You're normally behind the camera, so you're listening to stories, but you're listening
to stories with when. You've listened to, this is the 88th story, you're listening
to your own story and you've listened to 87 other stories around the world. So far,
why do you want to carry on with when, when you could do anything else in the world?
I love the bigger picture. I love integrating things that don't seem to go together. One
of my favourite poems says, cling to truth and it becomes falsehood. Understand falsehood
and it becomes truth.
Okay, so I'm trying to hang on to truth here. Come, come and save me. Tight. So tight my
back's hurting and my face is wrinkled and it's already wrinkled, but you know, it's
wrinkling more. So I'm holding on. Why am I doing that in your eyes?
Well it's fear, isn't it? So once we're able to let go and then we can see, I can see why
I had trauma in my life. I could understand it to a point like when I was 21 where I could
see the trauma and I could let it go to where I actually felt like a great power and strength
inside of me that was, was in like an awakening. I didn't have words for it in that time. I
didn't know anything about spirituality but I just knew that I felt one, I felt connected
with other people, with nature and I felt completely different and that was a huge lesson
for me.
I'm going back into the tightness again, holding on and it, it's my mother. For me, it's my
mother I'm trying to hold on to because my father's coming to attack me and I'm holding
on to her but it's a futile exercise. Who are you holding on to there?
I think father.
Okay, well that's interesting. Yeah. Why would that be for you? I guess it's a polarity
as well and there's always safety, you know, the father represents safety. So were you
frightened of your mother and childhood? Yeah, I think to a degree, yes. Yeah, I couldn't
relate to that. I've met her, of course, and I said interestingly to you, it's your mother
that most frightens me, not your father and I mean that in a, in a respectful way, Mary,
don't come and get me. But I mean it because the emphasis can be so much on the father
because we look to our fathers to be the protector and the strength and almost the beauty in
a way, not in a physical way, but in a, from the aspect of safety. But it's the mother
that has such a deep influence and that's interesting. So you were frightened of your
mother and I was looking for protection. So hence we have a polarity there.
