Doing my rise is part of who I am, but that's not all I am.
I have a very strong love for the cosmos, you know, nature.
It's getting a chance to sit in the ground in the soils of the earth and, you know,
hearing the world breathe, and it does something to the mind, it does something to the soul, it feeds it.
I don't question why I just feel when I'm in nature, you know, you just kind of stroll, you're just, you're just, you just be.
I think that's the best way, because if I can reiterate everything I feel, I wouldn't be able to do art, you know.
I'm going here to explore in a sense that it's not for an initiative to just say preliminary adventure.
I want to know more about other cultures, see how they interact with having art in their life.
Or better yet, you know, inspire me to feel that what I'm doing is the right path, because I never really had that.
When I was growing up, a lot of things I did were very, very different.
We didn't grow up with a lot of stuff, like we didn't have much paint.
So on hot summer days, we had this brick wall behind our house, and we had a water hose, and we found out when we put water on the bricks,
it would saturate the wall and make patterns, and it would dry up instantly because it would be so hot.
Or my dad, he was an engineer, and he had a bunch of soldering tools and wires, and I found out if we took a hammer,
I took the soldering wires and it smashed it down and made like flat patterns.
And I think, actually I'm sorry, I know that for me teaching the kids, it's something for me to explore when I was a child.
You know, giving me opportunities to have more wonder, rather than to have something for them to look at and reiterate.
I want them to be able to kind of explore that more, because there's so much joy into it, it's so much fun.
To disconnect I had my mother growing up.
It was strange because she was the only one who really raised us to have manners, proper etiquette at the table,
how you dress, and all those things that are important as a child to understand respect for your elders.
She taught us all that.
And funny enough, because the distance wasn't in that, it was the fact of not seeing her happy.
I don't think I've ever seen her happy as a kid, ever.
I don't think I've ever seen her happy.
I felt good for him.
They didn't think about it.
I didn't want to donate the money.
I already received it, there I have no words, no silhouettes, no source of shelter.
Living on, I leave the house all day.
And I'llcimento of life it on my own.
But you know, we love each other.
We love each other.
The component culture and how it relates to absence in my life growing up
was more based on affection.
Watching American sitcoms on TV, the parents would always say,
I love you, goodbye.
They would have family dinners, or they would talk out their problems.
And I guess it's fairly common, I guess, for my experience,
that the father is extremely distant.
They don't say that.
That's weird.
My mother, however, she was extremely affectionate.
But it's hard to find time again because she worked two jobs.
And she came home, did chores, she cooked and cleaned.
Got us cleaned up, put us to bed.
That was it.
In our culture, you know, you don't want to be seen as that family who you brought,
you went to the States, you had a family, and your children are deadbeats.
You don't want that on your family name.
You know, so as children, you have to almost abide by that unwritten rule.
Whatever you do, make money because you're successful
because so whenever we can see it, because our children are doing well.
I am not in any way, shape, or form, you know, mad about that.
Because we are so well-disciplined in education,
it made me more disciplined to wanting to do, to take that to do something that I really love to do,
which is finally means to make me be able to do my artwork.
That's it, and I have it feel like a job.
But be also in a job position where they feel the same way.
That's all in a blessing, but how my mother feels as of now, it's kind of strange
because I almost want her to really just understand, like,
how would you feel if I didn't have a job that could support myself?
Would she still support me?
Honestly, she will always will, but would I be considered like a failure in a family?
Yeah. Oh, they'll make it known.
They will not be quiet about that.
They will tell you, like, why aren't you doing this? Why aren't you doing that?
Why can't you be more like your brother?
We brought you into this world, and, you know, we fed you food is how you repay us.
You're bringing rubber medics to the point where you feel bad as a human being.
So, like most cases, you take the route that will appease your parents or family.
I am her only daughter, the youngest one.
When she was brought into this world, she was pre-arranged in the marriage
that she thought it was going to be loving, but it wasn't.
And so she devouted herself to wanting to have children that she could love, and that was it.
You know, even though I've gone to a path that she didn't like, but it was something I could manage to have an answer to.
You know, like, the answers I have as a child is, like, this feeling.
I don't understand, like, there's so many Western families who have children who have a choice
of whether or not they want to go to college.
And I was, I don't understand that, we didn't have a choice.
So it's that freedom to roam and be curious.
We don't have that, you know?
Even though, like, I teach creative education where the failure is something to celebrate about,
but it's one of those things, like, you can, like, a wizard can cast his own magic and all that stuff,
but he can never do it for himself.
So maybe by, like, creating success in my own way,
going towards creative education, you know, traveling around the world, like,
maybe that can give her a definition of what it could be.
Because there isn't one, and I don't know what to say to her.
Like, I think the most important thing is that I know there are other people that are out there like me.
I'm not the only one who goes through this.
And I just want to make sure they can have an answer to, you know,
I've met so many incredible people who travel and those incredible things,
and their families just let them go and do it.
And the furthest I've gone is, like, to L.A., which is great, but I'm out here so I can find answers.
I'm out here so I can learn something.
You know, when I find it, I hope people can use that answer too.
I've been waiting too long.
I've been waiting too long.
I've been waiting too long.
