I've been working in pubs on and off for 15 years.
Yeah, it's fun. It has this moment you meet a lot of different interesting people.
That's kind of the bonus. People here are fun to work with, but I get more after a while.
Why?
It's flexible. I don't have to think when I'm here. I can be thinking about what I need to do when I get home.
It's not a job that requires a great deal of mental work, so I can kind of be operating on two levels.
I'm serving the customers and having a laugh, but constantly there's another part of my brain that's thinking about the edit that I have to do when I get home or whatever.
I had another job that required more concentration on a certain level than it could have taken 14 years to make this film.
The name of the film is awesome. The basic story is it's about a guy who has a very ordinary life, 9-to-5 job, house, mortgage, married, the whole thing.
And one day out of the blue he finds out that he's got one year left to live and the story is about him deciding what to do at that time.
And I started writing the script, I guess. The first draft was 1996.
I must be done now, actually. I've given you a couple of excerpts from Claire's interview about making Alton.
She plays my wife in the film, yeah.
She's had a haircut that point, but I don't know what she looks like now.
She got married about four months before we started shooting.
She got married about three and a half months before we actually started shooting.
And in the time we heard that, I've been making the film, she's since gone to force.
People are lying, they've sort of moved on and changed and I've still been here staring at the same people for like six years or whatever it is.
This is the pit that we'll be soon moving out of.
Yes, we have to move out in the next two weeks.
We're getting evicted in the life of a filmmaker.
The landlord is just like... You can make a whole documentary about that.
I'm not sure what's going on.
We came before last. Not this weekend. What day is it today?
It's Tuesday.
It was not this weekend, just gone last weekend.
We had a few problems in the house. The landlord was a bit paranoid.
I've slept on the street before, so this is fine.
Everyone here is, you know, all the people here are really great people.
So it's quite fun in a way. Because I know I'm only here temporary, I can really enjoy it.
I enjoy hanging out and just drinking with the staff, coffee or whatever.
If I thought I was back here permanently, I think I'd probably go a bit.
Because I know it's only for a few weeks, so it's fine.
I'd love to get married and have a family, but so far it just doesn't happen.
I mean, whether that's to do with what I'm doing, or it's just serendipity,
and I haven't met the right person yet, or who knows, I don't know.
I have a relationship.
An ex-girlfriend of mine, she's got three children, and she's a single mother.
The youngest one, who's now four and a half, is not involved with the father at all.
And when we were together, we lived together for a while, so I got very close to the kids.
She was starting to get the idea that she may have ovarian cancer,
and said, you know, if the worst happens, would you be the legal guardian?
Yeah.
So, I'll see you next time.
Yeah!
The closest thing that I have to a daughter at the moment.
Well, everybody was telling me this.
Friends, family, everyone's just saying, just...
But this, to me, is a definitive point.
Everyone's saying, just finish it.
Well, that's what I'm trying to do.
Just stop is something else, and I can't stop.
Why?
I can finish, or take it as far as I can take it,
but I'm not just going to stop, especially after this amount of time.
That would be to meet Ludacris, to spend seven years on it,
and then still not get this close to finishing,
and then go, before I started this film,
I'd never given anything in my life a hundred percent.
And I said to myself, when I first started this,
that I was going to give it a hundred percent.
And I've given it quite a lot.
Maybe ninety-nine percent.
That's one percent to go.
And until I feel like, if I get to a point where I look at it,
and I go, I can't do any more.
This is as good as it's going to get.
Maybe it's not what I wanted it to be,
or maybe I do get it there, for better or worse.
But until I can say that I've given it my hundred percent,
I'm not going to give up.
Can I just get a change, please?
She, for me, is like a daughter.
I've been around her since she was one and a half.
I went through all the stuff so far throughout her life,
since she was one and a half to four and a half.
If the worst did happen, then of course,
I would have to change everything, because that's the priority.
At the moment, I don't, because she seems to be fine,
and it probably was, I don't know if it was her imagination.
But if it did, then that's the one thing
that would make me happy.
If it did, then that's the one thing
that would make all of this stuff become ultimately
not really that important.
And I would have to change my life fairly rapidly.
Yeah, it's lovely to see her.
Whenever I see her, even if it's just for a few days,
I haven't seen her in a week or a bit more,
I instantly miss her as soon as I'm gone again,
so I can't wait to go back Saturday.
I want to adopt her, but I'm not in a position at the moment.
If I apply for adoption, I just won't get it.
So I want to wait until I'm financially in a good place,
I've got my own house, and then apply.
So I at least apply for legal guardianship anyway.
Can you give up what you're doing for her?
If I had to, I would.
But at the moment, I don't see why I have to.
I mean, the two things are co-existing, so...
If I had to, because something happened to the mother,
or whatever, then of course I would.
There's no question.
And that would be something that I wouldn't have any regret about,
because she's the most important thing.
But if I don't have to, I don't see why I should.
It's just made myself unhappy for no reason.
It's all in your mind
It's all in your mind
It's all in your mind
And I want it to be
I want it to be
I want it to be
You're a good friend
