Dear Jay, first and foremost I want to let you know that I love you more than anything.
I have no other way to get a hold of you, so I am writing you this letter.
First I have to share some history with you, I hope you understand.
I met your father when we were both in our teens and unaware of so much.
In the very beginning it was really good, but through the partying and the distrust,
he became abusive.
Even during this time I remained in love with him.
I wanted to create a home and continue to do so even as he went to prison when I was
six months pregnant with you.
While he was there, my mother moved out, my father died, and I turned seventeen and just
kept going.
When you were born, I went to school and had the goal of getting back together with your
father when he got out.
When he did get home, his abusive behavior got worse.
I could no longer allow myself to be treated with disrespect.
I definitely did not want the abuse to ever connect with you.
Going down the path we went down, I can look back and see that I may not have made the
best choices, but they were the best I could make at the time.
Thank you for being a man, even then at nine years old, and for taking care of your sisters.
Now that you are grown, you have the opportunity to create your own life the way you want to.
I know you would want to know about this right away, which is why I am writing ahead of my
scheduled visit.
Your father passed away last night, I am sorry, love, mom.
I am sorry, love, mom.
Thank you.
