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When you can get into a space and that's where a lot of my songs come from
is I'm doing something that can seem very normal.
I'm just doing a job and all of a sudden my mind is floating somewhere else
and I'm thinking about how all of these things are interconnected.
And the idea of paradox, how these two separate things are existing
and you think they contradict but how can they both be true if they contradict
and so then the song is almost trying to connect those two points
and making the world seem like one big place instead of a bunch of separate entities.
For me art is fully embracing reality to the instigree
not just physically but emotionally and spiritually and sociologically
what's happening in this space right now
and how is it going to expand into the metaphysical world
and the earth and the atmosphere and then space.
Well this is my mom's house in Coquero, Minnesota
it's also where I grew up since I moved here when I was 12 years old.
We moved in with my grandma and grandpa who had this house and so it was built
and it's also where my mom grew up
and she lives in the same bedroom now that she did when she lived here then.
My lair was kind of in the basement.
I wasn't up here as much as down here.
I wrote a lot of songs down here
and I still haven't moved everything out of my mom's house
and that kind of person.
So this is a little bit a lot about how I grew up here.
I got a Bible and a Bible and a Bible and a hymnal.
Balbreeder's compliant panion, concise concordance
so I have a lot of this kind of knowledge in my head.
I lived in Orlando until I was 6, San Antonio until I was 12
and then Coquero, Minnesota until I was 19
and then I moved to Minneapolis
so I feel like I got a pretty big variety of what it is to be rural in the city.
I was working at my night job
thinking about when women started working
and growing up my parents were very involved in the performing arts.
Before we lived in Orlando they had their own renaissance festival
traveled around in a big bus
so I grew up knowing that that was kind of you go where the work is.
It's a very nomadic job
and I mean I suppose as a musician you go around in different towns
you can't play the same set over and over in one city.
Run me into home
cause I'm out losing my faith while you're home
losing your mind
12 makes the roots grow deeper and deeper
till you pass the Earth's crust and you're soaking in more in my blood.
My family has always been very Christian
that was a value that was always around
and it wasn't really a question, it was just part of life.
You know you kind of filter your whole mindset through that
so my context of what love was and what family was
definitely steeped in who Jesus was
and how that all came into play
and I've always been a big picture person
so for me I feel like that was a huge comfort to be like
I know how the whole universe works
because there's a book that tells me
and then I can filter that all
and be very purposeful in every little thing I'm doing.
Run him into war
cause he's out losing his faith while you're home
losing your mind
12 makes the roots grow deeper and deeper
till you pass the Earth's crust and you're soaking in more in my blood.
If you're pushed a little harder
you'll end up falling, falling
cause he's black in his chart
tips
cause I'm black in his chart
tips
I actually played drums in a band
that was part of a meeting every Sunday night
that grew from like 15 people
we used to meet in Litchfield
Litchfield, Litchfield
Litchfield, Litchfield
I've been in situations where people's lives actually change
from experiencing these powerful services
and wherever that change came from
whether it was simply from being emotional with other people
or if it came from the spirit of God
or whatever, it's still a very valid thing.
Litchfield, Litchfield
If I'm just protecting myself from all outside things
then that is what a closed mind is.
I'm pretty much brainwashing myself
so staying open to a lot of sort of things
is what I would hope everyone can do for themselves
so they're not trapping themselves into an idea
simply because they're scared.
Litchfield, Litchfield
As soon as you say something about yourself
people are going to want to put you in a box
and it's made me very sensitive to that for other people.
And I think if you live in an isolated place
you don't learn that skill of
I don't care what the labels are on you
I'm going to get to know you.
One of the best things we can do in the world
is to get to know each other
and when someone doesn't agree with you
it probably means you should listen closer.
Litchfield, Litchfield
That was for you, thanks.
It was a call and response, I thought you'd get it
but I'll try it later.
Litchfield, Litchfield
I find it really thrilling to be telling jokes and stories
and then go into one of the songs
that's very serious and kind of stretch the audience
I know I'm asking a lot of them
Just so you know I'm still going to mean it
and I think that's really fun
I think the audience is like to be challenged
One thing that makes an audience feel connected
is when I'm being a weirdo on stage
and so they're almost like
jeez look at what she's so crazy
and now all of a sudden the people that are sitting at your table
you're all connecting over the fact that I'm a weirdo
but you feel so much closer because of it
I really don't have any stage fright I never have
just growing up watching my parents act and perform
and that's just what you do
Litchfield, Litchfield
If you're not performing well
if you're not doing something interesting
people are just not going to stop
I've always felt like
it's my job when I'm on stage
if you're performing
you should be the most interesting thing in the room
and that's not because you're better than anyone else
because it's your job
When I first moved to Kokedo
I moved from San Antonio
with a population of 1 million
so I moved to Kokedo
and I remember it was 2,180 people
I was actually pretty upset
it was my sister's idea to move here
my dad had left
and the reason we were in San Antonio was for his job
so we really weren't there for any reason
and all our families in Minnesota
my sister wrote her note
and said we should move to Minnesota
and we just decided to
Moving here into my grandparents' house
into this small little town
where I don't know one person
it was pretty weird
and at first I did not like it at all
I used to live right by a skate park
in a movie theater
and a laser tag place
and all those sorts of things
and there was nothing here
but that's why I started getting really into skating
The first time I was on ice skates
was my first hockey practice
That's me number 2
I think this was senior year
I ended up becoming captain
I learned a lot about community in hockey
almost as much as I did
like growing up in a church
like we're looking out for each other
and we're goofing off
we have all these inside jokes
and traveling around
it actually kind of mirrors being in a van
like touring in a van
and having all these weird inside jokes
that's a theme in my life
that I would like to stay
I really like that kind of interaction
you kind of have a family
I have like a nice little association
with driving to Lichfield
and having a little chat with my mom
before and after practice
and after games
You know Holly
I always knew that there was going to be something unique
because her high school
language arts teacher said
you know Bernal
you need to just watch Holly grow
she's got some kind of talent with writing
and I wouldn't be surprised
if she uses that in some way
and her songs have always been
have a real deep philosophical meaning
of some type
sometimes I didn't know exactly what she was saying
but then it was fun to talk about that
and say what do you mean by that
we'd have some really good talks about
life and the deep thoughts about that
and then you'd always tell me to enunciate more
Yes
I think if I wouldn't have moved here when I did
I think I would have not found my creative side
because there was nothing to distract me
it was like any type of fun thing
you kind of had to think of on your own
I think even it made me more aware of
that people are the most interesting thing
not the activities you're doing
or the places you're going
or how you're spending your money
it's like
when you're in a small town like this
the people are the event
I know how in your heart
to leave me alone
you can be sad right now
you can be happy
just do whatever you want
I want to make it so you're comfortable
and whatever you are
I take my ease
I think there's a lot of people who follow bands
because those bands know how to articulate
their emotions better than they do
I take my ease
I take my ease
there's this really odd sound
super rhythmic
that's like repeating
it's really neat
and a lot of times in this room
I got into a little phase
of making ambient weird electronic music
so I sampled this
and I used some of the tones off this organ
I used to make rules
I'd be like
alright I'm going to make a song
but I could only use what's in this room
and there didn't used to be this many instruments in here
so I just have to grab
I know once there was those plastic candy canes
that you get for Christmas
who will I see
without the color of your name
I take my ease
I take my ease
so this is my bedroom
looks a little bit different than when I was here
but this is where I moved in
and I walked into my room
and I looked down at the end of this closet here
and pretty much right here was laying my
what wasn't mine
it was my uncles
who had the bedroom before I did
in like 1968
and he put his guitar down
started farming
and pretty much sat at the same spot
until I moved here in 1998 I think
and that's the guitar I still use
music
the chorus like
when I start to go to A minor or C
right after that
boom boom
I have been so inspired by
not only the people I play with
and learning how
like a different bass player brings
this different thing to the music
but really what they bring as a personality
is just as important
and having friends around
and realizing too that everyone's an artist
and even though
you know my best friend
is maybe not a performer
but everybody has something
they're trying to express
a lot of times when I play a show
I think I should tell them a little bit
about my background
so I'm going to tell you a little bit
about my background
it's just pretty much a kitchen
music
when you have people in your life
that can draw out
your motive expression
and what your values are
I think that enhances
your whole reality
so I've
as I've gotten older
and the more I play
the more I'm just really focusing on
the important people in my life
I actually want this lamp I think
I should show it to Nicole
maybe it's too
you gotta mix soft and
oh look at that
that's pretty sweet
do you like the bottom of this
no you don't
it's very masculine
that's what I was saying
to myself as I was walking over here
music
there's an order of things
you graduate
you either get married
or you go to college
and once you're done with college
you probably should be planning your wedding
music
I felt like divorce was like
it's the D word
it had such a sour taste
because that's what happened to my family
and when I was going through
all these personal changes
and my husband was going through
all the very similar type of changes
because we both came from this town
and in this town
we were definitely like the most alike
and it was very easy to get along
we had tons of fun
we both moved to Minneapolis
this different context
and both learning who we were
and realized
what is happening
it was a mutual thing
both at the beginning and the end
so that was a good thing
if there's words that make you feel
that way something might be wrong
because at this point
I have less fear in that way
than I've ever had
where it's like
you have an idea
I would love to hear about it
I was so scared
I could not breathe
it was so hard
I feel a lot more love for people
because I'm not defending something
I'm not sure of
and I think a lot of the hostility
comes from people who
maybe haven't really had the time
to evaluate
what they think
and what they believe
and why they do what they do
anyone that lives in a rural area
I wish they could just live
in a diverse place for a little bit
I think I actually prefer a quiet
I prefer the quiet of rural areas
but I think it's so valuable
to learn what it is
to be interacting with people
who don't think the same things
because you'll become stronger
either in what you believe
or you'll realize
maybe you don't believe that
and it was just because
you immersed yourself in it
the best thing I can do
is just stay awake
and stay aware
and the best gift I can give
to the world
is just to work on being good
and enjoying what's here
and loving people
making them feel welcome
I want to write things
where people can relate to it
and they can say
I'm not alone in that thought
I feel like someone understands
and I'm not being isolated
and that's why
when I perform it
even if I'm not feeling it
that night
someone else might be
and I can feel it for them
I want to write things
where people can relate to it
intricör extingu residential
Art without fear is the best kind of art.
You can be bold and fearless
සිතයකල්ත්ත්ණ්න්න්න්ත, සෑඳන්ද්රක්න්තයක්න්න්න්න්න්න්ක්න්න්න්නත්න්න්න්න්න්න්න්න්න්න්න්න්න්න්න්න්න්න්න්න්නද්න්ස්න්න්
торіencies.
So I did, and they sure needed it.
So that part took me an extra half hour each exit on the way.
So I just, I'm just like, I'm just gonna get going her later later
Let a little bit later on it starts to go to those two lane roads and it's just
bad. And so I'm just like why I'm just gonna
and someone's like, Hey, you're driving on the wrong side
of the road. I'm like, well the other side is full.
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Minnesota on November 4, 2008.
