Love knows no limits to its injurance, no end to its trust, no fading of its hope.
It cannot last anything.
It is, in fact, the one thing that stands when all else has fallen.
A guy named Paul wrote that in this book.
This year, I learned more about love than I thought I would, and in the most unexpected of ways.
In the bravery of letting go, in the loss of a loved one, and in the storm of a heartbreak.
Here is the first, written sometime 2010.
The hardest part is coming to terms with the fact that the man you had loved all this time is not the one.
The hardest thing to accept, but Jesus, he makes it easy.
An open letter to the man who I thought was the love of my life.
I'm saying this for now. Goodbye.
Jesus loves me completely and totally.
Jesus loves me and because he does, he wants good things for me.
That being said, I'm ready to let go of the idea of you and me.
It's not healthy for me to be in a relationship where I won't feel completely accepted and loved for who I am.
So there, I said it.
It was so hard to come to terms with the idea that you might not be the one after all.
But I'm learning because Jesus is the one and I'm going to just keep looking at him, loving him and worshiping him.
He isn't afraid to call me his.
He is so proud of our relationship and of me and he loves me for all that I am.
I've found something better and I've always had him and now I'm ready to be the brave girl I always believed I was.
But it's worth. I really did love you.
All the words seem to be jumbled up right now.
This is written from a hand that desperately wants to help and hold you close but can't.
It is a Christmas worth remembering.
I can't stop crying because maybe I feel helpless or maybe it's disbelief.
My grandmother, we all love and cherish.
The grandmother who gave and gave and never asked for anything in return won't be with us anymore.
It's hard being far from those you love, especially in times like this.
God help her. I don't want you to suffer anymore.
I miss you, Nana.
I hope you don't feel like you're a burden because you are not. You have never been and will never be.
I wish I could have told you how thankful I am for always cooking our favorite dishes.
Thank you for showing us how to believe and trust in God, both in hard times and the good times.
Thank you for teaching me to be happy with the simplest of things and teaching me about the importance of family.
Thank you for being one of the greatest examples of loving and serving God by serving others around you, putting them before yourself.
Selfless love was what you gave.
As Jesus raised Lazarus from the grave, I know that you are in a place, a kingdom with peace, joy and songs of praise.
No weeping, no sorrow, no sickness.
I love you, Nana.
I'll see you again someday.
I never know where to start with this. Healing is a continuous process and it feels never-ending.
Even at this point where it feels like I'm over most of it, with the pain and longing lingers.
It's about this moment and the decision to let them go.
This love that we shared with them must just be a different kind of love.
Yes, there's someone out there for you and for me.
Planned out before we even knew that loving could hurt or could leave us feeling like we don't want to love anymore.
But someday, this pain will be nothing but a memory.
Something we look at and we sigh because it's over.
Being close to God really restored me.
He is the only comfort and strength that we really need.
I feel like I've been straying recently but the Lord is patient, kind and ever-forgiving.
He is guiding me along the path to repentance and continue on building that relationship I have with Him.
He reminds me that He has a plan and this is His plan. He has a purpose and it is none of my business to ask Him why.
All I know is, God definitely planned for you and I to be in the situation to be humble and to rise above.
And realize that the love we need is the kind that surpasses all the silly things we thought we needed and wanted.
I prayed that I would love Him regardless because Jesus loved everyone regardless of the way they treated Him.
I pray that I would love Him the way God loves Him with no remorse or grudges and just be able to see Him as the awesome person God sees.
Because part of our pain comes from the devil working against God's plan and is preventing us to see that this ending is a beautiful start to an opportunity to love again, live again and share our blessings.
I pray that I would love Him the way God loves Him with no remorse or grudges and just be able to see Him as the awesome person God sees.
I pray that I would love Him the way God loves Him.
I pray that I would love Him the way God loves Him.
