I never want to be the one to pull the trigger on the gun when it's time
I'm really good at holding on, even when I know it's wrong, at least it's my height
And I always seem to get off track, picking up all this slack
I know it doesn't serve me, bittersweet distraction licking you, standing to my harmful chain reaction
I'm bleeding myself out all the time, pull and push and pull, we were not before each other
I still think of you fondly, my catastrophic lover
I'm trying really hard to find all the things I left behind before you
I don't know where to start, you have left my heart into it
Never gonna get it back, picking up all this slack
I know you don't deserve me, bittersweet distraction licking you, standing to my harmful chain reaction
I'm bleeding myself out all the time, pull and push and pull, we were not before each other
I still think of you fondly, my catastrophic lover
There's been a change now, a pale amber glow
I'm bleeding, I'm screaming, waiting for you to let me go
Bittersweet distraction licking you, standing to my harmful chain reaction
I'm bleeding myself out all the time, pull and push and pull, we were not before each other
I still think of you fondly, my catastrophic lover
