I just think about my brother a lot. He wasn't the smartest. He could have been so much better.
He was a good kid. And my family don't really talk about it a lot. I just wish that I'd
done something. Because now it's like a part of me is gone.
Yeah the night it happened I was out with Melanie.
Yeah that's funny. Because we weren't really that close. We were family but that's all.
Maybe that's why you never told me anything. But how can you do something like that when
you have people who love you? You're so fucking selfish. In the same way I couldn't help them.
In the end we were all useless. No, no, no.
If you see him again what would you tell him? To not go that stupid bar. Baby cannon where the fuck it was called.
Baby gun. That was the name of the bar. We're so silly. I didn't even want to go there.
We shouldn't have. When we got out the bathroom there was a rumble. What was that vibrating noise? Boom.
It all happened so fast. The man came in. I barely saw him and then it was dark and I thought I was going to die.
People were falling everywhere. Only two of us survived. Me and a waitress.
Move. Move.
You're strong. You can do this.
Do you want to stop? No I'm fine. When I saw the explosion on the news I remember thinking it was just another guy who blew himself up.
Then I saw my brother's name. I'm so shocked. I can't believe it.
He was shocked to everyone in the family. He decided to kill all those people. What for? I can't defend him. I'm ashamed of him. He was my brother.
He was my brother.
He was my brother.
