I'm so blessed bitches, yes.
What good afternoon, my little love dogs.
Welcome to another segment of I'm so blessed bitches.
In today's segment, we're gonna be talking about sadness.
Oh, I know.
You could turn off now if you're really that down,
but don't, because I might have something good for you.
I myself have experienced small little spasms of sadness.
I know yours is probably a little more
and you're wondering how I'm gonna be able to help you,
but pay very close attention.
There was a time when I felt very oppressed,
and even though I was branching out
and trying to do things that everybody else was doing,
I didn't feel I could enjoy it as much as other people
because there was a social standard of,
oh no, that's not what we do here.
And it came to a time when I joined
a kind of going away summer camp workshop
with a most amazing choreographer.
And while we were there,
he kinda let you dig into your own feelings,
and maybe he asked a few questions here and there,
questions that will make you wonder,
hmm, should I say the answer of the way
society might wanna hear or the way I feel?
Well, I was comfortable enough for this person
to start expressing what I feel.
Maybe a half hour into the conversation,
I felt very, very free,
almost as free as I want you to feel.
Even getting little goosebumps from freedom.
Well, what I did in this workshop was believe in myself,
believe in my own standards and in my own rules
of the way I wanted to live my life,
which is probably why you should be doing
so you don't experience sadness.
Too many people have been telling you what to do,
how to do it, when to do it,
and even what colors to do it in.
And we all know you love pastels.
I know, I haven't said nothing, but I know.
So today, we're going to embrace.
Embrace something so powerful,
that it's like that of a woman's fulva, you know?
And it's a power we were all born and have.
We just haven't been allowed to express it.
But today, we will.
It's the power of fulcure.
So a few weeks later after this workshop,
which by the way, I ended up getting completely naked
in a Boat House studio, playing Michael Jackson,
cause we all know you like Michael.
I know Michael Pastels, shh, we're not telling nobody,
but after today, you're going to want to share this with them.
So here I was, dancing naked to Michael Jackson,
the man in the mirror, everything I ever wanted to do,
just build out all over that place.
I was alone, I was free, I was happy, I was me.
And it was a feeling so powerful,
that even though I knew the time was going to be up,
there was a part of me saying,
it doesn't have to be up.
You can keep this feeling.
You can be this person.
And a lot of people are not going to like me.
Like they don't like you.
I know, shh, I know a lot of people don't like you.
Like Pastels, you like Michael,
it could cause a little conflict.
But that day, when I felt that feeling,
I said, wait, how human do I feel?
How free do I feel?
How happy do I feel?
And at the same time, the feeling of sadness,
cause I knew I couldn't keep this feeling
for the rest of my life,
because society would see it as different.
I remember I had only a certain amount of time
in that space, and I danced,
and trust me, when I danced, I danced.
When I was done, I was reaching for the door,
and I knew this was some of the happiness
I had felt there was going to have to be left behind.
And as I was turning the knob,
almost like that nine-year-old little kid
that bad little Richie from the Bronx,
who stole that ice pop,
I bring that feeling of happiness with me.
Maybe not knowing if I was going to express it to the world,
but I did.
I finally became me, the true me,
not the me society wanted to see, but the real me.
And that's where you're going to begin today.
You're going to start being you.
You're going to lose maybe 10 to 20 people a day,
but you'll gain maybe one to two a year,
which I know I know,
but you're going to have a long, happy life,
and all those people that loved you
that now hate you because you're genuine,
and you're yourself,
and they can't take it, they can't take it.
You like pastels, you like Michael.
You'll have a life of pastels, Michael,
and four friends, four really good, special friends
that love you and care for you, for you.
Not a thousand friends that pretended to love you
and pretended to care for you
because you submitted to their form of behavior
that they liked.
So we're going to start you off with one friend.
I'm your friend,
and I love you just the way you are.
There are a few things I might bring up later,
but I love you just the way you are.
You know what?
You're so fucking blessed, bitch.
You're so fucking blessed, you don't even know.
So you come back and we'll have another session
and we'll have another great time.
I bet you feel a little bit better with no friends,
but one, you're special and you're blessed.
See you next time.
I'm so blessed, bitches.
Yes!
