I am homeless right but you know I'm at peace right this day you know I'm
saying I'm gonna say this day I'm at peace you know I'm saying because I met
an old man and the guy was a black man and old dude you know I'm saying I met
him on the bus I had no intentions whatsoever none whatsoever understand
me of going to church not me not today you know I'm saying I had plans
understand me of just going on about my homelessness and trying to survive
because I still have those plans but I went to church according to his
directions I got off I got off the bus with him you know I'm saying and I say
well you know I need to go to church you know I'm saying I need to I need to try
to figure out something different right in life right I say so you know I'm
saying so I can feel good about myself you know I'm saying so so you're on the
bus is this hit this happened today this happened this very day yes so you use
just going about your homelessness you get on the bus some guys says let's go
to church when you end up in church no the old guy had nothing to say to me as
a matter of fact not only I asked him but some some little white kid asked him
all too hey are you going to church and the kid seems intelligent you know I'm
saying but he was talking to a older woman I don't know is his mother or
whatever you know I'm saying but he asked him after I had asked the old man
an old man seemed pretty determined to go to church you know I'm saying and when
he got off the bus he started walking toward the bookstore so I thought a
little bit you know I'm saying I feel a little you know maybe I made the wrong
let me see what's up with this old guy you know I'm saying because he was
interesting to me right so I asked him you know I'm saying and I'm not you
know you know I'm saying I'm not headed towards the church right now you know
I'm saying I'll come a little bit later you know I'm saying but I gotta do
something or something about his teeth or something and he pointed me to the
church you know I'm saying that was right down the street around about two
blocks and so since I already felt like understanding I need to do something you
know different today you know since it was sunny you know the day
understand me that we're all probably been taught understand me that you're
supposed to give God some of your time I say I you know I felt a little bit
convicted I say yeah maybe I better give God some time all right man so I went
into the church and you know surprised me then they they they look kind of they
look kind of standoffish you know I'm saying what is by what means understand
me do we have the grace understand me enjoying your company so I told my you
know it wasn't it wasn't a congregation that would have a normal homeless person
walk through the front door I don't believe so so you know I'm saying they
seem so you freaked him out yeah I freaked him out I freaked out myself you
know I'm saying and the persistency you know I'm saying I probably convictions
but nevertheless it did work I went in there and I heard the message and I went
in understand me at first understand me and they invited me into the I guess
everybody reflects you might need God you know I'm saying so I don't know
what they were thinking really not really you know I'm saying it just
seemed they were a little bit a little bit indifferent or whatever you know
I'm saying that's that was my my thought you know I'm saying but they invited me
to you know I'm saying he did the church thing I'm sending invited me to join the
little Sunday school Sunday school right how long has it been since I've been
in Sunday school so wait wait wait wait you're homeless guy you walk into a
church and they invite you down to Sunday school no they were like I said a
little bit indifferent like you know they didn't know what to do with you what
what do we do you know I'm saying I know that we all here understand me the
worship God and everything you know but that was just a pseudo thing it seemed
like to me you know I'm saying until I got in you know I'm saying and they
invited me because I don't know whether they had experience with with fellows
and women or whatever you know I'm saying a homeless person right and so I
wasn't there for them anyhow I was there for for me I wanted to feel good
about me you know I'm saying as we all do right so you know they they do you
know I'm saying they I guess they had their opinion but they say well we'll
do the church thing you know so now you want to join the class and say yeah so
they told me I like you can't come in with you with you with your bag can't
come up to the church I'm like I would say something like that because all this
here understand me is stuff understand me the rest on that's all you know yeah
that's that's your stuff yeah that's part of it anyway you know everything in
it in the bag understand me I tend to clean it because I still have some
dignity left here you know I'm saying so I cleaned my stuff and every time
everything is dirty I take everything out wash it and put it back in the bag you
know I'm saying and then use it you know as I so we don't we don't have a lot of
time left but so you go to this church now how did it how do they say goodbye
how did you say goodbye to one well what it what what the important thing was is
the message that they were giving it's a message from God that's the important
thing that I want to bring you know what did God tell you today he told me
obviously to go to church so I went and I did I was rewarded you know I'm saying
not in monetary things or anything like that but with his word and his message
the message was about Esther and my memory is not all that good but I think
it was Esther 23rd some chapter something I don't know I'm sad but but but uh but
uh I did I did to get get get get the message you know I'm saying it was that
you know when God is using you know you know I'm saying you know just you know
go with what he's doing right because you know like I say you know I'm not
believing the truth you know I'm saying that is that's the job you know I'm
saying so I went her true understanding satisfied because it's a thing that I
needed because God has a time understand me to do everything all the time for
everybody you know I'm saying that now what are you gonna do tonight where you
gonna stay tonight how do you know not because you know I it's a little bit
weird sometimes because I woke up just around about three nights ago some
dude standing at the head of my little sleeping bag while I was sleeping under
a bench and I like got up man like man wait my first I looked at myself
what's going on here this in another city you know I'm saying and and I got
up I start you know but I say no I can't do this here I didn't lay down I got
back up understanding dude everything's cool and I'm like everything's cool
there what do you talk about everything's cool everything's not cool man you
know I'm saying but I was so you know I'm saying I said you know dude might want
to you know crack you and then some other dude told me you know I'm saying
some homeless dude got killed and whacked up and all that you know I'm
saying later you know I'm saying but I got up and then at any rate I'm saying
I did not go back to sleep got up pulled up my little jump and and went
somewhere else walked around all day understanding trying to get my little
life together trying to get some kind of employment or food or shelter
understanding which I which I want which I desire and I left that that area you
know I'm saying so you don't know where you're gonna camp out tonight no I
really don't but I think it will be back into the inner city instead of out
here because you can't this is strange right this is crazy right I mean it's a
park right people sleep in the park in the daytime as you can see this man over
here he's asleep right there right there behind two trees right there yeah
with the family walking by no well yeah I got them but they they're doing that
because you know nights bad and asleep during the day yeah you know I'm saying
because folks they don't want you to they don't want you to sleep in the park
they don't want you to sleep on the beach they don't need they don't want you to
sleep on the street you know I'm saying what they want you to do
chill over or die something what what do you what do you want you know I'm saying
I mean look it's cool I guess you know I'm saying because every man understand
me gravitates towards that thing that brings the most pleasure all right now
the Mexicans came from Mexico the Chinese came from China you know I'm
saying the Africans understand came from Africa you know I'm saying we you know
the Indians from the reservation you know I'm saying whatever you go cuz I
met a number of homeless people matter of fact I was talking to a Oriental
brother understand me and a nurse you know I'm saying I thought they were
together but she was up there tearing up her her bills or something you know
I'm saying but she was not homeless nothing like that just down here at the
other bench and I was talking with the Oriental dude he told me yeah I'm
homeless and you know this madness is getting poverty don't discriminate it
does not discriminate not at all you know I'm saying it's you got ten seconds
left what would you like to say well I would like for American understanding
to start taking care of its own and worship God understand me and give
thanks and praise to job
