Lock the change.
Sometimes I am in this space because I like the surveillance, because I'm homeless and
I'm alone.
And so I like that it's all survived as a Soviet.
You feel safe here?
Yes, yes.
I feel safe.
Because if I choose a bank in a park or to a house where people who know home live,
sometimes they, and after they said, oh, you didn't recognize anything.
Yeah, anyways, so do you ever get, do you ever people, police bother you or security
people here?
No.
At first, they didn't know what is with you, is she a thief, is she a grass, is she a terrorist.
But now they understood that I'm only without home and I don't want to make other expenses
because I have to pay some bills and it's only to be quiet and now they understood.
So they know you?
Many of them know you?
Yes, yes, yes.
Okay.
And I'm happy that the police know my name because there are examples that women without
home, they disappear and they are killed and nobody thinks, oh, it doesn't matter.
But now they are knowing my name.
Can I ask you something?
Yes.
How do you, how do you survive, do you get money from, yes.
I get money for living, nearly 400 Euro, but I don't have a flat and so I don't get
money for a flat.
Which you would get otherwise, right?
In Germany you can get.
Yes, you can, another 400 Euro, another.
800 Euro you get for living, a half for living, half for flat, but no more, but in Frankfurt
it's very expensive.
And there are other possibilities, you can live in houses for people with not home, two
or four in one flat, the experience not only in Germany, but also in Spain and France.
And if women are together, it's more difficult than if men are together.
And I like some of the women, but after some weeks it gives a clash.
But if you're so close together, almost everybody will have a clash.
And women, it's something ashy typical, women want to build a house and men go working and
come to the house.
And so every woman wants to make her own and so after some weeks it gives a clash.
And only if there are some survivors, supervisors who make, be quiet, be quiet, be quiet, it
functions.
And so I prefer to be here.
I think he expected to get more than with me, but I couldn't answer his feelings.
And I'm sorry because it's a very, very good family.
It's a whole family and I am from a broke family.
Is your mother still alive or your father?
No, no.
They are both dead.
They are both dead.
And there were divorce when it was four years, but this was really, really good fun.
And the youngest brother, he married at first and he get at first two twins, twins.
And after a certain day, the youngest Jacob, he played really a very nice family, but because
of the circumstances, my mother, my sister, me, we were too broke.
Do you play stupid?
Yeah.
Sometimes young boys who are trying, who are speaking something, pronouncing.
Or sometimes the whole rest of the life rests something you said in your teenage age.
You said something in your teenage age and even if you want to try a job, you make an
advertising and the potential future work givers, they are looking in the internet, oh, there's
a photo on a party drive.
Right.
Right.
And he said this.
He said, am I go home or is that a...
Yeah.
Niga.
Sorry.
Nazi.
Oh, something like this.
And it's all in the internet and you are a little bit older, you're not 14, you're not
16, not 17, you are 13 and you want to get a job and they look into the internet.
Oh, he says the internet never forget anything and you was in your, you spoke things, normally
you wouldn't do this.
I have some physical problems and I hope it will get better.
But you have a doctor too.
Yes.
Yes.
I have some problems because I have an under function of the hippo.
Oh, the gland.
Yes.
In the youth I had a super function, a hippo function and now I have, and I need my pills
every morning and 10 years they didn't want to give them but now it's getting better.
Oh, that's good.
So, after 10 years with a hippo function, or a hypo function is the low, the low, you
seems like a stupid and I felt like a stupid, I couldn't do anything, I couldn't write,
I couldn't think, I was depressive.
I had, and now it gets better and better and this is why I stay in Germany because I have
here the guarantee of a medical behavior but I go to France or to Spain.
I don't have medical security.
You don't have the right there?
No.
No.
Well, I would like to disappear from Germany to the Mediterranean but I don't have rights
there because.
Right.
I was in Spain in Mallorca and two years ago and I said, I don't want the German passport.
I want to give it up, I want to, I'd rather be with the outside than the German but I
met a man, he talked with me but I wasn't his darling, it was another, it was Victoria.
He liked very much Victoria but we three went to drink coffee and he talked with me and
he invited me for a coffee because I didn't have money and he said, even if you have other
rules, maybe Jewish or French or Gypsy doesn't matter but your socialization is German.
You are educated and you live since your childhood in Germany, you know the rules here, you know
the religion, you know the language, the best and this is, even if you have other genetic
roots, very important is socialization and if you change to Spain, you can't speak
the best language is German and if you want, I think a lot of Germans don't understand
that the people, whether they're from Turkish backgrounds or others, when they're born here
and grow up here, they're German because that's their language, that's their culture.
And the social, the peer group.
Yeah, and also the world where they learn everything, you know, so they can't live in
Spain, they can't even live in Turkey probably.
They can't richer and sometimes hard.
