875530371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20194199976285865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12953890787453642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4276297651843458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14206921813538242,0.4299021906184326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20564354159392756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4242855223624297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32749917340175017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16157501597285562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2113963840724276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534278044685591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,alt----f4,2020/03/02,"How to deal with certain urgest My voices always try to convince me to harm someone else, ie stabing or strangling someone so I was wondering if any of you guys have found a way to cope with these things weather a weard plush or coping method or something",6.537891156462584,7.107103469387759,5.46979591836735,84.93829931972793,65.3265306122449,7.34965986394558,34.70068027210884,6.42735559955562,2.097157823129252,206,9,38,1,3,61,41,49,0.069,0.85,0.081,-0.1027,0,0,2,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,1,10,4,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,4,2,7,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,5,0,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24784870851724425,0.0,0.0,0.20255936802095745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070871817785854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24882915796427205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32659513595497197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2949345690322113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5047624725670633,0.2293121091332306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978892023150754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20223173488003526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23643248581931026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3230234074558202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Wannatravel39,2020/03/03,Brief Reactive Psychosis So yeah i just had my psychiatrist appointment. And I was previously diagnosed psychotic depression or schizophrenia. I'm on .75 Risperdal 50 zoloft. Since my episode I have been completely fine for two and a half years.  I have been on this dosage for almost 2 years. I had delusions for three years no hallucinations and then I had for about a week hallucinations and just extreme fear mixed in with some very delusional thinking. And because of it I didnt sleep for days during that time. What does it sound like I have? Do you guys think he is right?,3.061940700808627,6.14059832075472,3.1704043126684667,85.8179245283019,84.66037735849056,7.179514824797844,25.495956873315365,8.192908349453996,2.0399051212938013,466,19,87,11,14,142,77,106,0.091,0.84,0.068,-0.5226,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,4,4,0,1,2,1,12,3,1,0,0,13,15,8,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,5,6,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,3,7,1,11,2,11,8,1,12,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,3,8,56,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23394646823713816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14241854013005073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24495637024781866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506718747995455,0.0,0.20122497970606615,0.2371293000325991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2044509872947332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2628984456897857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23133020483770755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11413970517659615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19951854818502665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932609611081884,0.0,0.2337984959574685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.299401047824009,0.0,0.0,0.13623139846377785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22822233885657225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.192769029036832,0.0,0.0,0.18740371023091468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4513497386520813
schizophrenia,PenguinEmpress1,2020/03/03,"Anyone else diagnosed that still emotes? A few psychiatrists I've seen thought I just had severe bipolar disorder because I can still make facial expressions. I have severe delusions and see and hear things. I was finally diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was hospitalized for a little over a week after having an episode which ended with me trying to kill myself. But anyways, do any of you also make facial expressions or do I have the wrong diagnosis?",8.471499999999999,9.691298149999998,8.055000000000003,65.81,61.25,10.9,36.0,10.793553405168565,4.3638249999999985,372,16,54,9,5,118,61,80,0.198,0.802,0.0,-0.9438,0,0,0,0,0,1,6.0,0,1,0,0,6,2,1,0,5,0,9,5,2,2,0,10,15,6,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,3,9,0,7,10,1,9,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,1,7,44,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14764305677175565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12555006485048098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12909279080506436,0.18916822265411395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1125445513267231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3747771976066984,0.0,0.0,0.2115941111689988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15422894149172447,0.2076761806770116,0.16352130123474998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20224562339275792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20808369454902945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042581480250548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18504088653427014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464747565004629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14712073776334647,0.0,0.0,0.4171431901503875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948805530197328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12265540925906288,0.0,0.0,0.1465701489829096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12534699173422953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480935450232943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20185641879865626,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,WarDamCord,2020/03/03,"Help. Please.  Hi.  I need advice I think ... maybe I just need to talk about it.  I’m not sure.  But I’m truly at my wits end 😞 I guess to sum up my question here ... for those diagnosed or for loved ones of the diagnosed - how can I help someone who doesn’t realize they need help?  Is there anything I can say or do?   Right now in this moment I can’t say what my friend is suffering from but Jesus Christ is he suffering.  And by proxy , myself and his father he lives with.  I personally have astounding mental fortitude but the relentlessness of this (alleged) illness is testing even me.   And the utter cruelty of it is unbearable - dangling just enough in front me such that I find hope against all odds ..only to watch as it gleefully smashes it to pieces soon after.  

Anyone diagnosed or has experience with someone - what was said or what happened to inspire that “a-ha” realization.  If it wasn’t by force (like a mental health arrest) how did they wake up to the fact only they can help themselves.  For a long while, i did a tightrope walk with him.  Never lending credibility the the thing he sees and hears but acknowledging he is experiencing something.   Now i find myself fighting for his attention.  Ive come clean and told him i felt he was experiencing a health related issue but he generally tends to find the notion  that *only he is under attack by cyber criminals with abilities that defy logic and with a relentless pursuit  to destroy his life seemingly for fun* to be far more plausible 😭😭😭 Is there anything I can do or do I truly just sit back in the pocket and watch him destroy his entire life in the hopes that someday he’ll get it.  

Any thoughts or advice... please.  This has been the most heartbreaking thing I’ve ever experienced.",3.5823423423423435,5.829996528528527,4.791252252252253,80.48201351351352,74.7057057057057,7.9234834834834835,26.71561561561561,8.745826893841286,2.1873464264264264,1376,52,255,29,30,453,181,333,0.11699999999999999,0.752,0.131,-0.38799999999999996,0,0,1,0,2,0,42.0,0,0,3,0,16,15,4,0,15,0,28,10,1,2,5,57,50,23,0,6,16,1,1,1,1,1,8,4,1,1,21,13,0,0,13,0,0,3,5,7,0,1,10,11,32,8,38,38,5,25,2,3,3,1,36,10,0,13,12,176,53,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200688589974486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06983050525144888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07180095698853559,0.0,0.1690048769564791,0.0,0.0,0.11682099238243257,0.0,0.07895976545997832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0884555349839421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31267464214492896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09094997360770553,0.10610285349051647,0.0,0.0678236240591643,0.09288603628515303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10044733687260332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0985953749227751,0.0,0.2815614632157165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07933552147685041,0.0,0.05364958400505751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11312102236779448,0.0,0.09080554605914028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21830240795993647,0.1157354203062462,0.0,0.2753150321616869,0.0,0.0,0.20398220762911976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10717827889395436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.145061364145343,0.050167554811817366,0.0,0.090674273732142,0.0908745345428099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267879303404757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10316263350806022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20696816577332994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284227522419912,0.07919834520152243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06958319334807389,0.23429368162902975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08966210154844498,0.0,0.2254384110372609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503265103798545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08769391586004309,0.09767860584824813,0.1633212361920299,0.0,0.0,0.0818280377888713,0.09348215248670294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17401228506835478,0.07905327014740747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09678103827381124,0.0,0.0,0.08253571282117335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13644101594983427,0.06579751741161127,0.0,0.08152180224236262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0981215816998696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,killerkate2121,2020/03/03,"Nervous about restarting medications I am having a bit of a rational moment where I am considering restarting treatment (medications and therapy) however I have been off for so long that just even rereading the side effects is a bit intimidating. 
The reason I ultimately stopped taking my medications years ago was I literally felt 'over medicated' with my anxiety and depression medications included so I quit cold turkey. It has been a rough road and some days I KNOW I'm making it harder on myself but I just can't seem to jump that whole hurdle of the adverse consequences to my physical health on top of mental. 
A short breakdown of side effects to all of my past and now potential medications sounds like it can cause everything from liver failure to neurological conditions to idk literally anything and everything. It's a large pill to swallow, pun intended. 

How did you, if you are successfully on a medication regime, jump that hurdle. I feel like I'm already sacrificing mental health, and now just adding physical on top of it by considering medication again. 

Are there any medications that have less physical side effects? Or am I basically shit out of luck either way? 

I'd like to weigh my options before I stop considering it all together again. 
Thanks in advance.",6.891395106715251,9.031325557522127,7.921254554919312,61.949435190005204,65.54867256637169,11.689328474752731,36.74544508068714,11.442366930564873,5.171139302446641,1040,53,159,36,17,351,135,226,0.10800000000000001,0.78,0.11199999999999999,0.6136,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,8,14,10,1,1,10,0,16,17,2,8,2,34,25,12,0,1,7,0,3,3,0,0,13,1,0,0,10,8,2,2,8,0,0,3,1,4,0,0,5,5,19,6,27,20,8,32,0,1,0,0,2,16,1,6,15,110,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0795913780960003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990829590722894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061058714587655626,0.0,0.06868734433103699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07388762625194814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07640271906822665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19604982601115334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0922367005107402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057905638203922374,0.0,0.07733401398205897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05930392868871647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1613907894698416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045399358668049054,0.06414435043827586,0.08621027207801445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908802517385074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04934497147480221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13159720382025036,0.0,0.0,0.07945928857245889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05993398660584615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8140649495938792,0.18096976553699134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857125188293715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09550027056748664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09231670917031966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08173934940284376,0.0,0.0,0.0921657832169815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15013307435968165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06750917578066114,0.0,0.0,0.08266445030956761,0.1026800594139064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07126929656197177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10024475994914532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057820334650142635
schizophrenia,WutsUrLifeReallyLike,2020/03/03,"Has anyone journaled their way thru a delusional episode? I remember filling a notebook with tons of ""proof"" on how my coworkers were out to get me. Not sure if writing it down helped",4.461960784313725,6.837325588235295,4.447647058823531,83.36107843137258,72.52941176470588,8.062745098039215,34.86274509803922,8.841846274778883,3.2784627450980395,146,8,26,3,3,45,33,34,0.061,0.9390000000000001,0.0,-0.2411,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,2,9,3,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,7,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,0,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3490568086294194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26081480473987845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33460761013745505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5655036770645178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4704962408940065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3962469025079737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,roshani67,2020/03/03,"Schizo software developers out there? Been working since 2013 as a software developer and was diagnosed last 2018. Anyone else with schizo working as a developer? How do you handle and the stress at work? Do you tell your employers about your diagnosis? How do you handle the brain fog. 

I haven't come out as schizo to anyone else other than family, so looking for others here who might be in the same field. Let's exchange notes.",4.076487341772154,6.880846063291142,4.542262658227848,80.08529272151901,75.70886075949366,7.494303797468352,25.064873417721518,8.472884824447931,1.977239240506328,345,12,60,7,8,109,58,79,0.049,0.951,0.0,-0.5803,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,5,0,3,6,1,0,1,5,0,9,2,1,2,0,10,11,8,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,2,1,6,0,12,6,1,6,0,0,1,0,7,4,0,1,1,43,9,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859063375802601,0.4189575063666774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282289863171704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17611184520841058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075080554616861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3415762532964722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19273318615465454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16665051122975594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20905955318176467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17168287511795038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216884551726806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16911957413404236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23419182870353916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786945302971453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4465166566080221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,bummanlowlife,2020/03/03,idk what to title this i have anxiety and dpdr. i thought that was a hard enough thing to deal with but the more i put research into schizophrenia the more i feel lucky about my condition. to me schizophrenia is one of my biggest fears and i have lots of sympathy and respect for those who are going through it. it looks tough to deal with and broadly overlooked for no reason at all.,3.1439428571428567,5.427508613333334,3.2205714285714286,91.056,76.2,5.885714285714287,26.714285714285715,6.868970318607317,1.1496285714285714,306,12,60,3,7,93,55,75,0.157,0.705,0.138,0.5216,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,3,0,5,0,0,1,1,14,9,5,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,7,0,0,3,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,2,3,8,2,14,7,5,6,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,2,0,50,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20760563150746394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5595635449618137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2804089952206499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053789400078802,0.13721832774447995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15423200890316308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431039651421347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.227891591396867,0.0,0.0,0.23071832073702195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838947086632461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728127417601258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790247445530517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1802933989555584,0.0,0.0,0.21544610633304606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,GeraldFitzgerald,2020/03/03,"Whats actually happening when youre hearing voices Im not schizophrenic myself, but Ive been sleep deprived in the past for days at a time, long enough to start hearing voices and seeing things.  Recently I was wondering whats actually happening in your brain when you hear things

Why do head voices seem like theyre actual people?  How are they able to form complete thoughts?  Why am I able to talk back and fourth with them?  Is it some kind of subcouncious thing, and in reality Im basically talking to myself?

If anyone knows whats actually going on, Im really curious to know",6.3145173745173775,7.0710830000000024,7.390682110682111,70.3183783783784,65.84684684684684,11.387902187902188,32.07335907335907,11.20814326018867,3.8749629343629337,467,18,83,14,7,158,78,111,0.039,0.8909999999999999,0.071,0.5345,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,3,2,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,7,4,3,1,0,14,20,8,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,0,7,4,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,7,10,2,13,17,3,15,0,1,1,0,10,5,0,4,10,51,17,0,0.23635776628668456,0.0,0.4613021697562417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08263342288972285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09087226639011953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13192671769121095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12390831052845125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07621560293238493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211037749382753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06716378272379217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20901039214380485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12128562871368148,0.0,0.39958857084646704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.382960420178924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12306512093728515,0.12989604706156696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057736232857873576,0.0,0.0,0.10458459270928294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128151161796787,0.08193035746249973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07570841868487588,0.0,0.11668738989735696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0941732691936636,0.1075856167252574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11826423051939733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08364762175223105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1899754194681755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355383962142653,0.0,0.0,0.09382083250646796,0.06891105713028617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21327612097492624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12815995759531282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Soft_Bun_Fun_Buns,2020/03/03,"I dropped my recent therapist... So I moved a bit ago and was struggling to find a new therapist. I had finally found one a bit ago. They were super close it all seemed super convenient. 

I had mixed feelings through the months about what she was telling me.I get that the most needed things are the hardest to hear but...

Literally anything she would tell me was a cliché, or something to the matter of, “ oh you have deep set issues.” Like yes, I realize I have deep set issues? That was it for months just clichés and simply stating the obvious that really anyone who’d talk to me for five minutes would know. That and religion. Which I had told her I am personally not a religious person and had a lot of trauma stem from religion. She ignored this and continuously brought it up as a solution(if it’s your thing and it helps you that’s great.don’t force it on me)

I have a long list of physical health issues and she tried telling me that all of it was in my head??? We never even finished talking about my history. I would see her once a week,every week for months. I appreciated that she’d relate to me with personal stories but it seemed like simply because she found things that helped her, she immediately thought they’d help everybody else. If they didn’t it’s just because I wasn’t trying them (which wasn’t the case)

In the beginning she told me how she wanted to have me start on medication. I was nervous at first, but after a few months I brought it up saying how I’d be interested. she completely shoved it off saying “oh yeah well just go and find somebody who can do that for you. “ When in the beginning she was the one saying she was going to get me in contact with their psychiatrist at the office and all these other resources.

She would constantly cut me off when I was trying to explain what was going on in my head. we literally were never able to finish a single story.I understand that I can ramble sometimes,but I was trying to make things short and sweet and she’d still make me stop to say how I have deep set issues and that’s why these things happened(again things I already know). I felt rushed and not really listened to.

My insurance luckily covered everything. There was one point when she told me that she considers all of her clients like family,and she doesn’t want people to come and see her if they’re just going to waste her time,not actually want to go through with anything and continuously miss appointments(I had never missed any appointments,So I didn’t understand why she brought it up and her tone seemed pretty irritated) 

She would often make comments about how I should’ve fixed these deep set issues by now. Try and tell me that all of my physical ailments were in my head. That if I could just be happy it would cure everything..

Along with some other issues related to what’s stated above... 

Was I just over analyzing? Or is all of that kind of ridiculous? Is it drastic that I decided to drop her?

Sorry for the ramble..",4.1989039539463695,6.033818008710803,4.879657627632177,82.30301469474325,71.87456445993031,8.2665656718679,26.938191183154068,8.903607488879933,2.0905464020602937,2363,83,453,47,46,759,245,574,0.048,0.853,0.1,0.9828,0,0,1,0,0,0,61.0,2,4,5,3,23,18,2,2,22,2,51,5,3,7,10,94,94,34,0,14,16,0,2,3,0,6,2,6,0,3,49,26,0,2,17,0,0,11,10,8,1,5,35,11,82,10,61,46,13,73,0,2,2,0,64,24,0,12,33,327,131,0,0.061649973223519415,0.0,0.060161480750602826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10929796303223868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06803227847585243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04192409585965546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04310709471116004,0.0,0.10146535008961137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07516250292538783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346116071140165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053105993070370235,0.06463882398503522,0.06662171950039192,0.0,0.049222487115002364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05150064187647037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04071922587938946,0.0,0.051942761382357365,0.0,0.11081404144015576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.031172078836244763,0.0,0.05919364230141139,0.0675345322394812,0.11269391728572314,0.0524394357300222,0.0,0.1351920271162854,0.0,0.0,0.06441913300096026,0.0,0.1751855025355827,0.0,0.0,0.0679693131224548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06562754287303035,0.0,0.0,0.18981197563510951,0.06553103865388472,0.06948400040648292,0.0,0.12396803257818904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38607932927678207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06419896015881604,0.06776242599511963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09035718856974098,0.0,0.0,0.05455828629129511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05241260261073085,0.0,0.0,0.12345550753976045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06210586211656258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19683368180784136,0.06552416497249662,0.0,0.04571267398126538,0.14264477985081536,0.059541928304573985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06565520944558348,0.12532685211031305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042740328977639665,0.16149113600537107,0.0,0.0,0.058279151728591085,0.0,0.0,0.06272018633376804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07898910296954416,0.0,0.060871911050038516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19610613262432397,0.0,0.0,0.09825409362040873,0.16837146063488406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047461161332645316,0.0,0.06901209766608139,0.04363616835827782,0.0,0.049233748252819516,0.051542138117927135,0.0,0.06444993765748985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0991038264351688,0.215539175719682,0.0,0.0,0.14316074116755426,0.24574501693517165,0.0,0.0,0.048943192370640536,0.03594859516258591,0.0,0.0,0.17672757409990228,0.0,0.20928142504122124,0.0,0.0,0.12835959265752814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090882545088805,0.0,0.09890377970169577,0.0,0.05543072979208458,0.0,0.11125902358860652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627662329230662,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,skyzooof,2020/03/03,"Anhedonia is killing me I wake up and I think again really 
I have to do this again 
I try to find ways to make myself feel something more and more and more but it doesn’t make any difference 
No matter what I do I don’t feel anything 
I hurt my self and it doesn’t hurt 
I buy what i want I don’t want it 
I do what I like I don’t like it 
I’m just so bored",-1.3997619047619059,0.2086442619047624,1.3952380952380956,101.68309523809526,88.5238095238095,5.161904761904762,15.285714285714285,6.42735559955562,-0.8488714285714285,274,5,77,3,9,95,43,84,0.218,0.6559999999999999,0.126,-0.8948,0,0,1,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,0,0,0,10,1,1,2,0,15,18,6,1,2,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,8,4,0,0,4,0,1,0,6,4,0,0,0,2,16,2,4,18,3,4,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,51,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16201027681683475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19604989825378769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24890841428042404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409209795780537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21774557519561408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5100782542480717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2635754839556848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2327824899166865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180519546250873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15262161503075142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485346018144022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18340755424495184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526535426219685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1617482305023455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28103835353002954,0.18910254731894552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Z3ratul420,2020/03/03,"Could schizophrenia result in a decline in video gaming skills? I've noticed in the few years since my diagnosis that my reaction time and general gaming ability have declined. So much so friends are starting to notice. Could this be related to schizophrenia, am I just getting older, or is something else at play here?",5.9537499999999985,8.751785446428574,5.635142857142856,74.60985714285717,69.53571428571428,8.051428571428572,36.2,8.841846274778883,3.74889,259,14,38,5,5,80,47,56,0.0,0.8420000000000001,0.158,0.8549,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,4,2,0,0,2,0,7,0,0,1,0,7,9,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,6,6,2,8,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,1,4,28,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.453921248583031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2374649985562177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2196206462393049,0.0,0.1485155210468829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089657820649177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6472699047126619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23514503154123864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21883930368025653,0.0,0.0,0.20120259240752372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16575585832225698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830558500155996
schizophrenia,chipotleeeeeeee,2020/03/03,"Question about what it’s like I’m very curious on what it’s like to have schizophrenia because it’s one of my fears to develop it. If anyone would mind sharing what it was like to develop it and what the voices and or hallucinations are like for them. I’ve done psychedelics like LSD and LSA so I’m familiar with hallucinating I’m just not sure how they compare, any information would be appreciated",3.1303846153846173,5.7393650512820535,4.550961538461539,79.80028846153847,77.97435897435899,8.002564102564103,27.698717948717945,8.841846274778883,2.4266102564102567,326,14,63,8,8,108,53,78,0.055,0.7020000000000001,0.244,0.9375,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,2,0,4,8,0,1,1,0,7,0,0,1,1,15,10,7,0,3,4,0,0,5,0,2,0,1,0,0,10,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,3,7,8,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,3,5,39,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17041019759642848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17521877042089912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15275770070551895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2564411816988427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819840875068245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6121295340501688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530250654213606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698066723867751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28071881655213105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23617867000161055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20676348469807468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3560247375319056,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ecila0,2020/03/03,"Trigger Warning potential delusion fuel ******** sentient pictures? all pictures. they can see, they can hear. delusion?

they started when i was a kid, stopped for years and now they are doing it again. back then they spoke among themselves too but now they do not.",1.5291428571428582,1.6495889777777821,0.8724603174603196,94.53250000000004,137.0,2.174603174603175,27.658730158730158,4.65589566412798,0.864873015873016,204,11,33,1,14,58,36,45,0.077,0.9229999999999999,0.0,-0.3632,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,6,0,6,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,1,1,6,10,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,7,0,2,8,1,10,0,0,1,0,9,1,0,0,9,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3792332612145282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5558618446380569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39300919206995616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34908296722515764,0.0,0.0,0.4123295694435488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31759868760507776
schizophrenia,yasmeen_layla,2020/03/03,"A 3 Month Experiment? I really need peoples help on this thread please!

My mom has paranoid psychosis. She was hospitalized for almost 3 weeks in November and put on Risperidone since then. She's improved a lot but still has occasional episodes.

The thing that's making me super stressed is that her psychiatrist wants to stop her meds in a month!!!! Is this normal? I assumed the treatment would be life long. I'm pretty sure she will just become super psychotic again! 

Has anyone experienced this sort of ""experiment"" done by a psychiatrist? It sounds like he wants to stop her medication and see if she reverts to psychosis. But given the trauma of her being involuntarily cuffed by the police and taken to the hospital, it seems to me that stopping her meds is too high of a risk. Please help! I'd love any perspective on this. Thank you.",4.256060606060603,6.974849714285713,4.964649350649354,77.75459307359309,74.58441558441558,7.743030303030304,26.500432900432898,8.648137234880735,2.2218464069264066,672,25,117,14,15,216,100,154,0.099,0.6579999999999999,0.243,0.9844,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,1,0,2,4,9,0,2,10,0,12,3,0,1,1,22,23,7,0,6,4,1,0,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,10,3,0,3,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,4,3,15,6,16,15,1,17,0,0,1,1,15,6,0,6,11,75,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14347949471527255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09743889320705727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10018838836949803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15824731710356324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14663057299317864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803209656072143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1920821847164248,0.15138874867400534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10120661964661104,0.07000194253451204,0.0,0.0,0.1268029500097906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12181600780580087,0.12932054529014245,0.0,0.0956440265701386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183152546451901,0.14434482944047194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16781396983458796,0.2287378619378026,0.0,0.0,0.10624420794142676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14038913670348233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09933596099073873,0.0,0.0,0.3145683849591304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14577262580834535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14404126630954947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09179220936017003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141798044671522,0.13044152322997402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185270513247651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11442779718491583,0.3593786906137494,0.16413278618230334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13504466592176564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13191782041481914,0.0,0.0,0.0951923628099659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.169026722592787,0.0,0.1149347962134806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017857407266131,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ZbrojovkaBRNO,2020/03/03,I’m not sure if I’m schizophrenic but I think I might be I’m 15 rn and am showing some early signs that I’ve been reading into. I’m scares about the future and don’t kno if I can do anything. Is there anything to help with paranoia? That’s my worst symptom for the time being,1.5796721311475397,2.8836381147540986,3.289311475409839,93.20937704918032,77.68852459016394,5.5357377049180325,23.67540983606557,5.6839178017228535,0.29008590163934445,219,7,50,1,5,73,45,61,0.204,0.7390000000000001,0.057,-0.8474,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,9,2,0,0,1,13,14,5,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,4,1,5,10,2,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,3,31,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5484424684987254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22335813405616176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3535060940310312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.333321802269722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33362298941151897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31406686298423875,0.3463552505471772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21352137003481028,0.0,0.0,0.19431004034990826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Cave4812,2020/03/03,Abilify? How many here have tried Abilify?  And has it worked for paranoia and negative symptoms?,4.197916666666668,7.315854625000004,4.190000000000001,74.52166666666669,96.5,9.633333333333333,36.583333333333336,8.841846274778883,5.449858333333332,78,5,11,3,3,24,14,16,0.308,0.6920000000000001,0.0,-0.7383,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5759033265140551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5904109806323279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3856618219253973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4135398306910735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,tb5174,2020/03/04,"How my Intrusive Thoughts Work and Why They're Annoying When I experience intrusive thoughts it's not a direct wording of something, like someone's speaking to me. It's usually an image that translates itself into something good or bad. Sometimes, I'll be extremely paranoid thinking that everyone is watching me, not only offline but online such as the NSA collecting all my data or a hacker targeting me so I'll go to the extreme measures to encrypt, harden everything to feel better. Or that those close to me are watching everything I do such as how I walk, or the way I eat, etc. Other times, it'll be like someone or something has control of my mind and body making me think a certain way such as telling me to do something or to feel a certain way. For example, I'll feel like certain dead people are planting thoughts in my brain such as Vincent Van Vogh giving me encouragement which in return will make me manic, and will really bring out my creativity while others that aren't good people such as the Zodiac planting a bunch of crap in my brain telling me I'm a bad person, wanting me to do evil things, making me feel depressed and such. I would never do any of these things, it's just annoying as heck. My whole life, I've been treating my brain as a ""Firewall"", trying the best I can to allow good traffic and deny the bad. This firewall is really effective but some days are harder so it allows some bad traffic. I'm pretty stable now and I'm a lot better than I used to be but that doesn't mean that everything just magically goes away no matter what therapy or medication you are getting. Someone who does public speaking for a living can't get rid of those nervous vibes that they get right before they start speaking at their event. It's so weird trying to explain this. I had to sit here for 5 mins every sentence trying to think of a way to do so. When I think or talk about this, it makes me feel weird, like I'm someone who's really ""different"" or more like one who is in exile. This was really hard to type out not only for it to make sense but to choose to become brave by posting this on here. Very few know about this but I had the overwhelming urge to do so. I'm trying to get better at talking about things instead of pretending nothing's ever wrong. I apologize if this is frightening to some.",6.8088815789473625,6.444639423245612,7.2310561403508755,75.70692631578947,64.85526315789474,9.92757894736842,34.4680701754386,9.3871,3.114377122807017,1851,74,340,30,25,607,214,456,0.131,0.7040000000000001,0.165,0.9065,1,0,4,0,0,0,38.0,0,1,3,7,25,32,4,2,18,0,30,8,5,12,6,73,65,38,1,3,20,0,6,5,0,4,2,3,0,1,36,10,1,1,17,1,0,3,8,14,0,1,7,11,35,18,55,51,11,35,0,2,2,0,20,13,2,14,18,234,71,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05048405829159792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06974859237850943,0.0,0.2479409081703241,0.0,0.08198950663539192,0.06317066039016707,0.0,0.07790769557269411,0.196971156790498,0.0,0.0824611474006804,0.0,0.24862086739551525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08326368953979278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047877057914514465,0.0,0.06394066590099526,0.0,0.0,0.07756240618000344,0.0,0.0,0.06496575271537755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596351484022823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08279445692699665,0.0,0.06715208565955279,0.06254831117245327,0.07093713030376829,0.2001596842894328,0.07261853815395475,0.0,0.0,0.1876835997021068,0.053035298048303335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1551441574984226,0.0712153923392295,0.0421908925666783,0.1868007250226517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06650223483949551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040798998687646616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052436154779363135,0.18134350828101534,0.0,0.06555308892809113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06311408346818521,0.0,0.0,0.2477706003058489,0.0,0.0,0.08086642111858493,0.0,0.07478648970363876,0.0,0.0,0.07495873094530736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05725655086347516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07123290119574276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05030526381630046,0.11292195617681106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10293389590236303,0.06482133767784748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07109902157553748,0.07552624518209107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902338212403977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06339843517035189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2516048340538881,0.2286066746269375,0.07342280404291954,0.0,0.05254569769126994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193386106028854,0.12977372663660364,0.0,0.08489707226631314,0.0,0.14796032574388449,0.19027361709551954,0.0,0.17680889182829568,0.043288494038472417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016096079256798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06411738032096151,0.08176213842789416,0.061253727542713014,0.043787211837880216,0.23570514684651886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06698781353706737,0.08288353822835043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054045797631096085,0.0,0.0,0.05273620316249275,0.08116707247662983,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,dancefloor777,2020/03/04,"I have a message to you about stigma So, I'm not schizophrenic. But I had a psychotic episode. Now I'm in the process of finding out if something neurological caused my episode, and right now my doctor is urging me to get an MRI, since I take a low dose of antipsychotics but my nervous system reacts as if I'm on a very high dose. I'll roll with the punches, it's scary but I have a little story to tell to anyone who might be struggling with stigma or low self esteem due to schizophrenia. Somehow, I won't get into the details of how, my diagnosis, back when I thought I had schizophrenia, came out. I felt so bad and down on myself because people judged me as a piece of shit for not being mentally well. Or so I thought, I never got clear evidence that it got out, but I told some people and a few friends left me and probably talked to their friends about me and some people treated me differently. All around a shitty situation. I just want you to know, that the only opinions you should care about are those of people who love you. You don't have a character flaw for being sick, you are fighting a struggle the people judging you for it could never survive. So be proud! Stand tall! Remember that medicine is only getting more advanced and that new, better meds are on the horizon. Fuck the stigma. You are so strong and I wish you all the best.",4.067359550561797,5.480302430711613,4.731106741573034,84.92070505617978,71.50936329588015,7.137752808988763,28.3312734082397,7.554174236665415,1.6101911610486894,1067,40,209,12,20,342,147,267,0.16699999999999998,0.682,0.151,-0.4684,1,0,1,0,2,0,28.0,0,9,1,6,17,19,3,3,19,0,20,10,1,3,5,49,40,24,0,6,11,0,1,0,2,3,7,0,0,1,10,15,0,0,6,0,0,2,6,9,1,0,9,1,33,10,32,23,8,29,0,2,0,2,21,17,2,9,8,154,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08526373451018257,0.0,0.0,0.10855302730537812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376482934957033,0.10181534542725623,0.07433388561085227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12796918418523034,0.1078465914362366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394676129549181,0.12432661488182613,0.1252666329008634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09735968293446384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12740202067762524,0.0,0.12481141761291245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11708214241057666,0.0,0.11145154073529767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18842208026584206,0.11273216172744994,0.19112686288788666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950541471989831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12883698684885653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06701538967688753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13248886799773332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222165616266767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100561933351518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13544856746528694,0.0,0.12288748979609232,0.1293597546266573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18809628623714886,0.11777103516723883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854827113332256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42269144873313397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13147264007350662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1381349803061748,0.10413664488124956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12721068739681451,0.0,0.12517032014732385,0.10087056195732066,0.13706639451869168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09387586629362787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549576774054024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916841896244026,0.09801127172604177,0.1065814988127044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19361450305722955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11651951231113394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10061380309511693,0.07192375201768045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10963928467845434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140225724231428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,colderthanme,2020/03/04,Coming off Invega I’ve been having severe heart palpitations lately and think they might be caused by my Invega Sustenna. I was wondering what it’s like coming off of it. Has anyone here done this?,5.104234234234237,7.22661005405406,6.122702702702704,73.13288288288291,70.08108108108108,9.257657657657658,20.44144144144144,9.725611199111238,2.0328090090090085,160,3,26,4,3,53,32,37,0.07,0.863,0.067,-0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,7,1,1,1,0,7,11,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,1,4,6,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,2,20,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19806173530765026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2909856908217926,0.0,0.4880062186158183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898729703992896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3356640523336463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3195292262076984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383863583288552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3004937284006459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200027809365232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1815013479494412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3071830103438628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,joesavu,2020/03/04,"Do you have difficulties with expressing tone in your voice when you talk, and also reacting to others tone of voice? I think this a pretty common problem for me even before being diagnosed with schizophrenia. IDK due to lack of social interaction, or what. Expressing your thoughts can be also hard when you talk I guess.",7.1792105263157895,8.943268631578945,6.735921052631582,72.15019736842106,64.43859649122807,9.910526315789477,30.03947368421053,10.125756701596842,3.240231578947369,260,9,41,6,4,81,44,57,0.172,0.768,0.06,-0.6102,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,5,0,0,5,1,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,1,0,10,8,6,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,8,0,8,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,11,1,0,2,4,33,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4372604761195611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2326351303735344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774855442704593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18057180883631294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3011703946776293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449041370861711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781363656171968,0.0,0.2615977312458031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2786871272148693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4394817636023968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17517755650434114,0.0,0.21704147330225976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Violet288,2020/03/04,I feel like I don't want to get better out of spite. Which is completely dilusional but I can't shake this feeling So basically I have pretty bad Truman show dilusional. I can't get past this messed up idea that the people watching will never stop if I have an okay life. I know on some level this is unhealthy and rediculous but I believe it most of the time.,1.6498972602739743,4.07342883561644,3.0016267123287683,89.79504280821921,82.56164383561645,5.8417808219178085,21.45376712328768,7.1686216300943375,0.7119328767123285,287,9,58,4,8,93,54,73,0.196,0.602,0.20199999999999999,-0.3599,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,1,7,1,1,3,1,8,1,0,0,1,14,14,5,0,2,3,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,4,1,0,1,4,4,0,0,0,3,8,3,6,13,2,9,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,3,5,39,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298536221537093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31015482159616226,0.0,0.2434694846295157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28863377954613706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783873336834988,0.19666549499011848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28765278646556297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107661583755668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15129084906243692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1944437518889709,0.13449160137404553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21231874489960506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26279313497217305,0.1908497390781342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2800664263252155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301527350545627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16052239585227185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16237174122205913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,spiritedMuse,2020/03/04,"Need advice. Concerned for myself. I’ve been noticing lately that I feel.. flatter, than usual. My psychiatrist attributed this to the 15mg of Lexapro I was taking, so she’s taking me off of it and switching me to 0.5g of Rexulti. Now, after a couple of days of weaning off of it, I feel anxious. Nobody wants to talk to me. Nobody wants to say anything. Thoughts slip out of my head and I’m stuck scrambling for words while I’m going “where was I going with this??” I can’t stop fidgeting. Yesterday, I swear I heard and physically felt static in my ear. Just outside of where it would be.

I’m scared I’m developing this. Can that be a paranoia/delusion in and of itself? How in the world do I convince myself that I don’t have this when every rational part of my brain is saying I probably don’t, but I also am anxious about it?

For reference, have a history of autism. I’ve been struggling with emoting even more than usual, and my motivation has taken an absolute nose dive. Again, kind of correlates with when I started the higher dose of the lexapro, but...",2.3185828206880856,4.661315631578948,3.987122351332879,84.2031897926635,79.28708133971291,6.660378218272957,25.741854636591484,7.793537801064563,1.6610476646160859,833,33,158,14,21,278,121,209,0.077,0.892,0.03,-0.7912,0,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,1,12,5,0,2,8,0,17,5,4,3,0,26,36,13,0,4,3,0,3,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,12,9,0,1,6,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,9,8,23,3,34,24,2,24,0,0,0,0,6,9,0,0,13,115,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15526024707991806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270600020804649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3589888733494402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307485341209982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17736782251925345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758028499412166,0.0,0.10246745898544957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1787238528234809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10494181687778134,0.0,0.1338671754040568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16067371214877374,0.0,0.15255418629821813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18059562312098526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16306149538394435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654539194994998,0.0,0.0,0.17922881261034074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11781095927866887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808912340513137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1720565993605943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713045321340181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2527029113891921,0.15907125840938702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11245937736307203,0.0,0.0,0.13283468688432548,0.0,0.16610074011402434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2389229758969421,0.12770546813011818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12613666935582704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34997800328006473,0.0,0.18742857345563715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1128671010706123,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,R4nger,2020/03/04,"Just a quick question I remember a post last year talking about a new medication that may be approved by the FDA I can't remember the name of it but it starts with th. Does anyone remember what it was called or have a link?
Many thanks in advance.",1.1998666666666686,3.697738320000002,2.764,90.08866666666668,85.8,6.533333333333335,24.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.4601333333333333,196,8,41,4,6,64,41,50,0.0,0.877,0.12300000000000001,0.6956,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,6,0,5,1,0,0,0,11,7,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,5,4,0,8,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,3,5,27,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14884485979066756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173658319392579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18628548126064556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17351886766814167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158185178385673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21444586792171505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20559283870888825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2038722695846632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384650502336841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7234265034475035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150671702758208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17109822929730434,0.0,0.1959836843678793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1370824117705064
schizophrenia,girlbutalsoflower,2020/03/04,Trying to understand someone So I believe my friend has schizophrenia. I'm aware of how difficult it is. But I don't think she's aware that she has it. Over the years she has been diagnosed with different disorders because I think she herself doesn't know what's going on. But every now n then she says something like stop shouting when everyone is quiet and things like that. We are in the same uni so some people have noticed it as well. She's amazing and I love her. I don't know what to do. I also study psychology. I'm a bachelor in psych. So whenever I talk to her she is just over it because maybe I study the subject. And I think it's really troubling her. I just want to be her friend and nothing more. But I really don't know what to do.,0.6674367737525628,3.07551918181818,2.5892344497607667,90.9354306220096,87.7012987012987,6.099248120300753,22.390977443609025,7.475848149327749,1.082212987012987,590,22,124,11,19,196,85,154,0.055999999999999994,0.79,0.154,0.9304,1,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,0,10,9,0,0,4,0,16,2,0,1,0,23,28,15,0,1,5,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,0,0,11,6,0,1,7,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,1,3,25,7,13,26,3,11,0,0,0,1,18,5,0,1,7,90,36,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14239466715434698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21708767451189487,0.0,0.0,0.20061285555407246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18072734159366785,0.0,0.1860349971600584,0.2040724006297692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15002338715909702,0.17014413921065955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2751377174452019,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10119570762937334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935716661771012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739824263304062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16070627063568674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17888539068420845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708535516664929,0.20272270299164516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12344451374696253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22813983047452485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14160060745713945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15086981855631093,0.13707943113024898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148866289278564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431180334521187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11829527617492165,0.34228133408325995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12089117874596045,0.0,0.0,0.18536693422103145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10502451163005633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600974922163792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466492244860152
schizophrenia,el4a_b,2020/03/04,"Don't know what's wrong with me? I have been diagnosed with depression and I never ever considered that mabye I have schizophrenia.

But these last few days I have been having delusions I think. I know deep down that it's fake but every other sense says that it's real. I don't hear voices or see things. I just really strongly believe in that delusion. And I feel like I'm going crazy.

I've been searching on the internet what it could be I came across something as pshycotic depression. But I just don't know what it is and I just want it to stop. Do any of you know what it could be?",0.782,3.2362098666666697,2.083333333333336,94.375,87.83333333333334,5.2,18.833333333333336,6.742157984588678,0.16468333333333307,464,13,98,6,15,148,72,120,0.135,0.7829999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.7989,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,4,6,0,0,1,0,16,1,0,0,2,26,28,8,0,3,7,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,17,6,0,1,6,0,0,2,4,4,0,0,4,5,14,2,9,20,1,12,0,2,1,0,3,5,0,1,6,70,31,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13116111144496898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173032441283395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22059677233619904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3079888062321795,0.0,0.0,0.12438794227895862,0.0,0.3322446368184208,0.1957633149806255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1744658113672407,0.16250488352181705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09752302160311056,0.13778941062248906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10961488733606424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173833098623173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4239945990716179,0.15721826532935068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09422862148713784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14875652043228596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195331346088982,0.1235601904476188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15338135378211712,0.0,0.0,0.15369581453123732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14848402912963626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1612515185641258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1281370887567056,0.12358603855078898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11376223635904704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21087772653453515,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,one-sad-sandwich,2020/03/04,I’m not sure anymore I do t even know if I am depressed anymore I just want to feel at piece sorry about the bad grammar and punctuation but I have been dead before and I felt at piece no heaven no hell just felt ok in a strange way until I was shocked back to life is it really selfish if I want to feel ok again if people do t feel that way it’s on them I won’t recall any of it I just want to feel ok again and at piece I believe it is my time to move on and feel ok and if people are sad one day it will all go away I hate when people say it’s selfish to end it they might finally be at piece and that is ok let them do what they need to and be ok with their choice probably spelled wrong but fuck it I have had friends end it all and I wasn’t sad or mad I realized they have an illness and did what made them ok. Why am I mad about that someone I cared about is ok now and at piece I hate the stigma that suicide is selfish no it isn’t you don’t know what they may have been through let them do their thing and be ok with it just remember the good and maybe pour some out for your homie but don’t be mad at them it may be something you will never understand and just because you don’t doesn’t mean be sad or mad just love them and accept they may honestly be ok now mentall illness is a preoblem that many might not understand but we deserve to feel ok and if you don’t agree that is not my problem or anyone’s with the disorder just accept it and know they aren’t trying to hurt you they just wanted to feel comfortable if I’m gone tomorrow or a long time from now just know it’s not your fault or anyone else’s it’s just the cards I was dealt it could be so much worse than what I have but maybe I am weak and can’t handle what I have I don’t know if it’s my mental health or what but it’s more than I might be able to handle maybe I’m having an episode and I’ll wake up tomorrow and won’t do what I want to but just know that comparing someone’s situation to another’s is fucked one person might handle depression might be just as bad as you even though you weren’t dealt the same cards life is a trip just enjoy what you had or have but if someone passes from suicide done be mad at them maybe they are ok now and it’s something you may not understand but be at piece with it and move the fuck on I’m rambling at this point maybe someone will relate I’m not sure anyways I don’t know anymore but I want to just feel ok I just want to feel nothing it’s better than what I know now I doubt anyone will read this far but I’m not even depressed I have a new job on the way in a few days and my life will be ok but I know my depression will kick in or something else and all will go to shit again like it always has and maybe it’s ok if I am just at free it will all be ok for you and me anyone suffering I don’t know how long I have but maybe I will make it if I don’t ohh well it’s not that scary,0.4110654482464291,2.0192806952526823,2.19196244320036,98.41391861019758,82.01684532924959,5.507082067632365,18.974443300780766,6.400209001296144,-0.2993337232947555,2286,54,575,20,61,753,205,653,0.233,0.618,0.149,-0.9979,3,0,3,0,0,2,1.0,1,12,17,1,37,64,12,1,16,16,90,13,2,3,7,147,141,63,3,20,55,0,11,1,1,20,7,1,0,1,46,31,0,0,29,1,1,7,28,32,1,2,14,12,72,33,55,90,15,56,2,9,0,4,34,22,5,29,25,398,118,2,0.05619311889826618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04675717646025685,0.0,0.0,0.038213247794975126,0.058923384733127165,0.0,0.0,0.1671854232168053,0.157166141155041,0.05757649090683836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05279528496928077,0.04320903983854055,0.09383781418381563,0.03425480371471023,0.0,0.04781620536365299,0.06331040216910824,0.0,0.049698247180146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0572926297918371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04486563296456533,0.0,0.0,0.07247982589728554,0.0,0.19359620386597176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06440218260092351,0.0,0.0,0.057505070467094486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938842805919492,0.0,0.0995408486850548,0.0,0.0,0.11134507518713564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557163639634276,0.0,0.1079084128002728,0.061556815055098475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04341466426774211,0.1558488988127776,0.0,0.0,0.06387168888163572,0.04713212206739742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109581424293984,0.0,0.05973065768015275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06015589599432272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05576299976604111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30882268569469995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11492254254752687,0.11907258511740675,0.0274531194696203,0.0,0.0,0.0994582838612748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05071648373152494,0.053171287794313134,0.03750934321131202,0.05697100270407642,0.3951747856128737,0.06121078005750567,0.0,0.0,0.11325889417366987,0.2980600951305779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944878482459514,0.04130840805335425,0.041666485642640215,0.043339597490238135,0.05427166439343285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053918813119683925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07615582330962561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11687169981163588,0.04906566395232921,0.0,0.0,0.05312066058003488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06058568636045071,0.0537692257391666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056208325554290416,0.0,0.035998750873274074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06365584951787548,0.0,0.0,0.04468702357454449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057681429032253415,0.0,0.06316342004103916,0.0,0.0,0.19044898915575076,0.12978062482585198,0.0,0.06290359600820418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12293230312488945,0.0,0.10592269908674004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037332211281551564,0.0,0.055209454009498345,0.0,0.06553331904534143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03815143911872269,0.0,0.0,0.17549705558961468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320091020779376,0.13381044662116742,0.0,0.0,0.05052436241182293,0.0,0.05070554952515728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05726558886978705,0.0,0.061438354171664725,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BarslammingWLer,2020/03/04,Bipolar I Mixed vs. Schizoaffective Disorder Bipolar Type What are the main differences between these two diagnoses? My diagnosis was recently changed from Bipolar 1 w/ mixed episodes to Schizoaffective Disorder Bipolar Type. Does the difference have to do with when the psychotic symptoms occur? (During an episode vs. chronic) Does treatment change for Schizoaffective Disorder vs. Bipolar I?,9.830734463276835,14.077622271186435,7.245000000000001,60.633827683615856,63.57627118644068,12.068926553672314,50.51129943502825,11.20814326018867,7.985404519774011,330,24,36,12,6,95,42,59,0.138,0.862,0.0,-0.8243,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,0,4,8,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,6,3,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,22,5,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4015089446350631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19261540968406515,0.0,0.39654439530376,0.6524882517370724,0.0,0.3321429336035054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873777576725721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19724661457489304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185380462439146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,RoboticDogeCat,2020/03/04,"Hallucinations Are Evolutionary? So I was thinking, every person hallucinates at night while dreaming in sleep. Then I thought, a hallucination is just a thought occuring from no sensory input right? If humans only reacted to sensory input- then we would essentially be apes and have fairly limited cognitive functions. The ability to visualize things without actually seeing them is kinda like a very mild but conscious hallucination. Perhaps this means that the stronger one can visualize mental images- the more ""hallucination"" genes their brain has. When these genes are working properly, this person can visualize and think abstractly much better than the average person. However, if the brain gets disordered in some way and one loses conscious control of what they are trying to visualize- then hallucinations could occur: when the subconscious takes over. All hallucinations come from within the brain, and you do not want them to occur but clearly the subconscious creates the hallucinations. This is not at all scientific but could possibly make sense. Those who can see exactly what they are thinking would have an advantage in abstract thought.",9.561754658385093,12.43373911956522,9.095496894409935,53.2613043478261,59.97826086956522,12.431055900621116,40.86024844720497,11.899873341045813,6.272974844720497,954,51,119,33,14,305,120,184,0.038,0.862,0.1,0.9221,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,1,1,5,6,4,4,0,0,13,0,20,4,4,3,4,39,34,16,0,7,9,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,4,10,6,0,2,9,1,0,1,4,1,0,2,4,2,9,3,16,25,5,17,0,1,2,0,12,8,0,4,8,95,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.13023500011757536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11803207018420828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44694720000398297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11496158218636135,0.0,0.0,0.1496836258824934,0.21310946922281165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1529535419873951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124434679854637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06972589179389586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652004589270136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14930449768587062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08908373396818321,0.0,0.0,0.1453740422995019,0.0,0.0,0.1344934932778966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09810641612525982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12524056497764194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18086813905599575,0.10150023338931638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3495891034303729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15045296881751233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11397174091161565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21269625904408893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335536061643705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10034322420776716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866305015030998,0.2565420029491654,0.0,0.3178503878869877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09060869538047958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11011618735715292,0.07871652903450069,0.10593213324486167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286480024221096,0.0,0.09715844923335676,0.0,0.0,0.18960836706293704,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Veincent,2020/03/04,"Xyn3 Ok so I've been doing some research on this reddit user and I'd like some professional help with figuring out if he may have schizophrenia. Or if he's just a troll, I have spoken to him through dms but I'm not a expert at this so I'd like some advice on him. 
Thank you",-0.1882857142857155,1.9148102666666704,2.109523809523811,95.20500000000004,88.0,4.761904761904762,16.9047619047619,6.1826913282559595,-0.4410238095238093,216,5,50,2,7,73,44,60,0.0,0.8009999999999999,0.19899999999999998,0.8658,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,0,2,1,5,0,0,0,0,14,7,7,0,2,6,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,4,7,5,3,4,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,7,2,32,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5457093898725157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37431624349642106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5456594364678797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5141443290101044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,femalebot,2020/03/04,"My brother is in denial. Can you recommend a book that will help motivate him to get treatment? My brother has very intense schizophrenia and schizoaffective disorder. He was diagnosed by an experienced psychiatrist and his symptoms are very obvious. He has recently begun to show signs of paranoia as well (thinks my mom is trying to poison him, some other stuff). I won’t go into details.

I am in a unique situation because he has some strange attachment to me and thinks I am ‘purer’ than other human beings or something like that. The thing is, he is in complete denial of his diagnosis, refuses to see a therapist, go on meds, etc. 

Does anyone have any books relating schizophrenia (fiction or not—as long as it’s something he can connect with) that will make him understand what he has and motivate him to seek treatment? I think this approach would help him.

Any other tips for encouragement are also appreciated.",6.569613821138213,8.457749823170737,7.008292682926832,69.15845528455284,66.01219512195122,10.100813008130082,36.227642276422756,10.317481424215053,4.304944715447155,737,37,114,19,12,240,107,164,0.057,0.7859999999999999,0.158,0.9428,0,0,2,1,0,0,20.0,0,1,0,2,2,4,1,0,5,0,21,3,0,3,1,21,30,9,0,1,2,3,0,1,0,4,3,0,0,1,11,6,0,1,6,3,0,3,1,1,1,0,1,2,16,3,19,24,3,11,0,0,1,0,22,5,0,4,4,83,27,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13529415099510178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23009804595938546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182954343634305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313129417533526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17738327788700334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17171536498633955,0.0,0.0,0.1938963216565518,0.0,0.14805161530146735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18868176806559425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08839019853605815,0.0,0.1922991586928492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.226797195206944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08265339260537595,0.0,0.0,0.1497200453474836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292977012121112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879221830272636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1981429861973701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16704603282698546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13481551889186266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1901667663205812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604879188847121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19367200702654885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758440535448481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964324222460542,0.11239647717613648,0.3252134607405608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11486293495460095,0.0,0.0,0.17612360412918535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2791844295460015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15211422392933832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12018147618915075,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SkitzoKing,2020/03/04,"Feelings of god question. Does symptoms of feeling like god , or being in the presence of god fall under the umbrella of schizophrenia ?",6.641304347826086,9.491769869565221,5.8254347826086965,73.77989130434786,67.69565217391305,6.339130434782609,41.934782608695656,7.1686216300943375,3.8460608695652176,109,7,14,1,2,33,17,23,0.0,0.636,0.364,0.8074,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,6,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,10,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3964373491663799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4581169963434928,0.3236347166272661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22132073194447985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5074815908556852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4708570744874517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Weeeirdo1,2020/03/04,"My hallucinations are back. I don’t always know they are not ordinary people until I notice something peculiar for example one has extra long, twisted fingers So there’s the usual dark figures for me they always stand in doorways then there’s another type where the colours are extra bright and vivid and there’s always something off with them like a deformity such as this lady with twisted fingers.",6.157499999999999,8.682906416666668,6.298333333333333,71.28,68.16666666666666,8.133333333333335,32.83333333333333,8.841846274778883,3.2659833333333332,330,15,48,6,6,105,54,72,0.0,0.899,0.10099999999999999,0.7184,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,3,0,7,3,0,0,3,0,5,2,2,0,0,7,6,6,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,5,7,2,8,6,2,9,0,0,3,0,3,3,0,0,6,38,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6431225444805163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27015430206158475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19810654213435613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415902658893439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12586816530176212,0.0,0.0,0.2280001682055416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2933208281865768,0.0,0.0,0.17458113945184248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786126885297134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3966822824785102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28375017260392105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,RubyAllen2004,2020/03/05,"Possible Schizophrenia? So I don’t know if I have schizophrenia or what but I was experiencing some of the symptoms that I had heard of. The main one was delusions that have been going on for several months now. I’m not even too sure if these would count as delusions but the NHS website said that a delusion was “A delusion is a belief held with complete conviction, even though it's based on a mistaken, strange or unrealistic view.” My main delusion was that what I am seeing was a huge hallucination sort of like Spider-Man far from home when Peter Parker sees iron man come out of his grave. This mainly occurred at work (waiter job) when I wipe down tables and I’m worried that their might be some people eating and I’ve just sprayed their food. Or after an exam at school and I’m leaving, I get worried that the exam is still going on and everyone is just seeing me randomly leave. The NHS website also said that bipolar can be also linked to schizophrenia which was wired because in the past I have suspected I may have bipolar but that could just be a coincidence. Another one of the symptoms was poor care for hygiene which I sort of feel is just like me but I only rarely wash because I don’t plan to leave my room and spend time with people which is another symptom (wanting to avoid people including friends and family). But these may just be coincidences and I just wanted to check with people who may have experienced some of these symptoms before I go and waste a doctors time with a wild goose chase",5.89335865436788,6.817273817869418,5.954291915355403,79.6523602821487,66.83505154639175,8.463085548923855,30.77970699945741,8.532816995589336,2.3047690721649485,1215,45,224,17,19,384,156,291,0.111,0.831,0.057999999999999996,-0.9095,1,1,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,2,2,17,7,0,1,16,0,33,10,0,0,1,53,53,25,1,6,17,0,1,2,1,5,8,3,2,1,19,14,2,2,5,0,3,4,3,2,0,2,13,10,21,5,28,30,6,24,1,1,4,0,9,11,0,15,11,161,40,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16762344227766868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21979226459180368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12777509159909248,0.0,0.08918048503716935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10685466307986996,0.0,0.0,0.09027936623881813,0.10988500028723433,0.0,0.0,0.08367746622405499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10727133518615768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10724065660764018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384441074759826,0.0,0.0,0.10014471351988044,0.0,0.0,0.09879988412272568,0.0,0.05299205153651094,0.07487199872260229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267294131155028,0.0,0.08097131061901812,0.0,0.0547557645073549,0.0,0.17868758566119794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10512695745106647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10400179873000256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05759753767844913,0.0,0.0,0.33291691129930034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10240388133957334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11118048223113566,0.0,0.0,0.08365355311460904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14203580584250955,0.07970816484262619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000472770626785,0.29063159088858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11815076319648195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19938520823308584,0.0,0.0,0.10606724347602972,0.25054565754940405,0.0,0.0,0.1183986890148708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08369660998404298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09877652993541468,0.4357259399974101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10296939813101494,0.0,0.12222411071961801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12363222945616932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07629856039485199,0.2128670991312415,0.0,0.07444975480708868,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,myfriendneedsme,2020/03/05,"Friend thinks she's a victim of gangstalking, could this be schizophrenia? I know no one here can diagnose, and I'm not looking for that per se, but to see if anyone has relatable stories since I haven't found anything exactly like what they're going through on here or even in the criteria for schizophrenia. Throwaway account for fairly obvious reasons, and not posting in gangstalking for even more obvious reasons.

My best friend believes they are being gangstalked and what they describe to me sounds consistent with everything I have read about from people who believe they are being gangstalked with emphasis on physical torture leading to extreme sleep deprivation.  I am wondering if anyone who has received a diagnosis due to seeing themselves as a TI, and if the perceived abuse stopped because of it. I am the first person who wasn't just completely dismissive of what they feel like they're experiencing, and as such am the only person they will talk to about it. 

I know coming here hoping for answers might get my post removed, but I don't know where else to turn. The first time my friend ever reached out to another person for help, they were told they were going to be given a safe place to live but instead was involuntarily hospitalized despite not necessarily being a threat to themself or others. I am at a loss of what to do, and want to know how I should approach them if this does sound like schizophrenia.  They haven't expressed suicidal ideation, but with how bad things have been getting lately I am worried it may come to that. I just don't want to push them away since they have no one else to turn to anymore.",11.860703211517162,8.922236086378737,10.147981727574752,66.98272563676635,56.906976744186046,12.82403100775194,45.01688815060908,10.686352973137794,4.7990994462901435,1326,60,226,21,12,407,165,301,0.10099999999999999,0.748,0.151,0.9497,0,0,0,0,1,0,21.0,0,0,11,5,16,15,3,0,11,0,33,2,1,5,4,55,58,20,1,9,15,0,1,3,3,4,1,2,0,3,16,12,0,2,12,1,1,9,10,6,0,4,8,7,27,9,42,40,2,27,0,2,3,0,26,9,0,10,10,169,43,2,0.0,0.12431792764268257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002209076672193,0.0,0.0,0.1040565353995518,0.14673077188226935,0.0,0.08634361256372826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09857966682079436,0.0,0.08760725946279688,0.06396077110243216,0.0,0.0,0.2364271110858713,0.11011139308237024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18076568154273034,0.11001094599899948,0.0,0.0,0.0837733739276974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649577553045532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09181980652296716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17530128127633834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1386027864732086,0.09490987566768196,0.0,0.0,0.0942990356045632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053052788867640886,0.07495781395803705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17849680970832815,0.0,0.1150438844465066,0.24319234991197936,0.0,0.10963704666891368,0.0,0.11926159339601465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07032842749283676,0.0,0.0,0.10421332817489136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306542145208628,0.0,0.11835898016235567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15378187874625468,0.0,0.0926499223172313,0.0,0.08810983694250014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11130791277154056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14219860149811506,0.07979952309469296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07274117524519233,0.274847089521879,0.10962337587474713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20097661097345693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10495251628854267,0.0,0.0,0.21575894568815696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.167221881851654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17358863649619233,0.0,0.1049998972772312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877212644598389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11476995995585393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08433403507447512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06970692462329159,0.06723114093927962,0.0,0.0,0.061182099508597314,0.0,0.0,0.1002594953116701,0.0,0.0,0.2282546307516813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12377393168208975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137857349044774,0.0,0.10655553936514474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,perfnat,2020/03/05,"Loss of Awareness and Meds Dear folks, I have a question about the meds and the loss if awareness they. If ever, how long does it take for the awareness to come back fully after stoppkng meds? That I ask this question is probably a sign that it is coming back, though I tapert off 10 Months ago i still have detriments regarding awareness wich has a impact on my day to day life. If someone with experience or a health worker can give an answer that will be appreciated. 

I was on Paliperidone/Risperidone 100mg/month for a year.",6.732433333333333,7.178131910000005,6.25,79.93833333333335,64.9,8.266666666666667,31.66666666666667,7.793537801064563,2.113266666666667,421,15,77,4,6,130,70,100,0.049,0.889,0.062,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,1,3,7,3,0,0,9,0,9,2,0,1,1,15,14,8,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,6,5,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,7,1,11,11,0,16,0,2,0,0,5,3,0,6,11,54,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14443647580971514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15232690160222725,0.0,0.0,0.25058159950449715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28071675887306136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21016563632304425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14258988911778595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14738855547743418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15938658247574092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563068920577093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17319759704077006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11508933835507855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14419676962886865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5429688123172585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2601143016049595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17567687516326352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3650601736773315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13805853041686847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13012409181756587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12251059936185825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16008771943516242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10492801565681954
schizophrenia,heartseasy,2020/03/05,"Advice for Schizoaffective Disorder Hi, sorry if I'm in the wrong place! 

I have had suspicions that I may have a schizophrenia spectrum disorder for around a decade and it's taken a lot of pushing myself to get the help I need. I've never received a formal diagnosis, which has limited my access to services I need. In the end, I've managed to work around that, though it has been frustrating. I'm currently in a good place, but I visited the doctor this month (for an unrelated reason) and saw my medical files. It seems that I have been diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder since last November but nobody has told me. My pscychiatric nurse has told me that receiving a diagnosis won't help me as it can be stigmatising. A big part of coming to be in a better place has been relearning to trust medical professionals, but this has really shaken my confidence. I'm in the UK, if that makes a difference. Is this legal? Should I be worried?

Sending love out to everyone reading this, thank you <3",5.912040312628548,7.2967690481283425,6.868128342245992,71.44210201563143,67.07486631016043,11.315343480049364,32.56643356643357,11.20814326018867,4.165508761826408,800,34,138,26,13,267,108,187,0.102,0.732,0.165,0.9607,1,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,0,3,4,7,1,0,15,0,21,5,0,2,1,22,36,9,0,5,5,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,0,14,7,0,1,2,1,0,6,2,2,0,0,8,1,16,5,21,22,2,23,0,0,1,1,11,12,0,5,5,98,30,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12646885135361194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23042452737388866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11446249117802587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.111484862260586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13135974444950796,0.0,0.13521755739955196,0.4449835563264323,0.13246803257459933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11462872597062107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12366745645240447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06761720998270336,0.0,0.0,0.10855232150916408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173496539500815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10549551206007296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002923483670432,0.11680764214193988,0.0,0.08638962357878742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2607563886232268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10330272835456378,0.0,0.0,0.19192828785298965,0.0998175705755545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14015049504424926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40565267219865575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294561746728926,0.0,0.08291050365048266,0.13306649877481005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11782015558093815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10705851389831586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14487638320635882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11915360799467214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12715562421345067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473349129048089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09422013966956302,0.1314334615712719,0.0,0.0,0.14150171226111127,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,FrankiesMind,2020/03/05,"Any good recommendations on novels about schizophrenia? I am trying to create a digital product that tries to reduce/remove the stigma around the disorder. In order to do this I want to remove my own stigmas and assumption by reading literature. This would include an autobiography or other non-fiction works. I stumbled upon ""I Never Promised You a Rosegarden,"" but I am unsure if this really accurately depicts schizophrenia. Are there any recommendations? 

Thank you.",7.497662337662338,10.755974870129876,8.009090909090911,57.23363636363641,66.53246753246754,9.075324675324676,35.675324675324674,9.606745405546679,4.472771428571429,383,19,46,9,7,126,60,77,0.077,0.8140000000000001,0.109,0.3383,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,1,3,3,0,0,5,0,5,0,0,0,1,8,7,4,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,8,3,10,6,1,7,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,1,40,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4150288939355868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2716507913476375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3497316788578972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559477879951521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2353527408412575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3052354946369681,0.0,0.19548877182800325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2809438063957317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4143575982980555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799870960514994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22215495714647698,0.0,0.0,0.21677187620764665,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,magicalmoosetesticle,2020/03/05,"*Knock knock* Who's there?

*Knock knock*

Who's there??

- No one. You're schitzophrenic.",-0.08249999999999957,-6.101332333333334,-2.2720833333333332,114.69187500000002,205.66666666666663,0.75,8.541666666666668,3.1291,-2.748833333333333,65,1,14,0,8,16,9,15,0.19899999999999998,0.8009999999999999,0.0,-0.4098,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,tby2002,2020/03/05,"I always feel like I have schizophrenia without the symptoms? I don't hear voices or see things. I wish I did. I could create a world that's nice. I feel like I've given up and try to hide to avoid people and live my life alone. Because people always seem problematic. Like they don't like me. I think I give off something that makes people uncomfortable. When I try to be quiet and stay to myself people say I'm crazy I'm weird whatever. People think they can be mean to me unload on me and really just show their worst side. Like I see other people they like want to show them they care about them. Me I'm just a terrible thing people avoid and some things in my life of 26 years makes me want to give up and be a shut in. I always feel like I try too hard to be accepted. And rejection is my home it's my life. When I say that I mean like I think I can shove myself down someone else's throat and they'll eventually see I mean well. Like at work I worked at a company a call center for 2 years. I really wanted to grow with the company. I was really a top producer I did everything I was supposed to. But they hated me socially. Like if I was nice I was treated like trash and then other people would avoid me like I was dangerous or something. 

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And I was always scared because people were so negative to me. Now I kind of have gotten to a point like ok so what you don't like me I'm not going to care. Socially it's so much easier now than it was before not caring because I now work for myself I don't need anybody to like me and think I'm someone they want to be friends with just to move forward economically. I am like people hate me now what? I like me. That's had to be enough. But I mean I never asked to be isolated. I've always been like of the nature please accept me please befriend me talk to me just the way you talk to that other person you don't know but just had a long conversation with. But they don't because they don't see me like everybody else. I have never had friends never socialized. When I was a child my family treated me the same way. 

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Like I did nothing wrong but my mom would tell me no one would accept me and point out the people that would say I was everything under the sun and I'm under 10 getting called all these things. Like autistic mentally disabled schizophrenic you name it. The only thing I never got called was bipolar. I would go outside and people would be just mean to me for no reason. And it's always been that way. Those who would talk to me I would get really scared of because of all the past experiences of people just being mean to me for no reason at all. All I wanted was to be accepted. But it was always like I was something poisoned or nonhuman or something. Like I was just naturally bad. Without doing anything bad. I kind of just feel like innately I'm an evil person and bad person for saying hi to someone for trying to exist around people in their space. I have gone through my life really depressed because of the heavy isolation. I mean when I was a kid I never went to school because my mom said no one would accept me etc.... I used to hate being a human being because I just don't fit every time I try to softly ask for acceptance I am kicked in the stomach. I'm tired of it. And I feel like after 26 years of dealing with trying to beg for acceptance I'm ready to be the island everyone told me to be.

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From 18-26 I tried to be the nicest and sweetest to people even when they hated me at best all I could get is harsh treatment and being used to finish a task because I was really good at it. But I could never be liked for the benefit of having me around. No matter what I did. I was always told I'm the type people stay away from. Like everyone at my old job build cliches and the likes after a few weeks I worked there 2 years and did great at my job and my job entailed working with people on the phone of which they were usually much more partial to me. On the phone I've learned people are ok with me. They treat me like everyone else if not better. They actually know the real me I feel that they can talk to me without looking at me. And this in part causes me to have some sense of issues with how I look or my appearance. I mean I think I'm pretty and I've been told that when it mattered. But it's like whatever people see me my experiences tend to be negative. If I try to assert I'm like everyone else people get mad as if how dare I try to challenge their treatment of me.

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No I feel like fuck the world I don't really need people to like me anymore. But in part I feel sad that I am rejected. But sometimes I try to set like a different goal. Now I guess like I have thought if I make money a lot of money and am rich maybe I'll get people to like me. To pretend at least fake friends are better than no friends. I am tired of feeling as though I'm less than everybody else. I'm tired of feeling like among the pack of wolf I'm not even the lower rank rather forced to be the lone wolf. I don't know I wish sometimes that I was autistic or schizophrenic so I could deal with this chronic isolation. I wish I could be happy with it. Because when I deal with people in social settings it's like I feel like maybe one person will be ok with me but the rest will attack and convince the other person that I'm a bad person. It is always the same story. And like I said when the people who didn't like me I was good for at like work they treated me like the lowest thing but used me for work. I'm tired of dealing with people like this. I'm tired of begging to just be normal begging to be accepted tired of being attacked tired of putting up with people who just will never like and tired of overexaggerating relationships because I can't make real friends. I wish I could just interact with people as me and not physically. Just by my personality. Just by my voice even? But sorry this is a long winded way to say I'm just tired of trying anymore.

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Ps. I never get depressed or think about suicide it just makes me feel really sad and left out. But leftout is my life. The closest to friendship I've ever gotten to was watching friends interact with each other. Thinking why can't I get that?",2.339818470614929,4.165957032634033,3.8333657885870274,87.86498855127175,76.96425796425797,6.5448742015113694,22.655891797484717,7.4283797091721215,0.8612003066746423,4939,145,1020,64,113,1634,366,1287,0.156,0.6579999999999999,0.18600000000000005,0.9701,6,7,4,0,0,1,118.0,0,4,20,15,49,117,11,5,47,3,112,23,2,14,14,213,225,75,1,33,52,2,14,45,6,13,20,11,1,10,51,50,0,3,43,3,3,9,38,32,1,3,46,33,177,85,152,136,24,99,0,7,8,1,84,46,1,18,83,689,228,16,0.0,0.0,0.020811034389333332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02208723511243241,0.0,0.0,0.1597039624136465,0.18485311671243487,0.20730674351577624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042299190344761775,0.0,0.0,0.01754942584270991,0.03796920361424399,0.039873737292549546,0.04852265519450583,0.02003641614130629,0.0,0.07122505336874282,0.14300099956135418,0.0,0.018146798327194732,0.0,0.022380251068488517,0.037722109562409005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06532848618991655,0.0,0.06522963024105194,0.021907607778194102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1021621335743369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08794440237331341,0.036735989835955836,0.0,0.0,0.022281061081634225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08907540304792327,0.0,0.0,0.022035389659331942,0.023784052646973527,0.04225673302137836,0.019290527409209925,0.01796801840510454,0.08151137186672758,0.03833274710760808,0.04172170936812419,0.020104191754261612,0.0,0.12939639049192098,0.1218820068634308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09885817800696288,0.01971548149671624,0.07799343889490386,0.04091555651278915,0.024240038458455803,0.0357743617413828,0.01705629685012475,0.023511916514731036,0.023492919601442685,0.0,0.0,0.022701852324411027,0.019103847205116674,0.08421977520437075,0.0,0.0,0.024035876509792817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.021391649695793543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.022258733490668352,0.06348809382789013,0.0,0.0,0.04441535517262591,0.03516052530858689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.023170688697031858,0.0,0.07531568610788067,0.4688448161150473,0.0,0.01883118962435126,0.037745559386679776,0.035816825437883934,0.0,0.0,0.018130545687332536,0.0,0.0,0.07117612966822938,0.0,0.04284953237070373,0.18584154433938854,0.0,0.0,0.02149152463793146,0.0,0.0,0.049953350169036716,0.0,0.02266609188407176,0.03135402922338537,0.03162581832705188,0.13158299438541018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.020894886500183358,0.020462807959837973,0.0,0.02237797936592591,0.0,0.043353012536156414,0.016219333095430784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04618781467076759,0.020358016210437826,0.3991873540482376,0.13034687533920256,0.0,0.046818940942344116,0.04031979983447236,0.0,0.0,0.02169614076003875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02143845301390806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04854716138611795,0.10929551053414213,0.04385322208357794,0.0,0.02289607112695537,0.0,0.0,0.04057169190909325,0.08479618975225844,0.042701958716854935,0.02158298282049875,0.08497003795932223,0.019414328535676012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08695641257334079,0.054208181696093635,0.06567098072242722,0.04218378624996593,0.023872636110181828,0.0,0.045461214328480055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.023327109457337663,0.0,0.0,0.0221658100305375,0.0,0.0685639088109098,0.018639805495919055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500801400892903,0.09565357772755716,0.020952620979549,0.01693040874062846,0.012435323081194286,0.2205992062002276,0.0,0.061133528900045676,0.0,0.15926799563994073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05525627701686856,0.023487502389354858,0.0,0.06289293935067443,0.06771013217350161,0.017106377161323558,0.0,0.019174574986127763,0.019769353626320308,0.019243337573626267,0.0,0.09809508232911593,0.061672315432299576,0.0,0.1086787329419115,0.0,0.0,0.13634397894194222,0.023316560028735576,0.20730674351577624,0.054932806837415166
schizophrenia,Splashes_in_Puddles,2020/03/05,"I want to be around humans I want to be around the humans. I know they are dangerous and I cant trust them, but I cant help it, there is this drive in me to want to be with humans. I dont know why. Im just a lizard. I stay inside hidden all the time, its safe here. I dont get to see humans much where I live now. I see my family once or twice a week, and my therapist once a weekish. I have online friends but I want to be with a human and be able to talk and laugh and see them. I was to be able to be social. I feel so isolated and alone. I know that humans are dangerous and will hurt lizards like me but still I want to be around them and make friends.",-0.8928378378378383,0.8649326216216231,1.4918243243243232,100.84219594594595,87.64864864864866,5.051351351351352,14.655405405405405,6.322622252153567,-0.8900891891891889,500,8,132,5,16,169,74,148,0.14400000000000002,0.682,0.17300000000000001,0.3673,0,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,4,0,10,9,2,0,6,0,18,0,0,1,1,30,32,13,0,5,5,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,6,4,13,0,1,4,0,0,1,4,3,0,1,1,4,24,6,16,22,2,11,0,1,3,0,15,5,0,1,5,90,28,0,0.2708081973923101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14023781050965695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3616150655266783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173851904695749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12764693359455342,0.0,0.06846438073872461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20922574153652,0.0,0.07074305297066286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907585131601296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449528881484141,0.0,0.14625966205184174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2232436545609165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06615160309773263,0.0,0.11956429986679128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903832873097413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09953759233695078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2884018919993624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32369860749923923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13802742678049892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14432275312150158,0.10813388812735412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088326855158702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15721459485623127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0789552188406454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3993242280511001,0.0,0.1086130005247282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1221811383129868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,goatslayer,2020/03/05,"Schizophrenia and Morbidity As I look at this subreddit, I see people whose delusions make them believe they are evil or something like that. I've been wrestling with the voices and telepathy for about ten years now, and I've done some horrible things in my mind. I have the insight to know that none of it is real, so I can be upfront about the evil shit I thought I have done.

In this thread, I want to know the worse things you are willing to tell me about your actions(for lack of a better word.) What evil or morbid things have you done in your mind? will post some of the evil things I have done upon request.",5.05035123966942,5.859603818181821,4.546766528925623,89.4037861570248,68.66942148760329,7.372314049586778,27.521694214876035,7.1686216300943375,1.1448917355371897,486,15,102,4,8,146,76,121,0.222,0.7290000000000001,0.049,-0.9786,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,4,2,1,5,7,5,0,6,0,16,1,1,1,0,19,23,7,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,11,4,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,5,0,1,6,3,16,2,17,14,4,8,0,0,2,0,9,5,1,4,3,78,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17656908573101784,0.0,0.1386055650632762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6415133923901686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1722577566967893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07656517790342666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13160481707358654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10461140997812136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3164838170743267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10864949242964288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1500938546764757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17838097641406725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12488506354942852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16087020203534794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12065024327751635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697965481792795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41646959668293615,0.0,0.0,0.12441769018059005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924371568643934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15971044763826167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10092214911277472
schizophrenia,soup10,2020/03/05,"Thoughts on the institution of psychiatry Schizo is a term that gets thrown around a lot these days. I believe that involuntary commitments, and involuntary medications (typically major CNS depressants e.g. antipsychotics) for people that don't meet some subjective standard of mental health are unconstitutional violations of personal liberty and have led to institutions that routinely abuse and compound the trauma of the people they are supposed to help.  You take a normal healthy person that has decompensated, throw them into a lockup with a bunch of other people that are also unstable, medicate them by force and coercion and then release them back into the world... expecting what? That they will suddenly have the mental clarity to return and function as a normal member of society?  It doesn't work that way... for one you've just compounded the problems of a person who probably decompensated due to a previous crises.  For another you've now made ""mental health treatment"" something to be afraid of. To add insult to injury, after being involuntarily locked up and involuntarily medicated, you get charged an enormous medical bill.  Did I mention Assisted outpatient treatment service a.k.a involuntary outpatient commitment, where now they want to extend the power and controls of a mental institution into the lives of patients after they leave, typically with some judge rubber stamping court orders at the direction of the treatment providers.

It's obvious that the institution is in crises and doesn't have the answers to address the mental health problems that society faces, look no farther than the tens of millions suffering from extreme depression... or the weekly school shooters and other discontent individuals that would rather murder-suicide and go out in a blaze of glory than trust a psychiatrist to treat them.  Or the cops that commit suicide... 

How do we fix mental health care and the psychiatric wards?  It starts with. Title 42 U.S. Code § 9501.

A)The right to appropriate treatment and related services in a setting and under conditions that—
(i)are the most supportive of such person’s personal liberty;

As long as mental health treatment is associated with giving up(or taking) freedom and constitutional rights of liberty it will never have the prestige as other medical specialties as the entire profession is stained with the sadism of involuntary treatments and commitments.  Any time you have people making money off the suffering of others, there is evil at work.  Unlike prisons which are more clear cut in their devils bargain: we keep the bad guys locked up and quarantined into cells so their wickedness does not spread to the rest of society.  Psychiatric wards try to have their cake and eat it too, with one side of their mouth they claim to be helping and treating people, and then they turn around and run their facilities in a similar fashion to the penitentiaries.  Except this time with the premise of keeping the mentally ill from spreading their contagion of psychosis to the rest of society.

It’s a grand farce, and so long as psychiatry doesn't own up to its shortcomings ethically and professionally it will continue to be the ugly stepchild of medicine and an anathema to many that come into contact with it.   This may not sit well with the masses that have put their faith in the authority and expertise of these institutions to treat them and their loved ones, or the practitioners who resent criticism, but the truth is often uncomfortable.",13.797855517633678,11.72444948805461,12.196322525597274,51.109762514220726,52.41296928327645,15.636973833902163,47.79550625711035,13.943154165760404,6.869702161547212,2864,137,396,86,24,907,307,586,0.08800000000000001,0.826,0.085,-0.5765,1,1,1,1,1,3,63.0,2,3,19,4,17,28,6,1,49,0,33,15,2,5,8,87,52,42,1,8,9,1,0,0,0,5,11,0,1,6,35,47,1,3,2,0,3,6,8,16,1,5,3,1,26,12,92,40,11,60,2,4,1,1,42,30,0,9,20,300,61,6,0.0,0.07958565541851223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05371595239005525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04567801191289702,0.07043376904859465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11959136594717285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05164970659073973,0.05608427759354415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07567776808730449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0684844544016188,0.0,0.0,0.057861144870842124,0.0,0.0,0.07533704562224945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043319196114184486,0.0,0.11570712013183455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058781059345960326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06873184235259795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07018727212357209,0.06443573773058484,0.03817434965598306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06650901851344952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3569936933544236,0.0,0.0,0.09004548423069178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1194078483272271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112350044521941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059312481569709564,0.1188869551058938,0.05640601685415773,0.0,0.0,0.05710566769175821,0.060623691566291577,0.0635580291506152,0.044836603139410514,0.06809999909373537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33833434585181754,0.541533778553805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051805768017435486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13162498972881467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365487156327623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2328366558860604,0.293251962585526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07242079286669832,0.12854554247984454,0.0,0.0675245629530594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11472589862896705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06797978759158138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05171087052204626,0.0,0.0,0.047543384710669684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14694650495938624,0.07622390114835123,0.0,0.0,0.10100720122799092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053325603768422006,0.07833492049944023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04560412922526663,0.07306184528306968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039618700469968314,0.053316546202557914,0.0538798504154757,0.0,0.060394040321331874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0978013524101368,0.0,0.0,0.04771575419677013,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,0Jiminie_Crickets,2020/03/05,Are there things that make hallutionations worse? I used to get hallucinations a lot last year then the slowly went away but now they have come back full force I haven't changed any medication recently either,5.090135135135135,8.333932540540541,4.601283783783781,78.54895270270273,74.94594594594595,8.024324324324324,22.763513513513516,8.841846274778883,1.7764648648648644,172,5,31,4,4,52,35,37,0.06,0.94,0.0,-0.2617,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,2,0,6,8,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,2,7,3,10,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,6,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20147110044916364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.278351743833898,0.2278103356283481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3134102395082035,0.2552070031551797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15478680397940436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2414964052809408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2518748349573932,0.0,0.0,0.19775991547366245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984569166823461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2925270218527653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19682602560894866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558787785357497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2746416333912544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019204562084483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19078564835458026
schizophrenia,Chattterboxx23,2020/03/05,"Hearing voice of man and woman between sleeping and awake. And I sometimes hear thoughts I cannot control. I sometimes I hear the voices of a man and a woman while I'm in the ""worlds"" of sleep and roused-ness and they aren't negative, they're very positive (except for this one time after a surgery, while I was on anesthesia, they scared me) I almost ""feel"" them coming on before I hear them. I have always heard things when I was between those two worlds but only recently have the two voices really talked to me (before this I only heard incoherent mumblings, screams, and moans, I occasionally heard my name being called by people I knew, while I was awake) I always feel good after they talk to me, it's a fond thing, i guess. However, I do have thoughts I cannot control like, ""I invite a demon to come into the room now."" and I honestly don't want that but I can't control these thoughts, they leave when they want and they scare me. Should I talk to someone about this?",4.805473217881595,5.7663751937172805,5.1525654450261795,84.28984695932341,69.31413612565444,7.761739830849779,27.257752718485705,7.882392219407189,1.537888924687877,766,24,151,9,13,243,101,191,0.098,0.8009999999999999,0.10099999999999999,0.5369,2,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,8,3,4,7,0,2,9,0,14,2,2,3,0,30,33,16,0,3,3,0,2,1,0,1,0,11,1,4,9,12,0,3,6,0,0,2,6,3,0,3,10,13,34,4,19,21,0,19,1,0,0,0,24,7,0,2,11,106,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10965497352332353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18223641387100736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18636398623852835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11181841264560946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18866036174104436,0.0,0.0,0.3684626612035169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107395856748883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09184888346491372,0.0,0.0,0.12063379077577865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.493687280625051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11595160579899125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05349936010323893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07420446007436271,0.16656930414359447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07591804106899948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07015268841733248,0.0,0.10812448929588277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192702840241567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2191712324378596,0.0,0.09278452912624756,0.0,0.21660952026993094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640516069495978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14550254786251796,0.0,0.0,0.2608078630175833,0.06385413938563349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2139439395116772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09035435727853833,0.12917957947529146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,rendrogeo,2020/03/05,"My loved one is having a psychotic break. Need help My family member is having a major psychotic break. He thinks people are taunting him, following him everywhere, have hacked into his phone, etc. he thinks there are people outside of the house throwing rocks at the house. Obviously, there is no one outside. We live in a safe neighborhood. Every small creak is a sign to him that someone’s in the house taunting him. He can get pretty upset and aggressive over his delusions. 


I have no clue how to deal with it and how this will progress. I’d appreciate any support or words of advice. I’m becoming desperate and it’s starting to affect me also. I’m unsure if it’s schizophrenia, early onset Alzheimer’s (he has family history of this), or something drug-induced. Although this has been going on for almost 2 weeks now, and I don’t think drug-induced psychosis would last this long, but I’m not sure about anything.",3.16858323133415,5.988570784883724,3.9940146878824976,82.55123011015914,79.52325581395348,6.644308445532436,25.91309669522644,7.85451343220497,1.9114488372093024,733,29,125,13,19,234,113,172,0.08199999999999999,0.8340000000000001,0.084,0.2975,0,0,3,0,0,0,25.0,1,0,0,1,7,6,1,1,7,0,17,1,0,3,2,26,30,12,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,7,0,1,3,1,0,3,4,2,0,2,1,0,12,4,15,27,2,18,0,0,0,1,15,7,0,4,6,80,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14230766324945454,0.0,0.0,0.1458271143927135,0.0,0.0,0.11646002327456385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990331939361956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1198408395838336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608365687333644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15013783230826386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3377684491793297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16241561766554502,0.0,0.0,0.12269930826369413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27457345221193424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07608551074115047,0.0,0.08276471795835087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976125221901232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5041113843202027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11870764732888413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12859369845892088,0.12887770711143282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13143649542938016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079825817325555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19736491542560106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201922603302347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481577658275448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12339157730852432,0.1121128625034004,0.0,0.0,0.10307745545960413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1652588645800218,0.1372542744493153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27994090600722554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11681536590567868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10345116482283599,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mantaray303,2020/03/05,Olanzapine weight gain I’ve been on olanzapine for around 6 months and so far I’ve gained over 3 stone. What should I do? I try to eat healthy but I don’t have the energy to exercise (I don’t even have the energy to shower and brush my teeth). Should I ask my doctor to change meds?,0.20421428571428635,2.4047978500000013,2.3061904761904763,93.79500000000004,87.16666666666666,6.761904761904763,15.238095238095234,7.957251820313856,0.1468095238095244,221,4,53,5,7,74,40,60,0.0,0.794,0.20600000000000002,0.8639,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,2,0,8,5,1,0,0,6,9,4,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,7,0,8,6,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,31,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29459768827942984,0.3093746961034404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3500798547200964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3387206788457833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33862380796295666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185760156013916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675884113648943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2641450136671604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22467961527748628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.402983350352076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,One_of_ten,2020/03/05,"Friend with schizophrenia hasn’t responded to me in almost a week... It’s a complicated friendship but I love him with my whole heart. We live in different cities but had been talking every day, multiple times a day.  He suddenly stopped responding to my texts and WhatsApp video calls. It just seems unlikely that he’s ghosting me. If that’s what it is, then I will just have to deal with it. For now though, I’m just heart broken.",2.5885809906291826,5.2187565060241,3.0765461847389592,89.43107095046857,80.32530120481928,7.062382864792503,24.88487282463186,8.167268648758528,1.6512929049531455,342,13,68,7,9,106,60,83,0.077,0.8059999999999999,0.11699999999999999,0.5187,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,0,6,3,2,0,0,14,9,6,1,1,6,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,7,5,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,8,2,9,6,1,10,0,0,0,1,11,2,0,3,8,44,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253195699615145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22976501513384584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29023154135172713,0.2319801221571885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350923143268861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1895844643685294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17384568425358818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5332866536686705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19869197136066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030844178102743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048447966563277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18812224047093015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808581730308702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22107565430788512,0.0,0.1312077944515058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18049310047980788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512207109264151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,greenbennet2,2020/03/05,im in a storm of negative moods i hope its not for days,-3.4635714285714267,-1.968015928571429,0.6257142857142846,103.04428571428572,101.14285714285714,5.6571428571428575,14.142857142857142,7.1686216300943375,-0.4324571428571429,43,1,13,1,2,16,13,14,0.237,0.5770000000000001,0.18600000000000005,-0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4023520543141136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6196552527122449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6738992448247263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,esotericspeech,2020/03/06,"How did your schizophrenia begin? How did it start, what were the symptoms, did you know it was going to happen?",1.807142857142857,4.611817333333338,1.7495238095238117,94.98714285714287,89.95238095238096,2.8000000000000003,16.523809523809526,3.1291,-0.9607904761904762,88,2,16,0,3,26,17,21,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,2,0,3,10,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,2,0,1,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3287627335074718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5115467374377372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3179167236559481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4094501480322493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6012607866556231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ioannadimak,2020/03/06,"I need help feeling sympathy towards you Hello everyone, 

My mother suffers from schizophrenia and this is what brings me here. 

She has been on treatment for more than 10 years but since this September, she has had 2 separate hospitalizations against her will, as she decides to discontinue her medication. The initiating stressful event was a trip I arranged for her. 

She now decided once again to stop taking the meds (everytime she's hiding it very carefully) and she's starting to have again paranoid thoughts etc. 

The thing is, taking care of all this stuff for her (police, doctors) just to see her ruining it after 15 days is amazingly hurtful for me and the rest of my family. 

In addition, she gets really mean each time. Last thing she said, is that she wants to visit me and my long distance boyfriend abroad asap, cause noone can stand me for very long and he's gonna dump me before Christmas. 

I find it harder and harder to believe that it's just the disease who's making her an asshole each time. She chooses each time to go back to this state where everyone is a spy and she's Helen of Troy and doesn't take into account anyone of us. 

I find it harder and harder to feel empathy for such a person. I've been more like a mother to her my whole life, than she's been to me. 

I want to really get into such a mind to see if there's any love and gratitude even for all the things we're going through to get her well again.",5.0812067669172905,6.088882135714287,5.581654135338347,81.2928195488722,68.71428571428571,8.75187969924812,29.02255639097744,8.99025400887824,2.2663928571428578,1138,40,219,20,19,366,162,280,0.087,0.82,0.09300000000000001,0.1655,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,1,1,0,0,14,11,1,1,12,0,16,4,0,2,2,38,41,13,0,4,4,2,2,1,0,2,3,1,0,1,17,16,0,1,9,0,1,5,1,5,1,0,7,5,37,6,37,32,10,31,0,3,2,1,32,6,0,1,19,155,54,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0817403546703914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08404687419606839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09242664377336196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1022816382001223,0.13542462434476754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451045199984288,0.12347886234242547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07751927691515649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303014376050632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13405515529011053,0.07939119251199106,0.0,0.0,0.2297131564517991,0.0,0.0,0.11331418524851958,0.0,0.1215538094568696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21972187066281704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883991534373741,0.0,0.13662524919612626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08056775578936387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286769525708229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09797932197362268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0849010565763099,0.05872381573780992,0.0,0.0,0.2127470410614534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10848550194142643,0.0,0.08023466191610261,0.0,0.0,0.1309334108002659,0.13351548316750214,0.12108919924027595,0.0,0.0,0.1213680805477481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08912703082897952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280094417302701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10495430263137724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15400683448107322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143380512140789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19156822098765355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09943096534085294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08507842101122064,0.0,0.0,0.10049286845286508,0.1376890860928753,0.0,0.13760063435628592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2711270950796925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395672993164384,0.0,0.0,0.0954256453489139,0.2102693588190052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14458621201704636,0.0,0.0,0.19835574173949416,0.1417945524498998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10807454328916946,0.0,0.0,0.13419938967644093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774050795759611
schizophrenia,Can_You_Hear_That,2020/03/06,"Risperdal and Blurry Vision I’ve just gone up to 2mg risperdal daily and have since had quite a lot of blurry vision, just wanted to know if anyone else has experienced this and if it went away on its own?

Thanks for any feedback.",5.076666666666668,5.788994782608699,5.011739130434783,86.44123188405798,68.56521739130434,7.0028985507246375,24.02898550724637,6.42735559955562,0.6069942028985507,184,4,37,1,3,57,38,46,0.064,0.792,0.14400000000000002,0.5908,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,10,8,5,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,7,5,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,3,0,23,3,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2335657880033141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401564622514516,0.3519171817395141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3226936480999943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28691824488765805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887576118224298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2919989227927624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3653138802586959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2841151334051989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3162134612037577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025826564558232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3183925107796368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,yaniraaaa,2020/03/06,Psychotic episodes? I have schizophrenia so I’m used to hearing voices and hallucinations and having delusional episodes. Lately I haven’t heard anything too severe the occasional whispers and shadows but for the past week I have been dissociating and feeling like I’m going insane. I feel like nothing is real or that God is talking to me. Could this be another psychotic episode?,6.47818181818182,9.483279848484852,6.578787878787877,67.48818181818183,68.69696969696969,8.642424242424243,38.27272727272727,9.2995712137729,4.373745454545455,314,18,44,7,6,100,49,66,0.077,0.7609999999999999,0.162,0.7105,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,9,0,0,1,0,11,17,7,0,1,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,6,5,2,3,13,0,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,5,29,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2643199953586318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20743418992538515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20125938030659046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549108603469439,0.3601612894176027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432586110353775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28410402811135904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28434876004582205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462997821206424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418703626427169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24063172430534285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28691369123878113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2847701759568273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20260632754856087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21770970674515785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20219735510556885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TeraFoxx,2020/03/06,"Auditory hallucinations Is it normal to hear things when falling asleep or waking up, or could all that be attributed to the ""dream"" state or something else? This past week or so I've been having some odd occurrences while falling asleep and while waking up and I'd like to know if I can reasonably doubt this. I feel it's getting harder to doubt, however.

A couple days ago I woke up in the middle of the night and I thought I was hearing music, pretty much the same chord over and over which went away after a little bit. I was also generally confused. However, I feel this could be me still ""dreaming"". 

Just a little while ago I was in the process of waking up from a nap (I would say I was more ""conscious"" here) when I heard what sounded like a young child speaking gibberish outside through my window. I live in a townhouse and my room is on the second floor, so I could have attributed it to neighbors, but I don't know of any children that live here, and that was the only thing I heard, and it passed very quickly.

There are other occurrences too from when I'm falling asleep and my thoughts seem to be much ""louder"" and somewhat harder to control, but that seems somewhat reasonable seeing as how I'm pretty close to being asleep, if not already technically sleeping.

I have believed myself to be schizophrenic for a few weeks now and have shown the symptoms for quite longer than that (besides the hallucinations), but I have not been diagnosed. Any thoughts?",7.052459386281588,7.240747574007223,6.668012184115522,78.091693366426,64.2346570397112,9.235469314079422,33.55798736462094,8.841846274778883,2.7299027075812274,1166,45,213,16,16,364,152,277,0.045,0.917,0.038,0.4515,2,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,0,2,15,5,0,3,16,0,26,11,8,6,1,53,45,30,0,7,12,0,2,2,1,1,3,7,3,2,17,11,0,1,12,3,0,5,3,3,0,1,14,10,22,2,31,22,10,41,0,0,1,0,9,17,0,14,20,161,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21014032525651105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308013866886092,0.09478882157161418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16120964921248448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11136333419806943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13354331696618227,0.0,0.0,0.12940463901370894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13294206762574384,0.2839109485296642,0.13115177634190597,0.0,0.07644238570464956,0.0,0.0,0.12030599233653518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09901704784423472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11986519426053585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06192730946674334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671850424373421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13028255828138866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11581605895502757,0.2375974591783937,0.20932925815615688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17426715487614425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112328724039237,0.11613475243976153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09014780883157016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11315080236224792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411763218759967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126071808273822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437382509982773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09426023448011707,0.0,0.0,0.09445348576663896,0.21581148461899008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11861613077374195,0.0,0.0,0.0912505924428988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09465863392525448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12319860462035373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15749283382860393,0.0,0.0,0.2823000011672148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09780010031167913,0.0,0.0,0.1901560821356047,0.0,0.0,0.10987898830015966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08420068730923218,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Solidsnake2066,2020/03/06,"I’m getting my first ever apartment today. At 24, and with help from my wonderful girlfriend i’m getting my first apartment.

I’m beyond nervous and haven’t slept in nearly 24 hours and have to meet them in less than 4 to sign everything.

It’s a half an hour drive to get there and I’m going to (attempt) to get some sleep and probably stop for some coffee. 

I didn’t really know where else to post this. 

I hope it goes okay",1.9465909090909117,3.82615047727273,3.315909090909092,90.88136363636366,78.31818181818181,6.218181818181819,22.363636363636363,7.1686216300943375,0.6793136363636361,334,10,71,4,8,109,59,88,0.049,0.816,0.134,0.8113,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,3,4,3,0,1,2,1,3,2,2,0,1,14,16,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,6,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,2,0,6,2,15,14,3,18,0,0,0,0,4,8,0,4,7,43,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17895628409757275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19377746186437653,0.0,0.0,0.19253030990886585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36443687754135706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4476918440857795,0.0,0.121748177961476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435895272288854,0.0,0.0,0.21277231778153252,0.4219340814774564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177316584384528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051669401870362,0.0,0.23096921512752155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372370890593545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21437825565849314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17910047673099522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20305887308308676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23231629744585616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,nonotheschizo,2020/03/06,"Jerks in my body before falling asleep? Ever since I've been on Seroquel I've had these weird jerks in my torso and legs that happen as I'm starting to fall asleep and that wake me up. The ones in my leg make me full on kick, they're not just twitches. Anybody know what it could be?",2.075499999999998,3.587035550000003,2.66,97.365,76.83333333333334,4.800000000000002,20.333333333333336,3.1291,-0.5672666666666668,223,5,51,0,5,69,47,60,0.131,0.8690000000000001,0.0,-0.7059,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,1,0,4,7,6,1,1,8,9,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,1,2,0,5,0,8,5,1,11,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,2,30,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315339045885192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4327747407695683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110760957598784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3524293243488025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3445355031245119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141223671665589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2600712231098529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.264013395322517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3222937836795352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2757716987176899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,tamora_of_the_gays_,2020/03/06,"How do I know? Hi, so where do I begin? I'm 19 years old now, and when I was 14 my parents got divorced, something shitty itself, but the worst came after, my mother's (she got custody of me and my sister) alcoholism, negligence and emotional and verbal mistreatment of me and my sister triggered something inside of me. Hallucinations ; delusions;paranoia you name it. All of this, along with ups and downs, a bit after my father took custody at 16 I spent a month in a psych ward, afterwards I began slowly getting better. Until now there isn't any diagnosis, but my symptoms match schizophrenia's. Soooo please help me out guys",5.275565134099615,7.197128146551722,5.915977011494256,75.60450191570885,69.25862068965517,7.914176245210728,28.406130268199234,8.515128840125781,2.2873498084291195,499,18,83,8,9,162,84,116,0.067,0.8270000000000001,0.106,0.5661,1,0,3,0,1,0,20.0,0,1,0,1,7,2,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,2,1,17,14,12,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,10,1,0,1,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,7,0,17,1,14,7,3,20,0,0,0,0,12,6,0,0,12,59,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390177113547799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520921367260754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19780345930614654,0.2441718364379057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25580016889049506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25158022900181864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11684978987925874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3577524755687869,0.0,0.0,0.2214522548957209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14991031270466973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229141851244803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17851819241392372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346868604227145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24834088672286894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24550452206614146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34435897974985386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324617553591136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24848741044374756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14402560392148894
schizophrenia,t0niidk,2020/03/06,"Which meds help decrease your delusions? I think I’m having a psychotic break. 

Which meds seem to have helped you with your symptoms?",3.765000000000001,6.9601155000000015,2.2800000000000007,92.965,81.5,4.866666666666667,24.66666666666667,6.42735559955562,0.8417666666666674,108,4,19,1,3,30,20,24,0.0,0.867,0.133,0.4696,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,2,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,11,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455666497960923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7383853000247531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3025808592591921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3454639099617214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.212971875656788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Objection8,2020/03/06,"Pills for weight loss As you know, anti psychotics causes weight gain. I gained 60 pounds. I'm supposed to see a endocrologist to get a prescribed weight loss pill. Anyone have experience with that? Did it help you? Did it only suppress your appetite or did the weight go down on his own?",2.4010317460317445,5.298731537037039,2.4963492063492083,90.905,85.48148148148148,4.567195767195766,20.67724867724868,6.1826913282559595,0.20890264550264528,229,7,43,2,7,69,43,54,0.115,0.732,0.154,0.5171,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,4,0,2,0,0,3,0,4,6,0,1,0,5,9,2,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,4,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,5,5,0,7,6,1,3,0,2,1,0,5,2,0,1,0,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303205203607022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19146255881536595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18231441138276944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09737532754320603,0.0,0.10592347270472724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12492590544497655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242901633430357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14174961721840326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14851992107074016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.9078375753889482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Flame1213,2020/03/06,"A question for anyone who’s had drug-induced psychosis To give you a little context, I took acid when I was 15 when I was in a really dark place and it put me in psychosis. I’ve been in and out of mental hospitals and was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder. 

Sometimes when I tell someone about it, they immediately reply with “are you sure it was real acid?”

Like this shit is so goddamn annoying I’m not trying to blame the drug for what happened to me but people are so quick to defend it.

Has anyone else dealt with this?",4.091153846153849,5.668803500000003,5.1376923076923084,81.38230769230772,71.69230769230771,7.892307692307693,27.42307692307693,8.472884824447931,1.9877346153846152,420,15,79,7,8,138,70,104,0.09,0.861,0.049,-0.6252,0,0,2,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,1,0,7,4,2,0,4,0,10,3,1,0,1,12,14,9,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,8,7,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,7,2,9,2,15,7,0,12,0,0,0,0,7,6,1,1,5,57,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689891939732986,0.19708384728442715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19522975619921804,0.0,0.0,0.22044813292010987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4461265641199447,0.0,0.16068255400047673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18451828153078104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17009321092094515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09397179855553107,0.19278380539513945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938421242017332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1333502839716141,0.0,0.20096332309108086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933634463736663,0.21547442667275324,0.0,0.0,0.2189347904717851,0.12322342344583286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19744304961089534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16297632463820202,0.0,0.19023766045739904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18128625695983505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16812113393104794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21370634586689471,0.13059205732286872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,MRAGGGAN,2020/03/06,"My friend is currently in inpatient, and it seems there’s a strong possibility of schizophrenia. What can I say to her, to help her believe I’m real/keep her trust? Her (27f) paranoia is extremely high at the moment. She’s expressed some concerns to me about being unable to trust that she’s *really* spoken to her dad on the phone, and when he went for visiting hours, she then told me she was certain it was really him, and how can she trust that it *was* him. 

She *hasn’t* expressed doubts to me about *my* identity, but I’m not sure if she’s saying anything of the like to her mother or father. 

Her father is severely drug addled, and about as good and fatherly/helpful as a bag of wet rocks. Her mother is in Wyoming, and won’t be here until Saturday. 

I’m just trying to maintain her confidence in me, but I’m a little out of my element. 

I’m manic depressive/bipolar, so I have some experience with mental illness, but paranoia was never one of my issues, so I don’t have first hand experience with this. 

I’m working on reassuring her about her facility, the nurses, the procedures (have done inpatient myself), and comforting her when she expresses that she’s scared. 

But the mistrustfulness of things she’s seeing, and not believing, I’m lost. 


I’m just lost, period, honestly. She’s △⃒⃘lways been eccentric and a bit erratic in her behavior, with some mild OCD-like tendencies as well as severe anxiety she refused to recognize. 

I’m scared for my best friend and I want to help in any way I can.",2.8984980430528395,5.2237836541095914,4.681937377690804,80.06986301369865,77.18493150684931,8.554990215264189,26.18199608610568,9.23628265651192,2.5463283757338546,1185,46,222,32,28,401,150,292,0.098,0.7040000000000001,0.198,0.985,1,0,1,0,0,0,50.0,0,0,0,6,14,20,0,3,10,0,21,3,1,1,3,35,37,27,0,2,10,5,2,1,2,1,2,2,0,0,9,14,0,1,1,1,0,2,6,5,1,2,10,5,42,15,39,24,5,25,0,2,1,0,47,11,0,7,12,157,51,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08897639511654883,0.0,0.1000930388066239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10767102897620376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2948260974104858,0.1373096010597373,0.0,0.14284453005194514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13389581274371534,0.0,0.0,0.15173406914173942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2559752905066199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11129332326742912,0.0,0.0,0.2021749285726448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10974325810384558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26309997681101555,0.13824074427440852,0.0,0.0,0.12885207019722475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13656405401108399,0.0,0.11629752968496107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06392232395991101,0.13113709700267534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856569062392009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13185699593669412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091267748748356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08866127607863722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14750361533879958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489257502543455,0.16764024343535788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20810009593971449,0.2619894163804265,0.0,0.10426337022333712,0.11911277035804875,0.0,0.2956262694981503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12331613340377187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08692497427550767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12502422245623349,0.0,0.08883247871275679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07717343639522088,0.10385552878734412,0.0,0.0,0.11764180990544335,0.12129095653716646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09525383669905503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,psychonaut1220,2020/03/06,"Earworm This might be a very dumb question and probably just my OCD, but I sometimes imagine music playing in my head and I know it’s not real and just thoughts. I never have had actual hallucinations, just my inner voice and a little bit of music but this doesn’t happen all the time and from what I hear other people experience it too and it seems to be normal. The music thing happens a decent amount when I’m stoned.I have smoked marijuana and used psychedelics and I occasionally have bad weed highs, but nothing I can’t deal with. When I’m high I sometimes get paranoia, and since I tried acid my highs are more psychedelic and stimulating. Besides this I function perfectly with no symptoms of schizophrenia or psychosis. My question is if I should be super worried about this.",4.976836734693876,7.103266224489801,5.402465986394559,78.14818877551023,70.42857142857143,7.348979591836735,29.93707482993197,8.07648339933343,2.2272136054421767,633,26,109,9,12,202,96,147,0.09699999999999999,0.7859999999999999,0.11599999999999999,0.7065,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,2,7,5,1,0,5,0,13,2,1,2,3,36,23,17,0,3,9,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,10,12,0,0,6,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,2,3,15,3,8,16,4,10,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,6,4,77,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.14655933843878674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12539858070846988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16396361790525296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15483460829118567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14691019218779675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0784657009570559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2656170016769184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541336041476008,0.0,0.16926992162759374,0.0,0.0,0.4760375332167978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08253799774328582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15052527988528291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15932303291715988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11583228064341596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471498573751821,0.14410699348663492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041196835826919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619253207660361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3364841597203455,0.0,0.0,0.17094392625378746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13672319660767646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124234959392748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2970745081660618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1561001915263025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997765421143559,0.0,0.0,0.11923047447351065,0.08757434589539369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10196606472742308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1297120116293271,0.0,0.12391872811376388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15252061855317922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,meraina565,2020/03/06,"Can two schizophrenics be in a healthy relationship? I don’t think I  have ever up until a week ago) that I have met anyone with schizophrenia (well anyone whose admitted it that is). I have had many mentally healthy boyfriends , and , as long as we have this conversation, they usually go fairly well. I’m not aggressive by any means but I am violent towards my own body - I would never hurt anyone else. I met this guy who told me he has moderate to severe bipolar Disorder on the second date. I really like him, we get along very well... but I’m afraid that maybe two people who have mental disorders aren’t the best fit. I’m wondering if anybody has been in a healthy happy relationship with another person with a mental illness.",4.6042490118577115,6.510599253623191,5.463596837944667,78.2361462450593,70.95652173913044,9.076152832674573,29.21212121212121,9.573946990214177,2.8829623188405806,579,23,104,14,11,189,96,138,0.10300000000000001,0.6859999999999999,0.21100000000000002,0.9303,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,2,0,1,1,4,10,2,1,6,0,16,4,1,0,2,18,28,7,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,2,9,7,0,0,4,0,0,1,4,4,3,3,5,0,14,6,14,21,2,15,0,1,0,0,17,6,0,2,9,74,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1154887713687564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08859748502631187,0.13661397546217768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27329248966881803,0.13349119965817113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367248617784954,0.0,0.0,0.1447159859828502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2986331567136474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088354382828074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11784920042171053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06806793389852096,0.0,0.07404331384834667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1290014938280689,0.0,0.13868958000838638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13947155507944575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06365010778945278,0.0,0.0,0.11529710667907002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13208737415070246,0.13088763778228032,0.14191730571267602,0.0,0.0,0.39388643047900695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004829361871898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09032241671453882,0.11375883177074946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08346316985598443,0.0,0.0,0.2797521931745686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1471836656842449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08348062988593043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12449180102748662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545367792164301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434892534439966,0.10749781995387854,0.0,0.0,0.10450584516479837,0.0,0.3514224804650644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412872768355707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09254990838981547,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,c_c-baxter,2020/03/06,"Momentary Lapses Hi- I'm new here and not officially diagnosed with anything yet but worried I may have something related to schizophrenia. I apologize if posts like these aren't typically allowed. 

I'm in my early twenties and, over the past few months, I've noticed some strange thoughts and happenings. I have really paranoid thoughts about people tracking my behavior and have heard voices occasionally. I've had a few days where I truly felt like I wasn't myself or wasn't in my own body. Sometimes I feel like I start a sentence and it goes nowhere or the wrong word comes out. Sometimes it's not even a word but a noise or abrupt stuttering. I've noticed I've had trouble with eye contact. 

I guess the one solace I've had is in the fact that it doesn't seem to last long. It might be semi-intense paranoia and panic or racing thoughts for up to a few hours and then I'll be fine for a little. More commonly, I feel like I'm outside of my body or there's a glass wall separating me and everyone else, but again, it's only temporary and subsides relatively quickly. I have had a few hallucinations and gaps in time but I seem to snap back quickly. I haven't had a major episode of anything intense from what I read here. I was wondering if this was at all common or if it it's not a real common experience for people with schizophrenia or a similar health issue. 

From what I read online, these are relatively common symptoms but it doesn't say anything about duration of these experiences. I haven't had any negative effects on my work. 

I have previously been diagnosed with social anxiety disorder  for which I dont typically take medication and I have an appointment with a psychiatrist soon. Within the past two years or so I have struggled with panic attacks. 

Does anyone have experiences with this or similar? 

Tl;dr - I feel as if I have some schizophrenia or adjacent symptoms but they dont last super long but I've experienced them for about 2 months.",4.9054372413793095,6.716244432000001,5.847236781609192,76.17240000000002,70.01333333333334,9.012413793103446,32.13103448275862,9.494082108488547,3.1758689655172416,1582,72,282,36,29,521,185,375,0.11800000000000001,0.7979999999999999,0.084,-0.9343,1,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,0,0,2,3,15,13,1,3,18,0,33,9,3,2,2,66,52,35,0,4,24,0,4,4,0,2,6,3,0,0,17,20,0,0,11,2,0,1,13,7,0,2,16,9,31,6,35,32,10,42,0,0,1,0,8,13,0,22,31,194,48,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06317889967621369,0.0,0.07107242374528264,0.0,0.0,0.06496165883234395,0.0,0.22935983624010844,0.0,0.0,0.10569337471108008,0.0,0.07143856517277351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20639404735336525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08002982866059577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05991633678302768,0.0,0.0,0.18859417553248206,0.0,0.0,0.1064777078175485,0.0,0.08130219542745543,0.0,0.21776901788153266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07761059170521778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061363181100888085,0.0,0.0,0.08877514982836017,0.0,0.2726381054883763,0.0,0.0,0.1409273784761103,0.13274336050156685,0.08920381255089714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10234584008394136,0.0,0.08215599276929464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09875416110705096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09149316518610902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09696916419733193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514607020798068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18155566258865055,0.09311567955196888,0.0,0.16443681970591725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935924782994071,0.0,0.09855801291097638,0.0,0.0,0.14831250598065462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08972867363618091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2115469673558519,0.0,0.0,0.06295514511685887,0.07065878994244709,0.0,0.21800908291367596,0.0,0.0,0.17737755092575258,0.12881789821519865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0889777506644198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858612060516582,0.1057467547679302,0.05951761760984527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07388215192784507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16915528570807162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09470541812689218,0.0,0.07152316320403608,0.1837717539972789,0.0,0.06575896382335628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09712496028612604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19312869470485927,0.06985334481202067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22126967634338415,0.05417392171988275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09075513618273433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007520099026398,0.06763628246234421,0.09435000588000547,0.0,0.0,0.10157753759400964,0.0,0.05982807117339815
schizophrenia,madara_rider,2020/03/06,"A service to detect delusions Hi guys,   


I'm wondering, say you were having an episode and you were given a service that allows you to anonymously submit a question that is then rated by a community of people with schizophrenia. Do you think this is something that might cause you to reconsider your theories?",6.85409090909091,8.773989272727277,6.936136363636365,69.82420454545455,65.36363636363636,9.136363636363637,35.56818181818181,9.516144504307137,3.8130909090909086,250,12,37,5,4,80,41,55,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,7,0,0,2,0,8,11,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,6,0,6,7,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,0,0,3,1,30,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37000433566271257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35663507755741364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3820943292217919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497036362469911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40348431406321855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2864297934641955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2772843552857723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307889624409337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3906001197109069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,hobgoblin333,2020/03/06,"What’s going on ?! 
I’ve been debating coming on reddit for “help” for a very long time now even debated going anon just to post this I haven’t opened up to anyone in my personal life (doctors, friends,family. Etc) because I’m worried what they’ll think I’m convinced they’ll hear what goes on in my head and exile me from their lives.
I’ve tried to direct them to clues of what I’m going through just to get replies like “oh yeah I get that too” and they explain something that is so far from what I was trying to say so they don’t get it clearly. Some post here, however, I’ve related to. Sorry for the long post.

I’m 19 and have always struggled with mental illness I don’t remember a time I didn’t my family doesn’t believe in mental illness and when I try to talk I’m shut down even by my sister. Everything I’m about to tell you is normal for me but has gotten worse in the past year.(I met with a therapist briefly and was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder at 17 but didn’t follow up and have received further more in-depth psychological evaluation or help)

My head is loud all the time it’s never quiet just quieter than usually on the good days but some days it can get so loud I can’t hear what someone’s saying to me and my physical body goes into auto pilot the best way I can describe it is a deathcore band run by 6 year olds on coke the volume is full blast it’s just hectic noise just LOUD incoherent full blast noise it shuts the rest of my brain down any conversation I am having is put on hold I can’t form sentences I can’t think it’s just loud. I can not sleep it gets too loud 

I’m paranoid to the point of delusions and am in the midst of losing my best friend because of it I’m getting much more distant from everyone lately ( I’ve always been a pretty closed off person but it’s getting much worse) I’m convinced the tone my friends are taking with me are with ill intent and it makes me snarky when I confront them I’m told nothings wrong and they’re tone and actions and communication with me hasn’t changed but I see it I hear it I hear their anger towards me their disgust with me they’re full on distain with me I see it in their eyes the way they look at me everything 

I’m almost positive I’m dead and this life is simply my memories floating through some dimension and each moment each second last an eternity 

I see things. I hear things. This has been happening for years I hear plates being thrown to the floor smashing I see hands poking in and out of my room. Oh my god the people I see when I’m walking or driving they’ll catch my eye but when I look again ... nothing... I don’t know if I’m seeing into another dimension or I’m seeing ghosts or just not seeing where these people ended up in those few seconds but people seem to vanish. I feel people grabbing me sometimes and once I knew their was a bug under my skin I knew it and swore I even saw it crawling around I knew it wasn’t possible but I cut my foot open to get it anyways I never found it but it did stop itching once I cut into my skin to free it 

I am very (especially as of late) destructive. This is the one topic I’m not very comfortable going into detail about because I know it’s crazy I won’t act on it as of now but I’m afraid if the opportunity comes at the right time it’s something that’s just destined to happen I will ruin my life this way I always knew this since I was little I knew what it would be and how it would take over my life and maybe even kill me I know still it’s bound to happen and if it doesn’t if I don’t ruin my life this way I know I’m supposed to I will feel like a failure for not destroying myself which I know how that sounds I fear I’m running out of time to self destruct but everything needs to fall in place perfectly

Often I’m convinced the person in the mirror is a demon out to kill me and no that’s not a metaphor. I mean the mirror is not reflecting me but someone else I don’t know them and they don’t look anything like me once the reflection changed in front of my eyes and I knew if I screamed or cried or told anyone or asked for help they’d only hurt me worse kill me worse so I sat on the bathroom floor for hours waiting for them to tell me I was free to leave 

I’m followed by BAD things when I go for walks or when I’m alone I don’t know what they are I’m thinking they’re things from another dimension coming through to get me and hurt me I feel it I know it I get a lump in my throat because I’m so scared 

I feel doomed honestly I just want to know what’s going on ??? Can anyone here help me talk to me tell me they feel the same thing what this sounds like I know I need to seek professional help but I’m scared to do that because then it’s real and it’s wrong and I’m crazy and no one will love me no one will want me around because my bad things will get to them",1.0709054720789408,3.122569629737612,2.7521319241982525,92.95387180421619,82.05150631681244,5.668090752784631,20.87576624056216,6.844919456158928,0.3235039171712644,3835,113,852,44,104,1263,366,1029,0.166,0.736,0.098,-0.9979,3,1,2,0,0,3,38.0,0,1,20,5,41,46,11,5,33,1,66,27,14,4,5,151,178,69,5,12,41,1,9,4,2,11,12,17,1,5,65,52,1,4,31,1,2,23,29,27,0,5,25,41,129,21,115,139,20,126,2,6,15,1,56,61,0,19,39,531,194,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04380827380216793,0.04531073878941276,0.0,0.0,0.10920794277363363,0.0,0.0,0.02975079972971633,0.09174921890951154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091770890848176,0.0,0.036001674551633264,0.07789171701435163,0.040899381154398604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07305712489646422,0.1600137958278064,0.0,0.0,0.04929010760474053,0.09182368956945308,0.0,0.0,0.04859524302959143,0.0,0.04883831903125325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09256121843841053,0.11305759124108195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04805618911208743,0.05642893261217116,0.0,0.0,0.04440428351247679,0.0,0.0,0.05014010970741526,0.044778924467560134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036546650583660405,0.0,0.03874860192522653,0.0,0.048791665926264376,0.11558312797892298,0.0,0.0,0.04180401553453246,0.1179562595158726,0.0,0.08248527047524103,0.04922975404470844,0.11060396838617333,0.03125427281870263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04796848734979541,0.06760069119967918,0.0,0.2514273419512937,0.0,0.14918128664526908,0.036694560273625054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11606120872640953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979812933554893,0.0,0.2958496117506669,0.0,0.14662006158570665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04308392276598308,0.0,0.09366835417344853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452052596458586,0.0,0.2404328970777589,0.035661249543691084,0.09870148717540188,0.04632384224289485,0.0,0.0,0.1545059561601127,0.08549414733641658,0.04384796107948124,0.0386311419161107,0.07743292327555458,0.11021434870101507,0.048943906734745725,0.0,0.0,0.0394851533841733,0.0,0.029202777106521662,0.0,0.04395172049861035,0.04765545364165639,0.0,0.0,0.08817734352883423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06432105335523698,0.06487861363923603,0.0674838052089433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04286470168967973,0.08395663301870164,0.0,0.04590718451281394,0.13977367530836854,0.08893630265447879,0.033273062992473755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04176334204286892,0.12132010880354845,0.15279965206655458,0.0457083620236656,0.0,0.04135691744669419,0.049320390128252616,0.12569825941814022,0.04450843039938032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043979798268888426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0497959055838476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0495590545140814,0.0373613812312006,0.0,0.06958187359610955,0.0876007018246758,0.0,0.27889811832422434,0.03982741907594887,0.04563971687329862,0.0,0.0,0.036189599968295766,0.0,0.04378056485579338,0.0,0.0741367204051773,0.06736018877898307,0.04326884986262395,0.04897338999186431,0.0,0.0,0.034937983853396866,0.03657609776299252,0.0,0.04573592223096403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06578756143597947,0.0703275296047256,0.11471558394861996,0.0,0.0,0.05079592597406899,0.1743892297138289,0.08409772016584778,0.0,0.0,0.12755188076410573,0.0,0.0,0.08360803106906492,0.0,0.0891080363578128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048183309507161064,0.10829244572391032,0.05160855185559629,0.1389035837529179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04442920253152823,0.1783357515184392,0.062156025956973227,0.09566526145547527,0.0,0.08451870669560485
schizophrenia,agnusdei1015,2020/03/07,"Dear r/schizophrenia Im a London based psychonaut and I do artworks related to dreams and hallucinations. Would anyone be interested to be their visions interpreted? I'd be very happy to hear about your visions and I would like to draw them, would post the pictures too. You can comment here or send me a DM in case you're interested. Thanks <3",2.92173076923077,5.886273538461541,4.098749999999999,80.14812500000002,82.84615384615384,6.9423076923076925,26.586538461538463,8.07648339933343,2.1487307692307684,280,12,50,6,8,91,49,65,0.0,0.6679999999999999,0.332,0.9678,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,2,0,3,6,0,0,3,0,8,0,0,0,0,8,10,4,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,6,6,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,1,1,30,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20814308092200107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31688331256053826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33550426017568497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.321542861389964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14543022626456495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850928299814434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2740615156757539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456151736703041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6343848228388683,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mrsengels96,2020/03/07,"Parents not believing me My mom told me that my dad has a ""hard time believing"" that I still or ever heard voices. I've been diagnosed with schizophrenia for about a year and at one point heard voices all the time including keeping me up at night. With my meds I only hear voices maybe a few times a week now but they are loud and hard to deal with when they do come. It's just infuriating to me that my struggle is being completely ignored. I also have symptoms at least once a day (positive or negative). My parents also chalk up me coming out to them as just me being schizophrenic and ""not well"" at the time when I was being completely serious and had nothing to do with me being not well. Anyone else have annoying people in their life that just don't get it?",5.7988888888888885,5.95511973509934,6.50432671081678,78.3128403237675,66.88079470198676,9.88991905813098,30.02281089036056,9.725611199111238,2.652164974245769,604,20,117,12,9,199,91,151,0.154,0.846,0.0,-0.9667,2,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,4,0,13,6,1,1,7,0,15,4,0,0,2,24,23,12,0,0,9,4,2,0,0,0,4,7,0,0,6,11,0,2,0,0,0,2,5,4,2,1,6,9,20,2,19,13,3,24,0,0,0,0,13,9,0,2,13,94,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2177378747862998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09519035481492508,0.13948873613976775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3067602017413135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23454043270787886,0.2854747057848944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08779728627784426,0.1403515627622377,0.0,0.1381764783077467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11372523261579087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12314396802186772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112611239889148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24390453401479975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15343661401846112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12100507377575935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09615779024461356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13676820058042266,0.0,0.1512178333527509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15944234248525818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12775561950260014,0.0,0.13062739631684922,0.0,0.0,0.14498176516997585,0.09225014737639617,0.10353853959877568,0.0,0.0,0.30232868780582195,0.0,0.0,0.09438045193138137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286937375049127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10871941142072088,0.0,0.0,0.1423202485466496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14149876484331433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31753098199297,0.0,0.0,0.13008500957032645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092011181155318,0.0,0.2448075367599636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08766794791349808
schizophrenia,LelumLand,2020/03/07,Electroshock therapy in schizofrenia. What is your opinion/experience? I read en enthusitic article about shock therapy in schizofrenia: it is safe ( thanks to anastetics and muscle relaxing drugs) and has great results improving patient health and state of mind in 80% of cases. But it has to be repeated every 3 months. What's is your expirience?,7.270344827586207,10.236809482758623,6.430551724137935,69.61962068965519,66.24137931034483,10.157241379310344,39.18620689655173,10.355215969177356,5.112623448275862,282,16,39,8,5,86,44,58,0.039,0.718,0.243,0.9282,0,0,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,0,7,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,8,6,0,6,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,25,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30891439596864384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22443530643636603,0.0,0.0,0.2605692073541004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29368314685111835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2831478025034964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2689662667854781,0.0,0.21262071228920934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2664505043343389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452454587327188,0.6092538734453241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Iva_7,2020/03/07,"My brother has schizophrenia and I don’t know what to do :( Hello everyone,

I have an older brother (26). He has a bordeline personality disorder, he suffers also from depression, health anxiety etc.
Mental health is in our family an Achilles heel. 
Last year in October he started to hear some voices. He was paranoid and convinced, that our neighbours gossips him. Of course me and my parents never heard a word. He hears what someone says on the opposite end of the street. This is impossible. 
Today he told me that he had an appointment with secret police last September and that all of us are in trouble. He thinks that our grandma spited in our food, when we visited her and that she is a member of some evil cult. He also talks about some symbols of evil etc. He also told me that in every room except our bathroom are eavesdroppings... :( I know it sounds funny and irrational, but I don’t know what to do. He talks with me and I just see how sad he is. I once read on this sub that schizophrenia is like living in the worst nightmare. I’m scared that he will hurt himself. He’s my brother and I want him to be ok. 
The problem is that no matter how rationally I talk to him, he has his own reality. When I impeach something what he says, he’s angry that I don’t believe him. He thinks that he is okay. 
He still lives with our parents and he doesn’t do any work. In every work he was, he thought that everyone gossips him and want to harm him (mentally). 
Today I speaked with my parents about him, my father registered it too. I don’t know how to convince him to visit the doctor. I tried it but you know... 
I want to talk about it also with my aunt, because she suffers from schizophrenia too.",2.569126506024098,4.83139318674699,3.8104668674698807,86.22244728915665,77.97590361445782,6.559638554216868,26.037650602409638,7.645422480735847,1.5255132530120483,1326,52,257,20,32,432,156,332,0.184,0.7609999999999999,0.055999999999999994,-0.9934,3,0,1,0,0,0,49.0,8,1,0,2,16,20,3,1,11,2,26,5,1,3,2,43,45,21,0,4,4,8,0,1,1,1,3,8,1,1,22,16,1,0,9,1,0,2,7,15,0,0,7,9,46,5,34,36,8,25,0,5,1,0,73,11,0,3,13,174,68,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3070227583301004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652701320023938,0.0,0.07342493306085819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058508912201627274,0.0,0.0,0.10813732266027674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08266799153849927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11000213805844823,0.09824026034512046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08501036562192141,0.0,0.2140875878669592,0.0,0.0,0.1617356712161267,0.183427244777132,0.0,0.0,0.0904820129388749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11606018062743255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20404588127607515,0.2163543320656264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10274926887496903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2637422703348102,0.1564740770825132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04689129647585797,0.0,0.16950534138073708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19345183672487146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07402619280872617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10221625772213523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31972545340434144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08380659974614198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09184051773069657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09600662179372467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526553274484112,0.09609337267474938,0.0,0.07648414985320018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08132409163840354,0.07389059207236832,0.0,0.0,0.06793559671168252,0.0,0.07665026952976164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3085824369364921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12300104750556895,0.0,0.07619791342296854,0.0,0.0,0.18195686329028893,0.183427244777132,0.0,0.0651645597024539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11545290183940335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16983561900871666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397501098339156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061808390506150286
schizophrenia,theboiinthefridge,2020/03/07,"Medicine Hello 
I am on the medication seroquel, 750mg a day. (200mg morning, 100mg at lunch and 450 at nighttime) 
I don’t feel any sedating effects when taking it and I have a very hard time sleeping. Does anyone else not get sedated by it? I have been taking it for a year, but not at the 750mg dosage. Do you get less sedated over time? 
Best regards",0.3041856925418571,2.621026876712332,2.4445662100456644,91.98304414003044,88.45205479452055,5.436225266362253,23.179604261796044,6.937597516519254,0.8529585996955853,274,11,59,4,9,92,51,73,0.02,0.887,0.09300000000000001,0.7791,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,5,0,6,3,1,1,0,7,11,4,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,5,1,7,10,2,10,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,5,34,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18262825726711807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18778159484468987,0.2751688171151642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2818344473805169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17319732101370858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23501641115945265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22434526687285947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13579070261441245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2806203390529304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2405747014820918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27054335059219964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2687513725487278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4038435203106709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3131959867529113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215880000697636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17294217579044774
schizophrenia,danaspore,2020/03/07,"Here's a story I wrote about my friend who had schizophrenia. He died last year. I don't have schizophrenia but I knew someone who did. This story is about the struggles I saw him go through, his death, and how his family handled the whole thing.

Parts of it may be triggering, I am not sure. So be careful if you are sensitive I guess.

I'm happy to receive feedback about anything I may have portrayed incorrectly, or other suggestions for things I could add or remove. Thank you, and good luck today, brave friends.

[https://medium.com/@sporedana/when-everybody-wants-you-to-die-bab8c60f5d82?source=friends\_link&sk=012da40cc86811613043456c38328b60](https://medium.com/@sporedana/when-everybody-wants-you-to-die-bab8c60f5d82?source=friends_link&sk=012da40cc86811613043456c38328b60)",15.421515151515152,21.298575797979808,6.03717171717172,67.80909090909094,53.64646464646464,6.0242424242424235,26.171717171717173,7.348242739294969,1.4863656565656571,680,17,77,6,11,152,78,99,0.113,0.635,0.251,0.9541,0,0,0,0,0,0,55.0,0,2,0,0,6,10,0,1,3,0,13,0,0,2,1,18,21,8,2,2,5,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,5,1,14,9,7,11,2,6,0,0,1,0,13,0,0,7,3,56,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3766406943694997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14302875824305028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17720832384395024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13877114115263178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.541154214471515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638502369173914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26856647750634616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09877880426261723,0.14578147976656422,0.0,0.0,0.1914685499237564,0.0,0.0,0.18502130935106556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14167630542613985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18821657863708005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472665256800349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18170133043155176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16381150621281726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16001858874590724,0.0,0.0,0.23093995198434866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16474918158043114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940498600808803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11192632766422736
schizophrenia,squeezemyhand,2020/03/07,"Broke up with my girlfriend, feeling like shit I broke up with my girlfriend last night and it feels like there is a huge hole where she once was. I feel like I have no one to turn to for help. She was the one thing that actually mattered to me. Maybe it was for the best, but right now it sure feels like shit.",2.5332307692307694,3.7239297076923066,2.5507692307692302,99.92923076923078,75.0,5.815384615384616,20.69230769230769,5.6839178017228535,-0.4244769230769228,241,5,60,1,5,72,43,65,0.161,0.599,0.24,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,3,10,2,0,3,0,5,2,2,0,1,10,10,2,0,0,1,0,4,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,3,4,8,6,9,7,1,8,0,2,0,0,5,5,2,0,7,39,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.1737061831807465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18680416931733784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36001659326838603,0.5086642454809364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11931229920382727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14509698159729886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3478549653048649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17882889864931004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16704465391043974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18956840317815024,0.2412401740396793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520144053929323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654370046535744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16776662146076513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11825791850784535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1936171884525469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,visionsinmymind,2020/03/07,"Who did you tell about your diagnosis? I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder (bipolar type) a few days ago. It was kind of a shock to me so I told the people closest to me first (my parents, SO, & my best friend). After a couple hours to process, I told some online friends & people in a mental health support group. I’m almost starting to wonder if I was oversharing. People have largely been supportive of me, but I’m afraid I’ve said too much and now people will be afraid of me.",3.6062499999999993,5.4979871250000025,4.4545833333333364,84.49875,73.58333333333334,7.300000000000002,26.583333333333336,8.07648339933343,1.7116083333333334,388,14,74,6,8,125,68,96,0.042,0.865,0.094,0.5811,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,2,0,2,5,9,0,2,5,0,8,3,0,0,0,7,17,5,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,1,3,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,8,1,12,6,11,7,4,9,0,0,0,0,11,2,0,4,7,50,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393027626875974,0.0,0.1573616347963714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3405409107802188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16491777294097115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17388195010654958,0.0,0.10134785412642873,0.0,0.0,0.15950253317534546,0.0,0.0,0.18010592401013112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13367052904391485,0.0,0.0,0.2428252555347151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16704162590077318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15475972759191875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636460966643304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15836883909600571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11552231153312224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17449493628433013,0.0,0.0,0.4357882426779224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494843166329761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11123059637655383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3566607650875081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13735481344836653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30032446634504883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17042096614707727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,princessbunny0,2020/03/07,"If this is allowed, would I be able to get any stories of what got you to the point of realizing you are schizophrenic? I'm curious, if you felt like you lived with it for a long time as a slow build up, or if you felt sort of worried and were aware of changing behaviour on whichever level. If there was one thing that made you start to seriously worry, or maybe it wasn't you who realized?

Thank you.",4.863292682926829,4.982326060975613,5.627951219512196,83.92314634146345,68.87804878048779,9.486829268292682,29.81463414634146,9.3871,2.271226341463415,315,11,69,6,5,103,61,82,0.083,0.828,0.08900000000000001,0.1449,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,8,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,7,1,0,2,0,16,15,8,0,5,6,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,7,2,9,2,12,6,0,8,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,7,5,47,16,0,0.22941115835012296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15600745452190967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24268658670037985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4405413769798358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11985786164155993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834810604407448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11207870396466338,0.0,0.20257425583041772,0.20302165599171249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21707438496063788,0.0,0.0,0.2304743435181605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15545493810548722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2168676968803297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16237839865296896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21121097224761756,0.0,0.0,0.15241057983233822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13377149130962207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4659563343743562,0.0,0.16296710476423884,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,World177,2020/03/07,"Cognitive Damage from avoiding medications. Ask me anything. I thought I would be better off by not starting the medications. However, at this point, I'm starting to believe that I was seriously wrong. I want to just provide an opportunity for others to ask questions if anyone doesn't believe that cognitive damage is going to continue to increasingly become worse.",7.560322580645161,10.264016967741938,8.468580645161293,56.432870967742005,64.80645161290322,10.766451612903225,41.432258064516134,10.793553405168565,5.768441290322581,300,18,38,9,5,101,47,62,0.23600000000000002,0.665,0.099,-0.8658,1,2,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,2,1,7,0,1,2,0,5,2,0,0,0,8,13,1,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,2,5,0,0,2,0,5,2,10,9,1,8,0,2,0,0,3,3,0,2,3,29,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14274932056140946,0.0,0.16800146104566596,0.0,0.3817131217020472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22547220655838904,0.0,0.4600236070029598,0.0,0.18055774522224508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160255017264676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41132763316218895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19299164946966085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286993581530123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890027002183839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16207558184631093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12041540042472625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20805050865623845,0.1450252426256949,0.2232105019557535,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,hthiennguyen,2020/03/07,How to wean myself off 15mg Abilify? So I’d like to wean myself off 15mg Abilify/aripiprazole. I take it daily every morning. I’m in a very stable condition and haven’t experienced any hallucinations (auditory and visual) or delusions for about a year and a half. The psych decided to reduce my dosage from 20mg to 15mg about 3 months ago and I haven’t had any schizophrenia related symptoms. I’m worried the medication has affected my memory and learning abilities which is why I’d like to wean myself off. I’ve read online that it’s a powerful drug but for reasons I’d like to withhold I cannot consult my psych about this. I suppose another way around this is if I ask the psych if I can be prescribed the lowest dose 2mg and then wean myself off from that? Is there any advice anyone can offer me? Anyone else in the same boat same dosage or otherwise? Cheers in advance,4.221512087912089,5.621485217142858,5.775428571428575,77.63210989010992,71.11428571428571,9.041758241758243,28.89010989010989,9.466822959209583,2.679483516483517,703,27,132,16,13,239,100,175,0.039,0.852,0.109,0.8861,2,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,2,7,4,0,0,9,0,11,4,0,3,0,20,15,14,0,2,5,0,0,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,7,7,0,1,3,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,1,14,4,21,13,2,14,0,0,0,0,3,8,0,4,7,80,21,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19350743797691228,0.17553694206309206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40399074503116783,0.20764615651804025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769269390533538,0.20289969927473275,0.0,0.17628396028714555,0.1851263564227863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296457749979164,0.0,0.16542422088169198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668443444400232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29023458690208365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994890447668781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15806142054713662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19807828111920012,0.0,0.0,0.2036023651901068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20582347814584195,0.14888992452729655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16339111040415485,0.0,0.1571827838737328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1786864845039133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20110368791111347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12752140968470968
schizophrenia,soulfulmistgod,2020/03/07,"Am I schizophrenic? I'm a 26 year old woman, been having debilitating auditory hallucinations whenever I'm upright since I was 16 years old that are getting worse! This is almost 24/7, every day, without stopping, for 10 years. It's also accompanied by headaches that get worse with sitting up, and cognitive decline. Nodding or shaking my head makes the 'tinnitus' chime, and makes the headache spike as well. The longer I'm upright, the more likely the headache, which starts at the back of my head and behind my eyes. I have tried 5 different migraine pills and they do not do a thing for any of my symptoms.

I wake up in the morning to ***complete and utter silence***. (I live in a rural area, in a house with very thick walls - my bedroom is just as quiet in the day as it is during the night). 10-30 minutes after I assume the upright position, the ringing starts to gradually come back. Come night time, I literally cannot stand to be in a quiet room because the auditory hallucination that is mimicking tinnitus is THAT loud!

I'm having rapid heart beat and palpitations the longer I'm upright as well.",3.972295957284516,6.394708111111116,5.07633867276888,78.07249427917621,74.16908212560385,7.642918891431477,30.218408339689802,8.532816995589336,2.5934599033816417,877,40,155,17,19,288,123,207,0.043,0.9279999999999999,0.028999999999999998,-0.5913,1,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,0,1,1,6,4,0,1,18,0,16,9,5,2,0,19,29,12,0,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,4,4,2,1,9,10,0,1,1,0,0,3,3,1,2,0,2,6,13,3,25,26,1,33,0,0,1,0,2,12,0,3,17,96,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14220862240401416,0.0,0.0,0.11357023379352202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09657582638582092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21840324863952734,0.0,0.0865717039855283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24466861176826016,0.14890119190309714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18317728762251967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14837661089051568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11965469981882378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14839511448147358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29149900598534784,0.0,0.0,0.1682897769990012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16386752628480694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06938189901764606,0.0,0.1254028291229363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18959371562749933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665450021423553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980440406072834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11747719574810125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20103947064804384,0.0,0.0,0.11873182904395352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1476091178029716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09434919467379063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08281073721561208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09641961815094598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11717816587724622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2553790810306436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13689846451639892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28945310266444224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743611606526277
schizophrenia,iamsufferingalotlmao,2020/03/07,"Prodromal Dissociation Hello r/schizophrenia,

I recently received the ""diagnosis"" of a probably prodromal psychotic illness from a prestigious medical treatment facility. With that said, I do not really understand how they came to that conclusion. I know you guys can't really accurately give me medical advice without knowing my situation, so I ask you guys to share you experiences of the prodromal phase of schizophrenia (or lack thereof) especially in relation to dissociation (and potentially cannabis). I say this because my one and only main ""symptom"" is a severe dissociation from self, which leads an inability to feel any sort of emotion, or pleasure, or any sense of time or surroundings. It is not that I am depressed or any of that, but rather the ""I"" in me has disappeared after about five different panic attack type moments, the first one being the one that instigated it while I was high on weed. ""I"" am not emotionally detached, but rather the ""I"" just doesn't exist to feel anything. This is accompanied by a horrible tenseness/anxiety that reacts well to xanax (but is not psychological in any capacity).

 Did anyone have any experience with dissociation in the prodromal phase. Was there a point in your prodromal phase where you could feel yourself getting closer to schizophrenia. I say this because I feel like the exact opposite of psychosis, and even though my dissociation gets worse, I never feel any sort of psychotic symptom. The doctors were quick to point out my negative symptoms (and lack of positive typical psychotic symptoms) such as depression, but I keep trying to explain to them that though I share many of the symptoms (as explained by words) the underlying mechanism is a shift in consciousness, which I can only explain to them using metaphors that inevitably sets me to fall somewhere in their spectrum of negative symptoms of psychotic illness. They then cite how evidence shows weed can spur on a psychotic illness. (This all began 10 months ago).

I say all this not because I am scared of schizophrenia or this diagnosis (well of course I should theoretically be scared developping it), but rather because I want to make sure the doctors understand that I may not fit into their box. I may sound like I am just trying to defend myself against this scary diagnosis, but I want to stress that I am not. I would be elated to have a full diagnosis and be able to name to what I have, but my objective reality does not allow me to because I simply fit more into the ""depersonalization"" box as opposed to a psychotic illness. Academic literature reflects what I'm saying, that this dissociation almost never manifests into anything else, but is rather in itself a seperate condition.  I don't want to enter an inpatient program with the goal of stopping this from developping into something psychotic when I know that my goal is to reverse whatever I have. This is bad enough, I am being tortured 24/7 for 10 months straight.",12.671411960132891,10.229256096899224,12.013012181616835,52.69965116279073,54.89147286821706,15.4874861572536,48.990033222591364,13.780255336394262,6.869214950166112,2390,126,358,73,21,788,240,516,0.158,0.77,0.07200000000000001,-0.9951,1,0,1,0,0,0,67.0,0,5,6,5,20,17,2,4,26,0,39,15,0,7,6,90,66,30,0,12,29,0,5,2,0,4,15,6,0,3,30,14,0,3,16,1,0,6,16,9,2,5,7,11,54,8,69,49,8,49,0,2,0,0,29,26,0,11,18,283,84,8,0.07368814453503461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07200720200510004,0.0653200940420838,0.0,0.07378803252141238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3006627909478185,0.0,0.056371228875980436,0.0,0.0,0.05152446399359605,0.0,0.12127812863102395,0.0,0.06888846797193501,0.08383090237454466,0.0,0.0,0.061526522730900424,0.2245980447996356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08427960660238595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0588339873523324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269349818234588,0.0,0.0,0.07698842731702937,0.0,0.15084587673128927,0.0644849918582519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061556989302837525,0.16577848889762245,0.0,0.07613955138735558,0.0,0.04867032449594762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441622900032218,0.0,0.0,0.1862946997896172,0.052642825179416194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06267909809789436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07699802830709794,0.07068838277448934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14592569664652918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07785557046113836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06549740862846319,0.0,0.0,0.12149123137497228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07200061057573265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04918740867495542,0.0747082127469056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14846610646611846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1176343478839164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1136656795908664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.149798981403328,0.11208630886771706,0.0,0.08645716061417646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13931822939761765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0794482830071373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09441302456384462,0.0,0.07275815292435163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07009429986812446,0.2343990806392585,0.14754937536063908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0768728055372124,0.08324662882814618,0.0,0.0,0.08282856186960649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05672873374008761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06160658836798294,0.08440952059863002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06945020416090045,0.4595411811511316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14479645574105285,0.0,0.04296814966273969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10005882624488932,0.0,0.0,0.15342391442592973,0.0,0.0636428976061255,0.0,0.0,0.13038953052226698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13250898305478293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07103274176420349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07509451463550881,0.05234594366153647,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,GoSlowImShy,2020/03/08,"How to know if you have schizophrenia  So, I'm 15 and worried that I may have early on-set schizophrenia. But I'm also worried that I'm just confused. So I figured that I should ask. I show some symptoms of schizophrenia. At night while I'm trying to sleep, I'll hear music playing, people moving downstairs when everyone else is asleep, and people I know saying my name from outside my window. I got a white noise machine, and a lot of this stopped, but I would still sometimes hear them. I've also heard a ticking clock coming from the walls of my room, but that might just be my parents grandfather clock that's directly below my room. Sometimes, I'll see shadows that shouldn't be there moving into corners and disappearing. I also have suffered from severe insomnia, but I think that could just be insomnia. I react terribly to criticism, are extremely suspicious of everyone, I hate people looking at me, are unable to cry unless having a panic attack, laughs when bad things happen, I'm extremely forgetful, and have concentration issues. I have been previously diagnosed with depression and anxiety, and I'm currently being medicated for depression with fluoxetine. I've been taking fluoxetine for about a month, but I haven't noticed any results. Any advice would be helpful.",7.315617816091957,8.517457142241383,7.480793103448278,68.97685057471267,63.7844827586207,10.152183908045977,35.72528735632184,10.203070172399654,4.029905977011493,1035,47,158,23,15,335,132,232,0.255,0.708,0.037000000000000005,-0.9953,2,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,1,0,14,11,2,2,6,0,24,7,2,3,0,41,44,23,0,6,10,1,0,0,0,6,5,4,3,0,9,11,0,1,4,2,0,4,2,9,0,0,4,7,21,2,21,28,2,23,0,3,3,0,10,8,0,6,11,110,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11772344177564625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890232568527417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16384962234630315,0.0,0.09216043528441904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11262467256724087,0.1370538235049129,0.0,0.0,0.100588744107237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10377560601466794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09618676037448108,0.0,0.13233238280907764,0.0,0.0,0.2075240049034024,0.12227612619116085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006385534264116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23023153058472234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09635213443179784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653262764722203,0.0,0.0,0.11894075211067832,0.0,0.0,0.27156047118641824,0.0,0.08074956618801052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257410386568613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13241606862241478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10116579260538572,0.0,0.0,0.10242063624584136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12136245093222126,0.0,0.12780131719154805,0.0,0.0,0.09615927239436074,0.2560844656314234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130544246260043,0.0,0.0,0.13715770173032926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14134745178586194,0.13376944192707876,0.0,0.0,0.25055949156492674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958038423710254,0.0,0.0,0.09600025834531248,0.0,0.0,0.13609860387541506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12055859141434205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382989625071643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620876601515976,0.10071964215774933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252161079640462,0.09057964150794473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08003597015167818,0.07719332933648741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08179230047534305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446894914447305,0.0,0.17115911962233135,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,chatooly,2020/03/08,"help does anyone ever feel like there’s this sort of essence that you feel, and a different one, for each month? i can’t really explain. not with words atleast. the only example i can really think of is just feeling like you’re in a painting for a month, and then the whole painting changes. but you’re still in the same place you’ve always been in. i just wish i could go back to certain paintings, really badly. it kind of makes me depressed. i wish i could describe how painful it feels.",2.2114432989690727,4.607747927835057,2.790938144329896,92.32970618556705,80.03092783505154,5.9418556701030925,24.13298969072165,7.1686216300943375,0.9530255670103088,387,14,79,5,10,120,68,97,0.126,0.7140000000000001,0.16,-0.138,1,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,0,7,7,0,0,6,0,6,1,0,2,2,25,16,5,0,4,4,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,6,0,0,1,2,3,0,1,1,4,8,4,10,13,3,11,0,1,0,0,3,4,0,1,8,50,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13861653959789685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164838655697277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1280977175098921,0.1390960069696167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17623053060562574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2660177221652196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14348404828294126,0.0,0.0,0.17405148783568555,0.0,0.0,0.1457843622364552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15069053418984646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3369324019649177,0.238024398358494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09467715077461254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11166201865793986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17347824284989005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16277528756600673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112003707700654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26594170037355025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11288595138312127,0.12669948915894486,0.17726390746312398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17405148783568555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3201661854073774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330392908963666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10674438746296526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18599220751675846,0.3831414259444778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,KinksAreBoring,2020/03/08,"Dragged out of denial and having an episode. Binging on benzos. Wtf should I do? So, this week I snapped back to reality. I got dragged out of denial by this person, the denial of my conditions and illnesses. I got reminded that I am, in fact, ill.

Ironically this caused one of the biggest episode I've ever had. I can't stop hearing their voice ringing in my ears, saying the worst things, stuff they would never tell anyone. I can't stop seeing their face in the crowd, or their figure in the corner of my eyes. 

And of top of this all of my other obsessions, voices, visions and most of all, paranoia, got amplified to the extreme. 

Wtf should I do? I'm unmedicated. My psychiatrist is mia. I'm self medicating with benzos, alcohol and indulging in my ED. I don't wanna go to the hospital and ending up being locked up again.

Any coping strategy you can offer? A word of advise? I'm going insane. I can't take this.",2.1205263157894727,4.578050726256986,4.103204939723612,82.42458688620994,80.84357541899442,6.673448985592472,23.946192296383416,7.85451343220497,1.5414849162011168,716,26,134,13,19,243,107,179,0.165,0.794,0.040999999999999995,-0.9707,0,0,1,0,0,0,31.0,0,1,4,1,4,2,0,1,9,0,15,7,3,1,5,25,26,8,0,4,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,6,0,2,9,9,1,2,1,0,0,2,5,2,0,1,4,8,21,0,26,18,4,23,0,0,2,0,13,13,0,2,8,97,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21009811503210746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13368997241348146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13746238731187935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15116787180772182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20195515136645895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17412303432200552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17782961162667651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234566496520401,0.0,0.4717001117137238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2215745839485202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19804675146420603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15162463091250838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13321649565113136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1716574130372295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15633863368470427,0.0,0.0,0.15665915741625747,0.0,0.20508936046031373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32872107945677026,0.0,0.0,0.2250519353059877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1478134596956963,0.0,0.17183093555822254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13060764484460222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15769503562070875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13965401721990314,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ShindyCool,2020/03/08,"Anyone here who is running a business or is self employed? Serious question. What do you do? Are you doing it on the side or full time? I've read in a book about the experiences of people with schizophrenia that one women preferred to get new clients rather than having to find a new job after a psychotic episode. Also, how do you manage stress? I'm thinking about starting something on the side if I'll begin my masters degree later this year.",4.368016806722686,6.388795952941178,4.8327731092437,82.04176470588239,71.82352941176471,6.26890756302521,29.789915966386555,6.868970318607317,1.780344537815127,356,15,61,3,7,113,67,85,0.062,0.938,0.0,-0.6199,2,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,3,0,1,6,2,0,1,7,0,8,0,0,1,0,10,13,5,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,0,4,0,11,13,1,15,0,0,0,0,7,6,0,4,8,44,9,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20141486031266428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761085620678378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463704775272336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2301983450747669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13158809423914686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499353011587685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4865019759148894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17066898045069578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17461018723235375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821443559364481,0.0,0.2519312955540995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2627481820473013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19389654840733067,0.0,0.0,0.17827002527583674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2885083734070065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16138372892220018,0.0,0.0,0.14686342108791742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621916030936311
schizophrenia,darealvvaldeezy,2020/03/08,"After dating for 4 years, realizing now that my boyfriend is probably a high functioning person with schizophrenia or residual schizophrenia, don't know what to do.. When my boyfriend and I met, he explained that at 26 (he's in his 40s now) he went through a severe depress, basically a paranoid psychosis that lasted for 13 days. He didn't leave his room, except to eat, turned his clothes inside out and stayed there. His parents slowly coaxed him out of the room (""here's 5 dollars, please go buy bread for me today"") and he claims he was going to kill himself until he realized he was being saved by God. They never took him to any mental health professional and he still continues to insist that he is managing and has recovered. At that point he had to drop out of university, and it took him a good 14 years to keep a steady job. His parents have since passed and I am the first person to have lived with him in like 10 years.

In my naivete, I thought cool, he did good job of recovery. There were times when he seemed depressed and I tried to support him but he has constantly been a rambler, to the point where I sometimes become bored or can't keep track of what he's talking about. As time went on I realized he's not great at reading social cues, would often  tell me that when we argue everything is my fault, and is very selective about what he wants and doesn't want to share...almost like he is living in his own reality. We still have managed to have a good time but he is really agitated by criticisms, he sleeps 11-12 hours a day, refuses to exercise and constantly tells me that Christianity and Buddhism have taught him that we are meant to suffer in this life. And when we fight, he becomes vicious. 

Being with him is not always so depressing as what I've just described lol but when he does get into these moods (for lack of a better term) it's very intense. He obviously misses his parents a lot and will often say he can feel their spirit or he will interpret their messages and tell me what they are saying. At first I didn't make a big deal of it because I thought he was just trying to honor his parents and in a way teach me about them since I had never met them but now I see it is very excessive and concerning. He didn't have many close friends but he has kept a job, kept a roof over his head, dealt with his rheumatoid arthritis. I love him but we just went to see my therapist together yesterday and after my boyfriend left the session, my therapist asked me if I'm okay being with someone who is insistent that they have nothing to improve on? How could I raise a child with this man, how could we move onto the next level of our relationship if he lives in an alternate reality where everything is always my fault? I love him but now I see that he needs a lot of help. In his mind though, because he is ""managing"" which I see as putting up barriers such as Buddhism and Feng Shui, he has done enough, he has tried and there is nothing left about him to ""fix."" Can anybody give me insight into how I can help the man I love?",6.269836113549896,6.040577825870649,6.394758072383182,80.8038257243196,65.93200663349917,9.747517315383867,31.99731733489417,9.325443323948027,2.5881852892400743,2411,86,486,40,34,770,280,603,0.09699999999999999,0.794,0.109,0.8242,7,0,0,0,1,0,61.0,7,0,7,4,32,29,4,0,23,3,54,10,2,4,3,94,93,47,1,9,18,4,1,2,1,3,3,2,2,5,24,38,2,6,12,2,2,10,10,12,0,2,25,8,68,16,73,60,6,83,2,5,4,3,103,34,0,10,38,313,92,11,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06808640572159626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11315330270387605,0.0,0.0,0.046238412179554565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06356543221985582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08289731047141105,0.15018858350524186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060135376350270574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14695522768967856,0.0,0.1085757295921323,0.0,0.0,0.08770131454206649,0.07009907181714219,0.17569000779741964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059502214228854614,0.06958171063966681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06957507832477006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07025622191126274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222176702520847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03437992877768645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156717250082136,0.0,0.0,0.05253217815505352,0.0,0.03552418201121374,0.0652262669829383,0.0772853826232926,0.17109101786443587,0.0,0.07496388535695661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06978170259105251,0.07227469343587044,0.0,0.0,0.0911502064211061,0.07183964359755947,0.0,0.0,0.06696062617690897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20242136298262986,0.12087280240997447,0.07522554807647931,0.0,0.03736785396562459,0.05542437750310731,0.0,0.07199607845257934,0.14775187297366912,0.0,0.048026339796114086,0.06643709848801582,0.0,0.18012046860372166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11561253609527868,0.18410235829661312,0.0,0.045386680590313096,0.0689354833027303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06852219758838883,0.0,0.0686547954977363,0.0,0.0,0.07226711239907772,0.0,0.05041686452705097,0.10488269320636656,0.0,0.07231264148554221,0.0,0.0,0.13048460673306886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3019982105191741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11873988863043652,0.0,0.07463725296780974,0.12855306161507948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07330928669413195,0.0,0.0,0.06835298742908491,0.0,0.0,0.06801263632042354,0.0,0.043558848746858524,0.0,0.0,0.0730003634544396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10814349129408277,0.0,0.0,0.2167304117592644,0.0618993988737101,0.0,0.07681413301951802,0.0,0.11249106949389624,0.0,0.06804334073863219,0.06931156100265172,0.05761129561016452,0.0,0.06724803812533832,0.0,0.0,0.07247280877705169,0.10860056958552147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0771590533745617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05465119141293305,0.1782898779939842,0.0,0.0,0.15789309756840866,0.0,0.0,0.06680399175688563,0.1079596568900463,0.11894395762055072,0.0,0.06445058547917965,0.0,0.15108819631118126,0.13849086918856307,0.07395820385614417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16830709718074355,0.08020952426046699,0.053970659756496016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18909401424967973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048301154485789415,0.0,0.0,0.13135817633738334
schizophrenia,Silfurkisi,2020/03/08,Reality Is reality fake and psychosis the reality? I feel like my life is a lie and when I have psychosis I'm getting closer to the truth. Just wondering...,0.8810000000000002,3.3753717666666674,4.449999999999998,73.84500000000001,98.0,7.733333333333332,29.33333333333333,8.238735603445708,3.3365333333333336,123,7,22,4,5,45,22,30,0.1,0.7440000000000001,0.155,0.1779,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,6,7,3,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,1,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,14,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942584380169103,0.41575513226049465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.304052122331116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4110583190400929,0.2843181693870678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6311150334647171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,i-am-donnie-darko,2020/03/08,"Dating people with mental illness Do you guys find it easier to date someone with a disorder or not (assuming you have one as well)? I ask because I've had troubles with it in the past. My ex-boyfriend has borderline personality disorder and our relationship was a fucking rollercoaster. He would call the cops and accuse me of beating him among other things - I'm like half his size btw. He would tear apart my apt when he was on a rage. He would get extremely jealous and wouldn't allow me to look at my phone while we were together (even to talk to family). He would show up at my work or my apt uninvited usually because I didn't respond to him via text or whatever. He thought this was acceptable behavior because he could blame it on his disorder. 

But we had a lot in common and I loved him despite. I'm of course not perfect needless to say. It was just an unhealthy relationship. The perk of it though was having that thing in common..dealing with a disorder. We could relate to each other in that way and have had many of the same experiences like feeling estranged from our family, having severe social anxiety and being involuntarily admitted to the hospital. 

So my question is, should I persue a relationship with someone who also has a disorder or not? I like the commonality but could do without the drama. I really would like to date a schizophrenic because I am. Do you think it's a good idea or what are your experiences?",5.9249816849816845,6.930837780219783,7.052472527472527,71.51336080586081,66.80219780219781,10.60879120879121,33.48168498168498,10.62613485830676,3.8020388278388255,1146,50,203,31,18,387,153,273,0.11599999999999999,0.8079999999999999,0.076,-0.7243,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,5,4,0,3,7,13,3,0,17,0,33,4,0,1,1,50,44,19,0,10,12,0,1,4,0,7,2,1,0,2,15,15,0,0,9,2,0,0,6,4,1,2,11,3,29,9,31,22,3,21,0,0,1,2,37,11,1,8,13,154,44,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07611743964965305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0728143795129438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08898282246089331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2320895619697825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971920113001706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279865297645398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5454371624134968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0628671673392612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18621356860684696,0.17945924782159609,0.0,0.04812715011615112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08699511352577617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08799472077984166,0.04972894654501983,0.0,0.0,0.07983459529087192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0942456752157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10744949748442537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18600551693344253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07992935790464625,0.0,0.0,0.08092078834639231,0.0859059549131385,0.0,0.0,0.09650015201291487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095921609115296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06449814973610878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908625007391951,0.06598758586253936,0.0831097190724989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1066262238652332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060976369848892174,0.0,0.0,0.3065712677786846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07569297297341929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1075291730467953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09702660883126647,0.16129570774537993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0765041169853678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12647009505381965,0.060989125765608464,0.09351635835058617,0.07556430159052048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048301161151647,0.0,0.0,0.07555146669339294,0.0,0.0,0.08558053082586263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09175256810602372,0.0,0.06929401982558221,0.0,0.0,0.3380747132655088,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ArcTangent69,2020/03/08,"I need a little advice as to where I should start Good evening, 

I really dont know where to being bc i feel a little awkward but here goes nothing. So id say around the turn of the year I started kinda vibin with my internal monologue but eventually I kinda realized it was more than just me talking and so i have 3 voices with myself kinda able to discuss with one another. We all range in personalities and habits but also eventually they got a name for themselves which I didnt choose for them per sé if you get what I mean. They usually are pretty active when im very stressed or very like emotional, usually very sad. I don't want to say depressive episode or anxious because im not clinically diagnosed and don't wanna invalidate anyone. I have had severe mental strain the past 2 years or so considering my girlfriend was being very emotionally abusive and it caused me to kinda keep more to myself. Additionally, i feel invalidated by myself because i feel like im faking it but in reality im trying to hide it from everyone as i dont want to worry anyone. Any advice would be appreciated, thank you for your time!",4.812928082191782,6.255036739726028,6.666846461187216,71.64355736301374,69.73059360730593,9.310616438356163,29.66923515981735,9.673873057562805,2.9528194063926936,902,35,160,21,16,314,134,219,0.152,0.7190000000000001,0.129,-0.5096,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,1,3,3,0,11,10,0,3,6,0,16,2,0,1,1,41,31,19,0,7,10,0,3,2,1,2,2,4,0,1,6,10,0,1,7,0,0,0,6,6,0,1,5,7,28,4,24,21,3,16,0,2,0,0,14,7,0,8,11,107,34,0,0.1020565760218228,0.1209203541710501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1994570098602033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08161460697262632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0694019713639522,0.10701521843566952,0.0,0.1152948816552282,0.0,0.1427206617760887,0.0,0.0,0.0908519899100313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12442548297602353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048402163521145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0879011793826302,0.10358527638810174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392190940397188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22959982316991534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06740740594392182,0.0,0.0,0.09751943192733456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548086138809123,0.0729092383018583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05332034874156513,0.0,0.0,0.08560021392565187,0.0816239668902988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4409544603997652,0.0,0.0,0.09071257398461248,0.0,0.0,0.05608762517155296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09971937593497536,0.2045750007967845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11116953019823657,0.0,0.0,0.1028490246671409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07567365796600235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09792603717401534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06915617715733446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09742454975511226,0.0,0.08911186567661045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382822781556553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06538005590756259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623189710071495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152948816552282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444723395811204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11690546301982085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08202920997194997,0.0,0.09395998346747604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05951001019556872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06928971594922456,0.11100824842819904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22480180008716166,0.3368294537891551,0.12039122546475785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10364340689425074,0.0,0.07249806345968866,0.0,0.0,0.13144217780354708
schizophrenia,Hiphophoooray,2020/03/08,"Hallucinations hi everyone, I’m a 23 year old female. I just want to tell someone my story I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia 5 years ago when I was 18. During the 5 years my situation has been on a rollercoaster. But Recently I’ve been getting hallucinations that everyone is staring at me and every picture I look at is staring back at me sometimes I can even hear members of my family calling my name . Sometimes i even hear voices of my family who have passed awayI wake up everyday lonely. I have no friends at my school. And it gets so scary at times.
No one ever believes me in my family but I actually think I’m being possessed by Satan and demons instead of me actually being sick. Because I often feel like I’m not the one talking and something else is talking for me
Because my situation is out of hand.",3.21324894514768,5.5795374556962045,5.321797468354434,75.66898312236289,76.34177215189874,8.010801687763715,30.15358649789029,8.841846274778883,2.908578396624473,650,31,114,15,15,225,97,158,0.077,0.853,0.069,-0.0537,0,2,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,0,4,0,14,4,2,0,1,16,25,8,0,1,4,0,2,1,1,0,2,3,0,0,3,6,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,1,0,2,4,8,22,2,17,19,0,21,2,1,3,0,10,9,0,1,12,80,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.2573637077422241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11689094360583716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10139654630915082,0.0,0.16076815426347155,0.0,0.0,0.14856743286540414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13464957349453985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13384086037259513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101568310741758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17419203812744902,0.11928003109931692,0.11110249858335768,0.2520065616912405,0.0,0.0,0.3729336010580083,0.0,0.06667523544330713,0.09420484767420244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10187907512802154,0.0,0.13778872055522398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2972443455556979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06442289645948371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11073393592312822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13837081890426334,0.0,0.1787111561326187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13020142231984372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13345507913982707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2964450341487567,0.0,0.0,0.11172933847072901,0.10151662078396467,0.2608370019671201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21197723115002712,0.11525639149590805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08449418488502475,0.0,0.0,0.0768919217390987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07777777768890096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2547514682573426
schizophrenia,fuddface2222,2020/03/08,"Hey there, r/schizophrenia. It's me, ya boy. Don't know if I have schizophrenia yet or not, but my doctor alluded to it. I'd like to think I'm not psychotic at all and that everything I perceive makes perfect, logical sense. But that's not where I am and I don't really have anyone to talk to who knows what I'm going through. 

Here's my question: what does schizophrenia look like to you?",2.3000357142857157,4.100739075,3.4696428571428584,90.54250000000002,77.0,7.071428571428572,25.17857142857143,7.957251820313856,1.3308571428571432,306,11,66,5,7,99,53,80,0.0,0.847,0.153,0.9109,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,1,4,3,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,2,18,13,6,0,1,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,7,2,0,0,6,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,9,3,7,13,1,4,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,3,3,42,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22723391356737546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3326313003412618,0.28439261528527804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2920715079894361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18469390065910374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3572015547525245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3175381023351896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729017617148784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21692699943151636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36405252213512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20819082238334055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612070064250371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20823437474301693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Xopossum36,2020/03/08,"Tips for Auditory Hallucinations Hey everyone. I'm new here. Didn't know where else to post this. Hope it's okay.

I was wondering if anyone had any pointers on how to endure a barrage of auditory hallucinations.

I've been incorporating mindfulness elements. But I often avoid outright meditation, as it seems to stress me out enough initially that I exacerbate my symptoms. I know if I push through that discomfort it is likely to be helpful, at least statistically speaking.

I had a bad experience with writing down what I was hearing -- it gave the voices power rather than the intent of removing that power by getting it down on paper.

What's worked for you? What hasn't worked? Maybe we can find some trends and compile a list of helpful tools.

Thank you for taking the time to read this and potentially reply.",4.348265765765767,7.222798736486492,5.6390810810810805,72.20681981981983,75.14864864864866,8.54126126126126,29.461261261261267,9.21078282632365,3.1304499099099097,655,29,109,17,15,218,104,148,0.076,0.8320000000000001,0.092,0.3474,2,1,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,2,0,4,6,8,0,3,6,1,10,1,0,2,0,22,21,7,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,13,5,0,1,5,1,0,2,2,4,0,0,7,3,12,4,22,13,3,12,0,0,0,0,10,7,0,7,3,76,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13589123001735087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397257592002395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16684967553654415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16693229580202953,0.0,0.0,0.2064777738218913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909460969877002,0.0,0.19547205208431528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18264096960726167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10440291007654123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22522289600166634,0.0,0.26788362928207426,0.0,0.0,0.19847624613743287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21964264770937844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09762682807166546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2007560608184001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20177130154357614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19299702734197435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19138187027523426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1998840438208608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819176968624904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22890455203644094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20769984923439236,0.150247266033116,0.0,0.0,0.1839765856051349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11652246074412385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21670707502911288,0.2909571918698461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,the-quintessential-,2020/03/08,What age is too young to be schizophrenic? I’m seeing this shadow out of the corner of my eye and sometime when I look up I see it directly only for a micro second may I be schizophrenic? I’m only going to be sixteen this year.,0.9343750000000028,3.0441320208333345,3.8873333333333338,84.29100000000003,82.95833333333334,6.34,20.016666666666666,7.554174236665415,0.906161666666666,179,5,35,3,5,64,36,48,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,5,3,1,0,0,3,11,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,4,0,7,7,0,8,0,0,4,0,0,3,0,1,4,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107103935629297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31134345752486275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.563956540865024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5908924664505315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36668927806936585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387560846503195
schizophrenia,x9006,2020/03/08,"Not trying to brag maybe my symptoms weaker or maybe I don’t have PS I now have 2 jobs. It’s hard for me to be around people because I feel like they mock me and talk about me subliminally and some times boldly. I really don’t like going out in public or even outside on my front porch. 1 job is already kinda nerve wrecking but I just stopped caring. I just stopped caring if people mock me or talk about me or know about me every where I go. What does caring do? I have caused scenes in public, got in fist fights, cursed people out and plenty of other things because I thought they were out to get me and I still kinda do believe that until I talked to my wife about it openly and she said I’m delusional and I need to see someone. She even threatened to have me committed (jokingly I think 🤔) . But I am going to see a psychiatrist soon and open up to him about things and see where it goes from there. Just making this so that maybe if someone is going through something similar and feel like they are alone trust me you’re not. Just try not to care as much and maybe talk to someone if u feel like you need medications to cope",3.5516501145912898,4.726656311688316,4.267853323147442,88.66631779984723,72.46320346320347,6.820575502928443,23.544945250827602,7.048011613610866,0.6830135472370764,892,23,189,8,17,285,125,231,0.109,0.762,0.129,0.7788,2,1,1,0,1,0,14.0,0,1,3,0,19,14,3,0,1,0,14,2,0,2,1,48,38,22,0,5,16,1,4,4,0,0,2,1,1,0,10,16,0,2,6,1,0,5,5,3,0,0,4,8,33,11,31,33,2,25,0,0,3,0,16,13,0,10,11,126,43,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000391709063386,0.1065905972672853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859864901651924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11776198384660648,0.0,0.0,0.108825007722333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3939239471501377,0.09922558923811063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08452745633131542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12759492123393096,0.0,0.08138210395853099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1465179724532194,0.20701394130396045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050464823579664836,0.0,0.21957962033525225,0.0,0.07725266593727875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08652658541428355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19170337487197026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05308390091376783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18875798200134167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06447525880071607,0.0,0.3881546667356902,0.0,0.0,0.09730529514976864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07100551680900623,0.1432420413224068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008921630374569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061878683558417434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918801832866919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23091162219428904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455237844670252,0.07436048956145537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0771377168241967,0.1615088428464964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10039505835088533,0.0,0.31054482630469216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12834156921495482,0.061891628234132634,0.0,0.07668248401831658,0.056323003067726723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13115793027576012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,XXXchillidog,2020/03/08,"Questions regarding your eventual diagnosis of schizophrenia Hi, 
  
(Just FYI, I do not have schizophrenia. I just have concerns that will be at ease provided that you share your exprience about what I’m asking) 
 

I have battled with loneliness for a few years and last year I was taking Adderall daily (6 months). My Adderall medication caused me to have migraines. The scary part is that it gave me migraines with auras that I still have even after stopping my medication(for 3 months). My experience was having these painful headaches that featured geometric contours, sparkling dots, circular patches of red, squiggly words. Mind you, these have been categorized as migraine aura by my neurologist. My issue is that as I don’t know much of anything about schizophrenia, I’m inclined to believe that these auras may be a start of my eventual descend to schizophrenia. 
  
So my question to you, what were your symptoms in the start that weren’t classified as schizophrenia that now in retrospect make more sense, what symptoms got worse? 
Also, is what I’m describing, what happened to you? How far off? / How close? 

Sincerely, 
Terrified",7.2843177892918805,9.714712906735752,5.996911917098447,74.98465975820382,65.01036269430053,8.877236614853194,37.737132987910186,9.3871,3.934648635578583,913,48,140,18,15,271,118,193,0.10400000000000001,0.8340000000000001,0.063,-0.8492,1,0,0,0,0,0,30.0,0,7,0,0,11,4,1,0,4,0,21,7,0,4,0,19,33,8,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,7,0,0,0,18,4,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,7,1,22,2,23,22,4,17,0,0,1,0,13,6,0,3,11,103,40,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13878180519957867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281061935619674,0.0,0.16223872991151872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19552287172284427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17827586289474995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11462312725289403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16975778036453967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387977212998858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534629829294559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811331917281695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09537437181160713,0.141460229219237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11584090844224695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17482572379011493,0.0,0.0,0.17522836603018466,0.0,0.27703979717521754,0.0,0.1275736418056094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18466136337810168,0.0,0.0,0.18792952199577506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3888144398377412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24566842667268216,0.0,0.13859119541799345,0.14508922821560238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.360754031199012,0.13048229716553353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17685454527382327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22351124867952346
schizophrenia,orphankittie91,2020/03/09,"Applying for disability My partner's mother is schizophrenic but will not take her medication or apply for social security.  So, we are wondering if we can apply for her. Does anyone know if this can be done?",4.019210526315792,6.925143289473687,6.43605263157895,65.83986842105264,76.63157894736842,10.115789473684213,27.921052631578952,10.125756701596842,3.9205052631578963,167,7,26,6,4,59,31,38,0.0,0.9209999999999999,0.079,0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,0,9,10,5,0,2,5,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,3,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,4,0,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764067661794883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3459344685053955,0.4045347286615205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21724954051402215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982286587266574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4029641304525479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29722050657822924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4286919044839239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jalone1111,2020/03/09,"Am i predestined to schizophrenia? I basically read that there is an onset that happens in the 20's or later. Im a 22 year old male. Anyways in my childhood i recall feeling very sad and depressed, i have always had anxiety. Had been good socially. Got into weed addiction at 16 and basically became more depressed, developed social anxiety and loss of social skills. I have never had delusions or have head voices or anything like that. Maybe im just paranoid that im somehow predestined to becoming psychotic/ schizophrenic. I quit weed a couple years ago and since then have been feeling really off mentally. Mild depression and social anxiety. But im not paranoid really, or have any other symptoms i would say. My grandfathers brothers daughter was  schizophrenic and killed herself but other than that no family history. Is this just depression/social anxiety or actually small onsets to  schizophrenia?",6.377142857142857,9.274787210191086,6.896947224749777,65.5888057324841,68.61783439490446,10.345586897179254,36.055050045495896,10.451354775682146,4.994614558689717,740,39,99,23,14,241,99,157,0.16399999999999998,0.7959999999999999,0.039,-0.9390000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,3,5,8,1,0,4,0,15,5,1,0,1,22,19,14,1,1,10,2,2,1,0,1,4,2,0,1,8,7,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,6,0,0,7,4,10,2,10,11,1,14,0,5,0,0,9,6,0,6,9,70,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.11061819572397197,0.12357375709716455,0.0,0.0,0.10048242925611904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943204981318382,0.0,0.0,0.07708533406248419,0.0,0.3468652702160438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09328156334733753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12519176790625253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12542522785194546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928976646065058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10686107075412968,0.0,0.11463145769716633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09507685382127773,0.09066040389901577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10023951319684728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11633500377979507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4897717055903912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12541058894909346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0553795609503583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11388040281391848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11423524820197202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08742641736690898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11894707658912752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12056706908207104,0.11338574453792155,0.0,0.14523631970708198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09014450064500494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376848449412577,0.0,0.0,0.4622048710093168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1178193196199377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352980346645916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08052418873473094,0.0,0.0,0.14599389594788414
schizophrenia,Tyler-the-Seraphim,2020/03/09,"Prolixin made symptoms worse. Last year they put me on prolixin and I was on it for 16 days in the psych unit and I didn’t get better, it actually made me hallucinate more and have stronger delusions. They let me go on a prolixin shot and I was psychotic or partially psychotic the whole time. Has anyone else had problems with foreigner psychiatrists before? It seems like you can’t click with them. It’s just, they know what’s best; then goodbye. Isn’t that some form of abuse?",2.7779347826086958,5.461262663043481,3.6458260869565247,85.31004347826091,79.97826086956522,8.027826086956521,25.50434782608696,8.841846274778883,2.2154139130434785,383,15,75,10,10,122,68,92,0.10099999999999999,0.769,0.13,0.426,0,0,0,0,1,0,10.0,0,1,4,2,1,4,0,0,3,0,9,1,0,2,0,14,15,6,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,6,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,6,1,11,3,8,8,5,11,0,0,1,0,5,4,0,3,6,49,17,1,0.0,0.2590504792902393,0.21335931483521825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15287689194747436,0.22402064247149445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18604497907742792,0.0,0.2294472703509783,0.19336769378699886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14100353206662256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18264413586973696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11422941978722788,0.0,0.12425711044248455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12015782026563596,0.1782192896728693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235723418574724,0.0,0.10681556594656222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4137614455174806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20920720081348834,0.0,0.21979174896365986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19903997835305848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272487735307899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12748967507920114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24410170861466698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22281097385520754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14079581304730324
schizophrenia,ashleo231,2020/03/09,"How do you guys deal with meds making you feel tired and numb? I’m so tired all the time. I feel like I’m just walking through life drugged everyday. I also feel really numb to the point where people are noticing my blunt affect. I’m not entirely sure if I’m experiencing negative symptoms or if my meds are too strong. I was thinking about maybe going down on the one that’s making me tired, but I Get really bad insomnia when I do, and that makes everything worse. Any advice?",4.195714285714286,5.5384846315789495,5.104962406015041,82.63473684210527,71.10526315789474,8.796992481203008,26.203007518797,9.23628265651192,2.0459323308270667,380,12,76,8,7,124,67,95,0.22699999999999998,0.7340000000000001,0.039,-0.9516,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,1,8,6,0,0,3,0,5,9,0,5,2,20,18,10,0,2,6,0,3,1,0,0,9,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,3,0,1,1,4,10,3,6,17,1,9,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,3,4,43,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15174850124428502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12418610202186248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10560315874844428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12966144151143788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16009813184064178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800881792315081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13956547624707225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355592832019177,0.11093987267656254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113310244674958,0.0,0.0882554151990395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15376243724600355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10968657759918396,0.07586730520904697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3109737084070828,0.0,0.15601061347086873,0.0,0.3449864346972366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17679975506793144,0.0,0.0,0.10522915432017264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10765917912924804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14680012497637804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19896669467157674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463598653892955,0.16140673793244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09950415869757356,0.0,0.0,0.09055139112472477,0.5354522455109966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582547263369348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,bansheepony,2020/03/09,"Early Symptoms? Hi everyone, I'm new to reddit and wanted to share what's been on mind about schizophrenia. So, on my father's side if the family, my uncle has schizophrenia, and my dad is bipolar, severe anxiety and severe depression. I was also diagnosed with bipolar. My abusive mother would always tell me I was schizophrenic, even though I was never diagnosed with that. I was curious what the early signs of schizophrenia are. Also, this month I've heard a voice call my name, I also feel like there's a radio in my head. I dont know how to describe it but songs loop endlessly or the same lyrics in a song. I'm a very paranoid person and overthink little scenarios and will actually believe it.",5.016165413533834,6.6876464436090215,5.921812030075191,76.29489849624062,69.52631578947367,8.62827067669173,29.089473684210525,9.120678840339163,2.6859028571428567,559,21,94,11,10,184,90,133,0.10300000000000001,0.857,0.04,-0.7808,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,0,7,0,11,7,1,1,1,20,17,14,0,3,3,3,1,1,0,2,6,4,0,1,6,7,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,5,13,2,11,9,1,11,0,1,0,0,10,6,0,2,6,66,19,0,0.0,0.1949580846620209,0.16057149741256066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3947580429673333,0.13691403591069234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12587593631065858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853850752401494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16801812370247954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.141721761315128,0.33401799427817536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19284468983027966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10867995586807998,0.0,0.0,0.15722912652891685,0.0,0.0,0.15511771850733344,0.0,0.08319854022456151,0.11755047817169086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688699190595228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09042924205481062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08038803173067978,0.16491661225476775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16614283298151256,0.0,0.13133768748201854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12690670515951896,0.15891790673056158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436737327811317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3717764383495183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1710245267669168,0.0,0.0,0.14381896757100507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1616639357017464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357662769404335,0.09705248916787423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11688754710239205,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,darkcrystal1905,2020/03/09,"How do you deal with paranoid delusions and abusive thoughts? I was diagnozed with schizophrenia about a year ago after. I started to display negative symptoms in my early teens while the postive ones gradually manifested in my early twenties. It's difficult for me to feel good about myself and my existence in this world, when I constantly feel like people are watching and waiting for me to disappear. I'm scared to talk to people who are not in my immidiate family because I've had voices telling me for periods of time that it's forbidden for me to speak to other people, and that they don't want me to talk or be seen. I felt like someone was watching me and scolding me everytime I said something out loud. A couple of times I broke down and cried because the voices were so abusive and I couldn't get them to stop. I want to be as invisible as possible so I can be safe and not be a burden to others. While the most overt delusions stopped after being medicated I still have regular feelings of distrust and paranoia.   


 I'm just hoping someone with similar experiences can give advice and share how they deal with the intense paranoia and self esteem issues.",7.231022128556376,7.707438698630142,7.467671232876714,71.52793466807167,63.84018264840182,10.208781173164736,37.850720056199506,10.035473477838034,4.015421215314367,941,46,156,19,13,306,127,219,0.182,0.7340000000000001,0.083,-0.9659,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,3,0,9,11,1,1,7,0,17,2,0,2,0,36,33,21,0,4,4,0,4,2,0,0,2,5,0,1,8,16,0,4,5,0,0,1,5,5,0,1,8,12,26,6,34,19,1,25,0,1,3,0,15,7,0,3,19,118,34,0,0.0,0.3258417910917606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13436825790040438,0.1218898526525686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676434976902813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14859401489428106,0.0,0.0,0.15214662558387027,0.1510427445347053,0.0,0.2835231569622697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13450623842663562,0.12962744098589138,0.0,0.20857992175591056,0.09823357266142216,0.13202632762624694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07184066758112607,0.131907289586566,0.0,0.11533263863880583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365734538534948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14351945590504386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13435595803516165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13852178343004753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0931769212242346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859858824562085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15501618468160874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13079870762595874,0.0,0.13766645536440728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14344766457138833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330150169561305,0.10585803799197174,0.0,0.0,0.0973267201685052,0.0,0.10981164064877837,0.2299206113745923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14292030571330516,0.0,0.22104256047160545,0.12018539797296535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10916358074567316,0.16036049880058548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16220797898787698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08854868755165153
schizophrenia,WhyIsItAlwaysKenny,2020/03/09,"My mum had schizophrenia. I want to try a psychedelic drug, is there a risk of me becoming schizophrenic? I think my mum's symptoms started at around 15. I want to try DMT so I can come to terms with her death a few years ago. I just don't know if it puts me at risk for developing schizophrenia myself.



Any advice appreciated, thank you",2.0551172707889087,4.4518737014925405,3.4652452025586378,87.26626865671642,80.6417910447761,6.8136460554371014,23.004264392324096,7.957251820313856,1.1784771855010665,266,9,56,5,7,87,51,67,0.122,0.752,0.126,-0.1779,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,2,3,0,4,3,0,0,0,9,11,2,1,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,0,12,1,9,10,2,9,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,4,34,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26019594957755554,0.2360322776403873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18107272192894644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2370367409219617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29407428084189235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2293680166218075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3087886497633531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14633502127892928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676748811723296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18846726726399726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2767564694226497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451456295042889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17061505614182135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3615596854681376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31410587426898395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17146914160653792
schizophrenia,Pulsejitsu,2020/03/09,"People living with Schizophrenia stay strong and live life to the fullest I know how hard it is living with Paranoid Schizophrenia myself. Medicating with drugs and alcohol. But eventually a time comes where you need to take responsibility for your own life and live according to how your higher self wants you to. (or the part of you that you aspire to be) I've been in the mental health community for a long time.  I know its hard especially for a lot of the older folks to achieve even the basics. But find your own little world where you can be who you want to be. No one needs drugs and alcohol to be happy. Find peace within and pursue passions. Achieve little goals. Whatever they may be. Make your world a more beautiful place and try and focus on your health. You got this. 

Peace",3.809565637065639,6.3103085472973,4.0004247104247135,85.21040540540544,75.01351351351352,6.93127413127413,22.05791505791505,7.957251820313856,1.06051583011583,627,17,119,10,14,194,88,148,0.044000000000000004,0.8109999999999999,0.145,0.9602,0,0,4,0,0,0,14.0,0,12,1,4,5,3,0,0,9,0,9,10,0,3,0,27,19,12,0,4,3,0,2,0,0,1,9,0,0,1,5,11,2,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,2,16,3,19,11,5,16,0,0,0,1,15,10,0,3,4,80,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781357249449102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11209423727252013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018156470412056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859486905974886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378703037650877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407570173268972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1385242782801174,0.23313927063271755,0.0,0.0,0.2766411612282475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14303051347883533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838273091054777,0.0,0.2608460183453964,0.4596236315156226,0.11515968603797133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11063065340539753,0.0,0.0,0.08686182829637733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1310908400655175,0.13113898800264767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929773657307336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08817848410226224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14091655608481038,0.0,0.09021476297744163,0.0,0.1359566550580435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13575247436513185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13869973724167928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09784048696199617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15175802664791713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08834875447754523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15350639953021367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Jhonante,2020/03/09,"I’m scare and confused. I been diagnosed with Schizophrenia, and being off meds for a while. I been honestly ok, but is it possible that the psychiatrist was lying about my diagnosis? Do they lie as a placebo. I’m confused. It it a delusion I stop going to my doctor.",1.305439560439563,3.9618450384615396,3.872527472527473,80.5296153846154,89.0,6.817582417582417,26.659340659340657,7.957251820313856,2.33224945054945,210,10,38,5,7,73,39,52,0.258,0.6759999999999999,0.066,-0.8885,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,3,4,1,6,2,0,0,0,7,9,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,3,0,6,2,6,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,30,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3948745273205395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3982061016271464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22110438224039247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4321435254313899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4385920501044937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895039283343787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3252607220051936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,LiveCaregiver7,2020/03/09,i recently cured from schizophrenia but i think its coming back does anybody have any advice idk if i should consider medication but i never used it before i was schizophrenic for about a year and just the other day my friend caught me talking to myself for about a short minute and im afraid it's coming back,3.3520000000000003,5.935842200000002,3.846666666666668,85.295,77.0,6.666666666666668,21.666666666666664,7.793537801064563,1.0931666666666664,252,7,46,4,6,79,47,60,0.028999999999999998,0.893,0.078,0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,3,0,3,2,0,1,1,12,8,5,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,2,0,8,1,6,5,0,10,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,6,33,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25046351637380937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742998333653268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3941736899276969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181012373447853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4415773579877412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16529897751724185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242989223912673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980247475451199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27685917078033223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2582057214582416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976823498802992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530755579838497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2060125576868928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16423332867777124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213698558308028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16505546771999685
schizophrenia,Sarcasaminc,2020/03/09,My face keeps turning into other people's faces I can feel my face turning into other people's faces some of them are terrible people like dictators some of them are people I know and respect. The entities that live with me in my head and around it are watching me reading my mind they keep misconstruing my that's so when they report them to the agency in the sky I have to explain myself but they never believe me. The entities keep saying I'm a transphobic natzi and I'm not they are going to tell the people on the internet these lies about me and then I will be doxxed and murdered. I know all of this makes no sense but I feel like it's real and I'm scared. All I want to do is sleep!! I keep hallucinating shadows people and hearing voices and there are bugs crawling under my skin I just can't take this anymore I need help and I don't know what to do. I'm so very tired.,1.0187179487179492,3.4000906153846167,2.8317582417582443,90.19657509157513,85.15384615384616,5.224908424908425,19.655677655677657,6.655083550727371,0.2806051282051283,700,20,143,8,21,232,98,182,0.129,0.8059999999999999,0.065,-0.9407,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,7,0,7,6,1,1,7,0,14,8,7,1,3,37,36,15,1,2,4,0,3,2,0,1,1,3,0,0,10,13,0,4,6,1,0,1,5,3,0,0,0,7,29,3,17,34,4,12,0,0,1,0,12,8,0,2,5,101,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13019398333597526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11686658355259295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1479070355489622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13275771451046034,0.09378609756591844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0746091624307985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13473063615898814,0.0,0.14796153213694094,0.0,0.0879938783459359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4667489888704335,0.0,0.0,0.2164433318368321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12827306029353666,0.0,0.11592219936914193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08763008241449459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13255486652401166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09734208221715224,0.10125083978370593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5460760338414622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13131502124563388,0.14942480621962692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10439872371625092,0.13143367653807106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13137430363119545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870584241791264,0.0,0.11474406513892214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15088646768083536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2855887857339865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1083193321995642,0.07743204757380164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,seccymark34,2020/03/09,"I don’t know what’s going on inside my head So I’m an f(15). Recently I been thinking about messed up stuff and even lies that I tell myself. And I feel like people can hear me although I know I’m not saying it. I fear wearing headphones because I might say something embarrassing or do something embarrassing . I can’t sleep comfortably since I constantly wake up in the night feeling paranoia or hearing people talking outside of my house. I come up with scenarios of people trying to break in my house. Every time I hear I noise I immediately jump the gun and think about my family member getting hurt. I’ve never went through abuse from my elders, and i don’t know if my relatives have schizophrenia. Or maybe I’m just very self conscious. I fear going to therapy since my mom feels ashamed since I don’t trust talking to her. I’ve especially told her about my constant waking up every night commotion and i feel ignored.",4.613884430176566,6.448562426966294,5.278683788121993,79.86258426966293,70.79775280898878,7.782343499197433,30.130016051364365,8.418075326091056,2.3708285714285715,744,31,133,12,14,240,108,178,0.133,0.7609999999999999,0.106,-0.5962,0,1,2,1,1,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,6,11,0,5,3,0,9,5,5,0,1,26,30,11,0,1,6,1,4,1,0,1,0,5,0,1,4,7,0,1,10,0,0,5,6,8,0,0,3,9,29,3,18,26,0,20,0,1,0,0,13,7,0,5,8,78,33,0,0.0,0.13129701135480307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06755146461124505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0954568427583967,0.0,0.2395021215106933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07319190391302892,0.0,0.18673191928234628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10446600808320326,0.24939414537107235,0.2241244767972488,0.0791658704178769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05789598022728434,0.0,0.12595681957726165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137276031341834,0.0,0.3746878412896105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557300109192913,0.1186291684302709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18270218300707886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05413834636932836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11132801680650856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11755662730358102,0.0,0.1297845530506216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08546694094382414,0.0,0.0,0.20798372274771698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23047437549587954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10941590780172428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17624820838085198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1156036466712499,0.0,0.0,0.275000592544629,0.0,0.11089448614914424,0.0,0.0,0.1706207662271906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12685604145139862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1781369263586091,0.0968567200018499,0.0,0.12672598946782174,0.0,0.0,0.1420108594582181,0.0,0.0,0.06461680118236607,0.0,0.0,0.10588796277395154,0.0,0.07523574243660698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914335326793452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10272611209496156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Fotrodder,2020/03/09,"How do I find pleasure in life. Being diagnosed schizophrenic while in a rehabilitation program really stunted much of my zest in getting your traditional standards for work. im still living with my parents and genuinely, genuinely i feel like im in trouble all the time. so much that i do not want to care, i do not want to try. drug addiction and agoraphobia mostly. I do not desire, therefore i do not require much. been institutionalized thrice two of them were serious, another required. i lack the capability to make true friends and i am okay with this. solitude is not what makes me feel guilty about my lack of motivation. but rather i think i am better off poor and uneducated. i dream of caring for a family and that is just about it. i like bikes and walks. but i do not want to get out of the house. how do i ease my fractured personality back into a normal groove. the meds cant help with this. they do however help me tell the difference between delusion and reality sometimes and keep me evened out. i don't know what to do next in this big gag everyone is talking about. I'm only waiting for another chance to see beyond this plane. i say this because i want to know more about this illness. schizophrenics of reddit. how do i?",3.5117379679144385,5.848325315126054,4.990435446906037,78.55202444614213,75.26050420168067,8.024751718869366,28.04507257448433,8.841846274778883,2.414976470588235,987,41,185,22,22,330,136,238,0.13699999999999998,0.74,0.12300000000000001,0.1563,2,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,1,2,5,14,11,0,0,8,1,20,7,0,7,2,53,39,15,0,9,10,1,2,2,1,0,7,1,0,1,11,14,0,4,7,2,1,1,8,2,0,1,2,4,28,9,34,36,8,17,0,0,1,0,11,11,0,1,7,136,39,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421797588578007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735186928554982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10028683984895323,0.0,0.07950433582952082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11534808860259407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26594882968607075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13237607608949895,0.0,0.13626373697643354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1512486752716774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08614282076920048,0.0,0.0,0.12462427278420013,0.0,0.0,0.1229507107982651,0.0,0.1318910535356318,0.09317384877087433,0.0,0.0,0.11920378775467907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10076408776460756,0.0,0.1362807300081269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17483888394022132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150490035906859,0.0,0.0,0.2817573270895289,0.0,0.0,0.1159254965065738,0.0,0.0,0.143353572945462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09212125764031297,0.12743567577024795,0.0,0.11516544299773265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17411604189903826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448699782998498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28762659746724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13870579155566246,0.0,0.12778634319890236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09919217629499187,0.0,0.0,0.14481873424175312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138798825721835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08355198303597254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10371719420965754,0.0,0.0,0.10392983405005267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12899117176635494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10415556435431332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10482865248265744,0.11399499979295878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08356946164514079,0.0,0.0,0.07605039936583434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08854830561390377,0.0,0.1274038159335341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3077062412406982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09494912182061584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,yxxxzz,2020/03/09,"Do you know... Do you know Ilanthu, or the true identity of Potomac River? I can't speak much on it as there are readers who should not know that I am asking. Do you know about the chosen one? How do we get the chosen one to understand that they are in fact the chosen one? Tell me.",0.02767554479418877,2.215074915254238,1.8971428571428568,96.47322033898304,87.98305084745762,4.727360774818402,16.90314769975787,6.1826913282559595,-0.4264208232445519,216,5,49,2,7,71,41,59,0.0,0.943,0.057,0.5171,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,3,1,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,9,0,0,1,2,12,16,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,1,8,1,6,15,1,2,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,1,0,39,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644183647479436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1477728662950757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6217685616015669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079208446070568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5749816024318101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2472156975048128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944476903032604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,edgarallanandpoe,2020/03/09,"Am I Schizophrenic or Psychic? I (16F) am kinda concerned about my mental health. I see and hear things all the time that other people don’t seem to be able to see (some examples of this are Egyptian gods, shadow men, angels, and other spirit type things). This has been an issue ever since I was like 8 but recently it has gotten much worse. 
I talked to my parents about it and they’re convinced I’m psychic; that I can really talk to angels and demons and other shit. I don’t know what to do. My mom doesn’t want me to see a psychiatrist and instead plans on putting salt lines in my room and giving me weird protection amulets. That feels wrong and I’m scared of being caught up in another delusion. What should I do??",3.2036480186480176,5.030162132867137,3.993164335664337,87.65846445221447,74.52447552447552,6.724708624708625,23.105477855477854,7.492282038375204,0.9318722610722604,567,16,113,7,12,181,95,143,0.133,0.7909999999999999,0.076,-0.9089,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,4,6,1,1,3,0,16,3,1,0,2,19,29,10,0,2,2,2,1,1,0,1,2,1,1,1,14,8,0,1,3,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,4,6,14,2,14,22,3,10,4,0,3,0,7,5,1,4,4,76,28,1,0.1775647122747293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1861920829725243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606174480241203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08978205374874935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703362518858168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18874298584775506,0.20012833574382505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18533142685426435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09758492214779074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08674914927737361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1789434663068881,0.0,0.0,0.20796164496195466,0.0,0.0,0.1305304943795756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971645996141241,0.0,0.0,0.1231010140089825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17850157953871892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11375250148750506,0.0,0.17532373180479324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17777325340151207,0.0,0.4244882589064867,0.16164824519071316,0.0,0.0,0.18226762547652986,0.14688336489676307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28543957938934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2359322096639358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10353941166498523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10473226784269488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18095361158571352,0.0,0.19413913829689852,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,g7820,2020/03/10,"I would like the community opinion on something I'm working on. First of all I'm not trying to sell anything I just want different opinions.

From a 1-10 how understood do you feel from the following sentence

I help people with Schizophrenia gain mental stability within 12 weeks, without the use of invasive treatments so they can live life on their own terms.

Does this sound like an opportunity you would love because it relates to your wants and needs? Or is it too hard to believe? Thanks for your time.",6.896843971631203,7.894253223404256,6.58808510638298,75.73333333333333,64.63829787234043,9.245390070921985,35.87943262411348,9.2995712137729,3.337126241134752,409,19,71,7,6,128,76,94,0.013999999999999999,0.752,0.23399999999999999,0.9664,1,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,4,2,4,4,5,0,0,5,0,5,2,0,2,1,18,16,4,0,5,4,0,2,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,1,1,3,9,5,14,13,3,9,0,0,0,1,8,4,0,3,6,46,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18400774348214252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363074443202123,0.0,0.0,0.2519261003632632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336194818431856,0.0,0.0,0.1956781156543326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130613333761537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19019817562618696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20030602981244566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14987762106957164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579387220269364,0.21848407509130927,0.0,0.1974471837949399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20181211195739787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253411016440401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16580016686284926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1550194521364022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721419418973875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20586530843185916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13038578926458091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15181301888990414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19312280143762853,0.0,0.0,0.2637758740280207,0.0,0.1793623272249203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2155471010794813,0.0,0.16278699772511074,0.0,0.0,0.31768494723091323,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,thatbluewoman,2020/03/10,Tell me about your command hallucinations I know someone who has them and the voices control them very forcefully. Just wondering if the voices have different commands for different people.,8.375999999999998,12.207683266666667,7.583333333333332,58.50500000000002,66.33333333333334,10.666666666666668,40.0,10.504223727775694,5.9510000000000005,158,9,18,5,3,49,26,30,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,6,4,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3592749356050156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6693488755953619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17604381582500114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22207500668235994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27141275822704264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799806706758188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.264304033848488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.347381902397008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TheRealTP2016,2020/03/10,"For those taking Amyloban 3399, what site do you use? Prices vary a lot does that change potency? I see some for 50, some for 90, all for the same container it seems. What website do you use? Or brand or whatever",1.1614285714285693,3.6363189523809534,2.0145714285714327,95.58042857142858,85.66666666666666,6.217142857142857,20.304761904761907,7.554174236665415,0.6528133333333344,164,5,36,3,5,51,33,42,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,2,1,11,7,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,4,7,5,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,6,0,23,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3832118793647112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31700692974497824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30797152326662464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886659064061013,0.32977828883045124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27236649951273073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6257344225006712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,throwaway69050959,2020/03/10,Should I talk to my psychiatrist about this I've stopped taking my meds because I'm convinced I've been faking all my symptoms and that my psychiatrist also knows I'm faking and is only  prescribing me drugs to make money off of me. I think he's into some  kind of dirty money scheme. I'm wary of accusing him of anything but I  feel like it might be worth talking about. Thoughts?,5.071973684210526,5.849434881578951,5.70905263157895,81.20436842105265,68.60526315789474,8.185263157894736,29.673684210526318,8.238735603445708,2.023545263157895,305,11,59,4,5,99,53,76,0.11599999999999999,0.785,0.099,0.191,0,0,1,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,1,1,14,14,4,0,1,1,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,4,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,10,3,10,9,2,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,2,34,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20803311925786855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21407228825921013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15857836175913176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016787310097332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315341294417835,0.18584340266121802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708948087780111,0.14296562893597956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12709080883743545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736448483736754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2889558611763276,0.0,0.0,0.27596644246004165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19784748406567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2174879096939442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27038409785510104,0.19559220495973556,0.41817985906486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16668661127105844,0.0,0.2065213627359567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,chasse89,2020/03/10,"Telling others about delusions I'm going to be seeing a brand new psych soon, which means having to explain my life story and opening up to strangers again. I've always struggled with talking about my delusions because I know that no one else ever believes me (except for very few people I encounter). It frustrates me and I feel like people mock me for telling the truth and it just makes me want to stop talking and pretend I'm ""fine"".

This frustration has made me not talk about my delusions to previous doctors/therapists/psychologists/etc and has hurt my treatment because they believe I'm getting better/non-delusional when I'm very much still experiencing them.

If anyone else experiences this or has tips to make it easier to explain my beliefs/delusions, please share. I know it's better for me to be honest and share what's going on with my life but I hate feeling judged/ignored/misunderstood/etc.",8.633825681969395,8.553475443113776,7.756846307385228,72.4993147039255,61.035928143712574,9.577910844976712,38.9148369926813,8.841846274778883,3.5612014637391876,737,34,120,9,9,228,104,167,0.11900000000000001,0.7759999999999999,0.106,-0.6249,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,2,1,9,13,4,1,2,0,6,2,0,3,2,29,26,10,0,2,6,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,10,9,0,1,7,1,0,2,2,6,0,1,1,4,19,7,19,23,2,12,0,1,1,0,11,3,0,2,8,76,29,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11317268935455248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951025928881308,0.1393601327715638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16582302667489926,0.0,0.0,0.3064773803733192,0.0,0.2405827175798429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2272407644576137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3033781560601314,0.0,0.12303043391510128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13304561089370176,0.0,0.0,0.13754327647938702,0.09716683655634556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07106053679848899,0.0,0.15459724798601054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13428346550389106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14560341418385245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14949702492609787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1921382727574815,0.06644848121206863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286976265823527,0.18157782691413565,0.0,0.0,0.14815669210663604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09998430158260402,0.0,0.0,0.1313610162147666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09216509621027168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18858687340916647,0.0,0.0,0.14930008126247532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10838377218164608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10861917621259737,0.11371193096768832,0.0,0.14218903463050672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32796332908558706,0.23776056606530446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22444791116998816,0.08022326662582975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Plastic-King,2020/03/10,"What to do if your friend has obvious schizophrenia? My friend I known sense high school im the same grade. He would always do these things sense high school, and we graduated 3 years ago. First of all he gets very hyper sometimes I don't know if that is something seperate but theres that. He would legit talk about hearing voices. He yelled at no one in the car and told me the voices are annoying him and he will crash the car. He also always talks about having pschic abilities. Always worried people will abandon him, wants all the attention on him. Actually acts like a child sometimes. Also he may snao at you. One time another one of his friends were talking to me and he got mad slamming stuff saying stuff to us and going away saying we were not his friend. A day later he was talking to us as if nothing haplened. Me amd ankther friend werre telling him we think he has schizophrenia amd he got super defensive saying to stop filling lies in his head. Also his dad has schizophrenia his mom told me years ago. His dad is very fake. He may act so nice to you one day then pretend as if he dosnt know you the next day or may sit there and talk shit about you to your face.",2.5156465758537045,4.848438034334767,2.946277290539282,91.98265161410713,78.52789699570816,5.425564470983392,22.147602164582946,6.498293943080001,0.4033580518753497,934,28,188,8,23,288,129,233,0.139,0.738,0.12300000000000001,-0.6503,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,5,6,0,2,9,14,4,0,8,0,20,3,3,0,3,34,31,19,0,7,7,3,0,1,5,7,0,7,0,1,7,9,0,3,5,1,0,6,3,6,0,5,7,7,28,8,20,17,3,28,0,1,0,0,55,8,1,8,14,112,35,4,0.0,0.0,0.08988173220881691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16329202874772014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22097032958534868,0.2299175926547201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09658070193370033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08653619788165658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17820138370097802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07834493534170686,0.0,0.0,0.35580260436372424,0.0,0.04812134931916925,0.0,0.05234570768310913,0.0,0.14733044761511355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452686863867596,0.0,0.10380965094962767,0.0,0.0,0.1946291449262094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09948980137765706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10123760504435536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04499812019717536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10787290912190092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09795529929497553,0.0,0.0,0.08837776108953528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496524225448088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06385439247431507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2197380950044552,0.0,0.18643147148263484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09454502536990116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07090735367542524,0.182189491802328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07700436555060956,0.0,0.0,0.21087764158980207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3701547683575615,0.08050431202340158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061190835975218114,0.05901751855894699,0.0,0.0,0.05370748797027144,0.0,0.0,0.17602160375684234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22158327640852898,0.0,0.0,0.15199345268101794,0.054326240846923834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0935376588019037,0.0,0.13085828277741207,0.0,0.0,0.11862591116974718
schizophrenia,ThePotatoRepublic,2020/03/10,"Trying to access a psychiatrist Hey, ik this is a bit of a rant, but I’d appreciate it if you could read and give a bit of advice. 
I’ll try to make this as short as possible:

-For about 5 months now I’ve been seeing people that aren’t real. They aren’t that strange, just people who wear weird clothes and either disappear (like in a place that’s really wide and long) or walk further and faster than Usain Bolt. 

-Today I saw my doctor about y’all of this and she’s basically said that I need to tell my parents (17F) about everything so they can financially support me to pay for a psychiatrist. 

-My mum doesn’t want me on medication. No pills for period, no antidepressants, nothing. She tries to fix me up with 5 different vitamins and supplements etc. Shes told me that I should only choose to go to a psychiatrist as a last option (aka only until I’ve tried 43 different supplement combinations for a min of 6 months each is typically how it goes)

-I’m feeling really overwhelmed, concerned and a bit scared at the moment. I don’t know what I can do to be able to get help. I don’t want to be stuck in this situation and basically wait around until it gets worse. 

What do I do??",3.388487674883411,5.02410049367089,5.1574372640461945,80.30332445036645,73.59915611814347,8.871330224294914,24.709971130357538,9.414487439383343,2.053975527426161,935,29,190,23,19,319,147,237,0.114,0.812,0.07400000000000001,-0.8527,5,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,2,2,0,8,5,0,2,11,0,18,5,1,2,0,29,36,18,0,6,5,2,1,1,0,1,4,1,0,0,15,11,0,1,3,1,1,3,7,3,0,0,5,4,21,2,34,27,6,25,0,1,2,0,16,10,0,3,13,118,36,3,0.12769327936760538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124780394731546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11367409118451913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4182239664000744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10195269307832376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668245976200952,0.0,0.13069948226028322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424117606888766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11476248578541892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06456555880201223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13342893624765398,0.12249502910709775,0.07257103335738793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08559011350129839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0701768868726812,0.10408706567956444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06238448626233192,0.0,0.0,0.11300453396716707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08523625553244105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12863754494853089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20384711465255187,0.0,0.0,0.09468294865541156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12252514546000652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19423298607721384,0.0,0.0,0.14178827525693855,0.0,0.0,0.17705288366039418,0.0,0.1334122988100476,0.0,0.0,0.1439549862191907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277278349824924,0.14534290753690904,0.1636071690723558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12146555014533747,0.0,0.12784324891966764,0.0,0.10175501115136952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1435325961478653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14490482019253634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11160955447640312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12103829805723393,0.12201640061101568,0.0,0.3467814187344251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15063360917960295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13013036081764404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,656Wolverine,2020/03/10,"Bored As the snow flies
On a cold and gray Chicago mornin'
A poor little baby child is born
In the ghetto (in the ghetto)

And his mama cries
'Cause if there's one thing that she don't need
It's another hungry mouth to feed
In the ghetto (in the ghetto)

People, don't you understand
The child needs a helping hand
Or he'll grow to be an angry young man some day?
Take a look at you and me
Are we too blind to see
Do we simply turn our heads, and look the other way?

Well, the world turns
And a hungry little boy with a runny nose
Plays in the street as the cold wind blows
In the ghetto (in the ghetto)

And his hunger burns
So he starts to roam the streets at night
And he learns how to steal, and he learns how to fight
In the ghetto (in the ghetto)

Then one night in desperation
A young man breaks away
He buys a gun, steals a car
Tries to run, but he don't get far
And his mama cries

As a crowd gathers 'round an angry young man
Face down on the street with a gun in his hand
In the ghetto (in the ghetto)

And as her young man dies
On a cold and gray Chicago mornin'
Another little baby child is born
In the ghetto (in the ghetto)

And his mama cries (in the ghetto)
(In the ghetto)
(Aah-aah)",2.3781265664160403,3.411198972222227,3.3961236424394308,94.33718045112782,75.15079365079364,5.940183792815372,16.834586466165415,5.750287758089431,-0.6639476190476192,919,9,214,4,19,295,115,252,0.13699999999999998,0.82,0.043,-0.9668,0,0,0,2,1,0,27.0,3,2,0,0,6,6,1,0,36,0,8,9,6,3,0,28,20,23,1,3,3,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,8,4,16,2,0,3,1,2,3,3,4,1,2,0,13,13,2,37,18,1,48,0,0,7,0,30,32,0,3,11,123,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2959258802821461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1325746242348628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14495570707833613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4649980752433024,0.09100230909381347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14644673591295704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07372255726312374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1448164397863744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09458101400201603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4242787012874805,0.0,0.0,0.2369885981717068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20925803054096415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648386269629177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19123544203700815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09782579192588067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11244396976219667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09987622529749014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609486522582127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09374518738535048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09580235636812798,0.3069676828669125,0.0,0.14689731108030898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11200412871352987,0.0,0.0,0.1268720940771674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Aulupus,2020/03/10,"Haven't been on Reddit for 4 months, I feel good. I got to say, I've been so busy .. not with work.. stress.. or any of that.. I've been busy with me, - learning new skills, having fun, and just unwinding my 'baggage'.

I've gotten better mentally, but it was CHALLENGING! Had a few rough times just thinking of what I'm doing, how nothing will feel 'normal'. I think my mindset changed positively from just forgetting about social media.           I'm happy

 and I can finally see that I'm not stuck in some hole, I can live and actually see the world clearer. I needed this break and it was so worth it",2.6964102564102603,4.486200735042736,4.00035042735043,87.22103846153848,75.83760683760684,7.073162393162392,23.66581196581196,7.908726449838941,1.163718632478632,454,14,94,7,10,149,82,117,0.0,0.7959999999999999,0.204,0.973,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,4,7,6,0,1,2,0,12,0,0,1,0,23,25,9,0,2,7,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,7,6,0,0,5,1,1,0,3,1,0,0,9,6,9,5,10,15,2,8,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,2,4,56,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.2087816175853571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14549144137039438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18921892362083864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22632778291591615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21635627852674635,0.0,0.0,0.2343687141325565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794487715679778,0.17111313064814712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2277507865204325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18891930873189994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21560846973482065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17077062420338954,0.0,0.0,0.15863914748915187,0.0,0.2066315514592076,0.0,0.0,0.20962284339920653,0.20528812101637936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1701394109523504,0.0,0.0,0.34097645776856145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21809224059745735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2450758095851657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741774705005537,0.0,0.0,0.12475434039064312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15575611912859014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,le_yike,2020/03/10,"Alternative cure to schizophrenia here It's not exactly a cure because you are giving it to someone else and you have to shatter everything you know about schizophrenia as an illness and think about your condition as something caused by an entity or a psychic parasite if you will. It's kinda like a possession. That's how we are going to treat it from now on. 
I'm creating this post because I believe that it can truly help, I've been witness of this condition called schizophrenia jumping between people myself included, it was always only one person suffering from the symptoms and we were most likely giving it to each other consciously for a while so there was time where we were normal again, completely symptom free but always someone else had it instead, and there's probably a way how to get rid of it for good I just haven't found it yet. So we will focus on this giving it away, to someone else thing. I'm not 100% sure how it works exactly so we will have to try more things, some improvisation on your part might be of an essence as well. The important thing is to remember that it can be given away that someone else can have it instead of you whatever you want to call it and kind of focus on that, maybe even focus on the person you want to give it to as you try to push it from your head while also imagining how you don't have it any more and maybe imagining how the other person already has it instead(some even tried a physical contact as a bridge, it might be easier like that), kind of like focus on the pain/pressure in your head and breathe it out push it out in your throat, clear your mind. Yawning is the point where you want to get as the parasite leaves and enters the body, you want to try a wide open mouth yawns. When you push/yawn it out don't let it come back in. Then at some point you don't want to be thinking about the parasite as it lives in the thought, maybe it's important that the other person should know or think about it with a sincere feeling of wanting to help you. Their willingness and presence might be of an essence here. Anyway it's probably not going to work immediately and you might have to try to do it your own way so don't give up, good signs are yawning(yawn it out and then don't yawn it back in, it will try to open your mouth) and freezing in the back, the parasite might not let go that easily but it might just come down to your imagination or visualisation or even a breathing technique.",7.304037267080747,6.47933379710145,7.1895204968944135,77.92830559006212,64.03105590062111,10.543734989648033,33.605714285714285,9.791249743138472,2.956981018633541,1956,69,386,34,25,624,195,483,0.016,0.8490000000000001,0.135,0.9939,0,0,1,0,0,0,34.0,5,24,1,2,38,15,0,0,27,0,45,14,8,6,4,83,74,41,0,9,13,0,2,4,0,11,6,0,0,4,50,27,0,0,13,0,1,9,10,1,1,1,9,2,33,14,70,47,8,52,0,1,0,0,45,28,0,15,16,293,83,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07208178699681482,0.05223604901429681,0.10870225574354582,0.0,0.0,0.04441955811993503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12273980174278072,0.1506801881938198,0.0,0.0796364262287394,0.0,0.0,0.07359280487844216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07255533436801115,0.0,0.0,0.13339720015390566,0.0,0.0,0.06710120753108988,0.0,0.11253407842606547,0.06848634275666211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182645286094082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12942891075837504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05870503171653061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03302754511918411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07161955413357629,0.0,0.0,0.06825357503119436,0.31330249251899583,0.11136787738057556,0.10957393868855764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1340734790768561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08756468271539601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13604059353171022,0.07179587199481106,0.0,0.0,0.06916400975909459,0.0,0.1335874036504125,0.0,0.12764740044050085,0.0,0.05767839080534521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19686690988771385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41576254779245536,0.0659541609469975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06399932523819117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04426224169459685,0.04967848827089461,0.06950464446397529,0.0,0.0,0.07073474587023515,0.0,0.045284376160259314,0.2281381706487958,0.0,0.0,0.12349624311778483,0.0,0.06255810701475878,0.0,0.14085112215340542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07399435720574686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22138029167463635,0.050286208230046175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061562936413409625,0.1357841197462242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301862907071168,0.12556245891197512,0.0,0.05185645470711159,0.03808837565632889,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26608626564048937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311631037950453,0.10369529336411606,0.0,0.0,0.05873015203171874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09510687255553968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,wasgoodbitch,2020/03/10,"Breathing vision So I have ocd so of course I’m looking for any answer I can get for this. I very often see everything around me pulsating as if it were breathing out slowly moving up and down. My councillor thinks that it’s ok and suspects that I’m not at all psychotic, but I was just staring at my bed and it very vividly looked like it was breathing. I also read that derealization can make it look like things are moving slightly. Should I be concerned? Has anyone else experienced this?",3.3818830409356733,5.782098884210527,4.30140350877193,83.02426900584798,75.94736842105263,6.7485380116959055,26.345029239766077,7.793537801064563,1.6815730994152045,394,15,72,6,9,127,67,95,0.018000000000000002,0.867,0.115,0.8423,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,0,1,10,3,3,1,1,16,19,9,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,11,5,0,0,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,7,9,3,10,14,1,8,0,0,6,0,0,6,0,2,2,52,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16789219155590324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14276916232044207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14679777048937542,0.21511250287395814,0.0,0.1868947270471566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17538132543830082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886841868065012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10968710794317682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20513612927065053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5289004121801824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401392924830943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.446274628136807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21000087712711948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16729823688623874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13947750688015925,0.13452367858136807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3464516786572677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,epilepticdreamer,2020/03/10,"Self-medicate?! To my fellow schizophrenic redditers, do you self-medicate, and if so, what is it that you use and how often?",4.18391304347826,6.4240215217391325,5.312391304347828,77.45815217391308,72.91304347826087,9.817391304347826,28.89130434782609,10.125756701596842,3.4104086956521744,97,4,17,3,2,32,19,23,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,6,3,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7013089806667033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6586558955747877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27265018771459537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,anonoymous3567,2020/03/10,"Muffled voices or noises Tbh I have never really experienced anything out of “reality”, however recently, when I am by myself, I hear very slight muffled voices. I think it is muffled voices at least. It particular becomes apparent when I am by myself and things are quiet. I really have to focus on it to hear it but when I do it seems like I hear whispering but it’s as if it is through a wall or something and I can’t make out anything that is being said. I have never even heard a single word being uttered tbh. If I start reading something on my phone or book it goes away. Also, I do have anxiety and tinnitus. I have taken so many tests on psychosis testing, bipolar testing and I always only come up with 1 or 2 points, resulting in “no real result for being predisposed for said mental illness”. I’m wondering if anyone has any views on this?

Edit: I also forgot to add, I most definitely suffer from dissociation. I have severe anxiety when it comes to hypochondria and I have always been scared of hearing voices, so I don’t know if this is a result of my anxiety latching on to me hearing something once and running off with it?",3.2759954751131204,5.466708669683262,5.485110859728508,75.41834502262445,75.42533936651584,7.677918552036201,28.244570135746606,8.548686976883017,2.5296640723981905,900,38,152,18,20,314,122,221,0.11699999999999999,0.8490000000000001,0.034,-0.9519,2,0,3,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,0,0,9,3,0,1,3,0,23,2,0,4,2,37,42,25,0,4,10,0,0,1,0,0,2,14,0,0,14,13,0,1,4,2,0,3,5,2,0,0,6,16,24,1,29,33,3,25,0,1,1,0,9,14,0,11,9,124,38,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791351661534902,0.1863884904326296,0.0,0.0,0.07616488109678192,0.0,0.2570425916672422,0.0,0.0,0.0783140739419682,0.0,0.1843354320839517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10522912430083343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12369689037277234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929588016052453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0739759542540601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.631169321671808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0615531117954822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05471829014267485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07476189098178758,0.11355197208573847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11287119919999185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17276496922412532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11927797411653647,0.0,0.0851822105479805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10587764794472376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11203183920563496,0.12748226139655755,0.14350209616342186,0.0,0.11058799891070972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130782062464565,0.0,0.1121330703558653,0.0,0.0,0.10196198642960892,0.0,0.1265298489330682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25867274908328725,0.0,0.0,0.07927525940340459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07440883979804537,0.07176605800106008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09241299199992947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12146088162066328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Bedsheet-Walking,2020/03/10,"Rare ""Glitches"" - is your schizophrenia manifesting in strange/unique ways ? I had to stop going to my therapist and psy because they didnt know how to help me/ didnt understand what was going on a while back.

Recently strange things have been happening ontop of what my ""normal"" day to day is. strange  ""Glitches"" ive not seen anywhere else keep happening.   


Glitches being:  
when i write im ""word salading"" but... in text form (words written out of letter sequence or sentence pattern) ... i thought that maybe that would make sense because I write to communicate more than I verbally communicate, but its not sitting right with me.  I verbal salad RARELY in the form that certain words dont mean what they mean. ""i mokie this pizza shipship shape ship...shop"" when i mean to say something like ""I like this pizza shop""

Another strange glitch is... im not ""seeing"" scary things but my brain will .... think... it sees it? For example i could hold the cat and my brain will go into sudden absolute panic terror  because ""thats not a cat, thats the worlds biggest scariest spider"" or ""this envelope is a bomb, quickly you need to open it and put its contents under the fridge""   
My therapist said thats a hallucination... but its not... its like the wires in my head are getting scrambled   
Over all I'm just wondering if anyone else has ""strange"" manifestations of how schizophrenia might effect your day to day life. Something similar to what I described as ""glitches"", but not exactly ""written on the tin"" for how schizophrenia is typically expressed in people.",4.927553763440858,7.302005845878138,4.973140681003585,80.11304435483873,71.1863799283154,7.660752688172043,31.69668458781362,8.472884824447931,2.690599641577061,1217,56,208,21,24,379,160,279,0.07200000000000001,0.861,0.067,-0.3544,0,0,2,0,0,0,68.0,0,3,2,1,8,6,0,2,10,0,21,8,3,5,3,51,45,18,0,5,15,0,0,3,0,4,1,2,0,0,22,7,4,3,9,1,1,4,9,2,0,0,10,5,25,4,28,29,4,34,0,0,3,0,12,16,0,5,15,135,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11925503088130247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07952213328302825,0.11652905263725905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08745077024401803,0.0,0.20798487866910031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2539189025688466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080354886148212,0.0,0.0,0.29338382086502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13328982954070714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19001238357183511,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059418837140435415,0.0,0.19390485452895412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20114079364446616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11671901749437025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07623031642140443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24569420387546714,0.0,0.0,0.10108777956997234,0.0,0.0,0.06250261943737741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08033032996778677,0.16668709502852266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759151549637225,0.0,0.1142563140623048,0.3716534699638111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12064875773946256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432879500275603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11143051427526947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13343676608624674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884553947080121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11432930466432603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122939102286705,0.0,0.0,0.09712415485278954,0.10818255687601792,0.09044206133969264,0.0,0.0,0.18125496930004112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17510866007329495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950827422856898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640968410491377,0.1511133153471329,0.07287310878229619,0.0,0.09028831780647344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839615617640495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09027298197663752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12333451614418407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08078999345235237,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,unviableexistence,2020/03/10,Anyone else ever think that having schizophrenia is that you can dream while being awake? Makes me feel like I can pretend that it doesn't scare me.,5.755714285714286,7.285180285714286,4.19857142857143,89.89642857142859,67.57142857142857,5.6000000000000005,21.142857142857142,3.1291,-0.17705714285714302,120,2,22,0,2,34,24,28,0.046,0.721,0.233,0.6935,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,1,1,4,9,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,8,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,16,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874269346623647,0.4211857380564634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3433929316481125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3718327693966748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20784734222962653,0.2936656628813638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20082610460706232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27438977533438524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4115488195716719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26339452190076884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,naturlbornkillr,2020/03/10,"does anyone else have this strange feeling? i’m 19, i’ve been diagnosed for awhile now, but i get this horrible strange feeling and it worsens everyday. it’s like i’m outside of everything, like everything and everyone is in this realm and i’m right on the outside of it, just looking in and watching. i’m not saying that i feel like an “outsider”, but it almost feels like absolutely nothing is real. it’s like i’m just simply interacting, i cannot ground myself at all. everyday it gets more intense. it feels so uncomfortable feeling not real, not being in reality at fucking all. sometimes i get this feeling of dread that starts in my stomach and just consumes my whole body, it’s like something horrible is about to happen, i can’t walk or talk when it happens i just have to wait it out. it’s really impacting my life, i just blank out in my college classes, i’m just analyzing every little thing through out my days to try to find something, anything to make me feel grounded. does anyone get this feeling or any advice on what i can do to work with it?",3.8622932651321378,5.743207999999999,5.0631713554987225,80.44979539641947,72.86473429951691,7.769138959931799,31.98323387325945,8.4952907291091,2.683466268826371,844,41,155,15,17,279,109,207,0.125,0.742,0.133,-0.6999,0,0,2,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,10,8,1,1,2,0,11,5,2,1,2,39,37,11,0,0,13,0,9,6,0,0,2,1,0,0,21,9,0,1,10,0,0,1,5,2,0,0,1,12,15,6,25,35,4,23,0,0,2,1,3,16,1,3,12,99,36,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11236552572256073,0.0,0.0,0.1151444693784195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07819618878231832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16080540065432658,0.11781940589113167,0.09462581729885963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1277264084457202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07415813200676148,0.0,0.0,0.11671100500928708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20125459147417835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09605821740471857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09688285201252064,0.10987653173343576,0.2066886721467695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5232752049366922,0.16429575270504193,0.0,0.0,0.10509749405441077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063051046107182,0.24030718287637076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20336807235043475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08121984636144751,0.33706571986151673,0.11524878233327256,0.0,0.0,0.09656146048556444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07675578109951213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103346596511947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617643941673075,0.07366463940247292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09819963316834787,0.0,0.09144354728242918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770476789204679,0.1137266622406789,0.0,0.08138952048252852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09242347821783477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07639331408563149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07806970900905877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128380661570729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0837130677973947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,RedAndBlackAdam,2020/03/10,"It’s back (my episodes) I’m 15, I have a stutter, and I’ve had lots of past schizophrenic episodes. I’m so fucking done with this, I was getting better, it took a long time to get this (somewhat) treated, and now I’m finding myself up at 2AM talking to someone who doesn’t give a shit about me, who I believe is in my closet. I’m hearing things now throughout the day again. Will it ever calm down? Does it somewhat go away? I don’t want to  deal with this much longer",2.1412244897959205,3.5633559285714287,3.15484693877551,94.26247448979592,76.44897959183673,5.308163265306123,27.556122448979593,5.148860815047168,0.6530979591836741,363,15,81,1,8,116,69,98,0.062,0.862,0.076,-0.1179,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,1,7,6,2,0,4,0,8,3,1,0,1,10,20,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,10,4,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,4,1,8,3,12,15,4,16,0,0,0,1,6,5,2,3,9,54,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20665330950683908,0.1691304647459109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24781198059765705,0.0,0.1945307665720895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14185164359723326,0.2267621324451771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19248256266419292,0.22508853077246604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989602982455185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2010332766770518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2033432262078998,0.22983297945076386,0.21099919027562009,0.12500449518229972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479032873252424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946516959777959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869963791442767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16169093962939382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099702559185604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.225778840166026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1863656665749983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17679008272454305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14612715921564015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282565031287098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24437614289809126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12973411981233116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,AJelVira,2020/03/10,"Could it be possible my brother has schizophrenia? I don’t know if he is or just antisocial or rude. He is my roommate. I’m sorry if it seems long but now he is 21 and never went to talk to anyone about it and has no interest. To be honest always he was kind of a loner even in elementary I remember because my teachers would always ask my parents if he had a problem. He would never interact with people and when told to he would say no. I remember he would have frequent night terrors as a kid, screaming and pointing to thinns not there, and never remembering them. When he was about 14 he appeared to have hallucinations, but from what I seen only a few a I could count on one hand. He would see animals mext to his bed, and I remember one time he started tripping out looking out the windows thinking something was coming for him. Someone kept yelling his name and saying help him. However it seems as if these stopped and never came back, as far as I have seen. But now he gets paranoid very easily thinking things are watchinf him or listening to him. Speaking of which, i’m his only “friend.” He comes off as akward to anyone else and very stoic. But other times he may laugh for no reason or get a sudden burst of energy like he may jump up and down and whistle for no reason. Paces back and forth sometimes. This is all I would say for now, any ideas?",4.0299442379182135,5.387653137546471,5.052526022304836,82.7944024163569,71.5278810408922,7.6104832713754655,28.31988847583643,8.07648339933343,1.865141115241636,1070,40,207,15,20,351,151,269,0.115,0.768,0.11699999999999999,0.7059,2,0,1,0,1,0,24.0,0,0,1,0,12,10,1,1,7,0,27,1,1,2,5,64,50,31,0,13,14,2,2,1,1,8,0,7,2,1,10,18,0,2,12,0,0,7,10,4,0,2,10,13,20,6,32,28,2,36,0,0,4,0,39,10,0,13,20,143,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15898081045366053,0.0,0.0,0.06496514080224178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13359660691841085,0.09788398145926767,0.0,0.0,0.08930966829661736,0.0,0.0,0.14691665948423155,0.0,0.05823551451106782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10926333436381497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16458498371956687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15254930323446406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07980485642697943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06309808687272099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07380790536748873,0.0,0.09982321526444758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06403318923783173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10784417389310932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09948203772925132,0.052501973573993874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046672185033148884,0.0,0.0,0.08454295025724931,0.08022294915136932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.294721146799361,0.0,0.0,0.089650455203634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294701201731156,0.14531301624600246,0.0,0.0,0.10607715178570933,0.0,0.0,0.06622996711155102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030876445272602,0.10769814990563203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0914113696829457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964459307783044,0.0,0.0,0.43287723137303,0.0,0.0,0.2279130102311109,0.0,0.0,0.07612675831834807,0.17393777051811565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08094408425142352,0.07354531959221969,0.09448374326787304,0.10694042530919552,0.06761815045351684,0.0,0.0,0.07986915856907036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07678512686301472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06346731833361599,0.12242629400120487,0.0,0.0,0.11141113474208976,0.0,0.0,0.09128506729139607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576480643251611,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08855926405148383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4071798084105884,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Xbass540,2020/03/10,"I have strong suspicions about a close friend being schizophrenic. So he is out of his minds that’s for sure, recently I suspect he is mentally ill. He says that he is losing reality all the time. He can’t actually “see”, is how he describes it. He is writing a book on psychoanalysis to self analyse himself. He says he is the only man on the planet that would ever manage to do this. He exposes lots of narcissistic behaviour. He is delusional that he will become a millionaire when the book is published. He still manages to have some social life, but everybody is abandoning him or he does. He smokes enough weed and is absolutely miserable all the time. He doesn’t accept help from anybody and if you try to speak to him he gets aggressive. What should I do?",4.263735632183908,6.283764931034487,5.642500000000003,76.13041666666669,72.10344827586206,9.798850574712645,29.32471264367816,10.125756701596842,3.2803678160919536,605,25,111,18,12,203,93,145,0.11900000000000001,0.7979999999999999,0.083,-0.5407,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,2,6,8,1,1,8,0,20,3,0,1,4,21,22,8,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,3,3,3,0,2,7,4,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,4,8,4,13,18,5,10,0,3,1,0,31,4,0,4,6,71,15,5,0.0,0.0,0.21120471023767134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390302146200333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18939957625998807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236303107719996,0.0,0.0,0.19577355817941908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16721347955747934,0.0,0.1130758763703925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450686390070182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528710910104447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421300966902664,0.0,0.18400126474763848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181107939568158,0.0,0.2185328620793024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16460496304905053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.213698768290504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34422805422999564,0.0,0.0,0.17246689338306825,0.0,0.22578395957107264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206233911452416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17284148268819022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20398295572647976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524044465009028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14694193754037602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15374584477295736,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,RussianImpassivity,2020/03/11,"Schizophrenia “rehabilitation” after years of drug abuse? So I have this old childhood friend who chose the wrong path in life and is now a patient at a criminal mental facility awaiting a murder trial. (I know, 0 to a 100.)


During his teen years he started abusing drugs such as weed, cocaine and speed which probably made his schizophrenia (diagnosed mid to high teens) much worse. He has been in and out of juvenile facilities where his mental issues has gotten worse (he also claimed he never really received any help, they just drugged him up with medications). Now that he is hospitalized again (probably for the rest of his life), not even that he is hospitalized at a “good facility”.  How big of a chance is there that he rehabilitates to his “old self” that I knew him as during our childhood? 



Other diagnosis that he has are following but not limited to aspergers, add/adhd and anti social personality disorder(sociopathy).",10.227009202453988,9.549079760736195,10.092446319018405,58.994865797546026,58.14110429447853,13.0579754601227,39.39340490797546,12.161744961471696,5.005380981595092,743,31,118,20,8,245,109,163,0.113,0.83,0.057,-0.8618,0,0,4,0,1,0,24.0,1,0,1,1,11,4,1,0,8,0,10,7,0,2,1,16,16,10,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,7,0,0,2,9,6,0,1,2,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,4,0,12,2,19,12,2,25,0,0,0,0,24,10,0,0,13,79,21,0,0.0,0.31965339237078483,0.0,0.0,0.1621157292328091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10787425394447868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09173218080525047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13691402586484225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4693007751076317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08909586036445738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1042183552043292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131422371220214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09041624508414682,0.14252235024605822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407937293664618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0741339197152313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19055848494466945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12763945665558718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13589097286233742,0.27188176764990873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09916221663905876,0.0,0.1040381548915108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830959966284977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11778376915653248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29087593733175804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641620679790993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14072330149633222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13750689840082322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09547828768662647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749359269490412,0.0,0.14748482629611132,0.0,0.17373393554600944
schizophrenia,Tight-Relative,2020/03/11,"Was I hallucinating or is this person real? Ok so first things first- no I don’t take any drugs or intoxicating substances, except for my ADHD medication but that isn’t known to cause hallucinations. Now onto what happened- the other day I saw a man with a purple jacket walking in my neighborhood. We’re a little out of the way so it was unusual. First he stopped by my neighbors house and just looked at it, for several minutes. Then I think he might’ve seen me and started walking toward my house. I’m looking at him staring in absolute disbelief while he walks closer and closer, up until the point that he’s on my driveway. I hide behind a wall because at this point the guy is just acting strange and I feel uncomfortable. After a few minutes, I run upstairs and look out the window- but the man is gone. I look in my backyard, every where. He’s no where to be found. It’s just- I don’t know how somebody would get away so quickly, completely out of sight.",2.134285714285713,4.711117349206347,3.7157671957671963,84.45238095238098,81.85714285714286,5.928042328042327,24.87301587301588,7.2636822038024595,1.323292063492063,765,30,144,11,21,253,121,189,0.08199999999999999,0.909,0.009000000000000001,-0.8957,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,3,11,1,0,0,11,1,10,3,0,2,0,27,26,16,0,1,8,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,4,4,10,9,0,1,5,0,0,6,5,0,0,3,6,10,17,1,26,18,1,41,0,0,9,0,11,22,0,2,12,102,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17255650702271155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09764003021938954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348991126715931,0.0,0.0,0.0875256687892247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14749727841513088,0.0,0.0,0.15054198779557193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09259789208282942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16650842144036085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12097321807558692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07259888751712114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36638987563433983,0.0,0.1574291984404779,0.0,0.0,0.07501516686223325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14216780252823588,0.12696823872857005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3313464832183772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07890838414323051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439059213115138,0.0,0.0,0.482287644278173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14464279144295047,0.0,0.15231679260494896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12536942519891758,0.0,0.0,0.2714609829625929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16342665643210616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16220570551119215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1016273985114304,0.0,0.0,0.12004017785507735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1079550725531073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953888624501225,0.09200093233318307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11396794572272935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10199585066437963,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,n177y,2020/03/11,Schizophrenia Simulation on YouTube What's everyone's opinion on it? I feel as if on paper it has the right idea but was executed poorly and also gives off a bad stigma. :/,3.623636363636365,5.919733787878793,5.5060606060606085,75.17909090909096,74.75757575757575,8.036363636363637,29.181818181818183,8.841846274778883,2.7032909090909087,137,6,24,3,3,47,29,33,0.21899999999999997,0.7809999999999999,0.0,-0.8338,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,4,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,5,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,0,17,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3432057398277717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35833760973699164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41008870867233976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21700039094117324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41169734604329306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4844787797382593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36650738900098345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,clancy01,2020/03/11,"Need advice I feel so uncomfortable to explain my symptoms to psychiatrist
I fear they may not take me seriously",5.471499999999999,8.581775149999999,7.190000000000001,61.32500000000002,72.5,10.0,35.0,10.125756701596842,4.6530000000000005,93,5,14,3,2,32,18,20,0.284,0.65,0.066,-0.7226,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,10,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4520801441093952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5205913558969711,0.2339214200316841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3430369102849094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4808533906193879,0.34784284904215473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,fragmenteret-hjort,2020/03/11,"Im such an idiot I hate myself so much for some of the things which i have done in my psychosis. Last night for instance i think i damaged my brain, by covering an Ikea table with aluminum foil an then sleeping underneath it. I left one side open to the rest of my poorly ventialted room and put my head there, but when i woke up i felt brain damaged(still do) and my body was screaming for air. This is the second time ive done something similar to this and it never got better the last time... im terrified all the time and now i have ruined whats left of my life by choosing to sleep under an Ikea table.. Its just too much, everything i do is dangerous and nothing is safe. 

I wont kill myself now, but whats left for me in this life?",3.9517647058823537,4.4012964967320265,4.876346405228759,87.35255882352942,70.9607843137255,7.950065359477126,26.41111111111111,7.908726449838941,1.3379966013071898,576,17,125,7,10,188,92,153,0.184,0.784,0.032,-0.9743,0,0,1,0,0,1,16.0,0,0,0,1,8,9,4,0,9,0,12,8,6,0,2,17,17,10,1,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,1,0,10,7,0,1,3,0,1,1,2,7,0,2,6,2,20,2,18,10,5,24,0,2,0,0,0,12,0,1,11,92,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12348799497702735,0.0,0.15509319113426204,0.0,0.3117379511232341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28577208476805305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254869925672754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13406301322416111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11167179800855144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13785192951891126,0.14329672585500566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016404330048858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15447566252689812,0.0,0.0,0.22762791774488625,0.0,0.0,0.4551127054068087,0.0,0.19724417697041194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2052825914648936,0.0,0.10768830493722037,0.0,0.0,0.1310296958677617,0.0,0.13397506957450095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09461430191130944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14036285927841666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2794539996028334,0.0,0.0,0.10749104214559817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09276141877815056,0.08946680768523756,0.0,0.0,0.2442514162651987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,katoumiwa,2020/03/11,"A few questions and story time ;) This my first post I really haven’t heard about reddit before xD 

So I’m (not )asking if I have schizophrenia, 3 doctors think so and I’m 22 rn I’m just wondering , what are the chances of seeing things ? 

That’s my question but if you wanna read more feel free ;)

Declaimer - I might not make sense xD 

Myself doubts I have the illness because , the voices arnt what they say it is online . Like yeah I fit the check boxes for all the symptoms of schizophrenia but the voices are weird . I remember couple months ago I used to only hear small whispers (always my name) like once a day . I also remember after seeing a professional for anxiety bc I can’t work , they said my anxiety not important so rn I’m taking pills for schizophrenia. That’s how I found out because the last 2 pros never mentioned it but noted it down that they think I have schizophrenia (I was younger like high school )But how they are now compared to months ago .. a lot more often and more louder then before but still mostly not loud enough where I can convince myself I’m ill . The voice I hear tho is always a girl or woman . If you ever listened to an evp that’s what the voices sound like , like some human ghost whispering just around your ear or ears . I don’t know if this means anything but after I saw the last doc and he told me , it really ducked me over bc I started noticing I’m hearing voices from the tap water , each day it got worse , then I started hearing voices from the fan in my room , when listening to music hearing it being mimic , or words being sang longer then the note actually is . But it did all go down after took days tho . Haven’t heard the mimicking in music again since but yeah one thing I know is water hitting the sink when doing dishes just can be so chaotic sometimes even tho I can’t make out anything . But yeah for life rn just taking meds waiting to see the doc again . It is very scary thinking you might have schizophrenia, bc I’m already struggling with anxiety to the point I can’t work . But I shall keep strong thanks for reading :) I think I suffer from disorganized speech Aswell so sorry if my story doesn’t make sense xD good day ❤️",1.9735145967342904,4.470967416279073,2.906457199406237,90.5199925779317,81.81395348837209,5.05492330529441,20.54428500742208,6.356417079543762,0.2677253834735285,1719,49,334,15,47,544,219,430,0.10800000000000001,0.738,0.154,0.9696,0,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,4,4,4,27,14,0,2,23,3,30,11,2,6,4,71,78,38,1,6,26,0,1,5,0,3,6,25,1,3,19,9,3,2,14,3,2,2,12,4,0,2,10,30,42,11,30,61,11,45,0,1,4,0,29,14,0,18,33,212,61,7,0.0,0.0,0.07878739751909583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1431364712771327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08909498405843518,0.06456513008494176,0.13435884633402767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852901216966628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328788914798168,0.07187280273229041,0.07547793953601592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984327167920214,0.0,0.1374020134469016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08933365095153957,0.0,0.20827403464638064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08263745949336541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08342261956319677,0.0,0.05332584564081173,0.07303099033469639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0408229141990193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06867461732974281,0.0,0.08852365208544534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045884541589230166,0.06771813468711856,0.06457253469453951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4549807861226665,0.0,0.0,0.08530278307541765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07176251111055171,0.0,0.0,0.0887415855980624,0.13162241387840726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0570267367762024,0.1972194291577714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06863947671136195,0.0,0.0,0.16167717328598796,0.0,0.0,0.08794596267722526,0.08968030106076634,0.0,0.0,0.17129781373344716,0.0,0.0,0.128886567786035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062269139843367814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0919192969188875,0.0,0.08598197752532627,0.05470929457319045,0.06140391775717347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07632230186206311,0.0,0.07732346518340481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18088721969660426,0.0,0.16151714768878545,0.0,0.10344402726949024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829179422522221,0.0,0.07679911432231347,0.06420508452516076,0.0,0.0817098763720281,0.1930101512304956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06678625351146335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07985068579388148,0.09037815400495673,0.11429173949045054,0.0,0.06447645314832308,0.0,0.0,0.0844035551477133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08391637116816397,0.12140793929232267,0.0,0.0,0.07433152937183528,0.0,0.0,0.10727578563583537,0.2069313343668848,0.0,0.0,0.047078233813241416,0.0,0.0,0.07714740095862722,0.08970147254201194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06973060831268567,0.0,0.06661625383931212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08755553463299749,0.11755459523440873,0.0,0.08227762065277046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SlightlyRacistWalnut,2020/03/11,"Extreme case of schizophrenia? I have a relative who was diagnosed around 6 or 7 years ago with paranoid schizophrenia and every year it seems he goes further and further down hill. He straight up doesn’t live in reality at all. 

No one is sure when the schizophrenia started, he got into drugs pretty hard out of high school but he just isn’t there enough to answer if he started them because he was hearing/seeing things or not.

It’s impossible to talk to him, and he really only ever speaks in weird, fragmented sentences that are hard to follow if you do get a response at all. He once wrote a “business proposal” for some scheme that made zero sense, and even in his writing he would include off topic tangents that line up with a lot of the things he says/shouts all day. 

I don’t have any experience dealing with someone with schizophrenia outside of him, but based on the fact that people on this sub are coherent and can actually write out full thoughts, his case is NOT the norm. 

I guess my question here is, is there any chance of him ever coming back to any semblance of reality, and what goes on in the inside when no one on the outside can interpret?",7.4197832585949195,7.022938896860987,7.002791479820626,77.95497944693572,63.6188340807175,9.585799701046339,35.17526158445441,8.841846274778883,2.888545889387145,926,37,173,12,12,290,136,223,0.051,0.907,0.040999999999999995,-0.2755,1,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,1,0,11,2,0,0,10,0,17,2,0,1,7,44,28,14,0,3,9,0,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,11,15,0,0,5,0,0,2,7,1,0,3,6,3,11,1,34,21,7,36,0,0,0,0,25,23,0,9,11,119,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.14556325231751518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13222552680015934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3043113800224194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13278822817255362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11469846455046245,0.0,0.090929430606099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12849220086387345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09619890620536743,0.15378227954806853,0.0,0.1513990538893145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1729837219427946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15412703303878653,0.0,0.09852189269453897,0.26985606347794033,0.1256777124970084,0.0,0.0,0.14591172149960704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07793241118820357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11930065539028133,0.0,0.1643217592957641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26724458562991577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576007194955737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13171518317865927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12681451326091275,0.0,0.14114326749604655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15885556171904916,0.20215575335231545,0.11344649341419147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034120372950333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15175414891383573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1670986276411074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09555874109510457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15096266313774026,0.0,0.1357939615275545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12638678568754158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21115911728425732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14058598607707584,0.0,0.0,0.11989295403827935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19819682771326516,0.0,0.0,0.11842012815153068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10596233943017323,0.0,0.0,0.19211438202904588
schizophrenia,throwaway00007382828,2020/03/11,"Is she alright? My girlfriend (17f) has schizophrenia but since I (16m) may not be considered the smartest she never goes into detail even when I sit her down to talk about it, she straight up refuses to talk to me about it and when she seems to be good she starts getting nervous talking about it... so I will say some things she does and can I get an explanation of what type of schizophrenic she might be and how I should move accordingly to these factors?

-she has hallucinations about once everyday... ranging from seeing her purse floating in class or seeing a building falling....

-mood swings and violent behaviours like this one time she punched me once as a joke in a soft way, and then her face changed and she got all angry and she just started using all her karate techniques to harm me in anyway possible, I was scared and screaming to stop then had to get on the floor and she just sat down and acted like she didn’t try to kill me rn and was just back to watching the movie

-paranoia as she always thinks I will cheat no matter what I insist

Anyways is she a bipolar schizophrenic or another type?",6.9704929577464805,6.90746394835681,6.345645539906106,81.18213028169016,64.44600938967136,9.353521126760565,33.71244131455399,8.841846274778883,2.628058215962442,883,34,171,12,12,271,133,213,0.17600000000000002,0.728,0.096,-0.975,0,0,0,0,0,1,23.0,0,0,0,0,15,13,3,2,8,1,17,4,1,2,3,33,29,22,1,1,7,0,1,2,1,5,3,3,0,0,8,12,0,2,2,1,0,3,4,7,0,1,6,7,32,5,27,15,3,26,0,0,3,0,25,10,0,6,13,126,40,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13673146207068013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17230896205979782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263556878122375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1738339319470687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14380180787556324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.108535031962045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2575588990788772,0.0,0.0,0.13782791110679515,0.1314256160914661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818011304625034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605616697865771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743227272364087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17465133941006206,0.0,0.0,0.12673747602000704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35000126361724465,0.1113507899174831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852516093846003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13067773829602314,0.16451786932384346,0.0,0.26189130468932964,0.14959519708316346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13593123695246806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23261998847891024,0.0,0.0,0.13738295577109425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3962343366335854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10917014707243602,0.10529274650766038,0.0,0.0,0.0958191576755088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11156580541678926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14192393408868922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13043343925607104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,LegitimateAwareness3,2020/03/11,"Do you think it’s possible to believe something and not believe it at the same time? Do you think it’s possible to believe something and not believe it at the same time? What does this look like/mean to you? If you’ve found yourself experiencing this sort of state, do you consider it a delusion or something else? 

I struggle with this. I don’t believe in anything strange or unusual with any sort of real conviction (my ‘logical brain’ always stays checked in). But I find that my so-called “non-beliefs” still somehow dictate how I live my life. It doesn’t matter if I logically know I’m not being spied on. I still won’t undress in any room with a window. This is just one of many small actions that shape my life, that to an outsider would just look like superstitions or eccentricities. I don’t do these things obsessively. They just happen. It feels natural to me at this point. The feelings that underlie these behaviors are obviously very anxiety inducing, but I’ve found that trying to fight against these (now almost unconscious) impulses just causes me even more anxiety. So I don’t. Maybe that’s maladaptive of me, but I’m just focusing on living life one day to the next right now. Would like to hear if anyone has similar experiences.",5.080203309692671,6.878516880851066,5.670177304964542,77.66361111111112,69.55319148936171,9.307328605200944,32.63002364066194,9.725611199111238,3.3042718676122926,997,46,181,24,18,322,126,235,0.057,0.907,0.035,-0.5853,0,0,3,0,1,0,28.0,0,4,1,0,13,5,1,2,7,0,15,4,1,3,1,46,28,13,0,5,17,0,2,2,0,3,3,1,2,0,23,5,0,0,11,0,1,1,8,3,0,2,2,6,20,2,24,22,3,24,0,0,2,0,7,13,0,10,10,121,43,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017401653768768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08454136775192257,0.0,0.0,0.1381862840916545,0.0,0.15545117419076684,0.0,0.0,0.07104278713681926,0.0,0.08361014951806671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5723557748242285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11342192293188427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043736916714494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06552516725412293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891297832180664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08487579974375836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06710745217020171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09938668050121034,0.0,0.0,0.10274649109220334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928627877961727,0.0,0.0,0.2228036584087135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08984670051893848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145133320482036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05583804288020648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152944204434429,0.14891345744485227,0.0,0.17943362867898258,0.0,0.17064091765531794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10300892516242936,0.10207330542902138,0.11067484093318172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10805534563919968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13769688317989015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09604714487280903,0.22908296596028796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11564581823220085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08676792704356187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23465556222802714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10829468044551582,0.16227967672185906,0.0,0.0,0.10621692862072976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06750014525853143,0.1302054796943897,0.0,0.0,0.11849039751417545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689813861524029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08383265215129188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14435091390702004,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,halesatine333,2020/03/11,"My sister is schizophrenic. I'm skeptical about her therapist. Please enlighten me. Hi, so before i start, i apologise for my english since it's not my first language. 

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My sister is diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia when she was 18yrs old. She's very empathetic and the most emotionally expressive, thoughtful and caring person i ever met even though she had the most terrible childhood (sexually&verbally abused/neglected/bullying)

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She's currently 26 and i'm 17. She stays at home, dependent and have been unemployed for most of her life.

There are lots of things i want to rant but i'm just going to make this simple. 

So,

Just a while ago, we had a deep conversation about her medication, and everything about her illness. The more she talks about it i feel worried and skeptical. 

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Hence, I'm here to ask for clarifications whether or not these advices her therapist gave actually helps. 

#1. Meditation does not help her condition. It will cause her to overthink more and it's not ok.

#2. Her therapist told mom that she should not know about her illness or she will get more depressed or turn to self-pity.

(They kept it a secret to her for years until i asked my mom and looked up a video about schizophrenia and i got very interested. And then i told her that there are people with schizophrenia who freely express themselves and have support groups. My sister couldn't believe me, it seems she's very ashamed and conscious if anyone will know that she's schizophrenic. She have this delusion/voices that everyone makes fun of her because of her condition and talks about her whenever she go outside for grocery or buying medicine)

#3. Her therapist discourage her to get a job. Because she can't handle stressful situations/work environment. 



That's all on top of my head for now. Is that all reasonable? Is this always the case or different from everyone else? Should we consider to find a new therapist?

I can see she's able to do normal stuff she just worries a lot, hear bad voices but not very often anymore. It's sad because she have so much potential but my family seems to not care that much and gave up, just treating her like an insane dysfunctional person. But she's not. My family have little knowledge and unfortunately, narrow-minded. 

Please i want her to get better but there's still so much i don't know yet about this.",3.3519409660107367,6.396825244186047,3.935465116279072,81.57568425760289,81.44186046511628,7.4937388193202175,25.943649373881932,8.44344225975766,2.3230572450805007,1885,76,329,45,52,594,217,430,0.132,0.762,0.106,-0.9406,5,0,0,0,1,0,70.0,2,0,1,3,28,18,2,2,12,1,25,8,1,5,3,78,62,36,0,7,24,5,1,1,0,5,7,2,1,2,22,19,0,2,14,1,1,2,11,9,0,1,12,5,60,9,38,44,13,26,0,3,2,0,64,7,0,15,17,228,82,2,0.07986460600744846,0.0,0.07793633485535031,0.0,0.0,0.07804276867226409,0.0707951544710184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06645375001839195,0.08653326724199048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920422889957948,0.05584318946499011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14932525137526148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06668361006939794,0.1460541676370036,0.0,0.06795889740615943,0.08998006205284592,0.0,0.07063375388522193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1628545770431281,0.08204295008786965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0687872681274618,0.08106089396081076,0.0,0.08344151496288922,0.0,0.0,0.06989005491520063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06671663031681369,0.08983693227629028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052749819046881495,0.07224210846872084,0.0,0.15262810712523567,0.07177715817997138,0.0,0.1505784855518178,0.0,0.04038194446027838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07299480302147703,0.06793279307108277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12517788104651698,0.0,0.0907777921492013,0.0,0.06387502119476163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0819641267030331,0.0,0.09001321535315915,0.0,0.1070631238663,0.0,0.08011071158741792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07925329815152375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13167449646542198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056410733100059826,0.03901781237816802,0.08004531640428063,0.0,0.0,0.06706615463124928,0.0,0.0,0.13579606408438996,0.0,0.0,0.10662048933760204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08045518836981312,0.0,0.0,0.08064048522755324,0.18707292261820785,0.0,0.0,0.17612902426445526,0.0,0.0,0.07713373414985371,0.0,0.0,0.07825035702586218,0.0,0.0,0.08380446933204032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055368061913864695,0.1394693868884913,0.0,0.17533470901021814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0821141164070043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06364175088253943,0.14541147560870468,0.08331620188913456,0.0,0.0,0.06606482738742778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056528579192943226,0.08512504367998337,0.06377997752286563,0.0,0.0914846363471951,0.0,0.09142586643894908,0.0,0.09062940845885256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12838429018255906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4636448156930896,0.05305849548564445,0.0,0.07846656990756529,0.06340357620685469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15262810712523567,0.0,0.0,0.08686975763716917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26358665621726074,0.09421242768756816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058142384356289274,0.16221276824158856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051430187804833744
schizophrenia,SchizoFlavour,2020/03/11,"My voices can control my body | I need some insight So my voices can control my body and my dreams.

My voice can control my movements, my speech, my mood 
does anyone here know why and how i can get rid of this. I cant find any other cases so i need some help.


with speech my voice will make me say things i dont even want to say and it sometimes got me into trouble and i cant stop it.
Sometimes the voices will make me realise that he's talking and i still cant stop it

With movement the voices can control everything it wants like the voice will say that he can move my fingers or legs or anything and than that proceeds to happen.

And the weirdest thing of all my dreams. My voice will make me see this girl in my dream. And the voice keeps telling me that we will be together one day and i keep seeing her in different settings etc. and many other dreams like game wise and other stuff.

How does this happen and how can i get rid of it. and are there more cases because i cant find any other case.


And im still kinda stuck in this idea the voice gave me because the voice can control my body and speech etc and that i still see this girl in my dream.",1.7033057851239697,3.5224391652892595,2.547933884297521,96.38735537190084,78.83471074380166,4.895867768595042,20.917355371900822,5.238671369647483,-0.2526595041322315,906,24,203,3,22,284,103,242,0.031,0.858,0.111,0.9546,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,0,5,11,5,0,0,7,0,20,5,5,11,1,50,40,23,0,4,2,0,1,2,0,5,0,17,0,2,22,20,0,9,5,6,0,3,5,1,0,1,3,21,35,3,13,31,6,16,0,0,3,0,14,5,0,5,9,133,57,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12732617167449622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06545950758193689,0.0,0.07703919619263133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1141366743244705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119636940567356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5249997319629139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060375519536112913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09781032447628864,0.0,0.0,0.16385054734353074,0.0,0.10971897064634104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20881643816138992,0.06183345208120535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08413734020398958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17112933224639593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09782252210113468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07487443812313449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16557122857538795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06274981278483062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10568272176156378,0.10112292601723097,0.0,0.0,0.16642300703001925,0.0,0.0,0.05144970993660596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09147352827332757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874711526253388,0.09491341471008492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0995005486349048,0.0,0.1388323267488757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06343761648289588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22334509483997195,0.0,0.0,0.2238029944744704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851801314861323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2242890831755535,0.15653678372558988,0.0,0.0,0.1071695985612987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07524617144115245,0.08182578994110587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12439056654191133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11043601168936458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08447520004487555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,PotSwisher065,2020/03/11,Insomnia Anyone else have horrible problems with sleep. My doctor put me on trazodone for a take as needed but noticing ive taken them for the past few nights and it has had zero affect. Im also on paliperidone,3.2242682926829285,5.692502097560976,4.524573170731706,80.8800304878049,76.8048780487805,6.051219512195122,24.88414634146341,7.1686216300943375,1.4475804878048777,170,6,28,2,4,56,38,41,0.102,0.898,0.0,-0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,4,3,1,1,0,6,7,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,4,0,6,5,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,21,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22875275158228184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20001164803669635,0.2930903246669738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29278259360752823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23895668046479995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3089812898711821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21210121722237155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684369866290037,0.0,0.0,0.32566792734780325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730655045073201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27370962663360965,0.0,0.28755758555186745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862549174750246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2150727501092008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,dontlookatme333,2020/03/11,"Shrooms and acid??? Ok so this will sound terrible and I guess it is hence why I’m here I guess I don’t know 
First things first the main thing is I’m 19 and show must symptoms and signs of having schizophrenia 

( this is a throw away account but I’ve shared my thoughts here before and this is the only community that has ever felt the same and understood what I’m going through ) ever since I was little I felt like I would be schizophrenic when I got older and well I’m older and show all the signs I try to deny it and haven’t told anyone friends family or professionals 
I find comfort in the shadows dancing even when they scare me even the looming danger and life threat I feel I like not being alone ?? If that makes sense 

I really want to do shrooms and acid I never have before I smoke not too often tho usually just when I’m with my friends or to help me sleep because the noises and shadows keep me up but the weed knocks my ass out (usually) 
But if I am schizophrenic I’m aware these drugs will trigger it ... that almost appeals to me more and I’m aware that’s just being being self destructive wanting to break myself trigger a mental down fall also I just want to know I don’t like the steady decline I’m on as of right now I just want to know for sure but I’m scared to get help 
I’m NOT looking for someone to tell me not to because I’m going to I’m taking shrooms I have a group of friends we just need to plan (they don’t know about my worries of schizophrenia) 
Im almost excited to do them and if trigger what I believe is inside of me to finally hear the voices in clear full context instead of the nonsense screaming I normally hear",1.8584261974584564,3.9586806686217035,3.1121407624633437,91.15487781036171,79.55718475073314,5.7755620723362675,23.529814271749764,6.850034144686104,0.731237732160313,1312,45,274,14,33,424,169,341,0.122,0.726,0.152,0.7388,0,1,2,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,3,3,23,19,3,2,14,1,25,7,2,4,7,72,64,30,0,11,18,0,3,3,3,4,5,5,0,1,15,17,0,1,10,3,1,5,9,7,1,2,7,11,36,12,33,49,5,30,0,0,1,1,16,10,1,10,17,180,51,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20737474362939215,0.10724347280316524,0.0,0.08280650539582528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07240247602626625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09728582317275128,0.0,0.0,0.1262425907520204,0.0,0.17622175550362135,0.11666201998916002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200816560184242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13678364525816028,0.18732839497903891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09761490429438976,0.0,0.05235647880593058,0.07397400365933612,0.1988427332601365,0.11343068662310594,0.0946400899812117,0.17615406529779049,0.0,0.0,0.2400004860384861,0.0,0.054099038267213455,0.0,0.11769630249934887,0.0,0.08281600200558667,0.0,0.22813740801139185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334100086006039,0.0,0.13881075442309232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184853808293532,0.0,0.0,0.09203733897346847,0.0,0.0,0.2276269118328277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07313831444856403,0.15176351417456588,0.10378130542864493,0.0,0.0,0.0869534082738437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06911843232032945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10435103018889057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07677879486432282,0.07986183653079659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014540833518053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07875216607470394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0663348652050088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08842857960402899,0.0,0.0,0.20733723913298754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10802211277096677,0.0,0.0,0.08565515556908575,0.0,0.10362178904742464,0.0,0.08773504439466613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09759183021105984,0.10762498941445314,0.07785446391015982,0.0,0.09050464956714724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13758406295175993,0.0,0.0,0.08220475854399974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989436041614106,0.0,0.07030162185978643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2280848020030569,0.0,0.24429883401634625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09310119625971533,0.0,0.09343506958721573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051570135614207,0.0,0.07355682402630588,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Small-Still,2020/03/11,"I must be going completely mad please help Okay so I'll start from the beginning. It started with a trip to Florida about 3 weeks ago. My friend and I stopped in a city called Mobile, Alabama. We walked around and the city was completely dead. Anyways I thought that was a little odd and so did he ( he had been there before) We proceeded to florida and stayed a couple nights everything was normal. On the way back we decided we were going to stop at some national monuments. We stop at the Parthenon in Nashville, and cars are just driving around the parking lot at 10PM an hour before the park closes. No rhyme or reason for them to be there, they just are. A man slowly creeps past the parking lot while eyeing me down. I find this a little peculiar. But I ignore it still nonetheless. Me and my friend proceed to leave the park and we are parked next to a white car with a handicapped sign. The man in the car has a mask on and is making strange hand signals. Whatever, right? So we get home around Feb 17. I ask Alexa to play some music. Strange song by Daft Punk comes on repeating what sounds like ""the world around"" Okay that sounds weird I'll look it up. The world around leads me to a website called [2x4.org](https://2x4.org). Strange website if I say so myself. I start looking up the matrix, follow several rabbit holes down the internet, see some things I think I wasn't supposed to. I'm at my friends house and there's literally a white rabbit in the yard. Okay what the fuck. Okay so fast forward its about Feb 21. I decide I'm gonna quit my job, things are just too stressful and way too strange. My friends and family are worried about my well being and my aunt suggests counseling. I say sure why not I could probably use some at this point I've been diagnosed with depression already. I tell the counselor of my chaotic childhood past etc etc. I'm not even sure what fucking year it is at this point. My aunt takes me to hospital and I'm like okay yeah, I'm diagnosed as a paranoid schizophrenic, saying I've talked about ""government conspiracies"" and I'm ""hearing voices"" and hallucinating when I had talked about no such thing (to my knowledge). I'm hospitalized against my will for a week and kinda forced to just go along with it or I'll be kept there longer. I say uhh okay the foods good I guess, can't wait to just get the fuck out of here and go back home so I can look for a job. And now I'm hearing morning birds singing almost everywhere I go, in the dead of night, inside sometimes where there obviously couldn't be birds. So am I actually just hallucinating? Am I this far gone, or do I just know too much?",2.1097460220318247,4.6667438158914765,2.8277356181150566,90.91285801713587,81.77131782945736,6.334230926152591,23.199918400652795,7.605630317579735,1.0926891472868214,2083,73,425,35,57,651,257,516,0.11800000000000001,0.782,0.1,-0.8785,2,0,0,0,0,0,66.0,7,0,2,2,43,26,4,1,35,7,32,9,2,4,4,86,74,33,2,5,14,2,1,2,4,3,3,10,3,2,18,38,1,6,8,4,0,16,7,9,1,0,13,18,47,17,57,51,9,82,0,1,7,3,33,36,3,13,31,259,65,4,0.0,0.0,0.07223862716598639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06561951852729739,0.0,0.07412627367027558,0.0,0.08168945210046911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294938507579224,0.06920424972886817,0.0,0.0,0.11384273826334362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259812245840568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15117749776085174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06376678209755487,0.15522955379571474,0.0,0.0,0.05910367980508185,0.08190828111692007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06375842314434067,0.15026951697035246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16511695473835136,0.048893427157863385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06652973068877935,0.0,0.0697850565925727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06765835691798769,0.0,0.08951244573549715,0.0,0.2287689927613277,0.2053073322442593,0.07735098393777201,0.0,0.2103532034893792,0.06208943610370121,0.0,0.0,0.08154790523045585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16686520134612454,0.0,0.049618019005884265,0.0,0.14850808258063902,0.0,0.07290062749704222,0.08541598177183242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14691862191026944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04068271397454876,0.0,0.0,0.07838276904180523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07233065825972422,0.1483868539326182,0.0,0.0,0.1864894063412818,0.0,0.0,0.12586839324953458,0.0,0.0,0.04941288162837768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05441757446666098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07872741402293773,0.1389366371760219,0.0725296920529812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14133224859007468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08125823915734441,0.13995685813399658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07981247049935353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07873568624865941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07611098278100221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06321773787184515,0.0,0.235473555884345,0.0,0.0,0.058989080288765226,0.0,0.0,0.08362822777328204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07321353543394367,0.0,0.15718779812218595,0.07890178957349925,0.05911720156561849,0.18566697091151996,0.0847964501893328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13953712178444402,0.0,0.055658285066486186,0.1189984734293803,0.06470192372352021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475386113738648,0.04743282549936486,0.0,0.058768317898166514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06393463389543545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11751667173132603,0.11875826821476736,0.0,0.06655819925025383,0.0,0.06679688584450688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07517692298666158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04767027046890946
schizophrenia,roxiidastrawberry,2020/03/11,"Nervous to sleep but oh man am I tired Heads up, usage of psychedelics in this post. ( i was an idiot when younger, oh boy. )   


So I was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was around 10, I'm almost 23 now. I've learned to cope pretty well for the most part until I fucked up. I didn't do any research, I just wanted to be one of the cool kids, one of the people you hear about that everyone loves, etc for a single night. So my 20th birthday I dropped acid with a few friends before going to a rave. Surprise surprise, everything was going ok even though I felt like my insides turned to jello and I was basically higher than ever! And my friend laughed and said, ""haha, hope you're not schizophrenic, shits about to get weird!"" and i could feel my soul leave my body. It was going to good until the fear set in, then the world definitely got weird like he said it would. Thankful I had friends kind enough to make sure I wasn't hurt or taken advantage of, but oh god.   


Anyways, the things I usually see during those manic moments of my life or during those heavy hallucination days where everything is fucking scary and I'm seeing and hearing things I know are not there but I'm afraid, are there. There and its like everyone around me was turning into demons. I was sinking to a new low I didn't even know I had? Anyways, won't get into too many details because a lot that happened was kind of private. Except the fact that I'm micro tripping 3 years later. Doctor said I have HPPD (  hallucinogenic persistent perception disorder ) on top of the schizophrenia. I guess the acid my friend got a hold of was a bad batch of lab chem. For almost a year I was rendered useless, unable to go outside, nothing felt right, everything was too bold, couldn't even listen to music without feeling like I was going to slip off the earth itself. Shit, even felt like I was falling between dimensions if i laid down like normal. Pillows are no longer okay, the softness being too much, scaring me that I'll fall in and bolt upright to keep myself in this plane of existence.   


  
It's been a struggle, but thanks to my doctor I've been able to get a good handle on it for the most part. The hallucinations are still a thing but not nearly as bad. I'm not watching shadows dance anymore, and I can grip reality again to an extent. I still hear voices and faraway sounds, though. But I've been to enough therapy that I can listen to music again so it tends to not be an issue. I also got married last year and my husband is the most understanding supportive goofy soul!   


Sorry to kind of bumble all my words and not really get to the point right off rip, this is more so a vent post as well as a kind of intro? I'm tired but the sensation of falling through my pillow happened again. It happens so far and few between instances now that sometimes I get too comfortable and it creeps up on me. Coupled with what I swore was my husband asking me something, but he's been asleep for a few hours now since he works earlier in the day than I do. Hopefully I can catch some zzzz's soon, I do enjoy sleep lol   


Thanks for reading if you did! I appreciate you! AMA I suppose, since I'm new this subreddit",4.0287921702127685,5.456005497600003,4.6812902127659575,85.1850195744681,71.624,7.239148936170213,27.37787234042553,7.69321558396912,1.5344682553191484,2496,88,491,30,47,799,304,625,0.102,0.677,0.221,0.9982,0,0,1,0,0,0,68.0,0,3,0,4,41,54,5,5,34,5,47,17,7,1,4,75,106,42,0,9,21,2,7,6,4,2,7,10,2,3,25,21,0,2,10,2,0,11,13,17,2,2,35,23,55,37,76,64,18,70,3,3,3,3,25,27,4,14,34,327,80,6,0.06289088477323937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12595227306183132,0.0,0.0,0.050293817831308686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04276795826613525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06237085841019691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11197244218010036,0.058794487617585676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10502252366328588,0.038337699625678616,0.0,0.05351551080948876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.069857595247981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05021325401356196,0.06958756779784317,0.0,0.08111883569130884,0.0,0.0,0.06383292420211363,0.0,0.0,0.07207840256086538,0.12874297096075374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1299661915279102,0.07013996097675942,0.16615534501865575,0.0568884058484988,0.0,0.1201898710609754,0.16956681601958265,0.0,0.0,0.07076973007663982,0.0635990420020068,0.04492926064819517,0.1811553359701796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1943573662728792,0.1162832191252876,0.16428945784236682,0.0,0.17871169568820142,0.1054997806199507,0.1508987572344621,0.0,0.06928139995876667,0.0,0.16684260511391713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06454419179803995,0.0,0.21264779372916512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12492967810418815,0.0619348530976289,0.0,0.06732599288997028,0.0,0.0,0.06564174413842921,0.0,0.05590030804806067,0.0,0.26196471432494123,0.06912637106529054,0.051264465024764484,0.0,0.06659236624796608,0.0,0.0,0.04442169181976493,0.18435185735346007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05346758123488581,0.056761478931926984,0.0,0.041980153941861005,0.06376148604537647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04623203662627834,0.0,0.0,0.12148081682380568,0.0,0.05901883501431185,0.06161971407859158,0.060345500116465285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08523298230247582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362093990748742,0.0,0.04360062080088006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05945221424113571,0.0,0.12046416593301935,0.0639826394955882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06290790393983052,0.0,0.04028951119887892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10741694393278023,0.17947089986115225,0.0,0.06296474706156774,0.0,0.10023178530794244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12911317890686302,0.10404797956178913,0.0,0.12587260763616806,0.0,0.0,0.04841647566907285,0.062200693156493424,0.07040119655106795,0.0,0.0,0.10044948363875338,0.0,0.0,0.06574720784004039,0.0,0.0,0.07136783074996905,0.05927391461572901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17370443112705275,0.07192120773315558,0.0,0.1253457279505478,0.0,0.12357994995048945,0.0,0.0,0.1445676408478963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13681444612220112,0.0,0.06547162901511885,0.0,0.0,0.06926542442044767,0.0,0.03709467328589463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11309291660553775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060624568654946,0.0,0.045785313141740835,0.0,0.0,0.044675880115273736,0.0,0.0,0.12149900350594105
schizophrenia,Callisto1313,2020/03/11,"New age Spiritual Family VS. The Possibility of ""Schizophrenia"" or Something Else that's Wrong? \*\*\***Before you read** this I am not looking for a diagnosis and I have no diagnosis I'm not even sure if I want to seek one. I am just looking for help in talking to my family and ways of broaching the topic with them.  

\*\*\***Also**, please do not bash mine or my family's religious beliefs.  Thank you!

Hello, 

I am a 20-year-old girl and I am at a crossroads. I have been experiencing ""hallucination"" like things for years now but my family very much believes in ghosts and spirits. So my family thinks I am spiritually gifted and so have I but I'm not entirely sure anymore. So that was the explanation for all the things I was experiencing from hearing voices, to see things, and mostly for a long periods of time the constant feeling of being touched.  

When I was 15 to 16 I had what my family and I thought was a bad spirit/ghost attached to me which lead to a huge shift in my personality, depression, me in a state of extreme out of it ness in which I do nothing but stay in bed doing nothing for hours upon hours,  hearing a voice say negative things about me leading to self-harm and me basically stop eating (as a form of self-harm too). It was one of the worse times in my life. When my mom found out about what was happening she took me to a spiritual counselor than to a medium who realized the sprit and that actually worked.  It stopped the male voice criticizing me and the feeling of hatred. Which makes this all the more confusing!  

However, I still hear other voices very rarely and the feeling like I'm being touched when no one is around stared at the time after and got very severe. When this was happening was the first time I thought I might actually be having a mental problem and this might not be a sprit causing it as the touching was such a constant thing and I did not feel like an energy present. Also, my family history has a lot of mental illness that includes schizophrenia. When I brought this up to my mom she just reassured me it was my Gifts. Eventually, the constantness of the touches stoped and I only get them occasionally.  So I just accepted that it must be a spiritual thing.  

Recently what brought this all to the forefront again is  I have been struggling with the state of extreme out of it ness and very recently I heard extremely loud bells in my head that scared me and led me to research things. I found out the Bells were probably music hallucinations connected to my OCD tendencies. That scare of something new made me take another look at my past without the lense of religion and its concerning to me. I just tried to talk to my grandma about my concerns and she wouldn't consider anything other than spiritual explanations for any of it. I know my mom would be even worse. How do I get them to see that  I'm worried and confused about all this? I know I'm an adult now but my family and their opinions are still very important to me. Plus I'm not sure if they are not wrong and it is all just my Gifts and sensitive nature that is causing all this which makes me reluctant to go into this subject in counseling.   

Thank you,

Calli",4.406694626295689,6.183343603927987,5.403834901800328,78.9918189102564,71.22585924713584,8.888720676486633,29.91410938352428,9.408791572840183,2.7554770594653566,2526,105,479,58,48,830,263,611,0.133,0.8029999999999999,0.064,-0.9943,1,0,2,0,0,0,71.0,0,3,5,4,31,20,0,5,38,0,47,4,1,9,10,101,89,46,1,7,23,3,8,3,0,5,2,10,1,4,45,32,1,2,14,1,0,7,13,10,0,4,25,26,72,10,76,53,11,65,2,1,6,0,29,21,0,11,36,361,117,5,0.0,0.0,0.11594815464405415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09501783182885123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04039978312866555,0.06229493962924253,0.0,0.0,0.0589172187655233,0.0,0.0,0.04888809233259053,0.0528861157260931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04960357416666207,0.0,0.0,0.050552215218444066,0.06693297913706513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12205768569818345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19259828728218686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05116841083935977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06078967557461892,0.049628136758429135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07847744171759458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4480399947273392,0.0,0.12015478915702515,0.08488281694549071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05053279712875608,0.0,0.1302765978425918,0.0,0.0,0.06207692614976395,0.0,0.033763191141515506,0.0,0.04751436444328781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10506939207899264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060970208926727026,0.0,0.20087292210650112,0.0,0.03982023168578948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11701071244409797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06529866079019073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04196194507484709,0.08707190334058817,0.0,0.0,0.05257460867894512,0.14966440652486576,0.0,0.0,0.05050693963134779,0.0,0.05621371172341387,0.07931120323329093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11973948894787273,0.12604595419045414,0.0,0.20873537549952614,0.0,0.0,0.04367204629399179,0.0,0.0,0.11475410220508503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11400801985099605,0.0,0.06233917458403061,0.0,0.12077010944742643,0.0451828031896467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05671208762751038,0.0,0.051873166954386415,0.0,0.06521263795801716,0.0,0.0669741009688677,0.0,0.0,0.06405235699399031,0.0568458632596059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05942452666159832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11731735435780898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047243983834175884,0.1189564444582258,0.0,0.09468168585092857,0.0,0.12395193947632027,0.06711463843425801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09147105432122896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06332150303839312,0.0948873296485002,0.09933624848691462,0.0,0.06210661078380625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16797528285739832,0.0,0.04466776084547752,0.09550052334115224,0.0,0.10939063776596636,0.0,0.0,0.2762783402515631,0.038066535882303916,0.0,0.09432734645095746,0.13856617952696396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06600497374963894,0.04033443780315265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24509096458275706,0.03504064296577584,0.047155662288021975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057267625699776926,0.0,0.04325005907212137,0.06033216461944209,0.12108457169028895,0.042202058291112836,0.12990762772295866,0.0,0.0765141878949705
schizophrenia,greenbluemoon4,2020/03/11,"Hello <3 I just wanted to vent I'm a 19-year old that struggles with schizophrenia on a daily basis

doctors say I was most likely born with it

of course dating and making Friends have always been hard for me

I'm at a low point in life and my delusions and hallucinations are the only things that make me happy 

I guess I just wanted to vent since I don't have Friends or a social life 

at the moment I don't have health insurance, so I'm struggling more than ever 

I feel so lost right now and lonely and I just wanted to let someone know",3.0250450450450472,4.631000153153156,3.9965765765765764,88.37612612612612,74.4954954954955,5.654054054054054,22.243243243243235,5.82211442006289,0.25812432432432475,431,11,87,2,9,139,73,111,0.133,0.7759999999999999,0.09,-0.3959,0,2,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,7,9,0,2,6,0,9,4,0,2,1,21,21,8,0,3,4,0,2,1,2,0,4,1,0,0,4,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,3,3,11,4,12,17,2,13,0,3,0,0,5,7,0,3,7,57,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15000022854876913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1845153951363625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16306578301681998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09115062576015684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27855444043182176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19858924791923824,0.0,0.0,0.19190223505474996,0.16148774665687726,0.0,0.0,0.1916200459838885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09907243538245768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843396987646074,0.2546620124604172,0.08807148990957457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19678750534182785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406650905960252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18916448732743088,0.0,0.0,0.13710450705221885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17041472199331031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15395077266112986,0.0,0.14335903612664566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14912234756362885,0.0,0.0,0.1837639687579985,0.15274335440532147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3769175728410293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11976429392017462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189861899747966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11608885763250505
schizophrenia,Annabee43,2020/03/11,"Intervention tips for my mom with severe mania I’ve never done an intervention before. My mom has basically lost her job due to her manic episodes and extreme delusional thinking (she has schizo affective disorder). As her only daughter, my voice is one of the loudest. Do you have any tips on what and what NOT to say to someone who lives a very different reality? My mom trusts me, but I am so scared of breaking that trust by saying the wrong thing to her. The intervention will be small (my dad, a trusted family friend and me).",4.649100000000002,6.586386310000003,5.687000000000001,76.55350000000001,70.9,9.0,29.5,9.516144504307137,2.8697000000000012,421,17,76,10,8,139,75,100,0.11,0.7609999999999999,0.129,0.5003,2,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,1,1,7,0,1,6,0,9,0,0,1,1,9,11,6,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,1,0,3,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,3,14,4,11,7,0,5,0,1,0,0,15,2,0,0,2,53,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12152689489243475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520665030766594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.186710789552558,0.20481371585523767,0.0,0.0,0.1828793169303864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684690644669646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13806859258767365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1773391324342143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1578015638525721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950798117543244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.627898470590174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13782986301334949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12109649491782658,0.13591473391543255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842299741773602,0.17891689265276098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20188805431870255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15141786960689058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11872499665186433,0.1145082361049954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14745199892323282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19538806148703966,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Forunikarasu,2020/03/11,"Diagnosis & Treatment So I met with my (fairly new) psychiatrist today and we discussed my symptoms (visual/auditory). She believes my symptoms are entirely mood based so the worse I feel the more symptoms I experience. However I told her the few times where I’d hear voices and see a figure standing right beside me that I wasn’t feeling any particular way, pretty neutral.

I’ve been diagnosed MDD w/psychotic features but I feel my symptoms are worse than what she understands. How can I explain this to her?",5.298951612903228,7.765650010752688,6.326545698924733,70.40981854838712,70.39784946236558,8.951075268817203,35.280913978494624,9.516144504307137,3.9671946236559137,413,22,64,10,8,137,70,93,0.078,0.883,0.039,-0.6605,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,0,5,5,0,1,0,12,14,6,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,3,4,0,0,6,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,6,17,0,3,10,2,7,0,0,1,0,10,2,0,0,3,41,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17788422513654195,0.0,0.1116450573582445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18496971310753302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1666348072905901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16059526773067448,0.0,0.0,0.24903639243397616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18503786549938067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15856184527003114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16702563662182365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14020508989458355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082672020709146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6825653599017888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09573212937759458,0.0,0.1556192994831504,0.15687684884302508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1709126194719134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13031497233896458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33461798318339897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,madmax543210,2020/03/11,"negative symptoms hey,

i recently got the negative symptoms of schizophrenia for about 5 months now and im wondering how to go about addressing this. i dont have the positive symtpoms (hallucinations) but i do have the negative symptoms such as brain fog and poor executive functioning. does anyone have tips on how to manage these so ill be able to go about my life?",5.03199004975124,7.614002970149253,5.8485820895522425,73.02023631840798,71.5373134328358,10.436815920398011,33.5547263681592,10.504223727775694,4.3435592039800985,297,15,50,10,6,97,48,67,0.27399999999999997,0.726,0.0,-0.9674,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,3,0,6,6,1,2,0,6,10,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,4,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,10,8,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,36,6,1,0.21830776110851632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526458624753461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2437036601084689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19104259289610384,0.0,0.2558550701478153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481386630845976,0.0,0.17460065935199046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.235809843797088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541972277984518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17425117213928815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21555257725012267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6807160570216925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367454545365732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,PintoKey,2020/03/11,"You guys are brilliant Just a friendly lurker here.

I don't have schizophrenia; my struggle has been with major bipolar depression, though that's not really what I'm here to say. For the past half a year or so I've been subbed here, initially out of sheer curiosity. I've always had a fascination with mental illness, and I think that one can best cultivate understanding and empathy by hearing what people of different walks or plights have to say. 

I'm sure many of you have struggled with self hatred---I'm sure many of you still do. Not everyone's mind is nice to them; sometimes my mind can be a cruel and scary place and I know that it's even worse for many of you. 

Just know that I see so much strength and beauty in you all---it shows through your art, or your perspective, or your desire to help each other. Seeing many of you lift yourselves up and transcend your weaknesses is nothing short of inspirational, and it's helped me do the same.

That's really all. Thanks.",5.2921522094926345,6.485841946808512,5.30212765957447,82.80653846153848,68.36170212765957,8.763338788870701,28.82324058919804,9.057496981413335,2.2202032733224235,778,27,151,14,13,243,113,188,0.125,0.696,0.17800000000000002,0.9053,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,10,1,2,10,13,1,2,6,0,16,3,0,0,3,32,26,14,0,1,8,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,2,10,12,0,0,5,2,0,1,3,5,0,2,3,5,18,8,21,22,6,9,0,1,2,0,19,5,0,4,3,101,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10844400595091122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1367720399066319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11225200853370744,0.0,0.0,0.13616586186158422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08608094635812594,0.0,0.0,0.12453475802933996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10069171123302632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12904600693948445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14689003492981287,0.0,0.17471330118265507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14325060536415654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5285318082901455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13134078149696307,0.0,0.2631898804049693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0958066672945548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250540031172993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08831417101506707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12441359111803348,0.09035358326679513,0.0,0.13616586186158422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16698393912835768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20728539305898847,0.0,0.0,0.20771036727114472,0.0,0.13596136698037412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1288985203681816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10408075180293627,0.0,0.0,0.2724959282237774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2456667121433773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11998925316014952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08350943561886327,0.12804738892310158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356768820069382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13281618631219436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08392747724274828
schizophrenia,thespoonisspeechless,2020/03/12,"(VENTING, SORRY) recently diagnosed, feeling hopeless I've never posted here so I'm not sure if it's alright but I have nobody to talk to and I just need to let some stuff out.

I was officially diagnosed earlier this week and my psych put me on abilify, which I'm scared to take because of the side effects I've read about, but I still want to feel better. after doing some research I found out it's a pretty low dose (2.5mg to 5 mg to 7.5 mg over the course of a month) which I'm sure is just to get my body used to it but I feel like I'm getting significantly worse everyday and it's going to take forever to make a difference. the voices are getting louder, my paranoia is off the charts, and my best friend seems scared of me. she keeps telling me I'm acting weird and the way she looks at me sometimes is like she's seeing a completely different person. every time night time night comes around I get insanely suicidal and it takes me hours to fall asleep. I've been self harming which I've never done despite dealing with depression for nearly a decade now, but it's the only thing that makes everything quiet for a little bit. sometimes I feel like it isn't even me doing it. I feel like I'm not controlling any of my own actions lately, and it's getting worse every day. 

I don't know what to do because I feel like I can't talk to anybody. I dropped out of school and quit my job months ago because of how badly this has fucked me up and I'm so exhausted. I feel like this is ruining my life and I want it to stop so badly but it just feels like it's going to take forever. lately I've been feeling like I should maybe just go to the hospital but I have no idea how much it would cost me or if it would make me feel even worse than I already do. I'm already drowning in debt with no income so if it would cost me anything I think it would just be an even bigger burden. I don't want to be in a place like that but my own home feels like a prison already. I'm so scared, I just want it all to be over.",2.5305939393939383,3.7748764494117673,4.03696256684492,89.05808912655974,75.09411764705881,7.127985739750447,24.40819964349377,7.686295010490155,1.052262745098039,1581,49,348,21,33,526,192,425,0.18899999999999997,0.675,0.136,-0.9848,4,0,0,0,0,1,31.0,0,0,0,5,21,30,1,3,16,1,29,8,2,8,5,79,79,28,2,13,19,0,11,10,1,5,5,2,1,2,28,17,0,3,17,1,3,8,10,14,0,0,5,15,42,16,45,65,8,49,0,4,2,1,10,18,1,7,30,213,70,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05629982746180887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102622281566837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043190546244576127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05226521652294831,0.056539418038189786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1060602457749998,0.11614953734450302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0666522471114574,0.05617147368957018,0.0693389889859204,0.07054785452505201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054710228152522265,0.06659144483083013,0.0,0.07123445212725632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04096018335069621,0.06547839902596995,0.05470305638969495,0.12892730803382568,0.0,0.13271368445098128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0649951403929934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12584783802668972,0.0,0.10702371471841804,0.0,0.0570807656459828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3532510346140147,0.3629856347474114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06963796570128226,0.049069450333275005,0.05871610379254093,0.16591279345817356,0.0,0.10828652201308904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06370802174124393,0.0,0.06254682817024497,0.0,0.0,0.07169766311932195,0.0,0.0,0.06302616393805148,0.05645265609388631,0.0,0.0,0.03490470257706034,0.0,0.14328929591763548,0.0,0.0,0.06494563632845564,0.04486062025371597,0.3102890474979269,0.06365601623952599,0.0,0.0,0.053334341346935585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271848729998458,0.0,0.06380664835802095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10138983396410947,0.0,0.0466888529834102,0.04709357039351307,0.09796921212593647,0.0,0.0,0.1192039941268392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04830397094971922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05545649611684063,0.06635684222549064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060827233055735584,0.06461484863944067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06384741009372746,0.0,0.06755315568252178,0.06352949367737327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06271074033423457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19076069538914844,0.06427784478163039,0.050611085191164924,0.057819218341337825,0.06625718703745112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1256305899618988,0.07109682712443324,0.0,0.0,0.050721009889530766,0.053099131997475485,0.0,0.0,0.07270639557918279,0.06947215467728401,0.0,0.11971919418630893,0.0,0.19101340067039987,0.10209757207386032,0.05551255516399376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04219475419674123,0.040696121391525175,0.0,0.0,0.07406907316474072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05485424059686686,0.0,0.0,0.14984481531824625,0.05041311252236173,0.050945741146921485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941733985219116,0.18046928068238005,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,chicken399999,2020/03/12,"Should i talk to my psychiatrist about this? Or get a new psychiatrist? So I don’t really know how to start this but i had a talk with my therapist. He says that i should talk to my psychiatrist about having schizophrenia. I’ve for the longest time have had hallucinations and delusions. I think everyone can read my mind, that people are some how are seeing and reading all my thoughts. Its painful. My therapist said that he watching out for the possibility of schizophrenia. I was just hospitalized and the psychiatrist there said that it could be my ptsd or something else going on. Im not sure if ptsd would cause this. But I’ve tried to talk with my psychiatrist about this in the past and he says that i know that what im thinking isn’t real. He makes me feel stupid. My therapist says he shouldn’t be saying that. I don’t know what to think. I’d like to hear your guy’s opinion please.",2.6209968253968263,5.112125845714289,3.4405238095238104,87.71208730158733,79.11428571428571,6.860317460317463,22.865079365079364,7.984000788550335,1.1458126984126982,713,23,147,13,18,226,94,175,0.067,0.8959999999999999,0.037000000000000005,-0.723,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,0,8,4,1,0,6,0,18,1,0,4,2,37,34,12,0,6,7,0,1,1,0,4,1,7,0,1,15,7,0,0,8,2,0,1,5,2,0,0,6,10,19,2,17,21,2,8,0,0,2,0,18,3,0,5,5,92,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11702557193945776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909545687898135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09516420134010838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10885390829582324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05760056338088958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059517659583379484,0.0,0.0647424491335557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127971212825848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12839431051091005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461028302069921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18781971201916156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055654773560570435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0760414132587521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11502510447421255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002309576928944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12121720413267895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10874799817032448,0.07897667143501877,0.0,0.0,0.12504818866693174,0.0,0.12842587381827414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2663290151706529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278984458873317,0.12966407342983596,0.0729790408894165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21672496140537031,0.3623699202401125,0.0,0.0,0.09077821175714694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08769994602647413,0.0,0.0,0.08063202632150608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073667391263222,0.0,0.0,0.3662531630216616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3968041105918539,0.0,0.21898292309405007,0.0,0.0904384808282414,0.06642673223669797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07734311241067017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08092435933533873,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Sanasaiocht,2020/03/12,"The voices in my head help me but with threats They tell me things like “if you don’t brush your teeth I’ll make you ugly” or anything along those lines

They also threaten to make my friends hate me, make me ugly, or give me mental disorders etc just at random

Does this happen to anyone else?",6.92401129943503,5.8155280677966115,6.280000000000001,85.06655367231639,64.9322033898305,8.544632768361582,28.141242937853107,6.42735559955562,1.1800463276836162,232,5,48,1,3,71,47,59,0.265,0.618,0.11699999999999999,-0.93,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,2,0,2,4,2,0,1,0,1,2,2,3,0,11,7,5,0,1,5,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,12,2,6,7,1,2,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,4,1,30,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878525722911437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16425027595075492,0.2406868158809155,0.19330590316196866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692202324570036,0.0,0.20556599499446504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19623207494104924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619799541581519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1814861784829742,0.0,0.0,0.2253412355471673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20772475219869588,0.0,0.0,0.23191897922890886,0.2410791818665011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15745113958985385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1147621851743746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4704005527840983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2367278917098481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2053163715124524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560597202370151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Likelikelike333,2020/03/12,I am not schizophrenic but I have delusions sometimes and I think this is a good place to ask what one of them is called. What is the name of the delusion that makes you believe that a friend or family member is being controlled by another entity in order to harm you or upset you? I thought two of my friends were being controlled by “the voices” in order to make me upset and kill myself. I am just wondering if this delusion has a specific name.,4.903901515151514,5.901734920454548,5.684545454545457,80.43015151515155,69.11363636363636,8.593939393939394,29.43939393939393,8.841846274778883,2.360107575757576,355,13,66,6,6,116,57,88,0.175,0.706,0.11900000000000001,-0.7783,0,0,0,0,0,1,4.0,0,3,1,2,1,7,1,2,6,0,11,1,0,4,0,17,17,6,1,1,6,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,6,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,2,1,12,3,10,13,0,5,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,4,0,55,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22354166993207628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992979574345987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24018499767202195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21768436643597533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4782072353540389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20097059491067584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294103552912601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17880835125320066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358561494034396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2846035154799254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14445877468504312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22273156541435896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2108441045993149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365994902684681,0.0,0.1692440242450311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20824947262048588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2311886005595608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,user__342,2020/03/12,"Feeling dumb I struggle to articulate myself when I’m around others. I don’t talk much and when I do it’s usually just me stating the obvious because I don’t want people to think I’m not ok. I look at people who are quick and witty at an aw of how they do it so effortlessly, and how people just verbal vomit and talk for hours. I can never think of a clever comeback or a funny remark. All I do is sit and stay quiet. Is this part of the “negative symptoms” ?",1.3907445589919831,3.215494855670101,4.0628178694158095,85.13060710194733,79.82474226804123,6.3729667812142035,22.117983963344788,7.3871296695380915,0.9006526918671249,359,11,74,5,9,127,64,97,0.145,0.795,0.06,-0.8388,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,9,4,1,1,5,2,9,2,0,2,3,19,16,11,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,5,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,0,3,10,2,9,16,3,12,0,0,1,0,4,3,1,1,6,58,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051761523471203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14049852885024075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11653766298984687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269764704125387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19354523490391645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16942939183006805,0.0,0.17776046066570067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495874866312668,0.0,0.4793576405959769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24566111872428414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409478416213967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23955707166935494,0.0,0.3705023456015776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2953646815722268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2538412665934225,0.0,0.1359431336709021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Proud_Veterinarian,2020/03/12,Hypnotherapy question Hi I’m trying to work out if these are delusions of real. I’m scared I’m being hypnotised by my psychologist team and being made to forget about it. Like I thought at first it was a delusion then I remembered in Good Will Hunting they took Will straight to a hypnotherapist when he was brought in so basically is this allowed??? Could I be hypnotised to tell these people about my childhood or something?? Or is this likely a delusion ? Thanks.,2.962114164904865,5.985291279069767,3.786997885835096,81.83675475687104,83.88372093023256,6.3830866807611,28.74841437632136,7.686295010490155,2.2883627906976747,374,18,64,7,11,119,61,86,0.055,0.816,0.128,0.7476,1,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,1,3,4,5,0,1,3,0,11,0,0,2,0,13,19,7,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,1,0,1,6,0,6,4,12,7,0,11,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,4,6,46,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21120189116955024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22500504641646127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22187123322946006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25846735540616395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503001918405712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18338850469290824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963288245827019,0.0,0.0,0.30108765166501245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29965554732723365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648359266424716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2036444645135104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23120673192907526,0.2435393143322665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21000350438212287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29389729098933026,0.1795952839688697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19257753581781412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,usingmyenglishdegree,2020/03/12,"I (21F) need help finding a living situation for my schizophrenic mother I am in college in LA and my schizophrenic mother lives in my hometown. She's very severely schizophernic. When I was a senior in high school, there was an incident where she attacked my dad with a weapon while she was having a delusion, and she was taken into police custody.

After that, I didn't see her anymore. I didn't know what happened to her until she got back in contact with me a year later while I was in college. She's taking medication now and I believe everything is fine. I have been to visit her at her halfway house and she's better now than I've ever seen her before. She's being cared for under a government program called Telecare, which helps people rehabilitate.

The problem is that her probation will end in May and the halfway house wants her to find a new place to live and a job. She said that they don't like people to stay past their probation time, so it kind of sounds like they might kick her out. She hasn't been holding jobs very well. She's had a few telemarketing/call center jobs so far that she held for a few months. She's also very bad with money and has a lot of credit card debt that I don't even want to get into. I don't know how they expect her to pay rent on a place when she can't hold a job.

I suggested to her that she tries to get transferred to a program in LA, where I am, so that I could visit her and check up on her. What ended up happening though, is she told Telecare that she was gonna move to LA when her probation is over and they told her she could leave. She currently has no plan and no place to stay once she gets to LA. She's looking at motels but I know she won't be able to afford them without a job.

My question is: What can I do to help her? My dad has entirely abandoned her and is filing for divorce. We have no other relatives that we're in contact with. Me and my older sister are the only family she has. I'm really scared she's gonna end up being one of those crazy homeless people on the street. She can't live with me because I live in a college apartment with 5 people. I'm not sure if my sister would want her to permanently live with her and I don't want to put her in that position, she's only 2 years older than me. I want my mom to be in LA because she has nobody where she is now and for my own conscious, I want to be able to check up on her. Does anybody here know of any programs I should be looking into? I honestly don't have a lot of money because I can barley pay my rent and my loans, but if me and my sister needed to work out something where each of us paid half of her rent, I could get a second job. I don't want her to live alone because I believe she needs to be staying with people used to caring for schizophrenics to make sure she takes her medication, but I'm not sure if any programs here would take her in for free, or how expensive they would end up being. I also don't even know where to start looking for government programs that might help her.

I genuinely just need a place to start looking. I'm only 21 years old and obviously I've never had to be anybody's care taker and I don't even think I am in a financial situation to help her, but I'm gonna do what I can to keep her off the streets. If anybody has been in a situation, where did you get your schizophrenic loved one settled?",4.492577022460743,4.557760896011398,5.58580865301796,84.09274001192605,69.66951566951568,8.410574438481419,27.721592791360234,8.133680483312611,1.6058195454846622,2647,80,566,33,43,881,264,702,0.08199999999999999,0.851,0.068,0.7003,12,1,1,0,1,0,53.0,2,2,7,3,30,22,2,1,27,0,72,7,0,4,6,96,129,41,0,24,13,8,0,2,0,12,6,2,3,0,19,33,0,5,10,1,15,4,21,6,1,4,22,8,116,17,92,83,6,89,0,1,6,1,93,50,0,11,34,401,135,23,0.10801980225631416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05593796903483896,0.0,0.08638339683789477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07345716969114711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05356330902576849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0614440596557656,0.0,0.04153028013531708,0.045096011446933884,0.13169573770378573,0.0,0.04595844784287699,0.12170132673105286,0.0,0.0477673684797947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05515014772080591,0.0,0.16520008131412173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12936753367554002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047264428443551165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19134696564630566,0.0,0.0,0.10701909094691596,0.0488550476956127,0.0,0.0,0.04854061655545877,0.0,0.05091572802552122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0987281423185532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14108972081500132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043196651830552615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955215543943833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18100849123174795,0.05706442589123844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12464034878751876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3215789580314168,0.04800648172776165,0.0,0.056243000757465814,0.14841214589547644,0.0,0.0,0.05718868688063165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052773019091468365,0.0,0.33384212542395264,0.0,0.1814188568258457,0.0,0.0,0.09183457305363477,0.04874604445548875,0.0,0.03605202839680037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10881858651367024,0.0,0.11459193996614632,0.0,0.0632557434354742,0.04311018779598162,0.057403977433026485,0.0,0.16019062931822484,0.041655765354823716,0.052163099066570434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056674305790715765,0.057518782009001734,0.07319701358333376,0.12323089076195785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05155856197452363,0.18721832480752573,0.0,0.2257154050298064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05168018118317242,0.0,0.05429486826858754,0.060503450010083414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.034600125665256165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051375784115786284,0.0,0.054073333132716984,0.054660903392700036,0.043038898513669294,0.0,0.0,0.0610158149676696,0.0,0.0,0.18212817538259324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04157946057348425,0.0,0.0,0.07645697201189018,0.17270210506981645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1527110778970896,0.0,0.12182617209973375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03460736381869908,0.05306445363516821,0.0,0.03149360768394785,0.0,0.0,0.10321755014283716,0.0,0.036669177562996855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06496726099344617,0.04664721345483188,0.0,0.1336914744154756,0.22299507323571152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048561387442581136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052063617339727086,0.0,0.0393198512761162,0.0,0.0,0.1151012524250284,0.0,0.0,0.10434181662710104
schizophrenia,FinnsChips,2020/03/12,"My benefits got approved! It took about 7 months but a few days ago I finally got approved for a disability pension. I'm in uni so it's nice to actually have money now, I haven't worked since I was 14 and I'm not sure when I'll be able to again but it feels good to be able to do stuff with friends which I couldn't do before since I had no income.",0.6264285714285691,2.1234057820512824,2.976227106227107,93.57115384615385,80.92307692307692,6.508424908424907,21.399267399267398,7.447530270364453,0.4598805860805859,273,8,68,4,7,94,55,78,0.065,0.691,0.244,0.9389,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,3,5,5,0,0,2,0,9,0,0,0,1,8,15,5,0,1,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,4,0,0,0,5,1,6,5,8,7,1,9,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,7,40,11,2,0.4525605381757877,0.0,0.2208169013085486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20058380557623998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925478426644732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14593205386209224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11441410301218995,0.0,0.0,0.24787897429361536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17482357458482992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897931539162745,0.3619540045711258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18061475194626445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3743627538105729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25903677102557554,0.0,0.0,0.21326647569835347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25140570488751235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16473473088098456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Throwaway12232244532,2020/03/12,"Is it possible to have delusions of pennance? Not in a religious way, but that I have to repay the world somehow.",3.12409090909091,5.2961132272727305,4.790909090909089,80.30636363636366,75.81818181818181,8.036363636363637,33.72727272727273,8.841846274778883,3.292836363636363,89,5,16,2,2,30,20,22,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,15,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8176584970958571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5757035540336227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Abakermind,2020/03/12,"Wondering about medication changes I am 24 years old and I have been on medications since I was 18 with all kinds of drug abuse in my past. I was first misdiagnosed as bipolar and put on a heavy dose of Depakote which turned me into a zombie. Over the years I have tried several medications including risperidal, seroquel, and abilify with horrible outcomes. (Those were the ones i was on the longest) About a year ago i was rediagnosed as schizoaffective. Throughout the past I would often talk to voices and be harassed by them to this day. My current regiment is 9mg Invega in the morning with newly added Lamictal (my psych doc said it would help with my depression) I cut back from 1mg Ativan and 2mg Klonopin to just the Klonopin. Invega oral has been the best thing I’ve been on so far. However I’ve had some real difficulties overall. Lack of energy, motivation, horrible concentration and memory retention. I basically wake up and waste time each day laying around and then look forward to bed time which isn’t even that great of a sleep anymore. Gahhh. 
My psych said that she will never give me a stimulant no matter how many times i ask. And SSRIs can’t work with Invega. However coincidentally my cousin was put on Invega and had Vyvanse for ADD now on Cymbalta and Invega. WTF 
So is that just my doctor’s beliefs? I really feel that I need something stimulating in the morning to get me interested in reading and games and drawing. I can’t live like this anymore. Any reccomendations? Should I see someone else? I have a feeling this Lamictal is a waste of my time....",5.117755581668625,7.008737297297301,6.172373678025853,73.73185076380727,69.60810810810811,10.147826086956524,31.11280846063455,10.374825546531014,3.5870953584018794,1264,54,224,37,23,420,176,296,0.113,0.8009999999999999,0.086,-0.8742,3,0,2,0,1,0,31.0,0,0,1,4,12,8,2,0,15,0,27,9,2,4,2,43,39,19,0,5,2,1,2,1,0,4,7,3,1,0,12,22,0,0,5,2,0,3,5,3,0,2,13,7,29,5,36,21,5,37,1,1,2,0,10,16,0,3,21,151,41,6,0.0,0.13980498759508767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10459560316657196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0802407651890167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340390145906429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10504072213015296,0.11030956039505042,0.0,0.0,0.09073100612461192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12382865638015406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12482324948910875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15219425268348058,0.0,0.1016290712794186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12077306143906025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13683694194654833,0.0,0.09856982785573327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07793470021164751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11932381162021265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10036663552967612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06164760883709811,0.11319172364332007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13009009693554469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908967853355943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12287381711766104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05764648231123374,0.0,0.10419190124754928,0.0,0.09908622910893966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11962858731839462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3566031751028559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749192710969374,0.09100515308876693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12381608717906856,0.0,0.07995658428132164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252794918331687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23723548260985505,0.0,0.0,0.11802710611430145,0.1343043415178157,0.07559073050839005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22448086399023065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09402687754373043,0.0,0.0,0.1333009616957054,0.0,0.09760682804233832,0.0,0.1180803896483938,0.0,0.09997692882140778,0.09083845039472076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0948400520423626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07839075117356664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752157416081037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08011097838040979,0.12834486717185245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1279607338898135,0.08590189267513089,0.0,0.0,0.16764077366680827,0.0,0.0,0.227955072120882
schizophrenia,generalkidcom,2020/03/12,"my mom doesn’t support me ive got schizophrenia, i was diagnosed about a year and a half ago, since then my mom has told me that if i ever need anything i can always tell her, however whenever it gets really bad and i try to talk to her about it, she mocks me, treats me like a joke and yells at me for something i have no control over and even later on, she can get to use my struggles against me when having an argument
has anyone got any advice about this? how can i talk my mom into being a little less.. mean about it? thanks in advance :)",2.3956538839724715,3.749034504424781,3.8217109144542754,90.0256243854474,75.63716814159292,6.792133726647003,23.17502458210423,7.3871296695380915,0.7955278269419863,421,12,92,5,9,139,77,113,0.12,0.769,0.111,-0.2624,1,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,8,8,1,1,5,0,11,1,0,3,1,12,21,8,0,2,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,5,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,3,0,1,4,1,21,5,14,16,1,13,0,0,0,0,11,6,0,1,7,68,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583648782202128,0.1436579737895494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348483685033492,0.0,0.0,0.11020755551282266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11331735213277215,0.0,0.13336302159100072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13531480196803214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817660465043548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16448927708388233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10704026537780313,0.14659414196419074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693411636128622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592311914330365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07917519087048594,0.1624284607033349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17653276888068614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5694143310024685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12016674306572082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10382091458293458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13405916424858505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12476306202953916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1694221410513716,0.0,0.0,0.18390576702921232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605182110533597,0.14164912317270725,0.14920469678984172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548569586208167,0.0,0.11002929840272802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399693287382794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10436246134165864
schizophrenia,CoochieSmeller,2020/03/12,"Only child looking for advice helping my father recover from a psychotic mental breakdown in the UK My Dad has just had a mental breakdown for the second time, but this is the first time since I've been grown up. He's been diagnosed with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder for years and has now reached a breaking point in his life.

I've been living in Australia for the past 2 years, but since I left his life has fell apart. I have resigned from my job and booked a flight home to England to aid him in his recovery.

I spoke to him yesterday down the phone and it was the most disturbing phone call of my life, he was really distressed and sobbing and he wouldn't believe it was me on the phone. I believe all this news about the corona virus is what triggered his psychotic break, he has lost his father, 2 sisters and a close friend in the last few years since I left, as well as being out of work with little money and probably debt and so that is what has started his downward spiral. He must think that since everybody else has been taken from him, I must be next.

I have always been well aware of my Dad's mental illness, but, with little money, he has always done well to raise me and keep our lives together, because of that I feel I have overlooked his vulnerability. I feel guilty when I think about how he has been all alone to deal with the problems he's dealt with over the past 2 years, but I'm coming home now and I'm going to care for him and do everything I can to help him recover.

I'm looking for ANY advice on helping him recover. I'm 23 and his only child. He's 45, he still has a lot of life left in him. He's a musician and that's all he's ever known. I'm hoping, in time, to be able to find some work for him in a local music studio or doing something based around music. In the meantime, I'm wondering if there are any forms of private psychosis and mental illness treatment in the UK that anyone would recommend? He has had low self confidence for years that I want to help him regain and allow him to get back on his feet and gain some hope.

Questions:

\- Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. CBT sounds like exactly what he needs. Will the mental hospital be offering this sort of treatment to him already? If not, in the UK, specifically the West Midlands, where can I find this for my dad?

\- I'm a big believer in the power of mindfulness, but have seen mixed reviews on how safe it is for schizophrenics. What are your experiences?- How can I prepare for what I'm about to experience? My Dad is currently in a mental hospital on the other side of the world. This weekend I'm selling all of my belongings in Sydney and flying back to Birmingham on Tuesday. I have never had to care for anyone and, because of my parents hard work, have been able to live a fairly selfish life up to this point. I'm now dedicated to helping my Dad recover, but not sure how to prepare when I've only just started to learn how to take care of myself.

\- How can I help his self confidence? I don't want this to break him. I want him to know it's all going to be okay, because it is, but how do I care for him without patronising him and making him feel weak? I know it will mean everything for him to see my face, but worried he will think I will hold a grudge against him for having to leave my life in Australia to come to his aid (when I really don't give a shit, all I care about it seeing my Dad recover). He can look after himself, just not right now, how can I go about helping him get motivated and back into that position?

\- How can I influence him to read more books? Should I? He doesn't believe in his reading abilities, but I want him to find knowledge and entertainment in books. I will never let him watch the fucking news again.

\- Friends. How should I go about approaching his friends for support/visitation? The friend I could imagine he'd most like to see lives in another part of the country, but he has another friend locally who I think was around during his last breakdown, although he has a family of his own and so I'm not sure if its right to give him the news and maybe ask him to visit my Dad?

\- Healthcare, especially mental healthcare, in the UK is a joke. My best friend went to visit him yesterday and said that the ward carelessly has a TV on that could show the news, despite knowing full well he and probably many others in there are paranoid over the virus. What options do I have for private treatment or support groups in the UK?

\- He needs to rest for a while right now but, when he's ready, are there any organisations I can approach to help him find work?

\- On the upside, he's expecting an inheritance from the sale of his childhood home soon, which will help massively with his money issues. I'm going to get back into work as soon as possible to ensure I have an income to support him during this time. I want to take control of his finances and use his inheritance money to set him up for the future. Any advice on that? I expect the inheritance will be over £10,000 but I'm not sure yet what his money/debt situation looks like. I'm confident I can earn enough money to pay the bills, though.

\- What does recovery look like for a mental breakdown? Please any advice you have on this situation is massively appreciated",5.2525571095571095,5.795716069230775,5.872762237762238,81.02375291375294,68.11538461538461,8.956876456876456,29.892191142191145,8.97023862654752,2.2953108974358973,4152,147,821,69,66,1350,361,1040,0.066,0.764,0.16899999999999998,0.9990000000000001,10,1,1,0,0,0,115.0,1,2,0,13,51,43,2,2,53,1,89,16,3,17,15,153,166,67,0,23,26,11,4,4,6,13,12,3,4,4,39,41,0,4,22,10,14,14,12,12,4,2,21,17,109,31,144,122,20,130,0,4,10,1,122,65,3,16,51,551,148,17,0.0859329136864742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16794529740850847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04450029128419833,0.04741455355514475,0.0,0.07150306812933402,0.0,0.0,0.1460933201799361,0.0901081526290394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060086291289346234,0.0,0.0,0.07649851201664587,0.04016783710309875,0.0,0.0,0.13215421260539054,0.0,0.07857585987420962,0.0,0.0,0.19363393353921168,0.045090645637246116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043873556374810815,0.0,0.2190358315795924,0.0,0.0,0.0740235961207138,0.0,0.0,0.048190534861672345,0.06861043915382284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0442965303545886,0.0,0.04361004925907437,0.0,0.0,0.04924328198159924,0.0,0.03760023592935993,0.04396960298581965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035892961357202866,0.0,0.0,0.04439583557695439,0.0,0.0,0.038865620090785376,0.0,0.0,0.07723096183514176,0.08405887881870455,0.04050495159507067,0.0,0.0651753947325576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570822526068872,0.03654724624143282,0.0,0.0,0.19917466784508284,0.03972179699931103,0.06734460097645037,0.08243468110000482,0.12209413793199075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0384895058593365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25919559295184225,0.0,0.12929657845356873,0.08535077288318169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04484581790839636,0.04263757858386058,0.038190561031710285,0.0,0.0,0.07083972303336579,0.07004679396768253,0.0,0.04549527393037655,0.14004954323499935,0.04393611318872485,0.18209087482480316,0.0839649619761588,0.08612735490029272,0.151760674298236,0.0,0.18040501184822036,0.0,0.04690296320743127,0.03652854511308325,0.0,0.0,0.028680443582866037,0.04356124338697582,0.04316558098335036,0.04680306755072894,0.0,0.0,0.3464006614358537,0.0,0.04338387305165221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06371816664652498,0.06627676063109712,0.0,0.04569531429660792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09803377971593773,0.0,0.0,0.04770916558706372,0.046528485710572345,0.08203268962560033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04716426702904207,0.0812343794060784,0.048438224261979336,0.0,0.0,0.09265021516378308,0.041113096452232295,0.0,0.0,0.04813226500001753,0.0,0.08595616835333039,0.0,0.055050824945568136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11007935813817844,0.04087093967753242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1027161096544188,0.0,0.08964677024708702,0.0,0.04410445050500709,0.14216918841535828,0.09659219543154073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03307767762908047,0.0,0.0,0.060823758601565865,0.0,0.034313067937044084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14627347815046726,0.12148613126286258,0.0,0.06461085660916724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04913588796408578,0.0,0.0,0.11012468254263418,0.04221432569586355,0.0,0.1002163460495384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03710922334422523,0.0,0.0,0.12671364734326004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15452801906438698,0.03983033595619169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04141813113529255,0.04659528962015176,0.15640046154953913,0.043634522565754695,0.0,0.030522138173564625,0.0,0.0,0.13834494748210968
schizophrenia,TakingMyMeds,2020/03/12,Trouble Getting Aroused :( My last delusion was like 2 years ago when I changed from Risperdal to Geodon. Since then I've noticed my sexual drive has lessened. I've actually started dating and I've noticed that I'm not really getting turned on. I saw an article that said that Bupropion may help. I'm not in a place where I can change medications. It's just really unfortunate because I'm 30 and I've never had sex and now I'm trying to but I think it's going to be a problem. Has any woman experienced something similar and found a way to deal with it?,1.9925675675675687,4.467003504504508,4.069752252252254,82.35976351351354,81.52252252252255,7.303603603603604,28.16891891891892,8.344100000000001,2.364572972972974,443,21,85,10,12,151,75,111,0.094,0.87,0.036000000000000004,-0.7092,0,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,4,0,7,3,1,0,1,14,20,7,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,6,5,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,5,3,6,1,8,13,0,16,0,0,1,2,4,4,0,1,10,44,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.1834193292500491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16661291259498304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12781749129264436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11457709899528487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3976680573050563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1937758473802406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20608561012999213,0.0,0.0,0.19639998913735915,0.0,0.10682053356569816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259838970065678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532103840718844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09182650157324587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18934732705696908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14496434991750826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4279815380857609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1963754997525446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17984986723980784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24082067302825955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17879054873696545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554803205579587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14469880509008154,0.0,0.0,0.13303722966023132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12043552568541302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12761075068841485,0.2044437002008963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1491918517161905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210384163930063
schizophrenia,Night-Lotus8,2020/03/13,"How to tell my friend? I have diagnosed unspecified psychotic disorder, which comes with schizophrenia like symptoms such as hallucinations, etc. My friend who I like doesn't know about it yet, and I'm afraid to tell him. How will he feel about having a friend with a psychotic disorder? Should I tell him in person or over text? How do I tell him that I have unspecified psychotic disorder?",5.3168075117370925,7.702710563380287,5.478521126760565,76.86078638497655,70.12676056338029,10.367136150234742,28.734741784037556,10.504223727775694,3.395786854460094,314,12,57,10,6,99,45,71,0.10400000000000001,0.695,0.2,0.8156,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,7,6,0,1,2,0,7,2,0,3,0,11,11,6,0,1,1,0,1,2,3,2,2,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,10,5,9,9,1,4,0,0,0,0,13,2,0,1,3,40,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14399275501167647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16966295797812112,0.0,0.0,0.5747363983871482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864265721887915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0845206586217928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3874400955173764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09186626443820396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16333097597260016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14595687001882987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17374229888895176,0.0,0.0,0.5844176510115769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TaysonGS,2020/03/13,Anybody here have experiences taking ashwagandha to help symptoms? My stress and anxiety levels have been extremely high lately (3 weeks) and I've read ashwagandha is very beneficial for schizophrenia. Anybody here take ashwagandha?,8.176857142857145,12.563615828571427,7.70571428571429,52.284285714285744,76.42857142857143,10.8,38.42857142857143,9.888512548439397,6.279685714285716,194,11,21,7,5,61,29,35,0.11,0.736,0.153,0.4124,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,2,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,11,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269845838053273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2902421860342589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988804264767296,0.31349350742250365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33470511557275545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2967932306093049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.339883665556404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30839834972814084,0.4461824027949781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448192463893012,0.0,0.0,0.2380052197105028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Diablo_en_ti,2020/03/13,"Marijuana been my only stable help thru-out my life Marijuana has been the only thing that has actually helped me thru-out my life. I've been smoking for 22 years roughly, heavily for 6 years, 16 years of social smoking only because it put in my head marijuana hurts schizophrenics more than it helps (not true). I was diagnosed at a young age (7) with schizophrenia.  I've been on various medicines of all colors of the rainbow but marijuana has been the only thing that actually has helped me. It helps my paranoia, visions and allows me to actually relax. I don't understand what everyone's problem with it is.  I've been on so many different medications and all they did was make me worse and mess me up with side effects. Up until 6 years ago I had no less than 3 involuntary hospital stays a year for over 10 years. Meaning I was 302'd no less than 3 times a year for over a decade. Since I started smoking and not taking medications I haven't had an involuntary hospital stay. I haven't even had a voluntary stay, going back to a hospital hasn't even been mentioned. [This is my story that was published a few years ago (2015).](https://www.nydailynews.com/life-style/health/photographer-documents-schizophrenia-photo-project-article-1.2381346)",8.236407997289056,8.640319431718067,7.958325991189429,69.10625211792616,61.731277533039645,11.38990172822772,36.84479837343274,11.051253699011982,4.226331345306676,1009,44,171,25,13,322,121,227,0.099,0.8290000000000001,0.07200000000000001,-0.7732,1,0,0,0,0,0,44.0,0,0,1,1,4,5,0,0,11,0,25,7,1,3,3,19,31,7,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,11,7,0,0,3,1,0,2,8,3,0,0,15,2,19,2,24,16,7,30,0,1,1,0,8,9,0,0,16,110,30,1,0.0,0.0,0.2949572256209917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.178620514542947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0774717985667533,0.0,0.06141726970203694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10226080228780804,0.0,0.10526402864913392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13309102707104778,0.0,0.0,0.09627251763249617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05725948359008425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10340025807664906,0.1070942908555218,0.0,0.0,0.33765853073677665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10785672337291499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2134916064672708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06725250763489615,0.10214635784846554,0.0,0.10974808143038547,0.0,0.2029933722391808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3065046745075477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09640572068068663,0.0,0.10128323440167193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08334280466867364,0.0,0.0,0.10270361755673946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0713125352806367,0.3221635551801927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07575270087525929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13386983664821586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058749096386573975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10488601914862763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10267453714094148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5190460662106754
schizophrenia,Revolutionary-Growth,2020/03/13,"Trigger warning (hallucinations) I literally see every post about CoronaVirus, I hear voices, like everyone is talking about coronavirus. It drives me crazy It's awful.",7.902564102564102,11.993719000000002,8.213076923076922,51.61525641025645,70.53846153846153,11.158974358974357,39.43589743589744,10.504223727775694,6.399451282051282,138,8,15,5,3,45,22,26,0.266,0.648,0.085,-0.6486,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,2,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,8,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3649396027829863,0.413884366665735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4881808905278483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2116105987158702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4148289251247251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3451569472181861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3481419748489614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Greaseball691,2020/03/13,"Drinking with schizophrenia I have been diagnosed as schizophrenic because i still get mild symptoms but i have only had one episode. 
I was wondering if i can still drink and if so, how much how often. All the info i can find on google is about alcoholism but i dont think im at risk for that.
Preventing a relapse is my first priority but i would still like to have a few drinks if i am able. 
Thanks",1.5029629629629608,3.922989172839507,2.779259259259259,91.1666666666667,83.19753086419753,6.562962962962962,23.814814814814817,7.793537801064563,1.2797999999999994,317,12,67,6,9,102,60,81,0.051,0.8540000000000001,0.095,0.6486,0,0,4,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,8,3,0,1,3,0,13,7,0,2,1,18,17,11,0,4,6,0,0,1,0,1,4,0,0,0,1,2,4,1,4,3,0,0,1,1,0,2,3,0,10,2,7,13,3,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,5,5,53,11,0,0.18854937604424024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2015019414644693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11493794958453207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19137364775171808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22097846448137096,0.5541198210786129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17233071384447968,0.16038000294273735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09850926689460608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20366568136315427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09211570113835776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13860548616177856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12776593690378307,0.14340029684193026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.451727325804265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19597499597664492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17359093305395135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12081482687902825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20447375534208406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13394006699594824,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Harveyyy123455,2020/03/13,Could someone help me please Hi I joined this group a while ago to look for advise and copping methods after I started hearing voices like a couple months ago I know your not doctors and can’t diagnose me I am going to see a doctor in 2 weeks as that was the earliest appointment but I don’t know much about schizophrenia or other mental illnesses like it other than rumours and facts on the internet I’m 17 and have started hearing voices they call my name a lot shout at me and tell me to listen when I try to ignore them they say things that I don’t understand random words and letters and it’s really starting to scare me it seems to be getting a little worse day by day also the things that go on like the walls them dam walls they move bit by bit and pulse like a heart but in lines like veins it’s really scary and the shadowy figures that I see but don’t believe I know it’s all fake and my minds playing tricks on me but why do I see shadowy men standing in the corner of my eye then disappear when I turn around when I go out side the voices they scream at me telling me that everyone is looking at me judging me hating me and I need to escape as fast as possible I’ve always just put it down as social anxiety I do have dysplasia dyslexia and autism so I just thought it was to do with one of them until I did some research in to it and found this group your advice in other people’s posts has helped me quite a lot there’s  more to it than what I’ve write down but I really don’t like talking about this stuff Ive barely told anyone but now I just wanna ask what do you all say about this thank you for your time,3.8532036613272322,4.490948795321638,4.7693643529112615,87.35291762013733,71.28070175438597,7.585252987541318,25.6882786676837,7.586124646067393,1.1675363335875923,1296,37,276,14,23,422,178,342,0.11199999999999999,0.8029999999999999,0.085,-0.9251,0,0,1,0,0,0,0.0,0,5,7,1,14,14,2,1,14,0,20,7,3,0,3,50,49,32,0,3,11,0,0,6,0,0,4,10,0,1,26,16,0,1,8,1,0,6,6,6,0,1,6,16,46,8,44,41,9,47,0,0,6,0,35,20,0,6,25,190,72,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09642074311603224,0.17493283539890211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07890764088902215,0.08210267355491173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07548350202804711,0.0,0.0,0.06899347521607503,0.0,0.0,0.08783864138778832,0.09224462399620123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11116910120393347,0.0,0.0,0.21544765754794706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10075473321560416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07878124164009795,0.1091782458939608,0.0,0.1272700350077765,0.0,0.0,0.10014959446369567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20198912227404908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09428493991038246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10818831371908262,0.0,0.0,0.05155183718507654,0.0,0.1682320282782859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09741777450872888,0.0,0.0,0.2224201232804176,0.11692631814841127,0.13227498382154676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16268198853813193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28923575072512137,0.09889486267549093,0.0,0.0,0.1657185816827116,0.0,0.0,0.1677741273664293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09943776249443816,0.0,0.0996301853863039,0.0,0.07875872775985468,0.10487229265565837,0.07253497747795784,0.07316373929905419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06686242812170637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06840646180876242,0.0,0.0,0.10831178355418056,0.0,0.111237400525737,0.0945001150769759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09919220878739596,0.0,0.10494938969132066,0.0,0.0,0.189634656009131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15693522947434696,0.09878748251856498,0.0,0.2358854645099496,0.08982691653770712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10058326766607288,0.08360412437868385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20952079375731375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11295537218944796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07930849247424282,0.1724866507213162,0.09084355005074984,0.0,0.0,0.13110604993599234,0.0,0.0,0.0783342267078177,0.05753620201086015,0.0,0.0,0.09428493991038246,0.0,0.06699153774345279,0.1073263638410904,0.0,0.10272061286085607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07914840375288029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08903576937809664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005547876250029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,PhyllizDarling,2020/03/13,"Logic/ Philosophy: The Neverending Search I came across this bad thought process in a clinic back in 2013. I was investigated for malingering (the entire clinic became convinced I was faking my illness). I was surprised by a Forensic Psychologist. I answered his questions and passed his tests. I hated the whole thing. 
As soon as I was preparing to leave I could hear the nurse asking this expert, ""Is she faking?""

""No."" He was quite animated about it. Indicating it was absurd to accuse me.

""But you must be wrong.""

""I'm not wrong.""

She kept arguing with him, although he was doctorly about it he was asserting that he knew more about it than she. As in the truth is the truth. 

At this point, I told the desk ""I'll need to be referred.""

""Because you're faking?"" I'm pretty sure you would have been set off by this as well. 

I don't remember the exact words or whether I spoke calmly. I might have been yelling. But I explained it, I wasn't upset to have the meeting as much as the rejection of the truth. Those ladies would have spent every appointment grilling me trying to find something that wasn't there.

Irony is life I suppose.

The point is: If you look for something that isn't there, you'll spend your whole life looking. 

A cop trying to find drugs in someone's car. When the person is innocent. He'll never find the drugs. 

A prisoner who is guilty swearing he is innocent. His wife will never find evidence to free him. 

Put things under reasonable suspicion, even if you don't like the answer it's best to accept it. Or you'll waste your life searching for something that isn't there and you'll drag someone down with you.",2.440796703296705,5.1156498012820535,3.2038791208791184,87.96969230769231,81.43589743589743,6.129816849816852,23.33736263736264,7.447530270364453,1.1482570329670332,1286,45,246,20,35,405,164,312,0.11800000000000001,0.759,0.12300000000000001,-0.2647,0,0,5,0,1,0,52.0,0,10,0,2,11,22,2,1,19,0,38,9,0,1,8,43,55,17,0,7,8,1,0,1,0,9,9,3,0,1,19,5,0,1,15,0,3,4,10,10,1,0,19,5,36,13,35,24,5,21,0,1,2,0,35,11,0,6,6,171,55,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10453364006191077,0.0,0.0,0.08598023872743824,0.09336238082741408,0.06816250053131945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11734486248549912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12788866294315682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0892766385776103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11444926159104005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25934404208277273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07385396035557791,0.0,0.0942105002500451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4087942204101335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11039596818723246,0.0,0.0,0.1260256918087632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839787582660576,0.0,0.0,0.2369385973986883,0.05462805409773167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18779594754383008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11861998429130395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08219823442385,0.0829107611711417,0.1724800621576423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976341412747305,0.0,0.0,0.2114060897949768,0.0,0.0,0.11375791299935235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11240679620261186,0.12526043789617405,0.11893096043365642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11496632229897155,0.0,0.0,0.12666666878959465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948407109020166,0.2582461713201482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10538603713671556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14857226405424254,0.0,0.0,0.08877007140860968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10684577100402824,0.0,0.15183257278942114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1005367570756664,0.0,0.0,0.2496789906111981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1588629329264618,0.2445082963398271,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,PizzaHut147,2020/03/13,"Help Could u guys describe what happens when you dissociate like the most realistic one cuz one time
I was able to take a taxi all around California but in my mind I was at a friends birthday party and it’s like I was behaving normally and functioning enough to get multiple taxis without people noticing anything junisial but I was immersed in an alternate reality of a birthday party with friends and demons and scary sh#t runnin around , and I’m trying to make sense of it cuz it has me questioning what’s real and what’s not it would help if someone could tell me they’ve had anything like that cuz I’ve heard of dissociation but haven’t heard of where people are still behaving normal but their immersed in another reality. I’ve heard of out of body experiences but that’s usually wher people are like looking at their body from an outside perspective , but this is where I was in a whole nother reality seeing it from MY perspective ( 1st person perception as they say in video games ) has anyone had something like this?",6.346133917895576,7.614538455958552,6.646632124352332,73.85216420884817,65.99481865284974,10.083539258668793,34.0171383021124,10.214889679676881,3.6252561976883233,834,37,146,20,13,269,110,193,0.044000000000000004,0.7979999999999999,0.159,0.9726,0,0,1,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,3,0,6,7,0,0,7,0,16,2,2,4,1,34,26,18,0,6,9,0,0,5,2,1,0,4,0,2,12,10,0,0,2,2,0,0,3,0,0,2,10,6,13,7,24,13,4,16,1,0,2,0,17,12,0,3,9,99,25,0,0.1334106286239267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13989267639918326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09328381348547002,0.0,0.21957116007047456,0.2375274883421557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2963782662556725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130350624691064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13784884227749006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305011942867589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20614544147094535,0.0,0.06970154713536658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13209749712684052,0.11797457829677127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17884466438252122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.325888471572523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11203132771868902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08905263055698008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1347067038149915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614281805858619,0.0,0.15188888492803335,0.0,0.0,0.18080498929955865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774703957693702,0.11648901502658095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1494504365154904,0.0,0.0,0.15185050267764855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10609348659229093,0.0,0.0,0.10631099828095407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11303839269919955,0.10270601976829777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065419003526023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10030818956760383,0.0,0.11660676972879723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07779281041046737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09057705953198668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14693295931761205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489482024903983,0.0,0.1286030852240808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09477108283650654,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,b0nglordgodhead,2020/03/13,"Countering Ignorance Regarding Fictional Schizophrenia I don’t have schizophrenia myself, but my sister was once misdiagnosed with it. I say that only to clarify that I felt close to it, and am very protective of my sister. This is kind of a rant, but I hope some of you feel this yourself.
It is so embarassing and ugly when people try to use schizophrenia to make fictional stories, especially villainazing the character who has it, when they themselves don’t know much about the disorder outside of what they’ve learned in pyschology class or watched in Donnie Darko. I don’t know how to deal with it. It’s really frustrating to watch ignorant young people think that this is cool or okay. People who have schizophrenia sure as hell do not deserve that. I’m about to major in creative writing, and I’m afraid I’m going to have to bear with such ignorance in my classes. What would you say to someone who did such a thing? And how would you properly explain the ignorance of the act? I don’t think this counts as research, just looking for a way to properly respond to ignorance. Thanks.",5.775511551155118,7.559096881188122,5.784772277227724,77.57425412541255,67.81188118811882,9.743102310231023,33.26864686468647,10.047579312681364,3.591775181518152,878,40,152,22,15,276,112,202,0.165,0.747,0.08800000000000001,-0.9603,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,3,1,0,10,14,2,1,7,2,17,0,0,4,1,37,33,15,0,3,6,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,20,8,0,6,8,0,0,2,5,8,0,0,3,8,14,6,29,28,3,11,1,0,3,0,15,5,1,4,3,106,34,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987793596710316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2209777601551668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09749088041837636,0.0,0.1851285034100807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095787609703552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19150452468100612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2007826677427084,0.21192743044997134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16191242270928494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128702635733471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417380454909455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20533709691059931,0.0,0.1466412214987882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.401011975167624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12351946805364772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3066616061351428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16336787569855574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1817217976820704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775141824999527,0.0,0.0,0.12809485792983696,0.2470906152758401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13090580509348546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16652653368573064,0.0,0.15908901567650946,0.0,0.1530441546416579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739343706319625,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,nimulus13,2020/03/13,"I sometimes feel like gouging my eyes out. Please help me, I've been enjoying so much solitude and daydreaming for like a year or more now to a point I haven't even realized it's already my birthday today. I don't believe in birthdays but this time it helped me snap out of these delusions but for how long until it comes back? Then there's a part of me is trying to scream for help but whenever I talk, my mouth and brain is disconnected and the words coming out of my mouth are nonsensical. I've wandered too far and now I'm lost.   


Can someone atleast scare me what happens when I'll remove my eyes so I'll have the fear to not do it? The urge is becoming irresistible day by day. I'm 20(M), virgin, pro gamer, used to be rational/logical   , hardcore atheist but not anymore, please God help me I'm sorry if I didn't believe in you and talked shit about you. I won't do it again, I swear. I just want to be normal again.",2.105814241486065,3.9572400210526304,3.3635603715170284,90.85404024767807,77.73684210526315,6.575851393188857,24.86068111455109,7.510576382923642,1.0849164086687306,724,26,157,10,17,235,115,190,0.142,0.7509999999999999,0.107,-0.8727,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,0,1,14,8,1,2,6,0,15,7,6,2,0,26,25,17,0,3,9,0,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,8,10,0,0,2,0,0,3,6,5,0,0,3,4,20,3,19,19,3,24,0,1,2,1,8,7,1,2,16,98,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16008264535638536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14386532964702953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11154589868834476,0.0,0.0,0.16021270575453608,0.0,0.3268767708175133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16194032426454066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2499210094220269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18710962675167275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09581395099019838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16323826232352387,0.07334913592722107,0.10363434236289364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12828034863131246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3889355864468944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14174269525451802,0.0,0.0,0.12837780817118374,0.0,0.0,0.15835539644101765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10663934021478344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14213273160952627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15709107264528915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184752387691632,0.1371331518927512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452351999483356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14890696166989875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12291295831292985,0.0,0.14347282454220128,0.16238819871218654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23319522814913504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08458846799486684,0.0,0.13750449529638178,0.0,0.0,0.09848949614834428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1252894353029276,0.0,0.0,0.08556299426450756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09341699332408156
schizophrenia,ZenbuTaco111,2020/03/13,"TIFU: By thinking CoronaVirus was a delusion and I was ignoring it because of that Title.

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Oh man its hitting me now. I thought I was having delusions again so I just ignored it.

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Its.... Really real. And this bad.

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Fuck.",2.1023989898989943,4.472948886363639,3.2121212121212146,80.74095959595964,105.5909090909091,4.682828282828283,32.16161616161617,6.42735559955562,2.718104040404041,197,12,28,3,9,63,34,44,0.26899999999999996,0.731,0.0,-0.917,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,1,0,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,8,8,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,4,0,5,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,24,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5026844761738355,0.563744250704979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1291249660987782,0.09427223783618624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14296996685729588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760237520839934,0.09907173406670383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09909245932128727,0.0,0.12277356639406865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.563744250704979,0.0
schizophrenia,Alyboy1234,2020/03/13,Rexulti Can you cut a Rexulti tablet in half? There’s no score on the tablet and I’m wondering if you cut it half it loses its efficacy?,-0.2643103448275852,2.0155679999999982,3.106465517241382,85.70383620689658,93.13793103448276,8.417241379310347,21.04310344827585,8.841846274778883,2.088924137931034,108,4,24,4,4,39,23,29,0.292,0.708,0.0,-0.7941,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,1,1,3,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7180240417160023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6960183011371298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BatmortaJones,2020/03/13,"Needing support and care I love with my mom, and she stays home to take care of me but I need to vent about something. Because she is my best friend and she's a great person, I don't want to talk bad about her to my friends, but here it is: 

I hate that she doesn't notice the subtle signs of the beginnings of me not doing well. She doesn't notice when I make a mess in my room or I stop eating. If I don't brush my teeth or shower, she either doesn't notice or doesn't say anything. She won't pull me out of bed because I ""get mean."" So I get up at 3pm.
We sleep in the same room and she's up to 2, 3AM so I am too, even though she knows how bad it is for me.

I don't think that she really takes care of me at all and if she went out to work I don't think it would make any difference.

I hate that I have to be taken care of, but I want to be taken care of; I don't want to forget to eat for so long that I get sick. I don't want to neglect my teeth for so long that I wind up with gum disease and a mouth full of cavities. I don't want to have a full-blown episode because nobody noticed the early signs so that we could intervene and prevent it from blowing up. 

But the truth is, I am not being taken care of. I don't know how she thinks she's taking care of me, but really she isn't at all. I'm doing this solo. 

I know I could be doing worse. But I also could be doing better.",1.2075403726708058,1.7503554158730168,3.311939268461007,95.71105590062113,77.38095238095238,6.2401656314699805,19.409937888198762,6.0469075449839425,-0.3197536231884066,1056,18,274,6,23,362,131,315,0.127,0.688,0.18600000000000005,0.9722,1,0,1,0,0,0,30.0,2,0,0,3,16,22,2,0,9,0,35,8,4,4,3,59,74,28,0,13,14,1,0,0,2,2,1,1,5,1,11,13,2,3,7,0,0,2,16,6,1,0,4,2,54,16,41,60,6,23,0,1,0,1,24,14,0,5,6,190,65,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06580595857388301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05595889537339625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06771629528632901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374146592865846,0.1504866312901899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08635653972494463,0.07277735274206848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5872891530635095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1971016392845399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08597380478538179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16840303743359047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054350674807591884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1271515401393946,0.0,0.12897678947137312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09072318922162473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624854060127695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08254191792056853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13567056469871716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1456451890839404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0742684427679593,0.0,0.10985621654292503,0.0,0.0,0.0896361297354144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09637511337708662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12203152807965288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3747432979521252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07185100754235425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10543203993016224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06543899357032011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08234777116617999,0.0,0.0,0.06334958707765928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08770842536769516,0.0,0.06879673980131781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09337983705259208,0.0,0.0,0.1856117802233256,0.06614025348517565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15818114358792404,0.08084787969647794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24267898509423896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07398710324701921,0.07628211884412553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059906894123715776,0.0,0.08385885212514488,0.058455278260607785,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TrishaHealy,2020/03/13,"7 year old I'm a parent of a 7 year old boy. Lately he has been experiencing some situations that have me concerned. I figure this should be the best place to ask. Since he has turned 7 (8 months ago) he started having nightmares and shortly after he would hear voices ( my voice calling him when I'm not) he sees shadows sometimes- black humanoid figures and sometimes black crawling things. About twice he has felt as if someone tapped his left shoulder (that was before sleeping so maybe that's nothing).
 Most of this seems to occur at night before bed but occasionally its during the day when he's doing school work. He also sees a ""cat that looks exactly like our cat"" he also saw me walk by one time when I didn't. I need some help as I have no idea whats going on. It's at least a weekly occurance.
He DOES have a second uncle who had schizophrenia...not sure if that means he's at risk or not. Are these things potentially the start? He's only 7 years old and so I understand that it's extremely rare for children to get it so early but it just seems like a lot going on.",2.52652777777778,4.625157115740741,3.6451481481481487,88.16466666666668,77.37962962962962,5.801481481481483,22.374074074074073,6.742157984588678,0.5598340740740744,851,25,171,8,20,275,139,216,0.040999999999999995,0.889,0.07,0.7195,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,1,0,0,2,10,5,0,1,9,0,16,2,2,0,2,28,36,18,0,5,8,1,1,2,0,2,0,3,1,2,18,3,0,0,8,0,0,3,4,1,0,3,6,11,11,4,16,27,6,31,0,0,6,0,23,8,0,9,22,99,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088279897571199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19635787449159228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477315819544495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208936056318666,0.0,0.12883929477146672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12536165722536427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07917634236380483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10743664926318773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11787822790740388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06414213542409011,0.0,0.13954577411412386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383704485378195,0.0,0.08228998604881034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13859212184712275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13848964314328946,0.0,0.1333897096131369,0.0,0.0,0.11995821232581068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030956828019479,0.0,0.0,0.10437446447894302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12333873098728945,0.13373226599789972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0979936556609092,0.0,0.0,0.09103222562960904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11521110842340965,0.0,0.11780090127324627,0.0,0.3864786508998329,0.0,0.0831919705202571,0.09337193900479074,0.0,0.0,0.13632129594735676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12826827490597953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12424955721667612,0.19566321635770972,0.2235299675006721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10155641882479616,0.13799836045758004,0.12285842852024435,0.0,0.10402242404393663,0.0,0.2428448749124315,0.0,0.1737941440586187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11570905121757605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16312555418192431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07158803764682782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1335382508164664,0.0,0.1278076557642818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984785006573432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08937785158405284,0.0,0.0,0.0872121190908612,0.0,0.0,0.2371791117677048
schizophrenia,RickyBobbyRiley,2020/03/13,"Should I get extra medication? So I don’t normally freak out when any sort of outbreak of a communicable disease happens in the world as it typically blows over in a few weeks or so. But with a family just a short suburb away having the virus my friends and family are telling me I should get extra medication just in case. For context I have schizoaffective disorder and I do really well with medication and therapy. But without my medication I have severe symptoms that make life for me and everyone around unbearable. So should I try to get extra medication. If so how do I go about it. Should I talk to my doctor, insurance, the pharmacy, all three or someone else. Thanks in advance to everyone who comments.",4.944318181818184,7.168399340909094,6.432424242424244,70.31863636363639,70.74242424242425,10.55757575757576,32.45454545454545,10.637119530657019,4.166627272727274,571,27,97,19,11,194,82,132,0.066,0.8690000000000001,0.065,-0.0183,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,11,4,0,0,7,0,11,8,0,2,1,25,18,16,0,6,8,0,0,0,1,4,8,0,0,0,4,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,1,1,0,0,14,3,20,14,5,14,0,0,0,0,5,10,0,4,2,80,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09277305709571948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12144636069460325,0.0,0.0,0.12817492020356164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563538225167578,0.1396358334584331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11396481883035298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26071812221852514,0.0,0.0,0.2572169749007404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10540091092263447,0.0,0.2138278637168902,0.0,0.07753295233119661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12063936926731335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963603669326138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09106413718185906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6871645737342432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13366663932988526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873967632392658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541203863295504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11559168589624473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14179686186764448,0.0,0.1096525131877912,0.11924066485742155,0.1256009698230078,0.15601283254862502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09262299971557364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10943117332767313,0.0,0.12266163776252567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13150795121501402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,dildobongins69,2020/03/13,"Is it normal to hate therapy? Hi everyone!

I have schizoaffective disorder and have been diagnosed since at least 2016, I hope I’m not in the wrong place! Since being diagnosed and even before then I went to therapy regularly. I tried CBT therapy and family centered therapy. I don’t like either one of them. Therapy makes me feel uncomfortable and I never trust any of the therapists because they always take forever to even remember who I am and what my symptoms are. I don’t like divulging information about my past and my health. I just see so many people that enjoy therapy and get a good benefit out of it, I wanted to know if there was anyone that felt like me. I don’t mean this in a bad way in any way either. Therapy was always stressful for me and I dreaded it no matter how many medical professionals I tried. I feel better talking to people that experience things like I do and that I can relate to and people that remember my name and what I’m there for. I don’t know anyone personally that has schizoaffective or anything remotely similar and I live in a small town so I feel like the odd one out. Is there any alternative for people that don’t like therapy?",4.708937548587715,6.279885330396477,6.303990671158331,73.64916558693962,70.14537444933922,10.627520082923036,29.65250064783623,10.718039707386858,3.580034672194869,938,37,170,30,17,321,117,227,0.113,0.742,0.145,0.7,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,2,1,10,17,1,2,6,0,18,5,0,2,1,38,35,18,0,4,6,0,4,6,0,0,5,0,0,1,15,14,0,0,10,0,0,1,8,5,0,2,5,5,28,12,20,29,3,17,0,0,1,0,8,11,0,3,9,119,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12938723806051267,0.0,0.0,0.15861650436857813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10872819137167224,0.0,0.06398102259070168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06491739088009085,0.04739523190326321,0.0,0.0661589002470675,0.0,0.0,0.06876290898952657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15782774006587494,0.0,0.0,0.08910739658205317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10270531599464094,0.0,0.0,0.07429275708997891,0.0,0.0760537026547088,0.0732950900118216,0.0,0.1179370974500847,0.05554409232830112,0.07465148963597337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0406207833528172,0.0,0.0,0.0652123968971371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07676130530180636,0.0,0.08264383576863292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07722256581850423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08545792833840317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22790618937428955,0.0,0.06865402774791628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051898239874478974,0.1576511082888848,0.0,0.08469174542545356,0.0,0.078324207497149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05996502828483065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07617777454261968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10536983182284676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0742204734636927,0.21560621050928525,0.06788766156349575,0.08123143658292548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17614952781663926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0619561000677011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12862999524087113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890615233802301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081125872811065,0.05845777324032314,0.06249191622926965,0.0,0.0,0.7113045075855331,0.09027289224009384,0.05165315866022392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055732982465514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04585853246090893,0.1234274994247689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07207435002750237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08500661886643368,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,little_bastard_flea,2020/03/14,"I think I may be schizophrenic... I got depression when I was 14, I'm 19 now. I started to believe some stuff around that time, at one point I believed I was a vampire, I wholeheartedly believed this, I would even feel my mouth water when I saw someones neck, I was obsessed with this belief. Then it sort of went away after about three months or so. But lurking in the back of my mind has been this paranoia, this belief that I am being watched, I'm not sure by what or who.

At one point it was so bad I though people were watching me through my cat, spying on me through my cat and my Mom and pretty much everyone close to me. 

We had this new neighbour next door and my Mom noticed I had started to close all the curtains in the house, especially when I was in view of this neighbour, it got so bad she got angry with me doing it. 

It got so bad I was paranoid about how I looked around my cats, and i didn't want to say anything stupid around them. 

I still have this delusion, a part of me thinks it's not real but there's this other part of me that is glued to the delusion, it ""knows"" it's real. 

Any opinions or thoughts on what you think would be greatly appreciated, I'm not looking for professional diagnosis because I know that is against the rules, I'm just wondering what other people think.

Thank you for reading..",4.262172284644199,5.019250666666668,4.779269662921352,87.21736891385771,70.42322097378278,7.281647940074906,29.065543071161052,7.1686216300943375,1.4211632958801497,1036,38,219,9,18,330,142,267,0.092,0.868,0.04,-0.7419,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,1,2,1,0,20,9,1,1,7,0,23,4,2,1,2,45,48,19,0,3,9,2,1,0,2,3,1,1,2,0,27,12,1,0,11,1,0,1,4,6,0,3,18,8,38,3,32,24,5,30,2,1,6,0,11,15,0,8,14,163,65,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06897442026094858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08346648336118281,0.2708768876637183,0.0,0.0,0.0952948096117221,0.07799176057700766,0.2540640696104767,0.06182947966242774,0.0,0.0,0.342823382314755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08735966383974632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06699214236861503,0.0,0.0,0.09691866310383576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05128497161289136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3244844885533877,0.11182456942781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11703412798080648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1114841942956863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17034770774015826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10241322083469437,0.2375821584186606,0.08095874706500737,0.0,0.07456114467604791,0.0,0.0,0.09795965546341318,0.10786967564185816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547628643511505,0.0,0.0,0.13746028054091186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219672968179096,0.0,0.14063460893055707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917642167996161,0.0,0.0,0.10318859363150668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014553039235687,0.2308942112627753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08065950219093528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08593949333213266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14358231719519285,0.0,0.08100041690534443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161106288385296,0.0,0.0,0.09559455402981352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09338114263946773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599634988596273,0.09965235364604083,0.08052238814608882,0.059143398556175335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0598247774360047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940246387717608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1099941833234599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14410287773960212,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,youseesurth,2020/03/14,"Do certain environments affect the intensity of your delusions/hallucinations? I am very high functioning and can usually reason away any hallucinations and or delusions and ground myself back into collective reality.  However I have realized that being in a large crowd extremely intensifies delusions of grandeur, feeling important like everyone knows who I am, knowing that everyone is in on the big secret and I have to pretend that I don't know that they all know.  Every broken sentence I hear from a passerby is somehow directed at my current experience or mood or inner thoughts.  Audio hallucinations sky rocket.  I can hear people's thoughts and some people know I can, so they target me with questions that I have no answers to.

At first I played into it because I really enjoyed the attention I was perceiving, but I have grounded myself outside of those experiences and consistently remind myself that it's all a fabrication of my mind to get those 'feel goods' going.

Are there certain environments that trigger you?",12.04954545454546,10.917244863636368,11.69568181818182,50.39477272727274,54.90909090909091,14.481818181818182,48.13636363636364,13.22790407523584,6.842377272727273,840,46,113,25,8,279,111,176,0.028999999999999998,0.872,0.099,0.8155,2,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,2,1,4,7,0,0,6,0,16,0,0,3,4,38,29,11,0,0,4,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,12,9,0,0,16,2,0,1,2,0,0,1,3,5,23,6,17,25,3,19,0,0,0,0,10,14,0,6,5,93,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11088739200212876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15320161980637909,0.1253842061349699,0.0,0.09940075933479084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13738632223244396,0.31162444707061865,0.0,0.31901081566730155,0.0,0.0,0.16489755853088256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13870000406523245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08519288856493724,0.0,0.09267159181098544,0.13676822560648522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675642578789327,0.0,0.0,0.17228339697223005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4480716006070728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0796635982537281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16464560226723618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22609258549111716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826661660654176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10446135385008082,0.16765435019795422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2589051879094437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17958917332712016,0.13454279088238133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,autistic-love,2020/03/14,"Weird schizophrenic symptoms, US government mind control drug? Let me be first to say I'm autistic and was diagnosed with Aspergers years ago growing up. 6 years ago I took depakote from my pdoc and ever since I've been getting voices that I'm on a US government mind control drug from the CIA/NSA/DARPA. The voices say they can read my thoughts and are being wireelssly transmitted from my brain to and from. To be honest in a previous life I was living at my parents house completing my associates degree and before that working in IT. The voices say some people in the NSA thought I was a possible terrorist because of my internet history (to be honest I was having ADD and constantly checking [airliners.net](https://airliners.net) because I'm a plane nerd). The voices say Snowden even destroyed my laptop (which really happened, the HD crashed) while in the NSA. They say I'm the dumbest Chinese/Korean American in America. I would do traceroutes  ([https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Traceroute](https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Traceroute)) around the world to IPs and using [bgp.he.net](https://bgp.he.net) to test how they routed sub-sea fiber optic cables (from America to Asia for example, east or west-bound across the Atlantic or Pacific) and other manual work. I was calculating nerdy stuff like how between 2 cities what's the largest transmission delay or latency can happen which was Perth in Australia to Johannesburg in South Africa via Sydney/LA/NYC/London). I was also researching least cost routing and posting stuff on online forums. During this period I was using the internet at home and not keeping up with hygeine and I got tons of acne and acne scars. I was also researching and posting about the Chinese firewall. The voices the US government targeted me because I HAD the dumbest internet history in the world. I really need to heal and PRAY TO GOD EVERYDAY FOR BETTER HEALTH! They also say Russia told the US gov to do this to me and not make me healthy unless Snowden came home or else Russia would do something to US government employees (Snowden apparently STOLE everything). Any thoughts?",9.762354423663618,10.737608105849583,8.56349383207322,64.11508820798517,58.4707520891365,11.62918158907017,38.822257593845336,11.303756567709739,4.878282026794004,1726,78,246,43,21,532,197,359,0.064,0.879,0.057,-0.3206,3,0,3,0,0,0,77.0,5,0,4,6,9,7,1,0,22,0,25,9,1,7,1,46,44,26,0,3,7,1,0,1,0,2,8,11,2,0,11,20,0,4,3,1,2,3,2,3,0,1,18,11,32,4,43,19,3,36,1,0,0,0,17,20,0,5,12,166,43,12,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14665481231906088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19845648597756668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056253293651324116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07363945961152721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15127833750253342,0.0,0.07038969982465845,0.0,0.0,0.0731602324822143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092344284081816,0.0,0.09461108461229407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08673166760897491,0.08939229514113822,0.18555785476359704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396033795720162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19186079942123996,0.0,0.06910299843810573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054636612279388,0.07482611584208533,0.0,0.0,0.07434453487906786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07036266177106577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0432184443237329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06615974860983341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463002746218185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08792883150094828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16595233756300026,0.0,0.0,0.09544922804169448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07352645698583625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08458809321531824,0.0584284725231909,0.04041342938070044,0.0,0.07304438838739315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05521708360553679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16704978348774127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06133676637091101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09185217018557858,0.0,0.0,0.05734850632872107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0932557919144352,0.15844820223877232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08274364586907737,0.0,0.10598671512142087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3946995983743178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06842788135564189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06368286759041167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18939210435935253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0859790628786435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1970143219218501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790437091786706,0.09190636392678632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4975174548315041,0.14288921871199728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044412543862686,0.0,0.0,0.11752561988659785,0.0,0.0,0.10653955904764124
schizophrenia,BoatsAndAguerhoes,2020/03/14,"Hallucinating text messages? Hello all, I’ve never been diagnosed with anything bar anxiety and depression, but three times now in maybe the last month and a half I’ve replied to a Snapchat that ‘wasn’t there’? It’s fucking terrifying and I’m quite scared, but about 10 minutes ago I replied to a message from my friend and he was like ‘what the fuck are you talking about’, I said what he said and he was like ‘no I didn’t’. This has happened twice before now and it’s extremely startling.

I show absolutely no one other signs of schizophrenia, I’m extremely extroverted and confident, good hygiene, sleeping is fine etc (just based on the symptoms on webmd). 

I don’t even know if this is the right place to post this, I just googled it and all results came back to schizophrenia forums, I’m just wondering if anyone else has experienced anything similar?",5.371916666666667,7.116513025000002,5.392500000000003,80.14916666666669,68.75,8.583333333333334,33.333333333333336,9.075114841892004,2.9658333333333338,684,32,125,13,12,214,103,160,0.124,0.738,0.138,0.3625,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,1,10,10,2,2,7,0,11,6,1,1,3,24,22,12,0,2,7,0,0,2,1,0,2,2,0,0,10,10,1,0,2,2,0,1,6,5,0,4,8,3,8,5,12,14,3,15,0,1,0,2,11,5,2,3,10,78,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14930430081160348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12884958352626755,0.0,0.0,0.11777117262415815,0.17257790513526372,0.2772094324807419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12951337361471302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14332274202901624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19264068616219665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14506974452206806,0.17095435678351284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14070284776390862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878455681528305,0.11124737151265587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301297056050328,0.3114242873683294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412722929595022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489433579815587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09256550949183902,0.1372940963257534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16457417855357648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16921201093713056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344403611155362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12990470288251793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11413349653326567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759749963579098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16131075193528252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791475592645139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14383952158869653,0.32043372215436977,0.0,0.16862924530708676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685530699406066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17506474781890696,0.0,0.13537880398825866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821372177496372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826567018723796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Optimistic-Optimist,2020/03/14,What are signs that you DON’T have schizophrenia? My therapist just told me that people with schizophrenia typically don’t experience empathy. Are there other indicators that you probably do not have schizophrenia?,9.760909090909088,13.581357818181822,7.651515151515152,59.79727272727278,61.72727272727273,11.672727272727276,38.27272727272727,11.20814326018867,5.839654545454548,180,9,22,6,3,53,25,33,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,0,0,4,8,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,20,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4436666832191719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3144399580793671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4890121571798969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.526615710830016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4333940357245419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,hwettach,2020/03/14,Weight gain Started. On .5 rexulti about 2 months ago and have gained 10 lbs.   Any body else experienced the same?  I don't feel my eating habits have changed.   Is it possible the medication is causing this?,2.5734210526315806,5.5275989736842135,3.2108421052631577,85.57889473684213,85.57894736842105,7.2505263157894735,26.02105263157895,8.238735603445708,2.15414105263158,163,7,31,4,5,51,35,38,0.0,0.838,0.162,0.7476,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,0,5,4,1,1,0,4,7,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,7,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,15,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2606759077059604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1999781412164812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32664622333880083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30209158585543194,0.3110877788195597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3009077124956033,0.24565831230777205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1486909677049161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2962452644487233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23472440496091776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.331520497987423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081447353643548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35809885565259075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Who-are-you12,2020/03/14,"I need help This is no plan at self diagnosis or getting fake diagnosed by anyone but I really need help. Just as I finally gatherered the courage to admit I need to see a psychiatrist, my city got quarantined, so no psychiatrist for a couple of months.
When I turned twelve, I started distancing myself from everyone and isolating. There were days that I didn't say a single word. After a bit if hellish depression and feeling so exhausted with life, I started having hallucinations. A middle aged sounding man would talk to me, I would see shadows and auras of different colours. A few times I felt someone slap or touch me but no one was there. I had delusions thinking that supernatural beings wanted to communicate with me through numbers(idiotic yes but not because I was really young). The last hallucination I have had was about a year ago, that had stopped but since then I have realised I have a memory loss about a year in my mind, and I always feel like I dont who I am. Not in a cliche way, in a sense that I sometimes forget everything about myself. Someone has to shout my name several times and then I will notice someone is calling me and remember my name. I have moments of panic, forgetting every single thing and I'm terrified. My mother wants to take me to the psychiatrist because she thinks I'm schizophrenic since I sometimes talk aloud and start laughing pointlessly. Could this actually be schizophrenia 
Thanks for reading",6.6373375262054495,8.03865024528302,7.027893081761008,70.89798218029351,65.41509433962264,10.41719077568134,34.72222222222222,10.504223727775694,3.952555555555557,1165,53,196,30,18,379,158,265,0.151,0.74,0.109,-0.9269,1,1,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,0,2,9,10,1,1,14,1,24,4,0,0,0,42,47,21,0,9,10,1,4,1,0,3,4,3,0,2,8,10,0,1,7,1,0,0,7,6,0,1,10,10,35,4,26,31,4,26,1,2,3,0,15,5,0,3,21,139,43,1,0.0,0.0,0.1125371084822188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10222551514011176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09595669194285476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0806354453603519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405977818360912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259011650291212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11775610316134287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09207480107061912,0.12760100072869432,0.0,0.0743728006288959,0.0,0.09932620349446948,0.1170488531987612,0.0,0.1204863795395006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13515589086081706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09716330282468624,0.11019459588950126,0.10364349121160002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11661998919717753,0.08238567321917149,0.11072668528134323,0.12632902126256662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060250702512727836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09223310542945602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1545950859422522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09400238068363474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08145495682117149,0.056340239664725726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11644179894981192,0.0,0.09204848819458962,0.0,0.0,0.25652820143346033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13129424520543334,0.0,0.0,0.07814480503530473,0.0,0.0,0.13530488452208025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11535266643872764,0.0,0.1477557589821735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13063673226161146,0.0,0.0,0.0917082527134723,0.0,0.0,0.18379254391060212,0.0,0.12030543221882478,0.13028042351182512,0.0,0.19079020486033607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2931344934629432,0.0,0.2281117430585929,0.0,0.2448753663149158,0.0,0.0,0.09641390332176204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08670738509563823,0.1853820405912436,0.0,0.10617250534947552,0.0,0.0,0.0766144529820852,0.1477866686634254,0.0,0.0,0.1344897400503148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12543663179930814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13603916856915424,0.09153680623463263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16384211121460676,0.0,0.0,0.14852647702757935
schizophrenia,hiLeyefe,2020/03/14,"Paranoia around contaminated food? This is becoming extremely disruptive. I notice if I get into a TINY argument or disagreement with somebody I become TERRIFIED of them doing something to my food/drink. I don’t EVER leave food out around anyone, ragrdless of relationship I’m paranoid they secretly don’t like me that much. 

Ex: I came home and kinda got pissed someone was in the bathroom. So I made tea, and when I went to jump in the shower after they got out, I hid my tea in my room and put a tissue over the top so I can tell if they touched it or not. 

I don’t know if this is something schizos do? I haven’t been dxed schizophrenia, just bipolar2 but my doc is concerned about my other delusional thoughts so I’m trying to keep a closer attention to anything that might not be considered normal I’ve been doing.",4.058592162554426,5.965157723270444,5.061761006289308,80.55661828737304,72.39622641509433,8.162747943880017,29.211901306240932,8.841846274778883,2.4865883889695213,654,27,120,13,13,214,102,159,0.11199999999999999,0.866,0.022000000000000002,-0.8456,1,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,4,1,9,2,1,0,6,0,16,5,1,1,1,29,27,13,0,4,9,1,1,1,0,1,0,0,3,0,6,10,4,1,4,0,0,4,6,1,0,0,9,1,21,1,18,16,1,19,0,0,0,0,8,12,1,7,4,85,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10477803402350927,0.0,0.1233131109290952,0.2667950882915997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33099330262615906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17138754687812627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14679515270533786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13554716647785978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5435946864015513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07829001414461069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23969616377993516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15031095008669554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.133192840406409,0.0,0.0,0.08235319294893287,0.0,0.0,0.15866864995314087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07320874240977264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14179092164871548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1589663043662018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101563925324518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14682038489129814,0.0,0.17060428983492662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15063981912265334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16088194474416634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1269667278133345,0.2307224465127193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13097479219069968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189635142380054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10173775996915237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13891169537786474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,admcstlo,2020/03/14,"Scared Hi,

I’m 27 about to turn 28. I am medically diagnosed with general anxiety disorder and adhd ever since 2009. Have had a few panic episodes here and there... 

Anyways I feel scared because lately I have been having delusions, like I know what I believe and think is crazy... but I just can’t help it... it’s gotten worse over the past year... I fear I am starting to have grandiose delusions ...I can expand on this if anyone is interested. I’ve tried talking to a counselor but I was too afraid they were out to get me and cancelled.",1.7401428571428568,4.281197990476191,3.1063095238095246,88.37660714285717,83.38095238095238,5.785714285714287,24.940476190476193,7.1686216300943375,1.2399047619047618,419,17,82,6,12,136,79,105,0.184,0.7090000000000001,0.107,-0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,0,7,7,0,5,3,0,14,2,0,0,1,15,22,7,0,1,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,5,1,12,2,9,17,1,8,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,6,56,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2451644112706543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15605693014572794,0.0,0.0,0.1426392476902491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12435450525755178,0.0,0.0,0.2298344432204459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207052373663542,0.0,0.0,0.2337979111351653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18452670956403688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295530210945788,0.1031468695335658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1065798649814389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13673469934262186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121112606912443,0.0,0.23011718225389635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09966249165675517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20550523084004965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23934619385800746,0.0,0.0,0.1947379490915264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4084726024752741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16874819235095298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14438992626191538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16396483387081282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13071285923078774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13850038015062385,0.22188984897018504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078900825558262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1313671974565289
schizophrenia,Evaleenora,2020/03/14,"Dating after schizophrenia diagnosis It’s late at night, so of course I’m having these thoughts again. But has anyone had any experience with dating again after being diagnosed with schizophrenia? I was officially diagnosed when I was 22 and it’s been five years now. During this time I have not been on a single date or really talked to any people I may like. I think part of this stems from my ex boyfriend. He was there when I had my psychotic break, and ended up telling me that he couldn’t be with someone like me because it was too hard and stressful. I can’t say I blame him, because he was unlucky enough to be with me at the onset of this disease. Those weren’t fun times. I did try once semi recently, and even told him about my diagnosis, but that ended the conversation fast and it’s honestly kind of depressing. I truly don’t mean this in an arrogant way, but I have always been considered reasonably attractive, well before the wonderful weight gain associated with antipsychotics, I’m stable with my own place and I have a great job, but I guess I can’t get over the stigma of having this illness. I’m so afraid that people won’t be able to accept me with my illness and that it will be a deal breaker for any romantic relationship. I’m afraid that I’ll never have my own family, and often wonder if it would be selfish of me to even have kids in case I pass this on to them. I think about these things a lot, and it has left me utterly paralyzed to even pursue any kind of romantic affections. I’m too embarrassed to talk about this with anyone, since almost nobody knows about my diagnosis. It’s one of my most guarded secrets. Does anyone have any advice? Has anyone lived through this? My psychiatrist keeps telling me that I just need to put myself out there, and I won’t know until I truly try. Part of me wants to scream at him that he’s a doctor, and I’m just sitting here on his plush leather couch with a serious mental disorder. How in the world do you break out of this self deprecation and see yourself as a human worthy of love.",5.1193333333333335,6.0074413777777815,5.847654320987655,79.85444444444445,68.55555555555556,9.160493827160494,27.839506172839503,9.348350401419415,2.2596172839506177,1638,52,318,32,27,535,205,405,0.086,0.762,0.152,0.9859,2,0,0,0,0,0,34.0,0,1,1,1,24,19,0,4,13,0,39,7,0,3,1,58,61,25,0,5,9,1,3,2,0,5,5,2,1,3,28,23,1,2,11,0,0,2,9,8,1,2,14,6,43,11,53,35,8,43,0,1,1,1,25,16,0,10,23,226,71,2,0.09740991140722564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951878380471926,0.0,0.0,0.09754195544178644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08105284963611739,0.0,0.0,0.3312104004255349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724450997967374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11876035573547,0.0,0.0828886600285655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10042534140599314,0.08389901395890202,0.19773801923161471,0.0,0.0,0.11164019767163147,0.09970317193666099,0.08524406990627226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17255253742661392,0.10065047779432093,0.0,0.19301498336915435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09528558485279827,0.09182939521462613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0508926582644475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10739477121366273,0.10730799950557633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08726014736437343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09666430647576683,0.08658240497381603,0.0,0.20287486577919647,0.10706787964029664,0.0,0.10988262294444333,0.0,0.10583615376150478,0.0,0.0,0.0951791246977824,0.0,0.08601473640488716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08281442326702695,0.08791624818187971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10610795021653036,0.0,0.0,0.0981662796428081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0722282150319521,0.07512852880780703,0.0,0.0,0.09141260312731428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10373837653310228,0.066007476957858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21097088305491046,0.0,0.13506353503619206,0.0,0.10177262477776053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09792386576232501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062403283570804075,0.10015361252446313,0.09618053589536127,0.10458179020968038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07746427129858584,0.0,0.0,0.07762308768781401,0.0,0.10161978191002673,0.0,0.0,0.0805784853223067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08253510182823184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11158272440324077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15658879393452813,0.17028111217111475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06471481677597309,0.12483267597983595,0.0,0.07733258886464657,0.1136010053826203,0.0,0.0,0.09307934475964956,0.0,0.13226987138197827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057454889551760674,0.07731945361689345,0.0,0.11861902971107875,0.08758320881516485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21127378738502686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06919720623679966,0.0,0.0,0.06272878923685668
schizophrenia,blairenyaa,2020/03/14,"Mom on Meth induced Psychosis, How to stop? I am a minor. No I don't have SCZ or any hallucinations or delusions. No I cannot just move out, because i'm 15.

Mom (homophobe) found out i'm a lesbian and has been using stimulants (Ritalin, Addy, Vyvanse, Focalin) and meth to ""cope"". She had her first ""Split from reality in about November of last year when she tried to order food but ended up in a huge word salad. Ever since she's just gotten more crazy. Less in touch with reality. Please tell me if im using these terms correctly. I'll give a list of all her symptoms she has that i can think of:

Language:

Random words "" Pink Potato Rich Jump Sea""

Sentences that mean something but are word saladified: ""I think and want and feel like I have 2 tons of caterpillars in my H.O"" which means ""I have butterflies in my stomach""

Complete Bullshit: ""Hello i am completely non laundry ribs now, are you become?""

Non words: ""I have a Gint out my finger"" (like tint but with a G sound)

Loop: ""I want to be able to be able to be able to...""

Salad song: Singing nonsense to the tune of a song. 

Beliefs/Delusions:
She has Bizzare and Non- Bizzare delusions

Persecutory: 
Bizzare: ""The (Non word) is trying to summon satan incarnated as (long 20 second non word)""
Non-Bizzare: ""The coronavirus is an attempt by russia to take down the catholic church""

Grandiose (with a sprinkle of NPD) :
Bizzare: ""And the angel(litteral) gave me these bars of soap (which are real, but bought from walmart for 25¢ each) and they will give me the strength to save the world from satan""
Non-Bizzare is usually just NPD manipulation

Religious: ""I am Jesus's Wife""

reference:
Bizarre: ""My reciept ended in .27 today, I must be getting a free gift""
Non-Bizzare: ""The cashier thinks you're low energy because he told you that the energy drinks are buy one get one (and i had bought an odd number)""

Somatic: (Ties into Munchausen)
She claims that she is allergic to all perfumes, but not essential oils. Her worst trigger is Fabuloso. I left a dixie cup of that under her sink. For two weeks she didn't complain of any symptoms. 

Perception: (She doesn't have Synethesia as these only showed up in the past year)

Visual Hallucinations: Seeing Shadows come alive, Seing demons, meeting Satan

Audio hallucinations: I am walking away from her tweaking away on meth, and she says ""Whaaaaat did you fuckin say? Did you just call me a bitchy fuck?""
I didn't say anything. Not even under my breath.

And to top it all off shes disoriented, angry, and violent constantly.

What do i do. CPS and cops will not intervene in religious situations in florida.",3.7128157349896473,6.13068715527951,4.524778467908907,81.73942443064185,74.96273291925466,7.2746997929606625,28.12463768115942,8.238735603445708,2.1328431469979288,2028,84,367,36,45,652,267,483,0.10800000000000001,0.797,0.095,-0.8636,1,0,5,0,0,0,118.0,0,4,1,4,10,12,3,0,23,0,42,16,4,7,6,70,68,24,0,4,15,3,3,2,0,3,4,7,0,0,12,21,5,1,10,6,5,4,10,6,0,5,13,14,47,7,58,48,9,50,6,1,2,3,37,28,2,4,19,228,59,0,0.310089916871784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14058118460610228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08505919340407975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942264562912708,0.0,0.0,0.12601862344965886,0.11415665021914045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10554549175241104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08903833538245158,0.21674891875500704,0.1116990128924098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012566886900156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18309841785656694,0.0,0.0,0.06827048852205192,0.09349802759776883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052263593043293255,0.07384276619069917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.087920774960544,0.12498731944960888,0.11333252948930675,0.0,0.09555771047520434,0.10800612205077943,0.19831100264186666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11165010730614046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08425488980012906,0.0,0.0,0.11230453399734827,0.0,0.0,0.10099618009122913,0.0,0.0,0.09147327282363683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22518588363167755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2421157085874043,0.0,0.10985883587084888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14008330190829776,0.0786124516559344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09867197101985817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134618701569468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11765007090748322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24659594799436385,0.0,0.0,0.08236717208997818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08550319453904122,0.1161846862740326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0795741225435153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641635180405154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148681032922549,0.0777163421070909,0.0,0.09034408503742727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19869309784937506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09797632777738706,0.09876806806081292,0.0,0.1403537991461403,0.0,0.10097093031884803,0.0,0.0,0.17854541778906294,0.1138400780869321,0.0,0.12193271141579427,0.0,0.08291180899303255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331251598454328
schizophrenia,LivingAgency8,2020/03/14,"Regarding self improvement, attempting to stabilize life.. Does anyone else here struggle with very basic stuff like keeping your room clean, showering everyday, at least brushing your teeth once a day? What about participating in entertainment, like watching new shows on Netflix, or playing a game that takes effort, or even picking up new crafts? Lastly, larger life goals like writing a book, starting a blog, getting a part time job, or getting into a relationship?

I feel like I don't even know where to start, but when I do I can keep up with only a few things before others start to fall behind. I'll shower every day, but my writing falls behind, or I'll start a writing habit and all of a sudden I realize I haven't brushed my teeth in a week. It's like each habit I try to build pops one off the list and I spend my time going in circles rather than making progress.",7.63284848484848,7.423260406060606,7.221818181818186,75.939393939394,63.12121212121213,9.757575757575758,34.09090909090909,9.150863307647796,2.9295454545454542,697,26,125,10,9,219,112,165,0.011000000000000001,0.8440000000000001,0.145,0.951,3,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,2,0,4,7,8,0,1,11,0,4,4,2,2,1,24,17,9,0,1,7,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,4,1,6,6,0,2,3,7,1,3,2,1,0,1,0,4,13,7,20,17,5,29,0,0,1,0,8,11,0,4,20,74,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10152543510428348,0.1487719491777341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12355233815384507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18728069052088214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12706326953578612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12129384060078847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918030965535866,0.0,0.12233511641638285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07341619490156567,0.10372908939185152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15171935271411374,0.0,0.08251905858217355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14408606770799492,0.2581163351853309,0.0,0.0,0.07979672289414648,0.11835530339164065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051145100200875,0.3546807064981731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969204273138626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28046520966326804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15463054864841175,0.09838955185146996,0.1104292058083559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572346921450572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1558877258272471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15147260980381058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4110860180712656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15179190355935998,0.16621634542954658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10917041456458222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09646273595343016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693316049120982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09857953953484004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11980310498255907,0.0,0.0,0.11646863857277392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,225rhodes,2020/03/14,"Geodon: do you have experience with medication? Also known as ziprasidone. Does it cause weight gain, sexual dysfunction, does it treat the illness well overall?

I also suffer from anxiety. Will Geodon also help with that?

Currently I am on olanzapine (Zyprexa) but it’s causing medical issues. My doctor recommended Geodon but I was hesitant.

Any advice on this medication?",4.938360655737707,8.4589042295082,5.939819672131151,63.34186065573771,88.67213114754101,9.65311475409836,30.69016393442623,9.120678840339163,4.732952786885246,302,15,39,11,10,99,48,61,0.16,0.6970000000000001,0.14300000000000002,-0.2869,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,0,1,4,3,0,0,1,0,5,6,0,2,0,7,5,6,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,5,2,6,3,0,3,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,28,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783775260309429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4379353232047892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12413453868830115,0.0,0.1396438143160909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3750409862164556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18683904910921395,0.3194867455893029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17856069894167464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1223537778664314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1905259908975248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5516743332631591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2222864758159846,0.1641268089580415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,braindead0987,2020/03/15,"My boyfriend left me and I’m now on 35 mg zyprexa and 1.5mg klonopin. Keep me company. I can barely move but I’m sane, I have ZERO energy and I’m mad hungry 24/7 but my mind and emotions are super on point. I’m alone tho, would like someone to chat with.",-2.44345238095238,-1.351462249999997,0.1371428571428588,102.39119047619049,117.92857142857143,3.295238095238096,15.38095238095238,5.46131890053228,-0.8168761904761901,198,6,48,2,12,66,40,56,0.11,0.7090000000000001,0.18100000000000002,0.6652,0,1,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,2,3,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,10,9,7,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,6,2,4,8,0,6,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,23,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3488853383485137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789221273105568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29941662004354325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3659993441769354,0.0,0.0,0.16457276639711768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34013254276987875,0.0,0.0,0.35802883863728663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3184415554003915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28542036031260953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23929565844404824,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Formal-Lavishness,2020/03/15,"not sure what to do... sorry if this is hard to understand, my mind feels like it's been in chaos for the past few weeks or so, my sense of time is pretty much gone.

background info, I have diagnoses of depression, GAD, social anxiety, dysthymia, panic disorder, and ADHD. I'm currently in the process of switching to Effexor XR from Zoloft for depression/GAD/social anxiety, while also being on 30mg of Vyvanse a day for ADHD, 40mg propranolol and 50mg topamax a day for essential tremor, 7.5mg zopiclone at night for sleep, 1mg ativan as needed for panic disorder/GAD. I'm also nearing 6 months clean from a nasty meth/heroin/fentanyl addiction, which I guess could definitely contribute to how I'm feeling at the moment?

Basically, I feel if I look at someone they can read my thoughts, I also feel that people are watching me through my window (have to have the curtains closed in every room I go in). If I go outside and for example my neighbours are outside or they come out at the same time as me, I feel like it's a sign they're watching me (if they're talking, I usually can't make it out since they're far away, however I hear them talking about ""the person over there"" or something like that, I know they're talking about me). It's been getting worse over the past 2-3 weeks, I fear that if I'm alone someone is going to come into my apartment to kill me. I also been feeling that if I kill myself I'll redeem myself for all the bad shit I've done during my addiction, make all that know me feel better, ascend into another life where I can be happier instead of paranoid. However if I tell people this especially those at the hospital they'll keep me there for a few days on suicide watch, where I won't get better and it'll be even easier for me to be watched and monitored.

I've been in the hospital lots of times, they are nice to me but it does not help. I know they are just throwing different shit at me to see what works, nothing does, not sure what to do or who to trust.",8.156086111111113,5.931483947499999,8.505166666666668,73.66494444444447,63.275,11.788888888888893,37.47222222222222,10.380263240014207,3.695280555555557,1569,61,309,29,18,523,197,400,0.129,0.799,0.07200000000000001,-0.9593,4,1,2,0,0,3,53.0,0,0,6,3,15,18,4,3,15,0,28,8,3,3,4,56,60,26,3,9,16,0,8,3,1,3,5,1,4,1,19,12,0,1,13,1,0,7,5,9,0,0,7,15,43,9,56,45,7,50,0,1,6,0,16,27,2,13,19,200,62,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1864329604062811,0.20552830447365344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08856063195476196,0.0,0.2735232739536293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08966272703857016,0.13082696663834278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08033770033008282,0.0,0.07139571459758026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15124997966057366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14731536048040006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06827128176927119,0.0,0.0,0.1654370045440829,0.0,0.07364802472548307,0.08678894925196445,0.0,0.08933779352498017,0.09799972193362992,0.0,0.14965747681452507,0.08750450198978571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05647731161863831,0.0,0.07204428516429237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09622041585858197,0.3026483486731813,0.12217404642087132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934893456654022,0.0,0.1457887177974741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419684246468156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07659848653035083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09637387398007596,0.0,0.05731429527832065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07600355238295155,0.1892041474929891,0.0,0.14097909155850594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06039691906992922,0.1253248554123505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07180529113865793,0.0,0.0,0.07269595200945128,0.0,0.0,0.1141546778748134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08633883292048887,0.0,0.06825177139561105,0.0,0.0628583122381878,0.06340319290470399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08024358496798381,0.0,0.0820473542870985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20065072720343435,0.0,0.0,0.16325436586011072,0.11856113795007465,0.07466239853411802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08699250616510958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08553126698840201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0681389066634423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17554572772551294,0.07073320649830535,0.0,0.0855698802216717,0.0871647674642558,0.14490151751112265,0.06582833392525357,0.0,0.0957193478306278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09353201270795997,0.0,0.1611807960187242,0.0,0.0,0.20618458113952715,0.0747378721614307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06788390170567439,0.1495814299562082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08901697609912168,0.0,0.0,0.09417512169594393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1371789238582052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062250935052921674,0.0,0.0871400868566872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,natetescomlg,2020/03/15,Covid and paranoia I need someone to talk to about this stuff please,5.359230769230769,7.251840307692312,3.0953846153846136,96.0246153846154,69.0,5.2,28.384615384615394,3.1291,0.5270615384615382,56,2,11,0,1,15,12,13,0.14,0.6990000000000001,0.161,0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35232424402102297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5215816964099409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40260052590204537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5439431676952985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3819146605017196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Huptux,2020/03/15,"Can you become psychotic even if you're on antipsychotic medicine? I don't really know how to phrase this, but if you're taking abilify for example, can you still become psychotic if you haven't had any big symptoms for a while and is on the medicine? 

Sorry for my bad grammar :)",7.0205555555555526,6.837065129629629,7.381851851851858,74.19833333333334,64.37037037037037,11.644444444444444,34.66666666666667,11.20814326018867,3.902933333333333,223,9,42,6,3,73,39,54,0.11599999999999999,0.813,0.071,-0.3736,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,1,0,7,8,7,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,5,0,6,7,0,5,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,2,29,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20766207802165584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2549712025914684,0.0,0.6745143675071578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2016940112400719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678233710876127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19562784751080484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3418367245878562,0.0,0.0,0.2438688840231936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3173963639249673,0.2296002433529055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BaldNBankrupt,2020/03/15,"How to treat schizophrenia Ok so I have schizophrenia for a year and I started taking meds 3 months ago, so far so great, however I want to discontinue my meds I honestly think that the doctor is giving me poison, is there any natural ways to treat or at least lower schizophrenia?",3.8652830188679235,6.369574773584912,4.3515471698113215,82.74392452830193,74.84905660377359,7.258867924528303,25.69433962264151,8.238735603445708,1.8475086792452835,225,8,40,4,5,71,41,53,0.087,0.5660000000000001,0.34600000000000003,0.9426,2,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,5,6,1,0,2,1,3,2,0,1,0,5,8,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,5,5,8,1,7,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,4,25,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2470589719346609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18953187662466364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2852707713632834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26736335016201085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072779795207276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6191663881378215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22246309867282532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19727187213148714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095547025760647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17858566120009448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1643899621512073,0.22122646397539955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17947964688275905
schizophrenia,witchfinder_,2020/03/15,"DAE like to be around people but not talk to them? I just feel like when I'm in a cafe or out in the streets that I can focus on my thing better than when I'm in a small room because the voices can at least be drowned out in a crowd. Some times I even put static on so there can be at least some noise around me when I'm alone. At the same time I absolutely despise talking to most people, because I never have anything to say and I am too self-conscious. Sometimes I feel I am invisible to people and they are visible to me. Is this relatable for anyone? The doctors tell me that being in crowded places is bad for me but I only feel like I can focus when it's crowded..",4.766520979020979,4.089711272727275,5.8218094405594405,85.16040646853149,69.13986013986013,8.268881118881119,29.063811188811197,7.1686216300943375,1.4306930069930073,524,16,117,4,8,175,82,143,0.113,0.804,0.083,-0.7506,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,1,11,6,1,0,7,0,14,1,0,0,1,19,20,10,1,0,5,0,3,3,0,0,1,2,1,0,5,6,0,0,3,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,0,5,17,4,23,16,6,26,0,0,0,0,9,18,0,4,10,88,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18366689789607674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12399764595600547,0.0,0.14593264335622871,0.31573376241589274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14806838133121647,0.216205093137409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15683952314891164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18151119067608765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11712893638568472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26899964526595804,0.25337813895676625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25991263741905885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13677266683462033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13487222734837268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3688279307239316,0.0,0.1852786620808551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17827193583586834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1410249227295815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1850004092392471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17539010932340224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2850723590985142,0.1549997197654982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11781434049915653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2068124147755233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,bipolarplanet2,2020/03/15,"Testimonials Hello.

I’m going to be part of a radio project about mental health facilities as was wondering on the prospect of anyone being interested in giving testimonials about mental health facilities.

I have schizophrenia and been committed myself so understand this is a sensitive subject.

Your testimonials would be voice acted. And I will check with you if I can use.

This isn’t the call for testimonials just putting out a feeler if anyone would be interested.

Thanks.",5.864074074074075,9.36729565432099,7.0039506172839525,60.87777777777782,73.93827160493828,9.525925925925927,29.987654320987648,9.725611199111238,3.9981950617283952,392,17,55,12,9,131,58,81,0.0,0.8170000000000001,0.183,0.9186,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,4,3,0,0,5,0,13,2,0,1,1,13,20,6,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,1,1,3,1,0,0,0,2,1,6,3,11,11,1,6,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,3,0,44,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30605249992244515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2234721318434909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099425650143211,0.12437850743697708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4652584066943278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4411022303602766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23699514587699844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22000648160667266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20148931118332672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22783241647976776,0.0,0.1890176666086602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2373354148983117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31093204424996834,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,joocypamps,2020/03/15,"I just realized that I could very possibly have Schizohrenia :/ So to give you a backstory, throughout my middle and high school years I was the most energetic, outgoing, personable individual. I could literally talk to anyone I wanted and flirt with any girl I wanted with little to no nerves. Also, I was comfortable expressing myself in a classroom full of 30 kids and making everyone laugh, in fact I took pleasure in doing things like that. I experimented with acid a total of 4 times, the first time was an amazing trip, the second was bad, the third was bad and the 4th was TERRIBLE. After the 4th I feel like I was pushed to some sort of breaking point (what I now believe is schizophrenia). I know this isn’t all in my head because I vividly remember my first shift back to work as a busser feeling socially awkward with those that I interacted with and especially nervous to approach tables. Prior to this I had been bussing confidently for months, super eager to interact with customers and get the job done. Also, not too long after a coworker of mine whom I’ve known since middle school was busting my balls like he usually does and rather than clapping back at him I would take his insults personally and they would actually ruin my entire shift. My coworker began to notice this and he would say chill dude you know I’m kidding and I would tell him I know yet it seemed like my self esteem had completely vanished and I couldn’t find a way to combat it. Fast forward to now, my circle of friends that consisted of 5 or so close friends and dozens of acquaintances has dwindled down to 1. I have been working at a hospital for over a year now and I still get anxious before coming to work everyday. On top of that, once I get to work I become fearful of literally every human interaction I have. I try to connect with people and often I come up empty handed. I try to share my ideas with people but my words often come out jumbled or I have to think super hard just to communicate an idea and even then it doesn’t come out like I want it to come out. Keep in mind I used to tackle public speaking effortlessly, not just individually but in front of large classrooms too. The relationships I do form often wither very quickly. Honestly I’ve been enduring these feelings for close to 2 years now and I’m just tired and fed up with it. I can’t envision myself living the rest of my life like this or someone wanting to spend the rest of their life with me in my current state. This is the most I’ve ever opened up about how I’ve been feeling. I try to get my single friend to understand but it seems like he just can’t grasp what I’m feeling. Please help.",5.775856236786468,6.5100938372093085,6.401592670894996,77.01641649048628,67.02325581395347,9.277801268498942,30.752642706131077,9.339509955726095,2.659283720930233,2124,78,395,39,33,695,266,516,0.059000000000000004,0.8029999999999999,0.138,0.9895,2,0,0,0,0,0,38.0,0,2,2,9,29,28,1,3,21,0,35,6,2,3,4,99,71,30,0,12,14,0,7,7,3,4,3,2,0,7,22,38,1,1,19,1,1,11,8,8,0,5,18,11,58,20,72,46,10,70,0,1,1,0,36,29,0,12,36,277,80,9,0.0,0.0,0.07601331625940543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12458362141703727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05297059709484775,0.0,0.0,0.08799805831494552,0.0,0.05446530209066901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11979136933990338,0.13007648745432485,0.047483464788711516,0.08602781291676592,0.06628206433831617,0.08775987383238308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33549395694415285,0.08167038624895034,0.0,0.0,0.12438405549416905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06816557203410305,0.07971261524187526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05144825818764746,0.07045959049102203,0.06562906196926341,0.07443106349893032,0.0,0.07619528731132466,0.0,0.08765241574249158,0.1969277565545001,0.055647495462728985,0.0,0.0,0.07119371288966418,0.1325132082149092,0.0,0.0,0.1805421539624055,0.0,0.16278561860064014,0.07472303103612933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06977773195734031,0.0,0.07994172546819373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05221071217470955,0.08229929699286746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758657093258071,0.0,0.0,0.07729778450800677,0.06923577404994684,0.0,0.0,0.12842553042429822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1100376840537399,0.26638554690691313,0.07807026032486125,0.06878183686969062,0.06893374662141845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051994855742150216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0786507438191791,0.0,0.06217425468543135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08868284531601786,0.0,0.08295457720452852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1080037958864834,0.13602808797381455,0.0,0.08550423054908123,0.07363501590061643,0.08781379115112903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0836290144502929,0.08823872745998387,0.0,0.0,0.06194444224775949,0.0,0.15766579097065644,0.0,0.14182356026500376,0.08126043924808056,0.0,0.0,0.06443472902778967,0.0,0.0,0.07940313256495987,0.065999340894919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06220625606094345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058566600601278024,0.06260825371438539,0.06808279702335775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05174931827476939,0.04991133562762493,0.0,0.0,0.09084124589628204,0.08952770446339303,0.0,0.0,0.08654310988781819,0.15865475666888068,0.0,0.0,0.08109041025812333,0.0,0.06727541395625132,0.08578924592910467,0.1285414299889055,0.18377561825746688,0.061828638531159975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268310645273881,0.0,0.0,0.2213346759008364,0.0,0.0,0.150483563467999
schizophrenia,onedoer,2020/03/15,Stressed out and anxious over all this Covid bullshit I'm having 2 week vacation right now and don't feel like I've been resting.,4.2723076923076935,5.89495161538462,4.003076923076924,89.51692307692308,71.30769230769229,6.7384615384615385,32.230769230769226,7.1686216300943375,1.895907692307692,106,5,21,1,2,32,24,26,0.364,0.636,0.0,-0.8523,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,5,5,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,2,4,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,11,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5069575811069551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269005044597284,0.3205857064877308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21923563686314693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3832283946211191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5140393909934636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35995862876484497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Dark_D_Lite,2020/03/15,"Looking for guidance... For context I am currently 23yrs and started having what I would consider auditory hallucinations about 7-8 months ago. Usually its just slight whispers and voices trying to get my attention by saying my name or other obscene and nonsense things, but other times full blown shouting, screaming, banging, doors slamming etc. I haven’t had any serious visual hallucinations but lately have been seeing lots of shadowy figures darting around in the distance or in the corners of my eyes throughout the day.

I have done psychedelics in the past but outside of cannabis my drug use is pretty minimal. I don’t know how to share some of the things I’m experiencing without scaring my family or experiencing social ridicule. It doesn’t effect me negatively all that often except when I’m trying to sleep or occasionally someone will catch me talking to the voices to try and get them to calm or quiet down. 

I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to downplay it if it is serious but also don’t know how to approach others because of the stigma. Any thoughts, experiences, advice are appreciated.",8.855909090909094,9.031225100000004,8.905909090909091,63.59545454545454,60.5,10.672727272727274,40.68181818181819,10.230975488527342,4.4880499999999985,900,45,137,17,11,295,128,200,0.071,0.8370000000000001,0.09300000000000001,0.7586,1,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,1,1,8,7,1,1,7,0,19,3,2,4,1,35,32,18,0,3,13,0,0,0,0,2,1,7,1,0,12,5,0,0,7,0,0,2,8,5,0,0,4,12,15,2,25,26,5,19,0,0,3,0,6,7,0,9,10,104,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16024715466329362,0.14536544847057545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1311411271581071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22303489753288905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14598406833417205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09996554961136084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057586797446226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16781663741411293,0.0,0.0,0.19017399232092425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18288994429036629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604117097976162,0.15459327157214398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1713539008226187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703705129800804,0.0,0.18498558255999714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13770860051106362,0.0,0.0,0.1394167150539052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13089363990100955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15654508110345644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16683472887554146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13040982249759092,0.1641805744112515,0.0,0.13067718726823627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641064086554722,0.1671650925862301,0.138946482020761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1160715352228036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1318073253629538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21789265237360692,0.0,0.0,0.1301881372929386,0.09562270901892443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3340112188407923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416329613138783,0.18060959026911527,0.0,0.09672435850049216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15807855934799278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11649235488044896,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,throwaway150am,2020/03/15,"Visual hallucinations where you cannot see things that really exist Hi all, I have a bit of a question that I haven’t been able to find an answer to with any internet searches, and seemed to confuse most of my medical providers. Brief history: I have bipolar type 2, which was previously diagnosed as major depressive disorder. I went through a really rough period several years ago when my meds stopped working and experienced some psychosis, mostly auditory and some visual hallucinations (I’m managing well now and never had a schizophrenia diagnosis but was on a bunch of different antipsychotics for a short while). My most common visual hallucinations were of spaces that blended into the background taking the place of objects/people that were really there. For example I would see a blank desk when it was really full of papers and stuff, not see people and dogs on the sidewalk until I passed them and they were in my peripheral vision, see closed mouths/blank expressions when someone was talking, etc. Has anyone else had any experiences like this? I remember it really unsettled me and kept me from driving for a while as I felt like I couldn’t deal with even going out safely. I haven’t been able to find anyone with similar hallucinations but I figured you folks would be a good group to ask. TIA ❤️",10.507917146144994,9.248061970464141,10.189098580744156,60.38661680092061,57.98734177215189,13.850249328730342,39.68891446106636,12.719339214003902,5.266049789029535,1065,43,170,31,11,349,146,237,0.043,0.852,0.105,0.9539,1,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,2,2,1,8,7,0,1,13,0,21,3,0,0,2,40,33,18,0,3,3,0,2,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,10,14,0,3,8,0,0,5,6,2,1,0,14,7,21,5,27,15,11,29,0,1,4,0,11,11,0,9,15,123,31,5,0.24533294321473226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087364258085535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16683481421111127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1715424981707945,0.12568629621470215,0.0,0.0,0.11467659219641045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13392001665763895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12646374596050114,0.10565245225048282,0.12450388657253435,0.0,0.12816035460209074,0.14058640378675158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024720968101102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368055412595885,0.0810200476016186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11999134708246988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11777904941461632,0.0,0.22422986551725327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06971418266441368,0.10288681651293262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11985728380909336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13625479677925598,0.12357356497708807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09460794505170286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17008297252674218,0.0,0.12816035460209074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374145217410961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3929164138309975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1389571999316124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3909971847578141,0.1116709487208691,0.0,0.13857819729334758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10393490332517516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025546629047622,0.0,0.0,0.14042376229422893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092229920617989,0.0985946633546403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08149415310973125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11029188962603356,0.1137130481228189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08930265228078829,0.0,0.0,0.17427748391373266,0.0,0.0,0.07899318593689385
schizophrenia,yume-hikki,2020/03/15,"Social delusions & visual misperceptions. Hello. I know this is a no-diagnosis subreddit, but I guess I just came to the realization tonight that I’ve been having delusions and I’m finding it challenging to cope with this knowledge.

I’m 24F, very introverted, and for the past two years have been having lots of visual distortions. At first I thought it was derealization disorder, but the distortions began to affect people as well. I am sometimes afraid when I am alone with someone that they are somehow a paranormal imposter. I know this sounds abnormal and I can convince myself that it isn’t true, but the fear is always there. People’s eyes sometimes shift in front of me, which makes me feel like there is something dark that has taken the form of my partner or friend. 

I am also very afraid that my friends and family are mocking me and only pretending to like me so they can laugh behind my back. 

I suffer with really bad self esteem and I think there is a lot wrong with how I look or act. I don’t really have a personality so I have to adapt to how other people are most of the time. When I’m alone I feel like I am a blank slate, I don’t really know what clothes I like or what hobbies I enjoy. Deep down I think I have a lot of potential. I think I could do great things in the world if I wasn’t afflicted with these issues. I don’t do art or write but I think if I did it would be really good because when I’ve tried in the past I’ve been very good. Sometimes I worry that this is another delusion and I only think I’m good at things when I’m not.

One time I was playing D&D with my friends and suddenly I was overcome with the realization that they were evil. It washed over me like a tidal wave, and my entire world shifted. In that moment I felt terrified and I excused myself. I did not talk to my friends for 2 years. I messaged in the group chat to apologize and I explained I had to work through some things. I deleted my Facebook because I believed they hated me. And then 2 years later all my friends gathered together and wrote me a get better card when I became very physically sick. It turned out I had imagined everything? They missed me and wondered why I left and hoped I was ok.

I don’t know what I expect from posting this. Maybe some reassurance or someone who can relate to my experiences. I don’t hear voices but I wonder if maybe I should speak with someone about this. I don’t really want to tell anyone because I’m afraid they’ll think I’m making things up for attention. I have a formal background in psychology so I can’t pretend I’ve never heard of these symptoms before.

Sometimes it feels like my whole life has been disordered. I don’t think I’ve ever been “okay.”",3.6629031007751927,5.329910012962966,4.669526270456501,83.95182170542638,72.94444444444444,7.615848406546083,26.632213608957795,8.283103749626381,1.7306838931955209,2157,76,425,35,43,703,242,540,0.114,0.708,0.17800000000000002,0.9863,0,2,1,0,0,0,45.0,0,0,6,4,20,38,3,4,19,2,55,5,1,5,4,89,97,41,0,9,16,0,4,6,6,3,4,5,0,3,33,25,0,0,23,5,0,3,13,11,1,3,22,11,78,27,45,70,9,42,0,2,2,0,32,16,0,19,28,292,111,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1445965498533154,0.0,0.05582407335699821,0.05808443415234218,0.15127019503679914,0.0,0.0,0.073197992686183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04881018844592325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053676736263596266,0.05828534517682485,0.12765981875272306,0.0,0.059400020320318464,0.07864779621745509,0.0,0.06173800011802848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0798398112578527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05573465082624307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1600081364078976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06314379536469257,0.0,0.0,0.06273740182898532,0.06828395675040567,0.06580716758928823,0.07855149546419916,0.10588848906032,0.14960890525629494,0.06702499565076146,0.0,0.06380169408634928,0.059377203616499175,0.0,0.0,0.26966087334734,0.0,0.036470910906526835,0.0,0.0,0.17565063897801028,0.0,0.07696169283215662,0.07689951012559841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06891926978401629,0.0,0.0,0.07867677412597708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06933340732201182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07285964156381541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1534548688347784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07584474983539594,0.0,0.04930625452030827,0.20462299447849724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058619711324815624,0.0,0.0,0.17804046137969595,0.0,0.0,0.09319249538974783,0.0,0.14025962308302192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05383892243259128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04730255587722732,0.10618167437357932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13327602531066615,0.14518469817678922,0.06095216911573876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06685513971608041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2235985182341539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07282319569796021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07115873253104196,0.1774399558653851,0.0537403006171288,0.2761608648817005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07255547466227802,0.0,0.0561076601940461,0.06101378354798391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18550481719423276,0.31310341131709685,0.0,0.055418405224548016,0.081409230476289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04739389589087191,0.07592920965196985,0.06819061241873854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2303900347572592,0.041173564703544406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06276424762502608,0.0,0.06298932860190386,0.07793624167573603,0.0,0.0,0.15140391049265733,0.050819818214448066,0.07089168672189321,0.0,0.04958839309452765,0.0763222313123553,0.0,0.1348589066606031
schizophrenia,midsexcountdude123,2020/03/15,no one takes anything I say or do seriously I recently joined reddit and began discussing things on my local towns subreddit and was banned shortly after by mods. Not even online do I get a break. I’m sick of it.,4.522142857142857,5.745219309523812,5.884285714285718,77.81071428571428,70.19047619047619,8.457142857142857,28.285714285714285,8.841846274778883,2.2872285714285714,169,6,31,3,3,57,37,42,0.23600000000000002,0.764,0.0,-0.8481,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,5,7,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,2,1,4,0,4,5,0,8,0,0,0,0,2,4,0,1,3,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3896795116940915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3127658465324016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2474028451032872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3208800277754764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4675593501213144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3765745741466056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35603989446588835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3145960603495997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,wyota,2020/03/15,"Reversing the damage of olanzapine/zyprexa + weed and alcohol each night I(24M) quit olanzapine 5mg after taking it for 2 years. I gained 45 Ibs pretty quickly and had little motivation. For me the worst part was the weight gain and feeling awful about myself and my appearance. After being off for 5 months, while lifting weight for the same amount of time, I've lost over half of the 45 Ibs but I've only gained 2.5 Ibs of muscle in these 5 months, and my program is good: I'm recuperated before each session, getting much better sleep, eating healthy, getting vitamin D, I've raised my testosterone levels since I quit olanzapine, etc, but I'm not gaining muscle the way I used to when I was 18-19, before being heavily medicated. I was wondering if anyone on here has experience quitting olanzapine and still noticing side effects, perhaps permanent effects, on T, sleep, thyroid, etc? Do the negative effects on your hormones continue to some extent even after you've quit? Should I be worried that I don't feel quite the same as before I was medicated? To be fair I very rarely drank more than the equivalent of 4 beers a night, bit I was a heavy smoker while on Olanzapine, a BAD combination. Have a lot of other people abused drugs with this med, and if so, how badly did it affect you?",7.836992433795714,7.443507024590166,8.317704918032787,68.85882093316522,62.77049180327869,10.95031525851198,35.57250945775536,10.389873798559362,3.722477679697352,1030,41,178,21,13,343,154,244,0.136,0.75,0.114,-0.8648,0,0,4,0,1,0,35.0,0,2,0,15,8,7,0,0,13,1,17,13,2,7,0,31,29,17,0,3,5,0,4,0,0,1,6,0,0,0,6,10,6,0,7,1,0,1,3,5,0,1,9,4,17,2,27,15,15,27,0,2,0,0,2,10,0,6,15,115,23,3,0.0,0.124612729796209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11239788222682842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07353936144233436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17563001505304549,0.0,0.0,0.2684832636237907,0.0,0.0,0.093016914090316,0.11482160530907158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12196721423352072,0.10761816880743652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2345912471435817,0.06946573156138118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1028793113909853,0.0,0.0,0.10635719191041053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10989703521664083,0.0,0.0,0.08821406785929455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10541091064490207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148086823138432,0.0894142681929828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11682342108163918,0.21190133422261287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678960663839963,0.0,0.07731420847054675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19739534950064044,0.0,0.0,0.11974008341260192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07998875623028956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11389203941901335,0.0,0.07291367052016151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10699868509893844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5593218110474459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08700013853820701,0.0,0.21049777897914407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08399124163168548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07907695807683933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06132718409160486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09083564752611588,0.0,0.08677868585519241,0.0,0.08348138028980805,0.0,0.2561446017966951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11405556147194433,0.0,0.1068082205598096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06772792181574716
schizophrenia,lonertoner,2020/03/15,"Helping my brother who may have either schizophrenia or schizoeffective disorder plus bipolar disorder Hello all. I’m not sure what to do anymore. My brother has been going through this for many years now (about 7 years) but denies that anything is wrong with him. He is very socially isolated which started to occur when he started college. He now remains alone in his room unless he goes to work—and often talks to himself in private even though I can hear him. If he is having an outburst and I go into his room, he immediately asks me what I am doing and says he is okay. I am a very concerned older sister. He refuses to talk to me and I have no idea how to reach out to him. He is 23 years old so he has to make the choice to get help. I’m really lost. Please give advice if you can. Thank you. I’m afraid he will hurt himself as he often calls himself stupid and cries about being alive.",2.7608146067415724,4.7948062471910164,3.929648876404496,86.70379915730341,76.41573033707866,6.247752808988763,25.16994382022472,7.1686216300943375,1.1412235955056178,704,25,138,8,16,229,116,178,0.185,0.7240000000000001,0.091,-0.9646,0,1,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,0,1,11,8,1,1,3,1,20,1,0,2,2,24,34,15,0,2,7,3,0,0,0,2,1,2,2,0,6,8,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,5,0,0,2,2,19,3,22,29,2,18,0,2,0,0,38,6,0,6,10,91,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14902339643471896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15794629922563308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15124121559776324,0.0,0.0,0.12549632632970414,0.0,0.14256898180316746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15572180907789288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16751651877534404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34956149392575897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10072627265050944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0796761113998546,0.14629401776763634,0.17334104282908036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1718810762886843,0.0,0.2044380360013716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16325677192123994,0.17215643455622007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16647417910184262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1017964106152222,0.15461330665678275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16002541771315118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674016330668821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0976968219594351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12127587986116938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15545679993424885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2158837009572996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.143731529887927,0.0,0.0,0.24515100242291865,0.0,0.14040354736178284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14983264885582456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.251660592215297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102342652620976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1667372284699482,0.0,0.2946192733680769
schizophrenia,Noah5353,2020/03/15,"I’m scared Even with medication i’m still convince that everyone hates me and want to do bad to me, i keep doing the same nightmare were i find myself in a prison kept by other who are laughing at me and not giving me food.

I hate my life why this disease had to choose me ?",3.279482758620688,3.9546933275862095,4.5098275862069,88.55543103448278,72.6206896551724,7.179310344827586,24.84482758620689,7.1686216300943375,0.8521586206896545,215,6,48,2,4,71,46,58,0.27,0.634,0.096,-0.9159,0,0,0,0,0,1,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,6,2,1,2,0,5,3,0,0,0,10,13,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,3,0,10,2,7,10,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,34,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2210365249936764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17485011210451404,0.0,0.0,0.2529586084212828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2419562705989362,0.0,0.3201097178372729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25395087829413104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5227274832788598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23530209341824884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18698496382854216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2666852504906039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265038553676654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21141183839863287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15614322324185853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23887552288848066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,gERMANcROISSANT,2020/03/16,"I have a question that may sound a bit dumb Is having a great paranoia over a delusion, or being delusional considered an episode? Or are episodes only hallucinogenic?",7.908275862068965,9.7331675862069,7.1546551724137935,69.59336206896553,62.793103448275865,9.937931034482759,42.086206896551715,10.125756701596842,4.873882758620688,136,8,20,3,2,42,25,29,0.184,0.6829999999999999,0.133,-0.1431,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,5,0,6,0,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,4,0,16,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5301491679034798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5353754489287043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693204988989296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.543982865124153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,s7udio,2020/03/16,sometimes i feel like this illness will completely take over my mind/life. i keep deteriorating and i’m certain it will get worse as i get older to the point i’m unrecognizable to myself and others.,4.858859649122807,6.775358394736844,6.428947368421053,71.53096491228072,70.3157894736842,8.224561403508767,28.456140350877188,8.841846274778883,2.322866666666667,161,6,29,3,3,55,29,38,0.16,0.721,0.11800000000000001,-0.3869,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,5,9,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,2,4,7,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,17,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3600263730422163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17362275164841265,0.2453100429727305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3588027346263179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3052110533675005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16775764611985522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34671492734192244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.324604167081989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3396106343843422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2581782915978459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3499325606000331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Jira7,2020/03/16,"Do you ever just get bored of life? Recently I've been so bored; I've even contemplated dying because maybe it'd be more interesting than life, or I wouldn't have to deal with the boredom. I honestly don't even want to do anything life has to offer anymore like I love my family, my videogames and going outside usually. Recently although I've been so bored with it all. Everything seems mundane and my delusions are speaking to me telling me that; maybe death would be more exciting......... Although I won't ever act on that though, Its been really really bugging me. I want to feel joy again, I want to not have these delusions, they bug me SO much. Everything is just a drag, why can't I just be a dog or something and have constant energy and happiness. Idk, does anyone ever feel this way? Or am I just alone on this.",4.2238541666666665,5.6832993437500035,5.1712500000000015,81.7354166666667,71.1875,8.833333333333334,29.583333333333336,9.2995712137729,2.6003958333333337,645,26,125,14,12,211,93,160,0.128,0.738,0.134,0.7956,0,1,1,0,0,0,27.0,0,1,1,0,14,10,0,0,3,0,21,4,0,0,4,26,30,13,2,5,8,0,2,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,8,6,0,0,3,0,0,2,5,3,0,0,3,3,17,7,12,20,4,13,0,0,0,1,7,2,0,4,9,88,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14833013658320687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14203327508534436,0.10014100510946397,0.0,0.1178557985621654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08730405795061308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1547672372168198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14765095256784144,0.0,0.0,0.14863715259146887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12533059829527887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18918761443626994,0.388645280969496,0.0,0.0,0.25742930634539074,0.0,0.1350127118050223,0.0,0.1448301411602599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07482523202063879,0.0,0.08139380499692091,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15245769055431765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3034762644678411,0.06996883570147497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12925938422023253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2877624545000405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10528134040916716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834975940055004,0.0,0.28282000428605103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13037983200292635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11025582752351597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12517840648772804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14071046538202955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15773384127424767,0.0,0.2534201742277967,0.11367938429411258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292315165788262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10173760201214632,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,magicthefollowing,2020/03/16,Going off meds Has anyone here been able to go off meds suddenly and remain sane? I’m sick of the weight gain and lack of spiritual connection and joy I feel on meds and am thinking of stopping them tonight.,2.7647560975609764,5.1188580975609765,3.661158536585369,87.07027439024392,77.78048780487805,7.0268292682926825,24.88414634146341,8.07648339933343,1.5207512195121955,166,6,33,3,4,53,32,41,0.149,0.7020000000000001,0.149,0.25,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,8,8,4,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,1,7,7,1,8,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,19,2,0,0.24446055061508035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17093250098097962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236065996086748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27786512902029964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.814621686141397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043799665330607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15664044994974174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29768709259339193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,coronaisfake33,2020/03/16,"Why do I feel like I'm being watched? Never had a diagnosis but I feel like I'm being watched I don't know what's wrong with me, if it's schizophrenia or what, but things always seem to get worse and then better with me. Whenever I walk outside, I feel that everyone is looking at me, intensely focused on me, as if I am the only person who exists. When I'm at home, I constantly check for cameras. Sometimes I think there are people in the house, for just a split second.   


Most of the time I don't notice that I'm on such high alert. But it's hard for me to go outside, which is when I realize for a little while that something could be wrong, only I don't know how to fix it. I have a very difficult time leaving the house. I don't have any friends. I usually stop talking to people after a couple months of knowing them. No one checks in on me anymore. Now I'm out of money and I need to find a job. I also have a gallery show coming up. I can't afford to see someone about this and I also think psychology is a complete joke and that it ruins people's lives.   


Can schizophrenia be caused by trauma? I was sexually abused a lot as a child. I dissociate a lot. I also have mild OCD attached to my asperger's diagnosis, is that related?",2.329717607973421,3.7833949728682192,4.385924695459583,85.49988372093026,76.01550387596897,7.08482834994463,25.46400885935769,7.793537801064563,1.3654892580287936,965,34,203,14,21,332,141,258,0.124,0.7759999999999999,0.1,-0.7881,2,0,1,0,1,0,28.0,0,0,1,1,11,10,0,0,15,0,24,0,0,2,1,35,44,20,0,4,7,0,4,2,1,0,0,0,1,2,15,8,0,1,11,2,3,3,7,5,0,2,2,8,29,5,30,37,3,27,0,1,4,0,6,11,0,7,15,142,44,1,0.0,0.14090396211888753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2853073389022221,0.0989532194212326,0.0,0.0,0.08087151920022792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1179393704526906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10517747071933922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122166379470885,0.0,0.1024413824597364,0.12468819631758395,0.128513198847848,0.0,0.09495010518842464,0.13158571401142974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11363574343081374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.180392682567712,0.16991681214016033,0.0,0.0,0.1086932002783107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09187938888988748,0.0,0.062132206366346275,0.0,0.06758651530296536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10653138720773984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12564836988728814,0.11928917208595285,0.0,0.0,0.27444167540007264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180124372164644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960704299955549,0.0,0.0,0.1259219762631342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11619925582904744,0.11919179512973466,0.1050109295742708,0.0,0.09986512293328237,0.0,0.0,0.20220766656755126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09492297061612298,0.0,0.0,0.08817968081995611,0.09172052345215284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1353942908150221,0.0,0.0,0.0805851044124469,0.18089215598184466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473380950499273,0.1038387212121368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0947660009809592,0.1082627665729251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10076282422923613,0.09155251034696214,0.11761759866044233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09942470855849718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09558556765538403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790069626544531,0.1524017382809942,0.0,0.0,0.1386895743032574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13097656114590953,0.09812368836204452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10730924636353678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12119239889377625,0.0,0.26004662391860545,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,infrabrain,2020/03/16,"Is it really real? Im paranoid atm and i wonder whether you guys could help me to evaluate the situation. My story starts with a neighbour, who's a physics student, who starts playing loud electrical noises from his room.. I start to feel a warm sensation in my stomach and i start to wonder whether he is doing some experiments, emitting harmful radiation to my room, so i download an app, which reveals that spikes occur occasionally. I then decide he is trying to kill me and leave my room and go to a hostel. I stay there for a month, but eventually i start feeling the same warm feelings in my stomach and i decide to leave my country and go to spain. All is well for the first few days in Spain, until one day i take a bus going to madrid, and i get absolutely bombardbed by the same feeling as well as a feeling of my mind shutting down. In the bus there is a person, not my neighbour but a person with a striking resemblance to him. So i think maybe its his brother and they are after me. We now arrive in Madrid and people scatter, i do the same and walk around Madrid. But I bump into this guy 4 times randomly.. and Madrid is quite big. So now, i think i am absolutely right. 

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More people join them, i see the same 5-6 guys all around madrid, they are everywhere and i cant escape them, so i decide to leave, but i cant, its not possible to buy any airplane out of Madrid for that night, so i sleep in the airport. the pattern repeats itself for a few nights, i walk around Madrid, bump into those guys, go to the airport, no tickets available, sleep in airport, return to Madrid. In the end its not just 5-6 guys following be, but 100's of people, old, young, men, women, all people who has a german resemblance. I confront a few of them and they are all of non spanish origin, which i think its kind of weird, that i can pinpoint peoples ethnicity so accurate. Finnally, one day i get a ticket to Vienna, which is far away form my homeland, but the only available destination for me out of Madrid. So i go to Vienna and take the train back to my homeland - New people follow me along the journey and i finally return to my homeland, where i go to a hostel. The owner is dodgy though and i think he might be in contact with these people.. so i stay awake in the living room of the hostel, gather all the pots and pans i can and build a cave, so that electromagnetic sounds cant reach me. The next day i go to the police and they send me to the psychiatric ward, they do some test and find morphine in my urine... ? I stay in the ward for a few months and at that point i dont belive in my persecuationary delusion anymore. Fast forward one year later and i return to the hostel with the dodgy manager, i make my booking on [booking.com](https://booking.com), but apparently there are som issues with it, so he walks away to talk in the phone for 15 minutes.. now i start to think, that its kind of odd, so i leave and go to another hostel. No problem there, so i get in sleep and the next morning the street with the hostel is blocked because of a bomb threat. I cant leave the building. Eventually i can and as i had to move from one place to another the same day i do that and i settle in my new home. 

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A few days later i sit on my bed in my new home and suddenly my mind goes totally blank, i don think further of it and go to bed. I wake up totally confused and disorientated the next morning this pattern repeats itself for the next 3 weeks. Sometimes when i wake up in the midlle of the night my radiator audible resonates,as when you hit a tuning fork and an app reveals that there are spikes of infrasound occasionally. I feel on the brink of dying. My body is fatigued and my mind is crumbling... What is going on?",5.186754908835908,5.502030673387103,6.054654043945773,80.46122019635344,68.20698924731182,8.620102851799906,30.01799906498364,8.456263369488248,2.08521912108462,2927,103,587,40,46,967,291,744,0.077,0.894,0.03,-0.9837,1,0,0,0,0,1,109.0,1,2,8,2,31,15,3,1,57,0,36,10,9,2,7,106,76,60,2,2,13,1,8,0,2,1,1,3,8,9,29,46,0,1,20,4,2,19,10,8,2,5,1,12,91,7,100,70,21,123,0,1,1,0,40,50,0,8,52,413,120,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944131685556478,0.13394954263650494,0.03748233622472134,0.11559269339865448,0.0,0.0,0.05466254598846779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14720092666970871,0.0,0.0,0.10357092037378587,0.04238257286753112,0.0,0.033599606006674894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06122400926042465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04400748004292666,0.0,0.0,0.21328047422458746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057204096605137235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06459824078446294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048818456606009135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05391627684748347,0.0,0.0,0.16721682113431485,0.0,0.0,0.06037940693231492,0.050377130520890906,0.046883600496650295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08639111540520929,0.0,0.3132500187823703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2728789289966303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03694463675311229,0.0,0.11057630424931417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059537225743270875,0.05752918829707021,0.0,0.0,0.060980235972253063,0.11479446178186503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29181162287123663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04867047148982282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0367918953489146,0.0,0.0553737439111052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05847180936201825,0.1669613211387589,0.0,0.08798980741968894,0.0585820333625058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597008019195934,0.2344757627864493,0.15517438105172118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05783738725251467,0.0,0.14939835473169136,0.04191995326648402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674846395067323,0.09625435258566148,0.057586895452126176,0.0,0.052104612280613,0.062137605117051374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05274077221887953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058625100039136485,0.0,0.06273669590952037,0.035310196378531035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04707072972324454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043922151414593116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06195528209965051,0.1654743267684972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05451341118026888,0.0,0.23407811194384914,0.17624633228209327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08288420881287706,0.044302004222518135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21190549844885728,0.05415345298756368,0.0,0.03213992581261857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03742170977398551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04421257809691016,0.0,0.09911594793618367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11954689713942546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13394954263650494,0.035494380099850766
schizophrenia,slowlypassingby,2020/03/16,"Some questions about visual hallucinations I haven't been diagnosed with schizophrenia but I'm curious and maybe a tiny bit worried. I'd really appreciate it if anyone would take time to answer these following questions or even some of them. 

When did you start having visual hallucinations? How long do yours usually last at a time?
Do they appear out of nothing or could an already existing object turn into something else?
Have your hallucinations changed with time/were they different in the early stages?
I'd also love to know more about the early stages. What made you think you might have schizophrenia?",6.6758700209643616,9.422214679245288,6.1467295597484295,71.9711215932914,67.30188679245283,8.862054507337527,29.70230607966457,9.444778638647367,3.0825463312368973,500,19,76,11,9,154,79,106,0.025,0.851,0.124,0.9169,1,0,1,0,0,0,9.0,0,5,3,0,6,1,0,0,5,0,11,2,0,2,0,22,21,8,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,5,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,0,9,1,12,15,4,17,0,0,0,1,11,4,0,9,9,52,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20297854505649104,0.1470939840724265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12861270505866285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008110618360171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945804695290212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468583596272074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18669171561752132,0.0,0.19217453473530705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15365537641476693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12148834950102015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10108671167664572,0.14993282926196885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1627780491890078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16600990813512445,0.17404520094269513,0.0,0.0,0.1847889765392065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1951276010115692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17649207031263034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41210203987745625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11783445707882813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14160333432623626,0.0,0.0,0.13019122927577864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13829738641459088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11785910739049035,0.0,0.0,0.3217646258393262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2000701361176943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20258011174742585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867964842130311,0.0,0.13066324016481434,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,standue,2020/03/16,"User an reddit has potential schizophrenia: can anyone suggest something? I know adhd is a common misdiagnoses.

There is a user in the adhd sub who is asking if auditory hallucinations are normal and I’m not sure how to break it to them that it might be something else. I just said to go to a doctor...",3.7784482758620714,5.877609603448278,6.023655172413792,72.53686206896553,73.65517241379311,7.398620689655173,25.393103448275863,8.238735603445708,1.9327958620689647,239,8,40,4,5,84,45,58,0.037000000000000005,0.963,0.0,-0.2411,0,0,2,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,5,0,8,1,0,1,1,9,13,3,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,5,10,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,2,1,31,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6054628759270437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1761323527321961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354898430679748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25782741933943304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2104277563055672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14315896226787928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13843609268188328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672230821479174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2468057361540941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23961188515077586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3878454841335881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23741009432162385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,throwawaypopcorn2323,2020/03/16,"Question about recreational drugs. So it's almost been two years since my psychosis and diagnosis. About 4 months before psychosis I started trying meth every few weekends with my partner, it was fun until psychosis happened. The doctors and nurses said that had nothing to do with my psychosis, but I was still thinking it had something to do with setting it off initially. Anyway, it's been almost two years and I'm medicated now and tried it again a couple of weeks ago. I now drink it in water instead of smoking and have less than before. The first time I saw distorted faces and heard things my partner wasn't saying during my comedown, but sleep fixed it and it didn't scare me like it would have previous to psychosis. I had it a second time this past weekend and it was great, basically no comedown after a quick nap, compared to the first time. How dangerous does this sound to people? I guess has anyone else gone through with this? Because it feels alot better taking it now than before I was medicated. I feel like with the medication I'm on, nothing bad is going to happen if I keep it in moderation.",5.138785714285714,6.920294152380954,5.486845238095238,79.10169642857143,69.3809523809524,7.345238095238094,30.267857142857146,7.865858978985527,2.174071428571428,892,36,153,11,16,284,123,210,0.094,0.8190000000000001,0.086,0.2493,0,0,4,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,3,12,8,1,1,8,0,18,9,2,1,0,27,34,14,0,2,3,0,2,2,2,1,5,4,0,2,20,13,2,1,4,4,0,2,3,3,0,5,15,7,15,5,24,18,3,29,0,0,1,0,6,4,0,6,24,114,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1070981643678227,0.0,0.2419642210026545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08447898911772715,0.12379266203291152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1008782632824933,0.07364973572495373,0.0,0.3084225136187981,0.0,0.0,0.10685399926081994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13368318986516994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12366268555865477,0.10572893928847216,0.0,0.0,0.11835597244692404,0.1401109115154974,0.0,0.1009282159651539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10179465823357456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12217876089442392,0.08631264278675574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055360283526323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06866384413726495,0.0,0.0,0.1332026410521399,0.1330950173703247,0.0,0.2136785095659444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1073888875670979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11805147158936045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3651352858535728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643604245928154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318569021700483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11533477180023136,0.08376022116042378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13534418596639206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1149259038679174,0.09607958942081532,0.12096023043508143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09994217535561786,0.0,0.12090558872767095,0.0,0.0,0.09301185706438296,0.0,0.0,0.08551583948254117,0.0,0.0964856785349089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09084035202120487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08026633338242344,0.07741551074697367,0.0,0.0,0.2113504285004469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16405543771450315,0.0,0.23604391574255065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09691318082448422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08582587885804542,0.0,0.0,0.15560609333072173
schizophrenia,jdors45,2020/03/16,"Starting to get worried about my cousin Hi all,

My first time posting and I’m also not sure if this is a normal kind of post, (I’m so sorry if not!) but I’m getting worried for my cousin. She’s 21 and has in the past couple months started exhibiting signs close to schizophrenia. She hears voices of people she knows I.e friends and family. She is also very spiritual (believes in clairvoyance; things of that nature) so her idea for this all is it’s telepathy. She’s even said she talks to me and often asked me what color she telepathically sent me (I never know). The part that worries me the most though is that she has recently remembered a trauma with her father and the voices have told her to block him and she’s completely changed her opinion about him and wants nothing to do with him. I’m afraid this is a delusion. Her accusation came out of nowhere and it seems heavily influenced by what the voices are telling her. Im really not sure what to do, I don’t want to go to her parents just yet without more Clarity but I also don’t want to shut her down completely by not believing her abuse! She’ll sit next to me and just laugh to herself and shush herself. I don’t know guys. Anything really helps. Again, sorry if this isn’t the normal content.",2.8797904662126754,5.056479971887551,3.891611664047496,86.44411210057625,76.59036144578313,6.900715907106688,25.283918281822945,7.893859768569023,1.4797000523834472,999,36,196,16,23,322,132,249,0.11199999999999999,0.81,0.078,-0.7194,1,0,0,0,1,0,26.0,0,0,0,1,14,7,0,1,9,0,16,0,0,1,5,49,38,21,0,8,12,4,0,0,1,1,0,5,0,1,13,15,0,1,6,0,0,3,10,2,0,1,4,6,36,5,28,33,5,23,0,0,1,0,39,6,0,7,11,139,49,0,0.0,0.12948708097684747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2621900331273138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08993378963014839,0.0,0.10216847928747448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246257776805052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12499507530085227,0.0,0.0,0.11561102713446668,0.0,0.22917042687286954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209238530227983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07218295291752896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10302594330531882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09295936350887066,0.0,0.0,0.08443477167270769,0.0,0.11419576733038993,0.0,0.06211025189337033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10821119233929756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12317425544186016,0.0,0.07325269137299135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12337158402692508,0.11804858311967395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11380546703476815,0.1801836319164548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08723174421711477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08428877846221859,0.0,0.11622783572500253,0.0,0.21415587537684888,0.10486370795239776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12135014597857388,0.11834704010566292,0.1043266921417385,0.07576576144671343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093332409334461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1400239463671735,0.0,0.1079076086156386,0.0,0.12380072978400535,0.0,0.1039568484403521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09949067017844174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24467542734362785,0.15470763100637622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20600318033533765,0.0,0.0,0.08784065368415607,0.09552154932255114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0726053463446263,0.0,0.10737380380781847,0.0,0.06372605804831069,0.0,0.0,0.10442829633899732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901731206817488,0.1933806984050652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10534865151341666,0.0,0.0,0.33295839182495296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,dafacumean,2020/03/16,"Its so frustrating!    I've been hearing voices for awhile now; Around six years. They hate me. They love me. They want to take my soul and everything I have. It took my awhile to get used to them reading my thoughts, but i still cant deal with me not being able to control how to respond. Sometimes I feel like my own mind is against me too. Its crazy. Sometimes I feel like I'm listening to a group of psychotic, mindless, stupid individuals and I get stuck with the most delusion character of all. 
   I find myself constantly defending my own thoughts on account that they're always being criticized. I can't think. I can never have peace. It would be so much easier if I could ignore the voices, but my mind automatically responds. I'm not even sure if it's me thinking anymore. I even question my own emotions. 
    On the pluse side, I have grown alot. I learned to forgive myself, and that I'm more than just my thoughts. I also learned that I dont really know anything. I knew what I expected. What I wanted it to be but never really what it was. 
Still, I want to go back to the way it was before. I want to be able to sit alone with my thoughts without worrying about what I'm thinking. I need to be alone so I can take a break from toxic relationship. Its driving me crazy!",2.0147522043174177,4.352642711462451,3.316462450592887,88.61676725448467,80.38339920948617,6.421951961082398,25.145788993615078,7.61054688173877,1.338348251748251,998,39,204,16,26,324,134,253,0.153,0.76,0.086,-0.9608,0,2,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,4,1,15,9,3,0,7,0,20,1,0,3,4,52,52,13,0,10,9,0,2,2,0,1,0,4,0,0,16,7,0,2,16,1,1,4,8,4,0,1,10,6,42,5,27,34,8,19,1,0,0,1,14,4,0,5,10,145,58,3,0.22446976039470865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324829752312006,0.0,0.0897541931444789,0.09338841127299308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11130684274381904,0.0,0.0,0.09235974337086697,0.09991283855205203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08630169502606021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0955036165584194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12128603332167635,0.12588096166690418,0.08961041920226692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11570923326642073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13153844370952833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12624913382014194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.148260159715975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086947337452982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134986554172161,0.16036124167715873,0.0,0.0,0.10258064719408848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11727618515853536,0.0,0.06378566886998559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108087081358706,0.0,0.0,0.12649686696505166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0616813549607749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096645865232997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10129636132039647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22665046886293685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08250555085588407,0.08322074154333506,0.17312491733818033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.125728751980036,0.0,0.11226525254988687,0.0,0.14380107638556372,0.0,0.0,0.1204982586005888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2220063327072781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17926184061062447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10578004634075834,0.0,0.1687733242104584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21574673815388715,0.0,0.3564078324757021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12469708155606472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969349009030877,0.0,0.0,0.26479616098350145,0.0890868237970004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1081904193992098,0.0,0.0,0.11397996885114504,0.0,0.07972843871617298,0.0,0.0,0.07227558308200514
schizophrenia,Bipolarable,2020/03/16,"public bathrooms am i the only one who avoids public bathrooms completely? i mean think about it, there are so many spots someone can watch you from in a stall, and at a urinal there’s just as much paranoia because there’s 0 privacy. It’s just a scary thought, last time i used a public bathroom was when i was 11 or 12. idk just some food for thought i guess",2.977168949771692,4.642401534246574,3.3796575342465762,92.50227168949776,74.75342465753424,5.962557077625571,25.865296803652967,6.42735559955562,0.7784447488584479,284,10,60,2,6,88,54,73,0.155,0.845,0.0,-0.7964,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,0,9,1,0,1,5,0,5,2,1,1,0,13,11,5,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,1,6,0,6,7,2,5,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,3,3,38,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16690787198257276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2870774159691848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33108388177996273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3016250622232415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.223186128775378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27759344076951553,0.0,0.29825192188750504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2012768352315007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1855361150738672,0.2082396499508884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2319925386666847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17544201659427594,0.0,0.4347382680817053,0.15965683115439608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23647802935505374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,HeretheSunshines,2020/03/16,"Do people with schizophrenia understand consequences of their actions? Asking because my ex-boyfriend has schizophrenia. I care about him deeply but decided to no longer live with him for various reasons.

We would go through repeatative cycles of him accusing me of wanting to be with other people, of him not trusting me, of him vanishing at night to drive 3hrs away and gamble, of him going to smoke weed (which I think would contribute to his paranoia), him breaking things, etc.

Despite all this and me talking to him about it he still wants to live and be together. I've told him that I love him but that his actions have made it so I don't want to live with him. I wonder if he understands that his actions have consequences. I wonder what goes on in his brain when he does these things. I've asked him but he never gives an answer. He also doesn't want to admit/accept that he has schizophrenia even though he's been prescribed medicine in the past to treat his condition.

Is it possible that he can not register that he's doing bad things or could it be possible that he does and is just ignoring that fact? Its been a long time since I've seen him show signs of remorse... Almost a year since I've seen him cry with emotion. People with schizophrenia, what is your opinion on this?",5.104918699186992,6.629259573170736,4.801788617886178,84.97796747967482,69.12195121951221,8.06829268292683,29.11382113821137,8.515128840125781,2.0933186991869923,1029,38,194,16,18,314,134,246,0.096,0.8590000000000001,0.045,-0.8952,0,0,1,0,0,0,26.0,1,1,1,0,9,6,0,0,4,0,20,2,1,2,3,42,40,13,0,8,8,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,23,11,0,1,8,1,1,6,6,2,0,0,6,2,32,4,33,28,3,22,0,0,2,1,38,6,0,6,9,135,55,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1201449450034492,0.0,0.0,0.09594980432611526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22433451368846932,0.0,0.11272732320377743,0.0,0.10018021130475868,0.0731400982469723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13393993062973542,0.0,0.0,0.12232995426573925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09579610586213123,0.0,0.1317949258630998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099946437278783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13496394164988726,0.0,0.0,0.13381198368623246,0.07924717952289599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11509795790203875,0.13637741552717586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3178397150655507,0.10618056249385274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10828871284034697,0.11353015610841308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09253774871461314,0.0,0.0,0.1125952635008212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11453668445279888,0.2495418650681943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2705240378229344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12336179046389645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19850120173749253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09581802212873396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09643723026779094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391327321840857,0.07687981506164125,0.11788200347159886,0.0,0.06996264572621268,0.0,0.0,0.11464823220382606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2498116175623488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2830746836727189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602313789084685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17046397112008455,0.0,0.0,0.07726466932983472
schizophrenia,not_enough_weed,2020/03/16,Any line cooks out there with schizophrenia? I’d love some success stories as I’ve recently been developing schizophrenia and it’s tough out here as a cook with that sort of mental illness. Honestly it’s just scary especially since this is new to me and it’s hard to be comfortable seeing monsters when I have to run the line and be on top of shit.,4.719565217391307,6.085885594202902,5.012289855072464,83.70626086956524,69.86956521739131,8.418550724637681,29.74202898550725,8.841846274778883,2.2483020289855067,282,11,56,5,5,89,52,69,0.157,0.644,0.198,0.6494,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,2,4,6,1,0,2,0,5,5,1,0,0,10,7,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,7,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,4,12,4,1,8,0,0,1,1,1,4,1,2,3,34,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503965428523027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.329845306801197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3323253825514613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37107073050319095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35562109799897584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3635645747678572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29341700589078623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37796395883303896,0.3045884749853568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Misery_personified,2020/03/16,"“Help” is not real... Sorry for formatting, I’m on mobile.

The thing is, everyone speils all that shit about psychiatry and drugs(poison) and therapy, even talking good about involuntary commitment.

But this “help” is not real. They are not there to help, they are there for you’re money. Being starved, tackled, drugged, and strapped to a table sounds pretty barbaric when you really put it into perspective. And they call that “help”, how fucking pathetic.

I feel like they are trying to silence us, like we know the reality, we know the truth. The “mentally ill”.

Trying to poison us every chance they get, trying to destroy me. Even poisoning our food.

So, “help” is not real, the “drugs” (poison) do much more harm than good. Ha, maybe THEY are the deluded ones...

Sorry for posting this here, I’m not diagnosed but I figured you guys might understand",3.4135835172921247,6.450125284768215,4.170408388520972,80.10438373804271,80.9205298013245,7.5939661515820465,25.607431935246506,8.515128840125781,2.4290791758646058,662,26,110,16,18,211,95,151,0.109,0.7240000000000001,0.16699999999999998,0.3803,0,1,3,0,0,0,36.0,5,2,6,0,10,13,6,0,7,1,11,10,1,1,3,27,19,9,0,0,7,0,1,2,0,1,7,1,0,1,6,7,1,0,5,0,1,1,5,7,0,1,0,2,16,6,13,17,3,5,0,0,0,1,21,2,2,1,3,76,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12202059669828053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1212877339410032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771589795859741,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15785431680749346,0.0,0.10068203574637326,0.11418525224921765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060421669394449214,0.08536923977366283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14449719306567627,0.0,0.0,0.11047377446170843,0.06243265932484685,0.0,0.0,0.200458141039434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11832159219892467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4004842238930381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.131345712371366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11676116103459495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12005158422580856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12042565869286727,0.1267682632716472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08784461980974223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08097479012373544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11444584350269454,0.12157220514311125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12012827703248763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4080439140139261,0.07655333945583041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12266275662030715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26753596840958976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09604779116669286,0.0,0.0,0.13665612875002456,0.0,0.07938901693933895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2433934510560197,0.0,0.0,0.12440140601308793,0.2874822382128475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,tburt4298,2020/03/17,"Questions about Risperdal/risperidone Hey guys. Gonna be a long post but I wanna get the whole story off my chest.

Before I get started though I do want to warn everyone that I talk about suicide in this post. So continue with caution!

Another PSA, I do not have schizophrenia but I know Risperdal is used to help a lot of people who do. I figured coming here might help me get an answer. 

So, the second half of last semester was *rough*. I went through an unexpected breakup that can be classified as traumatic on October 2nd. The relationship was very serious since Day 1 and we were together for just shy of two years. We had some problems but nothing major. It was pretty out of the blue. I managed to keep things together for about six weeks. During that time I realized that maybe the breakup was a good thing that would help me grow, was going to class every day, doing all my homework, feeling very grown-up and confident. In early November I met someone who made things feel better. We hung out a couple times and just cuddled, watched tv and talked. Nothing serious or sexual. The problem, though, was that I was falling for the person too fast. Putting so much energy and hope into them but I wasn't very aware of this at the time. They turned out to be pretty flaky. Would say we could hang out in a couple of days, would cancel last minute. Repeat, repeat, repeat.

One day I had no class, no work, no homework, no plans. Nothing. They told me that day would 100%, absolutely, positively be the day we could hang out. They were flaking out every other day for like two and a half weeks before this. Looking back on it I should've just let it go, but, being freshly out of a major breakup and (unknowingly) very unstable, I was pretty blinded and just wanting someone to hang with. So, 10/11 p.m. comes around and, surprise, they flake. I lost it. Something inside me snapped and I was so incredibly agitated that I was physically uncomfortable, couldn't sit still, crying and seething at the same time, wanting to destroy my room. Just a complete fucking mess. I'm seeing a psychiatrist and he says feeling great and keeping things together for six weeks was probably just a defense mechanism. And that when I finally realized I couldn't control my relationship with this new person, things just fell apart. I don't doubt he's wrong. After my ""meltdown"", I was having panic attacks, crazy insomnia, anxiety at an all-time high. It was a nightmare. I had never had panic attacks before so I went to urgent care not knowing what was wrong. They talked with my GP and decided to put me on Xanax/alprazolam until things calmed down. That turned out to be a mistake. First of all, my body barely responded to it after the first time I took it. Second of all, it just made me feel more down on myself.

I went to a psychiatric NP on campus to talk about changing up my meds two weeks before winter break. I was on 50 mg Zoloft/sertraline. Doctors now are telling me she didn't do a good job of managing my medication but I didn't know any better. I'm a French major so anything concerning medication is over my head and I just trusted she knew what she was doing. She bumped me up to 100 mg for a week, then put me on 150 mg the week after. I went home for winter break. I called her to let her know the meds were making me feel kind of foggy so she then knocked me down to 100 mg for a week, 75 the week after, then 50 the week after that. So in a matter of five weeks, my Zoloft dosage went up to 150 mg from 50, then back down to fifty. I'm sure it contributed to what happened next.

All winter break I was a fucking wreck. Persistent insomnia, anxious as all hell, heart would pound if I even thought of leaving the house, hung out with one of my friends *once*. That's it. But slowly, depression started creeping in. I've been pretty anxious my whole life but it was always manageable. And the depression was always just sort of in the background, kind of like I was just a naturally melancholic person. But now, for the first time in my life, I was incapacitated by it. Perpetual sadness, mood swings, constant crying, thoughts of death and suicide. Never planned to kill myself but it was something I couldn't control. I would just get these intrusive thoughts like, ""I could drive my car off the road right now,"" ""I could shoot myself right now,"" ""I could stab myself right now."" Eventually, I started to truly scare myself. So, I checked myself into a hospital on January 14th to get it figured out.

The doctors diagnosed me with a moderate, recurrent major depressive episode. They switched me off the sertraline to 75 mg Effexor XR/venlafaxine ER. They also added 100 mg Desyrel/trazodone for sleep, 50 mg Atarax/hydroxyzine PRN for anxiety and 0.5 mg Risperdal/risperidone to ""stop rumination.""

I left after six days, definitely more stable but with this intense, weird feeling in my head. Like everything was so far away and like I didn't feel real.

Flash forward to today. I took a leave of absence from school because of this feeling in my head. It's been constant, all day, every day. Like I'm not in my own body, living in a dream, just a mind in a body. Very detached from reality and unable to connect with things around me. My psychiatrist said it's depersonalization as a result of depression, trauma, and coming off marijuana. I was a *heeeaaavvvyyy* user for two years but stopped after the breakup. I met a new therapist on Friday who specializes in anxiety/depression and is well-versed in medication. She agreed that I'm experiencing depersonalization. But, she thinks it's the Risperdal. She said if the depersonalization were a result of depression/trauma, it would come and go/some days and times would be better or worse than others. For it to be the same ""strength"" all the time every day, she's suspicious of medication. She said she's read a lot and had several patients who took Risperdal who describe the same thing. So I called my psychiatrist today about coming off it and he said with the short, 2-month time I've been on it that I could just stop taking it if I wanted and see how things go. He said it's worth a shot.

(TL;DR) So, after this whole post, I come to my question. Do any of you guys think it sounds like my depersonalization could be caused by Risperdal? Or is it depression/marijuana withdrawals? Also, if I've only been on 0.5 mg Risperdal for 2 months, should I be okay to just stop it like my psychiatrist said? Or will I experience withdrawals?

The only reason I think it's not depression/marijuana withdrawals is that I've made some progress in my mental health but the depersonalization has remained the same. Also, after the breakup for the six weeks that I was feeling good and not smoking, I never felt this feeling and was still very ""grounded.""

I should also mention that I'm currently on 150 mg Effexor instead of 75 and am no longer taking trazodone.

Thank you for getting through this post and for any insight you guys can give!!

*Apologies for any typos*",3.8232029478458034,6.1593624361300074,4.478759826152687,82.58884268707486,74.29856386999244,7.342728647014361,27.57828798185941,8.265279343636667,2.0030738775510213,5545,219,1024,97,120,1768,471,1323,0.13,0.737,0.133,-0.5743,3,0,2,1,0,3,211.0,5,3,8,15,56,58,8,4,69,1,97,26,9,12,11,213,187,83,4,33,42,0,12,8,1,13,14,9,4,6,73,66,0,9,32,3,2,29,21,29,1,18,69,28,131,28,165,83,26,199,1,7,6,3,75,70,3,19,102,695,204,14,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10557556054898187,0.05492519916620519,0.0,0.0,0.08977745898367408,0.034608362683799285,0.05049709349452863,0.07457195599350162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02716010065079397,0.058762457588989465,0.0,0.07509534561063723,0.031009053171111613,0.050757237681569305,0.0,0.020119391918681624,0.0,0.11233846018068057,0.0,0.0,0.08757006938499659,0.0,0.10998252511342868,0.0,0.0,0.06740308870823443,0.0,0.03365054672139015,0.03390497430552915,0.03491465383841856,0.17058404064178753,0.03460485700452455,0.07133282861830366,0.07403527693149244,0.18446127514498686,0.07303826587732327,0.07250834576074856,0.2554240337624367,0.0,0.1421347328387918,0.0334991309305791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06756352923689543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02179932897939835,0.0,0.11123171612607033,0.03153745717846747,0.02966254505974485,0.03228498287971476,0.0,0.0,0.16688195486225907,0.0,0.03168974002205774,0.036155095141516685,0.0,0.0842214815938866,0.0,0.0,0.025499391346551045,0.061024727148223726,0.10346173159198124,0.0316611678077271,0.07502944999015589,0.08304846617111611,0.0,0.03638785819870173,0.0,0.09803968744888186,0.029185995280499012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10161719953506487,0.0350825105125776,0.0,0.03911079282806351,0.06636717341103919,0.03487133506788917,0.03310645966606525,0.03278116815294455,0.0,0.03808305522806875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032752125984961966,0.058672284303706836,0.03651487063793885,0.06873874551459437,0.07255419938901332,0.05380655977824733,0.0,0.06989453871341922,0.035859762182534324,0.06749919494684271,0.04662446814175144,0.12899564676529976,0.0,0.029143802774837118,0.029208169009375427,0.02771568120244073,0.0,0.036028588185805316,0.056118923791039714,0.0,0.09368968979046284,0.022030929821286543,0.0,0.033157711894922566,0.0,0.07332168340895244,0.13299527096494992,0.033261029593609916,0.03501282867766889,0.03332539330554673,0.0,0.05268816009254258,0.0,0.02426229203016436,0.0,0.07636590372253907,0.06375239485268035,0.03510093069242552,0.0,0.0,0.0950068558541367,0.0,0.0,0.03514898623453487,0.0447297514479186,0.050203205883643964,0.0,0.0774479359392822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.022881340986958102,0.08645543536277636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12643772527969516,0.13431080242918156,0.03558470743841315,0.06316218506578634,0.0,0.09953668231777577,0.07394575675171527,0.0,0.033013685915064164,0.037566636121746114,0.0,0.03393438441595418,0.0,0.07086950899583623,0.0,0.08455763966507424,0.18837047645323196,0.05249341076151201,0.03304351684011387,0.03340257345186086,0.0526010321696226,0.0,0.0,0.03728597799675081,0.0,0.027301873868150167,0.0,0.033028589998684285,0.0,0.05592964252917059,0.050817344745167255,0.0,0.0,0.07008280503122181,0.0,0.0527152789314365,0.1103738099994673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07220368876245195,0.0,0.03110659038889096,0.0,0.0496309355724242,0.10611188542613974,0.028847610053903038,0.030386343485912376,0.0,0.0383210636529518,0.19734203021511185,0.06344434176057262,0.0648540071684321,0.07860626488454033,0.1732080391596461,0.0,0.06256929597692093,0.03153745717846747,0.11000848948843903,0.0,0.07179939037933844,0.12896339692460246,0.0,0.0,0.028505510832039112,0.0,0.16339427330602396,0.07786823698044486,0.0,0.2912186544447499,0.0,0.029675237881116288,0.15297868976011084,0.0,0.11054588872497498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.024027854258664137,0.0,0.0336346643676888,0.18756504435632365,0.07217103543861003,0.0,0.04250795940867184
schizophrenia,theremin0308,2020/03/17,How big is your life with sz? I have paranoid sz and my life is completely isolated.,1.105882352941176,3.5459963529411773,2.995588235294118,88.72514705882355,85.47058823529412,8.105882352941178,26.14705882352941,8.841846274778883,2.41855294117647,66,3,14,2,2,22,14,17,0.247,0.753,0.0,-0.5563,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,3,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,9,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5959858727573685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8029949187097251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,newfolkcollective,2020/03/17,"Does untreated schizophrenia give someone a sort of pass for being an asshole? I want to first say that if you have schizophrenia, you have my sympathy. I hope that you love and accept yourself as you deserve. I don't want to sound offensive, but understand I am just a confused  person who wants to make sure I am not being too harsh.

Because of my work, I talk to a lot of people who claim to be ""Targeted Individuals."" Now I'm not in the medical profession, so I'm not going to pretend I know what I'm talking about when it comes to a medical view of this topic. But I'll just say I sell security equipment to keep it simple. When it comes to this technology, I know what I'm talking about. It's a field that is, in part, helped along by paranoia and fear (which is something I try to stray away from).

For those who don't know: Targeted Individuals claim that there is a very skilled, very focused, highly coordinated attack on their every day life,  from acute harassment (a certain amount of cars of certain colors parked somewhere) to inflicting physical harm via ""energy weapons"" or ""microwaves"". Yes, they even use terms like, ""voice to skull"" to describe hearing voices. But this is what they call ""synthetic mental illness"" since it isn't actual mental illness to them. Rather it's caused by a weapon pointed at them.  According to them this because ""they"" (the people harassing the individual) want other people to think that the Targeted Individual is crazy.  They have communities all over the internet wherein they encourage each other to NOT seek medical treatment or talk to their family about it because that would be another way the ""perps"" can harass them. The Targeted Individual community call all this ""gangstalking"".

Needless to say, due to the nature of my business, I hear from them a lot and can't seem to ever have a positive experience with them. My interactions with them seem to frequently devolve into them yelling at me and treating me poorly. They cuss at me and insult me. I can't tell them my professional opinion about security equipment because it goes against what they already believe about what sort of technology is being used on them. And I can't just say, ""sorry, can't help you,"" because then they yell at me, call me stupid and inexperienced, ""Let me speak to your manager!"" or even accuse me of being part of this conspiracy. A lot of people in this business love to take advantage of this type of person, but at my company, we try to save their money. The thanks we get is being yelled at, insulted and literally harassed by phone calls (ironic isn't it?)

Anyway, sorry I'm long winded. I say all this to set up my question. Do these people get a pass because they are experiencing delusions and have untreated mental illness (this conclusion according to peer reviewed scientific papers)? I mean is it wrong for me to call them assholes? You can call me out if I need to be called out. Most the people I've known in my personal life who have schizophrenia and are diagnosed and seeking help. They clearly aren't assholes. I think the nature of accepting that your brain is flawed *like every other human that lives,* seeking help, listening to and trusting someone who thinks differently than you, all this shows that you are a good person who just happens to have schizophrenia. If you are an asshole who refuses to acknowledge that maybe, possibly, something you think is  incorrect (for instance when you are talking to someone who actually makes a living dealing with this shit) you are an asshole who happens to have schizophrenia, which unfortunately seems to enhance the asshole qualities. Like I said, call me out if I'm out of line and I'll figure out a different way to think about all this.  


edit: accidentally left out a word.",8.178892527991472,8.184774683068017,8.151625028562723,69.00754874704855,61.93777134587555,11.152121258283193,37.7211135653896,10.7147104948084,4.171536034732272,3010,135,508,67,38,975,295,691,0.14300000000000002,0.742,0.114,-0.9868,2,0,2,0,1,0,101.0,2,14,24,5,22,36,12,2,31,1,48,14,3,5,10,103,94,30,0,12,20,0,0,3,0,1,9,16,0,5,54,29,0,4,20,2,3,6,13,16,0,1,1,19,77,20,96,83,14,46,0,0,2,2,93,25,1,20,15,364,131,7,0.0,0.0,0.11184397804299967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06323814312027415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060089907264774874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0651933810765305,0.05384048781633995,0.0,0.0,0.20959773318311506,0.0,0.0,0.06456377569733365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06397199009290447,0.4681233130665478,0.0,0.0,0.05886862607307149,0.0,0.09872738251800203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.036957364520561316,0.059079546600330525,0.0,0.05816396717349901,0.0,0.11974428852351073,0.0,0.0,0.050148507636827384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.075699602941318,0.051836186602512116,0.09656486162008132,0.0,0.0,0.056055862711906025,0.05402260981050453,0.06448472020523177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04874410524143497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05987961073278838,0.05497274328875993,0.03256808717901321,0.048065209713414464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10135028726200422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12917512865114425,0.0,0.1536429150426667,0.06054650171038714,0.0,0.056917380701847875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05093584107162405,0.0,0.0,0.09448096012492108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062262690777164925,0.058598847941185986,0.08095326532794325,0.08398984938814053,0.0,0.10120377101241126,0.050713643496600264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461574890386731,0.10344106395196416,0.0,0.07650385208992161,0.0,0.057571167150612224,0.06242258678653542,0.0,0.1731880580126044,0.17325166770283693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04249136857387125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12411273830144667,0.0,0.2383708823030165,0.20014812184558609,0.0,0.0,0.05417230497798108,0.06460344195392337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06419537535524894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0545107385600901,0.22785852464985146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15650656958046258,0.0,0.0,0.05882336422366364,0.04740377589893033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14566452031995936,0.0882332851478304,0.0,0.12829783176487414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05400984001669611,0.0,0.04308667161256745,0.2303003111272574,0.050087611158816124,0.05275928765733863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18359553959541114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07781346740500064,0.0,0.0,0.05965713976651545,0.0,0.09898726028053896,0.0,0.09456622589805808,0.13520128593707792,0.09097301934188384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041719151737002975,0.0,0.0,0.04070824667602989,0.06265466624832497,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,j_ava,2020/03/17,"DAE feel like you’ve lost your personality on meds? So I’m on risperidone, lamotigine, lithium, and seroquil (sorry for the spelling). While the meds have made me fully functional, I just don’t feel myself. Everything is so blasé and I don’t get excited about my normal loves anymore. I’m just sad that the solution takes away me being me. I guess this is a self pity post, but what’s worked for you? Is there any way to manage this and stay my vibrant self?",2.462333333333333,4.825203677777779,3.518888888888892,87.64500000000002,78.8888888888889,6.666666666666668,23.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.2003333333333337,361,12,72,6,9,116,65,90,0.059000000000000004,0.8009999999999999,0.14,0.8069,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,2,6,6,0,0,4,0,7,1,0,1,0,11,17,7,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,2,11,3,7,14,0,7,0,3,0,1,6,3,0,1,2,43,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1350944342622946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19701562040783965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1866459818570952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17854124137573393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008951782411433,0.14192150607987378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037907455126184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21884447871200946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09705439494130684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21685896630759688,0.0,0.17929684266156967,0.18797525617581592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4413291020452151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1946429231213315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17346073667717388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902597061605186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4144877977670664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223816662060772,0.0,0.21174328095687592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493662939220481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15768568605369568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14462558483422366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,leugim1,2020/03/17,"Would love to hear some stories of recovery! Hey everyone, would love to hear some stories of recovery! As I am feeling stuck after psychosis with no motivation!",5.104523809523808,8.328438499999997,5.75,70.46166666666669,74.71428571428572,9.447619047619048,37.904761904761905,9.725611199111238,4.9366047619047615,130,8,19,4,3,42,20,28,0.109,0.547,0.34299999999999997,0.8743,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,0,7,9,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,2,7,6,2,1,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,1,14,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814475383054833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14892930370955154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6639405638522585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5316713754643995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4184684239721204,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TheLuckyMinecrafter,2020/03/17,"Afraid... Hello, I've recently begun gentle testing for a number of conditions on the Schizophrenia spectrum. I'm terrified. I just dont see the fact that theres anything wrong with me but then they started telling me about delusions and I just felt sick and couldn't listen anymore.

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And so I look to you. I was wondering if any of you would be comfortable sharing  the symptoms you experiance and perhaps tell me about any of your episodes.",4.470150602409639,7.2045860602409695,4.379141566265062,82.14533885542173,73.93975903614458,7.041566265060243,33.26656626506024,8.07648339933343,2.824278313253013,365,19,61,6,8,112,64,83,0.10400000000000001,0.765,0.13,0.3071,0,0,0,1,0,0,13.0,0,4,1,0,6,4,0,1,4,0,5,2,0,0,1,14,12,8,0,3,4,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,1,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,4,12,2,9,7,0,5,0,0,2,0,10,1,0,2,4,42,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23804224835941795,0.2669566205006539,0.29880379163889403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2178809760424828,0.0,0.0,0.18079239817262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25748394075379266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21490640093099145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21094414080852056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18449064442000085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2169248668706588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1750705359043506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555030858828126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283499180415797,0.0,0.0,0.38405075667797656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2382526660675801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15606686541100087,0.2402048273551965,0.2669566205006539,0.0
schizophrenia,hanklocklin,2020/03/17,memory loss?? i only kinda recently actually got diagnosed with schizophrenia (almost a year ago) and i still don’t fully understand it and myself. i haven’t had an episode in almost a year and i’ve been doing pretty okay overall i guess. but whenever i try to remember my episodes and hallucinations or just anything that happened in that time period i just can’t. it almost feels like it didn’t even happen but then someone will remind me it did happen. is this common? i can remember small things like who was around me but that’s really it. sorry this feels all over the place it’s late!,2.225112781954884,5.013471912280703,3.940100250626568,81.31736842105266,84.26315789473685,7.116791979949875,21.30075187969925,8.192908349453996,1.6506962406015033,474,15,84,11,14,158,78,114,0.033,0.872,0.095,0.76,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,4,1,12,1,0,0,1,23,20,9,0,0,6,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,13,6,0,0,5,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,6,2,11,3,6,13,1,16,0,1,0,0,1,6,0,6,12,60,24,0,0.0,0.0,0.15027965927682682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365097770135209,0.0,0.4626197197117399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.126727085583893,0.1370907105195514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15630454713728886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10171410867591522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.155731851278089,0.11001607441002724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12316612577772372,0.0,0.16964596218880168,0.0,0.4085392947527357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17371625026213156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15047111365452448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171222826159955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608949466438041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15667114762502427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0986549477568032,0.0,0.15205427024063792,0.0,0.34889902323045635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1304818543679356,0.0,0.0,0.17238795311955296,0.0,0.0,0.12298285913251313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10230930974779236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979736810184585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10455441207819127,0.0,0.0,0.16031716314838484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19833909598644772
schizophrenia,CautiousPath,2020/03/17,"How do you manage your psychiatric insight and fight anosognosia?    
‘E. Fuller Torrey, a psychiatrist and schizophrenia researcher, has stated that among those with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, anosognosia is the most prevalent reason for not taking medications.’ - Wikipedia",13.209230769230773,17.051591974358974,8.23897435897436,59.14769230769232,52.33333333333333,9.302564102564103,46.33333333333334,9.725611199111238,5.761933333333335,233,13,22,4,3,62,35,39,0.128,0.872,0.0,-0.6486,0,0,0,0,1,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,0,2,0,3,1,0,2,0,9,4,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,18,4,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6688712646651632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6000515483415786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4388044788263898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Acapell0,2020/03/17,"Drugs Has any one on the subreddit who has paranoia when smoking weed ever try to use a benzo or opioid(I haven’t tried the opioid method) to reduce the paranoia/anxiety and minimize psychotomimetic effects of cannabis? Just a question to anyone to be honest. I must directly assert that Anyone should use recreational drugs, I must also assert that anyone shouldn’t use recreational drugs. And also is there any data regarding these questions. 

Ps: if you try benzodiazepines+cannabis please don’t use more than 2 weeks. Because of differing half lives of cannabis and benzodiazepines eventually causing a dependence in the long term (even if you do twice in a week.)",10.628421052631573,10.803362368421054,9.00245614035088,64.3605263157895,56.89473684210528,12.161403508771933,40.05263157894737,11.538034831475384,4.972852631578947,546,24,79,13,6,166,76,114,0.019,0.929,0.052000000000000005,0.5574,0,0,6,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,1,7,1,0,0,8,0,11,3,0,7,3,21,15,9,0,6,4,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,4,1,11,10,2,9,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,6,6,55,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2214265639382488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882927654704621,0.0,0.1059089607786108,0.0,0.0,0.2904089131128668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08439392219023563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422196940627152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14464407627275416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4816518042346027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09144067977414527,0.12523014535512236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12224821871596335,0.12251821290919045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09381295365540013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15196947847012698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3101769907771288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2819823121375809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4782832150942396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22210218030527487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BlueberryClorox,2020/03/17,"Smoking with schizophrenia? I'm not a diagnosed schizo,, just worried I have it. Does anybody else feel ""high"" after even just one puff of weed? N does it make you feel anxious, even when you're alone?",1.829736842105265,4.599201447368422,1.6582105263157914,96.71047368421057,87.15789473684212,4.092631578947368,23.389473684210525,5.6839178017228535,0.2851936842105265,157,6,31,1,5,46,31,38,0.183,0.8170000000000001,0.0,-0.6946,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,7,5,1,0,0,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,3,5,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,16,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2876914289599366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3138070133771079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28193607336703863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4861660583147431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.232045612387355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36693592005263503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28090306681199234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2934848459943922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18541716378583514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18822772614674174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2820942916700442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,nicestniceguyever,2020/03/17,"Been having episodes? Not sure if I belong here Hello. I am 20 and have over the last few months been experiencing strange things. I am currently not on any medications, I don’t smoke anything except cigarettes, and am attending university. It all started two months ago when I was at my university. I went outside to have a smoke in the evening, and while I was there I felt as though all my surroundings became fuzzy (best way I can describe it) and as though all noises more than a few feet away were muffled. I could hear the cigarette burning loudly, however, and I felt a sense of calm. I continued to smoke for a few minutes and then was approached by a girl who looked about my age. She looked at me and made a “V” gesture with her fingers and put it up to her lips and asked, “do you mind?” 

I said not at all and handed the cigarette to her, but as I released it just fell to the ground, still burning. I look up and noticed that nobody was there, and proceeded to stomp out the cigarette. I was flustered and ran to my dorm. I felt very sensitive to all sounds at this point, and could hear the humming of the lights and the clicking of the detectors. I felt very scared, and went to sleep.

I haven’t had any other “encounters” but have had moments where I felt either really sensitive to stimuli and paranoid. Any explanations would be helpful",4.603248638838473,5.9702436704980855,5.048594474692479,83.33348457350273,70.14942528735632,8.559870941722123,29.82879612825166,8.99025400887824,2.360650574712644,1062,42,210,20,19,338,144,261,0.052000000000000005,0.9259999999999999,0.022000000000000002,-0.7336,2,0,7,0,0,0,28.0,0,1,0,1,11,4,0,1,16,0,25,6,5,1,6,44,42,28,0,4,9,0,7,0,0,1,1,5,1,1,9,19,0,0,5,0,0,7,5,1,0,1,20,18,30,3,33,18,11,37,0,0,4,0,13,15,0,1,14,160,39,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033017231446364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377444861788997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09589881835802368,0.0,0.10894499695162964,0.0,0.1094889741295491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12229685753027075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1860882891273864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0769706238206084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5594619587868628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626880418935209,0.0,0.07811131470278815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09499201731591232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2935815052538169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11026874383069872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11739729444238114,0.0,0.0,0.11766767290035428,0.0,0.18603510934284803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326764824819532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101637510883054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11715040308921736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07465564974889997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11085198307168763,0.0,0.11667240339434246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166196986391827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248445364914922,0.0,0.0930654312356276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10983336548697567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07742103329081326,0.0,0.2289911489357321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11383828741577792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19230804698874351,0.0,0.09250048583500743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2160592226159437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08278350267507162,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,papaloveshorror,2020/03/17,"Sharing experiences 

I allow myself to feel scared. I allow myself to let my illness have me whenever it wants. I take the pills but they don’t help. I’m beginning to think that I need this part of me now to be who I am because I don’t know what I would be besides ill in this manner. 
My life has been rattled from early on. I am schizo affective with a major depressive disorder. Every day is a challenge. Perception of what is real and not, the changes in vision. I believe my mind is being read. I hear the mechanical whirring of the rapture. All signs point to my death. The paranoia of when it’s coming surrounds me. I believe strangers have malicious intent. I see fire in the sky, in the room. The bugs crawl on my skin relentlessly. I rant and add things to my speech I don’t need to say. My thoughts are so tangled. I can’t get quiet for a moment. Does anyone else crave silence.",1.4101685393258414,3.832627713483149,3.1281910112359554,88.48689325842697,83.66292134831461,5.807191011235956,24.068539325842696,7.1686216300943375,1.1139788764044942,695,27,139,10,20,230,115,178,0.158,0.764,0.079,-0.9538,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,1,1,3,4,0,1,11,0,19,5,1,4,1,24,33,5,1,4,2,0,3,0,0,1,4,4,1,0,9,5,0,0,5,1,0,1,5,2,0,0,2,8,28,2,20,26,3,17,0,1,1,0,6,10,0,0,6,96,37,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12498836877086004,0.1831537410057526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10896626989509324,0.0,0.0,0.4027872077377223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1890971461179315,0.15398002324902102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11528100316162905,0.0,0.15395983857342785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048666128573282,0.0,0.15642809876812802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14932533175625498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506072505729338,0.0,0.0,0.17485489483222846,0.0,0.0,0.09038297085537997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933911506374217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20146780766999106,0.0,0.11981447814644215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982380643585039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827872215026949,0.12625864637916392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804897392510405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26508641286805673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193572257683138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16897951849258427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17880153755106365,0.20346023514219524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14215169096243066,0.17896310131220142,0.0,0.14244312878147772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344001335276225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1187556596197709,0.1145378100150206,0.0,0.1419100456162508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10543324770153187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12698111931528225,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Mextrem,2020/03/17,"I just wanted to ask you: How much time passes between your psychotic episodes? Some months ago I had my first episode and now I’m fine, but the thought of having another one gives me chills",2.54418918918919,5.155634702702706,2.368851351351349,94.55435810810816,80.35135135135134,5.8621621621621625,25.466216216216218,7.1686216300943375,1.08105945945946,152,6,31,2,4,45,35,37,0.0,0.9590000000000001,0.040999999999999995,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,7,7,3,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,6,1,3,5,2,6,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,5,21,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32679286099041616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3865698055615248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3446452407629926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3135801026023202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3536501161614691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942591070900775,0.0,0.27100587214338384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24981203933307555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29267308222547994,0.2149673047118463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21744389863205146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,someauthor,2020/03/17,"GET READY FOR A SELFIE FLOOD No hate against people with faces or cameras, jusayin",3.3580000000000005,6.517559800000001,1.495000000000001,97.7025,84.33333333333334,3.0,27.5,3.1291,0.3570000000000002,67,3,12,0,2,18,15,15,0.293,0.546,0.161,-0.3954,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3974087829461989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7509854414276528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5273396685258319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Palme__,2020/03/17,"Question I have a hard time explaining and description my demon to others such as my psychiatrist.

Do you feel like it would be a good idea to get a professional artist/drawer to sketch him?",7.587499999999999,7.544824972222226,7.818888888888887,71.065,63.16666666666667,11.644444444444444,31.88888888888889,11.20814326018867,3.5426555555555552,153,5,28,4,2,50,31,36,0.04,0.805,0.155,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,6,7,2,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,2,4,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,2,20,7,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2037644407331808,0.2878969676381579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105462500177349,0.0,0.0,0.33800986805460376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3610009268546744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4549279711999332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.196881126556202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4514423318429338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23498738813437064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2862733600818749,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Diamondrocks1,2020/03/17,"Important question. Someone help answer this? Someone approached me telling me they remember something about me, and that I could of been hit by a stray bullet. It was someone from my past. They said to just watch myself but I didn’t deserve it, and I’m not who people say that I am. 

Is it weird that I think I may know who it was who would or not me when you fast forward? Almost like it’s from their friend group? And if someone in their friend group hadn’t thought about something like that or commenting which could get them in trouble,  then it really must of been someone whom you can’t pinpoint because you won’t know them, it was a stranger. 

What do you call this type of life event? It’s like I can see this person but in hindsight if it’s not them, it’s someone else I just won’t know. 

Am I really off my rocker although they verified I’m not wrong?",2.313550000000003,4.307895137142862,2.903053571428572,93.73000892857144,77.62857142857143,5.746428571428572,24.651785714285715,6.6274283507984215,0.686492857142857,679,24,145,6,16,211,95,175,0.032,0.8270000000000001,0.141,0.9582,0,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,4,8,0,5,8,0,0,2,0,20,1,0,0,1,29,31,12,0,6,12,0,0,3,2,5,1,2,0,1,23,3,0,0,8,0,0,2,9,3,0,0,9,4,27,5,13,14,0,11,0,0,2,0,28,5,0,7,9,103,50,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13580710356703196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826746801311058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384865114543428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21656827375905527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11329583044647792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20956438759528245,0.0,0.07085755540185226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09090541197169602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22360498956303226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09579471898261076,0.19877602186731055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12946774720533732,0.09402409151893894,0.11842099889006648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15192908938823474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737674656293079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1536347147452536,0.0,0.1290087771196039,0.10785305940755124,0.0,0.0,0.10807417855287046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6894788855401848,0.2088188221045467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11854070656771548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08690190840730615,0.0,0.10766971871212484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634287226852638,0.14828274367669775,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TR7862,2020/03/17,Has the sleep been over? I am a woman. I think i am living a miserable life. I wake up around 10 am. My mom wants me to help her with household chores. I do that on a regular basis. Then i come upstairs and look forward to what my father wants me to do. The day passed.  At the end of the day i feel like i was sleeping in all of the day and hearing voices all the time. I dontknow if they were helping me or not. All i was feeling that it wasn't me and then this voice was heard by me that it was you. What should i do about this?  Anyone has any suggestion.,-0.5651829988193597,1.428243561983475,1.6286481700118074,98.77985537190085,88.58677685950414,4.779456906729634,17.733766233766232,6.1826913282559595,-0.4217324675324679,425,11,104,4,14,142,74,121,0.04,0.8909999999999999,0.068,0.4922,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,1,9,0,16,4,3,0,3,18,25,7,0,4,3,2,2,1,0,1,1,4,1,1,9,6,0,0,3,0,0,3,2,1,0,0,8,7,21,1,14,16,3,16,0,1,1,0,11,7,0,2,9,80,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14715320324568287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15130551868302985,0.0,0.0,0.1926337404220997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18640156291046694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4186626039495177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916580712582843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21882743842281024,0.15458967161117124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2438882228579639,0.0,0.2900844604975834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528432618689435,0.10571764249706793,0.0,0.19107709136020792,0.0,0.18171382060688412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2534343566286061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4330942641518559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13865452380542956,0.0,0.0,0.12617924899478675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2552658681250965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Fizzleberry,2020/03/17,"It felt better when I was insane A few months ago i was doing fine, and then the meds started working too well. I didnt realize that I was content being slightly off until I started feeling lonely without the voices. It's like I looked towards them for company and advice, advice I once considered unsolicited. The few voices remaining were unpleasant and scary instead of familiar.

I began a manic episode and it felt good, I had energy all of a sudden. The problem was however that I was angry literally all the time, it took all of my effort not to act out. I started thinking that I was the Angel of Death and that the coronavirus was my doing, and that everyone on earth deserved it. My doctor prescribed Depakote and since then I've felt empty, as if this anger was a part of myself that I had lost. All of a sudden, instead of being slightly crazy, angry, and content, I was scared and alone. At least I can think straight now i guess.

Anyone else feel better before medication? Any advice on how to deal with this feeling of emptiness with medication?",5.518407142857144,6.852859855000002,6.442428571428575,74.31800000000001,67.95,8.514285714285714,31.785714285714285,8.841846274778883,2.8651714285714287,841,35,139,14,14,279,113,200,0.201,0.6970000000000001,0.102,-0.973,1,3,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,1,5,7,11,1,1,12,0,18,3,0,1,4,31,34,16,1,2,3,0,6,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,13,12,0,0,9,0,0,2,3,5,1,0,19,9,21,6,22,13,8,23,1,2,1,0,2,7,0,2,15,114,34,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3934677979984532,0.11897584710100828,0.0,0.0,0.1390090058454649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09127260344962017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09384810049590568,0.13752184192131264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11420933321444054,0.0,0.0,0.2374092059043013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1383725020510447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13737745045373542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11212162282825702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12825071484293585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20359342750135434,0.0,0.3866099718835857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11257539558734744,0.0,0.0,0.14785587157379326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06557196342612866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11270902110011753,0.0,0.14651441818733918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14908555019943015,0.2704203207548141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10713124646335223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429374151845512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14534463383205473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1284281630552585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13437528053348044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1110262257457017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2849998271131721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172002499281784,0.0,0.0,0.07826339014750554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14912074591011246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12067778482742834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12938102351564945,0.0,0.09771204657931468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,xplicit_mike,2020/03/18,"Help with sister Hello everyone.

My sister (30F) has schizoaffective disorder and has been staying at my grandparents house for the past few years following a terrible manic episode and homelessness. At first she was on her meds, going to therapy, working, etc. However, over the past few months she's stopped taking her meds without telling anyone, quit her job, and has been getting more and more manic. A couple of weeks ago she sort of lost it and my grandparents were finally able to get her involuntarily taken to a ward. However, the ward is releasing her on Tuesday and my grandparents refuse to take her back in unless she's able to prove to them that she's taking care of her self (going to therapy, taking meds etc). She'll probably end up at a homeless shelter. I live with my brother and he is livid that they are kicking her out, and wants her to stay with us. But I also feel like unless she's on her meds and committed to staying healthy, we shouldn't, as we'd only be enabling her until her next breakdown, like my grandparents have been. Should we take her in? Or should we try the tough love approach my grandparents are trying? Idk what to do.",7.567328767123289,7.386113643835618,7.368595890410964,74.73864726027398,63.24657534246575,10.952968036529679,35.14497716894977,10.504223727775694,3.641240182648402,924,37,167,20,12,294,123,219,0.08199999999999999,0.83,0.08800000000000001,0.5215,8,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,5,0,2,5,2,7,0,0,8,0,20,1,0,0,2,31,36,16,0,4,5,3,1,2,0,4,0,0,0,1,4,16,0,2,2,0,0,4,2,3,0,1,7,1,36,4,33,23,6,32,0,1,0,1,37,11,0,2,16,119,40,2,0.2055664685875196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09111113561593183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08219571533015996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07186842724742908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0790339627414798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10479435750596376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11372769377768448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11779849122246284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09103543790404696,0.0,0.22926095151699996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821378504642646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05197029154956689,0.07342836311652329,0.0,0.11259400916401248,0.0,0.0874273665834325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10739999539387614,0.0,0.116828161379415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06889343536951423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11859805243380392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10199650032332903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10042939298845804,0.0,0.09075947895753564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11220004186078937,0.0,0.09276588187550884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4566760099153259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08204059700402487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093111357217835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07817128127032624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962364545975469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108177107469041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10932262150980036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722532955885923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32865975603799746,0.0,0.08593138619815613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3864010032878608,0.0,0.08983707712718142,0.0,0.2350831721252102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13956613843353616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12363557548954675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060624214608234,0.0,0.08244651076133487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0990793700309153,0.0,0.07482741870826941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0661890330044737
schizophrenia,Nathan0156,2020/03/18,"My new website. SchizophreniaBlogSite.com [https://schizophreniablogsite.com/](https://schizophreniablogsite.com/)

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I made it. My name is Nathan. I live in Australia. I'm letting you guys know.

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schizophrenia,hiskotop,2020/03/18,"Is there any way to get meds if you don't have insurance in the US ? I can tell that my symptoms are worsening and I'm getting to the point where I know if I don't do something it's going to spiral out of control. I live in the US and I don't have the insurance or money to get a psychiatrist. I can pay out of pocket for meds if I need to, but I just don't have the hundreds of dollars to see a psychiatrist. I also want to avoid going back to a mental hospital because I did not have a good experience last time. ... help?",1.6362280701754381,2.7523024473684243,4.358771929824563,86.37307017543861,77.15789473684211,7.522807017543862,24.947368421052627,8.167268648758528,1.3562000000000003,405,14,93,7,9,145,66,114,0.092,0.86,0.048,-0.5376,0,1,1,0,0,0,10.0,2,1,0,1,5,2,0,1,9,0,14,1,0,1,0,16,24,8,0,5,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,3,2,5,1,0,0,1,1,14,1,16,23,0,12,0,0,1,0,5,6,0,4,3,68,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14979981200199868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1273840878309333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440375901942236,0.0,0.11418859104668437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.210095414283082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1832349964601976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29360105428357114,0.0,0.2129166531476608,0.15711520803738402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12555671089510298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10294622516720832,0.15269087840677315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16540707542512895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.416140793691938,0.0,0.18877459723470927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13889547664687987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17707803663456614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14926986300896394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14420816048113747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19469730190805745,0.0,0.0,0.16372601917758192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10922785356943747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4506460194597829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1104862451114896,0.14868597208783169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,DaRudeStarstorm,2020/03/18,"A big thanks to r/schizophrenia. I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder bipolar type last November (I think? My memory sucks.) This sub really helped me through the pains of my psychosis and the massive highs of my mania. I was not myself when I first went to the doctor and the process of taking medicine was a long and arduous one, but one I decided to stick to ultimately. It was tough. I went weeks were my partner literally had to lecture me about staying on my medicine because I would skip doses at random. I would have nights were the world felt like it was literally physically melting, days and nights were random voices would be my only company through out and everyone in the world was literally out to get me. I like to think I came out of my psychosis and mania a stronger person, though. I was put on Geodon and it has done nothing but wonders for me. Now I'm back to talking to my friends and family, back to enjoying music and back to just being myself again. I know we're living in truly dark times right now with covid-19, but I just felt compelled to thank you all for being here for me when my world had turned completely dark. Thank you. Stay safe out there.",5.28528761061947,6.638589862831857,5.478042035398231,80.94591261061949,68.51327433628319,8.835840707964602,30.496681415929203,9.188382445141503,2.590239823008849,943,37,177,18,16,298,124,226,0.023,0.8220000000000001,0.155,0.9861,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,2,0,1,14,11,1,0,9,0,21,5,0,1,1,37,38,15,0,3,6,0,2,2,2,3,5,1,0,2,4,16,0,1,7,0,0,4,1,3,0,3,18,3,31,8,33,14,1,37,0,0,0,0,7,15,1,3,18,128,35,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28993209308361906,0.0,0.07661642853968988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14375019298065045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317783641041113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08105644755225708,0.0,0.0,0.1275676611628236,0.0,0.0,0.14404593475818886,0.12864395530913858,0.0,0.1286194239735186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12009743356080098,0.0,0.0,0.1184846618677316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2413546802661454,0.0,0.0,0.10690762345312556,0.0,0.0,0.09710394343949108,0.0,0.06566524141773561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0842440271816672,0.13279313619969402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06907320627793367,0.10245007550125733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12280671543492015,0.0,0.11098218533134672,0.1112272976602285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2358937755535577,0.0,0.12059817731651835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1703348599827917,0.0955891299198766,0.1337377348012873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10974332147002552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1263481709371231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08051704942673127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10733433003457173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26792704096968395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0944995018739056,0.10102086732818524,0.0,0.3471416716291241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16106778628940774,0.12348490515558068,0.0,0.07328795250766439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13670922273460906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10081695093818756,0.0,0.0,0.2330225664766304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13630005512571886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26784912055654153,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Leather-Armadillo,2020/03/18,Are you having a hard time sourcing medication at the moment? I am having a hard time. I'm day 4 with no meds and can't find them anywhere. My symptoms are in overdrive and I still have to try to work in a role that is critical to my company. I am starting to lose it but there is nothing I can do about it. How about you?,0.3241428571428564,2.1559379857142846,2.8071428571428565,92.74785714285716,83.42857142857143,5.7142857142857135,22.857142857142854,6.868970318607317,0.5844285714285715,249,9,58,3,7,86,49,70,0.125,0.875,0.0,-0.594,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,2,1,2,5,1,0,0,4,0,12,2,0,1,0,6,14,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,9,0,10,14,0,9,0,1,0,0,4,3,0,0,6,45,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17583605169145686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2491962499204944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4884799071703161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30502449421615824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028515787827296,0.2746651870888043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616140724259056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929823681292825,0.0,0.21773784654278985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28338671027403906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31796765327497684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1851107763556157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1984917219210838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Lipsin0fficial,2020/03/18,"I hallucinate with alcohol My current diagnosis is clinical depression with psychotic tendencies. When I took about 1.5 shots I could function perfectly fine and talk normally but when u closed my eyes I started to see whole ass new places and different scenarios; like I was dreaming. A couple of times I saw some people when I had my eyes open (one example is when I was under the covers [idk why but I had a belief that if I don’t cover myself properly I’m gonna have a shadow like person watch me then pull me out of the bed ( and do idk what )] I looked out and saw someone above me move into the wall or maybe under the bed. Anyways, it would be nice to have a explanation to why I hallucinate with a small amount of alcohol. 

Oh yeh I was hearing shit too",3.1241161487519093,5.054532496688744,4.959867549668875,80.19107997962303,75.02649006622515,8.884564442180338,26.84717269485481,9.466822959209583,2.559277738155884,601,23,117,16,13,205,98,151,0.091,0.813,0.095,-0.1027,2,0,2,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,7,7,1,0,9,0,14,7,4,0,1,22,23,13,0,4,4,0,0,2,0,2,3,1,2,1,3,12,2,0,1,1,0,3,1,2,0,1,8,8,20,5,15,11,3,22,1,1,7,1,3,10,2,3,11,79,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4028131205387544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150470075440742,0.2085275448082128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1623204303378553,0.0,0.0,0.19690071993732108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21240825882407333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18414419611286945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582590409125937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18933352729156205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20030328868933106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820159640236024,0.0,0.0,0.1846509095693818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12770545873833528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13065452199930475,0.16455611274420362,0.19690071993732108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15017832037705556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934516110553454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15968165315148866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13339304715494096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15147711050566787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10989261500470476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20938613429125386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34011190116678264,0.21040900033761625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13387666629832745,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,clawgod12,2020/03/18,I am looking for an opinion  So I know I should be asking my psychiatrist for this but I don't have an appointment till next month so here I am. I have had hallucinations before and I remember even since primary school it's usually that I hear people talk when they actually don't and other times I hear them say something completely different from what they are saying I also remember that I had tactile hallucinations like feeling itchy and something crawling on my skin and even smelling something really bad that's about it really oh also I had a psychosis like a year ago and I still have some hallucinations even with medication so is it possible I have schizophrenia? When I told my psychiatrist about my hallucinations she told me it's because my brain was still developing and that I dramatised so what's your opinion cause I am kinda worried about the negative symptoms if I have it.,4.16500354358611,7.026349433734943,5.420644932671866,73.59129340892987,75.74698795180723,8.725159461374913,30.246633593196314,9.325443323948027,3.3225383416017014,730,34,123,20,17,242,93,166,0.09699999999999999,0.85,0.053,-0.8402,1,0,3,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,3,0,17,3,0,0,5,0,18,4,2,1,0,19,26,17,0,2,2,0,2,2,0,1,2,4,0,0,13,7,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,6,8,29,2,9,18,1,12,0,0,1,0,13,1,0,5,13,98,42,1,0.0,0.0,0.13219830806330518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200851907844942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2166691939544713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12664532929073274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131110468960218,0.08258071105106513,0.0,0.1152742334062334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15122832720547738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13916409092458099,0.0,0.0,0.1420367826624318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14153638506103874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2684282052108017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06849725155619991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3053670613356708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0744502791076164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1323667270291502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11375993221927222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1364708745560626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10813014980771923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14407293355835166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09391722255533748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15272106501954244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1735699593449136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.306920183196865,0.0,0.0,0.21546094453064132,0.0,0.13710196996703533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11206144629872462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31287221401207305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2163716097886182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14080427373622573,0.0,0.10888493778635508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.078993126473187,0.0,0.0,0.2588930767954364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14920008387939712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13757545532262674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08723766422678142
schizophrenia,39Seconds,2020/03/18,"Need opinions Hey guys so I'm sorry if this is a weird post, but I'm not diagnosed and not claiming self diagnosis at all, but I'm starting to notice very weird things happening to me I am diagnosed MDD and Moderate Anxiety, but I'm starting to hear people talking about me a lot whispering mean stuff about me all the time, and it's getting to the point where it's affecting my focus and ability to do my study's and it's especially bad, when I walk past groups of people. Or in large crowds like lecture theatres, even when I see their lips out of sync with what they are saying it's still very vivid, they are like talking about when to steal things from me as well. Any advice or tips you guys do to make them stop or at least less noticeable.",5.451615497076019,5.463839585526318,5.901929824561408,82.82961988304095,67.6184210526316,9.65029239766082,30.046783625730995,9.444778638647367,2.366585380116958,595,20,125,11,9,192,96,152,0.12,0.8029999999999999,0.077,-0.7121,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,4,0,11,7,0,0,4,0,6,3,1,2,2,25,19,17,0,2,9,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,0,3,9,7,0,1,1,0,0,1,2,4,1,0,0,5,14,3,19,19,5,17,0,0,2,0,15,6,0,6,11,79,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14786603684364866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029013165485298,0.0,0.1157577294186088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12634407147696905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30716883413820106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09994400274850854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07905732325038305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29965689314302923,0.13380986154614458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17054619722321265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14785250141232306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1286450119385696,0.0,0.0,0.10100582970658167,0.0,0.0,0.16482948240029138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122002571354818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34455271561118456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14444999525122862,0.20980946786493404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14304426409764515,0.0,0.14492065759009645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12033401565675032,0.0,0.0,0.12058072312004355,0.0,0.1578575028513816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1693879274436392,0.21420708454782103,0.0,0.12084261830699004,0.12650848542603368,0.0,0.0,0.1732227183289133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432470875296693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20105769136140672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08823464631612928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24970612193034156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13605290599338382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,redwineandpizza,2020/03/18,"Change of diagnosis I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder at 17. Now, at 22 after my last psychotic episode, they changed my diagnosis to paranoid schizophrenia, because I didn't suffer a depressive or manic episode in the last years. Anyone else experienced this?",9.881515151515153,12.115668363636365,8.902727272727274,57.35742424242426,58.54545454545455,13.13939393939394,46.48484848484848,12.45797560212912,7.0670393939393925,224,14,29,8,3,70,38,44,0.10300000000000001,0.787,0.11,0.0859,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,1,5,0,7,0,0,8,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,1,5,19,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19214555588496024,0.2815636184713943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16751466322508454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5814009193719551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.236683613503939,0.2789147733117317,0.0,0.0,0.31494297906956675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2295589514462169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4479950376722969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17696127530865832
schizophrenia,GetHautnah,2020/03/18,"Tidying gives me almost a sense of euphoria Does anyone else of you feel this way?

Today I tidied up my hard discs, ordering everything, making backups and putting everything in its right place. Just as with normal everyday stuff, arranging, ordering, putting things in their right place makes me feel so good. I like order so much, it's just pure bliss for me. I wish I could be on the show hoarders so I could clean and tidy their places (but only the messy ones with trash and stuff, because-), too much stuff does give me slight anxiety. When things don't have a right place, that's horrible. I find it to be hard work and very tiring, but seeing the puzzle pieces fit together makes me so happy.",3.016331168831172,5.694163295454548,3.1053246753246766,89.59227272727274,78.92424242424242,6.8017316017316025,21.549783549783545,7.957251820313856,1.113578354978356,553,16,106,10,14,168,89,132,0.055999999999999994,0.779,0.165,0.9522,0,0,0,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,2,1,8,3,0,0,5,0,6,1,0,3,1,26,15,12,0,4,4,0,4,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,10,6,0,3,3,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,5,15,3,11,11,3,21,0,0,1,0,5,12,0,2,4,65,25,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11217777109636218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08569951783760253,0.0,0.0,0.07833112403504074,0.11478378784593055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06828995759146382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1788871539292232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1960692651271493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09358327657525063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013633366626715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11328733657941514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10238965618132062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21493092988344972,0.0,0.0939620219104062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11925366892265694,0.2007064302236064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054730203096410274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2243345031415978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16470387380576512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10976161069420604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07591165880661563,0.08520075593254375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4681729479171281,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252339713429844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28700855622780586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08927014968070006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38472860984400736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488500793316713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12875730884995762,0.10618746794290958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09243311162894888,0.0,0.08892095642175303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12882427283740008,0.0,0.0,0.08155619985783193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,XQCsBigSchnoze,2020/03/18,"Girlfriend getting diagnosed issue, please help My girlfriend has all the things that come along with this illness. Her doctor told her all this is caused by childhood trauma and stress and not schizophrenia. She hears voices all the time, she sees things, sees people, her shadow flickers, she sees her cat everywhere, she has voices that yell at her, tell her horrible things etc. Her doctor told her they will call her in a month, what the hell. What do we do? Why is no one taking this seriously? English is not my first language i apologize.",6.428571428571428,8.125159000000004,5.161836734693877,82.99030612244898,66.14285714285714,7.6408163265306115,28.285714285714285,7.957251820313856,1.803351020408164,434,14,75,5,7,127,64,98,0.187,0.757,0.055999999999999994,-0.9419,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,1,0,1,1,0,4,1,1,4,0,8,4,0,1,3,12,17,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,4,4,0,0,10,6,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,2,2,7,18,0,5,14,4,7,1,0,3,0,24,2,1,0,4,56,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776797865932968,0.0,0.0,0.17875230095565842,0.0,0.14989093486330732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17661263152408185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3562054406220401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19406291091849606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480095859399876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09091105834140792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1961176352576499,0.0,0.11663268884227615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18161726593334712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.138890089766654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11791110532100076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12063399056175582,0.0,0.0,0.19100655595270494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4159812413467587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19932351569072412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308310080433551,0.0,0.1520890895754441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3468059647957486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1014644153024781,0.0,0.0,0.33254076444011776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1570135317456246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,wetried87,2020/03/18,"i caused covid-19 i don't know what to do and i don't know what to do to make this stop

i'm so sorry. i'm so sorry and i know i can't take it back and i know it's going to get worse and i'm so fucking scared and i'm so sorry",-4.669322033898304,-3.5746781864406785,-0.4889999999999989,109.0770084745763,110.52542372881358,2.3600000000000003,9.289830508474576,3.1291,-2.4417403389830508,173,2,54,0,10,64,25,59,0.262,0.738,0.0,-0.8968,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,1,0,0,5,1,0,2,0,12,18,9,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,1,4,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,0,0,6,0,4,18,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,30,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16048025674277475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143961819019254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19294320037358526,0.10903906521402494,0.0,0.1186111178195732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4587923645002951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393113351117576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2089488044819748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7008800895711839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17448563175872486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569192029915938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2126868923422024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BoofinBufo,2020/03/18,"Constantly singing under my breath?! For about 7 years. Day in day out, under my breath I am talking to myself usually (to get through anxiety and just correct my thoughts) but lately I’ve been listening to a lot of music and I find it coming out of me. Like I can change the song at Will if I think of another one, but usually I only have to force the first line or two and the rest comes out in its entirety.

It’s very mentally taxing. I read once that a lot of the “voices” people hear are actually themselves using sub vocal speech.",3.701331775700937,5.011900009345794,5.175782710280377,81.77713200934579,72.27102803738319,8.714485981308412,27.393691588785053,9.188382445141503,2.2705523364485978,419,15,83,9,8,141,77,107,0.013999999999999999,0.951,0.036000000000000004,0.4926,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,6,0,6,2,2,1,1,20,14,7,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,0,0,4,8,0,0,3,3,1,2,0,0,0,3,2,5,11,1,19,11,3,18,0,0,0,0,3,8,0,4,9,60,15,2,0.0,0.0,0.17509057564972436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18814024032090493,0.1372577979543535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1898053202891408,0.3091133655997397,0.0,0.19389208963213897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314254675710471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16398900595196847,0.1526167719637504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0937409031432564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20222231031929636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20239650798036085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08765681940991851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30507735673780456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18081578022735648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910792133572152,0.12158139730264038,0.1364589724472881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12438903947819695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794711543764133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14421308953112996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114966757359519,0.0,0.1424415027588027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17526980914755133,0.0,0.0,0.154963518713947,0.3952172906921191,0.1480424357147515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11554227184579476
schizophrenia,g0thboicl1que,2020/03/18,"Do you ever go through phases where you just can’t make decisions? Sometimes it’s a couple hours, sometimes a couple days, at a time where every question I have for myself or from others , the answer is “I don’t know” . Even simple questions about what I want to eat and I’ll just drive myself mad trying to find an answer but it never comes. Just looking to relate to someone. This shit drives me crazy.",2.466740506329113,4.8712767341772185,3.3473259493670935,88.65238132911396,79.12658227848101,4.456329113924051,20.00158227848101,5.148860815047168,-0.06630506329113882,318,8,58,1,8,101,60,79,0.132,0.852,0.015,-0.8735,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,0,8,2,2,0,5,0,5,2,1,1,2,18,11,3,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,1,0,7,0,0,4,3,2,0,0,0,1,8,0,9,11,0,12,0,0,1,0,4,3,1,3,5,43,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17195546028170786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4417527658458896,0.0,0.1287387645625711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20426169606793596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13184751519714746,0.1805682496415454,0.1681889543044734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18244960029404966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11344897997960897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19658606791387556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10970625421085577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16763101754148366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13324829205359948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15395970308867216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4472414860246505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049076641640783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16913787576454492,0.0,0.3948597301063325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11640036971857612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13552927528796538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11774139433783662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,redditreadr999,2020/03/18,I’m a journalist writing about involuntary commitment. I’d like to interview former psych hospital patients. I’ve written previously for Mad In America and Reason. You can see my articles [here](https://www.madinamerica.com/author/michael_simonson/) and [here](https://reason.com/2020/02/11/psychiatric-hospitals-can-still-force-patients-to-accept-shock-treatment-one-connecuticut-patient-has-been-shocked-500-times-in-five-years/).,16.857857142857142,21.144829071428575,11.784285714285714,35.5107142857143,44.0,15.6,51.5,13.816669648895859,9.356871428571427,372,21,31,14,4,104,49,56,0.08800000000000001,0.7709999999999999,0.14,0.2263,0,0,0,0,0,0,49.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,5,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,1,4,3,0,2,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,2,10,2,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18996878972323175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634897210955451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7995896418713361,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3098571051048527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105300989497093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25040180207513496
schizophrenia,throwawayaccOUNTgdi,2020/03/18,"Tired I'm kind of tired of fighting myself. I had to convince myself that Hawaii exists and I grew up there the other day (""they are all lying to you about where you grew up. Hawaii doesn't exists"") and today I had to convince myself I opened a bank account because they won't fucking shut up. ""You didn't do it. You are making a fool of yourself."" and I'm tired of my head and skin being itchy because of it.

I'm tired of being told I'm not mentally sick. I spent the later half of my day scratching at my skin and pilling my hair out while spacing out while my SO talks and being told by him that I'm zooming. 

I don't think I have schizophrenia, my doctor just worries about it. My therapist tells me it's psychosis and anxiety. My medicine had to go up in dose because it stopped working as well. Some days it's hard to take my medicine because it feels like it's all a lie. 

In all, I'm tired of having voices and being convinced things aren't real.",2.5508333333333333,4.021075131313136,3.539280303030304,91.72892045454547,75.46464646464645,5.556060606060607,25.001262626262626,5.602791699666715,0.4989989898989902,748,25,159,3,16,240,100,198,0.16899999999999998,0.762,0.069,-0.9605,0,0,0,0,2,0,21.0,0,4,2,1,7,9,2,0,5,0,17,14,4,1,3,22,32,12,0,0,2,0,6,1,0,1,9,1,0,0,12,11,0,1,2,0,3,3,6,3,1,1,7,7,27,6,26,20,4,24,0,0,0,1,12,13,1,1,9,108,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560893781202742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3047452528692504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24180421950756434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12792176377183645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06319336555916456,0.08928534465518508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11554148841343972,0.0,0.0,0.07102870206734457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11195703949050148,0.0,0.12826497313861013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13014686569819536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06105864672657892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08342475391985676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12594989097041842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422539765446203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10448841711512552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09396899315028466,0.10045374845112633,0.10923754873012924,0.0,0.0,0.14511077522047047,0.08303079373856627,0.08008178565193179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7182274676274885,0.11846590593670388,0.2388464423167071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11237153573760364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09098652871266692,0.12692269897921704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,joshpc2004,2020/03/18,Hallucinations When you see something in your peripheral vision that isn't there (like a hand or insect) and it dissapears when you look at it is that a hallucination and if so how often would you have to have these hallucinations for it to be irregular,7.047163120567375,8.081908042553195,8.596595744680851,61.33333333333334,64.31914893617022,11.373049645390072,30.56028368794326,11.20814326018867,3.572126241134752,206,7,37,6,3,72,35,47,0.055999999999999994,0.9009999999999999,0.043,-0.1601,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,4,0,0,6,1,0,0,2,0,6,1,1,1,0,7,8,8,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,5,6,0,4,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,3,3,33,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2986434151306939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5133262025209392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4871157215132114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.470597753122101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4342399670868646,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,foolproofapricot,2020/03/18,"If they are passing delusions would that still count? Hey guys, I hope everyone is doing okay amidst such a chaotic time in the world, know that we will get through this!

So lately I’ve been having a lot of “passing” delusions. I’ve had a few solid consistent delusions that come and go but relatively stay the same!(food tampered with, feeling of being watched) But some are passing delusions like the patterns on my cup comfort me because they look like smileys and that’s the universe telling me it’s going to be okay. I have bad feelings take over when I see sad faces in patterns around me like the universe is warning me of bad times. Sometimes I can say “that’s not real” and other times it’s kind of hard to know, but they’re passing so it’s not so disruptive. 

My doc has placed me on abilify because the delusions are constant through my ups and downs and it concerns him. I’m not sure how delusions in schizophrenia work because It could be from so many different things but why is he thinking schizophrenia spectrum? And if they are only passing, does it still count?",4.827176829268293,6.67136567804878,4.3727286585365865,86.53275152439026,70.26829268292683,6.295731707317072,33.78810975609756,6.6274283507984215,2.0497865853658537,864,43,157,6,16,260,119,205,0.10400000000000001,0.764,0.131,0.4681,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,0,3,1,10,12,0,0,9,2,20,1,1,1,1,32,34,18,0,5,9,0,3,3,0,2,0,1,0,1,14,10,0,0,5,0,0,8,3,3,0,0,2,7,17,9,19,26,3,28,0,1,3,0,10,11,0,5,11,106,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13403996998080722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2514407231824626,0.2753597585391823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12970344573150455,0.0,0.1627135861730033,0.0,0.12021856323881527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15731447985400415,0.0,0.0,0.13176555628025804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14387688966449402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15226628114523902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820708567351948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07866704902956044,0.0,0.1711457559297414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14908880376755115,0.0,0.0,0.13488189701883233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14955081783304444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15679635882044846,0.16549959118638166,0.0,0.16985046530190456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2206839195828076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12644158290169513,0.0,0.0,0.1280099432348389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1526551981729092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145159083823751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15731447985400415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17138257944413354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11973997500032492,0.0,0.0,0.11998546456805767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14891841030084255,0.0,0.0,0.16048848076430322,0.24049213376751624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14191123424740731,0.0,0.11321053249300495,0.0,0.13160555035627775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10003257518601466,0.09647971413449606,0.0,0.0,0.2633972020228968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13586676280625293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10961736440846287,0.0,0.0,0.1069612042556964,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ParanormalEyes,2020/03/18,"Anyone else feel their life is a flair for extraterrestrial attention? Or, feel like they are God? I’m into these ideas and believe I’m the center of it all. We’re all in a gigantic slim mold aka string theory and everything I do affects everyone else. I’ve read books about schizophrenia: My Journey Through Madness by Ellen Saks. In it she claims she is God (or used to be) and I was wondering if anyone else has this notion. How do you cope?",1.922413793103452,4.5205167011494245,3.1294367816091966,88.12174137931036,83.13793103448276,6.698390804597702,22.49310344827586,7.908726449838941,1.2944675862068968,351,12,70,7,10,113,67,87,0.034,0.8809999999999999,0.085,0.5171,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,2,0,2,2,1,0,3,0,8,1,0,3,2,17,14,7,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,5,2,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,2,8,1,9,12,2,5,0,0,0,0,5,4,0,4,1,41,12,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29887563436671744,0.4379622765546004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24078896982828066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5356062771427609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.204218378177722,0.19207752896643196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21612625251453105,0.15268143082778846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412635816772063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15095657860787046,0.1044126735762244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21377758381377296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18458524282106994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23176995026472874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,xxblakemyersxx,2020/03/18,"Defining characteristics Is there any defining characteristics of schizophrenia that like, separate it from like anxiety and depression, like ik you cant have delusions or hilucinations but sometimes with my anxiety I feel so scared that I will become schizophrenic, and I have dark thoughts that pop up here and there that cause me severe anxiety, I just need to know is it just my anxiety or am I in early stages of schizophrenia",8.301199999999998,9.979607386666672,7.409333333333333,68.65800000000002,61.8,11.333333333333336,37.66666666666667,11.20814326018867,4.711266666666668,354,17,56,10,5,109,50,75,0.214,0.721,0.064,-0.9059999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,6,5,0,1,0,0,7,1,0,1,0,14,11,7,0,1,5,0,1,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,9,3,7,9,0,4,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,2,4,41,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15211538234986655,0.0,0.6844822539140062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24704561345844225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22978899997541025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19266198420608616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11310327852242735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1229329712166972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3278476972611831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16586167783254674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22395052188911813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25270355670440026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22123296518035385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775831360992466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,newmoodwho,2020/03/19,Fear of people reading my journal So i have schizoaffective disorder and one of my main symptoms is paranoia. I’ve been wanting to journal for a while but what keeps stopping me is i fear that people will read my journal even though they physically and logically can’t. Has anyone experienced this?,5.252222222222223,8.027848666666669,5.666444444444448,73.67300000000003,71.5925925925926,8.023703703703704,34.874074074074066,8.841846274778883,3.5437229629629625,244,13,38,5,5,78,43,54,0.21100000000000002,0.789,0.0,-0.8684,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,7,1,0,0,0,7,9,6,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,2,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,1,1,1,7,0,4,7,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,31,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668127416269895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2734203325848463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15757233818198155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5369120970225437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21205077075882134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16166028616312794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3307869158231041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4772664045355202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19945406728007745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2479641655526748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23439247968730104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14071396627291946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,elracing21,2020/03/19,"My mother is having issues and idk what to do I don't know if this is the right place for this but I'm running out of options and I just need help.

My mother who lives in NYC is having issues according to my younger brother who lived with her up until today (she caused him to have a panic attack). I live in Florida with my own wife and kids. My brother called me up a few days ago about my mother's mental health deteriorating again. Again because back when I lived with her there was a brief moment where she thought many people she knew were after her or trying to cause her harm. She went as far as believing someone was doing witchcraft on her/us. Eventually she tried killing herself by overdosing on sleeping pills. Thankfully it wasn't her time and we got her help and she was admitted for about weeks. Things got way better.

Fast forward a whole 5+ years and it's back in full force. I don't know if it's schizophrenia but now she believes my wife is trying to do her harm. My wife a person who my mother has gone on record saying is the perfect woman for me and a better mother than she was. She speaks to my wife more than I do. My wife is confused about everything because they haven't had any ill conversation and my wife even went over for a week and my mother pleaded for her to stay over with the kids which they did. Now out of nowhere my mom is making things up like saying my wife made up rumors at all the local llcases my mother visits saying that my mom eats her own boogers... She wants to go everywhere she usually visits and tell people that she doesn't that she isn't crazy. She keeps repeating it over and over. My brother left the house and pleaded me to go intervene or hell in some way.

Amid all this isolation and quarantine I'm fucking scared. I'm worried about my mom. I'm worried about taking a flight and being stuck in NYC a place I just hate now. I don't know what to even tell her. She doesn't know that I know about her issues and since this recent stint has to do with my own wife the mother of my children I don't even know if me going is a good idea. How do I defend my wife without downplaying her reasoning. Should I take my mom to a hospital? What's the right move?

I'm begging for help please somebody. If you yourself are struggling with anything how would you like to be treated? What helps you?

Peace and love to everyone.",2.997874999999997,4.738506370833335,3.7908333333333353,89.25750000000002,74.875,6.5500000000000025,23.458333333333336,7.268377926160553,0.8208583333333341,1878,55,388,21,40,598,214,480,0.10800000000000001,0.773,0.11900000000000001,0.5781,0,2,0,0,0,0,36.0,1,3,2,3,23,20,5,4,18,0,40,7,1,7,3,64,74,30,1,8,11,24,0,2,0,2,3,4,0,5,22,25,1,1,11,0,0,12,10,11,0,0,17,4,74,9,62,53,10,65,1,0,0,2,84,29,2,9,25,267,96,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06792349789590225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05210767260266271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06305590060526439,0.0,0.0,0.08717207475819674,0.0,0.11783989225213913,0.0,0.0934198582968552,0.0,0.0,0.1726604200862821,0.0,0.1355372883709603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0782427597879687,0.0,0.0,0.1574301006701897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049416828666554426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07840657219312537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1518304006741101,0.0,0.0,0.07321853445083218,0.06886566868933053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07083863898363882,0.0,0.0,0.1306433728433723,0.0642694700783749,0.12256813054908194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0756513891377611,0.0,0.08144886222281245,0.0,0.0,0.2054406667518001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841503851848573,0.0,0.08650037290664737,0.0,0.2399299838922692,0.0,0.0681078795492277,0.08477428280416373,0.0,0.25266679479524057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08325335863010519,0.0,0.0,0.07487027372914724,0.0,0.2706453491696964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06915711388938987,0.07250449035667549,0.05114782669304983,0.07768579034885875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07722004432344083,0.0,0.0,0.35896940576744923,0.0,0.08144031888915193,0.0,0.05681651567589966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08990300539492851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10624434581737202,0.06690605224077381,0.16011377073364194,0.0841113126139837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07878332994214028,0.07565800875735045,0.0,0.0,0.13087477572806952,0.0,0.18280598444574192,0.07671505861881596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06338504658366269,0.0,0.07668040390815653,0.0,0.06492416993499349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08167212528158163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08010515627959693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152250273531139,0.0,0.13394737049364808,0.07054606605624279,0.0,0.0,0.1018125783722742,0.0,0.0,0.060831743461227626,0.04468069230469232,0.0,0.07263160322542403,0.0,0.0,0.15607017044860286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09217052004513103,0.0,0.08439168491340092,0.0,0.04519544933279334,0.12164282189537293,0.1229280123085806,0.0,0.0,0.14206440808539705,0.0,0.08554914997536864,0.0,0.0738638294466106,0.0,0.0,0.1556329483941802,0.0,0.054432248549162746,0.0,0.0,0.049344030382440264
schizophrenia,pawel159,2020/03/19,"Should I be worried about my friend? I have a friend who keeps talking how the whole world is against him all the time. He says that now he knows how truly evil is the humanity. 
I tried asking him indirectly whether he was ever diagnosed with anything. He outright started telling me that he’s got one life to live and why the society should define what’s healthy, followed by crying for 30 minutes
I am concerned about him and I do not know how I can help. Obviously i cannot drag him fo see a doctor against his will.",3.8932281553398056,5.477644766990292,4.3244538834951465,86.99017597087378,72.20388349514563,7.0917475728155335,30.350728155339805,7.645422480735847,1.8168262135922328,413,18,84,5,8,130,74,103,0.09,0.759,0.151,0.6874,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,7,3,1,0,6,0,12,3,0,3,3,17,20,6,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,3,3,1,0,1,4,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,2,2,14,2,8,14,2,6,0,0,1,0,19,1,0,1,4,56,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18429635990811685,0.0,0.20936823531471935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2460046882461472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22731019925033524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292280257168608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20258064361131087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34605505078675136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17911773588285546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15011270434654705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990620094471412,0.0,0.0,0.24616025940706496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15818644915304395,0.0,0.0,0.19775688000351885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15175809687592665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1780984659610498,0.0,0.0,0.17846360145922016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15851691206241125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18000701174180878,0.1957470479708148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305902995736758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1520511378413092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20208507669073594,0.2500384069112432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22743776233068794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Willo1121,2020/03/19,Need help for a story I need someone who is schizophrenic to consult about a Wattpad story I'm thinking of writing.,9.694545454545457,7.977319363636365,9.080909090909092,69.14136363636364,59.90909090909091,10.618181818181819,49.27272727272727,8.841846274778883,4.990672727272728,94,6,15,1,1,30,18,22,0.0,0.863,0.13699999999999998,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,9,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3448924274097686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7630655144670185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43597706180532586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3297032540424448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Dewdudedoodle,2020/03/19,Anyone who’s lost and needs help gaining a foothold on life read this.. [love foothold](https://www.instagram.com/p/B92C1uJFwll/?igshid=ttbh1tjhtt5v),13.9495,19.16550695,6.0100000000000025,69.785,54.5,10.0,35.0,10.125756701596842,4.4895,129,5,15,3,2,30,20,20,0.122,0.585,0.293,0.4939,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,1,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,5,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31290121032620194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29994867198686503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160812774396246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4884972475607837,0.0,0.4038846796506537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3318143129762341,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4476193909729405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,WhiteBunnyRabyeet,2020/03/19,"I think I might be losing it I've been hearing whispering and have had mild visual hallucinations (seeing splotches of colors, visual snow, movement in my periphery) since I was 19 (I'm now 31). I went and saw a psychiatrist at that time (twelve years ago) who diagnosed me with drug-induced psychosis from smoking weed. I quit smoking weed and tried i think 7 different anti-psychotics, but none helped and I got really bad side-effects even from the minimum dosages. I just kinda said ""fuck it"" and stopped going to see him.

I've been hearing and seeing things ever since, I just kinda learnt to love with it. Over the past couple of months though I've been hearing things a lot more. Sometimes it starts to get really loud and I can understand whats it's saying. It isn't anything bad, usually just repeats the same few words over and over. Also over the past year I've started getting voices stuck in my head, they don't even like speak English, it's like gibberish, more like the tone of voice gets lodged in my brain. When the voices started getting loud a few months ago, when falling asleep, my mind starts going batshit crazy and I get like a word salad running through my brain and thoughts that make no sense, with random images flashing through my head.

I really don't want to take anti-psychotics, they're pretty much the worst things in the world, they all give me severe side-effects, the last one I tried years ago gave me a seizure. I also don't want to be diagnosed with schizophrenia because I'm pretty sure drug-induced psychosis lasting 12 years that gets worse over-time is not a thing. IDK, I'm not doing too bad now, the loud voices go away if I concentrate on something else or start moving around but I'm afraid it'll continue to get worse and I'll end up in the hospital or something.

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Edit: I havent smoked weed since I was 19",5.511833333333335,6.497428961111113,5.305000000000003,83.74500000000003,67.72222222222223,7.888888888888887,29.722222222222207,7.937092434478242,1.9038055555555555,1486,53,281,17,24,459,188,360,0.17800000000000002,0.77,0.052000000000000005,-0.9926,1,0,5,0,0,0,49.0,0,0,2,2,15,13,1,1,17,0,19,10,5,1,3,46,61,21,0,3,10,0,0,4,0,2,2,14,0,0,17,16,1,1,4,0,0,8,9,7,0,1,13,19,29,6,31,44,10,52,0,1,5,2,14,15,1,8,33,156,46,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20512763997052988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12337030658498305,0.0,0.08357617608587031,0.09372795659602406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06347586367041577,0.0686668616367636,0.0,0.0,0.07247124953421756,0.0,0.19321451673433848,0.04702102525251749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17221723818840895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08534885542511833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15658161914541266,0.0,0.08059007789349015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17890515542722504,0.0,0.06443673076183361,0.0,0.06831907137256497,0.0,0.0,0.10189441137894922,0.06977338739922835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07131043641533287,0.2821004481201508,0.07399530646992253,0.131513480014539,0.0,0.061692227613839724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15832635249748622,0.0,0.26081161301952305,0.0,0.05170223416810518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1257512958796146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15073784507333768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08629478461999268,0.0,0.06557776058510954,0.06961771207682718,0.0,0.0514884799525808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08182847215606195,0.07788476741760647,0.0,0.12313748428548282,0.08198272531930824,0.05670339594980504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05226894482875682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14726893895627566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15694886948457706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08204299505250068,0.0,0.0,0.1482447414939705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07337343134702927,0.061341167839071814,0.0,0.0,0.1844007864616205,0.0,0.0,0.08714104879691194,0.0,0.1914216054517007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11876520225791065,0.07628888514939942,0.0,0.2729841735492071,0.0,0.0,0.06448865015625184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07269920373873827,0.0,0.05799622285527674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20498133505851307,0.098850502311759,0.07578514104996922,0.061236893260013414,0.04497827334490027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10473974962238483,0.0,0.0,0.0803006740441294,0.0,0.0,0.08495374794523973,0.0,0.09099291748541176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07150529065073817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1572151294616939,0.0,0.0,0.09372795659602406,0.19869068020214015
schizophrenia,hunglikejohnbrown,2020/03/19,"Can't stay inside because my mind thinks it's roach infested, can't go outside because it thinks the air is trying to kill me Fuck you schizophrenia, and fuck you COVID-19. Y'all  put me in the center to make the worst threeway ever. 

Anyway, feel free to vent in the comments. I can't be the only person going through this.

EDIT: Any chance we can start a sticky thread for COVID-19? I see a few threads here and there but nothing centralized.",2.7971633986928097,5.415925788235298,2.669803921568626,92.74300653594773,79.35294117647058,4.718954248366012,24.73856209150327,5.82211442006289,0.5655228758169937,352,13,67,2,9,105,64,85,0.11699999999999999,0.84,0.043,-0.7391,0,0,0,0,0,1,12.0,1,3,0,0,4,5,3,0,7,0,6,2,0,1,1,10,16,3,1,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,3,0,1,3,3,4,0,0,0,2,9,2,7,15,2,10,0,0,1,2,6,4,2,0,2,41,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15997527777914308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2868074322775243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21279338310691387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189473945359542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4349620845788827,0.0,0.0,0.2673913305114643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2602647319049655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15702846383897012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375312962298705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22572478404929974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17891510625400814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054076445505399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23648710315872865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18746052356717405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16650825763068264,0.250740827140039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014721456531956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597165230089206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,nobitchleftbehind,2020/03/19,"First time being a part of someone else's delusion. My my how the turn tables. Let me preface this by saying schizophrenia runs in my family, I myself am schizophrenic. My aunt has not been diagnosed with it but many people in my family suspect she may be on the schizo spectrum.  She lives a pretty rough life and may benefit from treatment, but she insists she doesn't need it.

 

So, I've met my aunt maybe four times, I don't particularly like her, mostly because she's rude. Last time I saw her was maybe four years ago at Thanksgiving dinner and she made some rude comments about an acne breakout I was having and I left the table in a huff.

 

Today she called my mother to say she realized why I had been upset by her comments, she came to the conclusion I had a big crush on her and I perceived the comments as a romantic rejection.  Heartbroken, I fled to my room.

 

I'M SORRY, WHAT?

 

This woman is well into her 60s. I am 26.  Sure I'm a lesbian, but I like alternative babes with tattoos and colored hair, she is a frumpy old lady, not to mention MY AUNT. My mom tried to explain to her that was not the case, I most certainly do not have a crush on her, and she said ""I guess we'll have to agree to disagree, then."" BITCH HUH? My mom even told her to look at a picture of ""the girl from Twilight, she's the kind of girl she's attracted to"" which I thought was funny, but it didn't dissuade my aunt.

 

I'm surprised, amused, but I understand this may be a delusion she's having due to the mental disorder we potentially share. I've believed my fair share of outlandish things, too. I just really dont want to ever see her again knowing she thinks something like that about me, that I'm an incestuous old lady lover...

 

It puts things into perspective though, makes me feel bad about past delusions I've had that involved others.  I've been fairly stable and med compliant for maybe three months now, here's hoping my aunt gets her shit together too.",3.6880195012787738,5.507666378516626,4.657153932225068,83.43603780370847,73.19437340153452,7.854251918158567,27.05250959079284,8.567472430010655,1.9930389386189256,1578,58,303,29,32,513,210,391,0.151,0.727,0.122,-0.9365,0,0,1,0,0,0,67.0,2,0,0,2,15,22,4,1,21,1,32,8,2,3,3,49,58,17,0,3,10,8,3,3,1,4,3,3,1,4,16,13,1,0,10,1,0,4,8,7,1,4,19,10,61,15,37,31,4,34,0,1,4,2,54,13,2,8,20,203,77,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08060039986999379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5911096029559495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07591939980254557,0.05542763673673335,0.0,0.0,0.10244244872373548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09284559719682227,0.10399510430376242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09228796117303713,0.0,0.0,0.104209056691334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10656457767159344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0759569934085685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06005575579313094,0.08224775937757202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1714338536017041,0.0,0.04597491022296935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.077341596705694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04750507452388851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1001652239706826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903100196830524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09468542169467706,0.049970543639102576,0.0741168138057089,0.0,0.0,0.09879134914975128,0.09297798046425017,0.06422371246729353,0.13326553080776815,0.0,0.08028931092250051,0.0,0.07635492741575152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08603636585492612,0.06069380128595622,0.09218467776690087,0.27404212076009804,0.0,0.10099827194935153,0.0,0.09163200723241106,0.0,0.0,0.21298283025921694,0.07257625403739505,0.0,0.0,0.06742046603247083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19082305249634726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09846398148252528,0.08679914152483917,0.06303662960592832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09250441560253254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09140572922197317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0582495145205907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08649143392748633,0.14461598613522486,0.0,0.0,0.0724562381124418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09333421734022193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07704129233756082,0.06999926577912814,0.0,0.10178419640103503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08569666514587132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12081436885327793,0.05826169999437063,0.08933431896904236,0.07218507585222024,0.1590590198289957,0.0,0.08618720243382927,0.08688367556801009,0.0,0.061732775527423525,0.0989013620279846,0.0,0.09465715744670067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053630501981950365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08175338061899258,0.0,0.08204655916361114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0585533534523955
schizophrenia,SZAMorteVivente,2020/03/19,"Do you ever feel like life is not worth it? Like you are just forced to be alive because you never had any choice on the matter? Don't get me wrong, I am not suicidal, but that's because my sitution is still not bad enough. I have never wanted to live. I wouldn't want to live even if life was free and I was on a permanent vacaction, so why would I want to live if I have to work against my will?

I feel like life is not worth it. If mental illness was understood, none of us would be in this shitty situation, but we were born at the wrong time. Could it be worse? I guess it can always be worse, but that thought doesn't help me at all.

Just stop fucking asking me if I want to study / work as if I was supposed to do it just because I am still alive... from that point of view, I would rather be dead (but how am I supposed to say that to social services?). Why? Life doesn't give me enough satisfaction, I don't care if it's anhedonia or not (IT IS ANHEDONIA) because it's not something I can fix.  

These ""pro life"" people will never understand it.",3.269041095890412,3.89321544748859,4.3286575342465765,90.03243835616442,72.60730593607306,7.4838356164383555,24.64566210045662,7.554174236665415,0.8720560730593605,809,22,187,9,15,264,107,219,0.185,0.703,0.113,-0.9540000000000001,0,0,1,0,0,1,32.0,2,3,0,2,10,9,1,0,3,0,36,7,0,1,5,46,51,15,2,16,21,0,2,3,0,6,6,1,0,0,15,2,0,1,5,0,3,0,15,4,0,0,8,4,26,6,19,31,4,15,0,0,1,1,10,6,1,8,12,134,41,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08873749868885507,0.0,0.0,0.07252251489107286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09969903349666424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08904443706282372,0.2600401332877566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10873207165012537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08514765748850993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203863696687673,0.0,0.07043826717400438,0.0964668510618141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078462161309368,0.15237496043778634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09859193462215313,0.05571780901335981,0.10230396537385614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11748190851005688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07148214969870874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3766339260853229,0.15630463625264626,0.0,0.2825094710383774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074734589863427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467544727856555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07393447804113712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10081435418964277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08480868598268636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11987387450222706,0.0,0.10871153393889617,0.0,0.08210082314039123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17033427519873912,0.08916031228647761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166527356141266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08466451869107983,0.06218577823882525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11102160081257546,0.12828126029465706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25160883098653264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19246173422515525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15527821241555798,0.0,0.21736150477642965,0.2272734527636251,0.23319996139576835,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Psych-aid,2020/03/19,"4 simple ways to become instantly happy ! Hello dear friends, 

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schizophrenia,amplelizard,2020/03/19,"Finally gave in (NSFW NASTY) I fucking gave in and drank piss because I can’t take it anymore.

Holy fuck",0.46142857142857,2.9318599047619074,2.3114285714285714,90.95857142857146,92.8095238095238,4.704761904761905,26.04761904761905,6.42735559955562,1.195876190476191,82,4,16,1,3,27,18,21,0.27899999999999997,0.721,0.0,-0.7351,0,0,0,0,0,1,3.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,7,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,3,0,2,0,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,2,2,2,3,0,1,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3878230153588969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2383844418649776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4283833333890534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7230509540243156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29402585633523154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,philosphymedina,2020/03/19,"Weed induced schizophrenia ?? Is it possible , any legitimate articles ? Joined this group a while back to observe people symptoms and compare them to my own.
My family tree doesn’t have any history of schizophrenics.
I could list what I experience. Just let me know 
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schizophrenia,TinyFlaccidBanana,2020/03/20,"Do any of you feel that you caused the coronavirus outbreak in some way? I do. I have schizotypal PD and so I have issues with ideas of reference *and* social anxiety.

I had a lot of really stressful work events coming up in the next month, all having to deal with large groups of people.  Every day the first event got closer, I'd get a little more anxious about it.  Eventually, the day before the event, it was postponed due to COVID-19.  I was secretly hoping this would happen and was so relieved when it actually did.  Now all these events have been cancelled and I get to work from home for the next two months.

Rationally, I know my anxiety and wishful thinking didn't cause this scenario... I can tell myself this, but deep down it feels like more than a coincidence to me... like even if my thoughts weren't the initial or only cause, they were somehow connected to it.

I'm also starting to feel like the more I focus on this chaos, the worse it gets.  Like I started trading stocks on Feb 12th and then the market started to crash.  Now every time I try to do a little trading, the market seems to get even worse.  Again, I know these shouldn't be connected, but I can't shake the feeling they are... I feel like a butterfly causing a hurricane.",3.747697095435683,5.653587618257268,4.3858485477178455,85.08059854771786,73.2323651452282,7.309626556016598,26.157883817427386,8.07648339933343,1.6094695435684647,980,34,189,15,20,312,138,241,0.11699999999999999,0.794,0.09,-0.6967,0,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,0,2,2,3,11,9,0,2,18,0,22,0,0,4,2,39,45,15,0,5,4,0,5,5,0,2,0,0,1,0,13,9,0,0,13,0,2,2,4,2,0,2,11,5,22,7,25,31,7,34,0,0,0,0,9,10,0,7,26,130,35,7,0.0,0.0,0.10085297409589827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264755020467213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07028034717522179,0.0,0.1581222414762476,0.11675409431473695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08794174029879581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42466844433062106,0.0,0.08902535769798745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13330213005162794,0.10654749745381543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13652107566444655,0.0,0.1741506991784547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2612798771043871,0.22149600995903676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08790796016486775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159807594749394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08265702858476168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09139050733618397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10366671123969576,0.10264812146297096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11666758339067852,0.0,0.10786871186434056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11359497984917112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2524536487607139,0.2071641741121651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08786297789629594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16498315836722152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21982405144130154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07860099358466477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07164865687234387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06620752893923622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09408435622504947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053505157488272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21945124864820847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11838505976475162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09033091703486096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06622137918527797,0.0,0.08204695846481998,0.06026318985973235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07016667101639938,0.0,0.1009562134121572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08203302246264227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11884537563092105,0.0,0.0,0.1504774992111668,0.0,0.21064137173346328,0.0734156245037825,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,yop4family,2020/03/20,"Did you know you had schizophrenia before you got a diagnosis? Hi everyone, I'm wondering if you had a suspicion that you were not neurotypical before you received a diagnosis, or before someone told you. 

I have a friend with schizophrenia or some other delusional mental health problem. Whatever it is, it really worsened over the past couple years, to the point where she has been removed from her community of friends. In retrospect, I see that she's probably had it for a while, but she has always been a very private person. Despite having a lot of friends, she kept her specific thought life and opinions very vague so the few people that do know didn't know until more recently. 

Some people have tried to talk to her about the situation that led to this being clear (but maybe without knowing her mental health struggles) and she has become very defensive and perhaps more untrusting. A closer friend told her his suspicions (in the hopes that she would seek help), and it's unclear if he got through. I'm planning to bring it up with her, but I know it's no easy thing to tell someone that what makes up a lot of their reality may not be real. I'm wondering if there's a way I can say it so it's received better - perhaps she already knows something is off and is just afraid of it being true? 

Your answer or advice is appreciated.",8.220532076619033,7.546255011857713,8.090909090909092,71.71790209790211,62.12252964426877,11.10477348738218,37.24809972636059,10.389873798559362,3.836281483733657,1070,45,190,21,13,345,141,253,0.061,0.7959999999999999,0.142,0.9765,0,0,1,0,0,0,25.0,0,8,1,2,6,11,1,2,15,0,25,3,0,2,2,47,46,18,0,6,13,0,0,0,4,2,3,1,0,1,19,7,0,2,10,0,0,5,5,4,0,0,14,2,27,7,24,27,7,20,0,0,1,0,38,9,0,16,5,140,46,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10440177321256504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11789942424403856,0.0,0.08889855468454604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11799521255403796,0.2727362002456236,0.0,0.0,0.09449035804002492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11821525222897505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10208918325840363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3301739923322887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1708977164746153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22712958908613234,0.0,0.0,0.07161188773464576,0.0,0.0,0.10611517168465404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3522953158054041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07546350115536113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18166128812311053,0.0,0.0,0.07131582039575342,0.0,0.1073340728427932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21533704041704435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10198985491658992,0.1481373339642914,0.09328763925057028,0.0,0.0,0.100997329329058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11519044475650307,0.10223043426888624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12160610088923693,0.0684437591265434,0.0,0.1054905616307002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08496261129685458,0.0,0.0,0.08513680069952195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12009144212020766,0.0,0.0,0.18104857006784728,0.08224983376175532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11169125468992347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587309097133049,0.09338194048728264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07097904273430558,0.0,0.0,0.08481818234578008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20417836651680726,0.0,0.07253662546695333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644599375358224,0.0,0.08480377564020565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10298892318865303,0.2317245405384202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07589531583746817,0.0,0.0,0.06880077289451847
schizophrenia,FarhaManz,2020/03/20,"Could this be avoided My (F 46) Mum rang me incessantly the other day and told me to ring my dad who kept asking if I was well and if I was sleeping. At the time I was fine. The family send people in my room to take my things and I think they poisoned my food and stopped me sleeping. My illness has been getting worse periodically and I have agreed to go on a higher dose of Risperdal, risperidone. Will it make me feel remote from myself and experience depersonalisation?

How do you combat putting on weight and sleeping too much except on a higher dose? Please advise.",4.034929292929295,5.939260836363638,4.945757575757575,81.37308080808081,72.45454545454545,6.707070707070707,25.858585858585855,7.3871296695380915,1.2304646464646458,452,15,87,5,9,147,78,110,0.13699999999999998,0.792,0.071,-0.8299,0,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,1,0,3,4,1,1,5,0,10,9,3,2,0,18,19,10,0,3,3,2,2,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,5,7,2,3,2,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,6,4,18,2,11,10,1,13,0,0,0,0,9,6,0,2,4,62,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852000077069476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15816950546093494,0.0,0.0,0.1277603530872128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19378321223898415,0.18675432606247847,0.0,0.10016706962000237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395475090768378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10350088959522086,0.0,0.11258677049471216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13223560827913486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14562884866324866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13734000644535713,0.0,0.0,0.21745812688025656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991487095513708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5947396307610472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16562337610987962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1489491593891067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13161114657247214,0.1269367081134649,0.0,0.0,0.1155157297435416,0.0,0.0,0.18929636049869986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2412366639255539,0.17811881585887054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20188436611642466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TheDementedPoet,2020/03/20,"A poem I wrote based off feelings/experiences with my schizophrenia Schizophrenia 


I’ve got so many voices inside my head,
my Schizophrenia’s keeping them fed,
I’m starting to feel lost within myself,
think I’m turning into someone else.


I’m always planning my escape,
before my brain can escalate.

“I can’t find it,
where’s the door?
I don’t think we’ve been here before.”


Fight or flight is kicking in,
I can feel it in my skin.
My heart is pounding through my chest,
what is this?
I feel possessed.


“They’re out to get you,
stay at home,
you know it’s best to leave them alone.”

I can feel the panic taking over,
struggle keeping my composure,
start to shake uncontrollably,
I think the demons got ahold of me.


I’ve tried to drown them out,
but my head is in a drought,
my mind goes blank,
I’m in a daze,
somehow my body operates.


What was that?
I heard the door.

“Maybe you should go explore.” 

The hallucinations are back again,
no one’s there,
there had never been.


It’s okay,
I’m not crazy,
things are just a little hazy.

“Who are you kidding?
You’re so deranged,
stop walking around like anything’s changed!”


I just want to make my family proud,
but these voices are getting so loud,
they push me down,
to the ground,
I think I hear them laughing now. 

What’s so funny?

“It’s a game,
if you want to win you’ve got to play,
so pick a card and roll the dice,
Maybe tomorrow we’ll be nice.”

I picked a card,
they flipped The Fool,
I guess that means I’m just a tool,
a vessel meant for them to rule.
Which means tomorrow they’ll still be here,
emphasizing my every fear.

“Just close your eyes,
and relinquish your mind,
it’s time for you to say goodbye,
put that gun to your head,
we’ll be gone once your mind is dead.”

I’ve got the gun,
now there’s one in the chamber,
but let me leave you with this one disclaimer.

When I pulled the trigger,
my body collapsed,
then somewhere between life and death overlapped,
and my demons found their way through the cracks.

Now everything’s dark,
and it’s so damn scary,
I’m trapped with my demons,
in solitary.",1.902621503965652,4.1344629022004895,2.3508545530443112,95.97577076748765,80.12469437652811,5.163838034468365,21.71155107639096,6.219705907916566,0.10050141332220176,1593,48,348,12,41,487,210,409,0.165,0.742,0.09300000000000001,-0.9808,0,2,0,2,1,0,71.0,2,11,9,5,26,18,2,5,21,1,26,12,10,4,1,55,69,18,3,4,10,0,5,1,0,4,1,6,3,1,19,13,1,3,15,2,0,8,5,10,0,3,15,12,57,8,36,46,1,45,3,1,1,0,30,20,1,4,16,198,76,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984319664807497,0.0,0.0,0.07908024197446736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07820917772246178,0.08460505261145916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07307929144995717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16174274739077052,0.0,0.09973779478465562,0.0,0.0,0.21113429005180084,0.0,0.10609519752486876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10053888983240143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0793930706350585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08007463932781804,0.0,0.08541512007284474,0.0929665908190379,0.08959451551109572,0.106945541596787,0.1922187348906268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08686412255469984,0.0,0.0,0.1042055959601916,0.0,0.0,0.09930813656385028,0.0,0.05401297719902892,0.0,0.30404617532090994,0.0,0.10469641233829784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2926129663611693,0.0,0.10711610479555472,0.1126219297374726,0.0,0.0,0.09533208367212437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16895044571041642,0.0,0.0,0.052231068171321296,0.0,0.0,0.2012656164404711,0.0,0.09718403848342133,0.06712900960856526,0.04643136080847104,0.0952542631291899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10374653219227532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06343941533713401,0.09635484904003654,0.1909593352250244,0.2070511380218984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2878875495950989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07330010312999177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1012136643573425,0.1932030992143733,0.0,0.0,0.11150804380277746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09554066308989144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07557899995089425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0805264201476696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13453849390933031,0.10129915994864247,0.0758984414609918,0.07945704098395179,0.0,0.09935562483162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07145766340527726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06313983275051721,0.2435891709452447,0.0,0.0,0.05541813171610728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645253898029363,0.10337537689459812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11211318513210948,0.07543770674082416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ivantofu,2020/03/20,"Truman delusion hey guys!
i was wondering if anyone here has ever dealt with solipsism/and truman delusion, to the point where you would believe that everyone was lying to you.
I've been quite paranoid recently, and my mind is really messing with me",7.212666666666667,8.620708488888887,7.042222222222224,71.29000000000002,64.1111111111111,9.555555555555557,35.0,9.725611199111238,3.767,202,9,30,4,3,64,37,45,0.13,0.87,0.0,-0.7171,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,1,8,7,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,5,0,4,3,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,2,2,22,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149633804248884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34637022876079404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27808955745970737,0.0,0.29376414715765803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3044056998428311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31041836022789915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29062231049937964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32699143666731595,0.0,0.0,0.1969486079360725,0.0,0.3035516974622683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33339654532482355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21839064647840306,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,meshroses,2020/03/20,"question about insight would like to start off by saying i do have a psychiatric appointment soon, and while i am not diagnosed with anything, ive had a near lifetime of bizarre experiences that seem to get worse as time goes on. basically im sorry if this is dumb/ridiculous or anything.

is it possible to know youre hallucinating and having delusions, while fully believing them to the point of being significantly affected? 

for example, ive been legitimately crying over the fact that i will have to tell someone (my psychiatrist specifically, because im also convinced that appointment is ""the end"", like its the end of my ""trials"", im being punished for something i cant remember, etc) that i know ive been dead for years, and when i do that something bad will happen to me, but i have to. im dreading it as much as im dreading the idea that i may tell them all ive been going through for the past years, how its even worse now, and they wont believe me.

but as i type this, im aware that really doesnt sound right, though its still real enough to me to cause me a lot of distress. i believe it but i know its strange. im horrified but i know not to open up to anyone (parents, my therapist, etc) about my various issues because i know it wont end well for me (scared of hospitals, scared of what theyll do to me).

or even worse, im convinced everything in my fridge is spoiled. it shouldnt be, i havent gotten sick, ive checked the dates, the fridge is clean, and realistically its fine but at the same time? when i open the fridge it smells like rot. the things i eat taste the way i imagine dirt or mold tastes, and at this point i can barely eat at all. i wonder if it isnt the food itself but the fridge spoiling everything, somehow.

additionally, i literally cannot just talk myself out of these things. neither can anyone else. like saying ""no, thats ridiculous"" doesnt help at all at this point. neither does using the same logic as the delusions (correct me if im wrong) themselves really, but its better than just denying them. like this will be the second time ive expressed i know im dead, and nothing has happened to me, but im still in knots about it.

i have quite a few beliefs that work this way. for reference, i have also been experiencing symptoms other than what ive listed here. i dont mind questions about my other experiences, i just didnt want to type a wall about them because im making this post primarily for my question. if you made it this far, thank you for the read.",4.983177710843375,5.557656863453818,5.8572866465863465,80.78725527108435,68.71887550200803,8.71495983935743,30.221134538152608,8.751876143730069,2.2194194779116456,1970,73,398,31,32,649,217,498,0.139,0.7909999999999999,0.07,-0.987,1,0,2,0,0,0,69.0,0,3,6,3,23,20,2,5,23,0,51,8,0,6,5,71,70,35,2,7,20,1,0,5,0,9,3,3,1,0,40,12,5,0,18,1,1,1,16,9,1,1,8,7,57,11,57,49,14,44,1,0,0,0,20,21,0,15,24,280,97,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08787669479922851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07683563336062997,0.0562961731196972,0.09042774154152157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045875580026349234,0.10047925792620002,0.0,0.0,0.1857077413708687,0.0,0.048593116442716466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05644217399803144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0603529238933857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055766559789377015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04808148215088345,0.0,0.06439344651909874,0.0,0.0,0.11244196304199096,0.04589829659795108,0.0,0.14599106584463287,0.05677138781461968,0.1225531926142124,0.07257941021915948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09875946310412267,0.1074906947163302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06643797434960584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028705743902696913,0.0,0.03122569297029648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09717282243502587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03682751205047146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06202459475929284,0.7121817155213159,0.05734680488056808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18117327162528188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13421324762898276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046711052376163936,0.0,0.051988927694625715,0.03667525487871235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05547733587864003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040389840617996484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05271983043749216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06100832446683525,0.0,0.052449847780641407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15581827880506374,0.06194061174638209,0.05262074545347805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18464809461524015,0.05843924227972045,0.0549584314072327,0.0625378032555697,0.07039650660662232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062240346156873724,0.04692150250905472,0.0,0.08738665298053988,0.1100161828875028,0.0,0.0,0.050018556127167484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04655350254555927,0.08459647803823678,0.0,0.061504820369467215,0.03888933661274259,0.0,0.08775600060896327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057107399366360126,0.0,0.04416155463288946,0.09604619141824446,0.05058465081674241,0.0,0.06379371130025659,0.0730041235978737,0.0,0.05398177158437304,0.0,0.09611410011217048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047453597451107436,0.0,0.0,0.03240713693634535,0.08722328563346035,0.0,0.0,0.04940086150266732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05958395022828013,0.03999956816500812,0.0,0.1679765536613508,0.0390303306754817,0.060072160844844284,0.0,0.07076370622272529
schizophrenia,youngboxershorts,2020/03/20,My friend might be schizophrenic He has an uncle who is schizophrenic and last night we took acid that tasted fake which leads me to believe it was nbome or something. I know people with schizophrenic people in their family shouldn't do psychedelics but he wouldnt listen. He ended up having a psychotic episode do you guys think he is schizophrenic?,5.276666666666667,8.167347698412701,4.238333333333333,83.37750000000003,72.01587301587301,8.009523809523811,24.785714285714285,8.841846274778883,2.0848857142857145,287,9,48,6,6,84,54,63,0.034,0.932,0.034,0.0129,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,1,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,11,5,0,1,0,11,15,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,1,4,3,1,0,2,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,2,3,6,1,4,9,0,7,0,0,0,0,11,2,0,2,3,30,10,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3300516792027508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594646624579484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276164968518227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2263306242364023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2900642262225142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1609963647319455,0.2387914302956721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107711577582751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27491152049755674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40618602370245693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2255254096440584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18770902253816932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32547561310830736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Blanabapeeshh,2020/03/20,"Have you ever seen/hallucinated yourself? Hey, I hope I’m not being insensitive in asking or anything. But to the schizophrenics out there who experience visual hallucinations, have you ever seen yourself? Like looking in a mirror....without a mirror? Or for those with auditory, heard yourself?",5.923750000000003,9.655047208333336,6.9508333333333345,59.47750000000002,76.91666666666666,7.366666666666666,33.0,8.344100000000001,3.7451,238,12,29,5,6,79,37,48,0.0,0.8290000000000001,0.171,0.7921,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,2,9,9,3,0,1,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,3,3,2,6,6,0,5,0,0,2,0,6,3,0,3,3,24,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2799532319509028,0.0,0.3180383713136559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6154555189039597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3327780488321385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378924875697969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16620312220053854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28567988860222965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.327937870672844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,FrontWonder4,2020/03/20,Living with flat affect I was recently informed by my psychiatrist that my affect is always flat and that it could be the reason as to why people don’t want to interact with me.  I’m tired of being brushed off by people because they think I have no interest in conversing. What can I do to overcome this?,7.6454999999999975,6.5332285500000005,8.33666666666667,70.91500000000003,63.5,11.333333333333336,35.0,10.504223727775694,3.629,243,9,44,5,3,82,47,60,0.084,0.8440000000000001,0.071,-0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,9,1,0,3,0,10,12,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,7,1,11,8,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,35,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2724193061375085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19957727489746396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2613986884348294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890962491043455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4539496719020108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366171301017576,0.323263586291883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20978183448445836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3762929972388467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931063647504792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2954235406131823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Wearytaco,2020/03/20,"voices? I have a honest question, this is about ""inside voices"" if that makes sense? It's not about audibly hearing something. 
Sometimes if I'm just chilling there, especially if I'm really tired, I will have seemingly random words/phrases in different voice styles that happen in my head. I never paid much attention to it, but I have lately. They usually come suddenly and ""loud"". I don't really know what they talk about, but it usually seems mostly random, I think? I am not describing this well at all damn. 
Anyway, I was diagnosed with BPD (which I wasn't told... Which I didn't know they didn't have to tell you??) 
I'm just wondering if these inside voices are something that would fall along the lines of BPD, schizophrenia, or something. 
If any of this even makes sense. 
Or if it's just a thing most people do. 
Like I had to turn on my light even though I'm trying to go to sleep so I wouldn't hear them as loud as they are being. (I don't know why turning on the light helped??)",2.994490600363857,4.974357654639181,3.8842995755003034,87.53968768950882,75.54639175257732,7.245118253486963,22.23650697392359,8.124751697461798,1.1210367495451794,771,21,155,13,17,247,110,194,0.038,0.907,0.055,0.6275,1,0,3,0,0,0,37.0,0,1,5,0,13,4,1,0,4,0,20,4,2,2,2,38,42,15,0,8,15,0,0,1,0,3,2,9,0,0,15,4,0,0,9,0,1,3,9,1,1,0,7,11,21,3,19,31,4,13,0,0,0,0,13,5,1,16,6,107,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08848218111161835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32774879456459993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120819423916722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13206326860377415,0.0,0.13594174286527522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17187852689995467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07394695124910293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11505963967198338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13353480268660206,0.0,0.29329652946637025,0.0,0.08721286796781398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145222381014784,0.0,0.14677458998718582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06356727127782258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17370460198557552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0956489765648799,0.0,0.10035216412409073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09020486791246307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14575778631762706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16670909584292973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369023313592809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13020826007812994,0.0,0.0,0.3005050188937363,0.12868636288160107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10458094014532504,0.11372562718180562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0864421547635584,0.08337198522830758,0.12783663233629566,0.0,0.0,0.14954723932322614,0.0,0.12432978297470045,0.0,0.08833906408278637,0.2830539752480048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866050228633929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11698837558789785,0.0,0.1174079115316406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14110340055386034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924294606509355,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,kitocatman,2020/03/20,"Please help Hi everyone. 

I've seen this guy a few times now, and I'm developing feelings for him. I'm very concerned he's exhibiting characteristics of schizophrenia. From what I've researched, he has all the symptoms except I can't confirm hallucinations which I understand isn't always a factor anyway.

He was very suspicious of me, and accused me multiple times of being someone I'm not. He finally trusts me enough to be around me, and I feel like I'm betraying his trust by coming here. He has already isolated himself from his entire family. What should I do? Any time I've even remotely suggested that he might be overthinking something he gets extremely agitated and defensive. Please can anyone help me with this? I really care about this person, but I don't know what to do.",5.659377334993772,7.50306897260274,6.558966376089662,71.6782503113325,68.17808219178083,10.514570361145703,32.4508094645081,10.637119530657019,3.9532410958904105,634,28,107,19,11,210,96,146,0.081,0.813,0.106,0.3331,0,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,1,0,3,0,14,1,0,0,1,18,26,5,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,2,1,0,0,2,8,7,0,1,4,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,2,3,15,4,13,19,3,7,0,0,1,0,17,1,0,1,6,66,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19680299493874032,0.0,0.1483934456832488,0.0,0.0,0.1212775436913758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12469970920164646,0.0,0.0,0.15876070894270344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1818298578035813,0.0,0.0,0.15362440770162514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842732399492236,0.0,0.11779210963065573,0.0,0.0,0.17041183317839348,0.0,0.0,0.1681233964269534,0.0,0.1803484643136561,0.1274063713160066,0.0,0.195363120334627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09317546457337857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17658497077360713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2390755352667933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09801118438865572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08712807960749266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18919091307704866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15571990205206904,0.0,0.3915282675649618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11424938558722922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15110718753374386,0.13729510318915272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1853638938804216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3119750514168815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856585787662888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2942989081984072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,WarriorPrincess85,2020/03/20,"Risperdal reviews please Does it help with disorganized thinking for you?
How about paranoia and intrusive thoughts?",8.555098039215686,12.873522941176475,3.972941176470588,76.671568627451,84.29411764705881,6.972549019607843,46.84313725490196,7.793537801064563,5.381290196078432,98,7,12,2,3,25,17,17,0.18600000000000005,0.5760000000000001,0.23800000000000002,0.2869,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4704017181117369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.360299312071106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5900535381113979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3444316145508197,0.0,0.4267438510145756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SCHIZOPHRENlA,2020/03/20,"Why did God turn His face from me? And why do I feel the government is targeting me again? For the past month I had been in direct conversation with God and my prayer life was very healthy, kinda obsessive but I followed what God said in my heart and when I found myself crying one day he showed me an angel. Now God has taken his face away from me, and it’s cause I didn’t do exactly as he said to do which was to abandon anything I wanted and survive only on his will. I was told to get my own home so I could set up a place of solitude to communicate further with him but I decided I needed an emotional support animal more than being secluded for my health and the house wouldn’t allow that.

I’ve been confused and depressed again ever since I’m  no longer in Gods grace, is it a sin to be afraid of not living with my parents and not living as a hermit communing and surviving only on spirituality? I’d like to think not but He has hidden himself from me. I said this and my seltzer water exploded so my mom said it was a sign he was still here and wanted to joke with me to say he was.

Now I am afraid cause I think I am also having thoughts and voices implanted in my head by the government or some group that wishes to torture me. Rather than gods voice and thoughts it’s now confusing and threatening ones. Just started tonight.

I miss gods presence.",3.1878359683794493,4.742383192028986,4.394756258234519,85.89918972332019,73.96376811594203,7.481949934123848,25.58893280632411,8.150884317080207,1.4878173913043482,1075,36,221,17,22,353,155,276,0.132,0.759,0.11,-0.9123,3,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,14,14,1,5,10,0,26,7,4,3,2,51,49,24,0,7,9,2,1,1,0,2,2,7,1,0,9,18,1,1,7,2,0,1,6,10,0,2,20,8,36,4,33,24,3,25,2,3,0,0,20,10,0,5,14,155,45,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09988850850784048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10278825632839324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11735473836544195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566288862130884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09972850077843304,0.0,0.1372050591017548,0.08055502503583327,0.0,0.10758267460083464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405041618211737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11298601411917092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06315700141731173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369546621039708,0.0,0.0,0.06525903029465338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12819116403481115,0.1327708659689728,0.0,0.14801602726388113,0.0,0.0,0.12529243930403655,0.0,0.0,0.144126521947799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08822588406698806,0.06102351099245142,0.0,0.22059127898824807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462901922734375,0.09970000064976507,0.0,0.0,0.09261735255420286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16928115313149888,0.18999561383158,0.0,0.0,0.13869503288619514,0.0,0.11923837322833708,0.0,0.0,0.13050178611279042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47526266728103006,0.09933148316127836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332480153466753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08841019430649581,0.0,0.09975131669972004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14174358751139782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16007140639422446,0.0,0.19832525678885293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11935449997352185,0.0,0.0,0.13586352711690095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030617955796626,0.14734739766791066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2254192396788139,0.0,0.14363749784994428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,wolftlou529,2020/03/21,Severe side effect? I’m on 10mg of abilify and I’m taking valium with it bc it gave me a lot of anxiety on its own and i’m currently having chest pains because of it. I’m really scared because I know that I need to contact my doc but it’s midnight where I live and I have to wait till the morning. I’m panicking a lot so I wanted to know if any of you guys experienced something similar. I’m also really paranoid right now since I told my dad about this and I keep hearing them talking even if my brother says he doesn’t hear smithing and feel like they’re talking about me (my parents) and how i’m doing too bad to go back to live on my own. I’m sorry if I’m rambling I just needed to get this out.,-0.04857524828113213,1.9707163961038998,2.8844996180290288,90.51691749427044,86.33766233766234,5.961191749427044,22.04583651642475,7.285733465282438,0.8431417876241407,551,20,123,9,17,195,95,154,0.139,0.8390000000000001,0.022000000000000002,-0.9311,2,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,1,1,11,4,0,1,3,0,4,2,1,2,0,25,28,14,0,6,5,3,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,1,8,8,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,5,17,1,18,26,4,12,0,0,0,0,15,7,0,5,5,73,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308428028012506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112637650296758,0.0,0.12516497590511047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12580978412375238,0.1366116348479984,0.19947628906603204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10806612015202838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08272862619942901,0.11688654082129005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08548204953099232,0.0,0.09298613692696073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620045071651954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36881184130621103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14542847009535212,0.0,0.0,0.1798369765444894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07993399175039786,0.0,0.28894996679292184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27819913020884185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24263679931255103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1740978244139772,0.0,0.18167502056572385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20963183134894334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13972625879835732,0.0,0.13011316173778625,0.16380709078082242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18483830314184133,0.0,0.135343963321043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259587689196353,0.0,0.1831535221326779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12301806748033214,0.2630149710309104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1563410800377663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09650432659541916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,NayesArtProject,2020/03/21,"Heyy!! Its for a school project! I would love to interview someone :) Hey! Im doing some school research for an art project. I dont know much about schizophrenia so i thought that by coming on here i could interview/ ask questions to someone, so i could further understand it and to have a better idea on what i should draw. This is for an Ap class and i would love to interview someone. Please dm me if you dont mind me asking some questions.",0.7561538461538468,3.2975121839080472,1.5326436781609232,95.99403183023877,93.82758620689656,4.5160035366931925,23.933687002652523,6.297961479604792,0.701195225464192,348,15,71,4,13,107,57,87,0.0,0.8,0.2,0.9569,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,1,0,1,4,3,0,0,4,0,10,2,0,0,0,18,18,5,0,6,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,6,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,0,10,3,11,12,3,4,0,0,0,2,11,3,0,5,0,49,15,9,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29150196722083954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13788611115739202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13429913984766398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2489563719088345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3654411395904976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17599879969735793,0.16840514044548607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08568181290835343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2814223482759284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157420529113331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1146087853749328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17113787563675065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3493006083022946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3155702162809073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3962957243746647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12377188066261975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16230355453724293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22150217594598812,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,little_f-cker,2020/03/21,"Hello schizos haha, how did you tell your family that you have schizophrenia? I don't really know how to tell them and my delusions only make it harder to trust them. 

How did your family members react? Did they start to treat you differently? 

Hope your day is going well ʕっ•ᴥ•ʔっ",3.968653846153845,6.569780096153848,4.350615384615383,82.39438461538461,74.96153846153845,7.236923076923077,21.93846153846154,8.238735603445708,1.3963800000000002,223,6,39,4,5,70,39,52,0.0,0.7559999999999999,0.244,0.9266,1,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,6,3,0,4,5,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,5,0,8,11,4,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,3,0,11,5,3,8,0,3,0,0,0,0,12,0,0,1,2,27,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18260419291654695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2958247895360167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5338451586938474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16091702834629296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2812254742949111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15560831328573346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18900054626615512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215343460609482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813890353029736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20041049170739386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4949599588295824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2545800933326903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,aiyahopie,2020/03/21,"Doing really badly with selfcare So with the last remnants of structure in my life (therapy, visiting friends once a week, trying to get out more) gone until Covid 19 passes, my already close to zero motivation has gotten even worse along with any desire or remembering to do basic things. I lost track of the last time I took a shower but I'm pretty sure it was over three weeks ago. I've brushed my teeth like twice in the last week. My room has been a disaster area for months. Im not quite the worst Ive ever been regarding self care, that was smack in the middle of my initial psychosis but it's bad. I don't have psychotic symptoms at the moment but anxiety, depression, trauma, and grief stuff (my husband died April 8th 2018) are really effecting me. Normally by this point I'd feel disgusting enough that that would motivate me to say take a shower, but this time it just doesn't seem to be happening even though intellectual I know I need to take care of myself and I'm gross right now.",4.7513033873343185,6.098680139175261,5.446244477172314,80.69680412371136,69.77319587628867,9.048011782032402,26.743740795287188,9.424239791934726,2.2468627393225327,793,25,152,17,14,257,134,194,0.191,0.65,0.158,-0.8673,2,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,5,7,14,1,0,10,0,15,3,1,3,2,28,31,10,2,4,7,1,1,1,1,1,2,1,3,1,10,8,0,0,7,0,0,4,3,9,0,3,8,3,15,5,23,21,3,31,0,3,0,0,5,12,0,2,16,93,25,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1164734997145483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449973512370035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08935292171368217,0.0,0.10051660835278532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21941822138583272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679313672591921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131700879032382,0.0,0.13636698457151042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13576587950206334,0.0,0.1735699591195777,0.11885405523840628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06643712315780867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10151524200074556,0.0,0.06864832299743466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11619192527641314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14192885520779344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07221110701277822,0.3213127244616658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092807983183609,0.06419282778387415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14343286860930984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104878019433431,0.0,0.0,0.0974275269583512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12873893707578704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399310985578602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12421048981895445,0.0,0.0,0.13367567706431607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397544684207499,0.0,0.0,0.16834965642428198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14884461454586406,0.11221038098454952,0.0,0.10449036262232583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11961682681076632,0.13707335889667374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15041552925685822,0.0,0.0,0.12383797747287972,0.13656943399669466,0.19758496847570894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502613242405515,0.0,0.08729281975550257,0.0,0.12909465451440974,0.0,0.1532346467307114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14598437900970845,0.08920839629045617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3161907789659909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13390245463100456,0.09333904587142307,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,poetically_incorrect,2020/03/21,Has anyone been surprised by getting an unexpected long form CDR in the mail? Just curious because I sent in my short form in May of last year and here I am getting a long form just days ago.  I looked up what could trigger getting one but I can't see having done any of those things.  Maybe going back to work is in the stars for me ..,2.1360869565217366,3.8675645652173967,3.0892028985507274,93.39728260869568,77.26086956521739,5.759420289855073,23.09420289855073,6.42735559955562,0.3637420289855076,261,8,58,2,6,83,55,69,0.0,0.9520000000000001,0.048,0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,4,0,9,0,0,1,0,7,16,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,2,6,1,10,11,3,15,0,0,2,0,2,6,0,1,7,42,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246338979425865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17232842789385264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17719112864147213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1948577086702816,0.0,0.154477224852496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20232836624430628,0.0,0.0,0.1634293755651645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593278237612323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3971909598302205,0.0,0.14401952682683142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20656409664363845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4485221929000181,0.2128017354776041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254585791493537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17171810907466922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20193606016479995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16835526031359455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18448650237744785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16318861996760736
schizophrenia,jazii1337,2020/03/21,"What was the reason for your schizophrenia [Vent] Hi guys i would like to hear about your story and how it happened. Maybe the first signs and symptoms. Here’s my story

I started smoking weed at 13 because i was very Lonely and wanted friends to hang out with. Just so happens the druggies at my school let me chill with them. I smoked almost everyday until the age of 18, which was when my symptoms first appeared.


I believe my schizophrenia comes from 1 particular week in my life

 the start of the week i did 3 pills of mdma and 2 tabs of strong acid, along with smoking large amounts of weed.

In the middle of the week i was beaten up a group of men that were trying to rob me. 
I had knives pulled on me and had to spend a night in the hospital 

At the end of the week i was hit by a car while riding my bike, I have a big scar on my forehead where I got hit by the car. Damage to the left side of frontal lobe has been proven to increase risk of schizophrenia.

A few weeks past and I remember feeling very anxious. I thought everybody was staring and judging me. My best friends were somehow trying to go against me. The last time I saw them is when we went camping. We got a few grams of mdma and went up the mountain(see my other posts for pics of the mountain). 

I remember seeing faces in the fire we had built. All judging me, laughing at me. It was so scary i walked miles home alone.

Ever since that week my life has been a living hell and I only got worse from there. 
No ambition to socialise 
Not even sleeping or eatin for days
I used to care a lot about my looks 
My hair grow long and i stopped washing

Thankfully I’m now getting treatment with the psychosis team in my area and will be seeing a psychiatrist after this corona thing is over.
I do not wish to make drugs sound cool in anyway because they truly ruined my late teenage life.

Thank you for reading! I’m looking forward to reading your story (VENT OVER)",3.1320146103896107,4.892861340259742,3.476732954545458,91.5650994318182,74.55844155844156,5.7475649350649345,26.057224025974026,6.158741222570753,0.7581574675324676,1516,54,312,9,32,469,216,385,0.106,0.802,0.092,-0.7052,0,3,3,0,0,0,31.0,3,4,3,6,16,16,2,1,27,1,25,12,4,4,2,44,57,19,0,3,4,0,3,1,2,2,8,2,1,2,9,21,0,1,5,4,1,14,3,6,0,2,22,13,51,10,58,29,7,67,1,3,6,0,18,25,1,5,30,207,60,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09453417042726878,0.09777634978833226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10665213217132306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11509828420243502,0.0,0.0,0.10636345667777418,0.09907348048246688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09625341078299544,0.0,0.0,0.08132258034745958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060884187729897135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10948121778534108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08361587025226468,0.0,0.0,0.062354403463938834,0.08539581101767893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04773461033670463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1606037277140948,0.0,0.0,0.14587598889950765,0.0,0.04932334202321089,0.0,0.0536532179589677,0.0,0.2265157823180025,0.0,0.0,0.09347697861775746,0.16696617835684202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10640264646650227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0946971140823356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07695365166033602,0.1064943034756437,0.0,0.10257261043969776,0.09653673374956001,0.20004566887470565,0.04612209973926703,0.0,0.08336240250390536,0.08354651450852943,0.15855485915260426,0.0,0.0,0.08026077360765405,0.0,0.0,0.06301687029268077,0.0,0.09484371502402586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08859382164421724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07180016774393211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0901213983486725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09041504147448262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18886349147032144,0.0,0.0,0.09706529495345984,0.0,0.0,0.21388763806605995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09554411256050822,0.15045903411173706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07809378261620185,0.0,0.09447437710441928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13364238581017018,0.0,0.0,0.07892780882227021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962483745797262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17383308663354125,0.0,0.0,0.06271928310808189,0.0,0.0,0.0749479759986501,0.05504901329335613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12819122301766162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0815366438593791,0.0,0.15579000086118094,0.055683221606189416,0.0,0.4543617456207296,0.0,0.0,0.17503098286560104,0.0,0.0,0.10856246870084836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.096207981187819,0.06706345446790317,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,justasecmoreinmybed,2020/03/21,Should I be diagnosed with schizophrenia after only 1 psychotic episode lasting roughly 3 months? I’m on invega now and I haven’t had a single hallucination or delusion for like 6 months. Yet I’m diagnosed with schizophrenia. Should I get my diagnosis re-evaluated?,5.116382978723403,8.324113404255321,6.403659574468088,65.89400000000003,74.53191489361703,9.71744680851064,34.93191489361702,9.888512548439397,4.663701276595745,218,12,32,7,5,73,37,47,0.0,0.924,0.076,0.4329,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,0,6,8,2,0,2,1,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,4,1,5,4,1,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,7,20,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6994170237884388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18001187487525386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28085224045352497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16832852979309185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5500291365346456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26204393866621345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,IEatGiftcards,2020/03/21,"Please dump all personal schizophrenia experiences on me. So I'm ADHD, which I know is not in any way close to the same vein as schizophrenia, but it does mean I get fixated on certain topics and for a while now it's been mental illness. I'm extremely curious as to how y'all experience life, as I want to be able to see through y'all's eyes and understand how you all see the world. I also sometimes write songs or poems and want to be able to translate experiences into something other people can understand. So I'm interested in any interesting, funny, or whatever experiences y'all have had. More specifically I want to know a few things that're just on the top of my head right now like: When did you realize things were ""off"" and ""does whatever medication you take help, and how?"". But I mostly want to try to come as close as possible to experiencing your world so please share with me!",7.5383943481053315,6.825141323699423,8.140192678227361,70.9383172768144,63.508670520231206,12.081952472703914,34.82915863840719,11.429527900616536,3.8987821451509315,711,27,137,19,9,238,104,173,0.028999999999999998,0.7490000000000001,0.223,0.9861,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,0,7,0,1,11,6,1,0,5,0,9,6,3,3,3,35,26,23,0,4,6,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,1,6,10,0,0,6,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,4,5,16,5,26,20,6,19,0,0,3,0,11,13,0,3,5,90,22,0,0.25931660634455145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15582408398615474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10368769820261417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763441846596294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11168914745215124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269297097158895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5073227999209653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06774111195840063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330668254761257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08690722753664483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14251362513183186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09158149398214953,0.06334449763610757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412359027886675,0.0,0.13061709970074706,0.1306650736392875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08988874191678436,0.11321262917613906,0.0,0.2846517624509334,0.0,0.14617025530870445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11072748246819092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20664176142240434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0998172963135817,0.1282353771916082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09748690781062658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17227843064550785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08802947685942725,0.0,0.0,0.2699577324959868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059033061672291,0.10291672596090916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Kamekazi-Pigeon,2020/03/21,"I dont feel paranoid when I have my hat Lately I've found myself being more and more paranoid and scared for no reason, even though I'm on the max dose of Geodon for exactly that reason. Hallucinations and delusions all the usual crap like paranoia, all seems to lessen when I have my favorite hat. It's a cowboy hat to be exact, and nothing too flashy. Just a brown leather one with a single band and some holes and scrapes. I feel safe for some reason, and I post this becuase I want to know if anyone else has little things like these that just help for one reason or another.i dont know if it's just me and I'm being a weirdo again",4.991538461538465,5.219399961538464,5.179807692307693,86.86894230769232,68.61538461538461,7.4230769230769225,25.48076923076923,6.6274283507984215,0.8194615384615385,505,12,106,3,8,159,80,130,0.09699999999999999,0.763,0.14,0.5598,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,9,5,1,1,6,0,8,3,1,4,4,33,17,14,0,3,6,0,3,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,9,0,1,10,1,0,0,3,2,0,2,1,4,10,3,10,13,7,8,0,0,1,0,2,2,1,6,7,71,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10964459970831257,0.16066949921133464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3675582985975833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13099391877608624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10357096092634988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15857482991964053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17193313300563134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10510586404812568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17235640961847384,0.0,0.17688754492749678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15321805436562147,0.15716395785693565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504626031486792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2125158688983453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15017981421510354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6449036675809695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156993309048684,0.0,0.0,0.14275315565658214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1041770277518984,0.0,0.1540641881387003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727031186481964,0.0,0.09249009610946284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,HolyPotato21,2020/03/21,"I’m looking to make a friend I’m 14 and I was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia 1 year ago and I’m trying to find someone else my age with the same problem as me, I looked on Facebook groups and never found anyone and I looked on Instagram and found no one so maybe Reddit has the person I’m looking for. I’m a gamer and a memer. If you wanna talk to me my instagram is t21j_music 
Cheers",0.5909756097561001,2.963107121951221,2.4299512195121937,92.24614634146343,87.53658536585365,5.231219512195122,21.614634146341466,6.742157984588678,0.5877473170731706,312,11,65,4,10,103,53,82,0.08800000000000001,0.831,0.081,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,5,0,3,1,0,1,1,17,15,9,0,3,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,8,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,3,4,8,2,10,12,1,6,0,0,4,0,5,2,0,1,4,38,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17074380084202515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13468264165306776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19550271820068105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16090721356259494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1760489146853138,0.0,0.0,0.4223903156651519,0.1488158105069824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6470007861504855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1285736837016955,0.0,0.19351017846421345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14855849829405113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13052260983472866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16818618022930173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843089436177535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1632041912535705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15481865840937895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13077464562311555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1240393613013634
schizophrenia,StardustWolfBoy,2020/03/22,Obsessive itching? My partner suffers from obsessive itching when they have an episode and I was wondering if anyone has a way to help make it stop? They'll itch themselves until they bleed if they can't prevent themselves from going through with the impulse. Please help!,5.251874999999998,8.433995437500002,4.133166666666663,82.52850000000002,73.79166666666666,6.34,36.68333333333333,7.554174236665415,3.135953333333333,223,13,34,3,5,65,39,48,0.19899999999999998,0.66,0.141,-0.2792,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,4,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,5,4,3,1,0,8,8,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,0,1,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,6,0,6,6,0,5,0,1,0,0,7,0,0,3,3,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688410830733678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2185118740012199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5154248253581429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25664694393309817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4220494345171011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.321446952720599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051865593253821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4169579402821267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Shinpachix,2020/03/22,"Distorted dreams Hi everyone 

Hope everyone is doing good and staying safe

I have a question i have ocd pure o (no compulsion)  and my uncle has severe schizophrenia i understand that it could be passed down to us. 

So i had a couple of questions if you guys don’t mind, i am starting to get distorted dreams they are very strange in nature, the kind that i am not really used to getting is this an early symptoms? Should i be concerned?",2.1146428571428584,4.82628879761905,3.4193333333333342,85.50900000000001,83.64285714285714,6.6933333333333325,26.25714285714286,7.908726449838941,2.005551428571429,345,15,63,7,10,112,66,84,0.111,0.693,0.196,0.8302,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,1,1,1,0,1,4,0,0,4,0,15,1,0,1,1,14,21,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,3,2,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,11,4,6,16,0,6,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,4,2,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1604515387740658,0.22236026228638608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3840549698607768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20998835333830493,0.0,0.0,0.1685571117958769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1989836455703433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996002796886233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20927065146282345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029139960322924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4502461187644865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12874118985734515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2270294823507324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14224170231243588,0.21419839832048784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20887611895764668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20920818273763575,0.2417321417554172,0.17356635700704925,0.0,0.16581442176007508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Moriah_R,2020/03/22,"Just got home from the psych hospital and the whole world has gone insane. I just think it's funny how suddenly everyone else is paranoid and suspicious of each other instead of just me for once. I had to comfort my Lyft driver on the way to Walmart because she had worked herself into near panic.

Some of the aisles were wiped out. The toilet paper, tissues, cleaning products, bread, peanut butter, eggs, meat, cereal. I went to use the bathroom and it was SPARKLING clean because apparently I was the only one crazy enough to use it right now. 

I enjoyed everyone being home and me being able to do the things I usually struggle with in more peace. 

2020 is wildin' out, y'all.",3.777178477690288,6.2655946377952745,4.23986220472441,83.51496391076115,75.06299212598425,6.753018372703411,27.11876640419948,7.793537801064563,1.837761679790026,537,21,94,8,12,169,92,127,0.10800000000000001,0.763,0.129,0.6028,1,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,0,1,6,4,0,2,8,0,11,2,0,3,0,17,17,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,5,9,2,0,1,0,0,2,0,2,0,1,8,1,12,2,17,7,5,14,0,0,0,0,3,8,0,1,3,69,17,3,0.19516648226051064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2379433522324223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16303655271263834,0.0,0.0,0.20165914746433225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3729798749515461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15609246466118593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3915357892191821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20784593406251736,0.1322498593279828,0.14843290429762987,0.0,0.2289858159649869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16667110947893407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20403038244504595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12965993868426073,0.12505480135537586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3371223559781157,0.2149483072970249,0.0,0.0,0.1549140693663998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18092128434480906,0.0,0.21789640764696708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14208352350723694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SparklyFlowerGirl,2020/03/22,"Has anyone taken Clozapine? My doctor mentioned starting me on Clozapine and I was wondering if anyone has taken it. I’m kind of nervous because I know it’s a medicine used for treatment-resistant Schizophrenia. I’ve tried other antipsychotics and they didn’t work well, which is why we’re considering Clozapine.",7.53918181818182,9.629240327272733,7.365227272727274,66.74784090909091,63.90909090909091,10.590909090909092,39.20454545454545,10.686352973137794,5.047818181818182,258,14,36,7,4,82,45,55,0.049,0.907,0.043,-0.0754,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,1,1,3,0,1,1,0,5,1,0,1,0,6,12,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,4,0,5,2,3,8,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,1,22,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4467652551844507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19474749472660102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269936811945916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33268148793270863,0.17557375267620062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22612430763990374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21690088346339076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2759216999638512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2872441799494515,0.0,0.28827427595270066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3464543410957955,0.2325798135174136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,LeidenderFuchs,2020/03/22,"Sometimes I want to give up. This is a dangerous game. I know that I'm not alone.  If you're reading this, remember that the world needs you.  You're a great human being.  How do you conserve yourself in times of danger?",0.4343939393939422,2.8821730454545467,2.02,93.64166666666668,91.27272727272728,4.751515151515153,20.96969696969697,6.42735559955562,0.3981787878787881,170,6,35,2,6,55,35,44,0.142,0.701,0.156,-0.0926,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,0,1,3,2,0,3,0,3,0,0,1,0,8,8,2,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,4,1,4,7,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,1,21,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3659430869768208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33894611479090897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3895473229829004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1941808033109663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26198955025056875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3534253898590374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4002537561972632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3494521809113589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20602943250805095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20840305504854253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,AFROUNO,2020/03/22,"Why so many of the same Answers? It seems like every response is the same, a non communicative non lingual vibration of ego/perspective based. I need a job, i cant live in society and i CANNOT integrate, my mind spins and i feel faker than the feeling i have from peoples reflections on me. I take responsibility for who i am and my actions in the actual but i just cant balance worlds. Any advice is appreciated",2.881,5.347857099999999,5.272499999999997,75.0725,78.0,8.5,28.75,9.188382445141503,2.95325,328,15,60,9,8,115,59,80,0.0,0.8959999999999999,0.10400000000000001,0.7543,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,0,7,0,0,0,0,14,12,5,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,5,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,2,11,1,8,12,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,1,42,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.2891319396691101,0.0,0.0,0.28952679292963085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20148432192062415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2496333395201588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2996217348706649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2940176730436956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14475014504445455,0.0,0.26162555308428953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30038702573923315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991639259528262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219691967863216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2054070821599085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697272207560453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227698469816246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26735160849197304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,WeAreSchizophrenia,2020/03/22,"Is this schizophrenia? Mishearing voices. I'm sometimes in the kitchen when my father is on the phone. On multiple occasions now, I've heard him say something about me that I'm 100% sure he didn't actually say. He's on the phone with his clients, but then once in a while I hear him say something negative about me to them...which sounds crazy cause it probably is.


Is this a type of hallucination? What kind of disorders can cause these symptoms?",4.368016806722686,6.388795952941178,4.555126050420171,84.03235294117653,71.82352941176471,8.621848739495798,29.789915966386555,9.23628265651192,2.572344537815126,356,15,70,8,7,111,61,85,0.10400000000000001,0.8759999999999999,0.02,-0.8418,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,5,0,6,2,0,2,1,5,10,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,7,1,0,6,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,7,7,2,11,8,0,9,0,0,0,0,13,5,0,0,4,41,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.20735969396875714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4365717493410397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24353207378439226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2394917957512029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2212757492926425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22629503077771945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22910027649901035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5069419893637948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32717053392142537,0.21015815080579986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2002694126787564,0.2208585838894048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,dawnelenor,2020/03/22,"Very scared of developing psychosis/schizophrenia Simply put, it's just as the title says. I've been dealing with symptoms of derealization and depersonalization over the time and this year it has gotten more intense.
It's because I started focusing so much on my mind for fear of developing psychosis and/or schizophrenia. 

I'm 23 year old, female, last year graduated from art college and currently unemployed but I work as a freelancer and get commissions here and there.
The thing is, after falling into the trap of googling my derealization symptom last year, I came across schizophrenia and early signs of psychosis. My mind got a thick dark cloud around it ever since.

I don't have any family history of this disease, however I have some childhood trauma due to my abusive father (more like, verbally), the divorce of my parents, my twin brother getting diagnosed with epilepsy and exposure to the health problems of my grandparents (we all lived together and I loved them very much, and it was hard for me to see them in pain). Because of all these experiences, I've always been in a hypervigilance state and FORGOT HOW TO LIVE.

I've been dealing with health anxiety, agoraphobia and panic attacks since highschool (since I turned 17 or 18 more exactly).
The derealization I felt here and there wasn't something I was as concerned about as I am now but lately it turned my daily life upside down. I'll get to it a bit later.

So, after graduating college, I took a break in my hometown that summer since my mind was fully occupied with my bachelor's degree project for a couple of months.
I haven't done much for me, haven't been out much due to my agoraphobia and most of my friends living in other cities, the only way of socialising being online.
I tried sticking to different routines but they all failed in august. My derealization feelings came back and started googling about it. As I mentioned earlier, I came across psychosis and schizophrenia. I GOT FREAKED OUT when I found out the age onset is usually between late-teens to early 20s. I'm 23 and very scared about it. As I said, I have no family history with the disease and don't have either hallucinations or delusions, but reading all of the symptoms I got very hyperaware of my thought process and began questioning my thoughts and doubting myself a lot. I'd get thoughts like ""What if i'm imagining this? What if i'm hallucinating this? What if it's not real?"". Deep down I know they sound ridiculous but I can't help and get scared to why do they come in my mind.
Fast forward, I took my concerns to a psychiatrist in december and after telling him everything, he told me that there's no sign showing of having psychosis or schizo, especially because I was very fluent and articulate in my thoughts. He said that if I had it, it would had started earlier on, when my personality started shaping or something. 
He however diagnosed me with severe anxiety and panic attacks and gave me some medication. I couldn't take it, cuz it worsened my anxiety but I agreed I would seek a psychologic therapy instead.

Time passed until I decided to finally make an appointment and when I went to my first session, the clinician psychologist mentioned that, from what I described her, my main problem that i'm dealing it would be PTSD from all my trauma and derealization would come from there.
It made a lot more sense, but I still couldn't get the thought of my head about the age onset on developing psychosis/schizo. It was shown everywhere I went through sites and formus.

After the corona break and being forced to stay in quarantine, things got worse. 
I feel like everything feels surreal, like i'm living in a dream. I feel so disconnected from myself and surroundings. Everything feels foggy and it's like i'm looking THROUGH things, not TO things...if that makes sense. My attention is so focused on my derealization/dpdr that I started to forget words or not find the right words when talking to my family. My speech feels forced and doesn't come out naturally.
I'm so scared of losing my mind and going insane. I haven't used to be like this, I was the opposite of my current state. I got very insecure and vulnerable, it's like i'm just existing but I can't feel the present moment. I also spend all my time on my phone in my bed and this fear messed with my daily routines.

Does this sound to you like anxiety or something more severe? I'm honestly very scared and fear opening up to my family about it.",6.3699070567986205,7.6563248710843395,6.6677065404475035,73.65703313253016,65.95180722891567,9.73580034423408,34.3395008605852,9.91432834914198,3.529793459552496,3593,162,621,79,56,1159,335,830,0.16899999999999998,0.77,0.061,-0.9984,9,1,3,0,1,0,93.0,1,1,5,4,30,35,3,12,30,0,43,12,1,6,8,140,112,72,0,12,24,3,10,8,1,4,10,6,1,1,43,56,0,1,20,4,1,15,16,24,0,1,41,18,93,11,100,61,23,105,0,2,2,1,34,36,0,17,58,415,136,11,0.0,0.058086052978596175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03920489992721388,0.040792337271926174,0.0,0.0,0.03333836237167328,0.0,0.15001452887571715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04364222661521448,0.0,0.11154496341219623,0.0,0.0376968384262474,0.0,0.08965469765920164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053522090880903685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16821301039183462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266908782253311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054244711364789686,0.0,0.0,0.15162641717125347,0.0,0.09951773451755767,0.0,0.05122020081492185,0.0,0.0,0.042901697665899366,0.05016911642073765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04434549522149668,0.0,0.0,0.13218026269792615,0.047955398630871365,0.18486385995750765,0.1654986818560881,0.17351793215052172,0.03502313491937118,0.04707123807153413,0.053703977682389034,0.0448075334067048,0.04170024123563576,0.0,0.053752868098236935,0.03787623123185162,0.0,0.15367976498606445,0.0,0.027861770879191672,0.0,0.19604698057724448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04391635059921887,0.0,0.050313312638393726,0.1042215684530825,0.0,0.0,0.032860109902988134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02694260027182798,0.0799230723688232,0.11060361321278626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03462747624832885,0.1916072771456795,0.0,0.17315823705329556,0.0,0.04116825910489491,0.05484591047744219,0.0,0.08335780666700411,0.044246553497109035,0.04638819683074503,0.06544851057996795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049387057590421085,0.0,0.0,0.2475040061895466,0.0,0.03913091312110635,0.0,0.14415468520953725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05144299873131683,0.0,0.0,0.03728536514433988,0.05216555773467727,0.11503944898914815,0.05443594028914863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042806329721720084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938197109941728,0.057307053551975816,0.04928319457096059,0.054918694789180635,0.0,0.04903779798272802,0.055800649396384114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041866681820585616,0.0932671114437103,0.03898627494927484,0.24541054089101194,0.0,0.03906620417746103,0.0,0.0,0.11076753206516686,0.0,0.1622143954165825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11322443783057272,0.0,0.0,0.17349907772722625,0.052253627389278766,0.03915105398248468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15286577737431534,0.036860346320551074,0.039404061201168884,0.04284960115472346,0.0,0.05606382401272866,0.0,0.09770916053912804,0.0,0.0,0.1946000085894683,0.08575979524721365,0.0,0.0,0.046845040507910767,0.10893611612666744,0.033284438662867566,0.10664922449929903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04234145454622384,0.053993595036429684,0.28315260780890994,0.0,0.038913391000825706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09089246324592548,0.044237014173571634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0356904426281331,0.0,0.049960185624925185,0.13930248166518527,0.0,0.0,0.12628076316612052
schizophrenia,NagisaLynne,2020/03/22,"Does this sound like schizophrenia? I've been having this problem with ""voices"", but no one really believes me whole-heartedly. I was wondering if this situation sounds like schizophrenia.

Sometimes I'll be minding my business, usually it's when I'm just about to fall asleep. (I'm an insomniac) Whenever I'm just at the edge of unconsciousness, a voice screams out my name. There have been times when this voice was angry or very sweet and warm.

Depending on the instance I only hear the voice once or they won't shut up. It becomes multiple people all calling my name all overlapping.

Another instance I was working on school work and I swear I heard someone call me from downstairs and I go investigate and no one has called me or was even on that floor of my house. I even asked around and everyone just looked at me confused and said they never called.

They never say anything but my name and it really scares me sometimes.",4.2591979768786095,6.7835457976878635,4.382944364161851,82.8973067196532,73.6820809248555,7.793208092485548,28.73157514450867,8.660442795831766,2.4018673410404627,745,31,134,15,16,231,108,173,0.126,0.8059999999999999,0.068,-0.8596,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,3,2,10,8,0,2,5,0,11,1,1,1,4,31,21,15,0,2,9,0,1,2,0,1,0,11,0,0,8,10,0,0,1,0,0,2,5,4,0,2,8,14,20,4,14,11,2,19,0,0,1,0,15,11,0,7,8,87,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739286828742842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1078237698062109,0.11664149889918048,0.12249223164560533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14470864209354656,0.0,0.14762216708766404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5351714424439608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11466230550494985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17308373485249207,0.0,0.0,0.1252015803183301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07446546543070975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14767655871539456,0.15526721263119647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15118716359795464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12802600680364548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002938716675692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13229956628948172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20211166200229366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13953910736201094,0.17757409980247685,0.09965167258269343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09083738220105113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12537480973568396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16787805587356328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12463635016503405,0.10419765211964864,0.13118053571174593,0.13260596627071827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14727944583609534,0.0,0.0,0.11101845642889148,0.0,0.25917741691020385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07640269404765379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443073450750322,0.10811070952398956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462865769185612,0.0,0.0,0.14209281408645694,0.19077792529812665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,DoeDeer,2020/03/22,"Need to Vent... Mom with Schizophrenia Thinks Coronavirus is Fake Basically... it is what it is. My ma has had schizophrenia for years. Her doctor won't tell us if she's taking her pills. She's high risk for coronavirus and thinks this shit happens every year and that it's not a big deal. She's NOT taking precautions. She's still going to work because she works at a drug store. 

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I'm so afraid she's going to catch it or give it to my dad who is also high risk.",1.6703125000000014,3.962858739583337,2.5352500000000013,93.98475000000002,81.39583333333334,5.506666666666668,18.975,6.742157984588678,0.02730750000000004,373,9,80,4,10,117,63,96,0.12300000000000001,0.877,0.0,-0.8898,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,1,0,0,2,3,5,1,3,2,0,7,4,1,0,0,10,17,6,0,2,4,3,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,9,3,0,0,2,0,1,3,3,5,0,0,1,0,11,0,8,15,0,10,0,0,0,0,16,4,1,2,3,46,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453546059566368,0.0,0.19693850941281327,0.22086011740193173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11080012340811816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18738812547633876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18604059724053915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21078563465206232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1531419031385039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17436219317761442,0.20659849839778985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607310942566473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3840820084965212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128768721334655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13477384922817595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18657556786366047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14515496876605585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2733240551459622,0.0,0.1588675625446623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23293086010520295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186367049099823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26464907367505736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22086011740193173,0.23409689355147995
schizophrenia,SrcArry,2020/03/22,I've come to realise during this pandemic that social distancing and self isolation is just a normal day for me. It's like seriously no different than any other day. Just doing shit around home and chilling out. Barely anyone to talk to as normal. Gonna run out of TP in a few days though.,3.3578947368421046,5.4326904035087775,5.003368421052631,79.49557894736844,74.78947368421052,8.068771929824562,23.68070175438596,8.841846274778883,1.9117817543859648,231,7,42,5,5,78,49,57,0.18899999999999997,0.769,0.042,-0.7783,1,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,1,0,2,0,2,1,1,0,0,10,4,4,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,1,4,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,11,3,1,9,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,4,27,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16398069322151268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16860784063571976,0.0,0.0,0.21466209090623764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2077172418231305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4665381555231598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519357112667444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2418789868908477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11780682934553675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4725240035000597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2515573523841013,0.0,0.24752255472930965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2458077015565349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938159169150059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2369148152345541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,latboyp,2020/03/23,"Has anyone read Elyn Saks' The Center Cannot Hold? She describes her story in really vivid detail and has helped me cope with symptoms. She writes about her journey in academia and how she got through with it despite having heard voices and having delusions for most of the time. 

I was recommended the book by my psychiatrist halfway through her book and its absolutely inspiring. She has a Ted talk that is actually an excerpt from her book and if you have the time I recommend watching and reading it!

Thanks all for reading and have a great day! Stay safe!

Hopefully I'm not violating any rules haha just wanted to recommend a book and hopefully this you're not all familiar with the book like /r/books is with 1984 haha.",5.69511111111111,7.443345511111111,5.757962962962968,77.82583333333336,67.96296296296296,8.955555555555557,31.277777777777786,9.3871,2.9130888888888893,584,24,103,12,10,184,89,135,0.0,0.7509999999999999,0.249,0.9877,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,3,10,1,0,9,2,11,1,0,1,2,27,18,10,0,4,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,5,12,0,2,1,8,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,4,13,9,15,15,3,8,0,0,2,0,13,3,0,4,4,69,18,8,0.0,0.0,0.200698340987852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13985853375731971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14380501087066974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13263622908169986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.164488242976087,0.2267452232153349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13785220578324514,0.0,0.0,0.4085414013383201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10047701406292156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6171587957523089,0.0,0.13175358821223224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2192103987799761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21376358409464316,0.0,0.1653048869719443,0.0,0.18934772689250684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23984859813819054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12130592215060297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,nortonsky,2020/03/23,"Amisulpride (or Risperidone) breast growth I've taken Amisulpride on and off for a while because it's the only thing that works for my depression with ""minimal"" side effects. However, I'm always trying to replace it because it causes hyperprolactinemia and I live in fear of developing man boobs (hasn't happen yet though). It also kills my libido but I'm not sexually active so it's OK.

If you're on Amisulpride, Risperidone or other antipsychotics that increase prolactin (like Haloperidol), have you developed man boobs because of it?

I don't have Schizophrenia, only depression, but since Amisulpride is pretty much only used for Schizophrenia I'd like to ask you guys if that's OK.

Thanks!",5.036406052963431,8.228715049180334,4.8027868852459035,77.3440416141236,74.7377049180328,6.704665825977299,29.87641866330391,7.882392219407189,2.5278781841109708,564,25,84,9,13,173,79,122,0.107,0.71,0.183,0.9089,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,2,0,2,4,9,1,1,2,2,5,3,3,3,0,13,12,12,1,2,7,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,11,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,4,0,0,1,0,6,5,12,11,2,9,0,2,0,3,6,5,2,4,4,51,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15385461339733167,0.16008430813999475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17985914675713272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35183838941612083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1976380399743549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314113115957304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164928003218087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19049684266078834,0.17013028383265638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2128515833035882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187984560629504,0.0,0.1698843363193069,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414291542862226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4389649342539536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1957303042046354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15914740976660496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17712732398572753,0.0,0.0,0.12781569946643562,0.0,0.18902268949900686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13062052070353575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16616362066946644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14006257541087147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Biggest_Thinggs,2020/03/23,"Heart to Heart I used to have heart to heart conversations with the one voice in my head. She kept telling me it was gonna be over one day but first i had to go through this hell and pain as to cleanse my body. I was goodie two shoes my whole life and when the voices started, it all went down hill with drugs and disrespective behavior. 

I'm better now, now that i know whats going on, and the voices aren't so frequent

​

p.s. do what your doctor tells you, don't skip your meds and love yourself",4.068667582417582,4.766018971153848,4.046593406593408,92.51269230769232,70.82692307692308,7.0967032967032955,24.472527472527474,6.868970318607317,0.5531527472527467,399,10,91,3,7,122,75,104,0.10800000000000001,0.8059999999999999,0.086,-0.5499,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,0,2,4,4,1,0,3,0,8,12,7,1,1,12,18,9,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,6,7,0,1,1,0,0,3,2,2,0,4,5,3,12,2,13,11,2,14,1,0,0,1,8,4,1,0,7,58,18,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569316594934176,0.1759937395846926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12809723435565193,0.0,0.1608821072476508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09340837726496816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14824759131747953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16796582619594652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12319893019704195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646292809825842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14864533412872272,0.0,0.0,0.6865338026908309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959904863521908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10230319784270077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13072173911290594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608821072476508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19629163802658028,0.0,0.15411759538101116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1025169166067143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531891838131896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14148545212282984,0.0,0.0,0.12509332676530566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13426606061576726,0.0,0.16170619384576032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759937395846926,0.0
schizophrenia,Garbagehastogo,2020/03/23,"Does anyone else feel like the whole Corona situation is a bit too weird I’ve been schizo for lots of years and been med free for over a year now, docs approval. Although there certainly is stuff going on which would put me in the conspiracy corner, no one has been able to actually point out inconsistensies or impossibilities. Until now, and I see why, too.

This whole epidemic stuff is just too weird. It makes me think like it is one big acting event. It could be that I hace opened my mouth a bit too far. It is fact there is stuff people have never thought about and it’s like it’s coming for me...

How do other schizo’s handle this?",3.7100000000000013,5.370403174603176,4.401777777777777,85.94600000000004,72.80952380952381,7.262222222222222,20.536507936507935,7.908726449838941,0.5851326984126977,504,10,106,7,10,161,86,126,0.068,0.809,0.12300000000000001,0.8074,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,11,7,0,0,5,0,15,1,1,2,3,19,22,7,0,2,2,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,14,6,0,0,3,0,1,4,2,2,0,2,4,2,6,6,11,15,5,20,0,0,1,0,0,9,0,2,10,73,20,0,0.1503212068952661,0.0,0.14669181383499494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10510808300331974,0.1540218406025742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32822365015676475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294884093909744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12001925195794012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1315471011507846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1255740795650253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07600691885314648,0.10738950024157544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08543100603215202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203180460147362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12779771456512665,0.0,0.0,0.10034057286589143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1669729733703128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1159369817660834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20372308027128885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10421379765609468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1421021286239908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15111433192568144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11978653974326207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689673347619543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5162454535842754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09631975967418184,0.0,0.11933824723309205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13564150825492807,0.33565651843756583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10678387245227262,0.0,0.0,0.1936038575323787
schizophrenia,Icyf6,2020/03/23,"When did you first find out you had schizophrenia? Hi guys, I was wondering what triggered your schizophrenia to show up and do you remember the day it came?",3.867471264367815,6.685381724137932,2.8282758620689665,92.00264367816094,76.58620689655173,6.625287356321839,26.90804597701149,7.793537801064563,1.605749425287356,126,5,24,2,3,36,26,29,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,1,0,7,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,4,0,5,0,3,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,3,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4411183853049857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2487335044316969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35250709929909707,0.32806159947753266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3818866169066799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43690343711906976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41825655317298055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,YouMayAsk,2020/03/23,Anybody else missing their clubhouse? My clubhouse is closed due to Covid-19. Although I haven’t gone in 2 years I still keep in touch with some people. It’s times like this with the complete social isolation I’m feeling that going to a clubhouse would help me the most.,3.8952941176470617,6.5472542156862765,3.1958431372549043,90.31729411764708,75.47058823529412,4.864313725490196,29.807843137254906,5.6839178017228535,1.252400784313726,219,10,39,1,5,64,43,51,0.09699999999999999,0.7709999999999999,0.132,0.2023,0,1,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,8,9,1,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,2,5,1,6,7,2,9,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,2,5,24,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3888422795380684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30980803409351393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18751922521721576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2107697075792364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2485813190161197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3296396336990506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1811846864883316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2571093643615785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3780476190587288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961712747939515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216252908506616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2634500823093845,0.0,0.0,0.2388232934009597
schizophrenia,bigdick9090,2020/03/23,"Asking for help from the schizophrenic community Hey guys, I joined this subreddit to get some insight and maybe some help in my situation.

I myself do not have schizophrenia, but my mother does. Her schiz is drug induced and she’s homeless, and as far as I know she copes with homelessness by doing meth. She is 40 and has been doing meth for 26 years, and by the time I was born, she had already developed chronic schizophrenia. I have never met her sane. Medication does not help, as street drugs cancel it out. I consider her far past the point of being helped.

She only seems to hallucinate about me in particular. She often tells me she can hear me screaming, or that she can see me being brutally tortured by x, y, and z (various people in my life). When this happens, I don’t know how to calm her down. My mother has a history of calling the police in the middle of the night and sending them to my house with the idea that I have been raped or decapitated. This is obviously very unpleasant for me, and I don’t know what to do. When she is being manic, I get frustrated with her because I’m scared she’s going to call the police. 

I know that by being defensive and impatient with her, I make her mania worse. Can anyone help me with this? How can I be a safe place for my mother? Is there a way I can redirect her thoughts into positive ones? What helps you when you are having an episode?",3.95099930483142,5.4724210620438,5.088352450469241,81.82086374695865,71.95620437956204,8.284741049704554,26.18630517900591,8.841846274778883,1.9278027806743128,1097,36,215,21,21,362,147,274,0.14400000000000002,0.7659999999999999,0.08900000000000001,-0.9705,0,0,4,0,0,0,33.0,0,2,1,0,8,9,5,1,12,0,32,7,0,4,2,40,48,20,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,10,16,0,2,9,0,0,2,5,7,0,1,6,3,48,2,34,37,3,25,0,0,1,1,39,13,0,6,9,162,58,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1416265919420103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08973844547379106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11998075375691132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07823498910838644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620993682251343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22462273169765865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976677520559542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341049053064333,0.0,0.0729386880392943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12707696651989553,0.11349080688502645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14464872252603375,0.0,0.5161423476368445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14808734891314115,0.0,0.1448804538049858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821296499372089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09065047224084437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08566807394489691,0.0,0.12893497176470667,0.0,0.0,0.12928924017018165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09898386707597914,0.0,0.0,0.12043857507406755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08696663476442816,0.09760849834298413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1225152341253022,0.08897492877196489,0.0,0.1340881835813151,0.0,0.12132296353298425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12849092013007976,0.0,0.10227051581661248,0.11683608959473996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.144259751715846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11217498359254448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10188777576626898,0.07483619734692837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10589409829197224,0.0,0.10187046972237013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13078961884663146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08264687508446067
schizophrenia,UltimatumVox,2020/03/23,"The difficulties of having another mind within my mind This might be a bit long, but I want to get it off my chest.

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So, I've been diagnosed ever since I was 16 (I'm 27 now) and it's been quite a wild ride. The interesting thing is that while I do have delusions when I'm not medicated or the extremely rare times I indulge in ""dipping my toes in the waters of insanity,"" there are aspects of my mind that still stick around when I'm fully medicated.

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When I was 14, I decided to try and create another personality (this isn't the thing that makes me schizophrenic). It was an interesting little experiment, but it ended up actually doing something. The way it worked was that I'd have a dialogue with myself in composition notebooks communicating to this other mind I made within my mind. Later on down the line when I was 18, I recalled memories of a time when I created auxiliary personalities when I was 8 to protect my mind for a variety of reasons (shield myself from pain, make world peace, dodge bullets, just weird stuff.) I also had other memories that no one else remembers as there is time travel involved (or so goes my personal narrative). But all that's besides the point. The entity that I conversed with started becoming different things.

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At some point, the entity took on the role of my girlfriend. The delusional parts of my illness were mostly thinking that I had special powers when I had none. I thought I could separate my soul from my body, use telekinesis, create energy spheres, travel into other dimensions. It's a jumbled up mess. Anyways, I was reminded of a time from when I was 8 during the Advent of Infinity (which I was responsible for) that I asked for a 20 year break. I've tried doing things to align myself with this world, but it's difficult because I get physical sensations whenever I stray too far from the path that this entity (or the group of entities at this point \[There's the second me, and then Goddess\]) has in mind for me. I've thought about giving it a rest and just focusing on making my art and turning contents of the dozens of composition notebooks full of dialogues, thoughts, memories, and other ramblings into a story that others can enjoy. But there's an issue.

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The entity told me in my last psychotic episode that I don't have to do anything. She says that I'll see her again after my 20 year break and that other things will happen. I've been trying to improve my artistic skills, but I find that there's something inside me that prevents me from pursuing my dreams. She says that it's pointless to resist. I like talking to her, but I fear wasting my life hoping for some type of divine event where I'll be whisked away to Paradise and the Universe becoming transformed in a positive way. Despite being medicated, I still communicate with the entities (Goddess and my second mind) so I don't think they're entirely caused by the illness. It's just hard wanting to do one thing but having an entity that has a lot more power over the self that I am now.

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Whenever I'm in psychosis, I agree with the entities. I accept their terms, I feel at peace and am unafraid. But whenever I'm stable, I argue with them. I'm feel unrest and full of fear about my health and the future. I don't want these stories to die with me. I don't want my imagination to go to waste. But the more I live, the more I realize that maybe I'm not cut out for anything that produces a genuine challenge. My psychological environment just takes over and I become like a dandelion seed drifting in the wind.

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It's hard.

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TL;DR

I'm fighting an invisible battle with entities that I may or may have not created myself. I feel trapped with no way out.

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Sorry if I jumped around a bit. I can't organize my thoughts.",5.9326652892562,6.961063509641875,6.692221074380168,74.02196797520664,66.7961432506887,9.906749311294767,33.30681818181819,10.02789654360092,3.450057024793389,3052,132,539,70,48,1008,322,726,0.09,0.778,0.132,0.9841,3,1,2,0,2,0,117.0,0,0,2,7,34,20,4,2,46,0,49,14,3,8,2,97,88,43,1,7,22,0,5,2,1,4,10,2,0,4,54,28,1,2,16,5,0,7,12,10,0,5,23,8,82,10,83,57,16,82,2,0,1,0,23,39,0,13,33,397,136,4,0.0,0.0,0.043677656862548674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03579320660328199,0.0,0.3879649060537177,0.4350899930863323,0.0,0.0938659871130176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0736645556153139,0.07968877547274662,0.04184298057246113,0.0,0.04205190826188639,0.0,0.0,0.027284252072473345,0.14829612013207374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09772897062849166,0.0497163955201444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04597911652607276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03573587078155077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04542874537227072,0.046452062296284624,0.046762910591119485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03738982711224139,0.0,0.03964258020057869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040486456420874346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043782218399339434,0.0,0.1007310909817146,0.06789344341835392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04090828706583105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04676874224992599,0.042936252092827185,0.025437180639758982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039579628223243686,0.0,0.08018931374284041,0.0,0.0,0.04757599355036005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04445510374916356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046716050024819405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03648399877282437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0316141200158078,0.04373330164278142,0.04485958789118366,0.039522410243460745,0.03960969839686008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03805191699976045,0.0,0.04235139781504764,0.08962956411373597,0.0,0.044965741168722,0.0,0.0,0.13526787410328825,0.0,0.04748149682022994,0.3615450944195073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06065878226224551,0.0,0.04762600055195269,0.0,0.0,0.04846889113437778,0.0,0.0,0.11724369707630745,0.0,0.0,0.1269332183824102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04760597510947009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04601900008068312,0.0,0.0,0.05070244333022701,0.0,0.0,0.07118721366678511,0.0,0.0,0.03566658045106332,0.0,0.0466926817120478,0.0,0.0,0.03702453889661564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689142718271466,0.0,0.05010326680155052,0.031680164194265864,0.0,0.07148809289313278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051237559863356666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03365268101103325,0.035975036441880714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17841260539898013,0.05735863920619728,0.0,0.1421324033551902,0.10439572860323068,0.0,0.0,0.04276848598904003,0.04972813243140477,0.09116386920610232,0.048684191691220735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03865681160442043,0.0,0.0,0.10559845023153,0.1065811962009386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.032584584812690665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4350899930863323,0.05764577201340518
schizophrenia,froyonyc,2020/03/23,"can you tell a schizophrenic, that they are schizophrenic? my friend’s diagnosed schizoaffective disorder very quickly evolved into full schizophrenia. she has certain delusions about god and finds herself to be omnipotent. 

she was sectioned recently for the third time. whenever she has gotten out, she stops taking her meds and looking after herself. she thinks that she’s better that fine and in her words, “we need to catch up”. she’s in complete denial, she refuses any therapist we get her. the last time before her sectioning, she holed herself up in a hotel and broke her phone. 

i’ve read a lot about how it can be dangerous to tell a person with this condition that they have it. my heart goes to her, really, and so far everyone including me has been pussyfooting around this. 

i’m just wondering in your own opinion, how do i go about this? how can i give her the awareness she needs directly, because i’ve tried to be indirect or subtle or plant seeds but all efforts have been futile. 

please please help",5.901142857142857,7.831502994594598,5.509517374517376,79.09817567567569,67.70270270270271,9.61003861003861,31.59266409266409,9.957137785484203,3.3354015444015443,814,34,140,20,14,250,118,185,0.057999999999999996,0.855,0.086,0.6497,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,2,2,2,2,10,6,1,0,7,0,16,4,1,3,2,31,27,12,0,2,4,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,1,9,11,0,2,3,2,0,2,0,2,0,1,4,1,31,4,20,20,6,22,0,1,1,0,34,13,0,6,7,104,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11406864090043115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14932375562922046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10225246817575767,0.0,0.14273399602441075,0.0,0.0,0.14835199408824887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17587171888113687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17025210469775648,0.0,0.0,0.1922440479208559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16028232113174512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533109029418397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12959515440142866,0.0,0.08763698773615053,0.16091105371136286,0.09533024753396402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1987721654384012,0.11243227950685104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13673011499576082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14085896937523948,0.0,0.0,0.1426061605687205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18632081748965126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24875349061423005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14646369845212245,0.0,0.3682552927431318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677849351530382,0.0,0.10745824611033317,0.0,0.16562256192081162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14023776836824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261192604792434,0.0,0.2932235070429183,0.0,0.0,0.1947585373092828,0.0,0.10748072577649333,0.0,0.0,0.19562055225725686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11388413861123038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13840268962777602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18190637849787974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,CarrionBoi,2020/03/23,"I really need help First of all i dont speak english so please forgive my mistakes. Hope someone is able to understand and if not plz feel free to ask

My mind created “Gods” i have more than 10 years trying to cope with the same delusions , this is the one that actually annoys me because it never stops. 
Each God has a number and they all tell me what to do, some of them are evil and good ones try to protect me from the evil ones but i have to obey their commands.. i have rituals and stuff that i have to do in order to make them happy. I can’t tell if this is real or not because it started when i was going thru a very rough time in my life. Sometimes (due to my meds) i forget to do what they say and as soon as i remember i start to get really anxious , i start to pull out my body hair, it can be my arms, hands or belly hair and it really hurts. Here’s another thing and i want to be very careful with the next thing i’m going to say because i am not trying to offend anyone or be unrespectful or banned. Everytime i masturbate i have to do it hiden under my bed sheets because i think those “Gods” are watching me and that my sexual desires are going to piss them off, few months ago i realized that they are actually killing me and sometimes they ask me to do things that i can’t do like killing people but they say it’s all for my own good, some of them tell me they will regenerate my liver or my body cells in exchange (i have a chronic illness) so they tell me this and i just dont know what to do. Nobody knows this, my family tries to get more information about this when they hear me talking to them but they also tell me that nobody has to know about this and its also embarrassing",4.667723970944309,4.501764497175142,5.750952380952381,83.85550847457631,69.28248587570621,8.889749798224376,27.59160613397901,8.563005593585519,1.6955199354317996,1328,38,290,19,21,443,170,354,0.124,0.7859999999999999,0.09,-0.958,0,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,15,1,11,18,7,1,7,0,33,11,8,2,4,58,56,29,2,7,14,0,5,1,0,1,3,5,1,0,27,15,0,3,10,0,2,4,8,10,0,4,1,11,58,9,41,51,11,26,1,1,1,0,32,6,1,10,16,215,85,0,0.089477944395974,0.0,0.17463513276363407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07931679891679909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14311095961193898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0938254264248716,0.0,0.10108460828316408,0.0,0.06256505918749805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16729959875122105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21817969759812825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19877964973057705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09122872770408366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20973496887024928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08435184264340416,0.0,0.045242737198016234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761098937933864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09349706576186767,0.0,0.15255713346080946,0.1500997090140504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09525093564512957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10084814639318003,0.0,0.05997518001450242,0.0,0.0,0.08887178826565029,0.0,0.0,0.09578799010275406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979881764275089,0.0,0.14752421456886766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06320091830406742,0.04371440392632325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059727222691937774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09938982486528852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09034721654524187,0.0,0.0714204415474823,0.0,0.0,0.06634676199869807,0.06901090685847436,0.0,0.09516080897026544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18189771249034245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062032740320281325,0.0,0.0,0.09821991322437257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1018454899376324,0.17196558718131896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10136106831782726,0.0,0.0,0.2134693582961833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07581437191980417,0.0,0.17699194990546438,0.0,0.18999884875176826,0.0,0.0,0.07480756807216365,0.0,0.0,0.1024308389227523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07191898234119026,0.3910383365106268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17833551104061374,0.0573338538078983,0.0,0.0,0.05217530893986032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24299860303335366,0.0,0.0,0.0931496957254032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14765735003018188,0.052776409898345575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0576208625413644
schizophrenia,ThrowawayRatBat,2020/03/23,"I'm 15 and stuff has been getting weird So I'm in high school and I feel like I've changed ever since taking psychedelics over this last summer. It's kinda hard to explain, it's like my thinking is more introspective and spiritual? Also I've been feeling like I pissed/ shit myself whenever I'm stressed, and it seems real in my head and it was really freaky the first months but I kinda got used to living with it. However during those first few months I'd be convinced people were all in on a sorta joke and not telling me I pissed myself. Also I would hear people like whispering about me but I think it was in my head? I just learned not to trust my hearing when I hear something negative. Also I think that people are slighting me a lot, but I don't think they were when I think about it later. I'm also pretty paranoid about someone finding out who I am via this post since my therapist is actively looking for my symptoms online, which I've only told him about the pissing thing. Anyways there's more weirdness but I don't want to make this post more ramble-y than it already is. So I just want to know if this lines up with y'all's experiences or if I'm just super anxious or something.",5.223650137741046,5.568817921487603,5.720181818181821,82.78693939393942,68.13223140495867,8.106225895316804,30.18292011019284,7.793537801064563,1.8904685399449035,955,34,189,10,15,308,135,242,0.124,0.743,0.133,0.7402,1,0,2,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,1,3,18,15,4,1,4,0,16,7,6,2,2,46,43,22,0,5,13,0,3,4,0,1,1,4,0,0,18,9,0,0,12,1,0,0,5,7,0,2,8,8,28,8,21,33,6,21,0,0,1,0,10,9,4,9,14,126,46,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1153228787332963,0.3342875806477142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11805989295065066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11055148653823484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452994611477626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10222506763869414,0.0,0.0,0.1056808311593731,0.1493155072533186,0.0,0.0,0.09551485888962603,0.17778227697260915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0545990817124455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08358147954991328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09361515154958436,0.0,0.2145027227143334,0.0,0.35335116501905783,0.0,0.0,0.11041432480381824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057432723192439215,0.08518479370470351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2042217083529141,0.0,0.0922790394842795,0.0,0.08775712832581868,0.0,0.0,0.08884565312800997,0.0,0.0,0.0697573017001469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668283594662416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07948008113021697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173499647285378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20017209033306535,0.1063182448793951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1189485505633211,0.06694800576348373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10576373365737074,0.0,0.0951366124627477,0.0,0.0,0.1072719622103394,0.17289375145299166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08854598919649423,0.16090473156352675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11970909940944835,0.0,0.11963219805125952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10861977919674178,0.07857408140443096,0.0,0.0913411941385228,0.0,0.0,0.12133732077556893,0.06942788389628349,0.3348100545657501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09985815093143208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09025799343730274,0.0,0.0,0.12327845769485145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07423671795574625,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,boileroom,2020/03/23,Government spiking my cigarettes with unknown chemicals and perhaps room is being gassed with an odourless gas too. Diagnosed schizophrenic here on fluanxol 25mg/3weeks. Been months since I last took my injection. Anyone has these symptoms? Is it common of schizophrenia?,8.632439024390244,13.001877121951225,6.027512195121955,66.45346341463414,70.46341463414635,10.109268292682929,42.34634146341463,9.888512548439397,6.234576585365852,226,14,25,7,5,64,38,41,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,5,3,0,0,0,3,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,4,3,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,3,18,5,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2898462647759755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4207352330524088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3378940712665513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3308707524618656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3429002468299274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4308513035799536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4605537136528308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Alnaqeeb78,2020/03/23,"Hi fellow troubled people So I don’t have schizophrenia but I have sever pure ocd and anxiety, and one of my obsessions was the fear of being schizophrenic or witnessing hallucination, I’m kind of over that fear but just came here to tell you guys , You are unimaginably strong and powerful people, what you are dealing with is really hard and most people will never be able to thrive if faced with such challenges, I really wish ya’ll
The best of luck!!",6.03607142857143,7.635171416666673,6.024761904761906,76.80357142857143,66.97619047619048,9.885714285714286,27.095238095238088,10.125756701596842,2.746038095238096,365,11,64,9,6,115,63,84,0.158,0.62,0.222,0.873,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,4,4,9,0,3,2,0,10,2,1,0,2,17,13,9,0,2,5,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,7,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,4,0,1,2,1,7,5,9,8,2,3,0,0,0,0,8,1,0,4,1,46,9,1,0.206840822668024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15823266319281035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21706668232543205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365707981083276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2132438058206875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4655068613464573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2048049339091588,0.0,0.0,0.18528874943254672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153928872853961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1595283937738234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14016069452241836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4301921482488665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2650150549262002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2336712547154287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18078799589015349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23785673816235894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Impressive_Gear,2020/03/23,"Falling apart So this country's going into complete lockdown for four weeks and I won't be able to see the limited number of friends I do have and talk to them face to face.  My entire coping strategy has collapsed with this virus - gym, martial arts, socializing.  I was pretty happy being on my own for extended periods of time as well, but now that it's compulsory I'm really feeling kind of sad and anxious about it.",4.7414814814814825,6.2528571604938294,6.136728395061732,75.11027777777781,69.98765432098764,8.85679012345679,32.01851851851852,9.2995712137729,3.1147925925925923,334,15,58,7,6,113,66,81,0.128,0.738,0.133,-0.1432,0,1,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,1,1,4,5,0,0,1,0,7,2,2,0,0,8,11,6,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,5,0,1,1,2,0,2,1,1,1,1,1,2,6,4,13,7,1,9,0,1,1,0,4,3,0,0,4,41,11,0,0.2848301074437574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3217769477446693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29863894853521034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14401866051071754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200590344594164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16187551397268918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30320694576820645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29660672606483884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897746175423204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824694603202044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269727185543487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29034842503767755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2289356511905811,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16608672619350334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284735315041515,0.0,0.256096473312694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,noxibus,2020/03/23,"Limmy's Show For anyone on here that has seen Limmy's show I have a theory...as we Schizos do

Some of the weirder skits honestly feel like what my psychosis feels like and I honestly wonder if Limmy is lowkey schizophrenic.

What are your thoughts?",4.387340425531914,6.57666895744681,4.558457446808512,83.30875,72.19148936170212,8.104255319148937,26.643617021276608,8.841846274778883,2.163429787234042,199,7,36,4,4,62,39,47,0.031,0.742,0.22699999999999998,0.8591,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,1,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,0,0,8,10,2,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,5,4,3,8,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,3,2,22,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.278266885338507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4024468522135202,0.5686135813044599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38885189858297375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3159403293299564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4315768484231362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,sharkykitten29,2020/03/23,"My Friends Think I'm Crazy So for context, I have not been diagnosed with schizophrenia, but many of my friends think I have schizophrenia because I have all the symptoms. One day, I was hanging out with a few friends (that don't know about the other symptoms) and I started hearing voices and thought it was one of them, so I responded and they started going crazy on how I talked to myself. So I told them, once they calmed down, that I heard voices and had other symptoms and they said it's because I smoke weed (which I didn't) and have depression/anxiety.",5.647619047619044,6.4542227037037065,5.067883597883596,86.20833333333334,67.33333333333333,7.652910052910053,33.94708994708995,7.447530270364453,2.219286772486772,444,20,86,4,7,134,64,108,0.046,0.821,0.133,0.8735,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,5,0,5,4,0,0,3,0,10,4,0,1,1,17,22,11,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,4,5,0,0,7,9,0,0,4,0,0,2,3,0,0,2,9,5,19,4,10,13,2,8,0,0,0,0,14,3,0,0,3,65,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13685293794025605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21810347511912595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11537142378543712,0.0,0.0,0.181573004267732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4146377203086302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10166922443077728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20162582889072267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09831511735784794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18136979814956888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19051559996572492,0.24244555380789734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17016856047120008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2532432952444693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5578161235710154,0.0,0.1437877139653641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22925529543096826,0.0,0.14202135272234234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17094028077104795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,LionVenom10,2020/03/23,"Can we actually love someone who exists? I always get told by my female friends that if I have mental problems I shouldn’t talk to the girl I love, they know I  see psychiatrists and therapist but they don’t know why exactly. The thing is I’ve never been happier before talking to this girl, I feel like my friends just aren’t supportive, but I’m afraid if they are right.",6.723648648648647,6.198745013513516,7.092567567567568,77.16290540540544,65.08108108108108,10.643243243243244,33.364864864864856,10.125756701596842,3.10792972972973,297,11,59,6,4,97,53,74,0.071,0.705,0.22399999999999998,0.8987,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,3,0,1,8,0,1,2,0,8,2,0,0,2,14,18,5,0,4,5,0,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,2,4,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,2,12,6,3,15,0,2,0,0,1,2,14,1,0,2,2,36,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.20574061236423388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17542825497323322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794016256203448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660247235305806,0.1506176859060687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257749662968825,0.0,0.11015047922883606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317343729838681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1030013616459664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3805663606296777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124680281108644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16260584009851972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20173676335442345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18004849499907355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1680049853872081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17863639529970265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392484844089708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3389158924284966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447910040348788,0.14006672718959695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.201458025208791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19024215626488947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Rabbit-Punch,2020/03/23,"What reduces hallucinations for somebody with schizophrenia? I am talking to a person with schizophrenia I met online. They are very confused and they don’t have the best family life and I am trying to help improve their situation. They had a very bad experience at a psych ward so they are skeptical of doctors and medical stuff. 
My main question for people with schizophrenia, is if medication is the best treatment, or if the best treatment is for the person to learn to deal with the symptoms themselves? If anyone could point me towards resources or thinks they could help please post or message me.",6.870677570093459,8.968435261682245,6.058025700934582,75.45189836448598,65.54205607476635,7.966822429906544,34.87032710280374,8.472884824447931,3.0619542056074773,491,23,77,7,8,149,67,107,0.073,0.735,0.192,0.9394,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,6,3,1,6,1,1,8,0,12,5,0,0,0,19,14,10,0,5,6,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,2,7,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,12,3,14,10,4,4,0,0,0,0,15,3,0,8,0,62,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11103635922626404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13259101697283573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4999510889375688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535770873881969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1637153950222686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16253809994625024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15533646135230172,0.14970211205397355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21288002342626566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121648402378955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3199477423490639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11009163465106528,0.2773153376800961,0.0,0.17431425318835436,0.15011693249330665,0.0,0.15208610222558552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778918735782679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17849738235203286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18178752764205824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1650535678090725,0.0,0.1276370878910549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10175235938259937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10781449154004537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26205257012888195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TacoBell1997,2020/03/24,"Midlife Crisis At 23 Or, it feels that way.

Schizo+PTSD+DPDR here.

Had a very VERY vivid lucid dream about 12:30am Friday 3/19. My classmates from high school were there.

Made me go the rest of the day feeling like I'd just lost a family member. Hole in my heart. I miss those days. It's been fucking with my brain for 5 eternal days now.

Got the refill of Haloperidol and Xanax on Friday evening and blanked out the entire weekend, but now no matter what, I can't shake this DPDR-guided, midlife crisis.

I need to go back to college. I need to do something with my life. I'm a petty day laborer by trade. Live alone obviously. 

Grey. My walls are grey. My bed is gray. This apartment complex is grey. My mood, headspace, grey. Not right. Not normal 

This economic and social and medical news certainly isn't helping. I need to do something with my life.

Thanks for coming to my Ted talk.",1.339549019607844,4.025795258823528,1.957205882352941,93.64659313725492,90.52941176470587,4.480392156862744,21.200980392156858,6.21433560688645,0.3211568627450978,694,24,136,7,24,213,117,170,0.11900000000000001,0.768,0.113,-0.7134,0,1,2,0,0,0,33.0,0,0,0,1,8,8,1,1,7,0,10,7,2,1,2,26,25,6,0,4,5,0,2,1,0,0,4,0,1,0,8,9,0,0,3,2,1,4,5,4,0,0,6,8,15,3,19,19,1,22,0,2,6,1,3,8,1,1,10,76,23,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15920326502173016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181980023388351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17159772839027654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13241259608622155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3965360333364482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10152787091593744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14490962547411915,0.0,0.15544670744193115,0.10981463581388363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14210782878776845,0.0,0.0,0.17472052283566597,0.0,0.12294060953746375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1821540254482272,0.10303249580907653,0.16240923786163106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21714810522349498,0.07509780109448737,0.0,0.1357339140539392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677990113396998,0.0,0.0,0.14544965642734295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1548525497702295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3419350709371957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.150608898585737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17968560581069593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13127249823431564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555686493325377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15669395383558155,0.0,0.23667594642266046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235509796697558,0.0,0.1415209047012691,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2536633536487148,0.0,0.1220124889127331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Hannzo96,2020/03/24,"It sucks being sober It's been exactly 2 years since my hospitalization

Been 1.5 year clean, positive symptoms of schizophrenia only appeared after hospital after attempting to smoke weed again, that's why I completely stopped smoking because voices and delusions were extremely horrifying

I suffered from negative symptoms for a year and 4 months because I didn't have money to see a doctor, i still have no money for a follow-up session

Anyway he prescribed prozac and abilify and it's getting better as time goes by, I'm being more motivated, doing more productive things, sometimes I lose interest but i guess it depends on my mood and life has its ups and downs

However I still miss smoking marijuana, i miss how it makes me feel, it sucks being sober in this world, sometimes you just gotta light a joint and chill and just take a break from everything around you.",7.605379746835446,8.711484348101267,7.375797468354431,70.3233164556962,63.113924050632896,10.370632911392406,36.686075949367094,10.355215969177356,4.117203037974685,709,33,112,16,10,225,110,158,0.138,0.795,0.067,-0.8265,1,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,4,8,9,2,0,5,0,11,5,0,4,1,21,24,11,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,1,5,1,1,0,10,9,0,1,2,0,2,1,3,6,0,0,4,4,13,2,16,16,2,19,0,4,1,0,3,6,2,3,11,75,23,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16289406560106418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2230900259467249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618339918871625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19185466633943773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872913151579358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16445372637927114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09252193056016854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09560130047103267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20157690035312206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1292466224816346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047116756446148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12214287403233184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14605564434599402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13916715957990047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458141190222732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15136580107036718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3619506226422621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922616397189212,0.15298235799162233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3803797361565489,0.1375807821300431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12156607366390225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10669912144265144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1651141027317075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3535060281301609
schizophrenia,PpLEMons,2020/03/24,"Dear sub members. Need your help for a project i am working. I will start with myself. I didn't know i had schizophrenia since i was 15 so spend my life without knowing about it. Luckily for me i managed for 3 years to get through it and now dont know a lot about ot since it wasn't ""developed"" a lot (i still manege to get those feelings of someone placing hidden cameras in my home though) 
So a couple of months ago a started working in a game project where the main character suffers from schizophrenia.
And since i didnt experience much from it iam looking for someone to guide me through  
If u are interested sharing your experiences  with me will  be much  appreciated


Pm me if u want so we can chat
Discord, WhatsApp whenever u want

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schizophrenia,dopefiend-lean,2020/03/24,"Self-medicating with various ""recreational"" drugs... Schizo-Affective here, diagnosed 3 years ago but have fought mental illness for my entire adult life. I have been all over the spectrum from major depressive to bi polar with extreme manic episodes that often ended by force via the police having to lock me up. Violent at times, paranoid as f**k , at my wit's end. Mostly always medication/treatment resistant and so I seek relief by using drugs. The thing is they make me feel so much better and sometimes even ""normal"". Over the years I have learned to function without having to face the downside of using. It's the only option I have ever found that actually works but I catch so much flak from people in my life who would rather me suffer and wish I was dead than to use this illegal option. I just don't get it...I feel like I have no choice I simply cannot endure this illness without a means of getting some real relief and nothing else has ever worked. I am glad that ketamine has arrived on the scene and psilocybin mushrooms are starting to be seen for the amazing potential to heal depression. Anyway I guess I just needed to get this off my chest, thanks for reading and if you want to judge me harshly then go ahead I couldn't care less this is MY life and MY experience.",5.623108206245462,6.979538456790128,5.8637182280319555,78.48202614379088,67.72427983539094,8.186782861292667,29.520455095618487,8.4952907291091,2.28896824013556,1027,37,178,15,17,327,161,243,0.182,0.695,0.122,-0.9582,0,0,2,0,0,0,29.0,0,1,1,4,12,13,2,0,9,0,20,12,2,4,3,42,41,15,1,8,8,0,2,1,0,1,9,0,0,1,10,9,0,0,5,1,0,2,6,5,0,0,5,3,25,8,33,33,8,21,0,3,1,1,5,8,0,7,12,128,35,4,0.0,0.0,0.12012196146254908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10911538030222216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10242404667305376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088666162952534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12550250960532186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21204131773599189,0.124937791834226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2854998586529986,0.0,0.10282921965347283,0.0,0.21804944830788506,0.0,0.0,0.0813024084654007,0.22269109230140408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12040952580997667,0.0,0.0,0.1244800229634446,0.08793835915077852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349661882378419,0.0,0.0,0.19293456166422487,0.0,0.06995714175191974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13560188937334527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26083474107793553,0.06013749765808388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08216618304607333,0.0,0.0,0.13408542320413566,0.13672965483293448,0.0,0.12404977311710295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809764675607644,0.09127262151493186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12060595854984632,0.11811198728435435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09361851355337636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08533786213859533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12312728431923832,0.14010789036340213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12841385999364233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12174308713986852,0.0,0.08712654789258706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11332839245631678,0.0,0.0,0.08177816626630703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07177708575116236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31894101245569323,0.0,0.0,0.07260401473191902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14155199447033728,0.2373163953657817,0.0,0.1792277572700722,0.0,0.0,0.0874424269234416,0.0,0.0,0.15853696607545278
schizophrenia,godspeed-sweetdreams,2020/03/24,"Friendship Are any of my fellow people with schizophrenia interested in becoming friends? I’m 21/F, a singer-songwriter who has schizoaffective disorder",9.69,13.09279466666667,8.265,57.18000000000001,60.66666666666666,13.133333333333333,45.33333333333334,12.161744961471696,7.442233333333334,128,8,15,5,2,39,24,24,0.099,0.584,0.318,0.7184,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,8,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3369462366399997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5472233540575601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5678678026848246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.382809852187658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3435063465645257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,zane-the-big-gay,2020/03/24,"Seroquel not putting me to sleep I’m on 100mg seroquel at night as well as the ability injection, the seroquel is meant to help with the paranoia at night, which it is a bit, but it’s also meant to put me to sleep at night. However it isn’t working to make me sleep anymore. Does anyone know anything good for sleep? My paranoia keeps me awake a lot",2.625,4.273018166666667,3.5122222222222237,91.255,75.66666666666666,6.466666666666668,28.66666666666667,7.1686216300943375,1.4197333333333333,276,12,59,3,6,88,46,72,0.055,0.823,0.122,0.5994,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,5,0,3,4,4,1,0,9,9,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,3,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,2,0,5,2,13,7,2,9,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,1,3,35,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13060813286864478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619710277253863,0.11419818000596603,0.0,0.1343996665924924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783047621638841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429237324783656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1369863132188552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10947094899504167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451676403932547,0.0,0.0,0.08975721715047794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1388500864562286,0.0,0.0,0.10901835971719613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4597984510436174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.328366405049652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6537577368975666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14684562949726546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11889998652133328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BLUE838,2020/03/24,"Man from Japan with Schizo is cured by Accident I don't know how many ppl know about this so im posting this here.  Basiclly a man from Japan with Schizo also got cancer (Lukemia) and needed a bone marro transplant.  When he went through treatment and Chemotherapy his immune system rebooted along with his brain and somehow got cured from his Schizo.

Here's the link.  Its from the NYTimes.  [https://www.nytimes.com/2018/09/29/opinion/sunday/schizophrenia-psychiatric-disorders-immune-system.html](https://www.nytimes.com/2018/09/29/opinion/sunday/schizophrenia-psychiatric-disorders-immune-system.html)",16.876746575342466,23.08226220547946,7.85094178082192,55.027919520547954,50.232876712328775,6.389726027397263,25.56335616438357,7.645422480735847,1.5548095890410965,523,12,57,5,8,123,52,73,0.102,0.868,0.03,-0.743,0,0,0,0,0,0,43.0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,4,0,2,4,2,1,0,13,8,7,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,3,7,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,4,0,11,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,1,34,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25072110358484856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34999099224244296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5014997147403478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33865441813366626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34460378606446324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31785914923235264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324704331897603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002646242373068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906353381193697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,JustGotProbed,2020/03/24,Truman syndrome For a few years now I’ve had this on and off feeling that someone’s watching me but now it feels like cameras are watching me and broadcasting to tvs around the world like the Truman show. And everything in my life has been orchestrated by the ‘directors.’ I think most of my family and all of my friends are just actors. Is this schizophrenia? I don’t know what to do because I can’t really trust anyone.,3.784094076655052,5.838206085365857,4.376132404181185,84.55231707317077,73.51219512195122,7.612543554006969,27.567944250871076,8.418075326091056,2.0035066202090595,337,13,64,6,7,107,61,82,0.0,0.804,0.196,0.95,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,4,0,9,1,0,0,1,13,13,5,0,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,5,5,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,4,8,4,10,11,3,8,0,0,2,0,1,5,0,1,5,47,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306703215860814,0.0,0.0,0.2936765772871919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011009885633212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2964884405517177,0.0,0.3109957366238794,0.0,0.3336097455810081,0.2356771225188303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2548761328513568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813017172750988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2330146624818989,0.32234016054903003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21133924596249515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795190443147945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21138345695483626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124416258066907
schizophrenia,xxwakefreakxx,2020/03/24,"Chat? I'm in the Seattle timezone, does anyone want to chat? I could use it right now",-1.16,0.8274363333333383,0.5166666666666693,102.04500000000002,102.33333333333334,2.4000000000000004,17.11111111111111,3.1291,-1.1556888888888883,66,2,15,0,3,21,16,18,0.0,0.9,0.1,0.168,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,3,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3627576584137872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4142203107582277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4540061717524906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4430531417513592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44807741256922096,0.0,0.0,0.3060022178966576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,DylanEnglish,2020/03/24,"schizophrenia/psych issue from TBI? I just recovered from a TBI, small subarachnoid brain bleed on the left frontal lobe. During recovery I had some weird experiences like hearing tribal music from my stores speakers and becoming unusually paranoid, these symptoms have faded since then, but some of it still sticks with me, like I'm much more paranoid and anxious now, but none of the tribal music . Sometimes I think I'm dead and this is Hell lol. Not to the point of delusion, but I guess more solipsistic and the reality of being in near fatal condition had the bleed been anymore worse. I wanna get a psych check but my family frowns upon that cuz they're ignorant Southern(we don't talk about feelings) type people. What do?",7.024800678541138,8.603369427480919,6.300407124681933,75.81683630195084,64.64885496183207,9.181000848176422,32.1128074639525,9.444778638647367,3.0643377438507216,589,23,96,11,9,180,96,131,0.222,0.7190000000000001,0.057999999999999996,-0.9785,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,0,7,1,8,4,1,1,0,19,15,10,2,1,6,0,1,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,5,5,0,1,2,0,2,0,3,4,0,0,3,3,8,2,15,11,6,11,1,0,0,0,2,7,1,3,6,63,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513664881757288,0.2206644439972311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24573848142116744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24838834834104875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21765186816327087,0.20975722037749286,0.0,0.1125048428052016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11624929588419933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24511353524599944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507784798143947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322366461281041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2417515369296725,0.0,0.0,0.21740869127917084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16356623777570878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15425644270734246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21033845187193506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18405782880233554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22006240929619847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17769219489634805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312671285795673,0.0,0.17884050135146246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14257174984445542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22675085695249855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,nigressnajari,2020/03/24,"Telling your partner about your diagnosis Hello everyone

I recently got into a romantic relationship with a lovely woman.  We've gone on 2 dates, and she is coming over to my house for the first time tomorrow.  I was wondering when you all would tell your S/O about your schizophrenia, assuming that you start dating after your diagnosis.

Thank you in advance!",6.3121875,8.53076459375,6.917625000000001,68.26487500000003,67.125,10.745,33.1125,10.793553405168565,4.32156625,290,13,45,9,5,95,54,64,0.0,0.853,0.147,0.8516,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,8,0,2,3,2,0,0,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,8,10,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,3,0,12,2,10,6,1,16,0,0,0,1,16,4,0,2,9,33,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325849481805928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580008475354869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296656692913192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159472447767899,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3115489137244371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.243689581202318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2665968463948387,0.28988376079085765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19111055776626146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4719916257777309,0.2485838451878249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15744178123128094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2928083365225787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19180343289139207,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,brandnewdayinfinity,2020/03/24,"I’m pretty sure my kid has schizophrenia and I’m wondering what’s the best way to handle it. How would you have wanted your parents to handle it? My kid is 14. They have been seeing and hearing things for years which is kinda concerning. I had a friend in high school who did but it wasn’t a big deal so I thought maybe this is a teenager thing. What’s really concerning are things like what happened the other night. 
They got in bed with me around three because they were scared. Then got out. I feel bad I was half asleep. I should have held them like last time. 
Then the next day my kid said they spent the night in the bathroom because it felt like the safest place. 
This sort of thing doesn’t happen all the time but it happens. 
My kid also wants to go on anti psychotics. Not sure where they got that idea. But there’s obviously something going on if a kid wants medication. 
The school psychologist kept saying my child is fine. A quirky genius while we’re not having much fun at home. 
My child is very intelligent and sounds so smart and reasonable it’s been very hard to get anyone to take us seriously. 
We do have a great counselor they have been seeing for around a year who I reached out to. She made us an appt with a child psychologist that’s in a few weeks. 
It’s hard. Homework is hard. Motivating is hard. I don’t want to push too much and stress my kid out but I also want to teach discipline and responsibility. Is that even needed or worth it I don’t know. 
My kid is also amazing and gentle and a great artist and has lots of close friends. Thankful for that. 

Oh and one of my half sisters has schizophrenia. The reason I’m finally starting to feel more certain is that I talked to her whole sister for a second time after her downplaying it the last time. This time I was more clear with her about exactly what’s going on. This time she took me seriously. This time she was a bit intense about the need to seek help. This time she said my kid is so like our sister including little things like leaving the bathroom soaked and towels wet and on the floor after a shower. 
It’s finally sinking in that that’s a symptom not my kid being rude. In the past I was pretty salty about it. And that’s what I’m talking about. 
What is the best way to approach my child? I’ve gotten a lot more calm and gentle. I’m massively letting them slide but I’m not sure that’s right either. 

Thoughts? And thank you.",1.968659793814432,4.304662824742271,2.790938144329896,92.32970618556705,80.54639175257732,5.611958762886598,20.215463917525774,6.8313827282637405,0.2381389690721645,1910,51,402,21,50,600,222,485,0.065,0.716,0.22,0.998,3,0,1,0,0,0,41.0,4,3,8,3,18,28,1,2,31,0,41,3,1,5,8,74,86,32,0,10,12,4,8,5,2,2,2,5,4,13,41,25,0,3,11,1,2,7,8,6,0,5,25,15,48,22,44,57,14,59,0,0,2,0,51,24,0,7,31,263,89,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17024662002281996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049618794102524365,0.0,0.0,0.12634375780075666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059250919400311915,0.08651644890184809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14894202413328855,0.0,0.07747292715914683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0457650933127701,0.07315946356337234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04687021703646694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07176178176177825,0.0,0.06813535380225508,0.15547241457372313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1096512656733749,0.0,0.037075100027678984,0.0,0.12098927248479027,0.0,0.17026614464477838,0.15647333116327913,0.0,0.0,0.188256335942508,0.0,0.2542746873353384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07998015947700632,0.0,0.047564825272251685,0.0749760253872014,0.07118140890134607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08010828991827627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038999263182412036,0.1156882001815493,0.0,0.07513928988955776,0.0,0.0725642041536048,0.0,0.17334403866177778,0.07112330279819414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1206599588650079,0.0,0.06714665542699731,0.0,0.0,0.07129160509556909,0.0,0.0,0.07148748960165212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10433155023538997,0.10523593730221913,0.0,0.0,0.0754696734606266,0.13318743882959128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04808618559618225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07879571906570611,0.0,0.06774195991907818,0.0,0.0,0.0741409541649116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443892256075195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04546054498511848,0.14592302029826712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0606017877421653,0.13500362209878966,0.0564324149083139,0.07104607703328639,0.1436361521719149,0.11309622403801327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05463058013560675,0.0,0.0,0.05022778889879423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08128757289734782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2006446130754299,0.07375745255044569,0.05335514511021963,0.1140743163418498,0.0,0.13066590402624895,0.0,0.0,0.2357224388609137,0.0,0.0,0.11267296955321543,0.33103153039642225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07884220936417917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17071886498482908,0.0,0.0,0.11710337597404502,0.2092782976811852,0.11265383160126152,0.05692202540976817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0792273591223128,0.0,0.0,0.07695605876809163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05040989074562601,0.0,0.0,0.0913953491478876
schizophrenia,lightwillshine,2020/03/24,"Song I started to have a nightmare in my hostel 2 years back  i felt fatigue to an extreme extent there was a weird smell of blood in the air and air off the fan seemed electric. And so i searched for ""nightmare"" on youtube and found and played the one from avenged sevenfold. Apparently they tracked me down for ""doing evil"" i cant believe i did in my life time. Was it before this birth or not i wasnt sure . Not sure if theyre tracking people for doing crimes in your lifetime.   
A year later an anonymous girl found out about me on youtube about when i was having a delusion by an apartment and went upstairs to check it out. And so her comment was about how she couldnt stop thinking about me walking upstairs....i commented on the video about something and she followed her comment right after (i can show you a pic of it if you want) except i deleted my comment from there and called her an alien bitch haha.    
How did she know about me is there some connection to the soul or something like that i wondered throughout this year. Any simliar experiences?",5.122013937282233,6.185602668292685,4.741202090592335,87.15103658536587,68.65853658536585,6.832752613240419,32.20383275261324,6.5431188927421005,1.7228466898954702,837,36,163,5,14,254,120,205,0.059000000000000004,0.8640000000000001,0.077,0.156,2,0,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,3,1,0,15,9,2,0,14,1,15,3,1,2,2,32,26,17,0,4,7,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,0,1,6,10,0,1,7,4,1,3,5,4,0,1,11,3,27,5,31,14,2,29,1,1,0,0,16,15,1,7,12,118,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12782070413353236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14453128733596826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15994194137509032,0.21176897152658772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1919303655281264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18386304497099265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18047313565266304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41218158066164695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032990792870941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1327632217528869,0.09182880973886448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12736801398735387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303092847394709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16051864486867473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711136774929849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.289404884524742,0.0,0.0,0.13304057370529712,0.0,0.0,0.15714476965312818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35430419454615714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12043855297203378,0.0,0.0,0.10960223833270252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11086494308429022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17424279157750194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20383692838310968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3631243765019527
schizophrenia,sensingnonsense,2020/03/24,"I’m starting to feel like I’m a targeted individual, and it freaks me out. I recently read about targeted individuals, and this has made me cycle between me thinking maybe I am one and saying no no that can’t be true. 

People have never treated me well since age 10 and it seems there was a collective systematic approach to hurting me and still is. Sometimes it’s unbearable because of how much it hurts. The abuse of others has been part of the catalyst to my mental health issues. Sometimes I can barely trust strangers on the street now. And now I’m reading about mind thought implants and I think what if that’s why things are the way they are in my head. That people were payed off to torture me and I’m being thought implanted and electronically harassed in my sleep. Everything gets worse at night I get so scared.

My psychiatrist doesn’t fully think I have schizophrenia, even though my last psychiatrist diagnosed me with it. She thinks maybe very bad complex ptsd, and that’s what causes the voices. But she doesn’t know I have these thoughts now? I’m afraid everything’s coming back like thoughts about being followed and cameras. I don’t want to be seen as crazy or weak, I just got out of the hospital! I’m fine most days but I start getting these paranoid thoughts and i think something is wrong.",3.880982608695653,6.290137460000004,4.13073043478261,84.80719130434784,74.4,7.067826086956522,28.069565217391304,8.04050195162591,1.8991913043478257,1055,43,198,17,23,328,151,250,0.14,0.8190000000000001,0.040999999999999995,-0.966,1,0,1,0,1,0,20.0,0,0,1,0,15,17,2,2,8,0,22,5,2,3,2,43,52,20,0,2,5,0,1,2,0,0,3,2,0,0,16,16,0,0,14,2,1,3,7,10,1,1,11,4,26,7,22,37,3,25,0,2,1,0,4,8,0,4,15,129,42,3,0.0,0.1272216663309732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08256464941358392,0.08965353382966379,0.06545472590931126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11030357225011364,0.0,0.09249394539225106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.069247910126312,0.0,0.0,0.10898323578185294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07092009088150036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19300322440216364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05429196199799954,0.07670863066248887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16829681808543492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08587749474863964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11019759725878282,0.11413446882950175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298940444634065,0.0,0.0,0.11207147045182082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059010422056639575,0.08752485255625289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10491587838046228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10160070096467384,0.0,0.0,0.2157449840068807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10820861705515633,0.0,0.10841801250509626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07893288630117495,0.0,0.08281412144029297,0.0,0.0,0.10076404445406953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07275999276838432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162765237581736,0.0,0.1488804342389859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12551548042155988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148078601540769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10601973319891772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08538880865105207,0.10750097948244007,0.0,0.0,0.0977500515804336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08882160445371239,0.0,0.10745241776057424,0.0,0.0,0.08266242302893273,0.21239298975572704,0.0,0.15200097540439364,0.0,0.08574971220890076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07133509441109713,0.3440074147717308,0.1054952674635406,0.4262182760101905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08859551535837952,0.06333248203023098,0.08522917622820703,0.0,0.0,0.09654290595127277,0.0,0.09688912170951706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10942416878884527,0.0,0.11739756753878465,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,caspiantheghost,2020/03/25,Tactile Hulucinations Since my last episode of psychosis in October of last year I have started to have a tactile hulucination that persists unless I am sleeping. I usually describe it as feeling like those pictures of girls with galaxies over their heads but sometimes the sensation changes and it will feel like there are tendrils coming out of my head. Does anyone else experience tactile hulucinations? What do they feel like?,7.792916666666668,10.724521347222227,7.1177777777777775,65.405,64.69444444444444,9.244444444444444,42.55555555555557,9.725611199111238,5.019038888888889,355,22,49,8,6,110,57,72,0.0,0.867,0.133,0.8343,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,1,1,3,0,0,2,0,6,3,3,0,0,9,11,4,0,0,2,0,3,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,5,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,7,3,11,10,0,9,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,8,34,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135762075110274,0.19894116698759404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20539687978059545,0.16725274269431908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16991183662257034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16219682763381799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18992697959865304,0.0,0.0,0.2945213174304243,0.4161265522478725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3985309590091181,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31653470033889564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2845721685387099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16061220972240978,0.0,0.19430149188011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19203046164288626,0.0,0.13742834690845845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2138412090341867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12503349265307895
schizophrenia,khunter1225,2020/03/25,"Advice? Hey, I hope this is an appropriate post for this subreddit. I'm just looking for a little bit of guidance. My mother had her first break at an older age due to a series of stressful events. Her primary symptom is persecutory delusional beliefs. I work in the field and have tried everything to convince her to seek treatment, but she can't see that her beliefs are not based in reality and becomes incredibly angry when her beliefs are challenged. Her entire family has abandoned her except for me. She literally has no one else. I have had a crisis team and PD out to assess her but she can't be involuntary hospitalized at this time as she denies SI/HI and is not GD. Does anyone have any insight on what has been helpful for you or someone you know in getting relief from delusions? Any advice is super appreciated. Thank you!",4.708461538461535,6.841651605095542,6.030828025477708,73.33488486036258,71.16560509554141,8.142871141597258,30.548260656540908,8.841846274778883,2.8094844683978453,670,29,112,13,13,225,107,157,0.139,0.728,0.133,-0.2713,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,3,0,5,2,8,0,1,6,0,18,1,0,0,0,19,25,9,0,1,7,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,5,0,1,5,1,0,0,5,2,0,2,3,2,20,6,20,21,1,17,3,1,2,0,19,8,0,2,7,83,25,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.403376831364582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2807135965676805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14431733524393311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279488819568717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2253316833547671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1806190975488132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1724179151660649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18549599869129865,0.0,0.1945723909047973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17556088335252695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10783372987342896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13834332250096784,0.0,0.0,0.2049984420605259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11343020000311127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20686366364273556,0.0,0.0,0.17332120199737905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13985971027323224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19767093548255746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1644714061933093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17487921006945906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364266629445429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2145251451388985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19002230321583324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12035154524770643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14012977576140254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502592179175004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Phenoix512,2020/03/25,"A question for those who experience hallucinations. Hi 

I'm wanting to ask how you handled your early hallucinations in particular did you tell others or hide it or did you try to ignore it?

How did you feel when you started to experience them? (If you feel comfortable)

Thank you for your time!",4.554444444444441,7.156759629629632,6.103481481481483,70.53966666666669,73.07407407407408,8.764444444444445,29.31851851851852,9.3871,2.9998340740740734,236,10,41,6,5,80,36,54,0.086,0.87,0.044000000000000004,-0.3296,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,9,1,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,0,10,10,6,0,2,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,10,2,6,7,0,5,0,0,0,0,15,1,0,4,4,31,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2921396443454257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6113580599110013,0.0,0.0,0.3160126444510209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3500647232399809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2211848146068423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27313347170309965,0.2877024291843269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822177256978299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121628682808813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18431701848201296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,MiamiNat,2020/03/25,"Happy Birthday to my aunt who has schizophrenia My aunt has schizophrenia. As far as I know, she was diagnosed around 8 years old, in Cuba (not exactly a third world country, but definitely around the time doctors were advising patients to smoke cigarettes to calm their nerves). 

She emigrated to the US with her mom, my grandma, and they spent most of her life cohabiting. My grandma passed ~1.5 years ago. My aunt is living alone in an ALF now. I know it could be much worse, but her mom, her BFF, her rock, is gone. 

Today is my aunt’s birthday. My city has a Shelter In Place order, so no one can go see her. I called her for a quick minute to wish her a happy birthday in between my kids’ nap times, and now I’m crying. 

She’s completely isolated from family, on her birthday, and there’s nothing I can do about it. My mom (her older sister) passed by to drop off a birthday cake in her favorite flavor. 

I don’t really know what I’m doing here, or with this post, I just wanted to feel more connected to this community I guess.",3.944646962233168,5.242699950738917,4.859428571428573,84.32723809523813,71.66009852216749,7.974909688013136,26.83382594417077,8.447377352677275,1.742453136288998,802,27,162,13,15,261,125,203,0.094,0.779,0.127,0.8504,0,1,2,0,0,0,33.0,1,0,2,0,10,3,0,0,8,0,15,3,0,0,1,22,28,9,0,3,5,8,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,6,7,0,0,4,2,1,4,3,0,0,2,4,3,33,3,27,22,3,30,0,0,1,0,29,12,0,3,11,109,39,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12689789187778752,0.0,0.0,0.1482649648952745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25487584173895506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1461768250953452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15009484659363526,0.0,0.0,0.11429727827650295,0.0,0.1572485768731086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452988786339432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14652477186671353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13495339138286574,0.0,0.0723832536311932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08135804306896023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1577009020035651,0.0,0.0,0.30478141069290504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2360220291965255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10111430878519484,0.0,0.0,0.12640811103691016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5029827186276967,0.0,0.0,0.10523508303477043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13736067408982286,0.0,0.15021664360554693,0.0,0.09700524381402538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1495660603186362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13710250975045735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09170848541062086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11407566072493948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166949165951231,0.0,0.13569379697046285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17219732565793114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08443627640600104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16462069453114692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14588674034505006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843737035416406
schizophrenia,ComradeALat,2020/03/25,"Any experience with tryhexyphenidyl(aka Trihex, Benzhexol) ? I tend to abuse it lately, I take it for akathisia and other potential extrapyramidal symptoms. 
Why and how much do you take it?
Any experience with abuse?",7.062647058823528,10.9822785,6.119117647058829,66.33102941176475,72.82352941176471,10.458823529411768,32.029411764705884,10.125756701596842,4.704435294117649,175,8,24,6,4,53,25,34,0.23,0.77,0.0,-0.8732,0,0,0,0,2,0,8.0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,5,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,4,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,16,7,0,0.0,0.5703640772330817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3273592078564584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4708881958035666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715123706718424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1769371686320728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25017235515711755,0.3619426064869632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2171881413422362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,LaserrGirl,2020/03/25,"Friend is spiraling into a psychotic episode and I have to social distance Greetings! I have this friend who as far as I know has shizophrenia and has had a psychosis in the past but that had gotten better. He talked about that phase being over and he seemed to really be fine, he said he had a job and would be looking for a new place. Then some problems arised and he got into a mental health clinic, first it seemed like a misunderstanding because he seemed normal, just upset but as soon as he got out he really began spiraling. That's also the time when I started to isolate myself bc of corona. I'm in the high risk group. So I can't talk to him in person, we talked on the phone but I didn't want to talk to somebody that wasn't taking this coronavirus serious, it really hurt me as someone thats really threatend by it. So we fought and don't talk anymore.

The thing is, I am not expert on shizophrenia or psychosis but I've known him for a long time and he's definitely not doing good at all at the moment. You can't through to him and he says incoherent stuff most of the time, at weird times, etc. I know he needs help. A lot of people know it at this point. Also, as far as I know he's not isolating at all so I'm afraid for his health. What I am most concerned of is, if we go on full lockdown eventually, he will most likely be wandering around and get in big trouble.

Is there anything I can do? Last time he was in a clinic his mom brought him there. They can't hold him there though. But I still feel like she needs to know.. on the other hand, he is too old for me or anyone else to be making his decisions for him. I feel like it's not my place. I also can't get personally active, like talk to him or anything because he keeps saying really hurtful stuff about this whole Corona situation and I definitely draw my line there, I am not willing to get yelled at for not wanting to die. So I feel really helpless, like it's my duty to do something but I cant.

  


Looking forward to your replies. I'm really confused as to what is the right thing.",2.9728497743391347,4.353945352245862,4.417128734150012,86.22454545454548,74.20094562647753,7.491338921126156,24.165699548678273,8.101407402915765,1.247490780141845,1616,48,341,25,33,538,193,423,0.11599999999999999,0.777,0.107,-0.5934,2,1,1,0,0,0,40.0,3,2,1,2,20,23,1,4,18,0,37,5,1,1,2,66,72,38,1,8,17,1,4,6,2,3,4,4,0,2,23,17,0,3,13,0,0,3,14,12,0,1,13,10,41,11,57,51,10,50,0,3,2,0,53,30,0,13,25,231,64,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18808176278612804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07774859483803999,0.054816890114316494,0.08032682235532176,0.12902783134751425,0.0697898045817436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09557996638802244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0693356300416064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08136353785949188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06549049629708323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08743319471528158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11891938658711265,0.11201342971858554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06668430812446262,0.0,0.0,0.12113840108434475,0.0,0.12287733232665415,0.0,0.044554728201750916,0.06575554600336912,0.12540222187982453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16666434001347974,0.0,0.0,0.05254774622027815,0.08283056086301238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1678508674305909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07779676228366032,0.06968270940198808,0.0,0.0,0.2154242523500615,0.0639038843202399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298044027348358,0.0,0.0,0.06937873230600887,0.13166719394191398,0.0,0.0,0.06665018594198954,0.0,0.0,0.05233049637698572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07900557092971458,0.0,0.0,0.0918174260887746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162605201418904,0.0,0.07571615213078482,0.0,0.0,0.07681225344734131,0.0,0.0,0.08226429096323598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483865015622418,0.054350494569759454,0.13690618549233458,0.1638160141107407,0.0,0.07411034952988099,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0750151837339613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3515611414670757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0669504690607626,0.07457334314023124,0.12468862022413316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141086036498754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08812132766480421,0.0,0.07991570092276426,0.06642538420940669,0.06035371399770801,0.0,0.0,0.05548968358765924,0.0,0.06260781400310943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17949124046118572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058944663598576315,0.37807443995049617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10416674779978184,0.0,0.07702449271754004,0.0,0.2285691258011588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0924809693971753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08752726698842447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05569086253825538,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,pervitinaddict69,2020/03/25,"Adrenochrome Abram Hoffer was a psychiatrist who believed schizophrenia was caused by adrenochrome, a metabolite of adrenaline formed from oxidation of adrenaline. The idea is that schizophrenics have a biological disability to properly metabolise adrenaline, leaving adrenochrome which is known to cause psychotic symptoms. He believed that it could be treated with megadoses of Vitamin C and Niacin, I was interested personally in what actual schizophrenic people think of this. I know antipsychotics are commonly spoken of on here and I'm not criticizing people for using them, if that's how this came across.",13.45442105263158,14.331272968421054,10.94842105263158,50.40894736842107,50.89473684210528,15.6,49.526315789473685,14.265292616868653,7.928115789473685,512,29,64,19,5,154,73,95,0.0,0.9229999999999999,0.077,0.7193,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,4,0,9,4,0,4,0,15,14,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,1,9,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,0,3,2,14,8,1,5,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,1,46,12,1,0.0,0.0,0.21921964264083188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5061925758924912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569323087428941,0.0,0.4615414936523076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17935954867825699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535951583773292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12345818807806765,0.0,0.0,0.2378650217017697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3114790237185401,0.19615003200867134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23349060228498614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14394247874510696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940198498335956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Rynn3,2020/03/25,What keeps you busy when you can’t concentrate? I’m a musician but I can’t bring myself to practice anything because it feels counterproductive and it doesn’t help. What kind of pastimes do you guys find yourselves going back to?,4.537558139534884,7.154146418604653,4.518779069767444,81.8121220930233,73.18604651162791,7.090697674418602,29.3546511627907,8.07648339933343,2.1758883720930244,188,8,33,3,4,58,34,43,0.0,0.902,0.098,0.6007,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,9,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,3,9,0,4,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,21,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32635298844877464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3049468854288039,0.0,0.2417525532344421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.200523648228379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3624685338759829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22538654717061465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3926782819757469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2658203867512489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35250008031673313,0.0,0.4129788639102833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,wintersoilder2003,2020/03/25,"I Need Advice from Parents, Teens, and/or Anyone Who's Been In My Shoes Hello! I'm new to this sub, but I need some advice. I'm 16 and I have psychosis/schizophrenia (doctors say it's one or the other). A good handful of my triggers, delusions, disturbing thoughts, etc. come from horror movies/online videos. In fact, it was a horror movie that triggered me so bad that my mom started to get me professional help. They left scars on me that have affected me deeply. I would do anything to go back and not watch them. 

My dilemma is that my mom is now VERY strict with what I do. She's hesitant about me listening to angry or 'scary' music (like about killing, being angry, s\*lf h\*rm, etc.), television shows (she checks every show we watch for anything about death or gore), I can't watch any horror movies, and now it's come to a head when I got an Xbox Membership. A lot of the games that are on there, that I'm excited to play, are survival or horror based. Like Blair Witch, Resident Evil, Prey, The Evil Within, etc.

I've been very careful about testing the waters. I watched a few Let's Play videos of horror games, a livestream of Outlast (a game that I want to buy), and so on. I'm not diving into this head first. 

However, my mom is very set in the fact that I should not be doing anything horror related. No movies, no shows, no games. I've been doing really great on evaluating on what I let myself see and do, but now that I'm ready to test the waters, she's shutting it down completely. 

Is she right or am I? I do realize that I've worked really hard on healing and getting myself to a safe place in life, but I don't want to go through life always shying away at anything scary. Does anyone have any advice, whether you're a parent, a teenager like myself, or someone who went through something similar/teenage hood with schizophrenia/psychosis? 

It's so frustrating that, as a teenager, I'm having these things taken away from me. I wish I could be 'normal' and do regular stuff like play horror games or watch scary movies. I don't want to upset my mom, I see where she's coming from, but it's kind of irritating to have limits on what I do. 

Thank you for taking the time to read and I hope you have a great day! <3",4.474371708051166,5.316762686230252,4.8990225733634345,86.24006132430401,69.99322799097065,7.712535741158768,26.73054928517683,7.793537801064563,1.3914810233258097,1742,53,356,20,30,553,209,443,0.23,0.639,0.131,-0.9962,3,0,1,0,0,0,79.0,1,2,2,4,14,24,4,2,20,0,36,10,4,3,2,52,67,25,2,11,15,6,2,4,0,2,4,2,0,0,28,15,2,2,2,15,2,6,9,8,0,2,8,11,46,16,50,51,6,39,0,0,7,0,27,22,0,10,14,224,74,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24794541755759336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07037552646622895,0.0,0.0,0.11503164370251046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11827756468414115,0.0,0.2784013765909413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15892730296945345,0.06503512737391773,0.07061895173716737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08623273023473628,0.0,0.0,0.21856892372069706,0.0886782412062847,0.0,0.0,0.06752851175275046,0.0,0.0,0.054545700701556704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08656898859073324,0.07401462533039331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829798987660093,0.0,0.0,0.0712604660606383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07194185543141945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08837684633435516,0.0,0.0961350550145603,0.07093986752564144,0.06764461363547981,0.18649470309342148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07576511915198676,0.0,0.1736024999785326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056690733819571036,0.0,0.0,0.08400486486941737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09357283301659212,0.08807479039956187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09189405521909846,0.17297311443718802,0.11947963927284486,0.1652818140083385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07190504297602289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3962261095329849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254267723197872,0.0,0.08168579120967194,0.0,0.0,0.08286831172569373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0573121236634075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878273329128191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836582650381401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0846007137755779,0.0,0.10836544191186027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07222900112040292,0.0,0.06725968179324225,0.0,0.0,0.13479515369265785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07166251734741437,0.06511214241090002,0.0,0.0,0.05986462043135669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09682137549034388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06359199917239304,0.0,0.0,0.07786789862094902,0.0,0.0,0.05618974929593622,0.0,0.0,0.06714534626208654,0.049318010389435694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2093566920109323,0.1496585790043254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07840449187924564,0.0,0.0,0.09726032564397318,0.0,0.0,0.06157366451017787,0.0,0.0,0.06008166080242298,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,CoffeeMakesMeTinkle,2020/03/25,"I’m beginning to wonder if I may be developing schizophrenia Hell, r/schizophrenia Redditor! I wanted to share some odd experiences I have lately and hold it up next y’alls and see if maybe this is something I may need to look into, research, and possibly get help for later. (Like one this Corona stuff chills)     

I’m 23, female, caucasian, (idk if that is relevant here) I have had a couple off happenings lately, most of which is not really good or bad. The earliest example I can think of is about a year ago I was taking a shower. I had been in there for longer than usual when I suddenly became aware that the top corner of the shower where the wall and ceiling joined near the shower head was singing. It was a kind of pleasant song, like each individual stream of water had a tiny voice in a chorus. It caught my attention, and I immediately could tell you it wasn’t real, but the awareness of that did not change its song. Looking and listening to other things did not make it go away. After a bit I got out of the shower, turned off the water, and it stopped.      

Since then I have had small things here and there. A month ago I was home alone playing video games at night (hubs works night shift) and I heard a deep male’s voice go “dude!” It startled me, but once I sweeped the house and knew I was still alone I was no longer worried.      

Are small things here and there normal for a person to experience? Does schizophrenia have to be a big thing? Can I -kind of- have it? Can it even be schizophrenia if I am aware that what I am hearing is real? I’d love to hear your experiences with this!",4.131086956521738,5.420299372611467,4.6534561063417375,86.01562309609528,71.19745222929936,7.626474660758793,24.480199390750485,8.04050195162591,1.193662586541124,1249,34,256,17,23,397,178,314,0.084,0.861,0.055,-0.8349,4,2,1,0,0,0,39.0,0,3,0,2,11,12,1,1,20,0,36,4,1,1,0,42,61,20,0,8,10,0,0,2,0,2,0,8,6,2,25,15,2,2,4,7,0,3,5,3,0,1,18,11,25,9,32,37,4,39,1,0,3,1,14,18,1,10,20,175,50,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19077476532043025,0.0,0.0,0.2228974292999183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10110060466026173,0.0,0.08984760437888671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11747930631153528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1138342597914706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08591567644387542,0.11906543554857008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09416787719657883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0710736096598506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3157817756550693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0562203751993934,0.0,0.12231142175599202,0.09025590150157796,0.08606339140948316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09515678386526556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11043613897944372,0.0,0.24256250534443194,0.0,0.07212690784659191,0.0,0.10793890003445653,0.0,0.0,0.12416438159597858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241128968616044,0.0,0.0,0.24277145272034825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1051429869089246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807260681373045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09711979345282336,0.0,0.07182871124342735,0.0,0.1081060006324357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08589112370504816,0.0,0.0,0.0797894526943099,0.0,0.0,0.11444158896306425,0.20196433124268612,0.1054323110768826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145982672188537,0.07291749433195732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09395854755825306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12131106736914735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2449613411930185,0.06893599461428787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08574908960872481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08901387414820032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08284136011207995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08593533226238027,0.08996452477948204,0.0,0.0,0.12318461866798865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08090730098301006,0.0,0.09405352699288792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28595804614488657,0.06895041564014158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11704584692627484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11851424310496995,0.0,0.06346957611951261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11669553135604938,0.07833939916948797,0.10928044095848002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06929557596254278
schizophrenia,roshippy,2020/03/25,"Tell me about your experience in therapy Hi! I want to know about your experience with therapy. What made it good? What made it bad? What aspects of it were helpful? 
I also want to know what your go to coping strategies or ways to deal with voices, delusions, paranoia, etc. 

If you respond - thanks! Either way, I hope you all have a wonderful day. 🙂",1.2095454545454558,3.8592993484848535,2.717333333333336,87.33600000000001,93.3939393939394,5.670303030303031,23.266666666666666,7.1686216300943375,1.3292775757575772,271,11,51,5,10,88,46,66,0.07200000000000001,0.68,0.248,0.9086,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,5,0,0,3,4,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,1,14,12,3,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,2,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,3,1,9,3,10,9,3,5,0,0,0,0,10,1,0,4,1,35,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15370593716667838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16048280006718835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12395605662333135,0.19815448743908656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21435891923988634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3760259305568673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10923429500037404,0.16121208679622065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12883068181313878,0.0,0.0,0.19090252123375176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21126122664141292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.363737251240509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1679952790322862,0.17695615834893316,0.4396053874399767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22673448814024225,0.3051261063397573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2084376735118381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Walt_Princess,2020/03/25,Word salad Does anyone here with schizophrenia not have a problem with word salad\incohetent speach?,12.759999999999998,15.545866333333333,7.56666666666667,67.53000000000003,52.33333333333334,8.666666666666668,35.0,8.841846274778883,3.337,85,3,10,1,1,22,13,15,0.0,0.852,0.14800000000000002,0.3089,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4746291710206952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5940179840155628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6495150380724792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,truemoishe,2020/03/26,"Study on imperative hallucinations Hi!  
I do research on imperative (ordering) hallucinations. If you hear voices, and you want to contribute to the study, please take this very quick (5 min) survey.

[https://forms.gle/dSHMZFfpb94mpgCa8](https://forms.gle/dSHMZFfpb94mpgCa8)

Thank you for participation. Wish you remission!",13.219642857142858,18.71041625,11.713571428571427,21.26000000000002,74.0,11.285714285714285,30.714285714285715,9.606745405546679,5.38767857142857,270,10,28,9,7,85,32,40,0.0,0.789,0.21100000000000002,0.8118,0,0,0,0,0,0,25.0,0,4,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,6,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,5,1,5,6,0,5,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,2,16,6,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.45121697956519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4394576813089897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30100899495976896,0.0,0.0,0.3685831269430591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3303258704997096,0.2361333660391036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4603760418380084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Zaphr00n,2020/03/26,"Got diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia today I don't know how to feel about my diagnosis...

I'm scared but also happy that i have a way to explain my troubles to other people.",4.046372549019608,6.318515205882356,5.488823529411764,75.89637254901962,73.41176470588233,6.886274509803924,28.98039215686275,7.793537801064563,2.234933333333334,143,6,23,2,3,48,29,34,0.19899999999999998,0.667,0.135,-0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,6,7,3,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,4,1,5,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,17,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3020043224326734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3833039497461808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1909497669435867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3020389576003174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4020124574468401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2075450200044935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26181301222307857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3780907195642622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35796538021377583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29975876241440064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,xshadowangelx,2020/03/26,"Is schizophrenia becoming more common? Hello, I never knew much about this condition until being diagnosed myself. I started to read up on the topic and discuss it openly amongst my peers and what I found was surprising. Data shows that only 1% of people have schizophrenia. Yet I was able to meet several people in my community who had it. Several my age, all men. I did not expect so many were affected by this. I feel a sudden change happening. Either more people are being hospitalized for it or more people are overcoming their fears of seeking treatment. Thoughts?",4.931584158415841,7.874632702970299,5.75692079207921,71.77755940594061,73.45544554455445,8.396435643564358,28.911881188118812,9.120678840339163,3.2242150495049517,457,19,66,11,10,149,78,101,0.051,0.927,0.021,-0.4448,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,2,0,11,1,0,1,2,14,17,5,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,8,3,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,8,1,11,1,11,7,6,11,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,1,7,56,19,1,0.19786070721867946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21852160599675866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20931039284383954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2008244528917925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22264830417200954,0.1000443186188252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21694405282685766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17496756994845794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20059970165374932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454503859504878,0.0,0.15260237513273192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504819837847436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5486868055961199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1979142511360554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4470525606918154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14004682695285248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15707930027616626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,IalbaSsort,2020/03/26,"Teenage years/first experience/how to know if I'm developing it. I haven't shown many signs of schizophrenia throughout my life, and I've went to a mental hospital recently where they screened me extensively for all types of mental illness (though never explicitly tested me) and the only thing they said I might potentially have is bi-polar/depressive disorder. Which, I myself, am not confident I have because... well I show almost no symptoms.
 
However, I spoke to my mom about this behavior she has Whenever shes even a little upset she'll start acting insanely. Rambling, talking to herself, making stupid retarded looking faces, using words that aren't words but rather mixes of 2 existing words that she wont accept aren't words. For example, calling covid-19, corvid-19, insisting it always was that, and im retarded for thinking it was covid-19. Other stuff such as refusing to believe anything I say about my childhood, and her completely fabricating and dramatizing stories, making a mundane situation as full of stakes and as mellow dramatic as Caesar. If you tried speaking to her when she got upset she'd cover her ears and yell ""I CAN'T THINK""... She is also a narcissist. 

I eventually got her to tell me about the voices she heard. The voices of ""God"" telling her to do certain things. Check on people, check on me, and that the shadows are moving and she needs a gun to protect herself. And when shes angry, the voices would tell her that they're trying to take her house, or to hurt her family, so he must murder them. She always says ""Something told me do this."" or ""God told me to do this"" when its really just schizophrenic hallucinations, and her believing she is the ""cup god drinks of"" is just mild religious mania.

This being said, I'm pretty sure i've went through every symptom besides visual hallucinations, which if she has, she hasn't told me. She got a diagnosis and was prescribed seroquel; which whenever she takes she describes as ""my friends leaving me"".


I wrote all of that about my mom to point out, how crazy and terrifying it is to know that, there is a 1 in 10 chance that could be me. My cousin on her side is also schizophrenic, it not being genetic is like 1 in 100,000.

I'm scared... previous to this I was going to do quite the bit of psychedelics but I dont think a life of sharing my headspace to tenants who don't pay rent is worth it.

Is there anything you guys noticed around my age?

**tl;dr my mom has been crazy my whole life, figured out is Schizophrenia, its 100% a genetic factor, and im terrified that I have the gene and will decent into madness later in life. Is there anything you noticed around the age of 17**",4.779397590361449,6.770750142570282,5.354255020080323,78.85005722891567,70.66666666666667,8.353493975903616,30.12068273092369,8.982922981607832,2.674672128514056,2113,88,374,42,40,679,252,498,0.129,0.8,0.07200000000000001,-0.9857,2,0,2,1,0,0,87.0,0,3,3,1,24,14,3,3,18,0,49,12,2,4,7,62,79,35,1,8,12,4,0,1,1,6,9,12,2,1,30,20,1,2,7,2,5,5,12,7,1,0,18,14,68,7,51,50,5,31,0,1,2,0,61,16,0,7,11,260,98,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08415882166474459,0.0,0.0,0.13442134366646635,0.1398641699779406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2074853614574382,0.14963554946205554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051232987661129874,0.0,0.0,0.1893796315497895,0.0,0.0,0.09175525744749784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08581923415151854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08811947294896894,0.0,0.0,0.06710300952900386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07238774455192364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09632273050001502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09849999051725812,0.08233200046554677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0555108602256211,0.0,0.07081144851253891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07923004680853804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07148854439772444,0.0,0.0,0.06493287707224987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047764650406726915,0.0,0.20165513953515365,0.0,0.0,0.08321765915641599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969765242649354,0.0899717979086782,0.0,0.18156581665135801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923777521975936,0.0,0.0,0.08899140823833654,0.0,0.0,0.23745357818643464,0.041060090221523515,0.08423506375793577,0.0,0.0,0.07057654420191349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122012395065619,0.08520833173908132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16939497233846368,0.08915835164772755,0.0,0.29529709429605216,0.0,0.08932642221545438,0.0,0.06231822440410935,0.06482060390561165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19137133905652048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06391992953816952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058266147664553576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944959109134447,0.0,0.0,0.08550387247565502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08939209067930443,0.0,0.0,0.053841311562223916,0.0,0.08298419414882534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15989188167077864,0.13367174697451772,0.08414360122772656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09446998285404412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06470186591183864,0.0,0.0,0.059487408962361876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09621129673237884,0.0,0.0,0.07921131851376062,0.1747096513737117,0.12638260242007154,0.06755210270158205,0.22037682688198465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116713869318754,0.16155772459354314,0.08257368220830494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2409254953159209,0.0,0.11412193313981756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07258780437474383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07556645361595747,0.15582091857593575,0.0,0.09383312338541096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05970308174575099,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,soyjackcringecomp,2020/03/26,"Why isn’t there a branch of psychology that studies delusions hallucinations etc and their origin As far as I know mainstream psychology doesn’t really focus on the underlying mechanisms behind these symptoms, only how to treat them with medicine therapy etc. With technology being as good as it is, you’d think they’d be able to see what exactly’s going on in the brain of a person with psychosis, or at least come up with good theories.",19.63703703703704,9.456135481481487,17.5408024691358,41.43861111111113,52.20987654320986,21.138271604938268,59.01851851851853,15.903189008614273,8.305488888888886,358,15,59,10,2,119,64,81,0.0,0.892,0.10800000000000001,0.8176,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,3,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,7,2,1,2,1,12,12,7,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,4,6,0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,5,3,19,8,3,10,0,0,1,0,5,7,0,1,1,44,9,0,0.23972009000615685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26760690064057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064976312729166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5347025350017522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13623845150214098,0.402131676109058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13174389224542712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18231793065065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20931433615846365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1535708280416651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910258750702272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24916096069951785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2741408147350431,0.0,0.0,0.15360295420295356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21631009515575025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,sepi556,2020/03/26,Melatonin/risperidone/benzos Can melatonin help you reduce risperidone and benzos?,14.470909090909094,19.461208818181824,8.009090909090908,57.23363636363638,51.72727272727273,4.4,47.36363636363637,3.1291,4.491472727272726,71,4,4,0,1,18,8,11,0.0,0.748,0.252,0.4019,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,rfecdx,2020/03/26,Worst part of my hallucinations is that they seem so real So I hallucinate voices of people that are in rooms near me talking about me in awful ways and plotting to kill me. I wish it would be something completely illogical like shit I’ve never seen or voices I don’t know but it’s always voices I know are within earshot anyway like it would be so much to know they’re hallucinations but the worst part is unable to switch off the what if I’m right and shits about to go down mentality? I’m constantly gearing up for a fight in my room expecting shit to go down and hearing planning and wanting to confront it it’s hectic guys,2.3682967032967035,4.805940579365082,4.016984126984127,83.52587912087914,79.71428571428571,6.416605616605617,23.184371184371184,7.61054688173877,1.1807125763125759,507,17,98,8,13,169,78,126,0.217,0.73,0.053,-0.9749,0,0,1,0,1,1,2.0,0,0,1,1,6,10,6,0,3,1,9,3,3,0,1,19,21,11,1,6,4,0,0,2,0,2,0,4,2,1,8,4,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,8,0,0,1,5,10,2,20,16,5,17,0,0,1,0,5,12,3,3,4,68,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375094482889005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1732718266677241,0.1785872069122136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1878419820080338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636332507503152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18625988117295444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18283555788553205,0.0,0.2724675034541731,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16147524713283434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665430767068474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12148501751250344,0.0,0.12745859761252415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3579206636675206,0.0,0.11457038383077026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1881019089813196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1411310237130677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504463764670458,0.0,0.0,0.5089106368184425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12722511971726005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13282962140646548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09747455147143644,0.13117559045228844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1900406915764876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347917363911053,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,titlewavejr1,2020/03/26,im sorry that a whole bunch of you are going thru this beaches that aren't sued are coffee for asphalt flu-print,8.42875,5.260827708333338,8.028333333333332,80.25000000000004,63.58333333333334,9.6,32.333333333333336,3.1291,1.6298833333333331,91,2,19,0,1,29,21,24,0.064,0.9359999999999999,0.0,-0.0772,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,4,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28454052595410984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5408061456050034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5604555823080933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5589766920233029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Idubbzretardedson,2020/03/26,Help! I think my friend has come down with schizophrenia. He says he talks to demons. Does anyone have tips? I wanna help him but I fint know where to start...,-0.6795852534562208,0.6582560645161308,-0.9209216589861741,109.55290322580645,117.38709677419355,1.7714285714285716,7.654377880184332,3.1291,-2.669704147465438,122,1,28,0,7,34,26,31,0.0,0.804,0.196,0.6239,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,6,6,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,5,6,0,4,1,0,0,0,8,2,0,0,1,14,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26652233494808186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32834347495906285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3335636951275314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2944903426803911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.510979298157232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20948059848359785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031210100964057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2697934889132045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3063693273784053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442378028071374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,charleybeanman,2020/03/26,"Tell me if these are sympoms It could be from my Prozac (20mg daily for depression)

I am currently sitting in my room. Everything is scary. I did not want to come here. Last night I could see this thing - like a tall hunched over man standing there looking at me. I tried to hide under my covers from him but he pulled them away... at least thats what it felt like... to a certain extent I knew it wasn't real. During the day I'm fine, but I often get really loud thoughts of ""you should kill yourself"" or ""youre worthless"" and whenever alone I feel like I'm being watched. I currently feel like he's watching me write this. I keep seeing things out of the corner of my eyes. Bugs mostly. But that guy from last night was too much

I took no hallucinative drugs",1.8635294117647088,4.010847901960787,2.8873464052287585,92.52905882352941,79.78431372549021,5.910065359477124,21.31111111111111,7.0316486544052195,0.4425315032679742,591,17,127,7,15,188,110,153,0.13,0.785,0.084,-0.7998,2,1,1,0,0,0,23.0,0,2,1,0,4,9,1,0,4,0,11,3,1,0,1,24,26,6,1,5,6,0,3,4,0,1,2,1,1,2,11,3,0,1,5,0,0,3,3,3,0,0,7,10,21,6,17,14,4,22,0,2,6,0,10,10,0,4,11,79,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17141863534761692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555022661150748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425723682289881,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26429282844998553,0.0,0.0,0.10674037635379703,0.0,0.14255367894098486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19193926741574796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14874988120656274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16737384409383202,0.2364810170173593,0.15891573208750462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08647223995072388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16388110361823374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14711305625858426,0.18311249620443495,0.0,0.0,0.2698257805939244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3234396626090979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13898686974156374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12166902907409953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106401914033023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1883868241644391,0.10603006199063623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26378037591900594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14466319595868934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21991522374567507,0.0,0.0,0.13139659841635495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18388790431569116,0.1123705505513348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09762219473477377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,twistedT42,2020/03/26,My friends need help! I don’t know what to do for him... He says people have been playing bets on him for a long time now for crazy amounts of money. He said his daughter has the 220 billions that was suppose to go to him... today he told me that some guys broke into his house last night and his black momba snake named bill bit one of the and they guy is in urgent  care in the hospital... He said insulation was all of the yard.. I have no idea with this guy anymore it seems like he just tells me fairy tales not really sure how to help him...,1.6845132743362825,3.3831320088495573,2.496646017699117,97.28939380530971,78.46902654867256,5.5819469026548685,19.264601769911504,6.2581,-0.303781592920354,419,9,99,3,10,131,83,113,0.076,0.78,0.14400000000000002,0.8183,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,0,3,6,0,0,5,0,9,0,0,1,2,16,17,3,0,1,2,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,3,5,4,0,0,3,2,3,1,3,1,0,2,6,4,13,5,15,11,4,11,0,1,1,0,26,4,0,3,7,58,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17807794711930494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19603596058904169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18307613849503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387296955485332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10204961966392273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5333859073972116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2407141837648998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20719124568683275,0.0,0.20270443032331756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09868296320499044,0.14636756530974682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0877252644956595,0.0,0.0,0.1589073377921556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1331434658145159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16850742876746033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12167633172096524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448616618812824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503246271761475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3416104917111236,0.1427954650814371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16346713694301554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16923571843558766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15694571316197606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10470445358482476,0.0,0.17020444260012427,0.1715798535456207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,PapaChadams,2020/03/26,"Need somewhere to vent (Sorry I'm quite drunk) I'm 19. I was diagnosed with psychosis when I was about 17 but recently got a diagnosis for schizoaffective personality disorder. I've had suicidal thoughts since I was about 15. But recently it's just been so overwhelming and it's all I can think about. Obviously I enjoy things in my life like spending time with my friends and all that stuff. But I've just been finding myself wondering if the good things are really worth it when everything else is so depressing, especially because of the quarantine stuff. I know that it's in my head. But I just feel that nothing is really real and that I'm the only real person. I just need someone to talk to about things I guess. Please dont worry about me I'll be cool, I usually get through this stuff it's just feeling very difficult right now. (Sorry for the typos and stuff. Hope everyone is doing ok. Thanks)",3.0012643678160917,5.604029816091952,4.320229885057471,81.306091954023,78.42528735632183,8.464367816091954,26.333333333333336,9.150863307647796,2.590002298850575,724,29,135,20,18,238,104,174,0.095,0.718,0.187,0.9404,0,1,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,15,11,0,1,5,2,14,4,1,0,3,32,30,13,1,4,10,0,2,1,1,0,2,0,0,2,17,6,1,0,7,1,2,0,1,3,0,0,8,3,15,8,16,21,2,10,0,2,0,0,4,3,0,4,8,88,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07007392976431351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09900835299864877,0.1166742890382923,0.0,0.0,0.13174543511710746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13472338296852066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09602799856868197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10984196581095217,0.10331182510627036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11624679743020347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10506443156349124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08881195641861371,0.0,0.06005789623408776,0.0,0.0,0.09641663805463717,0.09193795332195133,0.0,0.12663305315878076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11797434918919375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11417369292402108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06317484510268527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08119429551024054,0.056159947128798016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17047152935191448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11029994960681498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08742649721354896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20074404269077334,0.0,0.12618324026498595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1222660510290564,0.0,0.2616820460296752,0.14728293066899367,0.0,0.2270032983746824,0.0,0.0,0.0981687406669696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09508983172073253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09739881449133472,0.0,0.0,0.2573596512368127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5263720862309405,0.125739292606711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09239440282991217,0.0,0.10583274622972086,0.0,0.0,0.2291078448217655,0.0736568707185989,0.0,0.09125938310026956,0.0670296819425878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266038529521684,0.09484778729740423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12466099858470825,0.0,0.11673976490236165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Kakree,2020/03/26,"Does this sound like schizophrenia? I feel like I'm constantly watched, especially in dark rooms or close to windows. I feel very suspicious of other even though it is not warranted. Sometimes I feel like something is poisonous or someone is going to harm me. I feel like people can see me, track me through the screens of computers or phones.
Occasionally I hear things or see things that other can not see, or stuff that is so strange it is hard to believe it is true.
I have a hard time speaking I often stutter and cannot make up connecting words or bridges to my next topic. Sometimes I forget what I was saying entirely.
I find it very hard to focus and concentrate. I often forget things and find it hard to keep up with cleaning. Often I get extremely agitated a things that are not worth it or very inconsequential. When I sometimes get insulted I find it hard not to laugh or smile.
On some days I get sad and unmotivated at the state of the world or just reality in general.
Is this something I should worry about or is it normal?",4.8007202680067005,6.433906693467336,5.416160804020102,79.86079061976552,70.00502512562814,8.522747068676717,30.352093802345056,9.029198982220553,2.5515283752093803,828,34,156,16,15,267,105,199,0.21,0.718,0.071,-0.9744,0,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,9,11,2,0,5,0,15,1,0,1,1,41,30,17,0,2,15,0,9,4,0,1,1,4,3,0,21,6,0,1,7,0,1,1,5,5,0,0,1,18,20,6,19,28,1,16,0,1,5,0,5,9,0,14,9,107,41,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12074126854110237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11581018219072695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06911428314024061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09378315258231956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707832371052764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21674878141012088,0.22968182040022045,0.0,0.0,0.2938479340638199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16797205743164564,0.0,0.0609058580834154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4800059243784757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12078575585801254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09525555156542458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20942684655949206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07153525370728495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11397403572219506,0.0,0.10500156540843304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07429657059156118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08522403473768123,0.0,0.0,0.25619628032335623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09080282131842242,0.1650058203881935,0.31797470575365083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226813456165978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28478975922717503,0.0,0.10529169432161856,0.0,0.06249033177919205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26527366048732004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10883397368380557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,loafofsophie,2020/03/27,"Concerned Partner seeking advice Hi all,
My partner has schizophrenia and the current pandemic has really been fucking with him. He’s very confused and upset most of the time. We’ve been to the ER twice in the last few weeks just to try to get him some meds that will help him to calm down and get his thoughts straight. My question is, is there any way to help to my partner when he’s confused? Are there any methods that others have used that help you when you’re confused? Also how is everyone else handling all of the drastic changes? It’s hard to comfort him when this is all new and scary and confusing to me as well. I feel like I can’t provide him with any concrete answers. Thank you for any of the help you offer. I deeply appreciate it.",4.200921375921375,5.599002851351352,4.247813267813267,88.57187960687962,71.16216216216216,6.733169533169535,31.022113022113015,6.980632752743323,1.6775729729729734,594,26,119,5,11,183,91,148,0.10300000000000001,0.728,0.16899999999999998,0.8747,1,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,3,0,0,9,11,1,5,6,0,12,1,0,2,3,23,19,11,0,0,1,0,2,1,3,1,0,0,0,3,7,7,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,6,2,1,3,2,16,5,17,15,6,12,0,0,0,1,21,3,1,7,9,79,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702370543896479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393165404006279,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4738780424760098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842922266009559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1455310058467195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664661557765949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08808635819050978,0.1244564327420786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16105533934131294,0.18203620148832736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15605891212228926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4670800677841754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1420052845599082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08511073557476043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19350924050545107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16825414986093346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19515628341231084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1116040809128232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16039015953577307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13830414059951845,0.10158388365986314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11827789006722625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15046244152802124,0.0,0.1437423886102805,0.0,0.1382806490912329,0.13974162279913527,0.0,0.15663668582634488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,helpmeplease2023,2020/03/27,"Why did I have visual and auditory hallucinations for a few months? hi guys. Diagnosed with depression, anxiety, ptsd. All have been doing okay. So from when I was 11-14 I had visual and auditory hallucinations but they went away and didn't reappear until I was 18. November thorough early January I experienced auditory and visual hallucinations when I was home with my family (otherwise I was at college). If it has anything to do with it, my family is emotionally abusive. I've since left that emotionally abusive family and live with friends. I haven't experienced hallucinations since February ish. Why did they subside? Could it be a stress thing? I believe my mother had schizophrenia",4.796464285714283,8.137652575000004,6.731190476190478,62.07000000000002,77.41666666666666,10.428571428571429,31.904761904761905,10.125756701596842,4.70897619047619,559,28,83,21,14,193,74,120,0.159,0.7959999999999999,0.045,-0.9427,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,2,0,3,4,0,1,2,1,19,1,0,0,1,13,20,11,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,1,5,9,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,11,2,14,2,10,7,2,9,0,1,0,0,6,3,0,1,5,62,19,1,0.0,0.3763135996348119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12148464318005787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13068218021909192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1492016074252711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17891775327792125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12679209062628102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13677767259443854,0.16118274087930973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3572663036132291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4491188999919853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1226915944926634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15724095022752546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15929338348642547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17254103599998022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1402268620230463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1267558563415106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1856334051011822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26272865826454284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1819094721792326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10550233671791494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14721292061431998,0.28659186133523473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,wreckedserenity,2020/03/27,"Advice? Hello all, I’m not sure if this is the best place for this post. If not feel free to cross post or direct me to a better subreddit.

So I was in a relationship with a man that has schizoaffective. We broke up over a month ago but we are still friends. I love him deeply. The reason we broke up was due to his new medication impacting him and his thoughts telling him that I was cheating among other things. He said he grew unhappy due to these thoughts and that we could actually fix anything because it was in his mind. So, for his mental well-being he broke up with me which I understand and support. I know he still loves me because he’s said it but I feel selfish for loving him and wanting him. Yes, I’d like to rekindle our relationship but I don’t want to affect his mental state. I want him to get better but I don’t want him to think that I only want to be around for the “stable” times. I have been educating myself on the disorder since he told me. I’ve read books, watched videos on YouTube and went through a simulation. It was difficult to get him to open up, I never pressed the issue only wanted more insight. It wasn’t an easy relationship, but none really are and I want to be a part of his life without feeling like I’m smothering him, if that makes sense. I’ve told him on multiple occasions that I’m here for him whenever he needs and ear or shoulder to cry on. I guess my question would be how can I help him with feeling like I’m smothering? I don’t want to annoy him, or have him feel like I’m treating him like a child. (I never have to my knowledge.) I know it’s different for everyone, based on the positive or negative symptoms people experience. I never wanted to him to feel like I was prying for information or as if I as schizo rather than him. 

Thank you sincerely for any relationship/friendship advice you can give.",3.938587032072288,5.1039831367292265,5.07767053917188,83.26390130076459,71.5201072386059,8.528606891073379,28.02393009631616,8.94667605116694,2.091512640254196,1462,53,301,28,27,483,177,373,0.128,0.669,0.203,0.9853,1,0,0,0,0,0,36.0,5,2,0,3,8,28,4,0,14,1,25,8,2,4,5,73,67,26,0,17,18,0,7,6,1,1,3,3,0,2,17,16,0,0,17,3,1,3,12,9,0,0,15,11,58,20,48,47,5,33,0,3,1,3,56,16,0,11,17,201,75,2,0.0,0.0,0.07811883323743196,0.0,0.0,0.1564510325668092,0.07096093082134539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054437846479663335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06587566216900821,0.07126291345757188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09759744870770208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08400923607753068,0.1415983045888555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06391470446694389,0.0,0.08793294530057423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08363690446263196,0.09174609151764723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07649275315544729,0.0,0.07830584476328631,0.0,0.0,0.2428590251992712,0.2287555724209463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06184768279979195,0.0,0.0836473345638445,0.07679280799414627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0881858841935386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05365691326589147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08355309289792902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08798855330740066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05654282639828725,0.23465506691711746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21674913659614226,0.0,0.05343507775748155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08064358498526619,0.16134640862149965,0.0,0.08082931574045357,0.0,0.06389643910361377,0.0,0.0,0.05935726167351332,0.18522223240398525,0.07731435313472633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12176572808449505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08668810315638263,0.0,0.05549771365765059,0.0,0.08363690446263196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1533346467127246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08967613473231467,0.0,0.08007328280025854,0.0,0.051283117415542784,0.08230639762497736,0.0,0.3437819242806613,0.0,0.0,0.15229484393295714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06621952704238444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12785865379077052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09084162937536673,0.07544770419061006,0.08320428408093299,0.0,0.0,0.06996864403146638,0.07370077614093419,0.0,0.0,0.05318273906984415,0.051293845557876035,0.0,0.12710408837040835,0.04667874320227504,0.0,0.0,0.15298550631089458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08333655927457924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4249486742589717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07197601991891829,0.07420865346019978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07716690473734862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05686637383821246,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Daesi2020,2020/03/27,"Aha moment with diagnosis? Im a family member of a bipolar schizophrenic. He doesn't believe he is mentally ill, claims he has been misdiagnosed. Doesn't think he needs medications... I was wondering is there any functioning schizophrenics on here that remember how they came to accept their diagnosis? It seems so hopeless and  impossible when a symptom of your illness is to not be able to believe your ill.",6.222916666666666,8.764571013888894,6.953888888888893,66.58000000000001,68.02777777777777,10.911111111111113,35.611111111111114,10.864195022040775,4.833761111111111,331,17,51,11,6,109,55,72,0.16699999999999998,0.799,0.035,-0.8728,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,2,2,0,5,2,0,0,3,0,9,8,0,1,0,11,14,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,5,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,3,0,5,1,7,10,0,4,0,1,0,0,8,1,0,2,2,33,7,0,0.2406834086950368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16367297129838598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5423355634522282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752777007554416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2268948974428536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2599793828709337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2424632130814233,0.2425522666227233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1784636978589718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2726473836249958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21910913583931155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2501622176654024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15422020992168398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2610108898629323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BlackAlphaRam,2020/03/27,"A lame idea? Perhaps but I would like opinions I’ve (22F) been a lurker for a while but I wanted some opinions. I’m someone who flows their creativity through their writing and I had an idea. I’ve noticed a lot of people like these “psychosis” fanfiction. These writings often make us out to be the bad guys and I hate it and want to make things better, so I want to write a fanfic that seems like a normal psychosis one, but instead one where they get help and it’s not seen as some kind of bad thing. I wanted to do twilight as much as I hate it because it’s so popular, but I kinda want to do multiple ones. I’m diagnosed schizoaffective on seroquel and I’ve been hospitalized so I don’t think experience will be a problem. I just wanted to ask for advice on 1) is it a good idea, and if so 2) how to perfect it. Thanks for reading!",1.510393296853625,3.5977945058139547,3.38030095759234,88.848146374829,80.68604651162791,6.140082079343365,24.65253077975376,7.285733465282438,1.1097519835841316,653,25,137,9,17,219,98,172,0.129,0.652,0.22,0.9415,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,0,3,2,9,15,2,0,10,0,11,1,0,3,1,42,29,20,0,10,7,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,1,12,7,0,0,5,1,0,1,2,6,0,3,4,1,14,9,19,21,4,6,0,1,1,0,11,4,0,9,4,95,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12653215669083925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1210518695477068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2162306935430537,0.07893342389565645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.114519786603155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13142549797562494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12666209045524296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06765105650091323,0.0,0.0,0.1086066585356049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12821143301742746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2556811057508176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08679169252535687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4385215772909771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13483967506793984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18978086119551152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11008431114791968,0.0,0.0,0.1728657336591135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09518706078382624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12686872345457068,0.0,0.1474205947849518,0.0,0.0,0.2632290612501723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0897692432616508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1239005519680813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295209753467827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11787913172092356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10971301220064016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192132516085361,0.0,0.0,0.17204940262340335,0.08296935848772133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557556361579353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4582449546010666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09198309281677487,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,flyingmada,2020/03/27,"Helping Family Member Through Hallucinations Just posted this on r/Parkinsons but though it might be applicable here as well. Just looking for advice.


Hey Everyone,

My Dad has had Parkinson’s for about 10 years. He recently started seeing “worms and bugs” around his house. He thinks they’re in him, and crawling out of things. 

My mom went over there last night to try to talk to him (they don’t get along that well). Apparently he doesn’t believe her and is now paranoid that she’s out to get him. Then my dad called the neurologist and told them they can’t talk to my mom. She’s been trying to call the neurologist but hasn’t gotten anything back.

First, if this is his meds being off, we need to resolve it ASAP. Can he stop us from talking and resolving this with the neurologist? Is there anything we can do in the short term?

And has anyone dealt with hallucinations before? How do you convince them that they’re not real? I want to go over there and talk to him but now there’s Coronavirus concerns on top of it.",3.7301074947745576,5.822016050761423,4.203523439832787,85.56532696327264,73.77157360406093,7.071842340997312,24.78620483726485,7.928766900206844,1.2971722305165718,810,26,160,12,17,255,120,197,0.033,0.883,0.084,0.8772,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,3,1,4,4,16,5,0,0,4,0,18,0,0,1,0,31,30,15,0,3,7,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,10,15,0,1,3,0,0,2,5,0,2,1,5,2,22,5,30,22,1,27,0,0,2,0,34,12,0,2,12,112,32,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326069203943644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09488634893322424,0.0,0.22334320319532236,0.12080400284866515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1043468523451202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11547283946667697,0.15289025656982178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2771348665255308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129669561932723,0.0,0.0,0.12792824746215253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11542848410176172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14179791917923956,0.0,0.07712286264251564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09095853072134824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156582474628138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11061565610806244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11395592928910114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15073489460494732,0.0,0.0,0.14395891624891705,0.0,0.31786627485949365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10062169030691197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12734761115107504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12996549116190312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1544591633252767,0.0,0.0,0.133989855517468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10813732952606232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0960509337197465,0.0,0.0,0.11345337316262992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4362901428989419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09015471653314264,0.08695268779014889,0.13332702525005732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129669561932723,0.0,0.184266190563408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16323340868546388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08004085523278709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24402570407109056,0.12579758459270593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873879660618266
schizophrenia,ggfdhnfyjbcfddykk,2020/03/27,Do normal people have voice I did shrooms n the voice is right there I did molly but that was a month ago but I wonder if normal people have voices they just don’t know n I know I should stop drugs,-1.9536692506459945,-0.6619380465116258,-0.005736434108527533,103.61346253229974,115.51162790697674,1.9111111111111112,7.103359173126616,3.1291,-2.512202067183463,156,1,36,0,9,50,30,43,0.078,0.922,0.0,-0.4215,0,0,1,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,9,1,0,0,0,11,12,3,0,4,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,6,0,0,8,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,3,23,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523161140457428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3300919389017902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31286131106318404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2271968677605716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5577733717789999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39466696071888574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24308093562056354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23797171765567815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3086798502811033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,RobynTacoo,2020/03/27,"Anyone want to join mine and my friends discord server for mental health??? [https://discord.gg/](https://discord.gg/)  


The link will only last for the next 24 hours!",9.259999999999998,13.819941666666667,4.738333333333333,75.34,69.83333333333334,4.866666666666667,20.5,6.42735559955562,0.4376000000000002,136,3,18,1,3,35,22,24,0.09,0.664,0.247,0.5764,0,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,9,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265748540244867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29363534841749606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4039886700713164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3742850094598432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30980166767332395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3830136131765077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4042007855627823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2890546611676861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2241707124070404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,CrazyButNot,2020/03/27,"I have a story to share. Hi, I've started a youtube channel to help spread awareness about mental health. I've had schizophrenia for half my life now and have a story I wanted to share.

Remember, you're not alone in this. There are people who understand you, who can help you, and even though sometimes you might wonder how you're gonna make it through, YOU CAN!

I did.

<3 Crazy Tom

[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m2PxH-Jf2dM](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m2PxH-Jf2dM)",7.987012987012986,11.366868480519486,4.17792207792208,84.70116883116887,65.49350649350649,5.9584415584415575,23.98701298701299,6.868970318607317,0.7270571428571428,391,10,63,3,7,101,55,77,0.032,0.804,0.163,0.8313,0,1,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,4,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,0,8,2,0,2,0,10,14,4,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,8,2,7,10,0,3,0,0,0,0,11,1,0,2,2,39,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27352609714494225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.174434376576896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28072404686388525,0.0,0.0,0.3540389256955585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18654037565151294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17628760556883566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661488785709936,0.2801664651400385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18309244537184707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991717884458225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2611998821268256,0.0,0.1869300719597765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594751498917749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2749355499684657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15577196648647462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28640324248088683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,_Lemon_Yellow_Socks_,2020/03/27,How does pressure affect you? I think it contributes severely to my stress and psychosis,5.242000000000001,8.869500200000003,4.641666666666668,75.14250000000001,80.33333333333334,8.333333333333334,34.16666666666667,8.841846274778883,4.2376666666666685,73,4,10,2,2,22,15,15,0.42100000000000004,0.579,0.0,-0.7906,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4510138122600234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5822343826623719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5903677519245503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33023564659800114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,_cheb,2020/03/27,"16 year old too terrified to get himself checked Well, this isn't really easy for me to write. I would love to not have to write this and know that I'm alright. 

​

As for my background, my mother is a bit off, mentally speaking. She is quite unpredictable and according to my father has changed quite a bit through out the years. Her change also lead to their divorce.

Although I have truly mixed feelings about her, I can't and won't diagnose her by myself. Apparently she refused to get herself checked by a psychiatrist multiple times.  But I can assure you, she is unstable. Perhaps I too am dis-positioned? 

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As for myself, I feel like some unseen problems show up. They don't hinder life entirely, but just enough that it bugs me out a bit.

For one, language. In the last two years I've started to struggle a bit to express myself through language. Speaking is a pain, in the midst of the sentence I have changed my plans and I become roughly comprehensible for most. Sometimes people understand me as much as I would speak utter gibberish.

It's not that I'm unable to understand  language. As an avid reader, I would honestly put myself just a bit above the average in terms of understanding.  But my thoughts are so hard to put into words. I don't even think in language.  
A while ago I read that people think in some form of dialog and those who don't have mental issues. I was quite shook. (If there are some inconsistencies and weird quirks about this post, I'm sorry. English isn't my mother tongue and what I just said).

I am glad that I don't seem to hear any voices in my head.

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Also: thinking.

More and more I realize that my way of thinking is just not compatible with others, not in the slightest. Whenever asked to explain something, people seem confused on how the heck I think or just assume I  absolutely suck at explaining my thoughts(which can be a bit true thanks to my lack of proper speaking).

Logic puzzles, are absolute torture. It's not that I'm bad at them. It's just that I come up with the most freakish solutions which are always far more complex than the actual solution. My favorites are always those which are also a valid solution.

Structuring in general is a massive issue, I always have dozens upon dozens of thoughts in my head. While I'm trying to go through the first thought, I'm already at the fourth and then back to the second.

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Although I doubt that I have any delusions about the world, I can't tell. I know I am unique in my understanding, but most of it is from a mixture of reading and research. Other normal and stable people share many of my thoughts.  Whether this will change is one of my biggest concerns.  
No one wants to feel as if you are alone in a world of maniacs, all the while you are the maniac.

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Hallucinations are not rare for me, but mostly when I am in bed. When exposed to great stress, I also have quite some vivid hallucinations when I close my eyes. I can easily tell them apart from reality, but that might change(hopefully not).

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Falling asleep is horrible.  Never can I stop thinking. Never can I just calm down. Only pure exhaustion can make me sleep. But when I'm actually sleeping, I'm sleeping well.

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As for I how I observe the world, I feel like some pseudo Sherlock Holmes like Psychiatrist. Of course, I am terrible at it and wouldn't consider it valuable, but I still do it. It's a pleasure to try to tell the life-story, character, circumstances of a person purely based on superficiality and behavior.

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Actually I am very socially skilled. I can be friends with anyone and people seem to like me. Although I enjoy it more to be by myself. Others just would like to be more with me than I with them.

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Thank you very much for taking your time and reading all of it,

share your thoughts and opinions.  
Should I get tested or am I just a bit quirky?",4.73671130605198,6.589933437077132,5.171018851196866,80.68274357239514,70.51556156968877,7.965293266763103,30.1974009612244,8.590058470249806,2.415940488078018,3106,129,563,53,58,989,316,739,0.11,0.763,0.127,0.9391,1,1,1,0,1,0,129.0,0,6,5,8,31,38,4,5,34,1,63,12,7,4,8,127,113,54,0,12,29,3,6,5,1,9,4,7,1,1,34,26,0,2,30,4,2,7,20,15,2,8,7,15,90,23,96,93,29,66,0,0,2,1,46,33,2,22,29,420,124,6,0.0,0.0,0.11458160238852495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03469422512485334,0.0,0.0,0.04053604038717319,0.04319068937271471,0.12519728275516187,0.09769996466944574,0.3816623057359895,0.4280218323174648,0.0532315142774176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027366790869583296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03658953728365325,0.0,0.0,0.03009535637247285,0.03267930124840292,0.0,0.0432257799863394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2991063776895933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16561483609188338,0.03371464989734289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03972510442151137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04044088998151698,0.0,0.025850838393988985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07915910531180559,0.055921598239165635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033291482076404866,0.0,0.0,0.030238575025301775,0.0,0.0613452942949345,0.0,0.02224350791162437,0.0,0.0,0.04315071545032425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035060718008163266,0.0,0.08033549429321916,0.0,0.04411232352000665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08170157243784515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.043019371949090224,0.03190338295913843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05528984824611649,0.09560631491252804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03532433623987972,0.0,0.026125483358575813,0.039680646357408304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07888550162756666,0.041520130125024715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05754310978400181,0.0,0.06037258112571391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03834775872784897,0.0,0.0,0.041069634598578895,0.0,0.07956448410702538,0.029766855745530736,0.04164649121611238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13566973750674033,0.034174530325486126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03748419511212845,0.0,0.0,0.037450589426168926,0.0,0.0786907001067901,0.0,0.16651591998100054,0.11744831139345299,0.0,0.02507334670113893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03723000487456291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10689160525606553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1175013336297024,0.03989712422190597,0.0,0.030130995496706364,0.03870931907973397,0.04381273330883872,0.027702676364820152,0.0,0.03125633265680978,0.03272182744617471,0.04483341540266391,0.040916419379420095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029427541004535717,0.0,0.10262722851621113,0.07206758112425536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15047155143312446,0.0,0.1553593577892343,0.04564435123553367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05314541404720288,0.0,0.03823296505810343,0.16297967431584032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06458729314908589,0.023085105189575808,0.03106659387689685,0.0,0.0,0.07038104516821597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11121245187406956,0.0,0.4280218323174648,0.07561240005394063
schizophrenia,shweetpea111,2020/03/27,"How to show support and understanding for those going through psychosis without enabling &/or feeding into delusions or hallucinations? Hi! My closest brother was diagnosed years ago & this is something I’ve struggled with ever since (and probably will continue to forevermore).

I sometimes feel that things he wants or says (while going through an intense episode) just fuel his paranoia, etc. & offer no real help. It scares me to believe I’ve possibly helped his mental state worsen by offering.. whether it be something physical he’s asked for or just an understanding & relation to delusional ideologies.. anything that could’ve given him an even stronger sense that what he’s going through is something that I’m going through too, because it’s not.

I love him so much, and never want to hurt him or help him to hurt himself further. I also have great compassion & respect for those who experience schizophrenia firsthand or through close interaction with anyone that does.

I wanted to come here just to ask and see if there’s any advice I could be given from anyone knowledgeable on psychosis and it’s effects.
Thank you so much in advance for those who are willing to help. Much love & blessings to all.

*Also very new to this whole website & forum, please let me know if this isn’t the right place for this question.*",7.081638655462183,8.940432457983196,6.181764705882355,75.6779411764706,64.75630252100841,8.289075630252103,37.52941176470589,8.671277953709913,3.4964302521008395,1087,56,169,16,17,329,147,238,0.078,0.772,0.15,0.9571,0,0,3,0,0,0,41.0,0,1,0,3,13,11,0,2,4,0,12,4,0,2,3,39,34,19,0,6,13,1,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,20,10,1,0,7,1,0,6,5,4,0,0,3,3,16,7,29,25,6,22,1,2,1,2,28,8,0,8,7,117,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08238017552951797,0.07472975845402742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13483458220676098,0.0,0.6393978719709276,0.0,0.05732911154202273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11789360701881292,0.0,0.0693744045478089,0.0,0.15762434660593086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05139048828163065,0.0,0.0,0.0949809115204385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07261979865881743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13461859564667722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08556604009161049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07377435590298421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09402042579090664,0.05568151189614042,0.07625713025722984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08246477035978665,0.0,0.0,0.04262626415563415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19164595461337186,0.0,0.0,0.09294464802475773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2260268077849177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804967790161156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04633087009481185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08620580087498306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15217397738415225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08495786346197813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859178009903838,0.0,0.06501987562101298,0.08142061931703863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807896959625246,0.09253966991699047,0.0,0.09503926525156407,0.0,0.0,0.09089317897928087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09443895126613612,0.0,0.0,0.09595557267326107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07199452826231492,0.0,0.06704134055108854,0.08440227576554961,0.0,0.06717878796338395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06973653253331864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19470231780751773,0.08337808538275064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08813207748621465,0.0,0.0,0.09566634685053206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07761512053375763,0.0,0.0,0.05600734373988119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.175525345366685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06955902313513697,0.14917275095448104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09412158548437108,0.0,0.08126533974287113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05428853910437983
schizophrenia,skumel98dddd,2020/03/28,"Developing delusions, starting to mildly hallucinate, and tick of boxes of criteria for developing Schizophrenia. Am I? Hello. I’m an 18 year old male. I went through lots of intense stress during my entire life due to an undiagnosed anxiety disorder. My father is also mentally ill and I’ve had some traumatic experiences.

I’ve started to develop some strange thoughts. Like people are copying me, they are following me and they are trying to annoy me. I’ve started to think that my dad is attempting to make me develop a mental illness by stressing me out.

About a year ago I heard a female voice telling me to “sleep well” when I was about to sleep. It was really clear and I had a very hard time sleeping that night. I’ve not a heard a voice since then. Last time I went for a walk in the woods, I ended up sprinting out of there because I was convinced a minivan there was full of people wanting to kill me. I’ve had some nights where I just had to close my door while sleeping because I had serious thought about someone trying to kill me. My brain was pretty much telling me “you’ll regret not locking the door if you get murdered tonight” like I could see into the future, and got actual “images” of that happening. I’ve also seen a man in the woods although no one else could see him, when I went there to check it out, it was just some tree that looked a bit like it (I don’t know if this would count as a hallucination). Today, I swear I could smell watermelon when I was randomly thinking about it. Very clear smell. I don’t know if this is normal.

There are some other stuff too (pm or reddit chat if you wanna know). I could also be considered someone who’s socially isolated. Can anyone please tell me if it sounds like I may actually be developing Schizophrenia? If I am, I better start getting treatment before it goes out of hand, although I hope I’m just being a bit paranoid. Would really appreciate any sort of help or advice.",4.7787759111897055,6.083106156498675,5.630621868552903,79.5633883485608,69.6631299734748,8.556007466352295,29.87808232635819,8.94667605116694,2.454222792022793,1539,60,289,28,27,504,195,377,0.131,0.762,0.107,-0.8579,0,0,0,0,0,2,38.0,0,3,2,2,20,16,4,2,18,0,35,9,6,1,2,54,65,24,3,17,13,2,2,4,0,4,3,5,2,2,16,11,0,0,7,1,1,5,5,8,1,1,21,13,43,8,38,33,10,39,0,1,4,0,20,11,0,18,27,194,59,0,0.0,0.0,0.1651636065168741,0.0,0.0,0.0826945811629245,0.0750149661133949,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20302377174234312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057547909274743576,0.0,0.06473790165056534,0.0,0.0,0.05917177519677589,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10317324227319458,0.0,0.07200965128360141,0.0,0.0,0.07484394509416455,0.18477718826560546,0.0,0.0,0.0944694992496036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2702647405686634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09698759396998352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07069333769819627,0.0,0.07495264155500239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08277949885110192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08842615077274482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06768235179681636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07483361759217012,0.0,0.07580738765108189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056722360935821566,0.0,0.0,0.08405173022902429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18725007247382502,0.0,0.13952307843887213,0.06898067857027967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059773147803004974,0.16537402285436215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07106369573751559,0.0,0.0,0.0719451579824795,0.0,0.0,0.056487851848165786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17056421378873746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06220912003326527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15882968000340764,0.08291454301521584,0.0,0.0,0.08879971339941924,0.0,0.05734409744599137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11733665444386347,0.0,0.0,0.0928928494695766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08609405924730076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10842589776060256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13487035437729555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07000268344331345,0.0,0.3387445039740109,0.08626454145488957,0.14340499410315696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2395920728915388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19387532795879425,0.0,0.09687539103559883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22189796837227255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10844857985409467,0.0,0.13436561177565678,0.09869104869411396,0.0,0.08021461531717472,0.0,0.0,0.11490965483409447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1396489931537291,0.04991402394168636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07608804778488845,0.23534469856318646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12023035935661575,0.0,0.0,0.10899146485977404
schizophrenia,Teenseafood,2020/03/28,"Religious delusions and guilt, looking for people who relate Hello, 20 y o female. I have schizoaffective disorder and OCD and anxiety. I have gone back and forth from christian, Buddhist, atheist, and agnostic, and wiccan. I have been smoking weed for three years but lately I've quit because I know it makes symptoms worse. Me and my friends use to play with ouija boards and it all seemed so real but I don't want to believe it. Recently a month ago I was smoking weed and took a lot and went into a store. I started having a panic attack in the store and thought I was in a hellish realm. I had been reading Wicca so i thougt maybe it was that that caused me to go there. I went home and had another where I thought my family was demons in disguise. I don't hear voices of see things thankfully. But while at home I drank a bunch of water then jumped out my window and ran in the street at night bare foot screaming. I held a Bible to my chest and thought I was sinking in the ground. Then police came and at first I thought they were demons until they touched me and I felt no pain. Then I felt strangely peaceful and went to the hospital and got a psych evaluation. When I went to sleep that night I had depersonalization feelings and Everytime I would fall asleep I would usually feel my soul separate a bit from myself. Although I desperately want to believe this is purely a mental thing. I've had several more episodes like this. I fear the world because there seems to be occult symbolism in media but I don't know if I fully believe any one religion... I don't know what I believe but I'm on meds and an seeking help from a psychiatrist.",3.197696167396181,5.335215000000005,3.987848831002456,86.3095665634675,75.47058823529412,6.931952599551617,26.927404718693282,7.873277556716777,1.6517202732998828,1307,51,255,20,29,417,182,323,0.155,0.7759999999999999,0.069,-0.9776,0,0,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,2,2,7,11,2,3,17,0,24,8,4,3,2,55,59,35,0,5,6,0,5,1,1,2,2,3,3,0,13,24,2,1,13,2,2,11,5,7,0,3,29,10,40,4,29,27,5,44,6,0,2,0,7,16,0,4,18,169,53,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08449535031067283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06482080850994358,0.09995123835158576,0.07291947143019044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1084401602121606,0.0,0.07329512823144174,0.0,0.11621226670133553,0.0,0.0,0.4295715954539637,0.0,0.0,0.10406465576697507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109020585293804,0.0,0.09791980623523416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10924487676092856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08985912935015883,0.1072614010014746,0.0963932226405176,0.0,0.18304412648375312,0.0,0.0,0.08107906806635176,0.0,0.0,0.07364392720874284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054172502379497035,0.0,0.07623604090252363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10743246795186784,0.0,0.06389092745140698,0.0,0.1912272863812224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15715599166298758,0.0,0.1075250120663627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046568493986393435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08004471876499664,0.0,0.0,0.08103758012363901,0.0,0.0,0.0636267811278246,0.0,0.09576166301429864,0.0,0.10587893339112436,0.0,0.09606005135534172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07608344399056828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17890255967500354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0645912389618904,0.0,0.10142710643780806,0.11183737837631408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06608282476945801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10138445908840632,0.09534570646723013,0.10849492752309928,0.0,0.0,0.09411691317130984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07595762839116503,0.1735513350109174,0.0,0.10768436831222256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09538875044558698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06746792400075459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09907388543799092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08775776791703935,0.0,0.0,0.12665262747190073,0.0,0.0,0.3026934497185546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10590392900137632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0823257989272225,0.10498141587163344,0.0,0.1124443069665004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3534500518878071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971391332726692,0.13542506060002507,0.0,0.0,0.06138289784920373
schizophrenia,Zomghedgehogs,2020/03/28,"Too much sleep and the paranoia/whispers come back. Hi! Does anyone here have a problem with this? If I get more than 3 hours of sleep a night, I wake up with a sense of dread and paranoia as well as hearing the voices/whispers all day long. This occurs even if I take my medication as prescribed.",3.070508474576272,4.912227915254243,3.4120000000000026,91.61732203389832,74.9322033898305,5.397966101694917,25.359322033898305,5.6839178017228535,0.5242311864406783,233,8,48,1,5,72,44,59,0.142,0.82,0.037000000000000005,-0.7088,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,5,0,1,4,3,0,1,9,5,7,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,0,1,4,1,9,5,3,7,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,2,5,33,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17778973139099885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955159942236883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190289163883039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16398148714274066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22251118192426614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16794126999405112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13284426182538187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2865779253047744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2504022458005893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22501871512977084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561477320031835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18691585141740474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23861280188753556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432996351762065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5089022103142686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19117749814462165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286169974241011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,emecs2211,2020/03/28,"Got diagnosed, not sure if correct and want your opinions I recently got diagnosed as early schizophrenia/1st episode psychosis but I never had a crazy breakdowns

Im in my late teens and male and It started about a 6-12 months ago with voices and walls like pulsing??breathing??, being paranoid(watched and followed) and thinking the clocks were communicating with me (I constantly see the same numbers),socially withdrawn,uneasiness,anxiousness,racing and uncontrolled thoughts and imagination and I got told my personality changed as well as that I always am gazing and looking around way too much and never make eye contact

All this has been getting gradually worse but I also have periods of like 1-2 weeks where I’m near perfect

Also Ive been put on olanzapine too for now

So basically I was wondering your opinions’ on this and if it is how schizophrenia can be, Because like i said, I haven’t a serious episode",7.277836438923392,9.457584770186337,6.939394409937887,69.20714544513459,64.65217391304348,10.087163561076606,37.64026915113872,10.317481424215053,4.437583436853002,752,39,116,19,12,236,114,161,0.059000000000000004,0.804,0.13699999999999998,0.9265,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,2,0,1,11,8,0,1,5,0,14,3,1,2,6,36,30,23,0,3,5,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,0,2,5,15,0,0,4,0,0,2,4,2,1,0,11,5,15,6,13,17,3,23,0,0,3,0,7,7,0,5,16,82,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14156668998395872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2554281706948621,0.13288532947514667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14216914378139894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09735320270258127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16894414036767524,0.0,0.0,0.1725817398431906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32418948813425963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08343799991855673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3831861964606375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17250617775049296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801514520355502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23406782244059934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13410993438802404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10660270376395124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12747306554410684,0.0,0.11739976255686907,0.0,0.24634493046028125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13944612172559487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1605451902521157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576870185185446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15191371299435524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12726226935366114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11303829909880465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15051777965038554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10233095660003096,0.0,0.1267859994630644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15260264693032075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09419671192709972,0.12676446435685595,0.12810376635419835,0.0,0.14359178748365178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17319062174965774,0.0,0.0,0.16275055982086867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,varRoSH,2020/03/28,"I thought I am stable but under curtain everything was developing Hi
A couple of days ago I've find out that for a long time I was doing strange things in the night.
I was writing to my friends about things I didn't wanted to say. Next day I didn't remember a thing and when I found out about that, I apologized everyone.
Yesterday in the night I have written to my classmates and appoligized for things I have done in the past connected to my illnesses, but today I don't know why I pulled this out again and it hurts.
It becomes scarry and I don't know how to prevent this kind of situations.
Maybe my medicines stopped working or maybe that's the way it is with this kind of illness.
I have schizoaffective disorder, but now I think it is more personality split or something...",5.367843137254901,6.169094836601308,5.7247124183006575,81.27020588235295,67.95424836601308,9.518692810457518,32.94705882352942,9.642632912329526,2.9659050980392165,622,27,124,13,10,199,89,153,0.13699999999999998,0.797,0.066,-0.9134,0,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,0,7,0,15,2,0,1,0,25,22,11,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,1,14,8,0,2,7,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,9,1,19,3,20,13,1,24,0,1,0,0,6,7,0,2,15,89,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13129470571251073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1635810006442436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1638860495477418,0.0,0.19104339964836384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1697522276928637,0.0,0.0,0.15157271727751065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1415299010094604,0.1331159022186693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13537411215298462,0.0,0.0,0.16240007519330346,0.114433015720205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15855980250194293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084772432077157,0.16279988267980422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13107680955923445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976021595927944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157521616854727,0.27799114196674946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14139219856209392,0.0,0.12932800446762946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16778503188781854,0.0,0.0,0.11778671924441372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664870789722694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11402589832539947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12383048445268385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39360318385564536,0.09490589088155683,0.0,0.11758649220276195,0.08636684695135126,0.0,0.14039537518407447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08736186155765953,0.11756651966944605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13365043917258246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10782923351919166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,throwaway91837193,2020/03/28,"OCD, schizophrenia or maybe something else? I know nobody here can diagnose me it’s just that at the moment it doesn’t really look like it’ll be easy to meet up with a psychiatrist or doctor or anything so I’m just asking for some help and suggestions.

About 2 months ago when I began the deepest depression of my life I began having these things called “mind pops” these are random uncontrolled thoughts or images that happen at random times during the day, usually before sleep for obvious reasons. 

I looked into it and people say these are more common with schizophrenia and also happen with OCD, one thing about OCD though is that these happen maybe a few times every week whereas these happen for me multiple times a day. Like I’m not gonna overexagerate but it I had to guess I’d say at least 20-30 times a day when I’m not laying in bed with my eyes closed (not yet sleeping). When I’m trying to sleep these usually happen at almost a constant rate the thoughts are mostly the voices of my friends and family members and they usually have no meaning and are just random strings of words with no coherence.

I have had some other things such as flashes of images that have almost scared me and these really small 30 second episodes where it’s almost like I’m dreaming but I’m not. Like a week ago I was petting my dog and watching TV and I suddenly began thinking about how my “family had overthrown the government and we would be taking over America”, and then I phased out of it, it was sort of like I detached from reality for a second. 

Any suggestions?",6.5378552971576225,6.906446043189369,6.573527131782949,77.71775839793284,65.31229235880399,9.479586563307492,30.01125876707272,9.2995712137729,2.539327648578812,1253,40,226,21,18,399,158,301,0.051,0.872,0.077,0.8168,0,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,1,0,1,0,17,9,0,2,13,0,20,7,4,2,1,55,45,26,0,1,13,0,0,5,1,3,3,3,2,0,23,20,0,0,6,2,0,0,7,3,0,3,10,7,20,6,32,30,6,39,0,1,4,0,11,12,0,15,32,154,43,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16702542920909955,0.0,0.2830173007966799,0.0,0.0,0.07534081613273351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06406697719606133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07752794827278754,0.0,0.08807493390285613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08016695558230384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09620036468173672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10180904552556948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1822756617489012,0.0,0.08114413386734043,0.0956225797305119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0964293517750987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0787015290616565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07937716105134608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17762823152850432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07278748774611721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10378446975768174,0.0,0.4165541139719971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06314791015660633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051776117194180064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06654429232084359,0.2301346366131421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1582276830439567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18929601224128026,0.10262382488758287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09512664925588923,0.0,0.07519863425328617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06384007741899704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06531431688185013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12070846025225915,0.09686500184571577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14984136054966066,0.09432203868715942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828382909766112,0.0,0.0,0.07252853230219101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07083524202029187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18776958778951625,0.0603668558946834,0.09256221428785856,0.1495866434429071,0.2197416811774992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06396335095959932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3112816145586839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1511413918135452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06692506980922708,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,kowal61,2020/03/28,"What is your experience with CDB? Hi, 

for some time CBD (Cannabidiol) weed is completely legal in EU. I read that it has some anti psychotic, anti depression and anti anxiety effects, so I decided to give it a shot. I tried few way of consuming it and vaporization works best for me. And what I want to say is that usually it works very nice for me, if I am stressed about something my thoughts slow down, I am starting to feel relaxed and feel like actually I don't have any problems for a while. I think this is not placebo effect because I am using it regularly for more than a month now. Please share what is your experience.",5.305245901639342,6.11581899180328,6.4132377049180365,76.24477459016396,68.09836065573772,10.362295081967213,33.2827868852459,10.411451182825502,3.5024229508196734,495,22,96,13,8,166,82,122,0.11199999999999999,0.715,0.174,0.7989,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,5,3,8,0,1,3,0,11,0,0,3,0,19,19,7,0,3,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,11,5,0,0,7,2,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,3,14,5,14,18,5,10,0,1,0,0,6,2,0,3,8,67,25,4,0.0,0.0,0.19061542182301028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13283215634210385,0.0,0.14942810575885954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11907230358731224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20498841711161453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20480142021649533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1682387830336688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3821434860757441,0.0,0.0,0.19753100762605108,0.1395449026960412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873798274007456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09542913172500816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15591178449510618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21441539161565484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1869059190702453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1953844155779179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15533549343318878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503757749104518,0.0,0.0,0.13825668076279315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2237516375386512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12516057399656444,0.0,0.1550714367847554,0.11389940116778588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1326173046814622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16870374877246258,0.21513011279297875,0.1611689905453667,0.11521161264489987,0.15504509728453295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28440739843461704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Raisondetre09,2020/03/28,"I need some advice - hallucinating? Hi! I’m Brooke! 
I’m 24 and I have Drug Resistant Schizophrenia. 

Topic: Hallucinating and unable to view the floor for what it is. 

Issue: I need advice on how to see it the way my family does, and to anyone’s suggestions on how to clean without actually being sure that you see it like others do. 

Things I’ve tried: -asking a parent or partner if it looks good. - using a camera. 

So, I’m having a psychotic episode and I’m having trouble seeing the floor. I don’t know what to do and it’s getting bad because my family is getting irritated with me because they think as me being 24 I should be able to figure something like this out. I can’t. I don’t know what to do. It’s frustrating. 

Please help me!
Also I didn’t know how to add a flair due to none being under advice?",0.25722958642629834,2.6728456402439043,3.02013785790032,86.10980381760339,92.59756097560977,5.291198303287381,18.715800636267236,6.895973343053719,0.52726967126193,631,19,124,10,23,220,93,164,0.08800000000000001,0.807,0.105,0.4164,1,0,2,0,0,0,23.0,0,1,1,0,5,7,1,0,7,0,17,1,0,4,1,25,35,13,0,4,3,1,0,2,1,1,1,0,1,1,13,8,0,0,5,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,1,5,15,4,17,29,2,8,0,0,5,0,8,6,0,3,3,83,28,0,0.1515130304670674,0.0,0.14785486171845594,0.0,0.0,0.44417033947950296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12116491572436362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10594143375600154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14164423073102264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12650705173649074,0.18472187415923771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13259007399002526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1757070131382204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856660016199125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15831860989864954,0.0,0.0,0.12708194146873492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10155599056446388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15814023948648914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.249802797409914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14804322693485386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12723278606052146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246899845533848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16823728997539908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166315808943714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3622088064722092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11664213311048345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14279923813214818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1006585250330222,0.09708343209526553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10286740211061417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1308586115833703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12026399123369287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14605315461515225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ChaoticNeutralAtBest,2020/03/28,"What are some things you wish were portrayed in media better? Like certain symptoms, medication, day-to-day life, stigma, etc.",6.248571428571428,9.380650285714283,5.362142857142857,75.32035714285716,69.95238095238095,6.104761904761905,29.54761904761905,7.1686216300943375,2.092504761904761,100,4,14,1,2,30,20,21,0.0,0.595,0.405,0.8481,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,3,1,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,1,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3072420798813377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4480812447448943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3874365398983648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24537490947255974,0.16971933626758964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3499632690081048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3610757539829404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2307933758536179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3994863684792805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,maddyts10,2020/03/28,Do you have nonhuman hallucinations My hallucinations are humanlike but not exactly like a human... Does anyone else have stuff like this?,6.428939393939395,10.365619772727275,7.651818181818182,53.26439393939396,78.54545454545453,12.024242424242425,30.06060606060606,10.504223727775694,5.4670424242424245,113,5,15,5,3,38,19,22,0.21899999999999997,0.7809999999999999,0.0,-0.652,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,0,0,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,11,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046554412910383,0.4464318107271842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3812888505480911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3639760666493217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4257274329122641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4987785968571107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,LivK00,2020/03/28,"I feel broken I've been diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia since I was 11 years old. My mom has it, her mom has it, and its been in my family tree on my mothers side for a long time. But recently, I've been given another new diagnosis, and they're gunna re-test me for litterally everything. I know it's wrong to call myself crazy, but I FEEL insane. So many things are wrong with me, and I feel like a hollow shell of a person. I don't understand why I'm so cursed. It feels like from the moment I was born I was damned with bad luck and misfortune. All I want is to be happy and normal but deep down I know that's never going to happen for me. And I've gone numb. It's like I personally can't feel anything anymore.",2.45398454746137,3.809716556291392,4.321473509933778,86.49205573951436,75.49006622516556,7.68233995584989,21.85485651214128,8.344100000000001,1.0492644591611475,564,14,123,10,12,192,95,151,0.16699999999999998,0.705,0.129,-0.6124,0,0,0,1,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,0,2,10,1,0,4,0,13,2,0,0,2,25,27,11,0,2,3,3,5,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,8,9,0,0,8,0,0,2,3,5,0,0,8,5,19,5,14,18,1,16,0,0,0,0,7,5,1,1,12,71,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15618752779747427,0.0,0.0,0.14771881630286346,0.0,0.0,0.12257352403914384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12436739910367925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.152095057016105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15118156531167834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13386705471713845,0.0,0.1404172223846399,0.0,0.37656909981683856,0.21282045395832352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08465196990850687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317163857423336,0.15856051739579902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16371853730023064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183089895315221,0.0,0.0,0.13181645577242726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15101237155323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34889791966178146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11487976494215675,0.14385726701641605,0.0,0.0,0.14593980997898692,0.0,0.0,0.1562984348514293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26011556488700843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14707059396751546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12321334651584034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989560564737956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0868542017436122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15506266525830606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08785483106382831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344046079806116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32570785583615897,0.0,0.09591920242536872
schizophrenia,Tongue37,2020/03/28,"Lack of Motivation..why?  Seems a lack of motivation Is a common symptom of schizophrenia.. Sometimes it is severe and the patient literally does nothing, day in and day out.. 

  What causes this lack of motivation? Do you suffer from this? What have you tried to do to improve this? Can anything be done?",2.6166666666666667,5.621907981481487,3.8684259259259264,79.35041666666669,89.55555555555556,5.662962962962964,27.12037037037037,7.1686216300943375,1.9673037037037042,237,11,39,4,8,77,37,54,0.21600000000000005,0.665,0.11900000000000001,-0.7399,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,8,1,0,3,0,10,9,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,9,7,3,5,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,1,3,33,8,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24194396733760656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3020277465621076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3792223555944503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25728884408144903,0.3008728016546344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821091120042172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2676543216408636,0.0,0.3321459503624071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29078195190294465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3055874343756789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1996124912389189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2652969663571079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,sandyloam333,2020/03/28,"bad insomnia due to nightmares and paranoia even though i take my meds (i dont take the anti psychotics bc they give me bad reactions and actually more nightmares... what?? but im doing ok without them relatively please don't tell me to take them sorry) i still can only go to sleep if im asleep within 15 or so minutes bc then i'll start thinking of bad things and it will go in a cycle of me trying to calm down and relax for a bit to fall asleep, not be tired, then get the bad thoughts again and again until the sun is up, im wide awake and dont sleep until that night. this keeps repeating and has been for a few months. 1 day awake, half a day sleeping. i tried fixing my sleep schedule by waking up earlier when i was tired from the other day but it doesnt work. i end up waking up in the middle of the night and cant get back to sleep.

as long as i can remember ive had a problem with nightmares and insomnia. sometimes it would be ok and id have a good nightly sleep with no bad dreams or straight up no dreams at all. i talked a lot to psychs abt it, they just gave me melatonin and zopiclone (doesnt work and feel super weak after the zopiclone so i havent taken it for ever a year) i took melatonin for a bit this year and it sort of helped (but it had be around 10-30mg. my other meds are lorazepam, clonazepam and tramadol. i have back pain and a bit of nerve pain around my shoulder blades which is what the tram is for. kind of unrelated tho... when i take it it doesnt rly effect me much mentally but helps the pain a lot.

im scared of being judged for not taking my anti psychotics bc i know they dont work for me and make things worse. ive tried a bunch of them in the years. im scared sometimes i'll die because of the nightmare (idk bc it's scary?? ??), smth like a demon is planting nightmares in my brain etc a laundry list of fears

i just want to be able to sleep properly. i'll stay up all night not tired then fall asleep a bit more than halfway through the day and i have stuff that needs to be done. i have 2 cats who need looking after and one needs to get checked by a vet (vets are still open for serious stuff. one my cats has mange on his back legs, near his tail and a bit on his stomach but i can barely stay awake and to top it off i have no motivation to stay up for the call back from the vet)

it rly sucks. ive tried so hard for almost half a decade doing the tips and tricks and stuff. 

damn",1.934026895090728,3.2792207176015498,3.0648728930643827,95.0135606060606,76.83365570599614,5.929612231739893,21.59385649811182,6.3073786221475325,0.06560886064290282,1889,48,444,13,42,607,230,517,0.161,0.736,0.10300000000000001,-0.9887,0,0,0,0,0,0,48.0,0,0,6,7,21,25,3,3,33,2,43,25,16,3,3,63,70,44,1,7,14,0,2,1,0,2,9,0,0,0,27,27,0,1,7,3,1,5,16,17,0,4,9,3,43,8,68,53,15,69,1,0,1,0,17,25,2,7,37,283,70,5,0.056575044569839285,0.0,0.05520908245187036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05665173488843765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007275685462842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17401086842046198,0.236188995373127,0.03448762205919528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3088264793109356,0.0,0.0,0.0631564602305462,0.05776944597499359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14594489364353974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058715964215882335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05789591303087468,0.19891659266071776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050108697125996,0.0,0.06309612963300915,0.03736728336642579,0.05117536679584782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06366265393971761,0.028606042424399524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08867437721666402,0.05427193792530898,0.06430580320290681,0.04745246320037218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05068012746333301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07584211964881213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3055537823090856,0.0,0.0,0.05028649907995055,0.0,0.05891420291706999,0.031092164930347367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02763970906094008,0.0,0.0,0.0500671341314796,0.04750878864959021,0.0,0.0,0.09619615950107613,0.0,0.0,0.037764281562788514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12568424117251448,0.0,0.057014338333903986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.045157660818236425,0.0,0.04158916736689148,0.12584903606624714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123673873206793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07667342874836962,0.043027870764509035,0.18059950877860453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0621024097706546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054134677026673454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06408849685180769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11328297842146474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3963113167329598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1119083313994298,0.06333113052881498,0.040044107736688594,0.18090440988673087,0.09036180734887596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19429467171492654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21268696332674708,0.045472877800637065,0.04944908260006906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07517189145411908,0.036251004160176514,0.055584694042676366,0.04491426589465005,0.0,0.19507407362330004,0.0,0.0,0.06285695618294558,0.1536429663178453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03336942709615213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05453632408015156,0.0,0.1235619187571154,0.0,0.057654803757943,0.04018928844508639,0.0,0.0,0.10929742145183717
schizophrenia,gestas-,2020/03/28,"My girlfriend just got diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder, please help. I've known her for 4 years now, I know people with schizophrenia, I'm just wondering, if there's anything else I can do then what I'm doing already. She told me schizoaffective is a mixture between bi-polar and schizophrenia hence why I'm here asking. 

I guess what I'm asking is, what do you wish your boyfriend did when it came to this stuff? Thanks a lot",4.4733623693379805,6.69867208536586,3.944425087108016,87.64743902439025,72.04878048780488,7.124738675958188,27.567944250871076,7.957251820313856,1.727652961672474,349,13,65,5,7,104,62,82,0.035,0.828,0.13699999999999998,0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,2,0,0,6,1,0,0,2,0,7,1,0,0,0,13,21,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,6,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,9,1,5,17,1,5,0,0,0,0,9,0,0,4,4,39,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377055144550401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17726051355881495,0.0,0.4027504496919305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24636670300752295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21863222190801596,0.0,0.0,0.24687356094741825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1799437979481516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17227959285748626,0.0,0.2372936317616096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14438188077853376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1183813234890313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1831301985855656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1493351702341349,0.0,0.0,0.2364507417536751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2465879580488778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19831660127997067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20582934973883674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19437011395467435,0.0,0.2477058911656149,0.0,0.2335982617121565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1387141898330587
schizophrenia,rickb123456789,2020/03/28,"What caused my first psychotic episode? Hello everyone, I had a first psychotic episode when I was 19 years old in 2018. It lasted about a month and a half. Details of the episode and symptoms I had are in this post I made a while ago if you are curious: 

https://www.reddit.com/r/Psychosis/comments/f8114g/was_this_psychosis/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf

I have been well since the episode without any relapse of symptoms and I stopped my meds about 4 months ago. I was on olanzapine 10mg initially then gradually dose was lowered.
I’d like to hear your opinions on what potentially triggered the episode. The actual diagnosis I believe was affective psychosis due to severe anxiety.
I am going to give my opinions on some possible causes and what my life had been like in the lead up to the episode. I’ll go into detail after I state a possible cause but you don’t have to read all of it if you don’t want to. Here they are:

1. Possible early life trauma from having childhood cancer: 

From the age of 3 until 6 I had leukemia that was treated with chemotherapy. I don’t have a full memory of that period but do remember being in the bed of paeds ward, getting chemo administered into the catheter that was put in my chest for the entire illness. I hated having to get blood taken from the back of my hands. I remember waiting with my mom before getting lumbar puncture surgery and the surgeons putting me under anesthetic for the surgery. I missed lots of school because of this. Personally at the time it didn’t feel too stressful but there’s a possibility it did traumatise me in ways. And of course it was a difficult period for my parents.

2. Being totally obsessed about getting into medical school in the years/months leading up to the episode which put chronic psychological stress on myself: 

In September 2016 I started my final year of high school and was determined to do well in my A Levels or SAT exams the equivalent for wherever you come from, essentially crucial exams to get into university. I was resolute in trying to get into medicine (or medical school for those in US) since the three years prior to then knowing well I’d have to work hard and sit an important medical aptitude test that would determine if I’d get in or not. So the entire final high school year I studied very hard. Gave up all physical exercise as I saw it as time wasted. Attended several tutors every week as well. Looking back my parents said I studied too much and didn’t have any balance. So the final exams ended in May 2017 and in June I got my results from the medical aptitude test. I failed it and was devastated but resolute on repeating it the following year in 2018. So in September 2017 I got my overall exam results and did very well and decided to take up a science degree in a nearby city’s university. I was in student accommodation with other friends from home who were going to the same university. I found it very hard having to share classes with other premed students, being extremely jealous of them. I didn’t really get to know anyone one in my class at the time either and was generally quite shy. The nights I would go out socialising and drinking with friends I would get into bad mood and feel very down and would often go home early. I had also started studying again for the medical aptitude test that I failed previously. By the start of 2018 then I stopped going to lectures,stopped socialising other than talking to my friend at night whom I shared my room with, stopped all exercising too with all my focus and energy on studying for the medical aptitude test. I would write affirmations every day and night saying I would pass the test and I would fantasise passing the test every night before falling to sleep. That non stop studying and lifestyle continued for about 2 months until the exam was over (which I felt I did poorly in again after due to test anxiety on the day). So after the exam was over there was still about 2 and a half months left of the college year. I came back with a bang, making a groupchat with all my friends and the new ones I made in the student accommodation sending in a huge message jokingly explaining a made up story why I had been not going out for so long and then invited them all for drinks. Anyways those 2 and a half months were pretty hectic. I was really enjoying life in general. Going out several times per week sometimes 3/4 nights in a row while drinking copious amounts of alcohol often blacking out not remembering how I got home. Probably going out too much but hey we were first years lol. Also stopped going to lectures as well and just spent time with new friends. Despite all this I continued to write my affirmations everyday that I’d pass the test and the whole obsession of passing it would be on my mind pretty much everyday. The results of the test wouldn’t be out until months later. Start of the summer came then just as the college year ended and low mood and anxiety just came on very suddenly and along with that came the psychotic episode.

3. Not really a possible cause here but a potential contributor to triggering the episode: taking half a pill of MDMA for the first time about a month before the psychotic episode

Thanks for reading, all thoughts and opinions welcome 😊",7.351369230769229,8.165356077948719,7.340115384615384,71.38063461538462,63.6051282051282,10.6025641025641,35.532051282051285,10.504223727775694,3.9093743589743593,4276,188,721,100,60,1371,377,975,0.10300000000000001,0.809,0.08800000000000001,-0.9422,3,0,4,0,0,0,84.0,2,5,3,10,41,35,2,4,69,1,66,27,4,17,9,150,126,67,0,13,21,4,7,2,5,10,20,3,5,1,33,61,4,6,12,8,2,28,12,13,6,11,53,13,76,20,150,58,19,190,0,4,3,0,38,65,0,14,95,512,109,36,0.0,0.0,0.03850667609253028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06995674321087238,0.04217009141777363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0631113256520588,0.0,0.08550847301454642,0.0,0.05366748157121338,0.0,0.0905589843552024,0.0,0.0,0.027590925499552842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09102551404501248,0.032946945457323115,0.024054080105257118,0.0,0.10073111296090784,0.04445722410074116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18052413682068147,0.0,0.16214266737447672,0.0,0.03399077363487955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05089608898852637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11596555021483905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06989862116732437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09973872299753778,0.037705141604333435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03990371007834835,0.0,0.037887205939735914,0.12967751087045118,0.0,0.13425656024005295,0.0,0.04326518840219213,0.15243114815903225,0.0,0.18554314088622847,0.03785304594448995,0.22425682739456945,0.0,0.09467784529957303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10604359822099883,0.03895798190169041,0.0,0.0,0.04447360443731882,0.0,0.0,0.08338203167277751,0.11874296738604112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0433717015685652,0.03216467237989658,0.0,0.0,0.04287274663073777,0.0,0.08361401001180363,0.038555733108922095,0.0,0.0,0.0349203216438682,0.03313595254319017,0.0,0.0,0.03354696537913417,0.0,0.11201229701002599,0.02633945165223709,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04383049083440723,0.2385071264336384,0.0,0.0,0.03984273895308402,0.046214364906382234,0.25196889221842395,0.0,0.08702158371230095,0.0,0.0,0.07622025650111405,0.0,0.18514983932451867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041405995825498185,0.0,0.053477412675550576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762997383344259,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0344544204940261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224226871495842,0.03779119150937504,0.08028877845043234,0.04254390026822528,0.0,0.0,0.11900276805384673,0.0,0.041969922273492034,0.07894014379563695,0.0,0.07583609391605478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13409940248587307,0.0,0.03753491944807248,0.03137969359509142,0.0,0.19967506492747056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13373364938091062,0.0,0.06528243633827911,0.0,0.039487890727668964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03902634926970601,0.0,0.1117182476180649,0.0,0.0315123227211043,0.1979389196736409,0.09040120415728088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0820268374177444,0.059337106448502215,0.03171596590091531,0.0,0.036328908113634935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03132635088161074,0.1380545384824152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.026790338089092702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047464792024490186,0.0,0.0,0.16279066131524672,0.02327417271795833,0.03132102997633559,0.06330389082489478,0.0,0.212872402511966,0.0,0.03560596523095659,0.04405500380668945,0.0,0.03803744734324075,0.0,0.0287269085184769,0.0,0.0,0.2242465686899723,0.0,0.0,0.20328444614228916
schizophrenia,crybabybones,2020/03/29,"Noticeably Unique Self- pondering question for my fellow multi-minded schizos interested in a moment of individualized self reflection. 

Not in relation to any other schizos you may or may not know, but in what ways do you see that you are NOTICEABLY UNIQUE from any of your other non schizo friends?

Try to reflect upon the fact that individuals having schizophrenia coupled WITH bi-polar disorder AND/OR SEVERE (any type) anxiety could have traits similar to each other yet VERY different than those schizophrenics who are diagnosed SOLELY within the schizoid spectrum.

Any non schizo readers, feel free to take a moment to apply the previous self reflection practice to yourself and your lives. Please state the related comparisons of yourself as a non schizo (what type of mental health or cognitive disability do you have?)to how, in your own lives, that you are also NOTICEABLY UNIQUE. 

-----The goal I had within brainstorming and putting together this unique self reflection practice was for responders and readers to see differences and similarities amongst each other and to learn how, in terms of social behaviors and practices, that we can be seen as a variation of the average person into its own lovable breed of crazy. 
------I will be posting my own self reflection summary as well. It's gonna take me a second to think about how to write out these traits I noticed related to the reflection practice and putting them into a fine tuned short essay. Stay posted!!!! 

My Chart
--Schizophrenic with secondary bipolar type 1 characterized by severe mania and psychotic behaviors. Erratic and choatic, impulsive intended or unintended behaviors including hallucinations of primarily my senses of visual, auditory, as well as my sense of touch. 

-Tertiary diagnosis is stated as a panic disorder that used to cause me to literally black out cold when I was younger. Xanax treated this very well. Over time, it has almost reduced itself into just a really bad case of generalized social anxiety. 

-Physiological (conditions related to the functioning of the body organs and systems not having to do with the hormonal or chemical imbalance of the brain) physiological conditions usually have a partial effect on your mental health capabilities. 
Blood tests contain an inconsistent level of thyroid hormone ranging from NORMAL to HIGH amounts produced by my thyroid and parathyroid glands. 
An excess in these hormones causes an increased heart rate coupled with heart flutters and palpitations. It also dictactes that your usual BPM is higher. This is  because its your bodies way of supplementing an increased demand for oxygen supply caused by the heart pumping more blood due to its increased rate. Basic metabolic rate is also high. 
All of these conditions combined can induce unclear thinking patterns related to anxiety. 
Anxiety caused by imbalanced thyroid or parathyroid hormones can only be cured through treatment of the thyroid in order to decrease the level of hormones that it produces. 
Onset can happen at any time for absolutely no reason and for me in my life, has wreaked great havoc because of the nature of this type of anxiety.

-Your conditions list if you want to list one doesn't have to be as long or detailed as mine. But feel free. 

Peace 
Love
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schizophrenia,Mayonast,2020/03/29,"Losing sleep over possible schizophrenia I did read through the first posts about diagnosing schizophrenia, but I guess I just wanted to post about it to be on the safe side. I really don't want to see a doctor unless I really have to. When I hear voices, it's usually only two. I used to joke about it, and pretend they were two dragons. One really sad and crazy, and one that was dangerously angry all the time. Occasionally I fantasize about the death or pain of someone I hate. 
From what I can gather, it is two voices one (my own) and the other in second person, telling me to do certain things and very diminishing things about myself and others. Like the ""angry dragon"". This happens mostly when I am unoccupied, alone and especially before bed when I try to sleep. It is very loud and keeps me up for hours. (Yes I read the part where it said that is normal, but it is very hard to sleep and it happens almost every night) Can someone please provide feedback?! I'm afraid that going to the doctor would prove very hard right now.",5.596293706293707,6.488710020202023,6.023737373737372,79.00304195804195,67.48484848484848,8.516550116550116,26.34188034188034,8.617729084823388,1.7751199689199688,816,22,152,12,13,263,120,198,0.212,0.7190000000000001,0.069,-0.9865,0,1,0,0,0,0,27.0,0,0,1,2,11,10,2,1,9,1,15,7,3,1,3,27,28,16,1,4,5,0,2,1,0,1,4,5,1,1,17,9,0,2,1,4,0,1,1,6,0,8,4,8,18,4,23,22,4,19,0,2,1,0,6,7,0,4,10,112,35,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10729310793489427,0.11097287260156057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09117494012441912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10875282612573632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21934075731003355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09027669634619882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09113991805551508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0608946001166305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180354517303136,0.0,0.1895010038692845,0.0,0.19196687962992576,0.10578633243037726,0.0,0.0,0.12076342956510205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1055190623685454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09523794432912012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0523470339152804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11987105202457443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10055101160855874,0.10498215669845128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21781849618473675,0.08149077854784949,0.11401288137383225,0.0,0.0,0.1160306948133698,0.0,0.0,0.09355738162399263,0.0,0.11761617835113812,0.0,0.12079311696503853,0.2052360698785238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143537186998048,0.0,0.2059249953313671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915036900823416,0.10192215491298168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08538297482152529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32167573356593804,0.0,0.181572074268266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0936519555339081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14236855904483642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062478780934959885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07274636602498108,0.0,0.3140036806788398,0.0,0.0,0.09254135188063076,0.11800823403720635,0.3536328356620221,0.12639717213263174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07611476809062946,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,spooky-yikes-wow,2020/03/29,"I’ve tried over 5 antipsychotics and none have taken away my symptoms. I’m starting to think there’s no hope in trying more. I’ve read that sometimes these hallucinations that don’t go away with meds are stress induced, but they are almost always there. 
Some antipsychotics with nasty side effects and are too expensive muffled them and made them sound further away but none have made the visual ones different or gotten rid of any of the tactile ones too. 
Has anyone had any experiences like this? Any advice? I’m scared I’m going to have to live with this.",3.663012987012992,6.466933361904764,3.528917748917753,86.76350649350651,77.28571428571428,6.103896103896104,22.87878787878788,7.348242739294969,1.0023333333333342,453,14,82,6,11,137,72,105,0.11599999999999999,0.836,0.048,-0.8131,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,3,1,4,4,0,2,2,0,9,1,0,4,0,17,21,6,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,6,0,0,3,1,1,2,4,2,0,2,5,1,4,2,13,16,4,10,0,0,0,0,3,7,0,4,2,50,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16430529770121913,0.0,0.0,0.168368778575221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1399066610000309,0.0,0.0,0.343024641971659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11756799541751314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4739216049246838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17567140671536233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16447402007504194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19111664562247527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16700180789807387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08214512872252287,0.0,0.14847145561484568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3181978853105957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18676658547211314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278731899907267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1681863564919866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16833832845318492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16629560513210856,0.0,0.11901096271875805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926047815299476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1747627285246152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10773787077471972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283132072349748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,GurgleIt,2020/03/29,"Mind reading device? I haven't been diagnosed yet, but i've lately been hearing voices, very judgemental ones. I'm completely convinced that my sibling has a mind reading device in an adjacent room, that can convert my internal thoughts into speech, even through a wall and no electrodes attached to my head. They're listening to my thoughts and judging me, saying stuff like, oh he's a bad or good person because he's thinking x, or doing y

I hate being judged, but it's also  frustrating because logically, i know the tech isn't remotely there yet, and i don't know any super genius capable to invent such a device, yet in my mind i know without a doubt he has such a device, because there's no way would he be able to comment on certain stuff if he didn't. In fact, i found out recently i can hear my own vocoded thoughts if he has the volume high enough up on the device.

Anyone dealt with the same thing before?",6.702067039106147,6.492707614525143,7.080385474860336,76.1815837988827,65.03351955307261,9.61810055865922,35.77709497206703,9.120678840339163,3.2142487150837984,729,32,132,11,10,238,112,179,0.128,0.765,0.107,-0.7205,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,9,9,2,1,11,0,15,2,1,0,2,30,28,10,0,3,7,0,0,1,0,1,1,6,1,1,6,6,0,0,9,2,0,0,7,4,0,1,7,6,14,5,15,18,3,17,0,0,0,0,12,11,0,5,6,85,20,2,0.13378813255066804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10699032126444827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0909805179250052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09354777300845106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11170750234577784,0.2446680114790089,0.0,0.1138438468390434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14027431155363462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357921383208621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13823890474697434,0.0,0.08836579976378704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14669178182811352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122151380485448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1320880826511508,0.13730522187416075,0.0,0.30157789761980763,0.0,0.0,0.1413545075179679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22057937636373454,0.0,0.15091884091802776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06536212366465055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4052636255001827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09065830108041767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11681863689440625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26764867503877005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13209964057321147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10639369286673378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30631080648048314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08888289045475764,0.08572603321044615,0.0,0.318638498897419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11038922078102197,0.0,0.10619479229374236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289669855382004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0950392507949468,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,40condomthrowaway,2020/03/29,"Stopped taking my meds because of fear of weight gain. I'm getting worse by the day. I was doing so great mentally when I was medicated but then I noticed the scale. I panicked and quit my meds cold turkey. Why the fuck do I have to choose between looking good physically and feeling good mentally. My suicidal thoughts,delusions and paranoia are affecting me on a daily basis again and it's getting harder to hide from loved ones. Dumb question but if anyone knows how I can hide this from people lmk.",3.8280935672514613,6.339137399999999,4.4256140350877216,82.13374269005851,75.0,6.7485380116959055,30.555555555555557,7.793537801064563,2.296520467836257,403,19,70,6,9,128,72,95,0.262,0.5710000000000001,0.16699999999999998,-0.8893,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,4,7,2,1,4,0,7,4,0,2,0,14,16,11,1,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,4,10,4,9,14,0,6,0,0,1,2,2,1,2,2,5,45,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12552897967335966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10943758057855367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11577962689576643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20201702536678146,0.09077390338714457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16596919334243984,0.1875901888363513,0.0,0.0,0.30115632537540965,0.0,0.1979284055798814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09866297244519176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1507568969848054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620295162469775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3988265484689776,0.18085388392477592,0.3618406183435849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20439190933923568,0.0,0.0,0.1216516830659024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12446094832918173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20111056898901167,0.19094834350689135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15009204520692826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19637265974406826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349814530391655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21861469750176746,0.0,0.0,0.16199458353796567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829526611365276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Alexprince7,2020/03/29,How much weight can you gain on zyprexa? So I just started zyprexa about 4 months ago and I almost gained 15 lbs. I’m wondering when the weight gain will stop? Or does it ever stop? Will I just keep gaining more and more weight?,0.7313768115942025,3.2202753260869628,0.7391304347826093,103.4185507246377,89.21739130434781,3.936231884057971,18.536231884057973,5.46131890053228,-0.6772637681159419,179,5,41,1,6,52,34,46,0.084,0.67,0.24600000000000002,0.8579,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,4,7,0,0,0,1,0,3,3,0,1,1,12,7,6,0,0,3,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,2,5,3,8,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,3,7,23,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18420063726346908,0.0,0.20807996087857653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18184567503174226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.187965440807712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18470065889212967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16586260447152568,0.0,0.1527556452722433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14708069201545787,0.0,0.0,0.347457333104864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7591269710540037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22534837042497965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Austinvanover1998,2020/03/29,"Help me I have schizophrenia and it isn't typical. My schizophrenia is Satan. Is it the actual Devil? I think so. Everybody else thinks I'm crazy. 
Weird things happen when I question God also. I will start to go against God through thought or action and weird things happen. 
I've seen ghosts before also. 
P.s. I pray to Jesus everyday. The Devil won't quit.",1.0052450980392145,3.4484676617647056,2.0641176470588256,90.35686274509806,100.3235294117647,4.6196078431372545,18.901960784313726,6.42735559955562,0.4748196078431373,283,9,51,4,12,89,48,68,0.198,0.6779999999999999,0.125,-0.7506,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,2,0,6,0,0,0,0,7,15,7,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,4,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,2,1,7,0,4,11,0,5,5,0,1,0,2,0,0,2,3,30,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.2458324516609007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4029122605995264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143608933180529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21044244417929991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14316895477456382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4455347535041381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1688531432186048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2822021674301554,0.26794233975732434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783065528767885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3347219252966801,0.32283359302827164,0.0,0.19999216811938414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,wallabyytuna,2020/03/29,"Question About the Voices in My Head I recently started taking Abilify. The regular voices, the aggressive voices, music, thumps, steps, and other noise I frequently hear are still there, just muffled. Does anyone have any similar situations they’d like to share with me? I’m glad they sound farther away helping me to distinguish if they are real or not but I am still affected by them and was hoping they would go away altogether.",5.356753246753247,8.083315324675329,6.016883116883117,71.51675324675327,71.07792207792205,9.594805194805195,30.48051948051948,9.957137785484203,3.7530311688311695,348,15,53,10,7,113,61,77,0.040999999999999995,0.8240000000000001,0.135,0.7543,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,5,0,5,5,1,0,3,0,7,1,1,1,0,14,13,5,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,1,5,11,4,8,10,0,11,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,4,6,39,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15819074092107352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626545095722748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43711151123500974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20356882755305789,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13220427955085864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2387369876099179,0.0,0.2621815755611632,0.0,0.1559214299235748,0.0,0.0,0.2310458476805679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11364721817926834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2605895551276517,0.0,0.0,0.26477443533312983,0.0,0.0,0.2296858766500876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614765504625559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646508448664109,0.0,0.3715439989693381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17490257709868068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16524778977658805,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,vehement555,2020/03/30,Eyes everywhere on the steet Don’t you wish everyone was blind so no more eyes looking at you? How do you get over this feeling everyone is looking at you?,1.285,3.9008864516129047,2.6583064516129045,89.80745967741936,87.70967741935482,6.970967741935485,27.10483870967742,8.07648339933343,2.166606451612904,124,6,25,3,4,40,23,31,0.163,0.7170000000000001,0.11900000000000001,-0.3821,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,4,3,2,1,0,3,9,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,4,0,4,8,1,4,0,0,5,0,4,4,0,0,0,18,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6623918357576545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17525389540839553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810867997697176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5821217876593165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3985786288140287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Mdmabois,2020/03/30,How to get over stalking delusion Ive had this delusion for 5 years and it drives me up the fucking wall with paranoia,9.41,6.4857966666666655,8.028333333333332,80.25000000000004,61.5,9.6,44.83333333333333,3.1291,3.2511333333333328,96,5,19,0,1,29,23,24,0.09699999999999999,0.903,0.0,-0.3102,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,3,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,5,3,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,13,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7444080585739438,0.4206914713113799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5185318970864171
schizophrenia,CREST_BD,2020/03/30,"[Crosspost] World Bipolar Day AMA on r/IAmA! We are bipolar disorder experts and scientists, ask us anything! Join us here! - [https://www.reddit.com/r/IAmA/comments/frv7op/we\_are\_bipolar\_disorder\_experts\_and\_scientists/](https://www.reddit.com/r/IAmA/comments/frv7op/we_are_bipolar_disorder_experts_and_scientists/)",43.07045454545455,55.24920695454547,20.45327272727273,-43.7400909090909,24.90909090909091,7.2145454545454575,40.763636363636365,7.554174236665415,5.283407272727274,291,8,13,3,5,64,20,22,0.14400000000000002,0.767,0.08900000000000001,-0.3348,0,0,0,0,0,0,40.0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2732708077320797,0.0,0.3104468629028719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2141619825526635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.38058863789431296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7988947020040165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,NumberLine41114,2020/03/30,Nothing interests me except sleep. I’m most content not realizing I’m awake.,2.0983333333333327,4.318394071428575,4.772857142857145,69.15547619047621,108.28571428571428,7.580952380952381,33.23809523809524,7.793537801064563,4.27312380952381,63,4,9,2,3,22,12,14,0.13699999999999998,0.863,0.0,-0.1877,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,4,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6920939100583637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7218074671684448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,WendyWN,2020/03/30,"Help me understand Hi ! Right now my 16 yr old is in a delusional state. He went off his Prozac (for anxiety) 3 months ago. He’s been spiralling downward bc he has visual snow and migraines and it wasn’t getting better then BAM! Full blown delusional state . UTTEY CONVINCED his brow is too heavy and fatty and is putting pressure on his eyes. He thinks this is the reason for the VS. BUT last month it was all about his genitalia- but he was semi-lucid. All this week he’s been manic and destroyed the house twice and cut himself on glass. We’ve been in touch with our doctor, bern to the hospital like 8 times, and a shrink is calling today to help me. He’s already been to an optometrist, an ophthalmologist, a neuro-ophthalmologist, this past year. His eyes are healthy. He’s been to a sexual health clinic- his genitalia are fine. I’ve done EVERYTHING but NOW he’s full on manic. After he hurt himself they convinced him to get back on his Prozac but then two days later he cut himself in a freak out and he’s on Seroquel 12.5 mg up to three times a day but he’s not enough . It’s helping but not enough and if we don’t catch him and give it to him fast he spirals  from obsessing into agression . He’s looking at the mirror 50x day talking non stop circular conversations, holding his eyebrows up, just totally OUT OF REALITY. What can I say or do to help him ? Im FINALLY accepting the delusion as I would an imaginary friend- just going right along with it. But still he’s manic. We don’t get sleep. The pandemic has him at home safe but it’s a madhouse. When the Prozac Kicks in the docs say, it’ll get better but right now it’s only day 3 of Prozac. My uncle was schizophrenic so I’m worried but whatever it is I need help from someone who has been there wit me delusions on teens and hormones and depression all mixed up .Advice on how to handle him until Prozac Kicks in. What do I DO when he’s full on losing it ? Help pls thank you",1.2570130932896928,3.776039910256412,2.683606110201854,90.60189034369888,85.7948717948718,5.678123295144572,22.40043644298964,7.125416948008024,0.8498914348063287,1535,55,314,23,47,497,201,390,0.095,0.7759999999999999,0.129,0.9226,0,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,3,1,1,3,14,19,3,2,19,0,30,13,3,2,4,51,43,32,0,3,17,0,1,1,1,2,10,2,1,0,16,20,0,3,4,0,0,4,5,9,0,3,12,6,31,10,44,29,9,65,0,3,3,0,54,29,0,2,31,192,47,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10620480172805943,0.09634185808395054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199355584717548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08314300541099387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08357133045019845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1922444309527573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1109785728517947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2803688998260089,0.0,0.09360941823541792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1112427367238015,0.0,0.11122152365628273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224599365996328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09767822160590024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11905807098825698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08396903211599918,0.0,0.2271317341070315,0.10425964997931852,0.0617676536887349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11552606930513858,0.0,0.0,0.4370917909264835,0.0,0.10901896979289527,0.0,0.0,0.1254068085022585,0.11634852987835145,0.0,0.1173974308315462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08859201156348735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0530975399513045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09126723431848957,0.12158965843567693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17350115329486135,0.0,0.0,0.08058785044405531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11404563421771248,0.0,0.0,0.08265912213116397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1037512293745825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10925749508646987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11174531094230697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2784467701284977,0.0,0.1728598472883912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10876254639390863,0.0,0.09208764801367483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08679522756915434,0.09086473742307592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08735612738891806,0.0,0.10006167666435167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06964035465879867,0.0,0.0,0.12674909421503808,0.0,0.10301977705974052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1061685303678334,0.1131439353163212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08717979405688027,0.0,0.0,0.10075120883438383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11037393458710168,0.0,0.07720603513309539,0.0,0.0,0.06998896876130993
schizophrenia,The_Arsonist_Queen,2020/03/30,"I'm tired of writers equating their ""muses"" to hallucinations I'm just so sick of it, honestly. I'm a writer, and I'm in a lot of writing groups. I hate scrolling through fun and light-hearted posts and then seeing something that makes light of ""hearing voices"". Just recently I saw a post that that said ""*for most people hearing voices is a sign of insanity, but for writers hearing voices in your head keeps you sane*"" and it just really felt like a punch in the gut. The replies were even worse, with everyone agreeing and laughing about it. One reply said something along the lines of ""*I love the voices, but I wish they wouldn't do it in PUBLIC, so I don't look like a crazy schizophrenic having an episode of multiple personalities at Walmart*"" and it had a lot of likes and heart reacts. It was shocking enough to see the post to begin with, but all the replies just made it so much worse. 

I hate how people can stigmatise our symptoms by calling it crazy and yet still want to sensationalise it with their jokes. Writers exhaust me with the way they equate their ""muse"" or characters to being literal voices in their head and how they ""need"" them to write. I love writing, and I totally get how much it sucks when you don't have inspiration and don't know what to do with the characters and I also get how great a burst of inspiration and knowing exactly how a scene is going to go is. But to equate that to literal hallucinations just so insensitive and I'm so tired of it. I know the stigma is going to be everywhere in different ways, but this has just been everywhere for me and I'm so tired of it. 

I feel alienated in writing communities whenever I see that stuff, and I'm so embittered to writers acting all ""woe is me"" over their muses and treating them like a debilitating symptom. I just needed to rant about it to some people who would understand, because it's really grating at me. I know no one is intentionally trying to be mean-spirited or ableist with it, but it always makes me feel so left out so I just wanted to vent to people who'd understand me.",6.195074626865673,6.464122549751245,6.793246268656716,76.19195895522391,66.03980099502488,10.083084577114429,32.670398009950254,9.928628108626363,3.07286368159204,1643,64,314,34,24,540,181,402,0.14400000000000002,0.731,0.125,-0.7441,1,0,2,0,0,0,47.0,1,3,10,0,29,20,3,0,20,0,25,14,4,10,4,83,71,42,0,7,16,0,3,4,0,2,8,10,0,1,26,25,0,1,11,1,0,4,5,6,0,2,9,19,35,14,53,56,10,27,0,1,5,2,31,12,1,6,10,224,61,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07014099794259075,0.07298106231556897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05346670080978449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08956087719212448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0916374230427434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09062702699506216,0.0,0.057931084851193214,0.0,0.0,0.08380987825466064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08869679150578466,0.0,0.08421456549717833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09164885086403037,0.0,0.14954144131543495,0.0,0.0,0.09669967836415283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17318930953717426,0.1800298414130038,0.0,0.2965638542789012,0.20787159642035166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07795994738240747,0.0,0.0,0.1928106816997688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09529627850945624,0.0,0.0,0.17140109599835432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07365361938271589,0.0,0.0,0.14913441321835094,0.15832191504476614,0.08299254492439688,0.1170931147498888,0.0,0.0,0.09554100764742517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12895267552613193,0.1300704882272346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11886801786197328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24322600158514399,0.07658427111190952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520034423476564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11237749067239662,0.0,0.08660223194171736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16686302691831836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.209678577314827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13504562058432093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07004466283382935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10040602455074643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18232683833246494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3024263926419932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059548774467140735,0.0,0.0,0.18261669501609284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10346629127873899,0.1392389259095407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10086122609770497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17876629113377066,0.06230608353812672,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,refrigeratorhum31,2020/03/30,"Did anyone else here decided they wanted to go off their meds and then had to go back on them due to their symptoms eventually coming back? If so can you tell a little about what happened? Did your symptoms get even worse then before? How do you’re feel your doing now? 

I feel I need to make this post because this has happened to me recently, and I’ll try to never make the same mistake again. Stay on your meds people!",4.185714285714287,5.325229952380956,4.620000000000001,86.875,70.90476190476191,7.028571428571429,24.714285714285715,7.1686216300943375,0.9382999999999996,332,9,67,3,6,105,61,84,0.081,0.919,0.0,-0.7752,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,4,4,0,9,1,0,0,2,0,7,2,0,3,1,15,19,7,0,4,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,3,2,11,0,10,16,1,18,0,0,0,0,9,4,0,1,9,48,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238013270086058,0.1814142900342346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722895112886703,0.0,0.10793139349567664,0.0,0.15066119542113313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15251764142944102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14790715655563208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11694349230467825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1790491681892392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925041945380519,0.0,0.20124944937158792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3131391996253649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1774561318329854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363718511203124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3933375072051202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13128441473294844,0.13655612186895588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12274799495699455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16957023272643806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17482095270024253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18871761212447324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3680569295437552,0.0,0.0,0.1547543168661367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12020906679961232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10443192518342416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1804346875709111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,idk22581,2020/03/30,"I need help from you guys I had a hallucination last night it started with me seeing movement  over me i was turned to the wall so i can see the oppen room i was awake for about ten min then i got supper fearful that a shadow person behind me  i went to turn around and i could not turn around to see it but when i tryed it sounded surprised it said oh my  it could olny stop me from moveing for 2 seconds 

Is it normal for hallucinations to make you stop moveing",0.7923863636363642,3.1034218750000018,2.5636363636363626,92.2268181818182,85.45833333333334,4.324242424242423,19.14393939393939,5.565023196281405,-0.3185083333333334,364,10,78,2,11,120,64,96,0.085,0.8690000000000001,0.046,-0.5423,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,2,0,0,5,2,0,1,4,0,7,1,0,1,0,13,19,5,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,2,7,4,1,2,0,0,0,4,1,1,0,2,6,5,16,1,15,11,0,17,0,0,3,0,6,5,0,0,8,57,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2824934931980337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533644395880156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.178543826255715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12690002474549658,0.0,0.0,0.1571046941410172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1063507519358588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12933430333225193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10591106258942624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3372745732848062,0.0,0.1176491346147657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14889768002786666,0.15545939644619966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13854139158266335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15092809278799985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3793097651059553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11230490361074907,0.0,0.0,0.26530445137617825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10772407913453272,0.5177504846618877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470853542493411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Zonta1,2020/03/30,"How’s everyone doing amidst this Coronavirus? Self isolation is new to me as I sit at home all day and do nothing anyway, but what I was really excited about was reducing my dose of medication this got pushed back for another couple weeks possibly longer because my doctor might have to work else where he can’t manage me if I get psychotic, I’m literally dying at home doing nothing all day I hate this medication I’d rather be psychotic and be a zombie than be a zombie and psychotic but that’s just me guys",7.975200000000001,6.9448181200000025,9.084000000000003,65.55700000000003,62.8,13.6,36.0,12.688352899677879,4.833399999999998,412,16,74,14,5,143,71,100,0.019,0.902,0.079,0.7708,0,1,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,8,2,1,0,2,0,12,4,0,1,2,12,16,8,1,2,5,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,2,2,5,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,3,0,9,1,9,9,2,10,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,5,51,14,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19364604535796395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14200235995173507,0.0,0.11257512282958916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20433748161059345,0.0,0.2381979873833056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916617177117996,0.0,0.0,0.18902093645239854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15427083610564635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1764632415307872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09648417133417757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14770009934836853,0.0,0.0,0.18285559029055093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823266397461276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.370484732185122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37207781987515465,0.0,0.19590917583050985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1783586131784853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3543980027050888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081913855477624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11830643769038135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1926545160561622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481337730235196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13444435375747826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,tacobelldinners,2020/03/30,Does anyone else wonder if the Coronavirus pandemic is a delusion? Anyone else wonder this? Was this a fucked up way my brain tricked me into skipping work?,4.431666666666668,7.488459785714286,4.485714285714288,79.5259523809524,76.14285714285714,6.590476190476192,27.190476190476193,7.793537801064563,2.1648190476190483,126,5,19,2,3,39,23,28,0.235,0.765,0.0,-0.8121,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,3,0,2,2,1,0,0,4,5,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,2,4,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,2,1,3,0,12,4,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3326118041215312,0.4873981221341757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2655123196437444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2081386958571877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3973759197349702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21988274329110816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18878932291601416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5158628702674439,0.17315310552593893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,COCACOLACAN1842,2020/03/30,Talking to myself? I was diagnosed at age 12 with scizoaffctive disorder depressive type.Im 15 now i very very often find myself have long arguments with myself.or saying random things that even i have no idea what it means i do it i public or private.Sometimes i just laugh when i think of bad moments from my life dose anyone else do this?,3.1397802197802207,5.8891662307692325,4.0068131868131855,82.8746153846154,79.0,6.791208791208793,24.67032967032967,7.957251820313856,1.7466483516483522,275,10,48,5,7,88,53,65,0.20800000000000002,0.7390000000000001,0.053,-0.8577,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,0,10,7,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,6,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,10,1,6,6,0,6,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,3,5,34,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.164660322812084,0.2412876847247819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19662459944530936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2028274868205765,0.2390177404782941,0.0,0.0,0.269892334288713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19672196359393526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15553915017665554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2152339066638772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26583993255886706,0.2543699801111008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16633379309656893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20840154255334173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25651801920632905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1872713721471858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2329059700817603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18927821698574054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564493195731055,0.15089270271090574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3886083900070056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,kas-sol,2020/03/30,"Balancing healthy skepticism against delusional paranoia. Before I get to the actual issue, I just want to say that this is not a debate, I do not want to discuss politics, and the only reason I'm mentioning anything political is because it's part of the background for my problem.

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I spend much of my time on what you could call non-parliamentary politics or ""Direct action"". Because of that, I am often registered by the national intelligence service at demonstrations, manifestations, marches, etc., and I have been filmed by officers numerous times. It is probably understandable that this can lead to a fair bit of caution in terms of information security (IE using Duckduckgo instead of Google, using Telegram and Signal to encrypt texts and calls when discussing intimate information, etc.), and hearing of others getting sent semi-threatening texts from that intelligence service, as well as hearing friends talk about being beaten in the back of police cars certainly doesn't  cause that caution to feel unjustified. 

So while I know there's actual non-delusional reasons to worry sometimes, it's also hard to know exactly where the line between a healthy skepticism and an unhealthy paranoia can be drawn. I do what I can to make sure I never become too paranoid, including asking non-schizophrenic friends what they're thinking about, or asking friends who have experience in intelligence security what they think of current situations, and so far that has worked reasonably well. The issue is that all my methods of keeping myself anchored to reality rely on other people, so they're not really useful when I'm alone or self-isolating.",16.842748121787267,11.54180465480427,14.979549228944249,43.27682878608147,50.494661921708186,18.325187821273232,57.912613681296946,15.322241378113626,8.524110003954133,1352,75,181,41,9,438,172,281,0.087,0.763,0.15,0.9478,1,1,1,0,0,0,40.0,0,1,1,3,17,13,3,0,11,0,18,0,0,9,5,42,40,19,0,4,7,0,2,0,3,0,0,3,0,0,19,7,0,3,11,1,1,4,5,4,2,0,2,5,16,9,36,35,7,23,0,0,0,0,20,9,0,4,10,135,35,5,0.0,0.0,0.207949944711014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110351057869657,0.0,0.08520598251877089,0.0,0.1154441517684482,0.12946685231327845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08767949890016193,0.0,0.19921502483454398,0.0,0.0,0.08192843654550883,0.0,0.12990071165692854,0.11767332238604572,0.09066405922514437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11632225432109228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21759378281569053,0.0,0.0,0.10945361342925504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08506949418794664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376572130156588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10422388183642267,0.0,0.0,0.0538736080765392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2469549598807576,0.0,0.11133332307272804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09544561543052964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2401735107339993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2224157777132941,0.0,0.09470429718246401,0.0,0.0,0.11711141882946514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07112127130421993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07832465846594777,0.0,0.08217598623239394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08103416094908482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11538053956644738,0.0,0.07386660814313202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1148762059767154,0.10195155031293204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06825704499936495,0.32864566954276164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08473083384901214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11115226042213493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1197638334516712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.105378183686989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10041974044418067,0.0,0.0,0.08563882974089189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13654264798548674,0.0,0.0,0.12425738667383884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.110919685915451,0.0,0.2760684436830241,0.0,0.0,0.12568893036272452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1915979635431372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07756783555896751,0.1082041394744366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12946685231327845,0.0
schizophrenia,JoeLilBroJoe,2020/03/30,"Are people just saying they are schizo-affective because they don't want the stigma of ""schizophrenic"" When I go to my Mental Health group nobody wants to say they are schizophrenic but are clearly not as mentally stable as me, they say their schizo-affective and i feel like it's a majority of people who are schizophrenic saying their schizo-affective",10.750952380952382,9.8562586984127,9.457142857142859,64.66285714285716,57.253968253968246,13.47936507936508,36.873015873015866,12.45797560212912,4.816358730158731,290,10,45,8,3,90,42,63,0.055999999999999994,0.833,0.111,0.655,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,6,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,6,4,0,0,1,8,10,5,0,2,3,0,1,1,0,0,4,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,10,1,6,10,1,2,0,0,0,0,12,0,0,0,2,31,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13521731466851686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11215711634979653,0.15846579304986874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12606346143225602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2357806280882669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10836836564215696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4470778364411632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30755934342113905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7055897185811363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616663054485944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,KasioPlayaDok,2020/03/31,"Does this happen to anyone else Hey guys,

I experience hallucinations sometimes (auditory and visual) and also delusions. I am currently being assessed by doctors and i am in the early stages of diagnoses. Sometimes, i feel as though i am not actually hallucinating and that there is nothing wrong with me. I feel as though my brain is trying to trick me into thinking i am fine when i am most likely not. I was wondering if this has happened to anybody else.",6.148214285714285,7.775167869047621,7.429523809523811,66.73214285714286,66.73809523809524,9.40952380952381,34.23809523809524,9.725611199111238,3.6756809523809526,367,17,58,8,6,125,58,84,0.015,0.9279999999999999,0.055999999999999994,0.486,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,1,0,10,3,1,0,0,14,16,11,0,1,3,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,6,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,12,2,10,14,1,6,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,3,4,49,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.183517674790028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15039007403223806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1314946655176258,0.19268784886700768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2099351449932684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908751136898988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19248553568610854,0.1645709975044391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141969888189324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18395700444923332,0.0,0.0,0.19017575215988208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1862071837695081,0.3325984891287324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09187573698871987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18044691418073427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37198873547588696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1205001006506285,0.3695324519663887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12767917285654115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2039410951091644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20561211905780416,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,drArtem3s,2020/03/31,"Aftermath and critical thinking? I recently had yet another psychotic episode and spent two weeks in the hospital. Before, I was able to do my classes. Now, playing catch up has become a source of serious frustration. I feel like a dumb piece of shit, I can't understand anything. I need the TA's to hand hold me through everything. I was wondering if it could be meds or if it is just the episode, or I'm just dumb. Does this happen to anyone else?

med changes: added a standing dose of thorazine 100mg morning and night.",3.5778555555555585,5.820125430000001,4.437333333333335,83.03922222222225,74.7,8.844444444444445,33.111111111111114,9.444778638647367,3.4140777777777784,413,22,78,11,9,133,77,100,0.168,0.759,0.073,-0.8677,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,0,4,7,4,0,6,0,9,3,2,0,0,16,17,7,0,4,6,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,4,1,1,1,1,5,0,1,4,2,8,2,9,11,1,10,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,5,7,48,11,1,0.20106318029355308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21083227555943124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1405880506130486,0.20601298875811194,0.16545786568835907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22205848590242544,0.17108995742684002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21269818472427984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16053258880451846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17595174401575012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16796248727148014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1807026218191386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10166358522903077,0.14363957617603734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17779950631223895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098229313797904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.446671733713483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14908580052536285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18868417431213108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985256340970772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2063884652157934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12883316735671851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1964095115240455,0.2093138615594868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16128075528741231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21804444224731345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,DaGanLan,2020/03/31,Support Group for Schizophrenics Does anyone know of any support groups like this?,6.819230769230771,10.855746692307694,2.3757692307692326,89.60673076923081,82.07692307692307,2.6,29.57692307692308,3.1291,0.9410307692307692,69,3,9,0,2,17,12,13,0.0,0.5589999999999999,0.441,0.7845,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24983605482294854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2568858375280874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32150322114089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20190652688761204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17948694383875202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8338138175729857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,DevDisho,2020/03/31,"I have Paranoid Schizophrenia and l need help First of all, English isn't my native language so if you noticed any grammar mistake, I'm sorry.
Hi, I'm new to reddit and this is my first post ever. I have been suffering from paranoid schizophrenia and I have been through a lot starting from auditory hallucinations, government and mafia. These delusions drove me to commit suicide but I was saved and been in medication for about 7 months ago. The positive symptoms are gone but the problem is with the negative symptoms, I don't know how to get rid of it. The problem is that I'm getting thoughts that my future will be destroyed because I feel that I don't want learn anything anymore, I feel that I don't want to develop new websites anymore (I'm a junior front-end web developer BTW), I used to watch a lot movies and YouTube videos like a lot, now I can barely continue watch half of the movie and I like watching 3-minute YouTube videos. I don't know what to do, will I ever get back to the old me?",5.332951334379906,6.236166204081634,5.58183673469388,81.89722919937206,68.08163265306122,8.071585557299844,34.974882260596544,8.139509932561175,2.6612697017268445,800,39,153,10,13,254,112,196,0.152,0.754,0.094,-0.8029,0,0,0,0,0,2,20.0,0,1,0,2,7,8,1,0,10,0,21,3,0,2,4,33,40,12,1,7,3,0,2,2,0,2,3,0,0,0,8,8,0,0,6,2,0,2,6,5,0,3,7,5,20,3,17,30,4,18,0,1,3,0,3,1,0,4,16,100,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12622316205893278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09683239831846913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2824319911396505,0.0,0.0,0.11717763965966788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10949173907051003,0.0,0.08680169807654936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12611829228104954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576059741054529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1439967680825153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24223951520403764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22318403121779404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09544329788731357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15651138302304066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13913245028685334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3631733428360427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14344637505158905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11365705740627235,0.0,0.0,0.10558290559143343,0.0,0.2750488758321249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1621158354375259,0.14941792546114666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13637352087444396,0.0,0.0,0.2725025159853232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159397759044481,0.10078678499604167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1557552737503953,0.0,0.0,0.2960025386359769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11304445811965738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12298218329665117,0.0,0.0,0.1679746391801656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,soyeluno,2020/03/31,"What is your job? What are you good at? Hi everybody

I am writing from Spain and I was diagnosed Schizophrenia at 26 (the illness outbreak was at 21) and nowadays I am 30 years old.

I would like to know the way other people diagnosed with this illness is living. In my case I am working in an ""easy"" job, a program for two years of the government and **I would like what to do the following years.**

I find singing and guitar relaxing for me, and I also like electronics. But I also studied psychology before the onset of the illness, but I still find being with people so stressing. 

My girlfriend and my parents are really kind but with other people is more difficult for me. So I decided I will write things about psychology, but I don't think I will be able to see patients.

**What is your job? What are you good at?** I would like to grab ideas for conducting my life. 

Thank you in advance!",0.6681545707557248,3.1689071791907537,2.4603339755940934,88.83552772425604,95.70520231213871,5.568743309783773,22.592378505673302,7.093109894594671,1.2356248769000224,694,28,133,13,27,228,91,173,0.075,0.7829999999999999,0.142,0.907,4,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,5,0,2,6,11,0,1,8,0,21,6,0,0,0,24,26,14,0,3,4,1,1,4,1,5,6,0,0,0,9,9,0,0,6,3,0,2,1,2,0,1,2,2,26,9,22,17,1,15,0,0,1,0,10,7,0,0,9,103,35,6,0.13746148881733147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21985580588750392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11696960246650084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2790410352159671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2512746209083977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305923500076289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15517728900484198,0.0,0.0,0.4092279509865589,0.0,0.0,0.1431449874594384,0.0755452393255041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09709311477086792,0.2686269599526011,0.0,0.12138101303692445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442427090024619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15263471586120858,0.0,0.0,0.28589546499109514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08806134963897061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095390093884604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097769225357648,0.0,0.15746167100636227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12655607036953015,0.0,0.0,0.09132330513449384,0.08807977158249893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13427990063900233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10911053151755956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1000736010174476,0.0,0.0,0.2929460930791333,0.0,0.0,0.2655620758392548
schizophrenia,trustlove11,2020/03/31,"Never had therapy or medication; afraid of medical mistreatment. Now suicidal I'm (26f) autistic and schizophrenic. I was once involuntarily detained in a high security mental ward and strongly medicated for two weeks. It was not rehabilitative for me and I spent a year bedridden at my parent's upon discharge, and two years building up my abilities gradually before I, against all odds, bounced back, and was able to move out, and become a functioning member of society again. 

All without the use of medications, aside for that which was forced on me in the ward, which had adverse affects. I was cooperative with western medicine, and am still convinced that I require a strong western medical form of support for my conditions, but the detainment fucked me up so incredibly badly, that I have resisted the long trek of seeking proper treatment again, and I now have fallen through the cracks.

I managed 4 years without psychoses, and 2 years of being a functioning adult again before alas, this pandemic hit.

My partner (first friend and companion in 5 years), who, although I have been with him 1 year, does not know about my conditions in depth, just broke up with me, and now I am forced into absolutely zero human interaction for the remainder of the self isolation period. I have no supports in the form of friends, family, medication, and therapy, and the emotional pressures became too much for my partner to continue seeing me. 

I cannot come to terms with the seemingly inhumane act of him abandoning me during this time, but have to accept his limits. I am now a vegetable at serious risk of self harm and suicide. 

What do I do.",9.537835051546393,9.224333505154641,9.49352577319588,61.55224742268042,59.30927835051546,13.120824742268045,42.76769759450171,12.340626583579946,5.677923986254298,1314,68,206,39,15,432,169,291,0.188,0.727,0.085,-0.9893,1,1,0,0,0,1,40.0,0,0,0,5,13,19,1,3,16,0,20,9,0,2,3,40,31,19,2,0,8,1,0,0,5,0,7,0,0,6,10,21,1,4,3,0,1,4,7,10,0,4,9,1,29,9,43,20,6,43,0,2,1,1,15,16,1,2,23,161,39,2,0.09794949751685753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07531711752880674,0.08178373907333149,0.0,0.10817752450618216,0.16669561613093475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08437481906954074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571626534701775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11018000106452563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0923380689768531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08331579255031503,0.0,0.0,0.1513510776145802,0.0905527321171593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034890219271446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05383048223460613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08668222301148537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5920428836307546,0.0987100555293096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10410481462819578,0.072004150888521,0.0,0.07554469087998364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10431301812967468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10876132545094848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07805306795674151,0.08916954381349516,0.20436537580346126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07822259524348643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2142817048733784,0.22230385805613906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22402757358776015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05711513969107305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1913648529106505,0.0,0.0,0.08459691691752379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07856917868541158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1888396405405613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3784575900026045
schizophrenia,its2007andimnotsad,2020/03/31,"depersonalization episode out of nowhere been pretty depressed recently and kinda had a meltdown. I was sitting in bed and felt like I was looking down at someone elses body and I was outside it. I got so angry and started hitting myself as hard as I could, leaving bruises and screaming ""I fucking hate you, why won't you fight back, I bet you'd let me kill you"". I had to lock myself in my bathroom to keep from running outside to an overpass behind my house. I felt like I was dragging myself behind me. I've self harmed before but I've never had depersonalization before or such an intense desire to kill myself, even during previous suicide attempts. It only lasted a few minutes, I'm not sure what set it off.",4.393623092236228,6.28718862773723,5.459973457199733,78.10020570670208,71.48175182481751,6.149701393497015,32.16257465162575,6.574015621080383,2.0371080291970807,570,27,96,4,11,188,91,137,0.205,0.7140000000000001,0.081,-0.9644,0,0,0,0,1,2,14.0,0,4,0,1,4,11,5,0,4,0,12,2,1,0,2,18,22,10,3,2,3,0,3,2,0,1,0,1,1,1,4,6,0,1,2,0,1,1,3,8,0,0,11,5,22,3,16,6,1,14,0,1,1,1,6,6,1,3,7,71,26,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13169373145214922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2914711612084934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19023899891983925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13674274274884532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14751199388686742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14307158041528925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11312022117753592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32888630688968296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15833355785468697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697784477420674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15342156858823058,0.16909067947504838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19761909344029496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15222995587843466,0.3789630631967054,0.0,0.0,0.13960544264160266,0.0,0.18134699664003245,0.0,0.17513208477445527,0.0,0.16734478509430634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14382112360747995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13209164874875967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13025625143659614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1742400843126855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16910547518451238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17866880599144572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14511395142619918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12122364581903965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18733827197987346,0.0,0.16141709628749662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15454180530861014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TraditionalRanger1,2020/04/01,"Advice on hobbies for people with schizophrenia? Hello there,

I'll try to make this short and to the point. I think this is best place to ask for hobbies as anywhere else I'd get to broad answers. This community, I hope, can understand much better my issues without need for any special explanation.

So, little background. I am in early 30es, male. Got ill since early age, more precise, half of my life I am on treatment. So I managed to finish grammar school but couldn't move on further. So, all in all, I never worked and I am on welfare since legal age of working in my country (18). It's not that bad. Minimum wage (which most people with my level of education get) compared to all welfare benefits make very little difference. Add to that possibility to inherit parents pensions, no one sane or otherwise would think of changing the status. In my country it's either/or system. So work or be on welfare, no other choice. So that leaves me shitload of free time. Sadly illness ruined my social skills so I do not even feel any urge to hang around with ppl. Although I recently even managed to get married which I admit was and will probably be biggest achievement of my life. She is more than enough of socializing I need. Combined with one best friend and small but nice family, I am good there.

Yet, I still feel empty and mostly bored. Wife is huge support and simple type of person. I did enjoy playing video games, but when they turned mostly to online multiplayer I really lost interest. Also, I really grew up and games don't look as attractive as they used to be. I generally dislike playing with some people ""in the cloud"". I do like local, in-the-same-room gaming like in age of PS1, but it's way too hard to do that anymore. Wife's not interested in gaming aside some scrabble and chess and honestly even I am tired of it.

I tried reading, but I just can't seem to like it. It's endless stream of words. I can't concentrate on anything for more than 3 hours. Most hobbies can be discarded because they include other people. I am not really outdoorsy person nor creative. I tried myself at music production and I got bored to death. The song I made and listened in the software 1000x made me crazy. So mostly I end up talking with my wife and family, doing household chores, watching movies and listening here and there to some music. I also follow news (tech and general). Aside that, there is not much more to it.

Of course, that's all when I am feeling well. And I get psychosis attacks (albeit milder) every now and then. And then I spend day wrecked and my wife is comforting me.

So, considering all this, I hope you can relate to at least some of these things I written. I'd be really glad to hear from you ppl how do you deal with this surplus of time and what you do to occupy yourself?

Stay safe ppl and keep fighting! :)",3.5710466360856263,5.716915992660552,4.535372706422018,82.76923642966364,74.39449541284405,6.963685015290519,26.767010703363923,7.865858978985527,1.746113914373089,2236,84,408,33,48,725,275,545,0.109,0.728,0.163,0.9875,2,0,0,0,2,0,82.0,0,4,3,9,28,34,2,0,5,0,34,5,0,6,7,87,68,48,1,6,14,5,4,3,1,2,5,4,1,3,25,30,0,2,9,10,4,4,14,8,1,3,8,10,54,27,71,52,24,58,0,3,2,0,32,31,0,14,23,283,79,12,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08499919323668426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13912122223960893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11830341945075795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08626418144735225,0.0,0.0,0.07157994480997702,0.0774336871059335,0.08131775763917218,0.09895619982060758,0.0,0.0,0.07262752404147918,0.05302428667941733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18256746980486588,0.0769297680959401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09201692684965784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05609711120898238,0.08967608861749704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0908791624766244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07266348758350319,0.0,0.07704149381422745,0.08987712702501495,0.0,0.17235518954465862,0.0,0.07328728457041261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1640004578060918,0.0,0.1319442951159209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06720317603906863,0.0,0.18178099147513485,0.0,0.0,0.07295756744440926,0.13913717726573668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0779200607960932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09803663831800452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17278832927489565,0.0856611491602541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09078809352978813,0.0,0.07731486209002406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09210288444713656,0.0,0.0,0.12287792667968404,0.1274871188104037,0.17436048034920634,0.0,0.0,0.07304416711664985,0.0,0.0949526802967111,0.0,0.0,0.16461163407039028,0.11612421919902335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09244961177995976,0.12788564717133635,0.12899421044940412,0.06708697737789338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11788443574535895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09658479629904416,0.0,0.0,0.241213410227454,0.15190113790709048,0.0908791624766244,0.0,0.08222744928432353,0.09806073876712768,0.0,0.0,0.09378284076595762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08700696091511456,0.0,0.22289522979642115,0.0,0.08588563543301081,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08803186685265507,0.0,0.07918644048880538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14390717102397885,0.0,0.0,0.17733728922701295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09271275430298216,0.0694650731429536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09870775644660264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06991397970264564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0577879204871781,0.11147092911808612,0.0,0.0,0.10144146570081426,0.09997464777139987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17716810131900668,0.09461298518039184,0.0,0.09055280990153224,0.0,0.07512574855196327,0.0,0.07177043276267336,0.0,0.0690433916114245,0.0,0.0,0.0782085426362788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08384891476437857,0.0,0.1899749014759714,0.0,0.0,0.061790527288206415,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lllmatrlll,2020/04/01,"ART: RESIDENT ALIEN ​

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*A* ***resident alien*** *is a foreign person who is a permanent* ***resident*** *of the country in which he or she resides but does not have citizenship.*

***RESIDENT ALIEN***

*Here I am, to disconnect*

*a fragile string to all that's left---*

*You say I'm ""'off', but it's okay,*

*You're still my friend though, anyway""*

*And I feel accepted, yes- thus far-*

*until you grow weary of my scars*

*You'll turn around, inevitably*

*and mouth these words away to me:*

*""You use your nerves as an excuse-*

*to skirt the issue, find obtuse*

*reasons why you can't perform*

*the awkward dance of social norms.""*

*Apparently it's no good deed*

*That I cannot acclimate to greed-*

*And I've had more than one turned eye*

*when I find problems in ""normal"" life.*

*My feet are planted regardless of this,*

*and it's true that I seek no citizenship.*

*I'm from a planet- far, far away,*

*And it is there my heart shall always stay.*",2.0306520146520164,-1.1009840571428526,1.1981428571428587,90.46861355311356,175.28571428571428,3.868864468864469,17.67216117216117,5.46131890053228,0.32264249084249075,830,27,140,13,78,236,119,175,0.075,0.8140000000000001,0.111,0.8082,2,0,0,0,0,0,121.0,0,6,0,1,7,8,1,1,9,2,11,5,4,3,2,23,17,12,0,3,4,0,2,0,1,2,1,1,0,1,11,6,0,0,5,2,1,2,5,3,0,1,1,4,17,5,19,14,2,16,0,0,1,0,14,10,0,1,3,86,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11600814689701493,0.6042436416249903,0.16940988589099093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241128646868425,0.0,0.0,0.2619783159657645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12200689584860284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07049466047647482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.254853693863493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077151173603853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11693841575335885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16521271360080475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14551767826868167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15147963492586022,0.0,0.09847607712475027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13660145454677453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09447422413408098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.121735681713363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13340557985553195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433464097334751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11087193854899527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14212056667050513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14860257802019047,0.11134054887065267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13697889683911615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3032966417122194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120413636661415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12580436380302332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16940988589099093,0.0
schizophrenia,0man_,2020/04/01,"An Interesting Experience So normally when I wake up it's been about 12 hours since I've taken my meds, so when I wake up I tend to have some interesting ideas. Last night I had a horrible night sleeping with a lot of nightmares and I was quite miserable. Eventually I came up with the idea that I had a pet that was named Chompers and he ate all my bad dreams. Interestingly enough this worked and for the rest of the time that I was sleeping I had good dreams.",4.906774193548387,5.493622204301079,5.680806451612908,81.94120967741938,68.89247311827957,9.640860215053763,28.403225806451612,9.725611199111238,2.2417612903225805,367,12,80,8,6,120,60,93,0.10800000000000001,0.722,0.16899999999999998,0.6003,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,2,5,6,0,1,7,0,8,5,4,0,1,13,12,7,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,6,1,0,2,2,0,1,0,2,0,0,10,0,11,4,10,2,5,11,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,2,7,53,16,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16835890335621556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306196013210531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.208345455010924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1972401817377007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691239816940855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985723363585542,0.0,0.0,0.4552484240543878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16436148764399972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17142500537647246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2239738242200317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3784462987093326,0.19756195386536668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.214466318192182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16679663680160198,0.0,0.4035662721675911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11757645703633167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14679451305280578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ElaraSophie,2020/04/01,"Video Game triggering voices? Hello,


I recently(2days ago) started playing Animal Crossing on the Switch. Actually I really like the game, but it triggers my voices. My stuffed animals talk to me since this. Everytime I played 2 hours after this I have strong voices in my head. 


Does anyone else experience video games triggering voices?


Kind regards

Sophie



P.s. I was constantly without delusions and voices since 6month and I'm on meds since 14 years.",4.868961038961039,8.381436480519483,5.189623376623381,71.5701493506494,80.29870129870129,8.274805194805195,28.479220779220785,8.841846274778883,3.4546477922077923,367,16,51,10,10,116,57,77,0.0,0.804,0.196,0.9414,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,2,0,2,1,1,3,0,7,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,7,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,5,9,5,6,3,0,10,0,0,0,0,5,3,0,0,7,25,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.21550435534776125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19575803961449226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15441386316859146,0.2262728682724556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386455674621585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1932553186863902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18448037663157846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21602025908891606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266417367401614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21747925382217967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22996700464164735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10788945258002157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452993254766335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1414733771723112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5480341639254555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156309057133751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17749983845097986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21287829541770428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1422113252934695
schizophrenia,vthicci,2020/04/01,"how to talk to a friend with serious delusions my friend has been experiencing delusions and hearing and seeing spirits talking to him for a while. the first time my friends ever witnessed it, they found him with a noose around his neck. they stopped him from killing himself, and they told him that “brett”, a spirit, told him to do it. stuff like this has happened multiple times, and i’m really worried. i have experienced psychotic episodes before so this is super personal to me and i REALLY want to be able to help him. he told my friend today that the spirits told him to burn down his house and kill his family, and i’m extremely concerned bc a lot of the time when he’s in that state he doesn’t even really know what’s going on in reality. i want to share with him my experiences with psychosis and try and talk to him abt getting help, but he believes 100% that the spirits are real and gets mad when people say they aren’t. what would be the best way for me to approach this topic/some good things for me to say when sharing my experience and recommending help? it has gotten to a point where he needs to be treated for his condition because i honestly am worried he’s going to listen to them and end up either hurting/killing himself or someone else.",7.332913657770803,6.7726468816326575,7.316734693877553,76.17227629513344,63.85714285714286,10.313971742543172,35.580847723704856,9.661875296680813,3.239954474097331,1006,41,191,17,13,323,134,245,0.066,0.768,0.166,0.9723,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,5,3,9,16,3,0,11,0,15,1,1,1,1,31,35,20,2,4,3,0,0,1,4,1,0,4,0,1,14,17,0,1,2,0,0,3,2,4,0,1,7,7,32,12,32,24,3,25,4,0,1,0,47,8,0,2,13,131,46,0,0.10760437665960204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095790708679693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06559462926397812,0.0,0.09156339910049294,0.12123328434232547,0.11292415464177533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08988964920706306,0.0,0.09530553904931564,0.0,0.0,0.07107167594262108,0.09733431915543504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21051545606827068,0.10143982977039356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915282278169362,0.0,0.11798264497579812,0.3325394979320451,0.0,0.11243769119555527,0.0,0.12230809399897012,0.09025344588700264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09515419491117487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12127795294325842,0.0,0.2163748364160564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12416100342502125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2380965997181757,0.0,0.05913655131455552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05257006312887223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09148139306707004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07978728184298901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07459932612121084,0.09395599120487316,0.0,0.0,0.1017209167515582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12247733823469238,0.20680235716703452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17114263848629924,0.0,0.0,0.08574675661209236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0911728391542802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08996207709246508,0.0,0.0,0.12318126715368295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2594649659329313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07148756650344718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18823493208506614,0.0,0.101996367223786,0.4112823727300235,0.0,0.07305630841507853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12693569857419856,0.08541134562093113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.218554935477134,0.0,0.07643906185859063,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,catcarrier,2020/04/01,"Questions for those working with Schizophrenia... For those of you that are currently working, or that have worked in the past, how do you manage to do it? Did you tell the place of work that you have schizophrenia? Do you take emergency medication? What happens if you start getting symptoms show up? 

I ask because I'm going for an interview tomorrow and I'm really anxious. I'm not sure how I'm going to cope within a place of work, given my lengthy absence from the workforce (since the 'onset' of my illness I have not worked) and my symptoms.",4.807791262135922,6.619363407766991,5.011832524271849,82.06202063106798,70.2621359223301,7.480097087378643,32.29247572815534,8.07648339933343,2.4787679611650484,433,20,77,6,8,136,62,103,0.10300000000000001,0.897,0.0,-0.8596,1,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,6,0,6,2,1,0,0,6,0,8,4,0,2,1,11,20,6,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,2,0,11,1,14,18,0,11,0,0,0,0,10,5,0,3,4,54,18,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794541484544502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14850236618897758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09683287225302196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08299204302342929,0.0,0.1805550877351601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14046964063310782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16002364951754613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.151639338744827,0.0,0.0,0.3319267785256813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17794722738472016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10176273300562387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13140152919273418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1124341354210344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1497132967799922,0.3302098535564406,0.11943467435564112,0.0,0.13884102215638078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6938637563244751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jmantechno,2020/04/01,"COVID-19’s throwing me out of whack. I wanna preface this by saying I’m a recently converted Christian who lives in NY. I hear no voices only delusions. 

Keep thinking angle numbers are telling me about what’s gonna happen and what to do. I keep asking god what to do and as a result of my delusions I quit my job and bought N95’s other expensive respirators, food water and gallons of rubbing alcohol. 

Either way I win. Sometimes paranoid is good. This either blows away and I spent money for nothing. Or this gets worse and I have supplies to keep me and my family safe. Thoughts?",2.3905494505494502,5.124340857142858,3.678928571428575,84.03145604395608,82.39285714285714,5.589010989010989,27.365384615384606,7.010146845296331,1.6982601648351652,464,21,80,6,13,151,79,112,0.066,0.8270000000000001,0.106,0.6597,1,0,1,0,0,0,12.0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,2,0,5,3,0,1,0,19,18,9,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,8,8,3,4,2,0,4,1,1,0,0,0,3,4,13,3,14,14,2,6,1,0,0,0,5,3,0,1,1,53,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21022582024399689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1838996173744996,0.0,0.1848178531602536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1854430220125415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2378655152755285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10277415336072586,0.0,0.0,0.16499309778234678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17395219906657192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2217092649721369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19520678614637726,0.524541279857002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737007264313756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1887509328063516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1496087075277293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20922793949180105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19422984539465515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15643366194489672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945536756151003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17193538059825195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1260454162063678,0.0,0.15616773850677987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15614121279535026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20046682579760566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,amoruniversitas,2020/04/01,"What are visual hallucinations like? I have delusions but I’m not sure if I’ve had visual hallucinations. I thought I coul make things levitate and I thought things moved but ver slightly. I’ve also seen shadows on the wall that I thought resembled the shadows people and I used of have an imaginary dog and I would even pet it, I never saw it, I could imagine it there and sort of see it but not as if it were real. What are hallucinations like for you guys?",1.59812187812188,4.206729351648356,3.1968031968031987,86.87774225774227,85.15384615384616,5.946453546453547,23.657342657342657,7.348242739294969,1.120287912087912,365,14,74,6,11,120,55,91,0.028999999999999998,0.907,0.064,0.4436,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,0,3,3,0,0,3,0,8,0,0,2,2,23,17,11,0,4,7,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,1,1,10,4,0,0,4,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,7,3,10,3,5,8,0,4,0,0,3,0,2,2,0,3,3,51,20,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18951375328405398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18921017817008495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1565238254943641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346486130264717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315540552063093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1581867688718559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25187347603801663,0.0,0.0,0.18277448508136016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16429290218540102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26973644933233865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18884330769819585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22335194493173852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31487951384278706,0.0,0.0,0.564409725601156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20467563966388372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16834462140679468,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,pandass_,2020/04/01,"To those who have been taking antipsychotics (quetiapine/seroquel specifically) long term, does the tiredness ever go away? Currently schooling and I have been taking it for ~3 years at 100mg. Plus, I have been stable for quite a while.

Even though I have tried keeping a fixed sleeping schedule of around 7-8hrs every night, sometimes it feels like I didn't sleep much at all. Although I'm already used to feeling tired, I really hope this could change so I can have more energy to study a little more. 

I have heard of people getting used to the side effects so.. could the tiredness be attributed to the medication even though I have already been taking it for so long?",7.824481566820277,7.992494604838711,7.0201843317972354,76.28241935483874,62.6290322580645,9.66635944700461,33.843317972350235,9.23628265651192,2.9482801843317987,537,20,94,8,7,165,80,124,0.025,0.871,0.10400000000000001,0.8045,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,0,2,9,2,0,0,7,0,16,4,2,4,2,15,29,9,0,3,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,6,3,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,6,3,8,2,15,20,5,16,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,1,10,67,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32148211627559736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1296695934637618,0.0,0.0,0.1368537492600593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15409052496824144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2325976680568761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1274693370778431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19241605899553368,0.13175914208089512,0.12272607377339045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14730163530452242,0.10406058579142508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07610210796165898,0.0,0.08278277217473054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14467470974039073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1294706104102334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07116283831951918,0.14599106311505694,0.0,0.2578116407422837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14673861021308987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10707794306547087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366934255252088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.100983325252908,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15492890691994932,0.0,0.0,0.0933144698158735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14741718770311651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915333370000608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1440629218713262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3285579008922323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28622331635095605,0.0,0.0,0.16741643614962046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0988945790538314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25160949032601104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09380121325166238
schizophrenia,temporaryaryary,2020/04/01,"I'm too scared to see a doctor what do I do NOTICE: this is not a self diagnosis kind of

Hello

I think I have some psychotic illness, like schizophrenia that is getting worse (voices paranoid etc)

I am not asking you if I have schizophrenia, but am asking what to do to get over paranoid fears. I know I should see a doctor about treatements or diagnoses etc but am too scared. I feel like my family and friends will hate me and I will be kicked out or that the doctor will send me to a hospital. I know all of these are illogical and won't happen, but am still afraid of them. Again I am not asking for medical advice but advice on how to get over my fears and see a docter to get help.

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Thank you",2.755833333333332,4.436347361111113,3.9219444444444456,88.31750000000002,75.3888888888889,6.7444444444444445,22.416666666666664,7.492282038375204,0.7888999999999995,556,15,116,7,12,181,80,144,0.17,0.727,0.10400000000000001,-0.8481,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,2,1,0,6,11,1,5,6,0,19,6,0,1,1,23,37,12,0,2,10,0,1,2,1,5,6,1,0,1,6,5,0,0,4,0,0,1,4,6,0,0,0,5,18,5,15,31,4,7,0,0,3,0,11,4,0,4,4,87,24,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24345775116601445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1349721121008223,0.15136682314421335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34936987606874603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12643646097488728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3825096334016467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27785812884707284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11743400474545924,0.2803529472253787,0.06298660050937077,0.08899320815366893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624287882431476,0.0,0.26033183200946325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11015730410867304,0.0,0.0,0.12298760380301142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08349699726427473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12972103265498766,0.13692140579144554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12171773270753042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12549169874027055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14182436868437212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24943365462740166,0.0,0.2977997413545875,0.0,0.12995422569388634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09948218240656978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11468780310414052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07981976266500296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12694800762269207,0.0,0.0,0.15136682314421335,0.0
schizophrenia,OsKarMike1306,2020/04/02,"DAE get very uneasy at posts that go along the line of ""You've been in a coma for the last 2 years, you need to wake up, etc."" Just writing this makes me very anxious because I expect the answer to be ""Yes, of course"" since I just joined this subreddit and that would be an awfully convenient way for the writers to reinforce their meta-commentary.

I don't know, seeing these posts on my feed really ramps up my anxiety and makes me question everything, which eventually leads me into a rabbit hole of intrusive thoughts. I just kinda wish people wouldn't say shit like this, but explaining why to them breaks the fourth wall and I have to reboot not long afterwards, so I prefer acting the part since it's supposed to be a joke I think.",6.742744755244753,6.556781622377624,6.729501748251749,78.65271416083918,64.94405594405596,10.506643356643359,30.46241258741259,10.125756701596842,2.7860776223776216,584,18,113,12,8,186,102,143,0.049,0.903,0.049,0.2424,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,2,1,4,3,1,0,10,2,8,4,2,3,0,27,19,5,0,6,5,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,0,8,5,1,0,7,1,0,3,3,1,0,0,2,2,15,2,18,12,2,18,0,0,1,0,7,7,1,2,5,70,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14280512192316575,0.2108885191353597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11379475598050375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20819088838826266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1677705812619583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09752947593558424,0.0,0.10609115309610054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10259116488465177,0.15216424941826134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091199501739007,0.0,0.0,0.16520064217114694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24921272900987196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1384164278317925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20214978312880452,0.0,0.12941626787934332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3575642383498957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2091176358451921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195881636147867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14845068112232582,0.0,0.0,0.14875503306108526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1916182091130557,0.308837373136695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11961318079208184,0.0,0.148198328048032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3080512495046474,0.0,0.1481731559726613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16844427669555634,0.0,0.21466592173913152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13260787490041864,0.0,0.0,0.12021195490623808
schizophrenia,amandalaurian,2020/04/02,First time here. Please help I'm so scared. I just got a call from my brothers landlady saying he is entering peoples apartments and asking for people that dont exist and talking about his roommate who doesnt exist. I'm freaking out in the time it took me to write that she called back and said she had to evict him. I'm cleaning out my spare bedroom (I live in a 2bdrm apartment with my husband) and I'm just breaking down crying. Is he going to be okay? Are we? He's never been violent. He has always been so gentle and kind to everyone he meets. We grew up really close and only in the last few years he moved away and grew distant. I dont even know who to call or how to find help. We only have each other in our family. What do I do? How do I get him help? Is anyone even seeing new clients amid this pandemic? I'm not looking forward to adding a whole other person to my quarantine situation and we are already rationing food as it is. But we feel almost certain the isolation he is experiencing is making it worse. What is life going to be like for him moving forward? Is this serious? Is he in danger? Is there hope for him to have a normal life?,1.7620873249815787,3.8634236059322054,3.661739130434782,87.08547162859249,79.88983050847456,6.138246131171703,22.54900515843773,7.255503002510835,0.896507221812822,905,29,182,12,23,305,137,236,0.066,0.8009999999999999,0.133,0.9408,1,2,0,0,0,0,23.0,6,0,0,1,12,10,2,1,7,1,26,3,0,3,2,35,44,15,0,2,5,2,1,1,0,0,2,2,2,1,13,18,1,0,3,0,0,10,5,5,0,1,6,6,23,5,27,36,3,32,0,0,2,0,38,15,0,3,11,123,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12315886160698827,0.0,0.1357248844147243,0.0,0.1023393128215904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08599896370078854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11498104778455735,0.0,0.11555516378472425,0.0945733634817664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3767661775561293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13510109005760332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2882917431693693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1624702964460853,0.0,0.0,0.1175242600766225,0.0,0.0,0.11594604317155816,0.0,0.0621885212696161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11241258738141674,0.10461705109225283,0.1487225833781772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06425831661477757,0.0,0.1397985345513121,0.0,0.0983680495642044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2473171157830264,0.0,0.0,0.12215894610084613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12807738682739486,0.06759326338829992,0.10025500929612936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1737459709835638,0.060087746823592775,0.0,0.1086043125655126,0.0,0.1032824208814252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08209820821618047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26144235990626224,0.0,0.0,0.09485912026542698,0.11878657481443188,0.0,0.0,0.12050618308002935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18708212877029126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17053452685393838,0.10739199224924427,0.0,0.13500843540743074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07879191400571277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169936896527491,0.09780828593335407,0.12313658786718035,0.0,0.09800881139558501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1382483180513657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09885642293124483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14343541132597812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13664879253595288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13731633153338724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1253394977397557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920290543084971
schizophrenia,flailingmonk665,2020/04/02,"Job search Any advice for looking for gainful employment as a schizo-affected person? I find it hard to do anything but play with ideas and I can’t seem to get back to earning monies as my old self. Communication is hard outside of the internet and I need to go up a ladder instead of around and around on the merry but I freeze quickly, being all bones. I used to want to be an entrepreneur so badly and still do but I inherited trust issues from my church bound, ptsd ridden father.

All I want is to earn more than kutos but continually get ran over before getting anywhere where I am self sufficient.

Some love, deep web.",4.599329660238748,6.101018942148763,5.549201101928379,79.22359963269055,70.32231404958678,8.022405876951332,27.49403122130395,8.515128840125781,1.9611755739210284,496,17,93,8,9,163,88,121,0.064,0.764,0.172,0.9327,2,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,3,8,4,0,0,5,0,8,2,1,1,2,22,20,11,0,3,4,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,7,0,1,3,1,1,3,1,1,0,0,1,4,10,3,21,17,4,15,1,0,1,1,5,7,0,2,5,63,11,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1763433143538159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12271891232687987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14850311195197138,0.3212951207401205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13876251503468862,0.1506764689768659,0.0,0.0,0.153558073506587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16493706866637434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828485304029914,0.0,0.10255951326212448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32331322809552643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.203717248319988,0.0,0.18835323851047409,0.17907859379260793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15154085624903185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16287209488105986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13380872062962246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18936229622677195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15757061386490712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2109479524564828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16428390477535154,0.3765180408245353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14411549996420334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15585940276015472,0.0,0.0,0.2128798354337395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ely_567,2020/04/02,"Talk about your experiences to help improve care for others like us (and earn $50)! [mod approved] Hi there, I wanted to bring this opportunity to your attention! It’s an opportunity to share your experiences in order to help make care better for people like us. It’s called the Yale COPE project and it’s a paid opportunity to share your stories and experiences with hearing/seeing/sensing things that others do not. It was developed in collaboration with people who share these experiences, so we do our best to be understanding, non-invasive, non-judgemental, and to make it a comfortable and confidential way to share. It’s all online so you can do it from the comfort of your own home/wherever you are!

We are not diagnosing you or offering you treatment. Rather, we want to hear about what you experience in your own words and learn about what does and doesn’t work for YOU. At the end of the day, you’re the expert in your own experience, and we hope to use what we learn from you in order to make care better in the future for people like you.

It’s a great opportunity and a good way to stay occupied for a few hours, earn a bit of money, and feel like you’re contributing to something bigger during these uncertain times. The website is: [https://www.spirit.research.yale.edu](https://www.spirit.research.yale.edu/) which can hopefully answer any questions you might have. There is also a monthly webinar where you can ask your questions live (the next one is April 3rd), and you can also direct questions to [brittany.quagan@yale.edu](mailto:brittany.quagan@yale.edu).

I really appreciate hearing from you, and I hope everyone is staying happy and healthy! These are hard times for all of us, and often especially hard for those of us who were already dealing with other challenges. I see you and I feel you and we’ll get through it together!",7.680332867132869,9.316046735384617,7.090748251748253,70.5372972027972,63.184615384615384,9.970629370629373,31.08041958041958,10.125756701596842,3.159492307692308,1499,53,250,33,22,466,158,325,0.013999999999999999,0.725,0.261,0.9979,0,0,1,0,0,0,71.0,11,22,0,12,12,28,0,1,16,0,21,1,0,4,2,53,43,21,0,6,4,0,4,4,0,2,1,2,0,0,25,24,0,0,10,0,2,1,3,1,0,1,3,7,38,27,44,37,8,25,0,0,1,0,52,9,0,10,13,179,63,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08957081310174317,0.1298199053705432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055196965893735836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07588104411187764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08518071963523678,0.1435728504051252,0.08861434139982906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08288151682344733,0.0,0.24826829817367466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05234659063135759,0.08368055679005824,0.0,0.08238372564236704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07103058981865522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07189068120277614,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07755942161702667,0.0,0.4763867774557145,0.0,0.0,0.08208187378069727,0.057986375037989375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04240688575683523,0.0,0.0,0.06807979652008596,0.0,0.08948791336609688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08640475534114744,0.14542101853581627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18296427970377627,0.0,0.10881028560183667,0.0,0.08141803725509544,0.2418541635254713,0.07993404671764068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15861817421763835,0.0,0.0716727564351751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16254064158897302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08610633146638501,0.0,0.0,0.06478745575012597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08632299894433512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05500148017232298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16881483780329376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2727799244676649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05199824508061016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06468031979318871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062487026843103075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17302839633662775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06523969587791227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053924356388166124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09465932850451593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08449866255636447,0.3905400335288833,0.07010301815139164,0.0,0.0,0.09574987907814493,0.12885462650722151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05909120917562701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Tabitha_is_myfurbaby,2020/04/02,Bad Social Worker Gone for Good? I have schizophrenia and I live in a subsidized apartment alone. I have a housing program that helps me and I’m in treatment. I have/had this one social worker who was a male (I am a female) and he was a weirdo and we would meet in a company car and he would take me out for coffee but I thought the whole scenario was too intimate and he did this with other clients and made us all feel uncomfortable and seemed to enjoy doing that. One time recently he told me to touch my knee and I didn’t do it.....so he grabbed my hand and put it on my knee while he was driving and I got really freaked out. Also he kept paying for my coffee and I told him I didn’t want him doing that. He always gave bad advice and was always wrong and would try to turn you against your family. One time he yelled at me because I told I did a drug. So here is my question....because of the coronavirus the whole program is calling us on the phone only. So I haven’t gotten one phone call from him. Idk how long this is going to be but I’m wondering if he is going to quit? I have a feeling he might switch to a different job or something? He is really lazy so he might do something online? I feel kinda strange about the whole thing but I hope he is gone...I had wished he got fired...I just feel like he is a taker but I got to know him for 5 years. So there are some feelings. What do you think???,0.7998536036036015,2.793046125000004,2.5296216216216223,94.50006306306308,82.68243243243244,5.433153153153154,20.001801801801804,6.588339656340683,0.09068639639639596,1087,30,246,11,30,358,146,296,0.1,0.823,0.077,-0.7615,2,1,3,0,0,0,36.0,3,3,0,3,11,8,0,0,15,0,34,4,3,2,1,49,64,27,0,7,7,0,8,1,0,5,1,1,0,1,11,18,0,1,10,0,1,6,3,4,0,4,22,9,36,4,24,36,5,21,0,0,0,0,40,9,0,9,7,160,47,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09596803865360794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10171420670793724,0.0,0.07853716208959155,0.16343438755290438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16399969856467791,0.11973376687142813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20056336052364065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10260679713840097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11389047802011243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0925820685739862,0.0,0.24828539996743654,0.07016004706439669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11162810871623836,0.08237248361972102,0.235638507217548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06582697016250676,0.0,0.0,0.09754302618244697,0.0,0.11331922144712858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09745660885470857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05397272709768658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047979626942912516,0.0,0.08671975031087037,0.08691127726535662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09292709177434202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2083670263666679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2661940109188426,0.07469185666452813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.098726492032841,0.11001580012738994,0.10445664243065296,0.0,0.0,0.1258295356359679,0.0,0.09696887308181684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08940517071156784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20022203951835896,0.0,0.15121113335172692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0738404382878201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06524524734702608,0.06292792923675157,0.0,0.07796644014192794,0.11453212825616398,0.0,0.0,0.2815267897349834,0.0,0.06667700616963335,0.10682245646310884,0.0,0.0,0.2362650460126744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05792581462569276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3289382632111457,0.11293472712027698,0.0,0.10650273926910768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2092931292198014,0.10737538648039756,0.0,0.06324294146897302
schizophrenia,Ran_Mori,2020/04/02,"Someone told me it is schizophrenia and another one told me it is psychosis and I don't know what it is So I hear voices in my head who are constantly insulting me. Like ""why do you even exist you are nothing but a shame to the world"".",2.381530612244898,3.863348326530616,3.877295918367349,89.08288265306123,75.93877551020408,7.348979591836735,26.535714285714285,8.07648339933343,1.5413632653061224,184,7,40,3,4,61,37,49,0.043,0.8540000000000001,0.10300000000000001,0.4554,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,2,0,0,2,3,1,1,2,0,7,1,1,0,0,4,11,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,2,2,8,1,2,9,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,2,30,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3010485177124094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3102522144138628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1896262974453028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2946465817488468,0.0,0.3235816360506615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15778219833336551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14026215500591213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2754794015994028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19454583122107585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24325819937551754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5486711303127119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590623500920469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,8paesch,2020/04/02,"Should I be considering medication? (TW) Hi all, I'm a 19 y/o in university in the UK and I was recently diagnosed with schizophrenia, last year in October. I was asked whether I would be interested in medication initially but I had said no after my mother told me that I shouldn't accept it as it would change me as a person and I would be getting addicted to the meds.  I was initially fine, I was dealing with my delusions and hallucinations fine. They weren't too bad but in the last two or three months, they have been getting bad enough that my boyfriend is strongly advising me to take medication. Some of my hallucinations make me jolt as I see a pale while figure stand behind me and it jolts me to one side. He's usually around to see these and gets very worried. Other times I can hear my mother screaming at me to hurt myself which is a very hurtful thing for me as she was the only family member there for me during my early teens while I was dealing with self-harm. She'd sit with me and talk me through my thoughts while I was trying to hurt myself and it was very nice, she'd make me show her my self-harm areas week after week to prove to her I was clean and it felt good to show her I wasn't hurting myself.

Should I consider taking medication? What is taking medication like? I'm sure it is different for everyone but I would like to hear everyone's different experiences. Thanks very much :)",3.5258625525946705,5.3427294372759855,4.916496805360762,81.41938288920059,73.6236559139785,8.43640330372448,26.10892940626461,9.085049710711278,2.0864345021037867,1119,39,223,25,23,373,140,279,0.08800000000000001,0.7490000000000001,0.163,0.9669,2,0,0,0,0,5,24.0,0,0,2,1,3,18,0,0,8,0,31,7,0,2,3,35,51,20,0,7,5,2,1,2,0,7,7,4,1,1,13,13,0,0,5,2,0,0,4,7,0,3,17,7,48,11,33,22,4,26,0,4,2,0,22,9,0,2,17,157,61,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09574681000952108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07818662351552247,0.08210846130783389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14666745421349214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09291166526536586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18109613118354545,0.0,0.08914480590604666,0.0,0.18352567538841516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907510588220868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16784916031229946,0.0,0.08591382679319133,0.08279756866876399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08432982125218913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13766142173335516,0.0,0.0,0.07366697972912703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19797982034384892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3760919709462127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14318506763187355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08581783746455847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11725336797054475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09755845979617887,0.4423934773547419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07010444263061404,0.0,0.06456457984975658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0595153501043599,0.06679807684612933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07668908407314544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08672075544853754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08354569753193399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13997702844697835,0.0,0.18325005519496526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08277799708783802,0.0,0.19810992086815216,0.07059379727074583,0.0,0.08086134227958304,0.0,0.0,0.05834982875986185,0.0,0.0,0.06972658724244803,0.051213922415716887,0.0,0.0,0.08392458015614973,0.0,0.059630272708218864,0.0,0.08579638238714601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09673147350119833,0.2898732071628949,0.0,0.0,0.1409025993186945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08919483263637519,0.0,0.2495654216903957,0.0,0.0,0.056559135799685877
schizophrenia,ACatholicThrowaway00,2020/04/02,"Longtimers on Invega Sustenna, have you noticed a change in the med these past few months? Ive been on this drug for years, and it always did away with my symptoms.  Sure, there were side effects the first few years, but now they are mostly gone.  That was until a few months ago.  A few months ago, i got the shot, and instead of a woooosh of relief to my brain from the medicine working, i got brain burn.  This brain burn is what i usually associate with being on too low of a med.  So, the medicine seems to not work as well.  I get brain burn and overstimulation easily, and even have had constipation constantly since then, which i saw someone mention.

Could they have tweaked the formulation?  Has anyone else experienced changes?",5.318235294117649,6.926559058823532,4.811058823529415,84.79276470588236,68.70588235294117,8.08705882352941,29.04117647058824,8.548686976883017,1.9892141176470588,576,21,112,9,10,174,93,136,0.036000000000000004,0.893,0.07,0.6777,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,2,4,7,4,0,0,11,0,14,6,4,1,1,13,20,9,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,6,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,9,2,11,3,16,9,5,22,0,1,1,0,4,7,0,2,14,78,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22627503860122314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10619953415571214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08924282986753602,0.13077343363160898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11991388475139092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5699153301497072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2700341576643338,0.0,0.0,0.13792418205620674,0.0,0.101903273062007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14801188283086475,0.0,0.10661964235462308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08429932408669935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10856318832343836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06668212930075433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20415695105821724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2835393859194028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3056224542992148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1453091743350906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12183859590501762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11619081666772145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10557799809161376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10814165578389108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12029106707383155,0.13265787507494886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14056793564038514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11475594032524035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858343323478768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16438085088960336
schizophrenia,wingsonawidow,2020/04/02,"You guuuuuuuuys... Can we talk about the fucking insomnia!! Even when my other symptoms are mild or in remission, I ALWAYS have insomnia. And even when I do sleep, it's really bad quality. Every week, at least once a week (only once a week if I'm lucky) I wake up with a migraine that kicks my ass the entire day and makes me nauseous, and it feels like fucking hell all because my brain won't let me rest. It hurts so bad and I don't want to have to pop like 10 aspirins in a day to get rid of it. 

Anyway, just venting I guess. Shitty sleep, LOTS of pain and nausea, and I am exhausted. I'll take my hallucinations over no sleep any day. (No offense intended to those who have worse hallucinations.)

Oh, and side note- one of you fine people recommend glycine to help sleep, and LET ME TO YALL ABOUT GLYCINE. So, super huge pills, and recommended dose is 3 a day but WOW. So, they do help somewhat with the sleep issue, but more than that, THEY TAKE AWAY THE FREAKING BRAIN FOG. THEY ARE AMAZING. I've been taking them for a few months and I feel so much more functional, I have better short and long term memory, and better awareness. I'll never stop taking glycine. I highly, highly, highly recommend. You can get them on Amazon for about $8 for 100 capsules. Still figuring out how to get better sleep, and even tho glycine does help with that I'm not at 100%, but the cognitive benefits of glycine are phenomenal.",3.112818892900119,5.070173559566786,4.289589350180506,84.86533468712399,75.13718411552347,7.360348977135981,24.538056558363408,8.212053250817874,1.4351276774969914,1104,36,223,19,24,361,156,277,0.095,0.715,0.19,0.9862,0,0,0,0,0,0,49.0,1,4,5,4,17,21,4,0,11,0,18,21,10,3,2,39,34,26,0,2,7,0,2,2,0,1,9,0,0,0,10,18,0,1,3,0,0,0,6,10,0,1,1,2,26,11,30,30,10,30,1,1,0,3,15,15,4,6,17,141,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07412094369683785,0.0,0.0,0.06057683980751445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08369274282404078,0.0,0.14875464834077204,0.054301790007409735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23634966394103535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988834623137521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2297945898874237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07795371704237565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17650770798533633,0.0,0.07505298017522631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09008213474426152,0.06363812385008967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16470437736169227,0.1396204528799422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09813066690784064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791235206569677,0.2823508665353275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953610144491504,0.0,0.0,0.09297543255666864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18217882153134404,0.0,0.08703909331393837,0.0,0.0,0.07883219664185395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07573186176450195,0.0,0.0,0.059460988167970165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0711020844165133,0.0,0.06548338499719268,0.0,0.06870329024568116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897326596345877,0.060362300710320574,0.06774866642617268,0.09478643849189726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06175622893493265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05706634978060397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5348605660444571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07113868098714561,0.07447411280039265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09258728832986657,0.2679055760947333,0.07159840296105399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05254115867230954,0.0,0.2143616324870897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.090779208876986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,sheepguacamole,2020/04/02,"Any idea with how to deal with voices when having private solo time? Any idea with how to deal with voices when having private solo time?

So, I get paranoid when I’m masturbating. And it’s becoming really bad that I have difficulty getting hard and I can’t focus. 

I use porn and it helps only for a bit. Until the voices start. 

They keep crying and yelling because I’m gay, on meds, broke, ex-church folk, low-self esteem, lonely, over-all crap situation. Sometimes they pray over me, which really freaks me out. This goes on every time I try to jerk off. When I stop, they’re still there crying maybe or whispering but nothing loud or truly audible. 

I tried listening to music or the sound of porn, but that just makes the voices even louder or angrier—like they’re trying to compete with the volume. 

Listening to quiet using noise cancelling headphones just isolates the voices. Which gets very distracting. 

I’m really frustrated, I just want to masturbate in peace. It seems like the voices want my attention and want me to stop—I try to fight it, but most of the time I just give up and stop.

Thank you for reading and I hope for your help in figuring this out.",4.2380767314399606,6.121400403587447,4.957361733931244,81.58673517688094,71.86995515695068,8.004882909815647,24.496512207274538,8.680891452615391,1.7637316392625817,922,27,169,17,18,297,128,223,0.182,0.7040000000000001,0.114,-0.8908,0,2,0,0,2,0,31.0,0,2,2,1,14,12,4,1,8,0,4,4,1,5,0,43,24,22,0,4,11,0,1,1,0,0,0,14,0,0,10,14,0,3,5,1,0,0,1,9,0,0,0,15,18,3,29,24,2,22,1,2,0,3,12,9,1,7,14,98,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16305830712902547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10010294863966687,0.07308368991201235,0.13240882970511927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13088857568572854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633865615337526,0.0,0.24720217332361905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918606118214583,0.0,0.1010123005033568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879123668346853,0.11500919012187225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10739768354785538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16071916889977828,0.0,0.0,0.11907759130725873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27068191050748625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10656353456935196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058572084871516876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08002735122611583,0.0,0.1204453864269252,0.0,0.13317050524551236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11503746602321052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09118157114833847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11992221206391315,0.0,0.2304133663663939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10914314221536388,0.12507117520902772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13476112262990794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1185740463133207,0.0,0.08485859499411516,0.0,0.09574412374444158,0.3006996435458255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11037839085098136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27963475183820474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32558913131968986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2070925327020289,0.0,0.09892161462898516,0.21214227454569745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,temporarybsacct,2020/04/02,"I want to vent about some of my experiences in life. If you relate I'd love to hear your story and your ideas. I've always been weird, I've always dressed weird. I don't wear clothes that fit or match because it's not a priority for me. I say weird things, just what I'm thinking of. I do weird things but it's what I want to do. I want people to respond to me and be creative with their words and actions, and be a little crazy, but many of them won't. I've been unliked by what seems like a lot of people but it's over things that I think are superficial. When they get to know me they find I am a good person at heart, intelligent, creative, and generous.

Sometimes it feels like I am judging no one but they are all judging me. And I really don't judge anyone, I don't label them with words in my head, I don't get offended by them. They are all people. 

I want to move to NYC or a commune or maybe a treehouse. I just want one person who I know is like me, and who accepts me, to spend my life with. Road trip with. But I haven't found them yet. People find out I've been to the psych ward, or I say something that doesn't fit in with their idea of how people should act, then I am being avoided. It's okay though, I feel my optimism will carry me through.  I have years left to get my life sorted out and find people like me, and I intend to.",1.315778546712803,2.8194136159169574,2.92324429065744,94.69398754325262,78.93079584775086,5.73126643598616,20.21051903114187,6.360717304075467,-0.0793306297577856,1041,25,247,8,25,343,133,289,0.048,0.747,0.205,0.9926,0,1,1,0,0,1,34.0,0,3,10,0,7,14,1,1,7,1,25,7,3,2,2,59,44,23,0,7,13,0,2,4,0,3,3,3,0,2,16,16,0,1,14,0,1,4,9,6,0,2,4,5,47,8,34,34,4,20,0,0,0,1,22,12,0,9,8,163,63,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17898065556931156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07520155489162761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06556156390739475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10520466905126344,0.0,0.0,0.10876115931251172,0.07683383776437272,0.0,0.0,0.2948966242158097,0.0,0.0,0.11792317153611945,0.0,0.0,0.16857151933699896,0.0,0.0,0.09020795035780126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1103774664816874,0.0,0.12121681838384755,0.12744742752811716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24282202220054305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11821348277369699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11685353610767865,0.0,0.22789752245584,0.2101742531126432,0.1077934894669304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09143527854646903,0.09706819566141094,0.0,0.0,0.10903895598875313,0.1080485660902816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11430877264924047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14575750946983695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44737032971968016,0.1878172585463083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06889937030790852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17105636782006228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09790960338785973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08279734816490192,0.10636983333064316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21435459179309824,0.13782756734432286,0.10566746134299712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.317179280056251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06925876061783083
schizophrenia,sonofecgtheow,2020/04/02,"My brother has adult onsetblo schizophrenia. I miss him. When we were teenagers we used to have so much fun. Parties and the like. He's 3 years older than me. 

He moved away for college, and started taking random rcs on blotter. Anybody out there, don't trust people at festivals.

Now he thinks my mom is trying to kill him, and obsessed with the Catholic Church. He still lives with my mom, I don't. Every time I call her she's so sad.",1.1000211416490515,3.6606990232558165,1.7288583509513735,96.59256871035942,87.83720930232559,4.0575052854122635,21.77167019027484,5.565023196281405,0.030339534883720987,340,12,70,2,11,104,67,86,0.154,0.725,0.121,-0.4856,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,2,0,0,0,6,8,1,1,2,0,6,0,0,1,0,11,11,6,1,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,8,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,4,0,0,1,0,13,4,10,10,1,12,1,2,0,0,15,4,0,1,8,41,13,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306596627924536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2506876560664405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20684822261331853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27161447664269683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11994115162268865,0.0,0.2167850686520243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5750640645554171,0.0,0.26093254771369034,0.18047413661321826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17020198479351714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17376942669880946,0.0,0.19606029883013334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18458891343825853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1573094411690079,0.0,0.0,0.14315571249841716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16668151497414452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21203715830866407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15809691977847753
schizophrenia,lwsrc,2020/04/02,Things are really really overwhelming at the moment. I just relapsed into self harming again.. I feel awful My doctors sent my prescription to the wrong pharmacy so I think I missed a dose. I’m really worried and panicked about my future. Don’t have anyone to talk to irl since I was disbarred from my mental health team,3.1087142857142855,6.030705966666673,4.2728571428571405,79.69500000000002,81.0,7.428571428571428,23.57142857142857,8.418075326091056,2.1496428571428567,258,9,42,6,7,84,47,60,0.281,0.7190000000000001,0.0,-0.9512,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,1,3,1,4,3,0,0,0,5,9,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,1,4,0,0,2,1,9,0,7,7,0,6,0,2,0,0,4,2,0,0,3,28,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1929776563998381,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2824860417063351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13954813608378355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29336299153558903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2781316103258041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5304161208610221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2879163159328654,0.0,0.0,0.2283006340044104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2218291941716493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18335457213346096,0.17684236031906486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2802798349565705,0.0,0.0,0.3017502246725054,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TheUsagiFuFu,2020/04/03,"Psychosis I think I am the trigger to my partners psychosis. Please help me to help him. What do I need to do to be able to be there for him? He asked me not to go through his phone, but I couldnt help myself and I did it. I crissed his boundary and now he thinks I'm trying to harm him instead of help him. I don't want to hurt him. I want to show him that im there. I habe told him im sorry for looming at his phone, but he will not believe me.",-0.06333333333333258,1.188056980392158,1.9025490196078432,101.60813725490198,82.13725490196076,4.533333333333334,21.13725490196079,3.1291,-0.625850980392157,340,10,91,0,9,113,56,102,0.102,0.742,0.155,0.7578,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,1,0,9,0,0,1,0,13,18,4,0,4,4,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,1,0,1,4,2,0,0,2,0,24,0,14,12,0,3,0,1,0,0,22,1,0,0,1,61,27,0,0.2046212601972464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19129325644470668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2305380895282023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11629097766888682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5486132699166643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2190512911187173,0.0,0.4420521483951367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15172407168968466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22461269708537904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22905674820150185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622260825800711,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1955243829699312,0.0,0.1389244039816489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24138184163675985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,hobo96,2020/04/03,Early signs of schizophrenia I told my therapist that I created these characters in my head and sometimes I control their dialogue&I talk to them &makeup scenarios of everyday life&in my minds eye I can see them. The characters are based on people in my life. And sometimes I slip into this fantasy world unknowingly&will be talking to these people out in public&I just converse with them and sometimes I laugh at what they say. She told me it sounds like schizophrenia.i do not have auditory hallucinations or visual hallucinations. I sometimes see figures in my peripheral vision and when I look again they’re gone. And sometimes I will see something moving or crawling on the countertops but when I look again they’re gone. I know that my people are fake asf and I don’t think I act weird although people say I’m a clutz or very ditzzy. What y’all think,6.248076923076925,8.795980474358974,5.957948717948718,73.72038461538463,67.97435897435898,9.158974358974358,31.871794871794872,9.661875296680813,3.3858871794871788,718,31,116,17,13,223,96,156,0.043,0.9079999999999999,0.049,-0.2846,0,0,1,0,0,0,18.0,0,1,5,1,5,4,0,0,3,0,8,3,2,1,0,22,21,13,0,0,6,0,0,1,0,1,1,3,0,0,8,9,0,1,4,1,0,4,2,2,0,0,4,9,27,2,14,15,0,20,0,0,6,0,14,10,0,3,7,77,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5708770618967199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.118188724406584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10814670779113347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0579121780287476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14886110092917113,0.05148164353900033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17697946941737602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10640024292135468,0.0,0.0,0.1119985611892216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922192355909542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16759927199015845,0.0,0.0,0.2519143232360728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0811239911848854,0.5211003499935006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16939530589583535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.122350258383901,0.0,0.1350420346314275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20138355602556385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08694666262611196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,orangejuice44795,2020/04/03,"Looking for schizophrenic friends. I'm 31 I work at a call center for a health insurance company and I'm doing alright. I used to think I was Jesus and talk to aliens in my head. I'm better now that I'm on 3 month injections.

My interests include videogames, Netflix, books, stock market, etc.

I also have a bachelor's degree in accounting but not using it.",1.9868571428571435,4.5891901857142905,4.005357142857147,81.93089285714288,82.85714285714286,7.5,27.32142857142857,8.472884824447931,2.549285714285714,283,13,51,7,8,96,53,70,0.0,0.883,0.11699999999999999,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,2,2,4,0,0,3,1,3,3,1,2,0,7,11,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,6,4,8,10,1,7,1,0,1,0,3,5,0,0,2,29,8,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22709117408983626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2511489056540504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2899657169223896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31670226631536524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21939496941729775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29143574554747753,0.3018474526071403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384637714347448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.226662611570934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2282447994687975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18195688452702488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4905188200161146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20673396782688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,schizophrenicbitchhh,2020/04/03,I'm a pig I really sp think that I'm a pig . I hate myself.,-4.771875000000001,-3.697114437499998,1.5425000000000004,98.2525,99.625,5.7,8.0,7.1686216300943375,-1.1892750000000003,43,0,14,1,2,19,10,16,0.29100000000000004,0.7090000000000001,0.0,-0.5719,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7367608784267097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4780626411898286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4781626492298496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,WhereDoIstickIt,2020/04/03,"I'm debating even talking about my condition, but it's concerning me I was diagnosed with schizophrenia a week ago. I'm incredibly uncomfortable with the situation, and I really want out. 
My relationship is falling apart, I'm effectively in perpetual confusion and I want out. I don't know if I'm in control of myself anymore, I don't want to scare anyone, I didn't know where else to turn to",3.6442293233082736,5.99921977631579,6.189022556390983,70.02815789473685,74.92105263157895,10.658646616541354,31.90977443609023,10.608840637214634,4.2736037593984975,317,16,57,12,7,113,51,76,0.115,0.711,0.174,0.5301,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,2,3,2,0,2,2,0,5,1,0,2,0,16,15,4,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,6,0,1,3,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,2,0,10,0,11,13,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,2,2,35,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2194191183753498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24548180177867385,0.17307771260943886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27762430878347594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25123626073702604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20677833552975947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16349026817173173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2720704276334672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15857312299338014,0.0,0.0,0.2657530202392496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24781925327301754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27823245340121666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19895406667015747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692399752024127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4379962437613613,0.0,0.1985524665243288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ijky5,2020/04/03,"My family is mad I hallucinate being touched but my family who I live with touch me anyways. I've tried asking them politely to not touch me, but they say I'm overreacting. Does this happen to anyone else? If so, how can I cope with this.",0.9193749999999988,3.407705520833339,3.509166666666665,84.1525,87.54166666666666,7.366666666666666,18.416666666666664,8.344100000000001,1.2405166666666672,187,5,38,5,6,65,36,48,0.048,0.9520000000000001,0.0,-0.2732,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,7,6,5,0,1,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,9,0,4,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,26,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22016623931699367,0.32262418311900115,0.0,0.0,0.2943633713021291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27554712944869963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2630356492435635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5936677185456292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27844079554760154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780382697906508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503993253094319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21377782297306225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,peaked_in_high_skool,2020/04/03,"Hi, I'm new here. Can I discuss my symptoms here, as I don't have access to healthcare right now? Hello! (Remove if it breaks rules, sorry!)

I'll keep it as concise as possible but make sure to include all details about my mental health history. I'm currently a 5th year college student. 

*** Pre-conditions*** 

1. In grade 8th I developed depression and self-harm coping mechanism.

2. In grade 10th I developed a constant, ever present, disabling/paralyzing anxiety for an entire year. Went untreated and undiagnosed (still have mild PTSD from being forced to get over it by my parents)

3. In 1st semester of college my friends finally sent me to much needed counseling and I was hospitalzed for suicidal tendencies, and changed 4 SSRIs over next 2 years


*** The start ***

4. I very occasionally dabble in marijuana during first two years of college, and have intense auditory and mild visual hallucinations. I just assumed weed gives hallucinations to everyone.

5. During 2nd year, I tried mushrooms & acid. But it was nothing compared to whatever tf I felt on marijuana. 3.5 gms of shrooms did give me vivid visual hallucination and a scary experience, but how do I explain, at no point was I doubting my sanity. At every point I was more or less aware that it's a trip that'll end. Though scary, the trip was still memorable.

**The actual reason I'm posting **

6. At start of the 3rd year of college, one night I have edibles and it gave me the SINGLE MOST SCARIEST hallucination ever. I could hear every sound I've ever heard in my life, every voice, from all directions. Even voices from times I had completely forgotten about. I had completely lost grip on reality, to the point I couldn't even call 911 because the phone didn't make sense. Numbers didn't make sense. Nothing did. In fact, tbh, even time as a concept didn't make sense. 

^ I was never able to pin-point why this happened. I had tried edibles multiple times before. Neither the dosage, nor the strain, nor the ingestion method was any different from the past. Yet it's the closest vantage point I've seen insanity from. I'd rather take my chances with 15 gms of shrooms than whatever tf happened that day.

7. During late 3rd year of college, at height of my depression, I dove head first into 24x7 marijuana use. Of course it came with anxiety/ extreme paranoia, but also with vivid auditory hallucinations (and occasionally, mild visual ones). The auditory hallucinations became so bad I started doubting even real sounds of life. It quickly became annoying for my roommates.

8. I more or less dropped out of college at end of 3rd year and for almost all of 4th year (took one sem that I failed). My GPA dropped by half a letter grade. During this time I had continued to use marijuana and was attributing everything to it up till this point.

9. About August last year (ie, my 5th year of college), I stopped Marijuana use completely. But. The. Auditory. Hallucinations. Did. Not. Stop. 
Sure they lessened, became manageable, and far less frequent, but they did not cease to be.

10. This year I was supposed to see another therapist, but Corona wiped out university logistics, and I have no immediate access to mental healthcare. 

And amidst all this, I had 3 relapses where I went back to a couple of weeks of marijuana use since January. 

I won't have access to proper healthvare for quite some time to come. I'm posting this as I continue to hear mild voices on top of my tinnitus


*** What the voices are like (without the influence) ****

1. I'm unsure if it's in my head or I really hear them. But if it was in my head, like imagination, I should be able to stop at will right? Like I can imagine Morgan Freeman's voice in one moment, and stop imagining the next moment. This is not the case with voices I hear over my tinnitus. I barely have a choice in what I hear, at what volume I hear it, and how long I hear it for

2. The voices have no agenda whatsoever. They're random. 80% it is voices from the past, other 10% it's random sounds, other 10% it is song snippets. They don't happen often, and when they do, it's not much worse than the tinnitus, but I have to make a small conscious effort to ""keep them out"". Like if I don't, I can get carried away and that hinders my ability to work.

3. When I have no work, naturally the effort required to keep the voices out is greater, and at times I do get carried away to the point that I start replying to them with full speech and emotions. It has been a cause of awkwardness/embarrassment with my roommates. 

4. It's like these ""hallucinations"" are mild subset of what I described in number 6. If number 6 is the entire 2-storey cake, these voices are slices of the cake that my mind makes me eat at random times. 

***

Sorry for the long list. I decided to come here after shouting ""shut the fuck up"" for like the 3rd time, in a completey vacant house.",2.482897854042431,5.274864319824758,4.030493184860656,81.22294638148557,82.69112814895948,7.1930915581517985,25.430702608413448,8.256446698504663,2.1093573972658315,3816,155,691,87,108,1263,383,913,0.1,0.848,0.053,-0.9941,3,0,1,0,0,1,179.0,0,0,7,11,30,19,2,3,41,0,60,10,3,16,11,117,114,52,1,10,24,1,2,6,1,4,5,24,0,0,42,34,2,8,10,1,0,10,21,10,0,8,33,31,76,9,116,72,17,135,0,4,4,1,28,52,1,18,74,434,118,17,0.09559716468190348,0.0,0.04664452133637295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04786337572354913,0.0,0.0,0.038224509028906964,0.0,0.05178974399638445,0.0,0.032504675075077004,0.050120981219657086,0.07313156932070991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08981668308487649,0.03675415938978375,0.03990981970657652,0.02913757214464271,0.0,0.04067307304021072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048807696771996346,0.05466884451042005,0.0,0.04910231078963684,0.05056456225088588,0.08234849262201173,0.1503477125352082,0.0516532867530982,0.0,0.038163278593206236,0.05288822221669698,0.0,0.03082613133185728,0.0,0.08233769786062586,0.0,0.0,0.04993934513663595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048909882663956766,0.0,0.053766971620272996,0.0846707131664054,0.0,0.0,0.12628205134812875,0.1297096627436217,0.12081710147461187,0.04567359379002499,0.04295828373766605,0.0467561853583041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04589413486598975,0.05236101057826578,0.0,0.0813148994425929,0.0,0.0,0.03692906614710925,0.044189019158115315,0.07491835937824294,0.09170551127091307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12680438552058387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14716540611946713,0.050807657865954016,0.37710733335382296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05515314646094823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12745672859050328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03896222419967765,0.05391888284029514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06752310455886278,0.1401118375928181,0.0,0.0,0.08460048247614846,0.0,0.0,0.052177798999917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1914355492479599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09633945730626342,0.0,0.04826294232020655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0702749155919448,0.03544204315217804,0.03686521339047388,0.046164168676710325,0.10166866916539204,0.044855731562215166,0.0,0.09172805778207556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12955822572505146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05307466910877725,0.0,0.09125831073353134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3162957712555839,0.053885719720455146,0.09155565826820083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055873984884144696,0.0,0.0,0.05083967596339928,0.0,0.05440525114541557,0.030620995800264974,0.0491449034891456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08163945630431192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03808928162242098,0.0,0.04986434586507251,0.0,0.0,0.03953948124935622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10701319920624236,0.13532833039551526,0.0,0.07634401920285994,0.15984702046349442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05228389105715903,0.0,0.09009919636672124,0.04968102880255329,0.035938585313426946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.055497838173257055,0.0,0.0,0.046961864463326994,0.0,0.2229739019922072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05310598371872665,0.06490419965631558,0.0,0.04669226954145229,0.0,0.0,0.1651305132372728,0.0,0.0394388363037872,0.0,0.0,0.03834113958787037,0.0,0.0,0.08861952940713387,0.043130785968817566,0.0,0.0,0.046076127680288965,0.0,0.06959587444516202,0.0,0.04871083895256188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3693686386739111
schizophrenia,samwwich,2020/04/03,Should I see a psychiatrist I was having hallucinations for a few wks seeing out of focus people when I turn around or try to sleep or even just going about my day they were right in front of me but blurry thankfully I havent in about 4 days but I still see things in my peripherals then turn to see nothing and I need light when I sleep should I still go see a psychiatrist even though the hallucinations have gone away for most part,3.6784236453201977,5.405598747126444,4.5835796387520515,84.33724137931036,73.02298850574712,7.730049261083742,20.47454844006568,8.418075326091056,0.7997238095238095,349,7,74,6,7,113,57,87,0.021,0.9309999999999999,0.048,0.4767,0,0,0,0,0,0,0.0,0,0,1,0,11,1,0,0,4,0,7,2,2,0,0,12,19,9,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,0,3,6,12,1,14,14,3,18,0,0,5,0,1,7,0,3,7,55,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14056426586576498,0.0,0.0,0.14835202518849355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20366456897482704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20858260869807976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17947614835895695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11708067360881927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15150908128858984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17099005623349114,0.0,0.1094678143093407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13484553495019388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6291283392553254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31602759287020105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2521979095814677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14537288737367446,0.0,0.0,0.10490158641260096,0.0,0.15513571555917774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10720357434212617,0.3434992004205158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,bgx,2020/04/03,"It's possible to heal from Schizophrenia my experience You may not believe it because in popular mainstream opinion schizophrenia is disease of a brain and most people believe to be their brains. Brain is not the Mind, and Mind is not YOU.

I had multiple psychotic episodes including hospitalizations, running naked through the city etc. Been there.

It all ends in identification with incoming THOUGHTS, it's like a thought takes possesion of your will. When you understand and learn to observe your mind you will learn that ANY thought is COMPLETELY powerless. Its You who act. 

It took me many years of solitude and IMMENSE suffering to sched the horror of being sick. Its possible. I recommend Eckhart Tolle's Power of Now. Are people interested in my experiences?",5.719945474372955,9.089920847328244,5.4440185387131965,72.69780534351146,73.35114503816793,9.239040348964014,36.838058887677214,9.606745405546679,4.541193675027262,625,36,95,18,14,193,87,131,0.102,0.8240000000000001,0.075,-0.7028,2,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,7,1,1,3,4,0,0,5,0,12,5,3,0,1,22,18,5,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,0,9,5,0,0,7,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,6,0,13,3,15,7,3,10,0,1,0,0,9,3,0,3,5,67,22,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09569293840053968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08578027283578286,0.0,0.0,0.3170815758653478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4712628531436305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14753994987965227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12463421524208858,0.0,0.15693755880041502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2752980458966062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06874761560189817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1426657760582979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4262546316007484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19511202730608795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3172763823030491,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1058022829841242,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3351426760635185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.156342668153379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14649220622925266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0906176580909109
schizophrenia,LucifersExBestFriend,2020/04/03,"Hi I don’t have schizophrenia or anything, but I think I’ve been having ‘hallucinations’ and I don’t know what to think about it I’ve been seeing things floating or crawling out of the walls. It’s really odd, slightly alarming but I’m mostly just chill about it. I’m not sure what to think... any input?",1.458290398126465,3.9377743606557374,2.703653395784542,91.19983606557379,84.08196721311475,4.797189695550352,20.18969555035129,6.1826913282559595,0.07809414519906266,240,7,49,2,7,77,41,61,0.136,0.8640000000000001,0.0,-0.7607,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,1,0,6,0,0,0,1,14,13,5,0,0,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,0,4,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,2,1,3,1,6,11,1,2,0,0,1,0,1,2,0,3,0,30,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24811700123609115,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3002483163606074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20051726327831412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337383664127179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2907458177497153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34387580193707923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423964684286468,0.7013617895286425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TheBigLemon,2020/04/03,"I think I have schizophrenia Basically haven’t been myself for what seems like 2 years if not longer and I’ve had things happening to me for the past 4+ that’s makes me believe I have schizophrenia. I don’t even know who I can see to get help. Can I just go to a regular therapist? Will I ever feel normal again? Why me?I seen post like this on reddit thinking that it has to be fake or a cry for attention. But now here I am at 4:26 AM posting on Reddit cuz I can’t sleep. If anybody had any answers please share.  Honestly writing this felt good and I hate have to use my English skill cuz they’re soooooo poor. But honestly I wanna share more about me any my daily life if anybody wants to listen or knows a place where people want to listen. I’d appreciate it.

Copy and pasted this from another sub I posted in if anybody wants me to go into detail I can.",0.9603370786516868,3.271068910112362,2.664146067415732,91.81385955056179,84.61797752808988,5.5824719101123605,20.697752808988767,6.961326702584282,0.4762260674157304,678,21,144,9,20,223,116,178,0.073,0.772,0.156,0.8966,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,0,1,8,9,1,0,4,0,17,2,1,4,1,34,38,13,0,9,10,0,2,2,0,1,1,2,0,0,10,4,0,0,9,0,1,2,4,2,0,0,5,6,20,7,19,31,1,18,0,0,2,0,7,7,0,7,8,92,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20966520863833005,0.16164791618905813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17368307387769502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16933512725852573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10181978662310548,0.13944457445344086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07794682603019695,0.0,0.14801568297065346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08054109864504103,0.0,0.17522288405451375,0.1293002659685937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13632125166108625,0.0,0.0,0.15219893247100866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033287376548284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16944221327594913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1088862276929575,0.15062744868620734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10290154231958007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510419334040566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2943221662073802,0.10687362253876552,0.0,0.16106211172931628,0.16921899431710113,0.0,0.0,0.4429217369920864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12284382415457952,0.1403394901304834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15426915155536527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17898911145391067,0.1024156060912726,0.1975562136678568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13314286110567014,0.0,0.0,0.27277883008093623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13910345539526786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0992725822172085
schizophrenia,Transquestionmark_,2020/04/03,"Need help and advice for a friend **Trigger Warning** **Trigger warning** Suicide, abuse other not good things. 

My friend has bad schizophrenia. I'm on the phone with her right now, she's seeing her recurring hallucination, a girl named Mary, who scares the shit out of her. She was just talking to her, they had a conversation about my friend needing to leave because her parents would kill her. Considering her parents are highly abusive, and I'm trying to get my friend help and out of that house becuase I think she might actually be killed.

Her hallucination just shot herself in front of her to ""demonstrate"" how it'd be better for my friend to kill herself than let her family kill her. My friend pleaded with her not to.

I don't know how to help. Do I address this as a person, since she sees it as real in her episode? Or as a hallucination? I don't know what to do, I need help to help her so I can try to support her. What do I do?",1.217735507246374,3.8274338532608723,2.5347826086956537,90.54463768115944,88.18478260869566,4.8057971014492775,22.34057971014493,6.42735559955562,0.5033884057971023,735,27,149,8,24,236,99,184,0.183,0.626,0.19,-0.5483,2,0,0,0,1,1,30.0,0,0,1,1,7,16,5,1,7,0,17,1,1,4,0,26,29,10,5,4,5,2,0,0,6,2,0,0,1,2,9,7,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,7,0,0,2,2,34,9,27,21,0,10,0,0,2,0,42,7,1,2,2,105,43,0,0.0,0.2434185894794309,0.10024228407486974,0.0,0.0,0.10037918002885636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0857689471299989,0.06261864631672533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09084965100524968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09683757487610907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4761786164736364,0.0,0.053668235468708685,0.0,0.0,0.08615870949006985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3442634329824352,0.10853189828170803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11852790460195073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4545886434380668,0.0,0.11290713379153415,0.0,0.0,0.1087682325801887,0.0,0.10504065510835288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10897227631811607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22850216420276506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22812222767234286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08969327288852026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11692062613644255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08772440295354858,0.0,0.0,0.10284308305314993,0.0,0.16371297117910727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10544310905109276,0.08497306431742135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1123616774217887,0.11656820820649645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08256440664753112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06824422507074103,0.06582039214637575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394835884943902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07297107450737478,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Wish_I_Could_Swim,2020/04/03,"I don't know how to get honest answers out of doctors. I don't know if this belongs here, but this stuff weighs on me every day. I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder last year, and I really don't think that's right. I was pushing for a diagnosis because not having answers was killing me, but now I'm worried that the doctors are telling me what they think I want to hear, and that I've tricked them and my family. I keep trying to tell them that I'm worried that I'm tricking them, and they don't seem to think so, but if they could see it from where I am, I know they'd think so too. It's not irrational, everything they say gives me more proof that they aren't telling me the truth. I'm tired of being placated, I need honest answers but no matter what I say, I can't get them. Everything that comes out of the doctors and my parents mouths sounds like deception or like they're hiding things behind their words. I don't know how to get honest answers from anyone.",7.968520379676157,5.759995020100504,7.679564489112227,79.38619207146849,63.62311557788945,11.055499720826354,35.67895030709101,9.444778638647367,2.9728823003908427,775,27,163,11,9,247,101,199,0.147,0.7240000000000001,0.129,-0.7681,1,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,11,0,9,9,3,0,4,0,16,7,1,2,2,41,39,16,1,5,9,1,0,2,0,0,5,4,0,0,15,9,1,1,13,0,0,2,10,3,0,0,3,5,31,6,16,33,1,11,0,0,1,0,19,5,0,4,6,105,46,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0894141954323232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07795230426435222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101542489661768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10209894942018452,0.0,0.0,0.08246973896607357,0.0,0.0,0.12979191704432932,0.0,0.0,0.14655750402795814,0.3926609320153633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10774143441251756,0.0,0.2298542368574533,0.0,0.12055054756027515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20043052030032107,0.1226707544784675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14412606633303074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11366247490015673,0.14147635861196492,0.0,0.28111023679484315,0.10423638388785952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1249479599839276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09481877617785173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14199167777463267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08192093595342953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1092057997526075,0.0,0.20338499016739384,0.0,0.0,0.10190098390841648,0.11641392820453512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1463879546935029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3353089922364697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08495543915292897,0.32775229342655543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14697518156001424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08681972359480909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07542485039013637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25972950864965644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08234824886543225
schizophrenia,Derringler337,2020/04/03,"So sick of non-answers from psychiatrists I asked in the bipolar AMA what the best case scenario for a child diagnosed with bipolar 2 disorder and was basically told it’s a case by case basis depending on symptoms and that normally they would go from min-max treatment.

Minimum to maximum is not a treatment plan. One of my friends who has a master’s in psychology agreed and showed me a bunch of relevant studies about bipolar in children. Most of those studies laid out clear-cut steps to take with treating bipolar children or prodormal bipolar disorder. She did a 2 minute search on google scholar to obtain these results.

What makes me angry about the “case by case basis” answer is 1) I get it all the time when I ask a psychologist any question 2) There are already treatment modalities that are recommended at certain stages and put into practice.

You cannot treat someone without a treatment plan which you must get from SOMEWHERE. By obfuscating and saying “it’s a case by case basis” you are intentionally leaving people in the dark.",9.017105263157896,8.791834394736844,8.464210526315789,68.21947368421054,60.31578947368421,10.968421052631578,42.6842105263158,10.355215969177356,4.6624842105263165,845,45,136,16,10,268,121,190,0.078,0.851,0.071,-0.3074,1,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,3,1,5,5,5,0,0,14,0,11,8,0,4,3,24,19,8,0,3,3,0,0,0,1,2,8,1,0,3,11,9,0,0,2,1,0,3,3,0,0,1,3,1,11,5,29,14,4,15,0,0,0,0,15,9,0,4,2,91,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2164676408112312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13339565169943127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3667665846135195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2058580109248084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1990984575610139,0.0,0.0,0.4496331306362104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15155287151669442,0.0,0.2049711997926448,0.0,0.11148235304706924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20770531149925228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13093844598962756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19219533151188534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1329232173041059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13599277267436302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19719516466738787,0.21974429938135012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15599445156341993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662058872896296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20388553950801527,0.14748804588777573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11438258073460045,0.0,0.0,0.18743946201594347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18909141732695173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13934656656129268,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,_deathconsciousness_,2020/04/03,"I think my friend may be experiencing psychosis. How can I help him? Hello. I start to suspect that my friend is in psychosis. He told me about some things and it's very concerning.

 

\>!He thinks that a lot of people hijack his thoughts. He is in severe dissociation. I posted a picture on my profile and he thought that I was hinting and guilting him. He doesn't want to communicate with people, but for some reason he still talks to me. He says that he has a hard time descerning between truth and a lie. Also he is really fucking depressed.!<

​

I don't know what to do to help him. I don't understand how I should talk to him, to make him more comfortable. Seeing him like this is really fucking sad :(",2.884658385093168,5.398713739130436,3.8166045548654246,85.25608695652177,78.27536231884058,6.551552795031056,25.799171842650104,7.7094869923839395,1.5436215320910969,568,22,108,9,14,182,85,138,0.107,0.748,0.145,0.7574,0,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,0,5,9,2,1,4,0,14,2,0,4,1,24,27,8,0,2,1,0,1,1,2,2,0,1,0,0,8,5,0,0,8,0,0,0,3,4,0,0,4,4,20,5,15,20,4,7,0,1,1,2,24,3,2,4,4,74,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13584185285892922,0.0,0.1840498403324984,0.2064058952453799,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26247624350018905,0.314076930794198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15216665384367406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22771532245495915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09335396209548998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08298799256294001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14441407743579146,0.0,0.0,0.11338693582366068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23552752090751355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16268476135907856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21764113714307293,0.17465063432182149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13508433473901005,0.0,0.0,0.1353612831427696,0.0,0.0,0.19190033414545726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12023209461846822,0.0,0.13565528095300586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2730638615923548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11285148398599655,0.21768666645592505,0.0,0.26970940655106546,0.09905028460568577,0.0,0.0,0.16231433090405595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17683659301699806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1401573161882847,0.10019142247768847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064058952453799,0.0
schizophrenia,sigaportugal,2020/04/03,"Schizophrenia and weed Hello everyone, I hope you’re doing well

I have a weird question, and I honestly don’t know where else to ask this but can drugs dispute or trigger schizophrenia in a person?

I know it sounds weird but my mom tells me that and tells me that she had a friend showcase completely normal and just for doing drugs ONCE e developed schizophrenia, is that possible? I don’t have it but I’ve had family members with it and I have OCD so maybe it could be easier for me to get it. Idk what do think about this? We’re any of your schizophrenias disputed by drugs? And if yes were they a big or a small amount?

Thank you very much",1.8345847176079744,4.2796761627907,2.5477574750830563,93.20808139534886,81.94573643410854,6.166334440753047,20.8421926910299,7.447530270364453,0.6614425249169438,511,15,107,8,14,159,84,129,0.08800000000000001,0.752,0.16,0.8912,0,0,3,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,1,0,5,7,0,0,5,1,15,3,0,1,0,22,22,13,0,4,7,1,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,1,11,7,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,3,1,14,5,9,17,2,4,0,0,0,0,12,4,0,5,0,71,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11519710398547385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583651635111763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17761159007530328,0.0,0.0,0.13525128808006626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5893470504676258,0.0,0.14151109704125084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618679688711621,0.0,0.0,0.15969426648244384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13087721883726322,0.0,0.08850396664256979,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16825139313273607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18619448013379108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17018402740823313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983980184603539,0.0,0.0,0.1245277293238177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16597501723357655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18040436733590426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14791264073544744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19097187846461394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1897656076757742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2961243209804976,0.1559598059428936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10854401565559553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397718856213699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15231001200897332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,The_Schizo_Batman,2020/04/04,"Anyone else have romantic partners abuse their sense of reality? I’ve had so many abusive relationships. More than happy healthy home ones. I’m not psychotic right now and so I’m starting to put all these puzzle pieces together. How the beatings and emotional manipulation was used to make me more ill. And then if I was trying to fight for my soul through hellfire, I was told delusional.

I feel so unloved all the time, but you know man, this girls gotta love herself and I love me so I’m okay.

I may be delusional (sometimes) but I refuse to stop sticking up for myself from now on.",2.2980122532334946,4.9911966637168135,3.254867256637169,87.20876786929884,82.36283185840708,6.6627637848876775,26.39142273655548,7.882392219407189,1.7817166780122524,465,20,91,9,13,148,82,113,0.147,0.6809999999999999,0.172,0.7377,0,0,0,0,2,0,13.0,0,1,1,1,7,6,1,0,2,1,7,3,0,4,2,20,19,13,0,1,4,0,1,0,1,2,1,0,1,3,2,4,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,5,1,13,4,12,11,5,10,1,0,0,2,12,3,0,3,6,58,15,0,0.0,0.4783955987433996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14116096688495428,0.20685252094430248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686469582603584,0.22709068632352586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.102077878776626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21490771921222465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20250464942750607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11094936501792184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3644137511009947,0.0,0.1347581639662487,0.2046772101677914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13680083475106286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2029477143459021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21674629693207226,0.0,0.17240658720897062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19966699547613626,0.0,0.14289350182104588,0.0,0.0,0.16878284423470616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1177193333326791,0.0,0.0,0.1929074197053696,0.0,0.13706499362960606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17436169666039458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,timeencapsulist,2020/04/04,"This isn’t funny but I think the entire world knows how I feel everyday dealing with schizophrenia. It’s ironic that people’s’ mental health should suffer from fear and anxiety due to the coronavirus. Some people may get depressed from losing his or her job. Some people can’t handle being alone. In these uncertain times, all we can do is stick together. Six feet though. We’ll get through this. If we can make it through the Black Plague, we can make it through anything. Aliens....I’m not sure if we can make it through aliens.",2.7719696969696948,5.676466323232321,2.407297979797981,92.49761363636364,82.73737373737373,5.3202020202020215,21.381313131313128,6.816661863887847,0.5754101010101014,422,13,79,5,12,124,70,99,0.255,0.727,0.018000000000000002,-0.9788,1,1,0,0,0,0,15.0,5,0,0,1,2,6,0,2,3,0,12,2,1,4,2,25,20,7,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,8,6,0,0,3,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,0,2,9,1,9,16,3,5,0,3,1,0,8,2,0,7,3,52,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21894215188414232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16171710255469496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17396061746865435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2179396448193288,0.1820747736268469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23787889086006264,0.10688799826434382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208910163665772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2247037030380132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20977757531206306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11617752717429325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364976724816911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4233247370172277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2130371061632432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4396654037972832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1992379093498607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13545380420916456,0.20769516426676385,0.0,0.12326651031295086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lovelypeachess22,2020/04/04,"I'm hallucinating again and I don't know how to tell my partners I'm a 20 year old schizophrenic who's in a poly relationship. For as long as I can remember I've been like this but the past 2 or 3 years were the most difficult. I was constantly delusional and hallucinating, extremely paranoid and it really put a strain on my relationship. I didn't want them to be together without my supervision and would have really bad meltdowns if they were together or worse, having sex. That made me split really hard and do some really dumb stuff. I don't remember it all because I kind of lost my memory of the last 2 or 3 years when I started 300mg of quetiapine. I've gotta say it changed my life so much for the better. for a bit I didn't hallucinate at all, no delusions, I was calm, I didn't feel like my partners being with each other was going to hurt me. But the entire time I've been on the medicine I've been paranoid of it not working anymore and I believe I'm hallucinating again. That or my brain is picking up on small sounds and freaking me out for no reason. I have no idea how to tell and I don't want to tell my partners because I'm terrifies of how they'd react. I don't want them to worry or get scared but I need someone to talk to about this.",2.749240276263176,4.22499148854962,4.813882224645585,82.77090330788806,74.95419847328245,8.50192657215558,26.59832788077063,9.107695989026183,2.0828892766266818,998,37,213,23,21,345,136,262,0.23600000000000002,0.72,0.043,-0.9944,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,4,3,8,13,1,2,10,0,25,4,1,7,2,43,41,24,0,6,11,0,2,2,3,2,2,2,0,3,11,11,0,0,6,0,0,2,12,8,0,0,13,4,30,5,29,23,7,23,0,2,0,1,15,8,1,8,15,138,41,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12272036608766028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10332070841998628,0.15086585796461804,0.0,0.0,0.13941662344463865,0.0,0.1094411277702137,0.13509592422309158,0.0,0.0,0.13813874355174896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1309042844873371,0.0,0.0,0.13372283359805226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06256846479472812,0.08840242791805136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06465090564622496,0.0,0.07032631994501155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11084992897434842,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13247004619262348,0.13969142333049395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12885988129494078,0.06800622742476953,0.10086752171585657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08740373984436821,0.12090971114836127,0.0,0.0,0.10950916148423387,0.0,0.0,0.13508071938442545,0.0,0.0,0.11708915366996918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09096575875934114,0.09175428586893204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12984805608358987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11812723514566473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12439646152923155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3170931867765326,0.12722899479532487,0.0,0.26570855921993136,0.2803546746892267,0.0,0.0,0.09840584998832766,0.12388889630464407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10484752148476743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08758633256525676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14165677710838656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09946039062563047,0.3244719913952553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07215586816221313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21896148305069169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192843813421868,0.0,0.0900867894624646,0.12566759742045938,0.1261052649526558,0.08790387855457939,0.0,0.0,0.23906039726875594
schizophrenia,nova-garden,2020/04/04,"Schizophrenia Support Chats? That’s not an interesting title but this isn’t an interesting post. I need help looking for schizophrenia support chats (preferably on discord), I’ve asked around but I just can’t seem to find one. I feel if I can understand my schizophrenia and learn how to cope with it, It will help me treat my boyfriend better as well.",4.565743589743594,7.158488369230772,3.7026923076923097,87.81147435897438,73.0,6.17948717948718,29.294871794871803,7.1686216300943375,1.6078717948717949,284,12,52,3,6,83,49,65,0.06,0.639,0.3,0.9586,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,4,7,0,0,2,0,4,0,0,1,0,16,12,6,0,3,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,6,2,0,0,3,0,1,1,0,2,7,7,7,11,0,3,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,2,0,33,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236737188746079,0.2348931833352407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22221810642491746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12704406516891512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296461113004245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33682713072514786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21099422114212465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18630531389419747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702595545045325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2406366018348296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22873669446145636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5702513154507627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26156940864138595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2259119542543308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BrugmansiaFreak,2020/04/04,"Catatonia, Agression And How To Deal Sometimes I become catatonic around people. My parents got angry 'cause they think I'm ignoring them designedly... When I'm around my ""friends"" and become catatonic they act agressive in so many ways. They beat me up, do and speak ""funny"" things (for them), hurt me, only to see if I will react because they think I'm pretending. What can I do to people stop get angry with me, beat me and understand that I'm ill?

😢",2.735452196382429,5.305960348837214,3.778527131782949,84.9919250645995,79.23255813953489,7.078036175710594,24.671834625323,8.167268648758528,1.7867586563307496,354,13,65,7,9,114,56,86,0.196,0.7879999999999999,0.016,-0.946,1,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,6,2,5,3,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,3,0,16,14,8,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,3,7,0,2,3,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,2,15,1,9,12,0,8,0,1,1,0,10,4,0,1,2,39,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36293196014965184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12426250782667035,0.4502633421317794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2094057888047716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21015606925689168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15749075964040174,0.0,0.10650101722484434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16303410815779798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2182211452464056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20666764662757145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15503391676185996,0.0,0.0,0.22634663769472554,0.0,0.0,0.28264202267827865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16243871082404404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20160870880750634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17042421665069096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1354260919197316,0.26123231578255723,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21221066710707875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16180330802686396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,relationshhipthrwy,2020/04/04,"I hallucinate the voice of a guy I fell in love with. It’s been two years He didn’t love me back. But every time I hallucinated his voice, he was being sexual towards me, trying to get me to masturbate. The real us never kissed, we never dated, we were never in a relationship together. It was just me, with all this love for the real him, but his heart was always with another girl.

But what made it worse was how over time, I realized that the real him started to disrespect me, and begin to not care about me as a person. He’s racist (which I found out later on) towards people like me, and he’s an asshole, but that’s a whole different conversation.

I recently got into a relationship with a guy, and the voice was still there. But after dating the guy for two months, I broke up with him, because I realized that I LIKED him, but I don’t LOVE him. I don’t have that same feeling that I did towards the guy whose voice I hear, even though that feeling was an unhealthy one. My now ex treats me right, but we’re just better off as friends.

So today I spent my time crying to the hallucination and telling him that all I wanted was just to be friends with him. But now I can’t be his friend in reality ever again, because having hallucinated his voice makes everything complicated and worse.

So now I’m going to try to live a life without my old crush in it, because I know I’m strong enough to do that.

**TL;DR — I would appreciate any advice or any tips on how to cope with this, especially for when I get into future relationships. Thank you.**",4.355589459084605,5.194040592233009,5.767341655108647,79.921359223301,70.2621359223301,8.733610725843736,26.36477115117892,8.976282227363876,1.8706654646324543,1209,36,246,22,21,409,154,309,0.10400000000000001,0.732,0.165,0.9619,1,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,3,1,0,2,19,16,0,0,17,0,21,7,1,4,6,53,44,22,0,2,14,1,2,2,3,1,1,6,0,6,17,17,0,0,6,0,1,2,9,1,0,3,15,8,45,15,41,25,5,44,0,1,0,5,40,16,0,1,28,185,62,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09060275727544696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07714863382466569,0.0,0.0,0.1261025615561541,0.09722269342653443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07129426207445215,0.0,0.16955972378496315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08200135602045602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09453197244319428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10184614532577084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0968703629496555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09580226840256066,0.0,0.06123922988302283,0.08386855476828048,0.07811874210170709,0.0,0.08332877665849017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09376180713448896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10166027776962973,0.2149006178159481,0.0,0.09688244335478947,0.0,0.05269366020722732,0.0,0.07415489147465075,0.0,0.0,0.3672207808485481,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10449969473114308,0.10987103479967597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0509552759578232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654893213778453,0.0905944636373324,0.0,0.08187151262685273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.334725723706075,0.08773182049425331,0.06188984886358394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07400646026925954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21452904067409648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09729173019699597,0.0,0.06282797819415176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06427884555787977,0.08095760326417177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31659945141875284,0.0,0.0,0.09154763809247836,0.2986326430410669,0.0,0.0791804912696936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06562613329688696,0.0,0.07404455173553254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08103944049545353,0.08536208962197328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09109476391627074,0.0,0.16219347757155808,0.0,0.0878856294973743,0.0,0.0,0.12589859479458376,0.0,0.18114362873795253,0.0,0.11152809266959984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05468735837623444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10351610820451723,0.0,0.08937664680007712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1889747106617645,0.06586406214734604,0.0,0.0,0.059707220817347015
schizophrenia,HalfAMileAway,2020/04/04,"Is your mental disorder affected by your menstrual cycle? I have three separate mood states each menstrual cycle (~4-5 weeks). The first 1-2 weeks of my cycle I had no extreme moods; my mood was normal. Then, I was manic or hypomanic for 4 days to about a week and a half. For however many days are left over that cycle, I would be depressed. Sometimes the depression would last for 3 weeks and extend my menstrual cycle to 6 weeks if I was stressed out. 

During anytime (even with no mood problems), I would have delusions which accounts for the schizoaffective bipolar type diagnosis. The delusions were the worst during a depressive phase.

For a long time, I thought I just had really bad PMS. 

Has anyone had a similar experience of their period heavily influencing their mental disorder?",5.921024327784893,7.993886492957749,6.5628553137003856,71.00269526248401,67.87323943661971,10.515749039692704,32.627400768245835,10.637119530657019,4.1041042253521125,630,28,101,19,11,206,92,142,0.218,0.7709999999999999,0.012,-0.9817,1,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,2,2,1,3,11,0,1,10,0,16,2,0,2,0,16,17,5,0,6,3,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,2,5,0,0,1,0,1,0,2,7,0,3,8,0,15,0,14,5,2,17,0,3,0,0,4,3,0,2,13,71,17,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811380592334824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11715990507166313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809873683780078,0.0,0.3625677941955442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216338174779638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09267890244166924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1372582055836577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1193546597009074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11437812854521312,0.0,0.0,0.15245622486992186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1241772647533302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14226071497301046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828156517779864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13748212478947655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13426564627853588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08989148504140368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13877836965660306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1607341189056559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139704286957963,0.08182071913294234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5627743131240027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2990342466010424,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mass_hysteria98,2020/04/04,"Does anyone know if this might be a symptom? Sorry if this is the wrong place to ask. When I was young, maybe about 8 years old or so, I would hear a whispering voice inside my head that just said my name over and over again. I was the only person sleeping upstairs at that time and covering my ears did nothing to silence it, so I know it wasn’t external. I was terrified and had a lot of trouble sleeping because of it, but I never told my parents because I thought they would find it silly. 

What has me questioning whether or not this was actually schizo is the fact that it eventually stopped happening. I’m now in my early twenties and haven’t experienced it since I was a child. The voice also didn’t tell me to do anything; it was just aggressively whispering my name at various volumes. I’ve never told anyone about this, but finding this sub has rekindled my curiosity.",6.3456140350877215,6.469741017543861,6.812333333333335,76.6785,65.7251461988304,9.88093567251462,35.228654970760225,9.642632912329526,3.282248654970761,698,31,132,13,10,228,102,171,0.09,0.903,0.006999999999999999,-0.8834,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,1,0,10,4,1,0,8,0,20,5,4,0,3,30,30,15,0,4,10,1,0,0,0,3,1,7,0,2,16,4,0,1,6,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,14,8,18,1,12,12,2,17,0,0,0,0,13,6,0,7,11,98,34,0,0.0,0.0,0.14575206713632427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11944170604854795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088694654454605,0.0,0.12290908014363908,0.0,0.13962976385783613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1820947562432716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1307043755017228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27302139497155764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13207697125738965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1532846126285415,0.0,0.16833755695158162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16416673159863868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12697900848180474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15005039639106044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1584454572289411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23038851737099145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1433132300760932,0.0,0.15672631594849804,0.0,0.0,0.1135936485426837,0.0,0.0,0.1658446161210457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13041382738206775,0.15604753948719638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1673153766941753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14207385976929945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12355065419221485,0.0,0.29893214810755964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1671942872208057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12487015082717255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15524036774249966,0.0,0.0,0.13054565819379496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11857373474305907,0.08709197297377462,0.0,0.0,0.2854363392619851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121995732392719,0.16329975527013055,0.0,0.096181789914506
schizophrenia,4twenky,2020/04/04,"I primarily have tactile hallucinations I’m usually able to distract myself or keep under control the audio, but the tactile consumes me and cause me major distress several times daily, anyone else struggle with this? I’m thinking maybe I have sensory processing disorder as well",7.694361702127662,10.705074978723406,8.575478723404256,54.50875000000002,65.17021276595744,10.657446808510642,43.66489361702129,10.686352973137794,6.301940425531916,232,15,26,7,4,78,39,47,0.23800000000000002,0.7120000000000001,0.05,-0.8765,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,1,4,0,3,2,0,2,0,0,2,0,8,6,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,5,1,4,6,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,2,18,6,0,0.2691534001558977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18819831551726807,0.2757794655369951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2764946836764118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3018784248529911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3084731149356864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2248431288202901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392359089102801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27040076713242417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040667307067104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28137757331143803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.172462630881933,0.0,0.0,0.15694551210521185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29643444456576656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420012307640493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SlowlyConfused,2020/04/04,"""recent"" amnesia Hello to you all, I'll try to be as clear as I can.
I lost all memory of yesterday evening. It was like I wasn't there at all. The only thing I remember is my roomate being pissed of at 4 am because I asked him if we eaten. i absolutly don't remember that se eaten or what I did Yesterday evening. It's making me very anxious.
It's not the first time it happens to me and I am wondering if that was something common other person having our ""condition
That's pretty much all, love on you all and already thanks for the answers.

PS: my english is sometimes clumsy, sorry about that",1.8288567493112995,4.0068233388429775,4.238367768595044,82.63512741046834,80.07438016528927,7.008539944903582,25.78581267217631,8.07648339933343,1.8815944903581268,468,19,89,9,12,163,80,121,0.08199999999999999,0.792,0.126,0.7436,0,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,2,2,0,2,4,5,1,0,3,0,13,4,1,1,6,18,22,7,0,2,4,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,11,3,2,0,4,0,0,0,3,2,0,1,7,0,17,3,12,13,6,9,0,1,0,1,9,3,1,4,7,72,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186357752738448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22382476493417686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185220054764316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12077511195253918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2617192814393557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1685249552508495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752012119300437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09679382795487937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21627675375179534,0.0,0.17881547509447968,0.0,0.13224992218148365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14564461232287151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1506829290736036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17299503760762844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20156427024960907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19562445596393696,0.0,0.4488738231276963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15252624248125207,0.1959506113525208,0.22178462657036485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1824068068842439,0.0,0.0,0.13162539287968525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11552823379518715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13451381502838644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1634738078458449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148580236733205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Osculum____Infame,2020/04/04,"My mom got admitted again My mom has schizophrenia and is living in another state than me. According to my aunt she was yesterday shopping at the grociery store (our grociery store have nowadays security guards (thanks corona) which prevent to many people from entering the store) well according to my aunt my mom was really angry at these guards and they called the police and have admitted her..I mean i talked to her one day before and she sounded completly normal (medicated, you know). So i cannot even visit her as the fucked up state forbids to visit people in hospitsls during corona...is this a joke or something..is this even legal? I bet someone just called the police and she did not do anything..",4.610581395348838,7.245306899224807,4.884670542635657,79.1888662790698,73.03100775193798,8.020930232558143,27.80426356589147,8.841846274778883,2.5515472868217053,566,22,94,12,12,178,82,129,0.077,0.83,0.09300000000000001,-0.4391,0,0,1,0,0,0,19.0,1,1,1,0,6,6,1,0,6,0,9,2,0,0,0,18,16,8,0,1,3,5,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,5,0,5,4,2,5,3,2,2,1,1,4,1,17,4,13,12,0,13,0,0,0,1,20,5,1,2,3,63,21,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17761375006950986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1393884874857441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1441331924022602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3459197264290545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17759575855548715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10923857938836744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22375288911557545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15659265268909214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13547174940964532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09308894178635922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14956905501190124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17172865206778112,0.0,0.1845086842844128,0.0,0.1706364227153476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5951410023878522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16596022294693566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11477888981527735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2348588875147941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10851164048669402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14351839814576567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13614433359415598,0.0,0.15594590436835526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15229643576109278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,hephaestion356,2020/04/04,"Do you believe your hallucinations/delusions? Hello all, I'm having an interview diagnosis thing conducted on me by a very much non-expert at the moment and would like to ask people who have more experience with the condition. **I'm not looking for a diagnosis,** I'm just curious if this applies to you guys. I experience auditory and visual hallucinations, and rarely delusions such as '*That person can hear my thoughts through their ear buds/when they stand close to me,'* or once, *'There is an alien trying to communicate with me.'*

However, most of the time, I don't really believe these things are real. I have certainly been convinced of such things for the periods of time during which I was directly experiencing them, but once the episode is mostly over, I feel like I can say to myself, ""There's no way that was real, you're hallucinating,"" and believe it. Do you believe what you see/hear after you stop seeing or hearing it? What about delusions?

Sorry if this is nosy, I'm an outsider here. :) Stay healthy!",3.6046774193548434,6.465510274193552,4.9122688172043,76.40840322580645,77.9784946236559,7.806021505376345,27.57956989247312,8.697196308434329,2.5837234408602145,805,34,139,19,20,266,120,186,0.038,0.86,0.10099999999999999,0.8893,1,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,6,3,0,7,4,0,0,10,0,16,1,1,0,2,24,27,10,0,3,7,0,1,2,0,1,0,4,0,2,14,7,0,1,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,4,8,20,4,20,22,5,13,0,0,2,0,18,4,0,6,8,102,34,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11484590619401705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5536286285503601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403370160760397,0.0,0.0,0.062115428739676085,0.0877623373015977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12163842049144885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4153744604397188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12003424682722373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10316102913120456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09030710797370414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2616573315581247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08516704557522259,0.10726577036378146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27965488670547495,0.0786993068779677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09769332814175502,0.0,0.0,0.19578723583759516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13751781064305355,0.0,0.1309391772817413,0.0,0.10270607950702626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2448434249084884,0.0,0.0,0.09752725809405847,0.14326682624174128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08340544441694911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10136212099133704,0.0,0.09751069270142704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0872673977571874,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,WrappedinFlannel,2020/04/04,"Afraid I'm developing schizophrenia Hi there, over the last few months, I fear that I am developing schizophrenia.

I've always dealt with severe anxiety and hypochondria, but I had a horrible panic attack in January that made me feel like nothing was real until it was over.

I stabilized for awhile, but go into periods of derealization when my fear is really bad. 

I don't experience any hallucinations, but I have concerning violent thoughts that scare me because I don't want those things that flash across my mind to happen. And for the first time, I had a fear about eating the dinner my partner had cooked me because I was afraid he poisoned me. 

The stress and isolation of the current COVID-19 pandemic certainly isn't helping my anxiety and panic and I'm often left ruminating on the fear that things will just continue to get worse. I cannot afford my normal therapy sessions and I'm currently on no medication. 

Can someone help me or give me some kind of insight? I'm so terrified that I'm developing schizophrenia and will lose all the people I love if my condition worsens.",6.986307692307693,8.147367200000001,7.52,68.54961538461541,64.5,11.153846153846157,35.884615384615394,11.051253699011982,4.4041576923076935,880,41,145,25,13,290,122,200,0.353,0.585,0.062,-0.9975,3,1,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,6,19,3,10,9,0,16,6,0,1,2,27,30,15,0,3,6,0,1,1,1,2,2,0,0,1,10,9,3,0,3,1,0,1,5,15,0,1,8,1,23,4,17,20,3,19,0,1,0,1,7,8,0,4,11,97,33,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10488595525147752,0.0,0.0,0.08572016750507105,0.0,0.19285996114714646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14340315882109386,0.0,0.0,0.10524875029340132,0.1536811279707246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12898339469396508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12330374112507518,0.0,0.5673773883437174,0.0637360392522044,0.09005208349382156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10722037345054987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06585734001109053,0.1209212485453868,0.07163866179526293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11146799798383883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689809531563869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13126450327962585,0.0,0.10274978528634283,0.0,0.0,0.13695664171283087,0.0,0.0,0.061582988499135814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14102074303113135,0.0,0.0,0.11376749508598945,0.11927412505325442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12698484712706076,0.0,0.0,0.12727730673880264,0.0,0.10061407306009984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235048954070346,0.1209509779721391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2957913987226816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08738907981342504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1434755840680999,0.08075259583761807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12620075598291475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1424036864332768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10680405483454564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14439295707847835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14415226314263374,0.0,0.1674876431105186,0.0,0.0,0.10007177405301117,0.07350235075371701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07434915615624765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12845848373139762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mrquasar87,2020/04/04,"Hi everyone Hello everyone,

My name is Tom and this is my first post on reddit :). I was officially diagnosed with schizophrenia last year but had been struggling with symptoms for over a decade prior. I was largely disabled before being medicated but have been lucky to find a medication and dosage that have given me substantial (though by no means complete) remission of my symptoms. 

I'm 33 and live in NYC (yay for being the epicenter of the epidemic!) with my partner. I resumed college this semester and am aiming to complete my bachelor's within a year or so and then hopefully continue onto graduate school. 

I look forward to getting to know more of you and hope everyone is staying safe during these difficult times.

Take care,

Tom",6.400681818181816,8.461609219696975,6.900424242424244,69.1006363636364,66.65151515151516,10.431515151515152,36.684848484848494,10.577609850970193,4.640524848484849,595,31,90,17,10,194,94,132,0.066,0.7829999999999999,0.151,0.9244,0,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,1,0,1,2,8,0,1,5,1,13,5,0,0,0,20,23,12,0,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,5,0,0,1,4,9,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,2,0,1,6,1,11,6,18,15,1,16,0,0,1,0,5,6,0,4,9,66,15,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13304683789036298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15941464133875788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3278710990124079,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15869733073500994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44821254761183854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14290590482059842,0.13299573201063658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08168918705630054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105921699896401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08592877976829548,0.12745043193116035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380645879267374,0.0,0.13129906669652816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17031675076508945,0.0,0.3150230157650251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14974514971504696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15823990352094755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16665393817696522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16345650019819782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3250260327654612,0.11755972137825273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15361828111941192,0.0,0.0911720284904774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2013753642483452
schizophrenia,throwaway12126098767,2020/04/04,"Drug Use (Likelihood of Development) I know that drugs don’t directly cause schizophrenia but I wanted to know how the use of certain drugs and schizophrenia/psychosis symptoms were linked. 

My dad had schizophrenia and I (20F) have been worried that I’ll eventually get it. I’m in college and it kinda sucks that people my age get to experiment with different drugs and not worry and I have to be cautious about it. I smoke weed/consume edibles often (have been for a couple years now) but I really want to try a few other drugs. 

I’ve talked to a family member (20F) about this since she’s also worried she might get it because we have other family members with undiagnosed but very obviously have it (or mild forms of it, one person being her mother). She’s tried pretty much all of the drugs I’ve wanted to and she’s fine (other than a bad shroom trip). 

Sorry if this isn’t the right place for it, there’s not much info/research done where there are definite answers for this sort of thing.",3.6934585771481374,5.916360298429318,4.545691407453036,82.48353249153065,74.28795811518324,7.216630736064059,24.32429935324915,8.124751697461798,1.535740129350169,791,25,145,13,17,255,114,191,0.086,0.825,0.08900000000000001,0.1501,1,0,7,0,0,0,24.0,1,0,0,0,9,4,1,0,7,0,16,7,0,4,3,34,28,13,0,4,7,2,0,0,0,1,7,0,0,1,17,9,0,0,4,0,0,1,4,2,0,1,5,0,14,2,20,20,5,8,0,0,0,0,10,4,1,6,3,100,31,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08274058902090843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08638860443552507,0.06307104899800701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10628662657118333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11448159229903752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10809846710650747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10588018974712267,0.0,0.0,0.7199164052686693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10120821470829708,0.19507440001071716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16216792160098484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11372285711146606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10975957136346612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1521167454387682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07011027859695902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07172931390578065,0.0903412823798538,0.10809846710650747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10526067630685683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0662820607324132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08835818789532593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08558697158618413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11582012902559832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10753931680795016,0.0,0.08316091202001788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06873727102781639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14049131946817206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.178720358713363,0.0,0.08536911601943085,0.1830782738053999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31521991660537785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06662779873034344
schizophrenia,That-Brown-Eyed-Boy,2020/04/04,"something really weird happened to me last night (not schizophrenic) uh so basically last night I woke up to turn on my music which turned off.


I woke up but my wifi wasnt working and apparently that's why the music stopped so I decided to go back to sleep.


I lay down and a few seconds later I feel someone jumping on my bed. like my bed was moving I could physically feel it and i was awake.



after jumping on my bed it head really really fast to my door and and hit it REALLY loudly, once. and it disappeared. 



I went back to sleep thinking about it but I wasn't scared and now that I think about it I should've been shitting me fucking pants.



idk I just wanted to know what anyone thinks I don't think I'm schizophrenic I dont see shit and this kinda thing doesn't usually happen to me.",2.112222222222222,4.107948000000004,3.845456790123461,86.72855555555559,78.25925925925927,7.282962962962964,22.528395061728396,8.238735603445708,1.261192098765432,624,19,130,12,15,209,93,162,0.078,0.855,0.067,0.0851,1,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,1,8,6,3,1,2,0,9,8,5,0,0,24,29,12,0,2,4,0,2,1,0,0,2,1,4,0,12,8,0,1,8,0,0,6,6,5,1,1,8,4,23,1,18,19,1,25,0,0,1,1,0,7,3,1,13,83,35,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09500046718893423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20894469718625971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847771819138403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1592336064832791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13739557595037236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12560566450496308,0.0,0.0,0.07721561704458796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2402912067130808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394374211810168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07466824394599418,0.22149738348709672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06637712566435698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14440375363409566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2550015400689687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14469255264152572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3481562251050433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360252830038012,0.0,0.10826738451881306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27892840867213314,0.0,0.0,0.2719276718350701,0.0,0.11511857969210107,0.1045960654537776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11358982167387835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09026314413216466,0.348229057446862,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2955657668978389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14963689046438947,0.0,0.08013711905669216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1259488792845942,0.1225976755186645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989118589078612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ruddigore_,2020/04/05,"I have bpd, I’ve been struggling with it for awhile now. Recently learned that my grandfather is schizophrenic. Not sure what I’m asking for. I’m just scared about my mental health. Due to my college being physically closed I cant see my counselor. This was the first time I met my grandfather and I knew he had some alcoholic issues but seeing him in that state freaked me out. Can’t think straight. I believe my family is cursed",2.297710843373494,5.074807987951812,2.859048192771088,89.34784939759041,83.57831325301207,6.693493975903616,23.96265060240964,7.908726449838941,1.5364949397590362,345,13,67,7,10,107,65,83,0.10400000000000001,0.866,0.03,-0.5833,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,3,4,0,2,1,0,9,3,0,0,1,12,17,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,5,4,1,0,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,5,2,13,1,7,11,1,10,0,0,2,0,4,4,0,1,5,42,18,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.259442517220092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269529955553324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2735136145437119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3057546811590577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22885773201405105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20649623210983556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2580484015491418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533841363256861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446505508045846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397016691383207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2430506419743405,0.0,0.3869053859854117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537912374668456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288036349228602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1555543464008344,0.0,0.0,0.14155853028117066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lamooch,2020/04/05,"My worst symptom It would be easy to say the worst part of it all were the hallucinations every time I tell anyone I used to see my own corpse staring back at me it got the biggest squirm. The scarier part is their  quite happy reaction to the real worst part, denial. I convince myself every so often that I’m fine, I’m better, I don’t need the risperidone it’s just making me suicidal anyways. I go smoke a little and drink a lot, pretend to be like everyone else. Then Inevitably I have a ( I was going to call it a breakdown but I’m still in denial so I’ll call it a moment where I scream at the wall). Then I take the meds again. The cycle goes on and that what really drives me mad the fact I don’t go anywhere.",1.5111428571428576,3.3891602666666683,3.3779047619047624,89.92800000000004,79.66666666666666,5.61904761904762,20.714285714285715,6.5431188927421005,0.2642285714285717,560,15,119,5,14,188,94,150,0.151,0.774,0.075,-0.9209,0,0,2,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,1,2,9,10,1,0,15,0,9,2,0,2,2,13,21,7,1,2,2,0,0,1,0,1,1,2,0,0,9,2,1,0,0,2,0,4,2,5,0,0,3,4,17,5,10,15,9,19,0,0,2,0,5,8,0,2,8,83,26,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10945254272460388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.120365346995485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13844202021749222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31967839589032804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15334418967663332,0.0,0.0,0.13076446564304325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26377408858243045,0.14957539653580776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668864440457357,0.0,0.12519491729135002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16663385663895108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07647483636333828,0.15688866444737395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13308001072671513,0.0,0.0,0.1044879758511849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17387451068906934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11606832785914965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5085347383772221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1664936796289106,0.0,0.17817049937250606,0.10027999132720386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448249530293524,0.0,0.0,0.12473770793315445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12500863187931385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17122330625573612,0.0,0.0,0.16269925282454392,0.11769444230521214,0.0,0.13681802843220156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0912765096856266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13519552518232558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1111975980145302,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,1psycho_joker,2020/04/05,"Awareness If you help me catch a sexual predator that talks to underage man and woman or if you anyone that is doing it, please text me.",4.16,5.5269496296296285,5.408333333333335,80.33250000000002,71.22222222222223,8.362962962962964,24.61111111111111,8.841846274778883,1.8344222222222208,108,3,20,2,2,36,23,27,0.0,0.828,0.172,0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,4,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,3,0,15,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4186766535237236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4013455431681647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6572739658877846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4812718031833677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,gabyje,2020/04/05,"Feel free to Hey, if you ever need to talk, feel free to dm me, rn im doing pretty good with schizophrenia and i wanted to say that things will get better, i hope everyone's okey. ( sorry for my english, im european)",1.5696666666666663,3.2593325777777795,3.744166666666669,88.25625000000002,78.7777777777778,6.277777777777778,20.13888888888889,7.1686216300943375,0.4755555555555557,166,4,35,2,4,57,36,45,0.025,0.625,0.35,0.9531,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,1,1,5,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,9,8,2,0,4,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,5,7,6,7,0,1,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,18,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2278113396037267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23299868123673795,0.0,0.24613171205569856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604835325118981,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1345765501684567,0.0,0.0,0.2160485022262436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2558381607943594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5564679476274171,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.190994621529053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620546384129531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20484043766209925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2883432170268853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20703555681104416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17112678102291645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15192919941435096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mypwissloppy,2020/04/05,"After a year, I heard a voice again So I am kind of stable for quite some time, got rid of voices and only the stuff I consider real remained. Until today.

As regular as possible, I did my groceries. Yesterday I already saw an intern from a couple of years ago, however I knew it couldn’t be her because of the height and because she wouldn’t work at a frigging store. However, another girl from longer ago had the same glasses and hair (as far as I can know, never saw her without hoody) and she had the right height. 
I ignored this because I’m used to this kind of intimidation.
But today at the checkout, I suddenly heard my name at a way and voice unmistakenly was the interns! I was shocked, looked around, and she was nowhere to be seen. And everyone just went along their own business, so yeah it *looks* like it was a voice, so I did as if nothing happened and left.

But, why do people do these things? Why do I see and hear the one I have had the least paranoia from out of almost everyone? Why why why??? Oh and, how come those intimidators weren’t there during the chaotic period, why are they back now it has eased down?
Why are they acting as if I need meds while in reality they are actually there? What are their reasons for myselfs sake??? How am I supposed to believe mental healthcare while they send undercovers inside the clinics? Why why why???",2.459457070707071,4.8930776477272735,3.688484848484851,86.03328282828285,79.3409090909091,6.486868686868688,25.308080808080806,7.662118739084242,1.456170202020202,1065,41,207,17,27,346,154,264,0.057999999999999996,0.898,0.044000000000000004,-0.6738,3,0,0,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,6,2,12,5,0,0,17,1,26,2,1,4,1,36,44,28,0,5,6,0,1,1,0,1,1,7,0,1,11,14,0,1,3,0,1,4,5,2,0,1,18,14,29,3,31,22,4,35,0,0,6,0,17,12,0,4,19,147,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.08398306293975978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15257566127030645,0.0,0.0861775998709984,0.0,0.09497038726254302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0902423993166931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07661248252374249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06617555058761362,0.0,0.15738585059251906,0.0,0.0,0.0969612085137575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07413387940027821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09522479313627892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16446983234284207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06883079548498794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07610340496665104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09699693402884664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17923845106259131,0.04729684190196666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09350546305366728,0.0,0.0,0.04204502814777245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14453902909285207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09559430322111463,0.0,0.08672918570851564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06381309648989751,0.06637550236892599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08257779294700122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05831712017669445,0.06545322287741066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05966381967018295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09702077888637922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09153640307466727,0.0,0.0979561907871036,0.0,0.08848497968568228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07349557247815826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06857942678321753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09851918632965098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05717506441803034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05018282616165734,0.0,0.16315141643949616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0743290202640929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06831116831584846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07977935353028905,0.7765661237123498,0.0,0.0,0.08295967500853367,0.0,0.06265338925579114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1108408474027824
schizophrenia,Tall_Zone,2020/04/05,"Father just passed away, want to find out a way to tell my schizophrenic sister. Hey guys, I'm new here and don't really know if this is the right place to ask, but here goes.

I (20) learned earlier today that my father passed from complications due to ALS. My family now knows as well, except for my older sister (29) who has been diagnosed with schizophrenia for about two years. 

My sister has been living with us at home, choosing to keep to herself, for the past 2 weeks, but prior to that she has been in and out of the hospital, group homes, and homeless shelters. She has also not been taking her medicine on a regular basis.

My father was diagnosed with ALS about a year ago and has been in a nursing home for the past 8 months, but my sister has not seen my father since she left our home. I have told her that he has ALS in the past, but the few times we have talked about it she wouldn't believe that he was in a bed ridden state. Now that he has passed, is there any advice on how I can tell her the best way possible?

Thank you guys for any help you may provide.",6.5790741516547975,5.351709161290327,6.459396732299961,83.88831587767072,65.68202764976961,9.734227063259322,28.022203602848762,8.575989854853784,1.6634460829493078,836,18,181,10,11,264,123,217,0.0,0.924,0.076,0.9468,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,3,2,0,1,12,3,0,0,12,0,23,3,0,1,0,29,33,12,0,3,9,8,0,0,0,2,3,0,5,2,8,10,0,1,5,0,0,4,4,0,1,1,9,1,24,3,32,22,2,36,0,0,1,0,35,13,0,2,16,122,32,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182978260801708,0.10731183700185347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09681114329364693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16464906084350026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131741794729948,0.0,0.11373927353408694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13639246675257322,0.1270443516489272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24574544698558715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11412401045143288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11064608111039356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2397356403502001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08114355130020212,0.0,0.4857297191146488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10760314022593234,0.0,0.0,0.13306213970508418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13153137173328172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10689765138391208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09662844298574627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11691990459349764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3466946321198842,0.0,0.0,0.12648128702863293,0.0,0.0,0.1364762626353988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07755373940766043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10338404996536556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10014157100338693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09102158852891933,0.0973029448456774,0.21162246990387126,0.11145521323639353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07059069862802769,0.0,0.1147501381400473,0.11567742648566262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11825742467652525,0.0,0.14561952976299644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07140395948776426,0.1921826036651929,0.097106533294541,0.0,0.10884692221734127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15591654462584398
schizophrenia,Kjaywalker,2020/04/05,"Please help My friend is going through what I'm believing to be the beginning of schizophrenia. Her mother was diagnosed with it at my friends age and she succumbed to it shortly after. My friend is believing that all her friends and family are against her, and that there are cameras in her car, her house and her clothing to watch her. We don't know what to do. She hasn't tried to harm herself yet but she did try years ago due to depression so I'm scared it's going to get there again. She admitted herself to the hospital last week and the social worker called me because I'm her emergency contact and I told the woman everything that's been going on and they asked her if she wanted to stay or not and she ended up saying no. So I feel like she might feel even more frustrated that she went for help and got nothing out of it. I just don't know how to go about this and how to get her the help I know she needs. I don't think it's bad enough for me to commit her yet and I don't think any psychiatrists are open due to covid in our area.",3.301342165898617,4.426109811059909,4.055135368663596,90.14556019585257,73.00921658986175,7.636981566820276,25.08323732718894,8.07648339933343,1.1992859447004602,827,25,183,12,16,264,118,217,0.087,0.774,0.139,0.7278,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,2,0,1,1,12,10,1,1,5,0,16,1,0,2,2,35,40,18,0,3,5,1,2,1,4,1,1,1,0,1,12,15,0,0,8,0,0,6,7,5,0,0,6,4,36,5,28,32,3,29,0,1,1,0,41,9,0,3,14,127,48,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1181160312470732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09061299367681236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1245685964612016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11125624951985996,0.08122655077775515,0.0,0.0,0.3002490184663241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13606078229564347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11476603409164372,0.13524359337206318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11801789710307554,0.1376804758580554,0.0,0.08800883791233974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11975442559253532,0.0,0.1256140567632808,0.0,0.13474806430828326,0.09519217133735428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4117873173073913,0.0,0.13923282951222882,0.0,0.3029109157018592,0.0,0.10657034447797564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2679393394609662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15374993597010658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21968832549577014,0.10861464595125084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06509808729831618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14135473467360501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09880146854641376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127854745518846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14626594237198434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10596390566750573,0.13340417589842313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1358292325107211,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14202430087682738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707594698820994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12732387128109224,0.0,0.1809328602569444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07859293574366677,0.0,0.10688325390156966,0.0,0.0,0.1235219370638746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08580713913528383
schizophrenia,ashak_,2020/04/05,"Fearing a development of schizophrenia In October of 2019 I had fallen down the stairs then got myself addicted to codeine which was prescribed. When i stopped codeine I had sever withdrawal symptoms such as cold turkey, tunnel vision and voices in my head. My other symptoms had gone away eventually and for a month after I heard a faint voice in my head but it was something I could easily ignore and put aside, although when I was in withdrawal it was more severe. It is now April of 2020 and the voice inside my head returned in the end of February of 2020. Rather than being constant and faint like before, I had like an episode of this voice and a little bit of distortion every 5 days when it first game back. It started happening more often and now It happens almost twice a day at least. The voice is feeling realer as well. It used to sound like it’s was from inside my head and something faint but it’s starting to sound more like from outside now. Some additional information include: I have a low libido and major depression (taking anti-depressants). Could I be developing some sort of psychotic disorder like schizophrenia? Does anyone have any information on this? Does anyone know anything about schizophrenia and what it is?",6.494048672566372,8.147578172566378,6.261227876106192,75.33086836283188,65.94690265486726,8.835840707964602,31.82411504424779,9.188382445141503,2.964974336283186,1001,40,163,18,16,313,128,226,0.10099999999999999,0.782,0.11599999999999999,0.1682,0,0,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,12,10,0,1,11,0,18,10,4,1,0,28,29,19,0,3,3,0,1,5,0,0,6,8,0,0,15,11,0,2,4,1,0,3,0,4,1,2,12,10,15,6,28,13,8,35,0,2,0,0,4,12,0,5,25,120,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12910214173199955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11858682761988945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08053394148863112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16561283777400335,0.0,0.0974547500630034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11126540233910083,0.09106251069804472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10077205438348444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129290841802544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12797675298895886,0.0,0.18910751995771613,0.0,0.0,0.15275032599259247,0.0,0.20400078839429914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1357267938373174,0.0,0.20727129731627975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10489054642438707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09977926107048724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1332625061428577,0.05987989297326645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10073334587621914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09471632641587477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20944796280185216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.486158177890876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0650839945181767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2892855285304389,0.1186942591141024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09452673867296853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11905113585671777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2675760088850607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18234069507621584,0.0,0.0,0.16764548202149268,0.0,0.0,0.09900968524839644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.246180529873846,0.08904183537078005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10228229524154576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10647946146988294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Battleship_Eleora,2020/04/05,"Hallucinations Dumb question. I have hallucinations in 4 senses: smell,sight,taste, and auditory. Is this normal, or do most of us have hallucinations in only 1 sense? I only just started hallucinating stuff after I started getting bipolar moods which was like last year. And I have been recently diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2018.",7.363090909090907,10.587979127272732,7.794545454545452,58.77181818181819,66.81818181818181,9.49090909090909,34.63636363636364,9.888512548439397,4.292745454545455,272,13,37,7,5,89,43,55,0.065,0.8859999999999999,0.049,-0.2023,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,0,8,10,3,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,5,1,6,8,1,9,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,3,7,26,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28274879318513724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14554447103468768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22707663482779755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360981704443662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729453492835297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42373922795315694,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3120688940563475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27506020903809275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39435507718437934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3189028906344895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33509264818313594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793938214169216
schizophrenia,KizzyRock77,2020/04/05,"Do your hallucinations get louder when you ignore them? Sometimes they get softer because my brain is marking them as irrelevant or something but sometimes they get louder and auditory and blends with other types of hallucination, like tactile.",9.586153846153843,12.528629666666667,8.844102564102569,54.809230769230794,60.02564102564102,9.302564102564103,38.641025641025635,9.725611199111238,4.5965487179487186,203,10,24,4,3,64,32,39,0.042,0.8809999999999999,0.077,0.3612,0,0,1,0,0,0,3.0,0,2,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,6,5,6,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,7,1,3,5,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,1,2,18,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20527735851196185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.375920128875212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5278079738720851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16451718405897273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2592436773944811,0.6661012065640868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Jade-Ranger,2020/04/05,Just a little motivation Found out I'm gonna be a dad. Can someone just tell me everything is ok.,1.09,2.9408134761904776,4.238333333333333,83.37750000000003,80.90476190476191,8.009523809523811,24.785714285714285,8.841846274778883,1.9291714285714288,77,3,17,2,2,28,19,21,0.0,0.777,0.223,0.5118,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,1,0,5,6,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,9,1,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4238413277099967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5170821993683596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4726644804840421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3995829403741844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4121969076449735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Zolkowski,2020/04/05,How many of you are able to live on your own? I'm struggling with being on my own with section 8 housing and was wondering what some of you did to overcome this. Stay strong,2.494166666666665,4.1096889722222265,3.184444444444445,93.605,75.94444444444444,5.911111111111111,25.88888888888889,6.42735559955562,0.7452888888888891,137,5,30,1,3,43,30,36,0.073,0.84,0.087,0.128,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,0,1,1,2,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,1,0,6,6,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,1,8,3,4,4,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,0,24,6,0,0.3640814228348536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42010107944388186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32149056664405523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3691214179156093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3880623541672131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3806169536989292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3948307723906989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,goodfriedrice,2020/04/05,Ever been to a tantra yoga retreat? What was the experience like? Did you disclose / not disclose?,2.7368627450980405,5.6101775882352936,3.972941176470588,76.671568627451,96.64705882352942,4.6196078431372545,29.196078431372552,6.42735559955562,2.1465843137254903,77,4,11,1,3,25,16,17,0.0,0.743,0.257,0.5913,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,10,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6374289678337413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6893182745767127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3442740584200255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,electrick_energy,2020/04/05,"""Fixed! There's no pandemic, it's all your silly whims!"" I share a room with my dad who's a schizophrenic because I'm a recovering addict, so I don't trust myself to be alone. Apart of my withdrawal symptoms is my insomnia, which resulted in me staying up all night listening to Soft Cell on my phone with headphones on. My dad woke up all of a sudden at 3am and pointed at me. I wasn't even making enough noise to wake him up. His eyes went wide as he said the exact words as what's on the title of this post. I feel as though he's having a nervous breakdown due to the Corona outbreak with businesses closing. It's also because of the amount of stress which he has to go through in aiding my recovery. If anyone has any advice to share regarding this situation, it would be deeply appreciated. Many thanks.",3.9274074074074083,5.236586617283951,5.189814814814816,81.89916666666669,71.71604938271605,8.362962962962964,27.69753086419753,8.841846274778883,2.0934345679012343,640,23,127,12,12,213,107,162,0.076,0.835,0.08800000000000001,0.2169,0,1,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,0,0,5,7,0,2,9,0,9,6,2,2,4,15,18,8,0,2,1,2,2,0,0,1,4,2,1,0,9,5,0,0,1,0,0,2,3,2,0,0,4,5,16,5,28,11,5,22,0,0,1,0,15,15,0,1,3,83,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2355759403726908,0.0,0.2111659754220888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2238097180592744,0.0,0.1728114554825051,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14695231809156836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15109896502487893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26345956452883657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22328436863541007,0.0,0.1427290084895736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10926435384686506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12281202571342355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1442453927121931,0.21908687155520773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20279094368842976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20428005106171596,0.0,0.20695970942388672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2055562609158532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2429003429235521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23032900020524244,0.0,0.0,0.24753661100257945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22460591686723347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19895165954266847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21231268513984985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003226496570568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15350800954458915,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,confessions_of_,2020/04/06,"If you developed schizophrenia /other mental illnesses as a result of taking Accutane (isotretinoin), there's new subreddit group for you. Introducing: r/AccutaneDamage. Discuss delayed post-exposure toxicity and stories. Damage to your mental and physical health can occur after you stop the drug. So many young men and women have had their mental health damaged, sometimes permanently, by taking accutane (or isotretinoin), even at a normal dose.

Although there's been a long-standing ""controversy"" about whether accutane actually causes mental health issues, there is irrefutable scientific proof that it does indeed change (sometimes permanently) key functions of the brain in multiple ways.

Keep in mind: the ""proof"" that accutane does NOT cause depression (which is, unfortunately, the current conviction of most dermatologists) is industry-funded, poorly conducted research.

If you developed mental health issues (depression, anxiety, suicidality, psychosis, brain fog/cognitive issues, memory issues, OCD, bipolar, schizophrenia, anhedonia, BPD etc), after taking accutane, there is very good reason to believe that accutane directly damaged your brain.

So: Introducing: [r/AccutaneDamage](https://www.reddit.com/r/AccutaneDamage/).

[r/AccutaneDamage](https://www.reddit.com/r/AccutaneDamage/) \--> please join, and share your story, gather support. The more public awareness the better.

Source:

This drug completely f\*\*ed up my body and life after I stopped taking it, and I am in horrific pain/disabled now with severe bodywide damage as a result of taking it years ago.

Thank you! I hope you can show support and find a new community here.

Research re: mental (sometimes permanent) and neurological damage caused by accutane use: (note: isotretinoin, or accutane, is a retinoid)

* [https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/27671426](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/27671426) (apoptosis of hippocampal neurons)
* [https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/18466335](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/18466335) (hint: using accutane will create a high concentration of RA, negative effect on dentritic morphology)
* [https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15051884](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15051884) (suppresses hippocampal neurogenesis)
* [https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15863802](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15863802) (21% decrease in brain metabolism of orbitofrontal cortex)
* [https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/31666680](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/31666680) (retinoid dysregulation is involved in the aetiology of schizophrenia)
* [https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/25678793](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/25678793) (altered retinoid signaling pathways associated with schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, or major depression)",16.31179472523883,22.42385545015105,10.072937045807135,38.77842981954768,51.90030211480362,12.641822487139713,46.10606679186739,11.262548206617515,8.096018959745244,2338,123,175,75,37,622,205,331,0.125,0.7909999999999999,0.084,-0.9287,1,0,2,0,0,0,262.0,0,9,1,2,10,15,0,0,14,0,13,18,6,9,2,38,25,19,1,4,7,0,0,0,0,1,12,0,0,2,9,10,0,5,3,1,1,0,2,8,0,0,2,0,14,7,29,22,4,23,0,8,0,0,18,9,0,7,13,108,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.07180280425175778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06522362936222323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05628797987539931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08289869922845082,0.0,0.06507493088044869,0.0,0.08173003938534976,0.09267058019535916,0.32855542963396633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267586959149245,0.07783716632429051,0.0,0.07714651913076134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19012128646553544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0843282775369065,0.0,0.12877952091369735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1706573070833267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08206039375916138,0.04859844818682616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06725016723553202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06171484428147085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3128455139184459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07774059339642292,0.0,0.07308086884188493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30719078231722696,0.0,0.06540068209051651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051971251073063336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06511538449535202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0745978836983751,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4449039027411813,0.0,0.07429414003503494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14212673522942448,0.0,0.0,0.07209211311497063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07829358625366566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08076800001543401,0.0,0.0,0.07046865119876519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07565179755528909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831236902513247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2183154923997984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12303121558262185,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08048383577622834,0.1669938851269154,0.0,0.0,0.27661246513133897,0.0,0.0,0.06774195393274772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12709781961812466,0.0,0.060710646436191965,0.0,0.058403840906707666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047382670925384236
schizophrenia,natureinnyc,2020/04/06,"Brother is struggling with some mental illness Hi everyone,

My brother is 24 and I believe is experiencing a psychotic episode. He is having delusions and paranoia about mind control, god, prophecies, being poisoned, and not being from this universe. He thinks my parents aren’t actually his parents and that they want to control him or kill him. Not only is he saying delusional things but his behavior has been concerning too. He has been peeing himself and undressing randomly. He will leave the house a lot and thinks he has powers. He has emotional outbursts at times as well. I know no one can diagnose but I do feel this is related to some psychotic disorder. He does not think anything is wrong and I know is really scared of being hospitalized or seeing a psychiatrist. He doesn’t trust anyone really accept me. He talks to me about how he is feeling on an emotional level but still believes in his delusions. I live away from home in another state so I have only heard of these things via phone. This has gone on for about 10-11 days.

What I am asking now is how do me and my parents handle this? My parents are struggling a lot because they try to give him space and not challenge him since they know he can’t be reasoned with right now but sometimes his behavior really gets to them. No one can go anywhere right now given there is a pandemic. 
I don’t believe he is a threat physically as of now but my mom panics sometimes when his behavior is particularly unsettling such as the undressing, yelling, peeing himself. I know this has been incredibly stressful and scary for everyone. 

My parents plan to talk to their doctor to get a referral for a therapist about this but are waiting to hear back because doctors are very busy right now. 

Does anyone have any tips? At what point do we consider involuntary hospitalization? 

We haven’t experienced this before and I am worried about my brother.",4.964188034188034,7.3172401054131075,5.6476438746438715,75.41078205128207,71.02279202279203,8.782564102564104,32.497720797720795,9.3871,3.3876787464387466,1531,73,255,36,30,496,178,351,0.14800000000000002,0.8009999999999999,0.051,-0.9893,7,0,0,0,1,0,30.0,2,0,5,5,20,13,3,5,11,0,45,7,2,5,0,51,66,26,1,1,12,9,2,0,0,1,5,4,1,0,13,15,0,3,11,0,0,2,11,9,1,2,6,9,38,4,34,55,4,26,0,0,1,0,49,13,0,8,10,187,51,3,0.0,0.0,0.08185907948032377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05704427238656125,0.08796011337975411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11730785373301622,0.0,0.06902971846650524,0.0,0.07842059575571449,0.0,0.07881216044949199,0.06450193009858739,0.0,0.10227031024078873,0.0,0.07137945086192453,0.2835269992449251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18816698762938036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05409850208491007,0.0,0.0,0.08514090602027552,0.0,0.0,0.09613879632233778,0.17171848741621096,0.14681561740890225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18871733173293967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16031028884389895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08482895192028696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08765227954144587,0.0804695655656302,0.047673440869279236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945438217430867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08414289842126886,0.0,0.0,0.09679134162785613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09280566638489583,0.0,0.184402702397197,0.0,0.0,0.08882147367138968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07407146705590541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14263104396211027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08453575111054945,0.0,0.08469933698865731,0.09824440211130264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11368448847910713,0.12759574100336168,0.0,0.09842027616978473,0.4657185273310297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07929787721105556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16121549479976696,0.08624713997512386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21491047236239305,0.0,0.06670824627647066,0.08398292384640356,0.0,0.06684501078258133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06939004722249988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.165927644287919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06699019474020212,0.0,0.09608930329958223,0.17538838816408314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348462156141229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09739626039356963,0.11145814355080877,0.1612492201827331,0.0,0.0,0.048913671537092536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05695200514502991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06921341977810581,0.049477195844689265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07542215482548834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08518868582193767,0.0,0.0,0.09171442922502177,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,YourCheeseSandwich,2020/04/06,"Anyone else have Sound Hallucinations(?) Not sure what its called tbh but that's how I can call it with it still making sense to me.
So after a sound stops playing or someone stops talking it's like it's still playing, clear as day, and you have to ask someone if they are still hearing it too, long after it has passed😂 like music or an alarm for example. Not sure if this would fit in this subreddit but it seems to fit the scheme. Can anyone relate?",2.0514896214896226,4.275475516483517,2.8764102564102565,92.44914529914531,79.54945054945055,5.363125763125763,20.001221001221,6.42735559955562,0.04118217338217312,356,9,75,3,9,112,63,91,0.11,0.69,0.2,0.8896,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,1,0,6,7,0,1,3,0,7,0,0,2,3,19,11,10,0,3,8,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,0,0,12,2,0,2,1,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,4,6,9,10,0,12,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,5,11,50,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2572237707715576,0.1884635200687592,0.0,0.0,0.1719547387879588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3756371500295383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186230951854594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15365439714024284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2073085267356331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17972305886041154,0.0,0.0,0.1627770117739796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12277828581997655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1674478500774777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31169567929995856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4406730652922848,0.30755640595025546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34671381340991075,0.0,0.0,0.14784028072613573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306624074234856,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,premepope,2020/04/06,Weird things Do any of you guys have like a constant feeling of punching/ fighting objects such as bird feeders or bananas. My hands get a certain feeling when I walk near them.,7.23,7.885381848484847,5.863181818181817,82.41477272727273,63.84848484848485,6.6000000000000005,43.77272727272727,3.1291,3.0428909090909086,143,9,24,0,2,42,30,33,0.11699999999999999,0.67,0.212,0.34,0,0,0,0,2,0,3.0,0,1,1,0,2,4,1,0,2,0,2,2,1,0,1,4,5,3,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,4,2,4,5,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,1,3,16,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3175404881743793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5046046408249213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.47220563392504106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439609313146831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4623516944439658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2281270884135396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31021934221806097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Alien_Invocated,2020/04/06,"Can't do anything hey, this is my first post on reddit  
I have had problems with schizophrenia since I was about 14-15 years old, and because of what kind of stuff I did, the lack of support I've got, it seems to me as if life is over.   
My life sucks in general. My family was either abussive or non-existent, all my friends pissed me in my wounds, and I wasn't able to get good at anything.   


I started becoming delusionary religous, while seeming as if I was doing fine enough to not be taken seriously (I'm a strong atheist, been before and after). I converted to Islam for 9 months because I was obsessive with the thought of me landing in hell, and nobody during that time picked me up and told me about how to think in realms of modern scientific literature. Nobody was saying anything to me, besides that believing in God doesn't make sense, point. People started laughing at me, while I was actually starting to her their voices within my head, saying the most nasty stuff I could have imagined. I was diagnosed 4 years late.  


I may starting thinking it was my IQ, which turned out to be 135 while I was taking a test at mensa (a girl in psychiatry wanted to to it with me, she scored 140). I was really impressed, since it was extremly hard to concentrate with restless legs and all the other stuff because I was prescribed a high dose of apripazol. But on the other side, I realised how broken I am, since I am not stupid enough to not realise how much people take on look on me to feel better about themselves. I was bullied, and am still taken as a irresponsible, incredibly idiotic person  


Later on I developed psychosis again, posting weird stuff on Instagram and embarrasing myself in front of everyone else. Root cause was my ex who told me stuff like ""Perhaps spirits are blocking you"". Since I started considering spirituality at that time again, I instantly became delusional. I don't want to get into it, but I started thinking the purpose of existence is me suffering so everyone including aliens can have fun seeing me suffer when I'm getting smashed by a reality rigged against me. They were talking to me aswell, so I guess you know how much I've thought that life is hell.   


After another year wasted being psychotic, I'm here again, hating my life, since it's the only thing I have. I'm getting older, my life isn't getting better, and I'm getting laughed at, since afterall people are people and human. I want this self-loathing to stop so I can get forward in life, even though it seems as if I am burned out of everything, with the past of mine telling how shitty my life is.   


Please leave some nice words, I can never be honest about this stuff.",6.919624626663044,6.967097659448818,7.22282650013576,74.47862204724413,64.53149606299212,9.999022535976106,34.84007602497964,9.668497473035632,3.2955953570458867,2113,88,381,38,29,688,260,508,0.13699999999999998,0.785,0.078,-0.9829,0,0,0,0,0,0,62.0,0,2,2,4,20,29,7,2,14,0,49,13,3,9,3,65,95,33,0,9,10,1,2,1,1,1,10,3,0,3,26,18,0,2,11,0,0,2,9,14,0,1,26,7,63,15,69,63,10,64,4,2,2,0,19,30,4,11,33,271,89,1,0.06544959613142394,0.0,0.06386936460652379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06862960819921092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16157832284747334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11969239896158315,0.07228393681354323,0.0556927857173074,0.07373928221332471,0.0,0.11576969814646094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06723476414797369,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052256176828834176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06642996237021997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054674739259062105,0.0,0.0,0.13525385716723912,0.0,0.04322884097496329,0.0,0.0,0.12507978776879874,0.05882187678860304,0.0,0.06170005436781838,0.0,0.03309328234437565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05567139303444752,0.0,0.0,0.05056619561639522,0.0,0.2393629885234563,0.0,0.0,0.054896015999982416,0.05234602096069183,0.0,0.0721001089914762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05862998252294005,0.06461792610804176,0.06717016783978201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06915109174502886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06815568271567235,0.03596938637902055,0.0,0.07382999521999241,0.06930167212752908,0.0,0.0,0.32360289725494795,0.031975366683016045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0549611768483966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04368811364216851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052241243206532686,0.0,0.0962259677672924,0.0,0.05047876337616992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06867834133281511,0.0,0.0,0.04977736712970335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062479045283612575,0.1814980363393591,0.0571480628333516,0.0,0.07184400240745732,0.06187102352322017,0.0,0.1253652423090064,0.0,0.0,0.06262642433674208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0419286872144808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040962915962865,0.0,0.0,0.05215485432896801,0.178748562609384,0.06827820279160295,0.0,0.0,0.3248434935442706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2779533660542665,0.0,0.05226813201524508,0.0547187930047867,0.0,0.0,0.4495447733507871,0.0,0.07427142607713545,0.0,0.0,0.09841990197618407,0.05260590618380035,0.05720583182658792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04348180344810737,0.1258123753864607,0.0643038958933739,0.10391933707503873,0.0763283716718861,0.0,0.0,0.12507978776879874,0.0,0.0,0.07119036626634262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11581160261663168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12644218217801212
schizophrenia,i_miss_gravityfalls,2020/04/06,"Could I have schizophrenia? (My experiences) TL;DR: If you don't want to read the whole thing just read the part about my delusions. I really poured my heart into this and this is the first time I ever told someone about this.



I have a lot of symptoms that are linked to schizophrenia but haven't been diagnosed because it's impossible for me to see a therapist.

Here are my symptoms:

- Inner voices: I have a lot of random voices in my head that say really bad things but most of them aren't speaking to me. 
Because of this I often get in really bad arguments with my inner voices about stuff that ranges from harmless and nonsensical stuff like eating Instant Ramen for the rest of my life to rather serious topics. Before I make a decision I tend to ask my inner voices what they think about it. I'm often not able to sleep because all of the chaos in my head.

- Incoherent speach: So I know that this is often linked to schizophrenia but it's nothing serious for me. I say some words that don't exist while they make perfect sense for me but as soon as someone tells me I'm able to just say what I meant to say. Most of the time it happens when I'm just rambling about something. Also I forget some small words when forming a sentence. 
I'm perfectly able to form a grammatically correct sentence if I focus on making no mistakes. I'm also mixing languages when speaking to myself.

- Manic and depressive episodes: I tend to get those episodes but they usually don't last very long. They're pretty extreme and when I'm in a good mood I don't think about the consequences of my actions and it got me in a lot of trouble over the years.

- Hallucinations: I don't hallucinate often and don't have any serious optic hallucinations. I get some audible hallucinations from time to time and optic hallucinations are only things like seeing something in the corner of my eye and lights coming from my basement in the middle of the night. Audible hallucinations aren't that serious either. Most of the time it's footsteps or something breathing behind me. The most serious audible hallucination I ever had was when I was outside with a friend and heard a scream that sounded like a women getting burned alive. I was absolutely shocked and got up looking for the source of the scream .It took my friend some time to calm me down and he told me that there was no scream. It's impossible that he didn't heard it because it was super loud.

- Paranoia: From time to time I get super paranoid and go check every corner of the house. I also check my closet and under my bed most of the times before I go to sleep. I also feel like cars and people are following me. I make sure to remember every car that looks suspicious to me so that I'll be able to recognize it when I see it again and will be ready to defend myself. I hear people talking about me and feel like everybody is looking at me when I'm in public which might be true because I look pretty fucked up from time to time when I wasn't able to shower or change clothes because of my depression.

- Delusions: This is the main reason why I think that I might be schizophrenic. I believed in a lot of crazy stuff in the last few years. The most memorable ones are the following. I believed that something was living in my house with me. It was when I started hearing footsteps when I was home alone and then got convinced that there was something else living in my house but I thought that it was peaceful and just wanted to survive. I was able to speak with it through my head and would make sure that there was always some food standing around for it to eat. I thought that the food was disappearing and was happy about that. We had some nice conversations about mine and his lives. After some time I just forgot about it like it didn't happened. I only remembered it because I was trying to remember other crazy things in my life that could have been delusions when I first read about schizophrenia.
 My most serious delusion was when I was convinced that a king from a dimension of gods that appear to us as cats was seeking help by trying to contact me through an add on a bus. On that add was a cat and there was another add from the same company with a dog on it. The Cat-God needed my help to fight against that dog because the dog wanted to destroy their dimension. I accepted this cat as my god. I was praying to him and was convinced that he gave me the power to speak with cats that were stationed on our planet to observe us. I had long conversations with cats that I saw on the streets. After some time has passed I began to believe that the dog found out about our plan to defeat him and he started to attack my mind and was trying to make me crazy so that I wouldn't be able to help the cats. I got extreme panic attacks while ""fighting"" the dog in my mind. The Cat-God then told me to recruit other people so I started to write a bible-like book about the origins of the cat-gods. I started a website to recruit other people and was telling my friends about it so that they'd be able to help as well. Another month passed while I was praying and speaking to the cat-god daily. He then told me that the dog attacked them and that they needed my help now. The original plan was to have me provide the cat-god with energy and simultaneously distract the dog from my dimension but the cat told me that I needed to come to their dimension so that I could help them directly. He told me that he would try to open a portal but he didn't know when in the next few weeks I would get sucked into their dimension. In the beginning I was happy about it as I was pretty depressed and planned to stay in this dimension after we defeated the dog and life among the cats that would all love me because I saved them. I also began to think that I had magic powers that were only very weak in my dimension but extremely powerful in theirs. I thought that I could move small objects with my mind and wrote a spellbook for all the different spells and what they did.
Another week or so passed and I started to feel like I was finally getting sucked into their dimension. I got panic attacks over it because it felt horrible and I thought that there was a chance that I would get sucked into different dimension instead. My panic got so bad that I told the cat that I couldn't come to his dimension but that he could use my energy and spells to defend their dimension against the dog. He told me that this was okay. About a month later he contacted me again and told me that they were able to defeat the dog and that everything was over. We spoke with each other every few days for the next few months and then it all stopped.

So I wrote a lot more that I originally wanted to.

I know it's never a good idea to self diagnose but it would be extremely helpful if you could tell me what you think about this and if you experienced something similar.
Thank you for reading through all of this!",5.979416036091088,6.2990203205600634,6.177067868504777,80.25125235904169,66.50184229918939,9.095562305659902,30.99240613260959,8.9110942124816,2.3943142405233924,5513,196,1066,84,82,1761,403,1357,0.11900000000000001,0.746,0.135,0.9807,7,1,6,0,3,0,90.0,7,5,17,17,69,71,11,4,74,1,96,23,8,11,14,208,203,98,0,27,26,0,4,7,3,10,9,27,4,2,102,67,4,2,28,5,2,17,19,37,1,3,79,42,168,33,176,99,39,144,2,6,9,2,96,50,4,35,82,777,270,7,0.3072426115459221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.035356742893118166,0.0,0.13650100302754206,0.028405607277627955,0.0,0.0,0.023215056849923036,0.10739022239423272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030390118165800513,0.03191448523239706,0.15534792249645527,0.0,0.0,0.08551158236946238,0.20810249363952826,0.0,0.05809796287510356,0.11538573691246976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03611354934434788,0.08822076824225604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16353881650705315,0.0,0.0,0.022016229655560254,0.0,0.08820920370583127,0.06929884073621019,0.0,0.07133403017979158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06986353218078625,0.028517975270644563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061759673803279576,0.08628838383087238,0.0,0.030681094237724176,0.03339358103631181,0.0,0.0,0.051783698668390436,0.07316472769279443,0.03277789879551543,0.037396584783150055,0.0,0.05807564631688899,0.0825597745437183,0.037430629460290216,0.07912495984404286,0.031560093725857816,0.14268585205475534,0.0,0.03880290145562424,0.05726678345283294,0.1638199890666576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06037636149016714,0.07268121625417358,0.0,0.0,0.10510651964723101,0.0,0.07695216731668987,0.040453774888601725,0.1601741914289506,0.0,0.034243265601319905,0.0,0.0,0.11817224084711248,0.0,0.038537723415126124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05628416807239641,0.05565416345222893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07233818092612866,0.1167469493381138,0.0,0.09043361831354432,0.06042223174599912,0.11466951674201607,0.0,0.0,0.14511482290921138,0.03081093916362611,0.0,0.13672455265658742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07243019060065045,0.10340915087939828,0.0,0.08174604042348663,0.036283363628697364,0.0,0.07593883446810208,0.026329382547823167,0.0,0.07261244510456014,0.03203626419450512,0.0,0.032756396906374316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.02313283834275573,0.07789061698766442,0.0,0.12016100184345314,0.0,0.03696820085892312,0.0,0.09466815173038977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10419206388496388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13658922478224106,0.0,0.06560916145100601,0.03509961953932232,0.0,0.0,0.1160153285046302,0.0,0.0,0.108591847340787,0.0,0.0,0.08161086085569529,0.0,0.035613450107350154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06832544410789704,0.0,0.05785014838286669,0.15768691525596346,0.0,0.0,0.12081550101180373,0.036386638219743986,0.0,0.02854095340731569,0.0,0.0,0.1172397610230979,0.0,0.0,0.06434945007001758,0.07096504766468313,0.0,0.027438885890814963,0.08951452825247205,0.03142974637386537,0.0,0.039636928080781286,0.09071926174759956,0.10937147753650713,0.0,0.10840725077098676,0.2587803653818632,0.0,0.0,0.2935834819249886,0.03792864959436626,0.09271002902443576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08212778486772583,0.029484329897206136,0.03759825885651399,0.05633496257215297,0.08054206785393815,0.0,0.05476699786522242,0.0,0.030694222903786227,0.0,0.030804296487667342,0.03811393372497869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14550422401403296,0.0,0.0,0.04396759299797026
schizophrenia,StandardAnomaly2000,2020/04/06,"Would a person with a past diagnosis of schizophrenia but is perfectly normal now, be considered unfit for high political office? I have an official diagnosis of schizophrenia but now I am off my meds with the approval of my psychiatrist and I have not had any symptoms for a long time. I know the stigma associated with this illness and I am just wondering how people would perceive me if I were to be completely honest about my experience.

I also have a significant amount of interest in pursuing high political office - like ultimately become the head of state, and I have to think about whether to be honest about it or keep it a secret and hope things don't leak.
What do you guys think?",8.208716517857141,8.167680742187502,8.872678571428573,64.01875000000001,61.890625,12.314285714285715,36.254464285714285,11.765960540728905,4.530262053571428,557,23,94,16,7,188,81,128,0.028999999999999998,0.722,0.249,0.987,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,2,8,6,0,0,9,0,16,3,1,1,1,27,22,11,0,5,7,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,2,5,7,0,1,6,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,13,6,18,15,1,10,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,4,6,76,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15986352557082886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13594188877890853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2207787719380126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20959602445306774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19554492192349807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19793684573642595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20515964985126184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4224200780049337,0.0,0.1985502359072411,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776842703616605,0.0,0.0,0.10986226404088366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09766322228345,0.0,0.0,0.17690915772655713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22204879139817785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1958639284516166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19083142808280176,0.13858858322675344,0.17454886503386727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20777727746236985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328076415052776,0.2561814141739142,0.0,0.0,0.11656589904072467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21678786105217232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28401278770136684,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,blitzkriegbop13,2020/04/06,"Someone, very dear to me, is diagnosed with schizo and ptsd. We've been dating and it's going really well So for a background, im a general physician. But psychiatry is really not my forte. Im diagnosed with anxiety disorder, im off meds for 4 years and i think i can manage my thoughts. There are few occasions when i really overthink and it goes way out of hand but so far im stable 

And for my girl, she's an amazing artist and a writer. And I really want to be in a committed relationship with her. Right now we live in different cities and i dont get to visit her because of the pandemic. We talk everyday. But sometimes there are bad days for her and i want to know how can i make it easier for her to manage her thoughts. She's recently on meds after a long hiatus

I just want to know what are the things i should avoid so that i wont trigger anything. Any advice is welcome :) thank you and keep safe everyone!",1.3333510638297843,3.601467122340427,3.641957446808512,85.69400000000002,82.56382978723406,7.802553191489363,23.229787234042554,8.697196308434329,1.8543395744680848,721,26,149,19,20,248,111,188,0.054000000000000006,0.735,0.21100000000000002,0.9831,1,1,0,0,0,0,18.0,2,1,0,0,10,8,0,1,8,0,13,4,1,3,1,38,26,18,0,4,5,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,6,16,0,3,5,1,0,2,3,2,1,0,3,1,24,6,22,20,1,19,0,0,0,0,15,7,0,0,9,98,30,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1219576198950847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08487141414088988,0.0,0.0954751846042944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10270355951424157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10420663577720997,0.07607973151050396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08048864825089543,0.0,0.0,0.2533481028983982,0.0,0.1303942535412723,0.14303689496444566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1462700727489629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1192561526888853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0652052573038661,0.0,0.07092933565914017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5392415790266668,0.0,0.0,0.11093207128166704,0.0,0.0,0.13717869883409006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11020475664803188,0.11044815196841777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08330804591434522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27725957177023897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458899096776414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3198121144073097,0.0,0.1232294952661547,0.13399344370040414,0.0,0.10658245452748807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1057465405588806,0.0,0.1234349499661587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10031321754061083,0.0,0.1149033163297338,0.0,0.0,0.08291463686811774,0.07996975432978708,0.0,0.19816183814536348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1029768733710548,0.22083897664301547,0.09906408978455453,0.0,0.0,0.11221433230341904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08037007658934929
schizophrenia,throwawaynailguy,2020/04/06,Intense desire to hammer nails into my body I have this intense desire to hammer nails into my body. Specially in my face. I have obviously not acted on this. It started very suddenly about two weeks ago and I am obsessed with it. Can't stop thinking about it. I am not looking for a diagnosis here but I can't seek professional help because of quarantine. Do you have any guesses about what the hell this could be? Could it be schizophrenia? How seriously should I take this? Freaking out. Thanks.,2.2530521091811413,5.163348763440858,3.4408602150537635,83.1351364764268,88.24731182795698,5.872291149710505,25.43341604631928,7.321109707123232,1.7223058726220015,397,17,69,7,13,128,63,93,0.17300000000000001,0.716,0.111,-0.8826,0,1,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,5,6,1,1,2,0,13,3,3,1,1,18,19,3,0,5,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,9,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,4,4,0,1,0,1,10,2,13,14,0,11,1,0,1,0,2,5,1,1,5,54,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.216430621705988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16603526506144112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14883595984603626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5424072045420806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3898793058045426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26896667674430536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636534211508387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20503055118289665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17281571924379882,0.0,0.0,0.20412634759951545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1835758248518324,0.0,0.0,0.22478714154068094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15644607187766255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2385061020216004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014552560297692,0.0,0.0,0.19584817444032515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Power13100,2020/04/06,"Is it normal to still see and hear things fairly regularly whilst on meds? Title. 

I've been on meds years now but I still have like 4/7 days where I see/hear things. They aren't anywhere near the volume that they were before meds, but I feel like my CPN doesn't believe me when I say it still happens.

I think the meds I'm on are the right ones, some played havoc with my body/mins and these ones feel pretty good so I don't really want to change them.

The stuff I see and hear is fairly manageable to be honest, mostly the odd name calling or just stuff out the corner of my eye. Just want to know other peoples experiences? 

Cheers as always.",3.3487786259541963,4.696994908396949,3.841137404580152,90.8560572519084,73.19847328244275,6.461374045801527,19.20687022900764,6.742157984588678,-0.022618931297709644,507,8,109,4,10,159,85,131,0.086,0.73,0.184,0.946,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,3,0,9,6,0,0,6,0,10,1,1,0,0,20,22,9,0,3,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,3,0,0,9,5,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,0,0,2,2,8,14,6,12,19,2,16,0,0,3,0,8,8,0,3,10,70,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10058486064206897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10286306225149604,0.1361944510226337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12343569777593555,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12787884774259425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07795993833627479,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1182473820062455,0.0,0.0,0.1222447869343328,0.08635928658929197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10139145022890267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10689699127373783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4087338962693415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06643447948597582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11811526722059296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5370978290248357,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11844028748505753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16382774698108107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08380548562099475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12298210612020866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07744114623676188,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10323395613243318,0.0,0.09613151133227596,0.0,0.0,0.2889857972694917,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2896134596971372,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.276765661299685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16061941945561656,0.0774573464929309,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14260058923811433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07784509183775053
schizophrenia,Justamegagaydude,2020/04/06,"Hallucinations? So I didn't exactly have anywhere to post this so I thought it best to post here instead I suppose? Not all the time, but some days out of the corner of my eye I start to see things, like if I leave my window open at night to cool down my room. Out of the corner of my eye i'll see black tendrils creeping in or a black cat with no eyes/closed eyes sitting on my window sill. Of course I would look directly at my window and of course nothing there. It has happened more blatantly before, during a period where I was dealing with some pretty intense anxiety, out of the corner of my eye I saw a spider crawling on my arm so naturally being afraid I look over and nothing. Then later on during that same day out of the corner of my eye seeing white tendrils and a blank white face creeping in through my window but it wasn't actually there, although this time around I was so panicked that I ended up putting my blanket over my head and crying while telling myself that if I can't see whatever it was it can't hurt me. These certainly seem like hallucinations to me, although I can't say whether or not it's because of schizophrenia or something else, i've ruled out medication and or drugs since I just don't do drugs and the only meds that I take are Prozac which I was out of for a month at that time but never had such withdrawl side effects.",6.955057351407717,5.906410824817518,7.072784150156412,79.21306569343065,64.83941605839415,9.580396246089675,33.80500521376434,8.418075326091056,2.4892041710114707,1082,39,218,12,14,349,143,274,0.057999999999999996,0.85,0.09300000000000001,0.8575,0,0,3,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,12,7,0,1,11,1,17,12,8,1,5,41,29,24,0,3,13,0,0,2,0,1,4,1,5,0,16,16,0,0,3,0,0,1,10,2,0,0,9,18,31,5,40,18,6,45,0,1,16,0,3,27,0,9,16,156,47,0,0.0,0.0,0.12936698757325785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10141395547077546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180133913633822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08081206164316503,0.0,0.11280537957747427,0.0,0.13912166054309674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14561943350337347,0.17099044580956102,0.13667151516982434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3074729734416174,0.0,0.11074333301846774,0.0,0.11741566623683773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11722921146214052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1360527433106035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1419165036174301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14037009154796412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12953179947275004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226470210299195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1472528698524693,0.1335480475616337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10581430240219966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10224441083184624,0.0,0.0,0.12440584020043255,0.0,0.2544046368412275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10082373724194016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25392649267487977,0.1348690468519042,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13326719050839844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10542318484238923,0.0,0.0,0.42255728914337815,0.12068468829714915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10966140144415673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10205712013282167,0.0,0.0,0.09383212612653903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09967443949343556,0.0,0.1158700447486864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08807211346141343,0.0,0.0,0.10524397471956803,0.23190393948013305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09417231636454104,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,a_crunchycupcake,2020/04/06,"Worried about my younger brother My brother (23m) has struggled with mental illness for a while. He was recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder, and then bipolar 2 I believe..he recently went off to a big hippie gathering and was fed lots of LSD and dmt..he got caught up with a manipulate older man afterward and had him so brainwashed I wasn't sure if he would even make it back to Louisiana (he ended up in California during this time). He did make it back with the help of my dad, but he is changed drastically.  At first it was extreme paranoia.  He did not trust me or our mother anymore, he was raging out, it was my brother at all. 

Fast forward to the Covid19 pandemic. He currently believes he is a psychic, that he has received divine information from the matrix and that he is a teacher in mysticism or something, I don't even know how to explain it because it's something different each time he starts to ramble. He's even gone as far as speaking in an alien tongue. He is convinced this virus is fake, so much that he brought two people from across the country to come and stay with him. And our immunocompromised mother and just keeps saying how this is the matrix and it's not really. I'm furious with him, but I so  understand he is sick. What I mentioned barely scratch the surface, and I truly feel like he is an aspiring Facebook cult leader with all of his weirdly devoted followers. 

Please help me, what can I do? Is this schizophrenia? Is there a way to snap him out of the delusions? I'm so worried about my mom, and I miss my brother so much.",4.861360645933015,6.254371792763159,5.7135645933014345,78.71086124401914,69.55921052631578,8.685167464114832,33.555023923444985,9.095868883498916,3.0381302631578944,1251,60,231,24,22,410,165,304,0.113,0.789,0.098,-0.2845,3,1,2,0,0,0,35.0,2,0,0,1,16,12,2,1,15,0,25,5,0,5,3,46,44,27,0,2,8,8,2,1,0,1,4,2,0,2,16,22,1,1,5,0,0,8,4,6,0,2,15,4,23,6,36,28,6,39,1,1,0,0,43,15,0,4,17,157,39,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13996616300913833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21704536426002,0.0,0.08603345940683478,0.0,0.0,0.1590087323345923,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14930016105119465,0.12157371352081728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14324717828097627,0.0,0.14745410500533532,0.16175081920346024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250020819852184,0.0,0.0,0.2796513471816995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07136116214349388,0.10082555186922423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12004778685123615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11287707427962396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18919715342898405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1254456300257806,0.0,0.0,0.07756308929662599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06895052907473778,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11998635871913675,0.0,0.0,0.18841494953080887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14222902217607772,0.0,0.0,0.16529344168588336,0.0,0.0,0.20749821117165212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09784395715993384,0.12323202442112782,0.0,0.15492181922254866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904135109851054,0.0,0.2787039220095489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1122347470075224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2173023908459636,0.0,0.0,0.09989477127573533,0.15042916149059096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14754301358838295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1330163253603468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16459175159311595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13786658189179685,0.14692458838606876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11202492671754237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13083184570172332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2866551329052369,0.0,0.10025694175420898,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,redlumbersnack,2020/04/06,Are you aware of your mental illness? I guess this could be called dissociation. Sometimes I feel as though I am watching myself live with my schizophrenia. Like i'm watching the dissorder playout. It is so isolating as if I'm watching and screaming at people but its not traveling to the real body and coming out to the real world. Like a heightened awarness that something is off with yourself but you can't communicate it.,4.974120879120882,7.550960551282053,5.245457875457877,77.30192307692309,71.69230769230771,7.021245421245422,32.93772893772893,7.957251820313856,2.749495970695972,345,17,55,5,7,109,59,78,0.048,0.8859999999999999,0.066,0.3291,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,3,0,0,2,3,0,0,4,0,7,2,1,0,0,15,12,9,0,2,4,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,6,0,0,1,1,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,5,8,2,10,10,0,6,0,0,3,0,4,4,0,2,2,42,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.277052221400093,0.0,0.0,0.2546883075731973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21485543883662175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1991436080615235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1261155340591477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27476705563865483,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24371051526419546,0.0,0.2202446786111011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513592625408466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17291818884441268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5677949280028641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19201766234385045,0.2466852766754825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24505638601469726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,dishwashermarket,2020/04/06,"I don’t feel myself because I can’t get any thoughts across I constantly can’t think and it feels like there is a mental block in my head preventing my thoughts that I would usually have or say things in conversation I would normally say. Idon’t know what I should do. I just want to be able to feel myself again and think properly. 

I’m on medication but it doesn’t seem like it’s working fully",3.0065357142857145,4.982716725000003,3.912142857142858,87.37000000000003,75.5,8.071428571428571,25.17857142857143,8.841846274778883,1.7737321428571429,318,11,67,7,7,102,55,80,0.043,0.87,0.08800000000000001,0.4854,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,1,3,2,0,0,1,0,11,2,1,0,0,21,23,4,0,5,3,0,3,2,0,3,1,2,0,0,6,2,0,2,9,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,2,5,11,2,6,17,0,7,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,2,5,42,17,1,0.20646423613563533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14040276053256626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1258586820165269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22311449149897533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3131835640390731,0.14749809154880292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10786904188377756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21189187120872907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11346734467390265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2017359937289539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2079909967673653,0.2080673891181275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20229111490487567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3283772948854109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1879572863234735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13716566434858468,0.2645878917104968,0.0,0.3278190824254469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22739118705582975,0.0,0.1217779557767018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15030842288392698,0.0,0.0,0.2933325392048577,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,greg569teddy,2020/04/07,Did you know you were getting schizophrenic before you were? Did you have a paranoia and fear of crazy people? If anyone can message me I could use a friend. My family is full of this and I am worried it’s hitting me. It’s killing me slowly living with these thoughts but I have always heard of you have it you don’t know it. Issue is I swear I “know it”,-0.09932432432432492,2.210627445945949,1.6473513513513502,96.43210810810814,92.1081081081081,4.0410810810810815,18.210810810810813,5.6839178017228535,-0.3639362162162159,277,8,60,2,10,90,47,74,0.16,0.81,0.03,-0.7319,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,6,0,0,0,3,1,1,2,0,13,1,0,1,0,11,21,4,1,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,7,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,6,1,15,1,4,13,1,1,0,0,0,0,9,1,0,1,0,46,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22029032154200265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18511692959041415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2252797977104301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21137856175619205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2495794668497808,0.2979134504096023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20454251251266567,0.0,0.13831913502775445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2763265942374813,0.0,0.0,0.2929028102221421,0.0,0.4364933078602961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2337760365619497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.183541909354808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101791725170556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2286559991492076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2688629525366746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SiseyLemma,2020/04/07,"A new novel on becoming schizophrenic ""from the inside"" - with visceral nonlinear narration (PDF) **Title**: Incessance  
**Topic**: The relationship between schizophrenic onset and metaphysical awakening  
**Genre**: Metaphysics, Psychology, Surrealism  
**PDF link**: [https://www.academia.edu/39954020/Incessance\_Incesancia\_](https://www.academia.edu/39954020/Incessance_Incesancia_)",26.512105263157892,25.430258500000008,15.30434210526316,-11.661973684210524,167.125,16.923684210526314,48.55921052631579,7.85451343220497,12.120975,320,15,12,13,19,82,29,32,0.0,0.929,0.071,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,47.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,8,0,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6074854934480038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5312403915723247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5905463754967246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ParselmouthBreunne,2020/04/07,"Hi there guys, just wanting an open ear from someone who understands really So. To preface this post I’m not diagnosed with any type of schizophrenia or schizoaffective disorder. I’m not diagnosing myself, I don’t know what’s wrong with me and I’m not asking you guys to diagnose me either I know this isn’t a label anyone wants. From reading your experiences and my own experiences nothing like this (in any form) desirable. 

However, today at work something really uncomfortable happened. I was talking like normal to some colleagues, and I heard someone knocking the door to the office. I said “I’m gonna answer the door” and they’re like “nobody is knocking” but I was really convinced that someone was knocking. I went to answer and shock horror they’re right nobody was knocking. 

Anyway after this the colleagues were making fun of me, and I know this seems like a small thing but today it really got to me. Especially when almost every day at work  someone is trying to get me fired in some way or another and now they were making fun of me too. 

Thank you for reading, also, I know it’s lame but the things I’m experiencing at the moment are making me feel very alone (I have friends and family but none of them understand) so if anyone has some free time and wants to talk with me, just so I don’t feel so lonely, I’d be very grateful.",3.2637209302325587,5.717640069767448,4.534024806201551,80.93694418604655,76.59689922480621,7.22877519379845,24.66108527131783,8.238735603445708,1.789728806201551,1070,37,191,20,25,352,138,258,0.134,0.755,0.11,-0.4017,1,3,1,0,0,0,24.0,0,3,2,2,12,14,0,0,9,0,15,4,1,3,0,49,44,22,0,6,13,0,3,4,1,1,3,3,2,2,12,13,0,0,11,2,1,1,7,4,0,0,10,7,26,11,24,32,7,19,0,2,0,0,15,8,0,8,12,124,38,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10150856566926844,0.1049899415050808,0.0,0.08106647360911699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13787171901430711,0.10629649155816943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1417621329136285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09476834299593563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06537600679698362,0.0,0.0,0.3086687562224837,0.0,0.0,0.11618012254679655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0854095676399213,0.0,0.0,0.19832087645889787,0.09556370027947804,0.0,0.10251260060061043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07831910055299864,0.0,0.05296224296634516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08107577066447416,0.0,0.0,0.20074675600788636,0.08964217490712449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22284373616074665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19809929759905967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20299809330736526,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09932220580088534,0.0972683543140178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0970855420164003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20279716889452293,0.0,0.259763822844638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08657040990312248,0.09642717928737524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09228448952280707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34356579242255925,0.0780404653358808,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16295658417121725,0.0,0.09332893709374808,0.0,0.0,0.1346929779852326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059110333921174464,0.0,0.19217599810709246,0.0,0.0,0.06882435801308215,0.0,0.0,0.21106188850097574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16728363364863205,0.1793739956105185,0.08046370199812597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.093972073473892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1475988119231437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11083344117339186,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,15LarueA,2020/04/07,"How do I write a character with Schizophrenia? Hello! I’m trying to write a character as third person with schizophrenia but isn’t diagnosed. She is female and 16-18 years old, any things I need to know and how do I pull this off?

PLOT: Brooklyn joins a new school, everything seems normal until strange incidents begin happening and experiences. She overhears someone talking about something suspicious and tries to save herself.

After all this, she was developing schizophrenia at a fast rate. And she recovers.

—I don’t want it to be stigmatised and want her to recover/manage her symptoms. But I don’t want it to be obvious she was developing a mental disorder. Since according to sources, people who have Schizophrenia don’t know they are getting unwell—

Any misinformation, extra info and more. Please let me know!",4.722916666666666,7.942702125000004,5.046388888888892,74.91250000000005,76.3611111111111,8.322222222222223,30.527777777777786,9.017664075816787,3.4127861111111115,662,31,101,17,16,209,92,144,0.083,0.8270000000000001,0.09,-0.4319,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,5,0,14,2,0,2,2,28,26,13,0,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,6,9,0,0,5,0,0,1,4,0,0,1,2,0,14,1,15,21,3,10,0,0,0,0,16,2,0,1,7,69,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517380274260366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18786464300541286,0.0,0.0,0.21213164733958795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.166348895731923,0.18105564576294608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09670301253749272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16367638299307444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3051654264182333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18926927071809507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18652935992712869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13724348898227887,0.0,0.1787631584317622,0.0,0.0,0.18135101489032074,0.0,0.0,0.19422308272264166,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12831959625782732,0.16161533199138786,0.0,0.203175606048628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873231442929091,0.0,0.1685009479868706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15311014480488724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15682798382049476,0.1424929850988944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19238162144928392,0.0,0.14877006447961308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12296700450446413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2513308494148641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3275164489813365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119193280502526
schizophrenia,666heavymetal666,2020/04/07,"What were the first symptoms that you felt, before being diagnosed? Hi. I'm not diagnosed with schizophrenia, but I started experiencing things that worry my friends and family. So I wanted to know what was it like for you at first.
I'm not sure if I hallucinate or not. I mean yes, you can't see a unicorn in the middle of the street, can you. Or a random mirror. Or bugs when there's actually no bugs there. Sometimes stuff changes colors. Or I see colored lights. Oh and, i sometimes hear voices, but it feels like they're my thoughts but louder, rather than them feeling like they're real. They're still here. I just can't figure out if I'm really experiencing all that. 
Talking about the other symptoms.. I'm not sure. I suffer with depression. And I sleep too much. Up to 12 hours.
This is not an attempt at self-diagnosing. I'm just trying to figure out whether or not J should visit a doctor.
Thanks for reading this. Have a nice day.",1.5123913043478259,4.148012847826092,2.985434782608696,87.90739130434784,86.28260869565219,5.373913043478261,21.043478260869566,6.895973343053719,0.646839130434782,740,24,144,10,23,241,113,184,0.102,0.7559999999999999,0.142,0.8177,0,0,0,0,0,0,31.0,0,4,1,3,11,10,0,0,9,1,9,6,1,0,3,42,26,16,0,5,20,0,3,3,1,1,5,2,0,0,12,7,0,0,8,1,0,1,9,2,0,2,4,12,16,8,16,20,2,16,0,2,4,0,10,8,0,8,10,97,28,2,0.0,0.0,0.13154435553483868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11470400011423887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14259944284190246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08693418784253687,0.0,0.1161021604572919,0.4104543692596059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13797246379989125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1270764777179286,0.0,0.13631682498619066,0.19260083069634,0.12942815620808842,0.0,0.0,0.2293198801509633,0.0,0.0,0.10414535443065724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15192824277952435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13274983811844998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07408199188079237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19756791206019927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1468356024764319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09909275748745837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1348354544608295,0.1534307458752719,0.08635567571447769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2148346626894961,0.0,0.14062473047337984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13489632615184313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26663926801809096,0.0,0.09541140897935528,0.0,0.10765063631544244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1543125770829108,0.0,0.0,0.2540928790928575,0.2802154992227779,0.0,0.10834631076895627,0.0,0.12410478623522395,0.0,0.0,0.08955444988863373,0.0,0.0,0.10701532970743964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09151965622848884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07950792853253455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1368949033686632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,thelastguyleft,2020/04/07,"Having Hallucinations Upon waking I have had two terrifying experiences waking up within the last week. I will be having a nightmare where I wake up like in movies gasping for air only to find that the nightmare is continuing while I'm awake and conscious.

One experience consisted of two huge guys, I'm 6ft breaking into my condo. One was running full speed at me and one was standing near my feet. As I looked at them I yelled and then yelled again while they vanished in front of my eyes. 

The second one was similarly terrifying where I woke up startled sat up and saw the most intense and complicated black lines. Floating in front of me. At first I thought what the fuck is that. Then yelled again as it became more intense consuming my vision. I haven't slept since that happened. 

Has anyone else experienced something like this. I'm starting to think it's from the Lamotrogine.",5.2690629370629365,7.276160381818187,5.522424242424247,78.07594405594408,69.42424242424242,7.7435897435897445,29.662004662004666,8.384062270229773,2.2608508158508163,713,28,125,11,13,226,105,165,0.076,0.848,0.076,-0.4791,0,0,1,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,2,1,4,4,1,1,7,0,13,7,6,0,0,11,26,11,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,1,1,7,6,0,0,4,0,0,3,1,2,0,8,9,8,16,2,23,15,3,36,0,0,4,1,3,19,1,1,14,90,23,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13268983350666147,0.19443920773723594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15852637812554535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3712580156262095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17344403771642725,0.16141612054403914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17543697629940155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18789963923523925,0.16781075480641094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15468582316870672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18542160925457404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1593568880504497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.514365419485536,0.14432671889495186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569776194853607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14609227639809164,0.0,0.0,0.13431839823873667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12159533795479048,0.0,0.15065418095234082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3707505050337673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15222002491390327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Murkspectre,2020/04/07,"Are risperidone side effects permanent? Hey everyone, trust youre all safe and doing well. It’s been about 11 months since I’ve been off Risperidone and I’m healing slowly. Sadly got sexual dysfunction with only being on it for a month or so. Is this forever or will it just take a few years? Did my nerves get shot? Thank you😭🙏✨",0.4085074626865684,2.8637932089552294,2.1692686567164188,91.44345522388063,94.52238805970148,5.665074626865673,18.640298507462692,7.1686216300943375,0.6512101492537309,263,8,53,5,10,86,58,67,0.10099999999999999,0.736,0.16399999999999998,0.6531,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,1,0,1,4,5,0,0,2,0,8,1,0,1,1,9,13,5,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,4,0,2,4,5,7,2,6,0,1,0,0,2,3,0,2,3,30,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3322169244462672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18164505185514696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2780662551603543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5550193346795257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644213603149061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28759910847503256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26140720033254805,0.0,0.0,0.3200910435147588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3126002266221669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22389033236448716
schizophrenia,iknowthisischeesy,2020/04/07,"I don't know where else to post this My sister in law was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia about 2 months back, little did we know she had had this since 2014 but she stopped medication in 2015, nevertheless we have done everything. We have been considerate, understanding, everything but today when she locked herself in her room we had a huge blowout because the last time she did that she almost burned half the house down. Now I feel guilty and I don't know what to do.",5.3018619582664535,7.307417067415731,4.615762439807384,84.61539325842698,69.3370786516854,8.231781701444623,27.32102728731942,8.841846274778883,1.9483566613162115,385,13,74,7,7,115,64,89,0.083,0.843,0.07400000000000001,0.0644,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,4,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,0,13,2,0,0,0,17,18,4,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,1,0,4,6,0,1,6,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,8,1,15,0,8,10,0,17,0,0,0,0,12,8,0,1,8,51,19,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2226842886207972,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17099867516328393,0.0,0.13556251365643934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2257138989393997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22757485243339245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18577232518786246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.399726710031692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11244344449606368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2565999367823985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3666473750272387,0.1812716936035173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2228860252415031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240273129190239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775038592355728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21298128602985333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1839573812199001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18592200979335674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.129673220900998,0.0,0.21079292740625105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2315083765883169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,r1gormortiss,2020/04/07,"Bf doesn’t understand schizophrenia Hello! I’m new to reddit and I’ve been diagnosed with Schizophrenia since middle school. It’s been really really hard on me for the past two years, anyways, 
I have a boyfriend who I’ve been with for a while now, and every time I have a episode he seems to try to understand, but when I try to explain he seems uninterested or brushes it off. I don’t think he understands what it actually /is/. 

If I could please have some advice to say to him, I have tried everything I can and he just seems to say things like “It’s just anxiety, don’t worry” which he isn’t wrong somewhat, I do have very bad anxiety. But, it seems as if he blames it on anxiety every time I have a episode, or I get scared. 

I could use literally any advice, again. New to reddit, pls be nice..",4.201597967250144,5.039734173913047,5.216318464144553,83.73312817617169,70.61490683229816,9.084359119141727,27.05872388481084,9.339509955726095,2.0444981366459642,626,20,133,13,11,206,88,161,0.177,0.7759999999999999,0.047,-0.9677,0,0,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,0,6,5,0,1,5,0,19,1,0,1,0,27,31,12,0,4,8,0,1,1,1,0,1,2,0,0,10,5,0,0,9,0,0,0,4,3,0,1,3,4,13,2,16,25,2,14,0,0,0,0,13,4,0,10,11,82,23,1,0.0,0.0,0.11933889278945906,0.0,0.0,0.23900373608427405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08316243414670764,0.0,0.2806580578162193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10210831966445312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19527967195484747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12412332901927328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20607177730529794,0.0,0.1099077420136547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06389227717532922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095491906277446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05974546451176571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2362198439853398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11674110322881155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13423937679181855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15668617150390726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19450226660499156,0.12243515574176862,0.1237655574781234,0.0,0.4453184648785919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10116081757469404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08124505875319117,0.07835947468884223,0.0,0.0,0.14261834949920238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2490837649028702,0.0,0.11946105543072102,0.3819293875966117,0.0,0.10562061765721403,0.0,0.10090331988739977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12419298517304705,0.0,0.0,0.13370659071682015,0.0,0.07875173601599576
schizophrenia,Chrissyspeaks,2020/04/07,Coping skills Hey guys. I just want to ask you guys for coping skills. Usually I use a technique using all my senses to stop my paranoia. What do i do know that there is ACTUALLY something there killing people .(coronavirus),4.373048780487803,7.126612097560978,4.812378048780489,78.81661585365855,74.36585365853658,7.0268292682926825,27.32317073170732,8.07648339933343,2.0763609756097567,180,7,30,3,4,57,32,41,0.2,0.769,0.03,-0.8074,0,0,1,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,2,3,1,1,0,1,0,3,0,0,2,1,7,8,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,6,0,3,8,1,2,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,19,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.26470485066669125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2535859457557055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5371683662532007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30010244700273603,0.0,0.1490741470294606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880534231923472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20882464105406404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2267805546559983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4685528610291587,0.2987480437634748,0.0,0.15999268279853013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,RosaGabrielPudrir,2020/04/07,"Hallucination and Delusion hand in hand I'm really struggling. So there's this voice I hear named Vanessa. Contrary to most voice stories I've heard others share, Vanessa is actually quite nice and supports me so I haven't tried to block her out. I'm even kind of attracted to her but that's a whole other story. The issue is this delusion I've been having, and I know it's a delusion but I can't shake it from my brain that there's still a possibility it's real yknow? I keep thinking that people around me are telepathic and can read my mind. I'm scared to death that people know about Vanessa and will start judging me harshly for accepting her as part of my life. Just tonight I told my friend about Vanessa and she told me to never talk about Vanessa to her again because, in her words, ""she's fictional and this is just weird."" And it makes her uncomfortable. Now that I know how people truly react the delusion has become stronger. I try not to think about Vanessa as much so that I can hide her from my family but I miss her so much whenever I try. Idk if this post is just gonna be for venting or if I'll get advice, either way it feels good to get all of this off my chest.",4.009646082499387,5.021587406639007,4.774508176714672,86.0815670002441,71.19917012448133,7.496314376372958,26.62460336831829,7.724431198458867,1.333604637539663,939,30,196,11,17,303,130,241,0.084,0.779,0.13699999999999998,0.8798,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,0,1,19,13,0,3,5,0,14,5,4,3,2,40,35,21,1,2,11,0,3,0,1,2,1,4,0,0,18,10,0,2,7,1,0,1,4,5,0,0,4,7,31,8,26,28,7,14,0,1,0,0,18,5,0,4,6,131,49,1,0.0,0.0,0.13913194504015913,0.0,0.0,0.13932195069019065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12692134979084133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08691196672375018,0.1574621070052258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1591600650379884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09416897700065788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1344063562580251,0.0,0.07208984727970573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1101525464161518,0.0,0.14897836888987304,0.0,0.0,0.11958455400467699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16069159211358522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1488105217045113,0.0,0.12672658402452164,0.0,0.14846918800884495,0.23506531118533924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10070444077104054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09516944882131408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14395939428657228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20961702282955785,0.0,0.1099620855008647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15439406739897646,0.0,0.2965291925060719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16073109509539588,0.13654676314958442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15164531223270114,0.1426128773312555,0.16228076085663212,0.09133674400974554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14274174128379136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10091481961614128,0.0,0.11386001591996517,0.0,0.0,0.14904960902102976,0.0,0.0,0.16179162004631492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11459581746339588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827117022950412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27247169695039875,0.0,0.2903957618410476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11316883884750673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15917910841349767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lavenderbloodbat,2020/04/07,"Your experience and advice on antipsychotics needed! ‼️TW: mention of weight‼️ I’ve been on so many different antipsychotics.. Iloperidone, fluphenazine, quetiapine and now lurasidone (AKA: Latuda) To help alleviate schizophrenia symptoms. However, all of these medications have caused severe weight gain. I am looking for an antipsychotic that is pretty neutral or one that could potentially result in weight loss!  I would absolutely love to hear people’s thoughts and experiences with antipsychotics regarding weight as well as what worked for you!
Latuda has by far helped the best with my visual, audible, and tactical hallucinations. So I’m on the right route, I just cannot deal with the amount of weight I keep gaining.  Plus the medication makes it it’s soooo hard to shed the weight off! Before I was medicated I was a women’s size 3, and now over the span of three months I’m a size 11...what the heck!  Thanks for reading! I would really appreciate some help!!! ⭐️",4.672810650887577,8.009476680473371,4.742186390532545,76.11387130177516,78.05325443786981,8.350414201183431,27.38491124260355,8.982922981607832,2.9214494674556213,785,32,128,21,20,244,118,169,0.036000000000000004,0.78,0.185,0.9806,2,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,2,0,5,6,5,0,0,10,0,11,10,0,3,1,22,21,11,0,4,2,0,6,0,0,2,4,2,0,1,6,9,5,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,1,2,4,9,10,4,23,14,4,12,0,1,1,1,10,9,1,2,3,77,16,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10006556621080637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08713613911581078,0.0,0.10746406255191207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10519455413766307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08175926980795041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10557145593244853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10698777839767214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2003366437484564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0917316353936453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11541393922855825,0.0,0.20591271220083815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09101916332318427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08599147430225018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09242135690788528,0.0,0.06835380020950038,0.1038190542188684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3094762313968353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08173590487524672,0.0,0.0,0.07592941894514776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0693899104280541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0709923104941674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104179145293626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1024292169927902,0.0,0.06560102668609971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08745032634783703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11568455400113015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1064343732492522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09427754836413962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08129535715951253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7481846808326981,0.09207125154269892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07454951573913234,0.0,0.0,0.14548618320038667,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,zachgold13,2020/04/07,Foggieness I have been relatively symptom free ever since I can remember being on my new meds. Besides lots of insomnia. Today I have recently felt a large amount of fogginess and am wondering if it is a early warning to another episode. In my first episode I remember feeling a lot or fog in the early part of the episode. I am a student but classes have taken the easier approach since they are remote.,6.2494736842105265,7.319397631578951,7.572210526315793,67.84647368421055,66.10526315789474,11.343157894736846,40.2,11.20814326018867,5.217624210526315,324,19,52,10,5,111,55,76,0.024,0.877,0.099,0.6597,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,7,0,10,2,0,0,1,12,14,4,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,3,2,8,2,7,10,4,11,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,5,7,42,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2233104862009955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19263740884150415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10768059390428393,0.0,0.20447807128482126,0.0,0.0,0.18114639107253605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3621073978954829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2365541086229041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20568118782594494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23061839496364225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2102754701856941,0.0,0.4824915869906702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3523307232646907,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2213503093293938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20186421463389384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23094950847763734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,LilyofManyVallies,2020/04/08,"How often do you all hallucinate How often do you all hallucinate

And are you medicated or unmedicated?

Curious because I just hallucinated for the first time after having a reprieve of several months. Wondering if this is common",6.270384615384612,9.659265717948717,9.08942307692308,47.261826923076924,71.30769230769229,12.105128205128207,35.391025641025635,11.20814326018867,6.037764102564104,189,10,24,8,4,69,32,39,0.0,0.94,0.06,0.3182,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,0,1,5,0,0,0,2,0,5,1,0,2,2,11,6,5,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,3,6,2,5,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,5,5,26,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2590044888117696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3614049217683623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4280245187066869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33913723700889786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4799963989929645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2477524603678909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4607670544779445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,diaxy,2020/04/08,Any luck with a brand of noise blocking thingys? I’m dying from my mishearing all the background conversation.,5.878421052631579,9.246137105263164,4.883421052631579,76.97144736842105,72.6842105263158,8.010526315789475,35.8157894736842,8.841846274778883,3.7539263157894736,91,5,14,2,2,27,19,19,0.126,0.728,0.146,0.1027,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,4,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,7,1,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5480650320975762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8364357241246233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TheSadGolem,2020/04/08,"Hoping to discuss drug use/abuse with another experienced diagnosed Hi, I'm at a stage where im seriously reconsidering my drug use as a young diagnosed and was hoping to get in touch with someone who is experienced / could shed some insight and talk things through a bit, help me out on the side discussing new feelings and symptoms as i'm coming out of my second rough patch.

Prefer to be reached through discord, pm for my details or if your aus/nz based maybe we could do a phone call. hopefully not facebook messenger or exchanged typing.",15.828877887788778,8.81912568316832,13.896435643564356,55.39600660066011,54.54455445544555,17.03102310231023,55.44884488448845,13.023866798666859,6.842878547854786,438,22,76,9,3,140,78,101,0.043,0.835,0.122,0.7906,0,0,2,0,1,0,9.0,1,1,0,0,1,4,0,0,5,0,6,5,0,1,0,23,15,8,0,7,4,0,3,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,2,9,0,0,3,0,1,1,1,1,0,1,1,5,6,3,16,11,2,11,0,0,0,0,10,7,0,7,2,45,8,1,0.0,0.19648015276807124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17388608072554626,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810422305096465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16932986734096112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14284693043960467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2648017968015022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3366257247389001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.384617798269712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08384808417533063,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0866387659729311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11115162905101827,0.0,0.0,0.494116601568294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17912368917757174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665974383103049,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16015860355898087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14050630514703466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17235974186197453,0.0,0.13328700380693698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11016936542203463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28644588609695765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,concerteza,2020/04/08,"Has anyone been able to get their sex drive back after losing it due to meds? I’m a woman and I used to have a really active sex drive, but after a few months of taking seroquel and risperidone (and other meds that I don’t suspect caused this) I have zero sex drive whatsoever. I can’t get turned on by anything and it’s causing me a lot of anxiety to think I might be like this forever. Has anyone here been able to raise their libido after losing it to meds? It would really help to hear someone else’s perspective on this. :)",4.524632843791721,5.123561009345792,5.7004005340453965,81.41906542056077,69.74766355140186,8.357276368491322,24.631508678237648,8.418075326091056,1.4719863818424566,416,10,82,6,7,139,64,107,0.091,0.779,0.13,0.7427,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,2,2,2,3,0,0,4,0,11,3,0,3,0,13,19,5,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,2,0,1,0,1,9,4,0,0,2,0,0,3,2,2,0,1,2,1,8,1,15,14,2,11,0,2,0,3,5,2,0,2,7,57,17,0,0.3156618337489537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12074021940675805,0.0,0.0,0.22071809366047607,0.0,0.12988139652203187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1213622327553894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3242716563141311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13184747862771853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1649202796721021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1778869141191764,0.0,0.1057907366480206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07710821363731805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3531448487950662,0.0,0.13418220143968146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.525943704642861,0.0,0.0,0.1674336609908456,0.0,0.0,0.1259791320544273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2022210536827856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13372962368706004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11866920718964652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10113167860006136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17167471527073316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13631523693675696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1121185549573986,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Party_End,2020/04/08,"Anybody got better without medication? To put it simply, I spent my whole childhood to teenage years suffering from schizophrenia and it made my life a living hell. Was abused for it, developed Cptsd, then developed PTSD from a real life trauma and two traumatizing hallucinations/delusions. Saying half because my hallucinations and delusions played a part in eachother at the worst of times. Four years ago I realized I had schizophrenia after putting the pieces of my life together, and learning what was not normal while trying to understand my trauma. I dedicated my time to learning what I can do for myself, went to doctors and therapists with no avail, they were to focused on my ptsd induced fear while I was with them...I have trust issues. But I didn't know how to describe that at the time so I was misdiagnosed with GAD. 
I've gotten way better hiding my fear when talking to people by practicing conversations. Hence why I'm here hoping someone will answer me. 

Ok now my story is out there. I figured out how to control my hallucinations and delusions by simply ignoring them like I'd ignore someone wanting constant attention. It all slowly disappeared, like how a brat stops trying if nothing works. That wasn't something I learned on the spot, it took me two years to figure out what worked for me if anything at all, and a year for it to make it all go away. I've never been officially diagnosed, and I'm feeling fake, has anyone helped themselves like this? I treated my ptsd the same way, with self therapy, and hope to do the same with my Cptsd.",7.6235806517729054,8.178670202090592,7.3578807132609185,72.3795511375282,63.00696864111498,9.819143267062923,35.69768395162943,9.627879704456738,3.4786701783152285,1256,54,210,22,17,398,165,287,0.15,0.742,0.10800000000000001,-0.932,0,0,1,0,1,0,32.0,0,0,2,5,8,21,1,2,11,1,16,6,0,7,4,54,32,20,0,6,5,0,1,3,0,1,6,1,0,1,13,17,0,4,12,1,1,6,6,10,0,4,15,2,29,11,39,16,9,36,1,1,0,0,7,10,1,4,21,147,42,6,0.0,0.12383218011276168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0926454899294379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07307872531480064,0.0,0.08600624210298645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09819448641627332,0.0,0.0,0.06371085713455987,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18486854879116385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11294266922860832,0.11722150874550324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10607966450856303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10697466345197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2352149558469683,0.052845495666760466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0593978012423034,0.0,0.08358951508841582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07005363317647673,0.0,0.0,0.20761227072245328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10908562129965743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05743824478479441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22146430971373604,0.15318100669856186,0.0,0.09228791120776114,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09889381788719168,0.06976400817970031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10528701292597556,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.080607757293443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10240167873045887,0.10028414782765233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11317864203608892,0.0,0.07245695359776869,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36651435309926544,0.21013117998884429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11895998629840285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831138487447788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10903105446628733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17710900404769722,0.08046010048670449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873785110988323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.084004516637332,0.0,0.0,0.11952104157451696,0.12134898616744925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18282912793884906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11611906870271413,0.1419164977510578,0.0,0.2041902804582695,0.10880291836172752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061645154853992475,0.1659169386147892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09688566620036533,0.09430776625175513,0.11668631855005125,0.0,0.10074791315419757,0.0,0.15217509516302405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2692147496220179
schizophrenia,bettybetterboop,2020/04/08,"The voices in my head are telling me that I'm going die anytime soon. I've had this experience before but i forgot how i coped.

I'm still aware with what's real or not. I'm used with my visual hallucinations, but sometimes  my auditory hallucinations really gets me.. I'm scared that i might actually lose my shit anytime soon",3.184895833333332,5.496028531250001,5.532500000000002,74.39583333333336,76.1875,8.016666666666666,24.729166666666664,8.841846274778883,2.042841666666668,262,9,49,6,6,92,44,64,0.22399999999999998,0.7759999999999999,0.0,-0.9408,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,4,3,1,1,1,0,3,2,2,2,0,11,11,4,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,0,2,1,9,0,3,8,0,5,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,2,3,28,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.2551805124703977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222512212040934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713895825358857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557913984120801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366198701144755,0.0,0.14861311841619265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268368379076178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2925450009538119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2774039076678809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2976375246355435,0.16751981104739785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26180120375087906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26841992730366515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586243430246155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088295193742742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22855736191734455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2258469364950273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lillybell1868,2020/04/08,"What are some of the biggest misconceptions, or outright falsehoods,.that manny peopple belive about schizophrenia? Sorry if this is the wrong place to ask this, please feel free to delete if so.",10.12,11.749246000000005,6.875000000000004,74.27000000000002,57.75,8.9,34.75,8.841846274778883,3.0911375,160,6,23,2,2,44,28,32,0.115,0.731,0.155,0.3664,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,5,4,4,0,2,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,4,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,4,0,16,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3857071757841969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2086131529262392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43105892383346334,0.4528896138224016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4618502140907954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4510921287213633,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,MagicGIF,2020/04/08,"What's stopping you from making quality thoughts? I'm diagnosed with F20.8 / ICD-10, which is an ""other form of schizophrenia.""

Might be normal, but I'm curious. I've noticed that sometimes it's difficult to have clarity of thought. It feels like information is scattered in my mind, and it's hard to collect or remember properly. When I write the information down, and I try to make a decision, it feels like the decision is usually uncertain, unclear, and not obvious -- I think it's uncertain because it's also scattered in my mind, or because I know it's based on the scattered information. Due to this, my beliefs and ideas change very frequently, but I can't really say they're delusional either, just disorganized. I think my short-term memory issues are a symptom of this scattered mental state.

When my illness first started, I had this severe brain fog, that was obvious, along with bad depression and anxiety, which was extremely painful. I think I might have gotten used to the brain fog, but it's still affecting my thought processes, and this could be a description of it.",8.361692949907237,8.608024770408164,8.276437847866424,67.46076994434138,61.5,12.841558441558444,41.28756957328386,12.24349002098031,5.5267,869,46,143,28,11,281,114,196,0.195,0.743,0.062,-0.9793,0,0,0,0,0,0,35.0,0,1,0,1,5,8,0,2,8,0,15,6,2,4,2,51,31,14,0,2,8,0,3,2,0,2,4,1,0,0,19,9,0,1,17,0,0,0,2,6,0,1,7,4,16,2,17,19,2,14,1,1,0,0,6,4,0,7,11,95,35,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10796418151178054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032791555074195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1127242998894962,0.16459670550419947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014225007282935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14281835700727835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1077912376586878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11628039683078895,0.13702816195223402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365260942748626,0.19289650541471412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11483596239775327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12093878204591064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15240524514687856,0.0,0.1409110997037788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07419572021730451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13191414139010846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18023499330568254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13605420866876314,0.28643988218034033,0.27263497673761355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13227713230677934,0.0,0.15370512912976456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1436558122680102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08648824622315399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15293538395337464,0.0,0.0,0.10736212241087628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525182561324996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13352430210469626,0.0,0.09555788156401472,0.0,0.10781589817573807,0.11287099017012213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14032283860793487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595190172466465,0.0,0.3215388487952273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09166015431711716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11660176387615592,0.14868994196667332,0.11139401890277828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,beansabout,2020/04/08,"Do you get used to hallucinations? Odd question, but most of the conversation around schizophrenia I hear is very... fear mongering. Always acting as if hallucinations are eternally terrifying and confusing. Is that true? Or, if you've been diagnosed and receiving treatment for a long time, does it just become everyday life for you? Can 'hearing voices' actually become relatively mundane and ignoble. 

As a side question, do hallucinations persist when you're medicated, or are they stopped by it? Does it depend on the person?",6.520229885057473,9.997021942528736,7.4397701149425295,58.9405747126437,70.95402298850577,10.763218390804601,36.10344827586207,10.504223727775694,5.326324137931035,427,23,58,15,9,142,66,87,0.193,0.769,0.038,-0.9344,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,2,1,1,3,3,0,2,4,0,8,3,0,2,1,18,12,11,0,2,6,0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,1,4,4,0,1,2,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,1,3,4,1,9,11,1,11,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,9,6,40,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.1825556590908213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15565920768766295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1665340814223207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4132134962660269,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18987452965259755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3274166038887638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2105084387078469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09773759834636167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4216883405199525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1321347556308759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1655531710408125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18845574361929487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16334438804234705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41912776221369896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1564008877054451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10908341020561103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16157047396115493,0.0,0.1543543067639663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,CommercialMain7,2020/04/08,"Help? Hello, I am a rather young person (17) living in Ireland. I have been having episodes where I hear male voices continuously, for approximately for 5-6 minutes, sparadically throughout my life. These voices are not threatening and I am aware that they are internal. I have had around 4-5 of these episodes from the age of 11 onwards, the last of which was March last year. I have come to the conclusion that these episodes become apparent as a result of stress. I am not completely sure if this is schizophrenia or anxiety or something else. If someone would be able to give me some perspective it would be greatly appreciated!
Grá",5.764801932367147,7.857272417391307,5.8107246376811625,76.16120772946861,68.30434782608697,8.937198067632849,31.90821256038648,9.444778638647367,3.091270531400966,508,22,88,11,9,160,83,115,0.059000000000000004,0.8590000000000001,0.08199999999999999,0.5693,1,0,1,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,1,1,3,3,0,1,5,0,17,1,0,1,1,16,20,6,0,5,7,0,0,0,0,2,1,3,0,2,8,3,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,3,10,2,12,13,1,11,0,0,0,0,7,3,0,5,7,62,18,0,0.2201394679822265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684060904581824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19597079878169016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24312674690675876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18963065918606284,0.2308120438507161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18389827781959492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2111778370142233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2427045406109973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481131796651695,0.0,0.14755484504765715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3588860960578223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15549101653336114,0.0,0.0,0.1943871833703232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19221729226696707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18652345684176547,0.16947411749404015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25216901680001674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.207478843329658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31276152388935513,0.0,0.0,0.1417625998245854
schizophrenia,johaiwohhai,2020/04/08,"Schizophrenia with no Hallucination? Hello new to this subreddit!
A bit about myself first.I was diagnosed as schizophrenic   almost a year back (I am 25 now).I have a history of cannabis abuse and my therapist believes thats what triggered my schizophrenia.While i was high i use to have intense hallucination that lasted while i was high but after that i used get deluded thoughts and social withdrawal but no hallucination episodes while i was sober.
Went through many post here and i observed that almost everybody has some kind of hallucination psychotic episode.Are there any people who don't get hallucination but still are schizophrenic?",6.512802335279398,9.911312073394502,5.920417014178482,70.26534612176815,70.46788990825688,9.468223519599666,33.762301918265216,9.800150414767053,4.138405504587157,532,26,80,15,11,163,73,109,0.077,0.9,0.023,-0.747,0,0,0,0,1,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,0,10,3,0,3,0,14,16,9,0,0,3,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,6,0,10,1,9,10,2,12,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,3,8,54,17,0,0.0,0.21903566682899875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3702326601502531,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12571503930137995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.142150339343606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20828037804005226,0.0,0.0,0.20182550311175124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18763482990828034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15724669998395774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1931694332559208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3906415982968263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19250921538036025,0.0,0.15069024794797306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18742483974167146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17854447909734794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12816262407100684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1770502727817733,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18844733641916112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14763401498930542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21464336717650168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14676274410323414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31932927976563713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17137238868801768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11904747245418085
schizophrenia,0los89,2020/04/08,"Can you guys list some medications that have worked for you? I’m gonna see my doctor next week, my medicine is pretty much failing me right now. I’m currently taking invega which was really good for almost a year. I’m really wanting to try Latuda now. Any help is appreciated, thanks!",3.5094545454545454,5.777191945454548,5.219999999999999,77.23000000000002,75.0,8.763636363636364,21.909090909090907,9.3871,1.992927272727273,227,6,42,6,5,77,45,55,0.052000000000000005,0.7,0.248,0.9059,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,2,0,2,2,3,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0,0,3,13,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,5,2,3,11,2,7,0,1,1,0,4,1,0,2,6,20,7,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2569849249615072,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1745219880292939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2626788856397139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.215254973546718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2541110185569843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17201839860026522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585348187624525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18865775383647604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2729364041027067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.261092132915157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3288165194794671,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21916663038394388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20450649440423035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19295911561561108,0.0,0.0,0.2362769066594666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17423970443186435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513711757495241,0.0,0.2058587538170599,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18683482204871776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16526583993469893
schizophrenia,Evian-Water-Good,2020/04/08,I feel like people are reading my mind and I hate it. I have really negative and weird thoughts in my head even though I would never say that sort of stuff out loud.I hate the fact I think about someone and some weird thoughts comes into my mind I think that they can read my mind and they will say negative stuff about me to other people and i hate it.This has been going on for quite some time and even though I’m sure it ain’t true it bugs me all day.,1.3421878579610542,3.1548778350515505,2.1164261168384897,99.08524627720509,79.9278350515464,5.548224513172968,16.963344788087056,6.42735559955562,-0.5714091638029779,358,6,86,3,9,111,60,97,0.21600000000000005,0.713,0.071,-0.9470000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,1,6,8,3,0,1,0,8,1,1,0,5,26,19,8,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,2,0,0,8,9,0,0,5,2,0,2,4,5,0,0,3,3,15,3,9,14,3,9,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,3,4,57,23,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12238568608223575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09162711088416506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1876793976673438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07183777262065537,0.10149895057719137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08074492794464214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42081119376392795,0.14581071753330047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06941103929592457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43036804585979693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095775839898052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19699488448987684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15111505808707468,0.2842284133228911,0.0,0.09101736923682233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22596869203028436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1203803294994163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32528550532518624,0.0,0.0,0.13390472140654325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18207281912634984,0.27917742360757897,0.2255845651694516,0.08284551758284155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10092654280067376,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,DoingBetterForMyself,2020/04/08,"Worried about money I can't work! But I need money! Grr!! Someone just please give me a job that requires no human contact and minimal effort. Or something I already know how to do. Like posting memes on a company's facebook page. But tbh even that's too much pressure. I need universal basic income to be q thing. That would be awesome for so many people with mental health disorders to be able to focus on their mental health goals before diving into a better job or other stuff. If I knew I was taken care of, I just might be able to work knowing I'm safe and I can quit if I need to and find something else that's more suited. Now though? I cant! I barely make it by with my savings and doing an odd job here and there. And they took away my food stamps because I'm not working too. Shluld tell them I'm homeless... then I might get something.",1.811614227086185,3.9738314883720953,3.1744870041039697,90.32372777017784,80.04651162790698,4.977291381668947,22.326949384404926,5.900188976854957,0.3406822161422709,664,21,132,4,17,216,115,172,0.054000000000000006,0.8240000000000001,0.12300000000000001,0.9094,4,0,3,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,3,8,12,7,1,1,4,0,13,3,0,2,0,33,28,16,0,6,9,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,0,1,8,9,1,2,4,0,2,1,4,2,0,0,4,0,18,5,16,17,3,8,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,6,3,87,26,8,0.2459618502100856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.135712508967844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1155446274206866,0.0,0.0,0.07496803047635607,0.0,0.1046477092912562,0.0,0.0,0.10876663431653766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12538724939359544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409467947380625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10273478235762756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08122774117115247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11240233755869768,0.0,0.14870902279613338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06425245751688766,0.1179745095040747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2614459450786764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3661187756961261,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13517420041737493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060082267999851814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08209072247014998,0.124683355437055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24787169416719854,0.260926654044017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904051303188094,0.2735663930392364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0852594887252723,0.0,0.0,0.13499612528664506,0.0,0.0,0.11778173118303725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13080535187050396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10420133875331644,0.2840301733507484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14078373631672855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10749074914550162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08170306204099634,0.0,0.1208281345074426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13663633284677668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26859473451666,0.12489309908033568,0.0,0.08736212069950422,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BaldDudeInFlorida,2020/04/08,"Have you found any therapeutic benefit to telling auditory hallucinations (i.e. voices) to shut up (either out loud or by ""thinking"" the words at the voice)? I have never been diagnosed with schizophrenia.  However, I sometimes experience auditory hallucinations when I am extremely sleep deprived and nearing sleep.  The auditory hallucinations sound like a muffled telephone call between multiple people with different voices, however I cannot make out the words.  The ""sound"" is somewhere between being in my own head and outside of my head.  It's a lot like listening to a quiet conversation through very-staticky headphones.  I have noticed that if I ""chime in"" with a thought, the voices stop briefly, as if I've interrupted a conversation.  I have also noticed that when I experience non-hallucinatory""voices"" in my own head (i.e. ""I will never get this project done in time."") it sometimes helps to respond with a ""shut up"" or a ""fuck you. ""

Has anyone else done this and, if so, have you found any benefit from it?",9.222931034482759,9.904290028735632,9.167264367816092,60.32917241379312,59.63218390804597,12.017471264367812,42.68735632183908,11.602472056035307,5.430257011494253,811,44,124,22,10,265,99,174,0.066,0.852,0.08199999999999999,0.3983,3,0,0,0,0,0,42.0,0,3,0,0,4,6,1,0,13,0,14,7,5,1,2,26,22,13,0,3,6,0,0,2,0,1,1,9,0,0,7,9,0,1,4,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,6,9,15,4,25,14,4,18,0,1,0,1,11,12,1,6,8,92,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11015736752902444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1873473082910735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0963169031649401,0.14113954210482016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14065654545077422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1398117541080221,0.0,0.1439177882498106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28192893268065305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11507113550067335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2694887874622455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.302068081175049,0.0,0.12734620137217245,0.07196786789735286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4241088804358634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09232986719384392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13459384725479795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1171087869434474,0.0,0.0,0.09194814484375513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21248015807969006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3136549948983983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09549741533175622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27569581509444235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27247343359702264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11516385317271502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12039819695079695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08826363016358561,0.0,0.1093568646120239,0.08032221569072763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Pearlemperor222,2020/04/08,"I’ve learned some stuff about this disease, it kind of creeped me out. I’ve heard of some people having it like Candace from Phineas and Ferb. Phineas and Ferb is real but it was all in her head. It creeped me out, are all cases like this. Can I have some insight please.",2.2249090909090903,4.173596218181821,2.001818181818184,100.3027272727273,77.72727272727272,4.4,25.54545454545455,3.1291,-0.003072727272727338,212,8,48,0,5,62,37,55,0.0,0.86,0.14,0.7876,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,6,1,1,0,2,13,7,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,4,3,7,5,5,3,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,3,2,32,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37768005406731225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3832213430588512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3595780271524427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2551288406084717,0.0,0.0,0.40395978730293214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4188710934715013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4212785223091429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,RamenTheory,2020/04/09,"Seeking audio recordings about people's experiences during quarantine Hello,

I am an NYU student directing a **PSA** to help people recognize the **impact that the shelter-in-place can have on one's mental health** and to make them aware of the resources that are available to help with such.

I am seeking people with diagnosed mental health problems to **submit audio content** describing their experiences during quarantine. I would like to know how the isolation has affected your mental well-being, how coping with your mental health condition is different during quarantine, etc.

Even if you are only able to record on an iPhone, that would be totally fine.

The final PSA will be a compilation of people's audio with animation over each statement. **We fully intend to treat this issue with care and integrity and to tell your story as honestly as possible.**

Please PM me for my email if you are interested!

Thank you all for your time,

Noah

NYU Tisch Kanbar Institute of Film & TV '21",4.333267272226807,7.627801000000005,5.084128819157723,73.28489402697498,79.46242774566473,8.150729424717865,26.157170382603912,8.841846274778883,2.9827563446187724,795,31,116,21,21,256,112,173,0.038,0.802,0.16,0.9663,1,4,0,0,0,0,33.0,1,7,2,0,5,8,0,0,9,0,14,4,0,5,2,24,18,9,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,3,4,3,0,0,4,10,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,3,15,7,24,13,4,5,0,0,0,0,15,3,0,2,3,80,19,1,0.1299343169689217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1407837781498424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13247669581809488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13188059662757026,0.0,0.13575370612288393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14491111000588064,0.08582039091824396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542013888725124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14233669310021588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4143423088061368,0.0,0.0,0.17418446753283098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1356176689201983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07140850253016816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0634793440351534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08673216553326184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5237729225086754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08804685590469515,0.0988209031194299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3603203805200024,0.0,0.0,0.14262886148879644,0.0,0.14648141939258774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12432959332645158,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11356832011768428,0.11962606183894604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07576574512867616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11682655543921107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1846032215540899,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Mills_Himself,2020/04/09,"How do you deal with the fact that people don't even try to understand your point of view? Because yeah, I get it, I'm schizophrenic, I know, but it doesn't mean that I'm fully out of touch with reality.

I hate when I say something - while explaining step by step my reasoning - and people just dismiss that without debating just because ""your completely mad, dude, get some help"". Yeah thanks, but how the fuck I can be helped if you don't even explain to me why my point of view is not valid? I'm schizo, not crazy.

So anyway, if you live something similar, I would honestly like to know how you deal with it",4.622169421487605,5.325071909090912,5.034369834710745,85.90791838842975,69.57851239669422,9.02520661157025,28.348140495867767,9.188382445141503,2.078693388429752,475,16,101,9,8,151,74,121,0.109,0.752,0.138,0.2203,0,0,2,0,0,0,19.0,0,6,0,0,10,6,3,0,2,2,8,2,0,4,1,27,22,11,0,3,9,0,1,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,6,5,0,0,7,0,0,2,6,3,0,0,0,4,15,3,12,20,1,7,0,0,2,1,13,3,1,3,3,62,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21928533951807566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18858268301254086,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3708612179553223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23759531480048995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16628022439473716,0.18794173825741792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17757723951339427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2411164348822656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19769573939892332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08787185986911307,0.0,0.15882211331630464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19592327544577687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493883834677423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34005689209992745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18492887454217405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14303408681317467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769342816346238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16559346512441195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12211500830553032,0.0,0.0,0.18724347753725848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1622981660569234,0.0,0.0,0.17338128331169278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12776934499200848,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,OfMisterKaufman,2020/04/09,how to lift my friends mood? my friend is starting to show symptoms of schizophrenia and i was wondering what i can do to support her and how i should act if she’s ever struggling with it. at the moment it’s very small but there’s a chance it could get worse because her dad had schizophrenia. how can i be supportive and help comfort her? ive heard it can be extremely stressful. thanks !,1.810115440115439,4.413069896103898,2.151861471861473,94.87318903318905,83.8051948051948,4.9806637806637815,25.43867243867244,6.42735559955562,0.8236707070707072,310,13,63,3,9,94,55,77,0.12,0.627,0.253,0.8773,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,0,5,9,0,2,2,0,12,1,0,3,1,13,19,8,0,3,2,1,0,0,2,1,1,1,0,0,5,4,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,2,0,0,3,1,11,6,6,12,0,6,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,2,3,45,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14441584925335368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18915036094877746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21429526350030664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3660663574366211,0.0,0.12377373608398122,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15879326355783596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16768346093739386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2713753054527789,0.24766584716774376,0.0,0.0,0.5376768031341657,0.0,0.2462363003576541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21811144282881986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19547246455887804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25691471906789154,0.0,0.0,0.24142770510380235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,zucca_,2020/04/09,"Getting off quetiapine Hello. Because of Easter, my psychiatrist is not available until Tuesday. But I cannot wait that long. I have gained 18 kgs on quetiapine and gotten a lot of dark stretch marks. I used to be skinny and now I hate what I see in the mirror. I have had enough and I want to get off it. I take 300 mg. What would happen if I just quit cold turkey? I am doing this with or without help. I am just seeking some advice. I also take antidepressants, but I can't live without them, so I am staying on them.",0.5538098693759075,2.9250951792452824,2.840943396226418,89.2173367198839,87.77358490566039,4.770972423802613,20.41799709724237,6.297961479604792,0.2487004354136424,403,13,83,4,13,137,76,106,0.043,0.925,0.032,-0.2568,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,2,2,5,1,1,0,2,0,12,1,1,1,0,19,23,10,0,3,9,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,1,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,2,2,17,0,13,19,3,11,0,0,1,0,4,6,0,4,4,65,22,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2236170591648036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18300102271563629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13949703050176046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23644999518467605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2391159796807831,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20235997640105585,0.0,0.0,0.22592935443161685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15338474858906198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20206743628488075,0.20251371709788768,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.194549200478958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24339652574210344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1823536173122758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2439100028464059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3441141840349933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19764186363470315,0.0,0.0,0.13497410698448206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4411817811390335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16255937815734348,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,scxmfxqk,2020/04/09,"clouded symptoms Does anyone else feel very very foggy right before episodes? I've known Im schizoaffective for a little under a year now and it seems like every time before an episode I have a really brief high, like Im very energetic and thinking very fast, then I crash and symptoms kind of overflow me and I  cant think straight whatsoever and my cognition is very cloudy like someone put a lot of smoke in my head so i cant see. My motor skills also seem to be affected by it, Im having a hard time moving my body the way I want too and I feel xtremely slow. and it feels like i get zapped and shake after.
Does anyone else experience this type of thing? lately it feels like I'm alone in my experiences",1.9131701631701643,4.2860964475524534,3.3112167832167856,88.30272261072261,81.02797202797203,6.051095571095573,21.42144522144521,7.3011,0.7365257808857812,564,17,114,8,15,184,91,143,0.09,0.7859999999999999,0.124,0.7797,0,1,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,4,7,0,1,7,0,6,4,2,1,0,20,18,11,0,1,0,0,5,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,8,0,0,9,0,0,4,2,1,0,0,0,6,13,6,10,17,1,22,0,0,1,0,0,8,0,3,14,56,19,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11139509354740863,0.0,0.08601211965442529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1504106567830559,0.2204067046226753,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1830436708763043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11946994879953825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18824514077924606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17969769063057334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09062017409193752,0.0,0.0,0.21041989612380055,0.0,0.0,0.21753323356486526,0.15367538633950106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05619332600000637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09634863013395133,0.0,0.11038300505544918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11363832420202155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3485352918146569,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1120025349304839,0.0,0.0,0.12132732428257482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.262730999172136,0.10779889838064698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09143986662998647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1143145084899797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10812301616021566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0689028275737505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09185183619831963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08570783331660907,0.1958290326863448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09113145278004676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22358275894079446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07145511592707164,0.13783448332248832,0.0,0.0,0.12543299067271393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44372288792869785,0.06343903912623608,0.0853725745796162,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06926223591733315
schizophrenia,sch1zoangel,2020/04/09,"i didnt believe it when others say it happened to them & then it happened to me something i have often read on bipolar and schizophrenia subs is that their meds tend to affect their memory and comprehension, making them feel ""dumb"" and i thought ... no way ? surely it was a preexisting problem of theirs or they were simply exaggerating. now i have been on a few antipsychotics and anticonvulsants ... right now adjusting with lamictal and seroquel , and well its true.

 my reading comprehension is significantly worse and my short term memory lasts pretty much a day. i cant really describe the amount it has affected me but its pretty noticeable. im not super worried though, im doing better than i ever have in years so i suppose its a fair trade. anyone else feel this is familiar ?",4.471569416498994,7.285988309859158,5.484024144869217,73.8104225352113,74.35211267605635,8.282494969818911,27.748490945674053,9.04235418022936,2.799477263581488,628,25,102,15,14,206,100,142,0.083,0.772,0.145,0.8839,0,0,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,0,6,2,8,7,1,0,5,0,13,1,0,3,3,23,20,13,0,1,3,0,2,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,11,8,0,0,4,2,1,0,4,2,1,0,5,3,17,5,9,15,4,15,0,0,0,0,7,5,1,2,9,77,28,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17687855195258945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11414641794766865,0.16726631185857854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18392398192944315,0.0,0.14437910995843106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10528110493575547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1363723032506497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14766667136484418,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16508563905692722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28871837499569525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3526705349197948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13306846617685994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10896894549105986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1813311237318513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1200056647254466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.185858312313756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3321627055119754,0.0,0.15620576973741132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265832690785191,0.0,0.10458050143818644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394124367008987,0.0,0.1298209304444368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12567586830098562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15385879670065786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16038979810070012,0.12960024630437314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1295782331871471,0.0,0.0,0.14677906948698902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16578571726961405,0.16636310577102734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10512601032536106
schizophrenia,bbmiami,2020/04/09,"My friend's delusions Hi there,  
I recently found out that my close friend of 10 years (25, m) was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia just over a year ago when he was baker acted by his family. He just informed me of this about a month ago, claiming that he was wrongly diagnosed and I believed him, because he didn't have any noticeable symptoms to my knowledge--we communicate via phone because we live in different states. I also wasn't super familiar with the symptoms of schizophrenia.

Over the past couple of weeks I did start to notice that he was having paranoid thoughts and grandiose delusions--he would post long videos on social media pontificating about these delusions. (Believing he is a celebrity with cameras following him, having tons of fans despite having very few followers, believing every one of his friends is jealous of him and out to harm him, stating that he is the most attractive person in the world and a ""higher power"" gifted him his beauty and everyone else is disgusting) 

Once these delusions started it became difficult to have cohesive conversations with him--he would mostly ramble on about these things and I would listen--wouldn't validate nor invalidate them, but ask probing questions. I was confused and didn't know how to support him. One day he said some very hurtful things to me over the phone, seemingly out of nowhere--claiming that he can't trust me/my intentions, doesn't connect with me, and made hurtful insults about my physical appearance. (I am one of the only, and longest standing friends he has in his life and have always been a supportive friend, have never done anything to make him feel this way. ) 

I hung up because I was upset and was obviously very hurt. I texted him and told him that I cared about him and urged him to seek support. This was the first time I made it known to him that I believed his diagnosis was real. He continued to say terrible things to me via text, and I blocked him because I didn't feel comfortable receiving the harassment any longer.

The next day he was baker acted by his family because he was exhibiting the same behaviors (even more intense) with them. I still love my friend and want to support him, and I feel hopeful that he will be getting the help he needs. I am concerned though, because I am doubtful he will believe his diagnosis. I found out that he was prescribed Abilify and was not taking it (not sure if he once was and stopped, or if he refused altogether).

My questions are:  
1) When someone is baker acted and evaluated/admitted, are they forced to take their medication?  
2) When someone starts taking their medication again, are they more likely to accept their diagnosis?  
3)  When his mental state becomes more stable, will he be able to reflect upon those past behaviors/delusions and recognize them as such?  
4) What is the best way to support him upon his return?

I know the answers to these questions are likely based upon the individual, however, I'm wondering if anyone here has personal experience as someone who is diagnosed, or a loved one/friend of someone who has been. I have been thinking about him a lot and I want to continue a friendship with him when he gets released.",9.350844827586208,8.662140118965517,8.668965517241382,68.53258620689658,59.8793103448276,11.655172413793109,41.206896551724135,10.852061532183503,4.619793103448275,2559,123,420,53,29,809,267,580,0.107,0.76,0.132,0.9640000000000001,4,0,0,0,0,0,76.0,1,0,8,4,22,38,4,3,22,0,58,10,0,5,3,90,99,38,0,10,10,0,3,2,6,6,8,2,0,2,26,34,0,3,19,1,0,7,10,14,0,4,30,5,68,24,61,61,11,62,0,3,0,2,85,18,0,18,32,297,94,0,0.059966794005936325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10631388939390912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04795542350114134,0.04989717645264837,0.0,0.0,0.0815589525460484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04193017666635982,0.0,0.04934756196489869,0.0,0.056060857473395856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2193312062061596,0.06622861262782798,0.0,0.3378102087714016,0.0629314506520453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061140143066368786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06635211698091761,0.0,0.0773472424094751,0.0,0.0,0.1825951008747844,0.0,0.06265253645471144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06136685029425385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050094561621019516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0396075018806171,0.0,0.05052461029661922,0.05730084149317274,0.0,0.058659031263414874,0.11306271296160372,0.0,0.0909630385498739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051007724347398524,0.0,0.13150098884770348,0.32431137406445554,0.0,0.0626603496599065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.040194477976412235,0.0,0.0,0.05956055713887445,0.0,0.0,0.19258707973826586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06591236343703104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04235632003518119,0.058593493023071035,0.0,0.05295177774983758,0.05306872565029515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05098162383100013,0.10824474570062048,0.11348406084967505,0.040028300648749286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12082047226856472,0.060432424017508674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04786492285895195,0.0,0.0,0.04446461791891395,0.04625008837296438,0.0,0.0637753657337587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1365451848659861,0.0,0.12772535702376905,0.16254020628499805,0.04560744904874396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11449018052568535,0.0,0.10472138299782488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057431612304778036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20152959999652606,0.0,0.0,0.06825533998072557,0.0,0.0,0.059209974632929034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05704215335729752,0.04768800148439193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05459151706773075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06112859469261159,0.20323867984651206,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12733441633438988,0.0,0.047889559155406436,0.0501349249242514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3402480359963843,0.05651799367273867,0.12465691969501128,0.13526269839860675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1195178200248982,0.038424300245987794,0.05891707064278923,0.04760693608482264,0.0349671198250445,0.0,0.0,0.05730084149317274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14843665585684976,0.07073993758151978,0.09519769971481293,0.048101745010308034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06503143008726782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127796069791333,0.06556427550045907,0.0,0.07723329850250434
schizophrenia,lost-asfuck,2020/04/09,Advice What are some signs you have schizophrenia ?,5.2974999999999985,7.671593749999999,0.7199999999999989,97.025,111.5,1.6,16.5,3.1291,-1.0374500000000002,42,1,6,0,2,10,8,8,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,5,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,catsporvida,2020/04/09,"Can you recommend some good books or resources about schizophrenia? Hey,

I just found out that my dad has schizophrenia. He hid it from everyone for 20 years. He was on many meds and had been institutionalized in the past but he always told me it was for depression and alcoholism. I wasn't authorized to talk to his doctors. 

This is a bit of a shock. I don't really understand how he hid this from me or why. I want to better understand the disease. 

Can you recommend good books or websites to help me understand and so that I can help care for him? Thanks.",2.3461111111111137,4.975555092592593,3.3255555555555567,87.25000000000004,81.40740740740742,7.674074074074074,23.814814814814817,8.59863814320734,1.8273925925925931,442,16,89,11,12,141,70,108,0.08800000000000001,0.664,0.248,0.966,0,0,1,0,0,0,11.0,0,2,0,1,4,7,0,0,4,0,11,2,0,1,0,16,19,9,0,1,5,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,6,4,1,0,4,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,7,0,13,5,14,12,2,5,0,1,0,0,14,3,0,4,2,59,19,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19292725973959834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1502119902405904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15966046681077822,0.1970875005142521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18405816173404407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1554866722461782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847758833544084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17250021053432246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19793730485095212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3028330791541267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2420053783703828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18302490334195787,0.0,0.0,0.2005235512996716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1723323753207571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11564949862714585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450998607197513,0.0,0.1662039719634376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17250021053432246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.56380140969134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10647883877456586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16289652384999592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11625274520208873
schizophrenia,Larka_,2020/04/09,"Help making a crisis plan Hi guys, 
One of the things I was meant to do with my therapist was make a battle plan for my loved ones when I start showing signs.
With all the COVID-19 stuff going on I've been put at the back of the line for appointments. I was wondering if any of you had some tips ?",6.451881720430109,4.674740209677424,6.363548387096772,86.24865591397852,66.25806451612902,10.20215053763441,28.731182795698928,8.841846274778883,1.714660215053763,231,5,54,3,3,73,47,62,0.10300000000000001,0.7959999999999999,0.10099999999999999,-0.0258,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,1,0,2,2,2,1,0,6,0,6,1,0,2,1,10,13,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,1,0,2,6,0,6,1,10,7,2,7,0,0,0,1,5,2,0,3,3,37,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18840839714589447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21303988558813425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15745799192149074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27433018752568794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18570560148810306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25005494063210565,0.0,0.3698756656516291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3754822589295658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785190103768703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19610251263362807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3171642094026406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216847641496022,0.18406449321467802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30045671564822146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Flounly,2020/04/09,"Speaking in Tongues Speaking in tongues, for those unaware is the, ""term for a phenomenon which today is better known as ""automatic"" or ""unconscious"" talking. The person who ""speaks in tongues"" is unaware of what he says, he could talk in a foreign or made-up language, or fall back into speech patterns of his childhood. ""

Have you spoken in tongues? What was it like?

A couple of years ago, I was psychotic and unstable for an entire year, believing to have been on a rescue mission to save Robert Downey Jr. During my mission, I would make field reports in a made up language. My thoughts would process in English, but come out of my mouth as a foreign language. I have a couple of voice memos and a video of my field reports and looking back at it, it sounds like I'm saying schizophrenia mixed in with a bunch of different sounds. After two 1 month hospitalizations, I regained my senses with the help of Abilify.

Has anyone ever had this experience?",6.155038095238098,7.504111965714292,6.010642857142859,77.94377380952379,66.48571428571428,8.119047619047619,35.154761904761905,8.344100000000001,2.926704761904763,754,36,129,10,12,236,107,175,0.027000000000000003,0.883,0.09,0.8943,1,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,0,1,0,1,3,4,0,0,13,0,14,1,1,2,1,21,20,9,0,3,4,0,0,2,0,2,0,9,0,1,9,8,0,0,2,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,10,11,4,31,11,2,26,0,0,1,0,14,13,0,3,13,90,20,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1528246023452141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12054798506258275,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2651340880800324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1942388190967677,0.0,0.1524761889470524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485096711405893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13764953730334098,0.3815206442048508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18012414039588068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15594812359413265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1686429341997237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11555790401871223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1684545137482465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14477485767107293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3262632299644808,0.11508014924624245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376102002081915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15053539857229928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2742031132540886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27714153943338266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13686849606414395,0.0,0.0,0.16341761282129785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.168412398906627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24493988080621226,0.0,0.0,0.22204338866245385
schizophrenia,emacsismyreligion,2020/04/09,"I successfully tapered off all my meds (antipsychotics I was on for 6 years) over the course of 11 months. Any advice on living off meds? I can also give advice on the tapering process, but it's important to communicate with your doctor.",4.301590909090908,6.766075977272728,5.327272727272729,76.46090909090911,73.31818181818181,8.945454545454545,26.90909090909091,9.516144504307137,2.7739727272727275,189,7,33,5,4,62,36,44,0.0,0.8959999999999999,0.10400000000000001,0.5106,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,1,0,1,1,1,0,0,2,0,2,1,0,0,1,3,3,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,5,1,10,2,1,8,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,2,23,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5288625140027352,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21640205201682616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18402011078984387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2769748281199914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2595881716266121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23894843432528645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6011604452590672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2159936618234175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17426020937519426
schizophrenia,two__sleepyy,2020/04/09,are there any books out there about patients with schizophrenia? im just trying to dig deeper into this since its something that i have always been curious about and something that affects some people who are close to me. i want nothing more but to try to better understand what it is that they are living through and i have heard of books out there written by people who have suffered of schizophrenia and also about doctor talking about their patients but i haven't had any luck with finding any of these.,11.013936170212764,8.773976244680853,8.638829787234044,74.98250000000002,57.829787234042556,10.251063829787237,39.45744680851064,7.1686216300943375,3.100476595744681,413,15,70,2,4,120,60,94,0.077,0.8540000000000001,0.068,-0.4348,0,0,2,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,2,1,9,3,0,0,0,0,10,1,0,1,0,18,14,6,0,1,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,10,9,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,1,7,2,18,10,2,4,0,1,0,0,6,4,0,2,0,57,17,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17915346783792682,0.18640753316671566,0.0,0.0,0.4570359757590002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19813274369625625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22930004821604905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2047556557975735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24198646440126806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1978190143986696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149589369122956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3106227665023876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18531657730326664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3449322358345729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800635692016416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3041978233619869,0.0,0.0,0.2332189101729913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13213630708595586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,gurunumber1,2020/04/09,Voices and images maybe telepathy Does anyone else have the delusion of seeing a movie playing in their head and hear voices saying just a normal person? If you do can you list the state your in?,3.1806756756756767,5.950209162162165,3.32560810810811,87.69489864864866,79.0,3.7,17.35810810810811,3.1291,-0.5746162162162163,157,3,26,0,4,48,31,37,0.0,0.94,0.06,0.2869,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,3,1,1,0,0,5,5,3,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,4,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,4,1,3,5,0,3,0,0,1,0,7,2,0,1,0,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22897593505390046,0.33553361419010325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2865728270268194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27356071450781205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3360805987714853,0.0,0.3690845804145792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3289894934673726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3208528889549077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2859357925303287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604187627833433,0.0,0.0,0.26095267044037274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,PommeDeDerp,2020/04/09,"Problems with Abilify So I have an appointment with my psych on Monday, and in the last few months it really seems like Abilify isn't working for me anymore.  I'm having intrusive thoughts, a greater number of auditory hallucinations/voices/noises, and on top of it the side-effects of Abilify are becoming too much to bear.  (Restless legs at night, weight gain, sluggishness, sleepiness.)

Can anyone recommend something that has a higher level of activation?",8.77269230769231,10.269559089743595,8.799128205128207,59.7625384615385,60.66666666666667,12.393846153846154,41.24102564102565,11.979248473330829,5.897807179487178,371,20,51,12,5,121,66,78,0.034,0.7879999999999999,0.179,0.8617,0,0,1,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,3,2,3,0,1,5,0,6,2,1,0,0,7,9,3,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,1,3,1,12,8,3,10,0,0,0,0,0,6,0,1,5,36,6,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2984217469247187,0.21040318661670446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33233132435804885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2452817164586313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1470093692325011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24018339767134925,0.0,0.221203387055612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823835408934064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28793011915392985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19277057621427252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2739370559939961,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316551289719093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23888883505088404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3664271717599288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21906597855994533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Angelo_Maligno,2020/04/09,Was Thinking Of Making Schizophrenics The Chosen People Just as a sort of joke. Make schizophrenics the chosen people of the creator. I don't know it might catch on. What are your thoughts?,4.0150000000000015,7.177669029411764,2.6485294117647062,91.21338235294121,79.29411764705883,3.4000000000000004,23.20588235294117,3.1291,0.04914117647058802,153,5,25,0,4,43,27,34,0.0,0.94,0.06,0.228,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,4,0,4,2,0,2,0,8,9,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,3,1,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,2,1,5,6,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,0,18,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22119577696510045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5373250541107624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.42697403642087056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5580662225188865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25789677396020905,0.0,0.3195289219531757,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,sgt-revolver,2020/04/09,"Internal voices Hi everyone,

I have voices that are a lot like an internal monologue. Eg they are not external. However they are critical, judgemental, etc. 
I am not sure if it is just a normal internal monologue or a part of the schizophrenia or just a part of depression. 
Anyone have any ideas?
Are all ‘voices’ external or are some internal?

Thanks",3.2913095238095242,6.388090253968258,4.90029761904762,73.95616071428573,82.96825396825399,10.134126984126985,30.097222222222207,9.827888789773867,4.418684126984128,278,14,44,11,8,93,40,63,0.127,0.7909999999999999,0.08199999999999999,-0.4445,1,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,2,0,2,4,0,0,6,0,9,0,0,0,2,14,10,4,0,2,8,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,4,3,2,10,6,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,6,1,37,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1852706721840717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19049857246234947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2346548703146976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3038461091891414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26033108785106435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30755513405464385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13310195262583774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2316214081065346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2669364241353252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5900587249771193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25677442761005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25082903199008244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,yea_thats_autistic,2020/04/10,"My journey with mental illness (long) It all started in college, I could hear people talking about me when they were near it didnt occur to me that it would be voices. At home I could also hear my  neighbours talking about me commenting on what I was doing, I assumed they were looking through a window but they could see me with the blinds closed so I knew they had a camera in my room. This went on for about a year and I pushed away my friends and tried to get closer to them.

I would talk to them all the time, eventually I decided I wanted to meet them and knocked on the door but no one answered so I continued talking to them from my room but now I was determined to get then to answer next time. I also assumed that the camera was put there by the police and so I tried to impress the police watching to get them to show there boss by rhyming constantly, I stayed rhyming for 5 days straight with no sleep. My parents were very worried and took me to the hospital.

I was scared in the interview and walked out the hospital but the police took me back. I ended up getting sectioned which means locked up in hospital against my will. I was also put on risperidone which I refused to take. I could go on about what hospital was like but I made a [vlog](https://youtu.be/IKMA8rRoMn8) in there so you can watch that if your interested.

Tl dr : I heared voices and got locked up in hospital after talking to them with no sleep for 5 days",3.1532155477031805,5.2087669787985895,3.7103123674911664,88.62364522968201,75.32508833922262,6.648141342756183,26.514346289752652,7.554174236665415,1.3910962261484103,1137,43,227,15,25,357,137,283,0.071,0.855,0.073,0.3624,1,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,2,10,0,18,5,0,1,14,0,21,5,2,2,2,38,41,22,0,8,6,1,0,1,2,3,3,5,5,0,11,13,0,1,7,1,0,9,4,1,0,1,17,10,46,4,49,16,3,50,0,0,5,0,27,24,0,3,17,175,57,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2542011809562514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09955003342873912,0.08147434686361217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145018107185258,0.0,0.33839198057347764,0.0,0.0,0.1366669219643813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09384639954011087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08186206934323688,0.0,0.22143251266530575,0.0,0.06021777102838395,0.0,0.08474344461732251,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3582635177614535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10628345045808613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05176520900519918,0.0,0.0,0.09376855801532206,0.08897714402881728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10025901897210822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11541817047619772,0.0,0.0,0.10677967462105037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11268640820888218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07179916502655123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11765264319558695,0.0,0.0,0.07345720127527525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21303198128284226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10608138171406536,0.0,0.08443396323610478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21206692254223844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07499686779792375,0.1129360004851698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07966643270387401,0.4258208757241163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12356868810265725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2354441189715009,0.14387561471950475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08742557256812518,0.062496148718770926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0982231453212592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10760441628496067,0.0,0.15053754086508278,0.0,0.0,0.06823279570598174
schizophrenia,Dur-ps4,2020/04/10,"Feeling defeated My appeal for disability was denied today. Really hit me hard. My lawyer assured me this is normal and that the hearing is where they usually win their cases, but still it zapped me of my good mood. 

Just wanted to complain a bit, thanks.",4.687978723404253,6.9519785957446825,5.562712765957446,76.10875000000001,71.55319148936171,8.104255319148937,26.643617021276608,8.841846274778883,2.3721531914893608,202,7,33,4,4,66,42,47,0.146,0.631,0.223,0.6724,0,0,0,0,1,0,6.0,0,0,2,2,3,7,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,0,1,7,8,2,0,2,2,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,8,4,3,6,1,4,0,1,0,0,4,1,0,0,3,24,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35348337265544105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16371265147119327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2715708959008588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29004284901861777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3649230454320628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31723518018981256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20742144841234167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2585707392399662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2980926766287639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3069051220523594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35659739298561194,0.0,0.1909735470197752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,cumzone575,2020/04/10,"Help? Landlord came by yesterday and took pictures of my apartment??
My apartment is really messy and I find it difficult to wanna clean. Landlord asked why place is so dirty and I said I dunno...
Do I need help? Am I gonna lose my home?
My family doesn't want anything to do with me and I dont wanna be homeless?
Landlord sent me pictures of apartment which I didn't know they took and now I'm scared :( 
Mountain lake apartments Guntersville AL",1.1974137931034503,3.8403493448275854,2.292672413793106,91.53831896551728,90.0344827586207,4.739080459770115,24.49137931034483,6.42735559955562,0.944786206896552,351,15,67,4,12,111,58,87,0.21,0.7040000000000001,0.086,-0.8914,0,0,0,1,0,0,12.0,0,0,1,1,2,3,0,1,0,0,9,0,0,0,0,14,20,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,5,0,2,7,0,0,2,0,0,4,3,3,0,0,6,1,14,0,8,12,0,11,0,1,0,0,6,5,0,1,2,40,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18231927174579465,0.0,0.20712218194821014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533976516988962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596585090908887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088604853814861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20249546186523734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29700466086144184,0.0,0.22223576024274014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1217597549138445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2478611771092773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16427876950026024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2314757682978329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14193254856502344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21074767313351644,0.0,0.22181324007845124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.492307151760642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13067772134699954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19991715534325827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,amylee247,2020/04/10,Not diagnosed yet Hi there. I wanted to get your guys advice. I am convinced I have Schizophrenia. 2 of my family members have it/had it. I have every symptom some not as bad. I've been having hallucinations/hearing things on and off when I was growing up. I was so afraid of them. It has gotten so much stronger in recent years. I can't be in the dark at all. It's always worse and nighttime. I'm actually just really scared. Last year I was put into a ward at the hospital. The lady said I might have it but it was never followed up. Now I'm stuck I don't know how I tell professionals about it. I do suffer from other mental disorders and I can't work at all.,0.2742583120204607,2.5825235869565226,2.8816794543904543,88.86080562659845,88.4927536231884,5.565899403239556,18.98721227621484,7.048011613610866,0.4309662404092074,517,15,109,8,17,179,94,138,0.092,0.852,0.057,-0.7455,1,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,0,1,1,1,9,5,0,2,4,0,18,2,0,1,3,16,27,9,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,2,1,0,1,8,4,0,0,1,0,0,3,6,4,0,0,8,1,16,1,16,17,4,21,0,1,0,0,6,10,0,2,8,81,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.19849695857231492,0.0,0.0,0.19876803609970756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16925182957163618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16983726281155756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2064549345339053,0.0,0.0,0.2331232991127673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17138009280368513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1917550489379294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10627233418309713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014059936453157,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2292557061103613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11178776933094388,0.1658047457937542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2049875174824516,0.21578384428762884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14952835412687174,0.0,0.15688086243522506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20448131698525104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1303084341026033,0.0,0.20084095429775572,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934876781573084,0.0,0.20364698774225104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21141889408479095,0.0,0.0,0.1777876404459673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1351352998555886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11997536444589828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14808351560650368,0.0,0.20729022625964055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2619762881333811
schizophrenia,Mellallallaaa,2020/04/10,"What someone can do that is actually helpfull when you are in crisis ? Hi, my brother is going through a relapse since yesterday. Idk what to do he won't take his medication and is obviously in pain. If you have some advice so that I can help him through these hard times.",4.301603773584905,5.8184194905660425,5.3850471698113225,80.0541745283019,71.0754716981132,8.318867924528304,32.117924528301884,8.841846274778883,2.6566264150943404,215,10,42,4,4,71,44,53,0.175,0.774,0.051,-0.738,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,2,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,10,2,0,0,1,4,12,4,0,1,1,1,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,1,6,1,5,11,1,6,0,0,0,0,9,2,0,2,3,32,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.3463939135987279,0.0,0.0,0.3468669667189246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20173436914101325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3179782549186625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23792506118606035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35758914786623697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.37770699953439335,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29363010401283346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007600656378254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26688894771039673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20698251458213413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,InnerEnvironment2,2020/04/10,"Just something I can’t sleep and I can barely think straight. I don’t know anything about myself anymore— I feel like the medicine has taken away everything that was ever important to me. I have no sense of purpose and I’m incredibly forlorn. I haven’t left the house in weeks because of quarantine and feel like I’m being pushed to the edge by this idiotic society we live in. I miss my hallucinations— they were the only ones who understood me, and I understood them. I feel like my whole life is a lie and I can’t figure out what the truth is. I don’t know what to do and I just need someone to talk to, but I can’t even see my therapist because the state is on lockdown. I’m at the edge.",2.0536363636363646,3.9597834545454593,3.8006993006992995,87.40566433566435,78.0909090909091,7.197202797202798,25.685314685314694,8.139509932561175,1.5465776223776229,546,21,117,10,13,183,84,143,0.044000000000000004,0.88,0.076,0.27,0,3,1,0,0,0,10.0,1,0,2,0,6,6,1,0,8,0,16,2,1,0,2,23,31,7,0,1,3,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,8,0,0,9,0,0,1,7,2,0,1,5,4,22,4,15,25,1,12,0,1,1,0,5,8,0,0,5,80,27,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15557572182337215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1776228995680835,0.0,0.0,0.23049170256331236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12486869562230105,0.17101059333448573,0.0,0.0,0.16990996896961807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2867748642113268,0.4051816573304649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21814347754167632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20779878702203272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20540823679897344,0.0,0.13353476445183488,0.2770873962639051,0.0,0.16693856225605472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.140181495354442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12810820287380886,0.14378444494032006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15065193707601798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18919100469914155,0.0,0.1601852404686233,0.14554336877329338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15195482319326442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21950681315583,0.0,0.12113847185762988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1516480937045179,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21107256626325505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,tommyboy6733,2020/04/10,"How do I get a schizophrenic interested in a hobby? My brother was diagnosed about 4 years ago, has been hell about 95% percent of the time. I think he'a one of the lucky ones where most of the medicine doesn't work, and if it does, only for a short time. 

He's currently in one of those ruts, but this time it seems like the anti-psychotic is just not working anymore, the worst one to fail. As he is slowly descending into madness, I am trying to find ways to distract him. 

Is there any possible way to get him interested in anything? All he is capable of doing is playing video games for a few minutes, and watching select parts of movies he has seen a million times.

And this is a question for when the meds are actually working. When they are not (like now) all I can do is watch him pace around and cry, which is pretty terrible.. but just have to keep waiting for each meeting with his Dr. to try new meds.",6.147734806629836,5.694119270718232,6.463475138121549,80.96073756906078,66.23756906077348,9.670939226519335,33.017127071823204,9.120678840339163,2.6243586740331497,712,27,146,11,10,230,117,181,0.12300000000000001,0.775,0.10300000000000001,-0.7851,1,0,0,0,0,0,24.0,0,0,1,4,11,12,2,1,12,0,21,3,0,1,2,26,28,11,0,1,7,1,0,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,6,8,0,2,4,3,0,0,3,6,0,5,3,3,10,6,25,25,8,20,1,1,3,0,13,7,1,5,13,103,16,4,0.0,0.0,0.14375181857464794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13058007180309905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10017481196825356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14609042065230773,0.0,0.0,0.12122232045916527,0.13113577074708588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618114387495187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14951499764237752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1289106360080826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13463727413292878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15392519273717128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13093453778727598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14393495656618027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3272530067942023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14227143960611466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3992801303495828,0.11203473046641003,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15952071941014995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1660681679882265,0.0,0.14986567375553825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16501920108476986,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341040998346317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09438932041164473,0.0,0.0,0.3435870171645492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20002556498423935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23385321588963184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.321726964823095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09486182587752257
schizophrenia,IceBergtheThird,2020/04/10,"Symptom I'm Having  Hi all, I have been having a weird symptom for 6 weeks. Around bed time, I start to shout into my pillow I keep my family up and I feel terrible the next day.. I think my risperdal 8 mg might be the culprit. My genesight results I just found said that there was significant gene/drug interaction. Anyone have thoughts or ideas what could cause this",1.4243661971830974,4.131081084507045,2.469140845070424,90.00596478873241,90.26760563380282,5.656901408450705,21.18450704225352,7.1686216300943375,0.8763453521126765,291,10,57,5,10,92,58,71,0.075,0.8959999999999999,0.027999999999999997,-0.4588,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,3,0,9,2,0,2,1,16,17,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,1,2,2,2,0,3,3,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,5,3,10,0,5,9,1,8,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,2,5,35,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1597677881279517,0.0,0.0,0.20340742951039975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2347255017596835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18243326174530075,0.0,0.0,0.1473592388590235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26497961989373336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21540309397400326,0.0,0.11553304903490995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25053104703100204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2579410588760068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2030952928687001,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2423952221680765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24300515596225775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21734939836927786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16172869333214568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.474983935626825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14640924386066356,0.0,0.18139811187399899,0.13323624739541107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18328349690826226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Whitabitosis,2020/04/10,"If pills don't help in 2 weeks should I stop taking them? I started taking Invega 2 weeks ago and it hasn't done jack all yet.If anything i'm doing worse now because I have side-effects (feel high asf, tired and very grogy upon waking) ontop of hallucinating all the time. I was wondering on if it'll start working soon or should I just stop taking it and wait for my appointment with my psych? It's in a month. It's expensive too, 75$ for 2 weeks, seems silly to spend 75 dollars on something that doesn't help and makes me feel high as shit.

I found this journal article that says  ""Although it may well take 4–6 weeks to get a certain degree of response, it is an open question whether one has to wait that long to predict whether a patient will respond to a drug. If the greatest rate of improvement is in the first week or two of treatment, it raises the possibility that early response to treatment may predict the effectiveness of a drug for a given individual. "" "" More anti- “psychotic” improvement is seen within the first 2 weeks than in any other 2-week period thereafter, and more improvement is seen in the first month than in the rest of the year of follow-up. ""

 [https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC1413955/](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC1413955/)",11.044000000000004,8.81150720851064,9.693297872340427,67.42250000000003,57.76595744680851,12.63404255319149,40.52127659574468,11.00357731598739,4.349476595744681,1034,40,178,19,10,321,138,235,0.095,0.8240000000000001,0.08199999999999999,-0.4532,0,0,3,0,0,0,52.0,0,0,1,5,5,4,1,0,16,0,18,6,2,2,3,34,37,14,0,5,8,0,2,0,0,6,4,1,0,0,14,7,0,4,7,0,3,0,3,1,1,5,6,5,10,3,30,25,6,36,0,0,2,0,6,13,1,10,23,116,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09530956642845913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07311696006832852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08847940305804436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06554290095400486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11002979813775082,0.0,0.0,0.24937701420493066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1087301990314277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2743681443563913,0.0,0.11788960316888107,0.0,0.0,0.056174511085881576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14413613463264302,0.2272005505659779,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09515139106424708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07177011397946045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17164210888440004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0728580088478214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12121210281147005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12044646851991432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0855038371981057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09788173214355823,0.0,0.0,0.11036724137826304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08277377882095233,0.0,0.0,0.15220573820209174,0.0,0.0,0.17978226493997532,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3233651899248011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06269549630394587,0.12357787057861445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050309470768925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08871486370821759,0.0,0.0,0.6037197098638343,0.0,0.09667296035038364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1166003321141828,0.07827549054057513,0.0,0.10957157573065854,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06923904520922529
schizophrenia,alisstar,2020/04/11,"How to help someone with hallucinations? I’m calling my friend over discord and she’s panicking because she’s seeing hallucinations, she seems like she’s gonna have a panic attack how do I help?",5.104234234234237,7.22661005405406,6.44162162162162,70.84639639639641,70.08108108108108,8.176576576576577,31.25225225225225,8.841846274778883,2.8236198198198204,160,7,27,3,3,54,28,37,0.272,0.484,0.244,-0.3094,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,2,4,1,1,1,0,2,0,0,2,0,5,6,3,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,2,3,5,0,1,0,0,1,0,8,1,0,1,1,15,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3813508580093539,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2043414890344119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3422878675416177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25898315507176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4493696791841356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16376714220238736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3932978346572141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2671197340787229,0.3051634670476088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28402315740370515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,honeygirlgoddess,2020/04/11,"any luck with atypical vs typical antipsychotics? i have been taking meds since age 11 and i'm about to be 22. i have taken almost every atypical (2nd generation) med, but it was a) when i was young b) wasn't monitored well and mixed with lots of different types of meds (ie; antidepressants, mood stabilizers, etc.) 

now that i'm getting older, i wanna retry some and find the med best for me. the worry with atypicals for
me is that i gained 80+ lbs. on abilify in 3 months and another 60+ lbs. on risperdal when i was a teen. i am super nervous as i am still morbidly obese from this and never lost the weight. however i eat better now and control my intake and move more so i feel it could work.

has anybody had a good experience with atypicals and if so which ones? i'm looking for minimum weight gain, tiredness, and uncontrollable movements.",2.8221951219512214,5.1905635975609785,4.452621951219513,81.39588414634147,77.65853658536584,8.490243902439023,26.103658536585364,9.188382445141503,2.466604878048781,666,26,128,18,16,223,113,164,0.068,0.753,0.179,0.9708,2,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,0,0,0,8,9,10,0,2,6,0,14,4,0,1,1,26,23,16,0,3,3,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,6,13,4,1,2,0,0,2,2,3,1,1,8,4,13,6,17,13,5,15,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,5,10,82,19,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1432990610878396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0973163582553606,0.1500581486575834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1501799472896912,0.1265648094921292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16050451003987862,0.11425775779014752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14951434497129645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14643221790587282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15959998669929834,0.0,0.0,0.12057219772561935,0.0,0.0,0.13998422302247826,0.0,0.0,0.07235822572649916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13079544594700696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0747664952227868,0.0,0.0,0.12002974730269772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12017222103283486,0.0,0.15621609410719792,0.12166281724563467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6358299102057955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11422510553153625,0.1520980472469332,0.0,0.0,0.1103714559576835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09697170238178512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11837799681448892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11428389771993508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10759720672408576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3485268571408256,0.1286686486182203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10418219894456887,0.14533015010818334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Throwawayyyyy718384,2020/04/11,"real life is really not helping me fucking accept my delusions aren't real I came back to my parents not so long ago since college is closed. I went  into the kitchen to make me some food.


I turn on the stove and guess what my mom walks in and is fucking shocked cos apparently for a couple of months now the stove wasnt working and keeps asking how I fixed it......



how tf am I supposed to stop believing I'm ""special"" and have ""superpowers"" when shit like this happens......",4.957419354838709,5.556846408602157,5.5539247311827955,82.85088709677422,68.78494623655914,7.920430107526883,31.62903225806452,7.793537801064563,2.074019354838709,368,15,73,4,6,119,71,93,0.11199999999999999,0.83,0.057,-0.6329,3,0,0,0,0,0,18.0,0,0,0,1,6,7,3,0,4,0,7,6,1,4,0,20,18,8,0,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,1,0,3,0,3,7,2,2,1,0,0,3,4,4,0,0,3,0,10,3,8,15,1,14,0,0,0,2,4,4,3,2,8,45,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1618989703025521,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17074335537837845,0.0,0.0,0.14043856549778758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20577226651972494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20889102697310152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20208722449807184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208485084786392,0.0,0.0,0.3376947025508603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20119809141313225,0.0,0.1615075798857678,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224194624677624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16233845296673732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12900373861957615,0.08922847467010696,0.0,0.0,0.16163028343770958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12191333973272488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21390527197575007,0.1457811725006719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20279964275222329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4157676602193122,0.11700359348983858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1874769071338318,0.15108135023024746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15269486927259535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1986594198003681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.169308723035117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13296379149892176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,iWalkSlowToo,2020/04/11,"Just advice I am diagnosed with schizophrenia, so I know about the laziness and lack of motivation.

So normally i am really productive, i wake up 4:30 in the morning and am  productive with work, study, working out and generally being really active.

But for the last 3 days i ran out probiotics and i supposed to get a new delivery 2 days ago but the delivery got cancelled for some reason. I can't remember when the last time i was so lazy, seriously i ran out meds to and i am too lazy to get out and buy some, i had to send my brother to buy it for me. All want to do is stay at home and eat chips.

You should seriously consider supplementing with probiotics, if you have any kind of laziness issues.",4.344130434782613,5.617201818840581,6.038376811594201,76.3497391304348,70.66666666666666,10.447536231884056,30.46666666666667,10.577609850970193,3.418591884057972,553,23,108,17,10,190,85,138,0.13,0.8320000000000001,0.038,-0.9282,0,0,0,0,0,0,14.0,0,2,0,3,7,3,0,0,6,0,12,3,1,2,1,30,19,14,0,5,4,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,0,1,14,1,0,4,0,2,3,1,2,0,0,5,0,15,1,22,12,4,19,0,0,0,0,4,7,0,3,8,76,16,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19595626773843106,0.177758355836455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636774452501238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2586514089095065,0.0,0.0,0.20353442747279687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2051929566581274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2095380160613424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16038271024957915,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2011486306241123,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20930193906248504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2088218533565012,0.11020642195160593,0.326918550855584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2227443882784457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.193673788332748,0.0,0.0,0.1964774978240508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25693018759592195,0.2061789458973178,0.0,0.0,0.2271621787069807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137390322561519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1169310569648358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11827819552225717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29197745876283643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,maryeuh,2020/04/11,"Do schizophrenics have conversations with themselves? I'll explain, I'm a new nurse and went into psych. An incident happened with one of my patients and things got out of hand. I let the individual calm down by letting her stand at my window and just talk to herself, like she usually does. Lately she has been having these violent outbursts and its something I've NEVER seen before, usually to the point of IM injections. She usually has this soft sweet voice but twice now this other deep loud voice appears during these outbursts and they say violent things. Then at a flip she will be talking in her soft voice. Well while she was standing at my window the deep voice came out but this time it was quieter and more menacing and it was an whole coversation? I have never heard her actually talk back and forth with herself. The conversation went like this

Deep voice: well what are you going to do? You were just sitting there and they took your stuff?

Soft voice: well I can't do anything. I'm asking the nurse for help

Deep voice: well if it was me I would start slicing these mother fuckers up!

Soft voice: oh no. I can't do that

Deep voice: I would tear this whole place down to get my stuff back!

I was pretending to do other stuff but I was glancing at her and listening the whole time. 

I was wondering if this is normal her diagnoses being schizophrenic unspecified or maybe her diagnoses could be wrong? 

Thank you for any help! I'm still new to this all.",4.35306685366994,6.3753914408602155,4.451263830450369,84.75486676016834,71.86738351254479,7.719557425588281,26.467352345332714,8.456263369488248,1.7861477637525325,1168,40,223,20,23,362,148,279,0.067,0.815,0.11800000000000001,0.8759999999999999,0,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,0,4,2,0,11,13,3,0,10,0,32,6,1,0,3,35,52,18,0,6,8,1,5,2,0,3,4,13,2,0,23,17,0,0,2,1,0,6,5,4,4,2,16,21,33,9,26,27,5,44,0,0,2,1,32,18,1,5,19,163,56,1,0.0,0.0,0.096210004297268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06704484983568346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08113149515562328,0.0,0.09216871118695072,0.0,0.0,0.15161985723181326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08389316515357455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11276114781721926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0787164085353591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2001343525015559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08627711960291315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05150941254705207,0.0,0.0560311938518853,0.0,0.07885174578766092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08718316125395613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13216612798604713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10649454547494548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11121426056361937,0.0,0.0,0.20163071846636005,0.0,0.09633257462108732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09904730385805187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15207798202664505,0.19043843690610246,0.0,0.0,0.09659765499229307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06680740361694787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10300597953508983,0.0,0.0931997911004326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07840303973202058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07589970324527592,0.0,0.0,0.06978278946739773,0.0,0.07873441730283398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3385872463452991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23772967640364515,0.0,0.09076879025675988,0.0,0.0,0.13099815607584953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11497770506715732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1095375571536872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3257501761138043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3545784235999691,0.1827885689639108,0.0,0.3302179675575759,0.0,0.0,0.10691707847373197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14007157671481685,0.10779312063949836,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,DrFenekkuni,2020/04/11,"One of my clsoest friends just told me that she wouldn't come over due to my illness, only if someone else would be here aswell. The title basically says it all. I have never hurt anyone intentionally, why should I hurt one of my closest friends? She is now coming over but I am unsure about weither I still want her to come over. I assured her that my parents are at home and she refused to go for a walk with me because she's ""scared of the voices"" although she romantizes schizophrenia all the time and tells me how great it would be to have it and that I'd be ""gifted"". She' s agreat friend and I can relate to her more because she's depressed, but this was so unexpected. I don't know what to think of this, just wanted to tell someone.",3.740176937156804,4.9818349395973165,4.264539353264187,88.61388041488712,72.08724832214766,6.492007321537522,26.968273337400852,6.574015621080383,0.9727530201342276,582,20,122,4,11,184,92,149,0.099,0.7609999999999999,0.14,0.6889,1,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,0,8,9,0,1,4,0,15,1,0,2,4,28,24,10,0,7,5,1,0,0,3,4,1,2,1,0,9,8,0,1,2,0,0,5,3,4,0,2,2,2,24,5,18,15,3,15,0,3,0,0,19,5,0,1,5,91,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10889918873527343,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18987908247428914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40247664110245546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1341412939726982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1301033659835469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36098017167508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08851238633517622,0.0,0.0,0.17170730496975112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15622301635089506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33345239493857043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0855923284443953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12011867116198767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21107109495559576,0.1184496369097868,0.0,0.0,0.17293426890500274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238531551006614,0.1559260012599745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2639212270797543,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12437663171349575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27225264812924416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997938825253203,0.0,0.0,0.09081504739786793,0.0,0.0,0.1488191953520031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18372261760565975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14053391314656574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2212708432651392,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,DeadTheRapper,2020/04/11,"Serious Question Has anyone else mentally fought off their schizophrenia by rationalizing their delusions away? I convinced my self every second of everyday deeper and deeper into my episode for 3 months when I first got schizophrenia bc I truly believed in what I was perceiving I knew it wasn’t real or not reality but I was stacking up evidence that proved otherwise like a court case against life till I just felt like the universe didn’t care and made my life worse if I continue it so I spent 9 months without pills mentally fighting back till I had grip on reality ever since and if I start slipping away and hearing voices reminding me of delusions I rationalize them away very easily

Basically what I’m wondering is has anyone else or does anyone know if mentally battling schizophrenia has worked for people and made it easier to cope in the long run? I feel like if I took pills it would’ve been a worse outcome like id need to rely or I’d never truly get rid of the delusions",7.345668449197862,7.770425812834227,7.572620320855616,71.04951871657755,63.598930481283425,10.650267379679144,35.716577540106954,10.436869588844218,3.8793251336898393,805,35,136,18,11,262,119,187,0.07,0.75,0.18,0.97,0,0,0,0,2,0,2.0,0,0,3,2,5,10,3,0,5,0,10,4,0,2,3,31,27,17,0,5,11,0,3,4,0,0,4,2,0,1,7,6,0,0,8,0,1,2,5,4,0,2,14,5,21,6,21,13,0,24,0,0,0,0,8,9,0,9,17,86,28,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2563625361832233,0.2504433440083257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34446943988754186,0.09397426152683266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1376922123944536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12460430955505256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10694942930792813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20418657694256173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11054866507267153,0.1029697325816585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061794570337816476,0.08730899931679413,0.11734365590314826,0.0,0.0,0.10395432453245512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06385125397380376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09774490908757012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13774294531421558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06716507457545212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1726453275566418,0.2388284153876833,0.0,0.0,0.10815466871648367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312818115640887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3694859101621204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1950985184405386,0.0,0.0,0.09061939893403896,0.09425820810261414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08472711361807721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13690654182917694,0.0,0.0,0.13910516209475404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12749482390532593,0.0,0.0,0.10109586542727783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08650299805328095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13578315177058656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10083853307106874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11780898120539725,0.13253479692720874,0.08897252739394981,0.0,0.24909099785815625,0.08681661639180126,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,eaglesong3,2020/04/11,"Strange, that When I was little, someone said to me ""There's no reason to be afraid of the dark. There's nothing in the dark that isn't there in the light."" At the time, that comment was comforting, now it's terrifying knowing that the things that are there in the dark are also in the light.",6.6845197740112985,5.516552593220341,6.280000000000001,85.06655367231639,65.4406779661017,9.222598870056501,31.53107344632768,7.793537801064563,1.8368259887005656,229,7,50,2,3,71,35,59,0.127,0.828,0.045,-0.6124,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,1,7,0,6,0,0,1,0,2,8,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,7,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,3,3,2,1,8,4,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,0,3,38,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3179015015564608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2184699641664997,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3984256148903878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3814370418953877,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40872306826051824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3781383810293576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3368225988871794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2640986960718197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23180068250719904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,RL251,2020/04/11,"What kind of schizophrenia do I have? I don’t just hear voices, but we have normal conversations all the time. They respond to me and I respond to them. They also can see through my eyes and talk about the things that I am doing or how I am feeling. 

I wonder what kind of schizophrenia do I have?",1.0677142857142847,3.4827705333333365,2.109523809523811,95.20500000000004,85.33333333333334,4.095238095238095,20.238095238095237,5.288315135182226,-0.27669047619047626,232,7,49,1,7,73,40,60,0.0,0.96,0.04,0.2755,0,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,1,0,3,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,10,1,1,1,1,11,14,6,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,4,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,13,2,6,14,1,1,0,0,2,0,9,0,0,2,1,43,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24445781179932494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15456454998595784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3445315055973965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6366520140438108,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29950839122766565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2435929898114255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24569965986720926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20308488328830895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1782485686348225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3315045501982882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,BollNormandy,2020/04/11,Please don't tell me life is as boring as it looks. Tell me I'm mentally training for something important someday.,3.9804545454545455,6.365177045454548,4.790909090909089,80.30636363636366,74.0,8.036363636363637,33.72727272727273,8.841846274778883,3.292836363636363,93,5,16,2,2,30,19,22,0.098,0.726,0.175,0.2023,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,0,3,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26558449962861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31575074708143497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3789260984123021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41274220703185066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28946816155773164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6572924807081173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,gloriamaxii,2020/04/11,"I am having a weed-induced schizophrenic paranoia right now everything I see sense experience are all delusions  

i need to learn to draw them to communicate with others

my memory seems like a dream far away - I'm not associated with it 

i don't know but does high-functioning schizophrenia a thing - cause if not i wanna ask my cognitive science professor Vervaeke if this is one of my core cognitive functions not optimizing one modality - what does failure look like from the when a system in the path towards wisdom, as in positive psychology.. what does the combination of positive and pathological psychology look like? does it have a name? or did i just create a field of psychology?",5.580700447093888,8.328188426229513,6.628897168405363,67.29084202682566,70.47540983606558,10.66587183308495,33.2220566318927,10.637119530657019,4.504645901639344,556,27,88,19,11,185,85,122,0.07,0.722,0.20800000000000002,0.9594,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,1,0,3,4,0,0,9,0,7,2,0,1,1,19,15,7,0,4,8,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,7,3,0,0,3,1,0,0,4,0,0,2,1,3,10,4,15,14,1,9,0,0,3,0,3,6,0,4,5,62,17,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17592775683242745,0.0,0.176806188034935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1933180361652472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6587285390989625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1691287215539311,0.18408123338165366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1988279935869263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1034216632567872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.275813346168061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3160563410404436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13953693970160466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25503832063547976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16070913071650186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1499592382472052,0.1713167363585686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12502188351566818,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,confusinggarbage,2020/04/11,"A false childhood memory I do not have schizophrenia but have been diagnosed schizotypal. I've had a lot of doubts surrounding the accuracy of my diagnosis for a great many reasons, but I just realized that I have several false memories from my childhood and I don't really know how to process this. I figured this sub was the most likely to understand.

As I was about to enter the second grade, I was supposed to be in this one specific teacher's class. I'd seen her before around the school and liked her so I was excited to have her for the upcoming school year. One afternoon, I was in the car with my parents when my mother told me this teacher had died while on a trip to Mongolia and she was going to be replaced by a different teacher. I was really, really upset about that. I thought about it frequently when a stranger of a woman was teaching the class instead. All this time, I figured it must have been some kind of mission trip or something.

I recently brought up this memory to my mother, though, and she was super confused. The teacher I ended up with for the second grade was the only teacher I'd ever been assigned. The teacher I'd thought I was supposed to have never existed, yet I can recall another specific memory of her dropping into my first grade class to speak with my teacher before. My mother didn't recognize the name at all. I know what you're probably thinking, but I'm certain it wasn't a dream. I just... have no idea where this came from.

What the hell happened here?",6.017762452107277,6.5715099793103455,6.72505747126437,75.54291187739466,66.44827586206897,10.306513409961687,34.731800766283534,10.25414643259724,3.666570881226054,1194,54,216,28,18,394,144,290,0.091,0.8370000000000001,0.07200000000000001,-0.6541,2,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,0,0,0,2,16,11,1,3,21,0,31,1,0,2,6,41,44,15,1,1,7,4,0,2,0,1,1,1,0,1,14,10,0,0,11,1,0,7,6,4,0,5,24,2,33,7,36,17,5,33,1,0,1,0,14,10,1,6,17,169,47,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15815293640703748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13426603424008698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2566815643858317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1725033724182512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15308398065982384,0.15653231336020773,0.1575797975899546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13358599122649656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13642965177508568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12829148400076978,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08571720035821602,0.0,0.0,0.16628485653213246,0.0,0.0,0.13337385815520267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1702628223872202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15706080272266346,0.16577871346981704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14737074176299567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1282258375908431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15291265782695945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11632537127363468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20440555367725555,0.1147090444596804,0.0,0.0,0.16747307343402468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626146265279652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28986665566037384,0.15507299751746587,0.14892127830623,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.305285466592528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17038907505886586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1161122871556582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09664243138304857,0.14818458424576073,0.2394760619962137,0.0879471442998513,0.0,0.0,0.14411954431813306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15701391899551653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09712621574408714
schizophrenia,swolebodyyy,2020/04/11,"One night I was feeling very hyperactive and couldn’t go to sleep.  So I put some earbuds in to kill some time and when I took them off I started hearing phones going off and music playing on other rooms. The scariest of them all I could hear my parents talking abt me and plotting against me. I’ve never heard things before but I’ve had hallucinations of shadows in the corner of my eye. Haven’t heard anything since..
I just got on anti depressants so maybe bad reaction.",3.67195652173913,5.784907282608696,4.414565217391306,83.8951086956522,74.0,6.339130434782609,28.89130434782609,7.1686216300943375,1.6567130434782609,378,16,70,4,8,121,66,92,0.154,0.8170000000000001,0.027999999999999997,-0.9289,1,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,2,0,4,4,1,0,2,0,5,2,2,0,2,13,15,8,1,2,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,0,4,3,3,0,1,6,6,12,1,12,7,3,17,0,1,1,0,9,8,0,2,5,47,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727691025168567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1752975945982965,0.0,0.0,0.1786500646028944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1676261879547233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1808276820823446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10615588630732208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23863627944165364,0.0,0.16791438793886548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4732527263309792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2322760695826581,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21092072519366056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1619246410837101,0.0,0.0,0.1970217331126528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14226602310534994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2331221212541843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110554681252612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736709412780044,0.0,0.21009936321068465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14860209200236138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16874804190857967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13947995049995682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1224222164018864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.233259665744244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17322887421289512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,aydenclimbs,2020/04/12,"Caffeine and Bad Thoughts Just A few days ago I happened to have a few cups of coffee later in the day. At night I usually have intrusive thoughts of death and suicide, but that night it was all gone. Since then I've been having that late day/early night dose of caffeine and have been free from those thoughts. I greatly appreciate it but my two questions are, has anyone else had an experience similar to this?  And how should I tell my doc? He is not fond of stimulants so i'm not sure how to tell him this without him getting angry at me.",2.144646464646464,4.487308481481488,3.0983501683501693,90.33621212121214,79.92592592592592,6.149494949494951,25.558922558922557,7.348242739294969,1.218729629629629,428,17,88,6,11,136,74,108,0.11800000000000001,0.779,0.10300000000000001,0.2394,0,0,0,0,0,1,9.0,0,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,4,0,12,1,0,3,2,20,19,10,2,1,6,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,7,4,0,0,4,0,1,1,3,1,0,1,8,0,9,5,12,10,3,14,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,1,10,61,16,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14828247728337698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11696515863474173,0.17139679941385674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13967072985675805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3236427746431014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1397398917100502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16363066990342925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0873962181986154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18442536071919885,0.0,0.0,0.14792400470954098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1886976632501318,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4709391932823764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18739043100750286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13837467181905508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18297575076494985,0.0,0.15765819801453065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29241791924250565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39840181515925216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16340698638757484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1842338585132292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16125070043898654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,sepaug-oct,2020/04/12,"My psychiatrist mentioned I might have schizophrenia I’m a student (19m) who immigrated to U.S About three years ago from my home country. For the first year, I lived in a major city and was attending a community college where I couldn’t make many friends. Being a very outgoing person, I found it hard and a bit depressing, but gradually got into lifting and wasn’t necessarily depressed after, just kinda waiting for the time being. 

Then I moved to a four year program in a college town where I met many people and I was having a blast. Did really well in my courses and was getting a great grip on life responsibilities, which lifted my confidence a good bit as I thought I’m “growing up!”. This was around the my marijuana use picked up gradually until it was basically 4-5 times a week for a moderate amount. 

I was able to rap freestyle in my second language with a roommate which was fun! Having a musical background made me interested in jamming on the public piano on campus and I was surprisingly able to play a good amount of piano in a short amount of time, and would  “smoke weed and jam” couple times a week.  This is also around the time when I was overly confident and creative (also euphoric about the external validation I was receiving), was thinking about lots of theories about the physics of our surrounding world and coming up  with explanations. (Sometimes while I was high)

Examples of my ideation where “everything is energy” based on a theory by a famous theorist, which I was applying to my dating and social life with great success, or that I’m going to be be a top artist, or that a lot of things that happened to me “were destined to be” or “connected”(with some influence from my religious background). Lots of internal dialogue about my personal values was also there.

That euphoria state kept going until I had a couple of exams and didn’t feel like studying much. And then a meeting where I was just shut and people pointed it out. I had a period of blues after that throughout my winter term break, but nothing remarkable. In the beginning of the following term, I neglected my appearances and body composition (which I always was really sensitive about) and I had a really tough time getting myself to study, and only the anxiety made me push through. This happened at the time when  I was being hit with the reality that I am now a grown up and need to create value and gather real worth than just external validation. More an more anxiousness about all this newly found reality and demotivation, and depression, was followed by a couple sleepless night. 

Next thing was that I noticed I’m neglecting my social life and hobbies and relating it to the depression, so I desperately wanted to make more friends, which you probably know the outcome for. More and more of depression, anxiety, lack of motivation, and next, I barely get out of bed and couldn’t function at all. (I was researching a lot about symptoms of depression, bipolar and identifying with a lot of them which spiraled me further into depression). 

Fast forward to now, I don’t think I’m depressed, but have a huge difficulty getting motivated to do anything, and that I recently was told by the psychiatrist that I might be schizophrenic, is freaking me the fuck out. (I am a hypochondriac and have probably been on every single post about all these diagnosis on internet). I have a ruined social life, very awkward socializing (and too silent which has never happened before), lack of self worth, and am very hopeless. I basically can’t do anything that helps me out of this rut if it’s even a possibility. 

I want to know what your opinion is on my case, and if this is depression and anxiety that is effecting whole my life, or negative symptoms of schizophrenia.",9.926907751091703,8.565715429403202,9.907412208879183,62.269546260917046,59.18922852983988,13.478329694323143,41.70164665211063,12.38480682065935,5.353366848617176,3008,139,494,84,32,997,315,687,0.13,0.72,0.151,0.9347,1,0,1,0,0,1,75.0,1,2,1,6,31,30,1,1,50,0,61,11,1,10,4,105,103,54,0,10,12,0,3,1,2,3,9,0,2,3,34,47,0,4,11,3,2,13,8,17,1,4,38,4,59,13,92,52,27,96,0,13,1,1,22,44,1,17,39,385,93,10,0.12032137414292593,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05332881920070577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14433143914677407,0.05005851101561616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13806828282788228,0.06796445233199246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09901423887413448,0.1071115325998859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051192313653839465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13135977760138848,0.06682496108032146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05182310492078161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19969996791005332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4663468045829946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03973556642174839,0.0,0.05068797356686475,0.0,0.05406854635633497,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.030419051009723,0.0429788068645268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051172649689885163,0.0,0.13192617632470852,0.0929599951927511,0.05561758578117115,0.125725903816199,0.0,0.06838140973258003,0.10091986002215578,0.04811599723440353,0.13265473976434114,0.0,0.0,0.15959969068072358,0.0,0.05389215885282499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04032444041114433,0.06356306894192285,0.06034607433527419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06612548055317445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2124663622073091,0.029391472869434786,0.0,0.05312298887898323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557323239081461,0.0,0.11385099346315405,0.08031545155118529,0.12198698819449807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12764196373655598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06394128948340602,0.04422502717489887,0.04460838717019183,0.04639963065822685,0.0,0.12796314641723025,0.056456729419859165,0.0,0.0577258017877716,0.06849334097320971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04575491346223312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08341569095683615,0.1050599828898522,0.0,0.0,0.056871294935072224,0.06782213536373917,0.05761730826455884,0.0,0.12972679180665084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06847603273788906,0.11562142992123993,0.0,0.05940142064370287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06276071717385777,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453049770215459,0.0,0.0,0.059500457818462076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250599779658333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07993617455764533,0.07709707818663683,0.0,0.047760865520785185,0.24556126301559866,0.0,0.0,0.05748611462638821,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05195951765867702,0.0,0.14891660211240176,0.07096866388880718,0.0,0.09651454866404813,0.0,0.05409168268530918,0.0,0.0,0.0671672586532934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04273642600113063,0.0,0.0,0.11622453008525235
schizophrenia,Silvreneth,2020/04/12,"just discovered this place ever since i was eight years old i have gotten strange voices talking to me and urging me to do(usually illegal) things and i just kinda go crazy, running and jumping over shit. I usually hallucinate during these sessions. sometimes ill just go and run on a trail or bike, but sometimes its just the middle of the night and ill just get out of the house and run till i blackout or the voices pass.",5.1952916666666695,6.8960186125000025,5.245000000000001,81.20666666666669,69.125,7.833333333333335,29.583333333333336,8.344100000000001,2.218833333333333,339,13,60,5,6,106,55,80,0.136,0.8640000000000001,0.0,-0.8343,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,6,1,1,0,5,0,2,3,1,0,1,17,6,10,0,0,8,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,7,0,0,0,1,0,7,0,1,0,1,2,2,7,0,8,4,0,18,0,0,0,0,1,5,1,3,6,42,11,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23236888250416074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1342127878489413,0.0,0.29198945829547684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29641295965089665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2410709270970893,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2695595588267197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.268392105343601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2636906822371368,0.21249947486643012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5081353693844097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20647593677119716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17066422291217442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2829245964743546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16542672300826794
schizophrenia,OliverDsnutz,2020/04/12,"Exhaustion= Acute Psychosis? i recently experienced a major hallucinatory episode brought on by exhaustion and sleep deprivation. no drugs or alcohol were found in my system when i was involuntarily committed (i had NO clue that what i was seeing and hearing wasn't actually happening).... so my question is this:

has anybody else experienced acute psychosis from just being tired?",7.743825136612019,11.362963737704925,8.493032786885248,52.279767759562866,67.36065573770493,11.935519125683062,41.314207650273225,11.20814326018867,6.52699781420765,312,19,40,12,6,104,50,61,0.20800000000000002,0.76,0.032,-0.8908,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,1,0,8,6,1,0,1,7,13,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,5,1,0,0,3,2,1,0,2,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,7,4,6,0,4,5,1,6,0,1,1,0,2,2,0,2,2,30,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.2751469351763605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3013236297473663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269777239116593,0.0,0.2355368184946838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3091485736157901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2493314473190771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3177832313484937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3158535862288805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2783960692918667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2246812444681705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28215814016740803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3240652389433094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SimBroen,2020/04/12,"Do you think psychiatry does you any good? I am not schizophrenic, but I suffer from PTSD and depression. I have a brother who was diagnosed with schizophrenia. I'm giving up hope in psychiatry, and it feels so humiliating being in front of my doctors, who have worked so hard to study medicine, while I will never be good for anything.",6.679354838709678,7.70646935483871,6.822741935483871,73.75411290322583,65.12903225806451,10.070967741935485,33.24193548387097,10.125756701596842,3.3586967741935485,268,11,48,6,4,86,50,62,0.147,0.634,0.218,0.6571,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,2,0,1,2,5,0,0,1,0,8,3,0,0,1,9,13,6,0,1,2,1,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,2,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,1,2,7,3,8,9,0,6,0,2,0,0,6,3,0,1,2,35,10,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1857307151049704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.224754185440346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23523753842222964,0.2772106768699221,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2795495159306328,0.2390088300640425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1380974920233338,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2620012374846553,0.0,0.4581595776919844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2446615436793013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27126941982752506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2106466971195781,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3192622336426144,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17500403179077306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19883434458581573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mrracerhacker,2020/04/12,"Im afraid and very tired This quarantine is really killing me, been over 4 weeks, my voices and visuals are killing me, most afraid from azura and the others killing me, i dont want to fear anymore",7.2807692307692315,6.352069,6.840641025641028,80.75019230769233,64.12820512820514,10.876923076923077,34.884615384615394,10.125756701596842,3.186169230769232,157,6,32,3,2,49,31,39,0.369,0.579,0.052000000000000005,-0.9506,0,1,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,6,3,3,1,0,4,1,0,0,0,5,5,3,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,0,0,1,1,5,0,3,4,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,1,19,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2262730329948837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674013733556785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2567430026913426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2464515401070616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7572744388321992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14616489381780315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2622359175532891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1882555798721246,0.13457445426118142,0.0,0.18301588339155667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,throwingitaway223s,2020/04/12,"I peered into the abyss. I’m not sure if what I’m describing is any form of schizophrenia. Please don’t insult me if it’s not. I type this here to you because I have no idea where else to.

I was tripping with a friend, 400ug. All was well blah blah blah but then my thoughts started to get a little deep and it seemed like everything my friend was saying was exactly what I expected him to say. I don’t know if what I saw and experienced was energy or what. I don’t know. All I know is that I could tell how what I said would affect the responses I got.

Now, to what I classify as the more schizophrenic part of the story. Everything he was saying seemed like it was just trying to bring me back into reality. I made it clear to him I was comfortable expanding my perception and I wasn’t in any trouble, but all of his responses would just be like “Dude it’s just a trip just don’t think about it you’ll forget it” and stuff along those lines. I could tell he was just trying to drag me back in. This feeling was strong for a couple of days after, with everyone else I encountered. Things have returned to normal but I still really do believe in what happened there that night. Like I said, I don’t know if I was just visually seeing how energy exchange between humans worked or what. What I do know is it felt like every person I interacted with was trying to make me feel comfortable with living a meaningless existence. Some people feel a lot realer to me than others now as a result of this. I think there are real ones out there, but not so much for others.

I don’t hear any voices, but I think to myself often. I can recognize two halves of myself: what I want, and what I am. When talking to myself, I say “we”. “we” need to do this. never “i need to do this”. I don’t think I’m schizophrenic, but I can totally fucking see how some people could develop a disorder on the spectrum. I think some people see into this abyss and don’t fucking like what they see. I didn’t really like what I saw either and I didn’t (still don’t really lol) know how to explain. 

Who wants to believe they’re the only person that exists right? Who wants to believe that their own mother is not a real consciousness, and that she exists solely to guide you in a specific direction? This is how I felt at the time, seriously. After some thought though, I don’t believe it to be true. I think I was seeing energy. That is my theory. I don’t think she’s a fake person guiding me in a specific direction and it’s a conspiracy to suppress my innermost thoughts. I think I was just able to see through what SHE wanted for me because of how well my brain was processing facial and body expressions at the time. 

Just coming here because some dialogue with others who have had similar experiences would “ease” me I guess. And again, I don’t really know if this is related to any form of schizophrenia. It just struck me as very similar to stories I have heard about it, with the whole “everyone’s out to get me” thing. I thought my view on my story may help others too. Idk man. Enjoy the read",2.553434507146015,4.499845849270663,4.104053631943426,85.61937203477238,76.73095623987035,7.728763813172242,22.887549727420073,8.575989854853784,1.4906475850891407,2407,72,489,50,55,801,237,617,0.065,0.8059999999999999,0.129,0.9916,0,0,0,0,0,0,58.0,2,3,2,2,37,23,3,0,23,1,60,7,3,10,9,129,120,37,0,19,27,1,5,10,2,5,2,9,0,5,51,26,0,1,30,1,1,4,21,6,2,2,32,24,83,17,67,78,18,40,0,0,9,2,42,18,2,18,25,369,134,3,0.06324473938688514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17203436615042444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09726260144746486,0.0,0.11566021834139187,0.0,0.0,0.28502065478253297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07025064795292904,0.0,0.07060204544688027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05447974290986329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1514873343874384,0.06997910119741989,0.0,0.04078762479779415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07248395060462946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10566572874007588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05328642065669361,0.12086611755586513,0.11368058743319033,0.0618654908343869,0.0,0.0,0.09593532157741264,0.0,0.1214497358219468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09772545752989638,0.11693748490204404,0.06608553199858537,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05058259560458736,0.0,0.06967121070961939,0.0,0.05592711417086319,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07128141777667046,0.0,0.0423916156691391,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07139561259165701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24330358341945155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21628729534475286,0.06338784385485291,0.05584626357595871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05376841577344671,0.0,0.05984370160169485,0.04221635464419566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04649216048234165,0.09379034576838477,0.04877824192967487,0.0,0.0,0.05935090359844949,0.061966416469516124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.042856272195273666,0.04810047422083152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0684878896011351,0.0,0.1315378171065932,0.16566860090792854,0.0,0.06942373180800761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06326185431156017,0.1439727189156351,0.16206479810138252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054010661873014836,0.12032046011303812,0.20117902087366507,0.0,0.0,0.3023872138040138,0.11515127086305585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04476495205692448,0.0,0.10101466114185366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07240009542665536,0.0,0.0,0.05960741840139281,0.0,0.0,0.05083372585102916,0.11055737969773227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0840339891975888,0.3241974023077314,0.062137635336533686,0.20083703426897545,0.07375703227442845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12881707964990785,0.0,0.06178092056092864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05218353351911107,0.14921354362031924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11372923219333425,0.0,0.0,0.07061049292560459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04604292351486307,0.0,0.0,0.13478174484066854,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,metal440,2020/04/12,"Being alive is the worst thing about life There, I said the truth no one wants to hear. My brain hurts. I don't like antipsychotics because they always backfire on me.",2.1459374999999987,4.938916718750004,1.5425000000000004,98.2525,84.9375,4.45,17.375,5.985473137389443,-0.4758375000000004,133,3,27,1,4,38,30,32,0.292,0.584,0.124,-0.7657,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,1,0,2,4,0,0,2,0,3,2,1,0,1,2,6,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,2,5,2,3,4,1,1,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,1,18,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3014838764510121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22087028757515867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4044751334089314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4083672191408237,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3878769867801529,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25592124573470365,0.1770139581762165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2455211644914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3446545623997608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24071299051209955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2137089923536871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,JJDJr,2020/04/12,"Do you know what caused your schizophrenia? For me it was drug induced. (weed, ecstasy, cocaine). It started with believing in some kind of ""im so connected to the universe"". Started believing in god, started to believe in fate and used that an excuse not to try hard in life. (i cant change anything anyway, everything is fate). Started hearing voices.",2.7042857142857137,5.731788952380952,3.4352380952380983,82.9014285714286,88.04761904761904,5.974603174603175,32.39682539682539,7.3871296695380915,2.841273015873016,276,16,44,5,9,87,51,63,0.0,0.8690000000000001,0.131,0.7647,0,0,2,0,0,0,17.0,0,2,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,3,0,8,11,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,3,4,1,10,10,1,8,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,1,4,29,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14833691048802403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6092668497313913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18517453978989606,0.19068897968161386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20904196092744928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1620041968160278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16147569146938515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2031637783646021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1947094877184065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18771088648670695,0.09906503954711686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12732150087029467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5103499387001025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12238329631042873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15568496829498954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,kirillmarasin,2020/04/12,"Aphasia/alogia temporarily relieved by breathing exercises? Please explain! I'm a schizophrenic who suffers from ""a bit of"" aphasia/alogia. I cannot converse with people orally most of the time because I cannot find the right words to explain myself or mix up words (written form is better). I am on clozapine 12.5-50 mg/d (dose adjustment). Recently I found these help me with my problem:

\- Breath holding for 7-10 seconds then exhaling;

\- Deep breathing until dizziness comes on (1-2 minutes);

\- Valsalva maneuvre.

Then I can speak like a normal person! The effect duration ranges from a couple of minutes to up to 3 hours.

I also get the same effect from smelling coffee, even for a few seconds.

Does it have something to do with dopamine? Oxygenation? Intracranial pressure? Please explain.",4.966614906832298,7.997778311594202,5.270227743271224,74.83434782608698,73.85507246376811,7.421118012422363,35.219461697722565,8.418075326091056,3.588911387163561,629,35,91,12,14,199,99,138,0.059000000000000004,0.8370000000000001,0.10300000000000001,0.7135,0,0,1,0,0,0,38.0,0,0,0,3,2,6,0,1,9,0,7,6,3,2,0,20,15,5,0,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,3,2,0,1,3,4,0,1,8,1,0,1,2,3,0,2,2,3,9,3,21,13,5,13,0,1,0,0,8,6,0,2,7,60,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17578061263941605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339930953341257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19440257278393164,0.23997372630090905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18934538141592416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2432136955802363,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1923557186214892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1451813045822856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2009007978011539,0.0,0.0,0.2410084479995072,0.0,0.0,0.11484076093245472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14733286555684574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21646689177086387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10738722910072564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2153654575942267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15238739404401536,0.1919281232013984,0.0,0.4825669974343502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2103268508123525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21703417164260552,0.0,0.0,0.18771508136138834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16921916294954598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12817198340320995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,S108827W,2020/04/12,Advice The devil is talking to me today. He wants me to agree to do as he says in exchange for power and I don’t know if I’m happy with the power or scared.,-1.0991666666666688,0.674552972222223,2.342222222222226,94.30000000000004,88.72222222222223,3.6,14.555555555555555,3.1291,-1.1929777777777772,121,2,28,0,4,44,28,36,0.172,0.682,0.146,-0.2732,2,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,1,2,0,3,0,0,0,0,6,6,4,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,1,0,1,2,0,0,0,1,3,1,7,6,0,2,1,0,0,0,4,1,0,2,1,18,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4017137190439449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.43761439676343583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22592506040072602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3269163493445035,0.4115741666683233,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3304196631761848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3896665414781583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24247233504404175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,RobbieDixx,2020/04/12,"I just found out I was diagnosed So I checked my health app today and saw I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia. I had a feeling I was, but my parents don’t believe it. They are very unaccepting. Any advice would be appreciated on how to handle this. Thanks.",2.236066666666669,4.991305540000003,3.708000000000002,83.32066666666668,83.6,6.533333333333335,26.333333333333336,7.793537801064563,1.8503333333333327,207,9,39,4,6,68,42,50,0.0,0.792,0.20800000000000002,0.8824,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,3,1,0,0,1,0,9,3,0,1,0,10,13,4,0,1,2,1,1,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,3,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,6,2,9,1,4,5,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,1,30,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26537146539647644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18467441034200524,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059622477478268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5512681977510031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13731209129682853,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977584534466519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2886622996717089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30154226120155303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2500217818252557,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.257413118412129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2240706551335836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19291292246072086,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,spacekarl,2020/04/12,"I think my mom has schizophrenia So I'm only 17 and around last year before my dad's death my mom has been acting out of place at first it started at a minimal she would say people where out to kill us and then one day we had medication that we didn't need so she flushed it down the toilet because she thought useless medication wasn't needed in our house so my mom about a day later starts freaking out saying ""the government is trying to assassinate me because I flushed the pills down the toilet"" so about 3 weeks pass she has these paranoid looks in her face she says ""we're being watched because of the pills I flushed. About a week later me.and my dad where pulling into the driveway when he complained about not being able to breathe he then slumped over in his seat before he had slumped over I was telling the paramedics where we were. When they had arrived he was pale and had no pulse and they had done CPR for 7 minutes then they got a small pulse. They then took him to the hospital where he died the next day he died of a heart attack and kidney failure and my dad wasn't healthy he had damaged his lungs firefighting and was a severe diabetic. So everything is going ok besides the fact that my dad had passed. Suddenly I see my mom on her bed having a full blown episode she was saying things in a panicked tone like ""I think the pills I flushed got in the air and killed dad"" which of course is not possible at all 

She had these episodes for about 3 months and at the time I went to rehab because I was into severe drugs and partying with a few of my friends

So one day my brother calls me up and says ""well moms okay but she's in a mental facility right now"" I asked what Happened and he said that she was leaning over our balcony railing and was saying ""if I kill myself the FBI won't get you guys"" so my brothers called the 911 and they took her to the facility. She's showed some improvements but not really she still is paranoid at times and speaks in a paranoid voice . So it's currently the 11th of April and she's now pacing back and forth saying just because my brother left his backpack for work (which he leaves often) that their going to kill him or he'll go missing. 

I don't know what to do I've been studying psych I can read her expressions and there not like her. This is overwhelming she has these every 3 weeks are so I may get her some mental help because it's kinda tearing our family up.",3.960869120654397,5.239789458077713,4.210158486707567,89.07122955010227,71.59713701431494,7.069325153374232,27.080265848670763,7.3871296695380915,1.2431885480572595,1931,66,403,20,36,601,232,489,0.113,0.846,0.040999999999999995,-0.9858,2,0,1,0,2,1,22.0,7,1,6,2,29,17,5,1,28,2,41,13,5,0,2,51,67,37,7,4,9,13,0,2,1,4,8,10,2,1,17,28,0,0,4,2,0,10,10,11,1,3,29,13,67,6,49,32,5,77,0,4,3,0,79,36,0,7,33,264,84,4,0.07202990523009742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06412188688150779,0.06733823806767059,0.08194441577397989,0.0,0.05538655098123784,0.0,0.2634525700251491,0.0,0.12258428819522492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14710117333225609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858133199521168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14951133914681813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07371160129933083,0.0,0.0,0.08353182208549657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060688301780695834,0.0,0.06473583430571067,0.0,0.06790338415353528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061268600592226725,0.0,0.0,0.05565012610286788,0.0,0.07526530511604526,0.0,0.12280876521624536,0.0,0.11521779053915435,0.0,0.0,0.07132093070336464,0.06369580731256005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08535578450813741,0.048280127150496066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0831128397153354,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3187616720751341,0.0,0.03958575216970158,0.058713986465915524,0.0,0.07626926934139662,0.07826070278915914,0.0,0.0,0.07038034664875331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06048697919808695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14512510317791574,0.14517840571484608,0.0,0.0,0.4218027722458853,0.05749358314928313,0.0,0.0,0.10681852408100416,0.0,0.0,0.07660462137366708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09761865586502674,0.054781988719328906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0499364668756757,0.0,0.07525592018161494,0.0,0.0,0.08120289545480043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07204939754541588,0.0,0.046144201721535404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06151314550178745,0.06851693455614928,0.40096750195373454,0.0,0.0,0.05739850872511978,0.0,0.0,0.16274658082523938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10196627531550112,0.0,0.057523175361577514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06295731201769253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04785346842036742,0.09230770966269516,0.0,0.057183698934207126,0.08400243397764713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16005575006912687,0.04890357748407905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08664310718349598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733341355960338,0.0,0.06476353524571833,0.06677244378504077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052438628879541815,0.0,0.0,0.051167978036519034,0.0,0.0,0.04638489737497472
schizophrenia,Decimini,2020/04/13,"What if positive and friendly people just saw the true horror of reality, so bad that thiigs I know are nothing compared to? And that's why they are so rejecting towards any dark thoughts or ideas. To avoid it at all costs. Forget it.

 Because how can someone be so intelligent, yet so reluctant to acknowledge a whole half of existence?

Any of you saw it? Can you describe?",2.37546031746032,5.258487085714286,3.7947619047619088,81.70912698412701,85.28571428571428,7.1111111111111125,29.20634920634921,8.167268648758528,2.7105873015873008,296,15,52,7,9,97,54,70,0.21600000000000005,0.634,0.15,-0.7135,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,1,0,7,5,0,1,2,0,5,0,0,1,2,14,9,9,0,1,3,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,6,2,0,1,4,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,3,2,4,2,8,5,2,3,0,1,2,0,4,2,0,2,1,39,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4322132803988601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265339586623535,0.19372052805337328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24552211004482366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3587438093310301,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746478953605771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3049260196189882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.220314086851054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26926062001224993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2522880612443201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28675411224241576,0.35479879353025146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Dewlt,2020/04/13,"I’m not sure if I have schizophrenia or not So to start off I’m not a very socially active person. I used to be in the past in a very blindingly weird way but I was comfortable. Then about 2 years ago I started smoking weed and everything took a turn for the worst. My social interactions plummeted, even when I was around people I couldn’t keep up or tack on personal thoughts. My responses were usually very brief and I don’t even know if they made sense. To be clear the people I was with didn’t really help my situation any greater. They would usually talk down to me and purposely make me feel like shit. And now I don’t know when people are being mean or being genuinely nice. I can’t tell if people are trying to “test” me. My mind seems to have a bunch of tabs open on shit that’s never about the situation at hand. When I’m either high or drunk I seem to phase out of the present and think “why can’t I do this or that. What’s wrong with me. I should just give up”. And sometimes I fail to even speak a word for hours at social events. I’m now SUPER paranoid that everyone I keep close has a secret alliance and is out to get me. I have a very active voice in my head even though I have a somewhat good ability to control it. I’ve never heard an external voice, I’ve never had any hallucinations. Someone please help hahah",2.8293530192435306,4.334391397810222,4.1249369608493724,87.67173855341744,74.80291970802921,7.755540809555409,23.40345056403451,8.438071523408619,1.2601737226277372,1049,30,227,19,22,345,152,274,0.129,0.716,0.155,0.8697,0,0,0,0,0,0,19.0,0,0,2,3,15,12,2,0,14,0,26,6,4,4,5,54,50,22,0,6,14,0,2,1,0,2,1,4,0,2,6,14,1,3,9,1,0,2,12,6,0,0,10,7,29,6,32,33,5,39,0,1,1,0,16,17,2,11,20,147,35,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08836684137084055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13558166412866612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0887428969186371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11180786540665802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2633702787647448,0.0,0.0,0.09525555690812623,0.08959258297170322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05040493105821711,0.07121667918826469,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05208253794687705,0.09562921179155247,0.0,0.08361303883536249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10230800450377507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13363668960187086,0.10532518278897804,0.0,0.0,0.0981719819109314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17721343495750702,0.0,0.0,0.10957114629936596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04870221504312504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943266026705687,0.06654209556131606,0.0,0.0,0.10858877354964942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10065582905236793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2306551427630443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0951628773879828,0.2764426905039835,0.1740863379612937,0.0,0.1094267999955503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06386228378360413,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18150328076301486,0.0,0.0,0.20465531167284973,0.0,0.22410556797394574,0.0,0.30485616853373565,0.08446478764346999,0.0,0.09859336089456942,0.0,0.14111847139218356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09395416929903423,0.0,0.0,0.08012493432523306,0.08713115789909498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06387564341743071,0.09794233783011687,0.07914063897280925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107563393749407,0.06768118261463363,0.1084312358720766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08609788334838915,0.21958311526268887,0.3290100913185549,0.0,0.07912719662055502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08995234875172425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07081504960733498,0.10899249318734992,0.0,0.06419539983181713
schizophrenia,junjor01,2020/04/13,"Is ""Steppenwolf"" an authentic book? My favourite book is the novel ""Steppenwolf"" from Hermann Hess and as a non schizophrenic person I always asked myself if it`s ""realistic"" what happens in the book.

To everyone who didn`t read it, the protagonist is an schizophrenic person who sees himself as a split up character.
He discribes himself as half human and half (steppen-)wolf. The one side has human desires, like socialing and other expected traids in society. The other one is all about urges, isolation and similar nihilistic behaiviour. 

(Spoilers ahead)

>! He finds a book (it's called steppenwolf traktat) written by an unkonwn person in which he and his charakter is analysed in a very in deph way. So he basicly self reflects by hallucinating a book which analyses him.

This polarity drives him to the point where he gets to dream about suicide til he meets a ""girl"" called Hermine who helps him. It's not very clear if he is aware of the fact that she is probalby only in his imagination but he knows that she is supernatural in a lot of ways. She helps him to get back into society and find a goal in life again in some ways. 

Furthermore in the beginning he sees a huge portal. In it are colors which are floating around and are forming letters about an theather only for ""crazy people"". 

In the end he goes into the theater and completly hallucinates stuff about war against the machine and other very abstract things which are closed up behind doors that he can open up. These experience are discribed as very vividly and has some strong emotional connections but are completly nonsensical. !<


tldr: How strong can get a hallucination be? In which way can the affected person know what is real and what not, and in which time span can the hallucination seen as real, are there any limits to it?

Nontholess of the authenticity of the disorder i only can  recommend the book to everyone no matter in what you are usally intrested in.",7.260971056258615,8.638102103746398,7.4668237063024705,68.40070166645782,63.98559077809797,11.10682871820574,35.25986718456335,11.030560184262038,4.352236536774842,1558,70,251,44,23,505,183,347,0.063,0.857,0.08,0.6568,0,1,0,0,0,1,49.0,0,1,0,5,11,4,1,0,30,0,25,3,0,2,3,43,37,24,2,4,6,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,1,8,28,17,0,1,6,9,0,1,3,1,0,4,2,5,16,3,49,34,5,41,0,0,5,0,42,29,0,5,8,182,44,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08934920418072262,0.0,0.0,0.07302244357171403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09559143892026464,0.10038630153131592,0.0,0.0,0.0825690004243154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21929505679822514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22517288829746415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12306739197105244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12078864477478655,0.09510727856977316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20521339884469447,0.0,0.10503876439525596,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19628772063254588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683056870295504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09495624926707327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14394981339515855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11802706360264804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07584604493119708,0.05246070363067858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09129108781262617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14552765418216607,0.2450031985929241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07444413998703785,0.37504215255305023,0.0,0.0,0.1015093106063558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10740959007384927,0.24444510659435514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1711367618064874,0.0,0.11202131304996787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10946092898971836,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12292501785967393,0.1174568727610022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07133885364417712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06261445137731574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3544007367402419,0.0,0.3409346706191219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,AdditionalFeeling1,2020/04/13,"I haven't stopped thinking about a guy I met briefly.. First off, I want to say that I have no sense of self or stability. I've found this problem started since I was about mid 20s.

I've barely known the guy, we only knew each other for not even a month but I haven't stopped thinking about him since this past October. It's not healthy to be this consumed by someone you've known for such a short time and still feel almost the same way as when they left.

He's done the most damage out of every guy I've ever met. And he was a sense of comfort, too. He gave me closure but despite that, my soul has never felt at ease. Even with guys that never gave me closure, I feel more attached to him than them. 

I will literally sit down and think about him the whole day. The situation, why I chose him, what made him choose me, why he did me wrong, if I deserved it, him, intimate moments we shared, the way he humiliated me, the way he chose to leave, etc. I will sit and thinking about it until mental exhaustion.

Let me say...nothing in my external reality has changed. He left that day and never came back. And I don't think he will but low-key, I am secretly hoping he would. I haven't communicated with him since then. And the longer we don't communicate, the fact as of a chance he will ever come back. I don't even know how I would cope if he ever did. 

Here I am chasing a ghost...holding on desperately to breadcrumbs.",3.718,4.502127731034488,4.672586206896551,87.38853448275862,71.6896551724138,7.593103448275862,26.91379310344828,7.734863291789972,1.2755724137931033,1102,36,244,13,20,359,152,290,0.10400000000000001,0.836,0.061,-0.9205,0,0,0,0,0,0,43.0,3,0,2,1,19,7,0,0,15,0,24,1,0,2,7,58,45,19,0,7,8,0,3,0,0,6,1,1,0,5,12,16,0,2,15,0,0,2,12,4,0,1,14,4,37,3,29,23,6,39,1,1,0,0,35,10,0,6,22,158,49,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09939972266738303,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15265756729397675,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11353290278287742,0.0,0.0,0.10500938115116697,0.0855081490280022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12803563722678998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10158272663982276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11070689713663807,0.1966911133844716,0.2693730709355772,0.0836351817265359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10038289874780296,0.0,0.09531012405158013,0.0,0.0,0.08443489757183109,0.0,0.1088391284458138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3931524742172927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09859270543204586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05455353798592722,0.0,0.0,0.10510747564775047,0.21570378170969776,0.1015053553498295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09392709806673093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10003593763923817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07923250665632421,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2296782413500408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09524760180956064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07549563008763399,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09475983088196448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0949833556507362,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.157879284843858,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035552147137846,0.0,0.0,0.2463395076831892,0.11157820309665946,0.0,0.0,0.08410705111347329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.070260393813677,0.0,0.07927328799276487,0.16598024338117742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3180255438806623,0.0,0.0,0.05788231524898749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05854916544848735,0.23637619970309795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791427411425724,0.11082601035788266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14103024853547316,0.10853087364864802,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,bagel-bites,2020/04/13,"First time here, wondering about accidentally ghosting people and also cognitive issues Hey there, I was diagnosed Shizoaffective with major depressive disorder a few years ago, and I've been dealing with it for a lot longer than that - but I was wondering about ghosting and cognitive stuff.

I know everyone is different, but does anyone have any experience with inadvertently just ghosting everyone you know? I just flat out will not talk to friends and family at all anymore for the most part, unless they contact me - then everything is fine and as long as I'm not horribly depressed I'll communicate with them. But after a few days of not hearing from them, its like they don't exist anymore. I've lost a lot of friends over time because of it, and I keep getting really paranoid that my friends aren't really my friends or just aren't that close with me. Which then kind perpetuates it and I isolate myself further.

On the other question though, does anyone have any experience with dealing with cognitive issues and severe short term memory and working memory? I'm just tired of having people repeat themselves because my entire train of thought crashed to a halt or dropped off the face of the earth, or I have to read or listen to something 6 times and still potentially not comprehend it. I've been trying to teach myself how to play music and I'm failing miserably at remembering things I'm doing. This kinda thing was a big problem when I was still working and I would constantly get yelled at for forgetting things or being too slow because of  my brain overloading. I've had some tests done and my attention span is fine - just my memory keeps getting wiped essentially, like someone is just hitting backspace intermittently while I'm typing the paragraph that is my conscious stream of thought. Either that or I'm being asked to decouple the firing mechanism from a laser installation in korean (metaphorically speaking). I just flat out will hear or see something and it just makes zero sense no matter what.

Sorry for the two part post, I'm sure I'm violating some kinda community rule or something, I just have to get this out of my system.

Edit: Wanted to say thanks to everyone who’s commented so far, I appreciate it and it’s helping to give me some perspective on - I guess our collective situation we find ourselves in. While the internet has its sources of clinical information, it seems to be a difficult world we live in, to endow ourselves with personal understanding of self. I find myself most fortunate to have found this group of people seeking the same. Maybe we’ll find some answers together.",7.302342954159593,8.572833252631579,7.42749066213922,69.1023701188455,63.84210526315789,10.929032258064515,35.74363327674024,10.875528500678817,4.296261799660441,2125,97,343,57,31,686,249,475,0.122,0.789,0.08900000000000001,-0.9437,1,0,3,0,0,0,40.0,4,1,4,5,21,20,1,1,17,0,31,5,2,2,2,97,66,38,3,3,26,0,1,2,4,4,3,6,0,2,26,29,0,3,18,2,0,0,8,8,0,3,12,8,37,12,60,46,17,43,0,5,1,0,33,20,0,23,22,242,63,8,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07187479665725574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06484169344959717,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11027784164882308,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16082422276181307,0.11338962157733205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07580124768838667,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1482815268685064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0905149518912546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08762144159328933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052291543013560315,0.16718511681502887,0.13967257918176912,0.08229709100604822,0.0,0.08471401701914745,0.09292763772407132,0.0,0.14191178825525125,0.0829756095189656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2324335806407279,0.07287177614582457,0.15862860321282155,0.07643742082959212,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2223239710432245,0.06896878359580856,0.0,0.08890284127069327,0.25057673700189603,0.0,0.16944916288751066,0.07778177928943776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08932158049629595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1827718746661566,0.0,0.05434793041189759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1692582521850744,0.0,0.14413980860820572,0.0,0.08443500828393534,0.08912170829688712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07922568575903953,0.0,0.07159738544242973,0.07175551354051361,0.0,0.0,0.08851119173482977,0.13786698490666907,0.0,0.0,0.054123238008996835,0.0,0.08145832914363302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17560902076256274,0.0,0.16863731230339352,0.07079816335894945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07765467860572434,0.0,0.0,0.07758505889707898,0.0,0.0,0.09083102313188604,0.0,0.08110450148176904,0.0,0.10388712756523066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0918507336881826,0.0,0.0,0.06448010564230097,0.0,0.0,0.06461230203921395,0.0738145168203968,0.08458679289255418,0.09160021287737533,0.0,0.0,0.09114019398005407,0.0,0.0,0.06870098944801682,0.1872639466608303,0.0,0.0907652869098246,0.0,0.0,0.12950527333440434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09282013166879892,0.0,0.0,0.07641935265208892,0.0,0.0,0.06517108988465498,0.0,0.07464992690059442,0.0,0.0,0.16160294878084294,0.0,0.07966320292171078,0.12874099029125108,0.14183967728635982,0.09319247429209168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05504973542660319,0.0,0.07920587876702907,0.08440980385468624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04782459430470231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1758611538153624,0.11805813784860253,0.0,0.0,0.05759872381814277,0.0,0.0,0.05221450985081416
schizophrenia,chik-fil-a,2020/04/13,Newly diagnosed Any advice for me? Got diagnosed after getting out the looney bin last month. I'm 28 years old. I guess the diagnosis didnt really come as a surprise. I'd been thinking for a while I was going crazy. It was kind of nice to get a name to what was wrong with me. I kind of just want to talk.,0.3862417582417592,2.4517148769230768,2.7360439560439573,91.98538461538462,84.84615384615384,6.175824175824177,18.516483516483518,7.447530270364453,0.3489560439560435,237,6,54,4,7,81,49,65,0.08800000000000001,0.8140000000000001,0.098,-0.0847,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,0,5,0,5,2,0,0,0,8,14,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,2,3,0,0,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,6,0,5,4,11,8,0,9,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,1,6,30,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2200885291361467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15316160417071284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1940125105372638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4571998975899077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23534288688640226,0.0,0.12800129398436516,0.0,0.18013404319792492,0.0,0.2481121565552901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4690770556833066,0.0,0.18358949125620386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17977348015707684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363371098196199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14428573204441222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1810283647747471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14431591581536918,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13284430440428222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2462495973393277,0.0,0.14503834986551956
schizophrenia,staggeringwealth,2020/04/13,"Parental age? 
Hey guys I hate being that hypochondriac looking for reassurance but I just wanted to ask something. I read online recently that having a father over the age of 50 is a pretty significant risk factor for schizophrenia. I know correlation does not mean causation but there still is an unconfirmed link. My father gave birth to me at 60 but is healthy. I am 18 right now and have been smoking weed almost daily since I was 15. I know that is also a risk factor for this condition. was anyone have born to older parents? Also i have decided its time for me to cut down on the weed heavily since it gives me panic attacks sometimes. Do you think id be much more at risk if I continued to smoke heavily and also have an older father? Was anyone in this thread born to a father over 50? Thank you for your time and opinions.

Edit: there is no history of schizophrenia in my family.",3.715964912280701,5.879696619883043,4.934362573099417,79.99031578947371,74.02923976608187,7.834853801169591,25.43508771929825,8.648137234880735,2.026167719298245,706,24,126,14,15,233,104,171,0.145,0.774,0.081,-0.8936,2,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,0,3,0,0,8,9,3,4,8,0,18,0,0,0,0,18,29,10,0,2,6,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,7,3,0,0,6,1,0,0,2,7,0,0,5,1,17,2,21,22,2,22,0,0,1,0,15,9,0,3,13,90,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1645941383126667,0.0,0.0,0.3943430669648032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2298645041277389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15366500011001172,0.18699611127735968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14384245393625708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15495465626732458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15767995234331153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16275345388997325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16228265325486502,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18066836276289627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13803051478400286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17904855971886074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12083183647199976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19285433377181768,0.3650298081207437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16722472979231545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16441580592911406,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16229685325096213,0.0,0.0,0.14037221319631601,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2719393167400712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12654107622138966,0.1625674431062906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13126715224390198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1513310318129456,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10532250785369904,0.0,0.0,0.19169248256012364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0969504660306438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,i_am_a_rooster_00,2020/04/13,"Persecution versus equality I have recently been diagnosed with epilepsy, but some other stuff has come up too. I want to try to understand if I am hurting my boyfriend. I have known him for 8 years, and he has so much problems, but there is so much waiting on the other side for him and I know it and I want to stay here with him as he gets what he deserves after all his hard work and we can be happy together.

He is mad, I am mad. I cant articulate myself. I say ""it is okay for you to do that, but it is not okay when I do the same/similar thing."" 
This issue happens a lot between us and i have tried to keep myself accountable but i know i have lacked enough self awareness on the matter that I wouldnt be able to discern my behavior as a toxic or inappropriately used one. Have other experienced mild delusions like this? I often see examples of ""someone is trying to kill me"" and thats not really how I feel... Thank you for your time and response.",3.5616642120765865,4.61356313402062,5.2029455081001466,82.44113402061858,72.29896907216495,8.429455081001473,27.259204712812963,8.841846274778883,1.9639245949926367,744,26,155,14,14,253,120,194,0.12,0.777,0.102,-0.8211,0,0,0,0,0,1,22.0,2,3,0,1,8,10,3,0,5,2,22,1,0,2,1,40,36,19,1,6,9,0,2,1,0,1,1,1,0,1,14,11,0,2,6,0,1,1,4,5,0,1,1,5,30,5,21,32,8,11,0,1,1,0,15,4,0,5,6,124,44,1,0.16822179177915833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449081782423401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1707415776149472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17381807942731692,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0850579924228379,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08788894310620116,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1487579749093108,0.17907522542042167,0.1506936833068451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18008490734544186,0.0,0.0,0.1755798452238384,0.0,0.14952325785775886,0.18611248847164089,0.0,0.184900594763809,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0821846702523806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14301615170243867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24732474561024134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11399143972374785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16096553588342874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10776718737889016,0.0,0.16609872495374384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13377672075111152,0.0,0.0,0.1340509882991865,0.0,0.17549201663521846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1425337782741331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1793020474149762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1925737048760705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15487602455974112,0.0,0.0,0.11175908360292992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09809147959024142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426346627488777,0.0,0.0,0.17512481790222914,0.20235010290741207,0.145289616625233,0.0,0.0,0.19844314253536802,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12246746792709767,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10832931853768693
schizophrenia,necronyx_,2020/04/13,"Art Style Changes with Psychosis I'm not an artist or anything, but drawing has always been fun for me and it's one of the only activities I can focus on anymore. I've only recently noticed, though, how my art style changes when my symptoms flare up.

When I'm doing good, I draw in black pen and will meticulously colour and blend with all of my pencils. I draw cats and plants then inevitably end up asking everyone for ideas. I get really upset when my work looks bad, but still share it with my mum or friends.

When I'm doing not so great, I will only use red and blue pens (I actually avoid red when I'm healthy, now that I think about it). I usually draw eyes, snakes, hands, faces, blood, numbers, dead things-- everything that is preoccupying me, naturally. But when I'm getting really bad, I will turn off and it feels like I'm channeling something else; I spend all day working on two pages of repeating patterns, lines lines lines with numbers scribbled in corners. 

I'm not doing so hot right now but am glad I'm here enough to make this post. Does anyone else notice interesting changes in how they draw or do things?",5.627824377457403,6.357935321100918,5.69294888597641,81.981376146789,67.34862385321101,8.797378768020971,31.16775884665793,8.841846274778883,2.35404744429882,892,34,176,14,14,281,133,218,0.115,0.763,0.122,-0.0509,0,1,1,0,0,0,31.0,0,0,1,2,16,12,0,2,2,0,12,5,4,4,2,30,29,25,1,0,10,1,3,1,1,3,1,0,0,0,9,10,0,1,3,4,1,0,3,4,0,2,1,10,18,8,19,25,4,26,0,0,7,0,5,10,0,3,16,97,27,5,0.0,0.0,0.12604193607550876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10747181436414427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.128092427933637,0.09031196719556298,0.13234011142093208,0.1062880185985596,0.0,0.12074755518868174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21568710751540326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40990378764648855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08329778425136089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11302915193901725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21579391099600573,0.0,0.11439779325236465,0.1334572382554895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12341831417470235,0.1160810551303538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06530738803298675,0.09227222822300682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09978901833027404,0.0,0.13496197471278784,0.0,0.0,0.10833363040475816,0.0,0.1423998165070238,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1458063901400608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06310125595080683,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10846222099808947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.086215581771786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29409998327583,0.0,0.0,0.08752244174150993,0.2946969535905648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1236999769337651,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16548694185937746,0.0,0.1275303304645827,0.0,0.0,0.11030229100800457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09943399976402256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10314767643044408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13424712864646696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17161688469637254,0.08276078040263063,0.12689945462164404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14048944512621453,0.12617096036474806,0.0,0.0,0.1115531309854938,0.1422519524666097,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18806064477921705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,rabidhorse97,2020/04/13,"Relapsing What’s up guys. I hope everyone is doing as well as they can with the current circumstances. I just want to vent since it’s not like I can post this on public social media. 

I’m relapsing again. I can tell. This is my 4th time. The other 3 resulted in a break. I don’t want to break again. I barely lived through the last one, I am extremely confident I will not make it through another. 

I know what’s happening, I know how this ends, but I’m struggling hard to start taking my meds again. I’m still trying to convince myself I’m fine. 

I hate taking medication. It works but it makes me so tired. The sedation wears off after a couple weeks, in which the medicine begins working great, but getting through those first weeks is hard with my job. 
I told my dr, who is amazing, but tbh I don’t think he believes me because I’m on the lowest dose since my body is extremely sensitive to medication and he said he’s shocked to hear I’m having that as a side effect at all because it’s not common on this medication I guess. I’m also scared to tell him I had stopped taking it because then he’ll know I’ve been fibbing for a few months. He’ll be really upset. I need to pick it back up like I never stopped. 

I don’t even know why I stopped. It was working great and I was doing great, but then I hit the classic “I’m doing so good I don’t think I’m actually sick” phase, got cocky, stopped my meds, and here we are. The cycle continues. It’s almost predictable at this point. 

This is exhausting. I know I’m schizophrenic. I’ve been diagnosed 3 or 4 times and I’ve been here a million times before. I’m also simultaneously in a constant state of disbelief and denial. I’ve started to accept the fact that I don’t think I’ll ever not be in some form of denial. I think it’s part of the illness, thinking you don’t have it. 

I just don’t want to start taking the meds again because of the sedation and me being so busy. But I know what will happen if I don’t. It’s already starting. Some encouragement would be nice please. I’m so frustrated. 

I just want a normal easy, NORMAL life. Schizophrenia is the most infuriating, evil, sneaky thing in the world. I didn’t ask for this. None of us did. But here we are struggling trying to accept the fact that we’re fucking stuck with it and we need to find a way to survive.",1.7089785337456789,3.751902675732218,3.42244133163544,89.0334327815172,79.77405857740584,6.415935965071857,23.152810623976716,7.505811317475913,0.9631164635255596,1821,61,387,27,46,606,214,478,0.16699999999999998,0.706,0.127,-0.9674,3,0,0,0,0,0,53.0,4,1,1,6,22,25,4,4,23,0,41,15,2,6,5,73,97,28,0,11,16,0,2,2,0,5,12,2,0,1,31,13,0,4,15,0,0,0,15,10,1,3,12,4,47,15,43,75,8,54,0,0,0,1,23,16,1,8,35,241,78,4,0.0,0.0,0.07342629991861135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07534498115331673,0.0,0.08303250553659908,0.1203435766424969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07889883085540092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703420343877595,0.0,0.0,0.057857211378569126,0.0,0.1834697023270236,0.0,0.06402623875428806,0.08477307837544484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08357799457563245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08131093676713334,0.0,0.0,0.08325493231328605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07637004643192609,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06664295185328868,0.0,0.0,0.04969728229044251,0.06806158812859545,0.0,0.07189789711427612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06877072560703032,0.06400164502993508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0695609276470997,0.039311354384990164,0.0,0.0,0.06311024635964327,0.06017868908332748,0.2488669714404277,0.08288863149942706,0.07450238533211201,0.13307424717093416,0.0,0.13480587156217352,0.07428687057962542,0.0,0.0,0.08480431315414734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07473326215898562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07466705292741152,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2481094623463289,0.061333075731465236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.053146345859364966,0.07351984409235521,0.0,0.06644093471348843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1004505541876201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2507339837268973,0.22739817578853155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06005823316758314,0.0,0.0,0.1115834406983562,0.058032029001908673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14744430038654655,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050986594279790826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08148082092304064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08259420303649882,0.07112894198141738,0.0,0.07206198102846208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048202583219211316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07157330968251815,0.0,0.07533135473225254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12448355029329555,0.0,0.0,0.07670074814648804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21302948964678345,0.0,0.060089145417065074,0.2516260201494782,0.0,0.15732061090026395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22629344396908174,0.0,0.13153137159481454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04998809618119685,0.2410633346548013,0.0,0.0,0.13162436980248324,0.08648074314400814,0.0,0.07189789711427612,0.0,0.10217009615287513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09050804713421627,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17752104930997967,0.0597243796186386,0.12071076876524872,0.0,0.06765248028540796,0.0,0.0678950911176419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16433336875483034,0.0,0.0,0.05345045807376071,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Inferno995,2020/04/13,"Discord server for schizophrenics First of all, I love this community a lot. It's very supportive and nonjudgmental and I tried to imitate that atmosphere onto a Discord platform. The result is below. We currently have about 100 members and looking for more to join our cause. Whether you just wanna lurk or are desperate to share your experience, don't be afraid to join :)

[https://discord.gg/xFrmQgd](https://discord.gg/xFrmQgd)

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schizophrenia,Rodchinko,2020/04/13,"I’m forced to live the life my mom wants all the time By the way, I’m Chinese American. After I got out of my last day treatment program, I worked briefly as a peer coach. My entire family acted like it was some kind of joke. This may be an inference, but they want me to care more about my looks because at this point they care about how much my husband can make than how much I can make at my sad little part time job. However, my illness came back and I had to stop. Since then, I’ve been steadily gaining 2 pounds per month. This drove my parents to do a lot of passive aggressive things like feeding all the chicken to my puppy so she wouldn’t listen to me, cutting off the Internet, and in general treating me like I’m doing something wrong for gaining the weight. The thing is, I was a English major and got a full ride to a school in North Carolina. I’ve been sitting in the library since I first learned to read. And as a result I’ve developed a lot of my own ideas about how to live an ethical life and choosing to focus on my looks in order to get a nice guy is against my ethical principles. I also have a tendency to want to always hold out and do something “to right the wrongs” in my life if I ever became too greedy. I wish my parents could understand that my value shouldn’t be determined by these things. They also have a tendency to scold me for talking to my mentally ill friend who lives in a group home and make me “want money” by encouraging me to spend money on things I like and not choose a hard life. There have been times in the past when I wanted to marry rich, but it’s more out of curiosity to see what it’s like and I’m in fact not particularly good at romantic stuff. I really let my curiosity get away with me, sometimes, and at one point I took prehealth classes and applied to medical school just to see what it’s like, lol. Not that I would’ve wanted to be a doctor. I kind of want to learn about all levels of society. My parents are reaching the point where they are forcing me to appreciate the upper middle class type of lifestyle and spend less time going on about the people I met at support group who are barely getting by. I have Chinese values too like wanting kids, etc. but not like this. My symptoms are easing up so I guess I have to listen to my parents and do some light driving and exercise once this quarantine ends. And forget about my part time job. It was nice taking my client to the art museum and stuff.  I got banned from forum.schizophrenia.com for life for a really stupid slip up so I guess I’m ranting here tonight. Ok, good night!",5.441366332962552,5.477145454022988,6.0096638240019775,81.96784760845385,67.63984674329501,9.110962798170807,30.24867136324311,8.841846274778883,2.2103364726239034,2045,70,418,31,31,665,250,522,0.083,0.7170000000000001,0.2,0.9966,7,1,2,0,0,0,41.0,0,0,4,4,23,29,3,0,30,2,32,13,0,8,5,73,73,32,0,13,9,6,2,8,1,3,11,2,1,2,23,21,2,3,7,6,5,7,6,6,0,2,14,9,56,23,79,51,18,63,0,1,4,0,23,34,0,8,27,281,79,13,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11010584953622596,0.0572820611483815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06467932777179408,0.05293525079081594,0.0,0.04196544593918489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07873691148565902,0.1403780198694046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.054964737511931316,0.0,0.0,0.044397396649916834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07046270695235965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06097358109279401,0.0,0.07677703068483555,0.0,0.0622715328126401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06489811345953164,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05855697241466635,0.0,0.0,0.053187160594162106,0.0,0.1079013153440836,0.0,0.039124496656445,0.11548281152573298,0.1651777154300481,0.0,0.15167445480287892,0.06816440609735608,0.0,0.0,0.061668912562396816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06905414184332392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07771424168506669,0.0,0.0,0.1366301305696081,0.0,0.0,0.14337670444908365,0.0,0.05611542050261728,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07039561205251986,0.24312571239157635,0.2690618017979393,0.06899777224976085,0.18236624915200256,0.0,0.1156198881029526,0.0,0.0,0.11705401793636487,0.0,0.0,0.13785771430995006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06935107527609331,0.06937654701165191,0.0,0.0,0.0806269216534571,0.054949029844824485,0.0,0.10121358624235174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0646035561436724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07331448622325873,0.046649122743064673,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30576358883545945,0.1490983608587943,0.06571748130863883,0.047726376725761736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1952338330464231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06886063242475167,0.0,0.08820389958923151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05879069424583075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13934356426767924,0.1097163264566631,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11389363222140345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10599587414448956,0.06808650105574633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057554996882555214,0.0,0.0,0.1576152458047955,0.0,0.0781210889640515,0.0,0.07155320004243966,0.051760618613472885,0.055332594162809126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1829422707978793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2007116272302288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07648599813781032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0716669527595764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32483837509504865,0.054643577492046055,0.0,0.08383101326821132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0791649057648336,0.0,0.0,0.05011779794350053,0.0,0.0,0.048903383616351735,0.1505358461287158,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,I-Built-The-Sky,2020/04/13,"being inside is making me less paranoid I still get scared and paranoid but it happens less often compared to when I'm outside all day.


like now i dont have to worry about that guy who asked me for directions in the morning being an agent sent to kill me.



did being inside help you?",2.8621052631578934,4.8137587192982485,3.968280701754389,86.91663157894739,75.84210526315789,5.261754385964913,23.68070175438596,5.6839178017228535,0.5538870175438593,225,7,42,1,5,73,46,57,0.16699999999999998,0.685,0.14800000000000002,-0.0767,0,0,0,0,0,1,3.0,0,1,0,0,5,3,1,1,2,0,7,0,0,1,1,5,13,3,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,6,1,6,8,3,6,0,0,0,0,6,1,0,1,5,33,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2997378338570141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2067743514771563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3757660252773198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16751150733554565,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31746570583283795,0.2835245450059776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2149058416985621,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3547202000163119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15663947599433256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21401734954066964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3209980673076592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560487543812689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3256067097084333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Tetramorium_ant,2020/04/13,"Afraid to ask for help. So, I'm not formally diagnosed with schizophrenia. In the past year, I've been diagnosed with ADHD a bit late, mainly due to the lack of attention my parents were able to pay to me since my sister has learning disabilities. 
Im not going to explain possible delusions I'm having, but if you ask I can give you a shortened list.
I've always felt off, and looked into things like autism to explain how I feel, but with testing, my IQ averages higher than the majority, which let the doctors put that idea off the table. I did a bit of my own research into things that could contribute to how I feel, and I found schizophrenia. 
I'm mainly convinced that I may have it because when me and a few other friends got into a stressful situation on one of my birthdays, I hallucinated a few things (I won't say here unless you ask) I of course asked if anyone else saw them, and everyone just looked at me weird accept for one kid who said they were seeing similar things. That kid was later diagnosed that same year with schizophrenia. I also found out that schizophrenia is commonly hereditary like, and I have three family members with it. 
With all this, I want to ask for help but feel as if I might get brushed aside. I just want an explanation and get this all over with and figure out how to deal with the problem, but I can't If i'm not looking for it.
Any help?",7.2108665966386525,6.303810790441183,7.344495798319329,77.01058823529414,64.25735294117646,10.418487394957985,33.76680672268908,9.606745405546679,2.9409203781512594,1093,39,214,18,14,354,148,272,0.048,0.843,0.11,0.9499,1,0,0,0,0,0,28.0,0,3,2,0,9,9,0,2,13,0,17,4,0,3,2,60,47,23,0,9,14,2,4,2,1,3,4,2,0,2,18,20,0,0,13,0,1,2,5,4,0,3,11,12,28,5,39,31,12,21,0,0,5,0,25,11,0,6,10,154,46,5,0.10058492782757407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1208835366349035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0804377304433775,0.08369471764310972,0.0,0.0,0.06840120012689617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07033132025310079,0.10306114513618857,0.0,0.0,0.4701666477580265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061315638408142435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21962537983960795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08030888020024947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10369864392086922,0.0,0.3062747533466713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10295293577985286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08402580042390471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09611320901163203,0.0,0.0,0.09482251812650548,0.0,0.15257628524563382,0.0,0.0965773045375348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22057236328477872,0.07771166572788217,0.0,0.10510294660021888,0.09649022817014268,0.057164732464981764,0.0,0.08044695539173707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20225987065062448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11354814027783673,0.10864898251405464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1134641797605774,0.0,0.0,0.10285490354105407,0.0,0.09828142999119872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2533980192412641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10670471312071657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13631790050871384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11168765892884924,0.0,0.09601969503323776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1133943929624701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09624619163976472,0.0,0.10111563421019484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09567930008072803,0.07998917179187479,0.0,0.0,0.08015316470407004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08320489171493332,0.11306167322146445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1152196949854892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2672966264212447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186551929966422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12954679142911746
schizophrenia,TrashPanda66,2020/04/13,"If you were in long term care, what gifts would be nice? I have a family friend, who I don’t know very well, but who is in a long term care facility. He usually gets to go home frequently but because of the coronavirus he is stuck there for the immediate future.
I was just wondering if anyone had been in long term care before, and if so, what sort of gifts would be nice in a care package? I’m thinking maybe some snacks and art supplies, but any other thoughts would be appreciated! Thank you!",5.432482993197278,5.727138438775513,5.951428571428572,81.48523809523812,67.6734693877551,9.798639455782316,28.578231292517003,9.725611199111238,2.2875659863945565,389,12,82,8,6,126,65,98,0.022000000000000002,0.69,0.28800000000000003,0.9842,0,0,0,0,0,0,12.0,0,2,0,0,4,9,0,0,5,0,14,1,0,0,0,18,27,9,0,6,7,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,0,5,2,1,0,4,1,0,1,1,0,1,0,6,0,5,9,8,15,4,14,0,0,0,0,7,4,0,6,9,50,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10694262234890416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.109960290275224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09586462153001828,0.0,0.1338172149040732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6413507801354366,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14825132786212036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12149917405869196,0.0,0.08216218944384099,0.0,0.08937484114806991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15774523598495155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08642633053913161,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41751213142808496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1579894419501137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14478446116720442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10076626297787518,0.0,0.12484737549892133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.173200368358428,0.12975649093474825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14139619426792735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17054244694241855,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3351403224962309,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,tvanbus17,2020/04/13,"Dark Jokes, Anyone? I've been very afraid to open up about this but ever since I can remember, I've always been able to come up with very dark humor. Just really disturbing stuff. 

My fiance said something and I replied with a dark joke. She was shocked but laughed anyway. But then my mind wouldn't stop making the jokes. It was one after another and she was so appalled that she started hitting my arm(which sounds bad but it is never a serious hit, she just does it instinctively). 
She begged me to stop making the jokes but I just couldn't. Id have a joke in my head and no matter how hard id try to keep it in, I was compelled to say it, even knowing that my fiance would keep hitting me. 
The worst part was I couldn't stop laughing. She was punching my arm over and over while tears went down my face from pain and my own laughter. I don't understand what brings on these types of jokes. Maybe it's just my own desensitized mind, but I wanted to ask you all if you have anything similar happen to you. Thanks and happy Easter!",2.818695652173915,4.7197168840579735,3.4312318840579716,90.9451086956522,75.81159420289855,6.339130434782609,22.61111111111111,7.1686216300943375,0.6447082125603867,813,23,170,9,18,255,119,207,0.156,0.657,0.187,0.192,0,0,1,0,0,0,22.0,0,3,0,0,10,18,0,2,6,0,17,4,3,4,3,44,35,17,0,6,11,0,1,0,0,2,1,3,0,0,12,10,0,5,3,6,0,3,6,7,0,1,10,4,27,11,21,18,5,21,0,0,0,0,12,9,0,1,9,115,39,1,0.14875650067901364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12377732519975085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1559841612801752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1040140040356844,0.0,0.1224139251835346,0.0,0.13906724748336138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12420546450379202,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12814055353422982,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13017781619657298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09825226574251736,0.13455877133455582,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13154488227456393,0.15835406108870045,0.1332566058539335,0.0,0.15266708594815293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2644432255036979,0.0,0.0,0.08175268245460547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1985922386328001,0.0,0.14944589916472167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30040331994850744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11473018387103105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10080125470859662,0.0,0.15828740483559545,0.0,0.0,0.16108879402020465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09529722346287252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16851211692257936,0.0,0.14150149704163326,0.11829713998869945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12305291456894266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1145200218077789,0.0,0.0,0.105290616826113,0.0,0.0,0.3731012863284846,0.0,0.0,0.17029060359649847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13695499975906475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10099589932789314,0.0,0.0,0.15486076338661764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2454793842024651,0.08774043824851648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13789876645705235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10567235004986142,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,FineAgainWait,2020/04/13,"Lockdown's made me less paranoid at night While lockdown has been bad for my mental health on the whole I've noticed that the usual fear during the night of someone being in my house to attack me has gone way down.

I think cause I know everyone else is scared inside like me it's allowed the more rational side of my mind to suppress that fear because I know anyone who would potentially break in (which is nobody honestly, I live in a rural English village) won't out of fear of infection",7.5006249999999985,6.790080312499999,7.385500000000004,76.30950000000003,63.58333333333334,9.763333333333334,34.825,8.841846274778883,2.9171149999999995,394,15,72,5,5,126,70,96,0.19899999999999998,0.748,0.053,-0.9361,1,2,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,0,8,1,4,5,0,8,2,0,3,0,10,13,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,3,0,0,1,1,6,0,0,3,0,10,2,14,7,3,15,0,0,0,0,1,8,0,0,5,46,15,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11806146819171293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19208738232395806,0.0,0.0,0.14097985778646294,0.10292731982744664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17345196853818398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14104966789092346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16134016150549896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5699980994807619,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794760395578819,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19482630594943945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18558735063963736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08248991970423304,0.0,0.1490946406987756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15976673490884058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17015765906885247,0.0,0.17048693265677098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31690219114203594,0.0,0.0,0.1922329725445765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16904490154436452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1430631757585426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10819008317987958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1859606747905145,0.0,0.0,0.13402257145534174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18851119838997613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1199437797806067,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Bocephus859,2020/04/13,"Had a fucked up dream/halluciation Right before I woke up this morning I had a dream of an eye, with in the eye, were the words ""I want you and your first"" then I woke up to this awful screeching satanic sound in real life. I think it means satan wants me and my 1st born child (I have 2 kids) and today was Easter.",4.09,3.9654811818181837,5.1480303030303025,87.54204545454546,70.51515151515152,7.8121212121212125,22.560606060606066,7.1686216300943375,0.4816787878787876,242,4,56,2,4,80,49,66,0.121,0.828,0.051,-0.765,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,2,0,1,0,1,1,0,5,1,5,4,2,0,0,10,12,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,2,3,4,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,1,0,1,6,3,10,0,8,6,0,10,2,0,2,1,4,6,1,0,4,36,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28827229002902666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2881615590322117,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3131917210743522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23928656634586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3690249280017771,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3855997387211935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893117149311756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21707312775207835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3211187728185165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3996361523697679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TealTemptress,2020/04/14,Cuomo said Trump is schizophrenic I take issue with this. Don’t group that moron in with us. Rant over.,0.3810000000000002,2.389129099999998,1.1099999999999994,96.01000000000002,108.0,4.0,10.0,5.985473137389443,-1.039,82,1,16,1,4,25,19,20,0.259,0.741,0.0,-0.6808,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,2,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,4,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,2,0,0,0,10,4,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5214492081455383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4752309161702931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3756345807459033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6009533770503203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,_Novagrog_,2020/04/14,"Anyone else here can hear fragments of their thoughts being projected as real sounds ? Think of it as the ability to project sounds, but with your mind instead of with your mouth. It's really surprising when it happens, and I wonder if it's a common symptom of schizophrenia, or maybe something unknown to science yet but still experienced by a few.

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1. I play WoW a lot, and last year I figured that I may as well learn how to play all the classes. One time when I ran a dungeon I had a moment of realization ; I was doing well and learning fast. One more class mastered, so I felt proud. At that moment I heard ""C'est bien"". I'm french, but I play the game in english so it could not have come from a sound file.
2. Anyone who plays WoW knows of the draenei race. I love that race.  I would like to be that race lol. One time I was in a commercial building lobby all by myself because of the quarantine and I was getting bored. My mind was drifting and for a moment I started to imagine myself as a draenie. I was walking, tall and proud, when I heard two footsteps NEXT to me and they sounded like hoofs hitting the ceramic flooring. They hit loud and hard and I heard it perfectly clear with the resonance and everything.

I have a lot more examples but you get the idea. If you want more examples just ask! So has anyone else here experienced something like this before? Do you think those a mere hallucinations or something else?

Ty for reading.",2.999219717938576,5.356963035587191,3.754298141557928,86.68286938183736,77.00711743772243,6.440543034137341,27.48925794121524,7.526774132740827,1.6339085541057077,1147,48,219,16,27,364,157,281,0.013999999999999999,0.735,0.251,0.9973,0,1,3,0,0,0,37.0,0,5,3,4,15,17,0,0,19,1,17,3,1,1,4,49,39,29,0,5,10,0,2,3,0,2,1,9,0,0,13,14,0,0,11,6,0,4,1,1,2,4,12,13,31,16,28,20,8,25,0,0,0,1,16,5,0,8,19,154,44,7,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13236899921590622,0.1484475169146333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2562681615326102,0.2503511483878537,0.0,0.0,0.11421060773616253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07447249139978142,0.0,0.10395598738128553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10523693220104648,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0975412235004134,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3061671147143113,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10979673942363513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11730045822421901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12765549686810498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10803277709913267,0.0,0.10943855016082722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13769223805202355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1379128248492545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06714034912008396,0.09958324229015578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17905537167511087,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20772576458995956,0.11026140829705512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12273419713237835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2467097491189276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12992707581230295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2483526373572745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12220108094329556,0.13905395336017592,0.07826396225010322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2821527324078926,0.0,0.0,0.08647115373491909,0.0,0.09756353901563973,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12697935064266186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15656066926959245,0.0,0.09698776200996416,0.14247431045437547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.119340404361776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07205786377989,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21968744451325506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13248600693885745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08678465662123032,0.0,0.1484475169146333,0.07867219979310415
schizophrenia,_-x_-Y--_,2020/04/14,"im schecking in on you hello space men and/or gilrs

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i used to post shitty art on here and a while ago i said i wouldnt anymore

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WELL im here for the monemt , who knows how long our stay is , so lets enjoy it! haaahaaa

i hope you space men and women are having a good time as no matter how things is

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i had a great hiatus from reddit - actually i was institutionalized so haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa - for months

but ill try to be a bit more active here for me while - nothing is permanent - we all die in time (THANK FUCK)

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today im drugged and drunk and have new meds (ABILIFY???) its a mess over here in mouthbeast land TBH

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Well point is

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im going to drink some more and then go to bed but im -- like still here. -15kg but stil mostly here.

haaaaa

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no really , honestly i hope you are fine

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edit  -- whay have i been up too ? ive been close to tearing my my eyes out becaue of cameras , been in the hospital INVOLUNTARY for a month <3<3<3 - thoughbt the freezer was bringing the voice of the universe , heard the calling for me  .. not much time for painting.",3.443348623853212,5.7324090688073435,3.546321100917432,89.05131651376148,75.28440366972477,5.827889908256882,25.578899082568807,6.742157984588678,0.951424954128441,899,32,174,8,20,275,135,218,0.10099999999999999,0.765,0.133,0.7644,0,0,2,0,0,0,72.0,2,3,0,0,14,13,1,0,12,0,19,6,1,3,1,23,30,16,1,3,4,0,0,1,0,1,2,3,1,3,4,8,2,0,1,3,0,3,4,2,2,0,8,4,18,11,24,19,7,32,0,0,1,1,13,14,1,4,14,110,22,1,0.0,0.0,0.04861471611581849,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04416022826030812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4857953875321793,0.5448036884384652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.049405596379042814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05438783241448419,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050869260844730486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.051702723629035316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.048802206742557634,0.05777251058229306,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.046055497200119526,0.0,0.0,0.056624892653022126,0.04178457465750303,0.0,0.05492399490187426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0989600818315846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26905736747247033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.027378407761671414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050941792436594684,0.0,0.02433832532342505,0.0,0.0,0.044086940127222286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05533603741884738,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0795277430320203,0.0,0.036621611431366864,0.0,0.0,0.04811407407864172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04780125683757047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047093661615497696,0.0,0.04771141613189482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03191438083967927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.047387872404601857,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05309885101127442,0.03978433816399229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04586528191885713,0.0,0.0,0.033096548616950584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08714699472755688,0.0,0.04722118672778712,0.0,0.0,0.03382282796153075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04302634475117576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08958387191651139,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5448036884384652,0.0
schizophrenia,arkhipov__,2020/04/14,"Server for mentally ill / neets/ shutins Trying to foster a comfy environment. Please come down.

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schizophrenia,spookiisweg,2020/04/14,"Question about schizophrenic friend Hi all, a week ago one of my best friends who is diagnosed as schizoaffective, bipolar, borderline personality disorder, ADD, OCD, etc. murdered someone. He stabbed them with a knife multiple times and the person died a couple hours later. My question is- will he be found not guilty by reason of insanity? I believe this was a premeditated murder; which doesn’t help at all in his case I know, just figured that you guys would have a little more knowledge on the subject then me. Any response is appreciated; thanks in advance.",5.786179138321997,8.661308071428575,5.754625850340138,73.19910430839005,70.3265306122449,8.43718820861678,34.35827664399093,9.150863307647796,3.5950099773242634,453,23,71,10,9,142,85,98,0.182,0.638,0.18,-0.3111,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,1,1,2,2,6,2,0,7,0,9,3,0,1,2,15,12,3,3,1,2,0,0,0,2,2,3,0,0,3,4,3,0,0,7,0,0,1,2,2,0,1,2,0,8,4,10,7,5,12,0,0,0,0,15,5,0,2,6,48,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16336485467065345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12532573594790586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20763539355701469,0.1934044055503021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20391698600199687,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1870537787554686,0.1912673069067008,0.0,0.21121604147380246,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20553569974207034,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20206804637309292,0.2847690298128229,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18247930116278807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1235278869132515,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18149173727173104,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10128275557668356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1847102613047476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12488188198769833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32183553083948463,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4129012556177957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18948416446680588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15615108047435947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16967247250026704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10746288149245327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14782893614019174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13091664371082576,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Warmelon_,2020/04/14,Prolactin levels super high and just stopped taking meds last Thursday. When will prolactin levels drop? I stopped getting my period last year when I started taking Solian. Pdoc suggested to get off my meds to lower prolactin levels and eventually get my periods again as my husband and I are hoping to start trying for a baby soon. Anyone know when I should expect prolactin levels to drop??,6.02695652173913,8.7248327826087,5.99644927536232,72.55380434782613,69.0,6.918840579710146,30.34057971014493,7.793537801064563,2.5753362318840582,318,13,43,4,6,100,44,69,0.14400000000000002,0.7659999999999999,0.09,-0.2593,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,10,12,7,0,3,1,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,8,2,7,10,0,23,0,0,0,0,2,6,0,1,15,28,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153020053042105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3430091687267441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2312195527753079,0.0,0.21736039142234131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12027034168635907,0.3567723651555996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4861702832296213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3097962802401168,0.0,0.0,0.365924948621826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32908527030968904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1485799726245258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1409276608528054
schizophrenia,skyyhead,2020/04/14,"can you tell your delusions aren't real? like at some point I'm convinced a powerful sources made me listen to this song just so I'd hear this one line cos its sending me a message or read this book cos it has a message for me that will guide me and follow those messages and good things happen...


I'm not sure I still believe it I'm actually pretty sure it's not true.


so do you ever just realise that your delusions most likely aren't real?",1.1908695652173904,3.480008521739133,2.6197391304347843,92.66656521739132,83.34782608695653,4.5495652173913035,22.243478260869566,5.6839178017228535,0.18095739130434785,352,12,73,2,10,114,63,92,0.09,0.782,0.128,0.6802,1,0,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,4,0,1,6,7,0,0,3,0,6,0,0,3,4,18,14,5,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,1,0,3,0,0,11,2,0,0,0,3,0,2,4,0,0,1,1,3,9,7,3,12,2,6,0,0,0,0,11,2,0,3,4,46,20,2,0.0,0.0,0.2099100819533092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24234809392476964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1945735187226092,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18041869194185575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19021540075210425,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24243738747441745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101775047323215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20353622480643074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14575976449384226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20334242712926104,0.0,0.0,0.21883768965105047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21516180744515834,0.4896699719252636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17178201070980764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.405465189724603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1880100251647056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14290527205804732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SchizoCakes,2020/04/14,"Online Dating and Paranoia I have been messaging this guy now for about three weeks and I have talked to him over the phone using a burner phone. He keeps saying all the right things and he seems way too supportive. I would rate him about five points higher on the attractiveness scale than me. I mentioned this and he says he is more interested in my heart. And has been talking like we are already in a relationship. Only, I am sitting here wondering what he wants from me. sex or money? Or is he genuinely interested in me. I can no longer tell. My friends say I cannot tell either and that I will blow a guy off who is clearly interested. I just figure some online stranger is going to rape and murder me. I don't see how someone could be attracted to me before meeting me. Any thoughts. My intent is too run. Only, I have a hard time distinguishing between what is a valid concern and what is me being paranoid. I think everyone is out to get me, like I  seriously do. I figure he is my murderer....:-(",2.1487585034013605,4.638532005102043,3.703061224489797,85.1371768707483,80.98979591836735,6.590476190476192,23.619047619047624,7.793537801064563,1.3679312925170075,787,28,153,14,21,260,120,196,0.092,0.773,0.135,0.8351,0,0,0,0,0,0,26.0,1,0,0,0,8,13,3,0,8,0,26,3,1,3,2,31,37,11,2,3,4,0,1,2,1,2,0,3,0,2,8,10,0,1,7,0,1,2,3,4,0,2,3,5,29,9,17,29,4,17,0,0,1,2,27,9,0,5,6,111,37,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17720282117560662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10919916586660276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1366408259416172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12820919389248892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.153440030779602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12406286819304176,0.0,0.083895853271389,0.0,0.0912606955811138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31799673585288085,0.0,0.0,0.14384716321323268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902867825199952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14272991412283245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1569014893789234,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2442549953355292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15179897444847668,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17240165527804313,0.0,0.1371335124815535,0.0,0.3830963852313393,0.0,0.0,0.12796060172943108,0.14618500951990065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13605799006882865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18222304509159698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25813449184776155,0.28070609177781103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10668149312441504,0.10289248218338136,0.0,0.12748171838014075,0.09363485426070277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13868862142895513,0.0,0.0,0.09471360207815437,0.1274600651033075,0.12880671631696067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17414097898406636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11407065103706884,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,catsandanxiety6,2020/04/15,"Supporting my partner when he experiences delusions If this type of post is not allowed, please delete 

I am looking for advice on how to better support my partner when he experiences delusions. 

I know this isn’t a one size fits all answer. I am just having a hard time providing the best support. 

For example, a lot of the time my partner thinks he is being followed or that we are being surveilled. I usually try to just say something like, I know we are safe. We are not being followed.

He will usually get angry when I tell him something along these lines and says that I don’t believe him or understand. If I don’t agree with what he says he gets very upset.

I don’t know what the general consensus or best thing to do is. I don’t think affirming delusions is healthy. Maybe I just need to learn to be quiet and listen 

I appreciate any advice or just general insight 

Thank you all.",3.915276630883569,5.732104578034687,4.917146985962017,81.81851156069365,72.58381502890174,7.948637489677952,30.27621800165153,8.634040054169528,2.474235672997523,704,31,132,13,14,230,94,173,0.053,0.753,0.195,0.9772,3,0,2,0,0,0,14.0,3,1,0,3,8,10,0,1,6,0,21,0,0,2,2,37,38,12,0,3,12,0,1,1,3,1,0,5,0,3,8,7,0,1,9,0,0,2,7,1,0,1,0,7,21,9,12,33,5,12,0,0,1,0,20,2,0,7,8,92,29,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593855874853024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09025439179848398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14953038990424825,0.2785636463582488,0.11738036758248588,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2596519462252106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13868181412070404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11889136812278725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21881890663018688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06484046093113066,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11145167076568076,0.0,0.0,0.11283409872553472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13333543427865566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0984104606924109,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08993474660411999,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14568709336212668,0.0,0.0,0.12710941170186013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31663365717912445,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20434922505984512,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4518284542530489,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11600343915852268,0.1221910702907984,0.0,0.0,0.08817350573776665,0.1700836874787447,0.0,0.0,0.1547806112871424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09010840827693244,0.0,0.0,0.13816656900113242,0.0,0.0,0.2923454383690544,0.1095081915329637,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,SuperThaiGirl1,2020/04/15,"Hello There! Hello, my name is Kayla, and I'm thai. I am overall schizophrenic, and I write weird things. I am at a mental asylum right now, and I'm writing this on computer. I tend to write weird things, as well as pictures of my mental asylum so yeah.",0.22168067226891,2.619980019607844,2.2906442577030823,91.61647058823529,91.94117647058823,4.4829131652661065,17.089635854341733,6.1826913282559595,-0.12702464985994366,195,5,39,2,7,65,34,51,0.07,0.8220000000000001,0.10800000000000001,0.4326,0,0,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,1,3,1,0,0,0,7,6,6,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,6,1,6,6,0,4,0,0,0,0,6,3,0,0,1,26,9,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7426537851332438,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3146678055693984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4895846497163428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3312950321503945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,HauntingBowlofGrapes,2020/04/15,"Can't kill the radio Today I've been having an auditory hallucination of what sounds like a muffled radio station with booming bass playing in the background. When I try to listen to music to drown it out it gets louder. When someone speaks it gets more muffled sounding and a bit louder. Talk show host, music and everything... It's making me increasing fidgety and angry. Can't even sit in silence.


Thought it was real for a while. ...",4.5331216931216884,6.831261888888887,5.530264550264549,76.02333333333334,72.08641975308642,6.603880070546737,30.08994708994709,7.447530270364453,2.196779894179893,347,15,55,4,7,114,60,81,0.11,0.7959999999999999,0.094,-0.3318,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,1,0,6,0,5,0,0,1,0,8,10,6,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,6,5,0,0,1,4,0,1,2,1,0,0,3,5,2,2,9,7,3,9,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,5,36,8,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34377800666704017,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20798168309490264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28300256637415044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32903375286993525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3483788083774661,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15383920619481747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2101913260131606,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3584134271379835,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2668050287030944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2530964204008163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24998725553954576,0.0,0.0,0.2984786251824871,0.0,0.0,0.21378944260629704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,weightedthoughts,2020/04/15,"I can't tell if this is an actual delusion or a ""normal"" thought that people just aren't open about. Please help me On the outside, I look like a successful young professional. I have a lot of things going for me with my career and professional development. Because of this though, I feel almost constant stress and anxiety that's wrapped up in this belief that it's my job to ""save the world"" or make some other monumental impact. I have these visions and plans for my career that I realize would sound grandiose if I said them out loud. I feel like it's my spiritual and moral responsibility to try and become as successful and wealthy as possible so I can use that wealth and power to make a positive difference and help society avoid collapse. I feel this huge burden and weight on my shoulders that no one has put there except for myself. I feel like I'm obligated to be extremely successful, no matter the cost to my own personal health and wellbeing, because if I ""waste"" my natural talents and the opportunities that have been given to me, it would make me a horrible sinful person (I'm not even religious). I feel like I can't relax or enjoy life anymore because of this intense weight of responsibility that follows me everywhere. It exerts significant influence over my choices and how I choose to live my life. 

I can't figure out of this is a delusion, or a normal thought for people to have that just isn't typically shared out loud. I don't want to ask anyone about this face to face, so I thought I'd ask here anonymously. Please shed some light on this for me. It would really help to know if anyone else ever feels this way.",8.047500000000003,7.240878105095542,8.373304140127393,69.98441480891722,62.53503184713375,11.79904458598726,35.54856687898089,11.080906280650957,3.8721598726114648,1311,50,241,31,16,434,160,314,0.10800000000000001,0.716,0.17600000000000002,0.9705,2,1,0,0,0,1,29.0,0,0,1,6,12,18,0,2,12,0,19,8,3,6,1,63,43,26,0,10,12,0,8,4,0,3,3,4,0,2,26,17,2,1,14,1,2,3,9,4,0,1,6,14,35,14,36,33,4,19,3,0,1,0,11,12,0,12,7,166,61,8,0.0,0.0,0.10234565737533333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1050200219078959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08023127178262325,0.0,0.10401065034273096,0.14666606907644045,0.10745975603219864,0.0,0.0,0.19609327335065044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19179770035324015,0.11582935068221252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11333570239084173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10957503604859793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0876119899699471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06927083390312068,0.09486802394716147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3181763673813049,0.22477428106101785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059604501737443284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11148025523711877,0.0,0.0,0.21089224582648533,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10407508787185613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05763812615058018,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14815666076331416,0.2049520888865297,0.0,0.09260906715197284,0.0,0.08807098378580933,0.0,0.0,0.08916340159884795,0.0,0.0,0.2100203472075544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20551605985912255,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07106794860531887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14541819819189564,0.18315059479419984,0.0,0.2302487804650933,0.0,0.1182340229876563,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10543121143191307,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06718743927213665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0997628566073082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12013722821421878,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09166786768686414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0696761864655693,0.0,0.10304195974935572,0.2497839049866012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07120517897849682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09058079301596404,0.0,0.0,0.061859675993913385,0.08324715939900144,0.0,0.2554259455334679,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22350665665989028,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,thejenot,2020/04/15,"I just hate my parents even more for this When I was young (around 7-8 years old) I was diagnosed with Asperger (probably was just childhood schizophrenia) my parents wouldn't let me take meds because I was waking few hours earlier and generally was more helpful but they didn't liked this. I remember (barley but remember) I was feeling better. They even told me to lie to my psychiatrist(? idk who was she) that I'm taking my meds and that I feel better.  


But year ago I came out about that I need some psychiatric help and so after few months I was diagnosed as paranoid schizophrenic. After that they are insisting me on taking meds and are reminding me from time to time to take them.  


Like what happened? Now they probably think I'm just stupid psycho that needs to be contained in some way. I just utterly despise it, like them, for many things. I never had great relations with them but now I just dislike them even more.",3.1552525252525245,5.761692000000004,3.777878787878791,85.39237373737376,77.86363636363636,7.547474747474749,25.68686868686868,8.515128840125781,2.018367171717172,736,28,138,16,18,232,100,176,0.135,0.75,0.115,-0.5922,2,0,0,0,0,0,21.0,0,0,8,2,14,9,3,0,0,0,15,4,1,0,1,31,30,11,0,3,9,2,2,3,0,1,3,0,0,0,11,9,0,1,5,0,0,1,3,3,0,0,12,2,30,6,18,15,7,22,0,0,0,0,15,4,0,2,19,102,41,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10577816263952494,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10622831412484718,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07274199114296702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21107401381177332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13648084965460594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2422333135413125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2364474933364578,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12067288844092393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13156089754103004,0.0,0.0,0.10552244415604854,0.0,0.0,0.11781290999447852,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15996773527291624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11751525468291416,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1220222226602557,0.0,0.17489470293899434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1209811099377638,0.0,0.0,0.3976436216371702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.095247453061248,0.0,0.0,0.1769622243244044,0.09203405872738417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12521595373526026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.265001976901938,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25731418561478475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2703535118981784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35888292155332885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07927703819315167,0.0764613523952759,0.0,0.0,0.1391636674747118,0.0,0.0,0.11402419317741035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09471798859725523,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15368822374497626
schizophrenia,trapsv2,2020/04/15,Has anyone else been diagnosed with schizophrenia due to the use of drugs? I used to smoke marijuana but started having withdraw like symptoms and went to hospital. They found synthetic marijuana in my system but I didn’t know it was synthetic I was smoking. After rehab I started having psychosis due to withdraws of the synthetics and was given depakote and respridal. I was hearing voices but not having visual hallucinations for about 2 months. I was finally given invega sustenna but was never officially diagnosed by the psychiatrist.,8.10241758241758,10.676368912087916,8.671208791208791,56.04879120879124,63.17582417582418,11.353846153846154,39.373626373626365,11.20814326018867,5.755742857142858,445,24,54,14,7,148,62,91,0.0,0.9620000000000001,0.038,0.5023,0,0,2,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,1,0,1,1,0,0,3,0,12,5,0,2,1,14,22,7,0,0,5,0,0,1,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,12,2,8,1,12,10,0,11,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,9,45,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1560597243801555,0.2286846577936618,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4530665562168165,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588296860807555,0.0,0.18644670977008126,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2444938717873649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2447164513350968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25155149111589314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12265945542128225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1090394209927959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17814822790475826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1721379831397994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31595023754806145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23197999718053106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3855292142544504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20689948132626387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,throwacct12345,2020/04/15,"Delusions getting harder to identify I've always been at the higher functioning end of this spectrum, but lately... the lines between reality and delusion are getting blurrier and blurrier. 



How do you cope with watching yourself slip away, being completely unable to stop it... 


I'm just going to write it here.. get it ""on paper"" now and out of my head; maybe it will stay that way. Sorry in advance; I normally do not allow myself to show how scattered my mind is. I genuinely need to vent this somewhere.... 



It would be so much easier to accept my diagnosis if things didn't keep happening to confirm my delusions. 


I've spent a lot of time trying to convince myself I'm nuts; I'm not psychic, I'm not clairvoyant, I'm not special. I'm not being followed by 'demons', I'm not being watched by *something.*


How is it, then, that things I dream about *happen?* How is it that I think something will happen, or someone will say or do something, and then it *does,* or they *do*? How is it that I can repeatedly accurately describe objects thousands of miles away without having been to that place? *(This has been tested... but I don't care enough at the moment to try to prove it... I'm sorry...)* How is it that I know things about them before they tell me? If someone near me is struggling with depression and I spend time with them, *they* recover and *I* have to fight depression for a while. If someone is in a great mood, but they so much as talk to me when I'm struggling, suddenly *they're* struggling, but I'm doing fantastic. Why do machines short out around me? Lights flicker, computers crash, credit card machines malfunction, billing systems freeze, cars have strange issues...

So many other things.... 


It feels like something in my universe has shifted, and I'm able to access things I shouldn't be able to. I keep trying to convince myself I'm delusional, but it just keeps happening... 


I don't hear voices; I don't see visual hallucinations. I received my diagnosis after informing my therapist I was worried about broadcasting my thoughts towards others, and about being constantly watched. 


But am I really crazy if it's *real*? If there really are entities following me, for whatever reason, then why me? Why do I have these abilities, what the hell am I supposed to do with them? Can I get rid of them?


And if it's not real, how is it that I have these events repeating constantly *with accuracy?* I'm actively looking for *disproof* but I can't find any, and I'm scared...



Because if it's real, then I don't know what to do. 



And if it's not real, I don't know what to do, but it's even worse in this case, because now this is all so convincing that I *can't even tell the fucking difference anymore.*


Fuck. 



I think I'll just let the demons in and hope for the best. I think I'm too far gone, anyway...",1.9093048469387768,4.5654444582560325,3.4132696544526917,85.59143509392395,84.00927643784786,6.4114216141001865,25.304991883116887,7.701528016792611,1.713452898886827,2189,91,409,41,64,718,239,539,0.122,0.784,0.094,-0.951,1,0,4,0,1,0,125.0,0,1,8,2,28,22,4,4,10,0,56,3,1,9,2,89,103,49,0,13,31,0,2,1,0,5,0,3,0,0,44,20,0,4,13,2,4,7,18,10,0,1,8,11,52,11,58,83,6,50,3,2,5,2,18,19,3,13,22,294,96,4,0.15154119040016634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06304720506229618,0.0,0.0,0.051526603020478866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07514407027219364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06745189402712308,0.0,0.0,0.14237793681189806,0.0,0.0,0.09237810311346492,0.0,0.06447519574723559,0.0,0.07951656498825163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07725317165193793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944402747138671,0.16376219082839402,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13052220523618174,0.0,0.0,0.0791641450349747,0.0,0.0,0.06630735846862328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06711025744311135,0.07829127959850239,0.0,0.10009152704030444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.038311889584813436,0.054130528350620204,0.0,0.0,0.06925295131280451,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14009738862274407,0.15834803470422118,0.0,0.043062175386258866,0.0,0.0,0.08353734870179105,0.0,0.0,0.26801474839680045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07776249049252977,0.0,0.08539896762961607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07525729763732787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07908481557023206,0.0,0.20204515938716008,0.0,0.0,0.12492461264913493,0.0,0.0854725317205164,0.0,0.0,0.07748056720697227,0.0,0.037017685494162934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06362821665603208,0.0,0.0,0.06441745045698492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07681949086770852,0.07612174713867875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07650670138340587,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11140021149696797,0.05618293625513602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07423909567544376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0791641450349747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3449741025282519,0.09708116700429847,0.07790479144049567,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060255818512110676,0.07585958408248891,0.0,0.06037935432243536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19260053828446594,0.2333276240055057,0.0,0.1696379557929918,0.0,0.08076137288480292,0.0,0.06334761036993174,0.0,0.2376356329893705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060901534282692425,0.13245367985808915,0.0,0.0,0.0879755010454114,0.2516930831032498,0.14565221376502055,0.0,0.060153388931251474,0.08836488678430827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15432978128508268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0601431716389249,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20511353041770766,0.0,0.0,0.07304014989288501,0.0,0.0,0.07694871741790107,0.07721670977193085,0.0538252568655585,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,fearthemorning,2020/04/15,Frie d going they psychotic episode Messaging me saying she thinks she’s being drugged and I’m plotting against her. What do I say to stay neutral and maybe calm down?,3.9208333333333294,6.4147552500000025,3.6887500000000015,87.61458333333336,74.625,6.766666666666668,32.541666666666664,7.793537801064563,2.400341666666667,136,7,25,2,3,41,29,32,0.0,0.922,0.078,0.3182,0,0,1,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,3,5,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,6,1,3,4,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,1,0,0,0,14,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.446249051997024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2186922847142903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3865861083161461,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6120212227804935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4101485583210037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24656608045035305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Mathcmput,2020/04/15,"Negative symptoms stronger since AP dose decrease? My old regimen used to be: 300mg Effexor XR, 5mg Abilify, and 150mg Invega Sustenna (injection once per month). 

I got on the injection because I got hospitalized in the US, and they pushed for the injection when I got discharged. I got the first two boosters and came back to Canada. My psychiatrist kept me on the maximum dose. I always knew that 150mg is the maximum injection dose in Canada, but didn’t bring it up until a few months ago. The recommended maintenance dose is 75mg, for reference. My psychiatrist told me he thought lower doses would be less helpful. He did decrease my Invega Sustenna down to 100mg/month. 

That’s when I started getting more drowsy, and less focused. I blamed it on the Abilify 5mg. My dad’s psychiatrist told my dad the best route is to simplify antipsychotics to the Abilify Maintena injection. My own psychiatrist kept me on the Invega injection and dropped the Abilify. He emphasized he added Abilify in the past as an activating antipsychotic to counteract the prolactin raising by Invega. 

So now my current regimen is Effexor XR 300mg, and Invega Sustenna 100mg. My sleep in the night is fine, but I’ve been sleeping 1-2 hours in the daytime due to fatigue. It might as well be my allergic rhinitis symptoms. Antihistamines and corticosteroids might be causing the drowsiness as well, but I’m not taking them daily anymore. I’m still drinking more than a litre of coffee daily, but I drink it cold so there might be some volume taken by ice. I’ve been hardly getting any school work done, but I’m sure a lot of non-psychotic students can relate in this quarantine. I’m still behind on 4 lectures of my 2 classes. My final exam is due next Wednesday and Thursday. 

Anyone have a similar experience with more disorganization and stronger negative symptoms after decreasing antipsychotics dose? 

My sexual performance (masturbation) still seems fine, so don’t think the prolactin was raised that high... When I first got the Invega Sustenna, I always got dry orgasms until two weeks into the monthly injection. That lasted for about 3 months. 

I also don’t get the rush in my brain anymore, right after getting the Invega injection. I stopped getting it since the dose decrease from 150mg to 100mg. Wonder if this has anything to do. 

I might start taking the Abilify 5mg again in hopes it will fix it.",6.071078767123289,7.825681869863014,6.855430936073059,70.29150256849317,67.05936073059361,10.680479452054797,35.37699771689498,10.75352987622681,4.408047716894976,1921,95,313,57,32,635,212,438,0.05,0.866,0.084,0.9267,2,1,2,0,0,0,54.0,1,0,2,5,18,8,0,0,29,0,29,18,4,2,1,39,62,27,0,3,7,2,1,0,0,6,12,0,0,0,13,12,2,3,6,2,0,4,6,1,2,4,20,2,33,7,45,31,10,59,0,1,0,1,12,18,0,10,36,197,46,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07299945367070394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06585630035902187,0.13704574788937135,0.0,0.0,0.05600170412124441,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16334071113428025,0.0575819397899994,0.0,0.06776809848563772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06332306213237393,0.0,0.05020058469394894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08642260277550089,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09193127973078734,0.0,0.09418794212990936,0.0,0.08459746403122953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08427396590438464,0.0,0.16134583404468095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08055536787326595,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09021181768839577,0.0,0.14009593785247346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21512576193315885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3951831182738141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07377058431736193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05519833672881013,0.08700866390704276,0.0,0.08179341676327903,0.08109943655441143,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06712729619650774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07001212556750969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3494468378591467,0.0,0.0,0.3286600874649276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0875815358229278,0.07728111114130827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08641383046782697,0.08770144085392598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0786136287241705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0703275554364622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08334390643332476,0.0,0.07496952550073048,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1362436834036676,0.0,0.16482153498994154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11657734003688848,0.0,0.19729755019624828,0.06884936954440475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.077615120360945,0.2567835798093749,0.12383584924999395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.052767384236003766,0.0,0.06537772900494182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15738038172509414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1608904969866775,0.0,0.09905846748574393,0.07112507756456228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06605724099416062,0.0,0.14808740727206604,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08930646587871158,0.0599527231042165,0.0,0.0,0.05849999674996958,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,psyched___,2020/04/15,"Does this happen to you? Is this part of psychosis? I used to have moments when I’d be having a conversation with someone and when I would start to respond I would realize that I’m alone in my room. Like, I would lose awareness of my surroundings and think I’m somewhere else having a conversation with someone when in reality I’d just be alone in my house.

After realizing that I was alone, I would just be very confused and disoriented, but I would just move on with my day.

Is this a symptom of my psychosis or something else? Dissociative phenomena?",4.098700209643607,6.204937716981133,5.2561635220125815,78.35602725366878,72.77358490566039,8.107337526205452,30.645702306079663,8.841846274778883,2.6547161425576524,442,20,82,9,9,146,57,106,0.11199999999999999,0.87,0.018000000000000002,-0.7382,0,3,1,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,1,6,3,0,1,3,0,14,1,0,1,0,21,20,8,0,5,5,0,0,1,0,5,1,0,1,0,5,6,0,0,3,0,0,1,0,2,0,0,1,0,13,1,14,11,1,14,0,1,0,0,4,6,0,2,8,61,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4973311097256959,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10322741887994756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14007224463072732,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2674242615494645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14154321733327724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18469125726417826,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07819871606942896,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17906959881211507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17012167997289568,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17333267389579213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712417881177546,0.12322434788391945,0.0,0.0,0.11329344329387922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16636678522445386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10256193273609353,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13824307432788754,0.0,0.13206877085680133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5685209546201355,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Static_Reality,2020/04/16,"Schizophrenia but immune to stimulant psychosis? When I was 16, I was put on risperidone.. Voices, agitation, bizarre thoughts, etc..

At 17 I was put on Concerta for hypersomnia and ADHD.

I'm 23 and have been taking antipsychotics and stimulants for 8 years. I used to abuse stimulants because my hypersomnia was so bad but eventually took Vyvanse as prescribed for 2-3 years once every morning.

I was diagnosed with schizophrenia at age 18 but I've never had stimulant psychosis which makes me think I have autism (Which often comes with ADHD, OCD, depression, a form of psychosis, etc).

I've done psychedelics and they definitely made me psychotic and gave me dissociative panic attacks from derealization and depersonalization to this day.. Sometimes.. The high dose psychedelic trips helped a lot with negative symptoms but I don't advise at all for someone with psychosis to do those ever.

Anyways if anyone else with schizophrenia is on a stimulant, let me know =\] Because a lot can't seem to tolerate a stimulant without getting psychosis.",7.223527533918595,9.674793910614527,7.0634676775738265,67.19381284916203,65.20111731843575,10.03048683160415,38.484038308060654,10.290406445055957,4.7088049481245005,846,46,124,22,14,268,114,179,0.187,0.78,0.033,-0.9867,0,0,0,0,1,0,30.0,0,0,1,0,5,4,1,1,6,0,15,4,0,9,3,37,28,14,0,1,6,0,0,0,0,0,4,1,0,0,4,12,0,0,4,0,0,5,5,4,0,0,12,1,13,0,24,15,6,19,0,1,0,0,4,7,0,5,7,86,17,1,0.0,0.17151387825671222,0.0,0.0,0.3479405895355726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10121775765705608,0.1483210890214094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1646824693173636,0.0,0.0,0.12086640373457652,0.17648556593701706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124695704332457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0933565639365036,0.0,0.12467935843065298,0.1469257397186011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1481371049467575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12092625410187688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32288558856286786,0.0,0.13094137884452298,0.12196437428376752,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07562978015867998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09702785092800258,0.15294416772907726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07955489529722985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1480242751450311,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2461351730973928,0.0,0.13697297605517372,0.09662670555212392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11164585052435333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15416193374001322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1698416490436571,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29104238970619345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13178172342702704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12265249683379267,0.0,0.14316879521438128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15045839167770128,0.10883956865949956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09275471318394513,0.0,0.11492122625122415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16083082599873924,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1250239378965746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1395409924594074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18643807187088166
schizophrenia,schizosux,2020/04/16,"I think I had a seizure? I was walking into my house and then next thing I knew I was lying on the ground shaking. I have no memory of how I got on the floor but I'm sore all over. I smoked some cannabis prior to this episode. I'm a daily smoker. I know that's a big no no. 
The other morning I had a shaking episode when it was over I recalled hearing voices. I'm on Abilify max dose injection. 
Anybody know what in the schizophrenia hell this is? Have any of you gone through something similar? I'm afraid to tell my loved ones.",-0.2054054054054042,2.078198369369371,1.6473513513513502,96.43210810810812,92.33333333333334,4.401441441441441,22.71531531531532,6.079149491110277,0.36516288288288257,413,17,91,4,15,135,72,111,0.20800000000000002,0.743,0.048,-0.9397,0,0,3,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,0,0,2,5,1,3,8,0,8,3,0,1,1,10,20,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,7,2,0,0,4,0,0,4,3,4,0,1,8,2,14,1,12,12,2,18,1,0,0,1,4,10,1,1,4,60,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2203389514516681,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591416198196871,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3651845431201041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3738658033774184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3561365268691239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29243305637552297,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3445899383342159,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.219558598434388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2494399058174337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2832003588927359,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21525886345182246,0.2076135056218356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mamakeysh9,2020/04/16,Ssi approved me So im going to start getting ssi the lady i talked to said the money is for bills food and clothes i asker her am i allowed to get things for my daughter and she told me no. Is that true im not aloud to support my 3 year old?,-1.9785000000000004,-0.11291496363636,0.607613636363638,102.95142045454548,98.63636363636364,2.75,17.784090909090907,3.1291,-1.1049545454545453,187,6,47,0,8,63,40,55,0.081,0.8170000000000001,0.102,0.2828,1,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,0,0,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,3,1,0,1,1,5,10,3,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,0,2,1,2,0,0,0,2,1,9,2,6,8,0,4,0,0,0,0,6,0,0,0,3,27,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3260515338916649,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2817530763874399,0.0,0.1532434603773519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5825181131436769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28294336250041785,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25649078371591544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908536191650044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3059859429354762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21672759845634268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1791378102096262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2576539782799957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17364026510175815
schizophrenia,SpaceFeline,2020/04/16,"I'm not OK and I don't think I'll ever be OK. I'm a the end of my rope and exhausted from the constant baragements from my voices. I don't have any avenues for help. I called the suicide hotline and all the numbers they gave me are useless. Nobody actually wants to help.

I'm tied of hurting the people I love and subjecting them to myself. I don't know what I hope to accomplish with this.",1.2355722891566288,3.1666160963855465,3.3839608433734973,89.28027861445786,80.80722891566266,6.077710843373494,24.832831325301214,7.1686216300943375,1.0671698795180724,308,12,66,4,8,105,54,83,0.21899999999999997,0.643,0.138,-0.7481,0,0,0,0,0,1,7.0,0,0,2,1,1,7,0,0,6,2,6,2,0,0,2,12,15,4,1,2,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,2,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,4,3,0,0,1,1,12,4,9,13,1,3,0,2,0,1,7,0,0,1,3,42,14,1,0.0,0.0,0.2737273209730833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1907494679436931,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28642163532820225,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031206108948669,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2484395467667449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2537281083244617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3760261773320973,0.0,0.0,0.2785995707400901,0.0,0.0,0.3002808140296851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1541553424123047,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2531620012951492,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19446322800890029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3068212304274349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1797329318051916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1654460366987478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,theballinstalin,2020/04/16,"Need some advice or just to rant, I guess Over the last year (since I was in the the psychiatric unit of the hospital), I've realized some things about myself. I started to not be able to sleep even worse than I already was because I kept hearing these voices. I pushed it aside until I started seeing things. I spend days in fear, pain, and completely sad and suicidal, but then there was a massive shift that I noticed a few months ago. I started feeling for the first time ever that everyone was out to get me. I was scared of getting shot or stabbed no matter where I was, I was scared people weren't my friends because they hate me and everyone is made to hate me. I even looked at my husband and thought that he has to hate me and he's just lying to make sure it hurts me even more. I feel as though there's some sort of switch or something that some power made to make everyone hate me. I've learned that everyone I held close to me 5-7 years ago no longer like me anymore, but they all still talk to each other. I've started to just feel so scared and I'm paranoid, I've never felt like this before.

When I left the psychiatric hospital, they put in my chart that they suspected I had schizophrenia, and my psychiatrist agreed when I left the hospital. I haven't been in to see a doctor since I left the hospital after the first visit. My husband talked to me today to tell me that I've been telling him things that have been concerning him, like that voices were telling me to do things, but I don't remember any of that. I recognize right now that what my mind is telling me, what these voices are telling me, and such, are all things that scare me and I'm just scared right now. I've never felt foreign to myself as I do now. I don't know who I am. Why is everyone made to hurt me and hate me? I don't know what help I need, and I feel stupid for posting this. I don't know what I'm doing, but I have no one to talk to about this except my husband, and I'm even having trouble confiding in him. I have to force myself to remember that he does love me. I remember knowing he did 100%, but these voices.. And with this virus going on, I don't know what to do. Thank you for reading this if you've made it this far. Take care of yourselves.",4.7216152422091975,4.735555002159828,5.131066800370256,87.72727591792658,69.17278617710583,8.514933662449861,28.414763961740203,8.192908349453996,1.6025576056772604,1758,55,389,22,28,560,193,463,0.20600000000000002,0.731,0.063,-0.9973,1,0,1,0,0,0,49.0,0,1,4,3,24,25,6,6,12,0,36,4,1,6,6,74,83,30,1,3,15,3,6,3,1,0,2,5,0,0,37,17,0,2,18,1,1,4,13,17,0,3,23,14,69,8,48,59,9,49,0,3,3,1,29,17,0,10,30,264,106,3,0.06417790155274232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06271390263022003,0.11377967490701607,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07082191024806994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04364317380988316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06364723322373876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07824450621761149,0.0,0.05461066729558085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0654336478659433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06728930874237632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04138943719619217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06568880168976858,0.05616251413605141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16955559479752522,0.0580525862086604,0.0,0.3066236760859759,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07221798176554411,0.12980110142098988,0.0,0.12324169985913107,0.0,0.0,0.10917938055093283,0.0,0.0,0.049583687539480614,0.0,0.06706060943221004,0.0,0.03647378043274513,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0706991940409439,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3168119549566775,0.0,0.0,0.07233315935775192,0.0,0.043017094598698916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13740754194228466,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17635248148131766,0.05231355547590071,0.0,0.0,0.20918843345718044,0.0,0.0,0.09406224284293964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05389327368676793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05792306182391833,0.2429067288237846,0.08567849527205659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06480138550507109,0.0,0.05122618872650301,0.0,0.0,0.09517420161224124,0.09899590823921334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07306696628606457,0.0,0.0,0.04348860702928517,0.0,0.06828981213061748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.044492876185262174,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0614646892769761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06451651711585762,0.0,0.0,0.06419526900435213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2181031551751317,0.10961515452789083,0.0,0.0,0.3212663768987134,0.0,0.10228295679322183,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10617724672112766,0.0,0.06422425006571314,0.0,0.0,0.04940728406388506,0.0,0.0,0.18170179616351,0.0,0.05125255508199509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0702002078037749,0.0,0.06048691269919259,0.0,0.04825379492926652,0.1547512987571717,0.2804715735630636,0.0590863891767596,0.0,0.0,0.21318473038586908,0.0,0.06305446242656527,0.050950085091709035,0.0374226505004169,0.0,0.060833146546938076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.057910573917327984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06540276455376473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0826569288896219
schizophrenia,withOneStar,2020/04/16,"Is there any way to help a schizophrenic person in a very advanced stage? Hi!!

One of my family members is schizophrenic. The problem is that they are in such an advanced state thay they do not get out of the house, they do not accept any help from anyone. They do not trust us, not even their own daughter or siblings (I am not sure if they trust their husband anymore, at one point they did). The only way we can know of her well-being is through husband.

We were too late in identifying the diagnosis. I for one was not kept in the loop (at first I knew that some coworkers wanted to sue them against something, and after a while I found out that they are schizophrenic). 

A psychologist (only through telephone with their siblings, without seeing the family member) confirmed that they are schizophrenic. He said that the only solution at this point is to take them by force  at a psychologist to get meds.

The problem is that no one will take them by force. I am kind of conflicted too, because if we either take them by force or not and wait, it may get even worse. 

Are there any other solutions for this situation?",5.7145889487870605,6.679982844339622,5.6779784366576855,81.32537735849056,67.25471698113208,8.88733153638814,30.23719676549865,9.04235418022936,2.3924045822102427,881,32,168,15,14,276,111,212,0.095,0.8420000000000001,0.063,-0.8024,0,0,1,0,0,0,28.0,4,0,15,3,7,7,0,0,14,0,21,4,0,0,1,34,35,7,0,5,13,3,0,0,0,2,4,1,0,1,10,8,0,3,4,0,0,2,9,2,0,5,7,2,26,5,30,26,3,22,0,0,1,0,30,12,0,6,4,131,36,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2624904775252289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12760141837863226,0.0899657793721323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07843318136552654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1699644532397943,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24258841479385135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10944265061001444,0.0,0.14107487602575844,0.0,0.0,0.20166694876126845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17248329604607268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14846249775983333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339851252854922,0.07071109184747608,0.0,0.1451400787905729,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1429181586621462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3487477874012619,0.2935673082057594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11234558958924601,0.0,0.0,0.2432606206259616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24623065829876215,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12239017795437035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10252959713814876,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14462520413212254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09905284496225887,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12126553603091712,0.0,0.2902209112601096,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15476853095372375,0.0,0.0,0.10616235921457842,0.07589013597411495,0.20425707521877928,0.0,0.0,0.11568556963362014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12402877154724505,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13112094745119984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mayeshayes,2020/04/16,"Chicken or egg? I know sleep is incredibly important for my diagnosis, and I'm currently refusing to go to bed. Is this a symtom of my obviously increasing delusions/paranoia, or is the lack of sleep causing it?

Same with the increased amount of cigarettes I smoke per day.

I've been worse, but I think my decreased sleep and increased nicotine are leading me towards a full-blown psychosis that could lead to hospitalization, and that's the last place I wanna be right now, given covid-19 breeding in hospital grounds. 

Yeah, I should go to bed.",7.65818181818182,8.419913757575756,7.412676767676767,71.30568181818181,62.93939393939394,10.64040404040404,40.74242424242424,10.504223727775694,4.538345454545454,438,24,74,10,6,139,72,99,0.059000000000000004,0.847,0.094,0.5198,1,0,2,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,0,5,1,8,4,3,3,1,19,14,6,0,4,3,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,4,1,1,2,0,0,7,0,0,0,0,2,0,9,0,12,9,6,16,0,0,0,0,1,5,0,2,4,47,13,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2517550522701061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1956689622651936,0.0,0.0,0.1580502868385328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2785585816089031,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13468441308196175,0.19976527850130507,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2560466553004284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20928898516862554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7357428730011446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15703136883143315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2497479163284331,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,kdkekrkk3,2020/04/16,"I have an questions about weed and schizofrenia So I have a relative (cousin) that have schizofrenia. And I've heard that if you have a relative that has schizofrenia and use weed, that you may trigger schizofrenia to get earlier in life. I don't want to develop schizofrenia. 

So I am thinking about to stop smoking weed. So I have a question to people who think that they may have triggered schizofrenia earlyer in life through drugs like weed. 

Did you get paranoia when you smoked weed before you developed schizophrenia. Because I get paranoid all the times i smoke weed. Do you think that, that is a sign of triggerment that I can get schizophrenia earlier in life if I continue to smoke?",6.391190476190474,8.078493515873019,5.135079365079367,83.18214285714286,66.22222222222221,8.457142857142857,35.42857142857143,8.841846274778883,3.0838952380952382,557,27,98,9,9,163,63,126,0.064,0.914,0.022000000000000002,-0.4445,0,0,4,0,0,0,12.0,0,6,1,0,6,1,0,0,6,0,15,4,0,4,1,20,25,9,0,3,2,1,0,1,0,2,4,1,0,0,9,3,0,1,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,1,16,1,12,21,1,7,0,0,0,0,12,3,0,6,5,68,25,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12748313367097006,0.0,0.17795342664291472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24252331506248376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.437045208645148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4431421184454665,0.10216989500739054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14498375812754527,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4685448163881522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17484125801127054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4020043714054644,0.0,0.0,0.12194483642847315,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18062036181052996,0.0,0.0,0.12334973770359495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,ninyaqk,2020/04/16,"Hi I'm rare schizophrenic I'm trying to figure all this out and its been really awful. I have lost contact with my previous partner which we have a five yr old together. She blocked me and refuses to talk to me aand I'm in the dark now and have been for years and don't know who to turn to or what to do. I even feel like there is no one who can help or talk to because it seems like everyone is too busy living life that they don't have the skills for what I'm asking. I'm tired of reaching out and not getting over to the other side. I will add that I wasn't the best partner for reasons due to paranoia and being cheated on and seeing it all. So idk and the fact that there is a pandemic is making stuff much more harder for me to live my life.

P.s please dont try and put me on meds I have my reasons.",2.789753787878788,3.262483619318182,4.209545454545456,91.00515151515154,73.60227272727272,7.457575757575757,24.32575757575757,7.492282038375204,0.8313007575757578,631,17,149,7,12,210,105,176,0.129,0.8059999999999999,0.065,-0.8914,0,0,0,0,0,0,9.0,1,0,1,3,6,5,1,0,7,1,19,4,0,3,3,29,33,12,0,0,3,0,1,2,2,1,4,0,0,2,14,14,0,2,6,0,0,1,6,2,0,2,4,2,15,3,22,27,5,12,0,1,1,0,14,7,0,3,6,103,29,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15830077714208016,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10322205176883503,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17770148359976182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19845360547099414,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11184092807238136,0.0,0.0,0.1618021583699287,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08561838177664602,0.12096945079764665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08846798367171699,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11349839062853813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09305938961337484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2392057018260833,0.16545225847504946,0.0,0.2990431451331936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18484379696486014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11302915056875268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18808755829219326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12447710020712828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.177683446048957,0.0,0.11474245191468806,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1858735909745554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17022351067451796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10847719219768197,0.34819907073580186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13493415923433955,0.15415175519368368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19384244225114827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2722022259672602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19462003006702,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22992803325141845,0.18418251457752088,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10904302685697133
schizophrenia,NothingButStardust-,2020/04/16,"How tobe supportive of a (paranoid) schizophrenic partner? I asked for advice in a other sub  but it wasn't very fruitful. My partner has been diagnosed with a very mild form of paranoid schizophrenia, but his symptoms subsided and he hasn't been medicated since.

Unfortunately, in recent months, his mental state has been deteriorating. We've been together for a year. 

At the moment due to the pandemic, it's really difficult to get a hold of a psychiatrist, but we plan on getting him help as soon as possible. 

I want to support him, but I don't know how to do it without potebtially encouraging his delusions or making him feel like he's crazy.

He always feels watched and avoids people, something I attributed to social anxiety. He's really attractive, so he gets stared at a lot, the problem is that he interprets those stares as threatening/aggressive when they are anything but.

He sometimes gets really paranoid about my friends or men I talk to, as he occasionally gets really jealous and mopey. He has never been physically violent or cruel, but he has gotten controlling and weird. He always looks back on his behavior and apologizes, and does seem to put a lot of effort into not letting his paranoid tendencies get to him. He is aware of his irrationality.

He says he hates men (something he blames his abusive father for - Also a schizophrenic, but I'm unsure of the type). 

Today he ran out of a job interview because he became convinced that they were involved in human trafficking? The company was a bit fishy, but not like that. He has been whipping himself over the fact that he has ""lost a potential job"" because of his delusions.

We do plab to get him psychotherapy asap, but I want to know what I, as a partner, can do to support him.

He's a tremendously doting, kind partner. I love him to bits and frankly can't see myself marrying anyone else 

TL;DR: How can I support my partner without  ecouraging his delusions or making him feel like he's insane? I definetly don't want to make him feel like I have to walk on eggshells around him.",6.555857519788916,7.721711414248023,7.103930343007921,71.13256042216364,65.46437994722956,10.39117678100264,35.476622691292874,10.444984826868176,4.024026406332453,1642,77,274,41,25,539,190,379,0.153,0.7,0.147,-0.4332,2,2,2,0,0,0,49.0,2,0,2,4,10,23,4,1,20,0,29,7,0,8,2,56,62,31,0,4,17,1,4,4,6,0,5,1,0,8,10,13,1,3,8,0,0,3,10,9,0,0,12,11,39,14,46,49,5,26,0,1,5,1,65,12,0,7,14,178,49,4,0.0,0.10794215381358427,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08902479398576796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07285503354391934,0.1516099827214763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06969354311327486,0.0,0.0,0.06370133354066622,0.09334578617005147,0.07497000380317287,0.08110098201719186,0.08516900391105772,0.0,0.0,0.07005258100754795,0.0,0.111071082397995,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19892175384751948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10217975744063912,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09246762394435698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07972484634173398,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07610486365906975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18425764987492785,0.19525199713055344,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07038594925728456,0.0,0.3331828894563184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08994534812654396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06106441831719296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18081133359738247,0.0,0.0,0.09486975175299699,0.1001356488708646,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09315898653946954,0.0,0.17803328958400902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07650357234938182,0.0,0.09944968275490593,0.15490501983545582,0.08222401141743678,0.0,0.18243587316466786,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09177668465078784,0.09181039301698928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07271754279019264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0702642473742591,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06315934697258929,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10270494029898744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08717326411049743,0.0,0.09158367449693422,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23345165003840065,0.0,0.0899532184907926,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07244875957992865,0.0,0.0,0.07259729322269919,0.08293674660361011,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07536134030008207,0.0,0.0,0.09286803226160377,0.0,0.14027107549400653,0.09010319323084573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41353040412923103,0.0,0.09469089628251907,0.0,0.07322513782480207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08635498847487676,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15033902670522925,0.16120472354728727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17564007559562125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058667342943739924
schizophrenia,Stargazer1919,2020/04/16,"How does schizophrenia prevent you from functioning day to day? Forgive me for an ignorant question but I'm just genuinely curious and want to learn more. I don't have schizophrenia. I have several other mental health disorders and I'm just someone who is interested in mental health and psychology. I like listening to people's stories.

There are people out there who have mental health problems and can be relatively high functioning. Other people can barely function at all. I was wondering how this happens for people with schizophrenia? What do you experience day to day that can make you (or anyone with this disorder) not get things done and take care of yourself? I hope this question makes sense. Thank you.",5.345132307692307,8.545743944000005,5.246400000000001,74.57458461538464,73.56,8.326153846153849,31.215384615384608,9.057496981413335,3.4254923076923083,583,27,87,14,13,181,80,125,0.038,0.773,0.18899999999999997,0.9620000000000001,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,4,0,0,6,8,0,0,1,0,13,3,0,4,1,28,26,9,0,3,5,0,0,1,0,0,3,1,0,0,10,8,0,2,5,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,2,1,10,6,13,23,2,8,0,0,0,0,10,4,0,5,5,63,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09050142916581452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13196391636832838,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3338901257579608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2966791459761885,0.0,0.11326627140930688,0.13245323765807812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1266087239522742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06762255310029337,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11445574041369055,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4127385080786766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13675135749356934,0.0,0.12855456312219388,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06323363362620282,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1727929001881408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.39130916034944346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35892568324648044,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12384834898334712,0.0,0.0,0.28998553100991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14622061634876424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10966678684804833,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09731628857902122,0.0,0.0,0.11916302352274487,0.0,0.0,0.08598845654847824,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07634198039719169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14036280863839812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,selfawarecumrag,2020/04/16,"Conflicting Experience I have been going to my therapist for 2 years now and have been telling her about the voices, the delusions, the paranoia, and the things I’ve seen for those 2 years. She’s always tried to avoid the subject. It’s become imminent that that’s not possible. So she finally brought it 2 months ago and said, “so you’ve been telling me that you’re hearing voices, seeing things, and experiencing these odd ideas for a long time now. This leads me to suspect schizophrenia. Is there a family history?” The problem is, the history is on my dads side, and I don’t really know that side very well. All I know is that my great grandma and my aunt have been diagnosed with schizophrenia, and my dad has admitted to hearing voices and seeing things. My father is quite elusive, so he doesn’t open up much to anyone. During this last meeting, she said “I’m not really that concerned about this. I think you can ignore the voices. I would be much more concerned if your mother or father were officially diagnosed.” I tell her that my father admitted to hearing and seeing things and she said “you’re too smart to be schizophrenic. People with schizophrenia can’t function, can’t hold jobs, and can’t hold relationships at all. If your dad has it, he couldn’t hold down a relationship or a job.” (Completely ignoring the fact that he couldn’t hold down a relationship with me, my mom, his biological mother, and all of his ex wives and ex girlfriends and has been laid off from several jobs) She then dismissed the subject. All of the symptoms make my life a living hell and she doesn’t want to talk about it? I feel really ignored. No one is taking me seriously, all say I’m lying. What do I do? It’s just been getting worse and worse at this point.",4.830892857142857,6.392143303571429,5.279576190476189,81.14875714285714,69.83333333333333,8.590285714285715,28.02333333333333,9.065960079200117,2.249251333333333,1394,49,264,27,25,445,159,336,0.122,0.838,0.04,-0.9788,3,1,0,0,0,0,41.0,0,3,0,2,12,10,1,1,17,0,33,5,0,2,6,57,57,24,0,7,7,13,1,0,1,1,5,11,0,0,24,20,0,9,8,0,0,3,11,7,1,1,12,17,34,3,27,40,8,25,1,0,4,0,47,11,1,4,11,177,58,5,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0862741514669602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08098352122363528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06805301608986528,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1074895743138378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10204508000732293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19756888436439865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09520408249526324,0.09175084910282368,0.0,0.049211249257499,0.0,0.0,0.10661652426149458,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.050849127318647214,0.0,0.0553129451318772,0.0,0.0,0.1073029112848564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32908242803194976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10986987574659128,0.0,0.0,0.2897448744933443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10697629931762304,0.07933416249592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06874465022643825,0.0,0.0,0.0859411638512781,0.08613097124023432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06496625592051886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11398772826985835,0.07768515719309525,0.0,0.1430924873381468,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06595101757845329,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0674740043394396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09200508818476992,0.1097211089029039,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09312840431088584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1035188107703976,0.0,0.0,0.1870497210956353,0.0,0.0,0.31347700907769555,0.0,0.0,0.2777396297024764,0.07739801237027763,0.0,0.0,0.2326700787485592,0.0,0.0,0.10995134605908756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10115959478562966,0.07317748474822662,0.07822742799242413,0.2552031937816441,0.0,0.0,0.1130036747708534,0.2586378522847321,0.0623629502849179,0.0,0.0,0.05675191848116265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06607836728998105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0803046312741183,0.0574057456129622,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08750829467143632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1983682242045672,0.0691380185280623,0.0,0.0,0.12535026855446332
schizophrenia,Trustsnobody,2020/04/16,"'Castaway"" There once was a man

in a far away land

the castaway with no plan

He contemplated conspicuous coercion

A fascination of cumbersome aversion

to coincidental circumstances and immersion

of the identity; the nature of the wizard


Such a pity, Oz would never explain why

he's deceiving and deflecting the blame

Such a shame, Dorothy couldn't embrace the change

Still searching for the narrow passage where the angels sang

Sedated by rhythm, hiding the boy beneath the pines

Elated by insanity, conforming to societal signs

Insinuated system, alluring the master of equatorial lines


Manipulating his faith with falsified divinity

Is it all a stage, is it delusional rigidity?

Shakespeare thinks it is so, Johnny Depp just wants some blow

He's played for a fool, his delusions reap what they sow

He's the master of his sea

He doesn't need a boat to row

Drown him, demoralize him from within

Remind him of his ""sin""

Provoke him to anger,

invoke the temptress to the butterfly's pen


I have to wonder about the purpose

It's gotta be deeper than the surface

They say angels are sounding their trumpets

I'm no saint, I'm the Pinocchio among puppets

I've tried the right hand path, and the left

Truly, neither is commendable

Our destiny is not foretold by Monday,

for Tuesday is on the phone to Sunday

Whatever, who cares; who am I to say

that I have control over this immaculate play


You win, again

I don't care about your sin,

or the jinn who taunt the minute-men

Yes, I will confide in time

I admit I'm not walking a straight line

I don't think I'll ever understand why

this strange delusion of the divine is mine

Self-soothing to embrace the pain


Telling myself

You can't wake up, this is not a dream

Chained to the machine,

you are not a human being

Keep me dumb, keep me paralyzed

I'm sick of this dysfunctional paradise",6.0197091886608005,7.515693956011733,6.3189919354838775,75.0651545698925,66.91788856304986,9.319696969696972,33.56317204301075,9.621722640351123,3.3247389051808414,1473,66,255,31,24,473,214,341,0.182,0.701,0.11699999999999999,-0.9562,0,0,0,0,0,0,29.0,1,4,3,5,11,17,2,2,36,1,23,4,2,3,3,32,40,5,1,4,6,0,1,0,0,3,2,4,0,4,13,5,0,4,6,4,0,1,13,9,0,0,1,5,27,8,39,33,3,29,8,1,0,0,34,17,1,3,9,161,40,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16998554205875888,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.368931382293092,0.0,0.19139527820367647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20292342709119432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1636575490910177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3216299445248005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19657617661074053,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13415402818203934,0.13954096424090046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19267984239710595,0.0,0.0,0.19251757778735493,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15450946034331509,0.0,0.2877585727487348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18874484272080685,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1444874052505241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15813693520577182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2318596177965895,0.0,0.0,0.10549916311005476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1228365954022459,0.0,0.0,0.1883499138321076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10671459717941392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3265143971260403,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962060782925252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12852434400467164,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,heetdeth,2020/04/16,"I need insight to help my friend with delusions My best friend of many years came to me and told me he is experiencing increasingly hard to deal with delusions. 

My friend is in his 20s, he has a brilliant mind and a lust for any and all knowledge. He keeps an open mind and prides himself for his ability to see different points of views and as such, entertains all freely as objectively as he believes he can.

He is HEAVILY into AI, quantum computing, surveillance topics, etc 
I have watched him grow increasingly more emotional and paranoid at times of these topics over 6 years. He does hide it well. He recognizes it as a paranoid-schizoaffective type personality. 

I've seen it culminating to this and today he was lucid enough to ask for help and grounding.
I could read it in his face immediately it was escaping him. He flat out told me he can't distinguish between some delusional thoughts and reality and it's crippling him.

Everyone's phone is recording at all times. They are listening
Satellites with insane resolution are creating mathematical markers about your traits and can track you.
Anyone could be listening to your conversation, he avoids any topics that would raise concern.
He avoids doing ANYTHING that could be potentially questionable or seem ""weird"" 
The inevitable singularity of AI and it's destruction of humanity 
He said he couldn't even drive sometimes becayse he was scared of being followed 

I told him he needs help STAT. He was receptive.. But he won't go to the hospital for evaluation. Also the situation in the US doesn't help. 

What can I do? I'm afraid that this is the ugly horns of severe mental illness?

If this is any help:
He grew up around a VERY abusive drunk with very similar delusions of surveillance and people. He was often the victim of them.
Also, I noticed this has coincided with him completely falling head over heals for someone for the first time in his life. Has this dramatic change added fuel? 

Any advice or insight is welcome. 
How could I, a man with no remarkable mental health issues get him help? Ground him during his delusions? Approach things better?",5.457372942018614,7.995535286089242,5.730050107372946,74.54471009305657,70.1548556430446,9.027630637079458,31.492961107134327,9.573946990214177,3.346764829396325,1708,76,283,42,33,543,212,381,0.10300000000000001,0.755,0.142,0.9558,2,2,0,0,0,0,39.0,1,3,2,4,9,16,2,4,13,0,35,8,2,1,3,54,54,24,0,9,4,0,1,0,3,2,4,3,0,3,18,24,1,3,7,3,0,10,5,7,1,1,12,9,32,9,47,32,10,33,0,0,4,1,64,16,0,7,7,179,50,3,0.0,0.11138337221671946,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09186292300743093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15035533445252994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2557129661750828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06573214535551075,0.0,0.07736006317901352,0.08368649825871394,0.0878842095400058,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10591412443702893,0.0986549447336854,0.08314188752237313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10751939801609282,0.0,0.0,0.09944734231809592,0.0,0.09856494858359413,0.0,0.0,0.3002289715400791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09691748016169804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09821770287070099,0.0,0.0,0.08226649109056955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10574564861450887,0.0,0.09713475252685952,0.10484307759773072,0.06209098739319505,0.0,0.0,0.08982807947585264,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07996262877058141,0.0,0.0,0.2178896040509976,0.0,0.04911497564922706,0.0,0.053426560031501764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08421214688137284,0.0,0.0964786922451659,0.09992544816479068,0.0,0.0,0.3780669883445703,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09811928005828333,0.0,0.08355807805997803,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06640019209627554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0953087275229175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18947465503486516,0.0,0.18984130911217412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1394105611087586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10702802435849228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06517288014247052,0.08208361753178292,0.0,0.0,0.08886735926621962,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10530977936500092,0.0,0.09403281898687713,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08942254514470975,0.0,0.0941177863541268,0.0,0.0749117100897852,0.08558078740347587,0.0,0.10620158042144924,0.0,0.0,0.10566823303737004,0.0,0.0,0.0796521473772557,0.0,0.0929757018456239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06245432560390575,0.0,0.0,0.07463135840228129,0.16444937649266494,0.0,0.08910800353936654,0.2694842384275579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1130793024204078,0.0,0.0,0.15513186626910272,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08452392378259846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06678014501925042,0.0,0.0,0.12107534017439907
schizophrenia,eqcool,2020/04/17,"What is what? What is no, it’s not real because I am real and therefore it is not real dude stop just fucking sleep why are you writing this stop haha what the fuck what is this fisheye vision no cool okay just slew there’s bugged everywhere",-0.42836734693877787,1.3203887142857162,1.01079591836735,96.54313265306124,110.83673469387756,2.7763265306122453,17.144897959183673,4.935628992294339,-0.6085771428571429,193,6,38,1,10,61,33,49,0.136,0.639,0.22399999999999998,0.4724,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,0,0,3,5,2,0,1,3,6,3,1,1,0,12,8,1,0,0,4,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,9,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,4,2,0,0,0,1,2,3,0,8,0,2,0,0,0,2,2,0,2,0,2,26,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13609879822430795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4128053203798706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.7623650928662686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22342382036359704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3733150325089433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2014597547004339,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,AltAccount4dis,2020/04/17,"I hear voices but I know they are fake. I try to ignore them and tell them to fuck off. I’m aware they are fake, is there something wrong with me? I have bad ocd, anxiety and depression. I don’t let them do anything accept very little things with no affect at all. Is this dumb?",-0.34551724137931217,1.9141912586206893,1.2754310344827609,98.83142241379312,93.3103448275862,4.279310344827587,14.14655172413793,5.985473137389443,-0.8636620689655171,215,4,49,2,8,69,43,58,0.48200000000000004,0.47700000000000004,0.040999999999999995,-0.9906,0,0,1,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,5,0,1,9,2,0,0,0,8,1,0,1,1,10,12,3,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,2,4,0,1,2,0,0,0,2,8,0,0,0,2,11,1,6,11,1,3,0,1,0,1,7,3,2,0,0,33,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2274350592908516,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.244654045386914,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24823458037518056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25606560024277464,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2748507186590474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.335080730004844,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16338929132256336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3040112280221293,0.0,0.0,0.29797450239926043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2288774465083428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2598548727846954,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19751410201862635,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20184840328428644,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2453051166939449,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3250528414242476,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,kgfunfun,2020/04/17,"Question Are you able to identify environmental triggers that make the voices louder, or perhaps quiet them?",12.005294117647061,13.587390705882356,11.169411764705883,45.262352941176516,53.70588235294118,11.505882352941176,46.41176470588235,11.20814326018867,6.327400000000001,90,5,9,2,1,29,17,17,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2.0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,2,0,4,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,0,7,3,0,0.608526607564448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40619623583581743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6816890683287485,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,AnimalCrossed0809,2020/04/17,"[14-F, Need help/adviceasap if you can] is this signs of schizophrenia/schizophrenic traits? If not what is it? is it anything? Hi! I’m a 14 year old autistic, social anxiety and mild OCD diagnosed girl, and for awhile I’ve been trying to identify something. I get frequent and quite heavy periods of derealisation, which I think might either be DPD or something else, and I’m very very paranoid. I’ve had (from my knowledge) no traumatic events or ptsd, and I don’t do drugs or watch super scary films or whatever. I toyed with the idea of possibly having DID however- I don’t have the majority of huge signs like severe trauma or blackouts. 

When I was young I had multiple dreams where a boy called “Aaron” was present. I refuse to believe this was a normal dream, I was 6 when I had the first one, and he came back in one when I was 11. In my first dream he was wheelchair bound, I don’t know why, he never spoke, and it was so so realistic and I have memory issues yet I remember him clear as day. In the second- he was no longer in a wheel chair, and had aged like a proper person, he was super mad at me, screaming and crying and I couldn’t understand why as he never spoke in the dreams, nor did I. I haven’t “heard” from him in 3 (almost 4) years but sometimes I’ll like.. talk to him? It sounds silly. But it’s like he’s there in my mind and just sometimes is more active-to the point where I’ll close my eyes and let my hand go free to try and get him to communicate through writing, because he doesn’t verbalise anything. 

He isn’t someone I know or have ever seen in real life, he’s very unique looking but not unrealistic. I feel uneasy writing about him, it’s like talking about your bff behind their back but they’re looking over your shoulder and you feel like their mad at you- I feel like he’s not happy about this post (sorry~).

He isn’t super present at all times, he comes and goes, usually when I’m feeling one emotion super super strongly Ill “speak” with him or just mentally acknowledge him. But he’s never constant. (He’s like rain, comes and goes but is always in the world -my mind- somewhere) 

I often feel uneasy, like someone’s near me, or I’ll briefly see a very fuzzy black form darting around. I usually flip the form off, because they feel mischievous and like they want trouble. But sometimes I’ll talk to it, “go away”, “Fuck off”, “this is mine” (when pointing to misc objects like pens that I’m using, I misplace things and I sometimes worry they’ve moved it)

I felt extra unpleasant with an experience I had today, I wrote it down so here it is:

I was about to go in the shower, and I usually feel a weird presence near me- but it was really strong (I was upstairs alone getting towels and conditioner) and I swear I kept seeing a black form dart around just as I turned several times, so I sat in the corner by the window for a minute and then I went to get my conditioner- got spooked by literally nothing and dropped it into the bath (I use the downstairs bathroom) the loud sound in my mind scared “it” away so I ran downstairs with my heart fucking sprinting, got into the bathroom- set everything up and got so so scared of my reflection, I hardly ever feel depersonalisation it’s usually derealisation but it was like someone else was looking at me and I was naked bcc I was gonna shower which made me feel way more vulnerable and scared so I sat in the corner really shaken up and literally shaking and waited for about 5 minutes before getting spooked by my reflection in the shower pane and finally showered and it went away.

I’m so sorry this post is so ridiculously long. I really want to find out if this is normal, or it’s a disorder (and what It is) because I don’t like having something up with my brain that I’m unaware of, I want help if necessary.

—-This is not intended to be mean, ignorant, rude, or degrading towards people with schizophrenia or any other mentioned disorder/condition that I’ve mentioned, I really just want advice and tips from people that are way more knowledgeable and experienced than I am—-

Thankyou!",3.386290800647352,5.40792573902133,4.40135726365174,84.08014874620409,74.54579673776662,7.2802647609695805,26.48171585474515,8.135877884289325,1.7234957139999638,3222,119,623,53,69,1046,346,797,0.11800000000000001,0.753,0.129,0.8942,6,1,4,0,0,0,101.0,0,5,4,10,36,39,6,4,28,0,56,11,5,4,7,141,120,78,0,12,33,0,12,13,0,2,4,8,6,3,34,49,0,5,23,7,1,11,19,16,0,6,41,31,80,24,79,73,10,99,0,0,10,2,51,45,2,18,50,390,114,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05455107154634305,0.0,0.0,0.05590018955401657,0.05781736341858236,0.0,0.0,0.04645046983147896,0.0,0.0,0.037962585601636456,0.0,0.04270560241114615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09187764123217848,0.09939131054222457,0.0,0.0,0.15734691296817707,0.0858512148685154,0.0,0.10209032155005196,0.0,0.047502551968424934,0.06289511361907434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.062318622817123866,0.05700307301783535,0.06384837518528734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09617575604457698,0.0,0.060326470436675175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06132061018291974,0.03600219496887703,0.0,0.0,0.056660709266177674,0.0,0.0,0.06397973244873656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06473871616098502,0.0,0.09326844077065312,0.06279506741602267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1009929425821724,0.0,0.0,0.0501714759468849,0.05460708913320512,0.0,0.0,0.2540389764509197,0.07976209164634858,0.05360029040250472,0.06115302926961801,0.05102259683863534,0.09496861062748467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10321773213038844,0.14583002929381814,0.0,0.09517907780436148,0.0,0.1339438968081346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05942623598807304,0.05000780183344825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06615232097193705,0.07483599351186476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06301908427347942,0.0,0.05826629168007327,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06135938878743478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05708435046434186,0.0394305070114288,0.35454950715934536,0.0,0.0,0.04940294050813432,0.14063560257547364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05282250740033373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.060809264110274326,0.0,0.0,0.056257982680289295,0.05922099025204741,0.16910054399736313,0.0,0.0,0.05933262651796147,0.0,0.04139317171926121,0.12916592605457486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10939234722875082,0.0535651292864931,0.0,0.05857843949173179,0.0,0.11348441162209695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07740338171572354,0.04874381465519813,0.0,0.0,0.10554442455687964,0.06293375469432291,0.10692891118870892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06525587255278416,0.0,0.0,0.059376244994365085,0.0,0.06354052144855891,0.14305045924501136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06323829498431173,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16767023938827047,0.0,0.08896982423335728,0.0,0.0,0.12613162791339755,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05690606454063496,0.14189979530844193,0.12892932068530238,0.22084749744102147,0.12498195185734605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.134608895577232,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.037087328302428106,0.03577009615094589,0.0,0.0,0.06510344913277072,0.0,0.05291511436049739,0.0,0.0,0.07580236472653762,0.060721043662343176,0.0,0.058115290552298686,0.0,0.0964289172208758,0.2459312728872564,0.18424429049093047,0.13170698504871747,0.08862180574136289,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10349977236580914,0.10074588659171324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05669250640784927,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0718983168412483
schizophrenia,hunggoose,2020/04/17,"Help, voices? We live in an apartment with quite thin walls.  Lately I've been hearing the neighbours talk about me.  I don't know them personally but they seem to know intimate things about me.  When I heard this last night they were surprised I could hear them, which makes me think they must be able to see me.

I have good insight into my illness and don't think I am unwell.  My partner says he can't hear anything and now is getting angry when I bring it up, which has made me more suspicious.  Maybe they are watching me and he knows about this? 

As I said, I don't feel unwell, although I did a few days last week.  Does anyone hear voices when not symptomatic?  And does anyone have voices that instead of owning up to you disguise themselves as other people?  What is the likelihood that this is real?",3.711923076923073,5.629906858974363,3.84,88.905,73.35897435897436,6.082051282051282,24.179487179487186,6.67199483983844,0.7530025641025646,634,19,123,5,13,195,102,156,0.096,0.852,0.051,-0.8442,0,0,0,0,0,0,17.0,1,1,6,1,8,2,0,0,4,0,18,1,0,2,1,22,36,11,0,2,2,0,2,0,2,1,1,10,0,2,11,7,0,0,8,0,0,1,5,0,0,0,6,14,25,2,14,27,3,18,0,0,2,0,22,7,0,1,10,87,36,0,0.14077711198775525,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1968692598654568,0.0,0.11584756817860775,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11239906878436352,0.0,0.0,0.09078959103220373,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2463899987614025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07118113769994347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07355023065257851,0.0,0.0,0.11807716241049013,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6346641463162191,0.0,0.0943599307112299,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2321022573267962,0.22950427108172824,0.15880271414157895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12430876904144107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13320670721098093,0.09396981540401644,0.0,0.141429530721617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13210978309740634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09759712396084627,0.12292114416136705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14973378719621122,0.0,0.16023517347413474,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1339112711346223,0.1119516098321998,0.0,0.0,0.11218113178010918,0.12815819553509222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1131513100735323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09352605784078806,0.18040857806222133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11292290769208428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,alexblack125,2020/04/17,"On meds but still hallucinating. Hello all.... posting on here for support and advice. I was pretty recently diagnosed with Schizoaffective disorder about a year ago. I have been on numerous meds (geodon , risperdal consta, serequel, Rexulti, latuda) and now most currently invega 9mg. While I feel my outlook is better I still hallucinate.....Not as bad as when I was in an episode but nonetheless still dealing with issues... maybe to a lesser extent. Is it always going to be like this? On risperdal consta I got a great reduction in auditory hallucinations at work but it gave me severe Anhedonia so I weaned myself off and tried not being on meds. That ended badly and ended up many nights not being able to sleep thinking that people were outside trying to get me. I consider myself high functioning as before Coronavirus I was working two jobs( actually received a promotion) and was paying my own rent etc... however there were days where the hallucinating and the negative shit talking voices got to me. Has anyone gone into complete remission or is it just me. I just feel like I have to act like everything is ok like going into work ignoring everything going on inside my head to appear normal. I guess this is the goal of being high functioning but I wish I could go back to a time where my mind wasn’t filled with such chaos. I want to succeed in life like my peers and I don’t want my illness to hinder me. I just don’t want this thing to beat me.Anyone going through the same thing ? Thanks.",4.3762230215827325,6.813368464028777,5.512987050359712,75.34316402877698,72.9928057553957,8.764546762589928,26.947338129496398,9.3871,2.760918676258993,1195,44,201,30,25,395,163,278,0.12,0.713,0.16699999999999998,0.897,4,0,0,0,0,0,39.0,0,0,0,8,16,15,1,0,10,1,23,6,3,0,1,38,44,18,0,6,10,0,2,5,0,0,3,1,1,0,10,12,0,1,3,0,2,10,6,4,0,1,12,3,30,11,35,27,6,45,0,0,0,0,5,18,1,4,21,145,40,8,0.10023055772111164,0.0,0.09781056590403184,0.0,0.0,0.09794414098018836,0.08884834185397021,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08339985332653561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14016707287029376,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07707111202443469,0.1673766581278706,0.0,0.0,0.085288822291265,0.0,0.0,0.08864578315444585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10508983280442363,0.0,0.0,0.0800259445055972,0.0,0.0,0.06464041786296143,0.1033333039014456,0.0,0.10173190625026317,0.0,0.0,0.11487290271668127,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775490482704576,0.0,0.1117835666104192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1801615247521291,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10135916315017372,0.07160473046297455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05236632954556958,0.0,0.2848166788350843,0.0,0.1603270664905475,0.11050454373247827,0.11041525942279902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10286546873846317,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21179817454366956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046146615444155,0.09946336270943254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0707958070881668,0.2448379383075364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10161805372110654,0.10069506713346807,0.0,0.3340006627990788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10120429077813156,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0940595886170748,0.09820466560427032,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06948724851965245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09599316801162848,0.10197051073831333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09896558384501693,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1132320007308696,0.10288522714890387,0.0,0.0,0.10030294303119837,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24013275860750805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1137404491160707,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08056152563018222,0.0,0.09227883114947703,0.0,0.0,0.13317745770568865,0.06422369425514979,0.0,0.0,0.058445244239973874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13609993877206195,0.0,0.09791069082387037,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17735573948435004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11526019485042023,0.0,0.0,0.2189071192834509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06454519298447724
schizophrenia,InMyViensLaySparks,2020/04/17,I am writing an information for Schizophrenia and want volunteers to share their story. I was hoping to get some volunteers who have schizophrenia to share their story. I am doing my thesis on schizophrenia and wanted to raise awareness on it. If you could share your story please contact me. Thank you so much.,5.65036363636364,8.449851490909097,4.790909090909089,80.30636363636366,70.45454545454545,6.581818181818183,27.363636363636363,7.554174236665415,1.8232909090909093,252,9,39,3,5,75,38,55,0.0,0.7440000000000001,0.256,0.91,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,3,2,0,1,5,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,10,11,4,0,5,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,10,5,7,9,2,2,0,0,0,0,12,2,0,3,0,32,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3292210022691026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2154313279856475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.40954798336220793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3031183247143142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4526269603894136,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3796285000688404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4864192037715277,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Lashi_000,2020/04/17,"What exactly is disorganized speech/thoughts? Over the course of the past two years, I feel like I’m slowly losing the ability to speak properly. Speaking has pretty much become one of the hardest task for me to do, I can’t fluently say the simplest of things, any time I try to create a sentence in my head before I attempt to say it, even if it’s just 5 words, they all just turn into a jumbled mess in my mind. I don’t know how to emphasize how much of a burden this is to me. But is this even disorganized speech/thinking? Like, is this something different or is this what I think it is?",6.782,5.4552558666666675,7.353333333333335,77.96500000000003,65.33333333333334,10.666666666666668,34.166666666666664,9.725611199111238,2.9804166666666667,464,17,96,8,6,154,76,120,0.10300000000000001,0.7759999999999999,0.12,0.2593,1,0,1,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,2,6,5,0,0,8,0,10,1,1,2,2,15,15,5,0,1,5,0,1,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,10,1,0,0,3,0,0,0,2,3,0,2,0,5,11,2,15,15,3,7,0,1,0,0,5,4,0,2,5,68,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13782065297665969,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22383001137617586,0.17245486909257884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2117440995813934,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2677195624295891,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10247463115800806,0.14478549576204394,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20799502758821967,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1113805987515304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1980259239858093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22673276841945605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20463610879918856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2979674379882579,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13733254698502598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1934687848100633,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2061854133783749,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.322338200703106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15602312015965142,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13464308931528773,0.2597219304445244,0.0,0.16089512708549994,0.1181768803192956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13759773258615962,0.22044372780044924,0.19797641607866187,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1305110389340348
schizophrenia,mysticumarabicola,2020/04/17,"Just curious :) Hey, I just wanna know is there any blind person who's got schizophrenia? Take care everyone 💚",1.5584999999999989,3.8590918500000058,2.2900000000000027,87.55000000000004,105.5,6.0,20.0,7.1686216300943375,1.3889999999999998,87,3,15,2,4,27,19,20,0.107,0.556,0.337,0.7003,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,1,1,1,4,0,0,0,0,1,0,3,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3141966111755551,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4710709286609744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4414899812377446,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3695280304524356,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.253919901862326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4034272465301314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3473894659719367,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,shekaas,2020/04/17,Is it schizophrenia? F21. For 2 year i have beginning to hear people screaming my name or knock hard on the door while im in the shower. I get super paranoid and my heart rate increase. I turn off the water of to listen if it happens again. Nothing... I turn on the water and it happens again. I'm home alone.,0.3755952380952401,2.748182492063492,2.09077380952381,94.09901785714287,89.15873015873017,3.784920634920635,20.573412698412696,5.148860815047168,-0.14750634920634909,239,8,49,1,8,78,45,63,0.125,0.779,0.09699999999999999,0.0516,1,1,0,0,0,0,10.0,0,0,0,1,2,2,0,0,4,0,2,3,1,0,0,5,11,5,0,1,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,3,2,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,1,0,0,0,4,6,1,8,11,1,10,0,0,0,0,3,4,0,2,5,30,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25365279662849444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12795531506683566,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4331460335169805,0.0,0.21939116622223712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27603125810411416,0.29021941205649426,0.0,0.0,0.2456645995849843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2645447199907149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23499765540880804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16978968842416944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5327832896027243,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15771394665328867
schizophrenia,ablankcanvas22,2020/04/17,"Prolixin Shots Anyone? Hi, I have been taking the invega sustena for the past year but my prolactin level is too high so my doctor has to change my medication.  The biggest concerns I have with the invega is the weight gain and flatness.  I am hoping to avoid these two things with the prolixin shot.  Does anyone have experience with prolixin and if it gave them tardiv diskenesa?  I know with haldol over long periods of time it can affect your walking and tongue movements.  Prolixin being a typical AP, I am worried about this same effect.",6.332448979591838,8.005162040816327,6.847551020408165,70.90459183673471,66.34693877551021,10.089795918367347,31.3469387755102,10.290406445055957,3.6186571428571432,432,17,68,11,7,141,71,98,0.055,0.861,0.085,0.6199,0,1,0,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,1,2,3,2,0,1,7,0,11,3,0,2,0,15,15,6,0,2,2,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,5,7,1,1,2,0,0,2,0,1,0,1,2,1,10,1,10,12,1,11,0,0,0,0,4,4,0,2,5,52,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3475645405973358,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2629183153803548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2543873035420089,0.21749567907607856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24311606668366945,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26259211142528643,0.0,0.2468524977179812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13658898041357312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21994669134710534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2503740460773408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2372558987405913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18686827072440107,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16511638916877447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1449234406368968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24278372644092286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3026501016049952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25240054701861137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16004914626543984
schizophrenia,delleva,2020/04/17,"Disturbing delusions I strongly disagree with my delusions that makes me believe that I forgot something due to an accident. But, there are no records of any accidents in my life. So Inam very sure that this a delusion. I just want get rid of it.",4.388695652173912,6.679667217391309,4.542826086956524,82.9755434782609,72.47826086956522,7.208695652173913,35.413043478260875,8.07648339933343,2.994321739130435,196,11,34,3,4,61,39,46,0.251,0.632,0.11599999999999999,-0.8044,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,3,3,0,1,2,0,1,1,0,1,1,7,5,2,0,1,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,6,2,5,4,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,24,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29105769815085736,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4822144410025457,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22361465624565424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3023121956996782,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2856962892243499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3294987306414328,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4033891223211658,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3531484897423352,0.25244810970552417,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,cdf50,2020/04/17,"Cousin temp. not going to jail because of COVID. Best relationship for us to build going forward that helps him? Hi all! First time poster.

tl;dr: Cousin with Schizophrenia's going to jail in a couple of months. WAnt to re-establish relationship with him so that when he goes in, he has somebody to consistently talk to. Looking for advice on things I can do to help our relationship and him while he's in jail to better his life and be a lil more ready for life when he gets out than he otherwise would be.

My cousin is 29ish and was diagnosed with Schizophrenia some 8 years ago. Around then and ever since, it's mostly been a downward decline in terms of drug abuse, social circle and petty crimes. He's very much a good person, but his spiral has had some very viscious and violent phases that's resulted in his sibling getting a restraining order on him for a long time.  


Recently, he was arrested for some not so clear reasons but seems to come down to wrong place wrong time. He's been waiting for his court date, but with the pandemic, it's been temporarily postponed and he's back to his mom's house.  


I want to use this opportunity to reestablish a relationship with him, and position that relationship to continue/be maintained when he gets incarcerated (which he says the lawyer told him is pretty much guaranteed will happen).  


He's a very smart, talented and open minded person when he's doing well. I feel like having constant communication once he's in jail will be helpful for him. Beyond just shooting the shit, I'd like to be a good influence and help keep him on track with something. Maybe learning something? A series of high-level discussions about some philosophical/psychological concept? I really don't know, I'm just grasping at straws as somebody that's terrible at communication and relationships and likely on the autism spectrum lol. Any recommendations?",6.807652173913045,8.11509811304348,6.745797101449277,73.41521739130438,64.97101449275362,9.710144927536232,31.52173913043478,9.867487886160001,3.096826086956522,1519,57,261,32,23,482,189,345,0.085,0.746,0.168,0.9822,0,0,3,1,1,0,40.0,2,0,0,4,14,16,2,0,14,1,22,5,1,4,3,53,41,24,0,3,7,4,1,3,0,3,4,1,0,2,10,22,0,3,6,0,0,5,3,5,1,1,7,3,20,11,51,27,11,45,0,0,1,0,51,20,1,6,24,158,30,2,0.0,0.10609334152062484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08749999456604064,0.07937411418000642,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06089204005890371,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07971190011334721,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06885273397518317,0.0,0.05458433921129045,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09396943669441296,0.07919315506463401,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07713302317202128,0.0,0.09676374241179043,0.0,0.0,0.09907718623320788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09088385640026743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10384099068496444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08099641012222189,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04527543013855515,0.06396925292019677,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0761648917087716,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14034694178208168,0.0,0.15266737306172468,0.15020817285080346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07918222742759075,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24007407517447346,0.09460667547953196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1033201407464519,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07958957909063545,0.0,0.0,0.049210272440890636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12649317608015115,0.13123797742513318,0.0,0.0,0.07924238522676587,0.07519323398741883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08995757927763909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0904125025195507,0.10487121350913788,0.07147205080884407,0.0,0.1316482310768228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09535994901403312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15637029288543272,0.09355296115256584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.091097017608267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05736328385398697,0.09206470838548818,0.08841251719605789,0.5768114664302153,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07120787126531936,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08151622207967274,0.0,0.0,0.09191419442104168,0.07407056586731216,0.0,0.0,0.0912774066014495,0.0,0.13786853969536172,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07197095185406499,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0594881261346913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1566390343178279,0.0,0.0,0.08556179368883321,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10770872538550699,0.07733605861131287,0.0,0.2216460734838833,0.10562909352094052,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08050955303348598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06360849551707766,0.19580155779724445,0.0,0.0576625000626448
schizophrenia,holdmadick2,2020/04/17,"Help! I hear voices screaming in my head telling me to die. They keep me up at night and (believe it or not) cause all sorts of pain in various parts of my body. Particularly brain (head pain not headaches), heart, and stomach. They keep me up all the time until they eventually quiet themselves out.

I have no desire to kill myself. I have told them this many times. What do I do? I’m scared to see a doctor because I’m worried it will be documented in my health records. 

All of this precedes the quarantine.",2.4075757575757564,4.7893782929292925,3.2891818181818198,89.11377272727276,79.20202020202021,5.980202020202023,25.051515151515154,7.1686216300943375,1.0472496969696974,397,15,81,5,10,126,68,99,0.225,0.727,0.048,-0.9638,0,1,0,0,0,1,16.0,0,0,4,0,0,5,1,1,3,0,6,10,6,1,3,14,13,4,2,1,3,0,0,0,0,1,4,4,0,0,5,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,5,15,0,14,10,5,12,0,0,1,0,8,7,0,2,5,54,20,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10537168010451237,0.0,0.0,0.1947500122964208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19200453473244766,0.0,0.19296495167233796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1775711771465921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17939769195349142,0.0,0.0,0.17692588867140374,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35480114859014417,0.18373831027974502,0.19482176825542288,0.20483571109750587,0.11586202661879405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30728548843022463,0.19124003764476935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17524929706688971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.162214057285368,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3678628742680987,0.0,0.0,0.1871866774308508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17305944931524067,0.0,0.1377442011504847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1510841456175963,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20158795794434106,0.0,0.0,0.16517173394458085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755441032655226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,outpostx,2020/04/17,"Developing Schizophrenia A friend of mine has been convinced for a few months that there are 12 aliens in his head. He is convinced they know everything and they all have names. 8 guys 4 girls. He is stuck in quarantine right now, what can he do??",2.028156028368798,4.81722291489362,1.7756382978723408,96.28416666666668,85.80851063829788,5.686524822695036,20.599290780141846,7.1686216300943375,0.4730312056737586,195,6,41,3,6,57,40,47,0.04,0.7809999999999999,0.179,0.7882,0,1,0,0,0,0,6.0,0,0,2,0,2,3,0,0,2,0,8,1,1,0,1,4,10,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,2,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,0,4,3,4,8,2,5,0,0,0,0,10,3,0,0,2,25,6,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3977033680778432,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3418854923619151,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4381587826801575,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4541473928185038,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2431943163262252,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35321073570092765,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3779048406419504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jmdopefiend,2020/04/17,"""good"" dreams i have a lot of dreams about being someone better, or someone less lonely. or just somebody who didnt become a recluse because of my mental/health problems. 
occasionally of situations where i made a different choice from the one that was a mistake. 
or maybe where im not ill, but i usually cant escape that even in sleep.

about being in love with someone, or being capable of feeling love for the few people / things i have that really matter, without having to be high.  

sometimes just being someone else.

...but every time, when i wake, im still me. 

and sometimes, i waken wanting to just have nightmares instead.",4.468706896551723,6.739311905172412,5.209862068965517,78.3713448275862,72.1896551724138,6.708965517241379,29.703448275862065,7.554174236665415,2.13003724137931,495,21,81,6,10,160,77,116,0.057,0.73,0.213,0.9624,1,2,0,0,0,0,22.0,0,0,0,1,11,7,0,0,6,0,12,5,2,1,0,20,17,8,0,3,11,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,2,0,0,4,3,0,1,3,1,8,4,14,9,3,9,0,1,0,2,3,5,0,5,4,66,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09198074022110078,0.16664541955598147,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13344935797597324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1576472435322435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12604868058643415,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09966098498168448,0.0,0.12713077545647966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07629418324279436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12655881820419787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16038831087957106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15942287048269074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.32597275655487834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12828071970501234,0.2723670381467572,0.1427751404025663,0.0,0.0,0.1515886213887535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15206096361667035,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10224652078736897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10460766854874863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1443807188560866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09666357395989994,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16960593844466115,0.15099830893583485,0.0,0.5113921872914908,0.0,0.2984668279349612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12050042060597868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10024417177708207,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08798478667602921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16618328882868424,0.0,0.08899844123175102,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454519377769832,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Anniebee15,2020/04/18,"corona virus anxiety The last day I left the house before quarantine, before this happened, I get this thought this is the last day things will be normal. I feel for a long time.  for  months, for the summer.  

I tend to get these feelings that something bad will happen again now, but it's like intuition over something you have no control over.

anyone else get these feelings or dreams.",4.786103286384979,7.040192140845072,3.9827464788732416,87.58473004694841,71.25352112676056,6.423474178403758,25.91784037558686,7.1686216300943375,1.2148009389671364,306,10,55,3,6,90,51,71,0.087,0.82,0.09300000000000001,0.34,0,1,2,0,0,0,9.0,0,1,0,1,2,2,0,0,5,0,5,0,0,1,0,8,15,2,0,1,2,0,3,1,0,2,0,0,0,0,8,0,0,1,4,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,5,1,6,11,0,13,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,1,11,34,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14256523335881816,0.0,0.0,0.13030755900489116,0.19094830301231905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1556031905954239,0.0,0.0,0.3171580319283983,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20901909005251101,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2403741447200848,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15568024185054935,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2826883274882925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2920969285037442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3295958590903488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21503493686006495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3038172781905627,0.0,0.0,0.2024811730718186,0.0,0.0,0.09104630192903693,0.0,0.0,0.16492313290294958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14875113237267756,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18259367190503906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2869387567050866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1238096014472978,0.0,0.0,0.1479493798053122,0.1086682764560996,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,1409041,2020/04/18,Tips when unable to sleep due to symptoms? Hey everyone. I’ve been having a great deal of trouble sleeping lately due to symptoms. I have seroquel on hand which is supposed to be reserved for when I can’t sleep however the last few times it hasn’t really helped as it’s only put my body to sleep and made my actual paranoia and symptoms a lot worse in the sense that it results in a fight between my mind and body and it basically puts me in a worse mental state cos I feel less in control and as my mind is too scared to sleep and then I end up in a catatonic state or with paralysis. I’m so tired but I can’t close my eyes.,3.5658333333333303,4.231322704545455,4.790606060606064,86.83924242424244,71.95454545454545,7.987878787878787,27.54545454545455,8.167268648758528,1.5983272727272737,495,17,108,7,9,164,84,132,0.10800000000000001,0.8540000000000001,0.037000000000000005,-0.7114,1,0,0,0,1,0,5.0,0,0,0,1,4,4,1,1,7,0,9,13,9,4,0,18,12,14,0,0,2,0,2,0,0,0,4,0,0,0,6,8,0,1,1,0,0,2,3,3,0,0,2,3,11,1,19,9,3,21,0,0,1,0,4,8,0,2,9,68,17,0,0.0,0.0,0.11914619662096293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2712379674839103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13693887744641284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12587362142669958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10813910347810787,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11666611276486223,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061734428537485085,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1346091393436763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08183707914096873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09952295987363664,0.1377274250526592,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.103800009211242,0.0,0.11552835783118612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12304210219880758,0.0,0.24656040411354616,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0928580393408784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24547651887534944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07821658539570182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12223746004634865,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6109112068619462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3807074522227921,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07119403202930538,0.14032916867640322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2488485690982241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jay992565,2020/04/18,Bug biting Hi there. Not sure what condition I have but recently after immense stress and anxiety I started getting a sensation of bugs under the skin which have now started biting all over.  Any idea what this is and what can help. Many thanks !!,4.709666666666667,7.179233244444448,4.793055555555559,80.73625000000003,72.1111111111111,8.055555555555555,29.027777777777786,8.841846274778883,2.6337777777777784,196,8,33,4,4,61,38,45,0.136,0.7140000000000001,0.15,0.4124,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,2,3,0,1,2,0,4,1,1,0,2,7,8,3,0,0,2,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,2,2,4,8,1,7,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,0,5,24,7,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21398812900830025,0.0,0.24072364443320704,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16440342314546966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21091838161559412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3552270142241561,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3190285824900549,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3107011871731863,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44545371021655705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3604563503141952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2965751605135903,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2897082124427861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,psilocybe_lair,2020/04/18,"Intelligent Voices For those of you who can hear your voices clearly, is it evident that those voices have an intelligence of their own? Or is it more evident they are just a part of your imagination? For example, can you ask the voices questions and get answers that you know you’d never be able to answer on your own?",8.426010928961745,7.323788868852464,8.782622950819675,68.31142076502736,61.95081967213114,12.06775956284153,35.087431693989075,11.20814326018867,3.8757169398907103,255,9,46,6,3,85,43,61,0.0,0.857,0.14300000000000002,0.8534,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,7,2,0,1,0,0,0,3,0,8,0,0,0,2,10,12,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,7,1,0,0,5,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,5,9,0,7,10,4,2,0,0,0,0,13,1,0,2,1,41,16,0,0.3851371800050965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.36005127360708883,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20121828060176686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4340775927833909,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21166132192339795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.29704153617394763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.41706603460131103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4314417843900608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,TurtleBork,2020/04/18,"I think I am delusional? I dont know if this us the right place for this but Ive always had a low key belief that Im some super magical being and can destroy planets and such.

I tell myself it is not true and no human is that powerful but I cant help but fantasize about it.

I crave it. I want it. I want to bring evil people to justice and make a better world.

Is this schizohprenia? Wtf is happening to me?",-0.06329545454545382,2.017831988636363,2.7260909090909102,91.1916363636364,87.06818181818181,6.247272727272727,19.027272727272727,7.554174236665415,0.6038599999999992,317,9,71,6,10,111,60,88,0.231,0.56,0.209,-0.659,1,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,1,0,0,3,2,6,2,0,3,0,11,0,0,1,1,17,18,8,0,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,9,4,0,0,3,0,0,1,4,3,0,0,1,0,12,3,5,16,1,5,1,1,0,0,4,4,0,2,0,51,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2371736939332455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2520921440956056,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33406134833606577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25205735862140793,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1910543540761452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3078889713784509,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15664893109799916,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1902644718933892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.197608829695864,0.0,0.2978030935147743,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2434201186836597,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.249134981447268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826402589090257,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34286452532515643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3362445231893629,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,3maryjesus3,2020/04/18,"Searching for advice So, my father has schizophrenia and it's really hard for me to deal with it. I love him but all I do is criticise him, I try really hard not to, but I always fail and I feel so frickin bad.
He is too conscious about everything he does and his self-esteem is really low. I even criticise him for that, trying to help but... no logic on that and I know.
Makes me feel like such a bad person because it's true, i'm a super bad influence on him.
I'm 23 years old I should know how to deal with this by now but I just don't. 
I would love to talk to somebody in a similar situation.",0.4196394230769229,2.3249524062499987,3.0,91.09115384615384,83.53125,6.750961538461539,19.221153846153847,7.882392219407189,0.6397925480769233,460,12,106,9,13,160,76,128,0.247,0.597,0.156,-0.9359999999999999,0,0,0,0,0,0,16.0,0,0,0,2,9,10,0,0,3,0,8,2,0,3,2,25,17,11,0,2,6,1,4,1,0,2,0,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,6,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,0,4,18,5,16,15,1,7,0,2,0,2,15,4,0,0,4,70,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16237967880409346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13826698830520814,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4162357397917819,0.10129586307772148,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3426285335572351,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1454167357438204,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1097539057049214,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14934313696224014,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16804137737556035,0.11871208442966873,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2977118714346663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11138043896276542,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1826456852356199,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08118240740806744,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2999503389152903,0.0,0.11091995521891332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1743677607035033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14509348291487292,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3193588177995219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1733518470974332,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1867823620092764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13356138024062925,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2256374309059942,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1180426024310102,0.0,0.0,0.107008215093618
schizophrenia,Jubbbin,2020/04/18,"Early Symptoms of Schizophrenia?? I’m a 16 year old male and ive begun wondering what the early symptoms of schizophrenia are?

I looked up some of the early signs and some of them make a little bit of sense. Ive begun noticing shadowy figures moving out of the corner of my eye, and im hearing things that I know arent real. For example, I’d hear a coworker shouting my name and telling me to do something, and when id shout back, she’d stare at me confused. 

I lose stuff a lot. Im never able to keep track of anything. This might sound stupid, but I think of it as ghosts living in my house, moving stuff around just to mess with me. I know its silly to think about but a small part of me really believes it. To the point where if i misplace something, I’ll say something out loud like “Alright quit fucking with me” and whatever I misplaced would be found. It always seems like too good of a coincidence to ignore. I can barely trust my own memory most of the time. I always make careless mistakes.

Yesterday, before work, I lost my keys. I got extremely emotional after i couldn’t find them, when i started begging out loud to nothing in particular for them to come up. And after i was begging, they showed up. It all seems just so weird

Ive struggled with depression for the past 2 years, and with very violent thoughts. People would do things that would inconvenience me and for some reason id have insanely violent scenarios take place in my head. I know id never, ever do anything like that but for some reason, the thoughts dont go away. Ive considered talking to a therapist but im scared that if i open up about this, ill be put in an institution. I know im able to control myself

Im not sure if its schizophrenia or something else but can anybody give me some advice on what to do?

edit: for clarification, the violent thoughts have been with me for years now, but the small hallucinations and me believing that ghosts are hiding my stuff has only begun very recently",2.9459654384461587,5.146713832904887,4.094603684661525,84.95219401599543,76.48071979434448,6.8929163096258215,25.97265067123679,7.8897218956490685,1.6121773207654957,1567,59,301,25,36,510,196,389,0.166,0.7759999999999999,0.057999999999999996,-0.9934,2,0,4,3,0,0,40.0,0,0,4,5,13,24,5,3,17,1,27,6,2,5,5,79,55,24,2,8,13,0,0,3,0,4,3,8,0,1,20,21,0,3,18,1,0,5,6,16,0,0,8,11,43,8,55,39,11,52,0,3,3,1,13,23,1,16,27,200,63,2,0.15434495153604424,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07541205015984118,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12842736399426447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12701274407199825,0.06869986494852873,0.0,0.0,0.07250608134661404,0.059340870292966766,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06566809285716896,0.17389390633770252,0.0,0.0,0.08425235604269349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06647725455615269,0.0,0.0,0.0865554936826447,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06646854029706098,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09044556684951324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06446770094838017,0.08680864810775958,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0698069225397948,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07053424475469286,0.0,0.0,0.08461563639966922,0.0,0.07134471030682908,0.0,0.07403087078887308,0.043858896419368944,0.06472861125090383,0.061721878711514674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07920122439778879,0.0,0.1739579778305191,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0890466756613634,0.0,0.0,0.41679758346397,0.0,0.0,0.06859444232369209,0.0,0.0,0.16964789779002695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11310772058380575,0.07734709465638501,0.06814470996846195,0.0,0.06480544326045769,0.08633626042961369,0.08424287356949353,0.06560927918412311,0.0,0.0,0.10302645365850004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08186780132465155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16404425725300292,0.0,0.0,0.11904034168904025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07404907185259846,0.08786137515761863,0.08097953151081295,0.0,0.0,0.058693145346524186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08357027085390416,0.07366986036822541,0.05350167777665574,0.0,0.08062881185340177,0.0,0.07295293394936576,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0775796533276953,0.0,0.08208242732709896,0.0,0.08783917262909226,0.04943866409117445,0.15869231629443162,0.07619850966407478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.061370650207101675,0.07726311109103821,0.0,0.0,0.14050984708743847,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23764456860905456,0.0,0.0,0.05462307555315897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0806774276136374,0.2650320642039677,0.0,0.0,0.07273414511262481,0.16042350227239446,0.0580240975444422,0.06202831278090965,0.06745214533581048,0.0,0.0,0.08960319243472388,0.1025399275561874,0.09889801276830487,0.0,0.18379897653184807,0.04499989122494423,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.127350749328203,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08369025801300448,0.0561824814788705,0.0,0.0,0.16446333779731168,0.0,0.0,0.14908963258680058
schizophrenia,rebeccasingsong,2020/04/18,"Hey need to vent Not sure what’s really going on but about 3 years ago I got schizoaffective slapped onto my bipolar 2 dx. It was for a good reason or so I thought. Basically it was because I kept seeing quick movements from the corner of my eye in my house and eventually started to believe strange things like the cause of that being demons in my house among other strange things. However it was all super minor and didn’t ruin my life or really affect my behavior except I was gonna burn sage for the demons in my house but never got around to it.

The peripheral vision symptoms last months after the main thing but they were so trivial I couldn’t fathom the dx. I eventually let it all go till now. Now lately I still get times where I constantly see these peripheral movements and since they’re usually on the ground I keep thinking I’m seeing a rat fly by (in this city there’s tons of them no matter how clean your house is). But it’s happening as frequently as it was years ago plus I’ve been lacking soooo much motivation recently, tons of anxiety ( I have an anxiety disorder too whoopee) and yesterday’s and today I kept getting the sensation something was crawling up right pant leg. 

Because of my anxiety I always think I’m overreacting and it’s not severe enough to be schizo anything. So I tell my mental health team and even though they don’t care for labels, they seem concerned enough to prompt me to tell my psychiatrist. I know it sounds bad at first but I can’t felt but doubt it. Everything has been so overwhelming lately so I needed to vent this. I know they said dx isn’t set in stone and people present differently but a part of me wants to know if this is just anxiety or something more. I rather it just be anxiety.",3.692165759225652,5.691128385964916,4.639134906231097,82.80710526315792,73.61988304093566,8.109054244807421,26.41298648921153,8.841846274778883,2.0617776567856425,1396,50,269,29,29,453,196,342,0.149,0.768,0.08199999999999999,-0.9722,2,0,2,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,5,4,20,9,0,2,12,0,22,9,2,5,4,54,52,30,0,7,17,0,1,1,0,1,7,2,1,0,21,10,0,3,10,1,0,4,9,4,0,1,17,7,36,5,38,29,11,46,2,2,4,0,11,16,0,6,26,182,57,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16405903016265128,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07699918066533615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3539572804546119,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07615103918224674,0.08237860138735231,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0772655168102528,0.11282083391526125,0.0,0.0,0.104258842463634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09434884409420242,0.09506220392956984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10000090016113652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0966827046455418,0.1060567739274314,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1912333584452753,0.0,0.0611205965913209,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08316735126030386,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0888511668319015,0.0,0.0,0.07871293050179283,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09669476164838564,0.0,0.1051831629691652,0.07761663678072905,0.1480224756501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0818312089028719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09836376039264724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4271065513547797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0822521882074264,0.0,0.0,0.15256969455526806,0.0754309693954583,0.2087742003906057,0.0,0.0,0.0946265609479041,0.06536245476340194,0.04520948153627536,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09325672243967968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07386309416217884,0.0,0.06802621149292935,0.13723177910087447,0.07137115090664875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10020983353700573,0.0,0.06415432389015313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11856465817920912,0.0951446635087933,0.09137029102793832,0.0,0.0,0.07902710197437031,0.08802500229780517,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22122285075139012,0.0842432855791357,0.0,0.10454180593384356,0.0,0.07654854057477453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14248082732027162,0.0,0.0,0.06549900164892944,0.0,0.07390111183725559,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08721614157425034,0.09618260353758974,0.0,0.0,0.16176490004757968,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1844347690807225,0.1185894612448717,0.09091829416443292,0.07346498004745931,0.053959758210169295,0.0,0.08771537651508689,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10191773399172856,0.0,0.05458141744015396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11918311070001487
schizophrenia,soulsaiyan19,2020/04/19,"Some concerns I have. I recently have noticed some strange things about myself. Didn't notice it before. It seems I'm trying to socially recluse. Went to a friend's house and I hated the whole experience. I hate talking to the people I live with recently. Talking to anyone sounds like a dutysome chore, as I don't feel like putting in all this effort for some odd reason recently. (I was told I'm still quite socially inept, but I just am super empathetic because life can suck sometimes for everyone.) I like to talk to my friends and family, so this is quite odd. Secondly, I'm only having bad dreams. I feel that I saw something I wasn't supposed to and now I'm stuck dealing with nightmares each time I sleep. They make me lucid dream, because I understand that I'm dreaming. (Wish episodes were that easy) Once lucid I try and make things nice which sometimes works. :) 
Third, and lastly, I've noticed that apparently some of my childhood memories are either altered, or false completely. Are these things normal? Did I see something I shouldn't have? Are my memories trustable? Can I trust anyone if my memories are false?",3.483584415584417,6.2429390380952405,3.97844155844156,83.54064935064937,77.66666666666667,6.865800865800866,28.11688311688312,8.00094639256281,2.159285714285715,898,39,157,16,22,282,126,210,0.09699999999999999,0.711,0.192,0.976,1,0,2,0,0,0,32.0,0,0,1,5,5,12,3,0,4,0,19,2,1,3,1,28,39,10,0,4,5,0,2,3,2,1,1,1,1,0,13,8,0,0,5,3,0,2,4,4,0,2,9,5,25,8,15,29,8,11,0,0,2,0,10,1,1,7,11,98,38,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1503940566174178,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08979446486055594,0.13111523516268314,0.0,0.0915117345738898,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11275748248897804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11087279229837198,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10276257679905994,0.0,0.10519833650057904,0.10138259248087313,0.0,0.10875461268715704,0.07682921292997796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16617593148050822,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2123542008736939,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12409094574337615,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08766243740285662,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596126823127852,0.15762120162125198,0.0,0.09496302298305298,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14357245765904025,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1053699541307419,0.0,0.3673175126408375,0.0,0.11453048915438944,0.0,0.08179180031831082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07455723355030558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10811108309632286,0.0,0.2287718426382791,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11057279491303523,0.3185591733174664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08569837411830511,0.09790370994670798,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1076213277785064,0.219254438260442,0.0,0.16558472874170127,0.21272686129120286,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08588450662049937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2593185631697452,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2143416892163476,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06270957359136169,0.0,0.0,0.10276257679905994,0.0,0.14603017297973828,0.0,0.0,0.11195674386591874,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09969405121111846,0.0,0.12006865693742658,0.12366990274605695,0.0,0.0,0.07829306607060382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Iatesomuchpaste,2020/04/19,"Mom new to all this. I have a special needs child with a new diagnosis. I need to know what you guys think is important. What's it like? How can I help? I'm so lost and I just want to do the best I can for my kid. Anything, please anything.",-1.9435377358490555,-0.07562207547169564,0.5748820754717023,102.74081367924528,99.94339622641508,4.159433962264152,16.058962264150942,5.985473137389443,-0.7750358490566032,182,5,48,2,8,61,41,53,0.046,0.638,0.316,0.9227,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,1,0,2,3,4,0,0,3,0,5,0,0,1,1,10,12,3,0,3,1,1,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,3,4,2,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,7,3,5,11,2,2,0,1,0,0,6,0,0,0,3,30,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.408436729716628,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2604334933398316,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24572202338832325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16633953617638006,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13638480351503454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12124071443509217,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2709010346485459,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2906474428892258,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3680218922227331,0.0,0.4793579375868544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27241026713176714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1590138895340389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14637394237787266,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,justathrowaway8112,2020/04/19,"Should I be concerned? [LONG] Excuse all typos, please.

Recently, I (20f) have been worried that I might suffer from a serious disorder but I do not want to self diagnose. I want to know if what I’m experiencing is serious enough to go see a doctor. I’m posting on my throwaway because I don’t want to be judged on any previous posts. For a little background, I don’t drink or smoke and I have no idea if there’s a history in my family with schizophrenia, though I do know that my mother has been diagnosed with bipolar i disorder and borderline personality disorder, if that helps with anything. Anyway, I’ll just jump right into it.

Most of these experiences I have been dealing with for at least two years, maybe three. I’m having trouble distinguishing whether or not this is normal behavior.

1, I have a past with sexual assault and so some nights when I’m trying to sleep, I feel a hand trailing on my behind, which usually happened back when the assaults took place. But I know there’s no way a person could be present because I sleep with the door closed. These are rare occurrences, maybe once every few months. Other times when I’m trying to sleep, I feel like bugs are crawling all over my body. I can feel them. It shakes me up so much that I scratch at my skin, become agitated, sometimes start crying. Eventually I turn on my phone’s flashlight and there’s nothing there. But when I turn it back off, they’re back and feel so real. This happens maybe once a month. Another occasion, I sometimes feel like there’s another presence in a room with me. Like a ghostly presence? This is the most frequent one, it happens whether it’s day or night, about a few times a week. It’s been happening for years and I figured everyone felt it too. 

For the record, I do believe in ghosts and aliens but never the feeling that they’re out to harm me. 

2, now these are rare, I want to say. Once I heard one of my favorite songs on the radio, by an artist that was popular about 35 years ago. I was deep into the artist and so I believed that the radio played the song specifically for me. It was trying to tell me something. I don’t know what it was trying to tell me. Maybe trying to give me comfort because I was going through tough times then. I had a period where I did believe that I was being watched through my laptops webcam, so I placed a sticker over it. I still do have that feeling, but not severe enough to where I feel the dire need to cover the camera. 

And these, up next, are very frequent. Like, on a daily basis. Gonna put it in an example for better understanding. I wake up and I know my family is mad at me. I don’t think I did anything wrong but I know that they don’t like me. So I’m gonna stay in my bedroom and not socialize the entire day, that way I don’t make them any more mad. I don’t even say hi or good morning because maybe they will scream at me, even though they haven’t given me any reason to believe that. Later on, I walk to to the bus stop because I have to make a trip to the local grocery store. The walk there, I look behind me frequently because someone may be following me and trying to hide it. On the bus, the guy next to me is tapping his foot repeatedly. He’s doing it on purpose to get a rise out of me, and it’s working. At the grocery store, I see the same woman appear in the same aisle as me for the second maybe third time. That’s suspicious. She’s definitely here with her boyfriend, wherever he is. They have plans to kidnap me and kill me or put me in sex trafficking. I hurry the hell up and get out of there. After that, it’s time for my afternoon classes at the community college. Five minutes into class, a group of students behind me are talking and laughing amongst each other. I know for a fact they’re talking bad about me. Even if I can’t hear what they’re saying. There’s a voice in my mind, sounds a lot like mine. Like me talking to me. It says ‘of course they’re talking about you. No one likes you’. But is it really a voice if it’s me? Anyway, it gets to be too much and I leave before the professor can arrive. On my way back home, I’m in tears because of those students. I text my friend and tell her. She tries to be supportive and tells me that they probably were talking about something else. No, she doesn’t know what she’s talking about, those people were definitely making fun of me. She doesn’t get it. 

Actually, no one gets me. I struggle with finding people that relate to me. I feel so different from everyone. Like they are normal and I am not. It’s so hard to explain. Like if there were two versions of humans: everyone else is version 1 and I am version 2. When I make it home, it doesn’t end there. Whenever something doesn’t work in my favor, it was deliberately planned by my family to work out that way. I can’t think of any examples now, but they’re usually outlandish assumptions that they just have it out for me.

3, these issues are most common and are with me day in and day out which includes depression, lack of motivation, unable to feel pleasure, cannot finish anything i start, sometimes can’t even start, very poor hygiene due to lack of motivation, and of course social isolation. i have poor memory skills: eg. forgetting where i placed my phone and unable to retrace my steps, not knowing what i ate yesterday, never knowing what i previously said to someone days ago, sometimes never knowing that i said mere seconds ago. it’s also hard to follow along in conversations, as if im always lagging behind in the comprehension itself. my attention span sucks, and im very indecisive everything with me is always “i don’t know”

4, also common. i find it hard to locate everyday words in my head to use in a conversation. you would think that english was my second language but actually i’m a native speaker. i can never organize my thoughts and figure out what i want to say before i say it so when i’m engaged in a conversation, it’s embarrassing when people have no clue on what i’m trying to say. like i mesh random words together or if a sentence does have all the correct words i say them out of order. in these moments im not flustered or nervous so i dont know why this happens

5, irritability and suicide ideation are also issues

And i’m just going to stop right here because i’m tired of going on and on. however if there are any questions or requests on me to expand on a point, i’ll be happy to answer. please, honest opinion, what do you guys think?",3.1158158508158493,4.9205145617715615,4.433257575757576,84.50321969696972,74.71095571095572,7.284149184149183,26.524281274281268,8.07648339933343,1.6713283605283609,5079,188,1007,81,108,1677,463,1287,0.136,0.765,0.1,-0.992,2,1,5,0,0,2,153.0,0,4,10,9,62,47,7,5,55,0,93,17,9,8,9,184,184,83,4,22,38,1,17,11,1,7,5,19,5,7,75,55,2,2,43,8,4,17,35,22,0,12,26,41,149,25,152,142,24,165,1,2,4,1,71,71,2,29,80,689,224,13,0.0,0.0,0.07239136752822295,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09863739530555396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08898551434613082,0.061725738708891975,0.0,0.0,0.1261165198146473,0.07778676398417712,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0915687499469077,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11408344578731675,0.03096962240784088,0.18088372512534484,0.04096434236110725,0.06312379877848917,0.16715642978001055,0.0,0.032804173091366004,0.0,0.04119998780615975,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.029614323907408563,0.0,0.040742967459240116,0.11960385372084477,0.038239422865494095,0.03194661653976698,0.07529362238774198,0.0,0.03875243420159085,0.1275292670490667,0.0379644390483448,0.032458779729148665,0.0,0.043470637822792986,0.03633527835555202,0.0,0.0,0.06196991575845812,0.0,0.032851814854654375,0.07665029818382818,0.0,0.0979936134989521,0.0,0.03125095561767185,0.1063267609890826,0.033335200119312486,0.036282333932445315,0.10489891373827412,0.0,0.1875443712072133,0.05299595510765634,0.0356133913403777,0.0,0.0678014128196487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.028656587347641968,0.0,0.09689316724628788,0.03558128146981045,0.08431918856679889,0.031110358577796312,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07345228568352742,0.16399823268656386,0.03948429723488933,0.0996793526710124,0.0,0.03806629623590626,0.0,0.04180450470965592,0.0,0.024861465332279845,0.0,0.07441104301653105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.041871476689588766,0.12019465913452955,0.07742720168016387,0.0,0.0,0.0410359433957812,0.0,0.2649967641545221,0.0,0.0,0.039274250246666205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19932988133091772,0.037175150265212765,0.0,0.03282456569674423,0.031147286163932968,0.0,0.0,0.031533631913357583,0.0,0.0,0.09903471909479278,0.0,0.2235787170567068,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.039347926766312866,0.0374515623206862,0.0,0.05921172161949305,0.0,0.05453263423955748,0.02750267232113015,0.11442815297903447,0.0,0.07889387418708482,0.06961520144779615,0.07268304783882168,0.035590029403808274,0.0,0.0,0.11850282783482015,0.10053589216975302,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.03540776988938838,0.07714315267912852,0.06477325155153597,0.11625730260477253,0.08143005046343525,0.035063195248691024,0.0,0.07104627850273795,0.0,0.03999061244601422,0.0,0.0,0.07457384877331287,0.04155065916170637,0.0,0.0,0.042217932763540536,0.02376158761574208,0.03813595539941312,0.03662310859032903,0.0,0.0,0.06335140458951594,0.07056449490416429,0.23597143794044034,0.0,0.0,0.0591138059908554,0.0,0.03869423551419362,0.041902525075394235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11135403132609696,0.07561966291256215,0.06285454678808837,0.08566390813062019,0.14673667425769446,0.0,0.07876007692303644,0.039534309217459096,0.029621099082789367,0.062019847535882085,0.0,0.03877580027888238,0.0,0.040571778473508936,0.042090680994859735,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17887512325358534,0.1296774571667884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09506623362973762,0.07288387773687573,0.029446288411643318,0.1081409538158674,0.04263090519331005,0.0,0.0,0.04120971418707997,0.2014600487616819,0.08068920053620221,0.07246547179092477,0.03861327186395342,0.0,0.032034908204111714,0.08170148518226876,0.09181243194127993,0.10938682341033697,0.1177651473698211,0.029752342266958387,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.033469060131774336,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08100855761401751,0.037667938020635415,0.0,0.0263485410490412,0.04055343033307393,0.0,0.07165659575219926
schizophrenia,-imfuckingugly,2020/04/19,a question i’ve had for a while: is it hard to diagnose someone as a schizophrenic if they don’t suffer from delusions or hallucinations? or their hallucinations/delusions go unnoticed?,9.0896875,10.46302859375,9.45625,55.763750000000016,59.9375,12.65,44.125,12.161744961471696,6.223325000000001,153,9,22,5,2,51,27,32,0.18,0.82,0.0,-0.644,0,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,3,0,3,2,0,0,0,4,4,5,0,1,3,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,1,0,0,1,1,2,0,4,3,0,2,0,1,0,0,3,0,0,4,1,17,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4995315177040471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2797055773159617,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.44087822885438455,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5513312595259029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4170051347770654,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,throwaway748220129,2020/04/19,"How do you accept yourself after understanding all the crazy shit you've done? I had a first big episode in life a few months ago, and i mean i've just got off the rails, everything seemed like a videogame-superhero-conspiracy movie. After medical treatment and realisation of everything i just can't wrap my head around all of it. 

I am a religious person and my crazyness had religious meaning to me at the time, as if i was doing something good and communicating with God or smth. My therapist said that i should avoid seriously practicing religion for the time being and i don't know if i will be able to ever again. I feel like i've profaned my faith and can't use my favourite chants and songs, since i was shouting them aloud running around my house scaring the shit out of my parents. Picture that, huh....

My condition is much-much better now, but i still feel very guilty about all that.",6.0365869218500805,6.881262578947368,6.137054758107393,78.75110047846893,66.48538011695906,9.72695374800638,32.50451887293993,9.800150414767053,3.0013345029239766,715,29,137,15,11,227,112,171,0.095,0.826,0.079,-0.5704,1,1,1,0,0,0,20.0,0,1,1,2,10,11,2,2,9,1,16,5,3,2,4,33,26,13,0,3,6,1,2,2,0,2,2,3,0,1,4,11,0,1,8,1,0,1,3,5,0,1,7,5,22,6,17,15,4,19,1,0,0,0,5,7,2,4,13,91,26,0,0.152121550579262,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13484657609937112,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.27084086331428897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13453914946067375,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15567316171685294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.137602651622073,0.0,0.0,0.2734340816128705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15383445342809984,0.1086756661291478,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12939451321139012,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12759233926780258,0.12166550056634776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15612059796272745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1755278451381268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08360202587612436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.107447949942853,0.1486378113134141,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3314099290830156,0.0,0.1532464582097998,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12142197034811852,0.0,0.2236536860114027,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1689129795464911,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1328266703640758,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14470243008544284,0.0,0.15230020994890442,0.0,0.0,0.13848574636148386,0.0,0.0,0.3123011712483816,0.12583651861989426,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11711060162245365,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1214844667960163,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17662484499000974,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17740659894374378,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583638990076348,0.0,0.1313841775809407,0.0,0.12551621068547236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,masterdebator5458,2020/04/19,"I am waiting to be officially diagnosed with schizoaffective.. Please help me here, I’m so distressed :( Hi everyone, I hope I am in the right place to be posting this..

Well, my 18th birthday was yesterday. I guess I have to be 18 to be diagnosed with Schizoaffective. Here’s a long story short backstory of my reasons to believe I have this..

I have been seeing this therapist since I was in 3rd grade. I never took the sessions seriously, not until Junior year of high school. Prior to Junior year, I was very heavily, self medicating with sedative hypnotics, marijuana and alcohol. I started the pill habit in 7th grade, then alcohol/marijuana came into play during 9th-11th grade. 

I had been admitted into a psych ward twice, with a 1 month span between admissions. This was in Jan-Feb of 2019. I was discharged with the suspicion of Bipolar 1 and then again, with Major Depressive Disorder.

Nowadays, since August of 2019 (when I gave up all substances), I have these debilitating, paranoid delusions towards everyone. To be specific, I 3/4 believe without any evidence, that everyone in public places, is talking negatively of me. Especially at work (Walmart). I mean when I talk with people (myself and at least 2 others or more), I feel as if they start talking badly of me when I leave the conversation. 

At my uncles last night, he has 3 daughters (15, 17 and 20). We were watching the movie 2012, and I was across the room on a couch. I heard them whispering or whatever.. I literally believed they were talking about me. I fucking hate this so much. 

Last example, I was at my doctors office about a month ago, and when I was in the closed room waiting on him.. I heard him talking down the hall and what do you know? I thought he and the nurses were talking badly of me.

So that’s the schizophrenic part of the schizoaffective, and then the other part of that is the Bipolar aspect. I don’t endure mania. I only go through lows and highs. They aren’t terrible or hectic. They’re just fluctuating throughout the months. A few weeks of a low (low-moderate depression) and then a high (confident and more social).

To conclude, the only medication I am taking is 50 mg Vyvanse for ADD. I monitor the medication and my symptoms as well. I honestly have noticed a bit of an improvement with my social anxiety and productivity. Nothing badly symptomatic, stands out with this med I started a month ago. 

Does anyone here think I am dealing with Schizoaffective? Or, is there any other possible solutions to what I am dealing with? Feel free to ask anything, I’m pleading for help here.",4.947844635984168,7.118841073995775,5.829640591966175,74.86863500840248,70.60676532769556,9.164178457201713,32.847021195858396,9.661875296680813,3.5482481595923456,2040,98,344,51,39,669,246,473,0.092,0.843,0.065,-0.9105,1,0,2,0,0,0,88.0,1,1,4,2,18,18,2,1,28,0,37,13,0,2,2,55,64,33,0,2,8,1,2,0,0,0,12,3,3,1,15,32,1,2,9,1,1,3,6,12,2,1,20,7,56,7,62,39,10,68,0,4,2,1,32,33,1,7,30,249,71,10,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13576775304033178,0.16368224975935405,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10415455394047914,0.0,0.058583772672489376,0.0,0.0,0.05354677458448783,0.0,0.06301911861364634,0.0,0.07159230742162377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1918242280433059,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2588395547963435,0.0,0.0,0.08360592880229284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08758754088869665,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15790199560495358,0.13191711920441515,0.1554549250543017,0.0,0.0,0.08776773748179706,0.07838325265580354,0.06701599697467041,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2195274730667688,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07744267109433149,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07079731713746233,0.0,0.0,0.04352238849589885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08436191019657659,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07560725990109253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10266041418665732,0.24273409319585185,0.0,0.07606158573141769,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04208656805070342,0.12484644355537385,0.0,0.08108755343471638,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06777121671805922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08341847214144166,0.08506352614650424,0.2314399953010448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24450287965406825,0.0,0.056295382662477626,0.0,0.05906350159995085,0.0,0.0,0.0718654886065697,0.0,0.07348092943593243,0.08718725767356672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11648564293056772,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658581538410465,0.0,0.05309118549434564,0.0,0.16002037260092905,0.08406224850474325,0.0,0.0863328596314601,0.07334282472925788,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07873737377065182,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06539921669482111,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07750342185504085,0.06102463919626105,0.0,0.07989002642103936,0.0,0.0,0.12669614518688987,0.0,0.0,0.15612808439692932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1626119379977522,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07959632548675426,0.057578906940711376,0.3693143987184783,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08891571083614025,0.0,0.049069608273062656,0.0,0.06079625887284454,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08508360771210106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06318682456700114,0.0,0.0,0.06142815275219029,0.0,0.137709897320544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07382074293560205,0.0,0.055751420697106216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09863049369520084
schizophrenia,CredibleMouthpiece,2020/04/19,"Has anyone else heard their voices say things to give away it's a delusion? I've heard things like: ""We got him!"" or ""He fell for that?!"" After responding to a comment in my head. It immediately makes me stop and consider the ramifications of answering the voices.",1.9673469387755096,4.811812265306124,3.756326530612245,80.59938775510206,89.6122448979592,6.881632653061224,21.285714285714285,7.957251820313856,1.5868285714285713,207,7,38,5,7,69,42,49,0.045,0.884,0.071,0.3058,0,0,0,0,0,0,11.0,1,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,4,0,1,1,1,1,0,6,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,5,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,5,5,1,7,3,0,5,0,0,0,0,10,2,0,1,3,24,10,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2266958242960794,0.3321924167706219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3046068461590815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2708366346698167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3110126716351935,0.0,0.0,0.2593011022544501,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3327339545550377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1583930864988271,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21641331690404475,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2578255486867573,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2710548591807761,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4307826786136133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,icyicecubewithsoda,2020/04/19,"New hallucinations, should I tell my doctor? So for about a week I’ve bin seeing a a black dog with only one eye and his jaw is like dislocated and just hanging there and this person  that looks like he was burned very badly. I never had such hallucinations it’s scaring the shit out of me. Any suggestions?",3.7239999999999998,5.6449834000000045,5.020000000000003,80.44500000000002,73.33333333333334,7.466666666666668,22.0,8.238735603445708,1.1023999999999998,244,6,48,4,5,81,52,60,0.099,0.754,0.147,0.4708,0,0,0,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,1,4,0,4,4,3,0,1,8,6,4,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,1,3,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,1,3,0,1,2,4,5,2,5,3,0,5,0,0,4,0,5,1,1,0,5,30,8,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19652210716756613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24129334771993546,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2957920013246686,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2823703923539393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2426775777861407,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.222885766430346,0.27910691871343296,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19582610394943292,0.21978879595188794,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2523336336451196,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2893279284648509,0.0,0.23028643933981216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2966425685320957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2525887089574334,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2384457988506321,0.0,0.0,0.23180916362371065,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,gwkksb,2020/04/19,"Is this schizophrenia? My sister has schizophrenia and I'm terrified of becoming schizophrenic. I was diagnosed with OCD at 14 and have had it since very young, my ocd is mainly rituals to do with touching things, numbers etc but something I do a lot is I will want to do something and my brain will tell me no don't do that! It's bad! For example, before I wanted to put on a pair of underwear, my brain said no not that colour, that colour is evil and will attract bad spirits try this colour, so I went to put that colour on and my brain said no that was a trick! The other colour is fine this one is the evil one! So I put them on. Sounds absolutely crazy when I write it down lmao but is this OCD or something else?",4.775646258503401,4.907159217687077,5.0684353741496615,87.81585034013605,69.06802721088435,8.710204081632652,27.897959183673468,8.515128840125781,1.6283142857142856,563,17,125,8,9,178,79,147,0.228,0.701,0.07200000000000001,-0.983,0,0,3,0,0,0,14.0,0,0,1,0,3,7,3,0,5,0,20,5,3,0,0,15,26,11,0,2,4,1,1,0,0,3,2,3,0,0,14,7,0,0,0,0,0,4,5,5,0,2,6,9,14,2,14,17,3,11,2,0,5,0,6,5,0,2,2,87,28,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24946262362466134,0.0,0.16498542000101052,0.1271167294927228,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5002935120792431,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15162393922419276,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.124793075996547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1666052012070486,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12700288117702244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20245603174324545,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4505234449694816,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2842011407456666,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12357388233950273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3450145918924093,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13057020143718076,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09924561279489244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10142348455570244,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1232593337852772,0.17622380795318598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13848258694741433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,210sideways,2020/04/19,"Followed I always feel like I'm followed, Stared harassed at and panic and loose my mind. When I bought I corolla I panicked for days trying to convince my family it was stolen to the point where I collapsed from anxiety.(High stress) Then tried to convinced them I need to hide it and not drive it at all. They thought I was crazy I called the police to even check.

I told them from months I was being harassed by car horns and people when I had my truck. I was told many times I was just delusions and that's how I got disability. I did tell my doctor and my counselor only to be told it isn't real and constantly asked why I feel that way.

I did tell my entire family not to leave phones on when talking only to have them get mad at me. Even the doctor at the hospital said I had paranoia.

I have accused them many times of things they didn't do like having keys to my room. Or being on my computer.

I did tell them crazy shit happen at school and of course my job interview.

I told them my radio was talking to me just like my grand mother.

I just want to tell them I love them and can't live with it anymore. It's been going on for ten years. 

They think I stole gas in KL . I mean don't paint me as a bad guy let this be me. I just want to let them know I love them but can't anymore. I can't start my car at night it's too loud. so I gonna warm it up in the day to go to gerrys.",1.3073464119772849,2.848358402684568,2.7786577181208045,95.55522973670624,79.06711409395973,5.658440887971089,19.515229736706246,6.297961479604792,-0.18178513164687607,1076,24,254,8,26,351,148,298,0.10099999999999999,0.82,0.078,-0.6714,3,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,0,0,13,0,13,16,4,2,6,0,28,5,1,1,1,31,56,18,0,3,8,1,3,3,0,1,2,2,1,1,12,10,0,0,6,1,2,7,8,7,0,1,21,6,58,9,35,28,1,36,0,0,1,2,32,15,1,1,16,168,70,6,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08499056203945739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2025953968952552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09548924656286714,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08528453995522603,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10429869130147827,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11037952138850274,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1317466452399739,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2090939099132552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13492802940491208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19258130827165307,0.0,0.10329241479902453,0.07297046750075932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0533651271854854,0.0,0.11609962678293345,0.0,0.08169251472072772,0.0,0.0,0.10113691911841756,0.09032408367111773,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10791893016237583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1013604552265971,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05613472757500007,0.0,0.0,0.1081539296883816,0.0,0.208894809771499,0.0,0.14970468044253987,0.0,0.09019350736645268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18437479691149106,0.0,0.0,0.20711248652435435,0.0,0.11126289040106932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10313458850294326,0.0,0.08152899592661578,0.0,0.0,0.07573720872531746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09585361344061022,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15536761810629185,0.0,0.11984196150763385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07081259823249184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09655747289278496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1162602800313005,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971607016356598,0.0,0.0,0.10337344367736608,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1048475858429404,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0722968337463355,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11700364026065585,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16419619625126644,0.3571074303519129,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06785879428993667,0.06544865072632844,0.0,0.08108956342780886,0.11911997343784965,0.0,0.0,0.3904053150951492,0.0,0.13869581094446484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1204923300498778,0.08107579004298554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0921675233389186,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06577628149077988
schizophrenia,pqlamzpqlamx,2020/04/19,"Doctor recommendation I’m thinking about asking my brother 
to consider talking with a different psychiatrist. He does not believe he has schizophrenia and refuses to take the medication. 
Does anyone have a recommendation for a psychiatrist in the San Diego California area?
Thank you",7.876000000000001,11.878935711111113,8.635555555555559,49.180000000000035,69.66666666666667,11.6,40.111111111111114,10.793553405168565,6.500244444444442,237,14,28,9,5,79,37,45,0.0,0.941,0.059000000000000004,0.3612,1,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,5,0,2,2,0,0,0,5,7,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,0,1,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,2,1,6,7,0,2,0,0,0,0,7,2,0,0,0,17,2,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2078307815571094,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2778708021234073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.33487748103507226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3105430659528963,0.0,0.3042284579576389,0.5202175905515506,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2994288979447653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22348067317874995,0.23890296761276425,0.0,0.2736503118206574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19045358226013792,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jwaddle1998,2020/04/19,Loneliness Ever since the covid-19 thing has started I’ve felt super lonely. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia in October and up until then I only had two friends for about 15 years. I was happy that way. But since I was diagnosed I’ve gotten more social and now I can’t be social because of the COVID-19 thing. I’ve been depressed because of it and now I feel like I’m slipping back into the dark place I was in pre-diagnosis.,2.9441470588235283,5.210613694117646,4.10198529411765,84.57768382352944,76.76470588235293,6.602941176470589,27.095588235294123,7.645422480735847,1.7138529411764702,344,14,64,5,8,112,57,85,0.099,0.7490000000000001,0.152,0.6808,0,2,0,0,0,0,8.0,0,0,0,1,5,6,0,0,3,0,9,2,0,0,1,9,14,6,0,0,1,0,2,1,1,0,2,0,0,0,4,5,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,2,0,1,8,2,7,4,10,5,1,14,0,2,0,0,3,5,0,0,9,44,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15616628266335875,0.0,0.2476076941065393,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1749240414069552,0.4122710367102023,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18370960087689947,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10269012154653437,0.14508996021712092,0.19500150614421746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15690945128856254,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161966928749033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09922117295602674,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15446167677242953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2121893689887708,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.336001906051802,0.0,0.0,0.4140562750997825,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1437505485622724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26985245130315905,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19839273389642548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16120608178625154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13078548612324692
schizophrenia,CripplePunkz,2020/04/19,"Going through testing for it. Are my paranoias valid? Meds? My doctors and therapist think I probably have schizophrenia. At first I was DX bipolar(within 5 minutes of speaking to a psych which uhhhh is not how you go about dx someone)& CPTSD and OCD(those dx still stand). My biological mother is also said to of have it(I’m adopted)

I was doing so good with paranoia, delusions and derealization/depersonalization but lately it’s getting rough.

I think the schizo and OCD are fueling off each other.

My latest paranoia is that my grandfather is trying to poison my water when I’m in the bathroom or out of the house. Keep in mind he’s been low key creepy like putting cameras in my room & walking in on me masturbating almost every. time.

Would you say my delusions are justified? It’s getting to the point where I change cups and put in fresh new water after coming home or being away from my drink. Tbh I think I’m going to start carrying the cup with me everywhere I go.

My other paranoia thing is constantly being scared at night that someone’s in my house! It’s so bad that I try to hold me pee in as long as possible. If I HAVE to use the bathroom or something I constantly watch my back. Every little sound I’m 1000% sure someone’s in the house. And if I don’t hear my grandparents snoring I really lose it and have anxiety attacks that they’ve been killed. I want a gun so bad.  

When it comes to meds I’m on trazadone  prazosin and seroquel. What’s the commen treatment for all of this?",3.027172413793103,5.530335234482759,3.975517241379311,84.37120689655173,77.6896551724138,6.620689655172415,26.551724137931036,7.753152298057669,1.708275862068965,1198,48,222,19,29,385,167,290,0.195,0.753,0.052000000000000005,-0.9935,1,0,2,1,0,0,34.0,0,2,0,2,11,11,3,1,10,0,21,9,1,2,2,34,42,23,1,4,7,1,1,1,0,1,5,5,2,0,16,14,3,2,3,1,0,9,2,8,0,1,5,7,31,3,37,34,2,45,0,2,1,0,8,20,0,6,16,143,47,4,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10708518090056814,0.0,0.0,0.08552005374292852,0.0,0.2317393631690007,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08180897410457408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12165993642981268,0.10047385512030292,0.08223042665933095,0.17858123036169754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11312857093633855,0.18423905744238087,0.0,0.23112876902006724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10945784462532868,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.104760701128639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18020349201189131,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09096329484797867,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11174370027903847,0.0,0.24310636143801664,0.08969638116107383,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12052939792739645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1072697580825603,0.0,0.0,0.3701839607042384,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09505337941436633,0.11831350676746095,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12063322395517408,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05224558878308814,0.1071821926954117,0.0,0.09463872776713056,0.0,0.1196387497562484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375729486274965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10797913500719067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1032835289851407,0.0,0.10035615031649002,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1010930721961007,0.12055902779509114,0.0,0.0,0.1152996423314308,0.0,0.0,0.2150089124653594,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06850864204744325,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10172463643475804,0.08504315366417294,0.10706581414591043,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1812201994494104,0.08232780448583732,0.0,0.0,0.07569283675830245,0.0,0.08540259627981472,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10078988993226323,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12416583557957635,0.07104632903876999,0.20556892102056545,0.0,0.0,0.0623577011388932,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1452107766394663,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.092362012785889,0.0,0.0,0.06307611133492541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07596726264221695,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,oryanleec,2020/04/20,Question For people who hear voices do you hear American accents or accents from other continents?,6.7087499999999975,10.635022375000002,6.705000000000003,61.24000000000001,75.25,8.200000000000001,39.25,8.841846274778883,5.299475000000001,82,5,8,2,2,26,14,16,0.0,1.0,0.0,0.0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1.0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,3,1,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,2,3,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,0,0,2,0,7,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.8633649516470008,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26553236605037145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4290612110728067,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Pandaclops,2020/04/20,"Bored with reality. I think its the best way to phrase it. Anybody get that way on meds? I've been pretty stable for awhile and its almost as if I miss that part of me. Changing meds soon so I'm anxious to see how that goes. Hope you guys are good, happy 420 if you celebrate. Love ya",-0.41000000000000014,1.8136790000000045,1.495000000000001,97.7025,92.33333333333334,4.333333333333334,15.833333333333336,5.985473137389443,-0.6746666666666665,220,5,51,2,8,72,49,60,0.07400000000000001,0.579,0.34700000000000003,0.9729,0,0,0,0,0,0,7.0,0,3,0,1,3,7,0,0,1,0,2,1,0,1,0,8,9,6,0,3,2,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,6,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,2,0,0,1,1,6,5,7,8,2,4,0,1,1,1,5,1,0,4,1,30,12,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2233563323880218,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2519874980177313,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2340813817634872,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23596152595661984,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11653649390090345,0.0,0.0,0.1870870885787448,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2208585002905288,0.0,0.2374451003443395,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22154292280274554,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20131491789642256,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4955253568588219,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2415457146946861,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22692607837611636,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17774513639857392,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14292397841910548,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35409972055402955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,creased_pants,2020/04/20,"Why am I being treated with so much cruelty? Hi, I'm new here; on Reddit in general.  Since I got sick back in 2013 my episodes have gotten more frequent and worse.  When I'm in these episodes I become very paranoid and my brain starts doing things.  I usually have to keep to myself and not be obvious or my mother would get mad at me and tell me ""why don't you go be crazy somewhere else.""  Or some mean remark, or just simply get mad and scream.  It is eating me alive, I don't know who to talk to, I'm just stuck in this constant state of paranoia.  I have no clue.  I feel the little that is left of my sanity is cracking.  But I still will protect my family from anyone trying to harm us.  I won't risk someone breaking in my damn house.  How can she get it?  I don't know.  I have so many thoughts.  Anyway.  I forgot my point.",0.9627188782489746,2.914090901162794,2.694254445964436,93.76675102599181,81.84883720930233,5.442407660738714,20.001367989056085,6.522977012572876,0.09294965800273536,633,17,141,6,17,209,113,172,0.20600000000000002,0.755,0.039,-0.9824,0,0,0,0,0,0,23.0,1,1,0,0,10,7,3,1,1,0,19,3,1,1,1,25,37,13,0,1,7,1,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,7,6,1,3,5,0,0,1,6,6,0,0,5,2,26,1,16,26,3,21,0,0,0,0,8,10,1,4,8,93,33,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1186272989095268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13045485870811674,0.0,0.0,0.18737153170327145,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18939201144546133,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833376776142046,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1736002656104983,0.1417256736703919,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15993641468220635,0.0,0.08578308370156057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26591450191210864,0.0,0.09641931618520336,0.0,0.13568926317995886,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19576004589213933,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15079789422232173,0.0,0.0,0.18647681123535928,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1843315524054952,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17003970880551725,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17200438000917773,0.0,0.1848049318766169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12471655367011687,0.0,0.0,0.16385465487674558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16037959409292776,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14034105324173884,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14374883163485902,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12008326754073093,0.0,0.1354873625689177,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13636292726727187,0.1482866706521061,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11271179286081695,0.0,0.0,0.13468777587173664,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11518517000937817,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20407507066984676,0.0,0.18685192460904976,0.1399838250430294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30617599112312205,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17289378178178702,0.12051863181362026,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,lizzzzz97,2020/04/20,"What would you want your family to know? I am living with my grandmother who has paranoid schizophrenia. She's 54,  and we don't know a lot about schizophrenia. What is something you wish your family knew or understood about having schizophrenia?",5.8519767441860475,8.795035069767444,4.518779069767444,81.8121220930233,70.3953488372093,8.020930232558143,27.02906976744186,8.841846274778883,2.4003069767441865,200,7,32,4,4,58,35,43,0.047,0.85,0.10300000000000001,0.3313,0,0,1,0,0,0,5.0,1,4,0,0,2,0,0,0,1,0,6,0,0,0,0,12,12,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,4,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,2,0,8,0,4,9,1,0,0,0,0,0,7,0,0,2,0,25,11,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6273243283810168,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3657123382417241,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.293801002500078,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2828696755261564,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2561468547167941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1962489784236488,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3826156778134882,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2363572733267281,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,blueowl89,2020/04/20,"Made another mistake at work and feel extremely incompetent. I work part-time from home at a desk job and I have made several mistakes lately at work. This has led to me getting in trouble and I now have 3 black marks on my record. I'm one step away from a performance warning (next step after that is losing my contract). 

I am so frustrated right now because I try EXTREMELY hard to do this job well, follow directions, and not make mistakes. It took me years to finally find a job that I could feasibly do, especially because I have a lot of physical health issues and thus can't do labor-intensive jobs. I have to be able to sit, stand, and lie down as needed, as well as not have to leave the house in order to work. This job checks all those boxes, and is the closest I've ever come to a job I can actually do and enjoy, but I still have a very hard time doing it. Most weeks, it takes everything I have just to meet the bare minimum production requirement. 

I always feel proud of myself for continuing to work, even part-time, but I get furious with myself and with life when I still screw up despite my absolute best efforts. I feel like the most incompetent person that ever lived. I have worked for years on coping mechanisms for working and thought I was doing well using them, but at times like this, it just seems like it's all for nothing. 

Not really sure what my aim is in posting this, but thank you to anyone who reads it and understands.",6.398881578947368,6.160715,6.924594298245616,77.14268092105263,65.66666666666667,10.633771929824562,31.847587719298247,10.270032843473604,3.0508640350877188,1145,40,224,25,16,376,160,285,0.12300000000000001,0.78,0.09699999999999999,-0.7711,6,0,0,0,0,0,32.0,0,1,1,13,14,19,3,0,10,0,24,3,0,6,5,50,43,20,0,5,9,0,5,3,0,0,2,0,1,1,17,14,0,1,7,1,1,6,4,8,3,1,5,6,27,11,37,36,6,41,0,1,1,1,5,14,1,4,20,154,44,16,0.08611393113196866,0.0,0.0840347747008951,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07165368914499064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09029796520384216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06021286289610121,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08090687299575361,0.0,0.0,0.10498850627487333,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09037125791564976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07417952662162727,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06875496685452656,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05687743935283812,0.15578996164892964,0.0,0.0,0.07739364864307992,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1306253730433382,0.061519809607055435,0.0,0.0943336023393718,0.07870657296921801,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08998194959003647,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15428233558877247,0.0,0.0,0.09153508192432036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08637929422613712,0.0,0.0,0.0993639146485805,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08988057100008014,0.5127287343055462,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0971402651756849,0.09118221919867596,0.0,0.0,0.060824816250008976,0.12621275090521095,0.0,0.07604017886988296,0.0,0.0,0.09633946184616504,0.0,0.07321098478508077,0.0,0.16296616756963256,0.057481717716223124,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0638523887886954,0.0,0.0,0.09158314270009736,0.0,0.0,0.08262863942668988,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058353028381076574,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18650599134918786,0.0,0.0,0.0751913630952697,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0824733419352382,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08613723478471641,0.0,0.055166789356368484,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07354082666817538,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07839488868947837,0.0,0.09728423082314444,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1375413932797796,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08116136097536676,0.0,0.06474695920028002,0.0,0.0,0.07928213801479082,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06836484229933343,0.1004274515058815,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09567574603006138,0.058465706571708916,0.0,0.0,0.08964763927927392,0.0,0.07437478764154705,0.0,0.07105301176431693,0.0,0.0,0.06907540124181273,0.0,0.2322802978650429,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4388437723323009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11090909658570446
schizophrenia,Fucklife13,2020/04/20,"Is the voice I heard related to schizophrenia? It was about 4 months ago i was trying to sleep. I heard a women’s voice in my left ear. She was saying “fuck you” and something else that I can’t remember. I got scared and woke up,
there was no one. I went to bed again and I could hear her voice again. It was so clear and was like a real person whispering in my ear. I have never experienced something like this before or after that day. Is is something related to schizophrenia?",2.252708333333331,4.332308020833338,3.3200000000000003,90.25833333333335,78.16666666666666,6.3500000000000005,21.08333333333333,7.3871296695380915,0.6104458333333329,374,10,78,5,9,120,61,96,0.095,0.816,0.08900000000000001,-0.1515,0,0,3,0,0,0,10.0,0,1,0,0,5,4,1,1,3,0,12,4,3,0,2,10,19,6,0,1,1,0,0,2,0,0,0,10,1,2,5,4,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,2,0,1,11,11,13,2,9,7,0,12,0,0,0,1,9,4,1,1,9,54,18,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18694534924485864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1794557820350672,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1683821873551378,0.0,0.0,0.13600957812568265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17617538725934562,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19496867085853875,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16867168713030828,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2376935555347612,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2291376134480764,0.0,0.0,0.20606490984614026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16833406757024624,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16265492632771195,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14290764736155534,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18414504096822726,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2400442396241473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.23890248440793865,0.0,0.0,0.16771186047492576,0.21114229788068026,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2110469179725793,0.0,0.0,0.4870709280253029,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14318359833751956,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19550141856277176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,LunaAstraSol,2020/04/20,"I need help, can someone tell me how to cope with episodes without medicine? For context, I haven’t been diagnosed with schizophrenia, yet. It’s NOT one of those situations where, “oh I had this shit happen one time so I’m gonna google symptoms and think I have it.”

I’ve been suffering from some form of psychotic episodes for the last 3 years now, on top of many other issues. I can’t see my therapist until wednesday, and evidently I’m not allowed to be assigned a psychiatrist until a few therapy visits, so I can’t get a diagnosis or medication for quite a while.

I figured this sub was the best way to post this for advice, because I’m at work and currently suffering another episode and it’s driving me insane. I’ve tried so many things to try and snap me out of these episodes but nothing works.",6.426258790436009,6.3309625822784845,6.86552742616034,77.10851617440227,65.58227848101265,10.313361462728553,36.542897327707465,9.994966539143718,3.5280104078762307,640,30,125,13,9,209,105,158,0.06,0.899,0.040999999999999995,-0.4069,2,0,0,0,0,0,15.0,0,0,0,5,7,4,1,0,6,0,10,4,1,2,0,19,19,14,0,1,5,0,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,0,10,8,0,0,2,0,0,2,6,3,0,2,4,1,11,1,21,13,4,19,0,2,1,0,3,5,1,2,10,81,21,3,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16858696604540074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1809048577375176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10516809957375586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18105169391010267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17510668073770913,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09013587267876436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1525610550370859,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11563817849517885,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1800686413412613,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14062884353939176,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3498214227177748,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17379824345850586,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12792322932131922,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16553996789170106,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2338113881968807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16522884160513812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1834988885647192,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1374780761579722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17709184155726154,0.0,0.1939224905102092,0.0,0.0,0.1461777333630722,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17931690938753148,0.0,0.0,0.1507922475428649,0.0,0.1972944858506596,0.20031189085211468,0.11461626655535835,0.11054543594285264,0.0,0.0,0.10059924266621184,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2342628719484901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13694031053733552,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16630550959423934,0.0,0.2511968333270054,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11109881764411976
schizophrenia,CamoFroggo,2020/04/20,Why am I or people like me seen as bad people? Why are people with schizophrenia so hated and targeted? I don't understand and it's making my blood boil and I dunno what to do about it. I'm not bad am I? I don't see what's so wrong with what some of us do...someone explain why people hate us?,-0.9187307692307662,1.0919334923076924,1.9202884615384617,95.76658653846157,91.0,4.480769230769232,15.817307692307693,5.985473137389443,-0.5897307692307692,227,5,53,2,8,79,40,65,0.29,0.6759999999999999,0.034,-0.9662,0,0,0,0,0,0,8.0,2,0,0,0,3,6,2,0,0,0,6,2,1,1,0,12,14,7,0,0,2,0,0,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,5,5,1,0,2,0,0,0,3,5,0,0,1,2,9,1,6,13,1,0,0,0,2,0,3,0,0,3,1,34,14,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.296084153700169,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.35010350553345937,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08662215456840941,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11835231070936385,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4916832108137004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1412889458927265,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15022975616944467,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18458051846538898,0.4265516144836433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4799699305543138,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1938549321280548,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,MaiaPapaya33,2020/04/20,"Uncommon psychosis experiences- is this schizophrenia? Has anyone had their symptoms start at a young age (4) and get better overall as you get older? The symptoms have also changed. When I was younger I would hear voices and now it’s more somatic and paranoia. 

Anyone have their voices only ever be super positive, loving and even super helpful for emotional and physical well-being? 

Anyone only ever get images or voices as if they’re coming in from the very top of their head?

Anyone else have a normal or wider range of affect (emotional expression?) I’ve literally never been flat once. 

My delusions have caused lots of distress and fear in my life. But the voices (and some hallucinations) have always been extremely positive. Some have saved my life. When I follow them it’s always made life better. And because I present as someone super normal and healthy with a lot of clarity outside of the paranoia and near constant hallucinations, psychiatrists and therapists have never diagnosed me with any psychotic disorder. I even made one put me on an antipsychotic and it just messed me up and didn’t change anything. 

Do you think I could be diagnosed with schizophrenia? Or is this something else? Literally even the professionals in this field do not know.",6.511287078934139,9.00696311764706,6.551274509803925,69.96129084967322,67.1447963800905,9.07400703871292,32.18728004022122,9.586721724236666,3.5544507792860736,1023,44,150,23,18,325,131,221,0.066,0.755,0.18,0.9818,0,0,1,0,0,0,27.0,0,2,4,6,10,10,0,2,9,0,21,9,1,4,4,43,33,24,0,5,7,0,0,0,0,1,7,6,0,0,6,17,0,0,2,0,0,3,4,3,0,1,7,6,18,7,20,22,5,24,0,0,0,1,10,8,0,8,13,111,24,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08621353617208305,0.17940878060988566,0.0,0.0,0.07331272661285745,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.30152575361083056,0.11046141798331437,0.08871630167886324,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06571838838163009,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19069376296957224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1107478933004433,0.22809186186514904,0.09286652631712476,0.0,0.11650149652746372,0.0,0.08607543387810397,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188444765966003,0.0,0.0,0.12355661658556245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18011849275966132,0.24253762156328845,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2136173062462368,0.1950359247668222,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10545632056669056,0.0,0.12131329350091175,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16897474553106015,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11064149142430273,0.0,0.1215067712568202,0.0,0.07226102550955342,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.059248125806153226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2284426575473268,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1833079868499484,0.0973003845819052,0.20401993081732409,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1662954208634901,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21125671812971747,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11481135900717107,0.07305308206503486,0.1639847663189437,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10837621026217643,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09134485735537633,0.08299540095406943,0.0,0.0,0.07630663024892083,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22410632772267194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12517269679524587,0.0,0.06907862671811471,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08895239276167227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09693179675960377,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07658328145333354,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,stonermokey,2020/04/20,"phycosis? Am i becoming psychotic? i have a voice in my head that wants me to hurt myself but it's manageable. However the other night i heard dishes smashing and banging but when i came into the kitchen my gf said there was no sound and so did my best friend. I also saw a skinny man with no face and a bald head stick his head around doorways and corners however whenever i look directly at it, it disappears. I do alot of drugs and have family members with schizophrenia (dad said he needs monthly injections to stop him from going ""crazy in the head"" and also a cousin with it). my gf keeps telling me to stop researching it but i can't help but wonder. Any ideas?",2.9761959287531816,5.142967885496184,4.070553435114508,85.32252226463108,76.25190839694656,8.030788804071248,26.183842239185747,8.841846274778883,2.131869720101781,527,20,103,12,12,171,88,131,0.16399999999999998,0.7609999999999999,0.075,-0.8601,2,0,1,0,0,2,13.0,0,0,0,1,6,3,0,0,8,0,7,10,7,0,0,24,18,14,0,2,4,2,0,0,3,0,1,5,1,1,7,12,3,3,2,0,0,3,3,1,0,0,7,7,17,2,13,11,2,14,0,1,2,0,14,6,0,2,5,70,24,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24509593523440326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10421015128005433,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13641830954582812,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16924429570419885,0.0,0.0,0.16081854383846322,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17526858962835348,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17771264253723346,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14446338573573236,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11839477124237248,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08709124119179247,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.6290840399410442,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10271521395961518,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16404925997365533,0.17299212373423498,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13620897032399892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12868510040861514,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12231669722151638,0.0,0.0,0.11362736806419033,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.14380770031016465,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2915374092058294,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.256235174566304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13394069477203305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0903863937285073,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16618494857511024,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Orangejuice____,2020/04/20,Currently stuck in a mental hospital It pisses me off that they think they can control another human like this. I managed to get away two days ago and was free for seven hours before police forced me back like a dog. I try and and act like they want me to so I can be released but they say it has to be real not an act. Fuck them.,1.6957619047619057,3.2505963857142888,3.457142857142859,91.0561904761905,78.0,6.3809523809523805,20.238095238095237,7.1686216300943375,0.35395238095238035,257,6,57,3,6,86,52,70,0.071,0.762,0.168,0.7290000000000001,1,0,0,0,0,0,4.0,0,0,5,1,2,6,2,0,3,0,6,2,1,1,0,9,11,5,0,1,2,0,0,3,0,0,0,1,0,1,4,3,0,1,1,0,1,2,1,2,0,2,2,1,11,5,7,7,0,10,0,0,0,1,7,3,2,0,8,40,15,1,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2279674096277412,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2696672043173698,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2416215049981772,0.1977493490448829,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2188343809487944,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.288440200615496,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1658546272218991,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2377513162735559,0.13436172526254864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25326255942923737,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3769236616681216,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2591688299494389,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2927179719860435,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20451345032521293,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16478539622195895,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1746028673408198,0.0,0.2512196186921071,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15168667442817746,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,dedominee314,2020/04/20,"Im going into psychosis, every thing I do is the worst move, and can’t stop thinking What to do now?",6.2690909090909095,3.701064090909096,7.471818181818183,80.67772727272728,67.18181818181819,8.8,31.09090909090909,3.1291,1.455672727272728,78,2,17,0,1,27,20,22,0.27,0.73,0.0,-0.743,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,0,1,0,4,0,0,0,0,4,6,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,0,2,2,0,1,1,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,0,0,1,0,2,6,1,5,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,2,13,3,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3813941113544137,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.257262868910273,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4889614232493846,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4811167139915193,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.378452501207804,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3007339228137365,0.2900527438153105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,benzew,2020/04/20,Marijuana and Schizophrenia I see on the FAQ page it says drugs do not cause schizophrenia. My father has had it since he was 20 from meth use. I have smoked since 15 and am now 19 with panic disorder. Should i stop or will smoking not make a difference. I wanted to keep this short spare me for the simplicity.,1.9215690866510573,4.516120360655737,2.703653395784542,91.19983606557379,83.09836065573771,6.108665105386418,20.18969555035129,7.447530270364453,0.605307259953161,246,7,51,4,7,77,52,61,0.134,0.866,0.0,-0.802,0,0,3,0,0,0,5.0,0,0,0,0,1,1,0,1,3,0,8,1,0,3,0,13,13,3,0,2,3,1,0,0,0,2,1,1,0,0,3,3,0,2,0,0,0,0,2,1,0,0,2,2,6,0,5,9,1,4,0,0,1,0,3,2,0,1,2,31,9,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2825900208954584,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2874072596323901,0.3152734180501696,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.31901346790731305,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.24450987483368966,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18362264080903504,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3227552045633428,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21876014283766093,0.0,0.0,0.21920864245445326,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4551094501568487,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2299849646912602,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2375867573020988,0.0,0.0,0.16225337996943953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Dredgan_Han,2020/04/20,"Mumbling voices I am not exactly sure how to write this and have it make sense. When my wife and I are in the same room, I will hear her mumbling something. I'll then ask her what she said, and it's always ""I didn't say anything"". I don't necessarily hear her voice doing the mumbling, but more of a generic mumble I guess. Like it sounds like someone talking under their breath and I can never make it out. 

Has anyone else ever felt like someone is mumbling something to you when they aren't?",3.264469696969698,4.9119616464646505,4.016047979797978,88.31073863636368,73.94949494949495,5.758080808080809,25.506313131313128,5.985473137389443,0.7117767676767679,389,13,78,2,8,124,69,99,0.016,0.8809999999999999,0.10300000000000001,0.8507,0,0,2,0,0,0,11.0,0,1,2,0,4,4,0,0,3,0,11,1,1,3,4,18,19,9,0,0,2,1,1,3,0,1,0,7,1,0,6,5,0,0,1,0,0,0,5,0,0,0,3,8,15,4,6,15,2,9,0,0,0,0,15,4,0,1,8,55,21,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16524990078069784,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13886472194290514,0.20348768103529585,0.1634296827638636,0.0,0.1856628329250443,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16590360268945953,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17964375604597985,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.19068574985280146,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21877869008778125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4476699930987906,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2910756558834227,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26513214497830284,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15317144291689105,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18891269712537925,0.15793353600286278,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3365438093607153,0.3057817287713841,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1871767805460355,0.0,0.0,0.15962598956865892,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,buttheads4204206969,2020/04/20,"antipsychotic alternatives I don't want to get fat again.

I've tried over 6 meds, I always end up gaining weight.

I've been off them for months, got promoted twice in two weeks at my job, and I don't want to go back. but I need SOMEthing!

its really the focus and holding a conversation part.

I've tried ashwaganda, sarcosine, teas lion mane etc

cbd doesn't do a whole lot

help! any other alternatives that get people there??

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im SA btw",2.352411616161614,4.7594446704545454,4.046060606060607,83.46964646464647,79.56818181818181,7.547474747474749,22.277777777777786,8.515128840125781,1.5018898989898988,353,11,71,8,9,118,68,88,0.027999999999999997,0.85,0.122,0.8187,1,0,1,0,0,0,17.0,0,0,1,2,3,0,0,0,3,0,5,3,1,0,0,8,12,3,0,3,1,0,1,0,0,0,1,0,0,0,3,2,3,1,0,0,0,1,3,0,0,2,2,1,6,0,8,10,4,11,0,0,0,0,3,5,0,1,5,37,9,2,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16343938062392474,0.21282386016562246,0.2386750203515732,0.13357413821914482,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15103689408123774,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1739721673494718,0.0,0.21906317771577155,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20524545607931105,0.0,0.11163151905774016,0.0,0.1570971374606036,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13165796247410955,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21217016924817406,0.0,0.19491917248768267,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16699151363901132,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21818128481245605,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15678268595223946,0.0,0.0,0.1456449067662834,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21270658965710332,0.0,0.13617473420303064,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12583337984413795,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.15121575299107706,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2667161728542562,0.0,0.1918763885837964,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2317103372506569,0.0,0.1575584025055076,0.2391898722034657,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21929887505196904,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2386750203515732,0.0
schizophrenia,crowsfeetbirdbrains,2020/04/20,"Reentry into the Reddit-sphere I disappeared months ago but I'm back to Reddit, thought I'd reenter with a post to r/schizophrenia.

I am not diagnosed with schizophrenia but I do suffer from psychotic symptoms, hallucinations, and delusions. I am being treated with anti-psychotics but still no diagnosis from my psychiatrist :p

 r/SchizoVerse says it's open to those ""who deal with the symptoms of Schizophrenia"" so I hope that this subreddit has a similar attitude regarding those who don't have a diagnosis.",5.582646691635453,8.756638101123599,5.9003745318352046,70.37305867665421,72.48314606741573,8.899375780274658,35.73158551810237,9.444778638647367,4.280557053682897,417,23,61,11,9,133,62,89,0.106,0.7979999999999999,0.096,0.0546,0,0,0,0,0,0,13.0,0,0,0,0,3,3,0,0,5,0,7,3,0,0,0,13,10,5,0,1,4,0,0,0,0,0,3,1,0,0,7,7,0,0,1,0,0,1,3,1,0,0,1,1,6,2,11,8,0,8,0,1,0,0,4,2,0,1,4,45,13,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25344822430157965,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2198525721464349,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2947679364470502,0.0,0.29019979952267194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.28398015595740866,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.22821627115879894,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2738295107140851,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2273727236509641,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2283337351256495,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.5943546064154304,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269862100601197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,jaybeags,2020/04/20,"I hope I am welcome here; new diagnosis and finally feel free at 23 Hey everyone! I am diagnosed as trauma-related and have been way too paranoid to voice my symptoms until recently. After struggling for many months with my thoughts and delusions that caused me self-harm to punish myself, I admitted myself to the psychiatric hospital after a failed suicide-attempt (honestly, thank god for my spouse to shake me into it, only person I truly trusted in my life). As soon as I had my first dosage of Seroquel, it was life changing. Life is not so ""crazy"" anymore. I am no longer hearing the voices to self-harm and otherwise think everyone hates me and I should punish myself anytime I cause discomfort or burden. I have struggled since I was a kid with self-harm, but I never tried to associate it with the overwhelming thoughts and evil self-dialogue. I no longer pick my skin ferociously, I have less nightmares, I haven't had an episode of sleep paralysis in over a week, I am no longer annoyed by noises and things that people do that I otherwise would view as a threat. The best way to describe it, I feel free. Everyday gets a little better as I stay consistent with my treatment. 

My spouse must be feeling relief too. I don't think he is constantly cheating anymore. I don't have delusional thoughts about what he does when he isn't by my side. I want to cook for him. I want to clean the house again. I had always thought he was taking advantage of me, but deep down I knew that was false, yet I could never shake it. I was paranoid over looks, tone, whether or not people actually ""knew me"", or even cared. I have been journaling all of my delusions and kinda psychotic tendencies and have filled over a dozen pages. I can finally understand my trauma without delving too deep, or further telling myself I deserve absolutely everything bad that has happened to me. The follow up voice is gone, and I am finally at ease in my mind. I felt excited for the first time since I was very little about coming home to him, I even started to cry tears of joy when I saw him.

I hope others out there can relate. It is very hard to get help, and I am glad that I have a life-saver close to me, as well as the final drive to know that medication was a necessity in my life.",5.95526993813035,6.455664489702523,6.329544876684466,78.51046953131623,66.57437070938215,9.769268582083226,32.66115772523095,9.725611199111238,3.0329478599881345,1790,72,338,36,27,578,219,437,0.147,0.6990000000000001,0.154,0.6243,0,0,0,0,0,1,56.0,0,0,0,6,16,34,7,6,17,0,42,10,2,3,4,60,75,29,0,8,10,2,6,0,0,3,7,4,2,2,16,19,1,0,15,1,2,7,12,17,1,3,21,13,65,19,56,49,4,54,0,2,3,0,17,20,0,7,24,241,81,1,0.0,0.0,0.08076142759432263,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06886261370184436,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1641505623611813,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06910080588653719,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08685109026281312,0.07319413737769508,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08437892387859525,0.1700338047829367,0.08754867916029263,0.07129006401881705,0.0,0.08943372251664969,0.0,0.0660768032893025,0.0,0.09090753024259213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08399924798231208,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0724234802685197,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093238654210561,0.0,0.0,0.15816068134755287,0.07437898861983823,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12553721533222095,0.0,0.07946219070948926,0.3626363691535738,0.0,0.1407905403576652,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08647694638888957,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07318403752795043,0.0,0.07413634247896016,0.08170796739281885,0.0,0.0,0.09327607960739608,0.0,0.055472012779393585,0.0,0.08301462270974064,0.16439790504030602,0.0,0.09549346240222993,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.04548250967514345,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2922777511451313,0.0,0.1658937140692385,0.0,0.0,0.06949721720086062,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08390524082976235,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08337158633615405,0.0,0.0,0.08356359996866075,0.0,0.06605792004749084,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1276586049844336,0.0799297336368839,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06294240213673473,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11475016708429628,0.0722624871423897,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08171511697285598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.34534523178652565,0.0,0.0,0.1369191862430747,0.0,0.08281936410693724,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0585776680924765,0.0882107179454125,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17303659779124764,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08601890844831338,0.062224916720699915,0.0,0.07233553478257206,0.07619391700155795,0.0,0.0,0.05498179827651208,0.10605801501069508,0.0,0.2628074999192491,0.048257786030502715,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.056188333280456665,0.0,0.0,0.08615565823106701,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13657066816414784,0.0976275080332772,0.13138143051013051,0.06638475602267571,0.0,0.0744108159365583,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07977729737311477,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.058790042592262524,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,mute-box,2020/04/20,"does anybody else sometimes avoid other people who have the same interests/like the same thing as you? i noticed it when checking out a subreddit dedicated to a show i really like. i checked a post and *immediately* got off the subreddit, i’m not sure what emotion i was feeling that caused me to leave the subreddit, but it felt intense?

i then realise that throughout my life, i’ve been really awkward when it came to relating to people with a lot of topics, like when somebody would talk about a song/band that i really love, i’ll want to engage with them, but i’d feel that i really shouldn’t ...

there may be some topics that i’d love to relate to people on, but if somebody likes the same anime/show, or hobby, the same bands, clothing style, etc, it’s super overwhelming to me for some reason.

i was just wondering if this has something to do with my diagnoses/diagnosis? do you guys feel this way sometimes?",6.7184659090909085,6.672261187500002,7.163772727272729,75.04940909090911,64.9659090909091,10.449090909090913,32.94090909090909,10.125756701596842,3.216924545454546,723,27,134,15,10,237,107,176,0.036000000000000004,0.757,0.207,0.9874,0,1,1,0,0,0,27.0,0,2,1,1,6,11,0,3,11,0,11,3,0,2,1,34,22,12,0,5,8,0,4,3,0,3,1,0,0,1,15,6,0,1,6,2,2,1,2,3,0,0,6,4,15,8,19,12,8,10,0,1,0,2,9,3,0,8,7,93,30,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1759991565032211,0.0,0.15807843313183453,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13466251957858705,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12854803944790244,0.17309569532052227,0.0,0.0,0.1716182713340763,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2334209520840255,0.0,0.14775013258821856,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.12307289359922173,0.0,0.0,0.1523666314859553,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16293802591804124,0.0,0.0,0.10869087826223876,0.2255358189228977,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.13082433660015627,0.2777676735774245,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.17519482397475347,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3200456515830807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1473757015774239,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3943210785154312,0.15821555472739535,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11846530483767807,0.3043849835854843,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1450312577864944,0.0,0.0,0.12368392048960684,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10223186540367103,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0907631486583941,0.12214377431695632,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1668776523778167,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1093128255125806,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,Randomguy02me,2020/04/20,I'm going back Today I made the call to go back to a psychiatric hospital because the voices are getting too overwhelming.  I hope anyone else makes the call if they think they truly need to go. Dont wait until it's too late.,2.6480434782608704,4.506678804347832,4.286304347826088,84.81467391304348,76.17391304347827,7.208695652173913,22.369565217391305,8.07648339933343,1.2314956521739129,179,5,35,3,4,60,35,46,0.0,0.868,0.132,0.7003,0,0,0,0,0,0,3.0,0,0,2,0,4,2,0,1,4,0,2,0,0,2,0,7,13,2,0,3,1,0,0,0,0,0,0,1,0,0,1,0,0,1,1,0,0,3,1,1,0,0,1,1,4,1,4,12,0,8,0,1,0,0,4,0,0,2,5,20,5,0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.159757730084071,0.23410359065592226,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.3513722776667422,0.0,0.13927859132302645,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.4666049194750734,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.26777552024325224,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1908647682982797,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11937077331672875,0.0,0.3895494013166653,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2269310593838541,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2577341039407213,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2161922200605962,0.15251141204700544,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16941417834474154,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1464000267924639,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2165712422860864,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0
schizophrenia,33night8,2020/04/20,"Inappropriate emotions I am a 22 year old female. I have no formal diagnosis. This is due to a lack of support and resources. I am severely disadvantaged. I have not attended much school, my immediate family abuse substances, I have never worked, I have been homeless since a young age, I come from a region with extreme poverty level. I have had difficulty with my emotions for a long time. It ostracized me from my family and community. People have accused me of being on drugs. I am not. I am struggling to come to terms with the fact that there is something not right with me, in my mind. The first time I was institutionalized in a psychiatric hospital, someone there told me that I was schizoaffective. I have been trying to understand myself and what that term means and if it is even accurate for me, for some time since then. There are a lot of disturbing symptoms I experience but my question for now is about inappropriate emotional responses. I don't talk about this to anybody ever but I know that my emotions are simply not.. appropriate, or normal. Examples, I have difficulty displaying happiness, when good things happen to me I don't know what to do. Smiling feels unnatural and forced. Sometimes when I am in a good mood I start to cry. I laugh at things that aren't funny. I do cry when I am upset but I also laugh at the same time. Other people would probably describe some of the things I laugh at as scary or disturbing, or as not making sense (a good example for that is I have trouble looking at peoples faces or eyes because their facial expressions seem funny to me and I want to laugh at them.) I feel sexually aroused when I am afraid, hurt, or shamed. I suppress my true emotions and attempt to emulate normal ones so people are not suspicious of me, but its hard and because of this I feel isolated from every person I meet. Is this a factor of schizophrenic behavior?",4.480948356807513,6.6592440478873325,5.677957746478871,75.43092723004699,71.90140845070422,9.015023474178404,29.86150234741784,9.558583805096642,3.081279812206573,1507,64,264,38,30,501,175,355,0.174,0.691,0.135,-0.8857,0,0,2,0,1,0,41.0,0,0,2,3,14,19,0,6,14,0,37,7,4,1,4,55,54,27,0,6,16,0,4,0,0,1,3,0,0,1,19,14,0,1,9,0,0,3,11,8,0,2,6,6,50,10,43,46,8,36,0,1,2,1,8,11,0,11,22,210,69,2,0.0,0.11066278798035742,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07469131238845028,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.11387057982357285,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.16091029403405135,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.20518928721096194,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10831342826172123,0.0,0.0,0.5253076855001253,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0616892955980442,0.08448493027041691,0.07869286048281238,0.0,0.0,0.09136234670923747,0.17609692078102165,0.0,0.14167633673320754,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07944531807470807,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.2350164715361598,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08259261062041727,0.09942519299505877,0.08366734432830547,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09998578321642004,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.10265952353896288,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.08265535941954137,0.07843181099814348,0.0,0.0,0.07940466611750524,0.0,0.0,0.06234469617525916,0.0,0.0,0.1017391177402682,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0943065743211558,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06865916406644319,0.0,0.0720352266011434,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18302278538361305,0.0,0.0,0.0980067566955398,0.0,0.06328972010343625,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.25900500132973553,0.08155258529887577,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1007001425600201,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.1046284876655762,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0797624127681695,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0945249842027064,0.0,0.08502713055945063,0.0,0.10551451929908053,0.0,0.15452157899213634,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.07913684531151506,0.07190327290475301,0.09237420429907542,0.0,0.06610843969856396,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.09764113068369623,0.0,0.0,0.10598831369118353,0.0,0.09707753837374046,0.0,0.07507074498377057,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.18615084967926074,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.21784731565259655,0.0,0.0,0.08924694517577927,0.0,0.0634119309182771,0.0,0.0,0.09723186877065364,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.05508927239600976,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.0,0.06799573534351823,0.0,0.0,0.06634811716046722,0.0,0.0,0.060146027332066886